1 00:00:09,760 --> 00:00:10,761 He wanted to be 2 00:00:10,886 --> 00:00:12,178 buried here. 3 00:00:12,179 --> 00:00:13,514 It's a place, marked on a map. 4 00:00:13,639 --> 00:00:14,723 I know the place. 5 00:00:15,849 --> 00:00:17,559 I don't remember his face. 6 00:00:18,268 --> 00:00:20,186 if i were you I wouldn't listen. 7 00:00:20,187 --> 00:00:21,270 Play it. 8 00:00:22,439 --> 00:00:23,857 God! Damn it, Paul! 9 00:00:23,982 --> 00:00:25,776 - Resist. - God. 10 00:00:26,652 --> 00:00:27,778 Stacy! 11 00:00:27,903 --> 00:00:29,445 God 12 00:00:29,446 --> 00:00:31,740 I heard him die. 13 00:00:32,407 --> 00:00:34,158 As much as I would like to stay here, 14 00:00:34,159 --> 00:00:35,993 it hurts more than you might think. 15 00:00:35,994 --> 00:00:37,913 So if you're wondering how i feel about you 16 00:00:38,038 --> 00:00:39,705 I feel enough that to stay here and endure. 17 00:00:39,706 --> 00:00:40,916 Abby, 18 00:00:41,041 --> 00:00:42,875 if i were you 19 00:00:42,876 --> 00:00:45,044 I would set the hook pretty deep into that. 20 00:00:45,045 --> 00:00:47,256 They are no longer made men like him. 21 00:00:52,594 --> 00:00:56,557 I wonder if you know how happy that would make him. 22 00:00:57,599 --> 00:00:59,393 It would fill his heart. 23 00:00:59,518 --> 00:01:02,312 Tomorrow we bury them. 24 00:02:32,069 --> 00:02:34,236 There's a moose track there. 25 00:02:35,405 --> 00:02:38,074 Look, there's one more. 26 00:02:38,075 --> 00:02:40,535 No, that's American elk. 27 00:02:41,328 --> 00:02:42,787 How do you tell the difference? 28 00:02:44,081 --> 00:02:46,833 If you spend enough time following tracks, you just know. 29 00:02:50,587 --> 00:02:54,758 Do you have any question? about today? 30 00:02:55,634 --> 00:02:56,634 For example? 31 00:02:56,718 --> 00:02:57,803 I don't know. 32 00:02:57,928 --> 00:02:59,095 Let me ask you. 33 00:02:59,096 --> 00:03:01,847 Well, you're going to bury them. 34 00:03:01,848 --> 00:03:03,683 Yes. 35 00:03:03,684 --> 00:03:05,851 And what happens next? 36 00:03:05,852 --> 00:03:07,645 Well then 37 00:03:07,646 --> 00:03:10,107 they return to the ground. 38 00:03:11,316 --> 00:03:13,485 And their bodies become... 39 00:03:13,610 --> 00:03:15,277 part of it 40 00:03:15,278 --> 00:03:18,406 and their souls also 41 00:03:18,407 --> 00:03:19,241 i think 42 00:03:19,366 --> 00:03:21,201 Don't I go to heaven? 43 00:03:21,993 --> 00:03:24,621 I think this is their heaven. 44 00:03:25,872 --> 00:03:27,708 Heaven is... 45 00:03:28,875 --> 00:03:30,543 How do I explain this? 46 00:03:30,544 --> 00:03:31,548 - Well... - Our teacher says 47 00:03:31,628 --> 00:03:33,212 that there is no heaven. 48 00:03:33,213 --> 00:03:34,973 You know, I don't know if have you figured it out by now 49 00:03:35,090 --> 00:03:37,217 but don't believe everything what does your teacher say 50 00:03:38,051 --> 00:03:39,469 Heaven is 51 00:03:39,594 --> 00:03:43,472 your place...perfect. 52 00:03:43,473 --> 00:03:45,433 For some, they are 53 00:03:45,434 --> 00:03:48,227 oceans of ice cream and mountains of marshmallows. 54 00:03:48,228 --> 00:03:50,312 And... 55 00:03:50,313 --> 00:03:53,817 others, these mountains. 56 00:03:54,693 --> 00:03:56,153 Does it make sense? 57 00:03:57,237 --> 00:03:59,489 And grandfather's heaven is here. 58 00:04:00,741 --> 00:04:02,616 I think so. 59 00:04:02,617 --> 00:04:06,537 But if you think it's here why is everyone so sad that he's gone? 60 00:04:06,538 --> 00:04:09,166 Well his heaven is not mine 61 00:04:09,291 --> 00:04:10,834 and... 62 00:04:12,085 --> 00:04:13,502 you know i can't see it 63 00:04:13,503 --> 00:04:17,006 and I can't talk to him and i can't hug him 64 00:04:17,007 --> 00:04:20,509 and he can't hug me and... i miss this. 65 00:04:20,510 --> 00:04:22,303 Yes. 66 00:04:22,304 --> 00:04:23,930 I miss him too. 67 00:04:24,765 --> 00:04:27,266 But that's what we have memories of. 68 00:04:27,267 --> 00:04:29,603 We can relive all those moments 69 00:04:29,728 --> 00:04:31,771 that we had. 70 00:04:31,772 --> 00:04:34,232 All the talk, all the laughter, 71 00:04:34,357 --> 00:04:36,233 all the hugs and… 72 00:04:36,234 --> 00:04:39,321 You know, it's like a movie. We can... 73 00:04:40,280 --> 00:04:43,200 We can run it over and over 74 00:04:43,325 --> 00:04:46,368 as many times as we want 75 00:04:46,369 --> 00:04:48,370 you know, in our minds. 76 00:04:48,371 --> 00:04:49,705 Do you understand what I mean? 77 00:04:49,706 --> 00:04:50,874 Yes. 78 00:04:51,792 --> 00:04:55,419 However, it is not the same like a real hug. 79 00:04:55,420 --> 00:04:58,381 No, it's not the same. 80 00:05:18,860 --> 00:05:20,362 Right here, right? 81 00:05:21,196 --> 00:05:22,947 She marked on a map. 82 00:05:22,948 --> 00:05:24,157 Okay. 83 00:05:24,282 --> 00:05:26,826 Well, we won't bring it an excavator down here. 84 00:05:26,827 --> 00:05:30,038 Maybe we could bring a tractor by the river but... 85 00:05:30,831 --> 00:05:32,414 i don't know how good it would help us. 86 00:05:32,415 --> 00:05:35,918 No, these holes are dug in the old Irish style. 87 00:05:35,919 --> 00:05:38,254 Yes. 88 00:05:38,255 --> 00:05:40,422 How the hell we bring coffins up here? 89 00:05:40,423 --> 00:05:43,051 The Swensons still carry with the cart, isn't it? 90 00:05:43,176 --> 00:05:44,719 That's a good idea. 91 00:05:45,804 --> 00:05:47,556 Do you want to call or run after shovels? 92 00:05:47,681 --> 00:05:49,933 You call, I run. 93 00:05:50,058 --> 00:05:52,519 My horse will follow you. 94 00:05:53,270 --> 00:05:55,187 Let go of the bridle. 95 00:05:55,188 --> 00:05:56,188 Yes. 96 00:06:16,126 --> 00:06:17,960 I know. 97 00:06:17,961 --> 00:06:20,213 Yes, I know. 98 00:06:20,338 --> 00:06:22,214 A death has occurred in the family. 99 00:06:22,215 --> 00:06:24,550 I'm pretty sure the world women's volleyball 100 00:06:24,551 --> 00:06:26,553 will survive week without her. 101 00:06:27,429 --> 00:06:29,054 Yes, you are right. 102 00:06:29,055 --> 00:06:30,975 I don't count how does this affect anyone else 103 00:06:31,099 --> 00:06:32,808 not even a little. 104 00:06:32,809 --> 00:06:34,477 He would go to school. 105 00:06:35,478 --> 00:06:37,855 Will it be okay? 106 00:06:37,856 --> 00:06:40,400 It will have to be honey, that's what you have. 107 00:06:41,318 --> 00:06:42,944 Hey. 108 00:06:45,363 --> 00:06:46,697 It's just us. 109 00:06:46,698 --> 00:06:49,241 okay? There is no one to be upset. 110 00:06:49,242 --> 00:06:50,952 What did the school say? 111 00:06:51,077 --> 00:06:53,370 You stick a volleyball tournament. 112 00:06:53,371 --> 00:06:56,416 It's okay. 113 00:06:56,541 --> 00:06:58,501 Hey. 114 00:07:02,047 --> 00:07:03,840 It's okay. 115 00:07:19,022 --> 00:07:20,565 - Hey. - Hey. 116 00:07:27,989 --> 00:07:29,323 Where did you get the cream? 