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Do you have to work tomorrow?

2
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Yes, pretty early.

3
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And you?

4
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As well.

5
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I used to be able to stay out late,
drink a lot and then...

6
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work on Friday,
as if nothing had happened.

7
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I haven't been able to do it for a long time.
Now I always fall asleep.

8
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I feel the same way. A catastrophe.

9
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Why do you travel so much?

10
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Do you work in tourism?
Or in a hotel?

11
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I am a tourist.

12
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That must be a great job.
I want that too.

13
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I work in a travel agency...

14
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from nine to six.

15
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What are you doing?

16
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Physiotherapist.

17
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For all kinds of people,
mostly old people.

18
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Besides, I do
Rehabilitation and sports therapy.

19
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So if I get injured while playing sports,
or while running...

20
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I'll get you back.

21
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Will we see each other again?

22
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I do not think so.

23
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But I thank you.

24
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I have...

25
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felt comfortable.

26
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Take care.

27
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Ciao.

28
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Ciao.

29
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On the day,
when we met,

30
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I have my cousin
accompanied to a doctor's appointment.

31
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That was the one with the red hair.
You remember.

32
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During a preventive examination
something was found on her.

33
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<i>Completely unexpected. .</i> .

34
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She then did chemo
and finally recovered.

35
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I've been with her ever since
every year for a preventive examination.

36
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And for a short time
Then we have this fear.

37
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But this time too she was told
that everything is okay.

38
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That she has nothing.

39
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We both wanted to
celebrate, have fun.

40
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And then I ended up here...

41
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with you.

42
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That is, this evening
did you celebrate life?

43
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Literally.

44
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I am very pleased!

45
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For your cousin and for me.

46
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I like the way you laugh.

47
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I like that about you.

48
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I never laughed as a child...

49
00:09:05,501 --> 00:09:06,792
was always serious.

50
00:09:07,626 --> 00:09:08,834
Really?

51
00:09:11,542 --> 00:09:13,417
I was super structured.

52
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If you had seen my notebooks,
everything is pretty neat...

53
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never a leaf torn out.

54
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My handwriting was perfect.

55
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But I never laughed.

56
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I can't even imagine.

57
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But.

58
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I had a friend,
who didn't like that about me.

59
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He said,
I couldn't tell jokes.

60
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And then I told one.

61
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First I had to find one.

62
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I searched
the "best joke in the world"...

63
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and memorized it.

64
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One evening, at dinner
with him and his friends,

65
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I told the joke.

66
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Nobody laughed.

67
00:10:00,251 --> 00:10:02,751
You haven't even
laughed a little.

68
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Nobody looked.

69
00:10:06,459 --> 00:10:08,001
What kind of joke was that?

70
00:10:08,626 --> 00:10:09,584
What?

71
00:10:09,834 --> 00:10:11,917
The joke. Which one was it?

72
00:10:12,626 --> 00:10:14,042
I know almost everyone.

73
00:10:16,626 --> 00:10:18,084
Just being funny.

74
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Two hunters go into the forest...

75
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and one of them faints.

76
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The other chooses
the emergency number and then says:

77
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"I think my friend is dead.
What should I do?"

78
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"Stay calm and take a look
whether her friend is really dead."

79
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Just a short silence...
Then a shot is heard.

80
00:10:38,584 --> 00:10:42,001
And the hunter says into the phone:
"Okay. What next?"

81
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This is a bad joke.

82
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Hello.

83
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-Hello.
-Come in.

84
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What do you think?

85
00:12:28,542 --> 00:12:29,792
That I'm lucky.

86
00:12:31,001 --> 00:12:32,626
And that you are perfect.

87
00:12:35,209 --> 00:12:36,876
Because you don't know me.

88
00:12:38,126 --> 00:12:40,959
Always happen to me
embarrassing or disgusting things.

89
00:12:45,459 --> 00:12:49,126
At first I liked
Oral sex not particularly.

90
00:12:49,376 --> 00:12:52,459
So I was dating a guy
and started...

91
00:12:52,667 --> 00:12:55,126
Suddenly, without warning, he came.

92
00:12:55,126 --> 00:12:58,042
And boom...
I couldn't swallow the stuff

93
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But I'm sexy, come to him,
for him to look at me...

94
00:13:01,917 --> 00:13:03,459
but I can't stand it

95
00:13:03,459 --> 00:13:06,001
and throw it right in his face.

96
00:13:08,209 --> 00:13:09,792
And what happened next?

97
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Not at all.

98
00:13:12,042 --> 00:13:15,792
He went to take a shower, I took off
and never saw him again.

99
00:13:18,251 --> 00:13:21,626
We organize at work
a costume party every year.

100
00:13:21,834 --> 00:13:23,667
This is called “Clinic Week”.

101
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There are groups

102
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and the departments
compete against each other.

103
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It's important to be there.

104
00:13:30,792 --> 00:13:32,417
I dressed up as Batman.

105
00:13:33,126 --> 00:13:34,584
Batman is sexy.

106
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It was a good costume.

107
00:13:37,042 --> 00:13:39,501
It was unfortunate for me
a bit too small.

108
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It was a little tighter
than it should have been.

109
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Good.

