1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:22,417 --> 00:00:24,249 You're not good enough. 4 00:00:24,250 --> 00:00:26,332 You're too stupid. 5 00:00:26,333 --> 00:00:27,542 Too ugly. 6 00:00:28,417 --> 00:00:31,167 You are worthless. 7 00:00:33,250 --> 00:00:37,958 That's what she said to me, and I believed her. 8 00:00:43,708 --> 00:00:46,499 Now, raise your hand if the voice in your head 9 00:00:46,500 --> 00:00:49,167 has ever said any of these things to you. 10 00:00:50,542 --> 00:00:51,749 Yeah. 11 00:00:53,708 --> 00:00:57,542 Eight years ago, I was working at a Waffle House 12 00:00:57,667 --> 00:01:00,082 and living inside my Toyota Corolla. 13 00:01:00,083 --> 00:01:02,999 Glamorous, I know. 14 00:01:05,792 --> 00:01:11,124 And that voice was with me every minute of every day. 15 00:01:11,125 --> 00:01:15,166 Whenever I aimed for something better, she convinced me to give up. 16 00:01:17,250 --> 00:01:18,999 Who is she? 17 00:01:19,000 --> 00:01:21,332 She certainly isn't me. 18 00:01:21,333 --> 00:01:24,041 I want to be better, I want to succeed. 19 00:01:26,667 --> 00:01:31,374 That voice was a parasite inside my mind, 20 00:01:31,375 --> 00:01:35,457 and I was a way-too-generous host. 21 00:01:37,458 --> 00:01:40,457 She's holding your best self hostage 22 00:01:40,458 --> 00:01:43,916 while the basic you goes through your basic life, 23 00:01:43,917 --> 00:01:48,292 day after day, never reaching your true potential. 24 00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:54,917 But all of that ends here. 25 00:01:56,333 --> 00:01:59,499 I'm gonna show you how to shut her up once and for all, 26 00:01:59,500 --> 00:02:02,499 and together, we are going to unlock 27 00:02:02,500 --> 00:02:06,166 the best version of you the world has ever seen. 28 00:02:06,167 --> 00:02:09,375 Are we ready? 29 00:03:06,708 --> 00:03:08,542 You got another one. 30 00:03:29,750 --> 00:03:31,500 What's up? What is it? 31 00:03:32,542 --> 00:03:35,582 My mom's anniversary is this weekend. 32 00:03:35,583 --> 00:03:37,167 I thought it was next month. 33 00:03:38,833 --> 00:03:42,125 - You wanna do something? - Like what? 34 00:03:44,042 --> 00:03:46,583 We could, you know, go pay our respects. 35 00:03:48,042 --> 00:03:49,208 Go see your pops. 36 00:03:51,208 --> 00:03:54,292 I wish I could. I owe the team a new draft. 37 00:03:55,250 --> 00:03:58,750 I thought the last one was solid. Give yourself a break. 38 00:03:59,833 --> 00:04:02,208 But it's not good enough. 39 00:04:56,375 --> 00:04:58,832 - You're kidding me, right? - Yeah, I wish I was, 40 00:04:58,833 --> 00:05:01,332 but China has a real hard-on for paperwork. 41 00:05:01,333 --> 00:05:03,624 Can we cut this? It feels insensitive. 42 00:05:03,625 --> 00:05:05,916 But they need my birth certificate? 43 00:05:05,917 --> 00:05:07,916 Who do they think I am? A sleeper ISIS agent? 44 00:05:07,917 --> 00:05:09,499 Right? This would never happen 45 00:05:09,500 --> 00:05:11,957 - to a white cis man. - That's not what I meant. 46 00:05:11,958 --> 00:05:13,707 Do you think Tony Robbins is getting his tour canceled 47 00:05:13,708 --> 00:05:15,207 because he doesn't have the proper forms? 48 00:05:15,208 --> 00:05:18,124 - It would never happen. - Wait, they could cancel the tour? 49 00:05:18,125 --> 00:05:20,499 I mean, hypothetically, sure, but they won't. 50 00:05:20,500 --> 00:05:22,832 Hey, maybe your folks have a copy. 51 00:05:22,833 --> 00:05:26,208 Like, my mom still has all my kindergarten drawings. 52 00:05:27,667 --> 00:05:31,332 My queen, don't stress about it. 53 00:05:31,333 --> 00:05:33,916 Look, clearly, you've got a lot on your plate. 54 00:05:33,917 --> 00:05:36,624 My office is gonna find a work-around. 55 00:05:36,625 --> 00:05:39,374 Worst case, we cut a few days and we skip Asia for now. 56 00:05:39,375 --> 00:05:40,625 What? No. 57 00:05:41,833 --> 00:05:43,917 No cuts, no changes. 58 00:05:46,250 --> 00:05:47,625 I'll find it. 59 00:05:56,583 --> 00:05:59,416 We are all searching. 60 00:05:59,417 --> 00:06:03,999 You feel the pull, an urge to go somewhere, 61 00:06:04,000 --> 00:06:06,625 but it's not clear where. 62 00:06:07,292 --> 00:06:10,541 You are fumbling around in the darkness, 63 00:06:10,542 --> 00:06:14,500 looking for a light in the distance to guide you. 64 00:06:16,292 --> 00:06:18,458 But you're looking in the wrong place. 65 00:06:20,833 --> 00:06:23,875 The light you seek is inside of you. 66 00:06:27,167 --> 00:06:30,832 You are the light, and you choose where to shine it. 67 00:08:06,042 --> 00:08:09,458 [on video] Are you ready to unleash your inner power? 68 00:08:10,833 --> 00:08:12,791 Her books opened our minds. 69 00:08:12,792 --> 00:08:15,416 Her speeches opened our hearts. 70 00:08:15,417 --> 00:08:19,541 And now, for the first time in seven years, 71 00:08:19,542 --> 00:08:24,166 the queen of good habits is taking her life-changing lessons 72 00:08:24,167 --> 00:08:25,875 around the world. 73 00:08:27,542 --> 00:08:30,207 Don't miss your chance to see Valerie Nguyen 74 00:08:30,208 --> 00:08:35,458 live in your city, and become unstoppable. 75 00:08:43,125 --> 00:08:44,208 So? 76 00:08:45,292 --> 00:08:46,999 So, I think it's a great start. 77 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:48,582 Okay. 78 00:08:48,583 --> 00:08:49,917 Okay, lay it on me. 79 00:08:51,375 --> 00:08:53,249 The music is a bit much, 80 00:08:53,250 --> 00:08:55,624 pacing is choppy, and I don't love the script. 81 00:08:55,625 --> 00:08:58,582 That "queen" line? It's cringe. 82 00:08:58,583 --> 00:09:02,832 And this clip, it's ancient. 83 00:09:02,833 --> 00:09:04,292 Can we shoot something new? 84 00:09:06,042 --> 00:09:07,833 We can. 85 00:09:09,750 --> 00:09:11,792 But this has to go out next week, right? 