117 00:07:29,324 --> 00:07:32,118 Same shopping center where did i find the dress 118 00:07:32,911 --> 00:07:35,120 I have to admit, Bozeman impressed me. 119 00:07:35,121 --> 00:07:38,624 I did not expect to find Donna Karan in the mountains. 120 00:07:38,625 --> 00:07:40,209 I found something 121 00:07:40,210 --> 00:07:41,962 - and for you. - Yes, 122 00:07:42,087 --> 00:07:43,922 Preston would prefer me in jeans. 123 00:07:44,047 --> 00:07:46,675 I think they would find it 124 00:07:46,800 --> 00:07:48,635 a certain victory in that. 125 00:07:48,760 --> 00:07:49,970 She deserves a little black dress, 126 00:07:50,095 --> 00:07:51,846 and that's exactly what I got you. 127 00:07:51,972 --> 00:07:54,515 The boys said when will they be ready? 128 00:07:54,516 --> 00:07:56,351 They said to come around noon. 129 00:07:56,476 --> 00:07:58,102 How are they going to get them there? 130 00:07:58,103 --> 00:08:01,230 I didn't ask and they didn't even say. 131 00:08:01,231 --> 00:08:03,066 They just said it was fixed. 132 00:08:05,026 --> 00:08:06,569 About two hours. 133 00:08:07,320 --> 00:08:09,405 Preston wrote a chapter on… 134 00:08:09,406 --> 00:08:12,908 reading the time according to the position of the sun. 135 00:08:12,909 --> 00:08:16,746 It's... alarmingly accurate. 136 00:08:17,914 --> 00:08:20,083 The girls asked me to arrange a plane 137 00:08:22,085 --> 00:08:23,585 When? 138 00:08:23,586 --> 00:08:24,838 Tonight. 139 00:08:26,589 --> 00:08:27,756 Okay. 140 00:08:27,757 --> 00:08:29,258 They need closure, honey. 141 00:08:29,259 --> 00:08:31,176 They won't find it here. 142 00:08:31,177 --> 00:08:34,097 they have their lives and must live them. 143 00:08:34,222 --> 00:08:37,224 I would really like it to organize a memorial service. 144 00:08:37,225 --> 00:08:39,518 He has many friends who it deserves a way to say goodbye. 145 00:08:39,519 --> 00:08:40,686 does it have 146 00:08:40,687 --> 00:08:43,313 It has. And you know that. 147 00:08:43,314 --> 00:08:45,733 We could do it at the Explorers Club. 148 00:08:45,734 --> 00:08:47,818 Okay, just... 149 00:08:47,819 --> 00:08:49,487 How about the apartment? 150 00:08:49,612 --> 00:08:53,241 To bring food from Carbone. 151 00:08:53,366 --> 00:08:54,783 He loved that place. 152 00:08:54,784 --> 00:08:56,828 I already called. 153 00:08:56,953 --> 00:08:58,538 Are you coming back by plane too? 154 00:09:01,958 --> 00:09:03,625 I have a very worried husband. 155 00:09:03,626 --> 00:09:06,504 He is convinced that some cousin away from the Unabomber 156 00:09:06,629 --> 00:09:07,963 he's going to kidnap me 157 00:09:07,964 --> 00:09:10,717 and keep me in his basement for redemption. 158 00:09:10,842 --> 00:09:12,968 It depends on the cousin, I'm not completely against it. 159 00:09:12,969 --> 00:09:14,636 - Stop it. - Of course, that's it 160 00:09:14,637 --> 00:09:17,182 my warped version of kidnapping love novel. 161 00:09:17,307 --> 00:09:19,475 I doubt so it would happen, Lili. 162 00:09:19,476 --> 00:09:22,061 That would happen in my mind after two Percocet, 163 00:09:22,062 --> 00:09:23,521 so... 164 00:09:23,646 --> 00:09:24,773 Did you think I was kidding? 165 00:09:24,898 --> 00:09:26,483 - No. - No? 166 00:09:30,904 --> 00:09:32,781 i love you 167 00:09:37,452 --> 00:09:38,665 There is no place in which I would like to be more 168 00:09:38,745 --> 00:09:40,746 than by your side when you need me 169 00:09:40,747 --> 00:09:42,165 i know 170 00:09:45,835 --> 00:09:47,169 I have a small bottle of Kahlúa 171 00:09:47,170 --> 00:09:49,046 if you want little strength in the coffee. 172 00:09:49,047 --> 00:09:52,050 Well, now you're talking. 173 00:10:13,029 --> 00:10:15,865 Less, more. 174 00:10:15,990 --> 00:10:19,661 Okay. 175 00:11:03,955 --> 00:11:06,541 Of course you have packed the perfect dress. 176 00:11:13,256 --> 00:11:16,133 Is there any tree? of little black dresses 177 00:11:16,134 --> 00:11:19,095 near the river that I don't know about? 178 00:11:20,263 --> 00:11:21,681 Okay, girls. 179 00:11:24,225 --> 00:11:25,435 And Russell. 180 00:12:06,726 --> 00:12:09,895 - Where am I? - I'm coming. 181 00:12:09,896 --> 00:12:11,564 Okay. 182 00:12:12,565 --> 00:12:13,565 I'm sorry. 183 00:12:13,566 --> 00:12:15,525 Thank you. 184 00:12:15,526 --> 00:12:17,046 I'm sorry for your loss. 185 00:12:17,737 --> 00:12:20,615 - I'm sorry for the snot. - No, it's okay. 186 00:12:26,329 --> 00:12:28,998 I'm sorry than you might think. 187 00:12:29,916 --> 00:12:30,916 Thank you. 188 00:13:10,456 --> 00:13:12,458 Okay, guys. 189 00:13:26,889 --> 00:13:28,308 Take care of your hand. 190 00:14:21,110 --> 00:14:22,444 Mrs. Clyburn, 191 00:14:22,445 --> 00:14:24,192 I'm very sorry for your loss. 192 00:14:24,272 --> 00:14:25,306 Thank you. 193 00:14:27,116 --> 00:14:28,576 Is a priest coming? 194 00:14:32,080 --> 00:14:33,956 I forgot. No... I haven't... 195 00:14:34,082 --> 00:14:36,084 Well... 196 00:14:36,209 --> 00:14:38,044 this will be without a priest. 197 00:14:38,169 --> 00:14:39,253 What does this mean? 198 00:14:39,379 --> 00:14:42,381 It means we don't have one. 199 00:14:42,382 --> 00:14:46,176 You have someone lead the job? 200 00:14:46,177 --> 00:14:47,553 We... 201 00:14:49,055 --> 00:14:50,847 This is my first funeral here. 202 00:14:50,848 --> 00:14:54,102 so we kind of improvise. 203 00:14:54,227 --> 00:14:57,313 Well, that's it far from my first experience. 204 00:14:57,438 --> 00:15:00,440 Don't mind if let me say something first 205 00:15:00,441 --> 00:15:02,442 and then I give it to you all chance to talk? 206 00:15:02,443 --> 00:15:06,280 I don't think my group has many speeches in them. 207 00:15:08,658 --> 00:15:10,325 Do you mind if I say a prayer? 208 00:15:10,326 --> 00:15:12,537 I'm not upset. 209 00:15:22,088 --> 00:15:25,257 Lord, we stand before You with heavy hearts. 210 00:15:25,258 --> 00:15:28,885 With the glory of love comes the pain of loss 211 00:15:28,886 --> 00:15:31,471 and we look to You for relief. 212 00:15:31,472 --> 00:15:33,098 Remind us 213 00:15:33,099 --> 00:15:35,392 that it is a selfish pain 214 00:15:35,393 --> 00:15:38,019 because You promised a place called Heaven 215 00:15:38,020 --> 00:15:41,774 where the departed they rejoice in the brightness of Your grace. 216 00:15:41,899 --> 00:15:44,193 There are no more people. 217 00:15:44,318 --> 00:15:45,987 They are angels 218 00:15:46,112 --> 00:15:48,155 that guide us through the darkness, 219 00:15:48,156 --> 00:15:51,199 it lifts us up when we are weak 220 00:15:51,200 --> 00:15:53,494 and feed our souls and the spirits. 221 00:15:54,328 --> 00:15:56,204 Our pain is selfish pain 222 00:15:56,205 --> 00:15:59,207 because we don't know this place, Heaven. 