1 00:00:05,260 --> 00:00:09,270 The Phantom by Anton Yelchin. 2 00:00:15,710 --> 00:00:19,190 Created by Anton Yelchin. 3 00:00:28,070 --> 00:00:29,240 Filming. 4 00:00:30,070 --> 00:00:31,720 Taping... 5 00:00:31,810 --> 00:00:35,200 by Victor Yelchin. 6 00:00:37,470 --> 00:00:42,690 Costumes by Anton Yelchin and Irina Yelchin. 7 00:00:47,740 --> 00:00:51,660 Story writer, Anton Yelchin! 8 00:00:51,740 --> 00:00:55,530 And here it goes! 9 00:00:56,050 --> 00:00:58,230 Cut. Cut! 10 00:01:02,230 --> 00:01:03,710 To begin with, 11 00:01:03,800 --> 00:01:04,620 I just wanted to ask you a fun question. 12 00:01:04,710 --> 00:01:05,970 I don't know if... 13 00:01:06,060 --> 00:01:07,520 Did you go to the movies as a kid? 14 00:01:07,520 --> 00:01:09,190 And if you did, were there any films or actors 15 00:01:09,280 --> 00:01:11,330 that were particular favorites or influences for you? 16 00:01:11,410 --> 00:01:13,500 Well, as a kid, when I went to the movies, 17 00:01:13,590 --> 00:01:15,070 Arnold Schwarzenegger was probably the biggest 18 00:01:15,160 --> 00:01:16,680 - influence on me. - Yeah. 19 00:01:16,770 --> 00:01:17,990 Specifically, Last Action Hero 20 00:01:18,070 --> 00:01:19,940 I remember seeing, and just... 21 00:01:20,030 --> 00:01:21,990 being obsessed with, you know? 22 00:01:22,080 --> 00:01:23,560 And then, uh, Space Jam, 23 00:01:23,640 --> 00:01:25,170 definitely, was a profound influence 24 00:01:25,250 --> 00:01:26,520 - when I was younger. - Yes. 25 00:01:26,600 --> 00:01:29,040 Oh! 26 00:01:29,130 --> 00:01:30,780 Oh, gee! 27 00:01:32,610 --> 00:01:34,180 It's funny, like, that was my taste 28 00:01:34,260 --> 00:01:35,830 up until I was like ten. 29 00:01:35,920 --> 00:01:37,740 Then when I was like 11 and 12, 30 00:01:37,830 --> 00:01:39,530 my parents started showing me, because I started working. 31 00:01:39,620 --> 00:01:41,050 And they were like, "You know, if you want to do this, 32 00:01:41,140 --> 00:01:42,620 we're gonna start showing you good movies, 33 00:01:42,710 --> 00:01:44,190 just so you don't think Space Jam is... 34 00:01:44,270 --> 00:01:45,750 Is the peak. Yeah. 35 00:01:45,840 --> 00:01:47,710 Was the peak of American Cinema. 36 00:01:47,800 --> 00:01:52,190 Um, so they showed me a film shot by the same DP, actually, 37 00:01:52,280 --> 00:01:55,020 named Michael Chapman, who did Taxi Driver. 38 00:01:55,110 --> 00:01:58,640 I swear, I swear, I'm not crazy. 39 00:02:04,770 --> 00:02:06,210 And I loved it. It was like the first thing 40 00:02:06,300 --> 00:02:08,080 I consciously said to my folks, like, 41 00:02:08,170 --> 00:02:10,520 "I want to do this. I want to make movies." 42 00:02:20,350 --> 00:02:22,440 The actor Anton Yelchin is with me. 43 00:02:22,530 --> 00:02:25,620 You Are in Vancouver and you are shooting... 44 00:02:25,710 --> 00:02:27,620 - yet again something? - Yeah. 45 00:02:27,710 --> 00:02:29,230 Yeah. How are you in school? Good in school? 46 00:02:29,320 --> 00:02:31,230 Good. All A's except in Gym. 47 00:02:31,320 --> 00:02:32,930 - In Gym? - Yeah. 48 00:02:34,980 --> 00:02:35,980 You're a child after my own heart, 49 00:02:36,060 --> 00:02:37,410 I have to say. 50 00:02:37,500 --> 00:02:39,150 But your parents are athletes? 51 00:02:39,240 --> 00:02:40,810 Yeah, so I think that's enough in our family. 52 00:02:40,890 --> 00:02:41,940 Yeah. 53 00:02:45,330 --> 00:02:47,030 Making their first appearance 54 00:02:47,120 --> 00:02:49,030 in a professional competition, 55 00:02:49,120 --> 00:02:51,950 the former stars of the Leningrad Ice Ballet, 56 00:02:52,040 --> 00:02:55,610 Irina Korina and Victor Yelchin from the Soviet Union. 57 00:02:55,690 --> 00:02:57,300 Thirty-eight years of age, Victor, 58 00:02:57,390 --> 00:02:59,350 he has a lot of experience. 59 00:02:59,440 --> 00:03:01,960 These two, now married and live in Los Angeles 60 00:03:02,050 --> 00:03:04,220 with their seven-month-old son. 61 00:03:04,310 --> 00:03:06,180 This is the beginning of a new career for them, 62 00:03:06,270 --> 00:03:07,620 and a new life. 63 00:03:22,240 --> 00:03:24,290 And I was just follow 64 00:03:24,370 --> 00:03:26,980 everything what he was writing about pregnancy. 65 00:03:44,090 --> 00:03:45,440 I was... 66 00:03:45,520 --> 00:03:47,530 extremely happy that I have a baby. 67 00:03:52,440 --> 00:03:54,620 Irina Korina and Victor Yelchin 68 00:03:54,710 --> 00:03:56,930 bring that music with them from the Soviet Union. 69 00:03:57,010 --> 00:03:59,630 That is the theme song from a Russian movie called 70 00:03:59,710 --> 00:04:00,930 A Slave of Love. 71 00:04:09,770 --> 00:04:11,860 Anti-Semitism is on the rise 72 00:04:11,940 --> 00:04:13,860 in the Soviet Union. 73 00:04:13,940 --> 00:04:16,160 Five years ago, 74 00:04:16,250 --> 00:04:18,040 no one would have said there is any anti-Semitism. 75 00:04:18,950 --> 00:04:20,390 Today, there is. 76 00:04:28,310 --> 00:04:29,480 ...who lived in United States, 77 00:04:29,570 --> 00:04:31,220 and he came back, and he said, 78 00:04:31,310 --> 00:04:32,920 "When the baby would be born, we have to leave." 79 00:05:18,050 --> 00:05:20,100 ...men don't cry. 80 00:05:20,180 --> 00:05:21,660 And actually, I didn't. 81 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:24,450 But this time, when... 82 00:05:32,500 --> 00:05:34,110 It was unbelievable feeling 83 00:05:34,200 --> 00:05:36,370 that I'm staying on American soil 84 00:05:37,160 --> 00:05:38,900 with my baby in my hand. 85 00:05:40,160 --> 00:05:44,380 And this moment will be with me, like, all my life. 86 00:05:45,860 --> 00:05:46,910 That's it. 87 00:05:48,260 --> 00:05:49,740 It is fascinating to me 88 00:05:49,820 --> 00:05:51,430 how you arrived in this country. So... 89 00:05:51,520 --> 00:05:52,560 For those who don't know the story, 90 00:05:52,650 --> 00:05:54,350 tell me about your mom and dad, 91 00:05:54,440 --> 00:05:56,180 and how you, how you made your way to the US of A. 92 00:05:56,260 --> 00:05:57,440 My parents were successful 93 00:05:57,530 --> 00:05:59,140 in the Soviet Union. 94 00:05:59,220 --> 00:06:01,090 Basically, they sold everything, 95 00:06:01,180 --> 00:06:03,880 uh, and came to this country not knowing a word of English, 96 00:06:03,970 --> 00:06:05,230 and... 97 00:06:05,320 --> 00:06:07,140 just started to work. 98 00:06:07,230 --> 00:06:09,450 And, uh, and then they raised me in the San Fernando Valley, 99 00:06:09,540 --> 00:06:11,930 which I dug based on family photographs, 100 00:06:12,020 --> 00:06:14,890 I was having a... a good time. 101 00:06:26,250 --> 00:06:29,120 ♪ I know I don't need you Just like you don't need me ♪ 102 00:06:29,210 --> 00:06:31,950 ♪ I know you put your faith Into technology ♪ 103 00:06:32,040 --> 00:06:34,740 ♪ I know that we can settle in Like a pizza parlor ♪ 104 00:06:34,820 --> 00:06:36,910 Hi-yah! 105 00:06:37,000 --> 00:06:38,260 ♪ Come on, where the fuck Did you go? ♪ 106 00:06:38,350 --> 00:06:39,740 ♪ Come on, come on ♪ 107 00:06:39,830 --> 00:06:41,740 ♪ Break your television! ♪ 108 00:06:44,090 --> 00:06:47,100 You know, I met him... I met him in grade school. 109 00:06:47,180 --> 00:06:50,710 He was just kind of like, this loud, kind of crazy kid. 110 00:06:57,890 --> 00:06:59,590 Everyone knows him as, you know, like, 111 00:06:59,680 --> 00:07:03,110 this infinitely creative person, and... 112 00:07:03,200 --> 00:07:04,720 You know, we were just... 113 00:07:04,810 --> 00:07:06,860 We were just fucking silly together. 114 00:07:09,250 --> 00:07:10,900 Poor boy. 115 00:07:14,120 --> 00:07:17,650 So lovely he was, too. 116 00:07:17,740 --> 00:07:21,780 Alas, what time does through the ages. 117 00:07:26,180 --> 00:07:28,490 We would go running around his neighborhood, 118 00:07:28,570 --> 00:07:29,880 and he would always be talking about 119 00:07:29,970 --> 00:07:31,400 different things that he was reading, 120 00:07:31,490 --> 00:07:33,360 and different music that we were into. 121 00:07:33,450 --> 00:07:36,490 One of the first people to, like, really show me Fellini. 122 00:07:36,580 --> 00:07:39,280 I don't think we watched a full Fellini film together, 123 00:07:39,370 --> 00:07:41,800 but we definitely watched clips. 124 00:07:41,890 --> 00:07:44,550 One of the better memories that we had 125 00:07:44,630 --> 00:07:46,810 was when he brought out the video camera. 126 00:08:16,360 --> 00:08:19,100 On one level, it was just two kids just being silly, 127 00:08:19,190 --> 00:08:20,410 having a lot of fun. 128 00:08:20,500 --> 00:08:21,800 But on another level, 129 00:08:21,890 --> 00:08:23,720 there was just something that was... 130 00:08:23,800 --> 00:08:25,150 It was kind of serendipitous, 131 00:08:25,240 --> 00:08:26,760 but it was also just... 132 00:08:26,850 --> 00:08:27,850 Anton. 133 00:08:34,860 --> 00:08:39,120 The Dream, a film by Anton Yelchin. 134 00:08:44,870 --> 00:08:48,350 I was very shy, but very privately animated. 135 00:08:48,440 --> 00:08:50,180 What do you want me to show you? 136 00:08:50,700 --> 00:08:53,090 Drama, ballet... 137 00:08:54,530 --> 00:08:55,700 or... 138 00:08:57,180 --> 00:08:58,920 comedy, horror... 139 00:08:59,660 --> 00:09:01,710 and action? 140 00:09:01,800 --> 00:09:03,970 Sort of a closer family friend of ours 141 00:09:04,060 --> 00:09:05,150 suggested they take me to an acting class called 142 00:09:05,240 --> 00:09:06,980 uh, Kris Kyer's Actors Workshop. 143 00:09:07,060 --> 00:09:08,850 He had like a class for little kids, 144 00:09:08,930 --> 00:09:10,150 and it was all, like, eight-year-olds 145 00:09:10,240 --> 00:09:11,240 or nine-year-olds. 146 00:09:18,810 --> 00:09:21,600 He would look down his feet for the first... 147 00:09:21,690 --> 00:09:23,820 six months, I would say. 148 00:09:23,910 --> 00:09:24,820 He wouldn't look up. He would get very scared. 149 00:09:24,910 --> 00:09:26,780 And all we had to do was instill 150 00:09:26,870 --> 00:09:28,520 uh, self-imagination, self-esteem 151 00:09:28,610 --> 00:09:29,960 for the first six months, 152 00:09:30,040 --> 00:09:31,040 and then a lightbulb went on. 153 00:09:31,130 --> 00:09:33,440 Seventy-three years ago, 154 00:09:33,520 --> 00:09:35,180 there once lived a man, 155 00:09:35,270 --> 00:09:39,180 and his name was Mr. Picognius. 156 00:09:39,270 --> 00:09:42,010 He was the greatest artist ever. 157 00:09:42,100 --> 00:09:43,530 He painted... 158 00:09:43,620 --> 00:09:47,020 Picasso sometimes even could be like him. 159 00:09:47,100 --> 00:09:49,320 We did a lot of improv, like, we would do things, 160 00:09:49,410 --> 00:09:50,720 like, where he would give us an assignment 161 00:09:50,800 --> 00:09:52,800 to come home and make something. 162 00:09:52,890 --> 00:09:55,330 And I actually enjoyed 163 00:09:55,420 --> 00:09:58,330 those moments more than I did where we had to learn scenes. 164 00:09:58,420 --> 00:10:00,550 And because at the time, 165 00:10:00,640 --> 00:10:03,030 scenes were just lines to me, they weren't really characters, 166 00:10:03,120 --> 00:10:05,430 whereas these things where I could just create stuff, 167 00:10:05,510 --> 00:10:07,560 kind of like I did at home. 168 00:10:07,650 --> 00:10:09,650 The policeman tells me 169 00:10:09,730 --> 00:10:11,480 that he is... 170 00:10:11,560 --> 00:10:13,740 That he dropped. Yes. 171 00:10:43,510 --> 00:10:46,990 And to be or not to be! 172 00:10:47,080 --> 00:10:48,640 So, your audition for Chuck E. Cheese, 173 00:10:48,730 --> 00:10:50,650 you did an imitation of Arnold? 174 00:10:50,730 --> 00:10:52,650 - Arnold, yeah. - Yeah. 175 00:10:52,730 --> 00:10:54,470 But, it's, it's gotten worse. 176 00:10:54,560 --> 00:10:56,300 Oh, yeah. Oh, well, that's okay. 177 00:10:56,390 --> 00:10:58,170 And then they asked us to dance. 178 00:10:58,260 --> 00:11:00,660 Most guys, you know, um, that are like 10, 11, and 12, 179 00:11:00,740 --> 00:11:02,570 you say to them, "Okay, dance." 180 00:11:02,660 --> 00:11:04,960 They just... they wanna run away. 181 00:11:05,050 --> 00:11:07,050 I always dance with my mom at parties, 182 00:11:07,140 --> 00:11:08,970 and in between my dad dancing with my mom 183 00:11:09,050 --> 00:11:11,140 because my parents are ice skaters. 184 00:11:11,230 --> 00:11:12,750 So my mom always wants me to dance with her, 185 00:11:12,840 --> 00:11:14,450 so I don't say, "No!" 186 00:11:14,540 --> 00:11:16,240 So I always dance with my mom. 187 00:11:31,380 --> 00:11:34,690 Why it's so hard for him to fight a simple cold. 188 00:11:52,750 --> 00:11:54,530 And, uh, the doctor said, 189 00:11:54,620 --> 00:11:58,060 "The results are positive. Anton has cystic fibrosis." 190 00:11:59,580 --> 00:12:03,760 Imagine being born with chronic illness, 191 00:12:03,850 --> 00:12:06,160 and your parents being told 192 00:12:06,240 --> 00:12:10,070 that you're not going to live beyond a certain age 193 00:12:10,160 --> 00:12:12,160 without a significant amount of therapies 194 00:12:12,250 --> 00:12:14,820 and significant amount of medications 195 00:12:14,900 --> 00:12:17,470 to modify how their body functions, 196 00:12:17,560 --> 00:12:19,300 to maintain their activity. 197 00:12:20,520 --> 00:12:22,780 That's a huge burden to bear. 198 00:12:38,930 --> 00:12:40,930 One of the hardest things with CF 199 00:12:41,020 --> 00:12:42,370 is they don't look sick, 200 00:12:42,450 --> 00:12:44,020 but they're battling all the time, 201 00:12:44,110 --> 00:12:46,760 because the number one symptom is their breath, 202 00:12:46,850 --> 00:12:49,760 which we all, in this room, take for granted. 203 00:13:02,430 --> 00:13:04,170 Everyone's disease is different, 204 00:13:04,260 --> 00:13:06,520 and they all handle it differently. 205 00:13:06,610 --> 00:13:08,260 You know, I'd say, 206 00:13:08,350 --> 00:13:10,310 "You know, this is more hopeful than it used to be. 207 00:13:10,390 --> 00:13:16,050 So really live with hope as your, your main driver." 208 00:13:26,670 --> 00:13:28,410 ...has this horrible disease. 209 00:13:29,460 --> 00:13:31,280 Yeah, brotha's cool, yeah. 210 00:13:31,370 --> 00:13:32,370 Yeah! 211 00:13:50,350 --> 00:13:51,910 - And always... - Eat my greens. 212 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:53,780 - Eat my... I like greens. - Good. 213 00:13:53,870 --> 00:13:55,440 And never ever... 214 00:13:55,530 --> 00:13:56,700 - And never ever... - Pick my nose 215 00:13:56,790 --> 00:13:58,400 - and eat the boogers. - Pick... 216 00:13:58,480 --> 00:13:59,090 - I never eat the boogers. - Good. 217 00:14:00,570 --> 00:14:01,310 - Okay, here you go. - Thank you. 218 00:14:11,370 --> 00:14:13,410 That we have to... 219 00:14:17,940 --> 00:14:21,030 Happy birthday to you! 220 00:14:21,120 --> 00:14:23,470 - And many more! - Yay! 221 00:14:23,550 --> 00:14:24,950 I did that episode of ER, 222 00:14:25,030 --> 00:14:26,900 it was a very heavy episode. 223 00:14:26,990 --> 00:14:28,120 And it was the first time I had- Mm-hmm. 224 00:14:28,210 --> 00:14:30,210 To cry for anything. 225 00:14:30,300 --> 00:14:31,950 And I just wept and wept, and wept, 226 00:14:32,040 --> 00:14:34,220 and I couldn't stop crying after they cut. 227 00:14:34,300 --> 00:14:35,960 And it was weirdly cathartic and kind of awesome, 228 00:14:36,040 --> 00:14:37,960 but very painful at the same time. 229 00:14:38,050 --> 00:14:40,700 Like, my mom was really freaked out. 230 00:14:40,790 --> 00:14:43,830 We and the other doctors worked really hard 231 00:14:43,920 --> 00:14:45,400 to help your parents, but... 232 00:14:45,490 --> 00:14:49,230 their injuries were very, very serious. 233 00:14:49,320 --> 00:14:50,800 And... 234 00:14:50,890 --> 00:14:52,800 despite everything we tried to do, 235 00:14:52,890 --> 00:14:55,110 we were not able to save them. 236 00:14:55,190 --> 00:14:56,980 But I know they would be so relieved 237 00:14:57,070 --> 00:14:59,020 to know that you're both okay. 238 00:15:03,590 --> 00:15:04,900 I wanna see them. 239 00:15:06,990 --> 00:15:09,030 I mean, I don't think any parent... 