1 00:01:29,322 --> 00:01:30,322 You want salsa? 2 00:02:27,746 --> 00:02:28,746 Ooh! Hey! 3 00:02:28,781 --> 00:02:30,048 Sorry! What the hell? 4 00:02:30,182 --> 00:02:31,182 Watch where you're going. 5 00:02:31,251 --> 00:02:32,251 Like, what is she doing? 6 00:02:57,510 --> 00:02:59,778 Madison Maddie Ralph! You're late. 7 00:02:59,945 --> 00:03:01,014 Would you hush, 8 00:03:01,180 --> 00:03:02,691 and make sure no one comes through that door? 9 00:03:02,715 --> 00:03:04,783 I'm half naked. I got you. 10 00:03:04,950 --> 00:03:06,986 Thanks, Deena. 11 00:03:09,889 --> 00:03:12,224 So, what's your excuse? You sleep through your alarm, 12 00:03:12,391 --> 00:03:13,792 your hubby have some morning wood 13 00:03:13,959 --> 00:03:14,959 that needed servicing? 14 00:03:14,994 --> 00:03:16,595 Oh, my God. 15 00:03:16,795 --> 00:03:18,664 Deena, it's not even ten o'clock 16 00:03:18,831 --> 00:03:20,271 and you're already talking about sex. 17 00:03:20,433 --> 00:03:22,410 Yeah, well, you were supposed to be here at 09:00 a.m. 18 00:03:22,434 --> 00:03:24,803 to help me prep ingredients for Her Majesty's video. 19 00:03:24,970 --> 00:03:26,839 So, yeah, I'm a little hot and bothered. 20 00:03:27,006 --> 00:03:28,273 Emphasis on "bothered." 21 00:03:28,440 --> 00:03:29,975 I'm really, really sorry, Deena. 22 00:03:30,142 --> 00:03:32,211 You know I'm never late, but on my run over here, 23 00:03:32,378 --> 00:03:33,738 I got totally distracted by an idea 24 00:03:33,880 --> 00:03:35,014 for a new dish. 25 00:03:35,181 --> 00:03:36,461 Maddie Ralph, when will you learn 26 00:03:36,615 --> 00:03:38,851 to stay in your place? The only dishes that you need 27 00:03:39,018 --> 00:03:40,162 to be thinking about are the ones 28 00:03:40,186 --> 00:03:41,520 that need washing. 29 00:03:41,687 --> 00:03:43,522 Today, I'll be making cacio e pe... 30 00:03:47,427 --> 00:03:49,028 I guess we'll have to take that again. 31 00:03:49,195 --> 00:03:50,355 All right, everybody, settle. 32 00:03:50,429 --> 00:03:53,399 I'll take my own action, Kyle, in five, four... 33 00:03:54,200 --> 00:03:55,200 Hi, everyone. 34 00:03:55,301 --> 00:03:57,369 Welcome to the GourMaybe Test Kitchen. 35 00:03:57,536 --> 00:03:59,271 I'm Emily Brown, but you know that. 36 00:03:59,438 --> 00:04:02,908 And today, I'll be making cacio e pepe balls. 37 00:04:03,075 --> 00:04:06,044 So, this new dish idea of yours must be pretty special 38 00:04:06,211 --> 00:04:07,880 to make teacher's pet so tardy. 39 00:04:08,047 --> 00:04:09,849 It's kind of my take on the smash burger. 40 00:04:10,016 --> 00:04:12,184 Vegetarian, of course. It's a little Mexican, 41 00:04:12,318 --> 00:04:13,319 a little Filipino... Hmm. 42 00:04:13,486 --> 00:04:16,021 A little, well, me. Sounds amazing. 43 00:04:16,188 --> 00:04:17,856 Like, well, you. 44 00:04:18,023 --> 00:04:21,627 When I was jogging over here, Los Angeles was speaking to me. 45 00:04:21,794 --> 00:04:23,262 The sun, the street vendors, 46 00:04:23,429 --> 00:04:24,909 all the crazy stuff going on right now 47 00:04:25,063 --> 00:04:26,265 in graphic design. 48 00:04:26,398 --> 00:04:28,734 And then I smelled the most beautiful jasmine bush, 49 00:04:28,901 --> 00:04:30,269 and it all came together. 50 00:04:30,436 --> 00:04:32,238 And then what, a bird landed on your shoulder, 51 00:04:32,404 --> 00:04:33,848 and you sang together in perfect harmony? 52 00:04:33,872 --> 00:04:35,675 I swear to God, Maddie, 53 00:04:35,875 --> 00:04:37,835 it's like you're out of some modernday fairy tale. 54 00:04:37,976 --> 00:04:38,976 You're perfect. 55 00:04:39,078 --> 00:04:40,779 Trust me, Deena, I'm anything but. 56 00:04:42,548 --> 00:04:44,684 Oh, smash me a burger Between two soft buns 57 00:04:46,418 --> 00:04:48,521 Oh, my God. Would you shut up? 58 00:04:48,688 --> 00:04:50,265 Don't you have some balls to handle, Emily? 59 00:04:50,289 --> 00:04:51,769 What would you know about balls, dyke? 60 00:04:54,259 --> 00:04:57,630 Play nice. We've got content to make. 61 00:05:02,635 --> 00:05:04,637 All right, everybody, settle. 62 00:05:08,574 --> 00:05:11,377 Hey! I want this place sparkling by tomorrow morning, okay? 63 00:05:11,544 --> 00:05:13,445 Sir, yes, sir. Of course, Zach. 64 00:05:13,612 --> 00:05:14,914 Emily, you leaving? 65 00:05:15,081 --> 00:05:16,516 You want me to walk you to your car? 66 00:05:17,916 --> 00:05:18,918 Oops. 67 00:05:19,919 --> 00:05:21,353 I somehow missed these. 68 00:05:23,923 --> 00:05:25,457 What? You're hilarious. 69 00:05:25,624 --> 00:05:29,362 I know. 70 00:05:32,731 --> 00:05:33,999 "Would you two shut up?" 71 00:05:38,670 --> 00:05:41,274 I don't get it. What does she have against me? 72 00:05:41,407 --> 00:05:43,709 You're better looking and you're better at cooking. 73 00:05:43,876 --> 00:05:46,111 Deena, she may be a little mean to me sometimes, 74 00:05:46,278 --> 00:05:48,113 but Emily Brown is a genius chef, 75 00:05:48,280 --> 00:05:51,684 and a total badass. And you're a saint. 76 00:05:51,850 --> 00:05:53,519 Thanks for the ride, Deena. 77 00:05:57,123 --> 00:05:59,892 Oh, Deena, the door's stuck. Oh, sorry. 78 00:06:00,059 --> 00:06:02,128 There you go. 79 00:06:02,294 --> 00:06:03,395 Thanks. 80 00:06:04,063 --> 00:06:06,065 Oh, sorry, sorry. It's still... 81 00:06:06,231 --> 00:06:07,231 There it is. 82 00:06:07,300 --> 00:06:08,601 It's a little finicky. 83 00:06:08,768 --> 00:06:09,836 Good night. 84 00:06:10,036 --> 00:06:12,505 Good night. 85 00:06:16,675 --> 00:06:17,710 Hey, Maddie! 86 00:06:18,611 --> 00:06:21,080 Don't you ever get tired of being such a good girl? 87 00:06:22,014 --> 00:06:24,684 No. 88 00:06:36,395 --> 00:06:39,531 Thirteen... 14... 89 00:06:39,698 --> 00:06:41,801 Hi, Jake. 90 00:06:42,001 --> 00:06:45,003 Hello, my beautiful wife. How was work? 91 00:06:45,170 --> 00:06:46,872 Emily chewed my head off again. 92 00:06:47,039 --> 00:06:49,574 Have you eaten anything yet? 93 00:06:49,741 --> 00:06:51,743 I had some candy and some chips. 94 00:06:51,910 --> 00:06:53,579 That's not food, Jake. 95 00:06:53,746 --> 00:06:55,814 So, how did I eat it? You'll eat anything. 96 00:06:56,014 --> 00:06:57,450 I'll eat whatever's in front of me. 97 00:06:57,616 --> 00:07:00,085 Can I make you some real food? 98 00:07:00,252 --> 00:07:02,655 After, after. Come here. 99 00:07:03,956 --> 00:07:05,166 Did we throw away that mango pickle 100 00:07:05,190 --> 00:07:06,392 from the Indian we ordered? No. 101 00:07:06,559 --> 00:07:07,793 And do we still have eggplant? 102 00:07:07,960 --> 00:07:09,662 You most certainly do. 103 00:07:09,829 --> 00:07:11,730 Very funny, Jake. 104 00:07:12,231 --> 00:07:14,066 I need to go try something in the kitchen. 105 00:07:18,203 --> 00:07:24,810 Sensual. 106 00:07:24,977 --> 00:07:26,312 What are you doing? 107 00:07:26,479 --> 00:07:27,656 What does it look like I'm doing? 108 00:07:27,680 --> 00:07:29,614 Filming me without my consent. 109 00:07:29,781 --> 00:07:32,117 I'm not gonna post it, but you could. 110 00:07:32,284 --> 00:07:33,285 Jake. 111 00:07:33,785 --> 00:07:37,223 Maddie, I'm hungry. What's next? 112 00:07:39,525 --> 00:07:43,228 Well, I'm essentially making a tortang talong, 113 00:07:43,395 --> 00:07:45,931 which is one of my favorite Filipino dishes. 114 00:07:46,098 --> 00:07:48,167 It's kind of like an eggplant omelet. 115 00:07:48,333 --> 00:07:50,803 This is so stupid. No, it's not. 116 00:07:50,970 --> 00:07:53,338 You have no idea how ravishing you look, Maddie. 117 00:07:53,972 --> 00:07:56,776 Likely story. Keep going. 118 00:07:59,445 --> 00:08:02,682 The key to maximum flavor, like with the smash burger, 119 00:08:02,848 --> 00:08:04,183 is, well... 120 00:08:05,451 --> 00:08:06,486 smashing. 121 00:08:10,957 --> 00:08:13,125 I'm just gonna dredge it in some egg. 122 00:08:13,726 --> 00:08:14,794 This dish does have 123 00:08:14,961 --> 00:08:17,663 major breakfast sandwichy hangover vibes. 124 00:08:20,867 --> 00:08:23,970 And then I'm gonna throw that in a pan on medium high, 125 00:08:24,136 --> 00:08:26,906 and almost baste it in more of that egg mixture. 126 00:08:29,442 --> 00:08:31,877 Whenever I edit food content, 127 00:08:32,044 --> 00:08:33,645 the clients always ask me to make cuts 128 00:08:33,812 --> 00:08:35,314 right after the loudest sounds. 129 00:08:35,481 --> 00:08:36,481 Mmhmm. 130 00:08:38,184 --> 00:08:39,185 What's wrong, baby? 131 00:08:40,719 --> 00:08:42,821 I just wanted to make my husband some dinner, 132 00:08:42,988 --> 00:08:44,590 and now, I'm in postproduction. 133 00:08:44,757 --> 00:08:46,391 I thought this was your dream, 134 00:08:46,558 --> 00:08:50,028 to be the vegetarian Nigella, or the millennial Alice Waters. 135 00:08:50,195 --> 00:08:54,132 I'm passionate about food, Jake, not social media. 136 00:08:54,700 --> 00:08:56,502 You have a gift, Maddie, okay? 137 00:08:56,669 --> 00:08:57,913 And you should share it with the world. 138 00:08:57,937 --> 00:08:59,505 Do you wanna be a dishwasher forever? 139 00:08:59,672 --> 00:09:01,540 Do you want Emily to win? 140 00:09:01,706 --> 00:09:03,609 I'll work my way up to the kitchen like she did, 141 00:09:03,776 --> 00:09:06,245 like all my heroes did. This is cheating. 142 00:09:06,745 --> 00:09:08,914 Well, I wanna fix our roof, okay? 143 00:09:09,481 --> 00:09:10,601 I wanna have a kid with you, 144 00:09:10,750 --> 00:09:12,230 and be able to put it through college. 145 00:09:12,384 --> 00:09:14,152 Me too, Jake. You know that. 146 00:09:14,319 --> 00:09:15,621 Then what is this really about? 147 00:09:17,423 --> 00:09:18,423 I don't... 148 00:09:20,892 --> 00:09:22,361 I don't like the way I look. 149 00:09:23,762 --> 00:09:24,764 Are you kidding me? 150 00:09:27,032 --> 00:09:29,768 That girl right there is a knockout, Maddie, okay? 151 00:09:29,935 --> 00:09:32,404 That girl right there is beautiful. 152 00:09:32,905 --> 00:09:35,508 If by beautiful, you mean puffy, then yeah, 153 00:09:35,641 --> 00:09:37,276 I guess I'm beautiful. 154 00:09:38,344 --> 00:09:41,446 You sound like your mother. 155 00:09:42,080 --> 00:09:44,917 Fuck it. Since when do you curse? 156 00:09:45,084 --> 00:09:47,353 I'll post it tonight. 157 00:09:47,987 --> 00:09:49,354 I'll post it right now. 158 00:09:49,521 --> 00:09:50,622 That's my girl. Come here. 159 00:09:50,789 --> 00:09:51,789 No! 160 00:09:51,823 --> 00:09:54,359 Six hundred thousand views. 161 00:09:54,526 --> 00:09:57,262 What do you mean? Six hundred thousand people 162 00:09:57,429 --> 00:10:00,099 and a few bots shared the video you posted last night. 163 00:10:00,266 --> 00:10:02,234 I... I don't believe you. 164 00:10:02,401 --> 00:10:04,003 You're crazy. 165 00:10:04,203 --> 00:10:05,537 I'm not crazy. 166 00:10:05,671 --> 00:10:07,673 That's a six followed by five zeros. 167 00:10:09,608 --> 00:10:11,243 Don't tell me you didn't look. 168 00:10:11,410 --> 00:10:12,812 I try to stay off that app. 169 00:10:12,978 --> 00:10:14,580 Let me guess, you don't have a TV either? 170 00:10:14,747 --> 00:10:16,214 Oh, my God, Maddie. 171 00:10:16,381 --> 00:10:19,085 Jake said the video was doing well, 172 00:10:19,251 --> 00:10:21,587 but not that well. What does Jake know? 173 00:10:21,754 --> 00:10:23,022 A lot about editing, mind you. 174 00:10:23,189 --> 00:10:25,100 And he knows all the tricks to keep people in a stupor 175 00:10:25,124 --> 00:10:26,267 on their phones. It's his job. 176 00:10:26,291 --> 00:10:27,493 It's not Jake's editing 177 00:10:27,660 --> 00:10:29,161 people are responding to, Maddie, 178 00:10:29,328 --> 00:10:30,829 it's you. It's the food. 179 00:10:30,996 --> 00:10:32,298 The food that you cooked. 180 00:10:32,465 --> 00:10:33,765 Why won't you let yourself 181 00:10:33,932 --> 00:10:34,932 be excited about this? 182 00:10:35,001 --> 00:10:37,302 I guess I just don't believe it yet. 183 00:10:37,469 --> 00:10:39,104 Then you better start believing it. 184 00:10:39,271 --> 00:10:41,940 Six hundred thousand people see what I see in you. 185 00:10:42,107 --> 00:10:43,609 I told you I'm not crazy. 186 00:10:54,519 --> 00:10:56,355 Oh, my God. 187 00:11:03,362 --> 00:11:04,362 Well, well, well. 188 00:11:04,529 --> 00:11:06,031 Looks like our little dishwasher's 189 00:11:06,198 --> 00:11:07,500 all grown up. 190 00:11:07,666 --> 00:11:09,602 Deena, am I in... Maddie Ralph! 191 00:11:10,136 --> 00:11:14,539 My office! Now! Trouble? 192 00:11:14,673 --> 00:11:15,917 When you were hired at GourMaybe, 193 00:11:15,941 --> 00:11:17,519 you signed a contract. Do you remember that? 194 00:11:17,543 --> 00:11:18,643 Uh, I... I think so. 195 00:11:18,810 --> 00:11:20,121 Why don't you go ahead and read some 196 00:11:20,145 --> 00:11:21,513 of the highlighted clauses here? 197 00:11:21,680 --> 00:11:23,649 Page three, paragraph seven. Um... 198 00:11:24,750 --> 00:11:25,818 "All staff are prohibited 199 00:11:25,984 --> 00:11:27,719 from posting original foodrelated content 200 00:11:27,886 --> 00:11:29,555 to their personal social media accounts 201 00:11:29,722 --> 00:11:31,223 unless vetted by, or in collaboration 202 00:11:31,390 --> 00:11:32,991 with GourMaybe Media Incorporated." 203 00:11:33,158 --> 00:11:35,160 But I'm just a dishwasher. Keep reading! 