1 00:01:06,627 --> 00:01:09,838 Maybe I'm not being clear enough. 2 00:01:11,131 --> 00:01:15,719 Maybe I need to be honest with you and tell you what I want. 3 00:01:17,304 --> 00:01:20,140 What is it that you want? 4 00:01:22,851 --> 00:01:25,812 I want your soul to open up for me. 5 00:01:42,829 --> 00:01:48,335 Frustration or unhappiness are caused by the unrealized potential in a person. 6 00:01:48,460 --> 00:01:52,297 Cyrenaic hedonism supported immediate gratification. 7 00:01:52,422 --> 00:01:59,555 Even fleeting desires were encouraged regardless of the pain or expense to others. 8 00:02:09,398 --> 00:02:13,610 - Can I bum a cigarette? - Yeah. 9 00:02:29,001 --> 00:02:32,045 I don't see you in any of the other philosophy lectures. 10 00:02:32,170 --> 00:02:36,258 Ethics fulfills one of my requirements. I'm actually a filmmaker. 11 00:02:36,925 --> 00:02:40,095 Are you the real deal or someone who thinks he's the next Scorsese 12 00:02:40,220 --> 00:02:44,057 because he spent his Friday nights at the multiplex instead of getting laid? 13 00:02:45,017 --> 00:02:47,477 I'm definitely not the next Scorsese, 14 00:02:47,603 --> 00:02:49,479 and I wasn't getting laid on Friday nights 15 00:02:49,605 --> 00:02:54,193 for reasons far more humiliating than being at the movies. 16 00:02:57,279 --> 00:03:00,282 - Quaid. - Stephen Grace. 17 00:03:04,119 --> 00:03:06,788 - Hey. - Hey. 18 00:03:16,340 --> 00:03:18,425 The philosophy major here is shit anyways. 19 00:03:18,550 --> 00:03:22,930 What we should be doing is flirting with the subject of any worthwhile philosophy. 20 00:03:23,055 --> 00:03:26,391 You know, the things we don't understand, the things we fear, 21 00:03:26,517 --> 00:03:29,895 because if we don't, then we risk... 22 00:03:30,604 --> 00:03:32,940 Doesn't matter. 23 00:03:33,065 --> 00:03:34,942 We risk what? 24 00:03:35,067 --> 00:03:37,903 If you don't go out and find the beast, 25 00:03:38,028 --> 00:03:41,823 sooner or later, the beast will come and find you. 26 00:03:42,449 --> 00:03:47,704 Well, I really don't think I have fears that justify a two-hour lecture. 27 00:03:47,829 --> 00:03:52,417 No? What's the worst thing that's ever happened to you? 28 00:04:05,597 --> 00:04:11,270 My brother, my older brother, he died when I was 15. 29 00:04:12,688 --> 00:04:14,898 How did he... How did he die? 30 00:04:15,023 --> 00:04:17,401 A car accident. 31 00:04:17,526 --> 00:04:19,820 He was drunk. 32 00:04:22,239 --> 00:04:28,370 Losing an older sibling must have given your life a sense of frailty. 33 00:04:29,872 --> 00:04:34,126 Come on. No fear of your own mortality? 34 00:04:34,251 --> 00:04:38,630 No, there's not fear. It was anger, and it was sadness. 35 00:04:39,214 --> 00:04:43,886 Not fear. Fear would've been selfish. 36 00:04:44,720 --> 00:04:49,725 I'm telling you, I lead a pretty dull life. 37 00:04:50,559 --> 00:04:54,229 Fear doesn't cross my path very often. 38 00:04:54,938 --> 00:04:58,233 - Okay, I'll drop it. - Thank you. 39 00:05:02,070 --> 00:05:03,280 That's me missing my train. 40 00:05:03,405 --> 00:05:07,117 That's like the 10th time that alarm's gone off since I've met you. 41 00:05:07,242 --> 00:05:11,872 - I'm just being practical. I... - Maybe you're afraid to live. 42 00:05:38,732 --> 00:05:40,817 Hey, wake up, honey. We're home. 43 00:05:40,943 --> 00:05:43,403 You tired, baby? 44 00:05:43,779 --> 00:05:47,199 What storybook do you want tonight? 45 00:06:03,757 --> 00:06:06,093 Can I help you? 46 00:06:07,094 --> 00:06:10,889 I was in an accident, and I need to use your phone. 47 00:06:11,890 --> 00:06:16,144 I'm sorry. My phone is not working. You'll have to go somewhere else. 48 00:06:21,024 --> 00:06:25,404 Sarah! Sarah! Get out of the house! 49 00:06:27,906 --> 00:06:29,783 Please! 50 00:07:21,376 --> 00:07:23,503 Mama. 51 00:07:27,090 --> 00:07:29,676 This is your mother, 52 00:07:32,137 --> 00:07:34,431 your father. 53 00:07:57,829 --> 00:08:00,582 - Hey. - Hey. 54 00:08:00,958 --> 00:08:03,210 I didn't sleep well. 55 00:08:03,335 --> 00:08:05,879 Calculus or ethics? 56 00:08:07,130 --> 00:08:09,341 I went out. 57 00:08:09,591 --> 00:08:12,886 - You don't go out when I ask. - I didn't plan it. 58 00:08:13,011 --> 00:08:16,139 Just... just kind of happened. 59 00:08:24,731 --> 00:08:28,861 Stephen, there's a police officer here. 60 00:08:29,945 --> 00:08:33,907 He asked me if I knew where you were last night. 61 00:08:41,623 --> 00:08:46,461 - So much for the golden future, son. - That's funny. 62 00:08:47,045 --> 00:08:49,006 What are you doing here? 63 00:08:49,131 --> 00:08:50,966 I want you to come by my place tonight. 64 00:08:51,091 --> 00:08:52,843 - Is that everything? - Yeah. 65 00:08:52,968 --> 00:08:54,344 For what? 66 00:08:54,469 --> 00:08:57,931 I want to talk to you about something. Proposition. 67 00:08:58,599 --> 00:09:01,685 - What, why don't you just tell me now? - No, I can't. I gotta go. 68 00:09:01,810 --> 00:09:07,357 Come after work. 64 Pilgrim Street. 69 00:09:07,482 --> 00:09:10,360 - Change. - Thanks. 70 00:09:10,485 --> 00:09:12,946 Nice to meet you. 71 00:09:13,405 --> 00:09:16,366 Cool birthmark, by the way. 72 00:10:38,490 --> 00:10:41,118 That's it for today. 73 00:11:01,889 --> 00:11:04,099 It's good. 74 00:11:05,058 --> 00:11:07,311 The painting? It's a hobby. 75 00:11:08,812 --> 00:11:11,231 - You have any others? - No. 76 00:11:11,773 --> 00:11:14,401 I trash them when I'm done. 77 00:11:14,526 --> 00:11:16,904 I can't stand all these eyes staring at me. 78 00:11:17,029 --> 00:11:19,406 Let me change. 79 00:11:30,792 --> 00:11:34,129 So... so, I've been thinking about something. 80 00:11:34,254 --> 00:11:37,424 So, you've heard of Kinsey, right? 81 00:11:37,799 --> 00:11:39,760 Yeah. 82 00:11:40,469 --> 00:11:44,181 - The guy who did the sex studies. - Yeah. What if we did a fear study? 