1 00:00:06,840 --> 00:00:07,870 Cold is coming. 2 00:00:07,900 --> 00:00:09,240 I need to be ready. 3 00:00:11,370 --> 00:00:14,940 Right now, it should be prime-time moose hunting. 4 00:00:14,940 --> 00:00:16,780 If we get a moose, we win this competition. 5 00:00:16,880 --> 00:00:19,280 There's not a doubt in my mind. 6 00:00:19,310 --> 00:00:21,380 Oh, God, 7 00:00:21,480 --> 00:00:24,190 a dead beaver. 8 00:00:24,220 --> 00:00:26,150 There's a live beaver there. Dead beaver there. 9 00:00:26,190 --> 00:00:28,060 Whoa. What do I do? 10 00:00:28,160 --> 00:00:30,830 If I can honor him, then I believe 11 00:00:30,930 --> 00:00:32,090 that he is worth taking. 12 00:00:32,130 --> 00:00:33,860 I'm not ready to give up. 13 00:00:33,860 --> 00:00:36,800 I have to try and get this beaver. 14 00:00:36,830 --> 00:00:38,470 Holy. 15 00:00:38,570 --> 00:00:39,470 Snow. 16 00:00:39,570 --> 00:00:40,940 I have food. 17 00:00:41,040 --> 00:00:43,310 It is now a different environment. 18 00:00:43,340 --> 00:00:46,440 Other than I haven't pooped in a long time, 19 00:00:46,480 --> 00:00:48,610 I feel like I have enough energy. 20 00:00:48,710 --> 00:00:52,110 Camp is officially done. Camp Ukalaitchaq. 21 00:00:52,150 --> 00:00:54,780 I'm in to win this thing, man. 22 00:00:54,880 --> 00:00:56,490 - Yes! 23 00:00:56,520 --> 00:00:59,560 To get another full-size adult beaver, 24 00:00:59,560 --> 00:01:01,160 to have that fat there... 25 00:01:01,190 --> 00:01:02,220 Thank you! 26 00:01:02,260 --> 00:01:04,530 I don't need to have big game. 27 00:01:04,560 --> 00:01:07,460 Let's go! Let's go! 28 00:01:07,460 --> 00:01:10,470 I can go deep into this competition. 29 00:01:10,500 --> 00:01:12,800 Your heart rate's decreased to a point 30 00:01:12,800 --> 00:01:14,400 where it's now critically low. 31 00:01:14,440 --> 00:01:16,440 It's necessary to medically extract you. 32 00:01:18,140 --> 00:01:20,310 I gave my best. 33 00:01:20,340 --> 00:01:22,280 I hope the people around the world 34 00:01:22,310 --> 00:01:24,680 can see that I never quit. 35 00:01:24,710 --> 00:01:28,220 I am humble enough to understand that failure 36 00:01:28,320 --> 00:01:29,990 is part of the process. 37 00:02:07,820 --> 00:02:10,530 Ooh, that's hot. 38 00:02:10,560 --> 00:02:12,960 The hot water bath-- 39 00:02:13,000 --> 00:02:14,230 I got this T-shirt here. 40 00:02:14,260 --> 00:02:15,730 It was one of my clothing items. 41 00:02:15,760 --> 00:02:17,200 I cut it in half. 42 00:02:17,200 --> 00:02:20,700 We're gonna dip that T-shirt in the hot water. 43 00:02:20,740 --> 00:02:23,070 Ooh, that feels good, that hot water. 44 00:02:25,840 --> 00:02:27,680 Oh, it feels good. 45 00:02:34,120 --> 00:02:35,750 Oh, look at the-- 46 00:02:35,750 --> 00:02:39,350 those are from my ears, the two spots. 47 00:02:39,390 --> 00:02:41,320 Do not put this on TV. 48 00:02:41,360 --> 00:02:44,790 Do not let my wife see this. 49 00:02:44,830 --> 00:02:46,800 She will be grossed out. 50 00:02:51,370 --> 00:02:53,000 Put it on TV. 51 00:02:58,710 --> 00:03:01,240 What I'm thinking about doing is making a wall barrier. 52 00:03:01,280 --> 00:03:05,550 Keep that north wind at bay from hitting my shelter. 53 00:03:05,650 --> 00:03:08,350 We want a tree here. 54 00:03:08,350 --> 00:03:11,020 See if we could pull this one over. 55 00:03:11,120 --> 00:03:14,590 And what we're doing is making a wind block 56 00:03:14,620 --> 00:03:18,160 so all this prevailing wind 57 00:03:18,190 --> 00:03:22,200 gets blocked by this wall. 58 00:03:23,070 --> 00:03:26,030 I'm past the three-week mark-- big step. 59 00:03:26,070 --> 00:03:29,070 Got a long way to go, though. 60 00:03:30,510 --> 00:03:32,640 I feel like I could win this competition 61 00:03:32,670 --> 00:03:35,480 for the Iñupiaq people. 62 00:03:35,510 --> 00:03:36,750 Currently, I don't believe there is 63 00:03:36,750 --> 00:03:39,280 good representation of Iñupiaq culture 64 00:03:39,280 --> 00:03:41,480 out in the world. 65 00:03:41,520 --> 00:03:46,220 I feel like it's a culture that is new to most people. 66 00:03:46,320 --> 00:03:50,630 Now, I'd like something to hold that tree up. 67 00:03:50,660 --> 00:03:52,360 Here comes the snow. 68 00:03:52,390 --> 00:03:54,600 We don't see Iñupiaq people 69 00:03:54,630 --> 00:03:59,330 on TV or movies or in the news. 70 00:03:59,430 --> 00:04:02,270 Just within the last five years or so 71 00:04:02,270 --> 00:04:05,140 is starting to become an actual thing where 72 00:04:05,240 --> 00:04:09,210 we're getting represented in one way or the other. 73 00:04:09,240 --> 00:04:11,710 Try taking every single spruce bough 74 00:04:11,750 --> 00:04:13,920 and just throwing it up. 75 00:04:13,920 --> 00:04:19,190 We're no longer just portrayed as Eskimos that live in igloos 76 00:04:19,220 --> 00:04:24,190 and live on the ice and have fur hoods. 77 00:04:24,230 --> 00:04:26,500 We're getting shown to the world, 78 00:04:26,600 --> 00:04:27,900 especially with the younger generation, 79 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:31,030 they're so engaged in social media, 80 00:04:31,070 --> 00:04:36,710 and to have them kind of see that it's OK to be Iñupiaq. 81 00:04:36,740 --> 00:04:38,870 It's OK to be Indigenous. 82 00:04:38,910 --> 00:04:40,310 It makes them proud of who they are, 83 00:04:40,340 --> 00:04:42,340 where they came from. 84 00:04:42,440 --> 00:04:44,510 I'm making the main structure right now. 85 00:04:44,510 --> 00:04:46,250 We'll just keep adding all the heavy, 86 00:04:46,280 --> 00:04:47,720 thick stuff on the bottom. 87 00:04:47,720 --> 00:04:51,150 This is really gonna help keep me warm in the long run. 88 00:04:53,050 --> 00:04:54,760 I'm extremely proud of who I am 89 00:04:54,790 --> 00:04:56,730 and who I always have been, 90 00:04:56,760 --> 00:05:01,000 not so much growing up as a teenager 91 00:05:01,030 --> 00:05:06,000 and having to move to bigger cities in Alaska, 92 00:05:06,030 --> 00:05:09,270 and it was something that I felt ashamed of at one point. 93 00:05:11,310 --> 00:05:13,510 I feel like I lost my culture within that time, 94 00:05:13,610 --> 00:05:15,840 going to these bigger schools 95 00:05:15,880 --> 00:05:17,910 of non-Natives 96 00:05:17,910 --> 00:05:20,120 and not feeling accepted. 97 00:05:20,120 --> 00:05:24,790 Make use of all these trees and branches. 98 00:05:24,890 --> 00:05:28,520 I would tell people I enjoy eating seal or whale, 99 00:05:28,560 --> 00:05:30,790 and they'd be grossed out and like, 100 00:05:30,830 --> 00:05:32,230 why would you eat that? 101 00:05:32,260 --> 00:05:35,300 And it was extremely challenging. 102 00:05:35,400 --> 00:05:41,000 Emotionally, I was feeling sad, kind of angry at myself, 103 00:05:41,040 --> 00:05:43,140 like, why do I have to be the Eskimo kid? 104 00:05:43,170 --> 00:05:45,240 Why do I have to be the Iñupiaq kid? 105 00:05:46,440 --> 00:05:49,980 And with that came emotions of jealousy. 106 00:05:50,080 --> 00:05:52,510 Like, why can't I be the Caucasian kid? 107 00:05:54,280 --> 00:05:55,720 I hated it. 108 00:05:57,190 --> 00:05:59,650 There were times where I had to get dragged 109 00:05:59,690 --> 00:06:01,160 into school by the principal. 110 00:06:01,190 --> 00:06:03,260 I had to get threatened with the police coming 111 00:06:03,360 --> 00:06:05,190 and bringing me inside the school. 112 00:06:08,230 --> 00:06:09,970 I remember crying at the time 113 00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:12,770 and just having to accept it and go in. 114 00:06:12,800 --> 00:06:14,700 It wasn't easy. 115 00:06:18,940 --> 00:06:22,510 Well, we got our prevailing wind wall here 116 00:06:22,540 --> 00:06:23,950 all finished up. 117 00:06:23,980 --> 00:06:26,080 It didn't take anything other than picking up 118 00:06:26,080 --> 00:06:29,550 a bunch of branches and spruce and willows 119 00:06:29,580 --> 00:06:31,790 that I already had cut 120 00:06:31,820 --> 00:06:33,590 and piling them up into a wall. 121 00:06:33,690 --> 00:06:35,490 And at the same time, 122 00:06:35,520 --> 00:06:40,360 I practiced one of our Iñupiaq iitqusiat 123 00:06:40,360 --> 00:06:46,000 Iñupiaq values, and that's to respect the land. 124 00:06:46,000 --> 00:06:51,140 So I showed respect to the land by keeping it clean, 125 00:06:51,240 --> 00:06:52,910 keeping it clear. 