1 00:00:02,036 --> 00:00:04,338 -Previously on This Is Us... -Congratulations. 2 00:00:04,372 --> 00:00:07,108 You're officially six weeks along. 3 00:00:07,141 --> 00:00:09,243 -We're pregnant. -Oh, that's wonderful! 4 00:00:09,277 --> 00:00:10,778 -I'm glad you're happy. -Oh, I'm not happy! 5 00:00:10,811 --> 00:00:11,779 I'm ecstatic! 6 00:00:11,812 --> 00:00:13,481 I'm a... I'm aquiver! 7 00:00:13,514 --> 00:00:15,383 I want to put on my happy song, and I'm gonna be all... 8 00:00:15,416 --> 00:00:18,352 No, no, don't. 'Cause this might not happen. 9 00:00:18,386 --> 00:00:20,988 -In fact, it probably won't happen. -What? 10 00:00:21,021 --> 00:00:22,390 I'm 37. 11 00:00:22,423 --> 00:00:24,225 And because of my weight, you know... 12 00:00:24,258 --> 00:00:26,160 You don't want to jinx things. 13 00:00:26,194 --> 00:00:28,862 Not about jinxing. (scoffs) 14 00:00:28,896 --> 00:00:31,865 This is about hope that it doesn't turn disastrous. 15 00:00:31,899 --> 00:00:33,334 Randall, I need to tell you something. 16 00:00:33,367 --> 00:00:35,136 It's okay. 17 00:00:35,169 --> 00:00:36,337 I already know. 18 00:00:36,370 --> 00:00:39,540 Kate lost the baby. 19 00:00:39,573 --> 00:00:42,776 -JACK: Number One has done it. Number One has done it! -Yes! 20 00:00:42,810 --> 00:00:44,678 -(laughs) -And now the crowd... 21 00:00:44,712 --> 00:00:47,715 the crowd moves its attention to the filly! 22 00:00:47,748 --> 00:00:49,783 -Oh, come on, sweetheart. -REBECCA: Come on, sweetheart. 23 00:00:49,817 --> 00:00:51,685 -Come on, Number Two. Come on. -Come on, Number Two. 24 00:00:51,719 --> 00:00:54,455 Come to us just like your brother did. Come on. 25 00:00:54,488 --> 00:00:56,890 -That and straight forward. -Think she's ready? 26 00:00:56,924 --> 00:00:58,326 I think she's ready. Here she comes. 27 00:00:58,359 --> 00:01:00,394 * 28 00:01:00,428 --> 00:01:03,063 (crying) 29 00:01:03,097 --> 00:01:05,199 -REBECCA: Come on, Kate. -JACK: She's a tough girl. 30 00:01:05,233 --> 00:01:07,501 REBECCA: I know. She's a fighter. 31 00:01:07,535 --> 00:01:09,970 She's a fighter. She's gonna do it. 32 00:01:10,003 --> 00:01:11,872 Chris, before we talk about this game, let's talk about 33 00:01:11,905 --> 00:01:14,408 the game in four nights when we go to Washington 34 00:01:14,442 --> 00:01:15,776 for the big Thanksgiving night game. 35 00:01:15,809 --> 00:01:18,379 I know these look like candy, 36 00:01:18,412 --> 00:01:20,047 but they're actually prenatal vitamins. 37 00:01:20,080 --> 00:01:22,950 Oh, my God. (laughs) 38 00:01:22,983 --> 00:01:25,085 Your daddy tried to buy prenatal Flintstone Vitamins, 39 00:01:25,119 --> 00:01:26,287 but they don't make them. 40 00:01:26,320 --> 00:01:27,755 I think he really identifies with 41 00:01:27,788 --> 00:01:30,057 Fred's whole "Yabba dabba doo" philosophy. 42 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:32,025 You know, you work hard, you play hard. 43 00:01:32,059 --> 00:01:33,394 (laughs) 44 00:01:33,427 --> 00:01:34,495 (hums "Meet the Flintstones") 45 00:01:34,528 --> 00:01:36,264 * Need my vitamins * 46 00:01:36,297 --> 00:01:40,033 * 'Cause your mommy's trying to keep you strong * 47 00:01:40,067 --> 00:01:42,136 * Baby in the oven * 48 00:01:44,138 --> 00:01:47,040 * Mommy's sorry for this stupid song. * 49 00:01:47,074 --> 00:01:48,108 Mm. 50 00:01:48,142 --> 00:01:49,877 Don't say "stupid," say "silly." 51 00:01:49,910 --> 00:01:51,912 It's not nice. 52 00:01:58,152 --> 00:02:00,921 (chuckles) 53 00:02:00,954 --> 00:02:02,956 * 54 00:02:14,535 --> 00:02:16,537 (tape clicks, winds) 55 00:02:21,842 --> 00:02:23,644 REBECCA (in distance): Jack! Fuse! 56 00:02:23,677 --> 00:02:26,113 -JACK: Yup, I'm working on it! -(dog whimpers) 57 00:02:26,146 --> 00:02:27,748 It's okay, Louie. Okay? 58 00:02:27,781 --> 00:02:29,750 Dad'll get the lights back on in a sec. 59 00:02:29,783 --> 00:02:32,186 -Just don't panic pee, okay? -(dog whimpers) 60 00:02:32,220 --> 00:02:34,322 Good boy. See? That's a good boy. 61 00:02:36,156 --> 00:02:37,391 And you're panic peeing. 62 00:02:37,425 --> 00:02:38,592 All right, yeah, great. 63 00:02:38,626 --> 00:02:40,661 Come on. Come on, Louie. 64 00:02:41,729 --> 00:02:43,597 REBECCA: Did Louie pee again? 65 00:02:43,631 --> 00:02:46,099 -Yes, Mom. I'm dealing with it. -JACK: Killing me. 66 00:02:46,133 --> 00:02:47,735 Sorry to have interrupted your evening, my liege. 67 00:02:47,768 --> 00:02:49,803 Why does it smell like an orange threw up in here? 68 00:02:49,837 --> 00:02:52,506 It's the Bundt cake that I made for Kevin's interview tonight. 69 00:02:52,540 --> 00:02:55,142 I think I maybe overdid it with the orange zest. 70 00:02:55,175 --> 00:02:58,145 -Oh. -KEVIN: There's a game every Friday. 71 00:02:58,178 --> 00:02:59,713 -Oh, thank God. -JACK: Fixed it! 72 00:02:59,747 --> 00:03:01,181 Good job, babe. 73 00:03:03,217 --> 00:03:05,152 W-Wait, is that what you're wearing? 74 00:03:05,185 --> 00:03:08,021 -Mm-hmm. -The coach from Pitt is gonna be here any second. 75 00:03:08,055 --> 00:03:10,224 You should really stop borrowing shirts from Sophie, Kevin. 76 00:03:10,258 --> 00:03:11,759 Mm. I don't really think 77 00:03:11,792 --> 00:03:13,494 the coach is gonna care what shirt I'm wearing. 78 00:03:13,527 --> 00:03:14,495 KATE: Whatever, Crop Top. 79 00:03:14,528 --> 00:03:17,698 KEVIN: Ew. What is that flavor? 80 00:03:19,733 --> 00:03:22,703 Kate! Can you clean his pee anywhere else? 81 00:03:22,736 --> 00:03:25,138 A college coach is gonna be sitting on that couch. 82 00:03:25,172 --> 00:03:27,140 Okay, well, I'm not getting it on anything. 83 00:03:27,174 --> 00:03:31,178 And, uh, speaking of college, have you made your list yet? 84 00:03:31,211 --> 00:03:32,846 Didn't the guidance counselor say 85 00:03:32,880 --> 00:03:34,682 to make a list of your top five schools? 86 00:03:34,715 --> 00:03:36,684 'Cause you don't want to put all your eggs in... 87 00:03:36,717 --> 00:03:38,185 In one basket? Yes, I know what she said. 88 00:03:38,218 --> 00:03:39,553 Okay. 89 00:03:39,587 --> 00:03:41,289 I have, like, a month to decide, Mom. 90 00:03:41,322 --> 00:03:42,723 Yeah, but a month? 