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Can I help you?
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I have
to go back a bit.
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I was 12 years old
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and on a school trip
in the hills.
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Are you making fun of me?
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What do you mean?
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You have this orgasm,
not only an orgasm,
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- but a spontaneous orgasm.
- Yes, it was an orgasm,
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though the doctor
described it as a...
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an epileptic seizure.
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And during that orgasm,
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you have this vision
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of these two women
on each side of you?
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Was she holding the veil
with two fingers like this?
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What's the matter?
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You don't even... you don't even
know who these women were, do you?
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No, but one of them did
look like the virgin Mary,
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now that you mention it.
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Well, it wasn't the virgin
Mary, I can tell you that.
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From your description,
it must've been
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valeria messalina,
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the wife of emperor claudius,
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the most notorious
nymphomaniac in history.
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And the other woman,
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the one astride the creature,
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that was no one else but
the great whore of Babylon
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riding on nimrod
in the form of a bull.
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Your story is like a...
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Blasphemous retelling
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of the transfiguration
of Jesus on the mount...
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Which is one
of the eastern church's
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holiest passages.
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It's when
the humanity of Christ
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is illuminated by the
divine light of eternity.
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If anyone else would have
told me that story,
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I would've seen it
as a blasphemous joke,
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spiced up with a biblical light
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emanating from nothing less
than a spontaneous orgasm.
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And then later, you lost
your orgasm altogether.
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Wagner. "Das rheingold",
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the descent into nibelheim."
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Was it that bad?
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Try to imagine
that in one fell swoop,
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you lost all desire to read
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and all your love and passion
for books and letters.
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I don't even
know if I can imagine that.
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This is nothing
less than zeno's paradox.
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You are achilles
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and the tortoise is the orgasm.
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Oh, come on.
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Because you were giving chase,
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you couldn't reach satisfaction.
That's the paradox.
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I'm sorry, but it seems as if you're
not taking this very seriously.
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I'm telling you about the worst
thing that's happened to me,
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that I, at that point
within seconds,
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lost all sexual sensation.
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My cunt simply went numb!
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And immediately we have to hear
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about this ridiculous
mathematical problem.
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In fact, I'm in doubt whether
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you're even listening.
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Why do you doubt that?
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Whenever I've told other men
about experiences,
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episodes in my sex life,
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it was easy to see that
they became quite excited.
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I got excited.
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Yes, about
the mathematical crap,
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not about the story.
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What kind of a person
are you actually?
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I...
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You wouldn't know.
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No, but I can guess.
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Why didn't I get that earlier?
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The fact you don't get excited
over my dirty stories
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is because you can't
relate to them.
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You've never been with a woman.
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That's quite accurate.
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Not with a man either.
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Are you sorry about that?
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Well yeah, but...
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Out of curiosity.
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Not out of lust,
as you would think.
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I consider myself... Asexual.
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Of course I... Experimented
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with masturbation when
I was a teenager, but...
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It didn't do much for me.
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So there's nothing
sexual about me.
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It's not as uncommon
as you would think.
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And of course I've...
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I've read a lot about
sexual subjects:
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"Canterbury tales,"
"decameron,"
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"thousand and one nights."
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You name it
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and I've read it with great
interest and enjoyment...
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But only literary enjoyment.
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But I... but I think
maybe it makes me
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a better listener
to your story.
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I have no
preconceived notions or...
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or preferences.
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I'm actually the best judge
you could give your story to.
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And when it comes
to deciding whether you're
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a bad human being or not, I'm...
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I have no problems with that.
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Because I don't look
at you through the glasses
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colored by sexuality
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or sexual experience.
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I'm a virgin.
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I'm innocent.
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She's looking at me.
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Yes.
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It's an icon.
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Is it Russian?
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Yes, it's...
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it's a skilled copy,
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maybe in the manner of rublev.
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Icons are usually
connected to the eastern church.
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The eastern church?
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I might become
a bit theoretical.
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You may.
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I'd like you to tell me
about your picture.
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Although the Christian church
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was split up in 1054 because
of differences in opinion
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between the eastern church
and the Western church...
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what we today call
the orthodox church
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and the Roman catholic church.
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This is a typical
eastern church icon.
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And it usually
depicts the virgin Mary
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and the infant Jesus,
and more rarely,
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for instance, the crucifixion,
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which in the Western church
was much more prevalent.
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If you generalize,
you could say that
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the Western church
is the church of suffering,
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and the eastern church is
the church of happiness.
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If you imagine a mental
journey from Rome eastward,
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you feel how you move away
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from guilt and pain
towards joy and light.
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But you say you didn't
believe in God.
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No, but the concept
of religion is interesting...
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Like the concept of sex.
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But you won't find me on my knees
with the regards to either.
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Let's call this chapter,
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um, "the eastern church
and the Western church."
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But it won't be...
it won't be a story
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about traveling east from Rome
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towards the light,
but rather the opposite.
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So in order not
to make it too sad,
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I've pepped up the name of the
chapter with an extra title.
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In spite
of my tireless efforts,
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my cunt totally
failed to respond.
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I have to admit
there came a time
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when we had fun together.
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I'll give you a fiver...
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Uh-huh.
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If you can put this
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up inside your cunt.
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A fiver?
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Right.
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Shit.
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Thank you.
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You're welcome.
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- Didn't get any spoons?
- No, we didn't.
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The most grotesque thing was
that it was during that period
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where every sexual
sensation was denied me...
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a period, I must admit,
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of secure and restful
domestic comfort...
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we had moved in
together and so on...
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that I became pregnant,
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because I was careless about
my birth control pills.
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Consciously or unconsciously,
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it was important for me
to have a caesarean.
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I mean, I was hoping that my cunt
was going to fucking work again,
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and I had a feeling that
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a haphazard birth wouldn't
make things better.
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I may have been
imagining things,
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but as I lay there the
noise from the instruments
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rang out in a chord like
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the one from the little flock.
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Yes.
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And it wasn't fear.
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More like a kind of disgust.
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I could've
sworn I saw him laughing.
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A laughing son?
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In "doctor faustus," Thomas mann
describes the birth of Noah's son ham,
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who was laughing
when he was born.
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Another satanic omen.
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Incidentally, the innocent
child was named marcel,
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after Mars,
the Roman God of war.
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And motherhood?
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I assume maternal love
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didn't quite live up
to its expectations.
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No, I didn't have
any expectations.
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And maternal love
wasn't a problem.
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It was just that each time
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I looked into the child's eyes,
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I had this unsettling feeling
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of having been found out.
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I know it's
probably a strange thing
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to say about a child...
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that my love
wasn't being returned...
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but it was my perception.
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If Jerome had hoped for a break
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from what was for him
now mostly strenuous work,
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he could forget about it.
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Fill all my holes.
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I can't, Joe.
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I'm sorry.
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I'm sorry.
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Can we talk about it?
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Of course.
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I love you, I love your
wildness and your desire.
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At the moment I don't seem to satisfy
you in the way that I'd like to.
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Don't get upset, Joe. It doesn't mean
we won't continue with our sex life,
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which is very important to me.
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Very important to me.
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Mmm, when you buy a tiger,
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right?
You also have to feed it.
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Um, satisfy it,
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right?
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Long story short:
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I have a tiger on my hands.
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- You mean I'm too much for you.
- No.
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You're just the way
you should be.
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I was just thinking
if you would consider
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that I get a little help with
the feeding, that's all.
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You're saying I should have
sex with others as well.
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That's a rather cruel way
of putting it, Joe, but...
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- But exact.
- Exact.
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For a long time
I'd been playing around
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with the idea that the concept
of the fuck-me-now clothes
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could be improved...
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You look nice.
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And became the piano teacher.
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You okay?
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No.
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What's the matter?
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Well, I'm such
an idiot with cars.
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I don't really know what to do.
Do you mind helping me?
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Well, of course
it won't work.
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Sparkplug caps have
been removed.
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Yes, I did that.
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Was that wrong?
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For the first time I had
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the pleasure of having
an 8-cylinder car.
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The possible combinations
of eight spark-plug caps
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on eight spark plugs
are 40,320,
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if I remembered
my math correctly.
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And only one of these
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will make the car run,
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which gave me
all the time I needed.
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Beethoven, huh?
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He was certainly
very good, but, you know,
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- he couldn't write a fugue.
- You think so?
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Well...
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Yeah, I think so.
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It would be more precise
to say that Beethoven
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renewed the fugue...
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But he was such a visionary
that the old bach purists,
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they accused him
of not mastering it.
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Good day?
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And now
to reach the heart
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00:23:17,037 --> 00:23:19,087
of your suffering
Western church,
264
00:23:19,090 --> 00:23:21,767
I have to jump ahead
three years in the story
265
00:23:21,769 --> 00:23:24,342
and talk about my meeting
266
00:23:24,345 --> 00:23:26,326
with what I would call
267
00:23:26,328 --> 00:23:28,170
"the dangerous men."
268
00:23:33,774 --> 00:23:36,905
I was alone with marcel
a lot during this period,
269
00:23:36,908 --> 00:23:40,002
as Jerome was traveling
most of the time.
270
00:23:40,006 --> 00:23:42,300
And when he was finally home,
271
00:23:42,302 --> 00:23:45,639
he spent most of the time
accusing me of neglecting marcel,
272
00:23:45,642 --> 00:23:47,762
which in my opinion
273
00:23:47,764 --> 00:23:51,555
was just a cover
for his anger over my lovers.
274
00:23:51,558 --> 00:23:55,488
Any sexual satisfaction,
let alone orgasm,
275
00:23:55,491 --> 00:23:58,202
was further away
than ever before.
276
00:24:08,331 --> 00:24:10,661
I had to make a change.
277
00:24:10,664 --> 00:24:13,794
And somehow the inspiration
had been right there
278
00:24:13,797 --> 00:24:17,134
beneath my window
the whole time.
279
00:24:17,136 --> 00:24:20,196
I could feel that it
turned me on enormously
280
00:24:20,199 --> 00:24:23,328
to imagine a sexual situation
281
00:24:23,331 --> 00:24:27,434
in which verbal communication
was impossible.
282
00:24:30,987 --> 00:24:32,516
- Hello.
- Hello.
283
00:24:32,519 --> 00:24:34,395
I'm Tobias, the interpreter.
284
00:24:34,397 --> 00:24:37,318
Hello, I'm Joe. Come in.
285
00:24:37,321 --> 00:24:40,102
I understand that you master
the African languages.
286
00:24:40,105 --> 00:24:42,261
I do have a basis.
287
00:24:43,723 --> 00:24:45,706
Who and what needs
interpretation?
288
00:24:45,708 --> 00:24:48,210
Um, that man...
289
00:24:49,430 --> 00:24:51,378
The one with the green jacket?
290
00:24:51,380 --> 00:24:55,553
You are to ask him if he
wants to have sex with me.
291
00:24:56,704 --> 00:24:58,372
Yeah? Um...
292
00:25:24,405 --> 00:25:26,352
Is it a go?
293
00:25:26,355 --> 00:25:28,649
It's hard to say.
294
00:25:28,651 --> 00:25:31,641
I've written down
the time and the place,
295
00:25:31,644 --> 00:25:33,312
but, um...
296
00:25:34,914 --> 00:25:37,315
Honestly I wouldn't like
to take responsibility
297
00:25:37,317 --> 00:25:39,575
for the precise wording
in this case,
298
00:25:39,578 --> 00:25:41,734
which I think, uh,
299
00:25:41,736 --> 00:25:44,204
accidentally may belong
300
00:25:44,207 --> 00:25:46,571
to a grey zone
in my profession.
301
00:25:49,391 --> 00:25:52,173
It was the
address of a cheap hotel.
302
00:26:01,154 --> 00:26:02,928
Why were there two?
