1 00:03:09,800 --> 00:03:13,000 Bye, Pinky. 2 00:03:18,300 --> 00:03:20,400 Potato! 3 00:03:24,600 --> 00:03:26,700 Potato? 4 00:03:26,700 --> 00:03:28,700 Potatoes... 5 00:03:28,700 --> 00:03:30,100 Pinkie... 6 00:03:30,100 --> 00:03:31,900 Pinky, what do you mean? 7 00:03:33,300 --> 00:03:34,900 Oh... 8 00:03:35,900 --> 00:03:37,900 Oh, Pinky. 9 00:04:03,900 --> 00:04:06,100 Be free, Sylvia. 10 00:04:08,700 --> 00:04:10,100 Don't worry. 11 00:04:10,100 --> 00:04:11,500 I feel fine. 12 00:04:11,500 --> 00:04:14,600 I haven't always been this lonely. 13 00:04:14,600 --> 00:04:17,500 My childhood was full of people. 14 00:04:18,200 --> 00:04:19,800 Um... 15 00:04:21,000 --> 00:04:24,000 My father always said that childhood was like being drunk. 16 00:04:24,000 --> 00:04:28,200 Everyone remembers what what you did, except yourself. 17 00:04:28,200 --> 00:04:31,100 But my childhood was done, Sylvia. 18 00:04:31,100 --> 00:04:33,100 I remember everything, 19 00:04:33,100 --> 00:04:36,300 from the beginning. 20 00:04:36,300 --> 00:04:39,600 I've always liked the feeling.., of being chained, 21 00:04:39,600 --> 00:04:42,800 comfortable and protected. 22 00:04:45,000 --> 00:04:47,300 It was a shock to be born prematurely. 23 00:04:47,300 --> 00:04:48,700 I wasn't fully mature, 24 00:04:48,700 --> 00:04:51,900 and I looked like a baby bunny. 25 00:04:52,700 --> 00:04:56,200 My name was Grace Prudence Poodle. 26 00:04:56,200 --> 00:04:59,500 My twin brother, Gilbert. 27 00:04:59,500 --> 00:05:01,900 The nurse said we had two souls, 28 00:05:01,900 --> 00:05:04,200 but a heart. 29 00:05:04,200 --> 00:05:06,900 Hmmm. I liked it. 30 00:05:06,900 --> 00:05:10,300 Our birth was a lot very difficult for the mother, 31 00:05:10,300 --> 00:05:13,300 and she died. 32 00:05:13,300 --> 00:05:15,300 We left her womb 33 00:05:15,300 --> 00:05:18,000 and he went to his grave. 34 00:05:19,100 --> 00:05:20,600 Mother's vows do the same thing 35 00:05:20,600 --> 00:05:22,800 after they have had their children. 36 00:05:23,600 --> 00:05:25,300 Isn't that right, Sylvia? 37 00:05:29,300 --> 00:05:30,800 As I grew older, 38 00:05:30,800 --> 00:05:33,400 I suffered from all kinds ailments. 39 00:05:33,400 --> 00:05:38,900 I always had to go back to the hospital for one reason or another. 40 00:05:38,900 --> 00:05:41,300 The doctor said I was like a porcelain doll... 41 00:05:41,300 --> 00:05:44,000 which could be crushed with just a glance. 42 00:05:45,100 --> 00:05:49,000 In the end they had to to fix my cleft lip. 43 00:05:57,400 --> 00:05:59,200 Things went wrong. 44 00:06:02,400 --> 00:06:04,400 I lost so much blood, 45 00:06:04,500 --> 00:06:06,700 that I needed a blood transfusion. 46 00:06:06,700 --> 00:06:10,500 The doctor asked Gilbert if he wanted to give me some of your own. 47 00:06:10,500 --> 00:06:12,100 Huh? 48 00:06:16,500 --> 00:06:18,400 Oh. 49 00:06:21,700 --> 00:06:23,200 He said yes, 50 00:06:23,200 --> 00:06:27,300 although he believed that his he would have to die to save me. 51 00:06:27,300 --> 00:06:29,500 How long until I die? 52 00:06:30,600 --> 00:06:33,000 They quickly explained, that he would not die. 53 00:06:33,000 --> 00:06:35,000 His body would manufacture new blood. 54 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:37,200 Oh. 55 00:06:37,200 --> 00:06:39,700 He became the hero of all that night. 56 00:06:39,700 --> 00:06:42,000 Especially mine. 57 00:06:42,700 --> 00:06:44,100 To cheer me up, 58 00:06:44,100 --> 00:06:47,200 my father gave me my mother an old jewelry box. 59 00:06:47,200 --> 00:06:50,300 Oh! 60 00:06:54,900 --> 00:06:57,300 Inside was hers his collection of snails, 61 00:06:57,300 --> 00:06:59,600 and his ring. 62 00:06:59,600 --> 00:07:01,600 He had also loved snails, 63 00:07:01,600 --> 00:07:04,100 and had been a malacologist. 64 00:07:04,100 --> 00:07:06,600 I thought that Gilbert could keep the ring. 65 00:07:06,700 --> 00:07:08,200 Ooh. 66 00:07:08,200 --> 00:07:11,500 I will wear this all my life, Gracie. 67 00:07:37,900 --> 00:07:39,900 Despite my worries, Sylvia, 68 00:07:39,900 --> 00:07:44,800 I believe in half glasses and silver rims. 69 00:07:44,800 --> 00:07:48,000 Gilbert's glass was half white 70 00:07:48,000 --> 00:07:51,000 I remember how he was often sad. 71 00:07:51,000 --> 00:07:54,400 It seemed he had a secret he wanted to tell. 72 00:07:54,400 --> 00:07:59,500 He was like Holden Caulfield, James Dean and Charlie Brown 73 00:07:59,500 --> 00:08:01,500 all in one person. 74 00:08:01,500 --> 00:08:03,300 He saw people as a threat. 75 00:08:04,400 --> 00:08:08,900 At school he was always mine my warrior and my defender. 76 00:08:08,900 --> 00:08:11,400 Rabbit face, rabbit face, 77 00:08:11,400 --> 00:08:13,700 rabbit face, rabbit face. 78 00:08:15,800 --> 00:08:17,400 Give it to me. 79 00:08:26,600 --> 00:08:28,300 Hey, idiots. 80 00:08:28,300 --> 00:08:29,400 Huh? 81 00:08:57,400 --> 00:08:58,900 Ah! 82 00:09:10,600 --> 00:09:15,000 ...capable of crossing a chicken and a giraffe. 83 00:09:15,000 --> 00:09:16,300 He said that he ...he can lay eggs, 84 00:09:16,300 --> 00:09:17,900 but he has a very long beak. 85 00:09:17,900 --> 00:09:20,500 Home was our sanctuary, 86 00:09:20,500 --> 00:09:22,500 a place where we felt safe 87 00:09:22,500 --> 00:09:26,900 to read our books and watch our favorite shows. 88 00:09:30,300 --> 00:09:33,600 I loved my bedroom. 89 00:09:33,600 --> 00:09:39,000 It was the place where everything was exactly as it was. 90 00:09:39,000 --> 00:09:41,900 The straight corners gave me a great sense of comfort, 91 00:09:41,900 --> 00:09:44,400 as are the snails, Sylvia. 92 00:09:45,700 --> 00:09:48,300 They were my friends, 93 00:09:48,300 --> 00:09:51,300 so I made more of them. 94 00:09:51,300 --> 00:09:53,900 I knew they would never leave me, 95 00:09:53,900 --> 00:09:55,600 ...hurt me. 96 00:09:56,700 --> 00:09:58,200 Or die. 97 00:10:00,300 --> 00:10:02,600 I didn't like it when people died. 98 00:10:04,900 --> 00:10:07,200 I wanted to save people. 99 00:10:07,200 --> 00:10:09,300 To save the homeless. 100 00:10:10,200 --> 00:10:12,800 My favorite was James. 101 00:10:16,300 --> 00:10:19,100 One Christmas I covered him with decorations 102 00:10:19,100 --> 00:10:21,600 so that he could feel a little Christmas spirit. 103 00:10:22,800 --> 00:10:25,500 She loved tea. 104 00:10:26,700 --> 00:10:29,000 Huh? 105 00:10:29,000 --> 00:10:30,700 Ah! Ah. 106 00:10:30,700 --> 00:10:32,500 Ah... 107 00:10:32,500 --> 00:10:37,100 There you go, little one purse rat So there yes. 108 00:10:38,400 --> 00:10:40,000 He was once a judge, 109 00:10:40,000 --> 00:10:42,800 but he was dismissed for masturbating in court. 110 00:10:44,900 --> 00:10:46,600 And then.., 111 00:10:46,600 --> 00:10:49,500 I thought masturbation meant to chew food properly. 112 00:10:50,700 --> 00:10:52,000 He once told me that 113 00:10:52,000 --> 00:10:55,300 masturbation was a thief of time. 114 00:10:56,000 --> 00:10:58,100 - Oh! - Huh? 115 00:11:01,000 --> 00:11:03,600 James gave me my first real snail. 116 00:11:03,700 --> 00:11:04,900 Ah! 117 00:11:04,900 --> 00:11:06,800 Your mother, Sylvia. 118 00:11:08,300 --> 00:11:11,200 She told me to lay down her in a big jar 119 00:11:11,200 --> 00:11:14,700 and feed him Vegemite. 120 00:11:14,700 --> 00:11:17,300 When I was busy trying to save the world, 121 00:11:17,300 --> 00:11:19,600 Gilbert wanted be free from it. 122 00:11:21,100 --> 00:11:23,200 To liberate others. 123 00:11:23,200 --> 00:11:24,600 Huh? 124 00:11:26,800 --> 00:11:28,400 Ugh! 125 00:11:28,400 --> 00:11:32,400 Once he let our neighbor a neighbor's cockatoo. 126 00:11:37,400 --> 00:11:39,500 fly, Mildred! Come on, fly! 127 00:11:44,800 --> 00:11:46,400 Bye, Mildred! 128 00:11:46,400 --> 00:11:49,700 Gilbert said that Mildred would never… ...looked so happy. 129 00:11:54,100 --> 00:11:56,800 If she didn't let let the animals run free, 130 00:11:56,800 --> 00:11:58,700 he saved them. 131 00:12:00,600 --> 00:12:03,500 He didn't care the dangers. 132 00:12:06,200 --> 00:12:08,000 I'll save it, Gracie! 133 00:12:12,900 --> 00:12:14,700 - Gilbert! - Ah! 134 00:12:20,800 --> 00:12:22,700 Come on, buddy! 135 00:12:22,700 --> 00:12:25,200 Ah! 136 00:12:34,600 --> 00:12:36,800 Over here, Gracie! 137 00:12:40,300 --> 00:12:43,100 Gilbert loved animals so much 138 00:12:43,100 --> 00:12:45,800 that he became a vegetarian. 139 00:12:51,000 --> 00:12:54,600 Aww! Now have does she have a boyfriend 140 00:12:59,200 --> 00:13:01,800 Look, Gracie, they're hugging. 141 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:06,000 Ugh... 142 00:13:08,200 --> 00:13:10,300 Eggs, wow! 143 00:13:10,300 --> 00:13:12,800 We would have created our own little family. 144 00:13:12,800 --> 00:13:15,900 They hatched, Gracie! Babies! 145 00:13:17,300 --> 00:13:21,400 You became mine my pet, Sylvia. 146 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:25,500 Your vortex left the opposite of the others. 147 00:13:25,500 --> 00:13:29,800 Gilbert baptized you after your mother's favorite author. 148 00:13:33,700 --> 00:13:37,300 But what did Gilbert really was unique 149 00:13:37,300 --> 00:13:40,900 was his love of fire. 150 00:13:43,200 --> 00:13:45,000 He wanted to eat it. 151 00:13:48,700 --> 00:13:52,700 He spent hours play with fire. 152 00:14:17,000 --> 00:14:21,500 I remember how he always smelled of burnt matches. 153 00:14:22,700 --> 00:14:26,100 At school the girls went crazy. 154 00:14:26,100 --> 00:14:29,100 He was a flame, they were moths. 155 00:14:30,600 --> 00:14:34,600 But he was more interested reading and magic. 156 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:37,600 I think he just wanted to disappear. 