1 00:01:49,109 --> 00:01:51,401 All of my past washes over me. 2 00:01:54,114 --> 00:01:57,741 All of my past is in this room. 3 00:02:03,164 --> 00:02:05,207 I found you. 4 00:02:07,210 --> 00:02:10,879 All of the women I have been with are eclipsed by you. 5 00:02:15,135 --> 00:02:17,136 I am stripped. 6 00:02:22,183 --> 00:02:24,726 I think of you as my patient. 7 00:02:26,146 --> 00:02:28,856 I treat you. 8 00:02:30,984 --> 00:02:32,901 I'm stripped also. 9 00:02:37,490 --> 00:02:40,075 I searched and searched for you. 10 00:02:42,871 --> 00:02:44,621 I want to know you. 11 00:02:48,501 --> 00:02:50,752 I, like my work, 12 00:02:52,088 --> 00:02:53,881 there are rules. 13 00:02:54,883 --> 00:02:56,717 They protect us. 14 00:02:59,470 --> 00:03:01,513 The movement of your hands. 15 00:03:03,892 --> 00:03:07,603 The rhythm of your hands has become my resting place. 16 00:03:11,482 --> 00:03:13,358 Momentary peace... 17 00:03:15,028 --> 00:03:17,779 so sweetly broken apart. 18 00:03:29,667 --> 00:03:31,418 Take off the mask. 19 00:03:40,637 --> 00:03:42,930 You still have about an hour. 20 00:03:44,349 --> 00:03:46,391 Do you wanna do the piercing? 21 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:51,021 Yeah. 22 00:04:31,396 --> 00:04:33,981 - Aah. - Shh. 23 00:04:41,531 --> 00:04:44,950 It's almost there. 24 00:04:45,118 --> 00:04:47,619 - Do you wanna look? - Sure. 25 00:04:49,455 --> 00:04:52,749 It's a little deeper than last time. 26 00:04:52,917 --> 00:04:54,751 Yeah. 27 00:04:54,919 --> 00:04:57,170 Do you wanna try another one? 28 00:04:57,338 --> 00:05:00,173 Sure. 29 00:05:00,341 --> 00:05:02,801 I love doing this. 30 00:05:23,489 --> 00:05:26,658 It's through. 31 00:05:30,621 --> 00:05:33,040 Hold still now. 32 00:05:33,207 --> 00:05:35,417 - Hold still. - Uh-huh. 33 00:05:51,851 --> 00:05:54,061 This is the best part. 34 00:05:58,149 --> 00:06:00,567 Aah! 35 00:06:31,265 --> 00:06:33,975 I wrote a little note. 36 00:06:34,143 --> 00:06:36,103 As usual. 37 00:06:39,941 --> 00:06:41,691 Remember last week 38 00:06:41,859 --> 00:06:43,610 when the phone lines were all screwed up? 39 00:06:43,778 --> 00:06:46,947 God, yeah. I lost a whole day's work practically. 40 00:06:47,115 --> 00:06:48,532 I was out a lot of money. 41 00:06:48,699 --> 00:06:51,034 I called you that day. 42 00:06:51,202 --> 00:06:54,162 I know, you told me. 43 00:06:54,330 --> 00:06:56,998 I got scared the place had closed down. I... 44 00:06:57,166 --> 00:07:00,836 I worried I would never get in touch with you. 45 00:07:01,003 --> 00:07:03,964 I'm going to quit at the end of the month. 46 00:07:11,514 --> 00:07:14,057 I was thinking we could try... 47 00:07:14,225 --> 00:07:16,643 seeing each other on the outside. 48 00:07:16,811 --> 00:07:18,603 You... 49 00:07:23,109 --> 00:07:24,401 you know I've wanted this for a long time. 50 00:07:24,569 --> 00:07:26,111 Yes, I know. 51 00:07:29,699 --> 00:07:31,116 How should we do this? 52 00:07:33,703 --> 00:07:36,913 Why don't you give me your number and I'll call you? 53 00:07:37,081 --> 00:07:40,125 I'll give you my card. 54 00:08:00,146 --> 00:08:01,855 Mm. 55 00:08:24,086 --> 00:08:27,214 Okay, look. The guy told me 1:00, all right? 56 00:08:27,381 --> 00:08:28,673 - What, do you think I made this up? - No, no, no, no. 57 00:08:28,841 --> 00:08:31,676 I didn't say that. I only said that Jeff does not come in on Fridays, 58 00:08:31,844 --> 00:08:32,969 so there must be some misunderstanding. 59 00:08:33,137 --> 00:08:35,597 - A misunderstanding? - Yes, a misunderstanding. I'm sorry. 60 00:08:37,225 --> 00:08:38,975 Staff meeting was moved up to three today, right? 61 00:08:39,143 --> 00:08:40,560 Uh, yes. 62 00:08:43,022 --> 00:08:44,314 Mail keeps piling up. 63 00:08:46,025 --> 00:08:49,194 Just getting in and you already look like you need a Valium, Peter. 64 00:08:49,362 --> 00:08:51,279 I'll drop by your office later. 65 00:08:51,447 --> 00:08:53,365 So what's going on? 66 00:08:53,533 --> 00:08:56,243 Sorry to bug you about this, but what do you think I should say 67 00:08:56,410 --> 00:08:57,953 to the Oxford people on the phone today? 68 00:08:58,120 --> 00:08:59,746 Uh, about? 69 00:08:59,914 --> 00:09:02,249 Remember the kid who hid himself in the building a couple of weeks ago? 70 00:09:02,416 --> 00:09:03,792 Oh, right. 71 00:09:03,960 --> 00:09:05,669 Well, all I can say is 72 00:09:05,836 --> 00:09:07,796 you must tell them what you already know. 73 00:09:07,964 --> 00:09:10,382 They're gonna cut him off unless you exaggerate what's going on. 74 00:09:10,550 --> 00:09:12,884 What, like claiming he's suicidal? 75 00:09:13,052 --> 00:09:16,638 Well, that depends on how strongly you feel he should stay in therapy. 76 00:09:18,891 --> 00:09:21,518 - Anything else? - No. 77 00:09:21,686 --> 00:09:23,687 Thanks. 78 00:09:28,943 --> 00:09:32,862 Thanks for calling. No messages. 79 00:10:28,169 --> 00:10:29,586 Ooh. 80 00:10:36,761 --> 00:10:39,471 No, no, no, no. Relax, relax, just leave them. 81 00:10:45,519 --> 00:10:47,187 Is there something going on? 82 00:10:47,355 --> 00:10:49,856 You've been kind of hard to talk to these days. 83 00:10:51,484 --> 00:10:53,360 I know, I've been pretty distracted. 84 00:10:53,527 --> 00:10:55,612 Is it the clinic? 85 00:10:55,780 --> 00:10:57,405 In part. 86 00:10:57,573 --> 00:11:02,035 Do you think this has anything to do with May's going away to college? 87 00:11:02,203 --> 00:11:04,829 Doesn't feel that way. 88 00:11:04,997 --> 00:11:08,750 Except her leaving makes me know that I'm older. 89 00:11:08,918 --> 00:11:12,671 I've been pretty preoccupied myself. 90 00:11:12,838 --> 00:11:15,340 Ugh, if I don't finish this book 91 00:11:15,508 --> 00:11:18,093 up in Nova Scotia this summer, I don't know. 92 00:11:18,260 --> 00:11:20,553 It's not just work. 93 00:11:20,721 --> 00:11:22,514 Well, what is it, then? 94 00:11:27,353 --> 00:11:29,354 There's a dominant that I've been seeing. 95 00:11:29,522 --> 00:11:31,648 I mean... I mean, I've been seeing... 96 00:11:31,816 --> 00:11:34,192 one dominant for a while now. 97 00:11:37,238 --> 00:11:40,323 She told me the other day she's gonna stop working. 98 00:11:45,204 --> 00:11:46,746 I've become very... 99 00:11:48,708 --> 00:11:50,542 attached to her. 100 00:11:52,503 --> 00:11:55,088 Is it... 101 00:11:55,256 --> 00:11:57,173 Is it personal or professional, 102 00:11:57,341 --> 00:11:59,551 this attachment you have to her? 103 00:11:59,719 --> 00:12:01,970 - Both. - Both? 104 00:12:03,431 --> 00:12:05,598 We're gonna try to get together for coffee 105 00:12:05,766 --> 00:12:07,434 after she's stopped working. 106 00:12:13,733 --> 00:12:17,277 Are you telling me this to reassure yourself that that's all it'll be? 107 00:12:17,445 --> 00:12:20,488 No, that is all it will be. 108 00:12:23,784 --> 00:12:26,703 I just didn't want you to think it was something else. 109 00:12:26,871 --> 00:12:28,204 I didn't mean to... 110 00:12:28,372 --> 00:12:30,290 I just wanted to tell you. 111 00:12:59,945 --> 00:13:01,362 Hello? 