1 00:00:17,475 --> 00:00:20,145 Many thoughts had crossed Toby's mind in the hours 2 00:00:20,145 --> 00:00:24,605 since he was informed that his missing wife was, in fact, napping in the park, 3 00:00:25,025 --> 00:00:26,645 but only one of them stuck. 4 00:00:26,651 --> 00:00:28,861 It was, "How did he get here?" 5 00:00:28,862 --> 00:00:31,112 Literally, he had no memory of the end 6 00:00:31,114 --> 00:00:33,624 of the conversation he had with Rachel's friends. 7 00:00:33,616 --> 00:00:36,536 He had, apparently, purchased rotted watermelon 8 00:00:36,536 --> 00:00:39,246 in his attempt to not appear so crazy, 9 00:00:39,247 --> 00:00:42,957 and he had, apparently, somehow gotten home. 10 00:00:43,126 --> 00:00:44,916 How did he get here? 11 00:00:45,045 --> 00:00:49,045 How did he get back to his apartment, but also, how did he get here? 12 00:00:50,258 --> 00:00:51,628 It was a good question. 13 00:00:55,847 --> 00:00:57,847 The story of the end of Toby and Rachel's marriage 14 00:00:57,849 --> 00:00:59,729 starts with the beginning of it. 15 00:00:59,726 --> 00:01:02,646 It starts with Toby right at the beginning of medical school, 16 00:01:02,645 --> 00:01:04,935 {\an8}being dragged to a party he didn't want to attend. 17 00:01:05,607 --> 00:01:08,027 {\an8}- Hey. - Hey, hey. It's gonna be fun. 18 00:01:08,026 --> 00:01:09,276 {\an8}- It's gonna be fun. - I know. 19 00:01:09,277 --> 00:01:10,357 {\an8}Okay. 20 00:01:11,237 --> 00:01:14,867 {\an8}Are you kidding? I spent an entire year at Hebrew U. 21 00:01:20,038 --> 00:01:24,128 {\an8}Young Judea's hottest alumnus stalks his prey. 22 00:01:26,169 --> 00:01:29,509 {\an8}We are compadres, we are comrades. 23 00:01:29,506 --> 00:01:30,966 Using a terrible accent, 24 00:01:30,965 --> 00:01:34,885 he lures the hot Israeli law student in her native habitat. 25 00:01:34,886 --> 00:01:36,886 {\an8}His absent foreskin as bait. 26 00:01:36,888 --> 00:01:38,848 {\an8}The American draws her in closer. 27 00:01:38,848 --> 00:01:41,308 - Did you do time in the army? - She's entering his orbit. 28 00:01:41,309 --> 00:01:42,769 She's in the danger zone. 29 00:01:43,394 --> 00:01:45,864 Contact! And now, she is dinner. 30 00:01:45,855 --> 00:01:49,855 {\an8}I thought that they taught Israelis defense skills in the military. 31 00:01:49,859 --> 00:01:52,069 {\an8}I don't think they trained them against Seth. 32 00:01:52,070 --> 00:01:53,950 {\an8}We were fast friends by then. 33 00:01:53,947 --> 00:01:57,827 {\an8}After our program in Israel ended, we visited each other in college. 34 00:01:57,826 --> 00:02:00,496 {\an8}There could have been something between Toby and me, 35 00:02:00,495 --> 00:02:02,825 {\an8}but my weirdness about relationships 36 00:02:02,831 --> 00:02:06,291 and Toby's sense of himself as unlucky in the romantic arts 37 00:02:06,292 --> 00:02:08,092 had followed him home through customs. 38 00:02:08,086 --> 00:02:09,416 - I'll find you. - All right. 39 00:02:09,420 --> 00:02:12,510 {\an8}By the time we all ended up at the business school party at Columbia, 40 00:02:12,507 --> 00:02:14,587 {\an8}Toby had just started medical school at NYU. 41 00:02:14,592 --> 00:02:16,432 {\an8}We're gonna meet up later. 42 00:02:16,427 --> 00:02:18,467 {\an8}She was in Sayeret Egoz. 43 00:02:18,471 --> 00:02:20,101 {\an8}That's guerilla warfare. 44 00:02:20,098 --> 00:02:22,308 {\an8}She told me something I really shouldn't say. 45 00:02:22,308 --> 00:02:25,228 - She knows who killed Rabin. - Everybody knows who killed Rabin. 46 00:02:25,228 --> 00:02:26,938 She extra knows. I can't say more. 47 00:02:26,938 --> 00:02:29,398 Maybe. It's like you have a scent, or something. 48 00:02:29,399 --> 00:02:32,489 - You just need to relax. - Is that really how it goes for you? 49 00:02:32,485 --> 00:02:35,945 {\an8}Women, they're just so attracted to how relaxed you are? 50 00:02:35,947 --> 00:02:38,067 {\an8}I would be relaxed, too, if I had your luck. 51 00:02:38,074 --> 00:02:40,164 - If I was ejaculating as often as him. - Got it. 52 00:02:40,160 --> 00:02:41,490 Yeah. It's not luck. 53 00:02:41,494 --> 00:02:43,794 I know, I'm just trying to preserve my dignity. 54 00:02:43,788 --> 00:02:47,078 Did I tell you, I bumped into Jennifer Alcom the other day? 55 00:02:47,083 --> 00:02:49,423 {\an8}- Really? - Yes. We made up for lost time. 56 00:02:49,419 --> 00:02:51,669 - Ew! - What I'm saying is fifth base. 57 00:02:51,671 --> 00:02:53,131 One, two, three, four, five! 58 00:02:53,131 --> 00:02:56,091 - That's what I'm saying. - That's so... Ugh. 59 00:02:56,342 --> 00:03:00,102 May you preserve your dignity... 60 00:03:00,096 --> 00:03:01,176 Okay. 61 00:03:01,181 --> 00:03:03,681 ...upon intrepid exploration 62 00:03:03,683 --> 00:03:08,403 of the anus of Jennifer Alcom. 63 00:03:08,396 --> 00:03:11,686 May you find yourself migrating onward from her perineum. 64 00:03:11,691 --> 00:03:12,781 I will. I will. 65 00:03:12,775 --> 00:03:15,525 My God, he's like re-having sex with people and I'm what? 66 00:03:15,528 --> 00:03:17,358 You're making anal sex jokes. 67 00:03:17,363 --> 00:03:19,623 Shouldn't I have met somebody in college? 68 00:03:19,616 --> 00:03:20,736 - Yes. - No, not me. 69 00:03:20,742 --> 00:03:23,622 I'm a good listener, I exercise, I'm in medical school. 70 00:03:23,620 --> 00:03:26,710 - I thought girls wanted doctors. - No. Girls want to want doctors. 71 00:03:26,706 --> 00:03:28,576 That's our mother's dream. 72 00:03:28,583 --> 00:03:32,803 I personally want to free myself from every Jewish girl cliché. 73 00:03:32,795 --> 00:03:35,295 - Really? So, what do you want? - Yeah. A lawyer. 74 00:03:35,298 --> 00:03:38,218 - Okay. God, I have to go. I'm tired... - No. 75 00:03:38,218 --> 00:03:40,178 ...I have to study, and I know how this ends. 76 00:03:40,178 --> 00:03:42,678 Why don't we get another drink? Why are your cups empty? 77 00:03:42,680 --> 00:03:44,970 Because I was having a Diet Coke. 78 00:03:44,974 --> 00:03:48,064 - That's not fun. Have the punch. - You know what's in that punch? 79 00:03:48,061 --> 00:03:49,151 - Yeah. - Fun. 80 00:03:49,145 --> 00:03:50,805 Really? Okay. 81 00:03:50,813 --> 00:03:52,273 - Yeah. - Okay. Come on. 82 00:03:52,273 --> 00:03:53,983 It really was that easy with us. 83 00:03:53,983 --> 00:03:56,653 But then, our friendships were never the problem. 84 00:03:56,653 --> 00:03:58,203 It was the longing and pining 85 00:03:58,196 --> 00:04:00,906 for romantic relationships that preoccupied us, 86 00:04:00,907 --> 00:04:04,617 that maybe allowed us to think that friends like this were easy to come by. 87 00:04:04,619 --> 00:04:08,119 - Look, he really does have a scent. - I know. I gotta go to the bathroom. 88 00:04:08,122 --> 00:04:09,332 Okay. 89 00:04:34,524 --> 00:04:36,364 Um... 90 00:04:36,359 --> 00:04:40,859 Yes, I noticed that you don't have any punch and I highly recommend it. 91 00:04:40,863 --> 00:04:43,073 You threw yours out pretty fast. 92 00:04:43,074 --> 00:04:46,044 Yeah, because I think the host is actually trying to roofie me. 93 00:04:46,035 --> 00:04:47,285 - Oh. - Yeah. 94 00:04:47,287 --> 00:04:49,657 People used to make roofie jokes in the '90s. 95 00:04:50,331 --> 00:04:53,081 I'm actually just concerned about whatever the ingredient is 96 00:04:53,084 --> 00:04:55,384 that turns it that particular shade of purple. 97 00:04:55,503 --> 00:04:56,503 - Really? - Yeah. 98 00:04:56,504 --> 00:04:58,634 To me, it's the only reason to drink the stuff. 99 00:04:58,631 --> 00:05:00,881 I don't know. I just don't want any future kids 100 00:05:01,009 --> 00:05:02,759 to turn out smelling like purple. 101 00:05:05,179 --> 00:05:07,769 Are you like in the artificial color racket, or something? 