1 00:00:58,559 --> 00:01:00,519 When I was young, 2 00:01:00,603 --> 00:01:03,814 I met this beautiful girl by a lake. 3 00:01:05,483 --> 00:01:07,401 Ow! Hey! Whoa! 4 00:01:09,487 --> 00:01:11,822 Scusi! Scusi! 5 00:01:14,367 --> 00:01:17,203 Dov'è la Svizzera? 6 00:01:18,079 --> 00:01:19,413 No capisce. 7 00:01:19,497 --> 00:01:22,833 No capisce? Où est la Suisse? 8 00:01:22,917 --> 00:01:24,335 Switzerland? 9 00:01:24,794 --> 00:01:26,379 Oh, Suisse. Yeah. 10 00:01:26,462 --> 00:01:29,423 Yeah, Switzerland. Hi. 11 00:01:29,507 --> 00:01:31,259 Oh, you're American? 12 00:01:32,093 --> 00:01:34,011 - So are you? - Yeah. 13 00:01:36,514 --> 00:01:40,226 Keep going till you smell money or step in chocolate. 14 00:01:41,852 --> 00:01:44,272 Okay. Thank you. 15 00:01:49,193 --> 00:01:51,654 Watch your head. You okay? 16 00:01:51,737 --> 00:01:53,030 I'm fine. 17 00:02:16,887 --> 00:02:18,431 Can I sit here? 18 00:02:21,934 --> 00:02:23,394 Actually, no. 19 00:02:24,061 --> 00:02:27,440 Two years ago, I reserved this specific area. 20 00:02:28,149 --> 00:02:29,817 What if I say please? 21 00:02:30,651 --> 00:02:32,653 That's the one exception. 22 00:02:48,669 --> 00:02:49,712 Oh. 23 00:02:49,795 --> 00:02:51,297 Careful there. 24 00:03:00,598 --> 00:03:02,475 You find Switzerland? 25 00:03:02,892 --> 00:03:05,019 Um... I did. 26 00:03:06,520 --> 00:03:08,230 I claimed it for Missouri. 27 00:03:08,314 --> 00:03:12,068 Planted my flag and sold beads to the natives. 28 00:03:13,944 --> 00:03:15,988 They had sandwiches there. 29 00:03:16,989 --> 00:03:18,741 I brought you some. 30 00:03:25,998 --> 00:03:27,249 I'm Ann. 31 00:03:29,460 --> 00:03:30,711 Collins. 32 00:03:30,795 --> 00:03:33,047 The lady who discovered Switzerland. 33 00:03:33,130 --> 00:03:35,132 Read it all in the papers. 34 00:03:35,966 --> 00:03:37,635 I'm Chris Nielsen. 35 00:03:40,471 --> 00:03:42,765 How did you know I'd be here? 36 00:03:42,973 --> 00:03:45,184 Um... I didn't. 37 00:04:55,504 --> 00:04:56,964 Let's make out. 38 00:05:07,892 --> 00:05:08,976 You've got to eat something. 39 00:05:09,059 --> 00:05:11,187 No, I don't. I can get something at school. 40 00:05:11,270 --> 00:05:12,688 I know what! 41 00:05:12,938 --> 00:05:15,149 Well, Mom, I gotta carb up, I got a game. 42 00:05:15,232 --> 00:05:16,859 And a math test. 43 00:05:17,401 --> 00:05:19,028 Yeah, I'm ready. 44 00:05:19,236 --> 00:05:20,488 I'm cool. 45 00:05:22,406 --> 00:05:24,033 Mom, if you get me, 46 00:05:24,116 --> 00:05:27,495 I won't have to wait at his incredibly boring game. 47 00:05:27,578 --> 00:05:29,788 Sorry, Marie, I have a meeting. 48 00:05:30,247 --> 00:05:32,374 Angie's gonna pick you up 49 00:05:32,583 --> 00:05:34,793 before she gets your brother. 50 00:05:35,252 --> 00:05:37,296 I'll let her take the van. 51 00:05:38,756 --> 00:05:40,799 I'll see your chorus thing tomorrow. 52 00:05:40,883 --> 00:05:41,926 I thought you couldn't. 53 00:05:42,009 --> 00:05:43,886 I don't wanna miss it. 54 00:05:44,386 --> 00:05:45,888 We're late, guys! 55 00:05:45,971 --> 00:05:47,848 I'll pull out the van. 56 00:05:49,934 --> 00:05:52,019 - Hey, ace it, okay? - Yeah. 57 00:05:53,812 --> 00:05:55,105 Love you. 58 00:06:01,487 --> 00:06:02,780 Do you... 59 00:06:04,448 --> 00:06:06,534 Do you want his breakfast? 60 00:06:10,996 --> 00:06:12,581 You mother puts healthy stuff in. 61 00:06:12,623 --> 00:06:15,668 - Don't trade it... - For chips and cookies. I know. 62 00:06:42,945 --> 00:06:46,407 It was the last time Annie and I saw them alive. 63 00:07:02,339 --> 00:07:05,676 When death claims the life of our children, 64 00:07:07,803 --> 00:07:11,390 we are left with too many questions. 65 00:07:14,268 --> 00:07:17,855 How do we make sense of the feelings we're left with? 66 00:07:20,941 --> 00:07:23,152 The Gospel according to Luke, 67 00:07:23,485 --> 00:07:24,945 even the First Corinthians, 68 00:07:25,029 --> 00:07:29,575 tell us of the extraordinary paradise that awaits us. 69 00:08:08,656 --> 00:08:11,200 Okay. The lucky winner is 70 00:08:12,034 --> 00:08:13,243 Jacobs. 71 00:08:13,327 --> 00:08:14,787 Stacy Jacobs. 72 00:08:21,752 --> 00:08:24,630 Hello, Stacy, I'm Dr. Nielsen. 73 00:08:25,714 --> 00:08:26,757 Hi. 74 00:08:27,466 --> 00:08:29,051 Ah, too late. 75 00:08:30,844 --> 00:08:32,971 Oh! Nice stream. 76 00:08:33,055 --> 00:08:35,766 He's feeling better. He waited 10 years. 77 00:08:36,475 --> 00:08:38,602 Stacy Jacobs! 78 00:08:40,312 --> 00:08:42,231 What were you thinking? 79 00:08:42,856 --> 00:08:44,358 It's all right. 80 00:08:44,441 --> 00:08:46,819 My kid used to say, "What's the difference? 81 00:08:46,902 --> 00:08:49,113 "You weren't looking anyway." 82 00:08:50,114 --> 00:08:51,782 You like rabbits? 83 00:08:52,574 --> 00:08:54,451 Yes? Then go like this. 84 00:08:56,745 --> 00:08:57,830 Good. 85 00:08:58,789 --> 00:08:59,998 Ready? 86 00:09:05,796 --> 00:09:07,840 We've given her MRIs and... Whoa! 87 00:09:07,923 --> 00:09:09,800 Wild rabbit. Watch out. 88 00:09:11,677 --> 00:09:13,929 And also a CAT scan, I believe. 89 00:09:15,472 --> 00:09:19,268 Look at that. Stacy, you have more pictures than a supermodel. 90 00:09:20,144 --> 00:09:21,603 Do you ever wear glasses? 91 00:09:21,687 --> 00:09:23,897 No, she doesn't need glasses. 92 00:09:24,231 --> 00:09:25,566 Does your head hurt a lot? 93 00:09:25,649 --> 00:09:26,900 All the time. 94 00:09:26,984 --> 00:09:29,027 I want you to do something for me. 95 00:09:29,111 --> 00:09:32,406 Cup your hand, cover your nose and mouth like this. 96 00:09:32,489 --> 00:09:33,609 And just breathe in and out. 97 00:09:33,657 --> 00:09:35,051 Mrs. Nielsen on four. 98 00:09:35,075 --> 00:09:36,618 That's my wife. 99 00:09:36,827 --> 00:09:39,621 If you can do it longer than she can talk, 100 00:09:40,164 --> 00:09:41,290 that's an achievement. 101 00:09:42,875 --> 00:09:45,127 Christy, I've got a meltdown. 102 00:09:45,210 --> 00:09:46,879 Okay, take a breath. 103 00:09:46,962 --> 00:09:49,673 Eight pieces from Germany never arrived. 104 00:09:50,758 --> 00:09:53,177 I've gotta choose replacements the night before the opening, 105 00:09:53,260 --> 00:09:56,597 get them down here and re-hang them, re-light them and I... 106 00:09:57,806 --> 00:09:59,183 Okay, focus. 107 00:10:00,851 --> 00:10:03,729 It's our Double D-anniversary. I'm ruining it. 108 00:10:03,812 --> 00:10:05,355 Double D, yeah. 109 00:10:05,439 --> 00:10:08,150 I'm sorry, Christy, I can't leave here. 110 00:10:09,109 --> 00:10:10,444 I'm sorry. 111 00:10:14,907 --> 00:10:18,368 Tell you what, how about this. 112 00:10:19,119 --> 00:10:21,246 How about the Hudson Rivers? 113 00:10:22,706 --> 00:10:24,249 That gives us three. 114 00:10:24,333 --> 00:10:27,002 And the Hollenbeck, 115 00:10:27,711 --> 00:10:33,217 and the, uh, Hennik 16, 19 and 23, 116 00:10:33,550 --> 00:10:34,885 and the bridge. 117 00:10:34,968 --> 00:10:36,386 But they're in Fairfield. 118 00:10:36,470 --> 00:10:38,680 I don't have anybody to send. 119 00:10:38,972 --> 00:10:40,182 I'll drop by after work. 120 00:10:40,265 --> 00:10:43,352 I'll get them and take 'em to the gallery, huh? 121 00:10:44,770 --> 00:10:46,104 You'd do that for me? 122 00:10:46,188 --> 00:10:47,773 Only if you're incredibly grateful. 123 00:10:48,732 --> 00:10:51,902 Hey, that's a chance to show yours. 124 00:10:52,569 --> 00:10:54,071 It's very sexy. 125 00:11:00,661 --> 00:11:02,162 Okay, weirdo. 126 00:11:03,288 --> 00:11:05,791 I'll be home late, but I'll be home. 127 00:11:09,962 --> 00:11:11,630 I love you, Bella. 128 00:11:12,256 --> 00:11:13,841 I love you, too. 129 00:11:15,634 --> 00:11:16,718 Bye. 130 00:11:20,430 --> 00:11:22,224 Stacy, do you like art? 131 00:11:22,307 --> 00:11:25,227 My wife fixes paintings and also makes some. 132 00:11:25,769 --> 00:11:30,274 To me, paintings are the most important interesting thing in the world 133 00:11:30,607 --> 00:11:32,359 next to your brain. 134 00:11:33,026 --> 00:11:34,486 You feel better, don't you? 135 00:11:35,904 --> 00:11:37,614 Migraines. 136 00:11:45,414 --> 00:11:47,624 I said, "I love you, Bella." 137 00:11:48,667 --> 00:11:50,711 I'll always remember that. 138 00:11:51,879 --> 00:11:53,881 At least I got to say it. 139 00:12:29,249 --> 00:12:30,250 You all right? 140 00:12:30,334 --> 00:12:32,002 I think so. 141 00:12:37,507 --> 00:12:39,092 I'm a doctor. 142 00:12:39,176 --> 00:12:40,510 Don't move. 143 00:13:06,370 --> 00:13:07,746 Chris? 144 00:13:08,038 --> 00:13:09,038 Hmm? 145 00:13:09,081 --> 00:13:10,874 Do you know what's happened? 146 00:13:11,792 --> 00:13:13,835 Yeah. I had a bad piece of fish before bed. 147 00:13:19,299 --> 00:13:21,635 Who are you? A doc? 148 00:13:22,886 --> 00:13:24,846 Are you operating on me? 149 00:13:26,765 --> 00:13:28,183 Who are you? 150 00:13:29,518 --> 00:13:31,269 Why can't I see you? 151 00:13:44,741 --> 00:13:47,494 Ginger, you see me? 152 00:13:48,120 --> 00:13:51,123 She does. Dogs are different. 153 00:13:52,624 --> 00:13:54,292 Can you see me now? 154 00:13:54,376 --> 00:13:55,419 Is that you, Doc? 155 00:13:55,502 --> 00:13:57,004 Why are you so blurred? 