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TO OUR FATHER
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In August 1948 in Calcutta
Mother Teresa is waiting for the Pope's permission -
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leaves the Loreto sisters
to found her own nunnery.
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God's blessing.
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Everything is fine. Just breathe.
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Breathe in and out.
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DAY 7
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Good morning, mom.
- Morning, Agatha.
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Did you get mail today?
- No.
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I lost another child today.
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A child?
- Yes.
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Infant.
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It was horrible.
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There are people and children,
bodies everywhere. So do we here.
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What do you... Why?
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Don't get attached
to places and objects.
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Or still life.
It's good exercise.
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You don't do it enough.
You know that yourself.
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There is no need for that.
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Must be an example,
if you want others to follow.
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I was thinking this morning,
that everyone should have a number.
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The sisters must be sent to missionary work
following logic, -
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which is based on previous works,
for years of service...
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That would be fairer.
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No prejudice or discrimination.
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And no favorite system.
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What would my number be?
- Yours?
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One.
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You are a man. You can do anything.
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I'm trapped here.
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In this prison,
where I expect the world to change.
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I'm a woman in the system,
run by men like you.
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There are only men.
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Look at these walls.
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What are they for?
What are we afraid of?
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Is your faith wavering?
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Maybe. Is that a crime?
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I think about it sometimes.
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I can't manage the monastery anymore.
It's exhausting and pointless.
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Is it horrible to admit it?
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I have known you for ten years.
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We weren't just a father-in-law
and ripped, but rather...
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Like brother and sister.
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Like brother and sister.
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We'll stay that way.
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Who will replace you?
- Sister Agnieszka.
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Does he know about it?
- Yes.
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Mother...
- Father.
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Excellent.
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H...
- Hat!
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What else? Is there another word?
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Hair!
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Hair!
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Then K.
- Cat!
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Cat. What does the cat say?
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Cat.
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Good morning, girls.
- Good morning, mom.
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Good morning, mom!
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I left something for you in my office.
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Thanks.
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I.
- Air!
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What else?
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I.
- India.
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India!
- India.
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Sister!
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It's always nice to see you.
- So do you.
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How much do I get for this?
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220 rupees.
- No. It is much more valuable.
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240, no more.
- 300.
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290.
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That's fine.
- Good.
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A bag of flour and a bag of lentils.
Here it is.
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Namaste.
- Thank you.
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Mother.
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where were you
- Your sisterhood rules.
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Very good. Beautiful handwriting.
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Let's dress simple
and a modest cotton outfit...
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We travel in pairs
by the cheapest means of transport -
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praying during the journey...
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We meet the family -
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only once in ten years.
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What if there is an emergency?
A death in the family?
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The rules apply to everyone.
No exceptions.
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No exceptions...
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I have always supported you.
- True.
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We want to live...
- You. Your vision.
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Our vision.
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Sister...
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What is this?
- Nothing.
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Is something wrong?
- There isn't.
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I have decided
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to follow Jesus
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I have decided
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to follow Jesus
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I have decided
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to follow Jesus
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there is no going back
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there is no going back
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I have decided
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to follow Jesus
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This is bread.
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God's blessing.
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God's blessing.
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God's blessing.
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DAY 6
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You look tired.
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What is that?
- I got it from the bank.
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They saw
how difficult it was with the numbers, -
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so they gave us
this fine machine.
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They said,
that it makes my life easier.
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Did that happen?
- Yes.
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A small amount is missing.
It's nothing.
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How much? - Nothing at all.
Just a couple of pennies.
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Every penny counts.
We have to be precise.
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I know, but I checked it
already for the second time.
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Check again.
Don't be careless with money.
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About you and sister Agnieszka
there are rumors.
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You are out day and night
doing of course what.
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Rumors should not be listened to.
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Our place is here, in the monastery.
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When did you start thinking
such trivial things?
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Our reputation is no small matter.
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Haven't we suffered enough
because of you and father Friedrich?
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Do you want to get caught again
subject to gossip?
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Father Friedrich is the most sinless man,
that I know. You know that.
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I just mean you can post
according to someone Agnieszka.
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That would put an end to the rumours.
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When I'm gone, yours
no need to worry anymore.
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If I may say,
felt very sure about it.
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We both know how rarely
the sisters have received permission to leave -
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and founds his own sisterhood.
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If Mary Ward didn't get permission,
why would you
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Do you think you are better than him?
- Of course not.
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What are you trying to say?
- Watch your pride.
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We can't keep this machine.
