1 00:00:18,482 --> 00:00:21,081 There is no greater evil than 2 00:00:21,083 --> 00:00:22,443 devil in one's body. 3 00:00:24,683 --> 00:00:25,722 That's why I'm writing to you this way 4 00:00:25,724 --> 00:00:26,924 disobedient way. 5 00:00:29,043 --> 00:00:29,842 I was last night 6 00:00:29,844 --> 00:00:31,324 I begged you to see me. 7 00:00:32,724 --> 00:00:34,404 I begged you to post yours 8 00:00:34,443 --> 00:00:36,124 lips on my chest 9 00:00:39,004 --> 00:00:39,842 To be the boy you are 10 00:00:39,844 --> 00:00:41,365 we might have solved this once. 11 00:00:42,685 --> 00:00:44,565 You are still hundreds of kilometers away. 12 00:00:46,685 --> 00:00:47,844 I need you to know 13 00:00:47,846 --> 00:00:49,286 that it's not personal. 14 00:00:49,565 --> 00:00:50,763 No matter what it is 15 00:00:50,765 --> 00:00:52,085 it happened between us. 16 00:00:54,485 --> 00:00:56,487 Desire is unholy. 17 00:01:02,046 --> 00:01:03,286 Do you forgive me? 18 00:01:23,168 --> 00:01:24,486 You never ask 19 00:01:24,488 --> 00:01:25,888 about my contribution. 20 00:01:27,249 --> 00:01:28,729 I guess you don't approve. 21 00:01:31,089 --> 00:01:31,848 Now I live in 22 00:01:31,850 --> 00:01:34,089 a home that is all mine. 23 00:01:36,610 --> 00:01:38,249 Although it belongs 24 00:01:38,251 --> 00:01:39,691 the family I work for. 25 00:01:40,570 --> 00:01:42,569 But it looks more like mine than 26 00:01:42,571 --> 00:01:44,011 our house has ever done that. 27 00:01:46,211 --> 00:01:48,172 To think I loved pink. 28 00:01:50,051 --> 00:01:53,090 He destroyed my identity in 29 00:01:53,092 --> 00:01:53,930 in the same way as him 30 00:01:53,932 --> 00:01:54,851 he scratched my skin. 31 00:01:54,892 --> 00:02:00,372 I felt free and liberated. 32 00:02:02,772 --> 00:02:03,972 I was his canvas, 33 00:02:05,094 --> 00:02:06,491 waiting for your color 34 00:02:06,493 --> 00:02:08,614 to get into my pores. 35 00:02:10,014 --> 00:02:11,812 Sometimes his behavior 36 00:02:11,814 --> 00:02:13,333 uncomfortably familiar. 37 00:02:14,574 --> 00:02:15,654 Close to home. 38 00:02:17,375 --> 00:02:18,852 However, there is a certain naivety in him 39 00:02:18,854 --> 00:02:19,733 actions that are felt 40 00:02:19,735 --> 00:02:21,693 far less manipulative. 41 00:02:25,376 --> 00:02:26,893 To think that you are fighting for 42 00:02:26,895 --> 00:02:27,774 our country while I am 43 00:02:27,776 --> 00:02:29,176 choosing furniture. 44 00:02:30,696 --> 00:02:32,775 What a cruel world we live in now. 45 00:02:34,455 --> 00:02:35,975 Much of what I say could be 46 00:02:35,977 --> 00:02:37,377 considered unreliable. 47 00:02:38,937 --> 00:02:40,697 It's not that I don't love you. 48 00:02:41,377 --> 00:02:42,377 That. 49 00:02:44,217 --> 00:02:45,697 But love is complicated. 50 00:02:46,817 --> 00:02:48,416 I am aware that up to this point 51 00:02:48,418 --> 00:02:50,218 I haven't given you much context. 52 00:02:50,657 --> 00:02:51,696 I assure you that in 53 00:02:51,698 --> 00:02:53,018 the time to come. 54 00:02:55,059 --> 00:02:56,817 I personally am not sure yet 55 00:02:56,819 --> 00:02:59,019 how, what or why in my situation. 56 00:03:00,618 --> 00:03:02,579 At first he was like a shadow. 57 00:03:04,179 --> 00:03:05,179 Thin. 58 00:03:05,700 --> 00:03:06,979 Soft, with leather. 59 00:03:07,939 --> 00:03:09,219 Almost transparent. 60 00:03:12,139 --> 00:03:13,139 I'm sorry. 61 00:03:13,579 --> 00:03:14,138 I didn't expect it 62 00:03:14,140 --> 00:03:15,140 someone like you. 63 00:03:16,580 --> 00:03:17,580 Someone like me? 64 00:03:18,020 --> 00:03:19,338 I wasn't sure who this shadow was 65 00:03:19,340 --> 00:03:21,060 he belonged, because he was direct. 66 00:03:21,701 --> 00:03:22,701 Berries? 67 00:03:22,820 --> 00:03:23,820 Cheeky. 68 00:03:25,221 --> 00:03:26,340 And he did his best 69 00:03:26,342 --> 00:03:27,540 to act like a man. 70 00:03:27,542 --> 00:03:28,819 Looking for Mr. Richardson? 71 00:03:28,862 --> 00:03:30,462 Mr. Richardson was my father. 72 00:03:30,822 --> 00:03:31,902 He went to fight. 73 00:03:33,222 --> 00:03:34,459 I guess that makes you human 74 00:03:34,461 --> 00:03:35,461 houses of that time. 75 00:03:36,742 --> 00:03:37,942 Do I give that impression? 76 00:03:45,904 --> 00:03:47,504 That reminded me of you. 77 00:03:50,783 --> 00:03:52,382 Although at first I was sure he was 78 00:03:52,384 --> 00:03:53,984 embarrassed by his statements. 79 00:03:55,745 --> 00:03:57,382 I'm afraid my mother has no taste. 80 00:03:57,425 --> 00:03:59,662 He charmed me with his naivety. 81 00:03:59,664 --> 00:04:00,664 Charming. 82 00:04:01,905 --> 00:04:02,823 I doubt your wife 83 00:04:02,825 --> 00:04:04,102 sophistication surrounds itself 84 00:04:04,104 --> 00:04:05,184 with pink color. 85 00:04:06,385 --> 00:04:08,025 I don't know who you think I am. 86 00:04:08,586 --> 00:04:10,384 It looked like he thought it was 87 00:04:10,386 --> 00:04:12,666 Man, you had to be in control. 88 00:04:13,426 --> 00:04:14,864 The possibility that this trait 89 00:04:14,866 --> 00:04:16,104 it wasn't locked yet, that's what 90 00:04:16,106 --> 00:04:17,706 it made me want to please him. 91 00:04:18,026 --> 00:04:19,026 Where is your mother? 92 00:04:20,707 --> 00:04:21,785 We all stay with my grandparents 93 00:04:21,787 --> 00:04:22,867 for now. 94 00:04:23,507 --> 00:04:24,787 What, since my father is away? 95 00:04:26,508 --> 00:04:27,948 I imagine it is very difficult. 96 00:04:29,787 --> 00:04:30,385 I never depended on him. 97 00:04:30,387 --> 00:04:31,387 I never depended on him. 98 00:04:34,748 --> 00:04:36,266 Besides thanking his mother for 99 00:04:36,268 --> 00:04:37,987 hospitality, I felt called to 100 00:04:37,989 --> 00:04:39,589 share a message of support. 101 00:04:40,309 --> 00:04:41,387 But he declared that he would not 102 00:04:41,389 --> 00:04:42,707 benefits any party and in 103 00:04:42,709 --> 00:04:44,709 retrospective, he's probably right. 104 00:04:46,349 --> 00:04:49,630 God be with him. 105 00:04:51,509 --> 00:04:54,070 I could feel his need to touch me. 106 00:04:55,511 --> 00:04:56,711 That scared me. 107 00:04:57,270 --> 00:04:59,349 But it also made me wonder 108 00:04:59,351 --> 00:05:01,389 What influence can I have on a boyfriend 109 00:05:01,391 --> 00:05:03,349 which is not yet fully loaded 110 00:05:03,351 --> 00:05:04,871 society's expectations. 111 00:05:09,592 --> 00:05:10,750 Anyway, I am 112 00:05:10,752 --> 00:05:11,472 conveying a message. 113 00:05:16,232 --> 00:05:17,910 God be with you, husband. 114 00:05:23,192 --> 00:05:24,192 Always. 115 00:05:42,754 --> 00:05:43,754 You're late. 116 00:05:44,475 --> 00:05:45,995 I'd say I'm early. 117 00:05:46,475 --> 00:05:47,595 Maybe I'm impatient. 118 00:05:51,796 --> 00:05:52,996 Have you ever done this job before? 119 00:05:53,476 --> 00:05:54,476 Not. 120 00:05:54,556 --> 00:05:55,876 But I am thoroughly trained. 121 00:05:57,516 --> 00:05:59,155 Well, as long as you're ready for it 122 00:05:59,157 --> 00:05:59,515 reach your hands 123 00:05:59,517 --> 00:06:00,517 dirty, you'll be fine. 124 00:06:01,677 --> 00:06:03,117 I can assure you that I have no doubts. 125 00:06:06,438 --> 00:06:07,235 I didn't catch it 126 00:06:07,237 --> 00:06:08,278 your name yesterday. 127 00:06:10,398 --> 00:06:11,398 It's Flynn. 128 00:06:14,118 --> 00:06:14,915 Have you ever been to 129 00:06:14,917 --> 00:06:15,917 Baltonsborough before? 