1 00:00:05,557 --> 00:00:08,456 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:08,560 --> 00:00:15,601 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:16,050 --> 00:00:17,569 - I am officially tapping out. 4 00:00:17,672 --> 00:00:20,606 No amount of glory is worth harming yourself 5 00:00:20,710 --> 00:00:23,540 to the level that starvation can do. 6 00:00:23,644 --> 00:00:26,578 - Yes! Oh, thank you, fish. 7 00:00:26,681 --> 00:00:28,442 I am all in right now on fish. 8 00:00:28,545 --> 00:00:30,720 I'm going to spend a lot of time on this boat. 9 00:00:30,823 --> 00:00:33,585 - There's so many reasons I want to make a pit house. 10 00:00:33,688 --> 00:00:37,761 They are incredibly efficient at keeping in heat. 11 00:00:37,865 --> 00:00:39,694 - I'm not living up to what I want 12 00:00:39,798 --> 00:00:42,007 to live up to as a survivalist. 13 00:00:42,111 --> 00:00:44,699 I am officially tapping out. 14 00:00:44,803 --> 00:00:47,288 Family is more important then my ego. 15 00:00:47,392 --> 00:00:49,532 I want to be driven by what's in my heart. 16 00:00:49,635 --> 00:00:56,642 ♪ ♪ 17 00:01:06,100 --> 00:01:09,724 narrator: In "Alone's" most terrifying location yet, 18 00:01:09,828 --> 00:01:12,727 10 participants face the deadliest predator 19 00:01:12,831 --> 00:01:14,626 in North America. 20 00:01:14,729 --> 00:01:16,386 - There he is right there. - Grizzly bears. 21 00:01:16,490 --> 00:01:17,491 - Hey, bear! 22 00:01:17,594 --> 00:01:18,561 - There's a lot of grizzly here. 23 00:01:18,664 --> 00:01:19,527 I'm gonna have to live with them. 24 00:01:19,631 --> 00:01:20,770 - Go on, get! 25 00:01:20,873 --> 00:01:22,599 - Every second we're on the land, 26 00:01:22,703 --> 00:01:23,635 we're being hunted. 27 00:01:23,738 --> 00:01:25,326 - Holy *bleep*, mountain lion. 28 00:01:25,430 --> 00:01:27,156 - It's circling around my shelter. 29 00:01:27,259 --> 00:01:28,571 narrator: Bone chilling cold. 30 00:01:28,674 --> 00:01:29,986 - Winter is coming. 31 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:32,195 You combine the wind with the rain and the cold, 32 00:01:32,299 --> 00:01:34,128 this place could make the Arctic look easy. 33 00:01:34,232 --> 00:01:35,819 Oh *bleep*. 34 00:01:35,923 --> 00:01:37,718 narrator: And complete isolation. 35 00:01:37,821 --> 00:01:39,582 - You cannot hide from yourself, 36 00:01:39,685 --> 00:01:40,755 mentally and emotionally. 37 00:01:40,859 --> 00:01:41,963 - Ahh! 38 00:01:42,067 --> 00:01:43,344 - There's no place to go. 39 00:01:43,448 --> 00:01:45,795 - I am suffering from loneliness. 40 00:01:45,898 --> 00:01:47,383 narrator: Who will survive? 41 00:01:47,486 --> 00:01:48,970 - Yes, yes! 42 00:01:49,074 --> 00:01:51,559 - This could be the end. 43 00:01:51,663 --> 00:01:53,941 - I don't want to tap, but I don't want to die either. 44 00:01:54,044 --> 00:01:56,392 - You have to suffer before you can succeed. 45 00:01:56,495 --> 00:01:57,634 - [retching] 46 00:01:57,738 --> 00:02:00,396 narrator: The last one standing wins. 47 00:02:00,499 --> 00:02:02,950 - At what point do I push the button? 48 00:02:03,053 --> 00:02:05,953 [dramatic music] 49 00:02:06,056 --> 00:02:13,098 ♪ ♪ 50 00:02:25,593 --> 00:02:29,149 [birds chirping] 51 00:02:42,783 --> 00:02:45,303 - [whispering] I just shot a buck. 52 00:03:32,281 --> 00:03:35,180 [tense music] 53 00:03:35,284 --> 00:03:42,256 ♪ ♪ 54 00:04:26,680 --> 00:04:29,821 Oh, my God. 55 00:04:29,924 --> 00:04:31,823 Oh... 56 00:04:31,926 --> 00:04:33,790 ♪ ♪ 57 00:04:33,894 --> 00:04:37,242 [breathes deeply] 58 00:04:37,346 --> 00:04:44,318 ♪ ♪ 59 00:04:53,431 --> 00:04:55,743 Oh, my God. 60 00:04:55,847 --> 00:04:57,055 ♪ ♪ 61 00:04:57,158 --> 00:04:59,299 I killed it. 62 00:04:59,402 --> 00:05:00,783 Yeah! 63 00:05:00,886 --> 00:05:05,891 ♪ ♪ 64 00:05:05,995 --> 00:05:08,894 Mm. Whew! 65 00:05:08,998 --> 00:05:11,483 Hunting is something that I've done my whole life. 66 00:05:11,587 --> 00:05:13,865 But I've always had support, 67 00:05:13,968 --> 00:05:15,867 I've always been able to bring things. 68 00:05:15,970 --> 00:05:19,111 But to do it completely on your own, self-supported, 69 00:05:19,215 --> 00:05:21,113 just from what the land provides, 70 00:05:21,217 --> 00:05:23,150 that's a different story. 71 00:05:23,253 --> 00:05:30,295 ♪ ♪ 72 00:05:31,779 --> 00:05:33,850 Backstraps tonight! 73 00:05:33,954 --> 00:05:36,128 I'm going to go ahead and drop the guts right here, 74 00:05:36,232 --> 00:05:39,373 and then drag him away. 75 00:05:39,477 --> 00:05:42,031 Cut those hind quarters off and take those. 76 00:05:42,134 --> 00:05:43,101 [dramatic music] 77 00:05:43,204 --> 00:05:44,620 This location is different 78 00:05:44,723 --> 00:05:47,830 because there is a major predator here. 79 00:05:47,933 --> 00:05:50,004 So I have to get this thing gutted, 80 00:05:50,108 --> 00:05:51,074 I have to get it quartered out, 81 00:05:51,178 --> 00:05:54,181 I have to get the usable, good meat, 82 00:05:54,284 --> 00:05:56,217 because the last thing that I want to do 83 00:05:56,321 --> 00:05:59,428 is have to deal with a bear coming in here 84 00:05:59,531 --> 00:06:01,947 and wanting to take this kill. 85 00:06:02,051 --> 00:06:03,535 ♪ ♪ 86 00:06:03,639 --> 00:06:07,159 I don't have my pack, so I have to start shuttling the meat 87 00:06:07,263 --> 00:06:10,059 in stages back to the shelter. 88 00:06:10,162 --> 00:06:13,165 [panting] 89 00:06:13,269 --> 00:06:16,583 Oh, man, first load done. 90 00:06:20,656 --> 00:06:23,555 [dramatic music] 91 00:06:23,659 --> 00:06:30,666 ♪ ♪ 92 00:06:37,258 --> 00:06:39,295 - Checking myself here real quick. 93 00:06:52,584 --> 00:06:54,828 I don't remember having any gray in my beard 94 00:06:54,931 --> 00:06:56,519 before this started. 95 00:07:02,283 --> 00:07:04,113 Maybe a little. 96 00:07:04,216 --> 00:07:06,805 [tense music] 97 00:07:06,909 --> 00:07:08,876 I haven't seen any deer. 98 00:07:08,980 --> 00:07:11,983 But every morning, I pick 100 onions, 99 00:07:12,086 --> 00:07:14,882 rose hips, and cranberries. 100 00:07:14,986 --> 00:07:16,366 I'm just working on foraging 101 00:07:16,470 --> 00:07:19,231 'cause that stuff's gonna go away when the snow comes. 102 00:07:19,335 --> 00:07:23,546 ♪ ♪ 103 00:07:23,650 --> 00:07:26,204 Mmm, mmm. 104 00:07:26,307 --> 00:07:29,241 Plants, man, they provide. 105 00:07:29,345 --> 00:07:30,864 ♪ ♪ 106 00:07:30,967 --> 00:07:33,280 Oh, there's my onion friends. 107 00:07:33,383 --> 00:07:34,868 Be with you shortly. 108 00:07:34,971 --> 00:07:38,216 ♪ ♪ 109 00:07:38,319 --> 00:07:39,631 Cranberry hole. 110 00:07:39,735 --> 00:07:42,427 ♪ ♪ 111 00:07:42,531 --> 00:07:45,395 Tiny, but sure are tasty. 112 00:07:45,499 --> 00:07:47,190 ♪ ♪ 113 00:07:51,643 --> 00:07:55,060 These cranberries have been in this hole for almost 3 weeks. 114 00:07:56,441 --> 00:07:57,891 Still are good. 115 00:07:57,994 --> 00:08:00,341 [tense music] 116 00:08:00,445 --> 00:08:04,380 It's calories over comfort right now. 117 00:08:04,484 --> 00:08:06,244 Every spare minute I have has to go 118 00:08:06,347 --> 00:08:08,246 to trying to acquire calories. 119 00:08:08,349 --> 00:08:10,455 ♪ ♪ 120 00:08:10,559 --> 00:08:13,251 Moderation, eat 'em in moderation. 121 00:08:13,354 --> 00:08:15,356 I have to pick onions. 122 00:08:15,460 --> 00:08:16,979 ♪ ♪ 123 00:08:17,082 --> 00:08:18,394 I don't know when they disappear. 124 00:08:18,498 --> 00:08:20,569 Unfamiliar with the land. 125 00:08:20,672 --> 00:08:22,122 All right, let's go. 126 00:08:22,225 --> 00:08:24,918 ♪ ♪ 127 00:08:25,021 --> 00:08:28,784 If they disappear and I don't have 1,000 or more, 128 00:08:28,887 --> 00:08:32,857 that's a big shame on me. 129 00:08:32,960 --> 00:08:36,377 It's almost like harvesting out of the garden, 130 00:08:36,481 --> 00:08:39,208 which I would be doing right now if I was at home. 131 00:08:40,968 --> 00:08:43,557 I'd really like to start community farms 132 00:08:43,661 --> 00:08:46,491 in rural Alaska. 133 00:08:46,595 --> 00:08:49,287 I want to use the money that I could win 134 00:08:49,390 --> 00:08:52,980 to expose people to wilderness 135 00:08:53,084 --> 00:08:56,156 and wild places and intact ecosystems. 136 00:08:56,259 --> 00:08:58,848 Two thirds of our planet lives in urban areas, 137 00:08:58,952 --> 00:09:01,955 which is fine, but it's hard to get a population 138 00:09:02,058 --> 00:09:04,440 that care about wild places like this 139 00:09:04,544 --> 00:09:06,269 if they've never been in it. 140 00:09:06,373 --> 00:09:07,305 ♪ ♪ 141 00:09:07,408 --> 00:09:09,410 So, for me, winning the money 142 00:09:09,514 --> 00:09:13,898 means being able to start my dream of a school or a camp. 143 00:09:14,001 --> 00:09:16,314 I want to build that. 144 00:09:16,417 --> 00:09:19,593 I like this foraging business, man. 145 00:09:19,697 --> 00:09:23,079 Sitting on my ass picking calories. 