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- Right before he left his office,

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right before he got
into one of the worst car

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accidents in New Jersey
state troopers had ever seen.

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My father called me.

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I was at an internship,
but I thought was important.

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I watched the phone ring,
his number on the caller ID.

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Daddy called in.

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Daddy was always calling,
and he was always there

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at gasoline and pursuit
of slices at midnight.

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I'd be fucked up forever,
because I've been looked so well.

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I didn't pick it up.

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I let it go to voicemail.

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He didn't leave a long message.

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Hi, baby.

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You're dead.

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Just calling to say I love you.

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That took my years to listen to it.

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Years to wait, because I was so worried.

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There would be a clue, and
I'm about to die a little girl

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and just calling to say I
love you one last time.

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And I just picked up the phone.

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And I just focused on the real, important
thing, but how can you ever know?

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And will come to me in a dream?

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I was supposed to write
a book to prove to my

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father that I didn't
have to be a doctor, too.

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I didn't have to save people his way.

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What was my way, though?

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So far, I'd known two
women who mostly saved me.

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I couldn't tell at first if I
was saving them back.

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I hadn't yet met the person
who really needed me.

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And the specific joints
that had broken a name

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was in fairy pieces I
could use to help her.

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Tell the world her name.

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Oh!

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You already know, I guess.

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I may like to read
about it in the paper, so.

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Not fricking guilty.

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Green state is teacher of the year.

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It went back to me.

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I couldn't accept my dad's death.

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I couldn't throw out his new slippers.

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I paid psychics money.

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I didn't have to tell me
I would see him again.

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I felt the only reason to
hang around was to be there

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for others, who'd also
lost the unknowns at all.

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I got you.

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I love you, mate.

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You were supposed to
have me, but I could tell me.

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I have to be you.

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I think assholes are still alive,
but I didn't have to be you.

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Can I get you?

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Are you okay?

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Yeah.

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What? Nothing.

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I just, your therapist said,
"You can't leave you alone.

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" You're not.

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That hated growth.

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You can't shut them up.

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Calling all the time.

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What?

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They want me to just shut up and die.

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Take it easy, man.

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We're not like in the godfather.

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It's reported, call me.

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Another one?

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Well, this one wasn't from around here.

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She was from New Yorker.

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Even better.

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What did she want? My story.

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Well, fuck her.

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Oh, yeah.

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But what?

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What about telling
my story? Megs.

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Remember the way
dad exploded that stuff?

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It was no good for him.

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We got to be better.

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Maybe?

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It's not the worst thing to
just put our heads down.

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Let this shit go away.

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And what?

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He let that fucker be the good guy.

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Freaky teacher.

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Freaky near.

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His name.

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Up.

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Fucking lights.

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Where are you going?

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Chicago!

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Anything? Always.

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Good.

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Dr. You were called me.

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You haven't made an appointment.

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I have to be honest, Meg Bimba.

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I don't know if you have a
thing you'll to be a mother.

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You're like me.

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I mean, just before my mom died,

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she asked me to help her
through the little old boyfriend.

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Was he fat?

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I love boogling more boyfriends
and seeing how fat they are now.

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I'm used for age.

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She could have had a
completely different life.

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But was he fat? I don't know.

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I don't know.

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You didn't schedule
the skin yet.

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Is that right?

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I'm not ready yet to find
out for sure that I'm dying.

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You're going to find out how
to treat whatever it is you have.

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I just have to finish something first.

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Well, get to it.

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You're the mother now.

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Stop.

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What?

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What?

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What?

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What do I do?

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Hope he didn't come here to kill me.

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You'll be kidding?

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He would kill himself before he killed me.

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Oh.

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Well, in that case, we should be fine.

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No, no, wait.

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We should go back to the hospital.

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We should go back to the hospital.

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Come on, stop.

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What the fuck you fucked, Jia?

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Okay, calm down.

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Are you a new friend? Mm-hmm.

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I'd be careful because she
goes through friends quick.

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Oh, I go through him even quicker.

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Jia, today's your due date.

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She came a couple days early.

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I had an emergency C-section.

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Well, is she okay? Yeah.

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Sorry that I didn't call you.

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Why would you call me?

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Because my baby was being born.

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I mean, no need for that, right?

