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I once had a mother
who told me everything.
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You know, I knew about your
lovers and their separations.
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We went to parties
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and I noticed strangers
who flirted with her
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and... you know, I watched.
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I watched her life
from under the tables
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and I listened from my bed and...
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You know, we used to
snuggle up
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and she told me her thoughts
about the world.
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AUGUST 23
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In my family,
we make joint decisions.
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I felt like an adult.
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No way.
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- Dad, mom is gone.
- Okay, strap on your helmet.
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Can you imagine, just you and me
living together all the time?
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- For how long?
- I'm not going to answer anything
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until you put yours
helmet properly, okay?
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- I want to tell her something.
- What?
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In particular.
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- Between me and mom.
- Oh.
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- When did you decide this?
- I didn't decide any of this.
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She should tell you herself.
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Mom?
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- Mom?
- Wait one.
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- Wait, honey.
- Hey.
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Tom is counting
the biggest pack of lies.
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Like this?
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He said I will live
with him all the time now.
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I mean, I love
daddy and such,
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but can you imagine
even for a short time?
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Plus I have something
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that I really want to tell you.
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Mom.
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Mom, open the door.
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Mom!
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I can give you some pamphlets
and books, if you like.
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It will define the steps.
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I'm going to take hormones
get a masculine name...
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Have you seen my coat?
That new one?
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- She's not listening.
- No, I understood.
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You feel like a man.
You want to become a man.
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You need a little space.
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Look, you don't need
go now.
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- Can we sit down and talk about this?
- I understand, mom. All good.
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Have you washed it yet?
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- I don't know.
- Harry!
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Harry?
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Have you seen my red coat?
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Hey.
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- Cold.
- Give me that.
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You can get out...
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Warmed now.
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Has she told you yet?
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Did you know?
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Everyone knew except me.
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My sister must have
a fucking consolation.
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Get yourself some consolation, woman!
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Oh, get lost.
We need to talk to Billie.
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Until your mother grows up
a little more hair on the chest...
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She doesn't want you around.
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�, exactly what we need.
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She sends you to the chef.
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Yeah, and you work late.
He's never at home.
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- I'll find a way.
- For how long?
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Yes, for how long, brother?
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Well, the surgery from above
it could happen in nine months,
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maybe more.
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Full Effects of Testosterone
can take years.
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- It's a long process.
- How long?
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- With your father?
- �.
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One year.
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I was thinking
in one year.
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My mother used to tell me
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how difficult it was to breastfeed.
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You know, I was a hungry child
and bit.
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But she always told me
who never loved anyone
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or nothing in her life
more than he loved me.
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I loved my mother.
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I wanted my mother
was happy.
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You're not kicking the
Harry out, okay?
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- He's an adult.
- He's an idiot.
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I just need my life
keep it simple now, Bill.
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I'm not sure if I can
finish this now.
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I'll have it ready for you next
next time you show up, okay?
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Next time I come?
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One year.
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Look. How about if we did
a promise to each other?
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How about every week
we set aside some time
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to be together,
Is it just you and me?
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You could come after school
and let's drop everything
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and it would be our time together.
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How about that?
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Every week?
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At the same time,
every week, without fail.
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Every Tuesday?
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Do you promise?
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I promise.
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There are so many things
that I should have said.
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There were so many things that
I wasn't clear and...
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These are all the things that
I should have said it before.
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EVERY TUESDAY
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AUGUST 30
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TUESDAY 2
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So, for the moment,
because the health plan is,
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before surgery is approved,
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something called Real Life Experience
It is necessary.
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Do you know about the
Real Life Experience, Billie?
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Yes, I told her
about the RLE.
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Good.
Then you must understand
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that before we prescribe
the hormones,
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your mother must continue to
come to us for evaluation.
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Second session now.
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I think this whole process
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it should take two or three months.
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So, after about six months,
we can seek surgery.
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Thoracic reconstruction surgery
from woman to man.
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May be followed by hysterectomy,
if that's what you want.
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What is a hysterectomy?
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That's where they take the uterus.
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Now I understand that you
assumed a masculine name.
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What do you think of
Your mother's new name, Billie?
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James is a wonderful name.
Hi James.
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Hi.
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Thank you.
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So I can call you
of "father" now.
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What are you comfortable with,
I suppose.
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Father.
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When will I see you again, dad?
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Father, father, father, father.
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Father.
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Next week,
at the same time.
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Eat with your chopsticks, honey,
not with your fingers.
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It tastes better this way... Dad.
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That's thick... Billie.
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- Oh, that hurt.
- It didn't hurt. Eat right.
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SEPTEMBER 6
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3rd TUESDAY
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Mom? Harry?
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Uncle Harry?
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You know, you shouldn't miss class
because of me.
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That's not the question.
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I just thought we could hang out.
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�. Well, I have commitments beforehand,
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and after that I have to work.
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Cool chops.
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Look, I can't go on
receiving calls from school,
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saying you are
skipping class.
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I thought we would have
more time together.
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Let's stay together
agreed time. From 4 to 10?
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Of course. From 4 to 10.
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Promise?
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- I promise. You?
- Okay, okay, I promise.
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And stay out of my stuff.
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SEPTEMBER 13
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4th TUESDAY
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What?
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Why are you eating
so fast?
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What do you do on other nights?
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Nothing else. I work.
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Are you going out?
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No, not yet.
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You will.
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SEPTEMBER 20
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5th TUESDAY
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Jesus.
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This fucking house
It's very cold.
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Another great night together?
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SEPTEMBER 20
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6th TUESDAY
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I will take it back
what you don't want.
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Daddy won't even know
what is missing.
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Frida!
How long have you been here?
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- Father?
- Just tonight, remember?
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And then go back to mommy
tomorrow.
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Back to Mommy tomorrow.
I sleep in your bed.
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What is this?
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"Scissors, masking tape, glue,
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eyeliner, mascara?"
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This will be fun.
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And then he turns around and shouts:
"salt water thief!"
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"You, sir,
He's a remarkable pirate! "
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And then the other one comes
and shouts:
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"Don't insult me, sir!"
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Adam's apple.
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- You still like women, right?
- Yes of course.
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If you keep them, they are
Lesbian or straight?
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I don't want to stay
with no one yet.
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- When, then?
- When I'm a man.
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I thought you
were a man now.
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- You didn't eat?
- No.
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OCTOBER 4
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- Hey.
- Hey.
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...because of the vacuum
and other things,
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but it looks kind of peaceful.
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It also has a great view.
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Hey, I lost weight.
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- Really?
- Yes, really.
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I was checking the
braces the other day because,
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well, I thought mine
had stretched.
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Now it seems that I
I just lost weight.
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OCTOBER 11
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Sorry.
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Did you tell anyone?
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Nothing.
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Nobody.
I didn't tell anyone.
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Great.
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I don't even know their names,
so...
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Josh.
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- Jasmine.
- Josh and Jasmin?
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Josh and Jasmin.
Jasmine and Josh.
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Get out then.
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Oh, no, no.
I was thinking about my mother.
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My mother's name
starts with J,
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and then when I was growing up,
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I always wanted my name
Start with J.
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It seemed like there was a way
Better to start a name
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with a J than with a B.
Billie.
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You know, growing up, the only Billie I
I knew were pet dogs.
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Do you guys want to play a game?
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- Of course.
- Yeah.
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I'm sorry. I lost
completely aware of time.
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We're fine, darling,
don't worry about it.
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- No, I'm sorry.
- What were you doing?
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I'm on my way now.
I get there in, I don't know, about 30 minutes.
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Look, until you get here,
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we're just going to have
a couple of hours together
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and then I have to take you
home.
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Go straight to Tom.
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Are you serious?
I'm literally on my way now.
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It's okay, honey. If I go
work early, I'll finish early.
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- It will be good.
- Are you sure?
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Yes, it will be good for me to go to
go to bed early for the first time.
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Okay.
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Well, see you next week?
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See you then. I love you.
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I love you too.
I'm sorry.
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OCTOBER 18
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You can't just
bounce back for me?
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What? You don't want
play correctly?
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This should be fun,
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and you're just making fun of me.
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Making me run through
whole fucking block.
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I'm trying to say
something.
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You never listen to me.
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Is it last week?
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It was you who was late.
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I just thought it would be easier
if we just skipped it.
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I'm saying
I'm sorry
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and I never want to miss
to go out with you. Never.
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Okay. Well, let's just make sure
We never missed the opportunity again.
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Okay, exactly.
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Let's make sure.
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- Okay, let's go.
- Good.
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And now, do you want to play or not?
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I want.
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OCTOBER 25
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- Hey, open your mouth.
- Why?
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Just open your mouth. More open.
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00:22:04,148 --> 00:22:06,025
I have spit all over my mouth.
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- That's disgusting.
- Now the other side.
261
00:22:10,655 --> 00:22:13,032
What does it taste like?
262
00:22:13,032 --> 00:22:15,201
Refreshing mint.
263
00:22:15,201 --> 00:22:18,413
No, I mean...
What does it taste like?
264
00:22:19,414 --> 00:22:21,291
Well, why don't you try it?
265
00:22:23,251 --> 00:22:24,544
Okay.
266
00:22:29,882 --> 00:22:32,593
Oh, shit, I have to go.
267
00:22:33,720 --> 00:22:35,471
- What? Are you serious?
- �.
268
00:22:35,471 --> 00:22:36,514
No, not you.
269
00:22:37,724 --> 00:22:38,975
Yes I have.
270
00:22:40,893 --> 00:22:42,979
Is this the last time we see each other?
271
00:22:42,979 --> 00:22:44,355
Like this?
272
00:22:44,355 --> 00:22:47,942
Well, because it has the piece
this weekend
273
00:22:47,942 --> 00:22:51,696
and then we're on vacation
next week.
274
00:22:51,696 --> 00:22:54,240
What? So we won't go anymore
can you come here?
275
00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:56,826
- There are no more rehearsals.
- That was the main objective.
276
00:23:00,079 --> 00:23:02,165
I really have to go.
277
00:23:08,254 --> 00:23:09,547
You are the one who loses.
278
00:23:26,175 --> 00:23:27,364
NOVEMBER 1st
279
00:23:40,286 --> 00:23:42,372
- Hi.
- And then.
280
00:23:43,915 --> 00:23:45,333
Do you have to go back?
281
00:23:47,168 --> 00:23:49,128
I could stay forever.
282
00:24:05,812 --> 00:24:10,358
No. I mean... I can't
believe that right now.
283
00:24:12,110 --> 00:24:16,739
Lunch time,
giving pleasure to a beautiful woman.
284
00:24:16,739 --> 00:24:19,993
Maybe I could give you
pleasure ever.
285
00:24:19,993 --> 00:24:22,453
I'm getting all the pleasure.
286
00:24:22,453 --> 00:24:25,873
But it makes me happy.
287
00:24:25,873 --> 00:24:27,333
Charming.
288
00:24:35,008 --> 00:24:37,510
You are a beautiful surprise,
That's it.
289
00:25:00,825 --> 00:25:01,575
Hi.
290
00:25:02,535 --> 00:25:05,288
Hey. I'll be out in a minute.
291
00:25:05,288 --> 00:25:06,038
It's fine.
292
00:25:12,337 --> 00:25:13,963
Okay, look at this.
293
00:25:13,963 --> 00:25:16,674
So whenever I
I know someone else
294
00:25:16,674 --> 00:25:19,510
with a transgender parent,
295
00:25:19,510 --> 00:25:24,265
one of the things about which
We often talk...
296
00:25:25,516 --> 00:25:29,354
the wonderful gift of knowledge
297
00:25:29,354 --> 00:25:33,024
that our father chose to live
an authentic life.
298
00:25:34,150 --> 00:25:35,985
What do you think about this?
299
00:25:38,529 --> 00:25:40,865
Do you know, what is an authentic life?
300
00:25:43,826 --> 00:25:45,703
Is this an authentic life?
301
00:25:47,941 --> 00:25:49,114
NOVEMBER 8
302
00:25:52,677 --> 00:25:53,584
LOOK
303
00:26:02,470 --> 00:26:06,265
Oh, cool! Your first
dose of testosterone!
304
00:26:06,265 --> 00:26:08,434
- Yes, this morning.
- Fantastic.
305
00:26:08,434 --> 00:26:12,438
- It's about time.
- Champagne.
306
00:26:12,438 --> 00:26:14,482
And then, the doctor said that
Will everything be okay then?
307
00:26:14,482 --> 00:26:16,401
Finally. I mean, it's obvious.
308
00:26:16,401 --> 00:26:19,529
Yes. I passed all the tests,
so to speak.
309
00:26:19,529 --> 00:26:21,823
It's really happening.
I'm on T.
310
00:26:21,823 --> 00:26:24,117
- Here, to the big clits.
-Harry.
311
00:26:24,117 --> 00:26:27,036
How are you my dear. Nothing could
spoil my mood tonight.
312
00:26:27,036 --> 00:26:29,414
So...
Fuck you.
313
00:26:31,374 --> 00:26:33,543
Hey, Harry, can you
take me home today?
314
00:26:35,962 --> 00:26:39,382
You have dinner and go out...
315
00:26:39,382 --> 00:26:42,677
and then you leave your house
and goes to his other house.