303
00:26:02,930 --> 00:26:04,701
My words exactly.
304
00:26:04,704 --> 00:26:08,634
Apparently n had brought
his brother along.
305
00:26:08,637 --> 00:26:10,652
Very sorry. Sorry sorry sorry.
306
00:28:22,304 --> 00:28:24,564
Why
was he so angry?
307
00:28:24,566 --> 00:28:28,078
Clearly it was
something personal between them,
308
00:28:28,081 --> 00:28:30,862
but later I heard that
performing a sandwich
309
00:28:30,865 --> 00:28:33,507
requires great sensitivity,
310
00:28:33,510 --> 00:28:36,813
since the men apparently can feel
each other through the tissue.
311
00:28:36,816 --> 00:28:40,015
I imagine the quarrel
had already started
312
00:28:40,018 --> 00:28:43,773
on the stairs and that one
or the other party
313
00:28:43,776 --> 00:28:46,836
had laid claim
to one or the other of my holes
314
00:28:46,840 --> 00:28:49,690
in conflict with his negro
brother's interests.
315
00:28:50,979 --> 00:28:52,753
You shouldn't use that word.
316
00:28:52,755 --> 00:28:55,606
It's not what you call
politically correct...
317
00:28:55,609 --> 00:28:58,981
- "negro."
- Well, excuse me,
318
00:28:58,983 --> 00:29:01,138
but in my circles
319
00:29:01,141 --> 00:29:04,166
it's always been a mark of honor
to call a spade a spade.
320
00:29:05,560 --> 00:29:08,238
Each time a word
becomes prohibited,
321
00:29:08,241 --> 00:29:11,405
you remove a stone
from the Democratic foundation.
322
00:29:11,407 --> 00:29:14,397
Society demonstrates
its impotence
323
00:29:14,400 --> 00:29:16,520
in the face
of a concrete problem
324
00:29:16,523 --> 00:29:18,679
by removing words
from the language.
325
00:29:18,681 --> 00:29:20,975
I think society
would claim that...
326
00:29:20,978 --> 00:29:24,385
that politically correctness
is a very precise expression
327
00:29:24,387 --> 00:29:27,168
of Democratic concern
for minorities.
328
00:29:27,172 --> 00:29:29,953
And I say that society
329
00:29:29,957 --> 00:29:32,703
is as cowardly
as the people in it,
330
00:29:32,705 --> 00:29:36,670
who in my opinion are also
too stupid for democracy.
331
00:29:38,655 --> 00:29:42,203
I understand your point,
but I totally disagree.
332
00:29:42,206 --> 00:29:44,535
I have no doubt
in the human qualities.
333
00:29:44,537 --> 00:29:47,457
The human qualities
334
00:29:47,461 --> 00:29:49,650
can be expressed in one word:
335
00:29:49,652 --> 00:29:51,912
Hypocrisy.
336
00:29:51,915 --> 00:29:55,357
We elevate those who say
"right" but mean "wrong"
337
00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:59,186
and mock those who
say "wrong" but mean "right."
338
00:30:05,103 --> 00:30:07,294
By the way, I can assure you
339
00:30:07,296 --> 00:30:10,773
that women who claim that negros
don't turn them on,
340
00:30:10,777 --> 00:30:13,697
- they're lying.
- So did they satisfy you?
341
00:30:14,847 --> 00:30:16,898
Those ne-negros?
342
00:30:18,014 --> 00:30:20,100
No.
343
00:30:20,103 --> 00:30:22,223
But they showed me
that there was a world
344
00:30:22,227 --> 00:30:24,589
far from mine I had to explore.
345
00:30:26,158 --> 00:30:29,322
And there, or perhaps
on the other side,
346
00:30:29,325 --> 00:30:31,968
get my life back.
347
00:31:13,068 --> 00:31:14,807
Who are you?
348
00:31:17,175 --> 00:31:18,948
I know what you do.
349
00:31:18,950 --> 00:31:21,314
I'd like to be
350
00:31:21,317 --> 00:31:23,124
one of the women you see.
351
00:31:27,301 --> 00:31:29,145
That's of no interest.
352
00:31:35,653 --> 00:31:37,183
Madame.
353
00:32:22,112 --> 00:32:24,024
Princess,
354
00:32:24,028 --> 00:32:26,079
I specifically said five days,
355
00:32:26,081 --> 00:32:28,270
and five days haven't gone yet.
356
00:32:29,385 --> 00:32:31,507
So...
357
00:32:31,509 --> 00:32:33,559
You'll have to leave.
358
00:32:33,562 --> 00:32:34,708
I'm sorry.
359
00:32:46,368 --> 00:32:48,350
I, um...
360
00:32:48,352 --> 00:32:51,377
I don't think this is for you.
361
00:33:00,879 --> 00:33:03,140
How mysterious.
362
00:33:04,916 --> 00:33:07,177
Will you give me
a reasonable explanation now
363
00:33:07,180 --> 00:33:09,995
or shall we wait?
364
00:33:11,389 --> 00:33:13,580
I can't give you
an explanation,
365
00:33:13,582 --> 00:33:15,806
and certainly not
a reasonable...
366
00:33:17,340 --> 00:33:19,914
What exactly were
the rumors about him?
367
00:33:21,829 --> 00:33:23,429
That he was violent.
368
00:33:23,431 --> 00:33:25,655
How can that be inciting?
369
00:33:30,111 --> 00:33:32,824
I think the easiest way
to understand it
370
00:33:32,828 --> 00:33:35,748
is to refer
to my rebellious nature.
371
00:33:37,177 --> 00:33:39,610
This business of k's was
372
00:33:39,612 --> 00:33:42,533
something I was
completely against.
373
00:33:42,536 --> 00:33:45,770
So the fact that I was
now contacting him was
374
00:33:45,773 --> 00:33:47,928
a last, desperate attempt
375
00:33:47,930 --> 00:33:50,085
to rehabilitate my sexuality.
376
00:33:52,209 --> 00:33:55,305
The system was
the overriding factor with k.
377
00:33:56,838 --> 00:33:58,263
A system of violence?
378
00:33:59,656 --> 00:34:02,822
Well, you were the one
379
00:34:02,825 --> 00:34:06,546
who insisted on the
Western church, right?
380
00:34:06,549 --> 00:34:09,608
And I... I seem to remember
381
00:34:09,610 --> 00:34:12,844
that the systematic approach
382
00:34:12,847 --> 00:34:15,907
to the crucifixion
is of a violent
383
00:34:15,910 --> 00:34:18,100
and not to say sadistic nature.
384
00:34:18,102 --> 00:34:20,048
Oh yes, the passion of Christ
385
00:34:20,051 --> 00:34:22,136
is full
of systematic violence...
386
00:34:22,138 --> 00:34:23,598
the via dolorosa,
387
00:34:23,601 --> 00:34:25,443
the nine stations of the cross
388
00:34:25,445 --> 00:34:26,939
and the 39 lashes.
389
00:34:52,275 --> 00:34:54,083
You are beginning
to irritate me.
390
00:35:05,324 --> 00:35:06,959
Stand up.
391
00:35:19,558 --> 00:35:21,784
I just want you to sit
392
00:35:21,787 --> 00:35:24,359
completely relaxed...
393
00:35:26,066 --> 00:35:28,326
While I hit you in the face.
394
00:35:28,330 --> 00:35:30,936
Nothing special.
395
00:35:30,938 --> 00:35:33,059
It's just a...
396
00:35:33,062 --> 00:35:35,391
it's just a slap.
397
00:35:40,404 --> 00:35:42,491
Are you ready?
398
00:36:04,590 --> 00:36:06,432
Let me tell you the rules then.
399
00:36:09,531 --> 00:36:12,035
The first rule is
that I don't fuck you
400
00:36:12,038 --> 00:36:15,237
and that there isn't any
discussions about that.
401
00:36:17,014 --> 00:36:19,621
Then what do you get out of it?
402
00:36:19,625 --> 00:36:21,397
That's my business
403
00:36:21,399 --> 00:36:24,841
and I don't want you
to mention it again.
404
00:36:24,844 --> 00:36:27,695
The second rule is that
we have no safe word.
405
00:36:29,646 --> 00:36:32,672
Meaning that if you, uh,
go inside with me,
406
00:36:32,675 --> 00:36:35,212
there is nothing
that you can say
407
00:36:35,214 --> 00:36:37,057
that will make me stop
408
00:36:37,060 --> 00:36:39,806
any plan or procedure.
409
00:36:41,269 --> 00:36:45,269
You must bring a brown
used leather riding crop.
410
00:36:47,428 --> 00:36:50,767
And not one from a shop
selling sex toys.
411
00:36:51,953 --> 00:36:54,004
It's not a masquerade.
412
00:36:56,093 --> 00:36:58,911
Third rule:
413
00:36:58,914 --> 00:37:01,382
If I choose to let you in,
414
00:37:01,385 --> 00:37:04,514
you have to be
sitting out here.
415
00:37:04,516 --> 00:37:06,916
In other words, you...
416
00:37:06,919 --> 00:37:09,143
you won't know when.
417
00:37:09,145 --> 00:37:10,778
Only that it will be
418
00:37:10,781 --> 00:37:12,588
sometime between...
419
00:37:13,738 --> 00:37:15,546
2:00 and 6:00 at night.
420
00:37:15,548 --> 00:37:17,773
I can't stay here that late.
421
00:37:17,775 --> 00:37:20,730
My babysitter's
not reliable and...
422
00:37:20,734 --> 00:37:22,332
I can't leave my child.
423
00:37:24,804 --> 00:37:26,961
You don't even know my name!
424
00:37:26,964 --> 00:37:29,049
I'm not interested
in your name.
425
00:37:30,895 --> 00:37:32,773
Here your name is...
426
00:37:35,698 --> 00:37:37,262
Fido.
427
00:37:52,297 --> 00:37:54,106
Marcel's awake.
428
00:37:54,108 --> 00:37:56,367
D'you want to say goodbye
to your mom?
429
00:37:57,413 --> 00:37:59,255
Goodbye.
430
00:38:10,985 --> 00:38:12,862
I'll take your coat.
431
00:38:34,126 --> 00:38:36,316
I'd like you to have
your hair up.
432
00:38:38,059 --> 00:38:39,449
You can use this.
433
00:38:41,017 --> 00:38:42,965
Just in case
it becomes necessary for me
434
00:38:42,967 --> 00:38:44,391
to hit you in the face.
435
00:38:45,714 --> 00:38:47,454
Should I take my clothes off?
436
00:38:49,265 --> 00:38:51,281
I'll tell you what to do...
437
00:38:51,284 --> 00:38:53,091
And when.
438
00:38:56,469 --> 00:38:57,929
Now you may bend down.
439
00:38:57,931 --> 00:38:59,669
How?
440
00:39:01,689 --> 00:39:03,427
Approach the chair.
441
00:39:05,378 --> 00:39:06,699
Now bend from the hips.
442
00:39:10,632 --> 00:39:12,510
Look forward. Look forward.
443
00:39:12,512 --> 00:39:14,840
With your head up. Head up.
444
00:39:14,844 --> 00:39:16,825
Keep looking forward.
445
00:39:23,718 --> 00:39:25,942
Keep looking forward.
446
00:39:30,955 --> 00:39:32,311
You may stand up.
447
00:39:34,506 --> 00:39:36,210
We have to use the couch.
448
00:39:39,343 --> 00:39:40,386
Come this way.
449
00:39:43,728 --> 00:39:45,744
Take it easy, take it easy.
450
00:39:47,938 --> 00:39:49,433
Bend over.
451
00:39:52,323 --> 00:39:54,375
Lay your arms out straight.
452
00:40:05,548 --> 00:40:06,973
Take it easy.
453
00:40:06,975 --> 00:40:09,373
Take it easy.