130 00:06:16,519 --> 00:06:18,319 No, this is my first time. 131 00:06:22,759 --> 00:06:23,759 Can I take you somewhere? 132 00:06:28,440 --> 00:06:29,560 I'm afraid I'm on the clock. 133 00:06:30,159 --> 00:06:31,159 But you work for me. 134 00:06:32,439 --> 00:06:33,439 I work for your father. 135 00:06:34,080 --> 00:06:35,080 Who could be dead? 136 00:06:44,281 --> 00:06:45,281 Please. 137 00:06:48,082 --> 00:06:49,202 You won't regret it. 138 00:06:55,763 --> 00:06:56,763 Quick, then. 139 00:06:57,203 --> 00:06:58,203 Nowhere far. 140 00:07:16,645 --> 00:07:18,685 I noticed the ring on your finger. 141 00:07:19,565 --> 00:07:21,925 What does he think about all this? 142 00:07:22,645 --> 00:07:24,925 He has not yet revealed his opinion. 143 00:07:28,086 --> 00:07:29,966 I guess he doesn't approve. 144 00:07:30,645 --> 00:07:32,284 But I think his anger was directed 145 00:07:32,286 --> 00:07:33,244 more because of his own indignation 146 00:07:33,246 --> 00:07:34,284 but the fact that I wear 147 00:07:34,286 --> 00:07:35,446 men's work. 148 00:07:36,847 --> 00:07:38,087 Is that what you think? 149 00:07:39,847 --> 00:07:41,204 I think I answered that 150 00:07:41,206 --> 00:07:41,845 question by what 151 00:07:41,847 --> 00:07:43,167 here in the first place. 152 00:07:56,169 --> 00:07:57,769 You're not what I expected? 153 00:08:01,649 --> 00:08:02,649 In what way? 154 00:08:04,848 --> 00:08:05,848 I don't know. 155 00:08:07,530 --> 00:08:09,287 I guess she's the only girl I've ever been 156 00:08:09,289 --> 00:08:10,889 What was really close was my sister. 157 00:08:11,250 --> 00:08:12,410 So it's hard to say. 158 00:08:13,810 --> 00:08:14,567 I'm getting closer to it 159 00:08:14,569 --> 00:08:15,569 your mother's age. 160 00:08:17,291 --> 00:08:17,889 You have mine though 161 00:08:17,891 --> 00:08:18,891 sister's complexion. 162 00:08:25,971 --> 00:08:27,051 Why did you bring me here? 163 00:08:30,531 --> 00:08:31,531 The world is at war. 164 00:08:32,732 --> 00:08:34,890 I wanted you to see that it exists 165 00:08:34,892 --> 00:08:37,093 beauty all around us, even now. 166 00:08:41,332 --> 00:08:42,332 Is that what you see? 167 00:08:43,653 --> 00:08:44,653 Sometimes. 168 00:08:46,054 --> 00:08:47,691 Other times I see something that 169 00:08:47,693 --> 00:08:49,414 it no longer exists. 170 00:08:53,453 --> 00:08:57,013 My father is me and mine 171 00:08:57,015 --> 00:08:58,614 sister is here all the time. 172 00:08:59,775 --> 00:09:01,455 He would search for stones for hours. 173 00:09:03,815 --> 00:09:05,056 He was saying that... 174 00:09:05,815 --> 00:09:06,454 Everything is in 175 00:09:06,456 --> 00:09:07,456 wrist twitch. 176 00:09:12,216 --> 00:09:14,813 My sister would wince every time 177 00:09:14,815 --> 00:09:16,897 every time he did it. 178 00:09:19,616 --> 00:09:20,415 He eventually caught one 179 00:09:20,417 --> 00:09:21,417 we all stop laughing. 180 00:09:25,737 --> 00:09:26,737 I'm very sorry. 181 00:09:28,737 --> 00:09:30,098 I don't know why I told you that. 182 00:09:30,618 --> 00:09:31,975 Because you are angry with yourself 183 00:09:31,977 --> 00:09:33,378 because you miss him. 184 00:09:34,497 --> 00:09:35,696 I shouldn't have brought you here. 185 00:09:35,739 --> 00:09:37,018 It was a mistake. 186 00:09:37,858 --> 00:09:39,135 I don't think that's true. 187 00:09:39,178 --> 00:09:40,418 How could you know what I feel? 188 00:10:00,221 --> 00:10:01,941 Oh no 189 00:10:02,501 --> 00:10:03,501 Okay, show me 190 00:10:12,342 --> 00:10:13,540 More than anything, 191 00:10:13,542 --> 00:10:15,583 he surprised me. 192 00:10:16,142 --> 00:10:16,860 He was so in tune 193 00:10:16,862 --> 00:10:18,102 with your emotions, 194 00:10:18,422 --> 00:10:20,021 which was unlike any man I've ever had 195 00:10:20,023 --> 00:10:21,583 met in his life so far. 196 00:10:23,702 --> 00:10:24,859 However, in many ways, 197 00:10:24,902 --> 00:10:26,544 This wasn't human, was it? 198 00:10:27,543 --> 00:10:29,341 I started to worry that he saw me as 199 00:10:29,343 --> 00:10:30,142 his mother's version, 200 00:10:30,144 --> 00:10:31,702 which was a feeling I had never had before 201 00:10:31,704 --> 00:10:32,864 ready to face. 202 00:10:35,065 --> 00:10:36,383 It was clear that it wasn't completely 203 00:10:36,385 --> 00:10:37,985 know how to treat a woman, 204 00:10:38,145 --> 00:10:40,223 and he used his adolescence to 205 00:10:40,225 --> 00:10:41,545 forgive him for his behavior. 206 00:10:43,225 --> 00:10:44,505 His apparent strength, 207 00:10:45,065 --> 00:10:46,706 his need to get dirty, 208 00:10:47,426 --> 00:10:47,943 yet it never was 209 00:10:47,945 --> 00:10:49,705 something I felt the need to tame. 210 00:10:55,227 --> 00:10:56,785 Sometimes I thought he had no idea 211 00:10:56,787 --> 00:10:58,027 what was he doing 212 00:10:59,147 --> 00:10:59,865 The second time it was felt 213 00:10:59,867 --> 00:11:01,187 far more calculated. 214 00:11:04,026 --> 00:11:05,465 I believe he was trying to show me 215 00:11:05,467 --> 00:11:06,346 that this was 216 00:11:06,348 --> 00:11:07,908 a man's job indeed. 217 00:11:08,827 --> 00:11:11,786 But I didn't allow it 218 00:11:11,788 --> 00:11:13,428 distract me from my task. 219 00:11:15,548 --> 00:11:16,548 You proved your point. 220 00:11:17,468 --> 00:11:19,229 So you admit that he doubted me. 221 00:11:25,629 --> 00:11:26,308 You should never doubt 222 00:11:26,310 --> 00:11:27,310 experience. 223 00:12:40,996 --> 00:12:42,196 Flynn 224 00:12:42,397 --> 00:12:44,476 What are you doing here? 225 00:12:45,557 --> 00:12:46,557 You're cold. 226 00:12:48,398 --> 00:12:49,878 I have to ask you a question. 227 00:12:50,477 --> 00:12:51,637 Can't you wait until morning? 228 00:12:53,477 --> 00:12:54,837 If that's what you prefer? 229 00:12:58,919 --> 00:13:01,156 At least come and warm up next to it 230 00:13:01,158 --> 00:13:02,158 light a fire before you go. 231 00:13:04,359 --> 00:13:06,040 Only if you are sure. 232 00:13:16,640 --> 00:13:17,881 I should get dressed. 233 00:13:18,001 --> 00:13:18,601 You don't have to worry. 234 00:13:18,841 --> 00:13:19,957 It will only take a moment. 235 00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:21,000 Sit down. 236 00:13:21,761 --> 00:13:23,041 It's cold. 237 00:13:38,683 --> 00:13:40,843 What did you want to ask me? 238 00:13:41,482 --> 00:13:43,563 It's nothing. 239 00:13:45,323 --> 00:13:46,564 It couldn't be anything. 240 00:13:47,723 --> 00:13:48,201 True, there 241 00:13:48,203 --> 00:13:49,203 it was never a question. 242 00:13:50,003 --> 00:13:51,404 And what are you doing here? 243 00:13:55,245 --> 00:13:56,245 I wanted to see you. 244 00:13:58,805 --> 00:14:00,405 Don't you have a girlfriend? 245 00:14:01,125 --> 00:14:01,483 It could be 246 00:14:01,485 --> 00:14:02,323 you spend time with me 247 00:14:02,325 --> 00:14:03,325 Don't you have a husband? 248 00:14:06,286 --> 00:14:07,283 I should go upstairs. 249 00:14:07,285 --> 00:14:08,526 After all, this is your home. 250 00:14:17,047 --> 00:14:18,247 Don't you miss your home? 251 00:14:21,407 --> 00:14:23,366 There is nothing to miss. 252 00:14:24,887 --> 00:14:25,887 No children? 253 00:14:30,848 --> 00:14:32,208 I can't get pregnant. 254 00:14:38,608 --> 00:14:39,608 It's okay. 255 00:14:40,569 --> 00:14:41,006 I don't expect 256 00:14:41,008 --> 00:14:42,168 to say anything. 