1 00:00:07,360 --> 00:00:09,840 INSPIRED BY A TRUE STORY. 2 00:00:09,920 --> 00:00:12,000 CERTAIN CHARACTERS AND EVENTS ITS FICTIONAL. 3 00:00:12,080 --> 00:00:13,720 It's kind of... 4 00:00:13,800 --> 00:00:17,960 stabbing pain in my temples, but also in the back of my head. 5 00:00:18,040 --> 00:00:20,600 Like fire ants are biting me. 6 00:00:22,000 --> 00:00:24,440 And now my vision is starting to get blurry. 7 00:00:26,760 --> 00:00:28,240 My mother has MS. 8 00:00:28,320 --> 00:00:29,920 The pain feels more... 9 00:00:31,240 --> 00:00:34,720 structurally rather than neurologically. 10 00:00:36,120 --> 00:00:38,080 Like there's something in it. 11 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:43,000 My doctors say: 12 00:00:43,080 --> 00:00:47,120 'We don't know what to do anymore. You continue to defy our predictions.” 13 00:00:51,040 --> 00:00:56,040 I would have six weeks to live. Four months at most. 14 00:00:57,520 --> 00:00:59,080 That was four years ago. 15 00:01:00,520 --> 00:01:02,920 People are capable of anything. 16 00:01:07,080 --> 00:01:08,680 Belle Gibson. 17 00:01:10,680 --> 00:01:12,280 She is a mother. 18 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:14,680 She survived cancer. 19 00:01:17,840 --> 00:01:19,280 She is an entrepreneur. 20 00:01:19,360 --> 00:01:21,560 And now she is an author. 21 00:01:22,120 --> 00:01:24,240 Belle, how do you do it? 22 00:01:24,840 --> 00:01:27,760 No idea. Once you choose hope... 23 00:01:27,840 --> 00:01:29,640 everything is possible. 24 00:01:35,320 --> 00:01:38,120 This young mother has conquered Silicon Valley... 25 00:01:38,200 --> 00:01:39,640 from her kitchen table. 26 00:01:39,720 --> 00:01:42,280 Belle Gibson's The Whole Pantry signs deal with Apple. 27 00:01:42,360 --> 00:01:43,280 What an achievement. 28 00:01:43,360 --> 00:01:44,640 How is your health? 29 00:01:44,720 --> 00:01:46,560 I'm having a good day. 30 00:01:55,120 --> 00:01:58,320 She defied medical advice, healed on its own... 31 00:01:58,400 --> 00:02:00,120 and gained millions of followers. 32 00:02:00,200 --> 00:02:01,160 Belle Gibson. 33 00:02:01,240 --> 00:02:03,320 A very special story. 34 00:02:03,400 --> 00:02:07,400 Love gives me strength and keeps me going. 35 00:02:07,480 --> 00:02:10,080 I want to thank my besties and fans. 36 00:02:10,160 --> 00:02:13,840 I'm your fan and we have built a beautiful community. 37 00:02:16,040 --> 00:02:17,440 SNAKE OIL INSTANT RELIEF 38 00:02:18,360 --> 00:02:22,040 Belle's fans are disappointed in the medical world... 39 00:02:22,120 --> 00:02:23,720 and follow her journey. 40 00:02:23,800 --> 00:02:26,560 Thousands of women gravitate towards alternative medicine. 41 00:02:26,640 --> 00:02:30,000 I wanted to live and I wanted a good life. 42 00:02:43,360 --> 00:02:44,680 Then came the questions. 43 00:02:44,760 --> 00:02:47,040 Did she really have cancer? 44 00:02:47,120 --> 00:02:47,960 Her life in ruins. 45 00:02:48,040 --> 00:02:49,960 Has Belle lost everything? -Desperate… 46 00:02:50,040 --> 00:02:53,160 Vulnerable followers angry… -That begs the question. 47 00:02:53,240 --> 00:02:56,160 What kind of person does like she has brain cancer? 48 00:03:06,720 --> 00:03:08,920 A true story based on a lie. 49 00:03:09,560 --> 00:03:12,560 Some names have been changed to protect the innocent. 50 00:03:13,040 --> 00:03:16,760 Belle Gibson hasn't been paid for her story. 51 00:03:18,440 --> 00:03:19,360 Acorns. 52 00:03:23,000 --> 00:03:23,920 Thank you. 53 00:03:31,200 --> 00:03:32,360 Filtered. 54 00:03:32,440 --> 00:03:34,720 Yes, we get it delivered. 55 00:03:35,560 --> 00:03:36,920 Belle or Annabelle? 56 00:03:37,000 --> 00:03:38,640 Belle is fine. 57 00:03:38,720 --> 00:03:40,960 A real Olivia Pope, I hear. 58 00:03:42,920 --> 00:03:44,200 She has better suits. 59 00:03:44,280 --> 00:03:45,360 Do you like it? 60 00:03:46,040 --> 00:03:46,960 Save people? 61 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:49,160 People in need? 62 00:03:50,280 --> 00:03:53,560 Do you want to tell me? how it all started? 63 00:03:53,640 --> 00:03:56,400 How much do you think you know about me? -Not enough. 64 00:03:56,480 --> 00:03:59,200 Correct. -You are a complex person. 65 00:03:59,280 --> 00:04:01,280 Just like everyone else. 66 00:04:01,840 --> 00:04:03,160 I'm not special. 67 00:04:03,240 --> 00:04:04,800 Two million followers. 68 00:04:05,440 --> 00:04:06,680 2.3. 69 00:04:07,160 --> 00:04:08,000 No. 70 00:04:08,960 --> 00:04:10,480 They know… 71 00:04:10,560 --> 00:04:14,440 My followers know that I don't judge. People like that. 72 00:04:15,480 --> 00:04:17,760 Instinctively they like me. 73 00:04:18,360 --> 00:04:20,200 You get death threats. 74 00:04:22,200 --> 00:04:24,160 "Hopefully she dies of cancer." 75 00:04:25,520 --> 00:04:27,760 People have gotten confused. 76 00:04:28,840 --> 00:04:30,320 That's why I want... 77 00:04:31,080 --> 00:04:33,760 clear up those misconceptions here. 78 00:04:33,840 --> 00:04:35,760 Confused. 79 00:04:35,840 --> 00:04:39,400 Didn't you lie about anything? -No, I… 80 00:04:40,160 --> 00:04:41,320 I don't want anyone... 81 00:04:41,400 --> 00:04:44,480 put in a box, but then you're a sociopath. 82 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:45,800 I'm not. 83 00:04:45,880 --> 00:04:50,240 If I now 50 personality tests would do... 84 00:04:50,320 --> 00:04:52,240 I am an empath. 85 00:04:53,000 --> 00:04:54,000 Every time. 86 00:04:54,720 --> 00:04:58,440 I feel everything. 87 00:04:59,240 --> 00:05:01,600 That must be tiring. 88 00:05:02,440 --> 00:05:03,520 Sometimes... 89 00:05:05,680 --> 00:05:07,400 you save people as a profession. 90 00:05:08,720 --> 00:05:11,000 I tried to help everyone. 91 00:05:12,400 --> 00:05:13,400 I'm saying it now. 92 00:05:16,720 --> 00:05:18,000 I helped. 93 00:05:22,920 --> 00:05:26,320 Hi guys. I really want to share this with you. 94 00:05:26,400 --> 00:05:31,040 When I was diagnosed with brain cancer, I didn't know who I could trust. 95 00:05:31,120 --> 00:05:35,880 I didn't feel supported unmotivated and uninspired. 96 00:05:35,960 --> 00:05:39,320 Maybe you're not sick but do you also feel that way? 97 00:05:39,400 --> 00:05:41,240 And that's not right. 98 00:05:41,720 --> 00:05:45,960 Download today my new app, The Whole Pantry. 99 00:05:46,560 --> 00:05:49,960 And change your life meal by meal. 100 00:05:55,240 --> 00:05:57,560 Did she change my life? 101 00:05:58,280 --> 00:05:59,440 Yes. 102 00:05:59,520 --> 00:06:00,880 Did she help? 103 00:06:02,960 --> 00:06:07,560 I looked back on a time before Belle. For everything that had happened. 104 00:06:08,080 --> 00:06:12,080 And I was so lucky. 105 00:06:12,160 --> 00:06:13,520 Justin. 