1 00:00:18,839 --> 00:00:21,399 Julia Windischbauer 2 00:00:22,079 --> 00:00:24,479 Sebastian Koch 3 00:00:25,519 --> 00:00:27,759 Hais Naver 4 00:00:28,679 --> 00:00:32,039 Eli ben Horsting, Kon Brill Mas Bronkhuizen 5 00:00:32,919 --> 00:00:37,359 A series by Hagai Levy According to Etty Hilsum's diaries 6 00:00:45,039 --> 00:00:47,439 with me 7 00:00:47,519 --> 00:00:52,079 Chapter 5: Springboard to great love 8 00:01:07,679 --> 00:01:10,399 I am an architect .but I'm unemployed right now 9 00:01:10,519 --> 00:01:12,239 ?I need to fill in this part 10 00:01:12,399 --> 00:01:13,959 .Yes, that's right 11 00:01:14,119 --> 00:01:15,679 Yes, nice 12 00:01:26,599 --> 00:01:28,999 Mr. Simon Meyer 13 00:01:29,159 --> 00:01:31,959 ?Mr. Meyer is here .Yes. -Come from here, sir- 14 00:01:39,879 --> 00:01:41,799 Hello. good to see you 15 00:01:42,999 --> 00:01:44,759 Come on, come in 16 00:01:53,959 --> 00:01:57,319 ?Hi, it's me. Everything is fine yes- 17 00:01:57,719 --> 00:01:58,879 .Wait 18 00:01:58,959 --> 00:02:01,519 You can take it to Dr. Bamberger ?The special requests from today 19 00:02:03,759 --> 00:02:06,399 .Yes, sure ...and tell him- 20 00:02:07,319 --> 00:02:09,999 that he needs to cancel one of the certificates .the previous ones he gave 21 00:02:12,559 --> 00:02:14,639 I will give it to him 22 00:02:15,519 --> 00:02:17,839 ?What can be done... right? 23 00:02:18,719 --> 00:02:20,999 .without us it would have been even worse 24 00:02:22,559 --> 00:02:23,799 .Yes 25 00:02:32,919 --> 00:02:36,079 It's all one big filth 26 00:02:39,999 --> 00:02:42,919 History will make its judgment in the future , today 27 00:02:46,679 --> 00:02:48,679 But of course there will never be an atonement for that 28 00:02:49,359 --> 00:02:51,439 that a small part of the public 29 00:02:51,599 --> 00:02:53,959 .Helps expel the majority 30 00:03:00,399 --> 00:03:02,319 I thank you, God 31 00:03:02,759 --> 00:03:05,519 for leading me From my peaceful desk 32 00:03:06,552 --> 00:03:10,523 To the heart of the worries and suffering of time .this one 33 00:03:13,399 --> 00:03:15,879 But I don't know if .I can go on with it 34 00:03:30,879 --> 00:03:32,799 Yes, nice 35 00:03:33,999 --> 00:03:36,039 .Now cough, please 36 00:03:39,239 --> 00:03:41,039 OK. beauty. thank you 37 00:03:42,079 --> 00:03:43,719 .you can get dressed 38 00:03:45,079 --> 00:03:46,759 .Looks like pneumonia 39 00:03:47,639 --> 00:03:49,839 I will prescribe antibiotics 40 00:03:50,119 --> 00:03:53,279 .I have some balls here for now 41 00:03:54,079 --> 00:03:56,199 , it should get better in three days 42 00:03:56,479 --> 00:03:58,359 ?If not, keep me posted, okay? 43 00:04:00,559 --> 00:04:03,199 I can give him an exemption Shipping per week 44 00:04:05,719 --> 00:04:06,959 ...what about 45 00:04:07,319 --> 00:04:09,839 ?Hospitalization No way... 46 00:04:10,911 --> 00:04:12,248 .it's completely overkill 47 00:04:13,119 --> 00:04:16,039 ...I will rest in bed for a few days and Yul, that's not the point- 48 00:04:16,719 --> 00:04:18,839 The council announced yesterday 49 00:04:18,919 --> 00:04:21,679 Anyone who is hospitalized is exempt from shipping 50 00:04:22,374 --> 00:04:23,919 Yes, and since then the hospital has been flooded .completely 51 00:04:25,159 --> 00:04:27,439 .but my brother Yap works there 52 00:04:27,599 --> 00:04:28,989 They won't let him in 53 00:04:34,799 --> 00:04:38,279 Even if you give him the ?The reference 54 00:04:44,599 --> 00:04:45,639 .good 55 00:04:45,879 --> 00:04:49,079 I will write him a reference But you will go with him. - Yes, of course 56 00:04:49,199 --> 00:04:53,439 Go there tonight, right before curfew There will be less people then 57 00:04:59,799 --> 00:05:01,519 Thank you yes- 58 00:05:15,319 --> 00:05:18,199 You know, I have to admit 59 00:05:19,719 --> 00:05:21,359 that I got used to you terribly 60 00:05:25,999 --> 00:05:28,199 .and I to you, Julius 61 00:05:37,719 --> 00:05:42,479 "I'm the one who knows how terrible it is." I got used to him 62 00:05:43,599 --> 00:05:45,679 , with what deep intensity 63 00:05:45,879 --> 00:05:50,799 With what total dedication I made you This man, and his work, and his life 64 00:05:51,959 --> 00:05:54,279 .to an inseparable part of me 65 00:05:55,799 --> 00:05:58,119 Thank God I still am , can be with him 66 00:05:58,439 --> 00:06:00,599 Even if only for five minutes a day 67 00:06:01,839 --> 00:06:03,919 But the biggest danger lurks to me she is 68 00:06:04,559 --> 00:06:07,319 My heart will break with love for him 69 00:06:10,159 --> 00:06:11,439 with me 70 00:06:13,559 --> 00:06:15,039 Are you listening? 71 00:06:16,079 --> 00:06:19,919 Yes. Sorry, I was dreaming for a moment. What ?You said 72 00:06:20,559 --> 00:06:22,039 Where are you? 73 00:06:23,799 --> 00:06:25,839 .I'm here, with you 74 00:06:33,119 --> 00:06:34,879 Come on, let's have a drink 75 00:06:36,679 --> 00:06:40,559 Another moment, stop You need to go to a hospital 76 00:06:40,839 --> 00:06:42,439 Come on, five minutes 77 00:06:54,279 --> 00:06:56,479 Hi. Come in, quick 78 00:07:00,279 --> 00:07:02,799 "No entry for Jews" 79 00:07:14,439 --> 00:07:15,839 ?Everything is fine 80 00:07:19,399 --> 00:07:20,839 .I know that look 81 00:07:22,439 --> 00:07:26,199 Something is brewing in your head ...it's not- 82 00:07:26,319 --> 00:07:28,559 And you're afraid I'll try to stop .you 83 00:07:30,119 --> 00:07:31,759 Yul, what are you talking about? 