454
00:40:33,908 --> 00:40:35,856
Take it easy.
455
00:41:09,545 --> 00:41:11,318
Next time don't wear knickers.
456
00:41:38,499 --> 00:41:40,168
Your ass is not high enough.
457
00:41:41,700 --> 00:41:43,578
I don't think
we can do this today.
458
00:41:43,581 --> 00:41:45,283
What?
459
00:41:52,245 --> 00:41:54,574
I'd like to see you again
on Thursday.
460
00:42:01,849 --> 00:42:04,144
What's wrong?
461
00:42:04,147 --> 00:42:06,789
I think we should
see how it goes on Thursday.
462
00:42:20,189 --> 00:42:22,727
Hi, I can't
come to the phone right now.
463
00:42:22,730 --> 00:42:24,677
Please leave a message.
464
00:42:24,679 --> 00:42:28,051
Yes, this is
marcel's mother again.
465
00:42:28,054 --> 00:42:30,767
Uh, it's now 1:30.
466
00:42:30,770 --> 00:42:33,272
We had an agreement.
467
00:42:33,274 --> 00:42:37,204
I hope you get this message
and come as quickly as you can.
468
00:42:39,329 --> 00:42:42,251
Uh, marcel is sleeping.
469
00:42:42,254 --> 00:42:44,270
Um...
470
00:42:44,272 --> 00:42:46,357
I have to go now.
471
00:43:44,649 --> 00:43:46,318
Better.
472
00:44:06,991 --> 00:44:08,903
Also so much better.
473
00:44:08,906 --> 00:44:11,061
So much better.
474
00:44:18,405 --> 00:44:20,839
I am now going
to hit you 12 times
475
00:44:20,842 --> 00:44:23,484
no matter how much you scream...
476
00:44:23,487 --> 00:44:25,816
'cause no one can
hear you down here.
477
00:44:33,302 --> 00:44:35,143
That's, uh...
478
00:44:35,145 --> 00:44:37,683
that's not how it goes.
479
00:44:39,633 --> 00:44:42,276
Most people don't scream
until I hit them.
480
00:45:22,368 --> 00:45:24,559
Oh!
481
00:45:46,450 --> 00:45:48,328
That's it.
482
00:45:52,540 --> 00:45:53,861
Thank you.
483
00:45:55,254 --> 00:45:56,506
You're very welcome.
484
00:46:02,737 --> 00:46:06,250
I don't know where we get
our sexuality from
485
00:46:06,252 --> 00:46:09,799
or where tendencies
of this kind come from.
486
00:46:11,576 --> 00:46:14,950
Probably a perversion
created in our childhood
487
00:46:14,952 --> 00:46:17,559
that never manifested
itself before.
488
00:46:17,562 --> 00:46:19,683
Well, oddly enough,
489
00:46:19,686 --> 00:46:22,363
Freud says the opposite.
490
00:46:22,365 --> 00:46:25,947
He talks about the polymorphic
perversion of a child.
491
00:46:25,950 --> 00:46:28,522
Meaning that in a child,
492
00:46:28,525 --> 00:46:31,063
all kinds of perversions exist.
493
00:46:32,282 --> 00:46:34,404
And then we use the childhood
494
00:46:34,406 --> 00:46:36,596
to diminish or remove
some of them.
495
00:46:38,198 --> 00:46:41,397
Basically a child is
sexually polymorphic
496
00:46:41,401 --> 00:46:44,565
and everything is sexuality
in an infant.
497
00:46:46,550 --> 00:46:48,845
And yet it was deeply bizarre
498
00:46:48,848 --> 00:46:51,072
to lie there
499
00:46:51,075 --> 00:46:53,300
and especially to want
to lie there.
500
00:46:53,302 --> 00:46:57,022
It is an interesting point
that you actually lubricated
501
00:46:57,026 --> 00:47:00,120
in expectation for a pain
502
00:47:00,123 --> 00:47:02,243
that you hadn't experienced.
503
00:47:03,742 --> 00:47:06,315
Your body prepared itself
504
00:47:06,318 --> 00:47:09,447
for an intercourse that
you knew wouldn't happen.
505
00:47:11,989 --> 00:47:14,946
I can only
describe the mood as sexual.
506
00:47:16,583 --> 00:47:18,843
As I twisted and turned
507
00:47:18,845 --> 00:47:21,035
while he was whipping me,
508
00:47:21,038 --> 00:47:23,576
I could feel how clever
his knots were.
509
00:47:25,247 --> 00:47:28,135
If I fought them,
they would get tighter,
510
00:47:28,138 --> 00:47:30,572
and as I relaxed,
511
00:47:30,574 --> 00:47:32,415
it seemed they did too.
512
00:47:33,669 --> 00:47:36,000
I don't know what kind of knot
513
00:47:36,002 --> 00:47:38,853
k used...
514
00:47:39,863 --> 00:47:41,845
But I know of a knot
515
00:47:41,848 --> 00:47:45,291
that tightens when
force is exerted
516
00:47:45,295 --> 00:47:48,180
and vice versa.
It's called a prusik knot.
517
00:47:50,026 --> 00:47:53,539
It's after a man called prusik.
He was a Mountain climber.
518
00:47:53,542 --> 00:47:55,836
And he and a friend
were out climbing
519
00:47:55,839 --> 00:47:58,445
and they had an accident
520
00:47:58,448 --> 00:48:00,465
and his friend died.
521
00:48:00,467 --> 00:48:03,735
And he ended up hanging
at the end of a rope
522
00:48:03,738 --> 00:48:07,146
with no possibility
of getting up.
523
00:48:07,149 --> 00:48:10,835
You know, you can't climb up
a Mountain-climber rope.
524
00:48:10,838 --> 00:48:13,062
It's too thin.
525
00:48:13,064 --> 00:48:15,045
But he was an intelligent man,
526
00:48:15,048 --> 00:48:18,769
and with his back to the wall
he was a genius.
527
00:48:20,476 --> 00:48:23,710
And he took the shoelaces
out of his boots
528
00:48:23,713 --> 00:48:28,339
and made two loops
and affixed them to the rope.
529
00:48:28,342 --> 00:48:30,393
And he could move these up
530
00:48:30,395 --> 00:48:32,445
when they weren't
under tension.
531
00:48:32,448 --> 00:48:34,986
And then he could
step into them
532
00:48:34,988 --> 00:48:37,317
and climb the rope
and save himself.
533
00:48:39,268 --> 00:48:41,181
Prusik.
534
00:48:44,628 --> 00:48:47,862
I think this was one
of your weakest digressions.
535
00:48:52,248 --> 00:48:54,160
May I continue?
536
00:48:54,163 --> 00:48:56,597
Well, be my guest.
537
00:49:43,962 --> 00:49:47,092
I sometimes give
a Christmas present.
538
00:49:48,487 --> 00:49:51,790
But, uh, you have to do
the work yourself.
539
00:50:07,451 --> 00:50:09,365
This is called a blood knot.
540
00:50:09,367 --> 00:50:12,286
You have to make nine ropes
541
00:50:12,290 --> 00:50:14,445
with three blood knots on each.
542
00:50:14,448 --> 00:50:16,533
Let me see you do it.
543
00:50:16,535 --> 00:50:19,317
You decide
whether to make four,
544
00:50:19,321 --> 00:50:21,579
five or six turns
545
00:50:21,581 --> 00:50:23,215
in the various knots.
546
00:53:27,484 --> 00:53:29,083
Joe?
547
00:53:30,894 --> 00:53:32,877
Hello.
548
00:53:43,527 --> 00:53:45,231
Marcel?
549
00:53:48,642 --> 00:53:50,416
Marcel!
550
00:54:25,810 --> 00:54:27,931
Are you fond of me still?
551
00:54:27,933 --> 00:54:31,201
- Yes.
- More fond of me than the others?
552
00:54:34,301 --> 00:54:35,760
- Yes?
- Yes.
553
00:54:37,849 --> 00:54:40,059
You're not thinking of leaving
again tonight, are you?
554
00:54:41,017 --> 00:54:42,755
- No.
- No?
555
00:54:42,758 --> 00:54:45,192
- No no. Not at all.
- Are you sure?
556
00:54:46,968 --> 00:54:48,358
Yeah.
557
00:54:48,360 --> 00:54:50,237
Are you lying to me, Joe?
558
00:54:51,213 --> 00:54:53,126
- No.
- Be honest.
559
00:54:53,128 --> 00:54:55,283
It's all right.
560
00:54:55,286 --> 00:54:58,764
Just fucking say it.
561
00:54:58,766 --> 00:55:01,129
No, I... I just want to be here.
562
00:55:01,133 --> 00:55:02,487
Why?
563
00:55:06,873 --> 00:55:08,751
I don't know.
564
00:55:15,190 --> 00:55:17,103
If you leave tonight...
565
00:55:19,018 --> 00:55:22,114
You'll never see me or marcel
ever again in your life.
566
00:55:26,222 --> 00:55:27,926
Do you understand?
567
00:56:47,272 --> 00:56:49,498
Is this goodbye?
568
00:56:52,457 --> 00:56:55,309
Is that what you're saying?
569
00:56:55,312 --> 00:56:57,502
Marcel, get up.
570
00:56:57,504 --> 00:56:59,728
- Stop it.
- Is that what you want?
571
00:57:00,948 --> 00:57:03,487
Here, so you could see him.
572
00:57:03,490 --> 00:57:05,089
Look at him, Joe.
573
00:57:11,772 --> 00:57:13,928
Let's face it, Joe,
you're not a mother.
574
00:57:15,321 --> 00:57:18,242
Let's wake him up.
575
00:57:18,245 --> 00:57:21,165
Marcel, baby boy,
576
00:57:21,168 --> 00:57:23,776
say, "bye, mom."
577
00:57:23,778 --> 00:57:26,489
- Please put him back.
- Is this what you want?
578
00:57:26,492 --> 00:57:28,822
Hmm?
579
00:57:28,825 --> 00:57:31,572
- Ma.
- You see?
580
00:57:31,574 --> 00:57:34,216
You see, he wants you.
581
00:57:34,219 --> 00:57:36,896
Come.
582
00:57:38,985 --> 00:57:41,210
It's Christmas.
It's fucking Christmas.
583
00:58:05,572 --> 00:58:07,380
What is this?
584
00:58:09,331 --> 00:58:11,974
Today it's madame
who must wait.
585
00:58:21,094 --> 00:58:23,319
Madame, I'm very sorry,
586
00:58:23,321 --> 00:58:26,903
but I have to have
a few words with fido first.
587
00:58:47,333 --> 00:58:49,906
I really ought to
send you home.
588
00:59:12,911 --> 00:59:14,545
Happy Christmas, fido.
589
01:00:19,729 --> 01:00:22,023
I want your cock.
590
01:00:22,025 --> 01:00:23,484
What did you say?
591
01:00:23,487 --> 01:00:26,860
I want your cock.
592
01:00:26,862 --> 01:00:28,600
No. No, you don't.
593
01:00:28,603 --> 01:00:30,584
No, you don't. No.
594
01:00:33,891 --> 01:00:35,874
What's the matter
with you today?
595
01:00:58,739 --> 01:01:01,417
On account of the holidays
596
01:01:01,419 --> 01:01:03,887
and your behavior today,
597
01:01:03,890 --> 01:01:07,193
I'm going to give you
the original Roman maximum
598
01:01:07,197 --> 01:01:10,047
of 40 lashes.
Are you ready, fido?
599
01:01:12,067 --> 01:01:14,119
I'm ready.
600
01:01:20,559 --> 01:01:21,914
One.
601
01:01:24,282 --> 01:01:25,464
Two.
602
01:01:26,474 --> 01:01:28,873
Three.
603
01:01:31,591 --> 01:01:33,016
Four.
604
01:01:34,095 --> 01:01:35,486
Five.