83 00:11:44,306 --> 00:11:48,268 Compile a survey on people's fears and what causes them. 84 00:11:48,393 --> 00:11:51,522 You have access to equipment through the film program, right? 85 00:11:51,647 --> 00:11:55,442 - And you need a project for your thesis. - Yeah. 86 00:11:55,567 --> 00:11:57,903 Call it an experiment in catharsis. 87 00:11:58,028 --> 00:12:02,282 To live another's dread vicariously, that's the... 88 00:12:02,407 --> 00:12:05,202 That's the safest way to touch the beast. 89 00:12:05,327 --> 00:12:10,958 Yeah. See, I don't think I really want to touch the beast that you're talking about. 90 00:12:11,083 --> 00:12:13,043 Well, then, let's just do it 91 00:12:13,168 --> 00:12:18,048 because it will be fucking fun to do something worthwhile. 92 00:12:19,174 --> 00:12:22,135 Well, since you put it that way. 93 00:12:23,512 --> 00:12:29,309 Yeah, that summer my brother died he bought this old beater of a car. 94 00:12:29,434 --> 00:12:30,394 It was really cool, though. 95 00:12:30,519 --> 00:12:37,442 It was a 1965, eye-shadow blue Mustang. 96 00:12:38,151 --> 00:12:41,780 We drove around all summer in that thing. 97 00:12:44,950 --> 00:12:48,704 I didn't want to admit it that night, but you're right. 98 00:12:51,373 --> 00:12:54,459 When my brother died, the first thought that came to mind 99 00:12:54,585 --> 00:12:58,547 was that I could've easily been in the car with him, 100 00:13:03,719 --> 00:13:09,474 that at 15 I could've died. 101 00:13:12,978 --> 00:13:15,272 So, you're in? 102 00:13:15,898 --> 00:13:18,734 Yeah. I'm in. 103 00:13:19,443 --> 00:13:22,863 Good. Let's celebrate. 104 00:13:24,781 --> 00:13:27,659 - Hey, this is Samantha. - Hi. 105 00:13:27,784 --> 00:13:30,996 - And this is Zooey, right? - Yeah. 106 00:13:31,371 --> 00:13:34,082 It's a really cool name. Have you ever seen the film Killing Zoe? 107 00:13:34,208 --> 00:13:35,792 What? 108 00:13:35,918 --> 00:13:39,588 I said I like your name. 109 00:14:46,655 --> 00:14:48,574 You shit. 110 00:14:48,699 --> 00:14:51,535 Don't we use computers for that now? 111 00:14:51,660 --> 00:14:56,540 Don't you know only pricks and terrorists wear sunglasses indoors? 112 00:15:01,295 --> 00:15:06,383 So, I need an editor for my thesis. 113 00:15:07,342 --> 00:15:12,014 - What do you think about partnering? - What would be the topic? 114 00:15:12,139 --> 00:15:14,183 Dread. 115 00:15:14,975 --> 00:15:16,602 We're gonna chase the beast, 116 00:15:16,727 --> 00:15:20,647 discover the origins of people's deepest fears. 117 00:15:21,607 --> 00:15:24,818 Reveal the dark behind the door. 118 00:15:27,446 --> 00:15:29,323 Okay, I'm in. 119 00:15:54,765 --> 00:15:56,475 How old were you when you had your first nightmare? 120 00:15:56,600 --> 00:15:59,311 The first nightmare I really remember... 121 00:15:59,436 --> 00:16:03,440 I hate moisture. The worst is when you spill a drink 122 00:16:03,565 --> 00:16:08,028 and your napkin gets all wet like a fleshy mass. 123 00:16:08,153 --> 00:16:10,531 - Have you ever been mugged? - Do you believe in the devil? 124 00:16:10,656 --> 00:16:12,407 Have you ever been harmed by a family member? 125 00:16:12,533 --> 00:16:14,243 Have you ever seen a person die? 126 00:16:14,368 --> 00:16:17,287 What's your strongest memory of feeling fear? 127 00:16:21,250 --> 00:16:23,168 Fuck. Fuck. 128 00:16:24,044 --> 00:16:28,590 - At first it started like a fungus... - I don't believe in anything. 129 00:16:28,715 --> 00:16:31,426 ...but then there was this discharge. 130 00:16:31,552 --> 00:16:33,804 God is man, and man thinks he's God. 131 00:16:33,929 --> 00:16:39,393 When my baby sister was born, my mother's vagina ripped, like, three inches. 132 00:16:39,518 --> 00:16:42,229 They had to sew her up with frigging twine. 133 00:16:42,354 --> 00:16:48,151 I was 10. On that day, I vowed to never have kids. 134 00:16:48,610 --> 00:16:50,445 Can we stop? 135 00:16:50,779 --> 00:16:54,199 It turned out there was a worm, and it had crawled up there 136 00:16:54,324 --> 00:16:58,120 when I was swimming in the lake by my grandparents' house. 137 00:16:58,245 --> 00:17:03,417 And my pubes, they started to grow this cheese. 138 00:17:06,670 --> 00:17:10,007 I think we have everything we need. 139 00:17:14,970 --> 00:17:19,433 You know we've had five classes together. Five. 140 00:17:19,558 --> 00:17:22,186 And this is the first meal we've ever shared. 141 00:17:22,311 --> 00:17:26,648 Well, it's not really a meal. That's more like a botanical garden. 142 00:17:26,773 --> 00:17:32,988 I'm sorry if I offend you with my roughage, Mr. Triple Bypass. 143 00:17:33,488 --> 00:17:37,201 - So good. - I just don't like meat. 144 00:17:40,537 --> 00:17:42,789 Your burger 145 00:17:43,248 --> 00:17:46,001 makes me want to vomit. 146 00:17:46,668 --> 00:17:49,630 Gross. That's lovely. 147 00:17:50,881 --> 00:17:54,384 First meal. Two years. 148 00:17:59,181 --> 00:18:04,770 To be honest, you know, you're probably one of the people I talk to the most. 149 00:18:06,522 --> 00:18:09,733 Wow. You're such a loser. 150 00:18:19,117 --> 00:18:21,328 What's up? 151 00:18:21,620 --> 00:18:24,248 It's not good enough. 152 00:18:24,540 --> 00:18:25,666 It's a start. 153 00:18:25,791 --> 00:18:28,043 But, "I'm scared of spiders," "I'm scared of clowns," 154 00:18:28,168 --> 00:18:30,003 "I'm scared of Mickey fucking Mouse." Who cares? 155 00:18:30,128 --> 00:18:32,089 Relax. 156 00:18:32,214 --> 00:18:35,092 I don't believe in anything. What is there to believe in? 157 00:18:35,217 --> 00:18:39,429 Do you set that thing to tell you when to take a shit? 158 00:18:39,888 --> 00:18:42,933 - Give me the fucking thing. - No. 159 00:18:43,058 --> 00:18:44,935 ...been like ghosts. 160 00:18:45,060 --> 00:18:48,438 Give me the fucking watch, Stephen. 161 00:18:48,981 --> 00:18:50,524 - I'm not... - Give me the watch. 