1 00:00:04,874 --> 00:00:06,528 Previously on "Brilliant Minds"... 2 00:00:06,745 --> 00:00:07,964 - Why do you do that? - Do what? 3 00:00:08,138 --> 00:00:09,792 Flirt with me. You have a girlfriend. 4 00:00:10,010 --> 00:00:11,272 I had a fling. It's long over. 5 00:00:11,489 --> 00:00:13,491 What is this? 6 00:00:13,709 --> 00:00:15,623 An address where your father is. 7 00:00:15,624 --> 00:00:16,929 I knew we'd meet sooner or later. 8 00:00:17,104 --> 00:00:18,670 - But who are you? - Sophia. 9 00:00:18,888 --> 00:00:21,716 You want to go to Hudson Oaks to save Sophia? 10 00:00:21,717 --> 00:00:23,284 I've got your file. I know how to get a keycard. 11 00:00:23,501 --> 00:00:24,893 We have to get out of here. 12 00:00:24,894 --> 00:00:27,592 Check the file again. We're the same person. 13 00:00:27,810 --> 00:00:30,639 You made up a patient you could save. 14 00:00:30,856 --> 00:00:33,945 On my watch, Dr. Wolf stays on as head of neuro. 15 00:00:33,946 --> 00:00:37,037 To that end, I would like to start the process to terminate 16 00:00:37,211 --> 00:00:39,474 the residency of Dr. Charlie Porter. 17 00:00:39,691 --> 00:00:42,042 Oliver, you have a visitor. 18 00:00:47,438 --> 00:00:50,527 "That night, the boy saw a real wolf prowling his flock. 19 00:00:50,528 --> 00:00:53,227 He cried out, 'Wolf! Wolf!' 20 00:00:53,444 --> 00:00:55,403 But no one came. 21 00:00:55,620 --> 00:00:58,493 And the wolf gobbled up his flock." 22 00:00:58,710 --> 00:01:00,798 No one believed him. 23 00:01:00,799 --> 00:01:02,845 That's right. 24 00:01:03,063 --> 00:01:08,198 And the moral of the story is... no pet sheep. 25 00:01:08,416 --> 00:01:11,332 They attract hungry wolves. 26 00:01:16,424 --> 00:01:18,078 Bedtime. 27 00:01:21,385 --> 00:01:23,995 The storm is nothing to be scared of. 28 00:01:34,790 --> 00:01:37,793 You stay here and, um... 29 00:01:38,010 --> 00:01:38,881 I'll be right back. 30 00:01:52,938 --> 00:01:55,158 Hello? 31 00:02:01,817 --> 00:02:03,514 Hello? 32 00:02:19,617 --> 00:02:22,229 Quick. Get under the bed and hide. 33 00:02:23,621 --> 00:02:25,274 I'm scared. 34 00:02:25,275 --> 00:02:29,018 - Mommy! - Okay. 35 00:02:29,192 --> 00:02:32,325 I'm not going to let anything hurt you. 36 00:02:32,326 --> 00:02:35,067 Okay. Hide under here. 37 00:02:35,242 --> 00:02:36,504 Don't move. 38 00:02:36,721 --> 00:02:40,160 - Mommy, I'm scared. - Stay here. 39 00:02:40,334 --> 00:02:42,596 What's happening? 40 00:02:42,597 --> 00:02:46,166 Mommy! 41 00:02:46,383 --> 00:02:49,604 Leave us alone! 42 00:03:00,919 --> 00:03:05,576 ♪ The night I met you, I thought that I would die ♪ 43 00:03:05,794 --> 00:03:11,191 ♪ My world was pennies and sorry from an operator ♪ 44 00:03:11,365 --> 00:03:15,324 ♪ I left you, I told you a lie ♪ 45 00:03:15,325 --> 00:03:19,373 ♪ My own reflection wouldn't look me in my eye ♪ 46 00:03:19,590 --> 00:03:23,507 ♪ I wanna love myself ♪ 47 00:03:23,725 --> 00:03:25,334 ♪ Yeah ♪ 48 00:03:25,335 --> 00:03:30,210 ♪ Like there's no one else ♪ 49 00:03:30,384 --> 00:03:33,865 ♪ That's why you gotta help me out ♪ 50 00:03:35,824 --> 00:03:40,263 ♪ Some nights I stay awake ♪ 51 00:03:40,481 --> 00:03:45,573 ♪ Feeling so alone ♪ 52 00:03:45,790 --> 00:03:48,010 ♪ And you left me ♪ 53 00:03:48,228 --> 00:03:51,666 ♪ You left me alone, man ♪ 54 00:03:51,883 --> 00:03:57,149 ♪ You know I'll always cry for you ♪ 55 00:03:57,324 --> 00:04:00,240 ♪ I know ♪ 56 00:04:17,866 --> 00:04:21,261 Hey, my name is Oliver. 57 00:04:21,478 --> 00:04:25,308 Uh... can I help you? 58 00:04:25,526 --> 00:04:28,877 Stay away from us! 59 00:04:29,094 --> 00:04:30,531 Oliver, stay right where you are. 60 00:04:30,748 --> 00:04:32,272 Regan, we need you to calm down. 61 00:04:34,839 --> 00:04:36,667 - Regan, you need to calm down. - No! 62 00:04:36,885 --> 00:04:39,366 Calm down. 63 00:04:39,583 --> 00:04:41,585 Oliver, please go back to your room! 64 00:04:41,803 --> 00:04:43,283 Regan, stop! 65 00:04:43,500 --> 00:04:45,023 Calm down! 66 00:05:01,039 --> 00:05:02,911 Mm. 67 00:05:05,000 --> 00:05:07,872 - Mm. - Hey. 68 00:05:08,090 --> 00:05:10,701 I'm pretty sure we said we wouldn't do this at work. 69 00:05:10,919 --> 00:05:14,096 And I'm pretty sure you're the one who started it. 70 00:05:14,314 --> 00:05:17,404 How about we pick this up tonight? 71 00:05:17,621 --> 00:05:20,320 I'd love to, but I got plans with a friend. 72 00:05:20,537 --> 00:05:23,584 Tomorrow? - Sure. Tomorrow's great. 73 00:05:23,801 --> 00:05:25,325 Okay. 74 00:05:29,459 --> 00:05:31,243 Good morning, docs. 75 00:05:31,418 --> 00:05:34,246 - Uh, this is me. - Alright. 76 00:05:34,421 --> 00:05:36,205 Good morning, Justine. 77 00:05:41,515 --> 00:05:44,648 I will die if we don't get this apartment. 78 00:05:44,866 --> 00:05:46,433 Look at the rooftop garden. 79 00:05:46,650 --> 00:05:48,435 Oh, this room could be a nursery. 80 00:05:52,047 --> 00:05:54,049 - Dr. Pedrosa. - Dr. Landon. 81 00:05:54,266 --> 00:05:55,616 What a pleasant surprise. 82 00:05:55,833 --> 00:05:57,531 Sorry to barge in, but... 83 00:05:57,748 --> 00:05:59,837 Oh, this used to be my office. 84 00:06:01,186 --> 00:06:03,493 Alright. I'll send you the app to sign. 85 00:06:05,060 --> 00:06:06,888 Lovely to see you, Doctor. 86 00:06:09,978 --> 00:06:11,849 I'd heard rumors about the treadmill, 87 00:06:12,067 --> 00:06:14,983 but no one mentioned I'd find Dr. Pedrosa in here. 88 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:17,377 Yes, well, I don't usually update the mothers of my exes 89 00:06:17,594 --> 00:06:19,291 on my relationship status. 90 00:06:20,771 --> 00:06:22,425 Wolf knows. - He's coming home soon, 91 00:06:22,643 --> 00:06:24,513 and I'd like to set him up for success. 92 00:06:24,514 --> 00:06:26,473 Our goals are aligned. 93 00:06:26,690 --> 00:06:29,824 So where are you in the process of firing Dr. Porter? 