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She's been going through a lot.

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I don't fucking know that.

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You want to have a conversation you want
to scare the shit out of your daughter?

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What's in there?

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She doesn't work.

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She just wants people
to think in the world.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Now you can never have to your mom.

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I grew up Pia and Jia.

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I was really hoping to avoid
passing along that child in drama.

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Oh, if you had Jack in
the middle, it's less late.

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Mm-hm.

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Be really careful with her.

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I was thinking of Fox.

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She's a wild beast.

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Fuckin' love it.

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Yeah? Yeah.

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Little Fox.

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Hey, momma bag is getting
shit out of you little Fox.

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Isn't that my job?

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I can't tell me you don't want
to say you don't want family.

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I don't want to lose a family.

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Yeah, I swear to you, I will not die.

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You will not die until she's
like, you know, 187 years old.

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You swear?

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You're married to a chef, this is silly.

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Well, well, when are you
gonna cut the bullshit?

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This isn't good for Sophie.

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The separate homes.

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I'm bright in the barn.

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Like a horse.

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Excuse me, like a what?

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Whatever happened between
you and Richard, you need to fix it.

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You want me to take responsibility.

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Naturally.

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It's all connected, you know.

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I'm sorry?

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I didn't just materialize like this
one day, mom, you made me like this.

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Wait, I want it to be a
woman to the outside world.

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The world couldn't care less about how
you want your black woman that's regarded.

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You want to know why I
fleshed the toilet twice?

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All those times?

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And you want to know
what I did to my marriage?

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Not sure what you've heard, mom,
but it's not that we fucked other people.

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We've been doing that.

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The night the shit hit the fan,
I was riding the oyster farmer.

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And the white girl was sitting
on my husband's beautiful face.

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I'm in the barn, like a horse, because I
lied to my husband because I wanted more.

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More even than what he gives me,
and it's all because of you, you know.

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Sorry, mom.

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Just needed to get some makeup.

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My, my, I was like a horse
head, but it tastes like horse shit.

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Really?

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I miss you so much.

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Please.

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I am begging you.

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Don't, don't, don't do that.

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Please.

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Don't do that.

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And I miss you.

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I miss you so much, I
miss everything about you.

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Can you please just let me
come along? Please, please.

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You know that over the
course of our life together.

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Sometimes I have to
stop and go and hold up.

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Is my wife a slut?

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Is my wife a fucking slut?

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Some nights, you know, I felt old.

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And I watch you with
these young dudes, and.

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I'm sorry.

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At first, he's out through
the regular rock source.

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We're scientists.

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We're from teens, scientists.

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Mom?

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Where we going?

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Mom, yes, sweetie.

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Where's the park? Oh, yeah.

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No, we gotta go home.

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You promised me, we're going to the park.

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I did not promise any time.

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This is a date.

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I said if there was time
and there's no time.

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It's indeed.

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You promised we were going to the park.

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I used to remember people in
your phone and not listening to me.

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I just like your dumb
phone only all the time.

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All right, that's all.

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Hey, how's shop now?

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We're going to go to the park.

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Do you know that it cost
an extra 19 buckaroos

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to leave Elliot a daycare
for two more hours?

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Oh, this is, I mean, right?

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That's like five Daniel Tiger toys.

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Daniel Tigers for babies.

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Lay your mind baby.

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Whatever.

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Yay!

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Check in one.

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Mom? Yeah.

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Can you not open your phone?

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Of course we need.

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Can you leave it in the car, please?

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Thanks.

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What do you think?

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It's great, thank you.

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All right, absolutely, thanks.

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Hey.

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She doesn't need the change, she's rich.

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00:18:13,121 --> 00:18:15,120
Hey, stop making me chase you.

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I'm fucking pregnant.

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I ran six miles a day when I was pregnant.

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What do you want?

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00:18:22,121 --> 00:18:23,120
Are you kidding?

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I started telling people, at first I was
ashamed, and then I was like, fuck that.

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I'm not the one who should be ashamed.

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You are a fucking slut.

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What are you gonna do when
Sophie starts asking you about this?

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When she asks why there are friends
houses she won't be able to go to.

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When my daughter asks me, why
she can't go over someone's house,

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why a grown ass woman would
hold something against a child?

