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It was so clean when I got back.

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I felt like you hadn't been
home once all weekend.

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I'm Theo.
I'm a doctor here.

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Hey Theo Doctor Here,
I'm Siobhan, patient here.

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Siobhan Carlyle,
14-year-old lupus patient,

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she's waiting on an experimental
bone marrow transplant.

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(THEO): I found a way
to get you to Ottawa.

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Just have a good time up there, okay?

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- I'm going to Turkey.
- What's gonna happen

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- while you're gone?
- Rotating attendings to cover

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and then you figure out all the rest.

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- You're dropping out.
- No! No, I-I don't...

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- I don't know!
- So, that's going well.

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Our FX board approval
says anything that develops

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during the course of our study
has to be included.

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I don't like being backed into a corner.

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What if I just... I don't
know how to feel anymore.

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I want us
rethinking our entire approach

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to patient interaction.
I'm sorry, Bashir, but for you,

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that means
not training as a surgeon.

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(CITY SOUNDSCAPE)

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I'm serious, Sal eh, say yes!

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<i>Amira wants to sing at my wedding.</i>

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You should be lucky to get
this kind of entertainment.

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What are you? Her manager?

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- Good workout?
- Hey.

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Amira and I made plans
to walk her to school.

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So I brought Timbits.

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Thank you. Good thing
I worked up an appetite.

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I told Sal eh I'd perform at his wedding.

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The Worst Pies in London.

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<i>If he moves it to Turkey,</i>

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<i>we'll be citizens and can travel.</i>

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(LAUGHS) We can't do that!

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Yeah, you can't sing
about cutting up people

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and putting them into pies
at a wedding, Amira.

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Oh, come on! It's a crowd-pleaser.

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And it's my school audition song.

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Oh, yeah, Amira thinks
that if she keeps saying

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"audition" it will actually
happen. Here, I'll take that.

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(SIGHS) You see my life?

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- Yeah. Okay, say bye!
- We'll work on him together.

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<i>Speaking in Arabic...</i>

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(IN ENGLISH): What, you're leaving?

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Now, after all this time?

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<i>Speaking in Arabic...</i>

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(IN ENGLISH): But the border
with your work,

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it will be dangerous.
You need to think this through.

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I am. We are.

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Like you did, Bashir.

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The only reason I'm where I am

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is because a truck crashed
and I saved a man's life.

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Okay, right place, right time.
I was lucky, Sal eh.

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Do you hear yourself? Lucky?

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You've just always been lucky?

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<i>Tell me you don't actually believe that.</i>

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<i>Speaking in Arabic...</i>

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<i>(SALEH): Bashir...</i>

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(IN ENGLISH): That's not why I told you.

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(SALEH SIGHS) <i>You know
why I have to leave.</i>

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<i>Speaking in Arabic...</i>

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(IN ENGLISH): Tell Amira
I'll, uh, meet her outside.

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Wait, you can wait in the house.

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No, I'm good.

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I'm gonna spare you the lecture
on her school,

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but if she asks...

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- I'll tell her you tried.
- Thanks.

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Hey, Rania.

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Amira told Sal eh that
we're becoming citizens?

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Yeah?

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That's why he doesn't
want me sending money,

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because it would violate sanctions.

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I know it's hard, being
here while he's there.

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But he wouldn't want you hiding
your good news, Bashir.

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Which is why I, uh...

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I should tell you. (CLEARS THROAT)

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I'm seeing someone new.

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- Yeah!
- Rania, that's great!

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(LAUGHS)

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I'm seeing someone too, so...

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Wow.

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I'm happy for you.

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And you're allowed to be happy
for yourself too.

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(DOOR OPENS)

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(INTRIGUING MUSIC)

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*TRANSPLANT*
Season 03  Episode 03

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Episode Title: "Hospital Beige"
Aired on: <font color="

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How many patients
do they have you balancing

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at once in cardiology?

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As many as I can carry.
Actually, could you...

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- Yeah.
- Thank you.

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So uh, this thing with Bash,

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how are you managing to fit him
into your usual metric

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of giving 200 percent?

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By downgrading to a 75-75 split?

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(CHUCKLES) You? As if.

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Shut up.

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- Theo?
- Siobhan?

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What happened to your face?

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Uh, I see they're letting you
charter your own flights now.

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For business, not pleasure.

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Theo, my foster mom, Gloria.
Gloria, this is...

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- The famous Dr. Hunter.
- Oh. Hello.

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(NERVOUS LAUGH)
I'm guessing you're not here

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- just to visit me.
- Transplant surgery.

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I thought you already had
a bone marrow transplant.

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- She did. It went well, but...
- My kidney didn't get the memo.

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Nine lives currently down to one.

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And we have a kidney here for you?

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Uh, my colleague, Dr. Leblanc.

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On its way, so we'd better
motor. Nice meeting you.

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I'll see you before the surgery.

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How are you, Theo?

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John's memorial go okay?
I was still home recovering.

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It was rough.

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Glad you're on your feet.

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His widow was hoping to meet you.

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Maybe give her a call?

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(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)

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John's the pilot who died in the crash?

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- Are you gonna reach out?
- You think I should?

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I mean, you're the last one
who saw him alive

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and she's gonna want closure.

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You know, you've always
known how to take care

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of people like that.

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Yeah except lately,
my radar's been a little off,

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I just wouldn't wanna
make her uncomfortable.

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I'm sure that's not true with you.

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(ELEVATOR DINGS)

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Oh, my chart! Thank you. Sorry.

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(ELEVATOR DINGS)

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(CITY SOUNDSCAPE)

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<i>Speaking in Arabic...</i>

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(WOMAN, IN ENGLISH): I need help!

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I could use a little help!

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If you could, uh, hold these.

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Excuse me, are you alright?

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So I can figure out what hurts.

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Is someone with you?

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Ari. Arianna.

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Now she's gone.

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(SIREN WAILING)

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(SIGHS) Take these.

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I told security to stand down.

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Okay. Um...

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- Can you go find a gown or a...
- Blanket.

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- Yeah.
- Yeah.

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(GASPS)

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(BREATHING HEAVILY)

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(KNOCKING)

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Hi, I'm Bashir, I'm a doctor.

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Uh, can you tell me your name
and maybe why you're here?

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Well, I...

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I think I was wondering if it's okay

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that my heart is beating
so fast? And um...

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why it hurts my stomach?

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Well, I'd have to listen to be sure.

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Well, then listen.

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Okay. Deep breath.

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Ari would love this book.
Can we keep it?

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Uh, may I?

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I am a bit frosty.

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Her pupils are dilated.

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Is there something in her system?

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- Let's do a tox screen.
- Yeah.

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Um, what's Ari's last name?

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- We can get someone to page...
- It's the same as mine.

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(LAUGHS) Actually...

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I have her phone in here somewhere.

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Um, maybe you can tell me

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what you've taken that's making
you feel this good?

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Maybe I could.

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Oh.

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Battery's dead.

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Maybe you could resuscitate it.

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(WOMAN LAUGHS)

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So you said you passed out?

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Yeah. On my way
to the bathroom at two AM.

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Which also makes no sense

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because I had my last tea at eight PM.

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And them bam, the thing
in my chest shook me awake.

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You're sure it wasn't
just the fluttering

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from your Long QT syndrome
we talked about last time?

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Uh, more like an earthquake.

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If I wanted one of those,
I'd live on the west coast.

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(LAUGHS)

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Oh so we move directly to crazy
lady imagining things.

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No, no, of course not. It's just...

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Part of the ICD study
is data feedback and we didn't...

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The system shows no
indication it went off.

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Or that you had any change
in your rhythm at all.

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Then your system doesn't work.
I know what I felt.

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Okay well, we'll run a few labs
and confirm what happened.

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You do that.

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Long QT can cause fainting.

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But almost always with
an accompanying arrhythmia

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- which would've been logged.
- You think she's lying?

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I believe she felt something.
Do an echo.

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But don't let her suck you in.

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Lily's been my patient for years
and she's a malingerer.

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I'll also run diagnostics on her ICD

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to make sure it's still working.

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Yes, let's log it as
a potential glitch either way.

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(PHONE BUZZING)

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I thought we shared
a preference for texting?

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<i>It's harder to say no to a face.</i>

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What's the ask?

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<i>I went to pay tuition with
the cheque you gave me.</i>

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But financial services says
I need a fancy bank draft.

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<i>Even if I knew what that was,
she says I can't do it online.</i>

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So you're saying that YouTube
doesn't teach you

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how to do that? That's weird.

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Ha. Since you're Dad's executor,

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you need to do it.