102 00:05:07,932 --> 00:05:09,642 Uh... 103 00:05:09,642 --> 00:05:12,902 No. I'm a business major. 104 00:05:12,895 --> 00:05:14,895 Interesting. Finance? 105 00:05:14,897 --> 00:05:17,777 No, I... Marketing, maybe? 106 00:05:17,775 --> 00:05:18,855 I don't know. 107 00:05:19,027 --> 00:05:23,357 I just finished a symposium on negotiating. I loved it. 108 00:05:23,364 --> 00:05:25,374 That's cool. Negotiate with me. 109 00:05:25,366 --> 00:05:28,576 I can't. It wouldn't be fair. You'd never win. 110 00:05:28,578 --> 00:05:31,078 - Really? Come on, try me. - Um... 111 00:05:32,040 --> 00:05:33,960 I'd like four for the price of two. 112 00:05:34,625 --> 00:05:36,455 Sorry, you'll have to pay for all four. 113 00:05:36,461 --> 00:05:38,551 I'll only be paying for two. 114 00:05:40,089 --> 00:05:41,339 Hey, no deal. 115 00:05:41,341 --> 00:05:44,591 What kind of Middle Eastern open-air market do you think this is? 116 00:06:04,739 --> 00:06:07,159 I'll give you six, 117 00:06:07,158 --> 00:06:08,868 and you don't have to pay for any of them. 118 00:06:31,849 --> 00:06:35,059 For Toby, it was the first time sex wasn't about sex. 119 00:06:42,693 --> 00:06:43,823 It was about her. 120 00:06:47,407 --> 00:06:48,567 And that was that. 121 00:07:04,132 --> 00:07:05,262 Hi. 122 00:07:07,009 --> 00:07:08,219 You found the bathroom. 123 00:07:08,219 --> 00:07:10,099 - Yeah. - Hi. 124 00:07:10,096 --> 00:07:12,266 I got you food. I got you food. Come here. 125 00:07:15,351 --> 00:07:16,851 He showed her his stuff. 126 00:07:16,853 --> 00:07:18,653 The physical phenomenon 127 00:07:18,646 --> 00:07:20,936 produced by the motion of electric charge creates... 128 00:07:20,940 --> 00:07:22,900 Creates an attraction that is beyond will. 129 00:07:22,900 --> 00:07:24,190 I love this part. 130 00:07:24,193 --> 00:07:26,993 Look, the magnet just, like, at like camp... 131 00:07:26,988 --> 00:07:30,068 At camp, like... 132 00:07:31,492 --> 00:07:34,662 They spent two days alone in their own private universe. 133 00:07:36,747 --> 00:07:37,787 I'm sorry. 134 00:07:37,790 --> 00:07:39,880 It's just like, that's what magnets do. 135 00:07:42,795 --> 00:07:45,835 They walked together, miles and miles that weekend. 136 00:07:45,840 --> 00:07:48,840 One of the things he loved most about New York was walking. 137 00:07:48,843 --> 00:07:51,433 All he'd ever wanted was someone to walk with him. 138 00:07:51,429 --> 00:07:54,139 She was everything he thought a girl should be, 139 00:07:54,140 --> 00:07:57,100 even if he'd never known to pray quite so specifically. 140 00:07:57,101 --> 00:07:58,981 You are so exotic to me. I am? 141 00:07:58,978 --> 00:08:00,188 Yeah, you are. 142 00:08:00,188 --> 00:08:04,068 I have blonde hair and green eyes. I'm the opposite of exotic. 143 00:08:04,066 --> 00:08:06,066 You didn't go to my Jewish day school. 144 00:08:06,068 --> 00:08:08,108 Everyone there looked like my mother or sister. 145 00:08:08,112 --> 00:08:11,662 I am Jewish. My father wasn't, but my mother was. 146 00:08:11,657 --> 00:08:13,617 Aren't those the rules? 147 00:08:13,743 --> 00:08:15,623 I don't know, I don't have any rules. 148 00:08:18,581 --> 00:08:20,831 - Here. Okay. - What? 149 00:08:21,876 --> 00:08:24,626 - Listen to this. - Okay. 150 00:08:25,421 --> 00:08:26,631 Thank you. 151 00:08:34,347 --> 00:08:35,557 Wait. Sorry, is this... 152 00:08:36,307 --> 00:08:38,807 - No. Don't laugh. - Okay. 153 00:08:38,809 --> 00:08:41,019 - If you laugh, you're a cynic. - I am a little bit. 154 00:08:41,020 --> 00:08:42,400 - Just listen. - Okay. 155 00:08:52,949 --> 00:08:53,949 Hmm. 156 00:08:56,994 --> 00:08:58,504 And she taught him her things. 157 00:09:01,165 --> 00:09:03,075 You're doing great. 158 00:09:03,251 --> 00:09:04,461 Yeah, it's just like walking, 159 00:09:04,460 --> 00:09:06,670 but impossible. 160 00:09:06,671 --> 00:09:09,511 - I'm feeling less and less confident. - You're doing well. 161 00:09:09,507 --> 00:09:10,927 Okay. 162 00:09:10,925 --> 00:09:14,095 You know, I can't believe how much I like you. 163 00:09:14,220 --> 00:09:15,560 - Aw. Thanks. - No, really. 164 00:09:15,555 --> 00:09:18,135 Like, I never get sick of you. 165 00:09:18,140 --> 00:09:20,430 Shoot. Shoot. Sorry. 166 00:09:21,519 --> 00:09:24,269 What I was going to say, is that like I never get sick of you. 167 00:09:24,272 --> 00:09:27,232 Really, I'm nostalgic for this moment already. 168 00:09:27,233 --> 00:09:29,073 It's crazy. Really. 169 00:09:33,573 --> 00:09:35,623 What do you say, we not go back out there? 170 00:09:35,616 --> 00:09:37,196 We stay here. 171 00:09:45,084 --> 00:09:46,094 Yeah? 172 00:09:47,587 --> 00:09:51,757 - So, you see my septum is crooked? - Yeah. 173 00:09:51,757 --> 00:09:53,427 If I sleep with my finger on my nose, 174 00:09:53,426 --> 00:09:55,176 my pathways are clear and I don't snore. 175 00:09:55,177 --> 00:09:56,887 Really? That's an amazing plan. 176 00:09:56,887 --> 00:09:58,557 It occurred to him that if this was 177 00:09:58,556 --> 00:10:00,926 how long he'd had to wait to find love... 178 00:10:05,187 --> 00:10:06,477 ...he regretted nothing. 179 00:10:07,648 --> 00:10:10,228 That night, they whispered their pasts to each other. 180 00:10:10,234 --> 00:10:11,904 But of course, she moved to Israel 181 00:10:11,902 --> 00:10:14,412 and she took it way too far, and now, she's like, 182 00:10:14,405 --> 00:10:16,155 "Orthodox. I'm gonna have a million babies." 183 00:10:16,157 --> 00:10:17,827 You're so lucky to have family. 184 00:10:21,120 --> 00:10:23,750 I only have one memory of my mom. 185 00:10:23,873 --> 00:10:27,173 It's just this image of a woman on a couch. 186 00:10:28,419 --> 00:10:30,419 But I think she loved me a lot. 187 00:10:31,631 --> 00:10:36,301 Like, I can't remember a scene of it, but I remember it. 188 00:10:39,180 --> 00:10:43,980 Or maybe, what I actually remember, is that my grandmother didn't love me. 189 00:10:43,976 --> 00:10:47,436 Not that she didn't, it's just... 190 00:10:50,399 --> 00:10:52,029 She can't really love. 191 00:10:58,324 --> 00:11:01,244 And I remember pining for my mother, 192 00:11:04,163 --> 00:11:06,373 which, I guess, means I felt loved by her. 193 00:11:13,339 --> 00:11:15,589 How could anybody not love you? 194 00:11:25,142 --> 00:11:27,652 Toby took Rachel to Los Angeles to meet his family. 195 00:11:27,645 --> 00:11:29,605 Amen. 196 00:11:34,694 --> 00:11:38,034 - You do this every week? - Yeah. Every week. 197 00:11:39,115 --> 00:11:42,655 - What if you have to be somewhere else? - Where else would you have to be? 198 00:11:44,203 --> 00:11:45,413 TOBY'S MOM: Here you go, honey. 199 00:11:45,413 --> 00:11:46,503 Thank you. 200 00:11:49,250 --> 00:11:50,880 - TOBY'S MOM: Take a piece. - No, thank you. 201 00:11:50,876 --> 00:11:52,496 You're too skinny, you look old. 202 00:11:52,503 --> 00:11:54,713 I know, I have an eating disorder face from... 203 00:11:54,714 --> 00:11:57,094 TOBY'S MOM: You see how he punishes me? 204 00:11:57,800 --> 00:11:58,880 You were happier fat. 205 00:11:58,884 --> 00:12:03,064 Listen. It's my favorite song. I hadn't heard it since you moved. 206 00:12:03,681 --> 00:12:04,851 I want this. 207 00:12:06,475 --> 00:12:08,385 And suddenly, even the ways he felt 208 00:12:08,394 --> 00:12:11,484 his mother ruined his life didn't matter to him. 209 00:12:11,480 --> 00:12:14,150 For he was no longer hers, he was Rachel's. 210 00:12:14,150 --> 00:12:15,940 This is really good. 211 00:12:16,110 --> 00:12:17,990 For Fleishman was in love. 212 00:12:19,530 --> 00:12:21,370 - What do you think? - I think you're great. 213 00:12:21,365 --> 00:12:23,655 Yeah. I couldn't represent a country, but... 214 00:12:23,659 --> 00:12:26,289 This was it for Toby. This was the end. 215 00:12:26,287 --> 00:12:28,037 His story had a happy ending. 