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[ominous music]

2
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[bells chiming]

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[upbeat music]

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[dramatic instrumental music]

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- [Benji] I think we should
skip right to the fucking end.

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[pencil scratching]

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Here I am in the
local cruising ground.

8
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No, I'm not about
to get noshed off.

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I'm about to get dumped.

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- I'm calling it a day, mate.

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Like, I can't do this anymore.

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Fuck you!

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Calm down.

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You're having a good time.

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You weren't
complaining at the time

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when I was paying for all your
fucking holidays were you?

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You were looking forward to
be sitting here right now.

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You're lucky to have spent
time with me for that time.

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Like, just be thankful
for that time at least.

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Spiteful face fucking you're
overstepping the boundary

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and that's it. That's
the fucking end.

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[dramatic music]
- [Benji] I really wish

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that was the fucking end.

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[melancholy music]

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- [Jake] You had a
good run. Fuck off.

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[Benji screaming]

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[melancholy rock music]
[phone ringing]

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- And even though
it's been like, what,

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three months?

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Still fucking hurts. [coughs]

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Sorry that I sent you all them
fucked up messages last night

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I ended up getting
really fucked.

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I'm sorry, I didn't mean that.

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I fucking love you.

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I fucking absolutely love you.

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You're a fucking prick.

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We don't have to have dinner,

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we can just meet up
and we can just fuck.

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Like I'm not even hard.

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Just really fucking struggling
with it all at the minute.

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Really, really sorry.

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[melancholy music]

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This is the fifth guy that
I've had round this week.

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[The Dom sniffing]

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The Dom.
[lively instrumental music]

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Rough and ready.

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He also works at my
local supermarket

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and he lives with his
elderly mum, Joanne.

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- [Joanne] Hi dear.
- [Benji] She's dead sweet.

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- All right, all right.

51
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Do you like poppers?

52
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- Yeah.
- Do you?

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- Yeah.
- Sniff that one.

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[Benji sniffing]

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How open are you now?

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Do you like being fucking open?

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Yeah you do. [spits]

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There you are.

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- [Benji] Have you ever thought,

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how the fuck did I end up here?

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Now, this moment here
[kids laughing]

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is the first time I remember

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getting really,
really turned on.

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- That's it, yeah. [panting]

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Fucking smell that.

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Fucking yeah.

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- [Benji] It is
gonna be so awkward

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when I buy milk off
him in the morning.

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[Dom smacking]
[bell dinging]

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- [Mum] Are you just
gonna play with that

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or are you gonna eat it?

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- I feel sick.

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- Oh, come on.

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I made that from
scratch, darling.

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[sighs] Look at
the state of you.

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Is this you now?

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This is it?

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- My mum.
[upbeat music]

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She wasn't perfect...

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- But do you know what?

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It would've been so
much fucking easier

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if you were just with a bird.

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Do you know what I mean?

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Look at ya.

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Jesus Christ.

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I thought we could
have fun together,

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but I want a happy gay.

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I'm giving you advice.

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I'm telling you not to go
out drinking every night

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and you are.

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So if you're not
gonna listen to me,

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you are not moving in.

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- [Benji] She's way better
than she used to be.

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- I wanted a fucking
grandkids. That's all.

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But oh no!

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Old fucking selfish
faggot chops.

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Listening in are ya?

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Fucking poof.

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What about AIDs?

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I did not say that.

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I would never say that.

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- You did.

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- Are you seeing your
mate Daniel recently?

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- [Benji] Daniel from
year 11 at school?

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No, I've not.
- Yeah.

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He just moved in
with his misses.

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Look at him. He's doing
really well for himself.

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And look at you.

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State of it.

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- You know he is
fruity don't you?

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- Fruity?
- Fruity.

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- What?

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- What do you think we were
doing upstairs in the bedroom

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when we were kids?

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- [Mum] Are you
actually kidding me?

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[upbeat music]

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- [Benji] Did you ever
have that mate in school

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that just wanted to wank
with you all the time?

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Well, I did.

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And it never made you gay
unless you actually...

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- Benji, what the fuck
are you doing, man?

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Bruv.

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- I thought that's
what you wanted.

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- You thought that's
what I wanted?

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You fucking kidding me?

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I swear to fucking God, Benji,

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if you tell anyone about this,

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I'll fucking kill you.

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Okay?

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I'll fucking kill you.

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Faggot. [slaps]

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- [Benji] He was back in my
bed the following weekend.

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- [sighs] I just
want you to be happy.

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I really do.

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- It's really difficult
to like get it out my head

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and I think that's why
I just keep drinking,

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'cause I'm like,

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I just keep thinking
about him all the time.

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Do you know what I mean?

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- He don't wanna know you.

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So why should you
wanna know him?

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- Well, I just can't get
him out of my head mum.

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Like it's really fucking me up.

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- But you think he's
thinking about you?

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All I want for you

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is to get yourself a job,

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stop selling pigeons.

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- Hello.
- Hello.

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- Hello.

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- I'm Ryan. This is Benji.

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We're knocking on doors today

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collecting money for
Save the Birds UK.

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It's 50p a month.
- Save the what?

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- Save the Birds.
- Oh!

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- In the UK. Yeah.

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It's 50p for one
bird sponsorship

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or it's 75p for two
birds per month.

158
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- Okay, so what kind of birds?

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What do I get? What bird?

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- So we're still doing
the lovely Christmas cards

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that you get sent
each Christmas.

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We've also got some
really nice badges

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that get sent out.

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- Ooh, what color badges?

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- Yes, you can get
blue, green, pink.

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- [gasps] What color blue?

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- We've got swimming
pool blue, baby blue.

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Exactly like this?

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- No, I don't like it.

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What about a sapphire blue?

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- Yeah, I think there's
sapphire blue as well.

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- Oh, wow.

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- Listen lady, are you gonna
sponsor a fucking bird or what?

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- Ryan, AKA the Bellend.

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He has lost me so much
commission over the years,

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but he's got a good heart

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and he's pretty fit.

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You fucking taking
the piss mate?

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- You know what? Fuck off.

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[door slamming]

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- [laughs] What a fucking
tight bitch she was.

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- Were you just born with
a fucking massive nob

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on your head, mate?

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- Mate, I cannot be
bothered to do this anymore.

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Can we please go and
find some real birds?

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Find you a cuckold mate.

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- How the fuck have
you got any money?

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- I've got business
savvy, haven't I?

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- Yeah.
- Hey, what's up?

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What's the matter with you?

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What's up?

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Oh, come on mate.

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Come on, let's go
find some real fanny.

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Come on. It's bank
holiday weekend. Please.

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Please.

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I know you don't like Fanny.

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I know you like the dick

198
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but this is for me, isn't it?

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Because they're always
like, "Oh, my God,

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he's so gay,"

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and I'm like,

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"Oh, I'm not. I'm fucking
straight." [laughs]

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- No, I'm just not
really in a good place

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at the moment mate
at all, like at all.

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- Oh, come on mate.

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What else would you be doing?

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[lively instrumental music]
[water pattering]

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Hey, come on mate.

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- All right.

210
00:06:47,125 --> 00:06:48,000
- Yeah?
- Yeah.

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- Yes. Come on then.

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Let's fucking get the fanny.

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Come on. Let's go mate.

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Whoa! Here we go.

215
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[energetic club music]

216
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Come on. Fucking suck that boy.

217
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Come on then mate. Whey!

218
00:06:59,708 --> 00:07:02,000
Benji, wants the D. Come on!

219
00:07:03,291 --> 00:07:05,083
When you take it up the
arse, does it feel nice?

220
00:07:05,166 --> 00:07:06,208
I mean I've had a
finger up there before,

221
00:07:06,291 --> 00:07:07,291
but...
[balls tapping]

222
00:07:07,375 --> 00:07:08,583
Do you suck cock as well? Yeah.

223
00:07:08,666 --> 00:07:09,958
I don't think I could suck cock.

224
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I could probably have it sucked

225
00:07:11,250 --> 00:07:12,500
if I was absolutely fucked.

226
00:07:12,583 --> 00:07:13,875
Do you know what I mean?
[balls tapping]

227
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What's the biggest dick
that you've ever seen?

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I don't understand, right,

229
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how do you make sure that
there's no shit up there

230
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before a dick goes in?
[balls tapping]

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00:07:19,375 --> 00:07:21,125
When a guy comes round,

232
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how do you know who's gonna
take it and who's gonna give it?

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What is the biggest dick
that you've ever seen?

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Is it nine inches?

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Is 10 inches?

236
00:07:34,958 --> 00:07:36,458
Is it 11 inches?

237
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- [Benji] I don't fancy him.

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- Why don't you come over
here and show me yours?

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00:07:39,791 --> 00:07:40,916
- [Benji] I don't.

240
00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:42,375
- Yeah?

241
00:07:42,458 --> 00:07:43,666
I'm fucking so hard
for you right now.

242
00:07:43,750 --> 00:07:45,833
- [Benji] He's straight.
I don't fancy him.

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All right. I fucking do.

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And it stops me thinking
about him anyway.

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[energetic club music]

246
00:08:07,166 --> 00:08:08,708
- Yo. Excuse me.
- Fucking hell.

247
00:08:08,791 --> 00:08:10,500
- How long are you gonna
be on that pool table for?

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00:08:10,583 --> 00:08:11,750
- Dunno mate. Ask him.

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- [sighs] Fuck sake.

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- Still think I'm gay? [laughs]

251
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Not me.

252
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That's my friend.

253
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- He's the gay one.
- Exactly.

254
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- Are you all right ladies?

255
00:08:21,791 --> 00:08:23,083
All right, mate.

256
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No trouble tonight, you.

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- Fuck off.
- See you down there, yeah?

258
00:08:26,458 --> 00:08:28,000
All right, mate.
- You all right. Is he gay?

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- He is proper gay.

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- Prove it.

261
00:08:30,166 --> 00:08:31,500
- What?
- Prove it.

262
00:08:33,125 --> 00:08:34,333
At least try to pretend.

263
00:08:34,416 --> 00:08:35,208
Any trouble you's
are fucking out.

264
00:08:35,291 --> 00:08:36,125
- Is it busy in there mate?

265
00:08:36,208 --> 00:08:37,041
- Yeah, it's rammed.

266
00:08:37,125 --> 00:08:39,666
Evening ladies. You okay?

267
00:08:39,750 --> 00:08:43,791
[energetic club music continues]

268
00:08:44,666 --> 00:08:46,625
- What the fuck?

269
00:08:46,708 --> 00:08:47,833
Ryan.

270
00:08:47,916 --> 00:08:49,250
- Oh, Charlotte.

271
00:08:49,333 --> 00:08:50,541
- Oh, so you can't
find your own man

272
00:08:50,625 --> 00:08:52,541
so you come to a gay
bar and take mine?

273
00:08:52,625 --> 00:08:53,916
- Your man? That ain't your man.

274
00:08:54,000 --> 00:08:55,208
- Get out my face.

275
00:08:55,291 --> 00:08:55,750
- [Ryan] She was
kissing me first.

276
00:08:55,833 --> 00:08:56,791
- Get off me!

277
00:08:56,875 --> 00:08:57,416
She was kissing you first.

278
00:08:57,500 --> 00:08:58,541
Was she fuck.

279
00:08:58,625 --> 00:08:59,666
Why are you getting involved?

280
00:08:59,750 --> 00:09:01,708
Stink like a right little slag.

281
00:09:01,791 --> 00:09:03,750
[girls screaming]
- Whoa! Whoa! Whoa!

282
00:09:03,833 --> 00:09:05,166
- [Benji] Of course
we get kicked out.

283
00:09:05,250 --> 00:09:06,375
[upbeat rock music]

284
00:09:06,666 --> 00:09:07,333
I should have just
stayed at home

285
00:09:07,875 --> 00:09:10,625
wanking and crying
into my pillow.

286
00:09:16,958 --> 00:09:18,416
Yeah, he'll do.

287
00:09:18,500 --> 00:09:19,958
He's well fit

288
00:09:20,041 --> 00:09:22,166
but he's into Ryan.

289
00:09:22,250 --> 00:09:23,291
I'll take it.

290
00:09:23,583 --> 00:09:26,500
Anything to stop
thinking about him.

291
00:09:27,458 --> 00:09:29,458
I managed to get
him back home and...

292
00:09:29,541 --> 00:09:31,500
You're fit. [laughs]

293
00:09:31,583 --> 00:09:33,666
- Yeah. Where's that lad?

294
00:09:33,750 --> 00:09:35,166
The one you're with tonight.
- Huh?

295
00:09:35,250 --> 00:09:36,500
- Where's the lad we
were with tonight?

296
00:09:36,583 --> 00:09:37,625
- What, Ryan?

297
00:09:37,708 --> 00:09:38,583
- Yeah, whatever his name is.

298
00:09:38,666 --> 00:09:39,916
- He's straight.

299
00:09:40,000 --> 00:09:40,458
- What do you mean
he's straight?

300
00:09:40,541 --> 00:09:42,000
- He's straight.

301
00:09:42,083 --> 00:09:43,166
- Well, is he not coming
back with us tonight?

302
00:09:43,250 --> 00:09:44,291
- Nah.

303
00:09:44,375 --> 00:09:45,750
- Oh, so it's just me and you?

304
00:09:45,833 --> 00:09:47,791
Let's get another guy over
from the internet, yeah.

305
00:09:47,875 --> 00:09:49,125
- What?
- Yeah. It'd be really fun

306
00:09:49,208 --> 00:09:50,208
like the three of us.

307
00:09:50,291 --> 00:09:51,625
- Ah, fuck it.

308
00:09:51,708 --> 00:09:53,125
- [Man] Yeah, it'll be... No?
- No.

309
00:09:53,208 --> 00:09:53,916
- [Man] What do you mean no?
- Nah, just me and you.

310
00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:55,541
- [laughs] Yeah.

311
00:09:55,625 --> 00:09:56,750
So just me and you then, yeah?

312
00:09:56,833 --> 00:09:57,541
- Yeah.

313
00:09:57,625 --> 00:09:58,833
- All right, fine.

314
00:09:58,916 --> 00:10:00,875
Well, take your
clothes off then.

315
00:10:00,958 --> 00:10:02,458
[laughs]

316
00:10:02,541 --> 00:10:03,541
Yeah.

317
00:10:07,625 --> 00:10:09,875
- [Benji] He doesn't
even want to be here.

318
00:10:09,958 --> 00:10:10,916
Yeah. All right.

319
00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:13,250
I've not been to the gym.

320
00:10:13,333 --> 00:10:14,666
He thinks fuck it.

321
00:10:16,625 --> 00:10:17,750
[melancholy rock music]

322
00:10:17,833 --> 00:10:21,291
♪ There's a monster in my head ♪

323
00:10:21,375 --> 00:10:22,625
And so it continues.

324
00:10:22,708 --> 00:10:24,416
A drink, a fuck, a grinder.

325
00:10:24,500 --> 00:10:26,666
A drink, a fuck, a grinder.

326
00:10:26,750 --> 00:10:30,666
I just do anything to
stop thinking about him.

327
00:10:30,750 --> 00:10:33,500
[music continues]

328
00:10:36,875 --> 00:10:38,208
I think about
going to your house

329
00:10:38,291 --> 00:10:39,625
but I remember the
restraining order.

330
00:10:39,708 --> 00:10:40,750
I think about
going to your work.

331
00:10:40,833 --> 00:10:41,916
I think about phoning you,

332
00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:43,333
but you've blocked me.

333
00:10:43,583 --> 00:10:46,791
I think about anything
I can do to reach you.

334
00:10:58,083 --> 00:11:01,666
They say the best way to
move forward is to go back.

335
00:11:01,750 --> 00:11:04,458
[music continues]

336
00:11:11,041 --> 00:11:13,708
[dramatic music]

337
00:11:20,500 --> 00:11:23,416
[pencil scratching]

338
00:11:24,916 --> 00:11:28,125
This is me not on the edge
of a nervous breakdown.

339
00:11:28,208 --> 00:11:30,666
I was having a bit of an
independent traveling phase,

340
00:11:30,750 --> 00:11:33,750
which meant an £89 flight to
Amsterdam for the weekend.

341
00:11:33,833 --> 00:11:36,500
[lively music]

342
00:11:40,583 --> 00:11:42,541
♪ I think I felt love ♪

343
00:11:42,625 --> 00:11:44,666
♪ I've sure felt pain ♪

344
00:11:44,750 --> 00:11:46,583
♪ I've tasted sun ♪

345
00:11:46,666 --> 00:11:48,833
♪ When I've kiss the rain ♪

346
00:11:48,916 --> 00:11:50,833
♪ And I've learned to win ♪

347
00:11:50,916 --> 00:11:52,958
♪ As I've learned to lose ♪

348
00:11:53,041 --> 00:11:55,166
♪ As I've learned to see ♪

349
00:11:55,250 --> 00:11:56,750
♪ The good in you ♪

350
00:11:56,833 --> 00:11:59,041
♪ Somehow ♪

351
00:12:00,958 --> 00:12:02,541
It's moments like these

352
00:12:02,625 --> 00:12:04,500
that you wish a sign would
spring up being like,

353
00:12:04,583 --> 00:12:05,833
run bitch, run.

354
00:12:07,791 --> 00:12:09,458
But there wasn't one.

355
00:12:11,458 --> 00:12:12,708
Fuck, he's coming over.

356
00:12:12,791 --> 00:12:13,625
Shit. Shit. Shit.

357
00:12:13,708 --> 00:12:15,458
God, he's coming over.

358
00:12:15,541 --> 00:12:16,708
Okay, so why were
you staring at him?

359
00:12:16,791 --> 00:12:18,708
You can see his dick
in those shorts.

360
00:12:18,791 --> 00:12:19,833
- Joke innit.

361
00:12:21,041 --> 00:12:22,666
- Yeah. All canceled.

362
00:12:24,875 --> 00:12:26,708
- [sighs] Have to wait
for the next one now.

363
00:12:26,791 --> 00:12:28,750
[whimsical music]

364
00:12:28,833 --> 00:12:30,541
[bubbles popping]

365
00:12:30,625 --> 00:12:32,000
Fancy another?

366
00:12:32,083 --> 00:12:34,250
- Introducing the
absolute bellend

367
00:12:34,333 --> 00:12:37,291
that I'm about to
fall in love with.

368
00:12:38,291 --> 00:12:41,708
[glasses clinking]
Cheers.

369
00:12:44,708 --> 00:12:46,666
- Don't you hope for some
fit girls on our flight?

370
00:12:46,750 --> 00:12:52,208
- [Benji] And I really hope
after seven pints you're gay.

371
00:12:52,291 --> 00:12:53,125
- You gonna get that?

372
00:12:53,208 --> 00:12:54,541
- It's my mum, honestly,

373
00:12:54,625 --> 00:12:55,458
since she's found out
the planes are canceled,

374
00:12:55,541 --> 00:12:56,541
she's like, are you okay?

375
00:12:56,625 --> 00:13:00,166
I'm like, fuck off. [laughs]

376
00:13:00,250 --> 00:13:01,750
- I wish I could call my mum.

377
00:13:01,833 --> 00:13:03,416
- Call her.

378
00:13:03,500 --> 00:13:04,916
- Can't mate. She's dead.

379
00:13:05,000 --> 00:13:06,750
- Oh, fuck. Sorry mate.

380
00:13:06,833 --> 00:13:08,791
- Did you kill her?
- What?

381
00:13:08,875 --> 00:13:11,791
- What you sorry
for you bellend?

