1 00:00:24,459 --> 00:00:27,462 All right, y'all, I'm finna head out. 2 00:00:27,462 --> 00:00:29,499 Wait, you're, uh, you're leavin'? 3 00:00:30,999 --> 00:00:33,172 Yeah, I'm about to leave right now. 4 00:00:42,711 --> 00:00:46,615 Is-is everything good? 5 00:00:46,615 --> 00:00:50,155 Yeah, before you go, bro, I, I really gotta talk to you about somethin'. 6 00:00:53,658 --> 00:00:55,660 Like what, man? 7 00:00:56,861 --> 00:00:59,061 Everything. 8 00:00:59,061 --> 00:01:02,062 The fuck is you talkin' 'bout, bruh? 9 00:01:04,902 --> 00:01:06,305 Bro... 10 00:01:09,673 --> 00:01:12,411 The fuckin' cops found Mouse's body. 11 00:01:16,146 --> 00:01:17,482 Sorry. 12 00:01:42,270 --> 00:01:44,706 Did you hear what I said? 13 00:01:44,706 --> 00:01:46,208 Ch-ch-ch... 14 00:01:46,208 --> 00:01:51,813 I thought you told me that Laurie killed Mouse, right? 15 00:01:51,813 --> 00:01:53,352 Laurie? - Wha-- 16 00:01:54,819 --> 00:01:56,185 I never said that. 17 00:01:56,185 --> 00:01:58,086 What are you talkin' about? 18 00:01:58,086 --> 00:01:59,887 Yeah, you know, Laurie, 19 00:01:59,887 --> 00:02:04,292 the drug dealer that lives in the apartment complex off Kemper. 20 00:02:04,292 --> 00:02:08,163 Yeah, you were the one that told me she killed Mouse. 21 00:02:08,163 --> 00:02:10,169 I never said that. 22 00:02:12,402 --> 00:02:15,637 - Yes, you did. What are you talking about? 23 00:02:15,637 --> 00:02:17,873 - Are you high? You know that Laurie and those 24 00:02:17,873 --> 00:02:19,208 fucking people, they scare me. 25 00:02:19,208 --> 00:02:21,010 Why are you trying to protect them? 26 00:02:21,010 --> 00:02:23,011 I'm not fuckin' protecting anyone. 27 00:02:23,011 --> 00:02:24,479 What the fuck is this? 28 00:02:24,479 --> 00:02:27,082 - So, you're working for Laurie? Hey, no! 29 00:02:27,082 --> 00:02:29,083 So how about you just shut the fuck up! 30 00:02:29,083 --> 00:02:34,223 Okay, then why are you trying to cover up a murder that she committed? 31 00:02:34,223 --> 00:02:36,791 All right, now. 32 00:02:36,791 --> 00:02:39,394 Think it's time for you to get outta here, big fella. 33 00:02:39,394 --> 00:02:42,997 Bro... we gotta figure out what the fuck we're gonna say. 34 00:02:42,997 --> 00:02:45,868 - Okay, this is becoming a fucking issue. - Wait, Ash. Ash, Ash! 35 00:02:45,868 --> 00:02:47,002 No! 36 00:03:54,238 --> 00:03:56,371 Do you ever think about the future? 37 00:03:56,371 --> 00:03:58,974 Yeah, all the time. - Really? 38 00:03:58,974 --> 00:04:00,776 Yeah. 39 00:04:00,776 --> 00:04:02,377 Like you have a plan? 40 00:04:02,377 --> 00:04:05,848 I mean, I don’t, I don’t got, like, a plan-plan, 41 00:04:05,848 --> 00:04:08,116 but I be thinking about 42 00:04:08,116 --> 00:04:11,252 living on a farm, you know? 43 00:04:11,252 --> 00:04:12,955 I don’t really see you as a farmer. 44 00:04:12,955 --> 00:04:14,389 Yeah, fuck it. 45 00:04:14,389 --> 00:04:18,427 Get some horses, cows, pigs, chickens, goats. 46 00:04:18,427 --> 00:04:20,365 Have a little family. 47 00:04:22,132 --> 00:04:25,267 Like some "Little House on the Prairie"-type shit. You know? 48 00:04:25,267 --> 00:04:26,934 I don’t know if I know that show. 49 00:04:26,934 --> 00:04:29,905 You never heard of "Little House on the Prairie"? 50 00:04:29,905 --> 00:04:31,841 Okay, this might sound kind of crazy but, 51 00:04:31,841 --> 00:04:34,509 my plan is to have, like, three kids at 30. 52 00:04:34,509 --> 00:04:37,079 Like, each one a year and a half apart. 53 00:04:37,079 --> 00:04:39,747 So from 30 to 58, I can focus on, 54 00:04:39,747 --> 00:04:42,817 you know, being a good mom and raising my kids, et cetera, et cetera. 55 00:04:42,817 --> 00:04:46,388 And then, drop the last one off at college at 58. 56 00:04:46,388 --> 00:04:48,523 Which will give me, like, 32 years 57 00:04:48,523 --> 00:04:51,159 to focus on me and live my life 58 00:04:51,159 --> 00:04:53,361 and take my time with writing. 59 00:04:53,361 --> 00:04:56,359 I mean, you really got this shit all figured out, huh? 60 00:04:56,359 --> 00:04:59,067 Yeah. It's kind of crazy, right? 61 00:04:59,067 --> 00:05:01,402 I mean... 62 00:05:01,402 --> 00:05:04,343 they got, they got three kids in that show. 63 00:05:05,809 --> 00:05:08,877 There’s no need to forget your manners. 64 00:05:08,877 --> 00:05:11,111 Just because we’re hundreds of miles from civilized folk. 65 00:05:11,111 --> 00:05:13,648 If you lived in a place like this, do you think you’d have a gun? 66 00:05:13,648 --> 00:05:16,088 Hell yeah, I’d own a gun. 67 00:05:17,055 --> 00:05:19,454 I hate guns. 68 00:05:19,454 --> 00:05:22,524 Nobody’s ever got shot at and thought to they-self, 69 00:05:22,524 --> 00:05:28,030 "Whoa! Thank goodness we didn’t have a gun to shoot back." You know? 70 00:05:28,030 --> 00:05:31,099 Yeah, but then what are the police for? 71 00:05:31,099 --> 00:05:33,502 Fucked if I know. Shit. 72 00:05:33,502 --> 00:05:35,871 Wait, are you on Instagram or Twitter? 73 00:05:35,871 --> 00:05:37,305 Hell no. 74 00:05:37,305 --> 00:05:40,475 - Really? Why? - Oh yeah. 75 00:05:40,475 --> 00:05:42,244 Well, why would I want anybody 76 00:05:42,244 --> 00:05:44,279 knowin' what I'm thinkin' or feelin'? 77 00:05:44,279 --> 00:05:45,781 I don't know. You can connect 78 00:05:45,781 --> 00:05:47,482 with people who have similar interests. 79 00:05:47,482 --> 00:05:49,351 Mmm. I just feel like people 80 00:05:49,351 --> 00:05:51,420 be sharin' way too much on there. 