257 00:14:44,128 --> 00:14:45,128 My husband... 258 00:14:46,570 --> 00:14:47,288 blame me for 259 00:14:47,290 --> 00:14:48,569 the downfall of our marriage. 260 00:14:52,930 --> 00:14:54,610 And even when I imagine myself... 261 00:14:56,010 --> 00:14:57,291 pregnant or with child... 262 00:14:59,531 --> 00:15:01,171 I don't see a different outcome. 263 00:15:05,051 --> 00:15:06,051 It's easier for men... 264 00:15:06,972 --> 00:15:08,131 blame the imperfect woman. 265 00:15:10,572 --> 00:15:11,572 In my opinion, 266 00:15:12,372 --> 00:15:13,732 imperfections do not make us human. 267 00:15:16,133 --> 00:15:17,133 Is that so? 268 00:15:18,013 --> 00:15:19,013 Why did you do that? 269 00:15:19,613 --> 00:15:20,333 What? 270 00:15:20,533 --> 00:15:22,493 Trade my age for ignorance. 271 00:15:24,452 --> 00:15:25,494 That's not quite it... 272 00:15:26,094 --> 00:15:27,094 So what is that? 273 00:15:28,574 --> 00:15:29,731 I'm already here 274 00:15:29,733 --> 00:15:31,413 much longer than you have. 275 00:15:33,254 --> 00:15:34,254 I know every game... 276 00:15:35,095 --> 00:15:35,813 every trick of yours 277 00:15:35,815 --> 00:15:36,613 they are trying to play with me... 278 00:15:36,615 --> 00:15:37,174 Yet you still engage. 279 00:15:37,495 --> 00:15:38,053 You still though 280 00:15:38,055 --> 00:15:39,055 plead not guilty. 281 00:15:41,494 --> 00:15:42,212 Only while it is 282 00:15:42,214 --> 00:15:43,214 lead you to catch me. 283 00:15:45,695 --> 00:15:46,893 Is that the moment you will finally understand 284 00:15:46,895 --> 00:15:47,896 Tired of this charade? 285 00:15:48,376 --> 00:15:49,055 Why? 286 00:15:49,415 --> 00:15:49,854 Are you ready to 287 00:15:49,856 --> 00:15:50,856 are you entertaining me until then? 288 00:15:53,096 --> 00:15:54,096 I wonder... 289 00:15:54,856 --> 00:15:55,856 at what time? 290 00:15:57,377 --> 00:15:58,377 This man... 291 00:16:01,257 --> 00:16:04,217 it goes back to boyhood. 292 00:16:20,819 --> 00:16:21,818 I received your first letter. 293 00:16:21,859 --> 00:16:24,377 It's your time, like 294 00:16:24,379 --> 00:16:25,820 always, flawlessly. 295 00:16:27,579 --> 00:16:28,458 But 296 00:16:28,460 --> 00:16:30,100 the conversation seemed refined. 297 00:16:33,339 --> 00:16:34,699 You talk about death... 298 00:16:35,140 --> 00:16:36,580 while talking about life. 299 00:16:39,100 --> 00:16:40,981 I envy your conclusions. 300 00:16:44,221 --> 00:16:45,901 What am I pretending to be? 301 00:16:46,781 --> 00:16:49,539 I'm not sure if I am 302 00:16:49,541 --> 00:16:50,781 looking for company... 303 00:16:51,821 --> 00:16:52,821 lust... 304 00:16:53,182 --> 00:16:54,262 or validation. 305 00:16:56,063 --> 00:16:57,340 In the eyes of God, the lines have 306 00:16:57,342 --> 00:16:58,702 already crossed. 307 00:16:59,583 --> 00:17:01,223 But I still don't feel guilty. 308 00:17:03,942 --> 00:17:05,141 I wonder if he would need it 309 00:17:05,143 --> 00:17:06,142 tap to do so 310 00:17:06,144 --> 00:17:07,664 the feeling comes true. 311 00:17:10,063 --> 00:17:11,861 I haven't heard from him since many 312 00:17:11,863 --> 00:17:13,263 days after that night. 313 00:17:14,623 --> 00:17:15,503 I wasn't sure if I 314 00:17:15,505 --> 00:17:17,025 would ever see him again. 315 00:17:18,344 --> 00:17:19,943 Tragically, I started looking 316 00:17:19,945 --> 00:17:21,585 bright spot in all that. 317 00:17:24,025 --> 00:17:25,705 Damn your influence on my soul. 318 00:17:29,025 --> 00:17:30,025 One day... 319 00:17:30,825 --> 00:17:32,023 you will be grateful that you are 320 00:17:32,025 --> 00:17:33,785 stopped you are making a fool of yourself. 321 00:17:58,068 --> 00:17:58,947 Although I know this 322 00:17:58,949 --> 00:18:00,309 it could cause you pain, 323 00:18:00,749 --> 00:18:01,947 I think they will 324 00:18:01,949 --> 00:18:03,269 help you understand. 325 00:18:04,548 --> 00:18:07,028 remember, no matter how both 326 00:18:07,030 --> 00:18:08,230 get out of this 327 00:18:08,989 --> 00:18:10,909 you will always be a hero. 328 00:18:13,950 --> 00:18:14,950 Dear Rachel, 329 00:18:16,790 --> 00:18:18,389 In your absence, I took it 330 00:18:18,391 --> 00:18:19,349 on myself to change 331 00:18:19,351 --> 00:18:20,268 layout of the house 332 00:18:20,270 --> 00:18:21,790 and organize your wardrobe. 333 00:18:24,431 --> 00:18:26,950 Know that I could not 334 00:18:26,952 --> 00:18:27,550 to face with 335 00:18:27,552 --> 00:18:28,669 possibility next to the fire 336 00:18:28,671 --> 00:18:31,270 because I was unable to face 337 00:18:31,272 --> 00:18:32,672 knowing my past. 338 00:18:35,031 --> 00:18:37,031 Now I believe that if 339 00:18:37,033 --> 00:18:38,109 You should work here, 340 00:18:38,152 --> 00:18:39,630 This should be your home, 341 00:18:39,673 --> 00:18:41,150 and should leave no traces 342 00:18:41,152 --> 00:18:43,513 my mother or my sister 343 00:18:44,872 --> 00:18:46,032 or someone who 344 00:18:46,034 --> 00:18:47,753 may no longer exist. 345 00:18:50,633 --> 00:18:52,112 Although I am far from 346 00:18:52,114 --> 00:18:53,434 the boy i used to be 347 00:18:53,954 --> 00:18:55,633 I understand that I am also far away 348 00:18:55,635 --> 00:18:57,315 from the man I will become. 349 00:18:58,314 --> 00:19:01,033 Despite this, I believe we share 350 00:19:01,035 --> 00:19:02,155 that similarity. 351 00:19:04,914 --> 00:19:06,955 Comfort does not come from within, 352 00:19:07,315 --> 00:19:08,753 but since the invention 353 00:19:08,755 --> 00:19:10,235 refuge in the unknown. 354 00:19:13,315 --> 00:19:14,875 I am in the power of a magnet. 355 00:19:45,599 --> 00:19:47,120 Your silence is killing me. 356 00:19:48,880 --> 00:19:50,560 I didn't expect you. 357 00:19:52,280 --> 00:19:53,680 I assume you received my letter. 358 00:20:01,361 --> 00:20:02,361 It smells wonderful. 359 00:20:04,121 --> 00:20:05,122 My mother's recipe. 360 00:20:07,842 --> 00:20:08,722 What is the problem? 361 00:20:08,802 --> 00:20:10,162 nothing 362 00:20:11,281 --> 00:20:12,802 I'm just... I'm surprised. 363 00:20:13,402 --> 00:20:14,922 Well, haven't you tried it yet? 364 00:20:22,682 --> 00:20:25,563 hmmm 365 00:20:28,563 --> 00:20:31,364 I didn't expect to see you. 366 00:20:33,363 --> 00:20:35,443 Well, I guess I thought you might 367 00:20:35,445 --> 00:20:36,445 they wanted some company. 368 00:20:37,165 --> 00:20:39,964 If this is really my home, 369 00:20:41,725 --> 00:20:42,803 you probably should have asked 370 00:20:42,805 --> 00:20:44,685 before you came to cook me dinner. 371 00:20:45,686 --> 00:20:46,083 Would that be 372 00:20:46,085 --> 00:20:47,085 changed the outcome? 373 00:20:47,165 --> 00:20:48,165 That. 374 00:20:48,725 --> 00:20:49,524 Because I wouldn't expect it 375 00:20:49,526 --> 00:20:50,526 You could do it. 376 00:20:56,406 --> 00:20:57,486 I'm going to freshen up. 377 00:20:58,686 --> 00:20:59,725 Would you like me to be 378 00:20:59,727 --> 00:21:00,927 here when you come back? 379 00:21:03,246 --> 00:21:03,925 The first man who is 380 00:21:03,927 --> 00:21:04,927 he ever cooked me dinner. 381 00:21:05,968 --> 00:21:07,368 I might as well enjoy it. 382 00:21:46,331 --> 00:21:47,531 You look beautiful. 383 00:21:49,811 --> 00:21:50,811 Why are you doing this? 384 00:21:52,172 --> 00:21:53,172 What do you think? 385 00:21:54,052 --> 00:21:55,413 Dinner. Dress. 