1 00:00:29,999 --> 00:00:31,890 No. 2 00:00:32,040 --> 00:00:34,789 It can't be it, no. 3 00:00:35,789 --> 00:00:37,555 Not now. 4 00:00:37,705 --> 00:00:39,163 It was all for nothing. 5 00:00:39,246 --> 00:00:41,995 - Mom... - It's fucking bullshit! 6 00:00:42,078 --> 00:00:44,119 - Stop. Calm down. - Shut up. 7 00:00:44,203 --> 00:00:47,035 I don't give a shit about you. 8 00:00:47,118 --> 00:00:49,493 Don't tell me to calm down. Shut up. 9 00:00:50,742 --> 00:00:53,825 You're not my daughter. You never have been. You're nothing. 10 00:00:54,366 --> 00:00:56,449 - I don't wanna die! - Mom... 11 00:00:56,532 --> 00:00:59,739 It was all for nothing. It's bullshit! 12 00:00:59,823 --> 00:01:02,072 I'm all alone. 13 00:01:02,155 --> 00:01:04,988 - I'm here, Mom. - No! I'm all alone. 14 00:01:05,071 --> 00:01:07,528 It can't end like this. Shit! 15 00:01:07,612 --> 00:01:09,236 Please stop. Let yourself go. 16 00:01:09,320 --> 00:01:12,027 I don't want to. 17 00:01:16,651 --> 00:01:18,651 I'm still here. 18 00:01:19,316 --> 00:01:21,774 It's not over. I don't want to? 19 00:01:24,315 --> 00:01:27,314 I don't want to die. I'm still here. 20 00:02:26,669 --> 00:02:30,002 LAUGHTER 21 00:03:16,862 --> 00:03:17,945 Move! 22 00:03:18,028 --> 00:03:20,028 Come on, move it. 23 00:03:22,193 --> 00:03:24,901 THEN 24 00:03:28,316 --> 00:03:29,816 Faster. 25 00:03:29,899 --> 00:03:31,899 Come on! 26 00:03:33,273 --> 00:03:34,398 Give your bag. 27 00:03:34,481 --> 00:03:36,481 Move it! 28 00:03:36,897 --> 00:03:38,897 Come on, hurry up. 29 00:03:39,188 --> 00:03:41,188 Empty your pockets. 30 00:03:42,187 --> 00:03:44,187 Keep moving. 31 00:03:44,686 --> 00:03:46,686 Let's go! 32 00:03:47,810 --> 00:03:49,810 Take everything off. 33 00:03:59,598 --> 00:04:02,347 Keep going, take off your clothes. 34 00:04:07,637 --> 00:04:09,637 Stay with your group! 35 00:04:17,633 --> 00:04:19,633 Fire! 36 00:04:20,966 --> 00:04:23,173 Come on, move. 37 00:04:29,505 --> 00:04:31,505 Stop! 38 00:04:34,295 --> 00:04:36,295 OK, girls, out! 39 00:04:44,292 --> 00:04:46,292 Let's go. 40 00:05:12,491 --> 00:05:15,323 Lie down! On your stomachs. 41 00:05:19,114 --> 00:05:21,114 Everybody, lie down! 42 00:05:28,277 --> 00:05:29,668 Aim! 43 00:05:29,818 --> 00:05:31,709 It's gonna be fine. 44 00:05:31,859 --> 00:05:33,859 Fire! 45 00:05:47,063 --> 00:05:49,063 Go ahead, girls. 46 00:06:04,016 --> 00:06:06,016 Let's go. 47 00:06:14,554 --> 00:06:15,637 Lie down! 48 00:06:15,762 --> 00:06:17,762 Everybody down! 49 00:06:17,969 --> 00:06:21,260 God, I beg you. I'm begging you, don't abandon us now. 50 00:06:21,635 --> 00:06:23,635 - Don't abandon us, God. - Aim! 51 00:06:25,467 --> 00:06:27,467 Fire! 52 00:11:13,457 --> 00:11:16,039 NOW 53 00:11:18,164 --> 00:11:20,413 It's not sexy at all! 54 00:11:20,496 --> 00:11:23,662 Come on, I'm oozing sex! Check this out. 55 00:11:24,953 --> 00:11:26,911 No, it's gross. 56 00:11:26,994 --> 00:11:30,077 What do you mean, "gross"? Look at my hips! 57 00:11:30,160 --> 00:11:33,242 Your hips aren't the problem, Gab. It's your face. 58 00:11:33,326 --> 00:11:35,575 - What's wrong with my face? - It's ugly. 59 00:11:35,658 --> 00:11:37,241 No way. You call this ugly? 60 00:11:37,324 --> 00:11:39,215 Well... 61 00:11:39,365 --> 00:11:43,031 You look like a horny anteater. 62 00:11:43,114 --> 00:11:47,363 A horny anteater? Is that supposed to be a compliment? 63 00:11:47,446 --> 00:11:49,112 No, it's not. 64 00:11:49,195 --> 00:11:51,111 Fine. I'll never dance again. 65 00:11:51,195 --> 00:11:55,443 - Oh God! Poor Gab. - It's over! That's all you're gonna get. 66 00:11:55,527 --> 00:11:57,693 Leave it. We can do that tomorrow. 67 00:12:00,817 --> 00:12:02,691 What time do you get up tomorrow? 68 00:12:02,774 --> 00:12:04,774 6:00. 69 00:12:10,605 --> 00:12:12,605 Another dance? 70 00:12:12,896 --> 00:12:14,229 I knew you liked it. 71 00:12:14,312 --> 00:12:16,312 Oh, sure. 72 00:12:27,849 --> 00:12:29,849 My turn! 73 00:13:48,782 --> 00:13:50,782 It's gonna be fine. 74 00:13:54,613 --> 00:13:55,946 I'm begging you. 75 00:13:56,029 --> 00:13:58,029 Do something. 76 00:14:00,028 --> 00:14:02,028 God, please. 77 00:14:47,513 --> 00:14:49,928 Seriously. It couldn't wait? 78 00:14:51,136 --> 00:14:53,136 Have a seat. 79 00:14:57,301 --> 00:14:59,301 What's going on? 80 00:15:05,382 --> 00:15:07,382 You OK? 81 00:15:12,838 --> 00:15:14,838 What's wrong? 82 00:15:27,458 --> 00:15:31,707 Something happened this morning. I don't know what exactly. 83 00:15:35,455 --> 00:15:38,121 I've never experienced anything like it. 84 00:15:38,829 --> 00:15:40,370 It was like a dream, 85 00:15:40,454 --> 00:15:43,828 but I was completely awake, completely lucid. 86 00:15:50,242 --> 00:15:52,242 Would you say you know me well? 87 00:15:53,824 --> 00:15:56,032 I hope so. We've known each other 15 years. 88 00:15:56,449 --> 00:15:58,573 Who am I? Define me. 89 00:15:59,572 --> 00:16:01,572 Why are you asking me this? 90 00:16:05,362 --> 00:16:07,487 You're you. 91 00:16:08,070 --> 00:16:11,402 You're hardworking, smart, ambitious... 92 00:16:11,485 --> 00:16:13,376 Am I funny? 93 00:16:13,526 --> 00:16:15,526 Funny? 94 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:19,399 I don't know. Yeah, you're funny. 95 00:16:19,483 --> 00:16:23,190 You're not the funniest person ever, but you have a good sense of humor. 96 00:16:23,273 --> 00:16:25,439 What's the funniest thing I've ever said to you? 97 00:16:25,522 --> 00:16:28,022 I don't know! Why are you asking me this? 98 00:16:32,312 --> 00:16:34,353 What happened this morning? 99 00:16:42,184 --> 00:16:45,974 I went to the restroom to wash my hands, like I do every morning. 100 00:16:46,057 --> 00:16:47,948 Everything was normal. 101 00:16:48,098 --> 00:16:50,514 I wasn't feeling any different. 102 00:16:52,264 --> 00:16:53,972 I stepped into the restroom, 103 00:16:54,055 --> 00:16:57,929 turned on the light and walked up to the sink. 104 00:16:58,303 --> 00:17:00,303 It was like any other day. 105 00:17:00,761 --> 00:17:02,927 I wasn't even thinking about it. 106 00:17:03,552 --> 00:17:06,717 My mind was already on my afternoon meeting. 107 00:17:08,633 --> 00:17:10,633 But then... 108 00:17:13,049 --> 00:17:15,049 Then what? 109 00:17:16,922 --> 00:17:18,922 I felt something. 110 00:17:19,796 --> 00:17:21,796 Something was off. 111 00:17:22,254 --> 00:17:25,128 Everything was different somehow. 112 00:17:25,711 --> 00:17:27,711 Everything felt wrong. 113 00:17:29,502 --> 00:17:31,459 I went numb. 114 00:17:31,543 --> 00:17:34,750 My legs especially. I could hardly feel them. 115 00:17:34,833 --> 00:17:37,416 I felt like I was gonna faint. 116 00:17:38,499 --> 00:17:40,831 I didn't know what was happening. 117 00:17:41,623 --> 00:17:44,122 It was like I was in the wrong place. 118 00:17:46,996 --> 00:17:49,537 Then I looked at myself in the mirror. 119 00:17:55,202 --> 00:17:57,202 It wasn't me. 120 00:17:58,034 --> 00:18:00,117 It wasn't my reflection. 121 00:18:00,742 --> 00:18:02,783 I wasn't looking at myself. 122 00:18:03,866 --> 00:18:05,866 It was someone else. 123 00:18:07,531 --> 00:18:08,781 Who? 124 00:18:08,864 --> 00:18:12,446 I don't know. Someone I'd never seen before. 125 00:18:12,988 --> 00:18:17,736 It was an old lady sitting in a wheelchair. 126 00:18:18,861 --> 00:18:22,235 The space was different. It wasn't my restroom in the mirror. 127 00:18:22,318 --> 00:18:25,608 It looked like a hospital restroom. 128 00:18:28,066 --> 00:18:30,399 Maybe it was just... 129 00:18:31,648 --> 00:18:33,231 some kind of hallucination. 130 00:18:33,314 --> 00:18:37,313 No, I wasn't hallucinating. I wasn't dreaming. 131 00:18:37,771 --> 00:18:40,354 I'm sure of it, because... 132 00:18:42,270 --> 00:18:44,561 that old lady was... 133 00:18:47,351 --> 00:18:49,351 It was me. 134 00:18:52,017 --> 00:18:54,017 What do you mean, "you"? 135 00:18:54,557 --> 00:18:56,057 Like you, older? 136 00:18:56,140 --> 00:18:57,931 No. It was me. 137 00:18:58,015 --> 00:18:59,947 It was me now. 138 00:19:00,097 --> 00:19:02,097 When I saw her... 139 00:19:03,430 --> 00:19:07,345 I suddenly realized that everything was fake. 140 00:19:08,178 --> 00:19:11,094 When I saw her, when I became her, 141 00:19:11,177 --> 00:19:14,426 I had never felt more alive than I did at that moment. 142 00:19:14,509 --> 00:19:16,217 It's like I was waking up. 143 00:19:16,300 --> 00:19:19,383 It's like the dream wasn't what I saw in the mirror. 144 00:19:19,466 --> 00:19:20,940 It was me. 145 00:19:21,090 --> 00:19:25,131 Me in my restroom. Like my whole life had been a dream. 146 00:19:25,214 --> 00:19:27,380 I was lucid for the first time. 147 00:19:27,463 --> 00:19:31,171 It's as if I suddenly realized I was living the wrong life. 148 00:19:31,254 --> 00:19:33,586 The real me was that woman in the mirror. 149 00:19:33,670 --> 00:19:37,502 And I had never felt so good, so alive. 150 00:19:37,585 --> 00:19:40,792 I was an old woman in a wheelchair in a hospital, 151 00:19:40,876 --> 00:19:42,542 but I felt good. 152 00:19:42,625 --> 00:19:44,458 I felt like laughing. 153 00:19:44,541 --> 00:19:47,540 It was like a giant weight had been lifted. 154 00:19:47,624 --> 00:19:53,247 For the first time, I felt like myself. Like the lying was over. 155 00:19:59,911 --> 00:20:02,785 All right. Let's have a look at that restroom. 156 00:20:15,240 --> 00:20:17,240 Do you see anything? 157 00:20:22,237 --> 00:20:24,237 Hello? 158 00:20:26,111 --> 00:20:29,277 OK, get out of there. 159 00:22:05,745 --> 00:22:07,745 Yes. I'm ready. 160 00:22:09,244 --> 00:22:11,244 OK, let's go. 161 00:24:51,483 --> 00:24:53,816 Hello, Ms. Breault! You doing OK? 162 00:24:55,524 --> 00:24:57,690 So, what's up with you now? 163 00:24:58,106 --> 00:25:00,230 I just did a big poo! 164 00:25:00,314 --> 00:25:02,105 A big poo! Well, that's very good. 165 00:25:02,188 --> 00:25:04,604 Let's change that diaper and get you all cleaned up! 166 00:25:04,687 --> 00:25:08,145 How wonderful! Did you bring my Disney stickers too? 167 00:25:08,228 --> 00:25:12,102 Or is it normal for you to talk like a dumb kindergarten teacher? 