216 00:12:30,124 --> 00:12:31,134 Oh! 217 00:12:31,542 --> 00:12:32,672 Um... 218 00:12:34,462 --> 00:12:36,922 In magnetism, the physical phenomenon 219 00:12:36,922 --> 00:12:39,882 produced by the motion of electric charge 220 00:12:39,884 --> 00:12:41,894 creates an attraction that is beyond... 221 00:12:41,886 --> 00:12:42,966 Yes! 222 00:12:42,970 --> 00:12:44,470 - Really? - Yes! 223 00:12:44,472 --> 00:12:47,142 Things had worked out for Toby Fleishman. 224 00:12:47,141 --> 00:12:48,391 It was all settled. 225 00:12:48,392 --> 00:12:50,392 Now, his life would be great. 226 00:12:54,523 --> 00:12:57,283 And, it was. For a long time, it was. 227 00:12:57,276 --> 00:12:59,446 Plastics, you get to choose your hours, though. 228 00:12:59,445 --> 00:13:03,615 Yeah. I'm not getting into this to make sad women look younger and sadder. 229 00:13:03,616 --> 00:13:08,366 You could make them look happier, sew their faces into a smile. 230 00:13:08,370 --> 00:13:11,250 That's actually really good. Yeah, that could be my niche. 231 00:13:12,500 --> 00:13:16,210 Hey. Look at that. That's kind of perfect. 232 00:13:16,212 --> 00:13:18,592 Yes. Yes, yes, it is. 233 00:13:18,714 --> 00:13:21,934 - Yes, this is great. Here. Wait. Okay. - You okay? 234 00:13:21,926 --> 00:13:25,966 Yeah, perfect. And we have different flavors of gum. 235 00:13:25,971 --> 00:13:27,771 - It's gross. But it's fine. - Okay. Yeah. 236 00:13:27,765 --> 00:13:30,475 - We'll make it less gross. All right. - Okay. 237 00:13:32,102 --> 00:13:34,022 I was gonna make it more gross. 238 00:13:35,105 --> 00:13:37,105 - Okay? Yeah. - Okay. Okay. 239 00:13:37,107 --> 00:13:38,527 - Yeah. Right. Got it. - Okay. 240 00:13:38,526 --> 00:13:41,566 Don't wreck our grocery bag. 241 00:13:41,695 --> 00:13:42,855 - It's... - Okay. 242 00:13:44,448 --> 00:13:47,948 You could help fix cleft palates in the summers in underserved regions. 243 00:13:47,952 --> 00:13:51,792 I don't wanna spend my summers living an apology for my life. 244 00:13:51,789 --> 00:13:56,539 Being a doctor is a good thing. It's a righteous thing in the world. 245 00:13:56,669 --> 00:13:58,999 Tell me again about the righteous work of medicine. 246 00:13:59,004 --> 00:14:01,634 I put these glasses on, so I could listen very carefully. 247 00:14:01,632 --> 00:14:03,932 That's really nice, that's really nice, yeah. 248 00:14:07,054 --> 00:14:10,274 No, I just think you should think about the future 249 00:14:10,266 --> 00:14:12,016 and what it's gonna look like. 250 00:14:12,017 --> 00:14:14,397 Interesting point. Just one second. 251 00:14:14,520 --> 00:14:16,560 Okay. Sorry, go on. No, no, please. 252 00:14:16,564 --> 00:14:19,694 Tell me the future of the healthcare industry. 253 00:14:21,235 --> 00:14:23,275 Even then, she was trying to steer him 254 00:14:23,279 --> 00:14:25,529 towards something he never claimed to want. 255 00:14:25,531 --> 00:14:27,531 She, however, needed no steering. 256 00:14:28,200 --> 00:14:31,200 He watched her ascend through the agency hierarchy, 257 00:14:31,203 --> 00:14:34,463 he watched her enjoy the performative assholery of the work. 258 00:14:34,456 --> 00:14:36,666 Rachel Fleishman. No, no, no, no, no. 259 00:14:36,667 --> 00:14:39,207 Matt will come to the phone never if you keep that up. 260 00:14:39,879 --> 00:14:43,089 Holy shit, man. You are nuts. 261 00:14:48,345 --> 00:14:50,595 This is Rachel Fleishman from Matt Klein's office. 262 00:14:50,598 --> 00:14:51,678 I'm calling to set up... 263 00:14:51,682 --> 00:14:53,682 Toby still felt erectile stirrings 264 00:14:53,684 --> 00:14:55,814 hearing his name on the back of hers. 265 00:14:55,811 --> 00:14:59,231 I said he would circle back when he was finally ready to get into it. 266 00:14:59,231 --> 00:15:02,531 But now, they were combined with real feelings of neglect. 267 00:15:02,526 --> 00:15:03,936 Yes. 268 00:15:03,944 --> 00:15:05,404 And at night, he joined her 269 00:15:05,404 --> 00:15:09,284 as she prowled the city for some unseen, unspoken-for artist. 270 00:15:10,326 --> 00:15:13,446 She's a gas station attendant and taught herself opera from a book. 271 00:15:13,454 --> 00:15:14,584 Really? 272 00:15:14,580 --> 00:15:16,710 If we make it out alive, you can make her a star. 273 00:15:16,707 --> 00:15:17,997 Where'd you even hear this? 274 00:15:18,000 --> 00:15:20,500 There's a newspaper, the Canarsie Courier, 275 00:15:20,502 --> 00:15:21,632 and it had listings. 276 00:15:21,629 --> 00:15:23,459 She was looking for someone to do the music. 277 00:15:23,464 --> 00:15:26,014 Hmm. So, that's how you find someone to do music? 278 00:15:26,008 --> 00:15:27,638 No. Apparently, not. 279 00:15:27,635 --> 00:15:28,755 Yeah. 280 00:15:29,803 --> 00:15:31,563 It's about suffrage. 281 00:15:31,555 --> 00:15:33,215 We can suffrage through it together. 282 00:15:33,223 --> 00:15:35,393 Shh. It's about to start. 283 00:15:36,060 --> 00:15:39,270 The New York Times called us the "suffragettes," 284 00:15:40,439 --> 00:15:43,779 even though the real word is "suffragist." 285 00:15:44,944 --> 00:15:48,244 "Suffragette," of course, makes us into the light, 286 00:15:48,238 --> 00:15:50,618 low-fat version of a person. 287 00:15:51,951 --> 00:15:55,541 "Suffragettes" puts us back in the kitchenette, 288 00:15:56,538 --> 00:15:59,668 like we were just womenette or sisterettes. 289 00:15:59,667 --> 00:16:02,207 Toby never understood what Rachel saw in things 290 00:16:02,211 --> 00:16:04,591 that he didn't find very compelling or moving, 291 00:16:04,588 --> 00:16:06,548 but that was her gift. 292 00:16:06,548 --> 00:16:09,838 She had a deep understanding of what people wanted, 293 00:16:09,843 --> 00:16:11,973 and sometimes, she weaponized it. 294 00:16:11,971 --> 00:16:13,811 And sometimes, she ignored it. 295 00:16:13,806 --> 00:16:17,386 But she also used it in service for her gain. 296 00:16:17,393 --> 00:16:20,603 She looked at Alejandra Lopez and she knew she would be a star. 297 00:16:20,604 --> 00:16:22,154 A vindictive bitch 298 00:16:22,147 --> 00:16:24,317 A silly little slattern And which is which? 299 00:16:24,316 --> 00:16:26,856 Rachel brought her boss, Matt Klein, to the show. 300 00:16:27,611 --> 00:16:30,281 Matt was a different creature than Toby. 301 00:16:30,280 --> 00:16:31,410 This is good. 302 00:16:31,407 --> 00:16:33,987 Pick out the china pattern That's your job 303 00:16:33,993 --> 00:16:38,253 You got lucky in this life But don't forget, you're just the wife 304 00:16:39,915 --> 00:16:42,625 Matt took Alejandra on, and The Suffrage Monologues 305 00:16:42,626 --> 00:16:46,046 played 20 sold out shows at The Public. 306 00:16:47,131 --> 00:16:48,261 Then 20 more. 307 00:16:50,634 --> 00:16:51,644 Where are you? 308 00:16:51,635 --> 00:16:55,005 I'm so sorry, we lost a patient. 309 00:16:55,014 --> 00:16:56,474 She was young. 310 00:16:56,473 --> 00:16:58,683 People around here are taking it pretty hard. 311 00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:03,610 - You couldn't have called? - Yeah, I'm so sorry. 312 00:17:03,605 --> 00:17:06,975 I just lost track of time. She came in with a small complaint... 313 00:17:06,984 --> 00:17:09,404 She was under a lot of pressure. 314 00:17:12,865 --> 00:17:15,825 - Why is there no food in here? - We just had dinner. 315 00:17:15,826 --> 00:17:17,486 So, what couple doesn't fight? 316 00:17:17,494 --> 00:17:19,914 We had steamed chicken again. 317 00:17:19,913 --> 00:17:23,213 I'm looking for something with caloric content, just so I can live. 318 00:17:23,208 --> 00:17:25,918 I can make you something else, I'm really happy to. 319 00:17:25,919 --> 00:17:28,509 God, you have no idea how hard I was working today. 