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NEW BEGINNINGS COMMUNITY CHAPEL,
CADE LAKE, TEXAS
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TEN WEEKS IN FREEDOM
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I go to church.
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The children play.
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They have fun.
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How are you?
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- How are you?
- Good.
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I'm glad to see you.
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- How are you?
- He's my son, Quentin.
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- Hello.
- Quentin, my pleasure.
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Recently, my probation officer
He let me go to church.
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I've been coming
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one six weeks
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and it is a blessing.
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- Hello, Dale.
- How are you, brother?
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- I'm dirty.
- It doesn't matter. God bless you.
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I've been waiting for a long time
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this moment, and these people understand it.
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Father, guide me
towards the right decisions
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and teach me to use my time
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to do good
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and to strengthen my life.
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AT HIS TRIAL, DALE SIGLER STATED
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HAVING KILLED JOHN ZELTNER
DURING A ROBBERY
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I think it would be appropriate, Dale,
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that you would go up and tell your story.
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THIRTY YEARS LATER,
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CLAIMS THAT THERE WAS ANOTHER REASON
TO COMMIT THE CRIME
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I want to thank you
to each and every one of you
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for giving me a chance.
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you have opened me
your heart, your church
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and your life.
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Until three or four years ago
I wasn't strong enough
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to take a step forward
and admit who and what he was.
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I went to trial
for aggravated homicide in 1990
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and I spent three years in the corridor
for killing someone who tried
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blackmail me to keep
a homosexual relationship.
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Some will think I shouldn't breathe
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for having taken that life.
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As I am a murderer,
Don't I have the right to tell the truth?
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I'm not worried
people who want to speculate,
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because the children of God will understand it.
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AN ORIGINAL NETFLIX SERIES
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People must understand
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that everyone in life
We go through trials and adversities.
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And when I took that life,
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I took mine off
because I didn't want to live anymore.
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I was tired of living with that pain.
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In my childhood, I experienced some things.
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Abuse at ten years old
They marked me for life.
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I grew up with that stigma of abuse.
It was hard.
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It made me wonder about my sexuality,
who he was and if he was a real man.
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It was the trigger
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towards self-destruction 11 years later,
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because I was fleeing my demons and my fears.
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And when I got to Texas,
everything started again.
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The time of the murder
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I was very sensitive.
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I was lost.
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I shot myself again,
to methamphetamine, cocaine.
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And then I met John.
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And... we became close.
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He let me go take a shower, go to sleep.
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I trusted him and told him
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for what had happened,
why did I live on the street
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and the abuse as a child.
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Over time,
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I trusted John. I knew John.
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I thought he was a good sincere friend.
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One night when I went to his house,
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I took a shower,
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I laid down and fell asleep.
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I woke up and he was on top of me.
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I said, "What are you doing, man?"
I took my things
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and came back...
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That fear returned
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of ten years.
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I said, "John, we're friends.
What makes you think
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What do I want that?"
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He told me: "Uncle, if not... If you don't agree,
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I will tell everyone
that you have done the same."
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All my life I have repressed everything,
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but he had reached the limit.
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He was a friend of John.
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and he wanted to blackmail me
to have relations with me.
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I told him: "I have no reason to live.
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If you do, I swear I'll kill you."
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And I meant it,
because I didn't care about my own life.
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two days later
that he tried to abuse me
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He called people looking for me,
and it seemed like a threat to me
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What was I going to tell people?
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that we had a relationship,
that was a lie.
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I can be a lot of things,
maybe he's even a murderer,
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but I'm not homosexual.
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And I decided I was going to defend myself.
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I had warned him.
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I was going to do what I said I would do.
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On April 6, 1990,
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I went into Subway.
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He told me:
"You've decided to come and agree, right?"
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I took the 45 out of my pocket,
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I put it on the table,
I put it in front of him
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and started to shake. I was terrified.
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I shot him six times in the chest.
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When he fell,
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I emptied the magazine. I shot him
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twice in the back of the head as he lay.