86 00:09:13,458 --> 00:09:17,291 - And? - And if you obsess over every frame, 87 00:09:17,292 --> 00:09:20,332 then we're not gonna get it out in time. 88 00:09:22,083 --> 00:09:26,833 You know, you shouldn't talk to your boss like that. 89 00:09:30,958 --> 00:09:32,500 You should fire me. 90 00:09:34,167 --> 00:09:35,416 Oh, come on! 91 00:09:35,417 --> 00:09:37,791 How are you still eating this crap? 92 00:09:37,792 --> 00:09:40,167 'Cause I love the taste of crap. 93 00:09:40,667 --> 00:09:43,958 [on recording] At first, a good habit feels like punishment. 94 00:09:44,875 --> 00:09:47,499 You're depriving yourself of something, right? 95 00:09:47,500 --> 00:09:50,332 "Why can't I just have one bite of cake? 96 00:09:50,333 --> 00:09:53,625 Just one drag of that cigarette?" 97 00:09:54,667 --> 00:09:57,374 But it's not punishment. 98 00:09:57,375 --> 00:09:59,874 It's the exact opposite. 99 00:09:59,875 --> 00:10:02,207 Every time we lace up those running shoes, 100 00:10:02,208 --> 00:10:04,457 open that journal, 101 00:10:04,458 --> 00:10:08,541 every time we act with intention and not indulgence, 102 00:10:08,542 --> 00:10:11,167 we are sending a signal to our brains. 103 00:10:12,125 --> 00:10:14,707 We are telling our subconscious that we matter, 104 00:10:14,708 --> 00:10:18,875 that our mind and our body are worthy of attention and care. 105 00:10:20,083 --> 00:10:24,124 That is why a good habit is the ultimate act of self-love. 106 00:10:51,542 --> 00:10:53,332 Hey, Queen, it's Crystal. 107 00:10:53,333 --> 00:10:57,124 Look, I know you're swamped but I really need that birth certificate. 108 00:10:57,125 --> 00:11:01,124 We gotta lock in the sched and I have some sponsors I'd hate to lose. 109 00:11:01,125 --> 00:11:05,166 So were you able to chat with the fam, see if they kept a copy? 110 00:11:05,167 --> 00:11:07,707 Look, all I know is that things are only gonna get crazier... 111 00:11:34,000 --> 00:11:35,125 Yeah. 112 00:11:37,500 --> 00:11:38,832 It's Valerie. 113 00:12:04,208 --> 00:12:06,500 This place is just like I remember. 114 00:12:12,458 --> 00:12:17,207 When you were little, I have to cut very short, 115 00:12:17,208 --> 00:12:21,624 because you pick cuticles so hard, make them bleed. 116 00:12:21,625 --> 00:12:22,833 We call you... 117 00:12:26,458 --> 00:12:28,125 I don't remember that. 118 00:12:30,292 --> 00:12:32,458 Finished. You like? 119 00:12:41,917 --> 00:12:45,249 Do you have those boxes from the old house? 120 00:12:45,250 --> 00:12:46,624 Why? 121 00:12:46,625 --> 00:12:49,000 There's just some keepsakes I want. 122 00:12:53,083 --> 00:12:54,874 Back there, if you want to check. 123 00:12:54,875 --> 00:12:56,499 But your-- 124 00:14:35,417 --> 00:14:36,792 There's a box missing. 125 00:14:37,375 --> 00:14:40,000 - Do you know where it is? - Your dad took it. 126 00:15:30,542 --> 00:15:32,291 "Reggie." 127 00:15:32,292 --> 00:15:35,792 That sounds-- Reggie doesn't work until he's older, I don't think. 128 00:15:36,958 --> 00:15:39,375 "Riley," I like. That's pretty fun. 129 00:15:40,292 --> 00:15:42,957 Um... I like Ron. 130 00:15:42,958 --> 00:15:44,541 For a girl, that's nice. 131 00:15:44,542 --> 00:15:46,583 Or "Ronalt," with a "t." 132 00:15:47,292 --> 00:15:51,041 - What about Rodrigo? - Wait. Isn't that Spanish? 133 00:15:51,042 --> 00:15:52,416 Yeah, we could learn Spanish. 134 00:15:52,417 --> 00:15:57,708 Don't you want, like, a beautiful Spanish man as a child? 135 00:15:59,000 --> 00:16:01,499 Could play flamenco guitar for us. 136 00:16:01,500 --> 00:16:02,792 Rodrigo. 137 00:16:07,583 --> 00:16:09,292 Val, what's up? 138 00:16:12,083 --> 00:16:16,749 Look, I know that it is taking forever 139 00:16:16,750 --> 00:16:19,083 and it feels like it's not gonna happen. 140 00:16:20,083 --> 00:16:21,583 It's gonna happen. 141 00:16:23,750 --> 00:16:25,417 Totally. 142 00:16:26,583 --> 00:16:28,792 I mean, it's not like they would cancel the tour. 143 00:16:29,958 --> 00:16:32,042 I was talking about getting pregnant. 144 00:16:34,458 --> 00:16:36,291 - I'm sorry. - That's okay. 145 00:16:36,292 --> 00:16:39,041 - My head's all over the place and-- - Yeah. 146 00:16:39,042 --> 00:16:40,374 Oh, you know, I've been meaning 147 00:16:40,375 --> 00:16:42,458 - to talk to you about the-- - Oh, hon, you're doing it again. 148 00:16:43,833 --> 00:16:46,707 - You gotta see someone about that, really. - Oh, no. 149 00:16:46,708 --> 00:16:49,292 It's just an itch, okay? 150 00:16:50,708 --> 00:16:52,125 It's just an itch. 151 00:17:52,500 --> 00:17:54,416 You've had this for 11 months, 152 00:17:54,417 --> 00:17:55,749 and you're calling me now? 153 00:17:55,750 --> 00:17:58,582 Sorry, Doc, work's been crazy. 154 00:17:58,583 --> 00:18:03,291 I've been using a corticosteroid, but it's not working. 155 00:18:03,292 --> 00:18:05,791 Could you prescribe me a betamethasone? 156 00:18:05,792 --> 00:18:08,707 Valerie, I need to examine you in person first. 157 00:18:08,708 --> 00:18:11,041 I just need stronger medicine. 158 00:18:11,042 --> 00:18:12,957 It's not that simple. 159 00:18:12,958 --> 00:18:15,707 Chronic pruritus is tricky to diagnose. 160 00:18:15,708 --> 00:18:18,291 It could be psoriasis, rosacea. 161 00:18:18,292 --> 00:18:20,541 It could have nothing to do with your body at all. 162 00:18:20,542 --> 00:18:22,249 What do you mean? 163 00:18:22,250 --> 00:18:26,916 I mean, you should consider additional approaches to diagnosis. 164 00:18:26,917 --> 00:18:30,582 I'm not a therapist, but given your family history, 165 00:18:30,583 --> 00:18:34,541 this might have more to do with the psychological components. 166 00:18:34,542 --> 00:18:37,041 Maybe it's something hereditary? 167 00:20:10,958 --> 00:20:12,792 You look tired. 168 00:20:13,500 --> 00:20:14,917 I hope you're not working too hard. 169 00:20:16,333 --> 00:20:17,708 No rest for the wicked. 170 00:20:19,167 --> 00:20:21,333 - How's Robin? - Robbie. 171 00:20:22,625 --> 00:20:24,082 He's good. 172 00:20:24,083 --> 00:20:25,832 We got married last year. 173 00:20:25,833 --> 00:20:26,917 Oh. 174 00:20:28,583 --> 00:20:29,874 Children? 