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Man:
How is the volume
and stuff now?
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- The volume's good.
- Cool. Here we go.
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All right.
One, two, three, that's hot.
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This is Paris.
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Paris Hilton. Paris.
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This is Paris Hilton.
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How many voices do I have?
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Man: That's pretty good.
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Woman:
That was your real voice.
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This is Paris Hilton.
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This is Paris Hilton.
No, this is.
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( laughter )
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- "No, this is."
- This is Paris Hilton.
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Paris ( bleep ) Hilton.
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This is Paris ( bleep ) Hilton!
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( music playing )
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♪ Listen to the girl ♪
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♪ As she takes on
half the world ♪
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Barbara Walters:
Paris Hilton is a new breed
of celebrity,
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famous for being famous.
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Matt Lauer: She is
the great granddaughter
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of the hotel magnate
Conrad Hilton,
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a model,
and a gossip column favorite.
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- Paris!
- Paris! Go, girl.
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Anderson Cooper:
Hilton mania climaxed
this week.
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More than 13 million
people watched her show
"The Simple Life."
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That's hot. That's hot.
That's hot.
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Man:
Paris Hilton is everywhere!
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Man 2: Washing her Bentley,
eating a Carl's Jr. burger.
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Man 3:
America has embraced
Paris' brand.
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♪ I can do ♪
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David Letterman: All you
hear people talking about,
the Paris Hilton sex video.
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♪ For you ♪
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Woman:
Paris is an irresistable
punchline.
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Red:
Wow, that's really her!
Paris, over here!
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Wendy: I don't get it.
What does she do?
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She's totally spoiled
and snobby.
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- What does she do?
- ♪ For you ♪
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You ditched the old blonde girl
going to parties image.
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You've now become
this big business woman.
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17 product lines.
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You're going to start
a hotel chain.
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- Not a Hilton chain, your one.
- Paris: Yes.
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Piers Morgan:
This is big business.
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- That's hot. That's hot.
- That's hot.
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- Loves it.
- Loves it.
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You're the number one
female DJ in the world,
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and you get paid
$1 million per DJ gig.
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The life you have now,
I mean, is it everything
you want it to be?
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Is there a next level?
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♪ Just like honey ♪
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♪ Just like honey ♪
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♪ Just like honey ♪
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♪ Just like honey ♪
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♪ Just like honey ♪
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Okay, shoes.
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Diamond, come here, honey.
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I love you.
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Paris:
When I first started
this film,
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I honestly don't even recognize
that person anymore.
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Ever since we started
shooting this,
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I've realized a lot more
about myself.
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I'm nervous. I'm shaking.
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It's hard to even eat
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'cause my stomach is just,
like, turning.
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I don't know.
It's something that's
very personal
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and not something
I like talking about.
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I feel like the whole world
thinks they know me
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because I've been playing
this character for so long.
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I've always heard
that people hang out
at Walmart.
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- Why? What is Walmart?
- I don't know.
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It's, like,
they sell wall stuff?
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- What is it?
- Did you really?
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That's not me.
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No one really knows
who I am.
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Something happened
in my childhood
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that I've never talked about
with anyone.
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I still have
nightmares about it.
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I wish I could bring, like,
a camera into my dreams
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and, like, show you
what it's like. It's--
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- it's terrifying...
- ( shuddering )
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...and I relive that
every night.
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( whimpering )
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I experienced it
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and to this day
I'm still traumatized.
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And I think the only way
to have these nightmares stop
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is to do something
about it.
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All right, here we go.
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I'll just be normal.
Sorry, I'm so used to, like,
playing a character
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that it's, like, hard for me
to, like, be normal.
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I always, like,
when a camera's around,
like, turn into someone else.
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We're driving to
my grandfather's house.
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My grandfather doesn't know
we're shooting there.
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Like, he has no idea.
Like, he's-- hates cameras.
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I did not inherit
that part from him.
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( music playing )
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You're so-- Diamond!
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I love you.
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When I talk,
do you want me looking
in the camera
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- or just looking off camera?
- Right past it.
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I'm gonna be next to it.
Talk to me.
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- Okay.
- All right, can we--
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Go back. Do it again.
Real walk, Paris.
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What do you mean?
I'm not on a runway?
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So cute that
he put this up.
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These pictures are so classic.
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This is my grandfather Barron
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and his brother Nicky Hilton
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and my grandmother Marilyn.
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Yeah.
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Oh, my God.
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Glued all
the crystals on myself.
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There's me with Nancy Reagan
and my parents.
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My family has always been
very conservative.
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Being part of this family,
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it's a lot of pressure,
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it's a lot of weight,
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because I feel like
I'm carrying on a legacy.
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Dad:
Oh, wow. Look at Paris.
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Woman:
Honey, a cashmere sweater.
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( indistinct chatter )
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Well, my great-grandfather
and my grandfather
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created an insane empire
of hotels.
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And growing up,
that was a lot to live up to.
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It was hard to just, like,
totally be myself.
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- Dad: Hi, Stars.
- Paris: I was nicknamed Star.
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Dad: What are you
excited about, Star?
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Because I was his first baby,
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my dad always
was filming everything,
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so I just remember always
having a camera around.
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- I was a little girl...
- Kiss the bunny.
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...who was just
this free spirit.
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I had not been through
any trauma yet.
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- ( squeals )
- Give me a pretty face.
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Give me a nice face.
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Kyle Richards:
Paris came over,
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and I always would do
her makeup.
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I think there was probably
too much focus
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when she was little on how
beautiful she was, honestly.
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- You want to see
a pretty face?
- Yeah.
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A cute one?
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This is a little cute face.
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- And what's your face then?
- A little poopie face.
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( laughing )
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( music playing )
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Paris: Growing up,
my mom and her sisters
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were child actresses
and models.
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Good-bye, Tommy.
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My grandmother
was a single mom,
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and my mom was a model
ever since she was a baby.
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There's just so many
beautiful photos of her
when she was a little girl.
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( indstinct chatter )
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My grandmother
saw something in me...
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- Action!
- Hi, Susan.
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Hi, baby.
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...always making me feel
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that I can be whoever
I wanted to be.
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Excuse me?
Are you that famous actress?
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- Mm-hmm.
- What's your name again?
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Paula Abdul.
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Bo Derek?
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- Here's a short one.
- Star, I want to put
these on first.
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I don't want these
on there.
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But my mom didn't
want me in the modeling
and acting worlds,
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and I think she just wanted
something different for me.
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You cannot take these things
'cause these are mine.
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Well, I'm gonna get
them scanned,
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No, I'm saying
these things are mine.
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That's so cute.
Am I, like, 11 here?
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Like, nine.
Now, here's you
starting to walk.
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When you were--
this was your first birthday.
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And you know how I know
that you talked?
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We would say,
"Paris, who's the president
of the United States?"
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- Do you remember
what you'd say?
- I was one.
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- Do you think
I'm gonna remember?
- You'd say Bushy George.
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Paris:
I look at my mom and dad
and they've been together
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since my mom was 15.
