1 00:00:34,834 --> 00:00:36,903 - Is she asleep? - Nearly. 2 00:00:44,210 --> 00:00:47,180 You ready? Alfonso's waiting downstairs. 3 00:00:47,914 --> 00:00:50,216 I'll be back in a couple of hours. 4 00:00:50,850 --> 00:00:52,485 Go, don't worry. 5 00:00:52,952 --> 00:00:55,255 - It's absolutely fine. - Thanks. 6 00:00:56,222 --> 00:00:58,792 I'm scared something might happen to Mamma. 7 00:00:58,858 --> 00:01:01,661 I don't want her to be alone if anything happens. 8 00:01:03,229 --> 00:01:04,731 Go. 9 00:01:04,798 --> 00:01:05,865 Yeah. 10 00:01:29,622 --> 00:01:32,859 Marisa was always free to cheat on me if she wanted. 11 00:01:37,397 --> 00:01:39,199 I gave her kids a name. 12 00:01:39,265 --> 00:01:42,168 But she's mad at me anyway. 13 00:01:42,569 --> 00:01:43,903 We'll never get there. 14 00:01:44,037 --> 00:01:45,805 She spat in my face a bunch of times. 15 00:01:48,441 --> 00:01:50,310 She says I deceived her. 16 00:01:50,710 --> 00:01:53,613 And did you deceive her? 17 00:01:54,180 --> 00:01:55,715 How could I ever? 18 00:01:58,051 --> 00:02:01,421 You're an intelligent person, an intellectual, you get it. 19 00:02:03,757 --> 00:02:05,925 I was deceived the most. 20 00:02:07,594 --> 00:02:09,529 Deceived by myself. 21 00:02:12,632 --> 00:02:14,901 - Asshole, you fuckin' blind? - Fuck you! 22 00:02:14,968 --> 00:02:15,969 Your mother's a whore! 23 00:02:17,337 --> 00:02:18,471 Jackass. 24 00:02:22,642 --> 00:02:25,211 And if Lila hadn't helped me... 25 00:02:26,846 --> 00:02:28,782 I would have died cheated. 26 00:02:31,885 --> 00:02:35,555 The finest thing she did was to impose clarity on me. 27 00:02:37,223 --> 00:02:39,526 She taught me to realize 28 00:02:39,592 --> 00:02:41,861 that if I touch a woman's bare foot, 29 00:02:44,264 --> 00:02:46,199 I feel nothing... 30 00:02:48,868 --> 00:02:52,005 But I'm swooning with desire to touch a man's foot. 31 00:02:53,940 --> 00:02:55,842 And caress his hands, 32 00:02:57,377 --> 00:02:59,612 cut his nails with scissors, 33 00:03:00,880 --> 00:03:03,016 squeeze his blackheads. 34 00:03:14,994 --> 00:03:18,431 Remember when we were little? 35 00:03:19,733 --> 00:03:23,470 You and Lila came to ask my father to give back your dolls. 36 00:03:24,204 --> 00:03:25,872 Who could forget? 37 00:03:27,374 --> 00:03:29,676 D'you remember he called me 38 00:03:30,610 --> 00:03:33,013 and asked, teasing me, 39 00:03:34,414 --> 00:03:36,483 "Alfonso did you take them?" 40 00:03:37,384 --> 00:03:39,552 And everyone laughed. 41 00:03:41,888 --> 00:03:44,858 I was the shame of my family, 42 00:03:44,924 --> 00:03:47,627 I played with my sister's dolls and put on Mamma's necklaces. 43 00:03:50,196 --> 00:03:53,800 As a kid I already knew I wasn't what others thought, 44 00:03:54,467 --> 00:03:56,936 or even what I thought I was. 45 00:03:57,671 --> 00:03:59,806 "I'm something else," I said. 46 00:04:00,674 --> 00:04:04,711 A nameless thing crouched deep in my veins, waiting. 47 00:04:12,852 --> 00:04:15,488 I didn't know what it was, 48 00:04:15,555 --> 00:04:17,724 until Lila forced me to... 49 00:04:19,826 --> 00:04:21,728 I don't know how to explain it. 50 00:04:23,897 --> 00:04:25,932 To take a little bit of her. 51 00:04:37,544 --> 00:04:40,013 My little lamb 52 00:04:40,347 --> 00:04:43,249 What did you do 53 00:04:44,684 --> 00:04:49,956 When you ended up in the wolf's mouth? 54 00:05:02,268 --> 00:05:03,937 We blended ourselves, 55 00:05:05,305 --> 00:05:07,807 and now I'm not what I used to be. 56 00:05:08,641 --> 00:05:10,543 I'm not Lila either. 57 00:05:13,279 --> 00:05:14,948 I'm another thing, 58 00:05:15,682 --> 00:05:17,817 that is gradually taking form. 59 00:05:40,907 --> 00:05:41,941 Hi, Marcello. 60 00:05:42,709 --> 00:05:44,210 Hi, Lenù. 61 00:05:45,712 --> 00:05:48,848 - Hi, Marcello. - Your mother's better today. 62 00:05:49,582 --> 00:05:50,650 Good. 63 00:06:01,895 --> 00:06:04,597 He thinks Michele's gone crazy because of me. 64 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:09,602 Lila encouraged me to be like her. 65 00:06:10,537 --> 00:06:12,772 She likes to see how I distort her 66 00:06:14,307 --> 00:06:17,644 and she likes the effect this distortion has on Michele. 67 00:06:19,679 --> 00:06:21,514 And I like it too. 68 00:06:22,449 --> 00:06:23,483 That's the truth. 69 00:06:32,559 --> 00:06:35,428 If I get killed, remember, it was Marcello. 70 00:06:36,663 --> 00:06:38,298 What are you saying? 71 00:07:26,946 --> 00:07:29,482 - Basic Sight. - Ada, put Enzo on. 72 00:07:29,716 --> 00:07:33,219 He's out on an errand. Then he's coming to get you. 73 00:07:33,286 --> 00:07:35,188 Tell him I'm going into labor. 