1 00:03:23,939 --> 00:03:25,507 Eat up! 2 00:03:32,748 --> 00:03:35,483 One day you'll never see me again. 3 00:03:36,719 --> 00:03:38,386 That's right, Charlie. 4 00:03:39,755 --> 00:03:41,623 The farm life may be it for you, 5 00:03:41,657 --> 00:03:43,357 but it sure ain't for me. 6 00:03:45,928 --> 00:03:47,162 I'm special. 7 00:03:47,196 --> 00:03:50,866 Mama's gonna feel real stupid when she finds out, won't she? 8 00:03:59,407 --> 00:04:02,745 One day, the whole world's gonna know my name. 9 00:04:03,712 --> 00:04:06,582 You agree, don't you, Mary? 10 00:04:07,850 --> 00:04:10,485 Oh. Why, thank you. 11 00:04:20,562 --> 00:04:23,264 I do love a good audience. 12 00:04:28,369 --> 00:04:30,939 Y'all see me for who I really am. 13 00:04:37,546 --> 00:04:39,014 A star. 14 00:04:48,356 --> 00:04:50,993 What are you doing in here, Mr. Goose? 15 00:05:38,472 --> 00:05:39,942 Theda! 16 00:05:44,780 --> 00:05:46,347 Go on, girl. 17 00:05:55,791 --> 00:05:57,526 Take it. 18 00:06:24,586 --> 00:06:27,956 You aren't to indulge in any more such foolishness. 19 00:06:27,990 --> 00:06:30,125 It's just dancing, Mama. 20 00:06:30,158 --> 00:06:32,561 It's selfish is what it is. 21 00:06:32,594 --> 00:06:34,129 With all the farmhands gone, 22 00:06:34,162 --> 00:06:36,265 I can't do everything around here myself. 23 00:06:40,135 --> 00:06:41,570 I help. 24 00:06:56,852 --> 00:06:58,987 Anything for me in the post today? 25 00:06:59,021 --> 00:07:00,155 No. 26 00:07:05,894 --> 00:07:08,897 It says the Allies have taken control of France. 27 00:07:08,931 --> 00:07:10,832 You can read it after supper. 28 00:07:10,866 --> 00:07:12,801 But, Mama, this could mean the end of the war! 29 00:07:12,834 --> 00:07:15,103 Do as I ask, Pearl. 30 00:07:15,137 --> 00:07:18,173 I don't want to hear about any more dead Germans tonight. 31 00:07:28,784 --> 00:07:30,719 Supper's ready, Daddy. 32 00:07:37,225 --> 00:07:38,293 Bless us, O' Lord, 33 00:07:38,327 --> 00:07:40,696 and these thy gifts which we are about 34 00:07:40,729 --> 00:07:42,264 to receive from thy bounty 35 00:07:42,297 --> 00:07:45,767 through Christ our Lord. Amen. 36 00:07:45,801 --> 00:07:46,902 Amen. 37 00:08:26,808 --> 00:08:29,044 "My precious Pearl. 38 00:08:29,077 --> 00:08:32,881 "It feels as if it has been an eternity without you. 39 00:08:32,914 --> 00:08:34,950 "All we do is walk, it seems. 40 00:08:34,983 --> 00:08:38,253 "I never know if we'll get to where they say we're going. 41 00:08:38,286 --> 00:08:40,822 "They have us chew on bouillon cubes 42 00:08:40,856 --> 00:08:42,824 "so we don't notice the pains in our feet. 43 00:08:42,858 --> 00:08:46,328 "I find it most frightening at night in the trenches. 44 00:08:46,361 --> 00:08:47,596 "The mortar shells are deafening. 45 00:08:47,629 --> 00:08:51,066 "Many soldiers have gone mad with the fear. 46 00:08:51,099 --> 00:08:52,200 "Carnage from the gas 47 00:08:52,234 --> 00:08:54,603 "has shown me things I won't soon forget, 48 00:08:54,636 --> 00:08:56,805 "and thinking of you has been my only reprieve. 49 00:08:56,838 --> 00:08:59,841 "I will always be proud to serve my country, 50 00:08:59,875 --> 00:09:02,044 "but one thing this war has made clear 51 00:09:02,077 --> 00:09:04,212 "is that I cannot wait to return home 52 00:09:04,246 --> 00:09:05,781 "and begin our life together. 53 00:09:05,814 --> 00:09:08,350 "I never want to be away from you again. 54 00:09:08,383 --> 00:09:10,218 "Till death do us part. 55 00:09:10,252 --> 00:09:13,155 "Your loving husband, Howard." 56 00:09:28,270 --> 00:09:30,105 I'll go to town tomorrow. 57 00:09:32,374 --> 00:09:34,209 Pick up more medicine. 58 00:09:39,714 --> 00:09:42,084 Which means I get to stop by the pictures. 59 00:09:44,820 --> 00:09:47,022 Just don't tell Mama. 60 00:09:47,055 --> 00:09:50,225 They show all the best dancers at the pictures. 61 00:09:55,664 --> 00:09:58,033 I could be on the line with those girls one day. 62 00:10:00,235 --> 00:10:01,603 I know I could. 63 00:10:14,983 --> 00:10:16,184 Pearl. 64 00:10:17,786 --> 00:10:20,122 I didn't want to waste the hot water. 65 00:10:23,391 --> 00:10:26,194 The money for his medicine is on the kitchen table. 66 00:10:31,032 --> 00:10:33,435 Remember to cover your face. 67 00:10:33,468 --> 00:10:35,837 And don't linger close to anyone. 68 00:10:35,871 --> 00:10:39,274 Papers are warning of a lethal resurgence. 69 00:10:39,307 --> 00:10:42,344 God forbid sickness returns to our home. 70 00:11:09,771 --> 00:11:11,439 The time is now... 71 00:11:18,480 --> 00:11:19,981 Two-bits, please. 72 00:12:58,413 --> 00:12:59,981 Did you enjoy the picture? 73 00:13:06,354 --> 00:13:07,355 Cigarette? 74 00:13:09,257 --> 00:13:10,392 Oh, go on. I don't have the bug. 75 00:13:17,098 --> 00:13:18,233 You like the movies? 76 00:13:19,034 --> 00:13:20,402 I like dancing. 77 00:13:20,435 --> 00:13:22,605 Oh, a future Tiller Girl. 78 00:13:22,638 --> 00:13:24,072 I can see it now. 79 00:13:24,105 --> 00:13:26,074 I wish. 80 00:13:26,107 --> 00:13:27,409 Why not? You're pretty enough. 81 00:13:31,346 --> 00:13:33,549 On account of a husband, I gather? 82 00:13:34,382 --> 00:13:35,551 He's overseas, 83 00:13:37,886 --> 00:13:40,523 but my father's infirmed, so I have to help at home. 84 00:13:40,556 --> 00:13:41,990 I'm sorry to hear that. 85 00:13:43,091 --> 00:13:44,959 You want to come watch the second show? 86 00:13:46,428 --> 00:13:47,563 Free admission. 87 00:13:50,365 --> 00:13:51,966 I'm the projectionist. 88 00:13:54,969 --> 00:13:57,472 I need to get going. 89 00:13:57,506 --> 00:14:01,076 Mama's expecting me, but I appreciate the, um... 90 00:14:01,109 --> 00:14:02,477 Stay there for just one minute, would you? 91 00:14:04,647 --> 00:14:05,880 Okay. 92 00:14:25,200 --> 00:14:26,602 From what you just saw. 93 00:14:27,670 --> 00:14:29,404 Aren't you showing it again? 94 00:14:29,437 --> 00:14:31,072 Ah... Sure, but it's only one frame. 95 00:14:31,106 --> 00:14:33,141 Nobody will notice once I splice it back together. 96 00:14:33,174 --> 00:14:34,275 You know, caring for your family 97 00:14:34,309 --> 00:14:35,511 during these times is admirable. 98 00:14:35,544 --> 00:14:37,312 You ought to take pride in that, 99 00:14:37,345 --> 00:14:39,447 but don't forget to live your life, too. 100 00:14:39,481 --> 00:14:40,549 I wouldn't mind seeing you 101 00:14:40,583 --> 00:14:43,051 up on that screen one day, missus... 102 00:14:43,985 --> 00:14:44,986 Pearl. 103 00:14:47,556 --> 00:14:49,558 Well, if you come back, 104 00:14:49,592 --> 00:14:51,960 knock on this door. I'm always here, and, 105 00:14:51,993 --> 00:14:54,062 well, I can run the pictures as much as I like. 106 00:14:54,396 --> 00:14:55,564 Thank you. 107 00:14:56,498 --> 00:14:57,499 I will. 108 00:17:25,446 --> 00:17:27,816 May I have this dance? 109 00:18:54,268 --> 00:18:55,804 I'm married! 