126 00:06:52,940 --> 00:06:55,810 This isn't our home. 127 00:06:56,680 --> 00:06:58,880 It's our temporary home. 128 00:07:35,180 --> 00:07:37,720 I might have found his house. 129 00:07:37,750 --> 00:07:38,750 That's his dam. 130 00:07:38,790 --> 00:07:41,120 Our snares are right up there. 131 00:07:41,160 --> 00:07:43,730 So we're gonna try to disassemble this a bit 132 00:07:43,760 --> 00:07:46,160 just to get them up and working. 133 00:07:49,400 --> 00:07:51,930 If you want to kill a beaver, 134 00:07:51,970 --> 00:07:55,000 wreck his dam and wait. 135 00:07:55,040 --> 00:07:56,670 He'll be out to fix it. 136 00:08:08,020 --> 00:08:11,550 Even that should... 137 00:08:11,590 --> 00:08:13,560 get him back up and working. 138 00:08:14,790 --> 00:08:17,430 He ain't gonna like me very much. 139 00:08:19,260 --> 00:08:21,500 OK, we're gonna mosey on out of here 140 00:08:21,600 --> 00:08:24,400 and then check the snares. 141 00:08:26,470 --> 00:08:28,900 We're not starving, but we're not flourishing. 142 00:08:29,000 --> 00:08:32,510 So lots of improvement to do. 143 00:08:34,080 --> 00:08:37,510 Just coming up to my first couple sets. 144 00:08:37,540 --> 00:08:39,680 This is way too early to be stressing. 145 00:08:39,710 --> 00:08:40,980 I'm enjoying myself. 146 00:08:41,020 --> 00:08:42,950 I know this is gonna be something 147 00:08:42,980 --> 00:08:44,950 I look back on as fun. 148 00:08:44,990 --> 00:08:47,760 But right now, it's hard work. 149 00:08:47,760 --> 00:08:49,590 Oh, there's bunny tracks. 150 00:08:49,590 --> 00:08:52,660 OK, well, that's-- that's good. 151 00:08:52,760 --> 00:08:55,930 We're getting dialed. 152 00:08:55,960 --> 00:08:58,800 It's not as easy as a guy would think. 153 00:08:58,830 --> 00:09:01,700 The lack of calories, the distance a guy's 154 00:09:01,740 --> 00:09:05,070 got to walk to find some good trapping areas 155 00:09:05,110 --> 00:09:09,480 is a challenge, but I welcome it. 156 00:09:09,510 --> 00:09:13,750 Coming up on the next set. This is a set of four. 157 00:09:13,780 --> 00:09:15,880 We're in it to win it, man. 158 00:09:16,850 --> 00:09:18,390 Oh, we got one. 159 00:09:19,720 --> 00:09:21,190 We got ourselves a bunny. 160 00:09:24,790 --> 00:09:26,800 Perfect snare right around his neck. 161 00:09:26,800 --> 00:09:29,160 He didn't last long. 162 00:09:30,400 --> 00:09:32,400 Ooh, we got dinner. 163 00:09:34,170 --> 00:09:35,440 This is me bunny. 164 00:09:35,470 --> 00:09:39,110 It's my first bunny of the trip. 165 00:09:41,340 --> 00:09:43,280 It's gonna taste good. 166 00:09:45,050 --> 00:09:46,650 I got food. 167 00:09:47,980 --> 00:09:51,620 I got two days out of this bunny too. 168 00:09:51,720 --> 00:09:54,960 We're here for one goal and one goal only. 169 00:09:54,990 --> 00:09:56,420 Let's go through here and walk along. 170 00:09:56,520 --> 00:10:00,360 We know there's a snare here. 171 00:10:00,360 --> 00:10:01,900 I'm not here to find myself. 172 00:10:02,000 --> 00:10:04,970 I'm not here to enjoy the woods. 173 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:06,600 I'm here to win, 174 00:10:06,630 --> 00:10:08,300 and that is the bottom line. 175 00:10:08,400 --> 00:10:10,640 I want the win and the money. 176 00:10:10,670 --> 00:10:12,510 Oh, there's a rabbit. 177 00:10:12,610 --> 00:10:15,510 I gotta get my bow. 178 00:10:15,510 --> 00:10:17,710 There's a live rabbit right here. 179 00:10:25,090 --> 00:10:28,020 Got him. 180 00:10:28,120 --> 00:10:31,190 OK, let's go check the next set. 181 00:10:31,230 --> 00:10:34,630 Losing's not an option 'cause it doesn't do nothing for you. 182 00:10:34,660 --> 00:10:37,770 I don't need this enlightened moment. 183 00:10:37,800 --> 00:10:40,440 I need to win and win only. 184 00:10:40,470 --> 00:10:43,870 And as bad as that sounds, that's why I'm here. 185 00:10:43,910 --> 00:10:46,370 We got a bunny! 186 00:10:46,410 --> 00:10:48,880 Three bunnies today. 187 00:10:48,910 --> 00:10:50,610 Beaver tomorrow. 188 00:10:50,650 --> 00:10:51,810 Lynx the next day. 189 00:10:51,850 --> 00:10:53,520 We'll have a balanced meal. 190 00:10:54,950 --> 00:10:57,750 Just gonna get a fire going and cook a bunny. 191 00:11:05,590 --> 00:11:10,060 We'll get the pot full of water. 192 00:11:10,060 --> 00:11:13,430 I think I'm extremely competitive, 193 00:11:13,470 --> 00:11:16,270 competitive to a fault, even, like, where-- 194 00:11:16,270 --> 00:11:19,010 like, me and Melissa will fight over cards. 195 00:11:22,040 --> 00:11:23,380 People are like, oh, it's just a game. 196 00:11:23,480 --> 00:11:25,750 It's like, yeah, but you're playing the game to win. 197 00:11:25,780 --> 00:11:27,750 Why are you playing the game if you're not playing to win? 198 00:11:29,950 --> 00:11:31,120 It's funny, though. 199 00:11:31,150 --> 00:11:33,120 Like, the demons are creeping in. 200 00:11:33,150 --> 00:11:34,890 They're trying to tell you to go home. 201 00:11:34,990 --> 00:11:37,560 It's like, it's not an option for me. 202 00:11:42,230 --> 00:11:44,270 Be nice to make it home for Christmas, 203 00:11:44,370 --> 00:11:47,670 but if we don't, we don't. 204 00:11:47,700 --> 00:11:51,040 I can't see anybody else doing this, though. 205 00:11:51,070 --> 00:11:54,510 My boy, Ziga, I don't know how he's faring. 206 00:11:54,540 --> 00:11:59,050 Guy seems awesome, but he don't bring a ferro rod. 207 00:11:59,080 --> 00:12:04,390 I think Nero's gonna freeze his feet off with his mukluks. 208 00:12:04,420 --> 00:12:07,590 Will's a dog, but he's got four kids. 209 00:12:07,620 --> 00:12:10,020 I literally got nothing to go home to. 210 00:12:12,530 --> 00:12:15,430 Oh, the heart's delicious. 211 00:12:15,460 --> 00:12:18,700 The funny thing is, I've never been like a big heart person. 212 00:12:18,730 --> 00:12:21,240 I made my decision a long time ago. 213 00:12:23,000 --> 00:12:24,440 So good, man. 214 00:12:24,470 --> 00:12:27,440 We're going for 90, and if we get there 215 00:12:27,480 --> 00:12:29,210 and we're still in the game, 216 00:12:29,310 --> 00:12:32,880 then we'll have to adjust and keep going. 217 00:12:35,750 --> 00:12:38,320 But a lot can happen between then and now. 218 00:12:43,630 --> 00:12:46,590 There's no other option. 219 00:13:28,070 --> 00:13:31,070 Shut the up, Tweety Bird. 220 00:13:34,280 --> 00:13:37,310 Every moose is gone. 221 00:13:52,760 --> 00:13:55,660 I'm going to check a bunch of snares, 222 00:13:55,700 --> 00:13:58,270 hopefully find some critters. 223 00:13:58,300 --> 00:14:00,640 All right, wish me luck. 224 00:14:07,480 --> 00:14:09,740 Not looking very good for any big game. 225 00:14:11,710 --> 00:14:14,050 There's a fresh skiff of snow, 226 00:14:14,080 --> 00:14:16,150 no sign of nothing. 227 00:14:16,180 --> 00:14:17,920 Went and checked the pond again. 228 00:14:17,950 --> 00:14:20,560 There's no ducks or anything. 229 00:14:20,560 --> 00:14:23,620 Made a fish lure. Didn't work. 230 00:14:23,660 --> 00:14:28,030 We're gonna have to focus on small game. 231 00:14:28,060 --> 00:14:31,470 Just coming up to my first couple sets. 232 00:14:31,500 --> 00:14:36,440 Oh, my God, guys, I think I had the lynx. 233 00:14:36,470 --> 00:14:39,310 There's tracks everywhere. 234 00:14:41,910 --> 00:14:43,850 There's that one. 235 00:14:46,450 --> 00:14:48,720 He got through. 236 00:14:48,720 --> 00:14:51,190 Oh, my God. 237 00:14:51,220 --> 00:14:54,190 Like, how is that like this? 238 00:15:00,160 --> 00:15:03,360 Like, does that not mean I got something and he wiggled out? 239 00:15:06,800 --> 00:15:09,800 The other one's pushed aside. 