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<i>In college,
I was the hungover premed</i>

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<i>who fell asleep at her study carrel.</i>

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<i>If you're
just joining our podcast,</i>

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<i>my guests are doctors Teddy Altman</i>

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<i>and Winston Ndugu
from Grey-Sloan Memorial,</i>

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<i>who pioneered the creation
of a ventral aorta surgery.</i>

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<i>At what point did you think,
"We just broke new ground"?</i>

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<i>Immediately</i>.

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- <i>Really?
- Yeah. Once that staple held, I knew.</i>

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<i>Sometimes you just have a feeling.</i>

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<i>In med school,
I was the famous surgeon's daughter.</i>

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<i>It wasn't like that for you?</i>

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<i>Honestly,
there was so much going on that night,</i>

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<i>I didn't have time
to process it all until later.</i>

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<i>Now I'm the famous surgeon.</i>

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<i>- So you had doubts?
- Oh, yeah.</i>

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<i>I was never certain
it would work,</i>

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<i>but our patient
didn't have any other option.</i>

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<i>I knew that we had to try.</i>

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<i>In medicine, your identity
is constantly changing.</i>

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<i>It's your job to keep up.</i>

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<i>Safe to say it worked out.
What's next for you both?</i>

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<i>Well, we're still monitoring
our patients' progress.</i>

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- <i>And?
- So far so good.</i>

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They sound really good, very competent.

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Yeah. I'd come to this hospital.

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Well, speaking of...

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I made an appointment for you.

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We talked about this, Catherine.
I don't need another opinion.

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I like Dr. Freeman.

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I know you do because he goes
along with whatever you want.

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You don't think doctors
should listen to their patients?

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I think you need objective advice from
someone whose paycheck you don't sign.

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It's just another opinion.

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Who am I seeing?

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Kaplan.

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Laura Kaplan? In Boston?

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I thought you made an appointment here.

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I sent for my plane.

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She landed about an hour ago.

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Morning.

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- Hey.
- Hey.

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Hey, nice job on that podcast.

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I didn't realize you and Altman
came up with that at our wedding.

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Yeah, you never know
when an idea will strike.

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Go ahead, Dr. Adams.

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Uh, yes. Uh, Jo Wilson.

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Post-op day seven from emergency
C-section and Impella CP placement.

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Now post-op day three from a 5.5 placement

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through the right axillary artery.

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Her heart function continues to recover
with her EF up another five percent,

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and I heard she got
to meet her babies yesterday.

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- How are they doing?
- Um.

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Peyton's off of CPAP but still fragile.

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Hattie's bilirubin levels are bad
every time they pause phototherapy.

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And you're all headed
in the right direction.

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That's what matters.

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I just...

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really want the six of us
to finally be together.

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Jo, you will never guess

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who Marcus walked out with last night.

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- Dr. Ndugu.
- Hey.

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- I didn't know you were doing rounds.
- Yeah.

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I'll come back later.

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What was that?

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- What was what?
- Did you sleep with my favorite nurse?

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- Jo...
- Uh, should I leave?

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We've just gone out a couple times.
That's all.

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Well, are you gonna take her out again?

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Uh, just... Maybe. It's new.

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And none of our business.

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She is the entire department's
favorite nurse.

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Everybody loves her. Everyone.

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- Hormones.
- Okay.

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Uh, I-I need to check on my next patient.
Are you gonna be okay?

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- Yeah.
- Uh, page me if you need anything.

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Good morning.

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Traitor.

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- Trouble in paradise?
- I broke our pact.

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- She's bitter.
- Then you should break it too.

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What, I can just snap my fingers?
Who am I supposed to sleep with?

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I ordered an X-ray
for Ms. Johnson's left arm.

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It was the right arm, wasn't it?

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I will fix it.

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An intern? Please. I have dignity.

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- Don't knock it until you've tried it.
- Tried what?

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Vegan sloppy joes.

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You sleeping with an intern too?

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Wait. Who's sleeping with an intern?

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I am. Who are you texting?

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Nobody.

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- Doesn't look like nobody.
- Nah, she's just a patient.

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Why are you texting a patient?

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Well, Bailey made me
drive her an hour to get treatment,

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and now she's sending me dumb memes.

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- It's nothing.
- Wear a condom.

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She's a cancer patient.

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Hey. Did you see
that I admitted Mr. Howard?

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You don't have to put your phone down.

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- It's fine.
- Sorry.

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My phone has been blowing up
since the podcast dropped.

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I listened. You sounded great.

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Well, now I've got doctors
reaching out about their patients,

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and the department chief from Mass General
has asked me to do grand rounds.

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Hmm. Sounds rough.

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Well, it's not like I'm getting
a Nobel Prize.

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I mean, MGH asks
everyone to guest lecture.

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They never asked me,
and I went to Harvard.

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Anyway, so, Mr. Howard,
his EKG shows a conduction block.

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- Do you want an echo?
- Um, yes. Sorry, I have to take this.

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Hi, this is Altman.

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Hi, Janet, I'm, uh, Dr. Millin.
I hear you're having some leg pain.

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Yeah, and some heaviness.

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I'm concerned it might be a DVT.
I think she should have an ultrasound.

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I assume you want a full workup.
CBC, D-dimer, and a duplex ultrasound?

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I'm Jules Millin.

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I'm a second-year surgical resident.
You're internal medicine, right?

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Oh, no. Oh. I'm not a doctor.
Sorry. Yeah.

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- Oh, we were role-playing.
- Yeah.

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The more medical terms,
the better it gets.

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- Yeah.
- So, Hal does his homework.

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- So do you have leg pain or is this--
- Oh, no, that's real.

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The pain started this morning
when we were trying

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to squeeze in a quickie before work.

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- May I do an exam?
- Mm-hmm.

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Um, how long did the pain last for?

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- Uh, a few hours?
- Yeah.

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We've been trying
to spice things up lately,

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so we just wanna make sure we haven't,
uh, caused a problem.

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Oh, um...

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DVTs usually occur
with less, um, activity,

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but it is better to be safe than sorry,
so I will order some tests...

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- All right.
- ...and get back to you.

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- Okay. Thank you.
- Thank you.

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Dr. Griffith.

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A 38-year-old female
with a large mediastinal teratoma

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that has been resistant to chemotherapy.

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Presents with progressive
shortness of breath,

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orthopnea, and angina.

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It has to be at least 35 pounds.

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And, uh, 27 centimeters
for the longest diameter.

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The tumor is displacing
the heart and great vessels.

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The SVC is compressed, and it's also
indenting the right lobe of the liver.

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Hmm. How are the lungs?

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Compressed with near total collapse
of the mid-right and lower lobes.

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Has anyone tried to operate on the thing?

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Her name is London

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and, yes, there have been
two attempts at Seattle Pres.

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They had to abort both times
because she arrested on the table.

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But you believe you would have
a different outcome if you tried?

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Well, I have removed extremely difficult
tumors before, and this one is benign.

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So, if we can successfully remove it,
then she resumes a normal life.

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Even if you convinced anesthesia,

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you could still
encounter catastrophic bleeding.

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And that is why I'm here
at the tumor board,

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where people help their colleagues
to come up with a plan.

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If anyone here thinks this remotely
is a possibility, please speak up.

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Yes.

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It's a tragic case, Dr. Bailey, but...

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It's a lawsuit waiting to happen.

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I'll do it with you.

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- The alternative is hospice, right?
- Mm-hmm.

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Dr. Hunt, it just can't be done.

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Yeah, well,
you don't know what we're capable of.

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- Bye.
- I knew you'd have an idea.

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Yeah, I got nothing.

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{\an8}Well, look who's here.

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{\an8}How was your flight?

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{\an8}- Most quiet I've had in months.
- Oh, great.

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{\an8}- Dr. Webber, it's a pleasure.
- Hi.

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{\an8}I've heard a lot about you.

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{\an8}All good things. Catherine's thrilled you
joined the team in Boston.

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{\an8}She's thrilled she poached me
from Sloan Kettering.

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{\an8}You are at the forefront of urologic
oncology, and that lecture that you gave

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{\an8}to the American Urological Association
last month brought the house down.

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{\an8}And she is developing a program
that uses AI to study biomarkers.