81 00:05:51,420 --> 00:05:53,288 - Online? - Yeah. 82 00:05:53,288 --> 00:05:56,024 They be ruinin' the mystery, you know? 83 00:05:56,024 --> 00:05:58,193 Like, say if I like a girl, 84 00:05:58,193 --> 00:06:01,697 I wanna find out what she's about on my own, you know? 85 00:06:01,697 --> 00:06:04,499 I don't wanna google the scraps. 86 00:06:04,499 --> 00:06:07,269 I wanna, I wanna peel back the layers. 87 00:06:07,269 --> 00:06:10,806 Yeah, but, like, why would you wanna waste time getting to know someone... 88 00:06:10,806 --> 00:06:13,208 if you don't have anything in common with them? 89 00:06:13,208 --> 00:06:15,377 I don't know. That's what I like 90 00:06:15,377 --> 00:06:17,780 about you the most, though, like... 91 00:06:17,780 --> 00:06:19,682 we don't really have nothin' in common. 92 00:06:19,682 --> 00:06:21,282 That's not true. We both... 93 00:06:21,282 --> 00:06:23,184 have the same sense of humor, 94 00:06:23,184 --> 00:06:27,459 and... are empathic and curious. 95 00:06:29,126 --> 00:06:30,925 And wanna have, like, kids. 96 00:06:30,925 --> 00:06:33,962 Those aren't interests, you know, those are 97 00:06:33,962 --> 00:06:35,831 real character traits. 98 00:06:35,831 --> 00:06:38,333 It's-- That's the important shit that, that 99 00:06:38,333 --> 00:06:40,502 people don't post online. 100 00:06:40,502 --> 00:06:43,638 Yeah, I never thought about it that way. 101 00:06:43,638 --> 00:06:47,510 Well, aren't you glad that we became friends? 102 00:06:47,510 --> 00:06:50,882 Yeah... very much so. 103 00:06:52,049 --> 00:06:54,884 Yeah, me too. 104 00:07:08,196 --> 00:07:09,865 Hey, Lexi! It's going so well! 105 00:07:09,865 --> 00:07:11,166 We're gettin' a lot of really good laughs. 106 00:07:11,166 --> 00:07:12,972 Yeah, let's not get cocky, okay? 107 00:08:17,936 --> 00:08:19,835 Oh god. 108 00:09:00,611 --> 00:09:03,645 - ...thousand versions of myself. 109 00:09:03,645 --> 00:09:06,681 Only do I look good, but I fucking feel good-- 110 00:09:11,588 --> 00:09:14,222 Lexi, you really outdid yourself. 111 00:09:14,222 --> 00:09:16,658 I mean... 112 00:09:16,658 --> 00:09:19,394 where did she find these knock-offs. 113 00:09:19,394 --> 00:09:20,596 - Oh shit. 114 00:09:20,596 --> 00:09:22,330 I had no idea 115 00:09:22,330 --> 00:09:24,467 that my sister had this in her. 116 00:09:24,467 --> 00:09:26,669 Good job, right? 117 00:09:26,669 --> 00:09:28,770 Isn't she brave? 118 00:09:28,770 --> 00:09:32,540 She’s up here, unpacking all of her trauma. 119 00:09:32,540 --> 00:09:35,643 I had no idea how hard your life was, Lexi. 120 00:09:35,643 --> 00:09:37,846 - Shush! - Can we give a round of applause 121 00:09:37,846 --> 00:09:40,115 for how hard Lexi's life is? 122 00:09:42,217 --> 00:09:44,353 Come on, guys. 123 00:09:44,353 --> 00:09:48,057 I know they hack the heads off of women in Afghanistan or wherever. 124 00:09:48,057 --> 00:09:49,859 That's racist! God. 125 00:09:49,859 --> 00:09:53,065 It is nothing compared to living in my shadow. 126 00:09:54,564 --> 00:09:56,999 Yo, is this like a part of the play? 127 00:09:56,999 --> 00:09:59,338 - Is this part of the play? 128 00:10:00,104 --> 00:10:01,970 I don't know. 129 00:10:01,970 --> 00:10:04,367 - Lexi. Her name's Luna! 130 00:10:04,367 --> 00:10:05,907 Is this part of the play? 131 00:10:05,907 --> 00:10:08,376 - Lexi? Stop, please stop. 132 00:10:08,376 --> 00:10:10,713 This is your show. Come out! 133 00:10:10,713 --> 00:10:13,515 You're the big star of the day! 134 00:10:13,515 --> 00:10:15,383 - Oh shit. - Please, Cassie, stop it. 135 00:10:15,383 --> 00:10:16,652 You're the star of the night. 136 00:10:16,652 --> 00:10:18,420 She's always wanted to be the star. 137 00:10:18,420 --> 00:10:20,455 Whoo-hoo! Go, Lexi! 138 00:10:20,455 --> 00:10:23,292 This is your big moment. Shine! 139 00:10:23,292 --> 00:10:25,994 Please, stop. Please, stop. Please, stop. Please, stop. 140 00:10:25,994 --> 00:10:28,700 I should stop? Me? 141 00:10:29,767 --> 00:10:31,561 I'm not the one putting on a play 142 00:10:31,561 --> 00:10:33,969 - to humiliate and embarrass you! - I didn't do that. 143 00:10:33,969 --> 00:10:35,605 Oh really?! 144 00:10:35,605 --> 00:10:37,206 Then what is this?! 145 00:10:37,206 --> 00:10:40,175 - What act are we in? - Don't question it. 146 00:10:40,175 --> 00:10:42,845 That's the brilliance of Lexi Howard. 147 00:10:42,845 --> 00:10:44,179 Hi, everyone. 148 00:10:44,179 --> 00:10:46,849 I'm Suze. I'm the girls' mom in real life. 149 00:10:46,849 --> 00:10:48,150 Oh my god. 150 00:10:48,150 --> 00:10:49,752 Um, played by Ethan. 151 00:10:49,752 --> 00:10:52,087 Where is he? Ethan? 152 00:10:52,087 --> 00:10:53,922 - Who by the way-- 153 00:10:53,922 --> 00:10:56,757 he-- you have me down to a, to a, to a science, honey. 154 00:10:56,757 --> 00:10:59,695 - Thank you. Thank you, guys. I appreciate it. - He's gonna win an award. 155 00:10:59,695 --> 00:11:01,496 Honey, let's go home. 156 00:11:01,496 --> 00:11:04,432 - I deserve this, right? - Oh my god, please, Mom, Mom. 157 00:11:04,432 --> 00:11:05,801 - I deserve this? Stop! 158 00:11:05,801 --> 00:11:07,669 Mom, stop! - Shh, you stop it. 159 00:11:07,669 --> 00:11:10,172 Lexi, I'm going to fucking kill you. 160 00:11:10,172 --> 00:11:11,639 I deserve this, right? 161 00:11:11,639 --> 00:11:13,913 Because I've actually lived a life? 162 00:11:14,312 --> 00:11:15,377 Mom? 163 00:11:15,377 --> 00:11:18,308 I'm the one who takes risks. 