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Previously on "You"...
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I love our little routine. [MOANS]
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Always the same, but never stale.
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Your father was never consistent,
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and you're still healing
from that with my help.
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And guess what.
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Now that I've made our morning sacred,
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you're actually writing.
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One day, I'll tell you about Candace.
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She broke my heart. [LAUGHS]
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But you are good.
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You make cheating a distant memory.
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Peach is taking you out of town.
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I need to save you.
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[TIRES SCREECHING, CRASH]
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License and registration.
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Sorry, Spencer Hewitt.
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Dispatch to Nico,
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car's registered to an Ivan Mooney.
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Kicked Ron out.
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You're right, people don't change.
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Peach has it out for me.
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If I just keep being
the perfect boyfriend,
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you'll realize that life
is so much healthier
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away from this toxicity.
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You have issues, okay?
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Don't make your desperate,
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unending need for attention about me.
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It's freeing in a way to know for certain
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what I have to do to protect you.
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- Anyone here?
- I would do anything for you.
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[BOTH GRUNTING]
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♪ ♪
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[GUNSHOT]
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I'm not a bad person.
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She was going to ruin you.
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You're safe now, next to me.
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♪ ♪
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[SOFT, DRAMATIC MUSIC]
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That first perfect month...
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we'd been to hell and back,
we'd done the hard work,
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and we were closer than ever,
>we were living the dream.
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Couldn't keep our hands off each other,
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couldn't keep anything off each other.
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I was ready to wait it out
during the grief period,
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no matter what that looked like.
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But it only brought us closer together.
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That month after the funeral was...
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it was intimate.
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Real.
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Just made us more.
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No doubt, awash with champagne...
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But then, over the next few weeks...
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[UNEASY ELECTRONIC MUSIC]
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Something happened.
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♪ ♪
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Falafel.
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Couldn't tell you the exact moment
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things went wrong between us.
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But, uh,
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wrong they have gone.
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So that's why
you're here in therapy, to...
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find out why your relationship
went south?
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Oh, it didn't just go south.
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It's over.
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And I wanna know why.
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[FOREBODING MUSIC]
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♪ ♪
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Listen, here's the deal.
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Don't think of this as
an office or me as a shrink.
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We're just two dudes,
you know, shooting the shit.
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Why don't we start... [RECORDER BEEPS]
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When things were good with you two?
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Hmm, my first kiss? Good question.
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I was 14, and I was going out
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with this, um, boy Matt.
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You know, we told each other
all the good stuff.
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He was so sweet, and we went to see, um,
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"Hitch" together... [LAUGHS]
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And I was waiting for him
to make the move.
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Waiting... so, what,
that was your first kiss?
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No, it was two nights later
on a school camping trip,
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in a tent in the rain,
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with his best friend, Chad.
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- Oh, Chad.
- I know.
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- Chad.
- I know.
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[LAUGHS] I mean, but Chad,
he just... he went for it,
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and I've always had trouble
with that kind of thing,
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the whole good guy versus bad boy bit.
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Don't look at me that way.
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Trust me, I wish I could have a redo.
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I still feel like a hootsie for it.
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A hootsie?
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That should totally be a word.
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[LAUGHS]
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No real words?
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- Only fake ones.
- [LAUGHS]
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- Punklassical.
- Photobomb.
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Ravey. , We connected on every level.
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It doesn't get any better.
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Everythingship.
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I love that.
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It's like our word.
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Everythingship.
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And now...
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A meeting of the minds,
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bodies, and souls.
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[MELLOW POP MUSIC]
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Okay, Beck, ready?
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[DOOR CREAKS]
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♪ ♪
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Wha...
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[LAUGHS]
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It can't be.
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Are we redoing my first kiss?
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We're redoing your first kiss.
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Wow.
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I'm finally gonna kiss the right guy.
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It was an everythingship, it really was.
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We were in a really healthy place.
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I mean, I'd even stopped
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relying on the, you know,
like, these certain crutches.
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- Crutches?
- Yeah.
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Checking social media,
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sneaking a peek at a locked screen and...
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it was time to stop 'cause we were real.
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- I just needed to...
- Trust?
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Sure.
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I'll see you after work.
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Yeah, about that.
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I may have gotten fired
from the yoga studio.
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- May have?
- Oh...
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I got fired.
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Apparently I fell asleep
leading Savasana.
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[SNICKERS]
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It's fine. I can find another job.
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- I can...
- Come work at Mooney's.
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I know, I know. Big step.
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Joe.
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Come on, it's perfect.
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Flexible hours, you have time to write.
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I wanna help.
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I can't ask that of you.
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Well, you're not asking, I'm offering.
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But big steps feel right
in an everythingship.
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Yeah, yeah, I get that.
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Oh, don't worry about this.
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I'm in early stages
of asymptomatic glaucoma,
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so I got a prescription.
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I swear, this makes me
such a better listener.
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They should do a study.
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[MYSTERIOUS MUSIC]
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[INHALING]
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[EXHALING]
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[SIGHS] So what happened next?
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Ooh, hey, Ethan?
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Do you mind taking a picture of us?
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[SIGHS] Uh, I'm sorry,
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I think I just need to sit down.
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I, um, pre-gamed the new Safran Foer
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by reading "Eating Animals,"
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and I'm test driving veganism now,
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and I'm just feeling a little faint.
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BOTH: Oh.
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[LAUGHS] Of course.
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[SHUTTER CLICKS]
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You two are absolutely adorable,
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and I am a lonely vegan island.
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Someone needs a burger.
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Or somewhere to put his meat.
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- Oh.
- Okay, that was bad.
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I meant it sympathetically.
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We have a hashtag now?
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- Too much?
- It's perfect.
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What happened next
was we were doing great.
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It was safe to open up
about the very hardest things.
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You know, uh,
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Peach went on a date
with JSF in high school.
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I thought that grief
was really the last frontier.
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Apparently, he ate pork belly.
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Very scandalous.
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And Peach always said th...
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um... [LAUGHS]
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You can talk about her, you know.
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Yeah, I know.
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You haven't mentioned her
since the funeral.
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It's been over a month.
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And we were at that frontier together.
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Actually, I think I...
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I'd rather save it for therapy,
if that's okay.
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[FOREBODING MUSIC]
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Therapy?
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Except, it turns out, we weren't.
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Yeah, I... I used to go about a year ago,
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but I stopped, but then after Peach,
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I thought it was worth it
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to go for a bit.
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I mean, honestly, Dr.
Nicky's been really helpful
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dealing with my grief.
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I think we need more stars.
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- They're in your office, right?
- Yeah.
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Don't get me wrong... [STAMMERS]
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There's nothing wrong
with going to therapy,
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it's just, it's a bit troubling
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when your partner
hides something from you.
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Don't you agree, Dr. Nicky?
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I hear you, Paul.
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Not cool.
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Forgive me, Beck, but for the purposes
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of this session with your therapist,
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you are Renaldo... [ECHOING SPEECH]
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Tall, dark, and man-bunned
backup dancer for Beyoncé,
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and I, Paul, well, I manage a bar.
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Every asshole in this city
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has the same not-so-special problems.
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It won't be hard to hide who I am.
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You two seem pretty copacetic,
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sort of, uh...
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things were Ross and Rachel
with you and Renaldo.
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Yeah.
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I guess they... they were,
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until they weren't.
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See, I thought I'd eliminated all
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the obstacles between us...
Beck, Benji, Peach...
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but now another has reared its head,
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and he's sitting right in front of me.
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All right, Paul,
let's keep digging into this.
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All right, tell me, when did you see
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the first cracks with Renaldo?
