1 00:01:02,040 --> 00:01:02,631 Now. 2 00:01:04,320 --> 00:01:06,038 And now! 3 00:01:07,400 --> 00:01:08,879 Hello? Rick? 4 00:01:18,120 --> 00:01:20,156 Cool it... Okay, Rick! 5 00:01:20,320 --> 00:01:22,390 ...can you wake earlier? 6 00:01:25,000 --> 00:01:26,433 Were you asleep? -Yes. 7 00:01:26,640 --> 00:01:27,959 Sound off! 8 00:01:29,920 --> 00:01:33,708 This is pointless. - Are you asleep or just pretending? 9 00:01:33,880 --> 00:01:35,757 I think you're asleep. 10 00:01:35,920 --> 00:01:37,797 You know what I'd like...? 11 00:01:39,560 --> 00:01:43,758 This is a waste of time! Working all day for nothing! 12 00:01:43,920 --> 00:01:45,239 Come on, once again! 13 00:01:45,400 --> 00:01:47,356 Wake up earlier, please. 14 00:01:48,280 --> 00:01:51,716 Here we go: one more time. - Sure... One more time! 15 00:01:54,160 --> 00:01:55,354 Are you ready? 16 00:01:59,880 --> 00:02:02,792 Don't get too close. - I can't see from here. 17 00:02:09,880 --> 00:02:11,791 Okay, this has to be it. 18 00:02:52,320 --> 00:02:54,629 This is Rick de Leeuw's answering machine. 19 00:02:54,800 --> 00:02:56,552 He isn't here right now... - Yes I am. 20 00:02:56,720 --> 00:02:58,870 Wait, I think I can hear him... 21 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:02,355 Rick! Rick! 22 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:06,236 Rick! - Okay! 23 00:03:09,640 --> 00:03:13,838 No, he's not here, but if you leave... - Yes. De Leeuw is here! 24 00:03:14,680 --> 00:03:15,749 Rick speaking. 25 00:03:16,600 --> 00:03:17,794 No, it's me. 26 00:03:20,840 --> 00:03:21,989 I don't have to... 27 00:03:23,680 --> 00:03:25,432 What's the time? 28 00:03:26,880 --> 00:03:28,279 It's 9:45! 29 00:03:31,040 --> 00:03:34,112 I'll get dressed. I'm coming... Wait! 30 00:03:34,920 --> 00:03:36,990 Shit! It's 9:45! 31 00:05:14,520 --> 00:05:16,875 the sea that thinks 32 00:05:19,120 --> 00:05:19,996 ...faking and imitating emotions. 33 00:05:21,680 --> 00:05:25,753 It felt good just to look out the window... 34 00:05:26,280 --> 00:05:30,717 ...if only it was possible to film like that. As you often open your eyes. 35 00:05:31,320 --> 00:05:35,359 Just observing. Without wanting to prove anything. 36 00:05:44,840 --> 00:05:49,038 Because at the bottom of the next page, Pooh was walking round... 37 00:05:49,520 --> 00:05:51,590 ...and round, in a circle... 38 00:05:51,760 --> 00:05:54,479 ...with a problem. - What are you doing, Pooh? 39 00:05:56,440 --> 00:05:59,079 I'm tracking something... - Tracking what? 40 00:05:59,520 --> 00:06:03,149 That's what I ask myself. What? - The tracks? 41 00:06:09,000 --> 00:06:11,560 You want to watch it? - Yes. 42 00:06:15,400 --> 00:06:18,790 Thinking is the skin on the milk. - This is it... 43 00:06:20,360 --> 00:06:24,273 We live in a circus of illusions we created ourselves. 44 00:06:24,560 --> 00:06:29,793 We believe in them so firmly that we can't see they're illusions... 45 00:06:31,640 --> 00:06:37,317 And in brief: being someone, an "I", that whole idea is an illusion. 46 00:06:38,920 --> 00:06:40,273 I think. 47 00:06:42,120 --> 00:06:45,476 If I say: try not to think of a cloud... 48 00:06:47,640 --> 00:06:50,871 Impossible. You instantly think of a cloud. 49 00:06:51,840 --> 00:06:56,550 The same with all ideas of yourself, of who and what you are. 50 00:06:58,200 --> 00:07:02,318 If I tell you: Let go of all those ideas... 51 00:07:02,480 --> 00:07:05,995 ...make that screen in your head empty and clean... 52 00:07:07,040 --> 00:07:10,157 ...try not to be someone, an "I"... 53 00:07:10,800 --> 00:07:12,756 It's not possible either... 54 00:07:13,560 --> 00:07:17,394 ...because when you try, you're someone trying. 55 00:07:22,800 --> 00:07:29,194 Touching a table, you don't feel the table, but what happens inside your finger. 56 00:07:29,360 --> 00:07:30,998 We feel ourselves. 57 00:07:31,920 --> 00:07:36,994 You don't listen to me, but to the vibrations in your own ear. 58 00:07:37,640 --> 00:07:39,995 We hear ourselves listening. 59 00:07:41,440 --> 00:07:47,276 If we look outside, we don't see what is outside, but the image in our brain. 60 00:07:48,360 --> 00:07:51,397 The world only exists in our head. 61 00:07:52,840 --> 00:07:54,353 And what's more:- 62 00:07:54,520 --> 00:08:01,153 Everything is possible for our eyes, but our brain says it is impossible. 63 00:08:01,320 --> 00:08:05,598 It creates ideas about what we see, about what we think we see. 64 00:08:05,760 --> 00:08:09,389 But also about what we think we are. 65 00:08:09,840 --> 00:08:10,955 No balloons? 66 00:08:11,960 --> 00:08:13,678 May I ask something? - Certainly. 67 00:08:13,840 --> 00:08:17,276 We're from the TV show Antenna. - I know it. 68 00:08:17,440 --> 00:08:19,112 What are you? - A student. 69 00:08:19,920 --> 00:08:22,388 I asked what you are, not what you do. 70 00:08:29,760 --> 00:08:31,193 I think about life. 71 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:34,992 I asked what you are, not what you think. 72 00:08:35,640 --> 00:08:37,198 That's a difficult question. 73 00:08:37,480 --> 00:08:39,436 What are you? - A man. 74 00:08:40,040 --> 00:08:42,679 I didn't ask your gender. I asked what you are. 75 00:08:51,080 --> 00:08:52,593 Nice...? 76 00:08:53,160 --> 00:08:56,709 May I ask something? I only have one question. 77 00:08:56,880 --> 00:08:58,074 What are you? 78 00:09:01,480 --> 00:09:03,710 What are you? An individual. 79 00:09:05,360 --> 00:09:08,909 What are you? - You could say I'm a window cleaner. 80 00:09:09,440 --> 00:09:13,035 I didn't ask what you do, but what you are. 81 00:09:14,640 --> 00:09:16,437 I'm an individual of our time. 82 00:09:17,440 --> 00:09:19,396 That's all I know. 83 00:09:19,880 --> 00:09:23,156 It's not what you think, but what you are. 84 00:09:23,880 --> 00:09:26,838 Once upon a time there was a sea. 85 00:09:27,000 --> 00:09:33,917 Sea lived in a happy and natural state of wetness and waves. 86 00:09:34,080 --> 00:09:40,997 One morning, out of the blue, sea thought she was a tree. 87 00:09:41,160 --> 00:09:46,075 This idea lasted for ever. 88 00:09:46,240 --> 00:09:49,550 Sea was no longer happy. 89 00:09:51,800 --> 00:09:53,472 What am I? 90 00:09:54,280 --> 00:09:55,952 I am kind-of sad. 91 00:09:56,720 --> 00:09:59,188 What do you mean? Look, I am the way I am. 92 00:09:59,960 --> 00:10:01,791 You don't ask where I am from. 93 00:10:01,960 --> 00:10:03,234 What are you? 94 00:10:03,920 --> 00:10:06,593 I am myself, am I not? 95 00:10:08,200 --> 00:10:09,792 It is holiday time. 96 00:10:09,960 --> 00:10:12,349 As every year, I swim in this sea. 97 00:10:12,520 --> 00:10:14,795 When I dive in, sea asks me:- 98 00:10:14,960 --> 00:10:21,149 "Friend, you've known me a long time. I'm a big tree, but something is wrong. 99 00:10:22,320 --> 00:10:28,077 What should I do to be as happy as when you first swam in me? 100 00:10:30,960 --> 00:10:33,474 What should sea do to become water again? 101 00:10:35,560 --> 00:10:38,154 "Nothing, of course," I answered. 102 00:10:39,720 --> 00:10:44,271 "Just let go of the illusion that you are a tree." 103 00:10:45,320 --> 00:10:48,198 It's not what you think, but what you are. 104 00:10:49,840 --> 00:10:51,990 What do I have to say next? 105 00:10:52,600 --> 00:10:56,309 Christ Almighty! Talk it through with her! 106 00:10:57,960 --> 00:10:59,598 This man is in a hurry. 