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It's nothing else
than "Zeno's paradox".
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You are Achilles
and the turtle is the orgasm.
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- Oh, come on...
- No, no, no. Listen.
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Achilles and the tortoise
they will make a race
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and Achilles is confident,
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so he gives it to the turtle
a hundred meters ahead.
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Now, the math problem
is this -
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before Achilles
let the turtle pass
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he had to get to the point
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where the turtle started
after that hundred meters.
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But when Achilles gets there,
the turtle was already further away
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and then get to the next point
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and the turtle moved again
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and so on and so on and so on.
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So Achilles can never arrive
the turtle and not pass it.
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And in the same way,
because you were running after her
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you could not reach satisfaction.
This is the paradox.
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Sorry, but it seems
that you don't take this very seriously.
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I tell you the worst thing
what happened to me,
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is that, in a few seconds,
I lost all sexual sensation.
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My cunt was just numb.
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And immediately we need to hear about...
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this ridiculous math problem.
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Actually, I doubt it
that you really listen.
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Why do you doubt that?
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This is not a story that
I've said it in full before
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but how many times have I told other men
about the experiences...
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the episodes of my sex life,
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it was easy to see that they were getting excited.
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I got excited.
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Yes, with the math nonsense,
not with the story.
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What kind of man are you, really?
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I...
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You have no way of knowing.
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No, but I can guess.
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Why didn't you do it
earlier?
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The fact that it doesn't turn you on
my dirty stories
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it's because you have no connection with them.
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You have never been with a woman.
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It's pretty accurate...
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Not with any man.
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Are you sorry for that?
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Yes, yes... out of curiosity.
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Not out of lust, as you would think.
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I consider myself... asexual.
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Sure, I've...experienced masturbation,
when i was a teenager but...
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it wasn't really for me.
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So nothing sexual about me.
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It's not as unusual as you'd think.
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And, of course, I... I read a lot
about sexual topics...
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"The Canterbury Tales," "The Decameron,"
"A thousand and one nights."
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You know them, but I read it
with great interest
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and pleasure
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a purely literary pleasure.
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But... but I think this can make me
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a suitable listener
of your story and...
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I have no preconceived notions
or preferences.
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In fact, I am the best judge
to whom you could give your story.
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And when it comes to deciding if
are you a bad human being or not
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I... have no problem with that.
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Because I'm not looking at you
through glasses
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colored by...
sexuality or sexual experience.
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I am a virgin.
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I am innocent.
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He looks at me.
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Yes.
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It's an icon.
Is she Russian?
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Yes, it's...
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It is a clever copy,
something in the manner of Rubliov.
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Icons are usually linked
to the Eastern church.
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The Eastern Church?
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I might get a little theoretical.
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You can. I would like you to tell me
about your painting.
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Although the Christian church split in 1054,
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because of differences of opinion,
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in the church of the east
and the church of the west...
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what we call today the Orthodox Church
and the Roman Catholic Church,
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this is a typical icon
of the church of the east.
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And usually
it depicts the Virgin Mary
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and baby Jesus and, less often,
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for example the crucifixion,
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which in the western church
was much more prevalent.
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Generalizing, you could say that...
that the western church
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it is the church of suffering
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and the church of the east
it is the church of happiness.
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Why is he even looking at me?
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Well, she tells a story.
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Icons were originally a kind of
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illustrated bibles for the illiterate.
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There are some who tell you...
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read an icon, actually write it.
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There are different types of icons.
This is a Hodegetria.
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Directions are very important.
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He looks at you, but he shows you
to the baby Jesus.
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And looking at you
and pointing to him.
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Do you see how paid it is?
There is no... no perspective.
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This is because it is an image of eternity.
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And eternity is not in 3-D.
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But you said that the Eastern church
was it the church of joy?
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Yes, the saints of the Eastern Church
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they were followers of the joy of faith,
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while you have the western church
they struggled in... in suffering and death.
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If you imagine...
a mental journey from Rome to the east,
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you would feel how you move
out of guilt and pain
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to joy and light.
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But you said you don't believe in God.
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No, but the religious concept is interesting...
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Like the sexual concept.
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But you won't find me on my knees
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for none.
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Let's call this chapter
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"The Eastern Church
and the western church."
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But it won't be...
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it won't be a story
about the journey east from Rome
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towards the light, but, more precisely, the opposite.
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And, in order not to make her too sad,
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I added to the chapter name
an additional title.
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CHAPTER SIX The Church of the East
and sunset (silent duck)
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I have to go back a bit.
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I was 12 years old
and I was on a school trip to the hills.
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- Are you kidding me?
- What do you mean?
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You have this orgasm,
not just an orgasm,
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but a spontaneous orgasm.
- Yes, it was an orgasm,
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although the doctor described it
like an epileptic fit.
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And during that orgasm,
did you have this vision?
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With these two women
on either side of you.
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The woman on my right
she looked dressed
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in purple and scarlet,
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with much gold and pearls.
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He carried a golden cup
in her hand.
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He was sitting on a strange animal.
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And then the other woman
she was dressed in Roman clothes,
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a child in arms
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and her hair came down in waves,
tightly with a veil.
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Was she holding her veil with two fingers, like that?
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And the other woman
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She was sitting on an animal
with seven heads and ten horns?
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The animal had only one head.
He was a kind of bull.
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what's the matter
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You make this up.
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No, I don't... I tell you
about my first orgasm
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that came from me
without the slightest touch,
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in a strange way, like there in the mountains.
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I had never realized
that of orgasm,
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even though i masturbated
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my life would depend on it at that moment.
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Your story is like a...
blasphemous retelling
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of the transfiguration of Jesus
on the mountain...
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which is, in the east church,
Holy Ascension.
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It is when the humanity of Christ
it is illuminated
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of divine radiance
of eternity.
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Jesus, Peter and two disciples
they climbed a mountain.
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And suddenly,
the disciples see this light
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emanating from the head of Jesus.
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And Moses and Elijah
appear with him.
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And I hear the voice of God,
calling him His son.
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The relationship between...
between the two women and you
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it would be the same as relationship
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between Moses and Elijah and Jesus.
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And there she becomes blasphemous.
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I understand.
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You don't even...
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you don't even know who
it was these women, wasn't it?
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No, but one of them looked
like the Virgin Mary,
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now that you mention it.
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Well, it wasn't the Virgin Mary,
i can say that.
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From your description,
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must have been
Valeria Messalina,
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wife of the emperor Claudius,
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the most notorious nymphomaniac in history.
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I thought it was showing
as your icon.
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We have that image
after the statue in the Louvre.
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It is made like Hodegetria, but
she is not a religious person, far from it.
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And the other woman
the one who rides the creature,
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that was no one else
than the great Whore of Babylon,
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riding Nimrod
in the form of a bull.
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If someone else told me this story,
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I saw it as a blasphemous joke,
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seasoned with biblical light,
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emanating only from a spontaneous orgasm.
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Merciful goodness.
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You ask a lot of your listener.
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I promise you I'm just as innocent
in terms of religious
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as you are with sex.
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Transfiguration on Mount Venus.
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And then later
you lost your orgasm altogether.
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Wagner. "Gold of the Rhine",
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Descent into Nibelheim.
Was it that bad?
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Try to imagine that
from a blow,
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you have lost all desire to read
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and all your love and passion
for books and letters.
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I don't even know
if I can imagine that.
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can i help you
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But as so often in my life,
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A bit of hope sprung up
from a mystical event.
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What was it?
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Three dead leaves
they were performing a strange ballet.
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Did that give you hope?
So how?
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- Because I regained my sexuality.
- How?
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To claim it by force.
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Despite my tireless efforts,
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my pussy was not responding at all.
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But the fact
that the initiative had changed
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seemed to encourage Jerome more.
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And I have to admit
that it has come a while
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when we had fun together
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I'll give you one out of five...
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if you put it on...
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in the kitty.
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- Five?
- That's right.
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Shit.
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- Thank you.
- With pleasure.
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- You didn't have any spoons?
- No, we don't.
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So what does this tell us?
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That love and sex have nothing
to do with each other, or...
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or that they decided to work
one against the other?
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The most grotesque thing
was that during that period,
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when every sexual sensation
was denied me, for a while,
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I must admit, for sure
and quiet home comfort...
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we moved in together, and still...
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I got pregnant
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because I was careless
with contraceptives.
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Conscious or unconscious,
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was important to me
to do a caesarean section.
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I mean, I was hoping that my pussy
she was put, damn it, back to work,
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and I had the feeling that
a chance birth
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wouldn't make things better.
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I could imagine a lot,
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but as the instruments rattled there,
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I perceived them as an agreement
from "tumuliță".
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Yes. And there was no fear.
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More of a kind of disgust.
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I could have sworn
that I saw him smiling.
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A smiling son.
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In "Doctor Faustus",
Thomas Mann describes
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birth of Ham, son of Noah,
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who was smiling when he was born.
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Another satanic sign.
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Incidentally, the innocent child
was named Marcel, from Mars,
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the roman god of war.
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And maternal instinct?
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I suppose that maternal love, not so much
it lives up to expectations.
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No, I had no expectations at all.
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And not maternal love
was the problem.
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It was, that every time,
looking into the child's eyes,
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I had that disturbing feeling
to be released.
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It is, perhaps, a strange thing
to say about a child...
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that my love is not returned...
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But that was my feeling.
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If Jerome longed for a break
from what it was for him
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the most exhausting work,
that can be forgiven.
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Achilles fled the turtle again.
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- Fill all my holes.
- I can't, Joe.
254
00:24:21,268 --> 00:24:23,019
I'm sorry.
255
00:24:25,685 --> 00:24:27,560
i'm trying
256
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- Can we talk for a bit?
- Of course.
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00:24:41,727 --> 00:24:46,518
I love you, I love the wild
and your wish. i love you joe
258
00:24:48,851 --> 00:24:50,560
at this moment
it seems that they do not satisfy you
259
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as I would like.
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00:24:54,101 --> 00:24:56,674
Don't pout, Joe. It doesn't mean
that we don't continue our sex life,
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which is very important to me.
262
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Very important to me.
263
00:25:04,435 --> 00:25:07,642
When you buy a tiger, that's right,
264
00:25:07,809 --> 00:25:09,767
you also have to feed him.
265
00:25:09,934 --> 00:25:14,601
Satisfy him... right?
266
00:25:21,392 --> 00:25:23,601
The story in short.
267
00:25:24,225 --> 00:25:25,726
I have a tiger in my hands.
268
00:25:25,893 --> 00:25:28,434
- I mean, it's too much for you.
- No.
269
00:25:28,601 --> 00:25:31,059
You are exactly as you should be.
270
00:25:31,225 --> 00:25:32,993
I was just thinking
if you consider
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that I help a little with the food,
that's all.
272
00:25:39,476 --> 00:25:43,100
You say I should have sex
and with others.
273
00:25:49,267 --> 00:25:53,601
It's pretty cruel to say that, Joe,
but...
274
00:25:53,766 --> 00:25:56,142
- But exactly.
- Exactly.
275
00:26:08,142 --> 00:26:10,600
I flirted with the idea for a long time
276
00:26:10,766 --> 00:26:13,100
with the idea that this concept
from "to hell now"
277
00:26:13,267 --> 00:26:14,391
can be improved...
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00:26:15,725 --> 00:26:17,184
You look good.
279
00:26:17,349 --> 00:26:20,475
...and I became a piano teacher.
280
00:26:43,224 --> 00:26:46,266
- Are you okay?
- No.
281
00:26:46,433 --> 00:26:49,266
- What's the matter?
- Well, she's a little crazy about cars.
282
00:26:49,433 --> 00:26:51,516
I don't really know what to do.
Do you think you would help me?
283
00:26:53,558 --> 00:26:57,224
Of course it didn't work.
The spark plug caps were removed.
284
00:26:57,391 --> 00:27:01,349
Yes, I did it.
what's wrong
285
00:27:01,516 --> 00:27:03,558
I had the pleasure for the first time
286
00:27:03,724 --> 00:27:05,599
to have a car with eight cylinders.
287
00:27:05,765 --> 00:27:07,516
Possible combinations
288
00:27:07,682 --> 00:27:10,557
of eight spark plug caps with eight spark plugs
289
00:27:10,724 --> 00:27:13,474
is 40,320,
290
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:16,349
if I remember correctly.
291
00:27:16,515 --> 00:27:20,016
And only one of them
would make the car go,
292
00:27:20,183 --> 00:27:22,390
what he gave me
all the time I needed.
293
00:27:22,557 --> 00:27:25,474
Beethoven, right?
He was, of course, very good,
294
00:27:25,640 --> 00:27:27,348
but, you know,
he could not write a fugue.
295
00:27:27,515 --> 00:27:32,265
- Do you think so?
- Well... Yes, I think so..
296
00:27:47,265 --> 00:27:50,724
It would be more accurate to say
that Beethoven
297
00:27:50,890 --> 00:27:53,474
he renewed his flight.
298
00:27:54,806 --> 00:27:58,182
He remained a visionary,
but the old Bach purists
299
00:27:58,348 --> 00:28:01,515
they accused him
that he was not the author.
300
00:28:23,723 --> 00:28:25,723
Have a good day?
301
00:28:33,681 --> 00:28:36,347
No word was ever said
302
00:28:36,514 --> 00:28:39,806
between me and Jerome
about my piano lessons.
303
00:28:54,014 --> 00:28:55,930
The first time, when
mysterious letters
304
00:28:56,097 --> 00:28:57,139
addressed to me, they arrived,
305
00:28:57,306 --> 00:28:59,930
of course, I was afraid of that,
they were love letters
306
00:29:00,097 --> 00:29:03,306
from someone I had completely forgotten about
and I hadhid them
307
00:29:03,473 --> 00:29:07,306
not to hurt Jerome
if he had seen them.
308
00:29:14,139 --> 00:29:17,513
And how Jerome was always present
when I was getting the mail,
309
00:29:17,680 --> 00:29:20,847
and how those envelopes were empty,
310
00:29:21,014 --> 00:29:23,055
I understood that those letters,
in fact,
311
00:29:23,222 --> 00:29:27,222
They were sent by Jerome himself
to test me.
312
00:29:29,263 --> 00:29:31,139
My decision not to show them
313
00:29:31,305 --> 00:29:33,889
was exactly the reaction he feared
314
00:29:34,055 --> 00:29:36,889
and reaffirmed his insane jealousy
315
00:29:37,055 --> 00:29:40,513
and his countless imaginings
316
00:29:40,680 --> 00:29:44,221
that I would really fall in love
while I was a piano teacher.
317
00:30:13,013 --> 00:30:14,596
And now to get to the heart
318
00:30:14,762 --> 00:30:16,679
your western church of suffering,
319
00:30:16,846 --> 00:30:20,054
I'm going to do, in the story,
a leap forward three years
320
00:30:20,221 --> 00:30:23,346
and I'm going to talk about my date
with what I would call
321
00:30:23,512 --> 00:30:24,762
"dangerous people".
322
00:30:31,138 --> 00:30:34,220
I was only with Marcel
during this period,
323
00:30:34,387 --> 00:30:37,262
because Jerome was traveling
all the time.
324
00:30:37,429 --> 00:30:40,579
And when he was home, at last,
he spent most of his time
325
00:30:40,645 --> 00:30:42,746
accusing me of neglecting Marcel,
326
00:30:43,013 --> 00:30:44,345
which, in my opinion,
327
00:30:44,512 --> 00:30:47,762
It was only a mask
of his anger on my lovers.
328
00:30:47,929 --> 00:30:52,387
In spite of myself, so to speak,
promiscuousinitiatives
329
00:30:52,554 --> 00:30:56,012
and any sexual satisfaction,
let alone orgasm,
330
00:30:56,179 --> 00:30:59,471
it was further than ever.
331
00:31:17,761 --> 00:31:20,345
I was going to make a change.
332
00:31:20,511 --> 00:31:22,387
And, in a way,
the inspiration was there,
333
00:31:22,553 --> 00:31:26,179
right under my window
all the time.
334
00:31:26,345 --> 00:31:29,678
I planned to go
until I wouldn't have done it before,
335
00:31:29,845 --> 00:31:31,761
but I had dreamed of going.
336
00:31:31,928 --> 00:31:37,219
For example, to be with a man
with whom you cannot speak in any language.
337
00:31:37,386 --> 00:31:40,178
I felt that this
it turns me into an enormous
338
00:31:40,344 --> 00:31:43,219
image of the sexual state,
339
00:31:43,386 --> 00:31:47,928
in which verbal communication
it was impossible.
340
00:31:51,178 --> 00:31:52,261
- Hello.
- Hello.
341
00:31:52,428 --> 00:31:54,344
I'm Tobias, the interpreter.
342
00:31:54,511 --> 00:31:56,969
Hi, I'm Joe.
Enter.
343
00:31:57,136 --> 00:31:59,803
I understand that you are in charge
African languages.
344
00:31:59,969 --> 00:32:02,761
I have a base.
345
00:32:02,927 --> 00:32:04,886
Who and what needs me to translate?
346
00:32:05,052 --> 00:32:10,261
That man...
The one with the green jacket?
347
00:32:10,428 --> 00:32:12,927
What language does he speak?
348
00:32:13,094 --> 00:32:14,760
Well, God knows. I...
349
00:32:14,927 --> 00:32:17,969
All I know
is that he doesn't speak English.
350
00:32:36,219 --> 00:32:38,969
It's quite difficult.
351
00:32:39,136 --> 00:32:43,218
But...
I could find a dialect dialect,
352
00:32:43,385 --> 00:32:45,243
in which we would both have
some knowledge.
353
00:32:48,218 --> 00:32:49,343
are you coming
354
00:32:49,510 --> 00:32:52,135
No, I'll stay here
and you two talk
355
00:32:54,218 --> 00:32:57,594
You have to ask him
if he wants to have sex with me.
356
00:32:57,760 --> 00:33:00,218
Sex?
357
00:33:02,427 --> 00:33:04,635
Yes...
358
00:33:28,593 --> 00:33:31,968
- Did it work?
- It's hard to say.
359
00:33:32,843 --> 00:33:37,926
I noted the time and place,
but...
360
00:33:38,843 --> 00:33:40,926
Honestly, I wouldn't like it
to take responsibility
361
00:33:41,093 --> 00:33:44,217
an exact wording
in this case, because I believe...
362
00:33:44,384 --> 00:33:47,634
accidentally can hold
363
00:33:47,801 --> 00:33:51,010
of the gray area of my profession.
364
00:33:53,010 --> 00:33:55,426
It was the address of a cheap hotel.
365
00:34:04,009 --> 00:34:05,426
Why were there two?
366
00:34:05,593 --> 00:34:07,426
Exactly as I said.
367
00:34:07,593 --> 00:34:11,509
It doesn't seem that he had brought his brother.
368
00:36:47,923 --> 00:36:49,798
Why were they so angry?
369
00:36:49,965 --> 00:36:52,590
It is clear that it was something personal
between them,
370
00:36:52,756 --> 00:36:55,465
but later I heard that,
to make you a sandwich,
371
00:36:55,631 --> 00:36:58,840
requires great affection,
because apparently men
372
00:36:59,007 --> 00:37:01,506
they can feel each other through the tissues.
373
00:37:01,673 --> 00:37:05,089
I imagine that the argument
it had just begun to grow
374
00:37:05,256 --> 00:37:08,339
and one or the other of the parties asked
375
00:37:08,506 --> 00:37:10,465
one or other of my holes,
376
00:37:10,631 --> 00:37:14,131
in conflict with interests
to his black brother.
377
00:37:14,298 --> 00:37:16,964
You shouldn't say that word.
378
00:37:17,131 --> 00:37:19,964
It's not what it's called
politically correct.
379
00:37:20,131 --> 00:37:21,173
Black.
380
00:37:21,339 --> 00:37:24,131
well excuse me
but in my circles,
381
00:37:24,298 --> 00:37:27,006
it's always a sign of respect
to call things by their names.
382
00:37:28,256 --> 00:37:31,131
Every time
when a word becomes forbidden,
383
00:37:31,298 --> 00:37:33,839
take out a stone
from the foundation of democracy.
384
00:37:34,006 --> 00:37:38,714
Society demonstrates its helplessness
in front of a concrete problem
385
00:37:38,881 --> 00:37:40,797
by eliminating the word
from the language.
386
00:37:40,964 --> 00:37:44,547
Book burners
they have nothing to do with modern society.
387
00:37:44,714 --> 00:37:46,197
I think society would claim that...
388
00:37:46,264 --> 00:37:49,772
this political correction
is the very precise expression
389
00:37:49,839 --> 00:37:52,589
of democratic concern
for minorities.
390
00:37:52,755 --> 00:37:57,755
And I say that this society
it's as cowardly as the people in it
391
00:37:57,922 --> 00:38:01,797
which, in my opinion, are also
too stupid for democracy.
392
00:38:03,839 --> 00:38:07,505
I understand your position,
but I totally disagree.
393
00:38:07,672 --> 00:38:09,730
I have no doubt
on human qualities.
394
00:38:10,547 --> 00:38:14,130
Human qualities
can be expressed by a word:
395
00:38:14,297 --> 00:38:15,380
hypocrisy.
396
00:38:16,338 --> 00:38:20,130
We promote those who say
"right" but it means "wrong"
397
00:38:20,297 --> 00:38:23,130
and defy those who say "wrong"
and means "right."
398
00:38:25,088 --> 00:38:27,589
Society is based on hate.
399
00:38:27,754 --> 00:38:30,088
It should be based on forgiveness.
400
00:38:31,422 --> 00:38:34,046
Hate is rudimentary.
401
00:38:35,921 --> 00:38:39,713
One should
to be able to forgive his executioner...
402
00:38:44,504 --> 00:38:46,588
By the way, I can assure you
403
00:38:46,754 --> 00:38:50,963
that women who claim that blacks
I don't give them back, I lie.
404
00:38:51,130 --> 00:38:53,796
So, did they satisfy you?
405
00:38:53,963 --> 00:38:55,671
Those ne... blacks.
406
00:38:57,212 --> 00:39:02,087
No, but they showed me that there was a world
far from mine
407
00:39:02,254 --> 00:39:04,546
I had to explore it.
408
00:39:04,713 --> 00:39:07,754
And from there,
or maybe from somewhere else
409
00:39:07,921 --> 00:39:09,629
i got my life back
410
00:39:55,879 --> 00:39:58,129
Who are you?
411
00:40:00,211 --> 00:40:01,712
I know what you're doing.
412
00:40:02,628 --> 00:40:05,962
I would like to be
one of the women you look at.
413
00:40:09,670 --> 00:40:11,920
I'm not interested.
414
00:40:17,795 --> 00:40:19,545
ma'am
415
00:41:12,627 --> 00:41:16,169
princess,
specifically I said five days
416
00:41:16,335 --> 00:41:19,586
and five days have not yet passed.
417
00:41:19,752 --> 00:41:25,586
So, you'll have to go.
Forgiveness.
418
00:41:35,710 --> 00:41:37,710
are you still here
419
00:41:39,877 --> 00:41:41,960
I...
420
00:41:42,877 --> 00:41:45,335
I don't think this is for you.
421
00:41:48,460 --> 00:41:52,835
Shall we do a little test?
422
00:41:56,210 --> 00:41:58,002
Get up.
423
00:42:06,251 --> 00:42:08,043
Take a seat, please.
424
00:42:15,835 --> 00:42:21,793
I just want you to stay
completely relaxed
425
00:42:21,959 --> 00:42:24,543
while punching you across the face.
426
00:42:24,710 --> 00:42:26,418
Nothing special.
427
00:42:26,585 --> 00:42:30,917
It's just a...
it's just a slap.
428
00:42:36,376 --> 00:42:38,084
are you ready
429
00:42:39,585 --> 00:42:41,584
I'm ready.
430
00:42:48,750 --> 00:42:50,542
Not!
431
00:42:53,584 --> 00:42:55,126
do you see
432
00:43:05,876 --> 00:43:08,584
How mysterious.
433
00:43:08,750 --> 00:43:11,625
You want to give it to me now
a reasonable explanation
434
00:43:11,792 --> 00:43:14,042
or should we wait?
435
00:43:15,917 --> 00:43:17,709
I can't give you an explanation
436
00:43:17,876 --> 00:43:20,958
and certainly not a reasonable one...
437
00:43:21,125 --> 00:43:25,500
What exactly were the rumors about him?
438
00:43:25,667 --> 00:43:30,167
- That he was violent.
- How can that be exciting?
439
00:43:33,791 --> 00:43:36,083
I think the easiest way
to understand
440
00:43:36,250 --> 00:43:38,875
I mean
to my rebellious nature.
441
00:43:40,459 --> 00:43:45,542
K's business was something
which I was completely against.
442
00:43:45,708 --> 00:43:47,624
So the fact
that I am contacting him now
443
00:43:47,791 --> 00:43:50,583
it was a last, desperate attempt
444
00:43:50,749 --> 00:43:53,833
to rehabilitate my sexuality.
445
00:43:54,791 --> 00:43:58,167
In this method
the primary factor was K.
446
00:43:59,041 --> 00:44:01,167
A violent method?
447
00:44:01,958 --> 00:44:04,958
Well, it was you
448
00:44:05,125 --> 00:44:08,875
what he insisted
with the church of the west, right?
449
00:44:09,041 --> 00:44:11,416
And I... I think I remember
450
00:44:11,583 --> 00:44:15,708
that the order of approaching the crucifixion
451
00:44:15,875 --> 00:44:19,458
is violent,
not to call it sadistic, nature.
452
00:44:19,624 --> 00:44:23,624
Oh yes, the suffering of Christ
it is full of systematic violence...
453
00:44:23,791 --> 00:44:26,499
Via Dolorosa,
the nine stops with the cross
454
00:44:26,666 --> 00:44:29,332
and the 39 lashes.
455
00:44:53,458 --> 00:44:56,249
You are starting to irritate me.
456
00:45:26,540 --> 00:45:28,998
Then let me tell you the rules.
457
00:45:30,914 --> 00:45:33,373
The first rule
it's that I don't fuck you
458
00:45:34,331 --> 00:45:37,582
and that is not discussed.
459
00:45:38,582 --> 00:45:40,831
So what do you get out of it?
460
00:45:40,998 --> 00:45:45,831
That's my job
and I don't want to mention it again.
461
00:45:45,998 --> 00:45:49,664
The second rule is that
we have no saving words,
462
00:45:50,831 --> 00:45:53,373
i.e. if...
go inside with me,
463
00:45:53,539 --> 00:45:56,290
you have nothing to say there
464
00:45:56,456 --> 00:46:01,497
what would make me stop
any plan or procedure.
465
00:46:01,664 --> 00:46:06,664
You have to bring
a worn brown whip.
466
00:46:06,831 --> 00:46:11,914
And not from any store
of sexual toys.
467
00:46:12,081 --> 00:46:13,706
It's not a masquerade.
468
00:46:15,956 --> 00:46:18,372
The third rule...
469
00:46:18,539 --> 00:46:24,456
if i decide to enter,
you have to stay here, outside.
470
00:46:24,622 --> 00:46:29,164
In other words, you...
you won't know when.
471
00:46:29,330 --> 00:46:34,872
It will only be sometime between
two past six at night.
472
00:46:35,038 --> 00:46:36,955
I can't stay here this late.
473
00:46:37,122 --> 00:46:40,913
My nanny is not reliable...
and I can't leave my child.
474
00:46:43,581 --> 00:46:45,205
You don't even know my name!
475
00:46:45,372 --> 00:46:47,788
He's not interested in your name.
476
00:46:49,247 --> 00:46:51,705
Here your name is...
477
00:46:54,289 --> 00:46:56,080
Fido.
478
00:47:09,830 --> 00:47:11,371
can i help you
479
00:47:11,538 --> 00:47:14,122
I want to buy a whip.
480
00:47:14,288 --> 00:47:17,621
- For what?
- For my horse.
481
00:47:17,788 --> 00:47:20,204
Yes, I understood that.
what kind of horse
482
00:47:22,746 --> 00:47:25,621
Well... not too big.
483
00:47:25,788 --> 00:47:28,246
No, I mean the whip
is it for dressage or jumping?
484
00:47:30,538 --> 00:47:32,079
No... I know.
485
00:47:33,204 --> 00:47:35,705
This is a training whip.
486
00:47:35,871 --> 00:47:37,705
Well, maybe it's for jumping, then
487
00:47:37,871 --> 00:47:39,912
Good. Like this?
488
00:47:43,996 --> 00:47:45,912
- Is it worn out?
- No.
489
00:47:46,871 --> 00:47:49,829
We have used whips,
but these are not that expensive.
490
00:47:51,496 --> 00:47:53,329
I prefer a used one.
491
00:47:55,704 --> 00:47:57,246
Good.
492
00:48:04,412 --> 00:48:07,121
Marcel is awake.
493
00:48:07,288 --> 00:48:09,662
You don't want to say goodbye to him
your mother?
494
00:48:09,829 --> 00:48:12,204
goodbye
495
00:49:11,245 --> 00:49:12,703
Fido...
496
00:49:34,786 --> 00:49:36,786
I'm taking your coat.
497
00:49:57,161 --> 00:49:59,577
I would like you to put your hair up.
498
00:50:00,869 --> 00:50:03,577
You can use this.
499
00:50:03,743 --> 00:50:07,535
Only in case I need it
to hit you in the face.
500
00:50:07,702 --> 00:50:10,202
Should I take my clothes off?
501
00:50:11,702 --> 00:50:14,994
I'll tell you what to do... and when.
502
00:50:16,869 --> 00:50:18,535
You may sit down.
503
00:50:28,869 --> 00:50:30,702
Give me your hand.
504
00:50:38,076 --> 00:50:40,493
Let's see what this node looks like
on your wrist.
505
00:50:57,326 --> 00:50:58,617
Good.
506
00:51:05,534 --> 00:51:07,452
You can get up...
507
00:51:14,868 --> 00:51:17,617
Now you can bend over.
- How?
508
00:51:19,868 --> 00:51:21,784
Get closer to the chair.
509
00:51:23,492 --> 00:51:25,200
Now bend at the hips.
510
00:51:28,409 --> 00:51:31,325
Look ahead. Look ahead.
Head up.
511
00:51:31,492 --> 00:51:34,367
Head up.
keep looking ahead.
512
00:51:41,117 --> 00:51:43,159
keep looking ahead.
513
00:51:47,659 --> 00:51:49,534
You can stand up.
514
00:51:51,117 --> 00:51:53,117
We have to use the couch.
515
00:51:55,659 --> 00:51:57,492
Come and stay.
516
00:51:59,950 --> 00:52:03,867
Take it easy, take it easy.
517
00:52:04,033 --> 00:52:05,741
Bend over.
518
00:52:08,325 --> 00:52:10,533
Extend your straight arms.
519
00:52:21,033 --> 00:52:23,366
Take it easy. Take it easy.
520
00:53:04,907 --> 00:53:07,782
Stretch out your hands.
521
00:53:07,991 --> 00:53:10,199
Palms face to face.
522
00:53:18,241 --> 00:53:19,824
Take it easy...
523
00:53:56,823 --> 00:53:59,031
Next time don't wear panties.
524
00:54:24,531 --> 00:54:27,781
Your ass isn't high enough.
525
00:54:27,948 --> 00:54:29,215
I don't think we can do that today.
526
00:54:29,281 --> 00:54:30,865
What?
527
00:54:37,698 --> 00:54:39,781
I would like to see you again on Thursday.
528
00:54:46,906 --> 00:54:49,239
what's wrong
529
00:54:49,406 --> 00:54:52,072
I think we should see
how is thursday going
530
00:55:04,989 --> 00:55:06,822
Hello, I can't come to the phone
right now.
531
00:55:06,989 --> 00:55:09,156
Please leave a message.
532
00:55:09,322 --> 00:55:12,156
Yes, I am Marcel's mother again.
533
00:55:12,322 --> 00:55:16,697
It's 1:30 now.
We had an understanding.
534
00:55:16,864 --> 00:55:21,405
I hope you find the message
and come as fast as you can.
535
00:55:22,989 --> 00:55:25,822
Marcel is asleep.
536
00:55:25,989 --> 00:55:30,114
I have to go now.
537
00:56:25,904 --> 00:56:27,821
Get up.
538
00:56:30,737 --> 00:56:32,654
More.
539
00:56:36,446 --> 00:56:37,988
Better.
540
00:56:58,070 --> 00:57:02,070
And that's much better.
Much better.
541
00:57:08,487 --> 00:57:11,320
Now I'm going to hit you 12 times,
542
00:57:11,487 --> 00:57:13,653
no matter how much you scream...
543
00:57:13,820 --> 00:57:16,028
that no one can hear you down here.
544
00:57:23,404 --> 00:57:27,237
This... that's not how it works.
545
00:57:28,820 --> 00:57:31,570
Most people don't scream
until I hit them.
546
00:58:33,360 --> 00:58:34,986
That's it.
547
00:58:39,153 --> 00:58:42,735
- Thank you.
- With great pleasure.
548
00:58:53,986 --> 00:58:56,068
Hey? are you there
549
00:58:58,527 --> 00:59:01,985
It's just that everything is so strange.
550
00:59:02,152 --> 00:59:05,901
Yes, very, very strange.
551
00:59:06,610 --> 00:59:11,901
Because I was wetter the second time.
There is no doubt.
552
00:59:12,068 --> 00:59:14,943
I don't know from where
we take our sexuality
553
00:59:15,110 --> 00:59:19,193
or where they come from
such trends.
554
00:59:20,277 --> 00:59:23,318
Maybe a perversion
awakened in our childhood,
555
00:59:23,485 --> 00:59:25,776
which had not manifested itself
never.
556
00:59:25,943 --> 00:59:30,360
Well, oddly enough,
Freud says the opposite.
557
00:59:30,526 --> 00:59:34,068
He talks about perversion
polymorph of a child,
558
00:59:34,235 --> 00:59:39,359
i.e. to a child
there are all kinds of perversions.
559
00:59:39,526 --> 00:59:42,693
And then we will use childhood
to diminish
560
00:59:42,860 --> 00:59:45,443
or remove some of them.
561
00:59:45,609 --> 00:59:48,901
Basically, a child
is sexually polymorphic
562
00:59:49,068 --> 00:59:52,693
and everything is sexuality
in an infant.
563
00:59:52,860 --> 00:59:55,985
And yet,
it was deeply bizarre
564
00:59:56,151 --> 01:00:00,025
stay there
and, above all, to want to stay there.
565
01:00:04,276 --> 01:00:07,276
I felt invincible.
566
01:00:07,443 --> 01:00:10,109
But mostly
I felt like a potted plant.
567
01:00:11,734 --> 01:00:13,317
Potted plant?
568
01:00:13,484 --> 01:00:17,526
Yes, because he constantly
checking my pussy for flies.
569
01:00:17,692 --> 01:00:22,650
As old women check their pots
to see if they need to be watered.
570
01:00:25,526 --> 01:00:29,525
It's an interesting problem
that you were getting wet
571
01:00:29,692 --> 01:00:33,775
waiting for the pain
what you had not experienced.
572
01:00:35,733 --> 01:00:38,650
Your body prepared itself
for a sexual act
573
01:00:38,817 --> 01:00:41,234
which you knew didn't happen.
574
01:00:43,151 --> 01:00:46,817
I cannot describe the condition
only sexually.
575
01:00:48,817 --> 01:00:51,358
Despite K's immature appearance,
576
01:00:51,525 --> 01:00:55,692
his methods were
surprisingly refined.
577
01:00:55,859 --> 01:01:00,358
How I was twisting and turning
while beating me
578
01:01:00,525 --> 01:01:04,275
I could feel it
how ingenious his connections were.
579
01:01:04,442 --> 01:01:08,108
If we fight them,
they were getting tighter
580
01:01:08,275 --> 01:01:12,191
and how i was relaxing
it seemed they did too.
581
01:01:15,233 --> 01:01:18,858
Like a cat playing with a mouse.
582
01:01:20,316 --> 01:01:22,608
Tricking him into believing
that he has a chance of escaping
583
01:01:22,774 --> 01:01:26,233
and then they attack him again.
584
01:01:28,233 --> 01:01:33,816
I don't know what kind of connections
used K...
585
01:01:33,983 --> 01:01:39,233
but I know a knot that tightens
when forced
586
01:01:39,399 --> 01:01:42,150
and vice versa.
It's called the Prusik knot
587
01:01:42,315 --> 01:01:45,191
After a man named Prusik.
588
01:01:45,357 --> 01:01:47,191
He was a climber
589
01:01:47,357 --> 01:01:49,024
and he and a friend were climbing
590
01:01:49,190 --> 01:01:53,524
and they had an accident
and his friend died.
591
01:01:53,691 --> 01:01:56,941
And he remained hooked
at the end of a rope
592
01:01:57,107 --> 01:02:00,607
without the possibility to stand up.
593
01:02:00,774 --> 01:02:03,399
You know, you can't go up
on a climbing rope.
594
01:02:03,566 --> 01:02:05,357
It's too thin.
595
01:02:05,524 --> 01:02:08,898
But he was an intelligent man
and, put on the wall,
596
01:02:09,065 --> 01:02:10,898
he was a genius.
597
01:02:12,649 --> 01:02:15,857
He took
shoelaces
598
01:02:16,023 --> 01:02:20,149
and made two loops
and caught them by the string.
599
01:02:20,315 --> 01:02:22,649
And he could move them up
600
01:02:22,815 --> 01:02:24,165
when these
they were not tense.
601
01:02:24,232 --> 01:02:26,524
And he could use them
602
01:02:26,690 --> 01:02:30,773
to climb the rope
and be saved.
603
01:02:30,940 --> 01:02:33,065
Prusik.
604
01:02:35,690 --> 01:02:39,398
I think this was one
of your feeble digressions.
605
01:02:43,398 --> 01:02:47,982
can i continue
- Well... be my guest.
606
01:02:52,606 --> 01:02:56,690
Tomorrow bring 15 small coins,
all the same.
607
01:02:58,731 --> 01:03:00,690
No more, no less.
608
01:05:01,521 --> 01:05:04,855
Sometimes I make Christmas presents.
609
01:05:05,604 --> 01:05:09,271
But you have to do it
the only thing.
610
01:05:09,438 --> 01:05:12,146
I'll show you how to do it.
611
01:05:27,062 --> 01:05:29,062
It's called a double knot.
612
01:05:29,229 --> 01:05:33,603
You have to make nine ropes
three double knots each.
613
01:05:33,770 --> 01:05:35,603
Let me show you how it's done.
614
01:05:35,770 --> 01:05:40,438
You decide which four you make,
five times six twists
615
01:05:40,603 --> 01:05:42,603
at different nodes.
616
01:05:53,812 --> 01:05:55,520
Let me see.
617
01:06:02,812 --> 01:06:04,937
It's very good.
618
01:06:05,103 --> 01:06:08,228
If you... if you start with a node
619
01:06:08,395 --> 01:06:11,145
at the end of the rope
620
01:06:11,311 --> 01:06:16,103
and then you have to do two
or more nodes at a distance of...
621
01:06:16,270 --> 01:06:20,395
well between 10 and 20
centimeters to be exact,
622
01:06:20,562 --> 01:06:22,145
but most important
at double knots
623
01:06:22,311 --> 01:06:25,395
from the nine ropes is
that they are placed differently
624
01:06:25,562 --> 01:06:27,936
and that they are staggered.
625
01:06:33,853 --> 01:06:36,686
The cat with nine tails
is often called
626
01:06:36,853 --> 01:06:39,727
the "captain's daughter" on board ships.
627
01:06:43,602 --> 01:06:45,853
The double knot is important
628
01:06:46,019 --> 01:06:48,769
because he is the one who cracks the skin
and no
629
01:06:49,394 --> 01:06:55,145
how wrong it was thought,
the end of the rope.
630
01:06:55,310 --> 01:07:01,145
The hangman's knot is also
a kind of double knot with many turns.
631
01:07:01,310 --> 01:07:05,811
American military standard
required five to 15 turns,
632
01:07:05,978 --> 01:07:09,019
with the coils placed behind
the delinquent's left ear
633
01:07:09,185 --> 01:07:12,394
to break the convict's neck
while falling.
634
01:07:15,936 --> 01:07:17,727
I'll take these from here.
635
01:10:08,266 --> 01:10:09,933
Joe?
636
01:10:11,808 --> 01:10:13,349
sweetheart?
637
01:10:23,391 --> 01:10:24,808
Marcel?
638
01:10:28,641 --> 01:10:30,099
Marcel.
639
01:11:09,890 --> 01:11:12,932
- Do you still love me?
- Yes.
640
01:11:13,099 --> 01:11:16,057
More than others?
641
01:11:18,015 --> 01:11:20,890
- Yes?
- Yes
642
01:11:21,056 --> 01:11:24,765
You don't think about leaving anymore
and tonight, right?
643
01:11:24,932 --> 01:11:26,140
- No.
- No?
644
01:11:26,306 --> 01:11:28,765
- No, no. Not at all
- Are you sure?
645
01:11:30,348 --> 01:11:31,473
Yes.
646
01:11:31,640 --> 01:11:34,390
Are you lying to me, Joe?
647
01:11:34,557 --> 01:11:36,432
- No.
- Be honest.
648
01:11:36,598 --> 01:11:41,098
It's okay.
Just say "fuck it".
649
01:11:41,265 --> 01:11:43,598
No, I... I really want to be here.
650
01:11:43,764 --> 01:11:45,598
Why?
651
01:11:49,432 --> 01:11:51,265
I don't know.
652
01:11:57,514 --> 01:12:00,597
If you leave at night...
653
01:12:00,764 --> 01:12:04,306
You will never see us again
me or Marcel in your life.
654
01:12:07,973 --> 01:12:10,014
did you understand
655
01:13:25,847 --> 01:13:27,638
Is this goodbye?
656
01:13:30,888 --> 01:13:33,888
Is that what you're saying?
657
01:13:34,054 --> 01:13:35,346
Marcel, up.
658
01:13:35,513 --> 01:13:37,638
- Wait.
- Is that what you want?
659
01:13:39,179 --> 01:13:42,804
Yes, so you can see it.
Look at him, Joe
660
01:13:48,304 --> 01:13:51,304
Let's face it, Joe,
you are not a mother
661
01:13:53,346 --> 01:13:54,929
Let's wake him up.
662
01:13:55,096 --> 01:13:59,430
Marcel, the little boy, say "bye, mother."
663
01:14:00,595 --> 01:14:03,221
- Please put it...
- Is that what you want?
664
01:14:07,012 --> 01:14:08,720
See?
665
01:14:08,887 --> 01:14:11,929
See, he wants you.
666
01:14:12,096 --> 01:14:13,929
Come on.
667
01:14:14,887 --> 01:14:17,971
It's Christmas.
It's bloody Christmas.
668
01:14:40,845 --> 01:14:42,095
what is this
669
01:14:44,137 --> 01:14:47,387
Today, Madam
she is the one who has to wait.
670
01:14:55,636 --> 01:14:57,594
Madam, I am very sorry,
671
01:14:57,761 --> 01:15:00,719
but I must have
a few words with Fido first.
672
01:15:11,511 --> 01:15:14,137
Your behavior is
really annoying today.
673
01:15:24,886 --> 01:15:27,719
I really should send you home.
674
01:15:49,636 --> 01:15:51,678
Merry Christmas, Fido.
675
01:16:53,968 --> 01:16:56,593
- I want your cock.
- What did you say?
676
01:16:58,093 --> 01:16:59,634
I want your cock.
677
01:16:59,801 --> 01:17:03,385
No, you don't...
No, you don't...
678
01:17:06,717 --> 01:17:08,884
What's the matter with you today?
679
01:17:30,592 --> 01:17:36,134
Because of the holidays
and your behavior today,
680
01:17:36,300 --> 01:17:38,592
I will give you personally
the original Roman maximum
681
01:17:38,759 --> 01:17:41,759
of 40 lashes.
Are you ready, Fido?
682
01:17:43,967 --> 01:17:45,509
I'm ready.
683
01:17:50,842 --> 01:17:52,592
One.
684
01:17:54,883 --> 01:17:55,883
Two.
685
01:17:58,175 --> 01:17:59,217
Three.
686
01:18:01,716 --> 01:18:03,175
Four.
687
01:18:04,467 --> 01:18:05,633
Five.
688
01:18:22,675 --> 01:18:25,050
I had found out, thanks to K,
knot technique,
689
01:18:25,217 --> 01:18:27,716
so I was able to
I change the position a bit,
690
01:18:27,883 --> 01:18:30,550
to move my pelvis
and thereby excite me
691
01:18:30,716 --> 01:18:33,425
the clitoris on the cover of the book.
692
01:18:58,799 --> 01:19:00,258
Forty.
693
01:19:10,966 --> 01:19:15,966
And when you came home
Had Jerome and the baby left?
694
01:19:22,799 --> 01:19:25,841
I haven't seen Marcel since then.
695
01:19:29,382 --> 01:19:33,966
This sentimentality...
i hate him
696
01:19:37,215 --> 01:19:40,632
- Why?
- Because it's a lie.
697
01:19:44,924 --> 01:19:46,757
are you sure
698
01:19:53,757 --> 01:19:55,757
Jerome understood
with could not give priority
699
01:19:55,923 --> 01:20:00,632
his life
also granting the child,
700
01:20:00,798 --> 01:20:03,756
So he threw it away
in a placement center.
701
01:20:06,673 --> 01:20:09,507
My only contact with the boy
it's a thousand pounds
702
01:20:09,673 --> 01:20:12,589
which I put monthly
on his account.
703
01:20:12,756 --> 01:20:14,215
Anonymous.
704
01:20:17,382 --> 01:20:19,589
As a penance.
705
01:20:29,506 --> 01:20:30,714
Whenever I go out,
706
01:20:30,881 --> 01:20:34,840
I have the feeling that,
when I return, you will be gone.
707
01:20:38,756 --> 01:20:40,631
And all I can hear is the cat's flap,
708
01:20:40,798 --> 01:20:44,256
rocking back and forth.
709
01:20:47,005 --> 01:20:50,464
Thank you. I didn't know
that you had a cat flap.
710
01:20:51,256 --> 01:20:52,464
i used to have a cat
711
01:20:52,631 --> 01:20:55,964
so i have a cat flap
in the door of the stairwell.
712
01:20:56,131 --> 01:20:57,922
But how did he get out?
713
01:21:00,964 --> 01:21:05,256
I never thought about that.
I suppose through the basement.
714
01:21:05,423 --> 01:21:07,131
The thing is...
715
01:21:07,297 --> 01:21:10,131
Every time someone opens
the door from the street,
716
01:21:10,297 --> 01:21:13,381
the flap squeaks.
717
01:21:13,547 --> 01:21:15,381
There is a draw in the whole house.
718
01:21:16,922 --> 01:21:19,672
It hasn't squeaked yet.
719
01:21:20,672 --> 01:21:24,005
No, there aren't many people here
to come and go.
720
01:21:24,172 --> 01:21:26,131
It's kind of creepy.
721
01:21:26,297 --> 01:21:29,505
No, I like this.
722
01:21:29,672 --> 01:21:33,547
It's... it's quiet.
723
01:21:38,213 --> 01:21:43,547
After all this sadness, I can ask...
what happened to the silent duck
724
01:21:44,588 --> 01:21:48,505
Oh shit. The silent duck...
725
01:21:48,672 --> 01:21:51,422
I completely forgot about her.
726
01:21:52,380 --> 01:21:55,130
One night K was, for him,
727
01:21:55,296 --> 01:21:57,213
in an unusually good mood.
728
01:21:57,380 --> 01:21:59,879
I don't know what caused it,
but he didn't hit hard anymore
729
01:22:00,046 --> 01:22:02,171
and joked that he would initiate me
730
01:22:02,338 --> 01:22:05,171
in the concept of the silent duck.
731
01:22:30,421 --> 01:22:34,379
You would hardly dare to imagine
"eating duck."
732
01:22:47,671 --> 01:22:50,587
Well, deep down,
733
01:22:50,754 --> 01:22:53,921
little K seems to have been a wonderful man,
734
01:22:54,087 --> 01:22:55,295
with versatile talents.
735
01:22:55,462 --> 01:22:59,212
But what did he understand
about the Romanian punishment
736
01:22:59,379 --> 01:23:01,796
and the 40 lashes was wrong.
737
01:23:01,962 --> 01:23:03,587
For, indeed, the greatest punishment
738
01:23:03,754 --> 01:23:08,753
it was 40 lashes, but they had to
administered in series of three.
739
01:23:08,920 --> 01:23:10,795
That's why Jesus
he received only 39 lashes,
740
01:23:10,962 --> 01:23:16,586
for three goes in 39, by no means in 40.
741
01:23:19,462 --> 01:23:22,670
Well, K doesn't know if he felt well.
742
01:23:22,837 --> 01:23:25,295
His sadistic posture
743
01:23:25,461 --> 01:23:28,586
maybe it wasn't to be envied,
as it would seem.
744
01:23:28,753 --> 01:23:33,795
Apparently,
the sadist acts as a decision maker.
745
01:23:34,628 --> 01:23:37,545
But we had a discussion once
with a prostitute
746
01:23:37,711 --> 01:23:40,170
who had tried all the options
in her field.
747
01:23:40,336 --> 01:23:41,962
She was not surprised by anything.
748
01:23:42,129 --> 01:23:47,003
And she admitted that she only has
only one prejudice: masochists.
749
01:23:47,920 --> 01:23:49,045
Masochists, for her,
750
01:23:49,211 --> 01:23:52,169
was the most demanding
and the most ungrateful.
751
01:23:53,128 --> 01:23:55,545
First, she inferred their desire
752
01:23:55,711 --> 01:23:57,420
reading their minds
753
01:23:57,586 --> 01:24:01,545
then fulfilled
any deviation from normal,
754
01:24:01,711 --> 01:24:04,877
and after that
unlike other customers,
755
01:24:05,044 --> 01:24:08,378
and by more honorable sadists,
for example,
756
01:24:08,545 --> 01:24:10,461
He never received thanks,
757
01:24:11,378 --> 01:24:14,169
let alone gifts or flowers.
758
01:24:18,794 --> 01:24:21,585
I never went in that direction,
759
01:24:21,752 --> 01:24:24,211
neither back to K nor in masochism.
760
01:24:34,502 --> 01:24:37,211
But I took the orgasm with me.
761
01:24:38,627 --> 01:24:43,169
You still have to show me
a single example of evil.
762
01:24:43,961 --> 01:24:46,377
But that's all I do!
763
01:24:46,544 --> 01:24:49,335
As if you want to
misunderstand me
764
01:24:49,502 --> 01:24:53,127
You keep inventing
convoluted and fake excuses
765
01:24:53,293 --> 01:24:55,752
for my lowliness
and selfish actions.
766
01:24:58,001 --> 01:24:59,794
While our relationship
767
01:24:59,960 --> 01:25:02,752
was going downhill,
Jerome was really trying his best.
768
01:25:05,960 --> 01:25:07,544
I bought you something.
769
01:25:07,710 --> 01:25:09,859
- Did you buy?
- I'm sure you'll like it.
770
01:25:11,085 --> 01:25:13,918
- It's a ring.
- Yes.
771
01:25:14,960 --> 01:25:16,001
It's wonderful.
772
01:25:16,168 --> 01:25:19,293
It was impossible for me to calculate them
to Jerome the income.
773
01:25:19,460 --> 01:25:23,335
Sometimes he had a lot of money
and sometimes not at all,
774
01:25:23,502 --> 01:25:24,751
but I was thinking
maybe a little late,
775
01:25:24,918 --> 01:25:28,210
that his work
it was not entirely legal.
776
01:25:28,377 --> 01:25:31,459
But this time it was too much.
777
01:25:31,626 --> 01:25:36,168
- It must have been very expensive.
- Well, it wasn't cheap.
778
01:25:36,334 --> 01:25:38,418
Well crafted.
779
01:25:38,584 --> 01:25:40,793
I can guarantee you that.
780
01:25:40,960 --> 01:25:43,376
Then let's play something.
781
01:25:43,543 --> 01:25:45,793
- A game?
- Come on up.
782
01:25:45,960 --> 01:25:47,043
Good.
783
01:25:47,209 --> 01:25:49,418
- It's called "Cinderella".
- I don't know him.
784
01:25:49,584 --> 01:25:51,459
- You will know him.
- Okay.
785
01:25:51,626 --> 01:25:53,501
Ready.
- No, don't touch it.
786
01:25:53,668 --> 01:25:55,209
- Okay.
- You just watch.
787
01:25:57,668 --> 01:25:59,459
okay? Are you ready?
788
01:26:01,000 --> 01:26:02,626
- Yes.
- Don't move.
789
01:26:02,793 --> 01:26:05,084
I don't move.
790
01:26:05,251 --> 01:26:07,000
- Whoops.
- Fir-ar! Joe!
791
01:26:07,167 --> 01:26:08,376
Come on, Cinderella.
792
01:26:08,543 --> 01:26:11,000
- Oh, it would.
- Come on, come on.
793
01:26:11,167 --> 01:26:14,459
Joe! Fuck'.
794
01:26:14,626 --> 01:26:16,792
Give it up!
- Cinderella, Cinderella!
795
01:26:16,959 --> 01:26:20,042
Fir-ar! Ești nebunã, Joe?
796
01:26:20,917 --> 01:26:23,750
Ești nebunã, la dracu'?
Fir-ar! Fir-ar.
797
01:26:23,917 --> 01:26:26,834
7,000 pounds, Joe!
798
01:26:28,583 --> 01:26:30,000
Did he find it?
799
01:26:30,167 --> 01:26:35,042
Yes, and he returned it
and got all his money back.
800
01:26:35,209 --> 01:26:39,792
So you can call this game
other than malicious?
801
01:26:44,667 --> 01:26:47,333
Let me chew on this for a while.
802
01:26:51,291 --> 01:26:54,375
So it wasn't a diamond
which to wear around your neck?
803
01:26:54,542 --> 01:26:57,834
Not. But it was also a gift.
804
01:26:58,000 --> 01:26:59,917
But I have to be honest and say
805
01:27:00,083 --> 01:27:02,875
that I cannot remember the person
who gave it to me.
806
01:27:03,834 --> 01:27:06,792
I was always in...
so, theoretically, of course,
807
01:27:06,958 --> 01:27:08,958
interested in diamonds
and their cutting.
808
01:27:09,125 --> 01:27:11,999
the word "shiny"
refers to the cut.
809
01:27:12,166 --> 01:27:14,916
Diamond is stone.
810
01:27:16,791 --> 01:27:18,874
If we use the word "divine"
in connection
811
01:27:19,041 --> 01:27:21,125
with the Golden Section and Fibonacci,
812
01:27:21,291 --> 01:27:23,417
cutting the brilliant
it is not inferior to anything.
813
01:27:24,166 --> 01:27:27,333
It's a frighteningly refined cut.
814
01:27:27,500 --> 01:27:30,083
Fifty-seven facets.
815
01:27:30,250 --> 01:27:33,417
The theory is that the light
enter through the upper plane,
816
01:27:33,582 --> 01:27:37,833
which is called the plate,
or in some languages the mirror,
817
01:27:37,999 --> 01:27:42,125
and then from inside the diamond
it is refracted in all facets
818
01:27:42,291 --> 01:27:44,125
and thus spread,
819
01:27:44,290 --> 01:27:49,290
creating a luminous effect
absolutely unique.
820
01:27:51,332 --> 01:27:55,124
So, it is called a mirror.
I didn't know that.
821
01:27:56,332 --> 01:27:58,124
And you have a mirror.
822
01:28:00,582 --> 01:28:02,290
Yes.
823
01:28:02,457 --> 01:28:04,874
It's like a thought, isn't it?
824
01:28:09,193 --> 01:28:11,191
Chapter seven
THE MIRROR
825
01:28:34,498 --> 01:28:35,748
A few years later,
826
01:28:35,915 --> 01:28:39,124
corporal abuse
it started to take effect.
827
01:28:39,374 --> 01:28:42,623
First of all, rare bleeding
of my clitoris,
828
01:28:42,790 --> 01:28:46,165
but then they became
increasingly frequent.
829
01:28:55,873 --> 01:28:57,456
Enter.
830
01:29:01,081 --> 01:29:04,790
But I really need my salary.
831
01:29:04,957 --> 01:29:06,540
i know
832
01:29:07,915 --> 01:29:10,456
And I would like to help you.
833
01:29:11,289 --> 01:29:14,540
You've heard some rumours
about you?
834
01:29:18,123 --> 01:29:20,789
They say you see men
every evening
835
01:29:23,914 --> 01:29:26,664
and that you spend
all night with them.
836
01:29:26,831 --> 01:29:30,081
They say you can't trust...
in none.
837
01:29:32,498 --> 01:29:34,705
Why is this said?
838
01:29:36,622 --> 01:29:39,248
I guess they're afraid that I...
839
01:29:39,415 --> 01:29:42,914
I can't keep my distance
by their men.
840
01:29:45,039 --> 01:29:47,914
That's right. And can you?
841
01:29:49,123 --> 01:29:50,539
Not.
842
01:29:53,622 --> 01:29:56,123
I talked to a psychologist.
843
01:29:57,455 --> 01:29:59,330
He said you're addicted
844
01:29:59,497 --> 01:30:02,080
but that it is not the type of addiction
which cannot be treated.
845
01:30:02,789 --> 01:30:05,789
They have some groups.
846
01:30:05,956 --> 01:30:08,455
I know about such groups.
847
01:30:08,622 --> 01:30:11,664
I have nothing to say
a psychologist.
848
01:30:11,831 --> 01:30:14,831
I'm not suggesting therapy.
I ask for it.
849
01:30:16,288 --> 01:30:18,913
Even if you leave us,
it will be the same at your next job
850
01:30:18,979 --> 01:30:21,438
and the next one.
851
01:30:25,996 --> 01:30:28,455
Why didn't you want to talk
with a psychologist?
852
01:30:29,996 --> 01:30:33,288
It's an old story.
I just don't like them.
853
01:30:36,579 --> 01:30:38,554
Well, if you insist
for me to try to understand
854
01:30:38,621 --> 01:30:40,746
then you will tell me too
that story.
855
01:30:40,913 --> 01:30:43,205
The old story.
856
01:30:44,372 --> 01:30:47,288
Okay... okay.
857
01:30:47,454 --> 01:30:49,871
After all, it's not that old.
858
01:30:50,621 --> 01:30:55,122
It was about a year later
that we had lost Marcel and Jerome.
859
01:31:02,246 --> 01:31:03,621
Good.
860
01:31:04,955 --> 01:31:07,704
I was careless
with my birth controlpills
861
01:31:07,871 --> 01:31:10,413
and now I simply didn't use them.
862
01:31:10,621 --> 01:31:12,579
Not the whole experience with Marcel
863
01:31:12,746 --> 01:31:15,704
convinced you that it doesn't exist
room for children in your life?
864
01:31:15,871 --> 01:31:17,496
That's right.
865
01:31:22,246 --> 01:31:24,454
I know it sounds incomprehensible,
866
01:31:24,621 --> 01:31:27,121
but actually it was
my paralyzing fear
867
01:31:27,287 --> 01:31:30,413
to get pregnant
that I didn't take the pills.
868
01:31:30,579 --> 01:31:32,621
Probably impossible to understand.
869
01:31:32,787 --> 01:31:36,371
No, it makes sense to me.
870
01:31:36,538 --> 01:31:38,662
He was so afraid
to get pregnant
871
01:31:38,829 --> 01:31:42,246
that you repressed his possibility.
872
01:31:42,413 --> 01:31:45,662
You couldn't even take them
seeing the box of pills.
873
01:31:51,246 --> 01:31:52,703
Good.
874
01:31:58,121 --> 01:31:59,995
Do you want to turn it off?
875
01:32:02,662 --> 01:32:05,286
If you look at the screen
can you see your baby
876
01:32:05,453 --> 01:32:07,203
but I can't tell you the gender yet.
877
01:32:07,370 --> 01:32:09,954
I don't care what gender it is.
878
01:32:10,120 --> 01:32:11,537
I want you to take it out.
879
01:32:14,578 --> 01:32:17,994
Okay... you're in week eleven.
880
01:32:18,161 --> 01:32:22,703
So legally,
there are no barriers to abortion.
881
01:32:22,869 --> 01:32:25,745
Yes, I know that.
Just take it out.
882
01:32:25,911 --> 01:32:30,245
Well, we have some procedures
to follow.
883
01:32:30,412 --> 01:32:32,036
There is nothing left to talk about
about this.
884
01:32:32,203 --> 01:32:34,245
I can take it out, I want to take it out.
885
01:32:34,412 --> 01:32:37,453
It's a very important decision,
better not to be taken in a hurry.
886
01:32:37,619 --> 01:32:40,328
Did you not understand what I said?
887
01:32:40,495 --> 01:32:42,869
Okay, there is
an informative consultation
888
01:32:43,036 --> 01:32:46,412
with our psychologist
before having the operation.
889
01:32:55,369 --> 01:32:57,786
You didn't quite fill out the form.
890
01:32:57,953 --> 01:32:59,869
Maybe you didn't have time,
891
01:33:00,036 --> 01:33:05,078
so I will need it
let me ask a few more questions.
892
01:33:05,244 --> 01:33:08,786
What is the most important thing
in your life, right now?
893
01:33:08,953 --> 01:33:13,035
It could be many things,
your family, your friends...
894
01:33:13,202 --> 01:33:15,327
The most important thing
for me right now
895
01:33:15,494 --> 01:33:17,619
is to have an abortion.
896
01:33:19,411 --> 01:33:22,452
Yes. Well, that's it
what we will solve together.
897
01:33:24,828 --> 01:33:27,285
I need some information.
898
01:33:29,910 --> 01:33:31,743
do you love daddy
899
01:33:31,910 --> 01:33:35,202
That's none of your business.
900
01:33:35,369 --> 01:33:40,618
Well, it's my job
because I am here to train myself
901
01:33:40,785 --> 01:33:43,535
an impression of your situation.
902
01:33:43,701 --> 01:33:45,494
This is my occupation.
903
01:33:45,660 --> 01:33:47,452
Okay, that's how much you want it
904
01:33:47,618 --> 01:33:51,119
to answer about the father
to get the hell an abortion?
905
01:33:51,285 --> 01:33:54,035
That I love him
or that I don't love him?
906
01:33:54,202 --> 01:33:58,743
Or that I... don't know him,
because I date tons of men?
907
01:34:04,035 --> 01:34:06,993
I see you were very emotional
908
01:34:07,159 --> 01:34:09,368
during the doctor's examination.
909
01:34:09,535 --> 01:34:11,660
I think you are emotional.
910
01:34:11,827 --> 01:34:15,868
Please listen. That's what we call it
an informative consultation.
911
01:34:16,034 --> 01:34:18,076
Why do I need it?
to be informed?
912
01:34:18,243 --> 01:34:20,284
That you can't anymore
put the baby back?
913
01:34:20,451 --> 01:34:22,951
I already know that.
914
01:34:24,201 --> 01:34:26,326
I just need to be sure
915
01:34:26,493 --> 01:34:28,701
that you are completely sure
in your choice
916
01:34:28,867 --> 01:34:32,034
and my professional opinion,
based on your behavior,
917
01:34:32,201 --> 01:34:33,451
it's clear you're not.
918
01:34:33,618 --> 01:34:35,784
I've never been more sure
in my life.
919
01:34:35,951 --> 01:34:38,535
I want that baby out right now.
920
01:34:38,700 --> 01:34:41,951
And as a professional, I can't
supports the recommendation of an abortion
921
01:34:42,118 --> 01:34:43,301
based on this conversation.
922
01:34:43,368 --> 01:34:47,368
I already had a baby!
I know what I want!
923
01:34:47,534 --> 01:34:48,909
Fuck you.
924
01:34:55,617 --> 01:34:58,492
They were, of course,
many ways to do this.
925
01:34:58,659 --> 01:35:01,284
But I chose to follow
common medical procedure
926
01:35:01,450 --> 01:35:04,242
I had learned while studying medicine,
927
01:35:04,409 --> 01:35:06,534
that it was of great importance to me
928
01:35:06,700 --> 01:35:10,034
to remove the fetus immediately,
rather than wait
929
01:35:10,200 --> 01:35:13,117
to be expelled
a few days later.
930
01:36:36,241 --> 01:36:39,116
Definitely the most painful part
931
01:36:39,282 --> 01:36:42,157
It would be the gradual opening
of the cervix,
932
01:36:42,324 --> 01:36:46,615
which, otherwise, was always done
under anesthesia.
933
01:39:11,863 --> 01:39:14,030
Say something, Pierrot.
934
01:39:15,988 --> 01:39:17,072
what do you mean
935
01:39:17,238 --> 01:39:20,030
Well, you always have something to say
so many clever things.
936
01:39:25,863 --> 01:39:29,279
Well, I... I feel bad for you
937
01:39:29,446 --> 01:39:31,321
that you had to challenge yourself
so much pain
938
01:39:37,738 --> 01:39:42,154
But... abortion
it is completely incomprehensible.
939
01:39:42,321 --> 01:39:43,546
You really thought that the baby
940
01:39:43,613 --> 01:39:46,071
He wouldn't have had a life
what was worth living, so...
941
01:39:46,696 --> 01:39:48,695
Yes, but the abortion itself.
942
01:39:48,862 --> 01:39:51,654
- Abortion is not a crime.
- Oh, come on.
943
01:39:51,821 --> 01:39:55,737
Don't fall back on false clichés
just for my sake.
944
01:39:55,904 --> 01:39:58,612
I ask again,
what about abortion
945
01:39:58,779 --> 01:39:59,904
I have nothing to comment on.
946
01:40:00,071 --> 01:40:03,071
I am a big supporter
for the right to abortion,
947
01:40:03,238 --> 01:40:05,821
but this is 100% female territory.
948
01:40:05,987 --> 01:40:08,238
I don't believe a man
can ever understand
949
01:40:08,404 --> 01:40:10,987
situation or pain.
950
01:40:11,154 --> 01:40:15,113
And when it comes to the method, I think so
the less you say, the better.
951
01:40:15,278 --> 01:40:18,237
These are two points of view
very interesting
952
01:40:18,404 --> 01:40:21,237
The first, you said, as a man,
953
01:40:21,404 --> 01:40:23,529
that you cannot understand
a woman's feelings
954
01:40:23,695 --> 01:40:26,195
regarding abortion.
955
01:40:26,362 --> 01:40:29,278
Well, it's like saying
that I could not understand
956
01:40:29,445 --> 01:40:32,195
earthquake victims
because they were Chinese.
957
01:40:33,737 --> 01:40:36,529
I thought we agreed to this empathy
958
01:40:36,695 --> 01:40:39,445
as the foundation of all humanism.
959
01:40:39,612 --> 01:40:42,529
But I see that it is very convenient
for men
960
01:40:42,695 --> 01:40:45,778
to take, what is related to abortion,
straight female stuff.
961
01:40:45,945 --> 01:40:48,669
That way they have nothing to do with guilt
962
01:40:48,735 --> 01:40:50,095
and all those little things.
963
01:40:50,861 --> 01:40:53,445
But your other observation
it challenges me even more.
964
01:40:53,612 --> 01:40:56,945
You think my method
not worth discussing?
965
01:40:59,028 --> 01:41:02,611
What a pleasure I would have
let alone a young pregnant girl
966
01:41:02,778 --> 01:41:04,569
to hear all the gruesome details
967
01:41:04,736 --> 01:41:08,820
about how a fetus is removed
in a clinic or in any other way?
968
01:41:10,861 --> 01:41:12,653
ok then
we are back to the discussion
969
01:41:12,820 --> 01:41:15,361
to eat something
once he was alive.
970
01:41:15,528 --> 01:41:19,403
You really believe
that abortion is so repulsive
971
01:41:19,569 --> 01:41:21,153
if you believe
that we should know
972
01:41:21,319 --> 01:41:24,820
how the animals are slaughtered
to eat them?
973
01:41:24,986 --> 01:41:26,986
Well, that's a reality
we have to live with
974
01:41:27,152 --> 01:41:29,277
even if we try to repress it.
975
01:41:29,444 --> 01:41:30,861
Just like we do with abortion.
976
01:41:31,028 --> 01:41:33,861
Well, you are the echo
to pro-lifers in Texas.
977
01:41:35,569 --> 01:41:37,194
I don't really think so.
978
01:41:38,027 --> 01:41:40,736
First of all, I'm just
more of a pro-choice, like you.
979
01:41:40,902 --> 01:41:42,277
But basically,
980
01:41:42,444 --> 01:41:46,361
I think the taboos
they are harmful to human beings.
981
01:41:47,403 --> 01:41:50,194
It's a relatively easy attitude
for you to take on.
982
01:41:53,152 --> 01:41:56,236
One that can be misinterpreted,
right...
983
01:41:56,403 --> 01:41:59,236
argument
against termination of pregnancy.
984
01:42:01,528 --> 01:42:03,069
I don't want to depreciate anything,
985
01:42:03,236 --> 01:42:06,652
but I do not see your abortion
other than a...
986
01:42:07,902 --> 01:42:09,527
a luxury problem.
987
01:42:12,944 --> 01:42:15,111
A luxury problem?
988
01:42:15,277 --> 01:42:18,485
The really founded ones,
justified abortions,
989
01:42:18,652 --> 01:42:23,735
those that save lives,
away from our social spheres,
990
01:42:23,902 --> 01:42:25,668
you cannot endanger them
only you
991
01:42:25,735 --> 01:42:28,402
you insist defiantly
in showing the gory details.
992
01:42:29,735 --> 01:42:33,235
I have in mind
the millions of repressed women,
993
01:42:33,402 --> 01:42:37,944
victims of rape and incest...
of hunger.
994
01:42:38,110 --> 01:42:41,110
All of which,
maybe due to an abortion
995
01:42:41,276 --> 01:42:42,318
they regained a new life,
996
01:42:42,485 --> 01:42:46,318
maybe they saved a child
death by starvation.
997
01:42:46,485 --> 01:42:51,485
You can't harm them
because of a principled frankness.
998
01:42:54,652 --> 01:42:59,402
Fortunately, I managed to beat them
the fetus from the first attempt,
999
01:42:59,568 --> 01:43:01,360
but it rarely happens that way.
1000
01:43:01,527 --> 01:43:04,984
In the twelfth week,
head diameter
1001
01:43:05,151 --> 01:43:08,151
is slightly larger than 1.2 centimeters.
1002
01:43:08,318 --> 01:43:10,901
Therefore,
a very impressive instrument
1003
01:43:11,068 --> 01:43:12,943
was developed
by the medical community.
1004
01:43:13,110 --> 01:43:15,818
The nutcracker is a tool
1005
01:43:15,984 --> 01:43:19,776
which we use to shoot
with all the fetus in the womb.
1006
01:43:19,943 --> 01:43:24,151
We penetrate and dilate the uterine canal
1007
01:43:24,317 --> 01:43:26,734
and we position it around
of the fetus's head
1008
01:43:26,901 --> 01:43:29,984
and crack it like a nut,
1009
01:43:30,150 --> 01:43:32,859
then the fetus is removed
and the job is done.
1010
01:43:33,026 --> 01:43:35,609
This is the so-called nutcracker.
1011
01:43:35,776 --> 01:43:38,192
That's not something I need to know.
1012
01:43:39,526 --> 01:43:41,651
Oh, I hope you don't make it
1013
01:43:41,818 --> 01:43:45,692
an opponent of abortion from this.
1014
01:43:45,859 --> 01:43:49,317
No, but you have to think
to the outrage
1015
01:43:49,484 --> 01:43:52,401
brought to society knowing this.
1016
01:43:52,567 --> 01:43:56,317
So you say that people
they are generally too stupid
1017
01:43:56,484 --> 01:44:00,650
to make decisions
on an informational basis.
1018
01:44:00,817 --> 01:44:05,025
And this coming from a man
who, just an hour ago, preached
1019
01:44:05,192 --> 01:44:07,566
about his faith
in human qualities.
1020
01:44:07,733 --> 01:44:10,608
No, you... simplify things.
1021
01:44:10,775 --> 01:44:13,733
You can't look at it like that.
1022
01:44:13,900 --> 01:44:16,317
It's funny to see you
so moved all of a sudden.
1023
01:44:21,234 --> 01:44:23,733
Looking back,
and that kind of annoys me,
1024
01:44:23,900 --> 01:44:28,067
that I didn't show up
quiet and calm
1025
01:44:28,233 --> 01:44:31,608
at the psychologist's appointment
1026
01:44:31,775 --> 01:44:34,358
and have an abortion
under complete anesthesia.
1027
01:44:34,525 --> 01:44:37,983
It is certain that when you complete it,
1028
01:44:38,149 --> 01:44:40,817
the fetus feels nothing,
1029
01:44:40,983 --> 01:44:45,024
while my action, of course,
cause pain,
1030
01:44:45,191 --> 01:44:47,066
depending on how much consciousness
1031
01:44:47,233 --> 01:44:51,982
you want to assign
to a fetus of approximately 12 weeks.
1032
01:44:52,149 --> 01:44:54,691
I'm a little restless
of the approach to this subject,
1033
01:44:54,857 --> 01:44:57,149
like most abortions in the world,
1034
01:44:57,316 --> 01:44:59,274
due to lack of resources,
1035
01:44:59,441 --> 01:45:03,566
they are even done under local anesthesia
or not at all.
1036
01:45:05,607 --> 01:45:08,400
Well, you are a caring man.
1037
01:45:09,400 --> 01:45:13,565
Whether we're talking about abortion or not,
you can't escape death...
1038
01:45:13,732 --> 01:45:17,649
and my fetus could become
a good human being,
1039
01:45:17,816 --> 01:45:21,440
but one that would have died in the end.
1040
01:45:25,066 --> 01:45:27,482
What haunts me
is the ironic detail
1041
01:45:27,649 --> 01:45:30,440
that me and my father
we were snail collectors.
1042
01:45:33,690 --> 01:45:37,857
I had the deepest sympathy,
not to say sentimentality,
1043
01:45:38,024 --> 01:45:41,107
for the smallest creatures
from the planet
1044
01:45:41,273 --> 01:45:43,565
which we demonstrate
by saving snails,
1045
01:45:43,732 --> 01:45:47,232
many times, in passing be it said,
the same size as my fetus,
1046
01:45:47,399 --> 01:45:50,107
from certain death.
1047
01:45:50,273 --> 01:45:53,732
I was just doing that
when the other wasn't looking,
1048
01:45:53,898 --> 01:45:56,065
because it was a little embarrassing.
1049
01:45:57,440 --> 01:45:59,898
Do you collect snails?
1050
01:46:01,190 --> 01:46:02,856
No.
1051
01:46:04,731 --> 01:46:06,232
Are you sure you weren't collecting snails?
1052
01:46:06,399 --> 01:46:08,023
- Yes.
- Are you sure?
1053
01:46:08,190 --> 01:46:10,273
Yes.
1054
01:46:12,648 --> 01:46:16,523
- Shall we drop the subject?
- Yes, please.
1055
01:46:16,689 --> 01:46:18,773
Are you sure you don't want a little tour?
1056
01:46:18,940 --> 01:46:20,815
of technical details
1057
01:46:20,981 --> 01:46:23,648
about organ harvesting
for organ donation?
1058
01:46:23,815 --> 01:46:26,232
No thanks. i am fine
1059
01:46:28,898 --> 01:46:29,898
Where were we left?
1060
01:46:30,815 --> 01:46:34,898
I think that at...
when your boss sent you to a psychologist.
1061
01:46:35,065 --> 01:46:36,898
Yes, that's right.
1062
01:46:42,314 --> 01:46:44,856
- My name is Joe.
- Hi, Joe.
1063
01:46:45,022 --> 01:46:49,022
- And I'm a nymphomaniac.
- Dependent on sex.
1064
01:46:49,189 --> 01:46:51,773
my name is joe
and I'm a nymphomaniac.
1065
01:46:51,939 --> 01:46:55,314
We are addicted to sex.
Here, everyone is the same.
1066
01:47:00,064 --> 01:47:04,356
Renée, the last time
you told us you had a plan.
1067
01:47:04,523 --> 01:47:06,398
How did it go?
1068
01:47:06,564 --> 01:47:10,688
I thought I'd try something new,
that nothing had helped.
1069
01:47:12,189 --> 01:47:15,772
I was thinking that if I overdosed...
1070
01:47:15,939 --> 01:47:18,147
in other words,
if I did the exact opposite
1071
01:47:18,314 --> 01:47:20,647
with what I was trying to do here,
1072
01:47:20,814 --> 01:47:22,231
then I could get well.
1073
01:47:22,398 --> 01:47:24,855
That is, to function normally.
1074
01:47:25,022 --> 01:47:28,272
I had prepared all my work
very carefully
1075
01:47:28,438 --> 01:47:31,480
I sent my husband away
for the weekend
1076
01:47:31,647 --> 01:47:35,480
and I left the children in care.
1077
01:47:35,647 --> 01:47:37,647
It had to happen on Saturday.
1078
01:47:39,980 --> 01:47:45,063
I had... collected
phone numbers for a whole month
1079
01:47:45,230 --> 01:47:48,230
and back to coal.
1080
01:48:27,146 --> 01:48:30,437
They fucked me for about three hours.
1081
01:48:30,729 --> 01:48:33,729
And now how do you feel?
1082
01:48:33,896 --> 01:48:36,813
Well, I never feel good after...
I feel ashamed.
1083
01:48:37,896 --> 01:48:40,312
But in connection with...
with your addiction,
1084
01:48:40,479 --> 01:48:43,270
you feel relieved,
as you thought it would be?
1085
01:48:45,979 --> 01:48:47,145
No.
1086
01:48:48,646 --> 01:48:52,521
What should i do?
I'm ready to do what it takes.
1087
01:48:52,687 --> 01:48:55,521
Sex addiction
is very different from
1088
01:48:55,687 --> 01:48:58,312
say, drug or alcohol abuse,
1089
01:48:58,479 --> 01:49:01,062
because actually
you don't need such things.
1090
01:49:01,229 --> 01:49:03,354
These dependencies can be completely removed,
1091
01:49:03,521 --> 01:49:07,978
but drug or alcohol elimination
it's not that easy.
1092
01:49:08,145 --> 01:49:10,686
But the difference in sex addiction
1093
01:49:10,853 --> 01:49:13,937
is that everyone has a sexuality
1094
01:49:14,104 --> 01:49:16,686
as an integral part
of their personality.
1095
01:49:18,561 --> 01:49:23,728
If one could imagine
exterminating sexuality,
1096
01:49:23,895 --> 01:49:25,978
then you have to deal
with an extremely small person,
1097
01:49:26,145 --> 01:49:30,603
because... because sexuality
also includes tenderness,
1098
01:49:30,770 --> 01:49:34,270
contact, solidarity with others,
1099
01:49:34,436 --> 01:49:37,561
which would be hard to imagine
someone without another standard of living.
1100
01:49:39,187 --> 01:49:42,853
What you are saying is that no one
cannot eliminate his sexuality,
1101
01:49:43,020 --> 01:49:45,311
even being destructive for him.
1102
01:49:45,478 --> 01:49:47,353
I wouldn't say that nobody,
1103
01:49:47,520 --> 01:49:50,186
but let's say, at most,
one in a million
1104
01:49:50,353 --> 01:49:53,144
manages to live a life
without sexuality.
1105
01:49:53,311 --> 01:49:56,977
But you can't rely on your therapy
that one in a million.
1106
01:49:57,144 --> 01:50:00,561
No. The first
and the most important step
1107
01:50:00,728 --> 01:50:04,478
is to remove the incentive
and reduce exposure.
1108
01:50:06,103 --> 01:50:07,894
You have to ask yourself
1109
01:50:08,061 --> 01:50:11,103
what kind of incentives do you have?
and then make it harder for you
1110
01:50:11,269 --> 01:50:13,019
to come in contact with them.
1111
01:50:13,186 --> 01:50:17,061
Basically, whatever makes you
to think about sex.
1112
01:52:25,518 --> 01:52:27,683
Stop it.
1113
01:52:31,809 --> 01:52:34,892
Joe has something
what they would like to share.
1114
01:52:36,142 --> 01:52:38,558
- My name is Joe.
- Hello, Joe.
1115
01:52:38,725 --> 01:52:40,517
And I'm addicted to sex
1116
01:52:40,683 --> 01:52:44,975
but I haven't had sex
for three weeks and five days.
1117
01:52:48,184 --> 01:52:49,366
Tell us how you did it, Joe.
1118
01:52:49,433 --> 01:52:52,558
- Did you bring notes?
- Yes.
1119
01:52:57,892 --> 01:53:02,934
"My dear,
don't think it was easy
1120
01:53:03,100 --> 01:53:06,600
but i understand now
that we are all the same."
1121
01:53:21,642 --> 01:53:26,016
- Are you okay, Joe?
- Yes, yes.
1122
01:53:30,433 --> 01:53:32,392
Would you like a glass of water?
1123
01:53:35,100 --> 01:53:36,682
thank you
1124
01:53:45,432 --> 01:53:47,557
You want better
share with us another time?
1125
01:53:53,349 --> 01:53:55,724
No, I'd like to talk..
1126
01:54:00,766 --> 01:54:06,015
my dear,
don't think it was easy
1127
01:54:06,182 --> 01:54:08,391
but now i understand
1128
01:54:08,557 --> 01:54:12,557
that we are not
and we will never be the same.
1129
01:54:14,808 --> 01:54:19,516
I'm not like you
that you fuck to be validated
1130
01:54:19,682 --> 01:54:22,324
and you might as well give up
to get your cock inside you.
1131
01:54:22,391 --> 01:54:26,057
You've already taken the hit
a long time ago
1132
01:54:26,224 --> 01:54:28,807
when it turned out that someone
he was really bothered to fuck you.
1133
01:54:28,973 --> 01:54:30,848
And I'm not like you.
1134
01:54:31,015 --> 01:54:32,890
Swallow to death if you want.
1135
01:54:33,057 --> 01:54:35,140
I don't feel sorry for you.
1136
01:54:35,307 --> 01:54:37,015
All you want is to fill up,
1137
01:54:37,182 --> 01:54:42,182
and whether it is from a man
or from tons, the disgusting stain
1138
01:54:42,349 --> 01:54:44,265
makes no difference,
1139
01:54:44,431 --> 01:54:46,640
because everything is a pathetic attempt
1140
01:54:46,807 --> 01:54:49,723
to fill your own deafening void
1141
01:54:49,890 --> 01:54:54,723
and hide
ridiculous self-loathing.
1142
01:54:54,890 --> 01:54:57,390
And I'm certainly not like you.
1143
01:54:57,556 --> 01:55:01,723
This empathy, what you claim,
it's a lie,
1144
01:55:01,890 --> 01:55:05,932
because, after all, you are
the moral police of society,
1145
01:55:06,098 --> 01:55:11,223
whose duty it is to erase
obscenity on the face of the earth,
1146
01:55:11,390 --> 01:55:14,223
like the bourgeoisie
to stop feeling bad.
1147
01:55:17,431 --> 01:55:19,098
I'm not like you.
1148
01:55:20,306 --> 01:55:25,056
I am a nymphomaniac
and i love myself because i am like this
1149
01:55:25,223 --> 01:55:29,598
but, above all,
i love my pussy
1150
01:55:29,764 --> 01:55:32,889
and exposed,
my obscene debauchery.
1151
01:55:56,222 --> 01:55:58,347
What happened?
1152
01:55:58,514 --> 01:56:02,555
I didn't understand this
with the car that burned.
1153
01:56:02,722 --> 01:56:04,305
No, I'm sorry.
1154
01:56:04,472 --> 01:56:08,097
I was in too much of a hurry
to reach the last chapter.
1155
01:56:18,138 --> 01:56:20,138
It lights up.
1156
01:56:20,305 --> 01:56:22,930
how can you tell
1157
01:56:23,097 --> 01:56:25,846
Oh, it's...
it is only a slight coloring.
1158
01:56:26,013 --> 01:56:29,430
I know because I stayed here
so often at the moment.
1159
01:56:30,805 --> 01:56:33,138
You could say
that I developed my ability
1160
01:56:33,305 --> 01:56:37,097
to see the dawn before everyone.
1161
01:56:40,763 --> 01:56:43,596
Then you got it
what I mean when I say
1162
01:56:43,763 --> 01:56:48,013
that dusk appeared suddenly
at this point in my story.
1163
01:56:49,763 --> 01:56:53,388
I understood that that society
there was no place for me
1164
01:56:53,554 --> 01:56:58,097
and I had no place in society
and I never had.
1165
01:56:59,846 --> 01:57:02,137
It would have been much, much easier
1166
01:57:02,304 --> 01:57:04,554
to have realized this sooner,
1167
01:57:04,721 --> 01:57:07,888
but suddenly
1168
01:57:08,054 --> 01:57:10,805
my joints revealed themselves dramatically.
1169
01:57:12,638 --> 01:57:16,638
To pass from the respectable side
society's illumination
1170
01:57:16,805 --> 01:57:19,179
in the shadowy, nocturnal part
1171
01:57:20,054 --> 01:57:22,262
It was like changing camps
in a war.
1172
01:57:23,346 --> 01:57:25,804
you left your old army behind
1173
01:57:25,970 --> 01:57:29,346
and suddenly, in the next second,
you are swallowed by the new one.
1174
01:57:29,513 --> 01:57:31,887
There is no in between.
1175
01:57:45,970 --> 01:57:47,970
I'm sure it was
something natural for you
1176
01:57:48,137 --> 01:57:50,470
to give you the room,
like a cell monk,
1177
01:57:50,637 --> 01:57:55,137
but as inspiration
for story chapter titles,
1178
01:57:55,303 --> 01:57:57,428
it wasn't easy.
1179
01:57:57,595 --> 01:58:00,678
There is really nothing here
what would be useful to me.
1180
01:58:02,261 --> 01:58:04,261
Well, I'm sorry about that.
1181
01:58:05,595 --> 01:58:08,136
But if you allow me
I can give you a tip.
1182
01:58:09,512 --> 01:58:11,387
yes please
1183
01:58:11,553 --> 01:58:14,261
You know, I mostly deal with texts,
1184
01:58:14,428 --> 01:58:17,762
but sometimes the text can seem like...
1185
01:58:17,928 --> 01:58:21,804
so empty, so impenetrably empty.
1186
01:58:21,969 --> 01:58:25,928
It may be the best book,
of the most famous author.
1187
01:58:26,095 --> 01:58:29,720
The solution could be
change of point of view.
1188
01:58:31,428 --> 01:58:33,387
I... I didn't catch it.
1189
01:58:33,553 --> 01:58:38,719
The hidden things...
when they become familiar.
1190
01:58:38,886 --> 01:58:42,886
But if you look at them
from another angle,
1191
01:58:43,053 --> 01:58:45,844
could get
a new meaning.
1192
01:58:56,969 --> 01:58:58,261
You are right.
1193
01:58:59,427 --> 01:59:04,011
Before this was just the stain
from the tea I threw away.
1194
01:59:05,469 --> 01:59:08,135
Can you see what it could be?
1195
01:59:09,594 --> 01:59:10,928
A revolver!
1196
01:59:11,094 --> 01:59:14,636
No, the revolver has
a spinning drum.
1197
01:59:14,803 --> 01:59:16,803
It's a gun.
1198
01:59:16,969 --> 01:59:19,677
Can you see which one it would be?
1199
01:59:19,844 --> 01:59:22,968
No, I don't remember anything
like this from my bibliography.
1200
01:59:23,135 --> 01:59:25,552
Oh, but it's something
which reminds me of mine.
1201
01:59:25,719 --> 01:59:30,010
- Ian Fleming.
- It's not familiar.
1202
01:59:30,177 --> 01:59:33,427
If you haven't read it,
you haven't really read anything.
1203
01:59:34,802 --> 01:59:37,802
could be,
with a little imagination,
1204
01:59:37,968 --> 01:59:41,593
a Walther P.P.K. automatic,
1205
01:59:41,760 --> 01:59:44,010
same weapon
with which Bond shot,
1206
01:59:44,177 --> 01:59:47,593
after his favorite gun,
Beretta, it had jammed.
1207
01:59:49,386 --> 01:59:50,802
Is that something you used?
1208
01:59:52,760 --> 01:59:54,676
Oh... yes, it is.
1209
02:00:04,301 --> 02:00:08,802
Whether I left society,
whether society is on me, I can't say.
1210
02:00:08,968 --> 02:00:12,093
I suppose you could
argue for both sides.
1211
02:00:13,551 --> 02:00:15,551
I was on my way
towards the shaded side
1212
02:00:15,718 --> 02:00:19,093
of the debt collection business,
which, among others,
1213
02:00:19,259 --> 02:00:22,385
involves things like
burning people's cars.
1214
02:00:24,426 --> 02:00:28,343
I had known myself for a long time
with this man, L.
1215
02:00:33,635 --> 02:00:35,842
Hi, my name is Joe.
1216
02:00:36,009 --> 02:00:39,926
I know that. Enter.
1217
02:00:44,551 --> 02:00:46,510
I'm looking for a job.
1218
02:00:48,051 --> 02:00:49,468
I worked in an office
1219
02:00:49,634 --> 02:00:52,134
and I've never been
hello to that.
1220
02:00:52,301 --> 02:00:55,926
I can understand that.
So what's the matter?
1221
02:00:58,592 --> 02:01:02,384
I thought about you from time to time
and I was wondering when you would appear.
1222
02:01:06,051 --> 02:01:10,051
My lifestyle is relatively expensive
1223
02:01:11,884 --> 02:01:15,342
and I need the correct amount
and free time for a secondary occupation.
1224
02:01:15,509 --> 02:01:17,425
Of course.
I already know that.
1225
02:01:17,592 --> 02:01:20,467
I think I have it
some skills
1226
02:01:20,634 --> 02:01:22,884
and that I am quite unscrupulous
1227
02:01:23,050 --> 02:01:26,634
I know all about your qualifications
and they are excellent.
1228
02:01:26,801 --> 02:01:30,425
And you have already proven yourself to be unscrupulous
coming here
1229
02:01:33,008 --> 02:01:37,467
I would suggest
to start your own small business
1230
02:01:37,634 --> 02:01:39,509
with my help.
1231
02:01:39,675 --> 02:01:43,674
I understand
that you possess a great understanding
1232
02:01:43,841 --> 02:01:46,716
for a wide spectrum of men.
1233
02:01:48,050 --> 02:01:52,133
This could be...
or should be capitalized.
1234
02:01:52,300 --> 02:01:54,800
What should I do?
1235
02:01:54,966 --> 02:01:57,925
I facilitate certain tasks,
for my humble firm,
1236
02:01:58,092 --> 02:02:00,175
as part of the business
of debt collection.
1237
02:02:00,342 --> 02:02:02,841
In other words,
I need subcontractors
1238
02:02:03,008 --> 02:02:05,716
to put a moderate pressure
on individuals
1239
02:02:05,883 --> 02:02:09,800
from which my clients,
right or wrong, they have a rosbone
1240
02:02:09,966 --> 02:02:12,424
do you understand
- Jecmăneală.
1241
02:02:12,591 --> 02:02:14,383
Not. No, no, no, no.
1242
02:02:14,549 --> 02:02:19,299
I always prefer the term of
"debt collection."
1243
02:02:21,008 --> 02:02:22,674
- Yes.
- I refrain from judging
1244
02:02:22,841 --> 02:02:27,091
if the wishes of my clients
are they legit or not.
1245
02:02:27,257 --> 02:02:31,549
A point of view that strongly
I recommend you follow him.
1246
02:02:33,216 --> 02:02:38,383
I'm still not sure
what should i do
1247
02:02:38,549 --> 02:02:40,633
Well, you'll need two thugs
1248
02:02:40,799 --> 02:02:43,341
and I can think of two good ones.
1249
02:02:43,508 --> 02:02:48,049
Both have a lot of experience
and I can impress you with the ropes.
1250
02:02:49,174 --> 02:02:51,049
That's interesting.
1251
02:02:51,216 --> 02:02:54,216
It's not interesting at all.
1252
02:02:54,383 --> 02:02:56,632
The most interesting thing was
1253
02:02:56,799 --> 02:02:59,673
how easily I committed myself
myself to the crime.
1254
02:02:59,840 --> 02:03:02,049
My main qualification,
of course,
1255
02:03:02,216 --> 02:03:05,299
It was my considerable experience
with men and sex.
1256
02:03:05,465 --> 02:03:09,507
But also my special abilities
they were within reach.
1257
02:03:31,173 --> 02:03:35,048
No, this doesn't work.
1258
02:03:35,215 --> 02:03:37,548
You have to wait until you get hit.
1259
02:03:40,256 --> 02:03:43,964
The two aids that
he recommended them to me, they were good,
1260
02:03:44,131 --> 02:03:47,632
but they were actually prone to
to a repetitive technique,
1261
02:03:47,798 --> 02:03:51,589
which consists in producing
as much damage as possible
1262
02:03:51,756 --> 02:03:53,173
with a pair of iron bars.
1263
02:04:08,839 --> 02:04:13,173
Destroying your things does not seem to have
much effect on you.
1264
02:04:13,339 --> 02:04:14,798
The only thing
which deserves to be mentioned
1265
02:04:14,964 --> 02:04:17,172
from my first years as a collector
1266
02:04:17,339 --> 02:04:21,090
was the story of a
unusually frugal,
1267
02:04:21,255 --> 02:04:24,048
and for this vulnerable reason, man.
1268
02:04:24,214 --> 02:04:27,089
The dirt threatened to become public,
1269
02:04:27,255 --> 02:04:30,756
being part of
of my basic competence: sex.
1270
02:04:31,672 --> 02:04:36,255
But, once upon a time, he was a man
that it was impossible for me to read it sexually,
1271
02:04:36,422 --> 02:04:39,047
so I became persistent.
1272
02:04:39,214 --> 02:04:41,047
Tie it to the chair.
1273
02:04:42,714 --> 02:04:44,381
Don't hurt him.
1274
02:04:47,713 --> 02:04:49,963
I can't find a spot on you
1275
02:04:50,838 --> 02:04:53,797
but my experience tells me
that no man is immaculate.
1276
02:04:55,005 --> 02:04:59,005
Fortunately, you are equipped
with a very persistent detector of truth.
1277
02:05:09,588 --> 02:05:12,463
I will tell you some stories.
1278
02:05:12,630 --> 02:05:15,005
All you have to do is listen.
1279
02:05:17,047 --> 02:05:20,171
You are in a bar, watching a couple...
1280
02:05:20,338 --> 02:05:22,880
Immediately I passed meticulously
through the catalog
1281
02:05:23,047 --> 02:05:26,254
sexual deviations in fictional form.
1282
02:05:26,421 --> 02:05:29,338
Story about sadomasochism,
1283
02:05:29,505 --> 02:05:33,630
fetishism, homosexuality...
you also say...
1284
02:05:33,797 --> 02:05:35,505
But he was not reacting.
1285
02:05:35,671 --> 02:05:38,129
And I almost gave up,
when I said:
1286
02:05:38,296 --> 02:05:42,921
On your way home
you walk in the park
1287
02:05:47,671 --> 02:05:49,380
And something makes you stop.
1288
02:05:50,505 --> 02:05:52,338
You heard something.
1289
02:06:06,545 --> 02:06:08,254
Yes, that's it.
1290
02:06:08,420 --> 02:06:12,129
You can hear the children
on the playground.
1291
02:06:13,254 --> 02:06:17,712
You sit on a nearby bench
and you watch them play.
1292
02:06:17,879 --> 02:06:21,046
There's a little boy there, in shorts.
1293
02:06:22,420 --> 02:06:24,629
They play in the sand pit.
1294
02:06:26,629 --> 02:06:31,504
He looks at you
with his blue eyes.
1295
02:06:33,045 --> 02:06:34,754
He smiles at you.
1296
02:06:34,921 --> 02:06:37,128
I think it's coming to you.
1297
02:06:37,295 --> 02:06:42,420
It sits in your lap
and looks up at your face.
1298
02:06:43,087 --> 02:06:47,337
Say
that he wants to come home with you.
1299
02:06:51,504 --> 02:06:52,753
at home
1300
02:06:52,920 --> 02:06:56,212
You can't fight the idea
to be naked both.
1301
02:06:57,212 --> 02:06:59,669
He crawls over you.
1302
02:06:59,836 --> 02:07:01,462
You have an erection.
1303
02:07:01,628 --> 02:07:03,711
Won't you please stop?
1304
02:07:03,878 --> 02:07:06,628
He lies on his stomach.
1305
02:07:07,420 --> 02:07:10,253
You pull down his pants.
1306
02:07:10,419 --> 02:07:12,045
I will pay!
1307
02:07:44,419 --> 02:07:46,669
what did you do
1308
02:07:46,835 --> 02:07:48,586
I gave him a blowjob.
1309
02:07:48,753 --> 02:07:52,419
- What? To the pig?!
- I felt sorry for him.
1310
02:07:52,586 --> 02:07:53,919
Mercy?
1311
02:07:54,086 --> 02:07:57,586
Yes. I had just ruined his life.
1312
02:07:57,752 --> 02:08:01,919
No one knew his secret,
most likely not even him.
1313
02:08:03,127 --> 02:08:05,710
He sat there with his shame.
1314
02:08:05,877 --> 02:08:09,127
I think I sucked it
as a kind of forgiveness.
1315
02:08:09,294 --> 02:08:10,336
This is incredible.
1316
02:08:11,627 --> 02:08:14,502
No, listen to me.
That was a man who had succeeded
1317
02:08:14,668 --> 02:08:16,627
to suppress his desire,
1318
02:08:16,794 --> 02:08:21,919
which he had never followed,
until I forced him.
1319
02:08:22,086 --> 02:08:24,585
He had lived a life of denial
1320
02:08:24,752 --> 02:08:27,168
and never hurt a soul.
1321
02:08:27,335 --> 02:08:30,168
I think this is commendable.
1322
02:08:30,335 --> 02:08:31,377
No matter how hard I try,
1323
02:08:31,543 --> 02:08:34,126
I can't find anything commendable in pedophilia.
1324
02:08:34,293 --> 02:08:37,168
That's because you think
that's about five percent
1325
02:08:37,335 --> 02:08:39,752
which, in fact, hurt children.
1326
02:08:39,919 --> 02:08:44,668
The remaining 95 percent
they never live out their fantasies.
1327
02:08:44,835 --> 02:08:47,251
Think of their suffering.
1328
02:08:47,418 --> 02:08:52,335
Sexuality is the strongest force
in human beings.
1329
02:08:52,502 --> 02:08:57,335
To be born with a forbidden sexuality
it must be excruciating.
1330
02:08:57,502 --> 02:09:00,918
The successful pedophile
to go through life
1331
02:09:01,085 --> 02:09:03,168
with the shame of his desire
1332
02:09:03,335 --> 02:09:07,126
and never fails -
he deserves a damn medal.
1333
02:09:14,210 --> 02:09:17,834
The writer Thomas Mann said somewhere
1334
02:09:18,001 --> 02:09:20,085
to resist a temptation
1335
02:09:20,251 --> 02:09:24,542
it's not a sin...
but a test of virtue.
1336
02:09:28,292 --> 02:09:31,918
It wasn't something
about that writer and guys?
1337
02:09:32,085 --> 02:09:34,667
Yes, it was said.
1338
02:09:34,834 --> 02:09:38,001
I guess he took care of it
if he wrote
1339
02:09:38,167 --> 02:09:40,918
And he got a medal...
a Nobel Prize.
1340
02:09:45,417 --> 02:09:48,542
But there was another reason
of my sympathy,
1341
02:09:48,709 --> 02:09:51,042
which you will find
so mysterious.
1342
02:09:52,917 --> 02:09:56,917
I saw a man carrying
the same cross as me.
1343
02:09:59,542 --> 02:10:01,626
Loneliness.
1344
02:10:04,875 --> 02:10:07,625
We were both sexually outcasts.
1345
02:10:16,125 --> 02:10:18,125
In any case, a few years have passed,
1346
02:10:18,292 --> 02:10:21,250
while my business grew,
1347
02:10:21,416 --> 02:10:26,000
allowing me to increase
my anonymous submissions for Marcel.
1348
02:10:26,917 --> 02:10:30,458
Your business is great...
1349
02:10:30,625 --> 02:10:34,416
You have finished all the chores,
which I gave you, to perfection.
1350
02:10:34,583 --> 02:10:39,249
and I heard only words of praise
and from your customers, but...
1351
02:10:39,416 --> 02:10:42,333
- But what?
- We don't rejuvenate anymore.
1352
02:10:42,500 --> 02:10:46,541
No, that's for sure.
1353
02:10:46,708 --> 02:10:48,124
I think you will get, at this age,
1354
02:10:48,291 --> 02:10:50,291
to start thinking about a successor.
1355
02:10:50,458 --> 02:10:54,166
I don't need a goddamn successor.
1356
02:10:54,333 --> 02:10:55,999
Listen.
1357
02:10:56,166 --> 02:10:59,541
A person who should take
those crimes seriously.
1358
02:10:59,708 --> 02:11:02,832
You need someone
be your right hand,
1359
02:11:02,999 --> 02:11:06,832
someone to help you.
A crown princess.
1360
02:11:09,124 --> 02:11:12,375
The normal process is to find out
1361
02:11:12,540 --> 02:11:15,999
which colleagues are in prison,
or are addicted to drugs,
1362
02:11:16,166 --> 02:11:20,832
and thus unable to fulfill their
the role of parents.
1363
02:11:20,999 --> 02:11:25,332
Then you find out
where their children play football...
1364
02:11:25,499 --> 02:11:27,832
and you get involved.
1365
02:11:27,999 --> 02:11:29,707
You support them for a few years
1366
02:11:29,874 --> 02:11:33,332
no matter how old they are.
In fact, the more, the better.
1367
02:11:33,499 --> 02:11:37,457
Thus,
you gradually take the place of the father
1368
02:11:37,624 --> 02:11:41,374
until finally you have a loyal helper,
1369
02:11:41,540 --> 02:11:44,832
who will go through fire for you.
1370
02:11:44,998 --> 02:11:47,040
And you make time for yourself.
1371
02:11:50,791 --> 02:11:54,915
Sounds like a race
what do you suggest
1372
02:11:55,082 --> 02:11:58,540
A nasty race.
- Tell him what you want,
1373
02:11:58,707 --> 02:12:02,665
but if you totally believe
in the actions of a good parent,
1374
02:12:02,831 --> 02:12:05,748
that child will have
much greater opportunities with you
1375
02:12:05,915 --> 02:12:08,332
as a mentor, than without.
1376
02:12:08,499 --> 02:12:10,873
And since I like you,
1377
02:12:11,040 --> 02:12:14,873
I kept looking for a suitable topic.
1378
02:12:15,040 --> 02:12:20,332
He is 15 years old,
he is from a family of hardened criminals
1379
02:12:20,498 --> 02:12:22,831
and she's been through a lot too.
1380
02:12:22,998 --> 02:12:26,082
The last two years
was institutionalized.
1381
02:12:26,248 --> 02:12:28,790
Her father is in prison
and mother died of an overdose.
1382
02:12:28,956 --> 02:12:30,664
She's a smart girl.
1383
02:12:30,831 --> 02:12:32,748
And, although he doesn't play football,
1384
02:12:32,915 --> 02:12:35,706
plays basketball... very badly.
1385
02:12:36,956 --> 02:12:42,331
He chose a team sport
because she is alone.
1386
02:12:42,498 --> 02:12:45,498
I left the best for last:
1387
02:12:45,664 --> 02:12:48,623
his right ear is slightly deformed...
1388
02:12:48,790 --> 02:12:52,498
that is why she is very ashamed
1389
02:12:52,664 --> 02:12:55,664
and of course it serves even more
her isolation.
1390
02:12:55,831 --> 02:13:00,164
That makes her an easy target
for the smallest sign
1391
02:13:00,331 --> 02:13:05,081
attention
or a sign of empathy from you.
1392
02:13:09,039 --> 02:13:12,622
Despite my protests,
the clever de L. spoke thusto me
1393
02:13:12,789 --> 02:13:14,414
actually to look at P.
1394
02:13:17,206 --> 02:13:20,580
The more I looked
to the poor girl with the deformed ear,
1395
02:13:20,747 --> 02:13:23,955
I found it even more repulsive
the whole plan.
1396
02:13:50,872 --> 02:13:52,872
But, as I predicted,
1397
02:13:53,038 --> 02:13:58,705
meeting with P. filled me up
of pity and emotion.
1398
02:13:58,871 --> 02:14:00,580
And without wishing,
1399
02:14:00,747 --> 02:14:03,996
I found myself
week by week,
1400
02:14:04,163 --> 02:14:07,871
at her matches
supporting the poor player.
1401
02:14:22,913 --> 02:14:26,454
- Thank you for applauding me.
- With pleasure.
1402
02:14:26,621 --> 02:14:28,871
You played very well today.
1403
02:14:31,288 --> 02:14:33,954
- No, I didn't.
- Well, yes.
1404
02:14:34,121 --> 02:14:37,163
You have really improved
lately.
1405
02:14:48,662 --> 02:14:52,412
Sixteen years. Congratulations.
1406
02:14:52,579 --> 02:14:55,371
- Thank you.
- With pleasure.
1407
02:15:18,120 --> 02:15:19,661
I was proud to introduce P.
1408
02:15:19,828 --> 02:15:22,496
in my father's passion...
And in his world
1409
02:15:25,578 --> 02:15:27,371
I'm actually...
1410
02:15:28,828 --> 02:15:32,787
the souls of the trees
which we see in winter.
1411
02:15:39,204 --> 02:15:41,828
I think it shows
like the souls of men.
1412
02:15:45,912 --> 02:15:47,787
Yes, you are right.
1413
02:15:48,661 --> 02:15:51,411
They look like human souls.
1414
02:15:51,620 --> 02:15:54,828
Twisted souls, ordinary souls,
1415
02:15:54,994 --> 02:15:57,078
mad souls,
1416
02:15:57,244 --> 02:16:00,911
everything depending on the way of life
carried by human beings.
1417
02:16:03,787 --> 02:16:08,203
Then this must be it
Miss Williamson from number 21.
1418
02:16:08,370 --> 02:16:10,869
It's not very nice to say that
about Miss Williamson.
1419
02:16:11,036 --> 02:16:14,578
But she is always angry.
He has a monster in his belly.
1420
02:16:14,744 --> 02:16:17,286
Well, she has a stomach ulcer,
1421
02:16:17,453 --> 02:16:19,161
which I treated
in the last 15 years.
1422
02:16:21,702 --> 02:16:24,119
And sure enough,
in one of the following days
1423
02:16:24,286 --> 02:16:26,535
my father dragged me
again in the forest.
1424
02:16:26,702 --> 02:16:30,494
I found my tree
the tree of my soul.
1425
02:16:32,827 --> 02:16:38,577
And no, it's not that one. Okay?
Because then I would be dead.
1426
02:16:40,494 --> 02:16:42,702
This is my tree.
1427
02:16:46,078 --> 02:16:50,202
- It's not an ash tree.
- No, it's an oak tree
1428
02:16:53,410 --> 02:16:55,285
It has two trunks.
1429
02:16:55,452 --> 02:16:58,660
Yeah, isn't that great?
1430
02:16:58,827 --> 02:17:04,035
It shows both sides,
the lake and the forest.
1431
02:17:14,035 --> 02:17:18,327
But, father, how is he doing?
should a tree have two trunks?
1432
02:17:19,951 --> 02:17:23,910
The most common reason
is that the tip has broken
1433
02:17:24,077 --> 02:17:25,951
when he was very young.
1434
02:17:26,118 --> 02:17:29,951
That means
that you were once broken.
1435
02:17:30,118 --> 02:17:32,160
were you dad
1436
02:17:38,368 --> 02:17:41,576
It seems rather
that this is revealing...
1437
02:17:43,035 --> 02:17:45,326
to find your soul tree.
1438
02:17:49,326 --> 02:17:54,951
Dad had found his soul tree,
but I... I never found it.
1439
02:17:55,493 --> 02:18:00,659
"You'll know it when you see it,"
that's what he was saying.
1440
02:18:07,242 --> 02:18:13,076
Kitchen and living room.
And here...
1441
02:18:14,909 --> 02:18:17,242
When P reached the age of majority
1442
02:18:17,409 --> 02:18:19,700
and I became her personal advisor,
1443
02:18:19,867 --> 02:18:22,368
I asked him to move in with me.
1444
02:18:30,784 --> 02:18:33,533
Let me see you with your hair up.
1445
02:18:33,700 --> 02:18:36,201
You are so pretty.
1446
02:18:48,241 --> 02:18:51,950
All this time, all of it
my sexual activity had stopped.
1447
02:18:52,117 --> 02:18:56,658
My bowels were in great distress,
they had not recovered from my abuse,
1448
02:18:56,825 --> 02:18:59,658
and they made even masturbation impossible.
1449
02:19:03,909 --> 02:19:07,200
I lived the clears
symptoms of abstinence:
1450
02:19:07,367 --> 02:19:09,325
fever and cramps.
1451
02:19:34,283 --> 02:19:36,033
Joe, what's going on?
1452
02:19:38,241 --> 02:19:41,033
- Be careful.
- We have to clean up here.
1453
02:19:49,908 --> 02:19:52,866
I have this sometimes.
1454
02:19:56,199 --> 02:19:58,699
It's good, it's good.
1455
02:20:02,783 --> 02:20:05,282
Do you want to go back to bed?
1456
02:20:07,282 --> 02:20:09,491
Yes. Yes, yes.
1457
02:20:25,616 --> 02:20:27,491
i love you joe
1458
02:20:27,656 --> 02:20:29,407
i love you too
1459
02:20:30,823 --> 02:20:33,157
I don't mean it like that.
1460
02:20:36,199 --> 02:20:39,615
Come on, it's late.
You should go back to bed.
1461
02:20:41,157 --> 02:20:42,199
Good night.
1462
02:20:45,074 --> 02:20:47,490
Perhaps, indeed,
she loved you.
1463
02:20:51,573 --> 02:20:54,948
She was so young.
1464
02:20:55,115 --> 02:20:59,406
Maybe she had discovered her pussy too
at two years.
1465
02:20:59,573 --> 02:21:01,698
Maybe sooner.
1466
02:21:01,865 --> 02:21:03,406
I couldn't accept that.
1467
02:21:03,573 --> 02:21:07,365
Maybe you
you really wanted it to be true.
1468
02:21:09,448 --> 02:21:11,114
Maybe I hoped for it.
1469
02:21:11,281 --> 02:21:14,615
It's very moving, everything related to P.
1470
02:21:16,823 --> 02:21:20,406
Then it is possible
that you got the whole thing wrong.
1471
02:21:20,573 --> 02:21:24,073
Let's finish the story
and are we done?
1472
02:21:52,198 --> 02:21:54,238
No...
1473
02:21:55,447 --> 02:21:57,530
i want to see you
1474
02:21:57,697 --> 02:21:58,697
- No.
- Why?
1475
02:21:58,864 --> 02:22:00,322
- Please no.
- Why not?
1476
02:22:00,489 --> 02:22:04,031
Not. No, I have a scar.
1477
02:22:04,197 --> 02:22:06,197
- I have a scar.
- It doesn't matter.
1478
02:22:06,364 --> 02:22:10,238
No, you don't understand.
I have this, by ear.
1479
02:22:10,405 --> 02:22:13,072
I am so ashamed.
1480
02:22:49,404 --> 02:22:51,488
do you like me
1481
02:22:55,072 --> 02:22:57,072
You are so beautiful...
1482
02:24:34,653 --> 02:24:37,403
There's a thing here
which I don't understand.
1483
02:24:38,236 --> 02:24:40,944
Did she know what you did for a living?
1484
02:24:41,111 --> 02:24:46,278
P. was very discreet
and a girl who spoke little.
1485
02:24:47,778 --> 02:24:50,070
Curiously, even though I was working odd hours,
1486
02:24:50,236 --> 02:24:52,111
she never asked me
about my work
1487
02:24:53,861 --> 02:24:56,694
But one day, he asked a question.
1488
02:24:58,319 --> 02:24:59,944
Joe.
1489
02:25:04,986 --> 02:25:08,819
Why did you start coming?
at my basketball games?
1490
02:25:10,903 --> 02:25:13,569
It wasn't a coincidence, was it?
1491
02:25:19,152 --> 02:25:22,110
No, it wasn't a coincidence.
1492
02:25:25,902 --> 02:25:28,569
I didn't tell you because...
1493
02:25:28,736 --> 02:25:31,736
I thought you were upset...
1494
02:25:33,110 --> 02:25:35,985
and you would have been angry with me.
1495
02:25:36,152 --> 02:25:38,651
I will not be angry.
1496
02:25:43,194 --> 02:25:45,319
What do I do...
1497
02:25:46,860 --> 02:25:49,526
My job is not a normal job.
1498
02:25:49,693 --> 02:25:51,818
It's not legal.
1499
02:25:51,985 --> 02:25:54,860
No one in my family
he was doing something legal.
1500
02:26:00,526 --> 02:26:04,943
A man, who helped me in my business,
suggested me to follow you.
1501
02:26:07,860 --> 02:26:12,151
The plan was that I...
i had to follow you
1502
02:26:12,318 --> 02:26:16,610
to see if one day
I could use you in my work.
1503
02:26:16,777 --> 02:26:19,735
I had to make friends with you
1504
02:26:19,902 --> 02:26:23,109
because i knew
that you have no mother or father.
1505
02:26:23,276 --> 02:26:25,109
What's wrong with that?
1506
02:26:25,276 --> 02:26:28,859
Don't you see what a damned plan it was?
1507
02:26:29,026 --> 02:26:32,735
I felt terrible.
- I shouldn't have.
1508
02:26:32,901 --> 02:26:34,859
Why not?
1509
02:26:37,651 --> 02:26:40,068
Because if you didn't...
1510
02:26:42,026 --> 02:26:44,276
we never met.
1511
02:26:49,068 --> 02:26:53,276
I would like to go to work with you
next time.
1512
02:26:53,442 --> 02:26:54,859
Not.
1513
02:27:03,901 --> 02:27:05,442
Are you going to think about it?
1514
02:27:05,609 --> 02:27:06,984
- No.
- Yes.
1515
02:27:07,151 --> 02:27:08,193
- No.
- Yes.
1516
02:27:08,609 --> 02:27:11,525
He didn't take it as an answer.
1517
02:27:11,692 --> 02:27:13,942
No, of course not.
1518
02:27:14,109 --> 02:27:17,525
How to keep a wave on the sand?
1519
02:27:19,817 --> 02:27:25,317
And in the throes of love,
I was thin and I didn't match her.
1520
02:27:28,400 --> 02:27:32,025
At the risk of being too clever
for me
1521
02:27:32,192 --> 02:27:36,650
social heritage
it is an irrefutable fact.
1522
02:27:38,025 --> 02:27:42,275
If one knew the laws of the street,
P. must have been.
1523
02:27:43,484 --> 02:27:47,192
You are more right than you know.
1524
02:28:07,233 --> 02:28:09,649
- Let's shoot the bastard.
- No, no!
1525
02:28:09,816 --> 02:28:12,941
Wait! Wait!
1526
02:28:16,316 --> 02:28:18,691
We do not use firearms.
1527
02:28:19,858 --> 02:28:23,649
I wish I had a gun.
- - And the others have weapons.
1528
02:28:25,107 --> 02:28:26,649
Well I didn't know
1529
02:28:26,816 --> 02:28:29,332
but, in any case, you won't have one.
1530
02:28:29,858 --> 02:28:31,524
Yes, weapons are not dangerous.
1531
02:28:31,691 --> 02:28:34,107
It depends on how you use them.
1532
02:28:34,274 --> 02:28:35,733
Yes, exactly.
1533
02:28:35,899 --> 02:28:37,399
I wasn't going to shoot him.
1534
02:28:38,441 --> 02:28:40,608
I wasn't pulling out
no money from him like that.
1535
02:28:40,774 --> 02:28:42,649
Can I have the gun?
1536
02:28:47,274 --> 02:28:48,982
thank you
1537
02:29:08,523 --> 02:29:10,565
you are bad
1538
02:29:14,565 --> 02:29:18,648
And now I'm afraid
that one of those coincidences,
1539
02:29:18,815 --> 02:29:23,982
that tormented you, it happened to you
with a very special person.
1540
02:29:25,231 --> 02:29:27,899
It was P.'s job to take us to the debtors,
1541
02:29:28,065 --> 02:29:30,148
and until I see the name on the door,
1542
02:29:30,315 --> 02:29:32,690
I had no idea
at whose house we are.
1543
02:29:35,065 --> 02:29:39,523
This is Acer siccharium.
1544
02:29:39,690 --> 02:29:42,106
- Saccharinum.
- Saccharinum, yes, that.
1545
02:29:42,273 --> 02:29:43,440
That's what I said.
1546
02:29:52,565 --> 02:29:54,398
Are you sure this is the right place?
1547
02:29:54,564 --> 02:29:55,614
Yes.
1548
02:30:02,398 --> 02:30:08,065
I thought maybe it was time...
to do it on your account.
1549
02:30:08,981 --> 02:30:10,273
Yes?
1550
02:30:12,190 --> 02:30:15,190
Thanks, Joe.
- I don't want anything destroyed
1551
02:30:16,148 --> 02:30:18,439
and I don't want anyone hurt.
1552
02:30:18,606 --> 02:30:23,856
okay? You're just showing off
and offer him a reasonable payment plan.
1553
02:30:24,023 --> 02:30:28,647
If you say so...
sure i will do so.
1554
02:30:43,897 --> 02:30:46,481
If the feeling, when
I saw Jerome again, it was love
1555
02:30:46,647 --> 02:30:48,272
I couldn't say.
1556
02:30:51,230 --> 02:30:53,813
But it was a feeling...
1557
02:30:53,980 --> 02:30:56,688
and it was much stronger than I liked.
1558
02:31:07,897 --> 02:31:11,813
Actually, I was coming home
on the alley here.
1559
02:31:11,980 --> 02:31:14,271
Your two neighborhoods
they are totally different,
1560
02:31:14,438 --> 02:31:17,813
but so close
that the shortest way
1561
02:31:17,980 --> 02:31:21,980
from Jerome's house to the center
it was through the alley.
1562
02:31:28,938 --> 02:31:30,938
Hello!
1563
02:31:31,104 --> 02:31:34,979
- How did it go?
- Brilliant.
1564
02:31:35,146 --> 02:31:38,271
Yes, really good.
1565
02:31:38,438 --> 02:31:41,021
I made a reasonable payment plan,
as you told me.
1566
02:31:41,188 --> 02:31:46,063
- What does he look like?
- Scared.
1567
02:31:46,229 --> 02:31:48,605
Why does she look so old?
1568
02:31:48,771 --> 02:31:52,104
I don't know. Old?
1569
02:32:11,937 --> 02:32:15,687
Jerome paid off his debt
in six payments.
1570
02:32:15,854 --> 02:32:18,604
Every time P. walked
to Jerome to collect,
1571
02:32:18,771 --> 02:32:23,520
we were walking there restlessly
until she returned home.
1572
02:32:25,812 --> 02:32:29,103
I really had to look for the old ones
mother's solitaire cards
1573
02:32:29,270 --> 02:32:32,312
to make the hours pass.
1574
02:32:39,729 --> 02:32:41,604
Every night I was more restless
1575
02:32:41,771 --> 02:32:44,812
of her coming home
than last night.
1576
02:32:44,978 --> 02:32:48,228
The question if jealousy
it's the fear of sharing
1577
02:32:48,395 --> 02:32:51,687
or fear of losing,
I was less interested.
1578
02:32:51,853 --> 02:32:54,978
But, yes, it was a fact
this unworthy feeling
1579
02:32:55,145 --> 02:32:59,853
I had managed to suppress it for so long,
that it leaked out of me.
1580
02:33:02,686 --> 02:33:05,437
In the evening
when he collects the last payment,
1581
02:33:05,603 --> 02:33:07,437
he didn't kiss me.
1582
02:33:07,603 --> 02:33:09,936
I took it as negligence,
1583
02:33:10,103 --> 02:33:14,020
but the hours passed
and she wasn't coming back.
1584
02:33:21,103 --> 02:33:26,311
Every time I saw headlights,
I thought it was P driving home.
1585
02:34:24,852 --> 02:34:26,935
So, the next morning,
I made a road
1586
02:34:27,102 --> 02:34:30,268
to the molcome hills,
just outside the city,
1587
02:34:30,435 --> 02:34:33,810
which I had visited with the school
when I was 12,
1588
02:34:33,977 --> 02:34:37,435
to say a symbolic goodbye.
1589
02:34:41,060 --> 02:34:43,769
I decided to run away.
1590
02:34:43,934 --> 02:34:48,435
I couldn't stay in this town,
with her and him.
1591
02:34:48,602 --> 02:34:52,893
I had cowardly made a plan to escape
and take it to the south.
1592
02:34:53,060 --> 02:34:54,393
Like there was an ice age...
1593
02:34:54,560 --> 02:34:57,726
I didn't have the courage to go back
and to face them.
1594
02:34:58,893 --> 02:35:03,101
But it was a sad goodbye
and strangely unsatisfying.
1595
02:35:03,268 --> 02:35:07,226
And something was calling me
to go up to the mountains.
1596
02:36:30,767 --> 02:36:33,350
I understand dictators
who commit crimes.
1597
02:36:36,308 --> 02:36:39,183
what was hitler
when it all comes down to it,
1598
02:36:39,350 --> 02:36:43,350
other than a man
to whom society gave free rein?
1599
02:36:45,892 --> 02:36:49,183
Well, that was it
just what we were missing.
1600
02:36:49,350 --> 02:36:53,183
You understand racists,
you have a weakness for pedophiles
1601
02:36:53,350 --> 02:36:56,266
and of course
now at the finish line
1602
02:36:56,433 --> 02:36:58,183
you have to... sympathize
1603
02:36:58,350 --> 02:37:00,974
with the biggest killer in the crowd
of history.
1604
02:37:01,141 --> 02:37:03,391
What I want is...
1605
02:37:05,058 --> 02:37:07,600
They say it would be difficult
to take someone's life.
1606
02:37:07,766 --> 02:37:11,640
I would say
that it is much more difficult not to,
1607
02:37:11,807 --> 02:37:15,599
when, as a dictator
or like me,
1608
02:37:15,766 --> 02:37:18,141
you have nothing to lose.
1609
02:37:20,474 --> 02:37:21,724
For a human being,
1610
02:37:21,891 --> 02:37:25,099
killing is the most natural
thing in the world.
1611
02:37:25,266 --> 02:37:27,515
We are made for it.
1612
02:37:29,974 --> 02:37:31,640
Wonderful.
1613
02:38:22,349 --> 02:38:23,890
No, take it out!
1614
02:38:34,098 --> 02:38:36,264
Catching the fireman.
1615
02:42:22,261 --> 02:42:26,802
fill all my holes
please
1616
02:42:51,469 --> 02:42:54,218
I still don't know why
the gun did not fire.
1617
02:42:54,385 --> 02:42:58,886
I checked, to make sure,
that there were bullets in the magazine.
1618
02:42:59,052 --> 02:43:01,719
A simple nuisance,
1619
02:43:01,886 --> 02:43:04,469
like Bond's Beretta.
1620
02:43:04,635 --> 02:43:07,719
I think I know enough to say
that even if you had bullets
1621
02:43:07,885 --> 02:43:09,885
in the shed of that Walther P.P.K.,
1622
02:43:10,052 --> 02:43:13,552
if you had pulled the fuse...
1623
02:43:13,719 --> 02:43:16,469
you can't shoot
until you cock the gun.
1624
02:43:17,427 --> 02:43:19,801
Pull and release
1625
02:43:19,968 --> 02:43:22,218
sliding mechanism.
1626
02:43:22,385 --> 02:43:24,427
And P. didn't do it because,
as she said
1627
02:43:24,593 --> 02:43:27,218
he didn't intend to
to shoot the man.
1628
02:43:29,385 --> 02:43:32,385
I don't know about Bond,
but i suppose it should be obvious
1629
02:43:32,551 --> 02:43:34,052
from his books and movies,
1630
02:43:34,218 --> 02:43:38,509
that you had to arm
an automatic pistol.
1631
02:43:39,801 --> 02:43:41,509
Of course you are right...
1632
02:43:42,509 --> 02:43:46,177
I saw this in the movies
a thousand times.
1633
02:43:51,093 --> 02:43:52,259
It's morning.
1634
02:43:54,885 --> 02:43:58,509
The snow is gone.
- So the sun must rise?
1635
02:43:59,718 --> 02:44:01,634
Yes, it's sunny.
1636
02:44:02,967 --> 02:44:04,925
How can you see it?
1637
02:44:05,967 --> 02:44:10,551
This alley is located in such a way
you never get sunlight here
1638
02:44:10,718 --> 02:44:15,217
but i can see a little reflection
on the building beyond.
1639
02:44:21,967 --> 02:44:25,759
I have never been able to understand
where does it come from
1640
02:44:26,551 --> 02:44:31,468
There must be some interaction
between windows, towers
1641
02:44:31,633 --> 02:44:34,759
and tall buildings.
1642
02:44:37,384 --> 02:44:42,508
It's not long and your sun is here
to take my place
1643
02:44:46,633 --> 02:44:48,383
It's wonderful.
1644
02:44:58,550 --> 02:44:59,759
In the beginning,
1645
02:44:59,925 --> 02:45:01,759
you said that your only sin
1646
02:45:01,925 --> 02:45:05,091
was that you asked too much
the sunset.
1647
02:45:06,675 --> 02:45:10,633
I mean, I suppose you asked from life
more than you deserved.
1648
02:45:13,342 --> 02:45:17,050
You were a human being
who demanded your rights.
1649
02:45:17,216 --> 02:45:18,758
And, more,
1650
02:45:18,924 --> 02:45:22,300
You were a woman
demanding her rights.
1651
02:45:25,592 --> 02:45:28,300
Maybe that forgives everything?
1652
02:45:29,674 --> 02:45:33,758
Do you think that if two men
he would have gone to the train, looking for women,
1653
02:45:34,507 --> 02:45:37,674
you think that someone
he at least raised his eyebrow,
1654
02:45:37,883 --> 02:45:40,716
or that a man was leading your life?
1655
02:45:42,382 --> 02:45:46,966
And the story about Mrs. H.
it would have been extremely banal
1656
02:45:47,133 --> 02:45:48,466
if you were a man.
1657
02:45:49,674 --> 02:45:52,215
And your conqueror
she was a woman.
1658
02:45:53,215 --> 02:45:57,841
When a man leaves his children
because of desire,
1659
02:45:58,507 --> 02:46:01,299
we accept with a shrug,
but you, as a woman,
1660
02:46:01,758 --> 02:46:04,215
you had to take... the blame,
1661
02:46:04,549 --> 02:46:06,965
the burden of guilt,
which can never be mitigated.
1662
02:46:10,965 --> 02:46:14,424
Your abortion was legal,
but more than anything else,
1663
02:46:14,591 --> 02:46:18,591
it was your self-imposed punishment.
1664
02:46:19,716 --> 02:46:22,965
And all as all,
all the opprobrium and blame
1665
02:46:23,132 --> 02:46:25,673
in which you have entangled in years,
they were too much for you
1666
02:46:25,840 --> 02:46:27,840
and you reacted aggressively...
1667
02:46:28,007 --> 02:46:31,007
almost manly, I must say...
and you gave back.
1668
02:46:32,299 --> 02:46:33,773
You fought against your kind,
1669
02:46:33,840 --> 02:46:37,965
that was stressful
and maims and kills you
1670
02:46:38,132 --> 02:46:42,631
and billions of women,
in the name of religion or ethics,
1671
02:46:42,798 --> 02:46:46,049
or God knows why.
1672
02:46:49,090 --> 02:46:52,007
But I wanted to kill a human being.
1673
02:46:55,423 --> 02:46:57,423
No.
1674
02:46:59,381 --> 02:47:01,798
Because of a random event.
1675
02:47:01,965 --> 02:47:04,007
You call it a random event,
1676
02:47:05,506 --> 02:47:08,298
I call this subconscious resistance.
1677
02:47:08,465 --> 02:47:10,715
Apparently you wanted to kill
1678
02:47:11,548 --> 02:47:13,964
but deep down,
you glorified human value,
1679
02:47:15,006 --> 02:47:16,715
a veil of oblivion
1680
02:47:16,881 --> 02:47:21,381
draping your science
to shoot the gun.
1681
02:47:23,756 --> 02:47:26,048
Although this all sounds awfully close,
1682
02:47:26,214 --> 02:47:29,173
according to the clichés of our time...
1683
02:47:29,340 --> 02:47:34,298
I'm also prone to it
to knock on the hollows of your arguments...
1684
02:47:35,964 --> 02:47:38,131
I'm too tired.
1685
02:47:38,298 --> 02:47:39,589
Well, that's good.
1686
02:47:43,173 --> 02:47:45,214
why don't you lie down
1687
02:47:47,505 --> 02:47:49,298
Yes.
1688
02:48:00,630 --> 02:48:03,297
Let me tell you more
that telling me the story,
1689
02:48:04,339 --> 02:48:07,339
at your insistence... or your permission...
1690
02:48:09,213 --> 02:48:11,839
brought me relief.
1691
02:48:13,297 --> 02:48:19,088
at this moment
my addiction is very clear to me...
1692
02:48:21,464 --> 02:48:23,380
And I came to a decision.
1693
02:48:25,921 --> 02:48:32,630
Even if only one in a million,
as my dubious therapist used to say,
1694
02:48:33,880 --> 02:48:38,088
succeed mentally...
1695
02:48:38,255 --> 02:48:40,464
bodily...
1696
02:48:40,629 --> 02:48:42,838
and in her heart
1697
02:48:43,005 --> 02:48:48,172
to get rid of his own sexuality...
1698
02:48:48,339 --> 02:48:50,880
That's my goal now.
1699
02:48:51,629 --> 02:48:54,588
But is it a life worth living?
1700
02:48:57,338 --> 02:49:00,338
It's the only way I can live it.
1701
02:49:04,171 --> 02:49:07,963
I will rise against all odds...
1702
02:49:12,588 --> 02:49:16,004
like the crooked tree on the hill.
1703
02:49:24,087 --> 02:49:28,588
I will collect myself
all stubbornness...
1704
02:49:32,087 --> 02:49:34,254
my strength...
1705
02:49:36,421 --> 02:49:39,171
my masculine aggression.
1706
02:49:41,463 --> 02:49:45,046
But, above all,
I want to thank you
1707
02:49:45,212 --> 02:49:49,837
for the new and maybe
my first friend.
1708
02:49:50,004 --> 02:49:52,879
Thank you Seligman...
1709
02:49:54,545 --> 02:49:57,920
who can be happy
when all is said and done.
1710
02:50:05,004 --> 02:50:07,587
I'm happy anyway
1711
02:50:07,754 --> 02:50:09,837
that the shooting did not go off,
1712
02:50:10,004 --> 02:50:12,754
make me a killer.
1713
02:50:18,378 --> 02:50:21,211
if possible
i would like to sleep now
1714
02:50:25,253 --> 02:50:27,878
I will make sure
that you will not be disturbed.
1715
02:50:30,878 --> 02:50:34,086
and when you wake up
maybe we could
1716
02:50:34,253 --> 02:50:37,337
talk about your future
if you want.
1717
02:50:46,170 --> 02:50:49,586
in your new life
1718
02:50:49,753 --> 02:50:52,461
will you consider looking for your son?
1719
02:50:55,295 --> 02:50:57,295
It is possible.
1720
02:51:01,627 --> 02:51:03,711
Good night, Joe.
1721
02:51:05,086 --> 02:51:06,961
Good night, Seligman.
1722
02:52:47,084 --> 02:52:48,792
No!
1723
02:52:51,126 --> 02:52:53,876
But you...
you fucked thousands of men.
1724
02:52:53,900 --> 02:52:55,900