1 00:00:02,133 --> 00:00:04,505 I'VE SEEN A LOT OF SURGERY RESIDENTS 2 00:00:04,505 --> 00:00:06,507 COME AND GO IN MY TIME, 3 00:00:06,507 --> 00:00:09,210 AND THEY'RE ALL ADDICTED... TO SURGERY. 4 00:00:09,210 --> 00:00:11,142 IT COMES BEFORE FOOD, 5 00:00:11,142 --> 00:00:13,714 BEFORE SLEEP. 6 00:00:13,714 --> 00:00:15,716 IT BECOMES THE MOST IMPORTANT THING... 7 00:00:15,716 --> 00:00:17,088 WHAT? 8 00:00:17,088 --> 00:00:19,120 NOTHING. 9 00:00:19,120 --> 00:00:21,152 WELL, GO AWAY. 10 00:00:21,152 --> 00:00:23,023 YOU LOOK NICE. 11 00:00:23,023 --> 00:00:25,396 GO AWAY. 12 00:00:25,396 --> 00:00:28,799 THE ONLY THING. 13 00:00:28,799 --> 00:00:34,034 WHAT THEY DON'T KNOW IS THAT LIVING ON THAT HIGH... 14 00:00:34,034 --> 00:00:36,036 CAN EAT THEM ALIVE. 15 00:00:36,036 --> 00:00:38,038 I CAN'T DO IT. OF COURSE YOU CAN. 16 00:00:38,038 --> 00:00:40,471 OH, MY GOD. I'M GONNA HURL AGAIN. OKAY, PLEASE DON'T, 17 00:00:40,471 --> 00:00:44,215 'COS I JUST GOT THE LAST OF THE PUKE OUT OF YOUR HAIR. WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THIS? 18 00:00:44,215 --> 00:00:46,647 I'M NOT A PUBLIC SPEAKER. IT'S NOT MY THING. 19 00:00:46,647 --> 00:00:49,650 GOD, I HATE DEREK SHEPHERD. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS TALK ABOUT BEING A GREAT SURGEON. 20 00:00:49,650 --> 00:00:51,682 TO A GIANT ROOM FULL OF PEOPLE... 21 00:00:51,682 --> 00:00:53,554 FROM A GIANT STAGE. 22 00:00:53,554 --> 00:00:55,686 OH, GOD. WITH A MICROPHONE. 23 00:00:55,686 --> 00:00:58,359 SOME MAKE IT THROUGH. 24 00:00:58,359 --> 00:01:02,133 THEY COME OUT ON THE OTHER SIDE. 25 00:01:02,133 --> 00:01:06,697 THEY SURVIVE WITH THEIR SANITY INTACT. 26 00:01:09,370 --> 00:01:12,203 THEY BECOME... BETTER DOCTORS 27 00:01:12,203 --> 00:01:16,307 AND STRONGER PEOPLE. 28 00:01:16,307 --> 00:01:20,151 I DIDN'T. 29 00:01:20,151 --> 00:01:22,213 I BROKE. 30 00:01:22,213 --> 00:01:24,185 I DIDN'T KILL ANYBODY. 31 00:01:24,185 --> 00:01:28,459 AND I GIVE THANKS FOR THAT EVERY DAY. 32 00:01:28,459 --> 00:01:30,861 BUT I HURT PEOPLE, 33 00:01:30,861 --> 00:01:33,564 AND SCARED THE HELL OUT OF MYSELF. 34 00:01:35,566 --> 00:01:39,470 I AM 45 DAYS SOBER TODAY. 35 00:01:39,470 --> 00:01:41,202 I AM RICHARD, 36 00:01:41,202 --> 00:01:46,737 AND I AM A GRATEFUL AND RECOVERING ALCOHOLIC. 37 00:01:53,844 --> 00:01:55,846 I WAS TOLD IF I WENT TO REHAB, 38 00:01:55,846 --> 00:01:58,889 MY JOB WOULD BE WAITING FOR ME. PENDING BOARD APPROVAL. 39 00:01:58,889 --> 00:02:00,451 I'M SORRY, RICHARD. 40 00:02:00,451 --> 00:02:03,724 YOU KNOW, MAYBE THEY'LL REASSESS IN A FEW MONTHS. 41 00:02:03,724 --> 00:02:06,857 I'VE BEEN AUTHORIZED TO OFFER YOU A POSITION 42 00:02:06,857 --> 00:02:10,361 AS AN ATTENDING GENERAL SURGEON. 43 00:02:10,361 --> 00:02:12,363 YOU WANT ME TO COME WORK UNDER YOU? 44 00:02:12,363 --> 00:02:14,405 YES, THAT'S THE STIPULATION. 45 00:02:14,405 --> 00:02:16,637 THANKS FOR THE OFFER, BUT, NO. 46 00:02:16,637 --> 00:02:18,469 I'LL FIGURE SOMETHING ELSE OUT. 47 00:02:22,813 --> 00:02:26,277 RICHARD, IT'S LECTURE DAY, AND I HAVE AN OPEN SPOT. 48 00:02:26,277 --> 00:02:28,619 LECTURE DAY? YOU BROUGHT THAT BACK? 49 00:02:28,619 --> 00:02:30,851 LOOK, I UNDERSTAND IF YOU DON'T WANT TO COME BACK. 50 00:02:30,851 --> 00:02:33,284 BUT IF YOU'RE REALLY GONNA LEAVE THIS PLACE, 51 00:02:33,284 --> 00:02:36,927 DON'T LEAVE IT THE WAY YOU DID. GIVE ONE LAST LECTURE. 52 00:02:45,796 --> 00:02:47,568 GOOD MORNING. GOOD MORNING. 53 00:02:47,568 --> 00:02:49,169 GOOD MORNING, EVERYBODY. 54 00:02:49,169 --> 00:02:50,701 GOOD MORNING. 55 00:02:50,701 --> 00:02:52,573 I'M EXCITED. 56 00:02:52,573 --> 00:02:54,345 ARE YOU EXCITED? 57 00:02:56,347 --> 00:02:58,379 THIS IS A, UH, TEACHING HOSPITAL. 58 00:02:58,379 --> 00:03:00,451 WE LEARN A LOT BY DOING. 59 00:03:00,451 --> 00:03:03,284 WE CAN ALSO LEARN-- WE SHOULD ALSO LEARN-- 60 00:03:03,284 --> 00:03:05,256 FROM OTHER PEOPLE'S EXPERIENCES. 61 00:03:05,256 --> 00:03:06,917 THEIR LOSSES 62 00:03:06,917 --> 00:03:08,889 WILL SAVE YOU LOSSES. 63 00:03:08,889 --> 00:03:11,862 THEIR MISTAKES WILL SAVE YOU MISTAKES. 64 00:03:11,862 --> 00:03:14,625 THEIR VICTORIES WILL INSPIRE YOURS. 65 00:03:14,625 --> 00:03:17,368 LET'S PAY CLOSE ATTENTION. THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD. 66 00:03:17,368 --> 00:03:19,430 DR. MIRANDA BAILEY. 67 00:03:19,430 --> 00:03:21,802 WHOO! 68 00:03:26,577 --> 00:03:28,909 GOOD MORNING, EVERYONE. GOOD MORNING. 69 00:03:32,243 --> 00:03:33,584 OW. 70 00:03:33,584 --> 00:03:35,716 MORNING, DR. YANG. 71 00:03:35,716 --> 00:03:37,888 WHAT THE... 72 00:03:37,888 --> 00:03:40,591 IF I HAVE TO STAND HERE, YOU HAVE TO LISTEN. 73 00:03:40,591 --> 00:03:41,892 EYES FORWARD. 74 00:03:41,892 --> 00:03:44,325 ANSWER A QUESTION RIGHT, YOU GET A CHOCOLATE. 75 00:03:44,325 --> 00:03:46,797 DOZE OFF, YOU GET BEANED IN THE FACE. 76 00:03:46,797 --> 00:03:49,900 ASK DR. YANG. MY AIM IS EXCEPTIONAL. 77 00:03:49,900 --> 00:03:51,902 2003... 78 00:03:51,902 --> 00:03:54,635 I'M THREE DAYS INTO MY INTERN YEAR. 79 00:03:54,635 --> 00:03:55,936 ANYONE? 80 00:03:55,936 --> 00:03:57,908 ALICIA TATUM, 81 00:03:57,908 --> 00:03:59,910 STATUS POST-OOPHORECTOMY THREE MONTHS AGO, 82 00:03:59,910 --> 00:04:02,873 NOW PRESENTS WITH FEVER AND NONFOCAL ABDOMINAL PAIN. 83 00:04:02,873 --> 00:04:05,646 OKAY. WHAT DOES HER WORKUP SHOW? 84 00:04:05,646 --> 00:04:08,349 MULTIPLE STONES AND WALL THICKENING. EXCU-EXCUSE ME? 85 00:04:08,349 --> 00:04:10,951 MULTIPLE GALLBLADDER STONES AND WALL THICKENING. 86 00:04:10,951 --> 00:04:14,785 WOULD YOU RECOMMEND WE DO IT OPEN OR LAPAROSCOPICALLY? LAPAROSCOPICALLY. 87 00:04:14,785 --> 00:04:17,728 UH, WHO SAID THAT? 88 00:04:17,728 --> 00:04:19,660 WHO--WHO SAID THAT? 89 00:04:19,660 --> 00:04:21,632 UH... 90 00:04:21,632 --> 00:04:23,334 SIR. 91 00:04:23,334 --> 00:04:24,395 MM. 92 00:04:26,036 --> 00:04:28,539 YOU'VE, UH, HAD A PRETTY ROUGH GO OF IT, HUH? 93 00:04:28,539 --> 00:04:30,040 NOTHING HELPS THE PAIN. 94 00:04:30,040 --> 00:04:32,743 I'VE SEEN MORE DOCTORS THAN I CAN COUNT. 95 00:04:32,743 --> 00:04:36,006 HOPEFULLY WE'LL BE THE LAST... EIGHT. 96 00:04:38,008 --> 00:04:40,811 WE'RE GONNA GET TO THE BOTTOM OF THIS, OKAY? 97 00:04:40,811 --> 00:04:44,054 LET'S PREP HER FOR SURGERY. 98 00:04:45,956 --> 00:04:47,588 YOU. 99 00:04:49,019 --> 00:04:51,562 UH, UH, MANDY. 100 00:04:51,562 --> 00:04:54,064 MANDY? THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE GOING WITH? 101 00:04:54,064 --> 00:04:57,067 BOY, YOUR PARENTS REALLY WANTED YOU TO WORK FOR IT, HUH? 102 00:04:57,067 --> 00:05:00,070 DRAW SOME BLOOD AND TAKE HER FOR HER PRE-OP X-RAY. 103 00:05:00,070 --> 00:05:03,474 UH, UH, WELL, I WAS WONDERING-- BLOOD DRAW IS TOO MUCH FOR YOU? 104 00:05:03,474 --> 00:05:06,607 NO. I CAN DRAW BLOOD. I-I-I JUST WANTED-- 105 00:05:06,607 --> 00:05:08,609 YOU DON'T HAVE WANTS OR NEEDS. 