1 00:01:14,709 --> 00:01:18,834 THE GOSPEL ACCORDING TO JUDAS 2 00:03:36,042 --> 00:03:37,918 How long until you die? 3 00:03:41,959 --> 00:03:43,876 They say that before you die, 4 00:03:43,959 --> 00:03:46,292 your whole life passes you by before the eyes. 5 00:03:47,083 --> 00:03:50,751 Abraham was Isaac's father, who conceived Jacob. 6 00:03:50,834 --> 00:03:53,375 Jacob was Joachim's father. 7 00:03:53,459 --> 00:03:56,375 Joachim begat Benjamin. Benjamin begat him... 8 00:03:57,042 --> 00:03:59,375 I never knew who was my father 9 00:03:59,459 --> 00:04:01,209 Benjamin conceived the... 10 00:04:01,709 --> 00:04:03,209 Zara 11 00:04:03,292 --> 00:04:06,292 my mother She was a prostitute. 12 00:04:08,167 --> 00:04:12,584 A fortune teller prophesied to him that she will give birth to a devil. 13 00:04:26,834 --> 00:04:28,751 She remained heavy with who knows who. 14 00:04:33,250 --> 00:04:35,834 They forced her to get rid of the pregnancy. 15 00:04:42,417 --> 00:04:44,459 But they failed. 16 00:04:45,626 --> 00:04:48,792 And she was obliged to work even so. 17 00:05:10,751 --> 00:05:14,042 when i was born i killed my mother 18 00:05:16,042 --> 00:05:17,709 and the brother. 19 00:05:17,918 --> 00:05:21,792 I always hoped the devil from the prophecy he was my twin brother. 20 00:05:21,876 --> 00:05:23,292 Unfortunately, I was. 21 00:05:23,959 --> 00:05:28,292 And today I killed my other brother. 22 00:05:36,375 --> 00:05:38,584 One I thought about that he is God. 23 00:05:39,459 --> 00:05:41,501 One I believed immortal. 24 00:05:48,000 --> 00:05:49,626 But... 25 00:05:56,292 --> 00:05:58,584 this time, I don't leave him alone. 26 00:05:59,584 --> 00:06:01,918 I catch up with him. 27 00:06:03,999 --> 00:06:06,417 How long does it take to die? 28 00:06:16,918 --> 00:06:19,751 After I killed my mother and brother, I killed again. 29 00:06:23,167 --> 00:06:25,667 I was only five years old when I discovered 30 00:06:25,751 --> 00:06:27,876 that the witch who had saved me 31 00:06:27,959 --> 00:06:30,209 she didn't breastfeed me from maternal instinct. 32 00:06:30,292 --> 00:06:33,501 I was for her just another soul to take advantage of. 33 00:06:50,375 --> 00:06:55,083 I hadn't had time to grow up when the owner of the brothel raped me. 34 00:08:08,042 --> 00:08:09,459 When I cut his throat, 35 00:08:09,542 --> 00:08:13,000 he bled more than swine slaughtered by the unclean. 36 00:08:26,876 --> 00:08:29,083 Like her. 37 00:08:47,834 --> 00:08:49,918 We bear the names of our fathers. 38 00:08:49,999 --> 00:08:52,501 I, who had no father, 39 00:08:52,584 --> 00:08:56,834 I was told Judas which means "May the Lord raise you". 40 00:08:56,918 --> 00:08:58,584 Like nobody's child. 41 00:08:58,667 --> 00:09:00,999 That night I became the Iscariot, 42 00:09:01,042 --> 00:09:03,042 for the dagger was called "sica". 43 00:09:03,125 --> 00:09:06,417 Then I became the owner of the brothel. 44 00:09:06,501 --> 00:09:08,542 It was at night where my childhood ended. 45 00:09:08,626 --> 00:09:10,584 If I had something like this... 46 00:09:15,000 --> 00:09:18,959 I have heard of Him three times, before I met Him. 47 00:09:19,000 --> 00:09:21,626 the first time in the streets of Jerusalem, 48 00:09:21,709 --> 00:09:24,999 on a winter night when I was seven years old. 49 00:09:25,501 --> 00:09:28,999 It seems that in Bethlehem a village forgotten by the world, 50 00:09:29,042 --> 00:09:31,584 a star had appeared above a stable. 51 00:09:31,667 --> 00:09:34,167 The shepherds went there, 52 00:09:34,250 --> 00:09:38,375 claiming that the star is a sign that the Messiah had arrived. 53 00:09:38,918 --> 00:09:41,542 They beat the plains that a boy had been born 54 00:09:41,626 --> 00:09:45,000 from a virgin an old carpenter's wife, 55 00:09:45,083 --> 00:09:47,083 who was not the father. 56 00:09:47,167 --> 00:09:51,083 Fairy tales, like those of Jupiter, who fathered children with mortals. 57 00:09:51,167 --> 00:09:54,501 I liked the book and I knew those stories. 58 00:09:59,334 --> 00:10:04,042 At 40 years old, I was not at all satisfied with life. 59 00:10:04,125 --> 00:10:06,667 The only good thing I knew to do it was to read. 60 00:10:06,751 --> 00:10:09,999 I had taught myself Hebrew and Greek. 61 00:10:10,042 --> 00:10:14,417 I understood the Scripture well and I had become rich 62 00:10:14,501 --> 00:10:18,334 things to acquire to be respected in the temple. 63 00:10:18,417 --> 00:10:20,542 Wisdom and money. 64 00:10:20,626 --> 00:10:23,542 But I was not welcome in the temple. 65 00:10:23,626 --> 00:10:26,459 God forbade harlots. 66 00:10:26,999 --> 00:10:29,626 I sold women, I drank too much, 67 00:10:29,709 --> 00:10:34,083 we were playing dice few people had seen my face. 68 00:10:34,167 --> 00:10:37,334 The world said that I live like a fool. 69 00:10:37,417 --> 00:10:41,417 But I always appreciated it villainy. 70 00:10:41,501 --> 00:10:45,083 if you like bread you have to chew it. 71 00:10:45,167 --> 00:10:47,000 If you want a virgin bride, 72 00:10:47,083 --> 00:10:50,501 you have to de-virginize her to enjoy it. 73 00:10:50,584 --> 00:10:53,125 I had all the vices, 74 00:10:53,209 --> 00:10:54,959 less carnal lust. 75 00:10:55,542 --> 00:10:57,709 I had suffered too much because of her. 76 00:10:57,792 --> 00:11:02,375 I had seen too much. I had sold too many. 77 00:11:12,250 --> 00:11:15,542 The new ones, which were offered to me out of respect, 78 00:11:15,626 --> 00:11:20,000 they didn't know I was refusing them because of the misfortunes endured. 79 00:11:20,083 --> 00:11:23,417 I was hiding them as a leper hides his disease. 80 00:11:29,792 --> 00:11:33,292 Most men they come together like animals. 81 00:11:34,167 --> 00:11:38,667 To me, the ones he held the bag they found quality. 82 00:11:47,042 --> 00:11:49,542 Some were looking for the strongest men. 83 00:11:53,375 --> 00:11:55,918 The freshest and more conquering women. 84 00:12:01,918 --> 00:12:06,751 I was looking for the ones that had to become the most perverse. 85 00:12:07,125 --> 00:12:08,667 The most talented. 86 00:12:29,918 --> 00:12:31,375 Susanna, for example. 87 00:12:32,125 --> 00:12:35,918 I don't know if it was better as a comedienne or as a whore. 88 00:12:37,000 --> 00:12:40,292 She was talented at both. 89 00:12:52,918 --> 00:12:58,125 Wealthy customers want the best, and that's what I was offering them. 90 00:13:08,667 --> 00:13:11,876 The second time I heard of Him at a party 91 00:13:11,959 --> 00:13:15,125 where I took Susanna and other girls. 92 00:13:15,209 --> 00:13:19,000 At Herod, a depraved pig who was sleeping with his stepdaughter. 93 00:13:19,083 --> 00:13:20,751 But we don't judge him. 94 00:13:20,834 --> 00:13:22,542 Although I had a thousand faults, 95 00:13:22,626 --> 00:13:25,000 I was always polite with those who paid well. 96 00:14:04,083 --> 00:14:08,501 He had a prophet in the cage, and this one had announced the arrival of the Savior. 97 00:14:08,834 --> 00:14:11,209 He started to scream, looking at me. 98 00:14:14,959 --> 00:14:18,167 People's vanity is absurd. 99 00:14:18,250 --> 00:14:22,250 For a moment, I thought so that it refers to me. 100 00:14:22,334 --> 00:14:25,584 I thought I was the Messiah. 101 00:14:26,501 --> 00:14:30,292 Then he began to beat the plains that the Savior is from Nazareth 102 00:14:30,375 --> 00:14:32,918 and that he had just been baptized. 