175 00:20:29,875 --> 00:20:32,458 Uh, not yet, but we're trying. 176 00:20:33,333 --> 00:20:34,791 Hm. 177 00:20:39,917 --> 00:20:43,208 It's not what you think. 178 00:20:44,167 --> 00:20:46,874 Though I can't blame you for thinking it. 179 00:20:46,875 --> 00:20:50,208 And I don't blame you for anything, Vy. 180 00:21:36,958 --> 00:21:38,417 So, this is it. 181 00:21:40,542 --> 00:21:42,125 This is your life now. 182 00:21:43,542 --> 00:21:48,500 It's a strange concept, giving up everything one holds dear. 183 00:21:49,750 --> 00:21:51,583 I don't expect you to understand. 184 00:21:52,708 --> 00:21:55,124 You always loved your nice things. 185 00:21:55,125 --> 00:21:58,916 Oh, but I do understand. That's why I'm here. 186 00:21:58,917 --> 00:22:01,250 You took some "Earthly attachments" from the salon. 187 00:22:02,417 --> 00:22:03,667 I came to get them back. 188 00:22:05,333 --> 00:22:07,375 Lighten your cosmic load. 189 00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:11,582 And I thought you came to honor your mother. 190 00:22:11,583 --> 00:22:14,417 Just give me the boxes and I'll be out of your hair. 191 00:22:15,500 --> 00:22:17,374 Your figurative hair. 192 00:22:17,375 --> 00:22:19,541 What boxes, Vy? 193 00:22:19,542 --> 00:22:22,707 - You're looking at everything I own. - I don't have time for your games, Ba. 194 00:22:22,708 --> 00:22:24,792 - I need-- - You don't need anything! 195 00:22:26,042 --> 00:22:29,291 All your wealth and fame, did it make you happy? 196 00:22:29,292 --> 00:22:32,166 Or does it weigh you down, 197 00:22:32,167 --> 00:22:33,749 as you struggle to hold onto it 198 00:22:33,750 --> 00:22:36,166 and keep it from slipping through your fingers? 199 00:22:40,917 --> 00:22:42,458 You keep looking at that. 200 00:22:44,292 --> 00:22:45,500 What is it? 201 00:22:48,500 --> 00:22:50,875 - Sanshi. - Okay. 202 00:22:51,667 --> 00:22:53,499 And why is it the only thing you have hung up in here? 203 00:22:53,500 --> 00:22:55,249 It's creepy. 204 00:22:55,250 --> 00:22:57,292 It's a reminder. 205 00:22:57,958 --> 00:23:01,041 Sanshi translate to "hungry ghost," 206 00:23:01,042 --> 00:23:02,874 or "hungry parasite." 207 00:23:02,875 --> 00:23:07,999 In times of great calamity, the Sanshi can take control of a human host 208 00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:12,583 and poison them with... what's the word? 209 00:23:16,125 --> 00:23:20,666 The host weakens and the Sanshi grows stronger, 210 00:23:20,667 --> 00:23:22,125 until one day... 211 00:23:29,417 --> 00:23:32,666 Okay, Ba, you're creeping me out. 212 00:23:32,667 --> 00:23:36,042 Just... give me the boxes and I... 213 00:23:37,167 --> 00:23:40,333 Vy! Vy! Are you okay? 214 00:23:47,375 --> 00:23:49,333 Wait, I'll get some water. 215 00:23:50,708 --> 00:23:52,292 No, it's okay, I'm fine. 216 00:24:16,250 --> 00:24:17,583 Of course. 217 00:24:21,333 --> 00:24:23,041 "Cherokee Storage"? 218 00:25:10,750 --> 00:25:13,874 Sorry, um, are you Valerie "De-jo-yen"? 219 00:25:13,875 --> 00:25:15,999 - Yeah. - Oh, my God! 220 00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:17,541 You're, like, my mom's hero. 221 00:25:17,542 --> 00:25:19,791 She was a smoker for 30 years, she reads your book... 222 00:25:19,792 --> 00:25:21,624 ...And, boom, she quits cold turkey. 223 00:25:21,625 --> 00:25:22,999 You, like, saved her life. 224 00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:24,082 - Wow. - Oh my God, 225 00:25:24,083 --> 00:25:25,458 I gotta get a picture. She's gonna die! 226 00:25:27,167 --> 00:25:28,249 Cheese! 227 00:25:28,250 --> 00:25:29,999 - Can you roll it down a little? - Oh, yeah, okay. 228 00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:31,833 - Just one more angle, sorry. - Oh, yeah. 229 00:27:34,625 --> 00:27:35,625 Hello? 230 00:27:37,375 --> 00:27:38,792 Are you okay? 231 00:27:53,042 --> 00:27:54,500 I won't hurt you. 232 00:28:23,292 --> 00:28:25,625 - You scared me. - Is this your locker? 233 00:28:26,167 --> 00:28:27,166 Uh... 234 00:28:27,167 --> 00:28:29,792 - No, it was open, I just heard-- - Do you have an ID on you, ma'am? 235 00:28:36,125 --> 00:28:38,374 You are the light. The light is you. 236 00:28:38,375 --> 00:28:40,124 You are the light. And the light is you. 237 00:28:49,625 --> 00:28:52,292 Now, take it from someone who has been there. 238 00:28:53,542 --> 00:28:55,624 Life is hard. 239 00:28:55,625 --> 00:28:58,666 A little pill and a life coach won't change that. 240 00:28:58,667 --> 00:29:00,000 It's up to you. 241 00:29:01,208 --> 00:29:04,666 Stop making excuses, start taking action. 242 00:29:04,667 --> 00:29:07,041 If a situation is out of your control, 243 00:29:07,042 --> 00:29:09,082 control the way you react. 244 00:29:09,083 --> 00:29:12,541 Keep to the path and remember your truth. 245 00:29:12,542 --> 00:29:15,500 You're an unstoppable force. 246 00:29:17,750 --> 00:29:19,375 Fucker. 247 00:30:51,458 --> 00:30:53,999 So, how is he? 248 00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:55,417 Same as he ever was. 249 00:30:56,333 --> 00:30:58,874 You know, if I knew that you were going, 250 00:30:58,875 --> 00:31:01,625 I could've come, been your backup. 251 00:31:02,875 --> 00:31:05,499 It was a last-minute decision. 252 00:31:05,500 --> 00:31:07,666 - I-I can help you. - No, I got it. 253 00:31:07,667 --> 00:31:09,792 Okay. 254 00:31:17,875 --> 00:31:20,958 I'd like for our kids to know where they came from. 255 00:31:22,083 --> 00:31:24,874 I think that they should meet their grandpa someday. 256 00:31:24,875 --> 00:31:26,707 If he's still alive by then. 257 00:31:26,708 --> 00:31:28,916 God, Val, that's fucked up. 258 00:31:28,917 --> 00:31:31,957 Wh-- I'm just being realistic. 259 00:31:31,958 --> 00:31:33,541 The man's been an addict for half a century. 260 00:31:33,542 --> 00:31:35,416 It's a miracle he can still stand up straight. 261 00:31:35,417 --> 00:31:37,791 He's still your father. 262 00:31:37,792 --> 00:31:39,041 I'm aware. 