106 00:05:08,609 --> 00:05:10,911 YOU'RE AN INTERN--THE BOTTOM OF THE SURGICAL FOOD CHAIN. 107 00:05:10,911 --> 00:05:12,713 I AM A RESIDENT. 108 00:05:12,713 --> 00:05:15,315 I'VE BEEN HERE THREE YEARS. YOU'VE BEEN HERE THREE DAYS. 109 00:05:15,315 --> 00:05:17,818 DO THE MATH. DRAW HER BLOOD. 110 00:05:17,818 --> 00:05:19,920 IS SHE SHAKING? 111 00:05:19,920 --> 00:05:21,422 HMM? 112 00:05:21,422 --> 00:05:23,924 SHE'S DEFINITELY SHAKING. 113 00:05:23,924 --> 00:05:26,457 OKAY. OH, SHE'S DOING HER PEE DANCE. 114 00:05:26,457 --> 00:05:29,059 SHE DOES THAT WHEN SHE HAS TO PEE. 115 00:05:29,059 --> 00:05:32,603 OKAY, WELL, IS SHE GONNA PEE RIGHT NOW? MM. 116 00:05:32,603 --> 00:05:34,835 OH. NO, NO, NO. 117 00:05:34,835 --> 00:05:37,107 THAT'S NOT THE RIGHT... 118 00:05:37,107 --> 00:05:39,109 UM... 119 00:05:40,340 --> 00:05:41,472 OKAY. 120 00:05:43,043 --> 00:05:44,645 BEAUTIFUL. 121 00:05:44,645 --> 00:05:45,946 UM... 122 00:05:45,946 --> 00:05:48,649 "IN MY THIRD YEAR AS A RESIDENT, I WAS"-- 123 00:05:48,649 --> 00:05:51,952 CAN'T HEAR YOU! SPEAK LOUDER, PLEASE! 124 00:05:51,952 --> 00:05:54,925 "IN MY THIRD YEAR AS A RESIDENT, I... 125 00:05:54,925 --> 00:05:57,958 "WAS PRESENTED WITH A PATIENT NAMED SUNDER..." 126 00:05:59,830 --> 00:06:00,961 "ATLURI, 127 00:06:00,961 --> 00:06:03,564 A 28-YEAR-OLD GRAD..." 128 00:06:05,696 --> 00:06:08,038 "STUDENT FROM INDIA." 129 00:06:10,571 --> 00:06:12,943 UH, HEY. I'M FROM ORTHO. I WAS PAGED. 130 00:06:12,943 --> 00:06:14,645 UH... 131 00:06:14,645 --> 00:06:16,947 YOU WERE PAGED BY ME. ALEX KAREV. 132 00:06:16,947 --> 00:06:20,751 YOU HAVE TO PUT ME ON THIS CASE. UM, HERE'S A NEWS FLASH, OVERLY ENTHUSIASTIC INTERN GUY. 133 00:06:20,751 --> 00:06:23,514 I DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING. OH, COME ON. 134 00:06:23,514 --> 00:06:25,716 YOU SEEM LIKE A COOL PERSON. YOU DON'T KNOW ME. 135 00:06:25,716 --> 00:06:28,118 WELL, YOU LOOK LIKE A COOL PERSON. 136 00:06:28,118 --> 00:06:30,120 I NEED SOME COOL CASES. OH. 137 00:06:30,120 --> 00:06:34,094 EVER SINCE THE ELEVATOR THING AND HEART GUY, IT'S JUST... WAIT, THAT WAS YOU? 138 00:06:34,094 --> 00:06:36,567 YOU'RE THE HEART-IN-THE-ELEVATOR GUY? 139 00:06:38,068 --> 00:06:40,971 SURE. LET'S GO WITH THAT. 140 00:06:40,971 --> 00:06:44,805 YOU'RE NOT AT ALL HOW I PICTURED YOU. WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN? 141 00:06:44,805 --> 00:06:46,807 I HEARD THE STORY-- THE HEART IN THE ELEVATOR. 142 00:06:46,807 --> 00:06:49,109 IT WAS BASICALLY "RUDY," YOU KNOW--DORKY GUY MAKES GOOD. 143 00:06:49,109 --> 00:06:51,812 BUT YOU'RE NOT DORKY. YOU'RE HOT. MAYBE I WAS DORKY 144 00:06:51,812 --> 00:06:53,814 BEFORE I SAVED THE COP IN THE ELEVATOR. 145 00:06:53,814 --> 00:06:55,816 MAYBE MY UNBELIEVABLE SKILL UNDER PRESSURE 146 00:06:55,816 --> 00:06:57,187 TRANSFORMED ME COMPLETELY. 147 00:06:57,187 --> 00:06:58,889 HMM. DID IT? 148 00:06:58,889 --> 00:07:00,751 DOES THAT TURN YOU ON? 149 00:07:03,053 --> 00:07:06,657 NO. BUT THIS DOES. 150 00:07:13,834 --> 00:07:16,607 THE CHIEF. 151 00:07:23,814 --> 00:07:25,946 UM... 152 00:07:25,946 --> 00:07:29,019 GOOD--GOOD MORNING. 153 00:07:29,019 --> 00:07:31,682 ONCE UP ON A TIME... 154 00:07:31,682 --> 00:07:35,586 LONG BEFORE I WAS CHIEF OF SURGERY, 155 00:07:35,586 --> 00:07:38,729 EVEN BEFORE I WAS AN ATTENDING, 156 00:07:38,729 --> 00:07:42,132 I WAS A RESIDENT RIGHT HERE AT SEATTLE GRACE, 157 00:07:42,132 --> 00:07:44,134 JUST LIKE YOU. 158 00:07:44,134 --> 00:07:47,868 YOU LEARN FROM EVERYTHING IN YOUR RESIDENCY-- 159 00:07:47,868 --> 00:07:50,601 THE PATIENTS, THE NURSES, 160 00:07:50,601 --> 00:07:53,073 THE ATTENDINGS. 161 00:07:53,073 --> 00:07:57,748 BUT YOU DON'T REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU LEARN FROM EACH OTHER. 162 00:07:59,750 --> 00:08:01,982 1982-- YOU WERE ALL IN DIAPERS. 163 00:08:01,982 --> 00:08:04,154 GIVE ME THE CHART ON 23-14. YES, DOCTOR. 164 00:08:04,154 --> 00:08:07,157 SO, DR. RUSSELL, I HEAR YOU SHOT A 74 LAST WEEK. 165 00:08:07,157 --> 00:08:09,860 YOU SHOULD COME TO MY CLUB WHEN YOU HAVE A DAY OFF. HERE YOU GO. 166 00:08:09,860 --> 00:08:11,862 I USED TO PLAY OUT THERE WITH YOUR FATHER. 167 00:08:11,862 --> 00:08:14,224 WE'LL SEE IF YOU MEASURE UP. OH, I'D LOVE TO, SIR. 168 00:08:14,224 --> 00:08:17,097 WE GET ANY PATH BACK YET? NOTHING'S GROWN OUT OF THE CULTURES. 169 00:08:17,097 --> 00:08:20,070 I CHECKED THEM THIS MORNING, SIR. I WENT TO THE LAB MYSELF. 170 00:08:20,070 --> 00:08:22,232 SO, DR. RUSSELL, IS HE STILL FEBRILE? 171 00:08:22,232 --> 00:08:24,004 WHERE IS IT? 172 00:08:24,004 --> 00:08:27,077 WHERE'S THAT DAMN CRASH CART? 173 00:08:27,077 --> 00:08:29,109 I WAS CHECKING HIS WOUND WHEN HE WENT INTO S.V.T. 174 00:08:29,109 --> 00:08:31,912 WITH RESPIRATORY DISTRESS. I CAN CARDIOVERT HIM OUT OF IT. 175 00:08:31,912 --> 00:08:35,145 CHARGE THE PADDLES TO 100. CHARGE PADDLES? WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE? 176 00:08:35,145 --> 00:08:37,888 HE'S HERE FOR A HERNIA SURGERY. WHAT'S HAPPENING? LOOK, THIS IS NO JOB FOR A NURSE. 177 00:08:37,888 --> 00:08:40,691 I'LL TAKE IT FROM HERE. YOU KNOW VERY WELL I AM NOT A NURSE. 178 00:08:40,691 --> 00:08:43,694 BACK OFF. 179 00:08:43,694 --> 00:08:46,056 CLEAR. 180 00:08:50,230 --> 00:08:52,603 DR. ELLIS GREY-- 181 00:08:52,603 --> 00:08:54,605 2-TIME HARPER AVERY AWARD WINNER 182 00:08:54,605 --> 00:08:57,307 AND MY COLLEAGUE ON THIS CASE-- 183 00:08:57,307 --> 00:08:59,970 A CASE THAT CHANGED MY LIFE. 184 00:09:01,942 --> 00:09:04,845 LOOK AROUND. 185 00:09:04,845 --> 00:09:07,818 THE BIGGEST INFLUENCES IN YOUR LIFE 186 00:09:07,818 --> 00:09:10,550 ARE SITTING NEXT TO YOU RIGHT NOW. 187 00:09:15,155 --> 00:09:17,227 THIS IS GONNA GET MORE INTERESTING. 188 00:09:17,227 --> 00:09:19,860 YEAH. 189 00:09:31,672 --> 00:09:35,075 THE LATE DR. ELLIS GREY WAS KNOWN AS A GROUNDBREAKER, 190 00:09:35,075 --> 00:09:36,576 A LION. 191 00:09:36,576 --> 00:09:38,578 SHE WAS THE BEST THIS HOSPITAL 192 00:09:38,578 --> 00:09:41,281 OR MOST HOSPITALS HAD EVER SEEN. 193 00:09:41,281 --> 00:09:44,584 BUT BACK THEN, SHE WAS KNOWN AS "SUGAR" 194 00:09:44,584 --> 00:09:47,317 OR "NURSE" 195 00:09:47,317 --> 00:09:49,960 OR NOTHING AT ALL. 196 00:09:51,922 --> 00:09:53,924 THIS MAN CAME IN FOR A SIMPLE HERNIA REPAIR, 197 00:09:53,924 --> 00:09:55,926 AND HE'S GETTING SICKER INSTEAD OF BETTER. 198 00:09:55,926 --> 00:09:59,029 YOU PEOPLE BETTER FIGURE OUT WHY, AND FAST. 199 00:10:05,175 --> 00:10:08,038 GUESS IT'S JUST YOU AND ME, KID. 200 00:10:08,038 --> 00:10:09,810 SURPRISE, SURPRISE. 201 00:10:09,810 --> 00:10:11,111 OH, CRAP. 202 00:10:11,111 --> 00:10:13,313 OH, COME ON. 203 00:10:13,313 --> 00:10:15,716 OH, COME ON. COME ON. 204 00:10:17,017 --> 00:10:18,989 HMM! 205 00:10:18,989 --> 00:10:21,291 COME ON, COME ON, COME ON. JUST TALK. 206 00:10:21,291 --> 00:10:23,193 HMM? 207 00:10:23,193 --> 00:10:25,155 JUST... TELL US WHAT HAPPENED. 