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I wonder a lot
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how I got carried away by the situation
to do that.
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It's a dark place.
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Being so broken.
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And I will always pay for it.
I wish I hadn't killed him.
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Nobody deserves it.
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That's why I haven't forgiven myself until today.
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People tell me to get over it,
forgive me
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It's not easy.
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But I can't go back in time.
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The only thing I can do
is to take advantage of my life
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and try to help.
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my life has been
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a torment of winds, frustrations
and tides that pushed me deeper...
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That's why I want to tell the story.
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I want other people to know
What if they abuse them?
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or whatever happens to them,
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they must talk to someone
until they listen to them.
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I didn't do anything when I was ten years old.
so that they would abuse me,
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But I kept it to myself all my life.
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I had nowhere to let go, nowhere to go,
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but that pain became my process,
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in the mission that God has for me.
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Because I know that every day that I live
and every breath I take
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It is proof that miracles exist.
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Thank you.
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Amen!
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It's a story of redemption
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and we can all be redeemed
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taking the right path.
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It has been tremendous.
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I identify a lot with Dale,
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because I was in jail
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for 28 years
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for attempted murder,
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but I didn't act like Dale.
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Dale was smart,
He found God and all that, and I didn't.
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I continued to rebel.
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Dale is good, man.
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He knows what he's talking about.
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I have received many blessings.
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The hearts of many people have softened
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and that's what I've asked for since I left.
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- Yes.
- God has made a way for me.
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In these months,
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Dale has made a lot of progress.
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He has won over many people,
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especially in the church.
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They are impressed
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when he declares and tells his story.
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Give it to people
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every time you have
the opportunity to talk to them.
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Hello!
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- Forward.
- How are you?
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Very good.
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- This is Dale.
- How are you?
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Dale, this is my grandson, Shannon Junior.
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- Hi how are things?
-Jenny.
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And Cheyenne.
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I appreciate your visit.
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I've been busy.
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What you see is what there is.
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ask me anything
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and I will answer you.
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I know who I am, what I am and where I come from.
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- I have never been...
- He doesn't hide anything.
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cowardly to the point
of not answering a question.
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May I ask "how"?
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Do you want to know?
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When I was ten years old,
They abused me.
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Eleven years later,
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they tried to blackmail me
to have a homosexual relationship.
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And I told him: "At this moment in my life,
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If you do, I'll kill you.
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Because all I have left is
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my reputation,
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keep my word and be decent."
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You understand?
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He thought it was a game.
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- And you shot him?
- Yes.
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I ended up with two lives. Yours and mine.
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But I am still alive by the grace of God.
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Not everyone will understand
nor will they be receptive to my story
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because there are two types of people
that scare people:
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murderers and pedophiles.
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And I am a murderer.
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- How cute.
- I'm glad to see you.
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But little by little,
the people who talk to me
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and listen to me,
usually see the man I am now.
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Thanks for coming.
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- Don't disappear. Come back.
- Yes, whenever you want.
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What did you think?
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He talks a lot.
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Yes, it takes a lifetime
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- in jail.
- He's nice.
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He tells his story to everyone
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so they know who it is.
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Yes, he learned a lot in prison.
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He took drugs and had a bad time.
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And the uncle hurt him too.
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I would have done the same.
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Before the murder, he lived on the street
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and I met John Zeltner.
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I trusted John. I knew John.
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I thought he was a good sincere friend.
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And he tried to blackmail me
to maintain relationships.
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"I have no reason to live.
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If you do, I'll kill you."
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If you say you believe that
and that was justified,
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I'll be honest, I have problems.
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I'm worried...
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to be exposed to society
that irrational thought.
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I don't call him a liar,
because I don't know the truth.
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I will say this:
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If that information
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is true and accurate,
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should have been told to a jury.
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So honestly,
I wouldn't believe it at first sight.
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He states, if I'm not mistaken,
who is being blackmailed
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by someone who says
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who is gay
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Okay?