223 00:15:59,208 --> 00:16:01,627 We rely on our faith 224 00:16:01,752 --> 00:16:03,378 that there is 225 00:16:03,379 --> 00:16:05,714 and on Your mercy 226 00:16:05,715 --> 00:16:07,467 that he holds a place for us 227 00:16:07,592 --> 00:16:11,304 where we can stand in Your light with loved ones 228 00:16:11,429 --> 00:16:15,224 and know only joy forever. 229 00:16:17,310 --> 00:16:19,020 Amen. 230 00:16:19,896 --> 00:16:22,273 If someone wants to say something. 231 00:16:23,691 --> 00:16:25,025 Stacy. 232 00:16:25,026 --> 00:16:27,737 It's not the first time when you give this speech 233 00:16:28,613 --> 00:16:30,405 No, ma'am. 234 00:16:30,406 --> 00:16:32,074 It's a good one. 235 00:16:33,784 --> 00:16:35,703 Do you want to say something? 236 00:16:37,288 --> 00:16:41,042 I have a lot to say but I won't tell them today. 237 00:16:49,842 --> 00:16:51,469 I think that was it, then. 238 00:16:53,262 --> 00:16:54,471 Well... 239 00:16:56,224 --> 00:16:57,850 And what happens now? 240 00:16:58,643 --> 00:17:00,227 We take care of everything. 241 00:17:04,440 --> 00:17:06,609 Wait, that was it? was that it 242 00:17:06,734 --> 00:17:08,693 If you have something to say, say, Paige. 243 00:17:08,694 --> 00:17:10,445 I don't know what to say. 244 00:17:10,446 --> 00:17:12,281 What... what can you say? 245 00:17:12,406 --> 00:17:14,242 I think that's her point. 246 00:17:18,412 --> 00:17:19,580 what is paul 247 00:17:29,507 --> 00:17:32,134 Damn you that you took it from us. 248 00:17:45,398 --> 00:17:47,233 i love you 249 00:18:00,830 --> 00:18:04,166 Everyone copes different isn't it guys? 250 00:18:05,334 --> 00:18:08,296 I don't think so they can't cope at all. 251 00:18:08,421 --> 00:18:10,589 Not yet, anyway. 252 00:18:10,590 --> 00:18:12,341 Who can blame them? 253 00:18:28,274 --> 00:18:29,942 Thank you. 254 00:19:11,567 --> 00:19:15,403 Tricky enough to try and have a funeral and don't tell anyone. 255 00:19:15,404 --> 00:19:16,863 I... 256 00:19:16,864 --> 00:19:20,575 I didn't know that someone would care. 257 00:19:20,576 --> 00:19:21,993 I let you have the funeral. 258 00:19:21,994 --> 00:19:24,162 We will not be without our feast. 259 00:19:26,457 --> 00:19:27,541 When they decided 260 00:19:27,667 --> 00:19:29,000 to build these cabins, 261 00:19:29,001 --> 00:19:30,794 they wanted to do them themselves. 262 00:19:30,795 --> 00:19:32,712 To cut the wood, to make the structure, 263 00:19:32,713 --> 00:19:34,506 to pull the electrical installation, all the cutlery. 264 00:19:34,507 --> 00:19:36,758 Look down at them. 265 00:19:36,759 --> 00:19:38,843 I'm standing on some railroad ties, 266 00:19:38,844 --> 00:19:40,054 and I didn't realize it 267 00:19:40,179 --> 00:19:42,180 in the name of God what purpose would that serve? 268 00:19:42,181 --> 00:19:44,850 And I told them it would be colder than hell in winter 269 00:19:44,975 --> 00:19:47,644 and every skunk and raccoon and God knows what else 270 00:19:47,645 --> 00:19:49,480 it will install underneath. 271 00:19:49,605 --> 00:19:52,273 Well, Preston only he looked at me and nodded. 272 00:19:52,274 --> 00:19:53,566 He didn't say a word. 273 00:19:53,567 --> 00:19:55,611 About six months later, 274 00:19:55,736 --> 00:19:57,446 the appraiser is coming to me and says: 275 00:19:57,571 --> 00:20:00,240 "You've seen these cabins that they built next door?" 276 00:20:00,241 --> 00:20:01,616 I said yes. 277 00:20:01,617 --> 00:20:04,036 And he asked me if I ever saw them move. 278 00:20:04,161 --> 00:20:06,706 I said, "Moving? What... what do you want you mean, moving?" 279 00:20:06,831 --> 00:20:10,667 The reviewer says, when he tried to evaluate them, 280 00:20:10,668 --> 00:20:13,211 your husband said that they are mobile homes. 281 00:20:13,212 --> 00:20:14,964 You pick them up with a forklift 282 00:20:15,089 --> 00:20:16,381 and move them. 283 00:20:16,382 --> 00:20:18,717 And he asked me if I had them ever seen in motion. 284 00:20:18,718 --> 00:20:20,094 Well, I told him, 285 00:20:20,219 --> 00:20:22,138 "Well, yes, they carry them everywhere." 286 00:20:23,013 --> 00:20:25,515 And if you look behind that pudding 287 00:20:25,516 --> 00:20:28,309 your husband has a flat tire from a shopping cart 288 00:20:28,310 --> 00:20:30,603 and said that damn it that is also furniture. 289 00:20:32,815 --> 00:20:34,858 He didn't want to pay no fees. 290 00:20:34,859 --> 00:20:36,276 I was wondering what those are for. 291 00:20:36,277 --> 00:20:39,238 Preston was always in trouble with the authority. 292 00:20:39,363 --> 00:20:41,990 Pudding wheels. I've never seen anything like it. 293 00:20:41,991 --> 00:20:44,200 Not. 294 00:20:44,201 --> 00:20:47,871 Indian Tacos. Hello. 295 00:20:47,872 --> 00:20:49,247 do you want 296 00:20:49,248 --> 00:20:51,292 what do you say some cookies? 297 00:20:51,417 --> 00:20:54,002 Good choice. 298 00:20:54,003 --> 00:20:56,881 I was thinking about three. 299 00:20:57,757 --> 00:20:59,800 What will he say? your mother about it? 300 00:20:59,925 --> 00:21:01,302 Mom won't say anything 301 00:21:01,427 --> 00:21:03,011 because he won't see me eating them. 302 00:21:03,012 --> 00:21:04,763 Let it stay between us. 303 00:21:06,098 --> 00:21:07,850 I think that's a good idea. 304 00:21:19,820 --> 00:21:21,905 Thank you for today. 305 00:21:21,906 --> 00:21:23,865 It means more than you think. 306 00:21:23,866 --> 00:21:26,869 Someone had to do it for me. I know what it means. 307 00:21:28,537 --> 00:21:31,081 I'm sorry it had to happen. 308 00:21:31,874 --> 00:21:33,291 We fly tonight. 309 00:21:33,292 --> 00:21:34,709 The girls missed a lot of school, 310 00:21:34,710 --> 00:21:36,211 and I have exhausted wardrobe. 311 00:21:36,212 --> 00:21:38,380 But... 312 00:21:41,342 --> 00:21:43,051 ...I would love to go back. 313 00:21:43,052 --> 00:21:44,803 Or... 314 00:21:44,804 --> 00:21:46,931 dare i invite you to new york? 315 00:21:47,056 --> 00:21:48,641 Well, the only way 316 00:21:48,766 --> 00:21:51,476 in which you take me to New York it's if they separated from the Union 317 00:21:51,477 --> 00:21:53,229 and I would be drafted into the army to get it back 318 00:21:53,354 --> 00:21:55,230 Okay, I have to be gentler 319 00:21:55,231 --> 00:21:57,024 - with my city, friend. - No... 320 00:21:57,149 --> 00:21:58,191 I'm not criticizing him. 321 00:21:58,192 --> 00:21:59,568 I just don't go there. 322 00:21:59,693 --> 00:22:01,862 Correct. 323 00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:03,572 Then I will come to visit. 324 00:22:04,532 --> 00:22:05,657 Sure. 325 00:22:05,658 --> 00:22:08,077 I'm serious. 326 00:22:09,411 --> 00:22:11,080 Okay. 327 00:22:12,122 --> 00:22:13,791 I'm serious. 