84 00:07:32,279 --> 00:07:35,799 But no one in the world can .stop you 85 00:07:37,959 --> 00:07:39,239 .not even me 86 00:07:42,999 --> 00:07:44,359 .you are unstoppable 87 00:07:54,719 --> 00:07:56,559 .I love you so much 88 00:08:12,399 --> 00:08:13,559 , yes 89 00:08:15,119 --> 00:08:16,439 .I love you too 90 00:08:21,919 --> 00:08:23,079 ...but 91 00:08:24,399 --> 00:08:25,759 I always knew I would be 92 00:08:25,839 --> 00:08:30,159 Your springboard .for the really great love 93 00:08:30,239 --> 00:08:33,959 No! never say that 94 00:08:51,639 --> 00:08:52,519 .Hey, yup 95 00:08:53,999 --> 00:08:55,199 You were late 96 00:08:55,919 --> 00:08:59,399 .Yes. forgiveness. thank you yes- 97 00:08:59,559 --> 00:09:01,959 Yep, it's Julius, Julius Sapir 98 00:09:02,199 --> 00:09:05,159 Have you heard of him? ?Your lover, right- 99 00:09:06,039 --> 00:09:07,359 ...Yup .very pleasant- 100 00:09:07,479 --> 00:09:10,839 ...why you No, I'm honored, this title- 101 00:09:11,199 --> 00:09:12,639 Very pleasant 102 00:09:15,119 --> 00:09:18,919 ?You brought the letter from Bamberger .Yes. he is here- 103 00:09:19,439 --> 00:09:20,799 Let's go in 104 00:09:21,079 --> 00:09:22,799 You... you can't go in 105 00:09:23,679 --> 00:09:25,999 Why not? Visiting hours are over- 106 00:09:26,119 --> 00:09:30,959 I need to make sure they get it , him. - I talked to the right people 107 00:09:31,719 --> 00:09:35,759 .will be fine I'll just walk him in, well- 108 00:09:36,599 --> 00:09:38,519 .sorry. These are the rules ...Yup! but it- 109 00:09:38,599 --> 00:09:40,759 Etty, go home 110 00:09:41,479 --> 00:09:42,959 .please. and hurry up 111 00:09:47,079 --> 00:09:48,159 Thank you 112 00:09:51,759 --> 00:09:53,039 .Thanks, Yup 113 00:09:56,439 --> 00:09:59,359 ?I'll come tomorrow, good .I'll be here- 114 00:10:31,239 --> 00:10:34,199 Your springboard .for the really great love 115 00:10:35,119 --> 00:10:37,239 .It hurts me so much 116 00:10:38,519 --> 00:10:40,639 .but... he's right 117 00:10:43,119 --> 00:10:46,319 : I used to say I can stand anything 118 00:10:47,319 --> 00:10:50,079 But if something happens to him , or if I am forced to leave him 119 00:10:51,399 --> 00:10:52,959 I can't go on 120 00:10:55,559 --> 00:10:57,439 , but even then I will have to continue 121 00:10:58,679 --> 00:11:00,319 .and let go of it 122 00:11:15,959 --> 00:11:17,519 I have to take care of that 123 00:11:17,879 --> 00:11:21,799 that my love and concern for him I won't be played that much 124 00:11:22,519 --> 00:11:24,959 .that all my strength will be lost to me 125 00:11:26,639 --> 00:11:29,239 .because that too... selfishness 126 00:11:32,439 --> 00:11:35,279 out of my love for him I have to draw strength and love 127 00:11:35,399 --> 00:11:36,839 .and give them to anyone who needs them 128 00:11:40,239 --> 00:11:42,639 because this love 129 00:11:42,919 --> 00:11:47,799 , can feed me for the rest of my life .and more will be given up to others 130 00:11:55,399 --> 00:11:56,599 God 131 00:11:57,359 --> 00:12:01,319 All my grips .starting to slowly fall out 132 00:12:04,359 --> 00:12:05,719 , carefully 133 00:12:06,759 --> 00:12:11,519 and out of sorrow , but also clarity that everything is for the better 134 00:12:12,039 --> 00:12:13,599 and there is no other way 135 00:12:15,719 --> 00:12:17,199 I let go 136 00:12:18,399 --> 00:12:20,079 from day to day 137 00:12:31,919 --> 00:12:33,159 with me 138 00:12:37,199 --> 00:12:38,479 Hannah! 139 00:12:45,479 --> 00:12:47,079 .a nice hat 140 00:12:51,879 --> 00:12:53,279 .would rather die than get infected with lice 141 00:12:53,399 --> 00:12:56,239 ...what We are going to camp tomorrow- 142 00:12:56,879 --> 00:12:59,519 My exemption request was rejected yesterday Final 143 00:13:19,199 --> 00:13:20,719 ...well, I have to say 144 00:13:21,399 --> 00:13:22,999 .that it's really beautiful for you 145 00:13:23,399 --> 00:13:24,479 Thank you 146 00:13:25,919 --> 00:13:29,479 .but I came to say goodbye .it was on my list before we left 147 00:13:31,399 --> 00:13:33,079 I wouldn't forgive you if it wasn't .was 148 00:13:37,639 --> 00:13:38,839 ...how 149 00:13:39,639 --> 00:13:42,039 How are you feeling? I don't feel- 150 00:13:43,319 --> 00:13:44,919 I don't want to feel anymore 151 00:13:46,039 --> 00:13:47,239 ...I understand, Hannah, but 152 00:13:47,319 --> 00:13:48,839 I'm going to die 153 00:13:49,159 --> 00:13:50,519 What does it matter if I feel or No 154 00:13:50,599 --> 00:13:52,119 You're not going to die, Hannah 155 00:13:52,559 --> 00:13:54,879 ...it's hard in camp, though I- 156 00:13:57,999 --> 00:13:59,439 I'm coming 157 00:14:00,199 --> 00:14:01,279 Say hello to him 158 00:14:08,879 --> 00:14:09,999 Thank you 159 00:14:42,719 --> 00:14:44,839 The transports to the east began 160 00:14:45,879 --> 00:14:47,199 .from Westerbork 161 00:14:48,719 --> 00:14:51,359 To labor camps in Germany, probably 162 00:14:57,039 --> 00:14:58,919 The first train left today 163 00:15:02,119 --> 00:15:03,559 One thousand and one hundred people 164 00:15:09,679 --> 00:15:14,039 I have to go to camp , to advise them on setting up a clinic there 165 00:15:14,239 --> 00:15:17,319 to give exemptions For the people on the lists for transport 166 00:15:19,079 --> 00:15:22,679 They want to build a name , what a small branch of the council 167 00:15:22,759 --> 00:15:24,999 with council workers who will live there 168 00:15:26,439 --> 00:15:30,079 He had the audacity, this Tobias 169 00:15:30,159 --> 00:15:33,359 .to ask me if I am willing to volunteer 170 00:15:34,639 --> 00:15:37,879 Yes, sure... why don't you volunteer ?yourself 171 00:15:38,159 --> 00:15:39,759 A corrupt son of a bitch 172 00:15:42,479 --> 00:15:45,359 .Anyway, I won't be here tomorrow 173 00:15:45,519 --> 00:15:48,639 I asked a friend, Dr Sanders, take my place 174 00:15:49,039 --> 00:15:51,639 Help him with all the bureaucracy ?Good 175 00:15:54,159 --> 00:15:55,559 See you inside 176 00:17:39,799 --> 00:17:41,119 Hey, Hans 177 00:17:41,439 --> 00:17:42,719 ?Why are you awake? 