1 00:00:14,350 --> 00:00:16,890 I knew there were going to be animals here, but I didn't think I was going to 2 00:00:16,890 --> 00:00:17,648 be stopped. 3 00:00:17,650 --> 00:00:18,850 I'm kind of glad I'm going home. 4 00:00:19,310 --> 00:00:22,510 I have no way to defend myself. I'm not sleeping here under a piece of canvas 5 00:00:22,510 --> 00:00:24,810 with a bunch of wolves behind me. That was enough for me. 6 00:00:25,090 --> 00:00:26,049 Hello, bear. 7 00:00:26,050 --> 00:00:27,170 You stay on your side. 8 00:00:27,530 --> 00:00:31,030 I got a big problem. I lost my ferro rod. I can't keep this fire going 9 00:00:31,030 --> 00:00:32,030 indefinitely. 10 00:00:32,189 --> 00:00:33,190 Rude. 11 00:00:33,710 --> 00:00:34,710 Oh. 12 00:00:34,890 --> 00:00:35,890 Hey, bear. 13 00:00:36,130 --> 00:00:38,930 I think I found a way to filtrate water without fire. 14 00:00:39,130 --> 00:00:40,130 Bottoms up. 15 00:00:40,230 --> 00:00:43,270 Look back at your life and think, where did it go? Just poof. 16 00:00:43,840 --> 00:00:47,900 When you get alone, all of it comes up, every mistake you've ever made. 17 00:00:49,420 --> 00:00:52,760 You wonder if the people in your life really know how much you love them. 18 00:00:54,560 --> 00:00:55,880 This is going to be a bitch. 19 00:00:56,400 --> 00:00:58,240 We have to film it, and we're totally alone. 20 00:00:58,540 --> 00:01:01,460 Nobody knows what it's like here, except for the ten guys out here doing it. 21 00:01:02,320 --> 00:01:03,460 There's nobody here but me. 22 00:01:03,700 --> 00:01:05,019 It's so hard doing this. 23 00:01:05,580 --> 00:01:07,100 I'm scared to death right now. 24 00:01:07,560 --> 00:01:08,760 I feel like I'm starving. 25 00:01:10,960 --> 00:01:12,540 I'm ready to try to stop Hooger and Paul. 26 00:01:13,860 --> 00:01:16,160 The last man standing wins $500,000. 27 00:01:17,060 --> 00:01:18,740 I don't want to go home. I want to win. 28 00:01:19,080 --> 00:01:22,900 It's the chance in a lifetime, but it's not worth dying over. 29 00:01:57,290 --> 00:01:58,290 Hope I didn't scare you too bad. 30 00:01:58,930 --> 00:01:59,930 All right. 31 00:02:00,370 --> 00:02:01,570 This is my little calendar. 32 00:02:03,330 --> 00:02:08,090 I've got some notches on that bad boy in case I start to forget. 33 00:02:10,030 --> 00:02:11,890 Look what the weather's done to me blade. 34 00:02:15,110 --> 00:02:16,089 Constantly wet. 35 00:02:16,090 --> 00:02:18,890 It's dripping right now. I actually ought to put on some rain gear. 36 00:02:22,750 --> 00:02:23,810 Sky don't look good. 37 00:02:35,910 --> 00:02:41,410 I knew that coming here and doing this, my mind would be my biggest enemy. 38 00:02:42,610 --> 00:02:49,090 And let me tell you, brother, it is ripping me apart. My brain is just in a 39 00:02:49,090 --> 00:02:50,110 thousand different directions. 40 00:02:53,410 --> 00:02:55,050 I really don't want this tide to come in. 41 00:02:55,670 --> 00:02:58,910 When it comes in all the way, it's about a few feet from the greenery here. 42 00:02:59,530 --> 00:03:00,670 I wish I could stop it. 43 00:03:01,450 --> 00:03:04,350 While the tide comes in, I can't use this beach. I can't have this open air. 44 00:03:04,510 --> 00:03:05,790 I have to get back into the dungeon. 45 00:03:06,490 --> 00:03:08,570 And it's driving me absolutely freaking insane. 46 00:03:13,210 --> 00:03:15,230 It's so claustrophobic inside there. 47 00:03:15,610 --> 00:03:18,810 But just working in there and walking around is absolutely depressing. 48 00:03:22,050 --> 00:03:28,270 Everything in there is eating itself. It's just turning to mush. Every tree is 49 00:03:28,270 --> 00:03:30,390 being bombarded by moss. 50 00:03:31,660 --> 00:03:35,140 and it's just, I mean, it's almost completely mush. 51 00:03:37,080 --> 00:03:40,700 I mean, you can walk up to a stump and just put your hand on it, and your hand 52 00:03:40,700 --> 00:03:41,539 goes straight through. 53 00:03:41,540 --> 00:03:42,820 It's just so wet in here. 54 00:03:43,120 --> 00:03:46,680 I mean, look at that. Mushrooms growing out of the top of the trees. 55 00:03:48,380 --> 00:03:51,720 I mean, physically and mentally, this place will drain a human body. 56 00:03:54,100 --> 00:03:57,880 And I've spent a lot of my life in places where it was just absolutely 57 00:03:57,880 --> 00:03:58,880 horrible. 58 00:04:01,000 --> 00:04:04,540 I'm a retired military and currently I'm a trainer in Africa. 59 00:04:05,440 --> 00:04:06,440 Hello. 60 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:10,640 You know, I've done this enough over the past 15, 20 years through all my 61 00:04:10,640 --> 00:04:14,320 training and military training and time in combat and my job in Africa now. 62 00:04:14,720 --> 00:04:17,660 One thing I know is that some of the toughest people just snap. 63 00:04:17,920 --> 00:04:20,240 Their emotions can just go take hold of them and they're done. 64 00:04:20,779 --> 00:04:24,960 I'm hoping that my training is going to help me survive for as long as possible. 