112 00:13:03,199 --> 00:13:05,200 I told you I'd call you. 113 00:13:43,447 --> 00:13:44,739 Hi. 114 00:13:44,907 --> 00:13:47,283 - Sorry, am I late? - No, not at all. 115 00:13:55,209 --> 00:13:56,835 So how you doing? 116 00:13:59,713 --> 00:14:02,423 It's strange seeing you on the outside. 117 00:14:02,591 --> 00:14:04,342 Well, how? 118 00:14:05,761 --> 00:14:07,804 You're uncomfortable, too. I can tell. 119 00:14:07,972 --> 00:14:10,473 I, uh, well, I... I guess I am a little nervous. 120 00:14:10,641 --> 00:14:12,851 That's good. 121 00:14:16,105 --> 00:14:18,439 Oh, um, just a glass of white wine for me, please. 122 00:14:18,607 --> 00:14:20,483 Yeah, I'll have the same. 123 00:14:22,486 --> 00:14:26,364 You said on the phone your wife's gone for the summer? 124 00:14:28,158 --> 00:14:31,870 Yeah, she's up in Nova Scotia writing. 125 00:14:36,959 --> 00:14:40,086 It must be hard on you with your wife gone for so long? 126 00:14:40,254 --> 00:14:42,672 I'm used to it. 127 00:14:42,840 --> 00:14:44,674 She goes there every summer. 128 00:14:46,677 --> 00:14:49,846 Does that mean you've done this before? 129 00:14:50,014 --> 00:14:51,306 Done what? 130 00:14:51,473 --> 00:14:53,850 What we are doing right now. 131 00:14:54,018 --> 00:14:55,602 No... 132 00:14:57,646 --> 00:14:59,939 not with anyone I've ever seen. 133 00:15:02,776 --> 00:15:04,736 - This is stupid. - What? What? 134 00:15:04,904 --> 00:15:07,488 Us talking like this. The whole thing. 135 00:15:07,656 --> 00:15:09,616 - I should go. - Suzanne... 136 00:15:13,996 --> 00:15:15,622 I should go. 137 00:15:18,667 --> 00:15:22,670 I'll never feel comfortable about how we met. 138 00:15:22,838 --> 00:15:25,131 We would never have met in any other way. 139 00:15:30,679 --> 00:15:33,348 That doesn't change the way I feel. 140 00:15:38,354 --> 00:15:39,854 What do you want from me? 141 00:15:42,858 --> 00:15:44,233 Nothing. 142 00:15:44,401 --> 00:15:46,653 Well, that's not true. 143 00:15:46,820 --> 00:15:49,447 I do wanna talk to you. 144 00:15:49,615 --> 00:15:51,824 You wanna know about me. 145 00:15:55,537 --> 00:15:56,955 Yes. 146 00:16:00,459 --> 00:16:04,212 Remember that guy I told you about? The one who liked extreme bondage? 147 00:16:04,380 --> 00:16:06,339 Who? Hog-tie Harry? 148 00:16:08,384 --> 00:16:11,928 Something happened with him about three weeks before I quit. 149 00:16:13,973 --> 00:16:15,682 He was one of my first regulars. 150 00:16:15,849 --> 00:16:18,309 I never really liked him, 151 00:16:18,477 --> 00:16:20,853 but I've always allowed him to see me. 152 00:16:21,021 --> 00:16:24,899 Out of some kind of perverse loyalty, I guess. 153 00:16:25,067 --> 00:16:28,319 But the last time I saw him, it wasn't just that I didn't like him... 154 00:16:28,487 --> 00:16:29,779 he repulsed me. 155 00:16:29,947 --> 00:16:32,699 - What did he ask you to do? - No, no, it's not that. 156 00:16:34,410 --> 00:16:38,663 It's more that I felt that he deserved to be humiliated 157 00:16:38,831 --> 00:16:40,957 like he should be kicked around. 158 00:16:41,125 --> 00:16:44,168 Didn't he feel he deserved to be humiliated? 159 00:16:46,088 --> 00:16:48,673 I liked hurting him, Peter. 160 00:16:50,968 --> 00:16:53,678 Are you saying you never felt this way before? 161 00:16:54,930 --> 00:16:59,183 I discovered I couldn't distance myself from the work. 162 00:16:59,351 --> 00:17:01,060 Was I involved in this? 163 00:17:03,063 --> 00:17:05,565 I knew we had gotten too close. 164 00:17:18,037 --> 00:17:19,912 It's late. 165 00:17:24,626 --> 00:17:26,127 I'm happy here. 166 00:17:31,717 --> 00:17:33,760 I like being with you. 167 00:17:37,306 --> 00:17:40,099 I like being with you, too. 168 00:18:34,571 --> 00:18:37,448 Suzanne, stop. 169 00:18:37,616 --> 00:18:39,075 What's the matter? 170 00:18:41,537 --> 00:18:43,538 Are you enjoying this? 171 00:18:43,705 --> 00:18:45,540 Of course I am. 172 00:18:46,792 --> 00:18:49,043 I wasn't sure. 173 00:19:17,239 --> 00:19:18,614 I'm not available right now. 174 00:19:27,166 --> 00:19:28,624 Who is it? 175 00:19:28,792 --> 00:19:30,501 Robert. 176 00:20:22,387 --> 00:20:25,431 Um... did you decide? 177 00:20:27,142 --> 00:20:28,559 Diana. 178 00:20:34,107 --> 00:20:37,068 - I can take your tribute now. - Yeah, sure. 179 00:20:38,487 --> 00:20:40,446 Here. All right? 180 00:20:40,614 --> 00:20:41,906 - Great. - Good. 181 00:20:42,074 --> 00:20:43,366 Make yourself comfortable. 182 00:20:43,533 --> 00:20:45,576 Take a position and Mistress Diana 183 00:20:45,744 --> 00:20:47,161 - will be with you shortly. - Thank you. 184 00:20:47,329 --> 00:20:48,746 Okay. 185 00:22:02,988 --> 00:22:05,448 You're supposed to be kneeling. 186 00:22:05,615 --> 00:22:07,825 I guess I wanted to talk first. 187 00:22:14,207 --> 00:22:17,084 Kneel in front of me and we'll have a consultation. 188 00:22:29,598 --> 00:22:31,557 What do you like? 189 00:22:31,725 --> 00:22:33,976 I love to be stretched... 190 00:22:35,312 --> 00:22:39,148 on a rack or on the bed, 191 00:22:39,316 --> 00:22:41,442 sometimes across a horse. 192 00:22:42,736 --> 00:22:44,111 I used to take a lot more pain. 193 00:22:44,279 --> 00:22:47,490 I'm into the more erotic parts of this now. 194 00:22:47,657 --> 00:22:49,325 You know what a zipper is? 195 00:22:49,493 --> 00:22:50,910 Yes, I love that, 196 00:22:51,078 --> 00:22:54,330 but what I'm saying is that for the scene to be successful, 197 00:22:54,498 --> 00:22:58,709 I need to be touched where the pain is. 198 00:23:01,380 --> 00:23:02,797 Okay. 199 00:23:18,188 --> 00:23:19,855 Spread your legs out. 200 00:23:22,401 --> 00:23:24,819 More. 201 00:23:24,986 --> 00:23:27,488 - Are you stretched enough? - Yes, thank you. 202 00:23:31,076 --> 00:23:33,994 I have very small nipples. 203 00:23:35,747 --> 00:23:38,082 I think I can find them. 204 00:23:48,802 --> 00:23:50,344 Have you done piercing? 205 00:23:50,512 --> 00:23:52,972 No, that's the only thing I've never tried. 206 00:23:54,224 --> 00:23:57,226 The sight of the needles makes me wanna pass out. 207 00:23:57,394 --> 00:24:00,020 Pity. I love piercing. 208 00:24:45,984 --> 00:24:48,152 That was a terrific session. 209 00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:51,030 Thank you. I had a good time. 210 00:24:52,699 --> 00:24:55,659 What days are you on? 211 00:24:55,827 --> 00:24:58,704 Wednesday afternoon and Thursday and Friday evenings. 212 00:24:58,872 --> 00:25:03,584 But if you call in advance, I can try to arrange to be here on another day. 213 00:25:06,421 --> 00:25:09,381 Robert's not my real name. It's, uh... 214 00:25:11,051 --> 00:25:12,551 it's Peter. 215 00:25:14,429 --> 00:25:18,766 Is Diana your real name? 216 00:25:18,934 --> 00:25:21,727 - What do you think? - I guess not. 217 00:25:24,814 --> 00:25:26,774 - What do you do, Peter? - I'm a... 218 00:25:26,942 --> 00:25:28,692 a therapist. 219 00:25:28,860 --> 00:25:30,486 - Really? - You sound surprised. 220 00:25:32,030 --> 00:25:34,907 Most therapists take a while to admit it. 221 00:25:37,244 --> 00:25:38,953 Are you married? 