178 00:17:44,239 --> 00:17:46,199 I'm going on a trip with some friends 179 00:17:47,879 --> 00:17:48,679 And you 180 00:17:49,439 --> 00:17:51,759 .I... I just woke up 181 00:17:55,519 --> 00:17:56,879 ?You want it? 182 00:17:57,999 --> 00:18:01,959 No, no. I just wanted to see if I'm fit 183 00:18:02,119 --> 00:18:04,239 .from all the walking 184 00:18:07,079 --> 00:18:11,119 You can take it if you want .I can get another one 185 00:18:12,879 --> 00:18:14,279 .no, it's fine 186 00:18:15,239 --> 00:18:17,639 Thanks, Hans. That's nice of you 187 00:18:21,239 --> 00:18:22,999 ...if I can help with anything 188 00:18:24,479 --> 00:18:25,879 Tell me, okay? 189 00:18:27,039 --> 00:18:28,119 .Yes 190 00:18:28,239 --> 00:18:29,479 I will say 191 00:18:30,879 --> 00:18:31,999 Thank you 192 00:18:38,519 --> 00:18:40,959 What happened? tell me 193 00:18:42,359 --> 00:18:44,159 .sorry, never mind 194 00:20:15,919 --> 00:20:17,919 .tickets, please. thank you 195 00:20:23,159 --> 00:20:25,119 .tickets, please 196 00:20:27,279 --> 00:20:28,639 .Yes, thank you 197 00:20:32,799 --> 00:20:34,159 .tickets 198 00:20:35,319 --> 00:20:36,879 .Yes, thank you 199 00:20:48,479 --> 00:20:51,359 ?Do you have permission to leave Amsterdam? 200 00:20:54,599 --> 00:20:55,719 .Yes 201 00:21:06,199 --> 00:21:09,479 "The Jewish Council" 202 00:21:10,359 --> 00:21:11,519 Can I ask you something? 203 00:21:13,959 --> 00:21:16,359 How did you know I needed a permit? 204 00:21:18,119 --> 00:21:20,119 .it comes with the job 205 00:21:20,239 --> 00:21:22,759 To observe people, to pay attention for things 206 00:21:23,159 --> 00:21:24,959 .I'm very good at it 207 00:21:25,799 --> 00:21:27,319 Excellent 208 00:21:28,999 --> 00:21:30,199 .have a good trip 209 00:21:40,119 --> 00:21:44,199 The next stop is Hilversum 210 00:22:14,079 --> 00:22:14,919 with me 211 00:22:21,399 --> 00:22:23,639 I didn't believe you would come 212 00:22:23,839 --> 00:22:26,079 Why? , don't know- 213 00:22:26,879 --> 00:22:28,799 I didn't think that you really agree to do it 214 00:22:30,079 --> 00:22:32,159 Come on, let's go downstairs 215 00:22:35,199 --> 00:22:36,879 I really like this house 216 00:22:38,879 --> 00:22:40,239 .that's good 217 00:22:42,319 --> 00:22:43,919 Let's go down 218 00:22:52,399 --> 00:22:53,439 .Caution on the head 219 00:23:10,919 --> 00:23:13,759 You really opened a studio here yes- 220 00:23:15,359 --> 00:23:17,239 ?This is where you record the show 221 00:23:18,239 --> 00:23:21,679 ?All the guests come here .in the last few months, yes- 222 00:23:21,959 --> 00:23:24,959 "Why not in the studio of "Vara"? It's nicer here, isn't it- 223 00:23:28,119 --> 00:23:30,359 You organized it really nicely 224 00:23:30,559 --> 00:23:33,799 ?When did you have time? .just recently- 225 00:23:33,999 --> 00:23:36,919 Look, there are even toilets here .and a shower 226 00:23:37,239 --> 00:23:38,719 .really cute 227 00:23:39,839 --> 00:23:40,919 .Yes 228 00:23:44,759 --> 00:23:46,559 What 229 00:23:47,599 --> 00:23:51,239 The truth is, I thought it might be .a perfect hiding place for you 230 00:23:54,399 --> 00:23:55,879 No one comes here 231 00:23:58,359 --> 00:24:00,519 You can live here until that you find another solution 232 00:24:09,439 --> 00:24:10,839 .I want you to keep them 233 00:24:16,759 --> 00:24:18,359 .after the recording 234 00:24:21,599 --> 00:24:22,759 ...because 235 00:24:27,999 --> 00:24:29,719 I'm going to Westerbork 236 00:24:30,439 --> 00:24:32,159 .and I don't want to take them with me 237 00:24:39,159 --> 00:24:41,079 But you work in the council 238 00:24:41,199 --> 00:24:43,679 You have an exemption from shipping , yes- 239 00:24:44,799 --> 00:24:49,039 I requested a transfer to the council's branch in the camp 240 00:24:50,479 --> 00:24:53,999 Physical and mental support for deportees 241 00:24:56,599 --> 00:24:58,359 I think I can contribute there .a lot 242 00:25:10,559 --> 00:25:12,159 ?When does this happen? 243 00:25:13,279 --> 00:25:14,479 .soon 244 00:25:16,479 --> 00:25:18,479 ...I'm waiting for official confirmation, though 245 00:25:20,279 --> 00:25:22,919 Almost no one volunteers ...for this position 246 00:25:22,999 --> 00:25:25,239 Yes, and there's a reason for that, don't you think? 247 00:25:25,879 --> 00:25:27,559 Yes, probably yes- 248 00:25:27,759 --> 00:25:28,799 Because Gamker, that monster 249 00:25:28,879 --> 00:25:30,799 can cancel your status , as a council employee 250 00:25:30,879 --> 00:25:32,759 and bring you up .on the first transport 251 00:25:32,839 --> 00:25:34,319 .yes, it can happen yes- 252 00:25:34,439 --> 00:25:36,559 .I hope not, but it's a possibility 253 00:25:39,639 --> 00:25:42,319 But... you never know what , will happen 254 00:25:42,639 --> 00:25:44,639 ...so the best thing is 255 00:25:45,279 --> 00:25:47,399 , to leave all this panic for a moment ...and simple 256 00:25:49,519 --> 00:25:51,239 .to do what seems right 257 00:26:00,639 --> 00:26:02,479 Who knows about this plan of yours? 