605
01:01:37,959 --> 01:01:39,350
Six.
606
01:01:53,132 --> 01:01:55,880
I'd seen
through k's knot technique,
607
01:01:55,882 --> 01:01:59,915
so I was able to loosen my
position a bit to move my pelvis,
608
01:01:59,918 --> 01:02:03,778
and thereby stimulate my clitoris
against the cover of the book.
609
01:02:43,661 --> 01:02:45,851
And when you came home,
610
01:02:45,855 --> 01:02:48,358
Jerome and the child were gone?
611
01:02:55,806 --> 01:02:58,484
I haven't seen marcel since.
612
01:03:02,907 --> 01:03:05,062
The sentimentality of...
613
01:03:05,064 --> 01:03:06,940
I hate it.
614
01:03:10,945 --> 01:03:12,231
Why?
615
01:03:12,233 --> 01:03:14,667
Because it's a lie.
616
01:03:18,741 --> 01:03:20,687
Are you sure?
617
01:03:28,032 --> 01:03:30,710
Jerome understood
that he couldn't prioritize
618
01:03:30,712 --> 01:03:34,084
his life according
to a child either.
619
01:03:35,583 --> 01:03:37,984
So he put him in a foster home.
620
01:03:41,847 --> 01:03:44,769
My only contact to the boy
is the thousand pounds
621
01:03:44,772 --> 01:03:46,823
I put in his account
every month.
622
01:03:47,798 --> 01:03:49,919
Anonymously.
623
01:03:52,148 --> 01:03:54,269
As a penance.
624
01:04:12,854 --> 01:04:15,289
After all this sadness,
may I ask...
625
01:04:18,283 --> 01:04:20,370
What happened
to the silent duck?
626
01:04:20,372 --> 01:04:22,840
Oh shit.
627
01:04:22,843 --> 01:04:27,260
The silent duck.
I'd forgotten all about it.
628
01:04:29,524 --> 01:04:32,202
One night k had been in
what was for him
629
01:04:32,205 --> 01:04:34,046
an unusually good mood.
630
01:04:34,048 --> 01:04:36,830
I don't know what caused it,
but he didn't hit hard
631
01:04:36,833 --> 01:04:39,614
and he joked that
he would introduce me
632
01:04:39,617 --> 01:04:42,921
to the concept
of the silent duck.
633
01:05:02,236 --> 01:05:04,636
One
hardly dare imagine
634
01:05:04,638 --> 01:05:06,862
"the quacking duck."
635
01:05:16,052 --> 01:05:17,964
Oh.
636
01:05:20,298 --> 01:05:24,889
Well, deep down,
little k seems to have been
637
01:05:24,892 --> 01:05:28,682
a jolly man
with versatile talents.
638
01:05:28,685 --> 01:05:31,223
But he got that bit about
639
01:05:31,226 --> 01:05:34,111
Roman punishment
and the 40 lashes wrong.
640
01:05:34,113 --> 01:05:38,148
Because it's true that the highest
punishment was 40 lashes,
641
01:05:38,151 --> 01:05:40,827
but it had to be delivered
in series of three.
642
01:05:42,604 --> 01:05:44,795
That's why Jesus
only got 39 lashes,
643
01:05:44,798 --> 01:05:46,848
because three goes into 39
644
01:05:46,850 --> 01:05:49,945
but not into 40.
645
01:05:55,271 --> 01:05:56,558
You have a mirror.
646
01:05:57,534 --> 01:05:59,272
Yes.
647
01:05:59,274 --> 01:06:01,603
It's like a thought, isn't it?
648
01:06:06,511 --> 01:06:08,946
Are you ready
for another chapter?
649
01:06:08,949 --> 01:06:10,756
Go on.
650
01:06:37,588 --> 01:06:39,953
Some years
later, the bodily abuse
651
01:06:39,956 --> 01:06:42,076
began to have an effect.
652
01:06:42,078 --> 01:06:45,869
First, rare bleedings
from my clitoris,
653
01:06:45,872 --> 01:06:48,792
but then they became
more and more frequent.
654
01:06:58,990 --> 01:07:00,625
Come in.
655
01:07:02,227 --> 01:07:05,184
Have you heard any of the
rumors about yourself?
656
01:07:09,431 --> 01:07:12,214
They say you see men
every evening.
657
01:07:16,251 --> 01:07:18,199
And spend all night with them.
658
01:07:18,202 --> 01:07:21,053
They say you can't be
trusted... all of them.
659
01:07:24,534 --> 01:07:26,690
Why do they say that?
660
01:07:29,127 --> 01:07:31,422
I suppose
they're afraid that I...
661
01:07:31,426 --> 01:07:34,416
I can't keep away
from their men.
662
01:07:37,688 --> 01:07:39,740
Right.
663
01:07:39,743 --> 01:07:42,594
- And can you?
- No.
664
01:07:46,668 --> 01:07:48,893
I've spoken
with a psychologist.
665
01:07:50,913 --> 01:07:53,243
He says you're addicted,
but that it's not
666
01:07:53,245 --> 01:07:55,957
the kind of addiction
that can't be treated.
667
01:07:55,960 --> 01:07:58,010
They have some groups.
668
01:07:59,229 --> 01:08:02,047
I know about
these kinds of groups.
669
01:08:02,050 --> 01:08:05,526
I don't have anything
to say to a psychologist.
670
01:08:05,529 --> 01:08:08,103
I'm not suggesting therapy.
I'm demanding it.
671
01:08:10,157 --> 01:08:12,730
Even if you leave us, it'll
be the same at your next job
672
01:08:12,734 --> 01:08:14,680
and the one after that.
673
01:08:23,312 --> 01:08:24,633
My name is Joe...
674
01:08:24,635 --> 01:08:26,338
Hi, Joe.
675
01:08:26,341 --> 01:08:28,218
And I'm a nymphomaniac.
676
01:08:28,220 --> 01:08:30,340
Sex addict.
677
01:08:30,343 --> 01:08:32,915
My name is Joe
and I'm a nymphomaniac.
678
01:08:32,917 --> 01:08:34,898
We say sex addict.
679
01:08:34,902 --> 01:08:36,674
Here everyone's the same.
680
01:08:39,772 --> 01:08:42,345
You should only speak
when you feel you have to.
681
01:08:45,027 --> 01:08:46,940
What you're saying is that
682
01:08:46,943 --> 01:08:49,515
no one can remove
their sexuality
683
01:08:49,517 --> 01:08:52,298
even though it's destroying
everything for them.
684
01:08:52,301 --> 01:08:54,561
I wouldn't say no one.
685
01:08:54,563 --> 01:08:57,031
But let's say,
at most, one in a million
686
01:08:57,034 --> 01:08:59,815
manage to live a life
without sexuality.
687
01:09:01,001 --> 01:09:03,017
But you can't be
basing your therapy
688
01:09:03,019 --> 01:09:05,070
- on that one in a million.
- No.
689
01:09:05,073 --> 01:09:08,307
The first
and most important step
690
01:09:08,310 --> 01:09:11,718
is to remove incentive
and to reduce exposure.
691
01:09:14,260 --> 01:09:17,390
You have to ask yourself what
kind of incentives you have
692
01:09:17,393 --> 01:09:21,426
and then make it difficult for yourself
to come into contact with them.
693
01:09:21,429 --> 01:09:24,106
Basically anything that
makes you think about sex.
694
01:11:43,761 --> 01:11:45,882
Joe has something
she'd like to share.
695
01:11:47,937 --> 01:11:49,745
My name is Joe...
696
01:11:49,748 --> 01:11:50,894
Hi, Joe.
697
01:11:50,896 --> 01:11:53,295
And I'm a sex addict,
698
01:11:53,297 --> 01:11:56,948
but I haven't had sex
for three weeks and five days.
699
01:12:00,327 --> 01:12:02,169
Tell us how you did it, Joe.
700
01:12:02,171 --> 01:12:04,778
- You brought notes?
- Yes.
701
01:12:10,661 --> 01:12:12,643
"Dear everyone,"
702
01:12:12,646 --> 01:12:15,080
don't think it's been easy,
703
01:12:15,082 --> 01:12:19,429
"but I understand now
that we are all alike."
704
01:12:35,996 --> 01:12:37,282
Are you okay, Joe?
705
01:12:37,286 --> 01:12:39,405
Yes yes.
706
01:12:41,529 --> 01:12:43,443
Would you like
a glass of water?
707
01:12:45,775 --> 01:12:47,132
Thank you.
708
01:12:53,710 --> 01:12:55,761
Would you rather
share another time?
709
01:13:02,167 --> 01:13:04,045
No, I'd like to speak.
710
01:13:10,031 --> 01:13:12,222
Dear everyone,
711
01:13:12,225 --> 01:13:15,319
don't think it's been easy,
712
01:13:15,323 --> 01:13:17,791
but I understand now
713
01:13:17,793 --> 01:13:19,808
that we're not
714
01:13:19,811 --> 01:13:22,384
and never will be alike.
715
01:13:25,134 --> 01:13:27,047
I'm not like you,
716
01:13:27,049 --> 01:13:29,483
who fucks to be validated
717
01:13:29,486 --> 01:13:32,511
and might just as well give up
putting cocks inside you.
718
01:13:32,514 --> 01:13:34,668
And I'm not like you.
719
01:13:34,670 --> 01:13:37,312
All you want
is to be filled up,
720
01:13:37,315 --> 01:13:39,923
and whether
it's by a man or by tons
721
01:13:39,925 --> 01:13:43,924
of disgusting slop
makes no difference.
722
01:13:45,180 --> 01:13:48,031
And I'm definitely
not like you.
723
01:13:48,033 --> 01:13:50,501
That empathy you claim
724
01:13:50,505 --> 01:13:52,451
is a lie,
725
01:13:52,453 --> 01:13:56,452
because all you are is
society's morality police,
726
01:13:56,455 --> 01:14:00,384
whose duty is
to erase my obscenity
727
01:14:00,387 --> 01:14:01,986
from the surface of the earth
728
01:14:01,989 --> 01:14:04,736
so that the bourgeoisie
won't feel sick.
729
01:14:05,990 --> 01:14:08,112
I'm not like you.
730
01:14:08,114 --> 01:14:11,660
I am a nymphomaniac,
731
01:14:11,663 --> 01:14:14,340
and I love myself
for being one.
732
01:14:14,342 --> 01:14:16,532
But above all,
733
01:14:16,535 --> 01:14:18,586
I love my cunt
734
01:14:18,588 --> 01:14:21,787
and my filthy, dirty lust.
735
01:14:27,497 --> 01:14:29,688
♪ Watch out ♪
736
01:14:29,690 --> 01:14:32,019
♪ you might get ♪
♪ what you're after ♪
737
01:14:32,022 --> 01:14:33,968
♪ cool, babies ♪
738
01:14:33,970 --> 01:14:36,960
♪ strange, but not a stranger ♪
739
01:14:36,964 --> 01:14:41,623
♪ I'm an ordinary guy ♪
740
01:14:41,627 --> 01:14:43,816
♪ burning down the house! ♪
741
01:14:46,497 --> 01:14:49,210
What just happened?
742
01:14:49,213 --> 01:14:50,916
I didn't get that...
743
01:14:50,918 --> 01:14:52,899
with the car that burned.
744
01:14:52,902 --> 01:14:55,475
No, I'm sorry.
745
01:14:55,477 --> 01:14:59,023
I was just in too much of a hurry
to get to the last chapter.
746
01:15:06,473 --> 01:15:10,195
I understood that society
had no room for me,
747
01:15:10,198 --> 01:15:13,257
and I had no room for society
748
01:15:13,259 --> 01:15:15,102
and never had.
