1 00:00:25,859 --> 00:00:29,586 SECRET REVELATIONS OF A WOMAN 2 00:00:29,829 --> 00:00:33,287 Directed by Kazuo Hara Produced by Sachiko Kobayashi 3 00:00:34,334 --> 00:00:36,802 Miyuki Takeda, born in 1948 4 00:00:37,104 --> 00:00:42,537 I lived with Miyuki for three years. 5 00:00:43,543 --> 00:00:48,703 We had a son and a lot happened. 6 00:00:49,249 --> 00:00:51,747 When our relationship reached a certain level, 7 00:00:52,085 --> 00:00:55,049 she decided she wanted a space of its own. 8 00:00:55,922 --> 00:00:58,454 She took our son and left me. 9 00:00:58,825 --> 00:01:06,898 But she still tells me visit once a week. 10 00:01:07,067 --> 00:01:14,400 So we have a species relationship. 11 00:01:14,574 --> 00:01:20,440 One day she will tell me said he was going to Okinawa. 12 00:01:21,248 --> 00:01:26,886 I was upset and nervous because... 13 00:01:27,120 --> 00:01:31,723 if she went to Okinawa... 14 00:01:32,292 --> 00:01:40,922 I wouldn't know how to deal with what I still feel about her. 15 00:01:41,101 --> 00:01:44,566 I felt like I had to do something. 16 00:01:44,771 --> 00:01:48,737 So I decided to make a film. 17 00:01:49,709 --> 00:01:54,403 The only way to stay in contact with her... 18 00:01:55,282 --> 00:01:59,851 I would be making this film. 19 00:02:00,387 --> 00:02:05,081 I filmed it because... 20 00:02:05,325 --> 00:02:09,825 I wanted to see her. 21 00:02:16,436 --> 00:02:21,403 Miyuki lived with Sugako in Okinawa. 22 00:02:22,676 --> 00:02:25,106 Answer me. 23 00:02:26,246 --> 00:02:28,107 Do you have something to say? 24 00:02:31,518 --> 00:02:33,117 Look at me. 25 00:02:51,872 --> 00:02:53,130 Say something. 26 00:03:04,384 --> 00:03:07,519 Why? 27 00:03:08,588 --> 00:03:12,519 You never say anything. It's always like this. 28 00:03:17,764 --> 00:03:23,027 I knew there was something wrong. You never say what you want. 29 00:03:24,704 --> 00:03:27,532 I can't take this anymore. 30 00:03:27,874 --> 00:03:29,206 What? 31 00:03:29,509 --> 00:03:31,874 Are you tired of me? 32 00:03:36,383 --> 00:03:38,675 Can you explain? 33 00:03:45,592 --> 00:03:50,957 - You're always like this. - You can think what you want. 34 00:03:52,365 --> 00:03:53,896 Tell me the reason. 35 00:03:55,569 --> 00:03:57,900 Is that all you have to say? 36 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:01,873 Why? 37 00:04:05,912 --> 00:04:08,171 What is the purpose of this? 38 00:04:10,951 --> 00:04:13,176 We never try. 39 00:04:16,957 --> 00:04:18,619 We never did anything. 40 00:04:20,393 --> 00:04:25,162 You say you can't take it anymore, but he never told me why. 41 00:04:25,732 --> 00:04:28,526 I never meant anything. 42 00:05:02,902 --> 00:05:06,132 So is it like this, Sugako? 43 00:05:08,642 --> 00:05:10,202 What do you mean? 44 00:05:10,310 --> 00:05:14,646 It ended. It's all over between us. 45 00:05:14,648 --> 00:05:19,244 Would you rather live with Tommy, right? 46 00:05:33,903 --> 00:05:36,697 You prefer Tommy over me. Right? 47 00:05:40,143 --> 00:05:42,470 - Not really. - Is that so? 48 00:05:43,213 --> 00:05:45,074 I've never heard that before. I am happy. 49 00:05:46,649 --> 00:05:48,714 So it's the same thing. 50 00:05:49,886 --> 00:05:51,314 What? 51 00:05:51,755 --> 00:05:53,684 You still like me. 52 00:05:55,992 --> 00:05:57,386 I'm glad to hear that. 53 00:06:00,397 --> 00:06:04,590 You never explain anything. 54 00:06:05,034 --> 00:06:07,998 You change your attitude every day. 55 00:06:10,006 --> 00:06:11,905 It affects me. 56 00:06:12,208 --> 00:06:17,111 How can we give up everything? 57 00:06:18,014 --> 00:06:19,979 I'm not giving up yet. 58 00:06:20,250 --> 00:06:27,078 It's easy to say that we lost our passion. 59 00:06:28,591 --> 00:06:31,325 Maybe we never will sense that. 60 00:07:32,255 --> 00:07:34,446 Please say something. 61 00:07:41,431 --> 00:07:45,397 Do women need men? Does having sex mean a connection? 62 00:08:13,963 --> 00:08:18,429 I went to Okinawa for two months after Miyuki left. 63 00:08:18,801 --> 00:08:22,437 She lived with Sugako. 64 00:08:22,639 --> 00:08:31,941 I went there and stayed with them. For 4 or 5 days. 65 00:08:32,882 --> 00:08:40,012 I didn't know anything about their relationship. 66 00:08:40,055 --> 00:08:43,582 After a while, they started fighting. 67 00:08:43,693 --> 00:08:51,058 In the beginning I didn't I understood why they were fighting. 68 00:08:51,268 --> 00:08:56,430 But I discovered that my presence in that apartment... 69 00:08:56,573 --> 00:09:02,373 it was the cause of their fight. 70 00:09:02,393 --> 00:09:06,724 That's how it started. 71 00:09:08,485 --> 00:09:17,589 The fact that I had a relationship with Miyuki the situation got worse... 72 00:09:17,594 --> 00:09:23,191 because I was a man. That's why they fought. 73 00:09:23,366 --> 00:09:30,165 This is what I discovered. 74 00:09:30,607 --> 00:09:31,831 How? 75 00:09:36,379 --> 00:09:37,773 Why? 76 00:09:39,616 --> 00:09:40,840 Just tell me. 77 00:09:42,652 --> 00:09:45,320 Is being with a man normal? 78 00:09:45,588 --> 00:09:48,723 - I didn't say that. - Then what? 79 00:09:50,393 --> 00:09:53,357 So living with me isn't normal? 80 00:09:55,898 --> 00:09:57,861 So what is normal and abnormal? 81 00:09:58,067 --> 00:10:00,326 I don't think so. 82 00:10:00,670 --> 00:10:04,203 What are you saying? I don't understand. 83 00:10:04,274 --> 00:10:06,808 Say yes or no. I like this or hate that. 84 00:10:06,810 --> 00:10:09,605 It's funny, isn't it? Just say it. 85 00:10:11,714 --> 00:10:13,905 Why is it so strange? 86 00:10:14,217 --> 00:10:15,941 What are you talking about? 87 00:10:18,154 --> 00:10:20,322 I have my reasons. 88 00:10:21,224 --> 00:10:24,985 - That's what I have to say. - I don't understand. 89 00:10:25,228 --> 00:10:29,023 What about Tommy? And this place? 90 00:10:31,734 --> 00:10:33,367 Don't give me that. 91 00:10:43,746 --> 00:10:46,710 How can you be so indifferent? 92 00:10:52,255 --> 00:10:54,589 The more nervous you are, the calmer I become. 93 00:10:54,590 --> 00:10:56,553 Smart girl. 94 00:10:56,926 --> 00:10:58,684 THE NEXT DAY 95 00:11:22,685 --> 00:11:29,120 Sugako left home at night and went to Tommy's house. 96 00:11:29,325 --> 00:11:33,427 But she came back, since Tommy wasn't there. 97 00:11:33,830 --> 00:11:38,096 Sugako and Miyuki they fought all night. 98 00:11:47,456 --> 00:11:53,595 We live together and I I care a lot about you. 99 00:11:54,997 --> 00:11:58,530 That's it. Isn't that enough? I want to be with you. 100 00:11:58,868 --> 00:12:01,536 It's not simple for me. 101 00:12:01,771 --> 00:12:03,905 Everything is complicated for you. 102 00:12:05,675 --> 00:12:07,536 It's always the same thing. 