110 00:19:09,384 --> 00:19:10,653 Shh... 111 00:20:22,658 --> 00:20:24,626 What took you so long? 112 00:20:24,660 --> 00:20:26,327 It's a far ride, Mama. 113 00:20:28,597 --> 00:20:29,932 What is on your head? 114 00:20:31,967 --> 00:20:33,702 Found it along the road. 115 00:20:34,703 --> 00:20:36,672 Do not bring it inside. 116 00:20:36,705 --> 00:20:38,507 It may be covered in germs. 117 00:20:41,710 --> 00:20:43,612 Wash your hair. 118 00:20:43,645 --> 00:20:45,514 If you're lucky, it's only full of lice. 119 00:20:46,915 --> 00:20:49,283 When you finish, your father needs changing. 120 00:20:50,318 --> 00:20:51,820 Don't let him sit in his mess. 121 00:20:58,426 --> 00:21:00,729 I saw a new picture today. 122 00:21:00,763 --> 00:21:03,932 You'd have liked it. The girls were all flawless. 123 00:21:03,966 --> 00:21:06,001 There's no room for even the tiniest 124 00:21:06,034 --> 00:21:09,071 lack of precision in a troupe like that. 125 00:21:09,104 --> 00:21:11,507 It takes absolute perfection. 126 00:21:11,540 --> 00:21:14,610 What a charmed life it must be to star in the movies. 127 00:22:08,396 --> 00:22:10,398 Are you still in there? 128 00:22:44,633 --> 00:22:46,902 Bless us, O' Lord, and these thy gifts 129 00:22:46,935 --> 00:22:50,005 which we are about to receive from thy bounty 130 00:22:50,038 --> 00:22:53,075 through Christ our Lord. Amen. 131 00:22:53,108 --> 00:22:54,375 Amen. 132 00:23:08,090 --> 00:23:10,092 Where is the rest of the money I lent you? 133 00:23:12,127 --> 00:23:15,097 - There was none. - I can count, Pearl. 134 00:23:16,131 --> 00:23:17,532 There are eight cents missing. 135 00:23:18,967 --> 00:23:21,803 I may have gotten some hard candy for the trip home. 136 00:23:27,676 --> 00:23:28,577 That is enough, then. 137 00:23:28,610 --> 00:23:31,013 You ate the candy, that was your supper. 138 00:23:31,046 --> 00:23:34,917 The food I worked hard to prepare alone is not. 139 00:23:36,251 --> 00:23:39,154 But, Mama, I rode all that way. I'm starving. 140 00:23:39,187 --> 00:23:41,556 You may have what's left of it in the morning. 141 00:23:45,928 --> 00:23:48,130 - Where are you going? - To bed! 142 00:23:48,163 --> 00:23:50,666 I did not excuse you from the table. 143 00:24:29,538 --> 00:24:30,806 I know that. 144 00:24:30,839 --> 00:24:32,674 And I am careful. 145 00:24:51,727 --> 00:24:53,028 Good. 146 00:25:11,913 --> 00:25:13,582 Please, Lord, 147 00:25:13,615 --> 00:25:17,052 make me the biggest star the world has ever known 148 00:25:17,085 --> 00:25:20,922 so that I may get far, far away from this place. 149 00:25:24,826 --> 00:25:25,994 Amen. 150 00:26:36,765 --> 00:26:38,934 Afternoon, Pearl! 151 00:26:38,967 --> 00:26:41,903 Hi, Mitsy! I like your dress. 152 00:26:42,370 --> 00:26:44,706 Oh, thank you. 153 00:26:44,739 --> 00:26:46,675 It feels wonderful to finally be able to 154 00:26:46,708 --> 00:26:48,643 don something pretty again. 155 00:26:48,677 --> 00:26:50,679 It's the first time we've left home in weeks. 156 00:26:50,712 --> 00:26:52,914 Mother is so afraid of getting ill. 157 00:26:52,948 --> 00:26:54,216 Mama, too. 158 00:26:54,249 --> 00:26:55,684 Well, we were a bit worried 159 00:26:55,717 --> 00:26:57,919 about the both of you being out here all alone, 160 00:26:57,953 --> 00:26:59,921 so we brought some food. 161 00:26:59,955 --> 00:27:01,389 That's very kind. 162 00:27:01,423 --> 00:27:02,958 How have you been getting on? 163 00:27:03,859 --> 00:27:05,894 Any new letters from Howard? 164 00:27:05,927 --> 00:27:07,395 - Uh-uh. - Oh, well... 165 00:27:07,429 --> 00:27:10,165 Mother has been riddled with worry. 166 00:27:10,198 --> 00:27:12,968 They say no news is good news, though. 167 00:27:13,001 --> 00:27:14,703 If only his pride hadn't gotten him 168 00:27:14,736 --> 00:27:16,838 involved in this dreadful war. 169 00:27:16,872 --> 00:27:17,973 You know we had a doctor 170 00:27:18,006 --> 00:27:19,975 willing to declare him ineligible? 171 00:27:20,008 --> 00:27:22,110 Anyone would've taken that opportunity. 172 00:27:22,144 --> 00:27:23,011 Not Howard. 173 00:27:23,044 --> 00:27:25,814 First, he runs off to become a farmer. 174 00:27:25,847 --> 00:27:27,115 Now, the army. 175 00:27:27,149 --> 00:27:31,186 The lengths my brother will go to just to spite his father. 176 00:27:31,219 --> 00:27:33,021 All this isolation has been enough 177 00:27:33,054 --> 00:27:34,789 to make one mad, hasn't it? 178 00:27:35,223 --> 00:27:37,259 It really has. 179 00:27:37,292 --> 00:27:39,694 No, we don't accept charity. 180 00:27:39,728 --> 00:27:42,164 Oh, for God's sake, Ruth. It's just a pig. 181 00:27:46,268 --> 00:27:48,170 Can I share a secret with you, Pearl? 182 00:27:52,307 --> 00:27:53,975 Mother would throttle me 183 00:27:54,009 --> 00:27:56,244 if she knew I was planning on attending. 184 00:27:56,278 --> 00:27:59,381 But there's a dance audition this Saturday at our church 185 00:27:59,414 --> 00:28:01,216 for a Christmas chorus line 186 00:28:01,249 --> 00:28:02,150 to bring merriment to folks 187 00:28:02,184 --> 00:28:04,386 throughout the state during the holidays. 188 00:28:04,419 --> 00:28:07,322 Word is, they're putting together a troupe 189 00:28:07,355 --> 00:28:09,491 and will be touring seven different cities 190 00:28:09,525 --> 00:28:10,859 before the year ends. 191 00:28:10,892 --> 00:28:12,761 Don't that sound exciting? 192 00:28:12,794 --> 00:28:15,063 I would love so much to be a part of it. 193 00:28:15,096 --> 00:28:16,331 So would I. 194 00:28:16,364 --> 00:28:18,333 We should go together then. 195 00:28:18,366 --> 00:28:21,136 But you can't tell a soul. 196 00:28:21,169 --> 00:28:22,437 I would never. 197 00:28:22,470 --> 00:28:24,906 Splendid. It'll be our secret. 198 00:28:24,940 --> 00:28:26,341 Mitsy! 199 00:28:27,075 --> 00:28:28,143 I better skedaddle. 200 00:28:28,176 --> 00:28:31,346 We got three more pigs to drop off this afternoon. 201 00:28:32,881 --> 00:28:34,916 Saturday at 11:00. 202 00:28:34,950 --> 00:28:36,351 Okay. 203 00:28:36,384 --> 00:28:38,353 Sister-in-laws have to stick together, right? 204 00:28:38,386 --> 00:28:40,388 Mitsy! 205 00:28:40,422 --> 00:28:42,924 - Time to go! - See you later, Pearl. 206 00:28:44,960 --> 00:28:46,161 Bye, Mitsy! 207 00:28:51,266 --> 00:28:53,902 Charlie, this could be it. 208 00:30:08,544 --> 00:30:09,911 Pearl? 209 00:30:19,588 --> 00:30:20,989 Pearl! 210 00:32:00,689 --> 00:32:02,023 Well, 211 00:32:02,056 --> 00:32:04,192 I didn't expect to see you again this soon. 212 00:32:24,078 --> 00:32:25,246 Have a seat. 213 00:32:36,057 --> 00:32:37,325 I can't believe you get to see 214 00:32:37,358 --> 00:32:39,427 the pictures every day for free. 215 00:32:39,461 --> 00:32:41,196 Yeah, not a bad gig, huh? 216 00:32:46,234 --> 00:32:48,269 Thank you. 217 00:32:50,238 --> 00:32:51,707 So, to what do I owe this pleasure? 218 00:32:53,776 --> 00:32:55,276 I've been thinking a lot about 219 00:32:55,310 --> 00:32:56,712 what you said to me the other day 220 00:32:56,745 --> 00:32:58,747 about not forgetting to live my life, 221 00:32:59,414 --> 00:33:01,015 and, well, 222 00:33:01,049 --> 00:33:03,786 there's a dance audition coming up at the church. 