1 00:00:48,100 --> 00:00:51,140 Let me do your legs. 2 00:01:13,100 --> 00:01:16,140 There we go. 3 00:01:19,140 --> 00:01:22,060 Here... 4 00:01:32,100 --> 00:01:37,060 For almost 51 years I've washed this back. 5 00:01:42,100 --> 00:01:44,220 That's good. 6 00:01:47,180 --> 00:01:50,980 Do you want to stay behind, I'm going? 7 00:02:33,220 --> 00:02:39,060 Steam of Life 8 00:03:48,060 --> 00:03:52,030 One thing I've noticed, boys, about love - 9 00:03:52,060 --> 00:03:55,230 and what women like, that's massage. 10 00:03:55,260 --> 00:04:01,110 Neck, shoulders, legs and buttocks, every day. 11 00:04:01,140 --> 00:04:05,110 That's our love story right there. 12 00:04:05,140 --> 00:04:11,190 If I skip one part and try and sneak off, - 13 00:04:11,220 --> 00:04:14,190 she will say: "You missed the legs." 14 00:04:14,220 --> 00:04:19,110 Or if I think she's asleep, no: "You missed the legs." 15 00:04:19,140 --> 00:04:24,070 Women are very particular about the spots they want massaged. 16 00:04:24,100 --> 00:04:29,060 I think they call them G-spots, or what do they call them? 17 00:04:45,180 --> 00:04:49,230 That's him. - Well, then. 18 00:04:49,260 --> 00:04:53,230 They all look alike. - Those babies. 19 00:04:53,260 --> 00:04:57,150 He's smiling. - Right. 20 00:04:57,180 --> 00:05:01,230 So adorable. - Looks like his father. 21 00:05:01,260 --> 00:05:07,030 He's so small and weak, it's great to care of someone so small - 22 00:05:07,060 --> 00:05:11,220 and see him growing every day. - That's right. 23 00:05:12,020 --> 00:05:17,070 I'll always remember the moment they lifted him to his mother's arms - 24 00:05:17,100 --> 00:05:21,110 and I cut the umbilical cord. . . 25 00:05:21,140 --> 00:05:28,030 And I saw the baby, his little hands and feet... 26 00:05:28,060 --> 00:05:33,070 They're home now and I was on paternity leave - 27 00:05:33,100 --> 00:05:35,070 helping to take care of the baby. 28 00:05:35,100 --> 00:05:40,190 Now one dream has come true - 29 00:05:40,220 --> 00:05:45,190 and maybe God will give us a little princess later. 30 00:05:45,220 --> 00:05:48,020 That's right. 31 00:06:32,140 --> 00:06:36,220 It's nice to go to the sauna... - Damn, are you going to the sauna? 32 00:06:37,020 --> 00:06:40,230 You were supposed to eat first! 33 00:06:40,260 --> 00:06:45,070 Come on now! - I won't throw this on the stoves. 34 00:06:45,100 --> 00:06:49,190 Fucking hell, you go to the sauna. - What's the soup you made? 35 00:06:49,220 --> 00:06:51,220 Cabbage soup! 36 00:07:27,060 --> 00:07:31,110 Really insane stories, the things I've told you - 37 00:07:31,140 --> 00:07:34,150 things you can experience in your childhood. 38 00:07:34,180 --> 00:07:40,220 Things like hidden family violence... 39 00:07:41,020 --> 00:07:47,070 When you have a stepfather and you feel like you're in the way... 40 00:07:47,100 --> 00:07:52,110 I first realized this when I started school. 41 00:07:52,140 --> 00:07:56,070 We were at the cottage, he took me to this big rock - 42 00:07:56,100 --> 00:07:59,110 where the kids always play... 43 00:07:59,140 --> 00:08:04,070 He told me that I'm not Kuosmanen, I'm Putkonen. 44 00:08:04,100 --> 00:08:07,220 I was seven then, I didn't quite get it. 45 00:08:08,020 --> 00:08:11,020 I thought of him as my father. 46 00:08:13,020 --> 00:08:19,230 If you think of it, nowadays it would be unheard of... 47 00:08:19,260 --> 00:08:24,230 When I got home from school, I tried to avoid him - 48 00:08:24,260 --> 00:08:30,030 and tried to look and see if the despot is home. 49 00:08:30,060 --> 00:08:37,150 You grow numb with it, always being beaten, hit or strangled. 50 00:08:37,180 --> 00:08:43,230 The most insane thing was to be pushed down to the floor - 51 00:08:43,260 --> 00:08:48,150 and a pillow was held over my face. 52 00:08:48,180 --> 00:08:53,150 And the hypocrisy, what was shown to others... 53 00:08:53,180 --> 00:08:57,150 All was well in the artist family. 54 00:08:57,180 --> 00:09:02,150 And the way it stopped for me... 55 00:09:02,180 --> 00:09:07,110 I was drunk for the first time - 56 00:09:07,140 --> 00:09:13,070 and came home, we had this French balcony... 57 00:09:13,100 --> 00:09:16,230 I grabbed the guy, he was a head shorter - 58 00:09:16,260 --> 00:09:20,110 and I was sporty and well-built... 59 00:09:20,140 --> 00:09:25,220 I had the upper hand, I might have dropped him from there. 60 00:09:26,020 --> 00:09:29,230 He was screaming for mercy "Don't kill me! Help!". 61 00:09:29,260 --> 00:09:32,020 And that was the end of it. 62 00:09:38,060 --> 00:09:41,060 There's one more round here. 63 00:10:00,140 --> 00:10:06,030 In '89, I had everything I had always wanted. 64 00:10:06,060 --> 00:10:10,070 I had a daughter, I had a good job - 65 00:10:10,100 --> 00:10:13,070 but the child had no mother. 66 00:10:13,100 --> 00:10:19,230 I was a construction worker, and my mother cared for my daughter. 67 00:10:19,260 --> 00:10:24,110 She started staying over there, I visited them often. 68 00:10:24,140 --> 00:10:30,030 Then this person told me I can't come, because the girl always cries after that. 69 00:10:30,060 --> 00:10:33,190 Was your mother alone or with someone? 70 00:10:33,220 --> 00:10:38,070 My mother is married. 71 00:10:38,100 --> 00:10:42,070 They adopted my daughter. 72 00:10:42,100 --> 00:10:45,180 My daughter is also my stepsister. 73 00:10:47,180 --> 00:10:51,980 That's why I'm up here in the North. I just get so sad there. 74 00:10:54,060 --> 00:10:57,220 I didn't get info about her schooling or anything, really, - 75 00:10:58,020 --> 00:11:00,150 I had to threaten with lawyers. 