263 00:31:46,458 --> 00:31:49,708 And you know that what happened to your mom was an accident? 264 00:31:51,250 --> 00:31:53,500 It wasn't his fault, it wasn't your fault. 265 00:31:56,000 --> 00:31:57,167 You know that, right? 266 00:32:01,208 --> 00:32:02,542 It's not your fault, Val. 267 00:32:05,542 --> 00:32:07,042 Oh, my God. 268 00:32:08,000 --> 00:32:11,000 Are you Good Will Hunting me right now? 269 00:32:12,500 --> 00:32:14,999 That's a movie, babe. 270 00:32:16,542 --> 00:32:20,207 In real life, there's no magical therapist to hug away the pain. 271 00:32:20,208 --> 00:32:23,957 It takes years of hard work that you have to do yourself. 272 00:32:23,958 --> 00:32:27,792 There's a good book on this, actually. 273 00:34:53,958 --> 00:34:55,875 Your call has been forwarded to an auto-- 274 00:35:18,417 --> 00:35:21,749 I don't want it! I don't want to sign it! 275 00:35:24,042 --> 00:35:26,291 Vy, why you order this? 276 00:35:26,292 --> 00:35:28,874 Sorry about this. 277 00:35:28,875 --> 00:35:33,041 Color all wrong. I don't have space for this. 278 00:35:33,042 --> 00:35:35,125 You're going to love it. All the new salons have them. 279 00:35:40,708 --> 00:35:43,207 My new tour starts Saturday. 280 00:35:43,208 --> 00:35:45,125 I'd love to have you... 281 00:35:55,958 --> 00:35:57,666 Tea getting cold. 282 00:36:09,083 --> 00:36:14,667 Look, I was so young when Ma passed, I barely remember her. 283 00:36:16,042 --> 00:36:17,708 I wanna know who she was. 284 00:36:18,750 --> 00:36:20,292 Who knew her better than you? 285 00:36:22,625 --> 00:36:24,542 She was a good woman. 286 00:36:26,042 --> 00:36:27,042 Smart. 287 00:36:29,458 --> 00:36:30,958 And stubborn, like you. 288 00:36:32,958 --> 00:36:35,125 Was she... happy? 289 00:36:36,167 --> 00:36:38,499 Happy? 290 00:36:38,500 --> 00:36:39,583 Sure. 291 00:36:43,167 --> 00:36:44,500 Why'd she hurt herself? 292 00:36:45,750 --> 00:36:47,000 What was wrong with her? 293 00:36:47,375 --> 00:36:50,542 You want to slander her memory? 294 00:37:03,500 --> 00:37:05,957 She wore long sleeves to cover them up, 295 00:37:05,958 --> 00:37:07,833 but sometimes she forgot. 296 00:37:09,125 --> 00:37:11,791 What was it? Mental illness? 297 00:37:11,792 --> 00:37:12,875 Drugs? 298 00:37:14,458 --> 00:37:16,499 Look, I need to know. 299 00:37:16,500 --> 00:37:17,583 Please? 300 00:37:25,625 --> 00:37:31,500 After the war... something terrible took hold of her. 301 00:37:34,625 --> 00:37:36,166 Curse her. 302 00:37:48,750 --> 00:37:50,250 No more question. 303 00:37:54,708 --> 00:37:56,582 What about my father? 304 00:37:56,583 --> 00:37:58,458 Stay away from him, Vy . 305 00:38:51,375 --> 00:38:54,125 Come see me live and become unstoppable. 306 00:38:55,792 --> 00:38:56,791 Let me do it one more time? 307 00:38:56,792 --> 00:38:58,000 - Yeah, yeah. - Okay. 308 00:38:59,417 --> 00:39:02,583 Come see me live and become unstoppable. 309 00:39:04,083 --> 00:39:05,207 Okay, cut. 310 00:39:05,208 --> 00:39:07,292 I think we got it. Let's move on to stills. 311 00:39:10,417 --> 00:39:13,707 Hey, Val, babe, can we lose the hat for a few shots? 312 00:39:13,708 --> 00:39:14,792 Hat stays. 313 00:39:16,208 --> 00:39:17,708 Turn to your left. 314 00:39:55,458 --> 00:39:56,791 I've never seen her do that. 315 00:39:56,792 --> 00:39:59,082 Relax, it's just stress. 316 00:39:59,083 --> 00:40:01,333 It's not just stress. Did you not just see that? 317 00:40:03,042 --> 00:40:06,582 - We have to delay the tour or something. - Yeah, she'd love that. 318 00:40:06,583 --> 00:40:08,624 Crystal, 319 00:40:08,625 --> 00:40:10,499 there's something wrong with her. 320 00:40:10,500 --> 00:40:14,249 Robert, this is Val's opportunity to up-level. 321 00:40:14,250 --> 00:40:15,749 She's going for it. 322 00:40:15,750 --> 00:40:18,416 Are you really that intimidated by a strong woman? 323 00:40:18,417 --> 00:40:20,582 Get over yourself. 324 00:40:20,583 --> 00:40:22,875 Crystal, are you serious? We have to talk about this. 325 00:40:58,542 --> 00:41:00,625 Are you ready to talk? 326 00:41:05,500 --> 00:41:09,332 Oh, what? Don't give me a hard time. I haven't had a drink in months. 327 00:41:09,333 --> 00:41:10,582 Val, I-- 328 00:41:10,583 --> 00:41:12,374 Oh. 329 00:41:12,375 --> 00:41:13,500 Oh, okay. 330 00:41:15,000 --> 00:41:17,667 Wait, we should check your, uh, your ovulation, okay? 331 00:41:21,625 --> 00:41:23,167 Oh, baby. 332 00:41:28,333 --> 00:41:30,582 Yeah? 333 00:41:30,583 --> 00:41:32,207 Is that how you want it? 334 00:41:32,208 --> 00:41:33,583 Okay. 335 00:41:38,083 --> 00:41:39,416 Oh, fuck. 336 00:41:41,458 --> 00:41:43,082 Ow, fuck. 337 00:41:43,083 --> 00:41:44,332 Chill. 338 00:41:47,292 --> 00:41:48,750 Ow, Val. Stop. 339 00:41:53,083 --> 00:41:55,500 Oh, fuck! Val, what the fuck? 340 00:41:56,750 --> 00:41:58,875 I said stop, that hurts. 341 00:42:03,875 --> 00:42:06,250 Ow, what the fuck? Am I bleeding? 342 00:42:07,583 --> 00:42:10,167 I got caught up. I'm sorry. 343 00:42:11,667 --> 00:42:14,124 Yeah. You-- Can you get a towel or something? 344 00:42:14,125 --> 00:42:17,625 Baby. I would never hurt you. 345 00:42:19,542 --> 00:42:21,166 No, Val, that's not gonna work. 346 00:42:21,167 --> 00:42:23,708 Okay, that's gonna work. Okay, fuck. 347 00:42:31,042 --> 00:42:33,625 Yeah, just like that's good. 348 00:42:37,083 --> 00:42:38,333 Val, what? 349 00:42:39,083 --> 00:42:40,917 Val, what the fuck? Val, Val. 350 00:42:45,000 --> 00:42:46,000 Oh, God. 351 00:42:54,208 --> 00:42:55,832 Baby? 352 00:42:55,833 --> 00:42:58,958 Look, I talked to the doctor, okay? He said it's not a big deal. 353 00:42:59,958 --> 00:43:02,042 He said it's not a big deal? Come on, let me see it. 354 00:43:03,292 --> 00:43:04,791 I'm just trying to help you, okay? 355 00:43:04,792 --> 00:43:06,250 Okay, I don't need your help! 356 00:43:07,625 --> 00:43:11,625 Look, this is not your problem. Stop trying to control the situation. 