94 00:06:30,041 --> 00:06:31,608 I heard what happened at the gala. 95 00:06:31,826 --> 00:06:34,785 How he told Oliver about Noah's apartment. 96 00:06:35,003 --> 00:06:38,180 Charlie cannot be here when Oliver returns. 97 00:06:38,398 --> 00:06:40,617 Yes, well, I took my concerns to the board, 98 00:06:40,835 --> 00:06:43,968 and they opened a formal review. But not easy to fire a resident. 99 00:06:44,186 --> 00:06:45,883 Especially a competent one. 100 00:06:46,101 --> 00:06:48,059 Well, I hired Charlie. I'm the one who put him here. 101 00:06:48,277 --> 00:06:51,672 So if I have to get rid of him on my own, 102 00:06:51,889 --> 00:06:54,849 believe me, I will do it. 103 00:06:57,939 --> 00:07:00,768 Didn't you say you, uh, used to swim every day? 104 00:07:00,985 --> 00:07:02,160 I had no idea 105 00:07:02,378 --> 00:07:03,988 Hudson Oaks has such nice facilities. 106 00:07:04,206 --> 00:07:06,730 Oh, we don't. Lost the lifeguards due to budget cuts. 107 00:07:06,948 --> 00:07:09,472 But I thought we could dip our toes in, 108 00:07:09,690 --> 00:07:10,691 give you something to look forward to. 109 00:07:10,908 --> 00:07:12,170 There's no need. 110 00:07:12,388 --> 00:07:13,911 The Hudson's too cold this time of year. 111 00:07:14,129 --> 00:07:17,741 And I think my membership to the Y has lapsed. 112 00:07:19,917 --> 00:07:25,053 Well, I'm going to level with you, Wolf. 113 00:07:26,141 --> 00:07:28,273 Re-entry can be hard. 114 00:07:28,448 --> 00:07:32,625 Reconnecting with the things that make you you... 115 00:07:32,626 --> 00:07:34,584 more important now than ever. 116 00:07:39,067 --> 00:07:42,200 Don't be afraid to... 117 00:07:42,418 --> 00:07:44,246 jump back in to the deep end. 118 00:07:55,344 --> 00:07:56,650 Dr. Thorne paged you, too? 119 00:07:56,867 --> 00:07:58,434 Yeah. Alright. 120 00:07:58,608 --> 00:07:59,914 Young Mormon couple on their honeymoon in the big city. 121 00:08:00,131 --> 00:08:01,785 And let me tell you, they are bright eyed. 122 00:08:02,003 --> 00:08:03,352 On a scale from "I heart New York" tees 123 00:08:03,526 --> 00:08:05,267 to Statue of Liberty visors... 124 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:07,356 Like, excited to see the show they heard is all the rage-- 125 00:08:07,530 --> 00:08:09,401 "Hamilton." - Oh. 126 00:08:09,576 --> 00:08:10,794 Look, I know that psych is Dr. Pierce's wheelhouse, 127 00:08:11,012 --> 00:08:12,361 but the wife has a head injury, 128 00:08:12,535 --> 00:08:13,710 and she's being cagey about how she got it. 129 00:08:13,928 --> 00:08:15,059 And the husband? 130 00:08:15,277 --> 00:08:17,321 Seems protective, overly invested, 131 00:08:17,322 --> 00:08:19,368 all the warning signs of DV. Patient says 132 00:08:19,542 --> 00:08:21,326 she feels more comfy with a female doctor, so... 133 00:08:21,501 --> 00:08:24,199 You called all the ones you know. 134 00:08:24,416 --> 00:08:27,028 Yeah. 135 00:08:27,245 --> 00:08:29,857 Come on. Hey, Whitney, Zeke, 136 00:08:30,074 --> 00:08:32,076 our neuro psych team is here to have a look. 137 00:08:32,294 --> 00:08:35,253 Can you fill them in? - I'm such a klutz. 138 00:08:35,471 --> 00:08:37,647 I can't believe we're spending our honeymoon in the E.R. 139 00:08:37,865 --> 00:08:39,300 We're supposed to be sipping 140 00:08:39,301 --> 00:08:41,303 frozen hot chocolates at Serendipity. 141 00:08:41,521 --> 00:08:43,523 Oh. 142 00:08:43,697 --> 00:08:45,873 Can you move your hand for me, please? 143 00:08:50,181 --> 00:08:51,313 Tell them about the other part. 144 00:08:51,531 --> 00:08:53,533 I hurt you. Your-- - No. 145 00:08:53,707 --> 00:08:55,752 No, I'm-- I'm fine. 146 00:08:58,146 --> 00:09:01,802 Um, there's a whole lot of people in this room. 147 00:09:02,019 --> 00:09:04,544 Whitney, can we chat alone? 148 00:09:06,023 --> 00:09:07,851 Um, why don't you follow me? 149 00:09:08,069 --> 00:09:09,592 I can take you to the cafeteria, 150 00:09:09,810 --> 00:09:11,463 and you can get some water or something to eat. 151 00:09:11,638 --> 00:09:12,726 Are you hungry? 152 00:09:17,034 --> 00:09:20,690 Congratulations on your marriage. 153 00:09:20,908 --> 00:09:24,041 Thank you. It was the best day of my life. 154 00:09:24,259 --> 00:09:26,957 But then something went wrong. 155 00:09:27,175 --> 00:09:29,917 You got hurt. 156 00:09:30,134 --> 00:09:33,660 Is Zeke ever rough? 157 00:09:33,877 --> 00:09:37,359 Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, it's not like that. 158 00:09:40,449 --> 00:09:41,929 It was actually... 159 00:09:43,583 --> 00:09:45,585 Your first time together? 160 00:09:48,588 --> 00:09:50,590 It was going fine, you know. 161 00:09:50,807 --> 00:09:53,593 We were kissing and... 162 00:09:53,767 --> 00:09:56,465 Yeah, it just-- It hurt so bad, 163 00:09:56,639 --> 00:10:00,600 and my body just... freaked out. 164 00:10:00,817 --> 00:10:02,689 I, like, lost control. 165 00:10:02,906 --> 00:10:05,300 Now I've ruined everything, so... 166 00:10:05,517 --> 00:10:07,998 No, no. Nothing's ruined. 167 00:10:08,216 --> 00:10:10,610 We'll figure it out, okay? 168 00:10:10,784 --> 00:10:11,915 Okay. 169 00:10:16,703 --> 00:10:19,836 And here you go. Next, please. 170 00:10:21,185 --> 00:10:23,144 Here's your meds. 171 00:10:27,888 --> 00:10:31,674 Hey, what do you guys know about that woman over there? 172 00:10:31,892 --> 00:10:34,459 - What are you doing? - She could have seen you. 173 00:10:34,634 --> 00:10:37,332 Are you guys scared of her? 174 00:10:37,549 --> 00:10:40,640 No. You just don't point at the Howler of Hudson Oaks. 175 00:10:40,814 --> 00:10:42,815 At least let me get my asthma medication first. 176 00:10:42,816 --> 00:10:44,644 - That is a ludicrous moniker. - What? 177 00:10:44,818 --> 00:10:46,907 You haven't heard her howling? - No. 178 00:10:47,124 --> 00:10:49,300 I was here eight months ago when she first arrived. 