74 00:07:56,776 --> 00:07:58,411 What's going on? 75 00:07:58,478 --> 00:08:01,514 The baby's in her cradle. Take care of her. 76 00:08:01,581 --> 00:08:04,351 - I gotta run. - Do you want to come in? 77 00:08:04,417 --> 00:08:06,353 I gotta go or I won't make it. 78 00:08:08,455 --> 00:08:10,957 - The baby! - I'll see to her, don't worry. 79 00:08:38,752 --> 00:08:39,953 Help me! 80 00:08:41,821 --> 00:08:42,856 Help! 81 00:08:47,293 --> 00:08:48,661 Help me, I'm in labor. 82 00:08:49,329 --> 00:08:51,965 My God! Get in, quick. 83 00:08:53,433 --> 00:08:54,868 I'll take you to the hospital. 84 00:08:56,569 --> 00:08:57,570 Lila! 85 00:09:00,073 --> 00:09:01,474 Is he your husband? 86 00:09:02,742 --> 00:09:04,277 What happened? 87 00:09:05,545 --> 00:09:07,814 Let's hurry, this is it. 88 00:09:07,881 --> 00:09:09,883 Really? This is it? 89 00:09:14,821 --> 00:09:16,723 Don't hold back, push! 90 00:09:19,292 --> 00:09:21,261 Get it out of me! 91 00:09:21,661 --> 00:09:23,797 Cut open my belly, bitch! 92 00:09:23,863 --> 00:09:26,433 - Come on, push. - Cut open my belly! 93 00:09:27,267 --> 00:09:28,535 Come on! 94 00:09:29,269 --> 00:09:30,737 I can't do it! 95 00:09:35,308 --> 00:09:36,309 Come on! 96 00:09:39,879 --> 00:09:41,381 Don't hold back. 97 00:09:41,448 --> 00:09:43,316 The fuck you on about! 98 00:09:48,621 --> 00:09:51,958 Fucking cow, get this baby out of my belly! 99 00:09:52,192 --> 00:09:53,426 You turd! 100 00:09:53,493 --> 00:09:56,830 You're killing me! 101 00:09:58,565 --> 00:10:00,100 Help me! 102 00:10:26,559 --> 00:10:27,794 It's a girl. 103 00:10:32,198 --> 00:10:33,500 It's a girl. 104 00:11:53,913 --> 00:11:56,449 It's not true you only suffer with the first child 105 00:11:56,516 --> 00:11:58,351 and after that it gets easier. 106 00:11:58,852 --> 00:12:00,887 You suffer each time, Lenù. 107 00:12:02,389 --> 00:12:04,758 Your body becomes its own enemy 108 00:12:04,824 --> 00:12:07,494 and inflicts the most atrocious pain on itself. 109 00:12:07,761 --> 00:12:09,229 You're exaggerating. 110 00:12:09,462 --> 00:12:10,663 I'm exaggerating? 111 00:12:12,198 --> 00:12:14,234 You're such a liar. 112 00:12:14,934 --> 00:12:17,270 What beautiful experience? 113 00:12:21,374 --> 00:12:24,277 I swear I'll never get pregnant again. 114 00:12:33,520 --> 00:12:35,255 She's beautiful. 115 00:12:41,327 --> 00:12:44,197 You know you named her after my doll? 116 00:12:48,935 --> 00:12:50,704 Which doll? 117 00:12:51,838 --> 00:12:53,006 Tina. 118 00:12:53,606 --> 00:12:55,775 Remember? Nunziatina. 119 00:12:58,511 --> 00:12:59,846 It's true. 120 00:13:00,914 --> 00:13:03,283 I didn't do it on purpose. 121 00:13:03,983 --> 00:13:06,152 She was a beautiful doll. 122 00:13:08,221 --> 00:13:09,589 I was so attached to her. 123 00:13:09,789 --> 00:13:11,858 My daughter's more beautiful. 124 00:13:40,653 --> 00:13:43,256 Hi, how are you? Did you come to visit your friend? 125 00:13:43,723 --> 00:13:44,858 Yes. 126 00:13:44,924 --> 00:13:46,559 I found her exhausted. 127 00:13:47,527 --> 00:13:51,765 If you care about her, help her focus on something good, 128 00:13:51,865 --> 00:13:53,800 or with that dancing brain of hers 129 00:13:53,867 --> 00:13:56,169 she'll get herself and those around her in trouble. 130 00:13:56,670 --> 00:13:58,471 Why do you say that? 131 00:13:59,673 --> 00:14:01,841 Her delivery was different from yours. 132 00:14:02,475 --> 00:14:05,078 In the delivery room I saw a fight against nature, 133 00:14:05,145 --> 00:14:07,781 a horrible clash between a mother and her child. 134 00:14:08,982 --> 00:14:10,984 A truly unpleasant experience. 135 00:14:11,985 --> 00:14:15,288 It's unpleasant to hear you say these things. 136 00:14:32,238 --> 00:14:35,875 The babies became an excuse to be together more. 137 00:14:37,777 --> 00:14:39,813 Lila and I spoke on the phone, 138 00:14:39,879 --> 00:14:42,882 we met up to take our two babies out, 139 00:14:43,216 --> 00:14:46,886 we spoke endlessly, no longer about us, but about them. 140 00:14:47,220 --> 00:14:49,289 Or at least so it seemed. 141 00:14:52,759 --> 00:14:56,863 A new richness and complexity in our relationship began to emerge 142 00:14:56,930 --> 00:15:00,333 through a mutual attention to our two daughters. 143 00:15:02,335 --> 00:15:06,239 And this gave me relief from worrying about my mother. 144 00:15:10,577 --> 00:15:13,646 Is it true Lila offered you a job? 145 00:15:16,683 --> 00:15:18,785 I'm not sure I would call it a job... 146 00:15:18,852 --> 00:15:21,488 She wants us to work for a client of hers in Baiano. 147 00:15:22,322 --> 00:15:23,456 And you? 148 00:15:25,725 --> 00:15:27,927 What are we gonna do in Baiano? 