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[SOFT, DRAMATIC MUSIC]
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Well, having Renaldo at work was amazing,
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but it did force me
to confront some slightly
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careless aspects of his personality.
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I tried to cut him some slack...
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you know, new job...
and somewhere in there,
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he's still grieving, right?
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- [CLEARS THROAT]
- Hey.
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- We need to talk.
- About what?
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Look, this is uncomfortable,
she's your girlfriend,
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and lord knows I'm not one to criticize,
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but Becky's terrible, Joe.
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Okay? She's always late,
she leaves the register open,
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she doesn't know
how to organize by genre.
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Just this morning, she chewed out
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a 14-year-old for buying
"American Tragedy" for school
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because she hates Dreiser.
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Everyone hates Dreiser.
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But this is a bookstore, okay?
We're trying to sell books.
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And I hear you, buddy.
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You're caught up hard
in the Tilt-A-Whirl of punani,
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and that is something
I struggle with every day.
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But here's the thing, brother.
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Shitting where you eat
just leads to confusion
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and E. coli.
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So I'm gonna let you ruminate
on that for a little bit.
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Yeah, well, we were a little imperfect.
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[PHONE RINGS]
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But I still thought
we were in great shape,
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if that was the worst of our problems.
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[TENSE MUSIC]
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[COUGHS, CLEARS THROAT]
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Mooney's, rare and used.
267
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This is Officer Nico,
Greenwich Sheriff's Department.
268
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I'm looking for a Mr. Ivan Mooney.
269
00:10:54,147 --> 00:10:55,497
Speaking.
270
00:10:55,498 --> 00:10:57,816
Calling about a Buick
registered to your name.
271
00:10:57,817 --> 00:11:00,444
Yeah, I gave that car
to my nephew, Spencer.
272
00:11:00,445 --> 00:11:02,153
Is he in trouble?
273
00:11:02,154 --> 00:11:04,156
[LAUGHS SOFTLY] No.
274
00:11:04,157 --> 00:11:06,825
I was just calling about
a little fender bender he had.
275
00:11:06,826 --> 00:11:09,201
It was nothing. Have a nice day.
276
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[TENSE MUSIC]
277
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♪ ♪
278
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That was too close.
279
00:11:14,500 --> 00:11:17,502
♪ ♪
280
00:11:17,503 --> 00:11:20,839
I just saw my job as keeping
the outside world away
281
00:11:20,840 --> 00:11:22,340
so Renaldo could heal.
282
00:11:22,341 --> 00:11:25,676
Hey, Ethan said
you were late again today.
283
00:11:25,677 --> 00:11:28,346
Yeah, I know. Sorry.
284
00:11:28,347 --> 00:11:31,807
It was hard to find a line
between boss and boyfriend,
285
00:11:31,808 --> 00:11:34,018
between supporting and enabling.
286
00:11:34,019 --> 00:11:36,854
But you did say the hours were flexible
287
00:11:36,855 --> 00:11:38,648
and that I'd have time to write.
288
00:11:38,649 --> 00:11:41,267
I did, but you haven't been writing.
289
00:11:42,028 --> 00:11:44,572
Thinking about writing
is a part of the process.
290
00:11:46,698 --> 00:11:48,491
Okay, that sounded like bullshit,
291
00:11:48,492 --> 00:11:50,819
even as I said it.
292
00:11:51,370 --> 00:11:52,870
I'm sorry.
293
00:11:52,871 --> 00:11:54,489
The truth is...
294
00:11:55,457 --> 00:11:58,711
I've been having really
vivid dreams about Peach.
295
00:12:00,712 --> 00:12:02,589
I'm sorry about that.
296
00:12:02,590 --> 00:12:04,791
It's not your fault, it's just...
297
00:12:05,384 --> 00:12:09,095
her face, it's... fading,
298
00:12:09,096 --> 00:12:12,215
and I didn't think
that would happen so fast.
299
00:12:13,683 --> 00:12:16,061
But she comes at night, so,
300
00:12:16,062 --> 00:12:20,731
now I am too tired to write
and falling behind at school,
301
00:12:20,732 --> 00:12:24,735
and now I'm failing you
by being bad at this job.
302
00:12:24,736 --> 00:12:27,239
I couldn't tell if I was
helping; I thought I was.
303
00:12:27,240 --> 00:12:29,657
It's pathetic... the only good thing
304
00:12:29,658 --> 00:12:31,660
in my life right now is therapy.
305
00:12:32,702 --> 00:12:34,412
That's the only good thing?
306
00:12:34,413 --> 00:12:36,914
Joe, don't be like that.
307
00:12:36,915 --> 00:12:38,707
Or I was totally wrong, and there were
308
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dark forces at work I wasn't privy to.
309
00:12:41,586 --> 00:12:43,259
[LOUD KNOCKING] Claudia!
310
00:12:43,260 --> 00:12:46,258
There are people who
are thoroughly delusional
311
00:12:46,259 --> 00:12:48,093
about their relationship. Claudia!
312
00:12:48,094 --> 00:12:50,095
Get your scrub ass out of here, Ron.
313
00:12:50,096 --> 00:12:52,096
Karen, stop being a meddling bitch
314
00:12:52,097 --> 00:12:53,459
and tell me where Claudia is.
315
00:12:53,460 --> 00:12:56,268
For example, my neighbor's
alcoholic boyfriend
316
00:12:56,269 --> 00:12:59,646
literally has to be chased
away with a baseball bat.
317
00:12:59,647 --> 00:13:02,106
[MELLOW MUSIC]
318
00:13:02,107 --> 00:13:03,941
This isn't over, Karen.
319
00:13:03,942 --> 00:13:06,360
- [TAPPING]
- Can't hide forever, Claudia!
320
00:13:06,361 --> 00:13:07,988
Do I know you?
321
00:13:07,989 --> 00:13:09,406
No.
322
00:13:09,407 --> 00:13:11,065
You don't know me at all?
323
00:13:11,616 --> 00:13:14,068
- No.
- Then what are you staring at?
324
00:13:14,578 --> 00:13:16,120
But we were different...
325
00:13:16,121 --> 00:13:17,622
[DOOR SLAMS]
326
00:13:17,623 --> 00:13:19,032
I thought.
327
00:13:19,458 --> 00:13:21,667
Sounds like working
with Renaldo at the bar
328
00:13:21,668 --> 00:13:23,628
wasn't such a hot idea, huh?
329
00:13:23,629 --> 00:13:27,924
I mean, sure, it was
difficult to navigate at times.
330
00:13:29,844 --> 00:13:31,677
But it had its good parts.
331
00:13:31,678 --> 00:13:33,046
Beck?
332
00:13:34,682 --> 00:13:36,090
Beck?
333
00:13:37,143 --> 00:13:40,186
[HAMILTON LEITHAUSER'S
"HEARTSTRUCK" PLAYING]
334
00:13:40,187 --> 00:13:42,689
♪ ♪
335
00:13:42,690 --> 00:13:46,317
♪ Unwind ♪
336
00:13:46,318 --> 00:13:48,695
♪ Your watch ♪
337
00:13:48,696 --> 00:13:50,489
♪ ♪
338
00:13:50,490 --> 00:13:52,740
♪ Shut your eyes ♪
339
00:13:52,741 --> 00:13:53,950
♪ A minute ♪
340
00:13:53,951 --> 00:13:55,911
♪ ♪
341
00:13:55,912 --> 00:13:58,622
♪ 'Cause your heart ♪
342
00:13:58,623 --> 00:14:00,831
♪ Killed mine ♪
343
00:14:00,832 --> 00:14:02,374
♪ ♪
344
00:14:02,375 --> 00:14:05,128
♪ And I would close ♪
345
00:14:05,129 --> 00:14:08,923
♪ The distance ♪
346
00:14:08,924 --> 00:14:10,341
Hi.