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We just received another grant
for it yesterday.

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You bet you did.

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Now, tell us about my husband's prostate.

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Catherine, please.

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- If now's not a good time--
- Don't be ridiculous.

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Come on, everybody. Sit down.

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Have a seat. Come on.

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{\an8}Good news is you caught it early.

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{\an8}Grade group two, a seven Gleason.

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{\an8}Well, he knows all of that.
So tell us, what do you suggest?

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{\an8}Well, given the cancer's localized,
and you're generally in good health,

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{\an8}I recommend a radical prostatectomy.

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{\an8}I couldn't agree more.

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{\an8}If you're worried about side effects,

191
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{\an8}urinary incontinence,
erectile dysfunction, they are a risk.

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{\an8}- But for many men--
- What about infection?

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It's unlikely but possible.

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Blood clots, stroke, injury to the rectum,
bladder, nerves?

195
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They're all possible too, right?

196
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{\an8}Yeah.

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{\an8}Thank you for your time,

198
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{\an8}but I've already selected
an option with my own doctor.

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{\an8}Watchful waiting.

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{\an8}I've got patients to see.

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{\an8}I'm not seeing abnormalities.

202
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{\an8}What's that wand called?

203
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{\an8}An ultrasound probe.

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- Write that down.
- Okay.

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All right, the ultrasound is negative.

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So, she doesn't have a clot?

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Not that I can see.

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Sounds like maybe
there still might be one?

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{\an8}Well, your D-dimer was slightly elevated,
which is the marker we look at for clots.

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{\an8}It doesn't necessarily mean anything,
but it is reason

211
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{\an8}to come back if you have any more pain.

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{\an8}Maybe I just need to stretch
before I go to the doctor.

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{\an8}- Mmm.
- Stretch?

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{\an8}Don't ask any questions.

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{\an8}I'm gonna start your,
um, discharge paperwork.

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{\an8}What's that all about?

217
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{\an8}They like to role-play
doctor and patient in bed.

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{\an8}Good for them.

219
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{\an8}But they're so cute.

220
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{\an8}Rustic cute?

221
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{\an8}Five reviews say
those rockers broke within a year.

222
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{\an8}How's the lake house?

223
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{\an8}We've moved from arguing over tile
to arguing over porch chairs.

224
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{\an8}How was the tumor board?

225
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{\an8}Uh, unfortunately,
they are concerned about the risks

226
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{\an8}and recommend that we don't proceed.

227
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{\an8}So naturally I called in reinforcements.
This is Dr. Owen Hunt.

228
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{\an8}- He's one of our trauma surgeons.
- Hi.

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If it's okay with you,
I'd like to work with Dr. Bailey

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to make sure that we've
explored every possible option.

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I want to help.

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I like him.

233
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{\an8}If everyone else has reservations,
why do you think you can do it?

234
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Charlie, we've actually found surgeons
that are not giving us a hard no.

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And I've almost lost you twice.

236
00:10:50,358 --> 00:10:53,944
I'm definitely not ready to lose you today
from some botched operation.

237
00:10:53,945 --> 00:10:58,031
- Neither are we.
- Hey, I'm still here.

238
00:10:58,032 --> 00:11:00,326
They're just asking
if they can go work on a plan.

239
00:11:00,952 --> 00:11:04,538
If their plan leads
to us growing old together,

240
00:11:04,539 --> 00:11:10,252
{\an8}looking at the water from shoddy
but very cute rocking chairs...

241
00:11:11,337 --> 00:11:14,299
...I'm in. Aren't you?

242
00:11:18,553 --> 00:11:20,679
{\an8}You really think you can
figure out a way to keep

243
00:11:20,680 --> 00:11:22,472
{\an8}her heart from stopping
when she's on that table?

244
00:11:22,473 --> 00:11:25,517
{\an8}Look, if we can't figure this out,
we won't proceed, right?

245
00:11:25,518 --> 00:11:27,812
{\an8}That was our deal when you two came to me.

246
00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:31,440
{\an8}Okay, work on your plan.

247
00:11:31,441 --> 00:11:33,400
{\an8}- Okay.
- We'll be back.

248
00:11:33,401 --> 00:11:34,694
{\an8}Okay.

249
00:11:41,492 --> 00:11:44,704
{\an8}Hi, my cuties.

250
00:11:46,706 --> 00:11:48,832
{\an8}They look bigger. Did they get bigger?

251
00:11:48,833 --> 00:11:51,877
{\an8}Hattie's put on a full ounce
in the last 24 hours,

252
00:11:51,878 --> 00:11:54,129
{\an8}- and Peyton isn't far behind.
- That's right.

253
00:11:54,130 --> 00:11:55,839
{\an8}Lincolns know how to bulk.

254
00:11:58,968 --> 00:12:00,802
{\an8}I gotta go to PT. Sure you're okay?

255
00:12:00,803 --> 00:12:02,387
{\an8}- Yeah.
- Okay. You sure?

256
00:12:02,388 --> 00:12:03,473
{\an8}Yeah.

257
00:12:04,807 --> 00:12:06,559
{\an8}- All right.
- Okay.

258
00:12:08,019 --> 00:12:09,103
{\an8}See you soon.

259
00:12:12,023 --> 00:12:13,650
{\an8}You're Peyton and Hattie's mom?

260
00:12:14,400 --> 00:12:16,486
{\an8}Mm-hmm.

261
00:12:18,321 --> 00:12:21,073
{\an8}Sorry, it's just that, um...

262
00:12:21,074 --> 00:12:24,369
{\an8}That's the first time that
somebody's called me their mom.

263
00:12:25,620 --> 00:12:26,621
{\an8}Here.

264
00:12:28,748 --> 00:12:30,833
{\an8}Oh, wait, that one's not clean.

265
00:12:32,210 --> 00:12:33,211
{\an8}- Here.
- Thanks.

266
00:12:33,878 --> 00:12:37,422
{\an8}I'm an OB-GYN, and I talk to my patients

267
00:12:37,423 --> 00:12:40,133
{\an8}all the time about
postpartum hormone drops,

268
00:12:40,134 --> 00:12:44,554
{\an8}but I had no idea it was
this intense and just random.

269
00:12:44,555 --> 00:12:47,140
{\an8}Yesterday, my boyfriend and I were
buying diapers.

270
00:12:47,141 --> 00:12:48,892
{\an8}For me, not the baby.

271
00:12:48,893 --> 00:12:53,397
{\an8}And the guy ringing me up said, "Will
that be all?" And I burst into tears.

272
00:12:53,398 --> 00:12:55,400
It's nice to know that I'm not alone.

273
00:12:57,902 --> 00:12:59,653
What?

274
00:12:59,654 --> 00:13:01,447
You're my first mom friend.

275
00:13:02,073 --> 00:13:04,741
{\an8}Oh. I'm honored.

276
00:13:04,742 --> 00:13:07,494
{\an8}Did you tear or... Can I ask you that?

277
00:13:07,495 --> 00:13:10,914
{\an8}Yeah, you can ask me anything,
but, um, no, I-I didn't tear.

278
00:13:10,915 --> 00:13:14,876
{\an8}I, uh... ...I had something called
a crash C-section.

279
00:13:14,877 --> 00:13:17,046
{\an8}Oh, tell me everything.

280
00:13:19,382 --> 00:13:20,549
{\an8}I'll be back.

281
00:13:20,550 --> 00:13:23,343
{\an8}Richard, what the hell are you doing?

282
00:13:23,344 --> 00:13:27,889
{\an8}- I'm about to check Mr. Tolli's wound VAC.
- You said you would hear Kaplan out.

283
00:13:27,890 --> 00:13:29,725
{\an8}I did.

284
00:13:29,726 --> 00:13:31,852
{\an8}Is this because you're worried
about the bedroom?

285
00:13:31,853 --> 00:13:34,939
{\an8}Because you know we'll figure that out.

286
00:13:36,899 --> 00:13:37,942
{\an8}Come on.

287
00:13:44,032 --> 00:13:47,743
{\an8}- I'm not having this conversation here.
- Is this because you prefer a male doctor?

288
00:13:47,744 --> 00:13:49,119
{\an8}Now that's insulting!