76 00:11:00,180 --> 00:11:05,030 We tried to negotiate, but they accused and pressured me. 77 00:11:05,060 --> 00:11:12,070 I lost it totally then. I've always been a crackerjack. 78 00:11:12,100 --> 00:11:19,030 I told them to draw up the papers, I will sign them, whatever you want. 79 00:11:19,060 --> 00:11:23,110 That's... 80 00:11:23,140 --> 00:11:27,140 That's how we dealt with it. 81 00:11:36,100 --> 00:11:38,220 Fuck, it still hurts. 82 00:11:51,060 --> 00:11:52,980 More steam. 83 00:12:00,180 --> 00:12:05,060 If only I could tell my daughter, but I can't. 84 00:12:23,180 --> 00:12:26,980 It's good that I can tell you. 85 00:12:48,060 --> 00:12:51,070 Is it cold? - Not warm yet. 86 00:12:51,100 --> 00:12:57,140 The sun doesn't warm much. Should have a black tub there. 87 00:13:00,060 --> 00:13:02,060 You want a beer? - Sure. 88 00:13:23,060 --> 00:13:26,220 It would be nice if she came for a visit. 89 00:13:35,220 --> 00:13:40,140 We could cry together. I'm always crying alone. 90 00:13:42,140 --> 00:13:47,140 Would be good for her to know. . . - Yes, to know the reasons behind it. 91 00:14:41,100 --> 00:14:47,150 In 1983, my life got totally out of hand. 92 00:14:47,180 --> 00:14:50,070 I lost my grasp of things. 93 00:14:50,100 --> 00:14:52,220 I drank and got into crime. 94 00:14:53,020 --> 00:14:58,110 In the summer of '84, I committed a robbery - 95 00:14:58,140 --> 00:15:02,150 and got one year for it. 96 00:15:02,180 --> 00:15:08,150 I drank and drank, that was my life. 97 00:15:08,180 --> 00:15:11,070 I went into prison that summer, - 98 00:15:11,100 --> 00:15:17,220 and that started a spiral that lasted until '93. 99 00:15:25,100 --> 00:15:30,150 Once I was crossing the street, - 100 00:15:30,180 --> 00:15:33,190 I was high on drugs, drunk or something, - 101 00:15:33,220 --> 00:15:38,140 and I realized this is a part of the plan that destroys me. 102 00:15:40,180 --> 00:15:45,190 Then I got an 18-month sentence. . . 103 103 00:15:45,220 --> 00:15:50,150 I lived alone in my cell, they do in Sweden. 104 00:15:50,180 --> 00:15:58,030 In the corner, there was a piece of metal sheet - 105 00:15:58,060 --> 00:16:01,150 that served as a mirror there. 106 00:16:01,180 --> 00:16:04,110 I remember looking into it - 107 00:16:04,140 --> 00:16:08,150 and thinking that I'll kill myself to end all this shit. 108 00:16:08,180 --> 00:16:13,110 I had this lady friend who visited me from Stockholm. 109 00:16:13,140 --> 00:16:18,070 She came to the prison in March and asked: 110 00:16:18,100 --> 00:16:22,220 "Pertti, what happened to your eyes, they're the eyes of a dead fish." 111 00:16:32,100 --> 00:16:36,070 One prisoner tried to escape - 112 00:16:36,100 --> 00:16:40,150 by splitting his gums with a razor blade. 113 00:16:40,180 --> 00:16:45,230 I had taken amphetamine one night and just decided to escape. 114 00:16:45,260 --> 00:16:53,030 I started working out, so I broke into sweat - 115 00:16:53,060 --> 00:16:56,150 and then called the guard: "I've got stomach cramps." 116 00:16:56,180 --> 00:17:03,070 I took a razor blade and made wounds into my mouth - 117 00:17:03,100 --> 00:17:06,220 and let the blood run into a cup - 118 00:17:07,020 --> 00:17:10,230 and spread it all over the place and lay down on the floor. 119 00:17:10,260 --> 00:17:16,070 That's how they found me, unconscious. 120 00:17:16,100 --> 00:17:22,230 They hooked me up to an IV, I started running towards the door. 121 00:17:22,260 --> 00:17:29,190 The guards caught me, called the police and handcuffed me. 122 00:17:29,220 --> 00:17:36,060 The warden put me into solitary, I was a danger to others. 123 00:17:41,220 --> 00:17:49,220 In the solitary, I was permitted to sit outside on my lunch hour. 124 00:17:50,140 --> 00:17:55,110 It was a beautiful day, I sat against a trash can. 125 00:17:55,140 --> 00:17:58,190 I wore shorts, had a cup of coffee and the sky was blue. 126 00:17:58,220 --> 00:18:03,110 All of a sudden, I saw a blue butterfly in the sky. 127 00:18:03,140 --> 00:18:07,030 I thought it was beautiful, hoped it would sit on my mug. 128 00:18:07,060 --> 00:18:11,220 The mug was blue and had painted grass and flowers. 129 00:18:12,020 --> 00:18:14,070 It was like summer. 130 00:18:14,100 --> 00:18:16,230 So the butterfly landed on my mug. 131 00:18:16,260 --> 00:18:20,220 I hoped it would open its wings, and so it did. 132 00:18:21,020 --> 00:18:24,030 And at that moment, something happened. 133 00:18:24,060 --> 00:18:28,190 Instantly, my broken view of the world - 134 00:18:28,220 --> 00:18:33,060 was totally cleared. 135 00:18:41,180 --> 00:18:46,060 At the end of February 1991, I got out of prison in Sweden. 136 00:18:48,220 --> 00:18:53,110 When I walked into the log temple, - 137 00:18:53,140 --> 00:18:56,070 I had this insight that the woman who sits next to me will be my wife. 138 00:18:56,100 --> 00:19:01,150 And so this Anu Katia Johanna sat next to me during the introduction. 139 00:19:01,180 --> 00:19:05,110 I fell in love with her woolly socks. 140 00:19:05,140 --> 00:19:11,070 She curled her toes inside the red-and-white striped socks. 141 00:19:11,100 --> 00:19:15,140 I looked at her and my heart went all weak. 142 00:19:16,220 --> 00:19:24,030 Once I came back from a run and near the course center I thought - 143 00:19:24,060 --> 00:19:27,150 that if Anu is at the front door, I will tell her this. 144 00:19:27,180 --> 00:19:31,070 I went there, and she opened the door! 145 00:19:31,100 --> 00:19:34,140 I told her: "We will be married." 