347
00:14:10,342 --> 00:14:13,753
Hi, what is this?
348
00:14:14,388 --> 00:14:16,348
I thought we could use a...
349
00:14:16,349 --> 00:14:18,557
a little date night.
350
00:14:18,558 --> 00:14:19,558
[LAUGHS]
351
00:14:19,559 --> 00:14:24,648
♪ ♪
352
00:14:24,649 --> 00:14:27,399
Meatball subs, your favorite.
353
00:14:27,400 --> 00:14:28,693
[LID CLATTERS]
354
00:14:30,363 --> 00:14:33,197
Well, what do you think?
355
00:14:33,198 --> 00:14:34,990
I think one errant candle
356
00:14:34,991 --> 00:14:37,860
could destroy an entire
collection of rare books,
357
00:14:38,483 --> 00:14:39,808
but...
358
00:14:41,039 --> 00:14:44,875
you are worth it.
359
00:14:44,876 --> 00:14:49,214
[LAUGHS]
360
00:14:49,215 --> 00:14:51,258
[SOFT MUSIC]
361
00:14:51,259 --> 00:14:53,718
I feel bad for girls who don't eat.
362
00:14:53,719 --> 00:14:55,845
It always made me sad with Peach.
363
00:14:55,846 --> 00:14:58,764
♪ ♪
364
00:14:58,765 --> 00:15:00,350
What?
365
00:15:00,351 --> 00:15:02,351
[STAMMERS]
366
00:15:02,352 --> 00:15:04,562
You're talking about Peach.
367
00:15:04,563 --> 00:15:05,888
It's good.
368
00:15:06,566 --> 00:15:07,932
Yeah.
369
00:15:08,525 --> 00:15:09,901
I guess so.
370
00:15:09,902 --> 00:15:15,407
♪ ♪
371
00:15:15,408 --> 00:15:17,025
You know, I, uh,
372
00:15:17,451 --> 00:15:20,412
I had this Little Mermaid
sleeping bag when I was a kid.
373
00:15:20,413 --> 00:15:22,747
God, I loved that thing.
374
00:15:22,748 --> 00:15:25,082
But then it started to smell bad,
375
00:15:25,083 --> 00:15:27,918
like, fungus-bad.
376
00:15:27,919 --> 00:15:30,590
I couldn't bring myself
to get rid of it, though.
377
00:15:30,615 --> 00:15:32,298
- It was like...
- A security blanket.
378
00:15:32,299 --> 00:15:33,708
Exactly.
379
00:15:34,594 --> 00:15:36,302
But then I lost it,
380
00:15:36,303 --> 00:15:39,547
and even though I was sad,
381
00:15:40,057 --> 00:15:42,100
I was kinda relieved because I didn't...
382
00:15:42,101 --> 00:15:45,228
I didn't actually have to get rid of it.
383
00:15:45,229 --> 00:15:47,605
♪ ♪
384
00:15:47,606 --> 00:15:50,274
And it's... it's the same with Peach.
385
00:15:50,275 --> 00:15:51,651
There is a part of me...
386
00:15:51,652 --> 00:15:53,612
oh, God, it sounds terrible.
387
00:15:53,613 --> 00:15:56,989
Not that I'm comparing Peach
to a cheap, nylon sleeping bag,
388
00:15:56,990 --> 00:15:58,566
I, uh...
389
00:15:59,577 --> 00:16:00,869
[LAUGHS]
390
00:16:00,870 --> 00:16:03,120
This metaphor made a lot more sense
391
00:16:03,121 --> 00:16:04,999
when I came to it with Dr. Nicky.
392
00:16:06,102 --> 00:16:07,792
I think all this Peach stuff is coming up
393
00:16:07,793 --> 00:16:09,919
because of my birthday.
394
00:16:11,379 --> 00:16:12,965
December 3rd.
395
00:16:14,799 --> 00:16:15,800
[LAUGHS]
396
00:16:15,801 --> 00:16:17,301
You remembered?
397
00:16:17,302 --> 00:16:18,628
Of course.
398
00:16:19,639 --> 00:16:21,263
Anyway,
399
00:16:21,264 --> 00:16:25,676
Peach made such a big deal
about birthdays.
400
00:16:26,312 --> 00:16:29,605
And she always made sure
I felt super special
401
00:16:29,606 --> 00:16:33,059
and would plan the whole thing, and...
402
00:16:33,818 --> 00:16:35,778
now I don't...
403
00:16:35,779 --> 00:16:37,154
I'll handle it.
404
00:16:37,155 --> 00:16:39,157
- No, Joe...
- No, what do you want?
405
00:16:39,158 --> 00:16:42,280
A night at the Met?
A tasting menu at Momofuku?
406
00:16:42,281 --> 00:16:45,705
Hell, I'll even sing karaoke
with Annika and Lynn.
407
00:16:45,706 --> 00:16:47,615
[LAUGHS]
408
00:16:48,333 --> 00:16:50,292
That's sweet, that's really...
409
00:16:50,293 --> 00:16:51,960
[LAUGHS] Really sweet.
410
00:16:51,961 --> 00:16:53,504
But I...
411
00:16:53,505 --> 00:16:56,549
I think I'd rather keep it
low-key and small.
412
00:16:57,884 --> 00:17:01,220
No. No to small, no to low-key.
413
00:17:01,221 --> 00:17:02,964
[SIGHS]
414
00:17:03,807 --> 00:17:06,726
I don't know, Lynn,
Beck was pretty emphatic.
415
00:17:06,727 --> 00:17:10,188
Dude, Beck's a Sagittarius.
She craves attention.
416
00:17:10,189 --> 00:17:12,524
This is a test, okay? Part of the fun
417
00:17:12,525 --> 00:17:14,692
is making a guy think that
you don't want something
418
00:17:14,693 --> 00:17:16,111
and seeing if he still comes through.
419
00:17:16,112 --> 00:17:17,120
No, Beck's not like that.
420
00:17:17,121 --> 00:17:19,447
Let me give you a little lesson on Beck.
421
00:17:19,448 --> 00:17:21,865
Every year she wants to "keep it simple,"
422
00:17:21,866 --> 00:17:24,536
and every year,
whatever guy that she's dating
423
00:17:24,537 --> 00:17:28,059
royally blows it, and Peach
swoops in on her Manolos
424
00:17:28,060 --> 00:17:30,709
and throws Beck a party for the ages.
425
00:17:30,710 --> 00:17:32,876
Only now, no Peach.
426
00:17:32,877 --> 00:17:34,962
God rest her beautiful soul.
427
00:17:34,963 --> 00:17:37,665
So you're saying throw a party?
428
00:17:38,384 --> 00:17:39,884
I'll help.
429
00:17:41,386 --> 00:17:43,220
I need a distraction.
430
00:17:43,221 --> 00:17:45,388
And I think because
I was anxious about this,
431
00:17:45,389 --> 00:17:47,851
my judgment was a little off.
432
00:17:47,852 --> 00:17:50,011
If I bury my sorrows
in anymore booze and boys,
433
00:17:50,012 --> 00:17:52,730
I'm gonna get syphilis again.
434
00:17:52,731 --> 00:17:55,691
And Annika is still at Esalen
on her grief retreat so...
435
00:17:55,692 --> 00:17:56,920
But she didn't like Peach.
436
00:17:56,921 --> 00:17:58,988
None of us liked Peach.
437
00:18:00,364 --> 00:18:02,190
But we loved her.
