1 00:00:19,853 --> 00:00:21,863 A fair question one could have is, 2 00:00:21,855 --> 00:00:23,725 how did our Toby Fleishman, 3 00:00:23,732 --> 00:00:28,072 devoted friend, healer of the ill, registered feminist ally, 4 00:00:28,069 --> 00:00:30,199 end up in a Staten Island basement 5 00:00:30,196 --> 00:00:33,736 betting odds on a midnight supermodel fight club? 6 00:00:34,993 --> 00:00:35,993 Well, 7 00:00:37,245 --> 00:00:39,075 after his breakdown at the hospital, 8 00:00:39,914 --> 00:00:41,754 he was suddenly all cried out. 9 00:01:00,185 --> 00:01:02,725 And in the vacuum of the silence that remained, 10 00:01:02,729 --> 00:01:04,769 his loneliness became a void. 11 00:01:06,357 --> 00:01:09,437 Except instead of an absence, it was a presence. 12 00:01:32,926 --> 00:01:34,086 I hate this place. 13 00:01:41,142 --> 00:01:44,192 Even doing some of his favorite activities didn't help. 14 00:01:48,024 --> 00:01:49,034 Excuse me, sir. 15 00:01:49,567 --> 00:01:51,487 Hi, yeah. Can I get the chopped salad? 16 00:01:51,486 --> 00:01:53,816 Yeah, I'm so sorry. Would you mind moving to the bar? 17 00:01:53,822 --> 00:01:55,242 I have a party of four waiting. 18 00:01:55,240 --> 00:01:56,660 Yeah, I... 19 00:01:57,117 --> 00:01:58,237 I hate eating at the bar. 20 00:01:58,243 --> 00:02:00,253 But, yeah, of course. Sure. 21 00:02:02,455 --> 00:02:04,165 - Thanks. - Yeah, I can do it. Thank you. 22 00:02:04,165 --> 00:02:05,375 - There you go. - Thanks. 23 00:02:06,459 --> 00:02:08,419 Are you sure I can't... Yeah. Fine. Okay. 24 00:02:10,046 --> 00:02:11,086 Right this way. 25 00:02:18,680 --> 00:02:20,810 He tried going to his favorite place. 26 00:02:26,229 --> 00:02:29,319 There was an exhibit there he'd been looking forward to all summer. 27 00:02:32,193 --> 00:02:35,743 Welcome to The American Museum of Natural History. 28 00:02:35,738 --> 00:02:37,948 Vantablack was a lab-created material 29 00:02:37,949 --> 00:02:40,949 that was said to be the darkest black in existence. 30 00:02:40,952 --> 00:02:42,542 It was created for the military 31 00:02:42,537 --> 00:02:44,787 to help hide satellites and jets from detection, 32 00:02:44,789 --> 00:02:48,459 and it is so dark that you're not even allowed to use it legally. 33 00:02:48,459 --> 00:02:50,459 What was that? That was crazy. 34 00:02:50,461 --> 00:02:52,051 I did not expect that. 35 00:02:53,840 --> 00:02:58,010 It is the closest you can get to a physical manifestation of the void. 36 00:03:15,153 --> 00:03:17,453 How is it still July? 37 00:03:19,407 --> 00:03:21,277 How many more days until the fall? 38 00:03:21,284 --> 00:03:23,794 How many more days until his kids returned? 39 00:03:26,247 --> 00:03:28,327 Finally, it was the work week. 40 00:03:28,625 --> 00:03:32,335 And, finally, finally, he was too busy to feel anything. 41 00:03:34,631 --> 00:03:37,931 But when the day came to an end, as it always eventually did, 42 00:03:37,926 --> 00:03:40,546 he was left to face another endless night. 43 00:03:43,598 --> 00:03:45,518 Hey, guys. Guys. 44 00:03:45,516 --> 00:03:47,016 - Hey. - Hey. 45 00:03:47,393 --> 00:03:48,443 - Hi. - Hi. 46 00:03:48,436 --> 00:03:50,936 You know, you guys have been doing such a great job lately, 47 00:03:50,939 --> 00:03:53,689 I was thinking I'd like to engage in an age-old tradition 48 00:03:53,691 --> 00:03:55,361 and take you out for a drink tonight. 49 00:03:55,360 --> 00:03:56,780 I have a date. 50 00:03:56,778 --> 00:03:58,568 And I'm studying for boards. 51 00:03:58,571 --> 00:04:00,161 And I'm in Clay's study group. 52 00:04:00,615 --> 00:04:04,075 No, that's cool. So I'll be... Maybe like another time, or... 53 00:04:04,077 --> 00:04:05,697 Doesn't matter. Yeah. 54 00:04:10,792 --> 00:04:13,252 Toby's loneliness was now a monster. 55 00:04:15,838 --> 00:04:17,878 So, they get to the glacier, 56 00:04:17,882 --> 00:04:20,842 and the karate master, who's like a Yoda figure 57 00:04:20,843 --> 00:04:24,063 but is also somehow the tango champion of Spain... Hang on. 58 00:04:24,055 --> 00:04:25,425 My man. 59 00:04:25,431 --> 00:04:29,191 Hey. Yeah. No, I was just wondering what you're doing tonight. 60 00:04:29,435 --> 00:04:33,055 Well, my boy Brian just got dumped, so we're taking him out for a drink. 61 00:04:33,064 --> 00:04:34,734 Okay. That's too bad. 62 00:04:35,191 --> 00:04:36,191 Yeah, you should come. 63 00:04:37,068 --> 00:04:38,988 But I don't think I know Brian. 64 00:04:39,195 --> 00:04:40,775 Of course you do. 65 00:04:41,531 --> 00:04:43,241 Do you have a pen? Take this down. 66 00:04:43,241 --> 00:04:46,241 Toby! Toby! Toby! 67 00:04:48,496 --> 00:04:50,366 - Little closer. - Okay. Got it. Got it. Got it. 68 00:04:50,373 --> 00:04:52,293 - Shoulder width. - This good? 69 00:04:53,126 --> 00:04:54,996 Keep your left arm straight. Giddy up! 70 00:04:56,462 --> 00:04:57,632 Hello. 71 00:04:58,047 --> 00:04:59,547 God, this is exhilarating. 72 00:04:59,549 --> 00:05:02,299 I can't believe they have a whole gym for golf, and it's huge. 73 00:05:02,302 --> 00:05:04,392 We probably could have just played real golf. 74 00:05:04,387 --> 00:05:06,257 - It's time. - Ah. Come on. 75 00:05:06,264 --> 00:05:07,354 What? What are we doing? 76 00:05:07,348 --> 00:05:09,598 Annual Britney-Justin dance-off reenactment. 77 00:05:09,600 --> 00:05:11,310 - Wait, what? - Come on. 78 00:05:13,187 --> 00:05:14,687 Come on, Britney. 79 00:05:20,445 --> 00:05:22,735 I don't really understand how you win a dance-off. 80 00:05:22,739 --> 00:05:25,159 Is it who dances better or, like, feistier? 81 00:05:25,158 --> 00:05:26,948 It doesn't matter, Toby. 82 00:05:28,703 --> 00:05:31,043 Thought the Justin-Britney dance-off was an urban legend. 83 00:05:31,039 --> 00:05:32,169 Are you kidding? 84 00:05:32,165 --> 00:05:35,035 This was the defining moment in American pop history. 85 00:05:38,921 --> 00:05:40,011 What time is it? 86 00:05:40,006 --> 00:05:41,336 1:37. 87 00:05:41,341 --> 00:05:42,681 Shit! We're late. 88 00:05:42,675 --> 00:05:44,215 Wait. Late for what? 89 00:05:50,058 --> 00:05:52,058 Come on! Get up, get up! 90 00:05:52,643 --> 00:05:55,363 Shit. Is this totally kosher, like watching two women... 