1 00:00:01,044 --> 00:00:02,354 Previously on Doc... 2 00:00:02,437 --> 00:00:04,704 I had a car accident. Lost a lot of my memory. 3 00:00:04,787 --> 00:00:06,271 I want my daughter's heart back! 4 00:00:06,354 --> 00:00:08,795 -I'd better give them a call. -Best ask for Michael Hamda. 5 00:00:08,878 --> 00:00:11,145 -UNOS agreed to send the heart. -Does the board know what you just did? 6 00:00:11,228 --> 00:00:12,842 You put our accreditation at risk. 7 00:00:12,925 --> 00:00:15,106 It doesn't matter how drawn I am to you. This can't happen again. 8 00:00:15,189 --> 00:00:16,672 I'm not looking for anything serious. 9 00:00:16,755 --> 00:00:18,761 The only thing you care about is Danny. 10 00:00:18,844 --> 00:00:20,633 He's gone and that's still all that matters. 11 00:00:20,716 --> 00:00:22,417 I keep flashing on that damn snow globe. 12 00:00:22,500 --> 00:00:24,024 Memory seizures? I've read about that. 13 00:00:25,938 --> 00:00:28,075 Your father filed an HR complaint against Dr. Larsen 14 00:00:28,158 --> 00:00:30,030 and a week later, he was gone. 15 00:00:47,873 --> 00:00:49,923 Talking won't change anything. 16 00:00:50,006 --> 00:00:51,620 Perhaps not, but... 17 00:00:51,703 --> 00:00:53,666 your silence won't either, will it? 18 00:00:53,749 --> 00:00:56,756 You have cancer. You could die. 19 00:00:56,839 --> 00:00:57,975 What do you want from me? 20 00:00:58,058 --> 00:00:59,578 I'm just trying to get through the day. 21 00:01:00,625 --> 00:01:03,367 Ah. Stoicism. 22 00:01:04,716 --> 00:01:06,414 A highly overrated virtue. 23 00:01:07,719 --> 00:01:08,894 Vulnerability. 24 00:01:10,113 --> 00:01:12,902 Now that's a lovely kind of courage. 25 00:01:12,985 --> 00:01:14,556 Besides, you can't expect your wife 26 00:01:14,639 --> 00:01:16,815 to carry all the pain for the both of you. 27 00:01:18,904 --> 00:01:20,689 I see the strength in you. 28 00:01:22,821 --> 00:01:24,562 But there's also something else. 29 00:01:28,914 --> 00:01:30,616 I'm scared. 30 00:01:30,699 --> 00:01:33,662 Surgery's scary. Cancer more so. 31 00:01:33,745 --> 00:01:35,534 I don't know how to do this. 32 00:01:35,617 --> 00:01:37,619 You don't have to do it alone. 33 00:01:39,838 --> 00:01:41,101 Hey. I'm here. 34 00:02:25,057 --> 00:02:26,320 -Hey. -You back there again? 35 00:02:27,451 --> 00:02:28,543 Yeah? 36 00:02:28,626 --> 00:02:29,675 Anything new on your mystery man? 37 00:02:29,758 --> 00:02:32,504 No. It's the right place, but, yeah. 38 00:02:32,587 --> 00:02:34,332 Nothing new on the man in the crowd. 39 00:02:34,415 --> 00:02:35,942 Well, it may not even be about him. 40 00:02:36,025 --> 00:02:37,422 What do you mean? 41 00:02:37,505 --> 00:02:38,814 Katie called this morning. 42 00:02:38,897 --> 00:02:40,642 She knows you've been going there every day. 43 00:02:40,725 --> 00:02:42,731 She also knows why that snow globe is so triggering. 44 00:02:42,814 --> 00:02:46,039 Okay, uh, do you wanna tell me why? 45 00:02:46,122 --> 00:02:48,389 She doesn't wanna talk about it. 46 00:02:48,472 --> 00:02:49,999 But she's worried 47 00:02:50,082 --> 00:02:51,914 and doesn't want you to keep going there, chasing your tail. 48 00:02:51,997 --> 00:02:54,874 Okay, why would she lie to me about it? 49 00:02:54,957 --> 00:02:57,964 And why is she communicating through you? 50 00:02:58,047 --> 00:03:00,619 You've been pretty distracted since all this came up. 51 00:03:00,702 --> 00:03:02,534 I think she's afraid you're slipping into old patterns. 52 00:03:02,617 --> 00:03:04,101 Well, I'm not. 53 00:03:04,184 --> 00:03:07,056 And I will deal with her directly. 54 00:03:11,278 --> 00:03:13,110 Well, I guess I better... 55 00:03:13,193 --> 00:03:14,763 get home. 56 00:03:14,846 --> 00:03:16,939 Another night like this and I'll be the one sleepwalking. 57 00:03:17,022 --> 00:03:19,464 Well, we can help you with that. 58 00:03:19,547 --> 00:03:22,206 Actually, there's a band I'd like to check out tonight. 59 00:03:22,289 --> 00:03:24,469 I can change my flight again. 60 00:03:24,552 --> 00:03:25,944 Zero pressure, doc. 61 00:03:27,381 --> 00:03:29,644 Yeah, yeah. Sure. Why not? Sounds like fun. 62 00:03:40,394 --> 00:03:42,313 Hi, Hannah. How are you? 63 00:03:42,396 --> 00:03:43,484 Fine, thanks. 64 00:03:47,357 --> 00:03:48,576 Everything okay? 65 00:03:54,669 --> 00:03:55,935 Daughter drama. 66 00:03:56,018 --> 00:03:57,589 She's a teenager. 67 00:03:57,672 --> 00:03:59,500 It's a bit more than that. 68 00:04:04,853 --> 00:04:05,945 Okay, interns. 69 00:04:06,028 --> 00:04:07,729 Dr. Heller is on a later call today, 70 00:04:07,812 --> 00:04:10,819 and Dr. Ridley's out at a medical conference, 71 00:04:10,902 --> 00:04:12,952 so I've been assigned to wrangle you. 72 00:04:13,035 --> 00:04:14,954 I want to review all of your patient exams. 73 00:04:15,037 --> 00:04:19,128 Flag every abnormal lab. And impeccable charting today. 74 00:04:23,437 --> 00:04:25,182 Looking great today. 75 00:04:25,265 --> 00:04:26,792 All right, all right. 76 00:04:26,875 --> 00:04:28,881 All right, all right, all right, I appreciate it. 77 00:04:28,964 --> 00:04:30,448 I should get shot more often. 78 00:04:30,531 --> 00:04:33,190 I thought you weren't back till next week. Hi. 79 00:04:33,273 --> 00:04:35,279 No way I'm sitting on the sidelines 80 00:04:35,362 --> 00:04:37,451 while Dr. Ridley plays Hunger Games with my career. 81 00:04:38,495 --> 00:04:40,197 -Man of the hour. -Please don't. 82 00:04:40,280 --> 00:04:41,502 Let's get to it. 83 00:04:41,585 --> 00:04:44,636 We have a Code Orange arriving momentarily. 84 00:04:44,719 --> 00:04:46,203 The inmate has a possible poisoning. 85 00:04:46,286 --> 00:04:48,683 He's a convicted felon with a violent history. 86 00:04:48,766 --> 00:04:51,860 Armed robbery, aggravated assault, gang affiliations. 87 00:04:51,943 --> 00:04:54,733 He'll be treated and guarded in the lockdown room. 88 00:04:54,816 --> 00:04:56,691 No one enters without clearing security protocols 89 00:04:56,774 --> 00:04:58,302 with his corrections officers. 90 00:04:58,385 --> 00:05:00,913 I'll take him. 91 00:05:00,996 --> 00:05:03,316 My folks are both cops. I know how to deal with these guys. 92 00:05:06,480 --> 00:05:08,355 Take it easy, now. 93 00:05:08,438 --> 00:05:10,444 Don't just stand there! Come on! Help me! 94 00:05:10,527 --> 00:05:12,529 Lockdown room for you then. 95 00:05:14,444 --> 00:05:15,841 Are you short of breath? 96 00:05:15,924 --> 00:05:17,582 At my age, I'm short on a lotta things. 97 00:05:17,665 --> 00:05:19,623 My boxing days are long gone. 98 00:05:25,803 --> 00:05:26,848 Take a breath. 99 00:05:29,372 --> 00:05:31,248 You're not moving much air. 100 00:05:31,331 --> 00:05:32,945 How long have you had this rash? 101 00:05:33,028 --> 00:05:34,029 A few months. 102 00:05:35,596 --> 00:05:38,163 Pressure's up. Got any pain in your chest? 103 00:05:39,164 --> 00:05:40,387 Here and there. 