149 00:15:31,431 --> 00:15:34,300 You pieces of shit! What you gonna do in Baiano? 150 00:15:34,367 --> 00:15:35,869 Shut up, Lenù. 151 00:15:36,202 --> 00:15:37,504 Don't be like this. 152 00:15:37,570 --> 00:15:40,774 That poor woman is doing it out of pity for me 153 00:15:41,508 --> 00:15:43,677 and out of friendship for your sister. 154 00:15:44,711 --> 00:15:48,815 She knows you don't deserve anything! 155 00:15:49,549 --> 00:15:51,785 Calm down, it's not good for you... 156 00:15:51,851 --> 00:15:53,887 - Shut up, asshole! - Mamma. 157 00:15:56,222 --> 00:15:58,858 I know what you two deserve, 158 00:15:58,925 --> 00:16:01,194 to stay where you are, 159 00:16:01,961 --> 00:16:04,230 to live in the filth you live in. 160 00:16:04,297 --> 00:16:05,598 No, Mamma. 161 00:16:10,937 --> 00:16:12,806 Why are you crying? 162 00:16:14,374 --> 00:16:15,975 Because I'm sorry. 163 00:16:16,810 --> 00:16:18,712 Don't treat us like this. 164 00:16:19,279 --> 00:16:21,548 Why, do you love me? 165 00:16:21,715 --> 00:16:24,384 Of course, what kind of question is that? 166 00:16:24,884 --> 00:16:27,520 Well, if you do love me, 167 00:16:28,588 --> 00:16:30,757 you gotta let me die with my heart at peace. 168 00:16:34,928 --> 00:16:36,463 Yes, Mamma. 169 00:16:37,731 --> 00:16:40,233 Go to Lila today, 170 00:16:41,267 --> 00:16:44,204 tell her the job's perfect, thank her... 171 00:16:47,741 --> 00:16:50,377 Tell her you accept with pleasure. 172 00:16:51,411 --> 00:16:53,013 Is that clear? 173 00:16:53,947 --> 00:16:55,315 Yes, Mamma. 174 00:16:57,350 --> 00:16:59,652 I didn't hear you, Peppino. 175 00:17:04,791 --> 00:17:05,959 All right, Mamma. 176 00:17:07,327 --> 00:17:10,363 And you know you can't fool me. 177 00:17:10,997 --> 00:17:13,333 Lila tells me everything. 178 00:17:15,001 --> 00:17:16,936 You gotta do it now. 179 00:17:24,644 --> 00:17:26,846 Now send in Marcello. 180 00:17:39,292 --> 00:17:40,627 I love you, Ma. 181 00:17:57,043 --> 00:17:58,244 Bye, Ma. 182 00:18:21,601 --> 00:18:23,903 You mustn't get worked up like this. 183 00:18:25,772 --> 00:18:27,841 How can I not? 184 00:18:28,408 --> 00:18:29,709 It's bad for you. 185 00:18:31,778 --> 00:18:33,913 I wanna talk to Marcello. 186 00:18:34,781 --> 00:18:36,416 He's coming. 187 00:18:57,470 --> 00:18:58,805 Imma... 188 00:19:03,343 --> 00:19:04,778 Mamma. 189 00:19:08,014 --> 00:19:09,816 Do you need anything? 190 00:19:11,985 --> 00:19:14,554 For you to marry my daughter. 191 00:19:16,923 --> 00:19:18,858 I mean it. 192 00:19:18,925 --> 00:19:20,126 I know. 193 00:19:20,560 --> 00:19:24,330 The only reason we haven't gotten married yet 194 00:19:24,397 --> 00:19:26,733 is because we're waiting for you to recover. 195 00:19:30,236 --> 00:19:32,238 And seeing as you're better now, 196 00:19:32,405 --> 00:19:34,908 yesterday we decided to do the paperwork. 197 00:19:43,249 --> 00:19:47,187 Then, do the paperwork and get married as soon as possible. 198 00:19:47,287 --> 00:19:48,588 Yes, Mamma. 199 00:19:50,990 --> 00:19:52,759 You want to save Peppe and Gianni 200 00:19:53,793 --> 00:19:56,096 and you marry your daughter to Marcello? 201 00:19:56,229 --> 00:19:57,597 Be quiet. 202 00:20:20,553 --> 00:20:22,622 Mom, the girls want to see you. 203 00:20:23,289 --> 00:20:24,724 The girls are here. 204 00:20:25,458 --> 00:20:27,527 Go on, don't be scared. 205 00:20:30,263 --> 00:20:31,631 Come. 206 00:20:33,533 --> 00:20:34,534 Come. 207 00:20:57,924 --> 00:20:59,693 Sit down. 208 00:21:01,928 --> 00:21:03,563 Gently, Dede. 209 00:21:04,831 --> 00:21:06,466 Come to Grandma. 210 00:21:15,709 --> 00:21:17,744 Now I'm content. 211 00:21:18,545 --> 00:21:19,746 Truly. 212 00:21:23,483 --> 00:21:26,953 You're the only one left I'm worried about. 213 00:21:30,824 --> 00:21:32,592 But you are you, 214 00:21:33,526 --> 00:21:37,063 you've always fixed things the way you want. 215 00:21:38,665 --> 00:21:40,867 So I'll have to trust you. 216 00:21:49,442 --> 00:21:53,279 What do you want me to make now that I'm coming home? 217 00:21:53,346 --> 00:21:55,148 French fries. 218 00:21:55,849 --> 00:21:57,784 - For you too? - Yes. 219 00:21:59,152 --> 00:22:01,421 Doesn't Mamma know how to make them? 220 00:22:05,725 --> 00:22:07,761 Doesn't she know how to make them? 221 00:22:10,230 --> 00:22:13,700 Just then, for the first time, I felt the impact of time, 222 00:22:14,467 --> 00:22:17,570 the force that was pushing me towards forty, 223 00:22:18,004 --> 00:22:20,874 the speed at which life was consumed, 224 00:22:21,007 --> 00:22:24,344 the concreteness of exposure to death. 225 00:22:24,611 --> 00:22:28,548 If it's happening to her, I thought, there's no escape, 226 00:22:28,615 --> 00:22:30,350 it will happen to me too. 227 00:24:28,535 --> 00:24:31,338 I struggled to accept my mother's death. 