258 00:26:02,959 --> 00:26:04,119 So far no one 259 00:26:05,319 --> 00:26:07,359 Max will find out when he sees the letter 260 00:26:08,439 --> 00:26:11,079 Max Polk? He is never alive .will confirm it 261 00:26:11,199 --> 00:26:13,279 I also wrote Cohen and Asher 262 00:26:14,799 --> 00:26:17,159 They are looking for volunteers with candles 263 00:26:18,759 --> 00:26:20,959 .so... they will approve it 264 00:26:24,919 --> 00:26:26,279 ...so 265 00:26:26,879 --> 00:26:28,919 , right now you are the only one who knows about it 266 00:26:30,479 --> 00:26:33,879 And I want it to stay that way Until I go, okay? 267 00:26:36,239 --> 00:26:39,239 I need to know that I am .can count on you 268 00:26:42,439 --> 00:26:44,959 ?Yes, and... and what about Han? 269 00:26:46,159 --> 00:26:47,279 ?And your family 270 00:26:47,359 --> 00:26:49,839 I will tell them when everything is closed 271 00:26:55,399 --> 00:26:56,599 ...class 272 00:26:57,959 --> 00:27:01,039 I came to you because you are the only one , who can understand 273 00:27:01,399 --> 00:27:03,639 .or... who would have done the same 274 00:27:04,079 --> 00:27:05,599 ...absolutely not. I am ...so promise me- 275 00:27:05,679 --> 00:27:07,599 .No, I wouldn't do that .would you do- 276 00:27:07,679 --> 00:27:10,999 No. The truth is already now .I don't do it 277 00:27:12,479 --> 00:27:13,679 What is meant? 278 00:27:16,479 --> 00:27:18,359 I started working ." in "The Dutch Broadcasting 279 00:27:20,919 --> 00:27:24,999 Yes. At the fascist whores .these 280 00:27:26,119 --> 00:27:29,719 I'm not the only one, of course .but that's no excuse 281 00:27:30,759 --> 00:27:32,119 I am not involved in any propaganda 282 00:27:32,239 --> 00:27:36,799 .but... that's no excuse either So what are we recording here? 283 00:27:38,479 --> 00:27:43,719 I'm still recording the show , to keep a shred of self-respect 284 00:27:47,719 --> 00:27:51,519 But I don't know if Someday it will be broadcast, or where 285 00:27:53,679 --> 00:27:55,119 Maybe after the war 286 00:28:03,279 --> 00:28:05,239 , because the truth is, me 287 00:28:07,519 --> 00:28:09,079 .that I'm just scared 288 00:28:11,439 --> 00:28:13,119 .and I want to live 289 00:28:18,599 --> 00:28:22,039 You can call me an associate. This OK 290 00:28:22,119 --> 00:28:24,199 I'm not judging you, Klass you can- 291 00:28:24,319 --> 00:28:27,799 What interests me now is just .if I can trust you or not 292 00:28:29,919 --> 00:28:33,799 I need you to promise me that it is .remains between us 293 00:28:39,039 --> 00:28:40,079 .Yes 294 00:28:58,639 --> 00:29:00,919 Hello, listeners from the future 295 00:29:01,519 --> 00:29:04,079 .in the new age of freedom 296 00:29:05,399 --> 00:29:07,559 This is another episode "in the program "The Red Thread". 297 00:29:07,679 --> 00:29:11,519 And with us today is the author The young woman Etty Hilsum 298 00:29:11,679 --> 00:29:14,399 So far she has not published the , her creation 299 00:29:14,919 --> 00:29:18,519 But I am convinced that in time , that you listen to it 300 00:29:18,719 --> 00:29:23,639 Eti is already one of the most voices fascinating of this period 301 00:29:23,719 --> 00:29:24,959 Class! 302 00:29:26,759 --> 00:29:28,639 I have been writing for almost a year 303 00:29:28,759 --> 00:29:32,239 , a type of diary text, or illuminated 304 00:29:32,479 --> 00:29:38,759 This is elaborate confessional writing ...very, kind of testimony of 305 00:29:38,919 --> 00:29:41,159 Class, really No, you're right- 306 00:29:41,279 --> 00:29:43,839 .Let's get started. come on 307 00:29:52,679 --> 00:29:56,679 ?So... where do you want us to start? 308 00:29:57,879 --> 00:29:59,319 .in the beginning 309 00:30:06,639 --> 00:30:08,919 .well, this is really the beginning of everything 310 00:30:16,959 --> 00:30:18,599 .so that's it, go ahead 311 00:30:19,839 --> 00:30:23,119 This is a painful step and almost : Impossible for me 312 00:30:24,279 --> 00:30:26,279 deposit all that has been repressed 313 00:30:26,439 --> 00:30:28,359 Between the lines of an innocent sheet of paper 314 00:30:29,319 --> 00:30:30,879 , so many inhibitions 315 00:30:31,319 --> 00:30:33,119 Fear of letting go 316 00:30:33,719 --> 00:30:34,879 to allow things to flow from me 317 00:30:34,959 --> 00:30:36,719 , and still This is what I have to do 318 00:30:37,479 --> 00:30:41,399 If I want to give my life A meaningful and satisfying goal 319 00:31:09,879 --> 00:31:13,039 To the Honorable Mr. Max Polk, responsible Exemptions 320 00:31:17,879 --> 00:31:21,799 I hereby request a transfer .to the council branch in Westerbork 321 00:31:28,159 --> 00:31:30,719 I believe that my skills will be used to a much better extent 322 00:31:30,879 --> 00:31:32,519 If I engage in social assistance 323 00:31:33,039 --> 00:31:37,039 and mental support for families .and to the people who come to the camp 324 00:31:38,519 --> 00:31:39,719 with me 325 00:31:44,479 --> 00:31:49,119 I wish to declare that I am aware , for all the risks involved in this job 326 00:31:49,719 --> 00:31:52,359 and that this decision may be .irreversible 327 00:32:03,079 --> 00:32:04,879 , if I may be allowed a little poetry 328 00:32:06,359 --> 00:32:08,079 After all, we all have a common destiny 329 00:32:10,159 --> 00:32:12,079 .and I will not avoid my part in this fate 330 00:32:13,639 --> 00:32:18,719 I want to strap him on my back , like a backpack, and fasten it to me 331 00:32:18,919 --> 00:32:20,599 until he becomes a part of me 332 00:32:22,399 --> 00:32:26,079 This is what will guide me from here on .wherever I go 333 00:32:26,971 --> 00:32:30,771 If my request is rejected, I resign , hereby my position in the council 334 00:32:31,479 --> 00:32:33,639 "Giving up my special status" 335 00:32:33,799 --> 00:32:36,159 And I