106 00:06:16,000 --> 00:06:16,920 Lucy. 107 00:06:17,440 --> 00:06:18,400 This… 108 00:06:18,920 --> 00:06:19,840 He… 109 00:06:21,000 --> 00:06:23,000 My own love story. 110 00:06:24,680 --> 00:06:26,520 And all the plans… 111 00:06:26,600 --> 00:06:29,280 Stupid plans and grand plans. 112 00:06:29,360 --> 00:06:30,720 Lots of plans. 113 00:06:32,600 --> 00:06:34,320 Until everything one day… 114 00:06:34,840 --> 00:06:35,840 Yes. 115 00:06:37,120 --> 00:06:39,640 …became one big fucking mess. 116 00:06:41,840 --> 00:06:42,840 What do I feel here? 117 00:06:44,400 --> 00:06:45,480 What? 118 00:06:46,400 --> 00:06:47,600 A lump. 119 00:06:49,040 --> 00:06:50,520 I've always had that. 120 00:06:51,520 --> 00:06:53,200 That's Marvin. 121 00:06:53,800 --> 00:06:55,840 Sorry. -Marvin and Frank. 122 00:06:55,920 --> 00:06:58,160 Sorry, Marvin and Frank. 123 00:07:08,400 --> 00:07:10,480 Check out the forums. 124 00:07:11,160 --> 00:07:12,720 Check out Dr. Google. 125 00:07:13,240 --> 00:07:14,680 Suppress your impulses. 126 00:07:17,000 --> 00:07:19,360 Feel free to email me if you have any questions. 127 00:07:19,880 --> 00:07:22,080 I will respond within 48 hours. 128 00:07:30,520 --> 00:07:32,520 First some gas. 129 00:07:35,000 --> 00:07:36,920 Breathe deeply. 130 00:08:01,560 --> 00:08:02,400 CHEMOTHERAPY 131 00:08:27,400 --> 00:08:28,400 Justin. 132 00:08:30,560 --> 00:08:31,640 What do you think? 133 00:08:37,760 --> 00:08:39,720 Don't make me wet. 134 00:08:51,360 --> 00:08:52,440 I know her. 135 00:08:53,040 --> 00:08:54,680 She goes to the cafe. 136 00:08:55,480 --> 00:08:56,920 She has a brain tumor. 137 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:59,680 Stage four, glioblastoma... 138 00:09:00,160 --> 00:09:02,320 but she was beaming. 139 00:09:02,400 --> 00:09:03,920 Full of zest for life. 140 00:09:04,000 --> 00:09:05,880 Positive and radiant. 141 00:09:05,960 --> 00:09:09,160 She had had chemo but had found another way. 142 00:09:10,080 --> 00:09:11,680 Two Buddha bowls. -Thank you. 143 00:09:11,760 --> 00:09:13,880 The shiitake is great. Picked? 144 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:15,400 If only it were so. 145 00:09:16,120 --> 00:09:19,760 She had an incredible app who really helped people. 146 00:09:19,840 --> 00:09:22,760 She told me what she had been through... 147 00:09:22,840 --> 00:09:24,160 and was now experiencing. 148 00:09:24,840 --> 00:09:28,040 You had to be inspired. 149 00:09:32,520 --> 00:09:33,920 Look, she's a fan. 150 00:09:38,080 --> 00:09:39,240 Is this yours? 151 00:09:39,320 --> 00:09:42,400 Yes. I follow you on Instagram. 152 00:09:45,720 --> 00:09:46,640 You too? 153 00:09:47,840 --> 00:09:49,640 Breast cancer, stage three. 154 00:09:52,120 --> 00:09:53,440 I did that too. 155 00:09:54,200 --> 00:09:56,400 My diagnosis became my identity. 156 00:09:57,200 --> 00:09:59,880 I hate it when my partner does that. 157 00:10:01,120 --> 00:10:03,640 Do you have any big plans for today? 158 00:10:03,720 --> 00:10:05,880 I'm writing my book. 159 00:10:06,920 --> 00:10:07,800 A book. 160 00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:09,520 Yes. -Great. 161 00:10:09,600 --> 00:10:11,160 It's very exciting. 162 00:10:11,240 --> 00:10:14,840 They are mainly recipes and what I learned on my… 163 00:10:14,920 --> 00:10:17,000 I almost wanted to say 'my journey'. 164 00:10:17,080 --> 00:10:19,440 I asked my oncologist about my diet. 165 00:10:19,520 --> 00:10:20,640 A blank look. 166 00:10:20,720 --> 00:10:24,280 How can they know so little about nutrition? 167 00:10:24,360 --> 00:10:26,480 The arrogance is... 168 00:10:26,560 --> 00:10:28,800 criminal when you think about it. 169 00:10:29,920 --> 00:10:31,400 I look forward to your book. 170 00:10:32,520 --> 00:10:34,880 Come to the presentation. 171 00:10:34,960 --> 00:10:36,520 Really and truly? -Yes. 172 00:10:36,600 --> 00:10:38,200 Please. That's… 173 00:10:38,880 --> 00:10:39,720 Thank you. 174 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:42,600 I love you. 175 00:10:52,520 --> 00:10:53,840 It'll be fine. 176 00:10:54,640 --> 00:10:55,600 Thank you. 177 00:10:59,400 --> 00:11:02,840 This is so cool. -Thank you. It's a wig. 178 00:11:02,920 --> 00:11:04,120 I know. 179 00:11:04,200 --> 00:11:06,600 Okay, bye. -Day. 180 00:11:08,800 --> 00:11:10,680 Belle didn't give me an invitation... 181 00:11:10,760 --> 00:11:15,720 but I ordered her book anyway and started following her recipes. 182 00:11:18,960 --> 00:11:21,360 I've said from the beginning... 183 00:11:21,440 --> 00:11:25,200 that I was a patient who wanted to heal naturally. 184 00:11:25,840 --> 00:11:28,320 The responses were overwhelming. 185 00:11:28,400 --> 00:11:30,320 You never expected this. 186 00:11:30,400 --> 00:11:33,360 Never. It surprises me that my story appealed so much. 187 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:37,040 Why do you think? that so many people started following you? 188 00:11:38,840 --> 00:11:42,280 Because of my pursuit of authenticity. 189 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:44,880 Too many people don't do that. 190 00:11:44,960 --> 00:11:47,640 We are all guilty of that. 191 00:11:47,720 --> 00:11:49,240 Me, too. 192 00:11:49,320 --> 00:11:51,880 I used to be very insecure. 193 00:11:52,760 --> 00:11:56,880 I was the shy girl. I didn't think I belonged. 194 00:11:56,960 --> 00:11:59,440 But because of what I've been through... 195 00:11:59,520 --> 00:12:03,920 I learned to appreciate raw honesty. 196 00:12:05,200 --> 00:12:08,760 One of the worst things that could happen to anyone... 197 00:12:08,840 --> 00:12:10,120 happened to me. 198 00:12:11,000 --> 00:12:12,120 And you know what? 199 00:12:12,200 --> 00:12:14,480 I am extremely grateful for that. 200 00:12:15,400 --> 00:12:16,560 Good… 201 00:12:16,640 --> 00:12:17,920 That's why I could... 202 00:12:18,840 --> 00:12:20,960 don't let this moment pass you by... 203 00:12:22,000 --> 00:12:26,920 without paying my respects to my friend and mentor... 204 00:12:27,000 --> 00:12:28,040 Milla. 205 00:12:30,520 --> 00:12:32,480 She could be there tonight... 206 00:12:32,560 --> 00:12:34,880 obviously not there... 207 00:12:34,960 --> 00:12:37,280 but this has given her comfort. 208 00:12:38,120 --> 00:12:39,240 Do you have it? 209 00:12:39,320 --> 00:12:40,520 Yes. 210 00:12:41,120 --> 00:12:43,680 Did you see your shout-out? How thoughtful, huh? 211 00:12:44,200 --> 00:12:45,240 Very nice. 212 00:12:47,080 --> 00:12:48,320 And the book? 213 00:12:50,160 --> 00:12:51,200 Are the recipes… 214 00:12:51,280 --> 00:12:52,360 Are they good? 215 00:12:57,200 --> 00:12:58,760 Yeah, pretty good. 216 00:13:00,240 --> 00:13:01,200 Hey, Mills… 217 00:13:02,880 --> 00:13:04,440 What do you want me to do? 218 00:13:04,960 --> 00:13:08,680 Just tell me what to do and I'll do it. 219 00:13:08,760 --> 00:13:10,400 I want to destroy her. 220 00:13:13,000 --> 00:13:15,640 It must have bothered her... 221 00:13:15,720 --> 00:13:18,120 that my book had better reviews. 