1 00:01:20,300 --> 00:01:25,700 Full disclosure, when I charted the course of my life and set off for the 2 00:01:25,700 --> 00:01:29,680 distant horizon, this isn't exactly what I had in mind. 3 00:01:31,660 --> 00:01:35,440 Aristotle had this idea that man is teleological. 4 00:01:36,380 --> 00:01:39,920 We're driven by a goal, a tele. 5 00:01:41,700 --> 00:01:45,820 For as long as I could remember, my destination was never in question. 6 00:01:46,320 --> 00:01:48,400 I knew exactly where I was going. 7 00:01:49,960 --> 00:01:50,960 Or so I thought. 8 00:01:52,000 --> 00:01:53,520 But that was before Oxford. 9 00:01:54,900 --> 00:01:56,800 That was before everything changed. 10 00:02:00,260 --> 00:02:03,340 You understand this is a highly coveted program, Carolyn. 11 00:02:04,260 --> 00:02:09,100 One of the defining characteristics of our students is ambition, a sense of a 12 00:02:09,100 --> 00:02:09,959 higher calling. 13 00:02:09,960 --> 00:02:12,960 Tell us, Carolyn, what do you want most in life? 14 00:02:14,960 --> 00:02:17,220 My teacher says the problem is unsolvable. 15 00:02:19,050 --> 00:02:21,270 Well, clearly she doesn't know who she's dealing with. 16 00:02:22,070 --> 00:02:23,670 But what if I can't do it? 17 00:02:24,930 --> 00:02:27,610 I don't know any other kid that read the Iliad at seven. 18 00:02:27,850 --> 00:02:29,630 Six. Theodicy at seven. 19 00:02:31,530 --> 00:02:32,970 You've been given a gift, kiddo. 20 00:02:38,130 --> 00:02:39,130 Knowledge is power. 21 00:02:45,770 --> 00:02:46,770 Not for that. 22 00:03:10,410 --> 00:03:17,410 I can't help reminiscing, knowing I'll 23 00:03:17,410 --> 00:03:22,730 be missing Christmasy in my hometown. 24 00:03:34,549 --> 00:03:37,930 In one moment, my entire world imploded. 25 00:03:39,450 --> 00:03:45,830 The father I knew, the man I trusted with my life, was an elaborate work of 26 00:03:45,830 --> 00:03:46,830 fiction. 27 00:03:48,530 --> 00:03:53,390 While mom prayed the rosary, I moved on from childish things. 28 00:03:54,050 --> 00:03:57,690 There was no mystical intervention, only knowledge. 29 00:03:58,010 --> 00:04:00,410 Can you think of a time when you wanted to click your ruby slippers? 30 00:04:00,890 --> 00:04:01,890 And go home? 31 00:04:02,370 --> 00:04:04,470 The slippers are silver, not ruby. 32 00:04:04,870 --> 00:04:07,050 There's silver in the book, ruby in the movie. 33 00:04:07,410 --> 00:04:11,790 Doesn't matter what color they are. Unless, like the movie, you want to 34 00:04:11,790 --> 00:04:14,130 the obvious political allegory at the heart of the novel. 35 00:04:14,370 --> 00:04:17,790 It's clearly a debate with gold standard, hence the silver slippers. 36 00:04:18,010 --> 00:04:19,170 It's a fable. 37 00:04:20,290 --> 00:04:24,950 Fantasy. About politics in the early 20th century. That's enough. Thank you. 38 00:04:24,950 --> 00:04:27,170 we're talking about the book. 39 00:04:27,690 --> 00:04:30,290 So if you asked me about my higher calling... 40 00:04:30,510 --> 00:04:34,890 What I wanted most in life, I could say with full confidence, a doctorate. 41 00:04:43,090 --> 00:04:44,090 I doubled down. 42 00:04:44,890 --> 00:04:46,830 I was the confident overachiever. 43 00:04:47,830 --> 00:04:50,010 I breathed through high school without breaking a sweat. 44 00:04:50,530 --> 00:04:53,510 As Swinburne said, glory to man in the highest, for man is master of things. 45 00:04:54,010 --> 00:04:55,690 That was not a part of the assigned rating list. 46 00:04:57,330 --> 00:04:58,330 What do you want me to say? 47 00:04:59,500 --> 00:05:03,100 With dad out of the picture and mom back to work full -time, we were barely 48 00:05:03,100 --> 00:05:04,100 scraping by. 49 00:05:04,300 --> 00:05:06,760 So I picked up the slack. And Dr. Pepper. 50 00:05:08,340 --> 00:05:12,380 Anything else, guys? A couple of things come to mind. 51 00:05:18,840 --> 00:05:24,560 College came in the form of a full undergraduate scholarship, so long as I 52 00:05:24,560 --> 00:05:27,480 maintained straight A's in all courses every year for four years. 53 00:05:35,770 --> 00:05:41,330 Cool. In short, Dunn's Holy Sonnet 14 is a classic subversion by the dominant 54 00:05:41,330 --> 00:05:46,870 patriarchy, whether it be the church or the male construction of God, of the 55 00:05:46,870 --> 00:05:50,370 threat posed by maternal power or the feminine spiritus. 56 00:05:51,670 --> 00:05:52,670 Thank you. 57 00:05:54,270 --> 00:06:00,650 Impressive as usual. You presented a thoughtful analysis of the poem. 58 00:06:02,010 --> 00:06:08,030 If I may be so bold, it struck me as a grand adventure and I'm missing the 59 00:06:08,030 --> 00:06:09,030 point. 60 00:06:11,570 --> 00:06:13,210 Sorry, I'm confused. 61 00:06:13,590 --> 00:06:19,110 Don is saying that anything without eternal significance is 62 00:06:19,110 --> 00:06:22,350 ultimately doomed to futility. 63 00:06:23,310 --> 00:06:26,370 The truth is in the paradox. 64 00:06:27,550 --> 00:06:30,030 Everything else is bullshit. 65 00:06:32,670 --> 00:06:39,290 Right. Carol, what I'm saying to you is that your purpose in life is to discern 66 00:06:39,290 --> 00:06:43,290 the real from the bullshit. 67 00:06:45,950 --> 00:06:47,810 Fortis veritas. 68 00:06:49,970 --> 00:06:51,250 The truth is strong. 69 00:06:51,830 --> 00:06:54,230 Of course you know your Latin. You know many things. 70 00:06:54,470 --> 00:06:59,750 But he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow. 71 00:07:00,910 --> 00:07:01,910 Am I right? 72 00:07:09,840 --> 00:07:13,140 The truth indeed is strength, Carol. 73 00:07:15,440 --> 00:07:18,240 And you will know when you are properly ravished by it. 74 00:07:21,060 --> 00:07:23,220 As our friend Mr. Dunn so eloquently put it. 75 00:07:53,960 --> 00:07:55,600 This is a letter from the University of Oxford. 76 00:07:56,480 --> 00:07:57,480 What does it say? 77 00:07:59,120 --> 00:08:00,360 It says I want a scholarship. 78 00:08:01,600 --> 00:08:03,540 When did you apply for a scholarship? 79 00:08:03,920 --> 00:08:07,780 It was Dr. DeVoe's idea. But I thought it belonged to her. A scholarship 80 00:08:07,780 --> 00:08:10,160 on the basis of outstanding academic merit? 81 00:08:10,440 --> 00:08:12,900 I need to think. A full ride to Oxford? 82 00:08:13,140 --> 00:08:14,640 What is there to think about? 83 00:08:14,920 --> 00:08:15,920 I'm just in shock. 84 00:08:16,240 --> 00:08:18,860 You have every right to be in shock. This is big. 85 00:08:19,360 --> 00:08:22,640 I'm so proud of you. It took me about five seconds to decide. 86 00:08:23,380 --> 00:08:26,900 I was going to Oxford, England for my postgraduate studies. Okay, well let's 87 00:08:26,900 --> 00:08:28,100 start with these papers here. 88 00:08:28,540 --> 00:08:33,000 Society and Mingling Allowance. What does mingling entail? I was on track to 89 00:08:33,000 --> 00:08:36,659 my master's degree in English literature, but it was up to me to 90 00:08:36,659 --> 00:08:38,000 period I wanted to focus on. 91 00:08:39,059 --> 00:08:43,880 I landed on the romantic writers, known for their poetic feeling and longing for 92 00:08:43,880 --> 00:08:44,880 the infant. 93 00:08:46,570 --> 00:08:51,270 The University of Oxford is not one college. It's made up of 38 self 94 00:08:51,270 --> 00:08:52,830 colleges and six private halls. 95 00:08:53,450 --> 00:08:57,910 I was assigned to Tyrion College, which is roughly 400 years older than America. 96 00:08:58,930 --> 00:09:03,490 The school year is divided into three terms, Michaelmas, Hillary, and Trinity. 97 00:09:25,260 --> 00:09:31,100 So I set off into the great unknown, sane and unhaunted, 98 00:09:31,120 --> 00:09:35,300 and driven by a singular desire. 99 00:10:04,360 --> 00:10:05,360 Last stop, Oxford. 100 00:10:09,460 --> 00:10:10,540 Last stop, Oxford. 101 00:10:12,040 --> 00:10:13,440 Oh, sorry. 102 00:10:15,780 --> 00:10:16,780 Bloody hell! 103 00:10:17,580 --> 00:10:19,180 What have you got in there? Bricks? 104 00:10:19,940 --> 00:10:20,940 Books. 105 00:10:21,560 --> 00:10:24,060 Sorry, do you know where Tyrion College is? 106 00:10:24,780 --> 00:10:25,780 Uh, no. 107 00:10:26,260 --> 00:10:28,380 But you throw a rock round here and you'll hit a college. 108 00:10:30,160 --> 00:10:31,160 Right. 109 00:11:40,680 --> 00:11:45,560 Those doors, they were built in the 14th century to keep invaders at bay. 110 00:11:46,180 --> 00:11:49,740 Or at the very least, to trip them up on the way in. 111 00:11:52,060 --> 00:11:53,060 Name? 112 00:11:54,820 --> 00:11:55,820 Carolyn Drake. 113 00:11:56,060 --> 00:11:57,060 Ah, Drake. 114 00:11:57,640 --> 00:11:59,280 Postgrad. English. 115 00:11:59,700 --> 00:12:00,700 I'm impressed. 116 00:12:00,900 --> 00:12:01,899 I'm the porter. 117 00:12:01,900 --> 00:12:04,580 It's my job to know. And it's my pleasure to know. 118 00:12:08,940 --> 00:12:09,940 Staircase five. 119 00:12:10,490 --> 00:12:11,490 Room 7. 120 00:12:12,150 --> 00:12:13,150 Oh! 121 00:12:13,990 --> 00:12:15,270 Welcome to Tyrion. 122 00:12:29,790 --> 00:12:33,730 Staircase 7, room 5. No, staircase 5, room 7. 123 00:12:39,140 --> 00:12:40,160 Bloody hell is Penny. 124 00:12:41,040 --> 00:12:42,040 Sorry, 125 00:12:42,240 --> 00:12:44,320 I don't know who Penny is. 126 00:12:44,760 --> 00:12:48,180 She's the accommodation manager. I've got a faulty showerhead, the most uneven 127 00:12:48,180 --> 00:12:49,820 spray. I'm really sorry to hear that. 128 00:12:52,200 --> 00:12:54,900 Did you just get here now? 129 00:12:56,780 --> 00:12:57,780 Yeah, sorry. 130 00:12:58,520 --> 00:12:59,720 Carolyn. Edward. 131 00:13:00,100 --> 00:13:01,100 Oh, God, sorry. 132 00:13:02,340 --> 00:13:04,920 Would it be possible to have a shower in your room? I really don't think we're 133 00:13:04,920 --> 00:13:05,920 at that point in the relationship. 