228 00:24:36,042 --> 00:24:40,347 Even though I didn't shed a tear, my grief lasted a long time. 229 00:24:44,984 --> 00:24:48,121 And, perhaps, it has never truly gone away. 230 00:25:40,507 --> 00:25:41,841 My condolences. 231 00:26:17,677 --> 00:26:19,012 I'm sorry, 232 00:26:20,013 --> 00:26:21,648 but this is what we are: 233 00:26:21,815 --> 00:26:24,651 neighborhood people who are born and die. 234 00:26:24,851 --> 00:26:27,754 We can't fool ourselves we'll become who knows what. 235 00:26:29,155 --> 00:26:31,691 That goes for you and your friend too. 236 00:26:37,597 --> 00:26:38,998 I'm sorry. 237 00:26:41,568 --> 00:26:46,373 In the following days, I felt how you do when there's a sudden downpour, 238 00:26:46,439 --> 00:26:50,377 you look around and you can't find a place to take shelter. 239 00:26:51,411 --> 00:26:55,215 For weeks I saw her and heard her everywhere, 240 00:26:55,281 --> 00:26:57,350 night and day. 241 00:26:57,917 --> 00:27:00,854 She was a flame that, in my imagination, 242 00:27:00,920 --> 00:27:03,323 continued to burn without a wick. 243 00:27:05,392 --> 00:27:07,293 When did you arrive? 244 00:27:07,360 --> 00:27:08,928 The other day. 245 00:27:08,995 --> 00:27:10,897 Where are you staying? 246 00:27:11,464 --> 00:27:13,633 At the Jolly Hotel. 247 00:27:24,210 --> 00:27:26,246 Almost a year had passed, 248 00:27:26,880 --> 00:27:29,482 but my mother kept shaking me, 249 00:27:29,549 --> 00:27:31,785 as if she wanted to take over my body, 250 00:27:32,252 --> 00:27:34,921 leaving inside me the signs of her limp. 251 00:27:36,122 --> 00:27:37,323 Sweetheart. 252 00:27:38,491 --> 00:27:40,627 What are you doing awake? 253 00:27:56,743 --> 00:27:58,378 Dede, Elsa, there's dessert. 254 00:27:58,611 --> 00:28:00,747 - What dessert did you make? - Baba. 255 00:28:01,681 --> 00:28:03,983 - With rum in it? - A tiny bit. 256 00:28:11,558 --> 00:28:12,759 There you go. 257 00:28:21,935 --> 00:28:23,236 Thank you. 258 00:28:23,670 --> 00:28:26,740 She doesn't have to follow you at all costs... 259 00:28:27,607 --> 00:28:29,709 I'd gladly have done without her too, 260 00:28:29,776 --> 00:28:34,714 but there's not even one author who has met their deadline. 261 00:28:35,115 --> 00:28:36,216 You see... 262 00:28:36,282 --> 00:28:37,417 Thank you. 263 00:28:37,484 --> 00:28:42,155 I've written two thirds of the book and I have notes for the rest. 264 00:28:42,889 --> 00:28:44,991 I'll complete it in no time. 265 00:28:45,058 --> 00:28:48,261 Whenever you like, I'll send it to you. It's not a threat. 266 00:28:49,863 --> 00:28:51,131 All right. 267 00:28:51,765 --> 00:28:55,268 An important publisher like you, can't not deal with FIAT. 268 00:28:55,535 --> 00:28:58,638 I'm saying this regardless of my book. 269 00:28:59,973 --> 00:29:04,377 It occurred to me that the robotization of FIAT 270 00:29:04,444 --> 00:29:08,415 is a perfect synecdoche for the working world. 271 00:29:08,548 --> 00:29:10,383 In fact, for the world. 272 00:29:10,583 --> 00:29:14,854 But the Left is convinced that capitalism is at a standstill, 273 00:29:15,188 --> 00:29:17,257 but instead it has moved. 274 00:29:18,124 --> 00:29:22,796 But we use outdated formulas that don't grasp the change. 275 00:29:22,862 --> 00:29:26,299 Instead we must study, remove our blinders. 276 00:29:26,366 --> 00:29:28,635 - Do you like it? - It's very good. 277 00:29:29,002 --> 00:29:31,738 - What did you study? - I'm a biologist. 278 00:29:33,173 --> 00:29:35,942 Thank God, a scientist! 279 00:29:36,009 --> 00:29:37,210 See? 280 00:29:38,778 --> 00:29:40,880 Marx was a scientist. 281 00:29:41,281 --> 00:29:45,885 But today, he'd roll up his sleeves 282 00:29:46,186 --> 00:29:49,923 and collect data, reformulate hypotheses, 283 00:29:50,256 --> 00:29:52,459 and he'd declare himself a non-Marxist. 284 00:29:52,525 --> 00:29:54,828 And if that's not a paradox... 285 00:29:54,894 --> 00:29:58,465 When the formulas are worn out, you need the courage to put them aside. 286 00:29:58,531 --> 00:30:02,335 The Left knows it, but doesn't have the nerve to say so 287 00:30:02,402 --> 00:30:04,137 because it's locked up in its enclosure. 288 00:30:04,371 --> 00:30:08,608 We need to come out of these enclosures, get fresh air. 289 00:30:08,942 --> 00:30:12,512 We need to have the courage to enter parties, banks, 290 00:30:12,679 --> 00:30:16,583 television, the so-called halls of power. 291 00:30:17,283 --> 00:30:21,454 We need to enter them, disassemble them and restyle them. 292 00:30:22,255 --> 00:30:25,525 My book isn't about redecorating, 293 00:30:25,592 --> 00:30:27,694 but rather about work, I assure you. 294 00:30:28,061 --> 00:30:31,664 It's interesting, perhaps we can discuss it later. 