208 00:10:27,157 --> 00:10:30,260 OKAY. 209 00:10:33,003 --> 00:10:35,205 UM... 210 00:10:35,205 --> 00:10:40,040 THERE WAS, UH, THIS PATIENT. 211 00:10:40,040 --> 00:10:42,272 HE WANTED TO GET HIS CLUBFOOT FIXED. 212 00:10:44,644 --> 00:10:46,947 BUT I HAD A DIFFERENT IDEA. 213 00:10:46,947 --> 00:10:50,180 YOU TOLD HIM HE COULD WALK? 214 00:10:50,180 --> 00:10:52,983 YES. I WAS IN THE PEACE CORPS. 215 00:10:52,983 --> 00:10:55,185 I'VE SEEN POLIO. I'VE STUDIED THE PROCEDURES. 216 00:10:55,185 --> 00:10:56,987 YOU'RE PRIVILEGED. SIR? 217 00:10:56,987 --> 00:10:58,829 YOUR APPLICATION. I REMEMBER IT. 218 00:10:58,829 --> 00:11:00,731 I'M SAYING, YOU GREW UP PRIVILEGED, 219 00:11:00,731 --> 00:11:02,362 AND THAT PRIVILEGE MADE YOU ARROGANT. 220 00:11:02,362 --> 00:11:04,364 AND ARROGANCE IN AN UNSEASONED SURGEON 221 00:11:04,364 --> 00:11:07,768 IS A VERY DANGEROUS THING. SIR, I DIDN'T MAKE THIS PROMISE LIGHTLY. 222 00:11:07,768 --> 00:11:10,040 I CAN DO THIS. 223 00:11:10,040 --> 00:11:13,073 DID YOU PROMISE HIM YOU'LL TRY 224 00:11:13,073 --> 00:11:16,206 OR DID YOU PROMISE HIM HE'LL WALK? 225 00:11:20,751 --> 00:11:23,253 ARROGANT. 226 00:11:23,253 --> 00:11:25,685 ARROGANT. 227 00:11:27,217 --> 00:11:29,389 ALL RIGHT, DR. TORRES. 228 00:11:29,389 --> 00:11:31,391 YOU'LL LIVE AND DIE ON THIS. 229 00:11:31,391 --> 00:11:34,224 THIS IS YOUR CAREER AT SEATTLE GRACE. 230 00:11:34,224 --> 00:11:37,027 HE'S SUCH AN ASS. 231 00:11:37,027 --> 00:11:39,329 DR. GRACIE DIDN'T LIKE YOUR INFECTIOUS PROCESS IDEA, 232 00:11:39,329 --> 00:11:41,932 BUT I THINK THAT'S WHAT IT'S GOTTA BE, RIGHT? 233 00:11:41,932 --> 00:11:43,934 GRACIE WOULDN'T KNOW HIS ASS FROM HIS FINGER. 234 00:11:43,934 --> 00:11:46,276 IS "ASS" THE WORD OF THE DAY? 235 00:11:46,276 --> 00:11:48,278 THERE WAS MILD HEMOLYSIS ON HIS C.B.C. 236 00:11:48,278 --> 00:11:50,240 ANEMIA? RHABDO? 237 00:11:50,240 --> 00:11:53,243 WAS THERE ANY HEMATURIA? NO, BUT THERE WAS SOME YEAST IN HIS URINE. 238 00:11:53,243 --> 00:11:54,945 A CONTAMINANT. 239 00:11:54,945 --> 00:11:57,247 MAYBE THE HEMOLYSIS WAS JUST A BAD BLOOD DRAW. 240 00:11:57,247 --> 00:11:58,949 EVERY DAY? 241 00:11:58,949 --> 00:12:01,121 THAT DOESN'T SEEM RIGHT. 242 00:12:04,424 --> 00:12:05,796 MM. 243 00:12:05,796 --> 00:12:08,759 MM. THIS HEMOLYSIS THING IS A RED HERRING. 244 00:12:08,759 --> 00:12:10,761 I FEEL IT IN MY BONES 245 00:12:10,761 --> 00:12:12,763 THAT WE'RE GOING DOWN THE WRONG ROAD. 246 00:12:12,763 --> 00:12:15,065 YEAH, YOU'RE RIGHT. I FEEL IT IN MY BONES, TOO. 247 00:12:15,065 --> 00:12:18,068 GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER. HOW CAN I DO THAT WHEN I'M TEARING YOUR CLOTHES OFF? 248 00:12:18,068 --> 00:12:21,171 OH. THINK OF THE POSSIBILITIES FOR POST-OP FEVER-- 249 00:12:21,171 --> 00:12:24,114 WIND, WOUND, WATER. 250 00:12:24,114 --> 00:12:26,046 WATER. 251 00:12:26,046 --> 00:12:27,517 THE YEAST. 252 00:12:27,517 --> 00:12:30,450 I THINK I GOT IT. 253 00:12:30,450 --> 00:12:32,983 SINGLE MOST IMPORTANT STEP... 254 00:12:32,983 --> 00:12:35,325 IN THE TREATMENT PROCESS-- 255 00:12:35,325 --> 00:12:37,788 ANYONE? PHYSICAL EXAM. 256 00:12:37,788 --> 00:12:40,160 NO. NO CHOCOLATE FOR YOU. 257 00:12:40,160 --> 00:12:42,032 LAB AND RADIOLOGY EVALUATION. 258 00:12:42,032 --> 00:12:45,165 UH, OH, COME ON, PEOPLE. NOW YOU'RE EMBARRASSING ME. 259 00:12:45,165 --> 00:12:48,468 PATIENT HISTORY. THANK YOU. CATCH. 260 00:12:50,801 --> 00:12:53,243 THERE ISN'T MUCH INFLAMMATION, 261 00:12:53,243 --> 00:12:56,446 BUT THERE ARE A LOT OF GALLSTONES. 262 00:12:56,446 --> 00:12:58,809 DR. BAYLOW, WHAT CAUSES GALLSTONES? 263 00:12:58,809 --> 00:13:01,011 HIGH FAT DIETS ARE A HUGE CONTRIBUTOR. 264 00:13:01,011 --> 00:13:02,512 YES, FATTY FOODS AND? 265 00:13:02,512 --> 00:13:05,385 UH, SHE'S VEGAN. WHO'S TALKING? 266 00:13:05,385 --> 00:13:07,257 I'M SORRY, SIR. 267 00:13:07,257 --> 00:13:09,189 KEEP IT DOWN OR GET OUT OF THE O.R. SHE'S VEGAN. 268 00:13:09,189 --> 00:13:11,191 SHE IS? 269 00:13:11,191 --> 00:13:14,264 Y-YEAH. SHE, UH, HAS HAD SEVERE REFLUX MOST OF HER LIFE, 270 00:13:14,264 --> 00:13:16,326 UNTIL SHE DISCOVERED WHEN SHE WAS 15 271 00:13:16,326 --> 00:13:18,268 THAT A VEGAN DIET HELPED. 272 00:13:18,268 --> 00:13:20,270 HER EX-BOYFRIEND, 273 00:13:20,270 --> 00:13:22,272 WHO BROKE UP WITH HER AFTER HER LAST SURGERY, 274 00:13:22,272 --> 00:13:24,034 WAS A VEGAN CHEF. 275 00:13:24,034 --> 00:13:27,107 WELL, THAT'S QUITE A HISTORY YOU HAVE THERE, DOCTOR. 276 00:13:27,107 --> 00:13:28,879 DR. BAYLOW, 277 00:13:28,879 --> 00:13:31,181 YOUR INTERN'S DOING A HELL OF A JOB. 278 00:13:34,144 --> 00:13:35,285 WH-- 279 00:13:41,191 --> 00:13:43,293 LISTEN, YOU LITTLE MOPPET. 280 00:13:43,293 --> 00:13:46,226 YOU HANG ME OUT TO DRY LIKE THAT IN FRONT OF THE CHIEF AGAIN, 281 00:13:46,226 --> 00:13:49,229 AND I WILL END YOU--YOUR CAREER, YOUR FUTURE, YOUR LIFE. 282 00:13:49,229 --> 00:13:51,601 DO WE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER? 283 00:13:51,601 --> 00:13:53,363 IF IT WERE UP TO ME, 284 00:13:53,363 --> 00:13:55,365 YOU'D BE DOING SCUT UNTIL YOUR HAIR TURNS GRAY. 285 00:13:55,365 --> 00:13:59,269 OH, WAIT A MINUTE. IT IS UP TO ME. 286 00:13:59,269 --> 00:14:02,142 WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO BEAT YOU WITH STICKS. 287 00:14:02,142 --> 00:14:05,175 SO WE PUNISH YOU WITH SCUT. 288 00:14:07,017 --> 00:14:10,020 WE DO IT TODAY, AND THEY DID IT BACK IN MY DAY. 289 00:14:10,020 --> 00:14:12,522 DR. GREY AND I DID MOUNTAINS OF SCUT. 290 00:14:12,522 --> 00:14:14,284 MM-HMM. 291 00:14:14,284 --> 00:14:16,186 TESTING TISSUE SAMPLES WAS BORING. 292 00:14:16,186 --> 00:14:18,188 BUT IT'S HOW WE FOUND OUT 293 00:14:18,188 --> 00:14:21,231 OUR PATIENT HAD A FUNGUS CALLED CRYPTOCOCCUS. 294 00:14:21,231 --> 00:14:23,533 HAVE YOU TRAVELED RECENTLY TO A TROPICAL COUNTRY, 295 00:14:23,533 --> 00:14:26,196 LIKE TAIWAN OR ARGENTINA? 296 00:14:26,196 --> 00:14:30,300 NO. I'VE NEVER EVEN BEEN OUT OF THIS COUNTRY? DO YOU LIVE NEAR A BIRD AVIARY 297 00:14:30,300 --> 00:14:32,642 OR ARE YOU AROUND A LOT OF PIGEONS? 298 00:14:32,642 --> 00:14:34,444 NO. 299 00:14:34,444 --> 00:14:36,546 WHAT KIND OF QUESTIONS ARE THESE? 300 00:14:36,546 --> 00:14:39,249 WE ASKED HIS GIRLFRIEND TO STEP OUT... 301 00:14:40,911 --> 00:14:43,183 BECAUSE WE KNEW WE WERE GONNA HAVE TO ASK 302 00:14:43,183 --> 00:14:46,116 SOME PRETTY UNCOMFORTABLE QUESTIONS. 303 00:14:46,116 --> 00:14:49,259 WE SUSPECTED HE MIGHT HAVE G.R.I.D. 304 00:14:49,259 --> 00:14:54,124 DOES ANYONE KNOW WHAT G.R.I.D. IS? 305 00:14:54,124 --> 00:14:56,166 A.I.D.S. 306 00:14:56,166 --> 00:14:57,467 THAT'S RIGHT. 307 00:14:57,467 --> 00:15:00,400 BUT IN 1982, IT WAS KNOWN AS... 308 00:15:00,400 --> 00:15:02,402 GAY-RELATED IMMUNE DEFICIENCY? 