156 00:13:57,087 --> 00:13:59,423 I'll get clearer when you want me to, Chris. 157 00:13:59,506 --> 00:14:02,092 Confused how you got home so fast? 158 00:14:02,175 --> 00:14:05,178 Dreams don't deal in time. Time doesn't count. 159 00:14:15,605 --> 00:14:17,315 You've died, Chris. 160 00:14:18,400 --> 00:14:20,193 You have to be a dream, Doc. 161 00:14:20,277 --> 00:14:22,571 Doc, if I were dead, would I need you to tell me? 162 00:14:22,654 --> 00:14:24,114 I guess you do. 163 00:14:24,197 --> 00:14:25,991 Everyone's different. 164 00:14:29,703 --> 00:14:32,205 - I wish everybody would go home. - I know. 165 00:14:32,289 --> 00:14:34,124 How come I see everyone? 166 00:14:34,249 --> 00:14:37,044 - Everybody but... - I'm the one you don't want to see. 167 00:14:37,127 --> 00:14:39,129 You don't wanna be dead. 168 00:14:40,338 --> 00:14:42,924 The kids were so young at that time. 169 00:14:43,008 --> 00:14:45,927 What you want to remember is your kids. 170 00:14:48,055 --> 00:14:50,515 When they were still alive. 171 00:15:02,861 --> 00:15:05,822 When she goes to the hospital, I'm going too. 172 00:15:16,249 --> 00:15:18,335 Marie, Katie's not... 173 00:15:20,712 --> 00:15:23,340 Katie's not going there to get better. 174 00:15:25,342 --> 00:15:26,510 Sugar? 175 00:15:27,677 --> 00:15:30,764 They're gonna give her a shot, and it's not gonna hurt, 176 00:15:30,847 --> 00:15:32,099 and she'll fall asleep. 177 00:15:32,182 --> 00:15:34,309 You're going to kill my dog? 178 00:15:34,726 --> 00:15:36,978 I'm going to help her die, yes. 179 00:15:40,357 --> 00:15:42,984 Honey, she hurts very... 180 00:15:46,613 --> 00:15:47,948 Very badly. 181 00:15:48,031 --> 00:15:50,450 And nothing can help her. I'm going to stop that, 182 00:15:50,534 --> 00:15:52,244 because I love her. 183 00:15:52,369 --> 00:15:54,246 You're killing my dog. 184 00:15:55,872 --> 00:15:57,374 You get angry. 185 00:15:58,333 --> 00:15:59,918 Death does that. 186 00:16:02,462 --> 00:16:04,339 What'll happen to her? 187 00:16:07,050 --> 00:16:08,135 Um... 188 00:16:08,802 --> 00:16:10,846 She'll go where we all go. 189 00:16:12,430 --> 00:16:14,391 And how can that be bad? 190 00:16:26,236 --> 00:16:27,904 Oh, my leg! 191 00:16:34,369 --> 00:16:36,913 Thanks for not listening to Mom. 192 00:16:38,582 --> 00:16:40,584 - About what? - I don't know. 193 00:16:40,876 --> 00:16:43,378 Just coming out here. This whole day. 194 00:16:43,461 --> 00:16:46,339 She didn't want us doing this, because of 195 00:16:46,923 --> 00:16:48,592 grades and stuff. 196 00:16:50,594 --> 00:16:52,596 Your mother and I talked. 197 00:16:55,307 --> 00:16:57,767 We always listen to each other. 198 00:17:01,062 --> 00:17:03,440 So, I mean, what'd you talk about? 199 00:17:05,692 --> 00:17:08,111 About taking you out of Head-Royce. 200 00:17:10,739 --> 00:17:12,866 The school is wrong for you. 201 00:17:16,578 --> 00:17:18,914 While this is a time... 202 00:17:19,080 --> 00:17:21,041 Where are we now? 203 00:17:22,125 --> 00:17:25,587 Where we all want to stay. This is your funeral. 204 00:17:29,090 --> 00:17:31,593 What am I on? You're real fuzzy. 205 00:17:39,893 --> 00:17:42,604 At least you're willing to see yourself. 206 00:17:42,771 --> 00:17:44,731 You're losing your fear. 207 00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:46,524 Fear? 208 00:17:47,150 --> 00:17:49,152 Thought you disappeared? 209 00:17:49,903 --> 00:17:51,279 You didn't. 210 00:17:52,197 --> 00:17:53,740 You only died. 211 00:17:56,993 --> 00:18:01,456 A woman, who lost her children just four years ago. 212 00:18:02,666 --> 00:18:05,001 Every day in the Lord's Prayer... 213 00:18:05,835 --> 00:18:06,878 Celia. 214 00:18:06,962 --> 00:18:09,422 Come on. Whoa. 215 00:19:16,239 --> 00:19:19,034 This one is a present for me. 216 00:19:21,077 --> 00:19:23,330 It's our Double D-anniversary. 217 00:19:23,747 --> 00:19:25,707 Kind of our special day. 218 00:19:28,043 --> 00:19:29,961 It's her version of our place. 219 00:19:30,045 --> 00:19:31,129 Your place? 220 00:19:31,212 --> 00:19:32,422 Where we first met. 221 00:19:34,424 --> 00:19:37,052 Where we were going to retire, I guess. 222 00:19:38,011 --> 00:19:39,763 Live out our lives. 223 00:19:39,846 --> 00:19:41,723 Be old farts together. 224 00:19:43,600 --> 00:19:45,018 Right there. 225 00:19:45,643 --> 00:19:47,562 That's our dream house. 226 00:19:48,855 --> 00:19:50,774 That one's me, I guess. 227 00:19:52,859 --> 00:19:54,819 The blurry one is Annie. 228 00:19:55,570 --> 00:19:57,781 Looks a little familiar, Doc. 229 00:20:06,289 --> 00:20:10,251 The funeral is over. Why is this going on past the funeral? 230 00:20:14,255 --> 00:20:15,965 Dear Diary, 231 00:20:16,132 --> 00:20:17,801 I'm writing in your bullshit pages 232 00:20:17,884 --> 00:20:20,428 because my shrink is crazier than me. 233 00:20:21,137 --> 00:20:23,139 He thinks you're therapy. 234 00:20:23,807 --> 00:20:26,810 He figures, if two babies can hammer me into a psycho ward, 235 00:20:26,893 --> 00:20:28,812 what'll I do with this? 236 00:20:29,813 --> 00:20:31,314 He's so stupid. 237 00:20:32,482 --> 00:20:34,859 He thinks he pulled me through the breakdown 238 00:20:34,943 --> 00:20:36,945 when it was only Christy. 239 00:20:37,320 --> 00:20:39,322 Always. Only Chris. 240 00:20:39,823 --> 00:20:40,990 Jesus. 241 00:20:41,491 --> 00:20:43,785 I was looking through his postcards. 242 00:20:43,868 --> 00:20:45,995 Paintings were his obsession. 243 00:20:46,079 --> 00:20:49,457 He used art as another way to love me, to help me. 244 00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:52,627 To keep us always together. 245 00:20:53,294 --> 00:20:54,754 Annie. 246 00:20:57,590 --> 00:20:59,134 I'm here, babe. 247 00:21:00,343 --> 00:21:01,845 I still exist. 248 00:21:04,264 --> 00:21:06,141 You're thinking of me. 249 00:21:06,516 --> 00:21:08,309 Keep thinking of me. 250 00:21:09,686 --> 00:21:11,312 Come on, with me. 251 00:21:12,105 --> 00:21:14,065 You were always with me. 252 00:21:14,190 --> 00:21:17,861 The people who finished each other's sentences. Remember us? 253 00:21:20,321 --> 00:21:23,032 I still exist. 254 00:21:25,076 --> 00:21:26,578 I still exist! 255 00:21:30,039 --> 00:21:31,875 I still exist. 256 00:21:34,169 --> 00:21:35,879 Just write it down. 257 00:21:38,423 --> 00:21:39,924 Write it down. 258 00:21:43,928 --> 00:21:45,555 "This is Chris." 259 00:21:48,766 --> 00:21:50,977 "This is Chris." 260 00:21:58,026 --> 00:21:59,110 "I 261 00:22:01,821 --> 00:22:03,072 "still 262 00:22:07,035 --> 00:22:08,286 "exist." 263 00:22:19,339 --> 00:22:20,590 Read it. 264 00:22:21,466 --> 00:22:22,717 Read it. 265 00:22:58,336 --> 00:23:00,672 Christ, when does it end? 266 00:23:01,798 --> 00:23:03,967 There's no rules, Chris. 267 00:23:04,259 --> 00:23:06,135 It ends when you want. 268 00:23:06,928 --> 00:23:08,179 Where were you? 269 00:23:08,263 --> 00:23:09,806 Someplace else. 270 00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:13,518 You think I'm a figment of your imagination? 271 00:23:13,601 --> 00:23:15,603 It's real. She's real. You're real. 272 00:23:15,687 --> 00:23:16,980 It's all real. 273 00:23:17,063 --> 00:23:19,399 That's the point, if there is one. 274 00:23:20,483 --> 00:23:23,403 It's over when you stop wanting to hurt her. 275 00:23:40,461 --> 00:23:41,671 Forever. 276 00:23:53,725 --> 00:23:55,393 Don't worry, baby. 277 00:23:57,478 --> 00:23:59,522 I'm not leaving you alone. 278 00:24:00,064 --> 00:24:01,274 I'm not going anywhere. 279 00:24:23,546 --> 00:24:25,048 Goodbye, babe. 280 00:25:52,093 --> 00:25:53,928 Katie, it's you! 281 00:25:55,138 --> 00:25:56,889 You're young again! 282 00:25:57,849 --> 00:25:59,016 Katie! 283 00:26:01,269 --> 00:26:02,729 Come here, Katie. 284 00:26:05,815 --> 00:26:06,983 Katie. 285 00:26:10,445 --> 00:26:11,904 Come on, hey! 286 00:26:13,531 --> 00:26:15,199 Boy, I screwed up. 287 00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:17,869 I'm in dog heaven. 288 00:26:28,004 --> 00:26:31,257 A place where we all go can't be bad, can it, girl? 289 00:26:59,410 --> 00:27:02,371 Maybe I'm not in your heaven after all, girl! 290 00:27:02,622 --> 00:27:04,123 Maybe you're in mine! 291 00:27:11,547 --> 00:27:13,966 Annie! 292 00:27:47,750 --> 00:27:50,336 Chris, what the hell have you done? 293 00:27:50,419 --> 00:27:52,922 That's not how you use a stethoscope! 294 00:27:53,297 --> 00:27:54,674 Albert Lewis? 295 00:27:54,757 --> 00:27:59,512 Last time you saw me, I was 63, stretched out on a cardiac ward! 296 00:28:00,680 --> 00:28:02,974 You thought I was old and decrepit, huh? 297 00:28:03,057 --> 00:28:05,351 Talking about "Ah, can't go on!" 298 00:28:07,103 --> 00:28:09,772 Who wants to be 63 throughout eternity? 299 00:28:10,064 --> 00:28:11,274 Look at you on the water! 300 00:28:11,357 --> 00:28:13,651 Well, hello! Come on. 301 00:28:14,360 --> 00:28:17,363 Walk along, feel the beat! 302 00:28:17,488 --> 00:28:19,115 Dancing on water! 303 00:28:19,448 --> 00:28:20,950 Smooth as ever! 304 00:28:22,618 --> 00:28:24,287 And that was you, 305 00:28:25,329 --> 00:28:28,416 just now, when I died. 306 00:28:29,333 --> 00:28:33,004 I thought you recognized me, because you called me "Doc". 