295 00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:35,368 And you? 296 00:30:37,504 --> 00:30:38,738 Me? 297 00:30:39,105 --> 00:30:40,707 I wanted to have a chat with you. 298 00:30:43,543 --> 00:30:45,412 About what? 299 00:30:45,478 --> 00:30:50,183 Can I schedule the release of your book for the fall? 300 00:30:50,984 --> 00:30:52,185 This fall? 301 00:30:52,852 --> 00:30:54,721 Fall 1982? 302 00:30:55,155 --> 00:30:57,457 Fall 1982, of course. 303 00:30:59,526 --> 00:31:02,862 Maybe, I'll know better in a while. 304 00:31:02,929 --> 00:31:04,664 You have to know now. 305 00:31:06,433 --> 00:31:10,003 - I don't feel ready. - Until now you've been very lucky. 306 00:31:10,770 --> 00:31:13,573 Your last book did very well, you're respected, 307 00:31:13,807 --> 00:31:15,975 you've gained many readers. 308 00:31:16,343 --> 00:31:19,212 But readers have to be cultivated, because if you lose them, 309 00:31:19,879 --> 00:31:21,948 you lose the chance to publish other books. 310 00:31:22,282 --> 00:31:24,617 Have you read that article about the new writers? 311 00:31:25,318 --> 00:31:27,320 "Elena Greco is a meteor." 312 00:31:27,387 --> 00:31:29,622 They write whatever they feel like. 313 00:31:29,689 --> 00:31:31,591 Yet they wrote it. 314 00:31:31,658 --> 00:31:34,294 It's Adele's suggestion, as we both know. 315 00:31:36,329 --> 00:31:38,665 Don't you want to prove everyone wrong? 316 00:31:40,633 --> 00:31:42,135 Nino, are you a slow writer too? 317 00:31:43,770 --> 00:31:45,238 I'm very chaotic. 318 00:31:45,505 --> 00:31:49,409 I work on more than one project at once, so... 319 00:31:50,944 --> 00:31:53,913 If you ask me for a book in October, you get it in October. 320 00:31:53,980 --> 00:31:56,950 But as you can see, this isn't necessarily a virtue. 321 00:31:57,150 --> 00:32:00,487 The truth is that it's not a good moment for essays. 322 00:32:06,559 --> 00:32:09,763 - Are you tired? We'd better go. - Yes, yes. 323 00:32:10,296 --> 00:32:11,297 Thank you. 324 00:32:12,198 --> 00:32:13,199 All right. 325 00:32:15,001 --> 00:32:19,205 Yes, I'll give you my book in time to publish it in the fall. 326 00:32:21,207 --> 00:32:23,209 At last some good news. 327 00:32:23,276 --> 00:32:24,644 Let's have a toast. 328 00:32:26,079 --> 00:32:27,213 To Elena. 329 00:32:27,313 --> 00:32:28,481 To Elena! 330 00:32:29,716 --> 00:32:31,317 Actually standing up. 331 00:32:47,834 --> 00:32:50,603 It's obvious that Adele is still at war with me. 332 00:32:55,608 --> 00:32:57,510 Now I'm in trouble. 333 00:32:57,577 --> 00:32:59,979 Don't get hung up on the Airotas' plots. 334 00:33:00,113 --> 00:33:01,281 It went well, didn't it? 335 00:33:01,815 --> 00:33:05,985 All you had to do was promise you'd work. He was very pleased. 336 00:33:06,553 --> 00:33:07,887 He calmed right down. 337 00:33:07,954 --> 00:33:10,690 - He did, but I didn't. - Don't tell me... 338 00:33:11,991 --> 00:33:12,992 What do you mean? 339 00:33:14,627 --> 00:33:15,862 Nothing, nothing. 340 00:33:17,530 --> 00:33:20,233 When am I going to write this book? 341 00:33:21,501 --> 00:33:24,571 How will I find the time to focus and commit? 342 00:33:24,637 --> 00:33:26,673 Do you know what my life is like? 343 00:33:27,741 --> 00:33:29,943 Come on, you'll find a way. 344 00:33:33,380 --> 00:33:35,849 My mother fell ill and then died, 345 00:33:36,383 --> 00:33:39,986 I still had to take care of Dede and Elsa, of the house. 346 00:33:40,053 --> 00:33:42,455 And on top of that, my pregnancy, Imma... 347 00:33:42,622 --> 00:33:44,758 None of which you helped me with. 348 00:33:45,058 --> 00:33:47,394 In fact, you take no interest at all. 349 00:33:48,194 --> 00:33:50,697 Me? What are you talking about? 350 00:33:50,997 --> 00:33:55,035 You run from one conference to the next, more often without me. 351 00:33:55,502 --> 00:33:59,773 Am I supposed to give up conferences because you can't travel? 352 00:33:59,973 --> 00:34:02,042 Not to mention the disgust. 353 00:34:03,643 --> 00:34:05,278 Disgust, yes 354 00:34:05,745 --> 00:34:07,480 at sharing you with Eleonora. 355 00:34:07,547 --> 00:34:09,215 Here we go again! 356 00:34:09,716 --> 00:34:11,885 You always drag Eleonora into it. 357 00:34:11,985 --> 00:34:15,388 - Now I'm the one who drags her into it? - Lower your voice. 358 00:34:16,990 --> 00:34:19,693 I'm about to be divorced from Pietro, 359 00:34:19,759 --> 00:34:21,494 just look at where you are. 360 00:34:21,594 --> 00:34:23,630 You haven't even separated from her. 361 00:34:24,497 --> 00:34:27,367 Can I write amid all this tension? 