179 00:10:49,518 --> 00:10:51,041 Her face was droopy, like a witch. 180 00:10:51,259 --> 00:10:52,956 And then she disappeared for a few weeks. 181 00:10:53,174 --> 00:10:54,828 And now she's back and look. 182 00:10:55,045 --> 00:10:56,524 No droop. 183 00:10:56,525 --> 00:10:58,222 How do you explain that except black magic? 184 00:10:58,440 --> 00:11:02,531 Well, facial palsy is an interesting symptom, 185 00:11:02,705 --> 00:11:05,142 and it brings up a number of questions. 186 00:11:05,360 --> 00:11:07,491 Excuse me. - Give me a minute. 187 00:11:07,492 --> 00:11:10,060 Oliver, have you got a minute? 188 00:11:11,018 --> 00:11:13,237 Uh, for you, uh, anything. 189 00:11:13,455 --> 00:11:16,023 I hear you've been snooping around one of our patients. 190 00:11:16,240 --> 00:11:18,460 Regan? - Snooping? No. 191 00:11:18,678 --> 00:11:20,418 What were you just talking about? 192 00:11:20,636 --> 00:11:22,290 That's patient confidentiality. 193 00:11:22,507 --> 00:11:25,553 That is in a doctor-patient relationship. 194 00:11:25,554 --> 00:11:27,164 In here, you are not a doctor. 195 00:11:27,382 --> 00:11:29,036 You are a patient. 196 00:11:29,253 --> 00:11:30,820 At least for another day or two. 197 00:11:31,038 --> 00:11:34,258 Right. Um, I-- I was meaning to ask you, 198 00:11:34,476 --> 00:11:37,435 what if I'm not ready to go quite yet? 199 00:11:37,653 --> 00:11:41,570 If I need to stay a little bit longer? 200 00:11:41,744 --> 00:11:44,094 I wouldn't want you to leave before you're ready. 201 00:11:44,312 --> 00:11:45,966 I can talk to your insurance if you like. 202 00:11:46,183 --> 00:11:48,708 Would you? I think that it would ease my mind. 203 00:11:48,925 --> 00:11:50,361 Okay. 204 00:11:50,579 --> 00:11:52,407 Thank you. 205 00:12:04,854 --> 00:12:07,639 Uhh! 206 00:12:19,129 --> 00:12:22,219 Hi. 207 00:12:31,620 --> 00:12:33,100 I figured you'd want it back. 208 00:12:34,275 --> 00:12:35,972 Are those your children? 209 00:12:38,975 --> 00:12:42,022 - They were. - Can I ask what happened? 210 00:12:49,246 --> 00:12:51,901 I was only trying to protect them. 211 00:12:53,250 --> 00:12:55,035 From what? 212 00:12:55,252 --> 00:12:58,255 From what lived in that house. 213 00:13:03,086 --> 00:13:05,262 I felt it the moment that we moved in. 214 00:13:05,480 --> 00:13:07,874 Something there. 215 00:13:08,091 --> 00:13:10,572 Something sinister. 216 00:13:10,790 --> 00:13:15,055 I thought I could shelter them by absorbing it myself. 217 00:13:15,272 --> 00:13:17,274 And it worked. 218 00:13:17,492 --> 00:13:19,537 It's in me now. 219 00:13:21,626 --> 00:13:26,849 I am the one who is haunted. 220 00:13:33,638 --> 00:13:35,815 - Vagi-what? - It's called vaginismus. 221 00:13:35,989 --> 00:13:37,599 It's a condition 222 00:13:37,817 --> 00:13:39,993 where the body painfully contracts during penetration. 223 00:13:40,210 --> 00:13:43,039 It's entirely voluntary and it's not your fault. 224 00:13:43,257 --> 00:13:46,826 But why? I mean, I love him. 225 00:13:47,000 --> 00:13:49,219 So what's wrong with me? 226 00:13:49,437 --> 00:13:52,701 Processing how we feel about sex and sexuality, 227 00:13:52,875 --> 00:13:54,268 it's really simple, 228 00:13:54,485 --> 00:13:56,836 but it can be even more complicated 229 00:13:57,010 --> 00:13:58,750 when shame is ingrained. 230 00:13:58,925 --> 00:14:01,666 And for many of my patients from strong religious backgrounds, 231 00:14:01,841 --> 00:14:04,974 there can be... a lot to unlearn. 232 00:14:06,584 --> 00:14:08,804 It's just we've waited all this time, 233 00:14:08,978 --> 00:14:11,024 and now we can't do it. 234 00:14:11,241 --> 00:14:13,591 There are a lot of treatment options out there-- 235 00:14:13,809 --> 00:14:16,072 talk therapy, physical therapy, 236 00:14:16,290 --> 00:14:17,813 vaginal dilators, 237 00:14:17,987 --> 00:14:21,077 and for more severe cases, Botox can even be helpful. 238 00:14:21,295 --> 00:14:25,255 I got my elevens done before the wedding. 239 00:14:26,866 --> 00:14:29,869 Okay, I'm going to refer you 240 00:14:30,086 --> 00:14:35,483 to a pelvic floor specialist and a psychotherapist in Utah, 241 00:14:35,700 --> 00:14:37,572 and we will leave the neurotoxins 242 00:14:37,789 --> 00:14:39,226 in your face for now. Okay? 243 00:14:39,443 --> 00:14:41,271 Wait. No. 244 00:14:41,489 --> 00:14:43,360 Will you help me? 245 00:14:43,578 --> 00:14:45,014 Just... 246 00:14:45,232 --> 00:14:47,451 if a fancy New York City doctor can't fix this, 247 00:14:47,669 --> 00:14:49,279 then I don't know who can. 248 00:14:49,497 --> 00:14:51,281 Really, Mom? 249 00:14:51,499 --> 00:14:53,326 Don't fight me on this. 250 00:14:53,327 --> 00:14:55,198 Fibrosa. 251 00:14:55,416 --> 00:14:56,852 I gave you polyp. 252 00:14:57,026 --> 00:14:58,810 And as your mother, I gave you life. 253 00:14:58,985 --> 00:15:01,030 Count it. 254 00:15:01,248 --> 00:15:03,206 Um... 255 00:15:06,296 --> 00:15:09,517 I know how much you hate places like this. 256 00:15:09,734 --> 00:15:12,433 It means a lot that you came. 257 00:15:12,650 --> 00:15:16,045 I'm not even sure why I was so scared. 258 00:15:16,263 --> 00:15:18,091 All those memories with your father, I suppose. 259 00:15:18,308 --> 00:15:19,918 But this is different. 260 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:23,487 When I see how good this place has been for you, 261 00:15:23,705 --> 00:15:26,882 something has been healed for me as well. 262 00:15:33,628 --> 00:15:36,326 These are for you. 263 00:15:39,721 --> 00:15:41,417 Um... 264 00:15:41,418 --> 00:15:46,293 I am thinking of staying a little longer. 