438
00:18:03,200 --> 00:18:06,201
Losing a friend
is super complicated, Joe.
439
00:18:06,202 --> 00:18:07,537
I need this.
440
00:18:07,538 --> 00:18:09,405
Beck needs it.
441
00:18:10,082 --> 00:18:12,083
Which is why I was stupid enough
442
00:18:12,084 --> 00:18:14,210
to think Renaldo's friends
should be listened to, ever.
443
00:18:14,211 --> 00:18:15,502
It'll just be some friends,
444
00:18:15,503 --> 00:18:16,921
some NYU people.
445
00:18:16,922 --> 00:18:19,923
We'll make it a surprise party, hmm?
446
00:18:19,924 --> 00:18:21,468
A book theme,
447
00:18:21,469 --> 00:18:23,052
and everyone can come dressed
448
00:18:23,053 --> 00:18:24,345
as their favorite literary character.
449
00:18:24,346 --> 00:18:25,713
What do you say?
450
00:18:26,432 --> 00:18:27,965
Put it to you this way.
451
00:18:28,933 --> 00:18:31,059
Would you rather
do something and be wrong
452
00:18:31,060 --> 00:18:32,803
or nothing and be wrong?
453
00:18:33,439 --> 00:18:34,773
Surprise party.
454
00:18:34,774 --> 00:18:36,441
Hmm, I thought it would cheer him up
455
00:18:36,442 --> 00:18:37,600
after the death of...
456
00:18:38,611 --> 00:18:41,153
his beloved shih tzu.
457
00:18:41,154 --> 00:18:43,356
Get his mind off of things.
458
00:18:43,949 --> 00:18:45,316
And?
459
00:18:46,242 --> 00:18:47,993
Did it?
460
00:18:47,994 --> 00:18:49,997
No, it was the beginning of the end.
461
00:18:51,457 --> 00:18:52,957
Because you threw him a surprise party?
462
00:18:52,958 --> 00:18:54,291
No, no, because that's when I realized
463
00:18:54,292 --> 00:18:56,960
he was cheating on me with his therapist.
464
00:18:56,961 --> 00:18:59,381
[EERIE MUSIC]
465
00:19:07,972 --> 00:19:10,142
[DOORKNOB RATTLING, KEYS CLANGING]
466
00:19:11,769 --> 00:19:13,769
[HEAVY STEPS]
467
00:19:13,770 --> 00:19:15,730
Oh, shit, you scared me.
468
00:19:16,898 --> 00:19:18,191
What's all this?
469
00:19:18,192 --> 00:19:20,818
Uh, oh, it's my girlfriend's birthday.
470
00:19:20,819 --> 00:19:22,487
Throwing her a little...
well, it's not so little.
471
00:19:22,488 --> 00:19:25,323
It's, um, it's a surprise party.
472
00:19:25,324 --> 00:19:26,740
Kind of a literary theme.
473
00:19:26,741 --> 00:19:28,526
Thus...
474
00:19:30,328 --> 00:19:32,238
I'm going as Ernest Hemingway.
475
00:19:32,873 --> 00:19:34,332
"The Old Man and the Sea,"
"The Sun Also"...
476
00:19:34,333 --> 00:19:36,534
I know who Hemingway is.
477
00:19:37,711 --> 00:19:39,287
Nice cake.
478
00:19:40,172 --> 00:19:42,258
She's lucky to have a man who cares.
479
00:19:44,300 --> 00:19:47,345
[DRAMATIC HIP-HOP MUSIC]
480
00:19:47,346 --> 00:19:49,514
♪ ♪
481
00:19:49,515 --> 00:19:52,851
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
482
00:19:52,852 --> 00:19:54,352
[BELL JINGLES]
483
00:19:54,353 --> 00:20:01,358
♪ ♪
484
00:20:01,359 --> 00:20:05,697
Bacon-wrapped date? Bacon-wrapped date?
485
00:20:05,698 --> 00:20:07,231
Bacon-wrapped date?
486
00:20:08,032 --> 00:20:09,734
Good call.
487
00:20:11,036 --> 00:20:12,202
Bacon-wrapped date?
488
00:20:12,203 --> 00:20:13,502
It's 9:40.
489
00:20:13,503 --> 00:20:15,373
Beck was supposed to be here
at 9:00 to meet for dinner.
490
00:20:15,374 --> 00:20:17,291
She'll be here, relax.
491
00:20:17,292 --> 00:20:19,251
You know what you need,
my friend, is a drink.
492
00:20:19,252 --> 00:20:20,920
Hey, get this man a Catcher in the Rye.
493
00:20:20,921 --> 00:20:23,463
- No, no, no, it's fine.
- She's here.
494
00:20:23,464 --> 00:20:25,842
Everyone hide. Places, people.
495
00:20:25,843 --> 00:20:27,134
Hide!
496
00:20:27,135 --> 00:20:34,143
♪ ♪
497
00:20:34,559 --> 00:20:37,312
ALL: Surprise!
498
00:20:37,313 --> 00:20:39,354
How American.
499
00:20:39,355 --> 00:20:41,275
[LAUGHS]
500
00:20:42,567 --> 00:20:45,068
Who is that?
501
00:20:45,069 --> 00:20:47,404
That's one of Beck's school friends,
502
00:20:47,405 --> 00:20:49,239
I think, I don't know.
503
00:20:49,240 --> 00:20:50,365
I'm texting her.
504
00:20:50,366 --> 00:20:51,742
[PHONE BLIPS] _
505
00:20:51,743 --> 00:20:58,374
♪ ♪
506
00:20:58,375 --> 00:20:59,918
What?
507
00:20:59,919 --> 00:21:05,464
♪ ♪
508
00:21:05,465 --> 00:21:09,427
Rude to stare,
especially in Asian cultures.
509
00:21:09,428 --> 00:21:11,930
Mr. Darcy, I take it?
510
00:21:11,931 --> 00:21:14,306
- Indeed.
- Predictable.
511
00:21:14,307 --> 00:21:16,099
Says Elizabeth Bennet.
512
00:21:16,100 --> 00:21:17,602
Ugh, god, no. Dorothea Brooke.
513
00:21:17,603 --> 00:21:18,978
"Middlemarch"?
514
00:21:18,979 --> 00:21:20,939
Named my shelter cat after George Eliot.
515
00:21:20,940 --> 00:21:22,682
I love her.
516
00:21:23,275 --> 00:21:25,347
- The cat or the author?
- Both.
517
00:21:26,444 --> 00:21:27,945
Meow.
518
00:21:27,946 --> 00:21:30,114
♪ ♪
519
00:21:30,115 --> 00:21:32,909
[BIG BAND MUSIC PLAYING]
520
00:21:32,910 --> 00:21:34,201
Hi, hey, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
521
00:21:34,202 --> 00:21:35,702
can we chat for a second?
522
00:21:35,703 --> 00:21:38,288
Oh, Joe, Joe, this is Constantine.
523
00:21:38,289 --> 00:21:40,208
He lives in Bushwick.
524
00:21:40,209 --> 00:21:41,668
♪ ♪
525
00:21:41,669 --> 00:21:43,544
That's fine. Where the hell is Beck?
526
00:21:43,545 --> 00:21:45,337
Do you wanna touch his moustache?
527
00:21:45,338 --> 00:21:46,964
No, no, no, Lynn, no, Lynn.
528
00:21:46,965 --> 00:21:48,466
I don't wanna touch his moustache.
529
00:21:48,467 --> 00:21:49,968
- Joe.
- I don't get it.
530
00:21:49,969 --> 00:21:51,469
I've tried to be the perfect boyfriend.
531
00:21:51,470 --> 00:21:54,346
I've bent over backwards.