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I'm gonna tell her it's because
that person is a fucking asshole.

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And you can hate me instead of
hating your man, and that's cool.

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00:19:03,121 --> 00:19:08,120
But one thing, we should probably
stop calling each other sluts.

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You don't want that shit
to come back around.

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Come on, come here.

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Okay, see you ready?

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One thing to get ready for what?

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00:19:28,121 --> 00:19:30,120
Wait, wait, wait, wait, what?

266
00:19:32,121 --> 00:19:34,120
Wow, that was so cool.

267
00:19:34,121 --> 00:19:36,120
Why didn't you learn how
to do that? I don't know.

268
00:19:40,121 --> 00:19:41,120
Mom?

269
00:19:47,121 --> 00:19:51,120
All right, can you stop taking
the Lord's name in vain, please?

270
00:19:51,121 --> 00:19:56,120
All right.

271
00:19:56,121 --> 00:20:02,120
Okay.

272
00:20:02,121 --> 00:20:06,120
You know what, Ryan,
I'm gonna be right out.

273
00:20:06,121 --> 00:20:07,120
Wait, no, please, guys.

274
00:20:07,121 --> 00:20:08,120
It's okay, Brian.

275
00:20:08,121 --> 00:20:12,120
It's okay.

276
00:20:12,121 --> 00:20:13,120
Right here.

277
00:20:34,121 --> 00:20:39,120
You done?

278
00:21:00,121 --> 00:21:02,120
Are you okay?

279
00:21:56,121 --> 00:22:00,120
Like all of a sudden.

280
00:22:00,121 --> 00:22:02,120
Did you say why?

281
00:22:05,121 --> 00:22:06,120
That's their loss.

282
00:22:06,121 --> 00:22:08,120
You hear me?

283
00:22:08,121 --> 00:22:11,120
Come on.

284
00:26:35,121 --> 00:26:36,120
>> You don't like it here?

285
00:26:36,121 --> 00:26:37,120
>> I don't like having a job.

286
00:26:37,121 --> 00:26:38,120
I neither do.

287
00:26:38,121 --> 00:26:41,120
Everyone treats me like a fucking idiot.

288
00:26:41,121 --> 00:26:42,120
Or a slut?

289
00:26:42,121 --> 00:26:44,120
>> Yeah?

290
00:26:44,121 --> 00:26:45,120
>> Yeah, he hush, please.

291
00:26:45,121 --> 00:26:49,120
If you can't keep your private
life at home, you just can't work it.

292
00:26:49,121 --> 00:26:51,120
If you can't keep your private life.

293
00:26:51,121 --> 00:26:54,120
It's all over the fucking TV, you
will let him have him go get it.

294
00:26:54,121 --> 00:26:57,120
>> Why don't you take the rest of
the day to cool off? >> Thank you.

295
00:27:00,121 --> 00:27:02,120
>> Peace out Perkins!

296
00:27:18,121 --> 00:27:22,120
>> Hey bud, mama's going to
talk to her friend for a second.

297
00:27:22,121 --> 00:27:24,120
I can't play with my mom.

298
00:27:24,121 --> 00:27:26,120
>> I'm good.

299
00:27:30,121 --> 00:27:40,120
>> You brought a- >> Yeah, but I'm-
>> I'm the one to talk to you real quick.

300
00:27:40,121 --> 00:27:42,120
>> Hello.

301
00:27:42,121 --> 00:27:43,120
>> Fresh pack.

302
00:27:45,121 --> 00:27:47,120
>> Why don't you take the whole thing?

303
00:27:47,121 --> 00:27:48,120
>> What?

304
00:27:52,121 --> 00:27:57,120
>> I just bring them for you, so you'll
leave these meetings wanting to meet again.

305
00:28:01,121 --> 00:28:04,120
>> Kid, you kind of smell like shit.

306
00:28:04,121 --> 00:28:08,120
>> No, I thought there was a
magic formula, but-

307
00:28:08,121 --> 00:28:09,120
>> Is that okay?

308
00:28:09,121 --> 00:28:14,120
Maybe if I wait for 14 minutes while
I was standing on my fucking head,

309
00:28:14,121 --> 00:28:17,120
saying the Lord's prayer, then
this name will write me back.