265 00:15:46,510 --> 00:15:47,990 Oh. 266 00:15:50,601 --> 00:15:54,910 Do not sneak an acronym in while you're giving me news. 267 00:15:56,042 --> 00:16:00,829 But if you feel like you need more time, take it. 268 00:16:01,003 --> 00:16:02,004 - Let's go. - Please tell her it's from us. 269 00:16:02,222 --> 00:16:03,440 Thank you. 270 00:16:03,658 --> 00:16:05,007 She doesn't even know we're here. 271 00:16:05,225 --> 00:16:06,704 Speaking of which, don't be mad at me. 272 00:16:06,922 --> 00:16:09,751 But I did let myself into your house. 273 00:16:09,969 --> 00:16:11,447 The mail was piling up. 274 00:16:11,448 --> 00:16:14,190 I, uh... Just give me one minute. 275 00:16:18,890 --> 00:16:20,631 Uh, excuse me. 276 00:16:20,849 --> 00:16:23,591 Do you know Regan? 277 00:16:23,808 --> 00:16:27,160 I'm Lucy. This is Rex. We're her kids. 278 00:16:27,377 --> 00:16:29,510 Oh, uh, I'm a friend of your mom's. 279 00:16:29,727 --> 00:16:30,902 A friend? That's a first. 280 00:16:31,077 --> 00:16:33,862 - Rex. - I'm also a doctor, 281 00:16:34,036 --> 00:16:36,081 and I would really love to know a little bit more 282 00:16:36,082 --> 00:16:38,910 about your mom, how she was before the psychosis. 283 00:16:39,085 --> 00:16:42,131 To be honest, I don't really remember a time before. 284 00:16:42,349 --> 00:16:44,133 How long has she been here? 285 00:16:44,351 --> 00:16:46,352 She's been in and out of hospitals for the past 13 years. 286 00:16:46,353 --> 00:16:48,746 I'm trying to convince Lucy this is the best place 287 00:16:48,964 --> 00:16:50,618 for Mom long term. 288 00:16:50,835 --> 00:16:53,273 Unlike Rex, I remember a time 289 00:16:53,490 --> 00:16:56,276 when Mom was... different. 290 00:16:57,364 --> 00:17:00,280 He can't see it, but she's still in there. 291 00:17:01,498 --> 00:17:03,848 What are you still doing here?! 292 00:17:04,023 --> 00:17:06,590 Go, go, go! 293 00:17:06,808 --> 00:17:08,027 Hey! 294 00:17:08,201 --> 00:17:11,334 Go! 295 00:17:27,872 --> 00:17:29,874 The Hudson Oaks Howler, huh? 296 00:17:30,049 --> 00:17:31,615 You sure know how to pick 'em. 297 00:17:31,833 --> 00:17:33,922 Hallucinations, catatonia, voice modulation, 298 00:17:34,096 --> 00:17:36,403 facial contortions, even choreoathetosis. 299 00:17:36,620 --> 00:17:38,448 Historically, these are all telltale signs 300 00:17:38,666 --> 00:17:40,233 of demonic possession, right? 301 00:17:40,450 --> 00:17:42,931 Except now we know them to be neurological symptoms. 302 00:17:43,105 --> 00:17:45,064 The perfect example of our innate desire 303 00:17:45,238 --> 00:17:47,718 to attribute the physiological as philosophical, 304 00:17:47,936 --> 00:17:50,199 imbue suffering with meaning. 305 00:17:50,417 --> 00:17:51,895 Not to mention, 306 00:17:51,896 --> 00:17:53,811 autoimmune encephalitis disproportionately affects 307 00:17:54,029 --> 00:17:57,989 women, who also happen to be the primary victims of exorcisms. 308 00:18:00,383 --> 00:18:03,430 I'm sorry, I don't-- You don't think that I'm-- 309 00:18:03,647 --> 00:18:05,345 I think you're on to something. 310 00:18:05,562 --> 00:18:06,737 Yeah. 311 00:18:06,955 --> 00:18:08,696 And you're the only doctor 312 00:18:08,913 --> 00:18:10,263 who doesn't need expensive scans to find a neurological needle 313 00:18:10,480 --> 00:18:13,092 in this psychiatric haystack. 314 00:18:14,919 --> 00:18:16,530 Keep digging. 315 00:18:19,620 --> 00:18:21,926 You know you don't have to be here. 316 00:18:22,101 --> 00:18:23,406 I know. I want to be here. 317 00:18:27,932 --> 00:18:31,849 Plus, as chief, it's my job to look out for my doctors. 318 00:18:32,067 --> 00:18:32,981 Yeah. 319 00:18:39,030 --> 00:18:41,555 Dr. Landon, nice to see you. 320 00:18:41,772 --> 00:18:43,948 Hmm. 321 00:18:47,038 --> 00:18:49,084 What is this? 322 00:18:51,217 --> 00:18:54,002 An open residency spot at NYU? 323 00:18:54,176 --> 00:18:55,308 One of the most competitive 324 00:18:55,525 --> 00:18:57,571 neurology placements in the nation. 325 00:18:57,788 --> 00:18:59,747 And it's all yours... 326 00:18:59,964 --> 00:19:02,402 on one condition. 327 00:19:02,619 --> 00:19:05,144 You never step foot in Bronx General again. 328 00:19:05,318 --> 00:19:07,363 And don't even think about coming near my son. 329 00:19:07,581 --> 00:19:09,017 It was one address. 330 00:19:09,191 --> 00:19:11,759 I never thought that it would go this far. 331 00:19:11,976 --> 00:19:14,109 When you recruited me, I was so grateful. 332 00:19:14,283 --> 00:19:16,285 And look how you repaid me. 333 00:19:16,503 --> 00:19:18,809 If your locker isn't empty in the next 24 hours, 334 00:19:19,027 --> 00:19:21,812 I will see to it that you are removed the old-fashioned way. 335 00:19:51,190 --> 00:19:54,322 Regan? 336 00:19:54,323 --> 00:19:57,413 I'm sorry to be so intrusive, 337 00:19:57,631 --> 00:20:00,677 but we don't have much time before my discharge. 338 00:20:01,678 --> 00:20:05,204 Can you please draw a clock for me? 339 00:20:08,294 --> 00:20:11,906 Regan, I don't believe that your affliction is otherworldly 340 00:20:12,123 --> 00:20:13,255 or psychiatric even. 341 00:20:13,473 --> 00:20:15,039 But I need more evidence. 342 00:20:39,281 --> 00:20:42,414 I know that this is confusing, but if I'm right, 343 00:20:42,415 --> 00:20:44,852 there may be a cure for your torment. 344 00:20:45,069 --> 00:20:47,158 All of your neurons and the person you were 345 00:20:47,333 --> 00:20:49,073 are under siege, Regan. 346 00:20:49,248 --> 00:20:52,033 Your brain is on fire. 347 00:20:55,471 --> 00:20:57,647 Oh, God. 348 00:20:57,865 --> 00:21:00,476 I think we're in diminishing returns territory. 349 00:21:01,564 --> 00:21:03,653 Why don't we table our cases till morning 350 00:21:03,871 --> 00:21:06,352 and get to bed at a reasonable hour? 351 00:21:06,569 --> 00:21:08,658 Hmm? - You go ahead. 352 00:21:08,876 --> 00:21:10,269 I need more time. 353 00:21:13,315 --> 00:21:16,536 How about a little break before I go? 354 00:21:16,753 --> 00:21:20,975 That's tempting. I'm... distracted. 