157 00:14:37,600 --> 00:14:41,600 And to use all all their pocket money at Bert's. 158 00:14:47,700 --> 00:14:49,700 Bert was that kind of person 159 00:14:49,700 --> 00:14:53,100 who are told by their parents to avoid, Sylvia. 160 00:14:53,100 --> 00:14:56,800 Someone who might offer boiled sweets. 161 00:14:56,900 --> 00:14:58,900 Ooh. 162 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,900 Bert seemed to have it all anything but magical. 163 00:15:10,900 --> 00:15:12,600 Gilbert's dream was 164 00:15:12,600 --> 00:15:14,600 to become a street artist in Paris. 165 00:15:26,500 --> 00:15:28,300 Look, Gracie! 166 00:15:29,900 --> 00:15:32,100 She was always practicing. 167 00:15:34,800 --> 00:15:36,500 Oh, damn it! 168 00:15:37,800 --> 00:15:40,500 Ouch, ouch, ouch! 169 00:15:40,500 --> 00:15:42,800 And often burned himself. 170 00:15:46,000 --> 00:15:48,200 We got little scars From the sparks. 171 00:15:48,200 --> 00:15:50,700 And when we set ...our hands together.., 172 00:15:50,700 --> 00:15:53,800 they formed a face. 173 00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:55,400 Oh, look, Gracie! 174 00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:58,700 It felt great when we did that. 175 00:15:58,700 --> 00:16:01,300 Our feelings were aligned. 176 00:16:03,100 --> 00:16:05,200 Many twins say that, Sylvia, 177 00:16:05,200 --> 00:16:07,500 and it is true. 178 00:16:07,500 --> 00:16:09,600 I felt her feelings, 179 00:16:09,600 --> 00:16:13,700 her joy and her sorrow. 180 00:16:13,700 --> 00:16:15,000 What seemed to be 181 00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:18,100 the fourth member of our family. 182 00:16:18,100 --> 00:16:21,100 Mother's death had left a void. 183 00:16:21,100 --> 00:16:23,500 Dad had tried to fill the void, 184 00:16:23,500 --> 00:16:26,900 but... he had his own problems. 185 00:16:28,600 --> 00:16:30,100 Dad was French, 186 00:16:30,100 --> 00:16:35,000 and had once been animator in Paris. 187 00:16:35,000 --> 00:16:36,800 He made stop-motion films 188 00:16:36,800 --> 00:16:38,900 with an old Bolex camera. 189 00:16:41,600 --> 00:16:44,100 He used to show them to us sometimes. 190 00:16:52,000 --> 00:16:54,000 To pay for his art, 191 00:16:54,000 --> 00:16:56,000 he played at street concerts. 192 00:16:58,300 --> 00:17:01,000 Bonjour, messieurs dames, 193 00:17:01,000 --> 00:17:02,900 Je suis l'incroyable Percy Poodle. 194 00:17:02,900 --> 00:17:04,100 My mother met him on holiday 195 00:17:04,100 --> 00:17:06,600 which he had won Woman's Weekly magazine. 196 00:17:08,900 --> 00:17:10,900 Hep-ah! 197 00:17:13,900 --> 00:17:16,000 Oh! 198 00:17:16,000 --> 00:17:18,100 Et voilà, messieurs dames. 199 00:17:19,900 --> 00:17:21,700 Ohhh... 200 00:17:23,900 --> 00:17:25,800 Wow! 201 00:17:25,800 --> 00:17:27,900 Bonjour, Mademoiselle d'escargot. 202 00:17:34,200 --> 00:17:36,900 Oh! Ooh, la, la! 203 00:17:39,900 --> 00:17:41,100 They fell in love, 204 00:17:41,100 --> 00:17:43,700 and he followed her back to Australia. 205 00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:51,600 Frock coat! I am the incredible Percy the Poodle. 206 00:17:52,500 --> 00:17:54,100 Shit skull! 207 00:17:55,500 --> 00:17:57,300 Hello... Careful! 208 00:17:57,300 --> 00:17:59,300 Ah! 209 00:18:06,100 --> 00:18:09,500 Mom had just gotten here pregnant 210 00:18:09,500 --> 00:18:13,300 when a drunk driver cut her off Dad's career. 211 00:18:13,300 --> 00:18:18,000 He never juggled again, he became paralyzed. 212 00:18:18,000 --> 00:18:20,000 Then, slowly, 213 00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:21,500 an alcoholic, 214 00:18:21,500 --> 00:18:24,400 just like the guy who ran him over. 215 00:18:25,400 --> 00:18:28,300 Money had always been a problem. 216 00:18:28,300 --> 00:18:30,800 Much worse after his accident. 217 00:18:30,800 --> 00:18:35,200 His pension was barely enough the batteries for his wheelchair. 218 00:18:37,300 --> 00:18:38,500 Win with a scratch 219 00:18:38,500 --> 00:18:41,700 was the only.., which gave him hope. 220 00:18:41,700 --> 00:18:44,300 We found them everywhere. 221 00:18:46,000 --> 00:18:47,900 It just got worse and worse, 222 00:18:47,900 --> 00:18:50,300 when he developed sleep apnea. 223 00:18:55,500 --> 00:18:57,000 Huh? 224 00:18:58,000 --> 00:19:00,300 We had to clap to wake him up. 225 00:19:16,700 --> 00:19:18,200 Despite our difficulties, 226 00:19:18,200 --> 00:19:22,600 was our little family strong 227 00:19:22,600 --> 00:19:25,300 And joy flowed. 228 00:19:25,300 --> 00:19:26,700 Ready! 229 00:19:33,800 --> 00:19:38,100 Our happiest day was when we went to the big mountain bike race. 230 00:19:41,100 --> 00:19:42,700 It was scary. 231 00:19:43,800 --> 00:19:46,700 Scary because it was it was 100 years old. 232 00:19:47,900 --> 00:19:49,400 Oh, oh! 233 00:19:49,400 --> 00:19:51,400 Dad felt alive, 234 00:19:51,400 --> 00:19:53,100 escaped from his body. 235 00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:01,700 And when he died.., 236 00:20:01,700 --> 00:20:05,700 he said he wanted his ashes would spread on the great mountain range. 237 00:20:06,800 --> 00:20:09,200 The day got even better on the way home 238 00:20:09,200 --> 00:20:12,700 when Gilbert found a scratch mark in the ground. 239 00:20:12,700 --> 00:20:14,500 We won $20! 240 00:20:15,900 --> 00:20:17,200 So dad bought 20 more. 241 00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:21,800 Too bad, dad. 242 00:20:21,800 --> 00:20:24,300 He hated that we had to take care of him. 243 00:20:27,400 --> 00:20:32,200 I think his cage was his body. 244 00:20:32,200 --> 00:20:35,100 His glass was neither full nor empty. 245 00:20:35,100 --> 00:20:37,000 It was just... ...the glass. 246 00:20:38,900 --> 00:20:42,400 Knitting and black jelly beans were his other addictions. 247 00:20:43,400 --> 00:20:45,700 He was the one who knitted my snail hat 248 00:20:45,700 --> 00:20:49,300 and made my eyes of old juggling balls. 249 00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:52,800 The jelly beans colored his tongue all black, 250 00:20:52,800 --> 00:20:54,300 and his breath... 251 00:20:54,300 --> 00:20:56,300 Anise-flavored. 252 00:20:56,300 --> 00:20:57,400 Look, Gracie. 253 00:20:57,400 --> 00:20:58,700 We organized them on his head 254 00:20:58,700 --> 00:21:01,000 while he pretended to sleep. 255 00:21:01,000 --> 00:21:02,900 He let us do it. 256 00:21:08,400 --> 00:21:10,900 We were free to do what we wanted, Sylvia. 257 00:21:10,900 --> 00:21:12,400 Ah! 258 00:21:14,000 --> 00:21:17,800 He said that childhood was the best season of life. 259 00:21:17,800 --> 00:21:21,300 It never lasts, though everyone deserves one. 260 00:21:21,300 --> 00:21:24,100 Oh, my son! 261 00:21:24,100 --> 00:21:25,800 Well done, Gilbert! 262 00:21:25,800 --> 00:21:30,000 She was so proud that Gilbert wanted to be an artist, 263 00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:32,000 to follow in his footsteps. 264 00:21:32,000 --> 00:21:34,200 Ah... Ohh! 265 00:21:34,200 --> 00:21:37,200 Great! 266 00:21:37,200 --> 00:21:40,200 That evening we took Mom's jewelry box 267 00:21:40,200 --> 00:21:42,500 and sang like that, that our heads were about to fall off. 268 00:22:02,300 --> 00:22:04,700 Huh. It was good, Dad. 269 00:22:04,700 --> 00:22:07,500 Later, dad took an old Bolex camera 270 00:22:07,500 --> 00:22:10,600 and gave me some tips how to animate. 271 00:22:14,500 --> 00:22:18,100 I wanted to stay to become an animator, just like him. 272 00:22:20,500 --> 00:22:23,600 Decision for the day we had a competition 273 00:22:23,600 --> 00:22:26,500 who could create the best hairstyle. 274 00:22:29,900 --> 00:22:31,200 I won. 275 00:22:34,500 --> 00:22:37,000 I remember that the silence that night... 276 00:22:38,300 --> 00:22:41,300 the wonderful ones the memories of that day, 277 00:22:41,300 --> 00:22:43,200 fresh in our minds. 278 00:22:45,100 --> 00:22:48,600 A day so precious... 279 00:22:50,200 --> 00:22:51,800 ...but fleeting. 280 00:23:03,100 --> 00:23:04,400 Huh? 281 00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:19,800 Despite our applause… 282 00:23:20,700 --> 00:23:22,600 this time, 283 00:23:22,600 --> 00:23:24,800 never woke up dad. 284 00:23:35,800 --> 00:23:38,300 We couldn't pay for a proper funeral, 285 00:23:38,300 --> 00:23:41,700 so dad was cremated by the government, 286 00:23:41,700 --> 00:23:46,100 his ashes was given to us in a cardboard box. 287 00:23:46,100 --> 00:23:49,900 I sprinkled him in his jelly bean jar. 288 00:23:49,900 --> 00:23:51,800 He would have loved it. 289 00:24:01,100 --> 00:24:03,500 We came from child protection to pick us up. 290 00:24:03,500 --> 00:24:06,800 Come on, come on, ...twin. Come on let's go. 291 00:24:06,800 --> 00:24:09,900 And we would ...sent to foster care. 292 00:24:09,900 --> 00:24:12,000 in different states. 293 00:24:14,900 --> 00:24:16,200 We had no relatives, 294 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:18,800 and no one wanted to adopt twins, 295 00:24:18,800 --> 00:24:21,900 especially the weird ones, like us. 296 00:24:30,100 --> 00:24:32,500 Take care of it, Gilbert. 297 00:24:40,800 --> 00:24:44,100 Hurry up. Say goodbye. 298 00:24:44,100 --> 00:24:46,400 Hi, Gracie. 299 00:24:46,400 --> 00:24:50,000 Hi, Gilbert. 300 00:24:54,000 --> 00:24:57,400 That was the last time I saw my brother. 301 00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:01,400 The last time I smelled it the smell of his burning matches. 302 00:25:07,200 --> 00:25:10,400 We were never allowed to sprinkle Dad from Big Mountain Trail. 303 00:25:18,900 --> 00:25:21,100 Our lives became turned upside down 304 00:25:21,100 --> 00:25:24,300 and backwards, Sylvia. 