309 00:15:02,402 --> 00:15:04,935 YOU THINK I HAVE SEX WITH MEN? 310 00:15:04,935 --> 00:15:07,677 ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MINDS? WHAT KIND OF DOCTORS ARE YOU? SIR, SIR-- 311 00:15:07,677 --> 00:15:10,941 YOU'RE SICK! SIR, JUST CALM DOWN. WE'RE NOT PASSING ANY JUDGMENT. 312 00:15:10,941 --> 00:15:13,343 THEY'RE JUST STANDARD QUESTIONS. GET THIS THING OUT OF MY ARM! 313 00:15:13,343 --> 00:15:16,046 SIR, GET BACK INTO BED. YOU STILL NEED THE ANTIBIOTICS. 314 00:15:16,046 --> 00:15:19,149 I'LL GET THE ANTIBIOTICS ELSEWHERE, FROM REAL DOCTORS. 315 00:15:19,149 --> 00:15:21,251 I DID NOT COME HERE TO BE INSULTED! 316 00:15:21,251 --> 00:15:24,254 AND DON'T THINK I WON'T TALK TO YOUR SUPERIORS ABOUT THIS. 317 00:15:34,364 --> 00:15:37,037 THIS WAS EARLY 1982. 318 00:15:37,037 --> 00:15:40,971 WE HADN'T SEEN A CASE IN WASHINGTON STATE, EVER. 319 00:15:40,971 --> 00:15:43,413 SAN FRANCISCO ONLY HAD FIVE CASES. 320 00:15:43,413 --> 00:15:45,415 WE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS, 321 00:15:45,415 --> 00:15:48,248 AND BECAUSE IT WAS ISOLATED TO THE GAY COMMUNITY, 322 00:15:48,248 --> 00:15:50,250 THE GOVERNMENT WASN'T FUNDING RESEARCH. 323 00:15:50,250 --> 00:15:52,222 DOES ANYONE KNOW 324 00:15:52,222 --> 00:15:54,724 WHEN THE H.I.V. RETROVIRUS WAS FINALLY DISCOVERED? 325 00:15:54,724 --> 00:15:58,728 UH, 1983, BUT THERE WASN'T A TEST FOR IT UNTIL '85. THAT'S RIGHT. 326 00:15:58,728 --> 00:16:00,290 IT WAS SO NEW 327 00:16:00,290 --> 00:16:03,333 THAT EVEN OUR ATTENDING DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IT. 328 00:16:03,333 --> 00:16:05,165 G.R.I.D.? 329 00:16:05,165 --> 00:16:07,167 YOU ACCUSED A PATIENT IN MY HOSPITAL 330 00:16:07,167 --> 00:16:09,439 OF HAVING A DISEASE THAT HASN'T EVEN BEEN PROVEN TO EXIST? 331 00:16:09,439 --> 00:16:13,003 WHAT WERE YOU THINKING? THAT PATIENT WASN'T EVEN A GAY. 332 00:16:13,003 --> 00:16:15,005 HE'S THREATENING TO SUE US FOR SLANDER. GOOD JOB. 333 00:16:15,005 --> 00:16:17,647 YOU'RE ON PROBATION. 334 00:16:17,647 --> 00:16:20,180 BOTH OF YOU. 335 00:16:29,559 --> 00:16:32,322 PATIENT'S GETTING HARDER TO VENTILATE. 336 00:16:32,322 --> 00:16:34,624 DID YOU HEAR ME? I HEARD YOU. SHUSH. 337 00:16:34,624 --> 00:16:37,067 DID YOU SHUSH ME? DON'T SHUSH ME. 338 00:16:37,067 --> 00:16:40,070 YOU NEED TO START TO WRAP UP. WRAP UP? I JUST GOT STARTED. 339 00:16:40,070 --> 00:16:43,073 WE'VE BEEN WORKING FOR EIGHT HOURS. BECAUSE I'M TRYING TO BE METICULOUS, 340 00:16:43,073 --> 00:16:46,206 MAKE SURE I'M GETTING A GOOD COMPRESSION. 341 00:16:46,206 --> 00:16:49,008 I THINK IT'S GONNA WORK. I'M PRETTY SURE. "PRETTY SURE"? 342 00:16:49,008 --> 00:16:52,011 HE'S GOT PERICARDITIS AND LUNG DISEASE. 343 00:16:52,011 --> 00:16:53,313 HE'S GETTING UNSTABLE. 344 00:16:57,347 --> 00:16:59,349 DUDE, DO YOU WANT HIM TO WALK 345 00:16:59,349 --> 00:17:02,292 OR DO YOU WANT HIM TO KEEP BREATHING? 346 00:17:02,292 --> 00:17:05,055 SUCCESSES OR FAILURES... 347 00:17:05,055 --> 00:17:07,727 WHICH TEACHES YOU MORE? FAILURES. 348 00:17:07,727 --> 00:17:11,331 YEAH, BUT THAT WAS A GIMMIE. DON'T GET TOO COCKY. 349 00:17:11,331 --> 00:17:13,803 THE PATIENT WAS DISCHARGED, AND A MONTH LATER, 350 00:17:13,803 --> 00:17:16,706 SHE WAS BACK IN THE E.R. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. 351 00:17:16,706 --> 00:17:18,438 SHE HAD RIGHT LOWER QUADRANT PAIN, FEVER, VOMITING-- 352 00:17:18,438 --> 00:17:20,770 SYMPTOMS CONSISTENT WITH? APPENDICITIS. 353 00:17:20,770 --> 00:17:25,375 AHA. YOU GET A CHOCOLATE, 'COS THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT. 354 00:17:25,375 --> 00:17:28,348 BUT DON'T EAT IT YET. PAY ATTENTION. 355 00:17:28,348 --> 00:17:31,721 I DIAGNOSED ALICIA WITH APPENDICITIS. 356 00:17:31,721 --> 00:17:35,285 AND DR. WEBBER DECIDED THAT THAT APPY 357 00:17:35,285 --> 00:17:38,358 WAS GOING TO BE MY FIRST SOLO SURGERY. 358 00:17:38,358 --> 00:17:41,060 MOBILIZE THE CECUM. 359 00:17:41,060 --> 00:17:43,433 THERE YOU GO. 360 00:17:43,433 --> 00:17:45,135 NOT BAD, DR. BAILEY. 361 00:17:45,135 --> 00:17:46,636 THANK YOU, SIR. 362 00:17:46,636 --> 00:17:49,769 I'M GLAD YOU DECIDED TO COME TO SEATTLE GRACE. 363 00:17:49,769 --> 00:17:51,471 YOU WERE A STRONG APPLICANT. 364 00:17:51,471 --> 00:17:54,404 PEOPLE ARE EXCITED TO HAVE YOU HERE. 365 00:18:01,751 --> 00:18:03,713 SURGERY'S A SHARK TANK. 366 00:18:03,713 --> 00:18:06,316 SHARKS HAVE TEETH. 367 00:18:06,316 --> 00:18:08,288 MAKE SURE YOU'RE A SHARK, TOO, 368 00:18:08,288 --> 00:18:10,390 AND NOT A MINNOW. 369 00:18:10,390 --> 00:18:13,393 S-SIR, ARE YOU REFERRING TO MY HEIGHT? 370 00:18:13,393 --> 00:18:17,167 NO, I'M NOT. GOD MADE YOU SHORT. 371 00:18:17,167 --> 00:18:18,598 WHO MADE YOU QUIET? 372 00:18:20,200 --> 00:18:21,371 UM... 373 00:18:23,373 --> 00:18:26,176 THAT, UNFORTUNATELY, IS A PERFECTLY HEALTHY APPENDIX. 374 00:18:26,176 --> 00:18:28,378 WHAT? 375 00:18:28,378 --> 00:18:30,440 NO INFECTION, NO INFLAMMATION. 376 00:18:30,440 --> 00:18:33,243 THE WHOLE LOWER RIGHT QUADRANT LOOKS GOOD. 377 00:18:33,243 --> 00:18:36,316 SIR, I'M... I'M S--I'M SO SORRY. 378 00:18:36,316 --> 00:18:38,818 SHAKE IT OFF. YOU KNOW, IF YOU NEVER GET A NEGATIVE APPY, 379 00:18:38,818 --> 00:18:41,391 THAT MEANS YOU'RE NOT DOING ENOUGH APPYS. 380 00:18:41,391 --> 00:18:44,494 THAT'S JUST PART OF THE PROCESS. 381 00:18:44,494 --> 00:18:48,258 ALL RIGHT, LET'S TAKE IT OUT, AND WE'LL GET READY TO CLOSE. 382 00:18:50,330 --> 00:18:53,463 I DIDN'T WANT TO CLOSE, BUT... 383 00:18:53,463 --> 00:18:55,465 WE HAD TO. 384 00:18:55,465 --> 00:18:57,567 SO... 385 00:18:57,567 --> 00:19:01,341 WE TOOK THE... PATIENT 386 00:19:01,341 --> 00:19:03,643 TO SURGERY AGAIN, AND... 387 00:19:03,643 --> 00:19:06,276 WAIT, NO. 388 00:19:07,577 --> 00:19:09,379 HANG ON. 389 00:19:09,379 --> 00:19:12,552 YOU WERE THERE. HELP HER. 390 00:19:14,254 --> 00:19:17,587 THAT'S WHEN WE SAW THE DUDE DO THE THING WITH HIS FOOT. 391 00:19:17,587 --> 00:19:19,459 YOU KNOW... 392 00:19:19,459 --> 00:19:23,233 THE SURGERY WAS MORE DIFFICULT THAN I ANTICIPATED. 393 00:19:23,233 --> 00:19:26,796 UH, I-I WAS ABLE TO DO THE TENDON RELEASE. 394 00:19:26,796 --> 00:19:29,799 BUT YOUR LUNGS AND HEART WEREN'T ABLE TO WITHSTAND 395 00:19:29,799 --> 00:19:32,302 ANY MORE TIME UNDER ANESTHESIA. 396 00:19:32,302 --> 00:19:35,345 SO I COULDN'T DO ANY MORE THAN THAT. 397 00:19:35,345 --> 00:19:38,408 I UNDERSTAND. 398 00:19:38,408 --> 00:19:40,710 WHEN DO WE START AGAIN? 399 00:19:40,710 --> 00:19:43,953 SUNDER, I'M SAYING, I... 400 00:19:43,953 --> 00:19:46,316 I THINK WE DON'T. 401 00:19:46,316 --> 00:19:49,289 WELL... 402 00:19:49,289 --> 00:19:53,463 NOW I DON'T UNDERSTAND. 