240 00:15:09,120 --> 00:15:10,730 I mean, I don't know what kind of a parent 241 00:15:10,820 --> 00:15:12,780 would want to sit there and see their kid weep, 242 00:15:12,860 --> 00:15:14,950 and it was kind of off-putting to her. 243 00:15:15,040 --> 00:15:16,480 But it was... there is... Something happened 244 00:15:16,560 --> 00:15:18,700 where I realized that it was very much... 245 00:15:18,780 --> 00:15:20,610 It was very much something that I had enjoyed. 246 00:15:20,700 --> 00:15:22,480 - That intensity. - Mm. 247 00:15:33,230 --> 00:15:35,580 "I wish for you to feel million, trillion, 248 00:15:35,670 --> 00:15:37,890 billion times better tomorrow." 249 00:15:37,980 --> 00:15:40,410 "Dear Mommy, I love you so very much. 250 00:15:40,500 --> 00:15:42,330 I adore you. 251 00:15:42,410 --> 00:15:44,460 I wish for you to feel billion, trillion times better tomorrow." 252 00:15:44,550 --> 00:15:46,380 And it was like 20, 253 00:15:46,460 --> 00:15:49,380 those type of cards he would just slip under the door 254 00:15:49,470 --> 00:15:51,210 or kiss me and do that. 255 00:15:55,990 --> 00:15:57,130 He would just write, "Dear Mommy, 256 00:15:57,210 --> 00:15:58,910 I love you! Love, Antosha." 257 00:15:59,000 --> 00:16:01,690 "Dear Mommy, I love you. Love, Antosha." 258 00:16:01,780 --> 00:16:04,520 Just like that. This is like... That's a treasure. 259 00:16:04,610 --> 00:16:06,130 It's no gifts. 260 00:16:07,050 --> 00:16:09,310 Better than those. 261 00:16:09,400 --> 00:16:12,050 I'm very fortunate because my mom, 262 00:16:12,140 --> 00:16:13,620 you know, she was teaching all the time, 263 00:16:13,710 --> 00:16:15,750 she still choreographs, 264 00:16:15,840 --> 00:16:17,880 but she would literally, like in her skating suit, 265 00:16:17,970 --> 00:16:19,840 take me to auditions after work and just... 266 00:16:19,930 --> 00:16:20,980 She just believed that this is what I loved, 267 00:16:21,060 --> 00:16:23,240 so I owe her everything, really. 268 00:16:23,330 --> 00:16:25,240 Just for believing in me, you know? 269 00:16:28,680 --> 00:16:30,770 "What is a man if his chief good 270 00:16:30,850 --> 00:16:35,730 and market of his time be, but to sleep and feed. 271 00:16:37,690 --> 00:16:39,950 A beast, no more. 272 00:16:40,040 --> 00:16:43,740 Sure he that made us with such large discourse, 273 00:16:43,820 --> 00:16:45,480 looking before and after, 274 00:16:45,560 --> 00:16:48,790 gave us not this capability and god-like reason 275 00:16:48,870 --> 00:16:51,050 to fust in us unused. 276 00:16:51,140 --> 00:16:53,140 Now, whether it be bestial oblivion, 277 00:16:53,220 --> 00:16:55,840 or some craven scruple 278 00:16:55,920 --> 00:16:59,710 of thinking too precisely on the event... 279 00:16:59,800 --> 00:17:00,970 A thought which, quartered, 280 00:17:01,060 --> 00:17:02,970 hath but one part reason 281 00:17:03,060 --> 00:17:05,500 and ever three parts coward." 282 00:17:05,580 --> 00:17:07,460 After like six or seven commercials, 283 00:17:07,540 --> 00:17:09,850 I kind of said to my mom that it wasn't what I expected. 284 00:17:09,940 --> 00:17:11,980 - Mm. - And she was like, 285 00:17:12,070 --> 00:17:14,120 "It's fine, if you don't want to do this. 286 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:16,640 Um, we can figure out what else there is to do, you know? 287 00:17:16,730 --> 00:17:18,820 Like, we can see what the next step is. 288 00:17:18,900 --> 00:17:21,210 Or, if you don't like it, that's cool, too, 289 00:17:21,300 --> 00:17:22,780 you don't have to do that. You just go back to school." 290 00:17:22,860 --> 00:17:24,650 And I got an agent, 291 00:17:24,730 --> 00:17:27,480 and I worked on my first movie, A Man is Mostly Water, 292 00:17:27,560 --> 00:17:31,390 and I realized that, that was what I really wanted to do. 293 00:17:32,310 --> 00:17:34,000 ♪ Soon it's morning, baby ♪ 294 00:17:34,090 --> 00:17:36,270 ♪ About to break our day ♪ 295 00:17:36,350 --> 00:17:39,140 ♪ I know it hurts... Darling used to be ♪ 296 00:17:39,230 --> 00:17:41,060 ♪ Soon it's morning ♪ 297 00:17:41,140 --> 00:17:42,750 ♪ And I'm about to break Our day ♪ 298 00:18:08,300 --> 00:18:10,350 ...he, he start playing guitar. 299 00:18:10,430 --> 00:18:12,000 So good. 300 00:18:12,090 --> 00:18:13,260 This Blues is for you, Mama. 301 00:18:15,790 --> 00:18:16,870 ♪ Mommy ♪ 302 00:18:18,140 --> 00:18:20,790 ♪ I love you so, Mommy ♪ 303 00:18:22,140 --> 00:18:24,620 ♪ Oh, Mommy ♪ 304 00:18:26,010 --> 00:18:28,190 ♪ I love you for life ♪ 305 00:18:30,970 --> 00:18:32,580 ♪ So beautiful, Mom ♪ 306 00:18:33,500 --> 00:18:35,330 ♪ So beautiful, Mom ♪ 307 00:18:36,630 --> 00:18:38,940 I never met anyone quite like him 308 00:18:39,030 --> 00:18:40,720 in the sense that there were these, 309 00:18:40,810 --> 00:18:45,250 sort of classic, child-like qualities about him 310 00:18:45,340 --> 00:18:48,120 and very old qualities and they just coexisted. 311 00:18:48,210 --> 00:18:49,910 That is, he had... 312 00:18:49,990 --> 00:18:51,950 a curiosity, that with most people 313 00:18:52,040 --> 00:18:53,340 degrades over time... 314 00:18:54,610 --> 00:18:55,650 Love you, baby. 315 00:18:56,910 --> 00:18:58,090 Love you. 316 00:18:58,180 --> 00:18:59,220 Yeah! 317 00:18:59,310 --> 00:19:02,140 ...but not with him. 318 00:19:02,220 --> 00:19:04,090 She sure is big. 319 00:19:04,180 --> 00:19:05,180 I knew you would like it. 320 00:19:05,270 --> 00:19:06,750 All kids like big things. 321 00:19:06,840 --> 00:19:08,270 It must be some kind of rule. 322 00:19:09,320 --> 00:19:10,710 What is she holding? 323 00:19:10,800 --> 00:19:12,230 Well, it's a torch... 324 00:19:12,320 --> 00:19:13,710 to light the way in 325 00:19:13,800 --> 00:19:16,320 for the ships going into the harbor. 326 00:19:16,410 --> 00:19:18,980 I met him when he was a little kid, 327 00:19:19,070 --> 00:19:21,240 on a movie called, Delivering Milo, 328 00:19:21,330 --> 00:19:23,770 and I thought I was a little kid, 329 00:19:23,850 --> 00:19:25,990 but he was, uh, littler. 330 00:19:26,070 --> 00:19:27,250 He was so interesting. 331 00:19:27,340 --> 00:19:28,380 I would have never guessed 332 00:19:28,470 --> 00:19:30,120 he would become a professional, 333 00:19:30,210 --> 00:19:31,250 although, he was a professional, 334 00:19:31,340 --> 00:19:33,080 if I had just seen that. 335 00:19:33,170 --> 00:19:34,560 Because he didn't have, 336 00:19:34,650 --> 00:19:36,210 kind of, like a false precociousness 337 00:19:36,300 --> 00:19:37,740 which I find in a lot of kid actors. 338 00:19:37,820 --> 00:19:40,220 They're good at pretending to be adults. 339 00:19:40,300 --> 00:19:42,180 He wasn't doing that. He was... 340 00:19:42,260 --> 00:19:44,090 I don't want to take away from what he did 341 00:19:44,180 --> 00:19:45,960 by calling him "a natural," 342 00:19:46,050 --> 00:19:48,790 but he did have an ability to just jump into something, 343 00:19:48,880 --> 00:19:49,970 and it didn't seem hard. 344 00:19:50,050 --> 00:19:51,230 Maybe it was hard. 345 00:19:56,970 --> 00:19:59,370 Everything was so, so instinctual, 346 00:19:59,450 --> 00:20:01,200 like I don't even remember what I did 347 00:20:01,280 --> 00:20:03,110 in terms of working on it, 348 00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:04,110 I probably just learned my lines. 349 00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:06,240 But the biggest, 350 00:20:06,330 --> 00:20:08,160 biggest thing that was, I think, quite significant 351 00:20:08,250 --> 00:20:10,600 and kind of affected me profoundly 352 00:20:10,680 --> 00:20:12,820 was doing the film Hearts in Atlantis, 353 00:20:12,900 --> 00:20:14,690 with Anthony Hopkins and Scott Hicks directing, 354 00:20:14,770 --> 00:20:17,210 and being around the late Piotr Sobocinski, 355 00:20:17,300 --> 00:20:19,300 who was an extraordinary DP, and... 356 00:20:19,390 --> 00:20:21,300 And seeing them work 357 00:20:21,390 --> 00:20:23,740 and being influenced by them was tremendous. 358 00:20:25,960 --> 00:20:28,530 Remember that first time we were in that room in... 359 00:20:28,610 --> 00:20:31,090 - in, uh, Keswick when-- - Keswick Hall. 360 00:20:31,180 --> 00:20:33,230 When Anton came in 361 00:20:33,310 --> 00:20:35,880 and sat down and started reading with you. 362 00:20:35,970 --> 00:20:38,670 You prepped me a little about Anton. 363 00:20:38,750 --> 00:20:40,670 You said, "Well, we think this boy is really terrific." 364 00:20:40,760 --> 00:20:43,670 And then in walked this young kid. 365 00:20:43,760 --> 00:20:47,330 And he reminded me of Tom Sawyer. 366 00:20:47,420 --> 00:20:49,500 And then when he did the reading, 367 00:20:49,590 --> 00:20:51,550 I thought he was just an extraordinary boy. 368 00:20:51,640 --> 00:20:54,200 He had such poise and, uh, confidence 369 00:20:54,290 --> 00:20:56,820 without being obnoxious or overbearing. 370 00:20:56,900 --> 00:20:59,780 I thought he was just wonderful, wonderful kid. 371 00:21:05,390 --> 00:21:08,040 Go on, Ted. I mean, you can't stop! 372 00:21:09,310 --> 00:21:11,000 Ted, I gotta know what happened! 373 00:21:14,090 --> 00:21:15,700 I never ever saw... 374 00:21:15,790 --> 00:21:17,840 a girl as special as Carol Gerber. 375 00:21:19,060 --> 00:21:20,540 There's millions. 376 00:21:20,620 --> 00:21:21,620 Oh, yeah? 377 00:21:23,230 --> 00:21:24,410 Have you kissed her yet? 378 00:21:25,150 --> 00:21:26,370 Yuck! 379 00:21:26,450 --> 00:21:28,020 Well, you will. I promise you. 380 00:21:28,670 --> 00:21:30,070 Stay away. 381 00:21:30,150 --> 00:21:32,370 You will. 382 00:21:32,460 --> 00:21:33,940 And it will be the kiss 383 00:21:34,030 --> 00:21:36,330 by which all others in your life will be judged. 384 00:21:42,170 --> 00:21:43,470 Dear Journal. 385 00:21:43,560 --> 00:21:45,650 Today I have my first kiss. 386 00:21:45,730 --> 00:21:48,040 This was my first kiss with Mika. 387 00:21:48,130 --> 00:21:50,300 It was okay, I kinda liked it. 388 00:21:50,390 --> 00:21:51,520 It was very nice. 389 00:21:51,610 --> 00:21:53,310 And I did it twice. 390 00:21:53,390 --> 00:21:55,310 I hope it happens many more times. 391 00:22:02,140 --> 00:22:05,190 I said, "Anton, what you got to do is 392 00:22:05,280 --> 00:22:07,020 wait for the good scripts," 393 00:22:07,100 --> 00:22:08,540 you know, the thing 394 00:22:08,630 --> 00:22:10,410 that's gonna launch you to the next step." 395 00:22:10,500 --> 00:22:12,020 And he said to me, 396 00:22:12,110 --> 00:22:15,110 "No, I want to do everything." 397 00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:18,030 I said, "No, no, no, you can't do everything, 398 00:22:18,110 --> 00:22:19,640 because there's a lot of... 399 00:22:19,720 --> 00:22:21,250 junk out there you don't want to be a part of." 400 00:22:21,340 --> 00:22:23,600 "No, no, I wanna do everything. 401 00:22:23,690 --> 00:22:26,040 I don't care, I want to act." 402 00:22:51,890 --> 00:22:54,460 Raging Bull. - Then wasRaging Bull. 403 00:23:03,250 --> 00:23:05,810 Fight. Win, win, win. 404 00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:12,340 Kill, kill, kill. 405 00:23:12,430 --> 00:23:14,950 Kill, kill. Put them up. 406 00:23:15,040 --> 00:23:16,260 Kill, kill, kill. 407 00:23:27,530 --> 00:23:28,620 Studying it. 408 00:23:28,710 --> 00:23:30,840 He was going back to Internet, 409 00:23:30,930 --> 00:23:32,710 read everything, what was connected 410 00:23:32,800 --> 00:23:35,840 with this particular movie. 411 00:23:35,930 --> 00:23:38,670 Influence on Taxi Driver for Scorsese. 412 00:23:38,760 --> 00:23:42,020 Notes from the Underground, Merchant of Four Seasons, 413 00:23:42,110 --> 00:23:43,110 Fassbinder. 414 00:23:44,550 --> 00:23:46,330 Travis Bickle is a reflection 415 00:23:46,420 --> 00:23:48,200 of the history of masculinity in film. 416 00:23:52,470 --> 00:23:54,910 We would sit for hours. 417 00:23:54,990 --> 00:23:57,520 And he would show me old movies, you know. 418 00:23:57,610 --> 00:23:59,690 Old film noirs, and... 419 00:23:59,780 --> 00:24:03,520 old French movies and old Japanese movies, and... 420 00:24:03,610 --> 00:24:05,130 You know, he was a... 421 00:24:05,220 --> 00:24:07,920 a true student of film. 422 00:24:08,010 --> 00:24:11,230 Double Indemnity, 1944, Billy Wilder. 423 00:24:11,310 --> 00:24:13,710 A great, nasty picture. 424 00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:16,710 Uses the self-conscious device of voiceover and flashback. 425 00:24:16,800 --> 00:24:19,370 Straight Shooting, 1917, John Ford. 426 00:24:19,450 --> 00:24:21,410 A great moving picture. 427 00:24:21,500 --> 00:24:23,200 Even though it's Ford's first feature, 428 00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:25,150 already displays his themes 429 00:24:25,240 --> 00:24:27,290 in much of this spectacular use of mise-en-scéne. 430 00:24:50,530 --> 00:24:52,490 Bohemians. 431 00:25:04,540 --> 00:25:08,680 I remember once, he invited me to a movie. 432 00:25:09,550 --> 00:25:11,290 It was The Big Heat... 433 00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:13,810 with Lee Marvin. 434 00:25:13,900 --> 00:25:15,600 After the movie, I was like, "That was amazing! 435 00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:17,120 That was amazing!" 436 00:25:17,210 --> 00:25:18,600 And he was like, "I'm glad you enjoyed it." 437 00:25:18,690 --> 00:25:20,600 Uh, he... 438 00:25:20,690 --> 00:25:22,560 He had, of course, seen it multiple times. 439 00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:26,430 I mean, I always loved movies. 440 00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:28,780 I loved being on set. 441 00:25:28,870 --> 00:25:29,700 I love meeting people. I love working on the scenes, 442 00:25:29,780 --> 00:25:31,480 but... 443 00:25:31,570 --> 00:25:33,610 the level of work that I've put in 444 00:25:33,700 --> 00:25:35,220 and the appreciation I had for the craft of filmmaking 445 00:25:35,310 --> 00:25:36,790 is completely different now. 446 00:25:49,020 --> 00:25:50,500 I would like you to shuffle this, please. 447 00:25:50,590 --> 00:25:51,630 All right. 448 00:25:51,720 --> 00:25:53,980 And efficiently, and... 449 00:25:54,070 --> 00:25:55,550 - Yeah. Okay, fine. - Anyway possible. 450 00:25:55,640 --> 00:25:56,990 - Okay. - So, I'll shuffle. 451 00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:02,340 Okay, and... 452 00:26:02,430 --> 00:26:03,910 This is your card. 453 00:26:06,470 --> 00:26:08,000 Wow! 454 00:26:08,080 --> 00:26:09,390 Yeah. 455 00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:10,690 How'd you do that? 456 00:26:11,910 --> 00:26:13,570 I'm sorry, I can't tell you. 457 00:26:14,090 --> 00:26:15,790 Sorry. 458 00:26:15,870 --> 00:26:17,700 Come on, just do it. How you did you do the trick? 459 00:26:17,790 --> 00:26:20,230 No, no, no. Magicians don't tell people how they do their tricks. 460 00:26:20,310 --> 00:26:22,490 Yeah, well, you're not really a magician. 461 00:26:22,580 --> 00:26:24,400 Oh, yeah, I am. 462 00:26:24,490 --> 00:26:25,540 What, 'cause you do one trick, that makes you a magician? 463 00:26:25,620 --> 00:26:26,970 Did I trick you? 464 00:26:28,970 --> 00:26:30,890 Curb is such a different kind of experience. 465 00:26:30,980 --> 00:26:33,590 I mean, Curb, you go on the audition, and... 466 00:26:33,670 --> 00:26:36,240 you pick a scenario out of a hat. 467 00:26:36,330 --> 00:26:38,160 And then you go into the room, 468 00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:40,420 and there's like ten execs there and Larry David, 469 00:26:40,510 --> 00:26:41,640 and you just improvise a scene with Larry David. 