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My mom was 19
when she had me.
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Kathy:
We always loved
the city Paris,
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and we wanted a beautiful,
unique name.
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And we looked at her
and we said, "This is Paris."
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Rick is very private
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and I don't think
he was really comfortable
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doing an interview
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and explaining his life story
or his family's.
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The Hilton family,
there are eight children.
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The first five,
they got millions
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and millions of dollars.
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And then
the three younger ones,
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they did not.
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Dad: Here we are at
the new Staircase location.
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So my husband and I,
you know, we worked.
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- Dad: Hello, honey.
- Hi.
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Paris:
My mom just wanted
my sister and I
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to be, like,
these little princesses.
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I went to Catholic school
for most of my childhood.
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All: I remember.
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My mom always taught me
to be very proper,
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private,
and to always portray
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that everything
was perfect.
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( indistinct chatter )
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My mom just wanted me
to be a Hilton...
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...and I just wanted
to be Paris.
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Alpha, Beta, Charlie,
take one.
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Can I just preface this
by saying I don't do these
types of interviews?
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I've-- in the past 20 years,
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I've chosen to not really
partake in them.
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But in order for this
to be genuine and authentic,
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there's no one in the world
that knows her better than me.
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It's so funny,
because her brand
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is a lot more glamorous
than she is.
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( groans )
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She's a chick
who likes to scrapbook
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at home with her dogs,
eat leftovers.
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Yasss.
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She sounds like Homer Simpson.
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No, but she's very normal.
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- Paris, let's ( bleep ) go.
- I know.
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- Move it for the animals.
- Ahh!
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- Brush my fangs.
- I don't want to be late.
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It's my most normal thing
in the world to be late.
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- I don't even know how
we're related.
- ( laughs )
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- Bye, guys. Love you.
- All: Bye.
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- Dude, I don't have
a little square.
- Bye, guys!
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I have no square,
so I'm bringing all these wires.
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- Paris is addicted to drama.
- Oh, no, no, no, no!
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Go. I'm not leaving
my sunglasses. I can't.
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- You are going to a ( bleep )
animal banquet, Paris.
- I know, but I need them.
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- No, you do not need them.
- Yes I do. It'll take one--
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They're on the table.
Please?
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Always has to be
fast-paced and going,
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and even leaving the house,
and losing the phone,
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and running back
to get the laptop.
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There's always
some form of dramedy.
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- I'm going in the car.
- I swear to God, they're
right on the counter.
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God damn it.
It's this ( bleep ) purse.
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My gorgeous sisters on our way
to the Animal Haven Charity.
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I can't even fake a smile
right now 'cause you're
so annoying. Let's go!
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You just ruined
the whole Snap.
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Sorry,
I'm a little late, but--
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00:14:10,348 --> 00:14:14,086
- Are you mad at me?
- Yes.
244
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( whispers )
I'm scared.
245
00:14:16,288 --> 00:14:17,956
I'm sorry.
246
00:14:17,989 --> 00:14:19,324
It's rude.
247
00:14:19,357 --> 00:14:21,093
I know.
248
00:14:25,997 --> 00:14:27,466
I apologize.
249
00:14:32,070 --> 00:14:33,605
Nicky!
Okay, no fighting, you guys.
250
00:14:33,638 --> 00:14:36,475
I'm not going to film
if we fight.
251
00:14:36,508 --> 00:14:40,512
- Nicky: Growing up,
we were different.
- Let go!
252
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I was definitely more girly.
253
00:14:43,615 --> 00:14:47,119
While I was more into sneaking
into my mom's closet
254
00:14:47,152 --> 00:14:49,388
and playing with her clothes
and her shoes,
255
00:14:49,421 --> 00:14:51,590
Paris was more a tomboy.
256
00:14:55,660 --> 00:14:58,697
( laughter )
257
00:14:58,730 --> 00:15:02,301
She has this persona
that she's this sexy,
258
00:15:02,334 --> 00:15:03,635
you know, bombshell,
259
00:15:03,668 --> 00:15:07,005
but she really is,
like, a boy at heart.
260
00:15:07,038 --> 00:15:09,408
Dad: Oh, is that how
you're dressed tonight?
261
00:15:09,441 --> 00:15:12,044
- It looks good.
- I'm wearing your
shorts, Dad.
262
00:15:12,077 --> 00:15:13,645
( Dad laughs )
263
00:15:13,678 --> 00:15:18,450
Nicky: Her and my dad
were always doing just fun,
264
00:15:18,483 --> 00:15:21,954
weird, animal-related things.
265
00:15:21,987 --> 00:15:24,990
Dad: I knew they'd be
over here with the penguins.
266
00:15:29,494 --> 00:15:33,031
Look at the other ones
wondering what that is.
267
00:15:33,064 --> 00:15:36,435
Kathy: She would save up
her money to buy monkeys,
268
00:15:36,468 --> 00:15:40,204
snakes, ferrets, everything,
269
00:15:40,238 --> 00:15:41,673
and once she let the snake
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out of the cage
at the Waldorf.
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Did she ever tell you
about how she had a goat?
272
00:15:46,711 --> 00:15:50,182
A pet goat hidden in
my grandfather's tennis court?
273
00:15:50,215 --> 00:15:52,284
Or the little monkey
that got out
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hanging up
on the chandelier?
275
00:15:55,186 --> 00:15:58,390
Ladies, together this way.
Together this way.
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This cat does not like dogs.
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Nicky: She's so sweet,
she's so fun,
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but she's been through a lot.
279
00:16:07,432 --> 00:16:11,203
We think you're amazing
for using your celebrity
to help animals.
280
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I like animals
more than people.
281
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- Okay.
- Yes.
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Nicky: They say trauma,
283
00:16:19,744 --> 00:16:23,182
the mind may forget,
but the body never forgets.
284
00:16:25,817 --> 00:16:28,420
And it's trapped in you.
285
00:16:28,453 --> 00:16:31,457
And it can come out whenever.
286
00:16:37,829 --> 00:16:41,266
I don't want
to bring 30 bags.
287
00:16:41,299 --> 00:16:44,069
That's insane.
288
00:16:44,102 --> 00:16:45,337
You've been saying this
for as long as I've known you.
289
00:16:45,370 --> 00:16:47,305
- I know.
- And you keep doing that.
290
00:16:47,338 --> 00:16:50,474
- I'm gonna change.
- Sure. No. No.
291
00:16:50,508 --> 00:16:54,480
- No.
- I can just put, like,
a little thing here.
292
00:16:56,214 --> 00:16:58,283
- Jen: When do you leave?
- Tonight.
293
00:17:01,252 --> 00:17:05,123
Paris: In my life, I've never
really looked back at the past.
294
00:17:05,156 --> 00:17:07,358
I've always looked
toward the future,
295
00:17:07,392 --> 00:17:11,397
building my business,
and creating my own brand.
296
00:17:14,365 --> 00:17:16,801
I have 19 product lines.
297
00:17:16,835 --> 00:17:19,504
Skincare, makeup,
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00:17:19,537 --> 00:17:22,674
every type of product
you can imagine.
