1 00:00:02,219 --> 00:00:08,044 Advertise your product or brand here contact www.OpenSubtitles.org today 2 00:01:01,104 --> 00:01:03,311 Should we dim the lights at least? 3 00:01:03,311 --> 00:01:04,687 Yeah, the style. 4 00:01:04,752 --> 00:01:07,819 I really like this, but we can do it later. 5 00:01:07,919 --> 00:01:09,481 I'm gonna roll, okay. 6 00:01:14,928 --> 00:01:17,133 Open your eyes. 7 00:01:18,288 --> 00:01:21,223 Move your head slightly left and right. 8 00:01:27,408 --> 00:01:30,725 Bring your hair in front of your shoulders. 9 00:01:33,679 --> 00:01:35,982 And look towards the window. 10 00:01:37,871 --> 00:01:39,366 And at me. 11 00:01:40,688 --> 00:01:43,471 And look straight into camera. 12 00:01:48,431 --> 00:01:50,155 And be serious. 13 00:01:54,255 --> 00:01:55,947 Ten seconds more... 14 00:01:56,015 --> 00:01:57,510 Can you cry? No... 15 00:02:00,656 --> 00:02:02,250 ...In ten seconds? 16 00:02:02,320 --> 00:02:04,328 In ten seconds? 17 00:02:04,399 --> 00:02:07,051 What do you feel about putting a line of this? 18 00:02:23,919 --> 00:02:26,506 And then you look at us... 19 00:02:43,119 --> 00:02:44,909 What do you know about Benedetta, 20 00:02:44,975 --> 00:02:47,081 the woman that we are trying to cast? 21 00:02:47,375 --> 00:02:48,554 Your mother? 22 00:03:37,487 --> 00:03:39,397 What do you want to know? 23 00:03:39,823 --> 00:03:41,799 Well, for several months, 24 00:03:42,095 --> 00:03:43,656 or years, actually, 25 00:03:43,727 --> 00:03:47,852 I've heard you talk about this desire of yours to go away. 26 00:03:48,303 --> 00:03:51,620 Can you explain to me what exactly this project involves? 27 00:03:52,239 --> 00:03:56,974 Entering a world that's the opposite of the one I've lived in up to now. 28 00:04:16,686 --> 00:04:25,417 I live in a world where everything now is "delegated" to photography. 29 00:04:27,407 --> 00:04:29,546 Nothing is left to memory... 30 00:04:30,159 --> 00:04:31,404 ...your own memory. 31 00:04:34,126 --> 00:04:36,364 What I'm interested in, instead... 32 00:04:37,327 --> 00:04:41,070 ...are the things that can't be seen, not those that can be. 33 00:04:48,047 --> 00:04:50,350 What island would you like to go to? 34 00:04:50,415 --> 00:04:52,685 I don't give a damn what island. 35 00:04:52,750 --> 00:04:57,061 I know it has to be far away enough for nobody to ever get there. 36 00:04:58,095 --> 00:05:01,412 How will you choose this island? 37 00:05:01,487 --> 00:05:04,652 Starting by going far away... 38 00:05:07,118 --> 00:05:13,862 With no credit card, phone, computer or bank account... with nothing. 39 00:05:14,702 --> 00:05:15,783 Can I help you? 40 00:05:16,335 --> 00:05:17,263 To go away? 41 00:05:17,326 --> 00:05:18,636 No. 42 00:05:25,454 --> 00:05:29,197 Why did you agree to make this film? 43 00:05:29,262 --> 00:05:31,980 Because I tried in every way to tell you no. 44 00:05:32,046 --> 00:05:35,343 But my "no" was a wound to you. 45 00:05:36,846 --> 00:05:40,360 And in the end, I preferred to wound myself. 46 00:05:44,622 --> 00:05:45,932 That's all. 47 00:06:09,294 --> 00:06:12,078 Have a look on the door, there's the time. 48 00:06:17,614 --> 00:06:20,238 - Which door? - The one behind you! 49 00:06:20,238 --> 00:06:22,378 Turn around and read! 50 00:06:25,358 --> 00:06:26,504 Right... 51 00:06:27,822 --> 00:06:29,383 "21 November... 52 00:06:30,190 --> 00:06:34,053 "Dear Mrs. Barzini, I am pleased to inform you that Milan City Council 53 00:06:35,117 --> 00:06:38,795 "has decided to award you with a gold medal for civil honor." 54 00:06:41,166 --> 00:06:42,793 It's at 11! 55 00:06:44,078 --> 00:06:45,769 - Mom... - What? 56 00:06:45,870 --> 00:06:48,325 - How do you plan to dress... - Like this! 57 00:06:48,398 --> 00:06:49,544 ...For the ceremony? 58 00:06:49,614 --> 00:06:52,517 I'll take this off because I'm cold. 59 00:06:52,590 --> 00:06:53,322 Like this! 60 00:06:53,390 --> 00:06:55,333 Could we not dress a little more appropriately? 61 00:06:55,406 --> 00:06:58,985 I'm perfectly dressed for 11 o'clock in the morning! 62 00:07:00,814 --> 00:07:03,400 For someone who doesn't want to make a fuss. 63 00:07:05,070 --> 00:07:08,748 - Not even for fun, for the film? - This isn't fun for me! 64 00:07:09,454 --> 00:07:11,593 Something a little elegant? 65 00:07:11,661 --> 00:07:13,964 I don't have anything that's elegant. 66 00:07:17,390 --> 00:07:20,522 It would be useful for the film if... 67 00:07:20,589 --> 00:07:24,038 when you meet your friends who're receiving awards, 68 00:07:24,110 --> 00:07:25,802 like Eva Cantarella... 69 00:07:26,830 --> 00:07:31,620 maybe if you asked each other why you're receiving the award... 70 00:07:31,694 --> 00:07:32,742 Why, do you think? 71 00:07:32,814 --> 00:07:37,768 You don't ask such idiotic questions to such important people! 72 00:07:38,477 --> 00:07:40,365 "Why are you receiving an award?" 73 00:07:40,430 --> 00:07:42,219 Why do you think! Eva's a... 74 00:07:42,285 --> 00:07:45,188 I don't understand the way you think! 75 00:07:45,261 --> 00:07:47,051 What kind of reasoning is that? 76 00:07:47,822 --> 00:07:48,292 But you... 77 00:07:48,366 --> 00:07:50,057 Michele is an economist! 78 00:07:50,126 --> 00:07:52,974 Do you think he's receiving an award because he pees every morning? 79 00:07:53,037 --> 00:07:55,277 What kind of fucking way of thinking is that! 80 00:07:55,277 --> 00:07:57,166 Why are you receiving an award? 81 00:07:57,454 --> 00:07:59,821 I don't know and I don't care! 82 00:07:59,886 --> 00:08:02,537 It's undeserved... 83 00:08:03,405 --> 00:08:06,668 Undeserved in terms of the values of today! 84 00:08:06,733 --> 00:08:11,241 Exhibitionism, being productive, money-making, being... 85 00:08:11,310 --> 00:08:14,245 All that kind of stuff! I have nothing to do with it! 86 00:08:15,309 --> 00:08:17,132 Certainly... 87 00:08:18,061 --> 00:08:20,237 They think that... 88 00:08:20,237 --> 00:08:26,883 the fact that I was a supermodel is prestigious for this stupid city. 89 00:08:30,349 --> 00:08:32,619 - No...? - Yes, but the one time... 90 00:08:32,686 --> 00:08:36,298 you get recognition for something, you can at least... 91 00:08:37,325 --> 00:08:41,320 be satisfied for a moment! There must be some merit to it! 92 00:08:43,789 --> 00:08:49,420 If they're honoring me for the model thing, beauty isn't a merit. 93 00:08:49,485 --> 00:08:50,795 Not at all. 94 00:08:55,213 --> 00:08:56,523 You don't understand... 95 00:08:57,069 --> 00:08:59,175 Why don't you understand? 96 00:10:12,013 --> 00:10:14,348 Model, journalist and teacher... 97 00:10:15,116 --> 00:10:16,710 She worked in the USA 98 00:10:16,780 --> 00:10:19,203 for some of the greatest photographers 99 00:10:19,629 --> 00:10:21,735 from Bert Stern to Richard Avedon. 100 00:10:22,733 --> 00:10:25,385 Thanks to her beauty and personality 101 00:10:25,709 --> 00:10:27,684 she destroyed the stereotype 102 00:10:27,756 --> 00:10:29,797 of the brainless cover girl... 103 00:10:31,469 --> 00:10:33,325 Benedetta Barzini! 104 00:11:12,076 --> 00:11:13,996 I have always labored under the illusion, 105 00:11:13,996 --> 00:11:15,786 but I also think it was true, 106 00:11:16,237 --> 00:11:18,758 that nobody ever photographed me. 107 00:11:19,373 --> 00:11:22,472 Because my face is not for sale. 108 00:11:22,540 --> 00:11:23,948 I can pretend... 109 00:11:24,269 --> 00:11:26,953 with a lot of makeup, fake eyelashes, 110 00:11:27,405 --> 00:11:32,162 with wigs, clothes, the craziest stuff... 111 00:11:33,165 --> 00:11:35,948 And I would perform the role of the woman dressed up that way. 112 00:11:36,012 --> 00:11:37,257 But it wasn't me. 113 00:11:37,548 --> 00:11:40,549 The real me isn't photographable. 