103 00:12:11,581 --> 00:12:16,548 But I said I wanted to try... 104 00:12:17,253 --> 00:12:21,389 even though I think it's not natural. 105 00:12:27,263 --> 00:12:33,231 You said you didn't believe in me when I said what I felt. 106 00:12:33,436 --> 00:12:38,004 You didn't believe me. It's the same story. 107 00:12:39,008 --> 00:12:41,267 Why don't you believe? 108 00:13:11,107 --> 00:13:15,471 I said let's talk. But you don't talk. 109 00:13:17,179 --> 00:13:22,316 You don't do anything. It's always the same thing. 110 00:13:22,518 --> 00:13:26,848 You don't speak or say anything. What should I do? 111 00:13:30,860 --> 00:13:32,618 It's not that difficult. 112 00:13:33,829 --> 00:13:36,623 Even when I hit you, You don't say anything. 113 00:14:12,601 --> 00:14:14,962 I want to be with you. 114 00:14:29,251 --> 00:14:31,009 Miyuki, I'm not going. 115 00:14:32,588 --> 00:14:34,915 I'm so happy. 116 00:14:35,791 --> 00:14:40,087 - Very happy. - Are you serious? 117 00:14:43,933 --> 00:14:50,072 She slept with Tommy here in this room. 118 00:14:50,639 --> 00:14:56,778 I slept there, but no I closed my eyes. 119 00:14:57,380 --> 00:15:04,509 The fact that they are communicate physically... 120 00:15:04,820 --> 00:15:07,784 made me jealous. 121 00:15:10,960 --> 00:15:13,822 Why can't we have sex? 122 00:15:15,798 --> 00:15:18,023 Maybe I should try. 123 00:15:19,168 --> 00:15:21,802 I mean, fuck her. 124 00:15:23,072 --> 00:15:25,433 Maybe not you call it sex. 125 00:15:26,942 --> 00:15:30,441 With you, we had sex. 126 00:15:30,780 --> 00:15:33,141 That's why everything was easier. 127 00:15:33,315 --> 00:15:38,782 A good way to end a fight. Kisses, sex and peace. 128 00:15:39,655 --> 00:15:41,618 Very easy. 129 00:15:41,824 --> 00:15:45,790 Living with Sugako caused I felt different. 130 00:15:46,662 --> 00:15:49,296 I was jealous. 131 00:15:52,969 --> 00:15:57,762 Miyuki and Sugako logo they separated. 132 00:17:07,276 --> 00:17:10,775 CHICHI, A GIRL 14 YEAR OLD FROM OKINAWA 133 00:17:11,514 --> 00:17:13,614 Chichi is from Okinawa. 134 00:17:13,816 --> 00:17:19,955 I met her in a bar where Miyuki works. 135 00:17:47,816 --> 00:17:50,007 I don't know who the father is. 136 00:17:51,453 --> 00:17:55,817 My mother will be furious. She's going to kill me. 137 00:17:56,192 --> 00:17:57,950 She really will... 138 00:17:59,195 --> 00:18:00,953 if I have this baby. 139 00:18:03,532 --> 00:18:07,065 When I went to school... 140 00:18:07,536 --> 00:18:10,000 I never went to school, but... 141 00:18:10,339 --> 00:18:14,305 Well, when I went to school... 142 00:18:15,044 --> 00:18:18,338 I had red hair and a miniskirt. 143 00:18:19,381 --> 00:18:21,173 My teacher called me... 144 00:18:22,551 --> 00:18:24,013 and I told him... 145 00:18:24,220 --> 00:18:30,689 if I went crazy, I would kill him... 146 00:18:31,527 --> 00:18:37,165 I would really kill him. Then he left. 147 00:18:39,235 --> 00:18:45,032 Everyone at school they knew about me. 148 00:18:51,447 --> 00:18:53,376 In eighth grade. 149 00:18:54,583 --> 00:19:00,380 I don't go to school anymore. I'm not doing anything. 150 00:19:03,192 --> 00:19:08,853 I think I fought too much. 151 00:19:24,947 --> 00:19:28,776 Of course I would come back, but not to study. 152 00:19:35,291 --> 00:19:43,091 I never understood freedom. I prefer fear. 153 00:19:43,632 --> 00:19:48,098 Everything is very It's easy when you're free. 154 00:19:49,438 --> 00:19:51,572 I finally realized this. 155 00:19:52,641 --> 00:19:56,709 Life is without grace without adrenaline... 156 00:19:56,912 --> 00:20:00,377 you need to be afraid of something. 157 00:20:02,484 --> 00:20:03,742 Don't you think? 158 00:20:08,657 --> 00:20:12,793 I will raise my son like a wild child. 159 00:20:13,162 --> 00:20:14,761 That's the only way. 160 00:20:15,264 --> 00:20:19,127 I will raise you to become someone who can survive alone... 161 00:20:19,501 --> 00:20:23,467 no matter where he is or whatever happens. 162 00:20:23,839 --> 00:20:26,234 That's what I meant, as "wild child". 163 00:20:28,344 --> 00:20:31,308 I'm going to Central Asia with my son... 164 00:20:35,284 --> 00:20:39,750 I will take things I will need, and then I'll be pregnant... 165 00:20:44,193 --> 00:20:48,295 I think I should go first the right time... 166 00:20:49,198 --> 00:20:51,389 and I will have the baby alone. 167 00:20:51,667 --> 00:20:58,796 I need courage to have a baby alone. 168 00:20:59,208 --> 00:21:01,774 And I want to film it. 169 00:21:02,211 --> 00:21:07,007 As I promised you two years ago. 170 00:21:07,216 --> 00:21:09,475 I want to see. 171 00:21:11,353 --> 00:21:12,815 Are you okay? 172 00:21:14,356 --> 00:21:20,324 I don't want my son to grow up to be sweet and kind. 173 00:21:20,696 --> 00:21:26,664 I want my son be aggressive. 174 00:21:26,902 --> 00:21:28,330 I want him to be like that. 175 00:21:29,371 --> 00:21:34,338 You don't have that. 176 00:21:35,377 --> 00:21:38,842 He doesn't have the look. 177 00:21:40,716 --> 00:21:43,183 It's a way to grow. 178 00:21:43,986 --> 00:21:50,022 Be sweet, kind and happy. The shit. 179 00:21:50,893 --> 00:21:55,127 It's better not to have anything if one child has to be like this. 180 00:22:00,903 --> 00:22:02,035 Don't you think so? 181 00:22:09,011 --> 00:22:10,200 Am I right? 182 00:22:21,957 --> 00:22:26,260 TO: KAZUO HARA SETAGAYA, TOKYO 183 00:22:26,261 --> 00:22:29,555 BY: MIYUKI TAKEDA GOZA, OKINAWA 184 00:22:34,403 --> 00:22:36,468 HI, HARA. 185 00:22:36,605 --> 00:22:42,937 I'M PREGNANT. 186 00:22:43,245 --> 00:22:47,404 TWO MONTHS. 187 00:22:47,950 --> 00:22:55,181 THE FATHER IS FROM OKINAWA. 188 00:22:55,791 --> 00:23:00,894 I WILL HAVE THE BABY. 189 00:23:02,097 --> 00:23:08,236 I WILL HAVE A BABY FROM OKINAWA. 190 00:23:12,975 --> 00:23:16,372 I received another letter... 191 00:23:16,645 --> 00:23:21,282 saying she was living with a guy called Paul. 192 00:23:21,483 --> 00:23:25,244 I went to Okinawa for the second time. 193 00:23:29,024 --> 00:23:34,762 You said he wanted it. he asked. 194 00:23:34,763 --> 00:23:37,532 - How do I say it in Japanese? - What? 195 00:23:37,533 --> 00:23:40,535 How do I say "yes" in Japanese? 196 00:23:40,536 --> 00:23:42,236 Yes. 197 00:23:42,237 --> 00:23:43,603 - "Hai". - "Hai". 198 00:23:43,605 --> 00:23:45,033 I speak. 199 00:23:47,409 --> 00:23:50,339 "Hai" means "yes", doesn't it? 200 00:23:50,713 --> 00:23:53,071 Yes, but Paul... 201 00:23:56,184 --> 00:23:58,750 You wrote to me. 202 00:23:59,855 --> 00:24:01,647 - Yes? - Yes. 203 00:24:01,658 --> 00:24:04,775 It's easy. 204 00:24:09,464 --> 00:24:16,536 So I know, that before love was not true. 205 00:24:20,309 --> 00:24:22,944 But we like from each other, you know? 206 00:24:22,945 --> 00:24:24,876 - Perhaps. - He is sure? 207 00:24:24,913 --> 00:24:26,239 - Sometimes. - Sometimes. 