1 00:01:51,109 --> 00:01:52,777 What's in the box? 2 00:01:59,549 --> 00:02:01,819 Are you gonna talk today? 3 00:02:06,791 --> 00:02:08,960 So then you know I switched puddings, 4 00:02:09,093 --> 00:02:11,528 uh like chocolate, butterscotch, unflavored. 5 00:02:11,662 --> 00:02:13,665 So one time I spill this chocolate pudding 6 00:02:13,799 --> 00:02:16,001 on this white shepherd, my friend Kathy's, 7 00:02:16,135 --> 00:02:18,469 and I couldn't get it out, I was scrubbing and scrubbing, 8 00:02:18,603 --> 00:02:21,073 and this, like the fur came off on his head, 9 00:02:21,206 --> 00:02:22,607 and I didn't know what to do, 10 00:02:22,741 --> 00:02:25,978 so uh, I just let him, I just let him out. 11 00:02:26,111 --> 00:02:28,579 Um, and everyone was like freaking out. 12 00:02:28,714 --> 00:02:30,448 Like where'd, where'd Kenzo go? 13 00:02:30,581 --> 00:02:31,917 And like they were looking for weeks, 14 00:02:32,050 --> 00:02:34,086 and they, they put up uh, lost dog signs, 15 00:02:34,219 --> 00:02:37,223 and I would just like, uh like rip 'em down. 16 00:02:37,356 --> 00:02:40,927 And uh, yeah, it's like kinda crazy 17 00:02:41,060 --> 00:02:44,463 'cause I'll still hear the dog barking at night. 18 00:03:30,477 --> 00:03:31,913 You're back on the dick? 19 00:03:32,981 --> 00:03:36,350 I don't understand, a month ago you were gonna marry Riley, 20 00:03:41,756 --> 00:03:43,758 and now you're back on the dick. 21 00:03:51,100 --> 00:03:52,034 I love you. 22 00:04:07,917 --> 00:04:12,689 My goddamn genetic disposition for allergies. 23 00:04:12,823 --> 00:04:15,125 What the hell is there mold in the rafters? 24 00:04:18,128 --> 00:04:20,463 Is there a toxic mold problem here? 25 00:04:21,397 --> 00:04:22,498 You know about it? 26 00:04:22,632 --> 00:04:25,568 Hey, you curlicue, peekaboo. 27 00:04:27,371 --> 00:04:29,206 I'm Theresa, I'm new. 28 00:04:29,339 --> 00:04:31,808 Hey, I'm Ben. 29 00:04:33,310 --> 00:04:34,410 Cute Ben. 30 00:04:37,248 --> 00:04:39,884 You look like you've been doing a lot of CrossFit. 31 00:04:42,887 --> 00:04:45,690 I have acting class at seven tonight, 32 00:04:47,358 --> 00:04:49,994 we're working on the classics, 33 00:04:50,862 --> 00:04:54,165 but at eight, I'm as free as a kite. 34 00:04:58,136 --> 00:04:59,037 You got a girlfriend? 35 00:05:08,280 --> 00:05:09,181 Oh, my god. 36 00:05:11,717 --> 00:05:12,818 Oh, my god. 37 00:05:13,719 --> 00:05:16,922 Oh, my childhood, my innocent childhood. 38 00:05:17,056 --> 00:05:18,891 Happiness awoke with me every morning, 39 00:05:19,024 --> 00:05:21,727 it was just like this all, all white. 40 00:05:21,860 --> 00:05:25,497 After the dark, dismal autumn and the cold, cold winter 41 00:05:25,631 --> 00:05:27,200 you are young again full of happiness, 42 00:05:27,334 --> 00:05:30,236 the angels of heaven have not abandoned you. 43 00:05:33,206 --> 00:05:34,107 Benny. 44 00:05:35,574 --> 00:05:36,643 Ma. 45 00:05:37,844 --> 00:05:40,046 I want you to know that I love you very much. 46 00:05:42,315 --> 00:05:43,650 You love me? 47 00:05:43,783 --> 00:05:47,220 And your dad, he loves you very much too, 48 00:05:47,354 --> 00:05:51,058 and your Aunt Cindy, even the people at Panera. 49 00:05:52,259 --> 00:05:53,626 The Obama's love you. 50 00:05:54,328 --> 00:05:55,796 God, he loves you too. 51 00:05:55,930 --> 00:05:57,431 - Ma. - He does. 52 00:05:57,564 --> 00:05:58,666 I get it. 53 00:06:01,435 --> 00:06:02,903 You know what they say? 54 00:06:03,838 --> 00:06:05,139 A mother always knows. 55 00:06:07,908 --> 00:06:09,076 Your mother did know. 56 00:06:17,152 --> 00:06:18,053 You okay? 57 00:06:21,289 --> 00:06:22,190 Yeah. 58 00:06:29,998 --> 00:06:32,801 ♪ I'm gonna take a stab at this ♪ 59 00:06:34,703 --> 00:06:38,975 ♪ Sure you will be all right ♪ 60 00:06:39,108 --> 00:06:43,612 ♪ Make a decision with a kiss ♪ 61 00:06:43,746 --> 00:06:47,183 ♪ Baby I have false spite ♪ 62 00:06:47,316 --> 00:06:50,219 I'm a Aquarius, Gemini new, Gemini rising, 63 00:06:50,353 --> 00:06:52,989 but my personality disorders 64 00:06:53,122 --> 00:06:54,824 would suggest that I'm a Pisces. 65 00:06:54,957 --> 00:06:57,660 ♪ Back home ♪ 66 00:06:57,794 --> 00:07:00,864 ♪ I make sure that ♪ 67 00:07:01,965 --> 00:07:06,203 Oh, oh, I, I'm so sorry. 68 00:07:06,336 --> 00:07:09,006 ♪ Would it fall ♪ 69 00:07:09,706 --> 00:07:11,175 Teabag all on you. 70 00:07:12,810 --> 00:07:13,911 Just, uh. 71 00:07:16,013 --> 00:07:19,083 Whoa, whoa! 72 00:07:19,216 --> 00:07:19,917 You, oh, you. 73 00:07:20,050 --> 00:07:23,020 ♪ It was a trick ♪ 74 00:07:23,153 --> 00:07:27,525 ♪ This isn't a gunfight ♪ 75 00:07:27,659 --> 00:07:32,063 ♪ Checking it off my list ♪ 76 00:07:32,197 --> 00:07:36,968 ♪ Unable to rewrite ♪ 77 00:07:37,102 --> 00:07:42,173 ♪ Five years cast once and far alone ♪ 78 00:07:46,578 --> 00:07:47,345 ♪ Hope I'm ♪ 79 00:07:47,479 --> 00:07:48,848 Mask, mask. 80 00:07:48,981 --> 00:07:50,282 - Me? - Yeah, this is 81 00:07:50,416 --> 00:07:52,518 my murder beard, this is my murder beard. 82 00:07:52,651 --> 00:07:54,186 This is how I pull 'em in. 83 00:07:54,320 --> 00:07:58,057 Lure 'em to dark things, which clearly it worked for you. 84 00:07:58,190 --> 00:08:00,693 - Mm-hmm. - Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 85 00:08:01,894 --> 00:08:02,995 No. 86 00:08:28,288 --> 00:08:33,693 ♪ They go, we go, I want you to know what I did, I did ♪ 87 00:08:35,563 --> 00:08:40,935 ♪ They go, we go, I want you to know what I did, I did ♪ 88 00:08:42,370 --> 00:08:47,775 ♪ They go, we go, I want you to know what I did, I did ♪ 89 00:10:02,654 --> 00:10:03,754 It's good. 90 00:10:05,155 --> 00:10:06,957 I honestly couldn't put it down. 91 00:10:08,192 --> 00:10:09,760 Read it in one sitting. 92 00:10:16,368 --> 00:10:18,236 I think it's Nietzsche's best. 93 00:10:19,537 --> 00:10:24,142 Maybe he's least accessible, but worth the pain. 94 00:10:29,281 --> 00:10:31,349 He killed himself after writing it. 95 00:10:32,050 --> 00:10:33,151 Oh, yeah? 96 00:10:35,186 --> 00:10:37,056 Think we ever truly evolve? 97 00:10:38,524 --> 00:10:40,426 Well, it depends on how hungry you are. 98 00:10:54,206 --> 00:10:57,376 Hey, you wanna grab a drink some time? 99 00:10:58,477 --> 00:10:59,379 Uh. 100 00:11:02,416 --> 00:11:03,383 Sure. 101 00:11:05,385 --> 00:11:08,455 Here put your phone number in there. 102 00:11:08,588 --> 00:11:09,489 I'm Ben. 103 00:11:11,558 --> 00:11:12,459 Sam. 104 00:11:18,398 --> 00:11:20,033 What are you doing right now? 105 00:11:20,934 --> 00:11:22,336 I have uh, a friend's thing 106 00:11:22,469 --> 00:11:25,406 and a month's worth of laundry to do so. 107 00:11:29,712 --> 00:11:34,215 But I uh, don't really feel like doing any of it. 108 00:11:41,724 --> 00:11:42,523 Oh, he about come get his ass, 109 00:11:42,658 --> 00:11:44,359 oh, he about to go, go. 110 00:11:46,294 --> 00:11:48,430 Oh, that's kid's gonna have PTSD. 111 00:11:50,065 --> 00:11:52,434 In this gay part of town though that means um, 112 00:11:54,336 --> 00:11:58,006 playground's too sandy, daddy. 113 00:11:59,274 --> 00:12:00,677 Playground's too sandy, daddy. 114 00:12:01,610 --> 00:12:04,079 Back in my day we didn't have playgrounds, 115 00:12:04,213 --> 00:12:06,348 just chat rooms and AOL. 116 00:12:06,482 --> 00:12:07,449 Mm. 117 00:12:10,519 --> 00:12:11,421 ASL. 118 00:12:13,223 --> 00:12:14,457 - ASL. - Yeah. 119 00:12:15,291 --> 00:12:17,360 Age, sex, location, really? 120 00:12:17,494 --> 00:12:18,461 Yeah. 121 00:12:20,430 --> 00:12:25,468 Age, 26, sex, male, location, Bedstar. 122 00:12:30,240 --> 00:12:31,675 Age, 13 1/2. 123 00:12:34,544 --> 00:12:36,715 Sex, yes. 124 00:12:38,382 --> 00:12:43,154 Location dangerously close to a cute boy. 125 00:13:08,580 --> 00:13:09,481 You scared? 126 00:13:10,582 --> 00:13:11,483 No. 127 00:13:24,030 --> 00:13:25,131 Fireworks. 128 00:13:25,998 --> 00:13:27,600 Yeah? 129 00:13:27,734 --> 00:13:28,634 Yeah, fireworks. 130 00:13:46,452 --> 00:13:48,388 I, I had a surgery. 131 00:13:54,696 --> 00:13:55,763 It's temporary. 132 00:14:04,104 --> 00:14:07,441 Could we uh, I'm sorry. 133 00:14:11,847 --> 00:14:13,348 What's your family like? 134 00:14:18,119 --> 00:14:19,587 Just me and my dad. 135 00:14:21,089 --> 00:14:23,157 My older brother I never see, Bill. 136 00:14:23,893 --> 00:14:25,460 I got one of those. 137 00:14:26,594 --> 00:14:28,196 - Yeah? - Yeah, we shared a room 138 00:14:28,329 --> 00:14:31,867 for 18 years, then he changed his name to Will. 139 00:14:32,567 --> 00:14:34,235 You think you know a guy. 140 00:14:36,138 --> 00:14:38,040 You have any other siblings? 141 00:14:38,875 --> 00:14:40,109 Yeah, a sister. 142 00:14:45,682 --> 00:14:46,615 Do they know? 143 00:14:51,888 --> 00:14:53,489 What about you? 144 00:14:54,891 --> 00:14:55,792 Yeah. 145 00:14:57,794 --> 00:15:02,566 My mom was like, "Son, you've made your bed now fuck in it." 146 00:15:07,972 --> 00:15:11,474 Well, she wasn't that cool but she was very supportive. 