164 00:11:18,308 --> 00:11:19,548 Show us your boobs! 165 00:11:19,548 --> 00:11:22,752 I'm the one who falls in love? 166 00:11:22,752 --> 00:11:26,422 I'm the one who gets hurt, not you, Lexi! 167 00:11:28,023 --> 00:11:32,293 You never even fucking lived! 168 00:11:32,293 --> 00:11:36,464 That's why you're able to stand up here and judge all of us! 169 00:11:36,464 --> 00:11:39,100 You're just a fuckin' bystander. 170 00:11:39,100 --> 00:11:40,936 - Alright, alright-- - Mom, stop! 171 00:11:40,936 --> 00:11:44,243 - Alright! 172 00:11:45,710 --> 00:11:48,176 Oh, okay... 173 00:11:48,176 --> 00:11:51,412 Well if that makes me a villain, 174 00:11:51,412 --> 00:11:54,753 - Whoo! - Then so fuckin' be it. 175 00:11:56,017 --> 00:11:57,887 I can play the fucking villain. 176 00:11:57,887 --> 00:11:59,955 Yeah, do it! 177 00:11:59,955 --> 00:12:02,791 Lexi, is this the part of the play 178 00:12:02,791 --> 00:12:04,626 where I steal Jake from Marta? 179 00:12:04,626 --> 00:12:06,496 No, Cassie, that's not in the play. 180 00:12:06,496 --> 00:12:07,663 It is now! 181 00:12:07,663 --> 00:12:09,565 - Who said that? 182 00:12:09,565 --> 00:12:11,333 Look, I wanna say, I get it. 183 00:12:11,333 --> 00:12:12,834 - Oh god... - I understand what you're going through. 184 00:12:12,834 --> 00:12:14,069 - I do not want to hear from you. - I lived it. 185 00:12:14,069 --> 00:12:16,104 Wait, Hallie steals Marta's boyfriend? 186 00:12:16,104 --> 00:12:17,773 I don't know how many times I have to say this. 187 00:12:17,773 --> 00:12:18,874 They were not fucking together. 188 00:12:18,874 --> 00:12:20,042 Yeah, not only that, 189 00:12:20,042 --> 00:12:21,910 but she was fucking him the entire time 190 00:12:21,910 --> 00:12:24,713 Marta was talking about getting back together with him. 191 00:12:24,713 --> 00:12:26,714 No... Why? 192 00:12:26,714 --> 00:12:28,650 Because Hallie is a two-faced cunt. 193 00:12:28,650 --> 00:12:30,786 - I'm not a cunt! You're the cunt! 194 00:12:30,786 --> 00:12:32,254 You're the fucking cunt, bitch! 195 00:12:32,254 --> 00:12:34,223 - I am not a fucking cunt. 196 00:12:34,223 --> 00:12:36,191 Language, missy! 197 00:12:36,191 --> 00:12:38,026 Okay, okay, you know what? 198 00:12:38,026 --> 00:12:39,094 You're just fucking embarrassing yourself. 199 00:12:39,094 --> 00:12:40,562 - Let's go home. - I'm not going home. 200 00:12:40,562 --> 00:12:42,498 - The play's not over. - Oh, my god. 201 00:12:43,632 --> 00:12:45,233 I feel like I'm gonna throw up. 202 00:12:45,233 --> 00:12:47,736 - Mom, this isn't fair! It's not her fault. She's a writer. 203 00:12:47,736 --> 00:12:49,539 - She's a writer! - This isn't fair, Mom! 204 00:12:49,539 --> 00:12:51,406 How can she do this--? 205 00:12:51,406 --> 00:12:54,477 $3.25 for a grapefruit? What is this, Venezuela? 206 00:12:58,815 --> 00:13:01,983 Lexi, Lexi, I'm gonna fucking kill you! Okay, enough! 207 00:13:01,983 --> 00:13:04,785 Mom! - I don't know. I'm panicking. 208 00:13:04,785 --> 00:13:07,289 - Go away. Just go away. 209 00:13:07,289 --> 00:13:09,024 Stop. Stop it! 210 00:13:09,024 --> 00:13:12,360 Oh, my god, yes! Oh, that's it! 211 00:13:12,360 --> 00:13:16,065 Oh, my god, I just love fucking everything! 212 00:13:16,065 --> 00:13:19,000 No! I'm going to fucking kill you! 213 00:13:19,000 --> 00:13:20,535 - Get the fuck off of the horse. - Ow! 214 00:13:20,535 --> 00:13:23,071 - Get off! 215 00:13:23,071 --> 00:13:26,041 Get off! You fucking bitch! 216 00:13:30,078 --> 00:13:32,114 Oh, this bitch needs to be put down. 217 00:13:32,114 --> 00:13:34,315 No, no, no. Maddy! No! 218 00:13:34,315 --> 00:13:36,285 Maddy, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no! 219 00:13:36,285 --> 00:13:39,755 - No, no, no, Maddy! No, no, no, no, no! 220 00:13:39,755 --> 00:13:41,923 - Maddy, no! - Maddy, beat her ass! 221 00:13:41,923 --> 00:13:44,460 - Fucking bitch! 222 00:13:44,460 --> 00:13:45,825 Fuck you! 223 00:13:47,131 --> 00:13:48,864 - Oh fuck. 224 00:13:48,864 --> 00:13:50,866 Ooh! 225 00:14:02,210 --> 00:14:04,880 No, no! Stop! Stop! Stop this! Stop, stop... 226 00:14:08,283 --> 00:14:11,187 Maddy! No, no, no, no, no, no! No, no, no! 227 00:14:11,187 --> 00:14:12,688 Maddy! No! 228 00:14:15,290 --> 00:14:17,927 Beat her fuckin' ass, Maddy! She fuckin' deserves that shit! 229 00:14:17,927 --> 00:14:20,361 She fucked your boyfriend! 230 00:14:20,361 --> 00:14:22,964 It's all make-believe. This is all scripted. 231 00:14:22,964 --> 00:14:25,835 Can you believe this? My baby's a genius. 232 00:14:25,835 --> 00:14:28,471 - Close the curtain! 233 00:14:28,471 --> 00:14:30,339 Close the fucking curtain! 234 00:14:30,339 --> 00:14:31,707 Now! 235 00:14:47,826 --> 00:14:49,925 A few days earlier, 236 00:14:49,925 --> 00:14:51,663 I stopped by Elliot's. 237 00:14:54,357 --> 00:14:57,266 Yo... Hey. 238 00:14:57,266 --> 00:15:01,670 - What's goin' on? - Ah, nothin' much. I was just, uh... 239 00:15:01,670 --> 00:15:03,205 walkin' around the neighborhood. 240 00:15:03,205 --> 00:15:05,007 Thought I'd stop by and come tell ya 241 00:15:05,007 --> 00:15:07,943 to go fuck yourself for bein' a snitch. 242 00:15:11,416 --> 00:15:12,384 Uh... 243 00:15:14,453 --> 00:15:15,554 uh... 244 00:15:17,021 --> 00:15:19,258 I know, but for real, man, I, um... 245 00:15:22,226 --> 00:15:24,997 I think you might've accidentally saved my life. 246 00:15:29,333 --> 00:15:31,971 So, uh, you know, whatever happened... 