1 00:00:38,940 --> 00:00:41,241 "You are a carcinogen," 2 00:00:41,341 --> 00:00:43,076 I would say to her. 3 00:00:44,646 --> 00:00:46,113 "You are a tumor, 4 00:00:46,213 --> 00:00:48,115 "whose malignancy has defined 5 00:00:48,215 --> 00:00:50,985 "the ebb and flow of all I've done, 6 00:00:51,118 --> 00:00:53,086 "of all I've tried to do. 7 00:00:53,186 --> 00:00:54,221 "And yet, in spite of that, 8 00:00:54,321 --> 00:00:56,256 "do you know how much space you occupy 9 00:00:56,356 --> 00:00:58,458 "in the entirety of me? 10 00:00:59,192 --> 00:01:00,562 "This much. 11 00:01:01,663 --> 00:01:02,597 "You define my life, 12 00:01:02,697 --> 00:01:06,568 "and yet, this is how much you matter to me. 13 00:01:06,668 --> 00:01:08,703 "If you hadn't shown up on my door this morning, 14 00:01:08,803 --> 00:01:11,005 "I'd have gladly gone the rest of my days 15 00:01:11,104 --> 00:01:12,574 "thinking of you regularly, 16 00:01:12,674 --> 00:01:14,107 "but from a distance, 17 00:01:14,207 --> 00:01:15,810 "flung from your orbit. 18 00:01:16,678 --> 00:01:17,745 "But now... 19 00:01:18,746 --> 00:01:20,648 "you are here 20 00:01:20,748 --> 00:01:25,152 "and the bile is rising and taking the form of words. 21 00:01:25,252 --> 00:01:27,220 "And what these words mean is, 22 00:01:27,321 --> 00:01:28,488 "never have I known 23 00:01:28,590 --> 00:01:30,625 "how closely love and hate are bound 24 00:01:30,725 --> 00:01:32,894 "than when I think of you and realize 25 00:01:32,994 --> 00:01:34,629 "you deserve neither." 26 00:01:59,921 --> 00:02:04,124 ♪ I'll kill you softly ♪ 27 00:02:04,224 --> 00:02:08,161 ♪ So sweetly, kindly ♪ 28 00:02:08,896 --> 00:02:13,200 ♪ I'm mesmerizing ♪ 29 00:02:13,300 --> 00:02:16,938 ♪ It's terrifying ♪ 30 00:02:28,816 --> 00:02:30,484 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 31 00:02:30,585 --> 00:02:33,353 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 32 00:02:33,453 --> 00:02:35,155 ♪ Won't lose myself to a touch ♪ 33 00:02:35,255 --> 00:02:36,791 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 34 00:02:37,825 --> 00:02:39,459 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 35 00:02:39,560 --> 00:02:42,262 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 36 00:02:42,362 --> 00:02:43,564 ♪ My red heart freed like a dove ♪ 37 00:02:43,665 --> 00:02:45,265 ♪ But you tell me that it's never enough ♪ 38 00:02:45,365 --> 00:02:46,366 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 39 00:02:54,575 --> 00:02:56,176 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 40 00:03:03,383 --> 00:03:04,752 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 41 00:03:40,822 --> 00:03:42,355 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 42 00:03:42,456 --> 00:03:45,059 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 43 00:03:45,159 --> 00:03:46,694 ♪ Won't lose myself to a touch ♪ 44 00:03:46,794 --> 00:03:49,597 ♪ I was born to be the widow of love ♪ 45 00:03:49,697 --> 00:03:51,398 ♪ This black suit fits like a glove ♪ 46 00:03:51,498 --> 00:03:53,034 ♪ But your teeth tell me I'm not enough ♪ 47 00:03:53,134 --> 00:03:54,602 ♪ This is your burial ♪ 48 00:04:10,350 --> 00:04:12,285 I hadn't seen her in over 10 years. 49 00:04:12,385 --> 00:04:15,455 But I could tell she was coming from a mile away. 50 00:04:16,991 --> 00:04:18,526 More than a mile. 51 00:04:19,093 --> 00:04:21,696 A thousand miles. 52 00:04:21,796 --> 00:04:24,464 I woke up that morning with a taste in my mouth 53 00:04:24,565 --> 00:04:27,300 I hadn't felt in years. 54 00:04:34,374 --> 00:04:36,611 Is it... Is it a bit too rigid here at the waist? 55 00:04:36,711 --> 00:04:38,345 How do you feel? You feel okay? 56 00:04:39,113 --> 00:04:40,280 Yeah. I just... It's... 57 00:04:40,380 --> 00:04:42,583 -I do love how bold it is. -Yeah. 58 00:04:43,416 --> 00:04:44,619 A whole new you. 59 00:04:46,419 --> 00:04:47,989 I cast it out of my mind, 60 00:04:48,656 --> 00:04:50,423 but as the day went on, 61 00:04:51,259 --> 00:04:52,927 the taste left my mouth 62 00:04:53,027 --> 00:04:56,496 and traveled to that space behind my eyes 63 00:04:56,597 --> 00:04:59,600 where it settled and turned thick. 64 00:04:59,700 --> 00:05:02,369 By the time the late flights from LAX to Heathrow 65 00:05:02,469 --> 00:05:03,805 were coming in for their landing, 66 00:05:03,905 --> 00:05:07,809 I felt as if a secret twin had grown in my skull. 67 00:05:20,922 --> 00:05:22,924 What's wrong? Are you okay? 68 00:06:05,099 --> 00:06:06,399 It was calling, 69 00:06:07,367 --> 00:06:08,736 shouting, 70 00:06:11,806 --> 00:06:12,807 screaming, 71 00:06:15,442 --> 00:06:16,677 telling me 72 00:06:17,311 --> 00:06:18,679 it was coming. 73 00:06:20,114 --> 00:06:22,083 She was coming. 74 00:06:24,118 --> 00:06:25,485 She was here. 75 00:07:12,033 --> 00:07:14,235 Uh, hi. Excuse me. Hi. Can I help you? 76 00:07:14,335 --> 00:07:15,636 I'm looking for Sam. 77 00:07:15,736 --> 00:07:19,407 Oh, I'm afraid Sam isn't available right now. 78 00:07:19,507 --> 00:07:20,641 Are you... 79 00:07:20,741 --> 00:07:21,909 Does Sam know you were coming? 80 00:07:22,009 --> 00:07:23,010 No, no. 81 00:07:23,110 --> 00:07:24,145 Okay, uh... 82 00:07:24,245 --> 00:07:26,981 Well, then could I just ask you to just wait, uh... 83 00:07:28,049 --> 00:07:29,050 Sam? 84 00:07:29,517 --> 00:07:31,484 Sam? 85 00:07:31,585 --> 00:07:32,753 Um... 86 00:07:32,853 --> 00:07:35,156 -Sam? -Sorry, you really can't... 87 00:07:35,256 --> 00:07:37,224 - Uh... - Sam? 88 00:07:37,325 --> 00:07:38,526 Sam's not seeing anybody 89 00:07:38,626 --> 00:07:39,927 -right now. -Sam? 90 00:07:44,699 --> 00:07:45,900 Sam, I'm so sorry. 91 00:07:46,000 --> 00:07:48,569 I didn't see her coming, she just came in. 92 00:07:51,038 --> 00:07:52,472 Sam, I need a dress. 93 00:07:56,377 --> 00:07:58,379 Just landed? 94 00:07:58,478 --> 00:07:59,847 - Yes. - From LA? 95 00:08:00,581 --> 00:08:02,183 Yes, I just came from... 96 00:08:02,283 --> 00:08:03,751 Would you like something to eat? 97 00:08:04,452 --> 00:08:07,021 -Uh... No, I... -Hilda, 98 00:08:07,121 --> 00:08:10,391 do we... do we have anything to eat here? 99 00:08:10,490 --> 00:08:12,492 Um, not really, no. 100 00:08:12,593 --> 00:08:14,494 Okay. Well, there you go. 101 00:08:16,297 --> 00:08:17,832 Does anyone know you're here? 102 00:08:19,499 --> 00:08:21,268 - No. - I... I... 103 00:08:21,369 --> 00:08:23,771 I must say, I wish you had called. 104 00:08:23,871 --> 00:08:25,840 You might have noticed we're a little underwater 105 00:08:25,940 --> 00:08:27,742 -at the moment. -Would you have answered? 106 00:08:27,842 --> 00:08:29,643 No, but somebody would have. 107 00:08:29,744 --> 00:08:32,580 And they could have told you we're very busy. 108 00:08:32,680 --> 00:08:34,548 Sam has her show coming up. 109 00:08:35,149 --> 00:08:36,617 Oh. 110 00:08:37,151 --> 00:08:37,985 Sorry. 111 00:08:38,085 --> 00:08:40,955 For not calling or for just showing up? 112 00:08:41,989 --> 00:08:43,491 In general. 113 00:08:43,591 --> 00:08:46,927 Wouldn't you rather get more specific? 114 00:08:47,028 --> 00:08:50,264 I just never had the chance to say it before, 115 00:08:50,364 --> 00:08:53,334 -so... -So the onus is on me then, 116 00:08:53,434 --> 00:08:55,536 to list off your offenses one by one 117 00:08:55,636 --> 00:08:56,670 and cross-check them 118 00:08:56,771 --> 00:09:00,074 against the totality of your "I'm sorry"? 119 00:09:01,142 --> 00:09:02,511 Oh, well. 120 00:09:02,610 --> 00:09:05,679 That hardly seems worth it, does it? 121 00:09:06,480 --> 00:09:07,815 Making me do all the work, 122 00:09:07,915 --> 00:09:10,151 -just like you always do. -I can go 123 00:09:10,251 --> 00:09:11,185 if you want. 124 00:09:11,285 --> 00:09:14,355 If you want to go, go. 125 00:09:14,455 --> 00:09:15,790 If you want to stay, stay. 126 00:09:15,890 --> 00:09:18,059 If you want to apologize, you go for it. 127 00:09:18,159 --> 00:09:19,460 But if you stay, 128 00:09:19,560 --> 00:09:20,728 please stop doing 129 00:09:20,828 --> 00:09:21,929 that hovering thing you always do, 130 00:09:22,029 --> 00:09:23,964 because it makes me very nervous. 131 00:09:25,132 --> 00:09:28,002 -Sorry. -You already said that. 132 00:09:29,538 --> 00:09:31,138 -I mean it. -Say it two more times, 133 00:09:31,238 --> 00:09:32,606 so I believe you. 134 00:09:34,642 --> 00:09:36,077 But not yet. 135 00:09:37,278 --> 00:09:41,148 Catch me by surprise with your sincerity. 136 00:09:42,616 --> 00:09:45,986 Now, why don't you start with why you're here? 137 00:09:46,620 --> 00:09:47,822 I really do need a dress. 138 00:09:47,922 --> 00:09:50,357 What, you don't have a whole coterie of stylists 139 00:09:50,458 --> 00:09:52,126 to take care of that for you? 140 00:09:52,226 --> 00:09:54,628 No, I do. But it's not... 141 00:09:56,997 --> 00:09:57,832 working out. 142 00:09:57,932 --> 00:10:00,101 And this performance, when is it? 143 00:10:00,201 --> 00:10:01,669 The 31st. 144 00:10:02,504 --> 00:10:04,705 -That's on Sunday? -Yes. 145 00:10:05,339 --> 00:10:07,374 And today is? 146 00:10:09,343 --> 00:10:10,377 Thursday. 147 00:10:11,846 --> 00:10:14,448 Well, that's impossible. 148 00:10:14,549 --> 00:10:16,317 What's wrong with the dress you have? 149 00:10:16,417 --> 00:10:17,785 I'm assuming you have one. 150 00:10:17,885 --> 00:10:19,720 It's just all wrong. 151 00:10:20,287 --> 00:10:21,722 May I see it? 152 00:10:24,024 --> 00:10:26,327 - So that's it? - Yes. 153 00:10:27,361 --> 00:10:28,729 It's not a dress at all. 154 00:10:29,330 --> 00:10:30,631 Who made it? 155 00:10:30,731 --> 00:10:32,166 Saracen and Pare. 156 00:10:34,569 --> 00:10:36,571 Hmm. 157 00:10:36,670 --> 00:10:39,306 Tell me three things that are wrong with it. 158 00:10:40,374 --> 00:10:41,942 It doesn't feel like me. 159 00:10:43,077 --> 00:10:45,946 Okay. It doesn't feel like you. That's one. 160 00:10:47,348 --> 00:10:48,349 That's it. 161 00:10:49,183 --> 00:10:50,317 That's it? 162 00:10:51,285 --> 00:10:53,387 -Yes. -So you, 163 00:10:53,487 --> 00:10:57,258 who have been dressed by everyone 164 00:10:57,358 --> 00:10:59,059 and worn everything, 165 00:10:59,160 --> 00:11:01,630 who once paraded down a red... ...carpet 166 00:11:01,729 --> 00:11:04,131 wearing nothing but freshly poured honey, 167 00:11:04,231 --> 00:11:06,500 you have somehow found 168 00:11:06,601 --> 00:11:08,736 the one outfit in all of creation 169 00:11:08,836 --> 00:11:11,372 that doesn't feel like you? 170 00:11:11,472 --> 00:11:12,206 Yes. 171 00:11:12,306 --> 00:11:14,875 And you've come crawling back to me 172 00:11:14,975 --> 00:11:17,745 because you know I can do better? 173 00:11:17,845 --> 00:11:20,047 -Yes. -Because I, above all others, 174 00:11:20,147 --> 00:11:21,516 know you? 175 00:11:21,616 --> 00:11:23,117 Because I didn't know where else to go. 176 00:11:23,717 --> 00:11:24,919 Truly? 177 00:11:25,986 --> 00:11:27,121 Yes. 178 00:11:33,761 --> 00:11:36,764 Will you let me do whatever I like? 179 00:11:37,798 --> 00:11:39,333 Yes. But... 180 00:11:39,433 --> 00:11:41,168 Will you do exactly as I say? 181 00:11:41,670 --> 00:11:43,003 Yes, within... 182 00:11:43,103 --> 00:11:45,105 And will you wear what I make? 183 00:11:46,140 --> 00:11:47,408 Yes. 184 00:11:47,875 --> 00:11:49,343 And can you stop time? 185 00:11:53,714 --> 00:11:54,848 Just did. 186 00:11:57,184 --> 00:11:59,688 This is really going to take some doing, 187 00:11:59,787 --> 00:12:01,956 if we're gonna pull this off. 188 00:12:02,056 --> 00:12:04,158 Just tell me what I can do. 189 00:12:04,258 --> 00:12:05,893 You can just keep talking. 190 00:12:05,993 --> 00:12:07,094 That's how this works. 191 00:12:07,194 --> 00:12:10,130 You tell me something like how you're feeling, 192 00:12:10,231 --> 00:12:13,668 and I'll take those feelings and turn them into a dress. 193 00:12:13,767 --> 00:12:17,706 The transubstantiation of feeling. 