104 00:05:40,470 --> 00:05:43,647 If I'm being honest, I'd say more here lately. 105 00:05:45,170 --> 00:05:49,091 I am afraid you have advanced vasculitis. 106 00:05:49,174 --> 00:05:52,094 I was hoping the tears of blood were a sign from God. 107 00:05:52,177 --> 00:05:55,924 It's your immune system attacking your blood vessels. 108 00:05:56,007 --> 00:05:58,057 I'll start steroids to calm it, 109 00:05:58,140 --> 00:05:59,972 but I want to be honest with you. 110 00:06:00,055 --> 00:06:02,449 Every organ in your body is under fire. 111 00:06:03,841 --> 00:06:06,587 It's hard to cure and... 112 00:06:06,670 --> 00:06:09,460 the treatment will feel worse than the disease. 113 00:06:09,543 --> 00:06:11,719 If this is God's path for me, I guess... 114 00:06:13,329 --> 00:06:14,813 I'll have to see where it leads. 115 00:06:14,896 --> 00:06:16,332 Well, I'll be leading you today. 116 00:06:18,595 --> 00:06:20,079 He's fully restrained, 117 00:06:20,162 --> 00:06:22,429 so if you need to unshackle him for any part of your exam, 118 00:06:22,512 --> 00:06:23,691 I'll come in. 119 00:06:23,774 --> 00:06:26,128 I'm also watching from out here. 120 00:06:26,211 --> 00:06:28,431 Any concerns at all, just give me a signal. 121 00:06:29,214 --> 00:06:30,219 Is he dangerous? 122 00:06:30,302 --> 00:06:31,482 He likes to fight in the yard, 123 00:06:31,565 --> 00:06:33,266 but never attacked any CO or civilian. 124 00:06:33,349 --> 00:06:34,528 He was poisoned, though, 125 00:06:34,611 --> 00:06:36,439 so someone's unhappy about something he did. 126 00:06:37,919 --> 00:06:39,007 You're good to go. 127 00:06:44,142 --> 00:06:45,931 Hi, Malcolm. I'm Dr. Coleman. 128 00:06:46,014 --> 00:06:47,885 Did the oral Lidocaine help with your pain? 129 00:06:54,370 --> 00:06:56,028 Yeah. Pain's gone. 130 00:06:56,111 --> 00:06:57,508 It's been like that for how long? 131 00:06:57,591 --> 00:06:58,813 Two hours. 132 00:06:58,896 --> 00:07:00,724 And it ain't the only end it's coming out of. 133 00:07:01,508 --> 00:07:03,035 Mind if I examine you? 134 00:07:03,118 --> 00:07:05,250 Go ahead, man. I don't bite. 135 00:07:07,339 --> 00:07:08,428 Open up. 136 00:07:12,954 --> 00:07:15,526 Hmm. Any idea what they gave you? 137 00:07:15,609 --> 00:07:18,877 Nah. Somebody must've spiked my breakfast. 138 00:07:18,960 --> 00:07:20,966 You looked away from your tray? 139 00:07:21,049 --> 00:07:23,664 Hey, man, they got all kinds of tricks on the inside. 140 00:07:23,747 --> 00:07:26,450 Last year, a guy got killed with crushed asthma inhaler powder. 141 00:07:26,533 --> 00:07:28,012 Two weeks into his stretch. 142 00:07:31,755 --> 00:07:33,282 I need to know what's going on inside your stomach. 143 00:07:33,365 --> 00:07:36,198 Means a camera down your throat to take a look. 144 00:07:36,281 --> 00:07:39,027 But first, I need to check your back end. 145 00:07:39,110 --> 00:07:41,112 You can't just take my word for it? -Afraid not. 146 00:07:43,767 --> 00:07:46,513 So? How's it going so far? 147 00:07:46,596 --> 00:07:48,820 Uh, waiting for the other shoe to drop. 148 00:07:48,903 --> 00:07:52,606 Well, Dr. Ridley's email said to give you a wide berth today, 149 00:07:52,689 --> 00:07:55,217 so I think that's her way of saying you're a serious contender. 150 00:07:55,300 --> 00:07:56,958 Oh. What do you think? 151 00:07:57,041 --> 00:07:58,699 Uh, doesn't matter what I think. 152 00:07:58,782 --> 00:08:00,962 What matters is why you want the responsibility. 153 00:08:01,045 --> 00:08:02,743 Well, I... 154 00:08:07,269 --> 00:08:09,053 I have interns to corral. 155 00:08:13,014 --> 00:08:16,761 Can you give Chaplain O'Leary a gram of methylprednisolone? 156 00:08:16,844 --> 00:08:18,284 He's in for a hard fight. 157 00:08:18,367 --> 00:08:20,155 I would not have gotten through my divorce without him. 158 00:08:20,238 --> 00:08:22,201 Talked me out of first-degree murder. Twice. 159 00:08:22,284 --> 00:08:24,852 He was one of the first people to visit me after my accident. 160 00:08:27,768 --> 00:08:28,769 Morning. 161 00:08:31,119 --> 00:08:33,386 Heard you admitted Eamon. That's a shame. 162 00:08:33,469 --> 00:08:34,688 It is. 163 00:08:36,907 --> 00:08:40,219 -Something wrong? -Obviously, you can do what you want, 164 00:08:40,302 --> 00:08:42,308 but the sister of a patient? 165 00:08:42,391 --> 00:08:45,224 It's pretty public. Pretty fast. 166 00:08:45,307 --> 00:08:47,444 -Amy, listen... -Don't bother. 167 00:08:47,527 --> 00:08:48,528 I'm a grown-up. 168 00:09:02,280 --> 00:09:04,939 I can't access an organ and I can't list my patient. 169 00:09:05,022 --> 00:09:06,506 It's not just you. It's the entire hospital. 170 00:09:06,589 --> 00:09:09,030 UNOS has suspended our transplant program. 171 00:09:09,113 --> 00:09:10,597 Okay, well, that can't be a coincidence. 172 00:09:10,680 --> 00:09:12,421 We lied to them during the hostage crisis. 173 00:09:16,947 --> 00:09:18,910 I heard this morning, Michael. 174 00:09:18,993 --> 00:09:22,957 We have a formal review with the organ oversight committee today at 6:00. 175 00:09:23,040 --> 00:09:25,307 I thought we were in the clear. -Apparently not. 176 00:09:25,390 --> 00:09:27,222 You have any transplants scheduled? 177 00:09:27,305 --> 00:09:28,789 Dr. Heller has one to list, 178 00:09:28,872 --> 00:09:30,443 and so far, 179 00:09:30,526 --> 00:09:32,184 three other potential candidates 180 00:09:32,267 --> 00:09:33,751 looking to be ready by the end of the week. 181 00:09:33,834 --> 00:09:35,796 Well, I set a board meeting for this afternoon. 182 00:09:35,879 --> 00:09:38,320 We can formalize our response before the review. 183 00:09:38,403 --> 00:09:40,754 Be prepared with a narrative. 184 00:09:42,320 --> 00:09:44,370 -What do we do now? -You don't do anything. 185 00:09:44,453 --> 00:09:46,851 You'll be called as a witness since you handled the organ. 186 00:09:46,934 --> 00:09:48,330 You say you were following my orders. 187 00:09:48,413 --> 00:09:49,897 They're gonna make you the fall guy for this. 188 00:09:49,980 --> 00:09:51,503 I guess we'll see. 189 00:10:04,125 --> 00:10:05,517 You spoke beautifully. 190 00:10:08,477 --> 00:10:10,261 I don't even know what I said. 191 00:10:11,698 --> 00:10:14,265 That he was a happy child and deeply loved. 192 00:10:16,964 --> 00:10:19,013 Look, 193 00:10:19,096 --> 00:10:21,538 I know you've never been to our chapel, 194 00:10:21,621 --> 00:10:25,193 but when you get back to work, if you need a quiet place, 195 00:10:25,276 --> 00:10:27,326 somewhere to think, 196 00:10:27,409 --> 00:10:29,981 find hope, reach out, 197 00:10:30,064 --> 00:10:31,065 it's there. 198 00:10:32,240 --> 00:10:33,241 So am I. 199 00:10:35,243 --> 00:10:36,596 Thank you. 200 00:10:36,679 --> 00:10:38,507 It means a lot to us that everyone was here. 201 00:10:51,433 --> 00:10:53,134 Are you stalking me? 202 00:10:53,217 --> 00:10:55,049 No, but we need to talk. 203 00:10:55,132 --> 00:10:57,051 Not about this. Not today. 