168 00:25:14,976 --> 00:25:17,433 Well, I guess we'll let Ms. Breault stew in her shit 169 00:25:17,517 --> 00:25:19,517 while she thinks about what she said. 170 00:25:20,057 --> 00:25:25,056 Go tell the Care Bears that a mean old lady ruined your rainbow! 171 00:25:35,219 --> 00:25:37,219 Come on. 172 00:25:38,593 --> 00:25:40,593 I can't stand that one. 173 00:25:41,092 --> 00:25:42,717 Well, it's kind of your fault. 174 00:25:42,800 --> 00:25:43,883 Really, how? 175 00:25:44,008 --> 00:25:46,632 You shouldn't have shit yourself during my break. 176 00:25:46,715 --> 00:25:48,257 You're always on break. 177 00:25:48,340 --> 00:25:50,631 And you're always full of shit! 178 00:25:52,922 --> 00:25:54,922 Careful. 179 00:25:56,171 --> 00:25:58,253 Let's lift your legs. 180 00:26:07,584 --> 00:26:09,584 Roll onto your side. 181 00:26:11,457 --> 00:26:14,706 Could you please stop shaking? It's annoying. 182 00:26:15,956 --> 00:26:17,206 I can't help it. 183 00:26:17,289 --> 00:26:22,037 I'm still shaken by what the candy-unicorn orderly said. 184 00:26:22,121 --> 00:26:24,078 Did you really need to call her "dumb"? 185 00:26:24,162 --> 00:26:25,661 She'll get over it. 186 00:26:25,744 --> 00:26:27,619 She'll go home, talk to her cats, 187 00:26:27,702 --> 00:26:31,701 then masturbate to her well-worn copy of Fifty Shades of Grey. 188 00:26:31,784 --> 00:26:34,741 She'll fall asleep with a smile on her face. 189 00:26:35,158 --> 00:26:37,158 Such cruelty! 190 00:26:42,656 --> 00:26:44,988 What are you reading? 191 00:26:45,071 --> 00:26:48,070 Pascal Quignard. He's a bastard. 192 00:26:48,404 --> 00:26:49,653 Why? 193 00:26:49,737 --> 00:26:51,737 He writes too damn well. 194 00:26:52,402 --> 00:26:54,402 On your back. 195 00:26:58,775 --> 00:27:00,750 You OK? 196 00:27:00,900 --> 00:27:02,900 Yes. 197 00:27:05,482 --> 00:27:08,980 It's music day today. Should I ask someone to come get you? 198 00:27:09,064 --> 00:27:11,563 You do that, I swear I'll kill you. 199 00:27:11,646 --> 00:27:12,729 How come? 200 00:27:12,812 --> 00:27:16,311 I didn't like Gignac or Trenet when I was 30. 201 00:27:16,395 --> 00:27:20,727 I don't want to listen to some off-key crooner covering them today. 202 00:27:20,810 --> 00:27:23,892 No, apparently, it's an Iron Maiden cover band. 203 00:27:23,976 --> 00:27:25,725 There's gonna be a mosh pit. 204 00:27:25,808 --> 00:27:30,057 You guys are gonna have fun popping all those hips back into place. 205 00:27:30,140 --> 00:27:32,140 Yep! 206 00:27:34,181 --> 00:27:37,429 OK. You comfortable? 207 00:27:37,888 --> 00:27:39,888 Yes, thank you. 208 00:27:40,678 --> 00:27:44,844 Time to go beddy-bye! Right, Ms. Breault? 209 00:27:44,927 --> 00:27:47,051 Want me to read you a bedtime story? 210 00:27:47,135 --> 00:27:48,468 Yes. 211 00:27:48,551 --> 00:27:52,758 Tell me about the Acadian Expulsion from an ethnological perspective. 212 00:27:53,383 --> 00:27:57,173 Sorry. I don't know that one 'cause there's no Prince Charming. 213 00:27:58,048 --> 00:28:00,048 All right. 214 00:28:01,630 --> 00:28:03,005 Good night, Jeanne. 215 00:28:03,088 --> 00:28:05,545 Good night. Thank you. 216 00:28:06,045 --> 00:28:08,045 You're welcome. 217 00:28:17,125 --> 00:28:18,916 Did she calm down a bit? 218 00:28:18,999 --> 00:28:20,999 She was very calm. 219 00:28:21,207 --> 00:28:23,664 - Is that for the woman in Room 14? - Yeah, I was on my way there. 220 00:28:23,748 --> 00:28:25,456 Don't worry, I'll go. 221 00:28:25,539 --> 00:28:27,539 Thanks. 222 00:29:03,360 --> 00:29:05,360 Ma'am? 223 00:29:06,067 --> 00:29:08,400 You should eat something. You'll feel better. 224 00:29:13,523 --> 00:29:15,523 I brought you a new plate. 225 00:29:18,813 --> 00:29:20,813 You can't. 226 00:29:22,979 --> 00:29:25,478 I know who you are. You can't. 227 00:30:30,665 --> 00:30:32,665 I'm tired. 228 00:30:33,122 --> 00:30:35,497 It's morning! Hello! 229 00:30:38,329 --> 00:30:40,537 It's gonna be a beautiful day! 230 00:30:40,620 --> 00:30:42,453 Fuck off. 231 00:30:42,536 --> 00:30:45,369 Damn. I shouldn't have done that. I'm blinded. 232 00:30:46,951 --> 00:30:48,926 Serves you right. 233 00:30:49,076 --> 00:30:53,158 I love you so much. You're so energetic and full of life. 234 00:30:55,365 --> 00:30:57,173 Big night? 235 00:30:57,323 --> 00:31:00,239 It was OK. I'm just beat. I don't know why. 236 00:31:01,447 --> 00:31:03,447 I'll let you sleep. 237 00:31:54,763 --> 00:31:57,637 NOW OPEN! 238 00:32:18,130 --> 00:32:20,130 $8 please. 239 00:32:22,712 --> 00:32:24,520 - Thanks. - Bye. 240 00:32:24,670 --> 00:32:25,753 Hello! 241 00:32:25,836 --> 00:32:28,627 Hello. Two baguettes. 242 00:32:28,710 --> 00:32:30,710 OK. 243 00:32:50,203 --> 00:32:52,203 $5. 244 00:32:54,035 --> 00:32:56,035 - Thank you. - Thank you. 245 00:33:05,906 --> 00:33:07,214 Hello. 246 00:33:07,364 --> 00:33:09,364 Hello. 247 00:33:12,071 --> 00:33:14,071 One baguette. 248 00:33:20,776 --> 00:33:22,859 No, it's fine. I have my... 249 00:33:29,649 --> 00:33:31,123 How much? 250 00:33:31,273 --> 00:33:33,273 $2.50. 251 00:33:50,017 --> 00:33:52,017 Thank you. 252 00:34:40,167 --> 00:34:41,792 Hello, Jeanne. 253 00:34:41,875 --> 00:34:43,683 Hello, Alice. 254 00:34:43,833 --> 00:34:45,082 How are you? 255 00:34:45,166 --> 00:34:47,166 I'm good, you? 256 00:34:50,081 --> 00:34:52,413 My son came to see me this morning. 257 00:34:53,955 --> 00:34:56,204 I think he wishes I was dead. 258 00:34:56,287 --> 00:34:58,536 Well, he'll have to be patient. 259 00:35:01,036 --> 00:35:02,927 How's your daughter? 260 00:35:03,077 --> 00:35:06,034 Good. She visited yesterday. She's doing great. 261 00:35:06,117 --> 00:35:08,117 My son, not so much. 262 00:35:08,367 --> 00:35:10,408 He had a hard time after the war. 263 00:35:10,491 --> 00:35:13,240 Him and his wife have a lot on their plate. 264 00:35:13,323 --> 00:35:15,256 They have a family. 265 00:35:15,406 --> 00:35:17,822 I think he wishes I was dead. 266 00:35:17,905 --> 00:35:19,796 You're still here, Alice. 267 00:35:19,946 --> 00:35:22,279 But I only threw up twice this morning. 268 00:35:22,362 --> 00:35:23,903 Usually, it's three times. 269 00:35:23,986 --> 00:35:25,611 I think I'm getting better. 270 00:35:25,694 --> 00:35:27,694 Well, that's good news, isn't it? 271 00:35:29,068 --> 00:35:31,484 Why are we the ones who are still here, Jeanne? 272 00:35:31,567 --> 00:35:32,942 Why not? 273 00:35:33,025 --> 00:35:36,024 Everything water-based rots, Jeanne. 274 00:35:36,108 --> 00:35:37,874 Everything rots. 275 00:35:38,024 --> 00:35:41,772 My brother had a heart attack at 34. 276 00:35:41,856 --> 00:35:45,313 His daughter was 5 years old. He died in front of her. 277 00:35:45,396 --> 00:35:48,312 He's been rotting for 40 years, Jeanne. 278 00:35:48,728 --> 00:35:50,728 Why aren't we made of stone? 279 00:35:50,811 --> 00:35:53,394 Why did I only throw up twice? 280 00:35:53,477 --> 00:35:57,809 Why, my little God... Behind... 281 00:35:57,892 --> 00:35:59,433 Did you know, Jeanne? 282 00:35:59,517 --> 00:36:03,057 Everyone hallucinates that there's someone behind them. 283 00:36:03,140 --> 00:36:04,223 Did you know that? 284 00:36:04,307 --> 00:36:06,156 No, I didn't. 285 00:36:06,306 --> 00:36:08,180 Sometimes, we think... 286 00:36:08,264 --> 00:36:12,596 Our instinct makes us think there's someone there to protect us 287 00:36:12,679 --> 00:36:15,428 in case there really is someone there. 288 00:36:15,845 --> 00:36:18,427 I have two sisters too. They're all dead. 289 00:36:18,510 --> 00:36:20,343 There's a presence behind us. 290 00:36:20,427 --> 00:36:23,759 We feel a presence there, 291 00:36:24,092 --> 00:36:26,092 when really, there's no one. 292 00:36:26,633 --> 00:36:29,215 And what if that was it, my God? 293 00:36:29,715 --> 00:36:32,381 My God! What if that was it? 294 00:36:32,964 --> 00:36:37,296 What if there's nothing else? What if there's no one there? 295 00:36:37,379 --> 00:36:39,170 Why aren't we made of stone? 296 00:36:39,254 --> 00:36:44,127 Is my little God just an illusion of menace? 297 00:36:44,210 --> 00:36:47,959 And if my brother, my sisters, my niece and everyone else behind me 298 00:36:48,043 --> 00:36:49,809 weren't really there... 299 00:36:49,959 --> 00:36:52,125 My son wishes I was dead. 300 00:36:52,208 --> 00:36:54,166 Why?why... 301 00:36:54,249 --> 00:36:56,831 Why did I only throw up twice? 302 00:36:58,581 --> 00:37:00,747 You're going to be fine, Alice. 303 00:37:02,288 --> 00:37:04,288 Yeah. 304 00:37:04,745 --> 00:37:06,745 Why don't you tell me a joke? 305 00:37:09,786 --> 00:37:13,201 This one's kind of dumb, but it makes me laugh. 306 00:37:13,284 --> 00:37:15,175 OK. 307 00:37:15,325 --> 00:37:17,783 Why did the carnival mascot have bad breath? 308 00:37:19,241 --> 00:37:21,241 I don't know. 309 00:37:22,240 --> 00:37:24,697 Because he farted in his costume. 310 00:37:28,280 --> 00:37:30,280 Ah, good one. 311 00:37:30,612 --> 00:37:32,820 Thanks. That helps. 312 00:37:32,903 --> 00:37:36,319 I think I'll go try to throw up a bit. 313 00:37:36,402 --> 00:37:38,026 You can stay if you want. 314 00:37:38,110 --> 00:37:40,110 No, I'll go. 315 00:37:40,442 --> 00:37:42,358 Thanks again for the joke. 316 00:37:42,442 --> 00:37:44,442 No problem. 317 00:37:44,608 --> 00:37:47,148 I think he wishes I was dead. 318 00:38:18,805 --> 00:38:22,054 There's nothing wrong with your restroom. Everything's normal. 319 00:38:22,137 --> 00:38:23,220 OK. 320 00:38:23,303 --> 00:38:25,594 - You OK? - Sure. 321 00:38:26,052 --> 00:38:28,593 Can I have a piece of bread? I didn't have lunch. 322 00:38:28,677 --> 00:38:30,359 Take the whole thing. 323 00:38:30,509 --> 00:38:32,509 Thanks! 324 00:38:33,842 --> 00:38:36,257 OK, I'm out. I shouldn't even be here. 325 00:38:36,341 --> 00:38:38,632 Plus, I have a date. Ciao. 326 00:38:38,715 --> 00:38:40,715 Bye. 327 00:39:07,997 --> 00:39:09,997 Ma'am? 328 00:39:10,705 --> 00:39:12,705 Are you OK, ma'am? 329 00:39:14,495 --> 00:39:16,703 I'm a healthcare worker. Maybe I can help. 330 00:39:18,244 --> 00:39:20,535 You're sweet, but we're just practicing. 