91 00:03:42,756 --> 00:03:44,191 -That'll go by like that. -(snaps fingers) 92 00:03:46,226 --> 00:03:48,762 If you want, I can sit down and we can go through that 93 00:03:48,796 --> 00:03:50,230 -whole college book together? -I'm good. 94 00:03:52,232 --> 00:03:54,101 Just a list of five schools. 95 00:03:54,134 --> 00:03:55,703 That's all I ask. 96 00:03:55,736 --> 00:03:57,104 (car approaching outside) 97 00:03:57,137 --> 00:03:58,806 -Fine. -Okay. 98 00:03:58,839 --> 00:03:59,907 JACK: He's here! 99 00:03:59,940 --> 00:04:01,542 REBECCA: Okay! Okay, okay. 100 00:04:01,575 --> 00:04:04,545 -I'm out. (sighs) -(doorbell rings) 101 00:04:04,578 --> 00:04:06,347 -Hey, knock 'em dead. -Train your dog. 102 00:04:06,380 --> 00:04:07,915 Make that list. 103 00:04:09,483 --> 00:04:11,084 * 104 00:04:15,523 --> 00:04:17,525 (blender whirring) 105 00:04:19,760 --> 00:04:21,094 (blender stops) 106 00:04:21,128 --> 00:04:23,397 Uh, this looks like a Shamrock Shake, 107 00:04:23,431 --> 00:04:26,233 and it sounds like a Shamrock Shake, 108 00:04:26,266 --> 00:04:29,403 but I'm guessing it does not taste like a Shamrock Shake. 109 00:04:29,437 --> 00:04:32,440 How do you spell "Kundalini"? 110 00:04:32,473 --> 00:04:34,542 Uh, I have no idea what that is, 111 00:04:34,575 --> 00:04:36,610 so I clearly have no idea how to spell it. 112 00:04:36,644 --> 00:04:38,546 But I'm guessing that it is an expensive powder 113 00:04:38,579 --> 00:04:41,382 that you want me to start adding to your pregnancy shakes. 114 00:04:41,415 --> 00:04:44,117 -No. It's a type of yoga. -Huh. 115 00:04:44,151 --> 00:04:46,320 And I want to ask the doctor if she recommends it. 116 00:04:46,354 --> 00:04:47,355 -Aha. -Right. 117 00:04:47,388 --> 00:04:48,922 I always have so many questions 118 00:04:48,956 --> 00:04:50,391 -before the baby appointments. -Yeah. 119 00:04:50,424 --> 00:04:52,393 Right? And then I finally get in that room, 120 00:04:52,426 --> 00:04:54,395 -and it's like an alien abduction. -(chuckles) 121 00:04:54,428 --> 00:04:56,564 Like everything just flies out of my head. 122 00:04:56,597 --> 00:04:57,798 -So I'm writing all the questions down. -Okay. 123 00:04:57,831 --> 00:04:59,800 All right. Oh, oh, make sure that you ask, uh, 124 00:04:59,833 --> 00:05:01,569 "When will the baby move?" so that I can say, 125 00:05:01,602 --> 00:05:03,737 -"Hopefully, as soon as he turns 18." -"As soon as he turns 18." 126 00:05:03,771 --> 00:05:05,606 -Yeah. -Or she. 127 00:05:05,639 --> 00:05:06,974 Yeah. 128 00:05:07,007 --> 00:05:08,609 -Uh, joke still works. -Yeah. Okay. 129 00:05:08,642 --> 00:05:11,011 -But I think you've worn that one out, Tobe. -Never. 130 00:05:13,146 --> 00:05:14,247 All right. 131 00:05:14,281 --> 00:05:15,749 What else, what else, what else you got? 132 00:05:15,783 --> 00:05:16,884 Okay. Um... 133 00:05:16,917 --> 00:05:20,253 "Are my HCG levels doubling every 48 hours?" 134 00:05:20,287 --> 00:05:22,022 "And why is my pee green?" 135 00:05:24,658 --> 00:05:27,060 -It's not the smoothie. -Could be the smoothie. 136 00:05:27,094 --> 00:05:28,629 -It might be the smoothie. -Yeah. 137 00:05:28,662 --> 00:05:30,163 Okay, and then also, 138 00:05:30,197 --> 00:05:32,766 "If I take a hot bath, will it burn the baby?" 139 00:05:32,800 --> 00:05:33,967 -Oh! Which reminds me. -Yeah. 140 00:05:34,001 --> 00:05:35,803 The Swedish baby bath that we ordered is coming. 141 00:05:35,836 --> 00:05:37,638 -Yes! -Um, and they said 142 00:05:37,671 --> 00:05:39,306 that it fits most tubs but not all tubs. 143 00:05:39,339 --> 00:05:40,808 Do you think it's gonna fit our tub? 144 00:05:40,841 --> 00:05:42,443 I have no idea. 145 00:05:42,476 --> 00:05:43,944 (sighs) Okay. 146 00:05:43,977 --> 00:05:45,513 Where you going? 147 00:05:45,546 --> 00:05:47,515 -To measure the tub. -Okay. All right. 148 00:05:47,548 --> 00:05:49,983 I'm gonna see what else you got here. 149 00:05:50,017 --> 00:05:51,985 All right, "How much does childbirth hurt?" 150 00:05:52,019 --> 00:05:54,622 I do not think you want to know the answer to that one. 151 00:05:54,655 --> 00:05:56,757 "Do they make knit caps for feet 152 00:05:56,790 --> 00:05:59,660 'cause I'm outgrowing all my socks?" 153 00:05:59,693 --> 00:06:01,795 Uh, "Will the smell of my fiancé's head 154 00:06:01,829 --> 00:06:03,564 make me gag the whole nine months?" 155 00:06:03,597 --> 00:06:06,700 Okay, well, this list just took a turn for the hurtful. 156 00:06:06,734 --> 00:06:08,736 -(clattering) -KATE: Toby! 157 00:06:08,769 --> 00:06:11,038 What?! What?! 158 00:06:11,071 --> 00:06:13,073 * 159 00:06:15,876 --> 00:06:17,845 DR. ARROYO: I know how difficult this is, 160 00:06:17,878 --> 00:06:19,880 but the good news is is that you got pregnant, 161 00:06:19,913 --> 00:06:22,215 which means that you can try again as soon as four weeks. 162 00:06:22,249 --> 00:06:23,751 Now, you passed most of the tissue at home, 163 00:06:23,784 --> 00:06:25,953 so there's no need to put you through the procedure of a DandC. 164 00:06:25,986 --> 00:06:28,756 I want you to expect bleeding anywhere from five to 14 days. 165 00:06:28,789 --> 00:06:30,357 Otherwise, there's no reason 166 00:06:30,390 --> 00:06:33,026 you can't go back to living your life. 167 00:06:35,228 --> 00:06:36,864 I'll give you two some time alone. 168 00:06:36,897 --> 00:06:38,666 Okay. Thanks. 169 00:06:47,274 --> 00:06:48,676 Did you hear that? 170 00:06:48,709 --> 00:06:51,211 She said that we could try again, so... 171 00:06:51,244 --> 00:06:53,113 It's all right. 172 00:06:55,115 --> 00:06:58,519 I want to get dressed. 173 00:06:58,552 --> 00:07:00,387 Uh, yeah, okay. 174 00:07:00,420 --> 00:07:02,422 * 175 00:07:28,749 --> 00:07:30,751 (phone chimes) 176 00:07:33,954 --> 00:07:34,955 (beep) 177 00:07:38,258 --> 00:07:39,860 (phone clicks) 178 00:08:05,986 --> 00:08:07,988 (car drives by in distance) 179 00:08:31,645 --> 00:08:34,447 (no audio) 180 00:08:41,889 --> 00:08:43,490 (no audio) 181 00:08:52,232 --> 00:08:54,467 -Ah, Kevin. -(audience laughing) 182 00:08:54,501 --> 00:08:56,203 Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man? 183 00:08:56,236 --> 00:08:59,239 BOY: No. Portrait of a Young Man Plucking Art. 184 00:08:59,272 --> 00:09:01,308 KATE: Hey. What do you think? 185 00:09:01,341 --> 00:09:05,512 I think you're a little overdressed for a day of 186 00:09:05,545 --> 00:09:07,981 watching classic sitcoms and trying not to cry. 187 00:09:08,015 --> 00:09:09,282 Oh. No. 188 00:09:09,316 --> 00:09:12,085 I have my lunch gig. Remember? 