110
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So I get there...

111
00:13:46,459 --> 00:13:48,667
and the costume was a sensation.

112
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I got to the final
and had to go on stage.

113
00:13:51,876 --> 00:13:53,584
Then the terrible thing happened.

114
00:13:53,584 --> 00:13:54,917
For some reason...

115
00:13:55,292 --> 00:13:58,251
no idea why,
I suddenly had to think:

116
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"Don't get an erection now."

117
00:14:01,876 --> 00:14:04,876
There was no reason
why I should have an erection.

118
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That was such a stupid thought.

119
00:14:07,667 --> 00:14:09,251
Why do I need a stand

120
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on a stage dressed as Batman
in pants that are too tight?

121
00:14:13,167 --> 00:14:14,126
Well...

122
00:14:14,292 --> 00:14:18,251
Apparently that has a lot of people thinking about it
produces the opposite effect.

123
00:14:18,584 --> 00:14:21,876
Suddenly I had lots of pictures
in my head, I was thinking about porn.

124
00:14:22,417 --> 00:14:23,584
And there she was.

125
00:14:23,959 --> 00:14:27,542
The costume was stretched so that I
I couldn't move anymore.

126
00:14:28,834 --> 00:14:30,834
In the end I'm even the winner...

127
00:14:31,167 --> 00:14:33,959
and get a prize.
I'll take the trophy then...

128
00:14:34,126 --> 00:14:37,501
and try to cover myself with it,
but I should hold them up.

129
00:14:37,709 --> 00:14:40,751
I held her up.
And then it became obvious...

130
00:14:43,292 --> 00:14:46,126
It became very quiet in the hall
and everyone stared at me.

131
00:14:47,001 --> 00:14:50,501
Suddenly a nurse shouts:
"Watch out, he's armed!"

132
00:14:51,959 --> 00:14:53,501
I don't know anything anymore.

133
00:14:54,292 --> 00:14:57,584
I just remember that she
almost died of laughter

134
00:14:57,584 --> 00:14:59,417
and couldn't stop.

135
00:15:17,501 --> 00:15:19,626
-Stop it. Stop it.
-No. No.

136
00:15:20,042 --> 00:15:21,001
Yes.

137
00:15:30,084 --> 00:15:31,042
Here.

138
00:15:31,459 --> 00:15:33,126
-What?
-Listen.

139
00:16:09,292 --> 00:16:13,459
The waves have become huge

140
00:16:14,084 --> 00:16:17,209
While I'm drowning

141
00:16:22,376 --> 00:16:26,751
My abundance is no longer the same

142
00:16:27,251 --> 00:16:29,959
after all this

143
00:16:35,334 --> 00:16:39,876
The waves have become huge

144
00:16:40,417 --> 00:16:43,292
While I'm drowning

145
00:16:48,501 --> 00:16:52,792
My eyes see
no longer like before

146
00:16:53,001 --> 00:16:59,834
I've gotten older,
I have become taller

147
00:17:11,376 --> 00:17:15,917
The clouds have gotten bigger

148
00:17:16,292 --> 00:17:19,251
As I move away

149
00:17:24,334 --> 00:17:28,626
My eyes see
no longer like before

150
00:17:28,792 --> 00:17:35,251
I've gotten older,
I have become taller

151
00:17:35,417 --> 00:17:41,876
I have become wiser
but also more cowardly

152
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Cowardly

153
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Cowardly

154
00:19:05,751 --> 00:19:08,209
You have never given me
told by your wife.

155
00:19:09,959 --> 00:19:11,334
No...

156
00:19:15,501 --> 00:19:17,459
What does she do for a living?

157
00:19:18,334 --> 00:19:19,667
She is a teacher.

158
00:19:20,917 --> 00:19:23,584
She teaches children
from five to six years.

159
00:19:27,584 --> 00:19:30,292
<i>One time I got it from
picked up and seen at work</i>

160
00:19:30,501 --> 00:19:33,167
Like them
took care of every single child.

161
00:19:33,167 --> 00:19:37,042
Then a child came running because she
should tie his shoelaces.

162
00:19:38,334 --> 00:19:41,334
She showed him how it's done.
Very patient...

163
00:19:44,501 --> 00:19:48,167
And she has something for this child
given for his entire life.

164
00:19:48,959 --> 00:19:50,417
With that she conquered me.

165
00:19:50,709 --> 00:19:51,959
I said to myself:

166
00:19:51,959 --> 00:19:54,126
“I will become that woman
love forever. "

167
00:19:57,334 --> 00:20:00,417
<i>I guess that will let me
doesn't seem particularly consistent.</i>

168
00:20:19,126 --> 00:20:20,084
What?

169
00:20:22,376 --> 00:20:23,334
Nothing.

170
00:20:25,334 --> 00:20:26,584
What are you thinking about?

171
00:20:33,542 --> 00:20:35,501
Because I don't know you.

172
00:20:37,084 --> 00:20:40,792
But we also had so far
too little time to get to know each other.

173
00:20:41,209 --> 00:20:43,251
Time has nothing to do with it.

174
00:20:43,251 --> 00:20:47,251
Some married people don't know whether
your partner likes broccoli or cats.