223 00:33:03,819 --> 00:33:05,420 Oh, I like the sound of that. 224 00:33:06,221 --> 00:33:08,456 So do I... 225 00:33:08,490 --> 00:33:11,326 But I've never really danced in front of anyone before. 226 00:33:13,094 --> 00:33:15,230 What if I'm not perfect? 227 00:33:15,263 --> 00:33:17,365 You can do anything if you want it bad enough. 228 00:33:18,834 --> 00:33:21,202 I want it. 229 00:33:21,236 --> 00:33:23,304 Then don't let anything stand in your way. 230 00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:27,208 What would you like to see? 231 00:33:27,810 --> 00:33:29,244 Palace Follies. 232 00:33:29,277 --> 00:33:32,113 Oh, come on. You saw that already. 233 00:33:32,146 --> 00:33:33,414 How about something different tonight? 234 00:33:33,448 --> 00:33:34,683 How about... 235 00:33:38,386 --> 00:33:41,456 How about a film nobody else has seen? 236 00:33:41,757 --> 00:33:42,758 Okay. 237 00:33:44,492 --> 00:33:45,528 I picked this one up while 238 00:33:45,561 --> 00:33:47,295 I was in the service in France. 239 00:33:53,468 --> 00:33:54,537 Do you live in here? 240 00:33:57,138 --> 00:34:00,509 I lay my head on that pillow from time to time, 241 00:34:00,543 --> 00:34:03,378 but I wouldn't say I live anywhere in particular. 242 00:34:03,411 --> 00:34:07,115 I'm what more civilized people refer to as bohemian. 243 00:34:08,551 --> 00:34:09,652 I don't know what that is. 244 00:34:09,685 --> 00:34:13,221 It means I can pack up and leave whenever I want to. 245 00:34:13,889 --> 00:34:16,090 Sounds like a dream. 246 00:34:16,124 --> 00:34:18,627 Just as long as I can keep from waking up. 247 00:34:44,319 --> 00:34:46,220 What is this? 248 00:34:46,254 --> 00:34:47,590 Just watch. 249 00:35:19,688 --> 00:35:22,591 Never seen anything like that before now, have you? 250 00:35:24,492 --> 00:35:26,494 There are all kinds of underground stag films 251 00:35:26,528 --> 00:35:27,730 like this out there. 252 00:35:29,497 --> 00:35:30,766 Is it legal? 253 00:35:30,799 --> 00:35:33,535 Doing it, yeah. 254 00:35:34,637 --> 00:35:36,237 Filming it, no. 255 00:35:37,405 --> 00:35:40,475 Not here, anyway. It will be eventually. 256 00:35:40,509 --> 00:35:44,178 People would pay an arm and a leg to see this. 257 00:35:44,212 --> 00:35:46,615 Pictures like this are going to revolutionize the industry 258 00:35:46,649 --> 00:35:49,918 and I, for one, plan on capitalizing early. 259 00:35:51,219 --> 00:35:53,354 It's reality. 260 00:35:53,388 --> 00:35:56,391 There's no denying we all share a fascination 261 00:35:56,424 --> 00:35:59,327 in seeing people as they truly are. 262 00:36:00,294 --> 00:36:02,163 I don't like reality. 263 00:36:05,901 --> 00:36:07,435 Where I live, I mean. 264 00:36:08,336 --> 00:36:09,505 So leave. 265 00:36:17,478 --> 00:36:19,280 It's not that easy. 266 00:36:19,313 --> 00:36:20,415 Well, sure it is. 267 00:36:20,448 --> 00:36:21,449 There's a road right out front there 268 00:36:21,482 --> 00:36:23,418 that'll take you all the way to New York City. 269 00:36:25,020 --> 00:36:27,589 One day my mother and father will be gone. 270 00:36:29,357 --> 00:36:31,325 I can do what I want then. 271 00:36:31,359 --> 00:36:32,728 What if that's too late? 272 00:36:34,495 --> 00:36:36,264 The fact and truth of the matter is, Pearl, 273 00:36:37,298 --> 00:36:39,635 you only get one take at this life. 274 00:36:39,668 --> 00:36:42,004 And if you don't make the most of it when you're young, 275 00:36:42,037 --> 00:36:43,872 you don't get a second chance. 276 00:36:46,942 --> 00:36:49,277 If only they would just die. 277 00:36:53,582 --> 00:36:54,583 Pardon? 278 00:36:57,986 --> 00:36:59,220 Nothing. 279 00:37:03,659 --> 00:37:06,995 It's real nice to be able to talk to someone for a change. 280 00:37:07,029 --> 00:37:09,531 Been cooped up on that farm for so long 281 00:37:09,565 --> 00:37:11,600 sometimes I worry that maybe 282 00:37:11,633 --> 00:37:14,268 I'm not the same as other people. 283 00:37:15,436 --> 00:37:18,406 Why would you ever want to be like everybody else? 284 00:37:20,075 --> 00:37:21,409 I don't know. 285 00:37:23,612 --> 00:37:26,849 Sometimes it just seems more peaceful, I guess. 286 00:37:37,826 --> 00:37:39,895 Did you mean what you said? 287 00:37:39,928 --> 00:37:42,330 About wanting to see me up on that screen? 288 00:37:43,799 --> 00:37:45,000 Sure, I did. 289 00:37:45,968 --> 00:37:47,936 I'd do anything to be up there. 290 00:37:49,738 --> 00:37:51,073 Well, then, you ought to go overseas 291 00:37:51,106 --> 00:37:52,808 when this pandemic ends. 292 00:37:52,841 --> 00:37:54,442 That's what I'm doing. 293 00:37:54,475 --> 00:37:56,812 The arts are so much more alive in Europe. 294 00:37:56,845 --> 00:37:58,781 You can be whoever you want to be there. 295 00:37:59,915 --> 00:38:01,382 Really? 296 00:38:01,415 --> 00:38:02,985 You could even be in pictures like this. 297 00:38:04,385 --> 00:38:05,621 I know I'd watch you. 298 00:38:12,094 --> 00:38:13,595 I should go now. 299 00:38:17,465 --> 00:38:18,466 Thank you. 300 00:38:19,467 --> 00:38:20,969 What for? 301 00:38:21,003 --> 00:38:22,538 For seeing me tonight. 302 00:39:48,123 --> 00:39:49,591 What are you staring at? 303 00:40:32,167 --> 00:40:33,869 Theda! 304 00:40:43,912 --> 00:40:45,479 I'm leaving soon. 305 00:40:50,752 --> 00:40:53,088 I can't stay here any longer. 306 00:40:54,890 --> 00:40:56,959 Howard was supposed to take me away. 307 00:40:59,728 --> 00:41:00,963 It'd be easier for me 308 00:41:00,996 --> 00:41:03,497 if I didn't feel like I was abandoning you. 309 00:41:05,734 --> 00:41:06,802 You understand that? 310 00:41:12,941 --> 00:41:15,844 I love you, Daddy, but this is no way to live. 311 00:41:19,915 --> 00:41:21,183 Pearl? 312 00:41:23,151 --> 00:41:24,619 What are you doing? 313 00:41:26,221 --> 00:41:28,023 Talking with Daddy. 314 00:41:31,693 --> 00:41:33,595 We need to get him back to the house. 315 00:41:36,698 --> 00:41:38,133 Why do you hate me, Mama? 316 00:41:42,004 --> 00:41:43,972 I only want what's best. 317 00:41:46,842 --> 00:41:48,543 When do I get what I want? 318 00:41:51,947 --> 00:41:53,015 One day you'll understand 319 00:41:53,048 --> 00:41:56,051 that getting what you want isn't what's important. 320 00:41:58,587 --> 00:42:00,622 Making the most of what you have is. 321 00:42:01,857 --> 00:42:04,893 Life rarely turns out how you expect. 322 00:42:04,926 --> 00:42:06,228 You need to be prepared for that 323 00:42:06,261 --> 00:42:07,996 if you ever want to be happy. 324 00:42:09,865 --> 00:42:11,099 Come back inside. 325 00:42:28,950 --> 00:42:30,652 Where are you? 326 00:43:44,793 --> 00:43:47,362 Stop staring at me. 327 00:44:48,957 --> 00:44:50,926 How'd you find that? 328 00:44:50,959 --> 00:44:54,095 I am not blind to what goes on around here. 329 00:44:54,129 --> 00:44:56,464 Take your dinner. Stay in the bunkhouse. 330 00:44:56,498 --> 00:44:58,133 But it's freezing out there! 