189 00:09:12,119 --> 00:09:14,487 We have that run-through an hour before and... 190 00:09:14,521 --> 00:09:16,489 -Pinot. Downtown? Yeah. -Yeah, yeah. 191 00:09:16,523 --> 00:09:18,058 No, I'm familiar with the job, I just... 192 00:09:18,091 --> 00:09:19,827 Hey, I-I thought you would've canceled that. 193 00:09:19,860 --> 00:09:21,494 You know, it's only been, like, 12 hours. 194 00:09:21,528 --> 00:09:22,996 Doesn't matter. If I bail last-minute, 195 00:09:23,030 --> 00:09:25,666 Peter's never gonna call me for gigs. 196 00:09:25,699 --> 00:09:27,868 Hey, come here. 197 00:09:27,901 --> 00:09:29,670 Just come sit with me, and we'll watch 198 00:09:29,703 --> 00:09:32,339 I Love Lucy and maybe some Good Times. 199 00:09:32,372 --> 00:09:34,074 I have to go to work. 200 00:09:34,107 --> 00:09:36,409 -Okay. Well, then I'll take you. -(phone chimes) 201 00:09:36,443 --> 00:09:38,746 Wait. My Uber's almost here, so... 202 00:09:38,779 --> 00:09:40,748 Kate. Kate, Kate, Kate. This is insane. 203 00:09:40,781 --> 00:09:42,883 (chuckles) 204 00:09:42,916 --> 00:09:43,884 What? 205 00:09:43,917 --> 00:09:45,585 We just had a miscarriage. 206 00:09:45,619 --> 00:09:47,587 (scoffs softly) 207 00:09:47,621 --> 00:09:50,090 Thanks. I know. 208 00:09:50,123 --> 00:09:51,925 I was there. 209 00:09:51,959 --> 00:09:54,427 Okay. 210 00:09:54,461 --> 00:09:56,997 Um, can I, can I pick you up, afterwards? 211 00:09:57,030 --> 00:09:59,266 Sure. Uh, should be done around 3:30. 212 00:09:59,299 --> 00:10:01,401 -Okay. -I'll see you soon. 213 00:10:01,434 --> 00:10:02,903 All right, yeah. 3:30. 214 00:10:02,936 --> 00:10:05,238 (door closes) 215 00:10:05,272 --> 00:10:07,274 * 216 00:10:16,984 --> 00:10:18,051 REBECCA: Proud of you. 217 00:10:18,085 --> 00:10:19,552 JACK: Okay, bud, let's hit the road. 218 00:10:19,586 --> 00:10:21,955 -Off to college already. -(Randall laughs) 219 00:10:21,989 --> 00:10:23,590 Oh, great. Here we go. 220 00:10:23,623 --> 00:10:24,958 It's just a tour, Ma. 221 00:10:24,992 --> 00:10:27,127 -Still have a year of high school. -I know. 222 00:10:27,160 --> 00:10:29,329 -All right, so we're gonna see you guys after Kev's game? -Yes. 223 00:10:29,362 --> 00:10:30,798 Dad, come on. It's a four-hour drive. 224 00:10:30,831 --> 00:10:33,400 I don't want to get there late and make a bad impression. 225 00:10:33,433 --> 00:10:34,768 KATE: Randall, you're a math prodigy 226 00:10:34,802 --> 00:10:36,937 with insane SAT scores and perfect grades. 227 00:10:36,970 --> 00:10:40,107 Any college would be lucky to have a giant dork like you. 228 00:10:40,140 --> 00:10:42,109 RANDALL: (chuckles) Thanks, LL Cool K. 229 00:10:42,142 --> 00:10:44,077 -KATE: Mm. See ya. -KEVIN: So, you guys out? 230 00:10:44,111 --> 00:10:47,280 -* Break my body * -(knock on door) 231 00:10:47,314 --> 00:10:50,583 * Hold my bones, hold my bones * 232 00:10:50,617 --> 00:10:51,919 * Break my... * 233 00:10:51,952 --> 00:10:53,420 -You could've knocked. -I did. 234 00:10:53,453 --> 00:10:55,455 You didn't answer. 235 00:11:00,994 --> 00:11:02,629 (clears throat) 236 00:11:02,662 --> 00:11:03,964 We're having a serious talk? 237 00:11:03,997 --> 00:11:05,632 No. No. 238 00:11:05,665 --> 00:11:09,102 Mom, every time you sit on my bed, it's a serious talk. 239 00:11:09,136 --> 00:11:11,905 I just thought it must be tough... 240 00:11:11,939 --> 00:11:15,342 Classic start to one of your serious talks. 241 00:11:15,375 --> 00:11:17,177 Will you just zip it, please? 242 00:11:17,210 --> 00:11:18,812 And sit down. 243 00:11:21,548 --> 00:11:25,418 I recognize that I may be a little bit dense 244 00:11:25,452 --> 00:11:27,788 about all this college stuff. 245 00:11:27,821 --> 00:11:29,622 You have two brothers who know 246 00:11:29,656 --> 00:11:31,759 exactly what they want to do with their life. 247 00:11:31,792 --> 00:11:33,861 Kevin's gonna go play football somewhere, 248 00:11:33,894 --> 00:11:38,531 and Randall is gonna go major in some math thing 249 00:11:38,565 --> 00:11:41,334 that none of us can understand. 250 00:11:41,368 --> 00:11:43,503 But you aren't your brothers. 251 00:11:43,536 --> 00:11:45,038 You're not. 252 00:11:45,072 --> 00:11:47,474 You don't know what your path is just yet. 253 00:11:47,507 --> 00:11:49,142 And you know what? 254 00:11:49,176 --> 00:11:52,179 I think that's okay. 255 00:11:52,212 --> 00:11:54,447 At your age, it's great. 256 00:11:54,481 --> 00:11:56,316 Keep your options open. 257 00:11:56,349 --> 00:11:58,986 You go to some incredible liberal arts college, 258 00:11:59,019 --> 00:12:02,055 and you can study a bunch of different subjects 259 00:12:02,089 --> 00:12:04,691 until you figure out what you're passionate about. 260 00:12:04,724 --> 00:12:07,427 Wow, Mom. 261 00:12:07,460 --> 00:12:09,997 Didn't realize you thought I was passionless until now. 262 00:12:10,030 --> 00:12:11,198 -So, thanks for that. -No, no. 263 00:12:11,231 --> 00:12:12,532 -That's not what I was saying, Kate. -Yeah. 264 00:12:12,565 --> 00:12:14,101 Sweetheart, you know that's not what I was saying. 265 00:12:14,134 --> 00:12:16,970 No, I got to get to school, so I'll see you at Kevin's game. 266 00:12:17,004 --> 00:12:18,371 Bye, Louie. 267 00:12:18,405 --> 00:12:20,707 Be a good boy, okay? 268 00:12:22,575 --> 00:12:26,046 Hey, why don't you go to, uh, veterinary school? 269 00:12:29,682 --> 00:12:31,819 What are we gonna do with her, Louie? Huh? 270 00:12:31,852 --> 00:12:33,420 (whispers): What? What are we gonna do? 271 00:12:33,453 --> 00:12:36,056 Oh. 272 00:12:36,089 --> 00:12:38,859 * 273 00:13:08,421 --> 00:13:11,591 KATE: Hi. This is Kate Emily Pearson. 274 00:13:11,624 --> 00:13:16,196 Um... my audition song is "Summertime." 