355 00:21:21,192 --> 00:21:23,107 Let me help you. 356 00:21:26,633 --> 00:21:28,678 Wait. This is-- 357 00:21:28,896 --> 00:21:30,898 This is a patient at Hudson Oaks. 358 00:21:32,247 --> 00:21:34,423 Yes, we were in the red through November. 359 00:21:34,641 --> 00:21:36,599 Occupancy picked up shortly after and-- 360 00:21:36,817 --> 00:21:38,862 Regan needs a full workup at a non-psychiatric hospital. 361 00:21:39,080 --> 00:21:40,603 I have to call you back. 362 00:21:40,821 --> 00:21:43,954 Her condition is likely neurological, maybe autoimmune, 363 00:21:44,172 --> 00:21:45,695 a space-occupying lesion, even lymphoma. 364 00:21:45,913 --> 00:21:47,262 But the longer she goes untreated, the worse it gets. 365 00:21:47,436 --> 00:21:49,003 Okay. Slow down. 366 00:21:49,220 --> 00:21:50,874 You think every doctor over the past decade was wrong? 367 00:21:51,092 --> 00:21:52,963 She is exhibiting signs of increased intracranial pressure, 368 00:21:53,181 --> 00:21:54,878 visual field deficits and papilledema. 369 00:21:55,096 --> 00:21:56,619 So I can't say for certain, 370 00:21:56,837 --> 00:21:59,970 but I have a hunch between 1% and 5% of patients 371 00:22:00,188 --> 00:22:01,494 who are diagnosed with schizophrenia 372 00:22:01,711 --> 00:22:03,191 actually have an underlying neurological 373 00:22:03,365 --> 00:22:05,236 and completely treatable organic illness. 374 00:22:05,411 --> 00:22:06,803 Exactly. 375 00:22:07,021 --> 00:22:08,805 And I am thinking about the other 99%. 376 00:22:09,023 --> 00:22:10,938 Think of the message that you will be sending all 377 00:22:11,155 --> 00:22:14,462 of our psychiatric patients by whisking Regan away to fix her. 378 00:22:14,463 --> 00:22:16,683 At least prescribe her steroids. 379 00:22:16,900 --> 00:22:19,250 If this is neurological, it will temporarily help. 380 00:22:19,425 --> 00:22:21,165 And if it's psychiatric, 381 00:22:21,340 --> 00:22:23,951 which it is, steroids will only make her psychosis worse. 382 00:22:24,168 --> 00:22:25,779 Do you remember when you first arrived 383 00:22:25,996 --> 00:22:27,911 and you were seeing things that weren't there? 384 00:22:28,129 --> 00:22:30,131 The charade with Regan feels a lot like that. 385 00:22:30,349 --> 00:22:34,701 I will not play mind games with her and neither will you. 386 00:22:40,620 --> 00:22:43,840 Hey. I need your help. 387 00:22:52,283 --> 00:22:56,331 ♪ Will you help me? ♪ 388 00:22:56,505 --> 00:22:58,768 ♪ Will you help? ♪ 389 00:22:58,986 --> 00:23:01,815 ♪ Figure myself out ♪ 390 00:23:12,652 --> 00:23:14,567 I want to help you. 391 00:23:14,784 --> 00:23:16,395 The other patients here do, too. 392 00:23:16,612 --> 00:23:20,355 Everyone who is on steroids donated what they could spare. 393 00:23:20,529 --> 00:23:22,575 600 milligrams of prednisone. 394 00:23:22,792 --> 00:23:26,405 Now, if I'm right, this will help you feel less confused, 395 00:23:26,622 --> 00:23:28,319 more like yourself. 396 00:23:28,494 --> 00:23:30,017 But if I'm wrong... 397 00:23:30,234 --> 00:23:33,150 this could make you much sicker, Regan. 398 00:23:33,368 --> 00:23:34,238 ♪ Help ♪ 399 00:23:34,413 --> 00:23:36,589 ♪ Will you help? ♪ 400 00:23:36,806 --> 00:23:41,376 ♪ Figure myself out ♪ 401 00:23:41,550 --> 00:23:43,465 I'm not afraid of that anymore. 402 00:23:53,214 --> 00:23:54,607 Your plan is not working. 403 00:23:54,824 --> 00:23:56,130 Vaginal dilators are like Russian nesting dolls 404 00:23:56,347 --> 00:23:57,523 of embarrassment. 405 00:23:57,740 --> 00:24:00,047 And pelvic floor therapy is just like-- 406 00:24:00,264 --> 00:24:02,702 It is straight out of the book of Revelation. 407 00:24:02,919 --> 00:24:04,573 I just thought that when we got married, 408 00:24:04,791 --> 00:24:07,837 that everything was gonna just click into place. 409 00:24:08,055 --> 00:24:11,145 And now this is happening, and I just... 410 00:24:11,362 --> 00:24:13,887 I just kind of feel like there's no hope. 411 00:24:14,104 --> 00:24:15,801 Okay. 412 00:24:15,802 --> 00:24:17,456 Sometimes our bodies know what's better than we know ourselves. 413 00:24:17,673 --> 00:24:20,459 You need to be patient and just listen. 414 00:24:20,676 --> 00:24:22,635 Whitney, this isn't your fault. 415 00:24:26,508 --> 00:24:27,770 What if it is? 416 00:24:28,771 --> 00:24:31,513 I think I know why this is happening. 417 00:24:31,731 --> 00:24:34,603 I... 418 00:24:34,821 --> 00:24:37,563 I'm actually not a virgin. 419 00:24:40,653 --> 00:24:44,787 I slept with someone once while Zeke was away on his mission. 420 00:24:45,005 --> 00:24:46,615 We weren't together then. 421 00:24:46,833 --> 00:24:48,356 It was like something took over my body 422 00:24:48,530 --> 00:24:50,097 and I was a completely different person. 423 00:24:50,314 --> 00:24:53,796 And... it was fun. 424 00:24:54,971 --> 00:24:57,278 But I felt horrible after. 425 00:24:57,496 --> 00:25:01,325 And I swore that I would take that secret to my grave. 426 00:25:01,500 --> 00:25:05,678 But now it feels like... God is punishing me. 427 00:25:05,895 --> 00:25:07,941 Hmm. 428 00:25:08,158 --> 00:25:09,899 I'm sorry that I didn't tell you before. 429 00:25:10,117 --> 00:25:12,728 I just I didn't want you to look at me differently, 430 00:25:12,946 --> 00:25:16,993 the way that... Zeke would if he ever found out. 431 00:25:17,211 --> 00:25:19,561 I'm not looking at you any differently, Whitney. 432 00:25:22,172 --> 00:25:24,871 I gotta be honest with Zeke, don't I? 433 00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:39,363 Is everything okay? 434 00:25:44,368 --> 00:25:48,198 Uh...I... 435 00:25:48,416 --> 00:25:50,549 need to be upfront with you, Anthony. 