204 00:10:57,134 --> 00:10:59,576 I don't even know what this is! 205 00:10:59,659 --> 00:11:00,881 Sorry, I gotta get to class. 206 00:11:00,964 --> 00:11:03,362 Katie. No. This is obviously upsetting you, 207 00:11:03,445 --> 00:11:05,445 and pushing it down is only going to make it worse. 208 00:11:06,709 --> 00:11:08,367 You'll come to the hospital after school 209 00:11:08,450 --> 00:11:10,630 and we will work it through. 210 00:11:10,713 --> 00:11:11,801 Fine. 211 00:11:16,153 --> 00:11:17,942 What up, sis? 212 00:11:18,025 --> 00:11:20,335 Charlie, be serious! I work here! 213 00:11:20,418 --> 00:11:21,772 You're the one blowin' up my phone 214 00:11:21,855 --> 00:11:23,556 after I haven't heard from you in months. 215 00:11:23,639 --> 00:11:26,239 It took you four days to get back to me, and now you show up here? 216 00:11:26,729 --> 00:11:28,213 It's about Dad. 217 00:11:28,296 --> 00:11:30,824 He didn't resign. He was fired. 218 00:11:30,907 --> 00:11:32,521 I'm sorry. Come again? 219 00:11:32,604 --> 00:11:34,872 This doctor I work with used to be his chief. 220 00:11:34,955 --> 00:11:36,961 She was a nightmare to work for. 221 00:11:37,044 --> 00:11:38,658 Dad even complained about her to HR. 222 00:11:38,741 --> 00:11:41,879 Remember how squirrelly he was when he stepped down? 223 00:11:41,962 --> 00:11:45,230 It was because he didn't want to admit he was forced out. 224 00:11:45,313 --> 00:11:46,535 For standing up to her. 225 00:11:46,618 --> 00:11:49,277 We need to find out exactly what happened. 226 00:11:49,360 --> 00:11:51,540 Do you think you could get into Dad's old emails? 227 00:11:51,623 --> 00:11:53,064 Oh, I tried after he died. 228 00:11:53,147 --> 00:11:55,022 His personal one didn't have jack about this. 229 00:11:55,105 --> 00:11:56,894 I couldn't get into his hospital one either 230 00:11:56,977 --> 00:11:58,983 'cause they shut that down too. 231 00:11:59,066 --> 00:12:01,072 What about that friend of yours? Z? 232 00:12:01,155 --> 00:12:05,246 Hospitals got, like, firewalls on top of firewalls. 233 00:12:06,551 --> 00:12:08,336 You need to get into her computer. 234 00:12:09,424 --> 00:12:11,430 How would I do that? 235 00:12:11,513 --> 00:12:13,562 Any side effects from the meds? 236 00:12:13,645 --> 00:12:16,000 Seems I've been getting my money's worth. 237 00:12:16,083 --> 00:12:18,393 The Lord only gives us what we can handle. 238 00:12:18,476 --> 00:12:19,564 Right. 239 00:12:20,870 --> 00:12:22,615 I'm sorry. That was insensitive. 240 00:12:22,698 --> 00:12:24,791 Old habit from an old preacher. 241 00:12:24,874 --> 00:12:28,055 Spouting aphorisms to my imaginary flock. 242 00:12:28,138 --> 00:12:30,797 You've done a lot more than that. 243 00:12:30,880 --> 00:12:33,539 You've helped a lot of people over a lot of years. 244 00:12:33,622 --> 00:12:35,755 Wish I could've helped you during your dark days. 245 00:12:36,712 --> 00:12:37,804 I'm sure you tried. 246 00:12:37,887 --> 00:12:39,240 Indeed, I did. 247 00:12:39,323 --> 00:12:42,635 By all accounts, I was impenetrable. 248 00:12:42,718 --> 00:12:44,589 Must be like purgatory for you now. 249 00:12:46,026 --> 00:12:47,984 Missing that part of your life's journey. 250 00:12:48,724 --> 00:12:49,725 You could say that. 251 00:12:53,947 --> 00:12:55,600 Your oxygen level is dropping. 252 00:12:59,474 --> 00:13:01,045 You're bleeding into your lungs. 253 00:13:01,128 --> 00:13:02,394 That doesn't sound good. 254 00:13:02,477 --> 00:13:04,352 I was hoping the steroids would be enough, 255 00:13:04,435 --> 00:13:07,181 but I'm gonna start you on an immunosuppressant. 256 00:13:07,264 --> 00:13:09,357 And it is gonna be more dangerous for your body. 257 00:13:09,440 --> 00:13:12,665 I have faith in you, as always. 258 00:13:12,748 --> 00:13:14,885 Malcolm's tox screens came back negative, 259 00:13:14,968 --> 00:13:17,017 and biopsy shows liquefactive necrosis 260 00:13:17,100 --> 00:13:19,063 from hydrochloric acid exposure. 261 00:13:19,146 --> 00:13:21,805 Dr. Franco said it's probably toilet bowl cleaner. 262 00:13:21,888 --> 00:13:23,241 So someone did try to kill him. 263 00:13:23,324 --> 00:13:24,895 She said the taste is too strong. 264 00:13:24,978 --> 00:13:27,288 No way to slip it into somebody's drink without them noticing. 265 00:13:27,371 --> 00:13:29,595 -So he did this to himself? -Looks like. 266 00:13:29,678 --> 00:13:31,379 -We have to tell the CO. -Well, hold on. 267 00:13:31,462 --> 00:13:32,685 We haven't even talked to the man. 268 00:13:32,768 --> 00:13:34,469 He lied to us. 269 00:13:34,552 --> 00:13:36,776 I know, but even prisoners have a limited right to confidentiality, 270 00:13:36,859 --> 00:13:38,517 especially around mental health. 271 00:13:38,600 --> 00:13:40,171 Unless they pose a clear and present danger. 272 00:13:40,254 --> 00:13:41,302 We don't know that yet. 273 00:13:41,385 --> 00:13:42,826 He could be trying to escape, TJ... 274 00:13:42,909 --> 00:13:45,045 He's not Houdini. He's chained to the bed. 275 00:13:45,128 --> 00:13:46,830 I'm glad you're so confident. 276 00:13:46,913 --> 00:13:48,919 Any other patient, we'd call for a psych consult. 277 00:13:49,002 --> 00:13:50,268 Fine, let's call Dr. Walker. 278 00:13:50,351 --> 00:13:52,313 Well, I am not putting her in a room with him 279 00:13:52,396 --> 00:13:53,745 until I talk to him myself. 280 00:13:56,748 --> 00:13:57,793 I'm coming with you. 281 00:13:59,490 --> 00:14:02,367 Malcolm, this is my supervising resident, Dr. Maitra. 282 00:14:02,450 --> 00:14:04,108 Nice to meet you. 283 00:14:04,191 --> 00:14:06,632 You want to tell us why you drank toilet bowl cleaner? 284 00:14:06,715 --> 00:14:09,026 Like you give a damn. 285 00:14:09,109 --> 00:14:11,550 If you're afraid of what you might do to yourself, 286 00:14:11,633 --> 00:14:14,335 or if you're doing this to get away from someone on the inside, 287 00:14:14,418 --> 00:14:16,990 we can talk to the warden about protective custody, therapy. 288 00:14:17,073 --> 00:14:18,339 Therapy? 289 00:14:18,422 --> 00:14:19,993 I live in crazy 24-7. 290 00:14:20,076 --> 00:14:21,778 Malcolm, we've done what we can medically. 291 00:14:21,861 --> 00:14:23,867 You are ready to go back unless there's some reason to keep you. 292 00:14:23,950 --> 00:14:25,694 Oh, y'all just can't wait to get rid of me, huh? 293 00:14:25,777 --> 00:14:26,913 This is a waste of time. 294 00:14:26,996 --> 00:14:28,519 Have a nice trip back to Stillwater. 295 00:14:32,306 --> 00:14:33,568 Wait, wait. 296 00:14:39,835 --> 00:14:41,184 I was trying to get here. 297 00:14:41,837 --> 00:14:42,838 To Westside. 298 00:14:43,926 --> 00:14:44,926 Why? 299 00:14:47,234 --> 00:14:49,414 My mom. She's got cancer, 300 00:14:49,497 --> 00:14:52,460 but she's down in Oncology and it don't look too good. 301 00:14:52,543 --> 00:14:55,285 So, what, you think we're gonna organize a meeting for you? 302 00:14:57,505 --> 00:14:59,859 My mom's got a lotta reasons to be mad at me. 303 00:14:59,942 --> 00:15:02,601 I only know she's here from my cousin. 