222 00:13:18,200 --> 00:13:21,520 It's not her fault, but my advance was higher. 223 00:13:21,600 --> 00:13:23,160 Sorry, I'm not following you. 224 00:13:23,760 --> 00:13:25,880 Who do you mean? Whose book? 225 00:13:25,960 --> 00:13:28,040 That must be the reason. 226 00:13:28,120 --> 00:13:29,480 She has... 227 00:13:30,160 --> 00:13:31,600 did what she did. 228 00:13:35,560 --> 00:13:37,880 The Devil Wears Prada, after the makeover. 229 00:13:37,960 --> 00:13:40,280 Andy lives a great life. 230 00:13:40,800 --> 00:13:42,400 That's how it felt to me too. 231 00:13:50,200 --> 00:13:52,160 Top marks, moved to Sydney. 232 00:13:52,240 --> 00:13:53,760 Leaving home for the first time... 233 00:13:53,840 --> 00:13:57,160 but I speak to Mom three times a day. I'm not exaggerating. 234 00:13:57,920 --> 00:13:59,720 A dream job as a journalist. 235 00:13:59,800 --> 00:14:01,920 Girlfriend, just a moment. 236 00:14:02,680 --> 00:14:05,040 I had a great group of friends. 237 00:14:05,720 --> 00:14:07,840 The romance was fascinating enough. 238 00:14:08,960 --> 00:14:11,440 And even though I want to take better care of myself... 239 00:14:11,520 --> 00:14:14,720 could, should and wanted to provide... 240 00:14:15,680 --> 00:14:17,080 I was also 22. 241 00:14:17,680 --> 00:14:19,560 What did you do when you were 22? 242 00:14:20,920 --> 00:14:23,720 Sorry. How do you pronounce that? 243 00:14:23,800 --> 00:14:26,680 Undifferentiated pleiomorphic sarcoma. 244 00:14:30,640 --> 00:14:32,040 I'll write it down. 245 00:14:33,000 --> 00:14:33,840 Thank you. 246 00:14:33,920 --> 00:14:36,880 Joe has the basal cell sarcomas. 247 00:14:36,960 --> 00:14:39,160 The Queensland sun. 248 00:14:39,240 --> 00:14:40,160 Yes. 249 00:14:40,760 --> 00:14:41,720 This is different. 250 00:14:42,400 --> 00:14:45,080 Milla's lumps are aggressive tumors. 251 00:14:45,160 --> 00:14:46,960 A rare soft tissue sarcoma. 252 00:14:47,040 --> 00:14:49,720 Okay, what does that mean? 253 00:14:49,800 --> 00:14:53,440 Does chemotherapy mean… -No. 254 00:14:53,520 --> 00:14:54,720 Honey… -No. 255 00:14:55,320 --> 00:14:56,680 I saw grandma then. 256 00:14:58,440 --> 00:15:02,000 My mother has had chemo for colon cancer. 257 00:15:02,080 --> 00:15:05,200 Chemotherapy is not my first choice. 258 00:15:05,280 --> 00:15:09,280 Later, but now surgery is the best option. 259 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:14,040 Can you cut them away? 260 00:15:14,920 --> 00:15:18,360 Yes, and it would be under general anesthesia? 261 00:15:20,080 --> 00:15:23,200 There are a lot of sarcomas. 262 00:15:23,280 --> 00:15:25,440 It has spread to the arm. 263 00:15:26,320 --> 00:15:29,480 Remove the tumors one by one is therefore pointless. 264 00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:34,280 The chance is greater with a wide resection that it does not spread further. 265 00:15:34,360 --> 00:15:36,080 So it hasn't spread? 266 00:15:36,680 --> 00:15:38,520 That's good news, right? 267 00:15:42,240 --> 00:15:46,400 How big would that resection be? 268 00:16:19,720 --> 00:16:21,360 AMPUTATION: THIS IS WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW 269 00:16:35,080 --> 00:16:36,080 ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE 270 00:16:36,160 --> 00:16:37,640 PSYCHOLOGICAL CONSEQUENCES 271 00:16:38,240 --> 00:16:41,600 Choose positivity, because negativity... 272 00:16:41,680 --> 00:16:44,080 hasn't worked out well for me. 273 00:16:44,160 --> 00:16:46,240 We have a voice within us. 274 00:16:46,320 --> 00:16:48,760 It is drowned out by all the noise... 275 00:16:48,840 --> 00:16:51,280 but if we listen carefully... 276 00:16:51,880 --> 00:16:56,040 that voice leads us to the sublime... 277 00:16:58,040 --> 00:17:00,520 Girlfriend. What can I do for you? 278 00:17:03,040 --> 00:17:06,920 It seems like a good idea to me to introduce ourselves. 279 00:17:07,000 --> 00:17:08,080 I'm Doctor Xiu. 280 00:17:08,160 --> 00:17:09,760 …Camilla's oncologist. 281 00:17:10,280 --> 00:17:12,040 Doctor Roland. Radiology. 282 00:17:12,120 --> 00:17:15,360 Simon Smith Jones. I will perform the operation. 283 00:17:15,440 --> 00:17:17,560 Mike, your orthopedic technician. 284 00:17:17,640 --> 00:17:18,920 Sally. Psychology. 285 00:17:19,000 --> 00:17:20,640 Emma. Occupational therapy. 286 00:17:21,400 --> 00:17:22,400 I'm Milla. 287 00:17:23,400 --> 00:17:25,960 And I don't know if I want to do this. 288 00:17:28,680 --> 00:17:31,840 We have the risk discussed on metastasis. 289 00:17:31,920 --> 00:17:33,040 There's a case study. 290 00:17:34,320 --> 00:17:36,120 A girl from Manchester. 291 00:17:36,200 --> 00:17:38,600 She had an osteosarcoma in the tibia. 292 00:17:38,680 --> 00:17:40,200 They recommended amputation... 293 00:17:40,280 --> 00:17:44,640 but her parents would have her identity unable to cope with a crisis emotionally. 294 00:17:45,640 --> 00:17:48,320 She underwent mistletoe therapy in Berlin. 295 00:17:48,400 --> 00:17:51,840 Three years ago. I can get a copy to everyone. 296 00:17:51,920 --> 00:17:54,400 Did you say 'mistletoe therapy'? 297 00:17:54,480 --> 00:17:55,640 Rudolf Steiner. 298 00:17:56,680 --> 00:18:00,160 High doses of mistletoe extract have a cytotoxic effect. 299 00:18:00,240 --> 00:18:01,920 That's not true. 300 00:18:02,000 --> 00:18:03,880 My name is Rudolf Steiner. 301 00:18:04,480 --> 00:18:07,520 My intuition is based on the observation... 302 00:18:07,600 --> 00:18:11,640 that mistletoe, like cancer, a invasive plant is... 303 00:18:11,720 --> 00:18:14,040 which ultimately kills the host. 304 00:18:14,520 --> 00:18:18,480 It follows Hahnemann's theory. 'Like killing like.' 305 00:18:18,560 --> 00:18:19,840 Quackery. 306 00:18:19,920 --> 00:18:22,720 It is used clinically in Sweden, the Netherlands and Germany. 307 00:18:22,800 --> 00:18:26,040 More than 1000 in vitro studies indicate anticancer activity. 308 00:18:26,640 --> 00:18:31,360 With side effects such as anaphylaxis, fever, joint pain, kidney failure… 309 00:18:31,440 --> 00:18:33,920 Look at me when you talk about me. 310 00:18:40,080 --> 00:18:41,680 It's my arm. 311 00:18:48,160 --> 00:18:50,000 There's cancer in that, you say. 312 00:18:50,920 --> 00:18:52,760 That's true. 313 00:18:52,840 --> 00:18:53,920 Doctor Roland... 314 00:18:54,000 --> 00:18:56,480 your scans are clear... 315 00:18:56,560 --> 00:18:58,080 aggressive tumors… 316 00:18:58,160 --> 00:18:59,600 I want another option. 