331 00:44:58,166 --> 00:45:00,936 You should've thought of that before putting me at risk. 332 00:45:00,969 --> 00:45:03,972 Isolate yourself until we know you're not ill. 333 00:45:04,005 --> 00:45:05,273 That is what's right. 334 00:45:09,411 --> 00:45:12,013 There's a dance audition in town tomorrow. 335 00:45:15,183 --> 00:45:16,918 I'm going to it. 336 00:45:16,952 --> 00:45:18,453 No, you're not. 337 00:45:18,486 --> 00:45:21,223 - Yes, I am. - Why? 338 00:45:22,390 --> 00:45:24,292 Find out if I'm good enough. 339 00:45:25,293 --> 00:45:26,995 Good enough for what, Pearl? 340 00:45:32,033 --> 00:45:34,135 Something more than this. 341 00:45:37,806 --> 00:45:40,875 Where does all this ungratefulness stem from? 342 00:45:40,909 --> 00:45:44,045 How is it you find our life so beneath you? 343 00:45:44,079 --> 00:45:46,047 You've always had a roof over your head, 344 00:45:46,081 --> 00:45:48,183 food in your belly. 345 00:45:48,216 --> 00:45:50,352 Do you not think that came at great sacrifice 346 00:45:50,385 --> 00:45:52,320 from your father and I? 347 00:45:52,354 --> 00:45:55,457 Or do you think we are beneath you, too? 348 00:45:55,490 --> 00:45:57,292 If I'm meant to live out the rest of my days 349 00:45:57,325 --> 00:45:59,094 with you and Daddy on this farm, 350 00:45:59,127 --> 00:46:00,228 then so be it. 351 00:46:00,262 --> 00:46:02,931 But I'm only young once. 352 00:46:02,964 --> 00:46:05,834 If I go to this audition and I don't get picked, 353 00:46:05,867 --> 00:46:07,068 then I'll come home 354 00:46:07,102 --> 00:46:10,338 and I'll never speak of it again, I swear. 355 00:46:10,372 --> 00:46:12,073 But I have to know that I tried 356 00:46:12,107 --> 00:46:13,942 or I'm gonna regret it for the rest of my life. 357 00:46:13,975 --> 00:46:16,811 Please, Mama. You have no idea what I'm capable of. 358 00:46:18,581 --> 00:46:20,048 Oh, yes, I do. 359 00:46:21,483 --> 00:46:24,486 I've seen the things you've done in private, 360 00:46:25,554 --> 00:46:27,222 when you believe no one is watching. 361 00:46:28,624 --> 00:46:31,527 You think others won't notice? 362 00:46:31,560 --> 00:46:35,297 You can't keep your true self hidden forever, Pearl. 363 00:46:35,330 --> 00:46:38,333 They will notice eventually, and they will be frightened, 364 00:46:39,367 --> 00:46:40,802 just as I am. 365 00:46:42,304 --> 00:46:45,440 - You're wrong. - Am I? 366 00:46:45,473 --> 00:46:49,444 Then what a fine woman you hope to become, 367 00:46:49,477 --> 00:46:51,146 leaving your mother alone to rot 368 00:46:51,179 --> 00:46:54,215 so you can dance with a bunch of city whores. 369 00:46:54,249 --> 00:46:57,085 Let alone the illness you may contract and spread. 370 00:46:57,118 --> 00:46:59,020 You've seen what it does to your father. 371 00:46:59,054 --> 00:47:01,056 That's what you want for yourself and others? 372 00:47:01,089 --> 00:47:03,592 And maybe that is what you wish for me. 373 00:47:03,626 --> 00:47:06,261 - Of course not. - Stop lying! 374 00:47:06,294 --> 00:47:08,363 I can't stand the sound of it anymore! 375 00:47:08,396 --> 00:47:12,000 It's almost as abhorrent as your sinful behavior! 376 00:47:12,033 --> 00:47:15,236 You are not well, Pearl! 377 00:47:15,270 --> 00:47:17,906 It's only a matter of time before you hurt someone else. 378 00:47:17,939 --> 00:47:22,210 Malevolence is festering in you, I see it. 379 00:47:22,243 --> 00:47:24,379 And I will not, in good conscious, 380 00:47:24,412 --> 00:47:26,281 let you leave this farm again. 381 00:47:27,449 --> 00:47:29,217 You can't stop me. 382 00:47:29,250 --> 00:47:30,919 Oh, yes, I can. 383 00:47:30,952 --> 00:47:33,622 You don't want to know what I could do to you. 384 00:47:33,656 --> 00:47:37,660 I shoulder a burden you will never understand, 385 00:47:37,693 --> 00:47:39,628 spend my days feeding and wiping the snot 386 00:47:39,662 --> 00:47:41,930 off the face of the man I married. 387 00:47:41,963 --> 00:47:45,266 You dare sit there and talk to me about regret? 388 00:47:45,300 --> 00:47:48,370 I was supposed to be his wife, not his mother! 389 00:47:48,403 --> 00:47:51,106 Don't you ever speak that way to me again! 390 00:47:51,139 --> 00:47:52,474 Do you hear me? 391 00:47:53,408 --> 00:47:55,443 - I'm sorry. - No! You're not! 392 00:47:55,477 --> 00:47:57,312 Or you would stop all this! 393 00:47:57,345 --> 00:47:58,947 Here! Take it! 394 00:47:58,980 --> 00:48:02,050 That's what you really desire, isn't it? 395 00:48:02,083 --> 00:48:04,620 Perhaps I should kill him for you? 396 00:48:04,653 --> 00:48:07,122 That way you don't have to care for him any longer. 397 00:48:07,155 --> 00:48:10,125 Would that suit your selfish dreams better? 398 00:48:10,158 --> 00:48:12,293 Then we can both go to the dance audition! 399 00:48:12,327 --> 00:48:14,697 Your husband is gone. So is mine. 400 00:48:14,730 --> 00:48:16,498 Why should we be saddled with caring for them 401 00:48:16,532 --> 00:48:18,133 or the work of this farm? 402 00:48:18,166 --> 00:48:21,035 What about us getting what we want? 403 00:48:29,077 --> 00:48:31,246 I won't suffer for you any longer. 404 00:48:31,279 --> 00:48:34,482 You want to leave? Go. 405 00:48:34,517 --> 00:48:36,084 But when you fail... 406 00:48:37,485 --> 00:48:39,220 And you will fail... 407 00:48:40,556 --> 00:48:42,625 I want you to remember what it feels like 408 00:48:44,092 --> 00:48:48,963 because that's how I feel every time I look at you. 409 00:48:48,997 --> 00:48:53,067 Nearly everything I ever had has been taken from me, Pearl. 410 00:48:55,303 --> 00:48:57,706 What more do you want? 411 00:48:57,740 --> 00:49:00,743 I just don't want to end up like you, is all. 412 00:49:13,054 --> 00:49:15,356 I hate you! 413 00:49:17,325 --> 00:49:19,127 You harlot! 414 00:49:19,160 --> 00:49:21,463 I won't let you flaunt your arrogance in my face! 415 00:49:21,496 --> 00:49:24,567 - You are not better than me! - Yes, I am! 416 00:49:24,600 --> 00:49:26,735 I'm going to be a star! 417 00:49:26,769 --> 00:49:29,505 The whole world is going to know my name! 418 00:52:06,595 --> 00:52:09,197 Where are you going? It's not even 6:00 a.m. yet. 419 00:52:09,230 --> 00:52:10,833 I have to practice my routine. 420 00:52:10,866 --> 00:52:13,468 I need to be perfect for my audition today. 421 00:52:16,437 --> 00:52:18,574 You still think I'm pretty enough? 422 00:52:18,607 --> 00:52:20,909 Oh, not much has changed in the last 24 hours. 423 00:52:20,943 --> 00:52:22,511 Yes, it has. 424 00:52:22,544 --> 00:52:25,380 Oh. You forgot this last time. 425 00:52:26,982 --> 00:52:28,684 I'm glad you came back. 426 00:52:31,587 --> 00:52:33,522 So am I. 427 00:52:38,927 --> 00:52:40,663 Let me at least drive you home. 428 00:52:53,842 --> 00:52:55,443 Somebody you know? 429 00:52:58,614 --> 00:53:00,348 I'm not really sure. 430 00:53:01,016 --> 00:53:03,384 Well... 431 00:53:03,418 --> 00:53:04,920 It's hard to know who anyone is nowadays 432 00:53:04,953 --> 00:53:06,822 with all these masks people are wearing. 