299
00:17:22,707 --> 00:17:28,146
My fragrances have done
almost $3 billion in sales.
300
00:17:28,179 --> 00:17:32,851
I travel over 250 days a year
all around the world.
301
00:17:32,884 --> 00:17:35,287
- Sammy: We have, like,
30-minute hard out.
- All right.
302
00:17:35,320 --> 00:17:37,222
I don't need to bring
every single one of these.
303
00:17:37,255 --> 00:17:39,257
What country am I going to?
I should find out.
304
00:17:39,290 --> 00:17:41,860
Korea, London, Paris,
Monaco, Geneva.
305
00:17:41,893 --> 00:17:43,695
- Monaco, Copenhagen.
- Switzerland.
306
00:17:43,728 --> 00:17:45,697
- Copenhagen?
- Isn't she going to Copenhagen?
307
00:17:45,730 --> 00:17:47,099
What?
308
00:17:47,132 --> 00:17:49,334
All of these brands
309
00:17:49,367 --> 00:17:50,869
are always sending
me clothes
310
00:17:50,902 --> 00:17:53,505
because they want me
to post about them--
311
00:17:53,538 --> 00:17:56,208
a different outfit
every couple hours of the day.
312
00:17:58,143 --> 00:18:00,879
That's a part
of being an influencer.
313
00:18:00,912 --> 00:18:03,348
I've never been photographed
in the same thing twice.
314
00:18:04,916 --> 00:18:07,285
Half an hour to pack
all this.
315
00:18:11,656 --> 00:18:13,158
No.
316
00:18:14,192 --> 00:18:15,694
No.
317
00:18:15,727 --> 00:18:18,730
And I need sunglasses
with every outfit and purses.
318
00:18:23,935 --> 00:18:26,138
Oh, my God, I didn't
even think about that.
319
00:18:26,171 --> 00:18:29,174
I need to ride in a car every
day and all I have is gowns.
320
00:18:30,675 --> 00:18:33,178
I sound like the biggest brat.
321
00:18:33,211 --> 00:18:36,748
No, I literally--
all I have is gowns.
322
00:18:37,815 --> 00:18:40,218
Hey.
323
00:18:40,251 --> 00:18:43,687
- Five more minutes.
- Five minutes?
324
00:18:43,721 --> 00:18:46,558
( groans )
I'm so--
325
00:18:48,593 --> 00:18:50,496
You're gonna miss
your flight. Seriously.
326
00:18:53,965 --> 00:18:55,833
Paris, you're really
seriously gonna miss
the flight.
327
00:18:55,867 --> 00:18:58,770
- What time's the flight
for real?
- Rosie: 11:00.
328
00:18:58,803 --> 00:19:00,772
- Yeah, right.
- Yes.
329
00:19:00,805 --> 00:19:02,908
- Are you ( bleep ) with me?
- No, I--
330
00:19:02,941 --> 00:19:05,443
- I thought it was 11:45.
You guys are lying.
- Sammy: Swear.
331
00:19:05,476 --> 00:19:07,746
Swear?
332
00:19:07,779 --> 00:19:10,182
I can tell when you're lying.
333
00:19:10,215 --> 00:19:12,951
You guys always do this to me
three hours early.
334
00:19:12,984 --> 00:19:16,321
Please say it's 11:45
and I'll leave.
335
00:19:21,826 --> 00:19:22,895
I'm leaving.
336
00:19:26,664 --> 00:19:28,800
Are we gonna make it?
337
00:19:28,833 --> 00:19:30,502
Do not let go of this bag.
338
00:19:30,535 --> 00:19:32,337
This is another bag?
Oh, my God.
339
00:19:32,370 --> 00:19:34,805
No, Paris, do not let go
of this bag because--
340
00:19:34,839 --> 00:19:39,578
- Oh, my money.
- Yeah, you cannot
let go of that bag.
341
00:19:39,611 --> 00:19:41,813
- Okay.
- Please, I mean...
342
00:19:41,846 --> 00:19:45,417
That-- do not
let go of that bag.
343
00:19:45,450 --> 00:19:47,219
- Paris: I love you guys.
- Love you.
344
00:19:47,252 --> 00:19:49,588
- Wish me luck.
- Good luck.
345
00:19:49,621 --> 00:19:51,190
( music playing )
346
00:20:00,665 --> 00:20:03,335
( cheering )
347
00:20:03,368 --> 00:20:05,470
Thank you very much.
348
00:20:13,444 --> 00:20:15,379
Hi.
349
00:20:15,413 --> 00:20:16,848
Oh, my God.
Good to see you.
350
00:20:16,881 --> 00:20:18,950
Oh, my God,
you're so beautiful.
351
00:20:18,983 --> 00:20:20,018
- I miss you.
- It's so good to see you.
352
00:20:20,051 --> 00:20:22,821
I'm so happy
to see you girls.
353
00:20:22,854 --> 00:20:25,524
- I love you so much.
- Love you.
354
00:20:27,659 --> 00:20:28,960
Can you say it one more time?
355
00:20:28,993 --> 00:20:31,996
Like, "See you next time,"
or "See you tomorrow."
356
00:20:32,030 --> 00:20:34,399
See you guys tomorrow.
I love you.
357
00:20:40,471 --> 00:20:43,341
Yasss.
358
00:20:43,374 --> 00:20:44,576
My two fans are so cute.
359
00:20:44,609 --> 00:20:46,712
They flew 30 hours
to get here.
360
00:20:48,046 --> 00:20:49,514
So sweet.
361
00:20:50,581 --> 00:20:54,686
( indistinct chatter )
362
00:20:54,719 --> 00:20:56,488
My fans all around the world
363
00:20:56,521 --> 00:20:58,889
named themselves
the Little Hiltons.
364
00:20:58,923 --> 00:21:01,526
- I love my girls.
- We love you so much.
365
00:21:01,559 --> 00:21:04,629
Yasss.
366
00:21:04,662 --> 00:21:07,966
I feel less alone when
my Little Hiltons are there.
367
00:21:16,441 --> 00:21:18,410
Oh, man.
368
00:21:18,443 --> 00:21:20,612
Well, look who we have here.
369
00:21:20,645 --> 00:21:24,014
The billion-dollar
badass boss bitch
370
00:21:24,048 --> 00:21:26,718
is landed in Korea.
371
00:21:26,751 --> 00:21:28,553
So, what's your message
to your fans?
372
00:21:28,586 --> 00:21:30,422
What's up, Sheeraz?
What's up, everyone?
373
00:21:30,455 --> 00:21:32,323
I am so excited
to be in Korea.
374
00:21:32,357 --> 00:21:33,524
We're gonna have
the best time.
375
00:21:33,558 --> 00:21:35,026
The Paris Hilton
Skincare launch.
376
00:21:35,059 --> 00:21:36,461
Yes.
377
00:21:45,770 --> 00:21:47,639
Oh, my God.
378
00:21:47,672 --> 00:21:48,674
D'oh.