222 00:25:39,120 --> 00:25:41,330 Yes. 223 00:25:41,498 --> 00:25:45,417 - Do you two play? - No, but she knows that I do it. 224 00:25:45,585 --> 00:25:46,961 Hmm. 225 00:25:48,588 --> 00:25:50,005 We're coming right out. 226 00:25:58,974 --> 00:26:00,224 It's not an affair. 227 00:26:01,226 --> 00:26:03,018 I could never do that. 228 00:26:08,858 --> 00:26:12,027 My husband Chris comes from real wealth, 229 00:26:12,195 --> 00:26:14,238 East Coast Wall Street money, 230 00:26:14,406 --> 00:26:16,949 and he's quite a few years older than I am. 231 00:26:19,035 --> 00:26:22,329 Things are all right between us, but... 232 00:26:23,873 --> 00:26:27,668 I've never actually known any kind of feeling 233 00:26:27,836 --> 00:26:32,131 that could be called ecstasy with him. 234 00:26:32,299 --> 00:26:35,884 I didn't even know what an orgasm was until recently. 235 00:26:38,597 --> 00:26:41,140 We had this huge catered dinner affair, 236 00:26:41,308 --> 00:26:43,976 some of Chris' clients, valet parking and all that. 237 00:26:44,144 --> 00:26:46,645 At some point during the evening, 238 00:26:46,813 --> 00:26:49,648 I was called into the kitchen to resolve some stupid argument 239 00:26:49,816 --> 00:26:52,985 about what food to bring out next and I noticed the room 240 00:26:53,153 --> 00:26:55,946 where the staff had left their things. 241 00:26:56,114 --> 00:26:58,907 And after everyone left the kitchen, 242 00:26:59,075 --> 00:27:00,909 I went into that room, 243 00:27:01,077 --> 00:27:04,622 and I opened one of the backpacks. 244 00:27:04,789 --> 00:27:07,958 And... and I found some change 245 00:27:08,126 --> 00:27:12,129 quarters, dimes, pennies. 246 00:27:14,049 --> 00:27:17,051 I felt like I was gonna faint. 247 00:27:17,218 --> 00:27:20,971 I began to rub the coins together 248 00:27:21,139 --> 00:27:24,767 between my fingers and then I began to dig my nails 249 00:27:24,934 --> 00:27:27,436 into the coin's... flesh, 250 00:27:27,604 --> 00:27:29,146 the surface. 251 00:27:29,314 --> 00:27:31,649 It was like 252 00:27:31,816 --> 00:27:33,984 a series of waves. 253 00:27:34,152 --> 00:27:35,444 That's how I knew. 254 00:27:35,612 --> 00:27:37,613 It must have been wonderful. 255 00:27:37,781 --> 00:27:41,075 - It was. - Have these experiences continued? 256 00:27:41,242 --> 00:27:44,244 Well... 257 00:27:44,412 --> 00:27:46,163 I felt so guilty about it the first time, 258 00:27:46,331 --> 00:27:48,916 I was determined never to do it again. 259 00:27:49,084 --> 00:27:51,043 But I did do it again 260 00:27:51,211 --> 00:27:54,088 and after a while, I stopped feeling guilty about it. 261 00:27:54,255 --> 00:27:57,800 But I... I still would like to know... 262 00:27:59,636 --> 00:28:02,221 why I get my pleasure this way. 263 00:28:02,389 --> 00:28:04,556 Because it is restricted. 264 00:28:04,724 --> 00:28:07,768 Can I ask you a question about something you described? 265 00:28:07,936 --> 00:28:11,063 - Yes. - Did you keep the coins? 266 00:28:15,777 --> 00:28:18,696 Well, I only needed a few at a time. 267 00:28:20,740 --> 00:28:23,158 I never would have given them back. 268 00:28:34,254 --> 00:28:35,838 You didn't buzz first. 269 00:28:36,005 --> 00:28:38,716 I'm sorry, I forgot. 270 00:28:38,883 --> 00:28:42,594 If you don't watch out, you'll lose your key privileges. 271 00:28:43,930 --> 00:28:46,306 I hope you are not serious. 272 00:28:47,851 --> 00:28:49,852 I just like to know you're coming up, that's all. 273 00:28:50,019 --> 00:28:51,937 Not too much to ask, is it? 274 00:28:52,105 --> 00:28:54,231 What are we arguing about here? 275 00:28:54,399 --> 00:28:56,650 My right to privacy. 276 00:28:56,818 --> 00:28:59,236 That's bullshit. 277 00:28:59,404 --> 00:29:03,907 Suzanne, you don't like the way I do anything these days. 278 00:29:06,953 --> 00:29:10,247 Ugh, could you tell whoever it is I'll call them back, please? 279 00:29:16,463 --> 00:29:18,130 Hello? 280 00:29:18,298 --> 00:29:21,508 She's not here right now. Can I take message? 281 00:29:21,676 --> 00:29:24,052 Juno? 282 00:29:25,722 --> 00:29:27,681 And she has your number? 283 00:29:27,849 --> 00:29:30,476 I'll take it. 284 00:29:30,643 --> 00:29:34,354 This is the woman you used to work for, isn't it? 285 00:29:37,817 --> 00:29:39,651 Hi, Juno. 286 00:29:54,042 --> 00:29:57,377 Let's try again. I know you can get it. 287 00:30:07,639 --> 00:30:11,141 F... 288 00:30:11,309 --> 00:30:12,935 free. 289 00:30:17,273 --> 00:30:19,441 - Let's try it another way. - I don't wanna do this. 290 00:30:19,609 --> 00:30:21,693 - Let's just see... - I don't wanna do this! 291 00:30:21,861 --> 00:30:23,362 - Peter... - No! 292 00:30:37,335 --> 00:30:39,002 Hi, you've reached Suzanne. 293 00:30:39,170 --> 00:30:41,588 Please leave a message. 294 00:30:43,091 --> 00:30:45,425 Suzanne, I was... it's Peter. 295 00:30:45,593 --> 00:30:48,095 I was wondering if we could get together later? 296 00:30:48,263 --> 00:30:49,847 Do you think that's a good idea? 297 00:30:50,014 --> 00:30:52,182 I think it's a good idea. Would you call me back when you... 298 00:30:52,350 --> 00:30:54,101 when you get a chance? 299 00:31:02,318 --> 00:31:04,319 Yeah? 300 00:31:04,487 --> 00:31:05,779 Lisa, hi. 301 00:31:05,947 --> 00:31:08,031 I've got one of the Board of Directors up front. 302 00:31:08,199 --> 00:31:09,491 Shit. 303 00:31:09,659 --> 00:31:11,910 I'm not even close to ready with this thing. 304 00:31:12,078 --> 00:31:15,372 I told them I wasn't sure if you'd left yet. 305 00:31:15,540 --> 00:31:17,916 - If you don't mind. - No problem. 306 00:31:18,084 --> 00:31:19,710 Thanks. 307 00:31:49,073 --> 00:31:50,991 You may open your eyes now. 308 00:31:54,704 --> 00:31:56,288 You're fighting it today, Peter. 309 00:31:56,456 --> 00:31:58,332 Yeah, I know. 310 00:31:58,499 --> 00:32:00,375 I know. 311 00:32:02,587 --> 00:32:04,838 Let the control go. Come on, you're experienced. 312 00:32:05,006 --> 00:32:07,674 You know how to do this. 313 00:32:11,095 --> 00:32:12,596 Hey. 314 00:33:03,189 --> 00:33:05,607 You really have runner's legs. 315 00:33:05,775 --> 00:33:07,859 Not too much to grab on to. 316 00:33:21,791 --> 00:33:23,750 Let your body lead the way. 317 00:33:25,503 --> 00:33:27,754 I wanna be taken apart. 318 00:33:40,852 --> 00:33:42,602 Thank you. 319 00:33:46,816 --> 00:33:48,900 Are you ready to worship me? 320 00:33:49,068 --> 00:33:50,610 Yes. 321 00:33:52,822 --> 00:33:54,239 Yes? 322 00:33:55,616 --> 00:33:57,034 Yes. 323 00:34:03,666 --> 00:34:07,961 The year I turned 16 was the most horrible year of my whole life. 324 00:34:10,381 --> 00:34:13,425 We had just arrived from Germany to finally join my father, 325 00:34:13,593 --> 00:34:15,385 but... 326 00:34:15,553 --> 00:34:17,971 my parents' marriage was always a disaster 327 00:34:18,139 --> 00:34:20,474 and he basically left right away. 328 00:34:21,768 --> 00:34:24,561 He came to visit me and my brother sometimes. 329 00:34:25,813 --> 00:34:29,107 And then, some months later, around Christmas, 330 00:34:29,275 --> 00:34:32,861 he just crashed into this truck in the middle of nowhere. 