1 00:00:48,940 --> 00:00:49,940 this, Stella? 2 00:00:50,140 --> 00:00:51,520 Someone sent us their lunch. 3 00:00:54,080 --> 00:00:55,220 Not your lunch. 4 00:01:00,140 --> 00:01:03,660 Dear Red Shoes, want to stop feeling sorry for yourself? 5 00:01:05,480 --> 00:01:06,480 Yeah. 6 00:01:07,040 --> 00:01:09,320 You should take a leaf from my grandmother's book. 7 00:01:09,980 --> 00:01:13,040 We got a letter from her at Christmas saying she missed us desperately. 8 00:01:13,760 --> 00:01:16,760 The next thing I knew, I was taking a leave of absence from work. 9 00:01:17,230 --> 00:01:18,710 And I was on a plane to Rio. 10 00:01:25,930 --> 00:01:29,770 The last few years of my life had been completely regimented. 11 00:01:31,170 --> 00:01:32,170 Work. 12 00:01:32,410 --> 00:01:33,410 School. 13 00:01:34,370 --> 00:01:35,990 Work. Work. 14 00:01:38,230 --> 00:01:43,290 On the way to see my grandmother, I did something I hadn't done in a long time. 15 00:01:44,610 --> 00:01:45,950 I wrote in my diary. 16 00:01:47,240 --> 00:01:48,820 Just let my mind drift. 17 00:01:51,720 --> 00:01:54,840 It's been so long since I'd fantasized about anything. 18 00:01:57,240 --> 00:02:00,280 Thoughts of endless nights. 19 00:02:02,580 --> 00:02:03,580 Thoughts of men. 20 00:02:05,980 --> 00:02:07,240 Thoughts of a man. 21 00:02:07,560 --> 00:02:10,259 A stranger. 22 00:02:30,060 --> 00:02:31,060 Thoughts of surrender. 23 00:02:33,680 --> 00:02:34,760 Thoughts of abandon. 24 00:02:37,060 --> 00:02:40,460 Of a night of complete and utter abandon. 25 00:02:54,560 --> 00:02:58,920 Any apprehension I had about actually taking a little time off for myself, 26 00:03:00,080 --> 00:03:02,660 completely dispelled the moment I saw my grandmother. 27 00:03:04,120 --> 00:03:05,480 My grandmother. 28 00:03:06,460 --> 00:03:09,940 With her heart full of love and her beautiful smile. 29 00:03:13,940 --> 00:03:16,240 To her, every day was a miracle. 30 00:03:17,340 --> 00:03:19,460 She was 80 going on 35. 31 00:03:21,100 --> 00:03:22,780 So filled with spirit. 32 00:03:23,360 --> 00:03:25,060 I couldn't get enough of her. 33 00:04:24,270 --> 00:04:28,410 On New Year's Eve, she insisted that we take her to the beach to join the rest 34 00:04:28,410 --> 00:04:33,090 of Brazil making their annual offering to Imanja, the goddess of the sea. 35 00:04:43,190 --> 00:04:47,490 When my grandmother realized I hadn't brought an offering for Imanja, she 36 00:04:47,490 --> 00:04:48,650 commandeered my purse. 37 00:04:49,470 --> 00:04:53,940 Finding nothing appropriate in it, She ripped out a few of the pages from my 38 00:04:53,940 --> 00:04:56,040 diary and sealed them in a plastic bag. 39 00:04:56,900 --> 00:04:59,020 I protested, but it did no good. 40 00:04:59,580 --> 00:05:01,180 A diary, she shouted. 41 00:05:01,680 --> 00:05:03,800 It's a new year. You don't need it anymore. 42 00:05:04,640 --> 00:05:07,080 What's better to give Imanja than your secrets? 43 00:05:07,980 --> 00:05:10,020 Give Imanja your secrets, she said. 44 00:05:10,220 --> 00:05:13,160 And if she sees fit, all your dreams will come true. 45 00:05:38,830 --> 00:05:44,130 They say if Umanji keeps your offering, if it drifts out to sea, your dreams 46 00:05:44,130 --> 00:05:45,130 will come true. 47 00:05:45,890 --> 00:05:50,830 But if it returns to the shore, you're in for a whole year of bad luck. 48 00:06:28,720 --> 00:06:32,380 If my grandmother only knew the secret she had offered to Imanja. 49 00:06:37,820 --> 00:06:39,460 If she only knew. 50 00:08:28,860 --> 00:08:31,000 I don't understand a thing. 51 00:09:18,709 --> 00:09:23,530 Anyway, to make a long story short, come the end of February 52 00:09:25,370 --> 00:09:28,830 Lent. The full moon and the beginning of Carnival. 