175
00:20:47,876 --> 00:20:50,417
Mh... each other's preferences...

176
00:20:51,459 --> 00:20:52,917
What he likes in bed

177
00:20:52,917 --> 00:20:54,501
and what he doesn't like.

178
00:20:54,792 --> 00:20:56,626
Time has nothing to do with it.

179
00:20:58,876 --> 00:21:00,834
They say it lasts three months.

180
00:21:07,084 --> 00:21:09,376
So you're saying that this...

181
00:21:09,959 --> 00:21:11,417
will come to an end.

182
00:21:12,751 --> 00:21:14,584
Yes, it even has to come to an end.

183
00:21:18,209 --> 00:21:19,167
Mm.

184
00:21:19,792 --> 00:21:21,751
And your girlfriend, where is she right now?

185
00:21:23,751 --> 00:21:25,167
Traveled.

186
00:21:27,584 --> 00:21:29,084
Are you telling her?

187
00:21:31,292 --> 00:21:32,834
Possibly.

188
00:21:39,501 --> 00:21:40,542
Mm.

189
00:21:41,584 --> 00:21:45,001
I love picnics in bed.
Isn't that a perfect concept?

190
00:21:48,667 --> 00:21:50,334
A friend always said:

191
00:21:50,334 --> 00:21:53,917
"Never sleep with anyone
that you can't eat in bed with."

192
00:21:56,167 --> 00:21:58,084
Eating is something very intimate.

193
00:21:59,042 --> 00:22:02,001
Take things and give them to you
put it in your mouth, that's...

194
00:22:02,167 --> 00:22:03,709
super sexual.

195
00:22:05,167 --> 00:22:07,626
They say a man does it like this,
how he eats.

196
00:22:07,792 --> 00:22:10,042
When he eats well,
it will be beautiful.

197
00:22:11,001 --> 00:22:14,084
When he spills himself while eating
or something spilled?

198
00:22:16,084 --> 00:22:18,459
Then he is very passionate.

199
00:22:24,709 --> 00:22:28,876
The Japanese have a technique, sushi
to eat on a woman's body.

200
00:22:29,417 --> 00:22:30,834
Don't even think about it.

201
00:22:31,917 --> 00:22:33,792
-No. No.
-M-hm.

202
00:22:36,126 --> 00:22:37,084
No.

203
00:22:38,792 --> 00:22:39,792
No...

204
00:22:41,792 --> 00:22:42,834
M-hm.

205
00:22:45,417 --> 00:22:46,751
soy sauce.

206
00:23:45,667 --> 00:23:47,251
I have something for you.

207
00:23:52,167 --> 00:23:54,167
-What is that?
-For you.

208
00:23:55,167 --> 00:23:56,167
For me?

209
00:23:56,459 --> 00:23:57,417
Yes.

210
00:23:58,626 --> 00:23:59,917
With my name.

211
00:24:01,959 --> 00:24:03,209
A notebook?

212
00:24:04,001 --> 00:24:05,501
No, you're wrong.

213
00:24:06,167 --> 00:24:08,251
It's a paper computer.

214
00:24:08,667 --> 00:24:09,709
Look.

215
00:24:10,042 --> 00:24:12,001
Here are
the usual apps installed,

216
00:24:12,167 --> 00:24:16,209
contacts, the calendar,
Notes and reminders.

217
00:24:16,667 --> 00:24:19,126
Here are the projects
that you are working on.

218
00:24:19,584 --> 00:24:21,834
And you can save them here.

219
00:24:22,751 --> 00:24:25,834
Without battery, you don't have to use it
Turn it on and don't update.

220
00:24:26,042 --> 00:24:27,459
Always available.

221
00:24:28,251 --> 00:24:30,292
A friend has a paper business.

222
00:24:30,709 --> 00:24:33,001
We want to go into production
and sell.

223
00:24:33,292 --> 00:24:34,917
Did you do that yourself?

224
00:24:35,209 --> 00:24:36,167
Yes.

225
00:24:37,126 --> 00:24:40,084
At my home
I have a real workshop

226
00:24:40,084 --> 00:24:42,292
and always make things out of paper there.

227
00:24:43,459 --> 00:24:47,417
And the travel agency and your working hours
from nine to six?

228
00:24:48,584 --> 00:24:50,167
I thought...

229
00:24:50,834 --> 00:24:54,792
When I say that I am purely technical
I'm one of those women who don't do anything

230
00:24:54,792 --> 00:24:59,542
and that I have a husband,
who has money, you'll probably think...

231
00:25:00,792 --> 00:25:05,334
“She is a typical woman who...
Bored and looking for an adventure."

232
00:25:06,584 --> 00:25:08,126
I don't think anything...

233
00:25:09,417 --> 00:25:10,917
I'm just here.

234
00:25:11,501 --> 00:25:12,709
That's all.

235
00:27:07,917 --> 00:27:09,626
Who is your girlfriend?

236
00:27:12,834 --> 00:27:13,834
you here.

237
00:27:15,959 --> 00:27:17,042
Does she travel a lot?

238
00:27:17,751 --> 00:27:18,709
Yes.

239
00:27:18,959 --> 00:27:22,126
She imports clothes,
that's why she's constantly on the move.