304 00:15:02,684 --> 00:15:05,517 I just want a chance to make things right before she dies. 305 00:15:05,600 --> 00:15:07,911 If you're lying to us, I'll report all of this to your warden. 306 00:15:07,994 --> 00:15:08,994 I'm not lying. 307 00:15:26,664 --> 00:15:27,844 You were right. 308 00:15:27,927 --> 00:15:29,580 It is quiet here. 309 00:15:32,757 --> 00:15:34,759 It's pretty quiet up there, too. 310 00:15:36,457 --> 00:15:38,289 The Lord is a good listener. 311 00:15:38,372 --> 00:15:40,417 Not much of a conversationalist. 312 00:15:41,375 --> 00:15:43,507 Neither am I, apparently. 313 00:15:48,904 --> 00:15:51,515 My daughter. I-I know she... 314 00:15:53,039 --> 00:15:56,738 she wants more from me, and I just... 315 00:15:58,914 --> 00:16:00,394 I don't know what to say. 316 00:16:02,004 --> 00:16:03,618 I didn't see her at the funeral. 317 00:16:03,701 --> 00:16:05,616 She didn't go. 318 00:16:08,445 --> 00:16:10,103 My husband wasn't happy about it, 319 00:16:10,186 --> 00:16:12,801 but I wasn't... I wasn't gonna force her. 320 00:16:12,884 --> 00:16:14,978 I didn't even want to go. 321 00:16:15,061 --> 00:16:16,061 It's just... 322 00:16:19,282 --> 00:16:20,849 To see my son like that. 323 00:16:26,202 --> 00:16:28,121 You can visit his grave with her. 324 00:16:28,204 --> 00:16:31,646 Tomorrow, next week, a year from now. 325 00:16:31,729 --> 00:16:34,519 Whenever you're ready. 326 00:16:34,602 --> 00:16:38,084 I don't think I'll ever be ready to go back there. 327 00:16:44,046 --> 00:16:46,531 Oh, did you get out of school early? 328 00:16:46,614 --> 00:16:48,576 No, I have a free period after lunch. 329 00:16:48,659 --> 00:16:50,013 I just wanna get this over with. 330 00:16:50,096 --> 00:16:52,359 Well, that's not how I wanted to do this. 331 00:16:53,403 --> 00:16:54,839 But, here, let's sit. 332 00:16:56,624 --> 00:16:57,755 Okay. 333 00:17:00,236 --> 00:17:01,759 Here goes. Um... 334 00:17:02,934 --> 00:17:06,290 I lost my brother and I needed you. 335 00:17:06,373 --> 00:17:08,988 But you were so caught up, you couldn't be there for me. 336 00:17:09,071 --> 00:17:10,772 And then you moved out. 337 00:17:10,855 --> 00:17:12,205 I wanted my family back. 338 00:17:13,119 --> 00:17:15,821 I wanted my brother back. 339 00:17:15,904 --> 00:17:20,130 And then you gave me a snow globe at Christmas 340 00:17:20,213 --> 00:17:22,784 and you expected me to be excited about it. 341 00:17:22,867 --> 00:17:25,309 And? We fought? 342 00:17:25,392 --> 00:17:27,615 I fought you. 343 00:17:27,698 --> 00:17:31,793 Okay, um, so, you found this five days ago. 344 00:17:31,876 --> 00:17:33,752 You said it was just at the bottom of a closet 345 00:17:33,835 --> 00:17:36,276 and before that you told me you had no idea what I was talking about. 346 00:17:36,359 --> 00:17:37,882 So it seems like... 347 00:17:38,840 --> 00:17:40,454 Are you avoiding something? 348 00:17:40,537 --> 00:17:44,023 No, Mom, don't overthink! I... 349 00:17:44,106 --> 00:17:47,200 I'm done blaming you. I just... I don't wanna go back there. 350 00:17:47,283 --> 00:17:48,767 That's all it is. 351 00:17:48,850 --> 00:17:51,422 And I have to go to school. So, just let it go. 352 00:17:51,505 --> 00:17:52,506 Please. 353 00:17:53,420 --> 00:17:55,643 No, I won't let it go. 354 00:17:55,726 --> 00:17:57,210 We'll talk more about it later. 355 00:17:57,293 --> 00:17:59,948 I'd like you to be home when I get home from work. 356 00:18:06,128 --> 00:18:08,047 Linda has stage 4 pancreatic cancer. 357 00:18:08,130 --> 00:18:09,222 She's near the end. 358 00:18:09,305 --> 00:18:11,224 A few hours now, maybe a day at most. 359 00:18:11,307 --> 00:18:12,443 Can we speak with her? 360 00:18:12,526 --> 00:18:14,053 We have her pretty sedated most of the time. 361 00:18:14,136 --> 00:18:15,402 Why? 362 00:18:15,485 --> 00:18:18,014 Her son is here and he really wants to see her. 363 00:18:18,097 --> 00:18:20,407 -Son? -He's been in prison. 364 00:18:20,490 --> 00:18:21,974 But he's upstairs now. 365 00:18:22,057 --> 00:18:23,628 He's a patient too. 366 00:18:23,711 --> 00:18:25,369 I know it's a big ask, 367 00:18:25,452 --> 00:18:27,719 but can you hold off on Linda's next morphine dose? 368 00:18:27,802 --> 00:18:29,677 Just for a little while, while we talk to her? 369 00:18:29,760 --> 00:18:31,153 This is her last chance to see him. 370 00:18:48,823 --> 00:18:50,133 Your kidneys are shutting down. 371 00:18:50,216 --> 00:18:52,352 It's a toxic reaction to the medication. 372 00:18:52,435 --> 00:18:53,832 So what's next? 373 00:18:53,915 --> 00:18:55,573 I'm still weighing our options. 374 00:18:55,656 --> 00:18:58,184 Uh, one is too hard on your liver. 375 00:18:58,267 --> 00:18:59,881 The other one puts your heart at risk. 376 00:18:59,964 --> 00:19:01,705 And now you doubt yourself. 377 00:19:03,054 --> 00:19:04,321 We all have doubts. 378 00:19:04,404 --> 00:19:07,846 It won't scare me if you admit it. 379 00:19:07,929 --> 00:19:10,544 I'm not quite the doctor that I was before the accident. 380 00:19:10,627 --> 00:19:12,633 That must be difficult to accept. 381 00:19:12,716 --> 00:19:14,766 Well, there's nothing to do about it 382 00:19:14,849 --> 00:19:16,768 except keep charging forward. 383 00:19:16,851 --> 00:19:18,200 Medicine is a science, 384 00:19:20,159 --> 00:19:21,638 but it's also an art. 385 00:19:22,813 --> 00:19:24,250 -Who told you that? -You did. 386 00:19:25,642 --> 00:19:26,952 Many years ago. 387 00:19:27,035 --> 00:19:29,603 The artist is still inside you. 388 00:19:30,430 --> 00:19:31,609 Something will come. 389 00:19:31,692 --> 00:19:33,045 Well, it better 390 00:19:33,128 --> 00:19:34,782 because I'm not giving up on you. 391 00:19:36,914 --> 00:19:38,307 Mrs. Ellison? 392 00:19:39,961 --> 00:19:41,180 Mrs. Ellison? 393 00:19:42,485 --> 00:19:43,485 Can you hear me? 394 00:19:45,662 --> 00:19:49,105 I'm Dr. Coleman. This is Dr. Maitra. 395 00:19:49,188 --> 00:19:50,624 Can we speak with you? 396 00:19:53,017 --> 00:19:55,237 Your son is here. 397 00:19:57,196 --> 00:19:59,724 Can't be. He's locked up. 398 00:19:59,807 --> 00:20:03,162 He poisoned himself to get out of prison. 399 00:20:03,245 --> 00:20:05,251 So he could see you. 400 00:20:05,334 --> 00:20:06,600 He knows you're angry. 401 00:20:06,683 --> 00:20:08,816 He just wants a chance to apologize. 402 00:20:10,644 --> 00:20:11,779 Apologize? 403 00:20:11,862 --> 00:20:13,172 If there's a chance we could arrange it, 404 00:20:13,255 --> 00:20:14,691 -would you talk to him? -No. 405 00:20:15,779 --> 00:20:17,481 I'm done with him. 406 00:20:17,564 --> 00:20:20,571 Miss Ellison, he went through a lot... -I said no. 407 00:20:20,654 --> 00:20:23,226 Tell him the last thing I want in this world 408 00:20:23,309 --> 00:20:26,442 is to see his face right before I die. 409 00:20:27,617 --> 00:20:29,580 That's enough. This was a mistake. 