146 00:09:23,183 --> 00:09:25,150 Keep doing it. 147 00:09:25,254 --> 00:09:28,153 [dramatic music] 148 00:09:28,257 --> 00:09:34,953 ♪ ♪ 149 00:09:41,304 --> 00:09:43,652 - Close up of my face. 150 00:09:43,755 --> 00:09:45,515 Look at those cheek bones. 151 00:09:49,071 --> 00:09:50,969 Seriously sunken in. 152 00:09:52,074 --> 00:09:53,696 Look at that brow. 153 00:09:55,318 --> 00:09:57,217 Look at that skull structure. 154 00:09:57,320 --> 00:09:59,150 You think that that's not, 155 00:09:59,253 --> 00:10:04,086 like Cro-Magnon or like early human? 156 00:10:05,674 --> 00:10:06,951 Those high ridges. 157 00:10:07,054 --> 00:10:08,331 [exhales sharply] 158 00:10:08,435 --> 00:10:10,471 It's a tough skull. 159 00:10:10,575 --> 00:10:13,923 Trust me, it's a tough skull. 160 00:10:14,027 --> 00:10:16,339 [dramatic music] 161 00:10:16,443 --> 00:10:17,478 It's getting dark. 162 00:10:17,582 --> 00:10:19,273 ♪ ♪ 163 00:10:19,377 --> 00:10:22,138 I'm gonna head up and check my lines. 164 00:10:22,242 --> 00:10:24,382 ♪ ♪ 165 00:10:24,485 --> 00:10:27,627 I would like to believe there's a fish on my line. 166 00:10:27,730 --> 00:10:30,250 ♪ ♪ 167 00:10:30,353 --> 00:10:31,907 Tell you what, I miss my family. 168 00:10:32,010 --> 00:10:33,322 ♪ ♪ 169 00:10:33,425 --> 00:10:35,842 The struggle for me is the value 170 00:10:35,945 --> 00:10:38,085 that I place on my responsibility 171 00:10:38,189 --> 00:10:41,088 to be a dad, since I didn't have a dad. 172 00:10:41,192 --> 00:10:43,090 ♪ ♪ 173 00:10:43,194 --> 00:10:45,334 When you don't have that resource, 174 00:10:45,437 --> 00:10:48,026 especially for boy stuff, 175 00:10:48,130 --> 00:10:51,271 you kind of learn from another kid. 176 00:10:51,374 --> 00:10:53,549 But there was no heart in it. 177 00:10:53,653 --> 00:10:56,276 That's what I think is interesting for me. 178 00:10:56,379 --> 00:10:59,900 Not having a dad that has a passion. 179 00:11:00,004 --> 00:11:03,283 I feel like my passion is my family. 180 00:11:03,386 --> 00:11:05,803 Maybe that's because of my own upbringing. 181 00:11:05,906 --> 00:11:07,943 ♪ ♪ 182 00:11:08,046 --> 00:11:09,530 Super exciting. 183 00:11:09,634 --> 00:11:11,084 ♪ ♪ 184 00:11:11,187 --> 00:11:14,087 We all come from a struggle. 185 00:11:14,190 --> 00:11:18,332 At some point, we all struggle, no matter where we come from. 186 00:11:18,436 --> 00:11:21,094 ♪ ♪ 187 00:11:21,197 --> 00:11:22,440 Big fish. 188 00:11:22,543 --> 00:11:25,892 ♪ ♪ 189 00:11:25,995 --> 00:11:27,687 Easy, big fella. 190 00:11:27,790 --> 00:11:29,343 [suspenseful music] 191 00:11:29,447 --> 00:11:33,451 Come on, come on. 192 00:11:33,554 --> 00:11:36,523 ♪ ♪ 193 00:11:36,626 --> 00:11:38,974 *bleep*! 194 00:11:39,077 --> 00:11:41,010 No! 195 00:11:41,114 --> 00:11:41,804 [dramatic music] 196 00:11:45,946 --> 00:11:46,602 ♪ 197 00:11:46,706 --> 00:11:48,086 *bleep*! 198 00:11:48,190 --> 00:11:52,125 ♪ ♪ 199 00:11:52,228 --> 00:11:53,402 *bleep*. 200 00:11:56,370 --> 00:11:57,993 Damn it. 201 00:11:58,096 --> 00:12:00,098 [dramatic music] 202 00:12:00,202 --> 00:12:01,893 That was a huge bull trout. 203 00:12:01,997 --> 00:12:03,688 ♪ ♪ 204 00:12:03,792 --> 00:12:05,552 My jacket's wet. 205 00:12:05,655 --> 00:12:08,003 ♪ ♪ 206 00:12:08,106 --> 00:12:11,040 I saw that it was just barely hooked on the nose. 207 00:12:11,144 --> 00:12:12,248 [tense music] 208 00:12:12,352 --> 00:12:15,044 Son of a--*bleep*. Dang it. 209 00:12:15,148 --> 00:12:17,219 ♪ ♪ 210 00:12:17,322 --> 00:12:20,429 I saw him slip off right when he got in the shallow water. 211 00:12:20,532 --> 00:12:23,087 God dang it. 212 00:12:23,190 --> 00:12:25,261 All right, we're gonna set it again. 213 00:12:25,365 --> 00:12:27,677 ♪ ♪ 214 00:12:27,781 --> 00:12:30,439 That's a meal for a few days. 215 00:12:30,542 --> 00:12:32,579 That's so many calories. 216 00:12:32,682 --> 00:12:35,720 I could start to replenish stored fat. 217 00:12:35,824 --> 00:12:38,827 It's just such a blast to your time spent. 218 00:12:38,930 --> 00:12:40,276 ♪ ♪ 219 00:12:40,380 --> 00:12:44,039 So I've got to figure this out. 220 00:12:44,142 --> 00:12:46,593 Can't let that happen again. 221 00:12:46,696 --> 00:12:49,561 [dramatic music] 222 00:12:49,665 --> 00:12:56,706 ♪ ♪ 223 00:13:04,887 --> 00:13:07,683 - I just got back to camp with the last load. 224 00:13:11,480 --> 00:13:13,344 [sighs] 225 00:13:13,447 --> 00:13:17,244 I don't think I've ever-- I know I've never-- 226 00:13:17,348 --> 00:13:21,593 I've never reacted like that to-- 227 00:13:21,697 --> 00:13:23,837 to killing a deer or an animal. 228 00:13:23,941 --> 00:13:28,877 But there's--I don't know, being out here and... 229 00:13:28,980 --> 00:13:32,225 ♪ ♪ 230 00:13:32,328 --> 00:13:35,607 Being--having the fish situation be what it is 231 00:13:35,711 --> 00:13:39,404 where it's just, like, staying 232 00:13:39,508 --> 00:13:42,476 maybe just a day or two ahead, 233 00:13:42,580 --> 00:13:44,824 you know, that's all I can do is stay a day or two ahead. 234 00:13:44,927 --> 00:13:48,068 It's just, it was kind of-- 235 00:13:48,172 --> 00:13:49,173 that was worrying me. 236 00:13:49,276 --> 00:13:51,175 That was stressful. 237 00:13:51,278 --> 00:13:54,903 And to have all of that just poof, 238 00:13:55,006 --> 00:13:58,147 lifted off your shoulders is like... 239 00:13:58,251 --> 00:14:02,255 ♪ ♪ 240 00:14:02,358 --> 00:14:03,843 That is a beautiful sight. 241 00:14:03,946 --> 00:14:05,775 [tense music] 242 00:14:05,879 --> 00:14:07,708 [sighs] Man. 243 00:14:07,812 --> 00:14:09,089 ♪ ♪ 244 00:14:09,193 --> 00:14:12,782 I have to get all this stuff cut into strips. 245 00:14:12,886 --> 00:14:15,199 Gotta keep it from spoiling. 246 00:14:15,302 --> 00:14:17,339 Gotta keep a bear from taking it. 247 00:14:17,442 --> 00:14:19,548 ♪ ♪ 248 00:14:19,651 --> 00:14:21,136 Backstrap. 249 00:14:21,239 --> 00:14:24,208 ♪ ♪ 250 00:14:24,311 --> 00:14:25,934 That's the rib meat. 251 00:14:26,037 --> 00:14:27,418 ♪ ♪ 252 00:14:27,521 --> 00:14:28,902 Tenderloin. 253 00:14:29,006 --> 00:14:30,317 ♪ ♪ 254 00:14:30,421 --> 00:14:32,561 That's dinner tonight. 255 00:14:32,664 --> 00:14:34,770 Heart. 256 00:14:34,874 --> 00:14:35,978 That's always the first thing. 257 00:14:36,082 --> 00:14:37,911 You gotta eat the heart first. 258 00:14:38,015 --> 00:14:40,603 I've got to take it all back there and hang it now. 259 00:14:40,707 --> 00:14:42,122 ♪ ♪ 260 00:14:42,226 --> 00:14:44,676 There is a real risk of having meat 261 00:14:44,780 --> 00:14:47,576 hanging in your shelter where there's bears around. 262 00:14:47,679 --> 00:14:51,062 I want to make sure that it's up off the ground 263 00:14:51,166 --> 00:14:53,789 and protected, because that is my future. 264 00:14:53,893 --> 00:14:56,516 ♪ ♪ 265 00:14:56,619 --> 00:14:59,277 Never had to haul meat so far without a pack. 266 00:14:59,381 --> 00:15:02,349 [tense music] 267 00:15:02,453 --> 00:15:09,494 ♪ ♪ 268 00:15:14,603 --> 00:15:16,225 [grunts] 269 00:15:16,329 --> 00:15:23,370 ♪ ♪ 270 00:15:25,717 --> 00:15:29,687 Yeah, that'll work for now. 271 00:15:29,790 --> 00:15:32,103 Revamp it later. 272 00:15:33,622 --> 00:15:36,763 Man, that deer heart is gonna be good tonight. 273 00:15:36,866 --> 00:15:39,352 [dramatic music] 274 00:15:39,455 --> 00:15:43,080 The first meal of any deer or elk that I ever kill, 275 00:15:43,183 --> 00:15:45,323 I always eat the heart first. 276 00:15:45,427 --> 00:15:48,188 It's just kind of a significant thing to me. 277 00:15:48,292 --> 00:15:49,500 ♪ ♪ 278 00:15:49,603 --> 00:15:52,572 Buck heart fried in buck fat. 279 00:15:52,675 --> 00:15:55,368 Man, oh, man. 280 00:15:55,471 --> 00:15:57,853 [tense music] 281 00:15:57,957 --> 00:16:00,683 There's the end of the heart. 282 00:16:00,787 --> 00:16:03,100 ♪ ♪ 283 00:16:03,203 --> 00:16:05,274 Oh, my God. 284 00:16:05,378 --> 00:16:07,449 ♪ ♪ 285 00:16:07,552 --> 00:16:09,071 Mmm. 286 00:16:12,661 --> 00:16:15,353 Oh, my God, that's good. 287 00:16:16,527 --> 00:16:18,460 Whew! 288 00:16:18,563 --> 00:16:20,600 That may be the best thing I ever ate. 289 00:16:24,155 --> 00:16:25,846 Thank you, young buck. 290 00:16:28,125 --> 00:16:30,127 Thank you, thank you. 291 00:16:30,230 --> 00:16:31,783 Mmm. 292 00:16:33,923 --> 00:16:36,823 [dramatic music] 293 00:16:36,926 --> 00:16:43,968 ♪ ♪ 294 00:16:53,564 --> 00:16:56,601 [rain pattering] 295 00:16:58,500 --> 00:17:00,605 - Mm... 296 00:17:00,709 --> 00:17:03,367 Having a slow, slow morning. 297 00:17:05,576 --> 00:17:09,269 It's windy and rainy, cold. 298 00:17:10,788 --> 00:17:14,205 Kind of set it out where my goal is, like, 100 days, 299 00:17:14,309 --> 00:17:17,070 so I'm 23% of the way there. 