289
00:13:49,120 --> 00:13:50,787
{\an8}Well, I'm just trying to understand why

290
00:13:50,788 --> 00:13:54,207
{\an8}you would dismiss a top urologist
like she's an intern.

291
00:13:54,208 --> 00:13:56,251
{\an8}I moved mountains
to bring her here for you.

292
00:13:56,252 --> 00:13:57,920
{\an8}I didn't ask you to.

293
00:13:58,629 --> 00:14:00,672
{\an8}Now, my cancer hasn't metastasized.

294
00:14:00,673 --> 00:14:03,800
Watchful waiting
is a perfectly reasonable option.

295
00:14:03,801 --> 00:14:07,637
I respected your health care decisions
even when I didn't agree.

296
00:14:07,638 --> 00:14:10,016
I need you to do the same for me.

297
00:14:13,978 --> 00:14:16,605
{\an8}- Who was the surgeon at Seattle Pres?
- Collins.

298
00:14:16,606 --> 00:14:20,358
{\an8}Yeah, he actually did his residency here
a couple of years behind me.

299
00:14:20,359 --> 00:14:23,945
{\an8}When his chief wouldn't let him try again,
he sent London to me.

300
00:14:23,946 --> 00:14:26,198
{\an8}If she codes the minute
she lays on the table,

301
00:14:26,199 --> 00:14:27,908
{\an8}why didn't they try
a reverse Trendelenburg?

302
00:14:27,909 --> 00:14:30,619
{\an8}Keep her at an incline to take the
pressure off some of the cardiac vessels?

303
00:14:30,620 --> 00:14:33,413
Oh, look, they did.
Uh, but see how compressed they are?

304
00:14:33,414 --> 00:14:34,498
It wasn't enough.

305
00:14:34,499 --> 00:14:37,334
Okay, what about conscious sedation
instead of general anesthesia?

306
00:14:37,335 --> 00:14:39,544
She'd continue to breathe on her own,
which would help

307
00:14:39,545 --> 00:14:42,422
blood return back to the heart
and minimize airway collapse.

308
00:14:42,423 --> 00:14:44,841
I mean, it might help some.

309
00:14:44,842 --> 00:14:46,843
The tumor's matured
into its own ecosystem.

310
00:14:46,844 --> 00:14:48,428
You can see the calcifications,

311
00:14:48,429 --> 00:14:52,474
- fat, the cystic components.
- What?

312
00:14:52,475 --> 00:14:54,935
What if we drain it?
Shrink the mass before we go in?

313
00:14:54,936 --> 00:14:57,020
It's a good idea,
but the location is just too risky.

314
00:14:57,021 --> 00:14:59,773
We can't risk the contents
of the tumor spilling into the chest.

315
00:14:59,774 --> 00:15:01,358
- It would just regrow.
- Yeah.

316
00:15:01,359 --> 00:15:04,736
I gotta run to a consult in the pit,
but I will keep thinking on this.

317
00:15:04,737 --> 00:15:06,614
No promises though.

318
00:15:07,198 --> 00:15:11,618
Adams, Griffith, let's look up every case
report published on mediastinal teratomas.

319
00:15:11,619 --> 00:15:14,330
Research patterns,
cross-reference solutions, okay?

320
00:15:15,289 --> 00:15:17,290
We all just listened to a podcast
this morning

321
00:15:17,291 --> 00:15:19,167
about how our hospital
pulled off a miracle.

322
00:15:19,168 --> 00:15:21,170
Who's to say we can't do it again,
right? Go.

323
00:15:24,173 --> 00:15:26,425
We're gonna come up with something.

324
00:15:28,136 --> 00:15:29,719
- Hey.
- Hi.

325
00:15:29,720 --> 00:15:32,305
- Are you done with that tablet?
- Nope, get your own.

326
00:15:32,306 --> 00:15:35,725
Bailey and Hunt have
a massive mediastinal teratoma.

327
00:15:35,726 --> 00:15:37,936
If you sweet-talk Bailey,
you can get in on it with us.

328
00:15:37,937 --> 00:15:39,062
They're looking for ideas.

329
00:15:39,063 --> 00:15:40,731
I'm too swamped down here.

330
00:15:41,524 --> 00:15:44,109
Hey, I'm sorry about this morning.

331
00:15:44,110 --> 00:15:46,486
- Jo's crying about everything these days.
- It's fine.

332
00:15:46,487 --> 00:15:50,741
But she loves Iris,
so she'll be happy if you two are a thing.

333
00:15:57,874 --> 00:16:00,041
- Why are you acting weird?
- I'm not acting weird.

334
00:16:00,042 --> 00:16:02,043
Yeah, you are.

335
00:16:02,044 --> 00:16:04,379
- Help. Help my wife! Help.
- Hal?

336
00:16:04,380 --> 00:16:06,214
- Sir, you might wanna button that.
- Oh, my God. Janet.

337
00:16:09,510 --> 00:16:10,719
Okay.

338
00:16:10,720 --> 00:16:12,345
I'm getting weak pulses.

339
00:16:12,346 --> 00:16:15,473
Okay. Janet, look at me.
I'm going to care of you, okay?

340
00:16:15,474 --> 00:16:16,976
We need a gurney in here!

341
00:16:23,941 --> 00:16:26,067
The plane won't be ready
for another couple of hours.

342
00:16:26,068 --> 00:16:29,614
- Catherine said I could work in here.
- Not a problem.

343
00:16:32,408 --> 00:16:34,701
I owe you an apology.

344
00:16:34,702 --> 00:16:37,621
I was led to believe that you were
the one seeking a second opinion.

345
00:16:37,622 --> 00:16:38,831
You couldn't have known.

346
00:16:39,457 --> 00:16:41,042
I should have at least suspected.

347
00:16:41,626 --> 00:16:44,920
I think your wife broke contract laws
to ensure my employment at her hospital.

348
00:16:44,921 --> 00:16:46,254
Don't feel bad.

349
00:16:46,255 --> 00:16:49,300
You're not
the first to fall prey to her ways.

350
00:16:49,884 --> 00:16:52,219
I'm guessing I won't be the last.

351
00:16:52,220 --> 00:16:53,888
She does it 'cause she cares.

352
00:16:54,931 --> 00:16:56,723
That's what makes it infuriating.

353
00:17:01,229 --> 00:17:02,230
Feel free to say no.

354
00:17:03,314 --> 00:17:06,316
But I've got a patient with
a retroperitoneal tumor,

355
00:17:06,317 --> 00:17:11,030
and I would be remiss if I didn't ask Fox
Hospitals' Chief of Chiefs for a consult.

356
00:17:12,531 --> 00:17:14,242
No. Got a little time.

357
00:17:15,159 --> 00:17:19,454
How about we get a couple of pastries
to go with this coffee?

358
00:17:19,455 --> 00:17:21,457
Thank you. That would be great.

359
00:17:22,750 --> 00:17:25,335
"Twenty-two-pound teratoma in the abdomen.

360
00:17:25,336 --> 00:17:29,714
San Francisco, 2018."
They started with a CT-guided drainage.

361
00:17:29,715 --> 00:17:31,341
Yeah, but look at the picture of the CT.

362
00:17:31,342 --> 00:17:32,801
Nowhere near the heart.

363
00:17:32,802 --> 00:17:35,346
Another dead end.

364
00:17:36,472 --> 00:17:38,014
Another dumb meme from your patient?

365
00:17:38,015 --> 00:17:40,183
No, she's asking for movie recs.

366
00:17:40,184 --> 00:17:41,269
She's stuck at home.

367
00:17:41,978 --> 00:17:45,188
Not exactly
a doctor-patient conversation topic.

368
00:17:45,189 --> 00:17:47,899
She's Bailey's patient.
She has stage four gastric cancer.

369
00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:50,026
She can ask whatever she wants.

370
00:17:50,027 --> 00:17:51,528
I mean, shouldn't you
keep it professional?

371
00:17:51,529 --> 00:17:53,488
Look, you have no idea what
you're talking about.

372
00:17:53,489 --> 00:17:56,116
I'm just saying, you're young,
you're single. You...

373
00:17:56,117 --> 00:17:58,494
You look like you,
you might be leading her on.

374
00:17:59,912 --> 00:18:01,204
I'm her doctor.