114 00:12:11,564 --> 00:12:13,324 I asked myself this question... 115 00:12:13,324 --> 00:12:15,943 why do we have prototypes of beauty? 116 00:12:16,204 --> 00:12:18,955 Why are models at the bow of the ship 117 00:12:19,020 --> 00:12:22,501 and the other women are squashed into the stern? 118 00:12:23,116 --> 00:12:24,459 Why? 119 00:12:24,524 --> 00:12:26,565 Because men invent women, 120 00:12:26,636 --> 00:12:28,808 and this leads to Jessica Rabbit. 121 00:12:29,388 --> 00:12:32,236 And maybe it would be better if female bodies disappeared 122 00:12:32,300 --> 00:12:34,854 from men's imagination. 123 00:12:44,172 --> 00:12:47,020 We criticize fiercely those women who wear burkas, 124 00:12:47,084 --> 00:12:49,036 but I can assure you that sometimes 125 00:12:49,036 --> 00:12:51,371 I would like not to be seen 126 00:12:51,435 --> 00:12:56,193 and be able to walk concealed within my privacy. 127 00:14:17,291 --> 00:14:19,114 Hi. 128 00:14:39,851 --> 00:14:44,108 I wanted to ask if there's anything you want me to put in the wash? 129 00:14:44,171 --> 00:14:47,947 No, this is how I do my washing. 130 00:14:48,011 --> 00:14:51,403 One piece at a time, when it's necessary. 131 00:14:51,403 --> 00:14:53,411 Then I hang it here. 132 00:14:53,483 --> 00:14:56,266 And I don't need a washing machine. 133 00:14:56,331 --> 00:14:58,536 And I don't use bed sheets. 134 00:14:58,603 --> 00:15:01,474 Whatever's in my bed has been there since July. 135 00:15:02,123 --> 00:15:04,807 And it's perfectly clean. 136 00:15:25,515 --> 00:15:29,891 Have you seen how straight my hair is? 137 00:15:31,115 --> 00:15:33,058 I like it. 138 00:15:33,131 --> 00:15:37,539 - Do you prefer it straight? - Yes, I like it a lot. 139 00:15:38,826 --> 00:15:43,366 Well, it's not naturally straight, so... 140 00:15:45,323 --> 00:15:49,863 I didn't say I prefer it straight. I only said I like it, a lot. 141 00:15:51,435 --> 00:15:53,989 When you were young, how did you straighten your hair? 142 00:15:54,059 --> 00:15:55,205 What? 143 00:15:55,275 --> 00:15:57,861 When you were young, how did you straighten your hair? 144 00:15:57,930 --> 00:15:58,727 Straight. 145 00:15:58,794 --> 00:16:01,643 - But how? - Just like this. But straight! 146 00:16:01,707 --> 00:16:05,156 But how, in the sense of what means did you use in the 1960s? 147 00:16:05,227 --> 00:16:07,977 With tongs. 148 00:16:08,042 --> 00:16:11,426 - That must have hurt! - Yes, it was insane! 149 00:16:12,426 --> 00:16:15,296 Or else I would use hair curlers... 150 00:16:15,370 --> 00:16:16,964 the big ones... 151 00:16:17,642 --> 00:16:18,985 And then it would start raining! 152 00:16:19,627 --> 00:16:22,530 And it would rain on my hair, as soon as I took them out. 153 00:16:22,602 --> 00:16:23,912 So, you see... 154 00:16:24,522 --> 00:16:26,411 A pointless battle. 155 00:16:27,627 --> 00:16:28,838 Poor hair. 156 00:16:30,251 --> 00:16:33,001 Could we just take a photo of us together in the mirror? 157 00:16:33,066 --> 00:16:33,961 Yes. 158 00:16:36,107 --> 00:16:38,344 This is a sea shell from Baratti. 159 00:16:44,234 --> 00:16:45,926 Like this. 160 00:16:47,658 --> 00:16:49,896 Hair off your face. 161 00:16:52,331 --> 00:16:54,306 - That's it. - OK, now... 162 00:16:54,378 --> 00:16:56,234 Focus, and... 163 00:16:58,314 --> 00:16:59,941 Photo. 164 00:17:27,274 --> 00:17:29,282 That's Benedetta Barzini! 165 00:17:32,170 --> 00:17:35,815 The history of the fashion and clothing industry 166 00:17:36,042 --> 00:17:38,954 is a shameful one. 167 00:17:38,954 --> 00:17:43,330 And the gap between the two notions of "fashion" 168 00:17:43,402 --> 00:17:47,047 as a means to freely express oneself, 169 00:17:47,114 --> 00:17:50,344 and "fashion" as a system of oppression... 170 00:17:52,650 --> 00:17:54,593 ...for those who work to produce it... 171 00:17:54,666 --> 00:17:56,041 is a huge one. 172 00:17:56,650 --> 00:17:59,521 In a world saturated with images, 173 00:17:59,594 --> 00:18:04,832 the images of fashion need to be very attractive. 174 00:18:06,665 --> 00:18:11,074 The idea of glamour is linked to fashion. 175 00:18:12,266 --> 00:18:15,017 And the images produced by photographers... 176 00:18:15,818 --> 00:18:17,290 ...and models 177 00:18:17,290 --> 00:18:23,586 that serve to define the rules that must be followed on a daily basis. 178 00:18:44,169 --> 00:18:45,959 What's the dress style of silence? 179 00:18:48,874 --> 00:18:53,446 Black, not very showy... 180 00:18:55,177 --> 00:18:57,218 Simple cut. 181 00:19:00,298 --> 00:19:01,476 I think these are the elements. 182 00:19:01,738 --> 00:19:04,608 You described how a priest should be dressed. 183 00:19:04,841 --> 00:19:07,231 Why does imperfection upset people? 184 00:19:10,985 --> 00:19:13,703 In my view, because the idea of perfection 185 00:19:13,769 --> 00:19:16,258 is also associated with an idea of power. 186 00:19:16,330 --> 00:19:20,105 The person who's perfect is liked by others 187 00:19:20,170 --> 00:19:21,861 and therefore has a certain power. 188 00:19:21,961 --> 00:19:24,384 Imperfection instead generates insecurity. 189 00:19:24,970 --> 00:19:27,873 I think that's a good answer. 190 00:19:29,705 --> 00:19:32,521 The obsession with beauty... 191 00:19:32,585 --> 00:19:33,895 what's that? 192 00:19:33,962 --> 00:19:36,996 The way many women are fixated with how they look. 193 00:19:37,289 --> 00:19:38,719 And how are they supposed to look? 194 00:19:39,913 --> 00:19:44,453 For example, they want to always appear as pretty and young. 195 00:19:45,034 --> 00:19:48,384 Why do they want to always appear young? 196 00:19:53,641 --> 00:19:56,871 What does "old age" mean? 197 00:20:02,729 --> 00:20:04,388 Death. 198 00:20:07,657 --> 00:20:10,309 Youth? Life. 199 00:20:37,001 --> 00:20:38,791 Is your sister 12? 200 00:20:39,401 --> 00:20:41,126 Is she a punk? 201 00:20:44,617 --> 00:20:45,894 I was shattered... 202 00:20:46,153 --> 00:20:49,383 She won't pay that much for university... 203 00:22:08,329 --> 00:22:09,606 Thank you. 204 00:22:20,201 --> 00:22:21,990 We should go. 205 00:22:26,569 --> 00:22:28,610 But I have to wait for... 206 00:22:28,681 --> 00:22:30,656 I'm coming! 207 00:23:32,776 --> 00:23:34,784 OK, now I can catch my breath. 208 00:23:34,888 --> 00:23:36,711 - Hi, Ben. - Hi, Mom. 209 00:23:37,672 --> 00:23:39,396 Put that thing down. 210 00:23:39,464 --> 00:23:40,610 Put it down! 211 00:23:49,320 --> 00:23:52,296 - What do I have to say, Ben? - You don't have to say anything. 212 00:23:52,296 --> 00:23:54,631 Can you tell me how it went with the doctor? 213 00:23:56,008 --> 00:23:58,048 Fine. He confirmed what I had. 214 00:23:58,120 --> 00:24:01,350 - And what now? - I need to have two operations. 215 00:24:01,416 --> 00:24:04,613 The dentist will remove the metal part, 216 00:24:04,680 --> 00:24:09,121 then surgery to clean the infected part in hospital. 217 00:24:10,920 --> 00:24:13,790 - At least we know for sure. - Yes, exactly. 218 00:24:13,864 --> 00:24:17,662 And did the doctor inspire confidence in you? 219 00:24:17,735 --> 00:24:19,460 I don't know what you mean. 220 00:24:19,528 --> 00:24:21,983 Whatever doctor I go to, I trust what they tell me. 221 00:24:22,056 --> 00:24:24,872 I'm not suspicious like you lot. 222 00:24:24,936 --> 00:24:26,911 Idiots! 223 00:24:27,687 --> 00:24:29,150 Well, good! 224 00:24:29,736 --> 00:24:31,592 I'm going to have a coffee. 225 00:24:31,656 --> 00:24:34,024 Anything to get rid of that camera! 226 00:24:34,088 --> 00:24:35,496 Bloody camera! 