204 00:11:35,327 --> 00:11:37,696 "Any recipe developed by staff while employed at GourMaybe 205 00:11:37,863 --> 00:11:39,532 is automatically owned and copyrighted 206 00:11:39,699 --> 00:11:41,200 by GourMaybe Media Incorporated." 207 00:11:41,366 --> 00:11:43,501 Take it. I don't care. As long as I can keep my job. 208 00:11:43,668 --> 00:11:45,012 Delete it from your personal account 209 00:11:45,036 --> 00:11:46,305 immediately! Of course. 210 00:11:46,472 --> 00:11:48,941 So that we can release it as a GourMaybe digital original. 211 00:11:50,242 --> 00:11:51,242 Okay. 212 00:11:52,110 --> 00:11:54,112 I'm sure Emily will do a great job with it. 213 00:11:54,312 --> 00:11:59,018 No, Maddie. We want you to be in the video. 214 00:11:59,585 --> 00:12:00,719 What? 215 00:12:00,886 --> 00:12:02,463 How would you like to be a recipe developer 216 00:12:02,487 --> 00:12:03,522 here at GourMaybe? 217 00:12:06,725 --> 00:12:08,693 Attention! Ladies and gentlemen, 218 00:12:08,860 --> 00:12:11,263 I'd like to announce the newest GourMaybe chef, 219 00:12:11,429 --> 00:12:14,966 and oncamera talent, Maddie Ralph, right? 220 00:12:15,133 --> 00:12:16,802 Come on! 221 00:12:16,968 --> 00:12:19,972 Right? Can you believe it? 222 00:12:31,249 --> 00:12:35,387 Jake! Jake! Hey, baby, what's up? 223 00:12:35,554 --> 00:12:36,874 They're bumping me up to oncamera. 224 00:12:36,955 --> 00:12:38,289 What? 225 00:12:38,456 --> 00:12:39,701 I'm gonna get to make my own recipes 226 00:12:39,725 --> 00:12:40,925 and share them with the world. 227 00:12:40,993 --> 00:12:43,529 I'm gonna get a salary and a big one at that. 228 00:12:43,996 --> 00:12:46,464 We can have a kid. I'm a GourMaybe girl. 229 00:12:46,631 --> 00:12:49,167 It goes like this, okay? 230 00:12:49,768 --> 00:12:53,238 My girl, then GourMaybe girl. Come here. 231 00:12:58,610 --> 00:13:01,847 Um, I should... I should probably call my mom, 232 00:13:02,013 --> 00:13:04,783 and tell her the good news. Okay. 233 00:13:04,950 --> 00:13:06,151 I'm gonna go take a shower. 234 00:13:06,318 --> 00:13:08,454 Unless you want me there for moral support. 235 00:13:08,621 --> 00:13:10,101 No, no, no. You go rinse off, sweetie. 236 00:13:10,256 --> 00:13:11,456 I'll be okay. Okay. 237 00:13:11,623 --> 00:13:14,159 I'm so proud of you. Thank you. 238 00:13:14,826 --> 00:13:17,563 Man. So cool. 239 00:13:29,641 --> 00:13:31,210 Hey, Siri? Uhhuh? 240 00:13:31,943 --> 00:13:32,978 Call Mom. 241 00:13:35,613 --> 00:13:36,858 It wasn't the normal feeling of intuition. 242 00:13:36,882 --> 00:13:38,884 It was... something colder. 243 00:13:46,958 --> 00:13:48,127 Yeah. 244 00:13:48,394 --> 00:13:49,595 Hey, Mom. How you doing? 245 00:13:49,762 --> 00:13:51,496 Is black mold real? 246 00:13:52,063 --> 00:13:55,067 I... I... I think so. 247 00:13:55,234 --> 00:13:57,235 The landlord sent these two boys over 248 00:13:57,435 --> 00:13:59,204 with their little detector thingies. 249 00:13:59,371 --> 00:14:02,240 I think it's a racket. I smoked them out anyway. 250 00:14:02,808 --> 00:14:05,143 One of them kept staring at my tits. 251 00:14:05,310 --> 00:14:07,345 The other one was shaking like a leaf. 252 00:14:07,512 --> 00:14:08,512 Uhhuh. 253 00:14:09,314 --> 00:14:11,316 Well, um, in terms of how I'm doing, 254 00:14:11,483 --> 00:14:12,617 I just wanted to call 255 00:14:12,784 --> 00:14:14,162 and tell you some pretty exciting news. 256 00:14:14,186 --> 00:14:16,087 Oh, golly gee, what is it? 257 00:14:16,254 --> 00:14:17,856 They're making me a recipe developer 258 00:14:18,023 --> 00:14:19,491 at GourMaybe. 259 00:14:19,658 --> 00:14:21,060 I don't know what that means. 260 00:14:21,226 --> 00:14:22,627 Well, it... it means I'll get 261 00:14:22,794 --> 00:14:25,531 a pretty big raise. Oh, no fair. 262 00:14:25,697 --> 00:14:27,642 And they're gonna put me in their digital originals, 263 00:14:27,666 --> 00:14:31,203 which are really very popular. Oof. 264 00:14:32,270 --> 00:14:33,338 What, Mom? 265 00:14:34,005 --> 00:14:35,106 Oh, you know what they say. 266 00:14:35,273 --> 00:14:37,376 The camera adds ten pounds. 267 00:14:46,919 --> 00:14:48,195 You know how many years it took me 268 00:14:48,219 --> 00:14:49,499 to get over my disorder, Mother? 269 00:14:49,588 --> 00:14:51,056 Please don't talk to me like that. 270 00:14:51,223 --> 00:14:52,424 I mean, these things 271 00:14:52,557 --> 00:14:54,260 never really go away, do they, dear? 272 00:14:58,063 --> 00:14:59,965 I should probably go cook dinner for Jake. 273 00:15:00,833 --> 00:15:03,836 Aw, aren't you lucky to have a man around. 274 00:15:05,604 --> 00:15:07,872 Goodbye, Mom. I love you. 275 00:15:08,039 --> 00:15:11,377 Ah, this damn knee. 276 00:15:47,345 --> 00:15:48,613 I'm hungry. 277 00:15:49,147 --> 00:15:51,216 I think we're out of that small batch white miso. 278 00:15:51,750 --> 00:15:53,418 I'll order us some Fig and Mortar. 279 00:15:53,918 --> 00:15:55,487 Get a bottle of natty wine. 280 00:15:55,987 --> 00:15:57,488 We gotta celebrate your promotion. 281 00:15:57,989 --> 00:15:59,558 No, no, I'm happy to cook. 282 00:16:00,659 --> 00:16:01,961 What'd she say this time? 283 00:16:04,162 --> 00:16:05,162 She just... 284 00:16:06,131 --> 00:16:08,499 She just couldn't be happy for me, that's all. 285 00:16:08,666 --> 00:16:10,769 Baby, come here, come here. 286 00:16:11,669 --> 00:16:14,006 Come here. 287 00:16:47,005 --> 00:16:48,005 No. 288 00:17:07,559 --> 00:17:12,231 Oh, my God. 289 00:17:13,231 --> 00:17:14,633 Oh, my God. 290 00:17:16,568 --> 00:17:19,738 Fuck me, Jake. Fuck me, Jake. 291 00:17:32,184 --> 00:17:34,285 God damn it, Maddie. I'm close already. 292 00:17:34,452 --> 00:17:36,587 You want me to pull out? No. No! 293 00:17:46,999 --> 00:17:50,535 Oh, fuck. Maddie! That's a good girl! 294 00:17:50,702 --> 00:17:52,370 That's a good girl! 295 00:17:52,537 --> 00:17:55,773 You're perfect. 296 00:18:10,121 --> 00:18:16,395 Mm! Oh, my God. The mangoSriracha aioli. Mm. 297 00:18:17,395 --> 00:18:19,598 And the crispy jasmine rice trio 298 00:18:20,098 --> 00:18:22,334 adds just the right amount of crunch. 299 00:18:23,769 --> 00:18:25,737 And I don't miss the meat. 300 00:18:27,739 --> 00:18:29,708 Feel good, Maddie? I think so. 301 00:18:29,874 --> 00:18:31,310 Then that's a cut. 302 00:18:31,476 --> 00:18:34,146 And that's a wrap on Maddie's first GourMaybe video! 303 00:18:34,313 --> 00:18:36,882 Yeah! 304 00:18:37,049 --> 00:18:40,418 You're a natural, Maddie. You tore, you ate. 305 00:18:40,585 --> 00:18:42,153 Oh, thanks, Kyle. 306 00:18:42,320 --> 00:18:43,621 Oh, she ate all right. 307 00:18:44,189 --> 00:18:45,469 Didn't your mother ever teach you 308 00:18:45,524 --> 00:18:47,259 not to speak with your mouth full? 309 00:18:48,192 --> 00:18:49,360 Jesus fucking Christ, Zach, 310 00:18:49,527 --> 00:18:51,096 you need to order some small aprons. 311 00:18:51,729 --> 00:18:52,731 For me, at least. 312 00:18:52,898 --> 00:18:54,366 Get me to three million subscribers, 313 00:18:54,533 --> 00:18:56,201 and then we'll talk. 314 00:18:58,803 --> 00:19:01,173 So, you basically input all your trauma, 315 00:19:01,340 --> 00:19:03,108 and it links you up with a therapist. 316 00:19:03,275 --> 00:19:04,976 And it's all over FaceTime? 317 00:19:05,143 --> 00:19:06,912 I, like, don't even leave my bed. 318 00:19:07,379 --> 00:19:08,939 Does it help with executive functioning? 319 00:19:09,013 --> 00:19:11,216 One hundred percent. 320 00:19:11,382 --> 00:19:14,219 Okay, you convinced me. I'll get the app. 321 00:19:50,355 --> 00:19:52,957 Huh. Holy fucking shit. Maddie, you killed it. 322 00:19:53,124 --> 00:19:55,660 A star is born. Aw, thanks, Deena. 323 00:19:55,827 --> 00:19:57,195 You didn't think I was awkward? 324 00:19:57,362 --> 00:19:59,964 What? You were totally yourself, unlike fakeass Emily. 325 00:20:00,131 --> 00:20:03,035 Hey, it's not a competition. Oh, right, right. 326 00:20:07,405 --> 00:20:08,806 Deena, can I ask you a question? 327 00:20:08,973 --> 00:20:12,377 Shoot. How do you get so toned? 328 00:20:12,544 --> 00:20:14,145 You've been checking me out? 329 00:20:14,278 --> 00:20:17,515 I'm just noticing. I'll tell you. 330 00:20:17,682 --> 00:20:19,818 I go to this queer gym. It's radically inclusive. 331 00:20:19,985 --> 00:20:22,421 None of that toxic gym bro stuff. 332 00:20:22,587 --> 00:20:24,398 Actually, I'm going to this crazy movement class 333 00:20:24,422 --> 00:20:25,557 after work. Come with me. 334 00:20:25,724 --> 00:20:29,694 And I would be allowed? Just... some ally? 335 00:20:29,861 --> 00:20:31,429 Trust me, Maddie. 336 00:20:31,596 --> 00:20:33,598 Everyone there would really like you. 337 00:20:46,411 --> 00:20:47,411 Hi. 338 00:21:01,259 --> 00:21:02,627 Hi! 339 00:21:02,794 --> 00:21:04,962 Hey, look who it is! Hey! 340 00:21:05,129 --> 00:21:07,498 Hi. Everyone's so friendly here. 341 00:21:07,665 --> 00:21:08,733 Why wouldn't they be? 342 00:21:08,900 --> 00:21:11,036 We have a new friend joining the class today. 343 00:21:11,203 --> 00:21:13,871 Let's give Maddie a big queer welcome. 344 00:21:18,476 --> 00:21:21,647 All right, let's hit it. Five, six, seven, uh! 345 00:21:21,813 --> 00:21:24,249 All right, let's get moving. Whoo! 346 00:21:25,216 --> 00:21:27,118 Come on, Maddie. But I don't know the moves. 347 00:21:27,285 --> 00:21:29,621 Your body does. Move those hips. Let's go. 348 00:21:30,121 --> 00:21:31,121 Okay. 349 00:21:31,623 --> 00:21:34,926 Hip, hip, hip, hip. Let's go, let's go. 350 00:21:35,092 --> 00:21:37,929 Roll shoulders, roll shoulders. And back, and back. 351 00:21:38,096 --> 00:21:41,833 And right, and left. And let's go faster. 352 00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:44,969 And right, left, right. Let's pump that chest. 353 00:21:45,136 --> 00:21:48,973 Chest, chest, chest. Double time. Uh, uh! 354 00:21:49,140 --> 00:21:50,684 Show me what you got! Show me what you got! 355 00:21:50,708 --> 00:21:52,228 Show me, show me, show me what you got! 356 00:21:52,343 --> 00:21:54,279 Hey, hey, hey, hey! 357 00:21:54,812 --> 00:21:56,347 Mm! Oh, my God! 358 00:21:56,514 --> 00:21:58,250 Aw, look at that stretch! 359 00:21:59,718 --> 00:22:00,718 Mm! 360 00:22:06,791 --> 00:22:10,796 No! 361 00:22:14,299 --> 00:22:17,469 Oh, my God! No! Oh, my God! 362 00:22:17,635 --> 00:22:18,703 I swear by this. 363 00:22:18,870 --> 00:22:20,839 This is amazing! I love Fly By Jing. 364 00:22:34,285 --> 00:22:35,654 Jake! Oh, my God! 365 00:22:35,821 --> 00:22:38,389 I feel so bad. I've never done this. 366 00:22:39,123 --> 00:22:41,159 Maddie! Why did she get to... 367 00:22:43,328 --> 00:22:44,730 It's a friend of mine. 368 00:22:52,771 --> 00:22:55,673 What the hell? Everything okay, Kyle? 369 00:22:55,840 --> 00:22:57,875 I lightly dented some camera equipment, 370 00:22:58,042 --> 00:22:59,322 and they deducted the repair cost 371 00:22:59,443 --> 00:23:00,612 from my paycheck. 372 00:23:00,778 --> 00:23:02,658 They can't do that. Let me take it up with Zach. 373 00:23:03,748 --> 00:23:06,117 Wow. Thanks, Maddie. 374 00:23:06,684 --> 00:23:09,153 Oh, come on, Zach. 375 00:23:09,320 --> 00:23:11,857 She's such a tryhard Suzy Homemaker. 376 00:23:12,023 --> 00:23:13,024 What can I say? 377 00:23:13,191 --> 00:23:14,526 The unwashed masses love her. 378 00:23:14,693 --> 00:23:16,728 Her first video got 1.5 million views, 379 00:23:16,894 --> 00:23:18,438 and it got written up by Here We Go magazine. 380 00:23:18,462 --> 00:23:20,765 Yeah, but did you read the comments? 381 00:23:20,931 --> 00:23:24,235 "Go easy on the aioli, Maddie." "Maddie the Fatty." 382 00:23:26,437 --> 00:23:27,872 God, you're such a fucking bitch. 383 00:23:28,039 --> 00:23:29,107 I love it. 384 00:23:29,273 --> 00:23:30,642 It makes me so fucking hard. 385 00:23:32,711 --> 00:23:35,813 No. 386 00:23:54,599 --> 00:23:55,599 Jake? 387 00:23:57,635 --> 00:23:58,637 Jake? 388 00:27:14,799 --> 00:27:16,834 Maddie, are you okay? Not much. 389 00:27:17,501 --> 00:27:18,803 I didn't know you were home. 390 00:27:20,505 --> 00:27:21,573 Did you puke? 391 00:27:24,776 --> 00:27:25,977 I'm pregnant. 392 00:27:30,014 --> 00:27:31,014 What? 393 00:27:36,287 --> 00:27:37,887 Now, ideally, you're going for a Gruyere, 394 00:27:38,022 --> 00:27:39,457 a Fontina, a Taleggio, 395 00:27:39,624 --> 00:27:41,793 but in a pinch, you could use Monterey Jack, 396 00:27:41,959 --> 00:27:45,130 Colby Jack, Pepper Jack... 397 00:27:46,331 --> 00:27:48,032 We'll hold, I guess. 398 00:27:48,198 --> 00:27:51,269 And this is Emily. She put GourMaybe on the map. 399 00:27:51,436 --> 00:27:53,271 It's really nice to meet you guys. 400 00:27:53,438 --> 00:27:55,907 I'm, um, a huge fan of the show. 401 00:27:56,074 --> 00:27:57,108 What are you making? 402 00:27:57,275 --> 00:27:59,177 So, these are crispy potato skins 403 00:27:59,344 --> 00:28:01,145 with a Cool Ranch Labneh dip. 404 00:28:01,312 --> 00:28:04,281 Yeah, we're doing a series on elevated game day snacks. 405 00:28:04,849 --> 00:28:06,751 Do you mind? Go for it. 406 00:28:10,755 --> 00:28:14,191 It's fun. 407 00:28:14,358 --> 00:28:16,060 You certainly don't skimp on flavor. 