316
00:26:42,677 --> 00:26:43,177
�.
317
00:26:46,472 --> 00:26:48,308
This is ridiculous.
318
00:26:48,308 --> 00:26:50,560
This is very ridiculous.
319
00:26:52,145 --> 00:26:54,188
What time should you
leave Jane...
320
00:26:54,188 --> 00:26:56,316
Fuck, I mean James?
321
00:26:56,316 --> 00:26:57,066
10.
322
00:26:58,109 --> 00:26:59,652
We're already late.
323
00:27:01,904 --> 00:27:04,282
All good.
I told dad at midnight.
324
00:27:13,656 --> 00:27:14,965
NOVEMBER 15
325
00:27:19,339 --> 00:27:22,216
Things can start
to happen immediately.
326
00:27:22,216 --> 00:27:24,052
What do you mean?
327
00:27:24,052 --> 00:27:28,723
My muscle mass
it will increase and...
328
00:27:28,723 --> 00:27:32,852
My hair will be thicker
and grow more.
329
00:27:32,852 --> 00:27:35,063
Even the hair on your face?
330
00:27:35,063 --> 00:27:38,066
This will probably take longer.
331
00:27:38,066 --> 00:27:43,071
Just keep an eye out because I might
until I start to go bald.
332
00:27:43,071 --> 00:27:46,741
- Is this good?
- Like this?
333
00:27:46,741 --> 00:27:50,370
Well, if you're going to go bald,
It means it's working, right?
334
00:27:50,370 --> 00:27:52,372
I mean,
only men go bald,
335
00:27:52,372 --> 00:27:55,583
So if you're going to go bald,
would that make you happy?
336
00:27:55,583 --> 00:27:57,919
If I start to see this,
Should I speak?
337
00:27:57,919 --> 00:28:00,588
It means you just want
for me to talk about the good things or...
338
00:28:00,588 --> 00:28:05,343
And if you notice,
You let me know, okay?
339
00:28:07,762 --> 00:28:11,015
This is my voice
with testosterone.
340
00:28:11,015 --> 00:28:14,352
One week.
341
00:28:14,352 --> 00:28:18,773
Hey, I have some pictures
from some guys on the internet too,
342
00:28:18,773 --> 00:28:21,776
and these guys,
that just like me,
343
00:28:21,776 --> 00:28:24,028
biologically born women,
344
00:28:24,028 --> 00:28:27,031
but they took testosterone,
so...
345
00:28:27,031 --> 00:28:30,451
What? All this is just
to take testosterone?
346
00:28:30,451 --> 00:28:30,951
�.
347
00:28:32,829 --> 00:28:34,372
Oh my God.
348
00:28:35,790 --> 00:28:37,417
You wouldn't even imagine.
349
00:28:38,876 --> 00:28:40,211
No.
350
00:28:41,921 --> 00:28:43,214
That's good, huh?
351
00:28:47,844 --> 00:28:49,512
It's this one.
352
00:28:54,684 --> 00:28:56,603
Okay, now start walking forward.
353
00:28:56,603 --> 00:28:59,314
Harry.
Harry, can I open my eyes?
354
00:28:59,314 --> 00:29:00,064
No.
355
00:29:06,613 --> 00:29:08,448
Okay, now open your eyes.
356
00:29:08,448 --> 00:29:10,450
Oh my God.
357
00:29:12,619 --> 00:29:15,997
Don't burn the place down
and don't go to the roof. OK?
358
00:29:21,461 --> 00:29:23,379
After all, what the fuck is this?
359
00:29:24,797 --> 00:29:26,799
Having fun with friends
or something like that?
360
00:29:26,799 --> 00:29:27,549
No.
361
00:29:28,968 --> 00:29:31,721
Well, what then?
362
00:29:31,721 --> 00:29:35,558
Are you having a party?
Do you take crack?
363
00:29:37,101 --> 00:29:38,603
Do you want me to fix you up?
something?
364
00:29:38,603 --> 00:29:40,647
I don't need anything.
365
00:29:40,647 --> 00:29:41,940
What is this?
366
00:29:43,483 --> 00:29:45,026
Just some friends from school
367
00:29:45,026 --> 00:29:47,654
and we just need
of a place to hang out.
368
00:29:47,654 --> 00:29:52,909
Do you want me to give you
abandon all Tuesday?
369
00:29:53,242 --> 00:29:53,742
�?
370
00:29:58,206 --> 00:29:59,374
Yes.
371
00:30:00,625 --> 00:30:02,794
Please.
372
00:30:02,794 --> 00:30:04,379
That would be good.
373
00:30:06,714 --> 00:30:08,424
It would be our little secret.
374
00:30:14,615 --> 00:30:15,802
NOVEMBER 22
375
00:30:20,270 --> 00:30:22,897
Do you notice anything?
376
00:30:22,897 --> 00:30:24,274
H...
377
00:30:26,150 --> 00:30:27,777
I don't know, it's...
378
00:30:27,777 --> 00:30:30,363
It means you should
have changed in a week?
379
00:30:30,363 --> 00:30:31,781
I don't know.
380
00:30:42,542 --> 00:30:44,544
- Here?
- �.
381
00:30:44,544 --> 00:30:47,005
Yes, right in front
of the camera.
382
00:30:47,005 --> 00:30:49,215
Okay. And you can sit on it.
383
00:30:53,511 --> 00:30:54,846
Josh, come too.
384
00:30:54,846 --> 00:30:58,599
No, Josh can go later.
385
00:30:58,599 --> 00:31:00,143
You first.
386
00:31:07,150 --> 00:31:08,735
What are you going to ask me?
387
00:31:14,115 --> 00:31:18,870
You are together,
like boyfriend and girlfriend?
388
00:31:18,870 --> 00:31:20,246
No.
389
00:31:20,246 --> 00:31:23,124
It's quite intoxicating, actually.
390
00:31:23,124 --> 00:31:25,585
So, are you a man now?
391
00:31:25,585 --> 00:31:26,961
I'm almost a man.
392
00:31:26,961 --> 00:31:29,047
It wasn't so stupid, you know,
393
00:31:29,047 --> 00:31:34,260
the idea of rose petals on the bed,
listening to Barry White.
394
00:31:34,260 --> 00:31:35,887
It wasn't.
395
00:31:35,887 --> 00:31:37,597
Was that cool?
396
00:31:40,391 --> 00:31:41,391
It was.
397
00:31:42,393 --> 00:31:45,313
No. No, it wasn't,
in fact.
398
00:31:51,319 --> 00:31:52,779
That.
399
00:31:52,779 --> 00:31:54,489
What noise do you make?
400
00:31:59,369 --> 00:32:02,413
Good quality clothes.
I have a beard.
401
00:32:02,413 --> 00:32:05,041
I walk with, you know,
provision.
402
00:32:05,041 --> 00:32:08,252
You are a man.
It's how good you are, man.
403
00:32:08,252 --> 00:32:10,922
Okay, have you ever gone out with a girl?
404
00:32:10,922 --> 00:32:12,840
- Yes.
- What did it taste like?
405
00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:15,885
- Spicy.
- Good?
406
00:32:15,885 --> 00:32:17,887
- Spicy.
- Bad.
407
00:32:17,887 --> 00:32:20,682
Spicy. Just...
408
00:32:23,226 --> 00:32:25,311
Do you like me to be
filming you?
409
00:32:27,772 --> 00:32:29,524
I don't care.
410
00:32:29,524 --> 00:32:31,609
What do you think this is?
411
00:32:31,609 --> 00:32:35,196
I think this is...
I think this is interesting.
412
00:32:35,586 --> 00:32:36,556
NOVEMBER 29
413
00:32:38,116 --> 00:32:40,034
The thing is that I see myself every day
414
00:32:40,034 --> 00:32:43,329
so I'm not sure
if I'll understand.
415
00:32:43,329 --> 00:32:45,540
Is your voice getting deeper?
416
00:32:46,031 --> 00:32:47,220
DECEMBER 6
417
00:32:49,836 --> 00:32:51,754
I started shaving.
418
00:32:51,754 --> 00:32:53,881
- Your face?
- �.
419
00:32:53,881 --> 00:32:56,301
Shaving makes hair
grow thicker.
420
00:32:56,301 --> 00:32:59,137
Oh. Is it working?
421
00:32:59,137 --> 00:33:02,056
Well, I mean, I can only
feel a little fuzzy, but...
422
00:33:02,056 --> 00:33:04,767
Ding-ding. Time.
423
00:33:04,767 --> 00:33:06,185
Hey, wait.
424
00:33:07,645 --> 00:33:09,355
- See you later.
- See you later.
425
00:33:18,615 --> 00:33:21,868
You look more like
with your mother or father?
426
00:33:21,868 --> 00:33:26,414
I don't know my father, so...
And I never wanted to be my mother.
427
00:33:26,414 --> 00:33:29,667
Okay, Jas, take off your shirt.
428
00:33:38,134 --> 00:33:39,510
Lips.
429
00:33:40,637 --> 00:33:43,264
Don't beat around the bush.
You can kiss them.
430
00:33:48,478 --> 00:33:50,980
Oh, don't lick it.
431
00:33:50,980 --> 00:33:53,816
But you can bite,
a little bite.
432
00:33:56,694 --> 00:33:58,112
Breasts.
433
00:33:59,697 --> 00:34:03,534
You cannot pinch or
move them or suck them.
434
00:34:03,534 --> 00:34:04,994
But you can catch them.
435
00:34:06,329 --> 00:34:08,164
And you can cum in them.
436
00:34:15,670 --> 00:34:17,140
DECEMBER 13
437
00:34:26,849 --> 00:34:29,560
I'll have to start again.
438
00:34:29,560 --> 00:34:30,728
Huh?
439
00:34:32,689 --> 00:34:34,857
I show it
for my daughter, remember?
440
00:34:34,857 --> 00:34:36,192
We found your brother.
441
00:34:36,192 --> 00:34:38,987
Yes I know. He plays with me.
442
00:34:38,987 --> 00:34:41,864
But you didn't tell
to your daughter about me?
443
00:34:43,700 --> 00:34:44,450
No.
444
00:34:45,618 --> 00:34:48,079
Well, now is a good time
to introduce myself.
445
00:34:51,416 --> 00:34:54,127
- Hi, Billie. My name is Lisa.
- Damn!
446
00:34:54,127 --> 00:34:57,839
Fucking...
Fucking your mother!
447
00:35:00,127 --> 00:35:01,338
DECEMBER 20
448
00:35:04,095 --> 00:35:06,264
You look tanned
this week.
449
00:35:08,516 --> 00:35:10,184
What was it? Can't you see that?
450
00:35:11,936 --> 00:35:13,271
No.
451
00:35:18,693 --> 00:35:21,279
But you look older.
452
00:35:28,286 --> 00:35:32,123
Josh, what's it like being inside a girl?
453
00:35:32,123 --> 00:35:35,418
- Did you hear anything?
- Answer the question.
454
00:35:35,418 --> 00:35:37,587
Again.
I swear I heard something.
455
00:35:37,587 --> 00:35:40,340
- Ha-ha.
- Like a high-pitched scream?
456
00:35:40,340 --> 00:35:45,178
- Like a slug being roasted.
- Fuck you, then.
457
00:35:45,178 --> 00:35:48,973
Maybe if the slug comes closer,
we can hear it.
458
00:35:48,973 --> 00:35:51,142
How was that?
459
00:36:06,199 --> 00:36:07,700
I don't know.
460
00:36:08,993 --> 00:36:10,495
Like a piece of warm bread.
461
00:36:14,132 --> 00:36:15,414
DECEMBER 27
462
00:36:49,659 --> 00:36:51,369
Wake up.
463
00:36:53,079 --> 00:36:55,957
Merry Christmas, my beautiful pumpkin.
464
00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:01,754
Merry Christmas.
465
00:37:01,754 --> 00:37:03,881
How it was?
466
00:37:03,881 --> 00:37:06,551
We didn't go.
467
00:37:06,551 --> 00:37:08,428
We stayed at home.
468
00:37:11,472 --> 00:37:15,143
My parents are not satisfied
about her new 38-year-old son.
469
00:37:15,143 --> 00:37:17,687
No, they are not.
470
00:37:17,687 --> 00:37:20,398
Lose a daughter,
get a child.
471
00:37:20,398 --> 00:37:22,775
It's as if James got married
with himself.
472
00:37:28,865 --> 00:37:31,326
Your mother should never
have said nothing to them,
473
00:37:31,326 --> 00:37:33,369
This is the stop.
474
00:37:33,369 --> 00:37:36,414
I mean, at the moment it seems
a frog, anyway,
475
00:37:36,414 --> 00:37:38,916
and it will take a long time
for them to accept it.
476
00:37:38,916 --> 00:37:40,335
The sons of bitches.
477
00:37:42,253 --> 00:37:45,089
Hey. Hey, you have to wake up.
478
00:37:47,133 --> 00:37:48,926
You stink of cigarettes.
479
00:37:50,970 --> 00:37:53,264
I think I smell like pussy.
480
00:37:57,268 --> 00:37:59,437
Billie...
481
00:37:59,437 --> 00:38:01,522
Billie, you have to wake up.