379
00:21:49,874 --> 00:21:51,743
Oh, my God.
380
00:22:05,857 --> 00:22:07,459
Hello.
381
00:22:07,492 --> 00:22:09,494
( screaming )
382
00:22:12,630 --> 00:22:14,866
Oh, picture!
Wow! Wow, okay.
383
00:22:14,899 --> 00:22:16,801
- Okay.
- You want me to do it, honey?
384
00:22:16,834 --> 00:22:19,571
- Oh, yeah! Yes, yes.
- Yes.
385
00:22:19,604 --> 00:22:20,605
Love you.
386
00:22:34,986 --> 00:22:40,091
Paris:
I've just been on camera
my whole life, basically.
387
00:22:40,124 --> 00:22:42,894
But I also do get nervous,
388
00:22:42,927 --> 00:22:45,831
especially when
it's big crowds of people.
389
00:22:47,465 --> 00:22:49,134
Man: Hello, Paris.
How are you?
390
00:22:49,167 --> 00:22:50,968
Man 2:
Oh, Paris, you should be
in the roller derby.
391
00:22:51,002 --> 00:22:54,438
- Let's see you skate.
- They're so fun.
392
00:22:54,472 --> 00:22:57,175
When I was a teenager,
it was probably my dream
393
00:22:57,208 --> 00:22:58,543
to be chased by paparazzi.
394
00:22:58,576 --> 00:22:59,844
- Thank you, Paris.
- Uh-huh.
395
00:22:59,877 --> 00:23:01,146
I finished my roll
on a beautiful lady.
396
00:23:01,179 --> 00:23:03,481
Aww. Bye, boys.
Good night.
397
00:23:03,514 --> 00:23:07,718
When I was 18, I was
going to clubs and parties
398
00:23:07,752 --> 00:23:09,587
and being photographed.
399
00:23:09,620 --> 00:23:11,989
Matt Lauer:
In the gossip papers
in Los Angeles,
400
00:23:12,023 --> 00:23:13,625
you and your sister
have been a staple.
401
00:23:13,658 --> 00:23:16,194
Why are people
so fascinated with you?
402
00:23:16,227 --> 00:23:18,530
People always ask me that,
and I don't know.
403
00:23:18,563 --> 00:23:20,432
I'm just living my life.
404
00:23:20,465 --> 00:23:24,936
But after "The Simple Life,"
the paparazzi were insane.
405
00:23:24,969 --> 00:23:26,838
Man: Hey, Paris!
Hollywood.TV, Paris. Hello!
406
00:23:26,871 --> 00:23:28,973
Man 2:
How was lunch, Paris?
407
00:23:29,006 --> 00:23:32,143
Hasan:
I built the foundation
of one of the biggest
408
00:23:32,176 --> 00:23:37,514
paparazzi companies in the world
on the back of Paris Hilton.
409
00:23:37,548 --> 00:23:39,217
I had over 100 guys
in Los Angeles,
410
00:23:39,250 --> 00:23:41,886
all of them making a living
off Paris Hilton.
411
00:23:41,919 --> 00:23:44,522
For a photograph,
at that time,
412
00:23:44,555 --> 00:23:47,091
it could range between 50,000,
up to a million dollars.
413
00:23:47,124 --> 00:23:49,027
- Paris, hi, sweetie!
- Paris, you're
looking beautiful.
414
00:23:49,060 --> 00:23:50,695
If you know that you can make
415
00:23:50,728 --> 00:23:53,231
a million dollars in one day,
416
00:23:53,264 --> 00:23:55,099
what does it look like?
417
00:23:55,132 --> 00:23:57,035
It's war.
418
00:23:57,068 --> 00:23:59,904
- ( shouting )
- What the ( bleep )?
419
00:23:59,937 --> 00:24:03,608
Woman: Photographers at war
at the Istanbul airport.
420
00:24:03,641 --> 00:24:05,877
Paris caught in the middle.
421
00:24:05,910 --> 00:24:07,879
- Help!
- Let her in! Let her in!
422
00:24:07,912 --> 00:24:09,881
Paris: Sometimes I would just
get in the car and be alone
423
00:24:09,914 --> 00:24:12,783
and just, like,
breathe and just be like,
424
00:24:12,817 --> 00:24:15,186
"Okay. Made it."
425
00:24:15,219 --> 00:24:17,589
And sometimes I would pull
out my camcorder,
426
00:24:17,622 --> 00:24:19,157
and I'm, like, filming them.
427
00:24:19,190 --> 00:24:21,059
"Do you like this?
Do you like how this feels?"
428
00:24:21,092 --> 00:24:23,761
- Look at the paparazzi
next to us in the car.
- Man: In the car?
429
00:24:23,794 --> 00:24:26,231
- Bye.
- Insane.
430
00:24:26,264 --> 00:24:28,966
I feel like that was
the height of everything.
431
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:31,603
Can I get a picture
with you?
432
00:24:34,572 --> 00:24:35,540
Thank you.
I love your dog.
433
00:24:35,573 --> 00:24:37,742
Thank you.
434
00:24:37,775 --> 00:24:39,978
Kim Kardashian West:
Paris really started
that movement
435
00:24:40,011 --> 00:24:44,949
of having paparazzi
follow your every move.
436
00:24:44,982 --> 00:24:47,918
I wouldn't be here today
if it hadn't been for,
437
00:24:47,952 --> 00:24:50,555
number one, her starting off
in the reality world,
438
00:24:50,588 --> 00:24:52,824
and her introducing me
to the world.
439
00:24:52,857 --> 00:24:54,893
- Paris, how are you today?
- Good, thank you.
440
00:24:54,926 --> 00:24:56,293
Good, you look great.
Kim, you look awesome.
441
00:24:56,327 --> 00:24:58,630
Woman:
We love you, Paris! Woohoo!
442
00:24:58,663 --> 00:25:01,566
Kim:
I think the best advice that
she ever could've given me
443
00:25:01,599 --> 00:25:03,067
was just watching her.
444
00:25:03,100 --> 00:25:07,138
( crowd cheering )
445
00:25:07,171 --> 00:25:11,543
Paris:
Even though it was so hectic
and insane and just non-stop...
446
00:25:11,576 --> 00:25:13,545
- Hi.
- Hi.
447
00:25:13,578 --> 00:25:15,179
...I also loved
the attention...
448
00:25:15,212 --> 00:25:16,915
Paris, I love you.
449
00:25:16,948 --> 00:25:19,617
- ...and the love.
- Paris! Whoo!
450
00:25:19,650 --> 00:25:22,287
'Cause I felt like
that was love.
451
00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:25,822
- Love you!
- Love you.
452
00:25:25,856 --> 00:25:28,726
( cheering )
453
00:25:28,759 --> 00:25:31,329
Paris:
Eventually, I decided
that I didn't want
454
00:25:31,362 --> 00:25:33,164
to be a reality star.
455
00:25:33,197 --> 00:25:36,700
Like, I wanted to focus
more on my business.