331 00:34:33,029 --> 00:34:35,363 Boom. 332 00:34:35,531 --> 00:34:37,324 Life, I can tell you. 333 00:34:39,035 --> 00:34:40,494 Were you... were you close? 334 00:34:40,661 --> 00:34:42,370 - To him? - Yeah. 335 00:34:42,538 --> 00:34:46,124 I was his favorite. I wanted it to be that way. 336 00:34:46,292 --> 00:34:49,377 I think I even flirted with him. 337 00:34:51,214 --> 00:34:53,131 In fact, I know I did. 338 00:34:55,134 --> 00:34:57,177 - Did anything... - No. 339 00:35:00,598 --> 00:35:03,058 Not with him, 340 00:35:03,226 --> 00:35:07,729 but my mother always hated how close we were. 341 00:35:07,897 --> 00:35:09,231 She was jealous. 342 00:35:09,398 --> 00:35:12,442 She... she always punished everyone 343 00:35:12,610 --> 00:35:14,736 for her own unhappiness her whole life. 344 00:35:14,904 --> 00:35:18,031 Just like she punished me and my brother when my dad died. 345 00:35:21,410 --> 00:35:23,370 She was so cold and removed. 346 00:35:23,538 --> 00:35:24,830 Sometimes when people are in shock... 347 00:35:24,997 --> 00:35:26,623 Look, Peter, I have a therapist. 348 00:35:26,791 --> 00:35:29,167 I talk to her once a week, I don't need another one. 349 00:35:29,335 --> 00:35:32,045 Yeah, yeah, right. 350 00:35:34,799 --> 00:35:38,260 I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be so harsh. 351 00:35:47,103 --> 00:35:48,895 - I should go. - I'll get you a cab. 352 00:35:49,063 --> 00:35:52,566 - No, I like walking. - I'll walk with you. 353 00:35:52,733 --> 00:35:54,818 No, I like walking alone. 354 00:37:02,803 --> 00:37:04,721 Stop. 355 00:37:06,390 --> 00:37:08,350 Please let me continue. 356 00:37:15,024 --> 00:37:18,485 Let me... smell you. 357 00:37:41,175 --> 00:37:43,009 Lie down. 358 00:37:46,555 --> 00:37:50,141 Lie down, Peter. We only have a few minutes left. 359 00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:58,001 I remember being so bored that summer. 360 00:38:58,169 --> 00:39:00,837 Also terrified of trying to make friends. 361 00:39:02,298 --> 00:39:05,258 I ended up hanging out with this kid Tim. 362 00:39:05,426 --> 00:39:07,052 I guess I thought he was cute, 363 00:39:07,219 --> 00:39:09,304 but mostly I just needed not to be 364 00:39:09,472 --> 00:39:12,515 the new girl with the weird accent. 365 00:39:12,683 --> 00:39:16,686 When I gave him the blow job that day, 366 00:39:16,854 --> 00:39:20,106 I actually remember feeling proud of myself afterwards. 367 00:39:21,692 --> 00:39:24,652 I never knew if Tim meant to tell everybody like that 368 00:39:24,820 --> 00:39:27,489 or if it just got around... 369 00:39:29,116 --> 00:39:31,701 ...but by then it didn't matter. 370 00:39:31,869 --> 00:39:33,536 Why am I telling you this? 371 00:39:33,704 --> 00:39:35,538 You hear these kind of stories every day. 372 00:39:35,706 --> 00:39:38,249 I don't think that's the point. I was gonna say... 373 00:39:38,417 --> 00:39:41,878 if it didn't still hurt, you wouldn't have brought it up. 374 00:39:42,046 --> 00:39:45,382 Come on, Peter. Even you must hold on to things 375 00:39:45,549 --> 00:39:47,467 that irritated you a long time ago. 376 00:39:47,635 --> 00:39:48,927 Of course. 377 00:39:49,095 --> 00:39:51,513 So, what? Tell me. 378 00:39:51,680 --> 00:39:53,473 Things at school. School things. 379 00:39:53,641 --> 00:39:56,434 Things I couldn't seem to make them understand. 380 00:39:56,602 --> 00:39:58,520 I tried it... 381 00:40:01,774 --> 00:40:04,442 every time I'd talk, everything seemed to come out wrong. 382 00:40:07,988 --> 00:40:09,989 It was shameful. 383 00:40:12,118 --> 00:40:14,202 I get mad about it. Makes me... 384 00:40:15,454 --> 00:40:18,873 Even now, people correct the way I say something, 385 00:40:19,041 --> 00:40:22,168 I sit there for days going over it in my head. 386 00:40:22,336 --> 00:40:25,046 More and more terrified of losing it. 387 00:40:25,214 --> 00:40:28,466 Jesus, listen to us. 388 00:40:28,634 --> 00:40:31,094 What? 389 00:40:31,262 --> 00:40:33,471 Talking about our childhood like this. 390 00:40:33,639 --> 00:40:35,974 People talk to me about this sort of thing all the time. 391 00:40:36,142 --> 00:40:39,394 That's exactly the reason why we should be talking about other things. 392 00:40:39,562 --> 00:40:41,646 I like listening to you. 393 00:40:45,526 --> 00:40:47,902 I think we've established on plenty of occasions 394 00:40:48,070 --> 00:40:51,448 that your intentions aren't as innocent as that, Peter. 395 00:40:52,950 --> 00:40:54,701 - What's going on? - Nothing. 396 00:40:54,869 --> 00:40:56,703 You didn't like me touching you? 397 00:40:56,871 --> 00:40:58,830 It's what I saw behind it. 398 00:40:58,998 --> 00:41:01,040 What did you see? 399 00:41:01,208 --> 00:41:03,126 How much more you wanted. 400 00:41:04,795 --> 00:41:06,504 - During our sessions together... - That wasn't me, okay? 401 00:41:06,672 --> 00:41:08,506 You wanted to go out, too. 402 00:41:08,674 --> 00:41:10,175 I know. 403 00:41:10,342 --> 00:41:13,344 I just need to do it my way, okay? 404 00:41:17,141 --> 00:41:19,684 I will be back. I will be back. 405 00:41:52,718 --> 00:41:55,053 Do my legs now. 406 00:43:02,121 --> 00:43:03,997 Do you want me to take this off? 407 00:43:06,709 --> 00:43:08,334 You know that's against the rules. 408 00:43:09,837 --> 00:43:11,754 Do they apply to us anymore? 409 00:43:11,922 --> 00:43:14,882 - The rules are there to protect us. - I know. 410 00:43:17,386 --> 00:43:19,679 You don't sleep with your patients! 411 00:43:19,847 --> 00:43:23,141 - That's not the same thing. - For me it is. 412 00:43:33,694 --> 00:43:36,154 It's time to jerk off. 413 00:43:36,322 --> 00:43:37,947 Aah! 414 00:44:04,475 --> 00:44:06,768 I want you to come for me. 415 00:44:17,529 --> 00:44:21,074 Suzanne! Suzanne. 416 00:45:11,834 --> 00:45:13,584 Hello, my dear. 417 00:45:14,670 --> 00:45:16,462 Don't you look wonderful. 418 00:45:18,424 --> 00:45:20,174 Not even a kiss hello? 419 00:45:20,342 --> 00:45:23,219 Too late, I'm already sitting. 420 00:45:28,851 --> 00:45:30,476 What would you like, dear? 421 00:45:30,644 --> 00:45:32,603 Deaf cappuccino, please. 422 00:45:32,771 --> 00:45:34,272 No caffeine? 423 00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:36,315 You've changed. 424 00:45:42,072 --> 00:45:44,532 So tell me, 425 00:45:44,700 --> 00:45:46,743 what have you been doing with yourself 426 00:45:46,910 --> 00:45:48,202 since you left the business? 427 00:45:48,370 --> 00:45:50,705 Working on my art mostly. 428 00:45:50,873 --> 00:45:52,790 That all? 429 00:45:52,958 --> 00:45:54,667 It's a lot. 430 00:45:54,835 --> 00:45:57,670 I'm sure. Yes. 431 00:45:59,631 --> 00:46:01,132 And the girlfriend? 432 00:46:02,426 --> 00:46:03,801 What about her? 433 00:46:03,969 --> 00:46:07,346 I always thought you'd end up with a man. 434 00:46:09,516 --> 00:46:12,435 Oh, I suppose there's still plenty of time for that. 435 00:46:15,147 --> 00:46:17,815 I'm not going back to work for you, you know? 436 00:46:17,983 --> 00:46:19,650 Of course I do, honey. 