208 00:24:27,083 --> 00:24:32,117 But Paul, before You accepted, right? 209 00:24:34,121 --> 00:24:36,729 - Sometimes, it's true. - I mean, believe? 210 00:24:36,732 --> 00:24:38,158 Believe in people? 211 00:24:39,281 --> 00:24:41,039 - No? - To listen? 212 00:24:41,683 --> 00:24:43,578 But you don't believe at all. 213 00:24:44,019 --> 00:24:47,620 If I look you in the eye, I believe. 214 00:24:48,056 --> 00:24:52,124 - Do you believe it? - If I see myself... I believe. 215 00:24:52,995 --> 00:24:56,289 Me too. 216 00:24:59,701 --> 00:25:04,031 Crazy girl... keep going! 217 00:25:06,341 --> 00:25:07,565 What? 218 00:25:11,447 --> 00:25:14,309 - What did he say? - Don't you understand? 219 00:25:18,287 --> 00:25:24,858 Just like you, he had sex with many women. 220 00:25:25,027 --> 00:25:28,162 - Did what? - Love, sex. 221 00:25:28,697 --> 00:25:34,529 People say that women They shine when they are with men. 222 00:25:34,870 --> 00:25:38,005 I think this was my case when I was with you. 223 00:25:38,707 --> 00:25:41,967 I was happy to be adored. 224 00:25:43,946 --> 00:25:45,909 I never had an experience like this. 225 00:25:46,849 --> 00:25:53,477 I was always rejected, I was very happy to have been accepted. 226 00:25:53,889 --> 00:25:57,456 But that wasn't enough. So I left him. 227 00:25:58,560 --> 00:26:02,025 I feel very insecure with Paul. 228 00:26:03,065 --> 00:26:06,462 That's because our relationship is unstable. 229 00:26:08,537 --> 00:26:10,830 I don't like soldiers. 230 00:26:14,409 --> 00:26:18,170 Not being a soldier It's a stable job. 231 00:26:18,380 --> 00:26:21,777 Paul says he has money, but he wanted to be a soldier. 232 00:26:23,819 --> 00:26:30,390 My life with Paul would only give right in Okinawa. 233 00:26:31,660 --> 00:26:35,921 Being a soldier isn't all that. 234 00:26:38,267 --> 00:26:40,367 It's not a big job. 235 00:26:40,903 --> 00:26:47,201 They come home and spend all your energy having sex. 236 00:26:48,243 --> 00:26:53,881 Some leave for brothels. 237 00:26:54,583 --> 00:27:01,611 That's where I come in. That's how I see it. 238 00:27:03,592 --> 00:27:10,254 I may be in love, But I know my limits. 239 00:27:12,100 --> 00:27:16,236 I don't open up to anyone. I don't want to. 240 00:27:16,939 --> 00:27:21,405 What does this mean? I don't understand. 241 00:27:21,610 --> 00:27:27,407 You can always deceive someone. 242 00:27:27,616 --> 00:27:30,250 - What? - You're getting upset. 243 00:27:30,452 --> 00:27:32,620 I don't want to continue with that if you get upset. 244 00:27:32,788 --> 00:27:35,616 I'm trying to understand what are you saying. 245 00:27:35,791 --> 00:27:39,256 I'm explaining myself. But like this we will both be upset. 246 00:27:39,461 --> 00:27:41,925 - You're confusing me. - You too. 247 00:27:42,130 --> 00:27:46,796 So you love Paul, is that it? Why is he black? 248 00:27:46,868 --> 00:27:48,629 - That's why too. - Why? 249 00:27:48,937 --> 00:27:52,004 Color shouldn't matter. 250 00:27:52,107 --> 00:27:54,241 What being black has to do with all this? 251 00:27:54,876 --> 00:27:58,409 - It should matter. - Why? 252 00:27:58,614 --> 00:28:02,580 That's not the only reason. I love him for who he is. 253 00:28:02,751 --> 00:28:05,385 But we have colors different skin. 254 00:28:06,188 --> 00:28:08,720 Our baby doesn't it will look like us. 255 00:28:20,702 --> 00:28:24,998 I don't care about that. I just want to be with him. 256 00:28:25,207 --> 00:28:27,705 I don't want me regret anything. 257 00:28:30,245 --> 00:28:32,174 I can't live with myself... 258 00:28:32,314 --> 00:28:38,009 if I have done this or that. 259 00:28:39,821 --> 00:28:44,515 Paul is what, no matter what. 260 00:28:47,262 --> 00:28:52,195 I just want to try, that's all. 261 00:28:52,334 --> 00:28:54,729 I want to live with him. 262 00:29:18,060 --> 00:29:19,693 Why are you crying? 263 00:29:34,576 --> 00:29:39,213 Her relationship with Paul it lasted 3 weeks. 264 00:29:40,315 --> 00:29:43,678 For the third time... 265 00:29:43,885 --> 00:29:50,183 I went back to Okinawa, this time with Sachiko Kobayashi. 266 00:29:55,097 --> 00:29:58,960 Hara told me that he is making this film... 267 00:29:59,167 --> 00:30:01,892 to understand the relationship him with you. 268 00:30:02,070 --> 00:30:06,036 I don't care about that. I don't care. 269 00:30:06,241 --> 00:30:10,707 I wanted to find her and see for myself who you are. 270 00:30:10,879 --> 00:30:16,711 We never met... 271 00:30:17,018 --> 00:30:19,709 I knew you doesn't like me very much. 272 00:30:20,455 --> 00:30:23,920 I have to say I stayed intimidated by you. 273 00:30:25,427 --> 00:30:32,055 I didn't like that feeling, so I had to see her face-to-face. 274 00:30:32,267 --> 00:30:36,062 If he is not trustworthy, How can the film be good? 275 00:30:36,271 --> 00:30:37,904 I don't trust him. 276 00:30:41,042 --> 00:30:47,579 He's good with words. That's why I don't trust him. 277 00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:56,381 He only talks about what you want to talk about. 278 00:30:58,927 --> 00:31:02,494 That's why he He doesn't say he loves her. 279 00:31:09,571 --> 00:31:15,607 He just wants to know how to have sex. You were an easy target... 280 00:31:17,145 --> 00:31:18,778 for this guy. 281 00:31:20,582 --> 00:31:23,216 You like him. So what? 282 00:31:30,358 --> 00:31:32,526 I'm tired of this. 283 00:31:38,500 --> 00:31:41,794 You weren't the only one who You already had sex with him, you know? 284 00:31:42,170 --> 00:31:45,965 He slept with many women and created confusing situations. 285 00:31:49,177 --> 00:31:51,311 I wouldn't work out with him. 286 00:31:51,513 --> 00:31:54,978 But it could work with you. That's why you're doing this. 287 00:31:55,517 --> 00:31:59,312 I couldn't take it. 288 00:32:00,021 --> 00:32:02,587 I don't speak his language. 289 00:32:03,191 --> 00:32:07,157 He's good with words. And I don't trust them. 290 00:32:07,696 --> 00:32:14,665 It seems like it makes sense, but it doesn't. 291 00:32:15,370 --> 00:32:18,164 He's a liar. 292 00:32:20,342 --> 00:32:22,908 I don't like that. 293 00:32:29,351 --> 00:32:32,285 I don't like you two are working together. 294 00:32:34,890 --> 00:32:37,654 How can you do this? 295 00:32:37,893 --> 00:32:42,496 You'll know what I mean when you're done with him. 296 00:32:47,135 --> 00:32:49,496 Do you like him, then you won't understand. 