386 00:21:56,292 --> 00:21:57,171 Well, I wasn't 387 00:21:57,173 --> 00:21:58,173 He would definitely wear it. 388 00:21:58,253 --> 00:21:59,253 Answer the question. 389 00:22:01,692 --> 00:22:02,772 You wonder if I'm ready. 390 00:22:04,053 --> 00:22:05,614 I wonder if I am capable. 391 00:22:07,453 --> 00:22:08,573 I hope this answers both. 392 00:22:09,013 --> 00:22:10,012 Is there anything I have 393 00:22:10,014 --> 00:22:11,293 said he talked you into this? 394 00:22:11,653 --> 00:22:13,652 Not. But your words 395 00:22:13,654 --> 00:22:14,654 they motivated me. 396 00:22:17,774 --> 00:22:18,774 Flynn... 397 00:22:19,375 --> 00:22:19,973 I don't want to say 398 00:22:19,975 --> 00:22:21,295 this but i think... 399 00:22:38,536 --> 00:22:39,536 You have to go... 400 00:22:41,416 --> 00:22:42,416 and never come back. 401 00:22:44,257 --> 00:22:45,257 I don't understand. 402 00:22:45,898 --> 00:22:46,898 You're just a boy. 403 00:22:48,658 --> 00:22:50,018 Can't you understand then? 404 00:22:50,777 --> 00:22:51,975 Then I don't understand why you are 405 00:22:51,977 --> 00:22:53,098 so mad at me 406 00:22:53,738 --> 00:22:54,576 I'm upset because 407 00:22:54,578 --> 00:22:56,058 I'm too old for you. 408 00:22:56,819 --> 00:22:57,459 It doesn't matter. 409 00:23:21,380 --> 00:23:22,380 I should go. 410 00:23:27,542 --> 00:23:29,502 At least stay for dinner. 411 00:23:31,982 --> 00:23:33,021 I don't know. 412 00:23:33,261 --> 00:23:34,261 Please. 413 00:23:35,422 --> 00:23:36,662 You put in all this effort. 414 00:23:45,103 --> 00:23:48,104 Even though I knew it was wrong, 415 00:23:48,304 --> 00:23:50,903 I wasn't so willing to give up. 416 00:23:51,503 --> 00:23:53,342 I knew that one day 417 00:23:53,344 --> 00:23:54,824 He would outgrow me. 418 00:23:55,385 --> 00:23:56,983 But I believed he was at least 419 00:23:56,985 --> 00:23:58,745 he deserved to preserve his dignity. 420 00:23:59,825 --> 00:24:00,862 Even if I was ready 421 00:24:00,864 --> 00:24:02,344 Let mine come off. 422 00:24:34,068 --> 00:24:35,906 Despite my actions, I didn't want to 423 00:24:35,908 --> 00:24:37,508 force me to submit to my age. 424 00:24:38,188 --> 00:24:40,147 But his kiss was becoming more and more familiar 425 00:24:40,149 --> 00:24:42,109 the longer I tasted it. 426 00:24:42,949 --> 00:24:43,987 Can I really deprive 427 00:24:43,989 --> 00:24:45,429 yourself from it forever? 428 00:24:48,190 --> 00:24:49,788 If you were in my shoes, would 429 00:24:49,790 --> 00:24:51,110 did you even hesitate? 430 00:24:52,630 --> 00:24:53,907 Two wrongs do not make one right, but 431 00:24:53,909 --> 00:24:54,949 they would in 432 00:24:55,470 --> 00:24:56,830 at least make us equal. 433 00:24:59,310 --> 00:25:00,949 I was desperate for excuses 434 00:25:00,951 --> 00:25:02,111 in my behavior. 435 00:25:03,150 --> 00:25:03,831 Maybe I'm depressed. 436 00:25:04,110 --> 00:25:05,992 Maybe I was all along. 437 00:25:07,512 --> 00:25:09,749 I have never smiled so much 438 00:25:09,751 --> 00:25:11,352 I felt pain in my cheeks. 439 00:25:12,631 --> 00:25:13,829 It was like it was my body 440 00:25:13,831 --> 00:25:15,512 lost all her weight. 441 00:25:16,993 --> 00:25:18,990 I walked the streets slowly 442 00:25:18,992 --> 00:25:20,192 like in my dreams. 443 00:25:22,592 --> 00:25:23,752 Will I see you again? 444 00:25:24,872 --> 00:25:26,152 You probably shouldn't. 445 00:25:32,954 --> 00:25:36,115 You didn't say goodbye. 446 00:25:37,315 --> 00:25:38,315 Exactly. 447 00:25:39,355 --> 00:25:39,752 All this begged 448 00:25:39,754 --> 00:25:41,074 just one question. 449 00:25:42,874 --> 00:25:43,873 I have always been 450 00:25:43,875 --> 00:25:45,235 was honest with you. 451 00:25:46,156 --> 00:25:46,994 But when you 452 00:25:46,996 --> 00:25:48,316 be honest with me? 453 00:25:53,435 --> 00:25:54,435 Charles. 454 00:25:55,917 --> 00:25:56,917 Have you been? 455 00:26:09,838 --> 00:26:11,077 I was waiting for you. 456 00:26:37,120 --> 00:26:38,361 Hmm 457 00:26:40,240 --> 00:26:41,841 Oh, your face is wet 458 00:26:43,441 --> 00:26:44,560 Stop. 459 00:26:52,001 --> 00:26:54,281 Go dry off, okay? 460 00:27:00,282 --> 00:27:01,362 Darling 461 00:27:02,483 --> 00:27:03,603 You'll catch a cold. 462 00:27:15,124 --> 00:27:16,885 Do you want me to help you? 463 00:27:28,166 --> 00:27:29,726 Get up. 464 00:28:06,850 --> 00:28:07,850 are you ok 465 00:28:19,651 --> 00:28:21,491 You shouldn't be here. 466 00:28:21,691 --> 00:28:22,449 I know that I do 467 00:28:22,451 --> 00:28:23,570 Pst 468 00:29:01,374 --> 00:29:02,375 You look tired. 469 00:29:07,176 --> 00:29:08,215 I am tired. 470 00:29:09,576 --> 00:29:11,014 Do you want me to 471 00:29:11,016 --> 00:29:12,096 turn off the light? 472 00:29:14,496 --> 00:29:15,496 Not. 473 00:29:17,177 --> 00:29:18,177 Not. 474 00:29:25,538 --> 00:29:26,978 I have to keep an eye on you. 475 00:29:29,097 --> 00:29:30,378 I didn't mean to scare you. 476 00:29:32,258 --> 00:29:33,258 I hope that's true. 477 00:29:53,099 --> 00:29:54,099 Hmm. 478 00:30:02,741 --> 00:30:03,780 Who is that? 479 00:30:05,182 --> 00:30:06,182 It's okay. 480 00:30:07,342 --> 00:30:08,342 Stay here. 481 00:30:26,984 --> 00:30:28,064 Is everything okay? 482 00:30:30,584 --> 00:30:32,144 It's a letter from my husband. 483 00:30:49,786 --> 00:30:51,386 Are you sure about this? 484 00:30:54,665 --> 00:30:55,665 That. 485 00:30:56,226 --> 00:30:57,226 I'm sure. 486 00:31:01,947 --> 00:31:02,947 Dear Rachel, 487 00:31:04,827 --> 00:31:05,465 I wrote to you 488 00:31:05,467 --> 00:31:06,588 several times lately, 489 00:31:08,068 --> 00:31:08,546 so maybe you too 490 00:31:08,548 --> 00:31:09,548 get them all at once. 491 00:31:11,827 --> 00:31:12,827 Our work was tiring. 492 00:31:13,987 --> 00:31:15,229 The air was icy cold. 493 00:31:16,628 --> 00:31:17,629 But for you, 494 00:31:18,709 --> 00:31:19,749 I remained resistant. 495 00:31:22,388 --> 00:31:24,749 While the war rages, 496 00:31:26,190 --> 00:31:27,427 I see that I have a chance to return 497 00:31:27,429 --> 00:31:30,669 you are getting quite thin. 498 00:31:34,830 --> 00:31:35,830 In the beginning, 499 00:31:36,831 --> 00:31:37,549 this was something that 500 00:31:37,551 --> 00:31:38,551 scared me terribly. 501 00:31:40,711 --> 00:31:41,711 In these conditions, 502 00:31:44,751 --> 00:31:45,870 you soon get used to it 503 00:31:45,872 --> 00:31:46,872 the possibility of death. 504 00:31:54,032 --> 00:31:55,992 Yours forever 505 00:31:56,592 --> 00:31:58,152 Charles. 506 00:33:04,758 --> 00:33:06,079 How are you feeling? 507 00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:12,880 It is difficult to describe it in words. 508 00:33:16,321 --> 00:33:18,239 Would you tell me if you did 509 00:33:18,241 --> 00:33:20,201 Have you ever regretted this? 510 00:33:21,440 --> 00:33:23,079 If there is a reality in which it 511 00:33:23,081 --> 00:33:26,121 if it ever happens... then yes. 512 00:33:28,602 --> 00:33:31,442 Do you think this is possible? 513 00:33:33,842 --> 00:33:35,403 Why do you care so deeply? 514 00:33:36,802 --> 00:33:40,400 I worry about everything that might happen 515 00:33:40,402 --> 00:33:42,043 be considered a mistake. 