456
00:25:36,734 --> 00:25:39,102
( crowd shouting )
457
00:25:39,136 --> 00:25:43,675
And I decided that I wanted to
control my whole image.
458
00:25:46,110 --> 00:25:48,245
Hasan:
I remember 2004,
around that time,
459
00:25:48,279 --> 00:25:50,615
she was, like,
grabbing her camera,
460
00:25:50,648 --> 00:25:52,817
taking a picture of herself.
461
00:25:52,850 --> 00:25:57,221
I didn't even know
what a selfie was.
462
00:25:57,254 --> 00:26:01,892
All the things
that people are doing today
with social media,
463
00:26:01,926 --> 00:26:03,928
the first person
was Paris Hilton.
464
00:26:03,961 --> 00:26:07,665
( indistinct chatter )
465
00:26:07,698 --> 00:26:12,604
Paris:
Everyone says I'm
the original influencer,
466
00:26:12,637 --> 00:26:16,707
but sometimes I feel like
I helped create a monster.
467
00:26:24,949 --> 00:26:26,818
This is so awkward.
468
00:26:26,851 --> 00:26:29,588
What is happening?
469
00:26:34,358 --> 00:26:37,095
- Good hug.
- Do we get a goodie bag?
470
00:26:37,128 --> 00:26:38,196
I think there is.
471
00:26:38,229 --> 00:26:40,999
Can I hold your shoulder,
please?
472
00:26:44,368 --> 00:26:45,370
Thank you, love.
473
00:26:53,744 --> 00:26:55,679
- Thank you.
- So nice to meet you.
474
00:26:55,713 --> 00:26:57,014
Gorgeous.
475
00:27:04,455 --> 00:27:06,758
What's next?
476
00:27:11,796 --> 00:27:13,832
Man:
And three, two, one.
477
00:27:20,905 --> 00:27:22,340
♪ I'm losing it ♪
478
00:27:22,373 --> 00:27:23,375
( laughs )
479
00:27:35,152 --> 00:27:36,655
Yeah?
480
00:27:44,462 --> 00:27:46,097
God.
481
00:28:15,993 --> 00:28:18,163
"Wake refreshed." Yeah.
482
00:28:22,299 --> 00:28:23,835
In my dreams.
483
00:28:25,836 --> 00:28:27,439
I never wake refreshed.
484
00:28:33,210 --> 00:28:35,080
( bleep ).
485
00:28:39,283 --> 00:28:41,319
So ( bleep ) tired.
486
00:28:47,792 --> 00:28:48,793
( sniffs )
487
00:28:55,232 --> 00:28:57,135
So tiring.
488
00:28:57,168 --> 00:29:00,471
I'm just literally--
my mind is going through
489
00:29:00,504 --> 00:29:06,211
what the upcoming months are,
and it's nonstop.
490
00:29:09,146 --> 00:29:11,482
Travel all around the world,
and I've seen nothing
491
00:29:11,515 --> 00:29:15,520
except hotel rooms,
club, stores.
492
00:29:15,553 --> 00:29:18,189
I don't even know
who I am sometimes.
493
00:29:21,892 --> 00:29:25,196
I'm always...
494
00:29:25,229 --> 00:29:28,332
kind of...
495
00:29:28,365 --> 00:29:31,335
putting on this,
you know, facade
496
00:29:31,368 --> 00:29:34,505
or just like happy
and perfect life.
497
00:29:37,842 --> 00:29:41,512
Just had this plan,
and then created this brand
498
00:29:41,545 --> 00:29:43,881
and this persona
and this character,
499
00:29:43,914 --> 00:29:48,253
and I've been stuck
with her ever since.
500
00:29:50,120 --> 00:29:54,524
And, like,
I didn't used to be that way.
501
00:29:54,558 --> 00:29:55,927
( sniffles )
502
00:30:00,364 --> 00:30:03,234
( sniffles )
503
00:30:06,170 --> 00:30:08,406
( sighs )
504
00:30:09,940 --> 00:30:12,910
I'm so full.
505
00:30:12,943 --> 00:30:14,179
Where is my blanket?
506
00:30:17,948 --> 00:30:19,284
Ow.
507
00:30:29,660 --> 00:30:33,231
I have horrible insomnia.
508
00:30:33,264 --> 00:30:34,532
( moans )
509
00:30:34,565 --> 00:30:38,970
I'm scared
to go to bed at night.
510
00:30:39,003 --> 00:30:42,372
No, uh-- yes.
511
00:30:42,406 --> 00:30:44,408
Finally.
512
00:30:44,441 --> 00:30:47,278
I always have
this recurring nightmare...
513
00:30:49,980 --> 00:30:51,616
no matter what I do.
514
00:30:54,118 --> 00:30:58,089
I'm in bed and these two people
come into my room...
515
00:30:58,122 --> 00:31:00,291
( footsteps )
516
00:31:04,995 --> 00:31:06,563
( screams )
517
00:31:10,267 --> 00:31:11,535
...and say,
"Do you want this to happen
518
00:31:11,568 --> 00:31:13,304
the easy way
or the hard way?"
519
00:31:19,143 --> 00:31:21,279
I'm trying to just run.
520
00:31:35,392 --> 00:31:37,161
I think I slept,
like, three hours.
521
00:31:39,330 --> 00:31:43,167
The nightmare was, like--
felt so real.
522
00:31:45,102 --> 00:31:46,637
I was just screaming
and crying
523
00:31:46,670 --> 00:31:48,606
and telling people--
someone to help me.
524
00:31:48,639 --> 00:31:50,174
And...
525
00:31:53,177 --> 00:31:54,512
and I just ran.
526
00:31:58,349 --> 00:32:01,585
Just thinking about it today,
527
00:32:01,618 --> 00:32:05,689
I don't really know
many genuine people
528
00:32:05,723 --> 00:32:07,325
besides, like, my fans,
529
00:32:07,358 --> 00:32:11,028
like Paulina and Alex.
530
00:32:11,061 --> 00:32:13,164
Like, when they talk to me,
it's like--
531
00:32:13,197 --> 00:32:15,399
not even my real friends
would say that.
532
00:32:15,432 --> 00:32:18,636
Woman:
But can they care for you?
533
00:32:19,737 --> 00:32:23,040
Can they care for me?
534
00:32:23,073 --> 00:32:24,675
What do you mean?
535
00:32:24,708 --> 00:32:27,511
Is that enough?
536
00:32:27,544 --> 00:32:29,080
No.
537
00:32:46,030 --> 00:32:48,733
- When do you bounce?
- Tonight.
538
00:32:48,766 --> 00:32:52,470
What were you here?
72 hours?
539
00:32:52,503 --> 00:32:55,339
- What is it, Thursday?
- Yeah.
540
00:32:55,372 --> 00:32:57,541
I speak to you,
you say you're going to bed.
541
00:32:57,574 --> 00:32:59,744
Then I'll wake up
and I'll see you
542
00:32:59,777 --> 00:33:02,713
posting an Instagram
at, like, 6:00 AM,
543
00:33:02,746 --> 00:33:04,215
and I know you haven't slept.