107 00:10:59,760 --> 00:11:02,433 This man has more time. May I ask something? 108 00:11:03,040 --> 00:11:04,109 Some other time... 109 00:11:04,400 --> 00:11:05,719 What are you? 110 00:11:08,560 --> 00:11:09,629 A person. 111 00:11:09,800 --> 00:11:14,032 No, you were to say "Catholic" to the third question. 112 00:11:14,200 --> 00:11:17,397 And maybe you can hold the ice cream higher in the frame... 113 00:11:17,560 --> 00:11:19,835 Repeat the question. Okay... Go on. 114 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:23,436 I want to ask you something for the TV show Antenna. 115 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:26,239 What are you? - Catholic. 116 00:11:26,400 --> 00:11:30,837 No, stop. Not right away. First the other two questions... 117 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:32,797 Well! In an hour's time... 118 00:11:42,760 --> 00:11:44,159 I don't like it! 119 00:11:44,400 --> 00:11:45,230 Yesterday more than 60 people were injured in a major pile up... 120 00:11:46,200 --> 00:11:48,873 Yesterday more than 60 people were injured in a major pile up... 121 00:11:49,080 --> 00:11:51,594 The road is known to be very dangerous. 122 00:11:52,160 --> 00:11:57,154 But a spokesman said the accident was not a matter of traffic safety... 123 00:12:18,360 --> 00:12:22,148 The authorities are now to study safety there after all. 124 00:12:24,720 --> 00:12:28,315 Erwin, is it safe here, or are we better off ice skating? 125 00:12:29,400 --> 00:12:31,516 Stick to a sleigh, I'd say! 126 00:12:32,320 --> 00:12:33,878 Is this real? 127 00:12:35,280 --> 00:12:37,874 Or is it fake? - Tape still running! 128 00:12:38,320 --> 00:12:39,594 And the car crash? 129 00:12:40,640 --> 00:12:42,710 And all those street interviews? 130 00:12:43,880 --> 00:12:45,950 What do I think I see? 131 00:12:47,240 --> 00:12:49,515 What do I think I am? 132 00:12:50,240 --> 00:12:53,596 Is our dream real while we dream it? 133 00:12:54,840 --> 00:12:57,752 Where are we fooled by our thinking? 134 00:13:00,000 --> 00:13:06,155 We always say: "I am me, a man, woman, person, father of two children, painter... " 135 00:13:07,080 --> 00:13:08,593 But those are ideas. 136 00:13:09,320 --> 00:13:13,313 And what we are cannot be an idea or thought. 137 00:13:14,040 --> 00:13:19,273 Because, if we were a thought, we'd be gone with the thought too. 138 00:13:19,440 --> 00:13:22,352 The phone rings and the thought has gone. 139 00:13:24,520 --> 00:13:26,636 But we are still here. 140 00:13:27,680 --> 00:13:29,671 It's not ours, it's on TV. 141 00:13:30,400 --> 00:13:32,960 We are something we cannot express. 142 00:13:35,200 --> 00:13:39,113 Because everything we can say about ourselves is a thought. 143 00:13:39,360 --> 00:13:40,713 Coffee? - Great. 144 00:13:49,720 --> 00:13:52,188 Peter speaking... Hi Rick! 145 00:13:58,400 --> 00:14:01,358 Just imagine an empty stretch of sand... 146 00:14:02,160 --> 00:14:04,310 A thought arises, now. 147 00:14:05,440 --> 00:14:07,431 A Chinese tea bowl. 148 00:14:07,800 --> 00:14:10,519 This bowl, this thought disappears. 149 00:14:11,680 --> 00:14:16,037 Another thought arises: a candlestick. 150 00:14:16,280 --> 00:14:19,590 It exists briefly too and disappears. 151 00:14:19,760 --> 00:14:22,672 Then a gold-coloured car. 152 00:14:22,840 --> 00:14:23,989 Etc., etc... 153 00:14:24,760 --> 00:14:30,392 You can see these thoughts as buildings on the sand, built, then torn down. 154 00:14:30,720 --> 00:14:34,599 Thoughts come and go. Buildings appear and disappear. 155 00:14:35,720 --> 00:14:39,349 That empty sand is a good analogy of what we are. 156 00:14:42,960 --> 00:14:46,919 But, what happens? A thought occurs to you, like:- 157 00:14:47,080 --> 00:14:52,871 "Okay, I am apparently this stretch of sand without buildings. 158 00:14:53,440 --> 00:14:57,638 But the moment you have that thought, the building is there. 159 00:14:57,800 --> 00:15:00,314 And the sand is no longer empty. 160 00:15:00,760 --> 00:15:04,116 So we can never think up what we are. 161 00:15:07,160 --> 00:15:12,757 However we can somehow see that thoughts appear and disappear. 162 00:15:13,120 --> 00:15:18,513 We can see images appear in us. We can see that we think. 163 00:15:19,960 --> 00:15:23,032 And what image often appears in our head? 164 00:15:23,200 --> 00:15:27,716 A construction, a tall building we call "I". 165 00:15:28,080 --> 00:15:32,915 But listen: that "I" is a thought too, that's the point! 166 00:15:34,520 --> 00:15:37,398 We only need to change our point of view. 167 00:15:37,920 --> 00:15:41,230 We only need to turn 180 degrees and look. 168 00:15:43,720 --> 00:15:47,349 Then we don't just look at thoughts and images... 169 00:15:47,880 --> 00:15:51,714 ...but somehow or other... 170 00:15:52,480 --> 00:15:59,113 ...we find out we are possibilities for images to show themselves in us. 171 00:16:00,640 --> 00:16:02,119 Like a TV. 172 00:16:03,800 --> 00:16:05,870 We are in fact a TV set... 173 00:16:06,040 --> 00:16:09,350 ...a box in which images appear. 174 00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:15,716 Or the lamp in the cinema projector making all images possible. 175 00:16:19,400 --> 00:16:21,914 Usually we look at all the images... 176 00:16:22,080 --> 00:16:25,516 ...but we can also focus our attention... 177 00:16:26,320 --> 00:16:31,348 ...on what is looking at those images. 178 00:16:32,200 --> 00:16:34,509 And listen: that's not an "I". 179 00:16:41,520 --> 00:16:42,509 But... 180 00:16:43,320 --> 00:16:46,437 ...that's difficult, because in what we are... 181 00:16:46,600 --> 00:16:49,592 ...a seductive film appears, a drama... 182 00:16:49,880 --> 00:16:54,829 ...with or without happy ending; with war, violence, with love. 183 00:16:56,080 --> 00:17:00,278 The projector lamp or TV set makes those images possible... 184 00:17:00,440 --> 00:17:03,318 ...but the images don't influence them. 185 00:17:04,200 --> 00:17:06,270 They don't get hot or cold. 186 00:17:09,000 --> 00:17:10,558 Maybe a little warm. 187 00:17:14,400 --> 00:17:18,109 All problems start when we're involved with what we see. 188 00:17:18,280 --> 00:17:22,193 We like to identify with a fictional film character. 189 00:17:23,200 --> 00:17:26,158 We want to be James Bond or Lara Croft. 190 00:17:27,800 --> 00:17:34,876 That's okay, but in real life, outside the cinema, we also identify with a character. 191 00:17:35,040 --> 00:17:40,068 This character we call "I", It features in the film in our brain. 192 00:17:41,160 --> 00:17:43,071 A really brainy film. 193 00:17:44,720 --> 00:17:47,757 If you listen to people talking in the tram... 194 00:17:47,920 --> 00:17:50,718 ...you hear most often the word "I". 195 00:17:51,080 --> 00:17:55,039 I think, I said, I mean... I this and that... 196 00:17:56,320 --> 00:18:00,108 No one seems to wonder who that character actually is. 197 00:18:00,280 --> 00:18:02,236 Who hired that "I"? 198 00:18:03,680 --> 00:18:07,150 That character only exists, just as in the cinema... 199 00:18:07,320 --> 00:18:11,677 ...because we believe in it. But it is fake, an illusion. 200 00:18:12,520 --> 00:18:16,195 The lamp cannot identify with a person on the screen... 