433 00:53:37,753 --> 00:53:38,854 Wait here a minute. 434 00:54:01,810 --> 00:54:03,946 Daddy, I'm so sorry. 435 00:54:25,399 --> 00:54:27,368 I'm going to get you cleaned up real soon, okay? 436 00:54:27,401 --> 00:54:28,637 I just have a guest right now. 437 00:54:28,670 --> 00:54:30,539 Shh! 438 00:54:42,684 --> 00:54:44,787 Ah. Ah. 439 00:54:59,433 --> 00:55:00,434 Okay, come in! 440 00:55:18,821 --> 00:55:19,955 This is my father. 441 00:55:24,059 --> 00:55:25,594 Pleased to meet you, sir. 442 00:55:33,836 --> 00:55:35,604 Want to go up to my bedroom now? 443 00:55:42,410 --> 00:55:44,478 I want off this farm forever. 444 00:55:45,981 --> 00:55:48,083 I don't know. It doesn't seem so bad. 445 00:55:49,718 --> 00:55:51,053 It is. 446 00:55:52,154 --> 00:55:55,123 What was that? 447 00:55:55,157 --> 00:55:57,626 Nothing. 448 00:55:57,659 --> 00:56:00,028 Tell me more about Europe. 449 00:56:00,896 --> 00:56:02,130 When can we go? 450 00:56:03,999 --> 00:56:06,001 Don't you think you should go check? 451 00:56:07,002 --> 00:56:08,103 No. 452 00:56:10,606 --> 00:56:11,974 All right. I'm sorry. 453 00:56:12,641 --> 00:56:13,675 Whatever that is, 454 00:56:13,709 --> 00:56:15,409 we can't just ignore it. 455 00:56:15,443 --> 00:56:16,912 It could be your father, for Christ's sake. 456 00:56:16,945 --> 00:56:18,780 It's not my father. 457 00:56:18,814 --> 00:56:21,683 Please don't go. 458 00:56:23,218 --> 00:56:24,452 What's the matter with you? 459 00:56:25,954 --> 00:56:27,522 Nothing. 460 00:57:18,140 --> 00:57:20,075 It's our dog. 461 00:57:20,108 --> 00:57:21,910 She made a mess in the kitchen while I was away, 462 00:57:21,944 --> 00:57:23,245 so I put her in the root cellar. 463 00:57:26,114 --> 00:57:27,616 I want to show you something. 464 00:57:34,656 --> 00:57:36,024 That's Charlie! 465 00:57:36,858 --> 00:57:39,127 She's always hungry. 466 00:57:39,161 --> 00:57:41,663 We can't afford to feed her like we used to. 467 00:57:41,697 --> 00:57:44,733 And over here, this is Mary. 468 00:57:44,766 --> 00:57:46,034 Ain't she a dish? 469 00:57:46,568 --> 00:57:47,836 Mmm. 470 00:57:48,770 --> 00:57:50,238 This is Francis. 471 00:57:51,540 --> 00:57:53,241 They're my best audience. 472 00:57:53,275 --> 00:57:57,145 I named each of them after my favorite picture stars. 473 00:57:57,179 --> 00:58:00,749 I've put on so many shows for them over the years. 474 00:58:00,782 --> 00:58:02,818 It'll be sad to say goodbye, but like they say, 475 00:58:02,851 --> 00:58:04,186 "If you're not moving forward in show business, 476 00:58:04,219 --> 00:58:05,486 "you're moving backwards." 477 00:58:06,588 --> 00:58:08,590 We used to have many more animals, 478 00:58:09,624 --> 00:58:10,826 but they all died. 479 00:58:11,994 --> 00:58:13,528 What about your dog? 480 00:58:13,562 --> 00:58:15,163 Huh? 481 00:58:15,197 --> 00:58:17,799 - What's its name? - We don't have a dog. 482 00:58:19,568 --> 00:58:21,903 I thought you said you, uh, did? 483 00:58:21,937 --> 00:58:23,505 In the cellar? 484 00:58:24,740 --> 00:58:25,741 Oh. 485 00:58:26,842 --> 00:58:30,846 Right. Yeah. 486 00:58:30,879 --> 00:58:34,916 Yeah, well, um... 487 00:58:35,884 --> 00:58:38,553 Oh, boy. 488 00:58:38,587 --> 00:58:40,756 Oh, I better be getting back, you know? 489 00:58:43,291 --> 00:58:44,926 - What? - Oh, I've got to go 490 00:58:44,960 --> 00:58:46,094 and screen the matinee, you know, 491 00:58:46,128 --> 00:58:47,729 but you gotta practice, remember? 492 00:58:47,763 --> 00:58:49,264 You gotta get those dance moves perfect. 493 00:58:50,232 --> 00:58:51,266 Now's not the time to be 494 00:58:51,299 --> 00:58:53,001 resting on your laurels, is it? 495 00:58:55,270 --> 00:58:56,905 Nice seeing you, Pearl. 496 00:59:00,275 --> 00:59:02,711 Did I do something wrong? 497 00:59:04,746 --> 00:59:05,747 No. 498 00:59:07,315 --> 00:59:09,785 Then why did you just go cold on me? 499 00:59:12,020 --> 00:59:13,722 I don't know what you mean. 500 00:59:14,222 --> 00:59:15,891 What did you see? 501 00:59:17,092 --> 00:59:18,660 I didn't see anything. 502 00:59:20,862 --> 00:59:22,864 You're lying. 503 00:59:22,898 --> 00:59:25,033 - No, I'm not. - Yes, you are. 504 00:59:26,768 --> 00:59:29,671 I know because I feel things very deeply. 505 00:59:31,139 --> 00:59:32,808 Look, I've got to get back to work, all right? 506 00:59:32,841 --> 00:59:34,242 - I'll... I'll see you later. - When? 507 00:59:34,276 --> 00:59:36,711 - What? - When will I see you? 508 00:59:36,745 --> 00:59:37,779 I don't know, Pearl. It's just an expression. 509 00:59:37,813 --> 00:59:39,147 You're not going to take me to Europe, are you? 510 00:59:39,181 --> 00:59:40,182 Tell me the truth. 511 00:59:42,818 --> 00:59:44,152 What did I do wrong? 512 00:59:44,186 --> 00:59:45,353 - Nothing. Calm down. - No! 513 00:59:45,387 --> 00:59:48,123 Why are you leaving me if I didn't do anything wrong? 514 00:59:48,156 --> 00:59:50,192 I don't understand! I thought you liked me! 515 00:59:50,225 --> 00:59:53,328 - I do like you. I just... - Tell me the truth! 516 00:59:53,361 --> 00:59:54,896 Why are you leaving me? What did you see? 517 00:59:54,930 --> 00:59:55,997 Why did you change? 518 00:59:56,031 --> 00:59:57,866 You're scaring me, Pearl. 519 00:59:58,934 --> 01:00:00,168 Okay? 520 01:00:02,270 --> 01:00:04,873 I wish you the best of luck with your audition. 521 01:00:04,906 --> 01:00:06,108 Sincerely. 522 01:00:29,030 --> 01:00:31,066 You're not gonna leave me here! 523 01:00:31,099 --> 01:00:34,002 I'm not staying on this farm! 524 01:00:36,872 --> 01:00:39,774 Nothing's going to keep me here! 525 01:00:47,983 --> 01:00:50,819 You hear me? 526 01:00:51,720 --> 01:00:53,922 Nothing! 527 01:00:57,125 --> 01:00:59,461 Not you! Not Howard! 528 01:00:59,494 --> 01:01:02,297 Not Mama! Nobody! 529 01:01:10,906 --> 01:01:12,440 No. No. 530 01:01:31,960 --> 01:01:34,229 I want you to remember what it feels like. 531 01:01:37,065 --> 01:01:39,935 'Cause that's how I felt every time you looked at me. 532 01:01:46,241 --> 01:01:48,343 Okay, Daddy. 533 01:01:48,376 --> 01:01:50,011 Let's get you cleaned up. 534 01:02:20,576 --> 01:02:23,311 I wish you wouldn't look at me like that. 535 01:02:57,245 --> 01:02:58,413 What do you think? 536 01:03:28,644 --> 01:03:30,979 Thank you for everything. 537 01:03:32,447 --> 01:03:35,317 I know you'll look down on me proudly. 538 01:03:42,891 --> 01:03:44,426 You are loved. 539 01:04:05,380 --> 01:04:08,316 Au revoir, poor Johnny! 540 01:04:50,091 --> 01:04:52,327 Oh, thank goodness you came. 541 01:04:52,360 --> 01:04:54,262 I was beginning to think you weren't going to show. 542 01:04:54,295 --> 01:04:55,997 Sorry. 543 01:04:56,030 --> 01:04:58,199 I had some chores to do around the house. 544 01:04:58,233 --> 01:05:00,935 Well, I've been in such a flap all by myself. 545 01:05:00,969 --> 01:05:02,470 I feel worse than I imagine I would 546 01:05:02,505 --> 01:05:04,607 had I contracted that awful flu. 547 01:05:06,307 --> 01:05:08,176 What's in the suitcases? 