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Somebody told me to start with a joke.

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I'm not good with jokes.

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I know it's been funny that there's been
some funny things happen to me, but

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they're not like jokes.

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There was this one time, Mother's Day,
Martin took me out for dinner. We had

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probably $500 with us, more, but Martin
had to use this credit card we'd been

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using way too long already.

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I said to him, let's just pay cash, but
he hands over the card. Anyway, the guy

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stalls us, keeps us there, says the
computer's fucked up, all that.

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I said to him, they called the cops.

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Anyway, long story short, Martin had to
stab the waiter.

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We're outside running.

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I've got this dress I've got to hold up,
heels on, skipping through all these

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puddles.

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That isn't actually a joke, I guess.

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Maybe you had to be there.

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Martin and I had some laughs.

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My brother Chris is in AA.

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He stays away from me. Gets him a bad
influence on him.

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This girl fucked Chris when her
boyfriend was out of town.

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The boyfriend comes back a little while
later. They've both got the clap.

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So she goes to Chris and takes him to
the clinic.

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Clinic says Chris doesn't have the clap.

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Well... This girl wouldn't believe it. I
mean, she knows her boyfriend didn't

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fuck her over when he was out of town.
She must have gotten it off of Chris.

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Except Chris doesn't have the clap.

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She's got this dirty disease, and she
must have gotten it off of dirty Chris,

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right?

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See, almost the exact same thing
happened to me.

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I'm a bad influence on my brother, yeah.

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Baby thinks he caught it off me.

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Anyways, he's an AA, Chris.

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And I'm here.

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It isn't my idea.

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Somebody said that that chick that got
up the other day, she said she looked

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back on her life and it was a black
hole.

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Uh, okay.

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I look back and... I guess all I can say
about it is I miss Martin.

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That's about it. I'm Miss Martin.

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She's overdone it.

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Can't go on.

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She caused it all.

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Cry, cry, cry. I don't get it. What are
you saying?

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Well, how long has he been dead?

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Hey, fuck you. I knew him too. You're
nothing special.

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Peter, it's Noel.

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Yeah, well, they're not good.

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I've got a situation here. I need a guy
in like an hour.

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Here, hold on, hold on.

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Hi.

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I know you're probably really mad at me,
and I don't blame you.

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Sorry.

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Peter, hold on, hold on.

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Do you have money?

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Money. Do you have any?

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Uh, no, not really. I don't. Here, so
this thing...

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No, not violence. Keep guessing.

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No, my brother just got here. He's right
here.

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That's it.

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Yeah, I tried him. He's naturally the
first person I thought of, and I just

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can't get a hold of him.

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Do you know Ronnie's dead?

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Yeah, yeah, I talked to his wife.

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Yeah. Thank you.

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Well, come on, then. How about you?

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Maybe so.

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Five. I was thinking three for me
because I'm sitting up, right?

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Can we fight about this later?

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Peter, this would be like a real favor
to me.

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Don't call me. calling me back? The
guy's going to be here in like an hour.

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What's the point in calling me back?

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I don't see a problem with this.

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Okay, what if we split it?

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$250 each.

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I said, what if we split it?

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Don't.

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Nodding up right on the phone and I
didn't even get it. Wow.

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Losing my touch, Chris.

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What do you want?

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Wow, everybody always asks me that. It's
unbelievable. I never know what to say.

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Denise, when it was obvious I wanted to
get out of there, move out, end it, she

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kept saying it to me. What do you want?

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Actually, what she said was, you don't
know what you want. You don't know what

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you want.

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You don't know what you want.

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I don't know what that means. I don't
know what that means.

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I don't know. I mean, I don't know what
I want. I don't know if I want a

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breakfast. I don't know if I want to
take a shower, read a book, or take a

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shower. I don't know what I want for the
rest of my life.

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Those questions are bullshit.

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What do you want, Chris?

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Uh, well... I wanted to give you this.

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Doesn't it remind you of the one that
you had on Duke Head?

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Golly, it's like a prize at the fair.

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Money. How much?

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Denise paid for my bus ticket. I,

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uh, 50 bucks.

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Less, actually. Uh, hello, where does
she think you'll stay? In a treehouse?

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Call Denise right now. You need money.

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No, no, no. I can't do that. We broke
up.

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Call her. Tell her breaking up was a
mistake. No. You're thinking it over,

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trying to get your head together. It
could happen.

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It isn't actually lying.

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You know, Noel, I've realized there are
things I can take and things that I

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can't. And one thing that I cannot take
anymore, I just can't fucking hack it,

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is hypocrisy.

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Don't. Just don't.

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That's a cute trait, but it took you too
long to learn it.

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Five years. It wasn't my idea. Fuck you,
Chris. You're here?

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I need money. You're gonna get me some.

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You must have friends.

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Don't they have jobs?

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It isn't that much money. Call three
people. Ask them for a hundred each. A

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hundred is nothing.

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Three hundred? Five years? That's...
That's $60 a year.

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Five birthdays?

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Five Christmas presents? That's...

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$30 a year, Chris. $30 fucking dollars a
year. It's nothing.

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You owe it to me.

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Call your friends, get me three... Get
me 100.

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What about that?

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20 lousy bucks for every year I didn't
hear from you. You were out here twice.

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Everyone saw you but me. You know what a
fucking asshole I look like?

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Can you call some people?

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Can we just have a cup of coffee and sit
down and talk and stuff?

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No! There's a guy gonna be here in an
hour!

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Not even that! I owe him money and I've
gotta have it.

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Five hundred.

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Three, really.

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Well, can't you just go out?

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Yeah, but I can't stay out. Grow up.

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Okay, Noel, I don't have it! Sorry, but
I don't!

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Put your hands up. If I find more than
50 bucks on you, I keep it. Deal?

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Come on. No.

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No, come on. You're not going to frisk
me. What do you care if you're telling

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the truth? Hey, stop it. That's not nice
to call your brother. Oh, that's

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fucking mean.

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Small Terry calling from

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Angelo.

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if you get this message in the next half
hour or 20 minutes.

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Fuck it, man. There's no time. Never
mind. Never mind.

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I mean, what the fuck is this guy going
to do? I mean, is he going to kill you?

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Can't he wait?

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Okay, that'd be nice.

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So I left Denise.

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I'm not moving to England.

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I'm here.

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How long have you been here?

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Since I got out.

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Of course.

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You gonna hug me or something?

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You been lifting weights? You feel like
you just got out of the joint. Shut up.

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You know what, I actually do have
weights at home now. Well, Denise will

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probably solve them.

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You didn't show him the why. Start
playing handball, maybe a little yoga?

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Why, because I'm sober? Is that what you
think we do?

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Yes.

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You did actually join the Y.

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You're right. I couldn't get it.

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I just wondered if you were still my
brother.

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So I'm assuming... I'm just assuming you
don't want to talk about the bit you

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did.

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Would have been nice getting a letter
then.

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You've never done any time, right?

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What have you done? You've done a
weekend?

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My life's pretty much fucked.

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Almost everything they say about
everything is wrong. Unbelievable. I

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started for me with snowflakes.

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You know?

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We're all supposed to be different and
unique, right? Like snowflakes.

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I think I heard that one too many times.
So I started thinking, okay, let's say

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it's snowing in Toronto.

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Baffin Island and Mongolia, and none of
those snowflakes match?

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That's bullshit. I think most snowflakes
are alike, not none of them.

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You ever think about killing yourself?

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I thought, look, it takes more guts to
stay alive than it does, you know, to

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kill yourself, right? But then I was
like, why?

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You know, do I even believe that? It's
like the snowflakes. That thought was

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already living in my fucking head. I
didn't even have to think it.

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You have these thoughts. I don't know. I
do.

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They're like...

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They're like bad neighbors. They make
too much fucking noise and you put up

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them anyway.

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That's what... That's what lives in my
head, bad neighbors.

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You know who I ran into? Dean.

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He asked about you.

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Yeah? Plugging this gym bag big enough
to steal watermelons.

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Regular little athlete.

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That's Dean.

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You look great.

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Told him you were married.

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Someone I've never met, never seen a
picture of.

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You tell her any of that? What's her
face? Denise?

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You and Dean?

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She doesn't care. You met in the AA.

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She doesn't care you were with him.

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Well, I haven't done anything like that
since I've been sober.

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You weren't drunk when you met Dean.

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Okay, well, drug, same thing. I mean, I
know I wasn't stoned the day I met Dean,

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but it was a time in my life.

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I can't believe you haven't been with
another guy since Dean.

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Not even a little bit.

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You were really into him. that him the
whole thing well i'm not i mean okay i'm

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a flirt or i i can be what are we
talking about true love you and dean

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together i was hiding out then never
bothered me you and dean it seemed right

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my life just changed

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on me no i couldn't bring you into it

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Now it's changed again.

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I really want to make it up to you.

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Well, that's good to hear.

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Because I happen to need you to help me.

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Anything. Name it.

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Why don't you fuck this guy with me?

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Fuck who up?

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No, just fuck him. He's going to be here
in like 45 minutes.

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Listen to me. I need money. I called
this guy. I haven't seen him for a

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of years. He wants the two of us, me and
a guy. He'll pay 500.

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I've done this before with him. Usually
he just likes to watch, but in anything

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goes situation.

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I'm sure he'll settle for the two of us
on him. I know. Wait, I don't get it.

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You need this money to pay the other guy
back?

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They're both coming here?

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No, there is no other guy. That was a
lie. I made that up. This guy will pay

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500. I can't find anyone who will do it
with me.

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Fucking Ronnie's dead. So I figured if
you could give me the five, I'd cancel

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the date. If you gave me three, I'd
cancel.

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I'd have to give two to whoever I did it
with anyway.

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So if you won't give me the money, I've
got to do this guy.

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I need a partner.

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Holy shit, Noel.

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I'll give you $200. You need the money.

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What do you need the $500 or the $300 or
whatever for? Why do you need it? I

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don't need $300. I could use $100, but
this guy is offering me $500. If that's

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what I'm turning down, I've got to get
that back from somewhere, right? I can't

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turn down $500 and take $100. I'm losing
money.

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Okay, you need $100, right?

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So this guy calls you up and he offers
you $500 for sex with you and another

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guy.

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00:15:38,760 --> 00:15:42,640
And now you think that's what you are
supposed to have just because that's

240
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he's offering?

241
00:15:43,480 --> 00:15:44,900
That doesn't even make sense, Noel.

242
00:15:45,440 --> 00:15:48,540
No, no, no. Okay, wait, wait. Imagine
this. You walk into a bank with a check

243
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for 20 bucks. And the cashier cashes it,
opens up the drawer, and there's like

244
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two grand in there. You think, what,
you're supposed to get the two grand

245
00:15:54,680 --> 00:15:57,300
instead of the 20? Because that's what
happens to be there?

246
00:15:58,680 --> 00:15:59,680
Yeah, that's right.

247
00:15:59,900 --> 00:16:00,900
That's correct.

248
00:16:01,140 --> 00:16:03,600
That's what I'm told by the noisy little
neighbors in my head.

249
00:16:05,160 --> 00:16:06,160
You fuck.

250
00:16:07,050 --> 00:16:09,370
I'm the fucker. You fucking asshole.

251
00:16:09,910 --> 00:16:11,850
No, don't talk to me like that again,
Chris.

252
00:16:13,670 --> 00:16:15,690
Do you remember the last time I moved
and I lived out here?

253
00:16:15,930 --> 00:16:18,010
Do you remember that? You brought that
guy over to my place that you ripped

254
00:16:18,190 --> 00:16:21,330
Do you remember this? I shook his hand.
I stood there talking to him for like

255
00:16:21,330 --> 00:16:23,770
ten minutes about moving like a fucking
asshole.

256
00:16:24,030 --> 00:16:27,390
And then you tell me he's there to get
money. And if I don't have it, we're

257
00:16:27,390 --> 00:16:31,770
going to have to beat him up, kick him
out, whatever. He knows where I live.

258
00:16:31,770 --> 00:16:34,610
fucking one, I'm already living in Civil
War. I don't want to be.

259
00:16:35,250 --> 00:16:36,680
So... This is nothing new.

260
00:16:39,440 --> 00:16:41,480
Get the fuck out of here. My pleasure.

261
00:16:50,360 --> 00:16:53,020
Look, I don't want to do this anymore.

262
00:16:53,420 --> 00:16:55,600
Don't do this, no. Fuck, do you think
I'm kidding?

263
00:16:56,100 --> 00:16:57,460
No, no, hey, no.

264
00:16:58,100 --> 00:16:59,320
Hey, let me just stop.

265
00:16:59,960 --> 00:17:00,960
Hey.

266
00:17:06,569 --> 00:17:09,390
Hey, calm down. Don't fucking tell me to
calm down.

267
00:17:10,210 --> 00:17:11,210
No.

268
00:17:15,670 --> 00:17:16,670
Stop it.

269
00:17:20,290 --> 00:17:21,329
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

270
00:17:22,450 --> 00:17:23,269
I'm sorry.

271
00:17:23,270 --> 00:17:24,270
I'm sorry.