275 00:13:16,229 --> 00:13:20,100 I really want to go to Berklee, so I really hope you like it. 276 00:13:20,133 --> 00:13:22,870 Anyway, um... here goes. 277 00:13:24,637 --> 00:13:29,609 * Summertime * 278 00:13:29,642 --> 00:13:33,947 * And the livin' is easy * 279 00:13:33,981 --> 00:13:38,085 * Fish are jumping * 280 00:13:38,118 --> 00:13:43,423 * And the cotton is high * 281 00:13:43,456 --> 00:13:47,260 * Oh, your daddy's rich * 282 00:13:47,294 --> 00:13:51,464 * And your ma is good-lookin' * 283 00:13:53,333 --> 00:13:56,236 * So hush, little baby * 284 00:13:56,269 --> 00:14:01,008 * Don't you cry * 285 00:14:05,445 --> 00:14:10,050 * One of these mornings * 286 00:14:10,083 --> 00:14:15,188 * You're gonna rise up singin' * 287 00:14:15,222 --> 00:14:19,126 * You'll spread your wings * 288 00:14:19,159 --> 00:14:24,097 * And you'll take to the sky * 289 00:14:24,131 --> 00:14:28,601 -* Ooh, but till that morning * -(phone vibrates) 290 00:14:28,635 --> 00:14:31,905 * Ain't nothing can harm you * 291 00:14:31,939 --> 00:14:34,307 Oh, you got to be kidding me. 292 00:14:34,341 --> 00:14:36,543 * With Daddy and Mammy * 293 00:14:36,576 --> 00:14:41,581 * Standin' by * 294 00:14:46,386 --> 00:14:49,889 * So hush, little baby * 295 00:14:49,923 --> 00:14:54,661 * Don't you cry * 296 00:14:54,694 --> 00:14:56,796 (panting) 297 00:14:56,829 --> 00:15:01,334 * So hush, little baby * 298 00:15:01,368 --> 00:15:04,204 * Don't * 299 00:15:04,237 --> 00:15:05,605 (sniffles) 300 00:15:05,638 --> 00:15:11,444 * You cry. * 301 00:15:17,217 --> 00:15:19,219 (woman speaks indistinctly over P.A.) 302 00:15:22,089 --> 00:15:23,991 -Uh, excuse me. -(car alarm honks) 303 00:15:24,024 --> 00:15:27,727 Uh, my good man, uh, I'm trying to prevent a package 304 00:15:27,760 --> 00:15:29,362 from being delivered to my apartment. 305 00:15:29,396 --> 00:15:30,730 I called, they said it might be here. 306 00:15:30,763 --> 00:15:31,965 I have a tracking number. 307 00:15:31,999 --> 00:15:33,300 Yeah, I don't know what they told you, 308 00:15:33,333 --> 00:15:35,102 but this isn't like a customer service deal. 309 00:15:35,135 --> 00:15:36,903 It's a distro center. Can't help you. Sorry. 310 00:15:36,936 --> 00:15:39,206 Hey. What's your name? 311 00:15:39,239 --> 00:15:40,573 -Karl. -Hi, Karl. 312 00:15:40,607 --> 00:15:43,043 Uh, I am a large and powerful man. 313 00:15:43,076 --> 00:15:45,712 And on most days, my stature is only a complement 314 00:15:45,745 --> 00:15:47,114 to my sharp comedic wit. 315 00:15:47,147 --> 00:15:49,449 But today, I am a man with a fiancée 316 00:15:49,482 --> 00:15:52,219 who has had a terrible last 12 hours. 317 00:15:52,252 --> 00:15:53,920 Right now, she's somewhere in a red dress 318 00:15:53,953 --> 00:15:55,522 singing in the middle of the day 319 00:15:55,555 --> 00:15:57,624 because she can't face how awful she feels. 320 00:15:57,657 --> 00:15:59,092 And that breaks my heart. 321 00:15:59,126 --> 00:16:00,893 So I'm not feeling all that funny. 322 00:16:00,927 --> 00:16:02,095 Okay, buddy, it ain't personal. I just got... 323 00:16:02,129 --> 00:16:03,630 The hardest part, Karl, 324 00:16:03,663 --> 00:16:05,498 about seeing someone you love in pain 325 00:16:05,532 --> 00:16:07,500 is not being able to do anything about it, 326 00:16:07,534 --> 00:16:09,002 except try not to make it worse. 327 00:16:09,036 --> 00:16:11,204 Which brings me here, to intercept a package 328 00:16:11,238 --> 00:16:13,340 that, were it to arrive on our doorstep, 329 00:16:13,373 --> 00:16:17,677 would most certainly make it worse. 330 00:16:17,710 --> 00:16:20,547 I am a large and powerful man, Karl. 331 00:16:20,580 --> 00:16:23,550 And I don't know how much longer I can stay this calm. 332 00:16:27,187 --> 00:16:29,356 (scanner beeps) 333 00:16:29,389 --> 00:16:31,958 Okay, it's not on a truck. Not yet. 334 00:16:31,991 --> 00:16:33,593 But I can't tell you where it is. 335 00:16:33,626 --> 00:16:36,296 Could be anywhere in here. 336 00:16:36,329 --> 00:16:38,298 Where do I start? 337 00:16:48,208 --> 00:16:50,210 * 338 00:16:52,245 --> 00:16:54,981 DR. ARROYO: Your poppy seed is now the size of a lentil. 339 00:16:55,014 --> 00:16:58,351 Congratulations. You're officially six weeks along. 340 00:16:59,852 --> 00:17:01,688 KATE: We're pregnant. 341 00:17:01,721 --> 00:17:03,022 -Oh, that's wonderful! -I'm glad you're happy. 342 00:17:03,056 --> 00:17:04,591 TOBY: Oh, I'm not happy! 343 00:17:04,624 --> 00:17:06,526 I'm ecstatic! 344 00:17:06,559 --> 00:17:07,660 We're pregnant. 345 00:17:07,694 --> 00:17:09,496 KEVIN: You're preg...? 346 00:17:09,529 --> 00:17:10,530 -KATE: We're pregnant! -Oh, my God! 347 00:17:10,563 --> 00:17:12,999 This is amazing! 348 00:17:13,032 --> 00:17:14,867 * 349 00:17:20,240 --> 00:17:22,242 (phone vibrating, ringtone playing) 350 00:17:29,048 --> 00:17:31,418 (phone beeps, stops) 351 00:17:31,451 --> 00:17:33,253 (sniffles) 352 00:17:39,959 --> 00:17:42,229 -(whistle blows) -(crowd cheering) 353 00:17:42,262 --> 00:17:45,732 -(marching band playing) -(cheerleaders chanting) 354 00:17:45,765 --> 00:17:48,935 CROWD (chanting): Defense! Defense! 355 00:17:48,968 --> 00:17:50,837 -Milk Dud? -No, thank you. 356 00:17:50,870 --> 00:17:53,673 CROWD (chanting): Defense! Defense! 357 00:17:53,706 --> 00:17:55,708 -Hike! -(crowd cheering) 358 00:17:57,110 --> 00:17:58,745 Go, go, go, go, go! 359 00:17:58,778 --> 00:18:00,580 Break it! Break it! Break it! 360 00:18:00,613 --> 00:18:01,748 (Rebecca and Kate whooping) 361 00:18:01,781 --> 00:18:02,882 (whistle blowing) 362 00:18:02,915 --> 00:18:04,651 Yeah, Kev! 363 00:18:04,684 --> 00:18:06,519 ANNOUNCER (over P.A.): Another first down for number one. 364 00:18:06,553 --> 00:18:08,355 That's three in a row on his own, folks. 365 00:18:08,388 --> 00:18:09,389 MAN: Go! 366 00:18:17,096 --> 00:18:19,098 (clears throat) 367 00:18:28,975 --> 00:18:31,944 -$50? -Mm-hmm. 368 00:18:31,978 --> 00:18:34,581 Yeah, it's for your application fee. 369 00:18:34,614 --> 00:18:36,716 You went through my stuff? 370 00:18:36,749 --> 00:18:38,251 No, I... 371 00:18:38,285 --> 00:18:39,752 I... 372 00:18:39,786 --> 00:18:41,454 Okay, yeah, I did a little bit. Sorry. 373 00:18:41,488 --> 00:18:42,889 Yeah, great. Maybe I should use this $50 374 00:18:42,922 --> 00:18:44,090 to put a new lock on my door. 375 00:18:44,123 --> 00:18:46,559 Okay. I'm sorry. 376 00:18:46,593 --> 00:18:48,395 I shouldn't have gone through your stuff, Kate, 377 00:18:48,428 --> 00:18:49,962 but I didn't really have a choice. 378 00:18:49,996 --> 00:18:52,098 You've been so closed off to me. 379 00:18:52,131 --> 00:18:54,033 I mean, why wouldn't you tell me? 380 00:18:54,066 --> 00:18:55,468 Huh? 381 00:18:55,502 --> 00:18:58,070 Bug, I had no idea 382 00:18:58,104 --> 00:19:00,307 that you were even interested in singing again. 