162 00:18:50,649 --> 00:18:53,777 - Wait. - God. What up, you two? Come on. 163 00:19:00,492 --> 00:19:03,036 You fucking asshole. 164 00:19:03,161 --> 00:19:05,080 Stop! 165 00:19:08,458 --> 00:19:10,752 Interview me. 166 00:19:13,130 --> 00:19:15,132 What? 167 00:19:16,508 --> 00:19:18,844 I want to sit. 168 00:19:25,559 --> 00:19:29,438 I grew up in a small town in upstate New York. 169 00:19:29,646 --> 00:19:32,774 My mom worked at the local supermarket, 170 00:19:32,900 --> 00:19:35,194 and my dad... 171 00:19:36,445 --> 00:19:38,614 And my dad worked at the... 172 00:19:38,739 --> 00:19:43,202 At a meat-packing plant about 20 miles outside of town. 173 00:19:45,412 --> 00:19:47,748 They'd slaughter cattle there 174 00:19:47,873 --> 00:19:53,795 and supply our markets with corn-fed organic beef. 175 00:19:54,796 --> 00:19:57,257 And he'd work late. 176 00:19:57,633 --> 00:20:02,930 And by the time he'd get home, my mom would always be asleep. 177 00:20:03,055 --> 00:20:07,309 I'd lay there on my pillow 178 00:20:10,270 --> 00:20:15,776 and listen to the sound of his boots walk to my bedroom door. 179 00:20:17,653 --> 00:20:20,364 I don't know if my mother 180 00:20:20,489 --> 00:20:23,367 just pretended not to know what the fuck was going on 181 00:20:23,492 --> 00:20:27,538 or if she was just too weak. 182 00:20:27,663 --> 00:20:30,332 You don't... You don't need to do this. 183 00:20:30,707 --> 00:20:33,001 But... 184 00:20:34,378 --> 00:20:38,632 What I remember the most about it was the way... 185 00:20:42,010 --> 00:20:45,389 The way his flesh smelled when he'd come home from work. 186 00:20:45,514 --> 00:20:50,727 This heavy, metallic smell 187 00:20:50,853 --> 00:20:56,525 that would follow him home from the plant, 188 00:20:59,528 --> 00:21:02,698 like warm blood on the grass, 189 00:21:05,409 --> 00:21:08,412 cold fat in the freezers. 190 00:21:15,002 --> 00:21:18,630 I can hardly stand to look at a piece of meat now, 191 00:21:18,755 --> 00:21:22,009 let alone think about eating it. 192 00:21:24,636 --> 00:21:29,933 Looks like I'll be taking iron supplements for the rest of my life? 193 00:21:30,058 --> 00:21:35,147 That's what I'm talking about, some fucking, honest-to-God trauma! 194 00:21:42,029 --> 00:21:47,367 Yeah? I showed you mine, now you show me yours. 195 00:21:48,702 --> 00:21:52,623 Come on, Quaid. How'd your parents fuck you up? 196 00:21:59,671 --> 00:22:01,590 I just don't want... 197 00:22:59,231 --> 00:23:02,609 I'm gonna go ahead and stay the night. 198 00:23:02,734 --> 00:23:06,113 I've already missed the last train. 199 00:24:52,928 --> 00:24:56,306 Wake up. Stephen, he's in the house! 200 00:24:58,642 --> 00:25:02,938 Quaid, Quaid, Quaid, what is it? What is it? You okay? 201 00:25:04,147 --> 00:25:06,608 Hey, what is it? 202 00:25:11,280 --> 00:25:13,615 Just a dream. 203 00:25:16,660 --> 00:25:18,161 That didn't sound like just a dream. 204 00:25:18,287 --> 00:25:22,791 No, it was nothing. Just go back to bed. 205 00:25:23,417 --> 00:25:25,335 No. 206 00:25:26,795 --> 00:25:30,465 You practically know my whole life story. 207 00:25:30,757 --> 00:25:35,179 Yeah, but when it comes to you, I don't know much at all. 208 00:25:53,739 --> 00:25:58,202 My parents were killed when I was six years old, Stephen. 209 00:25:58,952 --> 00:26:03,665 They were murdered right in front of my eyes. 210 00:26:05,250 --> 00:26:09,213 Killed with the axe from my father's tool shed. 211 00:26:12,799 --> 00:26:16,053 Never caught the man that did it. 212 00:26:20,933 --> 00:26:27,439 I don't know how I got away, but I did. I ran and I ran, 213 00:26:31,568 --> 00:26:34,655 and I've never really stopped. 214 00:26:35,322 --> 00:26:38,283 Don't tell anyone, Stephen. 215 00:26:40,160 --> 00:26:43,664 - Promise me. - I promise. 216 00:27:04,560 --> 00:27:07,187 Well, hello, creepy. 217 00:27:08,438 --> 00:27:11,400 Quaid came in looking for you yesterday. 218 00:27:11,525 --> 00:27:14,903 - Yeah, what'd he want? - Don't know. 219 00:27:16,572 --> 00:27:20,033 But he asked me if I'd model for him. 220 00:27:20,576 --> 00:27:24,746 - What did you say? - I said, "Fuck, no." 221 00:27:25,581 --> 00:27:27,666 Politely, of course. 222 00:27:27,791 --> 00:27:30,627 But for a while, I thought he might actually convince me. 223 00:27:30,752 --> 00:27:34,089 - Can I pay for this? - Yeah, sorry. 224 00:27:43,098 --> 00:27:46,310 - Hey. - What's this? 225 00:27:46,894 --> 00:27:49,229 It's therapy. 226 00:27:50,439 --> 00:27:53,817 1,200 bucks on Craigslist. 227 00:28:03,452 --> 00:28:08,749 - Why do you have this? - You know why I got it. It's for you. 228 00:28:09,875 --> 00:28:14,504 Find the beast. Drive it when you're ready, not a moment sooner. 229 00:28:14,630 --> 00:28:18,300 Come up. I think we got a good one today. 230 00:28:19,843 --> 00:28:25,557 Joshua, what is your strongest memory of feeling fear? 231 00:28:25,724 --> 00:28:30,103 When I was six years old, I was hit by a car, 232 00:28:30,270 --> 00:28:36,527 and the concussion left me deaf for three years. 233 00:28:37,945 --> 00:28:41,281 So, I went from being, you know, 234 00:28:42,032 --> 00:28:48,080 a normal kid to being completely cut off from the world. 235 00:28:49,039 --> 00:28:54,419 When it got really bad, I had a prayer. My mom taught it to me. 236 00:28:54,545 --> 00:28:59,299 It's, "Gentle Jesus..." 237 00:28:59,758 --> 00:29:02,469 Something... 238 00:29:02,594 --> 00:29:05,055 "Look upon this little child and..." 239 00:29:05,180 --> 00:29:09,768 You know, it was... It was that sort of thing, you know. 240 00:29:10,477 --> 00:29:14,940 I can't remember it anymore. Haven't needed it in a while. 