272
00:17:26,470 --> 00:17:27,470
I'm really sorry.

273
00:17:27,609 --> 00:17:28,670
I'm really, really sorry.

274
00:17:38,030 --> 00:17:40,490
He'll probably pay $500 to watch us
fight.

275
00:17:41,530 --> 00:17:43,330
If you tore the rest of my clothes off.

276
00:17:47,330 --> 00:17:48,610
I don't like fighting.

277
00:17:50,590 --> 00:17:52,630
I'm glad you're here, Chris.

278
00:17:58,570 --> 00:17:59,570
Okay.

279
00:17:59,770 --> 00:18:00,770
What are we going to do?

280
00:18:02,310 --> 00:18:03,310
What do you want to do?

281
00:18:04,670 --> 00:18:06,530
I'm going to let the guy, the money guy.

282
00:18:07,240 --> 00:18:09,160
What can we do? You know the situation.

283
00:18:12,520 --> 00:18:18,940
I mean, I... I don't know. I'd like...
You'd like a cup of coffee?

284
00:18:19,660 --> 00:18:20,660
Yeah.

285
00:18:20,900 --> 00:18:21,980
Yeah, I really would.

286
00:18:24,420 --> 00:18:25,960
Isn't that shirt a little airy now?

287
00:18:26,440 --> 00:18:27,440
Are you cold?

288
00:18:28,680 --> 00:18:29,680
Are you cold?

289
00:18:37,550 --> 00:18:40,450
And he always makes fun of the way I
dress. Says I'm too drab.

290
00:18:41,650 --> 00:18:45,870
He goes out and buys me all these
fucking shirts.

291
00:18:47,770 --> 00:18:49,330
They'll make me feel conspicuous.

292
00:18:49,590 --> 00:18:50,950
You're not interested in Dean.

293
00:18:52,030 --> 00:18:53,930
You're not interested in guys at all.

294
00:18:55,070 --> 00:18:57,370
You're clearly not interested in money.

295
00:18:59,550 --> 00:19:00,970
How do you feel about junk?

296
00:19:02,870 --> 00:19:04,070
That's what this is about.

297
00:19:10,730 --> 00:19:14,590
I've been clean almost three months.
Part of my parole, I have to go to the

298
00:19:14,590 --> 00:19:15,590
fucking meetings.

299
00:19:15,850 --> 00:19:16,850
Come on.

300
00:19:18,730 --> 00:19:20,490
Yeah, well, the bus. I was going.

301
00:19:20,970 --> 00:19:22,310
Getting my sheets signed.

302
00:19:22,610 --> 00:19:23,990
Lately, I've been signing it myself.

303
00:19:24,450 --> 00:19:26,310
Well, if you've already been going,
you've probably heard this before.

304
00:19:27,150 --> 00:19:32,190
But why not, uh... Why not try one more
day?

305
00:19:33,230 --> 00:19:35,250
Because this is the day I want it.

306
00:19:35,850 --> 00:19:36,850
Today.

307
00:19:37,350 --> 00:19:39,850
The only day of the week I worry about.

308
00:19:42,090 --> 00:19:46,010
Well, if you've already made up your
mind, you wouldn't be telling me any of

309
00:19:46,010 --> 00:19:49,010
this. I'm telling you I tried the
fucking meeting so you don't have to try

310
00:19:49,010 --> 00:19:50,010
save me.

311
00:19:50,970 --> 00:19:51,970
Those people.

312
00:19:52,490 --> 00:19:57,370
I don't know how you do it. They're
scared, like scared little kids.

313
00:19:57,850 --> 00:19:59,970
You want bad things not to happen.

314
00:20:00,490 --> 00:20:02,810
You don't follow the program, you get
cancer.

315
00:20:03,530 --> 00:20:07,480
They think they see their... Prayers and
they're good little boys and girls.

316
00:20:07,540 --> 00:20:11,640
Nothing bad will happen to them.
Anything bad does happen. Like, to

317
00:20:11,640 --> 00:20:12,640
else especially.

318
00:20:12,920 --> 00:20:16,440
They figure out where he went wrong, how
it can't happen to them. They think

319
00:20:16,440 --> 00:20:17,440
they'll live forever.

320
00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:22,280
Do you believe that shit? Are you still
my brother?

321
00:20:25,400 --> 00:20:26,800
I don't know. It beats heroin.

322
00:20:29,540 --> 00:20:30,540
What does?

323
00:20:33,720 --> 00:20:34,720
Look, I...

324
00:20:34,730 --> 00:20:37,370
I mean, I know. I can see where you have
your problems with it. We all do.

325
00:20:38,490 --> 00:20:41,310
First time you walk in, you see the
signs in the front of the room there,

326
00:20:41,310 --> 00:20:42,310
slogans.

327
00:20:43,490 --> 00:20:44,670
Keep it simple.

328
00:20:45,070 --> 00:20:46,070
Easy does it.

329
00:20:46,350 --> 00:20:49,630
I know. It's bad news. I know. What the
fuck am I doing here?

330
00:20:50,070 --> 00:20:52,610
You know, it's easy to think that you're
too smart for it. That's easy.

331
00:20:53,430 --> 00:20:57,430
You know? They think they're cliches.
And they're... You know, I'll tell you,

332
00:20:57,470 --> 00:21:01,810
they... They are. Well, I mean, look,
they are. They are cliches. They are.

333
00:21:03,010 --> 00:21:04,410
But I had this guy, um...

334
00:21:04,640 --> 00:21:05,519
The sponsor?

335
00:21:05,520 --> 00:21:10,260
I got rid of my M andM for years, but he
used to tell me there's a reason that

336
00:21:10,260 --> 00:21:13,820
cliches have become cliches, right? That
they've been around a long time, that

337
00:21:13,820 --> 00:21:17,760
they've lasted, and that's... He's
saying they're true, you know?

338
00:21:18,380 --> 00:21:19,380
And I felt better.

339
00:21:20,820 --> 00:21:22,220
Then I stopped feeling better, of
course.

340
00:21:22,720 --> 00:21:25,860
Been around a long time means fuck all.
Santa Claus has been around a long time.

341
00:21:26,020 --> 00:21:27,880
Neckties have been around a long time.

342
00:21:28,220 --> 00:21:30,080
There's nothing more useless than a
fucking necktie.

343
00:21:31,760 --> 00:21:33,940
Cliches are, I don't know, you believe
them, you become one.

344
00:21:34,240 --> 00:21:35,240
These are neckties.

345
00:21:35,300 --> 00:21:37,880
They're the neckties you hang yourself
with in your cell.

346
00:21:40,580 --> 00:21:42,000
That's good. I'm going to write that
down.

347
00:21:43,260 --> 00:21:45,300
I don't remember these things with time.

348
00:21:54,540 --> 00:21:55,820
In your cell.

349
00:21:56,840 --> 00:21:57,840
What's that?

350
00:21:59,640 --> 00:22:01,700
You think it's not going to work. It
shouldn't work.

351
00:22:02,780 --> 00:22:05,640
But... You can get clean. You can sober
up.

352
00:22:06,140 --> 00:22:07,140
Because of God.

353
00:22:08,900 --> 00:22:12,680
Did you know I was supposed to move to
England? That I got accepted to

354
00:22:12,680 --> 00:22:16,320
theological school in Nottingham? Did
Dad tell you any of that?

355
00:22:17,680 --> 00:22:19,900
Yeah, I figured it was bullshit. No.

356
00:22:20,120 --> 00:22:22,440
You were just trying to beat him for the
tuition money.

357
00:22:22,740 --> 00:22:23,740
No, no, no, no, no.

358
00:22:25,140 --> 00:22:28,160
I don't know what to say about it, but
it's kind of a long story.

359
00:22:29,480 --> 00:22:31,720
He's not interested because it's just
me!

360
00:22:33,450 --> 00:22:35,910
She set up a partner first. I was
fucking greedy.

361
00:22:37,910 --> 00:22:39,090
Fucking rotty!

362
00:22:40,370 --> 00:22:44,110
It takes more guts to go on living than
to have to kill yourself. It's

363
00:22:44,110 --> 00:22:46,470
unbelievable. It's what I was thinking
without even fucking thinking.

364
00:22:47,490 --> 00:22:48,490
I mean, obviously.

365
00:22:49,270 --> 00:22:50,410
Just look at it.

366
00:22:51,270 --> 00:22:54,130
It's always harder to do something new
than it is to just keep going. It's a

367
00:22:54,130 --> 00:22:55,130
basic law of physics.

368
00:22:55,150 --> 00:22:58,490
The only people you hear who say that it
takes more guts to go on living are the

369
00:22:58,490 --> 00:22:59,730
ones that don't have the guts to kill
themselves.

370
00:23:00,680 --> 00:23:03,500
Those people are supposed to have guts.
That's kind of self -serving. I don't

371
00:23:03,500 --> 00:23:05,920
buy that. What are you talking about?

372
00:23:08,120 --> 00:23:12,300
I don't know. I'm supposed to know what
to say to you, Noel, and I don't.

373
00:23:14,280 --> 00:23:15,280
I'm not going to kill myself.

374
00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:16,440
That's not what I mean.

375
00:23:18,060 --> 00:23:23,540
But this fucking guy, I don't know that
I can do that. Take it out of your

376
00:23:23,540 --> 00:23:26,540
pants. Close your eyes. You fake me.

377
00:23:29,420 --> 00:23:34,820
It's been a long time. I haven't... What
does he look like? How old is he?

378
00:23:35,500 --> 00:23:36,500
Don't I look skinny?

379
00:23:37,280 --> 00:23:38,320
You want to just watch?

380
00:23:38,560 --> 00:23:40,100
You might go for it. How old is he?

381
00:23:40,800 --> 00:23:41,800
He's older.

382
00:23:41,820 --> 00:23:43,320
You'll look great to him.

383
00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:48,080
Oh, this is the thing, man. You fucking
scare me.

384
00:23:48,520 --> 00:23:49,920
I was supposed to be a priest.

385
00:23:50,760 --> 00:23:52,180
Anglican. You can still have facts.

386
00:23:57,390 --> 00:24:00,790
I'd have to think about it. Why does it
have to be right now? Why does it have

387
00:24:00,790 --> 00:24:01,549
to be tonight?

388
00:24:01,550 --> 00:24:03,810
Look, it's like this. We fuck the guy.

389
00:24:04,010 --> 00:24:08,990
Make him kneel down, close your eyes,
don't say anything, or else just sit

390
00:24:09,090 --> 00:24:11,430
just watch, don't smile.

391
00:24:12,530 --> 00:24:16,990
I'll tell me you're a cop, a vice cop,
that you're forcing me to do this.

392
00:24:18,450 --> 00:24:21,870
Okay, all that's left, you could do
something to me or I do something to

393
00:24:21,910 --> 00:24:22,910
and that's outright.

394
00:24:24,360 --> 00:24:28,460
We're not going to do this tomorrow or
next week or at midnight.

395
00:24:28,900 --> 00:24:30,180
We're going to do it now.

396
00:24:30,580 --> 00:24:31,660
So what's it going to be?

397
00:24:36,040 --> 00:24:38,160
Why don't I just call Dad and ask him
for $250?

398
00:24:38,860 --> 00:24:40,340
He won't like it, but he'll do it.

399
00:24:40,640 --> 00:24:43,400
You know what? No, that's not fair.
That's not fair to him. He doesn't have

400
00:24:43,400 --> 00:24:44,400
fucking money.

401
00:24:46,020 --> 00:24:48,320
Call him now. No, I just got off the
bus.

402
00:24:48,540 --> 00:24:51,900
Call him now. I'm not sending my guy
away and then finding out you can't get

403
00:24:51,900 --> 00:24:52,900
money. No.

404
00:24:56,690 --> 00:25:02,090
Go. Who the fuck is Noel? Nobody here by
that name. It's Noel, like stole, like

405
00:25:02,090 --> 00:25:03,090
hole, you know?

406
00:25:05,710 --> 00:25:08,210
It's just a little joke. What do you
think it is?

407
00:25:09,950 --> 00:25:13,550
The right way to say it is any way you
want to say it.

408
00:25:15,410 --> 00:25:17,810
Who's this teasing you, you bad man?

409
00:25:19,850 --> 00:25:22,630
There's somebody here. We were just
talking about you.

410
00:25:24,910 --> 00:25:26,590
Well, you'll just have to see for
yourself.

411
00:25:29,110 --> 00:25:30,430
Just one second, will you?

412
00:25:32,030 --> 00:25:34,110
Hold on.

413
00:25:38,050 --> 00:25:39,170
He can wait.

414
00:25:39,590 --> 00:25:40,590
But not forever.

415
00:25:44,270 --> 00:25:45,970
Don't make us start without you.

416
00:25:46,790 --> 00:25:48,150
He's gonna be late.

417
00:25:48,670 --> 00:25:50,050
Not too late.

418
00:25:50,410 --> 00:25:51,690
He's gonna fucking this thing up.

419
00:25:51,990 --> 00:25:53,190
Such a busy girl.