357 00:43:14,375 --> 00:43:17,957 Val, I'm not trying to control anything. 358 00:43:17,958 --> 00:43:20,332 You're the biggest fucking control freak in the universe. 359 00:43:20,333 --> 00:43:24,207 When you speak with hyperbole, it's hard to take you seriously. 360 00:43:24,208 --> 00:43:26,832 Don't talk to me like I'm one of your fucking clients, Val. 361 00:43:26,833 --> 00:43:30,833 Then stop acting like a fucking child. 362 00:43:33,542 --> 00:43:34,707 You're scratching a fucking hole 363 00:43:34,708 --> 00:43:35,957 in your head, Val! 364 00:43:35,958 --> 00:43:37,500 I'm serious. 365 00:43:39,333 --> 00:43:42,082 - Okay! - Don't touch me. 366 00:43:42,083 --> 00:43:46,541 How do you expect to take care of a fucking kid 367 00:43:46,542 --> 00:43:49,000 if you can't take care of yourself, Val? 368 00:43:50,083 --> 00:43:52,124 I'm gonna sleep on the couch, okay? 369 00:43:52,125 --> 00:43:54,083 You can sleep in the fucking crime scene. 370 00:43:57,250 --> 00:43:58,250 Robbie! 371 00:47:13,167 --> 00:47:16,541 Val? Val, what's going on, what happened? 372 00:47:16,542 --> 00:47:19,666 I'm okay. It was just a bad dream. 373 00:47:19,667 --> 00:47:22,332 Val-- 374 00:47:22,333 --> 00:47:23,958 It's okay, I'm fine. 375 00:47:24,625 --> 00:47:26,666 Open the door! 376 00:47:26,667 --> 00:47:28,332 What's going on? Val, open the door. 377 00:47:28,333 --> 00:47:29,707 I'm coming, I'm coming. 378 00:47:29,708 --> 00:47:31,792 Val, open the door now. 379 00:47:33,417 --> 00:47:36,083 - Val, open the fucking door! - It was just a nightmare. 380 00:47:57,167 --> 00:48:00,042 Hey, are you hungry? 381 00:48:01,500 --> 00:48:02,917 I made breakfast. 382 00:48:22,417 --> 00:48:23,750 I'm sorry. 383 00:48:25,792 --> 00:48:27,167 Okay? I've been... 384 00:48:29,125 --> 00:48:32,292 shutting you out and it's not fair. 385 00:48:34,167 --> 00:48:35,875 It's just, um... 386 00:48:38,958 --> 00:48:40,292 it's my head. 387 00:48:41,958 --> 00:48:43,292 Of course, it is, right? 388 00:48:47,125 --> 00:48:48,625 It's something... 389 00:48:50,292 --> 00:48:53,667 inside my head, and I think it's, um... 390 00:48:55,292 --> 00:48:56,625 always been there... 391 00:48:58,667 --> 00:49:00,583 since I was a little kid, but it's-- 392 00:49:05,167 --> 00:49:10,458 But it's making me do things, and I can't stop. 393 00:49:12,208 --> 00:49:14,250 I keep doing these things, Robbie, I-- 394 00:49:20,583 --> 00:49:22,333 It's... 395 00:49:24,250 --> 00:49:26,249 It's not me, okay? 396 00:49:28,083 --> 00:49:30,250 You know me. This isn't me. 397 00:49:32,417 --> 00:49:33,792 Babe? 398 00:49:35,792 --> 00:49:37,208 Robbie. 399 00:49:43,833 --> 00:49:46,082 Okay. 400 00:49:55,583 --> 00:49:56,582 Fuck. 401 00:49:56,583 --> 00:49:58,749 What the fuck? What the fuck? 402 00:49:58,750 --> 00:50:00,457 Baby. 403 00:50:00,458 --> 00:50:02,791 Look, this is all just a big misunderstanding. 404 00:50:02,792 --> 00:50:04,957 Look, I've always wanted kids. You know that. 405 00:50:04,958 --> 00:50:06,499 Look, if you just come home, I can explain-- 406 00:50:06,500 --> 00:50:08,749 The mailbox is full and cannot accept any messages. 407 00:50:08,750 --> 00:50:09,833 Fuck! 408 00:50:10,875 --> 00:50:12,208 Fuck, fuck, fuck! 409 00:50:19,292 --> 00:50:21,166 What do you truly want? 410 00:50:21,167 --> 00:50:24,082 Your basic self is trapped on the surface. 411 00:50:24,083 --> 00:50:26,833 She lives only for the moment. 412 00:50:27,333 --> 00:50:30,874 Basic Val, she wants a cigarette 413 00:50:30,875 --> 00:50:33,375 and a bag of gummy worms. 414 00:50:35,083 --> 00:50:39,166 But your true self, she dives deeper. 415 00:50:39,167 --> 00:50:40,958 She lives for the future. 416 00:50:42,333 --> 00:50:43,832 And how does she get there? 417 00:50:45,417 --> 00:50:47,541 By doing her daily work. 418 00:50:49,875 --> 00:50:52,666 Now, start small. Start slow. 419 00:50:52,667 --> 00:50:58,499 Start with simple, manageable habits you can commit to every day. 420 00:50:58,500 --> 00:51:04,582 And then, build on that foundation, every week, every month, every year. 421 00:51:07,833 --> 00:51:10,208 Soon, you'll see improvements. 422 00:51:11,500 --> 00:51:14,166 You'll feel happier, more confident. 423 00:51:15,375 --> 00:51:18,291 And as you build momentum, I promise you... 424 00:51:20,083 --> 00:51:23,124 ...you won't ever want to stop. 425 00:51:26,208 --> 00:51:27,292 Vy? 426 00:51:29,083 --> 00:51:31,708 Your door was open. 427 00:51:32,417 --> 00:51:34,167 Hey, Ba. 428 00:51:50,083 --> 00:51:52,583 - How's the tea? - It's good. 429 00:51:56,042 --> 00:51:58,082 - Where's Robin? - Robbie. 430 00:51:58,083 --> 00:51:59,792 He's at work. 431 00:52:01,292 --> 00:52:03,374 Ba, what are you doing here? 432 00:52:03,375 --> 00:52:06,666 Uh... 433 00:52:06,667 --> 00:52:10,042 Vy, I wasn't always around when you were little. 434 00:52:13,333 --> 00:52:17,375 You were a strong girl, and so normal. 435 00:52:20,875 --> 00:52:23,999 I was sure you didn't inherit it. 436 00:52:24,000 --> 00:52:25,500 I was wrong. 437 00:52:26,875 --> 00:52:30,666 You're infected, Vy, it's in your blood. 438 00:52:30,667 --> 00:52:33,542 Infected. With what? 439 00:52:34,750 --> 00:52:38,125 Sanshi. 440 00:52:39,250 --> 00:52:42,792 Are you in withdrawal? Is that why you're here? 441 00:52:45,667 --> 00:52:46,958 This isn't about me. 442 00:52:49,500 --> 00:52:51,042 I'm not giving you any more money. 443 00:53:02,708 --> 00:53:04,666 What was in that tea? 444 00:53:07,083 --> 00:53:09,082 It's not going to stop. 445 00:53:09,083 --> 00:53:11,667 - Did you drug me? - What? 446 00:53:13,333 --> 00:53:17,750 You'll keep hurting yourself again, and again, and again. 447 00:53:18,792 --> 00:53:20,083 You should go. 448 00:53:21,625 --> 00:53:22,792 I'm serious. 449 00:53:24,625 --> 00:53:26,457 You need my help. 450 00:53:29,167 --> 00:53:33,208 I need you out of my house, you psycho junkie. 