317 00:18:59,680 --> 00:19:02,880 Milla, progress is being made… 318 00:19:02,960 --> 00:19:04,400 I want another option. 319 00:19:04,480 --> 00:19:05,640 Death. 320 00:19:06,160 --> 00:19:07,600 That's another option. 321 00:19:07,680 --> 00:19:10,240 Hang on, folks. -Do you want to die? 322 00:19:10,320 --> 00:19:12,200 We'll meet again later. 323 00:19:12,280 --> 00:19:14,480 That is the harsh reality. 324 00:19:15,680 --> 00:19:18,240 Do you understand what I'm trying to say? 325 00:19:18,320 --> 00:19:22,240 It's important that you understand what I'm saying, young lady. 326 00:19:26,480 --> 00:19:27,640 I'm sorry, Mom. 327 00:19:28,440 --> 00:19:30,920 No, dear. 328 00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:34,440 I'll have it amputated. 329 00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:35,480 It's okay. 330 00:19:42,480 --> 00:19:45,200 If you think I should do it, I do it. 331 00:19:49,240 --> 00:19:52,600 But it's wrong. I know that. I just feel that. 332 00:19:54,000 --> 00:19:55,000 It's okay. 333 00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:02,600 I don't understand why we... 334 00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:07,040 unable to view other options. 335 00:20:07,120 --> 00:20:08,640 It's just… 336 00:20:12,080 --> 00:20:13,400 It's so extreme. 337 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:17,360 What other options are there? 338 00:20:17,960 --> 00:20:20,920 I would strongly recommend amputation. 339 00:20:22,880 --> 00:20:27,400 And the experimental… -Like drug trials. Please. 340 00:20:30,040 --> 00:20:32,000 After a lot of family pressure... 341 00:20:32,080 --> 00:20:36,720 and I have clear objections Performed an isolated limb infusion... 342 00:20:36,800 --> 00:20:39,960 an experimental intervention where one dose of chemo... 343 00:20:40,040 --> 00:20:44,080 with ten times the usual force is delivered to the tumor site. 344 00:20:45,440 --> 00:20:50,240 The overall response rate after three months on the infusion was 58 percent. 345 00:20:50,320 --> 00:20:53,920 That was 37 percent for patients with upper limb disorders... 346 00:20:54,000 --> 00:20:55,000 like Milla. 347 00:20:56,280 --> 00:20:57,360 Context. 348 00:20:57,440 --> 00:21:01,680 If we had amputated, would her survival rate is 89.9 percent... 349 00:21:02,360 --> 00:21:05,840 but I am not a beautiful young woman and it's not my arm. 350 00:21:11,760 --> 00:21:14,480 They wanted to amputate her arm. 351 00:21:16,560 --> 00:21:18,480 Good thing we insisted. 352 00:21:19,040 --> 00:21:19,880 No. 353 00:21:22,600 --> 00:21:24,680 Next time we'll listen... 354 00:21:25,920 --> 00:21:29,240 and we do exactly what they say. -No. 355 00:21:30,360 --> 00:21:32,120 There won't be a next time. 356 00:21:45,920 --> 00:21:50,640 You said something about... 357 00:21:51,960 --> 00:21:54,160 the patriarchy. -Yes, that's right. 358 00:21:55,040 --> 00:21:56,440 It pits us against each other. 359 00:21:56,520 --> 00:21:59,000 There would be enough space should be for everyone. 360 00:21:59,680 --> 00:22:01,440 But this Camilla… -Milla. 361 00:22:01,520 --> 00:22:05,040 Everyone calls her that. -She was diagnosed with cancer. 362 00:22:05,120 --> 00:22:08,320 She is maintained. I don't doubt her. 363 00:22:08,400 --> 00:22:10,280 Because in her case it's real. 364 00:22:13,720 --> 00:22:15,120 Fence. -Yes. 365 00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:16,480 Can I call you Hek? 366 00:22:16,560 --> 00:22:17,480 Sure. 367 00:22:18,000 --> 00:22:22,280 I was diagnosed brain tumor stage four. 368 00:22:22,360 --> 00:22:23,640 Is that so? 369 00:22:23,720 --> 00:22:24,840 Yes. 370 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:26,560 Is that so? 371 00:22:28,680 --> 00:22:29,520 Yes. 372 00:22:29,600 --> 00:22:33,800 Prove your medical records that you have terminal brain cancer. 373 00:22:33,880 --> 00:22:35,480 I'll have them sent. 374 00:22:35,560 --> 00:22:36,840 Fine. 375 00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:42,800 If you were to lie, if you got confused... 376 00:22:42,880 --> 00:22:47,280 are you here to be my professional to ask for advice and help. 377 00:22:47,360 --> 00:22:49,240 We don't judge here. 378 00:22:51,320 --> 00:22:53,320 Come on then. Just help me. 379 00:22:53,400 --> 00:22:56,360 At best, from what I know now... 380 00:22:56,440 --> 00:22:59,520 You disappear, change your name and looking for a lawyer. 381 00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:02,680 You must already have that. -I have a company. 382 00:23:02,760 --> 00:23:04,120 You know what that's like. 383 00:23:04,200 --> 00:23:06,840 I have things to do and backers. 384 00:23:06,920 --> 00:23:10,160 And also an extraordinary momentum. 385 00:23:10,240 --> 00:23:11,200 That's gone. 386 00:23:11,720 --> 00:23:13,600 Forget it. -Listen. 387 00:23:13,680 --> 00:23:17,320 I don't want legal advice or business assistance. 388 00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:18,560 So what? 389 00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:21,560 I have come to you... 390 00:23:22,960 --> 00:23:25,840 because I want my reputation back. 391 00:23:26,680 --> 00:23:30,640 I need interviews to tell my side of the story. 392 00:23:31,560 --> 00:23:34,720 Print, TV, maybe a reality series. 393 00:23:35,880 --> 00:23:37,960 I'm worth seven figures. 394 00:23:38,880 --> 00:23:40,240 A good committee. 395 00:23:40,760 --> 00:23:44,520 You just have to make a few phone calls. 396 00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:47,240 If I throw a shoe out of that window... 397 00:23:47,320 --> 00:23:49,840 I hit ten liars. Twenty even. 398 00:23:53,160 --> 00:23:56,600 I'm not lying, okay? I said that. 399 00:24:04,840 --> 00:24:05,720 Okay then. 400 00:24:08,720 --> 00:24:10,680 Do you want a velvet approach? 401 00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:13,080 Then I need more information. 402 00:24:13,160 --> 00:24:14,280 Difficult childhood? 403 00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:17,240 Undiscussable. 404 00:24:17,320 --> 00:24:19,920 You've already talked about your mother's MS. 405 00:24:20,000 --> 00:24:22,000 I don't do that anymore. 406 00:24:22,080 --> 00:24:24,040 Okay, mental health? 407 00:24:25,360 --> 00:24:28,160 MS affects your body, not the mind. 408 00:24:28,240 --> 00:24:29,640 I mean yours. 409 00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:34,880 You have nothing to be ashamed of. I get anxious sometimes. 410 00:24:35,840 --> 00:24:38,280 Do you know Munchausen's disease? 411 00:24:39,000 --> 00:24:43,640 The patient then feigns an illness to get pity and attention. 