331 00:39:20,618 --> 00:39:22,618 It's not even a real baby. 332 00:39:23,950 --> 00:39:25,450 Now we have to start over! 333 00:39:25,533 --> 00:39:27,074 It's fine. We just left. 334 00:39:27,158 --> 00:39:28,449 Careful. It's green. 335 00:39:28,532 --> 00:39:30,532 Have a good day! 336 00:39:39,154 --> 00:39:40,737 - All done, ma'am? - Yes. 337 00:39:40,820 --> 00:39:42,820 All right. 338 00:39:47,443 --> 00:39:50,650 I'm taking my break. Can I come chill with you? 339 00:39:50,733 --> 00:39:53,232 Sorry, the Chamber of Commerce 340 00:39:53,316 --> 00:39:55,565 is having its annual meeting next to my bed. 341 00:39:55,648 --> 00:39:57,315 They'll be lost without me. 342 00:39:57,398 --> 00:39:59,356 - You're so important. - Yes. 343 00:39:59,439 --> 00:40:03,104 When your food is cut into little pieces, you're unstoppable! 344 00:40:05,937 --> 00:40:09,186 - Did you finish the Quignard book? - Yes, this morning. 345 00:40:09,269 --> 00:40:11,602 Wow, you remembered his name. 346 00:40:12,143 --> 00:40:15,600 And they say young people are losing touch with concrete things. 347 00:40:15,684 --> 00:40:19,599 I'm confronted with concrete things every time I change your diaper, Jeanne. 348 00:40:20,432 --> 00:40:24,014 Good. I'm glad I'm giving you a dose of reality. 349 00:40:24,097 --> 00:40:28,263 It'd be great if that dose of reality didn't smell like old squash. 350 00:40:32,053 --> 00:40:34,011 Did you underline some good passages? 351 00:40:34,094 --> 00:40:37,302 Yes. The book is right there. Take it. 352 00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:42,800 Here. 353 00:40:46,590 --> 00:40:48,590 Read this. 354 00:40:49,797 --> 00:40:52,338 "Apoptosis of the leaves of a tree. 355 00:40:52,422 --> 00:40:54,629 "Not falling, but carried away by the wind." 356 00:40:55,046 --> 00:40:57,046 Do you know what "apoptosis" means? 357 00:40:58,003 --> 00:40:59,836 Yes. Oh yeah. 358 00:40:59,919 --> 00:41:02,127 I had it once, but my doctor gave me pills, 359 00:41:02,210 --> 00:41:04,210 and it cleared right up. 360 00:41:04,376 --> 00:41:06,750 I didn't know either. 361 00:41:06,834 --> 00:41:11,166 I looked it up in the dictionary. It's programmed cell death. 362 00:41:11,249 --> 00:41:15,622 It's the process by which human cells, when they receive a signal, 363 00:41:15,706 --> 00:41:19,246 self-destruct to make way for new cells. 364 00:41:19,330 --> 00:41:20,413 Really? 365 00:41:20,538 --> 00:41:22,287 Yep. Interesting, isn't it? 366 00:41:22,370 --> 00:41:26,202 The cells in our body are ready to self-destruct. 367 00:41:26,952 --> 00:41:28,952 All it takes is a signal. 368 00:41:29,535 --> 00:41:32,742 Like the leaves on a tree. All it takes is a gust of wind. 369 00:41:32,825 --> 00:41:36,449 Isn't that beautiful? That bastard can really write. 370 00:41:36,532 --> 00:41:38,532 It is beautiful. 371 00:41:38,990 --> 00:41:40,990 How's Mr. Hénault? 372 00:41:41,822 --> 00:41:44,113 Since his fall, not so good. 373 00:41:44,197 --> 00:41:46,404 He's not moving. He's in a lot of pain. 374 00:41:46,487 --> 00:41:48,695 It's like he's letting himself go. 375 00:41:49,320 --> 00:41:52,944 That's too bad. Did you know he's not from Montreal? 376 00:41:53,027 --> 00:41:54,943 - He's from Drummondville, right? - Victoriaville. 377 00:41:55,026 --> 00:41:56,443 Victoriaville! 378 00:41:56,526 --> 00:41:59,733 He fixed TVs his whole life. That was his job. 379 00:42:00,191 --> 00:42:02,566 Did you know his wife almost died when he was young? 380 00:42:02,649 --> 00:42:03,732 No? 381 00:42:03,857 --> 00:42:06,439 The doctors were at a loss. 382 00:42:06,523 --> 00:42:09,397 They told him she probably wouldn't make it. 383 00:42:09,938 --> 00:42:14,062 So one afternoon, he got in his car, found a babysitter for his kids, 384 00:42:14,145 --> 00:42:16,978 drove two hours to Montreal 385 00:42:17,061 --> 00:42:20,435 and climbed the holy steps at Saint Joseph's Oratory on his knees 386 00:42:20,518 --> 00:42:22,559 to ask God to save his wife. 387 00:42:22,976 --> 00:42:24,308 Really? 388 00:42:24,392 --> 00:42:26,974 Yes. She survived. 389 00:42:27,474 --> 00:42:32,181 Years later, their daughter had a child with a chronic disease. 390 00:42:32,264 --> 00:42:35,138 Someone had to take care of him every day. 391 00:42:35,222 --> 00:42:38,262 So Mr. Hénault and his wife left Victoriaville. 392 00:42:38,346 --> 00:42:41,844 They sold their house and got an apartment near their daughter 393 00:42:41,928 --> 00:42:43,969 to take care of their grandson. 394 00:42:44,052 --> 00:42:46,176 Even though they both hate Montreal. 395 00:42:47,009 --> 00:42:51,758 If ever you get the chance to meet them, his daughter and grandson visit often. 396 00:42:51,841 --> 00:42:54,215 The grandson is around 15 now. 397 00:42:54,299 --> 00:42:56,631 His daughter tells me he's doing much better. 398 00:42:57,048 --> 00:43:01,463 Mrs. Hénault visits every day. She's in top shape. 399 00:43:02,921 --> 00:43:05,962 I don't think God had anything to do with that. 400 00:43:06,461 --> 00:43:08,461 But goodness did. 401 00:43:09,752 --> 00:43:12,501 Goodness surely had something to do with it. 402 00:43:15,375 --> 00:43:19,457 One of his sons visits often too. You should check him out. 403 00:43:20,249 --> 00:43:22,249 He has a nice ass. 404 00:43:24,664 --> 00:43:26,205 Jonathan Swift? 405 00:43:26,288 --> 00:43:29,662 I don't want to marry him. I just said he has a nice ass. 406 00:43:29,746 --> 00:43:32,703 Where are they? Don't you have a copy somewhere? 407 00:43:32,786 --> 00:43:34,869 Over there. I keep them close. 408 00:43:38,243 --> 00:43:42,575 Jonathan Swift: "Resolutions When I Come to Be Old." 409 00:43:42,658 --> 00:43:44,574 Hey, he wrote this in 1699. 410 00:43:44,657 --> 00:43:46,657 He was 32. 411 00:43:47,448 --> 00:43:50,905 "Not to marry a young woman." Or in your case, a young man. 412 00:43:50,989 --> 00:43:52,863 I never said I wanted to marry him! 413 00:43:52,946 --> 00:43:56,154 "Not to keep young company unless they really desire it." 414 00:43:56,237 --> 00:43:57,778 Do you desire my company? 415 00:43:57,861 --> 00:44:00,069 I don't know. I'll think about it. 416 00:44:00,944 --> 00:44:04,359 "Not to be peevish or morose, or suspicious." 417 00:44:05,859 --> 00:44:08,650 Yeah, OK. I'll give you that one. 418 00:44:08,733 --> 00:44:11,899 "Not to scorn present ways, or wits, 419 00:44:11,982 --> 00:44:14,273 "or fashions, or men, or war, etc." 420 00:44:14,356 --> 00:44:17,897 I'm OK there. I scorn the present just as much as I did when I was young. 421 00:44:17,980 --> 00:44:20,437 It's true. You're very consistent in your scorn. 422 00:44:21,062 --> 00:44:23,062 "Not to be fond of children." 423 00:44:23,353 --> 00:44:25,353 That's my favorite one! 424 00:44:25,852 --> 00:44:29,768 "Not to neglect decency or cleanliness for fear of falling into nastiness." 425 00:44:29,851 --> 00:44:32,392 I think we'll stop right there, Jeanne! 426 00:44:32,475 --> 00:44:36,224 Unfair! This is psychological abuse! 427 00:44:36,307 --> 00:44:38,515 Are you gonna file a complaint? 428 00:44:38,598 --> 00:44:39,681 Yes. 429 00:44:39,806 --> 00:44:42,430 Do you want me to sing you a nursery rhyme instead? 430 00:44:42,930 --> 00:44:44,180 No, I'm fine. 431 00:44:44,263 --> 00:44:47,387 If you're abused and you know it, stomp your feet! 432 00:44:48,512 --> 00:44:50,678 See, you're not abused! 433 00:45:08,922 --> 00:45:10,922 Are you OK? 434 00:45:12,796 --> 00:45:14,796 I understand. 435 00:45:16,794 --> 00:45:18,794 Here. 436 00:46:47,223 --> 00:46:49,223 Val? 437 00:46:49,681 --> 00:46:51,363 Yeah? 438 00:46:51,513 --> 00:46:53,513 Could you come here, please? 439 00:46:54,346 --> 00:46:56,346 Yeah, coming. 440 00:47:05,759 --> 00:47:07,800 Sorry. Did I wake you? 441 00:47:09,258 --> 00:47:10,382 No. 442 00:47:10,466 --> 00:47:12,466 Are you OK? 443 00:47:27,502 --> 00:47:29,502 What is she doing there? 444 00:47:30,543 --> 00:47:32,543 I don't know. 445 00:47:46,204 --> 00:47:48,204 Ma'am? 446 00:47:48,662 --> 00:47:50,662 What are you doing here? 447 00:47:54,535 --> 00:47:56,535 Ma'am? 448 00:47:56,742 --> 00:47:58,742 You shouldn't be here. 449 00:48:00,283 --> 00:48:02,324 I can be anywhere I want! 450 00:48:05,281 --> 00:48:07,322 Gab? 451 00:48:08,405 --> 00:48:10,405 What is it, Gab? 452 00:48:36,688 --> 00:48:38,688 Are you all right? 453 00:48:39,187 --> 00:48:41,187 Yeah. 454 00:50:01,452 --> 00:50:02,535 You OK? 455 00:50:02,660 --> 00:50:05,326 Yeah, I'm fine. I'm gonna get some water. 456 00:50:05,409 --> 00:50:07,409 I'll get it. 457 00:50:11,740 --> 00:50:13,740 Thanks. 458 00:50:25,153 --> 00:50:26,902 You were making yourself a snack? 459 00:50:26,985 --> 00:50:28,985 Yeah, I was hungry. 460 00:50:36,732 --> 00:50:38,732 Do you know who that was? 461 00:50:40,856 --> 00:50:44,063 I think she's from the residence. 462 00:50:44,146 --> 00:50:46,146 She's a patient? 463 00:50:46,312 --> 00:50:48,187 I don't know. I don't know her. 464 00:50:48,270 --> 00:50:50,269 She was there before I was. 465 00:50:50,353 --> 00:50:54,268 All I know is we're not to bother her, and we bring her meals three times a day. 466 00:50:57,809 --> 00:50:59,809 What happened? 467 00:51:00,183 --> 00:51:02,183 I don't know. 468 00:51:02,640 --> 00:51:05,348 I woke up because I heard someone crying. 469 00:51:05,431 --> 00:51:08,264 I thought it was in my dream. 470 00:51:09,388 --> 00:51:14,387 I dreamt I was on a plane, and I was looking out the window. 471 00:51:15,011 --> 00:51:17,511 We were flying over Montreal. I could see... 472 00:51:18,052 --> 00:51:21,718 I could see our neighborhood and the church rising above the buildings. 473 00:51:21,801 --> 00:51:24,633 And I really wanted to find our apartment. 