382
00:13:13,750 --> 00:13:16,583
- [Benji] I just kept thinking
my mum would be like...

383
00:13:16,666 --> 00:13:19,416
- [Mum] He's got
big dick energy.

384
00:13:19,500 --> 00:13:21,666
[lively instrumental music]

385
00:13:21,750 --> 00:13:24,708
- Things I learned about
the fit guy at the airport.

386
00:13:24,791 --> 00:13:27,250
He was a PT for footballers,

387
00:13:27,333 --> 00:13:29,291
i.e. rich.
[tell bell ringing]

388
00:13:29,375 --> 00:13:31,708
He was a huge cock tease,

389
00:13:31,791 --> 00:13:34,500
but always followed it up
by talking about fit girls.

390
00:13:34,583 --> 00:13:36,166
He said he had a 10-inch cock,

391
00:13:36,250 --> 00:13:39,583
which sometimes he couldn't
fit in boxer briefs.

392
00:13:39,666 --> 00:13:41,333
[Jake laughing]

393
00:13:41,416 --> 00:13:43,708
- Hi. Hi. Sorry. [coughs]

394
00:13:43,791 --> 00:13:45,916
I think you're in
the wrong seat.

395
00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:49,375
Actually, there was a bit
of a mix-up at check-in.

396
00:13:49,458 --> 00:13:50,750
You see I'm his carer,

397
00:13:50,833 --> 00:13:51,958
so I need to be sat next to him.

398
00:13:52,041 --> 00:13:53,250
Is that all right?

399
00:13:53,333 --> 00:13:55,166
- Why, what's wrong with him?

400
00:13:55,250 --> 00:13:57,541
[Benji laughing]

401
00:13:57,625 --> 00:14:00,916
- Right. Okay, no problem.

402
00:14:01,000 --> 00:14:03,833
- [Jake] Stop laughing.
- You prick!

403
00:14:05,166 --> 00:14:05,916
I'm Benji.

404
00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:08,291
- Benji?

405
00:14:08,375 --> 00:14:10,500
- Right. Well, what's your name?

406
00:14:10,583 --> 00:14:12,083
- If we're still talking
on the flight home,

407
00:14:12,166 --> 00:14:13,958
I'll tell you.

408
00:14:14,041 --> 00:14:15,708
- [laughs] You arrogant cunt.
[lively instrumental music]

409
00:14:15,791 --> 00:14:17,583
But he's fit as fuck.

410
00:14:17,666 --> 00:14:19,041
Fit people get
away with anything.

411
00:14:19,125 --> 00:14:21,291
- Hit the bars
when we land, yeah?

412
00:14:21,375 --> 00:14:25,125
- All right.
[both chuckling]

413
00:14:27,708 --> 00:14:29,875
I like bacon on it

414
00:14:29,958 --> 00:14:32,416
and then maple
syrup on the bacon.

415
00:14:32,500 --> 00:14:33,208
- On a pancake?

416
00:14:33,291 --> 00:14:34,083
- Yeah.

417
00:14:35,375 --> 00:14:37,333
Like American style.
- Fucking so wrong mate.

418
00:14:37,416 --> 00:14:38,750
Bacon on a pancake?

419
00:14:38,833 --> 00:14:40,708
- Yeah.
- What the fuck man?

420
00:14:40,791 --> 00:14:42,500
That's mental. [laughs]

421
00:14:42,583 --> 00:14:45,666
- So you're not meeting
anyone out here or anything?

422
00:14:45,750 --> 00:14:46,500
- No.

423
00:14:47,750 --> 00:14:48,916
What about you?

424
00:14:49,000 --> 00:14:49,750
- No.

425
00:14:53,666 --> 00:14:55,458
- So I've got you all
to myself then, have I?

426
00:14:55,541 --> 00:14:56,791
[Benji laughing]

427
00:14:56,875 --> 00:14:58,041
[lively instrumental
music continues]

428
00:14:58,125 --> 00:14:59,375
- [Benji] We start
necking back pints

429
00:14:59,458 --> 00:15:00,166
and already I feel
like one of the lads.

430
00:15:00,250 --> 00:15:01,416
We flip beer mats up in the air.

431
00:15:01,500 --> 00:15:03,083
And to be honest,

432
00:15:03,166 --> 00:15:04,833
it just demonstrates that
I'm really dyspraxic.

433
00:15:04,916 --> 00:15:06,125
We play darts.

434
00:15:06,208 --> 00:15:08,208
He lets me win.
It's pretty cute.

435
00:15:08,291 --> 00:15:09,666
We go get high.

436
00:15:09,750 --> 00:15:11,458
It does not mix well
with the alcohol.

437
00:15:11,541 --> 00:15:13,250
I am feeling fucked.

438
00:15:13,333 --> 00:15:15,791
I convince him that all the
fit girls go to gay bars.

439
00:15:15,875 --> 00:15:18,333
Cut to the whitey
starts to affect me

440
00:15:18,416 --> 00:15:20,333
and I'm sick in my
mouth three times.

441
00:15:20,416 --> 00:15:21,791
We have pictures
in a photo booth

442
00:15:21,875 --> 00:15:23,041
and he pretends to suck me off.

443
00:15:23,125 --> 00:15:24,875
And to be honest, I get hard.

444
00:15:24,958 --> 00:15:28,291
We end up dancing and I
look like E.T. on ketamine.

445
00:15:28,375 --> 00:15:29,958
He keeps looking at
girls in the club

446
00:15:30,041 --> 00:15:32,875
and it is starting to
fuck me off a little bit.

447
00:15:32,958 --> 00:15:34,708
We go get chips and
I just keep thinking,

448
00:15:34,791 --> 00:15:36,250
am I about to spend the
weekend with someone

449
00:15:36,333 --> 00:15:37,833
who just wants to fuck a bird?

450
00:15:37,916 --> 00:15:39,375
Am I in that situation

451
00:15:39,458 --> 00:15:41,083
where I've gotta pretend
to be one of the lads?

452
00:15:41,166 --> 00:15:45,875
Or is something inside of
him just that little bit gay?

453
00:15:53,166 --> 00:15:54,291
- Feel all right?

454
00:15:54,375 --> 00:15:57,083
- Yeah.
[both laughing]

455
00:15:57,166 --> 00:15:58,708
I think it's the beer.

456
00:15:58,791 --> 00:16:00,541
- It's fucked you up.

457
00:16:00,625 --> 00:16:02,375
- I'll be all right in a minute.

458
00:16:02,458 --> 00:16:03,875
Do you like when you
drink and you smoke

459
00:16:03,958 --> 00:16:06,125
and it makes you a bit like.

460
00:16:06,208 --> 00:16:08,208
- Oh, I think I
filled it too much.

461
00:16:08,291 --> 00:16:09,000
Oh, shit.

462
00:16:09,083 --> 00:16:10,416
Oh, fuck.

463
00:16:10,500 --> 00:16:11,916
Oh, mate.

464
00:16:12,000 --> 00:16:13,875
That's not good is it?
[Benji chuckling]

465
00:16:13,958 --> 00:16:17,250
You ever shagged while
you've been high?

466
00:16:17,333 --> 00:16:18,791
- [Benji] The last time I
shagged when I got high,

467
00:16:18,875 --> 00:16:22,375
I actually vomited
all over a guy's cock.

468
00:16:23,833 --> 00:16:25,250
Yeah.

469
00:16:25,333 --> 00:16:28,208
- How'd you feel
like, was it good?

470
00:16:29,458 --> 00:16:31,000
It's nice, isn't it?

471
00:16:37,041 --> 00:16:38,833
[laughs]

472
00:16:42,875 --> 00:16:43,791
- Looks shit. [laughs]

473
00:16:43,875 --> 00:16:44,875
- Cheers.
- Cheers.

474
00:16:44,958 --> 00:16:46,750
[glass clinking]

475
00:16:46,833 --> 00:16:49,666
[melancholy music]

476
00:16:55,291 --> 00:16:57,375
And then I think, fuck
it. I'm gonna ask him.

477
00:16:57,458 --> 00:16:59,958
So, are you like straight, yeah?

478
00:17:04,083 --> 00:17:06,625
- Why you putting a label on it?

479
00:17:09,916 --> 00:17:12,250
What about you?

480
00:17:12,333 --> 00:17:14,208
- I shagged a girl once.
- [Jake] You did?

481
00:17:14,291 --> 00:17:15,958
- Like, literally once. Yeah.

482
00:17:16,041 --> 00:17:17,000
- [Jake] Go on lad.

483
00:17:17,083 --> 00:17:18,791
- But,

484
00:17:18,875 --> 00:17:20,916
do you know like the 18 to
thirties tour buses they do?

485
00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:22,041
- [Jake] Mm.

486
00:17:22,125 --> 00:17:23,625
- So I'm on one of them at 18

487
00:17:23,708 --> 00:17:25,500
and there's this woman on
it and she's 35 to be fair.

488
00:17:25,583 --> 00:17:27,000
So she probably shouldn't
have been on it.

489
00:17:27,083 --> 00:17:28,583
[both chuckling]

490
00:17:28,666 --> 00:17:30,041
So she's like got it in for me.

491
00:17:30,125 --> 00:17:31,791
She's obsessed with
me for the whole trip

492
00:17:31,875 --> 00:17:33,375
and I'm terrified

493
00:17:33,458 --> 00:17:33,875
because I've got like
proper virgin energy,

494
00:17:33,958 --> 00:17:35,000
do you know what I mean?

495
00:17:35,083 --> 00:17:35,708
- [Jake] So you were a virgin?

496
00:17:35,791 --> 00:17:37,166
- Yeah.

497
00:17:37,250 --> 00:17:38,875
And one night I'm
in the swimming pool

498
00:17:38,958 --> 00:17:40,041
and we're all fucked, like
we've been out drinking

499
00:17:40,125 --> 00:17:41,625
like proper on it.

500
00:17:41,708 --> 00:17:42,916
- Mm.

501
00:17:43,000 --> 00:17:44,000
- And she's like,
target acquired.

502
00:17:44,083 --> 00:17:45,833
So she gets in the pool

503
00:17:45,916 --> 00:17:48,500
like knickers off, comes over.

504
00:17:48,583 --> 00:17:50,625
- [Jake] Fucking hell.
- I'm like that.

505
00:17:50,708 --> 00:17:52,833
She comes over and she's
shagging me, right?

506
00:17:52,916 --> 00:17:54,708
But there's this lad,
this Argentinian lad

507
00:17:54,791 --> 00:17:56,208
who's fit as fuck

508
00:17:56,291 --> 00:17:57,750
and he's watching us,

509
00:17:57,833 --> 00:17:58,708
but he's wanking.

510
00:17:58,791 --> 00:18:00,458
So I'm watching him wank

511
00:18:00,541 --> 00:18:02,083
while I'm shagging her

512
00:18:02,166 --> 00:18:04,083
and I'm looking at him in
the eyes and I'm like...

513
00:18:04,166 --> 00:18:06,291
- [Jake] Fuck, so he was
basically keeping your hard.

514
00:18:06,375 --> 00:18:07,750
- Yeah.
[Jake chuckling]

515
00:18:07,833 --> 00:18:10,791
And I was like, fuck
I'm gay. [laughs]

516
00:18:10,875 --> 00:18:12,000
- You know what?

517
00:18:13,833 --> 00:18:15,875
We should get someone in.

518
00:18:17,416 --> 00:18:19,750
- What do you mean?

519
00:18:19,833 --> 00:18:21,375
Wait.
- Get a brass.

520
00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:24,000
Girl brass.

521
00:18:24,083 --> 00:18:25,458
- Right.

522
00:18:25,541 --> 00:18:26,708
- Good for it.

523
00:18:29,333 --> 00:18:31,041
You don't have to do
anything if you don't want.

524
00:18:31,125 --> 00:18:34,000
- Well, yeah. I'm not
gonna shag a bird, am I?

525
00:18:34,083 --> 00:18:34,916
- You can watch.

526
00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:35,958
[slow music]

527
00:18:36,041 --> 00:18:36,875
[Benji mumbling]

528
00:18:36,958 --> 00:18:38,041
- Yeah?

529
00:18:38,125 --> 00:18:40,958
- All right. Yeah, whatever.

530
00:18:41,041 --> 00:18:43,166
Inside I was thinking
absolutely fucking not.

531
00:18:43,250 --> 00:18:44,708
[door knocking]

532
00:18:44,791 --> 00:18:46,083
But I might get to
see his dick so...

533
00:18:46,166 --> 00:18:48,541
[heels tapping]

534
00:18:48,625 --> 00:18:51,166
[door thudding]

535
00:18:53,250 --> 00:18:55,625
- This is Vanessa.

536
00:18:55,708 --> 00:18:57,916
- So do you wanna sit down,

537
00:18:58,000 --> 00:18:59,125
chat for a little bit,

538
00:18:59,208 --> 00:19:00,166
or go straight to the bedroom?

539
00:19:00,250 --> 00:19:01,666
Got about 30 minutes.

540
00:19:01,750 --> 00:19:04,166
- Oh, yeah. Is it all
right if he watches?

541
00:19:04,250 --> 00:19:07,875
- Yeah, that's 80
euros more cash.

542
00:19:07,958 --> 00:19:08,958
- Have you got cash?

543
00:19:09,041 --> 00:19:10,000
Are you sure?

544
00:19:10,083 --> 00:19:11,291
- Yeah, yeah.

545
00:19:11,375 --> 00:19:12,791
Yeah, that's fine. Yeah.

546
00:19:12,875 --> 00:19:13,875
- [Vanessa] Okay.
Bedroom through there?

547
00:19:13,958 --> 00:19:15,333
- Yeah. Yeah. You lead the way.

548
00:19:15,416 --> 00:19:17,208
- Okay.
[heels clipping]

549
00:19:17,291 --> 00:19:18,791
See you in there?

550
00:19:19,958 --> 00:19:21,708
- No, not arsed. Honestly.

551
00:19:21,791 --> 00:19:22,625
Not arsed.

552
00:19:22,708 --> 00:19:24,666
- Come on. Come through.

553
00:19:27,208 --> 00:19:28,625
[upbeat music]

554
00:19:28,708 --> 00:19:29,875
- [Benji] Now, this
for me was a little bit

555
00:19:29,958 --> 00:19:32,250
like a choose your
own adventure book.

556
00:19:32,333 --> 00:19:36,000
Turn to page three to go back
to your hostel and have a wank

557
00:19:36,083 --> 00:19:39,041
or turn to page 73
to get involved.

558
00:19:39,125 --> 00:19:40,083
[game show winning jingle]

559
00:19:40,166 --> 00:19:41,958
[gentle sensual music]

560
00:19:42,041 --> 00:19:44,958
[couple moaning]

561
00:19:52,125 --> 00:19:55,125
Watching wasn't
usually my thing, but

562
00:19:55,208 --> 00:19:57,750
I could tell it was his.

563
00:19:57,833 --> 00:20:01,125
He's not taking
his eyes off me and

564
00:20:01,208 --> 00:20:02,458
I'm hard as fuck.

565
00:20:07,250 --> 00:20:09,583
So is she like your type then?

566
00:20:12,458 --> 00:20:13,208
- Blondes,

567
00:20:14,041 --> 00:20:15,291
brunettes,

568
00:20:15,375 --> 00:20:16,125
redheads.

569
00:20:17,083 --> 00:20:18,333
What about you?

570
00:20:20,958 --> 00:20:21,750
[energetic music]

571
00:20:22,041 --> 00:20:23,208
- [Benji] I wish I could say

572
00:20:23,500 --> 00:20:25,958
I went for loving
caring guys, but...

573
00:20:27,083 --> 00:20:28,291
- Yeah,

574
00:20:28,375 --> 00:20:29,666
you know, you're
lucky to have me.

575
00:20:29,750 --> 00:20:32,041
- [Benji] Danny, who
loved to do ketamine.

576
00:20:32,125 --> 00:20:33,916
And if I didn't do
ketamine with him

577
00:20:34,000 --> 00:20:36,541
then I was a bad, bad boyfriend.

578
00:20:36,625 --> 00:20:38,333
- I know what your
mum thinks of me.

579
00:20:38,416 --> 00:20:41,083
Yeah. I dunno why you need
to speak to her though.

580
00:20:41,166 --> 00:20:42,458
Why do you need your family?

581
00:20:42,541 --> 00:20:45,125
- [Benji] And
here's Smiley Sean.

582
00:20:45,208 --> 00:20:48,541
Smiley Sean, who used to
call me morbidly obese.

583
00:20:48,625 --> 00:20:50,000
What a keeper.

584
00:20:50,083 --> 00:20:52,041
- The fact that I
slept with you. Oh!

585
00:20:52,125 --> 00:20:54,791
Fuck, like why would I do that?

586
00:20:55,916 --> 00:20:57,083
- Bit like me then yeah?

587
00:20:57,166 --> 00:20:59,791
[Benji laughing]

588
00:21:01,375 --> 00:21:03,000
Go on then.

589
00:21:03,083 --> 00:21:03,833
- What?

590
00:21:07,250 --> 00:21:08,458
- Go on then.

591
00:21:08,541 --> 00:21:10,750
- [Benji] Go on then what?

592
00:21:12,333 --> 00:21:14,208
- I said, "Go on then."

593
00:21:16,208 --> 00:21:21,166
[lips smacking]
[both heavy breathing]

594
00:21:22,416 --> 00:21:23,250
[lively instrumental music]

595
00:21:23,333 --> 00:21:25,000
♪ Hallelujah ♪

596
00:21:25,083 --> 00:21:27,125
♪ Hallelujah ♪

597
00:21:27,208 --> 00:21:28,000
♪ Hallelujah ♪

598
00:21:28,083 --> 00:21:29,541
♪ Hallelujah ♪

599
00:21:29,625 --> 00:21:31,375
♪ Hallelujah ♪
[fireworks exploding]

600
00:21:31,458 --> 00:21:33,083
♪ Hallelujah ♪

601
00:21:33,166 --> 00:21:35,125
♪ Hallelujah ♪

602
00:21:35,208 --> 00:21:36,125
♪ Hallelujah ♪

603
00:21:36,208 --> 00:21:37,375
♪ Hallelujah ♪

604
00:21:37,458 --> 00:21:39,833
♪ Hallelujah ♪

605
00:21:39,916 --> 00:21:43,916
♪ For the lord God
omnipotent reigneth ♪

606
00:21:44,000 --> 00:21:46,458
[Jake panting]

607
00:21:52,250 --> 00:21:54,958
- Why did you come
back here, Benji?

608
00:21:55,041 --> 00:21:56,583
[high-pitched whistling]

609
00:21:56,666 --> 00:21:57,708
[dramatic music]
[pencil scratching]

610
00:21:57,791 --> 00:21:59,000
- [Benji] And then it sinks in

611
00:21:59,083 --> 00:22:00,458
that it's just me
and a pint of wine

612
00:22:00,541 --> 00:22:02,291
getting completely off my tits

613
00:22:02,375 --> 00:22:03,625
and reliving what I thought

614
00:22:03,708 --> 00:22:05,375
was the best
relationship of my life.

615
00:22:05,458 --> 00:22:08,208
[melancholy music]

616
00:22:08,291 --> 00:22:12,166
This time in £89 fight to
Amsterdam doesn't feel the same.

617
00:22:12,250 --> 00:22:16,750
I don't know what I'm fucking
doing coming back here.

618
00:22:20,791 --> 00:22:21,583
You want me to get it in?