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To me, it's pretty ridiculous.
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If anyone wants
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to say that my lifestyle is different,
I don't care.
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Forward.
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I know who I am.
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What will it influence me?
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How is it going to hurt me? Okay?
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I have no right to take your life.
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It's very extreme.
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And...
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very irrational.
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Mr. Sigler is reversing roles.
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He has become the victim
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and John Zeltner in the bad guy.
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He is not a victim.
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He is not a victim.
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If anything, he is a victim of himself
and his own actions.
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From no one else.
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Nobody is to blame for what happened.
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Spot. Except him.
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And you have to kneel
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and thank God and society
for giving you another chance.
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He says they must understand it.
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I tell you one thing:
"Society has given you another chance.
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You must be grateful, humble,
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responsible.
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Leave the excuses,
to talk about it, turn the page,
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and do the right thing."
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I don't want to blame someone else,
but tell the truth.
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I am responsible for the life I took,
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but they must understand
how I got to that point.
261
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I didn't see clearly.
262
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I didn't see a future, a life.
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He only saw the torment and pain.
264
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Couldn't you have done anything else
instead of killing him?
265
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People always want to talk
of what you could have done.
266
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You learn from mistakes.
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Guess 30 years later
about what you could have done
268
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It's a waste of time.
269
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It doesn't solve a situation.
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He doesn't resurrect John.
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People don't want to understand
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pain and torment
that lead you to the point where you kill.
273
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Why didn't you tell it then?
274
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Why would I do it?
275
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The times I tried to speak
with my lawyer and with the people,
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I felt ridiculous.
277
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When I met my lawyer he told me:
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"Are you the biggest idiot in the world?"
279
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The judicial system does not want to know.
280
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My lawyers didn't want to know.
281
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Why would I want to share it with anyone?
282
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He felt like no one would understand him.
283
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I didn't care.
284
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I wanted it to end.
285
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I wanted to die.
286
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Do you have resentment towards gays?
or are you homophobic?
287
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-How do you feel towards gays?
- No.
288
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I didn't kill him because he was gay.
289
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I have never held a grudge against them
nor have I been homophobic
290
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I haven't had any problems
291
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with the decisions of others.
292
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Because I don't judge people.
293
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Do I believe in homosexuality?
294
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No, it is an abomination to God.
295
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That's what they tell me
the principles of the word of God.
296
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It's what they teach.
297
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But you are condemned to that life.
298
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But I don't judge people.
I love them despite that.
299
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Neither as a child nor until today, I judge them.
300
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I don't hate anyone for their beliefs.
301
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or his sexuality.
302
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Never.
303
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But others want to judge me
304
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trying to convert
in a hate crime.
305
00:18:42,861 --> 00:18:43,861
It wasn't for that.
306
00:18:44,621 --> 00:18:46,341
What if he misinterpreted your signals?
307
00:18:47,621 --> 00:18:50,341
It's impossible
that you misinterpret my signs.
308
00:18:50,421 --> 00:18:54,141
It is impossible for you to misunderstand
the kind of man he was.
309
00:18:54,621 --> 00:18:55,461
It's impossible.
310
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People often think there is something more
in all this that they don't know,
311
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Maybe it's all for five minutes of fame,
312
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or maybe it is
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to hide something else or...
314
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No, it's authentic.
315
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This is what happened
and the truth of the matter.
316
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I won't tell the story now
to denigrate the individual,
317
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neither to excuse myself, nor to justify
318
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what I did.
319
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I don't care what they say,
what they think or what they see.
320
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I know it's the truth.
321
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It is the perfect version,
322
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because the person who can say
what has happened is dead.
323
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It is very easy to pass
responsibility for a dead person
324
00:20:02,181 --> 00:20:04,021
when you can't come
325
00:20:05,261 --> 00:20:08,301
and tell us what the relationship was
326
00:20:09,021 --> 00:20:09,861
between...
327
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Dale Sigler and him.