412 00:24:43,720 --> 00:24:47,320 I know what it is and it's called Munchausen syndrome. 413 00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:51,200 It's not a disease. It is a developmental disorder in the DSM-5. 414 00:24:51,280 --> 00:24:52,560 You've read about it. 415 00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:56,400 I am not medically illiterate. 416 00:24:56,480 --> 00:24:59,440 I have a lot of time spent in many hospitals... 417 00:24:59,520 --> 00:25:02,480 due to a malignant brain tumor. 418 00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:05,920 I would have six weeks to live. Four months at most. 419 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:06,960 By whom? 420 00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:09,920 Which doctors? Where? -You'll still get that information. 421 00:25:10,000 --> 00:25:11,800 When then? -I… 422 00:25:12,600 --> 00:25:16,960 I can't use international mail... -No. When were you diagnosed? 423 00:25:17,040 --> 00:25:19,800 Belle. I really try my best. 424 00:25:20,920 --> 00:25:23,200 Can you answer that? 425 00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:35,680 Was it glioblastoma? 426 00:25:35,760 --> 00:25:37,960 Oligodendroglioma… 427 00:25:38,040 --> 00:25:39,560 How long was she in the hospital? 428 00:25:39,640 --> 00:25:41,880 You probably couldn't work then. 429 00:25:41,960 --> 00:25:44,720 I can't do this but I'm accelerating your claim. 430 00:25:44,800 --> 00:25:47,680 I have to be alone getting the paperwork in order. 431 00:25:47,760 --> 00:25:49,400 No. Naturally. 432 00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:51,480 Your family has been through a lot. 433 00:25:51,560 --> 00:25:53,240 I like doing it. 434 00:25:58,040 --> 00:25:59,360 Does this belong to everyone? 435 00:26:00,200 --> 00:26:01,560 Great. 436 00:26:02,600 --> 00:26:04,480 Thank you. 437 00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:07,280 Moving to a new city is not easy. 438 00:26:08,960 --> 00:26:11,560 You have welcomed me with open arms. 439 00:26:14,680 --> 00:26:15,920 But anyway… 440 00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:19,160 I'm looking forward to this adventure. 441 00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:21,880 It's scary too. 442 00:26:22,920 --> 00:26:25,880 But we will visit as soon as possible. 443 00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:29,640 Will you drive to my baby shower tomorrow? 444 00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:32,360 Actually… -It's a small group. 445 00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:36,400 Only good friends, so don't post about it. 446 00:26:37,600 --> 00:26:39,200 No problem. -Super. 447 00:26:39,280 --> 00:26:42,560 Are you going to drink? I can drive your car. 448 00:26:42,640 --> 00:26:43,560 No problem. 449 00:26:48,880 --> 00:26:50,360 CAULIFLOWER - CELERY 450 00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:52,440 BROCCOLI - CARROTS 451 00:27:21,080 --> 00:27:24,680 I got this, so I don't have a receipt. 452 00:27:24,760 --> 00:27:27,680 Unfortunately, I am allergic to synthetic fiber. 453 00:27:28,320 --> 00:27:31,200 Unfortunately, that will not be possible without a receipt. 454 00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:36,080 The label is still on it. He can go back into the store in no time. 455 00:27:36,160 --> 00:27:39,360 You can trade it. Would you like to take a look around? 456 00:27:44,120 --> 00:27:48,640 Well, I don't know if I still… 457 00:27:52,520 --> 00:27:54,720 There is a chance that… 458 00:27:56,000 --> 00:27:58,200 They don't know if she will make it. 459 00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:00,720 Oh, darling. 460 00:28:01,480 --> 00:28:04,120 How bad. Okay then. 461 00:28:05,160 --> 00:28:06,920 Really and truly? -Yes. 462 00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:09,120 I don't want to cause you any trouble. 463 00:28:09,200 --> 00:28:10,920 It's a stupid rule anyway. 464 00:28:19,640 --> 00:28:21,960 $25? -24.95. 465 00:28:22,040 --> 00:28:23,080 Discounted. 466 00:28:28,080 --> 00:28:29,120 Cheap bitches. 467 00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:30,920 MILK WHITE BREAD 468 00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:32,680 CAGE EGGS MAYONNAISE 469 00:28:32,760 --> 00:28:33,640 CAKE MIX 470 00:28:41,720 --> 00:28:44,920 I'll pick you up from the SkyBus. It's in my email. 471 00:28:45,000 --> 00:28:47,600 I don't remember an email. 472 00:28:47,680 --> 00:28:49,320 I'll send it again. 473 00:28:49,400 --> 00:28:51,200 I'm worried about Moss. 474 00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:54,920 He doesn't eat. -Real? 475 00:28:55,680 --> 00:28:57,080 That's not good. 476 00:28:57,160 --> 00:29:00,760 I think it's his kidneys. 477 00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:04,320 He peed next to the litter box. 478 00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:06,560 Everything on the bathroom floor. 479 00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:09,000 I'll come anyway. 480 00:29:09,080 --> 00:29:12,160 Top. I paid for the luggage. Less than 15 kilos. 481 00:29:12,240 --> 00:29:15,160 Put it on the scale before you leave. 482 00:29:15,240 --> 00:29:17,520 I really have to come, don't I? 483 00:29:17,600 --> 00:29:21,200 I need to meet the father of your baby. 484 00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:22,880 He's coming too, right? 485 00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:26,200 No, you know that. Nathan has to work. 486 00:29:27,560 --> 00:29:30,480 Why can't he just work in Melbourne? 487 00:29:30,560 --> 00:29:31,960 Because he's FIFO. 488 00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:34,120 Fear of missing out? 489 00:29:34,200 --> 00:29:35,080 No. 490 00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:39,440 FIFO, fly in, fly out. -Flyout, yes. 491 00:29:39,520 --> 00:29:40,760 Better him than me. 492 00:29:41,760 --> 00:29:43,880 Poor wretch. 493 00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:47,360 What if something happens while I'm away? 494 00:29:47,960 --> 00:29:49,640 That would be terrible. 495 00:29:50,240 --> 00:29:52,800 We belong together. Right, kitty? 496 00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:59,000 My kidney pain isn't helping either. Doctor Patrick wants to do another scan. 497 00:30:00,600 --> 00:30:02,600 I have to cancel that appointment. 