420
00:25:54,700 --> 00:25:58,220
We've got a little time to hunt around
here and find you a pair of balls.

421
00:25:58,880 --> 00:26:02,040
A good set of balls that swing, the kind
men have.

422
00:26:02,520 --> 00:26:04,860
You said you'd done this with him
before, but he doesn't know how to say

423
00:26:04,860 --> 00:26:07,640
name. So you don't know him, do you?

424
00:26:07,920 --> 00:26:10,040
I don't know him that well, but I know
him.

425
00:26:10,300 --> 00:26:11,300
All right,

426
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:14,480
I'm just going to say this. I'm just
going to say it.

427
00:26:15,980 --> 00:26:17,580
There's a god, Noel.

428
00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:19,600
There's a fucking god.

429
00:26:20,020 --> 00:26:22,580
You'd make the blind see, brother. You
really would.

430
00:26:23,040 --> 00:26:26,660
I'm not kidding, Noel. I would be
fucking nowhere without God.

431
00:26:27,100 --> 00:26:30,800
You're in my room. You fucked up your
marriage. You got 50 bucks?

432
00:26:31,180 --> 00:26:33,500
If I was you, I'd give the devil some
serious consideration.

433
00:26:34,060 --> 00:26:38,020
Yeah, I do this thing, Noel. I am the
devil. You can just watch, I said.

434
00:26:38,280 --> 00:26:39,880
Well, hold on your pants and don't
watch.

435
00:26:40,180 --> 00:26:43,920
Will a blowjob send you to hell? Helping
you get money for drugs doesn't really

436
00:26:43,920 --> 00:26:44,920
matter how I help.

437
00:26:45,160 --> 00:26:47,080
No, you're helping me get money.

438
00:26:47,620 --> 00:26:49,860
Your sister is fucked. Fucking broke.

439
00:26:50,120 --> 00:26:53,000
And after five years, not a word, not a
dime?

440
00:26:53,660 --> 00:26:56,460
Now, you sit there. You are being a smug
little cocksucker.

441
00:26:56,700 --> 00:27:00,380
Every cocksucker performed horrors worse
than anybody.

442
00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:02,040
Now, look at you.

443
00:27:02,360 --> 00:27:06,020
I need you to help me, and you're going
to fucking help me. All you have to do

444
00:27:06,020 --> 00:27:08,760
is sit still, shut up. That isn't a
whole lot to ask.

445
00:27:09,060 --> 00:27:12,500
How I spend my money, that's my own
fucking business. You understand?

446
00:27:13,120 --> 00:27:14,940
My money, my business.

447
00:27:16,040 --> 00:27:18,080
Do you understand? Yes, I understand.

448
00:27:25,360 --> 00:27:26,440
Want some more coffee?

449
00:27:28,480 --> 00:27:30,480
I bet I'm feeling a little jumpy.

450
00:27:32,920 --> 00:27:33,920
You'll be fine.

451
00:27:36,540 --> 00:27:38,540
Have you ever thought about this before
with me?

452
00:27:39,120 --> 00:27:40,120
This situation?

453
00:27:40,520 --> 00:27:41,520
No.

454
00:27:42,060 --> 00:27:45,060
No, I mean, have you ever thought
about... Have you ever thought about

455
00:27:45,060 --> 00:27:46,160
sex with me before?

456
00:27:46,460 --> 00:27:48,840
I'm not asking you to have sex with me,
Chris.

457
00:27:49,300 --> 00:27:52,320
Okay, but have you ever thought about it
at all in any way?

458
00:27:52,800 --> 00:27:55,960
Well, for a couple of years on and off,
it's not about tacking you down in

459
00:27:55,960 --> 00:27:57,980
Toronto and getting somebody to break
your thumbs.

460
00:27:58,740 --> 00:28:00,640
Martin knows plenty of guys who can do
that.

461
00:28:00,920 --> 00:28:01,920
Cheap, too.

462
00:28:02,660 --> 00:28:05,560
And then I started getting quite angry
at you.

463
00:28:06,420 --> 00:28:09,880
Thought about putting you in a
wheelchair for life, maybe having you

464
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:12,860
It's a lot more expensive, but you get
what you pay for.

465
00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:15,920
Then I just thought about killing you.

466
00:28:16,640 --> 00:28:18,380
I haven't thought about that for a year
or two.

467
00:28:18,620 --> 00:28:20,060
Maybe once or twice.

468
00:28:20,520 --> 00:28:21,520
But really?

469
00:28:22,090 --> 00:28:27,790
In the last year or so, I haven't
thought much about you at all, so no, I

470
00:28:27,790 --> 00:28:29,350
think about fucking you.

471
00:28:31,430 --> 00:28:35,330
You know, I don't have to be here when
this guy shows up. I mean, you didn't

472
00:28:35,330 --> 00:28:37,030
know that I would come. What the fuck
were you going to do?

473
00:28:38,350 --> 00:28:39,830
You leave him fucked, you happy?

474
00:28:40,350 --> 00:28:42,070
Where are you going to go with 50 bucks,
Dean?

475
00:28:43,830 --> 00:28:44,830
Just saying.

476
00:28:45,230 --> 00:28:46,330
Okay, you said.

477
00:28:46,930 --> 00:28:50,050
You've got about, oh, no time to make up
your mind.

478
00:28:50,620 --> 00:28:52,200
You just said he was going to be late.

479
00:28:53,280 --> 00:28:57,280
We're not going to be drinking coffee
when he walks in. This guy's paying five

480
00:28:57,280 --> 00:28:58,280
bills.

481
00:29:07,340 --> 00:29:08,340
What's his name?

482
00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:10,040
Lewis.

483
00:29:12,500 --> 00:29:13,500
Lewis?

484
00:29:24,400 --> 00:29:26,440
There's a charter flight going from
Miami to Rome.

485
00:29:26,880 --> 00:29:29,040
The plane's been up in the air about
three hours. It's full.

486
00:29:29,580 --> 00:29:32,660
And the pilot comes over to the intercom
and he says, I got good news and I've

487
00:29:32,660 --> 00:29:33,579
got bad news.

488
00:29:33,580 --> 00:29:34,580
Is this a joke?

489
00:29:34,840 --> 00:29:35,840
Yeah.

490
00:29:36,600 --> 00:29:40,540
He says, I got good news and I got bad
news. The bad news is, I don't know

491
00:29:40,540 --> 00:29:44,000
the hell we are. But the good news is,
we're making damn good time.

492
00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:49,720
Think that does it?

493
00:29:57,220 --> 00:29:58,640
There but for the grace of God.

494
00:29:58,860 --> 00:29:59,860
Unbelievable.

495
00:30:00,180 --> 00:30:01,320
Everybody fuck it up.

496
00:30:03,040 --> 00:30:07,320
Grace of God. I know it sounds like
bullshit to you, but it's really, it's

497
00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:08,420
whole thing, you know?

498
00:30:10,020 --> 00:30:14,160
And I don't think grace comes and comes
and comes, you know? I think you can say

499
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,980
no to it, you know? Like, I believe in
the grace of God.

500
00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:21,620
I am sober and I am clean and I am alive
today by the grace of God. But what is

501
00:30:21,620 --> 00:30:25,740
it supposed to fucking mean if somebody
can't stop using, if they can't get

502
00:30:25,740 --> 00:30:29,450
sober? I've got the grace of God, but
they don't? That's bullshit. You can say

503
00:30:29,450 --> 00:30:30,450
no to it.

504
00:30:30,510 --> 00:30:32,870
You know what? This is the kind of shit
that worries Dad.

505
00:30:33,350 --> 00:30:35,910
He said to me, can you see Chris going
for this religious thing?

506
00:30:36,370 --> 00:30:40,310
He said, Dad, Chris has been a religious
maniac all his life.

507
00:30:40,550 --> 00:30:45,310
Oh. When I was in grade three or four,
you told me you wanted to die on a

508
00:30:45,310 --> 00:30:46,550
fucking rock.

509
00:30:46,770 --> 00:30:50,730
Hey, I was... You told me that is how
you wanted to die. I was in the fifth

510
00:30:50,730 --> 00:30:52,350
grade. That's kid talk.

511
00:30:52,590 --> 00:30:54,070
Not as common as you think.

512
00:30:54,270 --> 00:30:55,910
Not like wanting to be a fireman.

513
00:30:58,380 --> 00:31:01,560
I believe in the grace of God. I am
alive because of the grace of God.

514
00:31:02,380 --> 00:31:03,700
You're dying on a cross.

515
00:31:08,120 --> 00:31:09,880
No, I can't tell you what to do, okay?

516
00:31:13,540 --> 00:31:15,920
I was supposed to be a priest, and I
said no.

517
00:31:16,920 --> 00:31:20,440
Louis isn't coming over here today
because of God, by the way. I'm not here

518
00:31:20,440 --> 00:31:21,440
because of God.

519
00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:23,700
This is about saying no.

520
00:31:25,340 --> 00:31:26,960
Joy fucks with your body.

521
00:31:27,690 --> 00:31:31,050
Makes you fat or something. Would you
pay 500 for this?

522
00:31:31,650 --> 00:31:32,650
I'm your brother.

523
00:31:33,670 --> 00:31:35,090
Okay, try to imagine you're not.

524
00:31:37,110 --> 00:31:38,170
I'm tired of imagining.

525
00:31:38,470 --> 00:31:40,950
You know who you are. It's bad enough
without fucking imagining.

526
00:31:41,430 --> 00:31:45,310
I'm trying to remember the body I had,
not imagine it.

527
00:31:47,810 --> 00:31:49,450
Oh, you think I look that bad?

528
00:31:50,550 --> 00:31:51,550
I'm your brother.

529
00:31:52,170 --> 00:31:54,870
Yeah, okay, when you get here, you're
not my brother.

530
00:31:55,150 --> 00:31:56,250
You want me to join the Y?

531
00:31:57,959 --> 00:31:59,700
Ow. Hey, don't change.

532
00:31:59,980 --> 00:32:02,320
Should I shave my legs? They're not
really smooth, but I don't think they're

533
00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:03,320
rough. Are they rough?

534
00:32:03,640 --> 00:32:04,640
Are they rough?

535
00:32:04,840 --> 00:32:05,840
Stop that.

536
00:32:06,040 --> 00:32:07,040
Stop it.

537
00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:09,140
Stop it. Call Lewis. Tell him to forget
it.

538
00:32:09,520 --> 00:32:10,560
You gonna give me 500?

539
00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:11,739
Yes.

540
00:32:11,740 --> 00:32:12,740
Yes.

541
00:32:13,020 --> 00:32:14,020
Yes.

542
00:32:15,220 --> 00:32:16,220
Yes.

543
00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:23,140
I've got that much. A little more. Not
much more.

544
00:32:24,340 --> 00:32:25,340
But I have that.

545
00:32:26,190 --> 00:32:27,850
I don't believe you. Let me see it.

546
00:32:45,930 --> 00:32:46,930
Fifty bucks.

547
00:32:47,370 --> 00:32:49,430
Did God teach you how to lie?

548
00:32:49,630 --> 00:32:51,070
Okay. Come on.

549
00:32:51,290 --> 00:32:52,290
Call those.

550
00:32:52,610 --> 00:32:54,570
Tell them to forget. Tell them to get
here. Come on.

551
00:32:55,120 --> 00:32:56,320
You really don't want to do this thing,
do you?

552
00:32:57,000 --> 00:33:00,320
Nope. His five only gets him an hour. It
won't even take that.

553
00:33:00,820 --> 00:33:04,840
Five from him, this five. Five more in
your pants? No, no, no, no. That's a

554
00:33:04,840 --> 00:33:07,800
decent amount of money, Chris. I gave
you that so that Lewis would stay out of

555
00:33:07,800 --> 00:33:10,040
it. If you don't fucking like it, you
can back me. No, you gave me this, you

556
00:33:10,040 --> 00:33:12,560
have no say in what I do with it. That
is bullshit. I didn't give you anything.

557
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:16,100
I didn't fucking give you anything. I'm
paying you. For what?

558
00:33:16,340 --> 00:33:17,340
For sex.

559
00:33:19,400 --> 00:33:21,420
You fucking give it. Never mind. Whoa!

560
00:33:23,560 --> 00:33:27,580
Oh, there, big guy. You already paid the
girl. You change your mind, you don't

561
00:33:27,580 --> 00:33:28,559
get a refund.

562
00:33:28,560 --> 00:33:31,360
If you tell Dad, I will deny it, and he
knows you're fucking crazy.

563
00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:32,719
I'm crazy?

564
00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:34,660
You've got the balls to say that?

565
00:33:37,580 --> 00:33:39,060
Okay, fine. Forget it. Fuck it.

566
00:33:39,500 --> 00:33:40,500
Forget it. Forget it.

567
00:33:41,580 --> 00:33:42,580
I don't want it.

568
00:33:43,120 --> 00:33:45,360
I am bailing you out of this situation,
though.

569
00:33:47,300 --> 00:33:48,440
I can't stop you.