147 00:15:12,944 --> 00:15:13,844 I wish. 148 00:15:16,446 --> 00:15:17,848 You should tell 'em. 149 00:15:19,850 --> 00:15:20,751 Nah. 150 00:15:21,518 --> 00:15:22,652 You should. 151 00:15:33,765 --> 00:15:35,433 When did you know? 152 00:15:38,502 --> 00:15:40,571 That I liked boys? 153 00:15:46,477 --> 00:15:49,782 I guess I was eight or nine. 154 00:15:52,719 --> 00:15:56,689 We had this desk in my room with my mom's old stuff in it, 155 00:15:59,558 --> 00:16:04,429 had this deck of cards from her bachelorette party, 156 00:16:05,464 --> 00:16:07,265 it was all these male strippers, 157 00:16:09,534 --> 00:16:11,638 a royal flush of bottoms. 158 00:16:15,408 --> 00:16:20,513 And uh, I used to sketch this one guy, Brazilian, 159 00:16:26,319 --> 00:16:28,154 I think he was the ace of spades. 160 00:16:31,025 --> 00:16:33,727 Used to sketch him in the middle of the ocean. 161 00:16:38,133 --> 00:16:39,233 What about you? 162 00:16:41,235 --> 00:16:42,671 I don't know. 163 00:16:44,973 --> 00:16:45,874 Come on. 164 00:16:50,577 --> 00:16:52,814 It was the boy next door. 165 00:16:56,650 --> 00:16:58,552 We used to have sleepovers. 166 00:17:01,724 --> 00:17:03,358 How old were you? 167 00:17:04,794 --> 00:17:06,327 Eight or nine. 168 00:17:08,931 --> 00:17:10,833 How old was he? 169 00:17:11,967 --> 00:17:12,868 My age. 170 00:17:15,671 --> 00:17:17,472 And you guys like did stuff? 171 00:17:17,605 --> 00:17:22,812 Yeah, I don't know, we, we'd fool around, yeah. 172 00:17:24,948 --> 00:17:25,982 You little slut. 173 00:17:31,154 --> 00:17:33,289 Oh, learned my lesson. 174 00:17:39,595 --> 00:17:41,530 What were you like? 175 00:17:41,664 --> 00:17:43,800 What was I like when? 176 00:17:43,934 --> 00:17:44,835 Growing up. 177 00:17:46,402 --> 00:17:49,306 Uh, had a mushroom cut. 178 00:17:50,474 --> 00:17:51,776 And I went to Bible camp. 179 00:17:53,778 --> 00:17:55,378 That's all you need to know. 180 00:17:55,512 --> 00:17:56,613 Come on. 181 00:18:01,351 --> 00:18:03,788 All right, uh, stay-at-home dad 182 00:18:04,722 --> 00:18:06,289 and a leave the home mom. 183 00:18:08,760 --> 00:18:11,230 We had two cats the Pinky and the Brain. 184 00:18:12,296 --> 00:18:13,464 Brain killed Pinky. 185 00:18:13,598 --> 00:18:15,600 Naturally. 186 00:18:15,734 --> 00:18:20,806 And my first cassette tape growing up was Lou Bega. 187 00:18:21,339 --> 00:18:22,875 "Mambo No. 5"? 188 00:18:23,008 --> 00:18:23,942 "Mambo No. 5". 189 00:18:26,444 --> 00:18:27,545 All the women in that song 190 00:18:27,679 --> 00:18:30,048 were just people from my childhood, 191 00:18:30,182 --> 00:18:31,784 so it was always just like. 192 00:18:32,818 --> 00:18:35,487 ♪ A little bit of Rita's all I need ♪ 193 00:18:35,621 --> 00:18:36,723 That's my grandma. 194 00:18:37,757 --> 00:18:40,592 ♪ A little bit of Tina's all I see ♪ 195 00:18:40,727 --> 00:18:41,828 That's my neighbor. 196 00:18:44,563 --> 00:18:45,664 What else? 197 00:18:46,565 --> 00:18:47,934 I can wiggle my ears. 198 00:18:56,910 --> 00:18:58,244 What about you? 199 00:18:58,377 --> 00:19:01,148 Uh, played a lot of baseball. 200 00:19:02,315 --> 00:19:07,688 I read a lot, sang in the church choir, played the flute. 201 00:19:09,990 --> 00:19:10,925 Ooh. 202 00:19:12,625 --> 00:19:14,862 Well, everybody plays the flute sometimes. 203 00:19:15,729 --> 00:19:19,465 ♪ There's no exception to the rule ♪ 204 00:19:19,599 --> 00:19:20,768 - ♪ Listen ♪ - Yeah, well. 205 00:19:20,901 --> 00:19:21,634 ♪ Baby ♪ 206 00:19:21,769 --> 00:19:24,940 It was Iowa, so not a lot to do. 207 00:19:28,375 --> 00:19:29,577 Sing me something. 208 00:19:39,553 --> 00:19:44,726 ♪ Take me out to the ball game ♪ 209 00:19:45,459 --> 00:19:48,597 ♪ Take me out with the crowd ♪ 210 00:19:48,731 --> 00:19:53,435 ♪ Buy me some peanuts and Cracker Jacks ♪ 211 00:19:53,568 --> 00:19:56,671 ♪ I don't care if I never come back ♪ 212 00:19:56,806 --> 00:20:01,878 ♪ Let me root, root, root for the home team ♪ 213 00:20:02,812 --> 00:20:06,682 ♪ If they don't win it's a shame ♪ 214 00:20:06,816 --> 00:20:11,154 ♪ For it's one, two, three strikes you're out ♪ 215 00:20:11,288 --> 00:20:14,758 ♪ At the old ball game ♪ 216 00:20:24,067 --> 00:20:26,737 Spend nearly all their lives underground, 217 00:20:26,870 --> 00:20:28,604 feeding off the roots of trees. 218 00:20:28,739 --> 00:20:33,143 Periodicals come out in different broods every 13, 17 years, 219 00:20:33,277 --> 00:20:36,580 so this batch is coming out in a very different world. 220 00:20:36,714 --> 00:20:39,616 It's actually an all male forest. 221 00:20:39,751 --> 00:20:42,153 Occasionally some even have blue eyes. 222 00:20:42,287 --> 00:20:43,788 Sign me up. 223 00:20:43,922 --> 00:20:45,189 I have some reports of folks 224 00:20:45,323 --> 00:20:47,692 finding them under flat rocks over the last week 225 00:20:47,825 --> 00:20:49,660 so they're definitely near the surface, 226 00:20:49,794 --> 00:20:52,096 but it's still not warm enough for them to emerge yet. 227 00:21:21,459 --> 00:21:22,929 Is this the new one? 228 00:21:23,063 --> 00:21:23,997 Yeah. 229 00:21:24,831 --> 00:21:26,333 You know they say art is never finished 230 00:21:26,498 --> 00:21:27,834 it's just abandoned. 231 00:21:28,735 --> 00:21:30,337 I spent eight months painting this. 232 00:21:31,338 --> 00:21:33,639 My daughter didn't like it so I brought it here. 233 00:21:35,308 --> 00:21:36,943 Doc, I'm still getting the nausea. 234 00:21:37,077 --> 00:21:40,847 - Mm-hmm. - Last week, I just, 235 00:21:40,981 --> 00:21:42,749 something got stuck in my throat. 236 00:21:42,882 --> 00:21:45,085 Like my throat just locked up. 237 00:21:45,218 --> 00:21:50,557 Well, that's simple, don't eat. 238 00:21:51,558 --> 00:21:54,095 No, no, no, no, eating is important. 239 00:21:54,228 --> 00:21:56,097 It gives us energy to go on dates. 240 00:21:59,433 --> 00:22:00,901 Listen, Doc, I just- 241 00:22:01,035 --> 00:22:03,971 - Dysphasia can be serious, Ben. 242 00:22:04,105 --> 00:22:07,507 It can be anything from a mass in your throat to MS. 243 00:22:07,640 --> 00:22:09,043 - How long- - MS? 244 00:22:12,180 --> 00:22:13,215 Stop. 245 00:22:13,348 --> 00:22:15,283 - Come on. - Stop. 246 00:22:16,451 --> 00:22:21,522 Ooh, I can't wait until we're behind closed doors later. 247 00:22:22,758 --> 00:22:24,893 Just gonna bend you over, pull back your hair, 248 00:22:25,027 --> 00:22:27,062 and hold your hand so good. 249 00:22:27,195 --> 00:22:30,232 It's not 'cause we're in public, it's just not my thing. 250 00:22:32,267 --> 00:22:33,634 Holding hands? 251 00:22:34,971 --> 00:22:37,073 So I still don't get it, what do you do? 252 00:22:38,074 --> 00:22:41,044 Data tech, you sort through big data, 253 00:22:42,011 --> 00:22:44,947 everything from TV networks to government. 254 00:22:45,982 --> 00:22:48,084 Sort of helped take down Osama bin Laden. 255 00:22:52,288 --> 00:22:53,189 Wait, what? 256 00:22:54,390 --> 00:22:55,291 Were you a fan? 257 00:22:58,227 --> 00:22:59,296 Samuel. 258 00:22:59,430 --> 00:23:00,330 Benjamin. 259 00:23:03,434 --> 00:23:05,202 I'm just a simple country boy. 260 00:23:05,335 --> 00:23:07,004 I paint apartments for Upper East Side DILFs, 261 00:23:07,137 --> 00:23:10,874 I didn't know I was dating Tomb Raider. 262 00:23:13,977 --> 00:23:15,879 For the record I'm very turned on. 263 00:23:16,013 --> 00:23:16,914 Oh. 264 00:23:20,717 --> 00:23:23,088 What happened to your arm? 265 00:23:27,058 --> 00:23:28,860 I get tested every few months. 266 00:23:29,894 --> 00:23:32,497 Oh, now I'm turned on. 267 00:23:32,629 --> 00:23:33,731 Oh, yeah? 268 00:23:34,899 --> 00:23:39,838 I get every test in the books, litmus, ultrasound. 269 00:23:40,271 --> 00:23:41,172 Talk dirty. 270 00:23:43,274 --> 00:23:44,976 Centrifuge. 271 00:23:45,110 --> 00:23:46,010 PPO. 272 00:23:47,012 --> 00:23:49,281 Pre-exposure prophylaxis. 273 00:23:49,415 --> 00:23:50,316 Negative? 274 00:23:51,317 --> 00:23:52,351 Negative. 275 00:24:00,025 --> 00:24:01,227 I hate fireworks. 276 00:24:01,360 --> 00:24:02,728 The sound of freedom. 277 00:24:02,862 --> 00:24:03,963 Whose freedom? 278 00:24:04,830 --> 00:24:06,565 They're not fireworks, they're sparklers. 279 00:24:06,699 --> 00:24:07,833 How do I hold it? 280 00:24:08,633 --> 00:24:10,169 You gotta bend over. 281 00:24:12,005 --> 00:24:13,507 Oh, you got a dud. 282 00:24:13,672 --> 00:24:15,242 You're a dud. 283 00:24:15,375 --> 00:24:16,409 You're a dud. 284 00:24:16,543 --> 00:24:17,544 - Look at this. - You're a dud. 285 00:24:17,676 --> 00:24:18,644 - You're a dud. - You're a dud. 286 00:24:18,778 --> 00:24:20,046 Ha, you're a dud. 287 00:24:22,315 --> 00:24:24,417 You're a sicky. 288 00:24:41,135 --> 00:24:43,037 The neighbors are watching. 289 00:25:20,108 --> 00:25:21,310 Oh, fuck. 290 00:25:21,443 --> 00:25:22,411 - Oh, shit. - What? 291 00:25:22,545 --> 00:25:23,746 - Shit. - Oh. 292 00:25:37,994 --> 00:25:40,129 Mm, mm, taste like cum. 293 00:25:42,232 --> 00:25:44,267 - You're so gross. - Mm, mm, mm. 294 00:25:49,273 --> 00:25:51,842 Hey, have you, have you seen my good underwear? 