91 00:05:55,355 --> 00:05:56,435 - Toby! - Yes. 92 00:05:56,439 --> 00:05:59,109 - Do you not have enough problems? - I have enough problems. 93 00:05:59,108 --> 00:06:01,358 - Enjoy this. It's one of the solutions. - Okay. 94 00:06:03,946 --> 00:06:05,026 Yes! 95 00:06:06,449 --> 00:06:07,449 Okay. 96 00:06:07,950 --> 00:06:09,910 - We gotta go. - Wait. I don't know if my guy won. 97 00:06:09,911 --> 00:06:11,001 What's happening? 98 00:06:13,206 --> 00:06:15,116 What's wrong with seeing what you're eating? 99 00:06:15,124 --> 00:06:17,464 It's a sensory experience, to feel the food. 100 00:06:17,460 --> 00:06:19,550 To really experience the moment, you know? 101 00:06:19,545 --> 00:06:22,835 I have a shellfish allergy. Do they know that? Who do I tell? 102 00:06:22,840 --> 00:06:25,800 Just enjoy. You've never experienced anything like this. 103 00:06:25,802 --> 00:06:27,642 You've never experienced anaphylaxis. 104 00:06:27,637 --> 00:06:29,597 Try to enjoy it. 105 00:06:29,597 --> 00:06:31,767 I am. I am enjoying it. I'm enjoying it. 106 00:06:33,518 --> 00:06:34,768 - Oh, no. - What? 107 00:06:34,769 --> 00:06:36,229 I gotta pee. 108 00:06:36,354 --> 00:06:40,114 I've not been up this late or this early since medical school. 109 00:06:40,108 --> 00:06:41,648 Wait, so let me get this. 110 00:06:41,651 --> 00:06:44,321 When you say that you're just going out for a drink, 111 00:06:44,320 --> 00:06:45,660 that's what happens? 112 00:06:46,072 --> 00:06:47,662 - Sometimes. - Amazing. 113 00:06:48,658 --> 00:06:50,658 - Oh, hey, one sec. - What? 114 00:06:50,660 --> 00:06:54,080 Hey, man. Can I grab two of those off of you? 115 00:06:54,080 --> 00:06:55,750 - Sure. - Ten cool? 116 00:07:00,086 --> 00:07:01,126 Thanks. 117 00:07:02,255 --> 00:07:03,295 That is so cool. 118 00:07:03,297 --> 00:07:04,627 All right. So what now? 119 00:07:05,341 --> 00:07:06,591 Now we go home. 120 00:07:07,009 --> 00:07:08,889 You wanna end this before the joggers come out 121 00:07:08,886 --> 00:07:10,966 and you start questioning how you live your life. 122 00:07:10,972 --> 00:07:12,682 - Okay. All right. - I'll see you later? 123 00:07:12,682 --> 00:07:13,932 Yeah. Good night. Thank you. 124 00:07:24,735 --> 00:07:26,855 Sorry. I can't actually eat this, but thank you. 125 00:07:26,863 --> 00:07:28,203 You got it. 126 00:07:35,746 --> 00:07:37,326 It was never clear to Toby 127 00:07:37,331 --> 00:07:39,711 how long you were supposed to watch a sunrise for. 128 00:07:40,460 --> 00:07:43,300 And with that thought, the loneliness returned. 129 00:07:47,508 --> 00:07:48,888 The moment was gone. 130 00:07:51,095 --> 00:07:54,425 He couldn't even hold onto it, because you hold onto it by sharing it. 131 00:07:56,100 --> 00:07:59,560 He still had so much love and nowhere to put it. 132 00:08:03,399 --> 00:08:04,569 You up? 133 00:08:12,950 --> 00:08:14,870 So what were you doing out so late? 134 00:08:14,869 --> 00:08:17,959 {\an8}You know, I have this friend Seth, and he... 135 00:08:20,791 --> 00:08:23,421 {\an8}You know, actually, my kids are away and... 136 00:08:24,795 --> 00:08:29,545 {\an8}I've been having a tough time just... lately, actually. 137 00:08:32,053 --> 00:08:33,053 {\an8}Turn over. 138 00:08:33,721 --> 00:08:34,721 {\an8}Just do it. 139 00:08:38,935 --> 00:08:40,095 {\an8}Okay. 140 00:08:50,112 --> 00:08:51,282 Okay. What is that? 141 00:08:52,406 --> 00:08:53,486 Now, 142 00:08:53,491 --> 00:08:55,911 tell me what I'm spelling. 143 00:08:55,910 --> 00:08:58,370 Okay. Um... 144 00:08:58,371 --> 00:09:00,791 I think that's a "T." 145 00:09:01,457 --> 00:09:04,837 {\an8}Later, he wouldn't remember what she spelled out onto his back. 146 00:09:04,835 --> 00:09:07,415 {\an8}That's either an "A" or an "H." Okay. 147 00:09:07,421 --> 00:09:09,671 {\an8}He would only remember thinking how strange it was 148 00:09:09,674 --> 00:09:12,394 {\an8}for someone to be doing something like this for him, 149 00:09:12,385 --> 00:09:16,345 {\an8}something nice, where he was the only recipient of the niceness. 150 00:09:17,181 --> 00:09:18,521 {\an8}That's definitely an "A." 151 00:09:20,101 --> 00:09:23,401 {\an8}He couldn't remember one time where that had ever happened to him. 152 00:09:31,737 --> 00:09:33,657 {\an8}So, I guess we're not going out to eat. 153 00:09:34,740 --> 00:09:35,910 {\an8}I gotta be somewhere. 154 00:09:35,908 --> 00:09:38,908 {\an8}Okay. I kind of just wanna know what I'm getting into here. 155 00:09:39,579 --> 00:09:40,789 {\an8}We're having fun, aren't we? 156 00:09:41,414 --> 00:09:45,004 {\an8}Yeah. It's fun, you know? It's weird. 157 00:09:48,087 --> 00:09:49,087 {\an8}Okay. Listen. 158 00:09:49,088 --> 00:09:50,168 {\an8}Yeah. 159 00:09:53,426 --> 00:09:57,256 My husband is an anchor on a conservative news network. 160 00:09:57,263 --> 00:09:58,723 You would know him. 161 00:09:58,723 --> 00:10:00,353 Is it Tucker Carlson? 162 00:10:00,766 --> 00:10:01,926 It doesn't matter. 163 00:10:02,602 --> 00:10:04,482 You can look it up. I am not allowed to say. 164 00:10:04,478 --> 00:10:07,318 All right. Fine. But were you married to Tucker Carlson because... 165 00:10:07,315 --> 00:10:08,395 Listen. 166 00:10:08,399 --> 00:10:13,319 I was married and we always had this weird relationship. 167 00:10:13,821 --> 00:10:16,371 He was a very religious Christian. I was Jewish. 168 00:10:16,365 --> 00:10:18,405 My parents are conservative. 169 00:10:18,409 --> 00:10:22,039 Lower case-y but also upper case, you know? 170 00:10:22,747 --> 00:10:24,747 And my parents, when they came from Iran, 171 00:10:24,749 --> 00:10:27,249 they had all these ideas of what a girl should be. 172 00:10:27,251 --> 00:10:30,301 She should be shy and never let anyone touch her, never touch herself. 173 00:10:30,296 --> 00:10:31,506 Sure. Yeah. 174 00:10:31,505 --> 00:10:32,755 - You know? - Yeah. 175 00:10:33,090 --> 00:10:35,640 And my husband hated sex. 176 00:10:35,760 --> 00:10:37,510 I was a virgin when I married him. 177 00:10:37,511 --> 00:10:40,351 I was such a good little girl. 178 00:10:40,348 --> 00:10:41,808 And... 179 00:10:41,807 --> 00:10:44,347 So I thought there was something wrong with me, 180 00:10:44,352 --> 00:10:46,442 that I wanted to have sex so much. 181 00:10:48,272 --> 00:10:52,192 Anyway, I came home one day early 182 00:10:52,193 --> 00:10:54,153 from some dumb fundraiser 183 00:10:54,153 --> 00:10:58,453 and I walk in and his assistant is giving him a blowjob. 