451 00:53:48,583 --> 00:53:50,125 Be careful, Vy. 452 00:54:07,250 --> 00:54:08,250 Okay. 453 00:54:24,500 --> 00:54:26,249 They're drugging you. 454 00:54:28,167 --> 00:54:29,958 You're not crazy. 455 00:54:33,958 --> 00:54:35,417 Your family is. 456 00:55:05,250 --> 00:55:07,666 What boxes, Vy? 457 00:55:07,667 --> 00:55:10,749 I thought you came to honor your mother. 458 00:56:05,458 --> 00:56:07,457 Okay, I know this is gonna sound insane, but, um, 459 00:56:07,458 --> 00:56:09,291 my dad just came over and I think that he might have-- 460 00:56:09,292 --> 00:56:11,416 [on phone] Val, slow down. I can barely hear you. 461 00:56:11,417 --> 00:56:13,082 Robbie? Hello? 462 00:56:13,083 --> 00:56:15,249 - The connection sucks up here. - Robbie, I can't-- 463 00:56:15,250 --> 00:56:16,916 - Hello? - Fuck. 464 00:58:46,542 --> 00:58:48,083 I found your stash. 465 00:58:49,625 --> 00:58:53,541 I want answers, Ba, and if I smell a whiff of your bullshit, 466 00:58:53,542 --> 00:58:56,582 I'm taking this straight to the abbot. 467 00:59:03,042 --> 00:59:06,333 I'll do it. I will ruin you. 468 00:59:08,083 --> 00:59:09,500 Why'd you do it? 469 00:59:11,250 --> 00:59:12,875 Answer me! 470 00:59:15,500 --> 00:59:17,792 I don't know what you're talking about. 471 00:59:18,708 --> 00:59:20,291 Now, take a deep breath. 472 00:59:27,667 --> 00:59:28,875 That's mine! 473 00:59:30,125 --> 00:59:32,124 Don't fucking move. 474 00:59:42,125 --> 00:59:43,583 What was it, Ba? 475 00:59:45,083 --> 00:59:46,791 She find out about your habit? 476 00:59:46,792 --> 00:59:49,292 Were you afraid she'd expose you? 477 00:59:52,583 --> 00:59:54,791 Why'd you kill Mom? 478 01:00:01,208 --> 01:00:02,667 I had to save you. 479 01:00:06,917 --> 01:00:10,875 I told myself you didn't have it, but she knew the truth. 480 01:00:12,125 --> 01:00:17,207 You were born with it, and it's all my fault. 481 01:00:25,250 --> 01:00:26,750 I summoned it. 482 01:01:13,625 --> 01:01:15,333 I passed it to your mother. 483 01:01:16,500 --> 01:01:19,457 It grew inside us like a parasite, 484 01:01:19,458 --> 01:01:22,625 and the more we hurt ourselves, the stronger it grew. 485 01:01:23,958 --> 01:01:27,750 We tried to stop, but Sanshi is... 486 01:01:30,125 --> 01:01:34,374 Patient, it withers you away, day by day, 487 01:01:34,375 --> 01:01:38,375 year by year, until there's nothing left. 488 01:01:49,417 --> 01:01:51,542 She wanted to save you from it . 489 01:01:52,500 --> 01:01:55,916 But it's part of you. 490 01:01:55,917 --> 01:01:58,458 It is you. Do you understand? 491 01:02:00,833 --> 01:02:02,333 There's only one way to kill it. 492 01:02:10,792 --> 01:02:13,250 She wanted to save you. 493 01:02:26,167 --> 01:02:28,166 No. 494 01:02:33,958 --> 01:02:35,791 - You're lying. - No. 495 01:02:35,792 --> 01:02:37,916 She would never hurt me. 496 01:02:37,917 --> 01:02:39,958 There was no other way. 497 01:02:43,375 --> 01:02:44,917 No salvation. 498 01:02:46,833 --> 01:02:48,499 No escape. 499 01:02:48,500 --> 01:02:49,583 Stop! 500 01:02:53,542 --> 01:02:56,042 There's no demon, Ba. 501 01:02:57,458 --> 01:02:59,208 There is just you. 502 01:03:00,792 --> 01:03:03,250 And you're fucking pathetic. 503 01:03:40,000 --> 01:03:41,999 Robbie? 504 01:03:42,000 --> 01:03:43,874 Where the hell are you? 505 01:03:43,875 --> 01:03:46,541 - Hey, Crystal. - I called you like 50 times. 506 01:03:46,542 --> 01:03:48,250 Val, you're on in 30 minutes. 507 01:03:49,333 --> 01:03:51,542 - Shit. - Get your ass over here. 508 01:04:04,000 --> 01:04:05,832 Do the best you can, we've got 10 minutes. 509 01:04:05,833 --> 01:04:08,333 - Oh! The hat stays. - Oh, come on. 510 01:04:09,583 --> 01:04:13,207 You are not wearing that hat in front of 2,000 people, okay? 511 01:04:13,208 --> 01:04:15,374 We have some major guests here tonight, Valerie. 512 01:04:15,375 --> 01:04:17,791 - Robbie. - Valerie. 513 01:04:17,792 --> 01:04:19,624 Valerie, where are you going?! 514 01:04:19,625 --> 01:04:21,000 Fuck off, Crystal! 515 01:04:23,792 --> 01:04:25,957 Joey got a lot of the audience coming in, but I want you to... 516 01:04:25,958 --> 01:04:29,332 - Robbie, baby, please, please . Hi. - ...getting B-roll the whole time. 517 01:04:29,333 --> 01:04:31,832 Just give us a second, sorry. 518 01:04:31,833 --> 01:04:34,416 - What, Val? - I love you. 519 01:04:34,417 --> 01:04:36,041 I love you, and whatever you need me to do, 520 01:04:36,042 --> 01:04:37,707 I'll do it, okay? 521 01:04:37,708 --> 01:04:39,124 - Val... - Hey. 522 01:04:39,125 --> 01:04:40,374 I mean it, okay? 523 01:04:40,375 --> 01:04:42,666 I'll cancel the tour, I swear, just say the word. 524 01:04:44,542 --> 01:04:47,874 Let me show you. Let me make this right. 525 01:04:47,875 --> 01:04:49,875 Look, I'm not buying it anymore. 526 01:04:51,292 --> 01:04:52,750 Okay, maybe they will. 527 01:04:55,208 --> 01:04:56,208 So ... 528 01:05:00,000 --> 01:05:01,333 Good luck. 529 01:05:13,583 --> 01:05:15,207 Ladies and gentlemen, 530 01:05:15,208 --> 01:05:18,332 please welcome to the stage Valerie Nguyen! 531 01:05:30,083 --> 01:05:33,083 Who is feeling brave tonight? 532 01:05:34,625 --> 01:05:36,333 Huh? Anybody? 533 01:05:38,625 --> 01:05:41,583 Uh, how about you? 534 01:05:49,917 --> 01:05:52,207 Do you know who that is? 535 01:05:52,208 --> 01:05:53,958 Um, me? 536 01:05:55,292 --> 01:06:00,291 That is the person who's going to change your life forever. 537 01:06:00,292 --> 01:06:03,791 Not me, not your husband, your shrink, or your priest. 538 01:06:03,792 --> 01:06:04,875 Her. 539 01:06:06,125 --> 01:06:07,999 Here's the thing, folks. 540 01:06:08,000 --> 01:06:10,541 There is no golden ticket. 541 01:06:10,542 --> 01:06:13,417 The cavalry isn't coming. 542 01:06:14,583 --> 01:06:19,250 You are alone in an indifferent world. 543 01:06:22,208 --> 01:06:25,874 No one can save you. 544 01:06:34,583 --> 01:06:38,250 And no one can hold you back from your power. 545 01:06:39,958 --> 01:06:40,958 Look at her. 546 01:06:43,000 --> 01:06:45,541 She holds the cards. 