295 00:25:52,576 --> 00:25:54,144 I can't find my good underwear. 296 00:25:54,278 --> 00:25:56,747 You only have one pair? 297 00:26:01,051 --> 00:26:02,253 You know it's funny, 298 00:26:02,386 --> 00:26:05,456 I never had this problem with women. 299 00:26:08,058 --> 00:26:09,159 What problem? 300 00:26:16,968 --> 00:26:18,403 This is your good underwear? 301 00:26:20,205 --> 00:26:21,106 Sam. 302 00:26:22,474 --> 00:26:24,509 Uh. 303 00:26:32,117 --> 00:26:33,385 Are you seeing someone? 304 00:26:40,660 --> 00:26:41,560 You're glowing. 305 00:26:43,629 --> 00:26:45,331 You're pregnant with glow. 306 00:26:47,099 --> 00:26:48,601 You're practically dilated. 307 00:26:50,836 --> 00:26:52,138 Are your nipples sore? 308 00:26:53,606 --> 00:26:55,808 Are your nipples sore? 309 00:26:55,941 --> 00:26:57,243 What's his name? 310 00:26:57,376 --> 00:26:58,144 What's his name? 311 00:26:58,277 --> 00:27:01,114 Sam, Sam, he's name's Sam. 312 00:27:01,248 --> 00:27:02,349 Jesus. 313 00:27:04,885 --> 00:27:07,921 Well, I thought I'd never see you this happy again, 314 00:27:09,757 --> 00:27:11,291 and with a man. 315 00:27:18,665 --> 00:27:20,100 Hey, Mr. Deperalta. 316 00:27:20,233 --> 00:27:23,271 Oh, don't be silly, Benjamin, call me Bo. 317 00:27:23,404 --> 00:27:28,609 Benny and Bo, two lonely bees in their tight tees. 318 00:27:32,547 --> 00:27:34,482 You know I just got these imported. 319 00:27:35,751 --> 00:27:38,319 Real horse hair, the brushes. 320 00:27:39,253 --> 00:27:43,624 Indigenous Clydesdale from Connecticut. 321 00:27:45,259 --> 00:27:46,160 Cool. 322 00:27:47,363 --> 00:27:50,032 I just hope they're thick enough to get the job done. 323 00:27:57,072 --> 00:28:01,076 It's just a shame about this balloon knot color. 324 00:28:01,210 --> 00:28:02,411 I wish it was pinker. 325 00:28:05,815 --> 00:28:07,082 Isn't this fun? 326 00:28:12,255 --> 00:28:14,357 What's your earliest memory? 327 00:28:18,695 --> 00:28:23,333 One of my earliest memories, I was running, 328 00:28:25,168 --> 00:28:28,505 I was running in my backyard totally naked. 329 00:28:30,340 --> 00:28:31,641 No one could catch me. 330 00:28:36,647 --> 00:28:37,548 What about you? 331 00:28:42,319 --> 00:28:44,455 I was singing on my grandma's porch, 332 00:28:46,524 --> 00:28:48,659 felt like the whole town could hear me. 333 00:29:29,268 --> 00:29:31,504 When was your first time? 334 00:29:32,739 --> 00:29:33,639 With a man? 335 00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:35,541 Yeah. 336 00:29:37,543 --> 00:29:39,345 I thought I told you this. 337 00:29:40,646 --> 00:29:41,547 No. 338 00:29:49,022 --> 00:29:51,558 I was uh, at homecoming, 339 00:29:52,493 --> 00:29:57,531 and I passed out under the bleachers. 340 00:30:03,170 --> 00:30:05,339 Had to take a cab the next morning 'cause- 341 00:30:05,472 --> 00:30:08,542 - You broke curfew, that's the "The Virgin Suicides". 342 00:30:09,676 --> 00:30:10,177 Tell me about it. 343 00:30:10,311 --> 00:30:11,679 No, the movie. 344 00:30:13,681 --> 00:30:15,583 You know "The Virgin Suicides"? 345 00:30:15,718 --> 00:30:17,585 Well, who was your first man kiss? 346 00:30:19,020 --> 00:30:20,622 Why are you being so coy? 347 00:30:21,656 --> 00:30:23,893 I don't understand why this is such a big deal? 348 00:30:24,025 --> 00:30:25,393 You tell me. 349 00:30:29,664 --> 00:30:31,299 When was yours? 350 00:30:34,003 --> 00:30:35,604 I was in college. 351 00:30:39,174 --> 00:30:41,443 It happened under a tree. 352 00:30:42,511 --> 00:30:45,347 I, I shit on his dick and cried. 353 00:30:48,752 --> 00:30:49,652 Your turn. 354 00:30:56,993 --> 00:30:58,127 That's good, 355 00:30:58,261 --> 00:31:00,597 - that's real good. - Okay, okay. 356 00:31:02,767 --> 00:31:03,834 What about you? 357 00:31:15,780 --> 00:31:16,680 Ben. 358 00:31:27,726 --> 00:31:29,093 I was young. 359 00:31:35,600 --> 00:31:36,500 Oh. 360 00:31:42,774 --> 00:31:46,545 I'm sorry. 361 00:31:46,678 --> 00:31:47,579 I'm sorry. 362 00:31:49,448 --> 00:31:50,482 - I'm sorry, I, I didn't- - It's okay. 363 00:31:50,616 --> 00:31:52,852 - Mean to pry. - It's okay. 364 00:31:56,022 --> 00:31:58,357 Do you wanna talk about? 365 00:32:02,594 --> 00:32:04,696 When you shit on his dick did you do it on purpose? 366 00:32:04,831 --> 00:32:05,732 Come on. 367 00:32:06,632 --> 00:32:08,533 Everything has to be a joke. 368 00:32:14,273 --> 00:32:17,577 You can talk to me, I'll listen. 369 00:32:21,147 --> 00:32:22,315 I'm here for you. 370 00:33:49,306 --> 00:33:51,274 What'd you do today? 371 00:33:51,408 --> 00:33:52,777 How was school? 372 00:33:53,610 --> 00:33:55,947 Tell me everything. 373 00:33:56,080 --> 00:33:56,981 Ben. 374 00:33:57,949 --> 00:33:58,850 Benjamin. 375 00:33:59,951 --> 00:34:00,852 Benjamin. 376 00:34:02,186 --> 00:34:02,954 Benjamin. 377 00:34:36,655 --> 00:34:38,992 What were you gonna tell me? 378 00:34:50,904 --> 00:34:52,404 Okay. 379 00:35:07,654 --> 00:35:09,757 We have to take the climbing tree out. 380 00:35:11,192 --> 00:35:13,994 It'll fill in though, and you'll forget all about it. 381 00:35:15,763 --> 00:35:17,898 Nature has a way of erasing. 382 00:35:19,133 --> 00:35:21,035 Amber, please don't fall and break your foot again. 383 00:35:21,168 --> 00:35:22,670 Help, Mommy. 384 00:35:27,175 --> 00:35:28,109 You're doing great. 385 00:35:28,243 --> 00:35:31,079 Oh, okay, all right, all right. 386 00:35:32,180 --> 00:35:33,514 You really wanna start? 387 00:36:08,784 --> 00:36:09,886 Do you really have to go? 388 00:36:10,020 --> 00:36:11,021 Yeah, Mom. 389 00:36:14,858 --> 00:36:16,226 Let's do the beach next week. 390 00:36:16,360 --> 00:36:19,763 All right, we'll go Robert Moses like the old days. 391 00:36:19,897 --> 00:36:22,065 Don't let get too long, okay? 392 00:36:22,199 --> 00:36:23,532 Don't, don't do that thing 393 00:36:23,666 --> 00:36:25,335 where we don't see each other. 394 00:36:25,468 --> 00:36:27,838 Don't let it get to Christmas, okay? 395 00:36:29,472 --> 00:36:30,573 Okay? 396 00:36:53,697 --> 00:36:57,937 ♪ Everybody plays the fool sometimes ♪ 397 00:36:58,070 --> 00:37:01,340 ♪ There's no exception to the rule ♪ 398 00:37:02,908 --> 00:37:07,046 ♪ Listen, everybody plays the fool ♪ 399 00:37:07,179 --> 00:37:08,080 Sam! 400 00:37:09,949 --> 00:37:11,616 What are you doing here? 401 00:37:12,952 --> 00:37:14,186 I waited for like an hour, 402 00:37:14,320 --> 00:37:16,021 I thought you were raiding more tombs. 403 00:37:38,711 --> 00:37:39,645 I gotta go to San Francisco 404 00:37:39,779 --> 00:37:41,748 for a couple days, I gotta pack. 405 00:37:41,881 --> 00:37:46,320 Okay, I get it, gotta go to San Francisco. 406 00:37:46,454 --> 00:37:47,755 You gotta escape. 407 00:37:48,990 --> 00:37:51,993 Listen, I'm the only black guy at work, 408 00:37:52,126 --> 00:37:53,995 and it's hard enough being the only black guy let alone gay 409 00:37:54,128 --> 00:37:55,562 so you can't just show up at my work. 410 00:37:55,695 --> 00:37:58,232 I get it, you're the only black guy 411 00:37:58,366 --> 00:38:00,234 who can't be a faggot in public. 412 00:38:03,337 --> 00:38:04,739 I never should of told you. 413 00:38:04,872 --> 00:38:06,173 It's not about that. 414 00:38:10,912 --> 00:38:12,513 Listen, I don't understand. 415 00:38:12,646 --> 00:38:15,117 I don't know why I can't bring my boyfriend flowers at work. 416 00:38:15,250 --> 00:38:16,151 What? 417 00:38:21,023 --> 00:38:23,759 - Come on. - This is moving too fast. 418 00:38:24,860 --> 00:38:27,062 This is moving too fast. 419 00:38:36,005 --> 00:38:38,941 Every 17 years they come up just to mate, 420 00:38:39,075 --> 00:38:41,444 then they die, then their offspring 421 00:38:41,610 --> 00:38:43,079 bury themselves underground, 422 00:38:43,212 --> 00:38:45,181 and they live off the tree sap and. 423 00:38:46,816 --> 00:38:48,251 Discrepancies in assistant coach 424 00:38:48,384 --> 00:38:51,154 Michael McQueary own testimony have aroused suspicion. 425 00:38:51,287 --> 00:38:52,789 And some believe it may throw a wrench 426 00:38:52,922 --> 00:38:54,957 in the proceedings of the case. 427 00:38:55,091 --> 00:38:57,928 Originally McQueary claimed to have witnessed Sandusky 428 00:38:58,062 --> 00:38:59,329 fondling a 10-year-old boy 429 00:38:59,463 --> 00:39:03,767 in an on campus locker room March, 2002, 430 00:39:03,901 --> 00:39:05,568 but prosecutors now claim the abuse 431 00:39:05,701 --> 00:39:08,571 took place in February 2001. 432 00:39:08,704 --> 00:39:09,940 Look McQueary can no longer 433 00:39:10,074 --> 00:39:11,909 be considered a valid witness. 434 00:39:12,042 --> 00:39:13,643 What juror isn't going to question 435 00:39:13,777 --> 00:39:15,245 the memory of a man over a year. 436 00:39:29,094 --> 00:39:30,361 What are you doing? 437 00:39:31,628 --> 00:39:32,764 I got locked out. 438 00:39:40,105 --> 00:39:41,705 You're gonna miss your flight. 439 00:39:43,208 --> 00:39:44,142 I'm not going. 440 00:40:05,731 --> 00:40:11,138 Told them, "I had an emergency, my boyfriend went missing." 