307 00:28:33,212 --> 00:28:35,298 Me being your favorite doc. 308 00:28:35,631 --> 00:28:40,636 Could you lend me a hand? I'm up to my ass in problems again, Chief. 309 00:28:41,596 --> 00:28:43,723 Oh, Chris. 310 00:28:45,933 --> 00:28:47,268 Come here. 311 00:28:48,352 --> 00:28:50,354 You are still kinda ugly. 312 00:28:52,523 --> 00:28:54,650 You taught me a lot, Chief. 313 00:28:54,901 --> 00:28:56,068 Nice place you got here. 314 00:28:56,152 --> 00:28:58,946 No, no. Nice place you got here. 315 00:28:59,322 --> 00:29:00,323 Me? 316 00:29:00,406 --> 00:29:02,617 Sure, you're making all this. 317 00:29:03,159 --> 00:29:07,580 We're insecure at first, so we need safety and comfort. 318 00:29:07,830 --> 00:29:09,749 We all paint our surroundings, Chris. 319 00:29:09,832 --> 00:29:12,960 But you're the first guy I know to use real paint! 320 00:29:13,044 --> 00:29:15,671 There's so much here she didn't paint. 321 00:29:17,548 --> 00:29:19,091 Like that bird. 322 00:29:20,426 --> 00:29:23,721 Annie gave you a start, like holding onto handrails. 323 00:29:23,971 --> 00:29:26,265 You're creating a world. 324 00:29:26,349 --> 00:29:30,353 From your imagination, from paintings you love, anything you want. 325 00:29:30,811 --> 00:29:32,563 Why doesn't it move? 326 00:29:32,772 --> 00:29:34,857 It will when you want it to. 327 00:29:41,864 --> 00:29:44,116 Oh-hoh! You go, boy! 328 00:29:44,200 --> 00:29:45,201 Can I make it dive? 329 00:29:45,284 --> 00:29:46,786 You're the painter now! 330 00:29:46,869 --> 00:29:48,496 It's your world. 331 00:29:53,042 --> 00:29:54,543 Look at it go! 332 00:29:55,878 --> 00:29:57,880 How about turquoise wings? 333 00:29:57,964 --> 00:29:59,298 Turquoise! 334 00:29:59,382 --> 00:30:02,259 And a little mauve, all right! 335 00:30:18,859 --> 00:30:20,486 I didn't do that. 336 00:30:20,611 --> 00:30:21,821 No, I did. 337 00:30:21,904 --> 00:30:24,824 When we're together it's like dual controls. 338 00:30:25,074 --> 00:30:27,076 Can I make elephants fly? 339 00:30:28,285 --> 00:30:30,413 Didn't Annie paint a house? 340 00:30:35,418 --> 00:30:37,712 Yeah, it's our dream house. 341 00:30:40,756 --> 00:30:42,967 Just a stroll across the water. 342 00:30:44,301 --> 00:30:46,137 Let's take the shortcut. 343 00:30:50,933 --> 00:30:52,101 Nice shortcut. 344 00:30:52,393 --> 00:30:54,186 It's easy, look at me! 345 00:30:54,270 --> 00:30:55,312 I'm gonna drown. 346 00:30:55,396 --> 00:30:58,024 You can't. You're already dead. 347 00:30:58,315 --> 00:31:01,193 Oh. Am I... Am I really here? 348 00:31:02,069 --> 00:31:04,071 What do you mean by "you"? 349 00:31:04,155 --> 00:31:06,282 Are you your arm or your leg? 350 00:31:06,532 --> 00:31:08,409 - Partly. - Really? 351 00:31:08,784 --> 00:31:10,870 And if you lost your limbs? 352 00:31:11,078 --> 00:31:12,621 I'd still be me. 353 00:31:12,705 --> 00:31:14,331 What is the "me"? 354 00:31:14,874 --> 00:31:16,375 My brain, I suppose. 355 00:31:16,459 --> 00:31:17,710 Your brain? 356 00:31:17,793 --> 00:31:19,837 Your brain is a body part. 357 00:31:20,004 --> 00:31:21,839 Like your fingernail or your heart. 358 00:31:21,922 --> 00:31:23,966 Why is that the part that's you? 359 00:31:24,925 --> 00:31:28,345 Because "I" is sort of a voice in my head. 360 00:31:28,429 --> 00:31:30,681 The part that thinks, that feels. 361 00:31:30,765 --> 00:31:32,850 That is aware that I exist. 362 00:31:38,731 --> 00:31:42,318 So if you're aware you exist, then you do. 363 00:31:43,360 --> 00:31:45,571 That's why you're still here. 364 00:31:59,335 --> 00:32:02,713 No windows. What aren't you ready to see, I wonder? 365 00:32:07,009 --> 00:32:09,804 Drink it. Think it's coffee and it will be. 366 00:32:11,347 --> 00:32:12,431 Okay. 367 00:32:13,224 --> 00:32:14,642 It's coffee. 368 00:32:16,894 --> 00:32:18,562 Paint! Acrylic. 369 00:32:20,564 --> 00:32:22,233 Why is it so hard? 370 00:32:22,316 --> 00:32:23,484 What? 371 00:32:23,651 --> 00:32:25,319 Your brain is meat. 372 00:32:25,402 --> 00:32:27,321 It rots and disappears. 373 00:32:28,030 --> 00:32:30,741 You thought that's all there was to you? 374 00:32:33,077 --> 00:32:35,287 Like you're in your house now. 375 00:32:35,746 --> 00:32:39,291 You're in your house, it doesn't mean you are your house. 376 00:32:39,375 --> 00:32:41,877 The house falls down, you walk away. 377 00:32:43,879 --> 00:32:45,589 But I rebuilt, huh? 378 00:32:45,673 --> 00:32:48,175 You see your body because you like seeing one. 379 00:32:48,259 --> 00:32:50,719 We're seeing what we choose to see. 380 00:32:52,555 --> 00:32:54,014 Let me show you something. 381 00:33:18,164 --> 00:33:19,165 Ha! 382 00:33:26,922 --> 00:33:29,466 It's real. Where is the paint? 383 00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:33,596 You don't need it anymore. This is your world now. 384 00:33:36,765 --> 00:33:38,350 Thought is real. 385 00:33:38,726 --> 00:33:40,728 Physical is the illusion. 386 00:33:42,062 --> 00:33:43,439 Ironic, huh? 387 00:33:47,443 --> 00:33:49,320 Where's God in all this? 388 00:33:49,403 --> 00:33:50,905 He's up there. 389 00:33:51,614 --> 00:33:52,698 Somewhere. 390 00:33:52,781 --> 00:33:54,742 Shouting down that he loves us. 391 00:33:54,825 --> 00:33:56,702 Wondering why we can't hear him. 392 00:33:56,785 --> 00:33:58,120 You think? 393 00:34:00,372 --> 00:34:02,041 Drink your coffee. 394 00:34:04,543 --> 00:34:05,711 Needs milk. 395 00:34:05,794 --> 00:34:07,588 Don't push your luck. 396 00:34:21,477 --> 00:34:23,854 What do you think, Christy? 397 00:34:26,482 --> 00:34:27,816 Right here. 398 00:34:30,319 --> 00:34:32,988 Like this? You think? 399 00:34:49,797 --> 00:34:52,341 They say we live in our minds anyway. 400 00:34:54,718 --> 00:34:59,014 Having you with me, like this, keeps me happy. 401 00:35:02,518 --> 00:35:04,853 Why do I believe you can hear me? 402 00:35:06,272 --> 00:35:08,565 Why do I think you can see this? 403 00:35:14,196 --> 00:35:17,324 What's that purple tree? I never saw that. 404 00:35:18,742 --> 00:35:20,286 Let's take a look. 405 00:35:20,369 --> 00:35:22,288 Think you can get there in eight seconds? 406 00:35:22,371 --> 00:35:25,124 Eight seconds? Over there? 407 00:35:26,000 --> 00:35:28,544 Yeah, I just need a little incentive. 408 00:35:49,023 --> 00:35:51,066 Yeah. I can fly. 409 00:35:51,650 --> 00:35:52,735 No! 410 00:35:52,818 --> 00:35:54,361 Can't I do what I want? 411 00:35:54,445 --> 00:35:57,614 I think you'd be more comfortable keeping it real. 412 00:35:58,574 --> 00:36:01,785 Think of running fast, like the Road Runner, okay? 413 00:36:08,959 --> 00:36:10,627 I can handle this. 414 00:36:13,714 --> 00:36:15,299 Adios, muchacho. 415 00:36:17,760 --> 00:36:19,345 Oh, wait! Chris! 416 00:36:19,595 --> 00:36:21,430 Annie! 417 00:36:26,143 --> 00:36:28,645 I bet you're thinking "Oh, shit!" now! 418 00:36:47,623 --> 00:36:48,832 Yeah! 419 00:36:49,041 --> 00:36:50,292 Go, boy! 420 00:36:56,548 --> 00:36:58,550 Go, Chris, go! 421 00:37:24,910 --> 00:37:26,120 Albert! 422 00:37:26,829 --> 00:37:27,996 Albert! 423 00:37:36,880 --> 00:37:38,674 It's completely new. 424 00:37:39,550 --> 00:37:42,177 The canvas was blank when I was alive. 425 00:37:43,554 --> 00:37:46,348 How can I see this drawing after I'm dead? 426 00:37:48,559 --> 00:37:51,270 For an expert you look pretty surprised. 427 00:37:51,687 --> 00:37:53,647 You two. A long courtship? 428 00:37:53,730 --> 00:37:54,898 No, actually. 429 00:37:54,982 --> 00:37:56,900 From the first moment, it was like... 430 00:37:56,984 --> 00:37:58,318 Soul mates. 431 00:37:58,694 --> 00:38:01,155 It's extremely rare, but it exists. 432 00:38:02,531 --> 00:38:05,200 Like twin souls. Tuned in to each other. 433 00:38:07,453 --> 00:38:09,496 Apparently, even in death. 434 00:38:11,832 --> 00:38:14,168 You're reaching each other through her painting. 435 00:38:14,251 --> 00:38:16,378 It's nothing I've ever seen. 436 00:38:18,964 --> 00:38:21,300 You can't see it, can you? 437 00:38:24,219 --> 00:38:25,929 And you never will. 438 00:39:06,887 --> 00:39:08,388 I love you! 439 00:39:54,893 --> 00:39:57,312 Whose footprints are these? 440 00:39:58,438 --> 00:40:00,649 Don't ask me, you put 'em here. 441 00:40:13,203 --> 00:40:14,371 Annie. 442 00:40:15,038 --> 00:40:16,164 Annie! 443 00:40:16,248 --> 00:40:18,000 - Chris! - Annie! 444 00:40:25,465 --> 00:40:27,968 Fantasy is not what you need, Chris. 445 00:40:29,261 --> 00:40:30,887 No, you're right. 446 00:40:31,513 --> 00:40:33,015 I need Annie. 447 00:40:35,559 --> 00:40:36,852 That'll change in time. 448 00:40:36,935 --> 00:40:38,812 Oh, come on, Einstein! 449 00:40:39,104 --> 00:40:41,398 Time's not on my watch any more! 450 00:40:41,481 --> 00:40:43,483 Time does not exist here! 451 00:40:44,109 --> 00:40:47,863 Wherever it went, it won't make me need Annie less. 452 00:40:50,532 --> 00:40:53,076 You'll feel differently, and so will she. 453 00:40:53,160 --> 00:40:54,202 Man. 454 00:40:56,079 --> 00:40:57,748 You don't know us. 455 00:40:59,374 --> 00:41:00,709 Wish I did. 456 00:41:08,008 --> 00:41:09,176 Marie. 457 00:41:10,344 --> 00:41:11,511 Marie! 