749
01:15:23,907 --> 01:15:26,168
I'm sure it was
quite natural for you
750
01:15:26,170 --> 01:15:28,568
to furnish your room
as a monk's cell,
751
01:15:28,571 --> 01:15:33,128
but as an inspiration for
the story chapter headings,
752
01:15:33,131 --> 01:15:35,460
it hasn't been easy.
753
01:15:35,462 --> 01:15:39,635
There's simply nothing left
for me to use.
754
01:15:40,821 --> 01:15:43,603
Well, I'm sorry about that.
755
01:15:43,605 --> 01:15:46,769
But if I may,
I can give you a tip.
756
01:15:47,919 --> 01:15:49,867
Yes, please.
757
01:15:49,870 --> 01:15:53,660
You know, I occupy
myself mostly with text,
758
01:15:53,663 --> 01:15:56,410
but sometimes the text
can seem so...
759
01:15:57,594 --> 01:16:01,630
So empty,
so unfathomably empty.
760
01:16:01,633 --> 01:16:05,910
It could be the best text
by the most famous author.
761
01:16:05,913 --> 01:16:09,285
The solution might be to
change your point of view.
762
01:16:11,270 --> 01:16:13,044
I-I don't get that.
763
01:16:13,046 --> 01:16:15,376
Things hide...
764
01:16:16,421 --> 01:16:18,472
When they become familiar.
765
01:16:18,476 --> 01:16:21,536
But if you look at them
from another angle,
766
01:16:23,381 --> 01:16:25,781
they might take on
a new meaning.
767
01:16:37,997 --> 01:16:39,597
You're right.
768
01:16:39,600 --> 01:16:42,172
Before this was just
769
01:16:42,174 --> 01:16:44,572
the stain from the tea I threw.
770
01:16:46,697 --> 01:16:49,027
Can you see what it could be?
771
01:16:51,395 --> 01:16:52,820
A revolver.
772
01:16:52,823 --> 01:16:56,231
No, a revolver has
a drum that revolves.
773
01:16:56,233 --> 01:16:59,049
It's a pistol.
774
01:16:59,053 --> 01:17:01,208
Can you see
what kind it could be?
775
01:17:01,211 --> 01:17:03,122
No, I don't remember
776
01:17:03,124 --> 01:17:05,174
anything like that
from my literature.
777
01:17:05,177 --> 01:17:07,820
Oh, but it's something
I can remember from mine.
778
01:17:07,822 --> 01:17:08,933
Ian Fleming.
779
01:17:10,153 --> 01:17:11,996
Not familiar.
780
01:17:11,998 --> 01:17:15,649
If you haven't read that, you
haven't read anything at all.
781
01:17:17,599 --> 01:17:20,729
This could be,
with a little imagination,
782
01:17:20,733 --> 01:17:24,106
a walther p.P.K. Automatic,
783
01:17:24,109 --> 01:17:26,960
the same gun
that was issued to bond
784
01:17:26,963 --> 01:17:30,579
after his preferred pistol,
the beretta, had jammed.
785
01:17:32,494 --> 01:17:34,477
Is that something you can use?
786
01:17:36,358 --> 01:17:38,618
Oh yes, it is.
787
01:17:38,620 --> 01:17:40,113
♪ Burning down the house! ♪
788
01:17:41,890 --> 01:17:44,012
♪ Hold tight ♪
789
01:17:44,015 --> 01:17:46,448
♪ wait till the party's over ♪
790
01:17:46,450 --> 01:17:48,118
♪ hold tight... ♪
791
01:17:48,121 --> 01:17:50,033
Whether
I left society,
792
01:17:50,035 --> 01:17:52,537
or it left me, I cannot say.
793
01:17:52,540 --> 01:17:55,844
I suppose you could make
an argument for both sides.
794
01:17:55,846 --> 01:17:57,861
♪ Burning down the house! ♪
795
01:17:57,864 --> 01:18:00,020
I was on my way
to the shady side
796
01:18:00,022 --> 01:18:02,003
of the debt-collecting
business,
797
01:18:02,006 --> 01:18:04,961
which among other things
involved stuff
798
01:18:04,964 --> 01:18:07,154
like burning people's cars.
799
01:18:09,244 --> 01:18:13,000
I had for a long time
known about this man, I.
800
01:18:18,709 --> 01:18:20,553
Hi, my name is Joe.
801
01:18:21,528 --> 01:18:23,544
I know that.
802
01:18:23,547 --> 01:18:25,703
Come in.
803
01:18:29,844 --> 01:18:32,105
I'm looking for a job.
804
01:18:33,952 --> 01:18:35,898
I've been working in an office,
805
01:18:35,901 --> 01:18:37,918
and I was never
really good at it.
806
01:18:37,920 --> 01:18:40,318
I can understand that. I mean,
807
01:18:40,322 --> 01:18:42,441
what's the point?
808
01:18:42,443 --> 01:18:45,225
I believe I possess
some qualifications
809
01:18:45,229 --> 01:18:48,009
and that I'm rather
unscrupulous.
810
01:18:48,013 --> 01:18:49,958
I know all about
your qualifications
811
01:18:49,960 --> 01:18:51,767
and they're excellent.
812
01:18:51,770 --> 01:18:53,926
I would suggest
813
01:18:53,928 --> 01:18:57,197
that you start
your own little business
814
01:18:57,200 --> 01:18:59,076
with my help.
815
01:18:59,078 --> 01:19:00,920
I understand
816
01:19:00,923 --> 01:19:03,948
you possess
a great deal of insight
817
01:19:03,950 --> 01:19:06,523
about a rather
broad spectrum of men.
818
01:19:08,300 --> 01:19:11,568
This could be... or should
be capitalized on.
819
01:19:12,823 --> 01:19:14,805
I need sub-contractors
who can put
820
01:19:14,808 --> 01:19:17,068
moderate pressure
on individuals
821
01:19:17,070 --> 01:19:20,025
with whom my clients
rightly or wrongly
822
01:19:20,028 --> 01:19:22,496
have a bone to pick.
Understand?
823
01:19:22,499 --> 01:19:24,410
Extortion.
824
01:19:24,412 --> 01:19:25,698
No. No no no no.
825
01:19:27,335 --> 01:19:30,083
I always prefer the term
826
01:19:30,086 --> 01:19:31,719
"debt collection."
827
01:19:33,356 --> 01:19:34,990
- Yeah.
- I refrain from judging
828
01:19:34,993 --> 01:19:37,043
whether my clients' wishes
829
01:19:37,045 --> 01:19:39,583
are legitimate or otherwise.
830
01:19:39,586 --> 01:19:41,567
A point of view
831
01:19:41,569 --> 01:19:44,490
I strongly recommend
you follow.
832
01:19:46,440 --> 01:19:48,318
My main
qualification of course
833
01:19:48,321 --> 01:19:51,207
was my considerable experience
with men and sex.
834
01:19:51,209 --> 01:19:54,929
But even my more specialized
skills came in handy.
835
01:20:19,119 --> 01:20:22,283
No, now this is not
how it goes.
836
01:20:22,286 --> 01:20:24,720
You have to wait
until you're hit.
837
01:20:28,097 --> 01:20:31,366
The two helpers that I
had recommended were okay,
838
01:20:31,369 --> 01:20:35,229
but they were predisposed to a
rather repetitive technique,
839
01:20:35,232 --> 01:20:39,578
which consisted of creating
as much havoc as possible
840
01:20:39,581 --> 01:20:41,807
with a pair of iron bars.
841
01:20:58,059 --> 01:21:01,572
Destroying your things doesn't
seem to have much effect on you.
842
01:21:01,575 --> 01:21:04,113
Here was a man.
843
01:21:04,116 --> 01:21:06,306
I was unable to read sexually,
844
01:21:06,308 --> 01:21:08,394
so I became persistent.
845
01:21:09,370 --> 01:21:11,143
Tie him to the chair.
846
01:21:12,850 --> 01:21:15,006
Don't hurt him.
847
01:21:18,661 --> 01:21:20,748
I can't find a stain on you,
848
01:21:20,750 --> 01:21:25,062
but my experience tells me
that no man is spotless.
849
01:21:25,066 --> 01:21:27,186
Luckily, you're equipped
850
01:21:27,188 --> 01:21:29,865
with a very reliable
truth-detector.
851
01:21:40,726 --> 01:21:43,889
I'm going to tell you
a few stories.
852
01:21:43,893 --> 01:21:46,431
All you have to do is listen.
853
01:21:48,312 --> 01:21:52,520
You're in a bar
watching a couple...
854
01:21:52,523 --> 01:21:54,921
I now meticulously
went through the catalog
855
01:21:54,924 --> 01:21:57,984
of sexual deviations
in fictional form.
856
01:21:57,986 --> 01:22:01,742
Stories about sadomasochism,
857
01:22:01,745 --> 01:22:04,735
fetishism, homosexuality,
858
01:22:04,738 --> 01:22:06,684
you name it.
859
01:22:06,686 --> 01:22:08,355
But he didn't react.
860
01:22:08,358 --> 01:22:11,278
And I'd almost given
up when I said:
861
01:22:11,280 --> 01:22:15,175
On your way home,
you walk through the park.
862
01:22:20,815 --> 01:22:22,693
And something makes you stop.
863
01:22:24,050 --> 01:22:26,067
You hear something.
864
01:22:40,650 --> 01:22:42,458
Yes, that's it.
865
01:22:42,462 --> 01:22:45,417
You can hear the children
on the playground.
866
01:22:47,542 --> 01:22:49,454
You sit on a bench nearby
867
01:22:49,456 --> 01:22:51,784
and watch them play.
868
01:22:53,004 --> 01:22:55,195
There's a little boy in shorts.
869
01:22:57,006 --> 01:22:59,302
He's playing in the sandpit.
870
01:23:01,461 --> 01:23:03,409
He looks at you
871
01:23:03,412 --> 01:23:06,367
with his blue eyes.
872
01:23:08,282 --> 01:23:10,090
He smiles at you.
873
01:23:10,092 --> 01:23:12,735
I think he comes to you.
874
01:23:12,738 --> 01:23:15,901
He sits on your lap
875
01:23:15,904 --> 01:23:17,747
and looks up at your face.
876
01:23:18,896 --> 01:23:20,460
He says
877
01:23:20,463 --> 01:23:23,279
he'd like to come
home with you.
878
01:23:27,074 --> 01:23:30,517
At home
you can't fight the idea
879
01:23:30,520 --> 01:23:32,780
of being naked together.
880
01:23:32,782 --> 01:23:35,598
He crawls all over you.
881
01:23:35,601 --> 01:23:39,948
- You get an erection.
- Won't you please stop?
882
01:23:39,951 --> 01:23:43,776
He lies on his stomach.
883
01:23:43,779 --> 01:23:46,004
You pull down his pants.
884
01:23:47,050 --> 01:23:48,510
I'll pay!
885
01:24:22,755 --> 01:24:24,284
You did what?
886
01:24:25,260 --> 01:24:26,999
I gave him a blowjob.
887
01:24:27,002 --> 01:24:29,121
♪ Why That pig? ♪
888
01:24:29,124 --> 01:24:32,045
- I took pity on him.
- Pity?
889
01:24:32,047 --> 01:24:35,524
Yes. I had just
destroyed his life.
890
01:24:35,527 --> 01:24:38,552
Nobody knew his secret,
891
01:24:38,555 --> 01:24:40,884
most probably not even himself.
892
01:24:42,417 --> 01:24:44,086
He sat there with the shame.
893
01:24:45,758 --> 01:24:48,784
I suppose I sucked him off
as a kind of apology.
894
01:24:48,786 --> 01:24:50,106
That's unbelievable.
895
01:24:51,290 --> 01:24:53,238
No, listen to me. This is a man
896
01:24:53,240 --> 01:24:56,856
who'd succeeded
in repressing his own desire,
897
01:24:56,860 --> 01:24:59,328
who had never before
given into it
898
01:24:59,331 --> 01:25:02,286
right up until I forced it out.
