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Stella, you caught me.

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Interesting, isn't it?

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Whenever I'm feeling lonely or rotten, I
can just rip open one of these letters

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and there it is.

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Someone's soul laid out before me. Their
darkest dreams, their hopes and their

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fears.

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I listen to this one.

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Have you ever noticed how good-looking
most of them are?

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And strong.

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And committed.

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And brave.

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October 12th.

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Dear diary, the dogs and cats were jumpy
today.

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I was too.

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It's kind of like that feeling you get
before an earthquake or a plane crash.

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Sort of a low-grade fever.

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A prickly itch underneath the skin.

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Damn.

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Even Dr. Martin was not his usual self.

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It could have been the Santa Anas.

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The full moon.

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The overall effects of global warming.

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Whatever.

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That weird feeling was getting more
palatable with each passing moment.

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The freeway was jammed on the way home,
so I got off on Sepulveda, got lost,

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and ended up on streets I never knew
existed.

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I tried to remember ever being held that
way.

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Only once, maybe.

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I was two or three, and I had the croup,
and my dad held me in his arms and

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walked back and forth.

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And even though it was late and he was
tired, he just kept walking and singing

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until the sun came up and the cough went
away.

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That night, when I finally fell asleep,
I dreamt of water

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and of fire and the fireman.

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Water.

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Sometimes I dream I'm floating in water.

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Floating with my arms outstretched with
nothing around me.

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No sound.

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Nothing.

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I woke up in the middle of the night,
covered with sweat, burning with shame.

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Most of my life, I've stayed calm and
cool by avoiding personal questions.

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Today, I had to work doubly hard not to
ask myself anything.

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And most of all, not to give any
answers.

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Come here.

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Sit down.

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You're hot.

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I... Open your mouth.

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I... Just put your head back a little
bit.

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Bet you didn't know I was a real medical
doctor, did you?

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Yeah,

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I practiced for a while.

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But I wasn't cut out for putting up with
people.

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102, we're definitely coming down with
something.

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Why don't you take the rest of the day
off?

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If you feel better, you come back
tomorrow.

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Dr. Martin gave me the day off.

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I should have gone to the library.

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But just for the heck of it, I drove by
the fire station instead.

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I was sort of like that dog that bit Dr.

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Martin.

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I just couldn't let go.

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Still, questions kept crowding into my
head.

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Like, was there ever a time when I felt
what he was feeling?

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Proud and strong and totally triumphant.

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Had I ever run like the wind?

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Had I ever known danger?

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Had I ever taken a step into the
unknown?

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When was the last time I was close
enough to fire to get burned?

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October 14th.

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Dear diary, last night was no different
from the night before.

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Dreams of water.

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Dreams of fire.

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Dreams of the fireman.

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Over and over again.

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Hello?

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Hello, Dr. Mudd.

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Yes, still.

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I'll just lay low for a while.

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Thank you for your concern.

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No more questions.

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Only answers, unwanted, unexpected, came
flooding down

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on me.

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The last time I was dizzy was when I was
five and blindfolded and someone was

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spinning me around to pin the tail on
the donkey.

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The last time I faced the danger of the
unknown was when I was six and my sister

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dared me to go down into the fruit
cellar without a flashlight.

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The last time I got close enough to get
burned by fire was when I was eight.

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and I was lighting Christmas candles.

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Have I seen you before?

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The library.

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The vegetarian restaurant over on Pinko.

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Saturday afternoon Bible.

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You take care, okay?

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place for a nice girl like you to be
alone.

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Dreams of water.

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Dreams of fire.

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Maybe it was the fever that made me do
it.

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I don't know.

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I wondered how many people were making
love at that same time.

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Thousands and thousands.

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Millions, maybe.

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Mouths together.

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Bodies together.

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Hearts beating in time.

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Two people together in restaurants and
restrooms and beds and cars.

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On couches and under tables.

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On park benches.

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In bushes under the stars.

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Am I the only one alone?

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The other day... Yeah?

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When you were talking about how you
weren't cut out for treating people and

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you liked animals instead.

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Yeah.

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Well, I was wondering why.

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Well, first of all, animals don't bite
as hard as people do.

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Their scars don't take so long to heal.

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You know what I mean?

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And second of all, animals don't talk
back.

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Who do they shame?

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Don't you sometimes wish they did?

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I mean, wouldn't it be nice if Sam could
tell you what's bothering him?

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I mean, it'd be so simple if you could
just say, how are you doing, Sam? And he

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could say, well, I've got a sharp pain
in my heart.

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But you don't look sick.

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You look different.

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You look good.

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That's two blocks away.

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Dreams of water.

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Dreams of fire.

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I thought about my life stretching ahead
like a desert.

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No hearts on fire for me.

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No glaze of glory.

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That's the trouble with deserts.

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Just heat waves and hills that all look
alike.

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You climb one hill and there's another.

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And pretty soon you're saying, I don't
know if I can keep this up.

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Something's gotta give.

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dreams of water, dreams of fire, dreams
of the

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fireman.

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Dreams of water.

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Dreams of fire.

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Dreams of the fireman.

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Over and over again.

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This must have been what I was sensing
all along.

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Not an earthquake or the ozone breakup
or the riots or the global warming,

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but something breaking and quaking and
rioting and warming inside of me.

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Like I had no idea I was a peeping Tom.

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Or a voyeur.

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Or a hypochondriac, for that matter.

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But I was.

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And that surprised me.

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And pleased me.

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And made me happy.

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And I figured there was no place else to
go.

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And nothing left to do.

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And I couldn't stop myself.

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And so I did the craziest thing of all.

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I, uh...

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I know it's early, and I know it sounds
crazy, but I just... No, I don't want

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you to be alarmed.

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My fever seems to be gone.

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I'm feeling fine, I just... I'm sorry
for waking you.

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I just... I was thinking... I mean, I
was wondering...

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I mean, I was hoping maybe...

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Do you want to talk?

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Well, that's one way to go about getting
what you want, Stella.

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Fighting fire with fire.

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What do you think, Stella?

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Good work?