240 00:15:18,680 --> 00:15:20,680 Oh, there's-- 241 00:15:21,950 --> 00:15:23,920 Beaver's been here. 242 00:15:26,490 --> 00:15:28,620 Oh, my God. He got it. 243 00:15:30,990 --> 00:15:32,990 The snare's gone. 244 00:15:36,100 --> 00:15:39,070 What the , man? 245 00:15:42,870 --> 00:15:45,640 I snared him, and he got away. 246 00:15:45,640 --> 00:15:49,040 This is embarrassing. 247 00:15:51,750 --> 00:15:54,420 Snared the lynx, but he obviously-- 248 00:15:54,520 --> 00:15:56,280 I don't know-- somehow deked me. 249 00:15:56,320 --> 00:16:01,290 And, yeah, the beaver stole one of my snares. 250 00:16:01,320 --> 00:16:04,890 Stroke of luck. I found it in the-- 251 00:16:04,930 --> 00:16:07,560 he had it on him, and he walked it up here. 252 00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:09,000 He got it off the tree. 253 00:16:11,070 --> 00:16:12,700 I've set many a snares in my day. 254 00:16:12,800 --> 00:16:14,640 I'm looking like a damn rookie. 255 00:16:16,100 --> 00:16:18,570 We're gonna regroup and figure out 256 00:16:18,610 --> 00:16:20,580 how we're gonna get these guys. 257 00:16:20,610 --> 00:16:23,950 And we'll need some different luck. 258 00:16:23,980 --> 00:16:25,510 That's for sure. 259 00:16:39,030 --> 00:16:43,030 We gonna get you, Mr. Kitty. 260 00:16:43,060 --> 00:16:45,430 That's the big kitty too. 261 00:16:47,030 --> 00:16:49,040 If he starts robbing my bunnies, 262 00:16:49,040 --> 00:16:51,070 that's not good. 263 00:16:51,110 --> 00:16:53,370 I don't know how many bunnies they eat a night, 264 00:16:53,410 --> 00:16:56,280 but we gotta get rid of this guy. 265 00:16:58,910 --> 00:17:00,520 Man, 266 00:17:00,550 --> 00:17:04,350 don't mess with a man's bunny, Mr. Kitty. 267 00:17:04,390 --> 00:17:05,890 Two things you don't mess with-- 268 00:17:05,920 --> 00:17:10,390 a man's money and his wife and his kids if he's got them. 269 00:17:10,420 --> 00:17:13,960 But don't got kids. 270 00:17:15,830 --> 00:17:18,200 What is going on here? 271 00:17:56,200 --> 00:17:57,470 I'm right behind him. 272 00:18:03,510 --> 00:18:07,450 I gotta keep following and keep our eyes up. 273 00:18:07,480 --> 00:18:10,550 He's going right towards my camp. 274 00:18:14,120 --> 00:18:17,120 Oh, baby, come on. 275 00:18:17,160 --> 00:18:19,830 I need this more than anything. 276 00:18:21,430 --> 00:18:24,370 I need to spot him before he spots me. 277 00:18:26,300 --> 00:18:27,840 I've had the chance at lynx. 278 00:18:27,840 --> 00:18:29,400 I've had the chance at beaver. 279 00:18:29,440 --> 00:18:31,070 I need the fats, 280 00:18:31,110 --> 00:18:33,870 but I haven't had bad luck like this before. 281 00:18:33,910 --> 00:18:36,140 I'm gonna follow this bastard until I find him. 282 00:18:36,240 --> 00:18:38,180 He's gotta stop somewhere. 283 00:18:38,280 --> 00:18:40,280 With the amount of food on these moose, 284 00:18:40,310 --> 00:18:43,920 I can stay out here for hundreds of days. 285 00:18:43,950 --> 00:18:48,120 Man, I can't let this guy get away. 286 00:18:49,490 --> 00:18:52,630 Like, this is a $500,000 moose. 287 00:18:54,860 --> 00:18:57,770 Stop, you son of a gun. 288 00:18:59,170 --> 00:19:02,100 This is almost comical. 289 00:19:03,340 --> 00:19:05,040 Come on, guys, root for me. 290 00:19:05,070 --> 00:19:06,570 I need a prayer. 291 00:19:06,610 --> 00:19:08,740 Come on, man. 292 00:19:26,330 --> 00:19:29,430 Wish it wasn't windy. 293 00:19:29,460 --> 00:19:31,370 This is the one day I didn't want wind. 294 00:19:31,400 --> 00:19:32,830 You see tracks, you don't want wind, 295 00:19:32,870 --> 00:19:34,500 'cause you can call them back. 296 00:19:34,600 --> 00:19:38,070 Like, they can hear a long ways away with those big ears. 297 00:19:47,550 --> 00:19:49,320 It's so windy. 298 00:19:51,420 --> 00:19:53,720 I don't know what to do. 299 00:19:53,750 --> 00:19:56,560 Man, that's so disheartening. 300 00:19:58,360 --> 00:20:01,360 We could be 14 hours behind him though. 301 00:20:03,160 --> 00:20:05,930 Hopefully he makes his rounds and comes back. 302 00:20:10,070 --> 00:20:11,770 I haven't seen any other signs, 303 00:20:11,810 --> 00:20:14,480 so we're gonna get back to work. 304 00:20:16,940 --> 00:20:18,410 Oh, it sucks, man. 305 00:20:18,450 --> 00:20:20,850 That's a lot of wasted energy. 306 00:20:20,880 --> 00:20:23,650 I chased him for freaking 5 kilometers, 307 00:20:23,680 --> 00:20:28,790 and the guy didn't even stop. 308 00:20:28,790 --> 00:20:31,790 I'm going to... 309 00:20:31,830 --> 00:20:33,930 get him though. 310 00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:36,630 I am optimistic that he'll be back. 311 00:20:38,530 --> 00:20:41,870 He went, like, 100 yards from my cabin. 312 00:20:42,970 --> 00:20:45,470 That is too funny. 313 00:20:46,510 --> 00:20:49,240 Come on, mother nature. 314 00:20:49,280 --> 00:20:52,350 Testing my patience, God darn it. 315 00:21:08,960 --> 00:21:12,570 For the next hour or so, we're gonna cut some wood. 316 00:21:19,240 --> 00:21:21,910 That's what that log is for. 317 00:21:29,420 --> 00:21:31,790 That's how I planned that sawbuck to work, like that. 318 00:21:31,820 --> 00:21:34,320 Just like that. 319 00:21:34,360 --> 00:21:37,760 The spacer-- there you go. 320 00:21:37,760 --> 00:21:41,360 Put your log back over here. Boom. 321 00:21:54,640 --> 00:21:57,950 Stomach-- it's cramping. 322 00:22:07,920 --> 00:22:11,030 I don't think I've pooped in, like, 12 days. 323 00:22:12,830 --> 00:22:14,830 I got gas. 324 00:22:14,860 --> 00:22:17,700 I feel my stomach gurgling all the time. 325 00:22:17,800 --> 00:22:20,400 I just--I don't know if it's 'cause 326 00:22:20,430 --> 00:22:22,900 I got a clog in my digestive system, 327 00:22:23,000 --> 00:22:25,410 or I just haven't been eating enough, 328 00:22:25,440 --> 00:22:28,780 but I feel like I've eaten enough in the last 12 days 329 00:22:28,810 --> 00:22:31,680 to be able to poop, though, so I don't know. 330 00:22:31,710 --> 00:22:33,680 You start to get worried. 331 00:22:36,280 --> 00:22:38,750 Finally. 332 00:22:38,750 --> 00:22:41,320 Took a long time just to buck a few logs. 333 00:22:41,360 --> 00:22:42,820 I'm tired. 334 00:22:42,920 --> 00:22:46,360 Check that moose trail and see if there's fresh tracks on it. 335 00:22:46,360 --> 00:22:48,630 If there is, follow it. 336 00:22:52,630 --> 00:22:54,800 I was told that you can't just eat meat. 337 00:22:54,840 --> 00:22:56,070 You gotta eat fat too. 338 00:22:56,070 --> 00:22:58,440 Otherwise, you're gonna get constipated, 339 00:22:58,470 --> 00:23:00,910 and your body's gonna get backed up. 340 00:23:00,940 --> 00:23:05,280 And I haven't had any fat, really, this whole time. 341 00:23:05,310 --> 00:23:06,580 You know, there's some fat 342 00:23:06,680 --> 00:23:08,520 in fish and all that, but... 343 00:23:25,970 --> 00:23:28,670 And what do we have here? 344 00:23:28,670 --> 00:23:30,240 Those bear tracks? 345 00:23:31,470 --> 00:23:33,710 This looks like bear tracks there. 346 00:23:34,940 --> 00:23:37,540 So there is a freaking bear here. 347 00:23:37,650 --> 00:23:39,680 Got me excited. 348 00:23:39,710 --> 00:23:42,620 It would be extremely beneficial to harvest 349 00:23:42,720 --> 00:23:43,950 a black bear at this point. 350 00:23:43,980 --> 00:23:46,190 So that's gotta be black bear. 351 00:23:46,290 --> 00:23:49,620 If it were a grizzly, it'd be much, much larger. 352 00:23:49,660 --> 00:23:52,030 I know, at this time in the year, 353 00:23:52,060 --> 00:23:55,860 they're gonna have a amazing amount of fat on them. 354 00:23:55,900 --> 00:23:58,670 I know fat is what is gonna help me 355 00:23:58,700 --> 00:24:00,730 get through the winter. 