544
00:33:04,248 --> 00:33:06,384
- I can't sleep.
- Why?
545
00:33:06,417 --> 00:33:08,284
My mind won't stop moving.
546
00:33:08,318 --> 00:33:12,089
You need to go on a vacation.
547
00:33:12,122 --> 00:33:14,325
I've told you this
for 15 years.
548
00:33:14,358 --> 00:33:16,494
You've never listened
in the 15 years.
549
00:33:16,527 --> 00:33:17,628
I haven't went
on a vacation--
550
00:33:17,661 --> 00:33:20,531
Go to Hawaii
with no phone...
551
00:33:20,564 --> 00:33:23,401
- Yeah, right.
- ...and just chill.
552
00:33:23,434 --> 00:33:25,403
- I can't.
- Why?
553
00:33:25,436 --> 00:33:26,669
Because the schedule's
too busy.
554
00:33:26,703 --> 00:33:28,572
I haven't been
on a vacation in--
555
00:33:28,605 --> 00:33:31,242
Because you're greedy
and you won't turn down
a check.
556
00:33:31,275 --> 00:33:34,579
I'm not greedy, I just--
I love making money.
557
00:33:37,648 --> 00:33:43,420
I think I come off tough
sometimes with her.
558
00:33:43,454 --> 00:33:45,755
But I feel I have to
'cause she has so many
559
00:33:45,789 --> 00:33:49,260
"yes people" and kiss-asses
around her
560
00:33:49,293 --> 00:33:52,096
that I'm gonna
tell her the truth.
561
00:33:55,365 --> 00:33:56,600
Wanna show her your room?
562
00:33:56,633 --> 00:33:58,436
Yeah, I want
to see your room.
563
00:34:02,806 --> 00:34:06,143
Do you think
you'll ever have kids?
564
00:34:06,176 --> 00:34:09,279
( sighs )
Um...
565
00:34:09,313 --> 00:34:12,283
I thought
I was going to have one.
566
00:34:12,315 --> 00:34:14,451
But every time I'm with you
and I'm with them, I'm like--
567
00:34:14,485 --> 00:34:16,554
- it makes me so depressed.
- I know.
568
00:34:16,587 --> 00:34:18,222
It's not for everybody.
569
00:34:18,255 --> 00:34:23,428
You've never been
the most conventional gal.
570
00:34:24,460 --> 00:34:25,795
No.
571
00:34:25,829 --> 00:34:27,631
But I still--
I don't want to be, like--
572
00:34:27,664 --> 00:34:30,634
- Bye.
- Bye? Can I have a hug?
573
00:34:30,667 --> 00:34:34,772
Nicky:
Aww. Give one big hug.
574
00:34:36,206 --> 00:34:38,843
- I love you.
- I love you.
575
00:34:38,876 --> 00:34:42,313
- Love you, Lily Grace.
- I love you.
576
00:34:42,346 --> 00:34:44,581
Bye, honey. Have fun.
577
00:34:47,417 --> 00:34:50,187
They're so sweet,
and it's so fun.
578
00:34:50,219 --> 00:34:53,823
You just get to relive
everything that you did,
579
00:34:53,857 --> 00:34:56,527
- like watching cartoons
in the morning.
- I still do that.
580
00:34:56,560 --> 00:34:59,263
Having Lucky Charms
and Cap'n Crunch.
581
00:34:59,296 --> 00:35:01,832
I still do that. Alone.
582
00:35:03,800 --> 00:35:06,871
See, I don't feel
that bad for you,
583
00:35:06,904 --> 00:35:11,509
because I feel like
if you wanted kids
584
00:35:11,542 --> 00:35:14,678
and you wanted a husband,
585
00:35:14,711 --> 00:35:16,680
you would find a way
to make it happen.
586
00:35:16,713 --> 00:35:19,216
Maybe you don't want it.
587
00:35:19,249 --> 00:35:23,319
You think society
expects that of you.
588
00:35:23,353 --> 00:35:24,455
But if you don't
genuinely want it,
589
00:35:24,488 --> 00:35:26,490
it's a lot
of responsibility.
590
00:35:26,523 --> 00:35:29,193
- I just don't want to miss
that opportunity...
- I know.
591
00:35:29,226 --> 00:35:31,162
- ...to never do it.
- I know.
592
00:35:31,195 --> 00:35:33,831
- Yeah.
- At least I had
my eggs frozen.
593
00:35:33,864 --> 00:35:36,367
Yeah, thank God.
594
00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:39,370
I definitely
want to have a girl first,
name her London,
595
00:35:39,403 --> 00:35:41,205
but I just don't know
when I'm gonna have time.
596
00:35:43,740 --> 00:35:48,379
Like, I will not stop until
I make a billion dollars,
597
00:35:48,412 --> 00:35:50,413
and then I think I can relax.
598
00:35:52,282 --> 00:35:55,186
I know that sounds crazy.
599
00:35:55,219 --> 00:35:56,720
I don't know, I just don't
want to have to worry.
600
00:35:56,753 --> 00:36:00,291
I don't want to ever
have to worry about anything.
601
00:36:00,324 --> 00:36:01,959
And you're happy?
602
00:36:01,992 --> 00:36:05,229
Sometimes.
603
00:36:05,262 --> 00:36:07,231
You don't seem
that happy lately.
604
00:36:07,264 --> 00:36:08,732
Really?
605
00:36:08,765 --> 00:36:11,335
I don't know what to do.
606
00:36:11,368 --> 00:36:15,940
When you have to travel
every day, basically,
607
00:36:15,973 --> 00:36:17,741
to maintain a relationship,
608
00:36:17,774 --> 00:36:21,278
unless you're gonna have
some bitch boy
609
00:36:21,311 --> 00:36:22,913
following me around
like they always do...
610
00:36:22,946 --> 00:36:25,281
- Mm-hmm.
- ...and I lose
all respect for them.
611
00:36:25,315 --> 00:36:28,352
- Immediately.
- They become emasculated,
I'm, like--
612
00:36:28,385 --> 00:36:31,288
You need to date an equal.
613
00:36:31,321 --> 00:36:33,790
- But I feel like I need more--
- You can't control an equal.
614
00:36:33,824 --> 00:36:37,928
- I don't like that.
- You're so-- well, Paris.
615
00:36:37,961 --> 00:36:41,298
- Because I'm scared.
- The definition of insanity
616
00:36:41,331 --> 00:36:42,933
is doing the same thing
over and over
617
00:36:42,966 --> 00:36:44,634
and expecting
different results.
618
00:36:44,668 --> 00:36:46,937
Okay, well, I've been
doing the same thing.
619
00:36:46,970 --> 00:36:48,772
And you're insane.
620
00:36:48,805 --> 00:36:52,609
I'm not insane,
but, I don't know.
621
00:36:52,643 --> 00:36:54,812
I'm just--
I'm freaked out by people.
622
00:36:56,647 --> 00:36:58,782
Especially men.