328 00:22:20,172 --> 00:22:23,466 I'm a deputy sheriff who earns $52,000 a year. 329 00:22:23,467 --> 00:22:26,887 I have $12,000 in the bank, and I'm about to spend six of them 330 00:22:27,012 --> 00:22:28,596 on a fairly ordinary riding horse. 331 00:22:28,597 --> 00:22:30,686 three times a week I'm going to load it into a trailer 332 00:22:30,766 --> 00:22:32,226 and I'm going to drag him all over Montana 333 00:22:32,351 --> 00:22:33,935 trying to win back what I spent on it. 334 00:22:33,936 --> 00:22:36,021 In October, I will go the boys in the mountains 335 00:22:36,146 --> 00:22:38,190 for a month and we're going to fill the freezer with moose. 336 00:22:38,315 --> 00:22:40,400 I won't stay never on a beach. 337 00:22:40,401 --> 00:22:42,944 I'll never get to Europe 338 00:22:42,945 --> 00:22:45,447 or San Francisco or some city bigger than Billings. 339 00:22:45,573 --> 00:22:47,908 Never. 340 00:22:48,033 --> 00:22:49,951 What part of it do you find her attractive? 341 00:22:49,952 --> 00:22:52,287 - Nothing. - Now tell me how your life is. 342 00:22:52,288 --> 00:22:53,372 What wouldn't you change? 343 00:22:53,497 --> 00:22:54,789 I'm not the type that of obstacles. 344 00:22:54,790 --> 00:22:56,959 just tell me 345 00:23:00,004 --> 00:23:02,548 Macy has gymnastics every morning. 346 00:23:03,591 --> 00:23:06,301 From there, I go to Pilates. From Pilates, 347 00:23:06,302 --> 00:23:08,512 I go to the therapist. From therapist, I'm going for coffee 348 00:23:08,637 --> 00:23:10,513 let's talk with my girlfriends about all the nonsense 349 00:23:10,514 --> 00:23:12,307 that the therapist told me. 350 00:23:12,308 --> 00:23:15,351 Then I pick up Macy and take her Bridgett and we're going to the ballet. 351 00:23:15,352 --> 00:23:16,816 We have recitals every friday night. 352 00:23:16,896 --> 00:23:18,688 saturday morning we have competitions. 353 00:23:18,689 --> 00:23:20,148 I take the girls to St. Barts 354 00:23:20,149 --> 00:23:21,984 for christmas, Italy for the month of July, 355 00:23:22,109 --> 00:23:24,360 what would you like 356 00:23:24,361 --> 00:23:26,572 I wanted to emphasize. 357 00:23:30,492 --> 00:23:32,161 Who feeds the horses? 358 00:23:32,995 --> 00:23:34,663 Isn't there a service for this? 359 00:23:34,788 --> 00:23:36,874 Do you have to do this every day? 360 00:23:37,750 --> 00:23:39,043 Okay. 361 00:23:39,168 --> 00:23:40,711 Okay, there isn't future in this 362 00:23:40,836 --> 00:23:42,754 but you are tall 363 00:23:42,755 --> 00:23:45,507 and kind and damn handsome. 364 00:23:45,633 --> 00:23:47,342 you are tall and kind and beautiful. 365 00:23:47,343 --> 00:23:50,219 Okay. We can agree let's fail together 366 00:23:50,220 --> 00:23:51,930 and let's have sex as much as possible 367 00:23:51,931 --> 00:23:53,307 - possibly until... - Jesus. 368 00:23:53,432 --> 00:23:55,391 - until we can't anymore? - Yes, 369 00:23:55,392 --> 00:23:57,231 you city girls you really say by name, right? 370 00:23:57,311 --> 00:23:59,188 Yes, we... we... let's get to the point. 371 00:23:59,313 --> 00:24:00,772 - Yes, that's right. - I'm passing 372 00:24:00,773 --> 00:24:02,111 from asking me when we will see each other again 373 00:24:02,191 --> 00:24:04,609 to ask me when you will leave I... 374 00:24:06,278 --> 00:24:08,364 I think rather i would miss you 375 00:24:10,032 --> 00:24:12,701 - I haven't left yet. - You know what i mean. 376 00:24:12,826 --> 00:24:14,870 So is this goodbye? 377 00:24:16,956 --> 00:24:18,374 I think it's better. 378 00:24:21,835 --> 00:24:24,337 Let me clarify 379 00:24:24,338 --> 00:24:27,883 that you broke up with me at my father's funeral. 380 00:24:28,008 --> 00:24:29,805 We... are not together to break up We... 381 00:24:29,885 --> 00:24:31,307 No, no, no, I looked pretty together yesterday when 382 00:24:31,387 --> 00:24:32,808 - you were lying on top of me. - Abby, I... 383 00:24:32,888 --> 00:24:34,973 don't "Abby" me now. 384 00:24:34,974 --> 00:24:36,266 Do you want to miss me? 385 00:24:36,392 --> 00:24:38,351 Is that what you want? 386 00:24:38,352 --> 00:24:40,061 Here's your chance. 387 00:25:09,633 --> 00:25:11,427 Time to go home, isn't it? 388 00:25:12,845 --> 00:25:14,930 It's about time, dear. 389 00:25:49,256 --> 00:25:52,342 When he died your father, russell? 390 00:25:53,761 --> 00:25:56,679 Well, that'll be six years in April. 391 00:25:56,680 --> 00:25:58,056 Where is he buried? 392 00:25:58,057 --> 00:25:59,390 My mother cremated him. 393 00:25:59,391 --> 00:26:01,267 Yes, that was the plan 394 00:26:01,268 --> 00:26:03,478 to scatter his ashes at our location in Montauk, 395 00:26:03,479 --> 00:26:06,774 but... i never did. 396 00:26:06,899 --> 00:26:08,358 I don't know why. 397 00:26:08,484 --> 00:26:11,945 So, it sits in a jar on our fireplace 398 00:26:12,071 --> 00:26:15,073 which is a strange habit. 399 00:26:15,074 --> 00:26:17,450 Put the ashes in a jar 400 00:26:17,451 --> 00:26:19,661 above a fireplace full of ashes. 401 00:26:19,787 --> 00:26:22,580 What do you miss the most? 402 00:26:22,581 --> 00:26:24,708 to him? 403 00:26:27,419 --> 00:26:30,838 He called me every Monday and, he was telling me a joke. 404 00:26:30,839 --> 00:26:33,008 Serious? 405 00:26:33,842 --> 00:26:35,259 Do you remember any? 406 00:26:35,260 --> 00:26:36,553 Yes. 407 00:26:36,678 --> 00:26:37,678 Tell me one. 408 00:26:37,679 --> 00:26:39,056 - No, no, no. - Come on. 409 00:26:39,181 --> 00:26:40,473 They... 410 00:26:40,474 --> 00:26:42,141 Yes, my father had a 411 00:26:42,142 --> 00:26:44,143 kind of... perverted sense of humor. 412 00:26:44,144 --> 00:26:47,564 Yeah, well, at this point, it's hard to offend me anymore. 413 00:26:52,069 --> 00:26:53,528 Okay. 414 00:26:53,529 --> 00:26:54,988 Well... 415 00:26:55,906 --> 00:26:57,865 Okay. 416 00:26:57,866 --> 00:27:00,369 So there are four nuns in a van. 417 00:27:00,494 --> 00:27:02,746 And the van falls off a cliff, and they all die. 418 00:27:02,871 --> 00:27:05,039 - Funny. - No, no, no, that's... 419 00:27:05,040 --> 00:27:07,250 I get to the story. These are just the introduction. 420 00:27:07,251 --> 00:27:09,252 - Yes, I understand, yes. - Okay. 421 00:27:09,253 --> 00:27:11,212 So I'm staying at the gates of heaven 422 00:27:11,213 --> 00:27:14,423 and Saint Peter looks at them, and says to the first mother: 423 00:27:14,424 --> 00:27:16,467 "This is your last chance to confess 424 00:27:16,468 --> 00:27:18,803 before entering at the gates of Heaven, 425 00:27:18,804 --> 00:27:21,265 and your conscience must be cleaned before entering." 426 00:27:21,390 --> 00:27:24,351 The first mother thinks and says: 427 00:27:24,476 --> 00:27:26,018 "Well... 428 00:27:26,019 --> 00:27:29,105 i used to wink to Father Riley in the shower." 429 00:27:29,106 --> 00:27:30,399 Saint Peter says: 430 00:27:30,524 --> 00:27:31,904 "Well, you are naughty one, my sister. 