899
01:25:02,288 --> 01:25:04,791
He had lived a life
full of denial
900
01:25:04,795 --> 01:25:07,297
and had never hurt a soul.
901
01:25:07,300 --> 01:25:09,107
I think that's laudable.
902
01:25:10,709 --> 01:25:12,204
No matter how hard I try,
903
01:25:12,207 --> 01:25:14,849
I can't find anything
laudable in pedophilia.
904
01:25:14,851 --> 01:25:16,658
That's because you think about
905
01:25:16,662 --> 01:25:20,208
the perhaps 5%
who actually hurt children.
906
01:25:20,211 --> 01:25:22,923
The remaining 95%
907
01:25:22,925 --> 01:25:26,054
never live out their fantasies.
908
01:25:26,057 --> 01:25:28,769
Think about their suffering.
909
01:25:28,772 --> 01:25:31,692
Sexuality is
the strongest force
910
01:25:31,694 --> 01:25:33,641
in human beings.
911
01:25:33,644 --> 01:25:36,599
To be born
with a forbidden sexuality
912
01:25:36,602 --> 01:25:38,409
must be agonizing.
913
01:25:39,907 --> 01:25:42,515
The pedophile who manages
to get through life
914
01:25:42,518 --> 01:25:45,300
with the shame of his desire
915
01:25:45,303 --> 01:25:49,406
while never acting on it
deserves a bloody medal.
916
01:25:54,698 --> 01:25:57,549
But there was another
reason for my sympathy,
917
01:25:57,551 --> 01:25:59,950
which you find so mysterious.
918
01:26:02,771 --> 01:26:06,006
I saw a man who was carrying
the same cross as myself.
919
01:26:09,278 --> 01:26:11,434
Loneliness.
920
01:26:14,602 --> 01:26:17,489
We were both sexual outcasts.
921
01:26:26,817 --> 01:26:29,425
In any case, some years passed,
922
01:26:29,428 --> 01:26:31,340
during which my business grew,
923
01:26:31,343 --> 01:26:35,029
enabling me to step up
my anonymous deposits
924
01:26:35,032 --> 01:26:36,665
to marcel.
925
01:26:38,093 --> 01:26:40,945
Your business is doing great...
926
01:26:42,756 --> 01:26:45,991
You complete all the jobs
I give you to perfection
927
01:26:45,994 --> 01:26:49,019
and I hear only words of praise
from your other clients.
928
01:26:49,022 --> 01:26:51,073
But...
929
01:26:51,075 --> 01:26:54,030
- But what?
- We aren't getting any younger.
930
01:26:54,033 --> 01:26:56,988
Oh. No, that's for sure.
931
01:26:56,990 --> 01:26:59,632
I think you're getting
to that age
932
01:26:59,635 --> 01:27:02,625
where you have to start
thinking about a successor.
933
01:27:02,628 --> 01:27:04,749
Ohhh.
934
01:27:04,751 --> 01:27:07,149
- I don't need a fucking successor.
- Listen.
935
01:27:08,612 --> 01:27:11,952
A person should take
their crime seriously.
936
01:27:11,955 --> 01:27:14,666
You need someone
937
01:27:14,669 --> 01:27:17,137
to be your right hand,
someone to help you.
938
01:27:17,139 --> 01:27:19,538
A crown princess.
939
01:27:21,593 --> 01:27:24,236
The normal process
940
01:27:24,239 --> 01:27:26,499
is to find out what colleagues
941
01:27:26,501 --> 01:27:29,003
are in prison
or are drug addicts,
942
01:27:29,006 --> 01:27:31,336
and thereby unable to fulfill
943
01:27:31,338 --> 01:27:32,971
their roles as parents.
944
01:27:34,748 --> 01:27:38,156
Then you find out where
their kids play football...
945
01:27:39,411 --> 01:27:41,393
And you get involved.
946
01:27:41,396 --> 01:27:43,516
You cheer them on
for a couple of years
947
01:27:43,518 --> 01:27:46,543
no matter how bad they are.
Actually, the worse, the better.
948
01:27:46,546 --> 01:27:48,701
That way
949
01:27:48,704 --> 01:27:51,729
gradually you take on
the role of the parent
950
01:27:51,731 --> 01:27:53,955
until in the end
951
01:27:53,958 --> 01:27:57,819
you have a loyal helper that
will walk through fire for you.
952
01:27:59,282 --> 01:28:01,125
Even do time for you.
953
01:28:05,511 --> 01:28:07,179
It sounds like a...
954
01:28:07,182 --> 01:28:10,068
Kind of an entrapment
you're suggesting.
955
01:28:10,071 --> 01:28:13,375
- An unsavory entrapment.
- Call it what you want,
956
01:28:13,377 --> 01:28:15,879
but if you believe at all
957
01:28:15,883 --> 01:28:18,072
in the effects
of good parenting,
958
01:28:18,074 --> 01:28:20,717
that kid will have
much greater opportunities
959
01:28:20,720 --> 01:28:23,049
with you as a mentor
than without.
960
01:28:24,616 --> 01:28:26,773
And since I like you,
961
01:28:26,775 --> 01:28:30,147
I've been looking around
for a suitable subject.
962
01:28:30,150 --> 01:28:33,245
She's 15 years old
963
01:28:33,248 --> 01:28:36,481
from a family
of hardened criminals,
964
01:28:36,484 --> 01:28:38,883
and she's been through a lot.
965
01:28:38,885 --> 01:28:41,910
Last couple of years
she's been institutionalized.
966
01:28:41,913 --> 01:28:45,530
Her father is in prison and her
mother died of an overdose.
967
01:28:45,533 --> 01:28:47,166
She's a smart girl.
968
01:28:47,168 --> 01:28:49,392
And although
she doesn't play football,
969
01:28:49,395 --> 01:28:52,072
she does play basketball...
very badly.
970
01:28:53,362 --> 01:28:56,213
She's chosen a team sport
971
01:28:56,216 --> 01:28:58,301
because she's lonely.
972
01:28:59,555 --> 01:29:02,164
I saved the best part for last:
973
01:29:02,167 --> 01:29:05,609
Her right ear is
slightly deformed...
974
01:29:06,829 --> 01:29:09,925
Which she's very ashamed of,
975
01:29:09,928 --> 01:29:13,126
and of course this serves
to isolate her even more.
976
01:29:13,128 --> 01:29:15,145
It makes her an easy target
977
01:29:15,148 --> 01:29:18,450
for even the slightest
bit of attention
978
01:29:18,453 --> 01:29:22,383
or sign of empathy from you.
979
01:29:26,944 --> 01:29:29,309
Despite
my protests,
980
01:29:29,311 --> 01:29:31,048
the clever I somehow talked me
981
01:29:31,051 --> 01:29:32,998
into actually having
a look at p.
982
01:29:35,646 --> 01:29:38,775
The longer I watched the poor
girl with the deformed ear,
983
01:29:38,777 --> 01:29:42,045
the more repulsive
I found the whole plan.
984
01:30:10,584 --> 01:30:13,261
But as if
I had foreseen this,
985
01:30:13,263 --> 01:30:17,402
the meeting with p filled me
with pity and emotion.
986
01:30:18,866 --> 01:30:21,022
And without wanting to,
987
01:30:21,024 --> 01:30:24,014
I found myself,
weekend after weekend,
988
01:30:24,017 --> 01:30:27,877
at her games
supporting the poor player.
989
01:30:44,061 --> 01:30:45,800
Thanks for cheering me on.
990
01:30:45,802 --> 01:30:47,401
You're welcome.
991
01:30:48,829 --> 01:30:50,916
You played really well today.
992
01:30:53,040 --> 01:30:56,031
- No, I didn't.
- You did.
993
01:30:56,033 --> 01:30:58,501
You really improved
yourself lately.
994
01:31:01,983 --> 01:31:04,488
I was
proud to introduce p
995
01:31:04,490 --> 01:31:06,748
to my father's passion...
996
01:31:06,751 --> 01:31:08,594
And to his world.
997
01:31:13,259 --> 01:31:15,032
It's actually...
998
01:31:16,981 --> 01:31:18,615
The souls of the trees
999
01:31:18,618 --> 01:31:20,635
that we see in the winter.
1000
01:31:27,944 --> 01:31:30,031
I think they look
like human souls.
1001
01:31:34,696 --> 01:31:36,400
You're right.
1002
01:31:36,402 --> 01:31:39,531
They do look like human souls.
1003
01:31:40,959 --> 01:31:42,698
Twisted souls,
1004
01:31:42,700 --> 01:31:45,168
regular souls, crazy souls.
1005
01:31:46,770 --> 01:31:49,658
All depending on the kind
of lives human beings lead.
1006
01:31:55,053 --> 01:31:56,826
I found my tree,
1007
01:31:56,829 --> 01:31:59,019
my soul tree.
1008
01:32:02,014 --> 01:32:03,926
This is my tree.
1009
01:32:07,616 --> 01:32:09,841
It's not an ash tree.
1010
01:32:09,845 --> 01:32:11,756
No, it's an oak tree.
1011
01:32:23,207 --> 01:32:25,954
My father found his soul tree,
1012
01:32:25,958 --> 01:32:28,391
but I've...
I've never found mine.
1013
01:32:29,923 --> 01:32:32,184
"You will know it
when you see it,"
1014
01:32:32,187 --> 01:32:34,445
that's what he said.
1015
01:32:40,572 --> 01:32:42,729
When p reached
the age of majority
1016
01:32:42,731 --> 01:32:45,337
and I became
her personal advisor,
1017
01:32:45,341 --> 01:32:48,053
I asked her to move in with me.
1018
01:32:55,222 --> 01:32:57,136
I've never seen you
with your hair up.
1019
01:32:58,112 --> 01:33:00,302
It's so pretty.
1020
01:33:13,251 --> 01:33:16,658
All this time all
my sexual activity had stopped.
1021
01:33:16,660 --> 01:33:20,381
My groin was one big sore
from my abuse
1022
01:33:20,384 --> 01:33:22,296
that wouldn't heal
1023
01:33:22,299 --> 01:33:24,767
and made
even masturbation impossible.
1024
01:33:29,570 --> 01:33:32,736
I experienced definite
abstinence symptoms:
1025
01:33:32,739 --> 01:33:34,893
Fever and cramps.
1026
01:33:49,998 --> 01:33:51,633
Joe, what's going on?
1027
01:33:54,174 --> 01:33:57,061
- Careful.
- We need to clear this up.
1028
01:34:07,155 --> 01:34:09,241
I just get this sometimes.
1029
01:34:12,967 --> 01:34:14,670
It's okay, it's okay.
1030
01:34:16,098 --> 01:34:18,184
Perhaps she
really loved you.
1031
01:34:19,997 --> 01:34:22,117
I couldn't accept it.
1032
01:34:22,121 --> 01:34:25,458
Perhaps because you really
wanted it to be true.
1033
01:34:27,966 --> 01:34:30,226
Perhaps I hoped it.
1034
01:34:30,229 --> 01:34:32,767
It's very touching,
all this about p.
1035
01:34:35,691 --> 01:34:38,473
Then you've probably
misunderstood the whole thing.
1036
01:35:08,683 --> 01:35:10,386
Don't.
1037
01:35:12,024 --> 01:35:13,414
I wanna see you.
1038
01:35:13,416 --> 01:35:15,397
- Don't.
- Why?
1039
01:35:15,399 --> 01:35:17,241
- Please don't.
- Why not?
1040
01:35:17,244 --> 01:35:20,442
No. No, I have a wound.
1041
01:35:20,445 --> 01:35:22,878
- I have a wound.
- It doesn't matter.
1042
01:35:22,881 --> 01:35:24,828
No, you don't understand.
1043
01:35:24,831 --> 01:35:27,647
I have that thing with my ear.
1044
01:35:27,649 --> 01:35:29,665
I'm so ashamed.
1045
01:36:09,165 --> 01:36:10,903
D'you like me?
1046
01:36:15,080 --> 01:36:16,889
You're so beautiful.
1047
01:37:51,652 --> 01:37:53,807
There's one thing
I don't understand.
1048
01:37:55,654 --> 01:37:57,949
Did she know what
you did for a living?
1049
01:37:59,133 --> 01:38:01,151
P was very discreet
1050
01:38:01,153 --> 01:38:03,517
and a girl of few words.
1051
01:38:05,084 --> 01:38:07,832
Oddly, although
I worked strange hours,
1052
01:38:07,835 --> 01:38:10,407
she never asked about my work.
1053
01:38:12,114 --> 01:38:14,062
But one day she had a question.
1054
01:38:16,186 --> 01:38:18,238
Joe?
1055
01:38:23,389 --> 01:38:26,658
Why did you start coming
to my basketball matches?
1056
01:38:29,479 --> 01:38:31,670
It wasn't a coincidence,
was it?
1057
01:38:38,458 --> 01:38:40,683
No, it wasn't a coincidence.
1058
01:38:45,105 --> 01:38:47,470
I didn't tell you because I...
1059
01:38:48,898 --> 01:38:51,297
I thought you'd be upset...
1060
01:38:52,691 --> 01:38:55,230
And that you'd get angry at me.
1061
01:38:56,206 --> 01:38:58,049
I won't get angry.
1062
01:39:03,028 --> 01:39:05,183
What I do...
1063
01:39:07,342 --> 01:39:09,777
My job isn't a normal job.
1064
01:39:09,779 --> 01:39:12,073
It's not legal.
1065
01:39:12,076 --> 01:39:15,067
No one in my family
does anything legal.
1066
01:39:21,367 --> 01:39:23,662
A man that's helped me
in my business
1067
01:39:23,665 --> 01:39:25,368
suggested that I watched you.
1068
01:39:28,953 --> 01:39:30,936
The plan was that I...
1069
01:39:30,938 --> 01:39:33,545
I should look at you
1070
01:39:33,548 --> 01:39:36,190
to see whether one day
1071
01:39:36,192 --> 01:39:37,756
I could use you in my work.
1072
01:39:38,766 --> 01:39:41,167
I should make friends with you,
1073
01:39:41,170 --> 01:39:44,786
because I knew you didn't
have a mother or a father.
1074
01:39:44,789 --> 01:39:46,526
What's wrong with that?
1075
01:39:47,745 --> 01:39:50,631
Don't you see
how evil that plan was?
1076
01:39:50,635 --> 01:39:53,068
I felt terrible.
1077
01:39:53,070 --> 01:39:55,156
You shouldn't have.
1078
01:39:55,159 --> 01:39:57,105
Why not?
1079
01:39:59,961 --> 01:40:02,394
Because if you hadn't...
1080
01:40:04,414 --> 01:40:06,292
We'd never have met.
1081
01:40:12,175 --> 01:40:15,027
I'd like to go with you to work
1082
01:40:15,030 --> 01:40:17,324
- next time.
- No.
1083
01:40:26,756 --> 01:40:29,191
Will you think about it?
1084
01:40:29,194 --> 01:40:31,244
- No.
- Yes.
1085
01:40:31,246 --> 01:40:32,462
No.
1086
01:40:32,465 --> 01:40:35,386
She didn't take no
for an answer.
1087
01:40:35,388 --> 01:40:37,507
No, of course not.
1088
01:40:37,511 --> 01:40:41,092
How do you keep a wave
upon the sand?
1089
01:40:44,260 --> 01:40:47,356
With the risk of being
too clever for myself,
1090
01:40:47,359 --> 01:40:50,071
social inheritance
1091
01:40:50,074 --> 01:40:52,577
is an irrefutable fact.
1092
01:40:52,579 --> 01:40:55,951
If anyone knew about
the laws of the street,
1093
01:40:55,954 --> 01:40:57,727
it must've been p.
1094
01:40:59,956 --> 01:41:02,321
You're more right
than you know.
1095
01:41:04,619 --> 01:41:06,948
Let's shoot the fucker.
1096
01:41:08,064 --> 01:41:10,116
Stop! Stop!
1097
01:41:14,746 --> 01:41:16,694
We don't use firearms.
1098
01:41:18,504 --> 01:41:22,643
- I'd like to have the gun.
- The others have weapons too.
1099
01:41:23,655 --> 01:41:25,707
Well, I didn't know that.
1100
01:41:25,709 --> 01:41:27,933
But in any case,
you're not to have one.
1101
01:41:27,936 --> 01:41:30,370
But guns aren't dangerous.
1102
01:41:30,372 --> 01:41:33,292
It depends on how you use them.
1103
01:41:33,296 --> 01:41:35,068
Yes, exactly.
1104
01:41:35,070 --> 01:41:37,086
I wasn't going to shoot him.
1105
01:41:37,089 --> 01:41:40,357
We wouldn't have gotten any
money out of him that way.
1106
01:41:40,360 --> 01:41:41,889
Can I have the gun?
1107
01:41:46,622 --> 01:41:48,640
Thank you.
1108
01:42:09,556 --> 01:42:10,947
You're evil.
1109
01:42:16,203 --> 01:42:19,890
And now I'm afraid
one of those coincidences
1110
01:42:19,893 --> 01:42:21,456
you have such a hard time with
1111
01:42:21,458 --> 01:42:24,345
occurred
with a very special person.
1112
01:42:26,330 --> 01:42:29,320
It was p's job to take us
to the debtors,
1113
01:42:29,323 --> 01:42:31,583
so until I saw
the name on the door,
1114
01:42:31,586 --> 01:42:34,228
I had no idea
whose house we were at.
1115
01:42:38,718 --> 01:42:40,840
Are you sure this is
the right place?
1116
01:42:40,843 --> 01:42:42,302
Yeah.
1117
01:42:49,403 --> 01:42:51,663
I was thinking maybe it's time
1118
01:42:51,666 --> 01:42:55,420
for you to do
this one on your own.
1119
01:42:55,424 --> 01:42:57,022
Yeah?
1120
01:42:59,146 --> 01:43:00,572
Thank you, Joe.
1121
01:43:00,574 --> 01:43:02,868
I don't want anything destroyed
1122
01:43:02,872 --> 01:43:05,166
and I don't want anybody hurt.
1123
01:43:05,169 --> 01:43:08,263
Okay? You just show yourself
1124
01:43:08,266 --> 01:43:11,289
and offer him
a reasonable payment plan.
1125
01:43:12,335 --> 01:43:14,387
If you say so.
1126
01:43:14,390 --> 01:43:15,989
Of course that's how
I'll do it.
1127
01:43:32,172 --> 01:43:34,711
Whether the feeling
when I saw Jerome again
1128
01:43:34,713 --> 01:43:36,590
was love, I couldn't say.
1129
01:43:39,794 --> 01:43:41,915
But it was a feeling,
1130
01:43:41,917 --> 01:43:44,872
and far stronger than I liked.
1131
01:43:57,402 --> 01:44:00,324
I was actually walking home
through the alley here.
1132
01:44:01,822 --> 01:44:04,604
No two neighborhoods
are totally different
1133
01:44:04,606 --> 01:44:06,796
but still so close together
1134
01:44:06,799 --> 01:44:09,163
that the shortest route
from Jerome's house
1135
01:44:09,166 --> 01:44:12,121
towards the center
was through the alley.
1136
01:44:19,571 --> 01:44:21,935
Hello!
1137
01:44:21,938 --> 01:44:24,024
How did it go?
1138
01:44:24,026 --> 01:44:26,215
Brilliant.
1139
01:44:26,218 --> 01:44:27,886
Yeah, really well.
1140
01:44:29,592 --> 01:44:32,513
I made a reasonable payment
plan like you told me to.
1141
01:44:32,516 --> 01:44:34,080
How did he look?
1142
01:44:35,509 --> 01:44:37,665
Scared.
1143
01:44:37,667 --> 01:44:40,309
How old did he look?
1144
01:44:40,312 --> 01:44:42,328
I dunno.
1145
01:44:42,330 --> 01:44:43,963
Ancient?
1146
01:45:04,184 --> 01:45:08,600
Jerome was to pay
off his debt in six payments.
1147
01:45:08,604 --> 01:45:11,628
Every time p went
to Jerome to collect,
1148
01:45:11,632 --> 01:45:13,857
I paced around restlessly
1149
01:45:13,860 --> 01:45:16,328
until she was back home again.
1150
01:45:18,626 --> 01:45:22,557
I even had to find my mother's
sad old solitaire cards
1151
01:45:22,560 --> 01:45:25,306
in order to make
the hours pass.
1152
01:45:33,346 --> 01:45:36,442
Each night I was less
reassured by her coming home
1153
01:45:36,445 --> 01:45:38,356
than the night before.
1154
01:45:38,358 --> 01:45:41,905
The question of whether
jealousy is the fear of sharing
1155
01:45:41,908 --> 01:45:45,455
or the fear of losing
was of little interest to me.
1156
01:45:45,458 --> 01:45:47,822
But yes, it was a fact
1157
01:45:47,825 --> 01:45:51,858
that this unworthy feeling I had
managed to suppress for so long
1158
01:45:51,861 --> 01:45:53,982
was creeping up on me.
1159
01:45:57,324 --> 01:46:00,176
The evening she was
to collect the final payment
1160
01:46:00,179 --> 01:46:02,160
she didn't kiss me.
1161
01:46:02,162 --> 01:46:04,630
I took it to be forgetfulness,
1162
01:46:04,634 --> 01:46:08,215
but the hours passed
and she didn't return.
1163
01:46:16,429 --> 01:46:18,898
Every time I saw car lights,
1164
01:46:18,901 --> 01:46:21,439
I thought it was p
being driven home.
1165
01:47:26,448 --> 01:47:29,334
I had
decided to flee.
1166
01:47:29,336 --> 01:47:33,092
I couldn't stay in this town
with her and him.
1167
01:47:34,764 --> 01:47:38,278
I had cowardly made a plan
to escape and head South,
1168
01:47:38,281 --> 01:47:41,758
like from some ice age
I didn't have the guts
1169
01:47:41,760 --> 01:47:44,542
to turn around and face.
1170
01:47:44,545 --> 01:47:49,031
But the goodbye was sad
and strangely unfulfilling.
1171
01:47:49,034 --> 01:47:51,328
And something called me on
1172
01:47:51,331 --> 01:47:53,625
to seek further up
the Mountain.
1173
01:49:11,335 --> 01:49:14,604
It's said to be difficult
to take someone's life.
1174
01:49:14,607 --> 01:49:18,780
I would've said that
it's more difficult not to.
1175
01:49:20,209 --> 01:49:21,949
For a human being,
1176
01:49:21,951 --> 01:49:24,489
killing is the most
natural thing in the world.
1177
01:49:25,847 --> 01:49:28,212
We're created for it.
1178
01:49:30,266 --> 01:49:32,388
Wonderful.
1179
01:50:25,356 --> 01:50:26,607
No, get off!
1180
01:50:26,609 --> 01:50:29,564
Sorry.
1181
01:50:36,909 --> 01:50:39,134
Fireman's grip.
1182
01:53:05,646 --> 01:53:08,531
Oh. Oh yeah.
1183
01:54:40,719 --> 01:54:44,268
Fill all my holes please.
1184
01:55:06,368 --> 01:55:09,358
I still don't know why
the gun didn't work.
1185
01:55:09,361 --> 01:55:10,959
I did check to make sure
1186
01:55:10,962 --> 01:55:13,082
that there were bullets
in the magazine.