146 00:19:37,020 --> 00:19:40,070 When I was young, I told my mother: 147 00:19:40,100 --> 00:19:46,230 "I want a wife from Kainuu, she is a brown-eyed nurse." 148 00:19:46,260 --> 00:19:51,020 And my wife has brown eyes and is a nurse. 149 00:19:56,140 --> 00:20:02,150 When Anu took the pregnancy test and then she called the lab - 150 00:20:02,180 --> 00:20:08,190 and she heard that the hormone levels were up - 151 00:20:08,220 --> 00:20:13,220 it was just such miracle! That I would be a father! 152 00:20:14,020 --> 00:20:17,140 After such a life! 153 00:20:25,060 --> 00:20:32,030 This kind of basic life, organized society - 154 00:20:32,060 --> 00:20:35,220 this is the best I know. 155 00:20:36,020 --> 00:20:39,150 I've always had empty pockets. 156 00:20:39,180 --> 00:20:42,980 Now I have my family and empty pockets. 157 00:23:35,020 --> 00:23:37,220 I got married during the war - 158 00:23:38,020 --> 00:23:42,070 and had two children when I was on leave. 159 00:23:42,100 --> 00:23:47,100 But then my wife got sick. 160 00:23:49,180 --> 00:23:57,030 When she was still alive, if I was away for a few hours - 161 00:23:57,060 --> 00:24:02,150 I always worried if I would find her dead or alive. 162 00:24:02,180 --> 00:24:09,190 I couldn't always get the boys to watch her. 163 00:24:09,220 --> 00:24:15,150 My eldest son was there a few times and asked me: 164 00:24:15,180 --> 00:24:19,980 "How can you cope with this life for so many years, Dad?" 165 00:24:21,020 --> 00:24:23,220 But I just had to carry on, - 166 00:24:24,020 --> 00:24:30,020 and you get the strength for it as you go along. 167 00:24:35,020 --> 00:24:40,220 It went on for five years before she finally died. 168 00:24:41,020 --> 00:24:43,980 Then I was alone. 169 00:24:45,020 --> 00:24:49,070 I sat home alone on my bed - 170 00:24:49,100 --> 00:24:55,070 and cooked whenever I wanted, what little I wanted alone. . . 171 00:24:55,100 --> 00:25:01,070 Suddenly I had this hunger for other people. 172 00:25:01,100 --> 00:25:08,190 I said myself that something has to change in my life. 173 00:25:08,220 --> 00:25:13,150 My son came to visit and said: "Listen, Dad." 174 00:25:13,180 --> 00:25:21,150 "We have to do something, you have to get out and about" - 175 00:25:21,180 --> 00:25:25,230 "or else you will go crazy." 176 00:25:25,260 --> 00:25:32,070 After my son told me that, I got my act together - 177 00:25:32,100 --> 00:25:35,150 and went to the Veterans' Christmas Party. 178 00:25:35,180 --> 00:25:39,150 I found a nice-looking person there, - 179 00:25:39,180 --> 00:25:44,150 I thought she would be nice company if only I would dare to ask. 180 00:25:44,180 --> 00:25:49,030 I finally approached her - 181 00:25:49,060 --> 00:25:52,070 and asked if I could one day come for a cup of coffee. 182 00:25:52,100 --> 00:26:00,030 She said yes, and soon enough I went there with a bunch of flowers. 183 00:26:00,060 --> 00:26:03,230 That's how it started and it still goes on - 184 00:26:03,260 --> 00:26:06,110 hopefully for a long time. 185 00:26:06,140 --> 00:26:11,110 We've had great companionship and a good life. 186 00:26:11,140 --> 00:26:14,190 She's a good person and can cook - 187 00:26:14,220 --> 00:26:20,030 and tells me how to do laundry and helps me in everything. 188 00:26:20,060 --> 00:26:23,230 I'm living the best years of my life. 189 00:26:23,260 --> 00:26:27,030 Well, her neighbors must have been wondering - 190 00:26:27,060 --> 00:26:31,070 when they saw another pair of underpants on the washing line - 191 00:26:31,100 --> 00:26:33,100 as she doesn't have a husband. 192 00:26:35,020 --> 00:26:39,220 How long have you been together? - For 18 years now. 193 00:26:40,020 --> 00:26:45,180 Both getting older at the same time. - Older and senile. 194 00:27:02,140 --> 00:27:09,070 The police brought him here one night in the spring. 195 00:27:09,100 --> 00:27:16,150 They called and asked if there's room for one more orphan. 196 00:27:16,180 --> 00:27:20,030 I said there's always room for one more. 197 00:27:20,060 --> 00:27:24,140 That's how our friendship started. 198 00:27:27,020 --> 00:27:31,110 We went berry picking and fishing with him. 199 00:27:31,140 --> 00:27:36,230 At first, we should have picked the berries for him. 200 00:27:36,260 --> 00:27:43,070 At one point, there was a bush full of blueberries - 201 00:27:43,100 --> 00:27:50,070 so I took some branches and told him to sit down - 202 00:27:50,100 --> 00:27:56,220 so that I could teach him how to pick blueberries. 203 00:27:57,020 --> 00:28:00,190 When we had caught fish - 204 00:28:00,220 --> 00:28:05,110 we had to negotiate how to share the catch. 205 00:28:05,140 --> 00:28:13,140 He was going to take all fish. I wouldn't let him. 206 00:28:14,140 --> 00:28:20,980 "I will take these and you will take those." 207 00:28:22,100 --> 00:28:27,220 Breaking things is important to him. 208 00:28:28,020 --> 00:28:34,980 If you give him a car tire, he will tear it apart in a second. 209 00:28:39,260 --> 00:28:45,070 One Saturday, we went to the sauna. 210 00:28:45,100 --> 00:28:50,150 He stayed to eat out in the barn. 211 00:28:50,180 --> 00:28:55,030 We sat in the sauna for a while... 212 00:28:55,060 --> 00:28:59,150 The doors started banging - 213 00:28:59,180 --> 00:29:02,230 and he barged in from underneath the door - 214 00:29:02,260 --> 00:29:06,220 and came to the benches. 215 00:29:07,020 --> 00:29:11,060 I told him I will throw some water on the stove to get some steam. 