570
00:33:49,460 --> 00:33:52,780
Doing drugs, guys. At least I can stop
you from turning tricks. But you're

571
00:33:52,780 --> 00:33:55,420
to do something for me. Tomorrow
morning, you're going to come to a

572
00:33:55,420 --> 00:33:56,399
meeting with me.

573
00:33:56,400 --> 00:33:57,400
Yeah? Yes!

574
00:33:57,640 --> 00:33:59,980
That could be the grace of God entering
your life.

575
00:34:00,260 --> 00:34:01,260
Woohoo!

576
00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:05,780
There's a girl our age at my home group.
It's not that weird.

577
00:34:07,040 --> 00:34:09,540
You want me to do it with me?

578
00:34:11,159 --> 00:34:12,520
We can do it. No, no.

579
00:34:14,020 --> 00:34:15,760
You must think I'm so fucked up.

580
00:34:16,780 --> 00:34:18,679
You know what you want. A lot of guys
don't.

581
00:34:19,569 --> 00:34:20,650
Why don't I want a new car?

582
00:34:23,130 --> 00:34:24,130
Do you know what you want?

583
00:34:28,429 --> 00:34:31,949
I want if we do it.

584
00:34:33,250 --> 00:34:37,489
I don't want, like, kissing and hugging
and all that stuff.

585
00:34:38,330 --> 00:34:40,469
We're going to do it once. I want to do
it to death.

586
00:34:40,870 --> 00:34:41,870
I'll do anything.

587
00:34:42,550 --> 00:34:43,650
But we're going to wait for Louis.

588
00:34:46,090 --> 00:34:48,870
Just a second. I can't just do it. I
mean, can you...

589
00:34:49,179 --> 00:34:52,340
Right now, you could take off your
clothes and do it just like that. Yup!

590
00:34:53,520 --> 00:34:57,540
Okay, if he's here, it's something we
do. I can understand that. I can

591
00:34:57,540 --> 00:34:58,560
understand the shape of it.

592
00:34:58,840 --> 00:35:00,900
And that we can really do it.

593
00:35:01,300 --> 00:35:03,640
There's nothing we can't do with Lewis.
The badder, the better.

594
00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:06,500
I can do it with Lewis, but I'm not
doing it with Adam. You're unbelievable.

595
00:35:07,060 --> 00:35:09,640
You have to have that other 500 because
it's there.

596
00:35:21,130 --> 00:35:22,470
Too bad you don't like kissing, eh?

597
00:35:22,870 --> 00:35:23,990
Because you're good at it.

598
00:35:27,170 --> 00:35:30,510
Oh, fuck, Noel. I've been thinking about
this for such a long fucking time.

599
00:35:33,310 --> 00:35:35,470
But with somebody out there, it just
makes it fucking weird.

600
00:35:36,270 --> 00:35:38,050
It makes it normal.

601
00:35:38,510 --> 00:35:40,510
No, it doesn't. He watches, he pays.

602
00:35:41,390 --> 00:35:42,470
Listen, you'll like Lewis.

603
00:35:43,250 --> 00:35:44,510
He doesn't act stupid.

604
00:35:44,730 --> 00:35:45,730
You'll like him, he just does it.

605
00:35:50,950 --> 00:35:51,950
You gonna help me?

606
00:35:52,930 --> 00:35:53,250
You

607
00:35:53,250 --> 00:36:03,530
ever

608
00:36:03,530 --> 00:36:08,710
thought about getting this place
painted? It would make a world of

609
00:36:08,710 --> 00:36:10,870
do that now, by the way. I'm a painter's
assistant.

610
00:36:12,810 --> 00:36:14,710
Those are the kind of jobs we get, eh,
people?

611
00:36:15,770 --> 00:36:19,030
I don't fucking like it. No, that's not
true. That's not true. I'm grateful. I'm

612
00:36:19,030 --> 00:36:20,030
grateful to be working.

613
00:36:21,740 --> 00:36:25,360
Fuck, there it is again, that fucking
thought. I hate fucking paintings, but I

614
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:28,980
hate even more being grateful for things
that I fucking hate. Better than rope,

615
00:36:29,140 --> 00:36:30,920
cheaper than stockings, come here.

616
00:36:31,220 --> 00:36:34,240
No! Silly. Okay, don't make this
impossible, Chris.

617
00:36:35,440 --> 00:36:36,440
Okay,

618
00:36:36,980 --> 00:36:39,560
fuck, you can handcuff me to the bed,
tie down my feet.

619
00:36:39,760 --> 00:36:42,720
No. Isn't something I'd let a trick do,
but use? Okay.

620
00:36:43,880 --> 00:36:45,000
It will be fun.

621
00:36:46,020 --> 00:36:47,340
We can do whatever.

622
00:36:48,580 --> 00:36:51,300
Blindfold me if you want. I don't want
you blindfolded and all. I want you in

623
00:36:51,300 --> 00:36:53,080
it. You're the whole point. What do you
want, Chris?

624
00:36:56,300 --> 00:36:57,300
I want everything.

625
00:36:58,580 --> 00:36:59,580
I paid.

626
00:37:07,120 --> 00:37:10,940
You know when I got busted for that gas
station in Sherbrooke? The cops

627
00:37:10,940 --> 00:37:13,300
handcuffed me to a chair all night.
Those handcuffs.

628
00:37:13,780 --> 00:37:14,780
I know.

629
00:37:16,480 --> 00:37:18,820
I'm a cop, man. I don't use. I believe
in God.

630
00:37:19,820 --> 00:37:20,820
I'm a painter.

631
00:37:21,100 --> 00:37:22,420
I hate the fucking cops.

632
00:37:23,240 --> 00:37:24,240
Ow. Ow.

633
00:37:25,320 --> 00:37:26,320
Tell my brother.

634
00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:27,960
I thought we were going to wait for
Louis.

635
00:37:28,760 --> 00:37:29,760
No.

636
00:37:31,540 --> 00:37:32,540
Ah.

637
00:37:32,660 --> 00:37:34,400
I wasn't kidding about the thing with
the painting.

638
00:37:34,760 --> 00:37:37,920
You should really do it. Okay, when
Louis gets here, I don't want you

639
00:37:37,920 --> 00:37:39,460
any of that shit. He's in that kinky.

640
00:37:50,490 --> 00:37:51,490
Hey,

641
00:37:51,750 --> 00:37:53,110
why don't we wait with my pants?

642
00:37:53,790 --> 00:37:58,490
Till he gets here and then you can take
them off. I don't know calm down with

643
00:37:58,490 --> 00:38:02,830
them off Whip it out Use handcuffs a lot

644
00:38:02,830 --> 00:38:09,550
But that's in that bag I

645
00:38:09,550 --> 00:38:15,690
Didn't imagine it like this at all fucks
you up imagining

646
00:38:16,520 --> 00:38:18,020
I mean, that's why there's TV.

647
00:38:18,340 --> 00:38:20,040
You can't make it up all the time, huh?

648
00:38:25,400 --> 00:38:26,400
Go.

649
00:38:27,320 --> 00:38:29,520
Oh, hey, Ange. You're too old. I got
somebody.

650
00:38:30,180 --> 00:38:31,880
The freak show, you know.

651
00:38:34,880 --> 00:38:37,000
Well, Ange, the money wasn't that good
anyway, then.

652
00:38:39,100 --> 00:38:43,160
I got a guy. I knew him a long time ago,
and then he fucked me over, and now he

653
00:38:43,160 --> 00:38:44,160
owes me.

654
00:38:48,080 --> 00:38:50,060
I don't have money, man.

655
00:38:51,620 --> 00:38:53,440
I don't pay that good.

656
00:38:57,260 --> 00:39:01,040
You know how it is, I'm calling
everybody and then the right guy comes

657
00:39:01,300 --> 00:39:02,540
He's just there, right?

658
00:39:03,360 --> 00:39:05,100
God sent him to my door.

659
00:39:05,700 --> 00:39:09,940
You know, it's been a fucking day. I
called you. Did you know Ronnie's dead?

660
00:39:12,020 --> 00:39:15,620
There's been a corner I fucked and
anyway, it all came together.

661
00:39:16,170 --> 00:39:17,190
Fucking miracle.

662
00:39:17,430 --> 00:39:21,210
One second and nothing, and there's the
answer to everything right in front of

663
00:39:21,210 --> 00:39:22,210
me.

664
00:39:27,730 --> 00:39:34,590
This guy, Chris, I've known him all my
life, and he came to

665
00:39:34,590 --> 00:39:39,190
visit. I hadn't seen him in years, and
we were going to score, but we changed

666
00:39:39,190 --> 00:39:40,190
our minds.

667
00:39:50,060 --> 00:39:52,720
There's things I've done, and I just
don't feel bad about them.

668
00:39:53,060 --> 00:39:55,720
Things I've done to people, most of them
had it coming.

669
00:39:57,540 --> 00:40:02,380
Maybe I'll change my mind about that.
Maybe I won't. I am not trying to be

670
00:40:02,380 --> 00:40:03,380
normal.

671
00:40:04,780 --> 00:40:05,820
Chris is married.

672
00:40:07,660 --> 00:40:12,680
And that isn't the worst problem
we've... But God, believe me, we got

673
00:40:13,880 --> 00:40:16,220
After all those years, after our whole
lives.

674
00:40:18,380 --> 00:40:19,380
Involved.

675
00:40:22,990 --> 00:40:26,690
I've been with guys, a lot of guys,
especially after I started using.

676
00:40:29,030 --> 00:40:34,010
And sometimes we'd fix, me and a guy,
and in the dark I'd be nodding in and

677
00:40:34,010 --> 00:40:36,690
and I'd get the idea that I was really
with Chris.

678
00:40:39,070 --> 00:40:40,410
I'd say his name.

679
00:40:41,990 --> 00:40:43,830
Chris told me it happened to him as
well.

680
00:40:45,270 --> 00:40:46,330
So Chris was here.

681
00:40:47,770 --> 00:40:49,370
Except we weren't stoned.

682
00:40:50,250 --> 00:40:51,830
And the whole night long I...

683
00:40:54,350 --> 00:40:55,650
I felt like I had a fever.

684
00:40:57,370 --> 00:41:00,370
I'd see his face for a second, and this
time it really was him.

685
00:41:01,290 --> 00:41:05,890
And the whole night long, I see the
kinds of things you see with a high

686
00:41:09,010 --> 00:41:13,350
I woke up in the morning, and I felt
like I'd crossed the ocean swimming.

687
00:41:14,730 --> 00:41:16,490
And in the morning, it was still Chris.

688
00:41:19,450 --> 00:41:20,450
We didn't score.

689
00:41:27,040 --> 00:41:31,740
Martin... I don't know where to start.

690
00:41:33,400 --> 00:41:37,300
Martin... What can I tell you about
Martin?

691
00:41:43,480 --> 00:41:44,820
Martin's a stuffed animal.

692
00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:08,660
Your biggest problem?

693
00:42:09,100 --> 00:42:10,100
You're stupid.

694
00:42:10,480 --> 00:42:14,760
You think too much and you're stupid.
It's like the worst combination there

695
00:42:14,800 --> 00:42:19,660
I am out $500 because you're stupid.
It's a crime being stupid.

696
00:42:19,860 --> 00:42:23,220
You get caught and you pay for it. You
owe me money.

697
00:42:23,540 --> 00:42:24,538
Hey.

698
00:42:24,540 --> 00:42:28,780
Get off. Get these fucking handcuffs off
me now. Get off. You're making a big

699
00:42:28,780 --> 00:42:31,680
mistake, Chris. I will burn you down to
the ground, you cocksucker. Get these

700
00:42:31,680 --> 00:42:35,100
fucking things off me or I'll start
screaming. Go ahead, scream.

701
00:42:35,320 --> 00:42:36,320
Okay.

702
00:42:42,510 --> 00:42:44,630
Get them off. Don't be such a real
little girl, Chris.

703
00:42:44,850 --> 00:42:45,529
Oh, yeah?

704
00:42:45,530 --> 00:42:49,010
You're a fucking cunt. From your lying
little mouth.

705
00:42:49,230 --> 00:42:50,230
Give me the key.

706
00:42:50,990 --> 00:42:52,350
You fat ass.

707
00:42:52,610 --> 00:42:56,050
You have $500. You didn't do a fucking
thing to deserve it and you're still not

708
00:42:56,050 --> 00:42:58,510
happy? You don't tell a lie. You're
fucking bad, Noel. You shouldn't have

709
00:42:58,510 --> 00:43:00,330
Lewis. You're my brother.

710
00:43:00,730 --> 00:43:04,370
It's so weird. I gotta fuck this sister.
Maybe I'll kill you later, you know? P

711
00:43:04,370 --> 00:43:07,930
.S. It's really strange to fuck your
family, Chris. How the fuck can you call

712
00:43:07,930 --> 00:43:09,410
anything strange, Noel?

713
00:43:09,760 --> 00:43:13,280
That guy, that was stupid. Your idea's
not my fault. Fuck you!

714
00:43:13,580 --> 00:43:16,800
My ass is as good as anybody's. You're a
badass.

715
00:43:17,020 --> 00:43:19,220
You don't even think that. I'm keeping
money.