297 00:32:49,738 --> 00:32:53,704 It's none of my business. I can only say this. 298 00:32:55,977 --> 00:32:58,338 I lived with this guy. 299 00:33:11,259 --> 00:33:18,388 I know what he's like. 300 00:33:19,267 --> 00:33:24,734 And you say you love him. 301 00:33:26,441 --> 00:33:30,077 But I don't believe you. 302 00:33:30,512 --> 00:33:33,545 We are different. 303 00:33:35,116 --> 00:33:37,978 That's not the question. 304 00:33:38,253 --> 00:33:41,650 You're not doing this on your own. This is a mistake. 305 00:35:32,500 --> 00:35:36,966 Miyuki and friends opened a daycare... 306 00:35:37,505 --> 00:35:41,801 for bar girls in Okinawa. 307 00:35:42,010 --> 00:35:47,273 All the kids there belonged to the girls at the bar. 308 00:35:47,482 --> 00:35:55,612 But in the end, it didn't work out. 309 00:35:55,657 --> 00:36:02,922 Kenny was one of the kids. 310 00:36:02,964 --> 00:36:09,203 Half black, half Japanese. 311 00:36:09,204 --> 00:36:16,173 Miyuki thought of put him up for adoption. 312 00:36:26,554 --> 00:36:31,186 - I fought with that slut! - Fantastic! 313 00:36:31,286 --> 00:36:33,251 It really was! 314 00:36:35,330 --> 00:36:40,194 She said he hit her. A bitch. 315 00:36:41,569 --> 00:36:45,364 I scratched her and my nails broke. 316 00:36:47,408 --> 00:36:48,870 Did you scratch her? 317 00:36:50,211 --> 00:36:57,952 I tried to scratch her face, but his arms got in the way. 318 00:36:58,486 --> 00:37:01,951 The food is not ready. I don't like the boy. 319 00:37:11,266 --> 00:37:13,024 The pan is on. 320 00:37:15,104 --> 00:37:20,898 When she was scared of I got an ice pick. 321 00:37:21,409 --> 00:37:24,703 A slut. 322 00:37:25,413 --> 00:37:27,706 I told her to attack me. 323 00:37:28,082 --> 00:37:33,345 Do you want to attack me? Go ahead. Try. 324 00:37:33,488 --> 00:37:36,623 And she said: "Don't make me nervous." 325 00:37:36,724 --> 00:37:40,281 "I'll call Mama-san", she said. 326 00:37:41,296 --> 00:37:44,090 She thought I had scared of Mama-san. Dog. 327 00:37:44,432 --> 00:37:46,395 GINZA BAR 328 00:37:47,268 --> 00:37:50,904 - You're not in charge here. - I don't want any confusion. 329 00:37:50,939 --> 00:37:52,231 We feel sorry for you. 330 00:37:55,043 --> 00:37:59,077 You will be alone to the rest of your life. 331 00:37:59,447 --> 00:38:01,615 I'm much better than you. 332 00:38:02,917 --> 00:38:05,210 The boss laughs in your face. 333 00:38:05,453 --> 00:38:08,087 He thinks you're an old woman historical grump. 334 00:38:08,456 --> 00:38:14,424 You get bored so easily. You won't be able to survive. 335 00:38:15,129 --> 00:38:17,593 There are women worse than us. 336 00:38:19,267 --> 00:38:21,526 Get yourself a man. 337 00:38:22,270 --> 00:38:24,563 You need a good fuck. 338 00:38:27,942 --> 00:38:31,077 A balance hormonal is important. 339 00:38:32,113 --> 00:38:39,583 If you are smart and polite enough... 340 00:38:39,787 --> 00:38:41,750 can provoke someone not to mention you would download. 341 00:38:44,292 --> 00:38:47,256 So you think you're smart? Of course not. 342 00:38:49,797 --> 00:38:51,430 I will close. 343 00:38:53,801 --> 00:38:55,366 Leave the door open. 344 00:39:06,714 --> 00:39:10,941 They always make me upset. 345 00:39:14,689 --> 00:39:18,450 I get so upset that I start to shake. 346 00:39:23,164 --> 00:39:26,424 I don't get along with people like them. 347 00:39:26,601 --> 00:39:28,792 I'm not an aggressive person. 348 00:39:30,838 --> 00:39:34,974 I get along well... 349 00:39:36,010 --> 00:39:43,810 with calm people, understanding, 350 00:39:44,519 --> 00:39:48,348 kind, and friendly. 351 00:39:48,690 --> 00:39:50,448 That's all I want to say. 352 00:39:51,526 --> 00:39:55,822 It's not good for me mental health deal with them. 353 00:39:57,031 --> 00:40:00,496 Shut up and go home. 354 00:40:01,369 --> 00:40:04,436 I don't want to hear that. 355 00:40:06,874 --> 00:40:13,502 I left everything there and forgot everything. 356 00:40:14,549 --> 00:40:16,933 Otherwise this would never end. 357 00:40:19,054 --> 00:40:27,854 You've been fighting since last night. 358 00:40:32,066 --> 00:40:34,700 Go upstairs. 359 00:40:34,902 --> 00:40:38,538 Drink some tea and keep fighting. 360 00:40:41,743 --> 00:40:44,468 I just don't want to hear it. 361 00:40:49,884 --> 00:40:52,951 She's getting old and jealous. 362 00:40:53,087 --> 00:40:56,222 We have men, but she doesn't. 363 00:40:59,093 --> 00:41:01,056 She is jealous. 364 00:41:01,429 --> 00:41:04,723 Not to mention that my body is much better than hers. 365 00:41:05,066 --> 00:41:09,202 - You shouldn't talk like that. - It's true. 366 00:41:10,571 --> 00:41:16,539 I don't need a mirror to see who is prettier. 367 00:41:19,914 --> 00:41:21,877 I don't like her. 368 00:41:23,584 --> 00:41:27,880 She is Kumamoto's Kayile. 369 00:41:28,623 --> 00:41:32,190 She did very well with Miyuki. 370 00:41:34,128 --> 00:41:37,092 I fought all the time. 371 00:41:37,432 --> 00:41:42,399 I had my own territory, but I had no idea when I started. 372 00:41:43,104 --> 00:41:45,829 I didn't know anything. 373 00:41:46,040 --> 00:41:50,904 I got hit on a lot by one girl. 374 00:41:51,612 --> 00:41:53,837 I never forgot. 375 00:41:57,618 --> 00:42:05,122 It's easy for today's girls. I started at 19 years old. 376 00:42:05,460 --> 00:42:07,753 Life was very difficult in the past. 377 00:42:07,962 --> 00:42:13,862 I had to clean a bar twice as big as this one... 378 00:42:14,135 --> 00:42:18,931 wash dirty panties, with blood. 379 00:42:19,040 --> 00:42:22,107 I was the last to eat. 380 00:42:23,311 --> 00:42:25,570 And there was usually nothing left. 381 00:42:26,113 --> 00:42:28,907 I was hungry all the time. 382 00:42:29,116 --> 00:42:31,580 The soldier began to like me... 383 00:42:31,786 --> 00:42:33,886 his girlfriend accused me of having stolen it from her. 384 00:42:34,121 --> 00:42:37,620 I didn't even know how to speak English. How could I steal it? 385 00:42:39,327 --> 00:42:44,089 She made me shave my head. I was scared. 386 00:42:44,298 --> 00:42:47,934 That's why I don't like stealing men from other girls. 387 00:42:48,135 --> 00:42:50,269 Was that the reason? 388 00:42:52,139 --> 00:42:53,601 I don't like it. 389 00:42:55,743 --> 00:43:00,505 I don't like dividing men with other girls. 390 00:43:00,781 --> 00:43:08,080 Girls rob men in droves time, but I despise them. 391 00:43:08,322 --> 00:43:13,221 I got hurt so much times in fights. 