436 00:25:50,766 --> 00:25:52,159 Mm-hmm. 437 00:25:52,376 --> 00:25:55,901 - Other than my ex... - Mm-hmm. 438 00:25:55,902 --> 00:26:01,690 ...you are the only person I've been with since I was 21. 439 00:26:01,908 --> 00:26:06,521 And I'm not trying to define whatever this is because I... 440 00:26:06,695 --> 00:26:08,958 I don't even know what I want it to be. 441 00:26:09,176 --> 00:26:12,832 But what I do know is that I can't do this... 442 00:26:14,094 --> 00:26:16,575 ...if you're involved with other people. 443 00:26:18,054 --> 00:26:21,754 I'm not seeing anyone else, 444 00:26:21,971 --> 00:26:23,582 and I don't plan to. 445 00:26:25,584 --> 00:26:27,542 And for the record, I would have asked you out a long time ago, 446 00:26:27,716 --> 00:26:30,937 but I never thought you would go for me... 447 00:26:31,154 --> 00:26:32,765 - What? - ...at least in a real way. 448 00:26:32,982 --> 00:26:35,071 You are out of my league, Dr. Pierce. 449 00:26:35,289 --> 00:26:38,118 I am a working-class guy down in the muck of the ED, 450 00:26:38,335 --> 00:26:39,859 and you have, like, 451 00:26:40,076 --> 00:26:42,122 four different Ivy League degrees on your walls 452 00:26:42,339 --> 00:26:43,950 and a picture with Michelle Obama. 453 00:26:44,167 --> 00:26:47,649 That was one time at a charity luncheon. 454 00:26:47,867 --> 00:26:50,652 But I am flattered that you think of me 455 00:26:50,870 --> 00:26:53,481 in the same sentence as Michelle. 456 00:27:27,994 --> 00:27:29,299 Regan? 457 00:27:32,868 --> 00:27:35,349 Regan. 458 00:27:38,526 --> 00:27:39,832 I need a little help over here! 459 00:27:40,049 --> 00:27:41,790 Code blue in the hallway. Someone call 911. 460 00:27:42,008 --> 00:27:45,272 Code blue, hallway. Code blue, hallway. 461 00:27:45,489 --> 00:27:47,666 What did you do, Oliver? 462 00:27:51,147 --> 00:27:53,541 Some mild enhancement around the meninges, 463 00:27:53,715 --> 00:27:55,021 a few scattered white-matter lesions. 464 00:27:55,238 --> 00:27:56,675 Notable, but not specific. 465 00:27:56,849 --> 00:27:58,720 - Has she undergone an LP? - Yes. Totally normal. 466 00:27:58,938 --> 00:28:00,722 And antibodies won't be back anytime soon. 467 00:28:00,940 --> 00:28:02,724 Then I think, given the new imaging findings, 468 00:28:02,942 --> 00:28:04,683 she needs a brain biopsy as soon as possible. 469 00:28:04,900 --> 00:28:06,815 Did you get the lab notes I put in her pocket? 470 00:28:07,033 --> 00:28:08,208 Uh, looking at them now. 471 00:28:08,425 --> 00:28:09,731 But what about the seizure? 472 00:28:09,949 --> 00:28:11,472 Prednisone wouldn't have caused that. 473 00:28:11,690 --> 00:28:13,735 That's because she didn't have one. 474 00:28:13,953 --> 00:28:16,956 The steroids worked. 475 00:28:17,173 --> 00:28:19,828 During her temporary lucidity, 476 00:28:20,046 --> 00:28:21,787 I showed her how to fake one 477 00:28:22,004 --> 00:28:24,833 so Hudson Oaks would be forced to transfer her. 478 00:28:27,488 --> 00:28:29,533 Dr. Wolf was in on it. 479 00:28:30,970 --> 00:28:34,713 Huh. 480 00:28:34,930 --> 00:28:36,410 Have you given any more thought to my question? 481 00:28:36,627 --> 00:28:38,978 What makes you feel most like yourself? 482 00:28:39,195 --> 00:28:41,023 Patients still don't count? 483 00:28:41,241 --> 00:28:42,590 Ha. 484 00:28:42,764 --> 00:28:43,983 Uh, well, I sold my bike. 485 00:28:44,200 --> 00:28:49,249 So there's swimming, lifting, my ferns. 486 00:28:49,466 --> 00:28:50,598 It's a healthy list. 487 00:28:53,557 --> 00:28:55,298 Can I be honest, Dr. Adler? 488 00:28:55,516 --> 00:28:56,909 First time for everything. 489 00:28:59,302 --> 00:29:02,610 I feel most myself when I'm with Josh. 490 00:29:04,960 --> 00:29:06,919 I like the way he sees me. 491 00:29:08,094 --> 00:29:10,749 I like who I am with him. 492 00:29:13,490 --> 00:29:15,275 Putting yourself out there can hurt like hell, 493 00:29:15,492 --> 00:29:18,191 but it's never too late to start living again. 494 00:29:18,408 --> 00:29:21,063 Move towards what feels good. 495 00:29:21,281 --> 00:29:22,761 You deserve it. 496 00:29:25,764 --> 00:29:28,070 Dr. Pierce. 497 00:29:28,288 --> 00:29:29,593 Oh, Whitney, Zeke. 498 00:29:29,768 --> 00:29:33,336 We just had to pop in before we head home. 499 00:29:33,554 --> 00:29:37,079 We're just so thankful to you for everything, 500 00:29:37,297 --> 00:29:38,733 for encouraging me to open up. 501 00:29:38,907 --> 00:29:41,736 You were right. Things are much better now. 502 00:29:41,910 --> 00:29:43,390 I'm happy for the both of you. 503 00:29:43,607 --> 00:29:46,567 This type of openness, it's-- it's special. 504 00:29:46,785 --> 00:29:49,178 And it takes a lot of work, so protect it. 505 00:29:50,789 --> 00:29:53,792 Oh. 506 00:29:53,966 --> 00:29:55,619 Thank you. 507 00:29:55,794 --> 00:29:56,751 Of course. 508 00:30:03,802 --> 00:30:05,934 I just got a call from the lab with good news, Regan. 509 00:30:06,152 --> 00:30:08,458 What you have is entirely treatable. 510 00:30:08,676 --> 00:30:10,330 Neurosarcoid is an autoimmune disease 511 00:30:10,547 --> 00:30:12,114 that generally presents in the lungs, 512 00:30:12,332 --> 00:30:13,724 but in your case, only affected the brain. 513 00:30:13,899 --> 00:30:15,814 It's incredibly rare, but not unheard of. 514 00:30:15,988 --> 00:30:19,469 And explains how your case went misdiagnosed for so many years. 515 00:30:19,687 --> 00:30:21,428 And why you responded to the steroids. 516 00:30:21,645 --> 00:30:23,560 But not any of the psych meds. 517 00:30:25,432 --> 00:30:27,390 So everything that I was experiencing, 518 00:30:27,608 --> 00:30:31,917 all the demons and night terrors, 519 00:30:32,134 --> 00:30:34,571 none of that was real. 520 00:30:34,789 --> 00:30:36,182 It's likely that none of your symptoms 521 00:30:36,399 --> 00:30:37,923 were psychiatric in origin. 