437 00:46:19,818 --> 00:46:21,986 No, no, I... 438 00:46:22,154 --> 00:46:24,113 I have something specific 439 00:46:24,281 --> 00:46:26,324 I thought you might be interested in. 440 00:46:26,492 --> 00:46:29,243 A very lucrative something 441 00:46:29,411 --> 00:46:32,580 down in Philadelphia. An old regular. 442 00:46:32,748 --> 00:46:35,458 I imagine you could 443 00:46:35,626 --> 00:46:37,460 make enough to support yourself 444 00:46:37,628 --> 00:46:39,921 for two or three months. 445 00:46:42,341 --> 00:46:45,134 Do people still ask for me? 446 00:46:45,302 --> 00:46:48,429 Oh, yes. They miss you. 447 00:46:48,597 --> 00:46:52,308 I wonder if you know why you're so good at it, 448 00:46:52,476 --> 00:46:55,061 why the customers really do miss you. 449 00:46:56,438 --> 00:47:01,442 You really could create the feeling of intimacy. 450 00:47:01,610 --> 00:47:04,570 Fake intimacy, 451 00:47:04,738 --> 00:47:08,157 but that's why the customers kept coming back. 452 00:47:08,325 --> 00:47:11,202 Maybe, but so what? 453 00:47:11,370 --> 00:47:13,996 You're still perverse. 454 00:47:16,208 --> 00:47:18,000 There's more than one way to express that. 455 00:47:21,296 --> 00:47:24,465 I am sorry, Juno. I can't help you out. 456 00:47:25,926 --> 00:47:27,593 Have it your way. 457 00:47:30,848 --> 00:47:33,266 You won't hold it against me, now. 458 00:47:35,185 --> 00:47:37,770 That would be unprofitable for both of us. 459 00:47:57,708 --> 00:47:59,333 Hi. 460 00:47:59,501 --> 00:48:03,045 I'm fine. Working on a new panel. 461 00:48:07,342 --> 00:48:10,803 I'm not sure I'm ready to see you again so soon. 462 00:48:10,971 --> 00:48:14,557 I know, I know. 463 00:48:14,725 --> 00:48:16,142 I just need a little bit more time. 464 00:48:16,310 --> 00:48:17,977 I'm pretty busy right now. 465 00:48:19,605 --> 00:48:21,147 I'll call you. 466 00:48:23,567 --> 00:48:25,860 All right, next week sounds good. 467 00:48:27,321 --> 00:48:29,196 Okay. 468 00:48:29,364 --> 00:48:31,032 You, too. 469 00:49:06,401 --> 00:49:09,362 - Have you read this? - Mm-mm. 470 00:49:09,529 --> 00:49:12,239 - Well, I have. - Really? 471 00:49:12,407 --> 00:49:13,699 Yeah. 472 00:49:13,867 --> 00:49:15,660 Wasn't one just like last years? 473 00:49:15,827 --> 00:49:17,119 Well, there's nothing new here. 474 00:49:17,287 --> 00:49:18,579 - Let me tell you. - Really? 475 00:49:18,747 --> 00:49:20,831 I mean, look at this chapter right here. 476 00:49:20,999 --> 00:49:23,209 I know. I know. 477 00:49:23,377 --> 00:49:25,419 Ugh, but, my God, he's amazing. 478 00:49:25,587 --> 00:49:27,755 It's his third book in three years. 479 00:49:27,923 --> 00:49:29,674 Have you read this month's issue 480 00:49:29,841 --> 00:49:32,009 - of "Psychoanalytic Thought"? - No. 481 00:49:32,177 --> 00:49:35,513 Well, my essay on counter transference in young adults, 482 00:49:35,681 --> 00:49:37,890 - deals with a lot of the same issues... - Really? 483 00:49:38,058 --> 00:49:40,393 - Yes! - Oh, please. 484 00:49:40,560 --> 00:49:42,228 I don't know where he gets this stuff. 485 00:49:42,396 --> 00:49:44,855 - Well, he's got a good publisher. - Huh. 486 00:50:05,002 --> 00:50:07,378 How come you're always in corners, Peter? 487 00:52:19,136 --> 00:52:20,886 You're terrific to watch. 488 00:52:21,054 --> 00:52:22,596 Thanks. 489 00:52:22,764 --> 00:52:25,641 - You ever do men? - It's usually men I do. 490 00:52:28,812 --> 00:52:32,398 I haven't done a public scene for a long time. 491 00:52:32,566 --> 00:52:34,984 Looking for someone to corrupt you, huh? 492 00:52:35,152 --> 00:52:36,819 Ah, maybe so. 493 00:52:36,987 --> 00:52:38,612 - You straight? - Uh-huh. 494 00:52:38,780 --> 00:52:40,656 - You married? - Uh-huh. 495 00:52:40,824 --> 00:52:43,117 What's your name? 496 00:52:43,285 --> 00:52:45,619 Peter. 497 00:52:45,787 --> 00:52:48,914 Go to the bar and get me a bottle of water, Peter. 498 00:52:50,333 --> 00:52:51,792 Go. 499 00:52:54,129 --> 00:52:55,838 I'll take a water. 500 00:53:02,053 --> 00:53:03,637 Keep the change. 501 00:53:17,485 --> 00:53:18,777 You ready? 502 00:53:18,945 --> 00:53:21,363 I'm ready. 503 00:53:21,531 --> 00:53:24,617 What would you like me to do? 504 00:53:26,244 --> 00:53:28,204 I want you to go over there, 505 00:53:28,371 --> 00:53:30,331 take off all your clothes, 506 00:53:30,498 --> 00:53:32,625 and wait for me. 507 00:53:32,792 --> 00:53:35,002 People will stop and stare, but they're not allowed to touch. 508 00:53:35,170 --> 00:53:38,172 You know that, right? 509 00:53:39,758 --> 00:53:42,426 - Yes. - You can call me Mistress Terry. 510 00:53:42,594 --> 00:53:45,221 Yes, Mistress Terry. 511 00:53:49,935 --> 00:53:51,310 Go. 512 00:54:10,664 --> 00:54:12,248 Since this is our first time together, 513 00:54:12,415 --> 00:54:14,875 I'm gonna take it really slow. 514 00:54:15,043 --> 00:54:16,460 I'm gonna handcuff your wrists, 515 00:54:16,628 --> 00:54:18,754 but your feet are gonna stay on the floor. 516 00:54:20,048 --> 00:54:21,966 Say "Thank you, Mistress Terry. " 517 00:54:22,133 --> 00:54:23,926 Thank you, Mistress Terry. 518 00:54:25,053 --> 00:54:27,096 Raise your hands. 519 00:54:27,264 --> 00:54:28,555 Good. 520 00:54:44,823 --> 00:54:47,491 Peter, Peter, relax. 521 00:54:49,369 --> 00:54:52,288 This is supposed to make you feel good. 522 00:54:54,207 --> 00:54:57,459 The safety word is "mercy". You say "mercy" and the scene is over. 523 00:54:57,627 --> 00:54:59,670 We don't go on to something else. 524 00:54:59,838 --> 00:55:02,172 - We stop. - Thank you, Mistress Terry. 525 00:55:02,340 --> 00:55:04,883 Let me hear you say "mercy". 526 00:55:05,051 --> 00:55:08,095 - Mercy. - Good boy. 527 00:55:11,349 --> 00:55:13,100 You have the option of a blindfold. 528 00:55:13,268 --> 00:55:15,728 I'd like to keep my eyes open, Mistress Terry. 529 00:55:15,895 --> 00:55:17,479 Okay. 530 00:55:19,774 --> 00:55:21,942 - Kiss it. - Kiss it? 531 00:55:22,110 --> 00:55:23,777 Kiss it. 532 00:55:34,831 --> 00:55:36,457 How's that? 533 00:55:36,624 --> 00:55:38,542 Fine, fine. 534 00:56:02,692 --> 00:56:04,318 Aah! 535 00:56:09,824 --> 00:56:11,950 Aah! 536 00:56:12,118 --> 00:56:15,746 Mercy. Mer... mercy. 537 00:56:15,914 --> 00:56:18,082 Mercy... 538 00:56:18,249 --> 00:56:20,626 mercy. 539 00:56:22,337 --> 00:56:24,046 Are you sure? 540 00:56:24,214 --> 00:56:26,673 You know my rule. 541 00:56:26,841 --> 00:56:30,135 Yes, Mistress Terry. 542 00:56:40,021 --> 00:56:43,649 - I'm sorry about earlier. - Aw, you didn't like my punishment? 543 00:56:43,817 --> 00:56:45,484 Oh, no. You were great. 544 00:56:45,652 --> 00:56:47,361 It was me. 545 00:56:47,529 --> 00:56:49,113 I just... 546 00:56:49,280 --> 00:56:51,073 didn't have it tonight. 547 00:56:51,241 --> 00:56:52,866 Mm. 548 00:56:53,034 --> 00:56:56,537 Well, I'm here most weekends. 549 00:56:56,704 --> 00:57:00,249 I'd be happy to try again with you, Peter. 550 00:57:03,086 --> 00:57:05,045 If you want. 551 00:57:06,673 --> 00:57:08,090 Thanks. 552 00:57:17,684 --> 00:57:19,059 Hi, you've reached Suzanne. 