403 00:19:56,666 --> 00:19:59,329 LOOK AT THIS. 404 00:19:59,329 --> 00:20:02,302 LOOK AT MY FOOT. 405 00:20:02,302 --> 00:20:04,374 WATCH IT. 406 00:20:07,206 --> 00:20:09,609 YOU DID THAT FOR ME. 407 00:20:09,609 --> 00:20:14,414 SINCE I WAS 7, I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT. 408 00:20:17,216 --> 00:20:19,919 I'VE ALWAYS BEEN DIFFERENT. 409 00:20:19,919 --> 00:20:24,324 I'VE ALWAYS BEEN STARED AT. 410 00:20:24,324 --> 00:20:27,927 I WANT TO WALK. 411 00:20:27,927 --> 00:20:30,960 I WANT TO STAND STRAIGHT UP. 412 00:20:33,433 --> 00:20:35,905 I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO THE REST. 413 00:20:35,905 --> 00:20:38,708 PLEASE. 414 00:20:40,870 --> 00:20:43,843 PLEASE TRY. 415 00:20:45,415 --> 00:20:48,418 NO SURGEON LIKES GIVING UP ON A PATIENT. 416 00:20:48,418 --> 00:20:52,382 DR. GREY AND I LIKED IT EVEN LESS THAN MOST. 417 00:20:52,382 --> 00:20:54,624 BUT WHEN A PATIENT REFUSES TREATMENT, 418 00:20:54,624 --> 00:20:56,956 YOU'RE DONE. 419 00:20:56,956 --> 00:20:59,729 I MEAN, WE WERE DONE. 420 00:20:59,729 --> 00:21:03,363 WELL, THAT'S WHAT WE THOUGHT ANYHOW. 421 00:21:03,363 --> 00:21:06,436 I PUT IN THE N.G. TUBE, DOCTOR. 422 00:21:06,436 --> 00:21:09,038 OKAY. 423 00:21:09,038 --> 00:21:11,901 DR. GREY, LOOKING BEAUTIFUL AS USUAL. 424 00:21:11,901 --> 00:21:14,504 FLATTERY WILL GET YOU TO AN ON-CALL ROOM 425 00:21:14,504 --> 00:21:17,377 IN FIVE MINUTES OR LESS. YOU'RE ON. 426 00:21:17,377 --> 00:21:19,449 MOMMY! MOMMY! LOOK! 427 00:21:22,412 --> 00:21:25,585 THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE FOR HER BIRTHDAY. 428 00:21:25,585 --> 00:21:29,719 SHE WAS CRYING. SHE MISSES YOU. 429 00:21:29,719 --> 00:21:32,462 AND I GOT DESPERATE. 430 00:21:32,462 --> 00:21:33,393 RICHARD. 431 00:21:33,393 --> 00:21:36,896 THATCHER, HOW ARE YOU? 432 00:21:36,896 --> 00:21:41,000 I ONLY HAVE A FEW SECONDS. SHOW ME YOUR DOLL. 433 00:21:41,000 --> 00:21:44,003 DR. GREY, DR. WEBBER, STAT TO EMERGENCY. 434 00:21:44,003 --> 00:21:47,036 I GOTTA GO, THATCH. MOMMY, DON'T GO! 435 00:21:47,036 --> 00:21:48,508 TAKE HER. 436 00:21:48,508 --> 00:21:50,510 THATCHER, I HAVE TO GO. MEREDITH. 437 00:21:50,510 --> 00:21:52,342 MOMMY, NO. 438 00:21:52,342 --> 00:21:54,083 MOMMY. 439 00:21:54,083 --> 00:21:56,446 DON'T GO. 440 00:21:56,446 --> 00:21:59,719 DR. GREY, DR. WEBBER, STAT TO THE E.R. 441 00:22:05,355 --> 00:22:07,557 KAPOSI'S SARCOMA. 442 00:22:07,557 --> 00:22:11,330 YOUR G.R.I.D. PATIENT FROM A FEW MONTHS BACK. 443 00:22:11,330 --> 00:22:12,962 HANDLE IT. 444 00:22:26,345 --> 00:22:28,347 I'M SORRY I... 445 00:22:28,347 --> 00:22:30,019 YOU WERE RIGHT. 446 00:22:30,019 --> 00:22:32,482 YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING. 447 00:22:32,482 --> 00:22:34,784 PLEASE... 448 00:22:34,784 --> 00:22:37,587 PLEASE... 449 00:22:37,587 --> 00:22:39,489 HELP ME. 450 00:22:53,042 --> 00:22:54,774 A HEALTHY APPENDIX-- 451 00:22:54,774 --> 00:22:57,647 THE THIRD SURGERY FOR THIS PATIENT 452 00:22:57,647 --> 00:23:01,150 WITH UNRELENTING ABDOMINAL PAIN, FATIGUE AND MUSCLE PAIN. 453 00:23:01,150 --> 00:23:03,913 NOW WHAT? TEST FOR ZEBRAS. UM, UNCOMMON DISEASES. 454 00:23:03,913 --> 00:23:05,915 OKAY. 455 00:23:05,915 --> 00:23:08,087 DO AN A.N.A. FOR LUPUS. LUPUS. YEAH. 456 00:23:08,087 --> 00:23:11,821 WHOA, WHAT ABOUT LEAD? YOU TEST FOR LEAD? GOOD, GOOD. SEE? 457 00:23:11,821 --> 00:23:13,823 SOMETIMES I-IT'S NOT EASY. 458 00:23:13,823 --> 00:23:16,826 SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO BE YOUR PATIENT'S ADVOCATE 459 00:23:16,826 --> 00:23:19,829 AND PUSH TO GET THINGS DONE. 460 00:23:21,831 --> 00:23:24,434 EXCUSE ME, UH, DR. BAYLOW. 461 00:23:24,434 --> 00:23:26,436 ALICIA TATUM IS BEING DISCHARGED 462 00:23:26,436 --> 00:23:28,438 WITH NOTHING BUT A NOTE FOR A PSYCH CONSULT? 463 00:23:28,438 --> 00:23:30,440 SHE'S SNIFFING AROUND FOR PAIN MEDS. 464 00:23:30,440 --> 00:23:32,542 SHE'S DEPRESSED, IS HER PROBLEM. WELL, YEAH. 465 00:23:32,542 --> 00:23:35,114 MONTHS OF SEVERE, UNTREATED PAIN CAN BE DEPRESSING. 466 00:23:35,114 --> 00:23:36,716 OKAY, SMARTY PANTS. 467 00:23:36,716 --> 00:23:38,848 I JUST THOUGHT MAYBE WE COULD TEST FOR LUPUS 468 00:23:38,848 --> 00:23:40,820 OR, UM, LEAD POISONING 469 00:23:40,820 --> 00:23:42,121 OR LOOK, EVEN HEMOCHROMATOSIS-- 470 00:23:42,121 --> 00:23:44,754 WE ARE NOT ORDERING THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS IN TESTS 471 00:23:44,754 --> 00:23:47,757 FOR SOMETHING THAT CAN BE CURED WITH A BIG DOSE OF PROZAC. 472 00:23:47,757 --> 00:23:50,159 BUT-- WHAT ARE WE DOING WITH ALICIA TATUM? 473 00:23:50,159 --> 00:23:52,862 WE'RE TURFING HER TO PSYCH FOR DEPRESSION. 474 00:23:52,862 --> 00:23:55,505 WELL, WE CUT HER OPEN THREE TIMES AND DIDN'T CURE HER PAIN. 475 00:23:55,505 --> 00:23:57,507 WOULDN'T YOU BE DEPRESSED? OF COURSE. 476 00:23:57,507 --> 00:23:59,939 B-BEFORE SHE GOES, I THOUGHT WE COULD TEST FOR LUPUS 477 00:23:59,939 --> 00:24:02,011 OR LEAD POISONING OR MAYBE HEMOCHROMATOSIS. 478 00:24:02,011 --> 00:24:04,514 HEMOCHROMATOSIS. NOW YOU'RE THINKING. 479 00:24:04,514 --> 00:24:06,916 GOOD WORK. 480 00:24:06,916 --> 00:24:09,619 OH, MY GOD. I THINK THAT'S AN INTUSSUSCEPTION. 481 00:24:09,619 --> 00:24:12,151 I'VE NEVER SEEN ONE BEFORE IN AN ADULT. 482 00:24:12,151 --> 00:24:15,154 WELL, I SUPPOSE WE'D HANDLE IT THE SAME WAY 483 00:24:15,154 --> 00:24:16,656 AS WITH A KID, RIGHT? 484 00:24:16,656 --> 00:24:19,489 DR. GRACIE, WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN THIS SITUATION? 485 00:24:19,489 --> 00:24:22,792 QUITE FRANKLY, NOTHING. I WOULDN'T OPERATE. 486 00:24:22,792 --> 00:24:25,795 THIS PATIENT'S A LOST CAUSE. HE'S GOT G.R.I.D. 487 00:24:25,795 --> 00:24:29,038 IT'S CALLED A.I.D.S. NOW. 488 00:24:29,038 --> 00:24:30,840 A.I.D.S. 489 00:24:30,840 --> 00:24:33,843 NO ONE KNOWS WHAT'S CAUSING IT OR HOW IT SPREADS. 490 00:24:33,843 --> 00:24:36,606 YOU WANT ME TO POTENTIALLY RISK THE HEALTH OF MY STAFF, 491 00:24:36,606 --> 00:24:39,108 MY OWN LIFE, FOR A GUY WITH A DEATH SENTENCE? 492 00:24:39,108 --> 00:24:41,511 NO, I'M NOT DOING IT. 493 00:24:41,511 --> 00:24:43,513 AND I RECOMMEND YOU DON'T DO IT EITHER. 494 00:24:43,513 --> 00:24:46,255 WE TOOK AN OATH. WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE HEALERS. 495 00:24:46,255 --> 00:24:47,757 TEN YEARS AGO, 496 00:24:47,757 --> 00:24:50,259 YOU WOULDN'T EVEN HAVE BEEN ALLOWED IN THIS PROGRAM. 497 00:24:50,259 --> 00:24:53,492 DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME WHAT KIND OF OATH WE TAKE. 498 00:24:56,165 --> 00:24:59,098 WE'D HIT A WALL. 499 00:24:59,098 --> 00:25:01,170 AND, UM... 500 00:25:01,170 --> 00:25:03,533 WE PLANNED A NUMBER OF PROCEDURES. 501 00:25:03,533 --> 00:25:05,504 BUT, UM... 502 00:25:05,504 --> 00:25:07,276 UH, BUT THEN... 503 00:25:07,276 --> 00:25:09,739 THEN I GAVE YOU THAT ROUSING PEP TALK. 504 00:25:11,240 --> 00:25:13,913 YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU TOTALLY DID. 505 00:25:13,913 --> 00:25:15,915 WHAT IF I HAD QUIT IN THE ELEVATOR? 