482
00:38:02,941 --> 00:38:04,359
Billie...
483
00:38:06,069 --> 00:38:08,947
I'm not sure
if I can take you today.
484
00:38:10,573 --> 00:38:13,993
Billie, because...
485
00:38:13,993 --> 00:38:14,713
I'm...
486
00:38:15,995 --> 00:38:21,626
I'm very high...
and I will continue like this.
487
00:38:25,797 --> 00:38:27,215
Billie.
488
00:38:29,550 --> 00:38:31,594
I will tell your secret
for James.
489
00:38:34,013 --> 00:38:36,224
Okay. Okay, Okay, Okay.
490
00:38:36,224 --> 00:38:37,809
Okay, I'm up
491
00:38:38,977 --> 00:38:41,271
I'm up, I'm awake.
492
00:38:42,563 --> 00:38:44,649
What it was?
493
00:38:46,526 --> 00:38:49,821
So I played in all
the positions, right?
494
00:38:49,821 --> 00:38:52,490
I played in all positions.
I knocked down, I played, I was a field player,
495
00:38:52,490 --> 00:38:55,159
I played for the other team.
496
00:38:55,159 --> 00:38:57,245
I always knew what I wanted.
497
00:38:57,245 --> 00:39:00,456
Not like your mother, you know, and...
498
00:39:00,456 --> 00:39:03,251
And, Billie, this is the stop.
499
00:39:03,251 --> 00:39:05,878
I have to tell you something
which is really very important.
500
00:39:07,547 --> 00:39:08,267
What?
501
00:39:09,674 --> 00:39:12,302
Don't be like your mother.
502
00:39:15,471 --> 00:39:18,850
Because you...
Because you admire her a lot.
503
00:39:18,850 --> 00:39:21,352
And you can't be
like your mother.
504
00:39:22,895 --> 00:39:26,274
- Made a man?
- Oh, no.
505
00:39:27,817 --> 00:39:29,736
Jesus, sometimes
you are a retard.
506
00:39:29,736 --> 00:39:33,323
I mean...
Unless you want to be.
507
00:39:35,116 --> 00:39:37,035
I don't know.
508
00:39:37,035 --> 00:39:39,203
How would I know?
509
00:39:39,203 --> 00:39:43,124
Just don't take so long to find out.
510
00:39:43,124 --> 00:39:44,876
You don't need to wait
for inspiration.
511
00:39:44,876 --> 00:39:46,836
You are not Rembrandt.
512
00:39:46,836 --> 00:39:51,007
Take off your clothes
and roll in the paint.
513
00:39:51,007 --> 00:39:52,508
Promise.
514
00:39:54,302 --> 00:39:56,804
Okay, okay, okay.
515
00:39:56,804 --> 00:39:59,098
Okay, okay, okay.
516
00:39:59,098 --> 00:40:04,562
Now, Harry, you...
Go and let me sleep.
517
00:40:07,273 --> 00:40:08,023
Okay.
518
00:40:18,701 --> 00:40:21,079
Hey, boss!
519
00:40:21,079 --> 00:40:23,831
Merry Christmas, motherfucker!
520
00:40:32,882 --> 00:40:34,550
- Hey, kid.
- Hey.
521
00:40:34,550 --> 00:40:36,678
- Ready to go?
- Yes.
522
00:40:36,678 --> 00:40:39,305
- See you later.
- See you.
523
00:40:42,392 --> 00:40:45,895
Merry Christmas, Billie.
524
00:40:45,895 --> 00:40:48,231
Merry Christmas, mom.
525
00:40:48,231 --> 00:40:50,358
- See you later.
- See you soon, darling.
526
00:40:57,115 --> 00:41:01,327
Christmas dinners and cookies...
527
00:41:03,329 --> 00:41:07,709
Stupid family
Christmas time...
528
00:41:16,676 --> 00:41:19,387
Christmas sucks.
529
00:41:36,070 --> 00:41:40,199
So I can bite them
but I can't lick it?
530
00:41:42,076 --> 00:41:44,454
And I can't pass
over them?
531
00:41:44,454 --> 00:41:46,122
That's what I said.
532
00:41:47,876 --> 00:41:49,035
JANUARY 3
533
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:31,292
Look, I'm sorry,
Are you okay?
534
00:42:31,292 --> 00:42:34,087
Why? It's not your fault.
535
00:42:34,087 --> 00:42:37,131
Well then what?
You are very moody today.
536
00:42:39,050 --> 00:42:41,844
It's just because of testosterone.
537
00:42:41,844 --> 00:42:43,388
What? Be so grumpy?
538
00:42:43,388 --> 00:42:47,558
No. But it has complications.
539
00:42:49,143 --> 00:42:50,520
Like what?
540
00:42:51,854 --> 00:42:53,606
Like... Like that.
541
00:42:55,733 --> 00:42:57,652
Like that.
542
00:42:58,903 --> 00:43:00,530
That's it.
543
00:43:03,866 --> 00:43:07,078
Hey. Hurry up with the
little girl secrets.
544
00:43:09,622 --> 00:43:12,667
I'm waiting for test results
So we just have to wait and see.
545
00:43:24,483 --> 00:43:25,803
JANUARY 10
546
00:43:52,123 --> 00:43:53,833
What's wrong?
547
00:43:53,833 --> 00:43:56,836
My God,
Good morning to you too.
548
00:43:56,836 --> 00:44:01,382
Well, you never care, and you knew
that I would be sleeping...
549
00:44:01,382 --> 00:44:02,884
So, what then?
550
00:44:11,351 --> 00:44:12,071
James?
551
00:44:13,353 --> 00:44:15,647
I had to stop testosterone.
552
00:44:15,647 --> 00:44:18,900
This has something
to do with
553
00:44:18,900 --> 00:44:21,319
overproduction of liver enzymes.
554
00:44:23,696 --> 00:44:26,324
Well, you saw me.
555
00:44:26,324 --> 00:44:29,285
So, are you going to stop treatment?
556
00:44:31,079 --> 00:44:32,079
�...
557
00:44:32,997 --> 00:44:37,335
Apparently it's very rare
but there have been other cases.
558
00:44:37,335 --> 00:44:39,587
If I continued,
I would die.
559
00:44:41,756 --> 00:44:44,884
I'm sorry, J.
560
00:44:51,975 --> 00:44:53,643
I didn't know how
tell Billie.
561
00:44:53,643 --> 00:44:55,353
Jesus.
562
00:44:55,353 --> 00:44:57,814
You know, that was my first thought.
563
00:44:57,814 --> 00:44:59,816
What the fuck, how am I going to tell her?
564
00:44:59,816 --> 00:45:03,486
She will want to come back to you.
565
00:45:03,486 --> 00:45:04,946
You know that, right?
566
00:45:04,946 --> 00:45:07,657
I can't... I can't
do this yet. Please.
567
00:45:11,828 --> 00:45:13,705
I just need some time
to think about.
568
00:45:18,251 --> 00:45:19,502
Tom?
569
00:45:22,839 --> 00:45:25,425
I await your decision.
570
00:45:31,639 --> 00:45:35,018
You should go to another doctor.
You can't trust just one.
571
00:45:35,018 --> 00:45:39,272
There have to be other ways.
Right?
572
00:45:39,272 --> 00:45:40,022
No.
573
00:45:44,152 --> 00:45:45,445
I don't know.
574
00:45:47,905 --> 00:45:49,616
And now?
575
00:45:53,578 --> 00:45:56,789
Look, I know this has been hard.
For all of us.
576
00:45:58,791 --> 00:46:00,251
I...
577
00:46:01,794 --> 00:46:04,464
I still need time
to resolve this.
578
00:46:06,215 --> 00:46:07,925
I think we should stick to...
579
00:46:07,925 --> 00:46:10,762
Well I'd like to stay with
our Tuesdays.
580
00:46:20,438 --> 00:46:23,650
I have always been praised
for my sophistication,
581
00:46:23,650 --> 00:46:27,362
my maturity,
my ability to adapt.
582
00:46:28,571 --> 00:46:30,406
But that was never true.
583
00:46:32,033 --> 00:46:34,619
You just don't have
choose, right?
584
00:46:35,055 --> 00:46:36,275
JANUARY 17
585
00:46:38,856 --> 00:46:41,936
"...� 200 kilometers north of Adelaide"
586
00:46:42,547 --> 00:46:47,276
"in 1880, before his father
find work in Sydney."
587
00:46:47,557 --> 00:46:48,397
JANUARY 24
588
00:46:56,474 --> 00:46:57,850
Hey...
589
00:47:00,478 --> 00:47:02,647
Do you want me to do
dinner today?
590
00:47:15,998 --> 00:47:17,008
JANUARY 31
591
00:47:18,079 --> 00:47:20,540
It's time to get up!
592
00:47:20,540 --> 00:47:23,167
Get up! Get out of bed!
593
00:47:40,560 --> 00:47:43,021
- Hey!
- Hey!
594
00:47:46,399 --> 00:47:49,193
Is everything okay?
595
00:47:49,193 --> 00:47:50,778
It is.
596
00:48:00,344 --> 00:48:01,593
FEBRUARY 7
597
00:48:23,353 --> 00:48:24,395
Mom?
598
00:48:26,773 --> 00:48:28,316
Mom?
599
00:48:34,822 --> 00:48:37,909
What the fuck, mom?
Where are you?
600
00:49:04,648 --> 00:49:06,095
FEBRUARY 14
601
00:49:14,946 --> 00:49:18,157
Come on, Bill. School.
602
00:49:33,464 --> 00:49:34,966
Beautiful day.
603
00:49:36,634 --> 00:49:37,134
�.
604
00:49:47,186 --> 00:49:48,229
What's up?
605
00:49:56,112 --> 00:49:57,280
Okay, look at this.
606
00:50:00,575 --> 00:50:02,619
At the moment,
we are on our mission
607
00:50:02,619 --> 00:50:06,247
up to the Pine Island Glacier
in West Antarctica.
608
00:50:06,247 --> 00:50:08,249
When looking out the window
of the aircraft,
609
00:50:08,249 --> 00:50:12,545
we noticed a very large crack
on the ice bench.
610
00:50:15,423 --> 00:50:17,842
This happens with
quite regularly
611
00:50:17,842 --> 00:50:19,469
in the Arctic and Antarctica,
612
00:50:19,469 --> 00:50:21,429
but it is far from trivial.
613
00:50:21,429 --> 00:50:23,264
So we wanted
be sure
614
00:50:23,264 --> 00:50:27,226
that we recorded so much of this
process as much as we could.
615
00:50:27,226 --> 00:50:29,395
There are a lot of things
happening in one year.
616
00:50:29,395 --> 00:50:31,439
You know, Earth...
617
00:50:33,107 --> 00:50:35,068
And there was...
618
00:50:35,068 --> 00:50:39,864
There were civil wars
in Syria and Libya, and...
619
00:50:39,864 --> 00:50:43,993
And in Antarctica, a glacier in
size of New York broke up.
620
00:50:43,993 --> 00:50:48,831
Or maybe it didn't split.
Damn.
621
00:50:48,831 --> 00:50:51,209
I can't remember
whose party was it,
622
00:50:51,209 --> 00:50:54,003
but we were leaning
on the door, because there was no lock,
623
00:50:54,003 --> 00:50:56,506
and he pulled my pants down
at the same time.
624
00:50:56,506 --> 00:50:58,675
Can I do this?
625
00:50:58,675 --> 00:50:59,968
No.
626
00:51:07,100 --> 00:51:10,353
- Like this?
- A little stronger.
627
00:51:10,353 --> 00:51:13,064
How do you want to show me
how much you want me.
628
00:51:18,278 --> 00:51:21,030
Come on guys.
When can I go?
629
00:51:21,030 --> 00:51:23,866
Josh, just wait a minute.
630
00:51:23,866 --> 00:51:25,618
Maybe because it was
Valentine's Day
631
00:51:25,618 --> 00:51:28,121
and his girlfriend
was in the other room.
632
00:51:28,121 --> 00:51:30,957
He wanted to do it very quickly.
633
00:51:30,957 --> 00:51:36,129
You know, so I left him
put it on me real quick.
634
00:51:36,796 --> 00:51:38,131
Here... Hold my leg.
635
00:51:41,634 --> 00:51:44,304
Put your fingers here.
636
00:51:44,304 --> 00:51:46,931
Come on guys.
I'm dying here.
637
00:51:46,931 --> 00:51:48,308
Is this right?
638
00:51:49,684 --> 00:51:51,978
He kept turning
head away from me.
639
00:51:51,978 --> 00:51:54,397
I pulled back
and I made him kiss me.
640
00:52:02,488 --> 00:52:04,449
Okay, let's go.
641
00:52:04,449 --> 00:52:06,618
No, wait, I'll do it.
642
00:52:06,618 --> 00:52:08,202
Okay, go.
643
00:52:15,335 --> 00:52:18,212
- You have to do it hard.
- Okay.
644
00:52:21,090 --> 00:52:23,968
Okay.
Jas, you weren't wearing jeans.
645
00:52:29,015 --> 00:52:30,767
- Difficult.
- Okay.
646
00:52:30,767 --> 00:52:33,061
- Okay.
- Okay, hold my leg.