431 00:27:31,984 --> 00:27:33,901 Wash your eyes in this basin with holy water 432 00:27:33,902 --> 00:27:35,279 and say five Our Fathers." 433 00:27:35,404 --> 00:27:37,905 Do this. He sends her to Heaven. 434 00:27:37,906 --> 00:27:40,700 So he looks at the second mother, he asks her the same thing. 435 00:27:40,701 --> 00:27:42,952 She says, "Well, every now and then, 436 00:27:42,953 --> 00:27:46,415 I was comforting Father Riley by hand." 437 00:27:46,540 --> 00:27:49,251 Saint Peter nods, 438 00:27:49,376 --> 00:27:51,465 tells him to wash his hand in the basin of holy water, 439 00:27:51,545 --> 00:27:52,962 to say ten Our Fathers. 440 00:27:52,963 --> 00:27:55,631 so do let her enter Heaven. 441 00:27:55,632 --> 00:27:57,301 Now the third mother approaches, 442 00:27:57,426 --> 00:28:00,095 but the fourth grabs it, slams her to the ground 443 00:28:00,220 --> 00:28:01,767 and comes closer by the basin of holy water. 444 00:28:01,847 --> 00:28:04,932 Saint Peter says, "What the hell are you doing, my sister?" 445 00:28:04,933 --> 00:28:07,602 And the mother says: "I'm going to wash myself mouth in this basin 446 00:28:07,603 --> 00:28:10,480 before that bitch stick her ass in it." 447 00:28:14,401 --> 00:28:16,444 You're right, Russell. 448 00:28:16,445 --> 00:28:18,070 I can still be offended. 449 00:28:18,071 --> 00:28:20,073 She was very poorly chosen. 450 00:28:20,199 --> 00:28:22,074 I'm sorry. It was the first that came to my mind. 451 00:28:22,075 --> 00:28:23,952 I'm very sorry. I... 452 00:28:24,077 --> 00:28:27,330 - It's terrible. - The common denominator 453 00:28:27,331 --> 00:28:29,207 for their problem appears to be Father Riley. 454 00:28:29,208 --> 00:28:31,960 Yes, he was pretty much everywhere. 455 00:28:32,085 --> 00:28:34,045 what's in it 456 00:28:34,046 --> 00:28:36,632 Vodka with soda, less soda. 457 00:28:37,466 --> 00:28:38,591 God bless you. 458 00:28:38,592 --> 00:28:40,259 I meet Stefan at the gym 459 00:28:40,260 --> 00:28:42,511 at 9:00, if you're willing. 460 00:28:42,512 --> 00:28:43,930 Yes. 461 00:28:43,931 --> 00:28:46,308 The exercises are just what I need. 462 00:28:49,353 --> 00:28:53,315 I see things did not end well with the cowboy? 463 00:28:54,149 --> 00:28:56,068 It seems like that. 464 00:28:57,653 --> 00:28:59,570 Paige was silent. 465 00:28:59,571 --> 00:29:01,447 i think that this will be the hardest 466 00:29:01,448 --> 00:29:04,493 for her, I'm afraid. 467 00:29:05,285 --> 00:29:07,496 - In what sense? - When you dedicated yourself 468 00:29:07,621 --> 00:29:11,541 whole life to win one person's attention... 469 00:29:13,001 --> 00:29:15,545 ...what is your goal when that person is gone? 470 00:29:16,338 --> 00:29:18,047 The girls are coping well, at least. 471 00:29:18,048 --> 00:29:20,925 Yeah, well, they're too small to know the difference. 472 00:29:20,926 --> 00:29:24,096 Just one less gift for Christmas. 473 00:29:27,766 --> 00:29:31,352 I know a therapist excellent, Stacy. 474 00:29:31,353 --> 00:29:32,896 You are my therapist. 475 00:29:34,022 --> 00:29:36,024 You are my best friend. 476 00:29:36,149 --> 00:29:38,025 I am incapable to be impartial. 477 00:29:38,026 --> 00:29:40,362 To talk to someone who can look at the situation 478 00:29:40,487 --> 00:29:43,739 with clarity and without any opinion... 479 00:29:43,740 --> 00:29:45,241 What I need is opinions. 480 00:29:45,242 --> 00:29:48,036 If I want to know what does the book say about death 481 00:29:48,161 --> 00:29:50,122 I'm buying the damn book. 482 00:31:46,613 --> 00:31:49,490 I ordered a charcuterie board from Eataly. 483 00:31:49,491 --> 00:31:51,409 And Joe's pizza? 484 00:31:51,410 --> 00:31:53,662 Someone is thinking to your cholesterol. 485 00:31:53,787 --> 00:31:55,497 Pizza is for Paul. It's the only thing 486 00:31:55,622 --> 00:31:57,916 that he misses from this city. 487 00:32:00,335 --> 00:32:01,545 Look at you. 488 00:32:02,337 --> 00:32:05,132 - Look at me, what? - Men are children. 489 00:32:05,257 --> 00:32:07,008 Well, this it will be interesting. 490 00:32:07,134 --> 00:32:09,802 you are You have the same look on his face 491 00:32:09,803 --> 00:32:11,429 taking off those ugly boots 492 00:32:11,430 --> 00:32:13,514 like an 11 year old taking off his baseball shoes. 493 00:32:13,515 --> 00:32:16,309 It's the same look that you get when gucci is on sale. 494 00:32:16,435 --> 00:32:19,019 This is different. This is how I save your money. 495 00:32:19,020 --> 00:32:20,354 you know 496 00:32:20,355 --> 00:32:22,023 this is the proof genetic differences 497 00:32:22,149 --> 00:32:24,316 between men and women. 498 00:32:24,317 --> 00:32:26,361 tell me love of my life 499 00:32:26,486 --> 00:32:29,572 all the ways in which when you buy something on sale, 500 00:32:29,573 --> 00:32:31,782 save my money 501 00:32:31,783 --> 00:32:33,368 I'm going to buy the damn thing anyway. 502 00:32:33,493 --> 00:32:36,663 Waiting for discount is how much i love you 503 00:32:38,206 --> 00:32:40,541 - That almost makes sense. - Makes perfect sense 504 00:32:40,542 --> 00:32:43,587 once you accept the inevitability of the acquisition. 505 00:32:46,047 --> 00:32:47,590 Okay. 506 00:32:47,591 --> 00:32:49,592 why are you doing this 507 00:32:49,593 --> 00:32:51,093 What? 508 00:32:51,094 --> 00:32:53,095 It's your little one 509 00:32:53,096 --> 00:32:56,016 mistress of the mountain jealous? 510 00:32:56,892 --> 00:32:58,267 Do you want to know? 511 00:32:58,268 --> 00:33:01,228 I want to know. I really want to know. 512 00:33:01,229 --> 00:33:03,732 Because I lost it once. 513 00:33:03,857 --> 00:33:05,399 It fell into my river. 514 00:33:05,400 --> 00:33:06,735 I spent two days looking for him. 515 00:33:06,860 --> 00:33:08,281 I don't pass anymore through that shit again. 516 00:33:08,361 --> 00:33:10,070 So if I put it right there, 517 00:33:10,071 --> 00:33:12,072 i can't lose him 518 00:33:12,073 --> 00:33:14,409 Were you in a panic? 519 00:33:15,535 --> 00:33:17,495 Terrified. 520 00:33:17,496 --> 00:33:19,205 It's nice to see that I still have this effect. 521 00:33:19,206 --> 00:33:22,292 Alas. If I have, baby. 522 00:34:14,135 --> 00:34:16,846 Madison Ave. 523 00:34:16,972 --> 00:34:19,474 How do you think it got its name? 524 00:34:21,893 --> 00:34:24,353 I always assumed James Madison. 525 00:34:24,354 --> 00:34:25,604 - The president. - Yes. 526 00:34:25,605 --> 00:34:27,314 Of course. It would make sense. 527 00:34:27,315 --> 00:34:28,899 Yes. 528 00:34:30,277 --> 00:34:31,777 I suppose that they named the Madison River 529 00:34:31,778 --> 00:34:33,446 after him, too. 530 00:34:34,239 --> 00:34:35,824 Where is the Madison River? 531 00:34:35,949 --> 00:34:37,784 Montana. 