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<i>But I was hoping you could show me how.</i>

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Why is it that every time you call,

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you have some kind of jam
I need to pull you out of?

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Why is it no matter what I do,
you're disappointed in me?

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<i>Is it my fault they use
ancient technology?</i>

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Might as well ask for an IOU
on a stone tablet.

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Shay. When do you need it by?

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Today or I lose courses.

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I can meet you at the bank
whenever's good.

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No, it's just easier if I do it myself.

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At least tell me something
I can do in return.

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Make us dinner? I saw a video
about deep-frying chickpeas.

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No, the last thing I need
is my kitchen on fire.

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- <i>I gotta go.</i>
- (PHONE CHIMES)

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- Isn't Novak back from Turkey?
- Next week.

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Which means a random surgeon
correcting me at every turn.

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You're half-right.

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00:10:06,749 --> 00:10:08,034
Dr. Singh, are you covering today?

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Don't look so excited.

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Okay well I, uh, will page you
if there's any action.

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I cleared my schedule.

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Thought I'd go take a look and make sure

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we're properly set up.

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Dr. Singh. I'll walk with you.

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You weren't at the staff
meeting this morning.

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I thought that was tomorrow.

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Last minute a change.

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The e-mails sometimes go to Spam.

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Gave everyone a chance to talk
about me behind my back?

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Uh, general consensus is,

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they don't know what to make of you.

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Thank you for covering
in Trauma OR today.

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There's been some uh, growing pains...

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- Ha!
- And I'd like to get another

249
00:10:42,517 --> 00:10:43,601
surgeon's take.

250
00:10:43,685 --> 00:10:46,438
Someone less opaque
than Mark Novak, you mean?

251
00:10:46,522 --> 00:10:49,941
That. Plus, I understand
that you've been a critic

252
00:10:50,025 --> 00:10:51,309
of the incentive from the start.

253
00:10:51,393 --> 00:10:53,345
Your sources are correct.

254
00:10:53,429 --> 00:10:55,929
Good. Then you won't pull
any punches with your feedback.

255
00:10:57,056 --> 00:10:59,716
<i>Speaking in Arabic...</i>

256
00:11:01,403 --> 00:11:02,702
(IN ENGLISH): Hello?

257
00:11:04,473 --> 00:11:05,891
Make any sense of that teenaged brain

258
00:11:05,975 --> 00:11:07,159
you've living with?

259
00:11:07,243 --> 00:11:08,926
I think I'm starting to get
what you're balancing.

260
00:11:09,010 --> 00:11:10,961
Oh, that wasn't about Amira.

261
00:11:11,045 --> 00:11:12,762
Oh. So it's just me then.

262
00:11:12,846 --> 00:11:15,732
No. I'm sorry, it's just... you
remember my friend Sal eh?

263
00:11:15,816 --> 00:11:17,934
Yeah, the white helmet guy
from Syria. Is he okay?

264
00:11:18,018 --> 00:11:20,170
Yeah, I'm trying to send him
money but Canada

265
00:11:20,254 --> 00:11:22,206
has sanctions that can
make it frustrating.

266
00:11:22,290 --> 00:11:23,374
So no e-transfers?

267
00:11:23,458 --> 00:11:26,109
The point of these rules
is to stop funds

268
00:11:26,193 --> 00:11:28,778
from getting to the Regime
or opposition forces,

269
00:11:28,862 --> 00:11:31,281
but they cast a wide net
so personal transfers

270
00:11:31,365 --> 00:11:34,118
- are blocked too.
- Money in a birthday card?

271
00:11:34,202 --> 00:11:36,253
It's a good way to get it stolen.

272
00:11:36,337 --> 00:11:37,921
- They open our mail.
- Oh.

273
00:11:38,005 --> 00:11:40,324
There are couriers who can
help get cash overseas

274
00:11:40,408 --> 00:11:41,925
through random networks.

275
00:11:42,009 --> 00:11:44,127
- Is that dangerous?
- Not for everyone.

276
00:11:44,211 --> 00:11:46,261
Plenty of us still use them
to help our families

277
00:11:46,345 --> 00:11:49,398
back home but now, if it got
connected it back to me...

278
00:11:49,482 --> 00:11:51,300
You're still applying to be a citizen.

279
00:11:51,384 --> 00:11:53,603
Yeah, you gotta be careful.

280
00:11:53,687 --> 00:11:55,220
What if I did it?

281
00:11:56,523 --> 00:11:57,773
June, uh...

282
00:11:57,857 --> 00:12:00,278
I have to go out anyways.
Plus, Singh is in Trauma OR

283
00:12:00,362 --> 00:12:02,245
and he's just making a whole
long list of grievances.

284
00:12:02,329 --> 00:12:04,813
I have no idea what
I've gotten myself...

285
00:12:04,897 --> 00:12:07,216
...into. Sorry, I know
that's a sore spot.

286
00:12:07,300 --> 00:12:10,186
Just uh, let me know
how to do the money thing.

287
00:12:10,270 --> 00:12:12,470
- Okay. Thank you.
- Yeah.

288
00:12:15,007 --> 00:12:17,742
(PHONE RINGING FAINTLY)

289
00:12:21,012 --> 00:12:23,313
(PHONE RINGING)

290
00:12:30,689 --> 00:12:31,806
Hello?

291
00:12:31,890 --> 00:12:33,208
<i>(MAN): How did you get this phone?</i>

292
00:12:33,292 --> 00:12:36,378
I'm sorry, it belongs
to someone named Ari, I'm just...

293
00:12:36,462 --> 00:12:37,412
<i>Who are you?</i>

294
00:12:37,496 --> 00:12:39,414
I'm a doctor at York Memorial Hospital.

295
00:12:39,498 --> 00:12:41,683
<i>Oh God. Is it Krista? Is she okay?</i>

296
00:12:41,767 --> 00:12:44,052
<i>She called from this number
last night then didn't answer.</i>

297
00:12:44,136 --> 00:12:45,587
<i>I've been scared to try hospitals...</i>

298
00:12:45,671 --> 00:12:48,290
I'm sorry, I can't divulge
any patient information.

299
00:12:48,374 --> 00:12:49,991
<i>Is she alive?</i>

300
00:12:50,075 --> 00:12:51,159
Yes.

301
00:12:51,243 --> 00:12:52,760
<i>Thank you. What department?</i>

302
00:12:52,844 --> 00:12:54,663
Emergency. Ask for Dr. Ha med.

303
00:12:54,747 --> 00:12:56,129
I think her name's Krista.

304
00:12:56,213 --> 00:12:58,131
Blood came back. Full of Ketamine.

305
00:12:58,215 --> 00:13:00,634
That explains her high BP
and heart rate...

306
00:13:00,718 --> 00:13:02,770
Things people put
in their body these days...

307
00:13:02,854 --> 00:13:04,672
I mean, some guy came in
last week after licking

308
00:13:04,756 --> 00:13:05,806
a poisonous toad. So...

309
00:13:05,890 --> 00:13:07,975
Well, let me know if anybody
comes looking for her.

310
00:13:08,059 --> 00:13:09,158
Yep.

311
00:13:10,094 --> 00:13:11,961
Meet at the place by the thing
in an hour?

312
00:13:12,764 --> 00:13:14,548
Claire, could you find Lily a bed

313
00:13:14,632 --> 00:13:16,983
until all her bloods are in?
She had a rough night.

314
00:13:17,067 --> 00:13:19,253
It's bedlam down here.
Can you get her in upstairs?

315
00:13:19,337 --> 00:13:21,221
Oh, no go. Her boss kicked me out,

316
00:13:21,305 --> 00:13:23,424
but Dr. Leblanc is a renegade.

317
00:13:23,508 --> 00:13:25,226
Yeah, Dr. Fisher
doesn't think she suffered

318
00:13:25,310 --> 00:13:27,293
- from a cardiac event.
- Even though I did.

319
00:13:27,377 --> 00:13:29,162
Which is why I want to run
a wider set of labs

320
00:13:29,246 --> 00:13:30,731
and need a spot for her while we wait.

321
00:13:30,815 --> 00:13:32,533
It's really a madhouse today.

322
00:13:32,617 --> 00:13:35,238
Um, the best I can do is hallway gurney.

323
00:13:35,322 --> 00:13:36,843
That's perfect! It's great. Stay here,

324
00:13:36,927 --> 00:13:38,571
we'll get you settled.

325
00:13:38,655 --> 00:13:40,073
I promise it won't be long.

326
00:13:40,157 --> 00:13:42,009
Okay, and when the new labs come in,

327
00:13:42,093 --> 00:13:43,209
are we looping in Dr. Fisher?