201 00:18:17,000 --> 00:18:18,718 ...with a James Bond. 202 00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:24,958 If you want a TV with... 203 00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:31,239 You can drink some coffee back there. Then I can get on and work in peace. 204 00:18:31,400 --> 00:18:36,030 You're getting on my nerves... - I'll go and take it as it is! 205 00:18:37,120 --> 00:18:39,315 Yet I still think I am a person. 206 00:18:40,320 --> 00:18:43,392 But when I dream, I also think I am someone.... 207 00:18:43,560 --> 00:18:47,269 ...an "I" with strange characteristics. - It's been here 3 weeks! 208 00:18:47,440 --> 00:18:52,036 In dreams, I can talk to my dead father, fly, walk up walls... 209 00:18:53,160 --> 00:18:56,277 I myself invented this dream "I". 210 00:18:58,240 --> 00:19:02,677 Yet I can be chased by a lion and run like hell. 211 00:19:03,600 --> 00:19:06,637 And wake up sweating from my own illusions. 212 00:19:07,760 --> 00:19:10,354 I deceive myself. 213 00:19:14,240 --> 00:19:16,913 It's the pincushion correction. 214 00:19:17,080 --> 00:19:19,150 It's a difficult problem. 215 00:19:28,080 --> 00:19:31,436 This dog gnaws at this huge clean bone. 216 00:19:32,080 --> 00:19:35,390 Splinters from the bone get in its gums. 217 00:19:35,560 --> 00:19:37,790 The gums start bleeding. 218 00:19:37,960 --> 00:19:41,748 The dog tastes its own blood, and thinks "Mmm... 219 00:19:41,920 --> 00:19:44,480 "...Iucky me, this is a nice juicy bone!" 220 00:19:44,640 --> 00:19:49,873 So he attacks wildly, gets more splinters in his jaw and more blood. 221 00:19:50,040 --> 00:19:52,349 That makes him even happier. 222 00:19:54,080 --> 00:19:56,435 It's one big vicious circle. 223 00:19:57,800 --> 00:20:00,234 We are that stupid too. 224 00:20:01,760 --> 00:20:05,514 We also think external factors can make us happy. 225 00:20:06,520 --> 00:20:12,675 But it's not the external factors: film, women, sex, cars, whatever... 226 00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:16,550 We taste our own happiness. 227 00:20:21,600 --> 00:20:23,955 Wow, you're quite something. 228 00:20:34,520 --> 00:20:35,669 We are... 229 00:20:35,880 --> 00:20:39,634 ...as in most films, always looking for happiness. 230 00:20:40,920 --> 00:20:44,196 We say: "I am not happy. I want to be happy. " 231 00:20:45,200 --> 00:20:47,589 It's an insane idea. 232 00:20:47,760 --> 00:20:52,390 If this "I" is only a thought. How can a thought be happy? 233 00:20:54,680 --> 00:20:59,276 A TV isn't happy showing a great film either, is it? 234 00:21:12,720 --> 00:21:14,756 And what about our past? 235 00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:22,078 We say: "I am the way I am because of my parents. " 236 00:21:23,480 --> 00:21:27,951 But this past also only exists in our... 237 00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:06,118 ...nurse switches channels. 15 lNT - FAMlLY lN LlVlNG ROOM - DAY 238 00:22:06,280 --> 00:22:08,316 Early 70s room. Bart is 17... 239 00:22:11,400 --> 00:22:13,038 ...in our head. 240 00:22:13,440 --> 00:22:15,670 The past is a thought. 241 00:22:15,840 --> 00:22:18,115 And the "I" is a thought. 242 00:22:18,280 --> 00:22:22,717 How on earth can one thought be tormented by another? 243 00:22:24,560 --> 00:22:27,870 A thought can't be tormented by anything. 244 00:22:31,720 --> 00:22:37,795 But we really believe in the existence of our character, our "I". 245 00:22:39,760 --> 00:22:44,470 But as soon as we do so, there is approval and disapproval. 246 00:22:45,120 --> 00:22:47,634 We want cake, but no toothache. 247 00:22:50,000 --> 00:22:52,116 On and on. 248 00:23:00,840 --> 00:23:02,478 Without end. 249 00:23:02,680 --> 00:23:08,357 As long as we identify with our character, we are its slave. 250 00:23:09,040 --> 00:23:14,034 We turn into a ping-pong ball and get hit back and forth by two bats. 251 00:23:14,200 --> 00:23:18,079 One bat is fear, the other bat is desire. 252 00:23:39,200 --> 00:23:41,634 But I also quite often think:- 253 00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:43,677 ...nice theory, but... 254 00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:48,872 ...I am really here and I do exist... 255 00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:51,630 I'm sitting here. Aren't I? 256 00:23:54,760 --> 00:23:58,275 What can I say? It's such a paradox. Drives you crazy. 257 00:23:58,440 --> 00:24:03,560 Maybe that's a way. Exposing your thinking to all these paradoxes. 258 00:24:03,720 --> 00:24:07,998 So it falls quiet. Stops creating silly ideas about ourselves. 259 00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:11,516 Maybe that's what they call enlightenment. 260 00:24:11,760 --> 00:24:14,320 ...wet hair... ...she's interested in the documentary... 261 00:24:14,480 --> 00:24:15,799 The doorbell rings. 262 00:24:15,960 --> 00:24:18,269 People realise, but not mentally... 263 00:24:18,440 --> 00:24:22,319 ...there is no step to take. We're already there. 264 00:24:22,480 --> 00:24:26,792 But I still think I have to cross a threshold, to go through a door... 265 00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:31,636 ...because it's as if I have to understand something. What? Where? 266 00:24:31,800 --> 00:24:37,511 One more piece of paper... where is it? Where is this liberating sentence? 267 00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:44,150 For whom? 268 00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:11,669 When I see what I really am... 269 00:25:11,840 --> 00:25:14,638 ...that I am what never changes. 270 00:25:14,800 --> 00:25:18,270 The possibility in which images can show themselves. 271 00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:23,798 Just as I am the possibility for my dreams to appear at night. 272 00:25:23,960 --> 00:25:26,474 Then I am outside the film. 273 00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:34,631 But I am NOT this possibility, the lamp or the TV. 274 00:25:35,520 --> 00:25:39,035 Because they are ideas, and I'm not an idea. 275 00:25:39,200 --> 00:25:42,272 So there's nothing to understand... Understand? 276 00:25:42,440 --> 00:25:44,795 Everything is a play of ideas. 277 00:25:46,160 --> 00:25:50,836 Don't listen to me. If you do, you might think: "That's interesting. " 278 00:25:51,000 --> 00:25:52,911 "That idea might help me." 279 00:25:54,720 --> 00:25:58,599 There are no interesting ideas. Because there's no "I" to be helped. 280 00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:16,552 ...black. 281 00:26:16,720 --> 00:26:20,156 ...sound of the mother and child disappears. Silence... 282 00:26:20,320 --> 00:26:24,996 ...she switches off the TV... ...it shrinks to a red-green-blue dot... 283 00:26:25,400 --> 00:26:28,039 There is nothing else to say. 284 00:26:36,320 --> 00:26:40,677 That's all there is to say. Nothing else. 285 00:26:49,920 --> 00:26:54,914 ...no interesting ideas. Because there's no "I" to be helped. 286 00:26:56,680 --> 00:26:59,478 ...all there is to say. Nothing else. 287 00:27:28,080 --> 00:27:32,995 There's nothing else to say... 288 00:27:39,920 --> 00:27:41,831 T. T. 289 00:27:42,000 --> 00:27:46,630 Then there was T. 290 00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:44,112 Circle... 