474 00:51:26,591 --> 00:51:28,591 But I couldn't. I don't know why. 475 00:51:30,048 --> 00:51:33,339 Every time I came close, I realized it was the wrong spot. 476 00:51:33,422 --> 00:51:37,546 It was like the streets had shifted, and I had to start over. 477 00:51:38,587 --> 00:51:41,753 But I really wanted to find it. I was obsessed. 478 00:51:44,460 --> 00:51:47,501 That's when I heard someone crying on the plane. 479 00:51:49,000 --> 00:51:53,249 I turned and realized it was the person next to me. 480 00:51:54,207 --> 00:51:57,956 I was sure I'd seen him before, but I couldn't remember where. 481 00:51:58,789 --> 00:52:03,204 That's when I woke up and realized there really was someone crying. 482 00:52:06,578 --> 00:52:08,578 Did you talk to her? 483 00:52:10,827 --> 00:52:12,827 No. 484 00:52:13,534 --> 00:52:15,117 When I realized she was there, 485 00:52:15,200 --> 00:52:18,116 I turned on the light to see what was going on. 486 00:52:19,865 --> 00:52:21,865 And when I saw her... 487 00:52:23,572 --> 00:52:25,572 I couldn't do anything. 488 00:52:27,613 --> 00:52:31,945 I didn't know if I should help her or ask her what she was doing there. 489 00:52:32,028 --> 00:52:34,028 But I couldn't. 490 00:52:36,985 --> 00:52:38,985 I froze. 491 00:52:40,109 --> 00:52:42,608 All I could do was watch her cry. 492 00:52:44,607 --> 00:52:46,648 I couldn't even move. 493 00:52:49,023 --> 00:52:52,313 Even though she was in my room, it was like... 494 00:52:53,938 --> 00:52:56,353 It was like I didn't want to bother her. 495 00:53:02,060 --> 00:53:06,309 Then all of a sudden, I felt like I was the one who shouldn't be there. 496 00:53:07,975 --> 00:53:10,432 Like I was the intruder. 497 00:53:11,932 --> 00:53:15,472 I was in my bed, but I had no right to be there. 498 00:53:18,013 --> 00:53:20,013 I was so scared. 499 00:53:20,387 --> 00:53:23,761 I just wanted to stay there. I wanted to keep my place. 500 00:53:23,845 --> 00:53:26,594 I want to keep my life. I like my life. 501 00:53:27,302 --> 00:53:30,884 I may not have the right to be here, but I don't want to lose it. 502 00:53:34,841 --> 00:53:37,007 That's all I could do. 503 00:53:39,298 --> 00:53:42,339 Just stay... stay there and watch her. 504 00:53:43,588 --> 00:53:45,962 She wouldn't stop crying. 505 00:53:47,753 --> 00:53:50,919 I stayed there and watched her cry for I don't know how long. 506 00:53:51,294 --> 00:53:53,294 I didn't want to move. 507 00:53:54,835 --> 00:53:57,875 I don't... I don't want her to take my place. 508 00:53:57,959 --> 00:54:01,666 I'm not an intruder! OK? 509 00:55:14,434 --> 00:55:18,682 I could have gotten my degree, but things don't always work out that way. 510 00:55:18,766 --> 00:55:20,766 Sometimes, you've got to live! 511 00:55:21,057 --> 00:55:23,847 We often feel like we're not living fully, don't we? 512 00:55:23,931 --> 00:55:26,680 It's like every time we make a choice, 513 00:55:26,763 --> 00:55:29,929 we're giving up a thousand other things. 514 00:55:30,012 --> 00:55:31,512 It's weird, huh? 515 00:55:31,595 --> 00:55:36,010 It's like every time we choose a path, all the other ones disappear, 516 00:55:36,093 --> 00:55:39,384 as if life was just a series of missed opportunities. 517 00:55:39,467 --> 00:55:41,233 It's strange, isn't it? 518 00:55:41,383 --> 00:55:44,174 It's like we're not committed to our lives. 519 00:55:44,257 --> 00:55:48,714 We see it as a limitation, like we're just eliminating possibilities. 520 00:55:49,506 --> 00:55:51,355 I'm sorry. 521 00:55:51,505 --> 00:55:53,713 I'm deep in thought today. 522 00:55:54,296 --> 00:55:57,170 It doesn't happen often. Don't worry. 523 00:55:57,545 --> 00:56:01,793 But if that's my biggest flaw, it's not so bad, right? 524 00:56:02,751 --> 00:56:04,834 I think it's because... 525 00:56:05,792 --> 00:56:09,333 I feel comfortable sitting here talking to you. 526 00:56:10,166 --> 00:56:14,081 Not everyone would say that. But who cares about them? 527 00:56:19,663 --> 00:56:22,245 Go ahead. Have another one. 528 00:56:22,662 --> 00:56:24,662 Don't be shy. 529 00:57:27,849 --> 00:57:29,849 Ma'am? 530 00:57:31,972 --> 00:57:34,097 What were you doing in my apartment? 531 00:57:38,387 --> 00:57:40,886 Ma'am, I know it was you last night. 532 00:57:40,970 --> 00:57:42,970 What were you doing there? 533 00:57:47,217 --> 00:57:50,341 You're gonna stop blubbering like an idiot and answer me. 534 00:57:53,382 --> 00:57:55,298 You're not a good person. 535 00:57:55,382 --> 00:57:57,382 What? 536 00:57:59,797 --> 00:58:02,129 Listen to me. What's your problem? 537 00:58:02,546 --> 00:58:04,546 What's your fucking problem? 538 00:58:06,170 --> 00:58:08,170 Valérie, what's gotten into you? 539 00:58:14,292 --> 00:58:16,416 Jesus, Val, what were you thinking? 540 00:58:45,823 --> 00:58:47,823 I can't take it anymore. 541 00:58:50,197 --> 00:58:52,197 Excuse me? 542 00:58:53,946 --> 00:58:57,361 I can't... I just can't. 543 00:58:58,194 --> 00:59:00,527 What do you think you're doing? 544 00:59:01,193 --> 00:59:03,609 Did I give you permission to talk? 545 00:59:04,317 --> 00:59:06,358 That's not what you're here for. 546 00:59:07,025 --> 00:59:10,565 You're not supposed to feel anything unless I tell you to. 547 00:59:10,649 --> 00:59:12,232 I didn't tell you anything. 548 00:59:12,315 --> 00:59:14,106 I won't tell you anything. 549 00:59:14,189 --> 00:59:17,230 I'm the one that's hurting. 550 00:59:17,646 --> 00:59:19,771 You're nothing. 551 00:59:19,854 --> 00:59:23,395 No one cares that you even exist. 552 00:59:23,936 --> 00:59:26,602 Do what you're here to do, and that's it. 553 00:59:26,685 --> 00:59:30,934 No one cares what you think. Just shut your mouth and work. 554 00:59:31,017 --> 00:59:33,058 Do you really think you're interesting? 555 00:59:33,141 --> 00:59:35,974 Do you really think you're worth knowing? 556 00:59:36,057 --> 00:59:39,723 Look at yourself. You're completely inconsequential. 557 00:59:39,806 --> 00:59:42,097 You're not here to talk. You're just a tool. 558 00:59:42,180 --> 00:59:46,137 You're not here to feel. You're not here to speak. 559 00:59:46,221 --> 00:59:48,345 You're here to be used! 560 00:59:51,802 --> 00:59:53,802 But what about my life? 561 00:59:57,217 --> 01:00:01,174 You should be ashamed of yourself, you dirty, useless mongrel. 562 01:00:01,257 --> 01:00:05,339 My son wishes I was dead. My brother had a heart attack at 34. 563 01:00:05,423 --> 01:00:07,505 You maggot. 564 01:00:07,672 --> 01:00:10,671 My son wishes I was dead! 565 01:00:10,754 --> 01:00:13,087 Stop crying and get up! 566 01:00:14,045 --> 01:00:17,502 Get up! Get up and keep going. 567 01:00:18,627 --> 01:00:22,459 Why aren't you getting up? You coward. 568 01:01:52,929 --> 01:01:56,178 Come in. Shut the door behind you, please. 569 01:02:02,510 --> 01:02:04,510 Have a seat. 570 01:02:05,925 --> 01:02:09,382 This is the first time we meet in a disciplinary context, isn't it? 571 01:02:09,466 --> 01:02:11,965 - Yes. - Let's hope it's the last. 572 01:02:12,631 --> 01:02:15,214 - Do you always bike to work? - Yes. 573 01:02:15,297 --> 01:02:16,838 Good. That's a healthy habit. 574 01:02:16,922 --> 01:02:19,296 Now let's move on to more serious matters. 575 01:02:19,379 --> 01:02:22,003 First, I'd like to discuss the notion of precedent, 576 01:02:22,087 --> 01:02:24,086 an important notion in all organizations, 577 01:02:24,169 --> 01:02:26,960 but especially in residences like ours, 578 01:02:27,043 --> 01:02:30,001 where the human factor is a major consideration. 579 01:02:30,084 --> 01:02:34,083 Much like jurisprudence can significantly impact the outcome of a legal case, 580 01:02:34,166 --> 01:02:35,916 precedent in an organization 581 01:02:35,999 --> 01:02:39,081 can quickly cause an imbalance in employee management 582 01:02:39,164 --> 01:02:43,413 and create dissatisfaction, grievances and even deadly riots. 583 01:02:43,496 --> 01:02:45,246 And don't think I'm exaggerating. 584 01:02:45,329 --> 01:02:48,453 A deadly riot followed a poorly managed precedent 585 01:02:48,536 --> 01:02:51,702 in a Swedish factory in April, 1973. 586 01:02:52,119 --> 01:02:57,117 That being said, management must take appropriate measures 587 01:02:57,200 --> 01:03:00,949 following your actions in Room 14 yesterday. 588 01:03:01,032 --> 01:03:03,615 Failure to take action would create a precedent 589 01:03:03,698 --> 01:03:07,947 that could destroy the sense of balance our organization has strived to maintain 590 01:03:08,030 --> 01:03:10,446 since our last optimization phase. 591 01:03:10,529 --> 01:03:14,528 Of course, we're all human, but we'll leave that topic aside for now. 592 01:03:14,611 --> 01:03:17,610 What happened in Room 14 is unacceptable 593 01:03:17,694 --> 01:03:22,692 according to the code of conduct our employees must respect. 594 01:03:22,775 --> 01:03:25,399 You signed and acknowledged this code of conduct 595 01:03:25,483 --> 01:03:28,815 when you were hired on June 16, 2014, 596 01:03:28,898 --> 01:03:33,105 and the amendments made on November 22, 2014, 597 01:03:33,189 --> 01:03:35,604 January 31, 2015, 598 01:03:35,688 --> 01:03:39,645 March 6 and September 23, 2016, 599 01:03:39,728 --> 01:03:41,811 April 8, 2017, 600 01:03:41,894 --> 01:03:46,226 November 18 and February 6, 2018. 601 01:03:46,309 --> 01:03:49,308 You are therefore bound by this code of conduct. 602 01:03:50,975 --> 01:03:55,057 To summarize the incident, confirmed by two of your colleagues, 603 01:03:55,140 --> 01:03:58,514 an acceptable number of witnesses according to our organization, 604 01:03:58,597 --> 01:04:01,263 you accosted a patient of this establishment, 605 01:04:01,346 --> 01:04:05,678 forcefully grabbing her arm until your colleagues intervened. 606 01:04:05,761 --> 01:04:08,219 You also yelled at the patient, using the words: 607 01:04:08,302 --> 01:04:11,426 "What's your fucking problem?" 608 01:04:11,510 --> 01:04:16,508 This type of language is prohibited by our code of conduct, 609 01:04:16,591 --> 01:04:21,256 which, I'll remind you, you signed on the aforementioned dates. 