103 00:14:32,999 --> 00:14:38,709 I said to myself: "Nazaret, what a sewer! A settlement full of mocofans and goats." 104 00:14:38,792 --> 00:14:42,709 And the Savior he was talking about did not save him. 105 00:14:48,959 --> 00:14:51,584 It was a spectacular finish of the party. 106 00:14:53,167 --> 00:14:55,626 The heart of the child I used to be 107 00:14:55,709 --> 00:14:58,999 it was getting blacker with each passing day. 108 00:14:59,042 --> 00:15:02,792 I dreamed of change, but I didn't know what kind of change. 109 00:15:02,876 --> 00:15:05,667 He arrived one morning when I was already drunk. 110 00:15:13,209 --> 00:15:16,751 The mother had given birth to Magdalena a year before me. 111 00:15:16,834 --> 00:15:19,334 She didn't know her father either 112 00:15:19,417 --> 00:15:22,250 and was born in the brothel where he worked. 113 00:15:22,334 --> 00:15:25,792 My own sister He spoke to me about Him the third time. 114 00:15:26,000 --> 00:15:28,584 She had been caught sinning with a Roman 115 00:15:28,667 --> 00:15:30,459 who wanted it only for himself 116 00:15:30,542 --> 00:15:33,334 and who had paid in advance for six months. 117 00:15:33,417 --> 00:15:36,334 The praetorian's wife has arrived on the table from Rome. 118 00:15:36,417 --> 00:15:39,751 Instead of taking on her husband, he wanted Magdalena to be stoned. 119 00:15:39,834 --> 00:15:43,250 My sister told me that He saved her from death, 120 00:15:43,334 --> 00:15:49,709 telling them to throw stones only those without sin. 121 00:15:54,250 --> 00:15:56,542 Then I saw Him. 122 00:18:05,709 --> 00:18:09,792 Magdalena believed that he had come to get a reward 123 00:18:10,125 --> 00:18:11,792 because he had saved her life. 124 00:19:09,584 --> 00:19:14,250 I, Judas Iscariot, born in Jerusalem, 125 00:19:14,709 --> 00:19:16,834 son of an unknown father, 126 00:19:16,918 --> 00:19:19,375 born and raised in a place of sins 127 00:19:19,792 --> 00:19:21,334 I was reborn that day. 128 00:19:22,125 --> 00:19:26,876 That smile was like a trap. He conquered me forever. 129 00:19:31,626 --> 00:19:33,292 I was wondering if Magdalena knew 130 00:19:33,375 --> 00:19:35,876 that I saw her leave at dawn. 131 00:19:41,584 --> 00:19:44,626 She was the only one I allowed to he leaves the brothel without asking permission. 132 00:20:36,250 --> 00:20:40,042 I realized it almost immediately that I will never leave Him. 133 00:20:41,125 --> 00:20:45,876 Because in His sight I saw love for the first time in my life. 134 00:20:58,292 --> 00:21:01,042 "Leave everything and follow me!" 135 00:21:01,501 --> 00:21:02,918 That's what he told me. 136 00:21:03,709 --> 00:21:05,083 Nothing else. 137 00:21:23,375 --> 00:21:26,334 I didn't think I could do something like that. 138 00:21:26,999 --> 00:21:29,459 Nobody knows each other really. 139 00:21:29,876 --> 00:21:32,292 He was said to have performed miracles, 140 00:21:32,375 --> 00:21:33,959 but I didn't think so. 141 00:21:34,000 --> 00:21:37,125 But what happened to me it was truly a miracle. 142 00:21:37,667 --> 00:21:40,209 "Leave everything and follow me!" 143 00:21:40,626 --> 00:21:45,999 With a few words he transformed a parasite in a benefactor. 144 00:22:42,918 --> 00:22:47,626 It was impossible for them to understand that I was bound to obey His call. 145 00:22:53,584 --> 00:22:55,959 But what did Jesus want from me? 146 00:22:56,959 --> 00:22:58,918 What did he want from us? 147 00:23:07,334 --> 00:23:10,125 He was different from charlatans which I saw everywhere. 148 00:23:10,542 --> 00:23:14,999 Not a day went by that he didn't appear some crazy person to support 149 00:23:15,042 --> 00:23:16,876 that he is a prophet or the Messiah. 150 00:23:17,959 --> 00:23:21,292 But He was not talking nonsense, don't stir. 151 00:23:21,375 --> 00:23:24,375 He showed no signs of the end of the world. 152 00:23:24,876 --> 00:23:28,626 He was reading everyone's mind without being arrogant. 153 00:23:28,709 --> 00:23:34,542 First of all, he didn't ask for money, like scammers with false miracles. 154 00:23:35,626 --> 00:23:37,876 Many people can do wonders here. 155 00:23:37,959 --> 00:23:39,459 Anyone can do it. 156 00:23:39,542 --> 00:23:43,167 Charlatans, witches, magicians, they all work wonders. 157 00:23:43,542 --> 00:23:46,000 I wasn't interested in them these miracles. 158 00:23:46,083 --> 00:23:47,584 I didn't believe in them. 159 00:23:47,667 --> 00:23:51,667 But He did unheard of things, with simplicity. 160 00:23:51,751 --> 00:23:53,501 That was the miracle. 161 00:23:53,584 --> 00:23:57,667 I had not seen Him walking on water, turning water into wine, 162 00:23:57,751 --> 00:24:01,542 multiplying the loaves or whatever he was said to have done. 163 00:24:02,125 --> 00:24:04,709 I saw him capable of mercy, 164 00:24:04,792 --> 00:24:09,083 able to find beauty where no one could see her. 165 00:24:12,792 --> 00:24:16,167 You can buy the mob with miracles. 166 00:24:16,250 --> 00:24:19,834 But with compassion you conquer it. 167 00:24:42,417 --> 00:24:45,209 In a few months it became a beloved king. 168 00:24:45,292 --> 00:24:48,542 Revered. Everyone wanted to be close to Him, 169 00:24:48,626 --> 00:24:51,083 to touch Him to be comforted by Him. 170 00:24:51,459 --> 00:24:54,999 One evening he decided to choose 12 men 171 00:24:55,042 --> 00:24:57,334 who will always be by his side. 172 00:25:02,834 --> 00:25:06,334 Fishermen, beggars, thieves, sick, 173 00:25:06,417 --> 00:25:10,709 clients of brothels, which I immediately recognized. 174 00:25:10,792 --> 00:25:13,959 Even these, the last ones. 175 00:25:14,000 --> 00:25:17,000 This motley group of young and old, 176 00:25:17,083 --> 00:25:21,334 of healthy and sick, these outcasts and drains 177 00:25:21,417 --> 00:25:24,709 they breathed a wonderful air of freedom. 178 00:25:30,417 --> 00:25:33,125 It was a turning point. 179 00:25:33,209 --> 00:25:36,876 Until then, religion had been only in the hands of a few. 180 00:25:36,959 --> 00:25:41,999 I had thought that only the rich or those strong were pleasing to the Lord. 181 00:25:42,250 --> 00:25:47,667 He gave us the impression that the gates The heavens are open to all. 182 00:25:59,042 --> 00:26:00,709 Even sinners. 183 00:26:30,334 --> 00:26:35,167 I was the last one chosen. 184 00:26:51,834 --> 00:26:53,709 They were right to doubt me. 185 00:26:53,792 --> 00:26:56,042 I was a criminal body dealer, 186 00:26:56,125 --> 00:27:00,042 a man full of vices, a liar, a gambler, a drunkard. 187 00:27:00,334 --> 00:27:02,250 The world knew who I was. 188 00:27:02,334 --> 00:27:06,999 Some of them had been clients of the brothel. why me 189 00:27:10,918 --> 00:27:13,834 It was the beginning of a long period lived together. 190 00:27:13,918 --> 00:27:17,083 For three years we walked together, day and night. 191 00:27:17,167 --> 00:27:20,250 Through the cold, in the sun, often without food, 192 00:27:20,334 --> 00:27:21,876 always without a roof. 193 00:27:24,667 --> 00:27:29,250 None of us knew what he was going to do or will say the next day. 194 00:27:29,334 --> 00:27:31,584 Not even over an hour. 195 00:27:32,083 --> 00:27:35,584 I didn't know what we were going to eat, where will we sleep 196 00:27:37,125 --> 00:27:39,709 We learned to lift and pitch tents, 197 00:27:39,792 --> 00:27:42,792 with the haste with which a ladybug opens or closes its wings. 