291 00:31:10,120 --> 00:31:15,638 I introduce myself as the main character... 292 00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:18,758 ...and play myself. 293 00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:24,276 In other words: Bart. 294 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:28,752 I type what he does... 295 00:31:28,920 --> 00:31:33,710 ...and I do what he types. 296 00:31:38,720 --> 00:31:42,759 18. INT - BART'S ROOM - DAY 297 00:31:42,920 --> 00:31:46,799 We hear the kettle in the... 298 00:32:21,400 --> 00:32:24,790 ...camera pans to kitchen... ...he whistles... 299 00:32:38,840 --> 00:32:45,109 He smiles, takes another cigarette, forgets to light it... 300 00:32:50,000 --> 00:32:54,278 ...and types on, urgently. 301 00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:19,955 ...a cat reacts to the tin... 302 00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:23,197 ...we see the tea leaves turning in close up... 303 00:34:23,360 --> 00:34:26,079 The sunlight causes reflections... 304 00:34:31,400 --> 00:34:33,197 I am... 305 00:34:34,320 --> 00:34:41,317 He is too busy typing to notice these reflections... 306 00:35:49,760 --> 00:35:51,432 Hello, Bart speaking. 307 00:36:08,040 --> 00:36:11,191 Hey lady! It's great to hear your voice! 308 00:36:11,360 --> 00:36:13,112 How are you? - Fine... 309 00:36:13,920 --> 00:36:16,559 Where are you? - Lima. 310 00:36:16,720 --> 00:36:20,395 I thought you were still in Guatemala. - No, I left 4 days ago... 311 00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:22,598 I can't hear you... 312 00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:27,231 I can't hear you either. How's Mieke? - Fine. Very well. 313 00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:31,109 Really? How was Grandma's birthday yesterday? 314 00:36:31,280 --> 00:36:33,953 Yesterday? Sorry. We forgot. 315 00:36:34,120 --> 00:36:38,750 Forgot? - I'm busy with the script... It's growing. 316 00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:41,229 SHADOWS OF LEAVES 317 00:36:41,400 --> 00:36:43,868 I just finished part one. 318 00:36:44,040 --> 00:36:48,352 I can't yet see, but I feel as if I stumbled on a gold mine. 319 00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:56,430 ...he also embraces his own creation... 320 00:36:56,600 --> 00:36:59,398 19 lNT - BART'S LlVlNG ROOM Through the bars of a... 321 00:37:00,280 --> 00:37:02,157 I can't hear you at all. 322 00:37:04,040 --> 00:37:05,029 Marga? 323 00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:09,590 I'm hanging up, Marga. 324 00:37:10,600 --> 00:37:15,116 Nice you called. Bye dear. Take care! 325 00:37:45,520 --> 00:37:48,512 ...the lighter turns out to be huge. 326 00:37:48,680 --> 00:37:52,593 We see the garden. A gust of wind... 327 00:38:22,760 --> 00:38:25,832 ...he stops trying to organise the notes... 328 00:38:27,400 --> 00:38:31,439 While we hear the original interview in the background, we see... 329 00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:35,633 They are illusions... 330 00:38:35,960 --> 00:38:40,112 ....and I don't have to combat or agree with illusions. 331 00:38:40,680 --> 00:38:43,877 I only have to see through them. 332 00:38:46,080 --> 00:38:49,675 Often it's enough to change your point of view. 333 00:38:49,840 --> 00:38:52,673 You see something strange. 334 00:38:52,840 --> 00:38:56,719 And you suddenly see how it really is. You say: "Now I get it! " 335 00:38:56,880 --> 00:39:02,318 From then on, it won't get you. It won't fool you anymore. 336 00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:05,758 If we walk in the desert and see a mirage... 337 00:39:05,920 --> 00:39:09,196 ...we believe it is an oasis with water. 338 00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:13,114 But when we realise it is a mirage, we continue to see it... 339 00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:15,919 ...but we don't run there anymore. 340 00:39:17,000 --> 00:39:20,356 But as long as I try something... 341 00:39:20,520 --> 00:39:22,238 I am stuck. 342 00:39:22,400 --> 00:39:25,551 As long as you believe in your own character... 343 00:39:29,520 --> 00:39:33,832 It's so difficult. I want to explain and it's so hopeless... 344 00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:37,470 People tell you: "Let go of everything... 345 00:39:38,240 --> 00:39:42,153 "Let go of your 'I'." But that's impossible. 346 00:39:42,320 --> 00:39:43,673 I can't let go of it. 347 00:39:43,840 --> 00:39:47,276 If I try, I'm an "I" trying to let go of my "I". 348 00:39:47,440 --> 00:39:51,274 The paradox is that "I" can't do that. 349 00:39:51,440 --> 00:39:55,752 Understand? No matter how I put it, I can't... 350 00:40:01,680 --> 00:40:06,834 It's complex. If for instance I look at this coffee cup... 351 00:40:14,120 --> 00:40:16,315 I see a coffee cup. 352 00:40:16,480 --> 00:40:20,268 I see a shape I know is intended for coffee. 353 00:40:20,440 --> 00:40:24,353 I know it has a specific weight and if I drop it, it breaks. 354 00:40:24,520 --> 00:40:28,399 So I don't see the thing, but I see my knowledge of it. 355 00:40:29,160 --> 00:40:33,438 I see my thoughts and conceptions of the thing. 356 00:40:37,280 --> 00:40:42,912 There are stories of Buddhists who stare at a vase for 30 years... 357 00:40:43,160 --> 00:40:46,197 ...and have to try and see the vase. 358 00:40:46,360 --> 00:40:49,557 Not to see their ideas of the vase, or their knowledge... 359 00:40:49,720 --> 00:40:55,078 Not that it's a vase, pretty or ugly, green and for flowers... 360 00:40:55,240 --> 00:40:57,151 ...no, the thing itself! 361 00:40:57,320 --> 00:41:01,518 But all I see is my knowledge of the world around me. 362 00:41:01,680 --> 00:41:06,117 Slow down. You observe the cup... 363 00:41:06,680 --> 00:41:12,949 What I try to explain with this cup, I call this "observing"... 364 00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:17,830 ...is that you could look at the cup without adding any meaning. 365 00:41:18,000 --> 00:41:25,031 I would like to look without opinions and ideas. Without any meaning. 366 00:41:26,440 --> 00:41:29,352 Observing. Just looking. 367 00:42:18,800 --> 00:42:21,997 Memory entirely creates our character. 368 00:42:22,200 --> 00:42:25,431 But that memory is unreliable and limited. 369 00:42:25,600 --> 00:42:28,478 Tell me: what did you do 2 months ago at this time? 370 00:42:29,120 --> 00:42:30,951 You can't wind on from... 371 00:42:31,560 --> 00:42:32,436 "now". 372 00:42:32,960 --> 00:42:37,317 Our memory creates a big meatball of thoughts and feelings... 373 00:42:37,480 --> 00:42:41,678 ...and says: that's my personality, That's me, what I am. 374 00:42:41,840 --> 00:42:45,628 But that "I" only exists when "I" think of it. 375 00:42:50,680 --> 00:42:55,754 ...hot tea is standing on the... ...moving lines on the surface... 376 00:42:55,920 --> 00:42:59,799 He chokes on the tea... 377 00:43:08,600 --> 00:43:13,594 Everything is made up of memory. For instance: look at this sentence. 378 00:43:13,760 --> 00:43:18,117 You think you can hear this sentence, but you can't. 379 00:43:18,680 --> 00:43:23,356 You hear sound after sound, about 14 sounds in a second. 380 00:43:24,840 --> 00:43:28,116 Each sound a new peak of the needle. 