320 00:17:28,505 --> 00:17:30,755 All I wanted was to come home to dinner. 321 00:17:30,758 --> 00:17:32,338 - And you did. - What, did I? 322 00:17:32,342 --> 00:17:35,182 We live in Manhattan. I can get you whatever you want. 323 00:17:35,179 --> 00:17:39,309 So, maybe Rachel was a little more vicious than she needed to be. 324 00:17:39,308 --> 00:17:40,808 Forget it. I don't have time. 325 00:17:40,809 --> 00:17:42,729 I'll eat more chicken. 326 00:17:42,895 --> 00:17:46,815 How did I end up married to a man with the food issues of a teen pageant queen? 327 00:17:51,779 --> 00:17:53,609 What couple doesn't fight? 328 00:17:54,281 --> 00:17:57,661 And then, there was this. Rachel simply didn't like us. 329 00:17:57,659 --> 00:17:59,039 When it came to our friendship, 330 00:17:59,036 --> 00:18:01,746 Rachel was like an organ transplant that didn't take. 331 00:18:01,747 --> 00:18:04,167 He's always had these themed parties, right? 332 00:18:04,166 --> 00:18:05,246 Like a frat boy? 333 00:18:05,250 --> 00:18:07,750 Yeah. He's had toga parties before, yes. 334 00:18:07,753 --> 00:18:09,923 But also, sometimes, we'll have like, you know, 335 00:18:09,922 --> 00:18:12,842 some professor from MIT give a lecture on calculus. 336 00:18:12,841 --> 00:18:14,131 And that's fun for you? 337 00:18:14,134 --> 00:18:15,304 Yes, really. 338 00:18:15,302 --> 00:18:16,472 - Hey! You two! - Yeah. 339 00:18:16,470 --> 00:18:19,140 - Hi. - You made it, hi. Nice to see you. 340 00:18:19,139 --> 00:18:22,059 - Are you supposed to be Hugh Hefner? - That's offensive. 341 00:18:22,059 --> 00:18:23,439 - I'm sorry. - I'm Larry Flynt. 342 00:18:23,685 --> 00:18:24,765 Oh. 343 00:18:24,770 --> 00:18:26,810 - I'm sorry. - But Hugh Hefner, I guess. 344 00:18:26,814 --> 00:18:28,154 Gang's all here! 345 00:18:28,148 --> 00:18:31,068 - Wait, you guys, you didn't dress up. - Neither did you. 346 00:18:31,693 --> 00:18:33,403 - Nice one. - We just came from work. 347 00:18:33,403 --> 00:18:35,203 - Yeah. - We can't stay long. 348 00:18:35,197 --> 00:18:39,027 - We... Wait, what am I forgetting? - That thing, for my client. 349 00:18:40,869 --> 00:18:41,909 Yeah. 350 00:18:42,955 --> 00:18:44,035 Okay. 351 00:18:49,795 --> 00:18:52,915 - I made your favorite. Hey! - Hey! It's too much. 352 00:18:52,923 --> 00:18:54,223 That's not nice. 353 00:18:54,216 --> 00:18:56,506 Well, it's a little nice. 354 00:18:56,510 --> 00:18:58,600 Yeah. I was starving. 355 00:19:01,140 --> 00:19:02,810 I'm sorry, where's the bathroom? 356 00:19:02,808 --> 00:19:04,058 I'll show you. Come here. 357 00:19:04,059 --> 00:19:05,769 - I'll be right back. - Okay. 358 00:19:09,398 --> 00:19:11,148 I haven't seen you in four months. 359 00:19:11,150 --> 00:19:12,360 I got married. 360 00:19:13,026 --> 00:19:16,236 - It gets busy when you get married. - Oh, it's busy when you get married? 361 00:19:16,238 --> 00:19:18,868 You gotta make decisions, choose what your life is, 362 00:19:18,866 --> 00:19:20,406 you wouldn't understand. 363 00:19:21,743 --> 00:19:25,463 We go to the theater all the time and then you get out and it's 11:00, 364 00:19:25,455 --> 00:19:27,955 and the only place that's open is this place Joe Allen, 365 00:19:27,958 --> 00:19:30,538 so we go there, and all of her colleagues are there, 366 00:19:30,544 --> 00:19:32,304 and I wanna be a good spouse. 367 00:19:32,296 --> 00:19:34,916 If I have to choose, I wanna choose to make her happy, 368 00:19:34,923 --> 00:19:37,383 I wanna... Yeah, I wanna choose her. 369 00:19:37,384 --> 00:19:40,804 I mean, why do you have to choose in the first place? 370 00:19:40,804 --> 00:19:42,974 Why are you choosing at all? 371 00:19:44,850 --> 00:19:46,060 That line is way too long. 372 00:19:46,059 --> 00:19:48,399 I realized, the thing's at 7:00, it's not at 8:00. 373 00:19:48,395 --> 00:19:50,765 Oh, no! The thing's at 7:00. 374 00:19:52,316 --> 00:19:53,976 Um... Are you ready? 375 00:19:54,651 --> 00:19:58,161 - Yeah. Yeah. So, I will see you soon. - Yeah. Yeah, yeah. 376 00:19:58,155 --> 00:20:00,525 - Do you want my plate of ice cream? - Right. 377 00:20:00,532 --> 00:20:01,662 I... 378 00:20:01,658 --> 00:20:03,368 Sorry. It was nice to see you, Libby. 379 00:20:03,368 --> 00:20:04,908 Good to see you. 380 00:20:11,251 --> 00:20:15,631 The last time Toby and I were alone before this summer was 13 years ago, 381 00:20:15,631 --> 00:20:18,051 when I had published an essay and a small anthology. 382 00:20:18,050 --> 00:20:21,800 "It hadn't been that long since I had asked that question myself. 383 00:20:21,803 --> 00:20:23,143 {\an8}"But let me tell you. 384 00:20:23,138 --> 00:20:28,058 {\an8}"In the interest of self-preservation, I recommend not asking more than once." 385 00:20:30,229 --> 00:20:31,649 {\an8}He came to my first-ever reading. 386 00:20:32,856 --> 00:20:33,976 Whoo! 387 00:20:34,816 --> 00:20:37,946 I always remember hoping you would get out of your own way. 388 00:20:37,945 --> 00:20:40,655 I was just worried you were too crazy to truly do it. 389 00:20:41,740 --> 00:20:44,530 - Really? - Yes, yes. I'm proud of you. 390 00:20:44,534 --> 00:20:46,044 Here's to late bloomers. 391 00:20:47,871 --> 00:20:51,711 - Do you ever hear yourself? - What? What's wrong? 392 00:20:52,960 --> 00:20:54,340 Oh, my God. 393 00:20:55,671 --> 00:20:58,471 Jesus. Elizabeth, who smokes anymore? 394 00:21:00,759 --> 00:21:01,799 Can I have one? 395 00:21:03,845 --> 00:21:05,675 Do you mind if I... Can I borrow this? 396 00:21:06,807 --> 00:21:08,267 - Thank you. - What are you doing? 397 00:21:08,267 --> 00:21:11,057 Just so Rachel doesn't smell the smoke. 398 00:21:12,187 --> 00:21:13,187 Wow. 399 00:21:13,188 --> 00:21:15,068 - What? - What a man you are. 400 00:21:15,065 --> 00:21:17,185 Excuse me, that is sexual harassment. 401 00:21:17,192 --> 00:21:19,612 - And I don't have to take it anymore. - That's right. 402 00:21:19,611 --> 00:21:22,321 Just be careful. 403 00:21:22,322 --> 00:21:26,492 You're changing faster than the rest of us. 404 00:21:26,660 --> 00:21:30,710 - Excuse me? What does that mean? - It means I miss you, is what it means. 405 00:21:32,374 --> 00:21:34,134 It means don't be an asshole. 406 00:21:50,976 --> 00:21:52,186 Libby was smoking. 407 00:21:53,603 --> 00:21:54,733 What's wrong? 408 00:22:02,821 --> 00:22:06,371 Rachel. Rachel. 409 00:22:08,785 --> 00:22:11,705 This is amazing. I can't believe it. 410 00:22:12,789 --> 00:22:17,039 - You know, we just started trying. - I know. I know. 411 00:22:17,836 --> 00:22:19,496 Come here. 412 00:22:28,597 --> 00:22:30,427 I think it's twins. No. 413 00:22:30,432 --> 00:22:31,892 Oh, no, it's just one. 414 00:22:35,812 --> 00:22:38,522 The baby was all Toby thought about. 415 00:22:38,648 --> 00:22:42,188 He wanted to play classical music for her, so she'd come out a cellist. 416 00:22:42,986 --> 00:22:45,446 He wanted to feed Rachel folic acid rich foods 417 00:22:45,447 --> 00:22:47,777 so the baby would come out a junior at Stanford. 418 00:22:53,372 --> 00:22:54,752 Hi. Where have you been? 419 00:22:54,748 --> 00:22:56,918 - Are you the Gestapo? - What? 420 00:22:56,917 --> 00:23:00,087 - No. I tried you a few times. - I couldn't get a cab in the rain. 421 00:23:00,087 --> 00:23:02,667 Oh, my God, look at you. You're soaking wet. 422 00:23:02,881 --> 00:23:04,051 Wait, wait, wait, wait. 423 00:23:05,759 --> 00:23:06,759 Okay. Come on in. 424 00:23:12,974 --> 00:23:16,604 Honey, you wanna tell me what happened? 425 00:23:21,900 --> 00:23:23,190 I was passed over. 426 00:23:26,154 --> 00:23:27,914 Sorry, what? Who? Who got it? 427 00:23:27,906 --> 00:23:29,446 Harry, of course. 