470 00:26:41,730 --> 00:26:43,380 And I basically did it. 471 00:26:43,470 --> 00:26:44,600 And then when I got it, they were like, 472 00:26:44,690 --> 00:26:46,030 "What you said in the audition, 473 00:26:46,120 --> 00:26:47,990 what you did in the audition, 474 00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:49,430 that's what the scene's gonna be." 475 00:26:49,520 --> 00:26:49,950 Are you gonna tell me this trick? 476 00:26:49,950 --> 00:26:50,690 No. 477 00:26:52,390 --> 00:26:53,390 Magicians don't reveal their secrets. 478 00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:54,830 Fine. I got to go. 479 00:26:58,960 --> 00:27:00,480 You guys are a lot alike. 480 00:27:00,570 --> 00:27:02,620 Yeah, except he's not a magician. 481 00:27:11,840 --> 00:27:14,450 It was 2004 482 00:27:14,540 --> 00:27:17,150 when I first met Anton. 483 00:27:18,370 --> 00:27:20,070 I had seen a lot of kids 484 00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:22,420 for something I had done right before that. 485 00:27:22,510 --> 00:27:24,510 So when David Duchovny was looking, 486 00:27:24,590 --> 00:27:26,250 and he had someone in mind. 487 00:27:26,340 --> 00:27:29,730 And it was like, "You just have to meet this child." 488 00:27:30,770 --> 00:27:32,990 And he met Anton. 489 00:27:33,080 --> 00:27:35,260 I think it's the only kid I brought to him. 490 00:27:44,140 --> 00:27:45,440 I don't want you to take 491 00:27:45,530 --> 00:27:48,140 any shit off your dad, okay? 492 00:27:48,230 --> 00:27:49,270 Okay. 493 00:27:49,360 --> 00:27:50,710 And listen, if Simone-- 494 00:27:50,790 --> 00:27:52,360 Do good things, Tommy. 495 00:28:00,370 --> 00:28:01,810 Promise me. 496 00:28:03,550 --> 00:28:05,070 You do good things. 497 00:28:07,380 --> 00:28:08,990 I promise. 498 00:28:11,120 --> 00:28:13,470 The thrill of making movies 499 00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:15,340 and being able to make movies 500 00:28:15,430 --> 00:28:17,780 and studying characters, and you know, 501 00:28:17,870 --> 00:28:19,650 getting to work with people that you respect and admire, 502 00:28:19,740 --> 00:28:22,260 is, is so far superior to everything else. 503 00:28:22,350 --> 00:28:25,610 That... and it's kind of an easy choice. 504 00:28:25,700 --> 00:28:27,050 At least for me, you know, 505 00:28:27,140 --> 00:28:28,790 it's how I think about things. 506 00:28:30,310 --> 00:28:32,790 He was an absolute one of a kind. 507 00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:35,800 With Anton, you just know they broke the mold. 508 00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:38,490 There was nothing about him that wasn't wonderful. 509 00:28:39,760 --> 00:28:41,800 I remember he was always... 510 00:28:41,890 --> 00:28:44,890 always there, always on the set, 511 00:28:44,980 --> 00:28:46,810 watching me, and then after his take, 512 00:28:46,890 --> 00:28:48,900 he would come over and ask me questions about it. 513 00:28:48,980 --> 00:28:52,640 Or when we did a scene, afterward, he didn't go... 514 00:28:52,730 --> 00:28:54,210 rolling off into his trailer. 515 00:28:54,290 --> 00:28:56,860 He wanted it always to be of a piece. 516 00:28:56,950 --> 00:28:59,080 Presenting the Breakthrough Award tonight, 517 00:28:59,170 --> 00:29:00,860 is his House of D director. 518 00:29:00,950 --> 00:29:02,870 Give it up for David Duchovny. 519 00:29:04,650 --> 00:29:06,570 I learned about integrity, artistic integrity, 520 00:29:06,650 --> 00:29:11,220 about, uh, artistic morality, if that, if that can be said. 521 00:29:11,310 --> 00:29:13,530 About, uh, honesty. 522 00:29:13,620 --> 00:29:16,310 And the only thing that I can fault him for, is that... 523 00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:18,230 You know, when he worked, uh, with Robin Williams, 524 00:29:18,320 --> 00:29:20,620 he would always call him, "Mr. Williams." 525 00:29:20,710 --> 00:29:22,490 And he called me "David." 526 00:29:23,630 --> 00:29:25,280 But, Anton, 527 00:29:25,370 --> 00:29:26,190 the luckiest thing and the best thing I ever did 528 00:29:26,280 --> 00:29:27,760 was put you on my movie. 529 00:29:27,850 --> 00:29:29,410 Come here and get this. 530 00:29:29,500 --> 00:29:31,110 Thank you, Mr. Duchovny. 531 00:29:31,630 --> 00:29:33,110 Um... 532 00:29:33,200 --> 00:29:35,070 It's, uh, it's, uh, really great to be here. 533 00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:38,730 I'm not really good at taking compliments, so... 534 00:29:38,820 --> 00:29:41,080 I'll try to make this as quick as possible. 535 00:29:41,170 --> 00:29:44,950 More than anything, um, my parents who are always like, 536 00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:47,820 you know, symbols of strength, and... 537 00:29:47,910 --> 00:29:49,390 for me, and have always showed me 538 00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:50,910 a lot of love and kindness 539 00:29:51,000 --> 00:29:52,920 since I was tiny, you know? Thank you. 540 00:29:53,870 --> 00:29:56,960 C. A. 541 00:29:57,830 --> 00:29:59,140 A. 542 00:30:09,150 --> 00:30:10,890 Dear Mamoola. 543 00:30:10,980 --> 00:30:12,760 You are my best friend, 544 00:30:12,850 --> 00:30:14,810 the closest person to me in the world, 545 00:30:14,900 --> 00:30:17,990 and the most amazing woman that I know. 546 00:30:18,070 --> 00:30:21,340 Your soul, through your beautiful eyes, shines. 547 00:30:21,420 --> 00:30:23,990 It does not matter whether you are laughing, or yelling, 548 00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:26,250 regardless of whether I am smart enough to show it, 549 00:30:26,340 --> 00:30:31,610 I always, always, always have so much respect for who you are, 550 00:30:31,690 --> 00:30:35,130 for how strong, smart, wonderful, talented, 551 00:30:35,220 --> 00:30:37,960 interesting, intelligent, and just how... 552 00:30:38,050 --> 00:30:39,750 your least favorite word, 553 00:30:39,830 --> 00:30:42,270 cool you are. 554 00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:46,800 Thank you for every hug, kiss, smile, and every bowl of soup. 555 00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:49,580 You are an extraordinary, charming woman, 556 00:30:49,670 --> 00:30:52,540 and you have an equally extraordinary husband, 557 00:30:52,630 --> 00:30:54,540 and a son that is your baby 558 00:30:55,500 --> 00:30:57,150 as long as he lives. 559 00:30:58,720 --> 00:31:00,900 Love, Antosha. 560 00:31:02,990 --> 00:31:04,770 I remember, like, I was, 561 00:31:04,860 --> 00:31:07,160 I was a little intimidated by Irina, just a little bit. 562 00:31:07,250 --> 00:31:08,990 We were maybe, like 11 or 12, 563 00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:11,730 and would be looking at something on the Internet, 564 00:31:11,820 --> 00:31:14,300 something inappropriate, or whatever, and then... 565 00:31:14,390 --> 00:31:17,170 you know, we would hear from downstairs like, "Antosha!" 566 00:31:18,520 --> 00:31:19,870 And he would yell back, "Shtoh?" 567 00:31:19,960 --> 00:31:22,180 You know, like, just like, "What?" 568 00:31:22,270 --> 00:31:23,750 You know, that's when our hormones 569 00:31:23,830 --> 00:31:25,310 just started kicking in. 570 00:31:25,400 --> 00:31:27,100 So, we were just totally girl-crazy, and like... 571 00:31:27,180 --> 00:31:29,840 The Internet was in its adolescence too. 572 00:31:29,930 --> 00:31:32,890 So it's just like girl-crazy, Internet... 573 00:31:33,890 --> 00:31:35,670 bad combo, you know? 574 00:31:36,450 --> 00:31:37,630 Good! 575 00:31:42,850 --> 00:31:46,070 I was 14 when I worked with him, 576 00:31:46,160 --> 00:31:48,510 but then, yeah, he and I were... 577 00:31:48,600 --> 00:31:51,820 really good friends for like two years. 578 00:31:51,910 --> 00:31:54,390 Um, and then he kind of, like, broke my heart. 579 00:31:58,350 --> 00:32:00,870 I was so kind of baffled by how good he was 580 00:32:00,960 --> 00:32:02,520 in working with him. 581 00:32:02,610 --> 00:32:03,790 Uh, and then, subsequently, 582 00:32:03,870 --> 00:32:05,570 just, I couldn't be around him, 583 00:32:05,660 --> 00:32:06,960 um, because he was, just like, made me like so nervous. 584 00:32:07,050 --> 00:32:09,230 But I literally think about, like, 585 00:32:09,310 --> 00:32:12,100 why I like some of the shit that I like. 586 00:32:12,190 --> 00:32:14,490 In that very brief period of time, 587 00:32:14,580 --> 00:32:16,230 at like 14, 15, 16, 588 00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:19,020 he kind of like shaped me in this way, and so... 589 00:32:19,110 --> 00:32:20,890 So, yeah, in full disclosure, fully, 590 00:32:20,980 --> 00:32:22,810 it was just like, weird to talk about with... 591 00:32:22,890 --> 00:32:24,370 anyone, because it was like this, 592 00:32:24,460 --> 00:32:27,240 kind of, like insulated, little thing and, uh... 593 00:32:27,330 --> 00:32:30,330 Yeah. Yeah, whatever, but... 594 00:32:30,420 --> 00:32:34,300 I missed you so much. 595 00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:39,130 Watch it, my ribs still hurt. 596 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:41,780 Does it hurt to kiss me? 597 00:32:41,870 --> 00:32:43,650 No, of course not. 598 00:32:43,740 --> 00:32:47,920 He intimidated me because he's so voracious, 599 00:32:48,000 --> 00:32:50,220 and I like, wanted to keep up with that. 600 00:32:50,310 --> 00:32:51,970 And wanted to listen to all the music 601 00:32:52,050 --> 00:32:53,840 that he fucking listened to, and I, like, wanted to, 602 00:32:53,920 --> 00:32:56,060 kind of absorb all of his interests, and all of his stuff. 603 00:32:56,140 --> 00:32:57,800 And by the way, when you're 14, 604 00:32:57,880 --> 00:32:59,360 and someone's like a year or two older than you, 605 00:32:59,450 --> 00:33:00,970 and you're like, "He's like a lot older than me!" 606 00:33:01,060 --> 00:33:03,150 Um, so, yeah, there was like that, and... 607 00:33:04,190 --> 00:33:07,240 he asked me once what my favorite book was, 608 00:33:07,330 --> 00:33:09,770 and I didn't really have one at the time. 609 00:33:09,850 --> 00:33:11,550 I was so horrified, 610 00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:13,900 I think it probably kick-started my own, like, self... 611 00:33:13,990 --> 00:33:15,730 I wanted to be better, smarter, cooler. 612 00:33:15,810 --> 00:33:18,080 I was just always like... But couldn't even hang with him. 613 00:33:18,950 --> 00:33:21,040 I think On the Road 614 00:33:21,120 --> 00:33:23,610 is really a novel about the savage passage of time, 615 00:33:23,690 --> 00:33:25,690 and how to approach that passage 616 00:33:25,780 --> 00:33:27,440 and the ultimately sad way it keeps going 617 00:33:27,520 --> 00:33:29,650 and leaves us all behind in its wake. 618 00:33:29,740 --> 00:33:31,440 Even Dean Moriarty, 619 00:33:31,530 --> 00:33:32,660 who always exists in the present. 620 00:33:32,740 --> 00:33:33,960 Gone, Dean Moriarty, 621 00:33:34,050 --> 00:33:36,050 who digs the world continually 622 00:33:36,140 --> 00:33:37,750 and loves every bit of it and moves on. 623 00:33:46,670 --> 00:33:48,720 ...you know, I'm worried about this thing." 624 00:33:56,550 --> 00:33:58,680 And I said, "Well, you know, baby, we... 625 00:34:00,210 --> 00:34:02,990 so you have to go and kill somebody else?" 626 00:34:03,080 --> 00:34:04,600 So he said, "Okay." 627 00:34:11,390 --> 00:34:13,130 "I wanna show you something." 628 00:34:13,220 --> 00:34:15,570 And I said, "What?" "Just don't freak out." 629 00:34:20,010 --> 00:34:21,230 Ah. 630 00:34:34,850 --> 00:34:36,460 ...telling what he feels. 631 00:34:56,260 --> 00:35:00,180 His associations were very well-tuned. 632 00:35:00,270 --> 00:35:02,700 He'd go farther than most people. 633 00:35:02,790 --> 00:35:04,840 He had this childlike... 634 00:35:06,140 --> 00:35:10,890 surprise and appetite for experience. 635 00:35:10,970 --> 00:35:12,320 He was always looking for... 636 00:35:12,410 --> 00:35:13,890 He was always looking under the hood. 637 00:35:15,980 --> 00:35:17,330 And numb... 638 00:35:27,860 --> 00:35:30,340 Do you know that we have a homework parties? 639 00:35:30,430 --> 00:35:31,690 What? 640 00:35:31,780 --> 00:35:33,390 Homework parties with little hats. 641 00:35:33,470 --> 00:35:34,870 No. 642 00:35:34,950 --> 00:35:36,430 - Yeah. - Like... 643 00:35:37,740 --> 00:35:39,180 - Yeah. - ...for birthdays? 644 00:35:39,260 --> 00:35:41,570 Yeah! Yeah! 645 00:35:41,660 --> 00:35:42,740 Another thing... 646 00:35:45,050 --> 00:35:46,660 I'll be sleeping, right? 647 00:35:48,450 --> 00:35:51,410 And she will wake me up by looking at me. 648 00:35:51,490 --> 00:35:53,670 Like, I'll open my eyes, 649 00:35:53,760 --> 00:35:56,190 and she'll be right there looking at me, like... 650 00:35:57,500 --> 00:35:59,280 You're lucky, you know that? 651 00:36:00,370 --> 00:36:01,680 Yeah, I know. 652 00:36:20,740 --> 00:36:21,740 ...what he had. 653 00:36:24,090 --> 00:36:27,660 My brain is now distinctly fucking jumbled, 654 00:36:27,750 --> 00:36:29,180 or not so much. 655 00:36:29,270 --> 00:36:30,970 Actually, not really. 656 00:36:31,050 --> 00:36:32,320 Not at all. 657 00:36:32,400 --> 00:36:33,880 The sun is still shining. 658 00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:39,840 He was a list man. 659 00:36:39,930 --> 00:36:41,370 He always had a list on him. 660 00:36:41,460 --> 00:36:43,980 He's like, "Mary! I'm so glad you're here. 661 00:36:44,070 --> 00:36:47,200 I have so many things I want to talk to you about." 662 00:36:47,290 --> 00:36:48,550 So we would just like get into 663 00:36:48,640 --> 00:36:50,810 these great conversations about... 664 00:36:50,900 --> 00:36:53,900 You know, how he could do things and still live his life. 665 00:37:15,360 --> 00:37:17,010 Numerous times a day, 666 00:37:17,100 --> 00:37:19,320 he'd have to be hooked up to a breathing machine 667 00:37:19,410 --> 00:37:21,500 that he'd, you know, would have to literally just, 668 00:37:21,580 --> 00:37:24,500 just pounce against his lungs and cough up mucus, 669 00:37:24,590 --> 00:37:27,330 and then have to go outside, and put on a smile, 670 00:37:27,410 --> 00:37:31,370 and through that, also wanted to keep that inside 671 00:37:31,460 --> 00:37:32,720 and not tell anyone. 672 00:37:34,510 --> 00:37:36,680 A call time is usually... 673 00:37:36,770 --> 00:37:38,120 bright and early. 674 00:37:38,210 --> 00:37:39,080 He had to do his breathing exercise 675 00:37:39,160 --> 00:37:40,780 like two hours before, 676 00:37:40,860 --> 00:37:42,730 just to get himself prepared to start the day. 677 00:37:44,430 --> 00:37:46,350 Nobody knew that but Anton. 678 00:37:46,430 --> 00:37:48,350 Nobody knew that. 679 00:37:48,440 --> 00:37:50,390 People are finding out right now, actually. 680 00:37:50,480 --> 00:37:52,310 You know? This is insane. 681 00:37:58,310 --> 00:38:00,530 Fatty, why are you doing this? 682 00:38:01,930 --> 00:38:04,230 Well, go on. Go on, tell us. 683 00:38:04,320 --> 00:38:06,710 Well, the Captain wants to know why. 684 00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:07,800 Well? 685 00:38:09,460 --> 00:38:11,810 Fatty, don't be such a pussy. 686 00:38:11,890 --> 00:38:14,370 I had arranged to meet with Anton. 687 00:38:14,460 --> 00:38:16,900 Or I think Irina drove him over and dropped him off 688 00:38:16,990 --> 00:38:18,770 and we sat down. 689 00:38:18,860 --> 00:38:21,860 And I said, "So, you know, what... 690 00:38:21,950 --> 00:38:23,730 Why do you wanna play Charlie Bartlett? 691 00:38:23,820 --> 00:38:27,080 What is it you like about the character or the movie?" 692 00:38:27,170 --> 00:38:28,520 And the first thing he said is, 693 00:38:28,610 --> 00:38:30,910 "I like how honest he is, 694 00:38:31,000 --> 00:38:32,440 and... 695 00:38:32,520 --> 00:38:36,000 how he wants to do things for his friends. 696 00:38:36,090 --> 00:38:37,830 He wants to take care of people." 697 00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:41,010 Great fucking time on my birthday. 