381 00:43:29,120 --> 00:43:32,396 Afterwards, your memory pieces it together... 382 00:43:32,560 --> 00:43:35,677 ...and it says: "I have heard a sentence." 383 00:43:35,840 --> 00:43:37,796 That's utter rubbish! 384 00:43:38,640 --> 00:43:42,519 The sentence I think I heard is a product of my memory. 385 00:43:43,240 --> 00:43:46,949 No one has ever heard a sentence anywhere. 386 00:43:50,080 --> 00:43:54,358 The fascinating thing is that I can see:- I have a thought... 387 00:43:54,520 --> 00:43:56,829 That thought comes and goes. 388 00:43:57,000 --> 00:43:59,116 And then there is nothing... 389 00:44:01,280 --> 00:44:04,078 No thing, no thought. 390 00:44:04,760 --> 00:44:10,312 Then a new thought arises, like dust in sunlight or waves at sea. 391 00:44:11,480 --> 00:44:15,871 And I can observe the silence between these two thoughts... 392 00:44:16,040 --> 00:44:18,110 ...this white space. 393 00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:20,999 Camera zooms out from the white space. 394 00:44:21,160 --> 00:44:24,914 But I can't think about this silence or... - It's gone. 395 00:44:25,080 --> 00:44:27,753 ...there's no silence anymore. 396 00:44:27,920 --> 00:44:33,313 That brings me to the Oriental philosophy that we are awareness... 397 00:44:33,520 --> 00:44:34,839 ...silence... 398 00:44:35,040 --> 00:44:37,190 Title: Four days later. 399 00:44:37,360 --> 00:44:38,952 ..a clear white screen... 400 00:44:39,160 --> 00:44:42,516 ...on which this character, this "I" appears. 401 00:45:00,360 --> 00:45:04,148 But... the trap is that I think each time:- 402 00:45:04,320 --> 00:45:07,312 "Oh yes" or "I understand". 403 00:45:08,840 --> 00:45:12,310 The "I" can never understand that... 404 00:45:12,520 --> 00:45:15,717 ...the "I" can't understand anything. 405 00:45:16,000 --> 00:45:19,231 "I" can't understand that "I" doesn't exist! 406 00:45:21,360 --> 00:45:25,114 You can only see and experience what is now. 407 00:45:25,360 --> 00:45:28,238 The future and the past do not exist. 408 00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:30,789 None of us have ever experienced them. 409 00:45:30,960 --> 00:45:34,839 You can only experience a thought that appears now... 410 00:45:35,000 --> 00:45:38,993 FOUR DAYS LATER ...maybe it says: that was yesterday. 411 00:45:39,160 --> 00:45:43,153 But I can only have this thought in the present. 412 00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:45,151 With the subtitle: YESTERDAY 413 00:45:45,320 --> 00:45:48,756 It's so simple: I'm only the now in which things appear. 414 00:45:49,080 --> 00:45:51,514 ...Bart feeds the child... ...he scrolls back... 415 00:45:51,680 --> 00:45:54,911 And all those opinions about myself make no sense. 416 00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:57,878 I am good, mad, not that bad... 417 00:45:58,040 --> 00:46:02,591 I am stupid, I am serious, I am searching for happiness... 418 00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:04,398 I am... I am... 419 00:46:06,280 --> 00:46:08,111 Rubbish... 420 00:46:13,920 --> 00:46:17,151 That's difficult, what you say... 421 00:46:17,320 --> 00:46:22,269 It sounds like: step through the door and you're there... 422 00:46:22,440 --> 00:46:26,319 And it's just A or B. Everything in between is rubbish. 423 00:46:27,240 --> 00:46:32,268 My God, do it! Why isn't it that simple? 424 00:46:33,080 --> 00:46:38,234 Why don't I do that? Why can't you help me? 425 00:46:38,400 --> 00:46:41,915 Help me step through it. - Why don't you do it? 426 00:46:43,760 --> 00:46:49,392 Because the moment you want to step through, you're on the wrong track. 427 00:46:49,560 --> 00:46:51,152 That's the paradox. 428 00:46:51,320 --> 00:46:57,111 When you want to go through the door, you create this "I want". 429 00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:03,276 If you want to pass through, you must leave your wanting behind. 430 00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:06,273 But how? 431 00:47:11,520 --> 00:47:13,397 You can't do it. 432 00:47:20,360 --> 00:47:22,112 You can't DO it. 433 00:47:22,440 --> 00:47:24,590 Hopeless... or not? 434 00:47:25,560 --> 00:47:27,198 You'll get your food! 435 00:47:28,800 --> 00:47:31,473 That's me, thinking again, isn't it? 436 00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:33,870 I still hope... 437 00:48:16,120 --> 00:48:19,396 A CRlSlS, A CHANCE ZEN MlND, BEGlNNERS' MlND 438 00:48:19,560 --> 00:48:22,358 All you can say, like a signpost... 439 00:48:22,840 --> 00:48:24,193 ...an indication... 440 00:48:24,360 --> 00:48:26,874 THE MIND'S EYE NEVER SLEEPS 441 00:48:27,320 --> 00:48:29,914 ...is that we are the unimaginable. 442 00:48:31,240 --> 00:48:32,468 Sorry, we're...? 443 00:48:33,640 --> 00:48:35,870 The unimaginable... 444 00:48:36,960 --> 00:48:39,394 It's a very important word. 445 00:48:39,560 --> 00:48:45,669 Before you know it, you think you are something you can imagine... 446 00:48:45,840 --> 00:48:50,755 ...such as a person who thinks this is rubbish or interesting. 447 00:48:50,920 --> 00:48:53,718 But that doesn't make any difference. 448 00:48:54,120 --> 00:48:59,478 The well is not influenced by the winding of the river. 449 00:49:06,080 --> 00:49:08,435 That's it. Period. 450 00:50:34,840 --> 00:50:38,435 This is Bart Klever's answering machine... 451 00:50:38,600 --> 00:50:40,397 He isn't in right now. 452 00:50:40,560 --> 00:50:42,835 Wait a sec. I think I hear him... 453 00:50:43,000 --> 00:50:43,910 Bart? 454 00:50:45,160 --> 00:50:49,711 No, my mistake. Speak after the tone and he'll call back. 455 00:50:52,200 --> 00:50:55,397 Bart? This is Marga. Are you home? 456 00:50:56,680 --> 00:50:59,513 Bart, Bart, Bart, are you home? Pick up the phone please. 457 00:51:01,760 --> 00:51:05,719 Okay Bart, I am in La Paz, in Hotel Concepcion. 458 00:51:05,880 --> 00:51:10,192 I can only call twice a day here, so I'll try again this evening. 459 00:51:10,360 --> 00:51:14,512 When it's 5 here, it's 12 there, so please try to be home. 460 00:51:14,680 --> 00:51:20,835 If you can't, I'll try again tomorrow morning. That's 2 pm for you. 461 00:51:21,000 --> 00:51:26,358 So please try to be home at midnight or tomorrow at 2 pm. 462 00:51:26,520 --> 00:51:30,832 I have to talk to you and desperately want to hear Mieke. 463 00:51:31,520 --> 00:51:34,398 Kisses for Mieke... Bye, Bart. 464 00:52:03,200 --> 00:52:08,274 You say: we're always searching for happiness because it's our nature. 465 00:52:08,440 --> 00:52:10,795 Do you recognise this search? 466 00:52:11,400 --> 00:52:14,039 TO BE TO REALLY BE 467 00:52:14,320 --> 00:52:17,915 So you're looking for the lost paradise... 468 00:52:18,320 --> 00:52:19,435 Don't you agree? 469 00:52:22,560 --> 00:52:25,791 I think so... something like that. 470 00:52:27,320 --> 00:52:32,599 Looking at the bottom line, at what we are all doing... 471 00:52:32,760 --> 00:52:35,194 ...what keeps us going... 472 00:52:36,480 --> 00:52:42,157 ... then it comes down to the fact that we know very well... 473 00:52:42,320 --> 00:52:46,074 ...what our original nature is, what we are... 474 00:52:46,280 --> 00:52:50,876 But this projector or its lamp sounds so cool, detached... 475 00:52:53,960 --> 00:52:58,795 It looks as if you are no longer committed to what is happening... 