716
00:43:19,540 --> 00:43:23,660
Fine. I told you how we had to do it. We
had to do it with him. You fucked it

717
00:43:23,660 --> 00:43:27,440
up. Fine, fuck. Keep it. This isn't
happening, right? You don't think I'm

718
00:43:27,440 --> 00:43:32,080
500? No, I don't. All on your own? No.

719
00:43:33,380 --> 00:43:34,420
Neither does Lewis.

720
00:43:35,700 --> 00:43:38,700
Nobody would pay you a dime to fuck
that. I know that, Noel.

721
00:43:43,200 --> 00:43:44,340
500. Madonna.

722
00:43:44,780 --> 00:43:45,780
Yeah, besides Madonna.

723
00:43:46,080 --> 00:43:48,240
I don't know, but you're not. That's the
point, right?

724
00:43:49,800 --> 00:43:53,080
I'm going to fucking show my strength. A
picture. Picture of Denise. Picture of

725
00:43:53,080 --> 00:43:55,440
you. Junkie. Just got out.

726
00:43:55,780 --> 00:43:58,960
Tell them I was going to pay you five
bills and I'll be fucking committed,

727
00:43:59,040 --> 00:44:00,040
sister or not.

728
00:44:04,480 --> 00:44:05,900
Take your fucking money.

729
00:44:38,410 --> 00:44:39,870
Can I introduce you to some heroin?

730
00:44:42,170 --> 00:44:43,370
Now you want to score.

731
00:44:44,590 --> 00:44:49,590
Five years you act like a good boy, now
you're acting like a guy going bad.

732
00:44:51,410 --> 00:44:55,830
Get out of my fucking room. Oh my God,
all I said was not 500, okay? No, it

733
00:44:55,830 --> 00:44:56,830
wasn't fucking personal.

734
00:44:57,350 --> 00:45:00,850
Uh, you and your shrink laughing at my
picture? Sounds personal.

735
00:45:01,050 --> 00:45:02,330
Sorry, I was pissed off.

736
00:45:04,130 --> 00:45:04,939
You know what?

737
00:45:04,940 --> 00:45:07,240
I'm fucking drinking because I couldn't
do what I want to do. Now I'm sober and

738
00:45:07,240 --> 00:45:09,620
I can't do what I want to do. And I
don't really know what I'm supposed to

739
00:45:09,620 --> 00:45:10,620
fucking want.

740
00:45:11,100 --> 00:45:12,160
I want to shoot Martin.

741
00:45:14,920 --> 00:45:17,820
I want to shoot Martin in the fucking
knees and slit his throat. And I want to

742
00:45:17,820 --> 00:45:20,920
live with a girl that doesn't speak
English in another country. And I want

743
00:45:20,920 --> 00:45:25,100
fucking junk. I want to shoot. I want to
score some fucking dope.

744
00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:30,100
You think junk's worth 500?

745
00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:32,560
I think it depends on the junk.

746
00:45:35,390 --> 00:45:36,390
Chunkin' Madonna.

747
00:45:48,290 --> 00:45:49,570
Alexei, no, Terry, happen what?

748
00:45:53,530 --> 00:45:56,170
Were you still here when Martin shot
that guy outside Burger King?

749
00:45:56,850 --> 00:45:57,850
No.

750
00:45:58,950 --> 00:46:00,390
Jenny, me, call me back.

751
00:46:01,990 --> 00:46:03,330
No, the guy.

752
00:46:04,040 --> 00:46:07,120
chasing him for a block. And, you know,
you know, how far is Martin going to

753
00:46:07,120 --> 00:46:11,140
run? Just walking. The guy's still
running after him. So Martin shot him.

754
00:46:11,140 --> 00:46:11,718
kill him.

755
00:46:11,720 --> 00:46:13,140
You know who this is? Call me back.

756
00:46:15,500 --> 00:46:19,640
Shit. No, he hits into some guy's car
and makes him drive through a red light.

757
00:46:20,100 --> 00:46:21,098
Bang. Up.

758
00:46:21,100 --> 00:46:25,620
Pick up hits them, knocks the guy right
through the front window of not the

759
00:46:25,620 --> 00:46:29,520
Couch Tide, the other desk. Yeah, yeah.
Driver's all smashed up. Martin gets out

760
00:46:29,520 --> 00:46:31,080
and robs the till.

761
00:46:31,560 --> 00:46:35,720
Goes out, flags down a cab, and comes
home. Actually, no. No, he doesn't come

762
00:46:35,720 --> 00:46:39,400
home. He gets out a block away. He's
being cautious.

763
00:46:39,800 --> 00:46:44,160
Won't pay the fucking cab. Shows the guy
the gun. Robs him, too.

764
00:46:44,360 --> 00:46:46,480
Then he comes home and falls asleep.

765
00:46:47,140 --> 00:46:49,480
Wants around 200 cops outside for him.

766
00:46:51,879 --> 00:46:52,879
Anyways.

767
00:46:53,760 --> 00:46:54,760
Martin.

768
00:46:55,200 --> 00:46:57,720
I keep hearing he wants to kill me.

769
00:46:59,740 --> 00:47:01,000
I know Martin's got dope.

770
00:47:02,820 --> 00:47:04,620
Well, what are we waiting for? Run,
don't walk.

771
00:47:05,040 --> 00:47:06,040
You mean funny?

772
00:47:06,060 --> 00:47:07,200
Are you Martin?

773
00:47:08,120 --> 00:47:11,240
Why don't we just stab ourselves and set
fire to the money? It saves the trouble

774
00:47:11,240 --> 00:47:13,200
of going out. He doesn't just want to
kill me.

775
00:47:13,540 --> 00:47:15,440
I've heard that. He's never said it to
me.

776
00:47:16,200 --> 00:47:19,160
He gave me a necklace when we were
together. He said it was his mother's.

777
00:47:21,110 --> 00:47:22,110
Okay, I doubt it.

778
00:47:22,790 --> 00:47:23,790
Whatever, it was nice.

779
00:47:24,170 --> 00:47:25,350
He gave it to me Mother's Day.

780
00:47:26,710 --> 00:47:30,990
Sometimes he calls me and he tells me,
as long as I still have the necklace, I

781
00:47:30,990 --> 00:47:31,990
belong to him.

782
00:47:33,950 --> 00:47:35,430
The way he is. Give it back to him.

783
00:47:35,970 --> 00:47:37,710
I sold it. He is dope.

784
00:47:39,150 --> 00:47:40,150
Go.

785
00:47:41,650 --> 00:47:42,970
Oh, hi.

786
00:47:45,390 --> 00:47:47,710
You don't know the way I answer the
phone.

787
00:47:50,160 --> 00:47:52,300
Oh, you know me. I'm nothing but bad
habits.

788
00:47:54,600 --> 00:47:55,600
Where?

789
00:47:56,240 --> 00:47:57,260
Oh, I must have run out.

790
00:48:00,580 --> 00:48:02,580
Actually, I haven't been going lately.

791
00:48:03,140 --> 00:48:08,520
Um, can I call you back? This isn't...
Can I call you back? This isn't really a

792
00:48:08,520 --> 00:48:09,520
good time to talk.

793
00:48:10,860 --> 00:48:12,140
Yeah, my brother, he's visiting.

794
00:48:14,340 --> 00:48:15,580
Oh, aren't we suspicious?

795
00:48:15,900 --> 00:48:16,960
It's my brother, really.

796
00:48:19,990 --> 00:48:20,990
Christopher. Hello.

797
00:48:25,570 --> 00:48:26,570
Me too.

798
00:48:29,110 --> 00:48:30,110
Yes!

799
00:48:30,710 --> 00:48:32,050
Okay, bye.

800
00:48:33,930 --> 00:48:36,990
You don't want to join Martin? We can
either wait on Alex or hit the street.

801
00:48:40,790 --> 00:48:42,550
Who was that?

802
00:48:42,850 --> 00:48:43,850
The guy.

803
00:48:45,110 --> 00:48:47,450
I met him at a meeting. We went for
coffee.

804
00:48:50,160 --> 00:48:52,880
Coffee? Dark liquid, hot, comes in a
cup. Yeah?

805
00:48:54,400 --> 00:48:56,280
We had, I guess, kind of a date.

806
00:48:56,700 --> 00:49:00,060
I don't think I've ever been on a date
in my life. A meeting is like being back

807
00:49:00,060 --> 00:49:01,180
in high school, isn't it?

808
00:49:01,740 --> 00:49:02,740
A date?

809
00:49:03,400 --> 00:49:05,020
Did you get the trail clause on the
phone?

810
00:49:05,340 --> 00:49:06,740
A date. We went out.

811
00:49:09,240 --> 00:49:11,180
I don't get it. Why would you go with
this guy?

812
00:49:12,780 --> 00:49:14,300
You've lost me, babe. What's happening?

813
00:49:15,049 --> 00:49:16,470
Well, I mean, I don't understand.

814
00:49:16,930 --> 00:49:19,250
Some guy, you meet at the fucking
meetings, you don't even like going to

815
00:49:20,010 --> 00:49:22,090
He's taking you out. You fucked him,
what, Thursday?

816
00:49:23,270 --> 00:49:25,090
Fuck you. No, fuck him.

817
00:49:25,610 --> 00:49:26,610
You fuck him.

818
00:49:27,250 --> 00:49:28,250
Not for 500.

819
00:49:28,430 --> 00:49:31,790
Not even for five bucks. Did he pay for
the coffee? Hey, you and him?

820
00:49:32,830 --> 00:49:34,230
Entirely different situation. Why?

821
00:49:34,550 --> 00:49:35,570
Why? To your boyfriend?

822
00:49:36,010 --> 00:49:38,470
Will you act your age? You want to know
if we're going steady?

823
00:49:40,390 --> 00:49:41,390
Are you?

824
00:49:46,339 --> 00:49:49,320
Sorry, I didn't know that you had a guy.
A bezoi -friend.

825
00:49:49,640 --> 00:49:53,840
Hey, hey, hey. It's a bit of a surprise.
He's not my bezoi -friend, okay? He's

826
00:49:53,840 --> 00:49:56,080
just a guy. I slept with him once.

827
00:49:57,100 --> 00:49:58,100
Maybe twice.

828
00:49:59,380 --> 00:50:00,540
You slept with him?

829
00:50:00,860 --> 00:50:03,720
You have to stop repeating everything I
say.

830
00:50:05,620 --> 00:50:08,560
He's not going to show up here if that's
what you're worried about. Yeah, I'm

831
00:50:08,560 --> 00:50:09,560
worried about that.

832
00:50:09,580 --> 00:50:12,300
Well, I don't understand what the
problem is. There's no problem.

833
00:50:12,580 --> 00:50:15,060
There's no problem. I met Denise in a
fucking meeting.

834
00:50:17,799 --> 00:50:21,740
So what happened? You met him, took you
out, took you home? Is that it?

835
00:50:22,120 --> 00:50:23,120
More or less.

836
00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:25,980
Well, you fucked him twice. He must have
liked it.

837
00:50:26,680 --> 00:50:28,100
Gee, you got me, Reverend.

838
00:50:29,480 --> 00:50:35,300
I bet he liked it, too. It must have
been a whole new experience for him.

839
00:50:35,620 --> 00:50:36,620
It was.

840
00:50:40,480 --> 00:50:41,480
It's normal.

841
00:50:42,040 --> 00:50:43,220
You know, it's normal.

842
00:50:43,960 --> 00:50:45,380
People in the program get involved.

843
00:50:45,920 --> 00:50:46,920
All the time.

844
00:50:47,040 --> 00:50:50,740
It's not a good idea, but it happens. I
just hope that he's not the kind of guy

845
00:50:50,740 --> 00:50:53,620
that snags newcomers, gets them when
they're really vulnerable. You know,

846
00:50:53,640 --> 00:50:54,880
there's a lot of those fucking guys.

847
00:50:56,280 --> 00:50:59,340
I'm kind of surprised. I'm actually, I'm
actually a little disappointed, but

848
00:50:59,340 --> 00:51:01,540
whatever. You stopped using, you started
going to meetings.

849
00:51:01,820 --> 00:51:03,680
You're just the same as everybody else,
right?

850
00:51:03,920 --> 00:51:05,140
Beats you fucking dipstick.

851
00:51:05,420 --> 00:51:09,920
Beats you, uh, beats you cliches that
sound like weirdom. I bet he used

852
00:51:09,920 --> 00:51:10,899
too, right?

853
00:51:10,900 --> 00:51:11,900
Oh my god.

854
00:51:12,660 --> 00:51:15,480
Uh... You guys probably think it's meant
to be, right? That God's protecting

855
00:51:15,480 --> 00:51:16,820
you? Yeah.

856
00:51:17,780 --> 00:51:22,400
I bet that's what you think. Look, I
hope you die, Noel. I hope you get sick

857
00:51:22,400 --> 00:51:23,238
fucking die.

858
00:51:23,240 --> 00:51:25,380
See you when you're dead. What is
happening?

859
00:51:25,960 --> 00:51:28,400
What happened? Because I fucked him for
nothing?