241 00:29:15,148 --> 00:29:19,736 Then one day, my hearing came back. 242 00:29:19,862 --> 00:29:23,115 I mean, you know, I... Still, you know, 243 00:29:23,240 --> 00:29:30,914 I hear any volume of sound, and the ringing comes back, and... 244 00:29:32,082 --> 00:29:36,169 Even talking about it, 245 00:29:37,045 --> 00:29:39,923 you know, it brings back 246 00:29:40,465 --> 00:29:44,052 a feeling of dread. 247 00:29:47,723 --> 00:29:51,602 I mean, I suppose that is the worst part of it all. 248 00:29:51,727 --> 00:29:53,145 You live with the notion 249 00:29:53,270 --> 00:29:58,317 that the thing that causes you the most terror 250 00:29:58,567 --> 00:30:01,904 could come back at any time. 251 00:30:43,445 --> 00:30:45,364 Yeah? Hi. 252 00:30:45,489 --> 00:30:47,616 This way. 253 00:30:55,290 --> 00:31:00,462 Hey. Will you sit for me tomorrow? Same price as usual. 254 00:31:00,587 --> 00:31:03,215 I can't. I have plans. 255 00:31:03,507 --> 00:31:06,718 Just ask one of the other girls. 256 00:32:12,201 --> 00:32:15,287 This is your mother. 257 00:32:19,291 --> 00:32:21,543 Your mother. 258 00:32:50,072 --> 00:32:52,741 So, I have a surprise for you. 259 00:32:52,866 --> 00:32:55,994 - A gift? - A necessity. 260 00:33:00,999 --> 00:33:05,796 - Awesome. - It's virtually indestructible. 261 00:33:05,921 --> 00:33:10,384 At least shatter-resistant and possibly waterproof. 262 00:33:11,969 --> 00:33:14,513 Thank you, Cheryl. 263 00:33:16,932 --> 00:33:18,600 So, I was thinking 264 00:33:18,725 --> 00:33:23,522 that if you ever wanted me to interview for the fear study, I could. 265 00:33:23,647 --> 00:33:26,608 Yeah? Okay. 266 00:33:27,359 --> 00:33:30,863 I'll talk to the guys, and we can set something up. 267 00:33:30,988 --> 00:33:34,992 I was kind of hoping you would just do it. 268 00:33:35,117 --> 00:33:38,996 - I'd feel more comfortable. - Sure. 269 00:33:40,664 --> 00:33:45,460 - I can come by tonight after class. - Great. 270 00:33:51,091 --> 00:33:53,969 - Is this your family? - Yeah. 271 00:33:54,094 --> 00:33:56,638 My mom and my two older sisters. 272 00:33:56,763 --> 00:34:00,434 - They're pretty? - Yeah, they're pretty, 273 00:34:00,559 --> 00:34:02,936 just like their sister. 274 00:34:11,486 --> 00:34:14,239 Should we get started? 275 00:34:17,492 --> 00:34:21,997 You know, I can vividly remember my first day at kindergarten. 276 00:34:22,122 --> 00:34:25,417 I was wearing a light blue dress, 277 00:34:25,876 --> 00:34:28,253 and I was there no more than 10 minutes 278 00:34:28,378 --> 00:34:32,633 before some boy asked me what was wrong with my face. 279 00:34:34,259 --> 00:34:38,222 That was the first time I realized I had something to be ashamed of. 280 00:34:38,347 --> 00:34:41,391 You have nothing to be ashamed of. 281 00:34:41,517 --> 00:34:45,938 Stephen, you're supposed to be impartial, remember? 282 00:34:47,147 --> 00:34:48,982 Yeah. 283 00:34:50,526 --> 00:34:54,821 Listen, I could have a lot worse than a birthmark covering my body. 284 00:34:57,533 --> 00:35:03,372 But that's kind of hard to swallow whenever I have to look in the mirror to fix my hair. 285 00:35:03,997 --> 00:35:07,084 Or when I look at my sisters. 286 00:35:08,377 --> 00:35:10,963 What that boy asked me when I was five years old 287 00:35:11,088 --> 00:35:15,175 is what people want to ask me every day of my life. 288 00:35:17,135 --> 00:35:20,472 And every time I have to meet someone for the first time, 289 00:35:20,597 --> 00:35:24,476 I'll always be that 5-year-old girl again. 290 00:35:30,274 --> 00:35:34,152 I'm so sorry you have to go through that, Abby. 291 00:35:41,535 --> 00:35:44,371 Can I show you something? 292 00:35:44,496 --> 00:35:48,417 Something that it takes a lot for me to do. 293 00:35:49,251 --> 00:35:52,880 Something that I don't show many people. 294 00:36:57,027 --> 00:36:58,987 Abby. 295 00:37:05,661 --> 00:37:09,957 Abby, I can't. 296 00:37:10,999 --> 00:37:12,960 Why? 297 00:37:16,505 --> 00:37:19,842 My heart is somewhere else right now. 298 00:37:23,637 --> 00:37:26,557 What does that even mean? 299 00:37:28,267 --> 00:37:30,269 Abby. 300 00:37:32,312 --> 00:37:33,647 Just go. 301 00:37:33,772 --> 00:37:36,650 - Abby... - Please, just go. 302 00:37:47,578 --> 00:37:52,583 Will you just go pick up the camera? You don't need to talk to her. 303 00:37:55,419 --> 00:38:00,382 - Why didn't you just fuck her? - Because I don't feel that way about her. 304 00:38:00,507 --> 00:38:03,719 You're afraid Cheryl will find out. 305 00:38:03,844 --> 00:38:08,765 - That has nothing to do with it. - So, I can show her the tape? 306 00:38:11,727 --> 00:38:14,688 Can you just cut me a break? 307 00:38:16,398 --> 00:38:18,400 Look, 308 00:38:19,359 --> 00:38:25,699 Cheryl carries a lot of baggage, and I don't wanna see you get hurt, 309 00:38:28,285 --> 00:38:30,954 not to mention I don't like you pissing in the well, but... 310 00:38:31,079 --> 00:38:36,251 Quaid, it's a school project, okay? It's not like we're curing cancer. 311 00:38:40,756 --> 00:38:45,052 Is that all this is to you, Stephen, a school project? 312 00:38:46,011 --> 00:38:48,722 You know what I mean. 313 00:38:58,440 --> 00:39:01,151 - We're friends, right? - Right. 314 00:39:01,276 --> 00:39:04,988 Right, so, of course I'm going to help you. 315 00:39:05,948 --> 00:39:08,659 I'll get the camera, I'll toss the tape, 316 00:39:08,784 --> 00:39:11,995 - after I've watched it. - Thank you. 317 00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:15,666 - Anything else? - Yeah. 318 00:39:16,917 --> 00:39:21,839 - I'm taking the car tomorrow. - Good for you. 319 00:39:23,465 --> 00:39:28,178 Look, I know you thought it was gonna be some great cathartic challenge for me, 320 00:39:28,303 --> 00:39:31,473 but it is just a car, Quaid. 321 00:39:33,600 --> 00:39:38,021 Yeah, I know. It's just a car, 322 00:39:38,313 --> 00:39:40,858 when you're trying to get into a girl's pants. 