will obey my summons to Westerbork 336 00:32:37,514 --> 00:32:40,476 Sincerely, I'm Hilsum 337 00:32:43,918 --> 00:32:47,014 ?You don't want to answer .No, I mute it- 338 00:32:50,755 --> 00:32:51,803 You can continue 339 00:32:52,889 --> 00:32:57,995 Or you need another break .No, we're almost done- 340 00:32:58,956 --> 00:32:59,649 .okay 341 00:33:00,916 --> 00:33:02,331 .well, it's a recorder 342 00:33:07,216 --> 00:33:08,856 ... this one 343 00:33:10,136 --> 00:33:11,122 The last one 344 00:33:15,576 --> 00:33:20,776 God, all my grips .starting to slowly fall out 345 00:33:24,296 --> 00:33:25,656 "carefully" 346 00:33:26,696 --> 00:33:27,656 out of great sorrow" 347 00:33:27,736 --> 00:33:30,816 , but also clarity that everything is for the better" 348 00:33:31,976 --> 00:33:33,656 and there is no other way" 349 00:33:35,696 --> 00:33:37,136 I'm letting go 350 00:33:38,296 --> 00:33:39,936 "...day by day" 351 00:33:51,856 --> 00:33:53,056 .this is it 352 00:34:00,536 --> 00:34:02,136 I wrote this last night 353 00:34:09,416 --> 00:34:10,696 .it's yours 354 00:34:14,856 --> 00:34:16,896 Can you play one more song? 355 00:34:17,616 --> 00:34:18,816 ?To finish 356 00:34:19,616 --> 00:34:21,896 We don't have to finish. there is We have time 357 00:34:23,896 --> 00:34:24,896 I have to go back 358 00:34:32,736 --> 00:34:34,336 , dear listeners 359 00:34:34,416 --> 00:34:39,496 We'll listen now... for more .music 360 00:34:39,736 --> 00:34:41,616 What did you bring with you, Eti? 361 00:34:44,096 --> 00:34:47,176 It's a lullaby my mom used to be Sing to me 362 00:34:52,056 --> 00:34:53,096 .okay 363 00:35:38,376 --> 00:35:39,656 ?What is it about? 364 00:35:43,896 --> 00:35:45,456 ...he is actually a number 365 00:35:47,616 --> 00:35:50,096 About a mother trying to tell her son 366 00:35:50,216 --> 00:35:52,976 .whose father died in the war 367 00:35:58,016 --> 00:35:59,216 was grief" 368 00:36:00,976 --> 00:36:03,976 there will always be grief" 369 00:36:07,216 --> 00:36:09,656 "There is no end to sorrow" 370 00:36:11,536 --> 00:36:14,096 ...jeez, and it's called a lullaby 371 00:36:15,736 --> 00:36:17,816 What is your problem, Russians? 372 00:36:18,656 --> 00:36:22,536 Well, it actually has .lots of benefits these days 373 00:36:23,816 --> 00:36:25,056 ?Yes 374 00:36:27,176 --> 00:36:28,256 What, for example? 375 00:36:29,456 --> 00:36:32,576 Here in the West, we don't catch on suffering as a part of life 376 00:36:33,976 --> 00:36:35,056 ...that is 377 00:36:35,256 --> 00:36:37,816 And when suffering comes to us, we ...so much 378 00:36:39,216 --> 00:36:40,616 Not ready for it 379 00:36:41,536 --> 00:36:43,776 ...so unskilled b 380 00:36:45,136 --> 00:36:47,496 ." in "The Art of Suffering 381 00:36:48,136 --> 00:36:50,536 ?You understand .no- 382 00:36:51,296 --> 00:36:53,856 ?I... What is the art of suffering? 383 00:36:55,416 --> 00:36:59,176 What are you doing with him? What meaning do you give it? 384 00:37:00,776 --> 00:37:03,376 ...people are so immersed in it 385 00:37:04,176 --> 00:37:05,296 , fear 386 00:37:05,456 --> 00:37:07,656 ...despair, bitterness, hatred 387 00:37:08,096 --> 00:37:10,256 .and get completely absorbed in it ...yeah, but- 388 00:37:14,136 --> 00:37:17,816 I don't think you can blame them. - No, of course not! Absolutely not 389 00:37:19,096 --> 00:37:20,176 ...but 390 00:37:20,696 --> 00:37:24,136 If all you have left , in life is fear and hatred 391 00:37:27,296 --> 00:37:29,056 You can even continue to call it ?life 392 00:37:31,456 --> 00:37:32,736 , I don't know 393 00:37:35,576 --> 00:37:38,656 ?Life itself is before everything, no 394 00:37:41,216 --> 00:37:42,536 .not always 395 00:37:46,696 --> 00:37:48,136 ...okay, but 396 00:37:49,256 --> 00:37:50,896 How do you deal with suffering? 397 00:37:51,216 --> 00:37:54,336 Listen, I don't always succeed Absolutely not 398 00:37:54,536 --> 00:37:56,976 .I have enough moments of despair 399 00:37:57,096 --> 00:37:58,656 ...but I am 400 00:37:59,696 --> 00:38:02,416 Trying to remember what's really important ...this 401 00:38:03,936 --> 00:38:05,456 .This is my response to suffering 402 00:38:07,256 --> 00:38:10,496 I always have the freedom to choose .how to respond to him 403 00:38:14,856 --> 00:38:17,216 It goes without saying, I know 404 00:38:17,336 --> 00:38:19,576 ...but that thought always 405 00:38:20,696 --> 00:38:22,816 Yes... fills me with a feeling of Freedom 406 00:38:26,216 --> 00:38:29,176 ?You can understand that .I think, yes- 407 00:38:29,656 --> 00:38:33,096 , that's what I read to you before On the cell I enter 408 00:38:33,816 --> 00:38:34,616 .Yes 409 00:38:35,736 --> 00:38:37,656 Yes, the prayer room, yes yes- 410 00:38:37,856 --> 00:38:38,896 , and there 411 00:38:40,016 --> 00:38:41,776 , if I manage to concentrate enough 412 00:38:41,856 --> 00:38:44,456 , and surrender to it completely 413 00:38:48,176 --> 00:38:49,816 I feel completely protected 414 00:38:52,016 --> 00:38:53,416 Hasina 415 00:38:56,496 --> 00:38:58,896 , because there is something of me there 416 00:38:59,976 --> 00:39:01,256 , my nucleus 417 00:39:03,016 --> 00:39:04,696 .which can never be taken from me 418 00:39:06,616 --> 00:39:09,536 And even if I lose everything I have .I will always have him 419 00:39:11,136 --> 00:39:12,256 , that is 420 00:39:12,976 --> 00:39:16,336 .myself. And no matter what happens 421 00:39:19,656 --> 00:39:21,736 ...Okay, so you believe 422 00:39:23,056 --> 00:39:24,656 ...you believe that this nucleus 423 00:39:25,936 --> 00:39:27,336 ...the truth is that ...even if- 424 00:39:29,696 --> 00:39:33,616 ?Yes The truth is that it's not easy for me to talk about it- 425 00:39:36,256 --> 00:39:37,696 Certainly not with you 426 00:39:37,856 --> 00:39:41,456 Okay, because it has to do with God etc. - Yes, yes 427 00:39:41,576 --> 00:39:47,176 Well, maybe it's time Let's talk about it 428 00:39:49,576 --> 00:39:50,616 ?Yes 429 00:39:53,456 --> 00:39:55,096 .Yes ...because- 430 00:39:56,656 --> 00:39:57,896 ...which I am 431 00:39:58,816 --> 00:40:02,216 What I'm still trying to figure out is 432 00:40:02,856 --> 00:40:06,576 How are you, of all people? .You started to believe in God 433 00:40:06,696 --> 00:40:09,256 I still can't figure it out .this. - Yes 434 00:40:09,416 --> 00:40:12,176 I just stopped too .to fight it 435 00:40:12,456 --> 00:40:13,896 Look, sometimes I feel it too 436 00:40:13,976 --> 00:40:15,936 "That the word "God .so primitive 437 00:40:17,296 --> 00:40:20,776 Obviously I'm not easy with that word 438 00:40:22,656 --> 00:40:24,936 ...the truth is it's more like 439 00:40:27,496 --> 00:40:29,136 .a metaphor 440 00:40:30,976 --> 00:40:32,096 .okay 441 00:40:34,576 --> 00:40:35,816 ...it's like there is 442 00:40:36,736 --> 00:40:38,416 ...it's like having sex 443 00:40:40,216 --> 00:40:43,736 , a hole inside me 444 00:40:44,856 --> 00:40:46,096 A deep pit 445 00:40:47,696 --> 00:40:49,216 , and I go into it 446 00:40:51,856 --> 00:40:55,056 And sometimes it is covered with stones and in the dirt 447 00:40:57,056 --> 00:40:59,696 Then I have to dig and clean , him 448 00:41:01,176 --> 00:41:04,576 But in the end, I find something .that is buried deep beneath it all 449 00:41:06,976 --> 00:41:10,616 ." And that's what I call "God 450 00:41:14,576 --> 00:41:18,656 , but this is not just a metaphor. i.e 451 00:41:19,936 --> 00:41:23,576 You also pray to this God ...you talk to him. So 452 00:41:24,936 --> 00:41:26,976 .Yes, a lot 453 00:41:27,496 --> 00:41:31,136 , then it is something that is outside of you ...no? some other entity or 454 00:41:31,256 --> 00:41:33,176 ...no, no, because 455 00:41:34,336 --> 00:41:37,896 When I speak to this core , that you are inside me 456 00:41:38,736 --> 00:41:41,256 .it's more like... a conversation 457 00:41:44,336 --> 00:41:49,176 She can be real .Childish sometimes 458 00:41:50,176 --> 00:41:52,616 !?God, really" “!It can't go on like this 459 00:41:53,536 --> 00:41:54,616 ...but 460 00:41:56,896 --> 00:41:58,216 , even then 461 00:41:59,016 --> 00:42:02,336 It's like I'm turning to something inside me 462 00:42:04,016 --> 00:42:06,496 that I am trying to plead which .a part of myself 463 00:42:07,936 --> 00:42:11,016 "I... "from class 464 00:42:11,096 --> 00:42:13,936 I wish I could find There's a word for that in Dutch 465 00:42:14,736 --> 00:42:18,856 , but I'm listening with all my heart 466 00:42:19,696 --> 00:42:21,216 .to the voice that is inside me 467 00:42:25,056 --> 00:42:26,936 But you don't think so Which is pretty absurd timing 468 00:42:27,016 --> 00:42:28,896 ?Start believing in God 469 00:42:29,536 --> 00:42:32,376 ?With all the horrors happening around us .no- 470 00:42:32,496 --> 00:42:35,296 ...that's exactly it If there was a god- 471 00:42:36,776 --> 00:42:39,456 He would start by destroying ...all these barbarians who 472 00:42:39,536 --> 00:42:41,176 Class, please 473 00:42:42,856 --> 00:42:44,936 Don't make it into something like that My childhood 474 00:42:46,016 --> 00:42:48,696 Obviously I'm not talking about some one in heaven 475 00:42:48,816 --> 00:42:52,096 who owes us an explanation of what .happening down here 476 00:42:53,136 --> 00:42:56,336 If anything, the opposite is true 477 00:42:57,856 --> 00:43:02,696 We are the ones who have to give it to him Accountability for all these atrocities 478 00:43:02,856 --> 00:43:04,096 "We" 479 00:43:04,896 --> 00:43:06,976 ?"Who is "we We are "that's all of us"- 480 00:43:07,216 --> 00:43:08,776 .You and me too 481 00:43:09,136 --> 00:43:12,056 What, what do I have to account for? 482 00:43:14,216 --> 00:43:15,936 .about your hatred, for example 483 00:43:17,576 --> 00:43:21,536 Because this is also a big part of what is happening .here 484 00:43:22,016 --> 00:43:24,816 .I have no problem with my hate Yes, that's exactly the problem- 485 00:43:26,576 --> 00:43:30,496 ...people immediately get addicted to everything Those revenge fantasies 486 00:43:30,616 --> 00:43:33,296 I can spend hours .in my fantasies 487 00:43:34,296 --> 00:43:39,256 In fact... nothing can .be more natural than that 488 00:43:39,376 --> 00:43:41,496 .It is as natural as illness is natural 489 00:43:42,736 --> 00:43:45,296 Can't you see it's poisonous? ?your soul? of all of us 490 00:43:45,416 --> 00:43:50,176 The only unnatural thing here .is your objection to it 491 00:43:50,776 --> 00:43:53,536 ...you, you fight Class! class- 492 00:43:53,696 --> 00:43:54,976 Class! 