860
00:51:28,680 --> 00:51:32,520
You offered the money. I didn't ask for
it. You think everything's about money,

861
00:51:32,620 --> 00:51:33,620
Noel. It's fucked up.

862
00:51:33,800 --> 00:51:36,760
I'm ugly. I've got a fat ass. I don't
look like your wife.

863
00:51:38,700 --> 00:51:42,040
Okay, you cannot promise to fix me and
then don't fix me. You can't.

864
00:51:42,460 --> 00:51:44,760
You asked your fucking boyfriend to fix
you.

865
00:51:50,600 --> 00:51:51,780
Why don't you scream?

866
00:51:54,300 --> 00:51:56,760
The fuck? Hey, hey, get the fuck away.

867
00:51:59,460 --> 00:52:00,580
You a tough girl?

868
00:52:00,800 --> 00:52:01,880
Uh, come on, chair boy.

869
00:52:03,460 --> 00:52:04,218
Fuck off.

870
00:52:04,220 --> 00:52:05,220
You fuck off.

871
00:52:08,800 --> 00:52:09,800
Call back.

872
00:52:10,400 --> 00:52:11,660
Alex, Alex, don't hang up.

873
00:52:12,680 --> 00:52:13,680
Time out.

874
00:52:13,840 --> 00:52:14,840
Okay.

875
00:52:16,520 --> 00:52:21,420
I'll tell you what I did with him,
Charles, on our date.

876
00:52:21,740 --> 00:52:23,400
I'll do the same things with you.

877
00:52:33,480 --> 00:52:35,000
Put down the fucking knife.

878
00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:54,300
He's gonna be late, Alex.

879
00:52:54,860 --> 00:52:56,600
He picks up in this area. He'll call.

880
00:53:00,940 --> 00:53:02,020
Do you have condoms?

881
00:53:03,020 --> 00:53:04,520
No, I don't.

882
00:53:08,540 --> 00:53:11,580
Okay, first things first. Hand over the
money. You're not gonna fuck me under

883
00:53:11,580 --> 00:53:12,348
the dope.

884
00:53:12,350 --> 00:53:13,350
I don't trust you, Noel.

885
00:53:13,510 --> 00:53:15,030
I don't give a flying fuck, Chris.

886
00:53:24,590 --> 00:53:25,590
It's there.

887
00:53:28,090 --> 00:53:29,090
Go wait in the bathroom.

888
00:53:29,870 --> 00:53:30,870
What? Is that what you want?

889
00:53:34,570 --> 00:53:37,310
No. Go wait in the bathroom for a
minute.

890
00:53:48,940 --> 00:53:49,940
women beating you, Chris?

891
00:53:50,600 --> 00:53:51,600
No.

892
00:53:52,620 --> 00:53:53,700
You like beating them?

893
00:53:54,340 --> 00:53:55,340
No.

894
00:54:02,060 --> 00:54:05,520
Maybe you want a little half and half, a
little fucking, a little sucking.

895
00:54:07,140 --> 00:54:09,620
I could just give you a head or you
could go down on me.

896
00:54:10,040 --> 00:54:13,080
Whatever. You said you'd do the same
things we did on your date, okay?

897
00:54:13,420 --> 00:54:15,120
You said you'd do the same things to me.

898
00:54:15,720 --> 00:54:18,200
And don't talk to me like I'm a trick.

899
00:54:19,350 --> 00:54:21,350
That's what I did with Charles. He liked
it.

900
00:54:25,370 --> 00:54:28,330
Maybe we should wait till we fix it. I
didn't wait three months so I could blow

901
00:54:28,330 --> 00:54:29,490
my fix having sex.

902
00:54:30,030 --> 00:54:31,570
Fixing is fixing and fucking is fucking.

903
00:54:34,510 --> 00:54:35,530
Can I wait in the bathroom?

904
00:54:40,990 --> 00:54:43,070
Okay, so what? You went out? What did
you do? You came back here?

905
00:54:43,670 --> 00:54:44,830
Yes. Okay.

906
00:54:46,530 --> 00:54:47,530
Next place.

907
00:54:48,040 --> 00:54:50,100
Oh, I'm afraid there's nothing to drink.
Would you like to fuck me?

908
00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:51,840
You didn't say that to him.

909
00:54:52,180 --> 00:54:53,220
Oh, yes, I did.

910
00:54:53,640 --> 00:54:56,720
Well, then I don't want that, okay? I
don't want... I want our date instead.

911
00:54:58,420 --> 00:54:59,420
Yours and mine.

912
00:54:59,500 --> 00:55:03,680
Later... It's time we can do the things
you did with him.

913
00:55:04,560 --> 00:55:07,260
Okay, so it's not me and Charles. It's
you and me.

914
00:55:07,920 --> 00:55:11,360
Yeah. Well, yeah. I mean, you're you and
I'm me, but different.

915
00:55:11,720 --> 00:55:13,400
Okay, I'm not your sister? No, no, no.

916
00:55:13,760 --> 00:55:15,020
I want you to be my sister.

917
00:55:15,839 --> 00:55:17,760
You're a fucking cauchemar.

918
00:55:18,320 --> 00:55:23,200
You call me up, me, Noel Terry, and ask
me out. We go out together. You,

919
00:55:23,960 --> 00:55:25,560
Chris Terry, and me.

920
00:55:26,160 --> 00:55:28,020
We go for supper.

921
00:55:28,980 --> 00:55:29,980
Chinese.

922
00:55:30,340 --> 00:55:32,180
Then we go to a movie.

923
00:55:32,520 --> 00:55:36,100
Let's skip the movie. We had a lot to
talk about at dinner, and I don't want

924
00:55:36,100 --> 00:55:39,420
stop. Okay, so what? You came here, you
just did it?

925
00:55:39,880 --> 00:55:40,880
Did he kiss you?

926
00:55:41,840 --> 00:55:45,220
I kissed him before we got here. He
looked... That, and I gave him a kiss.

927
00:55:46,260 --> 00:55:47,520
Aw, you looked sad.

928
00:55:49,640 --> 00:55:51,160
That's such a fucking lame routine.

929
00:55:51,440 --> 00:55:54,680
He was hoping you'd mercy fuck him.
Okay, do you want to know or don't you?

930
00:55:54,680 --> 00:55:55,680
do. Go.

931
00:55:56,260 --> 00:55:57,260
Okay.

932
00:55:57,980 --> 00:55:58,980
We came here.

933
00:55:59,240 --> 00:56:02,920
I asked him if he wanted to fuck me, not
really serious, kind of the same way I

934
00:56:02,920 --> 00:56:03,598
did with you.

935
00:56:03,600 --> 00:56:04,600
He laughed.

936
00:56:05,240 --> 00:56:07,200
Not really laughed. He kind of smiled.

937
00:56:08,860 --> 00:56:10,480
And then he sat me down on his knee.

938
00:56:11,140 --> 00:56:12,140
Where was he sitting?

939
00:56:12,300 --> 00:56:13,300
Where you are.

940
00:56:13,760 --> 00:56:14,760
Huh. Huh.

941
00:56:15,200 --> 00:56:16,380
He was standing.

942
00:56:16,720 --> 00:56:19,220
He took my hand and he led me over.

943
00:56:19,640 --> 00:56:21,860
And then he sat me down on his lap.

944
00:56:22,400 --> 00:56:24,260
And he put his arms around my waist.

945
00:56:24,880 --> 00:56:26,780
Like... Okay, do you want to do it?

946
00:56:27,980 --> 00:56:28,980
Arms around me.

947
00:56:29,460 --> 00:56:34,600
Okay. Then he squeezed me tight. And
then tighter and tighter until I

948
00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:36,760
breathe. Squeezed until you can't
breathe? Sounds stupid.

949
00:56:37,340 --> 00:56:38,340
Try it.

950
00:56:40,720 --> 00:56:42,200
Yes. And then...

951
00:56:44,460 --> 00:56:45,460
And I caught my breath.

952
00:56:46,440 --> 00:56:50,540
And then I leaned my head back and he
kissed my neck.

953
00:56:53,820 --> 00:56:56,860
And I wanted to turn around and kiss him
on the mouth, but he wouldn't let me.

954
00:56:56,880 --> 00:56:57,900
He just crushed me.

955
00:57:01,500 --> 00:57:03,520
He said, he asked me.

956
00:57:05,880 --> 00:57:08,260
He asked me if I felt close to him.

957
00:57:10,300 --> 00:57:11,300
Did you?

958
00:57:21,260 --> 00:57:22,260
Let me up. No.

959
00:57:22,320 --> 00:57:23,880
No, he let me. Finally, Charles let me.

960
00:58:12,540 --> 00:58:16,480
Martin. He calls me and hangs up before
he even hears my voice.

961
00:58:17,800 --> 00:58:21,740
Think he's afraid a guy will answer and
then he'll feel more or less obliged to

962
00:58:21,740 --> 00:58:23,020
come over and kill him.

963
00:58:24,700 --> 00:58:28,060
He didn't answer the phone when he was
here. Watch this, babe.

964
00:58:28,880 --> 00:58:29,880
Charles?

965
00:58:34,960 --> 00:58:35,420
I

966
00:58:35,420 --> 00:58:46,180
got

967
00:58:46,180 --> 00:58:47,180
up in the morning.

968
00:58:47,390 --> 00:58:48,470
And wanted to die.

969
00:58:49,050 --> 00:58:51,290
The most interesting way for it to
happen.

970
00:58:51,770 --> 00:58:53,570
I get together with Martin again.

971
00:58:55,150 --> 00:59:00,070
He's the only guy who... Well, that's it
right there.

972
00:59:01,090 --> 00:59:02,270
He's the only guy.

973
00:59:04,250 --> 00:59:06,250
Everybody else, they might as well just
shoot water.

974
00:59:18,920 --> 00:59:21,600
I don't feel so sick after Charles.

975
00:59:26,260 --> 00:59:29,400
Usually I just feel sick and I don't
know what can fix me.

976
00:59:30,180 --> 00:59:31,580
Or what I can fix.

977
00:59:33,880 --> 00:59:35,600
I hate the fucking telephone.

978
00:59:40,480 --> 00:59:41,480
Okay, no.

979
00:59:44,000 --> 00:59:45,500
No, come on, come back to me.

980
00:59:46,480 --> 00:59:47,880
Martin didn't call, okay?

981
00:59:48,560 --> 00:59:49,560
The phone didn't ring.

982
00:59:50,340 --> 00:59:53,880
You didn't wake up this morning and
decide to die in an interesting way.

983
00:59:54,220 --> 00:59:55,220
Okay?

984
01:00:04,620 --> 01:00:05,680
You'd die anyway.

985
01:00:19,020 --> 01:00:20,760
Help me with these. I want them around
the bed.

986
01:00:28,880 --> 01:00:32,000
Hey, is this the necklace he gave you?
His mother's?

987
01:00:35,200 --> 01:00:36,960
Did he give you the dress to match?

988
01:00:37,780 --> 01:00:39,240
Shut up and fuck off!

989
01:00:44,740 --> 01:00:48,920
Charles on our date after he... He said
it was too bright. I lit candles.

990
01:00:50,480 --> 01:00:51,480
Okay.

991
01:00:53,160 --> 01:00:55,260
When did you sleep with Martin? When was
the last time?

992
01:00:56,240 --> 01:00:57,820
You don't want to be on that date,
Chris.

993
01:00:59,460 --> 01:01:03,140
The last time I fit, Martin came over
that night.

994
01:01:05,300 --> 01:01:06,300
Here.

995
01:01:06,860 --> 01:01:07,859
On this bed.

996
01:01:07,860 --> 01:01:08,860
With Martin.

997
01:01:09,780 --> 01:01:11,040
Does it make you shrivel up?

998
01:01:11,680 --> 01:01:13,220
No, maybe it makes you hard.

999
01:01:16,110 --> 01:01:18,110
Did you light candles for Martin?

1000
01:01:19,070 --> 01:01:20,390
Martin does it in the dark.

1001
01:01:24,370 --> 01:01:26,570
He's got a sweet, actually. He's shy,
Martin.

1002
01:01:30,130 --> 01:01:31,870
Scariest thing Martin ever told me.

1003
01:01:32,750 --> 01:01:37,410
I asked him why he used a knife when he
did a guy. Why not just shoot him?

1004
01:01:39,010 --> 01:01:41,390
He said he, like, touched them.

1005
01:01:42,050 --> 01:01:43,670
I think he goes so far.

1006
01:01:44,200 --> 01:01:47,720
fucks up so totally just so somebody
will finally touch him.

1007
01:01:50,940 --> 01:01:52,800
He's a victim of bad therapy.

1008
01:01:56,560 --> 01:01:58,200
Charles doesn't need it to be dark.

1009
01:01:58,420 --> 01:02:01,260
Who the fuck is this guy, Charles? What
does he do?

1010
01:02:02,460 --> 01:02:03,720
He paints houses.

1011
01:02:04,720 --> 01:02:05,880
Oh no, that's cute.

1012
01:02:14,160 --> 01:02:18,860
Okay, we can wait till I like You can do
it to me anything you want.

