1 00:00:27,193 --> 00:00:28,283 Rachel? 2 00:00:29,195 --> 00:00:30,235 Hi. 3 00:00:30,864 --> 00:00:33,124 What are you doing here? Didn't you move to New Jersey? 4 00:00:38,371 --> 00:00:39,831 Do you think she's gonna win? 5 00:00:40,123 --> 00:00:41,373 People really hate her. 6 00:00:42,917 --> 00:00:43,957 Rachel. 7 00:00:45,336 --> 00:00:46,376 What happened? 8 00:00:46,921 --> 00:00:47,961 What do you mean? 9 00:00:47,964 --> 00:00:49,514 You've been gone. You left... 10 00:00:50,759 --> 00:00:54,179 Toby's been looking for you. The kids have been looking for you. 11 00:00:55,013 --> 00:00:56,313 You disappeared. 12 00:00:58,975 --> 00:01:00,185 Can I ask you something? 13 00:01:00,643 --> 00:01:01,813 Yeah. 14 00:01:02,562 --> 00:01:03,942 I can't find my phone 15 00:01:04,856 --> 00:01:08,606 and I keep trying to ascertain... 16 00:01:08,943 --> 00:01:10,533 How many days are in July? 17 00:01:11,071 --> 00:01:12,531 I always forget that. 18 00:01:15,700 --> 00:01:17,040 Um... 19 00:01:18,203 --> 00:01:19,953 I'm just... I'm gonna call Toby. 20 00:01:20,080 --> 00:01:21,210 No! Don't. 21 00:01:23,416 --> 00:01:24,496 No, I'm... 22 00:01:25,502 --> 00:01:28,632 Like, you know what? Let me just, let me just eat something. 23 00:01:28,755 --> 00:01:30,415 Um... 24 00:01:30,423 --> 00:01:32,133 I feel like I need some protein. 25 00:01:33,384 --> 00:01:35,014 Right. Um... 26 00:01:35,929 --> 00:01:38,599 Right. Just one... One second. 27 00:01:38,598 --> 00:01:42,228 "Delayed further. Be home later. Sorry. Will explain." 28 00:01:43,353 --> 00:01:44,563 Um... 29 00:01:45,605 --> 00:01:47,225 Why don't I just take you home? 30 00:01:47,982 --> 00:01:50,492 Okay. Sure. Yeah. No. It'd be... 31 00:01:52,403 --> 00:01:54,073 It'd be good to catch up. 32 00:02:09,420 --> 00:02:11,670 {\an8}I wasn't expecting anyone. 33 00:02:12,340 --> 00:02:13,340 {\an8}Um... 34 00:02:14,634 --> 00:02:15,844 {\an8}You know what it's like. 35 00:02:21,057 --> 00:02:23,477 {\an8}Do you want... Do you want some coffee? 36 00:02:24,227 --> 00:02:25,347 {\an8}I'm fine. 37 00:02:35,613 --> 00:02:37,743 I'm okay! 38 00:02:40,285 --> 00:02:41,365 I just dropped it. 39 00:02:41,369 --> 00:02:42,789 {\an8} Um... 40 00:02:43,788 --> 00:02:45,498 {\an8}I haven't used it in so long. 41 00:02:45,999 --> 00:02:48,879 {\an8}I haven't been drinking coffee. 42 00:02:49,961 --> 00:02:51,211 {\an8}What is going on? 43 00:02:51,379 --> 00:02:53,509 - There are so many parts to this! - Rachel? 44 00:02:54,799 --> 00:02:56,179 I also have all this tea. 45 00:02:56,593 --> 00:02:57,893 It might be easier. 46 00:02:58,094 --> 00:03:02,104 {\an8}I bought all this tea because I was having a hard time sleeping, 47 00:03:02,098 --> 00:03:05,228 {\an8}but all it did was just keep me in the bathroom all night. 48 00:03:05,393 --> 00:03:10,063 {\an8}I feel like I don't know where my toaster is but I do have some bread. 49 00:03:11,107 --> 00:03:12,277 Rachel? 50 00:03:16,196 --> 00:03:18,316 I want to be honest with you. 51 00:03:21,242 --> 00:03:24,582 I don't think I can make you coffee right now. 52 00:03:28,082 --> 00:03:29,212 That's okay. 53 00:03:31,294 --> 00:03:32,964 {\an8}Do you wanna sit down? 54 00:03:33,963 --> 00:03:35,803 {\an8}Okay, let's go. 55 00:03:37,300 --> 00:03:38,800 {\an8}Why don't you just tell me, 56 00:03:38,801 --> 00:03:40,091 {\an8}what's going on? 57 00:03:41,638 --> 00:03:42,718 {\an8}What do you mean? 58 00:03:43,932 --> 00:03:46,982 {\an8}I won't tell anybody, if you don't want me to. I just... 59 00:03:48,645 --> 00:03:49,845 {\an8}I wanna help. 60 00:03:59,489 --> 00:04:00,659 {\an8}I got dumped. 61 00:04:03,618 --> 00:04:04,738 {\an8}By who? 62 00:04:09,666 --> 00:04:10,876 By everyone. 63 00:04:14,587 --> 00:04:16,547 Yeah, I guess I got dumped by everyone. 64 00:04:20,426 --> 00:04:21,796 I don't understand. 65 00:04:24,097 --> 00:04:25,467 So she started talking. 66 00:04:26,266 --> 00:04:28,136 At first, she didn't make sense. 67 00:04:28,351 --> 00:04:30,141 She wasn't always coherent. 68 00:04:30,270 --> 00:04:33,940 She definitely didn't tell me anything in the correct chronological order. 69 00:04:34,440 --> 00:04:36,900 And it started a lot earlier than three weeks ago. 70 00:04:37,652 --> 00:04:39,902 But in the end, I understood it. 71 00:04:41,114 --> 00:04:43,534 What happened was that Rachel was busy. 72 00:04:43,992 --> 00:04:45,872 She was busier than she'd ever been. 73 00:04:46,744 --> 00:04:50,464 It was last year, months before Toby started asking Rachel for a divorce, 74 00:04:50,456 --> 00:04:52,326 back when they were still holding on. 75 00:04:52,333 --> 00:04:54,213 Yeah? Here's my counter. 76 00:04:56,379 --> 00:04:58,379 Sam Rothberg on the line? 77 00:05:02,593 --> 00:05:05,013 - To what do I owe this rare pleasure? - Hey, you. 78 00:05:05,013 --> 00:05:07,473 I have a huge favor to ask. 79 00:05:07,473 --> 00:05:10,103 My nephew is dying to get an agent. 80 00:05:10,226 --> 00:05:13,096 And he just played Judas in Godspell at Wesleyan. 81 00:05:13,104 --> 00:05:14,364 He was really good. 82 00:05:14,355 --> 00:05:15,435 Oh, wonderful. 83 00:05:15,440 --> 00:05:18,320 That is not true. He was fine. 84 00:05:19,569 --> 00:05:21,609 Well, Godspell is terrible. 85 00:05:21,946 --> 00:05:25,826 It is. Anyway, I was wondering... Be honest if I'm asking too much here. 86 00:05:25,825 --> 00:05:29,655 Is there a way you could meet with him, and talk to him about the business? 87 00:05:30,872 --> 00:05:32,422 It would just be huge for him. 88 00:05:32,957 --> 00:05:34,077 Sure I will. 89 00:05:34,083 --> 00:05:37,883 I also know a casting director he could maybe go and sit with for a while. 90 00:05:37,879 --> 00:05:40,549 - Why don't you give him my number? - That's so great. 91 00:05:40,548 --> 00:05:43,298 I guess it's like everything else. It's who you know, yeah? 92 00:05:43,468 --> 00:05:45,678 So she said yes, because she always said yes. 93 00:05:46,262 --> 00:05:47,932 She didn't have time to be on committees, 94 00:05:47,930 --> 00:05:50,430 and she didn't come from prestigious stock 95 00:05:50,433 --> 00:05:54,023 and she didn't have a house in Zermatt or wherever, but she was useful. 96 00:05:54,228 --> 00:05:56,058 Useful had worked for her so far. 97 00:05:56,564 --> 00:05:57,654 Then a month later... 98 00:05:57,648 --> 00:06:00,568 I just honestly feel like I'm wasting my time at this point. 99 00:06:00,568 --> 00:06:02,318 Why don't you circle back when... 100 00:06:02,320 --> 00:06:04,360 - No. I'm in the middle of... - Hi, there. 101 00:06:04,989 --> 00:06:06,739 Um... 102 00:06:06,741 --> 00:06:09,661 I gotta go, Joe. Circle back when you start making sense. 103 00:06:11,162 --> 00:06:14,002 - What are you doing here? - I had to thank you myself. 104 00:06:13,998 --> 00:06:16,668 - Oh! This is totally unnecessary! - Are you kidding me? 105 00:06:16,667 --> 00:06:20,377 You just helped that kid leapfrog ten entire steps in his career. 106 00:06:20,505 --> 00:06:22,465 Much to his parents' disappointment. 107 00:06:23,466 --> 00:06:24,546 You're amazing. 108 00:06:24,550 --> 00:06:28,430 No, really. I know so few people who could get something like that done. 109 00:06:28,554 --> 00:06:31,024 I rarely see that kind of efficiency. 110 00:06:31,015 --> 00:06:34,805 Well, Toby says, "If medicine were as well-run a machine as this office, 111 00:06:34,811 --> 00:06:36,691 "doctors could afford to be doctors again." 112 00:06:36,687 --> 00:06:37,807 Totally. 113 00:06:38,189 --> 00:06:40,149 You know, doctors are the real heroes. 114 00:06:41,025 --> 00:06:42,025 Yeah. 115 00:06:43,236 --> 00:06:44,446 Um... 116 00:06:44,445 --> 00:06:46,155 - Come. Sit down. - Mmm. 117 00:06:47,323 --> 00:06:48,833 Wow. Look at this view. 118 00:06:50,535 --> 00:06:51,825 I just had a thought. 119 00:06:52,203 --> 00:06:55,543 We're trying to find a doctor to run our new cannabis division. 120 00:06:55,540 --> 00:06:57,420 You did this great thing for me. 121 00:06:57,417 --> 00:07:00,037 I could push Toby to the head of the line, easy. 122 00:07:00,795 --> 00:07:02,585 - Toby? - The salary starts at a mill. 123 00:07:02,588 --> 00:07:05,088 Then the bonus. You get the keys to the Vail house. 