328
00:13:43,293 --> 00:13:44,978
She doesn't really think
they're necessary

329
00:13:45,062 --> 00:13:47,129
- so just me for now?
- Yep.

330
00:13:47,664 --> 00:13:48,682
(DOOR OPENS)

331
00:13:48,766 --> 00:13:50,050
What happened?

332
00:13:50,134 --> 00:13:52,719
The transplant kidney has
a bacterial infection.

333
00:13:52,803 --> 00:13:55,689
My guess is someone put
their lunch in the wrong cooler.

334
00:13:55,773 --> 00:13:57,973
I'm so sorry, guys.

335
00:13:58,542 --> 00:14:01,543
Um... another one could come up.

336
00:14:02,212 --> 00:14:04,797
They said I could hold out
a few more weeks on dialysis...

337
00:14:04,881 --> 00:14:06,799
Definitely not enough time
to finish my memoir...

338
00:14:06,883 --> 00:14:08,550
I'll be right back.

339
00:14:09,786 --> 00:14:10,936
(DOOR CLOSES)

340
00:14:11,020 --> 00:14:12,938
Please tell me you're not
gonna run off to cry

341
00:14:13,022 --> 00:14:14,040
in the hallway too.

342
00:14:14,124 --> 00:14:16,876
For better or worse,
I am comfortably numb, so...

343
00:14:17,310 --> 00:14:18,843
Apparently not.

344
00:14:19,563 --> 00:14:21,681
How else can I be of use to you?

345
00:14:21,765 --> 00:14:23,949
- (SIGH)
- By discussing anything

346
00:14:24,033 --> 00:14:26,067
but kidneys or my lack thereof?

347
00:14:26,703 --> 00:14:28,087
Well, you're writing a memoir?

348
00:14:28,171 --> 00:14:30,319
I'm thinking of calling it
Shades of Beige...

349
00:14:30,452 --> 00:14:33,305
in hon our of hideous
hospital walls. Thoughts?

350
00:14:33,577 --> 00:14:35,710
Could use some work.

351
00:14:39,835 --> 00:14:41,835
I'm scared, Theo.

352
00:14:42,291 --> 00:14:43,757
I know.

353
00:14:46,311 --> 00:14:47,895
But we'll think of a better title.

354
00:14:47,980 --> 00:14:49,213
(SCOFFS)

355
00:14:53,397 --> 00:14:55,718
(SIREN BLARING)

356
00:14:56,028 --> 00:14:58,095
(JUNE): Right behind you, Bash.

357
00:14:59,338 --> 00:15:00,895
Matt Ellis, 34!

358
00:15:00,980 --> 00:15:02,157
A truck hit his motorcycle.

359
00:15:02,241 --> 00:15:03,626
Skull fracture, collapsed lung,

360
00:15:03,769 --> 00:15:05,885
abdo shredded.
We had to pack and seal.

361
00:15:05,970 --> 00:15:08,089
He was a block away from
our house! Please help him!

362
00:15:08,173 --> 00:15:10,857
Our surgeons have it, ma'am.
What do you need, Dr. Curtis?

363
00:15:10,941 --> 00:15:12,625
Uh, O-neg blood and
I'll take him straight

364
00:15:12,709 --> 00:15:14,142
to trauma OR. Page Singh.

365
00:15:14,878 --> 00:15:16,496
June's got this, Dr. Ha med.

366
00:15:16,580 --> 00:15:17,997
What's going to happen to him?

367
00:15:18,081 --> 00:15:19,566
Let our surgeons do their job, ma'am.

368
00:15:19,650 --> 00:15:21,183
They'll take care of him.

369
00:15:24,521 --> 00:15:27,440
Right pupil's blown. Page Neurosurg,

370
00:15:27,524 --> 00:15:29,275
interventional radiology.

371
00:15:29,359 --> 00:15:32,111
Chest tube's in. Dammit,
his liver's exposed.

372
00:15:32,195 --> 00:15:34,681
- I'm gonna need suction.
- I've got blood.

373
00:15:34,765 --> 00:15:36,583
New porter took it
to Trauma Bay instead.

374
00:15:36,667 --> 00:15:37,817
Claire, prep to transfuse.

375
00:15:37,901 --> 00:15:39,451
Theo since you're here, intubate?

376
00:15:39,535 --> 00:15:40,601
Got it.

377
00:15:41,204 --> 00:15:43,371
Massive abdominal hemorrhage.

378
00:15:43,940 --> 00:15:46,425
I'm guessing from more than one spot.

379
00:15:46,509 --> 00:15:48,726
- He's bleeding out.
- Get a clamp in there.

380
00:15:48,810 --> 00:15:50,229
- I've got it, Kelly.
- Claire, there is no point.

381
00:15:50,313 --> 00:15:52,464
I can't see anything.
I'm suctioning and sponging

382
00:15:52,548 --> 00:15:53,469
as fast as I can.

383
00:15:53,553 --> 00:15:55,739
I've got a difficult airway here.

384
00:15:55,823 --> 00:15:57,388
So much blood.

385
00:15:58,554 --> 00:15:59,706
I'm in...

386
00:15:59,790 --> 00:16:02,042
but he's hypovolemic. I don't
think we're gonna be able

387
00:16:02,126 --> 00:16:03,510
to transfuse fast enough.

388
00:16:03,594 --> 00:16:05,478
(BEEPING)

389
00:16:05,562 --> 00:16:07,029
Pressure's tanking.

390
00:16:07,763 --> 00:16:09,949
Dr. Curtis what do you need?

391
00:16:10,033 --> 00:16:11,199
June!

392
00:16:12,835 --> 00:16:14,520
(BREATHING HEAVILY)

393
00:16:14,604 --> 00:16:16,084
June!

394
00:16:16,168 --> 00:16:18,154
There is too much blood,
we're not keeping up.

395
00:16:18,238 --> 00:16:20,639
I see that. Make a plan
to deal with it, or I will.

396
00:16:20,723 --> 00:16:23,194
Alright, abdo's the priority.
I'm gonna use a VAC, Claire.

397
00:16:23,278 --> 00:16:24,428
On the backup cart.

398
00:16:24,512 --> 00:16:25,963
You don't know what negative pressure

399
00:16:26,047 --> 00:16:27,671
- will do to the liver.
- Well, Dr. Novak taught me

400
00:16:27,755 --> 00:16:29,301
how to pack properly, so unless
you have a better idea?

401
00:16:29,385 --> 00:16:30,484
Extra hands!

402
00:16:31,821 --> 00:16:33,354
Pack thoroughly.

403
00:16:42,664 --> 00:16:45,398
- Pressure's ticking up.
- That's a good sign.

404
00:16:47,202 --> 00:16:49,203
Just about ready for the patch.

405
00:16:54,209 --> 00:16:56,109
One twenty-five Milli continuous.

406
00:16:57,179 --> 00:16:59,913
(AIR HISSING)

407
00:17:02,617 --> 00:17:03,969
(SIGH)

408
00:17:04,053 --> 00:17:05,670
So, is that always like this in here?

409
00:17:05,754 --> 00:17:07,271
Only on days that end in Y.

410
00:17:07,355 --> 00:17:08,906
We should get an ETA on Neurosurg.

411
00:17:08,990 --> 00:17:10,342
There's no point in moving
heaven and earth

412
00:17:10,426 --> 00:17:11,992
if there's no brain function.

413
00:17:14,277 --> 00:17:15,944
You think he's gonna pull through?

414
00:17:19,800 --> 00:17:21,785
Krista, I was panicking!
You said you're with friends

415
00:17:21,869 --> 00:17:23,988
then stay out all night in some k-hole?!

416
00:17:24,072 --> 00:17:26,190
That's not at all what it was!

417
00:17:26,274 --> 00:17:27,858
- It's therapeutic.
- Oh, come...

418
00:17:27,942 --> 00:17:29,893
Controlled dosage by a psychiatrist

419
00:17:29,977 --> 00:17:32,129
and it's completely legal.

420
00:17:32,213 --> 00:17:34,064
When I left the clinic, I was fine.

421
00:17:34,148 --> 00:17:37,167
I... I've never rebounded
like this before.

422
00:17:37,251 --> 00:17:39,252
And how are you feeling now?

423
00:17:40,088 --> 00:17:44,207
Just tired and embarrassed. (SCOFFS)

424
00:17:44,291 --> 00:17:47,410
I thought I... I called you?

425
00:17:47,494 --> 00:17:48,978
Yeah, in the middle of the night,

426
00:17:49,062 --> 00:17:51,381
from her phone, which
apparently you kept active?