- Why don't we?
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Do you have a brain, number 2?
- Stop calling me a number.
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Is there?
- It is.
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Do you have hands?
- It is.
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So what is the purpose of the machine?
- It makes it a lot easier.
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It's more accurate.
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Still the money is missing.
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Isn't that right?
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We will return the machine as soon as tomorrow morning.
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Thanks, mom.
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Five, six, seven...
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Good morning, girls.
- Morning.
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Good morning.
- Morning.
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Shouldn't you have?
morning prayers?
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Mother.
- Sister?
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I'm not feeling well this morning.
- I heard about it.
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Did I push you too much?
regarding my decision?
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I don't... I can't...
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"I can" and "I can't"
do not belong to monastic life.
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The obligation rises
above one's own will.
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It's not about your own will.
- From what then?
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I have to go too.
- You don't have to leave.
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Yes, you need it.
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I am pregnant.
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Getting pregnant?
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Pregnant...
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Pregnant?
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How could you do this to me?
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Who is he?
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How did you meet him?
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I am asking you to...
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I can see from your expression that you don't
he wants to see you again.
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Please.
- "Please"?
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You committed fornication!
- He died in my arms.
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Three months ago,
when you sent me to Punjab.
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You ruined everything!
- I fell in love.
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What do you know about love?
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How could you?
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How could you give
someone touch you?
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If there is love,
there is not much to do.
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How could I stay here?
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What if my pregnancy is revealed?
It will destroy this place.
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How are you doing my abbot, -
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when you allow a pregnant woman
live in a monastery as a nun?
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You made your decision,
when you fell in love with a man.
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Now you have to bear the consequences.
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Maybe it's time for you to go.
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The other sisters don't need to know.
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This is the only secret
which I keep. Take care of the arrangements.
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Good morning, Sister Mercedes.
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No mail for you today.
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Number 40.
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Number 17.
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Number 13.
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Use your body. Good.
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Number 17?
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Deeper.
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Good.
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Excellent.
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Leave me alone!
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Let me be!
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Let me go!
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Get off me!
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Get off me!
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Do you want to go there?
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Or will you come back in with me?
You choose.
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If you go back in, you must
behave properly. Do you understand?
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Get the girls here. I don't want to
them running around.
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This is for you.
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I pray to you, mother.
Couldn't I have something to eat?
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You can sit.
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I heard that Sister Agnieszka
was sick in the morning.
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That's right, Sister Mercedes.
He is not well.
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Can we do something?
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Water the garden.
- Do I do it now?
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You don't. Plants should not be watered in hot weather
in the sunshine. Later.
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That filthy pig!
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Why are you so cruel, sister?
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I have written those letters
seven years.
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And nothing changes.
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When I look around,
I'm not needed here.
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I always just write.
Forgiveness, forgiveness...
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I'm tired sometimes too.
- Are you? I'm not tired.
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God, help me
to follow your orders.
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So?
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Sorry for the disturbance,
but Sister Agnieszka asked you.
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Thank you, my dear.
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Let us pray.
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Lord, teach me to be
gentle in all that life brings.
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Disappointed
and in the thoughtfulness of others.
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When the people I trusted
are dishonest.
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When the people I rely on
are unfaithful. Amen.
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DAY 5
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Mother, shall we call Father Friedrich?
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What can he do
what can't we do?
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You had a point.
- Love.
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Have you ever experienced
true love?
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Of course, every day.
I am married to Him.
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I'm talking about a different kind of love.
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I would never compromise my mission
because of worldly pleasures.
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I'm going back home. - To Poland?
You don't have a home there.
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I never doubted you.
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Now you doubt. Of course.
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You Petite me.
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He died in my arms.
I also need God's voice.
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Help me. What do I do?
I don't have a home.
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You taught us that
God sends sinners to hell.
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I'm done.
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I will continue to lead the monastery.
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You inspire thousands to save
millions of lives.
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That is my calling.
- You're scaring me.
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What about Dr. Kumar?
I've thought about it and I'm sure.
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You must speak to Dr. Kumar
for me.
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I'm begging you.
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I will never.
- Ask him.
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No one will know.
Just you, Dr. Kumar and me.
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And God.
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Sister...
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And God.
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Forgive me, father.
I have sinned.
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Is it Tuesday?
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No, but...
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Just tell me, sister.
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Can a baby be a sin?
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can't
because it doesn't know it exists.
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Yet existence is a sin.
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We are all sinners.
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00:41:07,808 --> 00:41:10,475
So we are.