356 00:24:15,350 --> 00:24:17,750 Lost his tracks back here. 357 00:24:17,750 --> 00:24:19,320 Gotta keep an eye out. 358 00:24:19,350 --> 00:24:22,920 I could get right on it with a bow shot. 359 00:24:23,960 --> 00:24:27,630 It would be amazing. It'd be good eating too. 360 00:24:27,660 --> 00:24:30,630 For thousands of years, Iñupiaq hunters 361 00:24:30,660 --> 00:24:33,430 would go out in order to harvest food 362 00:24:33,470 --> 00:24:36,870 for their families and their communities. 363 00:24:39,870 --> 00:24:42,740 If I was home right now, I would be looking 364 00:24:42,840 --> 00:24:44,880 for caribou and moose. 365 00:24:46,950 --> 00:24:49,780 My wife grew up the same way that I did, 366 00:24:49,820 --> 00:24:52,550 being at camp and doing similar things 367 00:24:52,550 --> 00:24:54,920 and same lifestyle. 368 00:24:54,960 --> 00:24:56,990 Camp is technically a second home, 369 00:24:56,990 --> 00:25:01,000 but it feels like a primary home to a lot of us. 370 00:25:01,030 --> 00:25:05,670 That's where we want to go to be Iñupiaq people 371 00:25:05,670 --> 00:25:07,370 and really do things within our culture 372 00:25:07,400 --> 00:25:11,310 that make us feel like real people. 373 00:25:11,340 --> 00:25:13,340 Our ancestors have grown up at these places 374 00:25:13,370 --> 00:25:15,080 and practiced the same traditions 375 00:25:15,110 --> 00:25:19,180 and taught our parents and grandparents all these things, 376 00:25:19,280 --> 00:25:22,150 and they eventually get handed down to us. 377 00:25:22,180 --> 00:25:24,150 It's really important. 378 00:25:39,470 --> 00:25:41,500 Yeah, 379 00:25:41,600 --> 00:25:42,600 it's a little discouraging, 380 00:25:42,640 --> 00:25:44,770 but still a lot of time. 381 00:25:44,870 --> 00:25:47,040 I know that this black bear fat 382 00:25:47,070 --> 00:25:48,510 will be extremely important. 383 00:25:48,510 --> 00:25:52,810 I'm hopeful that this bear is staying in my area. 384 00:25:52,850 --> 00:25:54,850 We'll see. 385 00:26:15,940 --> 00:26:19,070 So have I shown you how to eat rose hips yet? 386 00:26:19,110 --> 00:26:21,440 You pluck one, all right. 387 00:26:21,440 --> 00:26:25,510 You can suck all the meat out, the part that meets the stem. 388 00:26:25,510 --> 00:26:27,850 Mmm, oh, yeah. 389 00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:30,280 And then... 390 00:26:30,320 --> 00:26:31,890 spit out the seeds. 391 00:26:46,630 --> 00:26:48,700 Rose hips and sunshine. 392 00:26:50,070 --> 00:26:51,710 This is what I do every morning. 393 00:26:53,640 --> 00:26:55,240 This is my breakfast. 394 00:26:56,180 --> 00:26:59,510 I think today is gonna have to be a foraging day regardless. 395 00:27:02,080 --> 00:27:03,950 Ooh. 396 00:27:03,980 --> 00:27:07,190 Something--holy -- 397 00:27:07,220 --> 00:27:08,960 has walked through here. 398 00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:18,030 That looks like... 399 00:27:18,030 --> 00:27:19,170 a cat. 400 00:27:21,400 --> 00:27:24,070 And... 401 00:27:24,070 --> 00:27:25,070 wow. 402 00:27:28,210 --> 00:27:30,680 Interesting. 403 00:27:30,710 --> 00:27:34,680 There is a lynx wandering around. 404 00:27:37,380 --> 00:27:39,450 so I'm gonna shift gears and focus on 405 00:27:39,490 --> 00:27:42,390 getting a door on my shelter. 406 00:27:42,420 --> 00:27:45,190 I gotta get out of here. 407 00:27:45,230 --> 00:27:48,630 I need to make sure that I have a shelter 408 00:27:48,660 --> 00:27:51,130 that is going to keep me safe 409 00:27:51,170 --> 00:27:53,630 and protect me from predators. 410 00:27:53,670 --> 00:27:56,900 This is my only mission right now. 411 00:27:59,470 --> 00:28:04,140 All right, so we are going to measure the door. 412 00:28:05,610 --> 00:28:08,120 24 is the width. 413 00:28:10,320 --> 00:28:11,890 OK. 414 00:28:13,350 --> 00:28:15,790 Well, I got lucky. 415 00:28:15,820 --> 00:28:19,230 Turns out the door is a perfect square. 416 00:28:20,460 --> 00:28:24,230 So I'm gonna make a frame for it first. 417 00:28:31,540 --> 00:28:34,840 I am not truly alone. 418 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:36,940 There's predators here. 419 00:28:40,950 --> 00:28:43,580 Oh, no. Oh, perfect. 420 00:28:45,650 --> 00:28:47,520 You know, I've always feared the worst in life 421 00:28:47,550 --> 00:28:50,360 because the worst actually did happen to me. 422 00:28:50,390 --> 00:28:53,090 So going into this experience, 423 00:28:53,190 --> 00:28:56,430 that is something that I'm thinking about 424 00:28:56,460 --> 00:28:59,400 is worst-case scenario. 425 00:29:03,670 --> 00:29:05,440 I've been in positions in my life 426 00:29:05,470 --> 00:29:07,710 where my agency has been stolen. 427 00:29:10,140 --> 00:29:13,080 I know what it's like to be hunted. 428 00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:15,380 So yeah, being on high alert, 429 00:29:15,380 --> 00:29:17,950 knowing that there's predators out there 430 00:29:17,990 --> 00:29:19,920 is-- 431 00:29:19,950 --> 00:29:22,020 yeah, it's quite scary. 432 00:29:25,360 --> 00:29:28,360 Well, I'm having a really hard time today. 433 00:29:30,660 --> 00:29:35,440 Being in this place where I am suffering 434 00:29:35,470 --> 00:29:37,440 is starting to remind me 435 00:29:37,470 --> 00:29:40,510 of when I lost my agency, when I lost control, 436 00:29:40,540 --> 00:29:43,540 when I was living in a dark place. 437 00:29:43,580 --> 00:29:46,910 And I don't want to go back there. 438 00:29:46,910 --> 00:29:48,780 I think I'm just gonna sit here. 439 00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:59,160 21 years ago today, 440 00:29:59,190 --> 00:30:03,060 there was a young woman, 441 00:30:03,100 --> 00:30:05,530 19 years old... 442 00:30:08,200 --> 00:30:12,210 Just figuring out who she was, 443 00:30:12,240 --> 00:30:15,280 until one night, her world changed. 444 00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:19,180 She was walking home. 445 00:30:19,210 --> 00:30:23,850 And on her way home, she was kidnapped 446 00:30:23,880 --> 00:30:26,790 by two men 447 00:30:26,890 --> 00:30:30,160 who threw her into a car, 448 00:30:30,160 --> 00:30:33,730 held a gun to her head, 449 00:30:33,760 --> 00:30:38,030 took her to a park... 450 00:30:38,070 --> 00:30:40,270 where they beat her, 451 00:30:40,300 --> 00:30:42,640 they robbed her, 452 00:30:42,640 --> 00:30:45,440 and they raped her. 453 00:30:45,470 --> 00:30:50,340 They took their turns... 454 00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:53,910 destroying her 455 00:30:53,950 --> 00:30:58,290 before leaving her, abandoning her 456 00:30:58,320 --> 00:31:00,290 broken, 457 00:31:00,320 --> 00:31:03,560 beaten, and bloody. 458 00:31:14,870 --> 00:31:16,870 That woman was me. 459 00:31:18,870 --> 00:31:20,910 That little girl was me. 460 00:31:25,650 --> 00:31:27,950 And it's been 20 years. 461 00:31:31,750 --> 00:31:34,550 And you can never move on from that experience, 462 00:31:34,550 --> 00:31:36,620 but there is a way to move forward. 463 00:31:41,360 --> 00:31:45,600 It wasn't until I started to lean into nature 464 00:31:45,600 --> 00:31:48,140 that I found that I could heal. 465 00:31:49,600 --> 00:31:52,410 I dipped a toe into spirituality 466 00:31:52,440 --> 00:31:54,110 and therapy and nature. 467 00:31:54,140 --> 00:31:55,680 With those three things combined, 468 00:31:55,710 --> 00:31:59,510 I found a path 469 00:31:59,550 --> 00:32:02,550 to feeling that I belonged. 470 00:32:04,750 --> 00:32:06,950 Nature taught me that. 471 00:32:08,320 --> 00:32:11,090 Nature taught me that I belonged on this planet. 472 00:32:11,120 --> 00:32:12,890 So I studied it. 473 00:32:14,660 --> 00:32:16,060 Studied navigation, 474 00:32:16,100 --> 00:32:18,600 studied fire, studied plants. 475 00:32:18,630 --> 00:32:21,840 If I could protect myself 476 00:32:21,840 --> 00:32:23,140 and not let fear 477 00:32:23,170 --> 00:32:25,610 prevent me from having a joyous life... 478 00:32:30,080 --> 00:32:33,510 Then that's what I was going to do 479 00:32:33,510 --> 00:32:35,950 so I could become fearless again. 