305 00:25:24,300 --> 00:25:27,500 We had no other choice than moving forward. 306 00:25:27,500 --> 00:25:29,300 Up. 307 00:25:29,300 --> 00:25:30,600 Laterally. 308 00:25:34,600 --> 00:25:38,900 I was sent to live with a childless couple in Canberra, 309 00:25:38,900 --> 00:25:42,500 who had won the safest city three years in a row. 310 00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:47,000 Some people even wore wore a helmet when they drove. 311 00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:57,000 In those days, Canberra was not like that exciting place as it is today. 312 00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:04,200 I think "statutory" is wrong words for how I felt. 313 00:26:05,100 --> 00:26:08,100 "Traumatized" was more accurate. 314 00:26:10,100 --> 00:26:13,200 The separation from Gilbert made me anxious. 315 00:26:15,000 --> 00:26:17,400 But you and yours your sister, Sylvia, 316 00:26:17,400 --> 00:26:19,600 gave me some comfort. 317 00:26:22,900 --> 00:26:24,500 Wonderfully. 318 00:26:25,700 --> 00:26:29,200 My new foster parents, Ian and Narelle, 319 00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:32,700 were... ...nice enough. 320 00:26:32,700 --> 00:26:34,000 They were accountants 321 00:26:34,000 --> 00:26:36,400 in a company that which manufactures traffic lights. 322 00:26:36,400 --> 00:26:39,200 They were good at what they did, 323 00:26:39,200 --> 00:26:41,100 and addiction to self-development books. 324 00:26:41,100 --> 00:26:43,700 Huh? 325 00:26:43,700 --> 00:26:46,500 - Good morning! - Good morning! 326 00:26:46,600 --> 00:26:49,700 They believed that a good dose of self-confidence 327 00:26:49,700 --> 00:26:52,500 made everything better. 328 00:26:52,500 --> 00:26:55,800 Every week they did me a new certificate. 329 00:26:55,800 --> 00:26:59,200 Our little baby. Oh, we are so proud! 330 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:01,900 Watch this now. 331 00:27:01,900 --> 00:27:03,200 My finger work! 332 00:27:03,200 --> 00:27:05,900 On weekends they played basketball. 333 00:27:07,300 --> 00:27:09,500 Gracie, you can bring us the ball? 334 00:27:09,500 --> 00:27:11,800 They tried to get me to play too. 335 00:27:14,300 --> 00:27:15,900 Now we drive. 336 00:27:18,200 --> 00:27:19,200 In the bag! 337 00:27:19,200 --> 00:27:20,600 Whoa! 338 00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:21,800 Oh no! 339 00:27:23,200 --> 00:27:25,300 Ian! Ian! What... happened to him? 340 00:27:25,300 --> 00:27:27,700 - You're right, honey. - Darling? 341 00:27:27,700 --> 00:27:29,400 He's turning blue! 342 00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:30,700 Once upon a time faked asthma attacks. 343 00:27:30,700 --> 00:27:33,300 Hi Narelle, take your buffer with you! 344 00:27:33,300 --> 00:27:35,000 I felt bad for lying, 345 00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:37,600 but sport was one one of my allergies. 346 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:39,300 Are you okay, sweetheart? 347 00:27:39,300 --> 00:27:41,600 Breathe, my pumpkin, breathe! 348 00:27:49,300 --> 00:27:52,900 Their favorite color was beige. 349 00:27:55,200 --> 00:27:58,400 They even had beige guinea pigs. 350 00:27:58,400 --> 00:28:01,500 Okay, we will go now, pumpkin. 351 00:28:02,100 --> 00:28:04,400 - See you later. - Hello then. 352 00:28:05,500 --> 00:28:08,100 SATURDAYS they went to the openers. 353 00:28:08,100 --> 00:28:09,300 Ready, baby? 354 00:28:09,300 --> 00:28:11,400 I look forward to it for tonight, baby. 355 00:28:13,300 --> 00:28:15,500 They were swingers, Sylvia. 356 00:28:15,500 --> 00:28:17,700 Darryl! 357 00:28:23,700 --> 00:28:24,800 It was at that time, 358 00:28:24,800 --> 00:28:28,000 I thought that swinging meant something else. 359 00:28:30,700 --> 00:28:33,300 My new school was predictably bad. 360 00:28:33,300 --> 00:28:34,900 - Grace Poodle! - Huh? 361 00:28:34,900 --> 00:28:36,700 Stop daydreaming. 362 00:28:40,300 --> 00:28:42,400 I tried to make friends. 363 00:28:43,700 --> 00:28:47,800 But Gilbert wasn't there and broke their fingers. 364 00:28:47,800 --> 00:28:49,800 So... Hmm... 365 00:28:49,800 --> 00:28:51,800 I could take the teasing, 366 00:28:51,800 --> 00:28:56,400 I came home and played with my clay friends. 367 00:28:56,400 --> 00:28:59,300 I missed Gilbert like crazy. 368 00:28:59,300 --> 00:29:00,800 We wrote letters to each other, 369 00:29:00,800 --> 00:29:04,600 and I saved every cent I could, to go and see him. 370 00:29:06,300 --> 00:29:09,300 He had been sent to live with a family of fruit farmers 371 00:29:09,300 --> 00:29:11,000 near Perth. 372 00:29:12,500 --> 00:29:15,200 I definitely got a better family, Sylvia. 373 00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:18,000 She hated hers. 374 00:29:19,400 --> 00:29:21,000 Hi Gracie, 375 00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:24,500 my new parents, Ruth and Owen, are weird, 376 00:29:24,500 --> 00:29:26,900 and prays a strange prayer. 377 00:29:35,800 --> 00:29:38,300 They force me to pray four times a day. 378 00:29:39,700 --> 00:29:41,500 They said the more I pray, 379 00:29:41,500 --> 00:29:44,800 the more my father would… the pain of my father's death would go away. 380 00:29:45,700 --> 00:29:50,000 They are really old fashioned, and they don't even own a phone. 381 00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:53,900 We all must have magnets taped to ourselves. 382 00:29:53,900 --> 00:29:56,700 They think it will last our aura in balance 383 00:29:56,700 --> 00:29:59,000 and protects us from the devil. 384 00:30:00,700 --> 00:30:04,500 Ruth is obsessed with with his pair of parrots. 385 00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:08,900 I think she loves them. more than she loves her own children. 386 00:30:12,500 --> 00:30:14,300 Respect the apple! 387 00:30:14,300 --> 00:30:17,800 They have built their own church and school. 388 00:30:19,300 --> 00:30:22,400 Owen is a priest. 389 00:30:22,400 --> 00:30:24,300 Cleanse your soul! 390 00:30:29,000 --> 00:30:33,700 Cast out your demons, and honor your fruit! 391 00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:39,100 Huh? 392 00:30:42,600 --> 00:30:44,300 He has heartburn, 393 00:30:44,300 --> 00:30:46,400 for which he blames the devil. 394 00:30:54,900 --> 00:30:57,700 My new brothers are all idiots. 395 00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:02,300 One of them is always staring. 396 00:31:06,900 --> 00:31:09,800 Worship the baby Jesus! 397 00:31:12,900 --> 00:31:16,500 I have to work in the orchard after school. 398 00:31:16,500 --> 00:31:19,800 The brothers get better job. 399 00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,900 Ruth said that if I will stay become a good orchardist, 400 00:31:24,900 --> 00:31:28,800 I have to start at the bottom and take me up. 401 00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:32,800 I'd rather have a glass. 402 00:31:35,100 --> 00:31:36,100 Hmph! 403 00:31:37,100 --> 00:31:38,100 Ugh! 404 00:31:38,100 --> 00:31:40,500 Anyway, they they can all go fuck themselves, 405 00:31:40,500 --> 00:31:42,500 for as soon as I'm old enough, 406 00:31:42,500 --> 00:31:43,800 and i have money 407 00:31:43,800 --> 00:31:45,700 I'll come and pick you up. 408 00:31:45,700 --> 00:31:49,000 I'll go over it the great burning desert. 409 00:31:50,200 --> 00:31:51,700 We flee to Paris. 410 00:31:51,700 --> 00:31:53,700 I'm going to be a fire eater. 411 00:31:55,300 --> 00:31:58,200 And you will be a great animator! 412 00:32:06,500 --> 00:32:09,200 It will be great. 413 00:32:23,900 --> 00:32:26,200 Gilbert's letter gave me hope, 414 00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:28,900 so i tried to move on, 415 00:32:28,900 --> 00:32:32,400 survive my sorrow in my shoes 416 00:32:32,400 --> 00:32:34,900 as the years passed. 417 00:32:34,900 --> 00:32:36,200 To consume time, 418 00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:39,200 I started volunteering at the local library. 419 00:32:40,600 --> 00:32:45,200 One of my tasks was to wipe away the cheeky drawings the boys made. 420 00:32:45,200 --> 00:32:46,900 Ugh... 421 00:32:46,900 --> 00:32:49,600 That's when I met Pinky for the first time. 422 00:32:51,900 --> 00:32:55,700 I saw her return books to the trash. 423 00:32:55,700 --> 00:32:58,100 She thought it was a return pipe. 424 00:32:58,100 --> 00:33:01,000 And he had done for several months. 425 00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:04,100 - Excuse me? - Huh? 426 00:33:04,100 --> 00:33:05,100 Umm... 427 00:33:05,100 --> 00:33:08,200 He was ashamed when I explained. 428 00:33:08,200 --> 00:33:09,500 Ah, phew. 429 00:33:09,500 --> 00:33:12,000 Don't worry, I won't sign up. 430 00:33:12,000 --> 00:33:14,300 Oh, thank you so much, dear. 431 00:33:14,300 --> 00:33:16,700 Bless your cotton socks. 432 00:33:16,700 --> 00:33:18,400 What's your name again? 433 00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:20,400 Grace Poodle. 434 00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:22,800 Uh, I'm Pinky. 435 00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:24,300 Only Pinky. 436 00:33:24,300 --> 00:33:26,200 Like Cher. 437 00:33:26,200 --> 00:33:28,600 Or Liberace. 438 00:33:28,600 --> 00:33:30,600 Or Prince. 439 00:33:30,600 --> 00:33:33,200 Casanova! 440 00:33:33,200 --> 00:33:34,900 Popeye. 441 00:33:35,800 --> 00:33:38,000 People call me Pinky because of this. 442 00:33:38,000 --> 00:33:40,900 I lost it while dancing in Barcelona. 443 00:33:46,500 --> 00:33:48,200 Ah! 444 00:33:51,900 --> 00:33:54,600 Why are you dressed like an ant? 445 00:33:54,600 --> 00:33:56,600 Oh, um... 446 00:33:57,900 --> 00:33:59,800 No, I'm a snail. 