310
00:28:24,121 --> 00:28:27,120
>> Good, you know I'm not a free man.

311
00:28:27,121 --> 00:28:28,120
>> That's bullshit, Aiden.

312
00:28:28,121 --> 00:28:30,120
>> You felt plenty free when
you were coming inside me.

313
00:28:39,121 --> 00:28:41,120
>> That's not your fault.

314
00:28:48,121 --> 00:28:52,120
>> And anyway, I don't,
that stuff was good for me.

315
00:28:52,121 --> 00:28:53,120
It's fun for me.

316
00:28:56,121 --> 00:29:00,120
>> I mean, it was
heartbreaking fun, but it was fun.

317
00:29:04,121 --> 00:29:06,120
>> And I needed fun in my life.

318
00:29:06,121 --> 00:29:07,120
>> Yeah.

319
00:29:07,121 --> 00:29:10,120
>> You're the most fun kid.

320
00:29:10,121 --> 00:29:13,120
>> I'm sorry.

321
00:29:13,121 --> 00:29:17,120
>> Please don't be sorry.

322
00:29:17,121 --> 00:29:19,120
That is something I want you to know.

323
00:29:19,121 --> 00:29:21,120
I wasn't control.

324
00:29:21,121 --> 00:29:26,120
Just wanted what you could not give me.

325
00:29:30,121 --> 00:29:32,120
>> It's all I just don't want that thing.

326
00:29:49,121 --> 00:29:51,120
>> This is over.

327
00:29:58,121 --> 00:30:05,120
>> You know, get you know I care for you.

328
00:30:08,121 --> 00:30:09,120
>> No, you don't.

329
00:30:09,121 --> 00:30:17,120
>> Gotta go.

330
00:30:20,121 --> 00:30:21,120
>> I got the boy.

331
00:30:23,121 --> 00:30:28,120
>> My other boy.

332
00:30:31,121 --> 00:30:34,120
>> And I smell like shit.

333
00:30:34,121 --> 00:30:35,120
Cuz I'm covered.

334
00:30:40,121 --> 00:30:43,120
>> Can you just take
this for the smokes then?

335
00:30:49,121 --> 00:30:54,120
>> Okay, come on.

336
00:31:38,121 --> 00:31:40,120
>> Shit, what the hell?

337
00:31:44,121 --> 00:31:46,120
>> You're a crazy bitch.

338
00:31:46,121 --> 00:31:47,120
>> And I'm tired.

339
00:31:47,121 --> 00:31:51,120
I'm not sleeping next to
my goddamn husband.

340
00:31:53,121 --> 00:31:56,120
>> You don't ever call your wife a slut.

341
00:31:56,121 --> 00:31:57,120
>> Do you hear me?

342
00:31:57,121 --> 00:32:01,120
>> I am not a slut.

343
00:32:01,121 --> 00:32:03,120
Nobody is.

344
00:32:03,121 --> 00:32:06,120
That word means absolutely nothing.

345
00:32:06,121 --> 00:32:10,120
And I may be messy as
hell, but I'm fucking great.

346
00:32:10,121 --> 00:32:12,120
And you don't deserve me.

347
00:32:12,121 --> 00:32:13,120
Nobody does.

348
00:33:34,121 --> 00:33:38,120
>> How about we have
it be just me for a while?

349
00:33:40,121 --> 00:33:42,120
>> I am so sorry.

350
00:33:42,121 --> 00:33:43,120
>> I am.

351
00:33:43,121 --> 00:33:46,120
>> I am.

352
00:34:16,121 --> 00:34:22,120
>> Hey, Max.

353
00:34:22,121 --> 00:34:28,120
I think I was wrong, Kato.

354
00:34:28,121 --> 00:34:31,120
Sometimes you need more
than a little boost from God.

355
00:34:31,121 --> 00:34:34,120
You have the power, Max.

356
00:34:34,121 --> 00:34:37,120
He's already in here, and it won't be easy.

357
00:34:37,121 --> 00:34:40,120
But I want you to go get those fuckers.

358
00:34:40,121 --> 00:34:42,120
I love you, Max.

359
00:34:50,121 --> 00:34:54,120
>> Why is it easy to say
I love you inside of me?

360
00:34:54,121 --> 00:34:58,120
But not just I love you, may not ask me.