647
00:52:33,061 --> 00:52:34,479
Okay, come here.
648
00:53:05,718 --> 00:53:08,304
Billie, what do you think?
649
00:53:11,349 --> 00:53:12,809
Come on, what do you like?
650
00:53:12,809 --> 00:53:16,896
I... I don't know.
651
00:53:20,149 --> 00:53:22,360
Come on, Billie.
652
00:53:22,360 --> 00:53:25,947
Dude, we told you everything.
You have to give us something.
653
00:53:48,426 --> 00:53:49,976
FEBRUARY 21
654
00:54:02,911 --> 00:54:04,268
TRANSITION WITHOUT HORMONES
655
00:54:04,611 --> 00:54:08,197
So this means that
Are you still in transition?
656
00:54:08,197 --> 00:54:09,866
Yes of course.
657
00:54:11,909 --> 00:54:14,037
I just don't remember you telling me.
658
00:54:15,538 --> 00:54:19,834
Don't worry. It will happen.
Somehow.
659
00:54:23,504 --> 00:54:25,214
This will grow.
660
00:54:33,181 --> 00:54:34,766
Is Harry here?
661
00:54:36,309 --> 00:54:38,019
He's never here.
662
00:54:49,197 --> 00:54:52,408
I hit my ass
in the soap dish
663
00:54:52,408 --> 00:54:55,161
and I broke it and fell into the bathtub.
664
00:54:55,161 --> 00:54:57,538
But when it falls
I also fainted,
665
00:54:57,538 --> 00:54:59,207
but not because I hit my head,
666
00:54:59,207 --> 00:55:01,709
but because I thought
that I cut my ass off.
667
00:55:04,754 --> 00:55:06,506
And you take your bike naked?
668
00:55:06,506 --> 00:55:09,676
Yes. Yes, definitely.
Or dressed like a sperm.
669
00:55:11,511 --> 00:55:13,304
Are you two brothers?
670
00:55:13,304 --> 00:55:15,223
She is my niece.
671
00:55:15,223 --> 00:55:17,684
It seems like you could
be her brother.
672
00:55:17,684 --> 00:55:19,435
She could very well be my sister.
673
00:55:19,435 --> 00:55:22,063
I mean, I'll take care of her
as if she were my sister.
674
00:55:22,063 --> 00:55:25,692
Make sure Billiezinha
don't get hurt.
675
00:55:25,692 --> 00:55:27,151
You are taking care
of my Bill?
676
00:55:28,653 --> 00:55:31,489
Are you using protection?
677
00:55:33,408 --> 00:55:35,243
You're not...
678
00:55:35,243 --> 00:55:38,788
You are not using
It's your mother's comfort, is it?
679
00:55:38,788 --> 00:55:40,999
If you are, I really hope
that is washing
680
00:55:40,999 --> 00:55:43,293
that shit
disgusting thing.
681
00:55:43,293 --> 00:55:44,919
That is unhygienic.
682
00:55:44,919 --> 00:55:47,630
No... There is no consolation here.
683
00:55:47,630 --> 00:55:49,090
Is your mother a lesbian?
684
00:55:52,176 --> 00:55:54,637
Why are you here, Harry?
685
00:55:54,637 --> 00:55:56,681
So, you just left here,
right?
686
00:55:56,681 --> 00:56:01,894
You open the game
and talk about your... your stop?
687
00:56:02,604 --> 00:56:04,314
What would you do if you didn't have
688
00:56:04,314 --> 00:56:06,566
this glorious house that I gave you?
689
00:56:06,566 --> 00:56:08,526
Where would you go?
690
00:56:08,526 --> 00:56:12,405
I imagine you could go to
Couldn't your mother, Billie?
691
00:56:12,405 --> 00:56:14,115
James is always at work
at this time
692
00:56:14,115 --> 00:56:16,618
then he wouldn't know anything.
693
00:56:16,618 --> 00:56:17,910
Who is James?
694
00:56:22,248 --> 00:56:23,291
OK.
695
00:56:26,379 --> 00:56:27,719
FEBRUARY 28
696
00:56:27,960 --> 00:56:29,349
Because I already consulted
a psychiatrist.
697
00:56:30,757 --> 00:56:32,967
So basically...
698
00:56:32,967 --> 00:56:35,595
due to changes in standards
international customer service,
699
00:56:35,595 --> 00:56:39,891
I think I can have surgery
of thoracic reconstruction
700
00:56:39,891 --> 00:56:41,559
no hormones.
701
00:56:42,810 --> 00:56:44,729
So, what I wanted to ask was...
702
00:56:45,980 --> 00:56:47,482
Do you want to go?
703
00:56:47,482 --> 00:56:49,734
Is it surgery?
704
00:56:49,734 --> 00:56:52,445
To the psychiatrist.
705
00:56:52,445 --> 00:56:54,238
For approval in a few weeks.
706
00:57:00,078 --> 00:57:01,621
Some place you
Would you rather be?
707
00:57:03,164 --> 00:57:05,083
Yes, of course, mom.
Book it for me.
708
00:57:20,306 --> 00:57:23,434
- Wonderful, isn't it?
- �.
709
00:57:23,434 --> 00:57:26,479
This is very strange.
710
00:57:35,488 --> 00:57:38,700
- What?
- Harry, it's Tom.
711
00:57:38,700 --> 00:57:40,576
- Boss.
- Is Billie there?
712
00:57:40,576 --> 00:57:42,412
She's not answering
my connections.
713
00:57:42,412 --> 00:57:44,706
Go fishing.
She's not here, Pastry Pete.
714
00:57:44,706 --> 00:57:46,582
- Where are they?
- I don't know.
715
00:57:47,875 --> 00:57:50,169
Harry, call Jane then.
716
00:57:50,169 --> 00:57:52,797
Bad idea.
717
00:57:52,797 --> 00:57:55,008
Why? Look, I need
talk to Billie, man.
718
00:57:55,008 --> 00:57:56,884
I had an accident
with the scooter.
719
00:57:56,884 --> 00:57:58,636
Shit, man.
Are you okay?
720
00:57:58,636 --> 00:58:01,180
Thanks, man.
Yes. No, I'm fine.
721
00:58:01,180 --> 00:58:04,017
I'm fine, I was just
showing off at a friend's house
722
00:58:04,017 --> 00:58:06,102
and I scratched myself on the left side.
723
00:58:06,102 --> 00:58:08,855
But I need to talk
with Billie
724
00:58:08,855 --> 00:58:10,732
because I don't know
if I'll be home.
725
00:58:10,732 --> 00:58:13,067
So I'm going to call Jane, okay?
726
00:58:13,067 --> 00:58:15,361
That's not a good idea.
727
00:58:15,361 --> 00:58:17,739
You keep saying that.
728
00:58:17,739 --> 00:58:19,741
Well, she'll come back here
anyway,
729
00:58:19,741 --> 00:58:21,117
and then I can tell her.
730
00:58:21,117 --> 00:58:23,578
Or I could call Jane now.
731
00:58:23,578 --> 00:58:26,164
No, don't call.
732
00:58:26,164 --> 00:58:28,374
Dude, what the fuck is going on?
733
00:58:28,374 --> 00:58:30,251
Damn.
734
00:58:32,045 --> 00:58:33,755
Alright, here's the thing...
735
00:58:41,846 --> 00:58:43,181
Billie.
736
00:58:50,521 --> 00:58:51,564
Sit down, colleague.
737
00:58:55,526 --> 00:58:57,403
Why didn't you answer
none of my calls?
738
00:59:02,158 --> 00:59:04,327
Listen, Harry convinced me
not to call your mother
739
00:59:04,327 --> 00:59:05,828
looking for you.
740
00:59:05,828 --> 00:59:07,622
But he had to tell me why,
despite that.
741
00:59:09,415 --> 00:59:11,668
I don't understand why you thought
who had to lie to me
742
00:59:11,668 --> 00:59:13,252
about hanging out with your friends.
743
00:59:18,508 --> 00:59:21,261
Alright, let's fight,
you and me.
744
00:59:21,261 --> 00:59:23,221
I won't tell your mother.
745
00:59:23,221 --> 00:59:25,056
Great. I don't want her to know.
746
00:59:25,056 --> 00:59:26,766
No, you're going to tell her.
747
00:59:28,476 --> 00:59:29,196
It's him.
748
00:59:30,645 --> 00:59:32,772
Fuck, whatever, Bill.
749
00:59:32,772 --> 00:59:35,817
This is something you
You're going to do it alone, right?
750
00:59:36,259 --> 00:59:37,122
MARCH 6
751
00:59:52,166 --> 00:59:55,003
I don't really wear dresses like that
at the moment.
752
00:59:55,003 --> 00:59:56,796
Well, it's your birthday.
753
00:59:56,796 --> 00:59:59,215
Okay. Well, you can leave so that
Can I try something different?
754
00:59:59,215 --> 00:59:59,965
Okay.
755
01:00:14,856 --> 01:00:17,025
I've been thinking that
could be good for me
756
01:00:17,025 --> 01:00:18,776
start seeing people.
757
01:00:23,740 --> 01:00:25,783
- Actually, I...
- Do you need a hand?
758
01:00:25,783 --> 01:00:27,619
No, thank you.
759
01:00:27,619 --> 01:00:29,662
There's a woman at work who...
760
01:00:30,872 --> 01:00:33,416
Kind of shows interest.
761
01:00:33,416 --> 01:00:34,959
What? Are you seeing anyone?
762
01:00:34,959 --> 01:00:38,129
No, that's what I was saying.
763
01:00:40,423 --> 01:00:42,383
How about trying this one?
764
01:00:42,383 --> 01:00:44,344
- Can you give us a minute?
- Of course.
765
01:00:47,680 --> 01:00:51,351
Look, I don't like any of these.
Can we leave?
766
01:00:51,351 --> 01:00:53,394
Did you want to try somewhere else?
767
01:00:54,854 --> 01:00:56,481
No, just take me home.
768
01:01:17,835 --> 01:01:21,547
When we were here,
this place...
769
01:01:23,508 --> 01:01:27,595
Things made sense
secret and separate.
770
01:01:29,138 --> 01:01:30,473
No family.
771
01:01:33,184 --> 01:01:37,981
It was precious, that.
You know, it was mine.
772
01:01:39,661 --> 01:01:40,681
MARCH 13
773
01:01:41,251 --> 01:01:42,111
TUES 30
774
01:01:53,413 --> 01:01:54,956
Tell your mother, Bill.
775
01:01:56,040 --> 01:01:57,542
Start talking.
776
01:02:14,892 --> 01:02:16,019
Where is the mother?
777
01:02:17,937 --> 01:02:19,731
Not very far.
778
01:02:19,731 --> 01:02:23,610
Not enough to be in a
photo with the children, despite that.
779
01:02:23,610 --> 01:02:25,320
No, no, she's nearby.
780
01:02:27,363 --> 01:02:29,157
I'm glad to see you back here.
781
01:02:30,908 --> 01:02:32,619
We speak on
phone sometimes,
782
01:02:32,619 --> 01:02:34,912
but your mother wasn't here
for a while.
783
01:02:34,912 --> 01:02:37,874
And you, Billie,
I haven't seen you here in... ages.
784
01:02:37,874 --> 01:02:40,752
Seven months.
Yes, it's seven months.
785
01:02:40,752 --> 01:02:41,502
Okay.
786
01:02:42,795 --> 01:02:45,048
How is everything, then?
787
01:02:45,048 --> 01:02:49,928
�, despite the setback,
things are very good.
788
01:02:49,928 --> 01:02:53,056
And you two?
How has your time together been?
789
01:02:54,599 --> 01:02:56,851
�, it's been good.
790
01:02:58,645 --> 01:03:01,773
�, the time with him has been good.
791
01:03:01,773 --> 01:03:03,483
In addition?
792
01:03:05,485 --> 01:03:09,113
I lie to my mother every week
about going to Tom at 10pm.
793
01:03:09,113 --> 01:03:11,032
So, that's good.
794
01:03:11,032 --> 01:03:13,534
In fact, I'm leaving
with friends.
795
01:03:13,534 --> 01:03:16,788
You know, going out there without anyone
knowing where I am.
796
01:03:16,788 --> 01:03:19,916
So, you know, that's...
That's really good.
797
01:03:21,793 --> 01:03:24,587
And mom didn't know about
none of that until...
798
01:03:24,587 --> 01:03:26,589
until now, so...
799
01:03:26,589 --> 01:03:29,926
So this is really fucking good,
isn't it?
800
01:03:31,636 --> 01:03:33,846
And James here has seen someone,
801
01:03:33,846 --> 01:03:36,516
I think someone from work,
but I don't know anything about it
802
01:03:36,516 --> 01:03:39,852
you'll have to ask him
If this has been good because...
803
01:03:39,852 --> 01:03:42,480
because I don't
the slightest idea.
804
01:03:44,023 --> 01:03:46,276
I mean, maybe you
could you tell me?
805
01:03:52,657 --> 01:03:55,034
- I'm busy, guys.
- Unbelievable.
806
01:03:55,034 --> 01:03:57,161
I mean,
in front of the psychiatrist.
807
01:03:57,161 --> 01:03:59,414
Billie could have really fucked up
things for me today.