65 00:04:26,580 --> 00:04:30,220 But that flipping jungle, it's mentally... 66 00:04:31,240 --> 00:04:32,240 Eating my brain. 67 00:04:33,460 --> 00:04:37,240 Part of that could be dehydration or the beginning stages of dehydration. 68 00:04:38,040 --> 00:04:43,460 The tide's out, so I've got this semi-fresh brackish, hopefully fresh 69 00:04:43,460 --> 00:04:49,060 water that's been pumping out for a good while. And I don't want to take it too 70 00:04:49,060 --> 00:04:52,740 early because then all the salt water doesn't get pulled out and I end up 71 00:04:52,740 --> 00:04:55,080 drinking salt water and then I really will be hallucinating. 72 00:04:56,020 --> 00:04:59,500 So what I'm going to do is I'm going to go down here and grab some water. 73 00:05:00,110 --> 00:05:03,630 And I think I found a way to filtrate it here without fire. 74 00:05:04,530 --> 00:05:05,990 It's my wife's two-quart pot. 75 00:05:07,190 --> 00:05:08,590 She came to the marriage with this. 76 00:05:10,250 --> 00:05:11,250 I'm borrowing it. 77 00:05:11,630 --> 00:05:12,850 I'll return it, hopefully. 78 00:05:19,410 --> 00:05:24,450 It sure cleans it up nicely. 79 00:05:27,970 --> 00:05:28,970 Bon appetit. 80 00:05:59,760 --> 00:06:00,940 This is intense. 81 00:06:01,560 --> 00:06:03,220 That forest is so dense. 82 00:06:03,580 --> 00:06:08,460 It's so extremely hard to navigate through it. You have to constantly be 83 00:06:08,460 --> 00:06:10,480 climbing. It's really intense. 84 00:06:17,500 --> 00:06:19,460 I'm just having a hard time being here. 85 00:06:21,000 --> 00:06:22,000 I'm starving. 86 00:06:22,900 --> 00:06:24,340 I want to eat so bad. 87 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:29,740 I kind of have like a clock over my head right now, like a starvation clock. 88 00:06:30,540 --> 00:06:34,880 It all depends on if I can get fish over here, yes or no. 89 00:06:38,280 --> 00:06:39,280 Eagles. 90 00:06:43,580 --> 00:06:44,580 Look at that. 91 00:06:45,960 --> 00:06:46,960 Salmon. 92 00:06:47,720 --> 00:06:49,560 Yeah, that's why the eagles were here, for the fish. 93 00:06:50,620 --> 00:06:51,980 I think I just hit the jackpot. 94 00:06:52,780 --> 00:06:54,000 Look at the size of this river. 95 00:06:54,500 --> 00:06:55,500 Oh, man. 96 00:06:55,880 --> 00:07:00,540 I just found a salmon river that goes to the mountains, that's thick and pure, 97 00:07:00,660 --> 00:07:03,840 that has fish in it. That's exactly what I've been looking for. 98 00:07:05,240 --> 00:07:09,160 I'm going to set the net up low so I can try to catch the crab walking by. 99 00:07:09,680 --> 00:07:13,440 Because this river is loaded with dead fish, and they love to eat on that 100 00:07:13,440 --> 00:07:16,880 stuff. They love to eat on stuff that's just on the bottom, flesh and all that. 101 00:07:16,960 --> 00:07:21,360 So they're going to come walking up this river to where they smell the dead fish, 102 00:07:21,520 --> 00:07:23,420 and then they're going to run into my net. 103 00:07:25,870 --> 00:07:30,070 Now I'm going to put rocks along the bottom. My weights are holding down in 104 00:07:30,070 --> 00:07:34,930 the middle, but I just feel better with rocks on it as well. 105 00:07:35,870 --> 00:07:36,970 Give me an extra weight. 106 00:07:37,450 --> 00:07:42,210 I take a big grip up, and the current tries to take my net. I don't have to 107 00:07:42,210 --> 00:07:43,230 worry about it. It's weighted down. 108 00:07:50,330 --> 00:07:51,750 So I'm going to check my net tomorrow. 109 00:07:52,810 --> 00:07:53,830 Hopefully we've got some crabs. 110 00:07:54,570 --> 00:07:55,690 A fish would be nice, too. 111 00:08:10,670 --> 00:08:12,290 Right now, it's just dead calm. 112 00:08:13,290 --> 00:08:14,290 Tide's going out. 113 00:08:15,110 --> 00:08:17,790 It's like Christmas every time this tide starts to go out. 114 00:08:18,210 --> 00:08:20,390 I got all kinds of bull kelp washed up here. 115 00:08:20,850 --> 00:08:21,850 It snaps. 116 00:08:25,520 --> 00:08:27,080 It wasn't as crisp as I'd like. 117 00:08:28,180 --> 00:08:33,360 It should snap like celery. 118 00:08:35,760 --> 00:08:36,980 It smells fresh. 119 00:08:37,539 --> 00:08:43,480 Now what you want to do is pull the skin off, like a carrot or a potato, 120 00:08:43,780 --> 00:08:45,780 and then you can just eat it. 121 00:08:54,150 --> 00:08:55,150 Definitely salty. 122 00:08:57,810 --> 00:08:59,490 It'd be all right if I boiled it. 123 00:08:59,730 --> 00:09:06,350 I don't want to eat too much because it's a risk of getting 124 00:09:06,350 --> 00:09:07,350 dehydrated. 125 00:09:08,170 --> 00:09:12,290 But it doesn't really taste like much at all except seawater. 126 00:09:16,390 --> 00:09:18,710 It's got to have that good crunch because you can't eat it. It's 127 00:09:18,710 --> 00:09:19,710 decomposing. 