361
00:34:58,121 --> 00:35:02,120
Why is loving someone who
doesn't love you back in humiliation?

362
00:35:04,121 --> 00:35:07,120
Because we are condemned
when we take our faces off.

363
00:35:07,121 --> 00:35:10,120
We are condemned when
we break from the script.

364
00:35:10,121 --> 00:35:12,120
A script none of us even wrote.

365
00:35:12,121 --> 00:35:14,120
>> You got to say your name?

366
00:35:14,121 --> 00:35:17,120
>> You got to tell the whole
world your name? Maggie.

367
00:35:17,121 --> 00:35:18,120
>> Maggie.

368
00:35:18,121 --> 00:35:19,120
>> Maggie.

369
00:35:19,121 --> 00:35:20,120
>> Maggie.

370
00:35:20,121 --> 00:35:21,120
>> Nina new.

371
00:35:21,121 --> 00:35:22,120
>> Nice.

372
00:35:22,121 --> 00:35:23,120
>> Maggie.

373
00:35:23,121 --> 00:35:28,120
>> They realized it was time
to stop pretending that what

374
00:35:28,121 --> 00:35:31,120
they wanted didn't matter
as much as it fucking should.

375
00:35:31,121 --> 00:35:33,120
>> Maggie.

376
00:35:33,121 --> 00:35:34,120
>> Maggie.

377
00:35:34,121 --> 00:35:35,120
>> Maggie.

378
00:35:35,121 --> 00:35:37,120
>> Maggie.

379
00:35:37,121 --> 00:35:38,120
>> Maggie.

380
00:35:38,121 --> 00:35:39,120
>> Maggie.

381
00:35:39,121 --> 00:35:40,120
>> Maggie.

382
00:35:40,121 --> 00:35:47,120
>> Maggie.

383
00:35:47,121 --> 00:35:52,120
>> Maggie.

384
00:35:52,121 --> 00:35:55,120
>> Maggie.

385
00:35:55,121 --> 00:35:57,120
>> Hey.

386
00:35:57,121 --> 00:36:06,120
>> I got to go.

387
00:36:06,121 --> 00:36:12,120
I'm catching the next ferry.

388
00:36:12,121 --> 00:36:14,120
>> Wait what what what's going on?

389
00:36:14,121 --> 00:36:17,120
>> I just wanted to come and say bye.

390
00:36:17,121 --> 00:36:20,120
>> You want to calm down
and come in for a second?

391
00:36:20,121 --> 00:36:21,120
>> I don't have time.

392
00:36:21,121 --> 00:36:22,120
>> You have time.

393
00:36:22,121 --> 00:36:23,120
>> Sloan, I don't have chia.

394
00:36:23,121 --> 00:36:24,120
>> I know the ferry schedule.

395
00:36:24,121 --> 00:36:25,120
>> You're sleeping.

396
00:36:25,121 --> 00:36:26,120
>> I got it.

397
00:36:26,121 --> 00:36:30,120
>> Where are you going?

398
00:36:30,121 --> 00:36:32,120
>> Where is Jack?

399
00:36:32,121 --> 00:36:34,120
>> Jack's in New York.

400
00:36:34,121 --> 00:36:35,120
>> I didn't miss shit.

401
00:36:35,121 --> 00:36:37,120
>> So he's coming back.

402
00:36:37,121 --> 00:36:41,120
>> And that's a good
thing, yeah? >> I'm dying.

403
00:36:41,121 --> 00:36:43,120
>> Sloan.

404
00:36:43,121 --> 00:36:47,120
>> You have no idea how
easy it is for death to find you.

405
00:36:47,121 --> 00:36:52,120
And unless you experience
it, you don't worry about it.

406
00:36:52,121 --> 00:36:55,120
If I cut it off right
now, then it'll hurt less.

407
00:36:55,121 --> 00:36:57,120
>> And you're making this decision for him.

408
00:36:57,121 --> 00:36:58,120
>> And for me.

409
00:36:58,121 --> 00:37:00,120
>> And for everyone.

410
00:37:00,121 --> 00:37:04,120
>> If you leave like this,
it's basically kidnapping.

411
00:37:04,121 --> 00:37:07,142
>> You know, one
thing that I like really dig

412
00:37:07,154 --> 00:37:10,120
about you is you usually
mind your business.