383 00:19:00,340 --> 00:19:02,342 Well, I am. 384 00:19:04,344 --> 00:19:06,246 I could've helped you. 385 00:19:06,279 --> 00:19:07,714 Yeah. I know. 386 00:19:17,790 --> 00:19:20,693 Well, I thought you sounded terrific. 387 00:19:22,495 --> 00:19:23,930 I did. 388 00:19:23,963 --> 00:19:26,399 I mean, the song selection was perfect. 389 00:19:26,433 --> 00:19:29,302 Really highlighted your vocal range. 390 00:19:31,338 --> 00:19:33,240 Thanks. 391 00:19:35,708 --> 00:19:38,911 Well, I think you have a real shot. 392 00:19:38,945 --> 00:19:40,947 I do. 393 00:19:46,018 --> 00:19:47,887 -(crowd gasps) -(whistles blowing) 394 00:19:50,223 --> 00:19:51,758 Oh, my God, it's Kevin. 395 00:19:51,791 --> 00:19:53,260 Is that Kevin? 396 00:20:00,367 --> 00:20:01,634 Okay, go call your father. 397 00:20:01,668 --> 00:20:02,969 -Yeah. -Find a phone, page him. 398 00:20:03,002 --> 00:20:04,170 -Okay, Mom. -Go, go, go. 399 00:20:04,203 --> 00:20:06,105 -Kate, Kate, go. -Excuse me, I'm so sorry. 400 00:20:06,138 --> 00:20:08,741 ("Three White Horses" by Andrew Bird playing) 401 00:20:16,983 --> 00:20:20,920 * There'll be three white horses * 402 00:20:20,953 --> 00:20:23,990 * All in a line * 403 00:20:24,023 --> 00:20:27,660 * There'll be three white horses * 404 00:20:27,694 --> 00:20:29,696 * In a line * 405 00:20:32,799 --> 00:20:36,168 * Three white horses * 406 00:20:36,202 --> 00:20:40,340 * When you go that way * 407 00:20:40,373 --> 00:20:43,510 * You will need somebody * 408 00:20:43,543 --> 00:20:45,945 * When you come to die * 409 00:20:50,450 --> 00:20:55,588 * Don't dismiss it like it's easy * 410 00:20:55,622 --> 00:20:59,392 * Tell me what's so easy * 411 00:20:59,426 --> 00:21:03,229 * 'Bout coming to say good-bye * 412 00:21:06,699 --> 00:21:09,936 * You're gonna miss her in the evening * 413 00:21:09,969 --> 00:21:12,372 Sorry, man. This is the last section it could be in. 414 00:21:12,405 --> 00:21:15,808 * You know I won't be needing * 415 00:21:15,842 --> 00:21:18,878 * Somebody when you come to die * 416 00:21:23,049 --> 00:21:25,017 * 417 00:21:27,053 --> 00:21:29,021 (exhales) 418 00:21:36,996 --> 00:21:39,298 (grunting) 419 00:21:39,332 --> 00:21:42,268 (panting) 420 00:21:42,301 --> 00:21:45,037 KARL: Hey, uh, you said Kate Pearson, right? 421 00:21:45,071 --> 00:21:46,873 Is this it? 422 00:21:46,906 --> 00:21:49,041 Yeah. That appears to be it. 423 00:21:49,075 --> 00:21:51,778 Thank you. 424 00:21:51,811 --> 00:21:52,945 Just sign right there. 425 00:21:52,979 --> 00:21:55,181 Yeah. 426 00:21:55,214 --> 00:21:58,351 -Glad I could help. -Yeah. 427 00:21:58,385 --> 00:21:59,919 -You have a good day. -Yeah, you, too. 428 00:21:59,952 --> 00:22:02,922 Uh, uh, Karl, do you have a, uh, baby at home? 429 00:22:02,955 --> 00:22:04,624 Uh, no. 430 00:22:04,657 --> 00:22:07,427 But my sister's actually due for her third any-any day now. 431 00:22:07,460 --> 00:22:09,328 You like her? 432 00:22:10,363 --> 00:22:11,998 Okay. You know what? 433 00:22:12,031 --> 00:22:13,600 Why don't you give it to her anyways. 434 00:22:13,633 --> 00:22:15,802 It's a fancy baby bath. 435 00:22:19,539 --> 00:22:22,742 Fits in most tubs. 436 00:22:22,775 --> 00:22:24,444 Anyway, so, you want it? 437 00:22:24,477 --> 00:22:26,846 Yeah, sure. Thanks. 438 00:22:26,879 --> 00:22:28,314 Yeah. 439 00:22:30,182 --> 00:22:33,720 I'm sorry if something happened. 440 00:22:35,054 --> 00:22:36,222 Yeah. 441 00:22:38,224 --> 00:22:43,062 * Somebody when you come to die. * 442 00:22:56,543 --> 00:22:58,310 Hey. Where's Kate? 443 00:22:58,344 --> 00:22:59,979 I've been double-parked outside for 20 minutes. 444 00:23:00,012 --> 00:23:01,213 She's not answering my calls. 445 00:23:01,247 --> 00:23:03,149 Oh, she took off a couple hours ago. 446 00:23:03,182 --> 00:23:05,217 She got sick in the middle of set or something. 447 00:23:05,251 --> 00:23:06,719 What-what do you mean she got sick? 448 00:23:06,753 --> 00:23:08,688 I don't know. 449 00:23:08,721 --> 00:23:10,690 I'm sorry. I figured she just went home. 450 00:23:10,723 --> 00:23:11,991 Okay. 451 00:23:12,024 --> 00:23:14,026 Uh... yep. Okay. 452 00:23:14,060 --> 00:23:16,028 (line ringing) 453 00:23:16,062 --> 00:23:17,630 KATE: Leave a message for Kate. 454 00:23:17,664 --> 00:23:19,599 -(beep) -Uh, hey, I'm here at the cafe. 455 00:23:19,632 --> 00:23:22,268 Uh, they said that you left early, that you got sick. 456 00:23:22,301 --> 00:23:24,336 Uh, where are you? Please, please, please call me. 457 00:23:24,370 --> 00:23:27,206 Okay, bye. 458 00:23:27,239 --> 00:23:30,209 (line ringing) 459 00:23:30,242 --> 00:23:31,944 KEVIN: Hey, it's Kevin. 460 00:23:31,978 --> 00:23:34,146 Leave a message. Or better yet, send a text. 461 00:23:39,085 --> 00:23:40,787 Tobe? 462 00:23:44,791 --> 00:23:46,793 Tobe? 463 00:23:55,101 --> 00:23:58,104 (phone vibrating) 464 00:24:02,975 --> 00:24:04,977 (sighs) 465 00:24:09,048 --> 00:24:10,416 (sighs) 466 00:24:10,449 --> 00:24:13,920 -Yeah? -REBECCA: Hi, honey. 467 00:24:13,953 --> 00:24:15,354 I've been trying to get ahold of you. 468 00:24:15,387 --> 00:24:18,958 What's... Are you okay? 469 00:24:18,991 --> 00:24:21,227 -I lost the baby, Mom. -(sighs) 470 00:24:21,260 --> 00:24:22,962 Don't say anything. 471 00:24:22,995 --> 00:24:25,898 I just want to tell you so you know 472 00:24:25,932 --> 00:24:29,068 and it can be over. 473 00:24:29,101 --> 00:24:31,137 -Oh, Bug. -Okay? 474 00:24:31,170 --> 00:24:33,506 -Is there anything that I can... -Look, I got to go, Mom. 475 00:24:33,540 --> 00:24:35,207 -Okay. Just... I don't know what to... -(phone beeps) 476 00:24:40,913 --> 00:24:42,048 -(sniffles) -(line ringing) 477 00:24:42,081 --> 00:24:43,315 KEVIN: Hey, it's Kevin. 478 00:24:43,349 --> 00:24:45,184 Leave a message. Or better yet, send a text. 479 00:24:45,217 --> 00:24:47,520 (beep) 480 00:24:47,554 --> 00:24:49,188 K... 481 00:25:00,332 --> 00:25:01,801 Hey. 482 00:25:01,834 --> 00:25:03,803 (sighs) Thank God. 483 00:25:03,836 --> 00:25:05,471 Are you okay? 484 00:25:05,504 --> 00:25:07,640 Yeah, I'm fine. 485 00:25:07,674 --> 00:25:11,077 You're fine. 486 00:25:11,110 --> 00:25:12,812 What the, uh, what the hell happened? 