447 00:33:59,800 --> 00:34:01,700 Oh! 448 00:34:01,700 --> 00:34:03,600 It was fun. 449 00:34:03,600 --> 00:34:05,800 I thought I was a pigeon before. 450 00:34:08,100 --> 00:34:10,300 He was a real jerk, 451 00:34:10,300 --> 00:34:14,200 she smelled of ginger and second-hand shops. 452 00:34:17,500 --> 00:34:19,000 Release! 453 00:34:20,100 --> 00:34:22,200 She dressed in manchester, 454 00:34:22,200 --> 00:34:25,800 And on his face was more wrinkles than his coat. 455 00:34:25,800 --> 00:34:27,600 It was hard to know, where the fabric ended 456 00:34:27,600 --> 00:34:29,700 and his skin began. 457 00:34:29,700 --> 00:34:31,600 Except you, Sylvia, 458 00:34:31,600 --> 00:34:34,000 she was my first real friend. 459 00:34:35,100 --> 00:34:37,500 My only true friend. 460 00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:42,000 He had lived an incredible life. 461 00:34:42,000 --> 00:34:45,000 I thought that one day I would be able to make a movie about him. 462 00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:47,800 He had seen the Northern Lights. 463 00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:50,900 Moved in the Dead Sea. 464 00:34:55,400 --> 00:34:58,600 Been exotic dancers in a Schnitzelbar. 465 00:34:58,600 --> 00:34:59,900 Have! 466 00:35:05,600 --> 00:35:07,600 Won a beekeeping competition. 467 00:35:08,300 --> 00:35:10,400 Hey! Now it's my turn. 468 00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:13,200 Bath with the temple cloth. 469 00:35:15,200 --> 00:35:17,500 Enjoyed John Denver… 470 00:35:18,500 --> 00:35:19,700 In a helicopter. 471 00:35:19,700 --> 00:35:22,900 take me home, freeway! 472 00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:27,300 And once... 473 00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:30,300 I played ping pong with Fidel Castro. 474 00:35:33,700 --> 00:35:36,200 He had never been sick. 475 00:35:36,200 --> 00:35:39,000 His secret to longevity was coffee enema 476 00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:41,500 and a daily dose of ginger beer. 477 00:35:44,100 --> 00:35:46,700 He had lived longer than her two husbands. 478 00:35:46,700 --> 00:35:48,400 The first, Hector, 479 00:35:48,400 --> 00:35:51,200 had been dead only a week after their wedding. 480 00:35:51,200 --> 00:35:53,100 Careful, darling. 481 00:35:53,100 --> 00:35:54,300 Ah! 482 00:35:56,200 --> 00:35:57,700 Hell too. 483 00:36:02,500 --> 00:36:06,500 Her second husband, Bill, had been a postman. 484 00:36:07,700 --> 00:36:10,300 Who wrote love letters in her mailbox. 485 00:36:12,100 --> 00:36:13,600 The roses are red, 486 00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:15,400 Orphans are blue, 487 00:36:15,400 --> 00:36:17,000 I am your letter, 488 00:36:17,000 --> 00:36:19,300 You are my stamp. 489 00:36:19,300 --> 00:36:21,000 You are the clouds, 490 00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:23,300 And I am the sky, 491 00:36:23,300 --> 00:36:25,900 Let me shipwreck 492 00:36:25,900 --> 00:36:27,700 between your thighs. 493 00:36:27,700 --> 00:36:29,100 Smile. 494 00:36:32,300 --> 00:36:35,300 Ready for my close up, Mr. DeMille? 495 00:36:37,500 --> 00:36:40,500 They had just begun a hike in Australia... 496 00:36:40,500 --> 00:36:42,600 Just a little to the left, Dear someone. 497 00:36:42,600 --> 00:36:44,300 When nature struck. 498 00:36:44,300 --> 00:36:46,800 Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! 499 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:49,700 No! No! 500 00:36:51,700 --> 00:36:53,400 Hell too. 501 00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:04,000 Careful, children. 502 00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:06,300 He was truly a survivor, 503 00:37:06,300 --> 00:37:08,400 and he had had so many jobs. 504 00:37:09,600 --> 00:37:10,900 Passe! 505 00:37:10,900 --> 00:37:12,800 Pass! 506 00:37:12,800 --> 00:37:14,900 But they never lasted long. 507 00:37:14,900 --> 00:37:17,300 You are fired! 508 00:37:17,300 --> 00:37:19,400 On his 80th birthday, 509 00:37:19,400 --> 00:37:23,600 had he got a job pineapple chunks to advertise. 510 00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:26,200 Oh! Oh! Oh! Oh! 511 00:37:26,200 --> 00:37:29,400 Oh, he had a good one sense of humor. 512 00:37:31,400 --> 00:37:33,800 He drove a dead her dead husband's mail van 513 00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:36,700 and once told me that she she would like to die peacefully in her sleep. 514 00:37:36,700 --> 00:37:39,500 Just like its cousin, who had been a bus driver. 515 00:37:39,500 --> 00:37:43,600 Not by screaming in terror, as his passenger. 516 00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:45,500 I'm not sure if he was joking. 517 00:37:45,600 --> 00:37:47,700 It was hard to decide with him. 518 00:37:49,700 --> 00:37:52,800 His house was wonderful. 519 00:37:55,600 --> 00:37:57,500 It smelled like popcorn and mothballs. 520 00:38:03,300 --> 00:38:06,200 He had a huge a huge trophy collection, 521 00:38:06,200 --> 00:38:09,500 as I soon discovered that they were other people's trophies 522 00:38:09,500 --> 00:38:11,700 which he had found at flea markets. 523 00:38:16,700 --> 00:38:19,600 Post-it notes were everywhere. 524 00:38:19,600 --> 00:38:22,000 He had a terrible memory. 525 00:38:24,600 --> 00:38:26,100 He was afraid of Alzheimer's 526 00:38:26,100 --> 00:38:28,400 and had started tap dancing. 527 00:38:28,400 --> 00:38:30,600 She had read that it prevented dementia. 528 00:38:34,700 --> 00:38:36,100 He didn't believe in banks, 529 00:38:36,100 --> 00:38:38,600 and put their savings in an old tin can. 530 00:38:38,600 --> 00:38:42,300 He said he would keep their secrets too. 531 00:38:42,300 --> 00:38:43,500 You know, Gracie.., 532 00:38:43,500 --> 00:38:47,000 cookie jars rarely contain contains cookies. 533 00:38:47,000 --> 00:38:50,700 I had never seen his mysterious tin can. 534 00:38:50,700 --> 00:38:53,500 He always hid it in different places, 535 00:38:53,500 --> 00:38:56,600 and often couldn't remember where. 536 00:38:57,900 --> 00:39:01,200 His home was too full of plants, 537 00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:06,700 as he later admitted that they were marijuana. 538 00:39:06,700 --> 00:39:10,200 He loved to bake ginger snaps, 539 00:39:10,200 --> 00:39:12,300 for, he said, 540 00:39:12,300 --> 00:39:14,700 they relieved her rheumatoid arthritis. 541 00:39:15,500 --> 00:39:17,600 She also enjoyed gardening, 542 00:39:17,600 --> 00:39:20,300 especially when he when she felt a little unhappy. 543 00:39:20,300 --> 00:39:22,600 He called it The mine of shame. 544 00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:27,200 He wanted his ashes would be sprinkled in his pit of shame, 545 00:39:27,200 --> 00:39:29,300 to return to nature, 546 00:39:29,300 --> 00:39:31,900 to nourish his vegetables. 547 00:39:33,000 --> 00:39:36,000 Gardening fixes everything. 548 00:39:42,700 --> 00:39:44,500 He thought too enjoyed miniature golf, 549 00:39:44,500 --> 00:39:47,100 and had built his own track. 550 00:39:58,600 --> 00:40:02,200 Ha-ha! A hole in one! 551 00:40:02,200 --> 00:40:05,400 But that which made Pinky really special 552 00:40:05,400 --> 00:40:07,200 was what he did every Monday. 553 00:40:07,200 --> 00:40:08,500 Sow, sow. 554 00:40:08,500 --> 00:40:12,700 He visited the lonely and hold their hands. 555 00:40:12,700 --> 00:40:15,700 He said that what the elderly need most 556 00:40:15,700 --> 00:40:17,500 human contact. 557 00:40:17,500 --> 00:40:20,900 He would sit with them calm and quiet. 558 00:40:20,900 --> 00:40:24,900 Something so simple, but so comforting. 559 00:40:25,800 --> 00:40:27,400 - Huh? - Ah! 560 00:40:27,400 --> 00:40:31,000 To a previous ginger mixture also helped. 561 00:40:35,600 --> 00:40:40,000 Pinky told me she never had had to hold their own parents' hands. 562 00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:42,900 She never said why. 563 00:40:42,900 --> 00:40:47,100 Her childhood was a forbidden subject. 564 00:40:47,100 --> 00:40:49,300 Woo-hoo! 565 00:40:50,100 --> 00:40:51,400 You know.., 566 00:40:51,400 --> 00:40:54,700 life isn't about looking back, Gracie. 567 00:40:54,700 --> 00:40:58,200 It is living forward. 568 00:40:58,200 --> 00:41:01,900 He was a jewel in the middle of Canberra's rubble. 569 00:41:01,900 --> 00:41:04,700 He had packed like that so much in his life, 570 00:41:04,700 --> 00:41:07,300 and I hadn't packed anything. 571 00:41:09,700 --> 00:41:12,700 Pinky's friendship helped ease my sorrow, 572 00:41:12,700 --> 00:41:15,100 my feelings of loss. 573 00:41:15,100 --> 00:41:19,400 I think she was the one the medicine I needed, 574 00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:22,100 a vitamin for hope. 575 00:41:24,300 --> 00:41:25,700 It was like hell. 576 00:41:25,700 --> 00:41:28,200 Better luck next time, Gracie. 577 00:41:30,900 --> 00:41:34,100 For years passed, Sylvia. 578 00:41:37,400 --> 00:41:39,100 Besides Pinky, 579 00:41:39,100 --> 00:41:41,000 letter from Gilbert was the only thing 580 00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:43,400 that confirmed my existence. 581 00:41:54,700 --> 00:41:57,500 I missed Gilbert like crazy. 582 00:42:20,900 --> 00:42:25,100 Ian and Narelle was still addicted 583 00:42:25,100 --> 00:42:26,800 on my mental health, 584 00:42:26,900 --> 00:42:28,600 and sent me to me to a self-health course. 