328
00:20:12,461 --> 00:20:16,021
And even if you think Sigler is telling the truth,
329
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It's no reason to go and kill someone.
330
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For a try
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of homosexual contact?
332
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Come on now. Tell me something else.
333
00:20:30,621 --> 00:20:35,941
HOW DALE WAS CONVICTED
FOR PREMEDITATED MURDER,
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THE CHANGE OF MOBILE PHONE DOES NOT AFFECT
TO HIS CONVICTION OR THE STATE OF HIS FREEDOM
335
00:20:43,941 --> 00:20:46,181
I guess the question is:
336
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Is the fact worse
after John Zeltner died
337
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because Sigler alleged that he was homosexual
338
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and blackmailed
339
00:20:56,021 --> 00:20:57,141
to Dale Sigler?
340
00:20:57,581 --> 00:21:01,381
Or is it a worse fact
to kill John Zeltner
341
00:21:02,341 --> 00:21:04,021
because I wanted money
342
00:21:04,381 --> 00:21:06,781
for drugs and alcohol?
343
00:21:07,501 --> 00:21:10,741
any of them
It's incriminating, I think.
344
00:21:11,181 --> 00:21:13,821
Even if you want to give it a whirl,
345
00:21:14,261 --> 00:21:15,821
there is a common denominator,
346
00:21:15,901 --> 00:21:18,461
and John Zeltner is dead.
347
00:21:27,661 --> 00:21:30,061
AT THE TIME OF RECORDING,
348
00:21:30,141 --> 00:21:34,821
THE ZELTNER FAMILY DIDN'T KNOW
THAT DALE SIGLER HAD CHANGED THE MOBILE PHONE
349
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I don't know if he has remorse.
350
00:21:40,461 --> 00:21:41,301
I hope so.
351
00:21:42,301 --> 00:21:45,261
And I hope you think every day
in what he has done to us.
352
00:21:45,701 --> 00:21:46,781
There is no forgiveness.
353
00:21:47,301 --> 00:21:49,421
I will never ever forgive him.
354
00:21:50,381 --> 00:21:53,741
Can't do or say anything
to give me back my brother.
355
00:21:53,821 --> 00:21:54,901
Should I forgive him?
356
00:21:55,941 --> 00:21:57,781
No.
357
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Not at all.
358
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It wouldn't change anything to know that it will change.
359
00:22:01,741 --> 00:22:02,981
I think the same.
360
00:22:03,461 --> 00:22:05,861
you should pay
361
00:22:06,541 --> 00:22:07,541
for what you do.
362
00:22:09,341 --> 00:22:11,181
FOREST Y JOHN HARLAN ZELTNER
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THEY DENIED THE ATTEMPTS
DALE SIGLER BLAMEING HIS BROTHER
364
00:22:14,941 --> 00:22:20,461
THEY STILL FIRMLY OPPOSED
TO THE DECISION TO RELEASE HIM FROM JAIL
365
00:22:24,581 --> 00:22:28,621
Anyone who has been a prosecutor,
defense lawyer or judge
366
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for a while
367
00:22:30,021 --> 00:22:31,541
has asked the same thing:
368
00:22:32,061 --> 00:22:34,541
"What is a fair punishment
for murder?"
369
00:22:35,941 --> 00:22:36,781
And...
370
00:22:37,301 --> 00:22:41,941
I'll tell you what it is
a very difficult question to answer.
371
00:22:42,981 --> 00:22:46,261
I am satisfied
with the sentence he received.
372
00:22:46,821 --> 00:22:48,741
Despite what people say,
373
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thirty years in prison
It's a lot of time.
374
00:22:53,901 --> 00:22:58,381
Dale has passed
almost 60% of his life in prison,
375
00:22:58,781 --> 00:22:59,621
so...
376
00:23:00,181 --> 00:23:01,861
The sentence seems good to me.
377
00:23:02,821 --> 00:23:04,501
You better not screw up.