619
00:22:21,666 --> 00:22:22,791
- Get it in.

620
00:22:22,875 --> 00:22:24,208
You little pussy. Don't stop.

621
00:22:24,291 --> 00:22:25,666
Don't stop. Keep going.

622
00:22:25,750 --> 00:22:27,500
- [Benji] Staying
in this apartment,

623
00:22:27,583 --> 00:22:29,250
it feels haunted now.

624
00:22:30,458 --> 00:22:31,291
- That's me. Wait,
wait, wait, wait.

625
00:22:31,375 --> 00:22:32,625
- Oh, for fuck sake.

626
00:22:32,708 --> 00:22:34,416
- And there we go.

627
00:22:34,500 --> 00:22:36,208
- Oh, fucking hell!

628
00:22:37,166 --> 00:22:38,250
You're dirty.

629
00:22:38,333 --> 00:22:40,166
You are so dirty.

630
00:22:40,250 --> 00:22:41,625
- Nice.

631
00:22:41,708 --> 00:22:42,208
- I mean, I'm not
fucking doing that.

632
00:22:42,291 --> 00:22:43,250
You can fuck right off.

633
00:22:43,333 --> 00:22:44,458
- We can try it.

634
00:22:44,541 --> 00:22:45,375
- Fuck off.

635
00:22:46,416 --> 00:22:49,666
♪ One more drink and I hear ♪

636
00:22:49,750 --> 00:22:52,291
♪ Demons in my ear ♪

637
00:22:52,375 --> 00:22:53,833
[dramatic music]
[pencil scratching]

638
00:22:53,916 --> 00:22:56,333
[both panting]

639
00:22:57,791 --> 00:23:00,250
[bed squeaking]

640
00:23:02,625 --> 00:23:05,166
[Jake grunting]

641
00:23:12,500 --> 00:23:15,375
[Benji groaning]

642
00:23:19,833 --> 00:23:22,375
[Jake grunting]

643
00:23:27,458 --> 00:23:30,000
[Benji panting]

644
00:23:52,208 --> 00:23:53,916
- Get off me, you faggot.

645
00:23:54,000 --> 00:23:56,500
[bed creaking]

646
00:24:00,000 --> 00:24:04,500
- [Benji] I wonder if I've ever
made anyone feel this shit?

647
00:24:04,583 --> 00:24:06,875
And then I remember
my ex-girlfriend.

648
00:24:06,958 --> 00:24:08,208
[girlfriend giggling]

649
00:24:08,291 --> 00:24:10,000
Yeah, that's me
pretending to be asleep

650
00:24:10,083 --> 00:24:12,333
so I don't have to
have sex with her.

651
00:24:12,416 --> 00:24:13,750
- I'm gonna do it now.

652
00:24:13,833 --> 00:24:15,458
No, I wanna have sex.

653
00:24:15,541 --> 00:24:16,666
- I'm drunk.

654
00:24:16,750 --> 00:24:18,250
- I'm drunk. [laughs]

655
00:24:18,333 --> 00:24:20,750
We're both drunk.
[lips smacking]

656
00:24:20,833 --> 00:24:21,583
Come on.

657
00:24:22,875 --> 00:24:25,000
Come on. [laughs]

658
00:24:25,083 --> 00:24:28,291
- [Benji] I'm gonna be sick.

659
00:24:28,375 --> 00:24:30,291
- You always do this.

660
00:24:30,375 --> 00:24:32,083
- No, I do. I just-

661
00:24:32,166 --> 00:24:33,958
- Then what is it?

662
00:24:34,041 --> 00:24:35,041
- I'm drunk. I feel sick.

663
00:24:35,125 --> 00:24:36,291
- I've put this on. [crying]

664
00:24:36,375 --> 00:24:37,291
Every time I wanna
have sex with you,

665
00:24:37,375 --> 00:24:38,291
you don't wanna go near me.

666
00:24:38,375 --> 00:24:39,416
Do you just wanna break up?

667
00:24:39,500 --> 00:24:40,666
Is that what you want?

668
00:24:40,750 --> 00:24:42,500
- No. No. That's
not what I want.

669
00:24:42,583 --> 00:24:45,083
- You just keep pushing me away.

670
00:24:45,166 --> 00:24:46,166
But you know what?

671
00:24:46,250 --> 00:24:47,375
I'm gonna have sex tonight,

672
00:24:47,458 --> 00:24:49,708
whether it's with you or not.

673
00:24:51,333 --> 00:24:52,625
Fuck off. I'm done.

674
00:24:52,708 --> 00:24:55,500
[door creaking]

675
00:24:55,583 --> 00:24:56,583
- [Benji] I just
wanted to watch films

676
00:24:56,666 --> 00:24:58,875
and have a gossip with her.

677
00:24:58,958 --> 00:25:01,333
- My name's Jake.
You passed the test.

678
00:25:01,416 --> 00:25:02,500
- Oh,

679
00:25:02,583 --> 00:25:03,458
Jakey poos.

680
00:25:07,333 --> 00:25:08,041
- What you doing?

681
00:25:08,125 --> 00:25:09,416
- What?

682
00:25:09,500 --> 00:25:10,916
- It's a little
bit gay that Benji.

683
00:25:11,000 --> 00:25:12,333
- Your dick up my arse
is a little bit gay.

684
00:25:12,416 --> 00:25:13,958
- [scoffs] Fuck off.

685
00:25:14,041 --> 00:25:15,958
It's not gay if you're
doing the shagging mate.

686
00:25:16,041 --> 00:25:17,291
[both chuckling]

687
00:25:17,375 --> 00:25:19,916
- Are you on prep by the way?

688
00:25:21,125 --> 00:25:23,750
- Just to put it out there,

689
00:25:23,833 --> 00:25:25,416
I'm not gay. Okay?

690
00:25:27,666 --> 00:25:29,541
Just having a bit of fun.

691
00:25:29,625 --> 00:25:31,083
And this is nothing serious.

692
00:25:31,166 --> 00:25:32,166
Like, I don't wanna
be on the list of guys

693
00:25:32,250 --> 00:25:34,416
that fucked you up in the past.

694
00:25:34,500 --> 00:25:35,666
- You won't. No.

695
00:25:35,750 --> 00:25:37,833
Someone's got a big head.

696
00:25:40,750 --> 00:25:42,125
- Do this again?

697
00:25:42,208 --> 00:25:42,916
- Yeah.

698
00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:43,708
- Next month?

699
00:25:43,791 --> 00:25:44,833
- Next month?

700
00:25:44,916 --> 00:25:45,500
- Yeah. Go anywhere you like.

701
00:25:45,583 --> 00:25:47,250
You can pick.

702
00:25:47,333 --> 00:25:49,041
- I've not really got any
money mate, to be honest.

703
00:25:49,125 --> 00:25:50,500
- Fuck off Jock.
Come away or not?

704
00:25:50,583 --> 00:25:51,291
- What?

705
00:25:51,375 --> 00:25:52,125
- On me.

706
00:25:52,208 --> 00:25:53,333
You can choose.

707
00:25:53,416 --> 00:25:57,291
- Money bags.
[both chuckling]

708
00:25:57,375 --> 00:25:58,125
All right.

709
00:25:59,375 --> 00:26:00,333
- Yeah?

710
00:26:00,416 --> 00:26:01,666
- Yeah.

711
00:26:01,750 --> 00:26:03,416
It's a date.

712
00:26:03,500 --> 00:26:04,375
- It's not a date.

713
00:26:04,458 --> 00:26:05,166
- It's a date.

714
00:26:05,250 --> 00:26:06,125
- It's not a date.

715
00:26:06,208 --> 00:26:06,875
- It is, it's a date.

716
00:26:06,958 --> 00:26:07,625
- Shut the fuck up.

717
00:26:07,708 --> 00:26:08,625
- [laughs] It's a date.

718
00:26:08,708 --> 00:26:09,333
you're gonna come meet my mum.

719
00:26:09,416 --> 00:26:10,166
It's a date.

720
00:26:10,583 --> 00:26:11,000
- Fuck off.
[Benji laughing]

721
00:26:11,083 --> 00:26:11,958
Get off me.

722
00:26:12,041 --> 00:26:13,083
It is not a date.

723
00:26:13,375 --> 00:26:16,916
- It's a date.
[upbeat music]

724
00:26:23,291 --> 00:26:24,750
And that was it.

725
00:26:24,833 --> 00:26:27,125
Every month we'd meet
and go to Amsterdam.

726
00:26:27,208 --> 00:26:29,291
♪ My heart beats fast ♪

727
00:26:29,375 --> 00:26:31,375
♪ My blood runs slow ♪

728
00:26:31,458 --> 00:26:34,458
- Clothes off.
[bag thudding]

729
00:26:34,541 --> 00:26:37,083
[door slamming]

730
00:26:40,083 --> 00:26:41,250
Right.
[door thudding]

731
00:26:41,333 --> 00:26:42,833
I'll get the bird in the MD.

732
00:26:42,916 --> 00:26:44,500
♪ Never let you go. ♪

733
00:26:44,583 --> 00:26:45,541
[sniffs] You have a
shower, you smelly bastard.

734
00:26:45,625 --> 00:26:46,875
[Benji laughing]

735
00:26:46,958 --> 00:26:49,791
[guitar strumming]

736
00:26:50,875 --> 00:26:52,125
- Sick.

737
00:26:52,208 --> 00:26:53,458
- What you doing?
- What?

738
00:26:53,541 --> 00:26:54,541
- Delete that please.

739
00:26:54,625 --> 00:26:55,458
- Fuck off.

740
00:27:00,208 --> 00:27:02,666
[door slamming]

741
00:27:04,458 --> 00:27:07,458
[water sloshing]

742
00:27:20,083 --> 00:27:22,250
- [laughs] Stop it.

743
00:27:22,333 --> 00:27:23,750
- I'm just taking it in

744
00:27:23,833 --> 00:27:25,541
that I've shagged a
10 twice this week.

745
00:27:25,625 --> 00:27:27,666
- You are such a weirdo mate.

746
00:27:27,750 --> 00:27:29,083
I shagged a mid-tier five

747
00:27:29,166 --> 00:27:30,625
and I've not said
anything, have I?

748
00:27:30,708 --> 00:27:34,333
- No, but you've taken
him away and paid for him.

749
00:27:34,416 --> 00:27:36,000
I was gonna say, actually

750
00:27:36,083 --> 00:27:37,625
I've got a bit of a sales
commission coming up,

751
00:27:37,708 --> 00:27:40,041
so I was gonna transfer
you a little bit of money.

752
00:27:40,125 --> 00:27:41,541
- Shut the fuck up.

753
00:27:42,791 --> 00:27:44,458
Right, get your kit off.
- What you doing?

754
00:27:44,541 --> 00:27:45,916
- Let's get in the water.
- What are you doing?

755
00:27:46,000 --> 00:27:47,333
- Take it off. Let's go
- Fuck off!

756
00:27:47,416 --> 00:27:48,416
I'm not taking my kit off.
- Why not?

757
00:27:48,500 --> 00:27:49,208
- Because I'm not.

758
00:27:49,291 --> 00:27:50,000
- Why not?

759
00:27:50,083 --> 00:27:50,791
Take your kit off.

760
00:27:50,875 --> 00:27:52,125
- We're outside.

761
00:27:52,208 --> 00:27:53,125
- There's no one here.

762
00:27:53,208 --> 00:27:54,125
- I'm not taking my top off.

763
00:27:54,208 --> 00:27:55,541
- Why not?

764
00:27:55,625 --> 00:27:57,291
- You won't have
experienced this, right?

765
00:27:57,375 --> 00:27:58,583
But you know when
a guy gives you the

766
00:27:58,666 --> 00:27:59,625
you've not been to the gym look.

767
00:27:59,708 --> 00:28:01,166
Like I'm just not into it.

768
00:28:01,250 --> 00:28:02,000
I'm not taking-

769
00:28:02,083 --> 00:28:03,625
- Benji, listen.

770
00:28:03,708 --> 00:28:04,458
Stop.

771
00:28:05,583 --> 00:28:07,291
Listen.

772
00:28:07,375 --> 00:28:10,333
When have I ever
given you that look?

773
00:28:10,416 --> 00:28:11,166
Never.

774
00:28:12,666 --> 00:28:14,750
You look amazing.

775
00:28:14,833 --> 00:28:16,250
Now, come on, get
your stuff off.

776
00:28:16,333 --> 00:28:17,791
Let's get in the water.

777
00:28:17,875 --> 00:28:21,250
We're in the red light
district after, yeah?

778
00:28:21,333 --> 00:28:23,750
[upbeat music]

779
00:28:26,416 --> 00:28:27,583
[both laughing]

780
00:28:27,666 --> 00:28:30,625
[water sloshing]

781
00:28:30,708 --> 00:28:32,583
It's not bad, you know.

782
00:28:34,666 --> 00:28:36,291
♪ Well, the cold of the night ♪

783
00:28:36,375 --> 00:28:37,333
- And despite everything,

784
00:28:37,416 --> 00:28:38,791
you were the first person

785
00:28:38,875 --> 00:28:41,000
that made me feel
positive about my body.

786
00:28:41,083 --> 00:28:41,833
Fuck off!

787
00:28:44,125 --> 00:28:47,166
Twat!
[Jake laughing]

788
00:28:52,416 --> 00:28:54,416
Are you like this
for women by the way?

789
00:28:54,500 --> 00:28:55,208
- Like what?

790
00:28:55,291 --> 00:28:56,333
- Dominating.

791
00:28:57,833 --> 00:29:00,083
- Women don't like it as much.

792
00:29:00,166 --> 00:29:02,166
- Right? Well, who
said I liked it?

793
00:29:02,250 --> 00:29:05,541
- [scoffs] You seem
to fucking like it.

794
00:29:05,625 --> 00:29:09,541
- All right, let's get a
sliding little scale here, yeah.

795
00:29:09,625 --> 00:29:11,333
50-50 men, women.

796
00:29:11,416 --> 00:29:12,666
Where we sitting?

797
00:29:15,583 --> 00:29:20,250
- [exhales] I'd say
70-30, women to men.

798
00:29:22,916 --> 00:29:25,666
Yeah, I never said
that out loud before.

799
00:29:25,750 --> 00:29:27,291
- That you're bi?

800
00:29:27,375 --> 00:29:29,333
- Did I say that, Benji?

801
00:29:30,833 --> 00:29:33,000
How many lads have you been
with since we've been away?

802
00:29:33,083 --> 00:29:33,791
- None.

803
00:29:33,875 --> 00:29:34,583
- None?

804
00:29:34,666 --> 00:29:35,708
- Yeah, none.

805
00:29:37,333 --> 00:29:39,625
- Mate, I shagged like 10
birds since we last went away.

806
00:29:39,708 --> 00:29:42,291
Fucking hell, what
you been doing?

807
00:29:42,375 --> 00:29:44,000
- Go on then.

808
00:29:44,083 --> 00:29:45,041
- What?

809
00:29:45,125 --> 00:29:46,541
- I want a Benji special.

810
00:29:46,625 --> 00:29:49,375
- Benji special.

811
00:29:49,458 --> 00:29:53,333
Get ready for your
socks to be blown off.

812
00:29:53,416 --> 00:29:55,625
- [Benji] And in that moment
I felt like a teenage girl

813
00:29:55,708 --> 00:29:59,458
and knew you were gonna
be around for a while.

814
00:29:59,541 --> 00:30:01,708
♪ Track between my ♪

815
00:30:01,791 --> 00:30:04,666
♪ My soul ♪

816
00:30:04,750 --> 00:30:09,708
♪ Think about you as
these feelings grow ♪

817
00:30:10,833 --> 00:30:14,875
♪ Different paths down
this winding road ♪

818
00:30:16,166 --> 00:30:19,500
♪ But I can't choose
which way to go ♪

819
00:30:19,583 --> 00:30:24,583
♪ When we're together,
we're strong ♪

820
00:30:25,791 --> 00:30:29,750
♪ But all this guilt
feels so wrong ♪

821
00:30:30,833 --> 00:30:34,750
♪ I wish I knew which
way I was headed ♪

822
00:30:36,416 --> 00:30:39,958
♪ This path ahead
seems so long ♪

823
00:30:40,041 --> 00:30:42,666
[bubble popping]

824
00:30:44,916 --> 00:30:47,125
What do you want to do now?

825
00:30:48,875 --> 00:30:51,500
[both panting]

826
00:30:53,583 --> 00:30:55,625
This did wonders for my esteem.

827
00:30:55,708 --> 00:30:58,666
[dramatic music]
[pencil scratching]

828
00:30:58,750 --> 00:30:59,708
[melancholy music]

829
00:30:59,791 --> 00:31:01,666
♪ My heart beats fast ♪

830
00:31:01,750 --> 00:31:04,083
♪ My blood runs slow ♪

831
00:31:04,166 --> 00:31:06,333
♪ Like the aftermath ♪

832
00:31:06,416 --> 00:31:07,791
- [Mum] Benji, where are you?

833
00:31:07,875 --> 00:31:09,291
- Yeah, I'm in Amsterdam.

834
00:31:09,375 --> 00:31:11,708
No, I don't want you
to fucking come out.

835
00:31:11,791 --> 00:31:12,750
I'm not.

836
00:31:12,833 --> 00:31:14,291
I'm not seeing him.

837
00:31:14,375 --> 00:31:15,791
I just need a few days
out here on my own.

838
00:31:15,875 --> 00:31:17,000
No, I promise you I'm fine.

839
00:31:17,083 --> 00:31:17,833
I'm fine.

840
00:31:19,583 --> 00:31:21,333
Fuck sake.

841
00:31:21,416 --> 00:31:24,125
Look, I just need three days
max and I'm gonna come home.

842
00:31:24,208 --> 00:31:25,291
I will.

843
00:31:25,583 --> 00:31:27,916
I'm not seeing
him. He's not here.

844
00:31:30,833 --> 00:31:31,625
[exhales]

845
00:31:31,708 --> 00:31:33,416
Okay, I love you.

846
00:31:33,500 --> 00:31:35,958
I gave my head a wobble and
decide to leave the flat,

847
00:31:36,041 --> 00:31:38,583
but I go and do
what I always do.

848
00:31:38,666 --> 00:31:41,666
Only this time it's down a
seedy alleyway in Amsterdam.

849
00:31:41,750 --> 00:31:45,208
[muffled energetic beat]

850
00:31:52,791 --> 00:31:55,750
[energetic club music]

851
00:31:58,500 --> 00:31:59,208
All right.

852
00:31:59,291 --> 00:32:01,791
[metal rattling]

853
00:32:08,708 --> 00:32:10,750
- You don't look
like your pictures.

854
00:32:10,833 --> 00:32:11,666
- [Benji] All right.

855
00:32:11,750 --> 00:32:12,791
He's not wrong.

856
00:32:13,083 --> 00:32:15,916
I did use face tune
on that picture.

857
00:32:23,666 --> 00:32:26,250
I don't have the words
for what happened next.

858
00:32:26,333 --> 00:32:27,041
[metal clanging]

859
00:32:27,125 --> 00:32:28,416
Not yet anyway.

860
00:32:29,833 --> 00:32:30,916
- Don't worry.

861
00:32:31,000 --> 00:32:31,916
Why you look so scared, huh?

862
00:32:32,000 --> 00:32:32,750
- I'm not scared.

863
00:32:33,041 --> 00:32:35,125
- I take care of you, yes?