410 00:20:29,663 --> 00:20:31,451 -You're right. We'll go. -Miss Ellison... 411 00:20:31,534 --> 00:20:33,580 We're sorry we upset you, Linda. 412 00:20:34,972 --> 00:20:36,500 You were gonna keep pushing her? 413 00:20:36,583 --> 00:20:37,849 He's my patient. 414 00:20:37,932 --> 00:20:39,764 You have no idea what he did to her. 415 00:20:39,847 --> 00:20:41,501 And when a woman says no, it means no. 416 00:20:42,328 --> 00:20:43,855 Right. 417 00:20:43,938 --> 00:20:45,509 I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking about it like that. 418 00:20:45,592 --> 00:20:46,593 It's fine. 419 00:20:48,290 --> 00:20:50,340 I can't tell Malcolm what she just said. 420 00:20:50,423 --> 00:20:52,080 You think he came here looking for lies? 421 00:20:52,163 --> 00:20:53,691 He came here looking for peace. 422 00:20:53,774 --> 00:20:55,475 Maybe that's what we should give him. 423 00:20:55,558 --> 00:20:57,564 Dr. Maitra, the chaplain's spiraling. 424 00:20:57,647 --> 00:20:59,610 Pulmonary hemorrhage, acute renal failure, 425 00:20:59,693 --> 00:21:00,959 systemic inflammation. 426 00:21:01,042 --> 00:21:02,656 You added cyclophosphamide? 427 00:21:02,739 --> 00:21:05,181 He wasn't responding to the steroids. 428 00:21:05,264 --> 00:21:07,052 It's an acceptable escalation. 429 00:21:07,135 --> 00:21:09,881 And aggressive and risky, as you can see. 430 00:21:09,964 --> 00:21:11,665 Hey. You're not going in there without me. 431 00:21:11,748 --> 00:21:13,868 I have to check the telemetry, I'll find you in a few. 432 00:21:14,838 --> 00:21:16,057 Authoritative. 433 00:21:17,841 --> 00:21:19,717 Dr. Ridley put me in charge of you today. 434 00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:21,545 I'm responsible for these patients 435 00:21:21,628 --> 00:21:24,200 and I want to know your plan before it happens. 436 00:21:24,283 --> 00:21:26,289 -Naturally. -So, what do you want to do next? 437 00:21:26,372 --> 00:21:27,986 Therapeutic plasma exchange. 438 00:21:28,069 --> 00:21:29,640 That's incredibly invasive. 439 00:21:29,723 --> 00:21:32,077 Line complications, bleeding, infection. 440 00:21:32,160 --> 00:21:34,771 Well, if you have a better idea, I'm all ears. 441 00:21:36,382 --> 00:21:38,736 Okay. Try it, but watch his numbers. 442 00:21:38,819 --> 00:21:40,128 I'll write the order. 443 00:21:40,211 --> 00:21:41,391 And prepare him for the worst. 444 00:21:41,474 --> 00:21:42,953 You don't need to tell me that. 445 00:21:46,392 --> 00:21:48,006 Why haven't you discharged Mr. Pitney? 446 00:21:48,089 --> 00:21:49,921 Um, I was about to... 447 00:21:50,004 --> 00:21:52,010 You were supposed to do it after his last dressing change. 448 00:21:52,093 --> 00:21:53,446 Julie said you didn't show? 449 00:21:53,529 --> 00:21:55,405 I'm sorry, I was tied up with our post-op consults. 450 00:21:55,488 --> 00:21:57,316 No excuse. Get it done! 451 00:22:06,020 --> 00:22:08,156 -You're still here? -Writing up the discharge. 452 00:22:08,239 --> 00:22:09,549 The man's been waiting four hours. 453 00:22:09,632 --> 00:22:12,069 Go and explain to him what is taking so long! 454 00:22:13,070 --> 00:22:14,855 Sorry. Going now. 455 00:22:17,945 --> 00:22:19,338 Heavy is the head, huh? 456 00:22:23,211 --> 00:22:26,436 Being in a position of leadership always has its challenges, 457 00:22:26,519 --> 00:22:29,439 but in this case, I trusted Dr. Larsen's hypothesis 458 00:22:29,522 --> 00:22:31,179 that Rosie Cruz had an abscess, 459 00:22:31,262 --> 00:22:34,270 which would make the transplant viable. 460 00:22:34,353 --> 00:22:37,360 Why is Dr. Walker being dragged into this? 461 00:22:37,443 --> 00:22:39,275 Because she was next to you in the command post 462 00:22:39,358 --> 00:22:41,538 when all these decisions were made. 463 00:22:41,621 --> 00:22:42,887 Thank you for coming, Dr. Walker. 464 00:22:42,970 --> 00:22:44,584 We'll get to you in a moment. 465 00:22:44,667 --> 00:22:47,718 So, Dr. Hamda, you informed the transplant network 466 00:22:47,801 --> 00:22:49,197 you had a test confirming the abscess. 467 00:22:49,280 --> 00:22:50,982 We all know I stuck my neck out. 468 00:22:51,065 --> 00:22:53,985 But three of my people were being held with guns to their heads, 469 00:22:54,068 --> 00:22:56,292 and the abscess was ultimately confirmed 470 00:22:56,375 --> 00:22:58,294 when Dr. Larsen drained it in the ICU. 471 00:22:58,377 --> 00:23:00,687 You also lied to the Eastside donor unit in writing! 472 00:23:00,770 --> 00:23:02,036 We did what we had to do. 473 00:23:02,119 --> 00:23:03,690 We know that that's what you think, Dr. Heller. 474 00:23:03,773 --> 00:23:06,606 As I understand it, you were the courier for the heart 475 00:23:06,689 --> 00:23:08,478 and part of the fabrication at Eastside. 476 00:23:08,561 --> 00:23:10,871 I was in charge. He was following my orders. 477 00:23:10,954 --> 00:23:13,787 Dr. Heller, is it true that you and Dr. Larsen 478 00:23:13,870 --> 00:23:15,136 have been in a consensual relationship? 479 00:23:15,219 --> 00:23:16,790 At that time, no. 480 00:23:16,873 --> 00:23:19,441 But that must've influenced your decision to deceive Eastside. 481 00:23:21,617 --> 00:23:24,232 Dr. Walker, based on your professional opinion, 482 00:23:24,315 --> 00:23:26,887 would you say Dr. Hamda's judgment was compromised? 483 00:23:26,970 --> 00:23:28,802 In my professional opinion, 484 00:23:28,885 --> 00:23:31,544 I think it's pretty easy to Monday morning quarterback three weeks later. 485 00:23:31,627 --> 00:23:33,851 But what would you all have done if you were there? 486 00:23:33,934 --> 00:23:36,375 I'd like to think we would've been more forthright 487 00:23:36,458 --> 00:23:37,898 and trusting of our partners. 488 00:23:37,981 --> 00:23:40,205 The point is, none of us were informed 489 00:23:40,288 --> 00:23:42,686 until all of the key decisions were made. 490 00:23:42,769 --> 00:23:44,818 If this is an exercise in CYA, 491 00:23:44,901 --> 00:23:46,994 then maybe you ought to be thanking Dr. Hamda 492 00:23:47,077 --> 00:23:48,518 for keeping you out of it. 493 00:23:48,601 --> 00:23:50,781 I'm not denying anything that occurred that day, 494 00:23:50,864 --> 00:23:53,392 so I don't know why Dr. Heller and Dr. Walker are even here. 495 00:23:53,475 --> 00:23:56,439 Especially since it's clear you've already made your decision. 496 00:23:56,522 --> 00:23:59,572 We hoped you would have given us some ammunition to fight this. 497 00:23:59,655 --> 00:24:01,269 We could smooth things over with Eastside, 498 00:24:01,352 --> 00:24:03,228 but UNOS wants their pound of flesh 499 00:24:03,311 --> 00:24:05,311 and you're leaving us with our hands tied, Michael. 