408 00:28:16,694 --> 00:28:17,829 No, she doesn't. 409 00:28:19,497 --> 00:28:21,699 As someone who actually watches a lot of sports, 410 00:28:21,866 --> 00:28:23,668 this assignment came easily to me. 411 00:28:25,002 --> 00:28:27,105 And a guy's girl. I love it. 412 00:28:31,476 --> 00:28:32,877 Psst. 413 00:28:33,377 --> 00:28:34,777 You sure you wanna be caught talking 414 00:28:34,879 --> 00:28:38,049 to some lowly dishwasher? Deena! Who are those people? 415 00:28:38,216 --> 00:28:40,684 Oh, the executive producers of The Boar. 416 00:28:40,851 --> 00:28:43,030 I just watched this talk they gave at South By on YouTube. 417 00:28:43,054 --> 00:28:45,123 They are total geniuses. It's effervescent. 418 00:28:45,323 --> 00:28:46,323 The Boar? 419 00:28:47,525 --> 00:28:48,805 You gotta be kidding me, Maddie. 420 00:28:48,993 --> 00:28:50,738 No, I'm not kidding you, Deena, and you better tell me fast 421 00:28:50,762 --> 00:28:52,239 because they're coming over here right now. 422 00:28:52,263 --> 00:28:53,574 Oh, The Boar is about a restaurant, 423 00:28:53,598 --> 00:28:55,066 but really, it's about so much more. 424 00:28:55,233 --> 00:28:56,934 It's also the hottest show on TV right now. 425 00:28:57,101 --> 00:28:59,270 Oh, that's right. You don't have a TV. 426 00:29:01,906 --> 00:29:04,108 And this is Maddie, our newest chef, 427 00:29:04,275 --> 00:29:05,877 but already gaining quite a following. 428 00:29:06,044 --> 00:29:07,144 Hi. 429 00:29:07,745 --> 00:29:08,947 And what do we have here? 430 00:29:09,113 --> 00:29:12,082 This is a Rotel dip, but made with French techniques. 431 00:29:12,249 --> 00:29:13,518 How is that possible? 432 00:29:13,685 --> 00:29:16,821 Well, instead of using Velveeta, I start with the b�chamel, 433 00:29:16,988 --> 00:29:19,123 and slowly incorporate quality cheeses. 434 00:29:19,723 --> 00:29:24,829 Damn. She's good. 435 00:29:25,797 --> 00:29:26,931 And her dip's good too. 436 00:29:32,403 --> 00:29:33,538 What the hell was that? 437 00:29:34,072 --> 00:29:36,774 Oh, sorry, Maddie, what the "heck" was that? 438 00:29:36,941 --> 00:29:38,710 Sit down. Let me explain. 439 00:29:40,011 --> 00:29:42,156 The Boar is looking to hire their new culinary producer 440 00:29:42,180 --> 00:29:43,180 for their sixth season. 441 00:29:43,314 --> 00:29:44,948 And Disney wants FX to pull somebody 442 00:29:45,115 --> 00:29:46,359 from the Cond� Nast talent pool. 443 00:29:46,383 --> 00:29:47,952 Culinary producer? 444 00:29:48,119 --> 00:29:49,988 They need a new chef to make a real menu 445 00:29:50,155 --> 00:29:52,089 for the fake restaurant on the show. 446 00:29:52,256 --> 00:29:53,724 But they need somebody with a vision. 447 00:29:53,858 --> 00:29:55,426 Somebody that's a star. 448 00:29:55,593 --> 00:29:57,737 They're gonna document the whole thing with BTS content 449 00:29:57,761 --> 00:29:59,041 and pair that with each episode. 450 00:29:59,163 --> 00:30:02,500 But it's gonna be very highbrow, cinematic AF, 451 00:30:02,667 --> 00:30:05,736 chef's table. So, you know, be camera ready. 452 00:30:05,870 --> 00:30:07,071 So, it's down to us? 453 00:30:07,238 --> 00:30:08,749 Yeah, what about all the other amazing chefs here? 454 00:30:08,773 --> 00:30:09,940 I submitted you two... 455 00:30:10,107 --> 00:30:11,876 'cause you're the two biggest stars I got. 456 00:30:12,843 --> 00:30:13,878 And admittedly... 457 00:30:15,679 --> 00:30:17,615 I like to watch you two go at it. 458 00:30:40,137 --> 00:30:41,840 Someone's got a little baby bump. 459 00:30:44,342 --> 00:30:45,509 What? 460 00:30:46,043 --> 00:30:47,912 You're just a little fuller in the tummy. 461 00:30:48,078 --> 00:30:49,180 It's beautiful. 462 00:30:54,885 --> 00:30:56,320 Hey, I was thinking we could pig out 463 00:30:56,487 --> 00:30:59,357 on something stanky tonight, like Thai street food, 464 00:30:59,524 --> 00:31:01,258 and that new place from Frogtown. 465 00:31:03,094 --> 00:31:05,096 We haven't really celebrated yet, you know? 466 00:31:06,898 --> 00:31:09,200 Hmm. 467 00:31:17,909 --> 00:31:19,719 Maddie, we'll be honest, we're very excited about you. 468 00:31:19,743 --> 00:31:22,279 You have quite a few fans over here at The Boar. 469 00:31:22,479 --> 00:31:23,915 We know you're just starting out, 470 00:31:24,081 --> 00:31:26,016 but your food already has a real identity. 471 00:31:26,183 --> 00:31:28,086 It's both youthful and timeless. 472 00:31:28,252 --> 00:31:30,054 It's full of verve, but never pretentious. 473 00:31:30,220 --> 00:31:33,357 It sends a message, and it tastes fucking good. 474 00:31:33,524 --> 00:31:36,260 Thank you, guys. That... That really means a lot. 475 00:31:36,427 --> 00:31:38,587 We wanna know what your vision for season six would be. 476 00:31:38,730 --> 00:31:40,170 Put together a presentation of sorts, 477 00:31:40,264 --> 00:31:42,399 but take that to mean whatever you want. 478 00:31:42,566 --> 00:31:45,603 Cook for us, take us out, make a short film, a painting. 479 00:31:45,770 --> 00:31:46,971 We don't care. 480 00:31:47,138 --> 00:31:48,582 The important thing is to tell a story. 481 00:31:48,606 --> 00:31:51,242 What? 482 00:31:52,043 --> 00:31:54,445 It's just that ever since I was a little girl, 483 00:31:54,612 --> 00:31:56,981 I always felt like cooking was a form of storytelling. 484 00:31:58,316 --> 00:32:00,852 You're speaking our language. Cool. 485 00:32:02,853 --> 00:32:04,213 Sorry to interrupt the circle jerk, 486 00:32:04,355 --> 00:32:06,795 but did you guys get any word from Disney on Maddie's chances? 487 00:32:06,925 --> 00:32:08,893 Well, they are a little concerned 488 00:32:09,059 --> 00:32:11,562 about her... stats. What do you mean? 489 00:32:11,729 --> 00:32:13,230 Your socials are weak. 490 00:32:13,397 --> 00:32:15,899 We need to beef up your presence in the digital sphere. 491 00:32:16,066 --> 00:32:17,244 You have some fierce competition. 492 00:32:17,268 --> 00:32:20,604 That's one word for her. I... I... I mean, "it." 493 00:32:26,477 --> 00:32:28,946 Strong! Power! 494 00:32:29,580 --> 00:32:32,350 Confidence! Let's go! 495 00:32:33,317 --> 00:32:35,286 Let's freestyle now. What? 496 00:32:35,453 --> 00:32:36,587 Step, step, hit and hit! 497 00:32:36,754 --> 00:32:38,288 Step, step, hit and hit! 498 00:32:38,455 --> 00:32:42,026 Your personality comes out here! 499 00:32:42,193 --> 00:32:43,428 Yeah, pump it, pump it. 500 00:32:43,594 --> 00:32:44,828 You like that? Yeah, yeah. 501 00:32:45,028 --> 00:32:46,831 And pump, pump. Let's go! Pump! 502 00:32:47,665 --> 00:32:49,733 Pump, pump! And whack it, and whack it! 503 00:32:49,900 --> 00:32:52,503 Come on, Maddie, you baddie! Sorry. 504 00:32:54,472 --> 00:32:56,440 Thank you guys so much! 505 00:32:56,607 --> 00:33:01,512 Y'all hot right now? 506 00:33:01,679 --> 00:33:03,490 Maddie, remember, it's not about getting it right, 507 00:33:03,514 --> 00:33:05,383 or being the best in class all the time, girl. 508 00:33:05,583 --> 00:33:07,428 It's about letting the groove move through your body, 509 00:33:07,452 --> 00:33:09,286 going with the flow, and having fun. 510 00:33:09,453 --> 00:33:11,289 Groove and flow, got it. 511 00:33:11,456 --> 00:33:13,391 You forgot fun, mama. 512 00:33:13,591 --> 00:33:15,192 Maddie, have you watched The Boar yet? 513 00:33:15,325 --> 00:33:16,828 No. You can use my Hulu login. 514 00:33:16,995 --> 00:33:18,338 I don't care if you know my password. 515 00:33:18,362 --> 00:33:19,663 I haven't yet. 516 00:33:19,830 --> 00:33:21,975 I feel like I was just getting my bearings at GourMaybe, 517 00:33:21,999 --> 00:33:23,634 and now I'm supposed to fight like hell 518 00:33:23,801 --> 00:33:25,870 to be some food stylist on a TV show? 519 00:33:26,036 --> 00:33:27,038 Oh, my God. 520 00:33:27,171 --> 00:33:28,349 Maddie, what they're doing over there 521 00:33:28,373 --> 00:33:30,841 is so much more than just food styling. 522 00:33:31,008 --> 00:33:33,878 Totally. It all sounds so elevated and cool. 523 00:33:34,044 --> 00:33:35,724 I guess I just don't wanna get my hopes up. 524 00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:37,682 Oh, you'll understand it once you watch it. 525 00:33:37,848 --> 00:33:39,316 Uhhuh. We could binge it together. 526 00:33:39,483 --> 00:33:41,218 Aw, thanks, but Jake would kill me 527 00:33:41,385 --> 00:33:43,305 if I didn't watch it with him. He loves The Boar. 528 00:33:43,387 --> 00:33:45,522 Oh, right. Jake. 529 00:33:48,960 --> 00:33:50,894 Deena, are you okay? God. 530 00:33:51,061 --> 00:33:52,305 You know, Maddie, since your promotion, 531 00:33:52,329 --> 00:33:53,774 it's like you don't have time for me anymore. 532 00:33:53,798 --> 00:33:55,542 Like, you forgot about all the little people. 533 00:33:55,566 --> 00:33:57,201 Deena... I didn't choose 534 00:33:57,368 --> 00:33:58,368 any of this. 535 00:33:58,436 --> 00:33:59,536 I feel so out of control. 536 00:33:59,703 --> 00:34:01,105 Uh, it's all just happening to me. 537 00:34:01,272 --> 00:34:02,573 Uhhuh. Sure about that? 538 00:34:03,174 --> 00:34:05,409 What are you trying to say? It's funny. 539 00:34:05,576 --> 00:34:07,056 I really thought we were best friends, 540 00:34:07,110 --> 00:34:09,446 but I guess you always saw me as more of a coworker, 541 00:34:09,646 --> 00:34:12,683 an occupational hazard. Of course we're friends. 542 00:34:13,351 --> 00:34:14,861 Deena, aren't you gonna give me a ride? 543 00:34:14,885 --> 00:34:16,554 We always carpool after dance class. 544 00:34:16,721 --> 00:34:18,022 Yeah. 545 00:34:18,189 --> 00:34:20,429 Do you mind catching a lift? You're kinda out of the way. 546 00:34:36,907 --> 00:34:39,310 Hey, hey, hey. 547 00:34:39,477 --> 00:34:40,545 It's just me. 548 00:34:40,711 --> 00:34:42,446 Jake, that was scary. What are you doing? 549 00:34:42,613 --> 00:34:46,216 I know. I'm sorry. I have a surprise for you. 550 00:34:46,383 --> 00:34:47,451 Come on. Okay. 551 00:34:51,221 --> 00:34:52,221 I got you. 552 00:34:55,158 --> 00:34:56,158 Look. 553 00:34:57,427 --> 00:34:58,863 A buddy of mine from Middlebury 554 00:34:59,029 --> 00:35:01,766 makes these really dope replicas of Amish furniture. 555 00:35:02,266 --> 00:35:04,669 He made this for his kid and they don't need it anymore. 556 00:35:05,336 --> 00:35:06,471 Isn't it beautiful? 557 00:35:07,738 --> 00:35:11,108 It's... It's a little early. 558 00:35:12,042 --> 00:35:14,444 I'm sorry. I guess I'm just excited. 559 00:35:15,178 --> 00:35:16,613 Am I the only one here that is? 560 00:35:16,780 --> 00:35:18,049 Of course I'm excited, Jake, 561 00:35:18,216 --> 00:35:20,327 but people normally wait to get to the first trimester 562 00:35:20,351 --> 00:35:22,486 before they start making these kinds of decisions. 563 00:35:22,653 --> 00:35:24,488 It could so easily go wrong, you know? 564 00:35:24,655 --> 00:35:25,890 Why would you say that? 565 00:35:28,159 --> 00:35:29,460 What is that? 566 00:35:29,627 --> 00:35:31,237 I was gonna tell you. Your mom signed us up 567 00:35:31,261 --> 00:35:32,964 for this monthly frozen meat thing. 568 00:35:33,130 --> 00:35:35,466 That bitch. I'll eat it, okay? 569 00:35:35,633 --> 00:35:37,368 Throw the steaks away right now, Jake. 570 00:35:37,535 --> 00:35:39,136 But... you're so passionate 571 00:35:39,303 --> 00:35:40,837 about reducing food waste, Maddie. 572 00:35:41,004 --> 00:35:46,944 I don't eat meat! 573 00:35:50,781 --> 00:35:52,683 Hi, guys. It's Maddie Ralph here 574 00:35:52,850 --> 00:35:54,685 in the sunny GourMaybe Test Kitchen. 575 00:35:54,852 --> 00:35:57,387 Today, I am determined to prove to you 576 00:35:57,554 --> 00:36:00,457 how much caramelization you can get out of tofu. 577 00:36:00,624 --> 00:36:02,025 Now, when people... 578 00:36:02,192 --> 00:36:03,192 Take your time. 579 00:36:03,327 --> 00:36:05,162 Kyle, why don't we, um, start over? 580 00:36:05,796 --> 00:36:07,396 Okay, can everyone please keep their work 581 00:36:07,465 --> 00:36:08,599 to a low hum? 582 00:36:08,933 --> 00:36:10,143 Yeah, Kyle, it's fine. We'll just take it again. 583 00:36:10,167 --> 00:36:11,635 Oh, my God, I'm so fucking stupid. 584 00:36:11,802 --> 00:36:12,936 No, you're fine, Kyle. 585 00:36:13,103 --> 00:36:14,623 Were we being too loud for you, Maddie? 586 00:36:15,238 --> 00:36:17,775 No, I actually wanted to redo my intro anyway, 587 00:36:17,942 --> 00:36:20,578 so... Hi, I'm Maddie. 588 00:36:20,778 --> 00:36:23,113 Nice to meet you. Oh, I know who you are. 589 00:36:23,246 --> 00:36:26,117 My friends and I are obsessed with your recipes. 590 00:36:26,250 --> 00:36:28,553 I'm Erin. I'm the new you, I guess. 591 00:36:28,719 --> 00:36:30,221 Or the old you? 592 00:36:32,156 --> 00:36:34,358 Hi, Erin, thank you for your kind words. 593 00:36:34,525 --> 00:36:36,059 Dishwashing can be thankless sometimes, 594 00:36:36,226 --> 00:36:39,330 but remember that this company could not exist without you. 595 00:36:39,497 --> 00:36:40,497 I would know. 596 00:36:40,530 --> 00:36:41,665 Thanks, Maddie. 597 00:36:42,433 --> 00:36:44,134 I think we should... Sorry to overshare. 598 00:36:44,267 --> 00:36:45,336 What's up? But... 599 00:36:45,502 --> 00:36:47,705 I used to have a really disordered relationship 600 00:36:47,872 --> 00:36:49,907 to food. I mean, who doesn't? 601 00:36:51,842 --> 00:36:52,976 Totally. 