413
00:37:10,121 --> 00:37:13,120
>> Who's the one running
around asking everyone on earth?

414
00:37:13,121 --> 00:37:17,120
>> What it feels like to
suck a dick and eat a pussy.

415
00:37:17,121 --> 00:37:19,120
Pretending to be a journalist.

416
00:37:19,121 --> 00:37:21,120
>> I was telling your story.

417
00:37:21,121 --> 00:37:23,120
>> That's you.

418
00:37:23,121 --> 00:37:27,120
>> That is wildly altruistic.

419
00:37:27,121 --> 00:37:30,120
>> You don't want to talk to me
anymore, you don't want to have to.

420
00:37:30,121 --> 00:37:33,120
You would not be the first
to stop when I totally get it.

421
00:37:33,121 --> 00:37:34,120
>> Okay, girl.

422
00:37:34,121 --> 00:37:38,120
>> I just came to say goodbye.

423
00:37:38,121 --> 00:37:40,120
>> Then goodbye.

424
00:38:16,121 --> 00:38:19,120
>> If you're a woman, they'll find the
worst things they can say about you.

425
00:38:19,121 --> 00:38:22,120
It's cruelest when other women do it.

426
00:38:22,121 --> 00:38:23,120
>> Yeah.

427
00:38:23,121 --> 00:38:24,120
>> Forget it.

428
00:38:24,121 --> 00:38:25,120
>> Look all you fat.

429
00:38:25,121 --> 00:38:27,120
They'll call you a whore.

430
00:38:27,121 --> 00:38:30,120
A bad mom.

431
00:38:30,121 --> 00:38:33,120
>> Hey.

432
00:38:33,121 --> 00:38:36,120
>> They'll do it.

433
00:38:36,121 --> 00:38:40,120
>> Because it's been done to them.

434
00:38:50,121 --> 00:38:54,120
>> It's Jaya.

435
00:38:54,121 --> 00:38:56,120
Leave a message.

436
00:38:56,121 --> 00:38:57,120
Bye.

437
00:38:57,121 --> 00:39:00,174
>> I had this feeling as
I was on the bottom of

438
00:39:00,186 --> 00:39:03,120
the way to this elitist
piece of shit island.

439
00:39:03,121 --> 00:39:11,120
>> The year and disappear
would never do this to you.

440
00:39:11,121 --> 00:39:18,120
>> And my second
thought was no, no, no, no.

441
00:39:18,121 --> 00:39:23,120
No one is that much of a cliche.

442
00:39:23,121 --> 00:39:25,120
No smart person.

443
00:39:25,121 --> 00:39:30,120
Is that much of a prisoner to
their own psych 101 bullshit?

444
00:39:30,121 --> 00:39:33,120
>> And the tragedy here is
that you think it's interesting.

445
00:39:33,121 --> 00:39:35,120
That being an unhinged sociopath.

446
00:39:35,121 --> 00:39:40,120
Somehow makes you interesting that
this poor man's gun so churn with him act.

447
00:39:40,121 --> 00:39:41,120
It's fucking interesting.

448
00:39:44,121 --> 00:39:51,120
All you are, all you ever
will be is a bad mom.

449
00:39:54,121 --> 00:39:56,120
And you know what else?

450
00:39:56,121 --> 00:39:59,120
Your fucking teeth are not age appropriate.

451
00:39:59,121 --> 00:40:02,120
It's a fuck, you.

452
00:40:10,121 --> 00:40:13,120
>> I think we all do the
best we can is what I think.

453
00:40:13,121 --> 00:40:18,120
And I think anyone who has
something to say can go fuck himself.

454
00:40:18,121 --> 00:40:20,120
>> I'm going to phone my keys.

455
00:40:20,121 --> 00:40:25,120
I need a call to police
to poor child kidnapping.

456
00:40:25,121 --> 00:40:28,120
My child's been abducted.

457
00:40:28,121 --> 00:40:29,120
>> Thank you.

458
00:40:34,121 --> 00:40:38,120
>> Oh, should I die locally or do I
just die on that one one? >> Fuck it.

459
00:40:38,121 --> 00:40:41,120
>> I'd learned so
much from the woman.