427
00:17:51,465 --> 00:17:53,049
And then I have to come back here,

428
00:17:53,133 --> 00:17:55,900
- to the place they brought her...
- She has a name, Tavi!

429
00:17:57,104 --> 00:17:59,404
And you're allowed to think about her.

430
00:18:04,644 --> 00:18:07,263
Our daughter Arianna died two years ago.

431
00:18:07,347 --> 00:18:08,579
She was 17.

432
00:18:09,282 --> 00:18:11,849
I'm very sorry for your loss.

433
00:18:12,852 --> 00:18:15,405
Anyway, I think that's why I came here.

434
00:18:15,489 --> 00:18:18,040
To feel connected to her again.

435
00:18:18,124 --> 00:18:19,108
Hmm.

436
00:18:19,192 --> 00:18:21,176
I thought you came in
because of your symptoms.

437
00:18:21,260 --> 00:18:23,460
Symptoms? What symptoms?

438
00:18:24,696 --> 00:18:27,315
A racing heart, which makes sense

439
00:18:27,399 --> 00:18:29,017
considering your high blood pressure.

440
00:18:29,101 --> 00:18:30,385
And stomach pain?

441
00:18:30,469 --> 00:18:32,487
Yeah, uh...

442
00:18:32,571 --> 00:18:35,823
Now that I'm officially back in my body,

443
00:18:35,907 --> 00:18:38,026
I do feel that.

444
00:18:38,110 --> 00:18:40,061
The symptoms started a few days ago.

445
00:18:40,145 --> 00:18:42,364
Lie back for me, please.
If they're administering

446
00:18:42,448 --> 00:18:44,932
controlled substances, they
should be checking vitals.

447
00:18:45,016 --> 00:18:46,933
They do! Always! I was fine when...

448
00:18:47,017 --> 00:18:48,370
When you took a bunch of Ketamine?!

449
00:18:48,454 --> 00:18:51,806
Okay, I hear you're angry,
Tavi, but it helps me!

450
00:18:51,890 --> 00:18:53,925
It breaks down barriers.

451
00:18:55,060 --> 00:18:57,144
- And Ari even talks to me.
- Okay...

452
00:18:57,228 --> 00:19:00,281
No, she does! And she says
we're allowed to move on.

453
00:19:00,365 --> 00:19:02,866
- She wants us to move on!
- I don't wanna hear that crap!

454
00:19:06,138 --> 00:19:08,204
Um, you have a pulse here.

455
00:19:09,941 --> 00:19:11,258
Isn't that a good thing?

456
00:19:11,342 --> 00:19:13,061
Not when it's in your abdomen.

457
00:19:13,145 --> 00:19:15,345
We can run some tests
to see what's causing it.

458
00:19:17,448 --> 00:19:18,448
Okay.

459
00:19:24,022 --> 00:19:26,474
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

460
00:19:26,558 --> 00:19:28,475
The fiction that we are somehow

461
00:19:28,559 --> 00:19:30,511
at our best after a 12 hours
on the floor.

462
00:19:30,595 --> 00:19:33,981
So... all my years of pulling
12-to-16 was what?

463
00:19:34,065 --> 00:19:35,116
Wasted effort?

464
00:19:35,200 --> 00:19:37,318
Still four weeks on,
one week off, right?

465
00:19:37,402 --> 00:19:39,086
'Cause I live for that week.

466
00:19:39,170 --> 00:19:40,521
This way you wouldn't have to.

467
00:19:40,605 --> 00:19:43,172
Around the corner, Mags.
You can't miss her!

468
00:19:47,312 --> 00:19:48,562
You settled in.

469
00:19:48,646 --> 00:19:50,431
I like to be comfortable.

470
00:19:50,515 --> 00:19:52,199
Do we know what happened last night?

471
00:19:52,283 --> 00:19:54,468
All your labs came back normal.

472
00:19:54,552 --> 00:19:56,103
So maybe you were just lightheaded.

473
00:19:56,187 --> 00:19:57,671
- (GASPS)
- You're on team

474
00:19:57,755 --> 00:19:59,039
"it's all in her head"?

475
00:19:59,123 --> 00:20:00,540
Thought you were a renegade.

476
00:20:00,624 --> 00:20:02,910
Lily, is there a reason
you don't want to go home?

477
00:20:02,994 --> 00:20:04,410
Living alone with a heart condition

478
00:20:04,494 --> 00:20:06,346
means choosing between
locking the deadbolt

479
00:20:06,430 --> 00:20:08,730
and the paramedics being
able to get to me in time.

480
00:20:09,433 --> 00:20:11,217
No, I'm not asking for pity.

481
00:20:11,301 --> 00:20:12,953
I like my life.

482
00:20:13,037 --> 00:20:14,788
But all I have is how I feel

483
00:20:14,872 --> 00:20:16,639
and I won't be made invisible.

484
00:20:17,608 --> 00:20:20,560
Well... I mean, if we
were going to look wider

485
00:20:20,644 --> 00:20:22,862
than Long QT, any family
history of stroke

486
00:20:22,946 --> 00:20:24,562
- or high blood pressure?
- I went through all that

487
00:20:24,646 --> 00:20:26,498
with your boss's previous
lackey when I signed up

488
00:20:26,582 --> 00:20:28,334
- for this study last year.
- Well, the only other thing

489
00:20:28,418 --> 00:20:30,470
I can do is collect your tropes.
They'd give us a definitive

490
00:20:30,554 --> 00:20:32,005
answer on a coronary event.

491
00:20:32,089 --> 00:20:34,740
Can I be there when you tell
Dr. Fisher I was right?

492
00:20:34,824 --> 00:20:36,108
If we find something.

493
00:20:36,192 --> 00:20:39,379
Her insistence
on the infallibility of a device

494
00:20:39,463 --> 00:20:41,314
over a human being?

495
00:20:41,398 --> 00:20:43,616
Must be a pretty lucrative
hunk of metal.

496
00:20:43,700 --> 00:20:46,201
What, does she get some kind of cut?

497
00:20:48,539 --> 00:20:50,004
It's a fire hazard.

498
00:20:58,047 --> 00:20:59,899
- (SIGH)
- Before you say anything,

499
00:20:59,983 --> 00:21:02,001
I know I lost control.
It was just for a second.

500
00:21:02,085 --> 00:21:03,769
A second is all it takes.

501
00:21:03,853 --> 00:21:06,172
- If the chaos is getting to you...
- Yeah, you know...

502
00:21:06,256 --> 00:21:08,607
there's a woman out there
who's going to find out

503
00:21:08,691 --> 00:21:10,875
that her husband is hanging on
by a thread,

504
00:21:10,959 --> 00:21:13,378
so it is not just the chaos.

505
00:21:13,462 --> 00:21:15,046
It's everything, and it's all on me,

506
00:21:15,130 --> 00:21:16,815
so that's why I wanted you covering.

507
00:21:16,899 --> 00:21:19,266
So, did I bite off more than I can chew?

508
00:21:21,660 --> 00:21:24,230
You had structure and a clear
path, and you left it.

509
00:21:25,508 --> 00:21:29,543
I can't answer for you, June.
You chose this.

510
00:21:32,581 --> 00:21:35,801
June Curtis? I've been easing
her into being friends

511
00:21:35,885 --> 00:21:37,736
for the past two years
and you reap the dividends?

512
00:21:37,820 --> 00:21:40,205
- That's so annoying!
- She insisted.

513
00:21:40,289 --> 00:21:42,274
But she can still be traced
back to you though, right?

514
00:21:42,358 --> 00:21:43,875
I mean, if anyone followed the money,

515
00:21:43,959 --> 00:21:45,443
wouldn't she still be breaking the rule?

516
00:21:45,527 --> 00:21:48,412
Saleh's like my brother,
Mags. I have to help.

517
00:21:48,496 --> 00:21:50,381
Even though he told you not to?

518
00:21:50,465 --> 00:21:53,417
Anyway, we were talking
about your conflict of interest.

519
00:21:53,501 --> 00:21:56,053
Oh, so we're just done
with you now? Okay.

520
00:21:56,137 --> 00:21:58,388
(CHUCKLES) I mean, I don't know how

521
00:21:58,472 --> 00:22:00,157
it didn't occur to me that Fisher

522
00:22:00,241 --> 00:22:02,025
stands to profit from the ICD.

523
00:22:02,109 --> 00:22:04,462
That doesn't mean she doesn't
care about her patients.

524
00:22:04,546 --> 00:22:05,696
She's your cardiologist.