602 00:36:53,243 --> 00:36:55,323 And I just have to say it's really fucking refreshing 603 00:36:55,379 --> 00:36:57,448 to see a woman with an actually healthy body 604 00:36:57,615 --> 00:36:59,150 making food content right now. 605 00:37:01,719 --> 00:37:02,987 What do you mean by "healthy"? 606 00:37:03,153 --> 00:37:06,924 You know, healthy, normal. Like, not scary thin. 607 00:37:07,090 --> 00:37:09,159 It's badass. 608 00:37:11,394 --> 00:37:14,164 Kyle, can we take lunch now? I'll finish this later. 609 00:37:15,065 --> 00:37:17,868 Okay. 610 00:37:25,309 --> 00:37:27,945 What's the matter? 611 00:37:28,946 --> 00:37:30,380 Zach's spunk taste weird? 612 00:37:31,181 --> 00:37:34,118 I wouldn't know. What's that supposed to mean? 613 00:37:43,927 --> 00:37:47,932 Emily! You want a ride? 614 00:37:50,501 --> 00:37:51,736 No. 615 00:37:55,139 --> 00:37:57,274 Hey, Erin, I've got those. You go home. 616 00:37:57,808 --> 00:38:00,344 What? I... I could never let you wash these. 617 00:38:00,511 --> 00:38:03,414 To be honest, I... I kind of miss it. 618 00:38:04,314 --> 00:38:05,816 If you say so. 619 00:38:14,358 --> 00:38:15,793 Deena... 620 00:38:16,360 --> 00:38:17,640 I don't know what I did wrong, 621 00:38:17,694 --> 00:38:19,830 but I could really use a best friend right now. 622 00:38:21,331 --> 00:38:23,334 Best friends don't keep secrets. 623 00:38:23,967 --> 00:38:24,967 What? 624 00:38:26,971 --> 00:38:28,372 You're hiding things from me. 625 00:38:29,339 --> 00:38:30,339 It's hurting you, 626 00:38:30,408 --> 00:38:32,777 and it's making me look like a fool. 627 00:38:35,712 --> 00:38:38,281 Fuck! Deena, I promise 628 00:38:38,448 --> 00:38:40,350 I'm not hiding anything from you. 629 00:38:40,517 --> 00:38:42,285 I just really, really need your help. 630 00:38:42,786 --> 00:38:45,189 My presentation for The Boar is in three weeks, 631 00:38:45,356 --> 00:38:46,490 and I swear to God, 632 00:38:46,791 --> 00:38:49,459 it's like I can't even remember what I... like about food. 633 00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:52,563 Maddie. Just come over this weekend, 634 00:38:52,730 --> 00:38:54,698 and let's cook together like the old days. 635 00:38:54,865 --> 00:38:57,335 You can be my sous. 636 00:38:58,836 --> 00:39:02,038 Yes, chef. 637 00:39:02,205 --> 00:39:06,743 Oh, my God, Deena! 638 00:39:06,943 --> 00:39:10,981 Deena! Stop! 639 00:39:20,991 --> 00:39:23,761 More time. 640 00:39:34,839 --> 00:39:36,240 How's it looking? 641 00:39:37,141 --> 00:39:39,176 Oh! 642 00:39:54,558 --> 00:39:57,394 Mm! Oh, my God! 643 00:39:57,894 --> 00:39:59,254 God, you know I don't like to throw 644 00:39:59,330 --> 00:40:01,765 this word around, Maddie, but you really are a genius. 645 00:40:01,932 --> 00:40:03,567 The Boar would be lucky to have you. 646 00:40:03,734 --> 00:40:04,934 It was pretty good, wasn't it? 647 00:40:05,035 --> 00:40:07,237 Oh. 648 00:40:08,038 --> 00:40:09,640 Oh, shit. Who is it? 649 00:40:10,207 --> 00:40:12,409 This married chick I'm banging. I'm driving her crazy. 650 00:40:12,576 --> 00:40:14,176 Do you mind if I take this on your porch? 651 00:40:17,881 --> 00:40:19,683 You really are something else, Deena. 652 00:40:20,350 --> 00:40:21,385 Hey, baby, what's wrong? 653 00:40:37,901 --> 00:40:40,837 But I don't like stealing away for a measly taste. 654 00:40:41,037 --> 00:40:42,373 I want all of you. 655 00:40:44,074 --> 00:40:45,776 I want that too. It's just I'm married. 656 00:40:47,378 --> 00:40:50,747 You're driving me crazy. How about a weekend in Ojai? 657 00:40:51,414 --> 00:40:54,151 You, me, natural wine, my strap. 658 00:40:54,318 --> 00:40:55,318 Deena's girlfriend: Fuck. 659 00:40:57,688 --> 00:40:59,757 Why don't we talk about this inperson? 660 00:40:59,924 --> 00:41:02,025 Deena's girlfriend: Deena... I can swing by tonight. 661 00:41:02,659 --> 00:41:04,828 Deena's girlfriend: You know exactly what will happen. 662 00:41:04,995 --> 00:41:06,196 I'm free at 09:00 a.m. 663 00:41:06,396 --> 00:41:08,236 Deena's girlfriend: But what about my schedule? 664 00:41:09,433 --> 00:41:11,802 What's going on in here? 665 00:41:11,969 --> 00:41:13,637 I think I have food poisoning. 666 00:41:15,305 --> 00:41:17,641 Maddie, I know you, and I know when you're lying. 667 00:41:17,808 --> 00:41:20,410 Deena, I'm not lying. And you know me, 668 00:41:20,544 --> 00:41:22,480 and you know I hate being lied to. 669 00:41:25,849 --> 00:41:28,152 Hey, hey. 670 00:41:29,486 --> 00:41:32,189 It's okay, I'm here. 671 00:41:32,356 --> 00:41:34,825 I had stuff around food when I was younger, 672 00:41:34,992 --> 00:41:36,694 and it's coming up again. 673 00:41:38,261 --> 00:41:39,501 I'm gonna get it under control. 674 00:41:39,563 --> 00:41:41,732 Just please, please don't anyone, okay? 675 00:41:41,899 --> 00:41:43,634 Oh, Maddie. 676 00:41:44,201 --> 00:41:46,337 Oh, Maddie, your secret is safe with me. 677 00:41:53,911 --> 00:41:56,847 I should probably brush my teeth. 678 00:41:59,349 --> 00:42:00,349 Yeah. 679 00:42:03,220 --> 00:42:04,855 You know they make a tool for that, 680 00:42:05,022 --> 00:42:06,432 where you can get the little timelines off 681 00:42:06,456 --> 00:42:07,758 in about five seconds. 682 00:42:07,925 --> 00:42:09,059 Of course they do. 683 00:42:10,560 --> 00:42:12,438 So, Maddie, I'm dying to know what's on the menu 684 00:42:12,462 --> 00:42:13,997 for season six of The Boar. 685 00:42:14,164 --> 00:42:16,199 Uh, let's talk about it later, Kyle. 686 00:42:16,833 --> 00:42:19,302 Oh, come on, Maddie. I'll say what I'm doing. 687 00:42:19,469 --> 00:42:20,671 It's good sportsmanship. 688 00:42:22,339 --> 00:42:25,241 Okay, um, I'm hosting the producers 689 00:42:25,408 --> 00:42:28,712 at me and Jake's, and I'm cooking from the heart. 690 00:42:28,879 --> 00:42:32,015 I'm hoping to push the show in a more Veggie Four direction. 691 00:42:32,182 --> 00:42:35,518 Period. What about you, Emily? 692 00:42:36,052 --> 00:42:39,022 I'm taking them to my favorite holeinthewall spots in KTown 693 00:42:39,156 --> 00:42:41,424 for a tour of the best Korean bar food in L.A. 694 00:42:41,958 --> 00:42:45,495 So cool, so Emily. It's whatever. 695 00:42:45,629 --> 00:42:48,332 Time to beef up those socials, baby. 696 00:42:48,498 --> 00:42:50,100 We are live. 697 00:42:50,734 --> 00:42:52,168 Hi, guys. It's Maddie, 698 00:42:52,335 --> 00:42:54,571 here to try the viral Chile Relleno Burrito 699 00:42:54,738 --> 00:42:56,807 that Boyle Heights residents swear by. 700 00:42:56,974 --> 00:42:59,943 And get this, it's served out of a car wash. 701 00:43:00,110 --> 00:43:01,110 Here I go. 702 00:43:01,978 --> 00:43:04,615 Mm. Mm. 703 00:43:05,615 --> 00:43:06,617 Oh, my God. 704 00:43:07,651 --> 00:43:08,651 Mm. 705 00:43:34,912 --> 00:43:38,381 Shoulder, shoulder. Nice. Shoulder. 706 00:43:38,548 --> 00:43:42,986 And other side. Good. Plie. 707 00:43:43,153 --> 00:43:45,788 Arms. Six, seven, eight. 708 00:43:45,955 --> 00:43:51,695 Arm. And here. Drama. Let's go. Good. 709 00:43:54,130 --> 00:43:59,403 Shoulder, shoulder, look. Walk around yourselves. 710 00:44:09,312 --> 00:44:10,714 One, two, three, four. 711 00:44:10,881 --> 00:44:12,882 Shoulder, shoulder, shoulder, and melt. 712 00:44:13,049 --> 00:44:14,184 Ooh, nice. 713 00:44:14,351 --> 00:44:16,587 And up, and down, and up, let's go. And back. 714 00:44:17,821 --> 00:44:20,824 Up. Look up. One, two. You know this. 715 00:44:20,991 --> 00:44:23,693 Five, six, seven, eight. Turn one. Nice. 716 00:44:24,594 --> 00:44:28,631 Six, seven, you go. Nice. Coming forward. 717 00:44:28,798 --> 00:44:31,634 Seven, and one, two, three, five. 718 00:44:31,801 --> 00:44:32,801 Your turn. 719 00:44:32,870 --> 00:44:35,438 And one, two, three, four, five, six. 720 00:44:35,605 --> 00:44:39,609 Arm up. Arm, arm. Five, six, seven, up, eight. 721 00:44:39,743 --> 00:44:41,545 One, two, down, up. 722 00:44:42,713 --> 00:44:43,814 Hold it, one. 723 00:44:44,914 --> 00:44:47,451 Five, nice. Nice. 724 00:44:48,318 --> 00:44:50,087 Pump it out. Pump, pump. 725 00:44:50,754 --> 00:44:53,023 More pelvis, Maddie. Less up here. 726 00:44:53,190 --> 00:44:54,857 Seven, eight. 727 00:44:55,024 --> 00:44:57,928 One, two, three. Nice. Five, six, seven. 728 00:44:58,094 --> 00:45:02,365 Shoulder on, and on, and out, and out, and boom. 729 00:45:02,532 --> 00:45:07,837 This way. To the side. And front, and front, and side. 730 00:45:08,004 --> 00:45:12,676 Around, and walk, and walk, and walk, and walk, and walk. 731 00:45:12,843 --> 00:45:15,111 Give me heads. Five, six, seven, eight. 732 00:45:15,311 --> 00:45:18,514 Disperse! 733 00:45:18,681 --> 00:45:19,926 Two weeks from the big presentation. 734 00:45:19,950 --> 00:45:21,017 Don't remind me. 735 00:45:21,184 --> 00:45:22,584 Come on, you've got this in the bag. 736 00:45:22,652 --> 00:45:25,722 Plus, Emily's whole approach seems totally halfassed to me. 737 00:45:25,889 --> 00:45:27,324 I don't know, I think it sounds like 738 00:45:27,491 --> 00:45:29,192 impossibly cool, effortless Emily. 739 00:45:29,359 --> 00:45:31,559 And once again, I look like the tryhard Susie Homemaker. 740 00:45:31,661 --> 00:45:33,931 You care. It's cool. It's pathetic. 741 00:45:35,799 --> 00:45:38,134 Five. And snap, and snap, and push. 742 00:45:39,135 --> 00:45:42,338 And go. And go to the pose. And pose. And pose. 743 00:45:42,505 --> 00:45:44,040 What's happening, Maddie? I'm... 744 00:45:44,207 --> 00:45:46,910 Take a break. Here we go. Five, six... 745 00:45:51,948 --> 00:45:53,116 You okay, Maddie? 746 00:45:53,883 --> 00:45:56,152 Yeah, I'm just... I'm just a little lightheaded. 747 00:45:57,053 --> 00:45:59,056 Did you eat anything before class? 748 00:46:00,390 --> 00:46:03,894 Yeah, but... Oh, right, right. 749 00:46:05,728 --> 00:46:08,265 Four, five, get ready, six, seven, eight. 750 00:46:08,432 --> 00:46:11,468 One, two, three, and four. Come forward, come forward. 751 00:46:11,635 --> 00:46:13,137 Sit this one out, mama. No. 752 00:46:15,071 --> 00:46:16,840 One, two. Let's go. 753 00:46:19,376 --> 00:46:21,177 Three, four. Keep going. 754 00:46:21,378 --> 00:46:23,780 And kick. One, two, three, and four, five. 755 00:46:23,947 --> 00:46:25,616 Come on, come on, forward. 756 00:46:26,817 --> 00:46:28,619 Let's go, let's go, let's go. 757 00:46:29,852 --> 00:46:34,758 Let's go. Continue. Five, six. Five, six. 758 00:46:35,425 --> 00:46:38,762 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight. 759 00:46:38,928 --> 00:46:41,999 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight. 760 00:46:42,165 --> 00:46:45,569 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight. 761 00:46:45,736 --> 00:46:47,871 One, two, three. You gotta move, mama. 762 00:46:48,038 --> 00:46:50,774 Seven, eight... 763 00:46:50,941 --> 00:46:52,309 Five, six, seven, eight. 764 00:46:52,475 --> 00:46:54,011 You okay? One, two, three, four, 765 00:46:54,177 --> 00:46:57,180 five, six, seven, let's go. And one, two, three. 766 00:46:57,347 --> 00:46:59,282 And arms. Up. 767 00:46:59,449 --> 00:47:01,685 Let's go. 768 00:47:02,819 --> 00:47:05,022 Finish it. Let's go, Maddie. 769 00:47:06,356 --> 00:47:09,425 We know this. And five, six, seven, eight. 770 00:47:09,592 --> 00:47:11,994 One, two, three, four. 771 00:47:12,161 --> 00:47:15,299 Seven, eight. Three, and hands. 772 00:47:19,802 --> 00:47:21,037 Okay. 773 00:47:28,144 --> 00:47:30,613 Let's go. And circle, and circle. 774 00:47:30,780 --> 00:47:34,917 Reach, and reach, and reach, go. Five, six, seven. 775 00:47:35,084 --> 00:47:38,222 Disperse! Continue, six, seven. 776 00:47:39,189 --> 00:47:42,793 Maddie! 777 00:47:52,001 --> 00:47:53,903 And walk, and walk. 778 00:47:54,070 --> 00:47:55,070 Maddie? 779 00:48:28,071 --> 00:48:32,209 Maddie, baby, what happened? 780 00:48:32,376 --> 00:48:35,379 Cardiac arrest. 781 00:48:35,545 --> 00:48:36,780 Oh, my God. 782 00:48:36,947 --> 00:48:39,549 Is... Is everything okay with the baby? 783 00:48:39,715 --> 00:48:41,885 Would you two mind stepping out for a moment? 784 00:48:42,052 --> 00:48:43,720 I need to speak to Maddie privately. 785 00:48:43,886 --> 00:48:44,921 I... 786 00:48:45,622 --> 00:48:49,259 Okay. Um, Maddie, I'll be right back, okay? 787 00:48:49,425 --> 00:48:50,425 Don't worry. 788 00:49:03,907 --> 00:49:06,410 Maddie, are you bulimic? 789 00:49:10,813 --> 00:49:12,182 Is that the one where you... 790 00:49:13,016 --> 00:49:16,185 don't eat food, or you do eat food, but then... 791 00:49:16,352 --> 00:49:17,955 You're far too young for cardiac arrest. 792 00:49:18,121 --> 00:49:20,923 Your potassium levels are alarmingly low. 793 00:49:21,090 --> 00:49:23,125 You have a swollen jaw, bleeding gums, 794 00:49:23,292 --> 00:49:26,129 and... teeth marks on your knuckles. 795 00:49:26,296 --> 00:49:28,298 Well, frankly, it's none of your business. 796 00:49:28,932 --> 00:49:30,767 Maddie, this is Dr. Kronenfeld. 797 00:49:30,934 --> 00:49:31,934 He's a psychiatrist 798 00:49:32,002 --> 00:49:33,836 who specializes in eating disorders. 799 00:49:34,003 --> 00:49:35,003 Nice to meet you, Maddie. 