610 01:04:21,340 --> 01:04:24,505 Your conduct may have been prompted by personal issues. 611 01:04:24,589 --> 01:04:27,754 However, these issues should not alter your judgment 612 01:04:27,838 --> 01:04:30,420 to the point of committing such an act. 613 01:04:30,503 --> 01:04:33,377 Everyone is entitled to their personal life, 614 01:04:33,461 --> 01:04:36,918 to their own little bubble of happiness or sadness, so to speak. 615 01:04:37,001 --> 01:04:39,709 We must not forget that the search for happiness 616 01:04:39,792 --> 01:04:42,000 is central to mankind. 617 01:04:42,083 --> 01:04:46,998 I personally find happiness through reading detective novels 618 01:04:47,081 --> 01:04:49,872 and making homemade pasta, for example. 619 01:04:49,955 --> 01:04:53,038 However, I shouldn't subject my colleagues to any outbursts 620 01:04:53,121 --> 01:04:55,745 if my cannelloni didn't turn out the night before. 621 01:04:56,328 --> 01:04:58,827 Of course, this is just an example, 622 01:04:58,911 --> 01:05:02,368 but I'm sure you can grasp the deeper meaning behind it. 623 01:05:02,451 --> 01:05:07,408 That said, we take this type of incident very seriously. 624 01:05:07,491 --> 01:05:10,574 We are therefore obligated to take disciplinary measures. 625 01:05:10,657 --> 01:05:15,114 Of course, if you are currently suffering from depression 626 01:05:15,197 --> 01:05:17,280 or experiencing psychological distress, 627 01:05:17,363 --> 01:05:19,779 please don't hesitate to talk to me about it. 628 01:05:19,862 --> 01:05:22,986 I can refer you to the appropriate resources 629 01:05:23,070 --> 01:05:25,361 to help you overcome your problems 630 01:05:25,444 --> 01:05:27,943 and optimize your conduct in the workplace. 631 01:05:28,026 --> 01:05:32,858 In "director of human resources," there is the word "human" after all. 632 01:05:32,941 --> 01:05:35,482 As per the terms of our collective agreement, 633 01:05:35,566 --> 01:05:37,648 and because this is your first offense, 634 01:05:37,732 --> 01:05:41,855 I am now issuing you a verbal warning. 635 01:05:42,772 --> 01:05:44,496 You've been warned. 636 01:05:44,646 --> 01:05:49,519 I urge you to take measures to ensure such an incident does not happen again. 637 01:05:49,603 --> 01:05:54,226 I'll ask you to date and sign this document summarizing the warning. 638 01:06:08,055 --> 01:06:11,637 This second copy is yours to keep. 639 01:06:12,595 --> 01:06:16,302 That will be all on our end. Is there anything you'd like to add? 640 01:06:16,386 --> 01:06:17,427 No. 641 01:06:17,510 --> 01:06:19,385 Very well. You may go back to work. 642 01:06:19,468 --> 01:06:22,092 Remember, you're a valued part of our organization. 643 01:06:22,175 --> 01:06:24,466 You scored highly at your evaluations, 644 01:06:24,550 --> 01:06:27,715 and we hope you'll be with us for a long time. 645 01:06:29,173 --> 01:06:33,255 I hope that we have a nice fall so you can continue to bike to work. 646 01:06:33,339 --> 01:06:35,339 - Thank you. - Goodbye. 647 01:06:35,713 --> 01:06:37,713 Goodbye. 648 01:06:54,415 --> 01:06:55,498 Hello. 649 01:06:55,623 --> 01:06:57,014 Hey. 650 01:06:57,164 --> 01:07:00,705 Careful where you sit. I shit in that bed. 651 01:07:00,788 --> 01:07:02,788 Sorry. 652 01:07:04,287 --> 01:07:05,786 What are you reading? 653 01:07:05,870 --> 01:07:07,511 Flora Balzano. 654 01:07:07,661 --> 01:07:09,368 Another bastard? 655 01:07:09,452 --> 01:07:11,452 A damn bastard. 656 01:07:14,450 --> 01:07:15,575 What's up with you? 657 01:07:15,658 --> 01:07:19,990 Apart from basking in the glory of life... 658 01:07:20,073 --> 01:07:22,073 Nothing. 659 01:07:30,278 --> 01:07:32,653 What did you do during the war? 660 01:07:39,109 --> 01:07:41,109 Not much. 661 01:07:42,108 --> 01:07:45,857 Even if it was a while ago, I was already an old geezer. 662 01:07:46,815 --> 01:07:49,147 It's a strange concept, isn't it? 663 01:07:49,647 --> 01:07:52,480 Everyone goes in one direction, and most people follow. 664 01:07:52,563 --> 01:07:56,353 And even if you know they're going in the wrong direction, 665 01:07:56,437 --> 01:07:57,936 you don't dare say anything, 666 01:07:58,019 --> 01:08:01,435 because you're just trying to keep your head above water. 667 01:08:02,601 --> 01:08:07,600 You realize that everything you used to think was insane and absurd 668 01:08:07,683 --> 01:08:10,390 is slowly becoming accepted as normal, 669 01:08:11,015 --> 01:08:14,847 and you have to treat it like anything else in life. 670 01:08:16,680 --> 01:08:18,429 And in this new reality, 671 01:08:18,513 --> 01:08:23,469 things that are even more insane and more absurd creep up on you. 672 01:08:24,844 --> 01:08:27,302 You try to stop it, 673 01:08:27,385 --> 01:08:31,425 but you forget that everything you found insane and absurd 674 01:08:31,509 --> 01:08:33,091 just a few years ago, 675 01:08:33,175 --> 01:08:35,507 is accepted by everyone now. 676 01:08:37,257 --> 01:08:42,255 It's like a cloud that expands so slowly that everyone says: 677 01:08:42,338 --> 01:08:45,504 "No, it's always been that size." 678 01:08:47,128 --> 01:08:50,544 And you never realize that you can't see the sun anymore. 679 01:08:59,874 --> 01:09:02,665 War must have hit you hard, huh? 680 01:09:04,789 --> 01:09:06,122 Yeah. 681 01:09:06,206 --> 01:09:08,455 What did you do? Hide? 682 01:09:12,537 --> 01:09:15,619 No, I was the luckiest girl in the world. 683 01:09:15,703 --> 01:09:17,703 How so? 684 01:09:19,576 --> 01:09:22,742 My boyfriend and I were taken to the forest in September. 685 01:09:28,657 --> 01:09:31,239 It was one bullet per person, no more. 686 01:09:31,781 --> 01:09:34,530 They were worried about running out of ammunition. 687 01:09:35,613 --> 01:09:37,862 The soldier who shot me missed. 688 01:09:38,320 --> 01:09:41,694 Samuel died, and then it just kept going. 689 01:09:44,318 --> 01:09:47,942 I don't know how I managed to keep breathing. 690 01:09:49,733 --> 01:09:51,149 When everything went quiet, 691 01:09:51,233 --> 01:09:54,273 I decided to wait half an hour before trying to get out. 692 01:09:54,357 --> 01:09:57,397 But I don't think I even made it to 20 minutes. 693 01:09:58,314 --> 01:10:01,396 I was really lucky no one was there when I climbed out. 694 01:10:02,396 --> 01:10:04,396 It was calm. 695 01:10:04,770 --> 01:10:06,770 It was all over. 696 01:10:07,186 --> 01:10:09,518 It was like nothing had happened. 697 01:10:11,351 --> 01:10:13,392 I don't like telling that story, 698 01:10:13,475 --> 01:10:16,599 'cause nobody looks at me the same after. 699 01:10:18,515 --> 01:10:20,806 Why are you telling me now? 700 01:10:25,513 --> 01:10:29,387 Last week, a new bakery opened up near my apartment. 701 01:10:30,053 --> 01:10:31,720 I went to check it out. 702 01:10:31,803 --> 01:10:34,802 It's a perfectly normal bakery, but... 703 01:10:37,051 --> 01:10:38,759 The owner, 704 01:10:38,842 --> 01:10:42,050 or the man serving people, anyway... 705 01:10:42,133 --> 01:10:44,133 I recognized him right away. 706 01:10:45,049 --> 01:10:48,631 It was the soldier who missed his shot. 707 01:10:50,255 --> 01:10:52,171 I think he recognized me too. 708 01:10:52,255 --> 01:10:54,754 But neither of us said anything. It was strange. 709 01:10:54,837 --> 01:10:59,752 It was like all we could do was stay in our roles. 710 01:10:59,835 --> 01:11:03,626 I was the customer. He was the baker. 711 01:11:03,709 --> 01:11:05,709 So... 712 01:11:06,167 --> 01:11:09,207 I bought a baguette. He sold it to me, and I left. 713 01:11:10,290 --> 01:11:12,581 And now, I don't know what to do. 714 01:11:12,665 --> 01:11:14,706 I saw him on the street the other day, 715 01:11:14,789 --> 01:11:17,913 so I think he lives in my neighborhood now. 716 01:11:17,996 --> 01:11:21,870 I can't keep running into him. 717 01:11:23,744 --> 01:11:25,744 What would you want to do? 718 01:11:26,743 --> 01:11:29,867 I don't know. I don't want to see him or talk to him. 719 01:11:29,951 --> 01:11:33,533 I don't want to feel uncomfortable in my neighborhood. 720 01:11:34,782 --> 01:11:38,073 You could have someone ask him to leave? 721 01:11:38,156 --> 01:11:40,406 He has the right to be there if he wants. 722 01:11:40,489 --> 01:11:42,821 It's not a matter of rights. 723 01:11:43,446 --> 01:11:47,070 If he has any decency, he'll leave. 724 01:11:57,233 --> 01:12:00,482 Do you know what happened after I climbed out of the pit? 725 01:12:01,982 --> 01:12:03,982 No. 726 01:12:06,397 --> 01:12:09,854 I didn't understand what just happened. It was like... 727 01:12:11,312 --> 01:12:15,603 It all happened so fast. It hadn't sunk in yet. 728 01:12:18,185 --> 01:12:20,185 It's like it wasn't real. 729 01:12:22,142 --> 01:12:24,142 It wasn't real. 730 01:12:24,516 --> 01:12:28,057 My boyfriend hadn't just died next to me. 731 01:12:28,140 --> 01:12:33,055 I hadn't just climbed out of a mass grave. 732 01:12:34,638 --> 01:12:39,511 I started to get so cold. I was shivering. 733 01:12:40,553 --> 01:12:44,385 I was trying to think of the next steps, 734 01:12:44,801 --> 01:12:48,967 what I had to do to survive. 735 01:12:49,050 --> 01:12:52,007 I was trying to think practically. 736 01:12:54,007 --> 01:12:56,381 And while I was sitting there... 737 01:12:57,381 --> 01:13:01,546 naked, shaking like a leaf... 738 01:13:03,754 --> 01:13:08,752 a mosquito landed on my arm. 739 01:13:11,793 --> 01:13:13,500 Right before my eyes. 740 01:13:13,584 --> 01:13:17,666 I watched as it repositioned himself. 741 01:13:17,749 --> 01:13:21,040 And then it bit me like it was nothing. 742 01:13:22,997 --> 01:13:24,997 And then... 743 01:13:25,372 --> 01:13:26,871 It all hit me. 744 01:13:26,954 --> 01:13:31,828 It was like a flood of emotions just washed over me. 745 01:13:32,661 --> 01:13:35,243 As I watched the mosquito bite me, I was thinking: 746 01:13:35,327 --> 01:13:39,450 "Can't I just have two goddamn seconds of peace?" 747 01:13:39,992 --> 01:13:41,700 But at the same time, 748 01:13:41,783 --> 01:13:45,365 I was like: "No, bite me, like everything is normal. 