548 01:05:08,209 --> 01:05:10,412 All my things I need for going on the road. 549 01:05:10,445 --> 01:05:12,648 Wow. You're confident. 550 01:05:14,583 --> 01:05:18,153 Rumor has it they may only be taking one gal per town. 551 01:05:20,188 --> 01:05:21,456 It has to be me. 552 01:05:24,993 --> 01:05:28,196 I don't think you meant to say that out loud, Pearl. 553 01:05:28,229 --> 01:05:31,232 Well, if it's not me, then I hope it's you, right? 554 01:05:31,767 --> 01:05:33,268 It has to be me. 555 01:05:38,473 --> 01:05:39,708 Next. 556 01:05:52,387 --> 01:05:54,022 That's Dorothy Collins. 557 01:05:57,225 --> 01:05:59,461 Can't say I'm too saddened for her. 558 01:05:59,494 --> 01:06:03,064 Some people just think they're God's gift, you know? 559 01:06:03,097 --> 01:06:05,701 But they always get what's coming to them eventually. 560 01:06:09,471 --> 01:06:11,272 I feel bad saying that, actually. 561 01:06:11,306 --> 01:06:13,374 She's a nurse. 562 01:06:13,408 --> 01:06:15,744 I don't know how to do something like that. 563 01:06:15,778 --> 01:06:18,179 Oh, Pearl. I'm so nervous. 564 01:06:18,213 --> 01:06:20,081 What if they laugh me right off stage? 565 01:06:20,114 --> 01:06:21,717 I don't think I could handle that. 566 01:06:24,285 --> 01:06:25,754 How are you not scared? 567 01:06:28,223 --> 01:06:30,659 I guess I'm just more used to the feeling. 568 01:06:36,331 --> 01:06:37,499 Next. 569 01:06:53,616 --> 01:06:55,149 Oh, Lord. 570 01:07:04,158 --> 01:07:06,094 Switch places with me. 571 01:07:06,127 --> 01:07:08,229 I don't think I can do this. I'm too frightened. 572 01:07:08,263 --> 01:07:10,164 - What? - Come on, Pearl. 573 01:07:10,198 --> 01:07:12,668 Switch before they open the doors again. 574 01:07:13,636 --> 01:07:16,070 Come on. Move. 575 01:07:20,676 --> 01:07:22,511 Thank you. 576 01:07:23,444 --> 01:07:25,046 You're a good friend. 577 01:07:30,184 --> 01:07:31,352 Am I? 578 01:07:33,722 --> 01:07:35,089 Of course you are. 579 01:07:41,462 --> 01:07:43,699 Sister-in-laws have to stick together, right? 580 01:08:12,193 --> 01:08:13,361 Next. 581 01:08:14,262 --> 01:08:16,130 Your turn, Pearl. 582 01:08:16,164 --> 01:08:18,567 Time to show them what you can do. 583 01:08:18,601 --> 01:08:20,234 I'm gonna show them all. 584 01:08:20,936 --> 01:08:22,403 Break a leg. 585 01:09:25,601 --> 01:09:26,935 Ready, miss? 586 01:11:25,120 --> 01:11:26,622 Thank you. 587 01:11:28,557 --> 01:11:29,958 But it's gonna be a no. 588 01:11:45,641 --> 01:11:47,910 Pardon? 589 01:11:47,943 --> 01:11:50,879 Sorry, you're just not what we had in mind. 590 01:12:00,055 --> 01:12:02,524 Well, that was the best dancing I've ever done. 591 01:12:03,926 --> 01:12:06,995 Yes, it was very nice. 592 01:12:07,029 --> 01:12:10,699 But we already have plenty of gals like you in the troupe. 593 01:12:10,732 --> 01:12:13,669 We're looking for something different today. 594 01:12:13,702 --> 01:12:18,140 You know? More all-American, 595 01:12:18,173 --> 01:12:19,875 younger and blonde. 596 01:12:21,543 --> 01:12:23,411 Someone with X factor. 597 01:12:26,949 --> 01:12:28,050 What? 598 01:12:30,786 --> 01:12:31,920 Next! 599 01:12:37,893 --> 01:12:39,427 Come on. 600 01:12:40,062 --> 01:12:41,429 - Come on. - No. 601 01:12:42,496 --> 01:12:45,167 I'm afraid so. 602 01:12:45,200 --> 01:12:47,703 Come on, miss. Time to go. 603 01:12:52,708 --> 01:12:54,843 Please. 604 01:12:54,877 --> 01:12:56,979 You don't understand. I need this. 605 01:12:57,012 --> 01:13:00,448 Next in line, please. 606 01:13:00,481 --> 01:13:01,950 I can make it better. 607 01:13:01,984 --> 01:13:03,085 Come on now, darling. 608 01:13:03,118 --> 01:13:06,021 You don't want to make a scene and spoil everything. 609 01:13:06,054 --> 01:13:09,024 Please! Just give me one more chance. 610 01:13:10,491 --> 01:13:11,994 - Come on, now. - No. 611 01:13:12,928 --> 01:13:14,495 I'm a... I'm a star. 612 01:13:15,731 --> 01:13:18,567 Come on. Come on, miss. I'm sorry. 613 01:13:18,600 --> 01:13:20,836 - It's time to go. - No, I'm a star! 614 01:13:20,869 --> 01:13:21,937 Come on. 615 01:13:23,772 --> 01:13:28,442 Please! I'm a star! 616 01:13:28,476 --> 01:13:30,112 I'm sorry. It's time to go. 617 01:13:30,145 --> 01:13:32,547 Please, somebody help me! 618 01:13:32,581 --> 01:13:36,084 Please! Help me! Help me! 619 01:13:37,686 --> 01:13:39,420 No! 620 01:14:17,192 --> 01:14:18,492 Pearl? 621 01:14:20,929 --> 01:14:22,064 Pearl? 622 01:14:26,835 --> 01:14:28,603 How about I take you home? 623 01:14:58,233 --> 01:14:59,868 Is that our pig? 624 01:15:18,587 --> 01:15:20,088 Should I go and fetch your mother? 625 01:15:21,623 --> 01:15:23,058 No. 626 01:15:29,297 --> 01:15:31,867 How about I get you something nice to drink? 627 01:15:34,836 --> 01:15:36,204 Mama was right. 628 01:15:38,340 --> 01:15:40,575 I'm never getting off this farm. 629 01:15:41,710 --> 01:15:43,078 And where would you want to go? 630 01:15:44,379 --> 01:15:46,214 - Europe. - Europe? 631 01:15:46,248 --> 01:15:48,717 What on earth for? 632 01:15:48,750 --> 01:15:49,885 It'll be in ruins 633 01:15:49,918 --> 01:15:52,220 and you'll never get Howard back there, I'll tell you. 634 01:15:54,790 --> 01:15:56,158 Oh, come on, now. 635 01:15:56,191 --> 01:15:57,159 I know you're disappointed, 636 01:15:57,192 --> 01:15:59,828 but there's no sense in taking it this hard. 637 01:15:59,861 --> 01:16:02,130 It's just a lousy old church group. 638 01:16:02,164 --> 01:16:04,666 Those old dolts, 639 01:16:04,699 --> 01:16:08,804 they don't know the first thing about quality dancing. 640 01:16:09,871 --> 01:16:11,907 You don't understand. 641 01:16:11,940 --> 01:16:13,308 What don't I? 642 01:16:13,975 --> 01:16:15,110 Come on, Pearl. 643 01:16:15,977 --> 01:16:17,145 What's really the matter? 644 01:16:20,382 --> 01:16:22,117 I don't feel 645 01:16:23,418 --> 01:16:24,786 well. 646 01:16:27,656 --> 01:16:29,357 You're not coming down with something, are you? 647 01:16:29,391 --> 01:16:30,926 No. 648 01:16:30,959 --> 01:16:32,194 It's nothing like that. 649 01:16:32,227 --> 01:16:33,795 Oh, thank goodness. 650 01:16:33,829 --> 01:16:35,130 If I snuck out of the house 651 01:16:35,163 --> 01:16:38,033 and ended up bringing home nothing but the germ, 652 01:16:38,066 --> 01:16:40,836 my mother and father would just kill me. 653 01:16:42,938 --> 01:16:44,806 I'm worried there may be something 654 01:16:44,840 --> 01:16:46,775 real wrong with me, Mitsy. 655 01:16:48,977 --> 01:16:50,011 How do you mean? 656 01:16:51,213 --> 01:16:53,715 Seems like there's something missing in me 657 01:16:53,748 --> 01:16:55,784 that the rest of the world has. 658 01:16:57,319 --> 01:16:58,820 Have you told Howard? 659 01:17:00,689 --> 01:17:04,426 I've never spoken about it out loud to anyone. 660 01:17:04,459 --> 01:17:07,362 So afraid of what people might think. 661 01:17:07,395 --> 01:17:08,763 Pearl... 662 01:17:10,232 --> 01:17:12,134 Howard's your husband. 