525
00:22:05,780 --> 00:22:07,365
Yeah, and she always
wants me to do less!

526
00:22:07,449 --> 00:22:08,799
And I walked away from a career in Emerg

527
00:22:08,883 --> 00:22:10,801
I'd been building forever
because it didn't feel right.

528
00:22:10,885 --> 00:22:12,819
What if cardiology is wrong too?

529
00:22:13,755 --> 00:22:16,073
- Um... Kind of spiralling here.
- Yeah, I'm thinking.

530
00:22:16,157 --> 00:22:18,024
Can I think for one second? Please.

531
00:22:19,293 --> 00:22:22,045
Okay, you know your patient
who's spread out in the hallway?

532
00:22:22,129 --> 00:22:23,881
You do that too... morally.

533
00:22:23,965 --> 00:22:26,782
That's what you came up with?
My morals take too much space?

534
00:22:26,866 --> 00:22:28,550
What? Do you think I'm naive
because I want to be happy?

535
00:22:28,634 --> 00:22:30,453
No, I think you burn things
down when they don't match

536
00:22:30,537 --> 00:22:32,288
- your impossible standards.
- And I think you're risking

537
00:22:32,372 --> 00:22:34,024
your citizenship to help Sal eh
for the same reason

538
00:22:34,108 --> 00:22:35,594
you won't fight for Trauma OR,
you think you don't

539
00:22:35,678 --> 00:22:36,710
deserve things.

540
00:22:42,016 --> 00:22:43,549
Same time tomorrow?

541
00:22:55,729 --> 00:22:57,947
Dr. Hunter, I've been paging you.

542
00:22:58,031 --> 00:22:59,849
That chart you requested came back.

543
00:22:59,933 --> 00:23:01,199
Thank you.

544
00:23:02,569 --> 00:23:04,053
Hey!

545
00:23:04,137 --> 00:23:05,422
Any updates on Matt?

546
00:23:05,506 --> 00:23:07,123
Still too much swelling
on the brain to see

547
00:23:07,207 --> 00:23:08,725
if there's any executive function. Why?

548
00:23:08,809 --> 00:23:11,561
I have a kid who lost a kidney
and Matt's a partial match.

549
00:23:11,645 --> 00:23:13,563
- You screened without consent?
- No.

550
00:23:13,647 --> 00:23:15,131
Surgeons prescreened for transfusions.

551
00:23:15,215 --> 00:23:16,733
- I just looked.
- Okay. Well,

552
00:23:16,817 --> 00:23:18,634
Matt's still alive. And
his very worried wife

553
00:23:18,718 --> 00:23:19,968
doesn't really need you
floating this right now.

554
00:23:20,052 --> 00:23:22,070
I know, it's just he's not
a registered donor.

555
00:23:22,154 --> 00:23:23,871
All it would take is
the transplant nurse to go in

556
00:23:23,955 --> 00:23:25,473
and ask if she'd be willing
to put him on the list.

557
00:23:25,557 --> 00:23:27,143
There are really good reasons
why we don't do that,

558
00:23:27,227 --> 00:23:28,777
like not wanting patients
thinking that we make less

559
00:23:28,861 --> 00:23:30,913
- of an effort with organ donors.
- I know you'll do everything

560
00:23:30,997 --> 00:23:33,749
- you can to save Matt.
- Yeah, and if I'm unsuccessful,

561
00:23:33,833 --> 00:23:35,651
then we can ask.

562
00:23:35,735 --> 00:23:37,720
There won't be enough time
to organize by then!

563
00:23:37,804 --> 00:23:39,288
A kid's life is at stake here!

564
00:23:39,372 --> 00:23:40,855
Look, I know I'm skirting the line,

565
00:23:40,939 --> 00:23:43,059
but as supervising doctor,
if I want us to look into this,

566
00:23:43,143 --> 00:23:45,427
- we look into this!
- Seniority or not, doctor,

567
00:23:45,511 --> 00:23:47,496
you are way over the line!

568
00:23:47,580 --> 00:23:49,847
And I shouldn't have
to explain that to you, Theo.

569
00:23:54,487 --> 00:23:57,339
They said that the ketamine's
mostly out of my system

570
00:23:57,423 --> 00:24:00,342
but that my blood pressure's still high.

571
00:24:00,426 --> 00:24:02,678
That's because in the part
of your aorta that runs

572
00:24:02,762 --> 00:24:04,613
through your abdomen,
those walls have weakened.

573
00:24:04,697 --> 00:24:07,082
It's an abdominal aortic aneurysm.

574
00:24:07,166 --> 00:24:09,618
Ketamine raises
blood pressure. I looked it up.

575
00:24:09,702 --> 00:24:11,520
- Did it cause this?
- Not necessarily,

576
00:24:11,604 --> 00:24:13,555
but it may have
exacerbated the aneurysm.

577
00:24:13,639 --> 00:24:14,956
Aren't aneurysms deadly?

578
00:24:15,040 --> 00:24:16,592
They can be if they rupture.

579
00:24:16,676 --> 00:24:19,795
But many of them remain stable
for years with regular imaging.

580
00:24:19,879 --> 00:24:22,530
Some patients have opted
for a surgical intervention.

581
00:24:22,614 --> 00:24:25,266
It's a more definitive solution
but not without its own risks.

582
00:24:25,350 --> 00:24:27,102
What kind of risks?

583
00:24:27,186 --> 00:24:30,119
Heart attack, kidney damage, clots.

584
00:24:32,891 --> 00:24:34,776
Well, I...

585
00:24:34,860 --> 00:24:36,726
I'd vote for surgery.

586
00:24:37,796 --> 00:24:40,147
Why go straight to the riskiest option?

587
00:24:40,231 --> 00:24:42,383
- We should wait and see.
- Why pretend it's not there

588
00:24:42,467 --> 00:24:43,918
when I can face it right now?

589
00:24:44,002 --> 00:24:45,486
He said they'd monitor it,

590
00:24:45,570 --> 00:24:47,622
you could be okay for a long time!

591
00:24:47,706 --> 00:24:49,123
Tavi...

592
00:24:49,207 --> 00:24:51,559
- Fine. Do what you want.
- Don't! Don't disappear!

593
00:24:51,643 --> 00:24:53,494
Stay here and fight with me!

594
00:24:53,578 --> 00:24:56,798
If I do this now, I can move on!

595
00:24:56,882 --> 00:24:58,348
Live my life!

596
00:24:59,985 --> 00:25:01,869
Why won't you stop punishing yourself

597
00:25:01,953 --> 00:25:03,685
and learn to want that too?

598
00:25:05,222 --> 00:25:07,674
It's not true I never think of her.

599
00:25:07,758 --> 00:25:10,176
Her body on that gurney...

600
00:25:10,260 --> 00:25:11,860
it's burned in my mind.

601
00:25:13,664 --> 00:25:16,865
And I will not survive
if it happens to you too.

602
00:25:19,003 --> 00:25:20,836
Sorry, I need some air.

603
00:25:23,807 --> 00:25:28,043
Um, I can read you the options
again if you like.

604
00:25:29,613 --> 00:25:31,034
Yes, please.

605
00:25:35,016 --> 00:25:37,016
(CITY SOUNDSCAPE)

606
00:25:38,011 --> 00:25:39,551
(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)

607
00:25:40,323 --> 00:25:42,357
How much time does she have left?

608
00:25:42,922 --> 00:25:44,740
On the... on the machine.

609
00:25:44,825 --> 00:25:47,794
Two more hours. I've arranged
for transport home.

610
00:25:47,902 --> 00:25:48,953
She wouldn't want to...

611
00:25:49,089 --> 00:25:51,054
To go out surrounded by hospital beige?

612
00:25:51,138 --> 00:25:52,255
(CHUCKLES)

613
00:25:52,339 --> 00:25:54,573
Yeah she's uh, she's mentioned that.

614
00:25:55,642 --> 00:25:57,159
Have you ever fostered before?

615
00:25:57,243 --> 00:25:59,596
A few times. I've never
really bought into the whole

616
00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:01,965
biological imperative, you know?

617
00:26:02,049 --> 00:26:04,100
You always love them. But I told myself

618
00:26:04,184 --> 00:26:05,368
I could keep up the barrier,

619
00:26:05,452 --> 00:26:08,037
and that I was good
at saying goodbye, but...

620
00:26:08,121 --> 00:26:09,939
Not like this.

621
00:26:10,023 --> 00:26:11,590
Not like this.

622
00:26:12,492 --> 00:26:14,310
Can you delay transport?

623
00:26:14,394 --> 00:26:15,745
Have you found another kidney?