134 00:13:05,960 --> 00:13:07,280 Hey, well, neighbours. 135 00:13:07,850 --> 00:13:10,090 So I'll be sure to keep you down at night, you know. 136 00:13:11,030 --> 00:13:14,370 Frequent lodges at the Edwardian Palace. 137 00:13:14,930 --> 00:13:19,230 Oh, God. Okay. Yep. I really appreciate that. Thanks so much. 138 00:13:19,810 --> 00:13:21,030 The more the merrier, I say. 139 00:13:45,480 --> 00:13:50,320 Ladies and gentlemen, it is my great pleasure as Vice -Chancellor to admit 140 00:13:50,320 --> 00:13:52,840 as members of the University of Oxford. 141 00:13:53,140 --> 00:13:58,660 I consent to you that you are now listed as members and must observe the 142 00:13:58,660 --> 00:14:02,260 University's statutes insofar as they concern you. 143 00:14:03,260 --> 00:14:09,860 And if I may impart some advice, you have before you a period of 144 00:14:09,860 --> 00:14:13,420 freedom in which to pursue your chosen field of study. 145 00:14:14,560 --> 00:14:17,880 It is a rare and coveted privilege. 146 00:14:19,040 --> 00:14:22,140 So do make the very most of your time here. 147 00:14:23,440 --> 00:14:24,880 Good luck to you all. 148 00:14:53,650 --> 00:14:54,850 First time in the UK? 149 00:14:55,330 --> 00:14:56,330 Yeah. 150 00:14:56,670 --> 00:14:57,670 What gave it away? 151 00:14:58,050 --> 00:14:59,530 The stars in your eyes. 152 00:15:01,070 --> 00:15:02,070 I'm Hannah. 153 00:15:02,990 --> 00:15:03,990 Carolyn. Carol. 154 00:15:06,990 --> 00:15:08,290 You can come a little closer. 155 00:15:08,630 --> 00:15:09,850 I'm not going to bite, love. 156 00:15:10,230 --> 00:15:11,230 Oh, but I might. 157 00:15:18,150 --> 00:15:19,390 Look, okay. 158 00:15:21,710 --> 00:15:22,710 Pardon me. 159 00:15:22,770 --> 00:15:23,770 Thanks, guys. 160 00:16:03,850 --> 00:16:04,850 Amen. 161 00:16:20,210 --> 00:16:21,910 Amen. Amen. Amen. 162 00:16:28,110 --> 00:16:30,590 So, what do you plan to do with a degree in Indian religion? 163 00:16:31,950 --> 00:16:36,210 My hope is to open a charity one day, but in the meantime, I plan to go back 164 00:16:36,210 --> 00:16:39,210 Calcutta. There's a mission there, and they're always looking for help with the 165 00:16:39,210 --> 00:16:40,530 orphanage. What about you? 166 00:16:41,410 --> 00:16:45,450 Well, I suppose I'll be braving the violent waters of academia. 167 00:16:45,910 --> 00:16:47,730 Have your sights set on the high table, do you? 168 00:16:47,950 --> 00:16:48,950 Professor Carolyn? 169 00:18:06,150 --> 00:18:09,650 She has a habit of rearranging things when I'm not looking. 170 00:18:10,610 --> 00:18:13,590 Been doing it for years, the saucy minx. 171 00:18:15,850 --> 00:18:16,850 Who? 172 00:18:18,510 --> 00:18:19,510 Amelia Cantor. 173 00:18:20,730 --> 00:18:25,310 And the delicate equilibrium is restored. 174 00:18:26,210 --> 00:18:27,510 Take a seat. 175 00:18:28,250 --> 00:18:29,390 Take a seat! 176 00:18:32,250 --> 00:18:38,450 Today begins what I hope will be an enlightening study of the women 177 00:18:38,450 --> 00:18:45,190 writers. Good God, is the sun beating down on your face inside the room? 178 00:18:47,340 --> 00:18:54,020 Despite being repressed by a male -dominant society, these writers 179 00:18:54,020 --> 00:18:57,920 that continues to inspire and provoke today. 180 00:18:59,160 --> 00:19:04,860 Well, romance isn't just going to happen if you keep your books shut. 181 00:19:05,440 --> 00:19:09,860 Open, open, open them, my little roses, my thorns. 182 00:19:11,740 --> 00:19:13,800 Frankenstein by Mary Shelley. 183 00:19:15,060 --> 00:19:16,080 Let's begin. 184 00:19:26,480 --> 00:19:28,660 So Rutledge is infamously superstitious. 185 00:19:29,160 --> 00:19:30,940 Bit of a spiritualist, I've heard. 186 00:19:31,180 --> 00:19:32,600 Who is Amelia Cantor, anyway? 187 00:19:32,940 --> 00:19:35,960 She was a student here in the 40s. In the what? 188 00:19:36,540 --> 00:19:38,320 In the 40s. 189 00:19:38,960 --> 00:19:44,060 No, no, no, no. No, no, no, no. No, no, no. We have a strict no -ink policy. 190 00:19:44,670 --> 00:19:49,070 The books must be protected at all costs. If you must use ink, you must use 191 00:19:49,070 --> 00:19:53,610 ink station. I am assuming that since you've been accepted into this hallowed 192 00:19:53,610 --> 00:19:57,630 place of learning, you have managed to master the basic principles of reading 193 00:19:57,630 --> 00:20:02,470 and writing, in which case you will see in black and white the rules which are 194 00:20:02,470 --> 00:20:07,150 perfectly clear. So if you would kindly put the offensive weapon back in its 195 00:20:07,150 --> 00:20:08,690 holster and out of harm's way. 196 00:20:11,690 --> 00:20:14,190 We can all live to write another day. 197 00:20:14,730 --> 00:20:16,210 Yes? Very good. 198 00:20:16,790 --> 00:20:17,790 Thank you. 199 00:20:17,810 --> 00:20:18,810 Very good. 200 00:20:38,490 --> 00:20:40,310 Are you gonna read that all night? 201 00:20:40,830 --> 00:20:41,830 If I have to. 202 00:20:42,010 --> 00:20:44,410 But you're missing out on this great party. 203 00:20:45,670 --> 00:20:46,910 Yeah, it's a real rager. 204 00:20:48,730 --> 00:20:49,730 Drink up, ladies. 205 00:20:52,870 --> 00:20:53,870 What is it? 206 00:20:54,710 --> 00:20:58,350 Buxby's. Looks like you're in. I think it's about time Dr. 207 00:20:58,550 --> 00:21:00,730 Drake loosened up. I second that notion. 208 00:21:01,590 --> 00:21:02,750 Just one drink. 209 00:21:03,450 --> 00:21:04,450 Cheers, ladies. 210 00:21:09,040 --> 00:21:12,940 I guess I do understand, actually, why it's so important, because those books 211 00:21:12,940 --> 00:21:14,580 are priceless. 212 00:21:15,480 --> 00:21:22,380 And what if one of them got damaged? You know, what happens then? And McGrath 213 00:21:22,380 --> 00:21:23,380 was a compromise. 214 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:25,740 Oh, my God. 215 00:21:28,940 --> 00:21:31,040 Oh, my God. How long have I been talking? 216 00:21:33,380 --> 00:21:34,720 A good while now. 217 00:21:37,550 --> 00:21:40,850 Oh, your friends, they, um, signaled to you before they left. 218 00:21:41,550 --> 00:21:44,370 Uh... Signaled? 219 00:21:44,590 --> 00:21:49,730 Yeah, they went, um... Like that. 220 00:21:50,930 --> 00:21:53,330 Oh, God, I gotta go. Where's my bag? 221 00:21:53,710 --> 00:21:55,650 Uh, your bag is right here. 222 00:21:57,230 --> 00:21:58,970 Whoa! No, no, no. Okay. 223 00:21:59,310 --> 00:22:02,230 It's fine, it's fine. I got it, it's fine. I think we can leave that, that's 224 00:22:02,230 --> 00:22:05,870 fine. It's fine. I should walk you back, right? I... I'm fine. 225 00:22:06,210 --> 00:22:07,210 Are you sure? 226 00:22:10,320 --> 00:22:11,320 I'm going to get my coat. 227 00:22:11,440 --> 00:22:14,620 Okay. Your mom, have you talked to her since you got here? 228 00:22:15,360 --> 00:22:16,780 What do you know about my mom? 229 00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:21,620 Quite a bit, actually. You were going on and on and on and on. 230 00:22:21,840 --> 00:22:23,640 Okay, stupid buck fuzz. 231 00:22:24,780 --> 00:22:30,680 I don't have the international phone plan. You don't have the international 232 00:22:30,680 --> 00:22:33,360 phone plan. Yeah. You have a computer, though. You could probably use that, 233 00:22:33,400 --> 00:22:35,020 right? It's old. 234 00:22:36,080 --> 00:22:37,080 How old? 235 00:22:37,980 --> 00:22:38,980 It's like... 236 00:22:39,280 --> 00:22:40,280 This thick? 237 00:22:40,820 --> 00:22:41,820 That's pretty old. 238 00:22:42,280 --> 00:22:45,260 Yeah, I'm not particularly tech savvy. 239 00:22:45,500 --> 00:22:46,520 Books are my thing. 240 00:22:46,840 --> 00:22:47,840 Yeah, mine too. 241 00:22:48,120 --> 00:22:49,900 I could help you out with your computer if you like. 242 00:22:51,060 --> 00:22:52,200 I don't need your help. 243 00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:54,140 Okay, it's optional. 244 00:22:58,600 --> 00:23:01,680 So, this is you. 245 00:23:03,220 --> 00:23:05,060 I'm not inviting you into my room. 246 00:23:05,860 --> 00:23:08,400 Okay, I guess I'll see you at breakfast. 247 00:23:14,650 --> 00:23:16,370 Who are you anyway? 248 00:23:18,430 --> 00:23:19,970 T .D .H. 249 00:23:20,570 --> 00:23:21,570 T .D. what? 250 00:23:21,850 --> 00:23:22,850 T .D .H. 251 00:23:22,870 --> 00:23:24,110 Tall, dark and handsome. 252 00:23:25,130 --> 00:23:26,450 You left out annoying. 253 00:23:26,870 --> 00:23:29,450 Yes, you seem very annoyed at being lost in his eyes. 254 00:23:41,580 --> 00:23:42,580 Good afternoon. 255 00:23:45,500 --> 00:23:46,439 You're Hannah. 256 00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:48,640 Yes. And Linnea, right? Yeah. 257 00:23:50,340 --> 00:23:51,340 I'm Kent. 258 00:23:52,880 --> 00:23:58,480 So I found this copy of Waverly and a picture of Buck's Fizz. I tried to draw 259 00:23:58,480 --> 00:24:01,240 out as best I could, but most of the pages are still stuck together. 260 00:24:01,480 --> 00:24:02,480 I'm sorry. 261 00:24:04,000 --> 00:24:05,760 Also, I am free tomorrow. 262 00:24:10,500 --> 00:24:11,500 For your computer? 263 00:24:12,160 --> 00:24:14,060 Right. No, that's, uh, I'm fine. 264 00:24:14,600 --> 00:24:15,700 No, that's all right. I got time. 265 00:24:16,600 --> 00:24:17,600 Say, 11? 266 00:24:19,600 --> 00:24:21,780 I need to, I need to check my schedule. 267 00:24:22,160 --> 00:24:23,160 She's free. She would love to. 268 00:24:23,700 --> 00:24:24,700 Okay, great. 269 00:24:24,880 --> 00:24:27,260 I'll see you, Chapel Quad, 11 a .m. 270 00:24:28,880 --> 00:24:29,880 Oh, 271 00:24:30,400 --> 00:24:32,000 and it was nice to see you guys again. 