516 00:33:45,563 --> 00:33:46,562 Would you tell me if ever 517 00:33:46,564 --> 00:33:48,323 regretted this? 518 00:33:51,923 --> 00:33:54,044 If there is reality, 519 00:33:54,923 --> 00:33:56,325 then yes 520 00:34:20,366 --> 00:34:22,487 Is this okay? 521 00:34:24,806 --> 00:34:26,288 You can tell me, I don't mind. 522 00:34:27,248 --> 00:34:28,248 Are you sure? 523 00:34:30,288 --> 00:34:31,527 If you slow down a bit 524 00:34:32,487 --> 00:34:33,886 It could be better 525 00:34:33,888 --> 00:34:35,368 for both of us. 526 00:34:35,968 --> 00:34:36,968 All right. 527 00:34:38,488 --> 00:34:39,488 Like this? 528 00:35:08,212 --> 00:35:09,212 What is the problem? 529 00:35:11,932 --> 00:35:12,932 That's nothing. 530 00:35:13,411 --> 00:35:14,411 You could tell me. 531 00:35:17,293 --> 00:35:19,172 last night, 532 00:35:20,093 --> 00:35:21,533 it really felt like you were mine. 533 00:35:22,933 --> 00:35:24,011 But now all I can think 534 00:35:24,013 --> 00:35:25,013 it's your husband. 535 00:35:27,813 --> 00:35:29,774 Please don't feel guilty, Flynn. 536 00:35:31,173 --> 00:35:32,731 This is my choice to make. 537 00:35:32,733 --> 00:35:33,733 This is not it. 538 00:35:35,295 --> 00:35:36,932 Only this is the first 539 00:35:36,934 --> 00:35:37,453 the time i didn't 540 00:35:37,455 --> 00:35:38,655 wanted the war to end. 541 00:35:41,614 --> 00:35:42,773 You know you shouldn't 542 00:35:42,775 --> 00:35:44,014 say such things. 543 00:35:44,695 --> 00:35:45,534 I can't help it, but 544 00:35:45,536 --> 00:35:46,656 the way i feel. 545 00:35:49,616 --> 00:35:50,616 It's okay. 546 00:35:52,016 --> 00:35:53,016 I understand. 547 00:35:57,057 --> 00:35:57,975 I should be punished for what I said 548 00:35:57,977 --> 00:35:59,297 something like that, shouldn't it? 549 00:36:01,017 --> 00:36:02,856 And what good would that do? 550 00:36:07,138 --> 00:36:08,536 If this is the only one 551 00:36:08,538 --> 00:36:10,098 the time we have left 552 00:36:12,457 --> 00:36:13,657 Is that such a bad thing? 553 00:36:15,659 --> 00:36:16,659 What do you think? 554 00:36:20,579 --> 00:36:21,659 In 15 years. 555 00:36:24,499 --> 00:36:25,940 Your life is about to begin. 556 00:36:28,500 --> 00:36:29,257 She would just stay 557 00:36:29,259 --> 00:36:30,380 with me out of weakness. 558 00:36:32,460 --> 00:36:34,018 And I'd hate to see you sacrifice yourself 559 00:36:34,020 --> 00:36:35,461 your happiness for me. 560 00:36:36,421 --> 00:36:37,259 Why don't you believe 561 00:36:37,261 --> 00:36:38,380 that i want to be with you? 562 00:36:40,660 --> 00:36:43,058 Because the years between us 563 00:36:43,060 --> 00:36:45,862 it's not just the numbers, Flynn. 564 00:36:48,221 --> 00:36:48,620 They are a measure 565 00:36:48,622 --> 00:36:49,622 our differences. 566 00:36:53,141 --> 00:36:54,302 Why did you marry him? 567 00:36:56,783 --> 00:36:57,783 Because I loved him. 568 00:36:58,143 --> 00:36:58,540 That's not what 569 00:36:58,542 --> 00:36:59,542 you said yesterday. 570 00:37:01,583 --> 00:37:04,542 Well, love is complicated. 571 00:37:06,544 --> 00:37:07,544 Isn't that fair? 572 00:37:22,424 --> 00:37:23,303 Now I received everything 573 00:37:23,305 --> 00:37:24,745 of your recent letters. 574 00:37:25,665 --> 00:37:27,343 I want to thank you 575 00:37:27,345 --> 00:37:28,945 for calling me to account. 576 00:37:29,385 --> 00:37:30,343 That got me a long way 577 00:37:30,345 --> 00:37:31,865 more aware of their actions, 578 00:37:32,025 --> 00:37:33,103 and it worked 579 00:37:33,105 --> 00:37:34,502 it feels more like a choice. 580 00:37:51,508 --> 00:37:52,746 In the beginning, 581 00:37:52,748 --> 00:37:53,745 I think I satisfied him 582 00:37:53,747 --> 00:37:54,626 because I accepted 583 00:37:54,628 --> 00:37:56,229 the fate of our marriage. 584 00:38:04,548 --> 00:38:05,788 While in the beginning, everything I was thinking about 585 00:38:05,790 --> 00:38:07,510 it was the day you were supposed to come home. 586 00:38:11,389 --> 00:38:12,789 As the months passed, 587 00:38:13,590 --> 00:38:14,987 I was starting to believe you could 588 00:38:14,989 --> 00:38:16,149 never come home 589 00:38:22,591 --> 00:38:26,190 I was starting to believe you could 590 00:38:26,192 --> 00:38:27,352 already be dead. 591 00:38:33,471 --> 00:38:35,510 Looking back, I think that's it 592 00:38:35,512 --> 00:38:36,551 that feeling of clarity 593 00:38:36,553 --> 00:38:37,993 it blinded me. 594 00:38:39,393 --> 00:38:41,831 You must think I'm a whore, and 595 00:38:41,833 --> 00:38:43,113 maybe you are right. 596 00:38:43,552 --> 00:38:44,552 Maybe I am. 597 00:38:45,033 --> 00:38:47,751 But what helps me sleep at night? 598 00:38:47,753 --> 00:38:48,471 is to know that 599 00:38:48,473 --> 00:38:49,913 when this war is over, 600 00:38:50,674 --> 00:38:52,673 I will face my reality. 601 00:38:54,994 --> 00:38:55,953 In many ways, I am 602 00:38:55,955 --> 00:38:57,195 he is already facing it. 603 00:38:58,115 --> 00:38:59,152 It didn't take long 604 00:38:59,154 --> 00:39:00,311 rumors to begin with. 605 00:39:00,354 --> 00:39:01,113 Have you heard of 606 00:39:01,115 --> 00:39:02,394 little farmer's boy? 607 00:39:03,035 --> 00:39:04,033 I heard they make 608 00:39:04,035 --> 00:39:05,316 butter your tails. 609 00:39:05,676 --> 00:39:07,034 It brings nothing but shame 610 00:39:07,036 --> 00:39:08,196 to our city, I tell you. 611 00:39:08,995 --> 00:39:09,156 Shame. 612 00:39:09,636 --> 00:39:10,636 Is she married? 613 00:39:10,915 --> 00:39:12,475 Don't be silly. 614 00:39:12,916 --> 00:39:14,395 Well, is she? 615 00:39:14,796 --> 00:39:15,354 She will get bored 616 00:39:15,356 --> 00:39:16,356 with a little boy. 617 00:39:16,436 --> 00:39:17,477 He's just a puppy. 618 00:39:20,917 --> 00:39:22,115 I could tell it bothered him 619 00:39:22,117 --> 00:39:23,637 more than I minded. 620 00:39:24,037 --> 00:39:25,397 Because this is his home. 621 00:39:26,438 --> 00:39:27,636 I knew I could leave if it came to that 622 00:39:27,638 --> 00:39:28,878 became unbearable. 623 00:39:29,637 --> 00:39:30,396 But the thought of 624 00:39:30,398 --> 00:39:32,277 Leaving him was my weakness. 625 00:39:38,758 --> 00:39:40,279 She's not wearing a ring. 626 00:39:41,239 --> 00:39:42,838 Damn you. 627 00:40:14,322 --> 00:40:15,321 This could be the last time that 628 00:40:15,323 --> 00:40:17,123 I am writing to you for now. 629 00:40:18,043 --> 00:40:18,881 Your answers have 630 00:40:18,883 --> 00:40:20,683 become too painful 631 00:40:22,643 --> 00:40:24,043 as well as my own honesty. 632 00:40:26,283 --> 00:40:27,001 I'm afraid not 633 00:40:27,003 --> 00:40:28,523 they don't have strength anymore. 634 00:40:29,124 --> 00:40:29,761 You don't have to 635 00:40:29,763 --> 00:40:30,803 do this, you know. 636 00:40:32,043 --> 00:40:33,043 I know. 637 00:40:46,246 --> 00:40:47,246 You look different. 638 00:40:48,005 --> 00:40:49,005 I'm fine. 639 00:40:49,606 --> 00:40:50,204 I'm just in my head 640 00:40:50,206 --> 00:40:51,526 about things, that's all. 641 00:41:58,932 --> 00:41:59,932 Ma'am 642 00:42:01,493 --> 00:42:03,573 Our deepest condolences. 643 00:42:14,694 --> 00:42:15,172 The letter was 644 00:42:15,174 --> 00:42:16,654 intended for his mother. 645 00:42:18,175 --> 00:42:19,895 But fear clouded my judgment. 646 00:42:22,334 --> 00:42:23,814 The weight of his grief. 647 00:42:24,815 --> 00:42:26,096 Flynn, stop! Stop, Flynn! 648 00:42:27,816 --> 00:42:29,535 In my bloody hands. 649 00:42:33,896 --> 00:42:35,336 I hate where I stand. 