441 00:40:14,941 --> 00:40:17,643 Your boyfriend went missing. 442 00:40:29,990 --> 00:40:32,025 ♪ Pineapples in the morning ♪ 443 00:40:32,159 --> 00:40:34,962 ♪ Sage burning on the lynch ♪ 444 00:40:35,096 --> 00:40:37,165 ♪ Toes touch in the backyard ♪ 445 00:40:37,298 --> 00:40:40,434 ♪ Amen ♪ 446 00:40:40,568 --> 00:40:42,336 ♪ School bus on the corner ♪ 447 00:40:42,470 --> 00:40:43,670 You gotta take me. 448 00:40:43,804 --> 00:40:45,339 Hold up, you know I can't dribble. 449 00:40:45,473 --> 00:40:48,342 ♪ Wonder where they're gonna touch down and when ♪ 450 00:40:48,476 --> 00:40:49,243 Why not? 451 00:40:49,377 --> 00:40:50,044 No one's watching. 452 00:40:50,178 --> 00:40:51,078 ♪ I ain't gotta ♪ 453 00:40:51,212 --> 00:40:52,647 Why you always touching? 454 00:40:52,780 --> 00:40:54,415 I don't understand. 455 00:40:55,483 --> 00:41:00,255 ♪ Might just take me a bath today ♪ 456 00:41:00,389 --> 00:41:05,594 ♪ Soap up till I'm brand new ♪ 457 00:41:06,295 --> 00:41:08,797 ♪ Zone out too, kinda blue ♪ 458 00:41:10,966 --> 00:41:15,003 ♪ I feel like I'm really living ♪ 459 00:41:15,137 --> 00:41:20,242 ♪ Ooh, I feel like I'm really giving ♪ 460 00:41:21,076 --> 00:41:26,282 ♪ Making my own decisions ♪ 461 00:41:27,183 --> 00:41:31,120 ♪ Pray to my own religion ♪ 462 00:41:31,254 --> 00:41:36,459 ♪ I feel like I might be dying ♪ 463 00:41:37,260 --> 00:41:39,262 ♪ Still ain't no harm in trying ♪ 464 00:41:39,395 --> 00:41:42,098 ♪ I feel like I'm really giving ♪ 465 00:41:42,232 --> 00:41:47,238 ♪ Making my own decisions ♪ 466 00:41:48,138 --> 00:41:51,008 ♪ Pray to my own religion ♪ 467 00:41:55,246 --> 00:41:57,248 Did she smile when you told her? 468 00:41:59,083 --> 00:42:02,286 I don't know, it was on the phone. 469 00:42:04,788 --> 00:42:05,889 I think so. 470 00:42:10,161 --> 00:42:12,130 Did you tell her I was black? 471 00:42:15,533 --> 00:42:16,434 Yeah. 472 00:42:25,710 --> 00:42:29,948 I was coming home from the bar, it was late. 473 00:42:33,051 --> 00:42:34,387 I don't even know why I went to the bar, 474 00:42:34,520 --> 00:42:36,522 I don't like gay bars, 475 00:42:37,523 --> 00:42:42,561 but a few hours go by, and I'm drunk, 476 00:42:43,796 --> 00:42:48,467 and tired of white dudes ignoring me, so I go home. 477 00:42:51,937 --> 00:42:53,939 When I'm at the station I see this dude, 478 00:42:54,073 --> 00:42:58,011 this beautiful Latino dude. 479 00:42:59,313 --> 00:43:03,950 He notices me, and I wink, and he smiles, 480 00:43:04,084 --> 00:43:06,820 and I walk over to him, and I give him my number. 481 00:43:08,355 --> 00:43:11,258 When he leans in he kisses me right there. 482 00:43:12,159 --> 00:43:13,393 This is before I met you. 483 00:43:16,630 --> 00:43:17,864 Now in the corner of my eye 484 00:43:17,998 --> 00:43:21,201 I can see this old white lady frowning, 485 00:43:22,437 --> 00:43:25,139 and so I pull him closer, and we make out hard 486 00:43:25,273 --> 00:43:27,375 right there until my train comes. 487 00:43:29,577 --> 00:43:32,513 I was geek the whole way home. 488 00:43:32,647 --> 00:43:34,849 You know I never do stuff like that. 489 00:43:38,186 --> 00:43:42,123 And I'm walking back, and this silver car pulls up, 490 00:43:43,759 --> 00:43:45,961 and he lays down, rolls down his window, 491 00:43:46,095 --> 00:43:50,399 and he, he says, "Where's the party at?" 492 00:43:51,433 --> 00:43:53,202 At first I thought he was trying to hit on me, 493 00:43:53,335 --> 00:43:56,538 you know like I was gonna quip with something funny, 494 00:43:56,672 --> 00:43:59,274 and feeling myself after that kiss, you know. 495 00:44:00,376 --> 00:44:01,276 And um, 496 00:44:07,516 --> 00:44:08,417 he shot me, 497 00:44:12,389 --> 00:44:17,427 he shot me, and I'm just laying there, and he drives off. 498 00:44:18,495 --> 00:44:20,196 And I'm thinking, God, please don't let me go out like this, 499 00:44:20,330 --> 00:44:23,299 like this is the most cliche boys in the hood 500 00:44:23,433 --> 00:44:28,438 way to go out, and I'm thinking about the bar, 501 00:44:29,406 --> 00:44:32,208 and the station, and kissing that dude, 502 00:44:32,342 --> 00:44:35,446 and I just wish none of that shit ever happened, you know. 503 00:44:39,083 --> 00:44:42,888 The craziest part is I actually 504 00:44:43,020 --> 00:44:44,989 thought he was trying to hit on me, 505 00:44:49,627 --> 00:44:50,528 like he wanted me, 506 00:44:58,805 --> 00:45:00,205 somebody wanted me. 507 00:46:12,480 --> 00:46:14,148 You should tell your dad. 508 00:46:14,282 --> 00:46:15,617 Tell him what? 509 00:46:15,751 --> 00:46:17,185 You know. 510 00:46:18,586 --> 00:46:19,587 Nah. 511 00:46:21,891 --> 00:46:23,157 Ooh. 512 00:46:23,291 --> 00:46:25,895 You'll feel real, trust me. 513 00:46:26,027 --> 00:46:27,262 It feels good. 514 00:46:27,395 --> 00:46:28,663 Transparency feels good. 515 00:46:28,797 --> 00:46:29,731 Tell his pastor. 516 00:46:33,435 --> 00:46:34,570 Old people change. 517 00:46:35,538 --> 00:46:37,072 Ben, I grew up in a church, 518 00:46:37,206 --> 00:46:38,741 I can't just tell my dad, 519 00:46:38,875 --> 00:46:41,277 hey, I'm fucking this dude, he's coming over for dinner. 520 00:46:48,350 --> 00:46:50,452 Whoa, whoa, whoa, easy tiger. 521 00:46:50,586 --> 00:46:53,155 Hey, listen, just be cool, okay? 522 00:46:53,289 --> 00:46:56,692 Don't look at me like, you know he's very. 523 00:46:56,826 --> 00:46:57,727 Perceptive. 524 00:46:58,728 --> 00:46:59,529 Obviously not. 525 00:46:59,663 --> 00:47:02,198 - Ben. - Come on, come on. 526 00:47:03,633 --> 00:47:05,068 Listen, bro, let's just get this over with 527 00:47:05,201 --> 00:47:07,370 so we can go pound some puss, all right? 528 00:47:08,204 --> 00:47:09,306 Thank you. 529 00:47:10,407 --> 00:47:13,643 Whoa, whoa, whoa, no homo. 530 00:47:13,778 --> 00:47:15,645 Whoa, wait, I'm nervous. 531 00:47:27,960 --> 00:47:30,394 - Sammy Davis Jr in the flesh. - What's up, old man? 532 00:47:30,528 --> 00:47:33,731 Look at you. 533 00:47:33,865 --> 00:47:36,969 Ah, the women at church gonna have to say 10 Hail Mary's. 534 00:47:37,101 --> 00:47:39,470 You know if came back you'd be the second coming. 535 00:47:39,604 --> 00:47:40,872 It's too far, Pops. 536 00:47:41,006 --> 00:47:43,107 Oh, you'd have to wash a lot of feet. 537 00:47:43,240 --> 00:47:45,577 But you know I hear some people are into that kind of thing. 538 00:47:47,245 --> 00:47:50,049 All right, Dad, this is Ben. 539 00:47:50,182 --> 00:47:51,784 Hey, good to meet ya. 540 00:47:51,918 --> 00:47:54,186 Hi, Ben. 541 00:47:54,921 --> 00:47:57,422 How ya doing? 542 00:47:57,556 --> 00:47:58,657 Uh, uh come on in. 543 00:48:05,597 --> 00:48:08,067 No, no, no, you have a seat, Benjamin. 544 00:48:08,200 --> 00:48:09,302 We got this. 545 00:48:15,109 --> 00:48:17,644 So Benjamin, you work with Sam? 546 00:48:18,711 --> 00:48:21,414 No, we uh, we just live in the same neighborhood. 547 00:48:22,816 --> 00:48:23,683 Same neighborhood. 548 00:48:24,852 --> 00:48:27,888 Sam, you better watch out, he tried to get you out. 549 00:48:31,591 --> 00:48:34,194 All they need to rape and pillage 550 00:48:34,328 --> 00:48:36,263 these days is a juice bar. 551 00:48:38,599 --> 00:48:40,734 Black man gets thrown out with the pulp. 552 00:48:40,869 --> 00:48:42,202 Pops. 553 00:48:42,336 --> 00:48:46,607 My day all they needed was boombox and Captain and Tennille. 554 00:48:48,109 --> 00:48:50,145 Love doesn't keep us together. 555 00:48:50,277 --> 00:48:55,050 Ribs keep us together. 556 00:48:55,182 --> 00:48:56,417 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 557 00:48:56,550 --> 00:48:57,585 - Better watch out. - How ya feeling? 558 00:48:57,719 --> 00:48:58,520 How ya feeling? 559 00:48:58,653 --> 00:49:00,156 Still kicking, still ticking. 560 00:49:00,288 --> 00:49:01,289 - Yeah, come on, come on. - Better than you, old man. 561 00:49:01,423 --> 00:49:03,558 Yeah, yeah. 562 00:49:06,028 --> 00:49:07,328 It's so nice that 563 00:49:07,462 --> 00:49:10,498 uh, Captain and Tennille are still together. 564 00:49:11,767 --> 00:49:12,701 What? 565 00:49:15,336 --> 00:49:18,606 So uh, where'd you grow up, Benjamin? 566 00:49:19,809 --> 00:49:20,709 Long Island. 567 00:49:21,644 --> 00:49:23,746 Still working with the speech coach. 568 00:49:23,880 --> 00:49:27,818 Sausage and meatballs, sausage and meatballs, 569 00:49:27,951 --> 00:49:30,720 sausage and meatballs. 570 00:49:31,822 --> 00:49:34,223 Huh, yeah. 571 00:49:35,458 --> 00:49:38,527 Long Island's got some great parishes. 572 00:49:38,661 --> 00:49:40,797 You go church for Sam? 573 00:49:40,931 --> 00:49:41,630 Uh. 574 00:49:41,765 --> 00:49:42,732 No. 575 00:49:44,433 --> 00:49:47,905 I went to an episcopal church though growing up. 576 00:49:48,039 --> 00:49:49,740 Yeah, Bible camp. 577 00:49:49,874 --> 00:49:52,743 Huh, that's a great kind of camp. 578 00:49:55,146 --> 00:49:56,246 Yeah. 579 00:49:57,681 --> 00:49:59,917 For a talent show this one year 580 00:50:00,051 --> 00:50:02,285 "Who Let the Dogs Out" was pretty big. 581 00:50:02,419 --> 00:50:03,955 Remember that song "Who Let the Dogs Out"? 