216 00:29:13,100 --> 00:29:21,100 As soon as the steam hissed he barged out underneath the door. 217 00:29:22,060 --> 00:29:30,060 I told him: "No, no don't go yet, you haven't broken into sweat yet." 218 00:29:30,180 --> 00:29:33,980 But no, he went outside, banging the doors. 219 00:30:06,260 --> 00:30:09,030 Right, Juuso. 220 00:30:09,060 --> 00:30:13,220 You were Only a boy when we had our sauna. 221 00:30:14,020 --> 00:30:17,110 A very little boy... 222 00:30:17,140 --> 00:30:21,220 Left without washing, did you? 223 00:30:22,020 --> 00:30:25,140 Yes, that's right. 224 00:30:32,260 --> 00:30:37,190 The bear has become a real friend to me. 225 00:30:37,220 --> 00:30:43,030 It's an intelligent animal, learns very fast. 226 00:30:43,060 --> 00:30:48,060 And it is a true, loyal friend indeed. 227 00:30:52,260 --> 00:30:58,220 Right, another one gone. This is the name of the game. 228 00:31:05,100 --> 00:31:09,020 Juuso! It's broken now! 229 00:33:52,140 --> 00:33:56,220 I keep going back to early spring... 230 00:33:57,020 --> 00:34:00,110 We still had snow. 231 00:34:00,140 --> 00:34:05,220 There was a spring happening for children on the lake ice. 232 00:34:06,020 --> 00:34:12,150 I was playing with my daughter, - 233 00:34:12,180 --> 00:34:17,110 sledding down the hill, eating grilled sausages. 234 00:34:17,140 --> 00:34:22,180 She went on a pony ride. Think what an experience for a child! 235 00:34:25,060 --> 00:34:28,150 Every time I went to get her she ran to me with her arms open: 236 00:34:28,180 --> 00:34:32,190 "Daddy, I want to go home with you! I miss you so much." 237 00:34:32,220 --> 00:34:38,980 I have two cats, she says: "To see Mikku and Okku at home!" 238 00:34:46,020 --> 00:34:48,190 It's so wrong. - Well, it tears you apart. 239 00:34:48,220 --> 00:34:56,150 Think about it: You don't see your child for example for 13 years! 240 00:34:56,180 --> 00:34:58,100 How long has it been now? 241 00:35:00,060 --> 00:35:03,060 Well, how long has it been... 242 00:35:04,260 --> 00:35:08,230 I had just received the Appellate Court order - 243 00:35:08,260 --> 00:35:11,230 with all the visiting rights. 244 00:35:11,260 --> 00:35:17,110 Not as extensive as I had wanted.. 245 00:35:17,140 --> 00:35:20,070 As soon as the court process was over - 246 00:35:20,100 --> 00:35:25,220 and the decision was, like 9 times out of 10 - 247 00:35:26,020 --> 00:35:28,230 that the custody was taken from the father. 248 00:35:28,260 --> 00:35:33,190 Every other weekend and one weekday, that's it. 249 00:35:33,220 --> 00:35:36,110 Nothing else mattered. 250 00:35:36,140 --> 00:35:41,100 As soon as the process was over, the mother refused to give the child. 251 00:35:43,180 --> 00:35:48,150 We were visiting grandma for the last time with the girl, - 252 00:35:48,180 --> 00:35:50,230 we played together - 253 00:35:50,260 --> 00:35:56,030 when my ex just announced that she won't allow visitations anymore. 254 00:35:56,060 --> 00:36:01,070 This is now September, I haven't seen or heard of her. 255 00:36:01,100 --> 00:36:04,980 I don't even know if they live here any more. 256 00:36:07,100 --> 00:36:11,020 The authorities can't do anything without court orders. 257 00:36:13,100 --> 00:36:20,060 I should go to court and get an order forcing her to let me see the child. 258 00:36:23,260 --> 00:36:29,070 And of course, family and friends miss her also. 259 00:36:29,100 --> 00:36:35,190 Her godfather, grandmother and everyone else. 260 00:36:35,220 --> 00:36:41,220 They keep asking about her and crying... 261 00:36:42,020 --> 00:36:44,070 Her grandmother is getting old, - 262 00:36:44,100 --> 00:36:50,230 she cried if she will ever see Inka again. 263 00:36:50,260 --> 00:36:55,100 I told her I don't know the answer. 264 00:37:01,100 --> 00:37:06,140 I don't mind suffering, but my girl is so young... 265 00:37:08,100 --> 00:37:10,220 She's not yet three, - 266 00:37:11,020 --> 00:37:14,190 she doesn't have long-term memory yet. 267 00:37:14,220 --> 00:37:19,180 I think my daughter doesn't remember who her father is any more. 268 00:37:21,260 --> 00:37:24,980 That really hurts. 269 00:37:34,020 --> 00:37:36,230 If only I could hold her. 270 00:37:36,260 --> 00:37:42,070 If she would run towards me and jump into my arms. 271 00:37:42,100 --> 00:37:45,140 "Let's go home and see Okku and Mikka." 272 00:39:12,220 --> 00:39:18,110 I remember my grandpa, when I was a little boy. 273 00:39:18,140 --> 00:39:25,150 I used to walk to their place and he'd be chopping wood. 274 00:39:25,180 --> 00:39:31,190 Grandma was inside, cooking, doing chores. 275 00:39:31,220 --> 00:39:38,230 When grandma was in a bad mood, grandpa would stop us - 276 00:39:38,260 --> 00:39:42,190 and ask us: "Is it still stormy in the South?" 277 00:39:42,220 --> 00:39:47,220 He meant: "Is your grandmother still angry?" 278 00:39:52,180 --> 00:40:00,180 I asked grandpa how old the oldest logs were in the shed. 279 00:40:00,260 --> 00:40:05,060 He thought about it and then said: "11 years." 280 00:40:06,100 --> 00:40:11,070 Time passed. Grandpa chopped wood - 281 00:40:11,100 --> 00:40:16,020 and grandma was either in a good or a bad mood. 282 00:40:20,180 --> 00:40:25,220 Then grandpa got dementia and had to go to a nursing home. 283 00:40:26,020 --> 00:40:34,020 When we visited him, we told him everyday news - 284 00:40:35,180 --> 00:40:40,110 but he wasn't interested. 