864
00:32:39,833 --> 00:32:42,500
[Benji nervously laughing]

865
00:32:42,583 --> 00:32:43,708
[man speaking foreign language]

866
00:32:43,791 --> 00:32:45,000
Go.

867
00:32:45,083 --> 00:32:45,833
Yes.

868
00:32:47,541 --> 00:32:48,291
Hm?

869
00:32:49,250 --> 00:32:50,583
[whistles]

870
00:32:50,666 --> 00:32:51,375
Sit.

871
00:32:52,791 --> 00:32:54,416
Do as your told. Sit.

872
00:32:56,416 --> 00:32:57,125
Good boy.

873
00:33:04,958 --> 00:33:06,000
You do as I tell you, yes?

874
00:33:06,083 --> 00:33:06,833
- Mm-hm.
- Yes?

875
00:33:06,916 --> 00:33:08,541
- Yeah.
- Mm-hm.

876
00:33:08,625 --> 00:33:10,208
Relax.
- I'm fine.

877
00:33:10,291 --> 00:33:12,875
[wood creaking]

878
00:33:14,791 --> 00:33:16,125
You like?

879
00:33:16,208 --> 00:33:17,291
- Is he okay?

880
00:33:18,583 --> 00:33:19,333
- Yes.

881
00:33:20,166 --> 00:33:21,875
He wants me.

882
00:33:21,958 --> 00:33:22,791
He told me.

883
00:33:29,250 --> 00:33:30,000
Touch him.

884
00:33:32,208 --> 00:33:33,791
[man tutting]

885
00:33:33,875 --> 00:33:36,583
[man laughing]

886
00:33:37,875 --> 00:33:39,000
Why are you so scared?

887
00:33:39,083 --> 00:33:40,875
- I'm fine.

888
00:33:40,958 --> 00:33:42,916
- No. You need to relax.

889
00:33:43,958 --> 00:33:46,625
[glass clinking]

890
00:33:49,583 --> 00:33:51,916
- I've not done that one before.

891
00:33:52,000 --> 00:33:52,958
- It's okay.

892
00:33:54,500 --> 00:33:55,416
I show you.

893
00:34:03,541 --> 00:34:04,291
For you.

894
00:34:05,541 --> 00:34:07,083
You don't drink.

895
00:34:07,166 --> 00:34:09,958
[tuts] Not yet.

896
00:34:21,500 --> 00:34:23,000
- Just down it?
- Drink.

897
00:34:23,083 --> 00:34:24,500
- Okay.
- Sante.

898
00:34:24,583 --> 00:34:29,500
[muffled energetic
music continues]

899
00:34:29,583 --> 00:34:30,458
- Mm?
- Mm-hm.

900
00:34:30,541 --> 00:34:31,958
- You feel?
- Mm-hm.

901
00:34:32,041 --> 00:34:34,416
- You want to feel?
- Mm-hm.

902
00:34:42,625 --> 00:34:45,916
[loud energetic music]

903
00:35:06,333 --> 00:35:07,875
- What are you doing?

904
00:35:07,958 --> 00:35:09,166
- I need to go.

905
00:35:09,250 --> 00:35:09,958
- [Man] Huh?
- I need to leave.

906
00:35:10,041 --> 00:35:11,250
- [Man] What?

907
00:35:11,333 --> 00:35:12,625
No, no, no, no.

908
00:35:12,708 --> 00:35:14,041
Why you going?

909
00:35:14,125 --> 00:35:15,041
- Mm-mm.

910
00:35:15,125 --> 00:35:16,333
- Huh?

911
00:35:16,416 --> 00:35:17,333
- I don't feel very well.
- What?

912
00:35:17,416 --> 00:35:19,000
No, no. Stay.

913
00:35:19,083 --> 00:35:20,166
- Mm-mm.
- Huh?

914
00:35:20,250 --> 00:35:21,250
You stay here, huh?

915
00:35:21,333 --> 00:35:22,500
[man slapping and grunting]

916
00:35:22,583 --> 00:35:23,583
Huh?
[Benji crying]

917
00:35:23,666 --> 00:35:26,250
Come on. You fucking bitch.

918
00:35:26,333 --> 00:35:27,458
Huh?

919
00:35:27,541 --> 00:35:31,125
[speaks foreign language]

920
00:35:32,833 --> 00:35:35,083
[Benji vomiting and retching]

921
00:35:35,166 --> 00:35:39,541
[man screaming in
foreign language]

922
00:35:41,750 --> 00:35:44,708
[man spitting]

923
00:35:44,791 --> 00:35:47,000
- Eventually, he leaves
and my first thought is,

924
00:35:47,083 --> 00:35:48,916
"That could have been worse."

925
00:35:49,000 --> 00:35:51,250
How fucked up is that?

926
00:35:51,333 --> 00:35:52,208
[man shouting]

927
00:35:52,291 --> 00:35:53,250
I feel pain in my ribs

928
00:35:53,333 --> 00:35:54,458
and I close my eyes

929
00:35:54,541 --> 00:35:56,125
and leave my body.

930
00:35:59,208 --> 00:36:01,125
[film scratching]

931
00:36:01,208 --> 00:36:02,208
[gentle music]

932
00:36:02,291 --> 00:36:03,875
- The film you are about to see

933
00:36:03,958 --> 00:36:05,916
represents a homosexual.

934
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:07,458
- Oh, no, no.

935
00:36:07,541 --> 00:36:08,833
That's no kind of
a thing to say.

936
00:36:08,916 --> 00:36:10,458
[TV static hissing]

937
00:36:10,541 --> 00:36:11,666
- [Female Narrator] Find
themselves depersonalized.

938
00:36:11,750 --> 00:36:13,208
Like almost leaving their
body at those experience

939
00:36:13,291 --> 00:36:14,666
at those times.

940
00:36:14,750 --> 00:36:16,625
- [Mum] Benji, look
at the time, my love.

941
00:36:16,708 --> 00:36:19,000
- [Male Narrator] You
will grow up someday.

942
00:36:19,083 --> 00:36:20,625
- [Female Narrator] Typically,
when we see dissociation,

943
00:36:20,708 --> 00:36:22,541
in almost all cases
I've ever seen,

944
00:36:22,625 --> 00:36:24,208
it's a trauma response.

945
00:36:24,291 --> 00:36:25,125
It's often considered to be a-

946
00:36:25,208 --> 00:36:26,916
[dramatic music]

947
00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:29,125
- We seem to be drifting apart.

948
00:36:29,208 --> 00:36:31,166
- [Male Narrator] All
homosexuals are not passive.

949
00:36:31,250 --> 00:36:32,916
[dramatic music]

950
00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:35,083
- And it's all because of-

951
00:36:35,166 --> 00:36:36,125
- [Male Narrator]
Your product here.

952
00:36:36,208 --> 00:36:37,000
[Jake screaming]

953
00:36:37,083 --> 00:36:39,125
[muffled new report]

954
00:36:39,208 --> 00:36:41,416
[film scratching]
[Jake screaming]

955
00:36:41,500 --> 00:36:43,250
- [Male Narrator]
Disassociation.

956
00:36:43,333 --> 00:36:47,625
[manic music]
[Benji vomiting]

957
00:36:47,708 --> 00:36:49,375
- [Benji] Have you ever
been dealt a shit hand?

958
00:36:49,458 --> 00:36:51,625
[dramatic music]

959
00:36:51,708 --> 00:36:54,500
[energetic music]

960
00:36:58,375 --> 00:37:00,583
- Weren't you on my flight?

961
00:37:02,166 --> 00:37:04,291
- [Jake] I'm gonna fuck you up.

962
00:37:04,375 --> 00:37:09,333
- [Benji] I feel like I've been
sucked up into an arsehole.

963
00:37:10,458 --> 00:37:12,291
I lose so many
hours and I don't,

964
00:37:12,375 --> 00:37:13,958
don't know what day it is.

965
00:37:14,041 --> 00:37:16,125
- How much have you taken?

966
00:37:16,208 --> 00:37:18,625
- [Benji] And I just keep
wishing that I was back with...

967
00:37:18,708 --> 00:37:20,083
[TV static hissing]

968
00:37:20,166 --> 00:37:21,791
[upbeat music]

969
00:37:21,875 --> 00:37:23,750
And this was the first
trip that felt like a date.

970
00:37:23,833 --> 00:37:26,375
It felt like you
wanted to show me off.

971
00:37:26,458 --> 00:37:27,583
We went out of the apartment,

972
00:37:27,666 --> 00:37:29,083
we went bike riding together

973
00:37:29,166 --> 00:37:31,208
and it felt amazing.

974
00:37:31,291 --> 00:37:32,250
- [laughs] Fuck, are
you falling there?

975
00:37:32,333 --> 00:37:33,625
Falling there.

976
00:37:33,708 --> 00:37:34,458
What we talking
about here, no hands?

977
00:37:34,541 --> 00:37:35,416
Hey?

978
00:37:35,500 --> 00:37:37,166
[upbeat music continues]

979
00:37:37,250 --> 00:37:39,166
It's fucking shocking weather.

980
00:37:39,250 --> 00:37:40,458
- Yeah.
[brakes squealing]

981
00:37:40,541 --> 00:37:43,208
My brakes aren't
working. [laughs]

982
00:37:43,291 --> 00:37:45,500
Who's fucking idea was this?

983
00:37:45,583 --> 00:37:47,250
- Stop being a pussy.

984
00:37:48,708 --> 00:37:50,333
All right, here you go.

985
00:37:50,416 --> 00:37:51,791
Would you rather

986
00:37:53,166 --> 00:37:55,125
lick out a fanny that were full

987
00:37:55,208 --> 00:37:57,291
with cottage cheese that been
in the fridge for a year.

988
00:37:57,375 --> 00:37:58,750
[laughs]

989
00:37:58,833 --> 00:37:59,750
- Where the fuck do
you get this shit?

990
00:37:59,833 --> 00:38:01,041
- Or [laughs]

991
00:38:01,125 --> 00:38:02,791
suck someone off

992
00:38:02,875 --> 00:38:04,291
if he had a Yorkshire pudding

993
00:38:04,375 --> 00:38:06,125
wrapped around the
dick covered in gravy?

994
00:38:06,208 --> 00:38:07,916
[both laughing]

995
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:09,375
- Yorkshire pudding cock.

996
00:38:09,458 --> 00:38:10,458
[both laughing]

997
00:38:10,541 --> 00:38:12,166
- Whose cock is it?

998
00:38:12,250 --> 00:38:14,125
- Doesn't matter.

999
00:38:14,208 --> 00:38:15,250
[ax thudding]

1000
00:38:15,333 --> 00:38:16,708
- [Benji] And yeah. All right.

1001
00:38:16,791 --> 00:38:20,833
Maybe I do wear rose-tinted
glasses sometimes.

1002
00:38:20,916 --> 00:38:23,083
Maybe we weren't Snow
White and the Huntsman

1003
00:38:23,166 --> 00:38:26,083
running round the
woods that day.

1004
00:38:26,166 --> 00:38:30,000
But in my head it's how
I like to remember it.

1005
00:38:34,833 --> 00:38:37,583
- What do you wanna do tonight?

1006
00:38:37,666 --> 00:38:41,166
- I've actually got a
couple hours work tonight.

1007
00:38:41,250 --> 00:38:43,041
- You actually work out here?

1008
00:38:43,125 --> 00:38:43,916
- Yeah.

1009
00:38:44,000 --> 00:38:45,250
- Oh, right.

1010
00:38:45,333 --> 00:38:46,125
- It's a junior
league, new client.

1011
00:38:46,208 --> 00:38:48,083
In and out. Nice and easy.

1012
00:38:48,166 --> 00:38:49,666
- I can come.

1013
00:38:49,750 --> 00:38:50,500
- No.

1014
00:38:54,958 --> 00:38:58,458
I think we should go
somewhere hot next.

1015
00:38:58,541 --> 00:39:01,750
- I think you should stop
spending money on me.

1016
00:39:01,833 --> 00:39:04,125
- I think you should
shut the fuck up.

1017
00:39:04,208 --> 00:39:06,625
- Oh, yeah? [laughs]

1018
00:39:06,708 --> 00:39:08,291
Fuck off.

1019
00:39:08,375 --> 00:39:09,125
Fuck off.

1020
00:39:21,166 --> 00:39:22,375
[romantic string music]

1021
00:39:22,458 --> 00:39:22,958
That was actually
quite romantic.

1022
00:39:23,041 --> 00:39:25,541
[bubble popping]

1023
00:39:26,416 --> 00:39:28,000
- Suck me off.

1024
00:39:28,083 --> 00:39:29,750
- What if someone comes?

1025
00:39:29,833 --> 00:39:31,291
- Yeah, I'm gonna come.

1026
00:39:31,375 --> 00:39:32,458
- We're in the woods.

1027
00:39:32,541 --> 00:39:33,416
- Yeah, so?

1028
00:39:35,333 --> 00:39:37,250
- Can we not be
just like romantic

1029
00:39:37,333 --> 00:39:39,333
for like two minutes?

1030
00:39:39,416 --> 00:39:40,208
[record scratching]

1031
00:39:40,458 --> 00:39:42,625
I felt like a nosh on tap.

1032
00:39:48,125 --> 00:39:50,958
- Can we just make
something clear?

1033
00:39:51,041 --> 00:39:52,333
- All right, use
your serious voice.

1034
00:39:52,416 --> 00:39:55,500
- Shut the fuck up a second.

1035
00:39:55,583 --> 00:39:57,166
The arrangement is

1036
00:39:57,250 --> 00:40:00,375
we see each other in
Amsterdam, not in the UK.

1037
00:40:00,458 --> 00:40:02,041
I book the trips

1038
00:40:02,125 --> 00:40:03,666
and I tell you when we're
gonna see each other.

1039
00:40:03,750 --> 00:40:04,500
All right?

1040
00:40:08,666 --> 00:40:09,875
- Hale?

1041
00:40:09,958 --> 00:40:11,291
[laughs] You live
in fucking Hale?

1042
00:40:11,375 --> 00:40:12,375
- The fuck you doing
with my wallet?

1043
00:40:12,458 --> 00:40:13,291
You fucking weirdo. Get off.

1044
00:40:13,375 --> 00:40:14,291
- Fucking hell. Calm down mate.

1045
00:40:14,375 --> 00:40:15,458
- Don't tell me to calm down.

1046
00:40:15,541 --> 00:40:16,500
- Don't fucking shout at me.

1047
00:40:16,583 --> 00:40:17,458
- Don't shout at me!

1048
00:40:17,541 --> 00:40:18,541
- Fuck off!

1049
00:40:18,625 --> 00:40:19,291
- You fuck off you little prick.

1050
00:40:19,375 --> 00:40:20,500
- Don't fucking hit me.

1051
00:40:20,583 --> 00:40:21,416
- Fuck off you little-
- Fuck off.

1052
00:40:21,500 --> 00:40:22,541
- Fuck off you little cunt.

1053
00:40:22,625 --> 00:40:25,291
Don't touch my shit. All right?

1054
00:40:26,458 --> 00:40:27,416
- I'm going.

1055
00:40:28,875 --> 00:40:30,291
- Benji, don't go.

1056
00:40:30,375 --> 00:40:31,000
- Don't. Fucking stop
grabbing my arms.

1057
00:40:31,083 --> 00:40:32,083
- Benji, fucking stay.

1058
00:40:32,166 --> 00:40:33,958
Just stay. Just stay. I'm sorry.

1059
00:40:34,041 --> 00:40:34,916
- Yeah.
- Here.

1060
00:40:35,000 --> 00:40:35,791
- No.

1061
00:40:35,875 --> 00:40:37,291
I don't...

1062
00:40:37,375 --> 00:40:38,083
Fuck off.

1063
00:40:40,375 --> 00:40:43,666
- Benji, just don't go.
Just stay. I'm sorry.

1064
00:40:43,750 --> 00:40:45,041
- Just don't fucking
grab my arms again.

1065
00:40:45,125 --> 00:40:46,583
- Okay. Okay.

1066
00:40:46,666 --> 00:40:47,833
- Fucking hell.

1067
00:40:47,916 --> 00:40:49,250
- Just don't touch my shit.

1068
00:40:49,333 --> 00:40:51,166
You taking my shit for?

1069
00:40:53,125 --> 00:40:55,083
Look, I don't want
anything serious.

1070
00:40:55,166 --> 00:40:57,083
Okay? I'm not looking
for a relationship.

1071
00:40:57,166 --> 00:40:58,875
I'm really happy the
way that things are.

1072
00:40:58,958 --> 00:41:02,125
If you're not, then
that's fine but...

1073
00:41:02,208 --> 00:41:03,500
- I think I just wanna
go back to be honest.

1074
00:41:03,583 --> 00:41:04,666
- Okay. You all right?

1075
00:41:04,750 --> 00:41:05,833
- I'm fine.

1076
00:41:05,916 --> 00:41:06,916
- Did I hurt you?
- No.

1077
00:41:07,000 --> 00:41:09,416
[somber music]

1078
00:41:14,041 --> 00:41:15,458
And looking back,

1079
00:41:15,541 --> 00:41:17,333
I think this was the
moment we both knew

1080
00:41:17,416 --> 00:41:19,958
that this wasn't gonna end well.

1081
00:41:52,166 --> 00:41:54,708
I really wish that
moment had happened,

1082
00:41:54,791 --> 00:41:55,625
but

1083
00:41:55,708 --> 00:41:59,291
[record scratching]

1084
00:41:59,375 --> 00:42:03,458
he never would kiss me
in front of other people.

1085
00:42:08,875 --> 00:42:10,291
- When in Amsterdam

1086
00:42:11,750 --> 00:42:12,833
have pancakes.

1087
00:42:12,916 --> 00:42:13,666
- Cheers.

1088
00:42:18,458 --> 00:42:21,458
- I'm sorry about yesterday.

1089
00:42:21,541 --> 00:42:23,416
I think I get my
temper from my dad.

1090
00:42:23,500 --> 00:42:25,875
- You get it from somewhere.

1091
00:42:26,958 --> 00:42:28,291
Still see you dad?

1092
00:42:29,458 --> 00:42:30,208
- No mate.

1093
00:42:32,916 --> 00:42:36,375
I've not seen him since
the late nineties.

1094
00:42:36,458 --> 00:42:37,833
[upbeat music]

1095
00:42:38,125 --> 00:42:41,625
- [Benji] Who doesn't
love a nineties flashback?

1096
00:42:43,541 --> 00:42:45,000
[egg smashing]

1097
00:42:45,083 --> 00:42:47,875
And this might feel like
a toxic origin story,

1098
00:42:47,958 --> 00:42:49,583
but people are complicated.

1099
00:42:49,666 --> 00:42:52,250
And I'm not excusing him.

1100
00:42:52,333 --> 00:42:55,416
When I heard this,
I wanted to fix him.

1101
00:42:55,500 --> 00:42:56,666
I wanted him to be okay.

1102
00:42:56,750 --> 00:42:57,666
Morning dad.

1103
00:43:02,833 --> 00:43:04,333
Dad.

1104
00:43:04,416 --> 00:43:05,166
Dad.

1105
00:43:07,500 --> 00:43:09,375
I'll get you some food.

1106
00:43:10,416 --> 00:43:11,541
[upbeat music]

1107
00:43:11,625 --> 00:43:13,291
- [Benji] And then she came,

1108
00:43:13,375 --> 00:43:15,125
his Auntie Jackie.

1109
00:43:15,208 --> 00:43:16,333
Now, I'm not gonna lie,

1110
00:43:16,625 --> 00:43:19,458
on paper she is a
bit of a gay icon.