624
00:26:15,829 --> 00:26:18,681
It's just... a lead, it's...

625
00:26:18,765 --> 00:26:20,817
Don't get your hopes up. (LAUGHS)

626
00:26:20,901 --> 00:26:22,852
Ah! I'm, uh...

627
00:26:22,936 --> 00:26:25,488
If this works, we're gonna need
a giant cardboard cutout of you

628
00:26:25,572 --> 00:26:27,223
with a cape for the living room.

629
00:26:27,307 --> 00:26:30,041
You guys need to get
out more or find a...

630
00:26:30,944 --> 00:26:35,146
Just don't tell Siobhan, okay?
This could still be nothing.

631
00:26:35,848 --> 00:26:38,000
- Okay.
- Okay?

632
00:26:38,084 --> 00:26:39,317
Okay.

633
00:26:42,522 --> 00:26:44,140
- The favour has to go.
- Yeah, I know,

634
00:26:44,224 --> 00:26:46,290
I'm on my way to tell her
her tropes are negative.

635
00:26:46,792 --> 00:26:49,044
So, we were just talking about you.

636
00:26:49,128 --> 00:26:50,728
We'll be right back.

637
00:26:51,831 --> 00:26:54,183
There is nothing medically
wrong with that woman.

638
00:26:54,267 --> 00:26:56,485
Yeah, I know, Dr. Devi, but
she was scared to go home

639
00:26:56,569 --> 00:26:58,087
and I needed to make sure she was okay

640
00:26:58,171 --> 00:27:00,889
- because I tend to kind of want...
- Fear is its own sickness.

641
00:27:00,973 --> 00:27:02,925
The one that our system
sucks at making room for.

642
00:27:03,009 --> 00:27:05,894
Okay, but we already have
a four-hour backlog of patients

643
00:27:05,978 --> 00:27:07,129
with physical symptoms.

644
00:27:07,213 --> 00:27:08,431
Has anyone been updating her?

645
00:27:08,515 --> 00:27:10,331
Because that can add to her anxiety.

646
00:27:10,415 --> 00:27:11,867
Well, she's not even an Emerg patient.

647
00:27:11,951 --> 00:27:13,802
I'll talk to her. And um,
maybe we can move her

648
00:27:13,886 --> 00:27:15,472
to the waiting room until
she's ready to go?

649
00:27:15,556 --> 00:27:16,955
Great.

650
00:27:18,095 --> 00:27:20,013
Hey. Your courier called.

651
00:27:20,192 --> 00:27:22,010
- He asked a lot of questions.
- Like what?

652
00:27:22,094 --> 00:27:23,379
Like where I work, how I know Sal eh,

653
00:27:23,463 --> 00:27:25,434
what the money's for...
I didn't say anything about you

654
00:27:25,518 --> 00:27:26,982
but are you sure you wanna do this?

655
00:27:27,066 --> 00:27:29,284
Hey! Hey! Something's wrong with Krista!

656
00:27:29,368 --> 00:27:31,553
She started wailing
in pain then passed out!

657
00:27:31,637 --> 00:27:33,904
- Wanna catch me up?
- Low-grade triple A.

658
00:27:35,441 --> 00:27:36,757
Pressure's 60 systolic.

659
00:27:36,841 --> 00:27:39,226
She's not low-grade anymore,
she's full of fluid.

660
00:27:39,310 --> 00:27:41,362
- Maybe it's dissected?
- Whoa does that mean ruptured?

661
00:27:41,446 --> 00:27:43,531
- You said that was unlikely!
- Okay, we need to act now.

662
00:27:43,615 --> 00:27:45,100
We need to stop the bleeding.

663
00:27:45,184 --> 00:27:47,351
- Is she gonna be okay?
- Move aside, Tavi.

664
00:28:03,402 --> 00:28:05,435
We've been packing all month.

665
00:28:06,071 --> 00:28:09,323
I took a job in Denver, and
Matt dropped everything else

666
00:28:09,407 --> 00:28:12,192
just to come. Just to support me.

667
00:28:12,276 --> 00:28:15,229
Now it's my turn to be there.

668
00:28:15,313 --> 00:28:17,231
To get him healthy.

669
00:28:17,315 --> 00:28:19,916
There are resources here
to help you, Jenny.

670
00:28:22,253 --> 00:28:23,886
But I came to ask...

671
00:28:26,224 --> 00:28:28,824
Matt isn't a registered organ donor.

672
00:28:29,827 --> 00:28:32,212
Oh my God, did you come
to tell me that he died?!

673
00:28:32,296 --> 00:28:34,630
No. No. Um...

674
00:28:35,333 --> 00:28:36,783
But if he did,

675
00:28:36,867 --> 00:28:39,419
if you, on his behalf, would
like to donate an organ

676
00:28:39,503 --> 00:28:42,623
to a patient in need,
we can bypass the list.

677
00:28:42,707 --> 00:28:44,758
Are you trying to harvest
one of Matt's organs?

678
00:28:44,842 --> 00:28:46,892
- He is still alive!
- And his surgeons are doing

679
00:28:46,976 --> 00:28:48,328
everything they can to keep it that way.

680
00:28:48,412 --> 00:28:49,997
But if you thought he
had a chance, you...

681
00:28:50,081 --> 00:28:51,566
wouldn't be asking me this, right?

682
00:28:51,650 --> 00:28:53,501
I am not on Matt's team, okay?

683
00:28:53,585 --> 00:28:55,037
I can't tell you what's going to happen.

684
00:28:55,121 --> 00:28:56,905
All I know is that there is a young girl

685
00:28:56,989 --> 00:28:59,508
who is clinging to life
right now, just like Matt.

686
00:28:59,592 --> 00:29:01,440
No! No!

687
00:29:01,524 --> 00:29:03,676
No! It is my turn to be there,

688
00:29:03,760 --> 00:29:07,094
and Matt is gonna live
no matter what you say!

689
00:29:14,638 --> 00:29:15,788
Continue MTP.

690
00:29:15,872 --> 00:29:17,956
- Call the blood bank.
- I'm gonna need suction.

691
00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:19,825
Ah, good thing this happened here.

692
00:29:19,909 --> 00:29:21,659
Eight times out of ten
a rupture will kill you

693
00:29:21,743 --> 00:29:23,244
before you get to the hospital.

694
00:29:25,013 --> 00:29:26,331
She's in hemorrhagic shock.

695
00:29:26,415 --> 00:29:28,014
Go higher, June.

696
00:29:30,252 --> 00:29:32,052
We need superphilia control.

697
00:29:32,521 --> 00:29:33,505
He's not wrong.

698
00:29:33,589 --> 00:29:35,041
Thanks for the sign-off, Dr. Ha med.

699
00:29:35,125 --> 00:29:37,310
I'm gonna compress the aorta
and stop the bleed.

700
00:29:37,394 --> 00:29:39,045
In a more orderly fashion this time?

701
00:29:39,129 --> 00:29:41,262
Crossed clamp. I'm
gonna need retraction.

702
00:29:42,231 --> 00:29:44,249
Dr. Ha med can retract.

703
00:29:44,333 --> 00:29:45,850
You've lost interest?

704
00:29:45,934 --> 00:29:47,519
As per Dr. Devi, I'm not meant to assist

705
00:29:47,603 --> 00:29:49,554
- on trauma surgeries.
- As per Dr. Curtis,

706
00:29:49,638 --> 00:29:51,823
we need help and I agree, so...

707
00:29:51,907 --> 00:29:53,540
Up to you. In or out?

708
00:29:58,079 --> 00:30:00,413
(SUCTIONING)

709
00:30:02,818 --> 00:30:04,201
Retracting.

710
00:30:04,285 --> 00:30:05,485
That's it.

711
00:30:06,454 --> 00:30:07,687
Yeah.

712
00:30:11,488 --> 00:30:13,009
(KNOCK ON DOOR)

713
00:30:13,206 --> 00:30:15,479
Need me to hire movers for that woman?

714
00:30:15,620 --> 00:30:18,172
Oh, Lily? No, that's okay,
I'll take care of it.

715
00:30:18,256 --> 00:30:21,775
Um, what you said about
fear being a sickness,

716
00:30:21,859 --> 00:30:23,893
I completely agree.

717
00:30:24,838 --> 00:30:27,774
Also I read all your academic
papers, so...

718
00:30:27,859 --> 00:30:30,003
Always nice to meet a fan.

719
00:30:30,206 --> 00:30:31,886
...is something a person who publishes

720
00:30:31,970 --> 00:30:33,628
medical research papers says, never.