487 00:25:12,845 --> 00:25:14,480 You knew I was picking you up. 488 00:25:14,513 --> 00:25:16,182 I'm s... I'm sorry. 489 00:25:16,215 --> 00:25:17,784 I should have called. I... 490 00:25:17,817 --> 00:25:20,853 Yeah, I thought you were in a hospital or something. 491 00:25:20,887 --> 00:25:22,454 Oh, okay. Well, I wasn't. 492 00:25:22,488 --> 00:25:23,656 Yeah, I can see that. 493 00:25:23,690 --> 00:25:25,457 Where were you? 494 00:25:25,491 --> 00:25:27,159 I was walking. 495 00:25:27,193 --> 00:25:29,161 'Kay. Walking where? 496 00:25:29,195 --> 00:25:31,698 Oh, my... I just was walking, Tobe. 497 00:25:31,731 --> 00:25:33,499 Okay? 498 00:25:33,532 --> 00:25:34,500 What? 499 00:25:34,533 --> 00:25:36,468 No. No, it is not okay. 500 00:25:36,502 --> 00:25:39,872 I was driving around like some nut job looking for you. 501 00:25:39,906 --> 00:25:42,642 Oh, I'm sorry. Were you put out? 502 00:25:42,675 --> 00:25:44,944 Did you have a couple of emotional hours? 503 00:25:44,977 --> 00:25:48,014 'Cause I'm going to be a raging hormone machine for weeks 504 00:25:48,047 --> 00:25:51,050 while my body still thinks it's pregnant. 505 00:25:51,083 --> 00:25:52,518 So that's fun. 506 00:25:52,551 --> 00:25:55,487 Okay, let's not... let's not do this. 507 00:25:55,521 --> 00:25:56,989 -Oh, no. -This is... 508 00:25:57,023 --> 00:25:58,791 Let's do this. I think we should do this. 509 00:25:58,825 --> 00:26:00,559 Let's just go big. 510 00:26:00,593 --> 00:26:03,229 'Cause that's how you like to do things, right? 511 00:26:03,262 --> 00:26:05,698 -What's that supposed to mean? -Nothing. 512 00:26:05,732 --> 00:26:07,333 No, no, no. Go ahead, Kate, say it. 513 00:26:07,366 --> 00:26:08,567 What is that supposed to mean? 514 00:26:08,601 --> 00:26:10,903 It means... 515 00:26:10,937 --> 00:26:13,673 that I wanted to be cautious about this. 516 00:26:13,706 --> 00:26:15,775 I didn't want to get excited. 517 00:26:15,808 --> 00:26:17,376 -But you... -Okay. Okay. 518 00:26:17,409 --> 00:26:19,378 You pushed and you pushed. 519 00:26:19,411 --> 00:26:21,580 So, congratulations, Toby. 520 00:26:21,614 --> 00:26:23,415 You got me excited. 521 00:26:23,449 --> 00:26:25,718 Yeah, well, I'm not gonna apologize about being excited. 522 00:26:25,752 --> 00:26:27,519 -Okay. -We didn't lose the baby 523 00:26:27,553 --> 00:26:29,255 because we got our hopes up. 524 00:26:29,288 --> 00:26:30,256 -Right. -All right? 525 00:26:30,289 --> 00:26:31,257 It just happened. 526 00:26:31,290 --> 00:26:32,558 Toby, it happened to me. 527 00:26:32,591 --> 00:26:35,027 It didn't happen to you. 528 00:26:42,802 --> 00:26:44,536 (Kate sighs) 529 00:26:44,570 --> 00:26:48,507 When I woke up this morning, I forgot for a split second. 530 00:26:48,540 --> 00:26:52,879 I was just looking at you and thinking, "Wow. 531 00:26:52,912 --> 00:26:54,914 She's having our baby." 532 00:26:57,616 --> 00:27:01,220 And then I blinked, and I remembered. 533 00:27:01,253 --> 00:27:03,255 And I slid out of bed as quietly as possible 534 00:27:03,289 --> 00:27:05,557 because I thought that if there was a chance that maybe 535 00:27:05,591 --> 00:27:07,794 you were dreaming and forgetting, too... 536 00:27:07,827 --> 00:27:09,829 well, I didn't want to wake you from that. 537 00:27:11,630 --> 00:27:14,066 Now, I will be your entire support system 538 00:27:14,100 --> 00:27:15,567 through all of this. 539 00:27:15,601 --> 00:27:17,970 I will hold your head in my lap, and I will stroke your hair, 540 00:27:18,004 --> 00:27:20,539 and I will tell you that everything is gonna be okay 541 00:27:20,572 --> 00:27:22,474 until the cows come home. 542 00:27:22,508 --> 00:27:26,245 But what I will not do-- what is not fair for you to do 543 00:27:26,278 --> 00:27:29,248 is to tell me that I wasn't a part of this. 544 00:27:32,284 --> 00:27:34,787 Now, yeah, it didn't happen to my body. 545 00:27:34,821 --> 00:27:36,622 I get that. 546 00:27:36,655 --> 00:27:38,791 I have no idea what that must be like for you. 547 00:27:38,825 --> 00:27:41,193 And I'm trying to be strong here 'cause that's the gig, 548 00:27:41,227 --> 00:27:44,831 but it happened to me, too. 549 00:27:44,864 --> 00:27:47,299 And it hurt. 550 00:27:49,335 --> 00:27:51,337 * 551 00:27:56,675 --> 00:27:59,611 (door closes) 552 00:27:59,645 --> 00:28:01,814 MAN (over TV): Perfectly comfortable like this. 553 00:28:01,848 --> 00:28:03,649 -(audience laughing) -MAN 2: So am I. 554 00:28:03,682 --> 00:28:07,386 Shouldn't we have gotten, like, an update by now? 555 00:28:09,188 --> 00:28:13,159 Yeah, apparently MRIs take quite a while. 556 00:28:13,192 --> 00:28:14,526 At least the coffee's cold. 557 00:28:14,560 --> 00:28:17,329 (Rebecca chuckles softly) 558 00:28:20,366 --> 00:28:22,368 (Kate sighs) 559 00:28:22,401 --> 00:28:24,971 Mom. 560 00:28:25,004 --> 00:28:27,706 I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Berklee. 561 00:28:27,740 --> 00:28:30,509 It's just... 562 00:28:30,542 --> 00:28:34,480 you know, if I don't get in, I think it'll crush me. 563 00:28:34,513 --> 00:28:36,182 But... 564 00:28:36,215 --> 00:28:38,584 but I just could not deal with 565 00:28:38,617 --> 00:28:41,553 disappointing you on top of that. 566 00:28:44,590 --> 00:28:46,192 Bug, for the record, 567 00:28:46,225 --> 00:28:49,561 I would be disappointed for you, not for me. 568 00:28:49,595 --> 00:28:52,765 Yeah. Sometimes it's hard to feel the difference. 569 00:28:55,802 --> 00:28:57,837 * 570 00:29:07,079 --> 00:29:09,581 My mom was tough. 571 00:29:09,615 --> 00:29:12,384 I mean, you know that. You've seen it. 572 00:29:12,418 --> 00:29:14,186 She was just a... 573 00:29:14,220 --> 00:29:17,189 closed steel door. 574 00:29:17,223 --> 00:29:19,025 And even if you could get through, 575 00:29:19,058 --> 00:29:22,128 there was a room full of spikes right behind it. 576 00:29:24,130 --> 00:29:26,532 And I always wanted to have a daughter, 577 00:29:26,565 --> 00:29:29,435 because I wanted to do it a different way. 578 00:29:29,468 --> 00:29:33,439 I wanted to be the mom that had her... 579 00:29:33,472 --> 00:29:38,677 arms wide open, just waiting for you to fall in if you needed it. 580 00:29:40,479 --> 00:29:43,049 And, somehow-- 581 00:29:43,082 --> 00:29:44,750 I don't know-- 582 00:29:44,783 --> 00:29:47,319 we just never got there, did we? 583 00:29:47,353 --> 00:29:49,989 -Mom... -No, no, no, no, no. No. 584 00:29:50,022 --> 00:29:52,391 It's not your job to make me feel better. 