458 00:41:17,351 --> 00:41:19,019 Look, it's Tigger! 459 00:41:19,436 --> 00:41:21,188 It's my daughter's! 460 00:41:22,105 --> 00:41:24,316 Katie tore it up once, and... 461 00:41:28,445 --> 00:41:30,113 She's here, right? 462 00:41:31,239 --> 00:41:32,741 Where is she? 463 00:41:35,327 --> 00:41:38,872 Chris, here is big enough for all to have their universe. 464 00:41:41,708 --> 00:41:44,753 That's not why you haven't seen them yet, is it? 465 00:41:47,047 --> 00:41:49,174 What does that mean, Buddha? 466 00:41:50,384 --> 00:41:52,678 I wanna see my children, Albert! 467 00:41:55,180 --> 00:41:57,057 When you do, you will. 468 00:42:14,908 --> 00:42:16,201 Does that hurt? 469 00:42:16,284 --> 00:42:17,536 Mmm-mmm. 470 00:42:18,495 --> 00:42:19,955 - That? - Mmm-hmm. 471 00:42:20,789 --> 00:42:22,332 How about that? 472 00:42:22,749 --> 00:42:25,544 I'm gonna keep doing this till you tickle. 473 00:42:29,965 --> 00:42:32,926 You've got a fever. It's going down, though. 474 00:42:33,260 --> 00:42:35,470 Don't you have to go somewhere? 475 00:42:37,764 --> 00:42:39,391 Wanna play chess? 476 00:42:43,061 --> 00:42:44,730 I could teach you. 477 00:42:46,273 --> 00:42:48,233 Would you teach me that? 478 00:43:17,345 --> 00:43:18,680 Excuse me. 479 00:43:21,558 --> 00:43:23,101 Albert has to work. 480 00:43:23,185 --> 00:43:25,312 He asked me to meet with you. 481 00:43:26,271 --> 00:43:28,190 Will that be all right? 482 00:43:29,316 --> 00:43:30,525 Leona. 483 00:43:30,942 --> 00:43:32,235 That's a very beautiful name. 484 00:43:32,319 --> 00:43:34,529 He said you've been isolated. 485 00:43:35,947 --> 00:43:38,658 Do you wanna see others? Perhaps a city? 486 00:43:39,367 --> 00:43:41,953 I would, but travel makes me nauseous. 487 00:43:48,710 --> 00:43:50,295 Close your eyes. 488 00:43:52,130 --> 00:43:54,007 I didn't mean forever. 489 00:44:06,812 --> 00:44:08,480 What do you think? 490 00:44:09,022 --> 00:44:11,107 I'm a little under-dressed. 491 00:44:11,399 --> 00:44:12,901 You look fine. 492 00:44:13,151 --> 00:44:16,571 Till now you've been painting your world. This is mine. 493 00:44:17,239 --> 00:44:20,992 In our city across the river we have to have a common vision. 494 00:44:37,092 --> 00:44:39,177 So, there's work. 495 00:44:39,678 --> 00:44:41,429 - Mmm-hmm. - I like that. 496 00:44:42,138 --> 00:44:45,559 Albert, for example, is sort of a missionary. 497 00:44:45,809 --> 00:44:47,561 He saves lost souls. 498 00:44:47,644 --> 00:44:48,895 Like me. 499 00:44:49,437 --> 00:44:52,607 Hardly. They are the ones who can't get here. 500 00:44:54,401 --> 00:44:56,152 You mean, from hell? 501 00:44:56,236 --> 00:44:57,487 In a way. 502 00:44:57,612 --> 00:44:59,614 It's not what you think. 503 00:44:59,698 --> 00:45:02,158 My work is with animals. 504 00:45:04,744 --> 00:45:06,621 Katie is an old friend. 505 00:45:08,164 --> 00:45:10,083 Dearest Christy. 506 00:45:10,584 --> 00:45:13,044 I don't know how this day unraveled on me. 507 00:45:13,128 --> 00:45:15,589 I was so proud of how I held together through 508 00:45:15,672 --> 00:45:17,591 this endless afternoon. 509 00:45:18,592 --> 00:45:21,136 But, coming home, I began to lose it. 510 00:45:23,346 --> 00:45:25,432 If I had walked out that night for our Double D, 511 00:45:25,515 --> 00:45:28,894 you wouldn't have been in the tunnel doing me a favor. 512 00:45:29,811 --> 00:45:32,272 A whole family lost in car crashes. 513 00:45:33,523 --> 00:45:35,984 Enough to make a person buy a bike. 514 00:45:40,864 --> 00:45:42,073 Where are they going? 515 00:45:42,157 --> 00:45:44,868 To help others be reborn on Earth. 516 00:45:45,160 --> 00:45:47,329 Really? Reincarnation? 517 00:45:55,545 --> 00:45:57,672 Albert says to cheer you up. 518 00:45:58,632 --> 00:46:01,509 - You have difficulty... - Losing my wife, yeah. 519 00:46:04,512 --> 00:46:06,181 And your children? 520 00:46:06,932 --> 00:46:08,683 They died years ago. 521 00:46:09,142 --> 00:46:11,686 That's why I'm worried about my wife. 522 00:46:14,314 --> 00:46:16,775 They died in a terrible collision. 523 00:46:16,858 --> 00:46:18,401 The nanny was driving. 524 00:46:18,485 --> 00:46:20,153 It wasn't her fault. 525 00:46:20,236 --> 00:46:21,738 And your wife? 526 00:46:22,739 --> 00:46:25,200 My daughter had asked her to drive. 527 00:46:42,717 --> 00:46:44,719 It was a trucker's fault. 528 00:46:45,470 --> 00:46:48,556 But my wife believed that if she'd been driving, 529 00:46:49,182 --> 00:46:51,768 her protective instincts would have... 530 00:47:04,906 --> 00:47:06,366 Are you okay? 531 00:47:13,415 --> 00:47:14,958 Come on, Katie! 532 00:47:29,264 --> 00:47:31,474 Where were you just now? 533 00:47:32,142 --> 00:47:34,894 Your mind's been wandering all afternoon. 534 00:47:35,979 --> 00:47:37,772 Thinking of someone. 535 00:47:39,607 --> 00:47:42,777 Your wife must have loved her children very much. 536 00:47:43,778 --> 00:47:45,113 Very much. 537 00:47:45,822 --> 00:47:49,117 But you don't have to break in half to love somebody. 538 00:47:52,454 --> 00:47:54,622 Tell me a memory of your own. 539 00:47:56,541 --> 00:47:58,501 Say, with your daughter. 540 00:48:17,020 --> 00:48:18,271 Hey. 541 00:48:18,354 --> 00:48:20,482 That's somebody else's art. 542 00:48:20,815 --> 00:48:22,692 What's the difference? 543 00:48:23,151 --> 00:48:25,236 You weren't looking anyway. 544 00:48:29,866 --> 00:48:31,201 Your move. 545 00:48:33,411 --> 00:48:35,705 Is this where we go when we die? 546 00:48:41,586 --> 00:48:44,339 It's a dream, baby. It's a beautiful one. 547 00:48:45,965 --> 00:48:48,843 - But, you know, dreams... - I know, aren't real. 548 00:48:49,469 --> 00:48:50,678 I know. 549 00:48:54,516 --> 00:48:56,643 - It's after midnight. - I haven't won yet. 550 00:48:56,726 --> 00:48:57,852 It's your first time. 551 00:48:57,936 --> 00:49:00,063 No, I like that I haven't won yet. 552 00:49:00,146 --> 00:49:02,190 Means you're not cheating. 553 00:49:02,816 --> 00:49:04,984 And when I win, I really win. 554 00:49:06,069 --> 00:49:07,987 I wanna play till I do. 555 00:49:09,030 --> 00:49:10,448 Unless you wanna stop. 556 00:49:10,532 --> 00:49:12,659 No. Let's play till you win. 557 00:49:15,620 --> 00:49:18,039 She died three months later. 558 00:49:19,040 --> 00:49:20,875 We played every night. 559 00:49:23,628 --> 00:49:25,630 It meant the world to me. 560 00:49:27,715 --> 00:49:29,217 She never won. 561 00:49:56,911 --> 00:49:59,914 I didn't look like this in the body, you know. 562 00:50:03,710 --> 00:50:05,753 We flew to Singapore once. 563 00:50:06,045 --> 00:50:09,883 And my daddy smiled at the flight attendant who 564 00:50:13,428 --> 00:50:16,514 looked like this and wore this name tag, "Leona". 565 00:50:20,101 --> 00:50:22,312 He said Asian women are so 566 00:50:24,272 --> 00:50:27,567 lovely and graceful 567 00:50:29,444 --> 00:50:30,445 and intelligent. 568 00:50:30,528 --> 00:50:32,614 - He didn't mean only. - I know. 569 00:50:32,697 --> 00:50:34,449 It was something he said. 570 00:50:34,532 --> 00:50:38,620 And I thought, when I grow up, I wanna be that. 571 00:50:42,207 --> 00:50:44,042 You still play chess? 572 00:50:53,801 --> 00:50:56,137 I think I waited for my partner. 573 00:51:39,305 --> 00:51:42,725 I swear that California is the strangest place. 574 00:51:43,685 --> 00:51:45,019 They push you into it 575 00:51:45,103 --> 00:51:48,189 so you can do it before your shrink commits you. 576 00:51:49,649 --> 00:51:51,859 Thoughtful legislation there. 577 00:51:53,027 --> 00:51:54,779 Mine is suspicious. 578 00:51:55,488 --> 00:51:57,782 Another week, he might commit me. 579 00:51:57,865 --> 00:51:59,534 For my own safety. 580 00:52:02,704 --> 00:52:05,331 I had the husband I was meant to have. 581 00:52:05,832 --> 00:52:07,834 Two spectacular children. 582 00:52:08,710 --> 00:52:12,505 Blessings no one would dare expect from life. 583 00:52:14,382 --> 00:52:16,509 And the truth is, simply 584 00:52:18,720 --> 00:52:20,221 that it's over. 585 00:52:22,056 --> 00:52:25,143 Just this one loose end to ravel up. 586 00:52:31,149 --> 00:52:34,736 I didn't get to say goodbye. You're dead and I blew that. 587 00:52:37,864 --> 00:52:39,949 I don't get to say goodbye. 588 00:52:43,077 --> 00:52:44,954 But I'll tell you what. 589 00:52:45,705 --> 00:52:48,291 Across whatever distance there is, 590 00:52:50,918 --> 00:52:52,628 I send you my love. 591 00:53:07,101 --> 00:53:08,186 Hey. 592 00:53:11,147 --> 00:53:12,523 Where were you? 593 00:53:12,607 --> 00:53:13,858 Far away. 594 00:53:13,941 --> 00:53:16,277 I got called back. I was working. 595 00:53:18,863 --> 00:53:21,157 There are no words to thank you. 596 00:53:22,283 --> 00:53:23,951 For finding Marie. 597 00:53:27,246 --> 00:53:29,165 - Is she okay? - She's fine. 598 00:53:29,624 --> 00:53:31,417 You'll see her soon. 599 00:53:31,667 --> 00:53:33,419 She sends her love. 600 00:53:34,420 --> 00:53:35,963 Especially now. 601 00:53:44,138 --> 00:53:47,517 We'll gonna go through something very hard right now. 602 00:53:48,184 --> 00:53:50,436 I'm with you. You're not alone. 603 00:53:53,731 --> 00:53:55,233 Annie is dead. 604 00:53:59,862 --> 00:54:01,614 She killed herself. 