808
01:03:59,414 --> 01:04:02,500
I'm sure he handles
Fucked up families all the time.
809
01:04:02,500 --> 01:04:05,003
Do we have to do this shit now, guys?
You're busy, yes?
810
01:04:05,003 --> 01:04:07,505
Yes, we have to do this now.
It needs to be resolved.
811
01:04:07,505 --> 01:04:09,299
This is between you and Billie,
dude.
812
01:04:09,299 --> 01:04:12,468
No, it's not.
This was very poorly managed.
813
01:04:12,468 --> 01:04:15,263
And she has been lying
for you too, you know?
814
01:04:15,263 --> 01:04:17,056
Why do you think
815
01:04:17,056 --> 01:04:20,351
I would let her stay out
until midnight at school?
816
01:04:20,351 --> 01:04:22,687
And you bothered to ask her
What has she been doing?
817
01:04:22,687 --> 01:04:24,188
Because she won't tell me.
818
01:04:24,188 --> 01:04:27,025
Are you the least bit worried?
819
01:04:27,025 --> 01:04:29,110
I mean, it's our daughter's
that we are talking about.
820
01:04:29,110 --> 01:04:31,904
Every Tuesday she is your daughter.
I agree, yes.
821
01:04:31,904 --> 01:04:33,990
But not at any other time.
822
01:04:33,990 --> 01:04:35,867
You no longer decide
What happens to Billie?
823
01:04:35,867 --> 01:04:38,620
after the clock strikes 10 p.m.
She's my responsibility, then.
824
01:04:38,620 --> 01:04:40,204
Well, great job.
825
01:04:40,204 --> 01:04:42,248
Hey, this fucking idea
It was yours, remember?
826
01:04:42,248 --> 01:04:43,750
You need to deal with it.
827
01:04:43,750 --> 01:04:45,501
For some reason I
I can only imagine
828
01:04:45,501 --> 01:04:47,587
you chose to be her mother
for a mere six hours
829
01:04:47,587 --> 01:04:50,173
of each week.
It's 24 hours a month.
830
01:04:50,173 --> 01:04:52,383
One day.
So, in the last six months,
831
01:04:52,383 --> 01:04:55,261
you chose to be a mother
for six days?
832
01:04:55,261 --> 01:04:58,598
Six days. Is this right?
833
01:05:00,016 --> 01:05:01,935
You have nothing to say, man.
834
01:05:13,641 --> 01:05:14,592
MARCH 20
835
01:05:35,510 --> 01:05:37,428
Is everything okay?
836
01:05:37,428 --> 01:05:39,931
I don't care,
Don't get me wrong.
837
01:05:39,931 --> 01:05:41,391
No, no...
838
01:05:46,271 --> 01:05:47,855
I'm bleeding.
839
01:05:50,400 --> 01:05:52,527
I hate it.
It's painful.
840
01:05:53,945 --> 01:05:57,490
For me too.
For many women.
841
01:06:01,494 --> 01:06:05,331
I used to think it was,
you know, hormones.
842
01:06:05,331 --> 01:06:08,751
- I didn't understand.
- Understand what?
843
01:06:08,751 --> 01:06:10,712
That I hate because it reminds me
844
01:06:10,712 --> 01:06:12,505
that I was a woman.
845
01:06:12,505 --> 01:06:15,758
I mean,
that this body is still...
846
01:06:18,052 --> 01:06:19,302
here.
847
01:06:20,597 --> 01:06:23,558
I didn't realize you were
getting your period again.
848
01:06:27,770 --> 01:06:31,357
Billie thinks I've been
seeing you for months, you know.
849
01:06:31,357 --> 01:06:34,277
You think I've been lying
about not seeing anyone.
850
01:06:34,277 --> 01:06:35,778
She is very intelligent.
851
01:06:39,991 --> 01:06:42,410
Tom and I split up
when Billie was one year old.
852
01:06:42,410 --> 01:06:44,787
N�s mudamos de casa,
mas continuamos dividindo elas,
853
01:06:44,787 --> 01:06:48,333
tentando alguma vers�o estranha
de uma fam�lia, eu acho.
854
01:06:48,333 --> 01:06:50,335
At� que ficou claro que eu estava
totalmente ligado �s mulheres.
855
01:06:50,940 --> 01:06:52,001
MARCH 27
856
01:06:52,143 --> 01:06:55,723
E na frente da Billie,
ele disse que me odiava
857
01:06:55,632 --> 01:06:58,676
por ser t�o lento para perceber
who I was.
858
01:06:58,631 --> 01:07:02,101
And when he finally moved away,
exigiu que compartilh�ssemos a Billie.
859
01:07:02,101 --> 01:07:02,854
APRIL 3
860
01:07:03,806 --> 01:07:06,601
E a� meu irm�o mais novo
Harry, moved away.
861
01:07:06,601 --> 01:07:08,269
What a mess.
862
01:07:10,897 --> 01:07:14,067
It was a lot of change
for such a small child.
863
01:07:15,318 --> 01:07:16,903
Incredible, isn't it?
864
01:07:18,571 --> 01:07:20,156
I was already there,
865
01:07:20,156 --> 01:07:23,534
"Hey, I'm a lesbian,
How cool."
866
01:07:23,534 --> 01:07:24,810
But there was something else.
867
01:07:25,037 --> 01:07:25,811
APRIL 10
868
01:07:26,704 --> 01:07:29,415
One night, it was very simple.
I got dressed.
869
01:07:29,415 --> 01:07:31,709
I decided to do this.
870
01:07:31,709 --> 01:07:32,429
What?
871
01:07:33,711 --> 01:07:36,381
I put on men's clothes,
draw a beard,
872
01:07:36,381 --> 01:07:40,176
and there I was.
873
01:07:40,176 --> 01:07:43,596
In the mirror I finally
I recognized myself, and...
874
01:07:44,931 --> 01:07:46,641
I was a handsome man.
875
01:07:49,227 --> 01:07:52,230
I wish I had a photo of this.
876
01:07:52,230 --> 01:07:53,856
No, you don't.
877
01:07:56,276 --> 01:08:00,947
It was so liberating, but I
I was really scared...
878
01:08:00,947 --> 01:08:04,200
I had a lot of fun with
Billie and Tom at the time.
879
01:08:04,200 --> 01:08:07,829
So I made a decision
that would just postpone.
880
01:08:07,592 --> 01:08:08,445
APRIL 17
881
01:08:10,123 --> 01:08:12,667
I couldn't do anything to
change it anyway,
882
01:08:12,667 --> 01:08:15,878
then it wasn't important.
883
01:08:15,878 --> 01:08:17,964
Billie was important.
884
01:08:19,757 --> 01:08:22,802
Then, ten years later,
it came screaming at me.
885
01:08:24,679 --> 01:08:27,181
If you can't figure it out
how to live with yourself,
886
01:08:27,181 --> 01:08:29,100
you shouldn't be here.
887
01:08:31,561 --> 01:08:34,063
Would you like to have
born a man?
888
01:08:34,063 --> 01:08:35,732
I mean, what would have happened
889
01:08:35,732 --> 01:08:37,442
if I kept putting it off?
890
01:08:37,442 --> 01:08:41,154
The kindest child
and most loving in the world.
891
01:08:41,154 --> 01:08:43,656
I didn't want to resent her.
892
01:08:43,656 --> 01:08:45,575
I just need some time.
893
01:08:48,161 --> 01:08:50,371
Would you like to have
born a man?
894
01:08:50,371 --> 01:08:51,371
Yes.
895
01:08:55,168 --> 01:08:57,712
But then you wouldn't have
I had Billie.
896
01:08:59,297 --> 01:09:00,047
No.
897
01:09:01,007 --> 01:09:04,052
I'm tired of walking around
tiptoe, but I just...
898
01:09:04,052 --> 01:09:06,054
I just don't want to do this anymore.
899
01:09:09,015 --> 01:09:13,394
Well...
How about if you come back?
900
01:09:19,400 --> 01:09:20,150
No.
901
01:09:21,687 --> 01:09:22,587
APRIL 24
902
01:09:30,370 --> 01:09:33,623
Hi, it's Billie.
Leave a message.
903
01:09:33,623 --> 01:09:36,501
Okay, bye.
904
01:09:36,501 --> 01:09:40,129
Hi, it's mom.
It's past five now,
905
01:09:40,129 --> 01:09:42,757
so I was wondering
if you're coming.
906
01:09:42,757 --> 01:09:46,094
I haven't heard any
Your return, then...
907
01:09:46,094 --> 01:09:49,138
Well, I'll be home,
then call me.
908
01:09:51,031 --> 01:09:52,546
MAY 1st
909
01:10:01,276 --> 01:10:04,487
Hi, it's Billie.
Leave a message.
910
01:10:04,487 --> 01:10:07,407
Okay, bye.
911
01:10:07,407 --> 01:10:08,157
Hi.
912
01:10:09,867 --> 01:10:11,995
I think we should
at least talk.
913
01:10:11,995 --> 01:10:15,039
I'm not even sure if you're
even listening to these messages,
914
01:10:15,039 --> 01:10:18,334
and I'm not helping,
in the end.
915
01:10:18,334 --> 01:10:20,336
Just...
916
01:10:20,336 --> 01:10:22,422
Can we at least talk?
917
01:10:28,676 --> 01:10:29,656
MAY 8
918
01:10:30,748 --> 01:10:31,901
DIRECTOR
SUSAN DARCY
919
01:10:36,060 --> 01:10:38,229
- Sorry for the delay. We are busy.
- Thanks for coming.
920
01:10:38,229 --> 01:10:39,772
- Sit down.
- Okay.
921
01:10:41,399 --> 01:10:43,109
I was just saying,
922
01:10:43,109 --> 01:10:46,779
besides some incidents
of dropouts last year,
923
01:10:46,779 --> 01:10:49,490
we didn't have any problems
with Billie before.
924
01:10:49,490 --> 01:10:53,244
So, in our opinion, this incident
is out of character.
925
01:10:53,244 --> 01:10:55,705
Well, you know, we're
as surprised as you are.
926
01:10:55,705 --> 01:10:58,041
Yes, that really came out of
nothing for us too
927
01:10:58,041 --> 01:11:00,168
so that's why we are
everyone here.
928
01:11:00,168 --> 01:11:04,005
Well, we're here to help.
So what exactly happened?
929
01:11:04,005 --> 01:11:08,718
Well, Billie texted
to another girl from a different year,
930
01:11:08,718 --> 01:11:10,803
Jasmine Miller,
during class time.
931
01:11:10,803 --> 01:11:13,932
And Jasmin's teacher
by chance noticed
932
01:11:13,932 --> 01:11:16,684
and then he confiscated the phone.
933
01:11:16,684 --> 01:11:18,519
And he realized that the message
934
01:11:18,519 --> 01:11:23,900
It was a picture of Billie
in a state of nudity.
935
01:11:27,320 --> 01:11:29,447
Is it really?
936
01:11:29,447 --> 01:11:31,449
And believe me,
This is serious.
937
01:11:31,449 --> 01:11:34,953
I want to make it very clear
that if you are underage,
938
01:11:34,953 --> 01:11:36,621
a nude photo of herself
939
01:11:36,621 --> 01:11:39,499
can be considered
like child pornography.
940
01:11:39,499 --> 01:11:42,835
You know, normally I would bring the
police for this immediately,
941
01:11:42,835 --> 01:11:45,463
but I won't in this case.
942
01:11:45,463 --> 01:11:48,091
I really just want
get your attention.
943
01:11:48,091 --> 01:11:53,346
Because a family like yours,
in a unique situation...
944
01:11:53,346 --> 01:11:56,015
I just wanted to make sure
you understood the consequences.
945
01:11:56,015 --> 01:11:58,142
Unique situation?
946
01:11:58,142 --> 01:12:02,438
Well, I think you have
a more complicated view of life,
947
01:12:02,438 --> 01:12:05,525
- in a family like yours.
- What? Separated?
948
01:12:05,525 --> 01:12:08,152
Look, I think Billie
has a really good perspective,
949
01:12:08,152 --> 01:12:09,862
If that's what you
I mean.
950
01:12:09,862 --> 01:12:11,614
And I think we equipped
our daughter
951
01:12:11,614 --> 01:12:13,324
with a better understanding
of things
952
01:12:13,324 --> 01:12:15,410
than most other parents.
953
01:12:15,410 --> 01:12:17,453
Yes, but I think it could have been
954
01:12:17,453 --> 01:12:19,872
a confusing time for
Billie lately.
955
01:12:32,969 --> 01:12:35,221
I don't get involved
with her things.
956
01:12:35,689 --> 01:12:36,659
MAY 15
957
01:12:41,853 --> 01:12:43,771
You can watch for hours
if you want.
958
01:12:43,771 --> 01:12:45,690
She doesn't move.
959
01:12:45,690 --> 01:12:49,861
She doesn't really do much,
even more so on a Tuesday.
960
01:12:49,861 --> 01:12:52,655
It's the TV show
her favorite.
961
01:12:52,655 --> 01:12:55,700
A soap opera followed by NCIS.
962
01:12:55,700 --> 01:12:59,370
Now The Voice is on air.
She likes watching this.