698 00:38:41,100 --> 00:38:42,710 It is going to be a great... 699 00:38:42,790 --> 00:38:44,970 I can't even fucking see behind your fucking head, 700 00:38:45,060 --> 00:38:46,360 you fucking hippie. 701 00:38:47,320 --> 00:38:49,840 Marlon, I love you, dude. 702 00:38:49,930 --> 00:38:51,060 Guys, give me it. 703 00:38:51,150 --> 00:38:52,410 You motherfucking fucks. 704 00:38:52,500 --> 00:38:54,590 I have a small growth 705 00:38:54,680 --> 00:38:56,150 on one of the ventricles of my brain. 706 00:38:56,240 --> 00:38:59,420 To date, I've had four brain surgeries. 707 00:38:59,510 --> 00:39:02,120 Anton was one of the very, very few people 708 00:39:02,200 --> 00:39:03,640 that knew that about me. 709 00:39:03,730 --> 00:39:05,730 He would always be very concerned. 710 00:39:05,820 --> 00:39:08,430 He knew instantly when things weren't right. 711 00:39:08,520 --> 00:39:11,610 Because of him, and because of our friendship 712 00:39:11,690 --> 00:39:14,830 that I was able to be a bit more 713 00:39:14,910 --> 00:39:17,920 accepting of the circumstances I was in. 714 00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:20,700 If you can explain what you're doing. 715 00:39:20,790 --> 00:39:22,180 Or better yet, why you're doing it, 716 00:39:22,270 --> 00:39:24,230 that would be a good start. 717 00:39:24,310 --> 00:39:26,490 Look, I'm helping these kids, okay? 718 00:39:26,580 --> 00:39:28,840 Nobody else is listening to them. 719 00:39:28,930 --> 00:39:31,060 Charlie could be the loneliest of people, 720 00:39:31,150 --> 00:39:33,150 but he chooses not to be. 721 00:39:33,240 --> 00:39:34,980 It's the intelligence of his decisions, 722 00:39:35,060 --> 00:39:36,590 and as a result, his responsibilities 723 00:39:36,670 --> 00:39:38,410 and the consequence of these 724 00:39:38,500 --> 00:39:40,460 that shape his character. 725 00:39:40,550 --> 00:39:43,070 He was always kind of observing people 726 00:39:43,160 --> 00:39:44,460 and their behavior, 727 00:39:44,550 --> 00:39:46,470 and he took that into his work a lot too, 728 00:39:46,550 --> 00:39:48,950 as he would be able to take different characters. 729 00:39:49,030 --> 00:39:50,560 And he loved stories. 730 00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:52,650 He loved human stories. 731 00:39:52,730 --> 00:39:54,470 Charlie is an optimist. 732 00:39:54,560 --> 00:39:56,820 People are depending on him. 733 00:39:56,910 --> 00:39:59,000 He had so much love for... 734 00:39:59,090 --> 00:40:01,740 the people that were close to him in his life. 735 00:40:01,830 --> 00:40:04,660 I lost my dad when I was 13, and, you know... 736 00:40:04,750 --> 00:40:06,310 He always reminded me that 737 00:40:06,400 --> 00:40:08,310 he was like, there for me, you know? 738 00:40:08,400 --> 00:40:11,490 He opened up to me about his CF, 739 00:40:11,580 --> 00:40:14,450 and he had known that I had an autoimmune disease 740 00:40:14,540 --> 00:40:16,450 and that, you know, it had been, you know, 741 00:40:16,540 --> 00:40:19,500 pretty significant and caused a lot of problems in my life. 742 00:40:19,590 --> 00:40:22,810 The funny thing is, like, I would use my disease to like, 743 00:40:22,890 --> 00:40:24,680 you know, to help me out, occasionally, 744 00:40:24,770 --> 00:40:26,810 like to bail me out of things. 745 00:40:26,900 --> 00:40:31,510 And this guy was so selfless, that he like... 746 00:40:31,600 --> 00:40:35,860 You know, was able to keep such a serious thing secret. 747 00:40:35,950 --> 00:40:37,780 Anton was great at what he did, 748 00:40:37,870 --> 00:40:41,220 but he was kind of worried that because of his condition, 749 00:40:41,300 --> 00:40:43,440 he maybe, wouldn't be able to work. 750 00:40:47,920 --> 00:40:50,490 And now, you're not gonna get away from this interview 751 00:40:50,570 --> 00:40:52,360 without my asking you about Star Trek. 752 00:40:52,450 --> 00:40:53,660 - And I'm sorry. - Right. 753 00:40:53,750 --> 00:40:55,400 - I apologize right now. - Right. 754 00:40:55,490 --> 00:40:57,410 - It's part of the deal. - Of course. 755 00:40:57,490 --> 00:40:58,760 You're in the new Star Trek movie. 756 00:40:58,840 --> 00:41:00,150 - Right. - Directed by J.J. Abrams. 757 00:41:00,240 --> 00:41:01,540 The whole world is curious about it, 758 00:41:01,630 --> 00:41:02,890 - Right. - And that includes me. 759 00:41:02,980 --> 00:41:04,020 - Right. - So... 760 00:41:04,110 --> 00:41:05,150 You're playing the young Chekov? 761 00:41:05,240 --> 00:41:07,020 Right, Pavel Chekov, right. 762 00:41:09,810 --> 00:41:12,420 On the, uh, first Star Trek, 763 00:41:12,510 --> 00:41:14,730 we said we wanted to clone little Antons 764 00:41:14,820 --> 00:41:16,560 and give them away as wrap gifts. 765 00:41:16,640 --> 00:41:20,560 Just tiny pet Antons that every... 766 00:41:20,650 --> 00:41:22,560 I think it was just the kind of joy 767 00:41:22,650 --> 00:41:24,560 and the kind of happiness and optimism 768 00:41:24,650 --> 00:41:26,570 he sort of encapsulates, and... 769 00:41:26,650 --> 00:41:28,350 Of course, you know, the fun of playing around 770 00:41:28,440 --> 00:41:30,090 with that great accent. 771 00:41:30,180 --> 00:41:34,270 The character of Chekov in Star Trek 772 00:41:34,360 --> 00:41:36,490 speaks a kind of Russian... 773 00:41:37,190 --> 00:41:38,840 that doesn't really exist. 774 00:41:38,930 --> 00:41:41,490 They're creating a singularity 775 00:41:41,580 --> 00:41:43,580 that will consume the planet. 776 00:41:43,670 --> 00:41:45,500 And, uh... 777 00:41:45,590 --> 00:41:47,760 It was actually really hard for Anton 778 00:41:47,850 --> 00:41:51,290 at the beginning to speak Russian badly. 779 00:41:56,510 --> 00:41:57,640 He couldn't. 780 00:42:05,040 --> 00:42:06,820 When he was business, he would say, "Mom. 781 00:42:06,910 --> 00:42:08,480 Mom, your accent is not good for this. 782 00:42:08,560 --> 00:42:10,040 I need Grandpa's accent." 783 00:42:10,130 --> 00:42:11,790 - Excuse me, Captain Kirk. - Yes. 784 00:42:11,870 --> 00:42:13,700 - Sorry, sir. - Mr. Chekov, what is it? 785 00:42:13,790 --> 00:42:15,830 Based on the Narada's course from Vulcan... 786 00:42:17,490 --> 00:42:19,140 I remember being with him on set 787 00:42:19,230 --> 00:42:22,540 and doing a classic J.J. Abrams sort of 19-hour day, 788 00:42:22,620 --> 00:42:24,280 and, um... 789 00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:25,670 He looked so tired. 790 00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:27,710 I remember he was trying to say this, uh, 791 00:42:27,800 --> 00:42:29,540 very complicated speech 792 00:42:29,630 --> 00:42:32,590 about dropping out of warp and hiding behind Saturn, 793 00:42:32,680 --> 00:42:34,630 and his little eyes were so sort of red. 794 00:42:34,720 --> 00:42:38,330 He never looked younger to me than on that day. 795 00:42:38,420 --> 00:42:39,680 If we adjust our shield frequencies, 796 00:42:39,770 --> 00:42:41,080 we should not be detected. 797 00:42:41,160 --> 00:42:42,600 Wait a minute, kid, how old are you? 798 00:42:42,690 --> 00:42:43,770 Seventeen, sir! 799 00:42:43,860 --> 00:42:45,470 I can certainly say, 800 00:42:45,560 --> 00:42:47,650 for the group of people that got to work with him, 801 00:42:47,730 --> 00:42:50,210 he might have been the youngest person on camera, 802 00:42:50,300 --> 00:42:54,000 but he was, I think, the person that sort of quietly, 803 00:42:54,090 --> 00:42:56,050 without even realizing it, I think, 804 00:42:56,130 --> 00:42:59,660 you know, challenging all of us to be as good as he was. 805 00:43:00,830 --> 00:43:02,750 It's an interesting line to follow, 806 00:43:02,840 --> 00:43:04,790 because you pick and choose, 807 00:43:04,880 --> 00:43:07,140 and you see what you can bring that's your own. 808 00:43:07,230 --> 00:43:09,280 And then I met with Walter Koenig, 809 00:43:09,360 --> 00:43:11,370 and we had this talk. And he said, you know, 810 00:43:11,450 --> 00:43:13,320 "Looks like you guys 811 00:43:13,410 --> 00:43:14,890 are being really smart about this, 812 00:43:14,980 --> 00:43:16,680 and doing your own thing and yet, 813 00:43:16,680 --> 00:43:18,160 you know, I see traces of myself in what you're doing." 814 00:43:18,240 --> 00:43:20,240 And it was really... 815 00:43:20,330 --> 00:43:22,160 It was really great for me to hear that, 816 00:43:22,250 --> 00:43:24,680 because I was so nervous about meeting him. 817 00:43:24,770 --> 00:43:26,950 And, and he seemed so pleased. 818 00:43:29,300 --> 00:43:32,690 Here we are, we're all coming together 819 00:43:32,780 --> 00:43:35,040 to revamp this old franchise 820 00:43:35,130 --> 00:43:38,520 that had moved people for so long. 821 00:43:38,610 --> 00:43:40,440 And Anton was the youngest one in the cast. 822 00:43:40,530 --> 00:43:43,400 And his angle about like, "Oh, we have to do this right, 823 00:43:43,490 --> 00:43:45,230 and if not, people will be unhappy. 824 00:43:45,310 --> 00:43:47,880 We're talking about peace, it was about friendship, 825 00:43:47,970 --> 00:43:49,580 it was about ending war." 826 00:43:49,670 --> 00:43:51,150 And I remember thinking, 827 00:43:51,230 --> 00:43:53,970 "My god, this kid is so deep. 828 00:43:54,060 --> 00:43:57,240 I got to get... I got to get myself in shape." 829 00:43:59,370 --> 00:44:02,460 I play guitar and Anton played incredible guitar. 830 00:44:02,550 --> 00:44:03,940 And so... 831 00:44:04,030 --> 00:44:05,120 You know, we had inevitably kind of 832 00:44:05,200 --> 00:44:06,420 bring our guitars to the set, 833 00:44:06,510 --> 00:44:08,030 tool around, and, 834 00:44:08,120 --> 00:44:10,950 Anton, in all of his frustrating humility. 835 00:44:11,030 --> 00:44:14,300 He never wanted to pat himself on the back, it seemed like... 836 00:44:15,870 --> 00:44:17,210 He would say, "Well, I don't really know, 837 00:44:17,300 --> 00:44:18,780 you know, I don't play all that much." 838 00:44:18,870 --> 00:44:20,260 And then he would like whip out some like 839 00:44:20,350 --> 00:44:22,260 Mississippi John Hurt or something, 840 00:44:22,350 --> 00:44:24,000 that was just like, 841 00:44:24,090 --> 00:44:24,830 "Oh, I've just been playing this for a little bit." 842 00:44:27,310 --> 00:44:29,360 I remember getting into this very heated debate 843 00:44:29,440 --> 00:44:32,750 about the merits of Bob Dylan versus Simon and Garfunkel. 844 00:44:32,840 --> 00:44:35,280 And he couldn't believe... 845 00:44:35,360 --> 00:44:38,500 that I preferred Simon and Garfunkel to Bob Dylan. 846 00:44:38,580 --> 00:44:39,890 And I just remember being like, 847 00:44:39,980 --> 00:44:40,850 "I can't believe I'm having this argument 848 00:44:40,930 --> 00:44:41,940 with a 17-year-old kid." 849 00:44:42,020 --> 00:44:43,760 You know what I mean? Like... 850 00:44:43,850 --> 00:44:45,240 I've been around the block, kid, like, 851 00:44:45,330 --> 00:44:46,850 I love Simon and Garfunkel, you know. 852 00:44:46,940 --> 00:44:49,070 But he really made me question my relationship 853 00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:52,770 to these musicians who I've loved all my life. 854 00:44:52,860 --> 00:44:54,950 He really knew what he was talking about, 855 00:44:55,040 --> 00:44:56,730 no matter what it was, you know? 856 00:44:56,820 --> 00:44:58,300 And, uh... 857 00:44:58,390 --> 00:45:00,390 And there was some real beauty in that. 858 00:45:01,870 --> 00:45:03,830 We went back to, uh... 859 00:45:03,910 --> 00:45:06,090 We had some, you know, uh, shooting on set, 860 00:45:06,180 --> 00:45:08,140 and then going back to the trailers. 861 00:45:08,220 --> 00:45:10,010 And I said, "You want to come and jam?" 862 00:45:10,090 --> 00:45:12,920 He's like, "No, I got to go back to, uh..." 863 00:45:13,010 --> 00:45:15,490 It turns out, he's translating this Russian novel. 864 00:45:15,580 --> 00:45:16,800 That's like this big, 865 00:45:16,880 --> 00:45:19,150 a Russian philosophy tract. 866 00:45:19,230 --> 00:45:22,500 And he's like making notes on this thing 867 00:45:22,580 --> 00:45:24,590 and translating it at the same time. 868 00:45:24,670 --> 00:45:27,240 He's, mind you, 17 years old. 869 00:45:31,590 --> 00:45:33,030 It was so funny. 870 00:45:33,120 --> 00:45:34,640 He didn't consider himself a musician, 871 00:45:34,730 --> 00:45:36,640 and he didn't consider himself a singer, 872 00:45:36,730 --> 00:45:39,170 and he was a damn great musician. 873 00:45:39,250 --> 00:45:41,780 But he was a little bit, I think, self-conscious. 874 00:45:41,860 --> 00:45:45,170 He always wanted to be the best at what he did. 875 00:45:45,260 --> 00:45:46,300 Look, um, this is Ryan. 876 00:45:46,390 --> 00:45:47,780 This is Dave, I'm Anton. 877 00:45:51,530 --> 00:45:52,960 We're the Hammerheads. 878 00:45:53,050 --> 00:45:56,100 Whoo! 879 00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:58,530 I love your face! 880 00:45:58,620 --> 00:45:59,800 Yeah! 881 00:46:01,490 --> 00:46:02,760 All right. 882 00:46:13,290 --> 00:46:18,160 ♪ I got a woman With a golden touch ♪ 883 00:46:18,250 --> 00:46:19,730 ♪ Sittin' on a couch ♪ 884 00:46:19,820 --> 00:46:23,730 ♪ She don't talk too much ♪ 885 00:46:23,820 --> 00:46:26,170 - ♪ Does she love me? ♪ - ♪ Does she love me? ♪ 886 00:46:26,260 --> 00:46:27,210 - ♪ No, she loves me ♪ - ♪ No, she loves me ♪ 887 00:46:29,740 --> 00:46:32,090 - ♪ Does she love me? ♪ - ♪ Does she love me? ♪ 888 00:46:32,180 --> 00:46:32,520 - ♪ No, she loves me ♪ - ♪ No, she loves me ♪ 889 00:46:34,740 --> 00:46:36,530 ♪ I got a woman... ♪ 890 00:46:36,610 --> 00:46:40,100 Who he was as an artist was so far beyond acting. 891 00:46:40,180 --> 00:46:42,880 Because he could, like, do everything. 892 00:46:42,970 --> 00:46:44,840 If he didn't have the countenance that he did, 893 00:46:44,930 --> 00:46:46,410 he would have been intimidating. 894 00:46:46,490 --> 00:46:49,500 But he didn't wield his power that way. 895 00:46:49,580 --> 00:46:51,110 He brought everyone in 896 00:46:51,190 --> 00:46:53,890 and shared everything that he learned, 897 00:46:53,980 --> 00:46:55,500 and that he was interested in. 898 00:46:55,590 --> 00:46:58,850 ♪ I got a woman... ♪ 899 00:46:58,940 --> 00:47:00,680 You know, big movies, 900 00:47:00,770 --> 00:47:02,470 they're just a very different beast. 901 00:47:02,550 --> 00:47:04,340 There's... It's like, it's very different. 902 00:47:04,430 --> 00:47:06,470 I think for me, your job, at least the way I approach it, 903 00:47:06,560 --> 00:47:07,730 is essentially the same. 904 00:47:07,820 --> 00:47:09,600 Like you try to find... 905 00:47:09,690 --> 00:47:11,390 whatever you want to create 906 00:47:11,480 --> 00:47:13,170 and how to be creative 907 00:47:13,260 --> 00:47:15,440 with this much honesty, as you can 908 00:47:15,520 --> 00:47:17,220 because there will be, you know, self-aware films 909 00:47:17,310 --> 00:47:18,870 that maybe call for a different form of performance. 910 00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:24,790 Aside from all the things he was reading for work, 911 00:47:24,880 --> 00:47:26,930 to studying old movies, 912 00:47:27,010 --> 00:47:29,620 he started playing with us regularly, 913 00:47:29,710 --> 00:47:31,890 whenever he was in town. 914 00:47:31,970 --> 00:47:35,020 I mean the guy, he loved expressing himself, 915 00:47:35,110 --> 00:47:37,590 but he always felt like he needed to work harder. 916 00:47:39,200 --> 00:47:43,590 We would play a midnight show at The Viper Room on Sundays. 917 00:47:43,680 --> 00:47:46,250 And it would be from, like, 11:00 p.m. to 1:00 a.m. 918 00:47:46,340 --> 00:47:48,470 And we wouldn't necessarily invite anybody, 919 00:47:48,560 --> 00:47:49,560 we just did it. 920 00:47:50,950 --> 00:47:51,950 It was just another creative outlet 921 00:47:52,040 --> 00:47:54,170 that he could do. 922 00:47:54,260 --> 00:47:56,910 First time with insomnia and jet lag. 923 00:47:57,000 --> 00:47:58,610 Probably jerking off too much. 924 00:47:59,650 --> 00:48:01,530 I'm gonna have to jump up 925 00:48:01,610 --> 00:48:02,960 and perform some tricks in a couple hours, 926 00:48:03,050 --> 00:48:05,090 but can barely keep my head on, 927 00:48:05,180 --> 00:48:07,840 my legs from twitching, and my head from cramping. 