532 00:34:39,452 --> 00:34:41,121 Where did your husband spend time? 533 00:34:45,959 --> 00:34:48,044 Is that where he died? 534 00:34:48,169 --> 00:34:50,005 Not. He died on another river. 535 00:34:50,130 --> 00:34:54,175 actually no he died on a mountain. 536 00:34:55,260 --> 00:34:57,721 No river in the middle. 537 00:35:03,685 --> 00:35:06,354 what do you feel when are you telling me this? 538 00:35:06,479 --> 00:35:08,023 how do you think i feel 539 00:35:08,148 --> 00:35:11,567 I can't afford to know. That's why I asked. 540 00:35:11,568 --> 00:35:14,237 Isn't that your business? 541 00:35:14,362 --> 00:35:16,197 tell me how i feel 542 00:35:17,240 --> 00:35:19,825 My job is to help you to understand what you feel. 543 00:35:19,826 --> 00:35:22,786 Moreover, 544 00:35:22,787 --> 00:35:24,751 my job is to help you to understand behaviors 545 00:35:24,831 --> 00:35:26,875 that those feelings cause. 546 00:35:33,798 --> 00:35:38,053 And how would you describe it? my current behavior? 547 00:35:38,970 --> 00:35:40,387 Hostile. 548 00:35:42,390 --> 00:35:43,724 Hostile? 549 00:35:43,725 --> 00:35:45,226 Incredulous. 550 00:35:46,144 --> 00:35:48,270 Which I understand. 551 00:35:48,271 --> 00:35:50,231 you don't know me 552 00:35:51,441 --> 00:35:54,109 And yet here you are in theory, 553 00:35:54,110 --> 00:35:56,571 willing to expose 554 00:35:56,696 --> 00:35:58,822 the most personal thoughts 555 00:35:58,823 --> 00:36:00,700 and intimate feelings. 556 00:36:01,534 --> 00:36:04,245 Trust my interpretation 557 00:36:04,371 --> 00:36:07,540 of these feelings and behaviors... 558 00:36:09,042 --> 00:36:11,252 ...to guide the taking your decisions in the future. 559 00:36:11,378 --> 00:36:13,213 Making my decisions? What... 560 00:36:13,338 --> 00:36:15,339 what...what decisions do we question? 561 00:36:15,340 --> 00:36:17,257 - I don't doubt anything. - No, you're the one 562 00:36:17,258 --> 00:36:19,260 who said it. My husband died. 563 00:36:19,386 --> 00:36:21,970 love of my life 564 00:36:21,971 --> 00:36:24,306 the father of my children 565 00:36:24,307 --> 00:36:27,727 my center, my soul is gone. 566 00:36:29,104 --> 00:36:31,105 Dacă tu, din întâmplare, ai 567 00:36:31,106 --> 00:36:33,482 dat peste vreo informație 568 00:36:33,483 --> 00:36:36,820 care m-ar putea ajuta să atenuez dorința 569 00:36:36,945 --> 00:36:40,156 de a-mi scoate ochii cu o nenorocită de lingură 570 00:36:40,281 --> 00:36:41,740 ca să scap de durere, 571 00:36:41,741 --> 00:36:45,286 chiar aș aprecia. 572 00:36:46,121 --> 00:36:48,288 But I don't need it look at me 573 00:36:48,289 --> 00:36:50,124 like I'm a bored housewife 574 00:36:50,125 --> 00:36:54,044 who tries to justify his affair with her goddamn tennis coach. 575 00:36:54,045 --> 00:36:56,505 I know those women, enough of them. 576 00:36:56,506 --> 00:36:59,634 I'm not one of them. 577 00:37:01,970 --> 00:37:03,721 it hurts me 578 00:37:03,722 --> 00:37:07,350 And I would like to some help with this. 579 00:37:07,475 --> 00:37:09,185 If you can. 580 00:37:09,310 --> 00:37:11,479 If you can't... 581 00:37:13,148 --> 00:37:14,816 ...then I'll leave early. 582 00:37:15,942 --> 00:37:18,820 And you can keep it the damn rest. 583 00:37:24,826 --> 00:37:26,453 Would you like a drink? 584 00:37:29,289 --> 00:37:31,082 I would love to. 585 00:37:37,714 --> 00:37:39,883 I usually don't do that. 586 00:37:40,675 --> 00:37:42,401 I spend most of my time 587 00:37:42,484 --> 00:37:44,512 persuading my clients not to self-medicate. 588 00:37:46,389 --> 00:37:47,723 You don't mind whiskey? 589 00:37:47,724 --> 00:37:50,769 I don't care what it is. 590 00:38:10,789 --> 00:38:13,040 What you need is this. 591 00:38:13,041 --> 00:38:15,335 A lot of it. 592 00:38:15,460 --> 00:38:16,753 Not this. 593 00:38:16,878 --> 00:38:19,005 A lot of talk. 594 00:38:19,881 --> 00:38:21,423 And screaming and crying. 595 00:38:21,424 --> 00:38:24,385 A lot, and often. 596 00:38:25,220 --> 00:38:26,888 And in time... 597 00:38:28,556 --> 00:38:30,809 ...those memories they will become pleasant again. 598 00:38:31,726 --> 00:38:34,145 It won't hurt to remember them. 599 00:38:35,146 --> 00:38:37,190 And you will... 600 00:38:37,315 --> 00:38:38,775 laughs 601 00:38:40,860 --> 00:38:43,279 will you ever love again 602 00:38:43,404 --> 00:38:45,113 Maybe. 603 00:38:45,114 --> 00:38:47,992 I have no idea if that's something you want. 604 00:38:50,453 --> 00:38:52,038 Will you ever be whole again? 605 00:38:52,163 --> 00:38:55,542 You will feel it like before he dies? 606 00:38:58,586 --> 00:38:59,963 Not. 607 00:39:00,880 --> 00:39:02,549 But you know this. 608 00:39:03,341 --> 00:39:06,886 But you will heal if you let 609 00:39:07,011 --> 00:39:10,098 You will have so much life to live 610 00:39:10,223 --> 00:39:12,475 as much as you can afford. 611 00:39:16,062 --> 00:39:18,273 Or you won't have any at all. 612 00:39:20,358 --> 00:39:21,985 You will have no life. 613 00:39:25,989 --> 00:39:28,241 Does it make sense? 614 00:39:30,368 --> 00:39:31,911 Yes. 615 00:39:32,787 --> 00:39:34,414 Okay. 616 00:39:38,501 --> 00:39:41,044 Why don't you finish the drink and you give it to me? 617 00:39:41,045 --> 00:39:42,629 Serious. 618 00:39:42,630 --> 00:39:44,966 Come on. Give it your best shot. 619 00:39:50,346 --> 00:39:53,307 You are a terrible therapist, do you know this 620 00:39:53,308 --> 00:39:56,185 Yes. With that damn arrogant sweater. 621 00:39:58,146 --> 00:39:59,855 You really like it to say "fuck" right? 622 00:39:59,856 --> 00:40:01,983 i know 623 00:40:02,108 --> 00:40:04,152 It seems quite... 624 00:40:05,695 --> 00:40:07,529 ...liberating, momentarily. 625 00:40:07,530 --> 00:40:09,156 Okay. 626 00:40:09,157 --> 00:40:10,449 Say it again. 627 00:40:10,450 --> 00:40:11,868 Go to hell. 628 00:40:11,993 --> 00:40:15,288 O să facem căderi de încredere data viitoare, nenorocitule de șarlatan? 629 00:40:17,457 --> 00:40:19,291 It's a very good place from the beginning. Come on. 630 00:40:19,292 --> 00:40:21,210 Continue. Come on. 631 00:40:21,336 --> 00:40:22,629 I'm serious. 632 00:40:27,008 --> 00:40:29,177 I'm thinking. 633 00:40:29,302 --> 00:40:31,720 I'm thinking. 634 00:40:31,721 --> 00:40:33,472 I know, I know, I know. 635 00:40:33,473 --> 00:40:34,890 run away 636 00:40:34,891 --> 00:40:36,684 I run away from my problems. 637 00:40:36,809 --> 00:40:38,977 But this problem follow me, so 638 00:40:38,978 --> 00:40:41,522 I'm not running away from anything. 639 00:40:43,399 --> 00:40:45,485 Would I miss my daughters? Well... 640 00:40:45,610 --> 00:40:48,821 Honestly, no... I don't know. 641 00:40:48,947 --> 00:40:51,866 And part of me believes that it would be better for them. 642 00:40:51,991 --> 00:40:53,993 You know, to live their own lives. 