500 00:24:12,668 --> 00:24:13,668 Well... 501 00:24:15,236 --> 00:24:16,763 our patients need organs. 502 00:24:16,846 --> 00:24:18,461 So, if throwing me under the bus 503 00:24:18,544 --> 00:24:20,288 will secure our accreditation, 504 00:24:20,371 --> 00:24:22,682 obviously, you need to do what's in the best interest of the hospital. 505 00:24:22,765 --> 00:24:23,901 We appreciate that. 506 00:24:23,984 --> 00:24:25,816 Okay, this is a witch hunt. 507 00:24:25,899 --> 00:24:27,901 You should all be ashamed of yourselves. 508 00:24:34,908 --> 00:24:37,737 You'll have my letter of resignation by the end of the day. 509 00:24:47,529 --> 00:24:49,100 I was happy to get your page. 510 00:24:49,183 --> 00:24:50,754 It's been a few weeks since we spoke. 511 00:24:50,837 --> 00:24:53,579 Not for me. I have a patient that needs spiritual counsel. 512 00:24:54,449 --> 00:24:56,059 -Of course. -Room 617. 513 00:25:03,850 --> 00:25:05,155 I've missed our conversations. 514 00:25:06,679 --> 00:25:08,685 I'm always here for you, you know? 515 00:25:08,768 --> 00:25:12,902 Well, when I want to talk about how the death of my son is God's divine plan, 516 00:25:13,642 --> 00:25:14,642 I'll come find you. 517 00:25:23,434 --> 00:25:25,353 Ventricular tachycardia. He's in heart failure. 518 00:25:25,436 --> 00:25:27,094 It's myocarditis. Get a stat echo. 519 00:25:27,177 --> 00:25:28,918 He needs amiodarone. 520 00:25:31,138 --> 00:25:32,966 Hold on, Eamon. 521 00:25:39,929 --> 00:25:41,282 Eamon, I've stabilized you. 522 00:25:41,365 --> 00:25:43,371 It was your heart this time. 523 00:25:43,454 --> 00:25:45,718 Seems like I'm living the Book of Job. 524 00:25:54,988 --> 00:25:57,108 I don't know how much more of this your body can take. 525 00:25:59,601 --> 00:26:01,346 We spoke to your mother. 526 00:26:01,429 --> 00:26:02,956 -Really? -Yeah. 527 00:26:03,039 --> 00:26:04,262 Can I get in to see her? 528 00:26:04,345 --> 00:26:06,220 I'm sorry, but she's too sick to see anyone. 529 00:26:06,303 --> 00:26:08,309 And, honestly, with your restrictions, 530 00:26:08,392 --> 00:26:10,442 I'm not even sure we could pull that off. -What'd she say then? 531 00:26:10,525 --> 00:26:12,400 We told her what you had to do to get yourself here, 532 00:26:12,483 --> 00:26:14,185 and she really appreciated that. 533 00:26:14,268 --> 00:26:16,013 -Yeah? -It was hard for her to talk, 534 00:26:16,096 --> 00:26:18,885 but she wanted me to tell you that she knows you love her 535 00:26:18,968 --> 00:26:21,105 and she loves you, too. 536 00:26:21,188 --> 00:26:22,846 I know when I'm being lied to, doc. 537 00:26:22,929 --> 00:26:25,457 No. She wanted you both to let go of what happened in the past. 538 00:26:25,540 --> 00:26:27,503 You didn't even talk to her, did you? 539 00:26:27,586 --> 00:26:30,157 We did talk to her. We pulled her out of a peaceful rest, 540 00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:31,637 to give her more pain, 541 00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:34,205 to upset her in her final moments of her life, 542 00:26:34,288 --> 00:26:36,555 to advocate for you. 543 00:26:36,638 --> 00:26:38,862 -What'd she really say? -She didn't want to see you. 544 00:26:38,945 --> 00:26:41,865 Which really makes me want to ask, what did you do to her? 545 00:26:41,948 --> 00:26:43,562 That's none of your business. 546 00:26:43,645 --> 00:26:45,956 You asked us to get you in a room with her. -Dr. Maitra. 547 00:26:46,039 --> 00:26:49,042 Look, we're done here, all right? Get out! 548 00:26:56,266 --> 00:26:57,924 Was that really necessary? 549 00:26:58,007 --> 00:26:59,360 He's not ready to be helped, 550 00:26:59,443 --> 00:27:01,406 and why are you so invested in him? 551 00:27:01,489 --> 00:27:04,670 I don't know. Some people, you can just feel the world working against them. 552 00:27:04,753 --> 00:27:07,891 I know, but he lied to get himself here 553 00:27:07,974 --> 00:27:10,763 and, worse, he's lying to himself. Can't you see that? 554 00:27:10,846 --> 00:27:12,591 I mean, your parents are cops. 555 00:27:12,674 --> 00:27:16,508 Yeah. And they always told me everyone is someone's child. 556 00:27:16,591 --> 00:27:19,202 Find me when his final hemoglobin's in and we'll discharge him. 557 00:27:35,654 --> 00:27:37,442 He doesn't deserve to lose his job. 558 00:27:37,525 --> 00:27:39,096 He stuck his neck out way further than I did. 559 00:27:39,179 --> 00:27:40,310 That was his decision. 560 00:27:41,485 --> 00:27:43,187 What? 561 00:27:43,270 --> 00:27:45,929 When I went to Eastside that day, to get the heart, 562 00:27:46,012 --> 00:27:47,670 the nurse saw the wound on my face, 563 00:27:47,753 --> 00:27:49,454 and she... she knew something was off. 564 00:27:49,537 --> 00:27:52,544 And she went to call the transplant department to confirm my story 565 00:27:52,627 --> 00:27:55,025 and I told her to ask for Michael. 566 00:27:55,108 --> 00:27:57,375 It forced him to lie to Eastside in writing. 567 00:27:57,458 --> 00:27:59,595 Oh, I didn't know that. 568 00:27:59,678 --> 00:28:01,901 Yeah, so half of this is on me. 569 00:28:01,984 --> 00:28:04,421 Nothing you can do about that now. 570 00:28:05,988 --> 00:28:10,257 Did you ever read about Our Lady of Akita? 571 00:28:10,340 --> 00:28:13,217 It's a statue of Mary in Akita, Japan. 572 00:28:13,300 --> 00:28:14,610 Wooden. 573 00:28:14,693 --> 00:28:17,351 And on over 100 occasions, 574 00:28:17,434 --> 00:28:19,223 it was seen to be crying 575 00:28:19,306 --> 00:28:21,747 what people thought were tears of blood. 576 00:28:21,830 --> 00:28:23,314 Hmm. 577 00:28:23,397 --> 00:28:27,057 The belief was she was taking on our collective suffering. 578 00:28:27,140 --> 00:28:29,577 Whose suffering are you taking on? 579 00:28:31,100 --> 00:28:32,192 Maybe yours. 580 00:28:32,275 --> 00:28:35,065 Oh, I hope not. 581 00:28:35,148 --> 00:28:37,328 Perhaps that's why God put us together today. 582 00:28:37,411 --> 00:28:39,979 So I could heal you, instead of the other way around. 583 00:28:42,068 --> 00:28:45,466 I was put on this earth to help people. 584 00:28:45,549 --> 00:28:48,295 If I'm dying, you may be the last chance I have 585 00:28:48,378 --> 00:28:50,297 to fulfill my life's purpose. 586 00:28:50,380 --> 00:28:52,343 And if there's one thing I know, 587 00:28:52,426 --> 00:28:55,255 it's when people are trying to hide their pain. 588 00:29:04,046 --> 00:29:05,134 It's my daughter. 589 00:29:08,790 --> 00:29:09,791 I failed her... 590 00:29:11,445 --> 00:29:13,756 in the years after Danny's death. 591 00:29:13,839 --> 00:29:16,236 We used to speak about this quite often. 592 00:29:16,319 --> 00:29:18,717 And I wonder, without your memory, 593 00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:22,369 that you're missing what you need to help her now. 594 00:29:23,326 --> 00:29:25,332 I'm sure that much is true. 595 00:29:25,415 --> 00:29:27,595 She didn't go to Danny's funeral. 