227 00:24:38,120 --> 00:24:39,681 Damn it... 228 00:24:48,455 --> 00:24:49,536 No! 229 00:24:49,608 --> 00:24:50,918 You go! 230 00:24:52,168 --> 00:24:54,623 Get the fuck out! 231 00:25:01,416 --> 00:25:02,977 Benny! 232 00:25:03,848 --> 00:25:05,278 I love you... 233 00:25:06,663 --> 00:25:09,447 How sweet of you to come... 234 00:25:19,720 --> 00:25:22,470 I'm so glad to see your beautiful face, Benny! 235 00:25:22,536 --> 00:25:24,129 I am so happy! 236 00:25:24,199 --> 00:25:26,655 With that smile of yours I know so well and love... 237 00:25:26,727 --> 00:25:29,216 Lauren! You remember when you came and once I said, 238 00:25:29,287 --> 00:25:30,565 "But why are you modelling?" 239 00:25:30,632 --> 00:25:33,633 And you said: "To pay for the studies of my boyfriend" 240 00:25:33,704 --> 00:25:35,974 - No, it wasn't quite like that. - To pay for the studies? 241 00:25:36,040 --> 00:25:37,699 No, it was for us to travel. 242 00:25:37,767 --> 00:25:40,871 I mean... and that's why I picked him 243 00:25:40,871 --> 00:25:45,924 I picked him out of 29 guys in a 15-minute tea dates with... 244 00:25:45,992 --> 00:25:47,236 Because he knew the most, 245 00:25:47,304 --> 00:25:48,898 and he wanted to do the same things I did. 246 00:25:48,968 --> 00:25:50,375 And he knew more about snakes than me, 247 00:25:50,440 --> 00:25:52,131 he knew more about bugs... 248 00:25:52,199 --> 00:25:54,240 Certainly knew more about Pound and Eliot 249 00:25:54,311 --> 00:25:55,806 and all the writers I loved. 250 00:25:55,911 --> 00:25:57,570 Really? So modelling was to pay for trips? 251 00:25:57,639 --> 00:25:58,403 Of course! 252 00:25:58,472 --> 00:25:59,552 And then? What happened, 253 00:25:59,623 --> 00:26:00,933 are you still modelling...? 254 00:26:00,1000 --> 00:26:03,172 Still, because it's like falling in a ruby mine! 255 00:26:03,239 --> 00:26:05,095 So I kept doing it as long as I could do it. 256 00:26:05,159 --> 00:26:07,015 - It's better than movies! - Can I offer you a cigarette? 257 00:26:07,079 --> 00:26:09,414 No, no, I have my own, thank you. 258 00:26:09,479 --> 00:26:12,001 - I only do my own. - Oh, Lauren... 259 00:26:12,071 --> 00:26:13,413 What, baby? 260 00:26:13,479 --> 00:26:15,335 I'm so... 261 00:26:15,399 --> 00:26:17,156 It's so sweet of you... 262 00:26:17,223 --> 00:26:18,685 Just to tape a little bit more 263 00:26:18,759 --> 00:26:20,865 of this incredible encounter, 50 years after! 264 00:26:20,935 --> 00:26:22,151 OK, you can do this a little bit more. 265 00:26:22,151 --> 00:26:24,606 But we do not want to have to work the whole time we're... 266 00:26:24,679 --> 00:26:25,825 No... 267 00:26:25,895 --> 00:26:28,482 But this is a documentary, you're not supposed to work! 268 00:26:28,551 --> 00:26:31,650 It doesn't fucking matter, it's... 269 00:26:31,719 --> 00:26:34,087 - This is our friendship. - Yes. 270 00:26:34,151 --> 00:26:36,737 Then, the documentary will be fine. Here... 271 00:26:36,807 --> 00:26:40,103 - Are you still... What's that, water?- Yeah 272 00:26:40,167 --> 00:26:43,015 - I just bought it for $14. - Oh, my God...! 273 00:26:43,079 --> 00:26:44,869 14 US dollars! 274 00:26:44,935 --> 00:26:46,081 That's a lot, eh? 275 00:26:46,151 --> 00:26:50,462 At a regular pharmacy, it wasn't a drug dealer selling me water! 276 00:26:53,831 --> 00:26:56,199 You got to. We can't. It's not right 277 00:26:56,263 --> 00:26:56,613 Enough! 278 00:26:56,679 --> 00:26:59,134 OK, but this is so beautiful! 279 00:26:59,207 --> 00:27:02,405 Benny, we're here for ourselves, to each other. 280 00:27:02,471 --> 00:27:03,933 Go, Big Ben. Go... 281 00:27:04,007 --> 00:27:05,121 OK. I'll come back for the other scene. 282 00:27:05,191 --> 00:27:07,101 But don't say interesting things. 283 00:27:07,175 --> 00:27:08,420 Just talk about the weather. 284 00:27:08,487 --> 00:27:10,375 We won't say anything. We won't say a word. 285 00:27:10,439 --> 00:27:12,479 - We'll talk about the weather. - Come on, just be... 286 00:27:12,550 --> 00:27:14,788 - Out! Really. I'm sorry. - But you're talking about... 287 00:27:14,855 --> 00:27:17,539 - It's not fair! - OK, fine. 288 00:27:19,078 --> 00:27:21,600 Sometimes when I really wanted something sweet, 289 00:27:21,671 --> 00:27:25,021 I would put a little in my palm and suck it after dinner, 290 00:27:25,095 --> 00:27:27,648 but by myself, somewhere alone. 291 00:27:29,799 --> 00:27:32,582 You and I together! Bye, Benny! 292 00:27:41,543 --> 00:27:43,584 Long time, kiddo! 293 00:27:54,727 --> 00:27:59,365 It's an advert for plastic flip-flops. 294 00:27:59,910 --> 00:28:04,516 She's depicted as Mother Nature, naked, inside a tree. 295 00:28:04,583 --> 00:28:07,966 But she's wearing plastic flip-flops. 296 00:28:08,038 --> 00:28:11,487 And it's competition for this one. 297 00:28:12,103 --> 00:28:16,227 One with boots, the other with flip-flops. 298 00:28:17,030 --> 00:28:22,116 This image is a terrific symbol 299 00:28:22,406 --> 00:28:27,590 of an idea of women that someone would like to sustain in our minds. 300 00:28:27,654 --> 00:28:31,168 "Woman" equals "Nature". 301 00:28:31,494 --> 00:28:36,230 This is why we often see women lying in dry leaves, 302 00:28:36,294 --> 00:28:42,046 or they're photographed up a tree or among flowers... 303 00:28:42,566 --> 00:28:48,383 Woman stands for Nature, Man for Reason and Thought. 304 00:28:50,822 --> 00:28:56,093 This is a wonderful Virgin Mary by Antonello da Messina in Palermo, 305 00:28:56,166 --> 00:29:01,470 and it's the only Virgin Mary who's reading a book. 306 00:29:02,342 --> 00:29:05,921 And who isn't holding a baby. 307 00:29:05,990 --> 00:29:11,588 And who seems to be studying. 308 00:29:13,574 --> 00:29:16,422 The image of a woman with a child 309 00:29:16,486 --> 00:29:20,994 is the highest symbol 310 00:29:21,062 --> 00:29:26,148 of tenderness and love. 311 00:29:27,302 --> 00:29:31,809 Remember that even if you're a businesswoman, 312 00:29:31,910 --> 00:29:34,529 this is your role in life... 313 00:29:36,998 --> 00:29:39,617 ...your most important role... 314 00:30:41,958 --> 00:30:44,064 Well... I mean... 315 00:30:45,766 --> 00:30:47,392 It's not bad. 316 00:30:48,070 --> 00:30:50,209 It's really weird. 317 00:30:50,277 --> 00:30:51,358 Yeah. 318 00:30:52,613 --> 00:30:54,469 You have a shit and... 319 00:30:59,877 --> 00:31:01,733 Oh, look here... 320 00:31:02,982 --> 00:31:05,055 "Douche"... Goodness! 321 00:31:05,125 --> 00:31:06,849 Don't you feel like a nice warm bath? 322 00:31:06,917 --> 00:31:09,952 No! I'm scared of luxury. 323 00:31:10,021 --> 00:31:13,317 - What about washing your hair? - No! It's really clean. 324 00:31:13,381 --> 00:31:16,252 - When did you last wash it? - When I went to the hairdresser. 325 00:31:16,326 --> 00:31:19,196 - When? - A week ago! 326 00:31:19,269 --> 00:31:24,321 - When did you last take a shower? - When we were in... 327 00:31:26,341 --> 00:31:28,763 Two weeks ago. 328 00:31:29,989 --> 00:31:32,740 Shame, shame, shame on London Fashion week! 329 00:31:34,981 --> 00:31:36,411 Shame, shame... 330 00:31:42,309 --> 00:31:46,107 These people are paying for animal to die in the worst way. 331 00:31:51,301 --> 00:31:53,156 David Koma: shut him down! 332 00:32:11,333 --> 00:32:13,374 How are you doing? 333 00:32:13,445 --> 00:32:16,959 It's such a beautiful day, I'm so excited about it! 334 00:32:17,029 --> 00:32:20,229 Wow, I love the casting! It's fierce! 335 00:32:49,637 --> 00:32:53,347 - Maybe you have to do your hair. - My hair, yes. 336 00:32:58,117 --> 00:32:58,979 Hey, sorry... 