582 00:50:04,088 --> 00:50:08,258 So we did who let the Lord in instead. 583 00:50:08,391 --> 00:50:09,627 So it was like. 584 00:50:09,762 --> 00:50:11,864 ♪ Who let the Lord in ♪ 585 00:50:11,997 --> 00:50:13,498 Me, me, I did it. 586 00:50:16,334 --> 00:50:17,770 That's good, that's good. 587 00:50:18,603 --> 00:50:20,571 Who let the Lord in? 588 00:50:20,705 --> 00:50:22,673 ♪ Who let the Lord in me ♪ 589 00:50:22,808 --> 00:50:24,575 - Oh, you got him started. - Me, I did it. 590 00:50:24,709 --> 00:50:27,311 That's good, that's good. 591 00:50:29,614 --> 00:50:32,785 This one's a keeper, Sam. 592 00:50:35,855 --> 00:50:37,056 We begin this half hour 593 00:50:37,190 --> 00:50:38,323 with the sex abuse trial 594 00:50:38,457 --> 00:50:39,826 - of Jerry Sandusky. - Who? 595 00:50:39,959 --> 00:50:41,560 He was some guy that was dressed up like- 596 00:50:41,693 --> 00:50:43,163 - Sandusky's attorney Joe Amendola 597 00:50:43,295 --> 00:50:45,832 has been hammering away at one victim's credibility. 598 00:50:45,965 --> 00:50:48,600 Asking why, "He stayed quiet for so long 599 00:50:48,734 --> 00:50:51,104 while he continued to play on the team." 600 00:50:51,237 --> 00:50:52,471 Extra points. 601 00:50:52,604 --> 00:50:53,539 His mother was heard crying 602 00:50:53,672 --> 00:50:55,208 from the back of the courtroom. 603 00:50:58,279 --> 00:50:59,180 Cream. 604 00:50:59,312 --> 00:51:00,147 No, I'm good, I'm good. 605 00:51:00,281 --> 00:51:01,347 No, thank you. 606 00:51:06,653 --> 00:51:10,991 You know this whole Jerry Sandusky, 607 00:51:13,828 --> 00:51:15,830 got more kids coming out every day. 608 00:51:20,801 --> 00:51:22,703 And how many of those boys were black? 609 00:51:22,838 --> 00:51:24,306 No one talks about that, Sam. 610 00:51:24,438 --> 00:51:25,774 Come on, Dad. 611 00:51:25,907 --> 00:51:29,476 People ask questions what's taking so long. 612 00:51:29,610 --> 00:51:31,612 Principal didn't believe those kids. 613 00:51:31,745 --> 00:51:35,083 Took a half dozen for them to even question Jerry. 614 00:51:36,517 --> 00:51:39,788 Half these kids' fathers didn't believe them. 615 00:51:40,856 --> 00:51:42,356 Can you believe that, Sam? 616 00:51:55,570 --> 00:51:58,573 Have you ever talked to someone? 617 00:52:00,709 --> 00:52:03,112 What do you mean? 618 00:52:03,246 --> 00:52:04,814 Like a therapist? 619 00:52:05,680 --> 00:52:06,782 Uh, yeah. 620 00:52:08,750 --> 00:52:10,486 What is that supposed to mean? 621 00:52:14,523 --> 00:52:15,959 I got a headache. 622 00:52:32,910 --> 00:52:34,279 Therapist don't have all the answers, Ben, 623 00:52:34,913 --> 00:52:38,615 but we certainly do try. 624 00:52:38,749 --> 00:52:41,185 Oh, Klonopin, she such a bitch. 625 00:52:41,319 --> 00:52:45,390 I mean she has a penis but her heart is female. 626 00:52:45,522 --> 00:52:46,824 Aren't you? 627 00:52:46,958 --> 00:52:47,926 Aren't you? 628 00:52:48,793 --> 00:52:50,094 I need to, we're gonna work now. 629 00:52:50,228 --> 00:52:51,796 Okay, let's focus. 630 00:52:51,930 --> 00:52:55,666 I'm so glad I found someone in my network. 631 00:52:55,800 --> 00:52:56,834 You're super affordable. 632 00:52:56,969 --> 00:52:59,671 Oh, yeah, tell me about it. 633 00:52:59,805 --> 00:53:03,108 The new company fucked me big time. 634 00:53:03,242 --> 00:53:05,978 A real shocker, two in the pink, one in the shrink. 635 00:53:07,413 --> 00:53:08,781 What? 636 00:53:08,914 --> 00:53:11,649 You know most therapist are so stuffy, Ben. 637 00:53:11,784 --> 00:53:13,786 You know they, they sit there wanking away. 638 00:53:13,919 --> 00:53:15,788 We don't wank, we listen. 639 00:53:15,921 --> 00:53:17,455 Well, she's deaf, she can't hear, 640 00:53:17,588 --> 00:53:20,725 but I am here and listening. 641 00:53:21,861 --> 00:53:24,965 She's just here sending you some love. 642 00:53:26,800 --> 00:53:29,102 So tell us about you. 643 00:53:29,235 --> 00:53:30,602 The floor is yours. 644 00:53:38,677 --> 00:53:39,779 It's a safe space. 645 00:53:44,616 --> 00:53:45,987 You were born. 646 00:53:51,624 --> 00:53:54,895 I guess it's been a few years 647 00:53:56,931 --> 00:53:58,598 since I tried to tell someone. 648 00:54:01,634 --> 00:54:06,506 And it's like uh, it took forever to get everything out, 649 00:54:07,842 --> 00:54:11,645 and when it finally came it was like uh, 650 00:54:13,382 --> 00:54:16,385 it was like I had cooked this meal, right, 651 00:54:17,651 --> 00:54:22,290 this lifelong meal, and she just shoved it into her mouth, 652 00:54:26,094 --> 00:54:28,030 and shit it out in front of me. 653 00:54:29,998 --> 00:54:31,833 Shit it out in front of you. 654 00:54:31,967 --> 00:54:32,801 So it wasn't satisfying? 655 00:54:32,935 --> 00:54:34,837 It wasn't ceremonious? 656 00:54:36,205 --> 00:54:37,106 - No. - No. 657 00:54:42,912 --> 00:54:44,746 That's just awful. 658 00:54:44,881 --> 00:54:46,115 It's really awful. 659 00:54:48,051 --> 00:54:49,952 It's really, really awful. 660 00:54:50,086 --> 00:54:53,022 You were just a number, that's how you felt, yes? 661 00:54:54,023 --> 00:54:56,826 Okay, well, tell me more about yourself. 662 00:55:01,799 --> 00:55:07,071 Well, I guess, uh, I been in New York for three years now. 663 00:55:09,073 --> 00:55:13,043 I was, I think I was made in New Hampshire, 664 00:55:13,177 --> 00:55:14,812 but I was packaged on Long Island. 665 00:55:24,222 --> 00:55:25,123 Girlfriend? 666 00:55:26,723 --> 00:55:27,826 Boyfriend? 667 00:55:28,893 --> 00:55:29,994 Yeah, yeah. 668 00:55:33,597 --> 00:55:36,935 Yeah, he still won't, he still won't kiss me in public 669 00:55:37,068 --> 00:55:42,107 but he's great, it's great. 670 00:55:43,808 --> 00:55:45,643 Um, how long have you been out? 671 00:55:47,046 --> 00:55:51,117 Um, couple months. 672 00:55:51,250 --> 00:55:52,384 Couple months. 673 00:55:52,518 --> 00:55:54,220 Yeah, I'm a bit of a late bloomer I guess. 674 00:55:54,353 --> 00:55:55,620 Yeah, late bloomer. 675 00:56:04,263 --> 00:56:05,865 I guess my relationship with sex 676 00:56:05,998 --> 00:56:08,134 hasn't always been healthy. 677 00:56:10,070 --> 00:56:14,241 Like uh, sometimes I get this intense nausea. 678 00:56:18,445 --> 00:56:23,850 Up until recently I couldn't, I couldn't be intimate 679 00:56:25,051 --> 00:56:29,156 unless I was drinking, unless I was, unless I was drunk. 680 00:56:31,992 --> 00:56:33,161 Molested? 681 00:56:45,206 --> 00:56:46,107 What? 682 00:56:47,341 --> 00:56:48,242 What? 683 00:57:00,289 --> 00:57:01,190 Yeah. 684 00:57:13,235 --> 00:57:14,937 How was school? 685 00:57:15,871 --> 00:57:17,072 What'd you do today? 686 00:57:18,507 --> 00:57:21,811 Come one, tell me everything, Ben. 687 00:57:24,314 --> 00:57:25,215 Benjamin. 688 00:57:29,919 --> 00:57:31,020 Benjamin. 689 00:57:37,961 --> 00:57:39,028 Benjamin. 690 00:57:50,074 --> 00:57:52,243 Okay, let's see what we got here. 691 00:57:55,446 --> 00:57:56,714 Open your mouth, say ah. 692 00:57:56,847 --> 00:57:58,249 Ah. 693 00:57:58,382 --> 00:57:59,283 Good boy. 694 00:58:03,120 --> 00:58:05,289 It's a fever, I can feel it. 695 00:58:05,422 --> 00:58:06,023 101.2, I think. 696 00:58:06,156 --> 00:58:07,891 You can't feel it. 697 00:58:11,363 --> 00:58:12,964 101.5. 698 00:58:13,098 --> 00:58:16,001 101.5 Lite F-phlegm. 699 00:58:18,336 --> 00:58:19,237 Lite F-phlegm. 700 00:58:20,138 --> 00:58:22,641 Blazing hip hop and RandB classics. 701 00:58:24,776 --> 00:58:26,077 With all the smooth vomit 702 00:58:26,211 --> 00:58:27,812 to get you through the morning commute. 703 00:58:31,116 --> 00:58:33,052 And all these headaches of commercials. 704 00:58:33,185 --> 00:58:35,488 And your favorite irregular heartbeats. 705 00:58:36,722 --> 00:58:40,493 Sit back, relax, and get ready to be inflamed. 706 00:58:42,561 --> 00:58:43,462 ♪ Dahlia ♪ 707 00:58:48,634 --> 00:58:51,103 ♪ Diarrhea ♪ 708 00:58:52,371 --> 00:58:53,306 Hey, Ben. 709 00:58:56,475 --> 00:58:57,377 Yeah. 710 00:58:58,478 --> 00:59:00,314 How long have you been like this? 711 00:59:02,449 --> 00:59:06,820 Seeing doctors you mean? 712 00:59:12,259 --> 00:59:14,161 I don't know like three years. 713 00:59:24,272 --> 00:59:26,207 Hey, what would you do if you were gonna die in a year? 714 00:59:26,341 --> 00:59:27,241 Shut up. 715 00:59:29,410 --> 00:59:30,345 No, come on. 716 00:59:31,446 --> 00:59:33,481 It's gotta be something you've always wanted to do. 717 00:59:34,315 --> 00:59:35,416 You can't say travel. 718 00:59:40,988 --> 00:59:42,090 Sing. 719 00:59:44,058 --> 00:59:45,561 I'd start a band or something. 720 00:59:47,963 --> 00:59:49,398 Yeah, sing. 721 00:59:52,901 --> 00:59:54,002 I like that. 722 00:59:55,003 --> 00:59:56,338 What about you? 723 00:59:56,472 --> 00:59:57,172 I'd travel. 724 00:59:57,306 --> 01:00:01,276 You're stupid. 725 01:00:01,410 --> 01:00:04,513 Ben, you're gonna wear that? 726 01:00:06,248 --> 01:00:07,449 Didn't you just come out 727 01:00:07,583 --> 01:00:08,450 - to your friends? - Okay, okay, okay, 728 01:00:08,585 --> 01:00:09,652 okay, all right. 