272 00:24:32,340 --> 00:24:33,500 Bye. See ya. 273 00:24:35,320 --> 00:24:36,320 What is that? 274 00:24:38,680 --> 00:24:39,680 His room. 275 00:24:41,870 --> 00:24:44,210 Well, for the love of God, can somebody just please hand me an aspirin? 276 00:24:47,550 --> 00:24:49,850 So, that's how it ended on political science. 277 00:24:50,330 --> 00:24:52,190 So strange to think it's my last year. 278 00:24:53,690 --> 00:24:55,410 What are you reading? You're reading English, right? 279 00:24:56,370 --> 00:24:57,370 Uh, yeah. 280 00:25:00,030 --> 00:25:01,250 Yeah. You want some more coffee? 281 00:25:02,910 --> 00:25:05,050 Um, okay. 282 00:25:07,050 --> 00:25:08,050 Let's see. 283 00:25:08,410 --> 00:25:09,410 Yep, still warm. 284 00:25:28,560 --> 00:25:31,380 Pretty good bridge. 285 00:25:33,420 --> 00:25:34,880 Oh Yeah, 286 00:25:36,980 --> 00:25:42,320 yeah, I just you know, I just I just remembered that I told Linnea I was 287 00:25:42,320 --> 00:25:48,040 do something with her today, and I completely forgot that it was a... Are 288 00:25:48,040 --> 00:25:48,839 sure you're okay? 289 00:25:48,840 --> 00:25:51,580 Yeah, yeah, yeah, and thank you so much for your assistance. 290 00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:56,400 My assistance? 291 00:26:04,900 --> 00:26:06,020 Oh, holy shit. 292 00:26:12,620 --> 00:26:14,560 Oh, my God, I am so sorry. 293 00:26:14,760 --> 00:26:16,600 You're in an awful hurry, Miss Drake. 294 00:26:18,040 --> 00:26:19,340 I'm Regina Knight. 295 00:26:20,360 --> 00:26:22,200 Yes, I mean, I know. 296 00:26:22,780 --> 00:26:26,460 I'm so very happy to have you here at Tyrion. 297 00:26:27,380 --> 00:26:29,800 Perhaps we can talk more at length sometime. 298 00:26:30,560 --> 00:26:32,480 That would be great. 299 00:26:33,220 --> 00:26:34,220 Until then. 300 00:26:47,500 --> 00:26:49,960 Three, two, and time. 301 00:26:50,920 --> 00:26:57,620 Of all the antecedents to the great romantic writers, Sir Walter Scott is 302 00:26:57,620 --> 00:26:59,100 perhaps the most renowned. 303 00:26:59,620 --> 00:27:06,340 I am a descendant of this great literary mind, the fact of which I am most 304 00:27:06,340 --> 00:27:13,040 proud. Let us look at his work, Way of the Last 305 00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:15,620 Minstrel, which arguably... 306 00:27:16,110 --> 00:27:19,590 introduced romanticism, to the world. 307 00:27:21,410 --> 00:27:28,390 Breathe there a man with soul so dead that never to himself has 308 00:27:28,390 --> 00:27:33,450 said, this is my own, my native land. 309 00:27:37,630 --> 00:27:43,130 Would it be wishful thinking to assume that some of you have learnt the 310 00:27:43,290 --> 00:27:45,670 Eighty -three lines of Paradise Lost by Heart. 311 00:27:49,310 --> 00:27:52,090 You are studying the Romantics, are you not? 312 00:27:53,170 --> 00:27:57,170 And you cannot hope to understand them without John Milton. 313 00:27:58,230 --> 00:28:04,010 True, he predates Blake Wordsworth and Coleridge by a hundred years, but his 314 00:28:04,010 --> 00:28:06,590 shadow looms over them. 315 00:28:07,370 --> 00:28:11,950 And it is my distinct privilege to see that you are fully acquainted with him. 316 00:28:14,090 --> 00:28:15,090 I'm sorry. 317 00:28:15,530 --> 00:28:16,590 Mr. Webber. 318 00:28:19,390 --> 00:28:25,990 Of man's first disobedience and the fruit of that forbidden tree whose 319 00:28:25,990 --> 00:28:30,410 taste brought death into the world and all our world. 320 00:28:33,450 --> 00:28:36,830 General. Wait, wait, wait. I thought you were studying political science. 321 00:28:37,270 --> 00:28:39,050 I am studying political science. Milton's elected. 322 00:28:39,730 --> 00:28:42,470 My friend Alex was... 323 00:28:42,720 --> 00:28:44,020 Trying to help me... Get laid? 324 00:28:44,460 --> 00:28:47,360 I think that's the term you're looking for. No, that's actually pretty far... 325 00:28:47,360 --> 00:28:50,640 Godly virgins, a bit of a high standard, but you know what, to each their own. I 326 00:28:50,640 --> 00:28:52,920 just don't see us being friends after all, which is such a shame. 327 00:28:55,380 --> 00:28:56,380 Carolyn! 328 00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:00,200 Hi! 329 00:29:00,300 --> 00:29:01,980 Hi, Mom! Oh, my gosh! 330 00:29:02,340 --> 00:29:03,840 Oh, it's so good to see you. 331 00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:06,800 As you can see, I'm here in my palatial dwelling. 332 00:29:07,180 --> 00:29:09,860 Are you eating enough? You look thin. Why do you look so thin? 333 00:29:10,080 --> 00:29:11,080 Yeah, Mom, I'm fine. 334 00:29:11,420 --> 00:29:14,240 How is Ox... Is it everything you dreamed it would be? 335 00:29:15,920 --> 00:29:17,460 Yeah, it's amazing. 336 00:29:17,760 --> 00:29:18,760 I want to hear everything. 337 00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:20,080 Start from the beginning. 338 00:29:21,620 --> 00:29:25,680 Of course, he intended to rule from Oxford once he'd conquered the rest of 339 00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:26,920 Europe. Mm -hmm. 340 00:29:27,180 --> 00:29:28,400 Potent image, that is. 341 00:29:28,960 --> 00:29:33,140 Imagine the Fuhrer walking down the high street with his devilish retinue. 342 00:29:34,180 --> 00:29:36,740 Yeah, that is a potent image. Imagine that. 343 00:29:37,240 --> 00:29:40,520 The Fuhrer just strolling down that way. 344 00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:45,380 Recorder. Oh, good talk. 345 00:30:07,260 --> 00:30:08,260 Wow. 346 00:30:10,380 --> 00:30:11,420 Surprise, you showed. 347 00:30:12,240 --> 00:30:13,540 Chalk it up to morbid curiosity. 348 00:30:14,680 --> 00:30:15,680 I'll take it. 349 00:30:18,300 --> 00:30:19,520 I just ordered another pint. 350 00:30:20,100 --> 00:30:21,100 Would you like to order one? 351 00:30:21,320 --> 00:30:22,320 Yeah, thanks. 352 00:30:22,400 --> 00:30:24,240 Or you can have mine. I was about to suggest. 353 00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:28,060 I feel like I owe you an explanation. 354 00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:31,460 You don't owe me anything. We barely know each other. No, but you think that 355 00:30:31,460 --> 00:30:35,840 on some mission to bed godly virgins. So if you don't mind, I'd like to clarify. 356 00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:37,040 Okay. 357 00:30:43,080 --> 00:30:44,380 So what's your faith background? 358 00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:46,460 I don't see how that's relevant. 359 00:30:46,760 --> 00:30:50,440 It'll provide context. I thought you were providing the context. I am trying 360 00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:54,560 provide context. You must know my mom's Catholic, or was, or I guess she still 361 00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:55,660 is. You grew up Catholic. 362 00:30:55,920 --> 00:30:59,700 I didn't grow up Catholic. My mom's Catholic if. So I grew up Protestant 363 00:30:59,700 --> 00:31:02,400 the if. So less than since and more Jerry Falwell. Okay. 364 00:31:02,620 --> 00:31:05,180 How many of us do you actually know? Well, I live in the Western Hemisphere, 365 00:31:05,180 --> 00:31:08,460 I would say roughly 50 % of everyone I've ever met. 50 % of Americans 366 00:31:08,460 --> 00:31:11,420 themselves generous, and they're not all volunteering at the Salvation Army. But 367 00:31:11,420 --> 00:31:14,760 you're one of the true believers. That's not how I'd phrase it, but if you mean 368 00:31:14,760 --> 00:31:18,540 am I committed? Committed to virginity. That's one very small aspect of it. And 369 00:31:18,540 --> 00:31:21,020 I wouldn't have brought that up at all if it hadn't been for the fact that you 370 00:31:21,020 --> 00:31:22,020 looked at my phone. 371 00:31:22,160 --> 00:31:23,500 That's a slight invasion of privacy. 372 00:31:24,000 --> 00:31:25,460 But look, I'm willing to overlook that. 373 00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:26,720 How generous of you. 374 00:31:28,020 --> 00:31:30,060 Just because I'm... Sexually inexperienced. Chased. 375 00:31:31,200 --> 00:31:35,020 Gross. It doesn't... mean and that I'm some weird zealot living out this 376 00:31:35,020 --> 00:31:37,280 joyless, pleasureless existence. You have to say it. 377 00:31:37,480 --> 00:31:42,120 And for the record, chastity, it's not at the top of my list of favorite 378 00:31:42,120 --> 00:31:45,200 virtues. Wow. You have a list of favorite virtues? What I'm trying to 379 00:31:45,300 --> 00:31:48,500 there are people out there who are committed to their faith and they're not 380 00:31:48,500 --> 00:31:51,500 horrible to be around. Well, you should definitely get in touch with them and it 381 00:31:51,500 --> 00:31:54,900 sounds like you have a promising lead. Look, Alex only suggested that I meet 382 00:31:54,900 --> 00:31:57,600 because she shares the same faith as me and she... Undefiled? 383 00:31:59,020 --> 00:32:01,500 Has anyone told you that you're incredibly... Fitchy? 384 00:32:06,080 --> 00:32:07,620 Difficult. Well, this has been great. 385 00:32:07,820 --> 00:32:09,900 Oh, come on. You haven't touched your... Super fun. 386 00:32:10,360 --> 00:32:12,160 I'll see you at the next tutorial. Can't wait. 387 00:32:15,340 --> 00:32:18,780 It all seems a bit overwrought and heavy -handed to me. 388 00:32:19,240 --> 00:32:23,540 Like Milton is trying to weasel his way into the lineage of great epic poets. 389 00:32:24,280 --> 00:32:25,280 Ah. 390 00:32:25,960 --> 00:32:29,020 That is a bold theory, Mr. McCoy. 