643 00:40:54,827 --> 00:40:56,829 Maybe he could move in with you. 644 00:40:56,955 --> 00:40:58,664 I mean, it doesn't seem like it any of them are related 645 00:40:58,665 --> 00:41:01,291 - of the city. - That's what I said too. 646 00:41:01,292 --> 00:41:03,085 My oldest daughter needs it. 647 00:41:05,088 --> 00:41:07,881 ...he even threatened that it will cut it off financially if not. 648 00:41:07,882 --> 00:41:09,759 It's not very nice. 649 00:41:09,884 --> 00:41:13,136 What, sarcasm surrenders 650 00:41:13,137 --> 00:41:15,223 in therapy schools these days? 651 00:41:16,015 --> 00:41:18,642 Well, if through "therapy school" you mean Dartmouth, 652 00:41:18,643 --> 00:41:21,688 then yes that's where they invented it. 653 00:41:26,192 --> 00:41:27,902 Do you think it should? 654 00:41:30,279 --> 00:41:32,865 It's not my job to say, but... 655 00:41:34,617 --> 00:41:37,078 ...I think that you should consider 656 00:41:37,203 --> 00:41:38,705 and i'll tell you why. 657 00:41:38,830 --> 00:41:41,290 Because you are actively weighing your future 658 00:41:41,416 --> 00:41:44,085 and the consequences your choices in that future, 659 00:41:44,210 --> 00:41:45,794 and that's healthy. It's good for your soul. 660 00:41:45,795 --> 00:41:48,880 So whether you do or not it is irrelevant. 661 00:41:48,881 --> 00:41:51,758 But you should seriously consider 662 00:41:51,759 --> 00:41:53,969 You should consider 663 00:41:53,970 --> 00:41:55,638 move to Europe 664 00:41:55,763 --> 00:41:57,140 to spend a year traveling. 665 00:41:57,265 --> 00:41:58,766 You have the financial means, 666 00:41:58,891 --> 00:42:00,976 no responsibility here that hinders you. 667 00:42:00,977 --> 00:42:04,188 You should consider everything. 668 00:42:06,107 --> 00:42:08,316 I wish I had met him. 669 00:42:08,317 --> 00:42:10,318 He must have been an amazing man. 670 00:42:10,319 --> 00:42:11,945 Because you are an amazing woman. 671 00:42:11,946 --> 00:42:14,448 You know who you are and you are not ashamed. 672 00:42:14,449 --> 00:42:17,784 And this... the scream, crying and deep thinking... 673 00:42:17,785 --> 00:42:20,454 that's what you should do. 674 00:42:20,455 --> 00:42:22,289 That is to mourn. 675 00:42:22,290 --> 00:42:25,334 This means to accept a huge loss in your life 676 00:42:25,460 --> 00:42:26,474 and rack your brains 677 00:42:26,554 --> 00:42:28,621 to try to find a way to survive 678 00:42:29,672 --> 00:42:31,299 And you will find it. 679 00:42:34,969 --> 00:42:37,138 Thanks Phil. 680 00:42:37,930 --> 00:42:39,807 That was... 681 00:42:41,267 --> 00:42:43,018 ...pleasantly cathartic. 682 00:42:43,019 --> 00:42:45,020 I took one look at that sweater, 683 00:42:45,021 --> 00:42:48,357 and I had very little faith in you, but you... 684 00:42:48,483 --> 00:42:49,900 you're over it. 685 00:42:49,901 --> 00:42:53,362 It seems you are not so bad at your job. 686 00:42:53,488 --> 00:42:56,823 Well, that's extremely offensive. 687 00:42:56,824 --> 00:42:58,241 Thank you. 688 00:42:58,242 --> 00:43:00,202 Same time tomorrow? 689 00:43:00,203 --> 00:43:02,163 I was thinking about the afternoon. 690 00:43:02,288 --> 00:43:04,540 I have five more clients, and i'm pretty drunk 691 00:43:04,665 --> 00:43:08,335 I think you are a client to deal with end the day, not start one. 692 00:43:08,336 --> 00:43:10,837 Okay. See you at happy hour. 693 00:43:27,688 --> 00:43:29,315 Beyond the northern plains and into 694 00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:32,901 upper midwest, a mass of cold air is installed. 695 00:43:40,827 --> 00:43:42,244 Who is your real estate agent? 696 00:43:42,245 --> 00:43:45,413 Yes. whatever i do i can't stay here 697 00:43:45,414 --> 00:43:48,250 Lili, I can smell it. 698 00:43:48,251 --> 00:43:50,086 Wait, wait. 699 00:43:52,171 --> 00:43:53,548 Is everything okay? 700 00:43:53,673 --> 00:43:56,884 So, Paige is in bed, 701 00:43:57,009 --> 00:43:58,426 and doesn't want to talk, 702 00:43:58,427 --> 00:44:00,804 and can't stop crying, and it's... 703 00:44:00,805 --> 00:44:02,515 Well, hyperventilate, and I feel that 704 00:44:02,640 --> 00:44:04,391 should i call an ambulance but no... 705 00:44:04,392 --> 00:44:06,147 I mean, I feel like that could make it worse. 706 00:44:06,227 --> 00:44:07,769 No, you're right, you're right. It would be. 707 00:44:07,770 --> 00:44:09,187 I'll be there in 15 minutes. 708 00:44:09,188 --> 00:44:12,024 - I'm calling Abby. - Okay, okay. I'm calling her now. 709 00:44:38,926 --> 00:44:40,761 - Is he in the bedroom? - Yes. 710 00:44:44,557 --> 00:44:46,267 Well... 711 00:44:46,392 --> 00:44:47,809 do you have any sweets 712 00:44:47,810 --> 00:44:50,770 - Sweets? - Okay, get some ice cream... 713 00:44:50,771 --> 00:44:53,566 ...chocolate with hazelnuts... and buy some chocolate bars. 714 00:44:53,691 --> 00:44:55,775 Put three shells in a glass of milk, 715 00:44:55,776 --> 00:44:57,156 put the chocolate pieces on top, 716 00:44:57,236 --> 00:44:59,280 and... and then bring it to me with a spoon. 717 00:44:59,405 --> 00:45:01,240 sounds pretty gross, to begin with. 718 00:45:01,365 --> 00:45:03,491 I didn't ask you opinion, Russell. 719 00:45:09,916 --> 00:45:11,333 I took it with chocolate and hazelnuts. 720 00:45:11,334 --> 00:45:13,002 Desperate times call for desperate measures. 721 00:45:13,127 --> 00:45:16,130 - Did you get the chocolate pieces? - The bad ones, how they like them. 722 00:45:16,255 --> 00:45:17,380 Well, it seems that's all we need 723 00:45:17,381 --> 00:45:18,758 here's a glass from you, russell. 724 00:45:18,883 --> 00:45:20,092 Give it to her. 725 00:45:20,218 --> 00:45:22,470 - She knows how to do it. - I understand. Okay. 726 00:45:23,721 --> 00:45:25,847 Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 727 00:45:25,848 --> 00:45:28,183 - Hey, it's okay. It's okay. - I... I'm sorry. 728 00:45:28,184 --> 00:45:31,019 It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Do you know what this is? 729 00:45:31,020 --> 00:45:32,312 What... What? 730 00:45:32,313 --> 00:45:33,981 That's how much you loved him. 731 00:45:34,106 --> 00:45:37,026 And your body doesn't know where to put all that love now 732 00:45:37,151 --> 00:45:38,860 okay? But you don't have to don't put it anywhere. 733 00:45:38,861 --> 00:45:41,196 And you don't have to stop loving someone 734 00:45:41,197 --> 00:45:42,489 when it's gone dear 735 00:45:42,490 --> 00:45:44,491 In fact, you could say 736 00:45:44,492 --> 00:45:46,451 that you should love them more. 737 00:45:46,452 --> 00:45:49,538 And here is a sad truth of life. 738 00:45:51,457 --> 00:45:52,999 You will feel this way again. 739 00:45:53,000 --> 00:45:55,210 - No. - Yes, when I die. 740 00:45:55,211 --> 00:45:57,797 When your husband is going to die and friends 741 00:45:57,922 --> 00:45:59,465 And... and one day, 742 00:45:59,590 --> 00:46:02,343 your children he will feel it for you. 743 00:46:03,094 --> 00:46:05,887 Thank you, mother. I feel much better. 