547 01:06:45,542 --> 01:06:48,041 She is the guiding force of her own destiny, 548 01:06:48,042 --> 01:06:52,957 and she is the only person who will always have your back, 549 01:06:52,958 --> 01:06:54,707 no matter what. 550 01:06:54,708 --> 01:06:56,917 Because-- 551 01:07:51,500 --> 01:07:52,999 Val! Val! 552 01:07:53,000 --> 01:07:54,499 - Val! - Val, wait. 553 01:07:54,500 --> 01:07:56,958 - Val! - Val, you're bleeding! 554 01:08:32,500 --> 01:08:33,500 Wake up. 555 01:08:34,667 --> 01:08:36,666 I saw it. 556 01:08:36,667 --> 01:08:39,208 And it's real, and you were right. 557 01:08:41,208 --> 01:08:43,458 I'm sorry. 558 01:08:45,042 --> 01:08:48,375 We can fix this. We can fix it together. 559 01:08:49,542 --> 01:08:50,833 There's still time. 560 01:08:52,042 --> 01:08:54,583 Ba. Ba. 561 01:10:28,333 --> 01:10:31,624 She incurred damage here in the left hemisphere, 562 01:10:31,625 --> 01:10:34,707 causing a loss of motor control on the right side of her body. 563 01:10:34,708 --> 01:10:38,082 But we're hopeful this will improve over time. 564 01:10:39,875 --> 01:10:41,707 How? 565 01:10:41,708 --> 01:10:44,374 Well, when the cortex is damaged, 566 01:10:44,375 --> 01:10:47,082 uh, movement can either be temporarily or permanently diminished. 567 01:10:47,083 --> 01:10:50,792 No, how does somebody scratch a hole in their fucking skull? 568 01:10:53,583 --> 01:10:55,832 A bacterial infection 569 01:10:55,833 --> 01:10:57,791 likely softened the cranial tissue, 570 01:10:57,792 --> 01:11:00,375 allowing her to penetrate the parietal bone. 571 01:11:02,000 --> 01:11:06,582 We're talking months, even years of slow damage, like... 572 01:11:07,917 --> 01:11:10,917 ...like driving the head of a pin through a stone. 573 01:12:06,417 --> 01:12:08,042 You're getting your movement back. 574 01:12:09,500 --> 01:12:11,500 I'll be walking again in no time. 575 01:12:12,875 --> 01:12:13,875 Yeah. 576 01:12:16,750 --> 01:12:19,499 Keep those shoulders up and your focus forward. 577 01:12:22,208 --> 01:12:23,499 You got it, Val. 578 01:12:23,500 --> 01:12:26,000 Hey, I got you. Okay, okay. 579 01:12:27,292 --> 01:12:29,416 Now, her occipital lobe is fine, 580 01:12:29,417 --> 01:12:30,916 but damage to the frontal lobe 581 01:12:30,917 --> 01:12:34,416 may result in hallucinations or delusions. 582 01:12:34,417 --> 01:12:38,000 Now, Val, have you been seeing or hearing anything unusual? 583 01:12:40,125 --> 01:12:41,458 Val. 584 01:12:45,083 --> 01:12:46,874 No. 585 01:12:46,875 --> 01:12:48,791 Nothing unusual. 586 01:12:48,792 --> 01:12:50,291 - I-I don't see-- - Oh. 587 01:12:50,292 --> 01:12:52,417 Sorry about that. 588 01:12:53,125 --> 01:12:55,667 So, I wanted to go over... 589 01:13:11,708 --> 01:13:14,374 Is this too tight, or...? 590 01:13:14,375 --> 01:13:15,542 No. 591 01:13:17,042 --> 01:13:21,457 Hey, this would be kinda kinky if it wasn't so fucked up. 592 01:13:26,042 --> 01:13:28,167 Goodnight. 593 01:13:46,000 --> 01:13:49,041 Oh, come on. Val, what the fuck? 594 01:13:49,042 --> 01:13:52,083 Are you hiding a knife or something? What's-- 595 01:13:52,583 --> 01:13:54,082 No, no, it wasn't me. 596 01:13:54,083 --> 01:13:55,417 Who was it? 597 01:13:57,042 --> 01:13:58,625 Who was it? 598 01:14:00,333 --> 01:14:01,457 Um, 599 01:14:01,458 --> 01:14:04,666 Robbie, you have to listen to me, okay? 600 01:14:04,667 --> 01:14:07,041 Look, my dad came over, and I think he gave me something, 601 01:14:07,042 --> 01:14:09,874 and, um, now I think there's something inside of me. 602 01:14:09,875 --> 01:14:11,791 - Okay, Val-- - And I can't stop. 603 01:14:11,792 --> 01:14:13,249 - Come on. - I can't. 604 01:14:13,250 --> 01:14:15,082 Where is it? 605 01:14:15,083 --> 01:14:18,333 Robbie? Robbie, listen to me, okay? I was-- 606 01:14:19,375 --> 01:14:22,374 - What the fuck? - No. 607 01:14:22,375 --> 01:14:25,082 I didn't-- that wasn't me, okay? You have to believe me. 608 01:14:25,083 --> 01:14:28,124 I'm not lying to you, Robbie, okay? It's something inside of me. 609 01:14:28,125 --> 01:14:29,875 - Please, you have-- - You're a liar. 610 01:14:32,167 --> 01:14:33,917 Robbie, you have to believe me. 611 01:14:34,917 --> 01:14:36,416 Robbie! 612 01:14:55,750 --> 01:14:58,624 [on video] Your state of mind determines your reality. 613 01:14:58,625 --> 01:15:01,624 If you think you're gonna fail, guess what? 614 01:15:01,625 --> 01:15:03,499 You're gonna fail. 615 01:15:03,500 --> 01:15:06,708 Change your attitude, commit to success, believe. 616 01:15:08,083 --> 01:15:10,332 No one knows what you're capable of except you. 617 01:15:10,333 --> 01:15:13,624 No one else can see inside your mind. 618 01:15:13,625 --> 01:15:17,082 And thank God for that, right? 619 01:15:17,083 --> 01:15:19,791 Because if they ever saw who you really are, 620 01:15:19,792 --> 01:15:23,792 they would be disgusted. 621 01:15:27,583 --> 01:15:30,458 He's on to you, Val, and when he tells them, 622 01:15:31,500 --> 01:15:34,083 they're gonna lock you in the loony bin. 623 01:15:49,917 --> 01:15:52,375 That's not really addressing the issue, doctor. I-- 624 01:15:54,000 --> 01:15:55,707 She's recovering, sure. 625 01:15:55,708 --> 01:15:58,417 She's getting back on her feet soon I'm sure. It's-- 626 01:15:58,958 --> 01:16:01,874 What does it matter if her body recovers and her mind doesn't? 627 01:16:01,875 --> 01:16:03,624 Okay, it's-- hold on one second. 628 01:16:05,083 --> 01:16:07,416 She's not the same! There's something else-- 629 01:16:27,375 --> 01:16:28,917 Good evening, my love. 630 01:16:31,333 --> 01:16:33,208 Come on, have a seat. 631 01:16:34,625 --> 01:16:38,458 It's bun bo hué, my grandma's recipe. 632 01:16:39,625 --> 01:16:41,417 I made it for our third date, remember? 633 01:16:43,333 --> 01:16:44,333 Yeah. 634 01:16:47,875 --> 01:16:50,042 Go ahead. I already ate. 635 01:16:56,667 --> 01:16:58,374 Oh, my God. 636 01:16:58,375 --> 01:17:00,166 - It's good, right? - It's so good. 637 01:17:03,333 --> 01:17:04,708 Keep eating. 