247 00:15:33,304 --> 00:15:36,271 however it happened, you know, however... 248 00:15:36,271 --> 00:15:41,510 it got to be... whatever it is, uh... 249 00:15:41,510 --> 00:15:43,048 thank God it did. 250 00:15:46,616 --> 00:15:50,347 'Cause I wouldn't be here to tell you that I forgive you. 251 00:15:50,347 --> 00:15:52,020 And that feels... 252 00:15:52,020 --> 00:15:55,056 that feels really, really nice because, uh, 253 00:15:55,056 --> 00:15:57,729 I have a lot of "I'm sorry's" to do. 254 00:15:59,997 --> 00:16:02,234 But not a lot of "I forgive you's." 255 00:16:03,263 --> 00:16:04,503 So... 256 00:16:06,771 --> 00:16:08,273 thank you for that. 257 00:16:12,677 --> 00:16:14,513 So, you're not doin' anything? 258 00:16:17,349 --> 00:16:18,550 Nah, you? 259 00:16:20,485 --> 00:16:21,553 Yeah. 260 00:16:23,282 --> 00:16:26,525 - Don't worry. I'm not gonna tell anyone. - Thank you. Yeah. 261 00:16:29,894 --> 00:16:31,663 You talk to Jules? 262 00:16:35,700 --> 00:16:38,737 - No, you? - Not really. 263 00:16:42,540 --> 00:16:45,477 Yeah, that one's gonna take me a little bit longer. 264 00:16:46,244 --> 00:16:47,579 I get that. 265 00:16:53,717 --> 00:16:56,655 - Can I play you something? 266 00:16:58,651 --> 00:17:00,559 Uh, yeah, sure. Go ahead. 267 00:17:08,533 --> 00:17:09,568 Okay. 268 00:17:11,970 --> 00:17:15,037 ♪ I've got no place ♪ 269 00:17:15,037 --> 00:17:20,345 ♪ Buildin' you a rocket up to outer space ♪ 270 00:17:22,212 --> 00:17:25,280 ♪ I watch you fade ♪ 271 00:17:25,280 --> 00:17:30,619 ♪ Keepin' the lights on in this forsaken place ♪ 272 00:17:30,619 --> 00:17:33,425 ♪ Little star ♪ 273 00:17:35,993 --> 00:17:40,830 ♪ Feels like you fell right on my head ♪ 274 00:17:40,830 --> 00:17:45,934 ♪ Gave you away to the wind ♪ 275 00:17:45,934 --> 00:17:50,242 ♪ I hope it was worth it in the end ♪ 276 00:17:51,075 --> 00:17:56,045 ♪ You and my guitar ♪ 277 00:17:56,045 --> 00:18:01,182 ♪ I think you may be my only friend ♪ 278 00:18:01,182 --> 00:18:06,287 ♪ I gave it all to see you shine again ♪ 279 00:18:06,287 --> 00:18:11,596 ♪ I hope it was worth it in the end ♪ 280 00:18:13,297 --> 00:18:16,431 ♪ Us against the world ♪ 281 00:18:16,431 --> 00:18:21,740 ♪ Just a couple sinners makin' fun of hell ♪ 282 00:18:23,441 --> 00:18:26,876 ♪ If I keep you here ♪ 283 00:18:26,876 --> 00:18:31,947 ♪ I'll only be doing it for myself ♪ 284 00:18:31,947 --> 00:18:34,753 ♪ Little star ♪ 285 00:18:36,820 --> 00:18:42,157 ♪ Feels like you fell right on my head ♪ 286 00:18:42,157 --> 00:18:47,195 ♪ Gave you away to the wind ♪ 287 00:18:47,195 --> 00:18:51,470 ♪ I hope it was worth it in the end ♪ 288 00:18:52,269 --> 00:18:55,674 ♪ Yeah, I hope so ♪ 289 00:18:57,408 --> 00:19:02,510 ♪ Think you may be my only friend ♪ 290 00:19:02,510 --> 00:19:07,582 ♪ I gave it all to see you shine again ♪ 291 00:19:07,582 --> 00:19:13,255 ♪ I hope it was worth it in the end ♪ 292 00:19:13,255 --> 00:19:18,160 ♪ I know this thing is broken ♪ 293 00:19:18,160 --> 00:19:23,398 ♪ So I leave my door wide open ♪ 294 00:19:23,398 --> 00:19:28,469 ♪ Been some time since we've spoken ♪ 295 00:19:28,469 --> 00:19:33,508 ♪ One day we'll meet again ♪ 296 00:19:33,508 --> 00:19:38,613 ♪ Some distance when you're older ♪ 297 00:19:38,613 --> 00:19:43,953 ♪ You'll come laying on my shoulder ♪ 298 00:19:43,953 --> 00:19:49,057 ♪ Tell me that storm is over ♪ 299 00:19:49,057 --> 00:19:53,298 ♪ That day we meet again ♪ 300 00:19:57,301 --> 00:20:02,371 ♪ Feels like you fell right on my head ♪ 301 00:20:02,371 --> 00:20:07,475 ♪ Gave you away to the wind ♪ 302 00:20:07,475 --> 00:20:12,781 ♪ I hope it was worth it in the end ♪ 303 00:20:12,781 --> 00:20:15,887 ♪ You and my guitar ♪ 304 00:20:17,654 --> 00:20:22,925 ♪ I think you may be my only friend ♪ 305 00:20:22,925 --> 00:20:28,063 ♪ I gave you away, mm-mm-mm ♪ 306 00:20:28,063 --> 00:20:32,768 ♪ I hope it was worth it in the end ♪ 307 00:20:32,768 --> 00:20:34,739 I'm still workin' on it. 308 00:20:39,143 --> 00:20:40,379 I like it. 309 00:20:43,547 --> 00:20:47,386 Um... truth or dare? 310 00:20:51,089 --> 00:20:52,591 Truth. 311 00:20:55,693 --> 00:20:57,963 Do you think we can still be friends? 312 00:21:01,331 --> 00:21:04,469 You know you're the one who said we weren't any good for each other. 313 00:21:06,036 --> 00:21:08,268 I still think that. 314 00:21:43,307 --> 00:21:46,578 Yeah... I, I found her. 315 00:21:50,081 --> 00:21:54,019 I'm telling everyone that that was a part of the play. 316 00:21:57,821 --> 00:22:02,090 It's the only thing I've ever done and it's a disaster. 317 00:22:02,090 --> 00:22:03,528 It could be worse. 318 00:22:05,095 --> 00:22:06,326 How? 319 00:22:07,064 --> 00:22:10,165 It could be boring. 320 00:22:10,165 --> 00:22:11,636 That's true. 321 00:22:12,537 --> 00:22:14,770 I mean, how many shows 322 00:22:14,770 --> 00:22:17,106 in the history of East Highland High 323 00:22:17,106 --> 00:22:18,774 has started a riot? 324 00:22:21,145 --> 00:22:24,946 It's not even over yet. 325 00:22:24,946 --> 00:22:27,652 Art should be dangerous. 326 00:22:30,221 --> 00:22:32,057 The show goes on. 327 00:23:23,607 --> 00:23:26,275 Lexi, Lexi, Lexi! 328 00:23:26,275 --> 00:23:29,114 All Lexi, Lexi, Lexi! 329 00:23:34,118 --> 00:23:36,416 Lexi, Lexi, Lexi! 330 00:24:04,415 --> 00:24:08,183 Hallie... dust yourself off... 331 00:24:08,183 --> 00:24:10,420 and get back on that pony. 332 00:24:10,420 --> 00:24:11,823 Giddy up. 333 00:24:13,190 --> 00:24:15,227 Let's fuckin' do this. 334 00:24:26,671 --> 00:24:28,837 Um, as you may have noticed, 335 00:24:28,837 --> 00:24:32,207 we're experiencing some technical difficulties. 