198 00:27:46,459 --> 00:27:49,292 Certain evenings around the fire, 199 00:27:49,375 --> 00:27:51,959 with comrades hungry and cold, 200 00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:54,459 they were worth more than all vain religion 201 00:27:54,542 --> 00:27:56,584 recited by the priests in the temples. 202 00:28:24,042 --> 00:28:28,626 For the first time in my life, I felt like I had a family. 203 00:28:30,250 --> 00:28:34,250 I had 11 siblings, each different from the others, 204 00:28:34,334 --> 00:28:35,667 but one thing unites us. 205 00:28:35,959 --> 00:28:40,709 Like Jesus, we were all Jews, we were all circumcised. 206 00:28:40,792 --> 00:28:44,667 Me, Him and the others we were all of one blood. 207 00:28:44,751 --> 00:28:47,375 How beautiful my brothers are! 208 00:28:47,459 --> 00:28:49,459 Peter made us feel protect 209 00:28:49,542 --> 00:28:51,250 He was the only one armed. 210 00:28:51,334 --> 00:28:54,751 Before Jesus took Him with Him, he had been a fisherman. 211 00:28:54,834 --> 00:28:56,542 He didn't know how to write or to read 212 00:28:56,626 --> 00:28:59,751 but he said that the teacher he had called him His right hand. 213 00:28:59,834 --> 00:29:03,334 Although he swells into feathers, he was a good man. 214 00:29:03,834 --> 00:29:07,459 Ioan is young and handsome, the girls sip it from their eyes. 215 00:29:07,542 --> 00:29:11,042 He knows little about life, but he thinks he understands them all. 216 00:29:11,125 --> 00:29:14,209 The fact that Jesus is always by his side it doesn't help him mature. 217 00:29:14,292 --> 00:29:16,042 Maybe he thinks he's the favorite 218 00:29:16,125 --> 00:29:19,959 and loses sight what the teacher preaches to us 219 00:29:20,000 --> 00:29:22,083 that the most important thing is to be humble. 220 00:29:22,167 --> 00:29:24,042 I envy him with all my heart. 221 00:29:24,125 --> 00:29:27,542 Other men's beauty it always made me angry. 222 00:29:27,626 --> 00:29:30,999 Matthew has papyri on which he always writes something. 223 00:29:31,042 --> 00:29:35,501 Always ask about words which Jesus uses. 224 00:29:35,584 --> 00:29:37,918 He makes notes and the smallest things. 225 00:29:37,999 --> 00:29:42,626 Always analyzing everything, like the moneylenders he worked for. 226 00:29:42,709 --> 00:29:45,709 If I had to say who is my favorite brother 227 00:29:45,792 --> 00:29:48,042 I would say that Bartholomew, because he doesn't talk much. 228 00:29:48,125 --> 00:29:51,626 I've never heard it saying something mean. 229 00:29:51,918 --> 00:29:55,959 He never criticized others, he didn't complain about anything. 230 00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:58,292 Absolutely never. He has no grievances. 231 00:29:58,375 --> 00:30:01,626 Not even if we sleep in the rain or on an empty stomach. 232 00:30:01,709 --> 00:30:04,292 Jacob is my good friend. 233 00:30:04,375 --> 00:30:08,417 He doesn't see, but he listens carefully, and that's what matters 234 00:30:08,918 --> 00:30:10,792 in the relationship with Jesus. 235 00:30:11,250 --> 00:30:13,042 To listen to Him. 236 00:30:13,250 --> 00:30:17,751 Andrei doesn't seem to understand anything, as if he were with us by chance, 237 00:30:17,834 --> 00:30:19,542 he is always melancholic. 238 00:30:19,626 --> 00:30:23,292 I think it's crushed by the arrogance of his brother Peter. 239 00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:27,459 I don't know much about the others, but i care about them. 240 00:30:27,542 --> 00:30:30,209 You can't help but love Toma. 241 00:30:30,292 --> 00:30:34,375 He is crippled, I don't know if from birth or if he had an accident. 242 00:30:34,459 --> 00:30:35,918 Sometimes he can't cope. 243 00:30:37,209 --> 00:30:40,417 With the talkative Filip I don't stay long. 244 00:30:40,501 --> 00:30:42,584 I never liked it to sit for discussions. 245 00:30:43,959 --> 00:30:46,417 Simion is always optimistic. 246 00:30:46,501 --> 00:30:49,626 Maybe because he's not whole in the head. 247 00:30:49,709 --> 00:30:53,501 Yeah, it's weird. But who isn't? 248 00:30:54,334 --> 00:30:58,501 The last ones, Tadeu and Matia, the artists. 249 00:30:58,584 --> 00:31:01,334 Matia is always singing or whistling. 250 00:31:01,417 --> 00:31:04,042 I don't remember to have ever heard him speak. 251 00:31:04,125 --> 00:31:07,626 But I would recognize his music from far away. 252 00:31:08,125 --> 00:31:12,250 Tadeu, on the other hand, he draws whenever he can. 253 00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:19,459 And there are the devoted women. 254 00:31:19,542 --> 00:31:22,167 All dropouts who follow us as much as they can 255 00:31:22,250 --> 00:31:27,876 and which sometimes leave us to return to another place. 256 00:31:28,459 --> 00:31:30,167 A people marching, 257 00:31:30,250 --> 00:31:34,834 which lives on the few donations of those who listen to the teacher. 258 00:31:34,918 --> 00:31:40,000 Hungry, but convinced that we can change the world. 259 00:31:41,209 --> 00:31:44,834 We all believed that this boy was the son of God, 260 00:31:45,542 --> 00:31:48,792 The savior of the world, the Messiah. 261 00:31:52,751 --> 00:31:57,375 It made me think just the difference between His words 262 00:31:57,459 --> 00:32:00,042 and what they understood those who listened to Him. 263 00:32:00,125 --> 00:32:04,334 It was not easy for the illiterate to understand His subtleties. 264 00:32:08,334 --> 00:32:11,083 That's why I considered myself the best, 265 00:32:11,167 --> 00:32:14,667 victim of foolish arrogance who never leaves us. 266 00:32:14,751 --> 00:32:18,083 I was delighted that I was the only one who had studied. 267 00:32:19,626 --> 00:32:22,459 Matei had also studied, but arithmetic. 268 00:32:22,542 --> 00:32:25,834 He was good at calculations, but the scriptures were unknown to him. 269 00:32:26,334 --> 00:32:29,501 But of all 270 00:32:30,125 --> 00:32:33,167 He chose me to hold the money. 271 00:32:34,584 --> 00:32:36,459 why me 272 00:32:37,000 --> 00:32:39,417 Matei was made for such a thing. 273 00:32:45,417 --> 00:32:48,626 In His speeches showed that he despised money. 274 00:32:48,709 --> 00:32:53,083 He said that money is the main thing obstacle on the way to Heaven. 275 00:32:53,167 --> 00:32:56,834 I had given up my fortune that I may sin no more. 276 00:32:57,999 --> 00:33:00,626 I knew I was not righteous. 277 00:33:00,709 --> 00:33:03,542 I had left behind a huge fortune. 278 00:33:03,626 --> 00:33:07,125 And now I wore rags, I was eating moldy bread 279 00:33:07,209 --> 00:33:11,459 and I walk almost barefoot, but I was afraid to keep fourpence. 280 00:33:12,709 --> 00:33:14,334 I was afraid of myself. 281 00:33:32,999 --> 00:33:35,792 I was surprised by the sound of your own laughter. 282 00:33:35,876 --> 00:33:39,334 Only then did I realize that I had never laughed before. 283 00:33:53,417 --> 00:33:55,709 An aristocrat he had invited us to dinner. 284 00:33:55,792 --> 00:33:57,959 But I was in a sorry state 285 00:33:58,000 --> 00:34:02,334 and we were ashamed to enter half naked in his house. 286 00:34:02,417 --> 00:34:04,959 And his servants had a guard better looking than us. 287 00:34:06,167 --> 00:34:08,999 I understood why had he given me the bag 288 00:34:09,042 --> 00:34:11,000 He didn't want us to feel bad. 289 00:34:31,584 --> 00:34:33,417 I started to deal with them. 290 00:34:33,501 --> 00:34:36,292 If they needed anything, it was my job to get them. 291 00:35:23,417 --> 00:35:26,626 The rich man was surprised that I ate so little. 