375
00:18:01,205 --> 00:18:02,707
And she's a vulnerable patient.

376
00:18:03,541 --> 00:18:05,375
I don't...
I don't need this right now.

377
00:18:05,376 --> 00:18:07,711
- No, I'm just trying to look out for you.
- Yeah, try less.

378
00:18:10,172 --> 00:18:11,923
Hunt's asking for an update.

379
00:18:14,468 --> 00:18:16,303
- Okay, anything?
- Not yet.

380
00:18:20,891 --> 00:18:24,561
Why did you join this case
when everyone else dismissed it?

381
00:18:24,562 --> 00:18:27,814
It's like you said, it's benign.
Once it's out, she moves on with her life.

382
00:18:27,815 --> 00:18:30,443
There's no worry of mets or recurrence.

383
00:18:33,529 --> 00:18:37,157
Yeah... ...I might be feeling
a little uninspired lately.

384
00:18:37,158 --> 00:18:40,910
Uh-huh. Wouldn't have to do
with other people solving

385
00:18:40,911 --> 00:18:43,122
cases at weddings
and doing podcasts, would it?

386
00:18:45,333 --> 00:18:46,833
I see you at drop-off.

387
00:18:46,834 --> 00:18:49,085
I know everything's falling
on you right now.

388
00:18:49,086 --> 00:18:52,547
She's lecturing
and you're packing lunches.

389
00:18:52,548 --> 00:18:56,217
I'm happy to do it,
and she deserves all the attention.

390
00:18:56,218 --> 00:18:58,387
I just think this tumor was...

391
00:19:00,097 --> 00:19:01,181
I don't know.

392
00:19:01,182 --> 00:19:04,810
My patient cannot be the fix
to get you out of this slump.

393
00:19:05,811 --> 00:19:06,936
What do we got?

394
00:19:06,937 --> 00:19:09,939
Ten cases, at least half of
them considered inoperable.

395
00:19:09,940 --> 00:19:12,317
And none of the masses
are nearly the same size.

396
00:19:12,318 --> 00:19:14,569
There's one case that reported
a similar arrest in the OR,

397
00:19:14,570 --> 00:19:16,071
but the team never tried it again

398
00:19:16,072 --> 00:19:19,074
because they couldn't safely
find a way around the heart and lungs.

399
00:19:19,075 --> 00:19:21,660
Which is exactly what
happened with London.

400
00:19:21,661 --> 00:19:24,121
As difficult as this is for me to say...

401
00:19:25,456 --> 00:19:27,624
I think we're out of options.

402
00:19:27,625 --> 00:19:29,042
What about ECMO?

403
00:19:29,043 --> 00:19:30,126
What about it?

404
00:19:30,127 --> 00:19:33,755
We need to bypass the pulmonary system,
so why don't we use ECMO?

405
00:19:33,756 --> 00:19:37,133
The machine oxygenates and pumps the blood
so her heart and lungs don't have to.

406
00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:42,431
There is no arrest
if the machine is acting as her heart.

407
00:19:43,557 --> 00:19:46,936
Don't say no yet. I'm gonna go find Ndugu.

408
00:19:50,231 --> 00:19:51,564
Almost there, Janet.

409
00:19:51,565 --> 00:19:54,026
If this is a clot,
you can fix it, right?

410
00:19:55,152 --> 00:19:57,570
Blood clots are treatable
if you catch them in time,

411
00:19:57,571 --> 00:19:59,407
so it's a good thing you're here.

412
00:20:00,783 --> 00:20:02,117
Weird but good.

413
00:20:02,118 --> 00:20:05,203
I should probably be embarrassed,
but I'm proud of us.

414
00:20:05,204 --> 00:20:07,497
All my friends got bored of their spouses

415
00:20:07,498 --> 00:20:11,167
and filed for divorce,
but we got creative.

416
00:20:11,168 --> 00:20:13,379
By coming to the hospital and having sex.

417
00:20:14,588 --> 00:20:17,424
Don't be jealous. I'm sure other people
aren't getting any either.

418
00:20:17,425 --> 00:20:19,218
All right, let me see.

419
00:20:22,054 --> 00:20:24,973
Looks like there's
a left iliac vein thrombosis.

420
00:20:24,974 --> 00:20:26,266
Hal was right. DVT.

421
00:20:26,267 --> 00:20:30,103
If you look closely,
the iliac artery is compressing the vein.

422
00:20:30,104 --> 00:20:32,105
- May-Thurner syndrome.
- Mm-hmm.

423
00:20:32,106 --> 00:20:33,773
All right, let's book an angio suite

424
00:20:33,774 --> 00:20:37,402
for a thrombectomy and iliac vein stenting
and start practicing.

425
00:20:37,403 --> 00:20:39,739
I'm gonna supervise
you doing the procedure.

426
00:20:41,323 --> 00:20:42,908
- Me?
- She means me.

427
00:20:43,701 --> 00:20:47,037
I don't care who it is as long as
you guys are prepped and ready to go.

428
00:20:51,083 --> 00:20:52,542
You really think this will work?

429
00:20:52,543 --> 00:20:55,712
The challenge, right,
has always been the pressure

430
00:20:55,713 --> 00:20:58,131
that your tumor is putting on your heart,

431
00:20:58,132 --> 00:21:01,718
your lungs and major arteries
when you're positioned for surgery.

432
00:21:01,719 --> 00:21:03,428
And the ECMO machine makes that irrelevant

433
00:21:03,429 --> 00:21:05,597
because it oxygenates
and pumps your blood for you.

434
00:21:05,598 --> 00:21:08,516
So no matter what happens,
your body will receive oxygen

435
00:21:08,517 --> 00:21:10,894
and blood flow while we work.

436
00:21:10,895 --> 00:21:13,146
I can't believe you
actually figured it out.

437
00:21:13,147 --> 00:21:16,399
Have you done this before?
I mean, how common is this ECMO?

438
00:21:16,400 --> 00:21:19,486
Charlie, you said you were in
if they figured it out.

439
00:21:19,487 --> 00:21:20,945
How common is it?

440
00:21:20,946 --> 00:21:24,365
It's not common for this,
and it can be hard to wean off ECMO

441
00:21:24,366 --> 00:21:27,243
after removing something that's
compressed your lung for so long,

442
00:21:27,244 --> 00:21:28,578
but her heart is healthy.

443
00:21:28,579 --> 00:21:30,371
I don't anticipate that being a problem.

444
00:21:30,372 --> 00:21:32,750
But it could be a problem.

445
00:21:35,753 --> 00:21:37,379
You almost lost me twice.

446
00:21:38,297 --> 00:21:42,217
If we do nothing,
this thing just keeps growing inside me

447
00:21:42,218 --> 00:21:47,598
until it squashes all my organs
and I'm definitely gone.

448
00:21:48,516 --> 00:21:49,934
I don't wanna live like that.

449
00:21:51,685 --> 00:21:54,103
Slowly suffocating.

450
00:21:54,104 --> 00:21:57,942
I don't want you to have
to watch me live like that.

451
00:21:58,651 --> 00:22:02,112
We asked them to come up with a solution.

452
00:22:04,198 --> 00:22:05,615
I'm taking it.

453
00:22:05,616 --> 00:22:07,867
Okay, Dr. Griffith and Dr. Adams
will get you prepped.

454
00:22:07,868 --> 00:22:10,162
We will see you in the OR, okay?

455
00:22:15,125 --> 00:22:16,626
Is it weird that he's not blinking?

456
00:22:16,627 --> 00:22:19,003
Newborn tear ducts aren't fully developed.

457
00:22:19,004 --> 00:22:20,923
It's so cool that you know all this stuff.

458
00:22:22,007 --> 00:22:25,426
Is it bad if I'm not, like,
feeling anything?

459
00:22:25,427 --> 00:22:27,471
You mean you don't feel a bond?

460
00:22:28,806 --> 00:22:30,682
- I'm already a terrible mom.
- No.

461
00:22:30,683 --> 00:22:34,310
No, it's completely normal,
and you're exhausted,

462
00:22:34,311 --> 00:22:36,479
and your hormones are all over the place.

463
00:22:36,480 --> 00:22:39,190
And to be honest,
newborns are kinda just blobs.