493 00:43:56,656 --> 00:43:58,656 remember your tantrum ?In the museum 494 00:44:00,056 --> 00:44:03,776 , you didn't feel it wasn't in... matching ?For everything that happens 495 00:44:04,176 --> 00:44:05,256 No 496 00:44:06,816 --> 00:44:11,256 I mean, all sorts of things happen here , so big, diabolical 497 00:44:11,656 --> 00:44:13,456 ...on a biblical scale 498 00:44:14,296 --> 00:44:15,616 you don't feel , that all this bitterness 499 00:44:15,696 --> 00:44:18,096 ?And the cursing, isn't it a bit... lousy 500 00:44:18,176 --> 00:44:21,936 No, I feel like this is it The most natural in the world 501 00:44:22,016 --> 00:44:23,416 But I know you, Klass 502 00:44:24,696 --> 00:44:26,376 .Hate is not in your nature 503 00:44:26,576 --> 00:44:28,336 .My nature has changed 504 00:44:29,176 --> 00:44:32,616 And your nature and everyone else's has changed .because of these monsters 505 00:44:32,696 --> 00:44:34,336 .but they are not monsters 506 00:44:35,616 --> 00:44:39,256 They are human, and that is exactly the problem 507 00:44:40,296 --> 00:44:43,256 Which makes them do the These horrors also exist within us 508 00:44:43,496 --> 00:44:44,656 .with all of us 509 00:44:45,216 --> 00:44:47,656 .I don't agree with that But I'm sure of it- 510 00:44:49,576 --> 00:44:51,456 I know for sure 511 00:44:53,296 --> 00:44:56,136 that if each and every one of us , will take a moment to look inside 512 00:44:57,776 --> 00:45:02,376 And instead of fantasizing about destroying the , the other 513 00:45:02,816 --> 00:45:04,696 Will try to destroy this part ...in it that 514 00:45:04,776 --> 00:45:06,576 Sorry, I'm here .but I can't hear it 515 00:45:06,656 --> 00:45:08,216 I know how it sounds 516 00:45:08,456 --> 00:45:11,416 ...I'm not trying to preach, though .this is how it sounds- 517 00:45:11,776 --> 00:45:13,376 No, Klass, really 518 00:45:13,616 --> 00:45:16,816 You're the one who always resisted to relate to people 519 00:45:16,896 --> 00:45:18,776 .as if they were a uniform, faceless mass 520 00:45:18,896 --> 00:45:21,576 !It's not the same thing :Try to think about it for a moment really- 521 00:45:26,696 --> 00:45:29,176 There are also hundreds of thousands of German mothers 522 00:45:30,056 --> 00:45:33,096 that at this moment are grieving .about their children who are killed in the war 523 00:45:35,376 --> 00:45:38,096 ...and children who lost their fathers 524 00:45:41,176 --> 00:45:42,936 You are unable to feel ?Their pain 525 00:45:47,136 --> 00:45:48,976 ?So what is it actually? 526 00:45:50,816 --> 00:45:52,416 "Love your enemy" 527 00:45:52,776 --> 00:45:54,696 This is Christianity 528 00:45:55,536 --> 00:45:57,296 .Call it Christianity if you want 529 00:45:58,976 --> 00:46:01,816 Call it Buddhism, Judaism 530 00:46:03,496 --> 00:46:05,256 What does it matter? ...well- 531 00:46:05,416 --> 00:46:07,216 , it matters 532 00:46:07,736 --> 00:46:10,496 Because when you yourself become a part 533 00:46:10,616 --> 00:46:13,176 From this whole world of beliefs , mysticism 534 00:46:13,456 --> 00:46:16,256 which become more important ...from life itself 535 00:46:16,376 --> 00:46:17,496 you don't know anything .about my faith 536 00:46:17,576 --> 00:46:19,776 No, but I see What does she make you do? 537 00:46:19,856 --> 00:46:21,256 ...it has nothing to do with religion 538 00:46:21,336 --> 00:46:23,576 Yeah, okay, so call it a voice .internal 539 00:46:29,456 --> 00:46:30,736 ...and 540 00:46:32,816 --> 00:46:35,656 Now that inner voice ...your tells you 541 00:46:37,976 --> 00:46:39,696 .go to camp 542 00:46:46,216 --> 00:46:48,256 You keep screwing it up ...for something so simplistic 543 00:46:51,056 --> 00:46:54,016 But yes, basically, yes. that's what .that this 544 00:46:54,856 --> 00:46:57,656 .even if it means dying 545 00:47:09,136 --> 00:47:10,696 .I want to tell you something 546 00:47:12,256 --> 00:47:15,416 But I want to be sure Don't get it wrong 547 00:47:18,896 --> 00:47:19,936 .okay 548 00:47:24,296 --> 00:47:25,776 i feel 549 00:47:27,016 --> 00:47:29,096 that somehow 550 00:47:29,376 --> 00:47:31,096 I'm done with this life 551 00:47:37,736 --> 00:47:40,176 What are you actually saying? No way I'm giving up- 552 00:47:40,296 --> 00:47:42,336 No? That's how it sounds !no- 553 00:47:42,456 --> 00:47:46,056 do you see That's why... -Which ...another meaning can be to 554 00:47:46,336 --> 00:47:48,056 "To come to terms with life" ...meaning is- 555 00:47:49,736 --> 00:47:51,496 that the possibility of death 556 00:47:52,376 --> 00:47:54,136 .became a part of my life 557 00:47:58,136 --> 00:47:59,176 I can even say 558 00:47:59,256 --> 00:48:01,536 that the presence of death enriched you .my life 559 00:48:03,816 --> 00:48:05,736 , and I can look him in the eyes 560 00:48:06,696 --> 00:48:08,696 and accept that it is possible 561 00:48:09,696 --> 00:48:15,256 Instead of wasting all my energy .for fear of death, or for denial 562 00:48:17,136 --> 00:48:18,616 I try, at least 563 00:48:23,616 --> 00:48:26,936 .so you just don't mind dying ?That's the thing 564 00:48:28,576 --> 00:48:30,776 No, just the opposite, Klass 565 00:48:33,336 --> 00:48:34,496 I really am 566 00:48:36,176 --> 00:48:37,296 , really 567 00:48:38,096 --> 00:48:40,296 , really want to continue living 568 00:48:42,376 --> 00:48:45,136 But I want to live life Mine, as I feel is right 569 00:48:49,416 --> 00:48:50,976 There are so many things ...which I want to do 570 00:48:54,176 --> 00:48:57,176 I just know that I have so much , much to give 571 00:48:57,296 --> 00:48:59,776 , for people who have lost hope ...for young girls who 572 00:48:59,896 --> 00:49:02,256 .but you can help them here ...and I really- 573 00:49:02,536 --> 00:49:05,976 Really want to be a part From what will happen here after the war 574 00:49:07,576 --> 00:49:10,216 really. And I really want to .to see what happens next 575 00:49:12,456 --> 00:49:15,656 I just know there will be all so many people 576 00:49:15,776 --> 00:49:19,216 Let them try to make a positive change here 577 00:49:21,176 --> 00:49:23,656 .and I want to be a part of it Yes- 578 00:49:24,856 --> 00:49:26,216 Then stay 579 00:49:28,056 --> 00:49:32,256 - Stay! It is so true .you have so much