392 00:43:14,328 --> 00:43:17,592 I grabbed a knife time and my finger was cut off. 393 00:43:17,665 --> 00:43:20,891 I picked it up and put it back. 394 00:43:22,904 --> 00:43:26,972 I grabbed it like this and I cut my hand. 395 00:43:27,408 --> 00:43:30,270 I was stabbed here once. 396 00:43:31,145 --> 00:43:34,139 And I didn't realize until the fight was over. 397 00:43:36,150 --> 00:43:41,947 I looked down and saw the knife stuck. 398 00:43:43,190 --> 00:43:46,325 I was gushing blood. 399 00:43:46,494 --> 00:43:52,326 No doctors. I pulled the knife myself. 400 00:43:55,369 --> 00:44:00,973 Pure agony. It hurt like hell. 401 00:44:02,510 --> 00:44:06,476 Today's girls are crybaby. 402 00:44:07,181 --> 00:44:09,474 Some cry when they drink. 403 00:44:12,053 --> 00:44:14,712 Others cry when men leave them. 404 00:44:15,556 --> 00:44:18,190 They don't have courage. 405 00:44:18,359 --> 00:44:21,653 They fall in love very easily. 406 00:44:22,029 --> 00:44:24,993 Then they get lost. 407 00:44:25,032 --> 00:44:27,826 Sachiko Kobayashi she also became pregnant. 408 00:44:28,903 --> 00:44:33,339 When I returned to Tokyo, I found out. 409 00:44:33,341 --> 00:44:35,509 I was three months pregnant. 410 00:44:41,549 --> 00:44:44,411 Hara said she was happy? 411 00:44:45,720 --> 00:44:48,354 - No. I don't know. - What did he say? 412 00:44:48,489 --> 00:44:51,021 - I don't remember. - I'm sure he said something. 413 00:44:51,158 --> 00:44:54,521 He asked if I I was sure. 414 00:44:54,729 --> 00:44:57,193 Thought it was another false alarm. 415 00:45:00,868 --> 00:45:02,968 So what does he think? 416 00:45:04,038 --> 00:45:06,832 - About what? - About the baby. 417 00:45:07,041 --> 00:45:11,507 He said I can do what I want him to support me. 418 00:45:13,714 --> 00:45:16,007 He really is the father, isn't he? 419 00:45:16,217 --> 00:45:21,514 I had doubts about this. 420 00:45:22,723 --> 00:45:26,324 I don't like the idea of have a baby for a guy. 421 00:45:26,894 --> 00:45:30,188 I don't like that idea. 422 00:45:31,065 --> 00:45:35,201 I don't care if he will stay with me or not. 423 00:45:35,736 --> 00:45:38,871 I'm sure he He is curious about the baby. 424 00:45:39,040 --> 00:45:42,505 He wants to see the child. 425 00:45:46,514 --> 00:45:51,879 You really want to. He drives me crazy. I want to kill him. 426 00:45:52,053 --> 00:45:55,518 - Why? - It's disgusting. 427 00:45:56,257 --> 00:45:59,517 - I don't understand. - What don't you understand? 428 00:45:59,760 --> 00:46:03,225 Are you upset because I Will I have his child? 429 00:46:03,431 --> 00:46:07,692 Also. I'm very possessive. 430 00:46:09,403 --> 00:46:18,375 I mean, his sperm got in in me, in my son and in you. 431 00:46:18,579 --> 00:46:25,048 The three of us have his sperm. 432 00:46:26,287 --> 00:46:30,116 It's true. 433 00:46:33,627 --> 00:46:38,594 But you said I'm different. You admitted it. 434 00:46:38,766 --> 00:46:44,563 So what? That's why it's horrible. 435 00:46:44,772 --> 00:46:47,736 We all think that we are special. 436 00:46:53,447 --> 00:46:56,844 Let him have as many women he wants. 437 00:47:04,325 --> 00:47:09,428 - He can divide the soul. - In 3 or four ways maybe? 438 00:47:11,665 --> 00:47:13,389 Don't be smart. 439 00:47:49,637 --> 00:47:53,702 Why are you telling me now? Why didn't you tell me right away? 440 00:47:54,642 --> 00:47:58,175 Because of him? I know her, just because of him. 441 00:47:58,379 --> 00:48:01,605 That's why I'm asking. 442 00:48:03,384 --> 00:48:07,350 I don't care whether you have the baby or not. 443 00:48:11,759 --> 00:48:13,517 I don't give a damn. 444 00:49:10,184 --> 00:49:13,353 LOOKING FOR KENNY 445 00:49:15,189 --> 00:49:16,947 I am Miyuki Takeda. 446 00:49:18,692 --> 00:49:22,794 - Are you from Okinawa? - No. I'm from the continent. 447 00:49:25,532 --> 00:49:28,667 - Were you looking for me? - He was. 448 00:49:29,036 --> 00:49:34,333 It was with me who he stayed longer. 449 00:49:34,508 --> 00:49:37,302 I think she works nights. 450 00:49:39,346 --> 00:49:42,140 I know. 451 00:49:45,019 --> 00:49:47,312 And sleeps during the day. 452 00:49:51,725 --> 00:49:57,830 I told her who would take care of him. 453 00:49:59,733 --> 00:50:02,299 Miyuki returned the Kenny to his mother. 454 00:50:02,469 --> 00:50:07,834 But she was obsessed with this child. 455 00:50:08,208 --> 00:50:11,002 She decided to take care of him. 456 00:50:11,211 --> 00:50:16,940 Looked everywhere. But he didn't find it. 457 00:50:18,552 --> 00:50:24,691 I wanted to say that I would take care of Kenny. 458 00:50:24,892 --> 00:50:31,361 It's not good for a child go from one place to another. 459 00:50:39,239 --> 00:50:40,701 Two months ago? 460 00:50:41,241 --> 00:50:43,375 Two weeks ago. 461 00:50:50,417 --> 00:50:54,713 It's impossible. How can we find it? 462 00:50:55,122 --> 00:50:58,723 That wouldn't work. 463 00:51:01,128 --> 00:51:04,422 How long will you stay? 464 00:51:05,099 --> 00:51:08,564 Not much. Until October. 465 00:51:09,103 --> 00:51:11,737 I will help her. 466 00:51:16,276 --> 00:51:18,000 Where else can we look? 467 00:51:19,947 --> 00:51:21,671 You'd better give up. 468 00:52:08,996 --> 00:52:12,359 10 months have passed since Miyuki moved to Okinawa. 469 00:52:12,499 --> 00:52:15,668 I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE OKINAWA. NOT SAME. 470 00:52:15,669 --> 00:52:17,737 I CAN'T STAND ANY MORE SOUP, CHAMPURU TOFU... 471 00:52:17,738 --> 00:52:19,805 RICE COOKIES... 472 00:52:19,806 --> 00:52:23,000 DRY FISH, OILY TEMPUR�, AND FROZEN FOOD. 473 00:52:23,009 --> 00:52:25,844 I'M FED UP WITH ALL THIS. 474 00:52:25,913 --> 00:52:28,841 CURIOSITY DOES NOT YOU'LL KEEP ME HERE. 475 00:52:29,016 --> 00:52:33,152 I WANT FOOD CONTINENT. 476 00:52:46,667 --> 00:52:49,700 - Are you leaving? - Next month. 477 00:52:50,737 --> 00:52:53,701 - Beginning of next month. - I understand. 478 00:52:55,976 --> 00:52:58,611 OF A WOMAN CONTINENT... 479 00:52:58,612 --> 00:53:01,781 FOR A WOMAN FROM OKINAWA 480 00:53:02,749 --> 00:53:05,884 Can you read this? A memory. 481 00:53:19,433 --> 00:53:22,568 - Do you work here? - Does it start today? 482 00:53:24,438 --> 00:53:26,439 I ENVYED THE BRIGHTNESS FROM THE EYES... 483 00:53:26,440 --> 00:53:28,371 FROM OKINAWA GIRLS. 484 00:53:28,442 --> 00:53:30,576 I'M HAPPY FOR NOT ENVYING ANYMORE. 485 00:53:31,778 --> 00:53:33,172 See you later. 486 00:53:59,106 --> 00:54:04,307 DON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH BLACK PEOPLE WITH BIG DICKS. 487 00:54:04,311 --> 00:54:06,909 THEY WILL TREAT HER LIKE TRASH. 488 00:54:06,914 --> 00:54:09,605 GET THE MONEY FROM THEM AND RUN AWAY. 489 00:54:09,650 --> 00:54:12,218 EVEN GIRLS THEY SHARE. 490 00:54:12,219 --> 00:54:14,950 THEY WILL USE IT AND THEY WILL LIE TO YOU. 491 00:54:15,022 --> 00:54:17,657 HAVE NO COMPASSION FOR THEM. 492 00:54:17,658 --> 00:54:20,349 EVERYONE SHOULD BE CASTRATED. 