663 01:17:13,401 --> 01:17:15,170 He adores you. 664 01:17:15,203 --> 01:17:17,873 You shouldn't be afraid to tell him how you feel. 665 01:17:19,141 --> 01:17:21,710 I'm scared of what I might say. 666 01:17:21,743 --> 01:17:24,112 Well, practice on me first, then. 667 01:17:24,813 --> 01:17:26,281 Pretend I'm Howard, 668 01:17:26,314 --> 01:17:29,117 and you just say whatever's on your mind. 669 01:17:29,151 --> 01:17:31,052 - I can't. - Yes, you can. 670 01:17:32,120 --> 01:17:33,188 Go on. Get it all out. 671 01:17:35,023 --> 01:17:37,259 - Really? - Yes. 672 01:17:37,959 --> 01:17:38,994 Trust me. 673 01:17:51,740 --> 01:17:52,774 Howard... 674 01:17:59,314 --> 01:18:00,448 Go ahead, Pearl. 675 01:18:07,289 --> 01:18:09,925 I hate you so much for leaving me here, 676 01:18:09,958 --> 01:18:11,893 sometimes I hope you die. 677 01:18:15,096 --> 01:18:17,432 I'm sorry. 678 01:18:17,465 --> 01:18:20,435 I feel awful admitting that, but it's the truth. 679 01:18:23,438 --> 01:18:24,806 I was curious 680 01:18:26,107 --> 01:18:27,309 about other men. 681 01:18:29,177 --> 01:18:30,812 I'm sure you don't want to hear about 682 01:18:30,845 --> 01:18:32,447 a stranger satisfying your wife, 683 01:18:32,480 --> 01:18:34,382 and I swear it was only once. 684 01:18:35,050 --> 01:18:36,985 It was a mistake. 685 01:18:37,018 --> 01:18:39,988 It wasn't him that I wanted. I know that now. 686 01:18:40,021 --> 01:18:41,756 And I wish things could just go back 687 01:18:41,790 --> 01:18:43,191 to the way they were before, 688 01:18:43,225 --> 01:18:45,060 but I don't see how they could, 689 01:18:46,995 --> 01:18:48,964 not after the things I've done. 690 01:18:52,568 --> 01:18:55,170 What else have you done, Pearl? 691 01:18:55,203 --> 01:18:57,172 Oh, Howard. 692 01:18:57,205 --> 01:18:59,508 I realize how this all must sound. 693 01:19:00,976 --> 01:19:03,078 Honestly, there was a time I was flattered 694 01:19:03,111 --> 01:19:06,081 to have someone as handsome as you pine over me. 695 01:19:06,114 --> 01:19:08,250 You're such a good person. I know that. 696 01:19:09,552 --> 01:19:12,487 I made sure to always be mindful with your heart. 697 01:19:12,521 --> 01:19:15,023 I never wanted you to feel jealous. 698 01:19:16,358 --> 01:19:18,493 It's an awful feeling like a rot, 699 01:19:18,527 --> 01:19:22,430 the way it just twists and turns at your insides. 700 01:19:22,464 --> 01:19:24,533 I know that aching so well. 701 01:19:25,133 --> 01:19:27,369 I feel it. 702 01:19:27,402 --> 01:19:30,939 Whenever I see others whose lives come easy 703 01:19:32,340 --> 01:19:35,210 because the truth is, I'm not really a good person. 704 01:19:36,512 --> 01:19:37,680 Pearl, I think I should just... 705 01:19:37,713 --> 01:19:40,415 The reason I kept my eyes to the ground around other men 706 01:19:40,448 --> 01:19:42,217 was never to avoid hurting you. 707 01:19:44,319 --> 01:19:46,488 It's because I understood how lucky I was 708 01:19:46,522 --> 01:19:48,890 to have your attention. 709 01:19:48,923 --> 01:19:52,460 I may be a poor farm girl, Howard, but I'm not stupid. 710 01:19:52,494 --> 01:19:56,164 I spotted you the moment you came to live with us. 711 01:19:56,197 --> 01:19:58,300 You worked hard like the other farmhands, 712 01:19:58,333 --> 01:20:00,068 but you were different. 713 01:20:00,101 --> 01:20:02,137 You're from somewhere. 714 01:20:02,170 --> 01:20:03,905 A nice, comfortable place 715 01:20:03,938 --> 01:20:06,308 that you could return to whenever you wanted. 716 01:20:08,577 --> 01:20:10,912 I'm so desperate to have that. 717 01:20:12,881 --> 01:20:15,016 All my life, I've wanted off this farm 718 01:20:15,050 --> 01:20:16,985 and you were my ticket out. 719 01:20:18,253 --> 01:20:19,854 So... 720 01:20:19,888 --> 01:20:23,258 I made sure to never let you see who I really was. 721 01:20:23,291 --> 01:20:25,860 It worked like a charm, too. 722 01:20:25,894 --> 01:20:28,263 Then when you finally brought me back 723 01:20:28,296 --> 01:20:30,065 to your home to meet your family, 724 01:20:30,098 --> 01:20:31,534 it was just as I hoped. 725 01:20:33,335 --> 01:20:35,403 A life straight out of the pictures. 726 01:20:37,272 --> 01:20:39,407 At least that's what it felt like to me. 727 01:20:42,043 --> 01:20:43,211 And you didn't want it. 728 01:20:46,549 --> 01:20:48,316 You just wanted to stay here on our farm, 729 01:20:48,350 --> 01:20:50,185 and that made me so angry. 730 01:20:51,319 --> 01:20:52,655 How could you? 731 01:20:52,688 --> 01:20:55,890 I'm certain you knew I hated it, you must've. 732 01:20:55,924 --> 01:20:57,992 How could you be so selfish and cruel 733 01:20:58,026 --> 01:21:00,061 after all I've done to make you happy? 734 01:21:05,433 --> 01:21:08,136 I was even pregnant with your baby. 735 01:21:12,941 --> 01:21:16,277 I never wanted to be a mother. 736 01:21:16,311 --> 01:21:19,981 I loathed the feeling of it growing inside me. 737 01:21:20,014 --> 01:21:21,584 It felt like sickness. 738 01:21:23,652 --> 01:21:27,556 Pulling and sucking on me like some needy animal in a barn. 739 01:21:29,324 --> 01:21:31,594 How could I be responsible for another life? 740 01:21:32,561 --> 01:21:34,462 Life terrifies me. 741 01:21:34,496 --> 01:21:37,332 It's harsh, and bleak, and draining. 742 01:21:39,602 --> 01:21:42,070 I was so relieved when it died. 743 01:21:42,103 --> 01:21:44,038 It was one less weight keeping me trapped here, 744 01:21:44,072 --> 01:21:46,509 but then the war came and you left me, too. 745 01:21:47,510 --> 01:21:49,645 Why did you leave me, Howard? 746 01:21:56,217 --> 01:21:58,052 I hate feeling like this. 747 01:21:58,621 --> 01:22:01,022 So pathetic. 748 01:22:01,055 --> 01:22:03,425 Do people like you ever feel this way? 749 01:22:04,159 --> 01:22:05,293 I figure you don't. 750 01:22:05,326 --> 01:22:07,462 You seem so perfect all the time. 751 01:22:07,495 --> 01:22:10,131 Lord must've been generous to you. 752 01:22:10,165 --> 01:22:12,568 He never answers any of my prayers. 753 01:22:12,601 --> 01:22:15,103 I don't know why. What did I do? 754 01:22:15,136 --> 01:22:17,205 What is wrong with me? 755 01:22:17,238 --> 01:22:19,441 Please, just tell me so maybe I can get better. 756 01:22:19,474 --> 01:22:21,042 I don't want to end up like Mama. 757 01:22:21,075 --> 01:22:22,745 I want to be dancing up on the screen 758 01:22:22,778 --> 01:22:24,979 like the pretty gals in the pictures. 759 01:22:26,314 --> 01:22:29,017 I want what they have so badly, 760 01:22:29,050 --> 01:22:30,586 to be perfect, 761 01:22:30,619 --> 01:22:33,288 to be loved from as many people as possible 762 01:22:33,321 --> 01:22:36,057 to make up for all my time spent suffering. 763 01:22:38,761 --> 01:22:40,729 Sometimes I wake in the middle of the night 764 01:22:40,763 --> 01:22:43,699 and the fear washes over me, 'cause what if this is it? 765 01:22:46,067 --> 01:22:47,703 What if this is right where I belong? 766 01:22:53,441 --> 01:22:54,610 I'm a failure. 