522 00:30:38,140 --> 00:30:40,316 The neurosarcoid explains all of it. 523 00:30:40,534 --> 00:30:42,928 We've already started you on steroids and methotrexate. 524 00:30:43,145 --> 00:30:44,668 You'll need more over time, 525 00:30:44,843 --> 00:30:48,803 but we expect you to make a full recovery. 526 00:30:51,501 --> 00:30:52,938 You can go home. 527 00:30:54,200 --> 00:30:57,029 Is there someone we can call to organize discharge? 528 00:30:59,466 --> 00:31:01,685 No. 529 00:31:03,774 --> 00:31:06,473 No. God. 530 00:31:06,690 --> 00:31:11,652 I dragged the people that I loved through hell. 531 00:31:13,872 --> 00:31:15,830 Now there's no going home. 532 00:31:17,876 --> 00:31:20,530 I can think of one person who'd love to see you. 533 00:31:25,448 --> 00:31:27,755 We're not supposed to be out of our rooms after lights out. 534 00:31:27,929 --> 00:31:29,104 This isn't a prison. 535 00:31:29,322 --> 00:31:30,932 We can't be afraid to live our lives. 536 00:31:31,150 --> 00:31:33,239 Sometimes you got to just jump into the deep end. 537 00:31:33,456 --> 00:31:34,936 Okay. Where are you taking us, anyway? 538 00:31:35,154 --> 00:31:36,764 This way. 539 00:31:36,938 --> 00:31:39,549 Okay. 540 00:31:39,767 --> 00:31:41,769 Okay, now we're talking. 541 00:31:41,943 --> 00:31:44,206 ♪ Keep it covered ♪ 542 00:31:44,424 --> 00:31:46,643 ♪ I need you to run to me ♪ 543 00:31:46,861 --> 00:31:51,735 ♪ Run to me, lover ♪ 544 00:31:51,910 --> 00:31:58,612 ♪ Run until you feel your lungs bleeding ♪ 545 00:31:58,829 --> 00:32:04,139 ♪ Rare is this love, keep it covered ♪ 546 00:32:04,357 --> 00:32:07,099 ♪ I need you to run to me ♪ 547 00:32:07,316 --> 00:32:10,450 ♪ Run to me, lover ♪ 548 00:32:10,667 --> 00:32:12,626 ♪ I need you to run ♪ 549 00:32:12,843 --> 00:32:16,935 ♪ Run until you feel your lungs bleeding ♪ 550 00:32:19,894 --> 00:32:22,244 What the hell's going on here?! 551 00:32:25,334 --> 00:32:27,162 You're very lucky there weren't any injuries. 552 00:32:27,380 --> 00:32:29,686 It is forbidden to use the pool without supervision. 553 00:32:29,904 --> 00:32:31,601 This was reckless, even for you. 554 00:32:31,819 --> 00:32:33,386 Your patients will have to live without supervision 555 00:32:33,603 --> 00:32:35,170 at some point in their lives. 556 00:32:35,388 --> 00:32:36,867 Well, that is if you ever let any of them leave. 557 00:32:37,042 --> 00:32:39,392 Oliver. I thought you had turned a corner. 558 00:32:39,609 --> 00:32:40,697 But your recent behavior, 559 00:32:40,915 --> 00:32:42,699 it feels regressive... impulsive. 560 00:32:42,917 --> 00:32:45,572 You know, I've come to realize this place isn't that bad. 561 00:32:45,789 --> 00:32:48,183 There are good people on the staff. 562 00:32:48,401 --> 00:32:51,578 Hudson Oaks isn't the problem. You are. 563 00:32:51,795 --> 00:32:53,232 While your disdain for me 564 00:32:53,449 --> 00:32:55,102 and what I do predates your arrival here, 565 00:32:55,103 --> 00:32:58,585 I am not daunted by difficult people. 566 00:32:58,802 --> 00:33:00,152 It is my job to keep you safe 567 00:33:00,369 --> 00:33:02,110 and direct your course of treatment, 568 00:33:02,328 --> 00:33:04,983 motivated purely by a deeply held concern for those 569 00:33:05,200 --> 00:33:07,115 who struggle with mental-health issues. 570 00:33:07,333 --> 00:33:09,161 Don't forget your patients' deep pockets. 571 00:33:09,378 --> 00:33:12,555 Speaking of, I got in touch with your insurance. 572 00:33:12,773 --> 00:33:15,645 You wanted to stay longer. Wish granted. 573 00:33:15,863 --> 00:33:16,995 It's all arranged. 574 00:33:25,916 --> 00:33:27,309 Oliver. 575 00:33:27,527 --> 00:33:30,486 Good news. You have a visitor. 576 00:33:33,228 --> 00:33:36,710 Looks like you've seen a ghost. 577 00:33:36,927 --> 00:33:38,320 Why are you here? 578 00:33:38,538 --> 00:33:40,017 Is this your version of a victory lap? 579 00:33:40,018 --> 00:33:42,237 The opposite. 580 00:33:42,455 --> 00:33:46,024 I came here to say you win. I'm leaving Bronx General. 581 00:33:47,025 --> 00:33:49,679 There's an open residency at NYU, 582 00:33:49,897 --> 00:33:51,420 and you never have to see me again. 583 00:33:51,638 --> 00:33:54,467 NYU? 584 00:33:55,903 --> 00:33:59,124 Did my mom put you up to this? 585 00:33:59,341 --> 00:34:00,516 I don't know what she said to you, 586 00:34:00,734 --> 00:34:01,996 but do not take that job. 587 00:34:02,170 --> 00:34:03,780 I don't think that's an option. 588 00:34:03,998 --> 00:34:06,391 I'll talk to her. I'll take care of it. 589 00:34:06,392 --> 00:34:08,785 You don't really want to leave, Charlie. 590 00:34:09,003 --> 00:34:10,874 If you did, you would not be here. 591 00:34:11,049 --> 00:34:12,615 Why did you really come to see me? 592 00:34:12,833 --> 00:34:15,357 I never wanted any of this to happen. 593 00:34:15,575 --> 00:34:17,664 I don't know what I wanted... 594 00:34:17,881 --> 00:34:18,969 but it was not this. 595 00:34:19,144 --> 00:34:22,451 So... I'm sorry. 596 00:34:26,673 --> 00:34:29,458 You didn't do this to me. 597 00:34:29,676 --> 00:34:32,070 I came here to get help I needed 598 00:34:32,244 --> 00:34:34,072 long before you entered the picture. 599 00:34:39,512 --> 00:34:42,558 For what it's worth, I forgive you. 600 00:34:46,649 --> 00:34:49,087 You remind me so much of myself. 601 00:34:51,219 --> 00:34:53,961 I'm nothing like you, Wolf. 602 00:34:57,051 --> 00:34:58,705 You're allergic to authority. 603 00:34:58,922 --> 00:35:00,837 You're addicted to self-destruction. 604 00:35:01,055 --> 00:35:03,927 You're trying to fix everyone but yourself, and you're angry. 605 00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:06,016 You think that this anger is gonna insulate you 606 00:35:06,191 --> 00:35:09,455 from the pain, but it will alienate you from everyone. 607 00:35:11,109 --> 00:35:13,198 Even yourself. 