336 00:24:33,108 --> 00:24:34,576 Um, but seriously, 337 00:24:34,576 --> 00:24:37,078 I think we're gonna need a few minutes. 338 00:24:37,078 --> 00:24:38,746 Um... 339 00:24:38,746 --> 00:24:42,184 I just wanted to thank you all for being here. 340 00:24:42,184 --> 00:24:46,054 I didn't know any of that was gonna happen, uh... 341 00:24:46,054 --> 00:24:47,489 A little bit ago, 342 00:24:47,489 --> 00:24:52,293 I was talking to a friend about this play, 343 00:24:52,293 --> 00:24:54,599 and I asked him... 344 00:24:55,466 --> 00:24:58,199 "What if I upset people?" 345 00:24:58,199 --> 00:25:00,002 And he said to me, 346 00:25:00,002 --> 00:25:03,675 "Sometimes, people need to get their feelings hurt." 347 00:25:06,411 --> 00:25:07,709 Um... 348 00:25:07,709 --> 00:25:11,481 so even though he couldn't be here with us tonight... 349 00:25:11,481 --> 00:25:13,285 this one's for you. 350 00:25:31,869 --> 00:25:34,102 I'm sorry, bruh, 351 00:25:34,102 --> 00:25:37,339 but we have to make it look like you ain't do this. 352 00:25:37,339 --> 00:25:42,177 Just get out, man. The cops are gon' kick down that door any second, bro. 353 00:25:42,177 --> 00:25:45,447 Even if they know that you did this, bruh... 354 00:25:45,447 --> 00:25:48,350 I'm still gonna go down longer. 355 00:25:48,350 --> 00:25:49,989 - No. - Come here, bruh. 356 00:25:52,023 --> 00:25:53,225 Listen to me. 357 00:25:54,253 --> 00:25:55,758 Just go out there and surrender. 358 00:25:55,758 --> 00:25:58,293 It's all on me, bruh. You hear me? 359 00:25:58,293 --> 00:25:59,962 - No. - They gon' come in here. 360 00:25:59,962 --> 00:26:03,131 They gon' find me with the knife in my hand. 361 00:26:03,131 --> 00:26:05,634 Tell 'em you had nothin' to do with this shit. 362 00:26:05,634 --> 00:26:08,804 Listen to me. I did this shit! 363 00:26:08,804 --> 00:26:10,772 I killed this muthafucker. 364 00:26:10,772 --> 00:26:13,342 You hearin' me? Not you. 365 00:26:13,342 --> 00:26:14,744 Mm-mm. No. 366 00:26:14,744 --> 00:26:18,548 C'mon, now go wash your fucking hands. 367 00:26:18,548 --> 00:26:20,152 I love you, brother. 368 00:27:29,787 --> 00:27:34,589 Ash, stop playin'! I need you to walk out this fuckin' door right now, bruh! 369 00:27:34,589 --> 00:27:37,025 Ash, we not doin' this shit, man! 370 00:27:37,025 --> 00:27:39,595 How you think this gonna end, bruh?! 371 00:27:39,595 --> 00:27:41,366 You trying to die? 372 00:27:53,644 --> 00:27:55,747 Give me the gun, bruh. 373 00:27:59,150 --> 00:28:01,483 Ash... 374 00:28:01,483 --> 00:28:04,254 I'm not finna let nothin' happen to you. Now, give me the gun. 375 00:28:04,254 --> 00:28:06,191 Come on, bro. 376 00:28:08,824 --> 00:28:11,130 I'm not fuckin' askin', bro. 377 00:28:12,797 --> 00:28:15,034 Come on, bro, please. 378 00:28:44,263 --> 00:28:45,397 Fuck! 379 00:28:53,270 --> 00:28:56,508 Ash! Ash, open the fucking door right now! 380 00:28:59,110 --> 00:29:00,609 I'm not playin' with you! 381 00:29:00,609 --> 00:29:01,944 - Ash! 382 00:29:01,944 --> 00:29:04,016 Open the fucking door! 383 00:29:47,725 --> 00:29:49,324 Wrong. I know. 384 00:29:49,324 --> 00:29:52,193 Cal's Friend: Enough with the dirty dad joke. 385 00:29:52,193 --> 00:29:53,498 Who is that? 386 00:29:55,367 --> 00:29:57,098 You know him? 387 00:30:03,373 --> 00:30:05,841 You're not even gonna give me a hug, Dad? 388 00:30:05,841 --> 00:30:09,478 ♪ La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la ♪ 389 00:30:14,519 --> 00:30:16,088 That's your son? 390 00:30:17,421 --> 00:30:22,425 ♪ Just to be there in your arms ♪ 391 00:30:22,425 --> 00:30:23,495 Yep. 392 00:30:24,729 --> 00:30:26,465 Got all the best parts of him. 393 00:30:27,564 --> 00:30:29,399 Think I know what part that is. 394 00:30:38,943 --> 00:30:41,513 You know what I think we have in common? 395 00:30:46,050 --> 00:30:48,620 When we both get off on hurting other people. 396 00:30:49,521 --> 00:30:51,023 What do ya think? 397 00:30:54,458 --> 00:30:57,396 - You wanna talk about this upstairs? No. 398 00:31:13,043 --> 00:31:15,981 So, you, uh, livin' here now? 399 00:31:17,782 --> 00:31:19,584 Uh, or the moment, yeah. 400 00:31:23,521 --> 00:31:24,884 Ya happy? 401 00:31:27,419 --> 00:31:28,724 I'm figuring it out. 402 00:31:33,431 --> 00:31:34,533 Sorry. 403 00:31:46,643 --> 00:31:49,745 - Are you happier? Why don't we go talk about this upstairs? 404 00:31:49,745 --> 00:31:52,217 - It's a simple question. - Yes... 405 00:31:53,851 --> 00:31:55,220 In some ways. 406 00:31:57,455 --> 00:32:00,956 - That's not fair. I know. 407 00:32:00,956 --> 00:32:03,558 You don't get to ruin our lives. 408 00:32:03,558 --> 00:32:07,066 And then, just... move on and get to be happier. 409 00:32:08,566 --> 00:32:10,602 I've made a lot of mistakes. 410 00:32:13,638 --> 00:32:15,207 When I was... 411 00:32:18,075 --> 00:32:20,012 eleven years old... 412 00:32:21,512 --> 00:32:26,151 I found these videos of my dad fucking hookers in a motel room. 413 00:32:29,688 --> 00:32:31,086 You know, for the longest time, 414 00:32:31,086 --> 00:32:34,359 I had this recurring nightmare, just over and over... 415 00:32:35,759 --> 00:32:39,364 and in it, he was fuckin' me the way that he fucked them. 416 00:32:45,302 --> 00:32:48,270 Did I ever tell you about that, Dad? 417 00:32:48,270 --> 00:32:52,903 I think it's time that... uh, that everybody go. 418 00:32:52,903 --> 00:32:57,216 - Um, um, I need to talk to my son. - Oh god. 419 00:33:01,018 --> 00:33:02,951 Good luck. 420 00:33:02,951 --> 00:33:05,224 - Bye. - See ya, buddy. 