128 00:09:27,880 --> 00:09:29,260 There's just wood everywhere. 129 00:09:29,660 --> 00:09:31,940 The resources here are unbelievable. 130 00:09:32,620 --> 00:09:36,640 You know, these logs just break loose from the logging. They just wash up. 131 00:09:36,780 --> 00:09:37,780 It's unbelievable. 132 00:09:38,280 --> 00:09:43,060 I don't see any reason to have to chop wood up in the bush. I mean, if I can 133 00:09:43,060 --> 00:09:47,020 get it up out of this tidal flat, get it somewhere where it'll start to dry out, 134 00:09:47,140 --> 00:09:51,260 even still I can split it up and it'll burn wet once you have an established 135 00:09:51,260 --> 00:09:54,140 fire. But the fire is the hard part. 136 00:09:54,640 --> 00:09:58,240 If I can get a fire going, I know I'll be okay here in the long term. I know 137 00:09:58,240 --> 00:10:01,280 this is a competition between me and myself, and maybe that's why I'm so 138 00:10:01,280 --> 00:10:03,840 frustrated by not performing better yet. 139 00:10:31,980 --> 00:10:33,480 Everything but the fire is fine. 140 00:10:33,860 --> 00:10:37,060 If I can get a fire going, I know I'll be okay here in the long term. 141 00:10:37,480 --> 00:10:41,140 I know this is a competition between me and myself, and maybe that's why I'm so 142 00:10:41,140 --> 00:10:44,100 frustrated by not performing better yet, but... 143 00:10:44,100 --> 00:10:54,080 I'm 144 00:10:54,080 --> 00:10:58,120 busting my friggin' arm right off this mound of... It's like concrete. 145 00:11:03,100 --> 00:11:07,500 There's the board I was too busy looking at instead of watching where I was 146 00:11:07,500 --> 00:11:08,500 walking. 147 00:11:08,720 --> 00:11:10,940 Real nice telephone pole theater. 148 00:11:11,460 --> 00:11:14,740 I'm going to go over here, dig out this and get it up where it won't wash away. 149 00:11:36,060 --> 00:11:37,460 Stupid. It's too heavy. 150 00:11:41,940 --> 00:11:44,820 Definitely having one of those, be careful what you wish for, you might 151 00:11:44,820 --> 00:11:45,820 just get it. 152 00:11:49,860 --> 00:11:52,040 Casting for the show started over six months ago. 153 00:11:53,200 --> 00:11:54,640 And it's all I could think about. 154 00:11:55,340 --> 00:11:57,120 I just really wanted to do it. 155 00:12:04,560 --> 00:12:07,400 I'd be, like, super afraid. 156 00:12:07,840 --> 00:12:09,080 Because you're afraid of the dark. 157 00:12:09,480 --> 00:12:10,720 I'm afraid of the dark. 158 00:12:11,160 --> 00:12:14,120 I'm not afraid of anything on the island other than myself, really. 159 00:12:14,780 --> 00:12:18,440 There's no boogeyman that's just out there murdering people. 160 00:12:19,060 --> 00:12:20,480 What about, like, bears? 161 00:12:21,240 --> 00:12:23,600 We have bears here. 162 00:12:23,940 --> 00:12:27,680 Day to day, it's just going to be keeping focused on what I'm doing at the 163 00:12:27,680 --> 00:12:29,040 moment. You have to be in the moment. 164 00:12:29,880 --> 00:12:31,920 It's like when you're running a race. 165 00:12:32,880 --> 00:12:37,180 You can't think about the 26 miles ahead of you. You got to think about what 166 00:12:37,180 --> 00:12:38,220 you're doing at the moment. 167 00:12:39,340 --> 00:12:43,980 You know, when it gets cold at night and I'm at home, I can put an extra blanket 168 00:12:43,980 --> 00:12:46,940 on the bed or snuggle up with my wife or my dogs. 169 00:12:48,300 --> 00:12:51,220 And here, I don't have anything. 170 00:12:53,220 --> 00:12:58,180 It's just me and this camera I'm talking to and nobody else to do anything, you 171 00:12:58,180 --> 00:12:59,180 know. 172 00:13:00,060 --> 00:13:01,060 Anyways. 173 00:13:01,770 --> 00:13:04,530 enough feeling sorry for myself and thinking about home. 174 00:13:26,650 --> 00:13:27,930 Here's my pot of water. 175 00:13:33,979 --> 00:13:38,580 Now that I've gotten water and my net has been out, my biggest problem right 176 00:13:38,580 --> 00:13:42,460 now is getting fire out here. I am beating up my ferro rod. 177 00:13:42,680 --> 00:13:46,700 I can easily get a fire with one strike. I mean, I've probably done hundreds so 178 00:13:46,700 --> 00:13:50,980 far, so I have to slow that down. I have to figure out how to get this started 179 00:13:50,980 --> 00:13:51,980 and way less strikes. 180 00:13:53,000 --> 00:13:54,680 Nice. There's my rolling boil. 181 00:13:56,700 --> 00:13:59,020 I'm going to gently take this off the fire. 182 00:13:59,220 --> 00:14:01,880 I'm going to let that cool down, and I'm going to have a drink. 183 00:14:03,630 --> 00:14:05,190 I just had an amazing idea. 184 00:14:06,270 --> 00:14:11,930 This is cedar bark. If I scrape it with my knife, like kindling, you can see it 185 00:14:11,930 --> 00:14:16,390 puffs up really well. I've tried to get flame in my ferro rod with that. It 186 00:14:16,390 --> 00:14:17,349 hasn't worked. 187 00:14:17,350 --> 00:14:20,150 But my fishing hooks go in this tin. 188 00:14:20,710 --> 00:14:23,670 I'm going to pack this cedar bark in here. 189 00:14:24,370 --> 00:14:28,630 And I'm going to put this in my fire and char it. You can do that with cloth 190 00:14:28,630 --> 00:14:29,630 called char cloth. 191 00:14:29,770 --> 00:14:31,130 This should work the same. 192 00:14:31,370 --> 00:14:36,060 If this works, It will take a single spark from the back of my knife or from 193 00:14:36,060 --> 00:14:38,320 my ferro rod and give me an ember right away. 194 00:14:38,640 --> 00:14:39,920 That would be amazing. 195 00:14:40,360 --> 00:14:41,880 That would be a total game changer. 196 00:14:42,200 --> 00:14:44,900 All I got to do is char it up and see what happens. 197 00:14:47,820 --> 00:14:49,720 See the smoke coming out of the middle of the hole? 198 00:14:50,380 --> 00:14:51,700 That's exactly what I want. 199 00:14:52,380 --> 00:14:54,580 Once it stops immediately, I take it off. 200 00:15:01,840 --> 00:15:02,840 Okay, let's see what we got. 201 00:15:03,980 --> 00:15:04,980 See if it cooked enough. 202 00:15:06,220 --> 00:15:07,220 Ooh, it did. 203 00:15:07,320 --> 00:15:08,480 Look at all that char material. 204 00:15:10,560 --> 00:15:11,980 All right, let's try a little bit of it. 205 00:15:16,860 --> 00:15:17,860 It worked. 206 00:15:17,940 --> 00:15:21,680 I have a nice ember. I'm gonna put that inside my tinder bundle. 207 00:15:35,540 --> 00:15:37,400 Yes. This looks very promising. 208 00:15:38,500 --> 00:15:41,680 I think I finally cracked the code, buyer-wise, to this place. 209 00:15:44,760 --> 00:15:46,140 This has been quite the journey. 210 00:15:48,100 --> 00:15:49,600 Life will get easier every day. 211 00:16:15,050 --> 00:16:19,310 I've been having a lot of cramps, stomach cramps. It's just this gut 212 00:16:19,310 --> 00:16:22,830 -wrenching, like, tensioning of my stomach muscles. 213 00:16:24,250 --> 00:16:31,070 Anyway, I'm going to crawl back into 214 00:16:31,070 --> 00:16:34,510 this sleeping bag and see if I don't feel a little bit better. 215 00:16:35,870 --> 00:16:37,830 Also, I'm seeing these flashing lights. 216 00:16:41,450 --> 00:16:43,510 Every now and again, I'll see a flashing light out there. 217 00:16:46,140 --> 00:16:47,140 Is it lightning? 218 00:16:47,780 --> 00:16:50,600 I don't have lightning bugs here. What in the heck is it? 219 00:16:52,460 --> 00:16:56,260 I guess you see things when it gets as dark as it is here. 220 00:16:56,840 --> 00:16:59,860 You see things that you wouldn't see anywhere else. 221 00:17:01,660 --> 00:17:02,660 It's freaky. 222 00:17:03,360 --> 00:17:07,760 It started making me think while I was laying here. I wasn't sleeping, but I 223 00:17:07,760 --> 00:17:09,839 was thinking about the water. 224 00:17:10,140 --> 00:17:11,859 Is the water fresh? 225 00:17:12,939 --> 00:17:18,540 As it pumps out of this marsh, you know, makes me wonder if I'm ingesting 226 00:17:18,540 --> 00:17:19,839 seawater. 227 00:17:22,599 --> 00:17:24,480 If I'm drinking salt water, I'm going to go insane. 228 00:18:02,750 --> 00:18:09,550 So, I had a pretty horrible night. I didn't 229 00:18:09,550 --> 00:18:11,310 sleep any until a little bit this morning. 230 00:18:12,970 --> 00:18:19,470 I've been having a lot of shakes, extreme shakes, which is, I'm not, I 231 00:18:19,470 --> 00:18:22,650 wasn't hungry, I wasn't thirsty, I wasn't cold. 232 00:18:23,090 --> 00:18:24,810 So, I really don't know what that's all about. 233 00:18:26,530 --> 00:18:29,710 Fact is, I'm thirsty, but I'm just bloated. I feel like I just don't even 234 00:18:29,710 --> 00:18:31,230 know if I have room in my stomach for water. 235 00:18:33,010 --> 00:18:34,010 That's not a good sign. 236 00:18:36,310 --> 00:18:39,750 Shakes in the middle of the night without hypothermia is not a good sign. 237 00:18:40,450 --> 00:18:44,030 I'm concerned about this quality of this water, this freshwater source. 238 00:18:44,750 --> 00:18:47,110 I don't know what else it could be other than this water. 239 00:18:48,270 --> 00:18:51,970 And I'm looking at it right now, and the water coming out of here is brackish. 240 00:18:51,990 --> 00:18:57,510 It's actually saltwater mixed with freshwater. I can see the tint that it 241 00:18:57,510 --> 00:18:58,510 produces. 242 00:19:00,510 --> 00:19:02,010 And I drank about 10. 243 00:19:02,590 --> 00:19:04,130 Probably about 10 quarts of it yesterday. 244 00:19:05,290 --> 00:19:09,670 It could have higher levels of sodium in it. Plus, it's got extremely high 245 00:19:09,670 --> 00:19:12,970 amounts of bacteria because of the temperature of this water. It's got to 246 00:19:12,970 --> 00:19:15,910 be in the 50s. It's got to be in the perfect range for bacteria growth. 247 00:19:27,370 --> 00:19:30,810 So I've been drinking from basically a brackish pond here. 248 00:19:31,590 --> 00:19:35,750 I have been waiting until the tide is at its lowest for this creek to drop out so 249 00:19:35,750 --> 00:19:37,370 I can get the freshest water possible. 