767 01:22:56,044 --> 01:22:57,178 I'm not pretty 768 01:22:58,681 --> 01:23:01,115 or naturally pleasant, or friendly. 769 01:23:01,717 --> 01:23:03,184 I'm not smart, 770 01:23:03,819 --> 01:23:05,621 or funny, or confident. 771 01:23:08,056 --> 01:23:10,458 I'm exactly what Mama said I was, weak. 772 01:23:11,794 --> 01:23:14,195 I don't know why. What did I do? 773 01:23:14,229 --> 01:23:16,064 Why wasn't my family like yours? 774 01:23:16,097 --> 01:23:19,133 I hate what it feels like to be me and not you. 775 01:23:19,167 --> 01:23:21,102 I'm so scared that when you finally come home, 776 01:23:21,135 --> 01:23:22,403 you'll see me and be frightened 777 01:23:22,437 --> 01:23:24,172 like everyone else is. 778 01:23:27,442 --> 01:23:29,477 I know what I've done, 779 01:23:29,512 --> 01:23:30,713 the bad things, 780 01:23:31,747 --> 01:23:36,150 terrible, awful, murderous things. 781 01:23:36,184 --> 01:23:38,621 I regret them now, but I liked how they felt. 782 01:23:38,654 --> 01:23:40,488 I wish I didn't, but I did. 783 01:23:42,290 --> 01:23:45,426 At first, it was only animals smaller than myself. 784 01:23:46,361 --> 01:23:47,462 Nothing with feelings. 785 01:23:47,495 --> 01:23:49,063 Nothing that could hurt me back. 786 01:23:50,298 --> 01:23:51,399 It felt good. 787 01:23:52,467 --> 01:23:54,269 Killing's easier than you think, 788 01:23:55,671 --> 01:23:57,105 till recently with Mama 789 01:23:57,138 --> 01:23:58,541 and the boy from the picture house. 790 01:23:58,574 --> 01:23:59,642 They were different. 791 01:24:00,441 --> 01:24:02,277 They were more meaningful. 792 01:24:02,310 --> 01:24:04,145 I hurt them so they too might know 793 01:24:04,178 --> 01:24:05,280 what it feels like to suffer, 794 01:24:05,313 --> 01:24:06,782 but poor Daddy didn't deserve that. 795 01:24:06,815 --> 01:24:09,083 I wish I hadn't done what I did. 796 01:24:11,720 --> 01:24:13,221 Mama meant well. 797 01:24:14,389 --> 01:24:16,659 She had a hard life. 798 01:24:16,692 --> 01:24:18,493 She only wanted a home to feel safe in. 799 01:24:18,527 --> 01:24:19,628 I can see that. 800 01:24:20,495 --> 01:24:21,564 I thought I hated her, 801 01:24:21,597 --> 01:24:23,364 but I just want to feel safe, too. 802 01:24:28,336 --> 01:24:29,404 Lord... 803 01:24:30,673 --> 01:24:33,542 I made such a mess of things. 804 01:24:34,743 --> 01:24:36,812 I don't know how much more I can take. 805 01:24:38,681 --> 01:24:40,181 I need to clean this up. 806 01:24:41,316 --> 01:24:43,552 All of it. 807 01:24:43,586 --> 01:24:46,522 I need to make things right before you see me again. 808 01:24:48,222 --> 01:24:49,858 Maybe if I can turn this farm 809 01:24:49,892 --> 01:24:51,627 into a home for us like you wanted, 810 01:24:51,660 --> 01:24:53,494 things will finally be different. 811 01:24:53,529 --> 01:24:56,264 I can forgive. 812 01:24:57,165 --> 01:24:58,767 I can be who you want me to be 813 01:24:59,635 --> 01:25:01,369 if you'll just stay with me. 814 01:25:02,771 --> 01:25:04,506 Would you do that, please? 815 01:25:07,375 --> 01:25:09,344 I can't be all by myself anymore. 816 01:25:09,377 --> 01:25:10,445 It's too hard. 817 01:25:14,917 --> 01:25:16,752 We can love each other. 818 01:25:16,785 --> 01:25:18,721 I'll do that for you 819 01:25:18,754 --> 01:25:21,890 if you really meant all that "till death do us part." 820 01:25:24,192 --> 01:25:25,426 It'd be enough, 821 01:25:27,428 --> 01:25:30,298 just you and me here on this farm. 822 01:25:36,905 --> 01:25:39,273 All I really want is to be loved. 823 01:25:42,911 --> 01:25:45,614 I'm having such a hard time without it lately. 824 01:26:22,518 --> 01:26:25,319 I should probably get going now. 825 01:26:25,353 --> 01:26:28,356 Mother will be wondering where I am if I'm not home soon. 826 01:26:37,298 --> 01:26:38,767 Are you frightened of me? 827 01:26:40,836 --> 01:26:41,837 No. 828 01:26:44,973 --> 01:26:46,307 Of course not, Pearl. 829 01:26:49,878 --> 01:26:51,479 Do you think I'm sick? 830 01:26:53,582 --> 01:26:54,583 No. 831 01:26:56,819 --> 01:26:57,820 Thank you. 832 01:27:01,724 --> 01:27:03,391 I'm happy for you. 833 01:27:06,695 --> 01:27:08,296 What? 834 01:27:08,329 --> 01:27:09,497 For getting the part 835 01:27:10,532 --> 01:27:12,668 in the dance troupe. You deserved it. 836 01:27:14,837 --> 01:27:17,606 - I didn't get the part. - It's okay. 837 01:27:18,774 --> 01:27:20,008 You don't have to pretend anymore. 838 01:27:20,042 --> 01:27:21,610 My feelings won't be hurt. 839 01:27:23,011 --> 01:27:25,246 If it wasn't me, I'm glad it was you, right? 840 01:27:28,483 --> 01:27:30,552 - But, Pearl, I... - Please... 841 01:27:32,020 --> 01:27:33,421 Don't lie to me. 842 01:27:40,095 --> 01:27:42,931 Well, yes. 843 01:27:45,501 --> 01:27:46,668 Thank you. 844 01:27:49,671 --> 01:27:51,573 It's going to be real swell, 845 01:27:52,641 --> 01:27:54,643 dancing around the state. 846 01:27:57,846 --> 01:28:01,449 I hope you can come see the show sometime. 847 01:28:05,087 --> 01:28:07,321 You always get everything you want. 848 01:28:09,758 --> 01:28:11,827 You're younger and more blonde. 849 01:28:14,029 --> 01:28:16,665 I have to go now. 850 01:28:20,636 --> 01:28:22,938 You're not gonna say anything, are you? 851 01:28:24,673 --> 01:28:25,841 No. 852 01:28:32,514 --> 01:28:34,750 I really do love Howard. 853 01:28:37,586 --> 01:28:38,754 I know. 854 01:28:39,922 --> 01:28:41,489 Nobody has to know. 855 01:28:42,524 --> 01:28:43,792 I can fix things. 856 01:28:45,426 --> 01:28:47,596 It can be our secret, Mitsy. 857 01:29:38,647 --> 01:29:39,915 Help! 858 01:29:41,116 --> 01:29:42,450 Help me! 859 01:29:43,218 --> 01:29:45,654 Somebody, please help! 860 01:29:45,687 --> 01:29:47,623 No! 861 01:29:48,123 --> 01:29:49,591 No, please. 862 01:29:49,625 --> 01:29:51,727 Help! Help! 863 01:30:03,505 --> 01:30:05,439 Help! 864 01:30:08,043 --> 01:30:09,811 Help me, please! 865 01:30:09,845 --> 01:30:11,647 Help! 866 01:30:20,756 --> 01:30:22,791 Please, no! No! 867 01:30:23,558 --> 01:30:24,860 I won't tell anyone! 868 01:30:24,893 --> 01:30:26,460 Please, I swear! 869 01:30:26,828 --> 01:30:28,563 No! 870 01:30:28,597 --> 01:30:32,100 Please! I'll do anything you want. 871 01:30:32,134 --> 01:30:35,203 It's not about what I want anymore, Mitsy. 872 01:30:35,237 --> 01:30:36,171 Please. 873 01:30:36,204 --> 01:30:38,907 It's about making the best of what I have. 874 01:30:38,941 --> 01:30:41,777 No! No! 875 01:30:42,945 --> 01:30:44,713 No! 876 01:33:50,398 --> 01:33:52,767 Bless us, O' Lord, 877 01:33:52,801 --> 01:33:55,437 and these thy gifts 878 01:33:55,470 --> 01:33:59,207 which we are about to receive from thy bounty, 879 01:34:01,042 --> 01:34:02,944 through Christ our Lord. 880 01:34:04,312 --> 01:34:05,747 Amen. 881 01:34:45,754 --> 01:34:47,055 So long, y'all. 882 01:35:05,140 --> 01:35:06,274 Pearl? 883 01:35:12,515 --> 01:35:13,748 Pearl? 884 01:35:35,937 --> 01:35:36,938 Howard? 885 01:35:40,175 --> 01:35:42,511 I'm so happy you're home.