323 00:39:40,983 --> 00:39:43,485 Shut the fuck up. 324 00:40:12,681 --> 00:40:17,060 - Do you want the tape? - No. 325 00:40:24,693 --> 00:40:28,947 - You are sexy, you know. - No, I'm not. 326 00:40:32,367 --> 00:40:34,328 Why? 327 00:40:38,790 --> 00:40:42,294 Sexy is all kinds of things. It's... 328 00:40:42,878 --> 00:40:46,131 It's short dress and high heels. 329 00:40:46,715 --> 00:40:51,011 It's... it's morning breath and messy hair. 330 00:40:52,387 --> 00:40:58,060 It's covered in dirt from cleaning out the garage all day. It's... 331 00:40:58,769 --> 00:41:02,856 It's a winter coat that hides everything but this. 332 00:41:03,565 --> 00:41:05,984 Sexy is unique. 333 00:41:14,076 --> 00:41:15,953 So, 334 00:41:18,705 --> 00:41:22,501 you wanna stop feeling sorry for yourself? 335 00:41:36,890 --> 00:41:40,602 Will you paint me? Will you paint me normal? 336 00:42:10,799 --> 00:42:12,759 Hey. 337 00:42:16,221 --> 00:42:18,807 - You're a fucking psycho. - No, you! 338 00:43:12,402 --> 00:43:16,198 Go down on me. Please. 339 00:43:59,741 --> 00:44:03,287 What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare? 340 00:44:06,540 --> 00:44:10,377 What is your strongest memory of feeling fear? 341 00:44:11,461 --> 00:44:14,256 My life is a labyrinth. 342 00:44:15,841 --> 00:44:22,181 A map of its complexities is etched on my face in 1,000 tiny expressions. 343 00:44:22,639 --> 00:44:24,558 Waking up at night... 344 00:44:24,683 --> 00:44:26,643 Thank you. 345 00:44:26,768 --> 00:44:29,646 What's your strongest memory? 346 00:44:29,771 --> 00:44:32,774 There is an answer in what we're doing, 347 00:44:32,900 --> 00:44:36,486 a remedy that no fucking medication 348 00:44:36,612 --> 00:44:41,575 or quack therapy could ever compete with. 349 00:44:42,242 --> 00:44:45,287 Potentially losing my mother. 350 00:44:46,121 --> 00:44:47,706 Sometimes I get discouraged. 351 00:44:47,831 --> 00:44:50,751 - That's bad. - See, everybody's like that. 352 00:44:51,126 --> 00:44:54,463 Maybe I'm not being clear enough. 353 00:44:55,631 --> 00:45:00,427 Maybe I need to be honest with you and tell you what I want. 354 00:45:01,803 --> 00:45:04,681 What is it that you want? 355 00:45:07,309 --> 00:45:10,812 I want your soul to open up for me. 356 00:45:12,481 --> 00:45:18,195 Spread-eagled like a split beaver so that I can gaze into its secrets. 357 00:45:40,676 --> 00:45:42,928 Last one. I got some beer and shit, 358 00:45:43,053 --> 00:45:45,848 but we really gotta cram the night if we wanna get everything done. 359 00:45:45,973 --> 00:45:48,058 - How many did you get? - Six-pack. 360 00:45:48,183 --> 00:45:51,520 You can't really have one. They're all six for me. 361 00:45:51,645 --> 00:45:53,689 Come on, give me a beer. 362 00:45:53,814 --> 00:45:56,984 I'll be downstairs. I'm gonna get set up, all right? 363 00:46:01,071 --> 00:46:04,950 I was confined to a house for the better part of 20 years. 364 00:46:05,075 --> 00:46:07,494 It was my mother's house. 365 00:46:07,619 --> 00:46:11,665 I was professionally diagnosed with agoraphobia. 366 00:46:12,207 --> 00:46:15,627 So, you would never leave the house. 367 00:46:16,003 --> 00:46:20,382 How did you do anything like get food or toilet paper? 368 00:46:20,507 --> 00:46:23,760 Well, I was completely dependent on my mother, 369 00:46:23,886 --> 00:46:27,264 and I had developed a severe hatred for her. 370 00:46:28,515 --> 00:46:32,728 She was the cause of everything horrible in my life, 371 00:46:33,729 --> 00:46:36,481 but she was my only friend. 372 00:46:39,234 --> 00:46:43,697 She died when I was 21. Heart attack. 373 00:46:45,699 --> 00:46:48,327 I never told anyone. 374 00:46:48,660 --> 00:46:52,915 I didn't call anyone. I never had. I couldn't. 375 00:46:53,999 --> 00:46:57,544 About three weeks later, the neighbors noticed the smell, I guess, 376 00:46:57,669 --> 00:47:00,756 and they came over and called an ambulance. 377 00:47:00,881 --> 00:47:04,426 After that, they came and checked on me quite frequently. 378 00:47:04,551 --> 00:47:05,469 It's a good thing they did, too, 379 00:47:05,594 --> 00:47:10,516 because the day I tried to commit suicide they found me. 380 00:47:14,394 --> 00:47:17,731 Would you mind talking about that? 381 00:47:26,073 --> 00:47:29,159 I cut my throat with a razor. 382 00:47:33,914 --> 00:47:36,917 I was dead for five minutes. 383 00:47:40,587 --> 00:47:43,257 But that's why I'm here. 384 00:47:43,966 --> 00:47:48,095 Three years ago, I could not step out of my house. 385 00:47:49,805 --> 00:47:54,893 And now the world is at my feet, and it's because when I came back, 386 00:47:56,395 --> 00:47:59,606 I came back completely fearless. 387 00:48:00,023 --> 00:48:01,108 You're a fucking liar. 388 00:48:01,233 --> 00:48:02,442 - Quaid. - Excuse me? 389 00:48:02,568 --> 00:48:06,321 You don't come in here and lie to me and tell me you're fucking fearless! 390 00:48:06,446 --> 00:48:08,031 - Quaid, stop! - Hey, what are you doing? 391 00:48:08,156 --> 00:48:09,658 - Quaid! - Quaid, what the fuck? 392 00:48:09,783 --> 00:48:13,662 - Get off of me. - It's fucking makeup. 393 00:48:18,041 --> 00:48:20,127 You asshole. 394 00:48:21,545 --> 00:48:22,629 I thought it'd be good for my reel. 395 00:48:22,754 --> 00:48:25,382 This isn't reality television! Get the fuck out of here! 396 00:48:25,507 --> 00:48:26,717 - Fuck you! - Fuck you! 397 00:48:26,842 --> 00:48:29,011 Fuck you! 398 00:48:36,852 --> 00:48:39,438 Have you completely lost your fucking mind? 399 00:48:39,563 --> 00:48:43,066 You can't just attack someone like that. 400 00:48:43,192 --> 00:48:47,237 - I was right, wasn't I? - Who cares? 401 00:48:48,530 --> 00:48:50,365 What's it to us? 402 00:48:50,490 --> 00:48:54,328 I don't feel like getting arrested for assault. 403 00:48:54,578 --> 00:48:56,747 "Who cares?" 404 00:48:57,915 --> 00:48:59,750 "Who cares?" 405 00:48:59,875 --> 00:49:05,464 - This is just a school project, right? - Yeah, exactly. 