476 00:53:00,480 --> 00:53:04,075 It may be the comparison: a lamp. That's all we are? 477 00:53:04,240 --> 00:53:06,629 A lamp fitted by God's hand? 478 00:53:11,520 --> 00:53:15,832 I think: If I'm a lamp, I'm not a character on the screen. 479 00:53:16,000 --> 00:53:20,118 Then I no longer have an ego or a personality. 480 00:53:20,960 --> 00:53:23,713 But then I start thinking again... 481 00:53:25,200 --> 00:53:27,953 I want to be unique... 482 00:53:28,120 --> 00:53:31,192 I have this strange idea that I'm unique... 483 00:53:31,360 --> 00:53:33,555 ...so my ego no longer dissolves... 484 00:53:34,320 --> 00:53:36,959 ...and I'm afraid that losing myself, I will... 485 00:53:37,120 --> 00:53:42,752 ...Iike Scientologists or Moonies, where your ego is broken down... 486 00:53:42,920 --> 00:53:46,674 ...I will become a robot with no will. 487 00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:50,637 That doesn't seem to happen. 488 00:53:52,480 --> 00:53:57,918 The moment someone gives up his personality and ideas about it... 489 00:54:00,720 --> 00:54:02,597 - How should I put it? - 490 00:54:02,760 --> 00:54:05,479 ...then he becomes life. He becomes... 491 00:54:06,240 --> 00:54:07,559 ...Iove. 492 00:54:11,360 --> 00:54:13,794 Love? - Yes, love. 493 00:54:16,520 --> 00:54:18,397 ...compassion... 494 00:54:20,080 --> 00:54:24,551 That person becomes translucent... translucence. 495 00:54:25,080 --> 00:54:28,197 He gives up the idea of being a person. 496 00:54:30,680 --> 00:54:33,114 There is... God, I don't know. 497 00:54:34,080 --> 00:54:36,514 It sounds like: Have it your way. 498 00:54:36,680 --> 00:54:38,796 Yes. - Have your way with me. 499 00:54:38,960 --> 00:54:42,032 In fact, that's what happens to me all day. 500 00:54:42,200 --> 00:54:45,351 Everything happens to me. Things just happen... 501 00:54:45,520 --> 00:54:48,637 But we say: do it to me... or don't. 502 00:54:48,800 --> 00:54:50,756 Caress me but don't pinch... 503 00:54:51,560 --> 00:54:54,711 But basically everything happens to me. 504 00:54:54,880 --> 00:54:58,793 Let me put it another way: Everything happens. 505 00:55:01,240 --> 00:55:04,232 This person, this "I", is a painful cramp... 506 00:55:04,400 --> 00:55:07,358 ...that disconcerts us all day. 507 00:55:08,280 --> 00:55:12,876 When you aren't cramped, then you can react... 508 00:55:13,040 --> 00:55:16,316 NO "ONE" lS BORN NO "ONE" DlES 509 00:55:16,520 --> 00:55:20,149 ...openly and spontaneously to all that happens 510 00:55:22,200 --> 00:55:27,797 Just as an animal or a cat reacts spontaneously and alertly. 511 00:55:28,600 --> 00:55:32,912 But there is no longer an "I" inside to filter and complicate things. 512 00:55:33,120 --> 00:55:35,395 "POST-lTS ON WlNDOW lDEAS FOR FlLM" 513 00:55:35,560 --> 00:55:37,312 There are just events... 514 00:55:37,480 --> 00:55:41,871 ...not intended to make you happy or unhappy, they just happen. 515 00:55:42,040 --> 00:55:46,716 But we stick labels on everything: "This is good for me and this is not"... 516 00:55:46,880 --> 00:55:50,190 "THE LAST POST-lT SAYS NOTHlNG ABOUT THE NEXT SHOT" 517 00:55:51,160 --> 00:55:54,152 ...and that puts us in a complex... 518 00:55:54,320 --> 00:55:57,756 ...and vulnerable position in the world. 519 00:55:58,680 --> 00:56:00,989 We regard ourselves as "I"s and... 520 00:56:01,160 --> 00:56:03,879 ...feel separated from the rest of the world. 521 00:56:04,040 --> 00:56:06,076 Others can influence my "I". 522 00:56:06,240 --> 00:56:10,279 They can hate it, like it and so make me like myself. 523 00:56:10,440 --> 00:56:13,591 I am very dependent on what goes on around me. 524 00:56:14,320 --> 00:56:19,440 But the "I" thinking that is not real. 525 00:56:20,200 --> 00:56:27,197 However real it may seem, even while I'm talking, I'm not here. 526 00:57:08,440 --> 00:57:11,352 INT - BART'S ROOM - NlGHT Bart has fallen asleep. 527 00:57:11,520 --> 00:57:15,593 His head is resting on the keyboard. On the screen we see: zzzzzzzz... 528 00:57:26,640 --> 00:57:31,395 ...Bart tries printer to... ...but I don't succeed. 529 00:57:31,560 --> 00:57:32,595 Amigo watches. 530 00:57:44,480 --> 00:57:46,869 But where am I going wrong? 531 00:57:47,040 --> 00:57:52,273 Who is this "I"? I created a mystery for myself. 532 00:57:52,440 --> 00:57:53,759 One big trap. 533 00:57:54,360 --> 00:57:55,918 One huge optical illusion. 534 00:57:56,360 --> 00:57:58,157 More a mental illusion. 535 00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:04,077 We're like one forest tree asking another: "Where is the forest?" 536 00:58:07,600 --> 00:58:09,511 We write our own script... 537 00:58:10,560 --> 00:58:12,710 ...and we are caught in it. 538 00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:18,918 We then look for methods, gurus, spiritual masters... 539 00:58:20,080 --> 00:58:25,074 ...or we search within ourselves for balance, harmony, peace... 540 00:58:25,240 --> 00:58:27,800 ...knowledge of ourselves. 541 00:58:28,280 --> 00:58:32,478 But self-knowledge? I want to know myself? 542 00:58:33,720 --> 00:58:36,712 It's like phoning yourself at home. 543 00:58:37,400 --> 00:58:39,311 Of course the line is busy. 544 00:58:40,840 --> 00:58:42,831 DUST lN SUNLlGHT 545 00:58:43,680 --> 00:58:45,671 GlVE UP THE lDEA OF BElNG A PERSON 546 00:58:46,320 --> 00:58:48,311 CHANGE BART'S POlNT OF VlEW 547 00:58:51,160 --> 00:58:54,709 What everyone wants is spiritual instant coffee. 548 00:58:54,880 --> 00:58:57,314 Just add hot water... 549 00:58:58,560 --> 00:59:01,028 You can't think the right way. 550 00:59:01,200 --> 00:59:02,474 Amigo! Stop it! 551 00:59:02,640 --> 00:59:04,392 It doesn't matter what I do. 552 00:59:04,560 --> 00:59:09,839 You can say: As long as I don't keep seeing illusions... 553 00:59:10,000 --> 00:59:15,916 ...as reality and don't jump into my character and think that's necessary. 554 00:59:21,600 --> 00:59:25,309 The bizarre thing is that, while watching this film... 555 00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:29,991 ...we identify with the main character, Bart Klever, the scriptwriter. 556 00:59:30,160 --> 00:59:35,553 But worse, as I said: outside this cinema, we also identify all day... 557 00:59:35,720 --> 00:59:40,999 ...with a character "I". Everyone plays himself. 558 00:59:46,440 --> 00:59:48,829 It seems to be possible... 559 00:59:49,040 --> 00:59:52,828 ...to escape this process of identification. 560 00:59:53,000 --> 00:59:57,471 To free yourself from your own character, to delete it. 561 01:00:00,000 --> 01:00:01,399 But how? 562 01:00:24,080 --> 01:00:27,152 What are you pretending not to know? 563 01:00:27,320 --> 01:00:32,633 Why are you recording this? Why listen, why listen to me? 564 01:00:33,240 --> 01:00:34,912 Who is listening? 565 01:00:35,520 --> 01:00:37,112 Who is getting so upset? 566 01:00:37,520 --> 01:00:38,589 Who is searching? 567 01:00:38,760 --> 01:00:40,318 You don't need a teacher. 568 01:00:40,480 --> 01:00:41,913 It's all paradoxical... 569 01:00:42,080 --> 01:00:45,709 You might think these words are a kind of road map. 570 01:00:46,440 --> 01:00:47,793 So what's the use? 571 01:00:47,960 --> 01:00:49,109 Who? "l"? 572 01:00:51,720 --> 01:00:54,393 It's all illusion, all illusion! 573 01:01:16,760 --> 01:01:17,875 Get lost! 574 01:02:16,720 --> 01:02:19,996 KEEP CALM. AlM AT NOTHlNG. 