605 00:54:06,494 --> 00:54:09,664 It's nothing I ever expected. 606 00:54:12,667 --> 00:54:14,919 Like I said, you don't know us. 607 00:54:17,630 --> 00:54:20,466 Is that an occupational hazard of soul mates? 608 00:54:20,633 --> 00:54:22,969 One's not much without the other? 609 00:54:26,347 --> 00:54:27,890 But she's okay. 610 00:54:28,724 --> 00:54:31,144 Because her pain is over. 611 00:54:31,227 --> 00:54:32,228 You don't understand. 612 00:54:32,311 --> 00:54:34,522 She won't cling like me. 613 00:54:34,605 --> 00:54:36,232 When do I see her? 614 00:54:36,315 --> 00:54:37,483 Never. 615 00:54:40,278 --> 00:54:41,946 You'll never see her. 616 00:54:42,029 --> 00:54:44,949 She's a suicide. Suicides go somewhere else. 617 00:54:45,867 --> 00:54:47,201 Why are you punishing her? 618 00:54:47,285 --> 00:54:49,620 - It's not punishment. - She's suffered enough. 619 00:54:49,829 --> 00:54:51,789 There are no judges or crimes. 620 00:54:51,873 --> 00:54:52,999 Everybody's equal. 621 00:54:53,082 --> 00:54:54,959 That's the way things work! 622 00:54:55,042 --> 00:54:57,336 And suicides go to hell? 623 00:54:57,628 --> 00:54:59,714 No goddamn judgment in that! 624 00:55:02,633 --> 00:55:04,218 You wanna fight? 625 00:55:05,720 --> 00:55:08,723 You can hide from it or understand it. 626 00:55:09,682 --> 00:55:13,352 What you call hell is for those who don't know they're dead. 627 00:55:13,561 --> 00:55:17,023 They can't realize what they've done or what's happened. 628 00:55:18,065 --> 00:55:20,318 Too self-absorbed in life, that they... 629 00:55:20,401 --> 00:55:21,444 Self-absorbed? 630 00:55:21,527 --> 00:55:24,405 That doesn't apply to Annie, all right? 631 00:55:25,823 --> 00:55:27,366 No, it doesn't. 632 00:55:27,742 --> 00:55:29,660 Suicides are different. 633 00:55:29,744 --> 00:55:32,205 They don't go to hell because they're immoral or selfish. 634 00:55:32,288 --> 00:55:34,707 They go for a very different reason. 635 00:55:34,790 --> 00:55:39,045 Each of us has an instinct, and there's a natural order to our journey. 636 00:55:39,170 --> 00:55:41,130 Annie has violated that. 637 00:55:41,714 --> 00:55:43,382 She won't face it. 638 00:55:44,342 --> 00:55:48,262 She won't realize, accept what she's done. 639 00:55:49,472 --> 00:55:52,225 She will spend eternity playing that out. 640 00:55:52,350 --> 00:55:53,976 You still say she's in hell. 641 00:55:54,060 --> 00:55:55,228 Everybody's hell is different. 642 00:55:55,311 --> 00:55:57,188 It's not all fire and pain. 643 00:55:57,271 --> 00:55:59,690 Real hell is your life gone wrong. 644 00:56:19,460 --> 00:56:21,087 I'm her soul mate. 645 00:56:21,170 --> 00:56:22,713 I can find her. 646 00:56:30,638 --> 00:56:31,931 You don't understand how... 647 00:56:32,014 --> 00:56:34,934 It's not about understanding! 648 00:56:35,893 --> 00:56:38,104 It's about not giving up. 649 00:56:39,730 --> 00:56:41,857 You said there are no rules. 650 00:56:41,941 --> 00:56:43,359 And the purple tree? 651 00:56:43,442 --> 00:56:45,403 You were pretty surprised then. 652 00:56:45,486 --> 00:56:48,573 Hey, if there are no rules, 653 00:56:48,781 --> 00:56:51,576 how can you say all suicides are the same? 654 00:56:51,701 --> 00:56:53,077 I can't, I can't. 655 00:56:53,160 --> 00:56:56,539 Okay. Or she doesn't know she's dead? 656 00:56:56,622 --> 00:56:57,707 - I can't. - Okay. 657 00:56:57,790 --> 00:57:01,377 No one has ever seen a suicide brought back! 658 00:57:01,460 --> 00:57:02,920 Stick around, Chief. 659 00:57:03,004 --> 00:57:04,547 You ain't seen nothing yet. 660 00:57:11,345 --> 00:57:13,556 Okay. You deserve your chance. 661 00:57:14,181 --> 00:57:15,975 We'll find a tracker. 662 00:58:37,181 --> 00:58:38,599 Hey! 663 00:58:45,731 --> 00:58:48,067 This the guy who doesn't give up? 664 00:58:49,402 --> 00:58:52,780 Anyone tell you too much persistence can get stupid? 665 00:58:53,197 --> 00:58:54,573 Constantly. 666 00:58:54,907 --> 00:58:56,325 I hear the same thing. 667 00:58:56,409 --> 00:58:58,536 I also hear I read too slow. 668 00:58:59,120 --> 00:59:00,955 I don't need glasses. 669 00:59:01,539 --> 00:59:04,166 Eyes being a figment of my imagination. 670 00:59:05,918 --> 00:59:08,379 You'll hear a lot of smart stuff here. 671 00:59:08,462 --> 00:59:10,047 It's usually right. 672 00:59:10,131 --> 00:59:11,382 Don't let it screw you up. 673 00:59:11,465 --> 00:59:12,675 I won't. 674 00:59:13,843 --> 00:59:16,053 Your wife love you as strong? 675 00:59:24,645 --> 00:59:26,147 We'll find her. 676 00:59:26,981 --> 00:59:28,816 But when you find her, 677 00:59:29,567 --> 00:59:32,069 nothing will make her recognize you. 678 00:59:32,987 --> 00:59:35,239 Nothing will break her denial. 679 00:59:36,407 --> 00:59:38,534 It's stronger than her love. 680 00:59:38,909 --> 00:59:41,203 In fact, reinforced by her love. 681 00:59:42,872 --> 00:59:45,499 You can say everything you long to say. 682 00:59:46,459 --> 00:59:48,127 Including goodbye. 683 00:59:48,627 --> 00:59:50,921 Even if she can't understand it. 684 00:59:52,673 --> 00:59:56,051 You'll have the satisfaction that you didn't give up. 685 00:59:58,512 --> 01:00:00,347 That has to be enough. 686 01:00:00,890 --> 01:00:03,434 Get me there. I decide what's enough. 687 01:00:05,853 --> 01:00:07,480 When do we leave? 688 01:00:09,356 --> 01:00:10,983 Close your eyes. 689 01:00:22,787 --> 01:00:24,747 Albert's a sweet kid. 690 01:00:24,830 --> 01:00:26,582 He is that. 691 01:00:26,874 --> 01:00:29,668 There's a tenderness I never knew in life. 692 01:00:30,044 --> 01:00:32,546 I didn't know him when he was young. 693 01:00:34,298 --> 01:00:36,592 Were you proud of your own kids? 694 01:00:38,594 --> 01:00:39,929 Of course. 695 01:00:40,429 --> 01:00:43,265 That's an easy bullshit answer. 696 01:00:44,892 --> 01:00:46,435 Think about it. 697 01:00:48,395 --> 01:00:50,105 I said "Of course." 698 01:00:51,899 --> 01:00:53,776 I like this sore point. 699 01:00:54,068 --> 01:00:56,862 It's juice. Juice is strong. It connects. 700 01:00:58,155 --> 01:01:00,741 Makes you a better receiver for Annie. 701 01:01:03,994 --> 01:01:07,248 She's the transmitter, sending thoughts of you. 702 01:01:31,605 --> 01:01:33,732 What did you do when alive? 703 01:01:33,899 --> 01:01:35,776 You mean the last time? 704 01:01:36,110 --> 01:01:38,737 We can be reborn. 705 01:01:38,821 --> 01:01:40,823 But only if we choose to. 706 01:01:42,324 --> 01:01:44,827 Last trip, I did the same work... 707 01:01:44,910 --> 01:01:46,328 You were a shrink! 708 01:01:47,413 --> 01:01:49,081 Fairly perceptive. 709 01:01:55,254 --> 01:01:56,630 Oh, my God. 710 01:01:57,131 --> 01:01:59,300 You expected physical danger? 711 01:02:04,430 --> 01:02:06,765 What could it do, kill you, huh? 712 01:02:07,057 --> 01:02:10,311 No. In hell, there's real danger. 713 01:02:11,854 --> 01:02:13,647 Of losing your mind. 714 01:02:53,771 --> 01:02:56,941 Because he's drowning, that's why. 715 01:03:01,111 --> 01:03:03,614 He's 13 years old! 716 01:03:03,697 --> 01:03:04,697 I know. 717 01:03:04,740 --> 01:03:07,117 He needs to hang out with his friends. That's what he needs. 718 01:03:07,201 --> 01:03:09,536 He needs to veg out in front of the TV, 719 01:03:09,620 --> 01:03:12,915 he needs to read a fucking book he likes! 720 01:03:12,998 --> 01:03:15,793 You're saying he doesn't wanna let me down? 721 01:03:15,876 --> 01:03:17,127 No, it's worse. 722 01:03:17,211 --> 01:03:20,214 He's so into you, he feels he's letting himself down. 723 01:03:20,297 --> 01:03:23,050 You say he can do something and he can't, he thinks he's shit. 724 01:03:23,133 --> 01:03:24,760 How sick is that? 725 01:03:32,059 --> 01:03:34,436 How can you take me out of school? 726 01:03:34,895 --> 01:03:36,271 How can you? 727 01:03:36,981 --> 01:03:38,565 This is my life! 728 01:03:39,775 --> 01:03:41,610 Don't you think I can make it? 729 01:03:41,944 --> 01:03:43,988 If I really dig in... 730 01:03:44,071 --> 01:03:46,323 You have to show me more! 731 01:03:46,407 --> 01:03:49,076 Come on! You're blowing it, Ian! 732 01:03:49,368 --> 01:03:50,744 I'm not you! 733 01:04:58,604 --> 01:04:59,980 Shipwrecks. 734 01:05:00,981 --> 01:05:02,232 What is this place? 735 01:05:02,316 --> 01:05:04,109 The gateway to hell. 736 01:05:08,614 --> 01:05:11,450 How are we doing? Picking up any signals? 737 01:05:12,117 --> 01:05:14,536 Actually, not a ripple. 738 01:05:15,370 --> 01:05:18,373 That's because I was thinking of somebody else. 739 01:05:26,173 --> 01:05:30,761 It's a slap in the face when you see kids taking a test 740 01:05:30,844 --> 01:05:33,097 and they're just breezing through it. 741 01:05:33,180 --> 01:05:35,599 And for you it just kinda goes. 742 01:05:36,683 --> 01:05:38,185 Every day I see 743 01:05:39,269 --> 01:05:42,481 how I'm not as good as you and everyone else. 744 01:05:44,358 --> 01:05:46,693 But that doesn't mean I give up. 745 01:05:52,241 --> 01:05:53,659 Hey. 746 01:06:35,909 --> 01:06:38,162 Cerberus, the guardian. 747 01:06:53,719 --> 01:06:55,304 How do you feel? 748 01:06:57,890 --> 01:07:00,058 More than I want you in or out of some school, 749 01:07:00,142 --> 01:07:03,687 I want to know how you feel when you go to bed at night. 