421 00:33:10,327 --> 00:33:13,528 I spent my whole life tryin' to protect you. 422 00:33:13,528 --> 00:33:17,036 And instead of loving me, you fuckin' hated me for it. 423 00:33:19,937 --> 00:33:22,938 I'm not proud of the person I've been. 424 00:33:22,938 --> 00:33:25,310 I know that I've hurt you. 425 00:33:27,111 --> 00:33:28,476 I don't wanna hear it. 426 00:33:28,476 --> 00:33:30,779 I tried to keep it separate. 427 00:33:30,779 --> 00:33:32,384 I failed. 428 00:33:38,022 --> 00:33:39,758 I fucked up, Nate... 429 00:33:42,727 --> 00:33:44,329 but I love you. 430 00:33:45,864 --> 00:33:47,432 I love you. 431 00:33:48,332 --> 00:33:49,664 And I should've protected you, 432 00:33:49,664 --> 00:33:52,504 I should've kept you safe, and I didn't. 433 00:33:53,070 --> 00:33:54,673 I didn't. 434 00:33:57,174 --> 00:33:59,578 And there's nothing I regret more. 435 00:34:06,150 --> 00:34:08,387 I don't want your apology. 436 00:34:14,191 --> 00:34:16,428 I just want revenge. 437 00:34:17,562 --> 00:34:19,231 What does that mean? 438 00:34:30,708 --> 00:34:32,444 What is that? 439 00:34:38,750 --> 00:34:40,352 It's everything. 440 00:34:43,888 --> 00:34:45,390 Everything. 441 00:34:52,063 --> 00:34:53,432 Nate... 442 00:34:56,834 --> 00:34:58,099 don't do this. 443 00:34:59,167 --> 00:35:00,639 Nate, look at me. 444 00:35:01,839 --> 00:35:03,742 Do not do this. 445 00:35:05,777 --> 00:35:06,876 Nate, don't do this. 446 00:35:06,876 --> 00:35:08,343 I'm, I'm, I'm begging you. 447 00:35:08,343 --> 00:35:10,912 - Don't do this. - You are... 448 00:35:10,912 --> 00:35:12,484 who you are. 449 00:35:15,152 --> 00:35:17,422 I don't think you're ever gonna change. 450 00:35:35,907 --> 00:35:38,643 Chief Greenwood? He's in here. 451 00:35:42,146 --> 00:35:44,283 Thanks, Nate. Appreciate it. 452 00:36:00,097 --> 00:36:02,097 Cal, you're under arrest. 453 00:36:02,097 --> 00:36:04,633 Put your hands behind your head. 454 00:36:04,633 --> 00:36:05,870 Both of 'em. 455 00:36:30,726 --> 00:36:32,528 Hands up! 456 00:36:37,001 --> 00:36:40,169 Ash! 457 00:36:42,838 --> 00:36:46,979 Hands in the air! 458 00:36:48,279 --> 00:36:50,779 Fezco Don't do this shit! 459 00:36:50,779 --> 00:36:52,384 Hands up! 460 00:36:53,284 --> 00:36:55,217 Hands up! 461 00:36:55,217 --> 00:36:56,852 On the ground! 462 00:36:56,852 --> 00:36:58,087 Open door right! 463 00:37:00,617 --> 00:37:02,494 Get 'em up! 464 00:37:06,831 --> 00:37:08,831 Come on! Come out! 465 00:37:08,831 --> 00:37:10,333 Ash! 466 00:37:10,333 --> 00:37:12,400 Ash, open the door! 467 00:37:12,400 --> 00:37:15,503 - Don't move! - Drop the knife now! 468 00:37:15,503 --> 00:37:18,373 Don't shoot, don't shoot! There's a kid in there! 469 00:37:18,373 --> 00:37:20,074 Don't shoot! Don't shoot! Don't shoot! 470 00:37:20,074 --> 00:37:22,978 - There's a kid in here! There's a kid in here! - Drop the knife now! 471 00:37:22,978 --> 00:37:24,246 Please, don't shoot! 472 00:37:24,246 --> 00:37:26,315 Ash, come outta there! 473 00:37:26,315 --> 00:37:27,616 Drop your knife! 474 00:37:27,616 --> 00:37:30,019 Move slowly! There's a kid in here! 475 00:37:30,019 --> 00:37:31,386 Please, don't shoot! 476 00:37:31,386 --> 00:37:33,889 - Please, Ash, come out! - Move back to my voice! 477 00:37:33,889 --> 00:37:35,224 - Keep backing out! - Ash! 478 00:37:35,224 --> 00:37:37,025 Come out, man! 479 00:37:38,927 --> 00:37:40,996 There's a fuckin' kid up in there! 480 00:37:46,535 --> 00:37:47,672 Aaaah! 481 00:37:52,444 --> 00:37:55,077 Ash! 482 00:38:03,387 --> 00:38:05,490 Ash! 483 00:38:15,300 --> 00:38:16,431 Don't shoot! 484 00:38:16,431 --> 00:38:20,439 Ash, come on! Get outta there! 485 00:38:27,511 --> 00:38:32,180 Please! Ash, come on, please! 486 00:38:32,180 --> 00:38:35,454 Don't shoot him! It's a fucking kid! 487 00:38:36,320 --> 00:38:40,392 Don't shoot! Don't shoot! Ash! 488 00:38:57,206 --> 00:39:00,042 Ash! 489 00:39:15,793 --> 00:39:16,929 Ash! 490 00:39:20,698 --> 00:39:22,067 Ash! 491 00:39:23,868 --> 00:39:26,471 Ash! Ash! 492 00:39:27,872 --> 00:39:29,104 Answer me! 493 00:39:32,477 --> 00:39:35,547 Ash! 494 00:39:45,022 --> 00:39:46,386 Shh. 495 00:40:06,143 --> 00:40:07,479 He's down! 496 00:40:53,657 --> 00:40:55,928 I was in the hall when you died. 497 00:40:57,828 --> 00:41:02,201 You let out a loud cry like you didn't know what was gonna happen... 498 00:41:03,233 --> 00:41:05,170 and then, it was silent. 499 00:41:07,538 --> 00:41:11,640 My... my first thought was... 500 00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:13,946 "This feels like a movie." 501 00:41:16,147 --> 00:41:17,813 I know a lot of people feel that way when 502 00:41:17,813 --> 00:41:20,119 traumatic things happen to them. 503 00:41:23,053 --> 00:41:25,958 Uh, at least, I, I hear that a lot. 504 00:41:27,258 --> 00:41:29,228 It didn't feel real. 505 00:41:33,564 --> 00:41:35,667 It felt like a movie. 506 00:41:37,567 --> 00:41:39,268 Uh, and this is it. This is... 507 00:41:39,268 --> 00:41:42,774 This is the part where the character never recovers. 508 00:41:46,710 --> 00:41:49,949 The part where... life takes them down. 509 00:41:51,282 --> 00:41:52,784 This is the s-- 510 00:41:54,919 --> 00:41:57,419 This is the scene that scars her forever. 