124 00:07:06,092 --> 00:07:07,722 Oh, um... 125 00:07:07,718 --> 00:07:10,218 I don't know. You should ask him. 126 00:07:10,805 --> 00:07:13,925 He's got this whole thing about "patient interface." 127 00:07:14,684 --> 00:07:17,314 - He's not likely to say yes. - I'm gonna ask him. 128 00:07:20,273 --> 00:07:24,863 Hey, are you almost done for the day? You wanna get a drink? 129 00:07:24,986 --> 00:07:26,066 Was it weird that 130 00:07:26,070 --> 00:07:28,450 her best school mom-friend's husband was at her office? 131 00:07:28,448 --> 00:07:30,828 Um... Uh... 132 00:07:32,118 --> 00:07:36,288 I can't. I've got too much to do here. 133 00:07:36,289 --> 00:07:38,669 Was it weird that he wanted to go out with her? 134 00:07:38,666 --> 00:07:39,916 You have a curfew? 135 00:07:39,917 --> 00:07:41,247 Yes. 136 00:07:41,919 --> 00:07:43,049 Yes, it was. 137 00:07:44,672 --> 00:07:46,172 Rachel had met Miriam Rothberg 138 00:07:46,174 --> 00:07:48,304 in a Mommy and Me class six years earlier. 139 00:07:48,301 --> 00:07:51,511 After a lifetime of shallow friendships that never endured, 140 00:07:51,512 --> 00:07:53,852 Rachel had been determined to play it cool, 141 00:07:53,848 --> 00:07:57,188 so that the stench of her desperation could no longer be detected. 142 00:07:57,185 --> 00:08:00,685 She should have been the nominee. Sam says he doesn't like her voice, 143 00:08:00,688 --> 00:08:03,228 but what, you need to like her voice? Honestly. 144 00:08:03,232 --> 00:08:06,402 We flew with them private to the Tennessee fundraiser that fall... 145 00:08:06,402 --> 00:08:08,402 Miriam had the line on nursery schools. 146 00:08:08,404 --> 00:08:10,914 On the concierge pediatrician who gave you his cell. 147 00:08:10,907 --> 00:08:12,487 She was on the board of everything. 148 00:08:12,492 --> 00:08:15,752 Her family fortune came from a dubious pharmaceutical company. 149 00:08:15,745 --> 00:08:18,205 They're pretty litigious. I shouldn't say their name. 150 00:08:18,206 --> 00:08:21,286 Well, I was going to send her to Spence because I went there, 151 00:08:21,292 --> 00:08:24,212 but then I had a boy and I want them to go to the same school, 152 00:08:24,212 --> 00:08:27,472 so I was thinking Lois Francis instead maybe? 153 00:08:27,465 --> 00:08:29,175 Miriam was so far ahead of the game 154 00:08:29,175 --> 00:08:31,965 that private school applications were just a formality. 155 00:08:32,178 --> 00:08:34,138 Hey. What are you doing right now? 156 00:08:35,348 --> 00:08:36,718 I have to get back to work. 157 00:08:38,601 --> 00:08:41,441 I have an agency. I'm an agent. A theater agent. 158 00:08:41,812 --> 00:08:45,782 What? That is so interesting. Actors, writers, what? 159 00:08:45,775 --> 00:08:49,985 Everyone. Yeah, I represent the team Lindenblatt, Silberman and Wadler, 160 00:08:49,987 --> 00:08:53,407 from Camps Come Here, and Loenberg, the singer. 161 00:08:53,533 --> 00:08:55,993 - Do you remember Alejandra Lopez? - Remind me? 162 00:08:56,160 --> 00:08:59,210 - The Suffrage Monologues? - Right! What's she doing now? 163 00:08:59,205 --> 00:09:00,575 - I love the theater. - Yeah. 164 00:09:00,581 --> 00:09:02,671 She's developing something. 165 00:09:02,833 --> 00:09:05,963 It's pretty incredible. I shouldn't say more. 166 00:09:05,962 --> 00:09:09,672 God, I just wanna blow off the rest of the day and just go see something. 167 00:09:10,216 --> 00:09:11,426 Come with me? 168 00:09:12,176 --> 00:09:14,136 Well, I should get back to work. 169 00:09:14,136 --> 00:09:16,096 - The agency... - You work every day? 170 00:09:16,264 --> 00:09:20,564 I do. I work every day. And the time I don't work goes to the kids, so... 171 00:09:20,726 --> 00:09:23,436 - You need some "you" time. - Yeah. 172 00:09:23,437 --> 00:09:25,937 You know, on an airplane, the thing's going down, 173 00:09:25,940 --> 00:09:29,530 you put your own oxygen mask on first before you put it on the kids. 174 00:09:29,527 --> 00:09:32,697 So are we blowing off today or what? 175 00:09:35,408 --> 00:09:39,538 I could get us tickets right now. To anything you want. Yeah, let's do it. 176 00:09:39,537 --> 00:09:41,997 - Yay! - Let me just unplug a few things. 177 00:09:41,998 --> 00:09:43,998 Okay, great. I'll go home and change. 178 00:09:44,000 --> 00:09:45,210 - Okay. - Yes. 179 00:09:45,876 --> 00:09:48,246 And suddenly, Rachel and Miriam were friends. 180 00:09:48,713 --> 00:09:51,723 Good, and lifting up. Don't let that tailbone come up. 181 00:09:51,882 --> 00:09:54,302 And then Miriam's friends were Rachel's friends. 182 00:09:55,177 --> 00:09:57,887 Pull together. Three more times. 183 00:09:59,348 --> 00:10:00,468 And open wide. 184 00:10:00,474 --> 00:10:03,524 Rachel had this whole little Upper East Side gang. 185 00:10:05,146 --> 00:10:08,606 It was second fulltime job, but she was willing to work it. 186 00:10:12,570 --> 00:10:13,860 Her mother had died 187 00:10:13,863 --> 00:10:16,373 and her grandma sent her to a fancy Catholic school 188 00:10:16,365 --> 00:10:18,615 even though they were poor and her mother was Jewish. 189 00:10:18,618 --> 00:10:21,658 Everyone there was named Catherine, and they took tennis lessons 190 00:10:21,662 --> 00:10:24,872 and all seemed to know each other from Nantucket or St. Moritz. 191 00:10:25,458 --> 00:10:26,828 She understood that it wasn't 192 00:10:26,834 --> 00:10:29,844 her lack of money and proximity that made her an outsider. 193 00:10:29,837 --> 00:10:32,047 It was that her lack of proximity and money 194 00:10:32,048 --> 00:10:34,218 created an outsider's desperation in her. 195 00:10:34,967 --> 00:10:37,347 But also? Sophistication is a language. 196 00:10:37,887 --> 00:10:39,467 You're either born speaking it, 197 00:10:39,972 --> 00:10:41,812 or you always speak with an accent. 198 00:10:43,726 --> 00:10:45,476 But then she met Toby. 199 00:10:49,732 --> 00:10:51,282 I was maybe thinking this would be 200 00:10:51,275 --> 00:10:53,525 a good time for us to kiss. Yeah? You... 201 00:10:56,238 --> 00:10:57,988 Toby couldn't hear her accent. 202 00:11:06,040 --> 00:11:08,380 So where is your family from, Rachel? 203 00:11:08,376 --> 00:11:11,456 We're from Baltimore. But I don't have a lot of family. 204 00:11:11,629 --> 00:11:15,589 My mother died when I was young. Cancer. And she was a single mother. 205 00:11:16,258 --> 00:11:18,048 That's so sad. Who raised you? 206 00:11:18,427 --> 00:11:20,597 - My grandmother. - Ugh, that's terrible. 207 00:11:21,097 --> 00:11:22,137 - It's okay. - No, 208 00:11:22,139 --> 00:11:23,809 it's too young to not have a mother. 209 00:11:23,808 --> 00:11:25,388 I lost my mother last year. 210 00:11:25,393 --> 00:11:28,443 I had her all this time and I still feel like an orphan. 211 00:11:30,856 --> 00:11:31,976 I'm sorry. 212 00:11:35,611 --> 00:11:38,111 You know, you won't believe who I ran into. 213 00:11:38,280 --> 00:11:39,370 Who? 214 00:11:39,365 --> 00:11:40,775 Stu. Which Stu? 215 00:11:40,783 --> 00:11:43,543 - Stu and Jessica. - Stu and Jessica! Oh, no! 216 00:11:43,536 --> 00:11:46,366 Rachel had been saying that it was okay for so long. 217 00:11:46,372 --> 00:11:49,082 - Where's your bathroom? - It's through there. 218 00:11:50,376 --> 00:11:53,046 You have to understand, Rachel never had a family. 219 00:11:54,422 --> 00:11:55,802 You okay in there? 220 00:12:02,555 --> 00:12:03,885 I'm great. 221 00:12:04,181 --> 00:12:07,351 - You're doing amazing. - I know that. Yeah, you too. You too. 222 00:12:07,351 --> 00:12:08,851 No. Okay... 223 00:12:09,019 --> 00:12:10,269 - Okay. - Yep. 224 00:12:10,271 --> 00:12:12,441 - No. Wrong direction. - Take it behind? No? 225 00:12:12,565 --> 00:12:15,065 This is much heavier than it looks. Okay. 226 00:12:15,317 --> 00:12:18,987 This is the way to move forward in life from here on out. 227 00:12:21,782 --> 00:12:23,622 It was true. She was great. 228 00:12:26,537 --> 00:12:27,657 And then she wasn't. 229 00:12:27,663 --> 00:12:29,503 I don't know. If you're not progressing... 230 00:12:29,498 --> 00:12:31,288 If it were me, I'd talk to the doctor 231 00:12:31,292 --> 00:12:33,382 about pulling the plug on this induction. Right? 