I gave her a job.
532
00:21:54,347 --> 00:21:56,048
I threw her this party.
533
00:21:56,474 --> 00:21:59,477
- What else can I do?
- People are puzzling.
534
00:21:59,478 --> 00:22:01,019
Peach committed suicide,
535
00:22:01,020 --> 00:22:03,480
and she's the strongest
person I know... knew.
536
00:22:03,481 --> 00:22:05,650
Beck isn't just puzzling,
she's impossible.
537
00:22:05,651 --> 00:22:07,652
Like, where is she right now?
538
00:22:07,653 --> 00:22:09,403
[STAMMERS] It's selfish.
539
00:22:09,404 --> 00:22:11,489
It's rude, but it's Beck...
540
00:22:11,490 --> 00:22:12,990
- Joe.
- And tha...
541
00:22:12,991 --> 00:22:15,159
♪ ♪
542
00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:16,243
Oh, shit.
543
00:22:16,244 --> 00:22:17,663
Hi... hey!
544
00:22:19,038 --> 00:22:20,999
Can I speak to you for a sec?
545
00:22:21,000 --> 00:22:24,751
♪ ♪
546
00:22:24,752 --> 00:22:26,754
Joe, this is not what I asked for.
547
00:22:26,755 --> 00:22:30,341
I said quiet, and I said small.
548
00:22:30,342 --> 00:22:31,592
Lynn said...
549
00:22:31,593 --> 00:22:33,010
Oh, now you're listening to Lynn?
550
00:22:33,011 --> 00:22:36,305
In retrospect, a misfire.
551
00:22:36,306 --> 00:22:37,681
Why are you wearing a turtleneck?
552
00:22:37,682 --> 00:22:39,726
I'm Hemingway... again, misfire.
553
00:22:39,727 --> 00:22:42,103
Look, I appreciate the gesture,
554
00:22:42,104 --> 00:22:45,355
I just... I can't be at a party
555
00:22:45,356 --> 00:22:47,275
and pretend that everything
is okay without Peach.
556
00:22:47,276 --> 00:22:48,942
I am not a robot.
557
00:22:48,943 --> 00:22:50,361
Well, what about the other day,
558
00:22:50,362 --> 00:22:52,529
the relief you talked about?
559
00:22:52,530 --> 00:22:54,574
Grief isn't a straight line, Joe.
560
00:22:54,575 --> 00:22:57,410
I know, you've just
been hard to read lately.
561
00:22:57,411 --> 00:22:58,911
What is that supposed to mean?
562
00:22:58,912 --> 00:22:59,954
[SIGHS]
563
00:23:02,249 --> 00:23:03,749
Where were you?
564
00:23:03,750 --> 00:23:05,375
- Sorry?
- Beck, I called.
565
00:23:05,376 --> 00:23:07,420
- I texted you.
- Yeah, I know.
566
00:23:07,421 --> 00:23:10,006
I just... my, um...
567
00:23:10,007 --> 00:23:12,717
my therapy session ran long.
568
00:23:12,718 --> 00:23:16,762
Dr. Nicky and I were
really making some headway.
569
00:23:16,763 --> 00:23:19,556
And then I guess I just...
I went for a walk, and...
570
00:23:19,557 --> 00:23:21,392
You guess?
571
00:23:21,393 --> 00:23:23,518
- Therapy and a walk?
- Yes.
572
00:23:23,519 --> 00:23:25,563
Then why do you smell
like three glasses of rosé?
573
00:23:25,564 --> 00:23:28,607
Because I sat down at some
stupid bar with my journal
574
00:23:28,608 --> 00:23:30,735
trying to work through shit,
Joe, that's it.
575
00:23:30,736 --> 00:23:32,069
Okay so, then, why didn't you call me?
576
00:23:32,070 --> 00:23:33,377
[SIGHS] I forgot.
577
00:23:33,378 --> 00:23:35,948
But it's your birthday,
Beck, we made dinner plans.
578
00:23:35,949 --> 00:23:37,240
[STAMMERING] Well, I... I just...
579
00:23:37,241 --> 00:23:39,360
I lost track of time.
580
00:23:40,244 --> 00:23:42,121
[SIGHS]
581
00:23:42,122 --> 00:23:45,249
[TENSE MUSIC]
582
00:23:45,250 --> 00:23:46,751
Beck, just tell me.
583
00:23:48,420 --> 00:23:49,754
[WHISPERS] Just tell me.
584
00:23:50,549 --> 00:23:52,592
Tell me the truth,
585
00:23:52,799 --> 00:23:55,000
and we can get through anything.
586
00:23:55,844 --> 00:23:59,596
♪ ♪
587
00:23:59,597 --> 00:24:00,931
Okay, well, if you can't tell me,
588
00:24:00,932 --> 00:24:02,099
then show me, show me your phone.
589
00:24:02,100 --> 00:24:03,843
[LAUGHS]
590
00:24:05,604 --> 00:24:07,646
Are... are you serious right now?
591
00:24:07,647 --> 00:24:09,606
You said yourself, you have
a hard time with good guys.
592
00:24:09,607 --> 00:24:10,775
What are you talking about?
593
00:24:10,776 --> 00:24:11,776
The hootsie stuff.
594
00:24:11,777 --> 00:24:13,277
[LAUGHS]
595
00:24:13,278 --> 00:24:15,779
Okay, I'm... okay, fine.
596
00:24:15,780 --> 00:24:17,423
You wanna see my phone?
597
00:24:18,450 --> 00:24:20,117
Have at it.
598
00:24:20,118 --> 00:24:21,451
But if you do this, it means there is
599
00:24:21,452 --> 00:24:23,996
absolutely no trust between us,
600
00:24:23,997 --> 00:24:26,750
and if we don't have trust,
we have nothing.
601
00:24:28,335 --> 00:24:29,960
Do you trust me?
602
00:24:29,961 --> 00:24:34,339
♪ ♪
603
00:24:34,340 --> 00:24:36,008
You know what, I can't...
604
00:24:36,009 --> 00:24:37,426
I can't do this right now.
605
00:24:39,016 --> 00:24:41,394
Happy birthday to me.
606
00:24:41,515 --> 00:24:44,474
[SOMBER MUSIC]
607
00:24:44,475 --> 00:24:50,578
♪ ♪
608
00:24:50,579 --> 00:24:54,098
♪ Birthday to you... ♪
609
00:24:54,099 --> 00:24:56,002
[BELL JINGLES]
610
00:24:56,003 --> 00:24:58,989
♪ Happy bir... ♪
611
00:24:58,990 --> 00:25:06,038
♪ ♪
612
00:25:13,547 --> 00:25:16,548
[MYSTERIOUS MUSIC]
613
00:25:16,549 --> 00:25:18,843
♪ ♪
614
00:25:18,844 --> 00:25:20,378
With his therapist?
615
00:25:21,737 --> 00:25:24,848
You sure? That's a pretty
heavy accusation.
616
00:25:24,849 --> 00:25:27,226
♪ ♪
617
00:25:27,227 --> 00:25:28,761
How do you know?
618
00:25:29,563 --> 00:25:31,021
Experience.
619
00:25:31,022 --> 00:25:32,306
Candace.
620
00:25:33,150 --> 00:25:34,691
There are certain tells you can just...
621
00:25:34,692 --> 00:25:37,194
you can see it in their eyes
when they look at you.
622
00:25:37,195 --> 00:25:38,938
Been cheated on before?
623
00:25:39,740 --> 00:25:41,656
In my last relationship.
624
00:25:41,657 --> 00:25:43,867
I was blind, I only saw
what I wanted to see,
625
00:25:43,868 --> 00:25:46,037
but I didn't make that mistake again.