596 00:29:27,678 --> 00:29:29,467 -Did you know that? -What? 597 00:29:29,550 --> 00:29:30,860 She was afraid, 598 00:29:30,943 --> 00:29:33,471 and you were trying to protect her. 599 00:29:33,554 --> 00:29:35,908 But those rituals exist for a reason. 600 00:29:35,991 --> 00:29:38,868 Katie never had the chance to mourn her brother that way. 601 00:29:38,951 --> 00:29:41,127 And I don't think you knew how to grieve either. 602 00:29:43,042 --> 00:29:46,393 It's still so hard to think about him. 603 00:29:48,221 --> 00:29:50,310 Because I don't wanna make it real. 604 00:29:52,051 --> 00:29:54,314 Grief can be a lifelong process. 605 00:29:56,316 --> 00:29:58,361 Which means it's never too late. 606 00:30:19,556 --> 00:30:20,993 I've been praying for you. 607 00:30:22,908 --> 00:30:24,561 Save it for someone else. 608 00:30:34,615 --> 00:30:36,142 Eamon's latest labs are back. 609 00:30:36,225 --> 00:30:39,929 Auto-antibodies are zero. PLEX worked. 610 00:30:40,012 --> 00:30:41,800 So the organ damage was too advanced, 611 00:30:41,883 --> 00:30:43,236 which is why he's still getting worse. 612 00:30:43,319 --> 00:30:46,370 Or when PLEX filtered out the harmful antibodies, 613 00:30:46,453 --> 00:30:48,459 it also removed some of the protective immunoglobulins. 614 00:30:48,542 --> 00:30:49,765 I-I'm not following. 615 00:30:49,848 --> 00:30:51,636 The bad antibodies were attacking his organs, 616 00:30:51,719 --> 00:30:53,725 but the body also had healing factors 617 00:30:53,808 --> 00:30:55,031 that were trying to fix the damage. 618 00:30:55,114 --> 00:30:56,946 PLEX removed both. 619 00:30:57,029 --> 00:30:58,643 So we just have to give him back what he needs. 620 00:30:58,726 --> 00:31:00,771 -How? -IV immunoglobulin therapy. 621 00:31:01,642 --> 00:31:02,908 It's a Hail Mary, 622 00:31:02,991 --> 00:31:04,649 though I'm sure he's a big fan. 623 00:31:04,732 --> 00:31:06,738 Okay, well, if it doesn't work, you'll kill him. 624 00:31:06,821 --> 00:31:08,174 It will work. 625 00:31:08,257 --> 00:31:09,824 Okay. 626 00:31:58,177 --> 00:31:59,308 Right hand. 627 00:32:00,614 --> 00:32:01,745 Time to go. 628 00:32:03,747 --> 00:32:05,144 Your labs are normal. 629 00:32:05,227 --> 00:32:07,403 The prison infirmary can take it from here. 630 00:32:12,800 --> 00:32:15,546 Malcolm, I'm very sorry. 631 00:32:15,629 --> 00:32:18,284 We just found out your mother passed away. 632 00:32:19,372 --> 00:32:20,551 She didn't suffer. 633 00:32:20,634 --> 00:32:22,379 She wasn't in pain. She just... 634 00:32:22,462 --> 00:32:24,598 fell asleep and didn't wake up. 635 00:32:24,681 --> 00:32:25,904 It's true. 636 00:32:25,987 --> 00:32:27,340 We just spoke to her doctor, 637 00:32:27,423 --> 00:32:29,338 and she was at peace in the end. 638 00:32:44,049 --> 00:32:47,966 When I was 17, I started running with the local set. 639 00:32:49,271 --> 00:32:51,582 You know, it was just petty stuff at first, 640 00:32:51,665 --> 00:32:53,014 but before you know it, 641 00:32:55,974 --> 00:32:57,066 you're in the life. 642 00:32:57,149 --> 00:32:59,111 But I never brought that home with me. 643 00:32:59,194 --> 00:33:00,896 Because of my mom 644 00:33:00,979 --> 00:33:03,677 and my little sister, Nahla. 645 00:33:05,766 --> 00:33:07,159 She was a smart kid. 646 00:33:08,247 --> 00:33:10,035 Kind, 647 00:33:10,118 --> 00:33:12,646 one of the best laughs you ever heard. 648 00:33:12,729 --> 00:33:15,084 One night, I took her to her favorite pizza spot. 649 00:33:15,167 --> 00:33:16,690 And on our way home... 650 00:33:19,214 --> 00:33:20,955 somebody tried to take me out. 651 00:33:23,088 --> 00:33:24,872 They killed her instead. 652 00:33:26,221 --> 00:33:28,097 After that, I was lost. 653 00:33:28,180 --> 00:33:29,925 I just went down a path of darkness 654 00:33:30,008 --> 00:33:31,848 and I just kept doing wrong, you know, until... 655 00:33:35,317 --> 00:33:37,454 Well, you know where I ended up. 656 00:33:37,537 --> 00:33:39,321 It should've been me that died that night. 657 00:33:40,844 --> 00:33:43,891 And I live with that every day. 658 00:33:46,807 --> 00:33:48,374 I just wanted my mom to know that. 659 00:33:53,335 --> 00:33:56,125 I'm sorry all that happened to you. 660 00:33:56,208 --> 00:33:58,170 And I don't know what you believe, 661 00:33:58,253 --> 00:33:59,737 but maybe there's a chance 662 00:33:59,820 --> 00:34:02,696 your mother and sister are looking down on you. 663 00:34:02,779 --> 00:34:05,351 You still have a life ahead of you. 664 00:34:05,434 --> 00:34:08,006 In prison, and at some point, in the world. 665 00:34:08,089 --> 00:34:09,834 So, how do you want to spend it? 666 00:34:09,917 --> 00:34:12,228 You wanna keep punishing yourself, 667 00:34:12,311 --> 00:34:14,143 or whoever else, for your mistakes? 668 00:34:14,226 --> 00:34:16,275 Or do you want to be the kind of person 669 00:34:16,358 --> 00:34:17,842 your mom could be proud of? 670 00:34:17,925 --> 00:34:19,753 Who your sister could look up to? 671 00:34:29,154 --> 00:34:31,899 For what it's worth, the guy I met today, 672 00:34:31,982 --> 00:34:33,423 who went through all this stuff 673 00:34:33,506 --> 00:34:34,772 to make things right for his mother, 674 00:34:34,855 --> 00:34:37,644 he's already on the path he needs to be. 675 00:34:37,727 --> 00:34:39,468 You just got to believe that. 676 00:34:42,689 --> 00:34:45,391 All right, Malcolm. Let's get you back. Okay? 677 00:34:45,474 --> 00:34:47,085 Yeah, boss. 678 00:35:05,233 --> 00:35:06,891 Eamon! 679 00:35:06,974 --> 00:35:09,111 We did it. You turned a corner. 680 00:35:09,194 --> 00:35:11,330 You'll be back in the chapel in no time. 681 00:35:11,413 --> 00:35:13,463 Good. 682 00:35:13,546 --> 00:35:15,813 'Cause I wasn't ready to meet Him yet. 683 00:35:15,896 --> 00:35:18,203 No. I think we need you around here a little bit longer. 684 00:35:23,469 --> 00:35:25,692 Eamon said you worked a miracle. 685 00:35:25,775 --> 00:35:27,085 He would. 686 00:35:27,168 --> 00:35:29,957 So, I got something important I got to tell you. 687 00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:31,959 There's a lung path report in there 688 00:35:32,042 --> 00:35:34,049 for the UNOS meeting today. 689 00:35:34,132 --> 00:35:35,485 They're coming after Michael. 690 00:35:35,568 --> 00:35:37,095 Want him to resign. 691 00:35:37,178 --> 00:35:38,749 This is going on Rosie's chart to protect him. 692 00:35:38,832 --> 00:35:40,533 You faked a test? 693 00:35:40,616 --> 00:35:42,666 I just wanted to tell you in case anyone asks. 694 00:35:42,749 --> 00:35:45,277 But what if they ask why you didn't mention it earlier? 695 00:35:45,360 --> 00:35:46,931 I got hit in the head, remember? 696 00:35:47,014 --> 00:35:48,585 Oh, come on, Jake. 697 00:35:48,668 --> 00:35:51,936 Look, I was part of the deception that day. 698 00:35:52,019 --> 00:35:53,459 Something I did put Michael in a bad spot. 699 00:35:53,542 --> 00:35:55,262 I'm not gonna let him take the hit for that. 700 00:35:58,721 --> 00:36:00,162 Paperwork's in order. 