337 00:32:59,045 --> 00:32:59,777 Yes? 338 00:32:59,845 --> 00:33:02,017 Maybe I have to do my hair now. 339 00:33:02,085 --> 00:33:03,777 I know. You'll do a rehearsal first. 340 00:33:03,845 --> 00:33:05,024 We've done the rehearsal. 341 00:33:05,093 --> 00:33:07,963 No, there's a full rehearsal with all the models. 342 00:33:08,037 --> 00:33:10,973 If you want a seat, there's a place for you next door. 343 00:33:11,044 --> 00:33:11,874 No, no. 344 00:33:11,940 --> 00:33:13,851 Are you happy here? OK. 345 00:33:15,236 --> 00:33:16,666 So, what number are you? 346 00:33:17,604 --> 00:33:18,789 - Me? - Yes. 347 00:33:18,789 --> 00:33:20,513 15, I think. 348 00:33:20,580 --> 00:33:22,370 No, look, 24. 349 00:33:23,141 --> 00:33:25,182 No, look, 9, 10... 350 00:33:25,253 --> 00:33:28,320 Ah, 15! You're right... 351 00:33:29,220 --> 00:33:30,202 What about you? 352 00:33:30,277 --> 00:33:31,456 Me, 5. 353 00:33:32,164 --> 00:33:33,114 But that's not you? 354 00:33:33,189 --> 00:33:35,873 - Yes. I did it yesterday. - No, come on! 355 00:33:35,940 --> 00:33:37,989 With no makeup and terrible lighting! 356 00:33:37,989 --> 00:33:40,161 This is me, Ben. 357 00:33:40,229 --> 00:33:43,099 Come on, you look fine. Me, look...! 358 00:33:43,172 --> 00:33:45,312 Well, you're really... 359 00:33:45,381 --> 00:33:46,811 How do you two know each other? 360 00:33:46,885 --> 00:33:48,412 It's because of the low angle. 361 00:33:48,484 --> 00:33:50,754 It's been many years 362 00:33:50,820 --> 00:33:52,577 that we've worked together. 363 00:33:52,645 --> 00:33:54,620 Maybe we did some catwalks, 364 00:33:54,692 --> 00:33:57,475 some photos, something like that. 365 00:33:59,460 --> 00:34:02,495 Oh, yes, we did a shoot with Peter Lindbergh 366 00:34:02,565 --> 00:34:03,678 for Donna Karan. 367 00:34:03,748 --> 00:34:06,116 My daughter was a couple of weeks old. 368 00:34:06,180 --> 00:34:07,458 Oh, yes! Donna Karan! 369 00:34:07,524 --> 00:34:12,478 And you were telling me I mustn't stop breastfeeding and so on... 370 00:34:12,548 --> 00:34:16,805 - So that was 18 years ago... - Yes. 371 00:34:16,868 --> 00:34:19,902 I haven't seen you for 18 years, eh... 372 00:34:26,948 --> 00:34:30,397 Could you look at the light and then back to me with eyes? 373 00:34:30,468 --> 00:34:32,062 Oh nice, thank you 374 00:35:01,316 --> 00:35:04,001 Model as old as me! 375 00:35:50,404 --> 00:35:51,965 Hey... 376 00:36:00,772 --> 00:36:04,868 Just a portrait, like this... Beautiful! 377 00:36:04,868 --> 00:36:06,691 - Great, thank you - You're welcome 378 00:38:14,307 --> 00:38:15,235 Mom... 379 00:38:15,298 --> 00:38:17,055 Go fuck yourself. 380 00:38:17,123 --> 00:38:19,098 I'm not going to talk to you ever again. 381 00:38:19,171 --> 00:38:20,121 What, Mom, why...? 382 00:38:20,195 --> 00:38:23,709 Go away! Away! Let me be! 383 00:38:24,739 --> 00:38:25,721 Asshole! 384 00:38:25,795 --> 00:38:29,506 - I only did some shots while you were asleep. - Enough! 385 00:38:29,571 --> 00:38:31,677 Obsessive! 386 00:38:39,043 --> 00:38:41,117 I wasn't asleep. 387 00:39:07,810 --> 00:39:09,753 Hello, everybody. 388 00:39:13,699 --> 00:39:19,297 Since nobody ever films me, 389 00:39:19,747 --> 00:39:21,635 I wanted to film myself. 390 00:39:21,891 --> 00:39:23,070 Thank you! 391 00:39:32,098 --> 00:39:34,587 She's gone mad... 392 00:40:15,810 --> 00:40:18,080 I'm cold! 393 00:41:33,442 --> 00:41:35,385 What are you doing? 394 00:41:36,897 --> 00:41:38,808 I'm filming you... 395 00:41:45,537 --> 00:41:47,448 But why are you filming me? 396 00:41:48,258 --> 00:41:50,681 - I like it. - I don't want to be filmed. 397 00:41:50,753 --> 00:41:52,664 I like you... 398 00:41:59,649 --> 00:42:04,800 Why do you have to do everything you like? 399 00:42:06,498 --> 00:42:10,525 You know that I don't want to appear. 400 00:42:10,594 --> 00:42:13,694 I want to disappear, not to appear! 401 00:42:14,786 --> 00:42:16,696 - Do you know that? - No! 402 00:42:20,226 --> 00:42:22,015 What does it mean? 403 00:42:22,081 --> 00:42:24,864 I want to disappear, not to appear! 404 00:42:36,002 --> 00:42:38,370 Who's there? There's mamma! 405 00:42:39,394 --> 00:42:42,242 I don't like "appearances". 406 00:42:42,913 --> 00:42:46,908 I don't like those who appear... 407 00:42:59,329 --> 00:43:01,272 Look at me... 408 00:43:07,617 --> 00:43:09,407 Ben, enough! 409 00:43:09,473 --> 00:43:11,808 Please, look at me a moment longer. 410 00:43:13,442 --> 00:43:14,871 At you or the lens? 411 00:43:14,945 --> 00:43:16,157 The lens. 412 00:43:16,385 --> 00:43:17,563 But then I'm not looking at you. 413 00:43:17,633 --> 00:43:19,063 If I look at you, it's like this. 414 00:43:19,137 --> 00:43:20,218 Just try to look in the lens. 415 00:43:20,289 --> 00:43:21,370 Like this. 416 00:43:21,441 --> 00:43:23,297 If I look at you, it's like this. 417 00:43:23,361 --> 00:43:24,093 Like this. 418 00:43:24,162 --> 00:43:26,334 But I didn't see your look in the lens. 419 00:43:27,233 --> 00:43:29,057 But the lens isn't you. 420 00:43:30,626 --> 00:43:32,187 The lens is the enemy. 421 00:43:48,993 --> 00:43:49,790 Enough! 422 00:44:16,705 --> 00:44:18,080 OK, maybe you should go a little bit... 423 00:44:18,145 --> 00:44:19,902 - This way? - Yeah! It's OK. 424 00:44:33,536 --> 00:44:35,163 Just a bit more... 425 00:44:43,073 --> 00:44:45,114 Four and a third... 426 00:44:49,729 --> 00:44:52,250 And then... look at the light, 427 00:44:52,321 --> 00:44:54,624 and then look at the camera. 428 00:44:55,713 --> 00:44:57,437 And lean more. 429 00:44:57,505 --> 00:45:00,408 Yes... and look up at the camera. 430 00:45:00,480 --> 00:45:03,645 And be a little bit more profile with your face... 431 00:45:03,712 --> 00:45:05,601 - Like that? - Like that, yeah. 432 00:45:09,120 --> 00:45:11,423 Chin up a bit... 433 00:45:11,488 --> 00:45:12,896 And smile... 434 00:45:12,960 --> 00:45:16,791 Lean a bit more with your chest. 435 00:45:16,865 --> 00:45:19,680 Just a bit more, yes... Like that, perfect! 436 00:45:23,264 --> 00:45:26,942 Turn your face this way a little bit more... 437 00:45:27,841 --> 00:45:29,303 And keep your gaze still... 438 00:45:29,569 --> 00:45:31,064 Just like that, perfect. 439 00:45:33,953 --> 00:45:36,703 OK, do a last turn, with your hands up... 440 00:45:38,657 --> 00:45:41,079 And another one, and then look into the camera. 441 00:45:46,528 --> 00:45:48,155 And cut! 442 00:45:52,384 --> 00:45:57,655 So, I would really like today, thanks to your help, 443 00:45:57,728 --> 00:46:01,984 to kind of give voice to my mum again, as a young woman. 444 00:46:01,984 --> 00:46:05,281 My interest wasn't to get a copy of her... 445 00:46:05,344 --> 00:46:07,133 Because one of the things that I learnt from her 446 00:46:07,201 --> 00:46:09,984 is that there is nobody that could be like somebody else. 447 00:46:10,048 --> 00:46:13,976 Like... You are you, and that's the one thing that you have. 448 00:46:14,048 --> 00:46:18,108 So I was interested in capturing different kind of women... 449 00:46:18,977 --> 00:46:21,530 I know it'll be really hard to do... 450 00:46:21,600 --> 00:46:24,635 But today, with your help, I would like to... 451 00:46:25,440 --> 00:46:30,624 to recreate some images of my mother, some "versions" of her life... 452 00:46:31,200 --> 00:46:36,504 To do that, I've collected some of the things she wrote. 453 00:46:37,184 --> 00:46:38,646 Let's start at the beginning... 454 00:46:39,232 --> 00:46:41,121 Let's read the first page. 455 00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:44,635 Then you can turn the page and read to the end... 456 00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:47,382 to the end of this paragraph... 