428 00:23:29,449 --> 00:23:31,539 No. Stop it. You deserved it. 429 00:23:31,535 --> 00:23:32,615 Hey, come here. 430 00:23:34,037 --> 00:23:36,497 Okay. Here. 431 00:23:36,498 --> 00:23:37,868 What are you doing? I'm not a baby. 432 00:23:37,874 --> 00:23:39,674 - You're soaking wet. - I can undress myself. 433 00:23:39,668 --> 00:23:41,088 Okay. Okay. 434 00:23:42,045 --> 00:23:44,545 It's not about deserving it. I'm being punished. 435 00:23:44,548 --> 00:23:45,718 What do you mean? 436 00:23:49,219 --> 00:23:51,509 Matt Klein hit on me two years ago. 437 00:23:53,515 --> 00:23:56,975 - What? Matt Klein, your boss? - Yes. The only Matt Klein I know. 438 00:23:56,977 --> 00:23:58,397 Oh. 439 00:23:59,187 --> 00:24:01,937 - God, when? How? - It was that party two years ago. 440 00:24:01,940 --> 00:24:04,820 - What party? - The Christmas party. 441 00:24:06,236 --> 00:24:07,526 With the ice sculptures? 442 00:24:10,615 --> 00:24:13,485 Really? Oh, God. I was there for that. 443 00:24:13,493 --> 00:24:15,413 - I was there for that. - No, it's his thing. 444 00:24:15,412 --> 00:24:17,582 It's his thing? Of course. No, it's his thing, 445 00:24:17,581 --> 00:24:19,921 like rollerblading could be your thing or French pastry making, 446 00:24:19,916 --> 00:24:21,376 of course, as a hobby. 447 00:24:22,002 --> 00:24:26,132 Whatever. But I said no, and I was worried 448 00:24:26,131 --> 00:24:30,641 it was gonna be awkward, but then, I thought things were normal, 449 00:24:30,635 --> 00:24:33,005 - and I respected him for that. - Really? Are you... 450 00:24:33,138 --> 00:24:34,678 I can't believe I was there for that. 451 00:24:34,681 --> 00:24:36,931 No, of course. I remember we were standing by Harry's office 452 00:24:36,933 --> 00:24:38,063 and he came over and said, 453 00:24:38,059 --> 00:24:39,689 "Do you mind if I borrow our girl here?" 454 00:24:39,686 --> 00:24:42,056 -"Our girl," like you're ours. - It's how people talk. 455 00:24:42,063 --> 00:24:44,323 No, it's not. It's how people sexually harass you. 456 00:24:44,316 --> 00:24:47,026 God, of course. I remember he put his hand on the small of your back 457 00:24:47,027 --> 00:24:49,527 and I thought it was crazy, but I didn't wanna say anything. 458 00:24:49,529 --> 00:24:52,279 - I didn't wanna sound patriarchal. - He was playing the long game. 459 00:24:52,282 --> 00:24:55,082 He was promoting me just enough, so I wouldn't sue. 460 00:24:55,243 --> 00:24:57,293 Jesus, Harry Sachs hasn't closed a deal in months. 461 00:24:57,287 --> 00:24:58,367 He knows you have a husband. 462 00:24:58,371 --> 00:25:00,041 I'm home, making soup like an asshole, 463 00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:02,170 - not expecting any of this. - It was retribution. 464 00:25:02,167 --> 00:25:04,377 He was angry I hadn't told him I was pregnant. 465 00:25:04,377 --> 00:25:05,797 He was angry I didn't wanna fuck him. 466 00:25:05,795 --> 00:25:08,715 Did you remind Matt you have a husband, that he knows me? 467 00:25:08,715 --> 00:25:10,045 - Remind him. - Can we deal with 468 00:25:10,050 --> 00:25:11,380 how this is about you later? 469 00:25:11,384 --> 00:25:13,554 I'm focused on the "this happened to me" thing. 470 00:25:15,931 --> 00:25:17,141 Yeah. Yeah. No, I'm sorry. 471 00:25:17,140 --> 00:25:20,390 I'm just, like, in shock. 472 00:25:20,393 --> 00:25:22,403 Sorry. Yeah, let me get you some soup. 473 00:25:22,395 --> 00:25:25,225 I don't want soup. I want Tony's. I want linguini and clam sauce. 474 00:25:25,232 --> 00:25:27,192 No, you're not supposed to have clams. 475 00:25:30,362 --> 00:25:31,742 But you can, if you want to. 476 00:25:35,450 --> 00:25:38,790 Hi. We're going to 82nd and 2nd. 477 00:25:39,496 --> 00:25:40,496 Thanks. 478 00:25:41,957 --> 00:25:43,877 It stopped raining, we could've walked. 479 00:25:43,875 --> 00:25:45,285 I don't wanna walk. 480 00:25:45,418 --> 00:25:48,508 No, I get it. It's been a rough night. 481 00:25:49,798 --> 00:25:51,838 I'm saying for good. 482 00:25:52,634 --> 00:25:54,434 I'm tired of long walks. I don't like them. 483 00:25:54,427 --> 00:25:55,757 It's a waste of my time. 484 00:25:59,474 --> 00:26:02,314 The Fleishmans never went on a long walk again. 485 00:26:06,439 --> 00:26:08,859 Five months later, Rachel was admitted to the hospital 486 00:26:08,858 --> 00:26:09,988 with high blood pressure. 487 00:26:09,985 --> 00:26:13,235 She was given Pitocin for an induction, but 14 hours in, 488 00:26:13,238 --> 00:26:15,448 she hadn't progressed beyond two centimeters. 489 00:26:15,448 --> 00:26:18,158 Just try to picture dilation, okay? 490 00:26:18,159 --> 00:26:22,159 Open waters, open fields, sunrise. 491 00:26:22,163 --> 00:26:24,623 Shut up. Please just shut up. 492 00:26:30,130 --> 00:26:32,130 Uh, who's he? Sorry, who are you? 493 00:26:32,132 --> 00:26:33,842 - Who are you? - I'm Dr. Romalino. 494 00:26:33,842 --> 00:26:36,932 - Sorry. Where's Dr. Goldberg? - Dr. Goldberg is in Hawaii this week. 495 00:26:37,721 --> 00:26:40,101 No. No. I want my regular doctor. 496 00:26:40,098 --> 00:26:43,308 Yeah, it's okay. Hi. I'm Dr. Fleishman. I'm a resident up on gastro. 497 00:26:43,310 --> 00:26:46,150 Pleased to meet you. I'm who you got. Can I see her chart? 498 00:26:46,521 --> 00:26:49,111 Do you have absolutely no pull here? You work here. 499 00:26:52,360 --> 00:26:54,360 We heard you were here. 500 00:26:54,529 --> 00:26:55,659 Get them away. 501 00:26:55,655 --> 00:26:58,025 Yeah, yeah. Sure. Hey, guys. Hi. 502 00:26:58,033 --> 00:27:01,083 Thank you so much for coming. Yeah, here. Come over here. 503 00:27:01,077 --> 00:27:03,577 This is not exactly the laugh riot that they promised us. 504 00:27:03,580 --> 00:27:06,210 It's how it goes. You remember the OB with the... 505 00:27:06,207 --> 00:27:07,457 Husband who was the dancer. 506 00:27:08,001 --> 00:27:09,881 Yes. And all that jazz. 507 00:27:09,878 --> 00:27:12,668 I gotta go, but hey, listen, really, thank you so much for this. 508 00:27:12,672 --> 00:27:13,882 Good luck. 509 00:27:14,007 --> 00:27:15,507 Bye. 510 00:27:15,508 --> 00:27:16,638 Get him away from me. 511 00:27:16,635 --> 00:27:17,925 - What happened? - He did something. 512 00:27:17,927 --> 00:27:19,047 Get him out! 513 00:27:19,262 --> 00:27:22,182 I think we may need to get psych in here. 514 00:27:22,182 --> 00:27:24,062 What did you do? What happened? 515 00:27:24,392 --> 00:27:26,102 Are you planning on being a baby 516 00:27:26,102 --> 00:27:27,562 - or delivering a baby? - Hold on. 517 00:27:27,562 --> 00:27:31,022 - That's not how you talk to a patient. - What? A patient? 518 00:27:33,193 --> 00:27:35,453 Toby later found out what had happened. 519 00:27:35,445 --> 00:27:38,655 The doctor had intentionally ruptured her membrane 520 00:27:38,657 --> 00:27:41,487 and broken her water without her consent. 521 00:27:41,493 --> 00:27:43,453 Anyone could've predicted the rest. 522 00:27:49,376 --> 00:27:51,836 Okay. Thank you. Okay. 523 00:27:52,629 --> 00:27:54,459 Is that okay? Okay. 524 00:27:54,464 --> 00:27:56,344 Yes, of course. Thank you. Yeah. 525 00:27:57,384 --> 00:27:59,554 Thank you so much. Hi, hi. 526 00:28:00,136 --> 00:28:03,716 He understood then that this wasn't just a bad delivery. 527 00:28:03,723 --> 00:28:04,813 She was hurt. 528 00:28:05,850 --> 00:28:09,730 That night, he wanted to kill the doctor for what he'd done to Rachel. 529 00:28:10,313 --> 00:28:12,693 But someone had to watch the baby. 530 00:28:14,859 --> 00:28:16,069 You should hold her. 531 00:28:17,904 --> 00:28:20,284 How can I hold a baby when I can't feel my legs? 532 00:28:29,249 --> 00:28:30,629 - Thanks. - Of course. 533 00:28:32,502 --> 00:28:34,172 You really should hold her now. 534 00:28:37,257 --> 00:28:38,507 Okay. Give her to me. 535 00:28:38,508 --> 00:28:39,588 Okay. 536 00:28:42,971 --> 00:28:44,011 Okay. 537 00:29:03,491 --> 00:29:05,541 Toby waited for things to get back to normal. 