963
01:12:59,370 --> 01:13:01,414
Does she live here alone?
964
01:13:01,414 --> 01:13:05,460
She has two children.
A girl and a boy.
965
01:13:05,460 --> 01:13:07,045
And if they are all
at home together,
966
01:13:07,045 --> 01:13:08,379
they will watch The Voice.
967
01:13:10,798 --> 01:13:15,553
She hates going out.
Really, she doesn't go out much.
968
01:13:15,553 --> 01:13:17,597
Does Social Services know this?
969
01:13:17,597 --> 01:13:19,265
They cover it up.
970
01:13:19,265 --> 01:13:22,435
They make excuses
if anyone asks for her.
971
01:13:22,435 --> 01:13:24,562
They can't afford
having problems at school
972
01:13:24,562 --> 01:13:26,731
because school always
call the parents.
973
01:13:26,731 --> 01:13:29,859
And she won't. She can't.
974
01:13:32,236 --> 01:13:35,490
- Do you have a brother?
- Younger.
975
01:13:46,542 --> 01:13:50,213
What's so bad about your life?
that you didn't tell us?
976
01:13:53,091 --> 01:13:56,928
What's so shit about you?
You can do whatever you want.
977
01:13:59,305 --> 01:14:00,807
My God.
978
01:14:02,809 --> 01:14:04,352
You don't understand.
979
01:14:06,187 --> 01:14:07,563
My mother is sick.
980
01:14:13,736 --> 01:14:15,613
I'm tired of being
your joke.
981
01:14:15,613 --> 01:14:16,906
Fuck them.
982
01:14:21,895 --> 01:14:22,951
MAY 22
983
01:14:42,765 --> 01:14:45,184
Hey. It's half past five in the morning.
984
01:14:45,184 --> 01:14:47,979
I'm still with
the spindle replaced,
985
01:14:47,979 --> 01:14:52,483
then it could be
the crazy old man shouting there.
986
01:14:56,279 --> 01:14:58,364
Oh, can you see him?
987
01:15:01,409 --> 01:15:05,204
Anyway...
San Francisco is wonderful.
988
01:15:05,204 --> 01:15:08,666
I've already met some
interesting trans guys,
989
01:15:08,666 --> 01:15:09,506
and... �.
990
01:15:11,127 --> 01:15:12,921
I hope you're seeing this,
991
01:15:12,921 --> 01:15:15,548
and I'll talk to you soon,
with luck.
992
01:15:24,307 --> 01:15:27,810
I identified myself as a
trans guy for many years.
993
01:15:27,810 --> 01:15:30,271
I identify as genderqueer.
994
01:15:30,271 --> 01:15:32,023
Shit, like I knew
what a man is.
995
01:15:32,023 --> 01:15:34,984
For me, this is something I
knew about myself
996
01:15:34,984 --> 01:15:36,986
before having conscious memories.
997
01:15:36,986 --> 01:15:40,865
I didn't know I was trans
up to age 26.
998
01:15:40,865 --> 01:15:43,076
As a child too,
I had a twin sister
999
01:15:43,076 --> 01:15:45,286
so it was very easy for me to understand
1000
01:15:45,286 --> 01:15:47,997
if you feel comfortable
as a woman.
1001
01:15:47,997 --> 01:15:49,874
And I wasn't like that.
1002
01:15:49,874 --> 01:15:54,087
The question that comes to me now is:
"If I can't take T,
1003
01:15:54,087 --> 01:15:55,838
how do I become the man
1004
01:15:55,838 --> 01:15:57,882
that I see in my mind
What should I be?"
1005
01:15:57,882 --> 01:15:59,968
Did I take a year off for this?
1006
01:15:59,968 --> 01:16:04,806
I've been doing this for 18 years and, you know,
1007
01:16:04,806 --> 01:16:09,394
I don't think it's necessary
for gender identity.
1008
01:16:11,396 --> 01:16:13,189
I don't take it,
1009
01:16:13,189 --> 01:16:15,108
but I had chest surgery.
1010
01:16:15,108 --> 01:16:18,361
I'm on day 16 after
the surgery
1011
01:16:18,361 --> 01:16:20,113
and it's really rewarding.
1012
01:16:20,113 --> 01:16:24,367
I am married to a woman
and I have a seven year old son
1013
01:16:24,367 --> 01:16:27,912
I transitioned before he was born
1014
01:16:27,912 --> 01:16:30,498
so he always knew me
as his father.
1015
01:16:30,498 --> 01:16:32,333
But I still had
to explain to him
1016
01:16:32,333 --> 01:16:36,462
and help you know that I
I'm a different kind of father.
1017
01:16:40,527 --> 01:16:41,422
MAY 29
1018
01:16:42,830 --> 01:16:44,563
It took a long time
1019
01:16:44,563 --> 01:16:47,141
to feel comfortable
accepting me as a man.
1020
01:16:47,141 --> 01:16:49,017
And still sometimes after 11 years,
1021
01:16:49,017 --> 01:16:52,103
I have moments when
I'm like this, it's so crazy.
1022
01:16:52,103 --> 01:16:53,563
It's not that I feel
like a woman...
1023
01:16:53,563 --> 01:16:56,774
but it seems like...
1024
01:16:56,774 --> 01:16:59,193
I don't know,
I feel nervous or scared
1025
01:16:59,193 --> 01:17:01,904
to claim this identity.
1026
01:17:03,489 --> 01:17:07,118
My father became a woman
1027
01:17:07,118 --> 01:17:11,205
14 years ago, when I was 17,
1028
01:17:11,205 --> 01:17:14,375
and that really transformed
our relationship.
1029
01:17:14,375 --> 01:17:16,294
Initially, when my father came out,
1030
01:17:16,294 --> 01:17:20,089
I said, "Oh, I love you
regardless of anything."
1031
01:17:20,089 --> 01:17:21,966
"It's going to be okay."
1032
01:17:21,966 --> 01:17:24,886
Then, more or less a month later,
1033
01:17:24,886 --> 01:17:28,431
I realized I was
sad about something.
1034
01:17:28,431 --> 01:17:31,768
I lived with my mother
and then I said to her:
1035
01:17:31,768 --> 01:17:33,937
"I feel a little strange
for something."
1036
01:17:33,937 --> 01:17:36,022
She was like, "Do you think
It's because your father
1037
01:17:36,022 --> 01:17:37,732
he came out to you
as transgender?"
1038
01:18:09,895 --> 01:18:11,241
JUNE 5
1039
01:18:22,318 --> 01:18:23,611
Thank you.
1040
01:18:27,991 --> 01:18:31,244
So you want me to take it off
Harry's camera?
1041
01:18:31,244 --> 01:18:34,205
- Yes.
- Because...
1042
01:18:34,205 --> 01:18:37,333
Because he stole from me
and will not return it.
1043
01:18:37,333 --> 01:18:40,169
Well, what's there?
1044
01:18:40,169 --> 01:18:43,298
There's nothing there. I just need
for a school project.
1045
01:18:43,298 --> 01:18:45,258
So why did he take it?
1046
01:18:45,258 --> 01:18:47,176
I don't know.
1047
01:18:47,176 --> 01:18:49,429
He was worried that
there was his shit there,
1048
01:18:49,429 --> 01:18:52,599
That would incriminate him or something.
1049
01:18:52,599 --> 01:18:53,975
I don't know.
1050
01:18:56,936 --> 01:18:58,521
Can you do it or not?
1051
01:19:05,403 --> 01:19:07,113
Tom still leaves you
stay there
1052
01:19:07,113 --> 01:19:09,657
with those friends of yours?
1053
01:19:09,657 --> 01:19:11,576
Dad lets me be an adult.
1054
01:19:11,576 --> 01:19:13,786
I am able to take
my own decisions, you know.
1055
01:19:13,786 --> 01:19:18,875
Well, send a nude photo
for a stranger
1056
01:19:18,875 --> 01:19:21,002
doesn't seem like the best decision
for me.
1057
01:19:21,002 --> 01:19:23,588
Can you just give it a break?
1058
01:19:23,588 --> 01:19:24,338
Okay.
1059
01:19:25,798 --> 01:19:27,967
Why don't you come with me
and can we talk together?
1060
01:19:27,967 --> 01:19:30,386
And how is that different?
of you sending videos
1061
01:19:30,386 --> 01:19:32,847
of your gay adventures in San Francisco?
1062
01:19:32,847 --> 01:19:35,600
This is different. You are a child.
1063
01:19:37,352 --> 01:19:39,896
But in a year, suddenly,
I just won't be?
1064
01:19:39,896 --> 01:19:43,024
A year is a long time,
especially at your age.
1065
01:19:50,531 --> 01:19:52,492
I knew this was a bad idea.
1066
01:19:52,492 --> 01:19:55,244
You can't even catch
my damn camera back.
1067
01:19:55,244 --> 01:19:59,165
Where are you going?
Sit down.
1068
01:19:59,165 --> 01:20:01,042
We're not going to do that.
1069
01:20:17,598 --> 01:20:18,833
JUNE 12
1070
01:20:23,982 --> 01:20:28,987
With this special robot
that we can control remotely.
1071
01:20:28,987 --> 01:20:31,864
- That was really fun.
- That's very cheeky.
1072
01:20:36,035 --> 01:20:38,413
Okay, I'll take James's car.
1073
01:20:38,413 --> 01:20:40,415
I'll pick him up when he leaves..
1074
01:20:40,415 --> 01:20:42,333
I'll bring him home.
1075
01:20:42,333 --> 01:20:44,252
But after that,
We all have to collaborate.
1076
01:20:44,252 --> 01:20:47,922
- Who is the emergency contact?
- No one will die.
1077
01:20:47,922 --> 01:20:50,466
There is a risk to life
In every surgery, is everything ok?
1078
01:20:50,466 --> 01:20:52,594
Now, as we discovered
Who is the emergency contact?
1079
01:20:52,594 --> 01:20:54,596
Just promise me you'll be
at home when he leaves.
1080
01:20:54,596 --> 01:20:57,181
Yes, yes, I'll be there, okay?
Sponge in hand.
1081
01:20:57,181 --> 01:20:59,267
But I'm not riding your scooter.
I hate that thing.
1082
01:20:59,267 --> 01:21:03,521
- What's in your car?
- He's dead. He died.
1083
01:21:03,521 --> 01:21:05,898
Anyway, if I'm going to be the
emergency contact,
1084
01:21:05,898 --> 01:21:06,983
I should take the car.
1085
01:21:06,983 --> 01:21:08,901
Get the damn bike, man.
1086
01:21:08,901 --> 01:21:11,654
- I have to find out.
- Dad, can we go now?
1087
01:21:11,654 --> 01:21:14,365
Just a second, honey, okay?
Sorry.
1088
01:21:16,784 --> 01:21:18,453
You barely said a word.
1089
01:21:20,038 --> 01:21:22,206
Please don't ask me.
1090
01:21:22,206 --> 01:21:25,543
Look, I can't. I just...
I can't even do that.
1091
01:21:25,543 --> 01:21:29,255
Okay. You know she's going to stay out
of action for a while, okay?
1092
01:21:29,255 --> 01:21:32,967
I can't be the only one
to keep this family together.
1093
01:21:32,967 --> 01:21:35,803
Why am I the only one who
Can James trust here?
1094
01:21:35,803 --> 01:21:38,389
Believe me, you are not
holding nothing together, here.
1095
01:21:40,600 --> 01:21:42,936
Give me the fucking scooter key.
1096
01:21:42,936 --> 01:21:44,437
Am I the emergency contact?
1097
01:21:44,437 --> 01:21:47,023
No. Lisa.
1098
01:21:48,587 --> 01:21:49,803
JUNE 19
1099
01:22:01,704 --> 01:22:04,958
Can you delete this?
You are disgusting.
1100
01:22:04,958 --> 01:22:07,877
That's no way to say it
with your nurse.
1101
01:22:07,877 --> 01:22:10,463
I have other things
to do, you know.
1102
01:22:14,092 --> 01:22:16,511
Are you going to delete this?
1103
01:22:16,511 --> 01:22:17,887
Make me.
1104
01:22:21,975 --> 01:22:26,229
This is probably seeping in
in my wounds, poisoning me.
1105
01:22:26,229 --> 01:22:29,983
It's right here, so you can
reach out and grab.
1106
01:22:29,983 --> 01:22:32,068
You really are horrible.
1107
01:22:33,403 --> 01:22:36,823
Let's go. This is very annoying.
1108
01:22:36,823 --> 01:22:38,491
I need a rest.
1109
01:22:40,576 --> 01:22:42,245
Where's your girlfriend?
1110
01:22:43,788 --> 01:22:45,331
Busy.
1111
01:22:46,666 --> 01:22:49,919
Busy? Trouble in paradise?
1112
01:22:51,921 --> 01:22:54,132
Shouldn't Billie be here?
1113
01:22:54,132 --> 01:22:55,550
What time does she get here
1114
01:22:55,550 --> 01:22:57,594
on this particular Tuesday?
1115
01:23:08,479 --> 01:23:11,024
Light breeze.
1116
01:23:38,509 --> 01:23:39,969
What?
1117
01:23:39,969 --> 01:23:41,804
What do you mean?
Aren't you at your mother's house?