285 00:40:40,140 --> 00:40:48,140 When we spent quiet time with him, he would then ask - 286 00:40:50,260 --> 00:40:55,070 where the end of the wood pile was, - 287 00:40:55,100 --> 00:40:57,980 had it reached the wall on the river side? 288 00:41:01,100 --> 00:41:09,100 After four years grandpa found out that his woodpile was running low. 289 00:41:11,180 --> 00:41:15,150 He cried and apologized - 290 00:41:15,180 --> 00:41:19,140 for not having chopped enough wood. 291 00:41:22,020 --> 00:41:24,070 Afterwards, when I've thought about it, - 292 00:41:24,100 --> 00:41:26,150 I realized - 293 00:41:26,180 --> 00:41:29,070 that he wanted to chop enough wood - 294 00:41:29,100 --> 00:41:37,100 to last until the end of grandmother's life. 295 00:41:38,140 --> 00:41:41,990 That's when I realized - 296 00:41:42,020 --> 00:41:45,140 how manifold love can be. 297 00:42:01,220 --> 00:42:04,140 Pete, the oars are squeaking. 298 00:42:06,020 --> 00:42:12,180 I do love boats. - That's right. 299 00:42:14,260 --> 00:42:19,030 When the Frog went a-courting Aha, Aha. . . 300 00:42:19,060 --> 00:42:20,180 There's only one aha. 301 00:42:23,180 --> 00:42:28,070 But where is he going? - I'm going to Bulgaria. 302 00:42:28,100 --> 00:42:32,150 What else will we take? 303 00:42:32,180 --> 00:42:37,150 Sunscreen. - Sunscreen, we have to take it. 304 00:42:37,180 --> 00:42:41,220 If I forget it, what will we do? I burn easily. 305 00:42:42,020 --> 00:42:45,150 Then we put yogurt on your back. 306 00:42:45,180 --> 00:42:49,070 What other clothes shall we take? 307 00:42:49,100 --> 00:42:52,220 The bikini. - What bikini? 308 00:42:54,260 --> 00:42:58,060 You know. 309 00:42:58,260 --> 00:43:02,150 The plane flies high up. - In the sky. 310 00:43:02,180 --> 00:43:06,100 Where's the sky? 311 00:43:59,180 --> 00:44:01,190 It's getting cloudy. 312 00:44:01,220 --> 00:44:05,020 What? - Getting cloudy. 313 00:44:15,060 --> 00:44:17,980 You should be honest with others. 314 00:44:30,220 --> 00:44:34,030 Have you been the best friend? 315 00:44:34,060 --> 00:44:37,110 I have been for a long time, already as a child. 316 00:44:37,140 --> 00:44:43,150 So have I. - I've been honest to everyone. 317 00:44:43,180 --> 00:44:47,190 I've never stolen anything. You have to ask always. 318 00:44:47,220 --> 00:44:53,110 You have to be honest. 319 00:44:53,140 --> 00:44:58,140 My best friend. I'm the best friend. 320 00:45:00,220 --> 00:45:07,020 All's well and in balance. - All's in order. 321 00:47:04,140 --> 00:47:08,150 Interesting, this is somehow mild. - Yes, mild. 322 00:47:08,180 --> 00:47:12,220 It has a lot of soul. Touch of leather. 323 00:47:13,020 --> 00:47:16,230 Light as the touch of a summer fairy. 324 00:47:16,260 --> 00:47:20,230 The touch of a summer virgin. 325 00:47:20,260 --> 00:47:24,100 Right after swimming in the sea. 326 00:47:32,100 --> 00:47:37,150 I've been to all army saunas there possibly are - 327 00:47:37,180 --> 00:47:41,150 from a battalion sauna to a one-man tent sauna, - 328 00:47:41,180 --> 00:47:45,110 and in Afghanistan, in a Swedish sauna - 329 00:47:45,140 --> 00:47:50,220 which differs from a Stockholm sauna in that the newspaper is 2 weeks late. 330 00:48:15,260 --> 00:48:19,070 How have you recovered from getting back from the tour? 331 00:48:19,100 --> 00:48:24,070 I had to work a few weeks - 332 00:48:24,100 --> 00:48:29,030 to get myself back into the regiment books. 333 00:48:29,060 --> 00:48:32,070 I tried to adapt to being back home. 334 00:48:32,100 --> 00:48:37,070 Some bad things happened to me during that year away. 335 00:48:37,100 --> 00:48:42,030 My mother died and my relationship fell apart. 336 00:48:42,060 --> 00:48:46,190 And you can't really process those things out there, - 337 00:48:46,220 --> 00:48:51,230 you have to concentrate on the task at hand. 338 00:48:51,260 --> 00:48:55,110 And you know, I work out a lot. 339 00:48:55,140 --> 00:49:01,020 I poured all that anxiety and bad feelings into workouts. 340 00:49:04,020 --> 00:49:07,230 What was it like when the Chaplain brought the message? 341 00:49:07,260 --> 00:49:10,190 If I remember correctly, - 342 00:49:10,220 --> 00:49:17,220 my then girlfriend just called me on my mobile - 343 00:49:18,020 --> 00:49:22,220 and told me to sit down, she had bad news. 344 00:49:23,020 --> 00:49:26,150 Well, that was that. 345 00:49:26,180 --> 00:49:33,190 The Chief-of-Staff and the Chaplain met me on the club house... 346 00:49:33,220 --> 00:49:37,220 The Chief immediately started arranging - 347 00:49:38,020 --> 00:49:42,150 for me to be on the next flight home - 348 00:49:42,180 --> 00:49:45,190 so that I can go bury my mother. 349 00:49:45,220 --> 00:49:53,220 Me and Jari Rankinen went to the chapel to have a... 350 00:49:58,260 --> 00:50:01,110 Take a moment. - Yes. 351 00:50:01,140 --> 00:50:08,060 We lit a candle and read a passage from the Bible. 352 00:50:12,180 --> 00:50:16,150 I could have hardened myself, as I did before - 353 00:50:16,180 --> 00:50:19,150 and claim that I didn't feel anything. 354 00:50:19,180 --> 00:50:25,030 But now that I actually felt something, it was easier to bear it. 355 00:50:25,060 --> 00:50:31,220 In a military organization, showing softness and weakness - 356 00:50:32,020 --> 00:50:38,150 is not necessarily a strength. You can be soft and weak in private. 357 00:50:38,180 --> 00:50:42,030 You can't show it there. - No, you can't. 358 00:50:42,060 --> 00:50:46,140 And Finnish men have traditionally been very tough. 359 00:50:54,020 --> 00:50:59,150 I haven't regretted joining the army. It has saved me. 360 00:50:59,180 --> 00:51:03,190 I can't say a bad word. 361 00:51:03,220 --> 00:51:08,220 The man and the job belong together, in this case. 362 00:51:09,020 --> 00:51:12,030 Will your son continue in your footsteps? 