650 00:42:52,337 --> 00:42:53,337 He's dead. 651 00:43:00,219 --> 00:43:00,976 Does this news bring 652 00:43:00,978 --> 00:43:02,099 Do you have a sense of peace? 653 00:43:08,340 --> 00:43:09,857 Even in your silence you behave like that 654 00:43:09,859 --> 00:43:11,659 much power over me. 655 00:43:16,700 --> 00:43:18,140 Don't you have anything to say? 656 00:43:20,300 --> 00:43:21,460 I am speechless. 657 00:43:28,622 --> 00:43:30,501 You must think so badly of me. 658 00:43:31,221 --> 00:43:33,542 In your eyes, I have always done that. 659 00:43:35,263 --> 00:43:36,263 Not always. 660 00:43:39,742 --> 00:43:41,703 Then enlighten me. 661 00:43:44,743 --> 00:43:45,582 He not only 662 00:43:45,584 --> 00:43:47,384 remind me of the bad 663 00:43:47,423 --> 00:43:50,864 but the good is no less painful. 664 00:43:52,343 --> 00:43:54,021 Is that why you betrayed me? 665 00:43:54,023 --> 00:43:55,103 It's not that simple. 666 00:43:55,344 --> 00:43:56,384 So what is that? 667 00:43:56,544 --> 00:43:58,385 You, of all people, 668 00:43:58,785 --> 00:43:59,785 you should understand. 669 00:44:00,905 --> 00:44:03,665 Well, suppose I don't know. 670 00:44:05,064 --> 00:44:05,824 When a soldier 671 00:44:05,826 --> 00:44:08,586 arrived this morning 672 00:44:11,425 --> 00:44:12,344 At first I felt it 673 00:44:12,346 --> 00:44:13,666 a sense of relief. 674 00:44:14,305 --> 00:44:17,385 I felt relieved that 675 00:44:17,387 --> 00:44:18,947 all this could be the end. 676 00:44:22,427 --> 00:44:23,906 In many ways I am ready. 677 00:44:26,628 --> 00:44:29,466 Ready to grieve for 678 00:44:29,468 --> 00:44:30,908 a man I don't love anymore. 679 00:44:32,547 --> 00:44:35,428 A man must admire your honesty. 680 00:44:36,349 --> 00:44:37,106 I don't care what I am 681 00:44:37,108 --> 00:44:38,108 I'm trying to tell you. 682 00:44:41,908 --> 00:44:43,226 Your openness on that topic shows 683 00:44:43,228 --> 00:44:44,947 so little care to do so 684 00:44:44,949 --> 00:44:45,828 impossible 685 00:44:45,830 --> 00:44:47,070 communicate with you. 686 00:44:52,709 --> 00:44:57,030 If I'm going to be completely honest with you, 687 00:45:00,390 --> 00:45:01,189 there is a part of me 688 00:45:01,191 --> 00:45:03,270 you really miss that. 689 00:45:06,912 --> 00:45:08,311 But if I admit it to myself, 690 00:45:09,592 --> 00:45:11,112 then maybe I'd like you to come home. 691 00:45:13,591 --> 00:45:14,750 And I haven't yet 692 00:45:14,752 --> 00:45:15,752 ready for you to feel it. 693 00:45:17,953 --> 00:45:20,353 So where do we go from here? 694 00:45:23,072 --> 00:45:24,191 I hoped the war would do 695 00:45:24,193 --> 00:45:25,274 that decision for us. 696 00:45:27,234 --> 00:45:29,594 There is still time. 697 00:46:58,482 --> 00:47:00,402 I thought I might find you here. 698 00:47:02,723 --> 00:47:03,803 I didn't mean to disappear. 699 00:47:07,804 --> 00:47:08,681 I wanted to go to your place 700 00:47:08,683 --> 00:47:09,962 check out the grandparents' house 701 00:47:09,964 --> 00:47:10,682 you, but I'm not 702 00:47:10,684 --> 00:47:11,684 I think that would be wise. 703 00:47:12,204 --> 00:47:13,924 Not. It wouldn't be like that. 704 00:47:18,524 --> 00:47:19,524 how is your mother 705 00:47:21,884 --> 00:47:22,884 She's holding on. 706 00:47:24,605 --> 00:47:25,605 It's all of us. 707 00:47:29,565 --> 00:47:30,004 Is there anything 708 00:47:30,006 --> 00:47:31,006 Is there anything I can do to help? 709 00:47:36,447 --> 00:47:37,447 Stay away from us. 710 00:47:41,206 --> 00:47:42,206 I'm sorry? 711 00:47:42,727 --> 00:47:43,565 My family doesn't 712 00:47:43,567 --> 00:47:44,204 ability to act 713 00:47:44,206 --> 00:47:45,206 with anything else. 714 00:47:47,528 --> 00:47:48,328 I don't understand. 715 00:47:48,407 --> 00:47:49,847 Please, Rachel. 716 00:47:53,848 --> 00:47:54,848 What about us... 717 00:47:55,168 --> 00:47:56,889 What did you expect to happen? 718 00:47:59,609 --> 00:48:00,609 You don't mean this, do you? 719 00:48:01,329 --> 00:48:01,966 Tell me you're not serious. 720 00:48:01,968 --> 00:48:02,686 I need you to write 721 00:48:02,688 --> 00:48:03,688 a letter to your husband. 722 00:48:03,969 --> 00:48:04,846 What do you think? 723 00:48:04,848 --> 00:48:05,768 I need you to tell him 724 00:48:05,770 --> 00:48:07,129 that this was a mistake, 725 00:48:07,609 --> 00:48:09,287 it was a misunderstanding, and that 726 00:48:09,289 --> 00:48:10,127 your heart belongs 727 00:48:10,129 --> 00:48:11,207 him and only him. 728 00:48:11,209 --> 00:48:12,209 I won't lie. 729 00:48:12,409 --> 00:48:13,410 Please, Rachel. 730 00:48:14,209 --> 00:48:16,209 Why should he/she have 731 00:48:16,211 --> 00:48:17,211 should I do something like that? 732 00:48:18,251 --> 00:48:19,571 Because if he were to die, 733 00:48:19,730 --> 00:48:20,970 I couldn't live with the guilt. 734 00:48:22,171 --> 00:48:24,249 Then you would have nothing 735 00:48:24,251 --> 00:48:25,251 feel guilty about. 736 00:48:25,412 --> 00:48:26,449 This is my choice to 737 00:48:26,451 --> 00:48:27,610 make. I told you that. 738 00:48:27,612 --> 00:48:29,449 You belong to another man, Rachel. 739 00:48:29,451 --> 00:48:30,210 You always have. 740 00:48:30,212 --> 00:48:31,572 I don't belong to anyone. 741 00:48:35,853 --> 00:48:37,293 I used to want to believe that 742 00:48:37,972 --> 00:48:39,013 when we first met. 743 00:48:40,053 --> 00:48:42,410 But now, all I can think about is 744 00:48:42,412 --> 00:48:43,412 our differences. 745 00:48:43,732 --> 00:48:45,651 I romanticized our relationship with 746 00:48:45,653 --> 00:48:46,813 the point that became impossible. 747 00:48:49,013 --> 00:48:53,331 And now, without children, that is 748 00:48:53,333 --> 00:48:54,533 it is difficult to see the future for us. 749 00:48:58,494 --> 00:49:00,695 So what are you trying to say? 750 00:49:03,215 --> 00:49:04,374 Our love is worthless. 751 00:49:10,096 --> 00:49:11,174 So you would admit it? 752 00:49:11,176 --> 00:49:12,176 Admit what? 753 00:49:14,016 --> 00:49:15,016 That you love me. 754 00:49:18,257 --> 00:49:19,257 And? 755 00:49:30,177 --> 00:49:34,056 Honestly, I do 756 00:49:34,058 --> 00:49:35,419 I have never loved anything more. 757 00:49:42,579 --> 00:49:43,579 do you love me 758 00:49:52,060 --> 00:49:54,580 Then forget it. Forget everything. 759 00:49:54,820 --> 00:49:56,501 I am yours. You are mine. 760 00:49:59,141 --> 00:50:00,221 We can be together. 761 00:50:00,581 --> 00:50:01,701 We can make it work. 762 00:50:02,021 --> 00:50:03,139 It doesn't matter who 763 00:50:03,141 --> 00:50:04,581 says or what anyone thinks. 764 00:50:04,901 --> 00:50:05,901 We can do this. 765 00:50:25,863 --> 00:50:28,263 Are you Nana's little soldier? 766 00:50:34,983 --> 00:50:35,983 O 767 00:50:38,385 --> 00:50:39,424 Yes, you are 768 00:50:44,505 --> 00:50:45,505 You are awake. 769 00:50:48,266 --> 00:50:49,344 What happened? 770 00:50:49,346 --> 00:50:50,465 Carefully. 771 00:50:51,946 --> 00:50:52,946 You need to rest. 772 00:50:54,785 --> 00:50:56,507 I have something to tell you. 773 00:50:59,027 --> 00:51:00,027 What happened? 774 00:51:01,907 --> 00:51:02,907 Rach. 775 00:51:04,907 --> 00:51:05,786 I'm not really sure 776 00:51:05,788 --> 00:51:06,788 how can i tell you this. 777 00:51:08,308 --> 00:51:09,308 But you're pregnant. 778 00:51:14,028 --> 00:51:15,028 Please. 