300 00:17:17,174 --> 00:17:19,693 Every day is just one more percent. 301 00:17:19,797 --> 00:17:24,353 I put that goal out there, mm, 302 00:17:24,457 --> 00:17:27,218 but food, I need food to get there. 303 00:17:36,952 --> 00:17:39,092 I need to get some passive fishing going, 304 00:17:39,196 --> 00:17:42,164 so I think I'm gonna build a fish trap. 305 00:17:42,268 --> 00:17:44,856 [wind whistling] 306 00:17:47,583 --> 00:17:50,379 Before I get to work, it's breakfast time. 307 00:17:50,483 --> 00:17:52,968 [tense music] 308 00:17:53,072 --> 00:17:55,419 All right, shelter, see you tonight. 309 00:17:55,522 --> 00:17:57,697 ♪ ♪ 310 00:17:57,800 --> 00:18:03,254 My little breakfast cranberries, have a few. 311 00:18:03,358 --> 00:18:06,706 Gonna stop by ol' cranberry hole. 312 00:18:06,809 --> 00:18:09,674 ♪ ♪ 313 00:18:09,778 --> 00:18:10,951 This fish trap, I'm pretty excited 314 00:18:11,055 --> 00:18:15,335 about catching fish for me passively, 24/7. 315 00:18:15,439 --> 00:18:17,199 Lots of excitement. 316 00:18:17,303 --> 00:18:20,547 ♪ ♪ 317 00:18:20,651 --> 00:18:22,031 Ooh. 318 00:18:25,897 --> 00:18:27,727 Something has been here. 319 00:18:27,830 --> 00:18:29,453 ♪ ♪ 320 00:18:29,556 --> 00:18:30,764 Something big. 321 00:18:30,868 --> 00:18:33,871 ♪ ♪ 322 00:18:33,974 --> 00:18:37,219 Tore up my fire pit. 323 00:18:37,323 --> 00:18:39,808 Ate my cranberries. 324 00:18:39,911 --> 00:18:41,706 Hey, bear! 325 00:18:53,856 --> 00:18:56,721 I think we had a bear. 326 00:18:56,825 --> 00:18:59,724 That ain't to squirrel moving those rocks. 327 00:19:01,519 --> 00:19:03,556 Ate half my cranberries. 328 00:19:03,659 --> 00:19:05,972 Oh. Any good ones left? 329 00:19:08,008 --> 00:19:11,253 Smell them and see if I can smell the bear's breath. 330 00:19:11,357 --> 00:19:13,669 [tense music] 331 00:19:13,773 --> 00:19:18,812 I'm worried about bears, but I need to get calories. 332 00:19:18,916 --> 00:19:21,160 I am building a fish trap today. 333 00:19:21,263 --> 00:19:24,715 ♪ ♪ 334 00:19:24,818 --> 00:19:27,511 God, it'd be sweet if this works. 335 00:19:27,614 --> 00:19:29,858 Some passive fishing. 336 00:19:29,961 --> 00:19:32,964 ♪ ♪ 337 00:19:33,068 --> 00:19:34,690 Last year there was a land slide 338 00:19:34,794 --> 00:19:36,175 that blocked the Chilko River, 339 00:19:36,278 --> 00:19:38,453 so now it's made it inaccessible 340 00:19:38,556 --> 00:19:40,282 for the salmon to reach the lake. 341 00:19:40,386 --> 00:19:43,320 Got a little system going here, guys. 342 00:19:43,423 --> 00:19:45,874 Migratory bears are showing up to get fish, 343 00:19:45,977 --> 00:19:48,290 and there ain't fish there. 344 00:19:48,394 --> 00:19:51,535 Now they're hungry and they're moving through your territory. 345 00:19:51,638 --> 00:19:53,778 Those bears probably scare me the most 346 00:19:53,882 --> 00:19:55,780 'cause they're the least predictable. 347 00:19:55,884 --> 00:19:58,611 Oh, that smell. 348 00:19:58,714 --> 00:20:00,544 Hey, bear! 349 00:20:05,204 --> 00:20:07,206 I just caught wind of something. 350 00:20:07,309 --> 00:20:08,207 [dramatic music] 351 00:20:08,310 --> 00:20:09,932 It's a little unnerving to know, 352 00:20:10,036 --> 00:20:12,866 like, what are they gonna turn to, skunk cabbage? 353 00:20:12,970 --> 00:20:14,972 "Alone" contestants? 354 00:20:15,075 --> 00:20:16,422 These bears aren't gonna come here and turn around and say, 355 00:20:16,525 --> 00:20:18,458 "Oh, the fish aren't here" and back out of here. 356 00:20:18,562 --> 00:20:19,873 They're gonna stay here, 357 00:20:19,977 --> 00:20:21,668 and they're gonna get desperate. 358 00:20:21,772 --> 00:20:24,878 Ah it looks fantastic. 359 00:20:24,982 --> 00:20:27,502 There's the entrance, 360 00:20:27,605 --> 00:20:30,850 this comes out and there's the trap. 361 00:20:30,953 --> 00:20:35,820 Fish go right in, can't get out. 362 00:20:35,924 --> 00:20:40,549 I'm gonna tie it on and go get it in the water. 363 00:20:42,137 --> 00:20:44,208 It's gonna be a producer, man. 364 00:20:44,312 --> 00:20:47,211 [tense music] 365 00:20:47,315 --> 00:20:51,319 ♪ ♪ 366 00:20:51,422 --> 00:20:55,081 - Here we go, setting the fish trap. 367 00:20:55,184 --> 00:21:02,261 ♪ ♪ 368 00:21:08,577 --> 00:21:11,925 I have no idea how deep it is. 369 00:21:12,029 --> 00:21:16,620 All right, trap, catch some fish, please. 370 00:21:20,175 --> 00:21:22,246 Fish trap in. 371 00:21:26,699 --> 00:21:29,495 That's my buoy. 372 00:21:29,598 --> 00:21:33,464 It didn't sink. We're good, man. 373 00:21:33,568 --> 00:21:35,915 Let's get the boat put away. 374 00:21:36,018 --> 00:21:38,918 [dramatic music] 375 00:21:39,021 --> 00:21:45,752 ♪ ♪ 376 00:21:51,827 --> 00:21:54,416 - Is there a point in getting out of my sleeping bag? 377 00:21:58,317 --> 00:22:01,181 Mm. 378 00:22:01,285 --> 00:22:06,704 My lips are okay and I can still smile so it's alright. 379 00:22:08,844 --> 00:22:10,018 My shirt needs a wash though. 380 00:22:10,121 --> 00:22:11,847 The reason I want to move into the pit house, 381 00:22:11,951 --> 00:22:12,986 'cause then I can wash clothing 382 00:22:13,090 --> 00:22:14,402 even when the weather is nasty 383 00:22:14,505 --> 00:22:17,128 and then I can dry it over the fire. 384 00:22:18,647 --> 00:22:20,442 Yep, really, really ready, 385 00:22:20,546 --> 00:22:23,514 really ready to move into my house. 386 00:22:23,618 --> 00:22:28,933 ♪ ♪ 387 00:22:29,037 --> 00:22:31,039 All right, before I move in, 388 00:22:31,142 --> 00:22:34,732 I need to get this fireplace area sorted. 389 00:22:34,836 --> 00:22:36,389 With the tarp over the smoke hole, 390 00:22:36,493 --> 00:22:38,080 I'm not really sure how this is gonna work out 391 00:22:38,184 --> 00:22:41,014 ventilation-wise, so this is kind of a test. 392 00:22:41,118 --> 00:22:48,159 ♪ ♪ 393 00:22:51,818 --> 00:22:55,063 So far it's a smoke house. 394 00:22:55,166 --> 00:22:59,101 ♪ ♪ 395 00:22:59,205 --> 00:23:00,689 It's pulling all the air in from over there, 396 00:23:00,793 --> 00:23:03,209 just bringing the smoke inside. 397 00:23:05,142 --> 00:23:07,075 I have to figure out a way to temporarily open 398 00:23:07,178 --> 00:23:10,043 part of the smoke hole up top. 399 00:23:10,147 --> 00:23:11,320 Let me just go-- 400 00:23:11,424 --> 00:23:15,428 I'm gonna grab a pole and see if I can do that. 401 00:23:15,532 --> 00:23:17,672 It's not calm here very often. 402 00:23:17,775 --> 00:23:21,469 It's very, very windy, 403 00:23:21,572 --> 00:23:25,369 and I have drafts around my door. 404 00:23:25,473 --> 00:23:29,097 So when the wind comes from the north, 405 00:23:29,200 --> 00:23:33,757 my fireplace does not function well. 406 00:23:33,860 --> 00:23:36,138 Potentially that actually made it worse. 407 00:23:36,242 --> 00:23:40,902 ♪ ♪ 408 00:23:41,005 --> 00:23:44,664 This isn't working. I can't move in. 409 00:23:44,768 --> 00:23:47,598 This is not gonna be good for my lungs. 410 00:23:47,702 --> 00:23:49,945 Smoke inhalation over a long periods of time 411 00:23:50,049 --> 00:23:53,466 can make you feel utterly rubbish. 412 00:23:53,570 --> 00:23:56,642 It's low level carbon monoxide poisoning. 413 00:23:56,745 --> 00:23:59,817 But I can't completely not have a fire. 414 00:23:59,921 --> 00:24:06,997 ♪ ♪ 415 00:24:08,067 --> 00:24:10,966 [dramatic music] 416 00:24:11,070 --> 00:24:18,111 ♪ ♪ 417 00:24:27,293 --> 00:24:28,536 - Good morning. 418 00:24:29,847 --> 00:24:33,472 It's about five degrees colder today, noticeable. 419 00:24:34,783 --> 00:24:36,026 I'm gonna drink some hot water 420 00:24:36,129 --> 00:24:39,823 for my morning wake up, hot like coffee. 421 00:24:42,308 --> 00:24:45,104 [slurps] 422 00:24:45,207 --> 00:24:47,762 Wow, that's warm. 423 00:24:50,661 --> 00:24:54,285 Holy warm. That's really hot. 424 00:25:00,291 --> 00:25:03,053 Might as well go back in for seconds, though. 425 00:25:03,156 --> 00:25:04,710 Just dumb enough. 426 00:25:06,608 --> 00:25:08,817 [slurps] 427 00:25:08,921 --> 00:25:12,096 Yep, just as hot as the first time. 428 00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:14,892 [tense music] 429 00:25:14,996 --> 00:25:16,238 All right, back to work. 430 00:25:16,342 --> 00:25:17,930 ♪ ♪ 431 00:25:18,033 --> 00:25:19,034 First thing's first. 432 00:25:19,138 --> 00:25:21,865 Let's remedy the fishing situation 433 00:25:21,968 --> 00:25:23,729 so we don't lose another fish. 434 00:25:23,832 --> 00:25:26,145 ♪ ♪ 435 00:25:26,248 --> 00:25:31,357 I'm just gonna evenly space these around it, 436 00:25:31,460 --> 00:25:35,568 and just keep sectioning it down 437 00:25:35,672 --> 00:25:41,367 until we get to the desired size of the net we want. 438 00:25:41,470 --> 00:25:43,127 ♪ ♪ 439 00:25:43,231 --> 00:25:44,404 Awesome. 