263
00:41:10,642 --> 00:41:13,558
Temptations are everywhere.
264
00:41:16,433 --> 00:41:19,433
Lying is a sin.
265
00:41:20,433 --> 00:41:23,683
Not every lie is a sin,
but yes.
266
00:41:24,808 --> 00:41:27,558
Killing is a sin.
267
00:41:29,183 --> 00:41:31,433
Killing?
268
00:41:32,517 --> 00:41:36,017
Abraham was going to kill his own child.
269
00:41:38,475 --> 00:41:43,683
Can murder be the same sin
like abortion?
270
00:41:45,224 --> 00:41:49,349
I have heard the church preach
against abortion -
271
00:41:49,516 --> 00:41:54,724
and afraid they would not resist
abortion itself, but these women.
272
00:41:56,266 --> 00:42:00,599
I heard you talking about these women
as if you hadn't thought, -
273
00:42:00,765 --> 00:42:04,265
what they had to experience
and what they felt.
274
00:42:07,098 --> 00:42:10,931
How could we know
what made them -
275
00:42:11,098 --> 00:42:15,098
or what compelled them
to make that solution?
276
00:42:25,473 --> 00:42:28,848
So isn't abortion a sin?
277
00:42:29,015 --> 00:42:32,015
Only God knows that.
278
00:42:34,390 --> 00:42:37,848
i think
that abortion is a sin only when, -
279
00:42:38,015 --> 00:42:43,515
when someone forces a woman to,
even though she wants to give birth to a child.
280
00:42:45,931 --> 00:42:48,598
It's still a sin.
281
00:42:51,681 --> 00:42:54,306
have you ever-
282
00:42:54,473 --> 00:42:58,598
wanted to be a father? Biologically?
283
00:43:02,972 --> 00:43:07,222
Why are you asking such a thing now?
- Forgive me.
284
00:43:14,514 --> 00:43:16,805
Mother...
285
00:43:22,846 --> 00:43:24,846
Good day.
286
00:43:26,929 --> 00:43:30,388
I'm sorry,
that the doctor had time to leave.
287
00:43:30,554 --> 00:43:34,804
Can I use the phone?
- Of course.
288
00:43:37,763 --> 00:43:39,596
Follow me.
289
00:43:39,763 --> 00:43:42,138
Go sit down.
290
00:43:42,304 --> 00:43:47,304
It's a strange day.
Sister Agnieszka visited here before.
291
00:43:48,804 --> 00:43:51,596
I know that.
292
00:43:51,763 --> 00:43:55,346
I've never seen him
so anxious.
293
00:43:57,428 --> 00:44:02,262
Some days everyone needs it
the doctor and he is not here.
294
00:44:08,428 --> 00:44:13,053
Do you have tea?
- No thanks. I have to call now.
295
00:44:17,970 --> 00:44:23,512
How can I help?
- I would like to call the Vatican.
296
00:44:23,678 --> 00:44:28,095
To the Vatican?
I will connect you to the main center.
297
00:44:30,970 --> 00:44:35,345
I'm in the abbey from Calcutta.
Is Monseigneur Tulli there?
298
00:44:35,512 --> 00:44:39,387
One moment, please.
- Thank you. God's blessing.
299
00:44:52,761 --> 00:44:57,802
What about my answer?
Has a decision been made?
300
00:44:57,969 --> 00:45:01,719
Can I expect approval soon?
301
00:45:03,676 --> 00:45:06,593
What did you say? Can you repeat?
302
00:45:06,760 --> 00:45:08,843
Hello?
303
00:45:09,010 --> 00:45:11,926
I can't hear you. Hello?
304
00:46:43,048 --> 00:46:46,090
Mother?
- Yes, sister?
305
00:46:46,257 --> 00:46:48,590
The letter has arrived.
306
00:46:48,757 --> 00:46:53,340
Earlier this morning.
I put it in your chamber.
307
00:46:54,840 --> 00:46:56,840
Thank you, sister.
308
00:47:26,257 --> 00:47:29,132
"Good at the abbot, -
309
00:47:29,298 --> 00:47:33,090
after careful consideration
and after praying diligently -
310
00:47:33,257 --> 00:47:37,757
we made a decision
that we allow you to…”
311
00:47:40,506 --> 00:47:42,839
Thanks.
312
00:47:43,006 --> 00:47:44,839
Thanks.
313
00:48:20,546 --> 00:48:27,838
“This is my wish, and I bless
you and the Missionary Sisters of Charity."