506 00:25:15,915 --> 00:25:18,688 WHAT IF I HAD FROZEN? I MEAN, I HAD EVERY REASON TO FREEZE. 507 00:25:18,688 --> 00:25:21,220 I'M AN INTERN. I NEVER HAD MY HAND ON A HEART BEFORE. 508 00:25:21,220 --> 00:25:23,222 NO REASON FOR ME TO THINK 509 00:25:23,222 --> 00:25:26,095 I'M NOT GONNA DO ANYTHING BUT KILL THAT COP FASTER. BUT YOU DIDN'T. 510 00:25:26,095 --> 00:25:27,597 NO, I DIDN'T. 511 00:25:27,597 --> 00:25:29,599 I-I CUT HIM OPEN, I CROSS-CLAMPED THE AORTA, 512 00:25:29,599 --> 00:25:32,201 I STUCK MY FINGER IN THE HOLE AND I STOPPED THE BLEEDING. 513 00:25:32,201 --> 00:25:34,303 IT WAS SEAMLESS. I WAS PERFECT. 514 00:25:34,303 --> 00:25:36,005 SO PRETEND THERE'S A BLACKOUT 515 00:25:36,005 --> 00:25:38,908 AND YOU'RE STUCK IN AN ELEVATOR AND YOUR GUY IS BLEEDING OUT. 516 00:25:38,908 --> 00:25:42,171 WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO? ARE YOU GONNA JUST QUIT? WHAT WAS THE RESULT? 517 00:25:42,171 --> 00:25:44,243 DID SHE TEST POSITIVE FOR HEMOCHROMATOSIS? NOPE. 518 00:25:44,243 --> 00:25:46,245 UH, WHAT ABOUT LIME DISEASE? 519 00:25:46,245 --> 00:25:49,548 LIME DISEASE--NEGATIVE. 520 00:25:49,548 --> 00:25:51,050 CELIAC DISEASE--NEGATIVE. 521 00:25:51,050 --> 00:25:53,222 EVERY TEST I COULD THINK OF--NEGATIVE. 522 00:25:53,222 --> 00:25:56,185 SO I DID WHAT I'VE TOLD YOU ALL TO DO WHEN YOU GET STUCK. 523 00:25:56,185 --> 00:25:59,258 I WENT TO THE LIBRARY AND I HIT THE BOOKS. 524 00:25:59,258 --> 00:26:01,761 I HIT 'EM HARD. 525 00:26:01,761 --> 00:26:05,264 I WAS RAISED TO BE POLITE, YOU KNOW? 526 00:26:05,264 --> 00:26:07,637 DON'T RAISE YOUR VOICE, 527 00:26:07,637 --> 00:26:11,941 HAVE RESPECT FOR PEOPLE HIGHER IN THE PECKING ORDER, 528 00:26:11,941 --> 00:26:13,943 BE GENEROUS TO THOSE BELOW-- 529 00:26:13,943 --> 00:26:15,945 I WAS NOT RAISED TO BE A SHARK. 530 00:26:15,945 --> 00:26:17,907 NOW DOES THAT MAKE ME A MINNOW? 531 00:26:17,907 --> 00:26:19,208 AM I A MINNOW? 532 00:26:19,208 --> 00:26:20,910 I-I REALLY DON'T KNOW. 533 00:26:20,910 --> 00:26:22,812 I'M A MINNOW. 534 00:26:22,812 --> 00:26:23,983 OH. 535 00:26:23,983 --> 00:26:25,755 NOT BECAUSE OF MY HEIGHT. 536 00:26:25,755 --> 00:26:30,019 BECAUSE I'M A MINNOW ON THE INSIDE. 537 00:26:33,122 --> 00:26:36,295 THAT IS A SAD STATE OF AFFAIRS, JOE. 538 00:26:40,630 --> 00:26:43,132 HELL, WE WEREN'T NOBLE. 539 00:26:43,132 --> 00:26:45,905 WE WERE JUST MORE ARROGANT THAN THE REST 540 00:26:45,905 --> 00:26:48,207 AND HAD MORE TO PROVE. 541 00:26:48,207 --> 00:26:51,380 YOUR C.T. SHOWED THAT YOUR BOWEL HAS TWISTED IN ON ITSELF, 542 00:26:51,380 --> 00:26:54,984 PROBABLY BECAUSE OF KAPOSI'S LESIONS IN YOUR ABDOMEN. 543 00:26:54,984 --> 00:26:56,946 IT'S A PRETTY RARE PROBLEM, 544 00:26:56,946 --> 00:26:59,348 BUT WE CAN TAKE CARE OF IT WITH SURGERY. 545 00:26:59,348 --> 00:27:01,350 WILL DR. GRACIE BE DOING THE SURGERY? 546 00:27:03,052 --> 00:27:05,124 I'M AFRAID YOU'RE STUCK WITH US. 547 00:27:08,898 --> 00:27:11,630 HE'S SCARED, ISN'T HE? 548 00:27:13,262 --> 00:27:15,705 JUST LIKE THEM, OUTSIDE. 549 00:27:15,705 --> 00:27:18,307 I CAN SEE THEM... 550 00:27:20,169 --> 00:27:23,943 POINTING, MUMBLING, STARING. 551 00:27:23,943 --> 00:27:25,414 SCREW THEM. 552 00:27:31,420 --> 00:27:33,422 I DON'T BLAME THEM... 553 00:27:33,422 --> 00:27:36,325 FOR BEING SCARED. 554 00:27:38,427 --> 00:27:41,130 I'M SCARED, TOO. 555 00:27:41,130 --> 00:27:45,394 I USED TO BE SCARED THAT, UM... 556 00:27:45,394 --> 00:27:50,669 PEOPLE WOULD FIND OUT THAT I WAS GAY AND... 557 00:27:50,669 --> 00:27:54,844 NOW, UM, I CAN'T EVEN HIDE IT ANYMORE. 558 00:27:59,408 --> 00:28:02,852 I'M A--I'M A LEPER... 559 00:28:02,852 --> 00:28:05,084 AN OUTCAST... 560 00:28:05,084 --> 00:28:07,386 AN UNTOUCHABLE. 561 00:28:07,386 --> 00:28:12,291 NO ONE WILL LOOK AT ME. 562 00:28:12,291 --> 00:28:16,295 NO ONE WILL TOUCH ME. 563 00:28:17,997 --> 00:28:20,029 I WANT TO HATE EVERYONE 564 00:28:20,029 --> 00:28:22,401 FOR TREATING ME THIS WAY. 565 00:28:22,401 --> 00:28:24,373 BUT HOW... 566 00:28:24,373 --> 00:28:26,375 HOW CAN I HATE THEM FOR BEING SCARED 567 00:28:26,375 --> 00:28:30,309 WHEN I'M THE ONE THAT'S BEEN LIVING THE LIE? 568 00:28:30,309 --> 00:28:34,313 THIS IS YOUR CHANCE TO CHANGE THAT. 569 00:28:34,313 --> 00:28:36,315 HAVE THIS SURGERY, 570 00:28:36,315 --> 00:28:38,017 LET US OPERATE. 571 00:28:38,017 --> 00:28:39,318 WHAT'S THE POINT? 572 00:28:39,318 --> 00:28:42,421 NO ONE RECOVERS FROM THIS. 573 00:28:44,293 --> 00:28:45,795 NO ONE LIVES. 574 00:28:45,795 --> 00:28:47,256 FOR ALL YOU KNOW, 575 00:28:47,256 --> 00:28:50,499 THERE COULD BE A CURE FOR THIS THING TOMORROW OR NEXT WEEK. 576 00:28:50,499 --> 00:28:53,432 LET US OPERATE. 577 00:28:56,365 --> 00:28:58,938 WE SPENT DAYS TRYING TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT, 578 00:28:58,938 --> 00:29:02,071 TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE BEST STRATEGY. 579 00:29:02,071 --> 00:29:04,343 SO WE, UH, WE RESEARCHED 580 00:29:04,343 --> 00:29:07,176 AND, UH, PRACTICED AND PRACTICED, 581 00:29:07,176 --> 00:29:10,850 AND... EVENTUALLY, WE WERE READY. 582 00:29:10,850 --> 00:29:13,522 OKAY, RETRACT THE RECTUS FEMORIS. WHAT ABOUT THE NERVE? 583 00:29:13,522 --> 00:29:16,355 B.P. JUST DROPPED AND HE'S TACHYCARDIC. 584 00:29:16,355 --> 00:29:19,088 TORSADES ON THE MONITOR. OH, MY GOD. PERICARDIAL TAMPONADE? 585 00:29:19,088 --> 00:29:21,060 SOUNDS LIKE. DAMN IT. 586 00:29:21,060 --> 00:29:23,492 OKAY, NOBODY PANIC. PAGE CARDIO. 587 00:29:23,492 --> 00:29:27,136 ALEX, WE NEED TO DO A SUBXIPHOID PERICARDIOTOMY 588 00:29:27,136 --> 00:29:29,198 TO DRAIN THE BLOOD THAT'S SQUEEZING THE HEART. 589 00:29:29,198 --> 00:29:31,941 IT'S LIKE A MINIATURE VERSION OF WHAT YOU DID IN THE ELEVATOR. 590 00:29:31,941 --> 00:29:34,373 SO GET A SCALPEL. I CAN'T. 591 00:29:34,373 --> 00:29:36,345 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, YOU CAN'T? YOU ALREADY DID. 592 00:29:36,345 --> 00:29:38,547 TAKE THE SCALPEL. I-I CAN'T. 593 00:29:38,547 --> 00:29:41,110 THE PATIENT IS CRASHING, KAREV. DO THE ELEVATOR THING. 594 00:29:41,110 --> 00:29:43,813 I CAN'T. I'VE NEVER DONE THIS. IT--IT W--IT WASN'T ME. 595 00:29:43,813 --> 00:29:45,554 I'M NOT THE HEART-IN-THE-ELEVATOR GUY. 596 00:29:45,554 --> 00:29:48,387 IT WAS O'MALLEY. 597 00:29:58,127 --> 00:29:59,528 OKAY. OKAY. 598 00:29:59,528 --> 00:30:01,530 NO, THIS IS FINE. 599 00:30:01,530 --> 00:30:03,272 WE'RE FINE. 600 00:30:03,272 --> 00:30:05,304 AND YOU-- YOU'RE DOING THIS. 601 00:30:05,304 --> 00:30:08,407 BUT I HAVEN'T-- JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN'T. 602 00:30:08,407 --> 00:30:11,510 GET IT TOGETHER AND TAKE THE SCALPEL. 603 00:30:18,287 --> 00:30:21,150 OKAY. 604 00:30:21,150 --> 00:30:22,291 UH... 605 00:30:22,291 --> 00:30:25,524 MAKE A 6-CENTIMETER-LONG INCISION 606 00:30:25,524 --> 00:30:30,299 OVER THE XIPHISTERNAL JUNCTION. 