480 00:32:37,950 --> 00:32:42,490 I'm proud of myself for doing this, 481 00:32:42,520 --> 00:32:45,990 for taking on this challenge. 482 00:32:51,470 --> 00:32:54,170 Let's go kick some ass. 483 00:32:56,800 --> 00:32:58,870 I got a lot of work to do. 484 00:33:26,000 --> 00:33:27,670 We got ourselves a bunny. 485 00:33:32,170 --> 00:33:35,040 Oh, he's alive again. 486 00:33:40,410 --> 00:33:41,680 Sorry, buddy. 487 00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:47,750 My God! 488 00:33:56,600 --> 00:34:00,470 Are you kidding me? 489 00:34:09,170 --> 00:34:12,750 What is happening to me? 490 00:34:12,850 --> 00:34:15,480 It's like in golf, they call it the yips. 491 00:34:16,720 --> 00:34:20,050 Like when you, uh, 492 00:34:20,090 --> 00:34:22,720 just can't do anything. 493 00:34:22,760 --> 00:34:25,030 I think I got a case of the yips here. 494 00:34:27,490 --> 00:34:31,160 These snares too, like, I don't know-- 495 00:34:31,200 --> 00:34:35,400 clearly, I'm not putting 'em on good enough, but 496 00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:37,640 this is sad, man. 497 00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:41,310 I tend to be a pretty positive person, 498 00:34:41,340 --> 00:34:43,880 but we're in the dumps right now, boy. 499 00:34:43,910 --> 00:34:45,910 Beaver's not back. 500 00:34:45,950 --> 00:34:50,320 He didn't even fix his dam, so I don't know 501 00:34:50,320 --> 00:34:52,320 if the lynx got him or what, 502 00:34:52,350 --> 00:34:55,920 but we'll leave these up and come check 'em tomorrow. 503 00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:58,990 Oh, man, I'm not having a good day. 504 00:34:59,030 --> 00:35:02,230 My mind is trying to give me ways out 505 00:35:02,260 --> 00:35:05,200 that doesn't make me look like I quit. 506 00:35:05,200 --> 00:35:07,600 like this is making me want to go home, 507 00:35:07,630 --> 00:35:10,670 but I'm not gonna. 508 00:35:10,670 --> 00:35:13,210 Let's go check the rest of the site. 509 00:35:13,240 --> 00:35:14,940 I might be crazy, but I'm sitting there 510 00:35:14,980 --> 00:35:17,080 just arguing with myself like, shut up, man. 511 00:35:17,110 --> 00:35:19,350 You're not doing that. 512 00:35:19,380 --> 00:35:21,480 Won a lot of fights in your life, weak mind, 513 00:35:21,510 --> 00:35:22,920 but not this one. 514 00:35:24,550 --> 00:35:26,750 I could be on my couch in 515 00:35:26,790 --> 00:35:29,790 like... 516 00:35:29,820 --> 00:35:32,360 in not long, if I wanted to. 517 00:35:32,390 --> 00:35:36,630 I could be eating pizza not long if I wanted to. 518 00:35:36,660 --> 00:35:40,370 All you have to do is give up on your dreams. 519 00:35:40,400 --> 00:35:44,400 How? Like, it's so crazy to think. 520 00:35:46,840 --> 00:35:50,280 It's like a carrot dangling in front of your face. 521 00:35:51,680 --> 00:35:53,910 It's the same--like, that's how I think about it, 522 00:35:53,950 --> 00:35:56,720 the same as smoking. 523 00:35:56,750 --> 00:35:58,150 Like, when I quit smoking, 524 00:35:58,150 --> 00:36:01,490 it was so hard because I could literally 525 00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:06,030 fix the craving in seconds. 526 00:36:06,130 --> 00:36:10,460 But you'd have to give up on all the progress you made. 527 00:36:13,630 --> 00:36:16,240 It's so-- it's just crazy. 528 00:36:24,710 --> 00:36:28,110 This is the craziest thing a person can do. 529 00:36:28,150 --> 00:36:31,820 You have to be well-rounded with mental toughness. 530 00:36:31,850 --> 00:36:33,290 But I fought mixed martial arts. 531 00:36:33,320 --> 00:36:34,420 I've played rugby. 532 00:36:34,450 --> 00:36:36,720 I've played pretty crazy sports. 533 00:36:36,760 --> 00:36:41,330 Any physical activity that I do is hard mentally. 534 00:36:42,560 --> 00:36:44,460 Found some more moose tracks. 535 00:36:46,830 --> 00:36:50,000 This is what I work in. This is what I grew up in. 536 00:36:50,040 --> 00:36:52,470 This is my advantage. 537 00:36:52,510 --> 00:36:54,910 I must just be missing this guy, man. 538 00:36:54,940 --> 00:36:57,240 I can't lose. I shouldn't lose. 539 00:36:57,280 --> 00:36:59,310 I don't know if it's the same moose or what, 540 00:36:59,310 --> 00:37:02,520 but it went right through here. 541 00:37:12,030 --> 00:37:15,560 We want him to come back to here. 542 00:37:15,600 --> 00:37:18,570 This is the perfect shooting spot. 543 00:37:34,110 --> 00:37:38,080 If we get a moose, I'll have all the fat, all the food. 544 00:37:38,120 --> 00:37:41,720 We can ride this out till we win. 545 00:39:41,310 --> 00:39:43,240 I shouldn't even be shooting at a moose 546 00:39:43,280 --> 00:39:46,680 with only one broadhead anyway, but 547 00:39:46,680 --> 00:39:49,050 I'm taking chances. 548 00:39:49,080 --> 00:39:50,750 They're not paying off. 549 00:40:10,040 --> 00:40:12,010 We're gonna back out here. 550 00:40:16,480 --> 00:40:19,550 I can't believe I just missed. 551 00:40:19,580 --> 00:40:24,250 The arrow hit a tree right in front of him. 552 00:40:24,280 --> 00:40:26,520 I missed by 2 inches. 553 00:40:26,550 --> 00:40:29,420 And, man, is it ever devastating. 554 00:40:33,830 --> 00:40:35,800 Perfect setup. 555 00:40:38,160 --> 00:40:40,170 How the-- 556 00:40:43,400 --> 00:40:47,070 Oh, my God. He was standing right here. 557 00:40:47,110 --> 00:40:50,710 I had that lane. 558 00:40:50,740 --> 00:40:54,050 Oh, my God. 559 00:40:54,080 --> 00:40:56,780 I should quit. 560 00:40:57,680 --> 00:40:59,790 I'm feeling like the moose is slipping away. 561 00:40:59,820 --> 00:41:01,920 I don't got a chance. I don't got broadheads. 562 00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:03,820 I got to find another arrow and a broadhead, 563 00:41:03,860 --> 00:41:06,260 and hopefully I can get another opportunity. 564 00:41:06,290 --> 00:41:09,460 Because this is-- this is not good. 565 00:41:11,030 --> 00:41:13,670 I'm so sad right now. 566 00:41:13,700 --> 00:41:16,700 I just missed the moose at 20 yards. 567 00:41:16,800 --> 00:41:18,400 I didn't take a follow-up shot 568 00:41:18,440 --> 00:41:20,440 because I don't have a broadhead with me. 569 00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:24,440 This is so embarrassing, man. 570 00:41:26,680 --> 00:41:28,180 It is what it is. 571 00:41:28,280 --> 00:41:29,780 I'm not gonna beat myself-- 572 00:41:29,820 --> 00:41:31,720 I'm gonna beat the out of myself about it, 573 00:41:31,720 --> 00:41:34,620 but it is what it is. 574 00:41:34,720 --> 00:41:36,590 I can't rewind time. 575 00:41:36,620 --> 00:41:38,960 Timber missed a moose, and he got it. 576 00:41:40,230 --> 00:41:42,960 It's a sad day, though, boy. 577 00:41:44,000 --> 00:41:47,330 That moose was essentially the win. 578 00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:50,640 What a greasy move. 579 00:41:50,670 --> 00:41:54,240 Mother nature, what a greasy move. 580 00:42:17,400 --> 00:42:20,230 The door shuts, blocks most of the wind. 581 00:42:20,230 --> 00:42:22,770 I am safe from predators. 582 00:42:22,800 --> 00:42:25,570 So we're chinking the shelter today. 583 00:42:25,610 --> 00:42:29,440 I have all this mud from the shoreline. 584 00:42:30,910 --> 00:42:33,250 Let's go and do this before the mud refreezes. 585 00:42:35,350 --> 00:42:37,120 Holy. 586 00:42:38,720 --> 00:42:40,390 Whoa. Alrighty. 587 00:42:40,490 --> 00:42:42,560 Steady as we go. 588 00:42:42,590 --> 00:42:45,220 Ah, steady. 589 00:42:50,460 --> 00:42:53,170 The sun was able to melt some of it, 590 00:42:53,200 --> 00:42:55,200 enough for me to be able to collect it. 591 00:42:56,670 --> 00:42:59,810 The problem is 592 00:42:59,840 --> 00:43:02,210 mud's really heavy, 593 00:43:02,240 --> 00:43:03,910 like, really heavy. 