314
00:48:28,796 --> 00:48:30,796
Finally.
315
00:49:07,837 --> 00:49:10,170
I was born here.
316
00:49:10,337 --> 00:49:14,170
in Skopje. in Macedonia.
317
00:49:15,379 --> 00:49:20,004
What continent is it on? Do you remember?
318
00:49:21,670 --> 00:49:23,879
Riva?
- In Europe.
319
00:49:24,045 --> 00:49:28,712
in Europe. Good.
This concludes the geography lesson.
320
00:49:28,878 --> 00:49:33,003
Good job girls. Have a nice day.
321
00:49:34,794 --> 00:49:36,794
Father.
322
00:49:42,044 --> 00:49:44,169
Hey there, girls.
323
00:49:44,336 --> 00:49:45,961
Father?
324
00:49:57,128 --> 00:50:00,003
Why are you here, father?
325
00:50:04,418 --> 00:50:07,752
Will miss you when you leave.
326
00:50:15,793 --> 00:50:20,585
As you know, I have to accept
your successor, Sister Agnieszka.
327
00:50:20,752 --> 00:50:25,668
I need to talk to him
and make sure he can do it.
328
00:50:25,834 --> 00:50:28,251
Right, of course.
329
00:50:31,292 --> 00:50:34,042
I want to meet him.
330
00:50:37,334 --> 00:50:40,876
Today it won't work,
but I will arrange it soon.
331
00:50:41,042 --> 00:50:43,959
I hope you understand.
332
00:50:47,917 --> 00:50:50,334
Goodbye, Dad.
333
00:51:06,584 --> 00:51:09,417
You are taking advantage of my good will.
334
00:51:10,417 --> 00:51:13,251
You met Dr. Kumar.
335
00:51:16,292 --> 00:51:21,542
When did you become like that
a liar? - God doesn't hate.
336
00:51:21,708 --> 00:51:26,291
God is love.
- You betrayed both God and me.
337
00:51:28,500 --> 00:51:32,458
I'm not in on your plot.
338
00:51:49,624 --> 00:51:52,957
Take care of the arrangements and leave.
339
00:51:54,207 --> 00:51:59,249
What about the poor
and helping those in need?
340
00:52:00,582 --> 00:52:04,790
Do you compare yourself to those in need?
341
00:52:04,957 --> 00:52:08,874
I'm in trouble.
- Of your own accord.
342
00:52:09,040 --> 00:52:13,915
What would you do in my place? - I don't
would ever end up in that situation.
343
00:52:14,081 --> 00:52:17,081
I'm not in your place.
344
00:52:21,248 --> 00:52:24,581
I thought you would be delighted.
345
00:52:36,456 --> 00:52:38,789
I was so glad.
346
00:53:14,080 --> 00:53:18,330
Welcome, our sisters
347
00:53:18,496 --> 00:53:21,996
welcome, our sister
with all our hearts
348
00:53:22,162 --> 00:53:24,496
welcome, our sister
349
00:53:24,662 --> 00:53:27,329
Thank you, sisters.
350
00:53:27,496 --> 00:53:31,371
If someone wants to go to the washroom,
do it now
351
00:57:22,198 --> 00:57:27,073
DAY 4
352
00:57:46,864 --> 00:57:52,030
Nice to see you.
- The joy is on my side.
353
00:57:52,197 --> 00:57:56,739
What about the hospital?
- Surgeries and recoveries.
354
00:57:56,905 --> 00:58:01,405
People die.
More people die than recover.
355
00:58:01,572 --> 00:58:06,739
Sister Agnieszka visited me.
I know the situation.
356
00:58:06,905 --> 00:58:11,739
There are barbers who perform
as doctors and do such things.
357
00:58:13,780 --> 00:58:16,614
Ankita!
- Yes, Doctor?
358
00:58:19,321 --> 00:58:22,738
Do that outside.
- It's fine.
359
00:58:28,446 --> 00:58:32,196
I can help.
- I'm not asking for that kind of help.
360
00:58:32,363 --> 00:58:34,529
He asks.
361
00:58:34,696 --> 00:58:39,238
Some do it, five of the laws.
He goes to them.
362
00:58:39,404 --> 00:58:42,029
He might die.
363
00:58:49,153 --> 00:58:51,445
Dr Kumar...
364
00:58:52,445 --> 00:58:55,737
I have always trusted you.
365
00:58:55,903 --> 00:58:58,570
As I trust you.