363 00:51:12,060 --> 00:51:17,190 Well. . . I'm happy to say he listens to Deep Purple and Led Zeppelin. 364 00:51:17,220 --> 00:51:22,150 Last week he cut his long hair, so no more moshing. 365 00:51:22,180 --> 00:51:26,030 But the signs are good. - Yes. 366 00:51:26,060 --> 00:51:30,150 His own words, said with a smile: "Join the army? Seriously!" 367 00:51:30,180 --> 00:51:34,230 He has been watching me and Jari - 368 00:51:34,260 --> 00:51:38,150 and thought how ridiculous it is. 369 00:51:38,180 --> 00:51:42,070 But we do it with a big heart. 370 00:51:42,100 --> 00:51:46,220 Whatever my son decides, if he does it from his heart... 371 00:51:47,020 --> 00:51:50,070 If he decides that he won't do the military service - 372 00:51:50,100 --> 00:51:54,180 and it comes from his heart, I will totally stand by him. 373 00:52:16,180 --> 00:52:18,100 Happy Independence Day. 374 00:52:38,140 --> 00:52:43,030 When they ask children to sing to Santa, - 375 00:52:43,060 --> 00:52:46,140 then you feel like saying: "Let's just get to the presents." 376 00:52:50,140 --> 00:52:55,150 Today there was one family where nobody wanted to sing. 377 00:52:55,180 --> 00:53:01,030 Then I wanted to hand out the presents, but no, the lady didn't want that. 378 00:53:01,060 --> 00:53:08,070 But you don't want to leave after five minutes either. 379 00:53:08,100 --> 00:53:15,060 You don't earn your money. - All the homes had kids in there. 380 00:53:23,220 --> 00:53:28,070 Have you noticed that when Santa comes in, - 381 00:53:28,100 --> 00:53:32,230 they ofter you the best chair or a place on the sofa. 382 00:53:32,260 --> 00:53:36,220 But I have one family, I won't mention names - 383 00:53:37,020 --> 00:53:42,190 where Santa gets a servant's chair, and it's halfway in the doorway. 384 00:53:42,220 --> 00:53:45,110 A bit like taking some distance. 385 00:53:45,140 --> 00:53:51,150 They're so far away I feel like shouting or taking a mic. 386 00:53:51,180 --> 00:53:58,030 Today I had a place where they left me on the doorstep! 387 00:53:58,060 --> 00:54:03,150 They cleared some space there, but it really annoyed me - 388 00:54:03,180 --> 00:54:07,220 I couldn't even get in, had to shout from the door. 389 00:54:08,020 --> 00:54:13,020 And usually Santa is the guest of honor. 390 00:55:11,140 --> 00:55:16,110 You know the Suzuki four-wheel drive? - Yes, I know. 391 00:55:16,140 --> 00:55:19,190 How many people does it seat? 392 00:55:19,220 --> 00:55:23,150 Well, it takes in... 393 00:55:23,180 --> 00:55:26,140 About a dozen people. 394 00:55:27,140 --> 00:55:33,220 Well, we were 21 in there. Driving in there. 395 00:55:34,020 --> 00:55:38,220 Who drove it? How come? - The owner. 396 00:55:39,020 --> 00:55:45,150 It must have been a tight squeeze. - You bet. 397 00:55:45,180 --> 00:55:52,070 The only ones that are still alive - 398 00:55:52,100 --> 00:55:59,150 are me and the owner of the car... 399 00:55:59,180 --> 00:56:03,220 All the others have kicked the bucket. 400 00:56:04,020 --> 00:56:07,060 Like my wife last summer. 401 00:56:10,100 --> 00:56:13,230 They first knocked on the door before six a.m. 402 00:56:13,260 --> 00:56:19,110 Then they rang the doorbell. I said: "Leena, where are you?" 403 00:56:19,140 --> 00:56:23,150 "Who's at the door now?" But there was nobody there. 404 00:56:23,180 --> 00:56:28,190 When I opened the door, it was two policemen. 405 00:56:28,220 --> 00:56:35,030 They asked if I was so and so, I said yes. They had a message. 406 00:56:35,060 --> 00:56:43,030 They said it was about my wife, or that do you know so and so. . . 407 00:56:43,060 --> 00:56:46,110 I said yes, she's my wife. 408 00:56:46,140 --> 00:56:51,030 They said: "These are her rings and belongings." 409 00:56:51,060 --> 00:56:57,060 "Our divers have just found her, she drowned in the sea." 410 00:57:10,180 --> 00:57:13,190 She's in Hietaniemi, at the cemetery. 411 00:57:13,220 --> 00:57:15,220 She had a good funeral. 412 00:57:20,060 --> 00:57:24,060 I have to take it one day at a time. 413 00:57:30,180 --> 00:57:33,060 She was everything to me. 414 00:57:51,020 --> 00:57:52,220 I want to break a sweat. 415 00:58:06,100 --> 00:58:09,220 OK, go ahead. 416 00:58:10,020 --> 00:58:15,140 Are you going to barbecue me? - That's what I planned. 417 00:58:25,020 --> 00:58:28,180 So where to now? 418 00:58:31,220 --> 00:58:34,980 Downtown? 419 00:58:36,220 --> 00:58:44,070 I've been on the Esplanade, 50 cents for a flat. 420 00:58:44,100 --> 00:58:49,110 Oh yes. It has all the modern conveniences. 421 00:58:49,140 --> 00:58:53,230 No, I have a sleeping bag. - I see. 422 00:58:53,260 --> 00:58:58,070 But how do you fit in there? - Into the toilet? 423 00:58:58,100 --> 00:59:02,030 It's not that big. - The big one. 424 00:59:02,060 --> 00:59:06,030 I see, the big one. - It costs 50 cents per night. 425 00:59:06,060 --> 00:59:10,030 Per day. So you recommend? 426 00:59:10,060 --> 00:59:13,180 Indoor plumbing and everything. 427 01:00:31,220 --> 01:00:37,150 So you decided to come here? - It was in the early 90's. 428 01:00:37,180 --> 01:00:41,100 Matti asked me to come and pan for gold. 429 01:00:43,020 --> 01:00:47,180 I had no ties in the South, so I stayed here. 430 01:00:48,140 --> 01:00:55,060 I had nothing to go back to there. 431 01:00:58,060 --> 01:01:02,060 Bit like me, the same thing. - Yes, that's right. 432 01:01:02,260 --> 01:01:06,060 A bit similar, yes. 433 01:01:08,220 --> 01:01:11,060 And it's good up here. 434 01:01:14,180 --> 01:01:21,220 It's about two years ago when I met my present wife. 435 01:01:22,220 --> 01:01:28,230 And it's been going well. - My age protects me from that. 436 01:01:28,260 --> 01:01:34,190 Yes, your age helps, protects you from women. 