750 01:07:06,106 --> 01:07:07,482 Real scared. 751 01:07:09,818 --> 01:07:11,778 I know I believe in you. 752 01:07:14,239 --> 01:07:16,742 If I was going through fucking hell, 753 01:07:17,034 --> 01:07:20,454 I'd only want one person in the goddamn world with me. 754 01:07:40,015 --> 01:07:41,475 There's a man 755 01:07:43,143 --> 01:07:45,020 Ian never got to know. 756 01:07:47,981 --> 01:07:49,316 The man 757 01:07:50,067 --> 01:07:52,027 he was growing up to be. 758 01:07:56,365 --> 01:07:59,284 He's a good-looking, clear-eyed young fella, 759 01:07:59,993 --> 01:08:01,286 about 25. 760 01:08:04,539 --> 01:08:06,041 I can see him. 761 01:08:09,670 --> 01:08:12,506 He's the type of guy men want to be around. 762 01:08:13,548 --> 01:08:16,009 Because he has integrity, you know? 763 01:08:18,053 --> 01:08:19,680 He has character. 764 01:08:20,681 --> 01:08:22,432 You can't fake that. 765 01:08:25,936 --> 01:08:28,855 And he's a guy women want to be around, too. 766 01:08:32,651 --> 01:08:34,903 Because there's tenderness in him. 767 01:08:36,196 --> 01:08:37,364 Respect. 768 01:08:38,657 --> 01:08:39,992 Loyalty. 769 01:08:40,534 --> 01:08:41,868 Courage. 770 01:08:44,788 --> 01:08:46,832 And women respond to that. 771 01:08:49,960 --> 01:08:52,170 Makes him a terrific husband. 772 01:08:54,298 --> 01:08:56,174 I see him as a father. 773 01:08:58,218 --> 01:09:00,470 That's where he really shines. 774 01:09:05,058 --> 01:09:08,520 See, when he looks in his kid's eyes, 775 01:09:11,398 --> 01:09:14,401 and the kid knows that his dad really sees him, 776 01:09:15,569 --> 01:09:17,237 he sees who he is. 777 01:09:18,989 --> 01:09:23,160 Then that child knows that he is an amazing person. 778 01:09:25,787 --> 01:09:27,414 He's quite a guy 779 01:09:28,498 --> 01:09:30,625 that I'll never get to meet. 780 01:09:33,920 --> 01:09:35,422 I wish I had. 781 01:09:40,177 --> 01:09:41,595 Let's do it. 782 01:09:45,098 --> 01:09:47,726 Come on, she could be in there! 783 01:10:04,576 --> 01:10:05,952 No! 784 01:10:07,162 --> 01:10:08,747 No! 785 01:10:09,456 --> 01:10:11,750 Don't! Don't! 786 01:10:12,501 --> 01:10:14,002 Don't do this! 787 01:10:14,252 --> 01:10:16,546 Your mother's not in there, Ian! 788 01:10:23,720 --> 01:10:25,972 Your mom is not in there, son. 789 01:10:42,197 --> 01:10:45,367 There's not another man I'd go through hell with. 790 01:10:48,370 --> 01:10:50,497 Elevator to hell. Going up. 791 01:10:52,874 --> 01:10:53,959 Come on. 792 01:10:54,042 --> 01:10:56,002 So long. Wish us luck. 793 01:10:57,337 --> 01:10:58,422 I'm going with you. 794 01:10:58,505 --> 01:11:00,424 I'm not giving you a choice. 795 01:11:00,507 --> 01:11:02,592 What are you saying? 796 01:11:03,176 --> 01:11:05,512 Since you suspected Albert was your son, 797 01:11:05,595 --> 01:11:08,098 you lost your wife's signal. 798 01:11:08,181 --> 01:11:09,349 I'll concentrate harder! 799 01:11:09,433 --> 01:11:12,310 You don't know how. You're all mouth and no chops! 800 01:11:12,394 --> 01:11:14,938 All you're good for is she loves you. 801 01:11:15,188 --> 01:11:17,566 Your boy is a decisive distraction. 802 01:11:17,649 --> 01:11:18,692 Damn shrinks! 803 01:11:18,775 --> 01:11:20,152 You love shoving people around! 804 01:11:20,235 --> 01:11:22,696 We're going down to the bottom. His last chance. 805 01:11:22,779 --> 01:11:24,656 He's never been in such a place. 806 01:11:24,739 --> 01:11:28,827 You haven't. It's better watching one than two. 807 01:11:29,411 --> 01:11:30,537 You want him clear? 808 01:11:30,620 --> 01:11:33,081 Screw him, Ian. He doesn't know us. 809 01:11:33,165 --> 01:11:34,749 He's not family! 810 01:11:35,459 --> 01:11:37,419 No! I'm not leaving him. 811 01:11:42,090 --> 01:11:43,592 If he never sees her? 812 01:11:44,176 --> 01:11:45,927 Never says goodbye? 813 01:11:47,888 --> 01:11:50,307 We do it without him. We do it together. She's your mother. 814 01:11:50,390 --> 01:11:51,391 Let's go! 815 01:11:51,475 --> 01:11:53,351 Dad, no. Listen to me. 816 01:11:57,314 --> 01:12:00,025 When you get there, don't listen to him. 817 01:12:02,068 --> 01:12:03,445 You find her 818 01:12:04,738 --> 01:12:06,615 and you bring her back. 819 01:12:07,657 --> 01:12:09,159 You can do it. 820 01:12:11,036 --> 01:12:12,662 I believe in you. 821 01:12:24,174 --> 01:12:26,968 Do you ever think why I chose to be Albert? 822 01:12:27,427 --> 01:12:30,263 He was the only guy you ever listened to. 823 01:12:30,430 --> 01:12:32,098 Listen to me now! 824 01:12:32,641 --> 01:12:34,267 Think about Mom! 825 01:12:35,227 --> 01:12:37,854 Think about what happened when we died! 826 01:12:38,605 --> 01:12:41,858 Think about what you said to her to bring her back! 827 01:13:28,113 --> 01:13:30,073 Think about Mom. 828 01:13:34,202 --> 01:13:36,204 Think about when we died. 829 01:13:43,753 --> 01:13:46,256 I'm teaching myself to smoke. 830 01:13:48,425 --> 01:13:51,261 The doctors call it an affirmation of life. 831 01:13:56,224 --> 01:13:58,518 Well, it beats the statue thing. 832 01:14:02,814 --> 01:14:04,524 You said "divorce". 833 01:14:05,358 --> 01:14:07,152 You got my attention. 834 01:14:10,572 --> 01:14:12,866 I think that we're too different 835 01:14:14,492 --> 01:14:16,119 to stay together. 836 01:14:18,788 --> 01:14:20,040 I mean... 837 01:14:22,375 --> 01:14:25,253 Well, for one thing, why aren't you in here? 838 01:14:27,589 --> 01:14:29,549 Why didn't you go crazy? 839 01:14:31,885 --> 01:14:33,637 Your children died. 840 01:14:34,471 --> 01:14:35,847 I remember. 841 01:14:37,724 --> 01:14:40,226 I remember the silence in the house. 842 01:14:41,227 --> 01:14:43,813 I thought I was supposed to be strong. 843 01:14:47,567 --> 01:14:49,069 - For me? - For me. 844 01:14:49,861 --> 01:14:50,861 For us. 845 01:14:50,904 --> 01:14:53,031 Just on general principles. 846 01:14:54,699 --> 01:14:56,451 I loved them, Annie. 847 01:14:57,911 --> 01:14:59,579 But they're gone. 848 01:15:03,375 --> 01:15:05,126 You've got a choice. 849 01:15:05,335 --> 01:15:07,087 Life either goes on 850 01:15:09,547 --> 01:15:10,757 or not. 851 01:15:11,716 --> 01:15:13,468 And you choose life. 852 01:15:18,306 --> 01:15:21,101 Sometimes, when you win, you lose. 853 01:15:37,826 --> 01:15:40,161 This hasn't been a good day. 854 01:15:44,916 --> 01:15:47,502 C'mon. It's our private deck. 855 01:15:52,966 --> 01:15:56,594 I never took more than 30% from any clients. 856 01:15:57,011 --> 01:15:58,638 This must be it. 857 01:15:58,805 --> 01:16:01,808 Mister! I'm here! 858 01:16:01,891 --> 01:16:03,393 Incoming! 859 01:16:05,854 --> 01:16:08,273 Watch where you're stepping! 860 01:16:08,481 --> 01:16:10,108 Sorry! Excuse me! 861 01:16:14,863 --> 01:16:16,698 Anybody got a cure? 862 01:16:16,781 --> 01:16:18,032 No, man! 863 01:16:18,158 --> 01:16:19,492 Excuse me. 864 01:16:24,330 --> 01:16:25,540 Sorry. 865 01:16:25,665 --> 01:16:27,500 Welcome. Welcome, son. 866 01:16:28,585 --> 01:16:29,753 Papa? 867 01:16:29,919 --> 01:16:31,004 Son. 868 01:16:31,337 --> 01:16:32,422 Papa? 869 01:16:32,505 --> 01:16:35,675 You're close. Welcome. 870 01:16:36,885 --> 01:16:37,927 No. 871 01:16:38,011 --> 01:16:39,304 Welcome, welcome. 872 01:16:39,387 --> 01:16:42,307 You're not my dad, sorry. 873 01:16:42,390 --> 01:16:45,685 It's all right. They never come. 874 01:16:46,436 --> 01:16:49,147 Don't worry. It's only a matter of time. 875 01:17:03,328 --> 01:17:05,830 You don't think it looks like a dog? 876 01:17:05,914 --> 01:17:07,957 Sure. You always take the easy ones. 877 01:17:08,041 --> 01:17:11,920 That one looks like a 24-piece dining set. 878 01:17:12,212 --> 01:17:13,922 With a soup tureen. 879 01:17:14,005 --> 01:17:15,965 Yeah. Or a bunny rabbit. 880 01:17:17,217 --> 01:17:19,385 A very complex bunny rabbit. 881 01:17:21,179 --> 01:17:23,056 Or a Rubenesque breast. 882 01:17:24,891 --> 01:17:26,976 You always think they're breasts. 883 01:17:27,060 --> 01:17:29,103 All kinds of breasts. 884 01:17:29,187 --> 01:17:31,481 I love them. Yours. 885 01:17:32,774 --> 01:17:35,151 Oh, we'll be late for the dance! 886 01:17:35,401 --> 01:17:37,028 What's the rush? 887 01:17:39,322 --> 01:17:41,324 I know what you're doing. 888 01:17:42,909 --> 01:17:44,828 This is all just a stall. 889 01:17:44,911 --> 01:17:47,080 I know why you don't wanna go. 890 01:17:47,580 --> 01:17:48,790 Busted. 891 01:17:49,916 --> 01:17:52,293 Why don't you dance just once? 892 01:17:53,920 --> 01:17:56,464 Other husbands are as clumsy. 893 01:17:56,548 --> 01:17:58,049 Oh, thank you. 894 01:18:02,595 --> 01:18:04,264 It's just that when everybody's dancing 895 01:18:04,347 --> 01:18:07,100 I feel like I'm alone 896 01:18:08,101 --> 01:18:09,894 in a sea of faces. 897 01:18:11,437 --> 01:18:12,981 Annie. 898 01:18:57,483 --> 01:18:58,860 Angel Falls. 899 01:19:02,780 --> 01:19:04,991 It's a little expensive, yeah. 900 01:19:05,742 --> 01:19:07,869 But it's our first Double D. 901 01:19:08,036 --> 01:19:10,163 Shouldn't it be incredible? 