366
00:58:58,737 --> 00:59:02,612
You and Mrs. Kumar
you have always helped me.
367
00:59:02,778 --> 00:59:05,237
That's true.
368
00:59:05,403 --> 00:59:08,653
You will continue to do so.
- Yes.
369
00:59:10,862 --> 00:59:16,278
Give him a roof over his head.
Take her and the child.
370
00:59:18,570 --> 00:59:21,695
Isn't his home
at your place?
371
00:59:23,362 --> 00:59:25,778
No longer.
372
00:59:26,987 --> 00:59:31,403
Do I have to take him
to get rid of him?
373
00:59:32,403 --> 00:59:35,570
How is that a lesser sin?
374
00:59:37,028 --> 00:59:39,653
Thank you for your time, Doctor.
375
00:59:42,819 --> 00:59:45,736
Listen to me.
376
00:59:45,902 --> 00:59:47,861
Mother!
377
00:59:48,027 --> 00:59:52,152
Do you remember when you asked me?
to talk in the maternity ward?
378
00:59:52,319 --> 00:59:57,194
Immediately after the struggle for independence.
- I remember what you told me.
379
00:59:57,360 --> 01:00:01,776
The women were desperate
and did not complain of pain.
380
01:00:01,943 --> 01:00:07,276
They suffer because the children
were born into the world of murderers.
381
01:00:07,443 --> 01:00:10,526
Do you remember what I told them?
382
01:00:10,693 --> 01:00:14,985
I told the mothers that the children
are the holiest thing in the world.
383
01:00:15,151 --> 01:00:19,276
Children were born to do
a better place than this world.
384
01:00:19,443 --> 01:00:23,235
I still believe in it.
- Listen.
385
01:00:24,526 --> 01:00:28,610
I believe in science
and freedom of choice.
386
01:00:29,943 --> 01:00:32,360
Goodbye, Doctor.
387
01:00:49,650 --> 01:00:53,400
Bless us and these gifts of yours,
which you offer us -
388
01:00:53,567 --> 01:00:57,400
Through Christ our Lord. Amen.
389
01:01:09,650 --> 01:01:13,359
Sister Agnieszka has problems
regarding the appendix.
390
01:01:13,525 --> 01:01:18,025
That's why he doesn't eat with us.
Keep eating.
391
01:01:26,650 --> 01:01:29,692
You're a little late.
392
01:01:29,858 --> 01:01:35,524
There was a blood stain on the clothes.
I tried to wash it but it still shows.
393
01:01:39,523 --> 01:01:45,273
“Children were brought to him, but
the disciples rebuked the bringers."
394
01:01:45,440 --> 01:01:50,607
Who was reprimanded? Children or
disciples? Who can say?
395
01:01:50,773 --> 01:01:55,857
Jesus said, “Do not hinder the children
from coming to me, -
396
01:01:56,023 --> 01:01:59,857
for there are those like it
the kingdom of heaven."
397
01:02:02,357 --> 01:02:08,565
He took the children in his arms,
prayed and blessed them.
398
01:02:12,565 --> 01:02:15,482
I'll take you to your room.
399
01:02:15,648 --> 01:02:20,773
When Jesus was baptized,
he rose from the water immediately.
400
01:02:20,940 --> 01:02:25,815
He saw the heavens open and
God's spirit descending upon him!
401
01:02:26,939 --> 01:02:30,522
The body hurts at the point
where the stain is.
402
01:02:30,689 --> 01:02:35,272
I had my appendix removed.
The pain was unbearable.
403
01:02:35,439 --> 01:02:39,606
Let's go back to your room.
- Jesus!
404
01:02:39,772 --> 01:02:41,981
Jesus...
- Eat.
405
01:02:42,147 --> 01:02:46,106
Jesus... Jesus!
406
01:02:46,272 --> 01:02:50,106
Jesus said to his disciples:
407
01:02:50,272 --> 01:02:54,606
“Unless you turn
and become like children, -
408
01:02:54,772 --> 01:02:58,314
you will not enter the kingdom of heaven."
409
01:02:58,481 --> 01:03:00,481
Sister.
410
01:03:01,731 --> 01:03:03,606
Mercedes?
411
01:03:04,606 --> 01:03:06,439
Quietly!
412
01:03:06,606 --> 01:03:08,606
Please.
413
01:03:54,895 --> 01:03:59,729
Do you remember when your brother told
being a general of some army?
414
01:03:59,895 --> 01:04:05,104
Do you remember what you answered?
You said you are also a general.