292 00:35:43,709 --> 00:35:45,709 The family was not formed only from us 293 00:35:46,542 --> 00:35:48,334 it was much bigger. 294 00:35:57,626 --> 00:35:59,000 After the money was entrusted to me, 295 00:35:59,083 --> 00:36:02,292 that dinner made me feel closest to Him, 296 00:36:02,667 --> 00:36:03,918 His partner. 297 00:36:03,999 --> 00:36:06,459 It was as if I were the father and mother of the family, 298 00:36:07,209 --> 00:36:09,417 I had children to feed and take care of. 299 00:36:26,876 --> 00:36:30,250 From that moment, our relationship became a mute dialogue, 300 00:36:30,334 --> 00:36:31,959 but full of doubt. 301 00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:34,417 Unfortunately, I was not getting the confirmation 302 00:36:34,501 --> 00:36:36,918 the way we interpret His will. 303 00:36:37,375 --> 00:36:40,542 Everything he said besides the direct meaning, 304 00:36:40,626 --> 00:36:45,792 he also had a secret one, which I thought was meant only for me. 305 00:36:46,417 --> 00:36:50,209 I was used to looking for him and in the simplest sentences. 306 00:37:16,834 --> 00:37:20,792 There were days when I went from dawn to dusk without stopping, 307 00:37:21,167 --> 00:37:24,876 but when we were camping we were a happy community, 308 00:37:24,959 --> 00:37:26,999 free and wonderful. 309 00:38:07,709 --> 00:38:12,542 We shared everything and there was no room for envy between us. 310 00:38:18,417 --> 00:38:20,125 Chickpeas cooked in garlic 311 00:38:20,209 --> 00:38:23,167 and the bodies that smelled after the day's effort. 312 00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:27,042 It was not the ideal example heralds of the new world. 313 00:38:28,584 --> 00:38:31,083 Preach a scandalous thing, 314 00:38:31,167 --> 00:38:34,292 for women to be on an equal footing with men. 315 00:38:41,999 --> 00:38:45,459 tired, dirty, hungry, thirsty. 316 00:38:45,918 --> 00:38:49,042 But we often danced happily in the evening. 317 00:38:49,125 --> 00:38:51,834 It may sound strange, but we were happy. 318 00:39:00,542 --> 00:39:04,626 Let's see Him carefree it filled us with joy. 319 00:39:04,709 --> 00:39:07,959 He was a natural leader, but without imposing his supremacy. 320 00:39:08,000 --> 00:39:10,125 There were no hierarchies between us, 321 00:39:10,209 --> 00:39:12,834 especially between men and women. 322 00:39:19,667 --> 00:39:22,209 And precisely the aversion those with prejudices 323 00:39:22,292 --> 00:39:25,876 against this equality brought us our first enemies. 324 00:39:26,667 --> 00:39:29,459 Not just temple leaders they hated us 325 00:39:29,542 --> 00:39:31,959 but the Romans had also started to fear us. 326 00:39:32,000 --> 00:39:36,250 Lack of an authority, which did not mean chaos, but on the contrary, 327 00:39:36,334 --> 00:39:39,709 it made us a group full of joy, but also organized. 328 00:39:39,792 --> 00:39:41,334 I despised power, 329 00:39:41,417 --> 00:39:44,626 but I wasn't destroying it by violent means. 330 00:39:44,709 --> 00:39:47,292 We were not slaves to the rules of the world. 331 00:39:47,375 --> 00:39:49,999 We wanted to eliminate the injustices of the world, 332 00:39:50,042 --> 00:39:53,501 but our speeches they were upset about equality. 333 00:39:58,292 --> 00:40:00,751 Jesus did not mind the opposite sex. 334 00:40:00,834 --> 00:40:05,417 Now, past withered prostitutes or fisherman's widows, 335 00:40:05,501 --> 00:40:08,542 there were also women among us as beautiful as Magdalena. 336 00:40:09,375 --> 00:40:12,999 All served Him, ready to satisfy His every desire, 337 00:40:13,042 --> 00:40:16,417 but He gently persuaded them to be upset. 338 00:40:16,501 --> 00:40:20,209 He judged them the same the most obnoxious old woman 339 00:40:20,292 --> 00:40:22,417 and the most beautiful girl. 340 00:40:24,918 --> 00:40:28,042 Nobody but the two of us 341 00:40:28,125 --> 00:40:30,792 he had not given up carnal pleasures. 342 00:40:31,834 --> 00:40:36,000 In those moments I felt His brother more than the others. 343 00:40:36,125 --> 00:40:39,083 we were almost twins the only pure ones. 344 00:40:40,083 --> 00:40:46,042 When he retired to pray, I felt cursed again. 345 00:40:46,125 --> 00:40:49,292 He was telling us that no one is without sin. 346 00:40:49,375 --> 00:40:53,167 I had mine too, I drank myself to death. 347 00:40:54,876 --> 00:40:57,375 I am paid with the hunger of others, 348 00:40:57,459 --> 00:41:00,918 with money from my brothers. 349 00:41:01,292 --> 00:41:07,709 Flats bought in secret, with the money from the common treasury. 350 00:41:20,584 --> 00:41:24,542 That day he was not in His waters, something had happened. 351 00:41:30,459 --> 00:41:33,999 He said that if we believe that we can fool Him, we are mistaken. 352 00:41:34,334 --> 00:41:39,042 That he knew everything about us. He asked us who we thought he was. 353 00:41:40,375 --> 00:41:42,042 Who did he think he was? 354 00:41:46,000 --> 00:41:48,918 There is an answer, but no one said a word. 355 00:41:51,834 --> 00:41:55,918 Peter had the courage to say what we were all thinking. 356 00:41:55,999 --> 00:41:58,417 For us he was the Messiah, 357 00:41:59,000 --> 00:42:03,375 son of god in fact, it was God himself. 358 00:42:05,584 --> 00:42:11,292 He named him His successor, because he was going to die soon. 359 00:42:13,999 --> 00:42:18,501 How to die? It couldn't be done. He wasn't supposed to die! 360 00:42:18,584 --> 00:42:23,125 He responded to our protests as I have never seen Him before. 361 00:42:23,209 --> 00:42:25,375 It happened to us let's leave him alone 362 00:42:25,459 --> 00:42:28,626 that we were fools, demons. 363 00:42:28,709 --> 00:42:30,125 Demons! 364 00:42:30,209 --> 00:42:32,834 That's what he told Peter and to the others. 365 00:42:32,918 --> 00:42:35,417 He made us demons! 366 00:42:36,417 --> 00:42:42,542 Obviously, this saddened us all, but it filled me with joy. 367 00:42:42,626 --> 00:42:45,250 Demons! Peter and the others. 368 00:42:45,334 --> 00:42:47,999 They were demons too, not just me. 369 00:42:57,083 --> 00:42:59,250 Then I got bad news. 370 00:42:59,334 --> 00:43:01,209 His father was very sick 371 00:43:01,292 --> 00:43:03,584 and wanted to visit him and introduce us. 372 00:43:03,667 --> 00:43:08,876 In His village they laughed when He said that he is the son of old Joseph. 373 00:43:08,959 --> 00:43:13,334 The rumors said that the old man had not touched Maria 374 00:43:13,417 --> 00:43:15,083 and that he was not the father. 375 00:43:15,209 --> 00:43:18,501 It was also said that His mother had not told the truth. 376 00:43:18,584 --> 00:43:21,250 He hadn't even mentioned it to us. 377 00:43:21,334 --> 00:43:23,792 I admit that it always made me think 378 00:43:23,876 --> 00:43:26,918 the idea that he had emigrated to preach. 379 00:43:26,999 --> 00:43:32,000 A man who leaves his parents seems strange 380 00:43:34,918 --> 00:43:39,042 Joseph was over 100 years old and he couldn't walk for months. 381 00:43:42,459 --> 00:43:43,751 But... 382 00:44:00,999 --> 00:44:05,167 Poor, quiet, discreet people. 383 00:44:10,709 --> 00:44:15,959 Mother seemed to know the mysteries which he could not reveal. 384 00:44:29,792 --> 00:44:32,292 I don't know how I got up the courage to ask her 385 00:44:32,918 --> 00:44:35,250 if Jesus is really the Messiah. 386 00:44:35,792 --> 00:44:39,417 He told me she didn't ask Him never. 387 00:44:40,083 --> 00:44:44,626 I insisted he had only been with her for 30 years. 