457 00:46:47,936 --> 00:46:49,824 ...of this paragraph... 458 00:46:51,872 --> 00:46:53,084 Will I start? 459 00:46:53,152 --> 00:46:54,647 Yes! Whenever you want... 460 00:46:55,488 --> 00:46:59,166 I'm only 15, but my life is very complex. 461 00:46:59,584 --> 00:47:02,749 Retracing it all from the beginning seems long and boring... 462 00:47:02,816 --> 00:47:05,184 But I have to start somewhere... 463 00:47:05,696 --> 00:47:07,672 My sister and I don't have a father, 464 00:47:07,743 --> 00:47:10,046 he lives in another city with a new family. 465 00:47:10,496 --> 00:47:11,707 We have a mother... 466 00:47:11,1000 --> 00:47:15,350 But her mind has been consumed by wealth. 467 00:47:16,864 --> 00:47:19,167 She can no longer feel any emotions. 468 00:47:22,464 --> 00:47:25,182 Yesterday she bought me a cake. 469 00:47:25,248 --> 00:47:28,631 She was staring at me, waiting for me to taste it, 470 00:47:28,704 --> 00:47:29,850 but I refused. 471 00:47:31,712 --> 00:47:35,640 Refusing to eat was one of the only things women could do 472 00:47:35,712 --> 00:47:37,949 to go against the will of their families. 473 00:47:39,712 --> 00:47:42,201 It's a political protest. 474 00:47:42,272 --> 00:47:45,272 I feel a sense of calm and tranquillity 475 00:47:45,343 --> 00:47:48,028 in the idea that my body is vanishing. 476 00:47:48,096 --> 00:47:50,748 That there is no body. 477 00:47:52,319 --> 00:47:54,906 The thinner I get, the less I feel. 478 00:47:55,968 --> 00:47:58,074 This is so restful. 479 00:48:00,351 --> 00:48:02,654 March 1965. 480 00:48:02,944 --> 00:48:05,694 Everything started by chance on a street in Italy. 481 00:48:06,144 --> 00:48:08,633 Someone asked me to pose for a photo. 482 00:48:08,704 --> 00:48:12,185 Three weeks later, Diana Vreeland called me for a shoot. 483 00:48:12,991 --> 00:48:16,920 It was the first time that somebody wanted me, specifically me, 484 00:48:17,215 --> 00:48:19,550 and it made me feel good... 485 00:48:21,696 --> 00:48:22,711 Three weeks later, 486 00:48:22,783 --> 00:48:25,883 I was the first Italian model on the cover of Vogue America. 487 00:48:26,496 --> 00:48:28,439 I was supposed to have stayed for ten days, 488 00:48:28,512 --> 00:48:30,552 but instead I've been here three years already. 489 00:49:01,951 --> 00:49:04,570 I'm working with some of the best photographers. 490 00:49:08,192 --> 00:49:10,975 They treat me like the vestal of a ceremony. 491 00:49:11,039 --> 00:49:13,658 I get thrown into parties and galas. 492 00:49:15,327 --> 00:49:18,367 I look indifferent to the troubles of the world. 493 00:49:18,367 --> 00:49:22,427 And look: I transform according to other people's wish 494 00:49:30,655 --> 00:49:32,958 People just vanish inside the concept of beauty. 495 00:49:39,615 --> 00:49:42,518 One day the phone will stop ringing. 496 00:49:42,591 --> 00:49:46,269 That's the day when you realise how powerless you are. 497 00:49:46,335 --> 00:49:50,297 From that moment on, on your CV you can only write 498 00:49:50,367 --> 00:49:52,091 "ex-top model". 499 00:50:41,055 --> 00:50:44,951 What does it mean to become a mother in 1972? 500 00:50:46,463 --> 00:50:48,406 What does it mean to me? 501 00:50:48,958 --> 00:50:52,863 The main problem is that the value of motherhood won't exist 502 00:50:52,863 --> 00:50:55,359 until women gain an awareness 503 00:50:55,359 --> 00:50:57,018 that they need to organize 504 00:50:57,086 --> 00:50:58,581 to have their rights respected. 505 00:50:58,847 --> 00:51:00,124 Their right to be mothers, 506 00:51:00,191 --> 00:51:02,646 their right to play an active part in society. 507 00:51:03,231 --> 00:51:05,174 The feminist movement is becoming to me 508 00:51:05,247 --> 00:51:08,182 a very strong base for reflecting on my experience too. 509 00:51:22,462 --> 00:51:25,846 And it is a world based on a male philosophy. 510 00:51:25,950 --> 00:51:28,569 Because it's a world that conceives a male God. 511 00:51:28,638 --> 00:51:31,803 Whatever I do, people still view me as the "ex-model". 512 00:51:35,519 --> 00:51:38,269 What's the meaning of this use of beauty? 513 00:51:38,590 --> 00:51:42,366 What's the point of continuing to sell our bodies 514 00:51:42,430 --> 00:51:44,373 without any quality or talent? 515 00:51:44,958 --> 00:51:48,255 We are the priestess of the temple of commerce 516 00:51:48,318 --> 00:51:49,846 and we want to go on forever like this? 517 00:51:50,271 --> 00:51:51,700 Did you get depressed? 518 00:51:51,774 --> 00:51:54,492 No, to be honest... 519 00:51:54,558 --> 00:51:58,716 We are just images, we soon vanish... that's the thing! 520 00:51:58,782 --> 00:52:00,790 - Are you OK with that? - Yes, I am! 521 00:52:00,862 --> 00:52:05,598 The real power is the one that women exercise over men. 522 00:52:06,206 --> 00:52:11,389 It's not about overthrowing patriarchy in favor of matriarchy. 523 00:52:11,454 --> 00:52:15,862 We should find a way of coexisting and ending the war between the sexes. 524 00:52:16,190 --> 00:52:18,046 And you don't have this view of this topic... 525 00:52:18,110 --> 00:52:21,046 But do you realize what would happen to Italy, to mankind, 526 00:52:21,118 --> 00:52:24,567 if someone like you were to become a minister or the prime minister? 527 00:52:25,022 --> 00:52:27,227 Do you realize the terrible consequences 528 00:52:27,294 --> 00:52:31,092 that a concentration of power in your hands would have on us, men? 529 00:52:32,254 --> 00:52:35,222 There's no way out. 530 00:53:14,846 --> 00:53:18,076 Could one of you guys grab a polyboard as well? 531 00:53:32,126 --> 00:53:34,494 Yeah, exactly, this walking is really nice. 532 00:53:43,486 --> 00:53:45,047 Really nice, beautiful. 533 00:53:45,118 --> 00:53:47,421 Loving those fingers! Pointing! 534 00:53:47,965 --> 00:53:49,210 Bull! 535 00:53:51,261 --> 00:53:53,684 Bull! Beautiful! 536 00:53:54,141 --> 00:53:56,663 Shall we do a few without the necklace? 537 00:54:03,454 --> 00:54:06,422 Yeah, maybe just do that one and then move that. 538 00:55:06,526 --> 00:55:10,105 Give me your love Don't ask me anything 539 00:55:10,397 --> 00:55:13,300 Tell me that you need me 540 00:55:15,197 --> 00:55:19,638 You will always be mine Even when I go away 541 00:55:19,709 --> 00:55:23,093 You are the only woman for me 542 00:55:36,349 --> 00:55:39,765 When the morning sun awakes us... 543 00:55:40,701 --> 00:55:44,084 You don't wanna let me go 544 00:55:44,989 --> 00:55:49,692 Time flows quickly When you and I are together... 545 00:55:59,677 --> 00:56:02,580 - Mom... - What? 546 00:56:06,077 --> 00:56:10,584 What bothers you so much about images... 547 00:56:10,845 --> 00:56:13,945 about photography and the act of filming? 548 00:56:19,581 --> 00:56:22,036 The fact that it's a lie. 549 00:56:23,517 --> 00:56:28,439 It freezes something within a limited boundary. 550 00:56:30,333 --> 00:56:33,978 I don't like frozen things. 551 00:56:42,109 --> 00:56:44,598 I don't know if you've noticed, 552 00:56:44,668 --> 00:56:48,444 but there are a hundred million photos of sunsets. 553 00:56:50,428 --> 00:56:52,601 Frankly, they're all the same. 554 00:56:55,228 --> 00:56:57,618 But they weren't the same when you saw them. 555 00:57:01,725 --> 00:57:06,199 It's just you could do nothing except... 556 00:57:06,813 --> 00:57:10,392 take that stupid photo of the sun setting. 557 00:57:13,885 --> 00:57:16,471 Do you have another question? 558 00:57:19,324 --> 00:57:21,267 Are you still thinking about disappearing? 559 00:57:21,340 --> 00:57:23,283 Yes, all the time. 560 00:57:23,484 --> 00:57:25,973 I mean... leaving! 