415
01:04:05,270 --> 01:04:08,979
Your army is made up of women.
About us nuns.
416
01:04:09,145 --> 01:04:12,937
That is my calling.
That's why I'm here with you.
417
01:04:13,104 --> 01:04:15,520
As a sacrifice.
418
01:04:17,269 --> 01:04:20,186
for love,
For God and the monastery.
419
01:04:20,353 --> 01:04:24,436
I did not ask for such a sacrifice.
Sit on the bed.
420
01:04:26,436 --> 01:04:28,853
Okay, that's it.
421
01:04:30,686 --> 01:04:33,103
You did that.
422
01:04:38,103 --> 01:04:40,436
Now.
423
01:04:48,061 --> 01:04:50,103
Isaac.
424
01:04:50,269 --> 01:04:52,353
Isaac?
425
01:04:52,519 --> 01:04:55,686
I would have named the boy Isaac.
426
01:04:57,685 --> 01:05:01,268
Then I would be Abraham,
a true hero.
427
01:05:04,393 --> 01:05:07,227
Rest now.
428
01:05:07,393 --> 01:05:09,393
Rest.
429
01:05:17,976 --> 01:05:20,559
I need your help.
430
01:05:26,934 --> 01:05:28,142
Rest now.
431
01:06:14,266 --> 01:06:17,225
I've been thinking about my mother.
432
01:06:22,641 --> 01:06:26,350
I thought it would be enough
if I write him letters.
433
01:06:26,516 --> 01:06:29,766
Then he wouldn't be
worried about me.
434
01:06:33,266 --> 01:06:36,766
I would remember him
twice a year.
435
01:06:38,974 --> 01:06:41,474
At Christmas and Easter.
436
01:06:51,724 --> 01:06:55,307
Now I don't remember his face.
437
01:07:00,807 --> 01:07:04,765
I see the same thing in my mind
over and over again.
438
01:07:04,931 --> 01:07:07,639
Mother is baking bread.
439
01:07:14,181 --> 01:07:19,389
His hands are kneading the dough.
440
01:07:23,598 --> 01:07:27,223
He spreads the flour on the table and...
441
01:07:29,723 --> 01:07:33,556
His hands disappear into the flour.
442
01:07:44,139 --> 01:07:46,556
My mother was good.
443
01:07:48,973 --> 01:07:51,389
Really good.
444
01:07:57,139 --> 01:08:01,014
Every Sunday
he baked bread for poor families.
445
01:08:03,513 --> 01:08:06,930
Every Sunday we were hungry.
446
01:08:15,596 --> 01:08:19,846
This picture you have
from the mother in your heart, -
447
01:08:21,137 --> 01:08:26,137
brings us much closer than
ten years of our conversation.
448
01:08:39,554 --> 01:08:42,846
Sister Agnieszka is the right choice.
449
01:08:43,012 --> 01:08:45,387
You are right.
450
01:08:45,554 --> 01:08:49,721
He's not you
but he has strength.
451
01:08:49,887 --> 01:08:51,846
Agnieszka is the one.
452
01:09:15,220 --> 01:09:19,261
DAY 3
453
01:09:19,428 --> 01:09:24,095
Almighty God, dear Lord.
I love you with all my heart.
454
01:09:24,261 --> 01:09:27,636
I offer you
my thoughts and actions.
455
01:09:27,845 --> 01:09:30,636
I ask You for a blessing.
456
01:09:30,803 --> 01:09:34,928
Help me to always know
to love and serve You -
457
01:09:35,095 --> 01:09:39,011
and be happy forever
with you in heaven.
458
01:09:43,178 --> 01:09:47,678
Almighty God, dear Lord.
I love you with all my heart.
459
01:09:47,845 --> 01:09:50,011
I offer you...
460
01:09:55,301 --> 01:09:59,259
what are you doing
Go back to your work.
461
01:10:08,426 --> 01:10:10,843
what do you want
462
01:10:15,176 --> 01:10:17,301
Where are you going?
463
01:10:32,301 --> 01:10:35,801
Sorry, nature called.
464
01:11:20,008 --> 01:11:22,008
Good!
465
01:11:22,175 --> 01:11:24,300
Here!
466
01:11:49,131 --> 01:11:54,131
Mercedes is good with numbers.
He will help you from now on.
467
01:11:56,881 --> 01:11:59,090
Go sit down.
468
01:12:27,131 --> 01:12:32,006
It was a completely different job.
It was hard to believe, but...
469
01:12:45,130 --> 01:12:47,130
Please stay.