362 00:34:27,867 --> 00:34:29,502 Only you matter. 363 00:34:29,569 --> 00:34:33,773 You must have peace, no problems or, poor thing, you can't work... 364 00:34:33,840 --> 00:34:38,545 But we hired Silvana to help you with the girls and the house. 365 00:34:38,712 --> 00:34:41,348 No, Silvana doesn't do homework with the girls, 366 00:34:41,414 --> 00:34:43,383 she doesn't take them out and about. 367 00:34:43,450 --> 00:34:46,219 And above all, she doesn't solve the real issue: 368 00:34:47,320 --> 00:34:49,255 that you've stayed with your wife. 369 00:34:49,322 --> 00:34:52,325 When you're like this, there's no talking to you. 370 00:34:54,861 --> 00:34:56,796 And you're also unjust... 371 00:34:58,298 --> 00:34:59,799 because I love you. 372 00:35:01,267 --> 00:35:04,471 I do what I can. I love you, the girls, 373 00:35:04,537 --> 00:35:06,339 I can't do without Imma. 374 00:35:06,406 --> 00:35:07,674 You love me, yes... 375 00:35:08,608 --> 00:35:10,877 But you don't even care about my work anymore. 376 00:35:10,944 --> 00:35:12,679 What are you talking about? 377 00:35:14,080 --> 00:35:17,150 When you used to come to Florence, you urged me to write, 378 00:35:17,650 --> 00:35:20,587 you stimulated me, you imposed it on me. 379 00:35:21,421 --> 00:35:24,357 Now you don't even know what I want to write, 380 00:35:24,424 --> 00:35:26,426 what's in my head. 381 00:35:26,693 --> 00:35:27,861 Wait a minute... 382 00:35:28,762 --> 00:35:33,066 if you just said you don't know what to write, how should I know? 383 00:35:33,199 --> 00:35:34,801 See what you do... 384 00:35:35,135 --> 00:35:36,369 It's unbelievable. 385 00:35:59,893 --> 00:36:03,530 The words my mother said to me at the end, 386 00:36:03,596 --> 00:36:05,932 stayed with me for a long time. 387 00:36:07,667 --> 00:36:11,538 She died sure that, because of my temperament, 388 00:36:11,604 --> 00:36:13,907 the resources I'd secured, 389 00:36:13,973 --> 00:36:16,743 nothing would ever overwhelm me. 390 00:36:17,310 --> 00:36:20,680 This idea made its way inside me and, in the end, helped me. 391 00:36:21,715 --> 00:36:24,951 I decided to prove her right, 392 00:36:25,018 --> 00:36:27,454 and I began to take care of myself. 393 00:36:27,654 --> 00:36:29,756 I had to think of my future, 394 00:36:29,823 --> 00:36:32,225 fuck grocery shopping and all the rest of it. 395 00:36:34,361 --> 00:36:37,831 My future was to put together a novel in just a few months. 396 00:36:39,566 --> 00:36:42,535 And that novel had to be very good. 397 00:36:42,602 --> 00:36:47,273 Nothing, not even Nino, would prevent me from doing my work well. 398 00:36:56,282 --> 00:36:59,519 Let's be honest, Enrico's very boring. 399 00:37:01,755 --> 00:37:05,492 You were annoyed by what he said about your essay. 400 00:37:05,558 --> 00:37:08,962 - He was a bit offhand. - What do I care? 401 00:37:11,331 --> 00:37:15,301 When it's finished, I'll send it to him. We'll see what he says. 402 00:37:18,104 --> 00:37:20,140 Whereas she, Clara 403 00:37:20,807 --> 00:37:22,876 was more interesting. 404 00:37:23,610 --> 00:37:25,779 She's definitely better than him. 405 00:37:26,980 --> 00:37:28,314 I didn't doubt it. 406 00:37:29,616 --> 00:37:30,950 Why? 407 00:37:31,117 --> 00:37:34,220 Is it possible that stupid women don't exist? 408 00:37:34,454 --> 00:37:36,289 I didn't say that. 409 00:37:37,390 --> 00:37:40,593 But by and large, you're always better than us. 410 00:37:41,161 --> 00:37:43,663 - I'm better than you? - Absolutely yes. 411 00:37:44,698 --> 00:37:47,267 And I've known it for a very long time. 412 00:37:49,336 --> 00:37:50,970 Out of curiosity, 413 00:37:51,037 --> 00:37:53,506 in your life, have you ever met a bitch? 414 00:38:02,115 --> 00:38:03,483 Yes. 415 00:38:03,850 --> 00:38:05,585 Tell me her name. 416 00:38:12,992 --> 00:38:15,428 - Tell me. - No, you'll get mad. 417 00:38:15,495 --> 00:38:16,496 I won't get mad. 418 00:38:18,965 --> 00:38:19,966 Lila. 419 00:38:28,675 --> 00:38:31,244 Hurry up, it's late! 420 00:38:32,178 --> 00:38:33,480 Elsa's slow. 421 00:38:33,546 --> 00:38:35,949 Silvana, dry your hands. Take the baby. 422 00:38:40,320 --> 00:38:41,921 We're out of diapers. 423 00:38:42,255 --> 00:38:44,224 Now I'll go buy them. 424 00:38:44,724 --> 00:38:47,694 Meanwhile, I'll use the cloth like we used to. 425 00:38:47,861 --> 00:38:48,995 Yes, good idea. 426 00:38:50,263 --> 00:38:52,866 Don't let her cry, Nino' sleeping. 427 00:38:52,932 --> 00:38:54,567 - Come on. - Yeah. 428 00:38:55,201 --> 00:38:57,937 I've already made lunch, but wait for me to feed her. 429 00:38:59,372 --> 00:39:01,341 Hang out the laundry. 