240
00:27:24,251 --> 00:27:25,709
And who are they here?

241
00:27:27,251 --> 00:27:29,376
This is her sister,

242
00:27:29,709 --> 00:27:30,834
her nephew

243
00:27:31,126 --> 00:27:33,334
and her sister's husband.

244
00:27:34,084 --> 00:27:36,584
-You look very nice.
-That's them.

245
00:27:37,126 --> 00:27:38,751
A great family...

246
00:27:39,209 --> 00:27:40,626
They like each other.

247
00:27:42,917 --> 00:27:44,667
We should go on a trip.

248
00:27:45,001 --> 00:27:46,251
I don't know...

249
00:27:46,917 --> 00:27:48,126
Drive far away.

250
00:27:49,334 --> 00:27:50,709
Which city?

251
00:27:51,542 --> 00:27:53,334
One that you can explore...

252
00:27:53,667 --> 00:27:55,042
with history...

253
00:27:56,001 --> 00:27:58,917
...not too touristy
and beautifully secluded.

254
00:28:00,626 --> 00:28:03,459
Both of us would for the first time
go out together,

255
00:28:04,042 --> 00:28:07,917
be among people without looking after yourself
having to look around on all sides.

256
00:28:08,167 --> 00:28:09,709
Would that be complicated?

257
00:28:12,792 --> 00:28:14,459
What I want to say is...

258
00:28:14,626 --> 00:28:17,251
We never have
did the usual couple stuff.

259
00:28:18,251 --> 00:28:21,751
We never were
walking in the park holding hands...

260
00:28:22,417 --> 00:28:24,334
have never gone to the beach...

261
00:28:24,751 --> 00:28:27,417
were never just like that
drink a coffee.

262
00:28:27,834 --> 00:28:29,667
Just to be there.

263
00:28:36,584 --> 00:28:38,959
When we meet, what do you say to her?

264
00:28:39,167 --> 00:28:41,584
What does she think you're doing?

265
00:28:44,751 --> 00:28:47,667
That I took a training course
for sports injuries.

266
00:28:47,876 --> 00:28:49,084
Every Thursday...

267
00:28:50,001 --> 00:28:50,959
And you?

268
00:28:52,209 --> 00:28:54,001
Cinema with my friends.

269
00:28:54,667 --> 00:28:57,542
And he never asks you
what movie did you watch?

270
00:29:00,792 --> 00:29:02,459
He trusts me.

271
00:29:34,584 --> 00:29:35,751
What do you have?

272
00:29:45,876 --> 00:29:46,959
I think...

273
00:29:47,584 --> 00:29:48,917
to you every day.

274
00:29:52,876 --> 00:29:56,084
If me during the day
something exciting happens...

275
00:29:56,959 --> 00:29:59,167
who am I thinking of
to tell him?

276
00:29:59,501 --> 00:30:00,584
To you.

277
00:30:04,584 --> 00:30:08,876
If something unpleasant happens to me,
I would like to call you.

278
00:30:13,209 --> 00:30:15,501
I want to be with you all the time.

279
00:30:22,292 --> 00:30:23,667
Included...

280
00:30:24,792 --> 00:30:25,917
Here...

281
00:33:06,709 --> 00:33:10,042
There is a boy.
Okay, he's already 16. Jonas.

282
00:33:10,251 --> 00:33:12,417
He comes every Wednesday
to me in the clinic.

283
00:33:13,542 --> 00:33:17,917
The mother drives two hours
and waits while I treat him.

284
00:33:18,209 --> 00:33:20,917
When I'm done she asks
whether he is making progress

285
00:33:21,084 --> 00:33:23,626
and I say yes,
he is making great progress.

286
00:33:25,751 --> 00:33:27,251
But it's not true...

287
00:33:27,709 --> 00:33:29,542
He doesn't move a single muscle.

288
00:33:29,751 --> 00:33:31,834
He has a degenerative disease.

289
00:33:32,876 --> 00:33:35,834
But I say: "Yes, it will be okay."
And she smiles.

290
00:33:36,376 --> 00:33:38,334
And he won't get well?

291
00:33:38,876 --> 00:33:42,834
Recently I thought he was smiling.
That's impossible, but I thought so.

292
00:33:43,917 --> 00:33:45,542
And I tell him stories,

293
00:33:45,709 --> 00:33:48,042
say that one
our nurses,

294
00:33:48,209 --> 00:33:50,376
a pretty girl, Rosita...

295
00:33:50,376 --> 00:33:52,834
that she is in love with him
and will tell him.

296
00:33:53,917 --> 00:33:57,126
I say, "Your sweetie is back there,"
and he looks at me.

297
00:33:57,459 --> 00:33:59,542
What must be going on in his head?

298
00:33:59,792 --> 00:34:03,042
No idea. I just know
that he is in love with Rosita.

299
00:34:04,209 --> 00:34:05,167
Mm.

300
00:34:05,459 --> 00:34:07,084
I have to stop this.

301
00:34:08,042 --> 00:34:11,501
Recently we have Rosita
and kissed a paramedic.

302
00:34:11,792 --> 00:34:13,167
And I thought:

303
00:34:13,459 --> 00:34:16,667
“Jonas is not allowed to see this.
It would break his heart."