388 00:44:45,709 --> 00:44:49,709 He told me that during this time he had only been her son. 389 00:45:23,250 --> 00:45:26,542 Joseph died that night. 390 00:45:30,209 --> 00:45:32,334 He had waited for him to die. 391 00:46:45,209 --> 00:46:48,876 Of all the prayers which he had spoken over the years, 392 00:46:49,501 --> 00:46:52,250 the one for His father she was the most beautiful. 393 00:46:53,667 --> 00:46:56,125 He told us that his father had been a modest man 394 00:46:56,209 --> 00:46:59,959 a craftsman with courage to defy gossip. 395 00:47:00,000 --> 00:47:03,250 To face the opinion of the people, to take His mother into the house, 396 00:47:03,334 --> 00:47:05,999 a child in her turn, but already pregnant. 397 00:47:06,042 --> 00:47:09,375 He told us that His father and mother had been exiled, 398 00:47:09,459 --> 00:47:13,209 that they experienced the torment of not being welcome to a foreign land, 399 00:47:13,626 --> 00:47:16,542 not knowing what he will eat when they arrived 400 00:47:16,626 --> 00:47:19,125 where will he live how will he earn his living. 401 00:47:19,209 --> 00:47:21,792 He told us that Joseph rarely spoke, 402 00:47:21,876 --> 00:47:24,834 because he considered hands more important than mouth. 403 00:47:24,918 --> 00:47:27,751 He told us that Joseph had to become eternal 404 00:47:27,834 --> 00:47:32,417 the symbol of people traversing the world without leaving a trace. 405 00:47:32,501 --> 00:47:37,042 The example of those who work discreet and modest. 406 00:47:37,125 --> 00:47:40,751 He told us that Joseph had been a great teacher of life, 407 00:47:40,834 --> 00:47:44,459 a life lived sacrificing himself every day. 408 00:47:44,542 --> 00:47:47,667 He told us that the words of the Lord they are not of God, 409 00:47:47,751 --> 00:47:49,125 because they are words. 410 00:47:49,209 --> 00:47:51,167 Only silence belongs to God. 411 00:47:51,250 --> 00:47:54,501 And Joseph was the symbol that silence. 412 00:47:54,584 --> 00:47:57,417 He said that Joseph, although he didn't speak often, 413 00:47:57,501 --> 00:47:59,209 He had taught him everything. 414 00:47:59,334 --> 00:48:02,999 His father had accepted a plane above him 415 00:48:03,042 --> 00:48:04,751 and whom he did not know in its entirety. 416 00:48:04,834 --> 00:48:06,209 He concluded with the words… 417 00:48:14,584 --> 00:48:17,501 "Goodbye, Joseph, the gracious one!" 418 00:48:17,584 --> 00:48:20,959 "The Lord is with you, blessed are you among men." 419 00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:24,250 "Pray for me until the hour death, which is near." 420 00:48:27,042 --> 00:48:34,417 I, who had not had never father, I cried. 421 00:48:35,083 --> 00:48:38,042 I cried like I never did before. 422 00:48:55,542 --> 00:48:59,375 In a few hours he had spoken of death twice. 423 00:49:00,000 --> 00:49:03,584 From then on he would do it more and more often. 424 00:49:20,876 --> 00:49:23,292 He taught us that people must be found 425 00:49:23,375 --> 00:49:27,417 in the innocence of children, to learn from their innocence. 426 00:49:27,959 --> 00:49:29,709 But what innocence? 427 00:49:29,792 --> 00:49:34,709 They had also set fire to a spider to have fun. 428 00:49:38,375 --> 00:49:41,459 The evil force is alive. 429 00:49:44,167 --> 00:49:46,709 The evil force is within us. 430 00:50:01,292 --> 00:50:03,459 The teacher could have to warn me 431 00:50:03,542 --> 00:50:06,083 I believed in Him, but sometimes I hate Him. 432 00:50:06,167 --> 00:50:09,292 You can believe in a man and hate him at the same time? 433 00:50:09,459 --> 00:50:11,167 The evil force. 434 00:50:11,250 --> 00:50:13,292 What sensitive animals we are! 435 00:50:13,375 --> 00:50:16,542 He ended up laughing at me, to hate them all. 436 00:50:16,626 --> 00:50:18,125 Even Jesus. 437 00:50:18,209 --> 00:50:21,459 How was it possible to please Him the company of those damned? 438 00:50:21,542 --> 00:50:24,334 He spoke in parables that were difficult understandable for me too 439 00:50:24,417 --> 00:50:25,417 who had a book 440 00:50:25,501 --> 00:50:28,999 The others listened to Him ecstatically, pretending to understand. 441 00:50:29,042 --> 00:50:33,125 I could see how they looked at Him, not knowing what he was listening to. 442 00:50:33,209 --> 00:50:36,459 "Why don't you speak clearly?" I wanted to scream that. 443 00:50:36,542 --> 00:50:38,918 What does "I'm at the gate of the sheep" mean? 444 00:50:38,999 --> 00:50:42,125 What does "if you don't eat" mean from the flesh of the Son of Man," 445 00:50:42,209 --> 00:50:43,584 "you won't have a life"? 446 00:50:43,667 --> 00:50:45,959 I didn't understand what can I say about those beggars! 447 00:50:46,000 --> 00:50:49,834 The evil force was filling me of a nauseating pride. 448 00:50:49,918 --> 00:50:51,459 I felt superior. 449 00:50:51,542 --> 00:50:53,959 The evil force was making me to doubt Him 450 00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:55,918 who believed in universal love, 451 00:50:55,999 --> 00:50:59,501 in the love of all creatures for other creatures. 452 00:50:59,584 --> 00:51:02,959 No, you can love two or three people, maybe even ten. 453 00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:06,083 But if someone tells me that he loves all Jerusalem, 454 00:51:06,167 --> 00:51:10,375 all the kingdom of Israel or everyone, that's not love. 455 00:51:10,459 --> 00:51:12,125 They are just empty words. 456 00:51:12,209 --> 00:51:15,083 We are born to love only a few people. 457 00:51:15,167 --> 00:51:16,999 We hate the others. 458 00:51:17,626 --> 00:51:21,125 The evil force set the world in motion. 459 00:51:26,792 --> 00:51:31,709 They have always been in Palestine preachers of various kinds. 460 00:51:31,792 --> 00:51:34,292 After three years of floundering, 461 00:51:34,375 --> 00:51:36,876 I met some in the middle of the wilderness. 462 00:51:36,959 --> 00:51:42,542 They looked like us, but what did they have clean and fragrant things. 463 00:51:45,042 --> 00:51:49,751 Susanna's gaze was the mirror my decline. 464 00:51:50,709 --> 00:51:54,000 Everything exists in the world because of its opposite. 465 00:51:54,083 --> 00:51:55,667 darkness and light, 466 00:51:55,918 --> 00:51:58,209 my dead twin brother and me alive 467 00:51:58,292 --> 00:51:59,999 the rich and us, the poor. 468 00:52:03,000 --> 00:52:05,209 I was afraid I was a demon. 469 00:52:05,792 --> 00:52:08,083 I hoped Jesus was God. 470 00:52:11,542 --> 00:52:13,459 We were ashamed of Him. 471 00:52:32,918 --> 00:52:36,959 His wife accused him that he had left her with the children. 472 00:52:37,250 --> 00:52:40,334 Filip was trying to explain to him what we do 473 00:52:40,417 --> 00:52:45,375 Don't help him that among us they were bare-headed and naked women. 474 00:52:45,459 --> 00:52:48,083 Women you could see what they had done 475 00:52:52,459 --> 00:52:54,959 Jesus convinced Philip to go home. 476 00:52:55,000 --> 00:52:58,167 He said he would be gone for a while anyway. 477 00:53:01,083 --> 00:53:03,751 It was the last time when he smiled. 478 00:53:11,918 --> 00:53:15,083 He isolated himself, without food and water. 479 00:53:16,000 --> 00:53:19,000 I could not approach Him, for whatever reason. 480 00:53:19,083 --> 00:53:23,375 We were afraid he would die, that he will kill himself. 