928 00:48:07,920 --> 00:48:09,750 It always amazed me 929 00:48:09,840 --> 00:48:12,230 how he was able to find time to take care of his own health. 930 00:48:13,580 --> 00:48:14,580 He would say, 931 00:48:14,670 --> 00:48:16,020 "It's what I love, 932 00:48:16,110 --> 00:48:17,980 and I'm not going to let CF stop me 933 00:48:18,060 --> 00:48:19,540 from doing what I love." 934 00:48:25,420 --> 00:48:28,940 ...build muscles and be stronger than he was. 935 00:48:29,030 --> 00:48:31,560 I mean, his abs, they almost clanked. 936 00:48:31,640 --> 00:48:33,860 It was like a conquistador's... 937 00:48:33,950 --> 00:48:35,950 suit of armor under there. 938 00:48:36,040 --> 00:48:37,340 And then he'd take his shirt off, 939 00:48:37,430 --> 00:48:38,910 and he was like, this jacked little dude. 940 00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:40,520 And you're like, "What? Where has that been?" 941 00:48:40,610 --> 00:48:42,830 And he's like, "Just from coughing so much." 942 00:48:42,920 --> 00:48:44,180 I was like, "Oh, probably." 943 00:48:49,360 --> 00:48:51,010 Have you completely lost your mind? 944 00:48:51,100 --> 00:48:52,190 Well, I know it seems a bit crazy, but... 945 00:48:52,270 --> 00:48:53,750 I'm not talking to you, nutjob, 946 00:48:53,840 --> 00:48:56,020 I'm talking to Mom. 947 00:48:56,100 --> 00:48:58,500 It takes you years to get him out of here, 948 00:48:58,580 --> 00:49:00,500 and you let him come back the next night 949 00:49:00,580 --> 00:49:02,110 with a talking hamster? 950 00:49:05,630 --> 00:49:07,330 He did a lot of thinking and a lot of writing. 951 00:49:07,420 --> 00:49:09,070 And sometimes, his thinking got in his way, 952 00:49:09,160 --> 00:49:10,640 you know? He was... 953 00:49:10,730 --> 00:49:12,160 It was almost like his brain was too big, 954 00:49:12,250 --> 00:49:14,290 and he couldn't contain all of his ideas. 955 00:49:22,000 --> 00:49:23,690 That excitement, that kind of youth, 956 00:49:23,780 --> 00:49:26,050 and, and all of that was really what led me to believe 957 00:49:26,130 --> 00:49:28,000 that someday, he would... 958 00:49:28,090 --> 00:49:29,920 he would have to express it some other way besides acting, 959 00:49:30,010 --> 00:49:32,140 because he really was... 960 00:49:32,230 --> 00:49:34,580 I wouldn't... I don't know if I'd say he was an intellectual, 961 00:49:34,660 --> 00:49:37,580 but I think that he really loved the play of the mind. 962 00:49:37,670 --> 00:49:39,010 And... 963 00:49:39,100 --> 00:49:41,020 he had to put some of that to bed 964 00:49:41,100 --> 00:49:42,710 in order to be an actor. 965 00:49:42,800 --> 00:49:44,450 Don't... don't go too far to the left of the box, 966 00:49:44,540 --> 00:49:46,020 - like this way? - Right. 967 00:49:46,110 --> 00:49:47,940 - And go right. - So stay where the box... 968 00:49:48,020 --> 00:49:49,890 I tend to be interested by... 969 00:49:49,980 --> 00:49:51,940 either the philosophy behind the filmmaking, 970 00:49:52,030 --> 00:49:54,200 the philosophy of the film itself, 971 00:49:54,290 --> 00:49:55,990 who the director is. 972 00:49:56,080 --> 00:49:58,430 We was afraid we was gonna have to start without you. 973 00:49:58,510 --> 00:50:00,430 But also, sometimes, you read something, you go, 974 00:50:00,510 --> 00:50:01,780 "Well, I don't know how I feel about this as a whole, 975 00:50:01,860 --> 00:50:03,690 but I love this character. 976 00:50:03,780 --> 00:50:05,780 I think this might make something interesting." 977 00:50:07,350 --> 00:50:09,390 I got to know Anton where he was... 978 00:50:10,830 --> 00:50:13,050 he was kind of on his own for the first time. 979 00:50:13,140 --> 00:50:15,620 But he was still really attached to his parents, 980 00:50:15,700 --> 00:50:17,140 really attached to his mother. 981 00:50:20,840 --> 00:50:22,190 I used to be... 982 00:50:22,280 --> 00:50:24,020 so kind of jealous of that. 983 00:50:24,100 --> 00:50:25,970 We just hadn't talked about... 984 00:50:26,060 --> 00:50:27,540 parents, because we were just teenagers. 985 00:50:27,630 --> 00:50:28,930 We were just hanging out, 986 00:50:29,020 --> 00:50:30,330 we didn't talk about our parents. 987 00:50:30,410 --> 00:50:31,760 And then his mom was coming into town 988 00:50:31,850 --> 00:50:33,240 and he was so excited. And I was like, 989 00:50:33,330 --> 00:50:34,940 "Are you seriously excited your mom is coming?" 990 00:50:36,590 --> 00:50:39,070 I start getting like, a pre-migraine... 991 00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:40,550 when my mother is coming into town. 992 00:50:40,640 --> 00:50:41,950 I love her, but... 993 00:50:42,030 --> 00:50:43,340 I need you to write me something. 994 00:50:44,910 --> 00:50:46,520 We were in the gymnasium, 995 00:50:46,600 --> 00:50:48,260 and I was like, yelling at him about 996 00:50:48,340 --> 00:50:49,870 trying to get him to, you know, do something. 997 00:50:49,950 --> 00:50:51,650 And, um, he was like, 998 00:50:51,740 --> 00:50:52,960 "I kept trying to find different ways to say that line. 999 00:50:53,050 --> 00:50:54,390 I just feel like I didn't find it." 1000 00:50:54,480 --> 00:50:56,140 And I was like, 1001 00:50:56,220 --> 00:50:57,480 "Really? I just find like, one way of saying it, 1002 00:50:57,570 --> 00:50:58,920 and that's just what I stick to." 1003 00:50:59,010 --> 00:51:00,010 And he was like, "Yeah, I noticed that." 1004 00:51:01,710 --> 00:51:03,400 - Yeah, exactly! - Holla! 1005 00:51:03,490 --> 00:51:05,100 He did make me start thinking about that, 1006 00:51:05,190 --> 00:51:06,880 because I didn't really know how to act. 1007 00:51:06,970 --> 00:51:08,970 So, I guess I'll just keep doing the same exact thing. 1008 00:51:09,060 --> 00:51:10,150 And it wasn't until we had that conversation 1009 00:51:10,240 --> 00:51:11,890 that I was like, 1010 00:51:11,980 --> 00:51:13,150 "Are you supposed to find different ways of..." 1011 00:51:13,240 --> 00:51:15,500 it just seemed so basic. 1012 00:51:15,590 --> 00:51:19,550 And then that opened me up to a whole new world of pleasure 1013 00:51:19,640 --> 00:51:21,120 in, uh, in my work. 1014 00:51:23,250 --> 00:51:24,510 You're actually 22? 1015 00:51:24,600 --> 00:51:26,030 I am. I am, yeah. 1016 00:51:26,120 --> 00:51:27,380 So, that's actually kind of shocking. 1017 00:51:27,470 --> 00:51:28,910 You know, because you've done so-- 1018 00:51:28,990 --> 00:51:30,260 I mean, we're talking about this year, 1019 00:51:30,340 --> 00:51:31,780 but really, the last number of years... 1020 00:51:31,870 --> 00:51:33,610 - Yeah. - You've done so much. 1021 00:51:33,690 --> 00:51:34,960 Yeah. 1022 00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:38,050 ♪ My girl, my girl ♪ 1023 00:51:38,130 --> 00:51:41,350 ♪ Don't lie to me ♪ 1024 00:51:41,440 --> 00:51:44,570 ♪ Tell me where did you sleep ♪ 1025 00:51:44,660 --> 00:51:46,710 ♪ Last night ♪ 1026 00:51:46,790 --> 00:51:49,540 He started doing these photoshoots in The Valley. 1027 00:51:49,620 --> 00:51:51,670 And the first time I saw his photography, 1028 00:51:51,760 --> 00:51:53,630 I knew that he was shooting on the side. 1029 00:51:53,710 --> 00:51:56,060 I mean, he was the kind of guy that did everything on the side. 1030 00:51:56,150 --> 00:51:58,370 And, um, they were something special. 1031 00:51:59,940 --> 00:52:03,200 ♪ My girl, my girl ♪ 1032 00:52:03,290 --> 00:52:04,990 Donald was one of his main, like, 1033 00:52:05,070 --> 00:52:06,680 characters that he used to shoot. 1034 00:52:06,770 --> 00:52:08,120 This guy... 1035 00:52:08,210 --> 00:52:09,860 I think he found him on Craigslist. 1036 00:52:09,950 --> 00:52:11,470 I think he found most of these people on Craigslist, 1037 00:52:11,560 --> 00:52:12,560 that he shot. 1038 00:52:13,910 --> 00:52:15,260 He had started to live 1039 00:52:15,340 --> 00:52:17,170 a sort of adult life when he was... 1040 00:52:17,260 --> 00:52:18,960 he was into his, sort of, photography, and his lurking. 1041 00:52:19,040 --> 00:52:20,870 He used to call it "lurking." 1042 00:52:20,960 --> 00:52:22,440 I used to love listening to... He told me these stories. 1043 00:52:22,530 --> 00:52:24,570 You know, I was so... his senior, 1044 00:52:24,660 --> 00:52:26,050 and yet, I would be listening to him 1045 00:52:26,140 --> 00:52:27,660 like a little kid wrapped up in his 1046 00:52:27,750 --> 00:52:30,840 sordid tales of the dark side of LA, you know? 1047 00:52:32,970 --> 00:52:35,020 We were known as The Lurkers, 1048 00:52:35,100 --> 00:52:36,670 because we would always be in these places 1049 00:52:36,760 --> 00:52:38,800 that we really shouldn't have been, you know? 1050 00:52:38,890 --> 00:52:43,890 He was generally interested in all types of people, 1051 00:52:43,980 --> 00:52:45,680 and wanted to know their stories. 1052 00:52:47,030 --> 00:52:50,120 There's the Anton that looks like a little kid 1053 00:52:50,210 --> 00:52:52,430 and was perpetually baby-faced. 1054 00:52:52,510 --> 00:52:54,950 And then there's a guy going to a fucking sex club 1055 00:52:55,040 --> 00:52:56,520 in Van Nuys, 1056 00:52:56,600 --> 00:52:59,080 and doing these really weird photoshoots 1057 00:52:59,170 --> 00:53:00,690 all the time 1058 00:53:00,780 --> 00:53:02,260 with the weird... 1059 00:53:02,350 --> 00:53:05,260 alter ego named Luis Carneros. 1060 00:53:05,350 --> 00:53:07,960 And if you want to see some weird shit... 1061 00:53:09,530 --> 00:53:10,660 I mean... 1062 00:53:12,230 --> 00:53:14,190 certain images, I can't get out of my mind. 1063 00:53:18,230 --> 00:53:21,410 Chris Pine would show up and say, 1064 00:53:21,500 --> 00:53:24,070 you know, "Do you know what Anton did this weekend?" 1065 00:53:24,150 --> 00:53:25,810 And he would, like, tell me some story. 1066 00:53:25,890 --> 00:53:28,240 And for Chris Pine to be freaked out about what Anton did 1067 00:53:28,330 --> 00:53:29,550 means it was out there. 1068 00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:33,380 The elegant, and the crude, 1069 00:53:33,470 --> 00:53:35,560 and the carnal, and the intellectual, 1070 00:53:35,640 --> 00:53:38,120 all just kind of folded into the beauty. 1071 00:53:38,210 --> 00:53:39,690 He didn't ever separate it. 1072 00:53:39,780 --> 00:53:41,820 It was art. Art was life. Life was art. 1073 00:53:43,480 --> 00:53:46,000 And that's the thing too, girls loved Anton. 1074 00:53:46,090 --> 00:53:48,310 Women loved Anton. 1075 00:53:48,390 --> 00:53:51,310 I mean, and Anton loved women, but, uh... 1076 00:53:51,400 --> 00:53:53,310 Maybe it's that close connection with Irina. 1077 00:53:56,100 --> 00:53:58,400 ♪ I knock a little harder ♪ 1078 00:53:58,490 --> 00:54:02,320 ♪ Till my face starts looking Like it might as ♪ 1079 00:54:02,410 --> 00:54:04,670 ♪ What the heck... ♪ 1080 00:54:07,410 --> 00:54:09,330 I found two things there. 1081 00:54:09,420 --> 00:54:10,940 A parking ticket... 1082 00:54:12,370 --> 00:54:13,640 and condoms. 1083 00:54:15,460 --> 00:54:16,940 And I keep it there. 1084 00:54:20,080 --> 00:54:23,040 There was the time he was sitting next to, um, 1085 00:54:23,120 --> 00:54:24,690 Cindy Crawford on a plane. 1086 00:54:24,780 --> 00:54:26,260 And she was sitting in the window, 1087 00:54:26,350 --> 00:54:28,220 and he was sitting in the aisle, 1088 00:54:28,300 --> 00:54:29,650 and he was like, "Just so you know, 1089 00:54:29,740 --> 00:54:31,050 I'm gonna go to sleep." And she said, 1090 00:54:31,130 --> 00:54:32,610 "It's okay, I have really long legs, 1091 00:54:32,700 --> 00:54:35,220 so I can just step over you." 1092 00:54:35,310 --> 00:54:36,960 He said he jerked off to it for a week. 1093 00:54:40,140 --> 00:54:42,270 Anton was a little dirtbird. 1094 00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:45,060 You know? He was a naughty boy. 1095 00:54:45,150 --> 00:54:48,150 And there was no reason why he shouldn't be a naughty boy. 1096 00:54:48,240 --> 00:54:50,280 I envied his naughtiness, in a way. 1097 00:55:02,730 --> 00:55:04,170 That was him, all the time being, 1098 00:55:04,250 --> 00:55:05,560 "Look at this, look at here. 1099 00:55:05,650 --> 00:55:06,520 Did you see her? What are they doing? 1100 00:55:06,600 --> 00:55:08,040 Deep in The Valley. 1101 00:55:08,130 --> 00:55:09,170 You wouldn't believe what I was doing. 1102 00:55:09,260 --> 00:55:10,780 Deep in The Valley last night!" 1103 00:55:12,390 --> 00:55:13,780 And like... 1104 00:55:13,870 --> 00:55:16,570 Tell me, man, show me the pictures! 1105 00:55:16,660 --> 00:55:18,010 Show me the pictures. 1106 00:55:19,490 --> 00:55:21,310 It was very difficult 1107 00:55:21,400 --> 00:55:22,750 to even be with him 1108 00:55:22,840 --> 00:55:24,450 when you were trying to get girls, 1109 00:55:24,530 --> 00:55:27,450 because the second they saw him, it was game over. 1110 00:55:27,540 --> 00:55:29,580 My girl was gone instantly. 1111 00:55:29,670 --> 00:55:31,190 And he was a nice guy, though, you know. 1112 00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:32,890 He was always the guy that would be like, 1113 00:55:32,980 --> 00:55:34,540 "Oh, no, no." Like... 1114 00:55:34,630 --> 00:55:37,330 "Luke, no, come." Like, "Join with us!" You know? 1115 00:55:37,420 --> 00:55:38,940 Like, you know? I was like, "No, no, it's cool." 1116 00:55:39,030 --> 00:55:41,770 Like, "I lost out again, it's cool." You know? 1117 00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:45,210 We met at Subway. 1118 00:55:45,290 --> 00:55:48,600 And we sat for like three hours, just talking. 1119 00:55:48,690 --> 00:55:50,300 It kind of went from zero to a hundred, 1120 00:55:50,390 --> 00:55:53,000 and stayed there for a long time. 1121 00:56:06,580 --> 00:56:08,580 Very serious for both of us, 1122 00:56:08,660 --> 00:56:10,360 and pretty much broke up, 1123 00:56:10,450 --> 00:56:13,410 because we were just too young, unfortunately. 1124 00:56:14,540 --> 00:56:16,410 He hit me up after he had 1125 00:56:16,500 --> 00:56:17,980 had his heart broken. And was like, 1126 00:56:18,070 --> 00:56:19,410 "Hey, can we like talk? I just, 1127 00:56:19,500 --> 00:56:21,200 I just kind of figured out 1128 00:56:21,290 --> 00:56:23,110 like what that actually feels like, and I'm so sorry." 1129 00:56:23,200 --> 00:56:25,160 And I was like, "Dude, I'm... It's fine, like, whatever. 1130 00:56:25,250 --> 00:56:26,990 Like, literally, we were tiny children." 1131 00:56:27,070 --> 00:56:28,550 But, um... 1132 00:56:28,640 --> 00:56:29,990 for someone to call someone and be like, 1133 00:56:30,080 --> 00:56:31,560 "Hey, that thing that you went through, 1134 00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:34,910 I had no idea, but now I do, and I'm so sorry." 1135 00:56:35,000 --> 00:56:36,780 I was like, "Dude, it's fine, like..." 1136 00:56:38,260 --> 00:56:40,220 I don't think you can step into the light 1137 00:56:40,300 --> 00:56:42,130 unless you fully explore your own shadow 1138 00:56:42,220 --> 00:56:44,310 and it was such a part of him. 1139 00:56:44,400 --> 00:56:47,530 You know, that willingness, that courage... 1140 00:56:47,620 --> 00:56:50,400 to go into the darker parts of himself 1141 00:56:50,490 --> 00:56:52,010 and shine light on it, 1142 00:56:52,100 --> 00:56:53,360 not only for himself but for other people. 1143 00:56:53,450 --> 00:56:56,020 He knew himself so well, and, 1144 00:56:56,100 --> 00:56:57,800 there was always, um... 1145 00:56:59,720 --> 00:57:01,720 There was always just a recognition 1146 00:57:01,800 --> 00:57:04,720 of his own vulnerability and his own fragility. 