304
00:34:44,501 --> 00:34:46,459
I want to be with you...

305
00:34:49,001 --> 00:34:50,751
Have a life with you...

306
00:37:48,709 --> 00:37:50,751
I dreamed something last night.

307
00:37:53,792 --> 00:37:55,001
And what?

308
00:37:57,751 --> 00:37:59,209
I was by a river...

309
00:37:59,459 --> 00:38:01,001
above it a tree trunk.

310
00:38:02,042 --> 00:38:04,667
I didn't know
whether I should cross the river.

311
00:38:05,917 --> 00:38:08,501
And then... you showed up.

312
00:38:10,709 --> 00:38:12,334
We had two daughters...

313
00:38:12,917 --> 00:38:14,251
Gemini.

314
00:38:23,126 --> 00:38:24,459
Do you have children?

315
00:38:27,876 --> 00:38:28,834
No.

316
00:38:33,459 --> 00:38:35,209
I can't get any.

317
00:38:38,417 --> 00:38:39,626
I'm sorry.

318
00:38:40,417 --> 00:38:41,959
Do you regret it then?

319
00:38:44,834 --> 00:38:46,209
No idea.

320
00:38:48,501 --> 00:38:51,584
My husband wanted
Have children, lots of children.

321
00:38:52,501 --> 00:38:57,376
He wanted a family and dreamed
of lots of children running around.

322
00:39:00,167 --> 00:39:01,542
But things turned out differently...

323
00:39:02,501 --> 00:39:04,667
We didn't become a family.

324
00:39:08,501 --> 00:39:10,376
Have you thought about adoption?

325
00:39:12,834 --> 00:39:13,792
No...

326
00:39:14,167 --> 00:39:15,417
I don't want to.

327
00:39:16,542 --> 00:39:19,667
Probably selfish
and maybe it's me...

328
00:39:21,001 --> 00:39:24,459
...but I feel so much
used to not becoming a mother,

329
00:39:24,459 --> 00:39:26,126
that I don't think about it anymore.

330
00:39:34,376 --> 00:39:37,459
My brother went with me
to an adoption center.

331
00:39:40,501 --> 00:39:42,334
But we stayed outside.

332
00:39:43,417 --> 00:39:45,209
We didn't even get out.

333
00:39:45,417 --> 00:39:48,334
We stayed in the car
and talked for a long time.

334
00:39:52,834 --> 00:39:54,251
It scared me.

335
00:39:56,459 --> 00:39:57,626
Fear?

336
00:39:59,292 --> 00:40:02,167
I didn't make it,
to get out of this car.

337
00:40:16,084 --> 00:40:17,584
I have a son.

338
00:40:20,626 --> 00:40:22,042
His name is Nicolas.

339
00:40:27,667 --> 00:40:29,251
How old is he then?

340
00:40:30,042 --> 00:40:31,334
He is nine.

341
00:40:33,876 --> 00:40:35,542
He is a special child.

342
00:40:37,917 --> 00:40:39,001
He laughs...

343
00:40:39,751 --> 00:40:41,626
...and plays. He loves me.

344
00:40:42,001 --> 00:40:43,792
But he can't show it to me.

345
00:40:49,126 --> 00:40:51,167
What will happen to him when he grows up? is

346
00:40:51,167 --> 00:40:53,751
and I'm no longer there,
to take care of him?

347
00:40:55,626 --> 00:40:58,542
Will he cope with life?
Master it?

348
00:40:59,417 --> 00:41:00,792
Will he be happy?

349
00:41:01,042 --> 00:41:04,834
Will they exclude him?
How will he survive puberty?

350
00:41:07,209 --> 00:41:10,626
He never gets into the car drunk
of a drunk friend?

351
00:41:10,834 --> 00:41:13,417
All the dangerous things
which you have also done,

352
00:41:13,417 --> 00:41:15,792
but don't want to
that their own children do them.

353
00:41:21,042 --> 00:41:23,042
And in the end they do the same thing.

354
00:41:28,876 --> 00:41:30,376
That sounds terrible.

355
00:41:33,209 --> 00:41:34,334
Is it.

356
00:41:35,459 --> 00:41:36,959
But it's worth it.

357
00:41:39,292 --> 00:41:40,917
It sounds trite...

358
00:41:41,417 --> 00:41:43,667
but love for a child
is truthful.

359
00:41:45,751 --> 00:41:48,001
All other kinds of love are just...

360
00:41:48,501 --> 00:41:49,792
Just lies?

361
00:41:51,167 --> 00:41:52,251
No.

362
00:41:52,251 --> 00:41:53,501
No lies...

363
00:41:54,209 --> 00:41:55,501
They are different.

364
00:41:55,792 --> 00:41:58,084
That's all. Not comparable.

365
00:44:41,709 --> 00:44:43,376
-Hello.
-Hello.

366
00:44:44,667 --> 00:44:46,459
-Come in.
-Clear.

367
00:45:04,959 --> 00:45:08,334
When I last Thursday
Waiting for you, I wrote something.

368
00:45:08,876 --> 00:45:10,584
My handwriting is terrible.