585 00:29:52,424 --> 00:29:55,227 It's not. It's my job. 586 00:29:55,261 --> 00:30:00,766 It's my job to keep standing there with my arms wide open, 587 00:30:00,799 --> 00:30:06,005 waiting for you to maybe someday 588 00:30:06,038 --> 00:30:08,607 fall inside if you needed it. 589 00:30:10,609 --> 00:30:12,578 And if you do, I'll love you. 590 00:30:12,611 --> 00:30:14,780 And if you don't, 591 00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:17,649 I'll love you, too. 592 00:30:17,683 --> 00:30:20,686 Because that's what it means to be a parent. 593 00:30:22,688 --> 00:30:24,190 You'll see one day. 594 00:30:26,258 --> 00:30:28,227 (Rebecca sighs) 595 00:30:28,260 --> 00:30:29,862 -They're doing an MRI. -Okay. 596 00:30:29,896 --> 00:30:32,164 REBECCA: It's his knee. 597 00:30:34,166 --> 00:30:36,969 * 598 00:30:42,975 --> 00:30:44,977 * 599 00:31:06,332 --> 00:31:07,566 Tobe? 600 00:31:17,776 --> 00:31:19,211 (knock on door) 601 00:31:22,681 --> 00:31:24,683 Did you forget your keys, Tobe? 602 00:31:31,090 --> 00:31:34,426 * 603 00:31:41,900 --> 00:31:43,869 (sniffles) 604 00:31:45,871 --> 00:31:47,906 (sobbing) 605 00:31:47,940 --> 00:31:50,276 I'm here. 606 00:31:52,344 --> 00:31:54,846 I'm right here. 607 00:31:54,880 --> 00:31:56,882 (sobbing continues) 608 00:32:06,925 --> 00:32:08,894 I can't take a shower. 609 00:32:08,927 --> 00:32:11,663 There's no curtain. 610 00:32:11,697 --> 00:32:14,033 -I can draw you a bath. -(Kate sobs) 611 00:32:16,068 --> 00:32:18,070 (sniffling) 612 00:32:21,173 --> 00:32:24,376 Can you just come sit with me for a minute? 613 00:32:24,410 --> 00:32:26,979 Yeah, of course. 614 00:32:32,784 --> 00:32:34,653 (sniffles) 615 00:32:36,655 --> 00:32:39,625 How can I be this sad? 616 00:32:39,658 --> 00:32:41,160 (chuckles softly) 617 00:32:41,193 --> 00:32:43,295 I never even met the baby. 618 00:32:43,329 --> 00:32:45,297 And never held him. 619 00:32:45,331 --> 00:32:47,933 Or her. 620 00:32:47,966 --> 00:32:50,502 Wasn't even old enough for me to know. 621 00:32:55,574 --> 00:32:58,377 I never held Kyle. 622 00:33:00,979 --> 00:33:03,115 I remember they asked me if I wanted to 623 00:33:03,149 --> 00:33:06,618 because it helps, um... 624 00:33:06,652 --> 00:33:10,789 mothers with, um, closure. 625 00:33:10,822 --> 00:33:13,825 You know, to hold the baby and to say good-bye. 626 00:33:16,728 --> 00:33:19,398 But I didn't want to do that because I felt like 627 00:33:19,431 --> 00:33:22,334 if I didn't hold him, somehow it would lessen the pain, 628 00:33:22,368 --> 00:33:27,339 which wasn't the case, obviously, because I... 629 00:33:27,373 --> 00:33:31,310 I knew him already. 630 00:33:31,343 --> 00:33:33,279 He was so real to me. 631 00:33:33,312 --> 00:33:37,383 I mean, the second I found out I was pregnant with you guys, 632 00:33:37,416 --> 00:33:39,451 you were all so real to me. 633 00:33:41,553 --> 00:33:45,491 And then the wondering set in. 634 00:33:45,524 --> 00:33:46,958 You know, did I do this? 635 00:33:46,992 --> 00:33:48,294 Did I do something wrong? 636 00:33:48,327 --> 00:33:50,962 Did I... sleep on the wrong side? 637 00:33:50,996 --> 00:33:52,564 Should I have gone on that walk? 638 00:33:52,598 --> 00:33:54,833 'Cause the day you guys were born, 639 00:33:54,866 --> 00:33:56,935 I went on this long, hot walk. 640 00:33:56,968 --> 00:33:58,304 It wasn't your fault. 641 00:33:58,337 --> 00:34:00,906 (whispers): And this wasn't yours. 642 00:34:00,939 --> 00:34:03,041 But with me, it's different. 643 00:34:03,075 --> 00:34:04,876 -Because maybe it was... -Maybe it...? 644 00:34:04,910 --> 00:34:06,678 Maybe it was my fault. 645 00:34:06,712 --> 00:34:09,681 -Maybe it wasn't. -(sniffles) 646 00:34:09,715 --> 00:34:13,252 I know, but I feel like I just took this from Toby. 647 00:34:13,285 --> 00:34:16,155 Yeah, but you didn't. 648 00:34:16,188 --> 00:34:18,023 I know, but... 649 00:34:18,056 --> 00:34:23,429 but it feels that way, if that makes any sense. 650 00:34:23,462 --> 00:34:25,164 You need to talk to him, sweetheart. 651 00:34:25,197 --> 00:34:28,234 You have to share all this. 652 00:34:28,267 --> 00:34:29,668 I mean, you know, 653 00:34:29,701 --> 00:34:33,372 I held my grief from your father for weeks. 654 00:34:33,405 --> 00:34:38,009 I thought it would hurt him to see how sad I was. 655 00:34:38,043 --> 00:34:39,445 (sighs softly) 656 00:34:42,914 --> 00:34:46,552 Did I ever tell you that story about going to the grocery store 657 00:34:46,585 --> 00:34:49,255 with you guys when you were... 658 00:34:49,288 --> 00:34:51,490 six weeks old? 659 00:34:51,523 --> 00:34:54,226 (chuckles) Your father and I hadn't had a real meal 660 00:34:54,260 --> 00:34:57,696 in a long time, and I really wanted to make him 661 00:34:57,729 --> 00:34:59,998 this beer and rump roast 662 00:35:00,031 --> 00:35:03,068 that I had seen on The Galloping Gourmet. 663 00:35:03,101 --> 00:35:05,304 And it required a bag of yellow onions. 664 00:35:05,337 --> 00:35:07,539 (baby fussing) 665 00:35:07,573 --> 00:35:09,375 Oh. 666 00:35:09,408 --> 00:35:12,010 -Hey. -(fussing continues) 667 00:35:15,447 --> 00:35:16,715 Oh. 668 00:35:16,748 --> 00:35:18,083 Sorr... That... 669 00:35:18,116 --> 00:35:20,619 -Those were my onions. -I'm sorry? 670 00:35:20,652 --> 00:35:22,621 Those were my onions. You just took them from me. 671 00:35:22,654 --> 00:35:24,523 No, I got them from the display right here. 672 00:35:24,556 --> 00:35:25,624 Yeah, I under... 673 00:35:25,657 --> 00:35:27,459 Excuse me, where are you going, lady? 674 00:35:27,493 --> 00:35:29,461 Those were my onions, and you took them from me. 675 00:35:29,495 --> 00:35:31,263 -I want them back. -What are you, crazy? 676 00:35:31,297 --> 00:35:33,064 No, I'm not crazy. I want my onions! 677 00:35:33,098 --> 00:35:34,566 -You're crazy. -Is there a problem here? 678 00:35:34,600 --> 00:35:36,402 Yeah, I... Yes. 679 00:35:36,435 --> 00:35:38,404 Okay, there is a problem. 680 00:35:38,437 --> 00:35:39,771 Um... (clears throat) 681 00:35:39,805 --> 00:35:41,440 I went to go grab that bag of onions. 