232 00:12:33,377 --> 00:12:36,207 No. I think we should take a second and catch our breath, okay? 233 00:12:36,213 --> 00:12:40,013 Tell him you'll stay in the hospital. Just tell him you'll do what he says. 234 00:12:42,261 --> 00:12:44,761 - Hello in there! - We heard you were here. 235 00:12:44,764 --> 00:12:46,184 Get them away. 236 00:12:46,182 --> 00:12:48,602 Hi, guys. Hey, come with me. 237 00:12:48,809 --> 00:12:50,059 Yeah. 238 00:12:55,691 --> 00:12:58,491 Um, did you hear from Dr. Goldberg? 239 00:12:58,986 --> 00:13:00,606 I told you, I'm covering. 240 00:13:01,071 --> 00:13:04,121 I've done this at least five or six times before. 241 00:13:05,159 --> 00:13:06,949 Okay. I... 242 00:13:08,370 --> 00:13:09,960 My husband is... 243 00:13:10,706 --> 00:13:11,786 Can I... Yes. 244 00:13:11,791 --> 00:13:14,251 Do you think we should maybe stop the induction? 245 00:13:14,251 --> 00:13:18,091 Because my blood pressure is lower now. I'm not progressing. 246 00:13:18,088 --> 00:13:20,298 I'm exhausted from the Stadol. 247 00:13:20,716 --> 00:13:23,046 It made me hallucinate all night last night, 248 00:13:23,052 --> 00:13:25,222 but I didn't want the epidural yet. 249 00:13:25,221 --> 00:13:27,311 Let's just see what's going on in there. 250 00:13:27,306 --> 00:13:30,056 And then if you're still not progressing, 251 00:13:30,518 --> 00:13:31,808 we'll talk. 252 00:13:35,564 --> 00:13:36,824 Ow! 253 00:13:36,941 --> 00:13:38,981 Ow! Ow! Ow! 254 00:13:38,984 --> 00:13:41,284 Is this just supposed to be... 255 00:13:44,031 --> 00:13:45,411 This is not an exam. 256 00:13:45,616 --> 00:13:48,736 There is some leakage here. Get me the hook. 257 00:13:48,744 --> 00:13:50,754 What is he doing? What are you doing? 258 00:13:55,835 --> 00:13:56,955 Fuck! 259 00:13:56,961 --> 00:14:00,841 What the fuck are you doing to me? Stop it! 260 00:14:00,840 --> 00:14:03,090 Hey, hey, what the hell is going on in here? 261 00:14:03,092 --> 00:14:05,342 Stop it! 262 00:14:16,897 --> 00:14:17,937 Scalpel. 263 00:14:27,199 --> 00:14:30,239 There she was, paralyzed, literally paralyzed, 264 00:14:30,661 --> 00:14:32,791 splayed out like she'd been crucified. 265 00:14:33,247 --> 00:14:36,667 Everything in her told her to get up and run, to make a break for it. 266 00:14:36,667 --> 00:14:38,787 But she couldn't. 267 00:14:39,044 --> 00:14:42,764 Any power she ever thought she had was suddenly gone. 268 00:14:43,173 --> 00:14:45,133 You're doing great, okay? 269 00:15:02,610 --> 00:15:04,190 You're almost there. 270 00:15:14,997 --> 00:15:18,077 Oh my god! It's a girl! Rachel, Rachel, it's a girl! 271 00:15:20,419 --> 00:15:22,209 It was the worst day of her life. 272 00:15:31,555 --> 00:15:35,015 I think you should hold the baby. 273 00:15:35,809 --> 00:15:39,269 I still can't feel my legs. It's not safe. What if I have to run? 274 00:15:44,860 --> 00:15:45,950 Okay. 275 00:15:48,489 --> 00:15:49,569 Give her to me. 276 00:15:49,907 --> 00:15:51,827 All right. Going to go to mommy now? 277 00:15:52,534 --> 00:15:54,624 Okay. Okay, honey. 278 00:15:55,996 --> 00:15:57,456 Okay. Your mommy. 279 00:16:00,584 --> 00:16:04,174 Rachel looked down and knew that the baby knew what she was thinking. 280 00:16:06,590 --> 00:16:09,390 She knew. She would never forgive her. 281 00:16:19,561 --> 00:16:22,311 This was Rachel's introduction to motherhood. 282 00:16:34,201 --> 00:16:36,451 You can go. I'm fine. Really. 283 00:17:33,052 --> 00:17:35,432 Hey. How was your day? 284 00:17:49,818 --> 00:17:52,948 Hey, I'm not telling you what to do, but I think you should... 285 00:17:53,072 --> 00:17:56,122 - I'm not going to a therapist. - ...speak to someone. Okay. 286 00:17:58,327 --> 00:18:01,407 I don't... I don't feel sad. 287 00:18:01,413 --> 00:18:03,833 Just crazy. 288 00:18:04,583 --> 00:18:07,543 Like I'm a car stuck in a gear. But awareness 289 00:18:07,544 --> 00:18:11,014 that I'm a car stuck in a gear doesn't help. See? It's just crazy! 290 00:18:11,423 --> 00:18:13,433 Yeah, therapists deal with crazy. 291 00:18:13,675 --> 00:18:16,595 So do psychiatrists. That's like, that's their whole thing. 292 00:18:18,097 --> 00:18:19,177 What's that? 293 00:18:19,807 --> 00:18:21,347 Yeah, somebody... 294 00:18:21,934 --> 00:18:24,194 Somebody from the agency dropped this off. 295 00:18:39,743 --> 00:18:40,913 These are so weird. 296 00:18:40,911 --> 00:18:44,461 I'm glad they're already training our daughter for the fighting arts. 297 00:18:50,003 --> 00:18:53,263 Hey, come on, how about getting in touch with one of your friends? 298 00:18:54,049 --> 00:18:56,089 - Everyone's working. - Those are not your friends. 299 00:18:56,093 --> 00:18:57,593 Those are your colleagues. 300 00:18:57,594 --> 00:18:59,604 What about the women from the prenatal yoga? 301 00:18:59,596 --> 00:19:02,136 You liked them, right? Why don't you get in touch with them? 302 00:19:02,141 --> 00:19:03,811 Get a coffee with them. 303 00:19:12,025 --> 00:19:13,985 I'm gonna take Hannah for a walk, okay? 304 00:19:16,113 --> 00:19:17,873 She had taken a prenatal yoga class 305 00:19:17,865 --> 00:19:20,655 and all the women kept in touch on an email chain. 306 00:19:21,201 --> 00:19:23,001 Those had to be her friends, right? 307 00:19:47,477 --> 00:19:49,767 She had searched their emails for signs 308 00:19:49,771 --> 00:19:53,281 that the birth they'd had was the same kind of nightmare she'd had. 309 00:19:53,525 --> 00:19:55,025 But there was no indication. 310 00:19:55,027 --> 00:19:57,947 The women joked that their vaginas needed to bounce back, 311 00:19:57,946 --> 00:20:02,866 their breasts needed to bounce back. Would their abdomens ever bounce back? 312 00:20:04,119 --> 00:20:06,619 "Can't. We're in the Hamptons." 313 00:20:08,123 --> 00:20:11,503 "We're sleep-training. I can't go anywhere." Sleeping emoji. 314 00:20:13,795 --> 00:20:17,965 The phrase "bounce back" seemed like it existed to make fun of her. 315 00:20:19,134 --> 00:20:22,644 There was no bouncing. There was no back. 316 00:20:25,432 --> 00:20:27,522 - Hey. - We just got back from the Hamptons. 317 00:20:27,517 --> 00:20:30,597 Right. Well, we should get together. 318 00:20:30,604 --> 00:20:33,614 We'll find a window. It's been so crazy since she was born. 319 00:20:40,739 --> 00:20:43,369 - I'll see you. - Bye. 320 00:20:50,582 --> 00:20:52,632 The rejection nearly knocked her over. 321 00:21:02,552 --> 00:21:05,062 In the afternoons, she had a good hour of Hannah sleeping 322 00:21:05,055 --> 00:21:06,555 before Toby came home. 323 00:21:13,397 --> 00:21:14,897 She called that her "me-time." 324 00:21:23,490 --> 00:21:24,740 But she was being funny. 325 00:21:27,661 --> 00:21:30,041 - I ruined her. - No, no, don't say that. 326 00:21:30,038 --> 00:21:32,868 This is normal. A lot of mothers go through this, honey. 327 00:21:55,105 --> 00:21:56,145 Please, come in. 328 00:21:56,648 --> 00:21:57,938 Welcome, dear. 329 00:22:13,999 --> 00:22:17,669 I kept trying to explain it to my mother 330 00:22:17,669 --> 00:22:19,419 but I couldn't. 331 00:22:19,421 --> 00:22:20,921 She knew she hadn't been raped. 332 00:22:20,922 --> 00:22:23,842 But when she saw that sign, she knew that inside that room 333 00:22:23,842 --> 00:22:26,222 would be people who understood what she'd been through. 334 00:22:26,219 --> 00:22:29,769 Far more than the people in a postpartum depression support group would. 335 00:22:29,765 --> 00:22:31,675 Would you like to share with the group? 336 00:23:38,291 --> 00:23:40,291 Hey! How was it? 337 00:23:40,293 --> 00:23:42,213 It was fine, it was good. 338 00:23:42,212 --> 00:23:43,962 Do you wanna talk about it? 339 00:23:45,590 --> 00:23:47,510 Cannot do any more talking. 340 00:23:49,845 --> 00:23:51,425 Now, there's my wife. 341 00:24:02,107 --> 00:24:05,487 For a while, the world seemed to have some light in it again. 342 00:24:19,583 --> 00:24:22,843 But then, one day, on her way to her group... 343 00:24:40,228 --> 00:24:43,228 She had four floors to say to him, "Look what you did. 344 00:24:43,482 --> 00:24:46,192 "Look what you did to a perfectly good person!" 345 00:24:53,617 --> 00:24:55,197 But she didn't say anything. 346 00:24:57,287 --> 00:24:59,117 What it was that he'd seen in her 347 00:24:59,122 --> 00:25:02,462 that would make him think that she would tolerate that. 348 00:25:08,798 --> 00:25:11,428 How had he looked at her, at Rachel, 349 00:25:11,426 --> 00:25:14,546 and thought, "Now there's someone I can victimize"? 