194 00:12:17,805 --> 00:12:19,240 That's what we're doing here. 195 00:12:21,809 --> 00:12:23,210 Here we are. 196 00:12:23,310 --> 00:12:25,012 Now, as you can see, 197 00:12:25,112 --> 00:12:27,682 I've entered my Ms. Havisham period 198 00:12:27,781 --> 00:12:29,517 very much ahead of schedule. 199 00:12:29,618 --> 00:12:33,020 This is where I come to cry my eyes out in the dark. 200 00:12:40,595 --> 00:12:41,829 Stand here, please. 201 00:12:50,437 --> 00:12:52,574 Now, uh... 202 00:12:52,674 --> 00:12:56,043 I haven't had a new idea in ages. 203 00:12:56,143 --> 00:12:57,679 Not a good one, at least. 204 00:12:57,778 --> 00:12:59,213 So if we're to do this, 205 00:12:59,313 --> 00:13:02,049 I'm just gonna have to fasten things to you 206 00:13:02,149 --> 00:13:05,185 until inspiration strikes. 207 00:13:07,488 --> 00:13:08,489 There we go. 208 00:13:13,360 --> 00:13:16,063 Uh, can I take your sweater? 209 00:13:17,599 --> 00:13:18,566 Yes. 210 00:13:18,667 --> 00:13:19,867 -Thank you. -Mmm-hmm. 211 00:13:21,101 --> 00:13:22,069 So... 212 00:13:23,337 --> 00:13:26,708 So tell me more about this dress we're making. 213 00:13:26,807 --> 00:13:28,909 What do you see in your head? 214 00:13:30,444 --> 00:13:31,445 Just... 215 00:13:33,113 --> 00:13:34,114 me. 216 00:13:34,214 --> 00:13:35,215 Just you? 217 00:13:35,784 --> 00:13:37,017 But... 218 00:13:38,352 --> 00:13:39,920 But all of me. 219 00:13:40,020 --> 00:13:43,758 I was thinking more like, "What color?" 220 00:13:43,857 --> 00:13:45,259 -Uh... -Hold still. 221 00:13:48,563 --> 00:13:49,963 Whatever you like. 222 00:13:50,397 --> 00:13:51,498 But no red. 223 00:13:51,599 --> 00:13:53,033 Do you have to be able to move? 224 00:13:53,867 --> 00:13:55,135 -Yes. -Dance? 225 00:13:55,235 --> 00:13:58,038 -Yes. -Any stunts or harnesses? 226 00:13:58,138 --> 00:13:58,906 No. 227 00:13:59,006 --> 00:14:00,007 Backup dancers? 228 00:14:00,107 --> 00:14:01,475 -Nine. -I'm not making 229 00:14:01,576 --> 00:14:02,677 -anything for them. -I know. 230 00:14:02,777 --> 00:14:03,778 There's simply not enough time. 231 00:14:03,877 --> 00:14:05,680 I know. You don't have to. Just me. 232 00:14:06,046 --> 00:14:07,214 Arms up. 233 00:14:11,085 --> 00:14:12,486 What song are you singing? 234 00:14:14,922 --> 00:14:16,558 Spooky Action. 235 00:14:16,658 --> 00:14:18,192 Hmm. I don't remember that one. 236 00:14:18,892 --> 00:14:20,795 -'Cause it's new. -Oh. 237 00:14:20,894 --> 00:14:22,463 That explains it then. 238 00:14:22,564 --> 00:14:23,897 Did you write it? 239 00:14:24,566 --> 00:14:25,999 Yes. 240 00:14:28,335 --> 00:14:29,870 I'll play it for you if you want. 241 00:14:29,970 --> 00:14:31,372 Yes, maybe later. 242 00:14:34,441 --> 00:14:35,476 It's good. 243 00:14:35,577 --> 00:14:37,645 I am sure it is. 244 00:14:38,813 --> 00:14:39,848 It might be the best song ever written 245 00:14:39,947 --> 00:14:41,816 - in the history of songs. - Mmm. 246 00:14:41,915 --> 00:14:43,484 Lift your shirt up for me, please. 247 00:14:55,162 --> 00:14:56,497 You've gotten so tiny. 248 00:14:57,164 --> 00:14:58,966 The tiniest intruder. 249 00:15:01,770 --> 00:15:03,337 You're exactly the same. 250 00:15:03,437 --> 00:15:04,506 Oh, no, I'm not. 251 00:15:05,339 --> 00:15:06,373 You'll see. 252 00:15:07,274 --> 00:15:09,443 You'll see how I've changed. 253 00:15:10,944 --> 00:15:13,080 What the years have made of me. 254 00:15:16,885 --> 00:15:19,119 Okay. That's good for now. Thank you, Hilda. 255 00:15:26,561 --> 00:15:28,162 -Hilda. -Yes? 256 00:15:28,262 --> 00:15:30,899 Hilda, would you run back to the main house 257 00:15:30,998 --> 00:15:34,001 -and grab a few things for me? -Mmm-hmm. 258 00:15:35,235 --> 00:15:37,037 What does this matter? 259 00:15:38,105 --> 00:15:39,973 -You know what I need? -Of course. 260 00:15:40,073 --> 00:15:41,776 Uh, what about you? Can we get you anything? 261 00:15:41,876 --> 00:15:43,912 - I'm fine. Thank you. - Okay. Good. 262 00:15:44,011 --> 00:15:45,513 Okay. I'll be right back. 263 00:16:04,833 --> 00:16:05,867 She's not gonna tell anyone... 264 00:16:05,966 --> 00:16:07,869 No. Don't worry. 265 00:16:07,968 --> 00:16:09,504 There are no spies in our midst. 266 00:16:09,604 --> 00:16:14,141 I just need her to bring me some things. 267 00:16:14,241 --> 00:16:16,845 Some old bric-a-brac, a few bolts of fabric, 268 00:16:16,945 --> 00:16:18,212 and a good pair of scissors 269 00:16:18,312 --> 00:16:20,615 in case one of us has the sudden desire to... 270 00:16:28,723 --> 00:16:30,457 Okay. 271 00:17:05,025 --> 00:17:06,426 How's your mum? 272 00:17:08,763 --> 00:17:10,030 She died. 273 00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:13,166 I'm sorry. 274 00:17:15,603 --> 00:17:17,705 How are you? 275 00:17:21,843 --> 00:17:22,911 Same. 276 00:17:23,011 --> 00:17:25,212 You've been laying low. 277 00:17:25,312 --> 00:17:28,716 Am I right that this will be your first outing 278 00:17:28,816 --> 00:17:30,484 -since... -Since? 279 00:17:30,585 --> 00:17:33,788 Since whatever happened happened. 280 00:17:33,888 --> 00:17:35,623 What do you think happened? 281 00:17:35,723 --> 00:17:38,091 Well, I... I saw that video. 282 00:17:38,191 --> 00:17:40,227 Everyone saw that video. 283 00:17:41,194 --> 00:17:42,664 Is there more to it than that? 284 00:17:45,432 --> 00:17:46,433 Yes. 285 00:17:48,468 --> 00:17:51,171 And when it first happened, people kept asking me, 286 00:17:51,271 --> 00:17:52,574 what do I know, 287 00:17:52,674 --> 00:17:55,409 had I heard anything, "Did she trip, did she jump?" 288 00:17:58,278 --> 00:17:59,413 What'd you say? 289 00:17:59,514 --> 00:18:01,783 People... said you had a breakdown. 290 00:18:01,883 --> 00:18:04,318 I said, "No. She probably just needed a break." 291 00:18:04,418 --> 00:18:07,220 Yeah. That was part of it. 292 00:18:09,189 --> 00:18:10,758 What are the other parts? 293 00:18:13,393 --> 00:18:14,762 I don't want to tell you. 294 00:18:15,329 --> 00:18:17,164 Why? 295 00:18:17,832 --> 00:18:19,299 Because you'd laugh. 296 00:18:19,399 --> 00:18:21,201 -No, I wouldn't. -Yes, you would. 297 00:18:21,301 --> 00:18:22,870 You're laughing right now. 298 00:18:22,971 --> 00:18:24,204 I'm just... 299 00:18:24,304 --> 00:18:26,106 I'm just picturing the worst possible thing 300 00:18:26,206 --> 00:18:28,108 that could have made you do what you did. 301 00:18:28,610 --> 00:18:29,877 I... 302 00:18:31,144 --> 00:18:33,180 -What is it? -It's not worth mentioning, 303 00:18:33,280 --> 00:18:35,583 but it's very funny. 304 00:18:35,683 --> 00:18:37,685 Well, that's why I'm not gonna tell you. 305 00:18:37,785 --> 00:18:38,853 Except you will. 306 00:18:38,953 --> 00:18:40,989 Because you never would have 307 00:18:41,089 --> 00:18:42,289 brought it up in the first place 308 00:18:42,389 --> 00:18:43,992 if you didn't want to. 309 00:18:44,092 --> 00:18:46,259 No, you want to tell me. 310 00:18:46,360 --> 00:18:48,763 You want me to know so badly, you can hardly stand it. 311 00:18:48,863 --> 00:18:51,431 But it's okay. I can wait. 312 00:18:56,771 --> 00:18:58,840 Mmm. Mmm. 313 00:19:03,678 --> 00:19:04,812 No. 314 00:19:08,082 --> 00:19:09,483 No. 315 00:19:13,121 --> 00:19:14,354 Mmm. 316 00:19:45,019 --> 00:19:46,420 No. 317 00:19:50,925 --> 00:19:53,193 Right. No red. 318 00:19:55,262 --> 00:19:56,731 No red. 319 00:19:56,831 --> 00:19:59,701 What about your hair, what's going on there? 320 00:19:59,801 --> 00:20:01,002 We should... 321 00:20:01,102 --> 00:20:02,436 We should talk about your halo. 322 00:20:02,537 --> 00:20:03,504 No halo. 323 00:20:04,639 --> 00:20:05,673 At all? 324 00:20:05,773 --> 00:20:08,509 I want to get back to the basics. 325 00:20:08,609 --> 00:20:11,079 I mean, it doesn't get much more basic than that. 326 00:20:11,179 --> 00:20:12,547 It's sort of your thing. 327 00:20:12,647 --> 00:20:14,182 It was never meant to be my thing. 328 00:20:14,281 --> 00:20:15,516 It was your thing. 329 00:20:15,616 --> 00:20:18,119 That's... that's not how I recall it. 330 00:20:18,218 --> 00:20:19,187 But whatever the case, 331 00:20:19,319 --> 00:20:20,521 you've done pretty well with it. 332 00:20:20,621 --> 00:20:22,790 -We'll do well without it. -Will anyone recognize you 333 00:20:22,890 --> 00:20:23,858 without it? 334 00:20:23,958 --> 00:20:26,426 I don't know if anyone actually truly comprehends 335 00:20:26,527 --> 00:20:28,495 -the shape of your... -They hurt. 336 00:20:34,401 --> 00:20:37,105 Well, that's because whoever's making them for you now 337 00:20:37,205 --> 00:20:38,806 keeps trying to up the ante. 338 00:20:39,974 --> 00:20:41,776 They're not doing it right. 339 00:20:41,876 --> 00:20:42,877 I could make you a new one 340 00:20:42,977 --> 00:20:44,178 -in two seconds flat... -No. 341 00:20:44,277 --> 00:20:46,246 -Right. But, don't you... -I said... 342 00:20:46,346 --> 00:20:47,949 Yes, I know what you said. 343 00:20:48,049 --> 00:20:49,183 You don't want to wear one, 344 00:20:49,282 --> 00:20:51,786 but what if I want you to wear one? 345 00:20:55,455 --> 00:20:57,925 ♪ I can't believe what I found ♪ 346 00:20:59,761 --> 00:21:04,331 ♪ I'm staring into the dark so powerful... ♪ 347 00:21:04,431 --> 00:21:06,968 ♪ My knees are pressed to the ground ♪ 348 00:21:08,703 --> 00:21:11,438 ♪ I'm holdin' on for dear life ♪ 349 00:21:11,539 --> 00:21:13,440 ♪ It's mythical ♪ 350 00:21:13,541 --> 00:21:15,576 ♪ Are you there? Are you mine? ♪ 351 00:21:15,676 --> 00:21:17,645 ♪ Do you feel holy? ♪ 352 00:21:17,745 --> 00:21:20,114 ♪ Are you real or divine? ♪ 353 00:21:20,214 --> 00:21:22,282 ♪ Do you feel holy? ♪ 354 00:21:22,382 --> 00:21:24,451 ♪ Are you there? Are you mine? ♪ 355 00:21:24,552 --> 00:21:25,853 ♪ Do you know? ♪ 356 00:21:25,953 --> 00:21:29,924 ♪ Your spirit is calling me ♪ 357 00:21:30,024 --> 00:21:31,692 What are we doing here? 358 00:21:32,660 --> 00:21:34,962 Are we reinventing you? 359 00:21:37,799 --> 00:21:38,800 No. 360 00:21:40,935 --> 00:21:42,435 No, I... 361 00:21:44,337 --> 00:21:45,506 Just... 362 00:21:48,876 --> 00:21:50,878 I... I want to be... 363 00:21:52,312 --> 00:21:55,883 -Revelatory. -No. I just, like... I want... 364 00:21:57,350 --> 00:21:59,086 Profundity. 365 00:21:59,187 --> 00:22:00,988 Mmm, more, um... 366 00:22:03,658 --> 00:22:06,459 -Authenticity. -No. It's like... 367 00:22:11,966 --> 00:22:13,366 Clarity. 368 00:22:15,102 --> 00:22:16,403 -Yes. -Clarity. 369 00:22:16,504 --> 00:22:19,607 -So, reducing? -Yes. 370 00:22:19,707 --> 00:22:22,310 -Peeling away everything... -Yes. Yes. 371 00:22:22,409 --> 00:22:24,344 -...that's accumulated. -Yes. 372 00:22:24,444 --> 00:22:25,880 -Old skin. -Yes. 373 00:22:25,980 --> 00:22:27,215 -Barnacles. -Yes 374 00:22:27,315 --> 00:22:28,549 Dead hair. 375 00:22:28,649 --> 00:22:29,984 Yes. 376 00:22:30,084 --> 00:22:31,686 All the old yous. 377 00:22:32,320 --> 00:22:33,721 I want to be sharp. 378 00:22:33,821 --> 00:22:36,023 You want me to make you into a knife? 379 00:22:36,123 --> 00:22:37,692 I want to have a point. 380 00:22:39,260 --> 00:22:40,561 Got it. 381 00:22:42,830 --> 00:22:44,165 If this were the first performance 382 00:22:44,265 --> 00:22:46,499 I ever gave, how would you dress me? 383 00:22:46,601 --> 00:22:49,103 I did dress you for your first performance. 384 00:22:49,203 --> 00:22:50,838 If it were my last performance? 385 00:22:50,938 --> 00:22:52,540 Is that what this is? 386 00:22:53,373 --> 00:22:54,775 -Maybe. -'Cause I could make you 387 00:22:54,876 --> 00:22:56,577 a funeral gown, 388 00:22:56,677 --> 00:22:58,045 if that's what you really wanted. 389 00:22:58,145 --> 00:22:59,247 I could build you a pyre 390 00:22:59,347 --> 00:23:00,781 the likes of which the world has never seen 391 00:23:00,882 --> 00:23:03,150 if that's the way you see things going. 392 00:23:07,088 --> 00:23:08,689 I sort of do. 393 00:23:10,825 --> 00:23:12,560 We are still speaking in... 394 00:23:13,393 --> 00:23:14,862 abstractions, aren't we? 395 00:23:17,131 --> 00:23:18,232 I think so. 396 00:23:18,599 --> 00:23:20,201 Are you depressed? 