561 00:57:26,044 --> 00:57:29,722 It's different! "Disappearing", it's romantic... 562 00:57:29,980 --> 00:57:31,988 I want to go away! 563 00:57:34,620 --> 00:57:36,628 I want to go away. 564 00:57:41,212 --> 00:57:44,508 Wouldn't it be more fun to demonstrate that being old is... 565 00:57:45,180 --> 00:57:48,442 I don't have to demonstrate anything to anybody! 566 00:57:50,268 --> 00:57:53,019 I don't have to demonstrate anything! 567 00:57:54,812 --> 00:57:56,755 To me... 568 00:58:02,300 --> 00:58:05,301 The work we are doing is a work... 569 00:58:05,372 --> 00:58:08,188 of separation. 570 00:58:13,116 --> 00:58:15,289 Of separation. 571 00:58:30,524 --> 00:58:33,372 You were saying before there are moments in life... 572 00:58:33,436 --> 00:58:39,383 For example when I had to work to pay the bills, bring up the children 573 00:58:39,644 --> 00:58:41,750 and put food on the table, 574 00:58:42,171 --> 00:58:45,401 I didn't ask myself the things I ask now. 575 00:58:46,524 --> 00:58:50,201 I don't work for this kind of shit world. 576 00:58:50,811 --> 00:58:54,609 I worked because I had to provide. 577 00:58:55,676 --> 00:58:58,972 This has to do with a specific phase of your life, 578 00:58:59,036 --> 00:59:00,444 the central phase of your life... 579 00:59:06,012 --> 00:59:13,400 ...when your material needs dictate the way you have to live. 580 00:59:13,468 --> 00:59:17,429 You have two choices, either you leave and go to Papuasia 581 00:59:17,499 --> 00:59:21,112 and survive on worms that you dig out of the ground... 582 00:59:21,179 --> 00:59:25,010 or else you stay here and you need to find the money to live. 583 00:59:26,812 --> 00:59:29,660 Now I'm in a different phase. 584 00:59:30,620 --> 00:59:34,963 I'm in a phase when I have the right to say to myself 585 00:59:35,035 --> 00:59:38,200 that I won't ever again work for... 586 00:59:41,659 --> 00:59:44,530 ...for ambiguity. 587 00:59:44,604 --> 00:59:48,282 Not even "shit", but ambiguity... 588 00:59:51,740 --> 00:59:58,614 And I don't have a house to look after or kids to support... 589 00:59:59,708 --> 01:00:05,404 Therefore today I can afford the luxury of saying no! 590 01:00:33,372 --> 01:00:35,096 Ben... 591 01:00:37,147 --> 01:00:39,636 Can I speak? 592 01:00:40,859 --> 01:00:44,176 Nobody has ever seen all this stuff. 593 01:00:45,979 --> 01:00:50,715 This is my hidden place, my secret shame... 594 01:00:51,899 --> 01:00:53,394 You know? 595 01:00:56,635 --> 01:01:00,181 But... it's sort of useless stuff... 596 01:01:00,987 --> 01:01:04,883 - You say that... - It's just tons of empty bags... 597 01:01:04,956 --> 01:01:08,699 But it's a shame to throw away things in good condition. 598 01:01:11,931 --> 01:01:14,353 And besides... 599 01:01:15,451 --> 01:01:17,340 When I'm gone... 600 01:01:18,491 --> 01:01:23,544 they'll be useful for packing all my stuff. 601 01:01:23,803 --> 01:01:26,259 You could use them for your move. 602 01:01:27,163 --> 01:01:29,717 You could use them for your move. 603 01:01:29,787 --> 01:01:33,912 I don't have to "move" because I'm going from here to nowhere! 604 01:01:35,547 --> 01:01:41,211 You will have to make the move, I'm facilitating your task. 605 01:02:20,219 --> 01:02:22,008 Mom, wait a second. 606 01:02:23,994 --> 01:02:25,304 What? 607 01:02:25,914 --> 01:02:27,704 Yesterday were you dressed like today? 608 01:02:27,803 --> 01:02:28,600 No. 609 01:02:29,723 --> 01:02:32,309 What am I going to do in the edit, if you...? 610 01:02:32,378 --> 01:02:35,030 Why would you care? One day like this, the other like that. 611 01:02:35,098 --> 01:02:37,270 But I don't know if it'll be used as another day. 612 01:02:37,723 --> 01:02:40,277 Well, I decide... you decide. 613 01:02:40,347 --> 01:02:43,065 I could also have changed during the day! 614 01:02:43,130 --> 01:02:45,749 What kind of fucking problem is that? 615 01:02:45,851 --> 01:02:48,667 Then maybe later we'll do a scene where you change your T-shirt. 616 01:02:48,731 --> 01:02:50,292 No, Ben! 617 01:02:50,362 --> 01:02:54,105 You can't be so pedantic! 618 01:02:55,355 --> 01:02:59,447 You know, it's just to cover my ass, in case I... 619 01:03:00,314 --> 01:03:02,290 OK, let's make the coffee in the meantime. 620 01:03:02,810 --> 01:03:03,859 It's fine, don't worry. 621 01:03:03,931 --> 01:03:06,899 I'm changing my T-shirt, you pain in the ass! 622 01:03:07,579 --> 01:03:09,816 You petty bourgeois! 623 01:05:05,178 --> 01:05:10,394 Do you know why I like this blue so much? 624 01:05:12,634 --> 01:05:15,766 Because it looks like the bottom of the sea 625 01:05:15,833 --> 01:05:17,776 with some brighter patches... 626 01:05:18,522 --> 01:05:19,984 ...doesn't it? 627 01:05:22,170 --> 01:05:24,080 Do you like it? 628 01:05:34,585 --> 01:05:36,594 Is it pretty? 629 01:05:41,241 --> 01:05:42,649 But can you go on a bike? 630 01:05:43,577 --> 01:05:45,204 Of course. 631 01:05:48,858 --> 01:05:50,801 My brain is full of dust. 632 01:05:52,825 --> 01:05:54,103 Fine, then, let's go. 633 01:05:54,169 --> 01:05:55,861 What are we celebrating tonight? 634 01:05:56,697 --> 01:06:00,375 The end of the hard work 635 01:06:00,441 --> 01:06:02,678 and the beginning of the intellectual one. 636 01:06:03,289 --> 01:06:04,501 The work of thought. 637 01:06:05,817 --> 01:06:07,477 - Mom. - Yes? 638 01:06:09,626 --> 01:06:10,936 What? 639 01:06:12,793 --> 01:06:13,722 What is it? 640 01:06:13,785 --> 01:06:16,306 How long do you think until you'll be gone? 641 01:06:17,146 --> 01:06:20,408 I don't know, I have to close the house in Livorno. 642 01:06:21,177 --> 01:06:25,434 And it'll be difficult during the academic year. 643 01:06:26,681 --> 01:06:28,243 Do you mind? 644 01:06:32,249 --> 01:06:32,632 Eh? 645 01:06:32,697 --> 01:06:35,316 Well, no, or actually, yes, but... 646 01:06:35,385 --> 01:06:38,769 I think I've understood that it's something you want. 647 01:06:40,025 --> 01:06:43,026 And it's right that people get what they want. 648 01:06:46,106 --> 01:06:47,929 - Isn't it? - Well... 649 01:06:49,017 --> 01:06:52,433 How many people manage to get what they want? 650 01:06:53,689 --> 01:06:55,184 It's a luxury. 651 01:06:56,281 --> 01:07:01,104 But you... are you happy with your project? 652 01:07:03,289 --> 01:07:05,112 I work in stages. 653 01:07:05,177 --> 01:07:07,698 I still haven't closed the stage... 654 01:07:10,489 --> 01:07:11,897 ...of my life here. 655 01:07:12,697 --> 01:07:15,447 So, for now I'm working to... 656 01:07:19,065 --> 01:07:22,066 to bring my life here to a conclusion. 657 01:07:23,065 --> 01:07:28,663 And when this is more or less clear, 658 01:07:28,729 --> 01:07:32,407 then I'll look for a path, a way out... 659 01:07:35,673 --> 01:07:39,668 To get as far as possible from this... 660 01:07:41,592 --> 01:07:47,289 ...from this white man who has devastated the world. I... 661 01:07:48,537 --> 01:07:53,240 I'm very sad to belong to this race... 662 01:07:54,265 --> 01:07:55,640 Very! 663 01:07:56,633 --> 01:07:57,910 I don't know, Ben... 664 01:07:57,977 --> 01:07:59,985 Perhaps I just want to die. 665 01:08:00,601 --> 01:08:02,194 It's easier. 666 01:08:14,681 --> 01:08:16,111 Shall we go out? 667 01:08:45,976 --> 01:08:48,344 - Is this OK? - Yes, it's OK. 668 01:08:48,408 --> 01:08:49,936 Now we'll try to do one where... 669 01:08:50,584 --> 01:08:52,309 ...I twist around you. 670 01:08:53,240 --> 01:08:56,176 ...Like this, and you turn. 671 01:08:57,560 --> 01:08:59,317 But my head's spinning! 672 01:08:59,385 --> 01:09:02,288 OK, you stand still and I'll turn around you. 673 01:09:11,992 --> 01:09:15,473 Are you done with playing? 