1147 00:57:05,810 --> 00:57:08,380 I am furious with myself. 1148 00:57:08,460 --> 00:57:10,730 And it could have been so good. 1149 00:57:10,810 --> 00:57:12,210 So sweet. 1150 00:57:12,290 --> 00:57:13,430 Fuck. 1151 00:57:14,950 --> 00:57:16,600 The roles were getting bigger. 1152 00:57:16,690 --> 00:57:18,650 He was leading in a lot of films. 1153 00:57:18,730 --> 00:57:20,690 But he was not happy. 1154 00:57:20,780 --> 00:57:23,040 You've been a rising star now 1155 00:57:23,130 --> 00:57:25,180 for the longest time. 1156 00:57:25,260 --> 00:57:27,310 How's that feel? 1157 00:57:27,400 --> 00:57:28,880 I remember talking to Irina 1158 00:57:28,960 --> 00:57:31,530 about how frustrated he would be with his career 1159 00:57:31,620 --> 00:57:33,230 and that was always baffling to me 1160 00:57:33,310 --> 00:57:35,230 because of how respected he was. 1161 00:57:35,320 --> 00:57:39,580 And, you know, I don't know that he ever knew that. 1162 00:57:39,670 --> 00:57:42,150 Honestly, I don't think he ever let himself 1163 00:57:42,240 --> 00:57:43,760 know that or believe that. 1164 00:57:46,200 --> 00:57:48,070 I want to make things, 1165 00:57:48,160 --> 00:57:50,070 and I want to express a particular 1166 00:57:50,160 --> 00:57:52,290 point of view that I have, 1167 00:57:52,380 --> 00:57:54,550 and that is creatively, emotionally, fulfilling to me. 1168 00:57:54,640 --> 00:57:56,340 And so, I spent time thinking about that. 1169 00:57:56,420 --> 00:57:58,120 And I think about how to do that, 1170 00:57:58,210 --> 00:57:59,910 how to accomplish that, you know? 1171 00:57:59,990 --> 00:58:01,820 And these things actually worry me. 1172 00:58:01,910 --> 00:58:04,040 Because you can hear a lot of great things about yourself, 1173 00:58:04,130 --> 00:58:05,870 and then you can get shit on the next day, 1174 00:58:05,960 --> 00:58:09,090 and the institutional discourses of Hollywood 1175 00:58:09,180 --> 00:58:12,310 are a threat to a human being's identity, 1176 00:58:12,400 --> 00:58:14,570 and to their sense of love 1177 00:58:14,660 --> 00:58:16,790 for their craft and what they do. 1178 00:58:16,880 --> 00:58:18,620 This is exciting, man. 1179 00:58:18,710 --> 00:58:20,100 - This is good footage. - It is what it is! 1180 00:58:20,190 --> 00:58:21,670 This is good footage, man. 1181 00:58:21,750 --> 00:58:23,450 It's better than no footage. 1182 00:58:23,540 --> 00:58:25,020 I bet it's good. Damn! 1183 00:58:25,110 --> 00:58:27,190 I wonder how many hits this is gonna get. 1184 00:58:27,280 --> 00:58:28,590 Possibly, a thousand hits. 1185 00:58:28,670 --> 00:58:29,850 Oh, there you go. 1186 00:58:29,940 --> 00:58:31,720 Anton Yelchin... 1187 00:58:31,810 --> 00:58:33,160 - I'll take it. - ...walking down the street. 1188 00:58:33,240 --> 00:58:34,900 Very exciting. 1189 00:58:34,980 --> 00:58:36,600 Well, for certain people, 1190 00:58:36,680 --> 00:58:39,730 it's more exciting than you'll ever know. 1191 00:58:39,820 --> 00:58:41,470 It is such a hyperreal world, 1192 00:58:41,560 --> 00:58:42,950 and it's so filled with 1193 00:58:43,040 --> 00:58:44,990 so many sort of distractions. 1194 00:58:45,080 --> 00:58:47,130 It's like the Roman Empire, you know? 1195 00:58:47,210 --> 00:58:48,910 It's like, you can kind of have everything and do anything. 1196 00:58:49,000 --> 00:58:51,130 And, and I think, if you... 1197 00:58:51,220 --> 00:58:53,870 if you make that your life, it can be very easily confusing. 1198 00:58:54,830 --> 00:58:56,880 I was raised in, uh... 1199 00:58:57,490 --> 00:58:59,100 To love cinema. 1200 00:59:00,580 --> 00:59:03,400 And I sort of... 1201 00:59:03,490 --> 00:59:05,450 never imagined I would do anything 1202 00:59:05,540 --> 00:59:06,930 but make movies. 1203 00:59:11,370 --> 00:59:12,720 The tough thing is, 1204 00:59:12,810 --> 00:59:14,890 it's very difficult in this world 1205 00:59:14,980 --> 00:59:18,770 to actually accomplish the kind of cinema 1206 00:59:18,850 --> 00:59:20,810 that you'd wanna make. 1207 00:59:20,900 --> 00:59:24,120 It's very difficult to actually make the cinema 1208 00:59:24,210 --> 00:59:25,640 that you want to make 1209 00:59:25,730 --> 00:59:27,650 and not compromise your vision. 1210 00:59:27,730 --> 00:59:29,170 - Anton! - Anton! 1211 00:59:29,260 --> 00:59:31,170 Just straight ahead, sir. 1212 00:59:31,260 --> 00:59:33,000 It's always good to have a movie that does well, 1213 00:59:33,090 --> 00:59:35,090 and people see. 1214 00:59:35,180 --> 00:59:36,960 But, when that's what you're focused on, 1215 00:59:37,050 --> 00:59:38,330 and that's what you're thinking about, 1216 00:59:38,330 --> 00:59:40,050 you're bound to have a lot of, 1217 00:59:40,140 --> 00:59:42,010 kind of, disappointment and confusion. 1218 00:59:42,100 --> 00:59:43,970 That's why I think getting a small group of people 1219 00:59:44,050 --> 00:59:45,660 that really care together to make movies 1220 00:59:45,750 --> 00:59:47,800 is really kind of the future for 1221 00:59:47,880 --> 00:59:48,930 - independent cinema. - Mm-hmm. 1222 00:59:53,800 --> 00:59:56,370 He was the first person I cast, and, uh... 1223 00:59:56,460 --> 01:00:00,030 I mean, it was a very somewhat autobiographical experience, 1224 01:00:00,110 --> 01:00:01,680 so there was a lot of just trying 1225 01:00:01,770 --> 01:00:02,810 to find a kindred spirit. 1226 01:00:02,900 --> 01:00:04,380 Someone who had been through 1227 01:00:04,470 --> 01:00:05,340 some of the experiences that I had been through 1228 01:00:05,420 --> 01:00:06,210 and understood that. 1229 01:00:08,470 --> 01:00:10,080 I had read in another interview 1230 01:00:10,170 --> 01:00:12,600 that you've done, that you also, in some ways, 1231 01:00:12,690 --> 01:00:14,820 had gone through a similar experience 1232 01:00:14,910 --> 01:00:16,830 in your own life with the forced separation, 1233 01:00:16,910 --> 01:00:18,910 in a way. Is that true? 1234 01:00:19,000 --> 01:00:20,050 I think, inevitably, with my job, 1235 01:00:20,130 --> 01:00:22,090 every one of these relationships 1236 01:00:22,180 --> 01:00:24,050 - Mm. - Becomes long distance, 1237 01:00:24,140 --> 01:00:26,010 because you leave for four months at a time. 1238 01:00:26,100 --> 01:00:28,100 So, certain things you can really 1239 01:00:28,180 --> 01:00:29,230 - relate to and understand... - Mm-hm. 1240 01:00:29,320 --> 01:00:31,670 Like that "last night" feeling, 1241 01:00:31,750 --> 01:00:33,150 The "I'm-not-going-to-see-you for-four-months" feeling, 1242 01:00:33,230 --> 01:00:35,060 the "I-haven't-seen-you in-a-long-time, 1243 01:00:35,150 --> 01:00:37,800 how-do-I-take-this-moment" feeling. 1244 01:00:39,020 --> 01:00:40,630 It was really like just a bunch of friends 1245 01:00:40,720 --> 01:00:42,160 kind of coming together. 1246 01:00:42,240 --> 01:00:43,900 And that was where you can really see, 1247 01:00:43,980 --> 01:00:47,160 really understand his talent on a deeper level, 1248 01:00:47,250 --> 01:00:48,680 because he led that movie. 1249 01:00:48,770 --> 01:00:51,430 And it was all complete improv. 1250 01:00:51,510 --> 01:00:53,690 Did you sleep with him? 1251 01:00:53,780 --> 01:00:55,080 - Did you? Tell me, yes... - Don't touch me. 1252 01:00:55,170 --> 01:00:56,430 - Yes or no? - Jacob, don't touch me! 1253 01:00:56,520 --> 01:00:57,950 Did you sleep with him, yes or no? 1254 01:00:58,040 --> 01:00:59,650 - Did you? - Jacob, don't. 1255 01:00:59,740 --> 01:01:01,170 "Jacob, don't" what? 1256 01:01:01,260 --> 01:01:02,780 Did you, yes or no! It's very simple. 1257 01:01:02,870 --> 01:01:04,660 Very simple question. 1258 01:01:04,740 --> 01:01:06,920 They were doing such a heavy piece of material, 1259 01:01:07,010 --> 01:01:08,570 but when the camera stopped rolling, 1260 01:01:08,660 --> 01:01:11,180 it was just voices and dialects 1261 01:01:11,270 --> 01:01:13,270 and goofy characters. 1262 01:01:15,280 --> 01:01:18,280 - Living the dream! - No, it's Johnny, it's okay! 1263 01:01:18,370 --> 01:01:19,930 It's okay! 1264 01:01:20,020 --> 01:01:23,850 My name is Fionner. Fionner James. 1265 01:01:24,550 --> 01:01:26,850 She's fucking hot! 1266 01:01:26,940 --> 01:01:28,850 They both went in a hundred percent together, 1267 01:01:28,940 --> 01:01:30,460 and they were such an incredible partnership in that, 1268 01:01:30,550 --> 01:01:32,340 because there were no boundaries 1269 01:01:32,420 --> 01:01:34,030 to how we could explore that dynamic. 1270 01:01:36,820 --> 01:01:39,040 People, when they watch the film 1271 01:01:39,130 --> 01:01:41,950 really remember those moments that we pick up on. 1272 01:01:42,040 --> 01:01:43,870 Like the first look, 1273 01:01:43,960 --> 01:01:45,870 the first time you really realize 1274 01:01:45,960 --> 01:01:47,610 you're falling in love with somebody. 1275 01:01:47,700 --> 01:01:50,010 And it doesn't oversimplify things. 1276 01:01:50,090 --> 01:01:51,530 I mean, it's really about not heightening the emotions 1277 01:01:51,620 --> 01:01:53,710 but picking the smaller moments. 1278 01:01:53,790 --> 01:01:55,710 And I think people can really relate to that. 1279 01:02:00,060 --> 01:02:01,150 A mark. 1280 01:02:03,410 --> 01:02:06,330 I mean, do they have, like, a dolly there for it or me? 1281 01:02:06,410 --> 01:02:08,070 I was nervous after Like Crazy 1282 01:02:08,150 --> 01:02:09,980 because that's... It's such a liberating experience 1283 01:02:10,070 --> 01:02:12,160 to then go on to a studio film, 1284 01:02:12,250 --> 01:02:13,680 but Craig Gillespie on Fright Night 1285 01:02:13,770 --> 01:02:16,160 is also a director that loves improv. 1286 01:02:16,250 --> 01:02:18,690 And the idea of someone suffering 1287 01:02:18,770 --> 01:02:20,470 - doing something that is... - Mm. 1288 01:02:20,560 --> 01:02:22,210 ...is unfair to people that they really care about, 1289 01:02:22,300 --> 01:02:24,340 is something that sort of transcends that format 1290 01:02:24,430 --> 01:02:26,300 as a kind of human experience. 1291 01:02:51,500 --> 01:02:53,770 ...which he shouldn't. 1292 01:02:53,850 --> 01:02:55,160 We're doing this nine-day sequence 1293 01:02:55,240 --> 01:02:57,730 of vampires on fire. He's like... 1294 01:02:57,810 --> 01:02:59,250 "Can I be on fire?" 1295 01:03:01,250 --> 01:03:03,860 And I'm like, um, "Let me ask the stunt guys." 1296 01:03:03,950 --> 01:03:06,260 And I'm like, "Is it safe for Anton to be on fire?" 1297 01:03:06,340 --> 01:03:07,870 And they're like, "Yeah, it's safe." 1298 01:03:07,950 --> 01:03:09,520 And I'm like, "Okay." 1299 01:03:10,830 --> 01:03:12,170 Suddenly, the studio calls, 1300 01:03:12,260 --> 01:03:14,130 "What the hell are you guys doing? 1301 01:03:15,000 --> 01:03:17,140 Burning our lead actor?" 1302 01:03:18,920 --> 01:03:21,920 Because of what he went through his whole life, 1303 01:03:22,620 --> 01:03:24,060 with his disease, 1304 01:03:24,140 --> 01:03:26,320 it's why he wanted to get a lot done. 1305 01:03:27,840 --> 01:03:31,020 He didn't want to let it take him down, you know? 1306 01:03:31,110 --> 01:03:32,890 Like, he would talk about it with me. 1307 01:03:32,980 --> 01:03:34,980 Like, there was this beast inside of him, you know? 1308 01:03:36,240 --> 01:03:37,980 Excuse me. 1309 01:03:38,070 --> 01:03:40,070 I finished two films over the summer. 1310 01:03:42,160 --> 01:03:44,340 And I'm starting to work on another film, 1311 01:03:44,420 --> 01:03:47,080 and there might be another, an improvised film. 1312 01:03:47,170 --> 01:03:48,430 He was always going further 1313 01:03:48,520 --> 01:03:50,170 than the rest of us. 1314 01:03:50,260 --> 01:03:52,000 What he was thinking about, what he was looking at, 1315 01:03:52,080 --> 01:03:53,760 what he was interested in. What was the next project? 1316 01:03:53,760 --> 01:03:55,780 He had this immigrant mentality to a point that I think 1317 01:03:55,870 --> 01:03:59,530 that he needed to work rather than sit still 1318 01:03:59,610 --> 01:04:01,350 in the confidence of his talent. 1319 01:04:01,440 --> 01:04:04,010 I don't think he gave himself much of a break. 1320 01:04:05,970 --> 01:04:08,930 He'd go do very risky projects, 1321 01:04:09,010 --> 01:04:10,710 and then he'd do something 1322 01:04:10,800 --> 01:04:13,280 that was more like a job. 1323 01:04:15,320 --> 01:04:19,240 He was so intense about his quest 1324 01:04:19,330 --> 01:04:23,940 to really find situations that would challenge him. 1325 01:04:24,030 --> 01:04:25,550 He was very practical. 1326 01:04:25,640 --> 01:04:27,820 He was very pragmatic about career stuff, 1327 01:04:27,900 --> 01:04:29,340 but at the same time, 1328 01:04:29,430 --> 01:04:32,950 he deeply felt a duty to educate himself 1329 01:04:33,040 --> 01:04:34,520 and to challenge himself. 1330 01:04:36,170 --> 01:04:39,170 Anton and I became friends. 1331 01:04:39,260 --> 01:04:43,310 We would probably spend three, four, five hours together, 1332 01:04:43,400 --> 01:04:46,010 talking about life. 1333 01:04:46,090 --> 01:04:48,660 He was an old soul, 1334 01:04:48,750 --> 01:04:50,270 you know, and I... 1335 01:04:50,360 --> 01:04:53,490 you know, don't talk in terms of old souls 1336 01:04:53,580 --> 01:04:55,450 and stuff like that. 1337 01:04:55,540 --> 01:04:59,980 But I found myself treating him as a contemporary. 1338 01:05:00,070 --> 01:05:02,200 I remember he had no desire 1339 01:05:02,280 --> 01:05:04,370 to be like, the flavor of the month. 1340 01:05:04,460 --> 01:05:07,030 He said, "I would rather work with Jim Jarmusch." 1341 01:05:08,250 --> 01:05:10,680 My vision of things is somewhat, 1342 01:05:10,770 --> 01:05:13,170 I think, skewed sometimes by like, 1343 01:05:13,250 --> 01:05:16,430 obsessive desire and interest in critical theory. 1344 01:05:16,520 --> 01:05:18,820 So, I'm blinded. I almost have like blinders, 1345 01:05:18,910 --> 01:05:20,350 because I look at it, and I think, 1346 01:05:20,430 --> 01:05:21,960 "Oh! This film is about genre," you know? 1347 01:05:22,040 --> 01:05:23,870 "About whether we live through genre, 1348 01:05:23,960 --> 01:05:25,440 or genre lives through us, 1349 01:05:25,530 --> 01:05:27,310 or whether it's just sort of a vicious cycle 1350 01:05:27,400 --> 01:05:29,570 where we reenact things we've seen." 1351 01:05:31,360 --> 01:05:33,050 You don't often work with an actor 1352 01:05:33,140 --> 01:05:34,970 who you so immediately take to. 1353 01:05:35,060 --> 01:05:37,190 The actor making the movie, which is of, you know, 1354 01:05:37,280 --> 01:05:38,930 a pretty minor movie in his canon. 1355 01:05:39,020 --> 01:05:41,280 And Anton, if he wasn't working he would come in anyway. 1356 01:05:41,370 --> 01:05:45,410 I mean, he was part of the creative package. 1357 01:05:45,500 --> 01:05:46,890 So... 1358 01:05:46,980 --> 01:05:48,200 What happens now? 1359 01:05:50,290 --> 01:05:51,990 Room 2117. 1360 01:05:52,070 --> 01:05:53,420 Five o'clock. 1361 01:05:53,510 --> 01:05:55,160 So, did you see yourself 1362 01:05:55,250 --> 01:05:58,040 as becoming the, uh, thinking woman's sex symbol? 1363 01:05:58,120 --> 01:05:59,730 You know, it's funny 1364 01:05:59,820 --> 01:06:01,650 that you should say that. 1365 01:06:01,740 --> 01:06:06,610 I'm constantly surprised by how insane filmmaking is. 1366 01:06:06,700 --> 01:06:10,000 Like, a hundred-whatever people have gotten together 1367 01:06:10,090 --> 01:06:12,920 to try to get one shot, perfectly. 1368 01:06:13,010 --> 01:06:15,050 And there's a real madness 1369 01:06:15,140 --> 01:06:17,620 and beauty to that madness that I love. 1370 01:06:17,710 --> 01:06:20,800 I find it completely intoxicating, and I... 1371 01:06:20,880 --> 01:06:22,760 I truly enjoyed working on this one. 1372 01:06:22,840 --> 01:06:24,630 "I truly enjoyed working 1373 01:06:24,710 --> 01:06:26,850 on this film 5 to 7!" 