184 00:10:58,783 --> 00:11:00,623 - Whoa. - His male assistant. 185 00:11:00,618 --> 00:11:02,498 Ah. I see. 186 00:11:02,495 --> 00:11:07,495 So, his job has a morality clause and being gay is immoral. 187 00:11:07,500 --> 00:11:08,580 Yikes. 188 00:11:08,584 --> 00:11:11,054 - This is them, not me, obviously. - Yeah. Right. 189 00:11:11,545 --> 00:11:15,585 And so he pays for my life and all of this, 190 00:11:15,591 --> 00:11:20,351 and I still, on occasion, have to go with him to events and award shows. 191 00:11:21,138 --> 00:11:22,348 I'm not really divorced. 192 00:11:22,890 --> 00:11:23,890 Not technically. 193 00:11:24,684 --> 00:11:26,314 But we're done. 194 00:11:27,812 --> 00:11:29,692 Yeah, but, I mean, is it worth it, 195 00:11:29,689 --> 00:11:32,899 not having your freedom, not being able to start over? 196 00:11:34,068 --> 00:11:35,398 And you're so free? 197 00:11:35,861 --> 00:11:37,201 Yeah. I'm divorced. 198 00:11:37,196 --> 00:11:39,816 I signed the papers. I have the freedom to move on. Yeah. 199 00:11:42,368 --> 00:11:44,578 Being divorced doesn't make you any less married. 200 00:11:48,874 --> 00:11:49,964 I gotta go. 201 00:11:49,959 --> 00:11:51,879 Yeah. Yeah, me too. 202 00:12:33,294 --> 00:12:35,214 Hello. Hi. 203 00:12:38,549 --> 00:12:42,139 Okay. That's good. Stay with me. Stay with me. Very good. 204 00:12:42,136 --> 00:12:44,716 This is what he needed. Someone loyal. 205 00:12:45,306 --> 00:12:48,306 Someone to bring the family together and replace what they had lost. 206 00:12:48,309 --> 00:12:50,479 No, no, no. Come, come, come. 207 00:12:50,478 --> 00:12:51,808 What he'd lost. 208 00:12:53,314 --> 00:12:55,524 No, let's go. Okay. 209 00:12:55,524 --> 00:12:57,234 So I have this book, right? 210 00:12:57,234 --> 00:13:01,244 It's right beyond my fingers, in my head, but... 211 00:13:01,238 --> 00:13:03,868 I never actually do anything about it. 212 00:13:03,866 --> 00:13:05,196 Well, what's it about? 213 00:13:07,620 --> 00:13:09,460 Maybe it'll be about smoking. 214 00:13:09,455 --> 00:13:11,165 - I'd read that. - Yeah. 215 00:13:12,958 --> 00:13:15,798 You know, I read once that people who have affairs, 216 00:13:15,795 --> 00:13:18,375 they're not really trying to betray their partners 217 00:13:18,380 --> 00:13:20,470 and they're not really in love with someone else, 218 00:13:20,466 --> 00:13:22,546 but they're trying to find who they are again. 219 00:13:22,551 --> 00:13:25,601 They're trying to go back to the moment when they were last themselves. 220 00:13:25,930 --> 00:13:27,890 That's what I think about your smoking. 221 00:13:28,432 --> 00:13:29,772 Hmm. 222 00:13:30,518 --> 00:13:32,808 That's actually a very insightful thing to say. 223 00:13:33,187 --> 00:13:34,557 I'm a very insightful guy. 224 00:13:34,563 --> 00:13:35,863 I guess so. 225 00:13:36,899 --> 00:13:37,899 Hello. 226 00:13:37,900 --> 00:13:39,740 - What did you do? - What is this? 227 00:13:39,735 --> 00:13:43,525 Yes, this is Bubbles. Bubbles Fleishman. Bubbles, say hello. 228 00:13:43,531 --> 00:13:45,531 You felt like you finally had an empty house 229 00:13:45,533 --> 00:13:47,793 and a few weeks of freedom and it was just too much. 230 00:13:47,785 --> 00:13:50,695 Yeah. It was. It was overwhelming. Yes, say hi to Seth. 231 00:13:50,704 --> 00:13:53,214 - Hi. - And say hi to Libby, who we love, too. 232 00:13:53,833 --> 00:13:55,253 You're a very nice person. 233 00:13:55,251 --> 00:13:58,171 Yes, you know, the kids have wanted a dog for a long time. 234 00:13:58,170 --> 00:14:01,420 Hannah's wanted a dachshund named Bubbles s since she was three. 235 00:14:01,423 --> 00:14:04,263 I think I can have the dog house-trained by the time they get home. 236 00:14:04,260 --> 00:14:05,760 Such a divorced-dad thing. 237 00:14:05,761 --> 00:14:07,261 I am such a divorced dad. 238 00:14:07,263 --> 00:14:10,523 You realize that that's a lifelong commitment, right? 239 00:14:10,516 --> 00:14:13,056 You have to take care of that or it dies. 240 00:14:14,019 --> 00:14:18,149 Yeah, I know. I hear you. I'm sorry I was shitty to you, okay? 241 00:14:18,566 --> 00:14:19,816 What is going on? 242 00:14:19,817 --> 00:14:22,567 Can I just say, you will never believe what we did last night. 243 00:14:22,570 --> 00:14:26,070 Last night... Another night that I didn't get invited to? Awesome. 244 00:14:26,073 --> 00:14:28,783 It was incredible. We owned the city. We went everywhere. 245 00:14:28,784 --> 00:14:30,454 I think we ate an endangered species. 246 00:14:30,452 --> 00:14:31,872 - Ew. - No, it was amazing. 247 00:14:31,871 --> 00:14:33,911 It was like the world existed just for us. 248 00:14:33,914 --> 00:14:37,214 It's weird. I never, like, understood that life. 249 00:14:37,209 --> 00:14:41,299 But now I think I want every night of my life to do that. It was glorious. 250 00:14:41,297 --> 00:14:42,877 Yeah. What? Right, Seth? 251 00:14:42,882 --> 00:14:44,302 I don't know. 252 00:14:44,300 --> 00:14:46,930 What do you mean? We had a time. Did we not have a time? 253 00:14:46,927 --> 00:14:49,717 Yeah. No. We did. I don't know. I'm just kind of depressed. 254 00:14:49,722 --> 00:14:52,272 You? Really? You're depressed? 255 00:14:52,266 --> 00:14:53,636 I can't be depressed? 256 00:14:53,642 --> 00:14:55,732 Yeah. I don't know. You have this great life. 257 00:14:55,728 --> 00:14:57,398 Okay. What happened? 258 00:14:57,396 --> 00:14:59,606 What happened is I got fired. 259 00:14:59,607 --> 00:15:01,937 What happened is that I wear a suit all day 260 00:15:01,942 --> 00:15:05,652 because I might get a job interview, and I'm 41, and I have no one to cry to. 261 00:15:06,739 --> 00:15:08,569 I don't know. I turned around and realized 262 00:15:08,574 --> 00:15:11,744 the brokers who are 15 years younger than me are the only friends I had. 263 00:15:12,202 --> 00:15:13,202 - What about us? - Yeah. 264 00:15:13,203 --> 00:15:15,163 Yeah, I know. Can I just be depressed? 