464
00:22:39,191 --> 00:22:42,652
In a few weeks, he'll be
laughing and smiling, and it just...

465
00:22:42,653 --> 00:22:44,445
it gets so much better.

466
00:22:44,446 --> 00:22:45,990
You're a really good doctor.

467
00:22:47,032 --> 00:22:48,992
Are you taking new patients?

468
00:22:48,993 --> 00:22:50,702
- Well, it's--
- Hey.

469
00:22:50,703 --> 00:22:53,788
- How're my girls?
- Hey. Well, we made a new friend--

470
00:22:53,789 --> 00:22:57,041
- Whoa. Oh, my God.
- Oh. Oh. Someone call a rapid response!

471
00:22:57,042 --> 00:22:59,127
Right away, Doctor.

472
00:23:06,802 --> 00:23:08,053
She's still seizing.

473
00:23:09,471 --> 00:23:11,389
Someone give me IM midazolam.

474
00:23:11,390 --> 00:23:13,975
She's seven days postpartum.
Check her blood pressure.

475
00:23:13,976 --> 00:23:16,060
It's probably eclampsia.
She needs mag now.

476
00:23:16,061 --> 00:23:18,688
Did she have any symptoms
before she started seizing?

477
00:23:18,689 --> 00:23:21,107
No, she seemed completely fine.
It came out of nowhere.

478
00:23:21,108 --> 00:23:23,318
- We'll need to get her up to OB.
- Will you go up with her?

479
00:23:23,319 --> 00:23:24,445
Whatever you want.

480
00:23:25,195 --> 00:23:27,448
Call me when you get up there. Okay.

481
00:23:31,619 --> 00:23:32,870
Scissors.

482
00:23:34,038 --> 00:23:37,458
- Put two units of blood on standby.
- Lap pad.

483
00:23:39,418 --> 00:23:43,922
All right, I secured the cannula.
Adams, are we ready to remove the clamps?

484
00:23:43,923 --> 00:23:45,424
Yeah, ECMO's ready.

485
00:23:50,054 --> 00:23:52,764
Okay, let dark flow.

486
00:23:52,765 --> 00:23:53,932
We have full flow.

487
00:23:53,933 --> 00:23:56,059
Let's try lowering her down.

488
00:24:02,524 --> 00:24:05,109
- At least that worked.
- We're gonna make all of it work.

489
00:24:05,110 --> 00:24:07,445
Griffith, Adams, you may never
see another case like this again,

490
00:24:07,446 --> 00:24:08,821
so keep your eyes on the field.

491
00:24:08,822 --> 00:24:12,492
If you see any signs of
hemodynamic instability, speak up.

492
00:24:12,493 --> 00:24:15,912
This is not a race.
Our goal is not to finish fast.

493
00:24:15,913 --> 00:24:18,331
It is to keep her safe.

494
00:24:18,332 --> 00:24:19,791
- Understood?
- Mm-hmm.

495
00:24:19,792 --> 00:24:20,793
Okay.

496
00:24:21,835 --> 00:24:23,252
Okay, London.

497
00:24:23,253 --> 00:24:26,131
Let's intubate.

498
00:24:29,593 --> 00:24:32,095
It's a hormonally active adrenal mass,

499
00:24:32,096 --> 00:24:34,555
so you need to watch out
for sudden hypertension.

500
00:24:34,556 --> 00:24:36,391
- I'm planning to use alpha-blockers.
- Good.

501
00:24:36,392 --> 00:24:39,686
Well, I assume you're gonna do this open,
given the size?

502
00:24:39,687 --> 00:24:42,814
That's the plan.
My colleague will actually do it.

503
00:24:42,815 --> 00:24:45,274
I usually stick to robotic procedures.

504
00:24:45,275 --> 00:24:48,277
Oh. You got something
against the old-fashioned way?

505
00:24:48,278 --> 00:24:52,407
No, um... ...I have MS,

506
00:24:52,408 --> 00:24:56,327
so standing for long periods
in the OR just isn't an option.

507
00:24:56,328 --> 00:24:58,871
I didn't realize. I'm sorry.

508
00:24:58,872 --> 00:25:00,206
No need to be sorry.

509
00:25:00,207 --> 00:25:04,043
I mean, I was devastated
after I got the diagnosis.

510
00:25:04,044 --> 00:25:06,421
I had put in so much work my whole career,

511
00:25:06,422 --> 00:25:10,050
and the thought of no longer
being in the OR was soul-crushing...

512
00:25:10,759 --> 00:25:12,094
to say the least.

513
00:25:12,845 --> 00:25:15,514
But that's when I realized
it was just my fear talking.

514
00:25:16,598 --> 00:25:21,561
And I looked at my symptoms, muscle pain
and leg weakness, and I thought,

515
00:25:21,562 --> 00:25:23,771
"If only there was a way to operate

516
00:25:23,772 --> 00:25:27,985
while sitting down
without having to hold a scalpel."

517
00:25:29,486 --> 00:25:31,821
Was it a difficult adjustment?

518
00:25:31,822 --> 00:25:35,033
Adjusting to living with
a chronic illness is never easy.

519
00:25:35,034 --> 00:25:39,079
But over time,
I just turned MS into a pivot.

520
00:25:40,080 --> 00:25:41,165
Not an ending.

521
00:25:42,166 --> 00:25:44,834
Well, you seem to be managing well.

522
00:25:44,835 --> 00:25:48,421
Oh, well, I have my ups and downs,
believe me.

523
00:25:48,422 --> 00:25:52,175
But Catherine Fox is flying me
around on her private plane

524
00:25:52,176 --> 00:25:54,720
and paying me more money
than I know what to do with.

525
00:25:56,305 --> 00:25:57,973
And I still get to do what I love.

526
00:25:58,766 --> 00:26:00,809
Even if it is in a different way.

527
00:26:03,020 --> 00:26:06,981
Now they're gonna go ahead with
Bailey's giant teratoma in OR two.

528
00:26:06,982 --> 00:26:10,276
- Ndugu's gonna have to resect--
- Can we just focus, please?

529
00:26:10,277 --> 00:26:11,986
It's a fake patient. Calm down.

530
00:26:11,987 --> 00:26:13,821
Don't tell me to calm down.

531
00:26:13,822 --> 00:26:16,074
What is wrong with you?

532
00:26:16,075 --> 00:26:19,619
Is it about Simone
breaking that dumb pact?

533
00:26:19,620 --> 00:26:22,371
No, and stop asking. I'm fine.

534
00:26:22,372 --> 00:26:24,332
No, you don't seem fine.

535
00:26:24,333 --> 00:26:27,376
Well, it's because you are bothering me.

536
00:26:27,377 --> 00:26:29,837
Well, that can't be it.
I always bother you.

537
00:26:29,838 --> 00:26:30,964
I'm just...

538
00:26:32,549 --> 00:26:35,259
I'm just tired.

539
00:26:35,260 --> 00:26:36,594
Every day is the same.

540
00:26:36,595 --> 00:26:41,390
It's the same people and the same rooms
and the same conversations,

541
00:26:41,391 --> 00:26:44,018
and I'm just sick of it.

542
00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:46,646
Well, I am sorry
we are not good enough for you.

543
00:26:46,647 --> 00:26:48,022
I didn't say that.

544
00:26:48,023 --> 00:26:51,443
Yeah, you don't have to defend yourself.
We all know you're aloof.

545
00:27:00,077 --> 00:27:03,121
- You're leaving?
- Yeah, I've already done a thrombectomy.

546
00:27:03,122 --> 00:27:04,665
You can have it.

547
00:27:10,796 --> 00:27:12,630
What's happening? Who's the doctor?

548
00:27:12,631 --> 00:27:16,342
- Uh... John Burnett.
- An intern?

549
00:27:16,343 --> 00:27:18,302
- Let's get a CT.
- They're getting a CT.

550
00:27:18,303 --> 00:27:19,929
No, she has eclampsia.

551
00:27:19,930 --> 00:27:21,973
<i>Tell him she needs magnesium</i>.

552
00:27:21,974 --> 00:27:23,683
- Really?
- Tell him.

553
00:27:23,684 --> 00:27:25,560
I...