440 00:25:46,406 --> 00:25:47,753 It's a good start. 441 00:25:47,856 --> 00:25:50,618 ♪ ♪ 442 00:25:50,721 --> 00:25:55,381 Fishing, it was almost what's for breakfast. 443 00:25:55,484 --> 00:25:58,418 I would say I'm in one of the worst of times. 444 00:25:58,522 --> 00:26:01,249 I'm not catching any or killing any food. 445 00:26:01,352 --> 00:26:02,906 ♪ ♪ 446 00:26:03,009 --> 00:26:05,391 This is the longest I've ever gone without eating. 447 00:26:05,494 --> 00:26:09,222 ♪ ♪ 448 00:26:09,326 --> 00:26:16,298 Well, task one has been completed. 449 00:26:20,199 --> 00:26:21,614 I'm happy with it. 450 00:26:21,718 --> 00:26:24,928 It should serve its purpose. 451 00:26:25,031 --> 00:26:27,275 Perfect. 452 00:26:27,378 --> 00:26:29,070 It works. 453 00:26:29,173 --> 00:26:32,729 [wind whistling] 454 00:26:36,629 --> 00:26:39,667 [waves crashing] 455 00:26:39,770 --> 00:26:41,738 Get to test out our net. 456 00:26:41,841 --> 00:26:43,636 ♪ ♪ 457 00:26:43,740 --> 00:26:45,914 I'm always optimistic about tomorrow. 458 00:26:46,018 --> 00:26:46,950 ♪ ♪ 459 00:26:47,053 --> 00:26:50,091 But I find myself very thin 460 00:26:50,194 --> 00:26:53,612 and concerned at how much weight I've lost. 461 00:26:53,715 --> 00:26:58,099 I know that physically I'm in a dangerous place. 462 00:26:58,202 --> 00:27:00,101 All right, I think I got a fish. 463 00:27:02,068 --> 00:27:06,970 I don't know how big it is, but it's moving the line. 464 00:27:07,073 --> 00:27:09,835 Oh, wow. 465 00:27:09,938 --> 00:27:15,288 *bleep* Here we go. 466 00:27:15,392 --> 00:27:16,704 Whoo-hoo. 467 00:27:16,807 --> 00:27:19,776 ♪ ♪ 468 00:27:21,985 --> 00:27:23,296 There was a bull trout 469 00:27:23,400 --> 00:27:28,577 with this 12-inch rainbow in his mouth on the hook. 470 00:27:30,649 --> 00:27:32,133 I'll take it. 471 00:27:34,791 --> 00:27:37,379 You can see his teeth marks. 472 00:27:37,483 --> 00:27:40,037 So this guy was food. 473 00:27:40,141 --> 00:27:42,212 That's crazy. 474 00:27:42,315 --> 00:27:45,733 It means the fish are back. 475 00:27:45,836 --> 00:27:48,356 I'm sure happy to see 'em. 476 00:27:48,459 --> 00:27:50,461 It means we're still in the game. 477 00:27:54,603 --> 00:27:57,020 [dramatic music] 478 00:27:57,123 --> 00:28:04,234 ♪ ♪ 479 00:28:11,966 --> 00:28:14,969 - [panting] 480 00:28:23,011 --> 00:28:25,531 Well, there's no flies on it, so good, 481 00:28:25,634 --> 00:28:27,015 I'm just gonna leave it. 482 00:28:29,673 --> 00:28:31,744 It's kind of a race now. 483 00:28:31,848 --> 00:28:35,886 I have got to get my deer meat dry so I can preserve it. 484 00:28:35,990 --> 00:28:40,097 I'm gonna have to build a smoke house. 485 00:28:40,201 --> 00:28:43,169 Here's what I'm thinking, let's do a log cabin style. 486 00:28:43,273 --> 00:28:46,966 It's going to make it stronger, simpler. 487 00:28:47,070 --> 00:28:50,107 I have to build a smoker that's pretty sturdy. 488 00:28:50,211 --> 00:28:51,833 And I know I can't build something 489 00:28:51,937 --> 00:28:53,524 that's going to stop a bear. 490 00:28:53,628 --> 00:28:55,837 I mean, they're so incredibly powerful. 491 00:28:55,941 --> 00:28:58,806 But I can build one that'll slow one down long enough 492 00:28:58,909 --> 00:29:01,601 for me to hopefully come outside and deal with it. 493 00:29:01,705 --> 00:29:04,535 ♪ ♪ 494 00:29:04,639 --> 00:29:06,468 Man, I'm glad I brought this saw. 495 00:29:06,572 --> 00:29:08,677 It was a last-minute item. 496 00:29:08,781 --> 00:29:11,577 I don't have the advantage of cold weather like they have 497 00:29:11,680 --> 00:29:13,752 with other big game kills in past seasons, 498 00:29:13,855 --> 00:29:17,100 where you can just leave whole quarters out here. 499 00:29:17,203 --> 00:29:20,344 In order for this meat to dry out enough to keep, 500 00:29:20,448 --> 00:29:22,588 you have to reduce the moisture content so low 501 00:29:22,691 --> 00:29:26,626 that bacteria and things like that won't grow. 502 00:29:26,730 --> 00:29:31,700 I think my shoulder is gonna feel this tomorrow. 503 00:29:31,804 --> 00:29:34,634 I gotta get this done. 504 00:29:34,738 --> 00:29:37,845 Ideally what you want to do is dry those quarters, 505 00:29:37,948 --> 00:29:40,571 and it creates a rind on the outside and protects them. 506 00:29:40,675 --> 00:29:42,194 In relatively warm weather, 507 00:29:42,297 --> 00:29:45,266 they'll be good just hanging for days. 508 00:29:45,369 --> 00:29:46,646 Stringing this wire in there 509 00:29:46,750 --> 00:29:50,098 so I'll have a place to hang that meat. 510 00:29:50,202 --> 00:29:52,031 Gonna chink the cracks. 511 00:29:52,135 --> 00:29:57,071 ♪ ♪ 512 00:29:57,174 --> 00:30:00,074 All right. I'm gonna do the roof. 513 00:30:00,177 --> 00:30:01,800 Now I just need some moss. 514 00:30:01,903 --> 00:30:05,389 ♪ ♪ 515 00:30:05,493 --> 00:30:06,977 I think once I get all this done, 516 00:30:07,081 --> 00:30:10,084 I'm gonna have to start just chilling a little bit. 517 00:30:10,187 --> 00:30:11,464 ♪ ♪ 518 00:30:11,568 --> 00:30:13,881 I have some little projects that don't really 519 00:30:13,984 --> 00:30:16,504 require a big expenditure. 520 00:30:16,607 --> 00:30:20,335 I've been working hard, burning a lot of calories. 521 00:30:20,439 --> 00:30:21,474 ♪ ♪ 522 00:30:21,578 --> 00:30:24,650 But I have to protect this meat. 523 00:30:24,753 --> 00:30:26,997 I'm not about to give this up to a bear. 524 00:30:27,101 --> 00:30:29,413 ♪ ♪ 525 00:30:29,517 --> 00:30:31,105 All right. 526 00:30:39,492 --> 00:30:42,530 This thing is gonna be perfect size 527 00:30:42,633 --> 00:30:44,152 to fit all this meat. 528 00:30:46,327 --> 00:30:47,846 I just need a fire. 529 00:30:47,949 --> 00:30:50,814 ♪ ♪ 530 00:30:50,918 --> 00:30:52,367 Started with some of this pine, 531 00:30:52,471 --> 00:30:56,061 and then I'll put that alder on there. 532 00:30:56,164 --> 00:31:00,065 Oh, look at that. Bam. 533 00:31:00,168 --> 00:31:01,583 Now, that's just cool. 534 00:31:01,687 --> 00:31:04,552 [dramatic music] 535 00:31:04,655 --> 00:31:11,697 ♪ ♪ 536 00:31:16,115 --> 00:31:23,157 ♪ 537 00:31:31,337 --> 00:31:33,098 - So not gonna lie. 538 00:31:33,201 --> 00:31:38,206 Yesterday after the rain when I got up that morning, 539 00:31:38,310 --> 00:31:40,070 I had left my pot lidless, 540 00:31:40,174 --> 00:31:43,763 and it had collected that 2 inches of water. 541 00:31:43,867 --> 00:31:45,938 It wasn't very light out when I was drinking out of it. 542 00:31:46,042 --> 00:31:47,284 And when it did get light, 543 00:31:47,388 --> 00:31:51,219 I swear there were squirrel turds in my water. 544 00:31:51,323 --> 00:31:52,772 Not gonna lie. 545 00:31:52,876 --> 00:31:56,776 I think I drank squirrel poo yesterday. 546 00:31:56,880 --> 00:31:58,226 Hopefully there's nothing wrong with it. 547 00:31:58,330 --> 00:31:59,848 But I didn't get sick. 548 00:31:59,952 --> 00:32:01,540 ♪ ♪ 549 00:32:01,643 --> 00:32:03,162 What to do today? 550 00:32:03,266 --> 00:32:06,648 Well, I'm getting lighter by the day, 551 00:32:06,752 --> 00:32:11,170 so I got to build up my caloric intake. 552 00:32:11,274 --> 00:32:15,174 Plan is to build a fishing rod and reel. 553 00:32:15,278 --> 00:32:17,797 Being able to cast out quite a ways, 554 00:32:17,901 --> 00:32:20,593 might be able to pull a bull trout a day. 555 00:32:20,697 --> 00:32:24,701 ♪ ♪ 556 00:32:24,804 --> 00:32:27,462 That's gonna fit into there. 557 00:32:27,566 --> 00:32:31,397 I think that the fishing rod and reel might change things, 558 00:32:31,501 --> 00:32:33,537 put more gas in my tank. 559 00:32:33,641 --> 00:32:36,023 Trying to, you know, open this belt up some more. 560 00:32:36,126 --> 00:32:37,783 ♪ ♪ 561 00:32:37,886 --> 00:32:40,959 So after seeing the size of the bull trout, 562 00:32:41,062 --> 00:32:45,032 I think it's advisable to use the 15-pound test, 563 00:32:45,135 --> 00:32:48,690 if I'm gonna throw that big minnow lure on. 564 00:32:48,794 --> 00:32:51,141 I need that extra fat back. 565 00:32:51,245 --> 00:32:54,213 Otherwise, it's gonna be a daily battle. 566 00:32:54,317 --> 00:32:57,078 All right. 567 00:32:57,182 --> 00:33:01,910 I think we should do a double wrap to a single. 568 00:33:02,014 --> 00:33:04,465 I definitely don't want to go anywhere. 569 00:33:04,568 --> 00:33:06,674 My desire is to stay here the longest. 570 00:33:06,777 --> 00:33:09,263 That's what I want to do. 571 00:33:09,366 --> 00:33:12,680 But I always miss my family. 572 00:33:12,783 --> 00:33:14,889 Let's see how well it winds. 573 00:33:14,993 --> 00:33:16,097 I miss cooking them dinner. 