470
01:12:49,839 --> 01:12:51,839
Sit down.
471
01:12:59,130 --> 01:13:04,130
Tragedy plays are often formative
soul in a fundamental way.
472
01:13:06,589 --> 01:13:11,339
Her name was Sara
before turning.
473
01:13:12,671 --> 01:13:17,671
It was the only way to avoid it
from being sent to a concentration camp.
474
01:13:18,671 --> 01:13:21,046
I know that.
475
01:13:22,046 --> 01:13:23,754
Sedge.
476
01:13:24,754 --> 01:13:29,004
It was the name of a woman whose husband
was going to kill their son.
477
01:13:29,171 --> 01:13:33,879
Only an angel sent by God
saved the child.
478
01:13:36,170 --> 01:13:39,045
I have another option.
479
01:13:39,212 --> 01:13:41,795
Sister Mercedes.
- No.
480
01:13:41,962 --> 01:13:45,962
You were right.
Sister Agnieszka is the one.
481
01:13:47,378 --> 01:13:52,878
He's going to be my ripper
and me his abbot.
482
01:16:08,167 --> 01:16:12,792
Have you seen the little boy?
There was a little boy here.
483
01:16:12,959 --> 01:16:15,709
Wake up, sisters.
484
01:16:15,875 --> 01:16:19,250
That boy must be here.
- What boy?
485
01:16:19,417 --> 01:16:23,750
A little boy in a white shirt.
He blew flour.
486
01:16:26,166 --> 01:16:29,583
Hello!
He must be here somewhere.
487
01:18:37,120 --> 01:18:41,745
DAY 2
488
01:18:43,954 --> 01:18:48,370
There was no boy in the kitchen,
but I still saw him.
489
01:18:50,287 --> 01:18:53,495
Am I going crazy?
490
01:18:55,870 --> 01:19:00,037
Delusions are a sign of insanity.
491
01:19:00,204 --> 01:19:05,370
The boy blew flour on me,
and I was covered in flour.
492
01:19:05,537 --> 01:19:08,162
Isn't that madness?
493
01:19:11,453 --> 01:19:16,161
Or temptation that hinders me
doing my job?
494
01:19:18,494 --> 01:19:25,494
When the devil tempted the saints,
he sent demons and sins.
495
01:19:27,411 --> 01:19:30,244
He sent me a child.
496
01:19:36,244 --> 01:19:38,869
What if it's...
497
01:19:41,661 --> 01:19:45,661
What if the devil
sent me on my mission?
498
01:19:48,494 --> 01:19:51,744
Or my vanity?
499
01:19:51,910 --> 01:19:57,910
Did my vanity ask me to live
with the poorest?
500
01:19:58,077 --> 01:20:02,702
I drove them in the name of God
to pretend to sacrifice myself.
501
01:20:02,868 --> 01:20:07,285
Does my vanity want to do
of me a hero and a saint?
502
01:20:07,451 --> 01:20:09,867
It is possible.
503
01:20:17,992 --> 01:20:20,826
What do you think?
504
01:20:33,242 --> 01:20:36,451
I save millions of lives.
505
01:20:37,576 --> 01:20:41,909
in the eyes of God
one life is worth a million.
506
01:20:45,492 --> 01:20:48,867
Your soul is so confused, -
507
01:20:49,034 --> 01:20:54,034
that enthusiasm for your task
may evaporate.
508
01:20:57,992 --> 01:21:00,409
Should I become a mother?
509
01:21:02,616 --> 01:21:05,241
You are mother to all.
510
01:21:11,283 --> 01:21:14,075
I mean biologically.
511
01:21:16,908 --> 01:21:19,908
I would be a mother to someone, -
512
01:21:20,075 --> 01:21:23,158
who would be my own flesh and blood.
513
01:21:24,991 --> 01:21:28,991
Which I would carry under my heart
nine months.
514
01:21:30,199 --> 01:21:32,740
Which I...
515
01:21:32,907 --> 01:21:38,365
I would breastfeed him,
I would sing lullabies -
516
01:21:38,532 --> 01:21:42,199
and I would appease him,
when she was crying.
517
01:21:43,240 --> 01:21:46,990
I would teach him
to walk and talk.
518
01:21:48,615 --> 01:21:53,324
Will I raise a child?
instead of my vanity?
519
01:21:54,531 --> 01:21:56,823
A mother and a saint?
520
01:21:56,989 --> 01:22:00,198
Mother or saint?