493 00:54:20,695 --> 00:54:24,197 Miyuki decided to leave Okinawa. 494 00:54:24,198 --> 00:54:27,663 When did you make that decision... 495 00:54:27,834 --> 00:54:35,634 wanted to express the what I felt about Okinawa. 496 00:54:35,842 --> 00:54:37,976 So she wrote a little book and... 497 00:54:38,512 --> 00:54:45,311 and distributed it to the bar girls. 498 00:54:45,452 --> 00:54:47,683 We did it in two days. 499 00:54:47,688 --> 00:54:49,617 On the first day, 500 00:54:51,358 --> 00:54:59,287 we cover the area where she lived. 501 00:55:11,878 --> 00:55:13,340 Stop filming. 502 00:55:18,385 --> 00:55:22,681 - What is that? - Just read. 503 00:55:31,265 --> 00:55:33,228 You know how to read, don't you? 504 00:55:35,402 --> 00:55:42,701 On the second day, we went to Rua BC. 505 00:55:42,909 --> 00:55:46,875 But the bar girls didn't react. 506 00:55:47,247 --> 00:55:52,544 We don't understand why. 507 00:55:52,753 --> 00:55:57,356 They had no reaction at all. 508 00:55:57,424 --> 00:56:01,754 So we decided show them off in the street 509 00:56:02,929 --> 00:56:10,262 and distribute, cheering and waiting for a reaction. 510 00:56:10,270 --> 00:56:13,906 So instead of women, 511 00:56:13,940 --> 00:56:20,409 some men appeared and they started asking questions. 512 00:56:21,948 --> 00:56:24,912 HARA IS WHOLESALE BY VANDALS. 513 00:56:25,118 --> 00:56:29,414 They said, "What do you Do you know about Okinawa?" 514 00:56:32,292 --> 00:56:35,256 I said, "There's nothing wrong to express my opinion." 515 00:56:35,462 --> 00:56:39,758 I didn't understand what was the problem. 516 00:56:41,301 --> 00:56:44,436 A crowd gathered around us. 517 00:56:44,805 --> 00:56:48,441 They tore up the little books. 518 00:56:48,608 --> 00:56:52,437 More men appeared. 519 00:56:52,612 --> 00:56:56,441 They made a mess. 520 00:56:57,117 --> 00:56:59,410 And they threw it all away. 521 00:57:00,320 --> 00:57:02,044 How many are left? 522 00:57:03,990 --> 00:57:07,751 They said that wasn't the truth. 523 00:57:08,995 --> 00:57:13,461 I just wrote true that I saw. 524 00:57:18,305 --> 00:57:20,097 I was serious about to what I wrote. 525 00:57:30,317 --> 00:57:32,981 Could it be because I'm from the continent? 526 00:57:36,189 --> 00:57:39,524 Do you think everyone in Okinawa think so? 527 00:58:32,446 --> 00:58:33,578 Eiko! 528 00:58:35,449 --> 00:58:38,584 If you see Eiko, ask her about Kenny. 529 00:58:41,121 --> 00:58:43,050 Maybe you won't see it. 530 00:58:45,625 --> 00:58:48,191 Sugako, will you come back in March? 531 00:58:50,297 --> 00:58:51,555 Will you come back? 532 00:59:04,144 --> 00:59:05,606 I can see your belly. 533 00:59:40,046 --> 00:59:41,645 Take care of your child. 534 00:59:58,565 --> 01:00:00,357 She is smoking a cigarette. 535 01:00:04,237 --> 01:00:06,701 There aren't many people here. 536 01:00:19,085 --> 01:00:20,377 Can you still see her? 537 01:00:41,808 --> 01:00:49,779 I gave up looking. 538 01:00:51,618 --> 01:00:59,452 A city without wind or rain. 539 01:01:00,994 --> 01:01:09,294 Flying aimlessly like a crow. 540 01:01:49,909 --> 01:01:52,873 HARA'S APARTMENT IN T�KIO 541 01:02:46,533 --> 01:02:48,325 I'm not sure it started. 542 01:02:54,207 --> 01:02:56,500 I should have been ready. 543 01:02:57,677 --> 01:02:58,969 Maybe I'd better lie down. 544 01:03:03,016 --> 01:03:04,274 I'm going to bed. 545 01:03:06,953 --> 01:03:12,648 Should I sit down? Do you think so? 546 01:03:18,231 --> 01:03:22,026 My back is hurting. It's not good to twist my back. 547 01:03:22,235 --> 01:03:24,369 The baby doesn't want to come out. 548 01:04:08,314 --> 01:04:09,412 This is not good. 549 01:04:23,997 --> 01:04:25,129 Drug. 550 01:06:12,872 --> 01:06:14,061 Did he leave? 551 01:06:16,042 --> 01:06:16,674 Kobayashi-san! 552 01:06:24,851 --> 01:06:26,518 Kobayashi-san! 553 01:06:49,442 --> 01:06:50,734 My baby. 554 01:06:55,581 --> 01:06:58,375 My baby. He's crying. 555 01:07:04,290 --> 01:07:07,050 What a joy. Kobayashi-san! 556 01:07:10,296 --> 01:07:12,760 Kobayashi-san. I'm so happy. 557 01:07:15,635 --> 01:07:20,932 I was scared and scared. 558 01:07:21,107 --> 01:07:24,902 I was worried that something went wrong. 559 01:07:25,278 --> 01:07:28,572 I was scared. 560 01:07:28,948 --> 01:07:32,743 She went into work delivery after midnight. 561 01:07:32,952 --> 01:07:37,589 So the baby was born without a time. 562 01:07:38,124 --> 01:07:41,020 It was very quick. And I was very nervous. 563 01:07:41,127 --> 01:07:42,385 I was sweating too much... 564 01:07:42,628 --> 01:07:46,093 and I didn't even realize that the movie it was out of focus. 565 01:07:46,833 --> 01:07:50,764 It's a girl. What a joy. 566 01:07:52,472 --> 01:07:53,934 The placenta. 567 01:08:02,648 --> 01:08:04,281 I need a few minutes. 568 01:08:12,158 --> 01:08:13,382 I achieved. 569 01:08:15,228 --> 01:08:16,395 I achieved. 570 01:08:30,610 --> 01:08:31,799 Just a second. 571 01:08:35,681 --> 01:08:37,075 Are you okay? 572 01:08:39,452 --> 01:08:40,744 It's a girl. 573 01:09:05,311 --> 01:09:07,342 I need to release the placenta. 574 01:09:20,593 --> 01:09:21,725 Just a second. 575 01:09:36,776 --> 01:09:39,911 - And now? - The placenta. 576 01:09:42,782 --> 01:09:44,415 I need. 577 01:09:45,952 --> 01:09:47,414 Are you okay? 578 01:09:51,157 --> 01:09:52,517 She's sneezing. 579 01:09:55,628 --> 01:09:56,920 Just a second. 580 01:10:02,969 --> 01:10:04,431 Not yet? 581 01:10:07,473 --> 01:10:09,231 I need to let her go. 582 01:10:10,476 --> 01:10:11,608 Just a second. 583 01:10:13,779 --> 01:10:16,914 I need to push. 584 01:10:18,951 --> 01:10:23,087 - Is it still on? - It hasn't been cut yet. 585 01:10:23,322 --> 01:10:25,183 - No, no. - What? 586 01:10:26,659 --> 01:10:28,417 My vagina. 587 01:10:32,131 --> 01:10:33,923 I feel much better. 588 01:10:35,635 --> 01:10:37,097 He sneezed again. 589 01:10:37,803 --> 01:10:40,096 It's bleeding. 590 01:10:45,478 --> 01:10:50,411 Just a second. I have to get her out of here. 591 01:10:51,984 --> 01:10:55,449 You can leave the baby. 592 01:10:55,755 --> 01:10:57,422 - The placenta... - Can you do that? 593 01:10:57,657 --> 01:11:00,291 Yes, I think so. I need. 594 01:11:02,995 --> 01:11:04,287 Are you still alive? 595 01:11:18,010 --> 01:11:19,142 Not yet? 596 01:11:20,513 --> 01:11:21,975 No placenta. 597 01:11:22,648 --> 01:11:25,261 Do you need to push again? 598 01:11:25,262 --> 01:11:28,453 I need to push and so she will leave. 