391 00:32:30,560 --> 00:32:36,420 I think it's... quite beautiful but not intended to be taken literally of course 392 00:32:36,420 --> 00:32:42,340 i see it as a metaphor for man -made institutions government organized 393 00:32:42,340 --> 00:32:49,220 and so forth it's a meditation on morality and the finiteness of human 394 00:32:49,220 --> 00:32:53,840 existence after all we have to remember milton's going blind so all this talk of 395 00:32:53,840 --> 00:32:56,560 god is his way of wrestling with his own existential dread 396 00:33:00,120 --> 00:33:01,560 Your thoughts, Mr. Webber? 397 00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:08,100 Um... Look, I'm just in awe of Miss Drake and her ability to offhandedly 398 00:33:08,100 --> 00:33:09,520 dismantle a person's entire worldview. 399 00:33:09,780 --> 00:33:11,120 Oh, I'm sorry, am I being difficult? 400 00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,120 You're being assumptive. Oh, do tell. 401 00:33:13,340 --> 00:33:16,880 So you're assuming that Milton's faith is just a psychological construct, that 402 00:33:16,880 --> 00:33:20,550 it's a mental framework to... Better understand reality. The mind is its own 403 00:33:20,550 --> 00:33:23,810 place and in itself can make a heaven of hell and a hell of heaven. And to this 404 00:33:23,810 --> 00:33:27,230 great argument I may assert eternal providence and justify the ways of God 405 00:33:27,230 --> 00:33:29,370 men. He thinks the man doth protest too much. 406 00:33:29,970 --> 00:33:33,210 More tea, anyone? 407 00:33:39,350 --> 00:33:42,750 How did someone who believes in talking snakes get into Oxford? 408 00:33:43,090 --> 00:33:44,390 You realize I'm religious. 409 00:33:44,730 --> 00:33:46,110 Okay, well, you're different. 410 00:33:46,310 --> 00:33:47,310 You smug. 411 00:34:12,480 --> 00:34:14,760 What's the problem with being a virgin anyway? 412 00:34:15,000 --> 00:34:16,000 Nothing. 413 00:34:16,290 --> 00:34:17,290 Unless you are one. 414 00:34:19,870 --> 00:34:20,929 You poor creature. 415 00:34:21,170 --> 00:34:23,570 The point is, we're different and we're still friends. 416 00:34:23,790 --> 00:34:26,949 Who says I want to be his friend? And try as long as I've experienced. 417 00:34:27,489 --> 00:34:30,409 What? Bye, Blake. I'd have some of his more accessible work. 418 00:34:32,530 --> 00:34:36,230 Speaking of devout virgins, I have a sudden urge to go to confession. 419 00:34:37,170 --> 00:34:38,170 Father Michael. 420 00:34:38,330 --> 00:34:40,429 I'd like to visit his parish on the cover of Night. 421 00:34:40,690 --> 00:34:43,030 Lydia! What do you say from you? 422 00:35:06,470 --> 00:35:08,570 Compliments of the season, you miserable reprobate. 423 00:35:25,640 --> 00:35:26,640 Hello, my dear. 424 00:35:27,120 --> 00:35:28,940 Hiya. You look lovely. 425 00:35:29,180 --> 00:35:30,660 Let me pour you a sherry. 426 00:35:30,920 --> 00:35:31,920 Thank you. 427 00:35:32,120 --> 00:35:34,100 Tis the season to be jolly. 428 00:35:37,480 --> 00:35:40,200 What do you know about our guest of honor? 429 00:35:40,660 --> 00:35:41,880 Oh, Dr. Sterling. 430 00:35:42,100 --> 00:35:44,460 Just that he's a highly respected scientist. 431 00:35:45,980 --> 00:35:51,960 I'm sure the conversation will prove to be enlightening for all of us. Cheers. 432 00:35:52,240 --> 00:35:54,700 Cheers. Can I borrow you for a moment? 433 00:35:55,340 --> 00:35:56,820 Of course. Excuse me. 434 00:36:13,280 --> 00:36:13,820 What 435 00:36:13,820 --> 00:36:20,780 are you 436 00:36:20,780 --> 00:36:21,618 doing here? 437 00:36:21,620 --> 00:36:22,700 I was invited. 438 00:36:25,890 --> 00:36:27,470 When? A few days ago. 439 00:36:30,970 --> 00:36:33,290 By the way, you look... Stop. 440 00:36:35,550 --> 00:36:40,290 For the record, I'm not the perfect picture of Chastity. You really have a 441 00:36:40,290 --> 00:36:40,868 with words. 442 00:36:40,870 --> 00:36:45,610 It's more of a well -intentioned attempt than a reality, if I'm being totally 443 00:36:45,610 --> 00:36:47,610 honest. You keep showing up looking like that. 444 00:36:56,560 --> 00:36:57,760 It's a bit strange, isn't it? 445 00:36:58,760 --> 00:37:00,600 Being on the other side of the curtain. 446 00:37:03,980 --> 00:37:05,680 I guess somebody up there likes us. 447 00:37:08,560 --> 00:37:09,120 The 448 00:37:09,120 --> 00:37:15,760 dimension 449 00:37:15,760 --> 00:37:22,200 of time continues to confound us. It slips through our hands. 450 00:37:22,880 --> 00:37:24,380 Dr. Sterling, I'm curious. 451 00:37:25,480 --> 00:37:27,480 Do you believe in a higher consciousness? 452 00:37:28,120 --> 00:37:31,440 Something outside and above the created world? 453 00:37:31,680 --> 00:37:32,920 Oh, for God's sake, Terence. 454 00:37:33,660 --> 00:37:34,920 Precisely, Margot. 455 00:37:35,560 --> 00:37:41,420 Everything that I've witnessed from the natural world seems to operate on a 456 00:37:41,420 --> 00:37:44,820 desire to attain equilibrium. 457 00:37:45,820 --> 00:37:47,900 What rises, falls. 458 00:37:48,280 --> 00:37:52,560 What breezes, thaws. What heats, cools. 459 00:37:53,480 --> 00:37:59,240 If these forces were not in a relationship of attraction and 460 00:37:59,500 --> 00:38:06,020 the axes of the poles would simply cease to spin, the tides would halt, 461 00:38:06,320 --> 00:38:08,740 the sun would cease to rise and set. 462 00:38:11,500 --> 00:38:14,000 Carol? Do you want to add something? 463 00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:22,000 I... I'm not sure I fully understand. Are you suggesting that... 464 00:38:22,440 --> 00:38:24,460 Those things exist in perfect relationship? 465 00:38:24,920 --> 00:38:30,780 Well, perfect enough to promote life, which seems to me to be awfully 466 00:38:32,040 --> 00:38:38,220 The more I discovered the scientific world, the more convinced I became 467 00:38:38,220 --> 00:38:44,880 of the astonishing interconnectedness and brilliancy 468 00:38:44,880 --> 00:38:46,580 of its design. 469 00:38:46,980 --> 00:38:49,640 And yet, death has the final word. 470 00:38:51,880 --> 00:38:56,040 Well, that is a momentary crack in the equilibrium. 471 00:38:56,580 --> 00:39:03,460 But what if we repair the relationship, restore the 472 00:39:03,460 --> 00:39:08,240 equilibrium? Because then what lives continues to live forever. 473 00:39:09,900 --> 00:39:14,460 Precisely. Eternal quest for immortality. 474 00:39:14,780 --> 00:39:19,540 Well, not immortality per se, but healing. 475 00:39:22,050 --> 00:39:23,050 Wholeness. 476 00:39:24,010 --> 00:39:28,070 Even you admit some possibility of life after death, Narco? 477 00:39:30,630 --> 00:39:33,590 I mean, it's probably just a psychological concert, right? 478 00:39:35,170 --> 00:39:36,170 Pass the wine. 479 00:40:41,160 --> 00:40:42,540 You should probably be in bed, Edward. 480 00:40:47,940 --> 00:40:49,620 It's not good for a man to be alone. 481 00:40:53,240 --> 00:40:57,640 Well, I don't think you have a choice tonight. 482 00:40:59,100 --> 00:41:00,100 Yeah. 483 00:41:02,600 --> 00:41:07,960 You know, autonomy does get damn lonely from time to time. 484 00:41:34,600 --> 00:41:35,700 I have such a good idea. 485 00:41:36,060 --> 00:41:37,900 God. We just start from scratch. 486 00:41:38,540 --> 00:41:42,020 Nothing ever happens. Start over. What do you say? For what purpose? For the 487 00:41:42,020 --> 00:41:45,220 purpose of resolving that which was left unresolved. Ah, but perhaps that which 488 00:41:45,220 --> 00:41:46,800 was left unresolved need not be resolved. 489 00:41:47,040 --> 00:41:49,840 But you're forgetting that there's precious little that cannot be solved 490 00:41:49,840 --> 00:41:50,840 hot chocolate. 491 00:41:51,040 --> 00:41:52,040 What do you say? 492 00:41:53,000 --> 00:41:54,000 Where are you going? 493 00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:57,820 Do you want a hot chocolate? Do you want to get a hot chocolate with me? With 494 00:41:57,820 --> 00:41:59,400 you, I'd rather take a cold bath. 495 00:41:59,640 --> 00:42:01,180 You'd rather take a cold bath with me? Okay. 496 00:42:01,920 --> 00:42:03,080 Hilarious. Ha, ha, ha. 497 00:42:03,440 --> 00:42:04,440 So why are you in such a hurry? 498 00:42:04,560 --> 00:42:07,160 Well, if you must know, Provost Knight invited me to dinner. 499 00:42:08,000 --> 00:42:10,480 Provost Knight invited you to dinner? 500 00:42:10,760 --> 00:42:13,580 Wow. I didn't know you guys were so tight. Well, there's a lot you don't 501 00:42:13,580 --> 00:42:14,158 about me. 502 00:42:14,160 --> 00:42:16,420 I know, and it's killing me. Come on. 503 00:42:16,640 --> 00:42:17,640 Uh -huh. 504 00:42:35,419 --> 00:42:39,640 I believe that God made me for a purpose. 505 00:42:41,080 --> 00:42:42,860 But he also made me fast. 506 00:42:44,380 --> 00:42:47,980 And when I run, I feel his pleasure. 507 00:42:50,540 --> 00:42:51,800 Okay, how would you define pleasure? 508 00:42:53,340 --> 00:42:55,660 What? Well, you said you don't live a pleasureless life. 509 00:42:56,400 --> 00:42:58,140 I don't live a pleasureless life. And I'm not talking about sex, because 510 00:42:58,140 --> 00:43:00,020 obviously you wouldn't have much to say on that subject. 511 00:43:00,480 --> 00:43:02,780 Okay, thank you. I'm more talking about the kind of pleasure that Eric Little 512 00:43:02,780 --> 00:43:03,780 felt when he ran. 513 00:43:04,220 --> 00:43:05,700 You know, like it was what he was made to do. 514 00:43:06,100 --> 00:43:09,520 Or the feeling you get when you're struck by the beauty of a poem or the 515 00:43:09,520 --> 00:43:10,520 of a sunset. 516 00:43:10,760 --> 00:43:13,900 Okay. Or I guess in your case, some mind -numbing theological concept. Okay, I 517 00:43:13,900 --> 00:43:15,460 see you're on a roll today. But it did get me thinking. 518 00:43:18,060 --> 00:43:20,960 When have I felt that? Because I have felt it or something like it. 519 00:43:22,340 --> 00:43:23,560 But how do you define it? 520 00:43:24,100 --> 00:43:28,820 Because happiness is too shallow, pleasure is too fleeting. 