378
00:23:29,461 --> 00:23:31,861
AFTER THREE MONTHS IN FREEDOM,
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00:23:31,941 --> 00:23:35,981
DALE GOT A JOB
ON A NEARBY RANCH
380
00:23:39,461 --> 00:23:41,381
Driving after 30 years
381
00:23:41,861 --> 00:23:43,101
It's something beautiful.
382
00:23:43,581 --> 00:23:45,101
I've waited a long time
383
00:23:46,021 --> 00:23:50,221
to get into my car,
drive to work
384
00:23:50,781 --> 00:23:53,621
and enjoy life.
Feel the wind in your hair
385
00:23:54,061 --> 00:23:55,621
and listen to the radio.
386
00:23:55,701 --> 00:23:56,901
Be free.
387
00:23:57,141 --> 00:23:58,861
That's what it's about.
388
00:24:17,581 --> 00:24:19,381
I come eagerly every day
389
00:24:20,061 --> 00:24:22,461
because there is peace,
390
00:24:22,541 --> 00:24:23,941
peace, tranquility.
391
00:24:26,621 --> 00:24:29,821
be in jail
with so many screams and voices
392
00:24:30,541 --> 00:24:32,301
It's frustrating.
393
00:24:32,461 --> 00:24:35,021
Not having to deal with that is a relief.
394
00:24:38,941 --> 00:24:42,901
There is no way to work hard,
come home with full pockets,
395
00:24:43,581 --> 00:24:47,101
shower, sit
and have dinner with someone you love
396
00:24:47,501 --> 00:24:50,581
and talk about life. Enjoy life.
397
00:24:50,981 --> 00:24:53,101
We don't value it. I didn't do it.
398
00:24:53,981 --> 00:24:56,541
Now every moment is valuable to me.
399
00:25:00,901 --> 00:25:01,741
I carry
400
00:25:02,461 --> 00:25:05,021
a time alone
401
00:25:06,261 --> 00:25:08,261
And, although I like my privacy,
402
00:25:08,341 --> 00:25:14,541
it's nice to have someone
with whom to talk and hang out.
403
00:25:15,421 --> 00:25:16,901
We had a good time.
404
00:25:18,381 --> 00:25:21,461
We tell each other things about our past
405
00:25:22,421 --> 00:25:24,261
and we simply enjoy.
406
00:25:26,021 --> 00:25:27,861
It's my high school yearbook.
407
00:25:28,341 --> 00:25:30,421
- It was...
- It's from when I was born.
408
00:25:31,021 --> 00:25:33,061
- AND? What are you trying to say?
- 1967.
409
00:25:33,141 --> 00:25:34,821
- A good year.
- Okay.
410
00:25:34,901 --> 00:25:36,621
You would have a good year.
411
00:25:37,541 --> 00:25:39,581
- Is your photo there?
- Yes.
412
00:25:40,861 --> 00:25:43,341
- Leave it!
- Yeah!
413
00:25:43,901 --> 00:25:44,981
Leave it already.
414
00:25:45,661 --> 00:25:46,501
Yes.
415
00:25:47,821 --> 00:25:50,141
Our relationship is still good.
416
00:25:50,501 --> 00:25:51,901
We still love each other,
417
00:25:51,981 --> 00:25:53,541
although we have moments,
418
00:25:53,701 --> 00:25:55,861
but we kissed and made up.
419
00:25:57,101 --> 00:25:58,141
Do you want to see
420
00:25:58,661 --> 00:25:59,701
my photo?
421
00:25:59,861 --> 00:26:01,261
Yes, where is it?
422
00:26:01,781 --> 00:26:03,061
I'm not going to tell you.
423
00:26:04,941 --> 00:26:06,101
Find me.
424
00:26:07,501 --> 00:26:09,701
Dale is still a big boy.
425
00:26:10,061 --> 00:26:11,301
He plays the fool.
426
00:26:11,621 --> 00:26:14,701
He has fun and wants to express
427
00:26:15,301 --> 00:26:18,861
that happiness, and it can only do
being a big boy.