406 00:49:05,589 --> 00:49:08,175 - Quaid, what the fuck? - Quaid! 407 00:49:08,300 --> 00:49:14,806 This was never about a school assignment! I could give a fuck about your thesis! 408 00:49:21,396 --> 00:49:24,358 Quaid. Quaid, please stop. 409 00:49:26,235 --> 00:49:28,487 No. No! 410 00:49:28,904 --> 00:49:32,533 No! No! No! 411 00:49:58,725 --> 00:50:01,436 - Cheryl. - Just leave me alone. 412 00:50:01,562 --> 00:50:03,814 Cheryl, I... 413 00:50:12,406 --> 00:50:16,159 Did you ever fuck her or what? 414 00:50:17,536 --> 00:50:18,912 What does she sound like when she comes? 415 00:50:19,037 --> 00:50:22,958 - That's enough. - She's a quiet one, I bet. 416 00:50:23,083 --> 00:50:26,378 Lets it build up in her cunt. 417 00:50:26,670 --> 00:50:28,839 What you just did... 418 00:50:28,964 --> 00:50:32,593 See, you don't even give a shit! 419 00:50:35,512 --> 00:50:39,850 It's a good thing I didn't try to take your watch. 420 00:51:17,471 --> 00:51:19,389 Hey, Cheryl. This is Stephen. 421 00:51:19,515 --> 00:51:22,476 Look, I'll pay for the damaged equipment. 422 00:51:22,601 --> 00:51:25,145 Just call me back. 423 00:51:39,076 --> 00:51:44,373 Good job, Grace. Fucking B . Kessler kicked my ass. 424 00:51:44,498 --> 00:51:49,336 - What do you... what do you mean? - The grades are out, for the thesis. 425 00:52:16,321 --> 00:52:18,699 Hey, I'm sorry. 426 00:52:19,366 --> 00:52:24,580 I fucked up. I'm fucked up, I know. 427 00:52:26,623 --> 00:52:29,084 Why did you turn in the film? 428 00:52:29,209 --> 00:52:31,461 I couldn't let you fail. 429 00:52:31,587 --> 00:52:37,718 I had backups on an external. It was... It was missing the last interview, of course. 430 00:52:39,845 --> 00:52:41,305 I'll give you the money for the equipment. 431 00:52:41,430 --> 00:52:44,558 - I'll pay for everything. - Yeah. 432 00:52:44,725 --> 00:52:47,936 - That's right. You will. - I will. 433 00:52:49,771 --> 00:52:54,359 Now get in and let me apologize for being such an asshole. 434 00:53:30,354 --> 00:53:36,401 Stephen, I want us to... I want us to finish our fear study. 435 00:53:38,320 --> 00:53:43,492 What are you talking about? It's finished. You... you turned it in. 436 00:53:44,451 --> 00:53:49,456 No, it's not about what we've already done. It's about what we still need to do. 437 00:53:49,581 --> 00:53:54,837 Yeah, I can do this alone, but I don't want to. 438 00:53:55,754 --> 00:53:59,508 Quaid, the assignment's done. I'm done. 439 00:53:59,633 --> 00:54:02,719 All right, if you want to continue it, then continue it. 440 00:54:02,845 --> 00:54:06,014 The study was your idea anyway. 441 00:54:07,850 --> 00:54:10,477 So, where we going? 442 00:54:10,978 --> 00:54:13,313 To the limits. 443 00:54:17,150 --> 00:54:20,946 Wow. This is some great apology. Pull the car over. 444 00:54:21,071 --> 00:54:25,450 - Drink it. - No, I'm not drinking it. Pull the car over. 445 00:54:30,706 --> 00:54:34,543 - Okay, what is this, some sick game? - It's not a game, Stephen, okay? 446 00:54:34,668 --> 00:54:38,338 It's life, you know. It's you facing your fears and fucking living. 447 00:54:38,463 --> 00:54:40,465 Haven't you ever wondered what it was like for your brother 448 00:54:40,591 --> 00:54:43,010 those final few moments before he crashed his car? 449 00:54:43,135 --> 00:54:47,264 - Before he completely lost control? - No, Quaid, I don't. 450 00:54:47,389 --> 00:54:52,644 I avoid having to think about those moments like any rational person would. 451 00:54:52,769 --> 00:54:55,898 What are you trying to do? You gonna drive us into a brick wall? 452 00:54:56,023 --> 00:54:59,359 - Is that gonna teach me some life lesson? - Hey, you never know, Stephen. 453 00:54:59,484 --> 00:55:03,780 There could be a solution in those final moments, you know. 454 00:55:03,906 --> 00:55:07,201 A resolution. A way out. 455 00:55:08,076 --> 00:55:11,413 - A way out of what? - Of your dread. 456 00:55:15,167 --> 00:55:17,920 Come on, let it take you, Stephen. 457 00:55:20,422 --> 00:55:22,716 - You can't always have control. - Yes, I can! 458 00:55:22,841 --> 00:55:25,594 - No, you can't! - Pull the car over! 459 00:55:53,580 --> 00:55:56,458 Hey, Stephen, man. Come on. 460 00:55:57,793 --> 00:56:02,631 Hey, look, I'm sorry, okay? I'm... I'm drunk. 461 00:56:04,132 --> 00:56:08,095 Please, come on. Just get in and drive me home. 462 00:56:10,848 --> 00:56:13,100 Fuck off. 463 00:56:20,607 --> 00:56:24,152 I need help. Stephen, I need... 464 00:56:27,155 --> 00:56:29,449 I need help. 465 00:56:48,677 --> 00:56:50,637 Shit. 466 00:59:24,416 --> 00:59:27,252 What are you doing here? 467 00:59:29,296 --> 00:59:34,718 I came to try and salvage some of the hard drive. 468 00:59:38,388 --> 00:59:40,599 Down here? 469 00:59:42,476 --> 00:59:45,646 I was looking for a light bulb and... 470 00:59:55,364 --> 00:59:59,117 If it looks like madness, it must be, right? 471 00:59:59,368 --> 01:00:02,496 Is that what you're thinking? 472 01:00:08,252 --> 01:00:11,338 I don't know what I'm thinking. 473 01:00:17,052 --> 01:00:21,139 - I'm gonna go. - Ask me what I want. 474 01:00:27,688 --> 01:00:29,648 No. 475 01:00:29,898 --> 01:00:34,278 Go ahead. Ask me. 476 01:00:37,447 --> 01:00:39,908 What do you want? 477 01:00:40,075 --> 01:00:43,954 I want us to take our study to the next level. 478 01:01:34,796 --> 01:01:37,716 Can you go and sign me in... 479 01:01:40,469 --> 01:01:42,679 Hey, this is Cheryl. Leave me a message. 480 01:01:42,804 --> 01:01:46,934 Hey, Cheryl. It's Stephen. 481 01:01:47,392 --> 01:01:51,104 I haven't seen you in, like, a week and... 482 01:01:52,773 --> 01:01:54,525 Look, I promise I'm not gonna complicate your life. 483 01:01:54,650 --> 01:01:57,444 I just wanna talk. Okay? 484 01:01:57,569 --> 01:02:01,448 Just call me back. Bye. 485 01:02:16,505 --> 01:02:20,425 - Hey. - Hey. 486 01:02:21,176 --> 01:02:25,013 I'm going home for break tomorrow, and we didn't say goodbye. 