553 00:57:19,227 --> 00:57:21,895 Please leave a message. 554 00:57:22,063 --> 00:57:25,441 Suzanne, it's Peter again. 555 00:57:25,608 --> 00:57:27,818 I haven't heard from you in a little while. 556 00:57:27,986 --> 00:57:31,029 I hope everything's all right. 557 00:57:31,197 --> 00:57:33,699 I was wondering if you wanted to get together tomorrow night. 558 00:57:33,867 --> 00:57:37,369 I'm seeing a patient at six, but I'm free after that. 559 00:57:38,788 --> 00:57:40,205 Call me. 560 00:57:42,542 --> 00:57:44,835 I miss you. 561 00:57:49,007 --> 00:57:51,091 Did you see my red nail polish? 562 00:57:56,431 --> 00:57:58,724 Miko, did you hear me? 563 00:58:02,270 --> 00:58:04,605 What is it? 564 00:58:04,772 --> 00:58:06,648 Who is Peter? 565 00:58:10,570 --> 00:58:12,154 A friend. 566 00:58:14,365 --> 00:58:17,493 He sounded like something else. 567 00:58:17,660 --> 00:58:19,786 I don't like the way you said that. 568 00:58:19,954 --> 00:58:21,705 Was he client? 569 00:58:23,166 --> 00:58:24,958 Why would you think that? 570 00:58:26,878 --> 00:58:29,004 Where else you meet a man? 571 00:58:33,259 --> 00:58:35,052 He is a former client... 572 00:58:36,471 --> 00:58:39,515 but I happen to have other male friends 573 00:58:39,682 --> 00:58:41,475 from all parts of my life. 574 00:58:41,643 --> 00:58:43,560 You are changing the subject. 575 00:58:43,728 --> 00:58:44,728 No, I'm not. 576 00:58:44,896 --> 00:58:47,606 You are acting as if you don't know I've had boyfriends. 577 00:58:47,774 --> 00:58:50,150 So, he was boyfriend, too? 578 00:58:50,318 --> 00:58:52,069 No! Don't... 579 00:58:52,237 --> 00:58:54,404 change things around! 580 00:58:56,699 --> 00:58:58,534 I thought 581 00:58:58,701 --> 00:59:01,620 you didn't see your client outside work. 582 00:59:03,790 --> 00:59:05,916 I thought 583 00:59:06,084 --> 00:59:09,086 that was breaking the rule. 584 00:59:14,634 --> 00:59:16,510 I don't work there anymore. 585 00:59:16,678 --> 00:59:18,095 Remember? 586 00:59:19,514 --> 00:59:23,016 Argue your way out of it like always you do... 587 00:59:27,063 --> 00:59:30,065 but I saw guilt on your face when I asked you. 588 00:59:30,233 --> 00:59:32,693 Don't leave. 589 00:59:32,860 --> 00:59:34,278 Let's... 590 00:59:35,530 --> 00:59:39,283 Fuck this, Suzanne. Fuck all of this. 591 00:59:47,083 --> 00:59:48,625 I'm seeing a patient at six, 592 00:59:48,793 --> 00:59:51,169 but I'm free after that. 593 00:59:51,337 --> 00:59:53,130 Call me. 594 00:59:55,425 --> 00:59:57,092 I miss you. 595 01:00:10,648 --> 01:00:12,608 Hello? 596 01:00:12,775 --> 01:00:14,693 Yes, 597 01:00:14,861 --> 01:00:17,613 I would like to speak to Juno, please. 598 01:01:43,032 --> 01:01:44,950 Hello, Walter. 599 01:01:51,791 --> 01:01:54,334 It's been quite a while. 600 01:01:54,502 --> 01:01:56,461 Yes, Mistress Diana. 601 01:01:56,629 --> 01:01:59,631 I don't come back East very often anymore. 602 01:02:03,886 --> 01:02:06,179 May I say something, Mistress Diana? 603 01:02:06,347 --> 01:02:08,682 Speak. 604 01:02:08,850 --> 01:02:11,393 I was hoping for the red leather outfit. 605 01:02:11,561 --> 01:02:13,687 You know black makes me uncomfortable. 606 01:02:21,279 --> 01:02:25,365 Are you telling the mistress what she should wear? 607 01:02:25,533 --> 01:02:27,993 I was only hoping that since I am paying for this... 608 01:02:28,161 --> 01:02:29,619 This is all they've got here! 609 01:02:29,787 --> 01:02:32,998 Next time you have to come to New York! 610 01:02:33,166 --> 01:02:34,750 Get up. 611 01:02:47,889 --> 01:02:50,056 Put those on your ankles. 612 01:02:50,224 --> 01:02:53,101 Uh-oh, look at you, 613 01:02:53,269 --> 01:02:56,188 clumsy, stupid. 614 01:02:58,399 --> 01:03:01,067 Mistress, Diana. 615 01:03:01,235 --> 01:03:03,069 You know I need you to speak more softly. 616 01:03:03,237 --> 01:03:05,822 It's important. The tone is not right. 617 01:03:07,241 --> 01:03:09,451 If you continue to speak like this, 618 01:03:09,619 --> 01:03:12,204 I'm going to fix you with a ball gag. 619 01:03:16,250 --> 01:03:18,502 - Please, Mistress... - Shut up! 620 01:03:18,669 --> 01:03:21,588 Walk over to the rack and don't move! 621 01:03:32,600 --> 01:03:35,477 I know you're looking at me. 622 01:03:35,645 --> 01:03:37,896 Keep your eyes on the wall. 623 01:03:45,279 --> 01:03:47,113 Put this on your wee wee. 624 01:03:47,281 --> 01:03:48,573 No, Mistress, please. 625 01:03:48,741 --> 01:03:50,200 Come on, do it! 626 01:03:50,368 --> 01:03:51,743 I don't want you dripping on the floor. 627 01:03:51,911 --> 01:03:54,246 It's disgusting. 628 01:04:05,424 --> 01:04:08,260 May I say something, Mistress, please? 629 01:04:08,427 --> 01:04:10,387 What, Walter? 630 01:04:10,555 --> 01:04:12,347 It is important that you touch me correctly. 631 01:04:12,515 --> 01:04:15,642 That... that... is just not right. 632 01:04:15,810 --> 01:04:18,520 I've had it, Walter. 633 01:04:35,663 --> 01:04:37,831 Open your mouth. 634 01:04:37,999 --> 01:04:40,000 Open your mouth! 635 01:04:40,167 --> 01:04:43,169 I'm not in the mood to put up with this today. 636 01:04:43,337 --> 01:04:46,590 I'm really not in the mood. 637 01:04:53,681 --> 01:04:57,017 And I don't wanna hear another sound from you. 638 01:06:15,805 --> 01:06:18,515 I don't believe we're gonna be able to continue these sessions 639 01:06:18,683 --> 01:06:22,143 until your whip technique improves significantly. 640 01:06:23,479 --> 01:06:26,815 And I believe your session has come to an end, 641 01:06:26,983 --> 01:06:29,818 unless you wish to pay for another hour. 642 01:06:29,986 --> 01:06:32,195 And you do need to work on that voice. 643 01:06:32,363 --> 01:06:34,739 It's still not quite right. 644 01:06:34,907 --> 01:06:37,242 Don't try to top me, Walter. 645 01:06:50,297 --> 01:06:52,298 Thank you. 646 01:08:20,137 --> 01:08:21,471 Hello? 647 01:08:21,639 --> 01:08:24,432 Steve? What's going on? 648 01:09:13,816 --> 01:09:15,483 No, no. 649 01:09:15,651 --> 01:09:18,153 Yeah, of course I'll let you know what's happening. 650 01:09:18,320 --> 01:09:21,406 What I'd really like to do is to, um... 651 01:09:21,574 --> 01:09:24,075 escape up there with you. Yeah. 652 01:09:24,243 --> 01:09:25,952 Have you talked to May? 653 01:09:26,120 --> 01:09:28,538 No, I haven't either, but she's in Venice. 654 01:09:28,706 --> 01:09:30,957 I got a postcard from her. Yeah, sure. 655 01:09:31,125 --> 01:09:32,542 Uh, Pat, hold on. 656 01:09:32,710 --> 01:09:35,044 I have another call. 657 01:09:35,212 --> 01:09:37,589 Yeah? 658 01:09:37,756 --> 01:09:40,884 Suzanne? What is it? 659 01:10:28,766 --> 01:10:31,643 You blew up the reproductions from the book I gave you. 660 01:10:31,810 --> 01:10:33,937 You don't like it? 661 01:10:36,982 --> 01:10:39,609 No, I think this is great. 662 01:10:46,158 --> 01:10:48,993 I wanted to apologize for being so out of touch lately. 663 01:10:49,161 --> 01:10:51,120 It's fine, don't worry about it. 664 01:10:54,667 --> 01:10:56,292 Are you all right? 665 01:10:56,460 --> 01:10:59,504 Well, I had a tough day at the clinic yesterday. 