1013
01:02:19,440 --> 01:02:22,860
We'll be dreaming I'll just kind of
drift away.

1014
01:02:24,060 --> 01:02:26,380
I'll wait until I fix before I put on
his necklace

1015
01:02:26,380 --> 01:02:39,640
How

1016
01:02:39,640 --> 01:02:43,360
do I look

1017
01:02:44,360 --> 01:02:45,460
You did this shit on your date?

1018
01:02:45,760 --> 01:02:47,040
No, no, it's a different game.

1019
01:02:47,300 --> 01:02:49,100
Yeah, well, I like the one that we were
playing.

1020
01:02:49,680 --> 01:02:50,680
Remember?

1021
01:02:50,960 --> 01:02:53,500
What the fuck's going on? You said you
didn't want to wait till you fixed. You

1022
01:02:53,500 --> 01:02:54,259
chickening out?

1023
01:02:54,260 --> 01:02:55,260
Okay, sit down.

1024
01:02:57,100 --> 01:02:58,560
I wore a dress on the date.

1025
01:03:00,280 --> 01:03:01,820
Not this dress.

1026
01:03:05,120 --> 01:03:06,120
I lit candles.

1027
01:03:09,340 --> 01:03:10,600
And then I got on him.

1028
01:03:12,140 --> 01:03:13,140
Like, what?

1029
01:03:16,970 --> 01:03:17,970
And we kissed.

1030
01:03:19,670 --> 01:03:20,670
Same as this.

1031
01:03:21,470 --> 01:03:22,710
And then I bit him.

1032
01:03:24,070 --> 01:03:26,690
Longer. I made him bleed.

1033
01:03:27,190 --> 01:03:32,390
No, this guy used fucking needles. I bit
him and I made him bleed.

1034
01:03:34,350 --> 01:03:36,910
And then he put his face right up close
to me.

1035
01:03:38,050 --> 01:03:41,630
And he just licked my lips really
lightly, really gently.

1036
01:03:48,769 --> 01:03:50,470
Don't do it, don't do it. Just tell me.

1037
01:03:51,610 --> 01:03:56,190
I was holding him in my hand, giving him
a look at him, and then he put his

1038
01:03:56,190 --> 01:04:00,950
hands on my head, and he lifted me up,
and he just sat me down on top of it.

1039
01:04:02,730 --> 01:04:07,870
And then he took his thumb, and he
hooked it in my panties, and he just

1040
01:04:07,870 --> 01:04:08,870
him over.

1041
01:04:12,150 --> 01:04:13,870
But he sounded like a horse, right?

1042
01:04:14,210 --> 01:04:15,670
Martin sounds like a horse.

1043
01:04:16,070 --> 01:04:17,290
Yeah, well, of course he is.

1044
01:04:18,870 --> 01:04:19,910
He'd have to the other way.

1045
01:04:20,410 --> 01:04:23,550
His life would be pathetic. He'd be this
stupid guy running around doing all

1046
01:04:23,550 --> 01:04:27,930
that shit to make up for the fact that
he... Martin's insane.

1047
01:04:28,270 --> 01:04:29,270
That's stupid.

1048
01:04:29,870 --> 01:04:31,930
I know what you want, but you're not
going to admit it.

1049
01:04:33,290 --> 01:04:34,890
Oh, I think I know where this is going.

1050
01:04:35,110 --> 01:04:36,190
You don't want to be Charles.

1051
01:04:36,530 --> 01:04:39,070
Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong. You
want to be me. I'm not gay, Noel.

1052
01:04:39,370 --> 01:04:42,010
Ask my shrink. You want to be taken by
me.

1053
01:04:42,250 --> 01:04:44,890
Lots of guys want that. I know how to do
it. I'm not gay.

1054
01:04:46,529 --> 01:04:49,270
Believe me, when this is over, my shrink
is going to have bloody to say.

1055
01:04:50,090 --> 01:04:52,950
And Denise LeBron never talked to me
again. If I tell her, well, I'm going to

1056
01:04:52,950 --> 01:04:53,689
have to tell her.

1057
01:04:53,690 --> 01:04:59,230
But, I mean, believe me, this thing, you
and me, this is not about me being gay.

1058
01:05:00,850 --> 01:05:01,850
I don't get it.

1059
01:05:03,290 --> 01:05:05,310
Well, if it was, I'd be here seeing
Dean.

1060
01:05:06,010 --> 01:05:08,890
No, what I mean, what are you talking
about?

1061
01:05:09,310 --> 01:05:11,610
You'll tell your shrink. You'll tell
Denise.

1062
01:05:12,810 --> 01:05:13,810
You're here.

1063
01:05:13,970 --> 01:05:14,970
That's over.

1064
01:05:16,840 --> 01:05:20,640
Oh, I don't mean tonight or tomorrow. I
mean, like, eventually.

1065
01:05:21,720 --> 01:05:25,360
My feet are back on the ground. Like,
what?

1066
01:05:31,620 --> 01:05:32,620
What?

1067
01:05:32,860 --> 01:05:34,320
What? What?

1068
01:05:35,680 --> 01:05:36,680
Wow.

1069
01:06:08,839 --> 01:06:09,839
What for?

1070
01:06:11,260 --> 01:06:14,780
I've got a surprise and I don't want you
looking. Roll over and put your face in

1071
01:06:14,780 --> 01:06:15,780
the pillow.

1072
01:06:21,980 --> 01:06:24,400
Relax. I just want your arms out of the
way.

1073
01:06:35,620 --> 01:06:38,060
Okay, can we get the surprise over with
now?

1074
01:06:39,850 --> 01:06:44,550
How can you come from the same family as
me and be so stupid?

1075
01:06:53,470 --> 01:07:00,430
Well, you got me

1076
01:07:00,430 --> 01:07:01,890
now. I can't go anywhere.

1077
01:07:02,930 --> 01:07:04,830
You can do whatever you want with me.

1078
01:07:09,070 --> 01:07:10,540
Good. happens, Chris?

1079
01:07:10,840 --> 01:07:12,640
What always happens?

1080
01:07:12,880 --> 01:07:18,380
You say things to me, and I actually
believe them. After all this time, this

1081
01:07:18,380 --> 01:07:22,380
just another little adventure for you,
just like everything else.

1082
01:07:25,180 --> 01:07:28,280
I don't have a strap on. I always meant
to buy one.

1083
01:07:29,260 --> 01:07:32,560
Oh, oh, oh, I've got the candle.

1084
01:07:33,560 --> 01:07:34,760
Ow, ow, ow.

1085
01:07:35,720 --> 01:07:38,200
I don't know. Is it long enough? I don't
know what you're used to.

1086
01:07:45,340 --> 01:07:50,740
Come on. He liked it with the knife. He
didn't say it naturally, but I finally

1087
01:07:50,740 --> 01:07:51,740
figured it out.

1088
01:07:53,420 --> 01:07:59,060
I'd run it up between his legs like I
was going to cut his balls off.

1089
01:07:59,700 --> 01:08:05,320
He loved it. And I'd slice him a little,
dab him a little.

1090
01:08:05,800 --> 01:08:08,240
Blood just kind of leaked out of him.

1091
01:08:09,299 --> 01:08:11,260
Not much. Nothing to write home about.

1092
01:08:12,020 --> 01:08:16,800
But then I took it right up against
Adam's apple.

1093
01:08:17,680 --> 01:08:20,939
And then I said, do it. Just like that,
I said, do it.

1094
01:08:21,560 --> 01:08:24,700
Ah, fuck. Noel, keep away from my
fucking eyes, please. I don't want to go

1095
01:08:24,700 --> 01:08:26,899
blind. No, what you don't want is over.

1096
01:08:29,160 --> 01:08:30,359
I could call Martin.

1097
01:08:32,560 --> 01:08:34,800
You know, Martin's done climbing with
his boyfriend.

1098
01:08:36,300 --> 01:08:38,720
I know he thinks that if you're not on
the receiving end, you're not gay.

1099
01:08:45,359 --> 01:08:46,819
Did you call me and hang up?

1100
01:08:48,319 --> 01:08:49,859
No, I just thought it might have been
you.

1101
01:08:50,479 --> 01:08:54,939
Could you come here, like, right now?
There's a guy and he's in trouble.

1102
01:08:55,140 --> 01:08:59,680
I tell him there's trouble, he's here.

1103
01:09:00,120 --> 01:09:01,979
You guys haven't seen each other in a
long time.

1104
01:09:04,020 --> 01:09:05,020
It'll be interesting.

1105
01:09:11,970 --> 01:09:13,529
I'll paint the underwear for him.

1106
01:09:13,990 --> 01:09:16,529
You're wearing a little something. It
can actually be more tempting.

1107
01:09:17,870 --> 01:09:23,670
How do you like your date now?

1108
01:09:23,990 --> 01:09:27,910
Well, if it's going to happen, I mean,
it fucking has to happen, I guess it

1109
01:09:27,910 --> 01:09:28,910
might as well be Martin.

1110
01:09:28,970 --> 01:09:30,550
Don't try that bullshit on me.

1111
01:09:30,790 --> 01:09:34,109
Come on, you don't think it's just a
little bit funny, Noel? I came all this

1112
01:09:34,109 --> 01:09:35,569
so I could be Martin's girlfriend?

1113
01:09:37,200 --> 01:09:39,979
You better watch yourself, babe. He
might like me better.

1114
01:09:41,620 --> 01:09:42,620
You wish.

1115
01:09:42,700 --> 01:09:45,300
I understand him. I like his mind.

1116
01:09:46,160 --> 01:09:47,779
Get a big cock.

1117
01:10:11,920 --> 01:10:13,140
You fucking bitch!

1118
01:10:14,860 --> 01:10:18,040
Everyone knows I'm bad. Nobody knows
about you.

1119
01:10:18,940 --> 01:10:20,180
Nobody but me.

1120
01:10:20,440 --> 01:10:21,440
Ow!

1121
01:10:21,600 --> 01:10:22,600
Why don't you pray?

1122
01:10:23,160 --> 01:10:24,440
There's a God. Pray.

1123
01:10:25,400 --> 01:10:27,500
You've got God. You don't need your
sister.

1124
01:10:28,380 --> 01:10:30,260
God's better than junk, right?

1125
01:10:30,640 --> 01:10:34,020
You know what? Take the fucking money,
all right? It's my time. Take it all.

1126
01:10:34,280 --> 01:10:36,080
And then let me the fuck go!

1127
01:10:36,740 --> 01:10:37,740
All right?

1128
01:10:38,480 --> 01:10:39,980
Now fucking let me go.

1129
01:10:41,040 --> 01:10:43,060
Come on. I don't want to play anymore.

1130
01:10:45,300 --> 01:10:47,420
Come on, Noel.

1131
01:10:48,080 --> 01:10:49,080
Let me go.

1132
01:10:55,460 --> 01:10:56,800
Let me the fuck go!

1133
01:11:00,120 --> 01:11:02,160
Fucking bitch.

1134
01:11:10,000 --> 01:11:11,000
That says very kinky.

1135
01:11:13,180 --> 01:11:14,640
Started running an ad.

1136
01:11:15,400 --> 01:11:16,580
I got a few guys.

1137
01:11:17,920 --> 01:11:19,900
I didn't know what to do with their
money.

1138
01:11:21,760 --> 01:11:22,980
I go shopping.

1139
01:11:26,100 --> 01:11:27,700
I don't even lift anything.

1140
01:11:27,920 --> 01:11:29,640
There's no point. Just shopping.

1141
01:11:33,600 --> 01:11:35,880
Then like today, I need money and it's
gone.

1142
01:11:37,720 --> 01:11:38,720
It's gone?

1143
01:11:39,710 --> 01:11:42,510
Noel, you got money now. I'm paying for
it.

1144
01:11:43,750 --> 01:11:44,750
Happy?

1145
01:11:46,990 --> 01:11:48,410
Did you go shopping, Chris?

1146
01:11:50,730 --> 01:11:52,110
Did you go to a movie?

1147
01:11:52,710 --> 01:11:53,930
Order a pizza?

1148
01:11:55,610 --> 01:11:56,770
Watch TV?

1149
01:11:59,650 --> 01:12:01,910
You wake up and that's that day and it's
okay.

1150
01:12:03,950 --> 01:12:06,450
How do you do that? Like, what is the
fucking point?

1151
01:12:06,810 --> 01:12:08,950
Your life isn't my fault, Noel.

1152
01:12:17,060 --> 01:12:19,160
Nothing is your fault. Come on. No, no,
no.

1153
01:12:27,460 --> 01:12:29,720
Come on.

1154
01:12:35,320 --> 01:12:36,920
Have sex with me first.

1155
01:12:37,720 --> 01:12:38,659
Come on.

1156
01:12:38,660 --> 01:12:39,980
How can you still want...

1157
01:12:42,000 --> 01:12:42,898
I hate you.

1158
01:12:42,900 --> 01:12:47,020
I hate every fucking thing about you.
You still want to fuck me.

1159
01:12:47,900 --> 01:12:48,900
I can't.

1160
01:12:49,240 --> 01:12:51,080
I can't die without doing it.