1374 01:06:26,930 --> 01:06:28,810 It's startling in a way. 1375 01:06:28,890 --> 01:06:30,420 There's something angelic about him 1376 01:06:30,500 --> 01:06:32,030 and pure about him, 1377 01:06:32,110 --> 01:06:34,940 and open, and obviously intelligent, 1378 01:06:35,030 --> 01:06:36,470 but a little bit of a waif. 1379 01:06:36,550 --> 01:06:37,990 He looks like he just 1380 01:06:38,080 --> 01:06:39,510 put himself together quickly to, 1381 01:06:40,640 --> 01:06:41,690 to walk out the door. 1382 01:06:41,780 --> 01:06:42,780 He didn't look like he put on... 1383 01:06:42,860 --> 01:06:44,600 everything on, you know? 1384 01:06:44,690 --> 01:06:48,090 Then we started working and I realized he was... 1385 01:06:48,170 --> 01:06:50,130 he was the real thing, you know? 1386 01:06:50,220 --> 01:06:51,790 You're always grateful 1387 01:06:51,870 --> 01:06:53,960 when you see one of these talents. 1388 01:06:54,050 --> 01:06:55,530 They're very... 1389 01:06:55,620 --> 01:06:58,010 rare, really. 1390 01:06:58,100 --> 01:07:00,360 I think as an actor, 1391 01:07:00,450 --> 01:07:02,970 it's sort of a mixture of the philosophical awareness 1392 01:07:03,060 --> 01:07:04,930 and the emotional, you know? 1393 01:07:05,020 --> 01:07:06,930 I think that those are the films I'm most drawn to. 1394 01:07:07,020 --> 01:07:08,930 Pull the trigger. 1395 01:07:09,020 --> 01:07:10,150 Do it! 1396 01:07:10,240 --> 01:07:12,200 What are you waiting for? 1397 01:07:14,980 --> 01:07:16,770 One more, right away. 1398 01:07:16,850 --> 01:07:19,160 Were you always confident 1399 01:07:19,250 --> 01:07:21,080 that you were good enough to make it in the industry? 1400 01:07:21,160 --> 01:07:22,210 I mean, I'm still not very confident 1401 01:07:22,290 --> 01:07:24,560 that I'm good enough, you know? 1402 01:07:24,640 --> 01:07:27,780 I, I don't know that I'll ever be confident in that. 1403 01:07:27,860 --> 01:07:30,870 You're at the ground floor of a growing business. 1404 01:07:30,950 --> 01:07:32,480 Your reward is a career. 1405 01:07:32,570 --> 01:07:34,610 Yeah, fuck that. 1406 01:07:34,700 --> 01:07:36,310 Fuck that. 1407 01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:38,830 I remember he was very troubled by... 1408 01:07:38,920 --> 01:07:41,100 his hairline was receding. 1409 01:07:41,180 --> 01:07:44,140 And he was a little obsessed by that. 1410 01:07:44,230 --> 01:07:48,620 And that was that Hollywood part that he did care about. 1411 01:07:48,710 --> 01:07:50,800 I could relate to that, because someone assumes 1412 01:07:50,890 --> 01:07:53,150 that if you're interested in the road less traveled, 1413 01:07:53,240 --> 01:07:56,070 you aren't interested in the road traveled. 1414 01:07:56,150 --> 01:07:57,590 But the truth is, 1415 01:07:57,680 --> 01:07:59,420 you can hold both in your head. 1416 01:08:12,130 --> 01:08:15,040 ♪ The angel and the devil ♪ 1417 01:08:15,130 --> 01:08:17,870 ♪ Secretly, they get along ♪ 1418 01:08:17,960 --> 01:08:21,440 ♪ Sitting up there With me in the middle ♪ 1419 01:08:21,530 --> 01:08:23,790 ♪ From the dust till dawn ♪ 1420 01:08:25,230 --> 01:08:27,230 Dear Mamoola and Papoola. 1421 01:08:27,320 --> 01:08:29,230 Every day in Tokyo, 1422 01:08:29,320 --> 01:08:30,620 I think about how terrifying it was 1423 01:08:30,710 --> 01:08:32,600 for you to come to a country 1424 01:08:32,600 --> 01:08:34,410 where you did not speak a word of the language 1425 01:08:34,500 --> 01:08:36,500 with the intention of starting a new life. 1426 01:08:36,590 --> 01:08:38,940 How frightening it was to leave a home with everything 1427 01:08:39,020 --> 01:08:41,550 and come to the United States with nothing. 1428 01:08:41,630 --> 01:08:43,850 Not knowing what tomorrow will bring, 1429 01:08:43,940 --> 01:08:46,200 how life will turn out. 1430 01:08:46,290 --> 01:08:48,210 I think about the courage it took 1431 01:08:48,290 --> 01:08:50,860 to dedicate yourself to succeed in this new country, 1432 01:08:50,950 --> 01:08:54,390 in building a home for yourselves and your child. 1433 01:08:54,470 --> 01:08:56,340 And I think about how you did it 1434 01:08:56,430 --> 01:08:58,520 so that I could have a better life, 1435 01:08:58,610 --> 01:09:00,310 despite what the sacrifice might mean to you. 1436 01:09:03,400 --> 01:09:04,960 I always worry that I somehow, 1437 01:09:05,050 --> 01:09:06,830 can't express my appreciation, 1438 01:09:06,920 --> 01:09:09,750 so I try to write these notes expressing that I do think about 1439 01:09:09,840 --> 01:09:12,620 and appreciate and respect and thank God for you, 1440 01:09:12,710 --> 01:09:14,840 and everything that you have given me. 1441 01:09:16,320 --> 01:09:17,370 As I write this, 1442 01:09:17,450 --> 01:09:19,020 I see the trips to Toys "R" Us, 1443 01:09:19,110 --> 01:09:20,150 to the zoo. 1444 01:09:20,240 --> 01:09:22,110 I see the video cameras, 1445 01:09:22,200 --> 01:09:24,200 and all the attention that I got. 1446 01:09:24,290 --> 01:09:26,200 I wish I could take all of these things 1447 01:09:26,290 --> 01:09:28,200 and put them together and give them back to you 1448 01:09:28,290 --> 01:09:29,380 with all the love that you gave me. 1449 01:09:29,460 --> 01:09:31,510 I love you so much, 1450 01:09:31,600 --> 01:09:34,030 and I hope, even though sometimes I'm too stupid, 1451 01:09:34,120 --> 01:09:36,120 selfish, or ignorant to show it, 1452 01:09:36,210 --> 01:09:38,170 you know this. 1453 01:09:38,260 --> 01:09:40,170 I wish for you to be happy and healthy 1454 01:09:40,260 --> 01:09:42,430 for another million, billion, trillion years. 1455 01:09:42,520 --> 01:09:44,780 I wish for us to be able to celebrate all together 1456 01:09:44,870 --> 01:09:47,610 for all of those happy and healthy years. 1457 01:09:57,490 --> 01:09:58,750 I love you. 1458 01:09:59,410 --> 01:10:01,410 Love, Antosha. 1459 01:10:08,290 --> 01:10:09,980 Let's just say I came up short. 1460 01:10:10,070 --> 01:10:11,810 Would you log this? 1461 01:10:11,900 --> 01:10:13,550 Really, that kind of, first one and second one 1462 01:10:13,640 --> 01:10:15,380 are, kind of, all conflated into one thing. 1463 01:10:15,470 --> 01:10:18,470 And then we had this glorious, kind of, golden moment 1464 01:10:18,560 --> 01:10:21,820 of shooting in Vancouver for the last film. 1465 01:10:21,910 --> 01:10:25,260 I'm so, so happy it turned out that way, you know? 1466 01:10:27,260 --> 01:10:29,310 Everybody was away from their families, 1467 01:10:29,390 --> 01:10:32,700 so something very beautiful happened, where... 1468 01:10:32,790 --> 01:10:34,920 we all just sort of just came together. 1469 01:10:36,180 --> 01:10:37,270 Look up! 1470 01:10:37,360 --> 01:10:38,490 Whoa, dude! 1471 01:10:38,580 --> 01:10:40,190 - Look down! - Oh, shit. 1472 01:10:40,270 --> 01:10:41,490 Look down. 1473 01:10:43,150 --> 01:10:45,190 He surprised me every time. 1474 01:10:45,280 --> 01:10:47,240 He spoke about something, I thought, you know, 1475 01:10:47,330 --> 01:10:50,940 "What a bright, intelligent human being." 1476 01:10:54,110 --> 01:10:56,460 Anton and me and Sofia, 1477 01:10:56,550 --> 01:10:59,470 every weekend, would be out on the sailboat 1478 01:10:59,550 --> 01:11:02,120 in the harbor in Vancouver. 1479 01:11:02,210 --> 01:11:04,780 Anton was the only one with his hoodie and his, 1480 01:11:04,860 --> 01:11:06,690 sort of, moon boots, wearing on the boat, 1481 01:11:06,780 --> 01:11:08,350 and there was no way he would want... 1482 01:11:08,430 --> 01:11:10,440 the water would touch him. 1483 01:11:10,520 --> 01:11:13,440 He was so particular and so interesting. 1484 01:11:15,440 --> 01:11:17,920 I have this great picture of... 1485 01:11:18,010 --> 01:11:19,270 Me on the boat, 1486 01:11:19,360 --> 01:11:21,750 I'm falling asleep on Anton's lap. 1487 01:11:21,840 --> 01:11:23,750 And Anton is with his, like, sweatshirt, 1488 01:11:23,840 --> 01:11:25,710 and I can tell he's like, "Goddamn it." 1489 01:11:25,800 --> 01:11:27,370 I've probably had been asleep for like an hour on his lap, 1490 01:11:27,450 --> 01:11:29,110 but he doesn't want to move me. 1491 01:11:29,190 --> 01:11:32,070 That's really cute, I got that one. 1492 01:11:34,680 --> 01:11:36,370 There is this thing, 1493 01:11:36,460 --> 01:11:38,720 you pretend to be... 1494 01:11:39,640 --> 01:11:42,250 a family over a number of years, 1495 01:11:42,340 --> 01:11:44,730 and at some point, you kind of are. 1496 01:11:49,210 --> 01:11:51,300 He was on a full... 1497 01:11:51,390 --> 01:11:53,170 explorer's bent, that last summer. 1498 01:11:53,260 --> 01:11:55,040 It was like a lot of mushrooms. 1499 01:11:55,130 --> 01:11:57,130 He was definitely pushing the boundaries of, you know, 1500 01:11:57,220 --> 01:12:00,400 reality, and going on major long walks 1501 01:12:00,490 --> 01:12:02,970 and got a little intense after a while. 1502 01:12:03,050 --> 01:12:05,840 But it all seemed like it was in the spirit of... 1503 01:12:07,010 --> 01:12:08,490 I don't know, seeking. 1504 01:12:09,360 --> 01:12:11,320 Who am I? 1505 01:12:11,410 --> 01:12:13,500 Let it holler from the throat into the world. 1506 01:12:13,590 --> 01:12:15,410 The void from which like a screaming contorted demon 1507 01:12:15,500 --> 01:12:19,240 you return empty-handed, eyes pleading. 1508 01:12:19,330 --> 01:12:21,030 We had had like, uh, 1509 01:12:21,110 --> 01:12:23,120 two and a half weeks off before we had to go to Dubai. 1510 01:12:23,200 --> 01:12:24,420 And he just really did not... 1511 01:12:24,510 --> 01:12:26,340 He looked skinnier than usual. 1512 01:12:26,420 --> 01:12:28,210 And he was coughing a lot more. 1513 01:12:28,300 --> 01:12:30,340 Just, we were all worried about him. 1514 01:12:32,260 --> 01:12:34,080 He was scared. I saw him scared. 1515 01:12:34,170 --> 01:12:35,350 I felt him scared. 1516 01:12:37,570 --> 01:12:39,310 I remember he said, 1517 01:12:39,390 --> 01:12:40,700 "Oh, god, I got to start 1518 01:12:40,790 --> 01:12:42,880 taking better care of my health." 1519 01:12:42,960 --> 01:12:44,920 He didn't want to worry his mother, you know? 1520 01:12:46,710 --> 01:12:48,840 Mamoola, how are you? 1521 01:12:48,920 --> 01:12:50,930 I miss you. 1522 01:12:51,010 --> 01:12:52,670 I've been going nonstop in a way since I left for Dubai, 1523 01:12:52,750 --> 01:12:54,800 so it's starting to catch up with me. 1524 01:12:54,890 --> 01:12:57,850 Paris is beautiful as always, but I miss LA. 1525 01:12:57,930 --> 01:13:00,370 Paris is pretty, but it is not home. 1526 01:13:00,460 --> 01:13:02,630 Besides, I should really learn French. 1527 01:13:02,720 --> 01:13:05,420 Miss you, love you, Antosha. 1528 01:13:15,470 --> 01:13:17,560 And ended up being in a hospital. 1529 01:13:20,570 --> 01:13:22,350 That's when it really hit me, and I was like, 1530 01:13:22,440 --> 01:13:25,790 my friend could... you know, you know, uh... 1531 01:13:25,870 --> 01:13:28,180 you know, he's not meant for this Earth, 1532 01:13:28,270 --> 01:13:30,140 as long as... 1533 01:13:30,230 --> 01:13:33,750 you know, than what they "deem" the normal life expectancy is. 1534 01:13:37,500 --> 01:13:38,890 I don't know. I feel like sometimes, 1535 01:13:38,970 --> 01:13:41,460 I feel like he just... maybe he knew. 1536 01:13:42,850 --> 01:13:44,810 He was just pushing, pushing, pushing. 1537 01:13:44,890 --> 01:13:47,680 Finding, finding, finding, exploring. 1538 01:13:47,770 --> 01:13:49,900 There was a lot of courage and bravery, and... 1539 01:13:49,990 --> 01:13:53,210 which he didn't really see, I don't think, in himself. 1540 01:13:53,290 --> 01:13:55,510 But from an outside perspective, 1541 01:13:55,600 --> 01:13:57,560 it was so clear that he just, you know... 1542 01:14:03,130 --> 01:14:04,610 It just occurred to me 1543 01:14:04,700 --> 01:14:06,050 there was this scene that we shot in London, 1544 01:14:06,130 --> 01:14:07,610 was this kind of breakup scene 1545 01:14:07,700 --> 01:14:08,610 where he was about to come back to the States 1546 01:14:08,700 --> 01:14:10,010 and she was staying there. 1547 01:14:10,090 --> 01:14:11,570 I wanted to set it in a cemetery. 1548 01:14:11,660 --> 01:14:13,230 So, we were walking around this cemetery, 1549 01:14:13,310 --> 01:14:14,490 they were having this conversation, 1550 01:14:14,580 --> 01:14:15,880 we were doing this scene, 1551 01:14:15,970 --> 01:14:17,750 and then in the middle of the scene, 1552 01:14:17,840 --> 01:14:20,190 Anton was just like, "I don't... I don't want to be here." 1553 01:14:20,280 --> 01:14:21,800 I don't know. 1554 01:14:21,890 --> 01:14:23,320 I don't like walking on people's graves. 1555 01:14:23,410 --> 01:14:24,370 We're not walking on people's graves. 1556 01:14:24,460 --> 01:14:25,370 - We are. - This is the bit 1557 01:14:25,460 --> 01:14:26,720 in between the graves. 1558 01:14:26,810 --> 01:14:28,150 No, I don't like this. I don't like this. 1559 01:14:28,240 --> 01:14:29,590 And Felicity is trying to do the scene 1560 01:14:29,680 --> 01:14:30,900 in the scene, and we're shooting, 1561 01:14:30,900 --> 01:14:31,850 and she's like, "Oh, no, let's stay, 1562 01:14:31,940 --> 01:14:33,460 let's talk, let's sit down." 1563 01:14:33,550 --> 01:14:34,550 And he's like, "No. No, I gotta go. I gotta go" 1564 01:14:34,640 --> 01:14:36,120 This is freaking me out. 1565 01:14:37,250 --> 01:14:38,640 Really? Why? 1566 01:14:38,730 --> 01:14:40,250 I don't know. 1567 01:14:40,340 --> 01:14:41,820 I forgot about it. 1568 01:14:41,910 --> 01:14:43,520 And then, after watching it, I was like, 1569 01:14:43,600 --> 01:14:46,090 "Oh, my god!" He was so in tune to this frequency. 1570 01:14:46,170 --> 01:14:48,170 He had this radar for energy, 1571 01:14:48,260 --> 01:14:49,960 and for feeling and stuff. 1572 01:14:50,050 --> 01:14:51,570 And he was just in touch with that side 1573 01:14:51,660 --> 01:14:53,180 of the universe in a way. 1574 01:15:02,840 --> 01:15:05,710 He started reading other people with CF 1575 01:15:05,800 --> 01:15:09,280 and felt very disturbed. 1576 01:15:09,370 --> 01:15:11,850 Hi, Mary, I've been feeling up and down. 1577 01:15:11,940 --> 01:15:14,850 Increased airway clearance right now to four times a day. 1578 01:15:14,940 --> 01:15:16,940 My folks have been doing the percussion on my side 1579 01:15:17,030 --> 01:15:19,250 and my back one to two times a day. 1580 01:15:19,340 --> 01:15:21,990 I've been exercising a minimum of 45 minutes a day. 1581 01:15:22,080 --> 01:15:24,120 Got to get it into this idiot brain of mine 1582 01:15:24,210 --> 01:15:26,040 that I have to fight this thing. 1583 01:15:26,130 --> 01:15:27,950 Had a really heavy feeling night a few days back 1584 01:15:28,040 --> 01:15:30,130 where I looked up CF on Instagram 1585 01:15:30,220 --> 01:15:32,350 and I saw the kids that are fighting so hard 1586 01:15:32,440 --> 01:15:34,530 and proud to do it. 1587 01:15:34,610 --> 01:15:36,790 Calling themselves fighters, and I was really moved. 1588 01:15:36,880 --> 01:15:38,620 I've always wanted to shy away from feeling proud 1589 01:15:38,700 --> 01:15:40,010 that I fight this thing all the time, 1590 01:15:40,100 --> 01:15:42,140 so I've avoided fighting it. 1591 01:15:42,230 --> 01:15:44,100 But I've got to be proud, and I've got tell myself 1592 01:15:44,190 --> 01:15:46,150 that most people never have to deal with this sort of stuff. 1593 01:15:46,230 --> 01:15:48,150 And I should be proud of myself that I man up and do, 1594 01:15:48,230 --> 01:15:50,150 as long as I actually man up and do. 1595 01:15:50,240 --> 01:15:52,630 And if I don't, that's a crime against the potentiality 1596 01:15:52,720 --> 01:15:54,460 and against all those that do. 1597 01:15:54,550 --> 01:15:56,810 Anyway, ranting. 1598 01:15:56,900 --> 01:15:58,720 Thank you again for all your help. 1599 01:15:58,810 --> 01:16:00,900 Speak soon, Anton. 1600 01:16:18,790 --> 01:16:20,830 And then he would look at me, and he'd say, 1601 01:16:20,920 --> 01:16:22,180 "Mamoola. 