574 00:33:16,201 --> 00:33:18,444 I miss hanging out with my boys. 575 00:33:18,548 --> 00:33:19,790 Miss my wife. 576 00:33:19,894 --> 00:33:24,485 I need to stay positive and stay healthy. 577 00:33:24,588 --> 00:33:26,832 I want to see this through for them. 578 00:33:26,935 --> 00:33:30,249 ♪ ♪ 579 00:33:30,353 --> 00:33:33,804 I'll tell you right now, if the fish keep coming, 580 00:33:33,908 --> 00:33:37,187 I am not going anywhere. 581 00:33:37,291 --> 00:33:38,602 ♪ ♪ 582 00:33:38,706 --> 00:33:41,433 Can't get me out of this game. 583 00:33:41,536 --> 00:33:43,883 No, sir. 584 00:33:52,513 --> 00:33:56,103 Okay. Here's what's happening. 585 00:33:59,968 --> 00:34:04,076 When you're out here 586 00:34:04,180 --> 00:34:10,324 going through this type of situation, 587 00:34:10,427 --> 00:34:13,534 you pay attention to your body, 588 00:34:13,637 --> 00:34:19,540 and about 2 hours ago, I started feeling nauseous. 589 00:34:19,643 --> 00:34:23,164 ♪ ♪ 590 00:34:23,268 --> 00:34:24,855 So we're gonna just see. 591 00:34:24,959 --> 00:34:28,756 Just gonna let it play out and see what happens. 592 00:34:28,859 --> 00:34:33,485 ♪ ♪ 593 00:34:33,588 --> 00:34:37,420 That water I drank concerns me. 594 00:34:37,523 --> 00:34:38,800 ♪ ♪ 595 00:34:38,904 --> 00:34:42,459 But that would be crazy. 596 00:34:42,563 --> 00:34:44,634 I mean, it's squirrel poo, I guess. 597 00:34:44,737 --> 00:34:49,397 But I don't know what a nut, mushroom, 598 00:34:49,501 --> 00:34:51,882 seed-eating squirrel would carry. 599 00:34:51,986 --> 00:34:54,609 ♪ ♪ 600 00:34:54,713 --> 00:34:57,129 Probably nothing, though. 601 00:34:57,233 --> 00:35:04,205 ♪ ♪ 602 00:35:04,309 --> 00:35:07,312 Probably nothing. 603 00:35:07,415 --> 00:35:13,456 Just a symptom of starvation. 604 00:35:13,559 --> 00:35:16,390 ♪ ♪ 605 00:35:16,493 --> 00:35:20,325 Mm. [sighs] 606 00:35:20,428 --> 00:35:22,361 This, too, shall pass, I guess. 607 00:35:22,465 --> 00:35:24,501 ♪ ♪ 608 00:35:24,605 --> 00:35:27,780 I need to get my fire going again. 609 00:35:27,884 --> 00:35:31,336 ♪ ♪ 610 00:35:31,439 --> 00:35:32,854 [sighs] 611 00:35:45,591 --> 00:35:46,765 [groans] 612 00:35:53,012 --> 00:35:54,082 [groans] 613 00:35:54,186 --> 00:35:57,085 [coughing, retching] 614 00:35:57,189 --> 00:36:02,298 ♪ ♪ 615 00:36:06,647 --> 00:36:11,721 ♪ 616 00:36:13,274 --> 00:36:16,277 [groaning] 617 00:36:20,074 --> 00:36:22,007 [belches, sighs] 618 00:36:22,110 --> 00:36:25,286 *bleep*. 619 00:36:25,390 --> 00:36:27,254 [groans] 620 00:36:27,357 --> 00:36:30,395 Well, that's *bleep* special. 621 00:36:33,777 --> 00:36:35,607 Son of a *bleep*. 622 00:36:41,923 --> 00:36:44,409 Now I have the shakes. 623 00:36:44,512 --> 00:36:45,996 That's awesome. 624 00:36:46,100 --> 00:36:49,241 ♪ ♪ 625 00:36:49,345 --> 00:36:52,037 That concerns me. 626 00:36:52,140 --> 00:36:55,247 I can be as optimistic as I want 627 00:36:55,351 --> 00:36:59,907 and as stubborn as I want, but this is troubling. 628 00:37:00,010 --> 00:37:02,461 ♪ ♪ 629 00:37:02,565 --> 00:37:06,465 I know my body, and my health is important to me. 630 00:37:06,569 --> 00:37:08,536 [grunting] 631 00:37:08,640 --> 00:37:13,403 And I'm not interested in battling 632 00:37:13,507 --> 00:37:18,236 whatever it is that's going on in my body right now... 633 00:37:18,339 --> 00:37:20,514 with also being on a starvation diet. 634 00:37:20,617 --> 00:37:22,516 ♪ ♪ 635 00:37:22,619 --> 00:37:25,139 It's more important to me to be healthy, 636 00:37:25,243 --> 00:37:31,766 so I do apologize if I let anybody down that... 637 00:37:31,870 --> 00:37:36,771 But I'm not gonna get sick or put my body 638 00:37:36,875 --> 00:37:41,017 in any harm for anything. 639 00:37:41,120 --> 00:37:47,541 So I wish I could have gone longer, 640 00:37:47,644 --> 00:37:51,338 but 24 days is my limit. 641 00:37:51,441 --> 00:37:56,032 ♪ ♪ 642 00:37:56,135 --> 00:38:00,174 [beeping] 643 00:38:02,383 --> 00:38:03,626 Hi. 644 00:38:04,730 --> 00:38:06,007 Um... 645 00:38:08,389 --> 00:38:11,599 I'm officially tapping out. 646 00:38:11,703 --> 00:38:13,152 I'm done. 647 00:38:13,256 --> 00:38:14,602 [spits] 648 00:38:17,364 --> 00:38:20,194 I'm out. I'm done. 649 00:38:20,298 --> 00:38:21,747 Just like that. 650 00:38:21,851 --> 00:38:24,750 [solemn music] 651 00:38:24,854 --> 00:38:31,895 ♪ ♪ 652 00:38:34,312 --> 00:38:37,625 - You seeing this weather? 653 00:38:37,729 --> 00:38:41,111 This is the day when it happens. 654 00:38:41,215 --> 00:38:42,458 ♪ ♪ 655 00:38:42,561 --> 00:38:45,564 The second I tap out, it starts snowing. 656 00:38:45,668 --> 00:38:52,364 ♪ ♪ 657 00:38:52,468 --> 00:38:56,403 - How you doing, Nate? - Um, I'm all right. 658 00:38:56,506 --> 00:38:57,680 Emotionally, I'm all right. 659 00:38:57,783 --> 00:39:01,615 I've got waves of nausea still. 660 00:39:01,718 --> 00:39:03,548 My body's in a process now 661 00:39:03,651 --> 00:39:06,585 where I think it's slowed everything down, 662 00:39:06,689 --> 00:39:09,347 including heating itself. 663 00:39:09,450 --> 00:39:13,143 So it's enough for me to know my priority is my health, 664 00:39:13,247 --> 00:39:15,387 and I'm not gonna compromise it. 665 00:39:15,491 --> 00:39:17,769 ♪ ♪ 666 00:39:17,872 --> 00:39:19,874 My family rely on me. 667 00:39:19,978 --> 00:39:24,051 And I have to remember that it's not about me. 668 00:39:24,154 --> 00:39:27,744 So I have to stay healthy, and I have to recognize that. 669 00:39:27,848 --> 00:39:30,471 And I'm conscious of my body. 670 00:39:30,575 --> 00:39:31,886 ♪ ♪ 671 00:39:31,990 --> 00:39:34,441 Life, when you're mission-focused, 672 00:39:34,544 --> 00:39:36,960 it's like a train on a track. 673 00:39:37,064 --> 00:39:40,861 And I've just been on the tracks. 674 00:39:40,964 --> 00:39:43,242 I've been so mission-focused on the homestead 675 00:39:43,346 --> 00:39:46,418 and getting my family in a comfortable place 676 00:39:46,522 --> 00:39:48,765 that I've neglected other places, 677 00:39:48,869 --> 00:39:51,837 my family, my kids. 678 00:39:51,941 --> 00:39:54,771 I gotta give my kids more of me. 679 00:39:54,875 --> 00:39:56,255 ♪ ♪ 680 00:39:56,359 --> 00:40:00,881 This provided me a station stop on my train. 681 00:40:00,984 --> 00:40:04,194 It forced me to stop and take a break 682 00:40:04,298 --> 00:40:06,231 and look at my life 683 00:40:06,334 --> 00:40:09,476 and remember what's most important. 684 00:40:09,579 --> 00:40:11,512 And that's what I did. 685 00:40:11,616 --> 00:40:15,723 ♪ ♪ 686 00:40:15,827 --> 00:40:18,726 [dramatic music] 687 00:40:18,830 --> 00:40:25,871 ♪ ♪ 688 00:40:36,157 --> 00:40:37,711 - Good morning. 689 00:40:37,814 --> 00:40:40,852 Let's read my personal rules list. 690 00:40:41,784 --> 00:40:46,582 Carry bow always for potential game/threat 691 00:40:46,685 --> 00:40:48,825 any time you're out. 692 00:40:48,929 --> 00:40:52,829 Be aware. That's a good rule. 693 00:40:52,933 --> 00:40:56,557 Wear gloves any time I'm using a blade. 694 00:40:56,661 --> 00:40:59,318 Keep track of all critical gear. 695 00:41:00,423 --> 00:41:05,255 And last but not least, don't push the *bleep* tap button. 696 00:41:07,430 --> 00:41:10,260 Trying to keep that one going. 697 00:41:10,364 --> 00:41:13,781 [tense music] 698 00:41:13,885 --> 00:41:17,129 Sounds pretty calm out there, so I think I'm gonna get up 699 00:41:17,233 --> 00:41:18,752 and go try some fishing. 700 00:41:18,855 --> 00:41:20,443 ♪ ♪ 701 00:41:20,547 --> 00:41:22,307 Wonder if there's any fish hunkering down 702 00:41:22,410 --> 00:41:23,619 in my fish trap yet. 703 00:41:23,722 --> 00:41:25,137 ♪ ♪ 704 00:41:25,241 --> 00:41:28,762 It's worth checking my fish trap, right? 705 00:41:28,865 --> 00:41:30,695 Maybe something's hiding out in there. 706 00:41:30,798 --> 00:41:32,835 ♪ ♪ 707 00:41:32,938 --> 00:41:37,115 I definitely expected to have some fish in me by now, 708 00:41:37,218 --> 00:41:40,428 'cause back home, I'm a pretty big fisherman. 709 00:41:40,532 --> 00:41:43,362 ♪ ♪ 710 00:41:43,466 --> 00:41:47,539 But out here, it's, like-- it's different. 711 00:41:47,643 --> 00:41:50,715 I haven't been able to catch one fish. 712 00:41:50,818 --> 00:41:52,682 Please have fish in there. 713 00:41:52,786 --> 00:41:55,961 ♪ ♪ 714 00:41:56,065 --> 00:41:58,826 You don't have no fish in there. 715 00:41:58,930 --> 00:42:01,449 [sighs] 716 00:42:01,553 --> 00:42:03,900 Oh, well. 717 00:42:04,004 --> 00:42:05,902 Gonna try something different. 718 00:42:06,006 --> 00:42:08,664 ♪ ♪ 719 00:42:08,767 --> 00:42:11,736 It's funny, when I was gearing up to come out here, 720 00:42:11,839 --> 00:42:16,775 I wanted lure fishing to be my last resort fishing. 721 00:42:16,879 --> 00:42:21,366 I didn't want it to be, like, my main fishing thing. 722 00:42:21,469 --> 00:42:25,059 So it's kind of funny to find myself in this situation. 