749 01:13:45,448 --> 01:13:49,322 "Bite me, because life goes on. 750 01:13:49,405 --> 01:13:53,279 "Life always goes on." 751 01:13:56,486 --> 01:13:57,611 So I let it bite me. 752 01:13:57,694 --> 01:14:00,277 I didn't want to kill it. I didn't want to move. 753 01:14:00,360 --> 01:14:03,526 I just wanted it to bite me. 754 01:14:03,609 --> 01:14:08,191 And that's what it did. It bit me and left. Just like that. 755 01:14:13,439 --> 01:14:16,438 The bite mark was right here. 756 01:14:17,271 --> 01:14:19,396 When it started to fade, 757 01:14:19,479 --> 01:14:22,478 I made a little mark with a knife... 758 01:14:23,686 --> 01:14:25,769 so I'd remember where it was. 759 01:14:28,476 --> 01:14:33,100 And I kept doing it until it left a scar. 760 01:14:35,266 --> 01:14:38,348 That little mark says... 761 01:14:39,348 --> 01:14:41,348 "Fuck it. 762 01:14:43,471 --> 01:14:45,471 "You're nothing. 763 01:14:46,137 --> 01:14:49,136 "Life will go on with or without you, 764 01:14:49,219 --> 01:14:53,676 "so why don't you try looking at the bright side of it?" 765 01:14:57,342 --> 01:15:00,882 So, the soldier who missed that day... 766 01:15:03,256 --> 01:15:07,838 I don't want to make a big deal out of it. 767 01:15:09,963 --> 01:15:12,129 I don't want to give a fuck. 768 01:15:13,087 --> 01:15:15,419 I don't want to give a fuck about him 769 01:15:16,086 --> 01:15:18,710 or his bakery. 770 01:15:19,834 --> 01:15:21,584 He has the right to be there. 771 01:15:21,667 --> 01:15:25,458 I'm just having a hard time right now. 772 01:15:31,997 --> 01:15:34,121 You're strong, Valérie. 773 01:15:34,955 --> 01:15:37,829 You don't have to force yourself not to feel. 774 01:15:40,286 --> 01:15:42,660 You're allowed to listen to your feelings. 775 01:15:46,243 --> 01:15:50,658 Well, I'm feeling like my break has been over for a while. 776 01:15:52,574 --> 01:15:56,073 Sorry for dumping all of this on you. 777 01:15:56,614 --> 01:15:58,614 Don't apologize. Please. 778 01:15:59,113 --> 01:16:03,445 I was gonna tell you a blonde joke, but I got off track. 779 01:16:04,362 --> 01:16:06,861 - Next time. - Yeah. 780 01:16:09,318 --> 01:16:11,318 Thanks for listening. 781 01:16:12,401 --> 01:16:14,401 Anytime. 782 01:16:16,608 --> 01:16:18,107 I'll come back again later. 783 01:16:18,190 --> 01:16:20,190 OK. 784 01:17:14,339 --> 01:17:16,339 Come on. 785 01:17:16,630 --> 01:17:18,088 What are you doing? 786 01:17:18,171 --> 01:17:20,878 Sorry. The alarm won't stop. 787 01:17:27,335 --> 01:17:29,059 Are you kidding? 788 01:17:29,209 --> 01:17:30,934 What the hell? 789 01:17:31,084 --> 01:17:33,166 Look, I took out the battery. 790 01:17:33,624 --> 01:17:36,082 Are you sure it's coming from your phone? 791 01:17:36,165 --> 01:17:38,165 - Well... - OK. 792 01:17:41,830 --> 01:17:43,554 I wish... 793 01:17:43,704 --> 01:17:46,578 I wish we could wake up together. 794 01:17:54,493 --> 01:17:56,493 Did you record that? 795 01:17:56,867 --> 01:17:58,633 No. 796 01:17:58,783 --> 01:18:00,241 Who did? 797 01:18:00,324 --> 01:18:02,324 I don't know. 798 01:18:02,573 --> 01:18:04,239 Did you recognize the voice? 799 01:18:04,323 --> 01:18:05,531 No, did you? 800 01:18:05,614 --> 01:18:09,779 No. I can't even tell if it's a man or a woman. 801 01:18:11,487 --> 01:18:13,487 Or Nina Simone. 802 01:18:14,195 --> 01:18:17,527 Yeah, that's it. Nina Simone left us a message. 803 01:18:17,985 --> 01:18:21,484 I forgot I downloaded the Jazz Freaks You Out app. 804 01:18:21,567 --> 01:18:23,691 Even if the battery is "offed." 805 01:18:23,775 --> 01:18:25,024 The battery is what? 806 01:18:25,108 --> 01:18:27,108 Oh, shut up! 807 01:18:28,273 --> 01:18:32,022 I can't! Because we have to wake up together. 808 01:18:32,105 --> 01:18:34,313 - No way. I'm sleeping. - You're sleeping? 809 01:18:34,396 --> 01:18:36,562 - I'm sleeping. - OK, sleep. 810 01:19:52,621 --> 01:19:54,745 Do you want me to leave? 811 01:20:00,327 --> 01:20:02,327 Why are you here? 812 01:20:03,159 --> 01:20:05,092 I... 813 01:20:05,242 --> 01:20:08,657 I wanted to tell you that whatever... 814 01:20:13,739 --> 01:20:17,988 I wanted to tell you that I'll do whatever you want. 815 01:20:18,071 --> 01:20:21,195 If you want me to close my bakery and leave, I will. 816 01:20:21,278 --> 01:20:25,027 If you just want me to avoid your street, I will. 817 01:20:25,110 --> 01:20:27,901 If you need to yell at me... 818 01:20:28,942 --> 01:20:30,983 Whatever it is... 819 01:20:31,983 --> 01:20:34,357 I'll do whatever you want. 820 01:20:35,315 --> 01:20:37,315 I just wanted to tell you that. 821 01:20:38,689 --> 01:20:41,189 You don't even have to answer. 822 01:20:49,394 --> 01:20:51,394 I... 823 01:20:56,059 --> 01:20:58,059 I'd like... 824 01:21:01,182 --> 01:21:03,806 I'd like to ask you a question. 825 01:21:04,931 --> 01:21:06,931 Yes? 826 01:21:12,428 --> 01:21:14,886 Did you miss your shot on purpose? 827 01:21:18,510 --> 01:21:20,510 Yes. 828 01:21:22,217 --> 01:21:27,090 I knew it was useless, that you would... 829 01:21:27,174 --> 01:21:29,923 I knew it would be worse, a lot worse. 830 01:21:31,422 --> 01:21:33,422 I couldn't do it. 831 01:21:38,337 --> 01:21:41,502 But you still shot the man on top of me. 832 01:21:42,210 --> 01:21:43,893 Yes. 833 01:21:44,043 --> 01:21:45,501 But he was the last one. 834 01:21:45,584 --> 01:21:48,417 I got sick after that, and they replaced me. 835 01:21:48,500 --> 01:21:51,083 I couldn't do it anymore. 836 01:21:56,414 --> 01:21:58,414 Well... 837 01:22:02,371 --> 01:22:04,371 I think... 838 01:22:06,244 --> 01:22:08,244 I think we should... 839 01:22:10,659 --> 01:22:14,033 We should talk... 840 01:22:16,033 --> 01:22:18,740 I think it would be the best thing to do for now. 841 01:22:21,448 --> 01:22:23,697 But I don't want to let you in. 842 01:22:25,363 --> 01:22:28,154 We can go somewhere else. I don't mind. 843 01:22:28,237 --> 01:22:30,986 No, I'm practically in my PJs. I don't want to leave. 844 01:22:34,693 --> 01:22:36,693 We could sit right here. 845 01:22:37,359 --> 01:22:39,359 OK. 846 01:23:03,267 --> 01:23:07,141 Do you have anything to tell me about the war? 847 01:23:08,849 --> 01:23:11,098 Everything's been said. 848 01:23:13,223 --> 01:23:15,305 Were you a baker before? 849 01:23:16,555 --> 01:23:20,387 Yes. I've always been a baker. 850 01:23:22,511 --> 01:23:25,302 Why did you stop during the war? 851 01:23:25,927 --> 01:23:27,718 I didn't own the bakery. 852 01:23:27,801 --> 01:23:31,508 I had to enlist, but I didn't want to be in the army. 853 01:23:32,216 --> 01:23:34,507 So I chose the police force. 854 01:23:35,549 --> 01:23:37,506 I didn't think it would be as bad. 855 01:23:37,590 --> 01:23:40,047 I thought I wouldn't have to go to the front. 856 01:23:42,005 --> 01:23:44,005 You were police officers? 857 01:23:44,379 --> 01:23:47,461 Yes. There weren't enough soldiers. 858 01:23:48,086 --> 01:23:51,585 The police battalions handled the groups. 859 01:23:53,918 --> 01:23:55,918 "Handled?" 860 01:23:56,542 --> 01:23:58,542 I'm sorry. 861 01:23:59,124 --> 01:24:03,081 I'm sorry. I don't know how to put it. 862 01:24:05,706 --> 01:24:07,706 It's OK. 863 01:24:14,744 --> 01:24:16,744 Why our group? 864 01:24:18,743 --> 01:24:20,743 I have no idea. 865 01:24:21,367 --> 01:24:25,449 I don't know whose decision it was. We found out that morning. 866 01:24:27,365 --> 01:24:29,365 Was anyone against it? 867 01:24:31,197 --> 01:24:33,197 I'm sure some were. 868 01:24:33,613 --> 01:24:35,613 I was, anyway. 869 01:24:37,612 --> 01:24:39,653 Did anyone refuse to do it? 870 01:24:41,444 --> 01:24:43,444 No. 871 01:24:46,484 --> 01:24:48,484 Why not? 872 01:24:50,524 --> 01:24:53,982 We did what we had to do. We were following orders. 873 01:24:54,981 --> 01:24:59,646 I can't wrap my head around it now, how it all happened. 874 01:25:00,313 --> 01:25:02,770 But back then, it seemed logical. 875 01:25:04,062 --> 01:25:06,062 Logical... 876 01:25:10,643 --> 01:25:12,809 It's what had to be done. 877 01:25:15,808 --> 01:25:18,099 The weird thing is that 878 01:25:18,640 --> 01:25:21,348 the ones who believed in it most 879 01:25:22,097 --> 01:25:23,430 were the craziest ones, 880 01:25:23,514 --> 01:25:26,679 the dumbest ones, the ones who annoyed me the most. 881 01:25:27,221 --> 01:25:29,803 But they were the model soldiers. 882 01:25:29,887 --> 01:25:33,302 They didn't need to be replaced. 883 01:25:33,385 --> 01:25:36,259 They were excited for the next group. 884 01:25:37,967 --> 01:25:40,966 Some of them ate a full meal at night, 885 01:25:41,050 --> 01:25:43,132 like it was just a normal day. 886 01:25:45,007 --> 01:25:47,173 Not a lot of them, but some. 887 01:25:48,964 --> 01:25:51,338 War skews everything. 888 01:25:52,504 --> 01:25:54,504 Nothing is normal. 889 01:25:57,877 --> 01:25:59,710 But that's not an excuse. 890 01:25:59,794 --> 01:26:03,292 Nothing I say is an excuse. 891 01:26:06,750 --> 01:26:09,957 Did you do a lot of operations like that? 892 01:26:11,082 --> 01:26:13,082 I don't know. 893 01:26:13,706 --> 01:26:17,871 Those times are all hazy now. 894 01:26:18,454 --> 01:26:23,411 I can't remember separate incidents. It's all blended together. 895 01:26:24,785 --> 01:26:28,243 It went by fast. So fast. 896 01:26:30,867 --> 01:26:33,491 I don't even know how many people there were. 897 01:26:34,074 --> 01:26:39,114 It was like a factory line. 898 01:26:41,363 --> 01:26:43,363 It was senseless. 899 01:26:46,695 --> 01:26:49,694 All I could do... 900 01:26:50,694 --> 01:26:53,818 was make a deal with the guy next to me. 901 01:26:54,776 --> 01:26:59,191 I knew I could never shoot a child. 902 01:27:01,065 --> 01:27:04,814 I couldn't do it. 903 01:27:08,646 --> 01:27:10,729 But it was the opposite for him. 904 01:27:11,479 --> 01:27:14,603 It was easier for him to shoot children 905 01:27:14,686 --> 01:27:18,726 when he knew their dad or their mom were dying next to them. 906 01:27:18,810 --> 01:27:22,767 He said kids wouldn't survive without their parents, 907 01:27:22,850 --> 01:27:24,391 so they were better off dead. 908 01:27:24,474 --> 01:27:28,806 So when I had a child and he had the parent, we'd switch. 