538 00:29:05,535 --> 00:29:08,115 His family visited, excited to meet the new baby. 539 00:29:08,121 --> 00:29:09,211 Hey, she likes you. 540 00:29:09,372 --> 00:29:12,212 But Rachel felt compelled to tell each visitor about the birth. 541 00:29:12,208 --> 00:29:15,878 Our usual doctor was in Hawaii, of course. 542 00:29:15,879 --> 00:29:19,919 And so, I'm propped there, I'm writhing in pain, 543 00:29:19,924 --> 00:29:23,514 when this guy, he takes his hands and he tells me 544 00:29:23,511 --> 00:29:27,391 he's only gonna examine me, but the minute Toby leaves the room, 545 00:29:28,183 --> 00:29:33,103 he starts to examine me, but he's not really examining me, 546 00:29:33,104 --> 00:29:37,484 like he's doing something, like it hurts, you know? 547 00:29:37,484 --> 00:29:40,034 Don't tell me he was removing the membrane? 548 00:29:40,028 --> 00:29:41,108 Yes. 549 00:29:41,112 --> 00:29:43,412 And then he broke my water. 550 00:29:43,531 --> 00:29:45,491 Not a word to me. 551 00:29:45,492 --> 00:29:47,242 - Nothing. - Terrible. 552 00:29:47,368 --> 00:29:49,538 - That's terrible. - No, it was terrible. 553 00:29:49,537 --> 00:29:53,077 And then, while his hands were up inside me, 554 00:29:53,082 --> 00:29:57,592 I kicked the doctor and he went flying across the room to the wall. 555 00:29:58,922 --> 00:30:00,092 It wasn't true. 556 00:30:00,089 --> 00:30:03,969 Toby wanted to ask her why she said it, but she seemed too delicate. 557 00:30:03,968 --> 00:30:05,548 She was wearing the same pair of sweatpants 558 00:30:05,553 --> 00:30:07,853 since she'd gotten home, so, he let it be. 559 00:30:08,431 --> 00:30:09,601 Here you go. 560 00:30:09,599 --> 00:30:10,769 Hi, honey. 561 00:30:12,101 --> 00:30:15,401 God, what a nice thing, to see you two in the middle of the day. 562 00:30:17,148 --> 00:30:18,818 They were in my prenatal yoga. 563 00:30:20,902 --> 00:30:22,032 You wanna go over? 564 00:30:23,613 --> 00:30:25,913 Where'd they learn to play with their babies like that? 565 00:30:25,907 --> 00:30:28,367 They didn't teach us that in the class. 566 00:30:28,535 --> 00:30:30,325 Something was very wrong. 567 00:30:35,208 --> 00:30:36,878 She's not smiling yet, 568 00:30:36,876 --> 00:30:39,416 and the book said that it's six weeks. 569 00:30:39,420 --> 00:30:41,380 Smiling's an imitative behavior. 570 00:30:41,381 --> 00:30:43,971 So, you have to be smiled at in order to smile back. 571 00:30:46,553 --> 00:30:47,853 Are you smiling at her? 572 00:30:48,263 --> 00:30:50,523 Yeah. Yeah. 573 00:30:54,769 --> 00:30:56,149 Have you talked to someone? 574 00:30:56,145 --> 00:30:57,725 Yeah, I know. I keep telling her. 575 00:30:58,064 --> 00:31:00,404 You have to take care of yourself here, Rachel. 576 00:31:00,400 --> 00:31:02,530 Like they say on the airplane, you have to secure 577 00:31:02,527 --> 00:31:05,147 your own oxygen mask before you secure the children's, 578 00:31:05,697 --> 00:31:08,987 because you can't help them if you can't breathe yourself. 579 00:31:13,788 --> 00:31:16,418 - I ruined her. - No, stop that. Stop that. 580 00:31:16,416 --> 00:31:18,376 Honey, don't say that. 581 00:31:18,376 --> 00:31:21,166 Seriously, this is normal. A lot of mothers go through this. 582 00:31:25,216 --> 00:31:27,716 You know, you actually should go. 583 00:31:29,137 --> 00:31:30,557 You know how I feel about therapy. 584 00:31:30,555 --> 00:31:33,345 I do know. Rachel, that is like... It's so archaic, honey. 585 00:31:33,349 --> 00:31:34,479 It's for rich people... 586 00:31:34,475 --> 00:31:36,435 ...who don't realize they don't have problems. 587 00:31:36,603 --> 00:31:39,613 Yes, I know. But can you just try it? 588 00:31:43,610 --> 00:31:46,400 Fine. Fine. I'll go, okay? 589 00:31:46,404 --> 00:31:49,664 - God. You're like the Gestapo. - No. I'm not. 590 00:31:49,657 --> 00:31:52,367 That's not really how the Gestapo worked, honey. 591 00:31:52,493 --> 00:31:55,543 He knew what was happening to her wasn't in her control 592 00:31:55,538 --> 00:31:57,578 and he didn't blame her. 593 00:31:57,707 --> 00:31:59,287 But she was really missing out. 594 00:32:09,427 --> 00:32:10,597 - Hey. - Hey. 595 00:32:10,595 --> 00:32:11,675 How was it? 596 00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:13,680 It was fine. 597 00:32:14,891 --> 00:32:18,941 I don't love sharing in groups, but yeah, it was fine. Whatever. 598 00:32:22,690 --> 00:32:24,030 No, I'm not talking about it. 599 00:32:25,109 --> 00:32:26,989 If you're making me go there and talk about it 600 00:32:26,986 --> 00:32:30,526 and then I have to talk to you about talking about it, you can kill me now. 601 00:32:31,240 --> 00:32:34,200 Okay. I'm just happy to hear it worked. 602 00:32:35,453 --> 00:32:36,793 You can go again Thursday. 603 00:32:48,299 --> 00:32:49,469 Hello? 604 00:32:49,801 --> 00:32:50,841 Rachel? 605 00:32:53,554 --> 00:32:55,604 Have you been out at all today? 606 00:32:58,309 --> 00:32:59,349 Have I? 607 00:33:01,604 --> 00:33:02,614 No. 608 00:33:03,898 --> 00:33:05,398 I thought you were doing better. 609 00:33:07,276 --> 00:33:09,276 No, I am. I'm just... 610 00:33:10,863 --> 00:33:12,453 I'm so tired. 611 00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:17,370 I feel like... I don't know, I just feel like I'm in... 612 00:33:18,913 --> 00:33:20,833 ...the wrong gear or something. 613 00:33:20,832 --> 00:33:24,092 Hey, listen. I have to say this, I think you should see someone. 614 00:33:25,169 --> 00:33:28,009 A therapist, not a support group, okay? 615 00:33:28,006 --> 00:33:30,926 But a person, and maybe even a psychiatrist. 616 00:33:30,925 --> 00:33:32,925 - They have medications. - Enough about therapy. 617 00:33:32,927 --> 00:33:34,427 Toby, I don't need therapy. 618 00:33:34,429 --> 00:33:37,389 What I need is help with this baby. 619 00:33:38,975 --> 00:33:40,305 Oh. 620 00:33:40,309 --> 00:33:42,849 Then that's okay. That's great. 621 00:33:44,313 --> 00:33:45,863 Let's get us a nanny. 622 00:33:51,571 --> 00:33:53,871 So, Ria Edelman said you're just great. 623 00:33:54,198 --> 00:33:56,868 Their children are beautiful, but they're older now. 624 00:33:56,868 --> 00:33:59,248 It's nice that you get to help out. Right, Rach? 625 00:33:59,245 --> 00:34:01,285 It's an amazing thing to see children grow. 626 00:34:01,414 --> 00:34:02,464 - It's a privilege. - Yeah. 627 00:34:03,916 --> 00:34:05,126 May I hold her? 628 00:34:12,383 --> 00:34:13,683 It's okay. Okay? 629 00:34:13,676 --> 00:34:16,676 Sorry, that is amazing. How did you do that? 630 00:34:16,679 --> 00:34:18,059 I have a calm energy. 631 00:34:18,056 --> 00:34:19,136 Huh. 632 00:34:22,226 --> 00:34:23,596 I think you're hired. 633 00:34:30,276 --> 00:34:32,566 And things seemed to get better from there. 634 00:34:35,490 --> 00:34:37,830 And then, just over a month later... 635 00:34:41,954 --> 00:34:44,424 - Mona. - Hello, Mr. Toby. 636 00:34:44,582 --> 00:34:47,502 - Where's Rachel? Oh. - She went out. 637 00:34:47,502 --> 00:34:48,592 Huh. 638 00:34:50,046 --> 00:34:51,876 - Is that formula? - Yes, Mr. Toby. 639 00:34:52,882 --> 00:34:53,882 Okay. 640 00:34:54,884 --> 00:34:57,974 All right. I got her. Yeah. 641 00:34:58,096 --> 00:35:00,216 Thank you so much. 642 00:35:00,348 --> 00:35:02,228 Okay. Have a good night, okay? 643 00:35:03,142 --> 00:35:06,522 It turned out earlier that morning, after Toby left for work, 644 00:35:06,521 --> 00:35:09,981 Rachel had decided that her maternity leave was over. 645 00:35:10,149 --> 00:35:12,779 She decided to leave Al Fouz and Lichtenstein, 646 00:35:12,777 --> 00:35:13,897 raid its staff, 647 00:35:13,903 --> 00:35:18,203 poach its most bankable client, and start a whole new agency. 