723 00:42:25,163 --> 00:42:28,200 ♪ ♪ 724 00:42:37,347 --> 00:42:42,594 Trying not to get mad, but it's hard. 725 00:42:42,698 --> 00:42:44,734 Hard not to get mad when things don't work 726 00:42:44,838 --> 00:42:46,978 all the time. 727 00:42:47,081 --> 00:42:49,428 Normally, I love fishing. 728 00:42:49,532 --> 00:42:53,087 It's relaxing, it's fun, 729 00:42:53,191 --> 00:42:57,402 but fishing out here just frustrates me, man. 730 00:42:57,505 --> 00:42:58,783 ♪ ♪ 731 00:42:58,886 --> 00:43:02,856 But so much rather be doing this than my old job. 732 00:43:02,959 --> 00:43:04,789 I mean, there's no comparison. 733 00:43:04,892 --> 00:43:08,586 Breathing in fiberglass, building trailers all day. 734 00:43:08,689 --> 00:43:12,348 My dad thought I should bring a photo of my old work. 735 00:43:12,451 --> 00:43:13,660 He was like, 736 00:43:13,763 --> 00:43:17,215 "That'll give you more incentive to not leave." 737 00:43:17,318 --> 00:43:19,148 Totally right, man. 738 00:43:19,251 --> 00:43:21,115 But I'm a fighter, 739 00:43:21,219 --> 00:43:23,670 and I'm gonna hang on as long as I can. 740 00:43:23,773 --> 00:43:26,776 ♪ ♪ 741 00:43:30,884 --> 00:43:32,402 I got one. 742 00:43:32,506 --> 00:43:39,030 ♪ ♪ 743 00:43:39,133 --> 00:43:40,790 Come on, baby. 744 00:43:40,894 --> 00:43:44,587 Come on in. Come on in, baby. 745 00:43:50,835 --> 00:43:53,389 Yes. Yes. 746 00:43:53,492 --> 00:43:55,736 *bleep* yes! 747 00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:58,912 Beautiful rainbow trout. 748 00:43:59,015 --> 00:44:01,500 Thank you for your life, fish. 749 00:44:03,571 --> 00:44:05,573 Thank you. 750 00:44:05,677 --> 00:44:10,095 Oh, yes. 751 00:44:10,199 --> 00:44:14,721 Finally, a decent meal. 752 00:44:18,725 --> 00:44:21,037 Oh, that's so exciting. 753 00:44:21,141 --> 00:44:24,006 [tense music] 754 00:44:24,109 --> 00:44:26,387 Caught my first fish. 755 00:44:26,491 --> 00:44:31,151 [celebratory shout] 756 00:44:31,254 --> 00:44:32,946 ♪ ♪ 757 00:44:33,049 --> 00:44:34,775 Oh, I'm gonna eat fish today. 758 00:44:34,879 --> 00:44:36,777 That's so awesome. 759 00:44:36,881 --> 00:44:39,538 Thank you, gods. 760 00:44:39,642 --> 00:44:41,092 Thank you, Chilko. 761 00:44:41,195 --> 00:44:43,301 ♪ ♪ 762 00:44:43,404 --> 00:44:45,303 It's time to get this sucker rolling. 763 00:44:48,858 --> 00:44:52,620 I can't tell you how excited I am to eat a sizable fish. 764 00:44:55,451 --> 00:44:58,419 Gonna be tasty, my friend. 765 00:44:58,523 --> 00:45:02,251 I'm gonna have my first protein out here. 766 00:45:02,354 --> 00:45:06,600 It's a morale booster, and hopefully it's a turn 767 00:45:06,704 --> 00:45:09,637 in my ability to get food out here. 768 00:45:09,741 --> 00:45:11,053 ♪ ♪ 769 00:45:11,156 --> 00:45:14,090 That's gonna be a decent meal, right there. 770 00:45:14,194 --> 00:45:15,885 Super stoked. 771 00:45:15,989 --> 00:45:18,198 ♪ ♪ 772 00:45:18,301 --> 00:45:20,856 I gotta say, it kind of sucks to be constantly, like, 773 00:45:20,959 --> 00:45:25,826 stressed about my surroundings while cooking, 774 00:45:25,930 --> 00:45:28,760 'cause these grizzly bears will just walk right up 775 00:45:28,864 --> 00:45:30,382 and take what's yours, 776 00:45:30,486 --> 00:45:33,385 'cause they know they're big and bad. 777 00:45:33,489 --> 00:45:36,526 So I try to make a lot of noise while I'm cooking fish. 778 00:45:36,630 --> 00:45:41,669 Oh, yeah! Fish, baby! 779 00:45:45,950 --> 00:45:48,642 Smells like breakfast over here. 780 00:45:50,506 --> 00:45:52,888 I normally scrape out the spine. 781 00:45:55,235 --> 00:45:58,583 But out here, I'm eating that black stuff. 782 00:46:03,139 --> 00:46:07,730 I'm sure it's got some kind of nutrients in it that I want. 783 00:46:07,834 --> 00:46:11,907 All right. here comes my dad's favorite part, 784 00:46:12,010 --> 00:46:15,117 the sucking out of the eyes. 785 00:46:15,220 --> 00:46:17,084 Here it goes, Dad. This one's for you. 786 00:46:17,188 --> 00:46:19,500 Let me see! 787 00:46:22,331 --> 00:46:24,851 That was something my dad used to do when I was a kid. 788 00:46:24,954 --> 00:46:27,094 When we'd catch trout and cook them up, 789 00:46:27,198 --> 00:46:29,614 he would suck out the eyes and yell, 790 00:46:29,717 --> 00:46:33,204 "Let me see," which of course would freak me out as a kid. 791 00:46:33,307 --> 00:46:35,827 But now I do it for him. 792 00:46:35,931 --> 00:46:39,106 Well, hello, little trout brain. 793 00:46:39,210 --> 00:46:42,178 Do you mind if I eat you? 794 00:46:42,282 --> 00:46:45,147 [dramatic music] 795 00:46:45,250 --> 00:46:52,292 ♪ ♪ 796 00:46:57,504 --> 00:47:01,577 - Going to wash my hair with hot water. 797 00:47:01,680 --> 00:47:03,786 Hope I get smell of smoke off me. 798 00:47:06,375 --> 00:47:09,757 Oh, man, that feels lovely. 799 00:47:12,277 --> 00:47:13,416 Yeah. 800 00:47:13,520 --> 00:47:14,762 Sometimes the little things in life 801 00:47:14,866 --> 00:47:16,903 make everything better. 802 00:47:18,318 --> 00:47:19,940 ♪ 803 00:47:20,044 --> 00:47:22,632 I'm so tired of the wind. 804 00:47:22,736 --> 00:47:26,740 The wind direction is southwest in the fall. 805 00:47:26,844 --> 00:47:29,018 It's from the north in the winter. 806 00:47:29,122 --> 00:47:33,264 If it's from the north most of the time this time of year, 807 00:47:33,367 --> 00:47:34,990 I'm in a real pickle. 808 00:47:35,093 --> 00:47:37,716 ♪ ♪ 809 00:47:37,820 --> 00:47:39,270 So all right. We're gonna push today. 810 00:47:39,373 --> 00:47:42,618 We're finishing the fireplace. 811 00:47:43,412 --> 00:47:45,138 [grunts] 812 00:47:45,241 --> 00:47:48,210 So I'm gonna keep on with the rocking all the way up 813 00:47:48,313 --> 00:47:53,008 to where I think approximately where the posts will be. 814 00:47:53,111 --> 00:47:56,425 Yeah. I think that'll help a lot with the smoke. 815 00:47:56,528 --> 00:47:59,324 So we are gonna set that in sand. 816 00:47:59,428 --> 00:48:01,706 ♪ ♪ 817 00:48:01,809 --> 00:48:03,570 Try to actually make the chimney narrow 818 00:48:03,673 --> 00:48:05,675 a little bit here. 819 00:48:05,779 --> 00:48:08,851 See if that helps. 820 00:48:08,955 --> 00:48:12,337 I need a nice, long-ish big one. 821 00:48:12,441 --> 00:48:14,512 ♪ ♪ 822 00:48:14,615 --> 00:48:16,859 That's spot-on. 823 00:48:16,963 --> 00:48:20,104 Fireplace and the chimney, they're incredibly important. 824 00:48:20,207 --> 00:48:23,279 Fall is probably coming to a close here, 825 00:48:23,383 --> 00:48:26,834 and winter is coming, and it is gonna get colder, 826 00:48:26,938 --> 00:48:28,975 and I want to have a fireplace with a chimney, 827 00:48:29,078 --> 00:48:31,115 and all sealed up so that when it is cold 828 00:48:31,218 --> 00:48:32,875 and the weather is atrocious, 829 00:48:32,979 --> 00:48:35,843 we can sit all nice and toasty warm in our house. 830 00:48:35,947 --> 00:48:41,263 ♪ ♪ 831 00:48:41,366 --> 00:48:44,093 And we can go there. 832 00:48:46,820 --> 00:48:51,135 Is that tightened? Yeah? 833 00:48:51,238 --> 00:48:53,689 We happy? We're happy. 834 00:48:54,759 --> 00:48:57,451 I think I might just steal some of these rocks 835 00:48:57,555 --> 00:48:59,488 just to make the chimney, because they're really 836 00:48:59,591 --> 00:49:02,387 unnecessary where they are right now. 837 00:49:02,491 --> 00:49:05,563 I have a well-managed, 838 00:49:05,666 --> 00:49:09,394 but fairly strong component of OCD. 839 00:49:09,498 --> 00:49:11,741 I have very specific routines. 840 00:49:11,845 --> 00:49:16,022 And to feel like I have not completed a thing 841 00:49:16,125 --> 00:49:19,577 makes it very difficult for me to move on from that. 842 00:49:19,680 --> 00:49:24,202 So that makes "Alone" an absolute juggling act, 843 00:49:24,306 --> 00:49:27,585 both mentally and physically. 844 00:49:27,688 --> 00:49:28,758 That works. 845 00:49:28,862 --> 00:49:32,452 Da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, da. 846 00:49:32,555 --> 00:49:34,937 This is the inside. 847 00:49:35,041 --> 00:49:36,559 When all of this rock heats up, 848 00:49:36,663 --> 00:49:39,769 it's gonna reflect a lot of heat back into the house, 849 00:49:39,873 --> 00:49:42,013 you know, overnight even after the fire dies down 850 00:49:42,117 --> 00:49:43,911 or even dies out. 851 00:49:44,015 --> 00:49:48,054 And here is the chimney. 852 00:49:51,057 --> 00:49:53,956 [tense music] 853 00:49:54,060 --> 00:50:01,032 ♪ ♪ 854 00:50:07,038 --> 00:50:09,385 Oh, I can tell there's a much better draw now. 855 00:50:09,489 --> 00:50:14,252 The flames are staying lit of their own accord. 