250 00:19:37,970 --> 00:19:39,850 And then I filter it through spanglemoth. 251 00:19:41,150 --> 00:19:44,250 But it doesn't really appear. 252 00:19:45,130 --> 00:19:50,310 I mean, just based on the way I feel, I think I possibly have some type of... 253 00:19:50,310 --> 00:19:53,550 Oh, that stinks. Oh, my gosh. 254 00:20:02,030 --> 00:20:05,230 A dead fish rotting on the side of the bank. 255 00:20:11,110 --> 00:20:13,210 This is a nausea I have never felt before. 256 00:20:18,370 --> 00:20:19,510 Exhausted out of energy. 257 00:20:26,370 --> 00:20:27,470 Oh my gosh. 258 00:20:29,350 --> 00:20:31,190 This is one big sandwich. 259 00:20:33,800 --> 00:20:35,340 And I'm the only one here to take a bite. 260 00:20:36,540 --> 00:20:38,280 Oh, there it almost came. 261 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:51,200 Today's a great day. 262 00:20:53,280 --> 00:20:56,180 On the hike, I found chanterelles. 263 00:20:57,100 --> 00:20:59,260 And not just a few, quite a bit. 264 00:21:01,080 --> 00:21:02,300 Some of these are beauties. 265 00:21:02,780 --> 00:21:03,780 Look at these guys. 266 00:21:05,440 --> 00:21:09,140 I might just have to have mushroom soup for the next two days, which is fine 267 00:21:09,140 --> 00:21:10,140 with me. 268 00:21:11,480 --> 00:21:12,480 What a find. 269 00:21:12,640 --> 00:21:13,740 Couldn't be happier about it. 270 00:21:20,080 --> 00:21:25,700 I found this bull kelp laying here, so I'm going to give it a rinse and have a 271 00:21:25,700 --> 00:21:31,700 nibble. I'm going to roll that up like a mini burrito. 272 00:21:33,040 --> 00:21:34,040 Mmm, 273 00:21:34,440 --> 00:21:35,540 mmm, delicious. 274 00:21:37,500 --> 00:21:38,500 Mmm. 275 00:21:40,340 --> 00:21:43,700 I'll tell myself that that's the number 21 down at the Mexican restaurant. 276 00:22:03,530 --> 00:22:04,950 Today is a pretty special day. 277 00:22:05,830 --> 00:22:08,650 It's the hardest day for me to be out here by far. 278 00:22:10,610 --> 00:22:11,930 It's my little girl's birthday. 279 00:22:17,450 --> 00:22:19,010 She turns four years old today. 280 00:22:21,610 --> 00:22:26,990 And it wounds me to be out here. 281 00:22:32,520 --> 00:22:33,900 We're proud of daddy, huh? 282 00:22:34,140 --> 00:22:36,880 He's so strong. 283 00:22:37,260 --> 00:22:42,220 He is very lovely. 284 00:22:44,760 --> 00:22:47,180 You want to cook one now? 285 00:22:51,260 --> 00:22:52,260 You're welcome. 286 00:23:12,280 --> 00:23:15,260 I'm sorry I'm not with you on your special day. 287 00:23:24,420 --> 00:23:25,820 I miss and love you both. 288 00:23:27,720 --> 00:23:28,780 Happy birthday, pumpkin. 289 00:23:31,870 --> 00:23:33,190 I'm not sure when I'll be home 290 00:24:17,260 --> 00:24:21,720 I went to bed with pretty good spirits last night, and then I don't think I 291 00:24:21,720 --> 00:24:22,920 slept more than a couple hours. 292 00:24:24,540 --> 00:24:26,740 The solitude and the quietness of it. 293 00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:29,820 My heartbeat was waking me up in the middle of the night. 294 00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:32,440 I actually hallucinated. 295 00:24:32,820 --> 00:24:34,920 I'd wake up to flashes of light. 296 00:24:36,780 --> 00:24:39,140 Middle of the night, it was dark. I mean, when I say dark, it's dark. 297 00:24:40,100 --> 00:24:45,240 And I look up at the top of my tent, and as clear as day, I can see these 298 00:24:45,240 --> 00:24:47,100 symbols. In the roof of my tent. 299 00:24:47,520 --> 00:24:49,980 At first, my first thought was they were watermarks. 300 00:24:50,200 --> 00:24:53,320 Because, I mean, the thing is they were random. They kept changing. 301 00:24:53,560 --> 00:24:57,960 I don't know, they're like perfect Mayan or Indian symbols or native symbols. I 302 00:24:57,960 --> 00:24:58,960 don't know. 303 00:24:59,800 --> 00:25:01,060 Now, was that dehydration? 304 00:25:02,280 --> 00:25:07,060 Or was that the beginning stage of insanity? 305 00:25:08,860 --> 00:25:10,820 You know, I just felt unsafe. 306 00:25:11,720 --> 00:25:12,720 Physically, mentally unsafe. 307 00:25:18,760 --> 00:25:21,860 It's driving me insane. 308 00:25:22,180 --> 00:25:23,180 I mean, literally. 309 00:25:24,860 --> 00:25:26,920 I don't think I can close my eyes again in this place. 310 00:25:28,880 --> 00:25:30,220 I think I'm too far gone. 311 00:25:33,060 --> 00:25:34,740 I called for a medic. 312 00:25:36,960 --> 00:25:39,320 This journey may be coming to an end abruptly. 313 00:25:42,440 --> 00:25:46,660 There's no way that even something as beautiful as this is worth dying for. 314 00:25:50,890 --> 00:25:56,210 I never feared for my safety the way I fear for it in that jungle. 315 00:25:56,730 --> 00:25:59,810 It is the craziest thing I have ever seen. It really is. 316 00:26:02,270 --> 00:26:03,350 I'm getting nauseous. 