487 01:02:27,015 --> 01:02:30,769 And I didn't want to leave things how we left them. 488 01:02:44,366 --> 01:02:46,660 What's this? 489 01:02:50,038 --> 01:02:51,748 ...that's kind of hard to swallow whenever... 490 01:02:51,874 --> 01:02:53,292 - What's going on? - Hey. 491 01:02:53,417 --> 01:02:57,713 This weird video started playing on the campus channel. 492 01:03:01,758 --> 01:03:04,094 ...a light blue dress, 493 01:03:04,219 --> 01:03:07,389 and I was there no more than 10 minutes... 494 01:03:11,393 --> 01:03:13,645 This is on every TV across campus right now. 495 01:03:13,770 --> 01:03:16,190 I'll always be that 5-year-old girl. You know, I can vividly remember 496 01:03:16,315 --> 01:03:17,608 my first day at kindergarten. 497 01:03:17,733 --> 01:03:19,693 ...covering my body. I had something to be ashamed of. 498 01:03:19,818 --> 01:03:24,114 ...every day of my life... What was wrong with my face. 499 01:03:24,239 --> 01:03:28,368 What was wrong with my face. What was wrong with my face. 500 01:03:43,091 --> 01:03:45,511 - Abby. - Hey, watch it! 501 01:03:47,930 --> 01:03:50,015 Abby? 502 01:03:51,600 --> 01:03:53,894 Abby! 503 01:04:29,137 --> 01:04:31,390 You made it. 504 01:04:33,892 --> 01:04:35,394 - Thanks for coming. - That's all right. 505 01:04:35,519 --> 01:04:37,354 When I... when I was reviewing your tape, 506 01:04:37,479 --> 01:04:40,858 I realized there were a few more questions we should have asked you. 507 01:04:40,983 --> 01:04:46,280 Your interview was so compelling I didn't wanna leave any stone unturned. 508 01:04:47,823 --> 01:04:51,034 - Stephen and Cheryl not here? - No, they couldn't make it tonight. 509 01:04:51,160 --> 01:04:53,871 - Can I get you a drink? - Yeah. 510 01:04:53,996 --> 01:04:56,874 - Jack and Coke? - Sure. 511 01:05:14,641 --> 01:05:17,561 - You want ice, right? - Yeah. 512 01:05:17,769 --> 01:05:23,901 You have a really cool collection. I mean, you have Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre. 513 01:05:24,234 --> 01:05:28,238 I've read No Exit, but I always heard this was better. 514 01:05:38,916 --> 01:05:42,002 Good. You're awake. 515 01:05:42,377 --> 01:05:45,088 I was getting tired of waiting. 516 01:05:49,092 --> 01:05:51,553 Can you hear me? 517 01:05:53,722 --> 01:05:56,642 Can you hear me? 518 01:05:56,767 --> 01:05:59,853 What? No. 519 01:06:04,024 --> 01:06:07,110 I think you can still hear me. 520 01:06:08,320 --> 01:06:12,741 Please. Okay, you've proved your point. I'm scared. 521 01:06:12,866 --> 01:06:15,536 I'm scared. Please. 522 01:06:17,746 --> 01:06:20,207 Let me go. 523 01:06:22,251 --> 01:06:26,380 Take this fucking thing off my head, please. 524 01:06:26,755 --> 01:06:32,052 Well, you look like a goddamn fool. Fucking spaceman. 525 01:06:34,513 --> 01:06:37,766 I don't know what I was thinking. 526 01:06:46,191 --> 01:06:49,111 Thank you. I'm sorry. 527 01:06:55,742 --> 01:06:58,662 Fuck, no, please. 528 01:06:58,787 --> 01:07:02,583 I'm sorry. What have I done? What have I done? 529 01:07:03,083 --> 01:07:06,295 I'm sorry. I'm... Don't shoot me. 530 01:07:07,421 --> 01:07:10,257 No. No. No! 531 01:07:10,382 --> 01:07:13,260 No! Fuck! 532 01:07:25,564 --> 01:07:27,691 Mommy! 533 01:07:32,070 --> 01:07:34,948 Mommy! 534 01:07:35,657 --> 01:07:39,786 Oh, God! 535 01:07:39,912 --> 01:07:44,291 Mommy! Mommy! 536 01:08:20,285 --> 01:08:25,666 Hey. Take solace in this. 537 01:08:25,833 --> 01:08:30,379 You faced the beast. The beast won. 538 01:08:58,073 --> 01:09:02,077 - Hello? - Stephen. 539 01:09:02,202 --> 01:09:06,999 Abby. Where are you? 540 01:09:07,583 --> 01:09:13,463 Would you like me if I was pretty? Perfect like my sisters? 541 01:09:14,923 --> 01:09:17,593 What are you talking about? 542 01:09:17,718 --> 01:09:19,887 Abby. 543 01:09:21,013 --> 01:09:23,307 Tell me where you are. 544 01:09:23,432 --> 01:09:27,769 Where are you? Abby? 545 01:10:53,564 --> 01:10:57,276 Oh, Christ. Oh, shit. 546 01:10:58,360 --> 01:11:01,613 Abby. Abby, Abby. Someone call an ambulance! 547 01:11:01,738 --> 01:11:06,535 Abby. Abby, Abby. Oh, my God. Abby! 548 01:11:06,660 --> 01:11:11,248 Call a fucking ambulance, somebody! Help me! 549 01:11:13,375 --> 01:11:17,379 "Gentle Jesus, meek and mild 550 01:11:17,504 --> 01:11:22,676 "Look upon this little child Pity my simplicity 551 01:11:23,177 --> 01:11:27,973 "Suffer me to come to thee" That would make it all better. 552 01:11:48,911 --> 01:11:50,954 What's John Doe's story? 553 01:11:51,079 --> 01:11:54,124 Still no news from the officer who dropped him off. 554 01:11:54,249 --> 01:11:57,127 What seems to be the problem? 555 01:11:57,336 --> 01:12:00,172 Doesn't respond to the doctors at all. 556 01:13:00,691 --> 01:13:02,651 All set. 557 01:13:03,485 --> 01:13:08,240 Joshua, what is your strongest memory of feeling fear? 558 01:14:54,263 --> 01:14:56,431 Quaid! 559 01:14:57,599 --> 01:15:01,562 Face the beast! You did that to her! 560 01:15:02,312 --> 01:15:07,401 Come on out! Get out here! I won't let you get away with that! 561 01:15:09,194 --> 01:15:11,655 You wanna face the beast? 562 01:15:11,780 --> 01:15:13,240 This is your mother... 563 01:15:13,365 --> 01:15:15,576 Face me! 564 01:15:15,701 --> 01:15:18,120 ...and your father. 565 01:15:29,798 --> 01:15:33,260 Abby's in the fucking emergency room. 566 01:15:35,304 --> 01:15:38,682 She's in the fucking emergency room, Quaid! 567 01:15:38,807 --> 01:15:41,476 All because of you. 568 01:15:44,646 --> 01:15:48,650 Get the fuck out here! Now! 569 01:16:10,464 --> 01:16:12,049 You think you can fucking scare me? 570 01:16:12,174 --> 01:16:16,470 You think you can scare me, Stephen? Toss the axe! 571 01:16:17,346 --> 01:16:20,098 Down on your knees. 