369
00:45:10,584 --> 00:45:13,334
I'm used to it
writing on the computer...

370
00:45:13,334 --> 00:45:16,667
but I wrote down what I
Want to do and not do with you.

371
00:45:18,334 --> 00:45:21,834
It's unbelievable how many things
come to mind in two hours.

372
00:45:22,584 --> 00:45:24,209
Or was it three?

373
00:45:28,459 --> 00:45:29,417
What the hell.

374
00:45:39,292 --> 00:45:41,126
What I want to do with Julia...

375
00:45:43,001 --> 00:45:44,959
"I want to stay in bed with her...

376
00:45:45,209 --> 00:45:46,792
in a cold place...

377
00:45:47,126 --> 00:45:48,917
the two of us under the covers...

378
00:45:49,334 --> 00:45:51,917
covered up to the tip of the nose."

379
00:45:52,751 --> 00:45:55,042
"Speaking in whispers while it rains...

380
00:45:55,501 --> 00:45:56,751
they hug...

381
00:45:57,209 --> 00:45:58,792
watching her sleep...

382
00:45:59,542 --> 00:46:01,126
feel her breath."

383
00:46:03,751 --> 00:46:06,001
,,Laugh. Eat chocolate.

384
00:46:06,542 --> 00:46:09,542
Love each other. To have sex. Fuck."

385
00:46:10,209 --> 00:46:13,001
,,Talk. Dance. Discuss.

386
00:46:13,167 --> 00:46:16,126
Theorize.
have disagreements.

387
00:46:16,292 --> 00:46:20,001
Whisper. Listen to music.
Everything under the covers."

388
00:46:20,876 --> 00:46:23,042
"A gift
hide in her purse.

389
00:46:23,251 --> 00:46:26,376
They bite...
Taking them off very slowly.

390
00:46:26,709 --> 00:46:28,584
"Tear her clothes off."

391
00:46:29,334 --> 00:46:32,709
"You wash...
smear with mud, apply cream.

392
00:46:33,042 --> 00:46:34,376
Driving you crazy."

393
00:46:34,792 --> 00:46:36,209
"Make her scream.

394
00:46:36,417 --> 00:46:39,292
Watching them in the dark
looks out the window."

395
00:46:39,667 --> 00:46:42,167
"Have a daughter
or imagine it."

396
00:46:43,501 --> 00:46:45,584
“Read the same books as them.

397
00:46:46,209 --> 00:46:47,626
Grow old with her."

398
00:46:51,667 --> 00:46:53,334
"And I wish the same...

399
00:46:53,876 --> 00:46:55,251
TO forget them.

400
00:46:55,792 --> 00:46:57,251
That she forgets me."

401
00:46:58,334 --> 00:47:01,501
"Just leave...
that she goes away."

402
00:47:02,501 --> 00:47:04,334
"Losing her very gently...

403
00:47:05,084 --> 00:47:06,501
without pain.

404
00:47:07,459 --> 00:47:09,542
That she loses me very gently...

405
00:47:10,126 --> 00:47:11,334
without pain."

406
00:47:16,376 --> 00:47:17,709
“To calm down.

407
00:47:18,626 --> 00:47:20,084
That she comes to rest.

408
00:47:21,751 --> 00:47:23,626
That time may never pass...

409
00:47:24,251 --> 00:47:25,792
and that it will pass away."

410
00:47:33,251 --> 00:47:34,584
Did you like it?

411
00:47:37,292 --> 00:47:40,209
Otherwise I always just write
Treatments and recipes.

412
00:47:53,959 --> 00:47:55,334
Three hours...

413
00:47:56,917 --> 00:47:59,292
I have three hours
waiting out there.

414
00:48:01,751 --> 00:48:03,251
I couldn't come.

415
00:48:03,584 --> 00:48:05,292
You could have let me know.

416
00:48:05,292 --> 00:48:08,209
-My battery was dead.
-You could have gotten a charger.

417
00:48:08,376 --> 00:48:09,626
I couldn't.

418
00:48:14,584 --> 00:48:15,876
Where have you been?

419
00:48:17,376 --> 00:48:19,126
Have you fucked your husband?

420
00:48:19,334 --> 00:48:22,709
Or did you want to break up?
and you forgot to tell me?

421
00:48:26,376 --> 00:48:27,626
Go away.

422
00:48:34,376 --> 00:48:35,501
Julia.

423
00:48:40,709 --> 00:48:41,917
I know you...

424
00:48:43,126 --> 00:48:44,417
Something happened.

425
00:48:45,292 --> 00:48:47,126
Last Thursday, where were you?

426
00:48:48,542 --> 00:48:49,542
Look at me.

427
00:49:04,584 --> 00:49:06,001
I could...

428
00:49:06,917 --> 00:49:08,459
...can't bear it.

429
00:49:09,459 --> 00:49:11,501
I didn't want to feel it.

430
00:49:13,667 --> 00:49:17,459
I called friends
and We went dancing. Somewhere.

431
00:49:22,334 --> 00:49:25,209
At the same time I could
don't stop thinking about it

432
00:49:25,376 --> 00:49:27,167
that you are waiting for me here.