701 00:36:00,245 --> 00:36:01,772 Just make sure to CC the warden. 702 00:36:01,855 --> 00:36:03,556 That tough love you gave Malcolm 703 00:36:03,639 --> 00:36:05,602 was exactly what he needed. 704 00:36:05,685 --> 00:36:07,082 He got the truth. 705 00:36:07,165 --> 00:36:08,645 Well, maybe the truth'll set him free. 706 00:36:10,429 --> 00:36:12,174 You're a great doctor, TJ. 707 00:36:12,257 --> 00:36:13,871 And you have genuine compassion. 708 00:36:13,954 --> 00:36:15,481 If it wasn't for that, 709 00:36:15,564 --> 00:36:16,787 we wouldn't have gotten where we did with Malcolm today. 710 00:36:16,870 --> 00:36:19,006 But every resident needs to learn 711 00:36:19,089 --> 00:36:21,052 that one of the most important parts of our job 712 00:36:21,135 --> 00:36:24,011 is navigating hard truths with our patients. 713 00:36:24,094 --> 00:36:26,144 Telling them things they need to hear 714 00:36:26,227 --> 00:36:28,186 even if they might hate us for it. 715 00:36:29,622 --> 00:36:31,715 Thank you for your help today. 716 00:36:31,798 --> 00:36:32,842 Chief. 717 00:36:34,061 --> 00:36:35,066 You're welcome. 718 00:36:35,149 --> 00:36:37,978 Go rest that leg. Please? Okay. 719 00:36:47,466 --> 00:36:48,645 Before you go in there, 720 00:36:48,728 --> 00:36:52,388 this is the results from Rosie's lung biopsy. 721 00:36:52,471 --> 00:36:55,213 Turns out, it came in right before you made that call to UNOS. 722 00:36:58,520 --> 00:37:01,697 I guess in the chaos of that day, it just got misfiled. 723 00:37:04,134 --> 00:37:06,398 Well, this definitely helps our cause. 724 00:37:16,756 --> 00:37:18,196 Let's repeat the renal panel. 725 00:37:18,279 --> 00:37:20,111 Anything changes with her kidney function, 726 00:37:20,194 --> 00:37:22,418 I need to know sooner than later. -Will do. 727 00:37:22,501 --> 00:37:24,463 Dr. Heller. A word? 728 00:37:24,546 --> 00:37:25,634 Uh, yeah. 729 00:37:29,159 --> 00:37:30,687 That was kind of an ambush. 730 00:37:30,770 --> 00:37:32,558 Waiting for us outside the conference room. 731 00:37:32,641 --> 00:37:34,778 Well, I didn't wanna give you a chance to argue with me about it. 732 00:37:34,861 --> 00:37:37,690 Well, you shouldn't have done it, but I appreciate it. 733 00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:41,741 You can list your patient. We got our privileges back. 734 00:37:41,824 --> 00:37:43,569 Cleared us on the organ misallocation 735 00:37:43,652 --> 00:37:46,746 and issued a letter of warning over the lie to Eastside. 736 00:37:46,829 --> 00:37:48,400 It's not a slap on the wrist, 737 00:37:48,483 --> 00:37:50,533 but if we're fully compliant moving forward, we'll be fine. 738 00:37:50,616 --> 00:37:52,317 I'm glad it worked out. 739 00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:55,490 That was a pretty big risk you took. For me. 740 00:37:56,839 --> 00:37:58,188 You ever watch war movies? 741 00:37:59,277 --> 00:38:00,887 Never leave a man behind. 742 00:38:02,715 --> 00:38:05,315 Plus, I'm just not in the mood for any more changes in leadership. 743 00:38:08,155 --> 00:38:09,726 Oh, my God. 744 00:38:09,809 --> 00:38:12,381 Hey! So, how'd your day go? 745 00:38:12,464 --> 00:38:14,818 Up and down, but I think I survived. 746 00:38:14,901 --> 00:38:16,472 Harder than it looks, isn't it? 747 00:38:16,555 --> 00:38:18,822 Well, if you have some advice, I'll take it. 748 00:38:18,905 --> 00:38:20,171 There's no right way to lead. 749 00:38:20,254 --> 00:38:21,955 Everybody's got their own style. 750 00:38:22,038 --> 00:38:23,522 Just bring your personality to it. 751 00:38:23,605 --> 00:38:26,308 Well, I think I'm still searching for my style. 752 00:38:26,391 --> 00:38:28,223 Just do what you think's right. Do it with conviction. 753 00:38:28,306 --> 00:38:29,398 The chips fall where they fall. 754 00:38:29,481 --> 00:38:30,786 I think that'll fit for me. 755 00:38:34,094 --> 00:38:35,704 Okay, well, I am running late. 756 00:38:36,531 --> 00:38:38,102 -Uh, for Mia? -No. 757 00:38:38,185 --> 00:38:41,323 No. Actually, uh, I have a date. 758 00:38:41,406 --> 00:38:43,847 -Oh, wow! -Yeah. 759 00:38:43,930 --> 00:38:46,759 Hey. You're getting back on that horse. -Yeah, I'm trying. 760 00:38:52,025 --> 00:38:54,118 Uh, well, have fun. 761 00:38:54,201 --> 00:38:56,159 Yeah, you, uh, you have a good night. 762 00:39:12,393 --> 00:39:14,834 I know I wasn't there for you when your brother died, 763 00:39:14,917 --> 00:39:17,663 but I am gonna be there for you now. 764 00:39:17,746 --> 00:39:20,231 Even when you say you don't need it. 765 00:39:20,314 --> 00:39:22,055 You can't undo what was done. 766 00:39:22,838 --> 00:39:24,231 No one can. 767 00:39:34,894 --> 00:39:39,076 When I think about the mistakes that I made during that time, 768 00:39:39,159 --> 00:39:40,469 it seems to me that 769 00:39:40,552 --> 00:39:44,211 it was all because I was afraid 770 00:39:44,294 --> 00:39:46,344 to face my pain. 771 00:39:46,427 --> 00:39:49,387 And if you learned that from me... 772 00:39:51,432 --> 00:39:53,739 then that's something that we're gonna work on together. 773 00:40:01,616 --> 00:40:03,139 I said something to you. 774 00:40:05,577 --> 00:40:06,973 Something awful. 775 00:40:07,056 --> 00:40:09,494 Well, you're already forgiven. 776 00:40:10,799 --> 00:40:13,676 But you probably should still tell me. 777 00:40:13,759 --> 00:40:15,151 Get it off your chest. 778 00:40:17,197 --> 00:40:19,765 I said, all you cared about was Danny. 779 00:40:22,289 --> 00:40:23,729 In a pretty cruel way. 780 00:40:23,812 --> 00:40:25,383 You were angry, 781 00:40:25,466 --> 00:40:26,946 you were a kid. 782 00:40:28,817 --> 00:40:30,732 And I probably had it coming. 783 00:40:32,995 --> 00:40:35,084 You need to forgive yourself. 784 00:40:40,350 --> 00:40:42,657 Have you ever been to the cemetery? 785 00:40:43,615 --> 00:40:45,447 Once. 786 00:40:45,530 --> 00:40:48,402 But not until his 11th birthday. 787 00:40:49,359 --> 00:40:50,448 With Dad. 788 00:40:52,798 --> 00:40:54,669 I should've made you go to the funeral. 789 00:40:56,628 --> 00:41:00,980 It was wrong to let you hide just because I wanted to. 790 00:41:06,159 --> 00:41:08,074 Would you go with me now? 791 00:42:15,402 --> 00:42:17,143 I'm starting to figure it here. 792 00:42:25,586 --> 00:42:26,631 Everything okay? 793 00:42:28,676 --> 00:42:31,553 Yeah, um, sorry, it's work. I'm on call. 794 00:42:31,636 --> 00:42:33,899 Oh. You have to go. 795 00:42:34,813 --> 00:42:35,813 Yeah. 796 00:42:37,816 --> 00:42:39,604 Um, I'll be a while. 797 00:42:39,687 --> 00:42:41,820 But, listen, this was a lot of fun... -It was. 798 00:42:43,256 --> 00:42:44,866 Goodbye, Jake. 799 00:42:45,737 --> 00:42:46,868 Yeah. 800 00:42:49,436 --> 00:42:51,003 Have a safe flight.