1187
01:55:14,442 --> 01:55:16,702
It simply malfunctioned,
1188
01:55:16,704 --> 01:55:20,042
just like bond's beretta.
1189
01:55:20,045 --> 01:55:22,165
I think I know enough
to say that
1190
01:55:22,167 --> 01:55:25,540
even if you had rounds in the
magazine of the walther p.P.K.,
1191
01:55:25,543 --> 01:55:28,081
and you'd taken off
the safety...
1192
01:55:29,405 --> 01:55:32,500
You cannot shoot
until you rack the gun.
1193
01:55:32,504 --> 01:55:36,851
You pull and release
the sliding mechanism.
1194
01:55:38,557 --> 01:55:40,957
And p hadn't done it
because, as she said,
1195
01:55:40,960 --> 01:55:43,742
she had no intention
of shooting the man.
1196
01:55:45,900 --> 01:55:48,962
I don't know about bond, but I
assume it has to be apparent
1197
01:55:48,965 --> 01:55:51,328
from his books
and his films that
1198
01:55:51,330 --> 01:55:54,459
you have to rack
an automatic pistol.
1199
01:55:55,574 --> 01:55:57,939
Of course, you're right.
1200
01:55:59,576 --> 01:56:02,707
I've seen it in films
a thousand times.
1201
01:56:08,207 --> 01:56:09,494
It's morning.
1202
01:56:12,453 --> 01:56:14,226
And the snow is gone.
1203
01:56:14,230 --> 01:56:16,489
So the sun must be out?
1204
01:56:16,491 --> 01:56:18,889
Yes, there is sun.
1205
01:56:25,085 --> 01:56:27,973
I've never managed to figure
out where it comes from.
1206
01:56:29,679 --> 01:56:31,870
It must be some interplay
1207
01:56:31,873 --> 01:56:34,584
between windows
1208
01:56:34,586 --> 01:56:37,716
and towers and high buildings.
1209
01:56:41,407 --> 01:56:43,250
It's not much,
1210
01:56:43,252 --> 01:56:46,416
but it's the sun you get
here at my place.
1211
01:56:51,011 --> 01:56:52,646
It's beautiful.
1212
01:57:03,679 --> 01:57:06,287
In the
beginning you said that
1213
01:57:06,290 --> 01:57:09,628
your only sin was that you
asked more of the sunset.
1214
01:57:11,613 --> 01:57:13,665
Meaning, I suppose,
that you wanted
1215
01:57:13,668 --> 01:57:15,858
more from life
than was good for you.
1216
01:57:19,131 --> 01:57:22,156
You were a human being
demanding your right.
1217
01:57:22,159 --> 01:57:25,011
And more than that,
1218
01:57:25,013 --> 01:57:28,281
you were a woman
demanding her right.
1219
01:57:31,450 --> 01:57:33,850
Does that pardon everything?
1220
01:57:35,730 --> 01:57:37,504
Do you think if two men
1221
01:57:37,506 --> 01:57:39,939
would've walked down a
train looking for women,
1222
01:57:39,942 --> 01:57:43,280
do you think anybody would
have raised an eyebrow?
1223
01:57:44,778 --> 01:57:47,665
Or if a man had led
the life you had?
1224
01:57:49,407 --> 01:57:52,293
And the story about Mrs. H
1225
01:57:52,296 --> 01:57:55,878
would've been extremely
banal if you'd been a man
1226
01:57:55,880 --> 01:57:58,905
and your conquest would
have been a woman.
1227
01:58:00,509 --> 01:58:03,082
When a man leaves his children
1228
01:58:03,084 --> 01:58:05,865
because of desire,
1229
01:58:05,868 --> 01:58:08,789
we accept it with a shrug,
but you as a woman,
1230
01:58:08,792 --> 01:58:13,104
you had to take on a...
a guilt, a burden of guilt
1231
01:58:13,107 --> 01:58:15,228
that could never be alleviated.
1232
01:58:18,882 --> 01:58:22,013
And all in all,
all the blame and guilt
1233
01:58:22,016 --> 01:58:25,772
that piled up over the years
became too much for you,
1234
01:58:25,774 --> 01:58:29,390
you reacted aggressively...
almost like a man I have to say...
1235
01:58:29,393 --> 01:58:31,234
and you fought back.
1236
01:58:32,559 --> 01:58:35,202
You fought back against
the gender that had been
1237
01:58:35,205 --> 01:58:37,290
oppressing and mutilating
1238
01:58:37,292 --> 01:58:39,935
and killing you
and billions of women.
1239
01:58:42,303 --> 01:58:45,154
But I wanted to kill
a human being.
1240
01:58:48,741 --> 01:58:50,967
But you didn't.
1241
01:58:52,952 --> 01:58:55,212
Because of a chance event.
1242
01:58:55,215 --> 01:58:58,204
You call it a chance event.
1243
01:58:59,320 --> 01:59:02,450
I call it
subconscious resistance.
1244
01:59:02,453 --> 01:59:05,408
On the surface
you wanted to kill,
1245
01:59:05,411 --> 01:59:08,680
but deep down you
celebrated human worth
1246
01:59:08,683 --> 01:59:11,568
and a veil of forgetfulness
1247
01:59:11,570 --> 01:59:15,014
draped itself over your
knowledge of how to rack a gun.
1248
01:59:18,113 --> 01:59:22,461
Although all this sounds frighteningly
close to the cliches of our times...
1249
01:59:24,377 --> 01:59:26,288
and I'm predisposed
1250
01:59:26,291 --> 01:59:28,621
to knock holes
in your arguments...
1251
01:59:31,337 --> 01:59:33,354
I'm too tired.
1252
01:59:33,356 --> 01:59:35,511
Well, that's good.
1253
01:59:38,088 --> 01:59:40,278
Why don't you lay down?
1254
01:59:42,960 --> 01:59:45,221
Yes.
1255
01:59:56,671 --> 02:00:00,149
Let me just say
that telling my story
1256
02:00:00,152 --> 02:00:02,690
as you insisted...
1257
02:00:02,692 --> 02:00:05,161
or permitted...
1258
02:00:05,164 --> 02:00:07,980
has put me at ease.
1259
02:00:09,930 --> 02:00:12,365
At this moment
1260
02:00:12,367 --> 02:00:16,261
my addiction is
very clear to me...
1261
02:00:18,665 --> 02:00:21,064
And I've come to a decision.
1262
02:00:23,189 --> 02:00:27,223
Even though
only one in a million,
1263
02:00:27,226 --> 02:00:30,844
as my dubious therapist said,
1264
02:00:30,847 --> 02:00:32,932
succeed in...
1265
02:00:34,325 --> 02:00:37,629
Mentally, bodily...
1266
02:00:38,884 --> 02:00:41,631
And in her heart
1267
02:00:41,633 --> 02:00:45,911
of ridding herself
of her sexuality,
1268
02:00:45,914 --> 02:00:48,834
this is now my goal.
1269
02:00:50,193 --> 02:00:53,010
But is that a life
worth living?
1270
02:00:55,971 --> 02:00:58,718
It's the only way
I can live it.
1271
02:01:03,139 --> 02:01:07,105
I will stand up
against all odds...
1272
02:01:11,839 --> 02:01:15,491
Just like a deformed tree
on a hill.
1273
02:01:23,637 --> 02:01:26,419
I will muster
1274
02:01:26,422 --> 02:01:28,890
all my stubbornness...
1275
02:01:32,093 --> 02:01:34,110
My strength...
1276
02:01:36,895 --> 02:01:39,364
My masculine aggression.
1277
02:01:41,907 --> 02:01:46,290
But most of all
I want to say thanks
1278
02:01:46,293 --> 02:01:49,944
to my new,
and maybe first friend.
1279
02:01:51,512 --> 02:01:53,738
Thank you, seligman...
1280
02:01:55,619 --> 02:01:59,967
Who perhaps is happy
when all is said and done.
1281
02:02:06,337 --> 02:02:09,258
I'm happy at any rate
1282
02:02:09,261 --> 02:02:12,390
that the shot didn't go off
1283
02:02:12,393 --> 02:02:14,722
and made me a murderer.
1284
02:02:20,640 --> 02:02:24,223
If I may,
I'd like to sleep now.
1285
02:02:28,225 --> 02:02:30,660
I'll make sure
you won't be disturbed.
1286
02:02:41,903 --> 02:02:43,816
Good night, Joe.
1287
02:02:44,861 --> 02:02:47,225
Good night, seligman.
1288
02:04:17,464 --> 02:04:19,029
No!
1289
02:04:22,231 --> 02:04:25,187
But you...
you've fucked thousands of men.
1290
02:05:12,853 --> 02:05:14,939
♪ Hey, Joe ♪
1291
02:05:16,889 --> 02:05:20,540
♪ where are you going ♪
♪ with that gun in your hand? ♪
1292
02:05:26,804 --> 02:05:29,586
♪ Hey, Joe ♪
1293
02:05:29,588 --> 02:05:34,875
♪ I said where are you going ♪
♪ with that gun in your hand? ♪
1294
02:05:41,208 --> 02:05:43,642
♪ I'm going down ♪
♪ to shoot my old lady ♪
1295
02:05:45,661 --> 02:05:49,766
♪ you know I caught her messing ♪
♪ around with another man ♪
1296
02:05:55,438 --> 02:05:58,742
♪ I'm going down ♪
♪ to shoot my old lady ♪
1297
02:06:00,727 --> 02:06:04,656
♪ you know I caught her messing ♪
♪ around with another man ♪
1298
02:06:06,605 --> 02:06:08,831
♪ and that ain't too cool ♪
1299
02:06:11,164 --> 02:06:13,389
♪ hey, Joe ♪
1300
02:06:15,443 --> 02:06:18,086
♪ I heard you shot ♪
♪ your woman down ♪
1301
02:06:18,088 --> 02:06:20,904
♪ you shot her down now ♪
1302
02:06:24,976 --> 02:06:27,585
♪ hey, Joe ♪
1303
02:06:29,952 --> 02:06:32,734
♪ I heard you shot ♪
♪ your lady down ♪
1304
02:06:32,736 --> 02:06:36,282
♪ you shot her down ♪
♪ to the ground ♪
1305
02:06:39,728 --> 02:06:42,510
♪ yes, I did, I shot her ♪
1306
02:06:44,112 --> 02:06:47,729
♪ you know I caught her ♪
♪ messing around town ♪
1307
02:06:53,992 --> 02:06:56,704
♪ yes, I did, I shot her ♪
1308
02:06:58,689 --> 02:07:03,281
♪ you know I caught my old lady ♪
♪ messing around town ♪
1309
02:07:03,283 --> 02:07:05,715
♪ and I gave her the gun ♪
1310
02:07:05,718 --> 02:07:08,151
♪ I shot her ♪
1311
02:07:36,995 --> 02:07:39,568
♪ hey, Joe ♪
1312
02:07:41,587 --> 02:07:44,857
♪ where you gonna go to now? ♪
1313
02:07:50,876 --> 02:07:53,659
♪ Hey, Joe ♪
1314
02:07:55,956 --> 02:07:59,156
♪ where you gonna go to now? ♪
1315
02:08:05,002 --> 02:08:07,575
♪ I'm going way down South ♪
1316
02:08:09,595 --> 02:08:12,794
♪ way down to Mexico way ♪
1317
02:08:18,953 --> 02:08:21,632
♪ I'm going way down South ♪
1318
02:08:23,337 --> 02:08:26,572
♪ way down ♪
♪ where I can be free ♪
1319
02:08:31,652 --> 02:08:34,817
♪ ain't no hangman gonna ♪
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♪ he ain't gonna put ♪
♪ a rope around me ♪
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♪ hey, Joe ♪
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♪ you'd better run on down ♪
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♪ good night. ♪
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