800 00:49:35,138 --> 00:49:37,207 Lovely to meet you, Dr. Kronenfeld, 801 00:49:37,374 --> 00:49:39,276 but I'm actually on my way out, so... 802 00:49:39,443 --> 00:49:42,045 Maddie, you could have died today 803 00:49:42,212 --> 00:49:44,481 had the paramedics not shown up on time. 804 00:49:45,482 --> 00:49:48,351 Any more exercise and you're at risk of SCD, 805 00:49:48,518 --> 00:49:49,953 Sudden Cardiac Death. 806 00:49:50,453 --> 00:49:51,588 Any more vomiting, 807 00:49:51,755 --> 00:49:53,857 and you're at risk of rupturing your stomach, 808 00:49:54,023 --> 00:49:56,025 or your esophagus. I'll get it under control. 809 00:49:56,526 --> 00:49:58,006 I did it before, and I'll do it again. 810 00:49:58,161 --> 00:50:01,331 You relapsed before, and you'll relapse again. 811 00:50:01,998 --> 00:50:03,667 I strongly advise that you undergo 812 00:50:03,834 --> 00:50:05,702 the eating disorder inpatient program 813 00:50:05,869 --> 00:50:07,837 that I run out of Presbyterian Hospital. 814 00:50:08,004 --> 00:50:09,239 For how long? 815 00:50:09,406 --> 00:50:10,766 Dr. Kronenfeld: At least six weeks. 816 00:50:10,941 --> 00:50:13,510 But I have the most important work event of my life in two. 817 00:50:13,677 --> 00:50:15,712 Hmm. What is it you do? 818 00:50:19,048 --> 00:50:21,952 I... I'm a recipe developer at GourMaybe. 819 00:50:24,554 --> 00:50:25,689 Dr. Kronenfeld: Maddie... 820 00:50:26,956 --> 00:50:28,196 I don't think I need to explain 821 00:50:28,357 --> 00:50:29,717 why returning to your job right now 822 00:50:29,859 --> 00:50:31,661 would be uniquely high risk. 823 00:50:49,345 --> 00:50:51,848 They're letting you go home early? 824 00:50:52,015 --> 00:50:53,884 Dr. Kronenfeld: Maddie's admitting herself... 825 00:50:57,554 --> 00:50:59,423 I'm not coming home right now. 826 00:51:01,657 --> 00:51:02,658 They are taking me 827 00:51:02,825 --> 00:51:04,828 to an inpatient treatment program. 828 00:51:04,994 --> 00:51:07,264 For what? 829 00:51:13,102 --> 00:51:14,102 Jake... 830 00:51:15,939 --> 00:51:18,575 I suffer from bulimia nervosa. 831 00:51:19,475 --> 00:51:20,510 What? 832 00:51:20,677 --> 00:51:22,479 I throw up my food, Jake. 833 00:51:24,414 --> 00:51:26,616 I need you to go home and pack me a bag. 834 00:51:30,754 --> 00:51:31,955 Why didn't you tell me? 835 00:51:33,022 --> 00:51:34,458 Because you thought I was perfect. 836 00:51:49,238 --> 00:51:51,241 And what room do we have assigned for Maddie? 837 00:51:51,408 --> 00:51:52,942 Mm... 838 00:51:53,109 --> 00:51:55,312 I'm having trouble making it out. Uh... 839 00:51:55,479 --> 00:51:58,048 Well, honey, why aren't you wearing your glasses? 840 00:51:58,181 --> 00:52:00,917 They're so tight across the bridge of my nose. 841 00:52:04,721 --> 00:52:08,191 Okay, we have her in room 17 with Julie. 842 00:52:08,358 --> 00:52:10,827 They're just moving out the last of Catherine's stuff. 843 00:52:10,994 --> 00:52:12,161 That is such a sad thing. 844 00:52:12,328 --> 00:52:14,664 Right, right. Thank you, Shawna. 845 00:52:23,773 --> 00:52:25,341 No! No! 846 00:52:25,508 --> 00:52:27,343 Get your hands off her, damn it! 847 00:52:28,778 --> 00:52:30,913 Oh, Lord, these three. 848 00:52:31,080 --> 00:52:32,348 What? 849 00:52:32,515 --> 00:52:33,755 It's that girl from the videos. 850 00:52:33,816 --> 00:52:35,285 How do they know you? 851 00:52:35,818 --> 00:52:36,820 I'm a chef. 852 00:52:36,987 --> 00:52:39,622 The GourMaybe girl has an eating disorder? 853 00:52:39,789 --> 00:52:41,291 What a fucking shocker! 854 00:52:50,332 --> 00:52:51,500 Here's your room. 855 00:52:51,667 --> 00:52:53,403 I need to confiscate your phone. 856 00:52:53,570 --> 00:52:54,570 Why? 857 00:52:54,704 --> 00:52:56,673 We can't have y'all on social media. 858 00:52:56,839 --> 00:52:59,809 Bathing suits, cooking videos. You get it. 859 00:53:00,376 --> 00:53:02,678 You can use the landline whenever you want, though. 860 00:53:03,312 --> 00:53:05,324 And you're welcome to decorate your side of the room 861 00:53:05,348 --> 00:53:06,583 like your roommate did. 862 00:53:09,952 --> 00:53:11,988 This program is for adults, right? 863 00:53:12,155 --> 00:53:13,389 Mmhmm. 864 00:53:13,656 --> 00:53:16,693 Is today the day that I get to meet my new roomie? 865 00:53:16,859 --> 00:53:18,261 Oh, my God. 866 00:53:18,427 --> 00:53:20,997 You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. 867 00:53:21,164 --> 00:53:22,164 Thank you. 868 00:53:22,264 --> 00:53:24,200 I'm Maddie. I'm Julie. 869 00:53:24,367 --> 00:53:26,803 I have a feeling we're going to be fast friends. 870 00:53:26,969 --> 00:53:28,214 Now, Maddie, you have to help me 871 00:53:28,238 --> 00:53:29,406 keep an eye on her. 872 00:53:29,572 --> 00:53:32,241 This one likes to exercise when no one's looking. 873 00:53:32,408 --> 00:53:35,178 Exercise is strictly forbidden while in treatment. 874 00:53:35,345 --> 00:53:38,148 Especially if you have a weak heart like me. 875 00:53:39,448 --> 00:53:42,218 Okay I can't hold it in anymore. 876 00:53:42,384 --> 00:53:45,588 If you need to use the bathroom, ask someone on the staff 877 00:53:45,755 --> 00:53:47,195 and we'll come and unlock it for you. 878 00:53:53,996 --> 00:53:55,756 And you have to sing at the top of your lungs 879 00:53:55,831 --> 00:53:57,366 while you're in there. Why? 880 00:53:57,533 --> 00:53:59,535 How else we gonna know you not puking? 881 00:54:06,576 --> 00:54:10,914 If they want us to eat so bad, why is the food gray? 882 00:54:11,481 --> 00:54:14,751 You don't like mashed potatoes? They're my favorite. 883 00:54:16,018 --> 00:54:17,258 When we get out of here, Julie, 884 00:54:17,420 --> 00:54:19,055 I'm gonna make you potato gratin. 885 00:54:19,222 --> 00:54:20,890 I don't know what that is. 886 00:54:21,757 --> 00:54:22,757 Hey, Julie. 887 00:54:23,426 --> 00:54:24,794 Your crush is coming over. 888 00:54:24,961 --> 00:54:26,629 Yeah, you should finally make your move. 889 00:54:26,796 --> 00:54:28,664 I told you guys, I'm not ready yet. 890 00:54:28,864 --> 00:54:31,034 I want the timing to be perfect. 891 00:54:31,200 --> 00:54:32,234 Hi, ladies. 892 00:54:32,401 --> 00:54:33,570 Hi, Nurse Kelly. Hi. 893 00:54:33,736 --> 00:54:34,736 Hi, Nurse Kelly. 894 00:54:34,870 --> 00:54:36,572 Maddie, how are you settling in? 895 00:54:36,739 --> 00:54:38,408 Um, I don't eat meat. 896 00:54:38,975 --> 00:54:40,476 Uhhuh. No, no, really. 897 00:54:40,643 --> 00:54:42,344 I told the doctors in my intake. 898 00:54:42,511 --> 00:54:43,589 Why don't you eat meat, Maddie? 899 00:54:43,613 --> 00:54:45,748 Um, ethical reasons. 900 00:54:45,915 --> 00:54:47,116 Why not just go all the way 901 00:54:47,250 --> 00:54:48,652 and be vegan? 902 00:54:48,818 --> 00:54:50,498 I'll look into a vegetarian option shortly. 903 00:54:50,653 --> 00:54:52,989 No one leaves the dining room until their plates are clean. 904 00:54:53,156 --> 00:54:54,757 We've also instated nightly inspections 905 00:54:54,924 --> 00:54:57,426 of your rooms because of the pudding cups we found 906 00:54:57,593 --> 00:54:59,129 in Brittany's trash this morning. 907 00:55:00,129 --> 00:55:01,797 I like your shirt, Nurse Kelly. 908 00:55:01,964 --> 00:55:03,433 Thank you, Julie. It's Paul Smith. 909 00:55:03,599 --> 00:55:04,667 I got it online. 910 00:55:08,270 --> 00:55:09,439 What's so funny? 911 00:55:11,707 --> 00:55:14,077 Happy birthday to you... 912 00:55:14,244 --> 00:55:16,145 Oh, no, oh, no, oh, no. It's okay, Amanda. 913 00:55:16,345 --> 00:55:19,115 Happy birthday to you... 914 00:55:19,281 --> 00:55:20,383 What's going on? 915 00:55:20,550 --> 00:55:22,452 On your birthday, they get you a cupcake. 916 00:55:22,652 --> 00:55:24,487 Happy birthday, dear Amanda 917 00:55:24,687 --> 00:55:29,459 Happy birthday to you 918 00:55:31,660 --> 00:55:33,029 Thank you, guys. 919 00:55:35,098 --> 00:55:36,099 Can I do half? 920 00:55:36,566 --> 00:55:38,668 You gotta do the whole thing, baby. 921 00:56:01,023 --> 00:56:03,126 Hello? Hi, Jake. 922 00:56:05,061 --> 00:56:06,129 Are you okay? 923 00:56:07,496 --> 00:56:08,496 Um... 924 00:56:09,966 --> 00:56:11,434 I'm a little scared. 925 00:56:12,535 --> 00:56:16,706 You? Um... I'm confused. 926 00:56:17,440 --> 00:56:18,440 I know. 927 00:56:19,575 --> 00:56:21,544 Hey, I heard they grant special privileges 928 00:56:21,711 --> 00:56:22,979 based on your improvement. 929 00:56:23,146 --> 00:56:24,714 Maybe they'll let me out for The Boar. 930 00:56:25,448 --> 00:56:30,787 Maddie, I just want you and the baby to be healthy. 931 00:56:33,422 --> 00:56:34,457 Me too. 932 00:56:37,560 --> 00:56:38,995 Hey, I should go to bed. 933 00:56:39,162 --> 00:56:41,263 Apparently they wake us up really early here. 934 00:56:42,098 --> 00:56:43,767 I love you so much, Maddie. 935 00:56:43,933 --> 00:56:45,168 I love you, too. 936 00:56:54,576 --> 00:56:56,746 Is he nice? 937 00:56:57,713 --> 00:56:59,249 Very. 938 00:57:00,282 --> 00:57:01,384 Like Nurse Kelly. 939 00:57:02,218 --> 00:57:04,454 Maybe we can all go on a double date sometime. 940 00:57:05,788 --> 00:57:08,258 I would love that, Julie. Oh. 941 00:57:21,204 --> 00:57:23,606 Who would like to start? 942 00:57:27,376 --> 00:57:28,812 Okay. 943 00:57:29,512 --> 00:57:30,512 Well... 944 00:57:30,679 --> 00:57:32,649 I would love to hear from Maddie 945 00:57:32,815 --> 00:57:35,418 about how her first week of treatment is going. 946 00:57:39,388 --> 00:57:40,590 Um... 947 00:57:42,525 --> 00:57:43,526 it's been pretty good. 948 00:57:44,927 --> 00:57:46,930 So... So, yeah. 949 00:57:48,797 --> 00:57:50,166 I'm surprised to hear that. 950 00:57:51,134 --> 00:57:53,269 When I met you in the hospital, you seemed determined 951 00:57:53,436 --> 00:57:54,837 to figure it out on your own. 952 00:57:55,438 --> 00:57:58,107 And yet, ultimately, you agreed to come here. 953 00:57:58,641 --> 00:57:59,943 Why is that, Maddie? 954 00:58:01,276 --> 00:58:02,445 I... 955 00:58:02,612 --> 00:58:04,613 I know I was a little resistant at first, 956 00:58:04,780 --> 00:58:07,249 but the staff here has been so wonderful, 957 00:58:07,416 --> 00:58:09,785 and the other women so inspiring. 958 00:58:14,691 --> 00:58:16,125 You didn't answer my question. 959 00:58:16,959 --> 00:58:18,795 Why did you agree to come here, Maddie? 960 00:58:23,132 --> 00:58:26,936 Well, you made it seem like I was going to, 961 00:58:27,570 --> 00:58:30,373 um, die. 962 00:58:33,809 --> 00:58:35,011 So you want to live? 963 00:58:36,746 --> 00:58:40,283 Of course I want to live. 964 00:58:40,883 --> 00:58:42,185 Look, when I... 965 00:58:43,218 --> 00:58:44,487 purge, uh... 966 00:58:45,021 --> 00:58:46,655 it's just a compulsive stress response 967 00:58:46,822 --> 00:58:48,057 from when I was younger, 968 00:58:48,224 --> 00:58:51,227 and I've been experiencing a lot of stress at work. 969 00:58:51,394 --> 00:58:54,130 I sincerely don't have some sort of 970 00:58:54,297 --> 00:58:56,165 tortured relationship to food. 971 00:58:56,332 --> 00:58:59,301 In fact, I'm quite passionate about food. 972 00:58:59,468 --> 00:59:02,238 Well, Maddie, I think that's beautiful. 973 00:59:03,072 --> 00:59:05,207 Oh, my God, I'm so sorry. 974 00:59:05,374 --> 00:59:08,344 I always do that. 975 00:59:12,781 --> 00:59:14,950 I think you have an extremely tortured relationship 976 00:59:15,151 --> 00:59:16,919 with food, Maddie. Well, Connie, 977 00:59:17,086 --> 00:59:18,388 we just met, so... 978 00:59:22,158 --> 00:59:24,860 I think it just got sublimated into a career. 979 00:59:26,528 --> 00:59:28,473 Like the little boy that cut the tails off of dogs 980 00:59:28,497 --> 00:59:30,099 and grew up to become a surgeon. 981 00:59:30,899 --> 00:59:32,501 The question is, 982 00:59:32,635 --> 00:59:35,805 why are you so tortured about food? 983 00:59:37,272 --> 00:59:38,950 If it were really just about losing weight, 984 00:59:38,974 --> 00:59:42,545 you could go on Ozempic or starve yourself, like me. 985 00:59:43,946 --> 00:59:46,883 But there's something else, isn't there? 986 00:59:47,917 --> 00:59:49,385 Something you're running away from. 987 00:59:50,253 --> 00:59:53,122 When I was a little girl, it was all those gymnasts on TV 988 00:59:53,289 --> 00:59:54,557 that drove me to it. 989 00:59:55,258 --> 00:59:58,394 With their slickedback ponies, not one hair out of place. 990 00:59:59,395 --> 01:00:01,531 But now it's girls like you, Maddie. 991 01:00:02,598 --> 01:00:04,400 The nomakeup makeup look. 992 01:00:05,368 --> 01:00:07,670 The hair falling in your face just so. 993 01:00:09,238 --> 01:00:11,373 But I think those pesky little flyaways 994 01:00:11,540 --> 01:00:12,820 are trying to tell us something. 995 01:00:15,211 --> 01:00:18,548 I think you actually want to lose control, Maddie. 996 01:00:20,249 --> 01:00:22,919 Those are your fingers down your throat, after all. 997 01:00:24,286 --> 01:00:25,286 Yours. 998 01:00:30,793 --> 01:00:32,103 Dr. Kronenfeld: Her passion for food 999 01:00:32,127 --> 01:00:34,664 has an almost moral sheen to it. 1000 01:00:34,831 --> 01:00:36,866 It's possible that to her, at some level, 1001 01:00:37,032 --> 01:00:40,269 the bulimia is an extension of that purity. 1002 01:00:40,436 --> 01:00:43,572 A saintlike sacrifice that Maddie makes for all of us. 1003 01:00:43,705 --> 01:00:45,941 A correction for the excesses of our culture. 