856 00:50:14,356 --> 00:50:18,049 Fantastic. It means that I can go and move in here. 857 00:50:18,153 --> 00:50:21,052 [dramatic music] 858 00:50:21,156 --> 00:50:28,163 ♪ ♪ 859 00:50:31,028 --> 00:50:32,684 - Moved everything out of the tarp 860 00:50:32,788 --> 00:50:38,069 and into the pit house, which is where I now am. 861 00:50:38,173 --> 00:50:41,279 Feels really nice to have worked in here all day, 862 00:50:41,383 --> 00:50:44,144 and just crawl in bed. 863 00:50:44,248 --> 00:50:47,872 Not have to faff about with going back and forth 864 00:50:47,975 --> 00:50:50,771 between two different shelters. 865 00:50:50,875 --> 00:50:52,808 This is my new reality. 866 00:50:52,911 --> 00:50:56,191 In my adult life, this is the first time 867 00:50:56,294 --> 00:50:58,262 I have had my own home. 868 00:50:58,365 --> 00:51:01,437 I have never lived anywhere where it was just me. 869 00:51:01,541 --> 00:51:04,751 It's me inside and out, and it's solely mine. 870 00:51:04,854 --> 00:51:06,201 If I wanted to do projects, 871 00:51:06,304 --> 00:51:08,134 I could do projects till 2:00 a.m. 872 00:51:08,237 --> 00:51:11,102 There's no one to keep awake but me. 873 00:51:11,206 --> 00:51:14,381 It's warm enough in here to actually stand up, 874 00:51:14,485 --> 00:51:17,281 take all of my clothing off normally. 875 00:51:17,384 --> 00:51:21,940 Crawl up into my sleeping bag on my nice raised bed. 876 00:51:22,044 --> 00:51:24,978 Uh, yeah. 877 00:51:25,082 --> 00:51:31,018 So...okay. 878 00:51:31,122 --> 00:51:33,228 Good night, camera. 879 00:51:38,025 --> 00:51:40,407 [dramatic music] 880 00:51:40,511 --> 00:51:47,552 ♪ ♪ 881 00:51:53,972 --> 00:51:55,560 - Good morning. 882 00:51:55,664 --> 00:51:59,288 That was probably the most restless night 883 00:51:59,392 --> 00:52:01,048 of sleep I've had. 884 00:52:01,152 --> 00:52:04,811 That wind is brutal. 885 00:52:04,914 --> 00:52:07,503 It's a good indicator for what's to come for winter, 886 00:52:07,607 --> 00:52:10,334 so I want to make sure that I get this door done. 887 00:52:10,437 --> 00:52:12,888 ♪ ♪ 888 00:52:12,991 --> 00:52:15,373 The cold weather is coming, so I definitely need 889 00:52:15,477 --> 00:52:17,755 to get this buttoned up pretty good here. 890 00:52:17,858 --> 00:52:19,136 ♪ ♪ 891 00:52:19,239 --> 00:52:20,378 Man, this wind. 892 00:52:20,482 --> 00:52:22,863 It's not usually windy right here. 893 00:52:22,967 --> 00:52:24,002 I hope that that's not 894 00:52:24,106 --> 00:52:26,246 what this winter is going to be like. 895 00:52:26,350 --> 00:52:29,594 I think I'll just make that door a triangle shape, 896 00:52:29,698 --> 00:52:32,183 so at nighttime I can put up against it. 897 00:52:32,287 --> 00:52:35,013 And I'd really like to have that frame nailed, 898 00:52:35,117 --> 00:52:37,223 'Cause I'm gonna be moving it all the time. 899 00:52:37,326 --> 00:52:39,432 Let's see if there were any other nails 900 00:52:39,535 --> 00:52:41,330 that I could salvage. 901 00:52:41,434 --> 00:52:43,574 He did have a nail. 902 00:52:43,677 --> 00:52:47,888 And so did that guy. 903 00:52:47,992 --> 00:52:50,788 [tense music] 904 00:52:50,891 --> 00:52:54,274 The longer I'm here, my life back home 905 00:52:54,378 --> 00:52:57,001 weighs so heavy on my mind. 906 00:52:57,104 --> 00:53:00,073 My life changed so much 4 years ago. 907 00:53:00,177 --> 00:53:02,282 Someone had broke into my little store 908 00:53:02,386 --> 00:53:05,285 and stole a lot of stuff, 909 00:53:05,389 --> 00:53:07,736 and so I suffered a really big loss. 910 00:53:07,839 --> 00:53:09,703 At the same time, my marriage was ending 911 00:53:09,807 --> 00:53:11,912 and my son went away to college. 912 00:53:12,016 --> 00:53:14,984 Everything that I knew, being a mother, and a wife, 913 00:53:15,088 --> 00:53:19,610 and my store just kind of came to a screeching halt. 914 00:53:19,713 --> 00:53:22,164 So I thought, "What am I gonna do? 915 00:53:22,268 --> 00:53:24,235 I don't know who I am anymore." 916 00:53:24,339 --> 00:53:26,686 It was like someone kicked me in the stomach. 917 00:53:26,789 --> 00:53:27,756 ♪ ♪ 918 00:53:27,859 --> 00:53:29,654 This is a good, solid frame 919 00:53:29,758 --> 00:53:32,036 using those old nails. 920 00:53:32,139 --> 00:53:35,039 That's pretty cool. 921 00:53:35,142 --> 00:53:38,353 Now pine again. 922 00:53:38,456 --> 00:53:40,907 ♪ ♪ 923 00:53:41,010 --> 00:53:43,081 I think I'll just start filling that in. 924 00:53:43,185 --> 00:53:45,877 ♪ ♪ 925 00:53:45,981 --> 00:53:48,086 I'm very purpose-driven. 926 00:53:48,190 --> 00:53:52,470 And to just exist without a great purpose 927 00:53:52,574 --> 00:53:54,852 wasn't something that I was gonna be able to do. 928 00:53:54,955 --> 00:53:57,682 So I just started doing what I loved. 929 00:53:57,786 --> 00:54:01,617 So it became my quest to teach the next generation hunting, 930 00:54:01,721 --> 00:54:05,828 hide tanning, and why it's beneficial to our environment. 931 00:54:05,932 --> 00:54:09,107 ♪ ♪ 932 00:54:09,211 --> 00:54:11,248 If I wouldn't have started to do something 933 00:54:11,351 --> 00:54:13,250 that I felt so passionate about, 934 00:54:13,353 --> 00:54:15,873 I would have been in really bad shape. 935 00:54:15,976 --> 00:54:18,013 I think maybe that's how I have to feel 936 00:54:18,116 --> 00:54:21,706 about this challenge that I have taken on. 937 00:54:21,810 --> 00:54:24,916 Being on "Alone," I can do this. 938 00:54:25,020 --> 00:54:28,437 There's no reason that I can't. 939 00:54:28,541 --> 00:54:31,164 I'm just gonna put that wire up there. 940 00:54:31,268 --> 00:54:36,342 And then it will just kind of hang right there. 941 00:54:36,445 --> 00:54:39,828 So at nighttime it will help block that wind a little bit. 942 00:54:39,931 --> 00:54:42,831 [dramatic music] 943 00:54:42,934 --> 00:54:49,941 ♪ ♪ 944 00:55:01,850 --> 00:55:04,680 - Look at that. That is just gorgeous. 945 00:55:04,784 --> 00:55:07,683 [shimmering tones] 946 00:55:07,787 --> 00:55:14,828 ♪ ♪ 947 00:55:15,726 --> 00:55:17,279 A double rainbow. 948 00:55:17,383 --> 00:55:22,388 ♪ ♪ 949 00:55:22,491 --> 00:55:23,734 [sighs] 950 00:55:23,837 --> 00:55:25,839 [tranquil music] 951 00:55:25,943 --> 00:55:28,117 I don't know what I did to deserve this. 952 00:55:28,221 --> 00:55:30,499 ♪ ♪ 953 00:55:30,603 --> 00:55:33,813 Look at that. That is just unbelievable. 954 00:55:33,916 --> 00:55:36,712 It's right there. 955 00:55:36,816 --> 00:55:40,475 Can almost reach out and grab it. 956 00:55:40,578 --> 00:55:43,443 This is something that I've always wanted to do. 957 00:55:43,547 --> 00:55:47,171 I've always wanted to see if all of these skills 958 00:55:47,274 --> 00:55:49,035 that I've spent my life developing 959 00:55:49,138 --> 00:55:50,623 could actually see me through 960 00:55:50,726 --> 00:55:55,938 a real-life wilderness survival situation. 961 00:55:56,042 --> 00:55:57,940 Nature is amazing. 962 00:55:58,044 --> 00:56:02,048 And it's a test of will 963 00:56:02,151 --> 00:56:05,741 when you grind against having not enough to eat, 964 00:56:05,845 --> 00:56:08,468 and in total isolation from your family. 965 00:56:08,572 --> 00:56:10,470 Those things suck. 966 00:56:10,574 --> 00:56:14,371 But suck is the price you pay to be out here. 967 00:56:14,474 --> 00:56:17,719 You don't get that sitting on your couch. 968 00:56:17,822 --> 00:56:20,031 I don't know if I've ever seen one so spectacular 969 00:56:20,135 --> 00:56:22,240 and so close-looking. 970 00:56:22,344 --> 00:56:24,381 Beautiful. 971 00:56:24,484 --> 00:56:28,523 I've studied Stoic philosophy for years. 972 00:56:28,626 --> 00:56:31,802 And you can know these things logically. 973 00:56:31,905 --> 00:56:36,772 But until you go through a time of struggle, 974 00:56:36,876 --> 00:56:39,119 you can't know it in your soul. 975 00:56:39,223 --> 00:56:43,676 Right now, that deer is everything to me. 976 00:56:43,779 --> 00:56:45,988 But it's not going to last forever. 977 00:56:46,092 --> 00:56:51,580 I want to win this thing, but that is a long way away. 978 00:56:51,684 --> 00:56:54,065 Maybe there's a pot of gold at the end. 979 00:56:59,485 --> 00:57:01,970 [dramatic music] 980 00:57:02,073 --> 00:57:09,115 ♪ ♪ 981 00:57:10,944 --> 00:57:12,152 - Nate, thanks for joining me. 982 00:57:12,256 --> 00:57:13,809 - Thanks for having me. It's good to be here. 983 00:57:13,913 --> 00:57:15,155 - You were a corpsman in the Navy, 984 00:57:15,259 --> 00:57:16,985 which is essentially a medic. 985 00:57:17,088 --> 00:57:20,160 You seem to really understand your body and what it needed. 986 00:57:20,264 --> 00:57:23,198 You know, when did you realize that you were near your limit? 987 00:57:23,301 --> 00:57:26,270 - I always had an idea. I mean, I've been thin before. 