350 00:25:35,408 --> 00:25:37,328 She wasn't a victim. 351 00:25:40,455 --> 00:25:43,035 She was Rachel fucking Fleishman. 352 00:26:07,023 --> 00:26:08,443 It fits, motherfuckers. 353 00:26:24,416 --> 00:26:25,746 She is so cute. 354 00:26:28,253 --> 00:26:29,843 So when do you go back? 355 00:26:30,547 --> 00:26:33,507 Funny you should ask. That's what I wanna talk to you about. 356 00:26:35,552 --> 00:26:36,762 Remember when I met you, 357 00:26:36,761 --> 00:26:39,011 that Edith Wilson musical you wanted to do? 358 00:26:41,433 --> 00:26:43,143 I can't stop thinking about it. 359 00:26:47,355 --> 00:26:48,515 I see. 360 00:26:49,733 --> 00:26:53,073 Crappy bar, far from the theater district. 361 00:26:53,069 --> 00:26:55,949 Secret meeting formed without the use of assistants. 362 00:26:57,574 --> 00:27:00,624 Rachel Fleishman, are you leaving Alfooz? 363 00:27:01,953 --> 00:27:04,753 Matt's gonna shit himself! 364 00:27:04,748 --> 00:27:07,788 You have so much talent and such a singular vision, 365 00:27:07,792 --> 00:27:10,132 and they put you in TV writers' rooms. 366 00:27:10,128 --> 00:27:11,798 It's where the money is. 367 00:27:11,796 --> 00:27:14,216 It's where the money is for an agency that thinks small. 368 00:27:14,215 --> 00:27:17,295 If you have a hit, that's where the actual money is. 369 00:27:17,302 --> 00:27:20,222 But a person has to believe you have a hit. 370 00:27:26,144 --> 00:27:27,734 And you know what? 371 00:27:32,150 --> 00:27:33,320 {\an8}She was right. 372 00:27:40,116 --> 00:27:43,236 Every day, there was a new demand. A new client, a new assistant. 373 00:27:43,244 --> 00:27:44,334 I'm sorry. 374 00:27:44,329 --> 00:27:46,869 There'd be no apology if you'd been paying attention. 375 00:27:46,873 --> 00:27:50,383 Someone had to be trained or fired or poached, or visited in rehab. 376 00:27:50,377 --> 00:27:52,457 And it took up all of her streams of attention, 377 00:27:52,462 --> 00:27:54,052 so that when she finally got home... 378 00:27:54,047 --> 00:27:55,587 Hey, cutie! 379 00:27:55,590 --> 00:27:56,970 Thought you'd be home at 7:00. 380 00:27:56,966 --> 00:27:58,636 I was delayed. 381 00:27:58,635 --> 00:28:01,175 Yeah, well, you didn't answer me today. 382 00:28:01,179 --> 00:28:03,719 Oh, God. I don't even know what happened today. 383 00:28:03,723 --> 00:28:05,483 I'm sorry, what was it? 384 00:28:07,352 --> 00:28:09,062 Passover. 385 00:28:09,229 --> 00:28:11,689 Oh, well, you could've called Simone. 386 00:28:12,565 --> 00:28:14,435 I shouldn't have to call my wife's assistant. 387 00:28:14,442 --> 00:28:17,362 She's got the schedule up. Honestly, Toby. 388 00:28:17,362 --> 00:28:20,662 Well, you don't have to call a nurse to get me on the phone. 389 00:28:24,035 --> 00:28:25,195 Well? 390 00:28:27,122 --> 00:28:29,042 We can't go to your family's for a whole week. 391 00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:31,670 I've got previews. Maybe we could just go for the seders? 392 00:28:33,128 --> 00:28:34,798 You're like a 1950s dad. 393 00:28:34,796 --> 00:28:37,086 You come in, pat the kids on the head and you're gone. 394 00:28:37,257 --> 00:28:39,087 What the fuck kind of thing is that to say? 395 00:28:39,384 --> 00:28:42,264 I can't take a whole week off. I mean, most people can't. 396 00:28:42,262 --> 00:28:45,312 I know. You can't do a week at my parents' 'cause we need more money. 397 00:28:45,557 --> 00:28:47,767 Why don't I call the concierge and the doorman, 398 00:28:47,767 --> 00:28:50,347 the assistant and tell them we don't have enough money yet? 399 00:28:50,353 --> 00:28:52,233 What would you do if you couldn't pretend 400 00:28:52,355 --> 00:28:53,515 you didn't enjoy our money? 401 00:28:53,523 --> 00:28:56,113 How would it be for you if you couldn't live like a king, 402 00:28:56,109 --> 00:28:58,189 and pretend it was moral failing of mine 403 00:28:58,194 --> 00:29:00,494 to force you to live this terrible existence... 404 00:29:00,488 --> 00:29:01,698 Talking about me now? 405 00:29:01,698 --> 00:29:02,818 - Yes! - Okay. 406 00:29:02,824 --> 00:29:04,494 You get to sit back like a martyr 407 00:29:04,492 --> 00:29:06,202 and pretend you're an angel. 408 00:29:06,202 --> 00:29:09,832 "I only love the patient interface. I don't need to live on actual money. 409 00:29:09,831 --> 00:29:11,501 -"I hate money." - I don't hate money. 410 00:29:11,499 --> 00:29:12,999 I don't choose it over everything. 411 00:29:13,001 --> 00:29:14,671 - I choose money? - Yeah. 412 00:29:14,669 --> 00:29:18,169 No, I choose safety over everything. 413 00:29:18,173 --> 00:29:21,223 I choose acceptance for our kids over everything. 414 00:29:21,217 --> 00:29:22,717 The only reason you can't see that 415 00:29:22,719 --> 00:29:24,889 is because you've always had those things. 416 00:29:24,888 --> 00:29:26,428 Don't you see? 417 00:29:26,431 --> 00:29:27,721 Yeah, we have enough, Rachel. 418 00:29:27,724 --> 00:29:29,774 At some point, it has to be enough. 419 00:29:30,101 --> 00:29:32,981 Look, it's not just about money. 420 00:29:33,438 --> 00:29:35,108 It's about their friendships. 421 00:29:35,106 --> 00:29:37,146 Let them choose their own friends! 422 00:29:37,150 --> 00:29:41,650 What? You think you just sit there and friends come to you? 423 00:29:42,322 --> 00:29:45,202 Sorry, do you have any idea how fucked up what you just said is? 424 00:29:45,200 --> 00:29:47,490 Any idea? Because, yes, of course... 425 00:29:47,494 --> 00:29:50,624 Sorry, yes, of course I do, because we're networking them, right? 426 00:29:50,622 --> 00:29:53,712 No, right. Why don't we have their possible friends' agents call, 427 00:29:53,708 --> 00:29:56,798 so we can get the ball rolling on them? Would that be a good idea? 428 00:29:56,795 --> 00:29:58,125 You're mimicking me? 429 00:29:58,129 --> 00:30:00,089 Toby could set up a playdate, sure. 430 00:30:00,089 --> 00:30:02,089 He could offer to take the kids to the doctor. 431 00:30:02,091 --> 00:30:03,801 But he wasn't a mother. 432 00:30:03,802 --> 00:30:06,642 The system was run by mothers for mothers. 433 00:30:06,638 --> 00:30:10,098 People talk about the expectations that are heaped upon mothers, 434 00:30:10,099 --> 00:30:12,809 but the expectations come from the mothers themselves. 435 00:30:12,811 --> 00:30:16,021 The moms' nights out, the fundraisers, the book drives, 436 00:30:16,022 --> 00:30:18,482 the yoga classes, the friendships... 437 00:30:18,775 --> 00:30:21,435 It's a relief it was Armani. If it were... 438 00:30:21,444 --> 00:30:23,534 - Forgot the nose. - Oh. 439 00:30:27,575 --> 00:30:29,285 Honestly? Sam! 440 00:30:29,285 --> 00:30:31,365 Have fun, ladies. Back to your lady talk. 441 00:30:33,081 --> 00:30:35,041 Oh, I wish I'd had a third. 442 00:30:35,041 --> 00:30:38,381 Toby said no. He said I work too much for another child. 443 00:30:38,378 --> 00:30:40,338 Well, we all work. 444 00:30:40,338 --> 00:30:42,838 God, I wish I had a job. It sounds like a vacation. 445 00:30:42,841 --> 00:30:46,141 - Seriously. - Someone, employ me! Right? 446 00:30:46,135 --> 00:30:48,385 Can I go on maternity leave from motherhood? 447 00:30:50,723 --> 00:30:51,853 And there it was. 448 00:30:51,850 --> 00:30:54,560 The hideous thing that divided the two kinds of women there were 449 00:30:54,561 --> 00:30:56,101 in the world that Rachel lived in. 450 00:30:56,104 --> 00:30:58,734 The working mothers and the stay-at-home mothers. 451 00:30:58,731 --> 00:30:59,941 Rachel knew the truth, 452 00:30:59,941 --> 00:31:02,031 which was that the culture was so condescending 453 00:31:02,026 --> 00:31:04,486 to stay-at-home mothers that we let them the fiction 454 00:31:04,487 --> 00:31:07,447 that being a mother was the hardest job ever. 455 00:31:07,448 --> 00:31:09,028 Well, it wasn't. 456 00:31:09,033 --> 00:31:13,373 Having an actual job and being a mother is the hardest job in the world. 457 00:31:13,371 --> 00:31:15,211 You don't have to say it. It's obvious. 458 00:31:15,206 --> 00:31:17,786 It's two full-time jobs. It's just math. 459 00:31:17,792 --> 00:31:20,592 Keeping track of your kids from afar is not easier. 460 00:31:20,587 --> 00:31:23,917 And trusting them to a stranger is not easier. 