674 01:09:26,744 --> 01:09:28,152 That's it, do that for a bit! 675 01:09:29,240 --> 01:09:30,834 With your skirt... 676 01:09:31,544 --> 01:09:35,538 Someday, my pain ♪ 677 01:09:38,488 --> 01:09:44,981 Someday, my pain will mark you ♪ 678 01:09:45,048 --> 01:09:48,115 Harness your blame ♪ 679 01:09:48,376 --> 01:09:50,865 Strike some poses like a model in the '60s... 680 01:09:50,936 --> 01:09:53,009 The one I like! 681 01:09:53,592 --> 01:09:58,579 Harness your blame and walk through ♪ 682 01:10:04,536 --> 01:10:09,293 With the wild wolves around you ♪ 683 01:10:11,192 --> 01:10:15,187 In the morning, I'll call you ♪ 684 01:10:17,720 --> 01:10:21,069 Send it farther on ♪ 685 01:10:28,408 --> 01:10:33,265 And the story's all over you ♪ 686 01:10:35,095 --> 01:10:39,798 In the morning I'll call you ♪ 687 01:10:41,688 --> 01:10:44,722 Can't you find a clue ♪ 688 01:10:51,512 --> 01:10:55,125 Someday, my pain ♪ 689 01:10:58,168 --> 01:11:01,682 Someday, my pain ♪♪ 690 01:12:40,983 --> 01:12:42,959 What's that for, mom? 691 01:12:43,031 --> 01:12:44,439 I don't know. 692 01:12:45,847 --> 01:12:46,993 Nothing. 693 01:13:00,343 --> 01:13:04,021 She told me about a bookcase made of tubes... 694 01:13:04,279 --> 01:13:11,733 We should also take that wardrobe, that drawer and the little bike. 695 01:13:12,759 --> 01:13:13,938 ...And upstairs 696 01:13:14,231 --> 01:13:16,374 there are other boxes... 697 01:13:16,374 --> 01:13:20,303 We'll start from here... We need to clear the entrance first... 698 01:13:21,174 --> 01:13:25,070 OK, we've already loaded one of the wardrobes. 699 01:13:25,143 --> 01:13:27,861 I don't think you'll need to throw them in the bin after! 700 01:13:31,063 --> 01:13:38,221 Anyway, these go to the deposit, right? Where else could you put them? 701 01:13:47,191 --> 01:13:51,894 - What stage are we at? - A terrible one! 702 01:13:51,958 --> 01:13:55,789 At a terrible stage! 703 01:13:55,894 --> 01:13:59,059 But at least we've started! 704 01:14:00,055 --> 01:14:03,252 To break my life apart, yes, we've started! 705 01:14:09,879 --> 01:14:13,971 Scientific discoveries, technological evolution, 706 01:14:14,038 --> 01:14:18,229 once fostered a positive ideal of progress. 707 01:14:18,295 --> 01:14:21,045 Changes, however, have to be managed 708 01:14:21,847 --> 01:14:27,543 to avoid inequalities and new kinds of marginalization. 709 01:14:27,830 --> 01:14:34,061 To conclude, I would like to greet those who tonight aren't celebrating, 710 01:14:34,134 --> 01:14:37,451 because they're busy working for the benefit of everybody else... 711 01:14:37,719 --> 01:14:39,149 Fuck off! 712 01:14:40,087 --> 01:14:44,822 ...On the roads, in hospitals, in the cities... 713 01:14:44,887 --> 01:14:49,525 to ensure safety, assistance, information... 714 01:14:49,591 --> 01:14:51,828 relief from pain... 715 01:14:51,894 --> 01:14:57,329 To them I send my very best wishes. 716 01:14:57,398 --> 01:15:00,782 Best wishes, everybody, and happy new year! 717 01:15:00,855 --> 01:15:02,230 Shut the fuck up! 718 01:15:09,686 --> 01:15:11,313 Shitty anthem! 719 01:15:20,086 --> 01:15:22,094 Look up, look up! Up there, look! 720 01:17:18,101 --> 01:17:19,663 - OK. - OK. 721 01:17:24,277 --> 01:17:28,948 What I wanted to say is that I would really like to discuss with you... 722 01:17:29,685 --> 01:17:35,382 seriously, a way to stage the departure... 723 01:17:35,445 --> 01:17:40,684 So that you can, I hope, do this scene... 724 01:17:41,270 --> 01:17:43,474 Not as... 725 01:17:43,542 --> 01:17:45,299 yet another act of violence, 726 01:17:45,366 --> 01:17:47,538 but with a degree of pleasure. 727 01:17:47,798 --> 01:17:50,003 Like a way to put into a scene... 728 01:17:50,070 --> 01:17:54,478 But, Ben, I'm sorry, I don't mean to be brutal, 729 01:17:54,966 --> 01:17:56,974 but how can you even say, 730 01:17:57,045 --> 01:18:01,617 "I would like this scene not to be yet another act of violence." 731 01:18:01,686 --> 01:18:04,589 How can you say a phrase like that? 732 01:18:04,661 --> 01:18:07,412 When all this work is based 733 01:18:07,477 --> 01:18:12,300 only on your desire to do it and not on my desire to see it done? 734 01:18:13,269 --> 01:18:16,085 Including the ending! 735 01:18:16,149 --> 01:18:23,373 I don't know how you can forget every time... 736 01:18:24,053 --> 01:18:29,553 that I have nothing to do with images, 737 01:18:30,517 --> 01:18:33,420 and you have everything to do with images, 738 01:18:33,493 --> 01:18:39,190 and this will be an unsolvable problem right up to the end as well. 739 01:18:40,053 --> 01:18:46,033 The only scene I would've liked to do was breaking your camera. 740 01:18:46,549 --> 01:18:48,438 But I don't want that either, 741 01:18:48,501 --> 01:18:53,237 because there's no point in breaking a camera. 742 01:18:53,301 --> 01:18:56,302 You can always get another one and continue... 743 01:18:56,533 --> 01:19:02,415 But I would really like to end with black. 744 01:19:05,973 --> 01:19:11,854 That would be the only thing that would make me feel like... 745 01:19:14,229 --> 01:19:16,815 ...like I've made... 746 01:19:18,421 --> 01:19:23,757 ...I've made my point... which is never taken into account. 747 01:19:52,629 --> 01:19:56,012 I also need to find a way to live without medicines... 748 01:19:57,652 --> 01:19:59,376 Because... 749 01:19:59,828 --> 01:20:05,229 I recently had an infection which forced me to take a lot of medicines. 750 01:20:07,349 --> 01:20:11,245 And this made me think about all the medicines 751 01:20:11,316 --> 01:20:14,219 that I should be taking day by day... 752 01:20:14,453 --> 01:20:17,236 I started halving the doses... 753 01:20:17,941 --> 01:20:24,979 to understand if, little by little, I'll be all right without them. 754 01:20:25,429 --> 01:20:30,099 One is for high blood pressure, the other one is for breathing. 755 01:20:30,164 --> 01:20:31,572 And calcium... 756 01:20:31,637 --> 01:20:36,110 OK, let's say that you pack up your things... 757 01:20:37,364 --> 01:20:39,950 ...and you go on foot. 758 01:20:40,020 --> 01:20:40,970 Yes. 759 01:20:41,909 --> 01:20:43,633 You shouldn't use transport, 760 01:20:43,700 --> 01:20:45,043 any form of transport. 761 01:20:45,589 --> 01:20:47,924 But if you wanted to reach the coast first, 762 01:20:47,988 --> 01:20:49,931 you have to take a car, right? 763 01:20:51,892 --> 01:20:54,065 It's funny that you think that someone 764 01:20:55,060 --> 01:20:58,803 would go to the sea with a car 765 01:20:58,868 --> 01:20:59,949 to then disappear. 766 01:21:00,020 --> 01:21:02,061 It's not a suicide. 767 01:21:02,677 --> 01:21:04,947 It's another life. 768 01:21:05,716 --> 01:21:08,171 It's another life. 769 01:21:10,388 --> 01:21:12,404 It shouldn't look anything like a suicide. 770 01:21:12,404 --> 01:21:14,772 The abandoned car, beside the sea... 771 01:21:14,836 --> 01:21:16,725 And her who's disappeared. 772 01:21:25,236 --> 01:21:29,263 But I won't bring an apple and a tin of peas... 773 01:21:30,292 --> 01:21:32,464 Because they would be finished. 774 01:21:44,084 --> 01:21:46,289 Besides, I won't speak the language. 775 01:21:47,060 --> 01:21:50,705 Because I am going to worlds 776 01:21:51,380 --> 01:21:56,684 where Italian, English, French... aren't spoken. 777 01:22:04,436 --> 01:22:06,095 Talking with your eyes... 778 01:22:06,164 --> 01:22:07,987 if you had eyes! 779 01:22:08,276 --> 01:22:10,284 Maybe I won't see anymore. 