397 00:23:20,301 --> 00:23:21,802 -No. No. -Is this a cry for help? 398 00:23:21,903 --> 00:23:24,505 So you're not planning on self-immolating 399 00:23:24,605 --> 00:23:26,040 on my doorstep? 400 00:23:26,140 --> 00:23:27,407 -No. -Good. 401 00:23:27,508 --> 00:23:29,510 But if I did, it would be kind of a great way to go. 402 00:23:29,610 --> 00:23:31,545 No, not for me. I'd be the one to have to clean you up. 403 00:23:31,646 --> 00:23:33,147 No peeking. 404 00:23:36,150 --> 00:23:37,518 If it's really that bad, 405 00:23:38,286 --> 00:23:39,287 just quit. 406 00:23:39,387 --> 00:23:40,922 I can't quit. 407 00:23:41,022 --> 00:23:42,390 Yeah, you can. 408 00:23:42,489 --> 00:23:43,891 People say quitting is for cowards, 409 00:23:43,991 --> 00:23:45,559 but it's actually one of the bravest things 410 00:23:45,660 --> 00:23:48,396 - anyone can do. - No. 411 00:23:48,495 --> 00:23:51,464 I can't quit. I don't know how to do anything else. 412 00:23:56,737 --> 00:23:58,172 I just wish I was happy doing it. 413 00:23:58,272 --> 00:24:00,074 Oh, yes, I remember. 414 00:24:00,174 --> 00:24:05,012 Used to be so happy singing sad songs. Well... 415 00:24:05,112 --> 00:24:08,481 things are never gonna be like that ever again. 416 00:24:09,350 --> 00:24:11,953 Nevertheless... you will go on. 417 00:24:12,053 --> 00:24:13,688 This won't be your last performance ever 418 00:24:13,788 --> 00:24:15,455 but it will be your best. 419 00:24:15,556 --> 00:24:17,291 You will be radiant, 420 00:24:17,391 --> 00:24:19,126 and transcendent. 421 00:24:19,226 --> 00:24:22,229 And when you open your mouth and sing about your sadness, 422 00:24:22,330 --> 00:24:23,731 it will be everyone's sadness, 423 00:24:23,831 --> 00:24:26,734 and it will be writ as large as the goddamn sky 424 00:24:26,834 --> 00:24:29,637 because that's what you give people. 425 00:24:30,538 --> 00:24:32,273 It's what you can do for people 426 00:24:32,373 --> 00:24:34,542 and since they pay you for it, 427 00:24:34,642 --> 00:24:36,677 it's more or less your job, so quit... 428 00:24:37,278 --> 00:24:38,646 or do a good job. 429 00:24:45,052 --> 00:24:46,020 See? 430 00:24:47,655 --> 00:24:49,523 This is what you do. 431 00:24:50,858 --> 00:24:53,561 This is why you have nothing to worry about. 432 00:24:54,862 --> 00:24:58,099 You give people the gift of giving a shit about you. 433 00:24:59,367 --> 00:25:03,137 I am humbled by your munificence. 434 00:25:07,408 --> 00:25:08,709 Uh... 435 00:25:09,276 --> 00:25:11,178 Is someone playing before you? 436 00:25:12,446 --> 00:25:13,981 Yes. 437 00:25:14,081 --> 00:25:15,282 Who? 438 00:25:15,383 --> 00:25:17,151 Miel Contrera. 439 00:25:17,251 --> 00:25:18,586 What's she sing? 440 00:25:18,686 --> 00:25:21,288 -Paper Moon. -Oh, right. Yeah, I like her. 441 00:25:22,289 --> 00:25:24,125 Everyone likes her. 442 00:25:24,225 --> 00:25:25,626 You sound bitter. 443 00:25:27,628 --> 00:25:28,863 No, I don't. 444 00:25:29,730 --> 00:25:31,132 She's my friend. 445 00:25:31,232 --> 00:25:32,733 -Is she? -Yes. 446 00:25:32,833 --> 00:25:33,834 -We sang together at the... -Yeah. 447 00:25:33,934 --> 00:25:36,003 But she was just a child then. 448 00:25:36,103 --> 00:25:37,238 Now I see her everywhere I look. 449 00:25:37,338 --> 00:25:40,307 Her tits are spilling out over Soho in Givenchy. 450 00:25:40,408 --> 00:25:42,143 She's successful 451 00:25:42,576 --> 00:25:43,677 and I'm proud of her. 452 00:25:43,778 --> 00:25:45,846 And I'm very happy to be in her company. 453 00:25:45,946 --> 00:25:46,914 Good. 454 00:25:47,348 --> 00:25:48,983 But? 455 00:25:49,083 --> 00:25:52,420 You're going to lay waste to her, aren't you? 456 00:25:52,521 --> 00:25:54,121 -What? -Oh. 457 00:25:54,221 --> 00:25:56,624 Poor girl doesn't know what she's in for. 458 00:25:56,724 --> 00:25:58,092 Why would you even say that? 459 00:25:58,192 --> 00:25:59,260 Because it's true. 460 00:25:59,360 --> 00:26:00,461 No, it's not. 461 00:26:00,561 --> 00:26:02,129 Oh, it's already happened. 462 00:26:02,229 --> 00:26:04,131 You don't even have to try. 463 00:26:04,231 --> 00:26:05,699 This is what you do. You're always picking 464 00:26:05,800 --> 00:26:07,768 -and picking and scratching... -It's part of my job. 465 00:26:07,868 --> 00:26:09,670 I need to see what I'm meant to cover. 466 00:26:09,770 --> 00:26:11,639 You mean you need to see what you want to find. 467 00:26:11,739 --> 00:26:12,840 And if you don't find it, you put it there 468 00:26:12,940 --> 00:26:14,509 because it suits you and what you want to make, 469 00:26:14,608 --> 00:26:16,377 -which is why... -Which is why I'm here 470 00:26:16,877 --> 00:26:18,412 -and you're there. -No. 471 00:26:18,513 --> 00:26:19,847 I'm here because I want what you want, 472 00:26:19,947 --> 00:26:22,049 but I want you to want it for the right reasons. 473 00:26:22,149 --> 00:26:23,317 Which are? 474 00:26:23,417 --> 00:26:24,385 I want you to have an open heart. 475 00:26:24,485 --> 00:26:26,387 Mmm-hmm. Mmm. - And no fear. 476 00:26:26,487 --> 00:26:28,322 And what am I afraid of? 477 00:26:28,422 --> 00:26:29,723 Of this. 478 00:26:30,057 --> 00:26:31,258 -Me. -Yeah. 479 00:26:31,358 --> 00:26:32,793 Hey, you're fucking terrifying. 480 00:26:34,628 --> 00:26:36,730 This is what you do. 481 00:26:36,831 --> 00:26:38,432 This is what you do when you don't know what to do. 482 00:26:38,533 --> 00:26:39,700 This is what you've always done, 483 00:26:39,800 --> 00:26:42,670 which is why I'm trying to lay it all out for you. 484 00:26:42,770 --> 00:26:44,705 But I asked you to lay it out for me 485 00:26:44,805 --> 00:26:46,807 so that I'd know what to do. 486 00:26:46,907 --> 00:26:49,210 -So, here it is. -Thank you. 487 00:26:52,947 --> 00:26:55,182 Miel Contrera will sing before me. 488 00:26:56,484 --> 00:27:00,154 She will sing Paper Moon, and it'll be beautiful. 489 00:27:00,589 --> 00:27:01,922 And then, 490 00:27:02,022 --> 00:27:04,725 at five minutes to midnight, the lights will go down. 491 00:27:06,694 --> 00:27:07,928 And I... 492 00:27:10,498 --> 00:27:11,732 Mmm-hmm. 493 00:27:15,002 --> 00:27:17,905 I'll do whatever it is that I'm gonna do. 494 00:27:20,609 --> 00:27:23,210 Sing your new song? 495 00:27:23,310 --> 00:27:24,278 Yes. 496 00:27:25,580 --> 00:27:27,148 Maybe not. 497 00:27:27,248 --> 00:27:30,017 -No, I'm gonna sing it. -Oh, good. 498 00:27:30,117 --> 00:27:33,087 Because you sounded uncertain there for a moment. 499 00:27:34,488 --> 00:27:36,657 No, it's just... 500 00:27:37,291 --> 00:27:38,392 It's not good enough yet? 501 00:27:43,397 --> 00:27:44,431 You want to hear it? 502 00:27:45,399 --> 00:27:46,568 The... the song? 503 00:27:46,667 --> 00:27:48,769 -Yes. -No. 504 00:27:49,803 --> 00:27:51,772 No. No music. 505 00:27:52,641 --> 00:27:53,841 Not right now. 506 00:27:54,543 --> 00:27:56,710 -Why? -Because if I did, 507 00:27:56,810 --> 00:27:58,012 I'd make a dress for the song. 508 00:27:58,112 --> 00:28:00,347 And you want me to make a dress for you, don't you? 509 00:28:00,447 --> 00:28:03,050 So, better not to hear it. 510 00:28:05,186 --> 00:28:06,787 You might like it. 511 00:28:06,887 --> 00:28:09,456 Mmm, I'm in an ascetic phase right now. 512 00:28:09,990 --> 00:28:12,059 I'm trying not liking things. 513 00:28:15,129 --> 00:28:17,698 Why is it called Spooky Action anyway? 514 00:28:18,699 --> 00:28:21,603 Is it about particle physics? 515 00:28:21,702 --> 00:28:23,771 Large Hadron Colliders? 516 00:28:25,773 --> 00:28:28,842 No. It's more like... 517 00:28:29,743 --> 00:28:31,745 connections we can't explain. 518 00:28:31,845 --> 00:28:34,448 And what led you to write it? 519 00:28:37,384 --> 00:28:40,321 I had a connection and I couldn't explain it. 520 00:28:40,854 --> 00:28:42,022 To a person? 521 00:28:43,057 --> 00:28:44,058 Maybe. 522 00:28:44,758 --> 00:28:45,960 Are you being coy? 523 00:28:46,493 --> 00:28:47,828 No. 524 00:28:47,928 --> 00:28:49,296 And you really can dance to it? 525 00:28:51,198 --> 00:28:52,499 -Yes. -Hmm. 526 00:28:54,569 --> 00:28:55,736 Show me. 527 00:28:57,304 --> 00:28:58,973 -The dance? -Yeah. 528 00:28:59,674 --> 00:29:01,141 Could you? 529 00:29:01,242 --> 00:29:04,445 Honestly, it'll be good for me to see how you move 530 00:29:04,546 --> 00:29:06,447 to make sure I'm accommodating. 531 00:29:11,051 --> 00:29:12,052 Okay. 532 00:29:12,152 --> 00:29:14,321 I'm sure you're supposed to be drilling it anyway. 533 00:29:38,178 --> 00:29:40,548 Do you have a speaker or anything I can plug into? 534 00:29:41,248 --> 00:29:42,684 Yeah. 535 00:29:42,783 --> 00:29:44,084 But do it without the song. 536 00:29:47,321 --> 00:29:48,690 Why? 537 00:29:48,789 --> 00:29:50,924 Because I told you, I don't want to hear it. 538 00:29:51,025 --> 00:29:53,460 -But it's all set to the... -I'm sure you've got it down. 539 00:29:55,296 --> 00:29:57,131 Why won't you just let me play it for you? 540 00:29:57,231 --> 00:29:58,966 'Cause I don't want to break my streak. 541 00:29:59,466 --> 00:30:00,568 Of what? 542 00:30:00,669 --> 00:30:02,136 Of not listening to your music. 543 00:31:44,338 --> 00:31:45,272 Ooh. Okay. 544 00:31:45,372 --> 00:31:47,074 -Well, I think that's... -I'm not done yet. 545 00:33:26,039 --> 00:33:29,076 How on earth are you gonna sing 546 00:33:29,176 --> 00:33:30,778 while you do all that? 547 00:33:33,681 --> 00:33:34,716 Practice. 548 00:33:51,365 --> 00:33:52,432 You know, 549 00:33:54,034 --> 00:33:55,703 if you're going for... 550 00:33:56,638 --> 00:34:01,108 burn-it-all-down last-will-and-testaments, 551 00:34:01,809 --> 00:34:03,443 what we should do is 552 00:34:04,378 --> 00:34:05,914 we should make you a beautiful dress 553 00:34:06,014 --> 00:34:07,214 that is simple and elegant, 554 00:34:07,314 --> 00:34:08,816 and whatever else it needs to be, 555 00:34:08,917 --> 00:34:11,418 but attached to it... 556 00:34:12,854 --> 00:34:13,855 is a train. 557 00:34:13,955 --> 00:34:16,490 You know how I love... 558 00:34:18,026 --> 00:34:20,695 a good train, and this one is, say, 559 00:34:20,795 --> 00:34:23,096 um, just a quarter-mile long. 560 00:34:23,196 --> 00:34:26,000 And maybe most people don't notice, 561 00:34:26,099 --> 00:34:29,102 but a keen eye will detect 562 00:34:29,202 --> 00:34:33,373 that at a certain point, the fabric of the gown fades 563 00:34:33,875 --> 00:34:35,175 from one thing 564 00:34:35,777 --> 00:34:37,277 into something else. 565 00:34:37,377 --> 00:34:39,914 Something more familiar. 566 00:34:40,014 --> 00:34:41,849 It's so seamless you don't even see it. 567 00:34:41,950 --> 00:34:43,651 But once you do, 568 00:34:44,786 --> 00:34:46,353 you realize 569 00:34:46,453 --> 00:34:50,792 the entire gown is made up of every dress 570 00:34:50,892 --> 00:34:52,627 you've ever 571 00:34:52,727 --> 00:34:54,428 worn. 572 00:34:54,529 --> 00:34:57,364 The story of how you got to right here, 573 00:34:57,665 --> 00:34:59,266 right now, 574 00:34:59,366 --> 00:35:01,970 in this exact moment, 575 00:35:02,070 --> 00:35:03,470 stepping out on stage, 576 00:35:03,571 --> 00:35:06,440 Mother Mary... ...in the new millennium. 577 00:35:06,541 --> 00:35:08,308 You walk... 578 00:35:08,408 --> 00:35:09,443 ...down the... Where is the show? 579 00:35:09,544 --> 00:35:12,947 -At the Palladium. -That's perfect. So... 580 00:35:13,047 --> 00:35:15,583 Miel Contrera finishes singing, 581 00:35:15,683 --> 00:35:18,653 and it's beautiful and it's well-liked, 582 00:35:18,753 --> 00:35:22,155 but now, here you come, 583 00:35:22,890 --> 00:35:25,225 marching down that aisle, 584 00:35:25,325 --> 00:35:27,194 marching from far beyond the aisle, 585 00:35:27,294 --> 00:35:28,930 from outside the theater, 586 00:35:29,030 --> 00:35:30,632 coming down the street, 587 00:35:30,732 --> 00:35:34,869 dragging your whole history behind you. 588 00:35:35,302 --> 00:35:37,137 The doors swing open, 589 00:35:37,237 --> 00:35:38,338 and you enter the theater 590 00:35:38,438 --> 00:35:41,109 and you walk up the steps to the stage, 591 00:35:41,208 --> 00:35:43,210 and when you get to the top... 592 00:35:43,845 --> 00:35:45,212 What's this? 593 00:35:46,246 --> 00:35:47,649 Something catches. 594 00:35:48,448 --> 00:35:51,085 The train is pulled tight. 595 00:35:51,184 --> 00:35:55,623 It's caught on all of your history. 596 00:35:56,256 --> 00:35:58,926 And as you take your final step 597 00:35:59,027 --> 00:36:01,361 and complete your ascension, 598 00:36:01,896 --> 00:36:03,698 the entire gown, 599 00:36:03,798 --> 00:36:07,200 we'll set it so it just shears away, 600 00:36:07,300 --> 00:36:08,636 and there you are. 601 00:36:09,737 --> 00:36:15,308 You are standing naked under the lights, 602 00:36:15,409 --> 00:36:18,079 free of everything you've been carrying, 603 00:36:18,178 --> 00:36:20,715 of everything that's been weighing you down. 604 00:36:20,815 --> 00:36:22,850 And, of course, the plugs will get pulled 605 00:36:22,950 --> 00:36:25,953 and the broadcast would cut but that's on them, 606 00:36:26,054 --> 00:36:27,555 it's not on you. 607 00:36:27,655 --> 00:36:28,990 Mmm-mmm. 608 00:36:29,090 --> 00:36:31,626 You're doing what you were born to do. 609 00:36:32,426 --> 00:36:34,796 You open your mouth 610 00:36:34,896 --> 00:36:36,798 and you dance your dance. 611 00:36:38,365 --> 00:36:40,601 You sing your song. 612 00:36:41,869 --> 00:36:43,370 Or maybe... 613 00:36:44,438 --> 00:36:45,940 you don't even do that. 614 00:36:47,842 --> 00:36:49,677 Maybe you don't need to. 615 00:36:51,211 --> 00:36:54,649 You don't need the song at all, 616 00:36:55,282 --> 00:36:56,818 because this... 617 00:36:58,318 --> 00:37:01,556 is all about... 618 00:37:02,857 --> 00:37:03,891 you. 619 00:37:12,533 --> 00:37:13,568 But... 620 00:37:19,339 --> 00:37:20,808 isn't that kind of... 621 00:37:27,715 --> 00:37:28,750 -obvious? -No. 622 00:37:29,784 --> 00:37:32,854 Mmm. This is... 623 00:37:33,588 --> 00:37:34,622 clarity. 624 00:37:35,556 --> 00:37:38,726 ♪ Bad conversations ♪ 625 00:37:39,961 --> 00:37:42,630 ♪ Cigarettes ♪ 626 00:37:43,363 --> 00:37:45,900 ♪ Words I don't mean ♪ 627 00:37:47,168 --> 00:37:49,137 ♪ Empty threats ♪ 628 00:37:49,237 --> 00:37:51,172 ♪ Chewing gum ♪ 629 00:37:51,271 --> 00:37:54,675 ♪ I'm so empty ♪ 630 00:37:56,276 --> 00:37:59,947 ♪ You're the one for me ♪ 631 00:38:00,515 --> 00:38:02,449 ♪ You see ♪ 632 00:38:02,550 --> 00:38:05,485 ♪ But it's been a while ♪ 633 00:38:08,856 --> 00:38:13,027 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪ 634 00:38:16,230 --> 00:38:20,568 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪ 635 00:38:22,435 --> 00:38:24,505 ♪ You ♪ 636 00:38:26,406 --> 00:38:28,075 ♪ My mouth ♪ 637 00:38:31,179 --> 00:38:35,082 ♪ My mouth is lonely for you ♪ 638 00:39:50,091 --> 00:39:52,860 ♪ You said go find all the things that you want ♪ 639 00:39:52,960 --> 00:39:54,662 ♪ Find all the things that you need ♪ 640 00:39:54,762 --> 00:39:57,965 ♪ If you can't find them in me go find anywhere, please ♪ 641 00:39:58,065 --> 00:40:00,101 ♪ Unroll the map climb up the trees ♪ 642 00:40:00,201 --> 00:40:02,036 ♪ Scale the mountain do or don't breathe ♪ 643 00:40:02,136 --> 00:40:04,105 ♪ But you must fall to your knees ♪ 644 00:40:04,205 --> 00:40:06,641 ♪ Don't cry to the stars you must summon the deep ♪ 645 00:40:06,741 --> 00:40:08,309 ♪ Lose all the people you keep ♪ 646 00:40:08,408 --> 00:40:09,377 ♪ Lose your will to believe ♪ 647 00:40:09,476 --> 00:40:10,611 ♪ And once again believe ♪ 648 00:40:10,711 --> 00:40:12,280 ♪ And if in the end you're not free ♪ 649 00:40:12,380 --> 00:40:13,748 ♪ Cut a deal, please ♪ 650 00:40:13,848 --> 00:40:15,816 ♪ Used to walk with you ♪ 651 00:40:15,917 --> 00:40:19,486 ♪ Till I saw something bigger ♪ 652 00:40:19,587 --> 00:40:21,555 ♪ I jumped into the flames ♪ 653 00:40:21,656 --> 00:40:25,026 ♪ And I shook hands with forever ♪ 654 00:40:25,126 --> 00:40:28,195 ♪ Had to cut ties ♪ 655 00:40:30,598 --> 00:40:33,567 ♪ To be star-light ♪ 656 00:40:36,671 --> 00:40:38,572 ♪ He blessed me with his gaze... ♪ 657 00:40:38,673 --> 00:40:42,043 That was a very specific moment in time, 658 00:40:42,543 --> 00:40:43,844 wasn't it? 659 00:40:45,713 --> 00:40:47,214 Why do we say that? 660 00:40:48,416 --> 00:40:50,217 Every moment in time is specific. 661 00:40:50,318 --> 00:40:53,654 Yeah, but it's hard to tell one from the next. Mmm? 662 00:40:54,487 --> 00:40:56,157 Every now and then, though, 663 00:40:57,224 --> 00:40:59,060 something happens. 664 00:41:00,328 --> 00:41:02,363 And it makes us prick up our ears 665 00:41:02,462 --> 00:41:06,300 and say, "That was a moment." 666 00:41:06,400 --> 00:41:09,303 And what I think we're really saying... 667 00:41:09,403 --> 00:41:11,138 ...is for that moment, 668 00:41:12,873 --> 00:41:14,775 we were... 669 00:41:15,409 --> 00:41:16,610 together. 670 00:41:19,347 --> 00:41:21,549 Did you really mean what you said? 671 00:41:22,216 --> 00:41:24,218 About what? 672 00:41:24,318 --> 00:41:26,721 About not listening to my music. 673 00:41:30,124 --> 00:41:31,491 Yes. 674 00:41:32,460 --> 00:41:33,561 Is it a surprise? 675 00:41:33,661 --> 00:41:35,730 I don't exactly see you at the runway. 676 00:41:35,830 --> 00:41:38,366 Did I really hurt your feelings so badly? 677 00:41:38,466 --> 00:41:39,533 Yeah. 678 00:41:39,633 --> 00:41:41,469 And that's fine. 679 00:41:41,569 --> 00:41:43,537 That's what feelings are for. 680 00:41:43,637 --> 00:41:45,906 I just wish you would have told me yourself. 681 00:41:47,108 --> 00:41:48,175 Told you what? 682 00:41:48,275 --> 00:41:50,111 That, um... 683 00:41:51,078 --> 00:41:53,314 That Mother Mary no longer needed me. 684 00:41:53,414 --> 00:41:55,449 -I did need you. -No, you... 685 00:41:55,549 --> 00:41:57,184 -And I did tell you. -You told me 686 00:41:57,284 --> 00:41:58,452 by not telling me. 687 00:41:58,552 --> 00:41:59,820 You told me by saying nothing 688 00:41:59,920 --> 00:42:02,390 and letting everyone who suddenly had your ear 689 00:42:02,490 --> 00:42:03,424 do all the talking. 690 00:42:03,524 --> 00:42:04,759 I told you I needed a change. 691 00:42:04,859 --> 00:42:07,695 Yes, but you didn't tell me you'd already made it. 692 00:42:07,795 --> 00:42:09,497 By the time I figured that out, 693 00:42:09,597 --> 00:42:11,599 you'd already closed the door. 694 00:42:11,699 --> 00:42:13,000 The door was always open. 695 00:42:13,100 --> 00:42:14,101 No. 696 00:42:14,201 --> 00:42:15,202 No, it wasn't. 697 00:42:16,537 --> 00:42:18,639 No, it wasn't. It was shut 698 00:42:19,073 --> 00:42:20,474 and locked. 699 00:42:20,574 --> 00:42:22,810 And you were a million miles away. 700 00:42:23,577 --> 00:42:25,146 And there I was... 701 00:42:25,246 --> 00:42:26,947 who knew you and... 702 00:42:29,650 --> 00:42:31,252 who loved you, 703 00:42:32,586 --> 00:42:35,856 trying to pick up the pieces. 704 00:42:35,956 --> 00:42:38,726 Except there weren't even any pieces 705 00:42:38,826 --> 00:42:40,761 'cause everything I had was... 706 00:42:41,462 --> 00:42:43,631 wrapped up in you. 707 00:42:43,731 --> 00:42:46,133 You never know how little you matter 708 00:42:46,233 --> 00:42:47,735 until you realize 709 00:42:47,835 --> 00:42:49,570 that everything you've done 710 00:42:49,670 --> 00:42:51,472 has been in the service 711 00:42:51,572 --> 00:42:53,774 of someone the whole world loves 712 00:42:53,874 --> 00:42:56,210 just as much as you. 713 00:42:59,346 --> 00:43:03,384 Oh, yeah. And tell yourself you're doing good work. 714 00:43:03,484 --> 00:43:04,819 Tell yourself what you're doing counts 715 00:43:04,919 --> 00:43:06,353 'cause you're the one that's doing it, 716 00:43:06,454 --> 00:43:09,356 but really, step by step, 717 00:43:09,457 --> 00:43:10,891 stitch by stitch, 718 00:43:12,726 --> 00:43:14,962 you're obliterating yourself. 719 00:43:20,000 --> 00:43:21,802 I wanted you 720 00:43:21,902 --> 00:43:23,771 to look like Joan of Arc. 721 00:43:27,208 --> 00:43:28,943 When I heard you sing, 722 00:43:29,743 --> 00:43:31,979 that's what I saw. 723 00:43:32,079 --> 00:43:36,383 That's what I set out to design for you. 724 00:43:37,318 --> 00:43:38,786 And to that, 725 00:43:39,253 --> 00:43:42,022 I added bits and pieces 726 00:43:43,525 --> 00:43:44,692 of me. 727 00:43:46,595 --> 00:43:48,162 Silly things, 728 00:43:48,863 --> 00:43:52,166 like my holy communion when I was seven. 729 00:43:52,266 --> 00:43:53,234 Feeling like a queen 730 00:43:53,334 --> 00:43:54,702 even though I'd spilled wine 731 00:43:54,802 --> 00:43:57,071 all down my beautiful white dress. 732 00:44:00,174 --> 00:44:01,175 All of that 733 00:44:02,376 --> 00:44:03,711 is in there. 734 00:44:05,514 --> 00:44:07,114 That's my story. 735 00:44:08,649 --> 00:44:09,850 And no, 736 00:44:10,585 --> 00:44:12,153 I don't expect you to tell it. 737 00:44:13,320 --> 00:44:16,924 But I... would have expected a little bit credit. 738 00:44:26,333 --> 00:44:29,103 -I didn't mean to cut you out. -But you did. 739 00:44:30,371 --> 00:44:31,438 Yes. 740 00:44:32,273 --> 00:44:33,240 I did. 741 00:44:36,611 --> 00:44:38,479 -But... -What? 742 00:44:38,580 --> 00:44:40,848 But I'm the one who wore that dress, 743 00:44:42,517 --> 00:44:44,385 who wore all the dresses. 744 00:44:46,687 --> 00:44:47,721 I let you make 745 00:44:47,821 --> 00:44:50,090 -something of me. -No. No. 746 00:44:50,191 --> 00:44:52,527 -We did that together. -And... 747 00:44:52,627 --> 00:44:53,928 And I liked it. 748 00:44:54,762 --> 00:44:55,996 I liked it. 749 00:44:57,865 --> 00:44:59,733 I liked how you saw me. 750 00:45:03,404 --> 00:45:05,005 I liked how it felt... 751 00:45:07,274 --> 00:45:09,578 when you dressed me. 752 00:45:09,678 --> 00:45:12,780 But you were making your own Mother Mary, 753 00:45:12,880 --> 00:45:14,315 and she... 754 00:45:14,715 --> 00:45:16,317 she was beautiful. 755 00:45:17,619 --> 00:45:18,919 But I'm the one who had to go out 756 00:45:19,019 --> 00:45:20,821 in front of all those people 757 00:45:21,388 --> 00:45:23,257 and sing my songs 758 00:45:23,757 --> 00:45:25,859 and feel them, so, yes... 759 00:45:27,027 --> 00:45:29,830 ...I wanted to change for her. 760 00:45:30,864 --> 00:45:32,866 But I was never done with us. 761 00:45:34,468 --> 00:45:35,836 You closed that door. 762 00:45:35,936 --> 00:45:38,673 No, there was never a door at all until you opened it. 763 00:45:38,772 --> 00:45:39,740 The door doesn't exist. 764 00:45:39,840 --> 00:45:41,909 These metaphors are exhausting. 765 00:45:45,012 --> 00:45:47,314 You went somewhere... 766 00:45:47,414 --> 00:45:49,984 -I couldn't follow. -Yes, but you had all this. 767 00:45:50,084 --> 00:45:51,885 Yeah, I had to build this so I had something. 768 00:45:51,986 --> 00:45:53,454 But that's good, isn't it? 769 00:45:53,555 --> 00:45:55,356 Yeah. 770 00:45:55,456 --> 00:45:58,259 Except that it took me hating you to do it. 771 00:46:05,099 --> 00:46:07,067 Uh-uh. 772 00:46:24,051 --> 00:46:25,553 You can't really hate me. 773 00:46:25,654 --> 00:46:26,854 Oh, yes, I can. 774 00:46:27,788 --> 00:46:30,424 It's very easy to flip that switch. 775 00:46:30,525 --> 00:46:32,092 Is that what we're doing here? 776 00:46:32,192 --> 00:46:34,161 You're making me a hate-dress? 777 00:46:34,261 --> 00:46:35,530 Maybe. 778 00:46:36,397 --> 00:46:37,431 Maybe. 779 00:46:37,532 --> 00:46:39,933 So what do we have to do to flip that switch back? 780 00:46:40,034 --> 00:46:42,469 I don't know. Maybe we can't, maybe it's a one-time thing. 781 00:46:42,570 --> 00:46:43,538 No. 782 00:46:44,338 --> 00:46:45,740 You already have. 783 00:46:45,839 --> 00:46:47,676 You wouldn't let me in the door otherwise. 784 00:46:47,776 --> 00:46:50,010 The real door or the metaphorical one? 785 00:46:50,110 --> 00:46:51,646 -Your front door. -Oh. 786 00:46:51,746 --> 00:46:53,947 Well... I didn't let you in. 787 00:46:54,915 --> 00:46:56,817 Hilda did. 788 00:46:56,917 --> 00:46:59,587 And why do I have to be the one to open the door 789 00:46:59,688 --> 00:47:01,889 or flip a switch or whatever? 790 00:47:03,692 --> 00:47:05,125 Can't you do it? 791 00:47:07,094 --> 00:47:08,896 Can't you do the work? 792 00:47:10,732 --> 00:47:13,434 Make me love you again. 793 00:47:14,536 --> 00:47:16,203 Can you let me try? 794 00:47:17,605 --> 00:47:19,173 Can you stop putting up walls? 795 00:47:19,273 --> 00:47:21,875 Can you let me play this fucking song? 796 00:47:21,975 --> 00:47:23,877 Oh, you can't do anything else? 797 00:47:23,977 --> 00:47:25,946 I don't have anything else. 798 00:47:26,815 --> 00:47:28,015 What else is there? 799 00:47:28,115 --> 00:47:30,417 I can... send you flowers, 800 00:47:30,518 --> 00:47:32,353 I can write you a note, or I can buy you a house, 801 00:47:32,453 --> 00:47:35,557 or I can sing you a song. That's it. 802 00:47:40,595 --> 00:47:41,629 That's all I got. 803 00:47:45,065 --> 00:47:46,801 Well, I could do with a new house. 804 00:47:46,900 --> 00:47:48,603 This one's falling apart. 805 00:47:50,404 --> 00:47:52,172 Pick one out and send me the listing. 806 00:47:52,272 --> 00:47:53,907 Oh, you know, I think I'll pay for it myself. 807 00:47:54,007 --> 00:47:55,909 Thank you very much. 808 00:47:56,009 --> 00:47:57,945 You see, the problem is, 809 00:47:58,045 --> 00:48:00,815 and it's not a problem, 810 00:48:00,914 --> 00:48:03,117 but the problem is... 811 00:48:03,852 --> 00:48:06,521 I am very stubborn. 812 00:48:09,390 --> 00:48:10,525 Clearly. 813 00:48:11,358 --> 00:48:13,661 And I don't... 814 00:48:13,762 --> 00:48:17,599 I'm no good at changing on the spot. 815 00:48:18,767 --> 00:48:20,100 I'm not... 816 00:48:20,602 --> 00:48:22,169 like you. 817 00:48:23,337 --> 00:48:25,707 I can't be what other people want me to be 818 00:48:25,807 --> 00:48:27,241 at the drop of a hat. 819 00:48:27,809 --> 00:48:29,209 Good. 820 00:48:29,943 --> 00:48:31,412 Because it wears you down. 821 00:48:31,513 --> 00:48:34,448 And I've been getting on quite well without you. 822 00:48:34,549 --> 00:48:36,885 If I hear you on the radio, I change the channel. 823 00:48:36,984 --> 00:48:39,353 If I see you on the telly, I just turn it off. 824 00:48:40,889 --> 00:48:42,456 All or nothing. 825 00:48:44,458 --> 00:48:45,959 All or nothing. 826 00:48:48,195 --> 00:48:50,364 Everyone else needs you. 827 00:48:51,699 --> 00:48:53,300 I don't. 828 00:48:58,372 --> 00:49:00,240 Would you like to know what happened 829 00:49:00,340 --> 00:49:02,544 the last time I heard you sing? 830 00:49:03,745 --> 00:49:04,746 Sure. 831 00:49:04,846 --> 00:49:06,581 It's gonna sound like another metaphor, 832 00:49:06,681 --> 00:49:07,882 even though it's not. 833 00:49:07,981 --> 00:49:09,149 Okay. 834 00:49:11,653 --> 00:49:15,355 Do you remember when you played in Hyde Park 835 00:49:15,456 --> 00:49:17,592 at the beginning of your Ecstatic Tour? 836 00:49:19,193 --> 00:49:21,295 -Yeah. -I was there. 837 00:49:22,362 --> 00:49:23,497 Front row. 838 00:49:35,175 --> 00:49:37,712 I wondered if you'd spot me, 839 00:49:37,812 --> 00:49:40,180 but... you never did. 840 00:49:41,081 --> 00:49:43,751 Or if you did, you didn't let on. 841 00:49:44,284 --> 00:49:46,386 And now I'm letting on now 842 00:49:47,755 --> 00:49:49,724 you were amazing. 843 00:49:50,892 --> 00:49:54,161 The whole crowd was crying. 844 00:49:54,529 --> 00:49:56,463 You were crying. 845 00:49:56,564 --> 00:49:58,232 And I was crying, 846 00:49:58,800 --> 00:50:01,502 but for a different reason. 847 00:50:01,603 --> 00:50:04,338 Because I was seeing something beautiful 848 00:50:04,438 --> 00:50:06,173 that I had once been a part of 849 00:50:06,273 --> 00:50:09,243 and... never would be again. 850 00:50:10,912 --> 00:50:12,614 You were radiant. 851 00:50:14,481 --> 00:50:16,216 I was miserable. 852 00:50:17,952 --> 00:50:19,119 And by and by, 853 00:50:19,219 --> 00:50:24,157 that misery resolved into a very sharp pain 854 00:50:24,258 --> 00:50:26,360 in my upper mandible. 855 00:50:27,461 --> 00:50:30,565 My jaws were clenched so tight 856 00:50:30,665 --> 00:50:34,334 that my top left wisdom tooth cracked wide open, 857 00:50:34,434 --> 00:50:37,539 and the pain that it gave me 858 00:50:37,639 --> 00:50:39,306 was pure 859 00:50:40,173 --> 00:50:41,543 and sharp. 860 00:50:42,977 --> 00:50:48,215 And I could think of no way to describe it other than you. 861 00:50:54,656 --> 00:50:56,056 Oh, it was you. 862 00:50:56,858 --> 00:50:59,126 And I had to cut you out. 863 00:51:02,664 --> 00:51:04,231 So I fled. 864 00:51:06,366 --> 00:51:08,736 Before the encore. 865 00:51:08,836 --> 00:51:10,103 Before you played Holy Spirit, 866 00:51:10,203 --> 00:51:12,740 the one song I thought might make me feel better. 867 00:51:14,943 --> 00:51:16,343 Mary! Mary! 868 00:51:18,012 --> 00:51:19,346 I ran home, 869 00:51:20,080 --> 00:51:21,516 grabbed some pliers, 870 00:51:23,651 --> 00:51:24,752 and... 871 00:51:35,063 --> 00:51:36,330 See? 872 00:51:39,601 --> 00:51:40,768 All gone. 873 00:51:42,670 --> 00:51:43,470 Jesus! 874 00:51:43,571 --> 00:51:45,807 I'm only exaggerating. 875 00:51:46,975 --> 00:51:48,676 I went to the dentist. 876 00:51:49,744 --> 00:51:51,211 Yeah, they put me under, 877 00:51:52,346 --> 00:51:54,816 and when I woke up in the chair, 878 00:51:55,349 --> 00:51:57,150 my tooth was gone. 879 00:51:59,219 --> 00:52:01,789 And the anesthesia was wearing off, 880 00:52:03,691 --> 00:52:05,325 and I felt very sad. 881 00:52:06,828 --> 00:52:08,495 Like I was... 882 00:52:08,596 --> 00:52:12,366 in the midst of saying goodbye to something dear. 883 00:52:12,900 --> 00:52:15,637 You know, when I was little, 884 00:52:15,737 --> 00:52:18,138 and we'd move, 885 00:52:18,238 --> 00:52:23,410 and I'd feel myself being pulled away from a house 886 00:52:23,845 --> 00:52:26,446 I'd made time to love. 887 00:52:30,585 --> 00:52:31,586 Hmm. 888 00:52:34,088 --> 00:52:35,255 Now... 889 00:52:37,324 --> 00:52:38,826 this is where it gets 890 00:52:39,493 --> 00:52:40,460 strange. 891 00:52:41,829 --> 00:52:43,196 That night, 892 00:52:45,165 --> 00:52:46,500 I had a visitor. 893 00:52:48,069 --> 00:52:49,369 I woke up very suddenly 894 00:52:49,469 --> 00:52:51,572 to find that my gums were bleeding again. 895 00:52:53,608 --> 00:52:56,176 There was blood all over. 896 00:52:56,276 --> 00:52:59,413 There was a little trail of it, in fact, 897 00:52:59,514 --> 00:53:01,849 streaked across the duvet. 898 00:53:01,949 --> 00:53:05,318 It was like something had crawled out of my mouth, 899 00:53:05,953 --> 00:53:07,655 across the bedspread, 900 00:53:08,455 --> 00:53:09,824 down onto the floor. 901 00:53:11,059 --> 00:53:12,325 Now... 902 00:53:13,127 --> 00:53:14,929 I've always been open to ghosts. 903 00:53:15,029 --> 00:53:17,397 If any house was haunted, you'd think it'd be this one, 904 00:53:17,497 --> 00:53:19,867 but I haven't seen one before. 905 00:53:20,802 --> 00:53:22,103 Until now. 906 00:53:22,670 --> 00:53:24,572 And I can say without a doubt, 907 00:53:24,672 --> 00:53:27,709 there was a ghost at the foot of my bed. 908 00:53:31,344 --> 00:53:32,880 What did it look like? 909 00:53:33,715 --> 00:53:35,616 I couldn't say. 910 00:53:35,717 --> 00:53:39,219 She was like six different things at once. 911 00:53:39,554 --> 00:53:40,688 "She"? 912 00:53:40,788 --> 00:53:43,191 Yes. She was a she. 913 00:53:44,592 --> 00:53:46,194 I think. 914 00:53:46,293 --> 00:53:49,864 Or maybe the idea of a "she." 915 00:53:51,364 --> 00:53:52,633 And she was red. 916 00:53:54,001 --> 00:53:55,903 Not red like a color. 917 00:53:56,704 --> 00:53:57,839 More like... 918 00:53:59,073 --> 00:54:00,842 red like a feeling. 919 00:54:09,617 --> 00:54:14,789 Oh, and she was the most beautiful thing. 920 00:54:15,957 --> 00:54:17,992 I couldn't let her stay. 921 00:54:21,294 --> 00:54:23,564 So I opened the door, 922 00:54:24,866 --> 00:54:26,734 and I watched her go, 923 00:54:29,003 --> 00:54:30,470 down the hallway, 924 00:54:31,973 --> 00:54:33,741 out the house, 925 00:54:34,976 --> 00:54:37,245 into the woods, 926 00:54:37,344 --> 00:54:39,914 a smudge of red in the dark. 927 00:54:42,750 --> 00:54:46,554 Oh, and with her goes the pain in my mouth, 928 00:54:48,388 --> 00:54:50,558 the knot in my stomach, 929 00:54:52,093 --> 00:54:54,562 and the hole in my heart. 930 00:54:58,065 --> 00:55:01,936 And after that I stopped listening to your music. 931 00:55:04,038 --> 00:55:05,907 I stopped thinking about you. 932 00:55:07,108 --> 00:55:08,810 I stopped dreaming about you. 933 00:55:10,410 --> 00:55:14,081 And everything's been better ever since. 934 00:55:17,317 --> 00:55:18,619 Where did she go? 935 00:55:19,787 --> 00:55:20,822 Oh. 936 00:55:21,989 --> 00:55:23,658 Oh, I don't know. 937 00:55:24,292 --> 00:55:25,392 Where do ghosts go 938 00:55:25,492 --> 00:55:27,327 when you don't need 'em anymore? 939 00:55:28,062 --> 00:55:29,130 That's where. 940 00:55:29,230 --> 00:55:32,300 But are you saying that this is just another metaphor? 941 00:55:32,399 --> 00:55:34,367 Did you really see something? 942 00:55:34,467 --> 00:55:37,271 Look, I'm not saying that I saw the spirit 943 00:55:37,370 --> 00:55:39,439 of some recently deceased individual 944 00:55:39,540 --> 00:55:43,878 or that my house is haunted by an ancestor. 945 00:55:43,978 --> 00:55:45,046 If someone else... 946 00:55:45,146 --> 00:55:48,950 If Hilda, say, had been there, would she have seen it? 947 00:55:49,050 --> 00:55:50,417 Probably not. 948 00:55:51,418 --> 00:55:52,720 But I did. 949 00:55:53,955 --> 00:55:56,257 Whatever neurons in my head differentiate 950 00:55:56,356 --> 00:55:58,092 between imagination and perception 951 00:55:58,192 --> 00:56:00,127 tell me that I did. 952 00:56:00,795 --> 00:56:03,965 And if you were to ask me why I did, 953 00:56:04,866 --> 00:56:08,536 I would say because I needed to. 954 00:56:09,337 --> 00:56:11,205 Perhaps I manifested her. 955 00:56:11,305 --> 00:56:14,976 Perhaps she was my subconscious, 956 00:56:15,076 --> 00:56:15,877 sending me a message 957 00:56:15,977 --> 00:56:18,378 in the only way it knew I would listen. 958 00:56:20,348 --> 00:56:22,382 Perhaps she was a ghost. 959 00:56:23,084 --> 00:56:24,085 Yeah. 960 00:56:27,387 --> 00:56:29,724 But she was my ghost. 961 00:56:31,391 --> 00:56:32,793 Except... 962 00:56:33,527 --> 00:56:35,563 I think I saw her too. 963 00:56:37,098 --> 00:56:38,299 You saw what? 964 00:56:38,398 --> 00:56:39,533 Your ghost. 965 00:56:41,335 --> 00:56:43,170 -I saw her. -I was being serious. 966 00:56:43,271 --> 00:56:44,672 So am I. 967 00:56:44,772 --> 00:56:46,841 So what? 968 00:56:46,941 --> 00:56:50,044 You can't even let me have my own ghost story? 969 00:56:50,144 --> 00:56:51,913 No. No, it is yours. 970 00:56:52,013 --> 00:56:55,082 It is, but I think I might be a part of it. 971 00:56:55,182 --> 00:56:57,351 You're making me feel 972 00:56:57,450 --> 00:56:59,620 -very foolish. -I promise I don't mean to. 973 00:56:59,720 --> 00:57:01,889 I saw what you saw. 974 00:57:01,989 --> 00:57:07,929 I saw a ghost or a spirit and she was red. 975 00:57:08,329 --> 00:57:10,430 And when was this? 976 00:57:10,531 --> 00:57:12,833 -The first time was... -Ooh. "The first time"? 977 00:57:15,303 --> 00:57:17,071 The first time was in Dublin. 978 00:57:19,040 --> 00:57:20,641 96th stop of the tour. 979 00:57:21,342 --> 00:57:23,644 I was so worn out, but... 980 00:57:26,681 --> 00:57:28,481 it was my birthday. 981 00:57:30,885 --> 00:57:33,521 And I wanted to do something special. 982 00:57:40,493 --> 00:57:42,430 I love you, Dublin! 983 00:57:42,530 --> 00:57:43,831 Goodnight! 984 00:58:08,923 --> 00:58:10,992 - Thank you. - Here, here, here. 985 00:58:11,092 --> 00:58:12,526 I've got it. I've got it. I've got it. 986 00:58:12,626 --> 00:58:13,928 Careful. 987 00:58:16,364 --> 00:58:17,999 How does this keep happening? 988 00:58:19,433 --> 00:58:20,534 Oh, shit. Um, 989 00:58:20,634 --> 00:58:22,136 -there's blood on your... -Huh? 990 00:58:22,236 --> 00:58:22,970 - Hey, MM! - Blood... 991 00:58:23,070 --> 00:58:26,007 - Oh, um, yeah. - Look who I found! 992 00:58:26,107 --> 00:58:27,108 Ooh. 993 00:58:27,608 --> 00:58:29,377 Oh, my gosh! 994 00:58:29,477 --> 00:58:30,611 -Are you... -Hi. 995 00:58:30,711 --> 00:58:33,581 - Hi! Hi, hi, hi! - I'm Imogen. Hi. 996 00:58:33,681 --> 00:58:35,383 Happy birthday. 997 00:58:35,483 --> 00:58:37,018 Thank you. Thank you. Yes. 998 00:58:37,118 --> 00:58:38,686 -So nice to meet you. -So nice to meet you. 999 00:58:38,786 --> 00:58:41,288 Yes. Oh, my gosh. We are so excited for tonight. 1000 00:58:41,389 --> 00:58:42,456 -Me too. -Everyone says 1001 00:58:42,556 --> 00:58:43,858 you are very special. 1002 00:58:43,958 --> 00:58:45,793 -Well, that sounds very kind. -Okay. 1003 00:58:45,893 --> 00:58:47,328 She was sat in the regular seat, 1004 00:58:47,428 --> 00:58:48,529 that's why PJ couldn't find her. 1005 00:58:48,629 --> 00:58:49,730 - Ah. - How long did you say 1006 00:58:49,830 --> 00:58:51,399 - you waited in line? - Oh? 1007 00:58:51,499 --> 00:58:54,201 Only two hours. But it's fine. I had fun. 1008 00:58:54,301 --> 00:58:56,237 -I met people. -I'm so sorry. 1009 00:58:56,337 --> 00:58:57,671 Yeah. Okay. 1010 00:58:57,772 --> 00:58:59,774 -I like meeting people. -Thank you. 1011 00:58:59,874 --> 00:59:02,276 Oh, well, now you're here and you're with us. 1012 00:59:02,376 --> 00:59:03,878 Did you like the show? 1013 00:59:03,978 --> 00:59:05,746 - Oh, it was incredible. - Mmm. 1014 00:59:05,846 --> 00:59:08,182 It was like, like a religious experience 1015 00:59:08,282 --> 00:59:10,084 or like going to church, 1016 00:59:10,184 --> 00:59:12,887 - but in a good way. - Yeah. 1017 00:59:12,987 --> 00:59:15,790 And at the same time, all I could think is 1018 00:59:15,890 --> 00:59:17,958 when you have that many people... 1019 00:59:18,059 --> 00:59:20,027 -Yeah. -How many people were there? 1020 00:59:20,127 --> 00:59:22,897 Uh, 18,210. 1021 00:59:22,997 --> 00:59:25,032 There were even more in New York. 1022 00:59:25,132 --> 00:59:27,536 And they're all there, 1023 00:59:27,635 --> 00:59:30,805 all at once, putting out all that energy, 1024 00:59:30,905 --> 00:59:32,840 all of those ups and downs, 1025 00:59:32,940 --> 00:59:39,514 and all of it is laser-focused right at you. 1026 00:59:39,613 --> 00:59:42,116 Mmm. It's intense. 1027 00:59:42,216 --> 00:59:43,617 How do you handle that? 1028 00:59:44,385 --> 00:59:46,253 You don't. 1029 00:59:46,353 --> 00:59:48,289 Uh, I mean, you do. 1030 00:59:48,389 --> 00:59:49,457 But you just... 1031 00:59:49,558 --> 00:59:50,891 You sort of, um, 1032 00:59:51,459 --> 00:59:52,626 take it 1033 00:59:53,194 --> 00:59:54,228 and... 1034 01:00:00,701 --> 01:00:02,236 Yes, but... 1035 01:00:03,505 --> 01:00:05,372 what does it do to you? 1036 01:00:08,742 --> 01:00:10,711 It's like the same, same thing 1037 01:00:10,811 --> 01:00:13,781 over and over again in circles. 1038 01:00:13,881 --> 01:00:14,982 Sounds like shit. 1039 01:00:15,082 --> 01:00:17,017 Don't ask why he chose me, but he did. 1040 01:00:17,118 --> 01:00:19,653 But you have seen ghosts here before, right? 1041 01:00:19,753 --> 01:00:21,222 Ah, yes. 1042 01:00:21,322 --> 01:00:22,790 There are spirits here 1043 01:00:22,890 --> 01:00:24,692 and I've met most of them. 1044 01:00:24,792 --> 01:00:27,428 But the walls here are very thin. 1045 01:00:27,529 --> 01:00:29,697 You never know who might come knocking. 1046 01:00:29,797 --> 01:00:32,700 Now, can somebody get the lights? 1047 01:00:32,800 --> 01:00:33,968 Do ghosts really need the dark 1048 01:00:34,068 --> 01:00:36,403 or is it just to make it spookier? 1049 01:00:36,505 --> 01:00:38,239 Oh, it's not for them. 1050 01:00:38,339 --> 01:00:40,007 They're already here. 1051 01:00:40,107 --> 01:00:42,409 We're the ones that are opening up to them. 1052 01:00:57,958 --> 01:00:59,126 What does that mean? 1053 01:00:59,226 --> 01:01:00,261 What does that mean? 1054 01:01:00,361 --> 01:01:01,228 It means 1055 01:01:01,328 --> 01:01:03,364 -reveal yourselves. -Reveal yourselves. 1056 01:01:03,464 --> 01:01:05,666 - We mean you no harm. - We mean you no harm. 1057 01:01:06,635 --> 01:01:08,269 Can I say it too? 1058 01:01:08,369 --> 01:01:10,639 Yeah, sure. 1059 01:01:10,738 --> 01:01:12,706 How does it go again? 1060 01:01:54,982 --> 01:01:56,518 No. No. 1061 01:01:56,618 --> 01:01:57,785 Sorry, sorry. That was me. 1062 01:01:57,885 --> 01:01:59,453 -Fuck you. -Oh, my God. 1063 01:01:59,554 --> 01:02:01,422 I slipped. I slipped. I'm sorry. 1064 01:02:01,523 --> 01:02:02,389 I hate this. 1065 01:02:02,489 --> 01:02:04,792 I hate everything about this, Emily. Really? 1066 01:02:04,892 --> 01:02:06,760 Shh. 1067 01:02:07,861 --> 01:02:09,463 Wait, wait, wait. 1068 01:02:10,532 --> 01:02:11,498 What is it? 1069 01:02:14,468 --> 01:02:15,736 Is someone here? 1070 01:02:16,605 --> 01:02:17,838 Do you feel it? 1071 01:02:17,938 --> 01:02:19,373 I feel nothing. 1072 01:02:20,140 --> 01:02:21,809 What are we supposed to feel? 1073 01:02:22,977 --> 01:02:26,615 She's not from here. 1074 01:02:26,715 --> 01:02:27,881 "She"? 1075 01:02:28,782 --> 01:02:31,785 She's from somewhere... 1076 01:02:33,487 --> 01:02:34,955 far away. 1077 01:02:39,694 --> 01:02:43,097 But she's very nearly here. 1078 01:02:43,197 --> 01:02:45,199 Who are we talking about now? 1079 01:02:46,467 --> 01:02:47,468 Who is she? 1080 01:02:49,738 --> 01:02:50,938 Do you know? 1081 01:02:52,574 --> 01:02:53,541 No. 1082 01:02:58,546 --> 01:02:59,514 No. 1083 01:03:05,687 --> 01:03:06,987 - No. - No. 1084 01:03:07,087 --> 01:03:08,255 Okay, we should... Maybe this is just... 1085 01:03:08,355 --> 01:03:10,558 -It's not real. -She's just fucking with us. 1086 01:03:10,659 --> 01:03:13,093 No, she isn't. 1087 01:03:15,095 --> 01:03:17,097 Imogen... 1088 01:03:18,832 --> 01:03:20,934 What do you want to tell us? 1089 01:03:21,035 --> 01:03:24,338 Do you have a message? Or... 1090 01:03:25,239 --> 01:03:27,941 What do you want us to know? 1091 01:03:30,411 --> 01:03:32,079 We're here for you. 1092 01:03:38,285 --> 01:03:39,554 I'm here for you. 1093 01:03:44,258 --> 01:03:46,327 I've been... 1094 01:03:47,294 --> 01:03:48,362 looking... 1095 01:03:49,396 --> 01:03:50,497 for you, 1096 01:03:51,566 --> 01:03:54,835 my dearest one. 1097 01:03:56,837 --> 01:04:01,108 I've come so far. 1098 01:04:04,445 --> 01:04:06,113 I've traveled 1099 01:04:06,815 --> 01:04:11,885 across land and sea. 1100 01:04:30,605 --> 01:04:33,941 - My feet are bleeding. - ...bleeding. 1101 01:04:36,977 --> 01:04:38,680 My bones... 1102 01:04:39,179 --> 01:04:41,081 - Ache. - ...ache. 1103 01:04:41,816 --> 01:04:43,016 My head... 1104 01:04:43,117 --> 01:04:45,252 My head is heavy. 1105 01:04:51,225 --> 01:04:52,993 - See... - See... 1106 01:04:53,093 --> 01:04:54,562 in my hair... 1107 01:04:56,363 --> 01:04:59,967 - a braid made of woe. - A braid made of woe. 1108 01:05:01,870 --> 01:05:04,672 See all your sorrows 1109 01:05:06,106 --> 01:05:09,811 - hang over my shoulders. - Hang over my shoulders. 1110 01:05:09,910 --> 01:05:12,479 -And all of their kin... -And all of their kin... 1111 01:05:12,580 --> 01:05:16,016 -...bite at my heels. -...bite at my heels. 1112 01:05:35,169 --> 01:05:37,371 But soon... 1113 01:05:39,541 --> 01:05:43,277 soon my journey will see me through. 1114 01:05:44,945 --> 01:05:47,549 And I will rest 1115 01:05:48,215 --> 01:05:52,520 on a bed spun of gold. 1116 01:06:02,396 --> 01:06:03,731 For you... 1117 01:06:05,265 --> 01:06:08,703 are finally at hand. 1118 01:06:15,075 --> 01:06:16,511 Listen. 1119 01:06:19,112 --> 01:06:22,282 Do you hear me? 1120 01:06:25,787 --> 01:06:27,354 Do you... 1121 01:06:29,456 --> 01:06:31,458 feel me? 1122 01:06:34,929 --> 01:06:36,330 Now... 1123 01:06:38,131 --> 01:06:42,704 you must open the door 1124 01:06:44,639 --> 01:06:50,712 and let my love... 1125 01:06:53,480 --> 01:06:54,782 in. 1126 01:07:00,788 --> 01:07:03,123 She stabbed you. 1127 01:07:04,458 --> 01:07:05,259 No. 1128 01:07:10,030 --> 01:07:11,498 She opened a door. 1129 01:07:18,873 --> 01:07:21,174 Everything was a blur after that. 1130 01:07:21,809 --> 01:07:23,545 They bandaged me up. 1131 01:07:25,379 --> 01:07:27,447 Security did their rounds, 1132 01:07:28,415 --> 01:07:31,184 and eventually everyone else went to bed. 1133 01:07:35,790 --> 01:07:38,058 I wanted to go to sleep too. 1134 01:07:38,726 --> 01:07:39,694 I wanted to. 1135 01:07:41,696 --> 01:07:43,531 I wanted to so badly. 1136 01:07:48,268 --> 01:07:49,637 But I couldn't. 1137 01:07:53,140 --> 01:07:55,677 Those words kept running through my mind. 1138 01:07:58,713 --> 01:08:00,748 She was very nearly here. 1139 01:08:03,685 --> 01:08:05,753 She was very nearly here. 1140 01:08:06,955 --> 01:08:09,289 She was very nearly here. 1141 01:08:09,389 --> 01:08:11,325 She was very nearly here. 1142 01:08:11,425 --> 01:08:14,963 She was very nearly here. 1143 01:08:15,063 --> 01:08:16,664 And then she was... 1144 01:09:43,250 --> 01:09:44,451 So I run. 1145 01:10:14,982 --> 01:10:16,918 Someone asks me if I want to stop, 1146 01:10:17,018 --> 01:10:18,418 but I say no. 1147 01:10:20,021 --> 01:10:21,122 Hmm? 1148 01:10:21,221 --> 01:10:22,590 I keep going. 1149 01:10:24,859 --> 01:10:27,161 I sing my songs. 1150 01:10:27,260 --> 01:10:30,098 This is what I do. This is what I do. 1151 01:10:30,198 --> 01:10:32,734 This is what I do. This is what I do. 1152 01:10:32,834 --> 01:10:34,102 This is what I do. 1153 01:10:39,540 --> 01:10:41,876 This is what I do. This is what I do. 1154 01:10:41,976 --> 01:10:45,345 This is what I do. This is what I do. This is... 1155 01:14:24,665 --> 01:14:29,136 ♪ You got that cold feeling ♪ 1156 01:14:29,236 --> 01:14:34,608 ♪ Your sacred heart's blue ♪ 1157 01:14:34,709 --> 01:14:40,681 ♪ Do you know what to pray for anymore? ♪ 1158 01:14:40,781 --> 01:14:47,588 ♪ Or if you can make it through? ♪ 1159 01:14:47,688 --> 01:14:51,459 ♪ But me ♪ 1160 01:14:51,559 --> 01:14:57,064 ♪ I was raised up to believe ♪ 1161 01:14:57,164 --> 01:15:04,572 ♪ You could fill a cathedral with what I thought was true ♪ 1162 01:15:04,672 --> 01:15:07,408 ♪ Those churches all came crashing down ♪ 1163 01:15:07,508 --> 01:15:10,644 ♪ Those churches all came crashing down ♪ 1164 01:15:10,745 --> 01:15:13,147 ♪ As they do ♪ 1165 01:15:13,247 --> 01:15:17,018 ♪ So now ♪ 1166 01:15:22,223 --> 01:15:26,560 ♪ I believe in you ♪ 1167 01:15:27,895 --> 01:15:30,798 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1168 01:15:30,898 --> 01:15:33,634 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1169 01:15:33,734 --> 01:15:36,437 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1170 01:15:36,537 --> 01:15:37,838 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1171 01:15:37,938 --> 01:15:40,041 ♪ Did you ever feel the sign of your mind ♪ 1172 01:15:40,141 --> 01:15:41,542 ♪ Could match the prayer of your lips ♪ 1173 01:15:41,642 --> 01:15:43,444 ♪ Lord forgive our wasted time ♪ 1174 01:15:43,544 --> 01:15:44,779 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1175 01:15:44,879 --> 01:15:45,746 ♪ Did you ever feel the sway of my hips ♪ 1176 01:15:45,846 --> 01:15:46,947 ♪ The press of my fingertips ♪ 1177 01:15:47,048 --> 01:15:48,916 ♪ No, I ain't gonna win this fight ♪ 1178 01:15:49,016 --> 01:15:50,484 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1179 01:15:50,584 --> 01:15:52,586 ♪ Babe, I spent my whole life Praying for my whole life ♪ 1180 01:15:52,686 --> 01:15:55,389 ♪ I've never felt like this before ♪ 1181 01:15:55,489 --> 01:15:58,059 ♪ Babe, I spent my whole life Praying for my whole life ♪ 1182 01:15:58,159 --> 01:16:01,762 ♪ I've never knelt like this before ♪ 1183 01:16:01,862 --> 01:16:04,565 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1184 01:16:04,665 --> 01:16:07,501 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1185 01:16:07,601 --> 01:16:10,404 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1186 01:16:10,504 --> 01:16:11,739 ♪ Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1187 01:16:11,839 --> 01:16:13,841 ♪ So, come on, baby Put your spirit in me ♪ 1188 01:16:13,941 --> 01:16:17,278 ♪ Tongue the fire in me Rip me open, let me breathe ♪ 1189 01:16:17,378 --> 01:16:19,548 ♪ Come on, baby Put that heart into mine ♪ 1190 01:16:19,647 --> 01:16:20,948 ♪ Press your knees into mine ♪ 1191 01:16:21,048 --> 01:16:27,354 ♪ Press my needs into the ground ♪ 1192 01:16:32,993 --> 01:16:35,830 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1193 01:16:35,930 --> 01:16:38,732 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1194 01:16:38,833 --> 01:16:41,268 ♪ Did you ever feel you're holy? ♪ 1195 01:16:41,368 --> 01:16:44,872 ♪ Did you ever feel it? Did you ever feel it? ♪ 1196 01:16:48,809 --> 01:16:55,082 ♪ My sacred heart's been feelin' blue ♪ 1197 01:16:55,182 --> 01:16:58,752 ♪ Should I have faith in anything? ♪ 1198 01:17:00,020 --> 01:17:05,726 ♪ Oh, I'll cut myself to make some room ♪ 1199 01:17:05,826 --> 01:17:11,165 ♪ And let out all that wasn't you ♪ 1200 01:17:11,265 --> 01:17:13,868 I've watched the videos of that night 1201 01:17:15,436 --> 01:17:16,770 a hundred times. 1202 01:17:18,172 --> 01:17:20,374 Thousands of cameras all see the same thing. 1203 01:17:23,444 --> 01:17:25,646 I know she wasn't really there. 1204 01:17:29,049 --> 01:17:31,652 But I also know what I saw. 1205 01:17:32,521 --> 01:17:36,290 And I think somehow... 1206 01:17:38,392 --> 01:17:39,994 all those things are true. 1207 01:18:40,555 --> 01:18:42,223 Where is she now? 1208 01:18:56,737 --> 01:18:58,339 And I can't sleep. 1209 01:18:59,674 --> 01:19:01,041 I can't heal. 1210 01:19:06,247 --> 01:19:07,248 I'm on... 1211 01:19:09,651 --> 01:19:11,485 who knows how many pills. 1212 01:19:16,490 --> 01:19:17,958 And every minute 1213 01:19:18,993 --> 01:19:20,494 of every day... 1214 01:19:23,632 --> 01:19:25,466 I feel her... 1215 01:19:26,635 --> 01:19:28,235 inside me. 1216 01:19:32,507 --> 01:19:35,109 She's always there, like... 1217 01:19:37,778 --> 01:19:39,813 a cloud or... 1218 01:19:41,115 --> 01:19:42,316 a stone. 1219 01:19:44,218 --> 01:19:46,554 And I don't know. I think, like... 1220 01:19:50,224 --> 01:19:52,459 maybe I'm supposed to keep her there. 1221 01:19:54,596 --> 01:19:55,796 Like... 1222 01:19:57,865 --> 01:19:59,768 Like, that's what I have to do. 1223 01:19:59,867 --> 01:20:01,502 That's my job now. 1224 01:20:11,780 --> 01:20:14,481 But I don't know how much longer I can do it. 1225 01:20:35,002 --> 01:20:36,303 Do you believe me? 1226 01:20:45,212 --> 01:20:47,915 How far is it from London to Dublin? 1227 01:20:51,318 --> 01:20:53,521 Five, six hundred kilometers? 1228 01:20:55,255 --> 01:20:57,458 How long would it take to walk that far... 1229 01:20:59,728 --> 01:21:00,729 for a person? 1230 01:21:00,829 --> 01:21:02,363 You'd have to cross the sea. 1231 01:21:02,463 --> 01:21:04,465 I suppose the sea would slow you down. 1232 01:21:08,435 --> 01:21:10,204 And how long was it 1233 01:21:10,304 --> 01:21:12,039 from the time you played in Hyde Park 1234 01:21:12,139 --> 01:21:14,041 until your 97th show? 1235 01:21:16,443 --> 01:21:17,444 Four years? 1236 01:21:23,585 --> 01:21:24,586 Hmm? 1237 01:21:35,462 --> 01:21:38,465 I can't read a single one of these. 1238 01:21:39,667 --> 01:21:42,236 Mmm-mmm. None of them seem right. 1239 01:21:44,204 --> 01:21:45,973 Mmm. 1240 01:21:54,883 --> 01:21:56,316 Let's double-check. 1241 01:22:16,937 --> 01:22:19,139 How long have we known each other? 1242 01:22:23,143 --> 01:22:24,579 Twenty-four... 1243 01:22:25,547 --> 01:22:27,214 Twenty-five years? 1244 01:22:30,117 --> 01:22:32,219 That number seems so small... 1245 01:22:33,822 --> 01:22:35,189 when you say it. 1246 01:22:38,325 --> 01:22:39,359 So... 1247 01:22:41,462 --> 01:22:44,331 let's say there is something inside of you. 1248 01:22:44,933 --> 01:22:47,201 It came from somewhere 1249 01:22:47,301 --> 01:22:51,071 and traveled across oceans to find you. 1250 01:22:52,039 --> 01:22:53,340 And maybe... 1251 01:22:53,974 --> 01:22:55,643 that somewhere... 1252 01:22:57,377 --> 01:22:58,546 was me. 1253 01:23:08,957 --> 01:23:10,525 But if that's true, 1254 01:23:13,160 --> 01:23:15,496 it also stands to reason... 1255 01:23:18,933 --> 01:23:20,501 that all these... 1256 01:23:21,836 --> 01:23:24,371 coming and goings... 1257 01:23:25,874 --> 01:23:28,408 are just how our little minds 1258 01:23:29,644 --> 01:23:33,180 process the ebb and flow 1259 01:23:34,081 --> 01:23:37,017 of something that's always been there. 1260 01:23:46,326 --> 01:23:47,294 Maybe... 1261 01:23:50,030 --> 01:23:51,465 we came... 1262 01:23:53,100 --> 01:23:54,569 to it. 1263 01:23:56,036 --> 01:23:57,437 And you think... 1264 01:23:58,806 --> 01:24:01,275 you need to hold it close... 1265 01:24:03,076 --> 01:24:05,245 and keep it inside. 1266 01:24:07,447 --> 01:24:08,248 But not me. 1267 01:24:13,955 --> 01:24:15,155 I want her out. 1268 01:24:18,526 --> 01:24:20,360 So let's stop. 1269 01:24:27,835 --> 01:24:30,605 Let's cast her out. 1270 01:24:36,911 --> 01:24:38,078 How? 1271 01:24:38,813 --> 01:24:40,347 It can't be that hard. 1272 01:24:40,782 --> 01:24:42,115 We've seen enough films. 1273 01:24:50,223 --> 01:24:52,192 No. I don't like this. 1274 01:24:52,292 --> 01:24:54,862 There is nothing to be scared of. 1275 01:24:54,963 --> 01:24:56,631 We'll stop if it gets dangerous. 1276 01:25:00,835 --> 01:25:02,670 I just... 1277 01:25:03,972 --> 01:25:05,138 I just wanna... 1278 01:25:05,974 --> 01:25:07,008 I just wanna work on my dress. 1279 01:25:07,107 --> 01:25:08,308 That's what I came here for. 1280 01:25:08,408 --> 01:25:11,646 This is working on the dress. 1281 01:25:11,746 --> 01:25:14,749 Because you want the dress to look like you, 1282 01:25:14,849 --> 01:25:17,417 and this is a part of who you are right now. 1283 01:25:18,686 --> 01:25:19,654 This spirit, 1284 01:25:20,922 --> 01:25:22,557 this woman in red, 1285 01:25:22,657 --> 01:25:26,594 she's who you wrote your song about, isn't she? 1286 01:25:27,929 --> 01:25:29,564 -Yes. -So... 1287 01:25:31,298 --> 01:25:33,835 let's make the dress about her, too. 1288 01:25:36,203 --> 01:25:37,371 Let's see... 1289 01:25:38,840 --> 01:25:40,407 what she wants to tell us. 1290 01:25:41,743 --> 01:25:44,378 Now, do we need three of us? Should I call Hilda? 1291 01:25:44,478 --> 01:25:45,680 -No. -No, no, you're right. 1292 01:25:45,780 --> 01:25:48,816 The two of us must be the ones to do it. 1293 01:25:49,282 --> 01:25:50,618 I don't want to. 1294 01:25:52,486 --> 01:25:55,155 You said I need to open my heart. 1295 01:25:55,623 --> 01:25:56,658 So here I am, 1296 01:25:58,026 --> 01:25:59,226 opening it 1297 01:25:59,894 --> 01:26:01,228 as far as I can. 1298 01:26:02,162 --> 01:26:03,998 And I say to you, my friend... 1299 01:26:05,967 --> 01:26:07,902 ...we are going to do this. 1300 01:26:37,197 --> 01:26:38,599 What's all that? 1301 01:26:38,966 --> 01:26:41,301 Offerings, totems. 1302 01:26:42,036 --> 01:26:43,971 Things to focus our energy. 1303 01:26:45,405 --> 01:26:47,575 There is nothing magical about any one object 1304 01:26:47,675 --> 01:26:49,376 other than what we bring to it. 1305 01:26:50,243 --> 01:26:51,746 In fact, there is no true meaning 1306 01:26:51,846 --> 01:26:54,749 to any object at all without our prescription. 1307 01:26:55,516 --> 01:26:56,517 So... 1308 01:26:58,218 --> 01:27:00,454 these shears are not shears. 1309 01:27:01,354 --> 01:27:03,024 They're a key 1310 01:27:03,124 --> 01:27:05,693 to open whatever doors we may come to. 1311 01:27:07,528 --> 01:27:10,230 And this, this is a chain 1312 01:27:11,165 --> 01:27:13,366 to bind us to whomever we meet. 1313 01:27:15,670 --> 01:27:16,771 And this... 1314 01:27:19,006 --> 01:27:20,407 this is a sword 1315 01:27:21,909 --> 01:27:22,877 for protection. 1316 01:27:26,013 --> 01:27:26,981 Hmm. 1317 01:27:45,233 --> 01:27:46,768 And this... 1318 01:27:48,102 --> 01:27:49,469 is the oil... 1319 01:27:51,939 --> 01:27:53,273 with which... 1320 01:27:55,375 --> 01:27:57,645 we will anoint ourselves... 1321 01:27:58,746 --> 01:27:59,947 as we await... 1322 01:28:01,215 --> 01:28:02,517 the day... 1323 01:28:03,985 --> 01:28:05,653 of our Pentecost. 1324 01:28:38,619 --> 01:28:40,487 Why are you doing this? 1325 01:28:41,622 --> 01:28:43,423 I'm not doing anything. 1326 01:28:44,959 --> 01:28:46,761 We are doing this. 1327 01:28:47,962 --> 01:28:49,096 Because if we don't, 1328 01:28:50,330 --> 01:28:51,666 we'll regret it forever. 1329 01:28:53,935 --> 01:28:56,871 When are you and I ever gonna be in the same room again 1330 01:28:56,971 --> 01:28:58,773 after all this is done? 1331 01:29:01,108 --> 01:29:02,710 You'll take your dress 1332 01:29:03,311 --> 01:29:04,779 and you'll go away, 1333 01:29:05,847 --> 01:29:07,014 and I'll be here, 1334 01:29:07,982 --> 01:29:09,817 haunting my own house, 1335 01:29:12,086 --> 01:29:13,521 all alone. 1336 01:29:15,323 --> 01:29:18,391 We have to do this now while we can. 1337 01:29:20,061 --> 01:29:21,394 Now... 1338 01:29:21,494 --> 01:29:23,631 ...what was that spell you chanted? 1339 01:29:40,648 --> 01:29:42,183 Oh, a rose is a rose is a rose. 1340 01:29:42,283 --> 01:29:43,651 Just give me your hands. 1341 01:29:45,319 --> 01:29:46,254 Yes. 1342 01:29:49,489 --> 01:29:50,825 Close your eyes 1343 01:29:51,692 --> 01:29:53,393 and breathe with me. 1344 01:29:57,899 --> 01:29:58,966 And out. 1345 01:30:02,069 --> 01:30:03,403 Breathe. 1346 01:30:07,074 --> 01:30:08,576 Breathe. 1347 01:30:12,947 --> 01:30:14,081 Breathe. 1348 01:30:18,451 --> 01:30:19,720 Breathe. 1349 01:30:52,253 --> 01:30:53,453 Spirit... 1350 01:30:55,389 --> 01:30:57,024 if you're here, 1351 01:30:57,625 --> 01:30:59,627 give us something. 1352 01:31:01,262 --> 01:31:02,863 Give us a sign. 1353 01:31:08,135 --> 01:31:09,603 Spirit... 1354 01:31:12,740 --> 01:31:14,075 if you are with us... 1355 01:31:16,243 --> 01:31:17,912 know you are welcome... 1356 01:31:20,181 --> 01:31:21,816 and well-loved. 1357 01:31:23,851 --> 01:31:24,919 Spirit... 1358 01:31:26,087 --> 01:31:27,188 if you are here, 1359 01:31:29,090 --> 01:31:32,593 know that you have a home, but it is not within us. 1360 01:31:33,461 --> 01:31:35,930 We cannot be your respite. 1361 01:31:37,331 --> 01:31:39,700 Our house is full, 1362 01:31:40,434 --> 01:31:43,871 so let my voice be your light 1363 01:31:43,971 --> 01:31:48,709 as you make your way towards the door. 1364 01:31:53,614 --> 01:31:57,818 Listen, as I name the rungs of your ladder. 1365 01:31:59,587 --> 01:32:01,222 Come On and On. 1366 01:32:02,356 --> 01:32:03,624 Mother Mary. 1367 01:32:06,227 --> 01:32:07,561 Magnificat. 1368 01:32:10,498 --> 01:32:12,566 Abashed The Devil. 1369 01:32:15,469 --> 01:32:16,837 Poor Thing. 1370 01:32:19,673 --> 01:32:21,108 Cut Me Out. 1371 01:32:23,010 --> 01:32:24,245 Exhalation. 1372 01:32:27,915 --> 01:32:31,619 The Greatest Hits from the years of Our Lord 1373 01:32:31,719 --> 01:32:35,790 2003 to 2015. 1374 01:32:37,491 --> 01:32:39,994 The Third Mary. 1375 01:32:53,040 --> 01:32:54,075 Past that... 1376 01:32:54,675 --> 01:32:55,876 is the door. 1377 01:32:57,278 --> 01:32:58,679 And it is open. 1378 01:32:59,480 --> 01:33:01,782 And the world outside... 1379 01:33:04,285 --> 01:33:05,586 is brighter... 1380 01:33:06,587 --> 01:33:09,723 and more beautiful than ever. 1381 01:33:12,026 --> 01:33:13,027 So come out. 1382 01:33:14,095 --> 01:33:15,062 Out. 1383 01:33:16,297 --> 01:33:17,298 Out. 1384 01:33:18,999 --> 01:33:19,967 Out. 1385 01:33:21,869 --> 01:33:22,803 Out. 1386 01:33:22,903 --> 01:33:24,205 Sam. 1387 01:33:24,305 --> 01:33:25,306 Out. 1388 01:33:26,508 --> 01:33:27,708 Sam. 1389 01:33:28,375 --> 01:33:29,376 Out. 1390 01:33:29,477 --> 01:33:31,145 Sam, she can't hear you. 1391 01:33:31,245 --> 01:33:33,013 She can. Just listen. 1392 01:33:33,114 --> 01:33:35,883 -Out. This is going to work. -Sam. 1393 01:33:36,450 --> 01:33:37,519 -Out. -Sam. 1394 01:33:37,618 --> 01:33:39,019 Clear your mind. 1395 01:33:39,653 --> 01:33:41,489 -She's coming. -Sam. 1396 01:33:41,590 --> 01:33:44,024 -She's coming. -You forgot something. 1397 01:33:44,125 --> 01:33:45,359 What? 1398 01:33:49,396 --> 01:33:50,998 She needs a way out. 1399 01:34:22,997 --> 01:34:23,998 Now what? 1400 01:34:25,266 --> 01:34:26,800 I don't know. 1401 01:34:27,234 --> 01:34:28,769 Maybe she needs more. 1402 01:34:37,044 --> 01:34:38,112 A key... 1403 01:34:39,614 --> 01:34:41,048 to open the door. 1404 01:37:57,478 --> 01:37:58,979 Jesus fucking Christ. 1405 01:39:44,619 --> 01:39:45,620 Hey. 1406 01:39:46,987 --> 01:39:48,355 Get some rest, huh? 1407 01:39:50,357 --> 01:39:51,926 Get a nice bit of sleep 1408 01:39:52,025 --> 01:39:54,228 and when you wake up, 1409 01:39:54,328 --> 01:39:56,497 I might just have something to show you. 1410 01:39:57,097 --> 01:39:58,432 You will. 1411 01:39:59,968 --> 01:40:01,769 And it'll be perfect. 1412 01:40:40,775 --> 01:40:41,776 What's the time? 1413 01:40:42,610 --> 01:40:43,745 Almost 12:00. 1414 01:40:45,780 --> 01:40:47,080 Tell me what's happening. 1415 01:40:48,583 --> 01:40:49,617 Well... 1416 01:40:50,718 --> 01:40:52,687 right about now, 1417 01:40:52,787 --> 01:40:56,423 Miel Contrera is probably finishing Paper Moon. 1418 01:41:00,360 --> 01:41:02,396 She's waving goodnight to the audience. 1419 01:41:04,298 --> 01:41:06,166 - What time is it? - Darkness is falling. 1420 01:41:06,266 --> 01:41:08,870 All right, it's six minutes to midnight, everyone. 1421 01:41:15,309 --> 01:41:16,811 But then there's a light. 1422 01:41:19,112 --> 01:41:21,015 Not on the stage, but... 1423 01:41:21,114 --> 01:41:22,784 from the back of the theater. 1424 01:41:23,952 --> 01:41:25,520 Everyone turns to look. 1425 01:41:27,555 --> 01:41:28,590 There she is. 1426 01:41:30,223 --> 01:41:31,458 Mother Mary. 1427 01:41:32,927 --> 01:41:34,394 Shining bright. 1428 01:41:36,030 --> 01:41:37,665 She's coming down the aisle. 1429 01:41:39,466 --> 01:41:43,103 She's coming from far beyond the aisle. 1430 01:41:44,371 --> 01:41:46,139 From across the ocean. 1431 01:41:47,407 --> 01:41:48,743 From another world. 1432 01:41:50,243 --> 01:41:51,713 Now she's taking the stage. 1433 01:41:53,347 --> 01:41:55,349 The light's in her eyes, it's too bright. 1434 01:41:57,317 --> 01:41:59,319 She looks to the audience and... 1435 01:42:00,588 --> 01:42:01,990 she says, 1436 01:42:02,090 --> 01:42:05,827 "I've missed you all so much. It's so good to be back." 1437 01:42:08,295 --> 01:42:11,566 But what she really wants to say is... 1438 01:42:14,201 --> 01:42:16,571 What she really means to say is... 1439 01:42:18,372 --> 01:42:20,173 What she's saying is... 1440 01:42:21,909 --> 01:42:23,711 "This song isn't for you. 1441 01:42:34,221 --> 01:42:35,556 "It's for you." 1442 01:42:53,675 --> 01:42:56,309 -Hey, what the fuck? -Wait, wait, wait, wait. 1443 01:42:56,410 --> 01:42:57,779 What is she doing? 1444 01:43:12,960 --> 01:43:14,696 And then she closes her eyes, 1445 01:43:16,363 --> 01:43:18,766 at five minutes to midnight. 1446 01:43:20,802 --> 01:43:22,469 She opens her mouth. 1447 01:43:22,570 --> 01:43:24,872 -She's gonna sing the song. -She's gonna sing her song. 1448 01:43:24,972 --> 01:43:26,708 She's gonna sing her song. 1449 01:43:26,808 --> 01:43:28,341 And she sings your song. 1450 01:43:33,447 --> 01:43:37,652 And it's the greatest song in the history of songs. 1451 01:44:08,783 --> 01:44:10,051 Hey, Sam? 1452 01:44:10,151 --> 01:44:11,519 Yes? 1453 01:44:14,321 --> 01:44:15,523 I'm sorry. 1454 01:44:17,091 --> 01:44:18,391 I'm sorry. 1455 01:44:19,694 --> 01:44:20,762 I'm sorry. 1456 01:44:42,349 --> 01:44:44,619 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1457 01:44:45,219 --> 01:44:47,221 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1458 01:44:47,822 --> 01:44:50,758 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1459 01:44:50,858 --> 01:44:53,194 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1460 01:44:53,761 --> 01:44:56,964 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1461 01:44:57,064 --> 01:44:59,734 ♪ Everybody has a secret ♪ 1462 01:44:59,834 --> 01:45:02,637 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1463 01:45:02,737 --> 01:45:05,072 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1464 01:45:20,288 --> 01:45:22,623 ♪ Everybody hurts ♪ 1465 01:45:23,291 --> 01:45:26,060 ♪ Everybody crawls ♪ 1466 01:45:26,160 --> 01:45:29,297 ♪ Every heart will twist knees to the stone ♪ 1467 01:45:29,429 --> 01:45:32,233 ♪ Dark eyes will cry ♪ 1468 01:45:32,332 --> 01:45:35,203 ♪ Everybody aches ♪ 1469 01:45:35,303 --> 01:45:38,139 ♪ Everybody writhes ♪ 1470 01:45:38,239 --> 01:45:40,274 ♪ Every wrist is blessed ♪ 1471 01:45:40,373 --> 01:45:42,610 ♪ Behind a back, then tied ♪ 1472 01:45:42,710 --> 01:45:45,478 ♪ We can never stop the clocks on time ♪ 1473 01:45:45,580 --> 01:45:48,516 ♪ History is rooted deep inside us ♪ 1474 01:45:48,616 --> 01:45:51,285 ♪ Intertwined together ♪ 1475 01:45:51,384 --> 01:45:54,121 ♪ Pass the blade and make the sacrifice ♪ 1476 01:45:54,222 --> 01:45:57,024 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1477 01:45:57,124 --> 01:45:58,226 ♪ Hate the way you cut me ♪ 1478 01:45:58,326 --> 01:45:59,961 ♪ But I ain't gonna spit you out ♪ 1479 01:46:00,061 --> 01:46:02,395 ♪ I've been running but I fall to the ground ♪ 1480 01:46:02,495 --> 01:46:03,764 ♪ We go round and round ♪ 1481 01:46:03,865 --> 01:46:06,133 ♪ And round and round and round ♪ 1482 01:46:06,234 --> 01:46:09,003 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1483 01:46:09,103 --> 01:46:10,304 ♪ Kiss me like you love me ♪ 1484 01:46:10,403 --> 01:46:12,340 ♪ While you're pulling me deeper down ♪ 1485 01:46:12,439 --> 01:46:14,308 ♪ Tied together here forever we're bound ♪ 1486 01:46:14,407 --> 01:46:15,643 ♪ We go round ♪ 1487 01:46:15,743 --> 01:46:18,679 ♪ And round and round and round and round ♪ 1488 01:46:20,514 --> 01:46:23,284 ♪ Every tired cry ♪ 1489 01:46:23,383 --> 01:46:26,354 ♪ Every wild desire ♪ 1490 01:46:26,453 --> 01:46:29,257 ♪ Every moment feels so brutal ♪ 1491 01:46:29,357 --> 01:46:32,260 ♪ When it's you and I ♪ 1492 01:46:32,360 --> 01:46:35,363 ♪ My whole body aches ♪ 1493 01:46:35,462 --> 01:46:38,132 ♪ Every single time ♪ 1494 01:46:38,232 --> 01:46:42,770 ♪ Every broken dance we do brings me to life ♪ 1495 01:46:42,870 --> 01:46:45,673 ♪ We can never stop the clocks on time ♪ 1496 01:46:45,773 --> 01:46:48,976 ♪ History is rooted deep inside us ♪ 1497 01:46:49,076 --> 01:46:51,045 ♪ Intertwined together ♪ 1498 01:46:51,145 --> 01:46:54,682 ♪ Pass the blade and make the sacrifice ♪ 1499 01:46:54,782 --> 01:46:57,118 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1500 01:46:57,218 --> 01:46:58,286 ♪ Hate the way you cut me ♪ 1501 01:46:58,386 --> 01:47:00,487 ♪ But I ain't gonna spit you out ♪ 1502 01:47:00,588 --> 01:47:02,590 ♪ I've been running but I fall to the ground ♪ 1503 01:47:02,690 --> 01:47:03,925 ♪ We go round and round ♪ 1504 01:47:04,025 --> 01:47:06,426 ♪ And round and round and round ♪ 1505 01:47:06,527 --> 01:47:08,796 ♪ Now I got the taste of blood in my mouth ♪ 1506 01:47:08,896 --> 01:47:10,097 ♪ Kiss me like you love me ♪ 1507 01:47:10,197 --> 01:47:12,400 ♪ While you're pulling me deeper down ♪ 1508 01:47:12,499 --> 01:47:14,602 ♪ Tied together here forever we're bound ♪ 1509 01:47:14,702 --> 01:47:15,903 ♪ We go round and round ♪ 1510 01:47:16,003 --> 01:47:18,739 ♪ And round and round and round ♪ 1511 01:47:18,839 --> 01:47:23,244 ♪ All of the power in me leads to the power in you ♪ 1512 01:47:23,344 --> 01:47:30,251 ♪ All of the power in me leads to the power in you ♪ 1513 01:47:30,351 --> 01:47:33,154 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1514 01:47:33,254 --> 01:47:36,123 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1515 01:47:36,223 --> 01:47:38,993 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1516 01:47:39,093 --> 01:47:42,229 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1517 01:47:42,330 --> 01:47:45,232 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1518 01:47:45,333 --> 01:47:48,169 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1519 01:47:48,269 --> 01:47:51,005 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1520 01:47:51,105 --> 01:47:54,175 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1521 01:47:54,275 --> 01:47:57,144 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1522 01:47:57,244 --> 01:48:00,181 ♪ Everybody has a secret ♪ 1523 01:48:00,281 --> 01:48:02,950 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1524 01:48:03,050 --> 01:48:06,187 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1525 01:48:06,287 --> 01:48:09,190 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1526 01:48:09,290 --> 01:48:12,193 ♪ Everybody has a true angel ♪ 1527 01:48:12,293 --> 01:48:15,296 ♪ Everybody has an obsession ♪ 1528 01:48:15,396 --> 01:48:17,531 ♪ Everybody has a dark cradle ♪ 1529 01:48:33,514 --> 01:48:35,583 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1530 01:48:35,683 --> 01:48:37,785 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1531 01:48:38,486 --> 01:48:40,821 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1532 01:48:40,921 --> 01:48:43,090 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1533 01:48:44,258 --> 01:48:46,327 ♪ Your name ♪ 1534 01:48:46,427 --> 01:48:49,130 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1535 01:48:49,230 --> 01:48:51,699 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1536 01:48:51,799 --> 01:48:53,167 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1537 01:48:53,267 --> 01:48:54,702 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1538 01:48:54,802 --> 01:48:56,704 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1539 01:48:57,304 --> 01:48:59,273 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1540 01:48:59,774 --> 01:49:01,909 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1541 01:49:05,613 --> 01:49:07,181 ♪ Your name ♪ 1542 01:49:07,848 --> 01:49:10,484 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1543 01:49:10,584 --> 01:49:12,820 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1544 01:49:15,656 --> 01:49:18,292 ♪ Don't speak ♪ 1545 01:49:18,392 --> 01:49:20,127 ♪ Look at us now ♪ 1546 01:49:21,162 --> 01:49:23,664 ♪ Beautiful sounds ♪ 1547 01:49:23,764 --> 01:49:25,599 ♪ Above the ground ♪ 1548 01:49:25,699 --> 01:49:28,769 ♪ Oh, don't speak ♪ 1549 01:49:28,869 --> 01:49:30,771 ♪ Look at us now ♪ 1550 01:49:31,872 --> 01:49:34,509 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1551 01:49:34,608 --> 01:49:36,744 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1552 01:50:42,276 --> 01:50:43,777 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1553 01:50:44,513 --> 01:50:46,247 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1554 01:50:46,914 --> 01:50:49,584 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1555 01:50:49,683 --> 01:50:51,719 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1556 01:50:52,786 --> 01:50:54,321 ♪ Your name ♪ 1557 01:50:55,022 --> 01:50:57,024 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1558 01:50:57,691 --> 01:50:59,760 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1559 01:51:00,529 --> 01:51:02,363 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1560 01:51:03,532 --> 01:51:05,065 ♪ Blue flame ♪ 1561 01:51:05,833 --> 01:51:08,369 ♪ Is burning out ♪ 1562 01:51:08,469 --> 01:51:10,572 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1563 01:51:11,071 --> 01:51:13,107 ♪ She's reaching out ♪ 1564 01:51:14,241 --> 01:51:16,477 ♪ Your name ♪ 1565 01:51:16,578 --> 01:51:18,445 ♪ Was in my mouth ♪ 1566 01:51:19,380 --> 01:51:21,715 ♪ She took it out ♪ 1567 01:51:21,815 --> 01:51:23,984 ♪ She took it out ♪