437 01:01:34,220 --> 01:01:39,060 Well, not too much. - I see. 438 01:01:40,140 --> 01:01:43,060 They come and hug me. 439 01:01:52,100 --> 01:01:58,140 One time at a work trip, something bad happened. 440 01:02:03,100 --> 01:02:09,100 They didn't warn us about men working on the tracks. 441 01:02:10,140 --> 01:02:17,020 We were taking a plaster train to 'c4k'e4slompolo. 442 01:02:20,220 --> 01:02:24,180 To the cement factory. - I see. 443 01:02:26,220 --> 01:02:34,110 There was this guy, standing on a small bridge. 444 01:02:34,140 --> 01:02:37,110 He was waving a red flag! 445 01:02:37,140 --> 01:02:41,110 I acknowledged it and braked as hard as I could. 446 01:02:41,140 --> 01:02:45,100 He started running in front of the train. 447 01:02:51,100 --> 01:02:53,980 Splash, splash. 448 01:02:54,220 --> 01:03:00,150 He didn't get out in time? - No. He tried to save his friend. 449 01:03:00,180 --> 01:03:02,220 I see. 450 01:03:07,100 --> 01:03:10,110 I still have nightmares about it. 451 01:03:10,140 --> 01:03:16,140 It was only about 10 cars away. The boys were under the cars. 452 01:03:18,220 --> 01:03:24,100 But their death was... - Instantaneous. 453 01:03:26,220 --> 01:03:32,100 No suffering, not lying in the hospital for long. 454 01:03:38,220 --> 01:03:45,060 Later, I met one's sister and the other one's wife... 455 01:03:55,260 --> 01:04:00,020 Shouldn't have said anything about this. 456 01:04:03,020 --> 01:04:06,140 Sometimes it's good to talk. 457 01:05:46,100 --> 01:05:48,230 I don't know if you noticed, - 458 01:05:48,260 --> 01:05:52,190 but for years, it was hard to see other families with twins. 459 01:05:52,220 --> 01:05:56,140 Yes, I noticed, we didn't have much contact then. 460 01:05:57,180 --> 01:06:00,060 Understandable, in a way. 461 01:06:03,100 --> 01:06:07,140 You can't wish this on anyone else. 462 01:06:08,180 --> 01:06:12,060 That one of the twins is dead. 463 01:06:13,220 --> 01:06:19,140 When I saw other twin families, I became so jealous. 464 01:06:20,060 --> 01:06:26,190 And I couldn't accept my own feelings. That was very hard. 465 01:06:26,220 --> 01:06:33,980 And even today, I don't want to look at baby twins in prams. 466 01:06:35,100 --> 01:06:40,060 But it has changed with time. 467 01:06:45,060 --> 01:06:49,060 It's a bit corny, two years and two months... 468 01:06:49,220 --> 01:06:54,180 I'm not a superstitious person - 469 01:06:55,060 --> 01:07:00,230 but I keep thinking that Iida was a twin, - 470 01:07:00,260 --> 01:07:04,190 and we got our second child on our second try - 471 01:07:04,220 --> 01:07:08,100 as there was a miscarriage first... 472 01:07:08,260 --> 01:07:14,980 And then the second child dies when she's 2 years and 2 months. 473 01:07:15,180 --> 01:07:20,020 Feels like the figure 2 is all used up in our family. 474 01:07:39,100 --> 01:07:41,990 I had just commented the previous night - 475 01:07:42,020 --> 01:07:44,150 that we are given as much as we can take. 476 01:07:44,180 --> 01:07:46,180 And boy did we get some. 477 01:07:47,060 --> 01:07:49,150 That was a normal Thursday, - 478 01:07:49,180 --> 01:07:53,980 I had a coffee meeting for entrepreneurs in the morning. 479 01:07:54,180 --> 01:07:59,020 I left, Minna and the kids woke up, it was summer holiday. 480 01:07:59,260 --> 01:08:03,020 The meeting took a few hours. 481 01:08:05,100 --> 01:08:07,220 I went out to my car - 482 01:08:08,020 --> 01:08:10,230 and listened to my messages. 483 01:08:10,260 --> 01:08:12,190 I was a bit surprised - 484 01:08:12,220 --> 01:08:16,100 at how many messages I had. 485 01:08:17,220 --> 01:08:21,020 It was the third message... 486 01:08:22,180 --> 01:08:24,180 A woman's voice said: 487 01:08:26,220 --> 01:08:28,070 "It's the answering service." 488 01:08:28,100 --> 01:08:29,220 "Shall we leave a message?" 489 01:08:30,020 --> 01:08:32,150 Another woman says: "Yes." 490 01:08:32,180 --> 01:08:36,020 A woman is crying in the background. 491 01:08:37,020 --> 01:08:38,990 The message said then: 492 01:08:39,020 --> 01:08:43,100 "Please call the health center." 493 01:08:49,260 --> 01:08:54,060 My first thought was: 494 01:08:55,100 --> 01:08:57,070 "Now it's happening." 495 01:08:57,100 --> 01:08:59,150 A strange relief... 496 01:08:59,180 --> 01:09:02,140 I don't have to be afraid any more. 497 01:09:06,220 --> 01:09:09,140 I called the number. 498 01:09:11,180 --> 01:09:13,070 I told who I am, - 499 01:09:13,100 --> 01:09:15,150 and they put the call through. 500 01:09:15,180 --> 01:09:18,100 And Minna answered. 501 01:09:18,260 --> 01:09:21,230 Then I knew Minna is OK. 502 01:09:21,260 --> 01:09:25,100 I asked which one or all of them. 503 01:09:26,060 --> 01:09:29,060 Minna said it was Iida. 504 01:09:30,060 --> 01:09:32,220 She told me what happened. 505 01:09:34,020 --> 01:09:36,220 I started the car, my hands were shaking. 506 01:09:37,020 --> 01:09:41,030 I thought I'll never get there. 507 01:09:41,060 --> 01:09:44,230 During that drive, I only had three thoughts. 508 01:09:44,260 --> 01:09:47,150 That she's there, happy and smiling, - 509 01:09:47,180 --> 01:09:49,140 thinking how she scared us. 510 01:09:50,060 --> 01:09:51,190 The second one was - 511 01:09:51,220 --> 01:09:53,180 that she was a vegetable. 512 01:09:54,020 --> 01:09:56,180 I realized that if you don't breathe, - 513 01:09:57,020 --> 01:09:59,180 the brain damage is immediate. 