909 01:27:29,931 --> 01:27:32,305 We'd switch. It was easier. 910 01:27:34,305 --> 01:27:37,137 I did that. 911 01:27:37,637 --> 01:27:39,637 It was all I could do. 912 01:27:43,052 --> 01:27:46,800 There's no excuse. Nothing I did can be forgiven. 913 01:28:07,044 --> 01:28:10,501 Was it expensive to open your bakery? 914 01:28:10,959 --> 01:28:14,083 Yes. But it's just money. It doesn't matter. 915 01:28:14,916 --> 01:28:16,916 OK. 916 01:28:18,207 --> 01:28:20,415 If you don't mind... 917 01:28:23,039 --> 01:28:25,205 I'd like you to move. 918 01:28:27,579 --> 01:28:29,703 It doesn't have to be right away. 919 01:28:31,536 --> 01:28:33,660 I understand it won't be easy. 920 01:28:33,744 --> 01:28:36,326 You can take your time to finish your lease, 921 01:28:36,409 --> 01:28:40,033 pay off your loans and get everything ready. 922 01:28:40,866 --> 01:28:44,615 But, eventually, I would like you not to be in my neighborhood. 923 01:28:47,656 --> 01:28:50,780 I want you to know I'm not trying to get revenge. 924 01:28:53,279 --> 01:28:57,444 I wish I could tell you it doesn't bother me if you stay... 925 01:29:02,026 --> 01:29:04,026 but I can't. 926 01:29:05,317 --> 01:29:07,066 I don't want to see you. 927 01:29:07,149 --> 01:29:11,315 I don't want to think about you, because when I do, 928 01:29:11,398 --> 01:29:13,814 I think about my boyfriend who died next to me. 929 01:29:14,314 --> 01:29:15,355 I understand. 930 01:29:15,438 --> 01:29:19,229 And, honestly, I don't think you want to think about me either. 931 01:29:22,228 --> 01:29:26,185 So, whenever you can... 932 01:29:27,143 --> 01:29:29,351 and you can take your time... 933 01:29:31,558 --> 01:29:34,349 I'd really like you to move. 934 01:29:39,222 --> 01:29:41,222 Is that OK? 935 01:30:43,743 --> 01:30:45,743 Excuse me? 936 01:30:54,240 --> 01:30:56,781 Sorry, madam. I hadn't recognized you. 937 01:32:28,876 --> 01:32:30,876 I'LL NEVER BE HAPPY 938 01:32:51,410 --> 01:32:54,159 I dreamt about you recently. 939 01:32:55,700 --> 01:32:57,700 I'm sure it was you. 940 01:33:00,074 --> 01:33:02,074 It was strange. 941 01:33:02,531 --> 01:33:05,197 I was young, about 25. 942 01:33:06,280 --> 01:33:09,571 And we were playing volleyball. 943 01:33:10,737 --> 01:33:14,611 I played a lot of volleyball when I was young. 944 01:33:14,694 --> 01:33:17,235 I haven't dreamed about it in a long time. 945 01:33:19,484 --> 01:33:21,817 We were playing, but the court was too small. 946 01:33:21,900 --> 01:33:23,900 We were too close to each other. 947 01:33:24,608 --> 01:33:29,023 I was doing all the passes. You were in charge of smashing. 948 01:33:29,856 --> 01:33:32,438 But they kept returning the ball. 949 01:33:33,105 --> 01:33:36,479 By the end, we were both really upset. 950 01:33:38,103 --> 01:33:41,935 I was upset because you couldn't score a point. 951 01:33:42,019 --> 01:33:44,976 I was yelling: "Come on! Let's go!" 952 01:33:45,809 --> 01:33:50,058 And you were upset because no matter what you did, 953 01:33:50,141 --> 01:33:52,349 the ball kept coming back. 954 01:33:52,807 --> 01:33:55,931 You were smashing it harder and harder, 955 01:33:56,014 --> 01:34:00,179 and I kept yelling: "Come on! You suck!" 956 01:34:03,387 --> 01:34:07,094 At the end, you turned toward me and yelled: 957 01:34:07,177 --> 01:34:09,510 "Stop it! It's not true!" 958 01:34:11,092 --> 01:34:13,592 That's when I woke up. 959 01:34:21,506 --> 01:34:25,255 You look like you're searching for something you'll never find. 960 01:34:31,336 --> 01:34:34,002 What disappoints you most about death? 961 01:34:41,291 --> 01:34:43,291 Abandoning life. 962 01:34:44,248 --> 01:34:46,664 Everything that will go on without me. 963 01:34:48,705 --> 01:34:52,038 The books I'll never read, the people I'll never meet. 964 01:34:52,121 --> 01:34:54,121 Everything that's left to discover. 965 01:34:54,453 --> 01:34:58,036 All the wonderful or terrible events 966 01:34:58,119 --> 01:35:01,076 I'll simply never witness. 967 01:35:05,575 --> 01:35:09,657 Some people say they'd like to live in a different era, 968 01:35:10,240 --> 01:35:14,030 like the Renaissance or the Enlightenment, 969 01:35:14,114 --> 01:35:17,321 in the time of Shakespeare or Socrates. 970 01:35:19,154 --> 01:35:23,444 I've always thought I'd like to live in the next era, 971 01:35:24,277 --> 01:35:27,151 because there would always be something new to discover, 972 01:35:27,234 --> 01:35:30,233 a new perspective on life. 973 01:35:31,858 --> 01:35:35,065 And even then, if someone asked me, 974 01:35:35,482 --> 01:35:39,980 I'd still say I wanted to live in the era after that. 975 01:35:43,229 --> 01:35:45,229 But anyway... 976 01:35:48,019 --> 01:35:50,560 We both know that's impossible. 977 01:35:52,726 --> 01:35:56,267 It has to come to an end while everything else keeps going. 978 01:35:59,016 --> 01:36:03,015 It's quite a shame it has to end. 979 01:36:05,597 --> 01:36:10,096 Being obliged to stop witnessing the world... 980 01:36:14,844 --> 01:36:17,093 that's my fatal disappointment. 981 01:36:20,967 --> 01:36:22,967 Are you afraid to die? 982 01:36:24,216 --> 01:36:26,024 Of course. 983 01:36:26,174 --> 01:36:28,174 Aren't you? 984 01:36:28,631 --> 01:36:30,631 Me? 985 01:36:31,422 --> 01:36:33,463 I'm afraid I don't exist. 986 01:36:34,838 --> 01:36:37,795 If you're here, you exist. 987 01:36:38,336 --> 01:36:40,836 But I fear I might not be here. 988 01:36:41,252 --> 01:36:42,377 Do you understand? 989 01:36:42,460 --> 01:36:44,668 I don't know what's happening to me lately. 990 01:36:44,751 --> 01:36:46,751 No one can explain it. 991 01:36:47,833 --> 01:36:51,166 It's like I'm seeing clearly for the first time in my life. 992 01:36:51,249 --> 01:36:54,165 And I'm realizing I don't really exist. 993 01:36:54,248 --> 01:36:56,289 It's dizzying. 994 01:36:57,747 --> 01:36:59,954 I can't function anymore. 995 01:37:00,662 --> 01:37:02,370 I'm afraid. 996 01:37:02,454 --> 01:37:05,119 I'm afraid of not being here right now. 997 01:37:05,203 --> 01:37:08,285 Here in your room, I'm afraid I don't exist. 998 01:37:08,368 --> 01:37:10,992 I don't even know how I got here. 999 01:37:13,033 --> 01:37:15,033 Through the door. 1000 01:37:19,323 --> 01:37:21,947 You like making fun of people, don't you? 1001 01:37:23,363 --> 01:37:25,404 I like making fun of myself too. 1002 01:37:29,278 --> 01:37:32,027 Do you think you'll die laughing? 1003 01:37:32,111 --> 01:37:35,360 Do you think you'll be happy? 1004 01:37:36,901 --> 01:37:40,483 No. I just hope I'm still lucid. 1005 01:37:49,813 --> 01:37:51,788 You don't have to do this. 1006 01:37:51,938 --> 01:37:53,938 Yes, I do. 1007 01:37:55,520 --> 01:37:57,727 It won't bring you peace. 1008 01:38:00,935 --> 01:38:02,935 Are you afraid? 1009 01:38:04,850 --> 01:38:06,850 Yes. 1010 01:38:07,349 --> 01:38:09,390 Good. You're lucid. 1011 01:38:13,805 --> 01:38:16,096 Can't it wait just a while longer? 1012 01:38:16,971 --> 01:38:18,971 No. 1013 01:38:24,594 --> 01:38:26,593 I can't move. 1014 01:38:26,676 --> 01:38:28,676 That's normal. 1015 01:38:38,506 --> 01:38:41,713 I'm sorry, but you're going to take me seriously. 1016 01:40:43,465 --> 01:40:46,756 - Now that's something. - It's really something, huh? 1017 01:40:59,627 --> 01:41:01,627 It's unbelievable! 1018 01:41:03,709 --> 01:41:05,709 It's really flattering. 1019 01:41:17,704 --> 01:41:19,495 It's so hideous! 1020 01:41:19,579 --> 01:41:22,411 Well, thank you, my love. 1021 01:41:24,369 --> 01:41:27,618 Look how beautiful I am. 1022 01:41:30,908 --> 01:41:34,490 It's gross! 1023 01:42:13,603 --> 01:42:15,603 Go on. 1024 01:42:15,894 --> 01:42:17,894 Go on! 1025 01:42:26,182 --> 01:42:28,681 - How's everyone doing? - Good. 1026 01:42:31,097 --> 01:42:33,180 I can't hear you. How's everyone doing? 1027 01:42:33,263 --> 01:42:35,263 Good! 1028 01:42:41,052 --> 01:42:42,985 It was during the war. 1029 01:42:43,135 --> 01:42:46,384 That memory of Samuel and me goofing off in front of the mirror 1030 01:42:46,467 --> 01:42:48,467 happened during the war. 1031 01:42:50,924 --> 01:42:53,631 I think one of the periods in my life I laughed most 1032 01:42:54,173 --> 01:42:56,173 was during the war. 1033 01:42:57,380 --> 01:42:59,380 I've never told anyone that. 1034 01:43:00,004 --> 01:43:01,962 I could never admit it out loud. 1035 01:43:02,045 --> 01:43:04,086 "During the war, I laughed a lot." 1036 01:43:05,003 --> 01:43:07,003 But it's true. 1037 01:43:08,210 --> 01:43:10,043 Even if it was hard sometimes, 1038 01:43:10,126 --> 01:43:13,958 but whenever we weren't directly confronted with the war, 1039 01:43:14,041 --> 01:43:16,041 we found ways to laugh. 1040 01:43:16,291 --> 01:43:18,998 Not necessarily more or less than usual. 1041 01:43:19,081 --> 01:43:21,081 We just... 1042 01:43:21,955 --> 01:43:23,955 kept on living. 1043 01:43:25,246 --> 01:43:28,079 Of course, when you find out your mom was publicly hung 1044 01:43:28,162 --> 01:43:30,536 for trying to stage a revolt, 1045 01:43:30,619 --> 01:43:32,619 you laugh a little less. 1046 01:43:32,869 --> 01:43:35,618 But at least she died setting an example. 1047 01:43:36,534 --> 01:43:39,575 People said: "It's the most beautiful day of her life. 1048 01:43:39,658 --> 01:43:41,549 "She's going to meet God." 1049 01:43:41,699 --> 01:43:43,324 That's a beautiful day? 1050 01:43:43,407 --> 01:43:46,906 A bit of sunshine and some frozen yogurt is good enough for me! 1051 01:43:48,572 --> 01:43:52,362 So many people were dying back then, I'm sure she didn't meet God himself. 1052 01:43:52,446 --> 01:43:54,820 More like his administrative assistant. 1053 01:43:56,069 --> 01:43:57,361 "God welcomes you. 1054 01:43:57,444 --> 01:43:59,485 "Here's your name tag, a map to the pool 1055 01:43:59,568 --> 01:44:01,651 "and a voucher for Cana restaurant, 1056 01:44:01,734 --> 01:44:04,900 "where we multiply food faster than the competition." 