666 01:10:59,672 --> 01:11:03,007 Uh, so, I'm glad I'm here. 667 01:11:06,512 --> 01:11:08,429 I haven't seen my mother in close to a year. 668 01:11:08,597 --> 01:11:10,515 She doesn't know anything about my life. 669 01:11:12,184 --> 01:11:15,520 Whatever you want to say about me... 670 01:11:15,688 --> 01:11:18,064 us... 671 01:11:18,232 --> 01:11:20,817 She probably won't even ask. 672 01:11:37,209 --> 01:11:40,920 - Hey. - Hey. 673 01:11:41,088 --> 01:11:42,672 So you get lost or somethin'? 674 01:11:42,840 --> 01:11:44,340 No, why? 675 01:11:44,508 --> 01:11:46,384 How long did it take us to get here? 676 01:11:46,552 --> 01:11:49,178 I don't know, I just thought you'd be here sooner. 677 01:11:50,806 --> 01:11:52,181 We drove right out 678 01:11:52,349 --> 01:11:55,101 and if it wasn't for my friend Peter offering to bring me, 679 01:11:55,269 --> 01:11:58,062 it would've taken much longer. 680 01:11:58,230 --> 01:12:00,940 Oh, um, Steve, this is Peter. 681 01:12:01,108 --> 01:12:03,318 Peter. Nice to meet you. 682 01:12:05,404 --> 01:12:07,447 Should we go inside? 683 01:12:07,614 --> 01:12:10,366 Yeah. 684 01:12:24,089 --> 01:12:26,924 Why didn't you tell me you had gone in for a biopsy? 685 01:12:29,053 --> 01:12:32,805 I didn't want to make a big deal of it until I knew. 686 01:12:32,973 --> 01:12:35,350 I would like to be there for your next appointment. 687 01:12:37,728 --> 01:12:41,230 I'm sorry for this horribly morbid introduction to our family. 688 01:12:41,398 --> 01:12:44,609 No, no. I'm sorry about your news. 689 01:12:44,777 --> 01:12:47,028 Are you sure you don't want a cup of coffee or somethin'? 690 01:12:47,196 --> 01:12:49,155 Uh, okay, sure. 691 01:12:49,323 --> 01:12:52,325 I'll, uh... I'll come with you. 692 01:13:06,507 --> 01:13:10,051 I have been busy with this new art project I'm working on. 693 01:13:12,971 --> 01:13:14,555 And the temp job? 694 01:13:16,225 --> 01:13:19,102 I only do that work to make ends meet. 695 01:13:19,269 --> 01:13:22,438 What is the new art project about? 696 01:13:25,109 --> 01:13:27,360 It's not about one thing. 697 01:13:37,121 --> 01:13:40,581 It was kind of your friend to drive you over here. 698 01:13:42,251 --> 01:13:43,668 What does he do? 699 01:13:45,295 --> 01:13:46,796 He's a therapist. 700 01:13:46,964 --> 01:13:48,881 Not yours, I hope. 701 01:13:49,049 --> 01:13:51,551 - No, but what does that... - Don't get upset. 702 01:13:51,718 --> 01:13:54,470 I was only half serious. 703 01:14:00,102 --> 01:14:02,603 I came here to talk about you, Mom. 704 01:14:02,771 --> 01:14:04,105 I'm worried. 705 01:14:04,273 --> 01:14:07,442 Save your worry for when things get really bad. 706 01:14:08,861 --> 01:14:10,570 Stephen? 707 01:14:12,322 --> 01:14:16,200 He'll help you get the guest room arranged upstairs. 708 01:14:16,368 --> 01:14:18,828 We're not staying the night. 709 01:14:18,996 --> 01:14:22,331 You came all the way out here just to leave again? 710 01:14:22,499 --> 01:14:25,918 Peter has to go back. 711 01:14:26,086 --> 01:14:28,337 Did you just call me, Ma? 712 01:14:28,505 --> 01:14:31,924 You'll stay for dinner at least, I hope. 713 01:14:40,726 --> 01:14:42,018 So do I get to see 714 01:14:42,186 --> 01:14:44,896 this project sometime? 715 01:14:45,063 --> 01:14:47,231 If you come to New York. 716 01:14:53,155 --> 01:14:57,200 Are you still in the same space near that loud bridge? 717 01:14:57,367 --> 01:15:00,745 Yes, and it's not that loud. 718 01:15:02,831 --> 01:15:04,832 As long as you're happy. 719 01:15:10,255 --> 01:15:11,881 I am. 720 01:15:13,342 --> 01:15:14,759 Good. 721 01:15:19,806 --> 01:15:21,974 So, Peter, 722 01:15:22,142 --> 01:15:24,519 I didn't catch what you did in the city. 723 01:15:24,686 --> 01:15:27,772 He analyzes people like us. 724 01:15:27,940 --> 01:15:30,775 I'm a... I'm a therapist. 725 01:15:30,943 --> 01:15:34,403 You don't find it depressing? 726 01:15:34,571 --> 01:15:37,073 Uh, no. Why would you think that? 727 01:15:37,241 --> 01:15:39,325 See, I was right. 728 01:15:39,493 --> 01:15:42,161 You can't help analyzing people. 729 01:15:59,638 --> 01:16:00,805 You're welcome to stay over. 730 01:16:00,973 --> 01:16:02,848 We need to go back. 731 01:16:06,979 --> 01:16:08,980 What? 732 01:16:09,147 --> 01:16:11,607 I don't really know what to do here. 733 01:16:11,775 --> 01:16:13,067 Why don't you go home? 734 01:16:13,235 --> 01:16:14,735 She can always call if she needs anything. 735 01:16:14,903 --> 01:16:17,154 No, I mean, in general. 736 01:16:19,575 --> 01:16:22,785 Don't imagine the worst yet. A lot of people make it through this. 737 01:16:25,205 --> 01:16:27,331 Hey. 738 01:16:27,499 --> 01:16:29,375 Is this all about me not staying the night? 739 01:16:29,543 --> 01:16:33,170 No, but it would be nice to think that maybe you'd be around sometimes 740 01:16:33,338 --> 01:16:35,631 if we need your help. 741 01:16:35,799 --> 01:16:38,301 Let's take one step at a time, okay? 742 01:16:38,468 --> 01:16:39,760 Why don't you give me a call tomorrow? 743 01:16:39,928 --> 01:16:41,345 You know... 744 01:16:41,513 --> 01:16:43,347 you keep expecting her to change 745 01:16:43,515 --> 01:16:45,975 and, uh, she's not gonna. 746 01:16:46,143 --> 01:16:47,768 So I have to? 747 01:16:47,936 --> 01:16:49,770 Is that what you're saying? 748 01:16:52,190 --> 01:16:54,025 Forget it. 749 01:16:54,192 --> 01:16:56,277 All right? I'll talk to you tomorrow. 750 01:18:34,292 --> 01:18:35,960 Thanks for today. 751 01:18:37,421 --> 01:18:38,838 You going to be all right? 752 01:18:39,005 --> 01:18:40,631 What do you mean? 753 01:18:43,218 --> 01:18:45,386 Uh, nothing. 754 01:18:45,554 --> 01:18:47,763 Do you wanna come up for a little while? 755 01:19:12,456 --> 01:19:15,207 - Any messages? - Yeah, a couple of patients. 756 01:19:15,375 --> 01:19:18,252 And from your wife? 757 01:19:18,420 --> 01:19:19,962 No. 758 01:19:30,015 --> 01:19:31,766 Can I kiss you? 759 01:19:34,227 --> 01:19:36,771 I've only let a few people kiss me. 760 01:19:38,732 --> 01:19:41,275 I wanna kiss you more than anything. 761 01:20:20,190 --> 01:20:21,857 I will never feel comfortable 762 01:20:22,025 --> 01:20:24,068 about how we met. 763 01:20:24,236 --> 01:20:26,237 Well, we can't do anything about that. 764 01:20:27,405 --> 01:20:29,281 That's the point. 765 01:21:07,654 --> 01:21:09,572 I wanna be inside you. 766 01:21:27,173 --> 01:21:29,425 Why did you ask me up here? 767 01:21:31,845 --> 01:21:35,598 When we left my mother's house, I felt very close to you. 768 01:21:43,273 --> 01:21:45,357 We met two and a half years ago. 769 01:21:45,525 --> 01:21:47,776 You didn't me, you met Diana. 770 01:21:47,944 --> 01:21:50,237 Who did you meet? 771 01:21:50,405 --> 01:21:52,948 Somebody who tops from the bottom. 772 01:21:53,116 --> 01:21:55,284 That's not fair. 773 01:21:57,996 --> 01:21:59,914 When you started to bring me those books, 774 01:22:00,081 --> 01:22:02,374 you were being manipulative. 