648 00:35:18,324 --> 00:35:20,084 She stayed out until 4:00 a.m. that night 649 00:35:20,076 --> 00:35:22,196 with her new employees at Eight and a Half, 650 00:35:22,203 --> 00:35:25,373 celebrating the creation of Fleishman and Company, 651 00:35:25,373 --> 00:35:27,673 a new theater-focused agency 652 00:35:27,667 --> 00:35:29,247 that was small enough to give its clients 653 00:35:29,252 --> 00:35:31,962 the attention they needed to be able to thrive. 654 00:35:43,808 --> 00:35:44,808 You changed. 655 00:35:46,310 --> 00:35:48,060 And that was that. 656 00:35:48,646 --> 00:35:51,106 Meanwhile, Toby's career was continuing apace, 657 00:35:51,107 --> 00:35:54,147 but his support of his wife's ambition was costing him. 658 00:35:54,318 --> 00:35:56,148 He couldn't take the lead on research. 659 00:35:56,154 --> 00:35:58,284 He couldn't have drinks with the other doctors after work, 660 00:35:58,281 --> 00:36:00,371 so that he could go home and relieve Mona. 661 00:36:00,700 --> 00:36:02,160 It felt like everyone around him 662 00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:04,950 was catapulting somehow higher and faster. 663 00:36:04,954 --> 00:36:06,664 He'd heard his old med school rival, 664 00:36:06,664 --> 00:36:09,754 Aaron Schwartz, had made Subdivision Head at Methodist. 665 00:36:09,750 --> 00:36:11,290 But Aaron Schwartz didn't have a wife 666 00:36:11,294 --> 00:36:13,174 who saw three new Broadway shows premiere 667 00:36:13,171 --> 00:36:15,761 the same year she delivered a second child. 668 00:36:15,882 --> 00:36:19,142 Aaron Schwartz didn't get to take pride in watching someone he loved 669 00:36:19,135 --> 00:36:21,595 build something massive and important. 670 00:36:21,971 --> 00:36:24,221 Toby felt lucky, not because of the money. 671 00:36:24,223 --> 00:36:25,603 That wasn't important to him. 672 00:36:26,058 --> 00:36:28,808 But because he got to spend this time with his kids. 673 00:36:28,978 --> 00:36:31,148 They had these great kids. 674 00:36:31,314 --> 00:36:34,284 He worried Rachel would look back on this time and regret it. 675 00:36:34,567 --> 00:36:35,857 Oh, my God! 676 00:36:35,860 --> 00:36:37,570 Can you guys keep it down? 677 00:36:40,823 --> 00:36:41,823 Maybe. 678 00:36:46,621 --> 00:36:47,791 This is a preschool interview. 679 00:36:47,788 --> 00:36:50,288 Why does this have to be a blood sport like everything else? 680 00:36:50,291 --> 00:36:51,831 It's a kindergarten interview. 681 00:36:51,834 --> 00:36:54,754 It's serious. This is where her future gets determined. 682 00:36:54,754 --> 00:36:56,094 - Okay. - You have to be someone. 683 00:36:56,255 --> 00:36:59,925 Show you come from somewhere. So, what's our story? 684 00:36:59,926 --> 00:37:01,546 Our story? That we're good people, 685 00:37:01,552 --> 00:37:03,222 that we'll pay the ridiculous tuition. 686 00:37:03,221 --> 00:37:04,511 - I don't know. - Really, I mean it. 687 00:37:04,513 --> 00:37:06,223 - Be serious. - Okay. 688 00:37:10,269 --> 00:37:13,399 Uh, yes. Yes. No, no, no. I'm here. 689 00:37:15,024 --> 00:37:17,444 You have to go with your gut, Alex. You just do. 690 00:37:17,443 --> 00:37:19,743 Look what your gut has given the world so far. 691 00:37:19,737 --> 00:37:21,947 Hey, we're in the middle of something. Okay. 692 00:37:24,158 --> 00:37:27,328 No, no. No. Let's figure it out. Okay. 693 00:37:27,328 --> 00:37:29,618 So, you've got these two characters 694 00:37:29,622 --> 00:37:31,752 who are not only trying to overcome this... 695 00:37:31,749 --> 00:37:33,459 All right. I'm going to the gym. 696 00:37:33,584 --> 00:37:37,634 They're inside a world that's changing faster than they want it to, right? 697 00:37:40,716 --> 00:37:42,336 Did you go to school in New York? 698 00:37:42,343 --> 00:37:44,223 Just for college. I grew up in Baltimore. 699 00:37:44,845 --> 00:37:46,215 Baltimore. 700 00:37:47,974 --> 00:37:49,564 - Hi. - Hi. 701 00:37:49,558 --> 00:37:51,518 - Is this Toby? - This is Toby. 702 00:37:51,519 --> 00:37:53,349 - Rachel tells me you're a doctor. - Mm-hmm. 703 00:37:53,354 --> 00:37:54,484 Good for you. 704 00:37:55,731 --> 00:37:58,361 - Hi. Thanks. - This is Rachel's husband Toby. 705 00:37:58,359 --> 00:37:59,859 He's a doctor. 706 00:37:59,860 --> 00:38:01,950 A doctor. Good for you. 707 00:38:03,572 --> 00:38:06,282 So, we're gonna go upstairs. We'll start with refreshments. 708 00:38:06,575 --> 00:38:08,365 Does a 5-year-old really need all this? 709 00:38:08,369 --> 00:38:10,789 Just look around here. I mean like... 710 00:38:10,788 --> 00:38:11,998 - Hi. - What? 711 00:38:12,790 --> 00:38:14,960 - This is a place where they'll thrive. - Yeah? 712 00:38:15,209 --> 00:38:16,749 - Look at this place. - Yeah, I know. 713 00:38:16,752 --> 00:38:20,012 I keep thinking what would've happened to me 714 00:38:20,006 --> 00:38:23,376 if I had gone to a school like this? I would've had a place in the world. 715 00:38:23,384 --> 00:38:25,764 I just don't know if we need to be in such an elitist world. 716 00:38:25,761 --> 00:38:27,811 You came from nothing. You're an ambition monster. 717 00:38:27,805 --> 00:38:29,635 Maybe you're only successful 'cause of that. 718 00:38:29,640 --> 00:38:32,060 - Ever think of that? - That's what you want for our kids? 719 00:38:32,059 --> 00:38:34,559 To be forced into my Great Expectations 720 00:38:34,562 --> 00:38:36,522 upbringing in order to give them character? 721 00:38:36,522 --> 00:38:38,232 No, thanks. I don't need all this character. 722 00:38:38,232 --> 00:38:41,442 Who would you be in Great Expectations? Would you be the street urchin Pip? 723 00:38:41,444 --> 00:38:44,954 Toby, how can you argue with me wanting for them to have everything? 724 00:38:45,239 --> 00:38:47,449 Yeah, this isn't everything. 725 00:38:47,575 --> 00:38:50,615 Look, okay. I know you want them to have roots and if you think 726 00:38:50,619 --> 00:38:51,749 this will give it to them... 727 00:38:51,746 --> 00:38:53,656 I just want them to be safe in the world. 728 00:38:53,664 --> 00:38:56,004 I want them to not have such a hard time. 729 00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:57,920 - How much safer can they get? - Don't you see? 730 00:38:57,918 --> 00:38:59,958 This is why I do all of this. 731 00:38:59,962 --> 00:39:01,552 I do what I do so they can have all this. 732 00:39:01,547 --> 00:39:03,757 I feel like you're not even trying to convince me anymore. 733 00:39:03,758 --> 00:39:05,718 - You're just telling me how it is. - That's not true. 734 00:39:05,718 --> 00:39:09,008 Okay. I believe in public school as a value. 735 00:39:09,680 --> 00:39:13,430 You're trying to make me say that I don't and I'm not falling for it. 736 00:39:15,186 --> 00:39:18,146 All right. All right. Whatever you want, Rachel. 737 00:39:19,357 --> 00:39:20,397 Really. 738 00:39:20,775 --> 00:39:22,065 Thank you. 739 00:39:22,193 --> 00:39:23,403 - Really. - Okay. 740 00:39:27,073 --> 00:39:28,073 Oh... 741 00:39:32,870 --> 00:39:34,370 I'm Rachel Fleishman. 742 00:39:34,372 --> 00:39:38,712 We have two kids who I think would just be so happy here. 743 00:39:41,337 --> 00:39:45,297 Rachel couldn't compete with donations or her name on classrooms 744 00:39:45,466 --> 00:39:47,966 and she hadn't gone to the same country clubs and tennis camps 745 00:39:47,968 --> 00:39:49,928 that all the other parents seemed to have gone to together 746 00:39:49,929 --> 00:39:52,059 when they were children. 747 00:39:52,056 --> 00:39:55,096 But that didn't stop her from using what she could to climb. 