1111
00:43:24,750 --> 00:43:26,750
[door clicking]

1112
00:43:26,833 --> 00:43:28,208
- You all right?

1113
00:43:29,458 --> 00:43:31,875
[bag rustling]

1114
00:43:39,500 --> 00:43:41,500
A hello would be nice.

1115
00:43:42,875 --> 00:43:47,416
Your dad's gone off and he's
asked me to check in on you.

1116
00:43:48,500 --> 00:43:51,458
Well, fucking hell.
I can go if you want.

1117
00:43:51,541 --> 00:43:52,708
There you go.

1118
00:43:53,000 --> 00:43:55,958
That's the proper
man's drink that is.

1119
00:43:58,125 --> 00:43:59,583
- It's fucking hanging that.

1120
00:43:59,666 --> 00:44:00,583
- Oh, drink it up.
- Why's it doing that?

1121
00:44:00,666 --> 00:44:02,500
- Bloody drink it up your poof.

1122
00:44:02,583 --> 00:44:04,416
- Would you rather have

1123
00:44:04,500 --> 00:44:08,791
a daughter that's his
slag or a son that's gay?

1124
00:44:08,875 --> 00:44:10,416
[Jackie laughing]

1125
00:44:10,500 --> 00:44:14,041
- Would you rather a
fanny dipped in cheese,

1126
00:44:15,583 --> 00:44:16,916
like cottage cheese

1127
00:44:17,000 --> 00:44:19,666
that's been out for like weeks

1128
00:44:19,750 --> 00:44:23,791
or a cock wrapped in
Yorkshire pudding and gravy.

1129
00:44:25,500 --> 00:44:26,416
- Fanny, obviously.

1130
00:44:26,500 --> 00:44:27,666
- [laughs] You fucking liar.

1131
00:44:27,750 --> 00:44:28,791
- It would be the fanny.

1132
00:44:28,875 --> 00:44:29,833
- You love Yorkshire puddings.

1133
00:44:29,916 --> 00:44:30,916
- Yeah, but not round a dick.

1134
00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:31,708
It would obviously be fanny.

1135
00:44:31,791 --> 00:44:32,791
- Oh, no way.

1136
00:44:32,875 --> 00:44:34,416
You are absolute a virgin mate.

1137
00:44:34,500 --> 00:44:35,750
There's no way you've
been near fanny.

1138
00:44:35,833 --> 00:44:36,750
- I'm not a virgin.

1139
00:44:36,833 --> 00:44:38,166
- [laughs] I can smell it.

1140
00:44:38,250 --> 00:44:39,375
- I'm not a fucking virgin.

1141
00:44:39,666 --> 00:44:43,791
- Oh, I've touched
a nerve! [laughs]

1142
00:44:44,708 --> 00:44:45,708
[door knocking]

1143
00:44:45,791 --> 00:44:47,291
- Who's that?

1144
00:44:47,375 --> 00:44:48,583
- Oh, don't you worry.

1145
00:44:48,666 --> 00:44:50,083
You just stay down here.

1146
00:44:50,166 --> 00:44:52,000
Mommy's got to do a little work.

1147
00:44:52,083 --> 00:44:52,916
- Mommy?

1148
00:44:53,000 --> 00:44:53,791
- Sorry. Auntie Jackie.

1149
00:44:53,875 --> 00:44:57,416
[heels tapping]

1150
00:44:57,500 --> 00:44:58,500
You all right, Paul?

1151
00:44:58,583 --> 00:44:59,833
Come on in. Cash up front, yeah?

1152
00:44:59,916 --> 00:45:00,583
- Yeah.

1153
00:45:00,666 --> 00:45:01,625
- Great.

1154
00:45:02,541 --> 00:45:03,875
- Who's the kid?

1155
00:45:03,958 --> 00:45:07,375
- Oh, it's just my
nephew. It's fine.

1156
00:45:07,458 --> 00:45:08,833
- I don't think
he should be here.

1157
00:45:08,916 --> 00:45:12,916
- Well, he is not
coming upstairs babe.

1158
00:45:13,000 --> 00:45:14,458
- Don't think I'm
pretty keen on that.

1159
00:45:14,541 --> 00:45:15,625
- Oh, don't worry.

1160
00:45:15,708 --> 00:45:16,625
I've got the nappies. It's fine.

1161
00:45:16,708 --> 00:45:17,750
Come on.

1162
00:45:17,833 --> 00:45:18,958
Do you want me to slap you?

1163
00:45:19,041 --> 00:45:20,250
Call you-

1164
00:45:20,500 --> 00:45:21,541
- [Man] As long as
he stays down there.

1165
00:45:21,833 --> 00:45:24,375
- [Jackie] Yeah,
yeah. It'll be fine.

1166
00:45:27,791 --> 00:45:31,625
[classical instrumental music]

1167
00:45:35,583 --> 00:45:37,083
- [Jackie] Right,
you fucking bastard.

1168
00:45:37,166 --> 00:45:38,166
You love this, don't you?
[Jackie slapping]

1169
00:45:38,250 --> 00:45:39,291
Where's your dummy?
[Jackie slapping]

1170
00:45:39,375 --> 00:45:40,583
Do you wanna suck on a dummy?

1171
00:45:40,666 --> 00:45:42,458
You fucking skanky baby.
[Jackie slapping]

1172
00:45:42,541 --> 00:45:43,666
Oh, come on!
[Jackie slapping]

1173
00:45:43,750 --> 00:45:45,125
- [Man] Please.
- [Jackie] Oh!

1174
00:45:45,208 --> 00:45:46,000
Do you want another slap?

1175
00:45:46,083 --> 00:45:47,458
- [Man] Yeah.

1176
00:45:47,541 --> 00:45:48,916
- [Jackie] You've
been a naughty baby.

1177
00:45:49,000 --> 00:45:49,625
- [Man] Please, yes.
- [Jackie] A naughty baby.

1178
00:45:49,708 --> 00:45:50,666
- [Man] I'm so bad.

1179
00:45:50,750 --> 00:45:51,583
Okay.

1180
00:45:51,875 --> 00:45:53,125
- [Jackie] Wipe your own shit.

1181
00:45:53,416 --> 00:45:57,125
I've had enough of you,
fucking horrible baby.

1182
00:46:00,000 --> 00:46:02,625
[bed thumping]

1183
00:46:03,750 --> 00:46:06,125
[upbeat music]

1184
00:46:06,208 --> 00:46:09,916
- I always feel a bit frisky
after I've had a bit of action.

1185
00:46:10,000 --> 00:46:10,750
I saw you.

1186
00:46:12,250 --> 00:46:13,541
- What?

1187
00:46:13,625 --> 00:46:15,750
- Little pervert.

1188
00:46:15,833 --> 00:46:17,500
Were you watching him?

1189
00:46:17,583 --> 00:46:18,583
- No.

1190
00:46:20,416 --> 00:46:22,500
- Well, you can't have
been wanking about me

1191
00:46:22,583 --> 00:46:24,875
because I'm your auntie.

1192
00:46:24,958 --> 00:46:26,750
That would be weird.

1193
00:46:28,666 --> 00:46:29,541
- Did he pay you?

1194
00:46:29,625 --> 00:46:30,708
- Yeah, £50.

1195
00:46:30,791 --> 00:46:32,666
- Ugh, you little slag.

1196
00:46:32,750 --> 00:46:33,625
- Don't talk to me like that.

1197
00:46:33,708 --> 00:46:36,083
Everyone pays for sex.

1198
00:46:36,166 --> 00:46:37,291
Nothing wrong with it.

1199
00:46:37,375 --> 00:46:39,833
- Yeah. Who do you pay for sex?

1200
00:46:39,916 --> 00:46:40,625
- Do you know what?

1201
00:46:40,708 --> 00:46:41,541
I would pay

1202
00:46:43,708 --> 00:46:46,958
£45 for Eric Cantona
to do me from behind.

1203
00:46:47,041 --> 00:46:48,375
Really rough.

1204
00:46:48,458 --> 00:46:49,250
Love that.

1205
00:46:50,166 --> 00:46:51,166
It's his hands.

1206
00:46:51,250 --> 00:46:52,541
They're so big.

1207
00:46:54,041 --> 00:46:56,000
Oh, Banjo, Banjo, Banjo.

1208
00:46:58,041 --> 00:46:59,750
I bet you'd like Eric

1209
00:46:59,833 --> 00:47:00,875
up the bum. [laughs]

1210
00:47:00,958 --> 00:47:01,666
- He's mine.

1211
00:47:01,750 --> 00:47:02,750
- What?

1212
00:47:06,583 --> 00:47:08,750
- Did dad leave me a card out

1213
00:47:08,833 --> 00:47:10,541
or anything for my birthday?

1214
00:47:10,625 --> 00:47:12,375
- Is it your birthday?

1215
00:47:13,458 --> 00:47:14,750
- I mean, have you
had sex before?

1216
00:47:14,833 --> 00:47:15,583
- Oh, my God.
Don't ask him that.

1217
00:47:15,666 --> 00:47:16,750
You'll embarrass him.

1218
00:47:16,833 --> 00:47:18,250
- What? It's a simple question.

1219
00:47:18,333 --> 00:47:19,833
Have you or have you not?

1220
00:47:19,916 --> 00:47:21,166
- Yeah.

1221
00:47:21,250 --> 00:47:23,333
- There we go.
Question answered.

1222
00:47:23,416 --> 00:47:25,625
- Right, you two pop upstairs

1223
00:47:25,708 --> 00:47:27,625
and, you know, pop
his cherry. [laughs]

1224
00:47:27,708 --> 00:47:30,291
[woman sighing]

1225
00:47:30,375 --> 00:47:31,625
- What do you mean?

1226
00:47:31,708 --> 00:47:33,083
- Happy birthday Jakey?

1227
00:47:33,166 --> 00:47:34,625
- Oh, fuck off Jackie.

1228
00:47:34,708 --> 00:47:36,291
- Oh, come on. Chill out.

1229
00:47:36,375 --> 00:47:37,541
Come on, Jack.

1230
00:47:39,125 --> 00:47:40,250
- Jake.

1231
00:47:40,333 --> 00:47:43,583
- She's all right.
She's dyslexic.

1232
00:47:43,666 --> 00:47:44,666
Don't be so worried.

1233
00:47:44,750 --> 00:47:46,541
You'll be all right.

1234
00:47:46,625 --> 00:47:47,833
Just take her from behind

1235
00:47:47,916 --> 00:47:49,875
and pretend she's
George Clooney.

1236
00:47:49,958 --> 00:47:51,416
She's handsome.

1237
00:47:51,500 --> 00:47:53,291
She's got a strong nose.

1238
00:47:53,375 --> 00:47:54,750
You'll be all right.

1239
00:47:54,833 --> 00:47:56,458
- I'll try to keep her quiet.

1240
00:47:56,541 --> 00:47:58,000
[bed springs thumping]

1241
00:47:58,083 --> 00:48:01,750
- [laughs] Nice one.

1242
00:48:01,833 --> 00:48:04,041
Hello. [kisses]

1243
00:48:04,125 --> 00:48:06,416
Do you want to come and live
with your auntie Jackie?

1244
00:48:06,500 --> 00:48:07,458
[bag rustling]

1245
00:48:07,541 --> 00:48:08,625
There we go. There you go.

1246
00:48:08,708 --> 00:48:10,125
That's nice, isn't it?

1247
00:48:10,208 --> 00:48:13,083
Fucking heavier
than Oprah Winfrey.

1248
00:48:16,166 --> 00:48:18,583
[stairs creaking]

1249
00:48:18,666 --> 00:48:20,166
- Not gonna stay?

1250
00:48:20,250 --> 00:48:21,958
- No. [laughs]

1251
00:48:22,041 --> 00:48:23,833
It was only an hour.

1252
00:48:25,250 --> 00:48:27,083
- Was it good?

1253
00:48:27,166 --> 00:48:28,333
- It was fast.

1254
00:48:30,625 --> 00:48:32,250
Look, your auntie
only paid for me

1255
00:48:32,333 --> 00:48:34,291
because she thought
you were a wee poof.

1256
00:48:34,375 --> 00:48:39,083
She didn't think you're actually
gonna go through with it.

1257
00:48:39,166 --> 00:48:39,875
[somber music]

1258
00:48:39,958 --> 00:48:42,458
[door thudding]

1259
00:48:42,541 --> 00:48:43,291
Banjo.

1260
00:48:45,791 --> 00:48:46,791
Excuse me.

1261
00:48:46,875 --> 00:48:47,625
Have you seen a lady with a dog?

1262
00:48:47,708 --> 00:48:48,708
Banjo!

1263
00:48:49,916 --> 00:48:52,708
- [Benji] He never did
see that little dog again.

1264
00:48:52,791 --> 00:48:54,375
Apparently, she sold it for £40.

1265
00:48:54,458 --> 00:48:59,458
[glass smashing]
[Jake screaming]

1266
00:49:06,833 --> 00:49:10,708
I don't think he saw
any of his family again.

1267
00:49:13,791 --> 00:49:15,500
[dramatic music]
[pencil scratching]

1268
00:49:15,583 --> 00:49:16,708
- [Mum] Benji, why's your
phone been off for eight hours?

1269
00:49:16,791 --> 00:49:18,208
I'm worried.

1270
00:49:18,291 --> 00:49:20,041
You need to come home.

1271
00:49:20,125 --> 00:49:23,750
It's not gonna make you
feel better being out there.

1272
00:49:23,833 --> 00:49:25,208
He's not coming back.

1273
00:49:25,291 --> 00:49:28,458
He's moved on and
you need to and all.

1274
00:49:29,708 --> 00:49:31,708
- After putting myself
in danger yesterday,

1275
00:49:31,791 --> 00:49:34,083
I still wake up
and think, fuck it,

1276
00:49:34,166 --> 00:49:36,666
I'm gonna meet someone.

1277
00:49:36,750 --> 00:49:38,208
And I know what
you're thinking, but

1278
00:49:38,291 --> 00:49:40,500
he looks like he's
got a really nice face

1279
00:49:40,583 --> 00:49:43,375
and I'm gonna meet
him somewhere public

1280
00:49:43,458 --> 00:49:45,125
in some toilets.

1281
00:49:45,208 --> 00:49:48,791
- I don't usually meet
in public toilets.

1282
00:49:48,875 --> 00:49:50,416
- I mean, I thought it'd
be a bit less awkward

1283
00:49:50,500 --> 00:49:54,166
than meeting outside Anne
Frank's house. [laughs]

1284
00:49:54,250 --> 00:49:56,708
- Do you not just wanna
like leave the toilets

1285
00:49:56,791 --> 00:49:58,333
and go get a coffee?

1286
00:49:59,791 --> 00:50:01,416
- I mean, I poked my head
in the cubicles before

1287
00:50:01,500 --> 00:50:03,583
and they're pretty clean.

1288
00:50:04,958 --> 00:50:06,041
What you say?

1289
00:50:08,791 --> 00:50:10,041
- Okay.
- Yeah?

1290
00:50:11,208 --> 00:50:13,916
- Okay.
- All right, fuck it. Come on.

1291
00:50:14,000 --> 00:50:15,541
- Fuck it.
- Fuck it.

1292
00:50:17,333 --> 00:50:19,875
So are you top or bottom?

1293
00:50:19,958 --> 00:50:21,000
- I'm vers.

1294
00:50:21,083 --> 00:50:22,291
- So bottom?

1295
00:50:22,375 --> 00:50:23,458
- No, I'm vers.
[person urinating]

1296
00:50:23,541 --> 00:50:24,333
- Okay.

1297
00:50:25,416 --> 00:50:27,750
- Look, I can't
hook up in toilet.

1298
00:50:27,833 --> 00:50:29,083
- No one's gonna come in.

1299
00:50:29,166 --> 00:50:30,250
- [laughs] It's
really not my thing.

1300
00:50:30,333 --> 00:50:31,500
- No one's gonna come in.

1301
00:50:31,583 --> 00:50:33,000
[urinating continues]

1302
00:50:33,083 --> 00:50:34,125
[person passing gas]

1303
00:50:34,208 --> 00:50:36,583
- Shush. Shush.
[Benji laughing]

1304
00:50:36,666 --> 00:50:38,000
[door squeaking]

1305
00:50:38,083 --> 00:50:40,791
[toilet flushing]

1306
00:50:42,750 --> 00:50:45,333
[door squeaking]

1307
00:50:46,583 --> 00:50:47,291
He's gone.

1308
00:50:48,666 --> 00:50:50,958
- Do you want a piss or
something before you go?

1309
00:50:51,041 --> 00:50:51,750
- No.

1310
00:50:51,833 --> 00:50:52,666
- No, look.

1311
00:50:54,666 --> 00:50:58,208
You can literally
smell shit in here.

1312
00:50:58,291 --> 00:50:59,666
- Do you not fancy me?

1313
00:50:59,750 --> 00:51:00,416
It's fine.

1314
00:51:01,583 --> 00:51:02,666
- Shush.

1315
00:51:02,750 --> 00:51:04,333
Let's just get a coffee.

1316
00:51:04,416 --> 00:51:05,166
No stress.

1317
00:51:06,458 --> 00:51:07,625
- Okay.

1318
00:51:07,708 --> 00:51:08,416
- Okay then?

1319
00:51:08,500 --> 00:51:09,916
- Okay then.

1320
00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:11,416
I'm Kieran.
- Benji.

1321
00:51:13,958 --> 00:51:15,375
I'll do my belt up then.

1322
00:51:15,458 --> 00:51:16,833
[twinkling jingle]

1323
00:51:16,916 --> 00:51:17,916
- Nearly.

1324
00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:19,208
[Benji laughing]

1325
00:51:19,291 --> 00:51:20,250
- [Benji] Now, I
am not gonna lie.

1326
00:51:20,333 --> 00:51:22,791
He gave me proper
fizzy knickers.

1327
00:51:22,875 --> 00:51:25,916
But Kieran was
escaping just like me.

1328
00:51:26,958 --> 00:51:29,750
His troubles sunk a
little deeper than mine.

1329
00:51:29,833 --> 00:51:30,583
- Go on!

1330
00:51:30,666 --> 00:51:31,416
Go on!

1331
00:51:33,041 --> 00:51:35,875
- I need another drink.

1332
00:51:35,958 --> 00:51:37,083
- No, how much have you drank?

1333
00:51:37,166 --> 00:51:38,875
- You drive like this?

1334
00:51:38,958 --> 00:51:40,416
- Absolutely. You go to the bar.

1335
00:51:40,500 --> 00:51:41,291
I'll do the driving.

1336
00:51:41,375 --> 00:51:43,125
- Please. Stop!

1337
00:51:43,208 --> 00:51:44,250
- Who the fuck are you?

1338
00:51:44,333 --> 00:51:45,333
Fuck off.

1339
00:51:45,416 --> 00:51:46,125
- What?

1340
00:51:46,208 --> 00:51:47,208
- Fuck off.

1341
00:51:47,291 --> 00:51:48,958
Get out.

1342
00:51:49,041 --> 00:51:50,666
- [Benji] He kept pushing
away the people he loved,

1343
00:51:50,750 --> 00:51:52,708
again and again.

1344
00:51:52,791 --> 00:51:56,083
[Kieran crying]

1345
00:51:56,166 --> 00:51:58,916
[siren wailing]

1346
00:52:01,958 --> 00:52:04,666
[Kieran chocking]

1347
00:52:04,750 --> 00:52:05,750
[Kieran shouting]

1348
00:52:05,833 --> 00:52:07,083
He ends up coming back to mine.