594 00:43:05,340 --> 00:43:08,380 I'm starting to realize that sustaining 595 00:43:08,480 --> 00:43:11,950 out here for the long term is a serious gamble 596 00:43:11,980 --> 00:43:13,990 and a lot of work. 597 00:43:14,020 --> 00:43:17,660 While I may not be thriving, I'm still doing it. 598 00:43:17,690 --> 00:43:19,360 You know? I've got berries. 599 00:43:19,390 --> 00:43:20,690 I've got plants. 600 00:43:20,790 --> 00:43:23,260 But I'd like to be doing better. 601 00:43:23,300 --> 00:43:25,870 Alrighty. 602 00:43:25,900 --> 00:43:28,200 I have no idea how much mud it's gonna take 603 00:43:28,230 --> 00:43:30,640 to chink this shelter, 604 00:43:30,640 --> 00:43:33,110 but we're about to find out. 605 00:43:34,940 --> 00:43:38,640 You know, in trauma recovery, there are three Rs 606 00:43:38,680 --> 00:43:40,680 that aid in trauma recovery. 607 00:43:40,710 --> 00:43:43,750 And one is rhythms. 608 00:43:43,780 --> 00:43:45,590 The other is relationships. 609 00:43:45,620 --> 00:43:47,590 And the third is reward. 610 00:43:47,690 --> 00:43:52,020 Wow, I'm really enjoying this. 611 00:43:52,130 --> 00:43:53,330 I'm really enjoying it. 612 00:43:53,360 --> 00:43:56,000 It's, like, really therapeutic. 613 00:43:56,030 --> 00:43:58,800 Things that have repetition 614 00:43:58,830 --> 00:44:02,030 actually can help recalibrate our emotional states 615 00:44:02,070 --> 00:44:03,600 in our brains. 616 00:44:05,100 --> 00:44:08,110 This might not be one of those jobs you can do in a day. 617 00:44:10,080 --> 00:44:14,110 The repetition and the rhythm actually calm my mind. 618 00:44:16,720 --> 00:44:20,320 There were times where I thought that living 619 00:44:20,350 --> 00:44:22,020 in trauma was my life. 620 00:44:22,120 --> 00:44:25,060 There was nothing past it. 621 00:44:25,160 --> 00:44:26,960 It was my relationship to the outdoors 622 00:44:26,990 --> 00:44:30,030 that helped me to navigate through that trauma. 623 00:44:30,060 --> 00:44:31,660 Oh, yeah. 624 00:44:31,700 --> 00:44:33,400 This is awesome. 625 00:44:33,430 --> 00:44:35,430 Awesome! 626 00:44:35,470 --> 00:44:37,970 This is good 627 00:44:38,000 --> 00:44:39,140 for today. 628 00:44:40,510 --> 00:44:42,740 I'm pretty hungry. 629 00:44:42,840 --> 00:44:45,950 I'm gonna go check my traps over there. 630 00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:51,650 Wow, my mood's really changed today. 631 00:44:51,680 --> 00:44:52,820 I don't know. 632 00:44:52,850 --> 00:44:55,150 I'm in a new state of mind today. 633 00:44:55,190 --> 00:44:57,790 I'm feeling really good today and optimistic, 634 00:44:57,820 --> 00:45:02,800 and, like, my curiosity is just alive right now, 635 00:45:02,830 --> 00:45:06,030 and all I want to do is go explore. 636 00:45:06,070 --> 00:45:09,670 My first solo hike was 637 00:45:09,700 --> 00:45:11,970 the Laugavegur trail in Iceland. 638 00:45:12,070 --> 00:45:15,580 This was my first time where I got to take the skills 639 00:45:15,680 --> 00:45:17,710 that I, at that point, had only learned 640 00:45:17,740 --> 00:45:21,150 on my own and really test them. 641 00:45:21,180 --> 00:45:23,180 There seems to be quite a few tracks, 642 00:45:23,220 --> 00:45:27,550 so this is good. 643 00:45:27,590 --> 00:45:29,760 So day one, when I was in Iceland, 644 00:45:29,790 --> 00:45:32,060 I was in an earthquake, witnessed an avalanche, 645 00:45:32,160 --> 00:45:33,430 and I fell in a crevasse. 646 00:45:33,460 --> 00:45:36,400 Everything terrible that could possibly happen 647 00:45:36,430 --> 00:45:38,030 actually happened. 648 00:45:38,060 --> 00:45:39,230 See, look at that. 649 00:45:39,270 --> 00:45:41,370 Look at all the traffic right there. 650 00:45:44,600 --> 00:45:46,070 But it was huge for me. 651 00:45:46,110 --> 00:45:48,770 That's what really, really helped 652 00:45:48,870 --> 00:45:51,680 strengthen my relationship with my body 653 00:45:51,710 --> 00:45:54,480 and to have it back. 654 00:45:56,480 --> 00:45:58,520 Oh, he's in my snare. 655 00:45:58,550 --> 00:45:59,520 All right. 656 00:45:59,550 --> 00:46:02,690 Well, today is a good day. 657 00:46:03,890 --> 00:46:05,990 I caught a hare. 658 00:46:06,030 --> 00:46:08,130 Hey, buddy. 659 00:46:11,630 --> 00:46:15,000 Let's go back and process this guy. 660 00:46:19,670 --> 00:46:22,310 Nature has this incredible ability 661 00:46:22,410 --> 00:46:24,880 to give you the answers 662 00:46:24,910 --> 00:46:26,880 to what you're looking for in life. 663 00:46:26,910 --> 00:46:28,410 I'm sorry. 664 00:46:29,720 --> 00:46:31,480 Thank you for your life. 665 00:46:31,520 --> 00:46:33,590 Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 666 00:46:33,620 --> 00:46:37,390 Survival skills saved my life in more ways than one. 667 00:46:39,030 --> 00:46:41,960 It's what helped me to heal. 668 00:46:41,960 --> 00:46:45,300 If my journey can help somebody else, 669 00:46:45,330 --> 00:46:46,970 and nobody has to walk the path 670 00:46:47,000 --> 00:46:49,670 that I've been through in my life 671 00:46:49,670 --> 00:46:52,640 living in a state of suffering, 672 00:46:52,670 --> 00:46:55,040 if I can change one person's life 673 00:46:55,070 --> 00:46:56,780 and say, "Hey, did you ever think 674 00:46:56,880 --> 00:46:58,880 "about leaning into nature? 675 00:46:58,910 --> 00:47:00,350 "Let me show you 676 00:47:00,380 --> 00:47:03,150 what it can do and how it can change your life," 677 00:47:03,180 --> 00:47:05,890 then... 678 00:47:05,920 --> 00:47:08,350 that would make all of this worth it. 679 00:47:08,390 --> 00:47:10,190 It would make all my pain and suffering worth it, 680 00:47:10,190 --> 00:47:12,160 to help others, 681 00:47:12,160 --> 00:47:14,860 show them that there is another way. 682 00:47:16,230 --> 00:47:18,230 Thank you, universe, for this meal. 683 00:47:29,180 --> 00:47:31,110 I feel like a whole other person right now. 684 00:47:35,050 --> 00:47:37,480 Got a rabbit brain roasting on some coals. 685 00:47:40,190 --> 00:47:43,790 Got rabbit blood all over my hands and all over my pants. 686 00:47:43,820 --> 00:47:46,560 I can feel my body being replenished. 687 00:47:50,830 --> 00:47:52,670 I finally feel like I've become 688 00:47:52,700 --> 00:47:54,600 the person I'm supposed to be. 689 00:47:58,300 --> 00:48:01,270 It's a beautiful day. 690 00:48:01,310 --> 00:48:04,910 Nature has definitely allowed me to develop 691 00:48:04,910 --> 00:48:09,520 a connection with who I call my authentic self, 692 00:48:09,550 --> 00:48:11,350 who Jacks really is. 693 00:48:11,380 --> 00:48:14,990 You know, that person hides a lot. 694 00:48:17,590 --> 00:48:24,030 And so in nature, that person gets to be free. 695 00:48:43,420 --> 00:48:45,520 Eagle footage. 696 00:48:48,950 --> 00:48:51,660 Do something, eagle, for me. 697 00:48:51,760 --> 00:48:53,590 Fly away or something. 698 00:48:55,190 --> 00:48:56,760 It's a good reminder. 699 00:48:56,800 --> 00:49:00,800 I gotta put the food away. 700 00:49:00,830 --> 00:49:03,240 Keep it away from scavengers. 701 00:49:06,470 --> 00:49:08,670 Damn. 702 00:49:08,710 --> 00:49:12,240 I'm gonna work on the food caches this afternoon. 703 00:49:12,280 --> 00:49:14,610 So I'm gonna make a fourth one. 704 00:49:14,650 --> 00:49:18,150 I'm gonna try and make it out of one of the beaver pelts. 705 00:49:18,150 --> 00:49:20,720 Get it set up. See if it works. 706 00:49:25,760 --> 00:49:27,430 I'm really happy with the layout 707 00:49:27,530 --> 00:49:29,230 and the setup with my shelter. 708 00:49:29,260 --> 00:49:32,600 I've got food to last a long time 709 00:49:32,630 --> 00:49:34,030 and need to better preserve it 710 00:49:34,070 --> 00:49:35,940 and make sure that it doesn't go off. 711 00:49:35,970 --> 00:49:39,670 Right now, it's about 712 00:49:39,710 --> 00:49:41,170 storing food. 713 00:49:41,270 --> 00:49:43,510 But I'm starting to learn that I can really just 714 00:49:43,540 --> 00:49:45,540 start to sink into this experience 715 00:49:45,580 --> 00:49:48,150 with the confidence that everything's working for me. 716 00:49:48,250 --> 00:49:51,450 Let's get that beaver pelt into a bit of a bag. 717 00:49:53,590 --> 00:49:57,590 So the question is, how do I want to do it. 718 00:50:00,860 --> 00:50:03,630 I've got paracord there, punch holes is there, 719 00:50:03,660 --> 00:50:05,130 there, there, and there. 