729 01:00:09,787 --> 01:00:10,720 - You look so beautiful- - Okay, I'll change it. 730 01:00:10,855 --> 01:00:11,721 Baby. 731 01:00:11,856 --> 01:00:12,689 - My little. - Okay. 732 01:00:12,823 --> 01:00:13,990 Natural Fabio. 733 01:00:14,124 --> 01:00:15,658 - Cheers! - Cheers, cheers. 734 01:00:15,793 --> 01:00:17,994 Oh, my god, do you remember him in eighth grade? 735 01:00:18,128 --> 01:00:19,662 He was such an ass fug. 736 01:00:21,197 --> 01:00:22,766 - Yes. - He crashed his mini. 737 01:00:22,899 --> 01:00:25,335 Guys, wait, honestly, 738 01:00:25,468 --> 01:00:27,805 do you know that I fingered his asshole? 739 01:00:27,937 --> 01:00:28,671 Oh, my god, what? 740 01:00:30,073 --> 01:00:31,341 What? 741 01:00:31,474 --> 01:00:32,409 I did. 742 01:00:32,543 --> 01:00:34,078 - I told like a couple- - No way. 743 01:00:34,211 --> 01:00:35,713 People, but it really spread like wildfire. 744 01:00:37,715 --> 01:00:40,751 - Bedroom eyes, right? - Eyes wide open. 745 01:00:44,688 --> 01:00:48,292 Literally sent us New York, Vietnam, Paris, 746 01:00:48,426 --> 01:00:50,428 Saigon, Saigon, Tempe, Tempe. 747 01:00:52,062 --> 01:00:53,664 Sam, where do you live? 748 01:00:53,799 --> 01:00:54,965 Brooklyn. 749 01:00:55,099 --> 01:00:56,333 Oh, cute. 750 01:00:56,467 --> 01:00:58,871 I, it's actually really nice now you guys. 751 01:00:59,004 --> 01:01:00,172 I love going out there. 752 01:01:00,305 --> 01:01:01,306 There's like theater. 753 01:01:01,440 --> 01:01:05,477 Peter, do you still play piano? 754 01:01:05,610 --> 01:01:06,813 Me, no. 755 01:01:06,945 --> 01:01:07,914 - What do you mean no? - No. 756 01:01:08,046 --> 01:01:09,080 - Sam sings. - Ew. 757 01:01:09,681 --> 01:01:11,249 - Oh, no, no, no. - Yes, he does, yes, he does. 758 01:01:11,383 --> 01:01:12,184 - I don't. - Sam. 759 01:01:12,317 --> 01:01:13,853 - No, no. - Sam. 760 01:01:13,985 --> 01:01:15,220 No, no, I don't sing in public. 761 01:01:15,353 --> 01:01:16,254 - Come on. - Please. 762 01:01:16,388 --> 01:01:17,522 - Sam. - Sam. 763 01:01:17,656 --> 01:01:18,256 Sammy. 764 01:01:18,390 --> 01:01:20,526 Sammy, Sammy. 765 01:01:20,660 --> 01:01:22,361 I don't think I can, I can sing something. 766 01:01:22,495 --> 01:01:23,831 - Come on. - Yes, please do. 767 01:01:23,963 --> 01:01:24,997 - It's so good. - Do it. 768 01:01:25,131 --> 01:01:26,432 - It's so good. - Yeah, sure. 769 01:01:26,566 --> 01:01:30,369 - Okay, great. - Oh, my god, what? 770 01:01:30,503 --> 01:01:31,637 What? 771 01:02:00,902 --> 01:02:03,704 ♪ Love, love me do ♪ 772 01:02:03,838 --> 01:02:06,875 ♪ You know I love you ♪ 773 01:02:07,007 --> 01:02:10,044 ♪ I'll always be true ♪ 774 01:02:10,178 --> 01:02:14,782 ♪ So please ♪ 775 01:02:14,917 --> 01:02:17,252 ♪ Love me do ♪ 776 01:02:17,385 --> 01:02:21,289 ♪ Oh, love me do ♪ 777 01:02:21,422 --> 01:02:24,392 ♪ Love, love me do ♪ 778 01:02:24,526 --> 01:02:27,695 ♪ You know I love you ♪ 779 01:02:35,005 --> 01:02:36,539 - Oh, my god. - Yes. 780 01:02:57,962 --> 01:02:59,062 What was that? 781 01:03:05,669 --> 01:03:07,337 You already knew I was uncomfortable. 782 01:03:07,470 --> 01:03:08,438 I don't know any of your friends 783 01:03:08,572 --> 01:03:10,373 and you just put me on the spot. 784 01:03:11,541 --> 01:03:13,577 Sam, you were incredible. 785 01:03:15,378 --> 01:03:16,881 You just told me if you were gonna die you'd sing. 786 01:03:17,014 --> 01:03:18,181 I'm not dying. 787 01:03:22,821 --> 01:03:25,222 Am I the first black guy you ever dated? 788 01:03:26,624 --> 01:03:28,659 No, you're not the first black guy I've been with. 789 01:03:28,794 --> 01:03:31,195 I didn't say been with I said dated. 790 01:03:34,432 --> 01:03:36,835 You have no idea what it's like to be the other. 791 01:03:42,273 --> 01:03:45,477 I'm sorry you felt like the other. 792 01:03:46,445 --> 01:03:48,614 It's not how I felt, I am. 793 01:03:49,748 --> 01:03:52,018 Look if I'm some prop you can use to show your friends 794 01:03:52,150 --> 01:03:53,418 how woke you are, 795 01:03:53,552 --> 01:03:55,420 or that interracial relationships are cool, 796 01:03:55,554 --> 01:03:57,322 or that you're so liberal minded, 797 01:03:57,456 --> 01:04:00,525 or that you're just trying to diversify yourself and. 798 01:04:00,659 --> 01:04:04,763 All right, I'm sorry I wanna hold your hand in public. 799 01:04:04,897 --> 01:04:07,366 I'm sorry I want this relationship to feel real. 800 01:04:07,499 --> 01:04:09,636 Would you date me if I wasn't black? 801 01:04:15,308 --> 01:04:20,647 All right, I haven't seen my friends in six weeks, okay, 802 01:04:22,582 --> 01:04:23,783 and this was the first time they got to meet 803 01:04:23,917 --> 01:04:25,119 - my real boyfriend. - Please don't 804 01:04:25,251 --> 01:04:26,352 play the victim. 805 01:04:31,190 --> 01:04:32,626 Okay, all right. 806 01:04:34,595 --> 01:04:35,696 Listen I'm tired, I don't think 807 01:04:35,830 --> 01:04:37,032 we should sleep together tonight. 808 01:04:37,164 --> 01:04:38,365 Ben. 809 01:04:39,667 --> 01:04:40,869 You know why would we? 810 01:04:41,002 --> 01:04:42,971 Like the audience is gone. 811 01:04:43,104 --> 01:04:44,204 Stop. 812 01:04:45,974 --> 01:04:47,775 The lights are off, the curtains are closed. 813 01:04:47,909 --> 01:04:50,711 You know let's just go back to our dressing rooms. 814 01:04:50,845 --> 01:04:51,745 Fuck off! 815 01:04:52,646 --> 01:04:53,915 I need you to keep your voice down 816 01:04:54,049 --> 01:04:55,150 my roommates are sleeping. 817 01:04:55,282 --> 01:04:56,551 Oh, no, let's wake them up! 818 01:04:56,685 --> 01:04:58,154 I can sing and dance for them too! 819 01:04:58,286 --> 01:04:59,721 You want me to get my symbols? 820 01:05:17,840 --> 01:05:18,740 Hey. 821 01:05:23,880 --> 01:05:24,780 I'm sorry. 822 01:05:38,661 --> 01:05:42,099 You were just trying to tell me how you felt last night 823 01:05:42,231 --> 01:05:45,736 and I should have listen instead of feeling attacked. 824 01:05:48,039 --> 01:05:52,743 And I'm sorry you went through that last night. 825 01:05:56,646 --> 01:05:58,049 Think I, I just got excited 826 01:05:58,182 --> 01:06:02,887 'cause everyone was meeting you for the first time. 827 01:06:03,754 --> 01:06:08,927 And I'm trying to be patient 828 01:06:11,130 --> 01:06:13,966 with you not being out, and I'm sorry. 829 01:07:00,848 --> 01:07:01,916 Wow. 830 01:07:03,349 --> 01:07:04,985 You really outdid yourself. 831 01:07:09,389 --> 01:07:11,357 Look I was doing a lot of thinking 832 01:07:11,491 --> 01:07:13,359 about we talked about last night. 833 01:07:15,029 --> 01:07:15,930 Yeah. 834 01:07:16,563 --> 01:07:18,032 I'm sorry. 835 01:07:18,165 --> 01:07:19,432 No, you don't have to- 836 01:07:19,566 --> 01:07:20,836 - No, I don't want you- - You don't have to. 837 01:07:20,969 --> 01:07:22,103 To feel like this isn't real you know? 838 01:07:22,770 --> 01:07:24,505 'Cause this is real for me. 839 01:07:26,674 --> 01:07:29,510 Try not to care about what the world thinks about us. 840 01:07:30,846 --> 01:07:35,851 Hey, the world doesn't think about us. 841 01:07:38,820 --> 01:07:40,554 Listen, I wanna tell you something. 842 01:07:40,688 --> 01:07:41,990 Yeah, what? 843 01:08:13,257 --> 01:08:14,557 Swear to god. 844 01:08:18,962 --> 01:08:19,897 What? 845 01:08:26,937 --> 01:08:29,806 Yes. 846 01:08:39,549 --> 01:08:40,985 Stop. 847 01:08:41,119 --> 01:08:43,922 My roommate's sleeping we have to whisper. 848 01:08:44,822 --> 01:08:47,191 Okay, I'll be quiet. 849 01:08:47,325 --> 01:08:48,293 Okay. 850 01:08:48,425 --> 01:08:50,028 Hey, I wanna make you breakfast. 851 01:08:50,929 --> 01:08:52,696 Whatcha gonna make? 852 01:08:53,664 --> 01:08:55,333 Wanna make you big and strong. 853 01:08:55,465 --> 01:08:56,801 Oh, yeah. 854 01:08:56,936 --> 01:09:00,571 I'm gonna make you one apple, two pears, 855 01:09:00,705 --> 01:09:04,676 three plums, four strawberries, one salami. 856 01:09:05,677 --> 01:09:08,213 And one nice green leaf. 857 01:09:10,115 --> 01:09:13,052 He is one very hungry caterpillar. 858 01:09:13,185 --> 01:09:14,652 Yes, he is. 859 01:09:14,786 --> 01:09:17,156 Thank you. 860 01:09:17,289 --> 01:09:18,290 You cutie. 861 01:09:23,897 --> 01:09:24,797 What? 862 01:09:47,855 --> 01:09:49,423 Listen, I don't know who you are 863 01:09:49,556 --> 01:09:51,524 or what you've done with my Samuel. 