521 00:43:29,860 --> 00:43:33,220 Okay. Let it be noted that a student of the Romantic Poets is struggling to find 522 00:43:33,220 --> 00:43:35,680 the adequate vocabulary to describe an emotional experience. 523 00:43:36,040 --> 00:43:37,300 I'd never said it was emotional. 524 00:43:37,840 --> 00:43:38,840 Didn't you? 525 00:43:39,520 --> 00:43:44,660 No, no, it's something else, something... deeper. 526 00:43:49,540 --> 00:43:50,540 Okay. 527 00:43:50,780 --> 00:43:51,780 Come with me. 528 00:43:52,360 --> 00:43:53,360 Okay. 529 00:43:59,980 --> 00:44:04,680 I would agree that happiness is too shallow a word. And pleasure is gross, 530 00:44:04,880 --> 00:44:09,020 right? So if I can humbly suggest an alternative... 531 00:44:09,020 --> 00:44:12,380 Surprised by joy. 532 00:44:13,300 --> 00:44:14,740 He stole that from Wordsworth. 533 00:44:15,140 --> 00:44:16,240 Well, then you're in good company. 534 00:44:17,160 --> 00:44:19,560 Well, they ever associated Lewis with his children's literature. 535 00:44:20,060 --> 00:44:23,420 Well, he was a fellow at Magdalen, and he was the chair of Renaissance and 536 00:44:23,420 --> 00:44:24,420 Medieval Studies at Cambridge. 537 00:44:25,040 --> 00:44:27,540 This is the closest thing we have to an autobiography by him. 538 00:44:30,740 --> 00:44:32,740 I'll consider it. You'll consider it? Yeah. 539 00:44:33,140 --> 00:44:38,480 You're not gonna... You were the one who came to me on a quest for pleasure. 540 00:44:45,340 --> 00:44:51,460 Can I help you? 541 00:44:57,540 --> 00:44:58,540 Fine, if you insist. 542 00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:56,620 It wasn't horrible. 543 00:45:57,980 --> 00:45:59,740 The bits about joy were interesting. 544 00:46:01,300 --> 00:46:07,380 The idea that joy is distinct from pleasure, and how sex is often used as a 545 00:46:07,380 --> 00:46:08,560 substitute for joy. 546 00:46:09,360 --> 00:46:12,760 Which, obviously, you wouldn't know anything about that, but I'm sure you'll 547 00:46:12,760 --> 00:46:13,598 learn when you get older. 548 00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:19,040 Do you have any other jokes apart from that one? He has this way of describing 549 00:46:19,040 --> 00:46:20,440 things that defy description. 550 00:46:21,820 --> 00:46:23,780 Like his notion of inconsolable longing. 551 00:46:26,190 --> 00:46:27,230 It's quite beautiful, actually. 552 00:46:29,290 --> 00:46:30,290 Yeah, it is. 553 00:46:31,850 --> 00:46:34,250 This guy probably had some deep, unfulfilled desire. 554 00:46:35,350 --> 00:46:36,350 No question. 555 00:46:36,830 --> 00:46:38,530 There was yearning in those bones. 556 00:46:41,690 --> 00:46:45,750 So, when did Carolyn Drake felt the stab of inconsolable longing? 557 00:46:46,850 --> 00:46:48,870 Um, I don't know. 558 00:46:49,450 --> 00:46:50,770 Okay, I'll go first. 559 00:46:51,710 --> 00:46:55,030 Ten years old, I'm in Kansas for my... 560 00:46:55,290 --> 00:46:56,390 My great -grandmother's funeral. 561 00:46:57,170 --> 00:46:59,670 After the service, the stars are coming out. 562 00:47:00,430 --> 00:47:04,330 And I go upstairs, and I jam open this window, and I sit out there, my legs 563 00:47:04,330 --> 00:47:05,330 dangling outside. 564 00:47:06,170 --> 00:47:11,950 And there's this vast cornfield, and the stalks are blowing in the wind, and 565 00:47:11,950 --> 00:47:13,490 it's like a sea. It's undulating. 566 00:47:14,390 --> 00:47:18,450 And I can hear this very faint music. 567 00:47:21,350 --> 00:47:24,110 And it's just echoing. It's very ghost -like. 568 00:47:26,299 --> 00:47:28,040 I don't know. It just breaks me. 569 00:47:30,940 --> 00:47:31,980 Well, what was the song? 570 00:47:34,940 --> 00:47:36,060 Pour Some Sugar On Me. 571 00:47:42,880 --> 00:47:49,360 You're not wearing your collar. 572 00:47:51,460 --> 00:47:52,900 Sometimes I like to go on the cover. 573 00:47:54,160 --> 00:47:55,160 Do you? 574 00:47:55,770 --> 00:47:59,590 Well, our Lord didn't walk around in priestly vestments after all. Ahem. 575 00:48:01,910 --> 00:48:04,230 Father, get to join me in the blessing of the Irish? 576 00:48:04,590 --> 00:48:05,730 That'd be grand, thank you. 577 00:48:10,310 --> 00:48:11,490 Have I said the wrong thing? 578 00:48:12,410 --> 00:48:15,810 I find casually dropping the name of Christ into the conversation gets an 579 00:48:15,810 --> 00:48:16,810 instant reaction. 580 00:48:17,170 --> 00:48:18,970 Yeah, we're sucked out of the room. 581 00:48:19,350 --> 00:48:21,950 Once upon a time, the faithful invoked his name. 582 00:48:22,350 --> 00:48:23,670 and the air rushed in. 583 00:48:23,930 --> 00:48:26,970 You'll be pleased to know that Caro is reading C .S. Lewis. 584 00:48:27,310 --> 00:48:32,130 Ah, take heed. Some things once read cannot be unread. 585 00:48:32,910 --> 00:48:34,870 Yeah, well, he's proving to be quite the distraction. 586 00:48:35,470 --> 00:48:36,530 I do that too. 587 00:48:36,890 --> 00:48:41,630 Oh, tell me we've ventured out of the treacherous territory of politics and 588 00:48:41,630 --> 00:48:46,490 religions. Come now, Sir Edward. Tell us where you stand on the Son of Man. I 589 00:48:46,490 --> 00:48:48,770 stand on the side of a good pint. 590 00:48:49,030 --> 00:48:53,950 Cheers. Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die. 591 00:48:54,150 --> 00:48:55,150 Good enough for me. 592 00:48:57,530 --> 00:49:00,930 All well and good, unless tomorrow we rise. 593 00:49:01,270 --> 00:49:02,690 Ah, like zombies. 594 00:49:03,450 --> 00:49:07,610 Like real men, fully and splendidly alive. 595 00:49:08,410 --> 00:49:10,650 Imagine your acquaintance Mr. Lewis puts it. 596 00:49:11,590 --> 00:49:13,110 You lose me at life after death. 597 00:49:13,530 --> 00:49:14,890 Not life after death. 598 00:49:15,710 --> 00:49:16,790 Life abundant. 599 00:49:17,370 --> 00:49:18,370 Now. 600 00:49:18,920 --> 00:49:19,920 And into eternity. 601 00:49:20,700 --> 00:49:24,240 I think we all have very different ideas on what constitutes an abundant life. 602 00:49:26,420 --> 00:49:28,680 Come around later, I'll show you a few of my ideas, love. 603 00:49:29,300 --> 00:49:31,840 A spiritual experience, I'm sure, Edward. 604 00:49:32,160 --> 00:49:33,160 I think so. 605 00:49:35,700 --> 00:49:42,020 To whom that enemy, and thence in heaven called Satan, with bold words, breaking 606 00:49:42,020 --> 00:49:44,000 the horrid silence thus began. 607 00:49:44,540 --> 00:49:45,640 Excellent enunciation. 608 00:49:46,580 --> 00:49:47,840 On to Mr. McCoy. 609 00:49:53,960 --> 00:49:57,040 If you must know, sir, I've fallen behind a bit. 610 00:49:57,780 --> 00:49:59,340 A lot, actually. 611 00:50:02,000 --> 00:50:05,680 You have a very high opinion of yourself, don't you, Mr McCoy? 612 00:50:07,020 --> 00:50:13,120 Well, I... Are you perhaps familiar with Pope, the 18th century English poet? 613 00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:18,320 I know him. 614 00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:22,060 That's lovely, Miss Duncan, but I was talking to Mr McCoy. 615 00:50:23,720 --> 00:50:28,880 Once upon a time, Pope sent a gift to the Prince of Wales at his house in Kew. 616 00:50:29,520 --> 00:50:30,520 A dog. 617 00:50:30,960 --> 00:50:34,460 He wrote a short epigram for the dog's collar. Do you know it? 618 00:50:40,400 --> 00:50:44,440 I'm his highness' dog at Kew. Pray tell me, sir, whose dog are you? 619 00:50:46,300 --> 00:50:47,480 What did Pope mean? 620 00:50:50,980 --> 00:50:52,060 We all bow to something. 621 00:50:55,660 --> 00:51:00,440 Indeed, we are not, after all, masters of our own fate. 622 00:51:02,160 --> 00:51:07,700 We are not all -knowing, autonomous, or self -sufficient. 623 00:51:08,760 --> 00:51:15,420 We all consciously or unconsciously bend the knee to something greater 624 00:51:15,420 --> 00:51:16,420 than ourselves. 625 00:51:19,020 --> 00:51:21,000 Even you, Mr. McCoy. 626 00:51:23,820 --> 00:51:24,820 Miss Drake. 627 00:51:27,860 --> 00:51:34,760 Um... I'm so sorry. I could just use a couple more days. I promise 628 00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:36,580 it won't happen again. Shall we say next Thursday? 629 00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:39,000 Thank you. 630 00:51:40,340 --> 00:51:45,680 Lewis frequently wrote of an inconsolable and infinite longing, 631 00:51:45,680 --> 00:51:50,320 German, the longing in the human heart, for we know not what. 632 00:51:51,370 --> 00:51:55,870 In his words, the books or the music in which we thought the beauty was located 633 00:51:55,870 --> 00:51:58,390 will betray us if we trust them. 634 00:51:58,930 --> 00:52:04,230 It was not in them. It only came through them. And what came through them was 635 00:52:04,230 --> 00:52:07,270 longing. For they are not the thing itself. 636 00:52:07,890 --> 00:52:11,290 They are only the scent of a flower we have not found. 637 00:52:11,610 --> 00:52:14,570 The echo of a tune we have not heard. 638 00:52:15,350 --> 00:52:18,970 News from a country we have never yet visited. 639 00:52:20,270 --> 00:52:22,430 All joy reminds. 640 00:52:25,070 --> 00:52:28,210 I'm realizing there's a drink to believe. 641 00:52:28,470 --> 00:52:31,670 I just, I don't know if I have it in me. 642 00:52:34,170 --> 00:52:38,190 Did you know that Lewis was once a skeptic himself? 643 00:52:39,950 --> 00:52:45,650 He considered his friend J .R .R. Tolkien's faith to be superstitious 644 00:52:46,370 --> 00:52:47,970 One more myth? 645 00:52:48,620 --> 00:52:51,800 and a long history of myths going back to the ancient world. 