498 00:30:03,200 --> 00:30:05,120 He won't be happy about that. 499 00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:09,120 Then don't come, Mom. 500 00:30:09,640 --> 00:30:11,680 No, I have to come. 501 00:30:12,520 --> 00:30:15,200 Okay, see you tomorrow then. 10:15 am. 502 00:30:15,760 --> 00:30:17,400 SkyBus. The red one. 503 00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:23,600 If you don't want me to come, then let us know. 504 00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:25,400 It's your big party. 505 00:30:27,480 --> 00:30:30,280 Just say what you want. 506 00:30:33,040 --> 00:30:34,200 She's not coming. 507 00:31:48,720 --> 00:31:50,040 Milla. 508 00:31:50,120 --> 00:31:53,440 Meet Darcy. I told her all about you. 509 00:31:53,520 --> 00:31:54,840 Darcy, darling. 510 00:31:56,480 --> 00:31:58,360 How are you? -Darcy? 511 00:31:58,440 --> 00:32:00,640 Fine, yes. Nice place. -Yes. 512 00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:04,040 I prepare the oils. -Okay. 513 00:32:07,120 --> 00:32:10,720 Chondrosarcoma, 23 months ago. You? 514 00:32:11,400 --> 00:32:13,080 Undifferentiated pleomorphic. 515 00:32:13,680 --> 00:32:15,520 Fairly recent? 516 00:32:17,800 --> 00:32:22,320 They wanted limb-saving surgery, but it had already spread. 517 00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:24,880 What a shame. -It's okay. 518 00:32:26,400 --> 00:32:29,920 According to Amy you have did the limb infusion test. 519 00:32:30,480 --> 00:32:33,520 Do you want to have your limb saved or... 520 00:32:34,400 --> 00:32:36,520 No. I am in remission. 521 00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:39,440 That's good for you. 522 00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:45,480 But if you ever want to talk to someone, can I add you on Facebook. 523 00:32:50,920 --> 00:32:53,520 You are now lying on your back... 524 00:32:54,760 --> 00:32:57,440 and relaxes your shoulders. 525 00:32:57,520 --> 00:33:02,560 Relax your eyes and jaw. 526 00:33:03,080 --> 00:33:06,240 Relax your fingers and toes. 527 00:33:06,880 --> 00:33:09,800 Breathe deeply through your nose... 528 00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:14,880 and with your last breath in savasana let go of everything. 529 00:33:22,960 --> 00:33:24,800 Namaste. -Damn. 530 00:33:24,880 --> 00:33:27,240 Thanks for coming. 531 00:33:27,320 --> 00:33:29,280 Get up slowly. 532 00:33:36,760 --> 00:33:37,720 Milla, hi. 533 00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:40,680 Arlo, Currumbin Primary School, Miss Histed. 534 00:33:41,560 --> 00:33:44,160 Arlo. How are you? -Hi. 535 00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:49,560 Didn't we even kiss? 536 00:33:51,600 --> 00:33:52,720 RECENTLY REMOVED 537 00:33:54,400 --> 00:33:55,360 REMOVE PHOTO 538 00:33:55,440 --> 00:33:56,720 I don't think so. 539 00:33:58,040 --> 00:33:59,920 What exactly are you doing here? 540 00:34:00,000 --> 00:34:05,080 Well, I… -You… Yes, I… 541 00:34:05,760 --> 00:34:08,280 I'm sorry... Yes, I heard. 542 00:34:09,920 --> 00:34:13,040 No gossip. People were concerned. -I know. 543 00:34:13,880 --> 00:34:15,960 You overcame it, right? 544 00:34:17,680 --> 00:34:20,520 The Outsmart Cancer Weekend is just to be sure. 545 00:34:20,600 --> 00:34:21,840 Great. 546 00:34:21,920 --> 00:34:22,880 And you? 547 00:34:23,840 --> 00:34:25,840 The meditation teacher training. 548 00:34:25,920 --> 00:34:27,240 It sounded nice. 549 00:34:28,880 --> 00:34:31,840 Fancy breakfast? Then you can tell me everything. 550 00:34:31,920 --> 00:34:34,920 I have to go to a workshop, but I'll see you later. 551 00:34:35,000 --> 00:34:36,560 Yes, fine. 552 00:34:37,160 --> 00:34:38,480 Thank you. -Thank you. 553 00:34:43,680 --> 00:34:47,160 HI, CUTS, THE SUN IS SHINING I HAVE A SPACE SEE YOU SOON 554 00:35:31,600 --> 00:35:32,600 What a day. 555 00:35:33,480 --> 00:35:35,720 Don't worry. I just got there. 556 00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:40,200 No, right. 557 00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:45,320 My periods were always terrible. That's the nice thing about being pregnant. 558 00:35:48,600 --> 00:35:50,920 Try a magnesium supplement. 559 00:35:52,160 --> 00:35:55,360 If you want to come for an hour, can I take you back? 560 00:35:57,960 --> 00:35:59,960 Yes, okay. 561 00:36:00,040 --> 00:36:01,760 No, I understand. 562 00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:06,640 Yes, I have a pounding headache. 563 00:36:08,280 --> 00:36:11,000 Listen, I make a care package ready for you. 564 00:36:11,760 --> 00:36:13,160 Evening primrose and turmeric. 565 00:36:14,160 --> 00:36:15,160 No, really. 566 00:36:19,640 --> 00:36:21,520 Yes, good. Day. 567 00:37:05,200 --> 00:37:07,800 And now my vision is starting to get blurry. 568 00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:11,480 My mother has MS. 569 00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:13,480 The pain feels more... 570 00:37:14,520 --> 00:37:18,080 structurally rather than neurologically. 571 00:37:19,400 --> 00:37:21,360 Like there's something in it. 572 00:37:21,960 --> 00:37:25,480 This keeps your head stable. 573 00:37:56,320 --> 00:37:57,160 What is this? 574 00:37:57,240 --> 00:38:00,920 Can you… -'Sweet Valley is shocked by the news. 575 00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:04,360 The beautiful, young Elizabeth Wakefield is in a coma.' 576 00:38:04,440 --> 00:38:06,920 It's comfort food. 577 00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:09,520 Will she survive? 578 00:38:10,480 --> 00:38:12,720 There are 150 books. 579 00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:16,680 I have something for you. 580 00:38:16,760 --> 00:38:18,480 I found this. 581 00:38:19,400 --> 00:38:23,240 I usually leave them in the river, but you had to see this one. 582 00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,280 The rest is black and gray. 583 00:38:25,360 --> 00:38:26,400 But this one... 584 00:38:28,320 --> 00:38:29,360 lay there alone. 585 00:38:35,200 --> 00:38:36,120 Nice. 586 00:38:37,280 --> 00:38:39,000 Keep it. -That's not necessary. 587 00:38:39,080 --> 00:38:40,720 Yes. He's for you. 588 00:38:42,320 --> 00:38:45,920 Green was your favorite color in primary school. 589 00:38:46,760 --> 00:38:49,840 You always picked four-leaf clovers during the break. 590 00:38:50,800 --> 00:38:52,720 Weird that you remembered that. 591 00:39:00,560 --> 00:39:01,720 Definitely inspiring. 592 00:39:02,400 --> 00:39:03,520 The group energy? 593 00:39:05,040 --> 00:39:05,880 Do you think? 594 00:39:05,960 --> 00:39:08,600 The survivor energy. Nothing is more powerful. 595 00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:09,680 It's poisonous. 596 00:39:10,520 --> 00:39:11,760 Sick energy. 597 00:39:17,520 --> 00:39:19,520 They did it to themselves. 