748 00:39:55,976 --> 00:39:59,146 She bought their friendship, one house seat at a time. 749 00:40:01,565 --> 00:40:04,895 Then it was 10 years of small moments that added up to a lot. 750 00:40:08,906 --> 00:40:12,276 Rachel became more consumed by her drive for wealth and success, 751 00:40:12,284 --> 00:40:14,124 until he didn't recognize her anymore. 752 00:40:15,704 --> 00:40:16,914 Or himself. 753 00:40:18,499 --> 00:40:22,089 Toby liked to say the end of his marriage happened like the fall of Rome, 754 00:40:22,086 --> 00:40:23,916 slowly, then all at once. 755 00:40:26,006 --> 00:40:28,006 This was the night of all at once. 756 00:40:47,445 --> 00:40:48,445 Philadelphia? 757 00:40:48,446 --> 00:40:50,406 It's the head of the department, the top. 758 00:40:50,406 --> 00:40:53,326 - What happened to patient interface? - It would mean a lot more money. 759 00:40:53,325 --> 00:40:55,075 You always say you want me to make more money 760 00:40:55,077 --> 00:40:57,747 - and we'd live like kings in Philly. - Just outside Philadelphia. 761 00:40:57,746 --> 00:41:01,206 Doing what exactly? I'm a talent agent for theater. 762 00:41:01,208 --> 00:41:04,168 It might be the change we need. This is too... 763 00:41:04,170 --> 00:41:07,670 - You're working too much, Rach. - I have an agency. I have employees. 764 00:41:07,673 --> 00:41:09,553 Something has to change. You're never here. 765 00:41:09,550 --> 00:41:10,970 The kids don't see you. Last week, 766 00:41:10,968 --> 00:41:13,048 - when Solly had the state report... - Do not bring up 767 00:41:13,053 --> 00:41:15,513 - the state report, please. - Okay. Okay. 768 00:41:15,639 --> 00:41:18,389 I love my work. I've built something I love. 769 00:41:18,392 --> 00:41:20,902 Do you understand that? To take that away from me 770 00:41:20,895 --> 00:41:22,935 because you want, what, 771 00:41:22,938 --> 00:41:24,688 - more attention? - What? No. Excuse me. 772 00:41:24,690 --> 00:41:27,280 - I want what's best for us, okay? - And what a coincidence. 773 00:41:27,276 --> 00:41:29,066 That means choosing what's best for you. 774 00:41:29,069 --> 00:41:30,199 All right. 775 00:41:30,696 --> 00:41:33,236 I'm happy. 776 00:41:33,365 --> 00:41:35,525 We finally have a real apartment. 777 00:41:35,534 --> 00:41:39,004 Our kids are at a theater school. My job is infinitely more rewarding than 778 00:41:38,996 --> 00:41:41,166 being sexually harassed by a middle management dipshit. 779 00:41:41,165 --> 00:41:44,455 I run the largest small theater agency in all of New York. 780 00:41:44,460 --> 00:41:47,920 - Okay. - No, you couldn't understand how rare 781 00:41:47,922 --> 00:41:51,092 and important that is 'cause your entire life has been laid out for you. 782 00:41:51,091 --> 00:41:53,261 - The greatest hits. - No, med school, intern, 783 00:41:53,260 --> 00:41:55,100 - residence, fellow, attending. - Yeah. 784 00:41:55,095 --> 00:41:58,135 You don't have to strategize or plan or make connections. 785 00:41:58,140 --> 00:42:01,600 The system does that for you. I don't have that luxury. 786 00:42:01,602 --> 00:42:04,192 Everything I have, I've had to scratch for. 787 00:42:04,188 --> 00:42:05,358 I mean, even now. 788 00:42:07,233 --> 00:42:08,983 No, I'm not moving anywhere, Toby. 789 00:42:08,984 --> 00:42:11,614 - I wouldn't earn this much anywhere. - Yeah. Money doesn't 790 00:42:11,612 --> 00:42:14,202 - buy you happiness. - Toby! Of course it does. 791 00:42:16,325 --> 00:42:17,945 What, are you crazy? 792 00:42:19,828 --> 00:42:21,328 He prayed she wouldn't answer it. 793 00:42:21,330 --> 00:42:24,170 He said, "Please, God, don't let her answer it. 794 00:42:24,166 --> 00:42:26,956 "Please, God, let her find this more important. 795 00:42:26,961 --> 00:42:29,131 "Please, God, let her find us more important. 796 00:42:29,255 --> 00:42:31,755 "Please, God, let her find me more important." 797 00:42:34,176 --> 00:42:35,296 Rachel Fleishman. 798 00:42:38,597 --> 00:42:39,637 Fuck. Damn it. 799 00:42:40,432 --> 00:42:41,522 Amazing. 800 00:42:42,017 --> 00:42:43,387 Is that oregano? 801 00:42:44,270 --> 00:42:45,690 - Um... - Marjoram. 802 00:42:46,188 --> 00:42:48,148 - Oh. - With a touch of tarragon. 803 00:42:49,149 --> 00:42:51,529 - I'd love to see you make a meal. - It is so good. 804 00:42:51,527 --> 00:42:55,157 Hey, did anyone figure out if the US-wide summer thing is still bad? 805 00:42:55,322 --> 00:42:57,702 I thought you might have a little more self-respect in making sure 806 00:42:57,700 --> 00:42:59,200 everybody knows you cooked the meal. 807 00:42:59,201 --> 00:43:00,741 - But I did cook it. - I could cook a meal 808 00:43:00,744 --> 00:43:02,794 - if I didn't have to work. - I cooked to impress 809 00:43:02,788 --> 00:43:04,498 your stupid friends and you're disappointed. 810 00:43:04,498 --> 00:43:07,708 I just realized you don't even know you're trying to humiliate me. 811 00:43:07,710 --> 00:43:09,460 - You guys need help in there? - No, thanks. 812 00:43:09,461 --> 00:43:10,591 Almost got it. 813 00:43:10,588 --> 00:43:14,048 Why don't you put the dessert out 'cause you worked so fucking hard on it. 814 00:43:16,051 --> 00:43:19,431 Mine is George Stephanopoulos, his is Naomi Campbell. 815 00:43:19,430 --> 00:43:22,770 Still? She must be, what, in her 50s? 816 00:43:22,766 --> 00:43:24,436 Forties. Sixties. 817 00:43:24,435 --> 00:43:25,975 Oh, God. 818 00:43:25,978 --> 00:43:28,058 - Mine is Mark Wahlberg. - Gross. 819 00:43:28,063 --> 00:43:31,283 - See what I have to deal with here? - There is something about him. 820 00:43:31,275 --> 00:43:33,645 - I could save him. - Guy's a fast food billionaire. 821 00:43:33,652 --> 00:43:35,402 He doesn't need to be saved. 822 00:43:35,404 --> 00:43:38,494 Mine used to be Ariana Grande. 823 00:43:38,490 --> 00:43:39,620 Okay. 824 00:43:39,617 --> 00:43:42,537 I just like someone who looks like she's a little too good for me. 825 00:43:42,828 --> 00:43:45,078 Like my beautiful wifey here. 826 00:43:45,080 --> 00:43:46,620 You're just saying that, so I'll forget 827 00:43:46,624 --> 00:43:49,174 - your free pass is an actual child. - Do you have anyone 828 00:43:49,168 --> 00:43:51,668 - who is of a normal age? - She's in her 20s. 829 00:43:51,670 --> 00:43:52,760 She just looks younger. 830 00:43:52,755 --> 00:43:54,335 Is that supposed to be better? 831 00:43:55,507 --> 00:43:57,927 - Who's your free pass, Rachel? - What do you mean? 832 00:43:57,926 --> 00:44:01,096 Free pass, who you would sleep with if Toby turned a blind eye. 833 00:44:01,096 --> 00:44:02,966 God. This is what we're talking about? 834 00:44:02,973 --> 00:44:04,223 Come on. 835 00:44:04,224 --> 00:44:05,774 We've all answered. 836 00:44:08,604 --> 00:44:09,654 Sam Rothberg. 837 00:44:12,816 --> 00:44:15,276 What? What? What did I say that's wrong? 838 00:44:16,654 --> 00:44:18,614 You're supposed to pick a celebrity. 839 00:44:18,614 --> 00:44:20,664 You're not supposed to pick someone you know. 840 00:44:20,783 --> 00:44:23,293 Suddenly, Ariana Grande doesn't seem so bad? 841 00:44:24,495 --> 00:44:25,615 Honey. 842 00:44:27,039 --> 00:44:30,829 So, what should we discuss next? Politics or religion? 843 00:44:31,585 --> 00:44:33,705 Stop. Stop. 844 00:44:33,879 --> 00:44:36,669 This looks fabulous, you guys. Absolutely. 845 00:44:36,674 --> 00:44:37,974 And that was that. 846 00:44:40,427 --> 00:44:42,217 And that's when it hit him. 847 00:44:47,810 --> 00:44:49,060 Sam Rothberg. 848 00:44:49,353 --> 00:44:52,233 Sam fucking Rothberg. 849 00:45:22,594 --> 00:45:25,684 Rachel wasn't gone. She wasn't in danger. 850 00:45:25,681 --> 00:45:29,441 She was with the one person who represented everything Toby hated 851 00:45:29,435 --> 00:45:32,015 on the Upper East Side, in the whole world. 852 00:45:32,020 --> 00:45:34,150 - She was with... - Sam Rothberg.