902 01:19:13,207 --> 01:19:15,543 I've never seen anything like it. 903 01:19:15,877 --> 01:19:17,420 That's my role. 904 01:19:18,671 --> 01:19:20,965 To bring adventure to your life. 905 01:19:25,553 --> 01:19:27,347 You taught me 906 01:19:28,389 --> 01:19:32,060 the one thing, the only thing I should always remember. 907 01:19:34,020 --> 01:19:35,271 Which is? 908 01:19:37,982 --> 01:19:39,233 I forgot. 909 01:19:45,740 --> 01:19:47,867 Oh, yeah, oh, yeah, oh, yeah... 910 01:19:49,452 --> 01:19:51,329 It was, never give up. 911 01:19:54,540 --> 01:19:56,042 Never give up. 912 01:20:00,296 --> 01:20:01,464 Never. 913 01:20:09,889 --> 01:20:11,641 She's here. 914 01:20:14,060 --> 01:20:15,561 You found her. 915 01:20:16,062 --> 01:20:18,064 Impressive. 916 01:20:18,481 --> 01:20:21,234 That jolt of fear for her. It connected. 917 01:20:21,901 --> 01:20:24,237 My God, is that our house? 918 01:20:45,883 --> 01:20:47,218 It's like our home. 919 01:20:47,301 --> 01:20:49,345 Don't think that. 920 01:20:49,679 --> 01:20:51,305 It's an illusion. 921 01:20:51,723 --> 01:20:54,142 The whole place. Her illusion. 922 01:20:55,268 --> 01:20:57,353 Suicides can get tortured, 923 01:20:57,437 --> 01:20:59,689 committed to punishing themselves. 924 01:20:59,772 --> 01:21:01,774 Don't push her that way. 925 01:21:01,858 --> 01:21:03,609 You want to see her. 926 01:21:04,152 --> 01:21:06,362 Tell her what's in your heart. 927 01:21:06,612 --> 01:21:08,031 And then go. 928 01:21:08,489 --> 01:21:09,574 No pressure. 929 01:21:09,657 --> 01:21:11,284 Wait! Wait! Wait. 930 01:21:12,035 --> 01:21:13,911 I knew you'd find her. 931 01:21:13,995 --> 01:21:16,456 You're a competitor with a big ego. 932 01:21:16,831 --> 01:21:19,542 How do you know the first thing about me? 933 01:21:19,917 --> 01:21:21,794 You called your son Albert. 934 01:21:21,878 --> 01:21:23,296 Who is that? 935 01:21:23,921 --> 01:21:26,132 First doctor I interned under. 936 01:21:28,301 --> 01:21:30,303 He was like a father to me. 937 01:21:30,386 --> 01:21:32,972 His words were gold. A brilliant mind. 938 01:21:33,681 --> 01:21:36,893 What did he practice before turning to pediatrics? 939 01:21:39,937 --> 01:21:42,023 - Child psychia... - Psychiatry. 940 01:21:44,317 --> 01:21:47,236 And he was always a slow reader. 941 01:21:49,489 --> 01:21:52,658 But these used to be rimless. 942 01:21:54,410 --> 01:21:56,079 And the rest of me 943 01:21:57,330 --> 01:21:58,998 used to be black. 944 01:22:10,426 --> 01:22:14,013 You know why we chose to look different? Me, the children? 945 01:22:15,014 --> 01:22:17,266 Package doesn't count? One's as good as... 946 01:22:17,350 --> 01:22:19,936 No. The old roles of authority. 947 01:22:20,019 --> 01:22:22,438 Who's the teacher, who's the father 948 01:22:22,522 --> 01:22:25,900 gets in the way of who we really are, to each other. 949 01:22:28,528 --> 01:22:32,031 I've waited for years for a chance to watch out for you. 950 01:22:33,282 --> 01:22:35,618 And I'm watching out for you now. 951 01:22:36,035 --> 01:22:39,413 But this isn't like the rest of hell. 952 01:22:39,497 --> 01:22:43,543 You've got no defense against Annie. 953 01:22:44,043 --> 01:22:48,047 If losing yourself or being swallowed by hell itself 954 01:22:48,131 --> 01:22:52,593 could save her, I'd be there cheering you on. 955 01:22:54,595 --> 01:22:57,014 You've got your children back now. 956 01:22:57,723 --> 01:22:59,225 They need you. 957 01:23:00,351 --> 01:23:03,646 Three minutes. Any more, you could lose your mind. 958 01:23:05,064 --> 01:23:07,108 How can you lose your mind? 959 01:23:07,191 --> 01:23:09,902 Once her reality becomes yours, 960 01:23:10,403 --> 01:23:12,488 there's really no way back. 961 01:23:29,422 --> 01:23:31,382 Think about Mom. 962 01:23:33,092 --> 01:23:35,469 What you said to bring her back. 963 01:23:48,524 --> 01:23:49,650 Hello? 964 01:23:50,902 --> 01:23:52,570 Your door is open. 965 01:24:25,811 --> 01:24:29,232 Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you. 966 01:24:32,360 --> 01:24:34,362 Who are you? 967 01:24:35,488 --> 01:24:37,198 I'm your neighbor. 968 01:24:37,990 --> 01:24:40,826 I bought the Gormans' place two months ago. 969 01:24:41,160 --> 01:24:42,745 I just moved in. 970 01:24:43,663 --> 01:24:46,165 I never heard they sold their place. 971 01:24:47,875 --> 01:24:50,044 You're Annie Nielsen, right? 972 01:24:51,545 --> 01:24:53,756 They told me a lot about you. 973 01:24:54,257 --> 01:24:56,259 Like what? What did they say? 974 01:24:56,342 --> 01:24:58,803 That you're a very talented artist, 975 01:24:59,220 --> 01:25:01,597 and work for a museum, right? 976 01:25:02,556 --> 01:25:04,308 And you're a widow. 977 01:25:05,059 --> 01:25:07,561 Mrs. Gorman admires your roses 978 01:25:09,188 --> 01:25:10,523 very much. 979 01:25:12,441 --> 01:25:14,318 They were so handsome. 980 01:25:16,529 --> 01:25:19,949 But now there's no water pressure in the neighborhood. 981 01:25:21,117 --> 01:25:24,662 There's no electricity and no gas. 982 01:25:27,373 --> 01:25:29,875 There are other things missing, too. 983 01:25:29,959 --> 01:25:32,878 Like clean clothes and books I want to read. 984 01:25:32,962 --> 01:25:34,338 And, um, 985 01:25:34,922 --> 01:25:39,510 some of my favorite paintings I have to work on. 986 01:25:45,641 --> 01:25:47,226 What is it? 987 01:25:47,310 --> 01:25:49,478 They're everywhere now! 988 01:25:51,355 --> 01:25:52,606 I got it! 989 01:25:56,235 --> 01:25:57,570 It's gone. 990 01:26:04,410 --> 01:26:05,745 Thank you. 991 01:26:08,080 --> 01:26:09,498 You're welcome. 992 01:26:09,582 --> 01:26:12,001 You say your paintings are missing. 993 01:26:12,460 --> 01:26:15,713 Some of my most precious panels. 994 01:26:15,796 --> 01:26:17,757 The ones that remind me. 995 01:26:26,766 --> 01:26:29,477 Remind me of my husband and my children. 996 01:26:30,353 --> 01:26:32,521 That's why I never leave. 997 01:26:34,273 --> 01:26:36,317 Because they might return? 998 01:26:39,070 --> 01:26:41,530 I hope that's true with all my heart. 999 01:26:41,614 --> 01:26:43,366 It's not, you know. 1000 01:26:44,742 --> 01:26:47,453 When you're dead, you disappear. 1001 01:26:51,290 --> 01:26:55,044 My wife committed suicide after our children died. 1002 01:26:55,920 --> 01:26:57,254 After I... 1003 01:26:59,006 --> 01:27:01,217 She was the loveliest person. 1004 01:27:02,843 --> 01:27:04,970 Don't you think that's sad? 1005 01:27:05,471 --> 01:27:06,889 Don't you have to leave? 1006 01:27:06,972 --> 01:27:08,891 No. But if you want me to go... 1007 01:27:08,974 --> 01:27:10,476 - I do. - All right. 1008 01:27:12,728 --> 01:27:16,273 The last day I saw my wife it was our anniversary. 1009 01:27:16,357 --> 01:27:17,733 Aren't you leaving? 1010 01:27:17,817 --> 01:27:18,859 In a minute. 1011 01:27:18,943 --> 01:27:22,405 I was sticking around in case there was another problem. 1012 01:27:22,530 --> 01:27:24,824 It wasn't a wedding anniversary. 1013 01:27:25,116 --> 01:27:27,660 It was a very special kind of day 1014 01:27:30,996 --> 01:27:32,957 no one else knows about. 1015 01:27:48,848 --> 01:27:50,683 I need to talk to you. 1016 01:27:52,017 --> 01:27:54,186 And you don't have to respond. 1017 01:28:01,360 --> 01:28:03,320 This is a one-way ticket 1018 01:28:04,238 --> 01:28:05,448 for me. 1019 01:28:07,658 --> 01:28:10,453 My hanging around here is not helping you. 1020 01:28:10,703 --> 01:28:12,496 And it's killing me. 1021 01:28:13,205 --> 01:28:16,000 Today is kind of a D-Day. 1022 01:28:17,626 --> 01:28:20,045 "D" for decision, I guess. 1023 01:28:23,883 --> 01:28:25,384 About divorce. 1024 01:28:27,553 --> 01:28:29,763 That'd be two D's, wouldn't it? 1025 01:28:35,561 --> 01:28:37,229 I stand corrected. 1026 01:28:43,235 --> 01:28:46,822 Look what happens when you don't say anything for a month. 1027 01:28:49,408 --> 01:28:50,910 Cindy called. 1028 01:28:51,410 --> 01:28:54,038 She said everything is waiting for you. 1029 01:28:55,623 --> 01:28:59,668 The artists and curators will see you when you're better. 1030 01:29:02,254 --> 01:29:03,756 And I told her 1031 01:29:04,590 --> 01:29:07,927 it was the museum and one of those meetings 1032 01:29:09,929 --> 01:29:12,431 that kept you from driving that day. 1033 01:29:15,476 --> 01:29:18,687 And if you went back, it'd mean you weren't sorry, 1034 01:29:19,271 --> 01:29:23,150 you weren't wrong and you'd be betraying your children. 1035 01:29:24,610 --> 01:29:28,197 She called you crazy, and I called her a soulless bitch! 1036 01:29:28,280 --> 01:29:29,698 And I hung up! 1037 01:29:29,782 --> 01:29:31,784 That didn't go very well! 1038 01:29:37,164 --> 01:29:39,500 What's true in our minds is true. 1039 01:29:40,876 --> 01:29:43,295 Whether some people know it or not. 1040 01:29:45,214 --> 01:29:48,300 That's when I realized I'm part of the problem. 1041 01:29:49,760 --> 01:29:51,762 Not because I remind you. 1042 01:29:53,764 --> 01:29:56,100 But, because I couldn't join you. 1043 01:29:57,601 --> 01:29:59,353 So I left you alone. 1044 01:30:07,444 --> 01:30:09,196 Don't give up, okay? 1045 01:30:21,834 --> 01:30:22,918 Okay. 1046 01:30:24,461 --> 01:30:25,546 Okay. 1047 01:30:27,339 --> 01:30:28,674 It's okay. 1048 01:30:46,609 --> 01:30:48,027 So you reconciled? 