598 00:39:21,320 --> 00:39:24,760 I knew I put all that crap into my body. 599 00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:27,760 The chemo… -Not the chemo, for that. 600 00:39:29,240 --> 00:39:32,720 School… I was working so hard and I thought… 601 00:39:32,800 --> 00:39:36,120 that I had the right to go wild on Wednesdays. 602 00:39:38,160 --> 00:39:39,160 But I knew. 603 00:39:43,680 --> 00:39:45,840 I'm tired of being good. 604 00:39:47,920 --> 00:39:48,920 But I knew. 605 00:39:52,520 --> 00:39:55,760 Je hebt het overwonnen. -No, that's not true. 606 00:40:01,920 --> 00:40:04,480 My arm will be amputated next week. 607 00:40:12,920 --> 00:40:16,680 The doctors now determine, because it came back worse. 608 00:40:16,760 --> 00:40:17,760 Much worse. 609 00:40:20,280 --> 00:40:23,080 I feel it inside me. It's terrible. 610 00:40:25,480 --> 00:40:26,880 And I have no choice. 611 00:40:27,640 --> 00:40:30,880 You have all kinds of choices. -No, I don't have one. 612 00:40:37,160 --> 00:40:38,840 Lumen the… -What are you doing? 613 00:40:38,920 --> 00:40:39,840 No. 614 00:40:40,360 --> 00:40:43,120 Stay with me. I know. 615 00:40:44,440 --> 00:40:47,920 - Lumen de Lumine - Good heavens. 616 00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:53,040 Lumen de Lumine 617 00:40:54,560 --> 00:40:56,200 Deum de Deo 618 00:41:00,080 --> 00:41:03,040 Lumen de Lumine 619 00:41:06,200 --> 00:41:07,760 Deum de Deo 620 00:41:11,240 --> 00:41:12,120 Lumen… 621 00:41:13,800 --> 00:41:15,520 Deum de Deo 622 00:41:20,600 --> 00:41:23,640 Lumen de Lumine 623 00:41:25,640 --> 00:41:27,160 Deum de Deo 624 00:41:32,080 --> 00:41:33,760 Deum de Deo 625 00:41:41,160 --> 00:41:42,600 A sweet girl. 626 00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:45,200 She is brave and kind. 627 00:41:45,280 --> 00:41:47,880 Never pessimistic, never angry. 628 00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:51,880 A sweet girl. That's how we are conditioned. 629 00:41:52,640 --> 00:41:55,560 I could control my anger can't express in words... 630 00:41:55,640 --> 00:41:58,960 when the doctors looked at me and only saw a sick person. 631 00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:04,080 But then a beautiful man gave, who wasn't yet my husband... 632 00:42:04,640 --> 00:42:07,560 me a stone and he reminded me... 633 00:42:07,640 --> 00:42:10,120 that the world is more magical than we think. 634 00:42:10,200 --> 00:42:11,760 ...in your lion's breath. 635 00:42:11,840 --> 00:42:15,640 Chest forward as you inhale… 636 00:42:18,520 --> 00:42:20,120 Hear how to let yourself go… 637 00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:24,240 Well done, Milla. 638 00:42:27,000 --> 00:42:32,080 So I stop lying, pretending and please everyone. 639 00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:36,440 From now on I won't think with my head anymore... 640 00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:38,520 but I feel with my body. 641 00:42:39,080 --> 00:42:42,040 Because I know that amputating my arm is wrong. 642 00:42:43,720 --> 00:42:46,080 Just like chemotherapy is wrong. 643 00:42:48,640 --> 00:42:50,600 I have to find the right way. 644 00:42:51,760 --> 00:42:53,040 For myself. 645 00:42:56,960 --> 00:42:59,400 Good morning from Ubud in Bali. 646 00:42:59,480 --> 00:43:03,240 Gosh, they are been a great few days. 647 00:43:03,320 --> 00:43:06,640 I have met so many inspiring women... 648 00:43:06,720 --> 00:43:09,040 talking from all over the world. 649 00:43:09,120 --> 00:43:11,000 Luce? -When you're in sackcloth and ashes... 650 00:43:11,080 --> 00:43:13,640 or don't feel like it anymore, I understand… 651 00:43:13,720 --> 00:43:16,600 Try to get some sleep. -…incredible places… 652 00:43:16,680 --> 00:43:20,720 I'll turn it down a bit. -…like the Hirsch Institute in Mexico. 653 00:43:20,800 --> 00:43:23,200 They treat the person as a whole... 654 00:43:23,280 --> 00:43:26,720 and cause of our toxicity, not just the symptoms. 655 00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:29,400 Okay, then... 656 00:43:31,000 --> 00:43:32,960 I'll see you Thursday. 657 00:43:34,760 --> 00:43:36,480 Sorry. 658 00:43:37,680 --> 00:43:39,720 I wanted to ask about… 659 00:43:39,800 --> 00:43:42,800 A friend suggested a treatment place in Mexico. 660 00:43:42,880 --> 00:43:43,960 Which girlfriend? 661 00:43:44,040 --> 00:43:46,240 It's called the Hirsch Institute. 662 00:43:46,320 --> 00:43:47,600 Belle Gibson? 663 00:43:47,680 --> 00:43:49,920 A friend of hers. -You're in 3C. 664 00:43:50,480 --> 00:43:52,200 We take that very seriously. 665 00:43:52,760 --> 00:43:55,280 There is no 3D, but there is stage four. 666 00:43:55,960 --> 00:43:58,000 And you know what happens then. 667 00:43:58,560 --> 00:44:00,800 Yes. Thank you. 668 00:44:08,080 --> 00:44:09,680 Thank you for your time. 669 00:44:09,760 --> 00:44:12,040 Make sure she's here on Thursday. 670 00:44:13,680 --> 00:44:15,520 She's so damn arrogant. 671 00:44:15,600 --> 00:44:17,800 I want to hear it from her. 672 00:44:17,880 --> 00:44:20,360 Why won't she give in? that it doesn't work? 673 00:44:20,440 --> 00:44:22,880 No idea. -One size fits all. 674 00:44:22,960 --> 00:44:24,920 Crazy. -We are not authorized… 675 00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:29,800 What is it? Are you out of breath? -I'm fine. You are not my caregiver. 676 00:44:33,160 --> 00:44:35,000 You hear my… -Come here. 677 00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:39,920 This isn't sexy. 678 00:44:41,360 --> 00:44:42,440 Disagree. 679 00:44:43,880 --> 00:44:44,960 It's disgusting. 680 00:44:46,560 --> 00:44:49,760 I'm disgusting. I don't want to feel like this anymore. 681 00:44:52,400 --> 00:44:55,600 What is your alternative? Mexico? 682 00:44:55,680 --> 00:45:00,600 I leave an influencer with a nose ring Don't undermine all that medical research. 683 00:45:00,680 --> 00:45:03,080 Won't you allow that? Fine. 684 00:45:06,440 --> 00:45:07,960 I can do it myself. 685 00:45:13,200 --> 00:45:14,400 I'm sorry. 686 00:45:15,320 --> 00:45:18,640 It doesn't matter. -I'm sorry. 687 00:45:20,560 --> 00:45:22,440 I'm fine, thank you. 688 00:45:28,960 --> 00:45:30,000 Are you okay? 689 00:45:30,720 --> 00:45:32,080 I'm fine. 690 00:45:54,080 --> 00:45:56,680 As an expectant young mother... 691 00:45:56,760 --> 00:46:00,720 I had hoped for more support of my so-called friends. 692 00:46:00,800 --> 00:46:02,840 Everyone has their own life... 693 00:46:02,920 --> 00:46:06,120 and I don't want to complain, But with all my scary medical dramas... 694 00:46:06,200 --> 00:46:08,440 I'm having a really hard time right now. 695 00:46:08,520 --> 00:46:12,320 And I was really looking forward to it at my baby shower. 