646 00:52:53,640 --> 00:52:59,660 One night, they were walking this very path when Tolkien said something that 647 00:52:59,660 --> 00:53:02,700 would change the trajectory of Lewis's life. 648 00:53:03,380 --> 00:53:05,980 He told him he was correct. 649 00:53:06,820 --> 00:53:10,440 The story is a myth, but it's a true myth. 650 00:53:11,080 --> 00:53:15,520 The thing all the other old stories were somehow anticipating. 651 00:53:16,200 --> 00:53:17,620 The thing they were... 652 00:53:18,190 --> 00:53:19,650 Pointing to unaware. 653 00:53:20,710 --> 00:53:23,650 Desire behind desire. 654 00:53:26,750 --> 00:53:29,370 This is one of my favourite spots. 655 00:53:31,650 --> 00:53:35,090 I often come here to think and pray. 656 00:53:36,850 --> 00:53:38,150 I can see why. 657 00:53:42,410 --> 00:53:44,110 You're a smart girl, Carol. 658 00:53:45,690 --> 00:53:47,130 You work hard. 659 00:53:47,980 --> 00:53:50,340 Read ravenously, think deeply. 660 00:53:51,960 --> 00:53:54,240 You're everything we look for in a student. 661 00:53:57,100 --> 00:54:03,400 But I have known some brilliant people who have lived lives of quiet 662 00:54:03,400 --> 00:54:04,400 desperation. 663 00:54:07,620 --> 00:54:13,440 The strength you speak of, perhaps you're looking for it in the wrong 664 00:54:21,460 --> 00:54:25,320 So, about the stab of inconsolable longing. 665 00:54:26,560 --> 00:54:32,420 I was eight years old. My father was gone. 666 00:54:33,820 --> 00:54:37,800 And I was confused and angry and books were an escape. 667 00:54:40,740 --> 00:54:45,980 I remember exactly where I was sitting in the corner of my room when I opened 668 00:54:45,980 --> 00:54:49,200 this big volume of poetry right to Shelley's Montblanc. 669 00:54:50,030 --> 00:54:54,110 The everlasting universe of things flows through the mind in all these rapid 670 00:54:54,110 --> 00:54:58,230 waves, now dark, now glittering, now reflecting gloom. 671 00:54:59,270 --> 00:55:05,450 I don't know, I just, I remember being overwhelmed with 672 00:55:05,450 --> 00:55:09,990 beauty and sadness all in the same moment. 673 00:55:19,410 --> 00:55:22,730 Meaning cannot be deciphered in and of itself. 674 00:55:25,770 --> 00:55:28,690 It exists within a system of signs. 675 00:55:30,170 --> 00:55:34,930 Signs which are constantly signifying other signs, but which are themselves 676 00:55:34,930 --> 00:55:39,290 incapable of leading us back to the source of the sign itself. 677 00:55:39,730 --> 00:55:45,350 This is why truth can only ever be relative in nature. 678 00:55:46,530 --> 00:55:48,750 We can't know what we don't know. 679 00:55:50,220 --> 00:55:55,740 We are indeed limited by our own self -referentiality. Then why should we talk 680 00:55:55,740 --> 00:55:56,740 to him? 681 00:55:57,280 --> 00:55:58,280 Who was that? 682 00:56:00,220 --> 00:56:01,500 Come on, don't be shy. Who was it? 683 00:56:04,860 --> 00:56:05,860 Grey cardigan, yes? 684 00:56:07,660 --> 00:56:08,660 Stand up, please. 685 00:56:17,160 --> 00:56:19,620 Would you like to share your thoughts with the rest of the class, Miss? 686 00:56:20,180 --> 00:56:22,400 Drake. Miss Drake, please. 687 00:56:24,320 --> 00:56:28,920 Well, you said that truth can only be relative, but if that's the case, how 688 00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:29,920 I trust you? 689 00:56:32,380 --> 00:56:35,220 Tell me, Miss Drake, are you familiar with the Morrow reflex? 690 00:56:38,880 --> 00:56:42,840 The Morrow reflex is an infantile response to the sensation of falling. 691 00:56:44,940 --> 00:56:45,940 Indeed. 692 00:56:47,080 --> 00:56:51,480 The infant opens its arms, closes them, begins crying. 693 00:56:53,380 --> 00:56:54,540 What does this tell us? 694 00:56:56,280 --> 00:56:58,000 That babies don't like falling. 695 00:57:01,820 --> 00:57:06,580 It tells us that humanity feels the need to cling to something tangible in the 696 00:57:06,580 --> 00:57:07,580 face of distress. 697 00:57:08,940 --> 00:57:13,660 We are, all of us, at the mercy of a combination of instincts, drives, 698 00:57:14,340 --> 00:57:15,540 reflexes. 699 00:57:17,100 --> 00:57:19,600 Flailing infants in a deterministic universe. 700 00:57:22,160 --> 00:57:23,860 That's actually pretty good. I should write that down. 701 00:57:26,080 --> 00:57:29,260 I don't see how our need to cling to something tangible in the face of 702 00:57:29,260 --> 00:57:31,460 proves that nothing is tangible. My dear mistress. 703 00:57:31,720 --> 00:57:34,940 And maybe you're right. Maybe we are limited by our self -referentiality. And 704 00:57:34,940 --> 00:57:37,720 that's the case, then your truth is as valuable as mine. 705 00:57:38,020 --> 00:57:39,380 And it's worthless. 706 00:57:41,160 --> 00:57:44,720 But... Maybe you're wrong. 707 00:57:45,870 --> 00:57:52,870 Maybe we reach for something or desire something because that something is 708 00:57:52,870 --> 00:57:53,870 there. 709 00:57:55,290 --> 00:57:56,290 Beyond us. 710 00:57:59,830 --> 00:58:01,610 The thing all our desires point to. 711 00:58:05,630 --> 00:58:07,430 That's quite enough, Miss Drake. Sit down. 712 00:58:12,910 --> 00:58:14,230 What has gotten into you? 713 00:59:00,759 --> 00:59:02,160 Wow. 714 00:59:26,060 --> 00:59:28,220 Apparently, you've been spending a lot of time at St. Mary's. 715 00:59:28,940 --> 00:59:30,460 How in the world would you know that? 716 00:59:30,700 --> 00:59:31,700 I know all things. 717 00:59:32,300 --> 00:59:34,620 So what do you do in St. Mary's? 718 00:59:35,140 --> 00:59:36,800 I sit and I read. 719 00:59:37,220 --> 00:59:38,220 What, like the plaques? 720 00:59:44,360 --> 00:59:45,360 What? 721 00:59:48,560 --> 00:59:52,780 I... You're religious. 722 00:59:55,020 --> 00:59:56,020 Sure, okay. 723 00:59:57,000 --> 00:59:58,000 And I'm not. 724 00:59:59,540 --> 01:00:00,540 Yeah? 725 01:00:00,700 --> 01:00:04,260 So, by some secret law of the universe, we can't date. 726 01:00:04,800 --> 01:00:07,480 All right, I'm going to need you to tell me more about this secret law of the 727 01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:08,480 universe. 728 01:00:08,960 --> 01:00:11,560 And do you consider this a date? 729 01:00:15,480 --> 01:00:16,480 I got to go. 730 01:00:17,080 --> 01:00:18,140 No, you don't have to go. 731 01:00:20,160 --> 01:00:23,300 Are you... Every time. 732 01:00:30,259 --> 01:00:32,100 I'm sorry. What are you doing? 733 01:00:32,360 --> 01:00:33,360 Nothing. 734 01:00:33,700 --> 01:00:34,980 You just cut in front of me. 735 01:00:35,460 --> 01:00:36,980 Well, I'm keeping you safe from the traffic. 736 01:00:37,240 --> 01:00:38,240 Why? 737 01:00:38,420 --> 01:00:39,420 Well, it's polite. 738 01:00:40,120 --> 01:00:41,120 That's weird. 739 01:00:41,160 --> 01:00:44,560 Look, if a car comes speeding down here, I'm just... You'd what, take the hit 740 01:00:44,560 --> 01:00:46,200 for me? Well, no. What a heroic of you. 741 01:00:46,980 --> 01:00:50,440 I'm just trying to be courteous. Okay, well, your courtesy is a patriarchal act 742 01:00:50,440 --> 01:00:51,440 of subordinating assumption. 743 01:00:51,920 --> 01:00:52,920 Are you serious? 744 01:00:53,210 --> 01:00:56,090 No one speaks like that, not even you. Okay, don't push it, T .D .H. 745 01:00:56,410 --> 01:01:01,750 T .D .H.? What's a T .D .H.? Um, Tall 746 01:01:01,750 --> 01:01:05,930 Disciple of Holiness. 747 01:01:06,250 --> 01:01:08,010 Tall Disciple of Holiness? Really? 748 01:01:08,570 --> 01:01:09,570 It's weird. 749 01:01:10,050 --> 01:01:12,190 Yep, well, thanks for walking me down the sidewalk. 750 01:01:12,450 --> 01:01:13,328 So nice. 751 01:01:13,330 --> 01:01:14,510 T .D .H., I like it. 752 01:01:16,490 --> 01:01:18,450 Please, please, please, please. Professor McTeague? 753 01:01:18,830 --> 01:01:21,170 Professor McTeague? Professor McTeague? Professor McTeague? 754 01:01:21,670 --> 01:01:22,670 Damn it. 755 01:01:22,800 --> 01:01:26,120 I'm so sorry. I got caught in traffic. 756 01:01:27,500 --> 01:01:28,500 Oh, bloody hell. 757 01:01:31,340 --> 01:01:32,340 You all right? 758 01:01:34,260 --> 01:01:35,260 Shit. 759 01:01:35,840 --> 01:01:40,380 Your tutors say that you've fallen behind with your studies, that you seem 760 01:01:40,380 --> 01:01:41,380 distracted. 761 01:01:42,700 --> 01:01:47,280 I've seen students fall in with the wrong crowd, saying they're partying 762 01:01:47,280 --> 01:01:50,140 than studying. No, no, God, no, that's not it. 763 01:01:50,380 --> 01:01:54,890 Well, whatever it is... I encourage you to distance yourself from anything that 764 01:01:54,890 --> 01:01:56,610 diverts you from your original goal. 765 01:01:57,050 --> 01:02:01,370 If you do not meet the necessary criteria, it is possible to have the 766 01:02:01,370 --> 01:02:02,810 scholarship rescinded. 767 01:02:18,450 --> 01:02:19,650 I come in search of milk. 768 01:02:20,970 --> 01:02:21,970 Do you have any milk? 769 01:02:22,910 --> 01:02:24,950 Yeah, I... Yeah, it's in the fridge. 770 01:02:25,250 --> 01:02:26,470 Thank you, thank you, thank you. 771 01:02:29,690 --> 01:02:32,790 I just didn't really feel like walking in the rain. It's absolutely miserable 772 01:02:32,790 --> 01:02:33,790 out there. 773 01:02:34,450 --> 01:02:36,770 Hey, what would you say about a hot chocolate break? 774 01:02:37,030 --> 01:02:39,130 I... I really can't. Why not? 775 01:02:39,630 --> 01:02:43,370 I just have a lot to do, okay? And I need to stay focused. 776 01:02:45,560 --> 01:02:48,920 Okay, but I mean, you also need to take breaks. It's important to take breaks. I 777 01:02:48,920 --> 01:02:50,700 can't afford to take any more breaks. 778 01:02:53,480 --> 01:02:54,940 We'll see how you feel about that tomorrow. 