585 00:42:28,600 --> 00:42:31,400 What was the point to raise my endorphin levels, 586 00:42:31,400 --> 00:42:35,500 balance my chakra, and clear my third eye. 587 00:42:35,500 --> 00:42:38,800 Ready, done... ...run! 588 00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:40,700 Have! Have! Have! Have! 589 00:42:40,700 --> 00:42:46,500 Have! Have! Have! Have! Have! Have! 590 00:42:46,500 --> 00:42:52,400 Have! Have! Have! Have! Have! Have! 591 00:42:52,400 --> 00:42:54,500 Have! Have! Have! Have! 592 00:42:54,500 --> 00:42:55,700 - Ooh. - Ha! Have! 593 00:42:55,700 --> 00:42:58,300 - Ha! Have! - Hmm. 594 00:42:58,300 --> 00:43:00,700 Ah! Oh, Craig! 595 00:43:00,700 --> 00:43:04,700 - Hmm! Heal me! Heal me! - I'll cure you, Vicky. 596 00:43:04,700 --> 00:43:06,600 - I'll cure you. - Oh, Craig! 597 00:43:07,900 --> 00:43:11,500 - Oh, Craig! - Oh, Vic. 598 00:43:12,600 --> 00:43:16,100 A part of me died during those lessons, sylvia. 599 00:43:29,800 --> 00:43:34,800 To help oneself was was just a superficial, quick fix. 600 00:43:34,800 --> 00:43:37,400 None of it really worked. 601 00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:41,300 I just wanted the country to would stop so I could get out. 602 00:43:43,100 --> 00:43:46,600 Puberty came, and brought his gifts. 603 00:43:47,500 --> 00:43:49,900 I would have loved a boyfriend. 604 00:43:57,100 --> 00:43:58,300 It didn't help 605 00:43:58,300 --> 00:44:00,800 when Pinky got me to go to perm. 606 00:44:29,100 --> 00:44:30,700 Wonderful hairstyle. 607 00:44:32,200 --> 00:44:33,800 Ha-ha! 608 00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:41,500 Pass! 609 00:44:42,200 --> 00:44:44,000 Calm down, my love. 610 00:44:44,000 --> 00:44:45,900 Don't worry about him. 611 00:44:45,900 --> 00:44:47,900 We look great. 612 00:44:47,900 --> 00:44:50,000 Thank God for Pinky. 613 00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:52,600 She became my real one my real foster parent. 614 00:44:52,600 --> 00:44:54,500 Especially when Ian and Narelle 615 00:44:54,500 --> 00:44:56,600 wasn't here much longer. 616 00:44:56,600 --> 00:44:58,600 They had discovered nudist cruises, 617 00:44:58,600 --> 00:45:00,500 and was gone for several weeks at a time. 618 00:45:00,500 --> 00:45:02,800 - Yippee! - Good morning. 619 00:45:02,800 --> 00:45:04,800 Oh, hello! 620 00:45:11,500 --> 00:45:14,500 I still miss the loss of my family, 621 00:45:14,500 --> 00:45:20,300 and I continued to fill the void more and more with snails. 622 00:45:20,600 --> 00:45:25,000 If I saw anything to do with snails, 623 00:45:25,000 --> 00:45:28,100 it had to be mine. 624 00:45:28,100 --> 00:45:31,500 My obsession was flourished, Sylvia. 625 00:45:31,500 --> 00:45:35,400 My room had become a snail... ...a shrine. 626 00:45:35,400 --> 00:45:39,300 I had become a snail collector. 627 00:45:45,000 --> 00:45:48,000 Oh, I missed Gilbert so much. 628 00:45:49,400 --> 00:45:52,000 His letter still gave me hope, 629 00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:54,900 but he began to worry me. 630 00:45:54,900 --> 00:45:57,300 I felt he wasn't told me everything. 631 00:45:58,000 --> 00:45:59,700 Dear Gracie, 632 00:45:59,700 --> 00:46:03,600 life in the Garden of Eden is not is certainly not the Garden of Eden. 633 00:46:03,600 --> 00:46:06,600 Gilbert! Back to work! 634 00:46:06,600 --> 00:46:09,900 Ruth shows is against me 635 00:46:09,900 --> 00:46:11,800 but i don't care. 636 00:46:11,800 --> 00:46:14,200 - Sorry, Ruth. - Ugh! 637 00:46:14,200 --> 00:46:19,500 Oh, and she hates me calling her that Ruth instead of mother. 638 00:46:19,500 --> 00:46:22,600 And she hates that I don't let Owen shave my head. 639 00:46:24,000 --> 00:46:27,400 They make me work really hard really hard for crap money. 640 00:46:29,500 --> 00:46:31,300 There is no one here.., to talk to. 641 00:46:33,400 --> 00:46:34,900 I try to be friendly, 642 00:46:34,900 --> 00:46:38,200 but their strange religion brainwashed them all. 643 00:46:39,600 --> 00:46:42,200 The brothers really hate me. 644 00:46:43,100 --> 00:46:44,900 Sun ten. 645 00:46:58,400 --> 00:47:00,800 Owen forces me to read the Bible, 646 00:47:00,800 --> 00:47:02,700 and Ruth... 647 00:47:02,700 --> 00:47:04,400 makes me eat meat. 648 00:47:04,400 --> 00:47:06,300 Hello, pigs. 649 00:47:12,600 --> 00:47:13,900 Eat it! 650 00:47:13,900 --> 00:47:16,600 He has blocked me from playing with fire. 651 00:47:16,600 --> 00:47:21,400 He is crazy and he thinks, that magic is the vice of the devil. 652 00:47:21,400 --> 00:47:22,800 And he always tries to glue 653 00:47:22,800 --> 00:47:26,600 more and more magnets on me to harvest my aura. 654 00:47:26,600 --> 00:47:28,400 But I don't care. 655 00:47:28,400 --> 00:47:33,200 I will hide behind the church to practice my stories, 656 00:47:33,200 --> 00:47:35,200 with one of the brothers, 657 00:47:35,200 --> 00:47:37,800 who... ...seems to like me. 658 00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:43,000 Ruth claims that Lucifer trying to take over my soul. 659 00:47:44,700 --> 00:47:46,800 So they tried to baptize me, 660 00:47:46,800 --> 00:47:48,800 to cast out the demon! 661 00:48:02,700 --> 00:48:04,300 Dive in 662 00:48:04,300 --> 00:48:07,400 and purge your demon! 663 00:48:07,400 --> 00:48:08,900 Ugh! 664 00:48:09,900 --> 00:48:12,400 I pretended to be possessed. 665 00:48:12,400 --> 00:48:15,400 I hid some of Owen's stomach acid medicine in my pockets. 666 00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:18,500 - Oh, dear someone! - Ooh... 667 00:48:18,500 --> 00:48:20,400 It was fun. 668 00:48:23,200 --> 00:48:24,800 Ben loved it. 669 00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:34,400 Ruth always tries to control me. 670 00:48:34,400 --> 00:48:36,800 She even tried to drug me. 671 00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:44,100 Eat it. 672 00:48:46,000 --> 00:48:47,300 Hmm. 673 00:49:00,400 --> 00:49:02,100 But I'm not stupid. 674 00:49:03,900 --> 00:49:06,800 I hid the pills in my cheeks. 675 00:49:08,700 --> 00:49:12,100 Ruth says, Jesus love is not free. 676 00:49:12,100 --> 00:49:14,900 So what money do we deserve? ...do we deserve, Gracie? 677 00:49:14,900 --> 00:49:16,700 Go back to Jesus. 678 00:49:16,800 --> 00:49:18,600 Back to Jesus. 679 00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:21,200 Back to Jesus. 680 00:49:26,700 --> 00:49:30,600 You slander Jesus. You are slandering Jesus. 681 00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:32,700 It's a good boy. 682 00:49:34,800 --> 00:49:36,300 Huh? 683 00:49:42,100 --> 00:49:45,300 Gilbert! 684 00:49:47,200 --> 00:49:51,100 And Jesus then gives returns the money to Owen. 685 00:49:52,600 --> 00:49:55,400 Thank you so much, Jesus. 686 00:49:55,400 --> 00:49:57,300 And for his vices. 687 00:49:59,300 --> 00:50:03,600 Hi, Owen, how are you? The usual? 688 00:50:09,600 --> 00:50:11,400 Good night. Good night. 689 00:50:15,500 --> 00:50:19,000 You pray to Jesus, and whiskey for Owen. 690 00:50:19,100 --> 00:50:21,200 Hmm! 691 00:50:30,000 --> 00:50:31,800 Ah! 692 00:50:31,800 --> 00:50:34,000 They are so hypocritical! 693 00:50:35,100 --> 00:50:36,800 But I made them pay for it. 694 00:50:36,800 --> 00:50:40,000 Run free, guys. Come on now! Running! 695 00:50:47,000 --> 00:50:49,100 I hate this place. 696 00:50:49,100 --> 00:50:50,900 No, no, no! 697 00:50:50,900 --> 00:50:53,200 - My bird! - Huh. 698 00:50:54,100 --> 00:50:56,100 And I hate him. 699 00:50:57,400 --> 00:50:59,400 He punished me. 700 00:50:59,400 --> 00:51:01,100 In the right way. 701 00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:11,200 Hold him tight. 702 00:51:13,300 --> 00:51:17,000 Sinners must be punished, Gilbert! 703 00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:19,900 3. Deuteronomy 24 - an eye for an eye, 704 00:51:19,900 --> 00:51:22,100 tooth by tooth. 705 00:51:24,900 --> 00:51:28,300 You shall bite the devil of wicked joy! 706 00:51:28,300 --> 00:51:32,400 He punished me, but it didn't bother me. 707 00:51:32,400 --> 00:51:33,800 I feel fine. 708 00:51:35,700 --> 00:51:38,300 Anyway, I have to better go. 709 00:51:39,600 --> 00:51:42,100 I will save my money and get get away soon. 710 00:51:42,100 --> 00:51:44,800 I will cross the desert and come to you. 711 00:51:58,100 --> 00:52:00,100 Stay strong, Gracie. 712 00:52:01,400 --> 00:52:03,300 It's okay. 713 00:52:05,100 --> 00:52:06,900 I'll see you again soon. 714 00:52:06,900 --> 00:52:08,400 Hopefully. 715 00:52:08,500 --> 00:52:11,400 Hugs, Gilbert. 716 00:52:21,600 --> 00:52:24,900 Puberty finally ended his cruelty, Sylvia. 717 00:52:25,900 --> 00:52:28,700 Teinyde's era was coming to an end. 718 00:52:29,800 --> 00:52:31,200 Oh, bubbles! 719 00:52:31,200 --> 00:52:33,100 But life Became even more lonely 720 00:52:33,100 --> 00:52:37,300 When Ian and Narelle retired to a nudist colony in Sweden. 721 00:52:38,600 --> 00:52:41,000 It's a shame we never really got in touch. 722 00:52:41,000 --> 00:52:43,700 But what a family we had, 723 00:52:43,700 --> 00:52:45,900 was now also gone. 724 00:52:45,900 --> 00:52:47,800 Is that your leg? 725 00:52:51,500 --> 00:52:53,700 Despite my worries, Sylvia, 726 00:52:53,700 --> 00:52:55,800 I tried to be optimistic, 727 00:52:55,800 --> 00:52:57,700 to be more social. 728 00:53:00,300 --> 00:53:03,000 I remember how 729 00:53:03,000 --> 00:53:05,500 there were fascinating people in the library. 730 00:53:06,200 --> 00:53:09,300 But they lived their own lives. 731 00:53:11,200 --> 00:53:14,600 The boyfriend seemed to be a distant fantasy. 732 00:53:16,100 --> 00:53:20,400 I felt invisible, I started to fade away. 733 00:53:27,100 --> 00:53:30,400 Pinky was the only one the color of my life, 734 00:53:30,400 --> 00:53:32,000 still bubbling. 