623
00:36:58,815 --> 00:37:02,319
Matt Lauer:
A sex video showing
Paris and her ex
624
00:37:02,352 --> 00:37:03,754
was released
to media outlets
625
00:37:03,787 --> 00:37:05,522
and is circulating
on the Internet.
626
00:37:05,555 --> 00:37:07,457
All of this
without her consent.
627
00:37:07,491 --> 00:37:09,627
These sex videotapes
are all over the Internet.
628
00:37:09,660 --> 00:37:10,961
How many of you have seen them?
I've seen them.
629
00:37:10,994 --> 00:37:13,297
( applause, laughter )
630
00:37:13,330 --> 00:37:15,633
She-- I don't know,
she seems like a very
personable young woman.
631
00:37:15,666 --> 00:37:17,601
( laughter )
632
00:37:17,634 --> 00:37:21,639
That was a private moment
633
00:37:21,672 --> 00:37:23,374
with a teenage girl...
634
00:37:25,842 --> 00:37:28,545
...not in her right headspace,
635
00:37:28,578 --> 00:37:31,382
but everyone
was watching it and laughing
636
00:37:31,415 --> 00:37:33,984
like it's something funny.
637
00:37:34,017 --> 00:37:35,752
That poor family.
638
00:37:35,786 --> 00:37:38,489
To have your daughter
do a porno film
639
00:37:38,522 --> 00:37:40,658
in a Marriott hotel?
I mean, it's--
640
00:37:40,691 --> 00:37:45,029
( laughter, applause )
641
00:37:51,635 --> 00:37:53,537
We lived in a hotel
642
00:37:53,570 --> 00:37:57,408
where the "New York Daily News,"
the "New York Post"
643
00:37:57,441 --> 00:38:01,011
was on everyone's front door,
down the whole hall.
644
00:38:01,044 --> 00:38:05,549
So, on days where
it was a cover story,
645
00:38:05,582 --> 00:38:10,054
I would run down
the hall first
646
00:38:10,087 --> 00:38:13,791
and flip every newspaper over
647
00:38:13,824 --> 00:38:16,593
so they didn't have to see it.
648
00:38:16,626 --> 00:38:19,563
I was in bed a lot.
649
00:38:22,065 --> 00:38:25,869
I didn't want to,
like, get up and take
the kids to school.
650
00:38:25,902 --> 00:38:28,673
You know, face other people.
651
00:38:29,673 --> 00:38:31,441
If that happened today...
652
00:38:34,911 --> 00:38:38,048
it would not be
the same story at all.
653
00:38:38,081 --> 00:38:40,417
But they made me
the bad person,
654
00:38:40,450 --> 00:38:42,453
like, I did something bad.
655
00:38:45,055 --> 00:38:48,692
It was my first real
relationship.
656
00:38:48,725 --> 00:38:50,728
Eighteen.
657
00:38:50,761 --> 00:38:52,896
I was just so
in love with him
658
00:38:52,929 --> 00:38:55,432
and I wanted
to make him happy.
659
00:38:55,465 --> 00:38:58,902
And I just remember him
just pulling out the camera.
660
00:38:58,935 --> 00:39:01,505
And he was kind of
pressuring me into it,
661
00:39:01,538 --> 00:39:03,374
like, "Oh, you're so boring,"
662
00:39:03,407 --> 00:39:06,744
like, "Do you want me
to just call someone else?
663
00:39:06,777 --> 00:39:09,113
No one will ever see it."
664
00:39:09,146 --> 00:39:10,914
You know, in the beginning,
they said that I raped her,
665
00:39:10,947 --> 00:39:12,750
and she was incapacitated
and you couldn't see
666
00:39:12,783 --> 00:39:14,585
the whites of her eyes.
667
00:39:14,618 --> 00:39:17,587
I have a full color version
on trustfundgirls.com.
668
00:39:17,621 --> 00:39:19,123
Trustfundgirls.com.
669
00:39:19,156 --> 00:39:21,392
You can see it was two people
in love enjoying sex.
670
00:39:21,425 --> 00:39:23,761
Everybody has sex.
And it's, you know, two people
671
00:39:23,794 --> 00:39:26,462
very much in love
and having a good time.
672
00:39:26,496 --> 00:39:29,767
It was like being
electronically raped.
673
00:39:31,635 --> 00:39:33,170
Hey, Paris.
674
00:39:33,203 --> 00:39:35,606
And for people to think
that I did it on purpose--
675
00:39:35,639 --> 00:39:37,107
because after that
676
00:39:37,140 --> 00:39:40,477
all of these leaked tapes
were coming out,
677
00:39:40,510 --> 00:39:43,748
and it almost became like
a blueprint to become famous.
678
00:39:46,483 --> 00:39:49,486
I don't know.
679
00:39:49,519 --> 00:39:50,953
Like,
I didn't need to do that.
680
00:39:50,987 --> 00:39:54,725
Like, I always had a plan.
681
00:39:58,495 --> 00:40:01,131
My grandmother always
called me Grace Kelly
682
00:40:01,164 --> 00:40:04,001
and Marilyn Monroe,
683
00:40:04,034 --> 00:40:07,004
and I always wanted
to live up to that for her.
684
00:40:09,206 --> 00:40:11,141
That was my dream.
685
00:40:11,174 --> 00:40:12,810
It was going to come true.
686
00:40:14,978 --> 00:40:16,647
And I just felt,
when that happened
687
00:40:16,680 --> 00:40:19,750
that took it
all away from me.
688
00:40:22,819 --> 00:40:27,157
I think one of her biggest
struggles is trust.
689
00:40:27,190 --> 00:40:32,863
She's been betrayed
so many times.
690
00:40:32,896 --> 00:40:37,534
So she has a real tough time
691
00:40:37,567 --> 00:40:41,639
trusting people
and letting people in.
692
00:40:46,710 --> 00:40:48,546
Spycams.
693
00:40:52,849 --> 00:40:55,152
I'm doing this because
I have a new boyfriend
694
00:40:55,185 --> 00:40:58,721
who's going to be here
while I'm gone.
695
00:40:58,755 --> 00:41:02,593
I do want to know
what's happening
when I'm not here.
696
00:41:09,566 --> 00:41:11,836
Put this on the phone
so it's live.
697
00:41:14,137 --> 00:41:17,741
- ( door bell rings )
- ( humming )
698
00:41:20,577 --> 00:41:21,778
- Hi, babe.
- Hello.
699
00:41:21,811 --> 00:41:25,148
Yes.
700
00:41:25,181 --> 00:41:27,184
- Welcome back.
- Hello. Thank you.
701
00:41:28,652 --> 00:41:30,988
Okay.
702
00:41:31,021 --> 00:41:32,623
It does not stop.
703
00:41:34,925 --> 00:41:36,527
I know.
I'm happy you're here.
704
00:41:37,994 --> 00:41:39,897
Did you get rest
on the plane at least?
705
00:41:39,930 --> 00:41:43,267
- No.
- Why, you were too excited?
706
00:41:43,300 --> 00:41:44,568
Okay.