521
01:22:00,364 --> 01:22:03,448
I can't do this anymore.
522
01:22:07,198 --> 01:22:08,823
Father!
523
01:22:13,864 --> 01:22:17,364
Now that you got the letter, -
524
01:22:18,448 --> 01:22:22,073
you don't need me anymore
525
01:22:23,739 --> 01:22:25,573
Father Friedrich!
526
01:22:29,198 --> 01:22:31,823
Lord, my God
527
01:22:31,989 --> 01:22:35,989
when I marvel at your works
528
01:22:36,156 --> 01:22:42,364
I meditate on all His works
529
01:22:42,531 --> 01:22:49,781
I see the stars and the rumble of thunder
530
01:22:49,947 --> 01:22:56,322
your power is visible everywhere
531
01:22:57,322 --> 01:23:04,780
when I think
that God spared his son
532
01:23:04,947 --> 01:23:08,322
sent Him to die
533
01:23:08,487 --> 01:23:13,237
I can't understand it
534
01:23:13,404 --> 01:23:16,237
that on the cross
535
01:23:16,404 --> 01:23:21,321
he carried my burden
536
01:23:21,487 --> 01:23:25,029
he bled and died
537
01:23:25,196 --> 01:23:29,529
because of my sins
538
01:25:25,109 --> 01:25:29,651
I am being punished. You are right.
539
01:25:29,818 --> 01:25:33,818
Just when I realized
that I want to be a mother.
540
01:25:33,984 --> 01:25:37,151
not like you
but a mother to this child.
541
01:25:37,317 --> 01:25:42,192
Forgive me.
542
01:25:43,192 --> 01:25:47,692
Agnieszka, please apply
by Dr. Kumar.
543
01:25:47,858 --> 01:25:51,483
I'm calling for help. Don't move. Do you understand?
544
01:25:51,650 --> 01:25:55,150
Forgive me.
- Don't move. Do you understand?
545
01:25:55,317 --> 01:25:57,942
Hang in there.
546
01:26:10,567 --> 01:26:13,442
Go by rickshaw. Tell him to hurry.
547
01:26:21,817 --> 01:26:25,192
I asked to fetch Dr. Kumar.
548
01:26:27,066 --> 01:26:29,691
I ask your forgiveness.
549
01:26:31,066 --> 01:26:35,482
Forgiveness? What for?
550
01:26:36,356 --> 01:26:39,356
I was cruel to you.
551
01:26:47,856 --> 01:26:51,065
I can hear my child breathing.
552
01:27:24,356 --> 01:27:27,356
I'm very sorry.
553
01:29:11,728 --> 01:29:15,645
Good morning.
- Follow me, Dr. Kumar.
554
01:29:24,727 --> 01:29:28,477
Bring hot water and towels.
555
01:29:34,436 --> 01:29:38,269
Could you please check
is there hot water - Yes.
556
01:29:46,518 --> 01:29:48,518
That's enough.
557
01:29:48,685 --> 01:29:52,893
Thanks. Wait for me in the kitchen.
558
01:29:57,851 --> 01:30:01,560
You too.
- Of course.
559
01:30:22,100 --> 01:30:26,392
DAY 1
560
01:30:50,267 --> 01:30:53,100
I won't come back here.
561
01:30:56,392 --> 01:30:58,809
I know that.
562
01:34:28,803 --> 01:34:33,219
Let's get dressed
to a simple cotton outfit.
563
01:34:36,386 --> 01:34:41,594
A simple canvas bag,
no wristwatch.
564
01:34:44,260 --> 01:34:48,260
No rings or other jewelry.
565
01:34:50,177 --> 01:34:53,427
Except the umbrella.
566
01:34:55,467 --> 01:34:59,217
We travel in pairs.
567
01:34:59,384 --> 01:35:02,967
The cheapest means of transport is used.
568
01:35:07,051 --> 01:35:10,051
We pray during journeys.
569
01:35:13,467 --> 01:35:18,384
No own bank account or assets.
570
01:35:19,967 --> 01:35:22,717
No own money.
571
01:35:39,592 --> 01:35:42,009
when are you leaving
572
01:35:43,884 --> 01:35:45,717
Now.
573
01:36:03,133 --> 01:36:06,008
You know that I...
- Yes.
574
01:36:33,424 --> 01:36:34,507
DAY 0
575
01:37:12,714 --> 01:37:15,131
God's blessing.
576
01:38:19,446 --> 01:38:24,439
Finnish translation: Ilse Rönnberg
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