1057 01:44:07,524 --> 01:44:10,273 By show of applause, who here believes in God? 1058 01:44:15,646 --> 01:44:18,187 Personally, I'm not so sure. 1059 01:44:19,187 --> 01:44:22,519 I have a hard time believing in a spiritual entity 1060 01:44:22,602 --> 01:44:26,435 who only shares his revelations with those given to megalomania. 1061 01:44:29,100 --> 01:44:31,033 I think that, overall... 1062 01:44:31,183 --> 01:44:34,015 accepting that life is meaningless 1063 01:44:34,515 --> 01:44:37,056 is one of the hardest things to do. 1064 01:44:37,764 --> 01:44:41,013 That and moving a fridge up a Montreal staircase. 1065 01:44:41,763 --> 01:44:44,220 But at least a fridge is useful. 1066 01:44:45,054 --> 01:44:49,052 Accepting that life is meaningless doesn't even keep milk from spoiling. 1067 01:44:54,217 --> 01:44:56,383 Although if God existed... 1068 01:44:59,007 --> 01:45:03,173 I could at least hope to see Samuel again. 1069 01:45:05,172 --> 01:45:07,921 'Cause the last time we saw each other, we didn't talk much. 1070 01:45:08,004 --> 01:45:10,004 A lot was going through our heads. 1071 01:45:10,087 --> 01:45:12,128 For me, it was terror. Him, a bullet. 1072 01:45:12,711 --> 01:45:14,711 Both our minds were elsewhere. 1073 01:45:15,127 --> 01:45:18,001 Then dead or alive, they buried us, and that was it! 1074 01:45:18,084 --> 01:45:21,583 But at least they were composting! It was an eco-friendly massacre. 1075 01:45:21,667 --> 01:45:23,749 They even donated our clothes to the poor. 1076 01:45:23,833 --> 01:45:27,082 You could tell that army truly cared about the lives of others. 1077 01:45:29,081 --> 01:45:32,122 It's stressful, being buried alive. 1078 01:45:32,746 --> 01:45:37,453 Poor visibility, restricted breathing, certainty you're about to die... 1079 01:45:37,537 --> 01:45:39,952 I don't recommend it for your next vacation. 1080 01:45:40,036 --> 01:45:43,076 Try out a new fitness trail instead. 1081 01:45:47,117 --> 01:45:50,782 You also wonder if there's any point in trying to escape. 1082 01:45:51,365 --> 01:45:56,322 Or if you should just swallow a mouthful of dirt. 1083 01:45:58,196 --> 01:46:01,112 And you come close to doing it a few times. 1084 01:46:01,862 --> 01:46:04,986 There are moments where you go: "OK... 1085 01:46:05,652 --> 01:46:07,652 "Enough. I'm done." 1086 01:46:09,526 --> 01:46:13,358 But then you remember you have a sportswear gift certificate. 1087 01:46:14,025 --> 01:46:16,025 Hiking shoes are expensive! 1088 01:46:18,940 --> 01:46:20,940 It took me... 1089 01:46:22,272 --> 01:46:24,272 It took me a long time... 1090 01:46:25,313 --> 01:46:27,313 before even considering... 1091 01:46:27,937 --> 01:46:31,519 thinking about loving someone other than Samuel. 1092 01:46:32,477 --> 01:46:34,893 But we had grown very distant. 1093 01:46:34,976 --> 01:46:39,058 We weren't communicating. Our sex life was not the same. 1094 01:46:42,557 --> 01:46:44,598 When I met Gabriel... 1095 01:46:45,598 --> 01:46:49,763 it was the first time I had that feeling again. 1096 01:46:50,471 --> 01:46:54,720 That same kind of day-to-day happiness. 1097 01:46:57,011 --> 01:46:59,593 Plus, Gabriel still had the back of his neck. 1098 01:47:07,216 --> 01:47:09,216 Samuel... 1099 01:47:12,214 --> 01:47:15,671 Samuel is slowly fading away. 1100 01:47:19,878 --> 01:47:21,878 It's sad. 1101 01:47:23,169 --> 01:47:27,667 I hate that it's an ordinary injustice for people who die too young. 1102 01:47:31,208 --> 01:47:34,499 I think about everything that's happened since the war. 1103 01:47:37,706 --> 01:47:39,913 I've been through so much. 1104 01:47:42,954 --> 01:47:45,787 Samuel will never get to experience those things, 1105 01:47:45,870 --> 01:47:46,953 with or without me. 1106 01:47:47,036 --> 01:47:49,036 That's not the point. 1107 01:47:51,868 --> 01:47:54,325 He's stuck somewhere in the past... 1108 01:47:57,241 --> 01:48:00,074 and I'm forgetting him more and more each day. 1109 01:48:03,031 --> 01:48:05,155 There are very few people... 1110 01:48:06,197 --> 01:48:08,197 in my life... 1111 01:48:08,737 --> 01:48:12,153 who have meant as much to me as Samuel. 1112 01:48:17,026 --> 01:48:19,692 And I hardly ever think about him anymore. 1113 01:48:22,025 --> 01:48:25,899 Once in a while, when the war comes up or when I'm alone. 1114 01:48:25,982 --> 01:48:28,148 It can be hard to be alone. 1115 01:48:28,231 --> 01:48:33,230 And sometimes, you need to take a moment to relive painful memories 1116 01:48:33,313 --> 01:48:34,729 before you keep going. 1117 01:48:34,812 --> 01:48:36,770 It even helps a little. 1118 01:48:36,853 --> 01:48:39,478 Little "solo-maso" moments. 1119 01:48:45,309 --> 01:48:47,850 And as much as I try not to... 1120 01:48:50,141 --> 01:48:53,265 I can't help thinking about 1121 01:48:53,848 --> 01:48:57,388 what I would do if I got to see Samuel again. 1122 01:48:58,763 --> 01:49:01,595 If he was here right now in front of me. 1123 01:49:04,261 --> 01:49:09,260 I honestly think that I'd hug him so hard 1124 01:49:09,343 --> 01:49:11,592 that he'd die a second time. 1125 01:49:13,466 --> 01:49:15,466 But we'll never know. 1126 01:49:21,631 --> 01:49:24,005 Samuel is fading, and that's that. 1127 01:49:26,504 --> 01:49:28,961 Today, he's less important... 1128 01:49:29,670 --> 01:49:31,670 in my daily life... 1129 01:49:32,044 --> 01:49:34,044 than my shopping list. 1130 01:49:37,542 --> 01:49:39,750 When I think about it... 1131 01:49:41,166 --> 01:49:43,166 I freeze. 1132 01:49:49,788 --> 01:49:52,704 Because life is so beautiful... 1133 01:49:54,620 --> 01:49:57,827 and its meaning, so absurd... 1134 01:49:58,952 --> 01:50:01,243 it's so dumb... 1135 01:50:04,783 --> 01:50:07,324 that you can't help but cry laughing. 1136 01:50:16,321 --> 01:50:18,362 So what do we do? 1137 01:50:20,653 --> 01:50:22,861 We laugh or we cry? 1138 01:50:27,026 --> 01:50:29,275 Do we laugh or do we cry? 1139 01:51:52,623 --> 01:51:54,623 Hey. 1140 01:51:55,664 --> 01:51:57,080 Hey. 1141 01:51:57,163 --> 01:51:59,829 It's too bad she left us during your weekend. 1142 01:52:01,662 --> 01:52:03,662 It's OK. 1143 01:52:05,869 --> 01:52:07,952 Do you know how she died? 1144 01:52:08,035 --> 01:52:10,992 She had a heart attack in her sleep. She didn't feel a thing. 1145 01:52:11,950 --> 01:52:13,242 OK. 1146 01:52:13,325 --> 01:52:15,949 - Need a hand? - No, I'm almost done. 1147 01:52:16,740 --> 01:52:18,823 I'll go make my rounds, then. 1148 01:54:26,490 --> 01:54:28,781 You're a damn bastard. 1149 01:54:44,734 --> 01:54:46,900 - Oh, Valérie. - Hi. 1150 01:54:47,441 --> 01:54:48,858 I'm glad you came. 1151 01:54:48,941 --> 01:54:50,815 - My condolences. - Thank you. 1152 01:54:50,899 --> 01:54:52,898 You really were her favorite. 1153 01:54:52,981 --> 01:54:55,939 Thank you. My boyfriend, Gabriel. 1154 01:54:56,022 --> 01:54:58,188 - Nice to meet you. - Her daughter. 1155 01:54:58,355 --> 01:55:00,104 - My condolences. - Thank you. 1156 01:55:00,187 --> 01:55:01,354 How are you holding up? 1157 01:55:01,437 --> 01:55:02,645 I'm OK. 1158 01:55:02,728 --> 01:55:05,769 It's been an emotional couple of days, but I'm OK. 1159 01:55:05,852 --> 01:55:08,935 Mom took care of everything, so that helps. 1160 01:55:09,018 --> 01:55:12,600 You know how she is. She wanted to save us the trouble. 1161 01:55:12,683 --> 01:55:14,474 I'm not surprised. 1162 01:55:14,558 --> 01:55:17,182 You were amazing with her. 1163 01:55:17,265 --> 01:55:19,223 She was so afraid of going to a home 1164 01:55:19,306 --> 01:55:22,680 and being forced to knit while watching figure skating. 1165 01:55:22,763 --> 01:55:25,013 I think she would have strangled someone. 1166 01:55:25,388 --> 01:55:27,388 Definitely. 1167 01:55:28,595 --> 01:55:31,594 She was so lucky to have you. 1168 01:55:32,010 --> 01:55:35,551 Thanks. I was the lucky one. 1169 01:55:39,716 --> 01:55:42,299 - Thanks for being here. - It's our pleasure. 1170 01:55:42,882 --> 01:55:44,882 Hi, Valérie. 1171 01:55:45,548 --> 01:55:47,272 My condolences. 1172 01:55:47,422 --> 01:55:49,422 Thanks for being here. 1173 01:56:33,990 --> 01:56:35,990 Madam? 1174 01:56:37,781 --> 01:56:39,781 Hello. 1175 01:56:41,654 --> 01:56:43,654 You knew my mother? 1176 01:56:44,820 --> 01:56:46,820 Yes. 1177 01:56:49,319 --> 01:56:52,068 - My condolences. - Thank you. 1178 01:56:53,442 --> 01:56:55,442 My condolences. 1179 01:57:22,433 --> 01:57:24,433 - You OK? - Yeah, yeah. 1180 01:57:25,932 --> 01:57:27,390 Did you talk to the notary? 1181 01:57:27,473 --> 01:57:29,406 Yeah, I called him earlier. 1182 01:57:29,556 --> 01:57:33,929 I think I'm getting a little money and lots and lots of books. 1183 01:57:34,387 --> 01:57:36,553 - It's not surprising. - No. 1184 01:57:37,136 --> 01:57:39,136 And that's fine by me. 1185 01:57:41,968 --> 01:57:44,842 My mom always left notes in her books. 1186 01:57:45,842 --> 01:57:49,049 So I'll be able to read them with her. 1187 01:57:53,298 --> 01:57:55,589 I'm sure we'll still bicker. 1188 01:57:55,964 --> 01:57:57,964 That's for sure. 1189 01:58:06,502 --> 01:58:09,168 We'll make room for a nice bookcase? 1190 01:58:09,251 --> 01:58:11,225 Of course we will. 1191 01:58:11,375 --> 01:58:13,375 Definitely. 1192 01:58:14,374 --> 01:58:17,707 If it gets too creepy, we'll put them in the basement. 1193 01:58:22,580 --> 01:58:24,580 - It's gonna be OK. - I know. 1194 01:58:25,246 --> 01:58:27,079 I think I'm hungry. 1195 01:58:27,162 --> 01:58:29,536 Want me to get something at the corner store? 1196 01:58:29,619 --> 01:58:31,452 - Do you mind? - Of course not. 1197 01:58:31,535 --> 01:58:33,535 What do you want? 1198 01:58:33,743 --> 01:58:36,242 Whatever. A sandwich. 1199 01:58:40,116 --> 01:58:43,782 Anything else? A gross, half-dried-out brownie? 1200 01:58:43,865 --> 01:58:44,964 Yes. 1201 01:58:45,114 --> 01:58:46,947 - Yes? - Yeah. 1202 01:58:47,030 --> 01:58:49,696 OK. Be right back. 1203 01:59:32,557 --> 01:59:34,557 Oh, shit!