481 00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:26,000 I watched him in turn, 482 00:53:26,083 --> 00:53:29,542 ready to intervene if there was anything wrong with him. 483 00:53:47,334 --> 00:53:49,876 He returned after 40 days. 484 00:53:51,375 --> 00:53:55,417 Death was on his face. Death. 485 00:53:56,501 --> 00:53:59,501 The one he was talking about more and more often. 486 00:54:00,125 --> 00:54:03,751 He told us it was imminent and that we must prepare. 487 00:54:04,501 --> 00:54:05,959 Death. 488 00:54:06,000 --> 00:54:10,876 In His eyes, who looked at me again after a long time, 489 00:54:10,959 --> 00:54:13,876 I read a silent plea. 490 00:54:14,250 --> 00:54:15,501 Death. 491 00:54:15,584 --> 00:54:19,083 Maybe he wanted to to help him commit suicide. 492 00:54:19,167 --> 00:54:23,876 It was my destiny to offer Him weapon or poison. 493 00:54:24,834 --> 00:54:27,501 He took what he called "final decision", 494 00:54:27,584 --> 00:54:31,167 preaching in the city of the Lord, in the center of the world. 495 00:54:31,667 --> 00:54:33,042 What sadness! 496 00:54:33,542 --> 00:54:35,626 The Easter holiday was approaching 497 00:54:35,709 --> 00:54:38,459 when he entered in Jerusalem riding on a donkey. 498 00:54:39,292 --> 00:54:42,501 But they were not there only the peasants of Galilee. 499 00:54:42,584 --> 00:54:44,501 There was also a lot of hatred there. 500 00:54:44,584 --> 00:54:49,209 How is it possible that the Son of God to be such an unprepared man? 501 00:54:49,292 --> 00:54:51,459 After three years of sacrifices, 502 00:54:51,542 --> 00:54:55,542 we couldn't offer him than a masquerade. 503 00:54:55,626 --> 00:54:58,667 I was afraid. What was he going to do? 504 00:54:58,792 --> 00:55:03,292 I felt the resentment of the priests who looked at us greedily. 505 00:55:05,209 --> 00:55:06,501 He had changed. 506 00:55:06,584 --> 00:55:09,834 Stop preaching softly and had become aggressive. 507 00:55:09,918 --> 00:55:12,083 It was as if he wanted to defy the danger. 508 00:55:13,334 --> 00:55:15,250 He had declared war. 509 00:55:17,584 --> 00:55:19,709 He used to say let's turn the other cheek as well. 510 00:55:19,792 --> 00:55:23,792 But now he was violent. What contradictions! 511 00:55:23,876 --> 00:55:29,375 He did not want to see His Father's house becoming a den of thieves. 512 00:55:30,999 --> 00:55:33,292 The number of enemies has increased. 513 00:55:33,375 --> 00:55:35,751 He turned from a prophet under threat. 514 00:55:48,792 --> 00:55:54,375 Hate against Him and us has grown immensely. 515 00:55:55,334 --> 00:55:56,876 Hatred. 516 00:55:58,584 --> 00:56:01,125 The dream of freedom has dissipated. 517 00:56:01,209 --> 00:56:04,250 We were accused of inciting riots. 518 00:56:04,334 --> 00:56:08,876 We were forced to hide, changing the place of the sermon daily. 519 00:56:08,959 --> 00:56:12,167 We only moved at dawn. We didn't know very clearly where we were going. 520 00:56:13,292 --> 00:56:15,042 Everything happened quickly. 521 00:56:15,167 --> 00:56:18,792 We were lovers, and after a few weeks we were hunted. 522 00:56:28,751 --> 00:56:33,125 The priest promised me that I will be received in the temple. 523 00:56:34,250 --> 00:56:36,042 They would forgive my past, 524 00:56:36,125 --> 00:56:39,959 if I told them which of us was Jesus. 525 00:56:40,000 --> 00:56:43,000 in the dark we all looked the same to him. 526 00:56:43,083 --> 00:56:44,626 I told him it was me. 527 00:57:20,501 --> 00:57:24,209 There is no turning back, even though I was suffering. 528 00:57:24,292 --> 00:57:25,918 I was going faster and faster. 529 00:57:40,042 --> 00:57:43,667 My leg hurt badly, I wanted to bandage him. 530 00:57:44,667 --> 00:57:46,751 Precious pomade! 531 00:57:47,751 --> 00:57:49,125 It was a gift from a perfumer. 532 00:57:49,209 --> 00:57:51,751 No one agreed with this waste. 533 00:57:51,834 --> 00:57:53,959 I was expecting like Magdalena to be more affectionate with me. 534 00:57:54,000 --> 00:57:56,250 I was extremely disappointed. 535 00:57:56,334 --> 00:57:58,417 And him, what hypocrisy... 536 00:57:58,501 --> 00:58:00,292 Preach to give everything to the poor, 537 00:58:00,375 --> 00:58:03,999 then wasted perfume of 25 silver dinars. 538 00:58:04,042 --> 00:58:06,167 It was a year's payment for a worker. 539 00:58:06,250 --> 00:58:09,542 Special myrrh, from India. 540 00:58:09,626 --> 00:58:13,876 I could smell him among them richer clients of the brothel. 541 00:58:13,959 --> 00:58:16,792 There was also the smell of incense from the synagogue. 542 00:58:16,876 --> 00:58:21,709 The smell was impossible to ignore and their figures. 543 00:58:21,792 --> 00:58:24,542 She was drunk of devotion to Him, 544 00:58:24,626 --> 00:58:26,876 who had no wife. 545 00:58:26,959 --> 00:58:31,042 Now he was one step closer. 546 00:58:31,125 --> 00:58:35,584 The evil force within me turned their love into jealousy. 547 00:58:37,542 --> 00:58:41,626 The wound hurt me, but my sister didn't care about me 548 00:58:41,709 --> 00:58:43,250 but of Him... 549 00:58:46,375 --> 00:58:50,375 He had planned from the very beginning give me the money 550 00:58:50,459 --> 00:58:53,417 although I didn't know how to interpret it. 551 00:58:53,501 --> 00:58:56,000 I felt the approach of money 552 00:58:56,083 --> 00:59:00,918 it would bring me bad thoughts in mind and I will yield. 553 00:59:10,042 --> 00:59:14,999 At dice, if you don't bet much, you only earn a pittance. 554 00:59:15,042 --> 00:59:16,959 I was sorry and I wanted to earn a lot. 555 00:59:17,000 --> 00:59:19,501 I wanted to recover the riches of the brothel 556 00:59:19,584 --> 00:59:22,083 which I had foolishly wasted. 557 00:59:24,042 --> 00:59:26,876 I wanted to come back to my life before 558 00:59:26,959 --> 00:59:30,083 my real life so I played all the money. 559 00:59:30,667 --> 00:59:32,834 Even when I didn't have any more what a stake 560 00:59:35,999 --> 00:59:40,250 I lost everything. I borrowed a lot of money. 561 00:59:44,209 --> 00:59:48,751 It is possible that a man which is really known 562 00:59:48,834 --> 00:59:51,042 to be respected? 563 00:59:51,709 --> 00:59:53,209 I hated myself. 564 00:59:53,584 --> 00:59:56,000 I wanted to disappear. 565 01:00:19,292 --> 01:00:22,292 After I don't even know how long spent raving, 566 01:00:22,375 --> 01:00:24,375 they came looking for me 567 01:00:24,459 --> 01:00:28,417 Jacob told me that, in my absence, 568 01:00:28,501 --> 01:00:31,125 Jesus brought him back to life on a certain Lazarus. 569 01:00:31,209 --> 01:00:32,709 I can't believe it! 570 01:00:32,792 --> 01:00:37,834 It's easy to say he's risen when that would have happened anyway. 571 01:00:37,918 --> 01:00:41,250 A resurrected one is, in fact, a man who did not die for good. 572 01:00:41,334 --> 01:00:44,209 I had seen the healing of the ologists. 573 01:00:44,292 --> 01:00:48,709 The whole thing was that they did it the courage to throw away his crutches. 574 01:00:48,792 --> 01:00:50,999 Jacob, the blind man. 575 01:00:51,792 --> 01:00:55,876 What kind of credible witness was he? 576 01:00:55,959 --> 01:01:00,792 Why didn't Jesus heal him? The teacher had sent him. 577 01:01:00,876 --> 01:01:04,334 He wanted us to celebrate Easter together. 578 01:01:04,417 --> 01:01:09,999 One last dinner together after which he was sure to die. 579 01:01:10,209 --> 01:01:11,292 That's what He said. 580 01:01:28,042 --> 01:01:30,375 Gaming debts must be paid. 581 01:01:52,667 --> 01:01:56,792 I could not enter the temple when I was rich and well dressed. 