599 01:11:28,521 --> 01:11:29,949 - Alone? - Yes. 600 01:11:29,989 --> 01:11:33,453 - And the baby? - She'll be fine. 601 01:11:33,493 --> 01:11:37,661 I need to give her space. It will bleed. 602 01:11:40,333 --> 01:11:42,626 I feel much better. 603 01:11:44,670 --> 01:11:46,838 My baby. 604 01:11:46,839 --> 01:11:49,132 It's a girl. Look my baby. 605 01:11:58,684 --> 01:11:59,976 Wait one moment. 606 01:12:22,041 --> 01:12:24,175 I have to get her out of here. 607 01:12:25,411 --> 01:12:26,009 Just a second. 608 01:12:27,380 --> 01:12:28,012 It's fine. 609 01:12:48,868 --> 01:12:50,057 Is she mixed race? 610 01:12:51,604 --> 01:12:53,396 I don't know. 611 01:12:53,939 --> 01:12:55,902 Her hair is black. 612 01:12:59,578 --> 01:13:03,544 Just a second. Wait. 613 01:13:14,126 --> 01:13:15,691 She is mixed race. 614 01:13:29,642 --> 01:13:30,774 Don't you think? 615 01:13:32,311 --> 01:13:34,103 It was fantastic. 616 01:13:36,816 --> 01:13:38,711 It's good to be a mother. 617 01:13:41,921 --> 01:13:44,681 Do you want to take a shower? 618 01:13:48,994 --> 01:13:50,684 Look my baby. 619 01:13:50,930 --> 01:13:54,622 She is mixed race, but it's my baby. 620 01:13:57,503 --> 01:13:59,295 I have other concerns. 621 01:14:00,706 --> 01:14:04,967 I better fix it her eyes. It's very important. 622 01:14:18,357 --> 01:14:24,189 Without this, you may lose your eyes. 623 01:14:32,705 --> 01:14:34,338 Just a little more. 624 01:14:43,716 --> 01:14:47,682 I'm happy for you not be a boy. 625 01:14:50,356 --> 01:14:52,023 A beautiful girl. 626 01:14:52,358 --> 01:14:54,228 That man is not your father. 627 01:14:54,237 --> 01:14:57,191 What should I call her? It's better to think of a name. 628 01:14:58,731 --> 01:15:00,523 I have to think. 629 01:15:01,066 --> 01:15:03,600 Don't go to America. It's not good there. 630 01:15:06,071 --> 01:15:07,203 Japan is better. 631 01:15:10,376 --> 01:15:12,510 Japan is a good place. 632 01:15:14,547 --> 01:15:16,510 You are worth it all. 633 01:15:17,383 --> 01:15:19,517 A mixed-race child It's even better. 634 01:15:30,930 --> 01:15:34,156 It went really well. It happened so quickly. 635 01:15:35,601 --> 01:15:37,564 I should too clean myself up. 636 01:15:53,118 --> 01:15:56,287 She has big lips. 637 01:16:00,125 --> 01:16:03,726 - She's mixed race, isn't she? - Of course. 638 01:16:12,304 --> 01:16:13,436 Is it a girl? 639 01:16:16,642 --> 01:16:17,900 Really a girl? 640 01:16:18,811 --> 01:16:20,774 - What? - Nothing. 641 01:16:24,416 --> 01:16:27,779 My stomach is hurting. 642 01:16:29,154 --> 01:16:33,620 Mom's belly was flat. Even with the child inside. 643 01:16:35,995 --> 01:16:37,184 Don't do that. 644 01:16:38,497 --> 01:16:39,789 Hara-san! 645 01:16:42,835 --> 01:16:44,127 What are you doing? 646 01:16:46,138 --> 01:16:49,603 Babies don't need food 24 hours after they are born. 647 01:16:52,478 --> 01:16:56,614 You can breastfeed child after 8 hours. 648 01:16:57,149 --> 01:16:59,613 I need to rest. 649 01:17:00,152 --> 01:17:04,618 I need to regain my strength. I need milk. 650 01:17:11,697 --> 01:17:13,989 It was an easy birth. 651 01:17:15,334 --> 01:17:18,361 I thought I could Hara's compassion... 652 01:17:18,536 --> 01:17:20,300 but I was too strong. 653 01:17:22,007 --> 01:17:24,300 I'm tense too. 654 01:17:24,843 --> 01:17:26,977 You look very good. 655 01:17:28,814 --> 01:17:30,641 I made a mistake. 656 01:17:30,816 --> 01:17:34,452 I should have been more helpless. 657 01:17:37,856 --> 01:17:41,617 I could have had more compassion. 658 01:17:41,860 --> 01:17:47,327 My mother tells me I said I'm very tough. 659 01:17:51,870 --> 01:17:53,503 It's starting to hurt. 660 01:17:54,873 --> 01:17:56,335 You'd better lie down. 661 01:17:56,442 --> 01:18:00,134 That's good. It means my belly is shrinking. 662 01:18:02,181 --> 01:18:04,815 Miyuki called her "Yu". 663 01:18:09,154 --> 01:18:11,982 Hello, mom. 664 01:18:12,558 --> 01:18:17,661 I just had a baby alone. 665 01:18:19,865 --> 01:18:22,033 The father? He left yesterday. 666 01:18:23,569 --> 01:18:25,327 Yesterday at eight o'clock. 667 01:18:26,372 --> 01:18:31,009 It's a girl. She is mixed race. 668 01:18:33,712 --> 01:18:36,346 What can I do? It happens. 669 01:18:36,882 --> 01:18:40,017 I don't know how much it weighs. 670 01:18:40,552 --> 01:18:43,846 I had her all alone. 671 01:18:51,230 --> 01:18:55,958 My son was watching me. He stayed quiet. 672 01:18:57,002 --> 01:18:59,966 I just wanted to tell you. Can you hear me? 673 01:19:02,908 --> 01:19:07,711 Her skin is white. It will get dark. 674 01:19:07,717 --> 01:19:16,083 I can't kill her now, then I will raise her. 675 01:19:16,188 --> 01:19:17,720 It's okay. 676 01:19:18,924 --> 01:19:20,682 I did it alone. 677 01:19:24,763 --> 01:19:26,225 Now it's your turn. 678 01:19:26,265 --> 01:19:29,356 Sugako returned from Okinawa. 679 01:19:38,944 --> 01:19:40,406 How good it is to see you. 680 01:19:42,682 --> 01:19:47,989 - Everyone's looking. - Let it look. 681 01:19:49,955 --> 01:19:51,513 Your baby is so big. 682 01:19:51,557 --> 01:19:54,921 Of course. But it still doesn't go. 683 01:19:57,496 --> 01:20:02,092 Aren't you cold, King? You're a tough kid. 684 01:20:02,168 --> 01:20:06,104 When I came back, I felt so cold. 685 01:20:06,172 --> 01:20:09,324 You still eat quickly. 686 01:20:09,326 --> 01:20:10,730 Him too. 687 01:20:10,743 --> 01:20:13,168 He drinks and eats a lot. 688 01:20:17,216 --> 01:20:19,407 It's been 4 months since that I saw her. 689 01:20:19,952 --> 01:20:22,086 - Did she sleep? - Yes. 690 01:20:22,287 --> 01:20:24,045 So you have another child. 691 01:20:24,289 --> 01:20:27,754 I had her alone. 692 01:20:32,464 --> 01:20:35,628 - Where did you have the baby? - At Hara's house in Tokyo. 693 01:20:35,634 --> 01:20:38,329 That tiny place. 694 01:20:39,339 --> 01:20:44,805 I cut the umbilical cord, I gave her a bath and everything. 695 01:20:44,810 --> 01:20:46,299 - Alone? - Yes. 696 01:20:46,445 --> 01:20:49,079 I did everything alone. 697 01:20:51,250 --> 01:20:55,146 I called a hospital to ask helps with the placenta. 698 01:20:55,188 --> 01:20:57,121 A nurse came soon after. 699 01:20:57,723 --> 01:21:01,459 She weighed my baby and took care of everything. 700 01:21:01,560 --> 01:21:03,593 All for free! 701 01:21:05,964 --> 01:21:10,430 She sent me to see a doctor, Just in case. 702 01:21:10,803 --> 01:21:15,940 And presented me with a cheap doctor. 703 01:21:16,141 --> 01:21:18,775 I went to see him. 704 01:21:18,977 --> 01:21:23,773 Should have taken it off advantage of the hospital. 705 01:21:23,949 --> 01:21:27,744 ORANGE HOUSE WOMEN'S COMMUNITY 706 01:21:28,153 --> 01:21:30,913 - 20 seconds is not right. - You're right. 