461 00:31:23,923 --> 00:31:27,183 Nothing makes it easier. That's what Rachel knew. 462 00:31:27,176 --> 00:31:29,176 But you know what she also knew? 463 00:31:34,100 --> 00:31:37,400 That these friends of hers could be gone in a minute. 464 00:31:37,937 --> 00:31:39,307 Hardest job in the world. 465 00:31:39,898 --> 00:31:40,938 Cheers to that. 466 00:31:45,320 --> 00:31:48,240 It wasn't an insult. I mean, it was a job offer. 467 00:31:48,239 --> 00:31:49,619 Are you paranoid? 468 00:31:49,616 --> 00:31:50,946 What you do is good enough. 469 00:31:51,075 --> 00:31:53,445 But you should always take a meeting. Everyone knows that. 470 00:31:53,453 --> 00:31:55,913 It's "good enough" to be a doctor? Thanks for approving 471 00:31:55,914 --> 00:31:58,634 of a job I've had for 20 years. What planet am I on? 472 00:31:58,625 --> 00:32:00,495 No, I'm not saying you... 473 00:32:00,501 --> 00:32:02,051 You have no respect for me. 474 00:32:02,879 --> 00:32:03,959 - Respect? - Yeah. 475 00:32:03,963 --> 00:32:06,383 He said the base salary is a mill. That's respect. 476 00:32:06,382 --> 00:32:08,262 You have a nickname for a million dollars? 477 00:32:08,259 --> 00:32:09,799 Congratulations. That is adorable. 478 00:32:09,802 --> 00:32:11,142 No, don't do that to me. 479 00:32:11,137 --> 00:32:13,217 I'm here wondering if we will look back on this 480 00:32:13,222 --> 00:32:15,482 and wonder why we hung on for so long. 481 00:32:16,392 --> 00:32:18,652 What are you talking about? 482 00:32:18,770 --> 00:32:21,360 Come on, you can't possibly think this is working. 483 00:32:26,861 --> 00:32:28,401 Don't you understand? 484 00:32:28,404 --> 00:32:31,034 I don't even have time to get a divorce! 485 00:32:35,536 --> 00:32:38,206 But the truth was, every time he brought up divorce 486 00:32:38,206 --> 00:32:41,206 she felt the phantom limb of abandonment, 487 00:32:42,502 --> 00:32:44,052 her age-old wound. 488 00:32:51,469 --> 00:32:54,009 This is what I'm talking about. She makes no time for us. 489 00:32:54,013 --> 00:32:57,233 Toby, I'm here. Is this not time for us? 490 00:32:57,225 --> 00:32:59,555 So, we used to take these long walks together. 491 00:32:59,560 --> 00:33:01,480 I can't remember a time we took a walk... 492 00:33:01,479 --> 00:33:03,479 For all your love of physics, you can't grasp 493 00:33:03,481 --> 00:33:05,941 that if we walk to dinner 35 blocks away, 494 00:33:05,942 --> 00:33:08,112 instead of finishing the email in the cab 495 00:33:08,111 --> 00:33:10,361 I will be finishing it at the table. 496 00:33:10,488 --> 00:33:13,448 The email isn't optional. The email is the entire thing. 497 00:33:13,449 --> 00:33:15,619 I think some people would say it could wait. 498 00:33:15,618 --> 00:33:19,368 What could wait? Tell me what I do that could wait. 499 00:33:19,372 --> 00:33:22,212 Anyone who's been to just one session of couple's therapy 500 00:33:22,208 --> 00:33:24,538 could tell you that beyond your point of view 501 00:33:24,544 --> 00:33:28,014 lies an abyss with a bubbling cauldron of fire, 502 00:33:28,006 --> 00:33:31,876 and that just beyond that abyss lies your spouse's point of view. 503 00:33:31,884 --> 00:33:33,514 Rachel and Toby tried to fix it. 504 00:33:33,511 --> 00:33:34,851 I will be finishing in the... 505 00:33:34,846 --> 00:33:36,846 - While saying "hello" to family? - That's all. 506 00:33:36,848 --> 00:33:38,518 But the thing wasn't broken. 507 00:33:46,941 --> 00:33:48,821 Yeah, sorry, do you see how angry she is? 508 00:33:51,154 --> 00:33:52,454 It was gone. 509 00:33:59,370 --> 00:34:01,410 And then, it was over. 510 00:34:05,293 --> 00:34:08,003 She had spent so much time hyperventilating 511 00:34:08,004 --> 00:34:09,554 and terrified of him leaving, 512 00:34:09,547 --> 00:34:12,677 of the actual "one day he wouldn't be there" of it all, 513 00:34:14,802 --> 00:34:17,812 that she was shocked to find out that when it finally happened, 514 00:34:21,809 --> 00:34:23,979 it was... fine. 515 00:34:26,230 --> 00:34:28,270 It was... good. 516 00:34:31,069 --> 00:34:33,399 She started to think that marriage was a section of life 517 00:34:33,404 --> 00:34:35,534 that you now see was always meant to end, 518 00:34:35,531 --> 00:34:38,871 like childhood or puberty. It's just a phase. 519 00:34:38,868 --> 00:34:41,158 But maybe it was also fine 520 00:34:41,162 --> 00:34:44,122 because of one additional mitigating factor. 521 00:34:44,123 --> 00:34:46,333 Months before, while all this was going on... 522 00:34:46,334 --> 00:34:50,054 Then I'll bring that to Alejandra. I have a feeling she will be amenable. 523 00:34:50,254 --> 00:34:51,514 Get me Al... 524 00:34:52,423 --> 00:34:53,883 Uh, uh... 525 00:34:53,883 --> 00:34:57,183 Good, Richard. Thank you. Yeah. I'll circle back soon. 526 00:34:58,930 --> 00:35:02,140 Hey, are you looking for a job here? Because we start people in the mailroom. 527 00:35:02,141 --> 00:35:04,641 Okay. I just wanted to thank you again. 528 00:35:04,644 --> 00:35:06,314 Josh got cast in a car commercial. 529 00:35:06,312 --> 00:35:08,402 Yeah, I heard. That's great! He's great. 530 00:35:08,397 --> 00:35:10,857 It's one of the ones where the kid wakes up on Christmas 531 00:35:10,858 --> 00:35:13,188 and the parents have given him a car or something. 532 00:35:14,570 --> 00:35:15,740 You okay? 533 00:35:17,532 --> 00:35:22,332 No, I'm sorry, it's just... Things are a little hard now. 534 00:35:23,621 --> 00:35:26,871 Let me take you for a drink. You look like you could use a friend. 535 00:35:28,334 --> 00:35:31,884 - I've got a ton of calls to return. - One drink. 536 00:35:33,214 --> 00:35:34,594 You're getting there. 537 00:35:37,635 --> 00:35:39,385 Cut to the part where you're there. 538 00:35:43,850 --> 00:35:46,350 So they cut to the part where they were there. 539 00:35:51,983 --> 00:35:53,863 Oh, God, it's good. 540 00:35:53,860 --> 00:35:56,110 Fuck, that's good. It's good! 541 00:35:59,615 --> 00:36:01,325 It was supposed to be temporary. 542 00:36:01,325 --> 00:36:05,745 Quick nooners at hotels. Then Toby left for his new place, 543 00:36:05,746 --> 00:36:07,866 and now she could see him any time she wanted 544 00:36:07,874 --> 00:36:09,964 when the kids were with Toby. 545 00:36:10,251 --> 00:36:12,461 And once or twice when the kids were asleep. 546 00:36:15,047 --> 00:36:16,627 Sam loved that she worked. 547 00:36:16,632 --> 00:36:20,262 Sam wanted to hear all about her deals, about the drama at work... 548 00:36:20,261 --> 00:36:23,891 And then Jeff told Reyna, "No, you can do it. 549 00:36:24,015 --> 00:36:26,475 "I just can't hear you doing it." 550 00:36:33,566 --> 00:36:35,186 I'm only happy when I'm with you. 551 00:36:35,610 --> 00:36:38,990 I don't... I mean, how do we figure that part out? 552 00:36:43,075 --> 00:36:44,445 Well... 553 00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:48,460 Let's game plan this, and break down the practicalities. 554 00:36:50,166 --> 00:36:52,876 I've been thinking I might wanna open an LA office. 555 00:36:54,420 --> 00:36:56,420 Fendant has an LA office. 556 00:36:57,757 --> 00:36:59,467 I love it when you talk like an agent. 557 00:36:59,467 --> 00:37:03,047 I love it. I love everything you have going on in your head. 558 00:37:03,054 --> 00:37:05,644 I just... love you. 559 00:37:14,315 --> 00:37:17,355 Sam accepted her. He was impressed with her. 560 00:37:17,777 --> 00:37:20,527 She began to wonder if she didn't have to choose 561 00:37:20,529 --> 00:37:22,569 between love and acceptance. 562 00:37:36,754 --> 00:37:39,764 - I think it's time. - Okay. 563 00:37:41,801 --> 00:37:43,051 Oh! 564 00:37:43,427 --> 00:37:44,887 Oh, God! 565 00:37:44,887 --> 00:37:46,757 - Ew! - It's so gross! 566 00:37:49,100 --> 00:37:51,060 Okay, it's time to go to bed. 567 00:37:51,060 --> 00:37:52,350 Come on! 568 00:37:52,353 --> 00:37:54,613 No! I let you stay up this late. 569 00:37:59,860 --> 00:38:03,030 She realized that some people are miserable after a divorce. 570 00:38:03,030 --> 00:38:05,740 Not Rachel. She was free. 571 00:38:05,741 --> 00:38:08,041 She could do whatever the hell she wanted. 572 00:38:08,577 --> 00:38:10,537 Well, not everything. 