607 00:30:30,299 --> 00:30:33,402 GOOD. 608 00:30:33,402 --> 00:30:36,405 WE KNEW WHAT WE WERE DOING WAS RISKY. 609 00:30:36,405 --> 00:30:38,467 THESE DAYS WE KNOW THAT A.I.D.S. TRANSMISSION 610 00:30:38,467 --> 00:30:40,539 REQUIRES EXCHANGES OF BODILY FLUIDS. 611 00:30:40,539 --> 00:30:42,912 BUT BACK THEN WE HAD NO IDEA. 612 00:30:42,912 --> 00:30:45,444 CAN YOU GET IT FROM CASUAL CONTACT, FROM THE AIR, 613 00:30:45,444 --> 00:30:47,416 FROM SURGERY? 614 00:30:47,416 --> 00:30:48,918 NO IDEA. 615 00:30:48,918 --> 00:30:51,520 POOR GUY. 616 00:30:51,520 --> 00:30:54,283 LIVING A LIE FOR SO LONG. 617 00:30:54,283 --> 00:30:56,285 YEAH. SHAME. 618 00:30:56,285 --> 00:30:59,288 WE'RE LIVING A LIE, TOO. 619 00:30:59,288 --> 00:31:01,030 WHAT? 620 00:31:01,030 --> 00:31:04,033 WE SHOULDN'T BE DOING WHAT WE'RE DOING. WE HAVE TO STOP. 621 00:31:04,033 --> 00:31:06,035 NO. WE'RE NOT THE LIE. 622 00:31:06,035 --> 00:31:08,297 OUR MARRIAGES ARE THE LIE. 623 00:31:08,297 --> 00:31:10,369 THIS? US? 624 00:31:10,369 --> 00:31:13,372 THIS IS WHAT'S RIGHT. 625 00:31:15,074 --> 00:31:17,376 WE SHOULD LEAVE THEM, RICHARD. 626 00:31:17,376 --> 00:31:19,378 YOU LEAVE ADELE, AND I'LL LEAVE THATCHER. 627 00:31:19,378 --> 00:31:23,052 I CAN'T. YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER. I CAN'T. 628 00:31:23,052 --> 00:31:25,354 AND NEITHER CAN YOU. 629 00:31:27,486 --> 00:31:30,189 YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO IN THERE. I CAN DO THIS ALONE. 630 00:31:30,189 --> 00:31:33,192 YOU HAVE MEREDITH TO THINK ABOUT. YOU'RE JUST LIKE THE REST OF THEM. 631 00:31:33,192 --> 00:31:35,224 YOU HAVE A DIFFERENT SKIN COLOR, 632 00:31:35,224 --> 00:31:37,496 BUT IT TURNS OUT, YOU'RE JUST LIKE THEM. ELLIS-- 633 00:31:37,496 --> 00:31:39,498 I GAVE BIRTH TO A CHILD, RICHARD. 634 00:31:39,498 --> 00:31:42,501 THAT MAKES ME A MOTHER. IT DOESN'T MAKE ME INEPT. 635 00:31:42,501 --> 00:31:44,503 IT DOESN'T MAKE ME LESS OF A WOMAN. 636 00:31:44,503 --> 00:31:46,505 IT DOESN'T MAKE ME LESS OF A SURGEON. 637 00:31:46,505 --> 00:31:48,938 NO MATTER HOW MUCH EVERYONE WANTS IT TO. 638 00:31:53,582 --> 00:31:56,545 ALL MY RESEARCH DIDN'T HELP. 639 00:31:56,545 --> 00:31:59,188 DR. BAYLOW SENT THE PATIENT HOME. 640 00:31:59,188 --> 00:32:01,220 SO I THOUGHT SHE'D WON. 641 00:32:01,220 --> 00:32:04,123 I THOUGHT, YOU KNOW, MAYBE I WASN'T CUT OUT FOR THIS GAME. 642 00:32:04,123 --> 00:32:06,325 BUT A COUPLE OF MONTHS LATER... 643 00:32:06,325 --> 00:32:08,357 ALICIA? 644 00:32:08,357 --> 00:32:11,060 OH, THANK GOD. A FAMILIAR FACE. 645 00:32:11,060 --> 00:32:12,601 WHAT HAPPENED? 646 00:32:12,601 --> 00:32:14,303 THE PAIN GOT REALLY BAD. 647 00:32:14,303 --> 00:32:18,007 THEY SAID MAYBE I HAVE SOME SORT OF OBSTRUCTION OR SOMETHING 648 00:32:18,007 --> 00:32:20,009 FROM THE OTHER SURGERIES. 649 00:32:20,009 --> 00:32:23,372 THEY WANT TO GO BACK IN AND TAKE ANOTHER LOOK. 650 00:32:25,544 --> 00:32:27,116 MANDY... 651 00:32:27,116 --> 00:32:30,079 I DON'T THINK I CAN TAKE IT ANYMORE. 652 00:32:30,079 --> 00:32:33,082 PLEASE TELL ME THIS SURGERY'S GONNA HELP. 653 00:32:33,082 --> 00:32:37,326 THEY'RE GONNA FIND SOMETHING, RIGHT? 654 00:32:39,088 --> 00:32:41,590 UH... JU-- 655 00:32:41,590 --> 00:32:43,332 D-DON'T TOUCH HER. 656 00:32:43,332 --> 00:32:46,095 UH, I KNOW YOU'RE--YOU'RE HERE TO TAKE HER TO THE O.R., 657 00:32:46,095 --> 00:32:48,497 BUT, UH, DON'T TOUCH HER. 658 00:32:48,497 --> 00:32:51,740 SO YOU CANCELED YOUR RESIDENT'S SURGERY? 659 00:32:51,740 --> 00:32:53,742 ISN'T THAT A LITTLE BOLD? 660 00:32:53,742 --> 00:32:55,744 WELL, SHE WAS WORRIED ABOUT ADHESIONS, RIGHT? 661 00:32:55,744 --> 00:32:58,307 GIVE ME CANDY. 662 00:32:58,307 --> 00:33:00,249 NO ADHESIONS. NO CANDY. 663 00:33:00,249 --> 00:33:03,182 AND IT WASN'T BOLD, GREY, IT WAS STUPID. 664 00:33:03,182 --> 00:33:06,155 BUT IN THIS CASE, IT WAS ALSO NECESSARY. 665 00:33:06,155 --> 00:33:10,319 WHERE DO YOU GET OFF CANCELING MY SURGERY? 666 00:33:10,319 --> 00:33:12,721 WHEN I PAGED YOU-- YOU WORK FOR ME. GOT THAT? 667 00:33:12,721 --> 00:33:15,064 YOU LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY. 668 00:33:15,064 --> 00:33:18,227 ARE YOU AT ALL FAMILIAR WITH WHAT SURGEONS DO, DR. BAILEY? 669 00:33:18,227 --> 00:33:19,528 WE CUT. 670 00:33:19,528 --> 00:33:22,101 YEAH, REBOOK MS. TATUM FOR SURGERY. 671 00:33:22,101 --> 00:33:24,233 NO, D-DR. BAYLOW, YOU WANTED TO GO IN 672 00:33:24,233 --> 00:33:26,305 AND EXPLORE HER OBSTRUCTION. 673 00:33:26,305 --> 00:33:29,408 SHE DOESN'T HAVE ANY SIGNS OF ADHESIONS. 674 00:33:29,408 --> 00:33:31,410 LOOK, JUST BECAUSE SHE'S HAD PREVIOUS SURGERIES 675 00:33:31,410 --> 00:33:34,413 DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU SHOULDN'T ACTUALLY LOOK FOR ANOTHER CAUSE. 676 00:33:34,413 --> 00:33:36,445 SHE HAS A PSEUDO-OBSTRUCTION 677 00:33:36,445 --> 00:33:39,048 THAT COULD BE RESOLVED WITH AN N.G. TUBE. 678 00:33:39,048 --> 00:33:41,450 AND IF YOU'D LOOKED FURTHER 679 00:33:41,450 --> 00:33:43,452 AND I-I DON'T KNOW, TALKED TO YOUR PATIENT, 680 00:33:43,452 --> 00:33:46,155 YOU WOULD'VE DISCOVERED THAT ALONG WITH ABDOMINAL PAIN, 681 00:33:46,155 --> 00:33:48,557 SHE ALSO HAD, UH, WEAKNESS, PALPITATIONS, 682 00:33:48,557 --> 00:33:50,399 NUMBNESS, UH, SKIN CHANGES 683 00:33:50,399 --> 00:33:52,401 AND HER URINE IS INTERMITTENTLY DARK. 684 00:33:52,401 --> 00:33:55,364 RINGING ANY BELLS YET? 685 00:33:55,364 --> 00:33:58,807 YOUR PATIENT, WHO'S BEEN SLICED NINE WAYS TO SUNDAY, 686 00:33:58,807 --> 00:34:00,439 HAS PORPHYRIA. 687 00:34:00,439 --> 00:34:03,142 IF YOU HAD DIAGNOSED IT EARLIER, 688 00:34:03,142 --> 00:34:05,474 SHE COULD'VE AVOIDED GETTING HER OVARIES TAKEN OUT 689 00:34:05,474 --> 00:34:07,446 AND HER GALLBLADDER AND-- 690 00:34:07,446 --> 00:34:10,519 YES, YES, I TOOK OUT HER APPENDIX, 691 00:34:10,519 --> 00:34:13,522 AND I, TOO, AM AT FAULT FOR NOT LOOKING AT THE WHOLE PERSON. 692 00:34:13,522 --> 00:34:15,824 BUT YOU KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN YOU AND ME? 693 00:34:15,824 --> 00:34:17,586 I LEARNED SOMETHING FROM IT. 694 00:34:17,586 --> 00:34:19,558 I LEARNED WHEN NOT TO CUT. 695 00:34:19,558 --> 00:34:21,460 I LEARNED TO LISTEN TO MY PATIENT. 696 00:34:21,460 --> 00:34:24,593 HOW COULD YOU HAVE NOT LEARNED IN THREE YEARS 697 00:34:24,593 --> 00:34:28,167 WHAT TOOK ME THREE MONTHS TO LEARN? DR. BAILEY. 698 00:34:28,167 --> 00:34:30,169 AND THE REASON I HAD HER CHART 699 00:34:30,169 --> 00:34:32,171 WAS BECAUSE YOU IGNORED MY PAGES 700 00:34:32,171 --> 00:34:34,603 AND SHE NEEDS TO GET STARTED ON HEMIN RIGHT AWAY. 701 00:34:34,603 --> 00:34:36,475 YOU PUT IT IN HER I.V. 702 00:34:36,475 --> 00:34:38,807 YOU GIVE IT TO HER DAILY FOR FOUR DAYS... DR. BAILEY. 703 00:34:38,807 --> 00:34:41,480 THE PATIENT GETS BETTER. 