707 01:21:32,658 --> 01:21:34,621 We need a lot of hot water. 708 01:21:42,668 --> 01:21:47,134 Don't force it. 709 01:21:47,306 --> 01:21:51,272 You need to push when you think it's time. 710 01:21:51,476 --> 01:21:53,439 Don't push through the stomach. 711 01:21:54,146 --> 01:22:00,285 Did you understand? Push through the hips. 712 01:22:00,819 --> 01:22:03,783 This is one way to do it. 713 01:22:05,190 --> 01:22:07,824 - It is less painful. - Really? 714 01:22:11,363 --> 01:22:13,326 Ready? 715 01:22:13,498 --> 01:22:15,723 Don't provoke me. 716 01:22:21,173 --> 01:22:23,466 - You'll do fine. - Everything will be fine. 717 01:22:24,843 --> 01:22:26,305 Right. We're ready. 718 01:22:27,846 --> 01:22:31,812 When you start, continue boiling water. 719 01:22:35,220 --> 01:22:37,479 Yes, bring it here. 720 01:22:38,190 --> 01:22:41,154 Continue boiling. 721 01:22:54,039 --> 01:22:55,171 That hurts. 722 01:23:05,717 --> 01:23:07,179 Can I push straight? 723 01:23:15,260 --> 01:23:17,052 It's not coming down. 724 01:23:22,768 --> 01:23:24,526 Maybe a little. 725 01:23:26,071 --> 01:23:28,865 - I can see the hair. - Really? 726 01:23:30,075 --> 01:23:31,537 I think so. 727 01:23:34,413 --> 01:23:36,046 Maybe not. 728 01:23:36,081 --> 01:23:38,545 No? 729 01:23:39,084 --> 01:23:40,717 Are you trying to make me happy? 730 01:23:52,431 --> 01:23:53,563 Push! 731 01:23:55,100 --> 01:23:56,562 It's coming. 732 01:23:58,770 --> 01:23:59,902 More! 733 01:24:02,274 --> 01:24:03,736 By the hips! 734 01:24:15,287 --> 01:24:16,545 Don't shout. 735 01:24:28,633 --> 01:24:29,925 It's coming. 736 01:24:46,651 --> 01:24:47,943 I see the face. 737 01:24:57,362 --> 01:24:58,654 You can rest if you want. 738 01:25:26,091 --> 01:25:27,349 He left! 739 01:25:28,894 --> 01:25:30,356 The baby is not crying. 740 01:25:32,564 --> 01:25:33,696 No? 741 01:25:35,734 --> 01:25:37,367 The heart is beating. 742 01:25:38,904 --> 01:25:40,867 He looks like Hara. 743 01:25:46,078 --> 01:25:47,176 He's not crying. 744 01:25:47,412 --> 01:25:49,375 It looks a lot like him. 745 01:26:02,761 --> 01:26:03,723 Is he okay? 746 01:26:03,929 --> 01:26:05,391 The eyes are open. 747 01:26:13,605 --> 01:26:15,397 He's better. 748 01:26:17,209 --> 01:26:18,239 water. 749 01:26:30,956 --> 01:26:33,716 When did he cry? 750 01:26:35,293 --> 01:26:36,755 12:20 p.m. 751 01:26:37,462 --> 01:26:39,095 It took a while. 752 01:26:42,134 --> 01:26:44,097 His eyes are huge. 753 01:26:46,271 --> 01:26:47,938 Just like his father. 754 01:26:47,973 --> 01:26:49,333 Very big. 755 01:26:49,608 --> 01:26:51,901 Too big for a baby? 756 01:26:54,446 --> 01:26:57,410 People told me that I I also have big eyes. 757 01:27:05,925 --> 01:27:09,694 COMMUNITY OF MOTHERS: T�KIO KOMUNU 758 01:27:13,165 --> 01:27:17,961 - I treated Yu differently than Rei. - How? 759 01:27:18,136 --> 01:27:20,429 She is more beautiful. 760 01:27:21,806 --> 01:27:23,769 - She's also tough. - She's going to look for Paul. 761 01:27:23,775 --> 01:27:29,943 I know. Her mouth looks like mine. 762 01:27:30,482 --> 01:27:32,115 No. It looks like Paul's. 763 01:27:32,317 --> 01:27:33,950 - No chance. - It's serious. 764 01:27:34,119 --> 01:27:37,083 Because she's always sucking. 765 01:27:37,923 --> 01:27:43,283 I'm after Sugako's child just because I want to. 766 01:27:43,328 --> 01:27:48,625 Miyuki tried to adopt Funo, Sugako's baby. 767 01:27:49,000 --> 01:27:52,795 It didn't matter anymore whose child was it. 768 01:27:52,971 --> 01:27:58,438 Funo, Rei, Yu and all the others... 769 01:27:58,643 --> 01:28:02,609 they all live in a community called Tokyo Komunu. 770 01:28:02,814 --> 01:28:10,443 Kumunu was born from words "birth" and "community". 771 01:28:17,529 --> 01:28:19,822 - Is she your favorite? - That's right. 772 01:28:20,031 --> 01:28:21,493 I like her a lot. 773 01:28:22,167 --> 01:28:23,334 Why is she tough? 774 01:28:23,501 --> 01:28:26,795 I like her character. She takes after me. 775 01:28:31,176 --> 01:28:35,472 I like her and it's over. 776 01:28:35,680 --> 01:28:37,313 I like the character. 777 01:28:38,016 --> 01:28:40,480 - And the King? - I don't like him. 778 01:28:41,319 --> 01:28:43,111 I don't like his character. 779 01:28:46,191 --> 01:28:47,449 What character? 780 01:28:47,859 --> 01:28:50,493 I don't expect much from him. 781 01:28:50,862 --> 01:28:54,463 He really took after you. 782 01:28:54,699 --> 01:28:57,993 Like father, like son. 783 01:28:59,337 --> 01:29:01,400 He is good with hands like you. 784 01:29:01,507 --> 01:29:03,970 Don't you think? 785 01:29:04,175 --> 01:29:07,312 He looks like you. 786 01:29:07,579 --> 01:29:09,403 Seriously. 787 01:29:09,615 --> 01:29:15,778 King is... Well, he's introverted like you. 788 01:29:16,221 --> 01:29:19,652 I feel it. 789 01:29:21,192 --> 01:29:25,488 He is very tense inside. 790 01:29:25,864 --> 01:29:26,996 Just like you. 791 01:29:27,365 --> 01:29:30,099 - You're weird. - What? 792 01:29:30,101 --> 01:29:32,295 - Your nervousness. - You mean sensitivity. 793 01:29:32,371 --> 01:29:35,164 No. Real nervousness. 794 01:29:37,175 --> 01:29:41,971 Know what you want in life It's very important. 795 01:29:43,181 --> 01:29:44,313 Did you understand? 796 01:29:44,683 --> 01:29:52,688 You need to be smart and trust your instincts... 797 01:29:52,857 --> 01:30:00,020 in relation to what you need and want in life. 798 01:30:01,099 --> 01:30:05,331 The difference between knowing and not have the slightest idea... 799 01:30:05,368 --> 01:30:08,334 can have a huge effect in your actions and in the future. 800 01:30:08,540 --> 01:30:12,176 It makes you greedy and makes make you work too much. 801 01:30:12,377 --> 01:30:14,841 Sometimes you go crazy. 802 01:30:17,382 --> 01:30:19,140 I don't care in living with children. 803 01:30:19,517 --> 01:30:24,484 I don't want to live with a man or a woman. 804 01:30:25,390 --> 01:30:27,854 Today, I am with my son. 805 01:30:28,560 --> 01:30:30,352 Tomorrow, with someone else's. 806 01:30:30,562 --> 01:30:32,525 That's better. 807 01:30:33,565 --> 01:30:37,360 Our society forces us to let us choose one thing. 808 01:30:37,635 --> 01:30:43,330 A stable family with one man, take care of your children. 809 01:30:43,541 --> 01:30:47,438 I can't stand this. 810 01:30:52,717 --> 01:30:55,351 I'm going to dance. 811 01:30:56,354 --> 01:30:58,984 Guys, she went to work. Say "bye". 812 01:31:03,428 --> 01:31:05,186 Are you glad to see me go? 813 01:31:07,432 --> 01:31:09,896 Where are my boots? 814 01:32:31,112 --> 01:32:34,809 Editor: Jun Nabeshima Music: Tokiko Kato 815 01:32:35,182 --> 01:32:39,710 SECRET REVELATIONS OF A WOMAN