573 00:38:10,538 --> 00:38:14,498 Trust me, if Rachel could've moved to LA without having to talk to Toby about it, 574 00:38:14,500 --> 00:38:15,790 she would have. 575 00:38:16,711 --> 00:38:19,341 Every conversation was a terror with him. 576 00:38:19,338 --> 00:38:21,878 - Hey, is now a good time? - Sure, yeah. 577 00:38:21,882 --> 00:38:24,262 - Are the kids okay? - Yeah, they're fine. 578 00:38:24,468 --> 00:38:27,388 - How's your new place? - What is it, Rachel? 579 00:38:27,388 --> 00:38:30,018 Honestly, your whole thing is that we're supposed to have 580 00:38:30,016 --> 00:38:31,596 great co-parenting communication, 581 00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:33,690 and be captains of this divorce team together. 582 00:38:33,686 --> 00:38:36,186 But if I say something nice to you, you have a meltdown. 583 00:38:36,188 --> 00:38:38,148 Yeah, I wouldn't call this a meltdown, okay? 584 00:38:38,149 --> 00:38:40,229 So, I've been thinking... 585 00:38:40,234 --> 00:38:43,864 The Presidentrix movie is about to go. The agency is doing really great. 586 00:38:43,863 --> 00:38:45,323 Yup, yup. Congratulations. 587 00:38:45,323 --> 00:38:46,743 Um... 588 00:38:47,700 --> 00:38:51,200 I'm thinking I wanna start an LA office, expand my business. 589 00:38:51,203 --> 00:38:52,793 Sure, great. Congratulations. 590 00:38:52,788 --> 00:38:57,038 It would mean that I'd have to go and set up shop, and be there a while. 591 00:38:57,043 --> 00:39:00,303 Yeah, okay. Hannah goes to camp in two weeks, and Solly... 592 00:39:00,296 --> 00:39:02,376 Maybe you can take him for a week or two? 593 00:39:04,175 --> 00:39:07,215 I'm thinking of doing it for longer than the summer. 594 00:39:07,219 --> 00:39:11,889 Um, maybe I would have to be there longer. Like... 595 00:39:12,975 --> 00:39:15,265 Move there for a while. 596 00:39:15,811 --> 00:39:17,981 I'd keep my place here, 597 00:39:18,105 --> 00:39:20,395 and I'd still come back all the time. 598 00:39:20,399 --> 00:39:22,229 And what, like leave the kids? 599 00:39:22,234 --> 00:39:23,904 No, no. I... 600 00:39:25,905 --> 00:39:27,985 - I would take the kids. - Are you fucking kidding me? 601 00:39:27,990 --> 00:39:29,950 You are not taking the kids anywhere. I will literally... 602 00:39:29,950 --> 00:39:31,450 Rachel, I will sue you... 603 00:39:31,452 --> 00:39:34,332 No, I'm saying I need a change. 604 00:39:34,872 --> 00:39:36,582 - Oh, you need a change? Okay. - No, no. 605 00:39:36,582 --> 00:39:38,582 Please, don't make this ugly. 606 00:39:38,584 --> 00:39:41,924 You know what? Go to California. But you are not taking the kids, okay? 607 00:39:42,046 --> 00:39:44,336 Honestly, they wouldn't even notice if you were gone. 608 00:39:57,103 --> 00:40:00,193 It was the meanest thing anyone had ever said to her. 609 00:40:00,981 --> 00:40:02,821 And he had said some mean things. 610 00:40:08,906 --> 00:40:10,156 I have great news! 611 00:40:10,157 --> 00:40:12,697 I got a last-minute spot at Everglade for the weekend. 612 00:40:14,078 --> 00:40:15,328 You there? 613 00:40:15,830 --> 00:40:17,460 Hi. Yeah. 614 00:40:18,124 --> 00:40:20,964 So, I'm telling Miriam I'm getting super into yoga. 615 00:40:20,960 --> 00:40:22,500 We can finally do a weekend. 616 00:40:25,214 --> 00:40:26,724 Uh, right. Um... 617 00:40:27,758 --> 00:40:31,758 I'm in the middle of Alejandra's deal. We're trying to close. 618 00:40:31,762 --> 00:40:34,142 Did you know the cell phone had been invented? 619 00:40:34,140 --> 00:40:36,390 Come on. Cut to the part where you're there. 620 00:40:38,561 --> 00:40:40,731 Great. Be outside at 6:00. 621 00:41:58,599 --> 00:42:01,099 There's a silent mindfulness nature walk at 10:00 622 00:42:01,101 --> 00:42:02,561 that you're just in time for. 623 00:42:02,561 --> 00:42:05,611 Can we just cut to the massage part? Rach, you want a facial? 624 00:42:06,857 --> 00:42:07,937 - Sure. - Cool. 625 00:42:07,942 --> 00:42:10,072 It's Rachel... 626 00:42:10,069 --> 00:42:12,319 I can facilitate that. Thank you. 627 00:42:45,312 --> 00:42:46,482 Hey, you okay? 628 00:42:46,480 --> 00:42:48,860 Yeah. Work stuff. 629 00:42:49,525 --> 00:42:54,235 Why don't you get an early massage? Let's wash it all off, okay? Hey... 630 00:42:55,322 --> 00:42:57,122 I brought something for us. 631 00:42:57,116 --> 00:43:00,326 Edibles. It's good stuff. 632 00:43:00,327 --> 00:43:02,247 - Medical. - Mmm. 633 00:43:03,372 --> 00:43:05,542 Very romantic. 634 00:43:06,500 --> 00:43:09,630 Yeah, I can't do that stuff, though. 635 00:43:10,129 --> 00:43:12,089 They gave me this thing when I had Hannah 636 00:43:12,089 --> 00:43:13,719 that made me hallucinate all night, 637 00:43:13,716 --> 00:43:16,586 and now I just stay away... 638 00:43:18,262 --> 00:43:19,512 Okay. 639 00:43:26,478 --> 00:43:29,058 Let's begin. Deep breath. 640 00:43:29,064 --> 00:43:32,114 Here's the thing about consciousness-raising and awareness. 641 00:43:33,235 --> 00:43:36,025 Let's start. Deep breath. 642 00:43:36,030 --> 00:43:37,660 You should avoid it. 643 00:43:39,241 --> 00:43:42,331 Let's start. Deep breath. 644 00:43:42,328 --> 00:43:46,288 I'm sorry. I just have to sit up for a second. 645 00:43:51,420 --> 00:43:53,300 I have an idea for you. 646 00:43:54,590 --> 00:43:56,130 Try closing your eyes. 647 00:43:57,509 --> 00:44:00,889 Sorry. I can't close my eyes. 648 00:44:02,806 --> 00:44:04,216 Now breathe. 649 00:44:10,648 --> 00:44:13,318 Your breath keeps getting caught in the same place. 650 00:44:13,317 --> 00:44:14,487 What does that mean? 651 00:44:14,485 --> 00:44:17,735 It means you have to clear out the pipes a little. 652 00:44:21,367 --> 00:44:23,987 Breathe in. Breathe out. 653 00:44:26,622 --> 00:44:28,462 Breathe in. 654 00:44:28,457 --> 00:44:30,787 Now, scream. 655 00:44:31,126 --> 00:44:32,206 Trust me. 656 00:44:35,464 --> 00:44:37,974 Go on. No one can hear you. 657 00:44:44,765 --> 00:44:46,055 You're getting it. 658 00:44:51,772 --> 00:44:56,032 What if I told you that inside you are tiny particles, 659 00:44:56,026 --> 00:44:59,776 and attached to that are all the worry and the anxiety you have. 660 00:45:00,280 --> 00:45:01,450 All your problems. 661 00:45:01,448 --> 00:45:04,158 And if you could gather them and push them out of your body, 662 00:45:04,952 --> 00:45:06,412 they won't be there anymore. 663 00:45:27,808 --> 00:45:29,478 And so she screamed. 664 00:45:29,476 --> 00:45:31,146 One of her screams was for Hannah, 665 00:45:31,145 --> 00:45:34,355 who had Rachel's disease of the desire for love and acceptance. 666 00:45:34,982 --> 00:45:36,362 One of them was for Solly, 667 00:45:36,358 --> 00:45:38,778 who thought he was allowed to be himself in this world 668 00:45:38,777 --> 00:45:41,567 and didn't realize there would be consequences to it, 669 00:45:41,947 --> 00:45:43,527 no matter what Mr. Rogers said. 670 00:45:43,907 --> 00:45:45,407 She screamed for her mother, 671 00:45:45,409 --> 00:45:48,789 who was, perhaps, her last chance at being a normal person. 672 00:45:49,371 --> 00:45:50,461 She screamed for Toby, 673 00:45:50,456 --> 00:45:52,576 who promised he would never leave 674 00:45:52,583 --> 00:45:55,133 and spent their years together threatening to leave her 675 00:45:56,128 --> 00:45:57,338 and then finally did. 676 00:46:03,260 --> 00:46:06,100 She screamed for the family she worked her whole life to get. 677 00:46:06,722 --> 00:46:08,642 But then only had so briefly. 678 00:46:22,696 --> 00:46:24,406 This place is so fucking weird. 679 00:46:39,421 --> 00:46:40,421 What is it with you? 680 00:46:41,131 --> 00:46:42,721 I don't know. I'm just... 681 00:46:44,593 --> 00:46:46,053 I can't seem to calm down. 682 00:46:46,678 --> 00:46:48,888 Here, take an Ambien. 683 00:46:49,473 --> 00:46:50,683 Isn't it a prescription? 684 00:46:51,850 --> 00:46:56,440 Still a doctor's wife. Pharmaceuticals. 685 00:47:05,239 --> 00:47:08,409 Sam liked to take Ambien before they had sex, God knows why. 686 00:47:10,035 --> 00:47:11,405 Rachel thought about taking one 687 00:47:11,411 --> 00:47:13,541 but she'd read these stories about people 688 00:47:13,539 --> 00:47:15,919 who do crazy things in their sleep when they take it. 689 00:47:24,550 --> 00:47:26,590 God. 690 00:47:39,857 --> 00:47:40,897 Fuck! 691 00:48:13,390 --> 00:48:14,470 Wait. You're leaving? 