582 01:01:57,501 --> 01:02:00,542 Fate made me enter when i was poor 583 01:02:19,083 --> 01:02:21,209 The high priest wasted no time. 584 01:02:21,292 --> 01:02:24,584 Jesus was dangerous it had to be stopped. 585 01:02:32,292 --> 01:02:35,501 Caiaphas promised that they would not harm him. 586 01:02:35,584 --> 01:02:40,125 They wanted to catch Him unbeknownst to His disciples. 587 01:02:40,209 --> 01:02:42,501 I had to tell him where they could find Him. 588 01:02:44,250 --> 01:02:48,292 He added: "What you have to do, do it quickly!" 589 01:02:51,834 --> 01:02:55,292 I wasn't just going to escape of debts, 590 01:02:55,375 --> 01:02:57,709 but I was going to receive and gold in abundance. 591 01:03:14,999 --> 01:03:18,792 He yelled at me that if I don't pay my debts, 592 01:03:18,876 --> 01:03:20,292 I risk my life. 593 01:03:34,125 --> 01:03:37,501 What a miserable party! It was only my fault. 594 01:03:38,501 --> 01:03:43,292 He should have eaten but I starved them. 595 01:03:46,375 --> 01:03:49,292 We had changed a lot in these years. 596 01:03:49,375 --> 01:03:51,876 We were very old. 597 01:03:52,417 --> 01:03:55,959 He wanted to wash our feet. Why? 598 01:03:58,584 --> 01:04:00,959 As always, I was last. 599 01:04:01,000 --> 01:04:05,626 When he got to me, the water was already miserable. 600 01:04:05,792 --> 01:04:09,709 And I was miserable, like water. 601 01:04:11,209 --> 01:04:16,083 No one understood Jesus. Especially that night. 602 01:04:17,167 --> 01:04:18,999 Why does he wash our feet? 603 01:04:21,959 --> 01:04:24,626 "There are tears of joy," he said. 604 01:04:24,709 --> 01:04:28,083 How to be happy someone crying desperately? 605 01:04:28,167 --> 01:04:29,999 I felt guilty. 606 01:04:30,042 --> 01:04:33,584 It was as if he was crying because of me. 607 01:04:35,751 --> 01:04:38,626 We shared a piece of bread and a little wine. 608 01:04:39,292 --> 01:04:41,167 He gave a funeral speech, 609 01:04:41,250 --> 01:04:43,834 told us what to do in his memory. 610 01:04:43,918 --> 01:04:46,667 His words were full of pain. 611 01:04:48,834 --> 01:04:53,751 After three years, he spoke to me again. 612 01:04:53,834 --> 01:04:57,959 He told me to go to take the 30 gold coins. 613 01:04:58,000 --> 01:05:02,209 Which 30 coins? Did he know I had lost at the games? 614 01:05:02,292 --> 01:05:04,667 He knew I was risking my life with the debt? 615 01:05:04,751 --> 01:05:07,501 Did he think I could get them back? I didn't understand. 616 01:05:07,584 --> 01:05:11,709 But whatever he needed, I felt I had to do it. 617 01:05:11,792 --> 01:05:14,792 The others were not to be trusted. 618 01:05:14,876 --> 01:05:16,209 He added... 619 01:05:22,000 --> 01:05:25,000 "What you have to do, do it quickly!" 620 01:05:25,584 --> 01:05:27,167 The words of Caiaphas. 621 01:05:28,083 --> 01:05:30,999 I had no more doubts, I had to act. 622 01:05:31,042 --> 01:05:33,542 And I had understood. He wanted to protect me. 623 01:05:33,626 --> 01:05:35,834 I was going to get out of debt. 624 01:05:35,918 --> 01:05:38,709 He wanted to be caught before it's too late. 625 01:05:38,792 --> 01:05:40,751 Before he was killed. 626 01:05:40,834 --> 01:05:43,459 Sure, it's better in the dungeon than dead 627 01:05:43,542 --> 01:05:45,501 The task I received scared me. 628 01:05:45,584 --> 01:05:47,959 But my chest swelled with glory. 629 01:05:48,000 --> 01:05:51,667 I would have betrayed him like Adam He betrayed the Lord of Heaven. 630 01:05:51,751 --> 01:05:54,876 Or Cain, when he killed his brother. 631 01:05:55,375 --> 01:05:57,584 I was wracked with deep guilt. 632 01:05:57,667 --> 01:05:59,125 But we were making history. 633 01:06:20,709 --> 01:06:22,209 30. 634 01:06:22,751 --> 01:06:25,876 I wasn't willing to believe the incredible. 635 01:06:25,959 --> 01:06:27,334 Maybe it was a coincidence 636 01:06:27,417 --> 01:06:31,459 but I was convinced again that he is God. 637 01:06:34,709 --> 01:06:38,250 A few years of wandering don't change a life of greed. 638 01:06:38,334 --> 01:06:41,626 I experienced great pleasure to be rich again. 639 01:06:43,250 --> 01:06:44,792 I led them to Him. 640 01:06:44,876 --> 01:06:48,876 I asked them not to harm Him after capturing Him. 641 01:06:57,751 --> 01:07:01,042 I didn't expect there to be so many. 642 01:07:01,125 --> 01:07:03,042 All these soldiers for one man! 643 01:07:03,125 --> 01:07:08,375 If it wasn't His will to be captured, but my obsession? 644 01:07:08,459 --> 01:07:11,167 I was just His creature. 645 01:07:11,250 --> 01:07:13,083 A character from His work, 646 01:07:13,167 --> 01:07:15,959 a puppet with the help of which He was reaching his goal. 647 01:07:16,000 --> 01:07:18,501 whatever it was. 648 01:07:18,584 --> 01:07:20,584 I felt like I was sinking in hell. 649 01:07:20,667 --> 01:07:23,751 i loved him but I had to be His enemy. 650 01:07:23,834 --> 01:07:26,125 I didn't understand the game in which he had put me. 651 01:07:26,209 --> 01:07:27,584 But I was going to play it. 652 01:08:08,918 --> 01:08:11,584 I wanted to tell Him that I love Him. 653 01:08:32,626 --> 01:08:35,709 He called me "friend". Thousand. 654 01:08:36,584 --> 01:08:39,918 He hadn't called anyone "friend". 655 01:08:39,999 --> 01:08:41,834 To me, to Judas! 656 01:08:41,918 --> 01:08:44,334 Because of which he had been caught. 657 01:08:45,959 --> 01:08:48,292 First you scream, then fear. 658 01:08:48,375 --> 01:08:50,626 First they fell asleep, then they denied Him. 659 01:08:50,709 --> 01:08:54,459 I, the only one who had left Him, 660 01:08:54,542 --> 01:08:57,209 I had been condemned by Him to denounce Him. 661 01:08:57,751 --> 01:09:00,375 I had done what he asked me, 662 01:09:00,459 --> 01:09:03,000 but this situation tormented me terribly. 663 01:09:03,083 --> 01:09:06,918 What should I do now? I didn't know. 664 01:09:07,375 --> 01:09:09,167 I followed him. 665 01:09:14,083 --> 01:09:17,209 They asked him if he believes himself to be the Son of God. 666 01:09:17,292 --> 01:09:19,209 Not only did he answer, 667 01:09:19,292 --> 01:09:22,459 but he also said that he is God i am alone 668 01:09:28,959 --> 01:09:30,999 They had enough. 669 01:09:31,209 --> 01:09:34,209 Nor that there was blasphemy bigger. 670 01:09:34,292 --> 01:09:38,876 There was more heaven in the sand of His sandals than in the whole temple. 671 01:09:38,959 --> 01:09:42,626 There was more justice in His words about equality 672 01:09:42,709 --> 01:09:46,459 than in the rituals of the faithful who followed their rules, 673 01:09:46,542 --> 01:09:49,167 but they did not know compassion for the neighbor. 674 01:09:54,999 --> 01:09:59,000 For such blasphemies, he was sentenced to death. 675 01:09:59,083 --> 01:10:02,250 But certain decisions were taken by the Roman governor. 676 01:10:02,334 --> 01:10:03,999 They were taking Him there. 677 01:10:05,959 --> 01:10:08,250 Peter denied that he would have been his friend. 678 01:10:08,334 --> 01:10:13,250 He swore on the law, on his soul, on his blood 679 01:10:13,334 --> 01:10:15,709 even on the blood of his children. 680 01:10:15,792 --> 01:10:18,918 He said he never saw Him on Jesus. 681 01:10:28,626 --> 01:10:33,209 If I had learned a dram of compassion in the three years with Jesus, 682 01:10:33,292 --> 01:10:35,542 I would have felt sorry for Peter. 683 01:10:36,334 --> 01:10:39,209 But his suffering made me happy. 