460
00:40:41,121 --> 00:40:44,120
I'd learned from them what I had
not yet learned from my mother.

461
00:40:44,121 --> 00:40:47,120
But I wasn't done.

462
00:40:47,121 --> 00:40:50,120
And the book could not be done until her.

463
00:40:50,121 --> 00:40:52,120
Until my day.

464
00:40:52,121 --> 00:40:55,120
She was the kind that left a legacy.

465
00:40:55,121 --> 00:40:57,120
I read it in her story in the paper.

466
00:40:57,121 --> 00:41:00,120
I could hear her screaming
between the lines.

467
00:41:00,121 --> 00:41:02,510
And I could feel all the
regular people out there

468
00:41:02,522 --> 00:41:05,120
thrusting their hands out
in an attempt to quiet her.

469
00:41:07,121 --> 00:41:09,120
But now is not the time to be quiet.

470
00:41:09,121 --> 00:41:13,120
>> Okay.

471
00:41:13,121 --> 00:41:14,120
>> Hey.

472
00:41:14,121 --> 00:41:15,120
>> Oh my God.

473
00:41:15,121 --> 00:41:17,120
>> It's driving through?

474
00:41:17,121 --> 00:41:19,120
>> Yeah, exactly.

475
00:41:22,121 --> 00:41:24,120
>> Who is that?

476
00:41:24,121 --> 00:41:26,120
>> I was actually going to
ask you the same question.

477
00:41:26,121 --> 00:41:27,120
>> I don't know.

478
00:41:27,121 --> 00:41:28,120
I just found it in the booth.

479
00:41:31,121 --> 00:41:38,120
You don't know who you want to do?

480
00:41:38,121 --> 00:41:40,120
I'm sorry, I just showed up like this.

481
00:41:40,121 --> 00:41:41,120
I don't really know what I'm going to do.

482
00:41:41,121 --> 00:41:43,120
I just wanted to meet you.

483
00:41:43,121 --> 00:41:44,120
>> So weird or anything?

484
00:41:44,121 --> 00:41:45,120
>> Yeah, I'm sorry.

485
00:41:46,121 --> 00:41:48,120
>> Stop saying sorry.

486
00:41:51,121 --> 00:41:55,120
>> I guess I just wanted to say to
you that no matter what happens,

487
00:41:55,121 --> 00:41:59,120
>> Even if we never speak
again, I believe you're my game.

488
00:41:59,121 --> 00:42:02,120
I believe that everything you
said happened to you is true.

489
00:42:02,121 --> 00:42:07,120
And that what that guy did
to you is so utterly wrong.

490
00:42:07,121 --> 00:42:09,120
>> You're a teacher.

491
00:42:09,121 --> 00:42:12,120
>> You're supposed to give a
shit about what happened to you.

492
00:42:12,121 --> 00:42:15,120
Why didn't he give a shit
about what happened to him?

493
00:42:23,121 --> 00:42:25,120
>> You really fucking believe me?

494
00:42:25,121 --> 00:42:27,120
>> I really fucking believe you.

495
00:42:35,121 --> 00:42:37,120
>> I could never do what you've done.

496
00:42:37,121 --> 00:42:41,120
>> And stand there and be okay.

497
00:42:41,121 --> 00:42:47,120
>> Like when my father died, I didn't
leave my house for like five years.

498
00:42:50,121 --> 00:42:54,120
>> Maybe then you should stay.

499
00:42:54,121 --> 00:42:56,120
>> You could be brave together.

500
00:42:56,121 --> 00:42:58,120
>> Yeah?

501
00:43:02,121 --> 00:43:05,120
>> I want to tell the world your story.

502
00:43:05,121 --> 00:43:09,120
Because there are people
out there who will believe you.

503
00:43:09,121 --> 00:43:11,120
I think like lots of people.

504
00:43:18,121 --> 00:43:20,120
>> When I told you to pick a place.

505
00:43:20,121 --> 00:43:23,120
I said to myself, she picked
donut hut and I'll meet her.

506
00:43:23,121 --> 00:43:24,120
>> Really?

507
00:43:24,121 --> 00:43:26,120
>> Yeah, my dad's favorite.

508
00:43:26,121 --> 00:43:36,120
So you'll stay.

509
00:43:44,121 --> 00:43:46,120
>> Can I hug you?

510
00:43:49,121 --> 00:43:51,120
>> I love you for you.

511
00:44:10,121 --> 00:44:12,120
>> The other thing people
always wanted to know.

512
00:44:12,121 --> 00:44:17,120
Besides why these three
women was, what did you learn?

513
00:44:21,121 --> 00:44:24,120
Talking to these women and to
hundreds more for hours and hours and

514
00:44:24,121 --> 00:44:27,120
living in their towns and
going to the doctor within

515
00:44:27,121 --> 00:44:29,120
and going to meet their
lovers and what did you learn?

516
00:44:38,121 --> 00:44:41,120
>> What I learned is
somewhat the same answer

517
00:44:41,121 --> 00:44:43,120
to the question of, why
these three women?

518
00:44:46,121 --> 00:44:49,120
Because they are all of us.

519
00:44:49,121 --> 00:44:53,120
Because we are all in this
together and everybody counts

520
00:44:53,121 --> 00:44:56,120
the exact same amount,
even the bitches and the sluts.

521
00:45:09,121 --> 00:45:13,120
We don't want to hear that
other women struggle with

522
00:45:13,121 --> 00:45:17,120
their weight with their
looks, with aging, with status.

523
00:45:17,121 --> 00:45:20,120
We want to pretend
those struggles don't exist.

524
00:45:20,121 --> 00:45:22,221
That we don't look for
the lost or broken parts

525
00:45:22,233 --> 00:45:24,120
of ourselves in the
shape of other people.

526
00:45:34,121 --> 00:45:39,120
Why Lena? Why this unhappy housewife?

527
00:45:53,121 --> 00:45:58,120
I slow them with their unruly desire.

528
00:46:06,121 --> 00:46:10,120
And Maggie, I named her desire at all.

529
00:46:10,121 --> 00:46:14,120
I wasn't hers actually just wrong.

530
00:46:14,121 --> 00:46:19,120
But people attack nuance.
They attack aberration even as they bemoan,

531
00:46:19,121 --> 00:46:24,120
the lack of representation
of this group or that one.

532
00:46:26,121 --> 00:46:28,120
What I learned is this.

533
00:46:28,121 --> 00:46:32,120
We don't want to hear about what another
woman wants if it's something married.

534
00:46:32,121 --> 00:46:36,120
If it's something brutish, if it's
something we have wanted to and did not get.

535
00:46:39,121 --> 00:46:43,120
We don't want to hear a young woman
feels actualized by the gaze of a man.

536
00:46:43,121 --> 00:46:47,609
Even if hearing that and
witnessing the fall-outed weeks is the

537
00:46:47,621 --> 00:46:52,120
very thing that helps another
woman not make the same mistakes.

538
00:46:52,121 --> 00:46:56,120
What I learned is that
we all want to be loved.

539
00:46:56,121 --> 00:47:00,120
We all want to be seen and
loved for who we truly are.

540
00:47:00,121 --> 00:47:05,120
But even just saying that can be
the scariest thing in the whole world.

541
00:47:05,121 --> 00:47:07,120
You know what I learned?

542
00:47:07,121 --> 00:47:10,120
It doesn't matter what she wants.

543
00:47:10,121 --> 00:47:14,120
Just let her go and try and get it
because that is what she fucking deserves.

544
00:47:16,121 --> 00:47:18,120
That's what I learned.

545
00:47:27,121 --> 00:47:32,120
Excuse me.

546
00:47:32,121 --> 00:47:34,120
Thanks.

547
00:47:39,121 --> 00:47:42,120
You guys are going to give
her vacation? Yeah, sort of.

548
00:47:42,121 --> 00:47:46,120
She's going to be on TV.

549
00:47:46,121 --> 00:47:47,120
Mom, what? The today show.

550
00:47:47,121 --> 00:47:50,120
Really?

551
00:47:50,121 --> 00:47:52,120
She's in a book.

552
00:47:52,121 --> 00:47:53,120
Yeah.

553
00:47:56,121 --> 00:47:59,120
I never met anyone on TV before.

554
00:47:59,121 --> 00:48:00,120
That's pretty cool.

555
00:48:03,120 --> 00:48:07,120
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