265 00:15:15,164 --> 00:15:17,424 But we had the night of our lives. Did we not? 266 00:15:17,416 --> 00:15:19,126 I don't know. It was a Monday for me. 267 00:15:19,126 --> 00:15:20,246 Oh, my God. 268 00:15:21,629 --> 00:15:22,669 What the hell is that? 269 00:15:23,589 --> 00:15:25,799 It's just incense, Dad. Don't worry about it. 270 00:15:26,634 --> 00:15:28,644 My job was supposed to be fail-safe. 271 00:15:28,636 --> 00:15:30,176 Nothing is fail-safe. 272 00:15:30,179 --> 00:15:32,599 Yeah, but I didn't do anything. 273 00:15:32,598 --> 00:15:34,768 If you didn't do anything, then you should sue. 274 00:15:36,310 --> 00:15:38,690 - I don't wanna talk about it. - Did you tell Vanessa yet? 275 00:15:38,687 --> 00:15:42,067 How can I tell Vanessa? It's too late. I have to break up with her. 276 00:15:42,066 --> 00:15:43,436 Are you crazy? 277 00:15:43,442 --> 00:15:47,702 Well, I would have to admit I lied. I would have to apologize. 278 00:15:47,696 --> 00:15:49,986 Love means never having to say you're sorry. 279 00:15:49,990 --> 00:15:51,240 Actually, in my experience, 280 00:15:51,241 --> 00:15:53,291 divorce means never having to say sorry. 281 00:15:53,285 --> 00:15:54,535 - Oh. - Yes, he's right. 282 00:15:54,536 --> 00:15:55,956 Every relationship I've ever had 283 00:15:55,955 --> 00:15:58,745 is a girl asking me to apologize all the time. 284 00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:02,668 Kind of a strange way of maybe looking at your ongoing issues with women, 285 00:16:02,670 --> 00:16:03,880 but sure. 286 00:16:03,879 --> 00:16:06,049 I don't wanna talk about it, like I said. 287 00:16:08,509 --> 00:16:12,299 Shit. I have to go. My flight leaves in four hours. 288 00:16:12,304 --> 00:16:14,774 - You are gonna have a great time. - Where you going? 289 00:16:14,765 --> 00:16:16,805 I love it there. 290 00:16:16,809 --> 00:16:19,189 Mmm-hmm. Bye, guys. 291 00:16:19,186 --> 00:16:21,936 The multinational mass media and entertainment conglomerate 292 00:16:21,939 --> 00:16:24,609 that features several amusement parks as its profit center 293 00:16:24,608 --> 00:16:26,938 would rather I didn't mention it by name. 294 00:16:26,944 --> 00:16:28,654 Come on. In the car. 295 00:16:31,699 --> 00:16:32,829 Thank you. 296 00:16:32,825 --> 00:16:33,905 I'm sorry. 297 00:16:34,118 --> 00:16:35,238 Thank you. I'm sorry. 298 00:16:35,244 --> 00:16:37,714 - I just gotta get a few things. - It's finished. I did it. 299 00:16:37,705 --> 00:16:39,205 - You're late. Let's go. - I know. 300 00:16:39,206 --> 00:16:41,126 I'm gonna run upstairs and do deodorant. 301 00:16:41,125 --> 00:16:43,875 - I had this timed to the minute, Lib. - I'll be right back. 302 00:16:45,379 --> 00:16:47,669 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 303 00:16:47,673 --> 00:16:50,933 It's okay. At least you got the restaurant reservations. 304 00:16:51,260 --> 00:16:52,510 Right. 305 00:16:56,432 --> 00:16:57,732 Newark Airport, right? 306 00:17:00,561 --> 00:17:03,691 The multinational mass media and entertainment conglomerate 307 00:17:03,689 --> 00:17:06,939 that features several amusement parks as its profit center 308 00:17:06,942 --> 00:17:09,952 would rather I not depict scenes from this vacation. 309 00:17:10,404 --> 00:17:13,244 So instead of telling you about my trip to there, 310 00:17:13,240 --> 00:17:17,540 I'll use this time to tell you about my trip to here, 311 00:17:17,536 --> 00:17:20,906 meaning how I got here to this place in my life. 312 00:17:21,790 --> 00:17:25,130 I worked at a men's magazine, the only place I ever wanted to work. 313 00:17:25,127 --> 00:17:26,337 ...story in between. 314 00:17:26,336 --> 00:17:28,336 Genius. Masterful. Killed it. 315 00:17:28,338 --> 00:17:29,798 I loved it there. 316 00:17:29,798 --> 00:17:33,218 I was an editorial assistant, then a news assistant. 317 00:17:33,844 --> 00:17:35,934 Hey, you're taking notes, right? 318 00:17:35,929 --> 00:17:37,059 Yeah. 319 00:17:38,098 --> 00:17:41,388 All I wanted was to be a writer with my stories up there. 320 00:17:42,394 --> 00:17:44,194 To write those stories seemed to me 321 00:17:44,188 --> 00:17:47,478 the closest approximation to actually living. 322 00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:49,320 Or more specifically, 323 00:17:49,318 --> 00:17:51,398 what I wanted was to be Archer Sylvan, 324 00:17:51,403 --> 00:17:55,123 our most marquee writer who wrote bombastic, wild stories 325 00:17:55,115 --> 00:17:58,285 that stopped the world for a week after they were published. 326 00:17:58,285 --> 00:18:00,905 Archer spanned the globe, digging up unbelievable characters 327 00:18:00,913 --> 00:18:03,003 and telling a story that felt like you were being 328 00:18:02,998 --> 00:18:06,088 gripped by the lapels and shouted at. 329 00:18:06,919 --> 00:18:10,879 Of course, "The Heart is a Lonely Dinner" was his most famous story. 330 00:18:10,881 --> 00:18:14,051 It won the National Magazine Award the year it was published, 331 00:18:14,051 --> 00:18:16,301 and was a Pulitzer finalist. 332 00:18:19,598 --> 00:18:21,928 My favorite of his books, Decoupling, 333 00:18:21,934 --> 00:18:24,484 {\an8}was a National Book Award-winning scandal. 334 00:18:25,104 --> 00:18:28,274 {\an8}A gonzo account of a year in the life of a divorced man in 1979. 335 00:18:28,273 --> 00:18:30,613 Like that one. Okay. Good. 336 00:18:30,609 --> 00:18:34,609 As the years went on, though, Archer, who had once been everyone's delight, 337 00:18:34,613 --> 00:18:37,413 became the subject of ever more controversy. 338 00:18:37,407 --> 00:18:40,867 What would you say to people who thought that only showing one side 339 00:18:40,869 --> 00:18:43,499 of the divorce gave women short shrift? 340 00:18:43,497 --> 00:18:45,287 I mean, come on, Jake. 341 00:18:45,290 --> 00:18:47,880 Have you ever asked a woman what her divorce was like? 342 00:18:48,377 --> 00:18:49,377 How do you mean? 343 00:18:51,713 --> 00:18:52,843 I don't get the joke. 344 00:18:53,465 --> 00:18:57,425 All right. Well, I'm saying it's the same old thing, the same story. 345 00:18:57,427 --> 00:19:01,097 "He did me wrong. He cheated on me. He doesn't respect me." 346 00:19:01,098 --> 00:19:02,598 I'm tired of that story. 