1004 01:00:46,108 --> 01:00:48,944 Or Maddie the chef is the good girl 1005 01:00:49,111 --> 01:00:51,446 and Maddie the bulimic is the bad girl, 1006 01:00:51,613 --> 01:00:53,949 having some sort of delayed adolescence. 1007 01:00:54,116 --> 01:00:56,185 Sounds like you should talk to the mom. 1008 01:00:56,351 --> 01:00:58,787 I've tried, but Maddie absolutely refuses 1009 01:00:58,954 --> 01:01:00,523 to do a session with her. 1010 01:01:00,690 --> 01:01:02,458 It's actually refreshing to see a crack 1011 01:01:02,625 --> 01:01:04,894 in the veneer of her usual agreeability. 1012 01:01:05,061 --> 01:01:07,606 Well, at least she has some kind of respect for the rules around here. 1013 01:01:07,630 --> 01:01:08,764 I'll take Sandra Dee 1014 01:01:08,964 --> 01:01:10,884 over the goddamn pink ladies any day of the week. 1015 01:01:13,202 --> 01:01:15,070 I did not throw up my dinner! 1016 01:01:15,270 --> 01:01:17,707 Why was your blood pressure so low this morning, Brittany? 1017 01:01:17,874 --> 01:01:20,276 You heard me singing in the bathroom! 1018 01:01:20,443 --> 01:01:22,453 Sure, and I smelled what was under your bed this morning. 1019 01:01:22,477 --> 01:01:24,647 I know your tricks. Fuck off! 1020 01:01:26,381 --> 01:01:27,617 Your turn, Amanda. 1021 01:01:29,084 --> 01:01:31,086 How do you expect us to stop obsessing 1022 01:01:31,286 --> 01:01:33,189 over our weight when you weigh us every morning? 1023 01:01:33,355 --> 01:01:35,324 Do you have a Bachelor of Science, Amanda? 1024 01:01:35,658 --> 01:01:36,658 Or do I? 1025 01:01:37,226 --> 01:01:38,294 I forget. 1026 01:01:42,865 --> 01:01:44,467 What was it like when he had his arms 1027 01:01:44,634 --> 01:01:47,736 wrapped around you? 1028 01:01:47,903 --> 01:01:49,071 Guys, please. 1029 01:01:49,639 --> 01:01:50,919 No, no, no. We're not being mean. 1030 01:01:51,039 --> 01:01:52,641 I get it. He's hot. He's hot. 1031 01:01:52,774 --> 01:01:54,009 He's hot. He's hot. 1032 01:01:54,176 --> 01:01:56,078 He's really kind. 1033 01:01:56,245 --> 01:01:58,514 He's so in touch with his, like, femininity. 1034 01:01:58,681 --> 01:02:00,182 Feminine side. Yeah. 1035 01:02:00,349 --> 01:02:02,193 Good morning, ladies. Don't listen to them, okay? 1036 01:02:02,217 --> 01:02:04,019 We have a new patient joining us today. 1037 01:02:04,186 --> 01:02:05,888 Everybody, say hi to Deena. 1038 01:02:06,722 --> 01:02:08,524 Hi, Deena. 1039 01:02:12,327 --> 01:02:14,396 They totally bought it, Maddie. 1040 01:02:14,563 --> 01:02:15,564 Bought what? My whole 1041 01:02:15,731 --> 01:02:17,433 eating disorder sob story. 1042 01:02:17,600 --> 01:02:20,036 Took a fistful of beta blockers that lower my heart rate. 1043 01:02:20,203 --> 01:02:21,413 Ooh, and I learned that bulimics, 1044 01:02:21,437 --> 01:02:23,117 their teeth get all fuckedup and discolored 1045 01:02:23,205 --> 01:02:24,573 from the stomach acid. Uhhuh. 1046 01:02:24,740 --> 01:02:26,718 So this chick that I used to bang out in the valley, right? 1047 01:02:26,742 --> 01:02:28,144 She does makeup for film and TV. 1048 01:02:28,344 --> 01:02:32,515 I had to dye my teeth brown. She fucking killed it. Look. 1049 01:02:37,586 --> 01:02:41,123 Hi, Maddie. Hi, Deena. How's your first day going? 1050 01:02:41,290 --> 01:02:43,292 Oh, man. Are those mashed potatoes? 1051 01:02:43,459 --> 01:02:44,927 Yeah, they're my favorite. 1052 01:02:45,094 --> 01:02:46,962 Those totally trigger my food stuff. 1053 01:02:47,129 --> 01:02:49,532 I might launch into binge mode 3,000. 1054 01:02:49,699 --> 01:02:51,133 Do you mind sitting somewhere else? 1055 01:02:51,300 --> 01:02:54,403 Oh. Okay. 1056 01:02:56,972 --> 01:02:58,174 Okay. 1057 01:02:59,008 --> 01:03:00,743 But why did you come here? 1058 01:03:00,910 --> 01:03:02,444 Couldn't let you go through this alone. 1059 01:03:02,611 --> 01:03:03,780 I got you. 1060 01:03:07,183 --> 01:03:08,784 Deena, I can't miss that presentation. 1061 01:03:08,951 --> 01:03:10,620 There's my girl. 1062 01:03:10,786 --> 01:03:12,621 I have a whole plan, but I need your help. 1063 01:03:12,788 --> 01:03:14,023 Anything. Anything at all. 1064 01:03:14,190 --> 01:03:16,325 Well, aren't you two getting along famously? 1065 01:03:17,493 --> 01:03:19,562 It's like I've known her forever and ever. 1066 01:03:24,500 --> 01:03:27,002 But first we have to get the staff off our backs. 1067 01:03:27,169 --> 01:03:29,137 I obviously don't want to jeopardize his job, 1068 01:03:29,304 --> 01:03:31,183 so I'm going to wait until after I leave treatment 1069 01:03:31,207 --> 01:03:32,608 to tell him about my feelings. 1070 01:03:32,774 --> 01:03:34,677 We're talking about the same Nurse Kelly, right? 1071 01:03:34,843 --> 01:03:37,513 Yep. The one with the beautiful eyelashes. 1072 01:03:39,582 --> 01:03:41,651 Connie and Amanda's room. Now. 1073 01:03:43,419 --> 01:03:45,654 Ew, ew, ew. 1074 01:03:45,821 --> 01:03:48,123 See, that's the same face they make in porn now. 1075 01:03:48,290 --> 01:03:49,492 How'd you get the phone? 1076 01:03:49,658 --> 01:03:51,527 Amanda swiped it from Nurse Hammond's coat 1077 01:03:51,694 --> 01:03:53,295 she left on the back of the chair. 1078 01:03:53,462 --> 01:03:56,499 I have a whole stealing thing. I'm gonna put it back. 1079 01:03:59,968 --> 01:04:02,238 You all came to Dr. Kronenfeld's program 1080 01:04:02,438 --> 01:04:04,840 because your lives had gotten out of control. 1081 01:04:05,541 --> 01:04:07,143 And the rules that we enforce here 1082 01:04:07,310 --> 01:04:08,587 are to give that control back to you. 1083 01:04:08,611 --> 01:04:10,045 They're for your safety. 1084 01:04:10,212 --> 01:04:11,647 So when I receive word 1085 01:04:12,614 --> 01:04:14,950 that there are people disrespecting those rules, 1086 01:04:15,484 --> 01:04:17,053 it breaks my heart. 1087 01:04:18,387 --> 01:04:19,522 Nurse Hammond? 1088 01:04:22,824 --> 01:04:24,227 Who took my phone? 1089 01:04:35,003 --> 01:04:36,339 It was my idea. 1090 01:04:37,506 --> 01:04:38,574 I acted alone, 1091 01:04:38,740 --> 01:04:41,010 and I'm sorry if I caused anyone any harm. 1092 01:04:43,011 --> 01:04:45,080 I can't let Connie do that. 1093 01:04:45,247 --> 01:04:46,848 Um, it may have been her idea, 1094 01:04:47,015 --> 01:04:49,719 but I was the one that took the actual phone. 1095 01:04:50,752 --> 01:04:52,355 And I apologize to the community. 1096 01:04:56,926 --> 01:04:58,861 I was with Amanda when she took the phone. 1097 01:04:59,028 --> 01:05:00,529 I could have stopped her 1098 01:05:00,696 --> 01:05:05,501 and instead I egged her on and, yeah, I'm sorry. 1099 01:05:10,138 --> 01:05:12,608 We asked you to come forward and tell the truth. 1100 01:05:12,775 --> 01:05:14,276 And Connie, you said you acted alone, 1101 01:05:14,443 --> 01:05:15,523 which we now know is a lie. 1102 01:05:15,611 --> 01:05:17,011 I was taking the fall for my friend. 1103 01:05:17,079 --> 01:05:18,214 Connie, I have the stick. 1104 01:05:18,981 --> 01:05:20,449 Nurse Hammond and I have no choice 1105 01:05:20,616 --> 01:05:21,717 but to enforce a curfew. 1106 01:05:21,884 --> 01:05:23,252 You'll regain 1107 01:05:23,419 --> 01:05:24,896 your evening privileges once we can get a handle 1108 01:05:24,920 --> 01:05:27,556 on what the hell is happening in our community. 1109 01:05:33,161 --> 01:05:34,330 Yes, Maddie. 1110 01:05:38,801 --> 01:05:40,321 I'm not quite sure what's going on here 1111 01:05:40,469 --> 01:05:42,137 at Presbyterian Hospital either. 1112 01:05:42,971 --> 01:05:45,174 All I can really do is look at my own part 1113 01:05:45,341 --> 01:05:47,743 in this larger erosion of trust. 1114 01:05:48,644 --> 01:05:50,112 I'll admit it. 1115 01:05:50,279 --> 01:05:52,281 I've been going through the motions here, 1116 01:05:52,948 --> 01:05:54,650 doing the bare minimum just to make it look 1117 01:05:54,817 --> 01:05:57,486 like I was getting better. But... 1118 01:05:58,253 --> 01:06:00,222 if we want things to change around here, 1119 01:06:00,823 --> 01:06:03,559 we have to show up, not just for ourselves, 1120 01:06:03,726 --> 01:06:05,594 but for each other. 1121 01:06:07,663 --> 01:06:08,931 Today... 1122 01:06:12,300 --> 01:06:14,937 I'm recommitting to recovery, but... 1123 01:06:16,271 --> 01:06:17,273 I can't do it alone. 1124 01:06:18,908 --> 01:06:19,908 Who's with me? 1125 01:06:24,146 --> 01:06:25,147 Nice. 1126 01:06:28,650 --> 01:06:30,953 Awesome, guys. Cool. 1127 01:06:31,120 --> 01:06:33,588 Good night, Nurse Kelly. Good night, Nurse Hammond. 1128 01:06:33,755 --> 01:06:34,924 Good night, Deena. 1129 01:06:35,124 --> 01:06:36,767 We really appreciate you and Maddie coming forward 1130 01:06:36,791 --> 01:06:37,893 about my phone. 1131 01:06:38,060 --> 01:06:39,962 We'll come back and check on you in the morning. 1132 01:06:51,073 --> 01:06:53,375 Hi, Brittany. Everyone settled in here? 1133 01:06:53,542 --> 01:06:56,012 Snuggled in like fucking animals at the zoo! 1134 01:06:56,145 --> 01:06:57,656 I see that integrity isn't rewarded here. 1135 01:06:57,680 --> 01:06:58,857 I see that dignity isn't rewarded here. 1136 01:06:58,881 --> 01:06:59,882 Brittany. I mean, 1137 01:07:00,049 --> 01:07:01,817 this is a fucking surveillance state, man. 1138 01:07:01,984 --> 01:07:03,344 Once you get out of here, Brittany, 1139 01:07:03,485 --> 01:07:05,387 you can make your own rules. 1140 01:07:05,554 --> 01:07:07,656 Other than that, stay in the room. 1141 01:07:07,823 --> 01:07:10,892 I'm like over it. I'm over it at this point with her. 1142 01:07:11,026 --> 01:07:12,528 It's too much. Those three bitches. 1143 01:07:28,410 --> 01:07:29,678 What's up, Shawna? 1144 01:07:29,844 --> 01:07:33,015 Deena, you're supposed to be in your room. 1145 01:07:33,182 --> 01:07:35,084 You know what's been really bugging me? 1146 01:07:35,250 --> 01:07:36,551 You're such a fox, 1147 01:07:36,785 --> 01:07:39,097 but these glasses are totally the wrong shape for your face. 1148 01:07:39,121 --> 01:07:41,757 Oh. Well, they are a little tight 1149 01:07:41,923 --> 01:07:44,360 across the bridge of my nose. Let me see. 1150 01:07:45,827 --> 01:07:49,398 Oh, yeah. This is an easy fix. 1151 01:07:49,565 --> 01:07:51,133 I have a glasses repair kit in my room. 1152 01:07:51,300 --> 01:07:54,402 Deena, I can't see. Damn, Shawna. 1153 01:07:54,569 --> 01:07:56,237 You should really consider contacts. 1154 01:07:56,404 --> 01:07:58,307 You would clean up in my world. 1155 01:08:14,089 --> 01:08:15,091 Maddie. 1156 01:08:16,792 --> 01:08:17,960 Where are you going? 1157 01:08:18,126 --> 01:08:19,937 I have to do something. I'll be back in the morning. 1158 01:08:19,961 --> 01:08:21,797 But it's against the rules. 1159 01:08:21,964 --> 01:08:25,267 I know. Look, I wouldn't do this if it weren't really important. 1160 01:08:25,433 --> 01:08:27,602 You have to promise not to tell anyone, okay? 1161 01:08:27,769 --> 01:08:29,472 I don't like this, Maddie. 1162 01:08:33,943 --> 01:08:35,711 Julie, you're not supposed to exercise. 1163 01:08:35,878 --> 01:08:38,948 So you can break the rules, but I can't? 1164 01:08:41,049 --> 01:08:43,919 Six, seven, eight... 1165 01:08:44,586 --> 01:08:46,622 nine, ten. 1166 01:08:48,289 --> 01:08:50,526 Hey! Who is that? 1167 01:08:51,760 --> 01:08:53,629 It's past curfew. 1168 01:08:54,363 --> 01:08:55,363 Nurse Hammond! 1169 01:08:55,431 --> 01:08:57,599 It's Beverlee from Oncology. 1170 01:08:57,766 --> 01:08:59,501 Got off on the wrong floor again. 1171 01:09:00,102 --> 01:09:01,637 Been working nights, you know. 1172 01:09:03,806 --> 01:09:06,075 Beverlee from Oncology. 1173 01:09:07,776 --> 01:09:08,776 Hmm. 1174 01:09:12,481 --> 01:09:13,782 Nurse Hammond. 1175 01:09:14,549 --> 01:09:17,652 She said she was from the Oncology unit. 1176 01:09:18,186 --> 01:09:22,023 God damn it, Shawna! There is no Oncology unit. 1177 01:09:22,624 --> 01:09:24,960 Maddie! 1178 01:09:27,195 --> 01:09:28,497 Pop it... 1179 01:09:34,469 --> 01:09:36,772 Maddie! 1180 01:09:40,142 --> 01:09:41,210 Oh, fuck! 1181 01:09:53,789 --> 01:09:54,857 Yes! 1182 01:09:59,695 --> 01:10:01,263 Hey. Hey. 1183 01:10:02,264 --> 01:10:04,967 I've missed you so much. I've missed you, too. 1184 01:10:05,667 --> 01:10:07,712 The doctors must feel really good about your progress 1185 01:10:07,736 --> 01:10:08,970 to let you do this tonight. 1186 01:10:09,704 --> 01:10:13,142 Maybe you can come home soon. Yeah, for sure. 1187 01:10:14,976 --> 01:10:17,045 How's our little boy or girl or whatever? 1188 01:10:17,212 --> 01:10:19,247 Sorry. 1189 01:10:19,414 --> 01:10:21,383 Sorry, I'm just nervous about tonight, that's all. 1190 01:10:21,550 --> 01:10:22,660 We should probably get going. 1191 01:10:22,684 --> 01:10:23,684 Yeah. Yeah. 1192 01:10:23,819 --> 01:10:25,286 I got everything on the list. 1193 01:10:25,820 --> 01:10:27,356 Hopefully I didn't screw it up. 1194 01:10:40,035 --> 01:10:42,904 Hi, come in. Come in. I'm Jake. 1195 01:10:43,071 --> 01:10:44,172 I'm Dan. This is Chelsea. 1196 01:10:44,306 --> 01:10:45,740 Hi. Nice to meet you. 1197 01:10:45,907 --> 01:10:47,643 A latenight meal from Maddie Ralph. 1198 01:10:47,843 --> 01:10:48,977 Am I dreaming? 1199 01:10:49,144 --> 01:10:50,545 Latenight and homecooked. 