514 01:10:01,220 --> 01:10:04,980 And the third one was: she's dead. 515 01:10:05,180 --> 01:10:08,150 The mood went from happy to sad. 516 01:10:08,180 --> 01:10:10,180 And then I just screamed. 517 01:10:11,180 --> 01:10:15,070 I got to the health care center. 518 01:10:15,100 --> 01:10:17,230 Minna is walking towards me. 519 01:10:17,260 --> 01:10:21,100 She says that Iida is dead. 520 01:10:27,220 --> 01:10:29,110 There was bench - 521 01:10:29,140 --> 01:10:32,140 and we sat down and cried. 522 01:10:34,100 --> 01:10:38,020 Minna asked if I wanted to see Iida. 523 01:10:39,060 --> 01:10:41,070 Afterwards I realized - 524 01:10:41,100 --> 01:10:45,020 I didn't want it at that moment. 525 01:10:46,100 --> 01:10:51,060 When we go inside and get to Iida... 526 01:10:52,100 --> 01:10:56,070 It's strange, a dead child... 527 01:10:56,100 --> 01:10:59,060 Does not look like herself at all. 528 01:11:00,100 --> 01:11:03,060 I felt like... 529 01:11:03,220 --> 01:11:05,230 That when the soul has left - 530 01:11:05,260 --> 01:11:09,070 the body looks different. 531 01:11:09,100 --> 01:11:11,980 She didn't look like Iida. 532 01:11:16,260 --> 01:11:21,220 Then they told us after a while that we should go home - 533 01:11:23,100 --> 01:11:27,020 and the child should be taken to the morgue. 534 01:11:27,180 --> 01:11:29,230 We walked her there. 535 01:11:29,260 --> 01:11:33,220 There were piles of laundry along the corridors. 536 01:11:34,100 --> 01:11:39,070 There was a little lounge and we left Iida there. 537 01:11:39,100 --> 01:11:42,030 I couldn't bear watching it. 538 01:11:42,060 --> 01:11:47,070 That they will put the child into a dark, cold room. 539 01:11:47,100 --> 01:11:49,230 An unbearable thought. 540 01:11:49,260 --> 01:11:57,180 We went to see Iida a few times at the health center morgue - 541 01:11:58,020 --> 01:12:02,060 before she was taken to Tampere for autopsy. 542 01:12:03,020 --> 01:12:04,230 I could never go in there, - 543 01:12:04,260 --> 01:12:10,070 I had to ask the staff to take Iida out. 544 01:12:10,100 --> 01:12:15,220 The thought of darkness and cold was just unbearable. 545 01:12:16,020 --> 01:12:18,220 She always liked warmth. 546 01:12:41,220 --> 01:12:46,230 I always thought that life is ruled with rationale and theories - 547 01:12:46,260 --> 01:12:51,030 and intellect and head. I've been a real robot, machine head. 548 01:12:51,060 --> 01:12:54,180 Then you lose your child, and there is no reason, - 549 01:12:55,020 --> 01:13:01,060 it's all pure emotion. How can you deal with that rationally? 550 01:13:02,220 --> 01:13:05,150 Very contradictory emotions, - 551 01:13:05,180 --> 01:13:12,220 like when Minna, Roosa and Essi were there and Iida died. 552 01:13:13,100 --> 01:13:17,060 That raises mixed emotions. 553 01:13:17,260 --> 01:13:20,190 I was angry at myself for not being there, - 554 01:13:20,220 --> 01:13:24,150 a man should protect his family. 555 01:13:24,180 --> 01:13:28,070 I let down my family. 556 01:13:28,100 --> 01:13:33,110 On the other hand, I was jealous to Minna for being there. 557 01:13:33,140 --> 01:13:37,150 I've talked to other fathers whose children have died - 558 01:13:37,180 --> 01:13:44,980 about what we have learned as children about coping with this. 559 01:13:45,260 --> 01:13:50,220 What are the options for boys? 560 01:13:51,100 --> 01:13:55,060 Being silent and drinking. "Boys don't cry." 561 01:13:57,100 --> 01:14:01,070 When you think of the situation, it's no wonder - 562 01:14:01,100 --> 01:14:05,230 that you don't know how to act when you're next to your dead child. 563 01:14:05,260 --> 01:14:10,180 You try to look for a norm that isn't there. 564 01:14:11,180 --> 01:14:14,140 Later, you realize. . . 565 01:14:15,020 --> 01:14:21,140 I was just looking for a way to act, a way to continue my life. 566 01:14:22,100 --> 01:14:27,110 I had this surreal thought that if I'm ever in this situation again - 567 01:14:27,140 --> 01:14:32,020 I would want to scream. Just scream everything out. 568 01:14:35,020 --> 01:14:40,180 When I was younger, I thought you should manage everything alone. 569 01:14:43,020 --> 01:14:45,230 I don't need help, I don't need sympathy. 570 01:14:45,260 --> 01:14:50,110 I'm fed up with it, I don't want to be alone. 571 01:14:50,140 --> 01:14:53,140 I want to share things. 572 01:14:56,020 --> 01:15:01,980 Only now I understood that solitude is the worst thing. 573 01:15:04,020 --> 01:15:10,180 Only knowing you are not alone is an incredible relief. 574 01:15:20,260 --> 01:15:28,140 Sweetly the squirrel baby Sleeps on her mossy bed 575 01:15:29,020 --> 01:15:37,020 Never reached by hounds Nor snared by hunters 576 01:15:37,140 --> 01:15:43,980 Safe in her nest 577 01:15:47,140 --> 01:15:55,140 From her cocoon high up She looks upon the world 578 01:15:58,180 --> 01:16:06,180 After seeing so many fights The peace flag of her home tree 579 01:16:09,100 --> 01:16:15,060 Is flying over her head 580 01:16:27,220 --> 01:16:35,220 Oh to live happily In the swinging cradle up so high 581 01:16:38,140 --> 01:16:46,140 Squirrel nesting forever In the gentle arms of the tree 582 01:16:49,220 --> 01:16:54,100 Hear the song of the woods 583 01:17:18,180 --> 01:17:26,180 That's where the furry cutie Is sleeping on her window 584 01:17:28,260 --> 01:17:36,260 Birds on the skies Are singing lullabies 585 01:17:41,100 --> 01:17:45,980 Taking her to The sweet land of dreams 586 01:17:53,180 --> 01:17:58,100 This film is dedicated to Finnish men 587 01:19:55,220 --> 01:19:58,140 English Subtitles: Tiina Kinnunen / Media Context