638 01:17:15,292 --> 01:17:17,167 Hey. 639 01:17:20,708 --> 01:17:23,583 I'm really sorry about everything. 640 01:17:26,333 --> 01:17:29,625 Shit. Yeah. 641 01:17:32,333 --> 01:17:34,458 Me too. That... 642 01:17:37,708 --> 01:17:40,207 really, really made me angry. 643 01:17:40,208 --> 01:17:42,457 I don't like being angry, and... 644 01:17:45,625 --> 01:17:48,417 - But... - When I said I wanted kids, I meant it. 645 01:17:49,417 --> 01:17:53,375 Okay, but something wouldn't let me do it. 646 01:17:55,708 --> 01:17:59,792 Robbie, there's something inside of me and I have to get it out. 647 01:18:01,958 --> 01:18:03,166 That's fucked up. 648 01:18:24,458 --> 01:18:26,458 Hey. 649 01:18:27,708 --> 01:18:29,832 It's okay, it's okay. 650 01:18:29,833 --> 01:18:32,207 Just give me a few days to figure this out, 651 01:18:32,208 --> 01:18:34,416 and everything can go back to normal, okay? 652 01:18:34,417 --> 01:18:36,582 Baby, baby, hey, hey. 653 01:18:36,583 --> 01:18:39,082 I know this sucks. 654 01:18:39,083 --> 01:18:42,000 But I'm gonna make you really comfortable, okay? 655 01:18:45,042 --> 01:18:47,166 - See? - [on audiobook] Chapter five, 656 01:18:47,167 --> 01:18:49,332 the power of choice. 657 01:18:49,333 --> 01:18:50,749 I love you. 658 01:18:50,750 --> 01:18:54,332 The path will test you, but sooner or later, 659 01:18:54,333 --> 01:18:56,541 you're faced with a challenge so difficult, 660 01:18:56,542 --> 01:18:59,666 it feels damn near impossible. 661 01:18:59,667 --> 01:19:04,666 You'll feel helpless and trapped, but not alone. 662 01:19:04,667 --> 01:19:07,541 Great men and women have stood right there 663 01:19:07,542 --> 01:19:11,124 in that same spot, but did they give in to their fear? 664 01:19:11,125 --> 01:19:12,374 No. 665 01:19:12,375 --> 01:19:17,249 They chose belief-- belief in themselves, 666 01:19:17,250 --> 01:19:20,249 in their path, in something far greater 667 01:19:20,250 --> 01:19:23,124 than that one single difficult moment. 668 01:19:23,125 --> 01:19:27,625 So... what do you believe in? 669 01:20:05,292 --> 01:20:09,667 Look, I don't know what you're after, but if you tell me, maybe I can help you. 670 01:20:12,083 --> 01:20:14,292 I mean, you kinda need me, right? 671 01:20:17,000 --> 01:20:20,125 Can't we find some arrangement that doesn't involve both of us dying? 672 01:20:21,417 --> 01:20:24,583 Come on. I know you're there. 673 01:20:29,083 --> 01:20:30,625 What do you want? 674 01:20:33,542 --> 01:20:37,000 What do you want? 675 01:20:39,000 --> 01:20:40,541 Answer me! 676 01:21:59,958 --> 01:22:01,916 Will you stop that? 677 01:22:05,375 --> 01:22:07,082 I can't. 678 01:22:07,083 --> 01:22:09,749 "I can't. I can't." 679 01:22:09,750 --> 01:22:12,832 You are so pathetic, it makes me want to puke. 680 01:22:12,833 --> 01:22:15,332 No wonder no one loves you. 681 01:22:15,333 --> 01:22:17,999 I can't stop. 682 01:22:18,000 --> 01:22:20,458 Then you know what you have to do. 683 01:22:22,667 --> 01:22:24,582 Like this. See? 684 01:22:26,625 --> 01:22:30,207 It's quick. It's easy. 685 01:22:32,792 --> 01:22:34,167 Don't worry. 686 01:22:36,833 --> 01:22:39,291 No one... 687 01:22:39,292 --> 01:22:40,707 will miss you. 688 01:23:18,208 --> 01:23:20,208 Val? 689 01:23:27,333 --> 01:23:31,167 Val, what are you doing? 690 01:23:58,458 --> 01:23:59,542 Val! 691 01:24:01,333 --> 01:24:03,375 - Val, what are you doing?! - It's gonna be okay! 692 01:24:26,917 --> 01:24:28,000 Val! 693 01:24:29,167 --> 01:24:31,333 Val, what are you doing? Stop! 694 01:25:11,292 --> 01:25:13,292 Fuck! 695 01:25:46,250 --> 01:25:47,333 No! 696 01:25:48,250 --> 01:25:50,417 Come on! 697 01:26:23,875 --> 01:26:25,875 911, what is your emergency? 698 01:26:27,667 --> 01:26:28,875 911. Hello? 699 01:26:30,542 --> 01:26:33,042 Please respond. Are you able to respond? 700 01:26:34,833 --> 01:26:37,042 We can dispatch someone to your location. 701 01:26:37,917 --> 01:26:39,333 911. Hello? 702 01:27:56,208 --> 01:27:57,208 Okay. 703 01:29:08,667 --> 01:29:11,208 No! 704 01:33:10,542 --> 01:33:15,792 That voice was with me, every minute of every day. 705 01:33:17,750 --> 01:33:22,833 Whenever I aimed for something better, she would convince me to give up. 706 01:33:26,042 --> 01:33:27,375 But who is she? 707 01:33:28,208 --> 01:33:30,417 She certainly isn't me. 708 01:33:31,292 --> 01:33:35,708 That voice was a parasite inside my mind. 709 01:33:38,125 --> 01:33:40,167 And I was a way-too-generous host. 710 01:33:42,958 --> 01:33:48,749 But even now, years after I trained myself to silence her, 711 01:33:48,750 --> 01:33:51,458 her words still echo in my head. 712 01:33:55,208 --> 01:33:58,708 Does that mean she was right all along? 713 01:34:02,042 --> 01:34:04,208 Am I still alone? 714 01:34:07,375 --> 01:34:11,417 Am I still... unlovable? 715 01:34:15,292 --> 01:34:16,958 Can anyone save me? 716 01:35:08,500 --> 01:35:09,916 I got you. 717 01:35:14,792 --> 01:35:18,167 I got you, I got you, I got you, I got you. 718 01:35:19,833 --> 01:35:22,499 What is that? What is it? 719 01:35:22,500 --> 01:35:24,958 What is that? 720 01:35:29,417 --> 01:35:30,667 It's me. 721 01:36:46,500 --> 01:36:48,833 Fuck. You scared me. 722 01:36:55,333 --> 01:36:56,542 I'm sorry. 723 01:37:00,833 --> 01:37:02,499 I, um, 724 01:37:02,500 --> 01:37:05,582 I had a whole speech planned, but... 725 01:37:07,542 --> 01:37:08,542 Um... 726 01:37:14,125 --> 01:37:17,083 I'm sorry, could you help me with this? 727 01:37:31,917 --> 01:37:35,875 Like, it'd be insane for you to stay, but ... 728 01:37:37,667 --> 01:37:39,208 I'm asking you anyway. 729 01:37:41,667 --> 01:37:44,249 I don't know what I'm doing. 730 01:37:44,250 --> 01:37:46,750 I don't think I've ever known what I'm doing. I-- 731 01:37:50,792 --> 01:37:52,083 Baby... 732 01:37:54,958 --> 01:37:56,833 I know I wanna do this with you. 733 01:38:53,333 --> 01:38:54,833 Yeah. 734 01:39:28,542 --> 01:39:29,999 That's our choice.