430 00:39:05,545 --> 00:39:06,813 Be a good girl. 431 00:39:09,582 --> 00:39:14,254 Don't worry, call me if you need anything. 432 00:39:14,854 --> 00:39:16,956 Don't let her sleep all morning. 433 00:39:21,361 --> 00:39:22,829 Go, hurry. 434 00:39:36,676 --> 00:39:39,479 When I come to pick you up, I'll wait for you down there. 435 00:39:39,612 --> 00:39:41,781 - Yes. - You say that every day. 436 00:39:42,248 --> 00:39:43,683 Scatterbrain. 437 00:40:01,601 --> 00:40:04,437 That morning all I could think of was him, 438 00:40:05,605 --> 00:40:07,807 I'd left him sleeping, 439 00:40:07,874 --> 00:40:11,878 but I hoped when he woke up he'd play with Imma, 440 00:40:11,945 --> 00:40:14,280 and not just hand her over to Silvana. 441 00:40:15,648 --> 00:40:17,951 Of course, I wouldn't hold my breath. 442 00:40:18,418 --> 00:40:21,821 Nevertheless I let myself go for a few minutes 443 00:40:21,888 --> 00:40:23,690 to free, unfettered reflection. 444 00:40:27,394 --> 00:40:30,397 It seemed the connection I'd established 445 00:40:30,463 --> 00:40:34,668 between my crush on him in the neighborhood and then in high school, 446 00:40:35,235 --> 00:40:37,504 and the passion that overwhelmed me 447 00:40:37,570 --> 00:40:40,440 when he reappeared in the bookstore in Milan, 448 00:40:40,507 --> 00:40:42,409 no longer existed. 449 00:40:48,481 --> 00:40:51,351 Now I thought I could see 450 00:40:51,418 --> 00:40:54,421 the fracture generated by his love for Lila. 451 00:40:56,089 --> 00:40:59,592 That fracture should have erased Nino from my life forever, 452 00:41:00,894 --> 00:41:03,897 but I didn't want to consider it. 453 00:41:03,963 --> 00:41:05,965 I didn't want to see it. 454 00:41:06,032 --> 00:41:09,135 I preferred to forget about that couple 455 00:41:09,469 --> 00:41:12,539 that was born in front of my eyes. 456 00:41:15,975 --> 00:41:18,311 "I could write," I imagined, 457 00:41:18,578 --> 00:41:21,181 "a story where a woman marries the man 458 00:41:21,247 --> 00:41:23,483 she's been in love with since childhood. 459 00:41:24,284 --> 00:41:26,653 But on her wedding night she sees 460 00:41:26,720 --> 00:41:30,323 that while a part of his body belongs to her, 461 00:41:30,390 --> 00:41:34,961 the other part is occupied by her childhood friend in miniature, 462 00:41:35,528 --> 00:41:37,864 a lively and imperious little woman." 463 00:41:47,507 --> 00:41:49,209 Fuck, the diapers! 464 00:42:04,924 --> 00:42:07,494 Silvana, I got the diapers. 465 00:44:42,015 --> 00:44:43,583 You've wet yourself. 466 00:45:15,849 --> 00:45:17,851 I couldn't believe it. 467 00:45:17,917 --> 00:45:20,720 Was it possible that the Nino I had discovered 468 00:45:20,787 --> 00:45:24,290 thrusting himself into an older woman, 469 00:45:24,357 --> 00:45:26,793 was the boy from my adolescence? 470 00:45:40,774 --> 00:45:44,444 I felt as if, entering the house, 471 00:45:44,511 --> 00:45:48,882 I'd suddenly found in my bathroom, 472 00:45:49,916 --> 00:45:51,685 an alien. 473 00:45:57,857 --> 00:46:00,326 The stranger had Nino's features 474 00:46:00,593 --> 00:46:02,228 but it wasn't him, 475 00:46:02,729 --> 00:46:04,464 it was the other one. 476 00:46:05,665 --> 00:46:07,734 The one born after Ischia, 477 00:46:08,535 --> 00:46:11,338 the one who'd gotten Silvia pregnant, 478 00:46:11,404 --> 00:46:13,807 he was Mariarosa's lover, 479 00:46:13,873 --> 00:46:15,642 Eleonora's husband. 480 00:46:19,779 --> 00:46:21,915 In reality there was no split 481 00:46:22,248 --> 00:46:24,484 between the man who came after Lila 482 00:46:24,551 --> 00:46:27,354 and the boy who, before Lila, 483 00:46:27,420 --> 00:46:29,856 I had been in love with since childhood. 484 00:46:30,457 --> 00:46:32,492 There was only one Nino. 485 00:46:34,327 --> 00:46:35,929 I'm the one who needs you. 486 00:46:48,842 --> 00:46:50,910 He was what he didn't want to be 487 00:46:51,244 --> 00:46:53,513 and yet what he had always been. 488 00:47:22,976 --> 00:47:24,277 Imma's here! 489 00:47:27,681 --> 00:47:29,783 - Why did you wrap her in your coat? - It's cold. 490 00:47:29,849 --> 00:47:32,485 - She's getting it dirty. - It doesn't matter. 491 00:47:32,552 --> 00:47:35,922 Once I got it dirty and you slapped me. 492 00:47:36,256 --> 00:47:37,776 - That's not true. - It's totally true! 493 00:47:37,824 --> 00:47:39,726 Why isn't she wearing a diaper? 494 00:47:40,794 --> 00:47:42,495 She's fine like this. 495 00:47:42,562 --> 00:47:44,798 - Something happened. - No. 496 00:47:44,864 --> 00:47:47,300 You've never come to pick us up with Imma. 497 00:47:47,367 --> 00:47:50,103 - Today, we'll have lunch with Aunt Lila. - Really? 