779 00:51:16,669 --> 00:51:17,829 The doctor said you need to rest. 780 00:51:20,108 --> 00:51:20,667 You suffered 781 00:51:20,669 --> 00:51:21,669 light point of bleeding, 782 00:51:22,148 --> 00:51:22,947 but he told me it was 783 00:51:22,949 --> 00:51:23,867 completely normal and 784 00:51:23,869 --> 00:51:24,989 There's nothing to worry about. 785 00:51:27,189 --> 00:51:28,189 Isn't it wonderful? 786 00:51:31,110 --> 00:51:32,110 That is impossible. 787 00:51:33,270 --> 00:51:34,310 Then it was meant to be. 788 00:51:37,191 --> 00:51:37,789 I don't know what you 789 00:51:37,791 --> 00:51:38,791 I remember from earlier. 790 00:51:39,951 --> 00:51:41,108 I want you to know I'm here 791 00:51:41,110 --> 00:51:41,789 for you and together 792 00:51:41,791 --> 00:51:43,031 We will succeed in this. 793 00:51:45,551 --> 00:51:47,192 Where will we go? 794 00:51:48,512 --> 00:51:48,870 Where will we go? 795 00:51:48,872 --> 00:51:49,910 to live? What are we going to do? 796 00:51:49,912 --> 00:51:50,912 Well, we will live here. 797 00:51:51,671 --> 00:51:52,389 I'll talk to mine 798 00:51:52,391 --> 00:51:53,391 mother in the morning. 799 00:51:53,591 --> 00:51:54,750 It could be just what she needs. 800 00:51:54,752 --> 00:51:56,153 That might save her. 801 00:51:58,512 --> 00:51:59,512 I. 802 00:52:00,513 --> 00:52:01,513 My father. 803 00:52:02,832 --> 00:52:04,510 I could teach him to draw, yes 804 00:52:04,512 --> 00:52:06,392 farm, grow crops. 805 00:52:06,394 --> 00:52:07,474 It will be wonderful. 806 00:52:07,633 --> 00:52:08,754 Draw. 807 00:52:09,274 --> 00:52:11,471 That. There's still a lot you don't know. 808 00:52:11,473 --> 00:52:12,592 You know about me, Rachel, but this is 809 00:52:12,594 --> 00:52:14,274 to bring us closer. 810 00:52:18,995 --> 00:52:20,475 I need you to write a letter. 811 00:52:21,794 --> 00:52:22,195 Letter? 812 00:52:22,514 --> 00:52:23,514 That. 813 00:52:24,395 --> 00:52:25,395 To your husband. 814 00:52:25,875 --> 00:52:27,913 We talked about this. 815 00:52:27,915 --> 00:52:29,233 Yes, we did. That 816 00:52:29,235 --> 00:52:30,395 it was before this news. 817 00:52:31,436 --> 00:52:32,634 He needs to know that your heart 818 00:52:32,636 --> 00:52:33,996 it really belongs to me. 819 00:52:34,995 --> 00:52:36,794 He must know it was him 820 00:52:36,796 --> 00:52:37,796 that was not enough. 821 00:52:38,596 --> 00:52:39,794 He has to pay for the way 822 00:52:39,796 --> 00:52:40,874 He made you feel, because he exists 823 00:52:40,876 --> 00:52:42,637 there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. 824 00:52:45,718 --> 00:52:46,395 can, 825 00:52:46,397 --> 00:52:49,798 Can we just slow down, please? 826 00:52:51,797 --> 00:52:52,797 Of course. 827 00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:08,800 Flynn, why aren't you telling me? 828 00:53:12,000 --> 00:53:13,000 Nothing. 829 00:53:13,720 --> 00:53:15,077 If you don't want to 830 00:53:15,079 --> 00:53:17,201 write to him, then we won't. 831 00:53:27,201 --> 00:53:28,562 Can I get you something? 832 00:53:32,162 --> 00:53:34,639 I just need some sleep. We 833 00:53:34,641 --> 00:53:36,163 We can talk about this later, okay? 834 00:53:37,162 --> 00:53:39,560 All right. I'm going too 835 00:53:39,562 --> 00:53:40,683 Make us dinner. 836 00:53:42,043 --> 00:53:44,163 Be wonderful. Thank you. 837 00:53:44,683 --> 00:53:45,683 Of course. 838 00:53:59,045 --> 00:54:01,445 Please excuse my silence. 839 00:54:01,485 --> 00:54:02,803 He told me I couldn't do it anymore 840 00:54:02,805 --> 00:54:05,002 I am writing to you 841 00:54:05,004 --> 00:54:06,564 let the past stay the past. 842 00:54:07,966 --> 00:54:09,486 But I became worried. 843 00:54:11,365 --> 00:54:13,445 Although I know he would never admit it, 844 00:54:13,686 --> 00:54:15,684 I'm almost alone sure that a few months ago, 845 00:54:15,686 --> 00:54:17,645 He wrote to you. 846 00:54:17,647 --> 00:54:19,727 And that explains your silence. 847 00:54:36,169 --> 00:54:38,006 I can only apologize for its lack 848 00:54:38,008 --> 00:54:39,289 emotional maturity 849 00:54:39,328 --> 00:54:41,207 and what a pain it is 850 00:54:41,209 --> 00:54:42,609 he must have brought you. 851 00:54:44,089 --> 00:54:44,687 If I knew it was him 852 00:54:44,689 --> 00:54:46,047 would do something like that 853 00:54:46,090 --> 00:54:47,168 I would be 854 00:54:47,170 --> 00:54:49,810 sure to prevent it. 855 00:55:02,571 --> 00:55:04,410 You are really beautiful. 856 00:55:08,131 --> 00:55:09,251 Would you tell me otherwise? 857 00:55:11,971 --> 00:55:13,210 If there was a reality in which that would 858 00:55:13,212 --> 00:55:14,572 if true, then yes. 859 00:55:33,374 --> 00:55:34,692 The circumstances of my choices 860 00:55:34,694 --> 00:55:36,535 they made such unexpected turns. 861 00:55:37,894 --> 00:55:39,574 In many ways, I feel blessed. 862 00:55:40,335 --> 00:55:41,293 But whenever I look 863 00:55:41,295 --> 00:55:42,651 down on my growing belly, 864 00:55:42,694 --> 00:55:43,813 it is hard to imagine that 865 00:55:43,815 --> 00:55:44,732 something we both 866 00:55:44,734 --> 00:55:46,576 wanted for so long 867 00:55:47,495 --> 00:55:48,855 now it belongs to the boy. 868 00:55:49,936 --> 00:55:51,256 There is still no reality. 869 00:55:52,576 --> 00:55:53,576 Of course. 870 00:55:59,016 --> 00:56:00,295 In a few weeks, 871 00:56:00,297 --> 00:56:01,857 it will be his 18th birthday. 872 00:56:02,856 --> 00:56:04,294 I guess I should at that point 873 00:56:04,296 --> 00:56:06,016 stop calling him a boy 874 00:56:06,697 --> 00:56:08,737 and accept that he is a man. 875 00:56:09,978 --> 00:56:10,978 Shouldn't I? 876 00:56:35,701 --> 00:56:36,338 Despite his 877 00:56:36,340 --> 00:56:37,780 try to convince me 878 00:56:38,380 --> 00:56:39,218 I know his eyes are 879 00:56:39,220 --> 00:56:40,660 they began to wander. 880 00:56:42,061 --> 00:56:42,859 Maybe it didn't even come 881 00:56:42,861 --> 00:56:44,301 in the hands of my age, 882 00:56:44,941 --> 00:56:46,059 but it came to 883 00:56:46,061 --> 00:56:47,461 changes in my body. 884 00:56:49,421 --> 00:56:50,700 There is a girl his age who lives 885 00:56:50,702 --> 00:56:51,982 just down the road. 886 00:56:53,342 --> 00:56:54,701 And as we both know, 887 00:56:55,343 --> 00:56:56,903 Temptation affects us all. 888 00:56:57,582 --> 00:57:00,222 Despite everything, 889 00:57:01,542 --> 00:57:03,342 I hope you get home, 890 00:57:04,422 --> 00:57:06,302 whether you want to see me or not. 891 00:57:07,944 --> 00:57:09,262 I think it's important that 892 00:57:09,264 --> 00:57:09,902 remember that we 893 00:57:09,904 --> 00:57:11,144 used to be friends. 894 00:57:12,504 --> 00:57:14,064 Can we be friends again? 895 00:57:23,585 --> 00:57:24,585 Is everything okay? 896 00:57:25,986 --> 00:57:26,986 Crops are dying. 897 00:57:28,386 --> 00:57:29,386 What can we do? 898 00:57:29,906 --> 00:57:31,106 I tried everything. 899 00:57:31,785 --> 00:57:32,944 Worst of all, my father would 900 00:57:32,946 --> 00:57:33,703 knew exactly what he needed 901 00:57:33,705 --> 00:57:34,905 to do if only you were here. 902 00:57:37,786 --> 00:57:39,386 We'll fix his back together. 903 00:57:39,946 --> 00:57:40,946 I promise. 904 00:57:41,746 --> 00:57:42,944 I just can't help but feel like 905 00:57:42,946 --> 00:57:43,946 I'm letting him down. 906 00:57:48,028 --> 00:57:48,347 What is that? 907 00:57:48,947 --> 00:57:49,947 That's nothing. 