1200 01:10:50,712 --> 01:10:53,882 It's bold. It's personal. Like your show. 1201 01:10:54,048 --> 01:10:55,760 I should just probably get out in front of this 1202 01:10:55,784 --> 01:10:56,885 before I embarrass myself, 1203 01:10:57,052 --> 01:10:58,854 but I'm a huge fan of The Boar. 1204 01:10:59,020 --> 01:11:00,222 Hey, we are too. 1205 01:11:00,389 --> 01:11:02,191 It's not as cocky as it sounds. 1206 01:11:02,858 --> 01:11:04,418 All we do is give those guys the freedom 1207 01:11:04,493 --> 01:11:05,593 to do whatever they want. 1208 01:11:05,760 --> 01:11:06,862 It certainly pays off. 1209 01:11:07,029 --> 01:11:08,029 Can I interest you guys 1210 01:11:08,130 --> 01:11:10,065 in some orange wine from Georgia? 1211 01:11:10,232 --> 01:11:12,267 And that's not the state, that's the country. 1212 01:11:12,434 --> 01:11:14,336 We know. And sure, that sounds great. 1213 01:11:14,502 --> 01:11:15,804 Coming right up. 1214 01:11:19,641 --> 01:11:22,477 And how's it going in here? Where's my Fly By Jing? 1215 01:11:23,145 --> 01:11:24,613 I don't know what that is. 1216 01:11:24,780 --> 01:11:27,049 It's a brand of Chili Crisp, womanowned. 1217 01:11:27,216 --> 01:11:30,152 There was some right here on the shelf before I, um... 1218 01:11:30,319 --> 01:11:31,753 Hey, hey, hey. 1219 01:11:31,920 --> 01:11:33,054 If this is too much for you, 1220 01:11:33,221 --> 01:11:35,356 we can tell them I got all the wrong groceries 1221 01:11:35,523 --> 01:11:37,359 and we can reschedule, okay? 1222 01:11:37,525 --> 01:11:39,565 Your health is more important than this job, Maddie. 1223 01:11:39,662 --> 01:11:43,098 I'm fine, Jake. I promise. I need to go drop the halloumi. 1224 01:11:49,304 --> 01:11:50,539 Hi, guys. 1225 01:11:50,706 --> 01:11:52,507 No, no, no. Stay seated. 1226 01:11:52,674 --> 01:11:54,810 I'm covered in turmeric. I don't want to stain you. 1227 01:11:56,511 --> 01:12:00,281 Uh, this is a grilled halloumi with a yuzu kosho crisp. 1228 01:12:01,282 --> 01:12:03,452 Enjoy. Thanks for having us, Maddie. 1229 01:12:03,619 --> 01:12:04,819 Oh, it's my pleasure. 1230 01:12:04,986 --> 01:12:07,523 Not a lot of videos lately. We've missed you. 1231 01:12:09,257 --> 01:12:12,727 Yeah, I've, um, I've taken a step back at GourMaybe 1232 01:12:12,927 --> 01:12:14,296 to really... Mm. 1233 01:12:15,030 --> 01:12:16,665 Reconnect with what I love about food, 1234 01:12:16,832 --> 01:12:20,335 which I hope you guys feel in what I made for you tonight. 1235 01:12:20,501 --> 01:12:21,804 Mm. 1236 01:12:25,307 --> 01:12:27,643 Take it away. Tell the story. 1237 01:12:29,845 --> 01:12:34,116 Um, I know it all started with pulled pork on your show, 1238 01:12:34,283 --> 01:12:37,185 but I gotta be me. 1239 01:12:37,352 --> 01:12:39,722 Hey, that's what we asked for. 1240 01:12:41,689 --> 01:12:42,691 Um... 1241 01:12:45,360 --> 01:12:47,061 Tonight I've made for you, um, 1242 01:12:47,228 --> 01:12:48,508 something that brings together... 1243 01:12:49,764 --> 01:12:51,767 my favorite styles of cooking, East Asian, 1244 01:12:51,967 --> 01:12:53,569 Middle Eastern, even a little Italian, 1245 01:12:53,736 --> 01:12:55,971 all through a new Californian lens. 1246 01:12:56,137 --> 01:12:58,173 Mm. 1247 01:12:58,340 --> 01:13:02,010 It has all the punch and swagger of the show, 1248 01:13:02,177 --> 01:13:04,212 but with a woman's touch. 1249 01:13:04,379 --> 01:13:05,547 It's not lost on me 1250 01:13:05,713 --> 01:13:07,415 what an incredible opportunity it would be 1251 01:13:07,582 --> 01:13:09,918 to feature innovative vegetarian cooking 1252 01:13:10,085 --> 01:13:11,353 on an international platform. 1253 01:13:11,520 --> 01:13:13,255 I'm just gonna grab one of these. 1254 01:13:17,626 --> 01:13:19,895 Mm. 1255 01:13:22,164 --> 01:13:24,867 Can I ask what brought you to vegetarianism? 1256 01:13:29,237 --> 01:13:30,406 Ethical reasons. 1257 01:14:00,902 --> 01:14:03,262 I'm not kidding. Sometimes I'll do the sessions from my car. 1258 01:14:08,209 --> 01:14:10,078 It's really helped with executive functioning. 1259 01:14:10,812 --> 01:14:12,947 That's amazing. 1260 01:14:13,114 --> 01:14:16,084 And shame stuff. Uh, I should sign up for sure. 1261 01:14:24,659 --> 01:14:25,960 Whoa, Jake. 1262 01:14:26,127 --> 01:14:27,663 What's the story behind this table? 1263 01:14:28,396 --> 01:14:29,396 Um... 1264 01:14:30,699 --> 01:14:33,769 Uh, a buddy of mine from Middlebury does 1265 01:14:33,935 --> 01:14:36,438 does these liveedge walnut countertops and tables. 1266 01:14:37,005 --> 01:14:38,440 Middlebury's in Vermont, right? 1267 01:14:38,606 --> 01:14:40,709 Yeah. You know, we're actually doing 1268 01:14:40,875 --> 01:14:42,795 a bottle episode... dairy farm around Burlington. 1269 01:14:42,844 --> 01:14:45,279 Cool, cool. Wait, what kind of episode? 1270 01:14:45,413 --> 01:14:46,773 Well, bottle episode is when the... 1271 01:14:49,451 --> 01:14:52,788 Maddie? Hey, Maddie, come here. Hey. 1272 01:14:53,322 --> 01:14:55,290 Call 911, please. Hey, come here. 1273 01:14:56,190 --> 01:14:57,192 Call 911. 1274 01:15:02,831 --> 01:15:03,965 We successfully repaired 1275 01:15:04,132 --> 01:15:05,534 the gastrointestinal perforation, 1276 01:15:05,701 --> 01:15:07,301 but she's going to need to be 1277 01:15:07,468 --> 01:15:09,103 on a very strict diet of mild foods 1278 01:15:09,270 --> 01:15:11,105 for the next month to fully recover. 1279 01:15:11,272 --> 01:15:13,976 White rice, white fish, no salt. 1280 01:15:15,477 --> 01:15:17,312 Will that be enough nutrients for the baby? 1281 01:15:19,915 --> 01:15:20,915 Uh, 1282 01:15:21,583 --> 01:15:23,551 there's nothing in her chart about a pregnancy. 1283 01:15:27,555 --> 01:15:28,555 What? 1284 01:15:29,224 --> 01:15:30,759 Dr. Kronenfeld: Yeah, I... 1285 01:15:30,892 --> 01:15:33,060 There's no way we would have done the surgery 1286 01:15:33,227 --> 01:15:34,863 and not seen that come up, uh... 1287 01:15:52,680 --> 01:15:53,681 Damn, Maddie. 1288 01:15:53,848 --> 01:15:55,417 I didn't know you had it in you. 1289 01:15:55,617 --> 01:15:57,052 Respect. 1290 01:16:00,488 --> 01:16:01,523 Psst. 1291 01:16:01,690 --> 01:16:02,925 How did it go? 1292 01:16:19,708 --> 01:16:20,942 Where's Julie? 1293 01:16:21,109 --> 01:16:22,710 Why don't you get some rest, honey, 1294 01:16:22,877 --> 01:16:24,212 and we'll talk later. 1295 01:16:29,050 --> 01:16:30,050 Where's Julie? 1296 01:16:37,058 --> 01:16:38,058 Where's Julie? 1297 01:16:42,964 --> 01:16:44,099 Julie's dead. 1298 01:16:44,266 --> 01:16:46,201 God damn it, Amanda! 1299 01:16:48,070 --> 01:16:50,305 Where's Julie? 1300 01:16:51,373 --> 01:16:52,673 Heart failure. 1301 01:16:52,840 --> 01:16:54,843 I didn't want to tell you in this state. 1302 01:16:59,214 --> 01:17:01,249 It's my fault. No, it's not, babe. 1303 01:17:01,983 --> 01:17:04,620 She wasn't supposed to exercise. 1304 01:17:05,921 --> 01:17:07,856 It's my fault. 1305 01:17:10,125 --> 01:17:13,295 She wasn't supposed to exercise. 1306 01:17:27,575 --> 01:17:28,575 Hey Maddie, 1307 01:17:29,344 --> 01:17:31,146 how would you like a new roommate? 1308 01:17:35,683 --> 01:17:36,851 Hey! 1309 01:17:37,018 --> 01:17:38,538 At least you got to explain your vision 1310 01:17:38,586 --> 01:17:39,620 for the series. 1311 01:17:39,787 --> 01:17:41,356 And I bet they'll come crawling back 1312 01:17:41,523 --> 01:17:43,592 once they realize Emily is a total fraud. 1313 01:17:45,193 --> 01:17:47,128 No fucking way! 1314 01:17:47,295 --> 01:17:50,798 Oh, my God, that chick was delusional! 1315 01:17:50,998 --> 01:17:54,503 Oh! Oh! 1316 01:17:56,271 --> 01:17:57,838 Oh, God. 1317 01:17:58,606 --> 01:18:00,509 Take that out of the trash, Deena. 1318 01:18:05,814 --> 01:18:07,883 Why do you care? 1319 01:18:08,850 --> 01:18:10,752 Because she was my friend. 1320 01:18:11,920 --> 01:18:12,920 So am I. 1321 01:18:13,521 --> 01:18:15,557 She needed to be here. 1322 01:18:16,324 --> 01:18:17,492 You don't. 1323 01:18:18,493 --> 01:18:19,493 Yes, I do. 1324 01:18:20,661 --> 01:18:21,697 Why? 1325 01:18:23,665 --> 01:18:24,833 Because you need me! 1326 01:18:26,067 --> 01:18:30,538 Fuck! Fuck! 1327 01:18:30,705 --> 01:18:32,874 What the hell is going on in here? Deena? 1328 01:18:33,041 --> 01:18:34,476 Deena? Deena? 1329 01:18:34,643 --> 01:18:37,179 Deena, what is going on? What is happening? 1330 01:18:37,345 --> 01:18:40,582 Deena? Deena? Deena? Deena? Maddie. Maddie. 1331 01:19:13,982 --> 01:19:16,251 Are you sure this is a good idea? 1332 01:19:16,417 --> 01:19:18,153 It's a fine idea. Let's go. 1333 01:19:24,725 --> 01:19:25,961 Where did you get these? 1334 01:19:27,629 --> 01:19:28,830 I made them in art class. 1335 01:19:29,597 --> 01:19:31,566 Is that a goblin? 1336 01:19:33,001 --> 01:19:34,236 Selfportrait. 1337 01:19:38,406 --> 01:19:40,174 I call in the goddesses 1338 01:19:40,942 --> 01:19:45,146 North, South, East, and West, 1339 01:19:45,747 --> 01:19:48,182 on the day that Julie dropped her body 1340 01:19:48,382 --> 01:19:50,485 and became a part of the Sky God. 1341 01:19:52,754 --> 01:19:54,656 Her body will become the earth... 1342 01:19:55,856 --> 01:19:56,858 nutrients... 1343 01:19:58,092 --> 01:19:59,594 to feed other people. 1344 01:20:04,833 --> 01:20:06,668 I'll go. Um... 1345 01:20:08,102 --> 01:20:09,838 You drove me crazy, Julie. 1346 01:20:12,773 --> 01:20:16,877 Your existence was inconvenient to me... 1347 01:20:17,445 --> 01:20:19,314 because you were the living embodiment 1348 01:20:19,481 --> 01:20:22,017 of the parts of myself I've tried to obliterate. 1349 01:20:23,618 --> 01:20:25,120 The part of me that has hope. 1350 01:20:26,654 --> 01:20:28,623 The part of me that wants a friend. 1351 01:20:31,826 --> 01:20:33,528 You were the bravest one of us all. 1352 01:20:37,532 --> 01:20:39,868 I'm so sorry I was mean to you, Julie. 1353 01:20:41,669 --> 01:20:44,306 I do a lot of things without thinking. 1354 01:20:45,339 --> 01:20:47,442 Like when I stole your notebook. 1355 01:20:47,609 --> 01:20:50,845 It was fuckedup of me to read what you wrote, 1356 01:20:51,012 --> 01:20:54,015 but you said such nice things about all of us. 1357 01:20:56,050 --> 01:20:58,019 I can't believe we'll never get to hang out. 1358 01:21:07,027 --> 01:21:08,027 Maddie. 1359 01:21:12,466 --> 01:21:13,466 Okay. 1360 01:21:16,237 --> 01:21:17,237 Julie... 1361 01:21:19,407 --> 01:21:22,477 you always love to swap secrets after lights out. 1362 01:21:25,346 --> 01:21:26,815 So here's one last one. 1363 01:21:29,751 --> 01:21:31,686 I never wanted to be a mother. 1364 01:21:33,655 --> 01:21:35,857 I'm too scared to do to a child... 1365 01:21:37,425 --> 01:21:39,127 what my mom did to me. 1366 01:21:41,095 --> 01:21:44,766 But when I met you, I wanted to protect you. 1367 01:21:46,567 --> 01:21:48,203 And I failed to protect you. 1368 01:21:50,405 --> 01:21:51,973 I guess that's what it's all about. 1369 01:21:54,976 --> 01:21:56,856 It would break my heart to see you do the things 1370 01:21:56,911 --> 01:21:58,880 to your body that I do to mine. 1371 01:22:03,317 --> 01:22:04,317 Okay. 1372 01:22:05,319 --> 01:22:09,891 We release ourselves from those who have left this plane 1373 01:22:10,425 --> 01:22:11,927 and let them walk... 1374 01:22:13,094 --> 01:22:16,230 the blessed gardens of Summerland. 1375 01:22:19,133 --> 01:22:20,601 We love you, Julie. 1376 01:22:20,768 --> 01:22:22,137 We love you, Julie. 1377 01:22:40,288 --> 01:22:43,157 It's always the good students who stay after class. 1378 01:22:43,991 --> 01:22:45,460 Bring her in. 1379 01:23:16,657 --> 01:23:17,937 Dr. Kronenfeld: Hello, Ms. Ralph. 1380 01:23:18,059 --> 01:23:19,694 I'm Dr. Kronenfeld. 1381 01:23:19,861 --> 01:23:21,496 Thank you so much for joining us today. 1382 01:23:21,663 --> 01:23:24,665 Please call me Beverlee. Two Es. 1383 01:23:24,832 --> 01:23:26,310 What's a handsome doctor like you doing 1384 01:23:26,334 --> 01:23:27,702 in a dump like this? 1385 01:23:27,835 --> 01:23:30,214 Shouldn't you be out in Malibu at some private treatment center 1386 01:23:30,238 --> 01:23:32,607 with all those desperate actresses? 1387 01:23:33,708 --> 01:23:35,843 Dr. Kronenfeld: I'm not sure what you're implying. 1388 01:23:36,010 --> 01:23:38,213 We take your daughter's health very seriously here. 1389 01:23:43,818 --> 01:23:46,320 Fuck! 1390 01:23:46,487 --> 01:23:48,723 Are you all right? It's just my damn knee. 1391 01:23:48,890 --> 01:23:50,658 Don't worry, my other parts work just fine. 1392 01:23:51,993 --> 01:23:54,828 Oh, I was teasing, Madison. Good God. 1393 01:23:54,995 --> 01:23:56,731 I've upset Sister Maddie. 1394 01:23:56,898 --> 01:23:59,200 Now I must repent. 1395 01:23:59,366 --> 01:24:02,002 It's an interesting time to be cracking jokes, Ms. Ralph. 1396 01:24:02,169 --> 01:24:05,173 Oh, forgive me. This all just seems really dramatic. 1397 01:24:05,339 --> 01:24:07,441 In the past month and a half, your daughter has gone 1398 01:24:07,641 --> 01:24:10,277 into cardiac arrest and has ruptured her stomach 1399 01:24:10,444 --> 01:24:11,879 as a result of her bulimia. 1400 01:24:12,046 --> 01:24:13,814 And I suppose that's all my fault? 1401 01:24:13,981 --> 01:24:15,449 We're not here to assign blame. 