626
00:25:46,038 --> 00:25:47,571
This time, I made sure...
627
00:25:49,374 --> 00:25:50,950
that Renaldo was different.
628
00:25:52,877 --> 00:25:55,630
So I knew if he was lying or cheating,
629
00:25:55,631 --> 00:25:57,839
someone was using him.
630
00:25:57,840 --> 00:25:59,842
[DRAMATIC MUSICAL THUDS]
631
00:25:59,843 --> 00:26:01,719
Look, I'm not... I'm not
one of those shrinks
632
00:26:01,720 --> 00:26:03,086
that are obsessed with the past,
633
00:26:03,087 --> 00:26:05,377
but I think in this case,
we should take a look.
634
00:26:05,378 --> 00:26:07,349
Why don't you tell me
about your childhood?
635
00:26:07,350 --> 00:26:09,500
Look, I mean, but we're not here
to talk about my childhood, right?
636
00:26:09,501 --> 00:26:10,940
We're talking about my relationship.
637
00:26:10,941 --> 00:26:14,359
Which ended because... a surprise party?
638
00:26:14,360 --> 00:26:16,401
No, that's not when it ended.
639
00:26:20,655 --> 00:26:22,906
I brought you a donut.
640
00:26:22,907 --> 00:26:25,910
[GENTLE MUSIC]
641
00:26:25,911 --> 00:26:27,620
♪ ♪
642
00:26:27,621 --> 00:26:29,454
It's glazed.
643
00:26:29,455 --> 00:26:33,500
♪ ♪
644
00:26:33,501 --> 00:26:34,751
Wait, wait, hold up, hold up.
645
00:26:34,752 --> 00:26:36,628
So you're just back together
646
00:26:36,629 --> 00:26:37,963
regardless of your suspicions?
647
00:26:37,964 --> 00:26:39,382
Eh, didn't matter.
648
00:26:39,383 --> 00:26:41,083
That was the past.
649
00:26:41,759 --> 00:26:43,928
All right, so what happened next?
650
00:26:43,929 --> 00:26:45,930
Things were good at first.
651
00:26:45,931 --> 00:26:47,597
But then it started to feel
like something was different.
652
00:26:47,598 --> 00:26:50,977
I feel like I'm hungrier than sushi.
653
00:26:50,978 --> 00:26:53,770
- Okay, pizza?
- Too saucy.
654
00:26:53,771 --> 00:26:54,771
Okay, Thai?
655
00:26:54,772 --> 00:26:56,941
We had Thai for lunch.
656
00:26:56,942 --> 00:26:58,901
[PHONE DINGING]
657
00:26:58,902 --> 00:27:02,279
[TENSE MUSIC]
658
00:27:02,280 --> 00:27:05,240
[SIGHS] Why do I always have to pick?
659
00:27:05,241 --> 00:27:06,866
♪ ♪
660
00:27:06,867 --> 00:27:08,786
- It's okay.
- [PHONE DINGS]
661
00:27:08,787 --> 00:27:10,287
I'll choose.
662
00:27:10,288 --> 00:27:12,832
You're a snob, Connor.
663
00:27:12,833 --> 00:27:16,626
It's a horrible feeling
to know things have gone wrong
664
00:27:16,627 --> 00:27:18,586
and there's nothing
you can do to change it.
665
00:27:18,587 --> 00:27:20,088
George, I'm going to.
666
00:27:20,089 --> 00:27:21,632
[PHONE DINGS]
667
00:27:21,633 --> 00:27:28,640
♪ ♪
668
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:35,020
Mm, falafel.
669
00:27:35,021 --> 00:27:36,689
[PHONE DINGS]
670
00:27:36,690 --> 00:27:38,899
♪ ♪
671
00:27:38,900 --> 00:27:42,978
You know something or
someone has come between you,
672
00:27:43,696 --> 00:27:45,898
but I had to be sure.
673
00:27:46,741 --> 00:27:49,201
I'll see you after class, okay?
674
00:27:49,202 --> 00:27:50,368
Okay, bye.
675
00:27:50,369 --> 00:27:57,419
♪ ♪
676
00:28:03,358 --> 00:28:05,804
_
677
00:28:05,844 --> 00:28:09,681
Heart, heart, heart.
678
00:28:12,683 --> 00:28:15,685
[SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC]
679
00:28:15,686 --> 00:28:22,693
♪ ♪
680
00:28:29,326 --> 00:28:31,368
I wanted to be wrong.
681
00:28:31,369 --> 00:28:34,079
I never wanted to be wrong so badly
682
00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:36,082
in my life.
683
00:28:36,083 --> 00:28:38,334
I was begging to be proven wrong.
684
00:28:38,335 --> 00:28:40,169
[PHONE DINGS]
685
00:28:40,170 --> 00:28:42,798
♪ ♪
686
00:28:45,030 --> 00:28:47,030
_
687
00:28:47,176 --> 00:28:48,885
But it was looking like I was right.
688
00:28:48,886 --> 00:28:55,894
♪ ♪
689
00:28:56,936 --> 00:28:58,895
You trust someone,
690
00:28:58,896 --> 00:29:00,806
you give them your heart,
691
00:29:01,817 --> 00:29:03,566
and what do they do?
692
00:29:03,567 --> 00:29:06,444
Is there even a punishment that fits
693
00:29:06,445 --> 00:29:09,739
the crime of lying,
of manipulating like this,
694
00:29:09,740 --> 00:29:11,984
of breaking someone's heart?
695
00:29:12,868 --> 00:29:15,453
I guess I'm bad at picking good people,
696
00:29:15,454 --> 00:29:18,415
but I'm good at catching
bad people red-handed.
697
00:29:18,416 --> 00:29:25,423
♪ ♪
698
00:29:31,805 --> 00:29:33,431
Are you following me?
699
00:29:33,432 --> 00:29:35,716
♪ ♪
700
00:29:40,646 --> 00:29:43,524
Answer me right now.
Were you following me?
701
00:29:43,525 --> 00:29:46,152
No, no, no. I was in the neighborhood.
702
00:29:46,153 --> 00:29:48,278
And then I... I saw you.
703
00:29:48,279 --> 00:29:50,449
God, stop lying.
704
00:29:52,116 --> 00:29:56,077
You know, just tell me why. Why, Joe?
705
00:29:56,078 --> 00:29:57,954
It's the being late,
706
00:29:57,955 --> 00:29:59,164
the secret texts.
707
00:29:59,165 --> 00:30:00,207
You've been different, Beck.
708
00:30:00,208 --> 00:30:01,749
You're being crazy.
709
00:30:01,750 --> 00:30:03,252
Are you sleeping with him?
710
00:30:03,705 --> 00:30:04,749
Who?
711
00:30:06,298 --> 00:30:07,422
Your therapist.
712
00:30:07,423 --> 00:30:08,883
[LAUGHS] Oh, my God.
713
00:30:08,884 --> 00:30:10,800
Are you? I need to know. I want to know.
714
00:30:10,801 --> 00:30:13,804
No! I am not sleeping with him.
715
00:30:13,805 --> 00:30:14,846
Who's the fox?
716
00:30:14,847 --> 00:30:15,931
What?
717
00:30:15,932 --> 00:30:18,851
The fox. The fox, Beck!
718
00:30:18,852 --> 00:30:22,104
My friend, Emma Fox, from Brown.
719
00:30:22,105 --> 00:30:23,730
But I guess that wasn't readily apparent
720
00:30:23,731 --> 00:30:26,066
on the text from my phone, huh?