721
00:30:33,713 --> 00:30:35,209
(CHUCKLES)

722
00:30:35,615 --> 00:30:37,266
Can I ask some advice?

723
00:30:37,475 --> 00:30:39,589
I mean,
I'm not your supervising doctor,

724
00:30:39,674 --> 00:30:41,292
but... shoot.

725
00:30:41,612 --> 00:30:43,930
Is it a conflict of interest

726
00:30:44,014 --> 00:30:46,666
if a physician stands to personally gain

727
00:30:46,750 --> 00:30:48,112
financially from her research?

728
00:30:48,197 --> 00:30:49,513
Yes.

729
00:30:49,786 --> 00:30:51,339
That happens all the time.

730
00:30:51,424 --> 00:30:53,073
But I do think it's wrong.

731
00:30:53,362 --> 00:30:56,181
My advice, however,
is ask to yourself

732
00:30:56,266 --> 00:30:58,599
why you're not asking
the physician the question.

733
00:31:02,602 --> 00:31:05,221
We heard from Neuro on Matt Ellis.

734
00:31:05,306 --> 00:31:08,292
Cognitive function are negative.
Nothing more they can do.

735
00:31:09,015 --> 00:31:11,115
I'm sorry to hear that.

736
00:31:11,411 --> 00:31:13,161
If your patient still needs a kidney,

737
00:31:13,246 --> 00:31:14,780
I'm about to inform the wife.

738
00:31:16,043 --> 00:31:18,237
Don't tell us the girl didn't make it?

739
00:31:18,322 --> 00:31:19,888
Uh, no, um...

740
00:31:21,137 --> 00:31:22,822
Jenny already said no.

741
00:31:22,907 --> 00:31:24,892
You spoke to her after
I asked you not to?

742
00:31:24,977 --> 00:31:26,128
- Dr. Hunter!
- I know!

743
00:31:26,213 --> 00:31:28,544
It was a stupid mistake.

744
00:31:29,126 --> 00:31:30,409
One Siobhan's gonna pay for.

745
00:31:30,493 --> 00:31:33,528
Look, just... Where are the donor forms?

746
00:31:34,164 --> 00:31:35,816
- June.
- Well, I doubt she's gonna

747
00:31:35,940 --> 00:31:37,824
change her mind, but I'll ask again.

748
00:31:38,001 --> 00:31:41,836
Hey. Not for you, for your patient.

749
00:31:42,004 --> 00:31:43,937
- Right. Thank you.
- Yeah.

750
00:31:45,205 --> 00:31:46,872
Tell me what else you need.

751
00:31:48,893 --> 00:31:50,961
To make Trauma OR work for you.

752
00:31:51,975 --> 00:31:55,829
Okay. But earlier you said
that I made the wrong choice.

753
00:31:55,952 --> 00:31:59,106
You did. But I still want
you to succeed, June.

754
00:31:59,197 --> 00:32:02,231
And this shouldn't be all on you.

755
00:32:02,958 --> 00:32:04,676
Plus I look bad if you fail.

756
00:32:04,895 --> 00:32:06,404
Personally, I think you should start

757
00:32:06,496 --> 00:32:09,074
with your surgical cart
work flow, but think about

758
00:32:09,159 --> 00:32:10,659
what else you need.

759
00:32:14,307 --> 00:32:16,107
(SIGHS)

760
00:32:18,639 --> 00:32:21,490
Hey, I can ask someone
from janitorial to do this.

761
00:32:21,574 --> 00:32:23,695
Oh, so a patient waits
another 20 minutes

762
00:32:23,779 --> 00:32:25,364
when it takes me five?

763
00:32:25,450 --> 00:32:27,835
You've heard I'm looking
to change nursing shift hours?

764
00:32:27,920 --> 00:32:28,965
Mm-hmm.

765
00:32:29,050 --> 00:32:30,443
I was hoping I could count on you

766
00:32:30,528 --> 00:32:32,137
- to sell it to your team.
- Mm...

767
00:32:32,321 --> 00:32:34,372
Then why don't you tell me
what's behind it?

768
00:32:34,456 --> 00:32:36,675
To improve overall patient experience,

769
00:32:36,759 --> 00:32:39,945
we're revamping waiting
times and communication.

770
00:32:40,029 --> 00:32:43,263
I'm aware that a lot of that
burden will fall on nurses.

771
00:32:44,059 --> 00:32:45,776
And, uh...

772
00:32:45,954 --> 00:32:48,406
you think shorter shifts
will make up for that?

773
00:32:48,537 --> 00:32:50,889
I know. Change is anarchic.

774
00:32:50,973 --> 00:32:54,559
But I'm willing to be unpopular
if it improves things long term.

775
00:32:54,643 --> 00:32:55,993
I think this will, Claire.

776
00:32:56,077 --> 00:32:57,595
Well, doctors make decisions

777
00:32:57,679 --> 00:32:59,397
and the nurses eat the consequences.

778
00:32:59,481 --> 00:33:01,481
That's always the way it's been.

779
00:33:07,242 --> 00:33:08,408
Tavi.

780
00:33:08,797 --> 00:33:10,382
Hi. How is she?

781
00:33:10,467 --> 00:33:13,387
So we clamped the bleed but
Krista needs another surgery

782
00:33:13,472 --> 00:33:14,805
to repair her artery.

783
00:33:16,398 --> 00:33:18,216
This is my fault.

784
00:33:18,300 --> 00:33:20,285
I said no to surgery before.

785
00:33:20,369 --> 00:33:21,986
This is not your fault. Okay?

786
00:33:22,070 --> 00:33:24,904
We would've had to deal with
this before we started anyway.

787
00:33:27,008 --> 00:33:28,640
Krista's right, you know.

788
00:33:29,543 --> 00:33:33,096
I haven't let myself move on.

789
00:33:33,180 --> 00:33:35,999
Even the little things
we used to do as a couple...

790
00:33:36,083 --> 00:33:39,449
Watching dumb TV, going for walks, I...

791
00:33:39,534 --> 00:33:41,086
I can't.

792
00:33:41,520 --> 00:33:44,167
She believes she can beat it
one day, you know, the grief.

793
00:33:44,252 --> 00:33:47,153
She talks about moving on
like there's a finish line.

794
00:33:47,238 --> 00:33:49,238
If she works hard enough...

795
00:33:52,005 --> 00:33:53,604
Arianna's.

796
00:33:54,540 --> 00:33:57,226
Krista's called it a thousand times.

797
00:33:57,311 --> 00:33:59,095
Leaving messages, uh...

798
00:33:59,373 --> 00:34:01,958
"Hey, I baked your favourite
cookies today".

799
00:34:02,042 --> 00:34:04,184
"I read this book,
you would've loved it".

800
00:34:04,748 --> 00:34:07,148
Things about her day.

801
00:34:10,417 --> 00:34:13,535
I found the text message
Ari sent me that night.

802
00:34:15,723 --> 00:34:18,056
"See you tomorrow, old man".

803
00:34:19,107 --> 00:34:21,340
I forgot she used to call me that.

804
00:34:21,740 --> 00:34:24,759
It used to make me laugh,
but when I read now, I...

805
00:34:24,996 --> 00:34:26,432
It hurts.

806
00:34:27,931 --> 00:34:29,515
It's torture.

807
00:34:29,669 --> 00:34:31,420
(CRYING)

808
00:34:31,637 --> 00:34:34,573
Even letting the good memories in, I...

809
00:34:38,514 --> 00:34:41,516
Krista's still here and she...
she needs to me try.

810
00:34:46,021 --> 00:34:47,817
You should go be with her.

811
00:35:00,879 --> 00:35:04,376
(UPBEAT MUSIC OVER RADIO)

812
00:35:08,807 --> 00:35:11,174
<i>Speaking Arabic...</i>

813
00:35:18,417 --> 00:35:20,851
<i>Speaking in Arabic...</i>

814
00:36:05,863 --> 00:36:08,248
(SUCKING)

815
00:36:08,332 --> 00:36:10,966
(COUGHING)

816
00:36:55,511 --> 00:36:57,610
(MUSIC PLAYING)

817
00:37:15,242 --> 00:37:17,442
(WHISTLING)

818
00:37:22,834 --> 00:37:25,434
(SOFT MUSIC)

819
00:37:45,141 --> 00:37:47,567
Today's trauma log for your review.

820
00:37:47,716 --> 00:37:51,418
Thanks again for stepping in.
If you've got any feedback...

821
00:37:52,954 --> 00:37:55,288
Novak isn't your problem. You are.