428
00:26:19,821 --> 00:26:22,021
- Still nothing?
- You try to avoid
429
00:26:22,101 --> 00:26:23,541
- let him find you.
- No.
430
00:26:23,741 --> 00:26:25,701
- Yes.
- No.
431
00:26:25,781 --> 00:26:28,781
- No.
- Okay, just saying.
432
00:26:31,221 --> 00:26:32,061
It's you?
433
00:26:33,301 --> 00:26:34,141
Yes.
434
00:26:34,461 --> 00:26:35,901
Mom Carole, how beautiful.
435
00:26:35,981 --> 00:26:38,621
You still are, but you were beautiful.
436
00:26:39,101 --> 00:26:40,021
Well, thank you.
437
00:26:40,101 --> 00:26:44,261
If I were 19 years old and studying with you,
I would have gone for you.
438
00:26:45,381 --> 00:26:46,501
You were spectacular.
439
00:26:47,021 --> 00:26:48,421
You were spectacular.
440
00:26:54,181 --> 00:26:57,261
I didn't know the details in depth
441
00:26:57,741 --> 00:26:59,021
of murder,
442
00:26:59,461 --> 00:27:02,181
until we sat in the living room
443
00:27:02,901 --> 00:27:05,261
and I asked him.
444
00:27:06,821 --> 00:27:08,581
When he told me what happened,
445
00:27:08,781 --> 00:27:11,061
I was a little surprised.
446
00:27:12,741 --> 00:27:15,821
And my heart broke a little more
447
00:27:17,221 --> 00:27:18,301
because...
448
00:27:19,021 --> 00:27:21,581
I saw how hurt he was.
449
00:27:23,221 --> 00:27:27,021
I didn't change my opinion
about what I felt for him.
450
00:27:28,741 --> 00:27:31,421
And no matter what happens, I support him.
451
00:27:51,261 --> 00:27:52,661
Life now is
452
00:27:53,661 --> 00:27:54,541
very beautiful
453
00:27:57,181 --> 00:27:59,941
When I think about how far I've come,
454
00:28:00,701 --> 00:28:01,861
what I have suffered,
455
00:28:03,581 --> 00:28:05,141
I didn't imagine this day.
456
00:28:07,581 --> 00:28:10,301
Being in this moment and being able...
457
00:28:11,941 --> 00:28:15,221
smell the fresh air,
look at the clouds in the sky,
458
00:28:16,621 --> 00:28:17,621
is...
459
00:28:18,181 --> 00:28:19,301
a beautiful day.
460
00:28:26,261 --> 00:28:27,821
What is a fair punishment
461
00:28:28,781 --> 00:28:29,661
for murder?
462
00:28:32,621 --> 00:28:35,061
I know I deserved this opportunity.
463
00:28:36,061 --> 00:28:37,181
I know that I have earned
464
00:28:38,021 --> 00:28:38,861
this freedom.
465
00:28:40,581 --> 00:28:42,501
After 30 years in prison,
466
00:28:43,381 --> 00:28:45,621
I have paid my debt. Ample.
467
00:28:45,701 --> 00:28:46,621
I have changed.
468
00:28:46,861 --> 00:28:48,421
I have grown, I have matured.
469
00:28:50,141 --> 00:28:51,581
So I deserve it.
470
00:28:52,301 --> 00:28:54,861
I deserve a chance, like anyone.
471
00:29:00,901 --> 00:29:04,981
ONE YEAR AFTER LEAVING PRISON,
DALE STILL LIVES WITH CAROLE,
472
00:29:05,061 --> 00:29:07,541
BUT HE PLANS TO HAVE HIS OWN HOUSE
473
00:29:07,621 --> 00:29:14,221
HE NO LONGER WORKS ON THE RANCH
AND HE IS LOOKING FOR ANOTHER JOB
474
00:29:16,221 --> 00:29:21,701
WILL REMAIN ON CONDITIONAL FREEDOM
THE REST OF YOUR LIFE