779 01:02:55,300 --> 01:02:56,420 Okay, can you not take a hint? 780 01:02:56,760 --> 01:03:01,100 What? This is why I'm here. To work and earn my doctorate and get on with my 781 01:03:01,100 --> 01:03:04,000 life. Not to have pointless conversations at afternoon tea. Carol, I 782 01:03:04,000 --> 01:03:08,060 have to... Whatever you think this is, I can assure you, you're wrong. I let 783 01:03:08,060 --> 01:03:10,660 myself get momentarily distracted and it was obviously a mistake. 784 01:03:13,420 --> 01:03:16,220 Have you ever considered, even for one moment, that maybe you're not here just 785 01:03:16,220 --> 01:03:21,100 for a doctorate? Listen, you're not hearing what I'm saying. Earlier today, 786 01:03:21,100 --> 01:03:23,680 had to sit and listen if someone explained to me that I was in danger of 787 01:03:23,680 --> 01:03:24,618 my scholarship. 788 01:03:24,620 --> 01:03:28,000 Do you have any idea how hard I've worked for this? I'm sorry. I never 789 01:03:28,000 --> 01:03:30,940 to get in the way of your studies. Oh, okay, because who could deny you the 790 01:03:30,940 --> 01:03:32,660 perfect picture of chivalry, right? 791 01:03:32,860 --> 01:03:35,860 Well, guess what? I don't buy what you're selling. You act like you're 792 01:03:35,860 --> 01:03:38,840 different, but you're not. You'll trick me into trusting you and then make 793 01:03:38,840 --> 01:03:42,080 promises that you can't keep. And what then? What was it all for? I'd like to 794 01:03:42,080 --> 01:03:44,660 avoid that inevitable... Catastrophe if you don't care oh that doesn't have to 795 01:03:44,660 --> 01:03:50,260 be our story I Can't be whatever it is you want me to be 796 01:03:50,260 --> 01:03:56,740 Please leave 797 01:04:36,560 --> 01:04:40,360 In closing, Shelley's mastery of language is a potent reminder that women 798 01:04:40,360 --> 01:04:43,900 uniquely equipped to embody and articulate the depths of emotional 799 01:04:51,080 --> 01:04:52,080 Who's next? 800 01:04:57,260 --> 01:04:58,260 Caro? 801 01:05:01,720 --> 01:05:02,760 Earth to Caro. 802 01:05:04,260 --> 01:05:05,800 You've been in a funk for weeks. 803 01:05:11,490 --> 01:05:13,650 Fine. When was the last time you spoke to Kent? 804 01:05:17,530 --> 01:05:18,530 Hello, darling. 805 01:05:20,130 --> 01:05:21,310 How are we this morning? 806 01:05:24,810 --> 01:05:29,950 So... Have we, um... shared the news? 807 01:05:30,870 --> 01:05:31,990 There is no news. 808 01:05:32,850 --> 01:05:33,850 Oh, come on. 809 01:05:34,490 --> 01:05:36,910 We can't hide the truth from these two, can we? 810 01:05:38,010 --> 01:05:39,010 Linear. 811 01:05:39,370 --> 01:05:40,450 We shagged. 812 01:05:44,090 --> 01:05:45,750 Feels good to say that. 813 01:05:46,210 --> 01:05:47,210 Feels really good. 814 01:05:57,350 --> 01:05:58,450 Just... Sorry. 815 01:06:00,410 --> 01:06:01,410 Caro, 816 01:06:03,550 --> 01:06:05,630 what is going on with you? 817 01:06:07,790 --> 01:06:12,410 Nothing. I'm just... deeply unhappy. 818 01:06:14,310 --> 01:06:15,310 Busy. 819 01:06:16,010 --> 01:06:18,770 You're working yourself sick and I'm worried about you. 820 01:06:19,810 --> 01:06:21,050 I'm worried that... What? 821 01:06:22,230 --> 01:06:26,910 That you'll get everything you want and be perfectly miserable in the end. 822 01:06:31,230 --> 01:06:32,230 Yeah, okay. 823 01:06:33,890 --> 01:06:35,130 Kent has a visitor. 824 01:06:38,220 --> 01:06:39,900 She arrived yesterday from the States. 825 01:06:41,500 --> 01:06:43,540 Supposedly they were introduced through his friend Alex. 826 01:06:46,660 --> 01:06:47,920 Didn't take him long, did it? 827 01:06:48,860 --> 01:06:49,860 Talk to him. 828 01:06:51,180 --> 01:06:52,600 Why? Because you love him. 829 01:06:53,640 --> 01:06:54,640 It's ridiculous. 830 01:06:54,780 --> 01:06:55,780 Is it? 831 01:07:02,160 --> 01:07:04,820 I've got a lot of reading to get in. I'll catch up with you later. 832 01:07:15,850 --> 01:07:18,250 Edward? He actually wasn't that bad. I don't want to know. 833 01:07:37,110 --> 01:07:38,110 I don't know. 834 01:08:52,260 --> 01:08:53,979 Why are you following me? Let go of me! 835 01:08:54,200 --> 01:08:57,080 I've been trying to let go of you. Well, clearly you're not having any trouble. 836 01:08:57,260 --> 01:08:59,779 What are you talking about? You were the one who pulled away from me. A choice 837 01:08:59,779 --> 01:09:03,020 that's looking wiser and wiser by the second. I'm sorry, why are you upset? 838 01:09:03,020 --> 01:09:05,240 said that you wanted to concentrate on your doctorate. I do! 839 01:09:05,500 --> 01:09:08,680 I'm just marveling at how quickly you moved on to greener pastures. That's not 840 01:09:08,680 --> 01:09:12,140 fair. I mean, it's not even accurate. Oh, please do mansplain it to me. Okay, 841 01:09:12,220 --> 01:09:15,040 stop pretending like you don't care. I don't care! 842 01:09:15,920 --> 01:09:17,420 I'm sick and tired of your bullshit. 843 01:09:18,080 --> 01:09:21,640 You wear this brave face, but inside you're just as scared as everybody else. 844 01:09:21,740 --> 01:09:23,660 You have no idea what you're talking about. 845 01:09:25,060 --> 01:09:27,180 You're afraid to let yourself be loved. 846 01:09:27,600 --> 01:09:29,380 Because it's a step into the unknown. 847 01:09:29,760 --> 01:09:32,620 And nothing scares you more in the world than the unknown. 848 01:09:32,920 --> 01:09:35,740 You pour over the words of dead people. 849 01:09:35,979 --> 01:09:40,380 You study them and you analyze them, but you don't let yourself feel those same 850 01:09:40,380 --> 01:09:41,380 things. 851 01:09:42,460 --> 01:09:44,520 I'm sorry your dad abandoned you. 852 01:09:48,270 --> 01:09:49,710 It doesn't mean that I would have. 853 01:09:51,290 --> 01:09:54,370 Don't act like you know anything about my life. You have no idea. 854 01:09:54,670 --> 01:09:55,830 I hate to break it to you, Caro. 855 01:09:56,230 --> 01:09:59,430 You don't have to mark a corner to disappoint me. You do not know what I've 856 01:09:59,430 --> 01:10:03,270 through. No, you're right. I don't. And I know that you have every reason to be 857 01:10:03,270 --> 01:10:07,730 angry. You have every reason to be confused and to push everyone away. But 858 01:10:07,730 --> 01:10:08,750 that what you want? 859 01:10:09,650 --> 01:10:12,050 Is that what you want? Do you want to be alone? 860 01:10:13,350 --> 01:10:14,350 Do you? 861 01:10:16,630 --> 01:10:17,559 You know... 862 01:10:17,560 --> 01:10:20,200 Maybe we reach for something because that something is there. 863 01:11:11,170 --> 01:11:13,510 You. The rules are perfectly clear. 864 01:11:13,830 --> 01:11:15,150 I know, I know the rules. 865 01:11:15,370 --> 01:11:18,230 It's, you know, no ink around the books. I get it. You know, it's protect the 866 01:11:18,230 --> 01:11:20,590 damn books at all costs. You can't even keep your voice down. Keep your voice 867 01:11:20,590 --> 01:11:23,350 down in the library. You know, it's just all about the books, how precious they 868 01:11:23,350 --> 01:11:25,710 are. Keep the ink away from the books and everything's about the books. The 869 01:11:25,710 --> 01:11:26,710 books, the books, the books. 870 01:11:26,790 --> 01:11:29,030 What have you done? 871 01:11:47,430 --> 01:11:48,990 Can I have a word with her alone? 872 01:11:59,290 --> 01:12:00,290 Hands. 873 01:12:08,150 --> 01:12:14,970 Oh, my 874 01:12:14,970 --> 01:12:15,970 dear girl. 875 01:12:18,600 --> 01:12:21,340 I'm going to my cottage in the Cotswolds for the weekend. 876 01:12:23,460 --> 01:12:25,540 I'd be delighted if you joined me. 877 01:12:27,560 --> 01:12:29,400 Unless, of course, you prefer to stay here. 878 01:13:15,340 --> 01:13:17,760 Sammy, are you the welcoming party? 879 01:13:18,100 --> 01:13:19,100 Good boy. 880 01:13:23,960 --> 01:13:24,960 Hi, Sammy. 881 01:13:31,400 --> 01:13:38,120 A bit of 882 01:13:38,120 --> 01:13:39,120 housekeeping. 883 01:13:39,480 --> 01:13:41,740 While you're here, you must call me Regina. 884 01:13:42,220 --> 01:13:43,680 Oh, I don't think... No arguing. 885 01:13:44,240 --> 01:13:46,040 Come. I'll show you to your room. 886 01:13:54,280 --> 01:13:56,420 This was my husband's old study. 887 01:13:57,640 --> 01:14:00,420 My, how he loved this room. 888 01:14:01,520 --> 01:14:06,280 Back in those days, it was a bustling, busy house. This was his refuge. 889 01:14:11,140 --> 01:14:13,960 He passed away four years ago. 890 01:14:18,190 --> 01:14:19,190 Life goes on. 891 01:14:22,750 --> 01:14:27,870 About what happened... Don't. You're my guest and you've nothing to apologise 892 01:14:27,870 --> 01:14:29,710 for. I'll get you some towels. 893 01:15:17,420 --> 01:15:18,500 I saw your light on. 894 01:15:19,940 --> 01:15:21,500 Sorry, I saw it here. 895 01:15:21,820 --> 01:15:22,820 It's all right. 896 01:15:25,980 --> 01:15:32,560 After Henry died, I had my share of restless 897 01:15:32,560 --> 01:15:33,560 nights. 898 01:15:34,580 --> 01:15:38,300 So many questions, so few answers. 899 01:15:41,280 --> 01:15:44,960 You seemed so strong, so settled. 900 01:15:46,890 --> 01:15:48,830 That's where faith comes in, I suppose. 901 01:15:50,030 --> 01:15:54,650 A faith that says it's somehow going to be all right in the end. 902 01:15:56,750 --> 01:16:01,150 Doesn't take away the pain, but it does make it more bearable. 903 01:16:05,030 --> 01:16:09,330 You know, you're not at all what I thought you'd be like. 904 01:16:12,090 --> 01:16:13,090 Disappointed? 905 01:16:13,990 --> 01:16:14,990 No. 906 01:16:18,030 --> 01:16:22,450 All I've ever wanted was to be someone like you. 907 01:16:23,570 --> 01:16:25,610 Someone who's carved her own path. 908 01:16:26,150 --> 01:16:30,590 Who's accomplished and confident and intelligent. 909 01:16:31,790 --> 01:16:36,330 But you're so... unimpressed with myself. 