864 01:10:03,371 --> 01:10:04,271 I love you. 865 01:10:09,344 --> 01:10:13,248 You love me? 866 01:10:13,382 --> 01:10:18,586 Do you love me? 867 01:10:19,620 --> 01:10:20,922 I love you. 868 01:10:40,877 --> 01:10:44,213 ♪ Six years old ♪ 869 01:10:44,347 --> 01:10:49,085 ♪ Staring at my nose in the mirror ♪ 870 01:10:49,218 --> 01:10:53,823 ♪ Trying to dip my toes in the mirror ♪ 871 01:10:53,956 --> 01:10:56,860 ♪ Thinking who's that girl ♪ 872 01:10:56,994 --> 01:11:00,831 ♪ And does the mirror world go on forever ♪ 873 01:11:00,964 --> 01:11:04,700 ♪ Calmly you roll ♪ 874 01:11:04,835 --> 01:11:09,440 ♪ Sharpening the knives in the attic ♪ 875 01:11:09,572 --> 01:11:14,344 ♪ Trying to watch cartoons through the static ♪ 876 01:11:14,478 --> 01:11:16,814 ♪ Thinking where am I gonna be ♪ 877 01:11:16,947 --> 01:11:20,584 ♪ If I'm ever 23, oh ♪ 878 01:11:20,717 --> 01:11:23,054 ♪ I'm looking at a life unfold ♪ 879 01:11:23,188 --> 01:11:25,523 ♪ Dreaming of the green and gold ♪ 880 01:11:25,656 --> 01:11:27,959 ♪ Just like the ancient stone ♪ 881 01:11:28,093 --> 01:11:30,661 ♪ Every sunrise I know ♪ 882 01:11:30,794 --> 01:11:33,932 ♪ Those eyes you gave to me ♪ 883 01:11:34,065 --> 01:11:36,267 ♪ That let me see ♪ 884 01:11:36,401 --> 01:11:39,603 ♪ Where I come from ♪ 885 01:11:41,873 --> 01:11:43,943 Know the perpetrator in some way. 886 01:11:44,076 --> 01:11:47,612 68% are abused by a family remember. 887 01:11:47,745 --> 01:11:50,615 Here we are last spring with one of the victims. 888 01:11:50,748 --> 01:11:53,018 I was, I was just really scared, 889 01:11:53,152 --> 01:11:57,722 uh, and I came home after school one day, 890 01:11:57,857 --> 01:11:59,391 and I just, I just told her. 891 01:12:00,159 --> 01:12:03,095 Uh, I didn't know what to do. 892 01:12:04,063 --> 01:12:06,065 I always knew something was wrong, 893 01:12:07,032 --> 01:12:09,668 and then I asked him, I asked him. 894 01:12:11,371 --> 01:12:13,907 I mean I, I had no idea. 895 01:12:14,040 --> 01:12:16,877 He was like a father figure to my son. 896 01:12:17,643 --> 01:12:19,880 He was basically a father, 897 01:12:20,013 --> 01:12:21,314 and he ruined my whole family. 898 01:12:21,448 --> 01:12:22,816 He's ruined us. 899 01:13:17,906 --> 01:13:20,944 All those kids, Sam. 900 01:13:21,077 --> 01:13:23,146 - Those kids. - It's okay. 901 01:13:23,279 --> 01:13:26,182 You think he's gone, but. 902 01:13:27,250 --> 01:13:30,987 I got you, I got you, I got you. 903 01:13:43,466 --> 01:13:47,471 Okay, let's go back to um, what you were saying earlier. 904 01:13:47,605 --> 01:13:50,140 Uh, people automatically judge 905 01:13:50,274 --> 01:13:52,142 when they hear you've been abused. 906 01:13:52,276 --> 01:13:55,778 They think, oh, this kid is damaged, this kid is a liar, 907 01:13:55,913 --> 01:14:00,384 this kid um, is probably going to abuse someone themselves. 908 01:14:02,353 --> 01:14:04,688 But this just isn't the case. 909 01:14:04,822 --> 01:14:07,091 We are finding out that pedophiles 910 01:14:07,224 --> 01:14:10,095 have it innately, like an orientation, 911 01:14:10,228 --> 01:14:12,330 and that children who have been molested 912 01:14:12,464 --> 01:14:17,869 are just more likely to fuck up our relationship. 913 01:14:24,909 --> 01:14:25,844 You know what? 914 01:14:25,977 --> 01:14:29,381 First off fuck child molesters. 915 01:14:29,514 --> 01:14:31,549 Fuck 'em, skull fuck 'em to death. 916 01:14:32,585 --> 01:14:35,187 They acted, let them burn. 917 01:14:36,756 --> 01:14:42,161 You know when you get passed all of the hate and the anger, 918 01:14:45,665 --> 01:14:50,303 you realize that this is a person who is confused. 919 01:14:53,039 --> 01:14:55,808 This person was a kid once too, 920 01:14:55,942 --> 01:14:58,045 and, and, and they need help. 921 01:14:59,379 --> 01:15:03,350 And the more that we help them get help 922 01:15:03,483 --> 01:15:06,320 we help children, right? 923 01:15:08,755 --> 01:15:11,191 Right, right? 924 01:15:11,325 --> 01:15:14,594 So I think that it would be cathartic 925 01:15:14,728 --> 01:15:17,564 for you to um, learn a bit. 926 01:15:17,698 --> 01:15:18,965 Um, listen to this. 927 01:15:19,099 --> 01:15:20,935 It is a really beautiful piece. 928 01:15:21,069 --> 01:15:24,205 This teenager's talking about when she discovered 929 01:15:24,339 --> 01:15:26,074 that she was attracted to children. 930 01:15:26,207 --> 01:15:28,843 It's really fascinating, it's on NPR. 931 01:15:28,976 --> 01:15:30,311 We'll talk about it next week. 932 01:15:31,546 --> 01:15:32,513 Klonopin. 933 01:15:35,183 --> 01:15:39,253 Okay, well, that is all the time we have this week. 934 01:15:39,387 --> 01:15:42,657 Um, you really talked my ear off. 935 01:15:42,790 --> 01:15:45,861 I am not gonna be town for our next session, 936 01:15:45,994 --> 01:15:48,330 but for the time being 937 01:15:48,464 --> 01:15:53,068 I would like you to practice being more open, Ben. 938 01:15:53,202 --> 01:15:56,238 Talk to your friends, talk to strangers, 939 01:15:56,372 --> 01:15:59,208 just tell the world your story. 940 01:16:02,344 --> 01:16:05,013 94 or 5 out at Newark International, 941 01:16:05,147 --> 01:16:07,116 but that front's gonna come through tomorrow night. 942 01:16:07,249 --> 01:16:09,352 And over the weekend it looks perfect. 943 01:16:09,486 --> 01:16:11,020 - Couple of showers- - I was molested. 944 01:16:11,154 --> 01:16:12,422 Upstate New York otherwise uh, 945 01:16:12,555 --> 01:16:14,157 it's just gonna be dry, and cool, and crisp. 946 01:16:14,290 --> 01:16:17,394 Cleveland 62, Buffalo 61 on Saturday. 947 01:16:18,395 --> 01:16:19,929 Yeah, my ex was molested. 948 01:16:22,565 --> 01:16:25,235 She always played the victim, every argument. 949 01:16:29,105 --> 01:16:31,341 She was one the worst people I ever knew. 950 01:16:33,444 --> 01:16:34,311 I don't wanna ugly cry, 951 01:16:34,445 --> 01:16:36,347 no one's even here to see. 952 01:16:41,819 --> 01:16:43,754 I love you, you know that? 953 01:16:43,889 --> 01:16:45,523 I love you. 954 01:16:45,656 --> 01:16:46,957 Why don't we go to Dave and Buster's 955 01:16:47,091 --> 01:16:49,059 - do all the big kid stuff? - Yeah. 956 01:16:49,861 --> 01:16:51,195 Okay, cool, we'll tell everyone you got molested, 957 01:16:51,328 --> 01:16:52,563 - we'll get free drinks. - Yeah. 958 01:16:52,696 --> 01:16:53,597 Yay. 959 01:16:55,600 --> 01:17:00,739 ♪ Can't claim to care, never been reluctant to share ♪ 960 01:17:01,440 --> 01:17:03,308 ♪ Passing out pieces of me ♪ 961 01:17:03,442 --> 01:17:08,180 ♪ Don't you know nothing comes free ♪ 962 01:17:09,781 --> 01:17:10,615 I didn't know what to do. 963 01:17:10,749 --> 01:17:12,050 I couldn't tell anyone. 964 01:17:12,184 --> 01:17:16,188 ♪ Don't know has taken its toll on me ♪ 965 01:17:16,321 --> 01:17:20,293 And when I finally did no one believed me, 966 01:17:21,427 --> 01:17:24,997 so I kept it as a secret for a really long time, 967 01:17:25,131 --> 01:17:26,732 and until this day I still do. 968 01:17:27,700 --> 01:17:31,704 ♪ It's hard to believe what it's made ♪ 969 01:17:31,839 --> 01:17:33,739 So it was your stepdad. 970 01:17:39,645 --> 01:17:43,316 I used to think about him every day, 971 01:17:44,485 --> 01:17:46,286 then it was every other day. 972 01:17:47,988 --> 01:17:53,293 Then I'd wake up drenched in sweat and not know why. 973 01:17:57,598 --> 01:18:02,736 Growing up I'd clean things until my hands were raw. 974 01:18:08,676 --> 01:18:12,046 I brushed my teeth until they bled. 975 01:18:15,951 --> 01:18:18,486 The only thing that made me feel good was joke. 976 01:18:20,890 --> 01:18:23,491 What's the difference between anal and oral? 977 01:18:25,793 --> 01:18:26,694 What? 978 01:18:30,900 --> 01:18:35,504 Oral makes your day, anal makes your whole week. 979 01:18:43,512 --> 01:18:45,381 I had become such a clown 980 01:18:45,514 --> 01:18:50,219 when I finally tried to tell someone they laughed. 981 01:18:57,561 --> 01:19:00,297 It was 13 years inside of me. 982 01:19:08,973 --> 01:19:11,441 I always thought if I ended up with a man 983 01:19:18,281 --> 01:19:20,217 it would mean I lost. 984 01:19:33,731 --> 01:19:35,700 Hey, you think this shirt's too small? 985 01:19:38,003 --> 01:19:39,670 I should of worn the black one. 986 01:19:39,804 --> 01:19:40,839 You look beautiful. 987 01:19:42,173 --> 01:19:43,374 Oh, thanks. 988 01:19:43,508 --> 01:19:44,610 - Hey, sweetie. - Hi. 989 01:19:44,743 --> 01:19:45,644 This is Sam. 990 01:19:47,446 --> 01:19:48,714 - Hi, Sam. - Hey, how's it going? 991 01:19:48,848 --> 01:19:52,085 - Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you. 992 01:19:53,318 --> 01:19:54,519 I didn't get the, the memo. 993 01:19:54,653 --> 01:19:57,422 Ah, yeah, good style. 994 01:19:57,556 --> 01:19:58,156 What? 995 01:19:58,290 --> 01:19:59,424 Oh, the shirts. 996 01:19:59,558 --> 01:20:01,593 You're so handsome, my goodness. 997 01:20:01,727 --> 01:20:03,495 Ben doesn't tell me tell you anything. 998 01:20:03,629 --> 01:20:05,597 Hun, your new son is handsome. 999 01:20:43,270 --> 01:20:45,073 I'm sure he loves you very much. 1000 01:20:45,205 --> 01:20:46,807 He must be proud. 1001 01:20:46,941 --> 01:20:48,242 Yeah. 1002 01:20:48,375 --> 01:20:50,912 Well, I wanna tell him. 1003 01:20:53,614 --> 01:20:57,585 Sometimes a parent knows, Sam, and they're waiting. 1004 01:20:58,486 --> 01:21:01,924 You know they, they love their children so much 1005 01:21:02,058 --> 01:21:03,758 but they hate to see them suffer, 1006 01:21:03,893 --> 01:21:06,661 and they're truly afraid of pushing them away. 1007 01:21:08,563 --> 01:21:11,266 If he really thinks in his heart that you're wrong 1008 01:21:12,068 --> 01:21:13,668 it's moments that like this 1009 01:21:13,802 --> 01:21:15,938 that'll make him rethink what's right. 