692 00:48:14,474 --> 00:48:16,394 I don't get a lot of time to myself. 693 00:48:16,393 --> 00:48:17,853 I was hoping this would be... 694 00:48:17,853 --> 00:48:20,153 Fun? You were supposed to be fun. 695 00:48:20,147 --> 00:48:21,607 I was supposed to be fun? 696 00:48:21,607 --> 00:48:24,687 You know what I mean. It's not supposed to be this much work. 697 00:48:26,445 --> 00:48:29,025 I don't think this is good anymore. You should pack. 698 00:48:29,990 --> 00:48:33,620 But we were supposed to be here for another two days. 699 00:48:34,912 --> 00:48:36,042 I don't wanna leave yet. 700 00:48:54,723 --> 00:48:57,143 Rachel was left unsure of what had just happened. 701 00:48:57,601 --> 00:48:59,941 Had there been a progression that she'd missed? 702 00:49:00,354 --> 00:49:02,564 All she thought is, "There goes another one." 703 00:49:03,607 --> 00:49:07,607 And then it hit her. Holy shit. She was divorced. 704 00:49:07,611 --> 00:49:09,361 The bottom had fallen out. 705 00:49:09,363 --> 00:49:11,823 There was no net. She was alone. 706 00:49:12,074 --> 00:49:15,664 She was alone again when she had taken such measures 707 00:49:15,661 --> 00:49:17,751 to make sure she'd never be alone again. 708 00:49:18,413 --> 00:49:22,633 It must be that she was unlovable, an illegitimate kind of person. 709 00:49:22,626 --> 00:49:24,376 There were so many people in the world. 710 00:49:24,378 --> 00:49:28,798 Dumb ones, ugly ones, bad ones, even, and there were people who loved them. 711 00:49:28,799 --> 00:49:29,929 Why not her? 712 00:49:29,925 --> 00:49:31,795 She couldn't be loved by her grandmother. 713 00:49:32,010 --> 00:49:34,510 She couldn't be loved by Toby for being herself. 714 00:49:34,513 --> 00:49:36,973 She couldn't be loved by Sam for being herself. 715 00:49:36,974 --> 00:49:39,434 Who she was, was unacceptable. 716 00:49:41,603 --> 00:49:43,113 Sutton called and was asking 717 00:49:43,105 --> 00:49:44,815 for clarification on the final deal point. 718 00:49:44,815 --> 00:49:47,475 Toby called. He's saying you have to pick up the kids. 719 00:49:48,527 --> 00:49:51,777 Just one fucking weekend, Simone. 720 00:50:05,085 --> 00:50:07,665 Can you look at this script? 721 00:50:07,671 --> 00:50:10,341 Did you hit the final deal points? 722 00:50:10,340 --> 00:50:12,630 Where are you? 723 00:50:12,634 --> 00:50:14,014 Give me a call back 724 00:50:14,011 --> 00:50:18,181 because you said alternate, not understudy. 725 00:50:18,181 --> 00:50:19,431 Alejandro called again. 726 00:50:19,433 --> 00:50:20,893 Hey. 727 00:50:20,892 --> 00:50:22,272 Are you getting these? 728 00:50:25,230 --> 00:50:27,230 Time was a flat circle back. 729 00:50:28,984 --> 00:50:31,534 She couldn't go to sleep while her phone was nearby. 730 00:50:31,653 --> 00:50:35,493 It was alive. She could feel it beating. 731 00:51:14,196 --> 00:51:17,196 - Mrs. Rothberg? - I'm not Mrs. Rothberg. 732 00:51:17,574 --> 00:51:19,704 We were wondering when you'd be checking out. 733 00:51:19,701 --> 00:51:22,291 Oh, I want another massage and then do more screaming. 734 00:51:22,287 --> 00:51:25,367 Right, but your reservation. We have a large group coming. 735 00:51:26,583 --> 00:51:28,093 Well, can I have a late checkout? 736 00:51:29,544 --> 00:51:30,554 Sure. 737 00:51:40,597 --> 00:51:42,267 Just get me a car home, okay? 738 00:51:42,265 --> 00:51:43,555 And send me a new phone. 739 00:51:43,767 --> 00:51:45,687 No, Simone. It's just one weekend. 740 00:51:45,685 --> 00:51:47,015 Let me be. Please. 741 00:52:03,078 --> 00:52:04,828 Mrs. Fleishman. Long time no see. 742 00:52:17,467 --> 00:52:18,547 She was home. 743 00:52:18,552 --> 00:52:19,642 Finally. 744 00:52:22,806 --> 00:52:23,886 Sleep. 745 00:52:28,436 --> 00:52:29,516 Maybe she was hungry. 746 00:52:30,939 --> 00:52:33,899 She'd only eaten vegetarian bullshit for the past few days. 747 00:52:33,900 --> 00:52:37,610 Maybe if she had some iron in her she'd be able to sleep. 748 00:52:40,490 --> 00:52:43,490 She'd had a roommate in college who used to diet all the time. 749 00:52:43,493 --> 00:52:45,453 But when she gave up on her diet, 750 00:52:45,453 --> 00:52:49,083 which was basically every week, she'd order beef lo mein. 751 00:52:49,207 --> 00:52:51,327 You've never seen someone so happy while eating. 752 00:52:51,710 --> 00:52:54,460 Yeah, hi. Can I get an order of... 753 00:52:57,382 --> 00:52:59,302 I'll have the beef lo mein. 754 00:53:02,220 --> 00:53:03,470 Hello, Mrs. Fleishman. 755 00:53:16,318 --> 00:53:17,528 Lo mein is gross. 756 00:53:17,694 --> 00:53:20,114 Why would you eat spaghetti from a Chinese place? 757 00:53:23,074 --> 00:53:27,254 What she needed was exercise. Exercise always tired her out. 758 00:53:28,622 --> 00:53:30,832 Wait, what was she doing in the bedroom? 759 00:53:43,386 --> 00:53:46,256 She'd had a roommate in college who used to diet all the time, 760 00:53:46,514 --> 00:53:49,644 but when she gave up on her diet, which was basically every week, 761 00:53:49,643 --> 00:53:51,693 she'd order beef lo mein. 762 00:53:51,686 --> 00:53:53,016 You've never seen someone 763 00:53:53,021 --> 00:53:55,021 so happy while eating. 764 00:53:55,023 --> 00:53:58,693 Are you still delivering? Yeah. I'll have a beef lo mein. 765 00:53:58,860 --> 00:54:02,200 Delivered to 813 East 84th Street. Apartment 7A. 766 00:54:05,617 --> 00:54:06,787 Hello, Mrs. Fleishman. 767 00:54:18,129 --> 00:54:19,209 Disgusting. 768 00:54:19,214 --> 00:54:20,884 If you want pasta, you go to Tony's. 769 00:54:25,262 --> 00:54:28,642 She'd had this idea that maybe it was that her clothes were too tight. 770 00:54:29,015 --> 00:54:30,845 She never wore sweatpants anymore. 771 00:54:32,102 --> 00:54:34,442 They reminded her of her post-partum breakdown. 772 00:54:35,272 --> 00:54:37,822 But either Toby or Sam had left some behind, 773 00:54:38,400 --> 00:54:42,240 and maybe the sweatpants were what healed her last time. 774 00:54:42,737 --> 00:54:46,697 She thought of those women who wore sweatpants all day and slept in the park 775 00:54:46,700 --> 00:54:49,790 because they had nothing to do. Maybe she could be one of them. 776 00:54:49,786 --> 00:54:51,496 But man, she was hungry. 777 00:54:51,663 --> 00:54:54,463 Rachel thought about her college roommate who had an eating disorder 778 00:54:54,457 --> 00:54:56,957 and who would, once a week, order beef lo mein 779 00:54:56,960 --> 00:54:59,420 because that's the food you eat when you've just given up. 780 00:54:59,421 --> 00:55:01,131 Can I get an order of beef lo mein? 781 00:55:01,131 --> 00:55:04,591 813 East 84th Street. Apartment 7A. 782 00:55:05,927 --> 00:55:07,387 - Mrs. Fleishman. - Thank you. 783 00:55:25,780 --> 00:55:27,700 It was totally gross. 784 00:55:27,699 --> 00:55:30,699 Why would you eat spaghetti from a Chinese place? 785 00:55:32,287 --> 00:55:34,787 Maybe she could get like a supplement or something. 786 00:55:55,226 --> 00:55:58,936 A hamburger, no onions, no cheese. 787 00:55:58,938 --> 00:56:01,188 Um, uh... 788 00:56:01,191 --> 00:56:02,321 Do you have pickles? 789 00:56:03,902 --> 00:56:06,282 Do you still have that fusilli? 790 00:56:07,197 --> 00:56:09,617 Yeah, yeah. That. One of those. 791 00:56:10,825 --> 00:56:11,985 You want two? 792 00:56:12,869 --> 00:56:14,369 Yeah. No, make that two. 793 00:56:17,082 --> 00:56:19,882 Go away! I don't want it! 794 00:56:32,347 --> 00:56:33,467 Toby? 795 00:56:36,267 --> 00:56:38,767 Hannah. God, you scared me. 796 00:56:39,187 --> 00:56:40,647 I know. I was at the office. 797 00:56:41,815 --> 00:56:43,105 I have to tell you something. 798 00:56:43,733 --> 00:56:45,653 Can you listen? I have to tell you something. 799 00:56:45,652 --> 00:56:47,822 I'm busy. I'll circle back. 800 00:56:48,321 --> 00:56:50,451 No, no, no. You have to hear it from me. 801 00:56:51,157 --> 00:56:52,367 I didn't stand a chance. 802 00:56:52,909 --> 00:56:55,829 I never stood a chance. Do you hear me? 803 00:56:57,622 --> 00:56:59,212 I have to circle back on that. 804 00:57:00,959 --> 00:57:02,039 Can you tell Solly? 805 00:57:05,338 --> 00:57:06,838 - I left word. - You're not listening. 806 00:57:25,817 --> 00:57:28,817 No, honey, the joke is that the eyes are open. 807 00:57:28,820 --> 00:57:31,160 I find patient interface rewarding. 