317 00:26:08,810 --> 00:26:12,350 This place has completely beat me down. 318 00:26:20,070 --> 00:26:21,070 Here's the boat. 319 00:26:34,450 --> 00:26:38,410 My guts are turning inside out, and my nerves are shot. 320 00:26:38,690 --> 00:26:41,310 What about when you're getting your water from this creek right here? Once 321 00:26:41,310 --> 00:26:43,810 it dumps, when it dumps out, when the tide goes completely out? 322 00:26:44,030 --> 00:26:45,030 This is not safe. 323 00:26:45,210 --> 00:26:46,990 How much of the water do you think? 324 00:26:47,530 --> 00:26:49,390 At least 10 quarts. 325 00:26:51,740 --> 00:26:53,040 It's hard, dude. It's hard. 326 00:26:53,500 --> 00:26:54,680 I've been in some hard places. 327 00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:56,000 I've been in combat. 328 00:26:56,260 --> 00:26:58,060 I've worked in some of the worst places in the world. 329 00:26:59,620 --> 00:27:01,000 I will not spend another night in there. 330 00:27:02,360 --> 00:27:03,360 I was petrified. 331 00:27:04,940 --> 00:27:06,280 I couldn't stay out here tonight. 332 00:27:07,260 --> 00:27:08,280 I can't stay out here tonight. 333 00:27:09,960 --> 00:27:11,980 I don't think I can go any further. You sure? Yeah. 334 00:27:12,340 --> 00:27:13,340 You're done? Yeah. 335 00:27:13,440 --> 00:27:14,460 I'm tapping out. I'm done. 336 00:27:19,899 --> 00:27:22,500 I'm not a bushcrafter. I'm not a frontiersman. 337 00:27:22,840 --> 00:27:24,660 You know, I believe in military survival. 338 00:27:25,120 --> 00:27:27,960 You do what you got to do to stay alive and you get off the egg. 339 00:27:29,340 --> 00:27:30,340 Girls, I'm coming home. 340 00:27:34,100 --> 00:27:35,900 The isolation is a killer to me. 341 00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:42,200 Until you've really been by yourself, completely alone in something that's 342 00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:47,040 harsh, it just completely broke my spirit. It broke my will. 343 00:27:51,790 --> 00:27:56,630 So goodbye to my cove, McGee's Point, 344 00:27:56,770 --> 00:27:59,970 and hello to my rescue. 345 00:28:01,730 --> 00:28:03,650 I think of myself pretty strong mentally. 346 00:28:04,990 --> 00:28:09,230 It's chewed me away just, you know. 347 00:28:38,320 --> 00:28:40,700 There is no dry kindling in the forest. 348 00:28:40,980 --> 00:28:45,900 You find fuel and you process it down. That's the only way to get dry stuff out 349 00:28:45,900 --> 00:28:46,900 here. 350 00:28:47,420 --> 00:28:50,200 Processing wood is almost therapeutic in a way. 351 00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:55,060 It's really easy in this type of environment when the rain is pouring 352 00:28:55,060 --> 00:28:58,680 down and you're hunkered down in the shelter to become your own worst enemy. 353 00:28:59,080 --> 00:29:01,540 And that's the last thing that I want to do. 354 00:29:02,460 --> 00:29:04,440 Fire also gives you a big sense of security. 355 00:29:05,260 --> 00:29:07,300 There are a lot of predators in this area. 356 00:29:08,040 --> 00:29:11,100 You know, bears, heard the wolves several times. 357 00:29:12,340 --> 00:29:17,760 And the highest density of cougars in North America. 358 00:29:18,280 --> 00:29:22,220 There was actually a cougar attack in this area about three weeks ago. 359 00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:27,860 Guy was de-kayaking, you know, got out to go to the bathroom or something, and 360 00:29:27,860 --> 00:29:29,900 a cougar attacked him. 361 00:29:30,920 --> 00:29:33,920 I think he had to be airlifted out of there, actually. It was a big deal. 362 00:29:34,400 --> 00:29:35,400 But, yeah. 363 00:29:35,530 --> 00:29:39,050 It's just a matter of always, always being aware of your surroundings. 364 00:29:39,610 --> 00:29:41,410 And I think cougars are afraid of fire. 365 00:29:48,370 --> 00:29:50,010 I just heard a twig snap. 366 00:30:21,640 --> 00:30:26,460 a skunk i'm not afraid of bears or cougars or any of that stuff getting me 367 00:30:26,460 --> 00:30:33,140 in the night but i spent some time in northern arizona and uh i woke up face 368 00:30:33,140 --> 00:30:36,280 nose to nose with the skunk terrified of skunk 369 00:30:52,750 --> 00:30:56,450 I am hungry, and my body is reminding me it's late. 370 00:30:58,010 --> 00:31:01,010 Man, I want to eat so bad, I'm starving. 371 00:31:01,970 --> 00:31:05,990 Okay, so my net has been out for a couple cycles of high tide and low tide. 372 00:31:07,130 --> 00:31:08,230 Let's go see if we got anything. 373 00:31:13,390 --> 00:31:14,390 Here's my net. 374 00:31:16,710 --> 00:31:18,870 Looks like there's a bunch of seaweed or something. 375 00:31:25,130 --> 00:31:26,130 Are you serious right now? 376 00:31:28,430 --> 00:31:30,430 I see a huge fish on my net. 377 00:31:31,930 --> 00:31:32,930 Look at this fish. 378 00:31:34,450 --> 00:31:35,650 It's monstrous. 379 00:31:40,230 --> 00:31:41,470 I hear a strange noise. 380 00:31:43,650 --> 00:31:45,810 That was a weird sound. I didn't like that sound at all. 381 00:31:47,690 --> 00:31:48,950 That sound was bizarre. 382 00:31:49,170 --> 00:31:51,830 It was like something was pulling its paws out of the mud or something. 383 00:31:52,090 --> 00:31:53,330 I hope that wasn't a predator. 384 00:31:54,860 --> 00:31:57,840 I'll just take everything and run. I don't even care about pulling in nicely. 385 00:31:58,040 --> 00:31:59,180 I'm just getting out of here. 386 00:32:00,340 --> 00:32:01,340 That was not cool. 387 00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:05,580 My net's going to take a beating dragging over all these sharp rocks and 388 00:32:05,580 --> 00:32:07,040 everything, but I don't even care. 389 00:32:07,280 --> 00:32:09,840 I just want to get back to my camp and be safe. 390 00:32:12,040 --> 00:32:14,520 Out here in the middle of the night, it is really dangerous. 391 00:32:15,400 --> 00:32:18,280 There's a bear in the area. There's a cougar in the area. There's wolves in 392 00:32:18,280 --> 00:32:19,280 the area. 393 00:32:19,300 --> 00:32:20,300 It's not a joke. 394 00:32:41,610 --> 00:32:43,310 That was a weird sound. I didn't like that sound at all. 395 00:32:44,110 --> 00:32:47,770 I'd take everything and run. I don't even care about pulling it nicely. I'm 396 00:32:47,770 --> 00:32:48,770 just getting out of here. 397 00:32:48,990 --> 00:32:50,170 That sound was bizarre. 398 00:32:50,410 --> 00:32:52,990 It was like something was pulling its paws out of the mud or something. 399 00:32:53,530 --> 00:32:54,710 I hope that wasn't a predator. 400 00:32:55,670 --> 00:32:56,670 That was not cool. 401 00:32:57,270 --> 00:32:59,770 I just want to get back to my camp and be safe. 402 00:33:01,870 --> 00:33:04,290 Out here in the middle of the night is really dangerous. 403 00:33:05,130 --> 00:33:07,930 There's a bear in the area. There's a cougar in the area. There's wolves in 404 00:33:07,930 --> 00:33:08,929 the area. 405 00:33:08,930 --> 00:33:09,930 It's not a joke. 406 00:33:11,360 --> 00:33:14,040 Can't believe the size of that fish. That thing's huge. 407 00:33:16,340 --> 00:33:17,340 I'm almost there. 408 00:33:19,620 --> 00:33:21,000 All right, back at camp. 409 00:33:24,060 --> 00:33:26,100 Time to get a fire going ASAP. 410 00:33:41,870 --> 00:33:42,870 Got a number. 411 00:33:49,110 --> 00:33:50,790 Put that inside my Tinder bundle. 412 00:34:01,830 --> 00:34:02,830 Huge fish. 413 00:34:03,530 --> 00:34:04,530 What a blessing. 414 00:34:05,770 --> 00:34:09,370 All right, so I'm going to start working on him and get him ready to be cooked. 415 00:34:18,350 --> 00:34:20,590 I need to make a proper footprint table. 416 00:34:24,090 --> 00:34:25,090 Flipstick. 417 00:34:28,330 --> 00:34:29,929 I'm going to make quick quarters like this. 418 00:34:31,690 --> 00:34:35,250 Okay, so I'm going to just try to put a knot in this without breaking it. 419 00:34:35,469 --> 00:34:36,469 If I can. 420 00:34:37,690 --> 00:34:38,690 Just like that. 421 00:34:38,949 --> 00:34:40,210 And then go through here. 422 00:34:42,989 --> 00:34:43,989 I'm going to do that again. 423 00:34:47,290 --> 00:34:52,610 Okay, it's not the prettiest job I've done on this, but it was quick. It was 424 00:34:52,610 --> 00:34:53,549 at night. 425 00:34:53,550 --> 00:34:57,990 Basically, the stick holds the fish up like a sail, holds it all spread out. 426 00:34:58,910 --> 00:35:01,090 So I'm going to just let that roast. 427 00:35:17,070 --> 00:35:19,310 I think this has been the longest day since I've been here. 428 00:35:20,410 --> 00:35:26,850 And I think they'll probably get longer once you get more things figured out. 429 00:35:28,070 --> 00:35:32,070 And just kind of, it's like anything in life. You set routines. Even animals 430 00:35:32,070 --> 00:35:33,730 have patterns, routines. 431 00:35:34,990 --> 00:35:41,590 And then it seems more monotonous. 432 00:35:43,190 --> 00:35:44,390 You know, the newness. 433 00:35:44,670 --> 00:35:48,970 The first couple days was enough to keep you where it was just moving along, but 434 00:35:48,970 --> 00:35:52,210 I can feel it starting to slow down today. 435 00:36:00,610 --> 00:36:04,370 If you spend a lot of time alone in the wilderness, you better like yourself. 436 00:36:05,330 --> 00:36:06,390 Better be good company. 437 00:36:17,420 --> 00:36:23,640 This is about survival and everything else, but to me, it's about living here. 438 00:36:23,760 --> 00:36:27,940 It's about becoming part of the landscape. 439 00:36:29,940 --> 00:36:35,540 Nature here is a powerful force, and I don't want to disrupt that. 440 00:36:36,720 --> 00:36:38,560 I don't want to fight nature. 441 00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:45,980 You know, I just hope that I'm able to find myself and find a... 442 00:36:47,180 --> 00:36:48,700 Find an inner peace here. 443 00:36:57,940 --> 00:37:01,120 It's definitely the largest fish I've ever done with this method. 