721
00:30:26,067 --> 00:30:29,027
[SOFT, DRAMATIC MUSIC]
722
00:30:29,028 --> 00:30:31,279
♪ ♪
723
00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:33,281
- Beck...
- Just don't.
724
00:30:33,282 --> 00:30:34,866
Joe, I told you.
725
00:30:34,867 --> 00:30:38,037
If we don't have trust, we have nothing.
726
00:30:38,038 --> 00:30:40,207
I know, I know, I'm sorry.
727
00:30:41,540 --> 00:30:42,541
Me too.
728
00:30:45,045 --> 00:30:48,005
You and I are over.
729
00:30:48,006 --> 00:30:55,012
♪ ♪
730
00:31:06,650 --> 00:31:08,183
And that...
731
00:31:09,236 --> 00:31:11,019
that's when it ended.
732
00:31:11,488 --> 00:31:13,198
That's one hell of a story.
733
00:31:15,491 --> 00:31:16,700
What's your diagnosis?
734
00:31:16,701 --> 00:31:18,117
My diagnosis?
735
00:31:18,118 --> 00:31:20,120
Yeah, yeah, what do you make of it all?
736
00:31:20,121 --> 00:31:22,206
Well, you might think I'm crazy
737
00:31:22,207 --> 00:31:24,616
'cause I've only known you
48 minutes, but...
738
00:31:25,710 --> 00:31:27,744
I think there's two of you...
739
00:31:28,462 --> 00:31:30,297
two Paul Browns.
740
00:31:30,298 --> 00:31:33,508
One has been hurt in the past.
741
00:31:33,509 --> 00:31:35,177
You feel betrayed and hopeless.
742
00:31:35,178 --> 00:31:37,345
But the other one has faith,
743
00:31:37,346 --> 00:31:41,049
and in spite of the evidence
to the contrary,
744
00:31:41,809 --> 00:31:43,969
he believes true love exists.
745
00:31:44,895 --> 00:31:47,021
And that is someone I think I can help.
746
00:31:47,022 --> 00:31:49,983
[SOFT, DRAMATIC MUSIC]
747
00:31:49,984 --> 00:31:51,986
♪ ♪
748
00:31:51,987 --> 00:31:53,862
Our time is up now, but I...
749
00:31:53,863 --> 00:31:56,574
I would, uh, sure be down to
seeing you again if you'd like.
750
00:31:56,575 --> 00:32:02,121
♪ ♪
751
00:32:02,122 --> 00:32:03,454
I don't think so.
752
00:32:03,455 --> 00:32:10,462
♪ ♪
753
00:32:13,549 --> 00:32:15,050
[DOOR SLAMS]
754
00:32:17,804 --> 00:32:21,431
Everything I do,
I do to protect you, Beck.
755
00:32:21,432 --> 00:32:23,349
[DOOR CLICKS]
756
00:32:23,350 --> 00:32:26,353
[FOREBODING MUSIC]
757
00:32:26,354 --> 00:32:30,607
♪ ♪
758
00:32:30,608 --> 00:32:33,235
Peach, Benji... they left me no choice.
759
00:32:33,236 --> 00:32:35,112
They were dangerous.
760
00:32:35,113 --> 00:32:42,076
♪ ♪
761
00:32:42,077 --> 00:32:44,329
I think you might be in danger again.
762
00:32:44,330 --> 00:32:51,296
♪ ♪
763
00:33:02,390 --> 00:33:03,642
[ELEVATOR DINGS]
764
00:33:06,102 --> 00:33:09,262
But I need absolute proof first.
765
00:33:10,856 --> 00:33:12,191
And these days,
766
00:33:12,192 --> 00:33:14,184
the quickest way to a man's truth
767
00:33:15,487 --> 00:33:17,854
is through his computer.
768
00:33:19,031 --> 00:33:22,034
[DOORKNOB RATTLING QUIETLY]
769
00:33:22,035 --> 00:33:26,829
♪ ♪
770
00:33:26,830 --> 00:33:28,907
And if I find what I'm looking for,
771
00:33:30,710 --> 00:33:33,211
Dr. Nicky will be handled.
772
00:33:33,212 --> 00:33:40,220
♪ ♪
773
00:33:51,772 --> 00:33:54,650
I mean, he followed me.
774
00:33:54,651 --> 00:33:57,487
That's just... it's not okay.
775
00:33:57,894 --> 00:34:00,322
I get it, you feel violated.
776
00:34:00,323 --> 00:34:01,864
Pretend I'm Joe.
777
00:34:01,865 --> 00:34:03,650
What would you say to him right now?
778
00:34:05,202 --> 00:34:08,029
The more you want me,
the less I want you.
779
00:34:08,915 --> 00:34:11,867
I know, it's messed up, but it's true.
780
00:34:14,087 --> 00:34:16,713
Of course you think I'm hiding shit.
781
00:34:16,714 --> 00:34:18,415
I am...
782
00:34:19,591 --> 00:34:24,637
hiding what a complete, ugly mess I am.
783
00:34:24,638 --> 00:34:27,141
Behind this, like, cute,
784
00:34:27,142 --> 00:34:30,184
acceptable version
of being a mess, it's insane.
785
00:34:30,185 --> 00:34:32,478
[SOFT, DRAMATIC MUSIC]
786
00:34:32,479 --> 00:34:34,273
I haven't dealt with this shit
787
00:34:34,274 --> 00:34:36,587
that went on with me and Peach,
788
00:34:36,588 --> 00:34:39,769
or my dad, or Benji.
789
00:34:40,654 --> 00:34:42,572
And instead of putting it
into my writing,
790
00:34:42,573 --> 00:34:44,949
I'm hibernating with you.
791
00:34:44,950 --> 00:34:50,164
♪ ♪
792
00:34:50,165 --> 00:34:52,123
And I resent you for it.
793
00:34:52,124 --> 00:34:54,543
♪ ♪
794
00:34:54,544 --> 00:34:57,713
I need space to heal,
795
00:34:57,714 --> 00:35:00,923
but every time I turn around,
you're standing there,
796
00:35:00,924 --> 00:35:03,552
ready to make it all okay.
797
00:35:03,553 --> 00:35:05,929
But only I can do that.
798
00:35:05,930 --> 00:35:09,349
♪ ♪
799
00:35:09,350 --> 00:35:11,559
And if you really love me,
800
00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:13,011
you'll see that.
801
00:35:14,314 --> 00:35:15,938
♪ ♪
802
00:35:15,939 --> 00:35:17,453
You'll let me go.
803
00:35:17,454 --> 00:35:22,906
♪ ♪
804
00:35:25,825 --> 00:35:27,409
Are you afraid you might be pushing away
805
00:35:27,410 --> 00:35:29,110
a good thing, Beck?
806
00:35:29,111 --> 00:35:31,530
Do you think Joe might be good for you?
807
00:35:32,499 --> 00:35:33,823
Maybe.
808
00:35:34,417 --> 00:35:35,992
But it's what I need.
809
00:35:37,169 --> 00:35:41,048
♪ ♪
810
00:35:41,049 --> 00:35:43,800
That doesn't sound
like an illicit affair.
811
00:35:43,801 --> 00:35:45,885
That sounds like
812
00:35:45,886 --> 00:35:48,722
a messed-up girl in a crisis
813
00:35:48,723 --> 00:35:51,603
and a pretty decent therapist
she's lucky to have.
814
00:35:51,604 --> 00:35:55,853
♪ ♪
815
00:35:55,854 --> 00:35:58,523
It also sounds like
816
00:35:58,524 --> 00:36:01,902
you were right to end it with me.
817
00:36:01,903 --> 00:36:06,949
♪ ♪
818
00:36:06,950 --> 00:36:11,528
I was wrong about all of it.