498 00:47:50,170 --> 00:47:51,471 Yes, get in. 499 00:47:51,738 --> 00:47:53,473 I'll hold Imma. 500 00:47:53,540 --> 00:47:58,011 - It's not fair, you always hold her. - Stop making the usual fuss! 501 00:47:58,578 --> 00:47:59,879 I'll hold her. 502 00:47:59,946 --> 00:48:02,382 - I want to hold her. - Let go of her. 503 00:48:02,449 --> 00:48:04,384 Mamma, why is she holding her? 504 00:48:04,551 --> 00:48:07,220 Don't pull her, you're making her cry! 505 00:48:07,354 --> 00:48:09,089 Fuck off, you hold her! 506 00:48:09,155 --> 00:48:11,358 Who taught you that? 507 00:48:11,691 --> 00:48:14,594 - You hold her, you can get dirty! - Stop it! 508 00:48:16,696 --> 00:48:17,897 Enough! 509 00:48:18,331 --> 00:48:19,866 I said enough! 510 00:48:21,101 --> 00:48:23,336 See? You made her cry. 511 00:48:24,037 --> 00:48:25,905 Now shut up both of you. 512 00:48:40,920 --> 00:48:43,790 - Do you have a diaper? - Of course. 513 00:48:44,557 --> 00:48:45,725 Come in. 514 00:48:46,259 --> 00:48:48,428 Can we stay here for a while? 515 00:48:48,795 --> 00:48:50,430 Tina's in there. 516 00:49:02,342 --> 00:49:03,476 Hi, Tina. 517 00:49:06,646 --> 00:49:07,747 Put this on her. 518 00:49:19,859 --> 00:49:21,127 Something wrong? 519 00:49:21,995 --> 00:49:22,996 Yes. 520 00:49:25,532 --> 00:49:26,900 What happened? 521 00:49:28,268 --> 00:49:30,303 What you predicted. 522 00:49:30,770 --> 00:49:32,639 You fought with Nino? 523 00:49:55,228 --> 00:49:57,797 This morning, something shocking happened. 524 00:50:02,635 --> 00:50:06,006 But it's not just that, if I'm honest. 525 00:50:11,644 --> 00:50:14,581 I found him in the bathroom fucking Silvana. 526 00:50:15,348 --> 00:50:17,350 The lady who helps us out. 527 00:50:19,552 --> 00:50:21,755 Lila, she's old. 528 00:50:23,023 --> 00:50:26,026 She has gray hair, a flabby, fat body. 529 00:50:32,632 --> 00:50:34,768 What I saw was ridiculous. 530 00:50:37,470 --> 00:50:39,706 That asshole woke up, 531 00:50:39,773 --> 00:50:42,375 he found Silvana in the bathroom and before peeing 532 00:50:42,442 --> 00:50:44,544 he lifted her dress and put it inside her! 533 00:50:57,624 --> 00:50:59,459 Did you already know? 534 00:51:04,431 --> 00:51:06,266 Did Nino call you? 535 00:51:09,369 --> 00:51:11,237 Did he call you? 536 00:51:17,744 --> 00:51:18,845 Yes. 537 00:51:19,379 --> 00:51:21,247 What did he tell you? 538 00:51:21,815 --> 00:51:23,650 That it was nothing, 539 00:51:24,684 --> 00:51:28,254 that I have to help you understand that's how we live today. 540 00:51:28,888 --> 00:51:30,323 Just words. 541 00:51:32,559 --> 00:51:33,693 And you? 542 00:51:34,761 --> 00:51:36,963 I hung up on him. 543 00:51:39,065 --> 00:51:40,467 He'll call back. 544 00:51:41,534 --> 00:51:43,503 No way he won't call back. 545 00:51:46,973 --> 00:51:49,476 I don't know how to live without him. 546 00:51:51,011 --> 00:51:53,446 It hardly lasted at all. 547 00:51:54,748 --> 00:51:56,750 I broke off my marriage, 548 00:51:56,950 --> 00:52:00,787 I moved here with the girls, I had another daughter, but why? 549 00:52:01,388 --> 00:52:03,323 Because you made a mistake. 550 00:52:07,227 --> 00:52:08,928 I need to talk to him. 551 00:52:09,996 --> 00:52:11,931 I need to confront him. 552 00:52:13,299 --> 00:52:15,735 Do you really want to stay with him? 553 00:52:15,802 --> 00:52:17,337 What can I do? 554 00:52:18,038 --> 00:52:20,173 The only thing possible: 555 00:52:21,207 --> 00:52:22,509 leave him. 556 00:52:28,848 --> 00:52:32,385 You can't throw yourself away like this. 557 00:52:33,687 --> 00:52:37,657 Your destiny's different, you sweated blood to have it. 558 00:52:38,191 --> 00:52:41,294 If you go on like this, you'll lose yourself. 559 00:52:57,477 --> 00:53:00,447 If you have something to say to me, say it. 560 00:53:14,394 --> 00:53:16,763 Nino came after me a bunch of times. 561 00:53:18,865 --> 00:53:21,868 And a bunch of times he asked me to get back together. 562 00:53:22,802 --> 00:53:25,338 Both before he got together with you 563 00:53:25,939 --> 00:53:27,674 and after. 564 00:53:33,079 --> 00:53:36,182 Remember when we took your mother to the hospital? 565 00:53:38,385 --> 00:53:41,287 That time he was particularly insistent. 566 00:53:42,989 --> 00:53:47,193 And while we waited to talk to the doctors, 567 00:53:50,397 --> 00:53:53,700 he told me he was with you only to be closer to me. 568 00:53:57,704 --> 00:53:59,739 He swore it was true. 569 00:54:05,945 --> 00:54:07,647 Look at me, Lenù. 570 00:54:10,684 --> 00:54:12,218 Look at me. 571 00:54:15,855 --> 00:54:18,992 I'm mean to tell you these things, 572 00:54:19,526 --> 00:54:21,728 but Nino's much worse than I am. 573 00:54:22,262 --> 00:54:26,066 His meanness is worse, it's pure vanity.