1049 01:30:51,614 --> 01:30:53,407 That's very romantic. 1050 01:30:55,951 --> 01:30:57,953 She still killed herself. 1051 01:30:59,580 --> 01:31:00,998 In the end, she gave up. 1052 01:31:01,165 --> 01:31:02,458 There's nothing wrong with it. 1053 01:31:02,541 --> 01:31:03,792 Her husband thought so. 1054 01:31:03,876 --> 01:31:05,461 He was a coward! 1055 01:31:06,295 --> 01:31:08,505 Being strong, not giving up, 1056 01:31:09,381 --> 01:31:11,467 that was his place to hide. 1057 01:31:12,551 --> 01:31:14,887 He pushed away the pain so hard, 1058 01:31:15,137 --> 01:31:18,724 he disconnected himself from the person he loved the most. 1059 01:31:22,102 --> 01:31:24,521 Sometimes, when you win, you lose. 1060 01:31:33,197 --> 01:31:34,907 When he saw his children again... 1061 01:31:35,240 --> 01:31:37,618 I thought your children were dead. 1062 01:31:39,745 --> 01:31:41,372 You can see the dead. 1063 01:31:41,497 --> 01:31:43,999 In your dreams. If you want to. 1064 01:31:48,337 --> 01:31:50,089 I wanna see Christy. 1065 01:31:52,424 --> 01:31:53,967 I can show you. 1066 01:31:54,051 --> 01:31:55,552 It's not hard. 1067 01:31:56,220 --> 01:31:57,513 All you have to do... 1068 01:31:57,596 --> 01:31:59,348 It's like painting a picture. 1069 01:31:59,431 --> 01:32:01,100 We do it together. 1070 01:32:02,267 --> 01:32:04,103 Just close your eyes. 1071 01:32:05,688 --> 01:32:07,690 Please don't be afraid. 1072 01:32:11,402 --> 01:32:13,737 Remember where you were married? 1073 01:32:20,786 --> 01:32:21,995 Christy! 1074 01:32:22,788 --> 01:32:24,123 Christy... 1075 01:32:26,166 --> 01:32:29,169 Who else would you be marrying in your dreams? 1076 01:32:31,547 --> 01:32:33,215 I missed you so. 1077 01:32:36,051 --> 01:32:37,302 Annie... 1078 01:32:38,387 --> 01:32:39,847 This is real. 1079 01:32:43,308 --> 01:32:45,185 The man in the garden. 1080 01:32:49,398 --> 01:32:50,816 It's me. 1081 01:32:54,319 --> 01:32:55,487 No! 1082 01:32:55,738 --> 01:32:56,905 No! 1083 01:32:59,032 --> 01:33:00,951 Whoever you are, 1084 01:33:01,034 --> 01:33:03,787 did you think you could take him from me? 1085 01:33:18,719 --> 01:33:20,345 I'm sorry, babe. 1086 01:33:21,138 --> 01:33:22,765 There's some things I have to say. 1087 01:33:23,474 --> 01:33:25,267 I've only got a few moments left. 1088 01:33:28,979 --> 01:33:32,316 I'm sorry for all the things I'll never give you. 1089 01:33:33,066 --> 01:33:36,612 I'll never buy you another meatball sub with extra sauce. 1090 01:33:37,404 --> 01:33:39,323 That was a big one. 1091 01:33:41,158 --> 01:33:43,202 I'll never make you smile. 1092 01:33:46,038 --> 01:33:48,540 I just wanted us to be old together. 1093 01:33:49,625 --> 01:33:53,545 Two old farts laughing at each other as our bodies fell apart. 1094 01:33:54,588 --> 01:33:56,381 Together at the end. 1095 01:33:56,548 --> 01:33:58,717 By that lake in your painting. 1096 01:33:59,760 --> 01:34:01,762 That was our heaven, see? 1097 01:34:03,347 --> 01:34:05,557 There's lots of things to miss. 1098 01:34:07,184 --> 01:34:09,394 Books, naps, 1099 01:34:10,479 --> 01:34:14,149 kisses... and fights. 1100 01:34:15,067 --> 01:34:17,361 Oh, God, we had some great ones! 1101 01:34:18,570 --> 01:34:20,405 Thank you for those. 1102 01:34:22,741 --> 01:34:24,910 Thank you for every kindness. 1103 01:34:27,329 --> 01:34:29,414 Thank you for our children. 1104 01:34:30,207 --> 01:34:32,417 For the first time I saw them. 1105 01:34:34,169 --> 01:34:37,756 Thank you for being someone I was always proud to be with. 1106 01:34:40,884 --> 01:34:42,386 For your guts, 1107 01:34:43,053 --> 01:34:44,763 for your sweetness. 1108 01:34:45,764 --> 01:34:49,101 For how you always looked, for how I always wanted to touch you. 1109 01:34:52,062 --> 01:34:53,939 God, you were my life. 1110 01:34:56,942 --> 01:34:59,653 I apologize for every time I failed you. 1111 01:35:01,238 --> 01:35:02,990 Especially this one. 1112 01:35:26,221 --> 01:35:28,432 Didn't you think I'd make it? 1113 01:35:28,932 --> 01:35:30,601 You were in there a while. 1114 01:35:30,934 --> 01:35:33,186 Took me a while to realize you were right. 1115 01:35:34,104 --> 01:35:36,481 Nothing you can do could help her. 1116 01:35:37,399 --> 01:35:39,276 This trip was for you. 1117 01:35:42,613 --> 01:35:43,614 Did you come close... 1118 01:35:43,697 --> 01:35:45,282 To losing it? 1119 01:35:45,699 --> 01:35:46,992 Oh, yeah. 1120 01:35:47,993 --> 01:35:50,162 Pushed it right to the edge. 1121 01:35:51,830 --> 01:35:53,832 That's why I had to come out now. 1122 01:35:53,999 --> 01:35:55,751 I'm giving up. 1123 01:35:59,129 --> 01:36:01,006 Not the way you think. 1124 01:36:05,552 --> 01:36:06,970 Go home, Al. 1125 01:36:08,513 --> 01:36:11,141 Will you tell my children I love them? 1126 01:36:12,893 --> 01:36:15,145 And I won't leave their mother. 1127 01:36:20,025 --> 01:36:21,234 Thanks. 1128 01:36:28,742 --> 01:36:30,535 Where are we headed? 1129 01:36:32,287 --> 01:36:34,498 In one minute I won't know you 1130 01:36:34,790 --> 01:36:37,042 any better than you'll know me. 1131 01:36:39,086 --> 01:36:40,963 But we'll be together. 1132 01:36:42,214 --> 01:36:43,840 Where we belong. 1133 01:36:45,926 --> 01:36:47,511 Good people go to hell 1134 01:36:47,594 --> 01:36:50,222 because they can't forgive themselves. 1135 01:36:51,056 --> 01:36:52,557 I know I can't. 1136 01:36:53,725 --> 01:36:55,560 But I can forgive you. 1137 01:36:56,853 --> 01:36:58,814 For killing my children? 1138 01:37:00,482 --> 01:37:02,275 And my sweet husband? 1139 01:37:03,860 --> 01:37:04,903 No. 1140 01:37:06,071 --> 01:37:09,408 For being so wonderful, a guy would choose hell over heaven, 1141 01:37:09,533 --> 01:37:11,493 just to hang around you. 1142 01:37:17,541 --> 01:37:19,626 Not because I remind you, 1143 01:37:20,752 --> 01:37:23,046 but because I couldn't join you. 1144 01:37:24,339 --> 01:37:26,258 Sorry I left you alone. 1145 01:37:29,052 --> 01:37:30,804 Don't give up, okay? 1146 01:37:51,158 --> 01:37:52,409 Christy? 1147 01:37:58,415 --> 01:37:59,666 Christy. 1148 01:38:04,046 --> 01:38:06,173 What happened to this place? 1149 01:38:09,801 --> 01:38:11,136 It's cold. 1150 01:38:24,649 --> 01:38:25,859 Christy? 1151 01:38:26,777 --> 01:38:29,446 God, no! No, no, no, no! 1152 01:38:29,529 --> 01:38:32,282 Don't give up! Don't give up! Christy! 1153 01:38:32,365 --> 01:38:35,368 Don't give up! Don't, don't give up! 1154 01:38:35,660 --> 01:38:36,912 Christy! 1155 01:38:40,957 --> 01:38:43,335 Christy, don't give up... 1156 01:39:05,357 --> 01:39:06,608 Christy. 1157 01:39:43,270 --> 01:39:44,354 Hey! 1158 01:39:47,482 --> 01:39:48,900 Remember me? 1159 01:39:59,870 --> 01:40:01,830 Sometimes, when you lose, 1160 01:40:03,081 --> 01:40:04,291 you win. 1161 01:40:59,471 --> 01:41:01,264 How did we get here? 1162 01:41:05,268 --> 01:41:07,771 Travel here is like everything else. 1163 01:41:08,980 --> 01:41:10,649 It's in your mind. 1164 01:41:12,609 --> 01:41:14,945 You only have to close your eyes. 1165 01:41:16,321 --> 01:41:18,657 If you know where you're going... 1166 01:41:20,325 --> 01:41:22,118 Looks like we did. 1167 01:41:24,663 --> 01:41:26,289 Where you were... 1168 01:41:28,333 --> 01:41:30,752 I tried everything. Nothing worked. 1169 01:41:32,504 --> 01:41:33,588 Until 1170 01:41:35,215 --> 01:41:37,092 you tried joining me. 1171 01:41:43,098 --> 01:41:45,517 What some folks call impossible... 1172 01:41:46,184 --> 01:41:48,520 is what they haven't seen before. 1173 01:42:31,521 --> 01:42:33,523 Excuse me, lady. 1174 01:42:35,567 --> 01:42:37,986 Ready for that surprise I promised? 1175 01:42:38,820 --> 01:42:39,904 Yeah. 1176 01:42:43,658 --> 01:42:45,618 That's not the surprise! 1177 01:42:46,328 --> 01:42:47,495 Mommy? 1178 01:43:36,878 --> 01:43:39,255 I want us to grow old together. 1179 01:43:39,339 --> 01:43:41,466 - Can we do that here? - Mmm-hmm. 1180 01:43:42,634 --> 01:43:44,135 I want it all. 1181 01:43:45,303 --> 01:43:47,305 As long as it's with you. 1182 01:43:47,722 --> 01:43:49,099 It will be. 1183 01:43:53,269 --> 01:43:55,313 But what about going back? 1184 01:43:56,523 --> 01:43:57,982 Being reborn? 1185 01:43:59,317 --> 01:44:01,986 That's the one thing we can't have here. 1186 01:44:02,987 --> 01:44:06,199 Finding each other all over again. 1187 01:44:07,033 --> 01:44:08,660 Falling in love. 1188 01:44:10,870 --> 01:44:12,789 Make different choices. 1189 01:44:18,044 --> 01:44:19,087 Try again. 1190 01:44:19,212 --> 01:44:20,338 Yeah. 1191 01:44:20,839 --> 01:44:22,632 Avoid sharp objects. 1192 01:44:25,885 --> 01:44:27,220 Don't worry about the kids. 1193 01:44:27,387 --> 01:44:28,972 They'll be here. 1194 01:44:29,055 --> 01:44:30,807 They want us to go. 1195 01:44:32,142 --> 01:44:34,727 A human life is just a heartbeat here. 1196 01:44:35,478 --> 01:44:36,855 And we'll all be together. 1197 01:44:36,938 --> 01:44:38,189 Forever. 1198 01:44:42,569 --> 01:44:44,362 How will I find you? 1199 01:44:45,071 --> 01:44:46,573 I found you in hell. 1200 01:44:46,656 --> 01:44:48,616 I'll find you in Jersey. 1201 01:45:52,096 --> 01:45:56,142 When I was young, I met this beautiful girl by a lake.