696 00:46:14,320 --> 00:46:15,480 Oh, darling. 697 00:46:15,560 --> 00:46:16,720 Hugs. 698 00:46:16,800 --> 00:46:18,080 Which dramas? 699 00:46:23,000 --> 00:46:28,080 OH, DEAR. HUGS. WHICH DRAMAS? 700 00:46:33,440 --> 00:46:36,120 I've mentioned before that I have migraines. 701 00:46:37,080 --> 00:46:38,520 What I haven't shared... 702 00:46:38,600 --> 00:46:42,120 is that I recently got to work had a seizure and collapsed. 703 00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:44,400 I just got home from the hospital. 704 00:46:44,480 --> 00:46:45,680 My doctor said: 705 00:46:47,840 --> 00:46:49,640 "You have brain cancer." 706 00:46:52,160 --> 00:46:55,200 REMOVE 707 00:46:56,600 --> 00:46:57,480 Belle… 708 00:47:00,080 --> 00:47:03,120 'You have a malignant brain tumor. 709 00:47:03,720 --> 00:47:04,680 You're going to die. 710 00:47:05,320 --> 00:47:07,400 You have six weeks to live. 711 00:47:07,480 --> 00:47:09,120 Four months at most.' 712 00:47:10,160 --> 00:47:12,240 But I'm going to prove him wrong. 713 00:47:12,320 --> 00:47:15,240 For myself and my baby... 714 00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:17,600 I'm going to live. 715 00:47:21,200 --> 00:47:23,160 Wow, how unfair. 716 00:47:23,240 --> 00:47:26,280 Poor thing. -How awful, dear. 717 00:47:26,360 --> 00:47:28,200 Wretched… -You're so brave. 718 00:47:28,280 --> 00:47:29,480 Can I help? 719 00:47:29,560 --> 00:47:32,080 How scary. -Say if you need anything. 720 00:47:32,160 --> 00:47:34,160 I want to help. -I have to cry. 721 00:47:34,240 --> 00:47:36,200 I can't imagine… 722 00:47:38,320 --> 00:47:40,760 We are here for you. 723 00:47:40,840 --> 00:47:42,760 You are strong. -You can do it. 724 00:47:44,280 --> 00:47:45,760 An interesting blog. 725 00:47:45,840 --> 00:47:47,160 She's just like you. 726 00:47:51,480 --> 00:47:53,000 ABOUT MILLA BLAKE 727 00:47:54,920 --> 00:47:58,440 Every day on this… I hate the word 'journey'. 728 00:47:58,520 --> 00:48:02,680 It feels like my voice becomes stronger and louder than ever. 729 00:48:03,480 --> 00:48:05,680 I am not alone and not broken. 730 00:48:06,560 --> 00:48:09,880 I can make myself heard. There is room for me too. 731 00:48:10,840 --> 00:48:12,440 I am stronger than I know. 732 00:48:12,960 --> 00:48:16,080 Take heed, world, and hear me roar. 733 00:48:19,520 --> 00:48:20,760 Hey, Millie… 734 00:48:21,880 --> 00:48:23,520 What do you want me to do? 735 00:48:23,600 --> 00:48:25,760 Just tell me what to do and I'll do it. 736 00:48:30,640 --> 00:48:32,000 I want to destroy her. 737 00:48:38,480 --> 00:48:41,160 Change your body and find your soul. 738 00:48:42,640 --> 00:48:45,640 I love good marketing. Let me introduce myself. 739 00:48:45,720 --> 00:48:48,000 Belle's former manager, Milla's best friend... 740 00:48:48,080 --> 00:48:50,000 and the heroine of this story. 741 00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:51,320 Something about me. 742 00:48:51,400 --> 00:48:55,560 I took my final exams at the age of 16 and became a banking analyst before I was 20. 743 00:48:55,640 --> 00:48:58,720 Mind numbing. I quit four months later... 744 00:48:58,800 --> 00:49:02,160 and set up an incubator in the social impact space in Berlin. 745 00:49:02,240 --> 00:49:05,480 Dat werd te leuk and my body couldn't handle it. 746 00:49:05,560 --> 00:49:07,240 Time to go home. 747 00:49:07,320 --> 00:49:10,400 Someone come to me today meet in person. 748 00:49:10,920 --> 00:49:14,920 Super. Yes, fantastic. I can be there in 30 minutes. 749 00:49:18,080 --> 00:49:20,120 Are you on the research team? 750 00:49:20,200 --> 00:49:21,760 What's left of it. 751 00:49:21,840 --> 00:49:23,520 A flat white with soy. 752 00:49:23,600 --> 00:49:25,960 Do you really… -No, I have water. 753 00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:27,400 Thank you. 754 00:49:27,480 --> 00:49:29,040 Are you vegan, Sean? 755 00:49:29,120 --> 00:49:30,080 No. 756 00:49:30,160 --> 00:49:35,240 Do you just like soy? -I try to live a healthier life. 757 00:49:35,800 --> 00:49:36,840 That's not it. 758 00:49:37,600 --> 00:49:39,440 Healthier. It's… 759 00:49:39,520 --> 00:49:43,520 The soy, isoflavones, phytoestragens, extra cell growth. 760 00:49:43,600 --> 00:49:46,440 Do some research. -I will. 761 00:49:46,520 --> 00:49:47,720 Yes. -Chanelle? 762 00:49:47,800 --> 00:49:49,600 With double L and an E. 763 00:49:49,680 --> 00:49:51,880 And you have something on Mel Gibson. 764 00:49:53,000 --> 00:49:56,920 My colleague said that you had an urgent tip about… 765 00:49:57,440 --> 00:49:58,280 Belle. 766 00:50:00,320 --> 00:50:01,200 Belle Gibson. 767 00:50:01,840 --> 00:50:02,960 Who is that? 768 00:50:03,560 --> 00:50:06,160 Good question. How much time do you have… 769 00:50:06,240 --> 00:50:08,600 Just. Are you going to the hearing? 770 00:50:08,680 --> 00:50:11,680 For my sins. -I'd like to catch up. 771 00:50:11,760 --> 00:50:12,640 Hello? 772 00:50:13,320 --> 00:50:17,600 Sorry. Chanelle, this is Justin, also from the research team. 773 00:50:18,240 --> 00:50:20,960 Do you know Belle Gibson? -Not Mel Gibson. 774 00:50:22,240 --> 00:50:24,200 Belle, what do you mean? -Do you know her? 775 00:50:25,360 --> 00:50:28,360 Lucy follows her. What do you mean? -What do you think of her? 776 00:50:31,160 --> 00:50:33,720 I haven't met her. -What does your hunch say? 777 00:50:36,360 --> 00:50:38,080 A leech. 778 00:50:39,160 --> 00:50:40,920 Possibly a snake. You? 779 00:50:45,480 --> 00:50:46,720 I think… 780 00:50:50,720 --> 00:50:53,520 Can I talk to him too? -What did she do? 781 00:51:08,960 --> 00:51:11,040 Blood sugar back to normal. 782 00:51:12,520 --> 00:51:13,800 Sorry, I… 783 00:51:16,000 --> 00:51:17,680 I have previously... 784 00:51:18,760 --> 00:51:19,600 lied. 785 00:51:23,480 --> 00:51:24,760 That's okay. 786 00:51:26,600 --> 00:51:27,600 Yes. 787 00:51:27,680 --> 00:51:28,960 Take a deep breath. 788 00:51:30,720 --> 00:51:34,480 Let's get started with your lie about brain cancer. 789 00:51:37,440 --> 00:51:39,760 No, I didn't lie about that. 790 00:51:45,760 --> 00:51:47,960 SEND A REQUEST TO MILLA BLAKE? 791 00:51:53,600 --> 00:51:56,640 When I said people told me... 792 00:51:57,840 --> 00:51:59,040 instinctively… 793 00:52:02,480 --> 00:52:06,560 That's not entirely true. 794 00:52:12,240 --> 00:52:13,920 I really try my best... 795 00:52:15,200 --> 00:52:19,720 I really try really hard so that they like me. 796 00:52:23,360 --> 00:52:24,640 And in the end... 797 00:52:27,320 --> 00:52:28,800 they never like me. 798 00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:36,200 Subtitled by: Rick de Laat