1349
00:52:07,166 --> 00:52:08,375
And to be honest, it
feels fucking weird

1350
00:52:08,458 --> 00:52:10,750
being here with another guy.

1351
00:52:10,833 --> 00:52:12,250
- You okay?
- Yeah.

1352
00:52:14,958 --> 00:52:17,125
- What's wrong?
- Nothing.

1353
00:52:19,958 --> 00:52:21,041
- You seem a little bit...

1354
00:52:21,125 --> 00:52:22,833
- No, I'm just saying

1355
00:52:22,916 --> 00:52:24,333
that it'd be nice if we just
did stuff together like...

1356
00:52:24,416 --> 00:52:26,416
- What? You gonna take me out?

1357
00:52:26,500 --> 00:52:28,083
- Yeah.
- Where?

1358
00:52:28,166 --> 00:52:28,916
Pizza Hut?

1359
00:52:30,458 --> 00:52:32,458
- [Benji] Erm. I actually
used to work at Pizza Hut

1360
00:52:32,541 --> 00:52:34,333
and it's got a really
good salad bar.

1361
00:52:34,416 --> 00:52:35,250
- I don't want it like that.

1362
00:52:35,333 --> 00:52:36,583
We had an agreement.

1363
00:52:36,666 --> 00:52:37,250
We've already talked
about this before.

1364
00:52:37,333 --> 00:52:38,208
- Right.

1365
00:52:38,291 --> 00:52:39,291
- Okay?

1366
00:52:39,375 --> 00:52:40,666
We come here, we get a girl.

1367
00:52:40,750 --> 00:52:42,291
Just chill.

1368
00:52:42,375 --> 00:52:44,666
Just like, just calm down
a little bit. All right?

1369
00:52:44,750 --> 00:52:45,791
- All I'm trying to
say is it's been three-

1370
00:52:45,875 --> 00:52:47,291
- Are you having fun?

1371
00:52:47,375 --> 00:52:48,458
Are you having a good
time, me and you?

1372
00:52:48,541 --> 00:52:50,083
- [Benji] What?

1373
00:52:50,166 --> 00:52:51,208
- Are you having a good
time? I said, me and you.

1374
00:52:51,291 --> 00:52:52,750
- Fucking hell.

1375
00:52:52,833 --> 00:52:54,666
What if I meet someone?

1376
00:52:54,750 --> 00:52:57,416
- [laughs] Where are
you gonna meet someone?

1377
00:52:57,500 --> 00:52:58,583
- [Benji] What?

1378
00:52:58,833 --> 00:52:59,541
- Where are you
gonna meet someone?

1379
00:52:59,791 --> 00:53:01,000
You don't do anything.

1380
00:53:01,291 --> 00:53:04,500
What, are you gonna meet
someone better than me?

1381
00:53:05,458 --> 00:53:06,708
- I'm sort of still
seeing somebody.

1382
00:53:06,791 --> 00:53:08,958
So it's all a bit like...

1383
00:53:09,041 --> 00:53:09,750
- Ah.

1384
00:53:09,833 --> 00:53:10,583
Okay.
- Yeah.

1385
00:53:10,666 --> 00:53:11,416
- Really?

1386
00:53:13,041 --> 00:53:14,041
Cool.

1387
00:53:14,125 --> 00:53:15,250
All right, so I think, yeah,

1388
00:53:15,333 --> 00:53:17,083
I'll see ya, maybe.

1389
00:53:18,083 --> 00:53:19,791
- [Benji] Have you
ever had that moment

1390
00:53:19,875 --> 00:53:21,125
when you realized that you
might have become the arsehole?

1391
00:53:21,208 --> 00:53:22,541
[bell ringing]
[melancholy music]

1392
00:53:23,083 --> 00:53:27,333
I mean, you're channeling some
big dick energy there Benji.

1393
00:53:28,333 --> 00:53:29,958
I sometimes wonder if we'd
have met when we were younger

1394
00:53:30,041 --> 00:53:33,125
if things would've
been different.

1395
00:53:33,208 --> 00:53:35,208
- Would you rather

1396
00:53:35,291 --> 00:53:37,500
have everyone able
to hear your thoughts

1397
00:53:37,583 --> 00:53:42,125
or you can hear everyone's
thoughts in the entire world?

1398
00:53:43,291 --> 00:53:46,416
- I can hear everybody
else's thoughts.

1399
00:53:47,708 --> 00:53:49,083
Would you rather

1400
00:53:50,041 --> 00:53:52,833
always scream or always whisper?

1401
00:53:56,333 --> 00:53:57,666
- Always scream.

1402
00:54:03,958 --> 00:54:05,541
Don't fucking do that to me.

1403
00:54:05,625 --> 00:54:06,958
Don't fucking do that to me.

1404
00:54:07,041 --> 00:54:08,625
I'm not fucking gay.

1405
00:54:08,708 --> 00:54:09,666
You pervert.

1406
00:54:09,750 --> 00:54:10,958
- Second thoughts. Maybe not.

1407
00:54:11,041 --> 00:54:12,750
[door knocking]

1408
00:54:12,833 --> 00:54:16,125
[floorboards creaking]

1409
00:54:18,833 --> 00:54:21,125
I feel like a bit of
a prick to be honest.

1410
00:54:21,208 --> 00:54:21,916
- No, don't worry about it.

1411
00:54:22,000 --> 00:54:23,458
It's okay.

1412
00:54:23,541 --> 00:54:24,625
I'll have just have a
little five minutes.

1413
00:54:24,708 --> 00:54:26,166
- Yeah, so I wanna tell
you something. Okay?

1414
00:54:26,250 --> 00:54:29,041
- Just became a cycle
that I was stuck in

1415
00:54:29,125 --> 00:54:31,791
and I'm still stuck in it
now and we're not together.

1416
00:54:31,875 --> 00:54:33,166
- It's kind of like
haunted, isn't it?

1417
00:54:33,250 --> 00:54:34,583
This place now.

1418
00:54:34,666 --> 00:54:36,208
- I feel like I'm
still with him.

1419
00:54:36,291 --> 00:54:37,875
Do you know? Like I
never, we never broke up.

1420
00:54:37,958 --> 00:54:40,125
We were never like
officially together but

1421
00:54:40,208 --> 00:54:43,250
it feels like I'm still in it.

1422
00:54:43,333 --> 00:54:44,583
Like I'm deep in it

1423
00:54:44,666 --> 00:54:48,125
and I can't find
the way out of it.

1424
00:54:48,208 --> 00:54:51,666
And then I can hear my mum
from a few weeks ago saying...

1425
00:54:51,750 --> 00:54:54,083
- [Mum] "Stop talking
about that dickhead

1426
00:54:54,166 --> 00:54:55,833
and find a nice guy."

1427
00:54:57,000 --> 00:55:01,041
[somber music]
- It's getting late.

1428
00:55:09,166 --> 00:55:10,750
- [Benji] And then I realized

1429
00:55:10,833 --> 00:55:12,250
that this is the first time
that I've fallen asleep

1430
00:55:12,333 --> 00:55:15,125
without drinking in over a year.

1431
00:55:20,333 --> 00:55:24,208
- [laughs] Thanks for that.

1432
00:55:24,291 --> 00:55:25,291
So be happy.

1433
00:55:29,250 --> 00:55:30,250
Come here.

1434
00:55:35,083 --> 00:55:36,125
See ya.
- See ya.

1435
00:55:36,208 --> 00:55:37,750
I think this is the first time

1436
00:55:37,833 --> 00:55:41,083
that I've had someone back
and not had sex with them.

1437
00:55:41,166 --> 00:55:42,458
We arranged to sit
next to each other

1438
00:55:42,541 --> 00:55:44,625
on the flight back
to Manchester.

1439
00:55:44,708 --> 00:55:46,208
I feel a bit giddy.

1440
00:55:46,291 --> 00:55:50,000
[melancholy music]

1441
00:55:50,083 --> 00:55:51,541
I'm starting to think
that maybe coming here's

1442
00:55:51,625 --> 00:55:53,291
helping a little bit.

1443
00:56:00,875 --> 00:56:05,833
And then I'll see you in my
head and it'll hurt again.

1444
00:56:06,583 --> 00:56:07,958
But maybe not as much.

1445
00:56:09,541 --> 00:56:12,333
[Jake laughing]

1446
00:56:25,333 --> 00:56:28,125
I just keep replaying
when it all fell apart.

1447
00:56:28,208 --> 00:56:30,750
- Stop filming me, you cunt.

1448
00:56:30,833 --> 00:56:33,125
- Hello you mad cunt.
[pencil scratching]

1449
00:56:33,208 --> 00:56:34,250
Benji boy.

1450
00:56:34,333 --> 00:56:35,833
Guess where I am.

1451
00:56:37,083 --> 00:56:38,583
Me and the lads had
a fucking wild one

1452
00:56:38,666 --> 00:56:39,708
and we are in

1453
00:56:41,041 --> 00:56:42,375
Amsterdam [laughs]

1454
00:56:42,458 --> 00:56:43,375
and I know you're
here this weekend.

1455
00:56:43,458 --> 00:56:45,875
So why don't you
come out and meet us?

1456
00:56:45,958 --> 00:56:46,958
- [Benji] Bringing him here

1457
00:56:47,041 --> 00:56:48,166
was the worst idea in the world.

1458
00:56:48,250 --> 00:56:50,000
[energetic club music]

1459
00:56:50,083 --> 00:56:50,916
- Have a fucking hit have
you? It's the fucking weekend.

1460
00:56:51,000 --> 00:56:52,250
- I don't want anything.

1461
00:56:52,333 --> 00:56:52,708
I told you stop
acting like a couple

1462
00:56:52,791 --> 00:56:54,333
because we're not.

1463
00:56:54,416 --> 00:56:56,333
- [Benji] The second he
met Ryan, his back was up.

1464
00:56:56,416 --> 00:56:57,958
It was like he wanted a fight.

1465
00:56:58,041 --> 00:56:59,458
- I haven't fucking
told anyone anything.

1466
00:56:59,541 --> 00:57:00,791
Oi.

1467
00:57:00,875 --> 00:57:01,500
- What? Stop
fucking touching me.

1468
00:57:01,583 --> 00:57:02,416
- Do you wanna go?

1469
00:57:02,500 --> 00:57:04,750
- Yeah, you go. Fuck off.

1470
00:57:04,833 --> 00:57:05,791
- Hey, you all right here, mate?

1471
00:57:05,875 --> 00:57:06,625
You good?

1472
00:57:08,833 --> 00:57:09,625
Get the fucking shots in.

1473
00:57:09,916 --> 00:57:11,000
- Yeah, I'm happy with that.

1474
00:57:11,291 --> 00:57:12,375
Yeah, definitely
mate. You good, yeah?

1475
00:57:12,666 --> 00:57:15,541
- [Benji] Toxic
masculinity initiated.

1476
00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:17,250
I feel like this is
the start of a gay porn

1477
00:57:17,333 --> 00:57:19,500
that I once watched.

1478
00:57:19,583 --> 00:57:22,333
- Right? So I'm thinking
strip club first.

1479
00:57:22,416 --> 00:57:24,041
I'm thinking brass.

1480
00:57:24,125 --> 00:57:25,541
I'm thinking burgers 'cause
I'm fucking starving.

1481
00:57:25,625 --> 00:57:26,333
And then I'm thinking
back to the brass' house.

1482
00:57:26,416 --> 00:57:28,000
What does that sound like? Yeah?

1483
00:57:28,083 --> 00:57:29,500
Hang on. Sorry.

1484
00:57:29,583 --> 00:57:31,375
Wait, are we playing
fucking spin the bottle

1485
00:57:31,458 --> 00:57:32,916
like we're 12-year-old
girls or something?

1486
00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:34,583
What? What?
[glass rattling]

1487
00:57:34,666 --> 00:57:36,166
- You know what? I'm gonna
go with dare, fuck it.

1488
00:57:36,250 --> 00:57:37,458
- [Group] Ooh!

1489
00:57:37,541 --> 00:57:38,291
- Let's go. Come on.
- Big boy.

1490
00:57:38,375 --> 00:57:39,875
- All right. All right.

1491
00:57:39,958 --> 00:57:42,250
I dare you to piss in
the glass and down it.

1492
00:57:42,333 --> 00:57:44,166
[group groaning]

1493
00:57:44,250 --> 00:57:45,333
Big boy!

1494
00:57:45,416 --> 00:57:46,583
- [Man] Come on.
[group groaning]

1495
00:57:46,666 --> 00:57:49,375
- Hey, mate. It was a jungle.

1496
00:57:49,458 --> 00:57:51,916
[group groaning]

1497
00:57:52,000 --> 00:57:55,416
[upbeat music]
[glass rattling]

1498
00:57:55,500 --> 00:57:57,083
- Truth or dare pal.

1499
00:57:57,166 --> 00:57:58,791
- You lot are fucking
mad. I'll go for a truth.

1500
00:57:58,875 --> 00:58:00,791
Fuck that dare shit.
[group laughing]

1501
00:58:00,875 --> 00:58:02,958
- Oh, seeing as it's my truth.

1502
00:58:03,041 --> 00:58:04,583
He said truth. I like that.

1503
00:58:04,666 --> 00:58:06,375
Are you two shagging?

1504
00:58:06,458 --> 00:58:07,208
- Ooh.

1505
00:58:08,375 --> 00:58:09,666
- You got a fucking
problem or something?

1506
00:58:09,750 --> 00:58:11,500
- I've got no problem here mate.

1507
00:58:11,583 --> 00:58:13,166
You're the one with a problem

1508
00:58:13,250 --> 00:58:14,250
because I told you didn't I

1509
00:58:14,333 --> 00:58:15,916
that these two are defo shagging

1510
00:58:16,000 --> 00:58:17,750
but you can't admit it.

1511
00:58:17,833 --> 00:58:20,875
- All right, fuck
it. Give me a dare.

1512
00:58:22,916 --> 00:58:24,333
- I dare you

1513
00:58:24,416 --> 00:58:26,041
to kiss one of these
boys around this table.

1514
00:58:26,125 --> 00:58:27,375
- Hey, mate. Leave it.

1515
00:58:27,458 --> 00:58:30,666
[upbeat music continues]

1516
00:58:31,916 --> 00:58:34,458
- This really fucked me off.

1517
00:58:34,541 --> 00:58:35,250
- Whoa!

1518
00:58:35,333 --> 00:58:36,791
[group laughing]

1519
00:58:36,875 --> 00:58:39,750
- If you gonna do it
lad, do it properly.

1520
00:58:39,833 --> 00:58:41,458
- What the fuck? [smacks]

1521
00:58:41,541 --> 00:58:44,333
- [Group] Whoa! Whoa! Whoa!
[energetic rock music]

1522
00:58:44,416 --> 00:58:45,541
[head smashing]
- Ah!

1523
00:58:45,625 --> 00:58:48,416
[men scuffling]

1524
00:58:49,958 --> 00:58:50,708
- Ah!

1525
00:58:53,458 --> 00:58:55,916
[game over tone]

1526
00:58:56,000 --> 00:58:57,416
- I try and remember

1527
00:58:57,500 --> 00:58:59,041
if I've always gone
for toxic guys, like

1528
00:58:59,125 --> 00:59:00,708
where was the root of it?

1529
00:59:00,791 --> 00:59:04,291
[muffled upbeat music]

1530
00:59:04,375 --> 00:59:05,333
I know you.

1531
00:59:05,416 --> 00:59:06,625
- Yeah?

1532
00:59:06,708 --> 00:59:07,583
From where?

1533
00:59:09,958 --> 00:59:12,125
What's this you've got on?

1534
00:59:13,500 --> 00:59:14,416
- It's the god of love.

1535
00:59:14,500 --> 00:59:15,666
- God of love?

1536
00:59:17,750 --> 00:59:19,666
I'm gonna go and get a drink.

1537
00:59:19,750 --> 00:59:20,750
Do you want anything?

1538
00:59:20,833 --> 00:59:22,291
- [Benji] Now, this moment here

1539
00:59:22,375 --> 00:59:23,666
is a moment where I probably
could have got with a

1540
00:59:23,750 --> 00:59:26,416
really, really nice guy, but...

1541
00:59:27,375 --> 00:59:28,458
- Watch where you're going mate.

1542
00:59:28,541 --> 00:59:31,083
Fuck me. [sniffs]

1543
00:59:31,166 --> 00:59:32,541
- [Benji] Now everyone knew

1544
00:59:32,625 --> 00:59:34,958
that Louis Jones was
an absolute slag.

1545
00:59:35,041 --> 00:59:36,416
- [Narrator] All aboard!

1546
00:59:36,708 --> 00:59:40,375
- [Benji] But everyone
wanted to sleep with him.

1547
00:59:43,208 --> 00:59:47,291
- Here, have a look
at this. [laughs]

1548
00:59:47,375 --> 00:59:50,875
Oh fuck me, I'm fit. [laughs]

1549
00:59:50,958 --> 00:59:52,041
Aren't I?

1550
00:59:52,125 --> 00:59:52,875
- Yeah.

1551
00:59:57,000 --> 00:59:59,000
- You take siv?

1552
00:59:59,083 --> 01:00:00,166
- Yeah.
- Yeah?

1553
01:00:00,250 --> 01:00:02,458
- Yeah.
- Get in there then.

1554
01:00:02,541 --> 01:00:07,333
- [Benji] And that was the
first time that I got chlamydia.

1555
01:00:07,416 --> 01:00:09,208
- It's fucking too much.

1556
01:00:09,291 --> 01:00:10,333
When we were in there you're
like touching me all the time.

1557
01:00:10,416 --> 01:00:11,583
Like you're making out
that we're together.

1558
01:00:11,666 --> 01:00:13,916
We're not fucking together.

1559
01:00:15,458 --> 01:00:17,416
[sighs]

1560
01:00:21,583 --> 01:00:24,458
[cries] I'm sorry.

1561
01:00:38,750 --> 01:00:41,458
[whimsical music]

1562
01:00:41,541 --> 01:00:42,791
- We spent the rest of
that trip pretending

1563
01:00:42,875 --> 01:00:44,916
everything was all right.

1564
01:00:47,083 --> 01:00:48,541
Sometimes I'd look at him

1565
01:00:48,625 --> 01:00:51,541
and I'd think I'm so
lucky to be with him.

1566
01:00:51,625 --> 01:00:52,500
It's pathetic,

1567
01:00:55,000 --> 01:00:56,375
but my heart was hurting.

1568
01:00:56,458 --> 01:00:59,375
- Just give me some
space for a bit.

1569
01:01:13,250 --> 01:01:16,666
What do you wanna
do tonight then?

1570
01:01:16,750 --> 01:01:18,208
- Just dunno.

1571
01:01:18,291 --> 01:01:19,375
Going home tomorrow,
aren't we, so just...

1572
01:01:19,458 --> 01:01:20,875
- Yeah, yeah, exactly.

1573
01:01:20,958 --> 01:01:22,291
Have a little blowout.

1574
01:01:22,375 --> 01:01:25,125
Get a girl, some
weed, some booze.

1575
01:01:26,375 --> 01:01:29,500
- I was gonna talk to you about

1576
01:01:29,583 --> 01:01:32,833
just like pausing
for a bit after this.

1577
01:01:35,333 --> 01:01:36,666
Just a little bit.

1578
01:01:38,583 --> 01:01:40,416
- What do you mean?