775 01:22:02,542 --> 01:22:05,336 It wasn't just me. You wanted to go out, too. 776 01:22:06,755 --> 01:22:08,255 And I gave you those books because I thought 777 01:22:08,423 --> 01:22:11,175 you might enjoy them. 778 01:22:11,343 --> 01:22:12,885 I did enjoy them. 779 01:24:39,616 --> 01:24:41,450 It's no good, Peter. 780 01:24:41,618 --> 01:24:43,535 I can't. 781 01:26:05,368 --> 01:26:06,702 Please leave a message. 782 01:26:08,371 --> 01:26:11,331 Suzanne, it's Peter. 783 01:26:12,792 --> 01:26:14,835 I was wondering how you're doing. 784 01:26:15,003 --> 01:26:18,505 Things have been pretty stressful here at the office. 785 01:26:18,673 --> 01:26:20,883 I guess I'll, uh... 786 01:26:21,050 --> 01:26:22,843 tell you about it when we talk. 787 01:26:24,679 --> 01:26:27,181 I also feel exhausted by what happened. 788 01:26:29,475 --> 01:26:32,269 Why don't you give me a call? 789 01:26:32,437 --> 01:26:35,230 I'll be at the office for an hour or so. 790 01:26:38,568 --> 01:26:40,402 I hope you... 791 01:26:43,489 --> 01:26:46,491 Well, call me. 792 01:28:19,836 --> 01:28:21,336 Hi, you've reached Suzanne. 793 01:28:21,504 --> 01:28:24,214 Please leave a message. 794 01:28:24,382 --> 01:28:27,676 Suzanne, it's Peter. 795 01:28:27,844 --> 01:28:29,261 Are you there? 796 01:28:32,223 --> 01:28:34,558 I just wanted to make sure you were all right. 797 01:28:35,935 --> 01:28:37,644 That's all. 798 01:28:37,812 --> 01:28:39,396 I'm sorry. I feel silly calling again, 799 01:28:39,564 --> 01:28:42,232 but it's been almost five days 800 01:28:42,400 --> 01:28:44,860 since we last saw each other. 801 01:28:45,028 --> 01:28:46,570 Or even talked. 802 01:28:48,239 --> 01:28:50,824 If we could just... well... 803 01:28:50,992 --> 01:28:53,285 Hi. 804 01:28:53,453 --> 01:28:55,203 I'm here. 805 01:29:15,475 --> 01:29:18,226 I can't see you anymore. 806 01:29:18,394 --> 01:29:21,646 That's it, Peter. I'm not going to change my mind. 807 01:29:21,814 --> 01:29:24,066 I'm sorry about the other night. 808 01:29:24,233 --> 01:29:25,567 I thought I could be patient. I... 809 01:29:25,735 --> 01:29:29,821 I can't allow myself to want you. 810 01:29:29,989 --> 01:29:32,199 I know that's how you feel. 811 01:29:34,035 --> 01:29:36,703 It will never happen again. 812 01:29:36,871 --> 01:29:39,122 It will never happen. 813 01:29:39,290 --> 01:29:41,541 I don't wanna lose you! 814 01:29:51,552 --> 01:29:54,179 If I gave in, I would be... 815 01:29:56,724 --> 01:29:58,141 I can't. 816 01:30:00,103 --> 01:30:01,978 And in reality, Peter, you can't either. 817 01:30:02,146 --> 01:30:05,524 Well, that's your decision, not mine. 818 01:30:05,691 --> 01:30:07,818 Did you forget that you're married? 819 01:30:11,114 --> 01:30:15,951 It's like your age. It's something I can't ignore. 820 01:30:16,119 --> 01:30:18,036 Let's get out of here. Let's just walk around 821 01:30:18,204 --> 01:30:20,247 - and talk about this. - No! 822 01:30:20,415 --> 01:30:23,375 No, I'm not going anywhere with you together. 823 01:30:23,543 --> 01:30:24,876 Suzanne, don't do this. 824 01:30:25,044 --> 01:30:26,461 Do what? 825 01:30:28,005 --> 01:30:30,340 You are the one who's losing control. 826 01:30:30,508 --> 01:30:32,092 You can't let go of the... 827 01:30:32,260 --> 01:30:33,927 fantasy. 828 01:30:38,182 --> 01:30:40,600 Is that all you think this has been? 829 01:30:44,605 --> 01:30:48,442 All? Maybe not. 830 01:30:48,609 --> 01:30:50,068 But it doesn't matter. 831 01:30:50,236 --> 01:30:52,779 I can't be responsible for you. 832 01:31:40,495 --> 01:31:42,829 Tell me what you feel, Peter. 833 01:31:42,997 --> 01:31:45,081 I feel you still with me. 834 01:31:45,249 --> 01:31:46,541 And this? 835 01:31:46,709 --> 01:31:49,586 Pain. It feels like pain. 836 01:31:49,754 --> 01:31:51,254 Tell me what's happening. 837 01:31:51,422 --> 01:31:53,131 I'm sad. 838 01:31:53,299 --> 01:31:55,091 Stay with it, Peter. 839 01:31:55,259 --> 01:31:58,428 As a child, I'd already given up hope. 840 01:31:58,596 --> 01:32:00,597 I was made to shape myself 841 01:32:00,765 --> 01:32:02,432 to what others wanted. 842 01:32:02,600 --> 01:32:05,101 Helpless, I searched. 843 01:32:05,269 --> 01:32:07,437 I wanted to be punctured, 844 01:32:07,605 --> 01:32:09,022 pierced, 845 01:32:09,190 --> 01:32:11,107 torn apart. 846 01:32:11,275 --> 01:32:12,734 Reformed. 847 01:32:12,902 --> 01:32:17,113 Shaped, I struck at their plan. 848 01:32:17,281 --> 01:32:19,616 I wanted to puncture, 849 01:32:19,784 --> 01:32:21,076 pierce, 850 01:32:21,244 --> 01:32:22,953 rip apart. 851 01:32:29,335 --> 01:32:31,419 I want to look at you again. 852 01:32:33,881 --> 01:32:35,674 The time is up. 853 01:33:05,413 --> 01:33:07,247 Is she okay out there? 854 01:33:07,415 --> 01:33:09,583 Oh, yeah. She's a much better swimmer than I am. 855 01:33:09,750 --> 01:33:11,751 Oh, mm... 856 01:33:13,796 --> 01:33:17,007 The fisherman finally got their new boat landing on the south shore. 857 01:33:17,174 --> 01:33:19,175 The state approved it a few weeks ago. 858 01:33:19,343 --> 01:33:22,637 - Aw, that's too bad. - Oh, I don't know. 859 01:33:22,805 --> 01:33:24,889 I'm not even sure it'll make that big of a difference. 860 01:33:25,057 --> 01:33:28,018 Well, I thought most people were against it. 861 01:33:28,185 --> 01:33:31,646 Eh, they were resisting the idea of change 862 01:33:31,814 --> 01:33:33,732 as much as anything else. 863 01:33:33,899 --> 01:33:36,151 - That's normal, I guess. - Hmm. 864 01:33:36,319 --> 01:33:38,361 But not very realistic. 865 01:33:41,157 --> 01:33:43,742 Did she tell you anything about her trip? 866 01:33:43,909 --> 01:33:46,661 No, not really. 867 01:33:46,829 --> 01:33:50,040 I suppose we'll have to wait to see the pictures. 868 01:33:50,207 --> 01:33:51,541 That's funny. 869 01:33:51,709 --> 01:33:54,711 How they go from telling you absolutely everything 870 01:33:54,879 --> 01:33:57,255 to practically nothing. 871 01:33:57,423 --> 01:33:59,382 She's private. 872 01:34:01,010 --> 01:34:03,428 Like you. 873 01:34:06,349 --> 01:34:09,559 I don't know. 874 01:34:09,727 --> 01:34:11,728 About her or you? 875 01:34:11,896 --> 01:34:16,274 I'm scared most people won't understand. 876 01:34:16,442 --> 01:34:18,026 Does that include me? 877 01:34:18,194 --> 01:34:19,611 No. 878 01:34:22,406 --> 01:34:24,240 You do hurt me, you know? 879 01:34:25,826 --> 01:34:27,369 I know. 880 01:34:29,413 --> 01:34:30,830 And I'm sorry. 881 01:34:50,685 --> 01:34:53,061 Hello? 882 01:34:53,229 --> 01:34:54,729 Suzanne. 883 01:34:54,897 --> 01:34:57,232 It's Peter. 884 01:34:57,400 --> 01:34:58,983 How are you? 885 01:35:00,820 --> 01:35:03,279 I'm fine. 886 01:35:03,447 --> 01:35:06,449 I saw your ad in one of the magazines. 887 01:35:06,617 --> 01:35:09,452 I needed the money. It's only one day a week. 888 01:35:11,288 --> 01:35:13,998 I was wondering if we could get together. 889 01:35:14,166 --> 01:35:15,583 Just to talk. 890 01:35:17,461 --> 01:35:20,213 It won't be any different than it was a year ago. 891 01:35:27,388 --> 01:35:29,347 Peter? 892 01:35:29,515 --> 01:35:31,266 Are you there? 893 01:35:31,434 --> 01:35:33,059 Yes.