910 01:16:41,570 --> 01:16:45,510 That's Kirk Manor, near where I grew up in Scotland. 911 01:16:46,950 --> 01:16:52,830 beautiful house with a magnificent hedged maze, one of the best in the 912 01:16:52,990 --> 01:16:55,410 though not for the faint of heart. 913 01:16:56,510 --> 01:17:01,990 It was quite common for visitors to lose their way, so the groundskeeper 914 01:17:01,990 --> 01:17:06,830 installed bells at various points throughout, so if you were lost, you 915 01:17:06,830 --> 01:17:08,850 rang the bell and help would come. 916 01:17:09,950 --> 01:17:14,810 As you can imagine, not everyone had the humility to admit they were lost. 917 01:17:16,140 --> 01:17:20,840 There was a man from town who spent two nights out in the cold before the bell 918 01:17:20,840 --> 01:17:21,840 sounded. 919 01:17:22,260 --> 01:17:24,500 Made the front page of the morning paper. 920 01:17:28,360 --> 01:17:32,060 You've worked so hard, Carol, for so long. 921 01:17:33,560 --> 01:17:37,060 But all your striving didn't get you here. 922 01:17:38,300 --> 01:17:40,520 It took someone believing in you. 923 01:17:42,460 --> 01:17:44,320 DeVoe was his name, wasn't it? 924 01:17:54,000 --> 01:17:56,460 this grace all around us all the time. 925 01:17:57,140 --> 01:18:01,280 If we can only have the humility to admit that we need it. 926 01:18:03,740 --> 01:18:06,540 That we can't find the way out on our own. 927 01:19:37,280 --> 01:19:38,280 Hello, Caro. 928 01:19:38,440 --> 01:19:39,440 Are the rumors true? 929 01:19:39,900 --> 01:19:42,360 You joined Father Michael's pious flock. 930 01:19:42,760 --> 01:19:44,060 It's only a matter of time. 931 01:19:45,220 --> 01:19:49,300 What can I do to convince you to join the normal world? 932 01:19:50,820 --> 01:19:52,280 What is normal, Edward? 933 01:19:52,640 --> 01:19:55,480 You don't need religion to find meaning. Look at me. 934 01:19:55,680 --> 01:19:57,180 I create my own meaning. 935 01:19:57,440 --> 01:19:58,960 Yeah? Do you? 936 01:19:59,240 --> 01:20:01,060 Isn't that right, Linnia, darling? Get off. 937 01:20:02,040 --> 01:20:05,120 But don't you ever worry that you'll get to the end of your life and... 938 01:20:05,520 --> 01:20:06,580 I wonder what it was all for. 939 01:20:07,640 --> 01:20:08,860 Of course. 940 01:20:09,820 --> 01:20:14,820 That's why I want to die very old and in my sleep next to this lovely lady, Pat. 941 01:20:14,980 --> 01:20:15,938 Yeah? 942 01:20:15,940 --> 01:20:19,980 To ease into nothingness, not to find out with your dying breath that you've 943 01:20:19,980 --> 01:20:20,980 been tricked all along. 944 01:20:22,100 --> 01:20:23,100 I don't want to know. 945 01:20:23,440 --> 01:20:24,440 See? 946 01:20:24,780 --> 01:20:28,660 Sometimes it's easier to just leave after sharing the cigarette. 947 01:20:29,840 --> 01:20:31,100 I want to show you something. 948 01:21:06,380 --> 01:21:10,200 William Holman Hunt, 1853. 949 01:21:17,220 --> 01:21:18,220 It's quite lovely. 950 01:21:19,840 --> 01:21:20,960 Irrespective of the subject matter. 951 01:21:28,280 --> 01:21:29,280 Oh, look. 952 01:21:30,440 --> 01:21:31,440 It's a mistake. 953 01:21:33,120 --> 01:21:34,340 There's no handle on the door. 954 01:21:48,940 --> 01:21:50,780 The door can only be opened from the inside. 955 01:21:56,880 --> 01:21:57,880 Don't either. 956 01:22:16,360 --> 01:22:17,820 You're making me... 957 01:22:25,650 --> 01:22:28,970 Begging your pardon, Professor McTean. Good God, man, where did you spring 958 01:22:29,530 --> 01:22:32,330 Look, I've been meaning to ask you about your taking Scott to the Antiquary. 959 01:22:33,130 --> 01:22:34,870 Personally, I consider it his most underrated work. 960 01:22:35,230 --> 01:22:37,950 All right, boy, I had no idea you were so keen on Scott. 961 01:22:38,410 --> 01:22:41,610 Here, you must let me show you some of my first editions someday. 962 01:22:42,010 --> 01:22:45,510 Amazing. She keeps putting blue carousel on everything. 963 01:22:46,090 --> 01:22:47,090 Please. 964 01:22:47,420 --> 01:22:48,420 Amelia Cantor. 965 01:22:50,080 --> 01:22:54,580 To whom the arch enemy and fence in heaven called Satan, with bold words 966 01:22:54,580 --> 01:22:57,300 breaking, the horrid silence thus began. 967 01:22:57,900 --> 01:22:59,460 Well done, Mr. McCoy. 968 01:23:00,400 --> 01:23:01,400 You know what? 969 01:23:01,580 --> 01:23:03,140 I think I've changed my mind about Milton. 970 01:23:03,560 --> 01:23:05,520 He's actually quite a good one to give him a second read. 971 01:23:06,040 --> 01:23:07,940 Yes, I think he has a future. 972 01:23:34,280 --> 01:23:36,040 Okay, so I feel like I owe you an explanation. 973 01:23:37,840 --> 01:23:39,520 Me too. 974 01:23:42,420 --> 01:23:45,640 What do you say we resolve that which was left unresolved? 975 01:23:47,940 --> 01:23:50,340 I think that would be such a great idea. 976 01:23:54,860 --> 01:23:56,740 Where's your perfect match? 977 01:23:58,160 --> 01:23:59,620 Turns out she's not my type. 978 01:24:01,440 --> 01:24:02,920 No? No, no. 979 01:24:03,220 --> 01:24:04,820 She was far too much of a pushover. 980 01:24:08,860 --> 01:24:09,860 You seem different. 981 01:24:11,800 --> 01:24:13,140 Well, I washed my hair. 982 01:24:14,340 --> 01:24:15,340 That must be it. 983 01:24:21,560 --> 01:24:23,140 Do you want to see the best view in Oxford? 984 01:24:57,620 --> 01:25:02,300 So, apparently, you were banned from the Bodleian Library. 985 01:25:03,680 --> 01:25:05,340 I don't really want to talk about it. 986 01:25:06,060 --> 01:25:07,060 Really? 987 01:25:08,900 --> 01:25:09,900 Wow. 988 01:25:10,580 --> 01:25:12,460 Oh, my God, you're an Oxford grad. 989 01:25:12,780 --> 01:25:13,840 How did that feel? 990 01:25:18,180 --> 01:25:19,180 Pretty sweet. 991 01:25:24,620 --> 01:25:26,160 I hear Blackwell's inspiring. 992 01:25:28,650 --> 01:25:31,330 The thing is, I actually already have a job offer. 993 01:25:32,610 --> 01:25:36,250 It's for Think Tank, which is basically a consulting firm. 994 01:25:36,670 --> 01:25:39,930 It's like low -level stuff, but it's got room to grow. 995 01:25:42,370 --> 01:25:43,370 In the UK? 996 01:25:47,010 --> 01:25:48,190 In D .C., actually. 997 01:25:59,760 --> 01:26:00,940 How long do you have to decide? 998 01:26:04,160 --> 01:26:05,520 Well I've already accepted. 999 01:26:08,680 --> 01:26:09,740 I leave tonight. 1000 01:26:31,950 --> 01:26:32,950 What are we? 1001 01:26:37,250 --> 01:26:38,490 What do you want us to be? 1002 01:27:56,240 --> 01:27:57,240 My taxi is waiting. 1003 01:28:04,440 --> 01:28:05,740 So what happens now? 1004 01:28:09,500 --> 01:28:10,560 A question. 1005 01:28:11,860 --> 01:28:12,860 Isn't it? 1006 01:28:21,520 --> 01:28:22,519 How wrong? 1007 01:28:22,520 --> 01:28:23,520 Don't say goodbye. 1008 01:28:28,810 --> 01:28:30,990 One more group photo before you leave. 1009 01:30:48,970 --> 01:30:49,970 All right, miss. 1010 01:30:51,330 --> 01:30:52,710 Where are you supposed to be? 1011 01:30:57,630 --> 01:30:58,630 I don't know. 1012 01:31:02,410 --> 01:31:03,410 Hop on. 1013 01:31:04,190 --> 01:31:05,190 I'll give you a ride. 1014 01:31:09,190 --> 01:31:13,050 So, remember how Aristotle said that man is teleological? 1015 01:31:14,310 --> 01:31:15,750 Well, here's the thing. 1016 01:31:17,250 --> 01:31:18,270 A tele... 1017 01:31:18,590 --> 01:31:20,670 isn't just a goal or a destination. 1018 01:31:21,890 --> 01:31:25,950 It's the purpose of a thing, what it's designed to do. 1019 01:31:28,950 --> 01:31:34,750 For all our striving and philosophizing, knowledge only gets us so far. 1020 01:31:38,910 --> 01:31:45,470 Maybe we're made for longing, and we're restless until we're ravished by the 1021 01:31:45,470 --> 01:31:46,470 truth. 1022 01:31:52,040 --> 01:31:53,060 So what happens now? 1023 01:31:56,920 --> 01:31:58,420 Now that the dance is over? 1024 01:32:00,980 --> 01:32:02,080 The curtain closed. 1025 01:32:31,760 --> 01:32:34,900 That's the question, isn't it? 1026 01:32:47,580 --> 01:32:49,940 It's metaphorical, isn't it? 1027 01:32:51,020 --> 01:32:56,400 Dunn's using these religious images as a way to comment on the human striving 1028 01:32:56,400 --> 01:32:57,400 for ideals. 1029 01:33:01,580 --> 01:33:02,580 I think you misunderstood. 1030 01:33:04,300 --> 01:33:06,840 The truth is in the paradox. 1031 01:33:09,620 --> 01:33:10,620 Are we still on for Paris? 1032 01:33:10,900 --> 01:33:12,320 Are you kidding? I wouldn't miss it. 1033 01:33:12,560 --> 01:33:15,920 Yes, and then afterwards you'll come straight to India. The kids are 1034 01:33:16,100 --> 01:33:19,420 Caro. Are you never ruining me? Well, you better send me some photos now that 1035 01:33:19,420 --> 01:33:20,199 have a real phone. 1036 01:33:20,200 --> 01:33:21,460 Look at her. She's all grown up. 1037 01:33:23,280 --> 01:33:24,800 Really wish you were here, Dr. Dre. 1038 01:33:25,560 --> 01:33:26,900 Hey, can I call yours right back? 1039 01:33:27,120 --> 01:33:28,120 Okay, bye. 1040 01:34:06,570 --> 01:34:07,830 The truth is in the paradox. 1041 01:34:09,950 --> 01:34:11,170 Death to life. 1042 01:34:12,290 --> 01:34:13,390 Pain to glory. 1043 01:34:15,490 --> 01:34:17,730 Seeds sown in winter, birthed forth in spring. 1044 01:34:18,790 --> 01:34:19,790 Hope eternal. 1045 01:34:21,110 --> 01:34:22,270 World without end. 1046 01:34:34,830 --> 01:34:38,870 Just when you think the story's over, there's room for one more surprise. 1047 01:34:39,490 --> 01:34:43,790 Keep up, please, keep up. We're approaching the Bodleian Library. 1048 01:34:44,530 --> 01:34:45,530 Keep coming. 1049 01:34:46,250 --> 01:34:47,310 I think so. 1050 01:34:47,670 --> 01:34:53,990 This library is approximately 490 years old. It opened in 1051 01:34:53,990 --> 01:34:57,730 1602. Please feel free to take photos of it.