822
00:37:55,747 --> 00:37:58,833
You've got big ideas and
that's why they hired you.

823
00:37:58,918 --> 00:38:02,039
But... if you also want allies,

824
00:38:02,296 --> 00:38:03,880
I've got a suggestion.

825
00:38:04,315 --> 00:38:05,856
I want to hear it.

826
00:38:07,381 --> 00:38:09,881
(DISTANT SIRENS WAILING)

827
00:38:11,773 --> 00:38:13,338
Hey.

828
00:38:14,684 --> 00:38:16,034
Go straight there,

829
00:38:16,119 --> 00:38:18,061
if you lose this, I can't
get another until Monday.

830
00:38:18,145 --> 00:38:20,376
- What's this?
- That fancy pressed sushi

831
00:38:20,461 --> 00:38:22,928
you like. You don't want
me to cook, so...

832
00:38:24,429 --> 00:38:27,147
Hey, you were right. I should've
brought you with me

833
00:38:27,231 --> 00:38:29,450
and showed you how to do it, but I...

834
00:38:29,534 --> 00:38:31,552
Whoa! It's supposed to be a cheque!

835
00:38:31,636 --> 00:38:33,310
No, no, that's not for you.
This is for you.

836
00:38:33,394 --> 00:38:34,981
You're not moonlighting
as some backdoor

837
00:38:35,136 --> 00:38:36,937
- Craigslist doctor, are you?
- (PHONE CHIMES)

838
00:38:40,468 --> 00:38:42,192
Thanks for the sushi!

839
00:38:42,474 --> 00:38:43,624
Uh...

840
00:38:43,895 --> 00:38:45,246
I have the cash...

841
00:38:45,376 --> 00:38:47,462
Ms. Tang is out of a-fib, and
we can probably discharge

842
00:38:47,546 --> 00:38:48,830
Mr. Londra in the morning.

843
00:38:48,915 --> 00:38:50,933
Good. Mr. Coel in four?

844
00:38:51,071 --> 00:38:52,555
Dilated cardiomyopathy?

845
00:38:52,640 --> 00:38:54,525
He fills an age gap we're light on.

846
00:38:54,610 --> 00:38:56,662
Do an intake and see
if he's interested in the study.

847
00:38:56,746 --> 00:38:58,598
Also, you should know
that I kept Lily Jameson

848
00:38:58,683 --> 00:39:00,733
in Emerg until all her tests
came back negative.

849
00:39:00,818 --> 00:39:02,738
I understand you wanted her
discharged but did you know

850
00:39:02,822 --> 00:39:04,807
that her father had a fatal
coronary embolism

851
00:39:04,892 --> 00:39:06,108
when she was 15?

852
00:39:06,302 --> 00:39:08,153
Lily came back from school
and found him.

853
00:39:08,237 --> 00:39:10,827
- She told you that?
- It was in her intake form.

854
00:39:10,912 --> 00:39:12,528
Extended patient history.

855
00:39:13,476 --> 00:39:16,795
Anyway, she needed to stay
long enough to feel safe, so...

856
00:39:17,223 --> 00:39:20,615
Well, I'm glad she's okay.
Thanks for letting me know.

857
00:39:23,452 --> 00:39:26,353
(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)

858
00:39:31,728 --> 00:39:33,961
(SOFT MUSIC)

859
00:39:39,234 --> 00:39:41,334
She looks so happy here.

860
00:39:46,081 --> 00:39:48,332
You'll have to do two rounds
of plasmapheresis

861
00:39:48,416 --> 00:39:49,841
because it's a half-match.

862
00:39:49,926 --> 00:39:52,005
They'll clean your blood
so your antigens

863
00:39:52,090 --> 00:39:54,491
don't do Battle Royale
against the donor's.

864
00:39:56,458 --> 00:39:58,989
It's okay to be optimistic, Siobhan.

865
00:39:59,074 --> 00:40:01,278
This kind of transplant has good odds.

866
00:40:01,606 --> 00:40:04,130
Odds someone else had to die to give me.

867
00:40:04,995 --> 00:40:06,195
That's true.

868
00:40:07,803 --> 00:40:09,554
But you didn't cause that to happen.

869
00:40:09,779 --> 00:40:11,845
But I was happy.

870
00:40:12,346 --> 00:40:13,931
When you told me. Doesn't that make me

871
00:40:14,016 --> 00:40:15,231
some kind of monster?

872
00:40:16,655 --> 00:40:18,355
It makes you human.

873
00:40:19,382 --> 00:40:21,184
We are wired for survival.

874
00:40:23,856 --> 00:40:26,924
You get to be happy this is happening.
You hear me?

875
00:40:27,139 --> 00:40:28,653
What about next week?

876
00:40:29,151 --> 00:40:31,512
Or next year?
How will I feel about it then?

877
00:40:33,209 --> 00:40:34,708
I don't know.

878
00:40:36,259 --> 00:40:38,645
But you're gonna be around
to figure it all out.

879
00:40:40,225 --> 00:40:41,758
(SIGHS)

880
00:40:43,268 --> 00:40:44,934
Don't tell Gloria I cried.

881
00:40:46,240 --> 00:40:49,008
'Cause I'd hate to have
to write you out of my memoir.

882
00:40:49,798 --> 00:40:51,466
I swear on hospital beige.

883
00:40:51,655 --> 00:40:53,288
(CHUCKLES)

884
00:40:56,704 --> 00:40:58,537
(CITY SOUNDSCAPE)

885
00:41:03,450 --> 00:41:06,685
If you're gonna tell me
to leave, we've done that dance.

886
00:41:06,770 --> 00:41:07,942
No, I'm not.

887
00:41:08,332 --> 00:41:10,731
But there's a decent chance
that someone might.

888
00:41:11,480 --> 00:41:13,559
Let them try. (SCOFFS)

889
00:41:14,700 --> 00:41:17,728
I was 50-50 on whether
you'd order and camp out.

890
00:41:18,513 --> 00:41:21,341
I'm trying to take some
advice and moderate.

891
00:41:21,426 --> 00:41:22,776
Just a little.

892
00:41:22,861 --> 00:41:25,278
Why do I still feel like you gave
her your cell phone number?

893
00:41:25,363 --> 00:41:27,447
- 'Cause I'm still me.
- I did the thing.

894
00:41:27,599 --> 00:41:29,051
With the money.

895
00:41:29,136 --> 00:41:30,936
And you're still you too.

896
00:41:33,120 --> 00:41:34,138
Everything okay?

897
00:41:34,255 --> 00:41:36,373
I think so. It's easier
than doing a bank draft.

898
00:41:36,457 --> 00:41:37,975
But the woman didn't give me
a receipt so how do I know

899
00:41:38,059 --> 00:41:40,211
- if it went through?
- You just hope for the best

900
00:41:40,295 --> 00:41:42,279
and wait. Thank you so much, June.

901
00:41:42,363 --> 00:41:44,027
- I really owe you one.
- No, we're even, okay?

902
00:41:44,111 --> 00:41:45,582
You clamping that bleed in Trauma OR

903
00:41:45,666 --> 00:41:46,850
was the only sane part of my day,

904
00:41:46,934 --> 00:41:48,767
but you should know, though...

905
00:41:49,570 --> 00:41:51,604
There were some consequences to that.

906
00:41:53,741 --> 00:41:55,941
(CITY SOUNDSCAPE)

907
00:41:59,671 --> 00:42:01,956
- (KNOCKING)
- Hi. I'm sorry to interrupt

908
00:42:02,049 --> 00:42:04,567
but um, I heard Dr. Singh

909
00:42:04,651 --> 00:42:06,202
wants me training as a trauma surgeon?

910
00:42:06,286 --> 00:42:08,872
To support Dr. Curtis.

911
00:42:09,002 --> 00:42:12,671
As long as you're willing
to start from the bottom. Again.

912
00:42:14,695 --> 00:42:16,179
He also said that he was the one

913
00:42:16,263 --> 00:42:18,114
who pulled you into Trauma OR today?

914
00:42:18,198 --> 00:42:19,982
I could tell you I was
in the right place

915
00:42:20,066 --> 00:42:22,117
at the right time,
but I did choose to stay.

916
00:42:22,201 --> 00:42:24,902
Well, I still think you should
focus on other skills.

917
00:42:25,630 --> 00:42:28,898
But if you want this... it's up to you.

918
00:42:30,425 --> 00:42:32,659
(DISTANT SIRENS WAILING)

919
00:42:36,315 --> 00:42:38,316
(SCREAMING): Yes!

920
00:42:43,622 --> 00:42:46,093
<i>UPBEAT MUSIC...</i>