780 01:22:20,980 --> 01:22:22,388 You know... 781 01:22:24,339 --> 01:22:26,893 ...many times people think about things, 782 01:22:27,188 --> 01:22:29,490 but then don't have the courage to do them. 783 01:22:30,164 --> 01:22:32,401 I want to have the courage to do it. 784 01:22:33,587 --> 01:22:37,134 As the only gift I can offer myself. 785 01:22:39,732 --> 01:22:42,733 Because I spent my life doing what I was supposed to do. 786 01:22:44,147 --> 01:22:46,132 Just like everybody else, after all. 787 01:22:46,132 --> 01:22:49,296 Being worried... 788 01:22:49,364 --> 01:22:51,754 about paying the bills, 789 01:22:51,827 --> 01:22:54,130 about the wellbeing of the children... 790 01:22:54,643 --> 01:22:58,124 Hearing constantly that whatever I cooked was shit. 791 01:22:59,091 --> 01:23:02,291 I would put my soul into trying to make something good. 792 01:23:02,291 --> 01:23:03,634 But then... 793 01:23:03,891 --> 01:23:05,004 Nobody likes it. 794 01:23:07,476 --> 01:23:09,713 So it's a life of constrictions... 795 01:23:09,780 --> 01:23:10,991 A life... 796 01:23:11,700 --> 01:23:15,345 the life of an animal tamed to do what... 797 01:23:16,339 --> 01:23:18,729 you're expected to and should be doing. 798 01:23:19,700 --> 01:23:22,352 I wanted to give myself an ending. 799 01:23:22,420 --> 01:23:25,268 Because ultimately I'm going towards death. 800 01:23:25,331 --> 01:23:26,347 There's no doubt about it. 801 01:23:26,420 --> 01:23:28,941 But I would be going there even if I'd stayed here, 802 01:23:30,675 --> 01:23:32,847 so I'd like to give myself 803 01:23:33,844 --> 01:23:36,878 the opposite of what I've known so far. 804 01:25:05,555 --> 01:25:10,378 Yes, I mean perhaps it isn't necessary to have an ending... 805 01:25:11,891 --> 01:25:15,754 ...with a boat sailing towards the horizon. 806 01:25:16,755 --> 01:25:18,217 I mean, that goes... 807 01:25:18,642 --> 01:25:20,912 There could also be another one 808 01:25:20,978 --> 01:25:24,809 with a person walking with her backpack in the woods. 809 01:25:29,171 --> 01:25:30,927 And just keeps walking. 810 01:26:19,250 --> 01:26:21,804 I hate memory. 811 01:26:22,578 --> 01:26:24,489 I don't want it. 812 01:26:25,842 --> 01:26:27,304 I don't understand it. 813 01:26:30,770 --> 01:26:33,553 We don't need memory to go forward. 814 01:26:38,834 --> 01:26:41,266 I understand that cinema wants images. 815 01:26:41,266 --> 01:26:44,944 And images are what I disdain. 816 01:26:45,586 --> 01:26:47,595 But if we didn't have memory, 817 01:26:47,667 --> 01:26:50,897 there wouldn't be poems like Homer's Iliad and Odyssey. 818 01:26:51,634 --> 01:26:55,213 What a wondrous naivety I have brought to life. 819 01:26:58,194 --> 01:26:59,537 Come on, Ben, enough. 820 01:27:01,970 --> 01:27:03,282 So we've decided 821 01:27:03,282 --> 01:27:05,137 that you decide the ending, 822 01:27:05,202 --> 01:27:08,105 that you bring the strength of the images. 823 01:27:08,882 --> 01:27:11,534 But also that you won't be a pissed-off victim, 824 01:27:11,602 --> 01:27:13,807 that we will try to cooperate. 825 01:27:14,706 --> 01:27:16,779 I will try to obey. 826 01:27:16,850 --> 01:27:19,339 No, Mom, I don't want you to obey. 827 01:27:20,338 --> 01:27:23,819 I would rather you managed to collaborate. 828 01:27:25,362 --> 01:27:26,889 Ben... 829 01:27:26,962 --> 01:27:28,274 I'll do my best. 830 01:27:28,274 --> 01:27:30,162 Let's put it this way, OK? 831 01:27:30,226 --> 01:27:31,601 OK. 832 01:27:31,666 --> 01:27:33,936 But I look forward to this being over. 833 01:27:35,090 --> 01:27:36,433 With darkness... 834 01:27:38,546 --> 01:27:41,100 And the camera switched off. 835 01:27:42,066 --> 01:27:44,042 So that I can find Ben again. 836 01:27:46,098 --> 01:27:47,473 My Ben. 837 01:27:48,786 --> 01:27:50,926 Not that of... 838 01:27:53,266 --> 01:27:55,176 ...of his images. 839 01:27:57,842 --> 01:27:59,534 You should put the cap on the lens. 840 01:27:59,602 --> 01:28:01,610 Actually I don't have it with me... Oh, here it is. 841 01:28:01,682 --> 01:28:03,690 Would you like to place the cap on the lens? 842 01:28:04,369 --> 01:28:05,515 As if... 843 01:28:09,298 --> 01:28:12,976 Ben, can I kill your image? 844 01:28:13,777 --> 01:28:14,760 Can I? 845 01:28:14,833 --> 01:28:15,849 Yes. 846 01:28:15,922 --> 01:28:17,548 But not with hatred... 847 01:28:17,617 --> 01:28:20,553 simply to defend myself. 848 01:28:20,626 --> 01:28:21,575 Yes. 849 01:28:21,649 --> 01:28:22,828 OK, bye. 850 01:28:22,898 --> 01:28:23,433 Bye. 851 01:28:28,210 --> 01:28:30,033 - OK, Ben. - Let's go. 852 01:28:30,097 --> 01:28:31,560 Now there is darkness. 853 01:28:32,306 --> 01:28:33,583 Good, let's go. 854 01:28:56,081 --> 01:28:58,384 I get that leaving feeling ♪ 855 01:28:58,449 --> 01:29:01,963 This time it's here to stay ♪ 856 01:29:04,721 --> 01:29:07,439 I've been weighing up the pulling ♪ 857 01:29:07,506 --> 01:29:10,823 And pushing me away ♪ 858 01:29:13,938 --> 01:29:15,848 The past is so heavy ♪ 859 01:29:16,145 --> 01:29:19,943 But it's something that I can't leave ♪ 860 01:29:22,609 --> 01:29:25,163 And this future's so certain ♪ 861 01:29:25,233 --> 01:29:29,009 It just pushes me to my knees ♪ 862 01:29:32,049 --> 01:29:34,352 Is that your heart talking ♪ 863 01:29:34,417 --> 01:29:37,484 Or just that we fight over mine ♪ 864 01:29:40,849 --> 01:29:43,087 The people that you love ♪ 865 01:29:43,153 --> 01:29:46,350 They change when you leave them behind ♪ 866 01:29:49,169 --> 01:29:51,788 But this rope that is pulling ♪ 867 01:29:51,889 --> 01:29:55,086 Is whittled down to a thread ♪ 868 01:29:57,649 --> 01:30:00,017 And if I don't start climbing ♪ 869 01:30:00,305 --> 01:30:04,103 Pretty soon it'll be over my head ♪ 870 01:30:07,057 --> 01:30:09,163 We all have dreams of leaving ♪ 871 01:30:09,233 --> 01:30:12,365 We all wanna make a new start ♪ 872 01:30:15,185 --> 01:30:17,575 Go and pack a little suitcase ♪ 873 01:30:17,649 --> 01:30:21,676 With the pieces of our hearts ♪ 874 01:30:23,825 --> 01:30:26,476 All those worries and those sorrows ♪ 875 01:30:26,545 --> 01:30:29,481 We can just dust them away ♪ 876 01:30:32,369 --> 01:30:34,508 Buy a coffee and a paper ♪ 877 01:30:34,577 --> 01:30:38,091 And go step on to a train ♪ 878 01:30:57,424 --> 01:31:00,273 But I've been too long wandering ♪ 879 01:31:00,337 --> 01:31:03,753 Limping around this town ♪ 880 01:31:06,225 --> 01:31:08,614 With everything that's pulling me ♪ 881 01:31:08,688 --> 01:31:11,853 It's pulling me further down ♪ 882 01:31:14,641 --> 01:31:16,682 Go make all your excuses ♪ 883 01:31:16,753 --> 01:31:20,332 Go say all your goodbyes ♪ 884 01:31:23,025 --> 01:31:25,066 But take a look in the mirror ♪ 885 01:31:25,137 --> 01:31:28,651 It's the hardest one you'll ever find ♪ 886 01:31:31,120 --> 01:31:33,804 All those worries and those sorrows ♪ 887 01:31:33,873 --> 01:31:36,841 You can just dust them away ♪ 888 01:31:39,568 --> 01:31:41,740 Go and find a new tomorrow ♪ 889 01:31:41,809 --> 01:31:45,584 And forget about your yesterdays ♪♪ 890 01:31:50,353 --> 01:31:52,655 This could be a bit depressing. 891 01:31:52,720 --> 01:31:54,576 Why? 892 01:31:55,217 --> 01:32:00,368 Depression doesn't exist. It's yet another invention of the bourgeoisie. 893 01:32:00,880 --> 01:32:02,703 "Oh I'm so depressed, 894 01:32:02,800 --> 01:32:08,616 because I'm alone on an island in front of the sea, without you!" 895 01:32:09,168 --> 01:32:10,925 Fuck off! 896 01:32:17,297 --> 01:32:19,785 This first one is in Spanish. 897 01:33:06,672 --> 01:33:08,582 Oh no, I've fallen down... 897 01:33:08,893 --> 01:34:06,351 Please rate this subtitle at www.osdb.link/884by Help other users to choose the best subtitles