575 01:02:20,560 --> 01:02:24,872 ONLY THlNKlNG TELLS YOU THlNKlNG EXlSTS 576 01:02:25,400 --> 01:02:29,916 SHlFT ATTENTlON FROM THE SCREEN TO ONESELF TO BREAK THE SPELL 577 01:02:30,440 --> 01:02:34,956 THOSE WHO KNOW, DO NOT SPEAK. THOSE WHO SPEAK, DO NOT KNOW. 578 01:02:39,920 --> 01:02:43,469 THE SEEKER IS THE SOUGHT 579 01:02:44,000 --> 01:02:47,788 NO MORE PREFERENCES 580 01:02:48,320 --> 01:02:54,555 VlSlTOR: WHAT lS SlN? MAHARAJ: ALL THAT BlNDS YOU. 581 01:03:00,000 --> 01:03:03,913 MlND CAUSES lNSECURlTY. 582 01:03:13,280 --> 01:03:17,193 READlNG BOOKS WON'T HELP YOU. 583 01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:37,911 FORGET EVERYTHlNG 584 01:03:38,440 --> 01:03:42,149 GlVE UP ALL 585 01:04:24,200 --> 01:04:27,431 THERE IS NO METHOD/WAY 586 01:05:39,440 --> 01:05:41,908 131. It is not... 587 01:05:45,120 --> 01:05:49,079 Silence. 588 01:06:30,480 --> 01:06:31,469 Bart? 589 01:06:33,600 --> 01:06:36,194 You mean being more inside life? - Yes. 590 01:06:36,680 --> 01:06:38,238 But, if it is so close... 591 01:06:38,720 --> 01:06:40,915 How do I delete 592 01:06:41,400 --> 01:06:43,152 Pick up the phone, Bart! 593 01:06:44,600 --> 01:06:45,999 I'm coming now! 594 01:06:46,760 --> 01:06:50,275 ...so there is action, but no actor... 595 01:06:51,040 --> 01:06:52,792 How do I delete Bart. 596 01:06:55,560 --> 01:06:57,755 ...prick the balloon... 597 01:06:58,440 --> 01:07:00,635 Hey, you're back! - You're home! 598 01:07:00,800 --> 01:07:02,552 I don't have any time. 599 01:07:02,720 --> 01:07:05,075 I'm working on the script. 600 01:07:05,640 --> 01:07:07,232 She's fine. Just a mo. 601 01:07:15,400 --> 01:07:17,789 Wait, what's going on? - No, nothing... 602 01:07:17,960 --> 01:07:21,669 I don't have time. Come to my place. 603 01:07:52,320 --> 01:07:55,517 My character is afraid of dissolving. 604 01:07:55,680 --> 01:07:59,468 My character is terrified of killing himself off. 605 01:08:00,000 --> 01:08:03,276 But that is a problem of the image on the screen. 606 01:08:03,440 --> 01:08:07,718 Not a problem of the lamp. - Hello, this is Bart's machine... 607 01:08:07,880 --> 01:08:11,190 He's not in... Wait, I think I can hear him. 608 01:08:12,240 --> 01:08:13,275 Bart?! 609 01:08:13,680 --> 01:08:17,434 - Speak after the tone. Of course my character is afraid... 610 01:08:17,600 --> 01:08:20,068 ...that he will end with the film. 611 01:08:20,280 --> 01:08:22,111 No phone here again, right? 612 01:08:22,680 --> 01:08:25,274 Christ! - DME4, Andries speaking... 613 01:08:25,840 --> 01:08:29,992 Jan is ill. I'm his replacement. - Try another take. 614 01:08:30,440 --> 01:08:31,953 Fine... 615 01:08:39,040 --> 01:08:43,352 The film is too long. - That's how long it takes. 616 01:08:44,040 --> 01:08:48,033 Can't you let it ring? - DME4, Andries... 617 01:08:48,440 --> 01:08:50,874 It's for you. - Don Duyns here... 618 01:08:51,600 --> 01:08:55,513 If you leave me alone, you'll be helped quicker. Bye. 619 01:08:59,200 --> 01:09:01,919 There's too much text in this film... 620 01:09:02,120 --> 01:09:04,475 I think this scene is essential. 621 01:09:04,640 --> 01:09:07,313 I would leave things out. 622 01:09:07,640 --> 01:09:08,629 Wouldn't you? 623 01:09:08,800 --> 01:09:10,711 I think this... 624 01:09:12,040 --> 01:09:14,110 It's a linking scene, isn't it? 625 01:09:14,280 --> 01:09:15,395 Just fast forward! 626 01:09:15,560 --> 01:09:18,916 You can get angry, but I'm replacing Jan... 627 01:09:19,080 --> 01:09:23,471 I'm not angry. If you only want to cut soccer all your life... 628 01:09:25,320 --> 01:09:27,151 What do you want with this scene? 629 01:09:27,320 --> 01:09:28,309 Fast forward please... 630 01:12:49,160 --> 01:12:51,833 Why don't I hear from you? - I'm busy. 631 01:12:52,520 --> 01:12:56,513 Who do you think you are, Bart?! - It's funny you ask... 632 01:12:56,680 --> 01:12:58,716 Mieke just went to sleep. 633 01:13:01,000 --> 01:13:02,513 In the other room? 634 01:13:02,840 --> 01:13:04,034 Take a look... 635 01:13:04,240 --> 01:13:06,595 Go and look. - Will she wake up? 636 01:13:11,440 --> 01:13:12,429 No! 637 01:13:12,840 --> 01:13:14,353 I don't want a kiss. 638 01:13:15,800 --> 01:13:17,313 You just arrived? 639 01:13:18,360 --> 01:13:20,635 Eh? - Are you just back? 640 01:13:20,920 --> 01:13:25,118 You know very well I've been in Holland at least a day. 641 01:13:25,960 --> 01:13:27,678 I kept phoning you! 642 01:13:32,720 --> 01:13:35,792 I was into my script, so I couldn't respond. 643 01:13:36,600 --> 01:13:40,115 You couldn't respond? What do you think, Bart? 644 01:13:40,280 --> 01:13:41,838 Marga will wait? - I think... 645 01:13:42,000 --> 01:13:43,991 You think: She been gone 2 months. 646 01:13:44,160 --> 01:13:46,879 Who cares if she sees her kid today or tomorrow? 647 01:13:47,040 --> 01:13:49,031 Maybe she'll come next week! 648 01:13:49,200 --> 01:13:52,510 You've been gone 2 months. That wasn't a problem. 649 01:13:52,680 --> 01:13:54,636 Christ! What do you mean!? 650 01:13:54,800 --> 01:13:56,518 It was only 2 months! 651 01:13:57,960 --> 01:13:59,188 I quite agree... 652 01:13:59,640 --> 01:14:03,633 It's ridiculous that you didn't come to the airport. 653 01:14:03,800 --> 01:14:07,713 And you kept me waiting so long before I could come! 654 01:14:07,880 --> 01:14:12,032 I didn't know where you were. I can't just take three buses! 655 01:14:12,720 --> 01:14:16,872 It's crazy that I was left standing alone at the airport... 656 01:14:17,080 --> 01:14:19,594 ...everyone gets picked up and l... 657 01:14:20,160 --> 01:14:21,195 It's ridiculous! 658 01:14:22,640 --> 01:14:25,393 Great! I have to write it down, sorry. 659 01:14:25,560 --> 01:14:32,557 No really! I spend all my time trying to blow life into that man in the script... 660 01:14:33,400 --> 01:14:34,469 Which man? 661 01:14:34,760 --> 01:14:37,832 I! And you come in and it's exactly... 662 01:14:38,320 --> 01:14:41,153 Christ! - Bart, bastard! 663 01:14:41,560 --> 01:14:45,553 This is real. I have to write it down. - Really. Write it down? 664 01:14:45,720 --> 01:14:46,914 Then what? 665 01:14:55,960 --> 01:14:59,589 Take a rest from the script, maybe. -...surrender... 666 01:15:00,560 --> 01:15:02,551 Talk to people about it. 667 01:15:04,440 --> 01:15:08,069 It's your dream. No one will understand it. 668 01:15:08,240 --> 01:15:13,360 Not on a useful level. - I think everyone understands... 669 01:15:13,520 --> 01:15:20,517 ...exactly what this is all about. This nostalgia, the endless quest... 670 01:15:21,640 --> 01:15:24,473 ...for eternal joy and happiness... 671 01:15:25,080 --> 01:15:27,992 Your struggle won't inspire anyone. 672 01:15:28,160 --> 01:15:33,473 Listen, the films that really got to me were ones I didn't get at first. 673 01:15:33,640 --> 01:15:36,712 It wasn't arty farty, they touched me deeply. 674 01:15:36,880 --> 01:15:40,236 That's why it's not an ordinary film with a story. 675 01:15:40,400 --> 01:15:44,234 This film must deny everything! - What's with your eye? 676 01:15:45,200 --> 01:15:48,476 To confuse you and make you look at yourself. 677 01:15:48,640 --> 01:15:52,030 And see through your illusions. What? 678 01:15:52,200 --> 01:15:55,636 You have to look after yourself. - What? I do, very well. 679 01:15:55,800 --> 01:15:58,268 I have to change my viewpoint. 