1602 01:16:22,270 --> 01:16:23,840 Please do not worry. 1603 01:16:23,920 --> 01:16:26,840 It's okay, I can handle it. Trust me." 1604 01:16:29,490 --> 01:16:32,060 I am Gustav Klimt! 1605 01:16:32,150 --> 01:16:34,370 When Anton was in the hospital, he said, 1606 01:16:34,450 --> 01:16:35,800 "We've got to do something here." 1607 01:16:35,890 --> 01:16:38,720 And we sat down, and we said, you know, 1608 01:16:38,810 --> 01:16:40,240 "These are the three things 1609 01:16:40,330 --> 01:16:42,070 that I want to concentrate for this week." 1610 01:16:42,810 --> 01:16:44,860 And when I came back, he goes, 1611 01:16:44,940 --> 01:16:46,550 "I did one, two, and three, 1612 01:16:46,640 --> 01:16:48,120 and I thought I would do number four 1613 01:16:48,210 --> 01:16:49,990 just because I thought it would be good." 1614 01:16:50,080 --> 01:16:51,690 And you could see 1615 01:16:51,780 --> 01:16:54,000 his sense of pride and his sense of, 1616 01:16:54,080 --> 01:16:56,220 "Oh, my gosh, I've got this under control. 1617 01:16:56,300 --> 01:16:58,870 I can go back to work now." 1618 01:16:58,960 --> 01:17:00,790 When we were filming, I remember thinking to myself, 1619 01:17:00,870 --> 01:17:02,660 "Huh? 1620 01:17:02,740 --> 01:17:04,700 You know, this feels like a slightly different Anton than, 1621 01:17:04,790 --> 01:17:06,440 than I've hung out with before." 1622 01:17:06,530 --> 01:17:09,490 You know, the mind forgets things... 1623 01:17:09,580 --> 01:17:11,360 for a reason. 1624 01:17:11,450 --> 01:17:12,710 I remember Dinklage coming up to me and just going, 1625 01:17:12,800 --> 01:17:13,840 "Whoa." You know? 1626 01:17:13,930 --> 01:17:15,840 Just sitting opposite that, 1627 01:17:15,930 --> 01:17:18,930 and you can feel the intensity off of Anton in those scenes. 1628 01:17:19,020 --> 01:17:20,720 But as soon as I yelled "cut," 1629 01:17:20,810 --> 01:17:23,550 it was just like this cloak lifted off of him, 1630 01:17:23,630 --> 01:17:26,250 and it was back to "Laughing Anton." 1631 01:17:26,330 --> 01:17:28,810 How freaking cool is that? 1632 01:17:28,900 --> 01:17:30,120 Oh, my god! Oh, my god! Oh, my god! 1633 01:17:30,210 --> 01:17:31,250 Oh, dude! 1634 01:17:31,340 --> 01:17:32,690 You know what this means, right? 1635 01:17:32,770 --> 01:17:34,780 You have a sacred responsibility here! 1636 01:17:34,860 --> 01:17:36,170 That's what they said! 1637 01:17:36,260 --> 01:17:38,080 You have to use these new powers... 1638 01:17:38,170 --> 01:17:39,480 The sense that you got from Anton 1639 01:17:39,560 --> 01:17:42,040 was intensity, intelligence, 1640 01:17:42,130 --> 01:17:43,830 and at the same time, you have the sense 1641 01:17:43,920 --> 01:17:45,830 that he was living. 1642 01:17:45,920 --> 01:17:47,830 You knew he was an artist, you know? 1643 01:17:49,880 --> 01:17:52,100 He was, he was a wild one. I was a wild one. 1644 01:17:52,180 --> 01:17:54,750 We were both, kind of, coming to a space of... 1645 01:17:54,840 --> 01:17:58,100 trying to connect the people that we used to be, 1646 01:17:58,190 --> 01:17:59,760 with the people that we were becoming. 1647 01:17:59,840 --> 01:18:02,540 And he was, he was very interested in creating, 1648 01:18:02,630 --> 01:18:04,850 um, life movie moments. 1649 01:18:04,940 --> 01:18:06,290 What the fuck is wrong with you? 1650 01:18:06,370 --> 01:18:08,680 Yes, I have a gun. 1651 01:18:08,770 --> 01:18:09,810 - Multiple guns? - "Multiple guns"? 1652 01:18:09,900 --> 01:18:11,770 No! One. One gun. 1653 01:18:11,860 --> 01:18:13,680 What am I, fucking Rambo? 1654 01:18:13,770 --> 01:18:17,120 I think we were witnessing this shift in him. 1655 01:18:17,210 --> 01:18:20,560 He was right at that moment of huge transition in his life. 1656 01:18:20,650 --> 01:18:22,260 You know, the way he talked about things, 1657 01:18:22,340 --> 01:18:25,130 it was, it was different. It was gaining momentum. 1658 01:18:25,220 --> 01:18:27,650 There were no boundaries between his... 1659 01:18:27,740 --> 01:18:29,130 between his modes of creative expression. 1660 01:18:29,220 --> 01:18:31,920 They just all folded into one another. 1661 01:18:32,010 --> 01:18:33,880 I play the bass player in the band. 1662 01:18:33,970 --> 01:18:35,880 Uh, and so, Jeremy and I 1663 01:18:35,970 --> 01:18:38,450 always talked about the fact that, someone, 1664 01:18:38,530 --> 01:18:40,890 and if there's one person in a band that could die, 1665 01:18:40,970 --> 01:18:42,360 and you could still play the show, 1666 01:18:42,450 --> 01:18:44,540 it would be the bass player. 1667 01:18:44,630 --> 01:18:46,630 You know? And that's kind of how his personality is. 1668 01:18:46,720 --> 01:18:48,720 I mean he's just kind of the one that studies everything. 1669 01:18:48,810 --> 01:18:50,370 Do you like watching yourself on screen? 1670 01:18:50,460 --> 01:18:52,370 I don't like watching myself 1671 01:18:52,460 --> 01:18:54,120 - on screen at all. - Right. 1672 01:18:54,200 --> 01:18:56,120 But I do like watching the film. 1673 01:18:56,200 --> 01:18:58,160 Yeah. -I wish I was at a place 1674 01:18:58,250 --> 01:19:00,120 where I could be so enlightened that I could just say, 1675 01:19:00,210 --> 01:19:00,950 "Well, the experience was all that matters." 1676 01:19:24,890 --> 01:19:27,190 He had been working so much that last year 1677 01:19:27,280 --> 01:19:29,460 and been just battling and just dealing 1678 01:19:29,540 --> 01:19:31,410 with so much stuff. 1679 01:19:31,500 --> 01:19:35,370 And so, Ryan, him, and myself go on a trip together to London. 1680 01:19:35,460 --> 01:19:37,860 It was like the first time in a really long time, 1681 01:19:37,940 --> 01:19:39,470 I felt like we were just kids. 1682 01:19:39,550 --> 01:19:42,560 Forget the Tate Modern or the National Gallery, 1683 01:19:42,640 --> 01:19:46,250 I want shoes! I want glasses! 1684 01:19:46,340 --> 01:19:48,740 - What else do you want? - I want suits, suits, suits. 1685 01:19:48,820 --> 01:19:50,520 - What else? - Bags! 1686 01:19:50,610 --> 01:19:51,960 Lots of bags. 1687 01:19:52,040 --> 01:19:54,740 - What about... - Jewelry. 1688 01:19:54,830 --> 01:19:56,400 You know, we "lurked" around London. 1689 01:19:56,480 --> 01:19:58,700 I just remember being at the National Gallery, 1690 01:19:58,790 --> 01:20:00,790 and he stood in front of this painting. 1691 01:20:00,880 --> 01:20:02,400 Anton wouldn't move. 1692 01:20:02,490 --> 01:20:05,530 Ian and I walked around like three more rooms, 1693 01:20:06,970 --> 01:20:08,840 came back 20 minutes later, 1694 01:20:08,930 --> 01:20:11,410 and he's still staring at this painting. 1695 01:20:14,630 --> 01:20:17,070 We were having these really heavy conversations 1696 01:20:17,160 --> 01:20:20,030 about Cystic Fibrosis and his disease, 1697 01:20:20,110 --> 01:20:22,770 and he definitely was at a point in his life 1698 01:20:22,860 --> 01:20:26,160 that he wanted to find a way to talk about it. 1699 01:20:26,250 --> 01:20:28,430 This could inspire people that are going through it 1700 01:20:28,510 --> 01:20:31,820 to know that, you know, you're able to live a life, 1701 01:20:31,910 --> 01:20:33,950 and you deserve to be able to do whatever you want to do, 1702 01:20:34,040 --> 01:20:36,170 and accomplish whatever goals you want to accomplish. 1703 01:20:36,260 --> 01:20:38,000 - I'm Anton. - I'm Julie. 1704 01:20:38,090 --> 01:20:39,390 - Nice to meet you officially. - Thanks for coming in. 1705 01:20:39,480 --> 01:20:41,090 - Yeah, officially seeing... - I know. 1706 01:20:41,180 --> 01:20:43,180 - Is it okay if I sit here? - Yeah. Yeah, and... 1707 01:20:43,270 --> 01:20:46,100 He was getting ready to make his first real film. 1708 01:20:46,180 --> 01:20:48,400 His real directorial debut. 1709 01:20:48,490 --> 01:20:52,360 He had every shot written out and planned to a T. 1710 01:20:53,710 --> 01:20:54,800 I went through all the sort of, 1711 01:20:54,890 --> 01:20:56,760 behind-the-scenes pictures, 1712 01:20:56,850 --> 01:20:59,810 and so many of them are Anton hovering over the DP's shoulder, 1713 01:20:59,890 --> 01:21:02,030 you know, asking about the camera. 1714 01:21:02,110 --> 01:21:03,980 He was writing down the model number. 1715 01:21:04,070 --> 01:21:05,550 And he would say, "That's what I'm gonna shoot my film on! 1716 01:21:05,640 --> 01:21:06,200 "That's what I'm gonna shoot my film on!" 1717 01:21:29,140 --> 01:21:31,010 ...does everything. 1718 01:21:31,100 --> 01:21:32,580 You really are one of the few actors 1719 01:21:32,670 --> 01:21:33,970 who did the whole full range, 1720 01:21:34,060 --> 01:21:36,100 the logical consequence will be, 1721 01:21:36,190 --> 01:21:38,060 because I know you've been interested in that for a while, 1722 01:21:38,150 --> 01:21:40,370 will be directing a film one day. 1723 01:21:40,460 --> 01:21:42,540 Yes. 1724 01:21:42,630 --> 01:21:46,330 The cinema should be a tool in which we explore these ideas 1725 01:21:46,420 --> 01:21:50,070 of the existential nature of our existence 1726 01:21:50,160 --> 01:21:52,510 as human beings on this Earth. 1727 01:21:52,600 --> 01:21:56,040 And it should provide questions and speculation, 1728 01:21:56,120 --> 01:22:00,080 and never mythologize and offer answers. 1729 01:22:00,170 --> 01:22:01,960 I feel like if I'm gonna make movies, 1730 01:22:02,040 --> 01:22:04,180 I want them, at least right now, 1731 01:22:04,260 --> 01:22:06,610 I want them to be... to move in that direction. 1732 01:22:08,050 --> 01:22:09,700 He got the call saying, 1733 01:22:09,790 --> 01:22:11,530 "We got the money, we're gonna shoot this thing." 1734 01:22:11,620 --> 01:22:15,360 And, um, his dreams were coming true, you know? 1735 01:22:21,580 --> 01:22:23,240 Next tonight here, to the stunning death 1736 01:22:23,320 --> 01:22:25,940 in Hollywood, a young actor, a rising star 1737 01:22:26,020 --> 01:22:27,890 known for his work onStar Trek. 1738 01:22:27,980 --> 01:22:30,550 He was killed, trapped between his SUV 1739 01:22:30,640 --> 01:22:31,640 and his driveway gate. 1740 01:22:31,720 --> 01:22:33,420 And it turns out, his Jeep 1741 01:22:33,510 --> 01:22:36,560 is one of hundreds of thousands included in a recall. 1742 01:22:46,260 --> 01:22:48,480 Police are saying it appears to be 1743 01:22:48,570 --> 01:22:50,740 a freak accident that killed the 27-year-old actor 1744 01:22:50,830 --> 01:22:52,570 after friends found him pinned 1745 01:22:52,660 --> 01:22:55,490 between his 2015 Jeep Grand Cherokee 1746 01:22:55,570 --> 01:22:57,400 and a fence at his home. 1747 01:23:04,150 --> 01:23:05,500 Here's a guy who struggled with his lungs 1748 01:23:05,580 --> 01:23:07,760 for as long as I knew him. 1749 01:23:07,850 --> 01:23:10,240 And he's pinned, so he can't breathe. 1750 01:23:11,020 --> 01:23:12,810 Like, out of all... 1751 01:23:12,900 --> 01:23:14,850 all fucking things. 1752 01:23:14,940 --> 01:23:17,160 Out of all fucking things. 1753 01:23:17,860 --> 01:23:19,290 That's it? 1754 01:23:19,380 --> 01:23:21,120 And you go to the house, and you look at the, 1755 01:23:21,210 --> 01:23:22,950 and you look at the gate, and you're like, 1756 01:23:23,040 --> 01:23:25,130 "This little thing right here 1757 01:23:25,210 --> 01:23:26,950 caught the last moments of my friend? 1758 01:23:27,040 --> 01:23:29,040 This little spot in the universe?" 1759 01:23:36,140 --> 01:23:38,100 Looking at the physics of the whole thing, 1760 01:23:38,180 --> 01:23:41,100 it was so, it was so... 1761 01:23:41,190 --> 01:23:43,010 It was like something out of a bad horror movie. 1762 01:23:43,100 --> 01:23:44,580 You know, the kind of, the random events 1763 01:23:44,670 --> 01:23:46,630 that had to occur for this to happen 1764 01:23:46,710 --> 01:23:48,980 were just, were just... 1765 01:23:49,060 --> 01:23:51,110 cataclysmically unfair, you know? 1766 01:23:55,200 --> 01:23:56,810 I kept saying, 1767 01:23:56,900 --> 01:23:58,640 "This better be some kind of sick fucking joke. 1768 01:23:58,720 --> 01:24:02,380 And I swear to god, the person that is doing this, 1769 01:24:02,470 --> 01:24:04,300 I'm going to beat the ever living shit out of them 1770 01:24:04,380 --> 01:24:07,170 because this is not funny. 1771 01:24:08,210 --> 01:24:10,650 You can't take away him from us. 1772 01:24:10,740 --> 01:24:12,610 You can't take him away from me. 1773 01:24:12,690 --> 01:24:15,050 And you can't fucking do this." 1774 01:24:21,140 --> 01:24:22,920 He was taken way too soon, 1775 01:24:23,010 --> 01:24:24,180 there's no doubt about it. 1776 01:24:24,270 --> 01:24:26,530 It was a brutal way to go, 1777 01:24:26,620 --> 01:24:29,930 but in a weird way, it's very Anton-esque. 1778 01:24:30,020 --> 01:24:32,980 That it's just, he would show up at places, 1779 01:24:33,060 --> 01:24:34,410 and then he would look around, 1780 01:24:34,500 --> 01:24:35,500 and he was just gone. 1781 01:24:38,500 --> 01:24:41,590 I just think that the human race has been cheated. 1782 01:24:43,250 --> 01:24:47,860 In a world that moves on very quickly, 1783 01:24:47,950 --> 01:24:51,860 I don't want him ever to be forgotten. 1784 01:24:53,870 --> 01:24:56,170 "Our dear, dear son, 1785 01:24:56,260 --> 01:24:59,220 We wish you all the best life in this, 1786 01:24:59,310 --> 01:25:03,090 all your hopes, dreams, wishes, prayers will come true. 1787 01:25:03,180 --> 01:25:05,050 Absolutely for sure, 1788 01:25:05,140 --> 01:25:06,840 because you deserve it." 1789 01:25:08,270 --> 01:25:09,530 I never, I've never... 1790 01:25:09,620 --> 01:25:11,190 I mean, everybody loves their children, 1791 01:25:11,280 --> 01:25:13,890 but I don't think anybody really loved their child 1792 01:25:13,970 --> 01:25:15,580 like they loved Anton. 1793 01:26:24,000 --> 01:26:26,610 ♪ Well, Mom, Mommy ♪ 1794 01:26:26,700 --> 01:26:29,700 ♪ I play the blues for you ♪ 1795 01:26:31,400 --> 01:26:37,490 ♪ Mom, baby, Just like I used to ♪ 1796 01:26:37,580 --> 01:26:41,670 ♪ Well, it's a long time comin' But it's finally here ♪ 1797 01:26:41,760 --> 01:26:45,020 ♪ Mom, baby, want you near ♪ 1798 01:26:45,110 --> 01:26:49,760 ♪ Mommy, Mommy I'll play the blues for you ♪ 1799 01:26:51,460 --> 01:26:53,510 ♪ Well, Mom, Mommy ♪ 1800 01:26:53,590 --> 01:26:56,340 ♪ I play the blues for you ♪ 1801 01:26:58,560 --> 01:27:03,690 ♪ Well, Mama, baby, Tell ya how much I love you ♪ 1802 01:27:05,170 --> 01:27:09,390 ♪ Well, it's a long time comin' But it's finally here ♪ 1803 01:27:09,480 --> 01:27:12,660 ♪ Mom, baby, want you near ♪ 1804 01:27:12,740 --> 01:27:16,920 ♪ Mommy, Mommy, I'll sing the blues ♪ 1805 01:27:19,230 --> 01:27:20,450 ♪ For you ♪ 1806 01:27:36,420 --> 01:27:40,250 ♪ The sun ♪ 1807 01:27:41,820 --> 01:27:45,560 ♪ Shines ♪ 1808 01:27:46,300 --> 01:27:48,650 ♪ Below me ♪ 1809 01:27:50,780 --> 01:27:52,780 ♪ Below me ♪ 1810 01:27:54,790 --> 01:27:58,360 ♪ The sun ♪ 1811 01:27:59,180 --> 01:28:02,620 ♪ The sun, it shines ♪ 1812 01:28:03,530 --> 01:28:06,580 ♪ Shines below me ♪ 1813 01:28:08,280 --> 01:28:10,320 ♪ Below me ♪ 1814 01:28:13,810 --> 01:28:17,720 ♪ There's no use tellin' you ♪ 1815 01:28:17,810 --> 01:28:20,900 ♪ Just no use tellin' you ♪ 1816 01:28:20,990 --> 01:28:23,860 ♪ How I feel ♪ 1817 01:28:25,340 --> 01:28:27,780 ♪ How I feel ♪ 1818 01:28:30,430 --> 01:28:33,870 ♪ You're just gonna make up ♪ 1819 01:28:33,960 --> 01:28:37,740 ♪ Just gonna make Your face up in ♪ 1820 01:28:37,830 --> 01:28:40,790 ♪ Tears ♪ 1821 01:28:41,490 --> 01:28:43,050 ♪ Tears ♪ 1822 01:28:45,750 --> 01:28:49,410 ♪ You're just gonna make up ♪ 1823 01:28:49,490 --> 01:28:52,190 ♪ Just gonna make Your face up ♪ 1824 01:28:52,280 --> 01:28:57,370 ♪ In tears, whoa, whoa ♪ 1825 01:28:59,680 --> 01:29:03,510 ♪ Yes, I'm below, the sun ♪ 1826 01:29:04,860 --> 01:29:07,510 ♪ Shines ♪ 1827 01:29:09,430 --> 01:29:11,690 ♪ Below me ♪ 1828 01:29:15,560 --> 01:29:17,700 ♪ Below me ♪ 1829 01:29:23,350 --> 01:29:25,050 ♪ Below me ♪