988 00:57:26,373 --> 00:57:29,204 My experience as a wrestler-- I know, I've been fasting, 989 00:57:29,307 --> 00:57:30,654 and I've lost a lot of weight 990 00:57:30,757 --> 00:57:32,897 and been below 3 percent body fat in the past. 991 00:57:33,001 --> 00:57:36,073 So I knew my limitations in my mind. 992 00:57:36,176 --> 00:57:37,454 But I also have a stubborn side, 993 00:57:37,557 --> 00:57:40,008 which likes to take on that challenge 994 00:57:40,111 --> 00:57:43,770 and push myself as far as I can possibly push myself. 995 00:57:43,874 --> 00:57:44,909 And I pushed it. 996 00:57:45,013 --> 00:57:46,532 I pushed past it until I got sick. 997 00:57:46,635 --> 00:57:49,466 [coughing, retching] 998 00:57:49,569 --> 00:57:50,950 And then that was the end for me, 999 00:57:51,053 --> 00:57:52,986 where I knew I had gone beyond my red line 1000 00:57:53,090 --> 00:57:55,161 where I was comfortable taking my body. 1001 00:57:57,197 --> 00:57:59,786 - I learned a lot of new ideas watching you out there. 1002 00:57:59,890 --> 00:58:02,927 Your creative problem-solving was brilliant. 1003 00:58:03,031 --> 00:58:04,481 Let's talk about that pier. 1004 00:58:04,584 --> 00:58:07,587 That was an engineering masterpiece. 1005 00:58:07,691 --> 00:58:09,624 - I mean, I went through a whole bunch of different 1006 00:58:09,727 --> 00:58:11,488 design ideas and how to put it together. 1007 00:58:11,591 --> 00:58:14,180 But ideally, I didn't want to use any of my cordage for it, 1008 00:58:14,283 --> 00:58:16,078 'cause I knew it would take a lot of cordage 1009 00:58:16,182 --> 00:58:19,047 to hold something together like that in those waves. 1010 00:58:19,150 --> 00:58:22,809 So I just decided to peg it and build it that way. 1011 00:58:22,913 --> 00:58:25,432 What the *bleep*? 1012 00:58:25,536 --> 00:58:26,779 *bleep*. 1013 00:58:26,882 --> 00:58:29,195 I mean, I failed a bunch of times on the shoreline 1014 00:58:29,298 --> 00:58:32,957 before I tried to carry the second attempt out. 1015 00:58:33,061 --> 00:58:36,167 But, I mean, for me, failure, that's the process. 1016 00:58:36,271 --> 00:58:38,411 - Yeah. It's the only way you can make something work, 1017 00:58:38,515 --> 00:58:40,275 is by making a ton of mistakes. 1018 00:58:40,378 --> 00:58:41,414 - Right. - How did it feel 1019 00:58:41,518 --> 00:58:43,416 to finally have that pier in place? 1020 00:58:43,520 --> 00:58:46,488 - I was super excited, 'cause I had put so much into it. 1021 00:58:46,592 --> 00:58:49,353 And I saw so much potential in fishing beyond it. 1022 00:58:49,456 --> 00:58:50,837 Perfect. 1023 00:58:50,941 --> 00:58:52,598 - You found some really creative ways 1024 00:58:52,701 --> 00:58:54,634 to make yourself more comfortable out there. 1025 00:58:54,738 --> 00:58:57,499 That bed spring mattress was awesome. 1026 00:58:57,603 --> 00:58:59,984 - I've had two spine surgeries in my life. 1027 00:59:00,088 --> 00:59:02,642 So my back is a concern of mine. 1028 00:59:02,746 --> 00:59:05,611 It's great normally, but the second you start losing weight 1029 00:59:05,714 --> 00:59:07,129 you start to lose a lot of the fat pad 1030 00:59:07,233 --> 00:59:08,545 that you're used to having. 1031 00:59:08,648 --> 00:59:10,926 And that's your comfort when you're lying down. 1032 00:59:11,030 --> 00:59:13,757 So I figured the best way to remedy that would be 1033 00:59:13,860 --> 00:59:16,173 to make a suspension bed. 1034 00:59:16,276 --> 00:59:17,588 Oh! 1035 00:59:17,692 --> 00:59:19,038 - That thing was sick. 1036 00:59:19,141 --> 00:59:21,005 It must have been just so nice and, like-- 1037 00:59:21,109 --> 00:59:22,697 - Changed everything. - I bet it did. 1038 00:59:22,800 --> 00:59:24,250 [laughter] 1039 00:59:24,353 --> 00:59:26,045 So let's talk about your mental game. 1040 00:59:26,148 --> 00:59:27,805 "Alone" can be a real challenge for people, 1041 00:59:27,909 --> 00:59:30,187 not just physically but mentally. 1042 00:59:30,290 --> 00:59:32,327 How did you think that your military training 1043 00:59:32,430 --> 00:59:34,640 and your experience was gonna help you on the show? 1044 00:59:34,743 --> 00:59:36,055 - I think my military experience, 1045 00:59:36,158 --> 00:59:39,437 or just my experience over the last 3 decades, 1046 00:59:39,541 --> 00:59:41,888 it involves deployments and being away from family. 1047 00:59:41,992 --> 00:59:43,752 I've been there before, so I know 1048 00:59:43,856 --> 00:59:46,548 that my separation from home 1049 00:59:46,652 --> 00:59:48,792 and that trusting my wife will take care of the house, 1050 00:59:48,895 --> 00:59:50,034 and not having to worry about my kids, 1051 00:59:50,138 --> 00:59:51,415 and stuff like that, 1052 00:59:51,518 --> 00:59:53,348 that alleviates a lot of stress. 1053 00:59:53,451 --> 00:59:56,454 Challenge is can you be alone? 1054 00:59:56,558 --> 00:59:58,767 ♪ ♪ 1055 00:59:58,871 --> 01:00:00,527 Oh, I think I can be. 1056 01:00:00,631 --> 01:00:02,668 But this game is just a little bit different 1057 01:00:02,771 --> 01:00:04,877 when it comes to that, 'cause you are isolated. 1058 01:00:04,980 --> 01:00:06,223 You don't have that conversation piece, 1059 01:00:06,326 --> 01:00:07,569 except with yourself. 1060 01:00:07,673 --> 01:00:10,089 So it really does force you to search yourself 1061 01:00:10,192 --> 01:00:11,815 and try to figure things out. 1062 01:00:11,918 --> 01:00:13,402 So it wasn't that I had 1063 01:00:13,506 --> 01:00:15,094 a tremendous advantage in that sense. 1064 01:00:15,197 --> 01:00:18,235 It's just that I've been through the process before. 1065 01:00:18,338 --> 01:00:20,893 But what I found was the hardest part was that, 1066 01:00:20,996 --> 01:00:23,412 when I was in the military and separated from family, 1067 01:00:23,516 --> 01:00:25,138 I didn't have a choice. - Mm. 1068 01:00:25,242 --> 01:00:26,553 - It was an obligation and I was there. 1069 01:00:26,657 --> 01:00:29,004 I couldn't just go home. 1070 01:00:29,108 --> 01:00:30,972 And being out here, you had that freedom. 1071 01:00:31,075 --> 01:00:32,870 I had the opportunity to get on the radio 1072 01:00:32,974 --> 01:00:34,700 or the phone and say, "Hey. 1073 01:00:34,803 --> 01:00:36,633 I'm gonna go back to where I'm comfortable." 1074 01:00:36,736 --> 01:00:38,289 So that was a challenge for me. 1075 01:00:38,393 --> 01:00:40,844 Almost completely convinced myself 1076 01:00:40,947 --> 01:00:45,193 that it was perfectly fine to tap out this morning. 1077 01:00:45,296 --> 01:00:46,884 What a weird day. 1078 01:00:46,988 --> 01:00:49,576 - There's a lot of long, dark nights in our shelters. 1079 01:00:49,680 --> 01:00:51,268 - The rainy days were the hardest. 1080 01:00:51,371 --> 01:00:53,719 You're in your thoughts and in your head most of it. 1081 01:00:53,822 --> 01:00:54,823 It was a struggle. 1082 01:00:54,927 --> 01:00:56,031 When you're out there, 1083 01:00:56,135 --> 01:00:57,826 you start to put things in perspective. 1084 01:00:57,930 --> 01:00:59,379 I know that if I talked to my wife, 1085 01:00:59,483 --> 01:01:00,829 she'd be like, "You're done." 1086 01:01:00,933 --> 01:01:03,452 My life's just always been this fast-paced 1087 01:01:03,556 --> 01:01:06,421 mission completion and stay focused on the tasks. 1088 01:01:06,524 --> 01:01:08,319 And I never really take time to pause 1089 01:01:08,423 --> 01:01:10,252 and think about what's going on. 1090 01:01:10,356 --> 01:01:13,083 You know, you just make quick decisions and try to adjust. 1091 01:01:13,186 --> 01:01:18,226 So this really slowed me down and let me take pause 1092 01:01:18,329 --> 01:01:20,884 and think about my life and what's going on. 1093 01:01:20,987 --> 01:01:22,609 - Nate, it was a real pleasure meeting you. 1094 01:01:22,713 --> 01:01:25,164 I learned so much from your journey out there. 1095 01:01:25,267 --> 01:01:27,028 Thanks for sharing it with us. All the best. 1096 01:01:27,131 --> 01:01:28,063 - Thanks. 1097 01:01:28,167 --> 01:01:29,789 - Man, it's freezing. 1098 01:01:29,893 --> 01:01:31,549 *bleep*. 1099 01:01:31,653 --> 01:01:34,863 ♪ ♪ 1100 01:01:34,967 --> 01:01:36,416 - I think I'd like to start 1101 01:01:36,520 --> 01:01:38,556 bringing rocks up for the fireplace. 1102 01:01:38,660 --> 01:01:39,661 ♪ ♪ 1103 01:01:39,765 --> 01:01:41,698 Oh, *bleep*. 1104 01:01:41,801 --> 01:01:42,940 - Oh, *bleep*. 1105 01:01:43,044 --> 01:01:44,977 There are bear tracks right through camp. 1106 01:01:45,080 --> 01:01:46,219 That little bastard. 1107 01:01:46,323 --> 01:01:49,844 I have to be prepared to engage a bear. 1108 01:01:49,947 --> 01:01:52,501 - Oh, there he is. Right there. *bleep*. 1109 01:01:52,605 --> 01:01:54,918 Get out of here! [air horn blares] 1110 01:01:55,021 --> 01:01:57,023 There is a point that this is not worth it. 1111 01:01:57,127 --> 01:02:02,235 ♪ ♪