735 00:53:32,000 --> 00:53:34,400 The thought of her handshake 736 00:53:34,400 --> 00:53:36,700 had changed to a full-fledged charity. 737 00:53:36,700 --> 00:53:38,800 He had even hired long-term unemployed 738 00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:40,400 to help out. 739 00:53:42,000 --> 00:53:45,000 We went from house to house... 740 00:53:45,000 --> 00:53:46,700 ...hand in hand. 741 00:53:56,400 --> 00:53:59,000 I think over time.., the loss of my family 742 00:53:59,000 --> 00:54:02,000 in a way... ...froze me. 743 00:54:06,300 --> 00:54:08,500 I thought it was safer to just… 744 00:54:08,500 --> 00:54:11,000 ...to live in a make-believe world. 745 00:54:12,200 --> 00:54:14,200 Oh, Dad would have been disappointed 746 00:54:14,300 --> 00:54:16,800 when I had used myself on spam. 747 00:54:17,700 --> 00:54:21,300 Now it was just me, and some sexy pirates, 748 00:54:21,300 --> 00:54:23,500 and some mischievous guinea pigs 749 00:54:23,500 --> 00:54:26,200 who made fun of my virginity 750 00:54:26,200 --> 00:54:29,600 The stereotype was now perfect, Sylvia. 751 00:54:29,600 --> 00:54:32,100 I had become an unpleasant solitude. 752 00:54:32,100 --> 00:54:35,100 And that guinea pig that covered me 753 00:54:35,100 --> 00:54:37,200 - To the glitter of the lonely man. 754 00:54:43,200 --> 00:54:45,100 As my boredom worsened… 755 00:54:46,400 --> 00:54:49,900 I found new desires within myself. 756 00:54:52,000 --> 00:54:55,700 I added kleptomania to my hobby list. 757 00:54:56,900 --> 00:55:00,900 Buy, collect, constantly stealing 758 00:55:01,000 --> 00:55:04,300 became a cheap ecstasy and distraction 759 00:55:04,300 --> 00:55:06,500 from my normal world… 760 00:55:07,900 --> 00:55:11,500 which slowly began to collapse. 761 00:55:16,000 --> 00:55:19,700 I lost three guinea pigs that night. 762 00:55:22,500 --> 00:55:24,900 I creamed them in the backyard... 763 00:55:25,900 --> 00:55:28,200 and laid their ashes in small jars. 764 00:55:28,200 --> 00:55:31,800 It seemed that I I was building a guinea pig rack. 765 00:55:36,000 --> 00:55:39,600 My life had changed really miserable. 766 00:55:39,600 --> 00:55:42,600 And things had gone out of control. 767 00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:46,900 I patiently held my own hand, 768 00:55:46,900 --> 00:55:50,000 and waited for Gilbert to arrive to save me, 769 00:55:50,000 --> 00:55:52,200 while I continued my retreat 770 00:55:52,200 --> 00:55:55,800 my snail trap to the safety of... 771 00:55:56,500 --> 00:55:58,100 ...loneliness, 772 00:55:58,100 --> 00:55:59,600 ...unloved... 773 00:55:59,600 --> 00:56:01,800 ...and imprisoned. 774 00:56:11,200 --> 00:56:14,300 But just when I think on joining a monastery… 775 00:56:15,600 --> 00:56:17,300 became the mess of my life 776 00:56:17,300 --> 00:56:20,200 one of those silver linings. 777 00:56:27,600 --> 00:56:29,700 His name was Ken. 778 00:56:32,300 --> 00:56:36,200 And he was obsessed with his leaf blower. 779 00:56:39,500 --> 00:56:40,700 There he stood, 780 00:56:40,700 --> 00:56:44,000 more delicious than Chicko Roll. 781 00:56:50,000 --> 00:56:51,800 Yeah, hi. 782 00:56:53,900 --> 00:56:56,700 Can I, uh, maybe, uh... 783 00:56:56,700 --> 00:56:59,900 He wanted to know.., if he could blow my paper. 784 00:56:59,900 --> 00:57:02,500 His presence brought hot waves 785 00:57:02,500 --> 00:57:04,600 and sweaty underpants. 786 00:57:04,600 --> 00:57:07,500 It was love at first sight. 787 00:57:07,500 --> 00:57:11,100 He was Canberra's Adonis. 788 00:57:11,100 --> 00:57:13,000 Cadonis. 789 00:57:18,700 --> 00:57:21,200 He was a microwave repairman 790 00:57:21,200 --> 00:57:23,700 and told me that he was extremely shallow 791 00:57:23,700 --> 00:57:25,900 and one-dimensional. 792 00:57:25,900 --> 00:57:29,600 He said that if he were an onion and should I peel away the layers, 793 00:57:29,600 --> 00:57:32,000 if only i could find more onions. 794 00:57:33,000 --> 00:57:34,600 He had hobbies just like me, 795 00:57:34,600 --> 00:57:38,600 and he enjoyed breaking… mend broken bowls. 796 00:57:38,600 --> 00:57:41,400 It was a Japanese art form, called kintsugi, 797 00:57:41,400 --> 00:57:46,000 based on the philosophy that, like the soul, 798 00:57:46,000 --> 00:57:48,300 all things can be fixed 799 00:57:48,300 --> 00:57:51,100 and our cracks are celebrated. 800 00:57:51,100 --> 00:57:53,700 Ken said I did I was a broken glass 801 00:57:53,800 --> 00:57:56,300 and that he would help to heal my wounds, 802 00:57:56,300 --> 00:57:58,500 to fill my cracks. 803 00:58:00,900 --> 00:58:04,300 He was so caring and community-oriented 804 00:58:04,300 --> 00:58:07,500 that he was a lifesaver at a local swimming pool. 805 00:58:07,500 --> 00:58:09,300 Hmmm... 806 00:58:09,400 --> 00:58:11,200 Hi. 807 00:58:12,500 --> 00:58:14,600 He adored me… 808 00:58:14,600 --> 00:58:18,500 and even installed a milkshake machine in my kitchen. 809 00:58:31,300 --> 00:58:33,700 We dated for a month, and then... 810 00:58:33,700 --> 00:58:35,000 What do you think about it? 811 00:58:41,500 --> 00:58:43,100 Oh! 812 00:58:46,300 --> 00:58:49,100 He said that he really loved me. 813 00:58:49,800 --> 00:58:51,700 Loved my quirks. 814 00:58:53,400 --> 00:58:56,400 We celebrate with another milkshake. 815 00:58:56,400 --> 00:58:58,500 He said he would make me something special. 816 00:58:58,500 --> 00:59:02,200 A tablespoon of it. Hmm, cinnamon! 817 00:59:02,200 --> 00:59:03,900 - No, no, no! - What is it? 818 00:59:03,900 --> 00:59:05,300 Oh! In... 819 00:59:06,400 --> 00:59:09,500 - That's my guinea pig. - Oh! 820 00:59:09,500 --> 00:59:11,400 A normal person would would have thought I was crazy, 821 00:59:11,400 --> 00:59:13,300 when I kept them guinea pig's ashes. 822 00:59:14,300 --> 00:59:16,300 But he didn't think so. 823 00:59:17,800 --> 00:59:20,300 He loved me completely, 824 00:59:20,300 --> 00:59:23,100 even my bum and the loose parts. 825 00:59:27,400 --> 00:59:30,500 Yes... Great. Oh yeah! 826 00:59:30,500 --> 00:59:31,900 Oh, yes! 827 00:59:31,900 --> 00:59:33,400 Yeah! Yeah! 828 00:59:33,400 --> 00:59:34,600 Well done, Gracie. 829 00:59:34,600 --> 00:59:35,600 She moved in, 830 00:59:35,600 --> 00:59:38,200 and eventually I lost my virginity. 831 00:59:40,000 --> 00:59:42,400 We were desperate to have children, 832 00:59:43,100 --> 00:59:46,100 but Ken was told he was infertile, 833 00:59:46,100 --> 00:59:49,000 with all these microwave ovens after cooking all these microwaves. 834 00:59:49,000 --> 00:59:51,000 Bad luck. 835 00:59:51,000 --> 00:59:53,300 But I wasn't too disappointed. 836 00:59:53,300 --> 00:59:56,700 I had more than what I could ever hope for, Sylvia. 837 00:59:56,700 --> 00:59:58,200 I had Cadonis, 838 00:59:58,200 --> 01:00:00,300 a herd of guinea pigs... 839 01:00:00,300 --> 01:00:02,900 and lots of snails. 840 01:00:02,900 --> 01:00:04,600 Say cheese, Gracie! 841 01:00:05,900 --> 01:00:07,900 We set a date for the wedding, 842 01:00:07,900 --> 01:00:09,900 and we sent the good news to Gilbert. 843 01:00:09,900 --> 01:00:11,400 Huh? 844 01:00:12,100 --> 01:00:14,100 Oh... Wow! 845 01:00:14,100 --> 01:00:16,600 Hey Ben, guess what? 846 01:00:20,500 --> 01:00:24,100 Who gave him money for a flight from Canberra. 847 01:00:24,100 --> 01:00:27,300 I asked Gilbert to walk me down the aisle. 848 01:00:27,300 --> 01:00:30,800 Pinky would be flower girl. 849 01:00:33,200 --> 01:00:36,000 We would be a family again. 850 01:00:36,000 --> 01:00:38,600 Finally we were able to spread Dad's ashes. 851 01:00:40,800 --> 01:00:43,000 My glass was now filled to the brim, 852 01:00:43,000 --> 01:00:45,600 and silver ounces abounded. 853 01:00:47,000 --> 01:00:49,200 Gilbert was going to live with us. 854 01:00:49,200 --> 01:00:51,700 He was supposed to be here tomorrow! 855 01:00:56,400 --> 01:01:01,800 I had never known myself so happy, so optimistic 856 01:01:29,000 --> 01:01:30,700 Leader. 857 01:01:30,700 --> 01:01:32,600 I will get it. 858 01:01:42,600 --> 01:01:44,400 Oh! 859 01:01:44,400 --> 01:01:47,500 Oh, for you, dear. 860 01:01:51,200 --> 01:01:52,800 Dear Grace, 861 01:01:52,800 --> 01:01:54,500 this is ruth, 862 01:01:54,500 --> 01:01:56,500 Gilbert's foster mother. 863 01:01:56,500 --> 01:01:58,300 I'm sorry to say, 864 01:01:58,300 --> 01:02:01,300 that Gilbert has passed away in a terrible fire. 865 01:02:03,300 --> 01:02:05,200 Our church burned, 866 01:02:05,300 --> 01:02:09,400 and he couldn't escape the flames. 867 01:02:12,400 --> 01:02:17,300 Last week I found Gilbert and my son Ben... 868 01:02:17,300 --> 01:02:19,400 ...very close together. 869 01:02:25,000 --> 01:02:26,500 Lucifer! 870 01:02:26,500 --> 01:02:28,700 I am sure you will agree… ...that our only course of action... 871 01:02:28,700 --> 01:02:33,200 where to clean and repair their homosexual disease 872 01:02:33,200 --> 01:02:34,700 in the right way, 873 01:02:34,700 --> 01:02:37,500 as the Lord has commanded… 874 01:02:37,500 --> 01:02:39,500 our Savior. 875 01:02:40,300 --> 01:02:42,800 This was not an easy task. 876 01:02:42,800 --> 01:02:46,600 We just couldn't pray away homosexuality. 877 01:02:46,600 --> 01:02:50,200 So the only solution was a double expulsion 878 01:02:50,200 --> 01:02:52,700 to cast out the demons, 879 01:02:52,700 --> 01:02:55,100 to remove the devil from their souls, 880 01:02:55,100 --> 01:02:57,500 and correct their aura. 881 01:02:57,500 --> 01:03:00,400 Out, out, evil! 882 01:03:00,400 --> 01:03:02,400 Out, out, Satan! 883 01:03:02,400 --> 01:03:05,100 Sooo! 884 01:03:06,900 --> 01:03:10,200 The time has come! 885 01:03:10,200 --> 01:03:13,000 Cleanse their souls! 886 01:03:14,900 --> 01:03:17,100 Cleanse their disease. 887 01:03:20,000 --> 01:03:22,500 Homosexuality, out! 888 01:03:23,200 --> 01:03:25,600 Out, homosexuality! 