347 00:19:02,599 --> 00:19:05,599 I wanted to write the story of a person's soul. 348 00:19:05,602 --> 00:19:08,022 So a woman doesn't have a soul? 349 00:19:08,147 --> 00:19:09,567 I didn't say that. 350 00:19:09,565 --> 00:19:14,065 I'm saying that you can't get to the truth of a thing if you ask her. 351 00:19:14,069 --> 00:19:17,609 So women don't tell the truth? This is what critics take issue with 352 00:19:17,614 --> 00:19:18,744 about you, Archer. 353 00:19:18,740 --> 00:19:21,870 You wrote about a man's divorce, taking his word for everything. 354 00:19:21,869 --> 00:19:25,459 You never interviewed the woman to verify anything. 355 00:19:25,455 --> 00:19:26,825 It's not the same thing. 356 00:19:27,332 --> 00:19:30,592 Well, they're reissuing the book, Jake. That's gotta count for something. 357 00:19:33,380 --> 00:19:36,630 Some of the lines that were now considered unspeakable 358 00:19:36,633 --> 00:19:38,893 were edited out of later editions, 359 00:19:38,886 --> 00:19:41,756 but they didn't fix its iconic last line. 360 00:19:42,139 --> 00:19:44,639 "The bitch will try to get you every time." 361 00:19:45,767 --> 00:19:46,977 But I didn't care. 362 00:19:47,352 --> 00:19:51,572 I forgave anything that was as exciting and angry and urgent as this. 363 00:19:53,317 --> 00:19:54,737 - Hey, Archer. - Hey. 364 00:19:55,068 --> 00:19:57,318 I work... I work at the magazine. 365 00:19:57,863 --> 00:19:59,113 I've never seen you there. 366 00:19:59,823 --> 00:20:02,873 Oh, well, I'm such a huge fan of yours. 367 00:20:02,868 --> 00:20:06,078 I had to just come and hear... See you speak. 368 00:20:06,663 --> 00:20:10,793 That piece that you wrote about the fountain of youth in the Andes, 369 00:20:10,792 --> 00:20:15,712 that story completely changed my life when I read it. It was... 370 00:20:15,714 --> 00:20:16,844 What's your name? 371 00:20:17,299 --> 00:20:18,429 Libby Slater. 372 00:20:21,053 --> 00:20:22,303 - Here you go. - Thank you. 373 00:20:22,304 --> 00:20:23,474 Hey. 374 00:20:26,892 --> 00:20:28,232 {\an8}This way. 375 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:37,820 Almost 15 years later, I was still jogging in place at the magazine. 376 00:20:39,446 --> 00:20:41,866 And the magazine was still celebrating Archer. 377 00:20:44,034 --> 00:20:47,754 It was always the next story for me that was going to be the big one. 378 00:20:48,330 --> 00:20:50,580 I was always just about to break out. 379 00:20:55,671 --> 00:20:57,051 And I kept telling him, 380 00:20:57,047 --> 00:20:59,047 I didn't mean to run with the bulls. 381 00:20:59,049 --> 00:21:01,589 I was doing a story on these bank robbers 382 00:21:01,593 --> 00:21:04,143 when they started getting chased by the cops. 383 00:21:04,137 --> 00:21:06,427 That's when I saw the most beautiful woman 384 00:21:06,431 --> 00:21:07,721 I've ever seen before. 385 00:21:07,724 --> 00:21:11,404 Don't ask me how old she was. She lived outside the realm of time. 386 00:21:13,272 --> 00:21:15,362 {\an8} Read it! Read it! 387 00:21:15,357 --> 00:21:18,107 - Okay! All right! - Read it! Read it! 388 00:21:18,110 --> 00:21:20,400 If you insist. I'm gonna read one page. 389 00:21:22,364 --> 00:21:25,164 You should be thinking of that for you because she's a child star 390 00:21:25,158 --> 00:21:27,238 but she's not really a girl, right? 391 00:21:27,244 --> 00:21:28,664 I don't know, Glenn. 392 00:21:28,662 --> 00:21:32,122 Why can't I do something more like what Archer does? 393 00:21:33,292 --> 00:21:35,502 - Archer is Archer. You know that. - I... 394 00:21:35,502 --> 00:21:38,262 Everyone wants to be Archer. He's the house style. 395 00:21:38,255 --> 00:21:39,795 Let's get you something good. 396 00:21:41,883 --> 00:21:44,013 NFL cheerleader coaches. 397 00:21:45,220 --> 00:21:47,100 NFL cheerleader coaches? 398 00:21:47,389 --> 00:21:48,519 Tony Bennett? 399 00:21:48,515 --> 00:21:51,555 - Tony Bennett? - He's turning 85. Might be surprising. 400 00:21:51,560 --> 00:21:54,730 Like what, "he might die during the interview" surprising? 401 00:21:54,730 --> 00:21:57,860 It's the legend, Lib. You killed that Instagram story. 402 00:21:57,858 --> 00:21:58,938 Thank you. 403 00:21:58,942 --> 00:22:01,032 - Killed it. Murdered it. - Destroyed. I'm in awe. 404 00:22:01,028 --> 00:22:03,528 Steiner was just sent to Cuba on a Castro story. 405 00:22:04,114 --> 00:22:05,124 You're kidding. 406 00:22:07,117 --> 00:22:08,197 Steiner. 407 00:22:08,201 --> 00:22:10,621 That guy has been here for six months. 408 00:22:10,620 --> 00:22:11,960 He came over from GQ. 409 00:22:11,955 --> 00:22:14,825 He was there for two years. He's got a voice. 410 00:22:14,833 --> 00:22:16,463 I have a voice. 411 00:22:17,169 --> 00:22:18,419 You know what I mean, Libby. 412 00:22:18,420 --> 00:22:22,880 So you have a dinosaur whose work has aged like milk 413 00:22:22,883 --> 00:22:26,643 and you're grooming a baby dinosaur? 414 00:22:28,305 --> 00:22:30,015 Let's get you on a new story. 415 00:22:45,572 --> 00:22:47,822 I had first read Decoupling in college. 416 00:22:47,824 --> 00:22:49,954 In fact, I'd given it to Toby in Israel 417 00:22:49,951 --> 00:22:52,411 and he'd become an Archer Sylvan obsessive, too. 418 00:22:53,789 --> 00:22:56,539 That night, I re-read Archer's collection. 419 00:22:57,834 --> 00:23:01,054 I'd been at the magazine for 15 years by then. 420 00:23:04,091 --> 00:23:07,011 It had taken me to right exactly that party 421 00:23:07,010 --> 00:23:09,850 to realize that I was no longer moving forward. 422 00:23:10,430 --> 00:23:12,100 I was completely stalled. 423 00:23:18,021 --> 00:23:19,061 What's going on? 424 00:23:22,484 --> 00:23:23,534 I don't know. 425 00:23:27,197 --> 00:23:29,277 I'm lost. I don't know what I'm doing. 426 00:23:30,200 --> 00:23:32,160 Why? What happened? 427 00:23:33,703 --> 00:23:34,833 I was just... 428 00:23:35,914 --> 00:23:38,464 I was rereading "The Heart is a Lonely Dinner". 429 00:23:40,502 --> 00:23:43,712 I just... I don't know, I always thought, like, I... 430 00:23:44,548 --> 00:23:47,048 If I write good stories, if I prove myself, 431 00:23:49,052 --> 00:23:52,062 then one day they're gonna send me to the top of the mountain 432 00:23:52,055 --> 00:23:54,215 to eat the still-beating heart of the ox. 433 00:23:55,058 --> 00:23:57,188 Then I'll know the secret to life. 434 00:23:57,185 --> 00:23:59,015 You'll get there. You will. 435 00:23:59,020 --> 00:24:01,400 I won't. I won't. I won't. I'm not even close. 