720 00:50:05,160 --> 00:50:08,270 And then just have the rope which comes through 721 00:50:08,370 --> 00:50:11,370 and brings them together. 722 00:50:19,750 --> 00:50:21,410 It feels really good to be able to come back 723 00:50:21,450 --> 00:50:26,950 to my shelter and just recharge and regather myself. 724 00:50:26,990 --> 00:50:31,020 And it feels like home. 725 00:50:31,060 --> 00:50:34,260 I think, psychologically, you know, us humans, 726 00:50:34,360 --> 00:50:39,630 we need a place to call home and having connection. 727 00:50:39,670 --> 00:50:42,300 We talk a lot about connection. 728 00:50:42,330 --> 00:50:44,870 I think all Australians find it, 729 00:50:44,870 --> 00:50:49,010 in some way, difficult to be connected to land. 730 00:50:50,380 --> 00:50:53,710 Australia's got this weird sort of conundrum 731 00:50:53,750 --> 00:50:56,150 where we want to be connected 732 00:50:56,180 --> 00:50:58,450 to our land and to our country, 733 00:50:58,550 --> 00:51:02,120 but because of our past, there's a bit of a stigma 734 00:51:02,150 --> 00:51:04,720 that we can't be connected to land. 735 00:51:06,660 --> 00:51:10,560 With colonialism, we came into Australia 736 00:51:10,600 --> 00:51:12,230 as an invader. 737 00:51:16,240 --> 00:51:18,900 And we've pushed the First Nations people 738 00:51:18,900 --> 00:51:20,710 up in the northern parts of Australia. 739 00:51:22,310 --> 00:51:24,280 So they don't have their land anymore. 740 00:51:24,310 --> 00:51:26,350 But now we've come onto this land. 741 00:51:26,350 --> 00:51:28,910 We have all of this history and guilt 742 00:51:28,910 --> 00:51:31,350 with what we've done in the past. 743 00:51:31,350 --> 00:51:32,920 And so therefore, we don't feel like 744 00:51:32,950 --> 00:51:35,920 we have the right to have connection to that land. 745 00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:38,960 So Australia is this place with a whole bunch of people 746 00:51:38,960 --> 00:51:41,760 and not really anybody connected to the land. 747 00:51:41,790 --> 00:51:43,830 She ain't pretty, but... 748 00:51:47,030 --> 00:51:48,770 She'll hold some food. 749 00:51:48,800 --> 00:51:50,240 And I think that's something that 750 00:51:50,270 --> 00:51:51,870 we really need to try and come together 751 00:51:51,900 --> 00:51:53,840 and work through. 752 00:51:53,840 --> 00:51:57,280 Beaver naturally goes in beaver cache. 753 00:51:57,310 --> 00:51:59,780 When I first came to the delta, 754 00:51:59,880 --> 00:52:02,080 I had these expectations and these ideas 755 00:52:02,110 --> 00:52:05,990 of how I thought it should be. 756 00:52:05,990 --> 00:52:09,360 And I was really resistant at first. 757 00:52:09,360 --> 00:52:11,320 Nice and high. 758 00:52:12,790 --> 00:52:14,990 It's taken me a while, but finally, 759 00:52:15,030 --> 00:52:18,760 I'm really feeling like I'm meant to be here. 760 00:52:18,800 --> 00:52:20,800 The land wants me to be here. 761 00:52:23,270 --> 00:52:25,800 And the more that I spend time, 762 00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:27,470 the more that gets reinforced, 763 00:52:27,510 --> 00:52:30,810 and the better and deeper my relationship 764 00:52:30,840 --> 00:52:32,880 with the land becomes. 765 00:52:35,510 --> 00:52:38,420 Sunset over the mountains. 766 00:52:38,520 --> 00:52:39,850 Beautiful. 767 00:52:44,590 --> 00:52:48,430 Feels so surreal to be here sometimes 768 00:52:48,530 --> 00:52:51,230 on this journey, 769 00:52:51,230 --> 00:52:53,430 out here on this land. 770 00:53:01,070 --> 00:53:03,510 And I'm grateful for this place. 771 00:53:05,010 --> 00:53:08,350 It's given me life. It's sustaining me. 772 00:53:13,190 --> 00:53:15,590 I'm becoming a part of this place. 773 00:53:19,390 --> 00:53:21,790 And it's becoming a part of me. 774 00:53:48,520 --> 00:53:52,160 I finished up my carvings. 775 00:53:52,160 --> 00:53:55,590 We got a little spoon set here. 776 00:53:55,630 --> 00:54:00,230 This one is for Cassie, Inukuk. 777 00:54:00,270 --> 00:54:04,100 And we have a little bit smaller of a spoon. 778 00:54:04,200 --> 00:54:07,910 This is for Willow. She's a middle-aged girl. 779 00:54:07,940 --> 00:54:09,440 We got the middle-aged spoon. 780 00:54:09,440 --> 00:54:12,340 And then... 781 00:54:12,380 --> 00:54:13,710 my baby, 782 00:54:13,750 --> 00:54:15,750 baby of the house, Taliiraq, 783 00:54:15,850 --> 00:54:17,720 Kenna Rose. 784 00:54:17,720 --> 00:54:21,750 Spoon for the baby. 785 00:54:21,790 --> 00:54:24,490 Baby spoon for the baby. 786 00:54:24,520 --> 00:54:27,590 My son... 787 00:54:27,630 --> 00:54:30,960 he's getting the action figure. 788 00:54:31,000 --> 00:54:34,130 "Alone," Season 13 789 00:54:34,170 --> 00:54:35,970 little figure. 790 00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:39,470 So I could just see my kids loving them 791 00:54:39,510 --> 00:54:42,310 and enjoy using them. I know they will. 792 00:54:45,080 --> 00:54:49,720 So right now I'm gonna try to check the snares. 793 00:54:52,580 --> 00:54:55,650 I still haven't pooped. 794 00:54:55,750 --> 00:54:58,460 Drank almost two quarts of tilaaqiaq, 795 00:54:58,560 --> 00:55:00,190 Labrador tea, 796 00:55:00,230 --> 00:55:03,000 just trying to get some type of poop out of me. 797 00:55:03,030 --> 00:55:05,730 Set more snares yesterday. 798 00:55:05,760 --> 00:55:07,800 I got plenty out now. 799 00:55:07,830 --> 00:55:10,540 I'm still eating enough to where I'd have to poop, 800 00:55:10,640 --> 00:55:12,440 though, you'd think. 801 00:55:12,440 --> 00:55:14,870 I don't know if that means I'm clogged up or what, 802 00:55:14,910 --> 00:55:17,810 but I'm getting kind of worried. 803 00:55:17,910 --> 00:55:21,110 I have a fear that my stomach can tear open, 804 00:55:21,150 --> 00:55:24,150 my intestine could tear open. 805 00:55:24,180 --> 00:55:25,950 Well, you got a rabbit. 806 00:55:25,980 --> 00:55:28,090 One ukalaitchaq here. 807 00:55:28,120 --> 00:55:30,390 Leave him right there 'cause we'll be back. 808 00:55:32,190 --> 00:55:35,190 I want to keep going. Like, my mind loves it here. 809 00:55:35,190 --> 00:55:36,500 I could stay. 810 00:55:36,530 --> 00:55:38,900 But at what cost? 811 00:55:39,000 --> 00:55:42,970 Like, at the cost of totally messing up my body, 812 00:55:43,000 --> 00:55:46,410 getting sepsis, and dying? 813 00:55:46,440 --> 00:55:50,280 Ukalaitchaq here. Yeah. 814 00:55:50,280 --> 00:55:52,410 Living off of rabbit and fish, 815 00:55:52,510 --> 00:55:54,680 and I can't really eat either right now. 816 00:55:54,710 --> 00:55:56,420 Like, I just don't have the appetite 817 00:55:56,450 --> 00:55:59,150 to eat rabbit or fish. 818 00:55:59,150 --> 00:56:01,390 I hate to sound like a picky baby. 819 00:56:01,420 --> 00:56:03,390 I'm not picky with my food at all. 820 00:56:03,420 --> 00:56:05,890 There's almost nothing I won't eat. 821 00:56:05,920 --> 00:56:09,490 Last one here. This is fresh too. 822 00:56:09,530 --> 00:56:12,800 Oh, baby got chewed up a little bit. 823 00:56:12,830 --> 00:56:15,870 I want to be here. Like, I don't want to go. 824 00:56:15,900 --> 00:56:20,740 But I also don't want my kids to go without a father 825 00:56:20,840 --> 00:56:22,910 for the rest of their lives. 826 00:56:25,510 --> 00:56:28,810 A black bear walking through my backyard again. 827 00:56:28,850 --> 00:56:32,850 He came all the way down the riverbank. 828 00:56:32,890 --> 00:56:36,990 Came up right here next to my shelter. 829 00:56:36,990 --> 00:56:38,190 I'm not too sure where it went. 830 00:56:38,220 --> 00:56:40,030 It might be back, and I'll be ready. 