680 01:16:25,120 --> 01:16:27,918 I am the character in my own film. - That's crazy! 681 01:16:28,080 --> 01:16:31,152 I am the character in my own film, but I want to escape. 682 01:16:31,320 --> 01:16:34,517 But in the real film, the one you are going to shoot. 683 01:16:34,680 --> 01:16:38,150 That is the same one. That is this film! 684 01:16:38,360 --> 01:16:41,955 Okay. Shall we do another scene? Turn on your cassette recorder. 685 01:16:42,400 --> 01:16:45,312 Go on, do it! A nice souvenir of me! 686 01:16:45,840 --> 01:16:48,354 Souvenir! Come on. -...true love... 687 01:16:48,520 --> 01:16:52,035 We're talking about fleeing in ideas about myself. 688 01:16:52,200 --> 01:16:55,909 You're afraid to be who you are. That's why you flee... 689 01:16:57,040 --> 01:16:58,917 Who is afraid? - You are! 690 01:16:59,080 --> 01:17:01,071 Who? Who am I then? 691 01:17:04,920 --> 01:17:07,753 You're just Bart. - No, I'm not. 692 01:17:07,920 --> 01:17:11,959 No, it's about letting go of that "l". 693 01:17:12,120 --> 01:17:17,035 Sure. You have to let go of that idea that you can get on with others. 694 01:17:17,200 --> 01:17:19,031 You should let go of that. 695 01:17:19,200 --> 01:17:21,395 Nonsense. - Never mind, Bart. 696 01:17:21,560 --> 01:17:24,677 Let go and I'll let go and go! And take Mieke too. 697 01:17:24,840 --> 01:17:27,559 Then you can feel who you really are. 698 01:17:27,920 --> 01:17:31,151 You won't be anything without us. 699 01:17:31,320 --> 01:17:32,150 Yes. 700 01:17:51,880 --> 01:17:54,872 It's the same for you. But you're too scared, coward! 701 01:17:55,040 --> 01:17:57,952 You shut yourself up with books! Reading... 702 01:17:58,120 --> 01:18:00,759 ...about being light with all this heavy stuff. 703 01:18:00,920 --> 01:18:03,195 God, you have to be daring! This takes daring. 704 01:18:03,360 --> 01:18:05,112 ...I don't dare... 705 01:18:05,360 --> 01:18:09,717 To try and let go of all the ideas I want to keep. 706 01:18:09,880 --> 01:18:12,269 The thoughts that make me l. 707 01:18:12,480 --> 01:18:15,756 The scriptwriter, the father... to let go of that. 708 01:18:15,920 --> 01:18:18,354 That takes guts! - You know what takes guts? 709 01:18:18,520 --> 01:18:21,637 To look after your child! -...crazy illusions... 710 01:18:21,800 --> 01:18:25,031 Making sure she's happy. -...totally pointless... 711 01:18:25,200 --> 01:18:28,237 And not that she's stuck in a bunker with you! 712 01:18:28,400 --> 01:18:32,632 In a bunker! In a bunker... - If I'd known, I'd never have gone away! 713 01:18:32,800 --> 01:18:37,430 You gave me the wrong impression. - The child is a lot happier here... 714 01:18:37,600 --> 01:18:40,751 ...because I leave her in peace. - And I don't? 715 01:18:40,920 --> 01:18:42,273 ...signpost... 716 01:18:42,440 --> 01:18:45,477 I respect her. - Me too, but I react to her too! 717 01:19:07,800 --> 01:19:09,279 Don't do anything! 718 01:19:11,200 --> 01:19:12,633 You only worked? 719 01:19:13,320 --> 01:19:15,356 What? - You only worked. 720 01:19:16,920 --> 01:19:19,798 Yes. I'm busy. It's going really well. 721 01:19:20,600 --> 01:19:22,238 I'm nearly there. 722 01:19:23,840 --> 01:19:25,876 I seek, I seek... 723 01:19:26,480 --> 01:19:29,711 "l seek, I seek? " Can you hear your own lines? 724 01:19:29,880 --> 01:19:32,474 I am seeking the seeker. 725 01:19:33,080 --> 01:19:35,196 Who on earth is seeking? 726 01:19:35,360 --> 01:19:39,592 Then I can go beyond. Understand? - Bart! I see a fat man... 727 01:19:39,760 --> 01:19:43,992 ...and an unhealthy mess, borrowed texts and wisdom! 728 01:19:46,120 --> 01:19:49,032 What use is it to you if you are incapable! 729 01:19:49,680 --> 01:19:52,592 It gets me every time. - It gets you? 730 01:19:54,000 --> 01:19:55,479 What did you say? 731 01:19:56,360 --> 01:20:01,878 I board this train of thought again. I'll play my own role again. 732 01:20:02,040 --> 01:20:07,273 My ego, I create myself. - I don't think you're here. 733 01:20:07,440 --> 01:20:09,271 No! I hope I'm not here. 734 01:20:09,920 --> 01:20:15,836 I am always here. Always! I get worked up. I get irritated with you. 735 01:20:16,000 --> 01:20:17,877 I wish I wasn't here. 736 01:20:18,040 --> 01:20:19,029 Get it? 737 01:20:22,920 --> 01:20:26,549 You know, I keep feeling that l... can touch it! 738 01:20:26,880 --> 01:20:29,553 That I can grab it. It is so close. 739 01:20:29,720 --> 01:20:32,871 I want you to know too. How... 740 01:20:33,040 --> 01:20:36,350 It's so close. It's so beautiful! 741 01:20:49,280 --> 01:20:52,670 ...nothing can happen to me... - It's your role you believe in. 742 01:20:52,880 --> 01:20:57,271 ...you can clean your screen... - It's not a role! I saw real things! 743 01:20:57,440 --> 01:21:02,036 ...Iet go of yourself... - They did their best to feed their children! 744 01:21:02,200 --> 01:21:06,478 ...you're no longer separate... - Here's your real child. She's here... 745 01:21:06,640 --> 01:21:11,191 ...watch yourself from above... ...change your point of view... 746 01:21:11,440 --> 01:21:14,477 You're not a person. That's all. 747 01:21:16,000 --> 01:21:19,549 ...what on earth are we doing and all fighting for. 748 01:21:19,720 --> 01:21:23,030 That's what I am doing here with my kid! 749 01:21:23,200 --> 01:21:25,998 You know what? You think you're awake and I'm asleep. 750 01:21:26,160 --> 01:21:29,869 But when you wake up, you'll feel really sorry. 751 01:21:30,040 --> 01:21:32,873 That's our arrogance. - This is so hurtful! 752 01:21:33,040 --> 01:21:34,951 It's always all about your film! 753 01:21:42,720 --> 01:21:44,870 You can act like that, Bart. 754 01:21:47,920 --> 01:21:50,480 I'll just go to her. - Shall I come? 755 01:21:50,640 --> 01:21:51,709 I don't know. 756 01:21:52,720 --> 01:21:56,156 She'll fall asleep. - Let her wake up. 757 01:22:09,040 --> 01:22:12,430 Don't touch! Hands off! - You don't need it, Bart. 758 01:22:12,600 --> 01:22:17,037 Don't touch those papers! - You should know it all inside out. 759 01:22:17,200 --> 01:22:19,953 You don't need other people's texts! 760 01:22:20,280 --> 01:22:23,829 Come on! - You want to be here and now? 761 01:22:24,480 --> 01:22:28,473 VlEWER THlNKS: LOlS = MARGA 762 01:22:29,240 --> 01:22:32,312 Don't touch it! - You can't keep track! 763 01:22:32,480 --> 01:22:34,038 You know what's real? 764 01:22:38,400 --> 01:22:39,594 That is real! 765 01:22:40,320 --> 01:22:42,675 HOUSE = FlLM-SET - That's not in my script! 766 01:22:42,840 --> 01:22:46,389 No, it's not! More things get broken outside your script. 767 01:22:46,560 --> 01:22:49,120 Lots isn't in your script... 768 01:22:53,000 --> 01:22:55,639 Hi love... - Mummy's back. 769 01:23:03,640 --> 01:23:05,119 Where's her dummy? 770 01:23:06,200 --> 01:23:08,111 Come on. Sit down. 771 01:23:08,680 --> 01:23:11,558 No. So you can write that I sat down. 772 01:23:13,320 --> 01:23:15,356 Write that I've gone! 773 01:23:17,720 --> 01:23:18,914 Say "Bye Daddy". 774 01:24:11,120 --> 01:24:13,475 ALL SUFFERlNG lS BORN OF DESlRE. 775 01:27:54,600 --> 01:27:56,238 How do I delete Bart? 776 01:30:36,720 --> 01:30:42,636 THE SEA THAT THlNKS script for a film 777 01:30:45,200 --> 01:30:49,591 written by Bart Klever 778 01:30:55,720 --> 01:31:02,717 Delete Document Are you sure? (Yes / No)