684 01:11:08,250 --> 01:11:11,542 That was not the deal. I didn't want the money anymore. 685 01:11:52,125 --> 01:11:55,292 The powerful never have clean hands, 686 01:11:55,834 --> 01:11:57,626 despite this pretence. 687 01:12:14,918 --> 01:12:20,459 Jesus taught us that every creature can be viewed from two perspectives, 688 01:12:20,834 --> 01:12:22,542 one being the good one. 689 01:12:23,584 --> 01:12:26,459 But in the flesh who whipped him mercilessly, 690 01:12:26,542 --> 01:12:29,125 I didn't see anything good. 691 01:12:32,709 --> 01:12:36,375 If he could speak, would have told me 692 01:12:36,459 --> 01:12:41,542 like that cruel and hideous beast had a place in the Kingdom of Heaven. 693 01:12:44,959 --> 01:12:50,209 They decided to crucify Him, the punishment of thieves and criminals. 694 01:12:50,292 --> 01:12:53,250 They cried that a king like Him deserves a crown 695 01:13:04,542 --> 01:13:07,501 I went to the hiding place, looking for help. 696 01:13:08,042 --> 01:13:13,042 "What shall we do?", they answered. What do you mean? 697 01:13:13,125 --> 01:13:15,667 if you love don't ask what to do. 698 01:13:15,751 --> 01:13:17,999 You dive head first, act cry 699 01:13:18,042 --> 01:13:21,167 bite, strangle, break the enemy's bones. 700 01:13:21,250 --> 01:13:23,000 That's what you do if you really love. 701 01:13:23,083 --> 01:13:26,459 If your son drowns, don't ask: 702 01:13:26,542 --> 01:13:30,792 "Forgive me, my son is drowning, what should i do?" 703 01:13:30,876 --> 01:13:35,000 If your son drowns, jump in the water and do your best 704 01:13:35,083 --> 01:13:36,792 even if you drown with it. 705 01:13:37,626 --> 01:13:42,584 They had sworn to follow Him everywhere, even to die for Him. 706 01:13:42,667 --> 01:13:44,626 But I was the traitor in their eyes. 707 01:13:44,709 --> 01:13:47,042 I had given Him on the hands of the soldiers. 708 01:13:47,125 --> 01:13:50,626 I didn't deserve to be there among them 709 01:13:50,709 --> 01:13:52,542 I should have been stoned to death. 710 01:13:56,417 --> 01:14:00,417 I had to save Him myself the teacher. 711 01:14:56,626 --> 01:15:01,292 He wrote: "I will never die." Just four words. 712 01:15:01,792 --> 01:15:06,792 Like the ones he told me first time: "I will never die." 713 01:15:07,751 --> 01:15:09,709 I was the chosen one. 714 01:15:09,792 --> 01:15:12,042 He was only talking to me. 715 01:15:12,125 --> 01:15:15,417 He had only revealed it to me His great mysteries. 716 01:16:19,375 --> 01:16:21,999 He wasn't complaining. 717 01:16:25,250 --> 01:16:30,584 The pain of the other two convicts delighted the curious. 718 01:16:31,042 --> 01:16:33,626 That was what they had come for. 719 01:16:44,709 --> 01:16:46,918 He wrote to me that he will never die. 720 01:16:47,000 --> 01:16:51,584 But what was he planning? Why don't save yourself now, don't suffer anymore? 721 01:16:52,209 --> 01:16:53,918 When did the miracle begin? 722 01:16:59,667 --> 01:17:02,042 They bet who would die first. 723 01:17:26,667 --> 01:17:29,584 Only Jesus lives. 724 01:17:30,959 --> 01:17:34,292 Why don't you answer them? to those who ask Him laughing: 725 01:17:34,375 --> 01:17:35,999 "Where is God now?" 726 01:17:36,042 --> 01:17:37,918 What channels! 727 01:17:38,876 --> 01:17:42,792 Like me. That's what I wonder too. 728 01:17:45,459 --> 01:17:48,334 Jesus, you're going to do a miracle, aren't you? 729 01:17:48,417 --> 01:17:53,250 Get down from there unharmed, and Jerusalem will fall at your feet. 730 01:17:53,334 --> 01:17:56,250 Get rid of nails and come down from the cross! 731 01:17:56,334 --> 01:17:58,459 Come on down! 732 01:17:58,542 --> 01:18:01,292 It's getting late, people are leaving! 733 01:18:01,375 --> 01:18:05,501 Hurry up! Everyone must to see that death does not touch You. 734 01:18:06,000 --> 01:18:08,876 Or you do it when they expect it less? 735 01:18:08,959 --> 01:18:11,042 I trust you. 736 01:18:42,000 --> 01:18:43,501 Which God? 737 01:18:46,209 --> 01:18:47,918 He was a simple man. 738 01:18:49,542 --> 01:18:51,375 And I had killed Him. 739 01:19:37,042 --> 01:19:40,834 I had always done what he asked me to do and I was ready to do it again. 740 01:19:41,959 --> 01:19:45,000 But he could no longer command me, he was dead 741 01:19:45,626 --> 01:19:47,626 I wanted to die with Him. 742 01:19:48,125 --> 01:19:50,584 He was on the cross because of me. 743 01:19:50,667 --> 01:19:52,834 I had betrayed Him. 744 01:19:53,584 --> 01:19:55,709 I had driven the nails. 745 01:19:55,792 --> 01:19:59,334 I had believed in Him more than He had thought. 746 01:19:59,417 --> 01:20:02,250 If I were still alive I would be damned forever. 747 01:20:02,834 --> 01:20:05,083 But I don't want to live cursed. 748 01:20:07,584 --> 01:20:10,000 I killed you, teacher. 749 01:20:10,083 --> 01:20:14,999 Will you forgive me? Or do you have to ask for my forgiveness? 750 01:20:16,083 --> 01:20:20,417 Yes, you ask me for forgiveness because you betrayed me 751 01:20:20,501 --> 01:20:23,417 You made me believe you weren't going to die. 752 01:20:23,501 --> 01:20:26,167 That you are God. You are the traitor. 753 01:20:36,542 --> 01:20:38,626 How long until you die? 754 01:20:40,209 --> 01:20:43,417 It will be like, just like my twin brother 755 01:20:43,501 --> 01:20:45,417 i was never born 756 01:20:45,501 --> 01:20:49,792 on the brink of death I saw my whole life again. 757 01:20:49,876 --> 01:20:51,792 Even childhood. 758 01:20:52,209 --> 01:20:53,459 Criminal. 759 01:20:53,542 --> 01:20:56,209 Bloodthirsty, thief, liar. 760 01:20:56,292 --> 01:20:59,417 The prophecy heard by the mother it was true. 761 01:20:59,501 --> 01:21:03,709 The devil can take any form. It took my form. 762 01:21:04,375 --> 01:21:07,209 I lived by selling women. 763 01:21:07,292 --> 01:21:10,876 I die selling a man. 764 01:21:11,542 --> 01:21:14,999 Of the 12, I am the only one who dies with Him. 765 01:21:15,042 --> 01:21:19,375 They made me a traitor but I am the one betrayed. 766 01:21:19,834 --> 01:21:21,709 why did you betray me 767 01:21:21,792 --> 01:21:24,918 Why did you write to me? that you will never die? 768 01:21:24,999 --> 01:21:29,209 You were a fool. And us I thought you were the Son of God. 769 01:21:29,292 --> 01:21:31,918 Even God himself. 770 01:21:33,751 --> 01:21:39,918 You had to save the world but you didn't save yourself either. 771 01:21:39,999 --> 01:21:44,834 You were just a charlatan, like many before You. 772 01:21:45,542 --> 01:21:49,834 Like them, when you die, don't count anymore 773 01:21:51,542 --> 01:21:56,375 In a few weeks, no one will remember us. 774 01:21:56,459 --> 01:21:59,459 I die alone, like a faithless dog. 775 01:21:59,542 --> 01:22:04,542 And you die alone like the false prophet you are. 776 01:22:05,000 --> 01:22:08,542 All that nonsense about defeating death, 777 01:22:08,626 --> 01:22:11,834 about the establishment the religion of love. 778 01:22:11,918 --> 01:22:16,083 it's all over everything died with You. 779 01:22:17,083 --> 01:22:22,876 Like Judas Iscariot, you will be forgotten immediately. 780 01:22:22,959 --> 01:22:28,167 Jesus of Nazareth, you will not be remembered. 781 01:22:28,709 --> 01:22:32,083 Your name will no longer be mentioned. 782 01:22:32,167 --> 01:22:38,918 It will be as if you would never have existed. 783 01:22:56,375 --> 01:23:00,459 You watched the feature film THE GOSPEL ACCORDING TO JUDAS 784 01:23:28,375 --> 01:23:30,667 Editor ROBERT CIUBOTARU