554
00:27:25,561 --> 00:27:27,979
Excuse me,
I've got Jo Wilson on the phone,

555
00:27:27,980 --> 00:27:30,398
and she says it's eclampsia,
and you should start her on magnesium.

556
00:27:30,399 --> 00:27:33,818
Her BP is only 143 over 91.
It could be an intracranial hemorrhage.

557
00:27:33,819 --> 00:27:36,029
- Put me on speaker.
- Um...

558
00:27:37,364 --> 00:27:39,448
Okay. You're on speaker.

559
00:27:39,449 --> 00:27:40,908
<i>I understand your concern,</i>

560
00:27:40,909 --> 00:27:44,620
but postpartum eclampsia doesn't always
present with a really high BP.

561
00:27:44,621 --> 00:27:46,122
Neither does a brain bleed.

562
00:27:46,123 --> 00:27:48,165
- Barnett.
- It's-- It's Burnett.

563
00:27:48,166 --> 00:27:49,834
<i>Whatever. I may be on leave,</i>

564
00:27:49,835 --> 00:27:52,587
<i>but that doesn't mean that I can't
schedule you to work every holiday</i>

565
00:27:52,588 --> 00:27:55,214
<i>and make your life miserable.
So trust me when I tell you</i>

566
00:27:55,215 --> 00:27:57,634
to start the mag now.

567
00:28:00,012 --> 00:28:01,388
Start IV magnesium.

568
00:28:07,686 --> 00:28:09,438
Your mom's gonna be okay.

569
00:28:11,565 --> 00:28:13,149
We're gonna have
to take part of the lower lobe.

570
00:28:13,150 --> 00:28:14,525
Adams, you wanna staple the lung?

571
00:28:14,526 --> 00:28:15,610
Yep. Stapler.

572
00:28:15,611 --> 00:28:17,987
Bailey, you ready to start
resecting the adhered diaphragm?

573
00:28:17,988 --> 00:28:19,655
Hey, ready when you are.

574
00:28:19,656 --> 00:28:22,241
Griffith,
what should we be careful to avoid?

575
00:28:22,242 --> 00:28:24,118
Hepatic veins and the retro-hepatic IVC.

576
00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:25,786
Good. Let's get the next stapler ready.

577
00:28:25,787 --> 00:28:30,166
London thought fixing
up a summer house was a lot of work.

578
00:28:30,167 --> 00:28:33,336
- It's got nothing on fixing up a torso.
- Reload, please.

579
00:28:35,213 --> 00:28:39,133
- Uh, BP is bottoming out.
- Damn it. I don't see any bleeding.

580
00:28:39,134 --> 00:28:40,468
Neither do I. The staple line looks clean.

581
00:28:40,469 --> 00:28:42,595
Well, something's got to be causing this.
What the hell is it?

582
00:28:42,596 --> 00:28:46,557
- Does the ECMO say anything?
- There's a suction event alarm.

583
00:28:46,558 --> 00:28:50,061
Okay. Since we took pressure off the lung,
could there be volume shifts?

584
00:28:50,062 --> 00:28:51,520
That's definitely possible. Yeah.

585
00:28:51,521 --> 00:28:54,231
Okay, we need to up her pressors
and flood her with fluids.

586
00:28:54,232 --> 00:28:57,194
If we don't get flow back right away,
she's done.

587
00:29:02,950 --> 00:29:04,283
Push fluids as hard as you can.

588
00:29:04,284 --> 00:29:05,618
- I am.
- BP's still dropping.

589
00:29:05,619 --> 00:29:09,080
She can't take this much longer.
I should've listened to that board.

590
00:29:09,081 --> 00:29:10,873
- If I lose her--
- This is not on you.

591
00:29:10,874 --> 00:29:13,834
Come on, come on, come on. Come on.

592
00:29:13,835 --> 00:29:15,211
BP's coming back up.

593
00:29:16,755 --> 00:29:20,092
- Well, that was close.
- Okay, folks.

594
00:29:20,968 --> 00:29:23,761
There's still a lot of tumor left.

595
00:29:23,762 --> 00:29:28,224
Griffith, you're on the liver resection.
Adams, you're on the superior mediastinum.

596
00:29:28,225 --> 00:29:30,060
If that's okay with you?

597
00:29:31,395 --> 00:29:33,270
Do what we say when we say it.

598
00:29:33,271 --> 00:29:34,398
Stapler.

599
00:29:39,486 --> 00:29:40,696
Contrast.

600
00:29:43,115 --> 00:29:46,034
There's the occlusion in the iliac vein.
Advance more.

601
00:29:47,703 --> 00:29:51,623
Okay, pin the guide wire and turn
on the thrombectomy catheter, please.

602
00:29:53,750 --> 00:29:55,668
It's a shame Janet
isn't awake to see this.

603
00:29:55,669 --> 00:29:57,795
It would really turn her...

604
00:29:57,796 --> 00:30:03,300
into a passionate fan of
biological science and anatomy.

605
00:30:03,301 --> 00:30:04,760
Okay, I'm in. Turn it off.

606
00:30:04,761 --> 00:30:08,431
I don't get it. If you have to pretend
to be someone else for your partner

607
00:30:08,432 --> 00:30:11,017
to wanna sleep with you,
maybe you shouldn't be together.

608
00:30:11,018 --> 00:30:15,563
I've learned you never know what's
going on in another person's relationship.

609
00:30:15,564 --> 00:30:17,273
Ready.

610
00:30:17,274 --> 00:30:18,358
Contrast.

611
00:30:22,112 --> 00:30:25,781
Thrombus is gone. The vein is patent.

612
00:30:25,782 --> 00:30:27,658
Great work.

613
00:30:27,659 --> 00:30:28,994
Now to stent.

614
00:30:31,538 --> 00:30:35,791
Thanks again for the consult.
I see why Catherine calls you legendary.

615
00:30:35,792 --> 00:30:38,127
Well, she is prone to exaggeration.

616
00:30:38,128 --> 00:30:40,755
I know, but in your case, it's true.

617
00:30:40,756 --> 00:30:43,549
Well, you live up
to your reputation as well.

618
00:30:43,550 --> 00:30:46,219
Oh, but not enough to
consider my recommendation?

619
00:30:48,847 --> 00:30:53,184
- I'm sorry, I-I shouldn't have said that.
- No, it's okay.

620
00:30:53,185 --> 00:30:54,603
Can I ask you about something?

621
00:30:55,771 --> 00:30:57,522
Urosymphyseal fistulas.

622
00:30:59,483 --> 00:31:03,319
They are an extremely rare post-op
complication of radical prostatectomy.

623
00:31:03,320 --> 00:31:05,654
But the odds aren't zero.

624
00:31:05,655 --> 00:31:07,156
They're close.

625
00:31:07,157 --> 00:31:08,575
What if it happened?

626
00:31:09,242 --> 00:31:12,579
Chronic pain,
which often leads to difficulty walking,

627
00:31:13,288 --> 00:31:17,209
possibly warranting the use of opioids.

628
00:31:18,335 --> 00:31:20,712
I can treat complications.

629
00:31:21,463 --> 00:31:25,842
But if your cancer grows and metastasizes,
that's when my hands are tied.

630
00:31:30,097 --> 00:31:34,976
If you change your mind or if you just
wanna talk more, Catherine has my number.

631
00:31:48,156 --> 00:31:50,741
- Done resecting the liver.
- Good.

632
00:31:50,742 --> 00:31:52,201
Excellent hemeostasis.

633
00:31:55,956 --> 00:31:57,873
All right,
no bleeding on this side.

634
00:31:57,874 --> 00:32:01,920
Okay, we are in the home stretch.
Let's get ready to get this tumor out.

635
00:32:03,004 --> 00:32:04,964
Hold on, hold on.

636
00:32:04,965 --> 00:32:07,134
- Do you hear that?
- What?

637
00:32:09,678 --> 00:32:11,929
Okay, we're gonna need more lap pads,
and hang blood.

638
00:32:11,930 --> 00:32:13,640
Adams, quickly pack her.

639
00:32:14,432 --> 00:32:17,144
Goddamn it!
All right, keep the suction coming.

640
00:32:17,686 --> 00:32:19,353
Oh... ...wait, wait.