433
00:49:29,209 --> 00:49:32,376
I realized that the smallest
Doubt would suffice,

434
00:49:32,542 --> 00:49:35,417
to take a taxi
and come here to you.

435
00:49:41,126 --> 00:49:44,917
And there was a guy. He was standing at the bar
and looked over at me.

436
00:49:45,834 --> 00:49:48,292
Big and blonde and with a beard.

437
00:49:50,709 --> 00:49:52,001
I thought...

438
00:49:53,417 --> 00:49:56,126
"I want that beard
feel it here in my mouth.

439
00:49:57,917 --> 00:50:00,917
And I want that beard
feel it there, down there."

440
00:50:03,501 --> 00:50:05,501
I went and kissed him.

441
00:50:07,792 --> 00:50:11,542
And as we walked to the parking lot
he stopped me while I was walking...

442
00:50:11,709 --> 00:50:14,126
and grabbed mine with his hand
between the legs.

443
00:50:15,542 --> 00:50:19,792
We barely made it to his car
and then fucked there like animals.

444
00:50:21,167 --> 00:50:24,876
In all possible positions.
From behind like running dogs.

445
00:54:19,876 --> 00:54:21,251
Would you like something?

446
00:54:21,959 --> 00:54:23,251
No, thank you.

447
00:54:25,417 --> 00:54:26,792
Were you okay?

448
00:54:28,792 --> 00:54:29,751
Yes.

449
00:54:31,292 --> 00:54:32,251
And you?

450
00:54:33,292 --> 00:54:34,292
Also good.

451
00:54:35,626 --> 00:54:37,459
It's been a quiet few weeks.

452
00:54:44,542 --> 00:54:47,209
As if a lot more time
would have passed, right?

453
00:54:53,542 --> 00:54:54,501
Yes...

454
00:55:20,001 --> 00:55:21,292
And your girlfriend?

455
00:55:22,459 --> 00:55:23,751
I finally gave her...

456
00:55:23,917 --> 00:55:25,292
told about you.

457
00:55:25,709 --> 00:55:27,167
What did you say to her?

458
00:55:27,792 --> 00:55:29,209
That you are sweet.

459
00:55:32,709 --> 00:55:34,251
And what did she say?

460
00:55:35,917 --> 00:55:38,042
That I shouldn't let you go.

461
00:55:42,584 --> 00:55:44,667
Would you give her something?
from me?

462
00:55:45,167 --> 00:55:46,126
Yes...

463
00:55:46,626 --> 00:55:47,584
Sure.

464
00:55:48,334 --> 00:55:50,584
Tell her that she
has super bad music.

465
00:56:23,376 --> 00:56:26,834
Don't ask me to
to leave you

466
00:56:27,501 --> 00:56:30,626
You won't be able to do that

467
00:56:31,876 --> 00:56:34,542
The love that I carry within me

468
00:56:34,709 --> 00:56:40,042
the love that I carry within me,
will accompany me to the end

469
00:56:41,292 --> 00:56:44,959
Don't forget,
that I don't look at you,

470
00:56:45,334 --> 00:56:49,209
if your eyes are my light

471
00:56:49,917 --> 00:56:54,542
Two stars,
that shine for me in the night,

472
00:56:54,834 --> 00:56:58,126
the cause of the blue sea."

473
00:56:59,001 --> 00:57:02,126
<i>Because I love yours
I keep it in my bedside table</i>

474
00:57:02,334 --> 00:57:04,667
what are you going to do
when we meet again?

475
00:57:05,167 --> 00:57:07,584
-When we meet again?
-Yes.

476
00:57:08,084 --> 00:57:09,459
In five years...

477
00:57:09,917 --> 00:57:11,417
in a supermarket.

478
00:57:14,376 --> 00:57:16,751
I would greet you normally.

479
00:57:21,501 --> 00:57:25,709
Hello Julia... Manuel.
Can you remember me?

480
00:57:26,876 --> 00:57:29,626
Of course. How nice to see you...

481
00:57:30,251 --> 00:57:32,459
-How are you?
-Thanks, good.

482
00:57:32,917 --> 00:57:36,334
How long has it been?
Eight or ten years?

483
00:57:37,501 --> 00:57:39,834
Ten. Ten years.

484
00:57:42,876 --> 00:57:45,167
And how is it going?
with paper computers?

485
00:57:45,417 --> 00:57:47,834
Well... It's going very well.

486
00:57:48,917 --> 00:57:50,126
And with you?

487
00:57:51,209 --> 00:57:52,959
I finally broke up...

488
00:57:53,334 --> 00:57:55,292
and gave up kinesiology.

489
00:57:55,667 --> 00:57:58,001
I own a record store
for records.

490
00:57:58,251 --> 00:57:59,584
Just classics.

491
00:58:06,376 --> 00:58:08,417
Are you still with your husband?

492
00:58:09,667 --> 00:58:11,292
No, we are divorced.

493
00:58:11,459 --> 00:58:14,626
He has a ten year old
younger girlfriend and three children.

494
00:58:20,876 --> 00:58:23,001
Do you still think about me sometimes?

495
00:58:27,542 --> 00:58:28,709
Quite often.

496
00:58:30,584 --> 00:58:31,626
And you?