831 00:56:40,060 --> 00:56:41,990 I got the bow and arrow. 832 00:56:42,960 --> 00:56:44,960 Keep an eye out. 833 00:56:47,470 --> 00:56:49,400 I am still in this competition, 834 00:56:49,430 --> 00:56:51,870 mentally and spiritually. 835 00:56:51,870 --> 00:56:55,470 My body is giving up, but I realize that 836 00:56:55,510 --> 00:56:58,810 there's a chance for that black bear. 837 00:56:58,840 --> 00:57:02,510 Best rabbit day ever. 838 00:57:24,100 --> 00:57:26,140 Just kind of laid in bed all morning, 839 00:57:26,240 --> 00:57:29,710 and, uh, I could just lay in bed all day 840 00:57:29,740 --> 00:57:32,950 if I want to, 841 00:57:33,050 --> 00:57:35,550 which is what I might just do. 842 00:57:35,580 --> 00:57:37,520 We'll see. 843 00:57:37,520 --> 00:57:41,950 I just feel like my mind and 844 00:57:41,990 --> 00:57:47,560 my spirit just can be here for the rest of the winter. 845 00:57:47,560 --> 00:57:52,300 But right now, my body can't, just because 846 00:57:52,400 --> 00:57:56,030 it's unable to accept food. 847 00:57:58,440 --> 00:58:01,740 And you need food for energy. 848 00:58:01,840 --> 00:58:05,540 You know, if I stay longer and longer and longer, 849 00:58:05,580 --> 00:58:07,780 could be doing irreversible damage 850 00:58:07,880 --> 00:58:11,720 to my body and my digestive system 851 00:58:11,750 --> 00:58:14,190 and who knows what else. 852 00:58:14,220 --> 00:58:16,620 Maybe my heart. 853 00:58:16,720 --> 00:58:20,360 And that's all not worth winning this 854 00:58:20,360 --> 00:58:23,360 and worth half a million bucks. 855 00:58:39,480 --> 00:58:42,680 Can't believe I'm doing this. 856 00:58:42,710 --> 00:58:44,050 30 days. 857 00:58:44,080 --> 00:58:47,690 I mean, I barely have enough energy 858 00:58:47,720 --> 00:58:49,920 to get out of bed. 859 00:58:49,960 --> 00:58:52,460 I mean, you know, I have food. 860 00:58:52,560 --> 00:58:56,360 I have five, six days worth of food, 861 00:58:56,360 --> 00:58:58,960 but I just have not had an appetite, 862 00:58:59,000 --> 00:59:01,470 and I don't know why. 863 00:59:12,440 --> 00:59:13,680 Hey, it's Will. 864 00:59:15,880 --> 00:59:18,250 I'm--I'm officially tapping out. 865 00:59:27,160 --> 00:59:29,130 The most-- 866 00:59:32,900 --> 00:59:35,170 That was the most difficult thing 867 00:59:35,200 --> 00:59:36,970 I ever had to do, I think. 868 00:59:37,000 --> 00:59:43,280 And, uh, it wasn't easy, but 869 00:59:43,310 --> 00:59:46,280 it was the right thing to do. 870 00:59:58,660 --> 01:00:01,960 I haven't anaq -ed in weeks, pooped. 871 01:00:04,800 --> 01:00:08,200 starting to get stomach cramps a week ago. 872 01:00:08,230 --> 01:00:11,970 And, yeah, I don't have energy to do anything 873 01:00:12,000 --> 01:00:15,010 other than just lay here. 874 01:00:15,040 --> 01:00:17,440 I know that my mind and my spirit can. 875 01:00:17,480 --> 01:00:19,180 Right now, my body can't. 876 01:00:19,280 --> 01:00:20,910 So that's something I've just-- 877 01:00:20,910 --> 01:00:23,250 I've come to accept. 878 01:00:23,280 --> 01:00:28,350 And it's been by far 879 01:00:28,390 --> 01:00:30,190 the most amazing experience, 880 01:00:30,220 --> 01:00:33,430 other than seeing the birth of each of my four kids 881 01:00:33,460 --> 01:00:35,190 and being there. 882 01:00:35,230 --> 01:00:38,100 I mean, this is right there with it-- 883 01:00:38,130 --> 01:00:41,070 just... 884 01:00:41,100 --> 01:00:44,000 being a part of this land, you know, being out here alone. 885 01:00:44,040 --> 01:00:46,470 And just-- 886 01:00:46,510 --> 01:00:47,770 it was a beautiful thing, 887 01:00:47,810 --> 01:00:50,710 and I hate to see it come to an end. 888 01:00:53,780 --> 01:00:56,450 Coming out here, I kind of thought, 889 01:00:56,480 --> 01:00:59,180 I'm just a simple Iñupiaq man. 890 01:00:59,180 --> 01:01:01,250 I'm willing to die to win this. 891 01:01:01,290 --> 01:01:03,460 But then you come out here, and you just realize 892 01:01:03,560 --> 01:01:07,190 how much more is involved, including your kids, 893 01:01:07,230 --> 01:01:11,230 including your wife, including everything. 894 01:01:13,000 --> 01:01:16,030 You know, I didn't grow up with a wealthy family 895 01:01:16,030 --> 01:01:18,670 or a high school graduation. None of that. 896 01:01:18,700 --> 01:01:20,510 My culture is all I've had. 897 01:01:20,510 --> 01:01:23,610 And kind of thought, I gotta win this 898 01:01:23,640 --> 01:01:27,080 to represent the Iñupiaq people. 899 01:01:27,080 --> 01:01:29,050 But within the last few days, 900 01:01:29,080 --> 01:01:32,950 I kind of realized just by stepping onto this land, 901 01:01:32,980 --> 01:01:35,590 I've represented them. 902 01:01:35,620 --> 01:01:36,990 The things that I've done, 903 01:01:36,990 --> 01:01:38,390 the traditional ivrulik 904 01:01:38,420 --> 01:01:40,990 that I've made, the tools that I've made, 905 01:01:41,030 --> 01:01:44,230 it was all based on our culture. 906 01:01:49,230 --> 01:01:50,770 It was important to me, 907 01:01:50,800 --> 01:01:54,940 and I would love for it to be just as important to my kids. 908 01:01:54,970 --> 01:01:56,740 I think it's something that they're gonna remember 909 01:01:56,780 --> 01:01:59,880 for the rest of their lives. They will, just as I will. 910 01:01:59,910 --> 01:02:02,350 And they'll be telling their kids about it 911 01:02:02,350 --> 01:02:04,180 and maybe even their grandkids about it, 912 01:02:04,220 --> 01:02:07,150 that a young kid from the tundra, 913 01:02:07,190 --> 01:02:09,150 as I like to say... 914 01:02:11,620 --> 01:02:15,060 Came here on a worldwide stage of survival 915 01:02:15,160 --> 01:02:18,630 and represented the Iñupiaq people. 916 01:02:18,660 --> 01:02:20,430 And that's one thing that I wanted to do 917 01:02:20,430 --> 01:02:23,600 and one thing that I feel like I've done 918 01:02:23,640 --> 01:02:25,670 in the short amount of time that I've had here. 919 01:02:27,910 --> 01:02:30,240 I kind of feel like I found more of the person 920 01:02:30,280 --> 01:02:31,710 who I'm supposed to be. 921 01:02:34,750 --> 01:02:38,820 Elders are extremely important people, 922 01:02:38,850 --> 01:02:41,590 and sometimes I don't think they realize it, 923 01:02:41,690 --> 01:02:43,990 but a lot of knowledge 924 01:02:44,020 --> 01:02:46,490 has been passed down to them, you know? 925 01:02:46,590 --> 01:02:51,330 It's not written in books or TV shows, none of that. 926 01:02:51,360 --> 01:02:53,030 It's all just passed down, 927 01:02:53,030 --> 01:02:55,200 person to person, 928 01:02:55,200 --> 01:02:58,870 and I just absorbed it all. 929 01:02:58,900 --> 01:03:01,970 I'm feeling really proud about that. 930 01:03:02,010 --> 01:03:04,740 And until the day that I die, 931 01:03:04,780 --> 01:03:08,150 I'm gonna pass all that knowledge down to my kids. 932 01:03:09,280 --> 01:03:11,280 This is our history. 933 01:03:20,790 --> 01:03:23,360 I can smell some unpleasant smell. 934 01:03:24,960 --> 01:03:27,330 Each piece of meat spoiling. 935 01:03:27,370 --> 01:03:29,670 This weather sucks. 936 01:03:29,700 --> 01:03:31,400 I've been making a coracle, 937 01:03:31,440 --> 01:03:32,400 which is a small boat. 938 01:03:32,440 --> 01:03:33,770 Let's do it. 939 01:03:33,870 --> 01:03:36,110 My concern is that if I do get cold and wet, 940 01:03:36,210 --> 01:03:37,510 at the very least, 941 01:03:37,510 --> 01:03:38,840 it would mean having to tap out. 942 01:03:38,880 --> 01:03:41,280 At the worst, it could put my life in danger. 943 01:03:41,280 --> 01:03:42,750 Whoa. 944 01:03:42,780 --> 01:03:44,680 My stomach is feeling really funny right now. 945 01:03:44,720 --> 01:03:46,890 Why would this be happening to me? 946 01:03:46,920 --> 01:03:50,190 Just pain. 947 01:03:50,290 --> 01:03:52,020 I don't know why. 948 01:03:52,060 --> 01:03:54,090 It just hurts so bad. 949 01:03:54,114 --> 01:03:55,114 .