1118
01:23:41,804 --> 01:23:43,598
I thought I was grounded.
1119
01:23:43,598 --> 01:23:46,643
To help your weakened mother,
You're not.
1120
01:23:46,643 --> 01:23:49,312
- James doesn't need me.
- I know.
1121
01:23:49,312 --> 01:23:51,856
I'm sure he is
doing well there with Harry.
1122
01:23:51,856 --> 01:23:56,277
There are others. A lot of others.
1123
01:23:56,277 --> 01:23:58,905
And don't try to fool me again,
1124
01:23:58,905 --> 01:24:03,534
picking me up at school
and taking me there.
1125
01:24:03,534 --> 01:24:06,287
Kidnapping me or something.
1126
01:24:07,664 --> 01:24:09,624
Chef.
1127
01:24:12,085 --> 01:24:13,711
Are you high?
1128
01:24:13,711 --> 01:24:16,339
Jesus, Billie.
1129
01:24:18,174 --> 01:24:19,717
Come on.
1130
01:24:21,844 --> 01:24:26,099
Look, I'm just doing
what he wanted.
1131
01:24:27,558 --> 01:24:29,727
You know, stay away.
1132
01:24:29,727 --> 01:24:32,814
Don't test my patience with this, Bill.
1133
01:24:32,814 --> 01:24:34,983
Do you really want to do this?
1134
01:24:34,983 --> 01:24:37,735
What are you going to do, daddy?
1135
01:24:37,735 --> 01:24:39,529
Punish me twice?
1136
01:24:44,784 --> 01:24:47,120
Well, she should be here.
1137
01:24:47,120 --> 01:24:49,956
You have a responsibility
with each other.
1138
01:24:49,956 --> 01:24:53,001
As? Like you with Frida?
1139
01:24:53,001 --> 01:24:55,587
What do you mean?
We get along very well.
1140
01:24:55,587 --> 01:24:58,089
Yes, because you are the only one
once a month.
1141
01:24:58,089 --> 01:25:01,342
Yes, and yet
we get along very well.
1142
01:25:01,342 --> 01:25:03,511
Because you come and go as you please
1143
01:25:03,511 --> 01:25:05,597
and she treats it like she should
be grateful
1144
01:25:05,597 --> 01:25:07,765
for you have graced her
with your presence.
1145
01:25:07,765 --> 01:25:11,436
I need a cigarette, okay?
1146
01:25:11,436 --> 01:25:13,062
Solve your shit with Billie,
1147
01:25:13,062 --> 01:25:15,106
and free us all from
a lot of problems.
1148
01:25:16,524 --> 01:25:17,900
Great.
1149
01:25:19,193 --> 01:25:20,820
Oh, Harry.
1150
01:25:20,820 --> 01:25:22,697
It wasn't me.
1151
01:25:22,697 --> 01:25:24,991
Must have been the fuse again.
1152
01:25:24,991 --> 01:25:26,826
Very funny.
1153
01:25:26,826 --> 01:25:28,828
Oh, shut the hell up.
1154
01:25:32,793 --> 01:25:33,809
JUNE 26
1155
01:25:36,424 --> 01:25:37,322
Oh no, just be sure.
1156
01:25:38,129 --> 01:25:39,422
Legal.
1157
01:25:40,840 --> 01:25:41,840
T�.
1158
01:25:42,967 --> 01:25:44,969
No. Three.
1159
01:25:56,022 --> 01:25:58,358
Before I enter,
1160
01:25:58,358 --> 01:26:01,152
Did you know that I am known
like James nowadays?
1161
01:26:04,280 --> 01:26:06,324
Yes. I shouldn't be surprised.
1162
01:26:06,324 --> 01:26:08,034
Things go by.
1163
01:26:08,034 --> 01:26:10,536
Okay, I'll see you then.
1164
01:26:10,536 --> 01:26:11,871
Health.
1165
01:26:43,778 --> 01:26:45,154
How are you?
1166
01:26:46,322 --> 01:26:47,072
Well.
1167
01:26:55,373 --> 01:26:56,874
Billie.
1168
01:27:00,378 --> 01:27:05,174
No offense,
but your father is a scary guy.
1169
01:27:05,174 --> 01:27:06,676
I don't want to cross paths with him.
1170
01:27:06,676 --> 01:27:08,219
Who cares?
1171
01:27:08,219 --> 01:27:10,138
I don't have to do
what he says.
1172
01:27:11,598 --> 01:27:12,098
�.
1173
01:27:17,186 --> 01:27:20,189
- Have you heard from Jas?
- Oh, yes...
1174
01:27:20,189 --> 01:27:23,318
She's not answering
my connections.
1175
01:27:23,318 --> 01:27:26,070
�. I think she blocked you.
1176
01:27:31,034 --> 01:27:33,786
If I gave you a message,
would you pass it on?
1177
01:27:33,786 --> 01:27:36,623
You know, some kind of excuse?
1178
01:27:36,623 --> 01:27:38,082
Look...
1179
01:27:39,834 --> 01:27:41,336
I don't know.
1180
01:27:55,989 --> 01:27:57,150
JULY 3
1181
01:27:58,067 --> 01:27:59,004
46th TUESDAY
1182
01:28:17,163 --> 01:28:20,458
You said you needed this
tonight.
1183
01:28:20,458 --> 01:28:20,958
�.
1184
01:28:46,651 --> 01:28:48,945
How many of these are there?
1185
01:28:48,945 --> 01:28:50,321
That's it.
1186
01:28:54,993 --> 01:28:57,412
Well I can see why
Harry took it from you.
1187
01:28:58,705 --> 01:29:00,915
He wasn't protecting me.
1188
01:29:00,915 --> 01:29:02,417
This is...
1189
01:29:05,503 --> 01:29:07,088
something.
1190
01:29:12,677 --> 01:29:14,470
Why record this?
1191
01:29:15,680 --> 01:29:17,974
Why record your transition?
1192
01:29:17,974 --> 01:29:19,892
Or your trip to America?
1193
01:29:20,935 --> 01:29:22,604
To be able to return.
1194
01:29:24,522 --> 01:29:27,609
To see things that I
I couldn't see it at the time.
1195
01:29:27,609 --> 01:29:29,986
The small changes.
1196
01:29:29,986 --> 01:29:31,404
To show you.
1197
01:29:37,911 --> 01:29:40,288
You look exactly the same.
1198
01:29:43,833 --> 01:29:45,418
Pareto?
1199
01:29:45,418 --> 01:29:48,963
This whole year has been about whether
become a man.
1200
01:29:48,963 --> 01:29:50,673
I know.
1201
01:29:50,673 --> 01:29:53,843
You said you would take testosterone.
1202
01:29:53,843 --> 01:29:55,929
You said you
would have a masculine chest.
1203
01:29:57,597 --> 01:29:59,933
Well, I had surgery and that's great,
1204
01:29:59,933 --> 01:30:03,311
but without testosterone,
it will take time.
1205
01:30:03,311 --> 01:30:06,147
I agreed with this
1206
01:30:06,147 --> 01:30:09,108
because I thought you
was going to become a man.
1207
01:30:09,108 --> 01:30:12,320
I would. I would.
1208
01:30:12,320 --> 01:30:14,614
So when do you change?
1209
01:30:16,115 --> 01:30:19,077
It's not just about the physical.
1210
01:30:19,077 --> 01:30:21,371
- It never ends.
- No, it doesn't end.
1211
01:30:24,290 --> 01:30:26,417
That's why I still need
resolve some things.
1212
01:30:28,628 --> 01:30:30,505
Where have I heard this before?
1213
01:30:31,923 --> 01:30:33,424
Do you need another year?
1214
01:30:35,301 --> 01:30:38,388
What do you still need to resolve?
1215
01:30:38,388 --> 01:30:39,722
You.
1216
01:30:42,475 --> 01:30:44,602
I have to sort things out with you.
1217
01:30:47,605 --> 01:30:49,232
Can I get this back?
1218
01:30:59,075 --> 01:31:00,910
You want this for school, right?
1219
01:31:00,910 --> 01:31:02,745
For a project?
1220
01:31:02,745 --> 01:31:04,289
Does it matter?
1221
01:31:05,290 --> 01:31:06,874
This is dangerous.
1222
01:31:06,874 --> 01:31:09,419
Look, it's not what you think.
1223
01:31:09,419 --> 01:31:10,837
It doesn't matter what I think.
1224
01:31:10,837 --> 01:31:12,880
You shouldn't have what you have there.
1225
01:31:19,762 --> 01:31:21,306
Do you know what I should do?
1226
01:31:23,016 --> 01:31:25,768
I should burn this.
1227
01:31:25,768 --> 01:31:29,939
I should look for all
your things and burn everything.
1228
01:31:29,939 --> 01:31:35,153
If you do anything with
this tape, I walk out that door
1229
01:31:36,029 --> 01:31:39,365
and luckily I don't talk to you
never again.
1230
01:31:45,163 --> 01:31:47,332
If this gets out...
1231
01:31:48,875 --> 01:31:50,418
Please.
1232
01:31:57,133 --> 01:31:59,177
- Don't you dare.
- I am really sorry.
1233
01:32:33,108 --> 01:32:34,345
JULY 10
1234
01:32:35,107 --> 01:32:35,988
47th TUESDAY
1235
01:32:49,227 --> 01:32:51,813
When we are here...
1236
01:32:51,813 --> 01:32:53,523
in this place...
1237
01:32:55,108 --> 01:32:56,526
things make sense.
1238
01:33:04,909 --> 01:33:09,205
This is my mother. That's how
her back looks like.
1239
01:33:31,534 --> 01:33:32,509
JULY 17
1240
01:33:33,596 --> 01:33:34,300
48th TUESDAY
1241
01:33:42,405 --> 01:33:46,784
There are so many things that
I should have said it before.
1242
01:33:46,784 --> 01:33:49,245
You know, I should
I told you, but...
1243
01:33:49,245 --> 01:33:51,289
I felt trapped
or something like that
1244
01:33:51,289 --> 01:33:53,458
and I didn't feel like I could talk.
1245
01:33:56,419 --> 01:33:57,712
Damn.
1246
01:33:59,505 --> 01:34:02,425
It's a sacred thing
hide from your daughter.
1247
01:34:05,303 --> 01:34:08,097
And then Tuesdays became
our special moment.
1248
01:34:18,107 --> 01:34:20,568
All these things happened.
1249
01:34:20,568 --> 01:34:22,403
You know, important stuff.
1250
01:34:22,403 --> 01:34:23,863
This happens all the time.
1251
01:35:17,654 --> 01:35:19,032
FOR JAS...
WITH LOVE, BILLIE.
1252
01:35:26,134 --> 01:35:27,844
Jasmine?
1253
01:35:30,972 --> 01:35:33,099
There was food left,
if you want.
1254
01:35:51,721 --> 01:35:52,910
JULY 24
1255
01:35:53,600 --> 01:35:54,503
49th TUESDAY
1256
01:36:48,675 --> 01:36:51,803
The population of the Earth
reached seven billion.
1257
01:36:51,803 --> 01:36:53,721
And then, you know,
in Antarctica,
1258
01:36:53,721 --> 01:36:56,641
a glacier the size
from New York broke up.
1259
01:36:56,641 --> 01:36:58,726
Or almost broke up.
1260
01:36:58,726 --> 01:37:01,020
You know, there was that whole thing
of the Arab Spring.
1261
01:37:01,020 --> 01:37:03,106
And Occupy Wall Street,
1262
01:37:03,106 --> 01:37:05,358
and, I don't know, everything in Egypt.
1263
01:37:05,358 --> 01:37:07,193
You reached the 12th grade,
1264
01:37:07,193 --> 01:37:10,280
Josh had three different beards,
1265
01:37:10,280 --> 01:37:12,949
and... my mother became a man.
1266
01:37:14,242 --> 01:37:15,660
All these things happened.
1267
01:37:15,660 --> 01:37:17,412
You know, important things.
1268
01:37:17,412 --> 01:37:19,539
And this happens all the time.
1269
01:37:19,539 --> 01:37:23,334
And how do you... How do you
Do you know what really matters?
1270
01:37:23,334 --> 01:37:27,046
Back to the beginning
I didn't know what it would be like.
1271
01:37:27,046 --> 01:37:32,051
You know, how supportive,
how angry, how worried.
1272
01:37:33,845 --> 01:37:34,971
And you...
1273
01:37:36,306 --> 01:37:38,099
You looked so clear.
1274
01:37:38,099 --> 01:37:40,143
I mean, we both looked alike.
1275
01:37:40,143 --> 01:37:43,313
You know, clear about what you liked
and what I felt.
1276
01:37:43,313 --> 01:37:44,814
I didn't go.
1277
01:37:46,024 --> 01:37:48,318
And sex...
1278
01:37:48,318 --> 01:37:51,988
it still didn't make sense,
but it felt great and strange
1279
01:37:51,988 --> 01:37:54,198
and at least I don't
I felt like Billie
1280
01:37:54,198 --> 01:37:56,659
that James was trying to get rid of.
1281
01:37:56,659 --> 01:37:59,037
I felt like myself.