497
00:58:33,334 --> 00:58:34,292
I...

498
00:58:35,167 --> 00:58:36,876
...must think of you too.

499
00:58:37,667 --> 00:58:38,792
Quite often.

500
00:58:43,292 --> 00:58:46,917
The image in my dreams

501
00:58:47,917 --> 00:58:51,001
shows your painted face

502
00:58:52,292 --> 00:58:55,251
Don't ask me to erase it

503
00:58:55,542 --> 00:59:00,709
Don't demand that I erase it,
or my soul will die

504
00:59:01,459 --> 00:59:05,084
Because I love yours

505
00:59:05,417 --> 00:59:09,792
keep in my bedside table

506
00:59:10,584 --> 00:59:14,542
It sticks like a needle

507
00:59:15,084 --> 00:59:18,292
right in my heart

508
00:59:18,501 --> 00:59:22,334
I keep your love safe
in my bedside table

509
00:59:22,501 --> 00:59:27,084
I treasure it like a brooch
I'll guard them, hey! I look after them

510
00:59:27,417 --> 00:59:31,459
I keep your love safe
in my bedside table

511
00:59:31,626 --> 00:59:36,376
Two stars,
who light my way at night

512
00:59:36,542 --> 00:59:40,376
I keep your love safe
in my bedside table

513
00:59:40,542 --> 00:59:42,667
I have your love

514
00:59:54,209 --> 00:59:55,792
I have something for you.

515
00:59:57,167 --> 00:59:58,126
Here.

516
01:00:14,001 --> 01:00:15,501
I thank you.

517
01:00:19,126 --> 01:00:20,751
It belonged to my mother...

518
01:00:21,001 --> 01:00:23,792
you the only thing
what I have left of her.

519
01:00:24,376 --> 01:00:26,084
I want to give it to you.

520
01:00:28,584 --> 01:00:29,584
No...

521
01:00:30,792 --> 01:00:32,292
You shouldn't.

522
01:00:35,959 --> 01:00:38,709
It no longer shows the time.
She's broken.

523
01:00:39,542 --> 01:00:41,667
It couldn't be repaired, but...

524
01:00:41,876 --> 01:00:43,584
I think it's better this way.

525
01:00:44,376 --> 01:00:46,084
Always twenty past seven.

526
01:00:48,292 --> 01:00:49,376
Thanks.

527
01:01:17,876 --> 01:01:19,667
Let's go for a walk...

528
01:01:21,292 --> 01:01:25,167
...around the blocks among people,
just like normal people.

529
01:01:26,876 --> 01:01:29,126
Even if it's just once.

530
01:01:43,292 --> 01:01:45,501
I never gave you
told by my husband.

531
01:01:50,417 --> 01:01:54,834
He returned last Tuesday
back from a short trip.

532
01:01:55,334 --> 01:01:57,001
A business trip.

533
01:01:59,542 --> 01:02:01,459
I'll never pick him up otherwise

534
01:02:02,459 --> 01:02:06,751
but that day I drove
to the airport to surprise him.

535
01:02:08,167 --> 01:02:09,834
Pretty spontaneous...

536
01:02:10,126 --> 01:02:11,459
but I wanted it.

537
01:02:13,959 --> 01:02:16,751
The passengers
of his flight came out...

538
01:02:18,542 --> 01:02:20,292
...and suddenly I saw him.

539
01:02:21,376 --> 01:02:23,334
He was carrying a child in his arms...

540
01:02:23,751 --> 01:02:26,376
A boy...
Three or four years old.

541
01:02:29,459 --> 01:02:32,417
I was surprised and didn't know
what I should think.

542
01:02:34,917 --> 01:02:40,001
He wanted to help a fellow traveler
who had problems with her suitcases.

543
01:02:41,126 --> 01:02:42,209
And he...

544
01:02:42,751 --> 01:02:45,584
has the boy as a friendly gesture
held for her.

545
01:02:50,167 --> 01:02:53,209
When he the child then
returned to mother...

546
01:02:57,751 --> 01:03:02,209
...he stroked his head
and kissed the child on the forehead.

547
01:03:04,792 --> 01:03:06,417
From a distance...

548
01:03:06,751 --> 01:03:08,209
I saw this...

549
01:03:08,709 --> 01:03:12,042
this gesture, simple and so casual...

550
01:03:13,334 --> 01:03:16,792
But I realized
how much he wants a child.

551
01:03:23,542 --> 01:03:27,292
And how much he must love me,
although We cannot have any.

552
01:03:38,417 --> 01:03:39,709
I realized...

553
01:03:39,876 --> 01:03:41,542
that this is my place.

554
01:03:45,792 --> 01:03:47,667
That I want to stay with him.

555
01:03:50,251 --> 01:03:53,209
Not out of resignation
or convenience...

556
01:03:55,084 --> 01:03:56,709
...but because that...

557
01:03:57,126 --> 01:03:59,001
what we have together...

558
01:03:59,834 --> 01:04:01,417
and don't have...

559
01:04:02,417 --> 01:04:04,042
...true love is.

560
01:06:25,251 --> 01:06:26,292
So...

561
01:06:33,584 --> 01:06:35,626
Maybe another time...