608 00:35:13,415 --> 00:35:16,114 Trust me. 609 00:35:17,854 --> 00:35:21,119 The night of the gala, you said, "Let's see who breaks first." 610 00:35:22,990 --> 00:35:24,557 The truth is... 611 00:35:26,124 --> 00:35:30,432 ...we're all just doing our best to hold ourselves together. 612 00:35:53,151 --> 00:35:55,631 Strange being on... 613 00:35:55,849 --> 00:35:57,938 this side of things. 614 00:35:58,156 --> 00:36:01,724 I just wanted to say thank you 615 00:36:01,942 --> 00:36:04,118 for saving my life... 616 00:36:05,337 --> 00:36:07,948 ...and whatever is left of it. 617 00:36:08,166 --> 00:36:09,776 Have you seen Lucy and Rex? 618 00:36:09,993 --> 00:36:12,170 No. Not yet. 619 00:36:12,387 --> 00:36:19,742 After everything I did, all I ever wanted was to protect them. 620 00:36:20,613 --> 00:36:22,180 It wasn't your fault. 621 00:36:22,397 --> 00:36:25,618 I know. I'm still battling demons. 622 00:36:25,835 --> 00:36:28,055 They just look different. 623 00:36:28,229 --> 00:36:30,797 I'm haunted by the person that I was. 624 00:36:31,014 --> 00:36:33,843 The brain is our most resilient and adaptable organ. 625 00:36:34,061 --> 00:36:37,020 And yours belongs to you again 626 00:36:37,195 --> 00:36:39,719 for the first time in a long time. 627 00:36:41,808 --> 00:36:46,987 I want to see my kids... 628 00:36:47,205 --> 00:36:49,816 more than anything. 629 00:36:52,906 --> 00:36:55,691 I just don't know if they want to see me. 630 00:36:56,997 --> 00:36:58,825 Well, someone 631 00:36:59,042 --> 00:37:02,002 whose dad struggled with his mental health... 632 00:37:03,438 --> 00:37:05,440 ...I can say they want to see you... 633 00:37:09,575 --> 00:37:11,533 ...more than anything. 634 00:37:17,104 --> 00:37:19,367 Oh, how the tables have turned. 635 00:37:19,585 --> 00:37:21,151 You look good back at Bronx General. 636 00:37:21,326 --> 00:37:22,631 You know where I'll look even better? 637 00:37:22,849 --> 00:37:24,633 - Mm. - Our new apartment. 638 00:37:24,851 --> 00:37:27,070 About that... 639 00:37:27,245 --> 00:37:30,596 I come bearing eggplant parm. 640 00:37:30,813 --> 00:37:32,162 We didn't get it, did we? 641 00:37:32,337 --> 00:37:34,382 There'll be other apartments. 642 00:37:34,600 --> 00:37:36,079 We don't have to rush. 643 00:37:37,733 --> 00:37:40,997 Last time we broke up because we were moving too slow. 644 00:37:41,215 --> 00:37:42,912 We wanted different things. 645 00:37:43,130 --> 00:37:46,046 Now that I caught up, I thought we wanted the same things. 646 00:37:46,264 --> 00:37:48,875 We do. And I love you for it. 647 00:37:49,092 --> 00:37:52,835 Look, I want a life with you. 648 00:37:53,053 --> 00:37:58,232 I want the fancy apartment, the nursery, the sleepless nights. 649 00:37:58,406 --> 00:38:01,583 I want to pick out strollers and argue over preschools. 650 00:38:01,801 --> 00:38:04,238 I want all of that, too. I always have. 651 00:38:04,412 --> 00:38:06,849 Right. It just... 652 00:38:08,416 --> 00:38:10,592 I don't think you know who you want it with. 653 00:38:21,864 --> 00:38:24,302 Oliver is lucky to have a mother like you. 654 00:38:24,519 --> 00:38:26,826 Not all family members are so supportive. 655 00:38:27,043 --> 00:38:32,135 However, I must share my concerns about your son. 656 00:38:32,310 --> 00:38:34,094 Concerns? 657 00:38:34,312 --> 00:38:36,705 He's had some setbacks. 658 00:38:36,923 --> 00:38:38,054 He broke curfew. 659 00:38:38,272 --> 00:38:40,927 He snuck into unauthorized areas. 660 00:38:41,144 --> 00:38:43,277 I even have reason to believe 661 00:38:43,451 --> 00:38:45,366 that he stole another patient's drugs. 662 00:38:45,584 --> 00:38:48,021 Uh, that sounds like his old self. 663 00:38:48,238 --> 00:38:50,328 Insurance has generously offered 664 00:38:50,545 --> 00:38:53,243 to cover another month of in-patient care... 665 00:38:55,071 --> 00:38:56,682 ...if you see fit, of course. 666 00:38:56,899 --> 00:38:59,380 Hmm. 667 00:38:59,598 --> 00:39:01,164 With Oliver's father, 668 00:39:01,339 --> 00:39:03,689 it took years for me to recognize the signs 669 00:39:03,906 --> 00:39:06,605 of when it was time to take him to the hospital 670 00:39:06,822 --> 00:39:09,347 and time to bring him home. 671 00:39:09,564 --> 00:39:11,349 But eventually... 672 00:39:14,917 --> 00:39:16,658 ...with one look, I knew. 673 00:39:19,095 --> 00:39:21,620 As I do now. 674 00:39:21,837 --> 00:39:23,796 He's ready. 675 00:39:32,979 --> 00:39:35,373 Healing rarely happens in a straight line, 676 00:39:35,547 --> 00:39:38,637 and we often forget how much it hurts. 677 00:39:38,854 --> 00:39:40,421 But unlike the body, 678 00:39:40,639 --> 00:39:42,858 the mind has a way of growing back stronger 679 00:39:43,076 --> 00:39:45,208 in the broken places. 680 00:39:47,994 --> 00:39:51,954 ♪ Monsters ♪ 681 00:39:55,088 --> 00:39:57,873 ♪ Beneath your bed ♪ 682 00:40:02,748 --> 00:40:06,926 ♪ What's real? ♪ 683 00:40:07,143 --> 00:40:10,495 ♪ What's in your head? ♪ 684 00:40:15,021 --> 00:40:17,980 ♪ Sweet heat ♪ 685 00:40:22,332 --> 00:40:25,858 ♪ Lightning falls ♪ 686 00:40:29,818 --> 00:40:34,954 ♪ Blue crack of light and that's all ♪ 687 00:40:35,171 --> 00:40:36,956 I don't know who I'm more excited to see. 688 00:40:37,173 --> 00:40:39,088 How did you do... 689 00:40:39,306 --> 00:40:41,003 Figured you needed a ride home. 690 00:40:41,221 --> 00:40:42,875 ♪ Calling you to sing ♪ 691 00:40:43,092 --> 00:40:44,877 - Thank you. - Mm. 692 00:40:49,577 --> 00:40:52,232 So, what's on the agenda? 693 00:40:52,450 --> 00:40:53,625 What's the first thing you want to do? 694 00:40:53,842 --> 00:40:55,714 I need to go save Sofia. 695 00:40:57,629 --> 00:40:59,544 Just kidding. 696 00:40:59,761 --> 00:41:02,068 I want to live my life. 697 00:41:03,896 --> 00:41:05,680 And I want to get Josh back. 698 00:41:30,923 --> 00:41:32,228 Greg, move your head.