908 00:57:52,948 --> 00:57:53,948 Show me! 909 00:58:01,908 --> 00:58:03,507 You promised me that we 910 00:58:03,509 --> 00:58:04,149 they were done with this. 911 00:58:04,469 --> 00:58:05,670 It's not that simple. 912 00:58:05,869 --> 00:58:06,869 What happens then? 913 00:58:08,389 --> 00:58:09,510 I'm worried, Flynn. 914 00:58:10,150 --> 00:58:11,788 Surely you can understand that. 915 00:58:11,790 --> 00:58:12,788 Dead or alive, what 916 00:58:12,790 --> 00:58:13,830 Does it make a difference? 917 00:58:14,590 --> 00:58:15,830 You used to feel guilty. 918 00:58:16,991 --> 00:58:18,029 And you reminded me that it was 919 00:58:18,031 --> 00:58:19,031 your weight to bear. 920 00:58:21,671 --> 00:58:22,671 Please. 921 00:58:23,270 --> 00:58:24,510 Just give me the letter, Flynn. 922 00:58:24,950 --> 00:58:26,472 That will be the last thing I promise. 923 00:58:27,072 --> 00:58:28,392 How can I trust you? 924 00:58:29,271 --> 00:58:30,270 Because I'm not a liar. 925 00:58:30,272 --> 00:58:30,829 One is enough 926 00:58:30,831 --> 00:58:31,831 however, hide it from me. 927 00:58:32,952 --> 00:58:34,189 I didn't want to, but you were 928 00:58:34,191 --> 00:58:34,950 very hard 929 00:58:34,952 --> 00:58:35,673 talked recently. 930 00:58:35,953 --> 00:58:37,231 Why can't you understand 931 00:58:37,233 --> 00:58:37,871 the pressure I'm under? 932 00:58:37,873 --> 00:58:39,033 We are both under pressure. 933 00:58:39,832 --> 00:58:41,152 Please do not compare our efforts. 934 00:58:43,912 --> 00:58:44,952 Give me the letter, Flynn. 935 00:58:45,232 --> 00:58:47,393 One day, you're going to have to let go. 936 01:00:44,325 --> 01:00:46,005 I wish I could turn back time. 937 01:00:52,606 --> 01:00:53,606 It's wonderful. 938 01:00:56,127 --> 01:00:57,127 That's nothing. 939 01:01:03,006 --> 01:01:04,446 Why can't I talk to her? 940 01:01:05,166 --> 01:01:06,286 Oh, I miss you. 941 01:01:07,848 --> 01:01:08,848 I love her. 942 01:01:11,848 --> 01:01:12,848 I need her. 943 01:01:14,128 --> 01:01:15,848 Did I make a terrible mistake? 944 01:01:19,169 --> 01:01:20,609 She will never understand. 945 01:01:21,368 --> 01:01:23,369 It became so difficult to read. 946 01:01:25,569 --> 01:01:26,889 Am I...? 947 01:01:28,050 --> 01:01:29,529 my father's son? 948 01:01:32,250 --> 01:01:33,290 I failed him. 949 01:01:36,691 --> 01:01:37,691 I volunteered to fight. 950 01:01:49,412 --> 01:01:50,932 Did I hear him correctly? 951 01:01:51,851 --> 01:01:52,410 Did she hear me? 952 01:01:52,412 --> 01:01:54,092 I can't believe he would do this. 953 01:01:54,131 --> 01:01:54,971 Did I make a mistake? 954 01:01:55,012 --> 01:01:56,091 This must be a mistake. 955 01:01:56,093 --> 01:01:57,250 There is no going back now. 956 01:01:57,252 --> 01:01:58,292 I failed him. 957 01:01:59,652 --> 01:02:00,652 Tell me why. 958 01:02:03,012 --> 01:02:03,931 The appeal of my past is 959 01:02:03,933 --> 01:02:04,933 was too hard to ignore. 960 01:02:06,294 --> 01:02:07,813 I'm nothing like him. 961 01:02:08,574 --> 01:02:09,574 You never met him/her. 962 01:02:12,733 --> 01:02:13,612 The more we are together, the more 963 01:02:13,614 --> 01:02:14,614 i feel like i am. 964 01:02:15,294 --> 01:02:16,495 He was a good man, Rachel. 965 01:02:17,534 --> 01:02:18,654 So why are you so ashamed? 966 01:02:25,976 --> 01:02:27,656 I wish he had talked to me earlier. 967 01:02:28,296 --> 01:02:29,936 I wish I had never said anything. 968 01:02:30,456 --> 01:02:32,216 I wish I could have helped him. 969 01:02:55,018 --> 01:02:56,499 You look very handsome. 970 01:02:58,019 --> 01:02:59,019 Do you think so? 971 01:03:01,179 --> 01:03:02,179 Some might say 972 01:03:02,619 --> 01:03:03,779 You look like a man. 973 01:03:07,339 --> 01:03:08,419 And is that what you would say? 974 01:03:10,740 --> 01:03:11,740 I would say 975 01:03:12,780 --> 01:03:15,939 that it's time to let that boy go 976 01:03:15,941 --> 01:03:17,540 I fell in love with u. 977 01:03:20,300 --> 01:03:21,540 Will you be here when I get back? 978 01:03:24,061 --> 01:03:25,341 You know this was never my home. 979 01:03:27,782 --> 01:03:28,782 But it's ours. 980 01:03:32,061 --> 01:03:34,579 When the time comes, I will 981 01:03:34,581 --> 01:03:35,782 I'm sure you know where to find me. 982 01:03:35,823 --> 01:03:36,063 Will you promise? 983 01:03:36,382 --> 01:03:37,382 Will you promise? 984 01:03:41,143 --> 01:03:42,143 I don't have to do this. 985 01:03:44,983 --> 01:03:46,303 I'm afraid it's already too late. 986 01:03:53,224 --> 01:03:54,344 You're a good man, Flynn. 987 01:03:56,825 --> 01:03:57,825 You always were. 988 01:04:34,467 --> 01:04:35,467 are you ok 989 01:04:37,149 --> 01:04:38,149 See you again. 990 01:04:39,309 --> 01:04:40,349 I really hope that's true. 991 01:04:46,670 --> 01:04:47,670 I'll be fine. 992 01:05:36,754 --> 01:05:37,993 I said a long time ago 993 01:05:37,995 --> 01:05:39,675 something along the lines of 994 01:05:40,035 --> 01:05:41,873 "There is no greater evil than 995 01:05:41,875 --> 01:05:43,275 devil in one's body." 996 01:05:44,595 --> 01:05:46,475 And now I believe it to be true. 997 01:05:47,956 --> 01:05:49,434 We all had a role in 998 01:05:49,436 --> 01:05:50,596 this war of men 999 01:05:51,356 --> 01:05:52,556 hearts and minds. 1000 01:05:53,596 --> 01:05:54,393 And now that you 1001 01:05:54,395 --> 01:05:55,755 you're on your way home 1002 01:05:56,237 --> 01:05:58,755 I have spent many hours debating how 1003 01:05:58,757 --> 01:06:00,156 to answer all that. 1004 01:06:02,957 --> 01:06:03,795 When it was published 1005 01:06:03,797 --> 01:06:04,915 that the war was over, 1006 01:06:04,917 --> 01:06:06,076 I felt obliged to 1007 01:06:06,078 --> 01:06:07,598 think about what's next. 1008 01:06:08,437 --> 01:06:09,916 Not only for me 1009 01:06:09,918 --> 01:06:12,478 our child, but also for us. 1010 01:06:15,638 --> 01:06:18,996 Life has never been simpler and 1011 01:06:18,998 --> 01:06:20,278 and yet so complicated. 1012 01:06:29,240 --> 01:06:29,797 Although this can 1013 01:06:29,799 --> 01:06:31,079 come as a surprise 1014 01:06:31,359 --> 01:06:32,758 I wanted you to know that I am 1015 01:06:32,760 --> 01:06:34,959 he decided to leave Baltonsborough. 1016 01:06:37,561 --> 01:06:38,918 This is by no means a reflection 1017 01:06:38,920 --> 01:06:40,560 about the life we spent together, 1018 01:06:41,241 --> 01:06:42,921 but about the need for a new beginning. 1019 01:07:00,003 --> 01:07:01,480 Before you left, it became obvious 1020 01:07:01,523 --> 01:07:02,320 that you started 1021 01:07:02,322 --> 01:07:03,842 reconsider our differences. 1022 01:07:04,883 --> 01:07:05,642 So this letter 1023 01:07:05,644 --> 01:07:06,964 comes with a choice, 1024 01:07:07,524 --> 01:07:09,041 which you are free to do without 1025 01:07:09,043 --> 01:07:10,403 condemnation or contempt. 1026 01:07:12,724 --> 01:07:13,562 No matter how you 1027 01:07:13,564 --> 01:07:14,364 decide to answer 1028 01:07:14,604 --> 01:07:16,163 know that our child will 1029 01:07:16,165 --> 01:07:16,885 I only ever know you 1030 01:07:16,925 --> 01:07:18,404 as the man you were, 1031 01:07:19,205 --> 01:07:20,605 the hero you've become 1032 01:07:21,925 --> 01:07:23,322 and the boy who 1033 01:07:23,324 --> 01:07:24,724 he stole my broken heart. 1034 01:07:26,366 --> 01:07:28,446 Yours forever, Rachel. 1035 01:07:31,886 --> 01:07:32,966 Tickets, please.