641
00:32:19,354 --> 00:32:24,859
Okay, there's a tear where the IVC passes
through the diaphragm into the chest.

642
00:32:24,860 --> 00:32:28,279
I'm trying to secure...
Let-Let me have a clamp.

643
00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:29,780
Okay, I need visualization.

644
00:32:29,781 --> 00:32:31,574
Put the suction on the lap pads.

645
00:32:31,575 --> 00:32:33,618
Not too harsh,
gentle steady pressure, okay?

646
00:32:36,913 --> 00:32:39,540
<i>♪ And all of the time ♪</i>

647
00:32:39,541 --> 00:32:41,041
I think I got it.

648
00:32:41,042 --> 00:32:42,961
<i>♪ Through it all ♪</i>

649
00:32:44,171 --> 00:32:47,006
Oh, she's stabilizing.

650
00:32:47,007 --> 00:32:49,175
Okay, everyone,
on the count of three.

651
00:32:49,176 --> 00:32:50,885
Everyone needs to help with the specimen.

652
00:32:50,886 --> 00:32:52,178
Okay, ready?

653
00:32:52,179 --> 00:32:55,556
One, two, three.

654
00:33:00,270 --> 00:33:01,271
Okay.

655
00:33:02,606 --> 00:33:07,776
<i>♪ There is hope in another day ♪</i>

656
00:33:07,777 --> 00:33:08,862
Okay.

657
00:33:09,362 --> 00:33:11,405
How do you all feel
about getting the hell out of here?

658
00:33:11,406 --> 00:33:13,575
You don't have to ask me twice. Bovie.

659
00:33:14,492 --> 00:33:16,494
Two-O prolene.

660
00:33:18,496 --> 00:33:23,000
<i>♪ Never glowing differently... ♪</i>

661
00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:24,044
You can stop here.

662
00:33:24,711 --> 00:33:25,754
Iris.

663
00:33:26,463 --> 00:33:27,838
Hey, what are you doing up here?

664
00:33:27,839 --> 00:33:31,508
So a mom from the NICU is being
treated for postpartum eclampsia.

665
00:33:31,509 --> 00:33:34,803
Can you look up her chart?
Her name is Gina...

666
00:33:34,804 --> 00:33:35,889
I don't know her last name.

667
00:33:36,473 --> 00:33:38,683
I'm sorry, I can't. You're not her doctor.

668
00:33:40,018 --> 00:33:41,311
I just wanna check on her.

669
00:33:42,270 --> 00:33:46,441
- Do you want me to call Marcus for you?
- No, what I want is my friend's chart.

670
00:33:47,609 --> 00:33:49,276
- I'm sorry, Jo.
- Stop saying you're sorry.

671
00:33:49,277 --> 00:33:51,737
Sorry doesn't help me.
I'm this woman's only friend right now

672
00:33:51,738 --> 00:33:54,698
and the person in charge of her care
has been a doctor for about 90 days.

673
00:33:54,699 --> 00:33:56,784
So, if you could just
please remove the stick from--

674
00:33:56,785 --> 00:33:58,786
- Jo.
- All I want right now--

675
00:33:58,787 --> 00:34:00,746
- I think we should go.
- No, we're not gonna go.

676
00:34:00,747 --> 00:34:01,830
- I-- No.
- Yeah.

677
00:34:01,831 --> 00:34:04,458
You cannot move me against my will.

678
00:34:04,459 --> 00:34:07,253
Stop! I...

679
00:34:07,254 --> 00:34:09,088
This is not okay.

680
00:34:09,089 --> 00:34:10,506
Can you give me a minute?

681
00:34:10,507 --> 00:34:11,966
- This is--
- Hey, hey, hey, hey.

682
00:34:11,967 --> 00:34:14,261
Look, I know you're scared, okay? But...

683
00:34:15,595 --> 00:34:17,889
Hey, she's just trying to do her job.

684
00:34:35,782 --> 00:34:39,451
It will take a few days to wean her
off ECMO. She does have a long recovery.

685
00:34:39,452 --> 00:34:41,745
- But she's gonna come home?
- Eventually.

686
00:34:41,746 --> 00:34:43,998
That is the plan.

687
00:34:43,999 --> 00:34:46,083
I don't know how to thank you.

688
00:34:46,084 --> 00:34:48,002
I think you just did.

689
00:34:50,171 --> 00:34:53,299
She's always been able
to see what I can't.

690
00:34:53,300 --> 00:34:59,221
Her mind is filled with these big ideas
that always seem impossible.

691
00:34:59,222 --> 00:35:04,352
Our wedding, this lake house,
getting this tumor removed.

692
00:35:05,979 --> 00:35:07,480
But she knew you could do it.

693
00:35:09,566 --> 00:35:11,067
And she was right.

694
00:35:12,277 --> 00:35:15,655
I almost... ...tried to stop her.

695
00:35:17,574 --> 00:35:19,492
But I'm glad I stayed out of it.

696
00:35:20,910 --> 00:35:24,246
Hey, um, we'll let you both get some rest.

697
00:35:24,247 --> 00:35:26,207
Thank you.

698
00:35:28,960 --> 00:35:30,836
Great work today, Griffith.

699
00:35:30,837 --> 00:35:33,631
You and Adams, you really stepped up.

700
00:35:33,632 --> 00:35:37,385
Thank you. I really appreciate
the opportunity. I learned a lot.

701
00:35:41,056 --> 00:35:46,268
We did a good thing today.

702
00:35:46,269 --> 00:35:49,730
- Some might call it inspiring.
- Mmm.

703
00:35:49,731 --> 00:35:51,398
Might be even something

704
00:35:51,399 --> 00:35:53,776
you could lecture about.

705
00:35:53,777 --> 00:35:57,446
Hey, I hope I didn't overstep, you know,
jumping in with the residents.

706
00:35:57,447 --> 00:36:00,741
Oh, no. I mean, if I'm the only voice
that's teaching them,

707
00:36:00,742 --> 00:36:02,285
they'll wind up tuning me out.

708
00:36:03,203 --> 00:36:04,828
What do you think
about having the residents

709
00:36:04,829 --> 00:36:07,331
do an ambulance ride-along
or EMS training?

710
00:36:07,332 --> 00:36:10,250
Something that could really get
them thinking on their feet, you know?

711
00:36:10,251 --> 00:36:15,464
It could help them in the ER
or in situations like today in the OR.

712
00:36:15,465 --> 00:36:19,636
I think you should write up
a proposal and send it to me.

713
00:36:23,431 --> 00:36:24,723
The surgery went well.

714
00:36:24,724 --> 00:36:27,059
We were able
to clear the clot and put in a stent.

715
00:36:27,060 --> 00:36:28,143
Thank you.

716
00:36:28,144 --> 00:36:29,812
You'll need to be on anticoagulation

717
00:36:29,813 --> 00:36:34,024
but after a while, you'll be able to get
back to life as usual.

718
00:36:34,025 --> 00:36:37,611
I'll get back to life
as usual right away or...

719
00:36:37,612 --> 00:36:39,238
"When can I have sex?" is what I'm asking.

720
00:36:39,239 --> 00:36:40,823
Yeah, we know.

721
00:36:40,824 --> 00:36:42,408
You need to elevate your leg when resting

722
00:36:42,409 --> 00:36:45,286
but other than that,
it is good to move it around.

723
00:36:47,122 --> 00:36:49,123
I guess Trudy can still see the doctor.

724
00:36:49,124 --> 00:36:51,834
Trudy's always a good time.

725
00:36:51,835 --> 00:36:55,964
But, honey,
I love you most when you're just Janet.

726
00:36:59,300 --> 00:37:00,759
We'll give you some privacy.

727
00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:04,848
<i>♪ Let go for dear life
Just free fall ♪</i>

728
00:37:06,015 --> 00:37:10,270
<i>♪ Let go for dear life
Just free fall ♪</i>

729
00:37:11,271 --> 00:37:12,479
<i>♪ Let go... ♪</i>

730
00:37:12,480 --> 00:37:14,357
I checked London's labs before leaving.

731
00:37:15,358 --> 00:37:16,442
Thanks.

732
00:37:16,443 --> 00:37:18,819
Hey, I'm sorry about earlier.

733
00:37:18,820 --> 00:37:22,156
How you interact with your patients,
your business. I'll stay out of it.

734
00:37:22,157 --> 00:37:23,700
I appreciate that.

735
00:37:24,826 --> 00:37:28,162
I do value your opinion though.

736
00:37:28,163 --> 00:37:29,872
- You do?
- I do.

737
00:37:29,873 --> 00:37:35,711
Just, uh, not about relationships.
For obvious reasons.

738
00:37:35,712 --> 00:37:38,130
Ouch.

739
00:37:38,131 --> 00:37:41,383
Hey, look, I'm, uh, putting together
a watch list for my patient.

740
00:37:41,384 --> 00:37:42,676
What am I missing?

741
00:37:42,677 --> 00:37:44,804
Mmm.

742
00:37:46,347 --> 00:37:48,516
Wait, she hasn't seen any of these?

743
00:37:51,102 --> 00:37:52,270
Thank you.

744
00:37:57,192 --> 00:37:59,026
Hey.

745
00:37:59,027 --> 00:38:00,235
Hi.

746
00:38:00,236 --> 00:38:02,070
Did you make it through your busy day?

747
00:38:02,071 --> 00:38:04,115
Uh, I did.

748
00:38:05,200 --> 00:38:07,910
Uh, I did a thrombectomy
and placed a stent.

749
00:38:07,911 --> 00:38:10,120
Nice, Millin.

750
00:38:10,121 --> 00:38:12,998
You still haven't told me
about that thoracotomy, by the way.

751
00:38:12,999 --> 00:38:15,209
It wasn't that big a deal.

752
00:38:15,210 --> 00:38:18,128
Uh, you saved a man's life
with your hands.

753
00:38:18,129 --> 00:38:19,631
Doesn't get any bigger than that.

754
00:38:22,467 --> 00:38:23,968
Do you think I'm aloof?

755
00:38:24,636 --> 00:38:29,473
Aloof? Thank you. Um...

756
00:38:29,474 --> 00:38:31,016
No.

757
00:38:31,017 --> 00:38:33,811
You're discerning,
you don't suffer any fools.

758
00:38:33,812 --> 00:38:36,688
But... ...that's not aloof.

759
00:38:36,689 --> 00:38:41,236
That's, um, that's protecting yourself
because you care.

760
00:38:43,696 --> 00:38:47,449
It's funny you say that
because I-I have been...

761
00:38:47,450 --> 00:38:50,118
I had the worst day.

762
00:38:50,119 --> 00:38:53,330
I need the biggest vodka tonic
that they have.

763
00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:55,249
Hi, I'm Iris.

764
00:38:55,250 --> 00:38:57,626
Uh, this is Jules Millin,
a surgical resident.

765
00:38:57,627 --> 00:38:59,253
- Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.

766
00:38:59,254 --> 00:39:02,257
Um, I should go find my friends.

767
00:39:03,883 --> 00:39:05,467
- Here.
- Thank you.

768
00:39:05,468 --> 00:39:06,885
See you later.

769
00:39:06,886 --> 00:39:09,471
<i>It's jarring
when your identity shifts.</i>

770
00:39:09,472 --> 00:39:12,851
<i>When you're suddenly
a doctor, a partner, a parent.</i>

771
00:39:13,768 --> 00:39:16,520
<i>It helps if you focus on
the things that haven't changed.</i>

772
00:39:16,521 --> 00:39:18,231
I'm gonna have to change hospitals.

773
00:39:19,148 --> 00:39:21,525
I've cried in front of
too many people at this one.

774
00:39:21,526 --> 00:39:22,901
They understand.

775
00:39:25,530 --> 00:39:30,450
I just feel like
ever since I was admitted, I just...

776
00:39:30,451 --> 00:39:32,370
I just lost myself.

777
00:39:34,205 --> 00:39:36,081
I can't take care of our kids.

778
00:39:36,082 --> 00:39:40,210
I can't take care of my patients.
I can't even shower.

779
00:39:40,211 --> 00:39:42,212
It's temporary.

780
00:39:42,213 --> 00:39:43,755
Your heart is recovering.

781
00:39:43,756 --> 00:39:44,966
I know.

782
00:39:46,092 --> 00:39:52,431
But for a few hours today,
I got to be a doctor again

783
00:39:52,432 --> 00:39:54,766
and help this woman
navigate a difficult time

784
00:39:54,767 --> 00:40:01,024
but then when it really mattered,
someone else got to help her.

785
00:40:02,650 --> 00:40:04,110
At least Gina is okay.

786
00:40:04,986 --> 00:40:09,032
And I would bet that she'd
say what you did mattered too.

787
00:40:10,783 --> 00:40:12,118
Maybe even more.

788
00:40:14,329 --> 00:40:16,080
Oh, God. It's happening again.

789
00:40:16,915 --> 00:40:20,335
- No.
- I'll get the tissues.

790
00:40:22,837 --> 00:40:27,133
Just...

791
00:40:27,800 --> 00:40:29,468
<i>The comfort of old friends.</i>

792
00:40:29,469 --> 00:40:32,387
Thirty-five pounds?
That's like carrying four babies.

793
00:40:32,388 --> 00:40:34,306
Yeah, or four bowling balls.

794
00:40:34,307 --> 00:40:37,518
- Who carries four bowling balls?
- People do weird things.

795
00:40:38,811 --> 00:40:39,938
Gotta go.

796
00:40:44,567 --> 00:40:46,027
Yeah, I'm out too.

797
00:40:47,111 --> 00:40:48,320
See you tomorrow.

798
00:40:48,321 --> 00:40:51,240
<i>♪ ...running off the track
Oh yeah ♪</i>

799
00:40:53,451 --> 00:40:54,702
<i>♪ Yeah ♪</i>

800
00:40:56,329 --> 00:40:59,164
She's just a stop sign, not a roadblock.

801
00:40:59,165 --> 00:41:00,248
How did you...

802
00:41:02,085 --> 00:41:05,420
Doesn't matter.
Wait, are you leaving me too?

803
00:41:05,421 --> 00:41:09,092
Um, sorry. Um, hey, have a drink on me.

804
00:41:09,634 --> 00:41:12,470
<i>♪ ...to feel the pressure ♪</i>

805
00:41:13,429 --> 00:41:14,930
<i>♪ Pressure ♪</i>

806
00:41:14,931 --> 00:41:16,014
Anyone sitting here?

807
00:41:16,015 --> 00:41:21,436
<i>♪ Yeah
Even if you stayed ♪</i>

808
00:41:21,437 --> 00:41:23,313
<i>The thrill of trying something new.</i>

809
00:41:23,314 --> 00:41:24,773
Hi, I'm Sally.

810
00:41:24,774 --> 00:41:27,651
<i>Because even though you
may not recognize yourself...</i>

811
00:41:27,652 --> 00:41:28,695
Catherine.

812
00:41:29,654 --> 00:41:32,572
I'm sorry. I am so sorry.

813
00:41:32,573 --> 00:41:35,701
I got scared and I just
called the best that I knew.

814
00:41:35,702 --> 00:41:37,703
I should've talked to you
before bringing Laura in.

815
00:41:37,704 --> 00:41:43,291
Look, I thought a lot about
letting fear cloud judgment today.

816
00:41:43,292 --> 00:41:45,712
Whatever you wanna do, I support--

817
00:41:47,046 --> 00:41:48,463
I'm a surgeon.

818
00:41:48,464 --> 00:41:50,508
I'm a senior member of this hospital.

819
00:41:51,551 --> 00:41:52,843
If something were to go wrong

820
00:41:52,844 --> 00:41:59,434
and I couldn't stand long enough
to do a simple appy, I'd feel weak.

821
00:42:00,518 --> 00:42:02,145
And I don't know how to lead like that.

822
00:42:02,687 --> 00:42:04,188
I don't know who I'd be.

823
00:42:05,231 --> 00:42:06,607
But people adapt.

824
00:42:07,442 --> 00:42:09,276
I wanna go ahead with the surgery.

825
00:42:10,611 --> 00:42:14,532
<i>♪ I'm under pressure
I feel pressure ♪</i>

826
00:42:15,908 --> 00:42:17,744
<i>...it's been you all along.</i>