436 00:24:04,776 --> 00:24:08,106 God, I can't believe I'm saying this, but... 437 00:24:10,824 --> 00:24:12,204 I think I have to leave. 438 00:24:13,618 --> 00:24:15,618 Listen, come here. Come here. 439 00:24:17,038 --> 00:24:18,208 Listen. 440 00:24:19,666 --> 00:24:23,706 Those guys who embody the ethic of the magazine, they're blowhards. 441 00:24:24,629 --> 00:24:26,799 They come to you when they want a good story 442 00:24:26,798 --> 00:24:28,878 without the pages soaked in blood. 443 00:24:28,884 --> 00:24:31,304 They come to me when they want a story 444 00:24:32,095 --> 00:24:34,055 that's filed on time. 445 00:24:35,348 --> 00:24:38,228 They do. I wanna soak my pages in blood. 446 00:24:39,227 --> 00:24:43,977 I want people to read my stories and cry and rend their garments. 447 00:24:43,982 --> 00:24:47,442 - They will. - They don't. They don't. They don't. 448 00:24:49,488 --> 00:24:53,198 God, I just feel so stupid. 449 00:24:53,825 --> 00:24:55,655 I was never in the game. 450 00:24:56,369 --> 00:24:59,119 You could be a great writer at a men's magazine, 451 00:24:59,122 --> 00:25:02,582 but no matter how hard you work, if you're a woman, you can't be a man. 452 00:25:02,584 --> 00:25:05,094 I don't even feel like anybody reads anything I write 453 00:25:05,086 --> 00:25:06,546 unless it's about a man. 454 00:25:13,678 --> 00:25:14,758 I'll write a novel. 455 00:25:20,894 --> 00:25:23,364 But now it's two years later. 456 00:25:25,774 --> 00:25:29,534 I haven't once even opened a blank page and made an attempt. 457 00:25:30,445 --> 00:25:32,905 And here's the secret of my vacation. 458 00:25:32,906 --> 00:25:36,946 While we were on the rides, standing in lines and taking pictures, 459 00:25:36,952 --> 00:25:38,792 I wasn't really with my family. 460 00:25:41,456 --> 00:25:42,866 I wasn't in Florida. 461 00:25:45,627 --> 00:25:47,207 I wasn't on an airplane. 462 00:25:47,212 --> 00:25:49,762 I wasn't at a themed restaurant, begging a hostess 463 00:25:49,756 --> 00:25:53,716 for a reservation everyone in the world knew to make weeks before, but not me. 464 00:25:58,890 --> 00:26:01,100 I wasn't even at home, unloading the car. 465 00:26:03,770 --> 00:26:05,610 I don't know what to do with you. 466 00:26:17,200 --> 00:26:18,540 I was with Toby. 467 00:26:30,297 --> 00:26:31,297 Come here. 468 00:26:31,590 --> 00:26:33,800 Okay. There we go. Okay. 469 00:26:35,885 --> 00:26:37,255 Okay, come on. 470 00:26:39,764 --> 00:26:41,314 Okay. It's okay. 471 00:26:41,308 --> 00:26:45,398 Go pee. Go pee. Okay, there you go. 472 00:26:45,395 --> 00:26:48,105 Go pee. Come on. Okay. 473 00:26:48,106 --> 00:26:49,266 She's so cute. 474 00:26:49,274 --> 00:26:50,444 Hey, thank you so much. 475 00:26:50,442 --> 00:26:51,532 What's her name? 476 00:26:51,526 --> 00:26:52,936 It's actually a boy. 477 00:26:52,944 --> 00:26:56,414 People do think it's a girl but it's actually a boy. Bubbles. 478 00:26:56,406 --> 00:26:58,486 Maybe that's why they think it's a girl. 479 00:26:58,491 --> 00:27:00,041 Yeah. Maybe. 480 00:27:00,035 --> 00:27:01,445 Shit, sorry. 481 00:27:02,078 --> 00:27:03,618 Shit. It's my kids' camp. 482 00:27:03,622 --> 00:27:05,002 Hello, Dr. Fleishman. 483 00:27:04,998 --> 00:27:07,208 Are the... Yeah. Are the kids okay? 484 00:27:07,208 --> 00:27:09,418 Wait. No. Sorry. You have to tell me. 485 00:27:10,045 --> 00:27:11,705 Now? I'm sorry. I have a job. 486 00:27:11,713 --> 00:27:13,923 Can you please at least tell me the nature... 487 00:27:14,507 --> 00:27:17,427 Yeah, I don't even have a car. How am I supposed to... Yeah, fine. 488 00:27:17,427 --> 00:27:19,677 That's fine. I'll be in as soon as possible. 489 00:27:21,014 --> 00:27:23,144 - You need to clean up that dog shit. - What? 490 00:27:27,604 --> 00:27:28,864 Shit. Uh... 491 00:27:39,491 --> 00:27:40,621 - Hi. - Hey. 492 00:27:40,617 --> 00:27:41,907 Thank you for coming, truly. 493 00:27:41,910 --> 00:27:43,620 I was taking the day off anyway. 494 00:27:43,620 --> 00:27:44,790 - Yeah? - Everything okay? 495 00:27:44,788 --> 00:27:47,498 I don't know. That douchebag camp director told me nothing. 496 00:27:47,499 --> 00:27:49,749 - It's Bubbles! - I'm sure everything's fine. 497 00:27:49,751 --> 00:27:51,251 How could anything be fine? 498 00:27:51,252 --> 00:27:53,802 Remember the times a parent had to pick up a kid from camp? 499 00:27:53,797 --> 00:27:56,967 Michael Goldstein when he urinated on Scott Messenger? 500 00:27:56,966 --> 00:27:58,086 Yeah. Exactly. 501 00:27:58,093 --> 00:28:00,183 Don't worry. Children are resilient. 502 00:28:01,262 --> 00:28:02,312 Hello. 503 00:28:02,847 --> 00:28:04,597 He wondered why people say that. 504 00:28:04,599 --> 00:28:08,019 Children are actually not resilient. They're children. 505 00:28:08,019 --> 00:28:10,059 Just because they don't jump off a bridge 506 00:28:10,063 --> 00:28:11,943 doesn't mean they're resilient. 507 00:28:35,004 --> 00:28:36,344 Mr. Fleishman, 508 00:28:36,339 --> 00:28:38,969 everything's fine. Hannah's fine. 509 00:28:39,634 --> 00:28:44,604 But she did take an unfortunate picture with her phone 510 00:28:44,597 --> 00:28:47,057 and she shared it with a young man. 511 00:28:48,101 --> 00:28:49,851 What? What kind of picture? 512 00:28:49,853 --> 00:28:52,273 It was a very suggestive picture. 513 00:28:53,148 --> 00:28:56,108 The boy shared it with his friends. 514 00:28:56,609 --> 00:28:58,149 He shared it with his friends? 515 00:29:00,363 --> 00:29:01,993 And what does "suggestive" mean? 516 00:29:02,824 --> 00:29:05,744 Well, it wasn't appropriate. 517 00:29:05,744 --> 00:29:08,544 I'll let you discuss it with Hannah. 518 00:29:08,538 --> 00:29:10,248 But suffice it to say, 519 00:29:10,248 --> 00:29:12,038 it violated our camper code of conduct. 520 00:29:12,041 --> 00:29:14,751 Yeah, I'm not really interested in the camper code of conduct. 521 00:29:14,753 --> 00:29:16,383 - Is she okay? - Oh, yeah. 522 00:29:16,379 --> 00:29:18,339 Yeah, I said that she's fine. 523 00:29:18,339 --> 00:29:20,009 Where is she? I wanna see my daughter. 