808 00:57:38,580 --> 00:57:40,120 Mom, we're late! You have to get us! 809 00:57:40,915 --> 00:57:42,165 I can't move, Hannah. 810 00:57:42,167 --> 00:57:43,997 Mom! Please! 811 00:57:44,002 --> 00:57:45,172 I can't move. 812 00:57:46,045 --> 00:57:47,415 I love you! I love you! 813 00:57:47,922 --> 00:57:50,432 You know that I love you 814 00:57:50,425 --> 00:57:55,175 but they're coming for me and I can't even move! 815 00:57:57,599 --> 00:57:59,979 I'm in LA. I'm in LA. 816 00:57:59,976 --> 00:58:02,646 Come see if you can find me. Okay? 817 00:58:04,272 --> 00:58:06,402 We'll order room service! 818 00:58:10,653 --> 00:58:12,163 She had to get out of there. 819 00:58:30,173 --> 00:58:32,973 Rachel Fleishman. Asleep in the park. 820 00:58:33,343 --> 00:58:34,933 As I live and breathe. 821 00:58:35,470 --> 00:58:37,310 We're going to Soul. Are you coming? 822 00:58:37,305 --> 00:58:38,765 Oh, um... 823 00:58:40,975 --> 00:58:42,055 I forgot to tell you. 824 00:58:43,061 --> 00:58:46,021 I'm waiting on a call. So, I can't. 825 00:58:48,191 --> 00:58:50,991 Oh, you work too hard. 826 00:58:51,903 --> 00:58:53,073 Are you okay? 827 00:58:53,488 --> 00:58:55,158 Sure. Yeah. Um... 828 00:58:55,740 --> 00:58:59,330 Just taking some me-time. 829 00:59:00,245 --> 00:59:01,995 - Proud of you. - Yeah. 830 00:59:01,996 --> 00:59:03,616 - You go, girl. - Yeah. It's good. 831 00:59:26,813 --> 00:59:28,733 Did something come for me? From my assistant? 832 00:59:28,731 --> 00:59:32,611 I ordered a new phone. I've been without a phone all weekend. 833 00:59:32,610 --> 00:59:35,070 She delivered something for you a few weeks ago. 834 00:59:36,155 --> 00:59:37,275 What do you mean? 835 00:59:39,993 --> 00:59:41,493 Wait. Sorry. She... 836 00:59:42,036 --> 00:59:46,576 - Well, she delivered it on... - She delivered it? On Sunday? 837 00:59:47,875 --> 00:59:48,875 It's Thursday. 838 00:59:50,503 --> 00:59:51,713 It's Thursday? 839 00:59:51,838 --> 00:59:53,508 But it wasn't just Thursday. 840 00:59:54,591 --> 00:59:56,261 It wasn't even the next Thursday. 841 00:59:56,968 --> 00:59:58,218 It had been weeks. 842 00:59:58,344 --> 00:59:59,474 Oh, shit. 843 01:00:05,226 --> 01:00:07,186 She found herself in front of Toby's apartment, 844 01:00:07,186 --> 01:00:08,686 but she was afraid to go in. 845 01:00:09,689 --> 01:00:12,569 Not because she was scared of him yelling at her, which she was. 846 01:00:12,567 --> 01:00:15,737 But because she knew that whatever it was that he said, 847 01:00:16,446 --> 01:00:17,656 he would be right. 848 01:00:19,365 --> 01:00:22,285 And she could not bear further information 849 01:00:22,285 --> 01:00:24,995 right then about what a piece of shit she was. 850 01:00:26,664 --> 01:00:28,924 She couldn't figure out how much time had passed. 851 01:00:31,210 --> 01:00:33,250 She had so much apologizing to do. 852 01:00:35,214 --> 01:00:37,684 So she did the first thing that seemed manageable. 853 01:00:55,234 --> 01:00:56,284 - Rachel. - Hi! 854 01:00:56,778 --> 01:00:59,908 I was just in the neighborhood and I wanted to see my favorite. 855 01:01:00,740 --> 01:01:01,910 Um... 856 01:01:01,908 --> 01:01:03,948 I come bearing gifts. 857 01:01:07,163 --> 01:01:08,963 I'll get Alex. 858 01:01:10,124 --> 01:01:11,294 Alex! 859 01:01:20,134 --> 01:01:21,264 Rachel? 860 01:01:21,260 --> 01:01:22,640 It's me! 861 01:01:24,222 --> 01:01:25,722 Oh, I, uh... 862 01:01:26,766 --> 01:01:27,846 I brought you something. 863 01:01:32,605 --> 01:01:35,725 So, I think we have all our deal points done. 864 01:01:35,733 --> 01:01:37,693 They're still being a little sticky about... 865 01:01:37,694 --> 01:01:40,914 Rachel. What are you talking about? I haven't heard from you in three weeks. 866 01:01:48,162 --> 01:01:49,372 Do you... 867 01:01:52,458 --> 01:01:53,838 Do you ever get déjà vu? 868 01:01:56,087 --> 01:01:58,627 Rachel, are you okay? It's 7:00 a.m. 869 01:01:58,631 --> 01:02:00,261 Uh... 870 01:02:00,258 --> 01:02:04,548 No. I had to go out of town. It was a family emergency. 871 01:02:04,554 --> 01:02:06,314 Simone said you were in meetings. 872 01:02:07,515 --> 01:02:08,635 I called you. 873 01:02:08,641 --> 01:02:10,811 My lawyer called and said you weren't returning. 874 01:02:12,937 --> 01:02:14,227 I called Matt. 875 01:02:17,233 --> 01:02:18,363 Wait, my Matt? 876 01:02:19,110 --> 01:02:20,110 My Matt. 877 01:02:22,488 --> 01:02:23,868 I went back to Alfooz. 878 01:02:29,787 --> 01:02:30,787 You disappeared! 879 01:02:32,039 --> 01:02:33,369 I couldn't let it fall apart. 880 01:02:34,459 --> 01:02:36,339 I worked too hard to let it fall apart. 881 01:02:36,335 --> 01:02:40,295 No, of course. You did the right thing. Absolutely. 882 01:02:41,841 --> 01:02:43,051 Let me... 883 01:02:43,551 --> 01:02:45,851 Let me know if Matt needs any help with the transition. 884 01:02:46,387 --> 01:02:48,557 - Rachel, are you... - Wait. Is the deal done? 885 01:02:48,556 --> 01:02:49,716 Did he handle it? 886 01:02:50,767 --> 01:02:51,807 Yeah. He got it. 887 01:02:52,810 --> 01:02:53,850 All of it. 888 01:02:55,938 --> 01:02:56,978 It's fine now. 889 01:02:57,899 --> 01:02:58,979 Rachel, are you... 890 01:02:58,983 --> 01:03:00,863 I'm fine. 891 01:03:02,111 --> 01:03:03,111 Yeah. I mean... 892 01:03:06,491 --> 01:03:09,581 No, it's been a rough week. But, you know, it's fine. 893 01:03:15,124 --> 01:03:16,334 I am so proud... 894 01:03:24,675 --> 01:03:26,755 I'm so proud of what you achieved. 895 01:03:33,059 --> 01:03:34,559 I'm very sorry I let you down. 896 01:03:38,689 --> 01:03:40,359 Rachel had discovered her. 897 01:03:41,025 --> 01:03:43,565 She'd believed in her when Matt was still calling her 898 01:03:43,569 --> 01:03:46,489 a diversity hire for TV rooms behind her back. 899 01:03:47,657 --> 01:03:49,737 See? Unacceptable. 900 01:03:50,701 --> 01:03:54,831 And then I realized I was hungry and if I saw them when I was hungry 901 01:03:54,831 --> 01:03:57,461 I was gonna have to leave to get something to eat, 902 01:03:57,458 --> 01:03:59,498 so I went looking for carbs 903 01:03:59,502 --> 01:04:01,462 and then I got a bagel, 904 01:04:01,462 --> 01:04:05,422 and then I saw you. 905 01:04:09,762 --> 01:04:11,852 Are you sure I can't get you anything? 906 01:04:15,852 --> 01:04:17,522 Her story was all over the place. 907 01:04:17,520 --> 01:04:20,190 There were several days she just couldn't account for. 908 01:04:20,606 --> 01:04:22,106 And half of it didn't add up. 909 01:04:22,108 --> 01:04:25,528 I don't really remember putting newspaper on the windows. 910 01:04:39,917 --> 01:04:41,707 I think you need some help, Rachel. 911 01:04:45,006 --> 01:04:46,046 Come on. 912 01:04:46,757 --> 01:04:49,047 I'd spent the whole summer listening to Toby's story, 913 01:04:49,051 --> 01:04:50,601 seeing it through his eyes alone. 914 01:04:50,720 --> 01:04:53,810 I'd forgotten an essential truth of reporting, 915 01:04:53,806 --> 01:04:55,306 which is that you should always wonder, 916 01:04:55,308 --> 01:04:57,438 when you're hearing someone's version of things, 917 01:04:57,435 --> 01:04:59,515 what the other person in the story, 918 01:04:59,520 --> 01:05:02,860 the one who wasn't there, would say if he were. 919 01:05:03,316 --> 01:05:04,646 I'd forgotten that lesson, 920 01:05:04,650 --> 01:05:07,070 which I'd learned on every story I ever did. 921 01:05:07,069 --> 01:05:09,529 It was that there are no real villains in life. 922 01:05:09,530 --> 01:05:11,910 Not really. There are no real heroes, either. 923 01:05:12,783 --> 01:05:15,493 Everyone is great and everyone is terrible 924 01:05:15,494 --> 01:05:19,334 and everyone is flawed and there are no exceptions to that. 925 01:05:19,624 --> 01:05:20,714 Hey. 926 01:05:22,126 --> 01:05:25,456 Just try to sleep. Okay? 927 01:05:26,672 --> 01:05:27,842 I'll sit here with you. 928 01:05:29,216 --> 01:05:31,296 I'm not gonna let anything happen to you. 929 01:05:34,305 --> 01:05:35,765 You know, I always liked you. 930 01:05:37,433 --> 01:05:39,143 I just thought you didn't like me. 931 01:06:16,180 --> 01:06:18,680 Hey. I'm sorry about before. 932 01:06:19,725 --> 01:06:20,845 I hope you're not mad. 933 01:06:20,851 --> 01:06:24,151 It's just that I've been going through a lot lately.