819
00:36:12,037 --> 00:36:14,664
The only thing I wasn't wrong about
820
00:36:14,665 --> 00:36:16,408
was loving you.
821
00:36:17,752 --> 00:36:20,545
So, I'm letting you go.
822
00:36:20,546 --> 00:36:23,215
[GLASS SHATTERING]
823
00:36:23,216 --> 00:36:26,176
♪ ♪
824
00:36:32,517 --> 00:36:34,560
[KNOCKING]
825
00:36:38,522 --> 00:36:39,523
Hey.
826
00:36:39,524 --> 00:36:40,807
Hi.
827
00:36:41,526 --> 00:36:43,402
Thanks for opening the door,
828
00:36:43,403 --> 00:36:45,186
all things considered.
829
00:36:45,863 --> 00:36:49,240
Uh, look, there are a million things
830
00:36:49,241 --> 00:36:51,326
I could say right now,
831
00:36:51,327 --> 00:36:54,747
but all that matters is, I'm sorry.
832
00:36:55,915 --> 00:36:57,407
Thank you.
833
00:36:58,250 --> 00:37:00,211
Jealousy got the best of me.
834
00:37:02,589 --> 00:37:05,340
And I, uh, I was... I was threatened
835
00:37:05,341 --> 00:37:08,802
that you needed someone
to talk to who wasn't me.
836
00:37:08,803 --> 00:37:10,720
And I know you deserve that.
837
00:37:10,721 --> 00:37:12,598
You deserve to figure your stuff out.
838
00:37:14,225 --> 00:37:15,766
And if I was a smarter man,
839
00:37:15,767 --> 00:37:20,013
maybe I wouldn't let you go, but, um,
840
00:37:20,397 --> 00:37:22,432
I'm guessing that's what you need,
841
00:37:23,066 --> 00:37:24,601
so I will.
842
00:37:25,861 --> 00:37:27,071
[BOX CLATTERS]
843
00:37:30,575 --> 00:37:33,577
[SOMBER MUSIC]
844
00:37:33,578 --> 00:37:34,994
♪ ♪
845
00:37:34,995 --> 00:37:37,748
Goodbye, Beck.
846
00:37:37,749 --> 00:37:44,253
♪ ♪
847
00:37:44,254 --> 00:37:45,755
[SIGHS]
848
00:37:45,756 --> 00:37:47,507
[WHISPERS] Goodbye, Joe.
849
00:37:47,508 --> 00:37:50,427
♪ ♪
850
00:37:50,428 --> 00:37:53,472
Turns out, it is like the movies.
851
00:37:53,473 --> 00:37:57,099
The second it's over,
all you can remember
852
00:37:57,100 --> 00:37:59,769
is the stuff that made you fall in love,
853
00:37:59,770 --> 00:38:01,646
blazing through your mind,
854
00:38:01,647 --> 00:38:05,316
this rom-com montage
made of the sweetest poison.
855
00:38:05,317 --> 00:38:08,487
Everythingship.
856
00:38:08,488 --> 00:38:10,072
I love that.
857
00:38:10,073 --> 00:38:11,782
I'd never felt this way before,
858
00:38:11,783 --> 00:38:14,943
where you love the
bad things about someone
859
00:38:16,486 --> 00:38:18,789
as much as the good.
860
00:38:18,790 --> 00:38:20,373
[TRAIN WHOOSHING]
861
00:38:20,374 --> 00:38:22,626
Maybe even a little more.
862
00:38:22,627 --> 00:38:24,628
♪ ♪
863
00:38:24,629 --> 00:38:27,589
Love isn't a strong enough word.
864
00:38:29,549 --> 00:38:32,469
Sometimes, it scares me
865
00:38:32,470 --> 00:38:34,470
to love someone so completely
866
00:38:34,471 --> 00:38:36,472
and not have them love you back.
867
00:38:36,473 --> 00:38:40,059
♪ ♪
868
00:38:40,060 --> 00:38:41,978
I'm happy to see you here.
869
00:38:41,979 --> 00:38:44,514
I didn't think you'd come back
after our last session.
870
00:38:45,024 --> 00:38:47,191
Well, that's the thing, I...
871
00:38:47,192 --> 00:38:50,487
[STAMMERS] I don't understand it.
872
00:38:50,488 --> 00:38:51,822
That's why I'm here.
873
00:38:51,823 --> 00:38:53,322
- What don't you understand?
- Love.
874
00:38:53,323 --> 00:38:54,907
[CHUCKLES]
875
00:38:54,908 --> 00:38:57,527
You and 7 billion
other people on this planet.
876
00:38:58,287 --> 00:39:00,831
If we understood love,
I'd be out of a job.
877
00:39:00,832 --> 00:39:03,458
I have to say it's sort of
unique to everybody,
878
00:39:03,459 --> 00:39:07,045
like a fingerprint, or a strand of DNA,
879
00:39:07,046 --> 00:39:09,631
or the song you lost your virginity to.
880
00:39:11,633 --> 00:39:13,877
"Hungry Like the Wolf."
881
00:39:14,511 --> 00:39:16,345
[MELLOW MUSIC]
882
00:39:16,346 --> 00:39:17,847
[GLASS CLINKS]
883
00:39:17,848 --> 00:39:19,516
♪ ♪
884
00:39:19,517 --> 00:39:22,184
Some people have a hard time
letting love in.
885
00:39:22,185 --> 00:39:24,681
♪ ♪
886
00:39:24,682 --> 00:39:27,098
Some people are built for love.
887
00:39:28,609 --> 00:39:32,278
And some people are searching,
888
00:39:32,279 --> 00:39:34,197
searching for someone who can love them
889
00:39:34,198 --> 00:39:35,815
in the way that they deserve.
890
00:39:36,616 --> 00:39:38,577
That's you.
891
00:39:38,578 --> 00:39:40,369
You look like shit.
892
00:39:40,370 --> 00:39:41,613
Thanks.
893
00:39:41,997 --> 00:39:43,656
What happened?
894
00:39:44,082 --> 00:39:47,168
My girlfriend dumped me, all right?
895
00:39:47,169 --> 00:39:49,379
So if you don't mind...
896
00:39:51,424 --> 00:39:54,383
[MYSTERIOUS PERCUSSIVE MUSIC]
897
00:39:54,384 --> 00:40:01,433
♪ ♪
898
00:40:04,729 --> 00:40:07,731
[BOTH MOANING]
899
00:40:07,732 --> 00:40:14,738
♪ ♪
900
00:40:20,912 --> 00:40:22,529
Mm.
901
00:40:23,330 --> 00:40:25,374
I love you, Joe.
902
00:40:27,752 --> 00:40:29,795
[LAUGHS] Your face!
903
00:40:29,796 --> 00:40:31,253
Oh, my God, I was just messing with you.
904
00:40:31,254 --> 00:40:33,255
- Oh...
- [WEAK LAUGH]
905
00:40:33,256 --> 00:40:35,257
[SHEETS RUFFLING]
906
00:40:35,258 --> 00:40:36,886
[SIGHS]
907
00:40:47,814 --> 00:40:50,816
[WATER RUNNING]
908
00:41:01,327 --> 00:41:03,244
Are you gonna leave Beck alone?
909
00:41:03,245 --> 00:41:04,411
[OMINOUS MUSIC]
910
00:41:04,412 --> 00:41:06,289
Or will she end up like me?
911
00:41:06,290 --> 00:41:08,208
♪ ♪
912
00:41:08,209 --> 00:41:11,211
[UNEASY MUSIC]
913
00:41:11,212 --> 00:41:18,218
♪ ♪