889 01:03:25,600 --> 01:03:27,700 Purify their souls! 890 01:03:27,700 --> 01:03:30,500 Out, out, Lucifer! 891 01:03:31,700 --> 01:03:34,100 Cast out your demons, 892 01:03:34,100 --> 01:03:36,800 and shock away homosexuality! 893 01:03:43,100 --> 01:03:46,000 Ahhhhhh! 894 01:04:00,100 --> 01:04:01,900 Now that's enough! 895 01:04:03,500 --> 01:04:05,800 Excellent, excellent! 896 01:04:05,800 --> 01:04:10,700 I am happy to say that for my son this was a success. 897 01:04:10,700 --> 01:04:12,300 But your brother... 898 01:04:12,300 --> 01:04:13,400 Ah! 899 01:04:13,400 --> 01:04:15,900 The devil refused to go. 900 01:04:15,900 --> 01:04:20,100 And being so drunk Satan, yes, 901 01:04:21,500 --> 01:04:23,400 Ah! 902 01:04:23,400 --> 01:04:26,300 He attacked me. 903 01:04:26,300 --> 01:04:29,800 Lucifer! 904 01:04:38,500 --> 01:04:40,300 Take care of him. 905 01:04:42,500 --> 01:04:44,600 Look, angel. 906 01:04:44,600 --> 01:04:46,200 Huh? 907 01:04:49,300 --> 01:04:52,100 Liar! 908 01:04:55,600 --> 01:04:57,300 You Judas! 909 01:04:58,400 --> 01:05:00,700 He runs away! Catch him. 910 01:05:11,800 --> 01:05:16,200 He will take him. ran to our church 911 01:05:16,200 --> 01:05:18,100 and lit it on fire! 912 01:05:46,500 --> 01:05:48,200 No! No! 913 01:05:48,200 --> 01:05:50,000 Gilbert, stop! 914 01:05:59,700 --> 01:06:02,300 Then he sacrificed himself, 915 01:06:02,400 --> 01:06:05,800 to pay for their sins. 916 01:06:05,800 --> 01:06:07,800 We tried to save him, 917 01:06:07,800 --> 01:06:11,000 but the inferno was too powerful. 918 01:06:11,000 --> 01:06:13,800 The good Lord took his soul. 919 01:06:16,700 --> 01:06:18,600 Let me out! 920 01:06:20,200 --> 01:06:23,600 And Lucifer lost the battle. 921 01:06:39,900 --> 01:06:43,200 Now purified, and a child with Jesus. 922 01:06:43,200 --> 01:06:45,100 We had a memorial for him, 923 01:06:45,100 --> 01:06:47,800 and we are sure he is in a happier place now, 924 01:06:47,800 --> 01:06:51,100 with God and the baby Jesus. 925 01:06:55,600 --> 01:06:59,000 Please find attached a container with your brother's ashes. 926 01:06:59,000 --> 01:07:01,300 I think it is best.., that you keep it. 927 01:07:01,300 --> 01:07:05,900 Again, I'm sorry I have bearer of such tragic news. 928 01:07:05,900 --> 01:07:07,800 Gilbert was a good soul, 929 01:07:07,800 --> 01:07:12,800 which, sadly, fell of hideous temptations. 930 01:07:12,800 --> 01:07:15,000 We will always pray for him, 931 01:07:15,000 --> 01:07:16,500 as well as for you. 932 01:07:16,500 --> 01:07:20,400 My deepest condolences, Ruth and Owen Appleby. 933 01:07:31,500 --> 01:07:35,100 The loss of a twin is is like losing an eye, Sylvia. 934 01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:40,300 You never see the world in the same way again. 935 01:07:42,300 --> 01:07:46,000 Sorrow is emptiness, 936 01:07:46,000 --> 01:07:49,000 leaving the metallic the taste in your mouth, 937 01:07:49,000 --> 01:07:51,700 puts stones in your stomach. 938 01:07:53,500 --> 01:07:55,400 No tears are shed. 939 01:07:56,200 --> 01:07:57,700 They are too scared. 940 01:07:58,900 --> 01:08:01,700 I no longer believed on the silver rims 941 01:08:01,700 --> 01:08:04,000 or glasses half full. 942 01:08:04,000 --> 01:08:06,200 My glasses were cracked. 943 01:08:06,900 --> 01:08:08,900 I had lost my mother, 944 01:08:08,900 --> 01:08:10,700 my father, 945 01:08:10,700 --> 01:08:12,300 my brother. 946 01:08:20,200 --> 01:08:23,500 Luckily I had Pinky. 947 01:08:23,500 --> 01:08:24,800 Hi, Gracie. 948 01:08:24,800 --> 01:08:26,500 And Ken. 949 01:08:26,500 --> 01:08:30,300 His love spoons kept me going. 950 01:08:33,100 --> 01:08:35,300 But, strangely enough, 951 01:08:35,300 --> 01:08:39,300 seemed my slugs to be my real family. 952 01:08:39,300 --> 01:08:42,800 Real ones protect each other when they are threatened. 953 01:08:42,800 --> 01:08:45,300 Survival in numbers. 954 01:08:48,000 --> 01:08:52,700 I was emotionally attached to every single one of them. 955 01:08:52,700 --> 01:08:57,400 Therefore, I could never.., ever throw away any of you. 956 01:08:58,700 --> 01:09:01,600 So I kept buying, 957 01:09:01,600 --> 01:09:03,500 add... 958 01:09:03,500 --> 01:09:05,400 ...and steal. 959 01:09:16,000 --> 01:09:17,100 Eventually... 960 01:09:17,100 --> 01:09:19,000 Excuse me, madam. 961 01:09:19,000 --> 01:09:21,100 I was caught. 962 01:09:21,100 --> 01:09:23,700 The shame was overwhelming. 963 01:09:26,600 --> 01:09:29,000 And there were consequences. 964 01:09:34,000 --> 01:09:36,000 Oh, Gracie. 965 01:09:44,500 --> 01:09:46,100 And then... 966 01:09:47,400 --> 01:09:49,700 ...it got even worse. 967 01:09:51,000 --> 01:09:52,700 Love can be blinding. 968 01:09:52,700 --> 01:09:54,800 Huh? 969 01:09:54,800 --> 01:09:58,900 It can hide darkness and horror. 970 01:10:03,900 --> 01:10:07,500 It seemed like Ken's onion had stock. 971 01:10:07,500 --> 01:10:09,400 He didn't love me. 972 01:10:10,400 --> 01:10:12,700 He loved MY FLESH! 973 01:10:19,600 --> 01:10:22,600 He had some sort of... fetish. 974 01:10:23,800 --> 01:10:25,500 He didn't want to cook my dish. 975 01:10:25,500 --> 01:10:28,200 He wanted to fill it, and fill it, 976 01:10:28,200 --> 01:10:30,100 ...and fill it... 977 01:10:31,000 --> 01:10:32,700 with fat. 978 01:10:32,700 --> 01:10:36,200 There was a thing like me to create a cage for myself. 979 01:10:36,200 --> 01:10:37,700 A little duck, for luck. 980 01:10:37,700 --> 01:10:41,100 It was another thing to someone else caught me. 981 01:10:41,100 --> 01:10:42,200 Nice one, Gracie. 982 01:10:42,200 --> 01:10:45,100 I knew he was ...admired my... ...my sense of grandeur. 983 01:10:45,100 --> 01:10:46,600 But this was something more. 984 01:10:46,600 --> 01:10:48,900 Oh yeah! It was nice. 985 01:10:48,900 --> 01:10:53,400 He said he loved me more the older I got, 986 01:10:53,400 --> 01:10:55,900 and now I knew why. 987 01:10:55,900 --> 01:10:58,900 What an idiot I was. 988 01:10:58,900 --> 01:11:01,100 But not for long. 989 01:11:15,300 --> 01:11:17,000 Oh! 990 01:11:30,300 --> 01:11:31,900 Sorry, Gracie. 991 01:11:50,700 --> 01:11:54,400 Pinky moved in with me and tended my wounds. 992 01:11:54,400 --> 01:11:56,700 I had read that snails go into ideas 993 01:11:56,700 --> 01:11:59,600 when they need it to repair themselves. 994 01:11:59,600 --> 01:12:01,900 I slept for a week, 995 01:12:01,900 --> 01:12:04,200 and fought my demons. 996 01:12:22,000 --> 01:12:24,200 Uhhhhhh! 997 01:12:27,600 --> 01:12:29,700 I hated myself. 998 01:12:29,700 --> 01:12:33,100 My build up had caused this. 999 01:12:33,100 --> 01:12:34,800 It had kept me poor, 1000 01:12:34,800 --> 01:12:39,600 and being poor had kept me kept me away from Gilbert. 1001 01:12:39,600 --> 01:12:41,100 The money I had wasted, 1002 01:12:41,100 --> 01:12:45,500 could have bought a dozen plane tickets to meet him, Sylvia. 1003 01:12:45,500 --> 01:12:48,200 Now she was dead. 1004 01:12:56,500 --> 01:12:58,300 Gracie. 1005 01:13:02,000 --> 01:13:03,400 Here's your lunch. 1006 01:13:05,000 --> 01:13:07,700 Pinky put me on a strict diet. 1007 01:13:08,500 --> 01:13:11,700 And life was a little more bearable. 1008 01:13:12,800 --> 01:13:15,500 As I slowly rose out of my darkness, 1009 01:13:15,500 --> 01:13:19,300 I began to notice how much Pinky had aged. 1010 01:13:19,300 --> 01:13:23,800 I will never forget it the day i discovered 1011 01:13:23,800 --> 01:13:26,300 that she had a memory symptoms of a memory disorder, 1012 01:13:26,300 --> 01:13:27,900 when I caught him trying to do it, 1013 01:13:27,900 --> 01:13:32,000 what he thought was a puzzle of a cock. 1014 01:13:33,100 --> 01:13:36,200 There were only a few ...a few months ago, Sylvia. 1015 01:13:37,900 --> 01:13:40,800 She was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease, 1016 01:13:40,800 --> 01:13:43,300 and she went into rapid decline. 1017 01:13:43,300 --> 01:13:45,400 Pinky, what are you doing? 1018 01:13:45,400 --> 01:13:48,200 Looking for something. 1019 01:13:48,200 --> 01:13:49,400 What kind of thing? 1020 01:13:52,900 --> 01:13:54,600 I don't know, I… 1021 01:13:55,400 --> 01:13:56,900 Um... 1022 01:13:59,000 --> 01:14:01,100 The roles were reversed. 1023 01:14:01,100 --> 01:14:04,100 It was my turn to take care of him. 1024 01:14:06,400 --> 01:14:10,200 Ah, my medicine. 1025 01:14:10,200 --> 01:14:15,400 One day he decided, that he wouldn't get out of bed. 1026 01:14:15,400 --> 01:14:19,000 Did I tell you about it? that I don't remember? 1027 01:14:19,000 --> 01:14:22,900 The thing I'm looking for but i don't know what it is? 1028 01:14:22,900 --> 01:14:26,200 Oh, my stupid brain. 1029 01:14:26,200 --> 01:14:28,100 Stupid disease. 1030 01:14:28,100 --> 01:14:30,900 What was that German's the german guy's name 1031 01:14:30,900 --> 01:14:32,900 whose disease did i get? 1032 01:14:32,900 --> 01:14:35,800 Uh... Guggenheimers? 1033 01:14:35,800 --> 01:14:38,700 Yes, Guggenheimers. 1034 01:14:38,700 --> 01:14:40,800 Relax, Pinky. 1035 01:14:40,800 --> 01:14:42,400 It doesn't matter. 1036 01:14:43,400 --> 01:14:45,100 Oh, Gracie. 1037 01:14:45,100 --> 01:14:48,300 Such a wonderful friend. 1038 01:15:17,700 --> 01:15:20,700 Bye, Pinky. 1039 01:15:26,600 --> 01:15:28,700 Potato! 1040 01:15:32,900 --> 01:15:35,300 Potato? 1041 01:15:35,300 --> 01:15:37,700 Potatoes... 1042 01:15:37,700 --> 01:15:39,000 Pinkie... 1043 01:15:39,000 --> 01:15:41,200 Pinky, what do you mean? 1044 01:15:42,500 --> 01:15:44,200 Oh... 1045 01:15:45,000 --> 01:15:47,200 Oh, Pinky. 1046 01:16:17,800 --> 01:16:20,400 Bye, Pinky. 1047 01:16:45,000 --> 01:16:47,400 Be free, Sylvia. 1048 01:17:09,100 --> 01:17:12,800 Potato? Potato? Potato? 