572 01:16:41,036 --> 01:16:42,996 Hey. 573 01:16:43,664 --> 01:16:45,916 Got something to show you. 574 01:16:46,041 --> 01:16:51,171 Results from this school project of ours. 575 01:16:51,380 --> 01:16:55,133 They've been much more rewarding as of late. 576 01:16:56,385 --> 01:17:00,222 It's beef. Slightly salted, well-cooked. 577 01:17:00,848 --> 01:17:03,684 What the fuck did you do? 578 01:17:06,395 --> 01:17:08,397 Cheryl. 579 01:17:10,941 --> 01:17:13,360 Help! 580 01:17:14,695 --> 01:17:18,115 Cheryl! Cheryl! Cheryl! 581 01:17:18,240 --> 01:17:20,909 She's not here, Stephen. I've already let her go. 582 01:17:21,034 --> 01:17:24,163 - I don't believe you. - I swear she's not here. 583 01:17:24,288 --> 01:17:27,541 I just wanted you to see the next phase of my study. 584 01:17:27,666 --> 01:17:30,252 I'm beginning to get the results I need. 585 01:17:30,377 --> 01:17:33,797 It's starting to make me feel a little fucking better, you know? 586 01:17:33,922 --> 01:17:36,842 My nightmares have stopped cold. 587 01:17:38,719 --> 01:17:42,389 I think she believed she could outwait me. 588 01:17:44,349 --> 01:17:47,519 She hated even the smell of it. 589 01:17:47,644 --> 01:17:52,149 And all those memories of her father are flooding back to her, I'm sure. 590 01:17:52,274 --> 01:17:55,110 Flooding back as if they were yesterday. 591 01:18:03,702 --> 01:18:06,538 How long did you keep her in there? 592 01:18:07,789 --> 01:18:10,501 Till the point was proven. 593 01:18:28,685 --> 01:18:30,437 God, she looks sick. 594 01:18:30,562 --> 01:18:35,442 She's hungry, of course. It's been a day and a half. 595 01:18:48,330 --> 01:18:52,960 This is where the cracks begin to show. This is where the dread begins. 596 01:18:59,967 --> 01:19:01,552 You motherfucker! 597 01:19:01,677 --> 01:19:03,971 See? She always ended up cursing me out 598 01:19:04,096 --> 01:19:05,681 whenever she had a confrontation with the meat. 599 01:19:05,806 --> 01:19:08,559 Go to hell, fuckhead! 600 01:19:08,976 --> 01:19:13,021 Quaid! What are you doing? 601 01:19:13,146 --> 01:19:15,274 Why are you doing this? 602 01:19:15,399 --> 01:19:18,235 I'm not gonna do it. 603 01:19:19,111 --> 01:19:22,906 I'm not gonna give you what you want. 604 01:19:25,033 --> 01:19:27,703 I'm not even hungry anymore. 605 01:19:27,828 --> 01:19:32,207 I'd rather die than eat your fucking meat. 606 01:19:35,210 --> 01:19:40,507 About now she began to hallucinate. Little mental ticks. 607 01:19:43,969 --> 01:19:46,305 She'd think that she'd felt something in her hair 608 01:19:46,430 --> 01:19:49,892 or something on the back of her neck. 609 01:19:58,484 --> 01:20:01,612 - God, the meat looks... - Ripe? 610 01:20:04,323 --> 01:20:07,534 It's warm in her little room. 611 01:20:08,577 --> 01:20:12,456 And there's a few flies in there with her. 612 01:20:12,581 --> 01:20:16,251 They found the meat and laid their eggs. 613 01:20:16,460 --> 01:20:21,006 - Was that a part of your plan, too? - Yes. 614 01:20:22,424 --> 01:20:26,345 Well, that's the crux of her dilemma, isn't it? 615 01:20:26,470 --> 01:20:29,890 The longer she waits, the worse it gets. 616 01:20:45,656 --> 01:20:48,158 You're sick. 617 01:20:55,249 --> 01:20:59,002 You're nothing but a fucking sadist, Quaid. 618 01:21:04,299 --> 01:21:07,344 You motherfucker! 619 01:21:12,891 --> 01:21:14,518 How long now? 620 01:21:14,643 --> 01:21:19,731 - Five days. Six. Six days. - Six days! 621 01:21:27,865 --> 01:21:30,075 Quaid. 622 01:21:35,497 --> 01:21:37,833 Sorry, Quaid. 623 01:21:40,252 --> 01:21:42,296 Sorry. 624 01:21:44,965 --> 01:21:47,551 Whatever I did, 625 01:21:50,012 --> 01:21:52,181 I'm sorry. 626 01:21:53,015 --> 01:21:55,809 Please just let me out. 627 01:21:56,351 --> 01:21:58,604 Please. 628 01:22:01,356 --> 01:22:03,484 I'm sorry. 629 01:22:50,322 --> 01:22:53,909 It startled me how suddenly she gave in. 630 01:22:54,076 --> 01:22:56,662 Fuck... 631 01:22:56,787 --> 01:23:00,791 She sat in the middle of the room and ate the meat down to the bone. 632 01:23:00,916 --> 01:23:03,335 Just like that. 633 01:23:10,509 --> 01:23:13,011 Where did she go? 634 01:23:13,720 --> 01:23:16,181 Well, she wandered downstairs. She came into the kitchen, 635 01:23:16,306 --> 01:23:18,058 drank several glasses of water. 636 01:23:18,183 --> 01:23:20,644 Then she sat on a chair for three or four hours, 637 01:23:20,769 --> 01:23:23,480 and then I cooked her something to eat, potatoes, and then she left. 638 01:23:23,605 --> 01:23:27,025 You're fucking lying. I know it. Where is she? 639 01:23:27,442 --> 01:23:31,864 Look, if it'll make you feel any better, check the house. 640 01:23:35,033 --> 01:23:37,411 - Who's with you? - No one. Cut me... cut me out. 641 01:23:37,536 --> 01:23:40,706 Come on, cut me out, cut me out. Hurry the fuck up, Quaid. 642 01:26:27,122 --> 01:26:29,666 You motherfucker! 643 01:29:05,489 --> 01:29:11,495 Watching the fear of death, the pinnacle of all dread approach, 644 01:29:12,246 --> 01:29:14,832 that was the limits. 645 01:29:15,290 --> 01:29:19,169 Someone once wrote that no man can know his own death. 646 01:29:19,294 --> 01:29:22,589 But to know the death of others, intimately, 647 01:29:22,714 --> 01:29:28,387 to watch the tricks that the mind would surely perform to avoid the bitter truth, 648 01:29:28,512 --> 01:29:32,599 that was a clue to death's nature, wasn't it? 649 01:29:34,142 --> 01:29:38,772 That might, in some small way, prepare a man for his own death. 650 01:29:53,162 --> 01:29:59,293 To live another's dread vicariously was the safest, cleverest way to touch the beast. 651 01:30:20,856 --> 01:30:25,068 Steve. No! 652 01:30:25,360 --> 01:30:28,155 No, Steve. 653 01:30:37,706 --> 01:30:41,460 Let's see how hungry you have to be to get through that. 654 01:30:41,752 --> 01:30:43,587 No. 655 01:30:47,382 --> 01:30:49,635 No!