524 00:29:20,008 --> 00:29:22,548 - She's packing up her things. - And what's happening to him? 525 00:29:23,094 --> 00:29:24,104 - To... - To the kid. 526 00:29:24,721 --> 00:29:26,931 - Well, Mr. Fleishman... - Actually, it's Dr. Fleishman. 527 00:29:26,931 --> 00:29:28,311 Okay, well... 528 00:29:28,808 --> 00:29:31,058 He's not the one that took the photo, so... 529 00:29:31,060 --> 00:29:32,900 Right. So nothing's happening to him? 530 00:29:32,896 --> 00:29:35,516 He didn't violate any of your policies or any of your rules? 531 00:29:35,523 --> 00:29:37,033 - Well, right now... - Yeah? 532 00:29:37,025 --> 00:29:39,815 ...his parents are in Switzerland, so we talked to them. 533 00:29:39,819 --> 00:29:42,109 How nice. How nice for them. Okay. Where is she? 534 00:29:52,457 --> 00:29:53,537 Hannah Bear. 535 00:29:53,958 --> 00:29:56,708 Come here. Come here. 536 00:29:58,213 --> 00:29:59,383 Oh, honey. 537 00:30:01,049 --> 00:30:04,469 I know there is so little I can say to make this better, but... 538 00:30:05,428 --> 00:30:07,098 Here, listen to me. Listen to me. 539 00:30:07,305 --> 00:30:10,475 Honey, it won't always feel this bad, okay? 540 00:30:10,475 --> 00:30:11,935 I just wanna go. 541 00:30:11,935 --> 00:30:14,145 Yeah. No, I understand. We'll go. 542 00:30:14,145 --> 00:30:15,725 Hey, where is Solly? 543 00:30:15,730 --> 00:30:17,230 He's in Chipmunks. 544 00:30:19,275 --> 00:30:20,735 I was having a great time. 545 00:30:20,735 --> 00:30:23,065 I know, but your sister had some problems 546 00:30:23,071 --> 00:30:25,661 and I can't leave you here with the way they handled it. 547 00:30:25,657 --> 00:30:28,237 Wait. I forgot. I have to get something from the art room. 548 00:30:28,243 --> 00:30:29,373 Yeah. Go ahead. 549 00:30:29,369 --> 00:30:31,829 Then what time do we go to the art class? 550 00:30:32,914 --> 00:30:34,464 Yeah. Okay. 551 00:30:34,457 --> 00:30:36,497 Yeah. It was pretty good. 552 00:30:39,754 --> 00:30:40,844 Go to the car, Hannah. 553 00:30:40,839 --> 00:30:43,049 Actually, give me your phone and then go to the car. 554 00:30:52,225 --> 00:30:53,225 One minute. 555 00:30:55,019 --> 00:30:56,099 Mr. Fleishman. 556 00:30:57,480 --> 00:30:58,520 Mr. Fleishman. 557 00:30:58,523 --> 00:30:59,613 Hey. 558 00:30:59,983 --> 00:31:02,403 One day, you'll understand what a piece of shit you are, 559 00:31:03,069 --> 00:31:05,819 and I hope I'm there to see you when you realize you're worthless. 560 00:31:05,822 --> 00:31:08,162 - Mr. Fleishman. - It's Dr. Fleishman, you dipshit. 561 00:31:46,779 --> 00:31:47,819 All right. 562 00:31:59,959 --> 00:32:02,209 Are you going to your or Mom's house? 563 00:32:02,378 --> 00:32:03,378 Um... 564 00:32:05,131 --> 00:32:07,681 Hey, guys, could I talk to you for a second? 565 00:32:07,675 --> 00:32:09,885 - Can we go sit down, actually? - What is it? 566 00:32:10,053 --> 00:32:11,393 Um... 567 00:32:11,387 --> 00:32:14,807 Well, it's your mother. I mean, she's fine. At least... 568 00:32:15,350 --> 00:32:17,730 I think she's fine. But... No, it's fine. 569 00:32:17,727 --> 00:32:18,937 Here, come here. 570 00:32:18,937 --> 00:32:20,057 But, um... 571 00:32:21,230 --> 00:32:24,150 Well, she's having some issues, okay? And she's... 572 00:32:24,734 --> 00:32:26,904 taking some time right now. Here, sit down. 573 00:32:27,779 --> 00:32:29,109 What does that mean? 574 00:32:29,656 --> 00:32:32,946 It means you'll be with me full-time for the foreseeable future. 575 00:32:34,202 --> 00:32:36,872 Wh... What does that mean? 576 00:32:36,871 --> 00:32:37,961 Um... 577 00:32:38,831 --> 00:32:39,831 Your mother has... 578 00:32:40,833 --> 00:32:43,963 decided to, like, not be in our life so much. 579 00:32:45,254 --> 00:32:47,514 She's not on a business trip. She... 580 00:32:49,258 --> 00:32:51,048 She dropped you off that day 581 00:32:51,052 --> 00:32:53,602 and she doesn't appear to be coming back to pick you up. 582 00:32:54,889 --> 00:32:57,099 No. No, she wouldn't do that. 583 00:32:57,392 --> 00:32:58,982 No, I know it seems impossible. 584 00:32:58,977 --> 00:33:02,767 I mean, it seems that way to me too, but I just, like... 585 00:33:04,440 --> 00:33:06,400 I don't know how to protect you from this. 586 00:33:06,401 --> 00:33:07,571 I tried. I sent you to camp. 587 00:33:07,568 --> 00:33:09,318 I thought it'd resolve but... 588 00:33:10,446 --> 00:33:12,366 I can't keep lying to you, okay? 589 00:33:16,119 --> 00:33:18,249 The children reacted the same way they did 590 00:33:18,246 --> 00:33:20,326 when they told them about the divorce, 591 00:33:20,331 --> 00:33:22,831 with questions about survival. 592 00:33:24,127 --> 00:33:25,957 He tried to answer honestly. 593 00:33:26,671 --> 00:33:30,341 "Yes, you will probably see her again. Yes, they'll manage. 594 00:33:31,175 --> 00:33:34,135 "Yes, he's sorry. He's so sorry." 595 00:33:58,911 --> 00:34:03,421 Like a small boat in the ocean 596 00:34:03,416 --> 00:34:07,586 Sending big waves into motion 597 00:34:07,587 --> 00:34:09,837 Like how a single word 598 00:34:10,381 --> 00:34:12,631 Can make a heart open 599 00:34:13,301 --> 00:34:15,931 I might only have one match 600 00:34:15,928 --> 00:34:19,388 But I can make an explosion 601 00:34:19,390 --> 00:34:21,930 And all those things I didn't say 602 00:34:21,934 --> 00:34:25,194 Wrecking balls inside my brain 603 00:34:25,188 --> 00:34:27,938 I will scream them loud tonight 604 00:34:27,940 --> 00:34:30,650 Can you hear my voice this time? 605 00:34:30,651 --> 00:34:33,361 This is my fight song 606 00:34:33,362 --> 00:34:36,412 Take back my life song 607 00:34:36,407 --> 00:34:41,447 Prove I'm all right song 608 00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:44,790 My power's turned on 609 00:34:44,791 --> 00:34:48,041 Starting right now I'll be strong 610 00:34:48,044 --> 00:34:52,264 I'll play my fight song 611 00:34:52,256 --> 00:34:53,796 And I don't really care 612 00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:57,890 If nobody else believes 613 00:34:57,887 --> 00:34:59,307 'Cause I've still got 614 00:34:59,305 --> 00:35:03,765 A lot of fight left in me 615 00:35:05,645 --> 00:35:06,845 'Cause I've still got 616 00:35:06,854 --> 00:35:09,614 A lot of fight left in me 617 00:35:16,447 --> 00:35:17,987 Wait. You didn't. 618 00:35:17,990 --> 00:35:19,620 No way! 619 00:35:21,119 --> 00:35:22,409 - Hi! - Hi! 620 00:35:22,411 --> 00:35:24,461 Hi. Oh, my goodness. Hi. 621 00:35:25,915 --> 00:35:28,205 You named him Bubbles, didn't you? 622 00:35:28,417 --> 00:35:32,547 Hi, Bubbles. 