1161
01:12:51,360 --> 01:12:52,360
Come on.

1162
01:12:53,360 --> 01:12:56,500
I'll tell you what, Martin's going to
fuck you. That's what you really want.

1163
01:12:56,500 --> 01:12:57,139
it's not.

1164
01:12:57,140 --> 01:12:58,340
Yes. No!

1165
01:12:58,580 --> 01:13:00,740
Come on, be honest with your little
sister.

1166
01:13:01,320 --> 01:13:04,760
You have always wanted Martin, haven't
you? Oh, fuck.

1167
01:13:05,040 --> 01:13:06,300
That's why you're scared of him.

1168
01:13:06,640 --> 01:13:11,220
That's why you hate him so much. You
hate real men. You want to fuck them

1169
01:13:11,220 --> 01:13:12,220
the...

1170
01:13:14,219 --> 01:13:15,420
No. Oh,

1171
01:13:16,640 --> 01:13:18,260
Noel, Noel, Noel.

1172
01:13:19,320 --> 01:13:22,780
I fucked Martin before you ever met him.

1173
01:13:23,060 --> 01:13:24,920
We were partners.

1174
01:13:25,180 --> 01:13:28,400
I fucked him in broad daylight.

1175
01:13:28,700 --> 01:13:29,920
He didn't need to be dark.

1176
01:13:31,600 --> 01:13:34,220
You don't want to die telling lies.
You'll never get to heaven.

1177
01:13:37,040 --> 01:13:40,900
He cries sometimes after he comes. He
whispers something.

1178
01:13:41,560 --> 01:13:42,760
You never quite make out what it is.

1179
01:13:43,140 --> 01:13:46,900
He whispers, and then he comes, and then
he cries.

1180
01:13:47,660 --> 01:13:48,660
Anyone?

1181
01:13:50,300 --> 01:13:53,340
I told you that. You heard that from me
when I was young.

1182
01:13:53,560 --> 01:13:55,300
I think you know that I didn't.

1183
01:13:55,520 --> 01:13:56,640
Martin is gay.

1184
01:13:57,460 --> 01:13:58,460
Neither am I.

1185
01:14:03,260 --> 01:14:04,260
No, come on.

1186
01:14:04,820 --> 01:14:05,820
Martin whispers?

1187
01:14:06,640 --> 01:14:08,160
No. Mine is.

1188
01:14:08,380 --> 01:14:09,380
He whispers?

1189
01:14:09,440 --> 01:14:10,440
Mine is.

1190
01:14:50,410 --> 01:14:53,190
Got no idea where we are, but we're
making damn good time.

1191
01:15:24,320 --> 01:15:26,540
Now the question is, did I call Martin
or didn't I?

1192
01:15:27,080 --> 01:15:28,920
If I was you, I wouldn't take any
chances.

1193
01:15:30,480 --> 01:15:32,260
He'll kill you if I want him to.

1194
01:15:32,740 --> 01:15:36,680
Martin loves me more than he loves you,
so pack up and hit the road, brother.

1195
01:15:36,760 --> 01:15:37,760
We're even.

1196
01:15:38,100 --> 01:15:39,140
You know what you are, Paul?

1197
01:15:40,220 --> 01:15:41,540
You know what you fucking are?

1198
01:15:42,720 --> 01:15:44,180
Yeah, I'm tough.

1199
01:15:59,080 --> 01:16:00,380
Stupid fucking brat.

1200
01:16:02,120 --> 01:16:03,120
Scared?

1201
01:16:03,720 --> 01:16:07,160
How does that feel, Noel? Is that a
little scary?

1202
01:16:12,560 --> 01:16:13,560
Sorry, brother.

1203
01:16:13,600 --> 01:16:17,240
They say put a paper bag over his head
and fuck him with paper bags. I'm not

1204
01:16:17,240 --> 01:16:24,060
leaving here without my fucking

1205
01:16:24,060 --> 01:16:25,060
money.

1206
01:16:25,440 --> 01:16:28,580
Well, there's nothing you can do. I
could tell you where it is, though.

1207
01:16:28,990 --> 01:16:30,490
You won't find it in a thousand years.

1208
01:16:31,690 --> 01:16:32,870
Oh, fuck off.

1209
01:16:35,470 --> 01:16:38,050
You can see how stupid you look.

1210
01:16:38,590 --> 01:16:40,750
You had it coming. You know you did.

1211
01:16:41,710 --> 01:16:43,870
You don't want to be bad. You want to be
nothing.

1212
01:16:48,170 --> 01:16:50,190
You'll never make me talk. You know it.

1213
01:16:51,610 --> 01:16:53,690
Martin could make me, but you can't.

1214
01:16:57,930 --> 01:17:00,290
Martin could make me do a lot of things,
too.

1215
01:17:00,930 --> 01:17:05,990
You have to ruin everything I've ever
had. You have always done it. My whole

1216
01:17:05,990 --> 01:17:07,650
fucking life. You're so jealous.

1217
01:17:09,090 --> 01:17:10,090
Maybe.

1218
01:17:13,930 --> 01:17:14,930
Hey, Martin.

1219
01:17:16,870 --> 01:17:17,870
Hey, Martin.

1220
01:17:18,770 --> 01:17:19,770
Martin, Martin, Martin.

1221
01:17:23,930 --> 01:17:24,930
Martin!

1222
01:17:28,140 --> 01:17:31,520
Noel has eaten all of my money. She
won't tell me where it is.

1223
01:17:33,700 --> 01:17:34,700
What's that?

1224
01:17:35,380 --> 01:17:36,380
What's that?

1225
01:17:38,640 --> 01:17:40,960
Martin says you're a bad little fucking
whore.

1226
01:17:43,240 --> 01:17:46,540
You came out here just to tell me about
you and him, didn't you?

1227
01:17:46,820 --> 01:17:49,500
Just so you could fucking wipe out what
we have.

1228
01:17:49,860 --> 01:17:55,480
Hey, you wiped out what I had with him.
Why don't you fucking think about that?

1229
01:18:04,680 --> 01:18:07,960
awful fucking thing in the world to you.

1230
01:18:14,940 --> 01:18:16,880
I'll die before I show you where the
money is.

1231
01:18:17,260 --> 01:18:18,260
Okay.

1232
01:18:19,660 --> 01:18:20,660
Go.

1233
01:18:21,500 --> 01:18:22,540
Keep your eye on it.

1234
01:18:22,800 --> 01:18:23,880
Keep your eye on it.

1235
01:18:37,770 --> 01:18:38,770
Ready?

1236
01:20:34,540 --> 01:20:36,180
And I've always been in love with you.

1237
01:20:36,940 --> 01:20:38,100
Right from forever.

1238
01:21:11,880 --> 01:21:12,880
Past ready.

1239
01:21:13,560 --> 01:21:14,560
Madam.

1240
01:21:15,740 --> 01:21:16,740
Stupid!

1241
01:21:18,580 --> 01:21:22,100
That was fucking crazy! We can't even
fix!

1242
01:21:23,980 --> 01:21:27,660
That was the craziest fuck I've ever saw
in my life!

1243
01:21:29,040 --> 01:21:30,040
I'm flattered.

1244
01:21:53,960 --> 01:21:55,480
You never gave me anything that's nice.

1245
01:21:57,900 --> 01:21:59,340
You must really like you.

1246
01:22:04,540 --> 01:22:05,540
Mark.

1247
01:22:07,860 --> 01:22:11,320
Mark, it isn't fair. I don't have
anything.

1248
01:22:25,130 --> 01:22:28,290
It takes more guts to kill yourself than
it does to keep on living.

1249
01:22:29,770 --> 01:22:33,150
We're not going to kill ourselves with
dope, that's for sure.

1250
01:22:35,810 --> 01:22:36,290
Tomorrow,

1251
01:22:36,290 --> 01:22:44,550
if

1252
01:22:44,550 --> 01:22:46,670
you still feel this way, I'll call Dad.
I promise.

1253
01:22:46,890 --> 01:22:47,890
Okay?

1254
01:22:50,530 --> 01:22:52,410
If I still feel like what?

1255
01:22:55,280 --> 01:22:57,940
Still feel like however you did when you
woke up this morning.

1256
01:23:01,940 --> 01:23:04,300
You're not as stupid as you look, Chris.

1257
01:23:06,780 --> 01:23:10,000
All right, what are we going to do?

1258
01:23:12,560 --> 01:23:13,980
We're going to take a bath.

1259
01:23:16,780 --> 01:23:18,920
We have to do something.

1260
01:23:27,850 --> 01:23:28,850
I regret.

1261
01:23:29,890 --> 01:23:34,570
I feel... I feel bad about the bad
things I didn't do.

1262
01:23:38,050 --> 01:23:39,950
That's what made me feel bad.

1263
01:23:44,910 --> 01:23:47,930
The bad things I didn't do.

1264
01:23:49,650 --> 01:23:52,890
You said it, babe.

1265
01:23:55,690 --> 01:23:56,970
You said it all.

1266
01:24:00,110 --> 01:24:01,110
I hate you more.

1267
01:24:01,490 --> 01:24:02,490
I hate you.

1268
01:24:02,810 --> 01:24:04,190
I hate you.

1269
01:24:06,390 --> 01:24:07,390
You're ugly.

1270
01:24:10,690 --> 01:24:16,590
When I was in grade five or six, I used
to lie down in the field behind my

1271
01:24:16,590 --> 01:24:17,590
school.

1272
01:24:18,830 --> 01:24:20,410
I had a friend, Linda.

1273
01:24:21,470 --> 01:24:23,710
We used to go there, lie down, and wait
for boys.

1274
01:24:25,270 --> 01:24:27,170
Linda used to do this. They knew we were
there.

1275
01:24:28,590 --> 01:24:32,010
It was mainly necking, kid stuff. They
put their hands under our clothes.

1276
01:24:35,250 --> 01:24:36,950
There was this guy my brother knew.

1277
01:24:37,810 --> 01:24:41,510
He liked me. Sometimes he'd pull other
guys off me and have me all alone.

1278
01:24:42,950 --> 01:24:44,770
I didn't like him. I liked what he did.

1279
01:24:45,270 --> 01:24:47,610
You lie down in a field, you're not
being choosy.

1280
01:24:50,590 --> 01:24:52,930
Sometimes it was just me, him, my
brother, and Linda.

1281
01:24:55,330 --> 01:24:58,250
The guys, they were lying so close,
their shoulders would...

1282
01:24:58,520 --> 01:25:03,740
I don't think about when I was a kid,
but I remember that.

1283
01:25:04,760 --> 01:25:05,760
I remember that.

1284
01:25:11,160 --> 01:25:12,720
I haven't been here lately.

1285
01:25:13,680 --> 01:25:16,140
Yesterday it was... It's been three
months.

1286
01:25:17,220 --> 01:25:18,980
Three months since I fixed yesterday.

1287
01:25:19,860 --> 01:25:23,760
I never had a thing for booze. It's
floppy and there's no class to it.

1288
01:25:24,390 --> 01:25:29,010
You don't have to rob a bank to get a
drink. You don't shoot anyone, dab

1289
01:25:29,190 --> 01:25:35,270
You don't fucking go back to the liquor
store, break the guy's knees because he

1290
01:25:35,270 --> 01:25:36,270
ripped you off.

1291
01:25:37,350 --> 01:25:39,770
You don't get to live like that
drinking.

1292
01:25:42,370 --> 01:25:46,410
Junk gives you a life. It isn't perfect,
maybe, but, you know, gets you out of

1293
01:25:46,410 --> 01:25:47,410
bed in the morning.

1294
01:25:48,370 --> 01:25:49,830
Gets me out of bed anyways.

1295
01:25:53,640 --> 01:25:59,000
It's funny, I was thinking about my
brother, about when we were kids.

1296
01:26:00,240 --> 01:26:05,900
I remember when he first started
drinking, not when he was a kid, he was

1297
01:26:05,900 --> 01:26:10,440
every night once he started. And I said
to him, I said, is this what you want?

1298
01:26:10,500 --> 01:26:12,580
Is it good? As good as the real thing?

1299
01:26:13,100 --> 01:26:19,720
My brother says, he said, he said, after
junk, tricking,

1300
01:26:19,720 --> 01:26:22,460
he said, after junk.

1301
01:26:23,250 --> 01:26:25,190
Drinking was like kissing your sister.

1302
01:26:28,330 --> 01:26:30,950
He told me, and he drank. He drank a
lot.

1303
01:26:31,410 --> 01:26:34,470
He said it never really got him there.
He drank and drank. I mean, he's an

1304
01:26:34,470 --> 01:26:38,010
alcoholic, but it wasn't the same.

1305
01:26:38,950 --> 01:26:42,870
It was like, well, it was like what he
said.

1306
01:26:43,090 --> 01:26:47,750
It was, well, I guess you know what he's
trying to say. If it's not what you

1307
01:26:47,750 --> 01:26:50,590
want, if it isn't the real thing, then
it's just like kissing your sister.

1308
01:26:56,720 --> 01:26:58,260
I guess that pretty much says it.