511 00:42:05,464 --> 00:42:06,896 Lexi. 512 00:42:06,896 --> 00:42:09,801 - Get dressed. It's your dad. What? 513 00:43:41,692 --> 00:43:44,964 Feel like your whole life you've been forced to take care of everyone. 514 00:44:12,223 --> 00:44:14,426 I, uh-- 515 00:44:15,292 --> 00:44:17,459 I watched you die... 516 00:44:17,459 --> 00:44:21,333 and all I could think about was how none of it felt real. 517 00:44:25,269 --> 00:44:27,903 The lights, the heavy boots of the EMTs 518 00:44:27,903 --> 00:44:31,076 and their respectful, quiet voices... 519 00:44:32,877 --> 00:44:34,980 "Let's lift him on three." 520 00:44:37,782 --> 00:44:39,718 It was so quiet. 521 00:44:44,789 --> 00:44:46,125 I was numb. 522 00:44:46,658 --> 00:44:48,623 I didn't care. 523 00:44:48,623 --> 00:44:52,831 I wasn't feeling life in the way it was meant to be felt because... 524 00:44:54,265 --> 00:44:57,500 I wasn't present. I wasn't actually there. 525 00:44:57,500 --> 00:44:59,371 I was just watching it. 526 00:45:04,975 --> 00:45:06,979 But that's not true. 527 00:45:09,313 --> 00:45:11,816 I do care. 528 00:45:15,353 --> 00:45:16,821 And what if... 529 00:45:19,790 --> 00:45:22,785 what if... the reason it felt like a movie 530 00:45:22,785 --> 00:45:26,165 was because I wanted to believe that losing you... 531 00:45:27,098 --> 00:45:29,501 is a part of a larger story. 532 00:45:31,769 --> 00:45:33,733 One that maybe I could... 533 00:45:34,739 --> 00:45:36,808 maybe I could still shape. 534 00:45:44,214 --> 00:45:49,821 I... I remember a couple of days before you passed away. 535 00:45:51,322 --> 00:45:52,752 You told me... 536 00:45:53,891 --> 00:45:56,228 that if I ever wanted to be with you... 537 00:45:58,162 --> 00:46:00,832 all I would have to do is close my eyes... 538 00:46:02,032 --> 00:46:04,203 and we'd be together. 539 00:46:11,308 --> 00:46:12,477 You said that... 540 00:46:13,778 --> 00:46:16,515 memories exist outside of time... 541 00:46:17,815 --> 00:46:20,252 and have no beginning or end. 542 00:46:22,687 --> 00:46:25,721 You said as long as I live... 543 00:46:25,721 --> 00:46:28,027 you'll be with me forever. 544 00:46:33,264 --> 00:46:34,967 I miss you, Dad. 545 00:46:37,835 --> 00:46:40,072 I miss you until I close my eyes. 546 00:46:42,374 --> 00:46:43,639 That's it. 547 00:46:45,507 --> 00:46:47,146 Thank you. 548 00:47:13,003 --> 00:47:14,339 Lexi Hey. 549 00:47:15,100 --> 00:47:16,375 Hey. 550 00:47:17,242 --> 00:47:18,343 Um... 551 00:47:20,277 --> 00:47:23,282 I, I just, I just wanted to tell you that I... 552 00:47:24,514 --> 00:47:27,286 I thought your play was really beautiful. 553 00:47:30,087 --> 00:47:32,254 You might be the only one who thinks that. 554 00:47:32,254 --> 00:47:35,057 Yeah, well, could you imagine if I, like, 555 00:47:35,057 --> 00:47:37,393 hated it and Cassie loved it? 556 00:47:41,099 --> 00:47:43,199 Um, but what are you doing today? 557 00:47:43,199 --> 00:47:44,636 Um, I was-- 558 00:47:46,904 --> 00:47:49,238 Yeah, just laying in bed. 559 00:47:51,139 --> 00:47:55,314 Cool, well, um, can I... maybe, like, come over? 560 00:47:56,748 --> 00:47:57,950 Yeah. 561 00:47:58,583 --> 00:47:59,748 Totally. 562 00:47:59,748 --> 00:48:02,518 Okay cool. I'll... see you later then. 563 00:48:02,518 --> 00:48:04,323 - Okay. - Okay, bye. 564 00:48:56,173 --> 00:48:59,341 I feel like all the kids in high school are super crazy. 565 00:48:59,341 --> 00:49:01,210 It's literally the same as eighth grade. 566 00:49:01,210 --> 00:49:03,946 People are just way more dramatic. 567 00:49:03,946 --> 00:49:06,418 All the senior guys are, like, nice. 568 00:49:07,151 --> 00:49:09,088 How are you feeling? 569 00:49:10,855 --> 00:49:12,921 I don't know. I'm okay. 570 00:49:23,501 --> 00:49:24,966 All right, all right. I never see the five 571 00:49:24,966 --> 00:49:26,034 of you little babies together, 572 00:49:26,034 --> 00:49:27,602 so we're gonna take a photo, okay? 573 00:49:27,602 --> 00:49:29,337 - No, Mom, please don't take a photo. - All right, everyone come 574 00:49:29,337 --> 00:49:30,838 together like that. Beautiful! 575 00:49:30,838 --> 00:49:32,875 - Mom, no one wants to remember this moment. - Oh, you little 576 00:49:32,875 --> 00:49:35,347 - sugar sweethearts. - Please, stop, stop. 577 00:49:45,050 --> 00:49:46,554 I think your play was the first time 578 00:49:46,554 --> 00:49:49,528 I was able to look at my life and not hate myself... 579 00:49:51,262 --> 00:49:53,198 for everything I've done. 580 00:49:54,866 --> 00:49:56,268 What do you mean? 581 00:49:59,437 --> 00:50:02,574 I don't know. I think I've been through a lot. 582 00:50:04,174 --> 00:50:06,211 And I don't know what to do with it. 583 00:50:08,379 --> 00:50:10,679 But you've been through a lot and you know what to do with it. 584 00:50:10,679 --> 00:50:14,686 - I don't know about that. - Lex, look what you made. 585 00:50:16,020 --> 00:50:18,590 I don't know how to do that. 586 00:50:24,662 --> 00:50:27,599 I don't know how to get to where you are. 587 00:50:32,869 --> 00:50:36,308 But I just wanted you to know that seeing it meant the world to me. 588 00:50:53,991 --> 00:50:56,395 Do you think about your dad often? 