704 00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:43,452 THE PATIENT DOESN'T GET PRODDED, PROBED, SCOPED 705 00:34:43,452 --> 00:34:46,084 OR CUT OPEN LIKE A THANKSGIVING TURKEY, 706 00:34:46,084 --> 00:34:48,557 YOU SUPERCILIOUS FOOL! DR. BAILEY. 707 00:34:48,557 --> 00:34:50,519 MY OFFICE. 708 00:34:50,519 --> 00:34:52,821 NOW. 709 00:35:07,606 --> 00:35:09,608 WE DID A SERIES OF SHORTER SURGERIES 710 00:35:09,608 --> 00:35:12,281 SO HIS LUNGS AND HEART COULD WITHSTAND THE ANESTHESIA. 711 00:35:12,281 --> 00:35:16,415 IT WAS GRUELING FOR THE PATIENT, BUT WORTH IT IN THE END. SHOW 'EM THE X-RAYS. 712 00:35:16,415 --> 00:35:18,447 OH, YEAH. SO COOL. 713 00:35:18,447 --> 00:35:20,819 OKAY, UM... 714 00:35:20,819 --> 00:35:23,622 THESE ARE THE BEFORE. 715 00:35:23,622 --> 00:35:27,826 AND THESE ARE THE AFTER. 716 00:35:31,500 --> 00:35:33,832 WOW. YEAH. 717 00:35:33,832 --> 00:35:35,564 UM... 718 00:35:37,466 --> 00:35:39,838 YEAH, IT WAS... IT WAS AMAZING. 719 00:35:39,838 --> 00:35:41,840 I MEAN, AFTER THE FINAL SURGERY, 720 00:35:41,840 --> 00:35:43,472 WE WERE JUST... 721 00:35:43,472 --> 00:35:46,645 AND, UH, WE CELEBRATED THAT NIGHT. 722 00:35:46,645 --> 00:35:48,447 MAN, DID WE EVER CELEBRATE. 723 00:35:55,524 --> 00:35:57,526 MM. WAIT. 724 00:35:57,526 --> 00:35:59,228 CONE OF SILENCE. 725 00:35:59,228 --> 00:36:02,191 YEAH, YEAH, YEAH. WHATEVER. 726 00:36:08,937 --> 00:36:12,701 I KNEW I WAS IN BIG TROUBLE. 727 00:36:12,701 --> 00:36:14,543 NOW IT IS MY JOB 728 00:36:14,543 --> 00:36:18,277 TO MAKE SURE THAT MY RESIDENTS ARE SUPPORTED 729 00:36:18,277 --> 00:36:21,179 AND TREATED WITH RESPECT. OF COURSE, AND I'M SO SORRY-- 730 00:36:21,179 --> 00:36:24,583 YOU HAVE SAID ENOUGH FOR ONE DAY. SORRY. 731 00:36:24,583 --> 00:36:26,415 IT'S MY JOB. 732 00:36:26,415 --> 00:36:29,187 SO WE ARE GONNA SIT HERE WITH YOU WEARING 733 00:36:29,187 --> 00:36:30,889 THAT TERRIFIED LOOK ON YOUR FACE 734 00:36:30,889 --> 00:36:32,891 FOR A RESPECTABLE AMOUNT OF TIME 735 00:36:32,891 --> 00:36:35,464 SO THAT DR. BAYLOW AND HER FRIENDS CAN ASSUME 736 00:36:35,464 --> 00:36:38,827 YOU ARE HAVING YOUR BEHIND HANDED TO YOU ON A PLATTER. 737 00:36:43,302 --> 00:36:45,304 YOU'RE GONNA MAKE A HELL OF A SURGEON, 738 00:36:45,304 --> 00:36:47,306 DR. BAILEY. 739 00:36:48,677 --> 00:36:50,509 LOSE THE SMILE. 740 00:36:50,509 --> 00:36:52,941 WELL, THE PATIENT SURVIVED THE SURGERY. 741 00:36:52,941 --> 00:36:54,443 BUT EIGHT MONTHS LATER, 742 00:36:54,443 --> 00:36:57,316 HE CAME BACK WITH P.C.P. PNEUMONIA. 743 00:36:59,318 --> 00:37:03,422 HE DIED A WEEK LATER. 744 00:37:03,422 --> 00:37:05,724 DR. GREY AND I... 745 00:37:05,724 --> 00:37:07,596 WELL, UM... 746 00:37:07,596 --> 00:37:09,528 I WON'T SPEAK FOR HER. 747 00:37:09,528 --> 00:37:13,432 BUT I LOST THE SENSE THAT I WAS A SUPERHERO. 748 00:37:13,432 --> 00:37:20,008 AND I REALLY STARTED TO THINK OF HOW DANGEROUS IT ALL WAS. 749 00:37:20,008 --> 00:37:23,872 IT CHANGES YOU... THIS WORK. 750 00:37:23,872 --> 00:37:27,646 YOUR PATIENTS, YOUR COLLEAGUES... 751 00:37:27,646 --> 00:37:31,480 YOU CHANGE EACH OTHER. 752 00:37:31,480 --> 00:37:35,654 YOU DON'T EVER THINK YOU'LL LOSE YOUR WAY. 753 00:37:35,654 --> 00:37:39,428 BUT WHAT HAPPENS IN THIS HOSPITAL... 754 00:37:39,428 --> 00:37:44,493 JUST REMEMBER WHY YOU CAME HERE. 755 00:37:44,493 --> 00:37:48,597 YOU SAID IT THE DAY YOU GRADUATED FROM MED SCHOOL. 756 00:37:48,597 --> 00:37:51,540 YOU TOOK THE PHYSICIAN'S OATH. 757 00:37:51,540 --> 00:37:53,772 REMEMBER IT. 758 00:37:53,772 --> 00:37:55,844 TAPE IT TO YOUR LOCKER, 759 00:37:55,844 --> 00:37:58,747 TO YOUR BATHROOM MIRROR... 760 00:37:58,747 --> 00:38:02,911 'COS IT IS TOO EASY TO LOSE YOUR WAY. 761 00:38:11,660 --> 00:38:13,462 I SOLEMNLY PLEDGE 762 00:38:13,462 --> 00:38:17,626 TO CONSECRATE MY LIFE TO THE SERVICE OF HUMANITY. 763 00:38:20,068 --> 00:38:23,432 I WILL GIVE TO MY TEACHERS... 764 00:38:23,432 --> 00:38:28,306 THE RESPECT AND GRATITUDE THAT IS THEIR DUE. 765 00:38:28,306 --> 00:38:30,839 I WILL PRACTICE MY PROFESSION 766 00:38:30,839 --> 00:38:35,313 WITH CONSCIENCE AND DIGNITY. 767 00:38:35,313 --> 00:38:37,686 THE HEALTH OF MY PATIENTS 768 00:38:37,686 --> 00:38:42,020 WILL BE MY NUMBER ONE CONSIDERATION. 769 00:38:42,020 --> 00:38:46,495 I WILL RESPECT THE SECRETS THAT ARE CONFIDED IN ME 770 00:38:46,495 --> 00:38:49,998 EVEN AFTER MY PATIENT HAS DIED. 771 00:38:51,700 --> 00:38:57,406 I WILL MAINTAIN, BY ALL THE MEANS IN MY POWER... 772 00:38:57,406 --> 00:39:00,108 THE HONOR AND THE NOBLE TRADITIONS 773 00:39:00,108 --> 00:39:03,011 OF THE MEDICAL PROFESSION. 774 00:39:08,877 --> 00:39:13,552 MY COLLEAGUES WILL BE MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS. 775 00:39:19,928 --> 00:39:24,433 I WILL NOT PERMIT CONSIDERATIONS OF AGE, 776 00:39:24,433 --> 00:39:26,895 DISEASE OR DISABILITY... 777 00:39:26,895 --> 00:39:28,797 CREED... 778 00:39:28,797 --> 00:39:31,470 ETHNIC ORIGIN... 779 00:39:31,470 --> 00:39:34,042 GENDER... 780 00:39:34,042 --> 00:39:35,604 RACE... 781 00:39:35,604 --> 00:39:38,507 POLITICAL AFFILIATION... 782 00:39:38,507 --> 00:39:40,579 NATIONALITY... 783 00:39:40,579 --> 00:39:44,553 SEXUAL ORIENTATION... 784 00:39:44,553 --> 00:39:46,515 SOCIAL STANDING... 785 00:39:48,587 --> 00:39:50,589 OR ANY OTHER FACTOR 786 00:39:50,589 --> 00:39:53,592 TO INTERVENE BETWEEN MY DUTY... 787 00:39:57,826 --> 00:40:01,530 AND MY PATIENT. 788 00:40:06,535 --> 00:40:07,836 I WILL MAINTAIN 789 00:40:07,836 --> 00:40:10,509 THE UTMOST RESPECT FOR HUMAN LIFE. 790 00:40:10,509 --> 00:40:12,511 I WILL NOT USE MY MEDICAL KNOWLEDGE 791 00:40:12,511 --> 00:40:16,515 TO VIOLATE HUMAN RIGHTS AND CIVIL LIBERTIES, 792 00:40:16,515 --> 00:40:18,647 EVEN UNDER THREAT. 793 00:40:18,647 --> 00:40:21,419 I MAKE THESE PROMISES SOLEMNLY... 794 00:40:21,419 --> 00:40:23,552 FREELY... 795 00:40:23,552 --> 00:40:28,056 AND UPON MY HONOR. 796 00:41:15,173 --> 00:41:18,607 THE JOB OFFER STILL STANDS. THINK ABOUT IT. 797 00:41:18,607 --> 00:41:20,148 LET ME KNOW. 798 00:41:27,516 --> 00:41:30,559 WE'LL SEE. 799 00:41:37,566 --> 00:41:39,728 TO PHILIP. 800 00:41:39,728 --> 00:41:41,870 MAY HE REST IN PEACE. 801 00:41:41,870 --> 00:41:43,872 YOU CAN'T TOAST A DEAD IRISHMAN 802 00:41:43,872 --> 00:41:46,635 WITH A SODA POP, RICHARD. 803 00:41:46,635 --> 00:41:48,877 GET THIS MAN A VODKA, FRANKIE. 804 00:41:48,877 --> 00:41:50,609 OH, YEAH. COMING RIGHT UP. 805 00:41:50,609 --> 00:41:53,682 YOU KNOW I CAN'T STAND THE TASTE OF THAT STUFF. 806 00:41:53,682 --> 00:41:55,283 IT'S TIME TO LEARN. 807 00:41:55,283 --> 00:41:58,547 YOU'RE A GROWN-UP, RICHARD. 808 00:41:58,547 --> 00:42:01,790 IT'S TIME TO ACT LIKE IT. 809 00:42:06,825 --> 00:42:09,057 I CAN'T LEAVE HER, ELLIS. 810 00:42:10,929 --> 00:42:14,963 I CAN'T. 811 00:42:14,963 --> 00:42:17,235 WE'LL SEE.