53 00:09:30,070 --> 00:09:32,490 Yep, you guessed it. 54 00:09:32,990 --> 00:09:34,370 I was still in Rio. 55 00:10:37,320 --> 00:10:38,560 You are really like a flower. 56 00:10:41,320 --> 00:10:43,540 Your lips are the shape of mine. 57 00:10:46,680 --> 00:10:52,600 You have my skin, my breast, my stomach. 58 00:10:54,420 --> 00:11:01,280 And beneath them, just under the surface, you have my spirit. 59 00:11:11,310 --> 00:11:13,030 You're not going to dance, are you? 60 00:11:55,850 --> 00:11:58,190 Thank you. 61 00:15:03,880 --> 00:15:08,760 Imanja, I don't understand. 62 00:15:17,940 --> 00:15:24,800 Can anyone 63 00:15:24,800 --> 00:15:25,800 help me, please? 64 00:15:26,040 --> 00:15:28,040 Can anyone speak English here? 65 00:15:28,400 --> 00:15:31,200 I don't understand what you're saying, Imanja. 66 00:15:31,760 --> 00:15:33,000 Imanjá, I don't understand. 67 00:15:35,980 --> 00:15:37,040 Somebody, please. 68 00:15:37,400 --> 00:15:38,960 Does somebody speak English? 69 00:15:39,280 --> 00:15:40,280 Yes. 70 00:15:40,840 --> 00:15:45,300 Yes, I speak English. Can I help you? Yes, I don't speak Portuguese. 71 00:15:45,800 --> 00:15:48,080 Can you ask him what he's trying to say? 72 00:16:01,290 --> 00:16:06,930 He said he's sorry, but he can't give you what Yemanjá asks him to give you. 73 00:16:07,590 --> 00:16:08,610 Yemanjá told 74 00:16:08,610 --> 00:16:15,970 him 75 00:16:15,970 --> 00:16:19,870 what you want, but he says he can't do it. 76 00:16:24,250 --> 00:16:28,710 He says he can't believe. 77 00:16:29,420 --> 00:16:33,500 What his friend translated from the word you wrote. 78 00:16:38,760 --> 00:16:40,460 Where did you find it? 79 00:16:54,160 --> 00:16:56,420 That's bullshit. 80 00:16:59,080 --> 00:17:00,500 Where he found my diary. 81 00:17:11,460 --> 00:17:18,319 You are too beautiful and he's ashamed to do what you want. 82 00:17:30,659 --> 00:17:33,700 That for him, slow is better. 83 00:17:34,900 --> 00:17:38,060 To kiss your thighs is better. 84 00:17:38,640 --> 00:17:40,420 Kiss the back of your neck. 85 00:17:47,860 --> 00:17:49,720 Abandon comes slowly. 86 00:17:50,980 --> 00:17:53,200 Women need time to lose control. 87 00:17:59,850 --> 00:18:02,670 It's because you're thinking about it. 88 00:18:03,190 --> 00:18:08,590 And you think about it because, in reality, you want it. 89 00:18:10,530 --> 00:18:16,790 Ted, if something is in your head and you write it down, then you want it, 90 00:18:16,790 --> 00:18:19,130 even if you're not sure you want it. 91 00:18:20,010 --> 00:18:26,990 People take advantage of all this carnival to make their fantasies 92 00:18:26,990 --> 00:18:28,370 and be able to do... 93 00:18:31,810 --> 00:18:33,430 He says, look around. 94 00:18:33,730 --> 00:18:38,610 He says carnival is a way to let your fantasies free. 95 00:18:39,450 --> 00:18:43,550 And carnival is an excuse for people to do what they're not supposed to do. 96 00:26:55,720 --> 00:26:58,480 How could I ever explain what happened to my grandmother? 97 00:27:00,120 --> 00:27:03,660 He'd been swimming and seen my offering laying on the floor of the ocean. 98 00:27:21,660 --> 00:27:24,140 I should have known I wouldn't have to explain. 99 00:27:26,540 --> 00:27:30,660 The moment my grandmother saw me, I could see in her eyes that she knew 100 00:27:30,660 --> 00:27:31,920 exactly what had happened. 101 00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:53,220 I saw your ad while I was back in L.A. 102 00:27:54,090 --> 00:27:58,050 packing to move permanently to Brazil and thought that it might help you make 103 00:27:58,050 --> 00:28:00,430 sense out of whatever you're trying to make sense out of. 104 00:28:02,130 --> 00:28:05,790 What I'm trying to say is there is such a thing as magic. 105 00:28:08,450 --> 00:28:09,450 What do you think of that?