444 00:37:02,700 --> 00:37:06,160 Infrared's not going to do it any justice, but that is golden brown 445 00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:07,160 delicious. 446 00:37:12,640 --> 00:37:13,640 Heavenly Father. 447 00:37:14,410 --> 00:37:18,430 Thank you for this amazing meal I'm about to eat. 448 00:37:20,150 --> 00:37:26,510 Thank you for this beautiful fish on my behalf. 449 00:37:27,570 --> 00:37:34,210 I thank you for all that I have, all that I will have, all that I've had in 450 00:37:34,210 --> 00:37:35,210 the past. 451 00:37:35,870 --> 00:37:38,050 I thank you for all that is. 452 00:37:39,010 --> 00:37:43,230 I thank you for this amazing planet that we live on. 453 00:37:53,930 --> 00:37:54,930 Love and miss very much. 454 00:37:57,230 --> 00:37:58,230 Amen. 455 00:37:59,410 --> 00:38:00,590 I can't wait to eat. 456 00:38:01,570 --> 00:38:06,950 I mean, it's like I've actually cooked meat. Oh, my God. That's got to be five 457 00:38:06,950 --> 00:38:08,190 pounds of meat right there. 458 00:38:09,210 --> 00:38:10,210 Epic. 459 00:38:11,110 --> 00:38:12,110 Let's taste it. 460 00:38:20,490 --> 00:38:21,490 It's still juicy. 461 00:38:23,470 --> 00:38:25,810 So it just dripped in my pants, so I wiped it off right away. 462 00:38:26,410 --> 00:38:27,490 I want to smoke this. 463 00:38:29,450 --> 00:38:35,110 This fish is just knocking it out of the park, though. 464 00:38:35,810 --> 00:38:36,810 This is crazy. 465 00:38:39,450 --> 00:38:41,350 Things have changed quite a bit. 466 00:38:42,050 --> 00:38:44,510 I know I can find fresh water now. 467 00:38:45,350 --> 00:38:50,190 I have tons of food out of nowhere. 468 00:38:52,430 --> 00:38:55,310 I am very thankful for the turn of events. 469 00:38:57,550 --> 00:38:58,750 Because I wasn't doing well. 470 00:39:00,610 --> 00:39:01,610 Things have changed. 471 00:39:09,050 --> 00:39:11,890 Pretty sure I just saw a cougar about 10 feet from my front door. 472 00:39:29,670 --> 00:39:31,090 Definitely the biggest fish I ever caught. 473 00:39:31,450 --> 00:39:32,490 It's time to dig in. 474 00:39:36,490 --> 00:39:36,930 I 475 00:39:36,930 --> 00:39:44,430 just 476 00:39:44,430 --> 00:39:46,990 tried to stop Cougar about 10 feet from my front door. 477 00:39:47,270 --> 00:39:48,710 Two bright flashing eyes. 478 00:39:49,290 --> 00:39:54,070 When my headlamp hit its face, it moved really fast out of the way, silently. 479 00:39:54,570 --> 00:39:56,830 All my gear is outside the filter right now. 480 00:39:57,610 --> 00:39:58,910 I think I hear it out there. 481 00:40:01,580 --> 00:40:03,560 That's crazy. That's like a 150-pound cat. 482 00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:05,940 You know, it's like your house cat at home. 483 00:40:06,240 --> 00:40:09,740 Can't hide anywhere, super stealth, and jump on top of the fridge, stand still, 484 00:40:09,860 --> 00:40:11,580 and like crazy ninja, right? 485 00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:16,260 But now I have a 150 to 200-pound ninja running around in the woods. 486 00:40:17,700 --> 00:40:18,700 That's feral. 487 00:40:18,920 --> 00:40:21,500 That likes to eat meat and attacks people for sure. 488 00:40:22,160 --> 00:40:24,960 That's kind of like the most insane predator I've ever heard of. 489 00:40:25,960 --> 00:40:29,260 I have a flare in my hand, and I have my knife. 490 00:40:30,400 --> 00:40:34,580 Everything is buttoned up, and I'm going to try to get some sleep. 491 00:40:34,860 --> 00:40:35,860 We'll see what happens. 492 00:40:39,420 --> 00:40:45,120 If I die tonight, I just want my wife, Crystal, and my daughter, Sophie. 493 00:40:47,100 --> 00:40:49,080 I know. I think of them every day. 494 00:40:50,900 --> 00:40:51,900 My father. 495 00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:54,120 I'm glad he's my father. 496 00:41:11,660 --> 00:41:16,760 secret i want to build a boat to do some fishing i've never built a canoe i've 497 00:41:16,760 --> 00:41:20,580 got to see if this actually floats this might be it for me absolutely miserable 498 00:41:20,580 --> 00:41:24,600 weather Been in a pretty good mood since I got here, but not so much today. 499 00:41:24,820 --> 00:41:27,580 And I've got to hurry. It couldn't have rained at a worse time, but here it is. 500 00:41:27,680 --> 00:41:30,620 It's going to get colder and wetter. The storms are going to come more frequently 501 00:41:30,620 --> 00:41:34,080 as time goes on. The temperature's dropping. It's driving me insane. 502 00:41:34,520 --> 00:41:38,580 The sky looks evil. 45 mile an hour winds and rain all night. Welcome to the 503 00:41:38,580 --> 00:41:39,479 Pacific Northwest. 504 00:41:39,480 --> 00:41:43,940 This is way out of my area of expertise. I am scared of these conditions because 505 00:41:43,940 --> 00:41:44,940 this is dangerous.