589 00:51:02,401 --> 00:51:03,331 Me too. 590 00:51:03,331 --> 00:51:05,066 I feel like I had so much to learn 591 00:51:05,066 --> 00:51:08,203 from him still, you know? 592 00:51:08,203 --> 00:51:10,509 I also think I'm really angry about it. 593 00:51:11,075 --> 00:51:12,677 Yeah. 594 00:51:15,645 --> 00:51:19,079 Do you ever... get angry about it? 595 00:51:20,651 --> 00:51:23,719 It's a bit more complicated than that. 596 00:51:23,719 --> 00:51:25,555 What do you mean? 597 00:51:25,555 --> 00:51:27,355 I think, like... 598 00:51:27,355 --> 00:51:30,425 I was kind of relieved when he stopped showing up. 599 00:51:30,425 --> 00:51:33,298 'Cause I was so worried something bad was gonna happen. 600 00:51:38,637 --> 00:51:39,704 I get that. 601 00:51:41,672 --> 00:51:42,604 Now... 602 00:51:42,604 --> 00:51:45,877 every time the phone rings, it's like... 603 00:51:47,878 --> 00:51:49,148 You know? 604 00:51:59,957 --> 00:52:02,194 But you figured it out. 605 00:52:03,961 --> 00:52:05,697 You fuckin' figured it out. 606 00:52:10,834 --> 00:52:13,235 When my dad died, everybody would tell me that... 607 00:52:13,235 --> 00:52:15,307 he died for a reason. 608 00:52:17,108 --> 00:52:20,542 Ah, that shit used to piss me off. 609 00:52:20,542 --> 00:52:23,215 I would literally wanna fucking strangle them. 610 00:52:26,618 --> 00:52:28,350 But... 611 00:52:28,350 --> 00:52:32,324 I think what they're actually saying is that you gotta give it a reason. 612 00:52:37,028 --> 00:52:39,264 You gotta give all this shit a reason. 613 00:52:42,867 --> 00:52:46,405 Because I don't wanna hold on to this forever. 614 00:52:49,273 --> 00:52:52,377 I can't, I can't hold on to it forever. 615 00:52:56,347 --> 00:52:58,217 Just doesn't feel good. 616 00:53:00,151 --> 00:53:01,616 It's just-- 617 00:53:01,616 --> 00:53:04,924 - I know other people are, like, built different, but-- - Yeah. 618 00:53:07,858 --> 00:53:09,494 it's too much for me. 619 00:53:13,264 --> 00:53:16,031 - I'm sorry. I'm sorry. - No. 620 00:53:16,031 --> 00:53:19,338 - No, sorry. - I'm sorry. I didn't-- 621 00:53:23,007 --> 00:53:24,376 Lexi... 622 00:53:25,743 --> 00:53:28,413 I promise you, it's not all his fault. 623 00:53:34,451 --> 00:53:36,388 I don't know for certain... 624 00:53:39,957 --> 00:53:41,260 but I'm, uh... 625 00:53:43,593 --> 00:53:45,326 I'm pretty sure he wakes up every day 626 00:53:45,326 --> 00:53:47,799 and he thinks, "I'm gonna be better for her. 627 00:53:49,233 --> 00:53:51,336 I'm gonna be there for her." 628 00:53:58,042 --> 00:53:59,778 That's also the problem. 629 00:54:01,479 --> 00:54:03,715 Because he only wants to be better for you. 630 00:54:12,155 --> 00:54:15,760 Because I know that he loves you a lot more than he loves himself. 631 00:54:20,165 --> 00:54:21,696 Mm. 632 00:54:21,696 --> 00:54:24,569 I don't know if that made you feel better. 633 00:54:27,372 --> 00:54:28,740 Thank you. 634 00:54:43,783 --> 00:54:45,057 It's okay. 635 00:55:05,042 --> 00:55:06,711 I miss you. 636 00:56:24,922 --> 00:56:26,926 Do you know what's funny? 637 00:56:29,593 --> 00:56:32,831 Nate broke up with me before I even went on that stage. 638 00:56:36,535 --> 00:56:37,903 Don't worry. 639 00:56:39,064 --> 00:56:41,106 This is just the beginning. 640 00:57:44,235 --> 00:57:45,834 Sorry. 641 00:57:45,834 --> 00:57:47,072 Sorry. 642 00:57:47,839 --> 00:57:49,108 Sorry. 643 00:57:49,840 --> 00:57:50,976 Hi! 644 00:57:59,783 --> 00:58:03,788 I know you're probably still really angry at me... 645 00:58:05,089 --> 00:58:09,929 but I just wanted to tell you that I love you. 646 00:58:12,563 --> 00:58:14,494 And I miss you. 647 00:58:15,233 --> 00:58:16,735 So much. 648 00:59:07,246 --> 00:59:10,018 Jules was my first love. 649 00:59:10,018 --> 00:59:12,888 I'd like to remember it that way. 650 00:59:12,888 --> 00:59:15,858 I don't know if that's actually true, though. 651 00:59:15,858 --> 00:59:18,163 I think I was high for too much of it. 652 00:59:19,430 --> 00:59:21,229 I know it wasn't easy for her. 653 00:59:21,229 --> 00:59:23,135 And I hope she forgives me. 654 00:59:28,105 --> 00:59:31,540 I stayed clean through the rest of the school year. 655 00:59:31,540 --> 00:59:34,876 I wish I could say that was a decision I made. 656 00:59:34,876 --> 00:59:37,649 In some ways, it was just easier. 657 00:59:39,483 --> 00:59:42,254 I don’t know if this feeling will last forever... 658 00:59:44,254 --> 00:59:45,958 but I am trying. 659 00:59:51,395 --> 00:59:53,228 I remember Ali said, 660 00:59:53,228 --> 00:59:56,265 "The thought of maybe being a good person, 661 00:59:56,265 --> 00:59:59,271 is what keeps me trying to be a good person." 662 01:00:01,738 --> 01:00:04,043 Maybe there’s something to that. 663 01:00:05,544 --> 01:00:07,409 ♪ Hey, Lord ♪ 664 01:00:07,409 --> 01:00:11,050 ♪ You know I'm trying ♪ 665 01:00:12,383 --> 01:00:13,916 ♪ Hey, Lord ♪ 666 01:00:13,916 --> 01:00:17,789 ♪ You know I'm trying ♪ 667 01:00:19,357 --> 01:00:22,625 ♪ It's all I got ♪ 668 01:00:22,625 --> 01:00:26,094 ♪ Is this enough ♪ 669 01:00:26,094 --> 01:00:31,070 ♪ Hey Lord, I wanna stay ♪ 670 01:00:32,604 --> 01:00:34,335 ♪ Hey, Lord ♪ 671 01:00:34,335 --> 01:00:38,377 ♪ You know I'm fighting ♪ 672 01:00:39,478 --> 01:00:41,276 ♪ Hey, Lord ♪ 673 01:00:41,276 --> 01:00:46,048 ♪ You know I'll fight it ♪ 674 01:00:46,048 --> 01:00:53,117 ♪ I don't know when or how today ♪ 675 01:00:53,524 --> 01:00:58,097 ♪ Hey, Lord, I'm on my way ♪ 676 01:01:26,891 --> 01:01:28,458 ♪ Hey, Lord ♪ 677 01:01:28,458 --> 01:01:31,931 ♪ You know I'm trying ♪ 678 01:01:33,398 --> 01:01:34,897 ♪ Hey, Lord ♪ 679 01:01:34,897 --> 01:01:38,938 ♪ You know I'm trying ♪