1049 01:17:12,800 --> 01:17:15,500 Sylvia... Ugh. 1050 01:17:15,500 --> 01:17:18,500 Maybe that's what she wanted for his last meal? 1051 01:17:21,500 --> 01:17:23,900 Oh damn life! 1052 01:17:23,900 --> 01:17:26,400 Ugh! Oh damn life. 1053 01:17:26,400 --> 01:17:27,900 Yes... 1054 01:17:27,900 --> 01:17:31,500 Such a stupid, stupid puzzle! 1055 01:17:31,500 --> 01:17:33,100 Hell too! 1056 01:17:37,200 --> 01:17:39,000 I'm so lonely. 1057 01:17:39,000 --> 01:17:42,700 So... So lonely. 1058 01:17:53,600 --> 01:17:56,200 Rabbit face, rabbit face, 1059 01:17:56,200 --> 01:17:58,300 ...bunny face, bunny face... 1060 01:17:58,300 --> 01:17:59,600 Good, Gracie. 1061 01:17:59,600 --> 01:18:01,300 - Grace Poodle! - Good haircut! 1062 01:18:01,300 --> 01:18:04,000 Come to Come on, you two. Now we go. 1063 01:18:04,100 --> 01:18:06,100 I hate this place. 1064 01:18:06,100 --> 01:18:08,000 I'll be out soon, 1065 01:18:08,000 --> 01:18:09,700 I cross the desert and come to you. 1066 01:18:09,700 --> 01:18:11,500 It's sad to say, 1067 01:18:11,500 --> 01:18:14,500 that Gilbert is dead in a terrible fire... 1068 01:18:14,500 --> 01:18:17,000 fire.., fire, fire, fire, fire... 1069 01:18:34,500 --> 01:18:36,700 Potatoes! 1070 01:18:40,200 --> 01:18:42,500 Potatoes... Potatoes! Potato! 1071 01:19:04,600 --> 01:19:06,400 Dear Grace, 1072 01:19:06,400 --> 01:19:11,400 if you are reading this, then ...am I dead as a monk, 1073 01:19:11,400 --> 01:19:14,200 and you have found my cookie jar 1074 01:19:14,200 --> 01:19:18,300 and some things like I want you to have. 1075 01:19:18,300 --> 01:19:20,800 You have been sleeping for days, 1076 01:19:20,800 --> 01:19:24,200 and I have to tell you important things 1077 01:19:24,200 --> 01:19:26,900 before my brain rots completely. 1078 01:19:28,500 --> 01:19:32,300 Oh, getting older is so miserable. 1079 01:19:32,300 --> 01:19:34,900 Sneaks up on you without you even knowing it. 1080 01:19:34,900 --> 01:19:38,500 One day, you will hawk your teeth in an apple... 1081 01:19:40,100 --> 01:19:42,000 ...and they stay. 1082 01:19:43,500 --> 01:19:47,000 The right wrinkles in your tights, 1083 01:19:47,000 --> 01:19:50,700 and then you notice.., that you don't have them. 1084 01:19:50,700 --> 01:19:52,200 Oh. 1085 01:19:52,200 --> 01:19:55,500 Anyway, I'm talking about it on the sidelines. 1086 01:19:55,500 --> 01:19:57,700 My secret. 1087 01:19:58,400 --> 01:20:01,200 First of all, I'm an orphan, 1088 01:20:01,200 --> 01:20:04,000 and I grew up in an orphanage, 1089 01:20:04,000 --> 01:20:06,600 after the Great War. 1090 01:20:06,600 --> 01:20:08,800 It was a horrible place, 1091 01:20:08,800 --> 01:20:12,500 where I was held in bed day and night. 1092 01:20:13,300 --> 01:20:16,300 I was never held or hugged. 1093 01:20:16,300 --> 01:20:18,400 The only contact, 1094 01:20:18,400 --> 01:20:21,500 a little boy next to me. 1095 01:20:21,500 --> 01:20:26,400 No, I'm not going to tell you the horrors I remember, 1096 01:20:26,400 --> 01:20:27,900 But I want to tell you 1097 01:20:27,900 --> 01:20:31,800 what it's like to feel like a prisoner, 1098 01:20:31,800 --> 01:20:33,600 in a cage. 1099 01:20:33,600 --> 01:20:37,000 It was simply terrible. 1100 01:20:37,000 --> 01:20:39,800 But back in the day.., 1101 01:20:39,800 --> 01:20:43,700 I have learned that the worst cages 1102 01:20:43,700 --> 01:20:48,600 are those who we create for ourselves. 1103 01:20:48,600 --> 01:20:52,900 You have created a cage for yourself, Gracie. 1104 01:20:54,000 --> 01:20:57,800 Your cage never has ...never been locked... 1105 01:20:57,900 --> 01:21:01,200 but your fears are has kept you trapped. 1106 01:21:04,700 --> 01:21:07,800 Get rid of the snails! 1107 01:21:08,600 --> 01:21:11,600 Free yourself. 1108 01:21:11,600 --> 01:21:14,700 You got rid of that creepy Ken. 1109 01:21:14,700 --> 01:21:19,100 Now is the time for you to peel back your shell. 1110 01:21:19,100 --> 01:21:21,300 Give up your collection. 1111 01:21:23,100 --> 01:21:24,800 Start all over again. 1112 01:21:25,700 --> 01:21:29,400 A little self-pity is OK, 1113 01:21:29,400 --> 01:21:31,700 but it is time to move on. 1114 01:21:32,800 --> 01:21:35,100 There will be pain, 1115 01:21:35,100 --> 01:21:37,400 but that's life. 1116 01:21:37,400 --> 01:21:40,500 You have to face it head on. 1117 01:21:40,500 --> 01:21:42,400 Be brave. 1118 01:22:31,500 --> 01:22:36,300 Anyway, I want to thank you, Gracie. 1119 01:22:36,300 --> 01:22:38,700 You have been brilliant. 1120 01:22:38,700 --> 01:22:43,200 It won't be long before that my number is up. 1121 01:22:43,200 --> 01:22:46,700 It's time to draw the curtain. 1122 01:22:46,700 --> 01:22:49,400 For the first time in my life, 1123 01:22:49,400 --> 01:22:52,600 I feel older than I look. 1124 01:22:52,600 --> 01:22:55,100 And I look like a testicle. 1125 01:22:56,200 --> 01:22:58,600 Life is a beautiful vortex 1126 01:22:58,600 --> 01:23:02,800 that must be experienced. 1127 01:23:02,800 --> 01:23:06,800 It's about small pleasures, 1128 01:23:06,800 --> 01:23:11,600 like smoking a cigar in the rain. 1129 01:23:13,800 --> 01:23:18,200 Or wearing a sweater directly from the dryer. 1130 01:23:19,000 --> 01:23:20,800 Enough talking. 1131 01:23:20,800 --> 01:23:25,500 It's time for both to let go. 1132 01:23:25,500 --> 01:23:27,700 As I have said, 1133 01:23:27,700 --> 01:23:32,100 can life only be understood in retrospect, 1134 01:23:32,100 --> 01:23:36,400 but we must live it forward. 1135 01:23:36,400 --> 01:23:40,500 Snails never go back their paths, 1136 01:23:40,500 --> 01:23:43,600 they are always moving forward. 1137 01:23:43,600 --> 01:23:47,700 It's time for you to leave some glittering snail tracks 1138 01:23:47,700 --> 01:23:49,900 all over the world. 1139 01:23:51,100 --> 01:23:53,400 And remember, never… 1140 01:23:53,400 --> 01:23:56,200 never go back. 1141 01:24:03,100 --> 01:24:07,100 Up with you all. Order in the court. 1142 01:24:07,100 --> 01:24:11,500 Miss Poodle, your crime is serious. 1143 01:24:11,500 --> 01:24:12,900 Theft is theft, 1144 01:24:12,900 --> 01:24:16,200 regardless of whether it is a diamond or a cucumber. 1145 01:24:16,200 --> 01:24:18,400 And if you forgive the fox for stealing your chickens, 1146 01:24:18,400 --> 01:24:21,000 yes, then he will come steal your sheep. 1147 01:24:23,800 --> 01:24:25,400 But... 1148 01:24:26,600 --> 01:24:28,100 I can see it in your face 1149 01:24:28,100 --> 01:24:30,600 that you are full of of shame and regret. 1150 01:24:31,600 --> 01:24:34,900 And true repentance is is punishment enough. 1151 01:24:34,900 --> 01:24:37,700 I know you are a kind person. 1152 01:24:37,700 --> 01:24:40,900 Like many years ago, a small a little girl showed me kindness 1153 01:24:40,900 --> 01:24:43,500 when I was at my lowest point. 1154 01:24:43,500 --> 01:24:45,200 Ah! Ah... 1155 01:24:45,200 --> 01:24:46,900 Ah. 1156 01:24:46,900 --> 01:24:49,400 Good for you, little pig. 1157 01:24:49,400 --> 01:24:50,600 Good for you. 1158 01:24:50,600 --> 01:24:52,900 The little girl gave me hope and courage 1159 01:24:52,900 --> 01:24:55,300 To start over and escape from my own… 1160 01:24:55,300 --> 01:24:57,700 ...my own vices. 1161 01:24:57,700 --> 01:24:59,000 Oh! 1162 01:24:59,000 --> 01:25:02,000 You might be agile with your fingers, Miss Poodle, 1163 01:25:02,000 --> 01:25:04,300 but I know you have a heart of gold, 1164 01:25:04,300 --> 01:25:07,000 and that you have done many good deeds. 1165 01:25:07,000 --> 01:25:11,900 I free you from your accusations. 1166 01:25:11,900 --> 01:25:14,200 The case is written off. 1167 01:25:14,200 --> 01:25:16,600 Ah! 1168 01:25:36,100 --> 01:25:39,200 Life was hit me a little, 1169 01:25:39,300 --> 01:25:42,700 but the roses smelled better. 1170 01:25:42,700 --> 01:25:47,400 And I finally started to be the person I always wanted to be. 1171 01:25:49,500 --> 01:25:51,400 I made a film about my life. 1172 01:26:11,300 --> 01:26:13,400 It wasn't very good. 1173 01:26:14,200 --> 01:26:16,300 But some people came. 1174 01:26:16,300 --> 01:26:19,400 I even had a question and answer session. Question and answer afterwards. 1175 01:26:19,400 --> 01:26:22,700 Are there... Are there any questions? 1176 01:26:24,800 --> 01:26:26,800 Mmm-mm. 1177 01:26:26,800 --> 01:26:28,900 Hmmm... 1178 01:26:31,900 --> 01:26:33,900 Oh, no. 1179 01:26:33,900 --> 01:26:35,800 Thank you for coming. 1180 01:26:37,000 --> 01:26:38,800 Yes please. 1181 01:26:40,700 --> 01:26:42,300 I have one. 1182 01:26:45,400 --> 01:26:49,100 Do you believe in magic? 1183 01:27:01,400 --> 01:27:03,100 Gilbert? 1184 01:27:03,100 --> 01:27:06,600 Yes, that's me. 1185 01:27:07,600 --> 01:27:10,600 I went through that desert. 1186 01:28:10,700 --> 01:28:13,800 It took me a moment to believe that Gilbert lived… 1187 01:28:21,200 --> 01:28:23,200 How he was ...escaped the fire... 1188 01:28:27,200 --> 01:28:30,500 and how his ashes were just… 1189 01:28:30,500 --> 01:28:32,100 ...ashes. 1190 01:28:33,500 --> 01:28:37,000 His urn now had a new purpose. 1191 01:28:40,200 --> 01:28:43,700 The cycle of life continued. 1192 01:28:43,700 --> 01:28:47,100 And your work was done, Sylvia. 1193 01:28:48,800 --> 01:28:53,000 We were all finally free from our cages. 1194 01:28:57,100 --> 01:29:00,600 And also about our family had shrunk a little... 1195 01:29:02,600 --> 01:29:04,900 ...were we together again... 1196 01:29:11,000 --> 01:29:15,100 just one thing was still left to drop. 1197 01:29:22,800 --> 01:29:26,000 Gilbert still stank of burnt matches. 1198 01:29:27,600 --> 01:29:31,300 The setting sun caressed our skin, 1199 01:29:31,300 --> 01:29:33,300 our two souls... 1200 01:29:34,800 --> 01:29:37,500 and a heart.