623 00:35:32,547 --> 00:35:34,007 Who's a good girl? 624 00:35:34,006 --> 00:35:36,296 Yeah, yeah, yeah. Hello. 625 00:35:39,428 --> 00:35:42,638 People always say to use the pasta water but I'm never sure what that means. 626 00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:44,270 Like when do you put it in? 627 00:35:44,267 --> 00:35:45,887 I just put the sauce on. 628 00:35:45,893 --> 00:35:48,103 It smells really good. My dad never makes pasta. 629 00:35:48,104 --> 00:35:49,234 You doing okay? 630 00:35:49,230 --> 00:35:50,310 Better. 631 00:35:50,898 --> 00:35:51,898 Okay. 632 00:35:52,191 --> 00:35:53,281 Dinner! 633 00:35:53,276 --> 00:35:54,396 Great. 634 00:35:54,402 --> 00:35:56,282 May a pox break out at the summer camp 635 00:35:56,279 --> 00:35:59,489 that is only ever outdone by a concurrent plague of termites 636 00:35:59,490 --> 00:36:01,160 and venereal disease. 637 00:36:01,159 --> 00:36:03,289 - Termites and venereal disease? - Yes. 638 00:36:04,245 --> 00:36:06,245 - Can you pass the spaghetti? - All right. 639 00:36:06,247 --> 00:36:08,617 This looks really great. Thank you, Vanessa. 640 00:36:08,624 --> 00:36:10,794 You know, I knew your dad when he was your age. 641 00:36:10,793 --> 00:36:13,133 He was very short and he was really fat. 642 00:36:13,129 --> 00:36:15,129 - I know. - That's not nice. 643 00:36:15,131 --> 00:36:17,091 You know, but you were still my friend though. 644 00:36:17,091 --> 00:36:19,301 - We have salad too. - Great. Thank you. 645 00:36:19,302 --> 00:36:21,802 - Diet lettuce. - Yeah? And there's no dressing? 646 00:36:21,804 --> 00:36:23,434 - No dressing, no. - Okay. Thank you. 647 00:36:23,431 --> 00:36:25,221 Did you guys really meet at camp? 648 00:36:25,224 --> 00:36:28,354 Sure did. Your dad was very into astronomy. 649 00:36:28,895 --> 00:36:30,435 It's delicious. 650 00:36:30,438 --> 00:36:33,188 Get some pasta. Eat up. 651 00:36:33,191 --> 00:36:36,611 It looks beautiful. Could I trouble you? No, I'll do it. 652 00:36:36,611 --> 00:36:38,571 Let's see. Sure. Yes, please. 653 00:36:38,571 --> 00:36:40,741 It's really good. Thank you. 654 00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:43,950 - Really? - You sure you don't want some? 655 00:36:43,951 --> 00:36:45,581 I am positive. 656 00:36:45,578 --> 00:36:46,948 Okay. 657 00:36:46,954 --> 00:36:48,214 Maggots. 658 00:36:48,956 --> 00:36:50,366 Come on. 659 00:36:50,374 --> 00:36:52,634 Don't bring up maggots when we're eating. 660 00:36:52,627 --> 00:36:54,297 This is very good. 661 00:36:54,295 --> 00:36:56,255 Really? Yeah... 662 00:36:56,255 --> 00:36:58,165 And then they were gone, 663 00:36:58,174 --> 00:37:02,264 and he could no longer pretend that what happened didn't happen. 664 00:37:24,283 --> 00:37:27,413 How could Hannah be these two people, Toby wondered. 665 00:37:27,411 --> 00:37:30,121 She was a person who just a few hours ago 666 00:37:30,122 --> 00:37:31,872 had a global humiliation, 667 00:37:31,874 --> 00:37:34,634 then learned that her mother had abandoned her, 668 00:37:34,627 --> 00:37:38,967 and then in a minute was on her knees unmoored by her new puppy. 669 00:37:40,466 --> 00:37:43,676 For a few years, Hannah would straddle being both people, 670 00:37:43,678 --> 00:37:45,178 and that was just the worst. 671 00:37:45,179 --> 00:37:49,559 Both for her to endure innocence and maturity in the same body, 672 00:37:49,558 --> 00:37:53,058 and for him to watch her innocence vanish in drips until it was gone. 673 00:37:53,062 --> 00:37:54,362 Hannah Bear. 674 00:37:54,355 --> 00:37:56,975 I have to run out for an errand for a minute. 675 00:37:57,942 --> 00:38:00,442 Will you be okay if I leave here real quick? 676 00:38:00,653 --> 00:38:02,573 Mmm. 677 00:38:03,155 --> 00:38:04,905 Okay. Call me if you need me, okay? 678 00:38:08,577 --> 00:38:10,577 Growing up was disgusting. 679 00:38:31,183 --> 00:38:32,813 Long time no see, Dr. Fleishman. 680 00:38:32,810 --> 00:38:33,940 Is she up there? 681 00:38:33,936 --> 00:38:35,896 She just got home. Should I tell her you're coming? 682 00:38:35,896 --> 00:38:38,476 No, no, no. She's expecting me. 683 00:39:01,797 --> 00:39:04,627 There was no confrontation that would make this better. 684 00:39:05,801 --> 00:39:09,011 The decision was made. It was over. 685 00:39:18,147 --> 00:39:19,147 That weekend, 686 00:39:19,148 --> 00:39:21,938 Toby, Hannah, and Solly embarked on their new life 687 00:39:21,942 --> 00:39:23,742 as a family of three 688 00:39:23,736 --> 00:39:27,276 that was no longer waiting for their former fourth to show up. 689 00:39:27,740 --> 00:39:29,910 Do you think it'll ever not be hot? 690 00:39:29,909 --> 00:39:32,289 Like I said, you won't always feel this way. 691 00:39:32,286 --> 00:39:34,116 Nothing lasts forever. 692 00:39:35,289 --> 00:39:37,579 But it wasn't all he was thinking about right now. 693 00:39:37,583 --> 00:39:42,633 God help him, he was thinking that he was so happy to not be alone anymore. 694 00:39:44,924 --> 00:39:47,344 He didn't wanna make peace with his loneliness. 695 00:39:47,343 --> 00:39:48,723 Let's go. Come on. 696 00:39:49,762 --> 00:39:51,182 Why is it so dark? 697 00:39:51,180 --> 00:39:53,640 That freaked me out when I first saw it, 698 00:39:53,641 --> 00:39:56,231 but I knew you would find it interesting. 699 00:39:56,602 --> 00:39:58,102 Now he didn't have to. 700 00:39:58,896 --> 00:40:00,016 Ready? 701 00:40:01,148 --> 00:40:02,648 - Come on. - Okay. 702 00:40:28,551 --> 00:40:31,101 I need to leave. We have to leave. 703 00:40:33,097 --> 00:40:35,017 Hey, hey. Yo, Solly. 704 00:40:36,684 --> 00:40:37,734 Solly! 705 00:40:39,687 --> 00:40:41,267 Solly. Solly. 706 00:40:41,272 --> 00:40:43,022 Hey. Hannah, come on. 707 00:40:50,531 --> 00:40:51,821 Solly, wait.