1402 01:24:16,116 --> 01:24:18,652 We're here to identify unconscious patterns 1403 01:24:18,819 --> 01:24:22,023 from Maddie's childhood, to bring them up to the surface 1404 01:24:22,189 --> 01:24:24,091 so that she can have more control over them 1405 01:24:24,258 --> 01:24:25,492 in the future. 1406 01:24:25,659 --> 01:24:28,829 As you were obviously a key player during that time, 1407 01:24:28,996 --> 01:24:31,933 your sincere cooperation today could be very beneficial 1408 01:24:32,099 --> 01:24:33,901 to your daughter. Well, I'm here, aren't I? 1409 01:24:34,068 --> 01:24:35,670 Yes, you are. 1410 01:24:36,704 --> 01:24:39,140 That takes courage. Let's not get maudlin'. 1411 01:24:39,707 --> 01:24:41,075 First question. 1412 01:24:41,242 --> 01:24:43,745 Okay. Can you tell me about Maddie's father? 1413 01:24:43,912 --> 01:24:45,713 He's out of the picture. 1414 01:24:45,880 --> 01:24:47,615 Can you be more specific? 1415 01:24:48,482 --> 01:24:51,286 Um, Madison was unplanned. 1416 01:24:51,453 --> 01:24:53,888 I had her when I was very, very young, as you can see. 1417 01:24:54,055 --> 01:24:58,326 Her father and I were desperately in love. 1418 01:24:58,493 --> 01:25:00,127 It was very carnal. 1419 01:25:00,294 --> 01:25:02,563 And then Madison was born and he bolted. 1420 01:25:02,730 --> 01:25:05,332 That's not the whole truth. She speaks. 1421 01:25:05,499 --> 01:25:07,401 Hello, my little Pollyanna. 1422 01:25:07,568 --> 01:25:09,103 What is she leaving out, Maddie? 1423 01:25:09,270 --> 01:25:11,172 What happened to you when you were pregnant? 1424 01:25:11,339 --> 01:25:14,642 Okay, that actually did slip my mind. 1425 01:25:14,808 --> 01:25:16,577 Um... It... Look, 1426 01:25:16,744 --> 01:25:19,613 I gained an unusual amount of weight in my pregnancy. 1427 01:25:19,780 --> 01:25:22,716 God, after Maddie was born, I just could not get it off. 1428 01:25:22,883 --> 01:25:24,419 He was repulsed by us. 1429 01:25:24,919 --> 01:25:27,956 We never got married, so I gave Maddie my last name. 1430 01:25:28,489 --> 01:25:30,325 Ralph. 1431 01:25:30,492 --> 01:25:33,894 Dr. Kronenfeld: I noticed you said he was repulsed by us. 1432 01:25:34,528 --> 01:25:37,164 Did you somehow feel that both you and Maddie 1433 01:25:37,331 --> 01:25:39,167 were responsible for her father leaving? 1434 01:25:39,334 --> 01:25:41,144 You'll be thrilled to know I did not mean to say that, 1435 01:25:41,168 --> 01:25:42,603 Dr. Kronenfeld. 1436 01:25:42,970 --> 01:25:44,906 Oh, let's do a round of Rorschach. 1437 01:25:45,072 --> 01:25:46,992 A little free association, get the words flowing. 1438 01:25:47,074 --> 01:25:49,277 Please don't make a mockery of his work, Mother. 1439 01:25:49,443 --> 01:25:50,443 Thank you, Maddie. 1440 01:25:50,945 --> 01:25:54,014 But let's play her game. 1441 01:25:54,181 --> 01:25:55,616 I'll say a word, and then, Beverlee, 1442 01:25:55,783 --> 01:25:57,518 you say whatever word comes to mind. 1443 01:25:57,685 --> 01:25:59,454 I'm so excited. Go. 1444 01:25:59,988 --> 01:26:01,288 Mm. Light. Bright. 1445 01:26:01,455 --> 01:26:02,523 Bicycle. Boys. 1446 01:26:02,689 --> 01:26:04,759 Water. Pure, clean, reborn. 1447 01:26:04,926 --> 01:26:05,926 Pen. Cock. 1448 01:26:05,960 --> 01:26:06,960 Plane. Still cock. 1449 01:26:07,027 --> 01:26:08,107 Dr. Kronenfeld: Cat. Hairy. 1450 01:26:08,196 --> 01:26:10,398 Meat. No! 1451 01:26:11,832 --> 01:26:15,236 Maddie? Maddie, are you okay? 1452 01:26:15,769 --> 01:26:18,406 What is it about meat that caused you to scream? 1453 01:26:21,008 --> 01:26:22,977 Take your time. 1454 01:26:25,213 --> 01:26:27,182 They delivered the cooler on Fridays. 1455 01:26:28,116 --> 01:26:29,817 A cooler full of frozen meat. 1456 01:26:31,052 --> 01:26:33,554 I remember loving the way the dry ice made a cloud 1457 01:26:33,721 --> 01:26:35,256 of smoke when I opened it. 1458 01:26:40,595 --> 01:26:43,697 Mother made us go on the Atkins diet, 1459 01:26:43,864 --> 01:26:45,900 the keto of the early 2000s. 1460 01:26:46,067 --> 01:26:47,902 A rose by any other name. 1461 01:26:48,069 --> 01:26:49,404 Keep going, Maddie. 1462 01:26:49,571 --> 01:26:52,906 She would make me cook the meat while she smoked marijuana 1463 01:26:53,073 --> 01:26:54,542 and watched court TV. 1464 01:26:55,576 --> 01:26:57,245 I felt useful. 1465 01:26:57,912 --> 01:27:00,114 We would gorge on the meat every night... 1466 01:27:01,082 --> 01:27:03,984 so full that sometimes we'd fall asleep 1467 01:27:04,151 --> 01:27:05,687 next to each other on the couch. 1468 01:27:06,554 --> 01:27:08,089 She'd wake me up the next morning 1469 01:27:08,256 --> 01:27:09,590 to do aerobics with her. 1470 01:27:10,825 --> 01:27:13,727 5:00 a.m. on weekdays every morning before school. 1471 01:27:13,861 --> 01:27:14,995 Ah! 1472 01:27:15,129 --> 01:27:17,731 I introduced my child to a highprotein diet 1473 01:27:17,898 --> 01:27:19,534 and regular exercise. Lock me up. 1474 01:27:19,701 --> 01:27:22,069 We did a million diets together when I was a little girl, 1475 01:27:22,236 --> 01:27:23,538 but this one was different... 1476 01:27:24,405 --> 01:27:26,908 because I was 12 and... 1477 01:27:28,842 --> 01:27:29,911 I had started... 1478 01:27:31,545 --> 01:27:32,545 developing. 1479 01:27:33,313 --> 01:27:36,551 The other girls at school made fun of my body and so she... 1480 01:27:39,120 --> 01:27:40,288 so she taught me... 1481 01:27:42,023 --> 01:27:43,258 how to purge. 1482 01:27:49,329 --> 01:27:50,598 Well I guess we figured it out. 1483 01:27:50,764 --> 01:27:52,033 Sit down, Mother. 1484 01:27:56,737 --> 01:27:58,139 I would cook the meat, 1485 01:27:58,305 --> 01:28:01,108 eat the meat, throw up the meat, work out. 1486 01:28:01,675 --> 01:28:03,677 I was the only middleschooler I knew with gout, 1487 01:28:03,877 --> 01:28:06,614 that's for sure. 1488 01:28:09,984 --> 01:28:11,285 But then she added one more step 1489 01:28:11,452 --> 01:28:13,254 to this endless cycle of hell. 1490 01:28:14,455 --> 01:28:16,624 She got a fake ID for me, 1491 01:28:16,791 --> 01:28:18,993 from a girlfriend of hers in Oceanside... 1492 01:28:20,161 --> 01:28:21,963 and she took me to bars. 1493 01:28:23,964 --> 01:28:25,366 The men would leer at me... 1494 01:28:27,268 --> 01:28:29,337 say disgusting things to me. 1495 01:28:33,140 --> 01:28:34,709 And when they would touch me... 1496 01:28:36,010 --> 01:28:37,845 only then would she step in. 1497 01:28:39,313 --> 01:28:41,849 But not because she wanted to protect me. 1498 01:28:44,118 --> 01:28:46,020 She would take them to the bathroom... 1499 01:28:49,824 --> 01:28:51,492 and finish them off. 1500 01:28:54,528 --> 01:28:58,499 She used me to procure men for her... 1501 01:28:58,665 --> 01:29:01,169 and told me it was so I could have a father. 1502 01:29:02,369 --> 01:29:05,273 But I never needed the love of a father. 1503 01:29:07,641 --> 01:29:09,543 I needed your love, Mommy. 1504 01:29:10,544 --> 01:29:12,380 Careful, Maddie. You're hurting my knee. 1505 01:29:19,186 --> 01:29:20,888 This is all I can do for today. 1506 01:29:28,596 --> 01:29:30,231 We're making progress, Maddie. 1507 01:29:31,231 --> 01:29:32,300 We're making progress. 1508 01:29:53,921 --> 01:29:56,457 Hey, ladies. Hi, Nurse Hammond. 1509 01:29:56,624 --> 01:29:58,458 Okay, we can all agree 1510 01:29:58,625 --> 01:30:00,594 that the food here sucks, right? 1511 01:30:00,761 --> 01:30:01,862 Hmm. 1512 01:30:02,029 --> 01:30:03,931 But I came up with a brilliant idea. 1513 01:30:04,098 --> 01:30:06,801 How about Maddie cook us lunch today? 1514 01:30:10,337 --> 01:30:11,872 Can I have help in the kitchen? 1515 01:30:12,039 --> 01:30:13,241 You sure can. 1516 01:30:51,145 --> 01:30:52,680 You're the real deal, Maddie. 1517 01:30:55,783 --> 01:30:57,118 Can you pass the salad? 1518 01:30:58,285 --> 01:30:59,287 Thanks. 1519 01:31:02,089 --> 01:31:03,490 You really think I'm ready, Doc? 1520 01:31:04,057 --> 01:31:05,493 Only you can know that, Maddie. 1521 01:31:06,126 --> 01:31:07,128 Well, I do know 1522 01:31:07,295 --> 01:31:09,664 that I wanna get the hell out of here. 1523 01:31:11,398 --> 01:31:12,518 Dr. Kronenfeld: Fair enough. 1524 01:31:13,634 --> 01:31:14,769 We're gonna miss you. 1525 01:31:16,136 --> 01:31:18,176 Hey, maybe I could come cook for the patients again. 1526 01:31:18,272 --> 01:31:20,307 You know, work with them in the kitchen. 1527 01:31:20,474 --> 01:31:21,642 We would love that. 1528 01:31:22,310 --> 01:31:24,111 But only if that feels safe for you. 1529 01:31:33,520 --> 01:31:34,655 She's ready. 1530 01:31:40,194 --> 01:31:41,662 Thank you both so much. 1531 01:31:42,263 --> 01:31:43,464 Bye now. 1532 01:31:43,597 --> 01:31:45,700 We're so proud of you, Maddie. 1533 01:31:53,340 --> 01:31:54,460 Promise we'll see each other 1534 01:31:54,541 --> 01:31:55,742 when you get out of here? 1535 01:31:55,909 --> 01:31:57,879 Promise. Okay. 1536 01:31:59,846 --> 01:32:01,349 I'm going to miss you, guys. 1537 01:32:02,349 --> 01:32:03,551 I'm ready to go, too. 1538 01:32:05,386 --> 01:32:07,054 Deena, babe. Deena. 1539 01:32:07,788 --> 01:32:09,123 This is Dr. Piggott 1540 01:32:09,289 --> 01:32:11,359 from the Behavioral Health wing at Presbyterian. 1541 01:32:11,526 --> 01:32:12,869 She wants to ask you a few questions 1542 01:32:12,893 --> 01:32:14,195 about your mental health history. 1543 01:32:14,362 --> 01:32:16,230 We can't help you here, and you know that. 1544 01:32:16,397 --> 01:32:19,300 I don't need any help. No, Maddie can vouch for me. 1545 01:32:22,303 --> 01:32:23,504 You got this, Deena. 1546 01:32:25,072 --> 01:32:27,008 You're the toughest person I know. 1547 01:32:32,046 --> 01:32:33,347 Maddie! 1548 01:32:34,381 --> 01:32:35,583 I'll see you in dance class? 1549 01:32:49,430 --> 01:32:50,430 Maddie! 1550 01:32:53,567 --> 01:32:55,036 Maddie! 1551 01:32:55,902 --> 01:32:58,406 Maddie! Maddie! 1552 01:33:08,215 --> 01:33:09,216 Mm. 1553 01:33:10,417 --> 01:33:12,019 Fig and Mortar, my favorite. 1554 01:33:12,887 --> 01:33:15,189 Thank you so much. Of course. 1555 01:33:28,435 --> 01:33:30,771 You're allowed to be angry with me, Jake. 1556 01:33:52,860 --> 01:33:54,020 I'm gonna go to the bathroom. 1557 01:34:17,318 --> 01:34:19,253 Hi. Is Maddie here? 1558 01:34:20,054 --> 01:34:21,222 Why? 1559 01:34:21,489 --> 01:34:23,729 I have something for her. I could just leave it with you. 1560 01:34:24,157 --> 01:34:25,192 Jake, it's okay. 1561 01:34:30,330 --> 01:34:32,799 Hi, Emily. Hi, Maddie. 1562 01:34:32,966 --> 01:34:34,201 Congratulations on The Boar. 1563 01:34:34,368 --> 01:34:36,036 They're really lucky to have you. 1564 01:34:36,203 --> 01:34:38,005 Yeah, I got that one fair and square. 1565 01:34:39,540 --> 01:34:41,475 You think you'll come back to GourMaybe? 1566 01:34:43,711 --> 01:34:45,545 I don't know what I want anymore. 1567 01:34:46,380 --> 01:34:48,449 I'm certainly not ready to see Zach. 1568 01:34:49,382 --> 01:34:50,382 He's gone. 1569 01:34:50,918 --> 01:34:54,021 Cond� Nast found out about our involvement. 1570 01:34:55,222 --> 01:34:56,222 Wow. 1571 01:34:57,625 --> 01:34:59,860 I made you tahini chocolate chip cookies. 1572 01:35:02,563 --> 01:35:05,165 Bringing you food was maybe weird, sorry. 1573 01:35:05,332 --> 01:35:07,168 No, it's really kind of you. 1574 01:35:08,368 --> 01:35:10,371 You know, I used to make this recipe all the time 1575 01:35:10,538 --> 01:35:12,039 before I worked at GourMaybe. 1576 01:35:12,739 --> 01:35:13,774 I was a big fan. 1577 01:35:14,375 --> 01:35:15,943 Well, you know what they say. 1578 01:35:16,110 --> 01:35:17,244 Never meet your heroes. 1579 01:35:17,444 --> 01:35:19,846 They might be a giant cunt to you for no reason. 1580 01:35:20,013 --> 01:35:22,183 I'll get out of your hair. 1581 01:35:25,018 --> 01:35:26,153 Hey, what changed? 1582 01:35:26,887 --> 01:35:28,355 Why so nice all of a sudden? 1583 01:35:30,424 --> 01:35:32,660 I guess I just needed to know you weren't perfect. 1584 01:36:05,125 --> 01:36:06,125 Hey. 1585 01:36:06,626 --> 01:36:08,061 Where are you going? 1586 01:36:08,228 --> 01:36:09,230 Out for a run. 1587 01:36:10,964 --> 01:36:13,367 The doctor said it was okay to exercise again? 1588 01:36:16,737 --> 01:36:17,737 Yes. 1589 01:36:20,473 --> 01:36:22,543 How do I know you're telling me the truth? 1590 01:38:30,237 --> 01:38:32,873 Only a little dream 1591 01:38:37,410 --> 01:38:42,516 To turn the world around us 1592 01:38:45,252 --> 01:38:48,155 Only a dream 1593 01:38:52,325 --> 01:38:57,298 To find what's left That binds us 1594 01:38:59,799 --> 01:39:02,870 It won't be long now 1595 01:39:03,604 --> 01:39:07,808 It's like a song beginning 1596 01:39:08,742 --> 01:39:13,880 Reaching aloud to see 1597 01:39:14,281 --> 01:39:21,255 If only a love Can take us there 1598 01:39:22,789 --> 01:39:25,092 Only a little love 1599 01:39:28,929 --> 01:39:34,100 If only a love can make it 1600 01:39:34,501 --> 01:39:38,271 To last the ages 1601 01:39:38,505 --> 01:39:43,978 Only you and me 1602 01:39:48,014 --> 01:39:52,352 Only a love 1603 01:39:52,852 --> 01:39:55,356 Only a love 1604 01:39:58,858 --> 01:40:01,662 If only a love 1605 01:40:01,862 --> 01:40:08,802 Can take us there