to give the world 580 00:49:32,336 --> 00:49:34,256 ...why go to a place that 581 00:49:34,376 --> 00:49:37,216 But what I have to give I can also give in the camp 582 00:49:38,856 --> 00:49:41,136 .especially there Yes, if you stay alive- 583 00:49:43,256 --> 00:49:44,336 .Yes 584 00:49:45,976 --> 00:49:48,856 , but even if I don't survive it 585 00:49:51,416 --> 00:49:53,376 , sometimes also the way you die 586 00:49:56,176 --> 00:49:58,576 Can give something to the world, no 587 00:50:03,856 --> 00:50:07,736 With me, please I beg you. stay here 588 00:50:08,816 --> 00:50:12,616 We can continue the discussion ...it's forever, but, please 589 00:50:12,696 --> 00:50:15,696 ...class, enough Listen, stay here for a week, okay- 590 00:50:15,856 --> 00:50:18,616 ...you can decide later But I've already decided- 591 00:50:18,736 --> 00:50:20,576 But this is absurd 592 00:50:21,656 --> 00:50:25,096 .You have an option that no one else has Yes, that's exactly the problem- 593 00:50:25,256 --> 00:50:29,936 But it's not at anyone's expense No, that's not true, that's not true- 594 00:50:30,416 --> 00:50:32,256 There are quotas, every week 595 00:50:32,976 --> 00:50:34,736 Anyone who saves themselves knows 596 00:50:34,816 --> 00:50:37,216 .for someone else to go in his place 597 00:50:37,816 --> 00:50:42,336 I don't tell other people !What... -It's not related 598 00:50:42,776 --> 00:50:44,976 A person should do What he can to live 599 00:50:45,056 --> 00:50:46,456 : Class, let me ask you a question 600 00:50:47,056 --> 00:50:49,136 What does it matter if I go into hiding? 601 00:50:49,216 --> 00:50:51,576 when so many people ?They will have to go to the camp 602 00:50:51,696 --> 00:50:54,696 This is the most twisted logic !that I have heard in my life 603 00:50:54,776 --> 00:50:56,896 Why? ...why? because- 604 00:50:57,016 --> 00:50:58,936 ...because I know that 605 00:50:59,016 --> 00:51:01,216 It is not arrogance to think that I'm too good 606 00:51:01,296 --> 00:51:03,176 ?To the fate of so many people 607 00:51:03,336 --> 00:51:05,056 This is not arrogance 608 00:51:05,136 --> 00:51:07,976 ...there is such a thing called "Common destiny" 609 00:51:08,056 --> 00:51:10,216 I'm not sure you'll be able to understand No, I don't understand- 610 00:51:10,296 --> 00:51:13,656 .so call it solidarity ?It's something you know, right? 611 00:51:13,816 --> 00:51:17,136 ?We forgot our socialism Fuck socialism! 612 00:51:17,296 --> 00:51:19,696 I don't give a damn about socialism 613 00:51:19,936 --> 00:51:23,136 If I have to choose between you , between socialism, I choose you 614 00:51:23,256 --> 00:51:24,896 ?It is not clear 615 00:51:27,776 --> 00:51:28,976 No 616 00:51:29,856 --> 00:51:31,056 No 617 00:51:31,896 --> 00:51:33,096 Absolutely not 618 00:51:42,576 --> 00:51:43,736 Are you okay? 619 00:51:44,296 --> 00:51:45,416 ...yes, I am 620 00:51:47,456 --> 00:51:49,896 .okay, let's get this over with 621 00:51:52,176 --> 00:51:54,856 ?We're done here, right? .no, no- 622 00:51:56,176 --> 00:51:57,696 No, you can continue 623 00:51:58,096 --> 00:52:01,416 ...it's fascinating. Go ahead, read I have to go back to Amsterdam- 624 00:52:01,696 --> 00:52:02,896 Why? what is so urgent 625 00:52:02,976 --> 00:52:05,376 I have to go see Sapir .in the hospital. he is waiting for me 626 00:52:05,496 --> 00:52:06,776 Come on, that's enough 627 00:52:08,536 --> 00:52:11,176 Class, leave me alone Enough of that! 628 00:52:11,296 --> 00:52:13,656 You will die there I won't die. enough- 629 00:52:13,736 --> 00:52:16,536 What are you trying to prove? ...if you still don't understand- 630 00:52:16,616 --> 00:52:18,656 No, I don't understand, Eti 631 00:52:18,736 --> 00:52:20,976 I don't understand I don't understand what happened to you 632 00:52:21,056 --> 00:52:24,776 .I don't know you! - Yes, exactly You don't know me anymore 633 00:52:25,856 --> 00:52:27,816 With me, that's enough .leave me- 634 00:52:27,936 --> 00:52:29,696 !Enough .leave me- 635 00:53:06,976 --> 00:53:08,256 ...with me ...and- 636 00:53:10,016 --> 00:53:11,776 Please delete our recordings 637 00:53:13,096 --> 00:53:14,176 .please 638 00:53:28,096 --> 00:53:29,336 .please 639 00:53:32,416 --> 00:53:33,896 .Class, let me go 640 00:53:42,856 --> 00:53:44,696 with me. with me 641 00:53:46,216 --> 00:53:48,216 ?Hey, can you hear me? 642 00:53:49,496 --> 00:53:50,776 Ethy, hi 643 00:53:54,336 --> 00:53:55,656 Are you okay? 644 00:53:58,896 --> 00:54:00,496 What happened? 645 00:54:02,096 --> 00:54:03,736 You passed out 646 00:54:05,376 --> 00:54:07,896 Shall I call the doctor? my neighbor ...he is 647 00:54:07,976 --> 00:54:09,896 .No, I'll be fine 648 00:54:13,136 --> 00:54:14,616 .carefully. come on 649 00:54:19,176 --> 00:54:20,496 Are you okay? 650 00:54:26,176 --> 00:54:28,016 ...I am .come- 651 00:55:03,976 --> 00:55:04,572 Take it 652 00:55:10,256 --> 00:55:11,336 Are you okay? 653 00:55:28,736 --> 00:55:30,176 I think I'm pregnant 654 00:55:34,576 --> 00:55:35,736 What 655 00:55:38,536 --> 00:55:39,936 It seems to me 656 00:55:50,256 --> 00:55:51,056 Writing and directing: Hagai Levy 657 00:55:51,136 --> 00:55:51,936 Producers: Yael Vogel Leticia Gonzalez 658 00:55:52,016 --> 00:55:52,816 , Jonas Dornbach, Frans van Gestel 659 00:55:52,896 --> 00:55:53,696 Yalon Rachkovsky, Ossi Neshri Hagai Levi 660 00:55:53,776 --> 00:55:54,576 Artistic producer: A kind of paradise 661 00:55:54,656 --> 00:55:55,456 Edited by: Yael Harsonsky .Neta Dvorakis, Assaf Korman 662 00:55:55,536 --> 00:55:56,336 Screenplay editing: Ossi Neshri