682 00:35:41,473 --> 00:35:44,276 I turn my back for two seconds to look after my babies, 683 00:35:44,310 --> 00:35:46,412 and that woman took them from me. 684 00:35:46,445 --> 00:35:49,114 -Ma'am, just calm down. -I-I'm calm, okay? 685 00:35:49,147 --> 00:35:51,617 I'm not gonna calm down though, because what I want 686 00:35:51,650 --> 00:35:54,019 is for you to tell her to give me my onions back, okay? 687 00:35:54,052 --> 00:35:55,854 I-I... (sighs) 688 00:35:55,887 --> 00:35:59,291 I have a recipe that calls for four ounces of yellow onion. 689 00:35:59,325 --> 00:36:01,493 And-and I've been planning this dish for a whole week, 690 00:36:01,527 --> 00:36:04,095 and I'm not gonna leave here without my yellow onion. 691 00:36:04,129 --> 00:36:05,897 Miss, would you like to sit down? 692 00:36:05,931 --> 00:36:08,099 No, I don't, I don't... I don't want to sit down. 693 00:36:08,133 --> 00:36:10,469 I want you to tell her to give me my onion back. 694 00:36:10,502 --> 00:36:11,603 I just, I want... 695 00:36:11,637 --> 00:36:13,639 I want what I came for, okay? 696 00:36:13,672 --> 00:36:15,641 I want my yellow onion. I want what's fair. 697 00:36:15,674 --> 00:36:17,309 Will you, will you, will you tell her 698 00:36:17,343 --> 00:36:19,311 to give me my onion back? Because it's not fair 699 00:36:19,345 --> 00:36:21,313 that I have to sit here and go without my yellow onion. 700 00:36:21,347 --> 00:36:22,581 It's not fair. 701 00:36:22,614 --> 00:36:25,617 It's not fair! It's not fair! 702 00:36:25,651 --> 00:36:29,154 KATE: You unleashed holy hell on some unsuspecting lady? 703 00:36:29,187 --> 00:36:30,155 (Rebecca laughs) 704 00:36:30,188 --> 00:36:32,123 I did. 705 00:36:32,157 --> 00:36:34,526 -Mom. (laughs) -Yeah. 706 00:36:34,560 --> 00:36:38,297 And then I ended up going home and burning the pot roast. 707 00:36:38,330 --> 00:36:39,931 -No. -Yeah. 708 00:36:39,965 --> 00:36:43,134 But... 709 00:36:43,168 --> 00:36:45,704 eventually, I opened up to your dad. 710 00:36:45,737 --> 00:36:48,940 And that's what gave space in my heart 711 00:36:48,974 --> 00:36:51,343 for you and Kevin. 712 00:36:51,377 --> 00:36:55,781 And it made space in my heart for Randall, too. 713 00:36:55,814 --> 00:36:58,550 Yeah, a little too much for Randall, if you ask me. 714 00:36:58,584 --> 00:37:00,151 Seriously? 715 00:37:00,185 --> 00:37:02,454 No. (laughs) 716 00:37:02,488 --> 00:37:04,490 I'm kidding. Sorry. 717 00:37:07,526 --> 00:37:10,529 'Cause I love you more than I can bear, Bug. 718 00:37:12,531 --> 00:37:16,201 I love you, too. 719 00:37:16,234 --> 00:37:18,970 (sniffling) 720 00:37:19,004 --> 00:37:21,607 Talk to Toby. 721 00:37:24,876 --> 00:37:26,878 * 722 00:37:38,690 --> 00:37:41,192 * 723 00:38:01,680 --> 00:38:03,682 * 724 00:38:11,256 --> 00:38:12,924 All right, you guys, um... 725 00:38:12,958 --> 00:38:14,726 you guys wait with your brother, okay? 726 00:38:14,760 --> 00:38:17,162 Your mom and I are gonna go get the car. 727 00:38:17,195 --> 00:38:19,831 -Okay. -Pull it around, okay? 728 00:38:22,601 --> 00:38:25,070 Can you get me something to drink? 729 00:38:25,103 --> 00:38:26,638 Sure. 730 00:38:26,672 --> 00:38:28,674 Thank you. 731 00:38:39,585 --> 00:38:41,720 * 732 00:38:55,467 --> 00:38:57,603 (TV playing quietly) 733 00:38:57,636 --> 00:38:59,037 (Kate chuckles) 734 00:39:01,072 --> 00:39:03,341 Hi. 735 00:39:03,375 --> 00:39:04,743 Oh, hi. 736 00:39:04,776 --> 00:39:06,978 My mom came. 737 00:39:08,747 --> 00:39:11,817 I see that. 738 00:39:11,850 --> 00:39:14,252 I am... 739 00:39:14,285 --> 00:39:17,523 gonna go grab some coffee at that place around the corner. 740 00:39:17,556 --> 00:39:19,057 -Hi. -Hi. 741 00:39:30,836 --> 00:39:33,038 -Want to sit with me? -Yeah. 742 00:39:36,975 --> 00:39:40,045 What, uh... what were you...? 743 00:39:40,078 --> 00:39:42,548 -Come here. -Oh. 744 00:39:42,581 --> 00:39:44,516 Oh. Okay. Yep. 745 00:39:46,518 --> 00:39:48,520 -Just go with it. -Okay. 746 00:39:51,389 --> 00:39:54,192 (Toby sighs) 747 00:39:54,225 --> 00:39:56,327 This is sweet, but I-I really think 748 00:39:56,361 --> 00:39:58,797 this is more your thing than mine. 749 00:39:58,830 --> 00:40:00,365 -So why don't... Can we... -Okay. 750 00:40:00,398 --> 00:40:02,233 -Can we switch? Okay. -Okay. Yeah. 751 00:40:04,069 --> 00:40:05,871 (sighs): Oh, yeah, that's the stuff. 752 00:40:05,904 --> 00:40:08,774 Yeah. 753 00:40:08,807 --> 00:40:11,477 (Toby sighs) 754 00:40:11,510 --> 00:40:13,945 I feel like I failed you. 755 00:40:13,979 --> 00:40:16,848 Mm. 756 00:40:16,882 --> 00:40:19,084 You didn't. 757 00:40:19,117 --> 00:40:21,119 You never could. 758 00:40:25,791 --> 00:40:27,392 I want to try again. 759 00:40:27,425 --> 00:40:29,160 Not yet. 760 00:40:29,194 --> 00:40:32,397 But maybe soon. 761 00:40:32,430 --> 00:40:34,900 (Toby sighs) 762 00:40:34,933 --> 00:40:37,803 Yeah, me, too. 763 00:40:37,836 --> 00:40:39,805 Whenever you're ready. 764 00:40:39,838 --> 00:40:43,274 ("The System Only Dreams in Total Darkness" by The National) 765 00:40:45,911 --> 00:40:50,882 * Maybe I listen more than you think * 766 00:40:50,916 --> 00:40:54,285 * And I can tell that somebody sold you * 767 00:40:54,319 --> 00:40:58,590 * We said we'd never let anyone in * 768 00:40:58,624 --> 00:41:01,660 * We said we'd only die * 769 00:41:01,693 --> 00:41:04,395 * Of lonely secrets... * 770 00:41:04,429 --> 00:41:07,566 We will not let this break us. 771 00:41:07,599 --> 00:41:09,601 No, we will not. 772 00:41:12,638 --> 00:41:15,440 I love you. 773 00:41:15,473 --> 00:41:17,042 * After a while * 774 00:41:17,075 --> 00:41:19,144 * Now you're saying that I'm asking * 775 00:41:19,177 --> 00:41:20,445 * For too much... * 776 00:41:20,478 --> 00:41:22,814 My God. 777 00:41:22,848 --> 00:41:24,750 Come here. 778 00:41:24,783 --> 00:41:26,752 (Kate chuckles) 779 00:41:30,956 --> 00:41:34,626 * I cannot explain it * 780 00:41:34,660 --> 00:41:36,995 * Oh, any other... * 781 00:41:37,028 --> 00:41:39,430 REBECCA: Hey, Randall. 782 00:41:39,464 --> 00:41:42,467 JACK: Randall, give your sister some space. 783 00:41:42,500 --> 00:41:45,737 REBECCA: Come on, Number Three! 784 00:41:45,771 --> 00:41:49,007 JACK: Okay, Number Three, it's your turn. 785 00:42:25,811 --> 00:42:27,746 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH