1 00:00:05,005 --> 00:00:06,423 Previously on "Brilliant Minds"... 2 00:00:06,506 --> 00:00:08,174 I talked to Mrs. Torres. 3 00:00:08,258 --> 00:00:09,468 We came up with a new plan for Jorge's treatment. 4 00:00:09,551 --> 00:00:10,552 You don't speak to another family member 5 00:00:10,635 --> 00:00:11,762 without me present. 6 00:00:11,845 --> 00:00:13,096 This reaction is irrational. 7 00:00:13,179 --> 00:00:14,639 Get out of my office. 8 00:00:14,764 --> 00:00:15,724 Now! 9 00:00:15,849 --> 00:00:17,183 She wanted more time. 10 00:00:17,267 --> 00:00:18,226 You gave her that. 11 00:00:18,309 --> 00:00:19,602 You extended her life. 12 00:00:19,728 --> 00:00:21,480 It felt like I extended her death. 13 00:00:21,563 --> 00:00:23,482 Michelle, we were so good together. 14 00:00:23,565 --> 00:00:25,108 -What happened? -We didn't communicate. 15 00:00:25,191 --> 00:00:27,069 -Are you guys back together? -Yeah. We are. 16 00:00:28,820 --> 00:00:30,405 30-year-old schizoaffective male 17 00:00:30,488 --> 00:00:32,073 complaining of daily chest pains. 18 00:00:32,157 --> 00:00:34,117 -What's going on? -It's a sign of liver failure. 19 00:00:34,200 --> 00:00:35,410 Whether right or wrong, 20 00:00:35,493 --> 00:00:36,536 you simply cannot get a transplant 21 00:00:36,619 --> 00:00:38,121 if you're entirely alone. 22 00:00:38,204 --> 00:00:40,123 Sam, there's some people here to see you. 23 00:00:40,206 --> 00:00:41,833 -I'm at Hudson Oaks. -They won't let me leave. 24 00:00:41,916 --> 00:00:43,877 -Aah! -You won't be fighting back anymore. 25 00:00:45,628 --> 00:00:46,630 Isn't that right, Oliver? 26 00:00:50,216 --> 00:00:51,593 Your escape back tonight 27 00:00:51,676 --> 00:00:52,803 reminded me of that little stunt 28 00:00:52,886 --> 00:00:54,554 you pulled at the hospital gala. 29 00:00:54,637 --> 00:00:56,181 You remember that? 30 00:00:56,264 --> 00:00:58,392 At the time, I thought, "This guy's a force!" 31 00:00:58,475 --> 00:01:00,185 But in a good way. 32 00:01:00,268 --> 00:01:03,355 Now, the staff member you assaulted needs stitches. 33 00:01:03,438 --> 00:01:04,982 You're holding me against my will. 34 00:01:05,065 --> 00:01:06,441 I want to leave. 35 00:01:08,777 --> 00:01:10,945 We have been over this, Oliver. 36 00:01:12,322 --> 00:01:15,116 I am worried that you have not made any progress 37 00:01:15,241 --> 00:01:16,493 since you came to us... 38 00:01:16,659 --> 00:01:18,870 voluntarily, I might add. 39 00:01:18,953 --> 00:01:20,497 You're paranoid. You're defensive. 40 00:01:20,580 --> 00:01:22,332 You won't let us help you. 41 00:01:22,415 --> 00:01:24,668 It's high time we be honest about why you're here. 42 00:01:24,751 --> 00:01:26,628 Either we talk about him 43 00:01:26,711 --> 00:01:28,964 or we keep doing this same song and dance. 44 00:01:42,686 --> 00:01:44,104 Elongate. 45 00:02:06,835 --> 00:02:08,253 Put me down! 46 00:02:08,336 --> 00:02:09,796 Put me down! Aah! 47 00:02:22,267 --> 00:02:26,604 I've never had an attendant yell at me like that, Terry. 48 00:02:26,688 --> 00:02:28,398 It was disturbing. 49 00:02:28,523 --> 00:02:30,984 Unprofessional. B-Borderline psychotic. 50 00:02:31,067 --> 00:02:32,361 I mean, Dr. Wolf is completely out of line. 51 00:02:32,444 --> 00:02:34,029 Yeah. That's fair. 52 00:02:34,112 --> 00:02:36,448 But we've spent, uh, an inordinate amount of time 53 00:02:36,531 --> 00:02:38,658 in our sessions talking about your boss. 54 00:02:38,742 --> 00:02:41,327 Okay, you got to remember that holding on to anger... 55 00:02:41,411 --> 00:02:42,954 It's like drinking poison 56 00:02:43,038 --> 00:02:44,414 and expecting the other person to die. Yeah. 57 00:02:44,497 --> 00:02:45,582 Well... 58 00:02:45,665 --> 00:02:46,959 You work together, right? 59 00:02:47,042 --> 00:02:48,502 Yeah. You got to learn how to coexist. 60 00:02:48,585 --> 00:02:50,170 I think he's misjudged you. 61 00:02:50,253 --> 00:02:51,546 My advice? 62 00:02:51,629 --> 00:02:53,340 Try to show him who you really are. 63 00:02:56,468 --> 00:02:57,385 That I can do. 64 00:03:06,144 --> 00:03:07,729 Isn't this a little premature? 65 00:03:07,812 --> 00:03:09,064 We still have leftovers from Thanksgiving. 66 00:03:09,147 --> 00:03:10,398 I don't care. 67 00:03:10,482 --> 00:03:12,067 This is my favorite time of year... 68 00:03:12,150 --> 00:03:14,444 the tree lighting at Rockefeller Center, 69 00:03:14,569 --> 00:03:16,947 all the window displays on Fifth Avenue, 70 00:03:17,030 --> 00:03:19,032 our hospital holiday gala. 71 00:03:19,157 --> 00:03:22,577 Just Christmas brings back a lot of sweet memories. 72 00:03:22,660 --> 00:03:24,621 Oh! 73 00:03:24,704 --> 00:03:27,582 Like my little Ollie coming back from school 74 00:03:27,665 --> 00:03:31,127 with the most... peculiar homemade ornament. 75 00:03:31,211 --> 00:03:33,088 -It's not peculiar. -It's tungsten. 76 00:03:33,171 --> 00:03:35,132 -Oh. -I had to corrode the metal with ferric chloride 77 00:03:35,215 --> 00:03:37,133 to etch the chemical symbol on it. 78 00:03:37,217 --> 00:03:39,094 Quite the feat for a third grader. 79 00:03:39,177 --> 00:03:41,221 Mm. 80 00:03:41,304 --> 00:03:44,724 So, I know how you hate the pomp and circumstance 81 00:03:44,808 --> 00:03:46,559 of hospital galas, 82 00:03:46,685 --> 00:03:49,145 so you have my permission to skip tonight. 83 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:51,690 It's a little early Christmas gift from me. 84 00:03:51,773 --> 00:03:53,566 -What's the catch? -No catch. 85 00:03:53,692 --> 00:03:55,485 Honey, I know that I'm not gonna be the one 86 00:03:55,568 --> 00:03:57,028 that you turn to for help. 87 00:03:57,112 --> 00:03:58,780 God knows I never turned to my mother 88 00:03:58,863 --> 00:04:00,991 when I was in any kind of crisis. 89 00:04:01,074 --> 00:04:04,160 -But I want you to understand that it's okay... -Mom, stop. 90 00:04:04,244 --> 00:04:06,037 I can handle the gala, 91 00:04:06,121 --> 00:04:07,623 if it means you'll stop using these impromptu visits 92 00:04:07,706 --> 00:04:09,207 to psychoanalyze me. 93 00:04:10,250 --> 00:04:12,127 Don't make me change the locks. 94 00:04:17,424 --> 00:04:19,884 That megawatt smile could solve the energy crisis. 95 00:04:19,968 --> 00:04:22,346 -What's got you so happy? -That sweet taste of freedom. 96 00:04:22,429 --> 00:04:26,725 After months of mediation over custody and assets and alimony, 97 00:04:26,808 --> 00:04:29,519 my divorce is signed, sealed, and delivered. 98 00:04:29,602 --> 00:04:31,187 That's my girl! 99 00:04:31,271 --> 00:04:32,648 Looks like we both got reason to celebrate. 100 00:04:32,731 --> 00:04:34,524 I got my kids for Christmas. 101 00:04:34,649 --> 00:04:36,860 Starting to see a day where Amy and I can amicably co-parent. 102 00:04:36,943 --> 00:04:38,111 -Well, amen to that. -Yeah. 103 00:04:38,194 --> 00:04:39,863 How about we toast our wins 104 00:04:39,946 --> 00:04:41,073 -tonight at the gala? -Watch your back! Behind you! 105 00:04:41,156 --> 00:04:42,366 I never say no to an open bar. 106 00:04:42,449 --> 00:04:43,492 That's my cue. See you tonight? 107 00:04:43,575 --> 00:04:44,659 -Okay. -Alright. 108 00:04:46,244 --> 00:04:47,829 3... 2... 1. 109 00:04:50,415 --> 00:04:52,500 Fresh off his tour of duty in the E.D. 110 00:04:52,625 --> 00:04:55,003 Welcome back to Neuro. 111 00:04:55,128 --> 00:04:56,629 Never leave us again. 112 00:04:57,881 --> 00:04:59,507 I won't. How can I help? 113 00:04:59,591 --> 00:05:01,009 You got a spare liver? 114 00:05:01,092 --> 00:05:03,511 You can start by calling every hospital 115 00:05:03,636 --> 00:05:05,680 in a 500-mile radius. 116 00:05:05,847 --> 00:05:08,016 No one cares that Sam has his family to support him. 117 00:05:08,099 --> 00:05:10,560 Every transplant program thinks he's too big of a risk 118 00:05:10,643 --> 00:05:11,895 because of his schizophrenia. 119 00:05:11,978 --> 00:05:13,813 So we're casting a wider net. 120 00:05:13,938 --> 00:05:15,774 I found a couple shelters he stayed at. 121 00:05:15,857 --> 00:05:17,317 They're gonna send me character references. 122 00:05:17,400 --> 00:05:19,069 We can see if they strengthen his case. 123 00:05:19,152 --> 00:05:20,779 -That's amazing. -Thank you. 124 00:05:20,862 --> 00:05:22,531 Lock it down already. 125 00:05:22,614 --> 00:05:23,931 I'm trying. 126 00:05:24,449 --> 00:05:26,201 Look, I don't have time for this. 127 00:05:26,284 --> 00:05:28,412 It's opening night, and I need to get back to rehearsal. 128 00:05:28,495 --> 00:05:30,747 I refuse to let that bitch Nina take my place. 129 00:05:30,830 --> 00:05:32,082 -I already hate her. -I'm Dr. Wolf. 130 00:05:32,165 --> 00:05:34,042 I'm here for your neuro consult. 131 00:05:34,125 --> 00:05:35,752 And your name is... 132 00:05:35,835 --> 00:05:37,253 the Sugar Plum Fairy? 133 00:05:37,337 --> 00:05:38,839 I'm sorry. 134 00:05:38,922 --> 00:05:40,757 No, I am a huge fan of the City Ballet. 135 00:05:40,840 --> 00:05:42,426 My mom took me to "The Nutcracker" 136 00:05:42,509 --> 00:05:43,677 -every year growing up. -I'm glad to hear it. 137 00:05:43,760 --> 00:05:45,136 Can we skip the formalities 138 00:05:45,220 --> 00:05:46,763 and get the hell out of here, please. 139 00:05:46,846 --> 00:05:48,724 Uh... 140 00:05:48,807 --> 00:05:50,684 Yes. Uh, okay. 141 00:05:50,767 --> 00:05:52,936 So, Juliette, your file says 142 00:05:53,019 --> 00:05:56,439 that you had a long ICU stay here for sepsis 143 00:05:56,523 --> 00:05:58,734 and respiratory failure due to a bad pneumonia, 144 00:05:58,817 --> 00:06:01,403 but you left early against your doctor's advice? 145 00:06:01,486 --> 00:06:02,779 That was nearly three months ago 146 00:06:02,862 --> 00:06:03,905 and totally unrelated. 147 00:06:03,988 --> 00:06:05,657 Hi. I'm Dr. Porter. 148 00:06:05,740 --> 00:06:07,492 Looks like we were both paged for a consult. 149 00:06:07,575 --> 00:06:09,536 -Yeah, I have it handled. -You can go. 150 00:06:09,661 --> 00:06:12,580 If two doctors speeds us up, by all means stay. 151 00:06:12,664 --> 00:06:15,083 We heard that you fell and hit your head. 152 00:06:15,208 --> 00:06:16,460 How are you feeling now? 153 00:06:16,543 --> 00:06:18,336 Please. I never fall. 154 00:06:18,461 --> 00:06:21,589 My partner dropped me during the Grand Pas, on purpose. 155 00:06:21,673 --> 00:06:24,384 He's dumb as rocks and sleeping with my understudy. 156 00:06:24,509 --> 00:06:26,428 They've had it out for me since day one. 157 00:06:26,511 --> 00:06:29,639 Zora, my artistic director, thinks that I'm being paranoid. 158 00:06:29,723 --> 00:06:31,641 -Zora Flynn? -She's an institution. 159 00:06:31,766 --> 00:06:33,893 -Yep. -She'll be there till she dies. 160 00:06:33,977 --> 00:06:36,480 And then they'll probably dip her body in formaldehyde 161 00:06:36,563 --> 00:06:38,065 and prop her in a chair forever. 162 00:06:38,148 --> 00:06:40,442 Don't give Dr. Wolf any ideas. 163 00:06:40,567 --> 00:06:41,901 Okay, just... 164 00:06:42,027 --> 00:06:43,778 try to relax. 165 00:06:45,822 --> 00:06:47,949 Deep breaths. Deep breaths. 166 00:06:48,033 --> 00:06:49,367 My eyes are burning. 167 00:06:50,201 --> 00:06:51,786 Why are my eyes burning? 168 00:06:51,911 --> 00:06:52,913 I feel like I'm frozen. 169 00:06:52,996 --> 00:06:54,330 Why is it so cold in here? 170 00:06:54,456 --> 00:06:57,292 Something's happening. 171 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:58,919 W-Where am I?! 172 00:06:59,002 --> 00:07:00,295 -Juliette, you're... -you're in the hospital. 173 00:07:00,378 --> 00:07:02,339 No, no! I have to get back. 174 00:07:02,422 --> 00:07:04,007 Okay. Alright. 175 00:07:10,388 --> 00:07:11,754 Juliette is an imaging now. 176 00:07:12,349 --> 00:07:13,767 When we were examining her, 177 00:07:13,850 --> 00:07:15,352 she became altered, confused, disoriented. 178 00:07:15,435 --> 00:07:17,145 We're testing to make sure 179 00:07:17,228 --> 00:07:18,855 that the fall didn't cause a brain bleed 180 00:07:18,938 --> 00:07:20,565 or any other serious problems. 181 00:07:20,648 --> 00:07:22,484 Her timing could not be worse. 182 00:07:22,609 --> 00:07:24,653 She said her partner dropped her on purpose. 183 00:07:24,736 --> 00:07:26,029 Of course she did. 184 00:07:26,112 --> 00:07:27,656 Juliette loves to play the victim. 185 00:07:27,739 --> 00:07:29,783 No. She panicked, lost position, 186 00:07:29,908 --> 00:07:31,618 knocked Mikhail down in the process. 187 00:07:31,701 --> 00:07:33,328 This was her fault. 188 00:07:33,411 --> 00:07:35,831 You don't have a very forgiving teaching style, do you? 189 00:07:35,914 --> 00:07:37,040 Pot meet kettle. 190 00:07:37,123 --> 00:07:38,833 Ballet is an unforgiving world. 191 00:07:38,917 --> 00:07:40,669 Juliette has... 192 00:07:40,752 --> 00:07:42,337 incredible promise. 193 00:07:42,420 --> 00:07:44,172 But I admit I've been worried about her lately. 194 00:07:44,255 --> 00:07:46,007 She used to be fearless. 195 00:07:46,091 --> 00:07:47,801 Not anymore. 196 00:07:47,926 --> 00:07:49,011 To be frank, she hasn't been the same 197 00:07:49,094 --> 00:07:50,137 since she left your hospital. 198 00:07:50,220 --> 00:07:51,846 Well, to be honest, 199 00:07:51,930 --> 00:07:53,473 it's remarkable that she's back to dancing at all. 200 00:07:53,556 --> 00:07:55,225 She was septic, intubated. 201 00:07:55,350 --> 00:07:57,603 We would have kept her longer had she agreed to stay. 202 00:07:57,686 --> 00:08:00,021 But you signed her discharge paperwork. 203 00:08:00,105 --> 00:08:01,398 Oh, she was improving. 204 00:08:01,481 --> 00:08:02,899 She needed the time to rehearse. 205 00:08:02,982 --> 00:08:04,359 Well, I wish she had taken the time 206 00:08:04,442 --> 00:08:06,153 to show up for her follow-up appointment. 207 00:08:06,236 --> 00:08:08,238 She could be at risk for a host of complications 208 00:08:08,321 --> 00:08:10,824 just from her degree of deconditioning alone. 209 00:08:10,949 --> 00:08:13,243 I have been at this a long time, 210 00:08:13,368 --> 00:08:17,664 and what we're dealing with is a textbook case of stage fright. 211 00:08:17,747 --> 00:08:21,751 Fortunately, that's why we have understudies. 212 00:08:24,337 --> 00:08:25,672 Yeah. 213 00:08:25,797 --> 00:08:28,174 -Thank you so much. -I'm on my way. 214 00:08:28,299 --> 00:08:30,177 A shelter in Mott Haven has intel on Sam. 215 00:08:30,260 --> 00:08:31,678 They need my credentials, 216 00:08:31,761 --> 00:08:33,138 so I have to head down there in person. 217 00:08:33,221 --> 00:08:35,306 Uh, the hospital gala's tonight. 218 00:08:35,390 --> 00:08:37,559 Uh, I finagled Dr. Wolf's plus one, 219 00:08:37,642 --> 00:08:39,561 assuming we'd have reason to celebrate. 220 00:08:39,686 --> 00:08:42,147 Um, you think your mom could babysit? 221 00:08:42,230 --> 00:08:44,858 -Oh, I don't know. -It's kind of last-minute. 222 00:08:44,983 --> 00:08:47,027 Yeah. Nah. It's... It's cool. 223 00:08:47,110 --> 00:08:49,487 Yeah. No, I totally get it. Um. Another time. 224 00:08:49,612 --> 00:08:50,905 Okay. 225 00:08:51,031 --> 00:08:52,574 Have you ever seen Markus in a tux? 226 00:08:52,657 --> 00:08:55,201 I mean, I got your back, Miche, 227 00:08:55,285 --> 00:08:56,787 so, you know, I'll fight those ladies off for you. 228 00:08:56,870 --> 00:08:58,663 But just in case I'm outnumbered, 229 00:08:58,788 --> 00:09:00,749 you should probably come. 230 00:09:00,874 --> 00:09:03,752 I'll see what I can do. 231 00:09:08,214 --> 00:09:11,843 Bro, you got, like, zero game... 232 00:09:11,968 --> 00:09:14,429 Ze-ro. 233 00:09:18,141 --> 00:09:20,018 Dr. Pierce, you have got to take me shopping. 234 00:09:20,101 --> 00:09:22,104 You are the best-dressed doctor in the outer boroughs. 235 00:09:22,187 --> 00:09:24,606 Thank you, Amelia. 236 00:09:24,689 --> 00:09:26,316 To what do I owe this honor? 237 00:09:26,441 --> 00:09:29,110 Just making some last-minute adjustments for tonight. 238 00:09:29,235 --> 00:09:30,987 Hudson Oaks is sponsoring the gala. 239 00:09:31,071 --> 00:09:32,572 Yes. Dr. Landon told me that. 240 00:09:32,697 --> 00:09:34,449 -She is a real hoot. -Mm-hmm. 241 00:09:34,532 --> 00:09:35,826 And that hairstyle. 242 00:09:35,909 --> 00:09:37,952 Ooh! Très chic! 243 00:09:38,036 --> 00:09:39,996 I just want Bronx General to know 244 00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:41,623 that Hudson Oaks is here for you. 245 00:09:41,706 --> 00:09:43,291 We want to be your go-to resource 246 00:09:43,416 --> 00:09:45,669 anytime a patient might need long-term care. 247 00:09:45,752 --> 00:09:47,337 That is very generous. 248 00:09:47,462 --> 00:09:50,757 But we make all of our decisions on a case-by-case basis. 249 00:09:50,882 --> 00:09:52,467 -Of course. You know best. -Mm-hmm. 250 00:09:52,550 --> 00:09:54,261 Excuse me? 251 00:09:54,344 --> 00:09:55,345 Gorgeous bouquet. 252 00:09:55,428 --> 00:09:56,888 What is the occasion? 253 00:09:57,013 --> 00:09:58,264 They are from Wolf. 254 00:09:58,348 --> 00:10:00,058 I am... 255 00:10:00,183 --> 00:10:02,310 officially divorced today. 256 00:10:03,186 --> 00:10:04,145 Hallelujah. 257 00:10:05,480 --> 00:10:07,732 I finalized mine three years ago. 258 00:10:07,816 --> 00:10:09,359 Never looked back. 259 00:10:09,442 --> 00:10:10,819 Are you on the apps yet? 260 00:10:10,902 --> 00:10:12,654 Oh, I don't think I'm ready for all that. 261 00:10:12,737 --> 00:10:14,155 No, no, no, no, no. 262 00:10:14,239 --> 00:10:16,575 I can guide you through all the pitfalls. 263 00:10:16,658 --> 00:10:18,952 For starters, the camera adds three inches. 264 00:10:19,035 --> 00:10:21,204 --Oh. -Ooh. Hi, Dr. Wolf. 265 00:10:21,287 --> 00:10:22,873 -It's a pleasure to see you. -Sorry. 266 00:10:22,956 --> 00:10:24,666 Uh, face blind and in a rush. 267 00:10:24,749 --> 00:10:27,002 I have a ballerina who's a bit of a tough nut to crack. 268 00:10:27,085 --> 00:10:28,879 She could use some of that Carol magic. 269 00:10:28,962 --> 00:10:30,255 Are you free? 270 00:10:30,338 --> 00:10:32,174 -Yes. -Good. 271 00:10:34,467 --> 00:10:37,178 Juliette, what happened right before you collapsed? 272 00:10:37,303 --> 00:10:39,264 You look like you went somewhere else. 273 00:10:39,347 --> 00:10:41,766 It happens a lot when I'm dancing. 274 00:10:41,850 --> 00:10:44,269 I'll be in the middle of rehearsing, 275 00:10:44,394 --> 00:10:46,021 and suddenly it's like... 276 00:10:46,104 --> 00:10:49,441 I'm transported somewhere else. 277 00:10:54,738 --> 00:10:59,534 Sometimes it's like I'm freezing, trembling, 278 00:10:59,659 --> 00:11:01,661 cold in my bones... 279 00:11:01,786 --> 00:11:04,331 ...like my body is made of ice. 280 00:11:04,414 --> 00:11:06,624 Other times, it feels like I'm choking. 281 00:11:06,708 --> 00:11:09,127 I can't breathe. 282 00:11:09,210 --> 00:11:10,629 I can't scream. 283 00:11:10,712 --> 00:11:12,714 But that's not even the worst of it. 284 00:11:14,632 --> 00:11:16,134 I try to get away. 285 00:11:16,217 --> 00:11:18,011 And then I feel a sharp pain, 286 00:11:18,094 --> 00:11:21,932 like I'm being stabbed in the back repeatedly. 287 00:11:25,435 --> 00:11:26,519 And then it's over. 288 00:11:31,358 --> 00:11:33,234 Until it happens again. 289 00:11:47,165 --> 00:11:49,165 Some highlights from Juliette's ICU stay. 290 00:11:49,959 --> 00:11:51,628 She was intubated, which would explain the choking. 291 00:11:51,711 --> 00:11:52,963 Ice packs were used to bring down a fever, 292 00:11:53,046 --> 00:11:54,464 hence freezing onstage. 293 00:11:54,547 --> 00:11:56,174 And she had a lumbar puncture, 294 00:11:56,257 --> 00:11:58,468 which she is reliving as being stabbed in the back. 295 00:11:58,551 --> 00:12:00,095 Where is this going? 296 00:12:00,220 --> 00:12:01,847 Our patient is experiencing ICU PTSD 297 00:12:01,930 --> 00:12:03,849 from her three-week stay in the hospital. 298 00:12:03,932 --> 00:12:05,434 -Mm-hmm. -She's having flashbacks, 299 00:12:05,517 --> 00:12:07,727 and not to events that actually happened, 300 00:12:07,852 --> 00:12:09,604 but to the hallucinations she had 301 00:12:09,729 --> 00:12:11,356 while she was sedated, but delirious. 302 00:12:11,439 --> 00:12:12,858 Her mind is trying to make sense 303 00:12:12,941 --> 00:12:14,818 of everything that happened to her. 304 00:12:14,901 --> 00:12:16,820 Exposure therapy might be our best shot to get her through. 305 00:12:16,903 --> 00:12:18,947 But she needs to work her way up to that. 306 00:12:19,072 --> 00:12:20,699 With all due respect, 307 00:12:20,782 --> 00:12:22,784 what if this has nothing to do with the ICU? 308 00:12:22,867 --> 00:12:24,160 She's a dancer. 309 00:12:24,244 --> 00:12:25,662 I know the type. Dated a few. 310 00:12:25,745 --> 00:12:27,289 It's an unrelenting lifestyle... 311 00:12:27,372 --> 00:12:28,832 The diet, the hours on their feet, 312 00:12:28,915 --> 00:12:31,168 not to mention certain stimulants. 313 00:12:31,251 --> 00:12:32,836 You're a second-year resident 314 00:12:32,961 --> 00:12:34,796 speaking to the head of psychiatry about a psych issue. 315 00:12:34,879 --> 00:12:37,090 I'm just voicing an alternative theory, which is what we do. 316 00:12:37,173 --> 00:12:39,343 I'd rather you keep your alternative theories to yourself. 317 00:12:39,426 --> 00:12:41,720 Or what? Are you gonna scream at me again? 318 00:12:41,803 --> 00:12:44,556 By all means, I would love to have a witness this time. 319 00:12:44,639 --> 00:12:46,433 I made a mistake with the Torres family. 320 00:12:46,516 --> 00:12:48,184 Why can't you let this go? 321 00:12:48,309 --> 00:12:50,520 Because your mistake almost cost my patient his life! 322 00:12:50,603 --> 00:12:51,646 Enough! 323 00:12:53,064 --> 00:12:54,358 And you've never made a mistake 324 00:12:54,441 --> 00:12:55,859 that cost a patient their life? 325 00:13:06,494 --> 00:13:08,038 Things aren't working out with my resident. 326 00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:09,831 I want Charlie Porter off my team. 327 00:13:09,956 --> 00:13:11,624 Out of the hospital would be ideal. 328 00:13:11,708 --> 00:13:13,043 Slow down. 329 00:13:13,126 --> 00:13:14,461 Did he do anything specific to warrant this? 330 00:13:14,544 --> 00:13:15,837 Yes. He's arrogant. 331 00:13:15,962 --> 00:13:16,797 He disagrees with me at every turn. 332 00:13:16,880 --> 00:13:18,340 He undermines me. 333 00:13:18,465 --> 00:13:19,758 He believes that practicing medicine his way 334 00:13:19,841 --> 00:13:21,926 -is the only way. -You're right. 335 00:13:22,052 --> 00:13:23,762 Who could work with someone like that? 336 00:13:23,845 --> 00:13:26,265 Dr. Porter tried to transfer Jorge Torres to hospice 337 00:13:26,348 --> 00:13:28,100 -without consulting me. -But he didn't. 338 00:13:28,183 --> 00:13:30,727 And I'm guessing you set him straight, which is your job. 339 00:13:30,810 --> 00:13:32,271 Look, having a differing opinion 340 00:13:32,354 --> 00:13:33,397 isn't enough to fire someone, Wolf. 341 00:13:33,480 --> 00:13:34,982 If you think he's a bad doctor, 342 00:13:35,065 --> 00:13:36,400 it's your job to make him a better one. 343 00:13:36,483 --> 00:13:38,026 Normally, I'd agree with you, 344 00:13:38,151 --> 00:13:40,237 but, Josh, I'm telling you, Porter is a lost cause. 345 00:13:44,657 --> 00:13:46,451 Nerves getting the best of you, Markus? 346 00:13:46,534 --> 00:13:48,620 Things are going great between me and Michelle, 347 00:13:48,703 --> 00:13:50,789 but I can tell she's getting cold feet. 348 00:13:52,082 --> 00:13:54,084 And I was the one who broke her heart. 349 00:13:54,209 --> 00:13:56,336 I wasn't committed. I wasn't ready, you know? 350 00:13:56,419 --> 00:13:58,046 I was afraid to be a dad. 351 00:13:58,171 --> 00:13:59,255 But... 352 00:13:59,339 --> 00:14:00,965 I'm not gonna screw it up again. 353 00:14:01,049 --> 00:14:02,926 I want to ask her to move in with me. 354 00:14:03,009 --> 00:14:05,387 Damn! Grand gesture. 355 00:14:06,346 --> 00:14:07,806 I like it. 356 00:14:07,889 --> 00:14:09,975 I just want us to have a fresh start, you know? 357 00:14:10,058 --> 00:14:11,810 Charge nurse, please call the operator. 358 00:14:11,893 --> 00:14:14,729 Charge nurse, please call the operator. 359 00:14:14,813 --> 00:14:17,857 Okay. Why do I feel like you're getting cold feet now? 360 00:14:17,941 --> 00:14:20,151 What's up? 361 00:14:22,654 --> 00:14:25,115 Damn mirror-touch. 362 00:14:28,201 --> 00:14:30,954 When I went home to Dallas for Thanksgiving, 363 00:14:31,079 --> 00:14:35,375 I reconnected with one of my, uh, old team doctors. 364 00:14:35,458 --> 00:14:37,085 We got to talking, 365 00:14:37,168 --> 00:14:39,129 and he offered me a spot in his residency program. 366 00:14:39,212 --> 00:14:40,839 Oh. In Texas? 367 00:14:40,922 --> 00:14:43,258 They have a top-tier sports clinic. 368 00:14:43,341 --> 00:14:46,803 And I'll still be doing neuro, just in a sports context. 369 00:14:47,721 --> 00:14:49,973 I never imagined moving home anytime soon, 370 00:14:50,056 --> 00:14:51,891 but this is like my dream job. 371 00:14:53,351 --> 00:14:56,146 So why do I sense, like, you don't want to do it? 372 00:14:56,229 --> 00:14:57,856 Man, what's keeping you here? 373 00:14:57,981 --> 00:14:59,607 Ah. It's me, huh? 374 00:15:01,109 --> 00:15:02,402 Man... 375 00:15:09,284 --> 00:15:13,747 You mentioned being intubated was a scary experience. 376 00:15:13,830 --> 00:15:15,498 Let's start there. 377 00:15:15,623 --> 00:15:18,209 I want you to follow the light with your eyes 378 00:15:18,335 --> 00:15:19,555 and tell me all about it. 379 00:15:21,755 --> 00:15:25,133 Before I fell unconscious, I... 380 00:15:27,218 --> 00:15:28,512 I couldn't catch my breath. 381 00:15:28,595 --> 00:15:31,765 When they intubated me, I panicked. 382 00:15:31,848 --> 00:15:33,684 They had to hold me down. It was awful. 383 00:15:33,767 --> 00:15:35,477 Okay. Let's stay right there. 384 00:15:35,560 --> 00:15:39,147 Keep following the light and tell me what comes up. 385 00:15:40,023 --> 00:15:42,609 I couldn't relax my body. 386 00:15:42,692 --> 00:15:45,153 I could hear Zora's voice in my head. 387 00:15:46,613 --> 00:15:48,573 -"You're as stiff as a board." -Mm. 388 00:15:48,656 --> 00:15:50,033 And how did that make you feel? 389 00:15:50,116 --> 00:15:51,368 Like a failure. 390 00:15:51,451 --> 00:15:55,330 I felt weak for being so scared. 391 00:15:56,748 --> 00:15:59,834 Those are called negative self-beliefs. 392 00:15:59,918 --> 00:16:02,713 But I also remember telling Zora to shut up in my head. 393 00:16:02,796 --> 00:16:04,881 -Oh. -I stood up for myself. 394 00:16:04,964 --> 00:16:06,424 That's more positive. 395 00:16:06,549 --> 00:16:08,134 Let's go with that. 396 00:16:09,386 --> 00:16:11,722 Describe that memory for me one more time. 397 00:16:11,805 --> 00:16:14,015 I'm in the hospital. 398 00:16:14,140 --> 00:16:16,685 I'm... I'm sick. 399 00:16:16,768 --> 00:16:18,687 I feel like I can't breathe. 400 00:16:18,770 --> 00:16:21,022 That's okay. I-I need to get healthy. 401 00:16:21,106 --> 00:16:22,732 Doctors and nurses... 402 00:16:22,816 --> 00:16:24,359 they intubate me because they... 403 00:16:24,442 --> 00:16:25,527 they want me to get better. 404 00:16:25,610 --> 00:16:27,112 It's scary. 405 00:16:27,195 --> 00:16:29,364 But it's nice, having people take care of me. 406 00:16:29,489 --> 00:16:30,907 Makes me feel... 407 00:16:34,035 --> 00:16:36,663 -...worthy. -Do you often feel unworthy? 408 00:16:36,746 --> 00:16:39,040 It's the nature of the gig, Dr. Pierce. 409 00:16:39,124 --> 00:16:41,752 There are literally a thousand women waiting to replace me. 410 00:16:41,835 --> 00:16:44,295 Can you try to reframe that for me? 411 00:16:46,423 --> 00:16:49,343 I have worked my ass off to be the best at what I do. 412 00:16:49,426 --> 00:16:51,720 Thousands of women want to dance like me. 413 00:16:51,845 --> 00:16:53,221 But... 414 00:16:53,346 --> 00:16:55,223 I am singular. 415 00:16:55,306 --> 00:16:56,725 Damn straight. 416 00:16:58,768 --> 00:17:00,395 We're still working on finding a hospital 417 00:17:00,478 --> 00:17:01,896 that will list Sam. 418 00:17:02,022 --> 00:17:03,607 I'm sorry I don't have better news. 419 00:17:03,690 --> 00:17:05,066 But I'm not giving up. 420 00:17:06,693 --> 00:17:08,194 That's rare, 421 00:17:08,278 --> 00:17:10,030 the kind of attention you're giving him. 422 00:17:10,113 --> 00:17:11,448 Speaking of which, 423 00:17:11,531 --> 00:17:13,074 when was the last time you ate? 424 00:17:14,075 --> 00:17:18,121 Go get some food. 425 00:17:18,204 --> 00:17:19,748 Take care of yourself. 426 00:17:21,958 --> 00:17:23,252 Thank you. 427 00:17:25,378 --> 00:17:28,631 ...please report to Room 312. 428 00:17:28,757 --> 00:17:31,676 ...please report to Room 312. 429 00:17:31,760 --> 00:17:33,011 How's it looking? 430 00:17:33,094 --> 00:17:34,263 I was about to check his eyes, 431 00:17:34,346 --> 00:17:36,014 but vent settings are good. 432 00:17:36,097 --> 00:17:38,308 Only intubated for neuro exam and airway protection. 433 00:17:43,396 --> 00:17:44,606 Dana... 434 00:17:45,899 --> 00:17:47,067 tell me what you see. 435 00:17:52,072 --> 00:17:54,908 Unilaterally enlarged and sluggish pupils. 436 00:17:54,991 --> 00:17:56,576 His cerebral edema could be worsening. 437 00:17:56,659 --> 00:17:58,119 No, this isn't happening. 438 00:17:58,203 --> 00:17:59,913 -Dr. Nichols can fix this. -Mm-hmm. 439 00:17:59,996 --> 00:18:01,957 And... And we will get him listed somewhere, 440 00:18:02,040 --> 00:18:03,292 and everything's gonna be alright. 441 00:18:21,226 --> 00:18:23,144 I'm not dancing tonight, am I? 442 00:18:23,228 --> 00:18:24,479 That's up to you, Juliette. 443 00:18:24,562 --> 00:18:25,856 We recommend that you remain 444 00:18:25,939 --> 00:18:27,566 in the hospital for one night, 445 00:18:27,649 --> 00:18:29,901 face down those fears before they get worse. 446 00:18:29,984 --> 00:18:31,695 It's what's called exposure therapy. 447 00:18:31,778 --> 00:18:34,364 We want to replace that terrifying narrative 448 00:18:34,489 --> 00:18:36,575 that your mind created with a real-life one. 449 00:18:36,658 --> 00:18:38,034 This is the room 450 00:18:38,118 --> 00:18:40,203 where you spent three weeks with pneumonia. 451 00:18:43,665 --> 00:18:46,251 We have a detailed record of every blood draw, 452 00:18:46,334 --> 00:18:49,212 every IV drip, every fever medication. 453 00:18:49,295 --> 00:18:50,964 It will give you a clear sense 454 00:18:51,089 --> 00:18:52,549 of what actually happened in here. 455 00:18:52,632 --> 00:18:54,583 Or, if you'd like, we can discharge you, 456 00:18:54,676 --> 00:18:56,886 and you can make it in time for opening night. 457 00:18:56,970 --> 00:18:58,388 And we'll keep our fingers crossed 458 00:18:58,471 --> 00:18:59,806 that you won't have another episode onstage. 459 00:18:59,889 --> 00:19:01,224 I'm Nico. 460 00:19:01,307 --> 00:19:02,768 I was one of your nurses when you were here. 461 00:19:02,851 --> 00:19:04,561 I assisted with your lumbar puncture. 462 00:19:07,272 --> 00:19:09,274 The Rat King. 463 00:19:11,151 --> 00:19:13,236 I prefer Short King, but I... 464 00:19:13,319 --> 00:19:15,780 And if you do decide to stay, 465 00:19:15,905 --> 00:19:18,492 you and I can binge-watch my favorite prima ballerinas... 466 00:19:18,575 --> 00:19:20,160 "The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City." 467 00:19:20,243 --> 00:19:22,829 The entire Season 1 plot is smelling like hospital. 468 00:19:22,954 --> 00:19:25,457 -Don't explain that to me. -I don't want to know. 469 00:19:25,540 --> 00:19:28,835 I've sacrificed a lot to be a dancer, 470 00:19:28,918 --> 00:19:30,879 but now I'm just supposed to risk it all 471 00:19:30,962 --> 00:19:32,714 to spend a night in a hospital room? 472 00:19:32,797 --> 00:19:35,259 Well, what if you're actually risking it all by leaving? 473 00:19:38,011 --> 00:19:39,846 Once I'm done with the procedure, 474 00:19:39,929 --> 00:19:41,932 Sam's coags need to be tight and under control. 475 00:19:42,015 --> 00:19:44,059 Every second that the bolt is in his skull, 476 00:19:44,142 --> 00:19:45,269 there is a risk of bleeding. 477 00:19:45,352 --> 00:19:46,811 It is an ever present danger. 478 00:19:46,895 --> 00:19:48,021 We'll monitor him around the clock. 479 00:19:48,104 --> 00:19:49,606 Hey. 480 00:19:49,689 --> 00:19:51,400 Silva got word from the nurses in transplant 481 00:19:51,483 --> 00:19:53,193 that there is a liver en route to Bronx General, 482 00:19:53,276 --> 00:19:55,153 but the intended recipient spiked a fever. 483 00:19:55,236 --> 00:19:56,446 He and Sam have the same blood type. 484 00:19:56,529 --> 00:19:57,781 It could be a match. 485 00:19:57,864 --> 00:19:59,491 We have to get him listed here. 486 00:19:59,574 --> 00:20:01,410 Dr. Kinney, even if it doesn't go to the other patient, 487 00:20:01,493 --> 00:20:02,953 it could always go straight to someone else on the list. 488 00:20:03,036 --> 00:20:04,705 There's no guarantee. 489 00:20:04,788 --> 00:20:07,124 But the head of the Transplant Committee, 490 00:20:07,207 --> 00:20:09,543 Dr. Walker, is back in town for the holiday gala tonight. 491 00:20:09,626 --> 00:20:11,295 I hear he has been persuaded in the past 492 00:20:11,378 --> 00:20:12,796 to take cases back to the committee. 493 00:20:12,879 --> 00:20:13,964 Apparently, he's a bit of a sap. 494 00:20:14,047 --> 00:20:15,799 Maybe in person, 495 00:20:15,924 --> 00:20:17,926 we could get him to see what his team missed on paper. 496 00:20:18,009 --> 00:20:20,136 You do your part, we'll do ours. 497 00:20:20,261 --> 00:20:22,472 Let's get gussied up. We're going to get Sam a liver. 498 00:20:25,225 --> 00:20:27,811 Dr. Nichols suggested I pull at this guy's heartstrings. 499 00:20:27,894 --> 00:20:29,521 Any tips? 500 00:20:29,604 --> 00:20:32,357 If he doesn't take Sam's side after hearing his story, 501 00:20:32,440 --> 00:20:34,776 -he doesn't have a heart. -Agreed. 502 00:20:34,859 --> 00:20:36,611 Just be you, Kinney. 503 00:20:36,695 --> 00:20:39,990 Guys, I just met with a shelter that knows Sam. 504 00:20:40,073 --> 00:20:41,742 He stayed there a bunch, 505 00:20:41,825 --> 00:20:43,785 and apparently, he showed up at their mobile blood bank 506 00:20:43,868 --> 00:20:45,234 every month to donate blood. 507 00:20:45,328 --> 00:20:46,663 Like clockwork, they said. 508 00:20:46,746 --> 00:20:48,290 He never missed it. They had it all logged. 509 00:20:48,373 --> 00:20:49,958 -Look. -Oh, my God. 510 00:20:50,959 --> 00:20:53,628 This demonstrates commitment and organization, 511 00:20:53,712 --> 00:20:55,463 and it shows that Sam can handle 512 00:20:55,547 --> 00:20:57,132 post-transplant immunosuppressants. 513 00:20:57,215 --> 00:21:00,427 Michelle, this is huge! Thank you. 514 00:21:04,389 --> 00:21:05,932 You look great. 515 00:21:07,058 --> 00:21:08,601 Nice work. 516 00:21:08,727 --> 00:21:10,812 So, uh, meet you at the gala? 517 00:21:10,895 --> 00:21:12,522 Well, actually, um, 518 00:21:12,605 --> 00:21:14,691 I was thinking maybe you should just go solo. 519 00:21:14,774 --> 00:21:17,819 Liam throws a tantrum if I'm not there at bedtime. 520 00:21:17,902 --> 00:21:19,320 You know that. 521 00:21:19,446 --> 00:21:20,781 So it's probably just easier if I stay home 522 00:21:20,864 --> 00:21:22,657 and you go do your thing. 523 00:21:24,367 --> 00:21:26,036 Why do I feel like you're trying to wreck this 524 00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:27,663 before it even starts? 525 00:21:27,746 --> 00:21:29,122 I-I thought we were all-in. 526 00:21:32,792 --> 00:21:34,503 You know I'm crazy about you, Van. 527 00:21:34,586 --> 00:21:38,006 I always have been, and I probably always will be. 528 00:21:38,089 --> 00:21:40,675 I don't know if I could handle another heartbreak, 529 00:21:40,759 --> 00:21:41,885 but I know Liam can't. 530 00:21:41,968 --> 00:21:43,345 -So... -No, no, no, no. 531 00:21:43,470 --> 00:21:44,429 There won't be another heartbreak. 532 00:21:44,512 --> 00:21:45,764 You're it for me. 533 00:21:46,598 --> 00:21:50,686 Like, I-I don't think love is about butterflies. 534 00:21:50,769 --> 00:21:53,563 I think it's about finding someone 535 00:21:53,646 --> 00:21:56,358 who calms your nervous system. 536 00:21:56,483 --> 00:21:58,651 And I want to be that person for you, 537 00:21:58,777 --> 00:22:00,987 because you're that person for me. 538 00:22:02,447 --> 00:22:06,201 I promise you, okay, I'm... I'm not going anywhere. 539 00:22:18,171 --> 00:22:19,715 Okay. 540 00:22:19,798 --> 00:22:21,299 I'll see you there. 541 00:22:23,218 --> 00:22:24,761 -Yeah? -Yeah. 542 00:22:24,844 --> 00:22:26,304 Mm. 543 00:22:28,181 --> 00:22:29,600 Okay. 544 00:22:31,518 --> 00:22:35,021 ...the woman whose birthday was celebrated... 545 00:22:35,814 --> 00:22:37,273 Hey, it's okay. 546 00:22:37,399 --> 00:22:38,859 The monitor is just measuring your heart rate. 547 00:22:38,942 --> 00:22:41,236 I can turn the volume down if you want. 548 00:22:41,319 --> 00:22:43,030 No, it's okay. I... 549 00:22:43,113 --> 00:22:45,615 I need to experience all the triggers. 550 00:22:45,699 --> 00:22:48,410 I can't dance with PTSD. I need to get better, 551 00:22:48,493 --> 00:22:51,079 even if it means Zora's gonna ice me out for weeks. 552 00:22:51,162 --> 00:22:52,664 It's infuriating, isn't it? 553 00:22:53,540 --> 00:22:55,584 I mean, that our mentors punish us? 554 00:22:55,667 --> 00:22:57,544 I find it... 555 00:22:57,669 --> 00:22:59,087 motivating. 556 00:22:59,921 --> 00:23:02,090 I had this epiphany today. 557 00:23:03,133 --> 00:23:05,510 I don't want her approval. 558 00:23:07,262 --> 00:23:09,597 I want her to look at me onstage one day 559 00:23:09,681 --> 00:23:11,057 and realize that... 560 00:23:12,684 --> 00:23:14,102 I'm better than her. 561 00:23:17,272 --> 00:23:20,900 She doesn't know it now, but she's creating a monster. 562 00:23:29,826 --> 00:23:31,995 Hudson Oaks must have some deep pockets, 563 00:23:32,078 --> 00:23:34,539 because this party is nice! 564 00:23:34,664 --> 00:23:36,583 I'm gonna take a quick lap, 565 00:23:36,666 --> 00:23:38,919 see if I can spot any committee members. 566 00:23:46,384 --> 00:23:49,137 One night with him, you'll forget you were ever married. 567 00:23:49,262 --> 00:23:50,889 What? 568 00:23:51,014 --> 00:23:53,516 Shoot your shot, Dr. Pierce, 569 00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:55,268 or somebody else will. 570 00:24:01,941 --> 00:24:03,944 Any eyes on the target? 571 00:24:04,027 --> 00:24:05,653 -Not yet. -Oh! 572 00:24:05,737 --> 00:24:06,989 I came up empty on finding anyone 573 00:24:07,072 --> 00:24:08,782 in the Transplant Committee. 574 00:24:08,865 --> 00:24:10,867 But no stakeout is complete without pigs in a blanket. 575 00:24:10,950 --> 00:24:13,745 2:00. That's Walker. 576 00:24:13,870 --> 00:24:15,706 Okay. It's now or never. 577 00:24:15,789 --> 00:24:16,873 But do you want me to... 578 00:24:16,956 --> 00:24:18,667 No. I got this. 579 00:24:18,750 --> 00:24:21,169 I've been practicing my speech in my head all day. 580 00:24:21,252 --> 00:24:24,298 ...short game couldn't be worse. 581 00:24:24,381 --> 00:24:26,675 So I let him know you play a little worse, 582 00:24:26,800 --> 00:24:28,927 I can call this game a charity case, 583 00:24:29,052 --> 00:24:30,470 write it off on my taxes. 584 00:24:34,641 --> 00:24:36,184 Dr. Walker, can I talk to you for a second? 585 00:24:36,267 --> 00:24:38,186 Uh, certainly. 586 00:24:38,269 --> 00:24:39,229 Excuse us, gentlemen. 587 00:24:39,312 --> 00:24:41,023 -Mm-hmm. -Of course. 588 00:24:41,106 --> 00:24:42,857 -Hi. I am Dr. Ericka Kinney. -Hi. 589 00:24:42,982 --> 00:24:45,027 I'm a neurologist at Bronx General. 590 00:24:45,110 --> 00:24:47,487 I wanted to talk to you about one of our patients 591 00:24:47,612 --> 00:24:49,823 your committee denied listing for a transplant. 592 00:24:49,906 --> 00:24:53,118 Sam Mapesbury is in our care with acute liver failure. 593 00:24:53,201 --> 00:24:55,495 There is a liver arriving right now 594 00:24:55,620 --> 00:24:57,330 that we believe he is a match for. 595 00:24:57,455 --> 00:24:59,207 Sam is on death's doorstep, 596 00:24:59,290 --> 00:25:00,459 but if you put him on that list... 597 00:25:00,542 --> 00:25:02,377 There were a number of reasons 598 00:25:02,460 --> 00:25:05,464 we decided that case was a poor candidate for transplant. 599 00:25:05,547 --> 00:25:07,799 Yes, but I have new, relevant information that proves 600 00:25:07,882 --> 00:25:10,594 that he is capable of handling post-transplant care. 601 00:25:10,677 --> 00:25:13,388 All the reasons we declined to list your patient remain true. 602 00:25:13,471 --> 00:25:15,015 This is all too little, too late. 603 00:25:15,098 --> 00:25:16,725 I can't take this back to the committee. 604 00:25:37,412 --> 00:25:39,998 If... If I could have your attention, please. 605 00:25:40,081 --> 00:25:42,709 Um, thank you all for coming tonight. 606 00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:46,713 None of this would be possible without my mother, 607 00:25:46,838 --> 00:25:48,799 uh, who planned this whole event, 608 00:25:48,882 --> 00:25:50,259 even after she retired. 609 00:25:55,388 --> 00:25:59,392 My question for everyone here tonight is who deserves care? 610 00:25:59,517 --> 00:26:02,062 People always say doctors are the heroes. 611 00:26:02,187 --> 00:26:04,773 That's a bit aggrandizing for my taste. 612 00:26:04,856 --> 00:26:08,610 I know firsthand that patients are the real heroes, 613 00:26:08,693 --> 00:26:11,154 like a young man named Sam Mapesbury, 614 00:26:11,237 --> 00:26:14,115 who has been grappling with mental illness 615 00:26:14,240 --> 00:26:17,285 and subsequently acute liver failure. 616 00:26:17,369 --> 00:26:22,499 He is in a hospital room at Bronx General right now, 617 00:26:22,582 --> 00:26:24,834 fighting for his life. 618 00:26:24,918 --> 00:26:27,837 He will die without a new liver. 619 00:26:27,921 --> 00:26:31,383 But the harsh reality is that patients with mental illness 620 00:26:31,508 --> 00:26:35,804 are often summarily rejected from organ-transplant lists. 621 00:26:35,887 --> 00:26:38,390 Every other hospital in this city 622 00:26:38,473 --> 00:26:41,851 found a reason not to list Mr. Mapesbury for a liver. 623 00:26:41,935 --> 00:26:43,311 But... 624 00:26:44,688 --> 00:26:45,980 at Bronx General, 625 00:26:46,106 --> 00:26:47,524 we have doctors like Bernard Walker, 626 00:26:47,607 --> 00:26:49,526 the head of our transplant team, 627 00:26:49,609 --> 00:26:51,278 who didn't hesitate for a moment 628 00:26:51,361 --> 00:26:53,488 to recognize this young man's potential 629 00:26:53,613 --> 00:26:56,491 and put him at the top of the list. 630 00:26:56,574 --> 00:27:00,120 Dr. Walker is giving Sam Mapesbury 631 00:27:00,245 --> 00:27:02,122 that second chance at life, 632 00:27:02,247 --> 00:27:03,957 and it's because of people like him 633 00:27:04,082 --> 00:27:07,711 that I am proud to work at Bronx General, 634 00:27:07,794 --> 00:27:14,134 where we believe that everyone deserves care. 635 00:27:14,217 --> 00:27:16,136 Thank you. 636 00:27:18,138 --> 00:27:19,139 Yes. 637 00:27:24,436 --> 00:27:26,062 Bernard... 638 00:27:26,187 --> 00:27:28,606 what an absolute angel you are. 639 00:27:29,607 --> 00:27:33,111 For any of you motivated to donate, 640 00:27:33,194 --> 00:27:35,488 this is what your dollars are going towards. 641 00:27:36,322 --> 00:27:38,324 Thank you again, Bernard. 642 00:27:45,832 --> 00:27:52,589 Hudson Oaks would like to match any donations up to $100,000. 643 00:28:03,224 --> 00:28:05,435 What the hell did you just do? 644 00:28:05,518 --> 00:28:08,939 Uh, I made you a hero, 645 00:28:09,022 --> 00:28:11,566 and I helped you save a young man's life. 646 00:28:11,649 --> 00:28:13,401 Our donors seem to approve. 647 00:28:14,986 --> 00:28:18,323 Or I can walk onstage and say that Dr. Wolf had it wrong, 648 00:28:18,448 --> 00:28:20,075 that you actually don't want to listen 649 00:28:20,158 --> 00:28:21,410 and that you're gonna let him die. 650 00:28:21,493 --> 00:28:23,078 Fine. 651 00:28:23,161 --> 00:28:25,205 You win. He's on the list. 652 00:28:25,330 --> 00:28:26,873 Know this... 653 00:28:26,956 --> 00:28:30,168 I have a very long memory. 654 00:28:41,471 --> 00:28:44,099 Go. 655 00:28:44,182 --> 00:28:47,560 Excuse me. 656 00:28:56,736 --> 00:28:58,113 Carol. 657 00:28:58,196 --> 00:29:00,281 Is your ex-husband on the premises? 658 00:29:00,407 --> 00:29:02,283 What? No. Why? 659 00:29:03,201 --> 00:29:06,622 Because that is what the kids would call a revenge dress. 660 00:29:08,039 --> 00:29:09,499 Oh, this old thing? 661 00:29:09,582 --> 00:29:11,167 Mm. 662 00:29:11,292 --> 00:29:14,379 Well, you clean up pretty well yourself, Dr. Thorne. 663 00:29:14,462 --> 00:29:17,966 -Careful, Dr. Pierce. -My ego thrives on validation. 664 00:29:18,091 --> 00:29:19,801 Speaking of which, 665 00:29:19,884 --> 00:29:21,136 I got to hand it to your boy Wolf with that speech. 666 00:29:21,219 --> 00:29:23,430 He is annoying as all hell, 667 00:29:23,513 --> 00:29:25,181 but when it works, it works. 668 00:29:25,265 --> 00:29:28,309 Um, I prefer audacious. 669 00:29:28,435 --> 00:29:31,354 But yes, sometimes his spontaneity does drive me to drink. 670 00:29:31,438 --> 00:29:32,814 Mm-hmm. 671 00:29:33,898 --> 00:29:35,817 Oh, Dr. Thorne, 672 00:29:35,900 --> 00:29:37,694 well, contrary to popular belief, 673 00:29:37,777 --> 00:29:39,571 you may in fact be a gentleman. 674 00:29:39,696 --> 00:29:42,949 -Is that my drink? -Mm. 675 00:29:45,035 --> 00:29:46,370 Babe, I said just vodka. 676 00:29:46,453 --> 00:29:49,914 -Oh. -Dr. Pierce, your dress is fire. 677 00:29:50,040 --> 00:29:51,416 Thank you, Justine. 678 00:29:53,209 --> 00:29:54,377 Oh. 679 00:29:54,502 --> 00:29:56,671 I didn't realize you two were... 680 00:29:56,755 --> 00:29:58,173 A total heat score? 681 00:29:58,298 --> 00:29:59,758 JK. 682 00:29:59,841 --> 00:30:01,426 No, I just worked down in the ED a lot, 683 00:30:01,509 --> 00:30:04,346 so it was only a matter of time before we caught a vibe. 684 00:30:09,309 --> 00:30:10,602 Um... 685 00:30:11,436 --> 00:30:13,689 So she's how you know what the kids are saying. 686 00:30:19,736 --> 00:30:22,113 What an inspiring evening this has been. 687 00:30:22,238 --> 00:30:26,493 Every year, we invite one of our most promising residents 688 00:30:26,576 --> 00:30:29,663 to share the story of why they became a doctor. 689 00:30:29,746 --> 00:30:32,499 Please help me welcome the newest member 690 00:30:32,582 --> 00:30:35,877 of our Neurology department, Dr. Charlie Porter. 691 00:30:37,671 --> 00:30:40,548 -Wait. Did you know about this? -No. 692 00:30:45,637 --> 00:30:48,098 Thank you, Dr. Landon, for inviting me to speak. 693 00:30:48,223 --> 00:30:52,894 Um, it's, um, ironic that I work in a hospital 694 00:30:52,977 --> 00:30:55,563 because for years, I avoided them. 695 00:30:55,647 --> 00:30:58,108 Um, when I was 10 years old, 696 00:30:58,233 --> 00:31:00,985 my mother was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. 697 00:31:01,111 --> 00:31:03,488 Uh, before her diagnosis, 698 00:31:03,613 --> 00:31:05,324 I remember she was happy all the time. 699 00:31:05,407 --> 00:31:08,243 Her eyes would light up when I walked in a room. 700 00:31:08,326 --> 00:31:09,786 She never missed a bedtime. 701 00:31:09,869 --> 00:31:12,789 And before I'd fall asleep, she'd say to me, 702 00:31:12,872 --> 00:31:17,419 "I'm so lucky to be your mom." 703 00:31:19,879 --> 00:31:21,339 But I was the lucky one. 704 00:31:22,549 --> 00:31:25,260 Lord, I am not gonna be able to get through this. 705 00:31:26,386 --> 00:31:28,680 My mom was one in a million. 706 00:31:28,805 --> 00:31:30,098 After she got sick, 707 00:31:30,181 --> 00:31:32,892 um, she missed a lot of bedtimes. 708 00:31:32,976 --> 00:31:36,062 I remember the light in her eyes faded. 709 00:31:36,146 --> 00:31:38,773 I remembered that she suffered immensely. 710 00:31:38,898 --> 00:31:42,361 But most of all, I remember her doctor. 711 00:31:42,444 --> 00:31:47,615 He was young, smart, dedicated, and I looked up to him. 712 00:31:47,699 --> 00:31:50,618 He told my dad that he'd be with us every step of the way, 713 00:31:50,702 --> 00:31:52,412 and he was. 714 00:31:52,495 --> 00:31:55,958 And he is the reason that I pursued medicine... 715 00:31:57,917 --> 00:32:00,545 ...not because he saved my mom, 716 00:32:00,628 --> 00:32:04,549 but because he dangled the possibility that he could. 717 00:32:04,632 --> 00:32:08,762 He let my family cling to that belief. 718 00:32:08,845 --> 00:32:10,347 Which is why 719 00:32:10,430 --> 00:32:12,932 we were so completely unprepared when she died. 720 00:32:13,892 --> 00:32:14,976 Are you okay? 721 00:32:17,062 --> 00:32:20,106 When I got to medical school, I realized that my mother 722 00:32:20,190 --> 00:32:24,027 never had any chance of surviving her prognosis. 723 00:32:24,152 --> 00:32:28,490 I realized that her doctor sold her a fantasy 724 00:32:28,573 --> 00:32:32,452 because he couldn't bear to help her face the truth. 725 00:32:32,535 --> 00:32:34,120 I believe that as doctors, 726 00:32:34,245 --> 00:32:36,373 we are not in the business of selling fantasies. 727 00:32:36,456 --> 00:32:40,293 I believe that we are in the business of telling the truth. 728 00:32:41,920 --> 00:32:43,630 So all I can hope... 729 00:32:46,383 --> 00:32:48,843 ...is that when I'm honest with my patients... 730 00:32:50,136 --> 00:32:52,013 I'm making my mom proud. 731 00:33:00,814 --> 00:33:02,733 Mrs. Mapesbury. 732 00:33:02,816 --> 00:33:04,609 It's okay. It's okay. 733 00:33:04,734 --> 00:33:06,403 Where are you taking him? 734 00:33:06,528 --> 00:33:08,030 -Wait. Where Are you taking him? -It's okay, it's okay. 735 00:33:08,113 --> 00:33:10,198 We got him listed. 736 00:33:10,281 --> 00:33:11,991 We got him a liver. 737 00:33:12,117 --> 00:33:13,993 It's a match. 738 00:33:14,119 --> 00:33:16,246 He's going into surgery right now. 739 00:33:20,917 --> 00:33:23,128 I can't believe it. 740 00:33:23,253 --> 00:33:25,463 I can't believe it! 741 00:33:25,547 --> 00:33:27,049 -Clamped in. -We're ready to go. 742 00:33:32,971 --> 00:33:35,223 -It's okay. -Thank you. 743 00:33:35,306 --> 00:33:36,683 It's okay. 744 00:33:41,604 --> 00:33:44,274 You look upset, Dr. Wolf. 745 00:33:44,357 --> 00:33:46,067 Is it because I upstaged you? 746 00:33:46,192 --> 00:33:48,153 You didn't come work for me to learn from the best. 747 00:33:48,236 --> 00:33:49,905 You came because what? What... to punish me? 748 00:33:49,988 --> 00:33:53,033 I wanted to meet the doctor who ruined my life, 749 00:33:53,116 --> 00:33:55,118 make sure that you would never ruin anyone else. 750 00:33:55,201 --> 00:33:56,616 So you want to get me fired? 751 00:33:56,703 --> 00:33:58,330 Well, it wouldn't be the first time. 752 00:33:58,413 --> 00:34:00,248 Charlie, when I was treating your mom, I was young. 753 00:34:00,331 --> 00:34:02,083 I was learning. 754 00:34:02,167 --> 00:34:03,918 I still am. But she... 755 00:34:04,044 --> 00:34:06,838 She didn't want to give up. She refused to give up. 756 00:34:06,963 --> 00:34:08,757 She wanted to keep fighting. I cared deeply about her. 757 00:34:08,840 --> 00:34:11,509 No, don't... don't do your whole empathy thing. 758 00:34:11,634 --> 00:34:12,677 You were her doctor. 759 00:34:12,802 --> 00:34:15,138 I was her son, okay? 760 00:34:15,221 --> 00:34:16,723 I cared deeply, not you. 761 00:34:16,848 --> 00:34:18,934 I know what it's like to lose a parent. 762 00:34:19,017 --> 00:34:20,102 No, you don't! 763 00:34:20,185 --> 00:34:21,979 Your father's alive. 764 00:34:22,062 --> 00:34:25,398 He just chose not to be with you. 765 00:34:25,523 --> 00:34:27,942 Twice, from what I've heard. 766 00:34:28,026 --> 00:34:30,945 -You're angry. -I understand that. 767 00:34:31,071 --> 00:34:33,281 But lying to me, infiltrating my department, 768 00:34:33,406 --> 00:34:36,409 trying to get revenge is not gonna bring her back. 769 00:34:36,534 --> 00:34:39,037 If you think this is just about my mom, 770 00:34:39,120 --> 00:34:41,754 maybe you really weren't with us every step of the way. 771 00:34:43,833 --> 00:34:45,419 My father couldn't handle 772 00:34:45,502 --> 00:34:48,421 all of the suffering that you put her through. 773 00:34:48,546 --> 00:34:51,466 So he hit the bottle, hard. 774 00:34:51,549 --> 00:34:55,220 Four years after my mom died, he drank himself to death. 775 00:34:57,514 --> 00:35:01,852 I have been alone since I was 14, Wolf. 776 00:35:03,395 --> 00:35:05,022 I'm so sorry. 777 00:35:05,105 --> 00:35:06,898 I don't forgive you. 778 00:35:07,023 --> 00:35:09,526 Not processing trauma... 779 00:35:09,609 --> 00:35:11,611 It can break a person. 780 00:35:11,736 --> 00:35:12,862 Mm. 781 00:35:27,961 --> 00:35:30,755 -What is this? -An address. 782 00:35:30,880 --> 00:35:33,008 It's where your father is. 783 00:35:34,092 --> 00:35:35,510 It wasn't very hard to find either. 784 00:35:35,593 --> 00:35:37,593 But I don't think you even tried, did you? 785 00:35:39,389 --> 00:35:40,890 Oh. Like you said, 786 00:35:40,974 --> 00:35:44,060 not processing trauma can break a person. 787 00:35:44,144 --> 00:35:47,313 So let's see who breaks first. 788 00:36:07,667 --> 00:36:09,670 I want to thank everyone 789 00:36:09,753 --> 00:36:12,381 for your record-setting donations tonight. 790 00:36:12,464 --> 00:36:16,384 All of us here at Bronx General are incredibly grateful. 791 00:36:16,468 --> 00:36:20,388 And I hope that you'll indulge me in one final tradition. 792 00:36:34,277 --> 00:36:40,408 ♪ Have yourself a merry little Christmas ♪ 793 00:36:42,869 --> 00:36:49,869 ♪ Let your heart be light ♪ 794 00:36:50,335 --> 00:36:53,088 ♪ Next year... ♪ 795 00:36:53,171 --> 00:36:56,257 -What? What is going on? -Was Charlie's speech about... 796 00:36:57,884 --> 00:37:02,889 ♪ ...out of sight ♪ 797 00:37:07,102 --> 00:37:09,396 ♪ Have yourself... ♪ 798 00:37:09,479 --> 00:37:12,899 Looking good, Dr. Nichols. 799 00:37:13,024 --> 00:37:15,485 You sure you're not into women? 800 00:37:15,568 --> 00:37:18,154 Not, uh, since basic training. 801 00:37:22,409 --> 00:37:24,828 ♪ From now on... ♪ 802 00:37:24,911 --> 00:37:27,539 So, what did I miss? 803 00:37:27,622 --> 00:37:29,624 Who embarrassed themselves this year? 804 00:37:29,749 --> 00:37:33,503 Ah. I believe that might have been me. 805 00:37:33,586 --> 00:37:35,338 -Mm-hmm. -Impossible. 806 00:37:38,591 --> 00:37:40,218 Hey, can I ask? 807 00:37:40,343 --> 00:37:42,262 ♪ ...as in olden days ♪ 808 00:37:42,429 --> 00:37:44,473 Have you noticed anything... 809 00:37:44,556 --> 00:37:46,766 off about Wolf? 810 00:37:51,521 --> 00:37:53,982 I miss Jen Shah. 811 00:37:54,065 --> 00:37:56,318 She's in federal prison now. 812 00:38:03,408 --> 00:38:05,243 My friend's at the ballet. 813 00:38:06,953 --> 00:38:09,456 Nina just got a standing ovation. 814 00:38:13,960 --> 00:38:16,129 Good for her. 815 00:38:16,254 --> 00:38:18,340 Every dog deserves her day. 816 00:38:29,309 --> 00:38:31,811 Sam's almost out of surgery. 817 00:38:31,895 --> 00:38:33,355 I just checked in. 818 00:38:33,438 --> 00:38:35,023 Zero complications. 819 00:38:37,442 --> 00:38:39,402 That sounds like a reason to celebrate. 820 00:38:43,823 --> 00:38:45,700 Mm. 821 00:38:49,245 --> 00:38:53,458 You did an incredible thing, getting Sam on that list. 822 00:38:53,541 --> 00:38:55,710 I think Wolfe gets the credit for that one. 823 00:38:55,794 --> 00:38:58,087 But that would have never happened without you. 824 00:38:59,631 --> 00:39:01,049 You saved his life. 825 00:39:01,174 --> 00:39:02,550 You did. 826 00:39:05,637 --> 00:39:07,514 You're amazing. 827 00:39:24,823 --> 00:39:26,533 So are you. 828 00:39:37,085 --> 00:39:44,085 ♪ Have yourself a merry, little Christmas ♪ 829 00:39:45,677 --> 00:39:52,100 ♪ Make the Yuletide gay ♪ 830 00:39:52,183 --> 00:39:59,183 ♪ From now on, our troubles will be miles awa-a-a-a-y ♪ 831 00:39:59,524 --> 00:40:06,524 ♪ From now on, our troubles will be miles awa-a-a-a-y ♪ 832 00:40:06,781 --> 00:40:12,704 ♪ Here we are, as in olden days ♪ 833 00:40:12,787 --> 00:40:19,787 ♪ Happy, golden days of yore ♪ 834 00:40:21,838 --> 00:40:28,219 ♪ Faithful friends who are dear to us ♪ 835 00:40:28,303 --> 00:40:35,303 ♪ Gather near to us once more ♪ 836 00:40:35,894 --> 00:40:42,894 ♪ Through the years, we all will be together ♪ 837 00:40:43,693 --> 00:40:45,362 You get stood up? 838 00:40:45,528 --> 00:40:47,530 I think so. 839 00:40:47,697 --> 00:40:49,115 It's fine. 840 00:40:49,199 --> 00:40:51,326 Probably putting too much pressure on her. 841 00:40:53,244 --> 00:40:55,205 She'll come around when she sees you play kickball. 842 00:40:55,288 --> 00:41:00,961 ♪ ...star upon the highest bo-o-o-ough ♪ 843 00:41:01,044 --> 00:41:06,758 ♪ ...star upon the highest bo-o-o-ough ♪ 844 00:41:06,925 --> 00:41:08,510 Want to get a pizza? 845 00:41:08,635 --> 00:41:10,137 I love pizza. 846 00:41:10,220 --> 00:41:16,810 ♪ Have yourself a merry, little... ♪ 847 00:41:16,893 --> 00:41:22,149 ♪ ...Christmas now ♪ 848 00:41:22,232 --> 00:41:27,654 ♪ ...Christmas now ♪