1282
01:37:59,037 --> 01:38:03,124
Look, I just... I didn't mean to
talk about my mother,
1283
01:38:03,124 --> 01:38:06,169
and how it would be easier for him
If I weren't around,
1284
01:38:06,169 --> 01:38:09,297
or probably better for him
if I didn't even exist.
1285
01:38:11,174 --> 01:38:14,010
I wanted to know about you...
and Josh.
1286
01:38:14,530 --> 01:38:15,390
JULY 31
1287
01:38:16,583 --> 01:38:17,334
50th TUESDAY
1288
01:38:31,861 --> 01:38:34,322
Clear about what you liked
and what I felt.
1289
01:38:34,322 --> 01:38:35,865
In this part here,
1290
01:38:35,865 --> 01:38:38,159
It's pretty obvious that they
they had sex.
1291
01:38:38,159 --> 01:38:39,869
This is incredibly explicit.
1292
01:38:39,869 --> 01:38:41,913
And how many more shoots
Do you have it?
1293
01:38:41,913 --> 01:38:43,581
This was supposed to be a school project.
1294
01:38:43,581 --> 01:38:46,167
- What's going on?
- I agree that this is it...
1295
01:38:46,167 --> 01:38:48,002
that Billie and James
1296
01:38:48,002 --> 01:38:50,088
they were trying to escape.
I felt like it was me.
1297
01:38:53,925 --> 01:38:56,261
You need to get rid of this.
If this hits the net...
1298
01:38:56,261 --> 01:38:59,305
- Why would it fall into the net?
- You had sex in front of the camera.
1299
01:38:59,305 --> 01:39:01,599
This wasn't meant for anyone else.
1300
01:39:01,599 --> 01:39:04,102
I can't believe you did this.
1301
01:39:04,102 --> 01:39:06,312
But you understand why
Do you need to get rid of it?
1302
01:39:06,312 --> 01:39:07,062
No.
1303
01:39:07,897 --> 01:39:09,565
You know we can take this
for the police.
1304
01:39:09,565 --> 01:39:11,276
But this will get everyone in trouble.
1305
01:39:11,276 --> 01:39:12,944
Billie was under the
age of consent.
1306
01:39:12,944 --> 01:39:14,654
- Are you blackmailing us?
- No way.
1307
01:39:14,654 --> 01:39:16,656
I'm saying that put
the police in this
1308
01:39:16,656 --> 01:39:18,783
will ruin lives
of all of them,
1309
01:39:18,783 --> 01:39:22,704
so we need to convince Billie
to destroy the footage herself.
1310
01:39:22,704 --> 01:39:25,999
Even if she agrees to it,
How can we take her word for it?
1311
01:39:25,999 --> 01:39:28,376
Look, guys, I'll make sure
that she does that, right?
1312
01:39:28,376 --> 01:39:30,503
Maybe we can be there,
so we can be sure.
1313
01:39:30,503 --> 01:39:32,964
But my opinion is that
we can never be sure.
1314
01:39:32,964 --> 01:39:36,301
So you're basically saying
that you can't trust me.
1315
01:39:36,301 --> 01:39:39,929
I'm trying to explain the position
impossible we are in.
1316
01:39:46,185 --> 01:39:48,229
Look...
1317
01:39:48,229 --> 01:39:51,274
After that, you will not have
to listen to me more,
1318
01:39:51,274 --> 01:39:53,026
I swear.
1319
01:39:53,026 --> 01:39:54,694
You don't even need
have me in your life
1320
01:39:54,694 --> 01:39:55,945
if that's what they want.
1321
01:39:55,945 --> 01:39:57,530
But if it continues like this,
1322
01:39:57,530 --> 01:40:00,617
you won't get much more.
1323
01:40:03,244 --> 01:40:05,622
You just had to give
This for Jasmin.
1324
01:40:06,789 --> 01:40:08,416
How could you watch?
1325
01:40:10,460 --> 01:40:11,961
Because I showed her.
1326
01:40:13,630 --> 01:40:17,091
What should I do
with all this?
1327
01:40:17,091 --> 01:40:20,386
I didn't know what to do,
So I showed it to mom.
1328
01:40:20,386 --> 01:40:22,597
And then she called us,
finally.
1329
01:40:28,853 --> 01:40:30,480
There are worse things
in the world
1330
01:40:30,480 --> 01:40:33,107
than having a mother who
wants to be someone.
1331
01:40:33,107 --> 01:40:34,233
Trust in me.
1332
01:40:35,902 --> 01:40:38,446
I wanted to go out with you.
1333
01:40:38,446 --> 01:40:41,532
I liked the camera.
1334
01:40:41,532 --> 01:40:46,120
But now, I don't want
Let no one else see this.
1335
01:41:05,620 --> 01:41:06,606
AUGUST 7
1336
01:41:07,589 --> 01:41:08,513
51st TUESDAY
1337
01:41:08,513 --> 01:41:09,560
Knock.
1338
01:41:09,560 --> 01:41:11,771
Hit. Hit.
1339
01:41:11,771 --> 01:41:14,107
Hit. Again.
1340
01:41:14,107 --> 01:41:15,817
Hit.
1341
01:41:17,819 --> 01:41:19,904
Hit. Hit.
1342
01:41:19,904 --> 01:41:21,114
Continue.
1343
01:41:21,114 --> 01:41:23,533
Hit. Hit.
1344
01:41:26,452 --> 01:41:29,455
So, you have your
fellow shit back?
1345
01:41:30,623 --> 01:41:31,916
I got rid of everything.
1346
01:41:31,916 --> 01:41:33,876
No more child pornography
for free, then?
1347
01:41:35,878 --> 01:41:37,463
Is it really?
1348
01:41:39,382 --> 01:41:41,759
Do you think I still
Do I have anything?
1349
01:41:43,970 --> 01:41:45,221
Frida!
1350
01:41:46,973 --> 01:41:49,267
Tell me.
1351
01:41:49,738 --> 01:41:51,425
Come on, why worry?
1352
01:41:52,161 --> 01:41:52,989
You're out of business now.
1353
01:41:54,131 --> 01:41:55,472
No more games, Harry,
please.
1354
01:41:58,222 --> 01:42:00,275
Later, when all this
has finished,
1355
01:42:00,653 --> 01:42:04,324
Wouldn't it have been nice to have stayed
with a little bit?
1356
01:42:04,324 --> 01:42:05,950
Fuck them.
No one will know.
1357
01:42:07,952 --> 01:42:09,746
Why are you doing this?
1358
01:42:09,746 --> 01:42:12,081
Frida, will you stop this?
1359
01:42:15,251 --> 01:42:18,338
- What do you want me to say?
- Say you have nothing.
1360
01:42:18,338 --> 01:42:20,924
Okay. Well, anything I say
You won't believe it.
1361
01:42:20,924 --> 01:42:23,092
About what?
1362
01:42:23,092 --> 01:42:25,511
�. You're right.
1363
01:42:25,511 --> 01:42:27,096
That's why we need to go
right now,
1364
01:42:27,096 --> 01:42:28,890
so can you show me
that you have nothing.
1365
01:42:28,890 --> 01:42:30,642
I can't, even if I wanted to.
1366
01:42:30,642 --> 01:42:33,102
I'm with Frida
and I got sound check,
1367
01:42:33,102 --> 01:42:35,063
and then I have a show.
1368
01:42:35,063 --> 01:42:37,982
Go to the house yourself
and check. I don't care.
1369
01:42:37,982 --> 01:42:41,569
- You know James will be there.
- So what?
1370
01:42:41,569 --> 01:42:44,572
- I'm not going alone.
- You will avoid him
1371
01:42:44,572 --> 01:42:46,741
for the rest of your life now, will you?
1372
01:42:49,077 --> 01:42:51,496
Why?
Don't you trust him?
1373
01:42:51,496 --> 01:42:53,414
Do you trust?
1374
01:42:53,414 --> 01:42:56,042
Well, you'll have it yourself
Let's go and look, okay?
1375
01:42:56,042 --> 01:42:58,253
I can't go there.
1376
01:42:58,253 --> 01:43:00,672
I can't go there.
1377
01:43:00,672 --> 01:43:03,091
- Dude, I have to go to work.
- Do you have to go?
1378
01:43:03,091 --> 01:43:05,218
Fuck yes I have
Go to work, Bill.
1379
01:43:05,218 --> 01:43:07,637
You know, they're dying there without me.
1380
01:43:07,637 --> 01:43:10,098
I wasted a lot of time
in all this shit.
1381
01:43:12,517 --> 01:43:14,686
Sorry. I'm tired,
are you ok?
1382
01:43:14,686 --> 01:43:16,062
Look, I'll go.
1383
01:43:17,480 --> 01:43:19,607
I go straight after work.
1384
01:43:19,607 --> 01:43:21,276
In the meantime, don't wait, girl.
1385
01:43:21,276 --> 01:43:23,444
Watch a movie,
or read a book...
1386
01:43:24,737 --> 01:43:26,656
Take care, huh?
1387
01:44:17,123 --> 01:44:18,875
Billie.
1388
01:44:20,501 --> 01:44:22,211
You came.
1389
01:44:24,422 --> 01:44:26,007
I wasn't sure.
1390
01:44:27,175 --> 01:44:29,469
Oh my God.
1391
01:44:29,469 --> 01:44:31,262
Of course I would come.
1392
01:44:47,162 --> 01:44:48,305
AUGUST 14
1393
01:44:50,223 --> 01:44:51,023
52nd TUESDAY
1394
01:45:08,800 --> 01:45:10,260
It's Tuesday.
1395
01:45:36,869 --> 01:45:38,413
I can't stay here forever.
1396
01:45:58,808 --> 01:46:02,520
I'll do it quickly,
just so I don't embarrass myself too much.
1397
01:46:02,520 --> 01:46:04,314
Or cry.
1398
01:46:07,817 --> 01:46:09,986
You watch your child grow old
1399
01:46:09,986 --> 01:46:15,199
and you know they've changed,
but don't know how or what
1400
01:46:16,618 --> 01:46:19,746
or exactly when
this happened.
1401
01:46:19,746 --> 01:46:22,081
It is difficult to identify when,
isn't it?
1402
01:46:24,667 --> 01:46:27,253
But you were actually very good at it.
1403
01:46:27,253 --> 01:46:30,465
Knowing how
or what or when.
1404
01:46:31,966 --> 01:46:33,801
Much better than I was.
1405
01:46:36,304 --> 01:46:37,805
So...
1406
01:46:39,766 --> 01:46:43,353
I hope you're around
to keep me updated.
1407
01:46:50,193 --> 01:46:52,237
All good.
1408
01:46:52,237 --> 01:46:54,572
With the cheese,
somehow it pays off.
1409
01:46:54,572 --> 01:46:59,577
It pays off, you have both:
the creaminess and the broth.
1410
01:47:00,536 --> 01:47:02,080
Sir, it's your turn.
1411
01:47:03,331 --> 01:47:05,625
Sir, it's your turn.
Cup of tea.
1412
01:47:32,026 --> 01:47:33,778
How was school?
1413
01:47:50,587 --> 01:47:52,505
James visited me earlier.
1414
01:47:53,840 --> 01:47:55,508
He looked fine.
1415
01:47:57,885 --> 01:48:00,847
He's slow, you know,
but he gets there.
1416
01:48:02,974 --> 01:48:05,184
He just put it off for a long time.
1417
01:48:07,228 --> 01:48:09,480
Please don't tell me
it was all for my good.
1418
01:48:09,480 --> 01:48:10,815
Come on, man.
1419
01:48:10,815 --> 01:48:14,152
You loved Jane. Unconditionally.
1420
01:48:14,152 --> 01:48:16,779
You idolized her.
1421
01:48:16,779 --> 01:48:19,115
What mother would want to change that?
1422
01:48:20,909 --> 01:48:22,535
He certainly didn't want to.
1423
01:48:29,500 --> 01:48:32,670
Most people do things
with the best of intentions,
1424
01:48:32,670 --> 01:48:36,090
and sometimes that doesn't work.
1425
01:48:36,090 --> 01:48:39,427
Things happen,
you make a stupid decision...
1426
01:48:40,470 --> 01:48:42,096
You become lazy.
1427
01:48:43,473 --> 01:48:45,266
You crash the scooter.
1428
01:48:46,726 --> 01:48:48,478
It's life, Bill.
1429
01:48:52,732 --> 01:48:55,234
It does anyway.
1430
01:48:55,234 --> 01:48:56,861
Of course.
1431
01:49:03,993 --> 01:49:05,995
You don't want what you had before...
1432
01:49:07,538 --> 01:49:10,208
only knowing part of a person.
1433
01:49:12,293 --> 01:49:15,255
James showed you, Bill.
He's not hiding anything.
1434
01:49:18,091 --> 01:49:20,551
You have the chance to know
who your mother really is.
1435
01:49:22,553 --> 01:49:24,889
And that's when you can choose to love him.
1436
01:49:26,307 --> 01:49:28,309
Or not.
1437
01:49:28,309 --> 01:49:30,770
You can make this choice
every day if you want.
1438
01:49:34,399 --> 01:49:36,651
But there's no other way.
1439
01:51:12,622 --> 01:51:16,417
Okay. I'm ready.
1440
01:51:44,009 --> 01:51:46,585
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