744 00:46:05,888 --> 00:46:07,722 I come with gifts. 745 00:46:07,723 --> 00:46:09,350 I'm not hungry. 746 00:46:09,475 --> 00:46:12,019 It's not food. It's a drug. 747 00:46:12,144 --> 00:46:15,272 It's sugar and chocolate in a mixture 748 00:46:15,273 --> 00:46:16,694 which only your metabolism can process it in some way 749 00:46:16,774 --> 00:46:18,525 which does not reach on your hips. 750 00:46:18,526 --> 00:46:20,486 And I hate you for it. 751 00:46:23,155 --> 00:46:25,366 I used to eat this when I was about five years old. 752 00:46:25,491 --> 00:46:28,035 Well, you're still acting five years old, so... 753 00:46:31,414 --> 00:46:32,793 Go to hell with your evil roots. 754 00:46:32,873 --> 00:46:34,542 He came back. 755 00:46:34,667 --> 00:46:37,044 I don't understand. 756 00:46:37,169 --> 00:46:39,879 It's the cold crisp 757 00:46:39,880 --> 00:46:41,506 and the soft side of the ice cream. 758 00:46:41,507 --> 00:46:42,882 Correct. 759 00:46:42,883 --> 00:46:45,760 The explanation don't make her attractive, Paige. 760 00:46:45,761 --> 00:46:46,762 Well... 761 00:46:46,887 --> 00:46:48,222 Do you take care of her? 762 00:46:49,056 --> 00:46:50,557 I take care but I can't stay overnight. 763 00:46:50,558 --> 00:46:52,058 I can stay the night. 764 00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:05,072 - It's my favorite thing. - I know. 765 00:47:16,625 --> 00:47:18,586 is it good 766 00:47:20,212 --> 00:47:21,881 Yes, it will be. 767 00:47:24,383 --> 00:47:27,261 Is there a decent bar around here? 768 00:47:27,386 --> 00:47:29,263 Well, there is a... 769 00:47:29,388 --> 00:47:32,015 there is a neighborhood bar around the corner 770 00:47:32,016 --> 00:47:35,895 Well, the SoHo version of a neighborhood bar. 771 00:47:50,618 --> 00:47:53,244 What is the name of this place? 772 00:47:53,245 --> 00:47:55,122 I don't know. 773 00:47:55,247 --> 00:47:57,458 No... I'm not sure it has a name. 774 00:48:08,844 --> 00:48:10,637 Hello. 775 00:48:10,638 --> 00:48:12,472 What is the name of this place? 776 00:48:12,473 --> 00:48:15,308 Name? People just call it the bar. 777 00:48:15,309 --> 00:48:17,685 Or the bar down the street. Something like that. 778 00:48:17,686 --> 00:48:20,063 - No name? - Not that I know, no. 779 00:48:20,064 --> 00:48:21,690 What does it say on your pay slip? 780 00:48:21,816 --> 00:48:24,359 Well, XT Enterprises LLC 781 00:48:24,360 --> 00:48:26,194 or something like that. 782 00:48:28,155 --> 00:48:30,115 Okay, so... 783 00:48:30,116 --> 00:48:32,909 The bar just doesn't have a name. 784 00:48:32,910 --> 00:48:34,661 No name. what can i get you 785 00:48:34,662 --> 00:48:36,122 God I'm not... 786 00:48:36,247 --> 00:48:38,666 I'm not able to make no decision. 787 00:48:38,791 --> 00:48:40,667 Martini? 788 00:48:40,668 --> 00:48:42,503 this is a cocktail 789 00:48:42,628 --> 00:48:45,338 and this is the farthest place of a cocktail bar, so... 790 00:48:45,339 --> 00:48:48,425 True. How about an Irish car bomb? 791 00:48:48,426 --> 00:48:50,344 I have no idea what that is. 792 00:48:50,469 --> 00:48:52,303 - Trust me. - Okay. 793 00:48:52,304 --> 00:48:53,514 But for you? 794 00:48:53,639 --> 00:48:54,931 What kind of amber beer do you have? 795 00:48:54,932 --> 00:48:56,517 There will be two Irish car bombs. 796 00:48:56,642 --> 00:48:58,853 Hey, I like your style. Two Irish car bombs. 797 00:48:58,978 --> 00:49:00,274 I have to work tomorrow morning. 798 00:49:00,354 --> 00:49:02,523 It's only one glass, Russell. 799 00:49:07,319 --> 00:49:09,196 I didn't expect that. 800 00:49:09,321 --> 00:49:12,658 - Well... - God. I'm sorry, Russell. 801 00:49:13,492 --> 00:49:16,495 It's gonna hurt. 802 00:49:17,288 --> 00:49:19,205 Well, d... 803 00:49:19,206 --> 00:49:21,542 Great. 804 00:49:21,667 --> 00:49:23,961 - I have to... Yes. - Yes. 805 00:49:31,343 --> 00:49:34,053 It went down the wrong throat. 806 00:49:35,890 --> 00:49:37,892 I have a weak gag reflex. 807 00:49:38,017 --> 00:49:39,309 No, no. No... 808 00:49:39,310 --> 00:49:41,270 I'm not laughing at this. 809 00:49:41,395 --> 00:49:43,938 Then why? 810 00:49:43,939 --> 00:49:46,525 Of life. 811 00:49:47,359 --> 00:49:48,919 And the choices people make. 812 00:49:49,028 --> 00:49:50,571 Don't get me wrong. 813 00:49:50,696 --> 00:49:52,740 She made a good choice with you. 814 00:49:54,950 --> 00:49:56,577 What are your dreams? 815 00:49:58,871 --> 00:50:00,747 - Dreams? - Or... 816 00:50:00,748 --> 00:50:04,626 you know, "aspirations" might be a better word. 817 00:50:04,627 --> 00:50:06,212 For your life. 818 00:50:06,337 --> 00:50:08,088 For my daughter. 819 00:50:08,214 --> 00:50:09,632 I mean, what... You know, 820 00:50:09,757 --> 00:50:11,095 i just bought townhouse so... 821 00:50:11,175 --> 00:50:14,761 Yes, well, this is a purchase, not a dream 822 00:50:14,762 --> 00:50:18,139 You two 823 00:50:18,140 --> 00:50:21,393 - have you talked about starting a family? - Well, 824 00:50:21,519 --> 00:50:22,728 you know paige 825 00:50:22,853 --> 00:50:24,146 It just hit a zero, 826 00:50:24,271 --> 00:50:25,730 and worked hard for that so... 827 00:50:25,731 --> 00:50:27,607 ok russell russell independent thoughts. 828 00:50:27,608 --> 00:50:29,610 do you have any 829 00:50:31,445 --> 00:50:34,113 Yes, I mean, I think that I want... I want to have children. 830 00:50:34,114 --> 00:50:35,908 - Okay. - And I want to raise them, 831 00:50:36,033 --> 00:50:37,409 and i want to... 832 00:50:37,535 --> 00:50:39,119 i want to move out of town 833 00:50:39,245 --> 00:50:41,037 you know where i can had a normal life... 834 00:50:41,038 --> 00:50:42,664 You know, go for it halloween, 835 00:50:42,665 --> 00:50:45,250 and play baseball 836 00:50:45,251 --> 00:50:46,961 and run down the street do you know 837 00:50:47,086 --> 00:50:48,503 No, I don't know. 838 00:50:48,504 --> 00:50:50,631 No, I don't know. I raised them here. 839 00:50:50,756 --> 00:50:52,090 Correct. 840 00:50:52,091 --> 00:50:54,884 Well, that would be my dream. 841 00:50:54,885 --> 00:50:57,137 But when will they grow up? 842 00:50:58,514 --> 00:50:59,931 What is the dream then? 843 00:50:59,932 --> 00:51:01,849 I don't know. I don't know. 844 00:51:01,850 --> 00:51:03,142 I didn't get that far. 845 00:51:03,143 --> 00:51:05,479 yes, well then you need a new dream. 846 00:51:07,898 --> 00:51:11,151 Honestly, I always thought to you and Preston as the dream. 847 00:51:14,905 --> 00:51:16,823 Me too, Russell. 848 00:51:20,536 --> 00:51:22,830 But that dream is over. 849 00:51:23,956 --> 00:51:26,040 Then I believe that we both need a new one. 850 00:51:29,128 --> 00:51:30,796 Yes.