1579
01:01:40,500 --> 01:01:41,458
- It's just,

1580
01:01:42,500 --> 01:01:45,333
I think about you when
we're not together

1581
01:01:45,416 --> 01:01:49,625
and I know we've got
an arrangement and...

1582
01:01:49,708 --> 01:01:51,583
- Where has this all come from?

1583
01:01:51,666 --> 01:01:55,458
- I just, I feel like it's
getting a bit much for me

1584
01:01:55,541 --> 01:01:58,541
to stay in it at the minute

1585
01:01:58,625 --> 01:02:00,083
because it's, you know,

1586
01:02:00,166 --> 01:02:01,583
you can feel it start
fucking up your head

1587
01:02:01,666 --> 01:02:04,500
and I just, I don't want
to get there with it.

1588
01:02:04,583 --> 01:02:06,833
So I think we'll just
pause it for now.

1589
01:02:06,916 --> 01:02:09,375
I can't even text you
when I'm not with you.

1590
01:02:09,458 --> 01:02:10,208
So it's...

1591
01:02:12,666 --> 01:02:14,083
- Yeah, 'cause we
had an agreement,

1592
01:02:14,166 --> 01:02:16,583
but like what does that mean?

1593
01:02:16,666 --> 01:02:18,458
You mean you,

1594
01:02:18,541 --> 01:02:21,541
what, you've got
feelings for me? What?

1595
01:02:23,708 --> 01:02:26,791
- I'm struggling a bit with it.

1596
01:02:26,875 --> 01:02:28,500
- Yeah, but I don't want it.

1597
01:02:28,583 --> 01:02:29,250
I don't want that.

1598
01:02:29,500 --> 01:02:31,375
I don't want it to end.

1599
01:02:38,333 --> 01:02:39,375
Can I just be

1600
01:02:41,833 --> 01:02:44,708
brutally honest
for a little bit.

1601
01:02:51,875 --> 01:02:53,333
When I'm at home,

1602
01:02:54,625 --> 01:02:57,375
I've got so much stuff going on,

1603
01:03:00,291 --> 01:03:01,583
my mind is a mess.

1604
01:03:02,916 --> 01:03:04,708
I'm so fucked up and

1605
01:03:12,125 --> 01:03:13,166
I'm not happy

1606
01:03:18,000 --> 01:03:22,416
and I don't know what to
do to get myself out of it.

1607
01:03:23,833 --> 01:03:25,458
But then, when I'm here

1608
01:03:25,541 --> 01:03:26,791
and I'm with you,

1609
01:03:36,666 --> 01:03:38,666
everything just feels right.

1610
01:03:38,750 --> 01:03:39,875
It just feels...

1611
01:03:41,666 --> 01:03:43,625
My head just feels calm.

1612
01:03:49,583 --> 01:03:51,541
[sighs]

1613
01:04:05,250 --> 01:04:08,000
Uber will be here
in five minutes.

1614
01:04:09,291 --> 01:04:10,208
I can't do next month,

1615
01:04:10,500 --> 01:04:12,750
but maybe the next two months?

1616
01:04:14,458 --> 01:04:15,208
- Why?

1617
01:04:16,708 --> 01:04:18,250
- Just got stuff on.

1618
01:04:19,166 --> 01:04:20,208
- What stuff?

1619
01:04:21,375 --> 01:04:22,458
- Just stuff.

1620
01:04:25,541 --> 01:04:26,833
- Just

1621
01:04:26,916 --> 01:04:28,500
completely honest.

1622
01:04:29,541 --> 01:04:31,708
Are you seeing someone?

1623
01:04:31,791 --> 01:04:32,583
- No.

1624
01:04:32,666 --> 01:04:34,125
- No. Look at me.

1625
01:04:35,791 --> 01:04:37,291
Are you seeing someone?

1626
01:04:37,375 --> 01:04:38,833
- Benji, no.

1627
01:04:38,916 --> 01:04:41,833
♪ I just don't know
which way to go ♪

1628
01:04:41,916 --> 01:04:46,791
♪ When we're together
we're strong ♪

1629
01:04:46,875 --> 01:04:48,666
[laughs] What are
you laughing at?

1630
01:04:48,750 --> 01:04:49,750
- Oh, do you know what?

1631
01:04:49,833 --> 01:04:51,291
That is the best one yet.

1632
01:04:51,375 --> 01:04:52,708
- You love my cringe
though, don't you?

1633
01:04:52,791 --> 01:04:55,416
- [Olivia] Do I? [laughs]
- Yeah, you do.

1634
01:04:55,500 --> 01:04:57,291
- Don't give up the
day job yet, will you?

1635
01:04:57,375 --> 01:05:02,250
- [laughs] Give me some
good news before I go away.

1636
01:05:04,541 --> 01:05:06,375
- Do you know what
I was thinking?

1637
01:05:06,458 --> 01:05:07,458
- [Jake] What?

1638
01:05:07,541 --> 01:05:09,791
- Why don't I come with you?

1639
01:05:09,875 --> 01:05:11,583
- Ah, baby. You'd be bored.

1640
01:05:11,666 --> 01:05:12,958
- I'd be bored?
- Yeah.

1641
01:05:13,041 --> 01:05:15,083
- Bored in Amsterdam?

1642
01:05:15,166 --> 01:05:17,125
Come on, I'm sure I
can find something

1643
01:05:17,208 --> 01:05:19,041
to keep me entertained.

1644
01:05:19,125 --> 01:05:20,708
- Well, I'm gonna
keep you locked up

1645
01:05:20,791 --> 01:05:22,083
so you can't go anywhere.

1646
01:05:22,166 --> 01:05:25,541
- Locked up? [laughs]
[romantic music]

1647
01:05:25,625 --> 01:05:26,916
Give me a snuggle.

1648
01:05:27,000 --> 01:05:29,125
Mm. Love you.
- See you later.

1649
01:05:29,208 --> 01:05:30,750
I love you too.

1650
01:05:30,833 --> 01:05:31,791
- Don't do anything
I wouldn't do.

1651
01:05:31,875 --> 01:05:32,833
[Jake laughing]

1652
01:05:32,916 --> 01:05:34,208
Best behavior.

1653
01:05:34,291 --> 01:05:35,416
Call me when you
get there, yeah?

1654
01:05:35,500 --> 01:05:37,666
- I will.
- Okay, bye.

1655
01:05:37,750 --> 01:05:39,458
It's only me.

1656
01:05:39,541 --> 01:05:41,666
Just checking that you've
landed and you're all right.

1657
01:05:41,750 --> 01:05:43,125
You've not phone me back yet

1658
01:05:43,208 --> 01:05:44,250
so I'm just checking
that you've landed

1659
01:05:44,333 --> 01:05:45,583
and everything's fine.
[instrumental music]

1660
01:05:45,666 --> 01:05:46,666
One day, which day?

1661
01:05:46,750 --> 01:05:48,125
- It just depends what happens.

1662
01:05:48,208 --> 01:05:49,291
- Sunday or Monday?
- I don't know, obviously.

1663
01:05:49,375 --> 01:05:51,291
I'll know more when I get there.

1664
01:05:51,375 --> 01:05:52,666
- [laughing] Oh, fucking hell.

1665
01:05:52,750 --> 01:05:53,625
- [Phone Operator]
This person's phone

1666
01:05:53,708 --> 01:05:55,333
is currently unavailable.

1667
01:05:55,416 --> 01:05:56,291
Please try later.

1668
01:05:56,375 --> 01:05:57,625
- I'm so happy.

1669
01:05:57,708 --> 01:06:00,125
No, I've not even told him yet.

1670
01:06:02,458 --> 01:06:03,208
- Okay?

1671
01:06:05,333 --> 01:06:06,250
Hi.

1672
01:06:06,333 --> 01:06:07,833
- Don't touch me
- Baby.

1673
01:06:07,916 --> 01:06:08,666
- No.

1674
01:06:09,875 --> 01:06:10,875
- What's up?

1675
01:06:12,916 --> 01:06:14,041
Baby, what's wrong?

1676
01:06:14,125 --> 01:06:16,041
- You know what's wrong?

1677
01:06:16,125 --> 01:06:17,375
- I don't know what's
up. What's wrong?

1678
01:06:17,458 --> 01:06:18,458
I've just come back
from three days.

1679
01:06:18,541 --> 01:06:19,333
I've not seen you in ages.

1680
01:06:19,416 --> 01:06:20,416
What's going on?

1681
01:06:20,500 --> 01:06:21,708
And a nice hello would be good.

1682
01:06:21,791 --> 01:06:23,041
- So why haven't you
responded to like

1683
01:06:23,125 --> 01:06:24,875
the hundred missed calls
that I've given you?

1684
01:06:24,958 --> 01:06:26,500
- Baby, you know I've been busy.

1685
01:06:26,583 --> 01:06:27,791
- [Olivia] So you've
not seen them?

1686
01:06:27,875 --> 01:06:29,125
- I've been in and out meetings.

1687
01:06:29,208 --> 01:06:30,041
I've been with
people constantly.

1688
01:06:30,125 --> 01:06:32,625
My phone has been playing up.

1689
01:06:32,708 --> 01:06:34,250
- Do you know what
annoys me the most?

1690
01:06:34,333 --> 01:06:35,791
That you've got no
consideration for me at all,

1691
01:06:35,875 --> 01:06:37,541
that you've got no care,

1692
01:06:37,625 --> 01:06:40,000
that, you know, something
could have been wrong with me.

1693
01:06:40,083 --> 01:06:42,000
You know, it could have been
an emergency. Who knows?

1694
01:06:42,083 --> 01:06:43,583
But you don't
actually even think?

1695
01:06:43,666 --> 01:06:44,500
- Is there anything
wrong with you?

1696
01:06:44,583 --> 01:06:45,458
You look fine to me.

1697
01:06:45,541 --> 01:06:46,750
There's nothing wrong is there?

1698
01:06:46,833 --> 01:06:47,666
- You don't even,
that's what I mean.

1699
01:06:47,750 --> 01:06:48,958
You don't even know the news

1700
01:06:49,041 --> 01:06:50,458
and everybody else
knows and you don't know

1701
01:06:50,541 --> 01:06:51,541
because you couldn't even
be arsed to text back

1702
01:06:51,625 --> 01:06:53,791
or call back or anything.

1703
01:06:53,875 --> 01:06:56,833
- What news? What
you talking about?

1704
01:06:57,958 --> 01:06:59,708
- I'm pregnant.

1705
01:06:59,791 --> 01:07:00,791
- What?

1706
01:07:00,875 --> 01:07:02,416
You're pregnant?

1707
01:07:02,500 --> 01:07:03,833
- Yeah.

1708
01:07:03,916 --> 01:07:05,791
- Baby, this is amazing.

1709
01:07:05,875 --> 01:07:07,875
I'm sorry. I'm so
sorry. I'm so sorry

1710
01:07:07,958 --> 01:07:09,125
but that is amazing.

1711
01:07:09,208 --> 01:07:10,625
That is beautiful news.

1712
01:07:10,708 --> 01:07:12,583
It was just a mad weekend.

1713
01:07:12,666 --> 01:07:13,625
I'm so, so sorry.

1714
01:07:13,708 --> 01:07:15,958
Come here. I love you. Please.

1715
01:07:16,041 --> 01:07:18,541
- Should we go for some
food tomorrow night?

1716
01:07:18,625 --> 01:07:21,875
I want to try that new place.

1717
01:07:21,958 --> 01:07:23,750
- Can't tomorrow night babe.

1718
01:07:23,833 --> 01:07:25,208
[lounge music]

1719
01:07:25,291 --> 01:07:26,958
- [Olivia] Why not?

1720
01:07:28,625 --> 01:07:31,000
- [Jake] I just got
some work stuff.

1721
01:07:31,083 --> 01:07:34,791
- [Olivia] Yeah, I
meant tomorrow night.

1722
01:07:34,875 --> 01:07:37,041
- Yeah, I've got a meeting.

1723
01:07:37,125 --> 01:07:37,875
It's...

1724
01:07:39,333 --> 01:07:40,791
'Cause of the time difference,

1725
01:07:40,875 --> 01:07:44,458
it's gonna start quite
late tomorrow, I think.

1726
01:07:44,541 --> 01:07:46,208
We'll go another day.

1727
01:07:48,583 --> 01:07:49,333
- Okay.

1728
01:07:53,208 --> 01:07:56,041
[melancholy music]

1729
01:07:57,875 --> 01:08:00,833
- So have you thought
of any names yet?

1730
01:08:00,916 --> 01:08:02,625
- Yeah, yeah, I have.

1731
01:08:02,708 --> 01:08:05,166
I'm thinking Hugo if it's a boy

1732
01:08:05,250 --> 01:08:07,958
and maybe Lisa if it's a girl.

1733
01:08:08,041 --> 01:08:09,875
- [Friend] Oh, that's so cute.

1734
01:08:09,958 --> 01:08:13,958
[ominous music]
[Oliva gasping]

1735
01:08:14,041 --> 01:08:15,666
- Jake.

1736
01:08:15,750 --> 01:08:17,875
Jake, I think there's
something up with the baby.

1737
01:08:17,958 --> 01:08:18,750
Please.

1738
01:08:21,250 --> 01:08:24,875
- Just saying he's not messaged
you in a while, has he?

1739
01:08:24,958 --> 01:08:26,916
- [Olivia] No, it's been a few
days, but he's really busy.

1740
01:08:27,000 --> 01:08:29,166
- [Jake] Baby, I'm
sorry I wasn't there.

1741
01:08:29,250 --> 01:08:30,458
- Are you seeing someone else?

1742
01:08:30,541 --> 01:08:31,750
I'm not throwing it on you.

1743
01:08:31,833 --> 01:08:32,833
I've been saying
it for a long time

1744
01:08:32,916 --> 01:08:34,458
and I'm done now.
- Please.

1745
01:08:34,541 --> 01:08:35,250
No, I don't want you to go.
- Don't please me anymore.

1746
01:08:35,333 --> 01:08:36,916
- Don't leave.

1747
01:08:37,000 --> 01:08:38,500
- Don't start this again
because this is what you do.

1748
01:08:38,583 --> 01:08:39,875
- Baby. It's not my fault
that the baby's gone.

1749
01:08:39,958 --> 01:08:41,416
It's not my fault.
- We've talked about it.

1750
01:08:41,500 --> 01:08:42,833
We've talked about it
over and over again.

1751
01:08:42,916 --> 01:08:43,875
There's nothing else to say.

1752
01:08:43,958 --> 01:08:45,000
- [Jake] Don't walk away.

1753
01:08:45,083 --> 01:08:46,166
Just stay with me, please.

1754
01:08:46,250 --> 01:08:47,666
- Stay with you for what?

1755
01:08:47,750 --> 01:08:48,625
- [Jake] Just stay, please.
- For what?

1756
01:08:48,708 --> 01:08:50,125
- I don't want you to go.

1757
01:08:50,208 --> 01:08:51,250
Please, I promise I'll
be better. Please.

1758
01:08:51,333 --> 01:08:52,958
- This is what you
do all the time.

1759
01:08:53,041 --> 01:08:56,041
No, I can't do
this anymore, Jake.

1760
01:08:57,208 --> 01:08:58,583
- Just stay with me.

1761
01:08:58,666 --> 01:09:01,833
I'll be better, I
promise. I'm sorry.

1762
01:09:01,916 --> 01:09:04,583
[melancholy music continues]

1763
01:09:04,666 --> 01:09:06,333
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

1764
01:09:15,625 --> 01:09:18,125
- [Benji] She got
pregnant again soon after

1765
01:09:18,208 --> 01:09:22,208
and that arsehole still
didn't end it with me.

1766
01:09:22,291 --> 01:09:24,041
I had no fucking idea.

1767
01:09:25,375 --> 01:09:28,458
I don't know what I'd
have done if I'd known.

1768
01:09:28,541 --> 01:09:32,083
I like to think I
would've ended things, but

1769
01:09:34,416 --> 01:09:37,541
the last trip together
felt different.

1770
01:09:37,625 --> 01:09:39,875
We didn't have sex.

1771
01:09:39,958 --> 01:09:41,250
We didn't kiss,

1772
01:09:41,333 --> 01:09:42,125
didn't touch,

1773
01:09:42,416 --> 01:09:44,625
we didn't even really talk.

1774
01:09:45,791 --> 01:09:48,000
And the whole time we
were walking round,

1775
01:09:48,083 --> 01:09:49,916
I don't know, I just
kept thinking it,

1776
01:09:50,000 --> 01:09:51,083
it felt like an end.

1777
01:09:51,166 --> 01:09:53,291
It felt different.

1778
01:09:53,375 --> 01:09:56,958
[gentle melancholy music]

1779
01:10:03,541 --> 01:10:04,875
And when we got home and
I didn't hear from you,

1780
01:10:04,958 --> 01:10:07,916
I did what any
logical, rational,

1781
01:10:08,000 --> 01:10:09,583
crazy ex would do.

1782
01:10:11,666 --> 01:10:13,708
I turned up at your house.

1783
01:10:13,791 --> 01:10:14,791
- I don't know about you babe,

1784
01:10:14,875 --> 01:10:17,458
but I'm absolutely starving.

1785
01:10:17,541 --> 01:10:18,916
[phone ringing]

1786
01:10:19,000 --> 01:10:20,625
You not getting that?

1787
01:10:23,125 --> 01:10:24,666
Should we do it with
some garlic bread?

1788
01:10:24,750 --> 01:10:25,916
- Oh, yeah. That sounds good.

1789
01:10:26,000 --> 01:10:27,250
Baby, could you
just take the bag.

1790
01:10:27,333 --> 01:10:28,791
I'm just gonna
make a phone call.

1791
01:10:28,875 --> 01:10:31,541
- [Olivia] Yeah,
I'll put tea on.

1792
01:10:33,291 --> 01:10:34,458
- What the fuck
are you doing here?

1793
01:10:34,541 --> 01:10:35,375
- Is that your girlfriend?

1794
01:10:35,458 --> 01:10:37,500
- Shut the fuck up.

1795
01:10:37,583 --> 01:10:39,291
Shut the fuck up.

1796
01:10:39,375 --> 01:10:41,708
If you turn up at my house
again I'll fucking kill you.

1797
01:10:41,791 --> 01:10:44,625
Do you hear me?
[Benji moaning]

1798
01:10:44,708 --> 01:10:45,416
Fuck off.

1799
01:10:47,541 --> 01:10:50,333
[melancholy music]

1800
01:10:50,416 --> 01:10:53,083
[Jake panting]

1801
01:10:57,041 --> 01:10:58,583
- Jake?

1802
01:10:58,666 --> 01:10:59,958
Jake?

1803
01:11:00,041 --> 01:11:00,958
Jake?

1804
01:11:01,041 --> 01:11:02,875
What's wrong?

1805
01:11:02,958 --> 01:11:04,333
Babe, what's wrong?

1806
01:11:04,416 --> 01:11:06,291
- I can't breathe.
- What's up with you?

1807
01:11:06,375 --> 01:11:08,250
- What do you mean
you can't breathe?

1808
01:11:08,333 --> 01:11:09,416
What's wrong?

1809
01:11:12,125 --> 01:11:14,166
Baby, what's up with you?

1810
01:11:19,208 --> 01:11:20,000
Are you okay?

1811
01:11:26,416 --> 01:11:27,833
- Please, look at your mother.

1812
01:11:27,916 --> 01:11:29,375
Look at me.

1813
01:11:29,458 --> 01:11:31,458
Get a grip, all right?

1814
01:11:31,541 --> 01:11:32,583
Let them go.

1815
01:11:32,666 --> 01:11:35,000
Just let it all go. All right?

1816
01:11:35,083 --> 01:11:36,875
- And then he started
ignoring my messages

1817
01:11:36,958 --> 01:11:38,791
and it fucking hurt.

1818
01:11:38,875 --> 01:11:40,083
I started meeting people.

1819
01:11:40,166 --> 01:11:42,041
I wanted to be
treated like shit.

1820
01:11:42,125 --> 01:11:45,000
But none of them were him.

1821
01:11:45,083 --> 01:11:46,916
I mean, this guy's
not even close.

1822
01:11:47,000 --> 01:11:48,000
What are you gonna do to me?

1823
01:11:48,083 --> 01:11:49,666
- Yeah? What are you into?

1824
01:11:49,750 --> 01:11:51,041
- I want you to
tell me what to do.

1825
01:11:51,125 --> 01:11:51,958
Dominate me.

1826
01:11:52,041 --> 01:11:53,500
- Yeah?

1827
01:11:53,583 --> 01:11:55,041
I can be dominant.

1828
01:11:55,125 --> 01:11:57,083
Yeah. Yeah. [slaps]

1829
01:11:57,166 --> 01:11:58,166
Was that too hard?

1830
01:11:58,250 --> 01:12:01,125
- [laughs] No.
- No.

1831
01:12:01,208 --> 01:12:03,541
[Benji laughing]

1832
01:12:03,625 --> 01:12:04,916
- What?

1833
01:12:05,000 --> 01:12:06,208
- Mate, it's not
really working is it.

1834
01:12:06,291 --> 01:12:07,041
- [Date] Oh, it is.
Come on, come on.

1835
01:12:07,125 --> 01:12:08,125
Get on the floor. Come on.

1836
01:12:08,208 --> 01:12:08,916
- He's blocked me on Instagram.

1837
01:12:09,000 --> 01:12:09,708
He's blocked me on Facebook.

1838
01:12:09,791 --> 01:12:10,500
Like all the socials.

1839
01:12:10,583 --> 01:12:11,833
Fucked off my number.

1840
01:12:11,916 --> 01:12:13,375
Like literally, he's not
spoke to me now for like

1841
01:12:13,458 --> 01:12:14,375
two months.

1842
01:12:14,458 --> 01:12:15,958
[indie music]

1843
01:12:16,041 --> 01:12:16,916
- [Jake] Benji, if you
don't leave me alone,

1844
01:12:17,000 --> 01:12:18,000
I'll call the fucking police.

1845
01:12:18,083 --> 01:12:19,041
I'll get a restraining order.

1846
01:12:19,125 --> 01:12:20,041
Now, fuck off.

1847
01:12:20,125 --> 01:12:21,708
It's embarrassing.

1848
01:12:21,791 --> 01:12:23,875
Leaving to have me in your
life. You're obsessed.

1849
01:12:23,958 --> 01:12:26,291
- We had one last trip booked.

1850
01:12:27,166 --> 01:12:28,291
I turned up to the airport.

1851
01:12:28,375 --> 01:12:30,041
Yeah, I know it seems crazy,

1852
01:12:30,125 --> 01:12:32,916
but I thought he might be there.

1853
01:12:48,250 --> 01:12:49,541
[phone dinging]

1854
01:12:49,833 --> 01:12:53,208
And then, I got a
location pin from him and

1855
01:12:54,541 --> 01:12:59,250
I knew this was the last time
that I was ever gonna see him.

1856
01:13:01,000 --> 01:13:02,416
[dramatic music]

1857
01:13:02,500 --> 01:13:05,500
So here we are again
at the fucking end.

1858
01:13:05,583 --> 01:13:07,000
I mean, how did she not know

1859
01:13:07,083 --> 01:13:10,958
he was a little bit
gay with that car?

1860
01:13:11,041 --> 01:13:11,791
- Finally.

1861
01:13:19,250 --> 01:13:20,250
Listen.

1862
01:13:21,833 --> 01:13:26,208
Mate, you can't just turn
up at my house unannounced.

1863
01:13:26,291 --> 01:13:28,291
It's not on.
[Benji laughing]

1864
01:13:28,375 --> 01:13:29,083
Why are you laughing?

1865
01:13:29,166 --> 01:13:30,125
You can't.

1866
01:13:30,208 --> 01:13:31,750
I've said that like,

1867
01:13:31,833 --> 01:13:34,708
there's certain boundaries
and you crossed it.

1868
01:13:34,791 --> 01:13:35,625
Mate, I can't.

1869
01:13:35,708 --> 01:13:37,666
I can't do this anymore.

1870
01:13:39,333 --> 01:13:40,333
Okay?

1871
01:13:42,291 --> 01:13:44,375
- Do you know I was sat
at the airport today

1872
01:13:44,458 --> 01:13:46,250
and I was thinking

1873
01:13:46,333 --> 01:13:48,166
so many fucking times, yeah,

1874
01:13:48,250 --> 01:13:50,416
that you could have
said to me, finish this.

1875
01:13:50,500 --> 01:13:52,250
Like, just like,

1876
01:13:52,333 --> 01:13:54,333
I don't understand like why
you fucking carried this on

1877
01:13:54,416 --> 01:13:56,083
and do you know how much
this has fucked me up?

1878
01:13:56,166 --> 01:13:57,833
- Fucking hell man.

1879
01:13:59,041 --> 01:14:00,041
Well, you were
having a good time

1880
01:14:00,125 --> 01:14:01,000
at the time though, weren't you?

1881
01:14:01,083 --> 01:14:02,208
- Well, you fucking used me.

1882
01:14:02,291 --> 01:14:03,333
- You used me.

1883
01:14:03,416 --> 01:14:04,416
- No, you fucking used me.

1884
01:14:04,500 --> 01:14:05,250
- Shut the fuck up. [thumps]

1885
01:14:05,333 --> 01:14:06,541
Fucking shout at me.

1886
01:14:06,625 --> 01:14:08,083
Shut the fuck up.

1887
01:14:21,250 --> 01:14:23,083
- So when I was at yours, yeah,

1888
01:14:23,166 --> 01:14:25,000
the girl that I seen you with...

1889
01:14:25,083 --> 01:14:27,375
- [groans]

1890
01:14:29,083 --> 01:14:30,083
Yeah, what?

1891
01:14:30,583 --> 01:14:34,666
- So like when we first
met, were you with her?

1892
01:14:36,500 --> 01:14:39,791
- [sighs] Yes.

1893
01:14:39,875 --> 01:14:42,500
- [laughs] Okay.

1894
01:14:49,166 --> 01:14:51,083
So, go on then, what's her name?

1895
01:14:51,166 --> 01:14:53,125
- Whose fucking name?
- Whose fucking name?

1896
01:14:53,208 --> 01:14:55,750
Whose fucking name do you think?

1897
01:15:00,708 --> 01:15:02,375
- Olivia.

1898
01:15:02,458 --> 01:15:03,208
- Olivia.

1899
01:15:06,125 --> 01:15:08,333
- So when we used
to go away, right?

1900
01:15:08,416 --> 01:15:10,041
So you used to be having
sex with me, yeah,

1901
01:15:10,125 --> 01:15:11,250
you'd fly back and then what?

1902
01:15:11,541 --> 01:15:15,791
Would you just go
back and fuck her?

1903
01:15:15,875 --> 01:15:18,500
So we're just gonna
fuck it off then?

1904
01:15:18,583 --> 01:15:22,416
- Yeah, mate. Like
that's the end of it.

1905
01:15:22,500 --> 01:15:23,583
We've had a good time.

1906
01:15:23,666 --> 01:15:25,291
And to be honest mate,

1907
01:15:25,375 --> 01:15:26,958
you're quite lucky right now

1908
01:15:27,041 --> 01:15:28,541
to have come away with me

1909
01:15:28,625 --> 01:15:29,875
to like be sitting
here right now.

1910
01:15:29,958 --> 01:15:31,875
You're in a good position.

1911
01:15:31,958 --> 01:15:33,208
Like you've had a good time.

1912
01:15:33,291 --> 01:15:35,791
Like, look at you, look at me.

1913
01:15:35,875 --> 01:15:37,166
Have you not had a good time?

1914
01:15:37,250 --> 01:15:38,541
- [Benji] Stop fucking
calling me mate.

1915
01:15:38,625 --> 01:15:39,666
- Like what?

1916
01:15:39,750 --> 01:15:40,541
- [Benji] It's fucking weird.

1917
01:15:40,625 --> 01:15:42,333
- Mate, look at yourself.

1918
01:15:42,416 --> 01:15:43,750
When I saw you in the
airport, I thought,

1919
01:15:43,833 --> 01:15:44,875
fucking hell,

1920
01:15:44,958 --> 01:15:45,708
he looks like an easy target.

1921
01:15:45,791 --> 01:15:46,875
And I was right, wasn't I?

1922
01:15:46,958 --> 01:15:48,291
Look at you.

1923
01:15:48,375 --> 01:15:49,291
Fucking count yourself lucky.

1924
01:15:49,375 --> 01:15:50,333
You've had a good run.

1925
01:15:50,416 --> 01:15:51,416
Fuck off.

1926
01:15:56,125 --> 01:15:59,208
- [sniffs] Okay.

1927
01:15:59,291 --> 01:16:00,000
Good.

1928
01:16:07,166 --> 01:16:09,708
[Jake groaning]

1929
01:16:12,041 --> 01:16:13,000
- I'm sorry.

1930
01:16:20,333 --> 01:16:23,958
When I saw you in the
airport that first time

1931
01:16:26,541 --> 01:16:28,500
I thought you were a 10

1932
01:16:28,583 --> 01:16:31,125
and I still think
you're a 10 now.

1933
01:16:31,208 --> 01:16:32,250
Right?

1934
01:16:32,333 --> 01:16:34,875
But like, what do you expect?

1935
01:16:34,958 --> 01:16:36,250
Life doesn't work like this.

1936
01:16:36,333 --> 01:16:38,291
I can't just drop everything

1937
01:16:38,375 --> 01:16:39,500
and run off with
you into the sunset.

1938
01:16:39,583 --> 01:16:41,541
It don't work like that.

1939
01:16:45,625 --> 01:16:46,916
I can't just...

1940
01:16:49,708 --> 01:16:51,500
I've got so much stuff
going on right now

1941
01:16:51,583 --> 01:16:54,333
and I can't just
walk away from them.

1942
01:16:54,416 --> 01:16:55,500
Can I?

1943
01:16:55,583 --> 01:16:57,416
I can't just abandon them.

1944
01:17:02,583 --> 01:17:04,416
[sighs]

1945
01:17:13,833 --> 01:17:17,291
I'm sorry.
[both crying]

1946
01:17:17,375 --> 01:17:20,083
[somber music]

1947
01:17:30,375 --> 01:17:32,250
♪ There's a monster in my head ♪

1948
01:17:32,333 --> 01:17:35,291
[door thudding]

1949
01:17:35,375 --> 01:17:39,583
♪ That won't leave ♪

1950
01:17:39,666 --> 01:17:43,583
♪ I wish I could ♪

1951
01:17:43,666 --> 01:17:49,541
♪ Take a moment to relax ♪

1952
01:17:49,625 --> 01:17:52,166
♪ But it's harder ♪

1953
01:17:52,250 --> 01:17:55,375
♪ Than it seems ♪

1954
01:17:55,458 --> 01:17:57,125
♪ I'd love ♪

1955
01:17:57,208 --> 01:17:58,666
- [Benji] And then you feel it,

1956
01:17:58,958 --> 01:18:03,291
your body ready to purge
all of that negative energy,

1957
01:18:04,791 --> 01:18:07,583
to make you feel like you again.

1958
01:18:10,458 --> 01:18:13,375
♪ There's a monster in my head ♪

1959
01:18:13,458 --> 01:18:15,083
- [Benji] They say the
best way to move forward

1960
01:18:15,166 --> 01:18:18,541
is to go back and I
think they're right.

1961
01:18:19,583 --> 01:18:20,916
So thanks

1962
01:18:21,000 --> 01:18:23,458
for going back with me.

1963
01:18:23,541 --> 01:18:29,416
♪ Take a moment and relax ♪

1964
01:18:29,500 --> 01:18:32,083
♪ But it's harder ♪

1965
01:18:32,166 --> 01:18:33,250
♪ Than it seems ♪

1966
01:18:33,333 --> 01:18:36,791
♪ Look what you're doing to me ♪

1967
01:18:36,875 --> 01:18:42,583
♪ Let me astray from paradise ♪

1968
01:18:42,666 --> 01:18:44,500
♪ Into a storm ♪

1969
01:18:44,583 --> 01:18:46,375
[baby crying]

1970
01:18:46,458 --> 01:18:50,500
♪ Numb right to my core ♪

1971
01:18:50,583 --> 01:18:53,833
♪ I despise who I've become ♪

1972
01:18:53,916 --> 01:18:56,416
- What the actual fuck!
[typewriter tapping]

1973
01:18:56,500 --> 01:18:59,416
Fuck you screenwriter
above my head.

1974
01:18:59,500 --> 01:19:02,458
[typewriter dinging]

1975
01:19:03,750 --> 01:19:06,333
[baby crying]

1976
01:19:20,583 --> 01:19:22,125
- Oh, thank you. Ta.

1977
01:19:24,500 --> 01:19:26,333
Shall we watch this.
[melancholy music]

1978
01:19:26,416 --> 01:19:27,541
- See you later.

1979
01:19:32,750 --> 01:19:34,458
All right.

1980
01:19:34,541 --> 01:19:35,458
- Hi.

1981
01:19:35,541 --> 01:19:36,791
- Nearly didn't make it.

1982
01:19:36,875 --> 01:19:38,000
- Well, you're here aren't you?

1983
01:19:38,083 --> 01:19:39,250
- Yeah. [laughs]

1984
01:19:39,333 --> 01:19:40,875
- I was gonna say

1985
01:19:40,958 --> 01:19:43,958
it was really nice
meeting you and

1986
01:19:44,041 --> 01:19:47,083
you know, apart
from all this noise,

1987
01:19:47,166 --> 01:19:48,541
I'm not listening to anything.

1988
01:19:48,625 --> 01:19:51,833
It's just trying to
drown that out but

1989
01:19:51,916 --> 01:19:53,458
I was thinking
maybe, potentially,

1990
01:19:53,541 --> 01:19:55,291
we could maybe do
something when we get back.

1991
01:19:55,375 --> 01:19:56,458
- Yeah. Nice.
- Fancy that?

1992
01:19:56,541 --> 01:19:57,583
- Yeah, definitely.

1993
01:19:57,666 --> 01:19:59,708
- Some very nice Nozeco.

1994
01:19:59,791 --> 01:20:00,791
- Some... [laughs]

1995
01:20:00,875 --> 01:20:03,208
- Some Italian food, maybe?

1996
01:20:03,291 --> 01:20:05,333
- Are you asking me out?

1997
01:20:05,416 --> 01:20:06,125
- No.

1998
01:20:06,208 --> 01:20:06,916
- Oh, right.

1999
01:20:07,000 --> 01:20:08,041
- I just...

2000
01:20:08,125 --> 01:20:09,416
- I'll go sit over there then

2001
01:20:09,500 --> 01:20:10,541
with the crying baby
if you want. [laughs]

2002
01:20:10,625 --> 01:20:12,583
- Oh, no. Hey, do
you want these?

2003
01:20:12,666 --> 01:20:14,666
I feel sorry for,

2004
01:20:14,750 --> 01:20:16,208
[laughs] for everyone.

2005
01:20:16,291 --> 01:20:18,625
- You're not listening
to them on this flight.

2006
01:20:18,708 --> 01:20:22,208
And then you realize that
you're ready to depart.

2007
01:20:22,291 --> 01:20:25,666
That you're ready to
start it all over again.

2008
01:20:25,750 --> 01:20:29,625
But this time it has
to be better because

2009
01:20:29,708 --> 01:20:31,583
no one wants a fucking sequel.

2010
01:20:31,666 --> 01:20:37,541
♪ Take a moment and relax ♪

2011
01:20:37,625 --> 01:20:40,083
♪ But it's harder ♪

2012
01:20:40,166 --> 01:20:41,250
♪ Than it seems ♪

2013
01:20:41,333 --> 01:20:44,875
♪ Look what you're doing to me ♪

2014
01:20:44,958 --> 01:20:50,666
♪ Lead me astray from paradise ♪

2015
01:20:50,750 --> 01:20:54,125
♪ Into a storm ♪

2016
01:20:54,208 --> 01:20:58,458
♪ Numb right to my core ♪

2017
01:20:58,541 --> 01:21:01,750
♪ I despise who I'd become ♪

2018
01:21:01,833 --> 01:21:03,500
- [Benji] Just before you go,

2019
01:21:03,583 --> 01:21:06,416
here's one last Snow White
and the Huntsman fantasy.

2020
01:21:06,500 --> 01:21:09,500
[gentle music]

2021
01:21:09,583 --> 01:21:11,000
To be honest,

2022
01:21:11,083 --> 01:21:12,583
we just wanted to make a
fucking musical number.

2023
01:21:12,666 --> 01:21:16,000
♪ I always hoped someday ♪

2024
01:21:16,083 --> 01:21:19,541
♪ That I would live and learn ♪

2025
01:21:19,625 --> 01:21:22,791
♪ We set our hearts on fire ♪

2026
01:21:22,875 --> 01:21:26,291
♪ And sat and
watched them burn ♪

2027
01:21:26,375 --> 01:21:29,541
♪ I guess we tried too late ♪

2028
01:21:29,625 --> 01:21:33,166
♪ I guess I cried too long ♪

2029
01:21:33,250 --> 01:21:36,583
♪ But there's a place I know ♪

2030
01:21:36,666 --> 01:21:39,666
♪ When everything feels wrong ♪

2031
01:21:39,750 --> 01:21:43,791
♪ Let's go, let's go ♪

2032
01:21:43,875 --> 01:21:46,500
♪ Far away from all
of the madness ♪

2033
01:21:46,583 --> 01:21:50,750
♪ Let go, let go ♪

2034
01:21:50,833 --> 01:21:53,333
♪ Of all of the tears
and the sadness ♪

2035
01:21:53,416 --> 01:21:57,458
♪ Let's fall, let's fly ♪

2036
01:21:57,541 --> 01:22:02,375
♪ Where the sun's gonna
shine in a clear blue sky ♪

2037
01:22:04,750 --> 01:22:07,916
♪ That's where I go
when I close my ♪

2038
01:22:08,000 --> 01:22:12,958
♪ Eyes ♪

2039
01:22:17,666 --> 01:22:21,666
♪ Oh ♪

2040
01:22:21,750 --> 01:22:23,833
♪ Eyes ♪

2041
01:22:34,666 --> 01:22:38,791
♪ Let's go, let's go ♪

2042
01:22:38,875 --> 01:22:41,333
♪ Far away from all
of the madness ♪

2043
01:22:41,416 --> 01:22:45,541
♪ Let go, let go ♪

2044
01:22:45,625 --> 01:22:48,125
♪ Of all of the tears
and the sadness ♪

2045
01:22:48,208 --> 01:22:52,250
♪ Let's fall, let's fly ♪

2046
01:22:52,333 --> 01:22:57,250
♪ Where the sun's gonna
shine in a clear blue sky ♪

2047
01:22:59,625 --> 01:23:03,875
♪ That's where I go
when I close my ♪