1010 01:21:21,444 --> 01:21:23,713 I don't have the answers for you, hun, 1011 01:21:23,847 --> 01:21:26,549 but I'm so glad you and Benny have each other. 1012 01:21:43,467 --> 01:21:44,534 - Bye, Sam. - It was meeting you. 1013 01:21:44,668 --> 01:21:46,670 So nice to meet you. 1014 01:21:48,538 --> 01:21:51,042 - Bye. - Buh-bye, Ben. 1015 01:21:51,175 --> 01:21:52,176 - Bye. - Okay. 1016 01:21:52,309 --> 01:21:53,310 - Love you. - Love you too. 1017 01:22:05,489 --> 01:22:07,558 Oh, sorry for the mix up, Ben. 1018 01:22:08,227 --> 01:22:09,427 I had a morning. 1019 01:22:09,560 --> 01:22:12,563 Spilled all the soup into a Coinstar. 1020 01:22:12,697 --> 01:22:13,765 It doesn't want that. 1021 01:22:15,000 --> 01:22:19,337 But uh, you know like that magic coin machine, Ben, 1022 01:22:19,470 --> 01:22:21,907 we need to give our bodies what they want. 1023 01:22:24,575 --> 01:22:26,778 I'm still having problems like swallowing. 1024 01:22:27,880 --> 01:22:31,416 And sometimes when I run it's like uh, 1025 01:22:31,550 --> 01:22:32,852 I lose the connection with my body. 1026 01:22:32,986 --> 01:22:33,887 Oh, I see. 1027 01:22:36,555 --> 01:22:39,758 Like my toe, it's still numb. 1028 01:22:41,094 --> 01:22:42,728 Like it feels dead. 1029 01:22:42,862 --> 01:22:47,332 Yeah, that's all in the chart, bad throat, dead toe. 1030 01:22:48,700 --> 01:22:49,869 You got enough EpiPens? 1031 01:22:57,310 --> 01:22:59,847 It's gonna be great. 1032 01:22:59,980 --> 01:23:00,881 I'm excited. 1033 01:23:03,050 --> 01:23:05,785 So the, how many are gonna be there? 1034 01:23:06,854 --> 01:23:08,055 Six. 1035 01:23:08,189 --> 01:23:09,722 Six, hmm. 1036 01:23:10,858 --> 01:23:13,726 And uh, these are like your closest friends? 1037 01:23:14,929 --> 01:23:15,829 Yep. 1038 01:23:16,796 --> 01:23:18,798 And they're like around our age? 1039 01:23:20,302 --> 01:23:22,037 Look you don't have to go if you don't wanna go. 1040 01:23:22,170 --> 01:23:24,805 Of course I wanna go, of course I wanna go. 1041 01:23:26,740 --> 01:23:28,809 Okay, this means a lot to me. 1042 01:23:38,220 --> 01:23:39,120 Jesus. 1043 01:23:41,722 --> 01:23:43,091 Whoo, that scared me. 1044 01:23:44,861 --> 01:23:45,827 Whoa. 1045 01:23:48,496 --> 01:23:49,598 Sam, you okay? 1046 01:23:50,900 --> 01:23:52,335 - Yeah, I'm fine. - You okay, babe? 1047 01:23:52,467 --> 01:23:53,568 Don't touch me. 1048 01:23:57,639 --> 01:23:59,008 - Babe, babe. - Please. 1049 01:25:13,886 --> 01:25:14,786 God. 1050 01:25:18,123 --> 01:25:19,993 God, if I don't take a dump on someone's chest 1051 01:25:20,126 --> 01:25:22,728 by the end of the night I don't know what I am worth. 1052 01:25:22,862 --> 01:25:23,762 I can't right now. 1053 01:25:23,897 --> 01:25:26,465 Okay, give me a minute. 1054 01:25:26,598 --> 01:25:27,934 Where's Sam? 1055 01:25:29,369 --> 01:25:30,469 At home? 1056 01:25:31,237 --> 01:25:32,471 He's at work. 1057 01:25:32,604 --> 01:25:35,774 You two want a little second agenda. 1058 01:25:36,709 --> 01:25:38,711 Little yellow legal pad and some penmanship 1059 01:25:38,845 --> 01:25:40,746 if you know what I mean. 1060 01:25:40,880 --> 01:25:44,517 I got a, I got a bulletin board with dart. 1061 01:25:46,120 --> 01:25:47,989 Theresa, I'm really not in the mood today. 1062 01:25:48,122 --> 01:25:49,023 Oh. 1063 01:25:53,827 --> 01:25:55,628 I hope everything works out. 1064 01:26:17,518 --> 01:26:18,987 Tell mommy what's going on? 1065 01:26:20,355 --> 01:26:21,256 Come on. 1066 01:26:25,360 --> 01:26:26,261 Benny. 1067 01:26:30,065 --> 01:26:30,966 Ben. 1068 01:26:35,204 --> 01:26:36,005 Ben. 1069 01:26:49,118 --> 01:26:50,019 Hello. 1070 01:26:54,891 --> 01:26:56,060 Yeah, this is Ben. 1071 01:27:02,099 --> 01:27:03,000 Hey, Doc. 1072 01:27:04,902 --> 01:27:06,702 - Ben, hey. - Hey, hey. 1073 01:27:06,836 --> 01:27:08,372 So good phone call today, huh? 1074 01:27:08,505 --> 01:27:09,473 - I texted you. - Yeah. 1075 01:27:09,605 --> 01:27:10,340 You talked to Celia, right? 1076 01:27:10,474 --> 01:27:11,808 - Yeah. - Great. 1077 01:27:11,942 --> 01:27:13,444 Let's go back in though, let's go back in. 1078 01:27:13,576 --> 01:27:15,112 No, no need, we did all the tests, nothing came up. 1079 01:27:15,245 --> 01:27:16,579 You're good. 1080 01:27:16,712 --> 01:27:18,148 Yeah, but, Doc, you know I still have nausea, okay. 1081 01:27:18,282 --> 01:27:19,918 - I still get the headaches. - I understand, 1082 01:27:20,051 --> 01:27:21,386 - but you talked to Celia. - This doesn't come 1083 01:27:21,519 --> 01:27:22,854 - out of nowhere though. - You talked to Celia. 1084 01:27:22,987 --> 01:27:24,456 This doesn't come out of nowhere. 1085 01:27:24,588 --> 01:27:25,789 Doc, I had, I had red marks on my arms you saw that, 1086 01:27:25,924 --> 01:27:26,891 I couldn't invent that. 1087 01:27:27,025 --> 01:27:28,460 I'm not saying you did, Ben. 1088 01:27:28,592 --> 01:27:30,295 I'm just saying that you're fine. 1089 01:27:30,428 --> 01:27:32,030 You should enjoy that news. 1090 01:27:33,331 --> 01:27:34,832 Okay. 1091 01:27:34,966 --> 01:27:38,336 All right, Monday, Monday, you go home now I understand 1092 01:27:38,470 --> 01:27:41,638 but Monday I'll come back in okay, and we can just talk, 1093 01:27:41,772 --> 01:27:43,808 and we get to the bottom of it, okay? 1094 01:27:43,943 --> 01:27:46,112 Have you talked to your mother about this? 1095 01:27:56,288 --> 01:27:59,091 I can't tell you why you're feeling the way you feel, 1096 01:28:00,825 --> 01:28:02,094 I'm just a doctor. 1097 01:28:15,108 --> 01:28:16,176 - Hey. - Hey, how ya doing? 1098 01:28:16,309 --> 01:28:17,810 What's happening, old man? 1099 01:28:17,944 --> 01:28:20,113 Middle of the week, this is a surprise. 1100 01:28:23,816 --> 01:28:24,918 All right. 1101 01:28:26,486 --> 01:28:29,089 Can I sit down for a second? 1102 01:28:29,222 --> 01:28:30,756 Sure, come on. 1103 01:28:32,493 --> 01:28:33,294 You all right? 1104 01:29:34,624 --> 01:29:36,192 I put in extra Tang. 1105 01:29:39,996 --> 01:29:42,432 Tang doesn't go in Long Island iced tea, Ma. 1106 01:29:43,234 --> 01:29:44,935 It goes in mine. 1107 01:29:46,303 --> 01:29:48,038 - Cheers. - Cheers. 1108 01:29:53,310 --> 01:29:54,844 Mmm, delicious. 1109 01:29:55,778 --> 01:29:58,148 Long Island ice teas for astronauts. 1110 01:29:59,250 --> 01:30:02,119 It's crazy how everything's grown in, huh, Benny. 1111 01:30:03,654 --> 01:30:04,989 Little paradise. 1112 01:30:07,292 --> 01:30:09,227 You forget there was even a tree over there. 1113 01:30:09,361 --> 01:30:10,262 Look. 1114 01:30:19,037 --> 01:30:21,273 You wouldn't have remembered unless I told you. 1115 01:30:25,210 --> 01:30:28,113 Thanks for coming out and visiting your old momma. 1116 01:30:28,980 --> 01:30:30,883 She loves seeing her boy. 1117 01:30:38,124 --> 01:30:39,258 You hear them? 1118 01:30:41,160 --> 01:30:43,795 We haven't had a brood like this since. 1119 01:30:43,929 --> 01:30:45,031 '96. 1120 01:30:50,469 --> 01:30:52,338 Your dad didn't have his hernia. 1121 01:30:53,773 --> 01:30:55,275 I had a beautiful perm. 1122 01:30:58,278 --> 01:31:03,383 Cat was, uh '94, very good memory. 1123 01:31:10,724 --> 01:31:13,126 You know they say this batch is special. 1124 01:31:13,894 --> 01:31:15,262 I watched a "TED Talk". 1125 01:31:16,163 --> 01:31:19,000 They only come out every 17 years, so see, 1126 01:31:19,133 --> 01:31:21,302 yeah, you're right, '96. 1127 01:31:23,204 --> 01:31:25,540 Some think it's a survival mechanism. 1128 01:31:27,141 --> 01:31:30,078 The prime numbers prevent their predators 1129 01:31:30,211 --> 01:31:32,013 from knowing their patterns. 1130 01:31:33,448 --> 01:31:35,183 They live underground all their lives 1131 01:31:35,316 --> 01:31:37,485 and then one day they all come out, 1132 01:31:37,618 --> 01:31:41,489 climb up the big trees, spread their wings, 1133 01:31:41,622 --> 01:31:46,261 and play us their little songs, and we listen. 1134 01:31:59,842 --> 01:32:01,110 I just want you to know 1135 01:32:01,243 --> 01:32:03,245 that I love you and Sam so much, Benny. 1136 01:32:04,279 --> 01:32:06,081 You make me very happy. 1137 01:32:09,652 --> 01:32:10,920 I love you too, Ma. 1138 01:32:15,358 --> 01:32:17,961 Hey, how about you and your momma go to the beach tomorrow 1139 01:32:18,094 --> 01:32:19,362 like the old days, huh? 1140 01:32:20,563 --> 01:32:24,167 We'll go to Robert Moses, I'll buy you a snow cone. 1141 01:32:25,068 --> 01:32:26,636 I'll let you pee in the water. 1142 01:32:28,738 --> 01:32:30,006 It's a date. 1143 01:32:30,140 --> 01:32:31,942 It's a date? 1144 01:32:32,076 --> 01:32:33,277 It's a date. 1145 01:32:53,130 --> 01:32:54,632 Hey, Ma. 1146 01:32:54,766 --> 01:32:55,667 Yeah, Benny? 1147 01:33:18,523 --> 01:33:19,992 What is it, Ben? 1148 01:33:23,496 --> 01:33:26,299 I gotta tell you something.