707
00:41:44,601 --> 00:41:47,304
I'll talk to you
when I get there.
708
00:41:47,337 --> 00:41:49,206
Wish me luck.
709
00:41:57,280 --> 00:42:00,250
I met Aleks in Miami
710
00:42:00,283 --> 00:42:04,888
and we were
at Ultra Music Festival.
711
00:42:04,921 --> 00:42:07,823
And I just saw him
and thought he was handsome.
712
00:42:07,857 --> 00:42:11,929
He's visited me in L.A. twice,
713
00:42:11,962 --> 00:42:13,897
which was a big deal to me
714
00:42:13,930 --> 00:42:16,633
because after
my last relationship
715
00:42:16,666 --> 00:42:20,737
I was basically
planning on being single
the rest of my life.
716
00:42:20,770 --> 00:42:25,942
But I don't want to be seen
in public together yet.
717
00:42:25,976 --> 00:42:28,345
I'm not ready for that.
718
00:42:28,378 --> 00:42:31,715
- ( phone ringing )
- My mom.
719
00:42:31,748 --> 00:42:33,350
Hello?
720
00:42:33,383 --> 00:42:35,285
You're two blocks away?
721
00:42:35,318 --> 00:42:37,054
Oh, yeah, what time
is Chris coming?
722
00:42:37,087 --> 00:42:40,023
Shit. Well, it's 7:30 now.
723
00:42:40,056 --> 00:42:42,993
Kathy: Text her.
Just say, "I'm running
a few minutes behind
724
00:42:43,026 --> 00:42:44,595
and I would like
to see you."
725
00:42:44,628 --> 00:42:46,296
- Okay.
- Love you, bye.
726
00:42:46,329 --> 00:42:47,631
Love you, bye.
727
00:42:49,332 --> 00:42:51,134
Paris:
My mom treats me like I'm 12,
728
00:42:51,167 --> 00:42:54,071
so I literally am, like,
forever a teenager in my mind.
729
00:42:56,006 --> 00:42:57,708
She just wrote me.
730
00:42:57,741 --> 00:42:59,810
"Get down here, young lady."
731
00:42:59,843 --> 00:43:01,778
Because it's my event,
I have people already
732
00:43:01,811 --> 00:43:02,946
been waiting for,
like, an hour and a half,
733
00:43:02,979 --> 00:43:04,314
so I don't want
to piss them off.
734
00:43:04,347 --> 00:43:06,149
Thank you, sweetheart.
What was your name?
735
00:43:06,182 --> 00:43:08,685
- Alexis.
- Shit. Hi, Alexis.
Nice to meet you.
736
00:43:08,718 --> 00:43:10,687
- Pleasure.
- Paris. A little stressed.
737
00:43:10,720 --> 00:43:13,057
( music playing on speakers )
738
00:43:15,091 --> 00:43:19,096
- My mom?
- Hi, honey. Mwah.
739
00:43:19,129 --> 00:43:20,663
- Yes.
- You look beautiful!
740
00:43:20,697 --> 00:43:23,767
Oh, my God,
you smell so good.
741
00:43:23,800 --> 00:43:24,902
Woman:
A couple right here.
742
00:43:28,071 --> 00:43:30,906
Kathy: Just watching
and seeing her today...
743
00:43:30,940 --> 00:43:32,876
Man: Paris, on the left.
744
00:43:32,909 --> 00:43:34,945
...all the rhinestones,
745
00:43:34,978 --> 00:43:40,384
all the costumes
she's attracted to,
746
00:43:40,417 --> 00:43:43,687
it's like a little
Disney child.
747
00:43:43,720 --> 00:43:45,055
Yet...
748
00:43:47,223 --> 00:43:48,358
I don't know.
749
00:43:48,391 --> 00:43:50,894
It's like a shield
or a cover.
750
00:43:53,329 --> 00:43:58,235
She's probably
one of the most intelligent
people you'll ever meet.
751
00:44:01,738 --> 00:44:05,042
She's extremely brilliant,
752
00:44:05,075 --> 00:44:07,377
and the mask
is sometimes putting up
753
00:44:07,410 --> 00:44:11,915
the stupid persona
or the voice.
754
00:44:24,094 --> 00:44:26,764
I-- I just want to know
where it stems from.
755
00:44:29,265 --> 00:44:30,933
Okay, I'm doing my trick.
756
00:44:35,105 --> 00:44:37,407
Looking back,
I always thought
757
00:44:37,440 --> 00:44:41,878
that she was going
to be a veterinarian.
758
00:44:41,911 --> 00:44:43,113
"I want to be a dog doctor,
759
00:44:43,146 --> 00:44:46,817
a cat doctor,
a bird doctor."
760
00:44:46,850 --> 00:44:49,086
Which is such a change from,
761
00:44:49,119 --> 00:44:53,323
like, 13 to 15.
762
00:44:53,356 --> 00:44:54,324
Dad:
Good morning, guys.
763
00:44:54,357 --> 00:44:57,027
Merry Christmas Eve.
764
00:44:57,060 --> 00:44:58,128
Good morning, Mom.
765
00:44:59,996 --> 00:45:02,866
Stars, turn around.
Show me what you got.
766
00:45:04,467 --> 00:45:07,771
Look at Dad.
767
00:45:07,804 --> 00:45:10,407
- That's pretty, Paris.
- Here, Dad.
768
00:45:12,909 --> 00:45:14,311
Paris:
When my sister and I
were teenagers,
769
00:45:14,344 --> 00:45:17,447
we moved to New York.
770
00:45:17,480 --> 00:45:20,217
I was the new girl at school.
771
00:45:20,250 --> 00:45:23,420
I dealt with
a lot of bullying
772
00:45:23,453 --> 00:45:25,155
and the girls
kind of ganging up on me
773
00:45:25,188 --> 00:45:28,458
and being mean to me.
774
00:45:28,491 --> 00:45:31,795
In New York,
there's the socialite scene.
775
00:45:31,828 --> 00:45:32,996
Everyone knew who I was.
776
00:45:34,998 --> 00:45:39,302
My mom had us
go to etiquette classes.
777
00:45:39,335 --> 00:45:44,141
So we basically were taught
how to be debutantes.
778
00:45:44,174 --> 00:45:46,543
It's very proper, very prim,
779
00:45:46,576 --> 00:45:49,179
almost like a Stepford wife.
780
00:45:50,980 --> 00:45:54,418
It just didn't seem real
or natural to me.
781
00:45:57,320 --> 00:45:59,956
I wasn't allowed
to go out or go on dates
782
00:45:59,989 --> 00:46:01,491
or school dances
783
00:46:01,524 --> 00:46:04,094
because my parents
were so strict.
784
00:46:04,127 --> 00:46:07,029
No dating, no makeup,
no this, no that.
785
00:46:07,063 --> 00:46:08,331
Everyone had late curfews.
786
00:46:08,364 --> 00:46:10,000
"No."
You had to be home early.
787
00:46:10,033 --> 00:46:11,835
"No, no, no, no."
788
00:46:11,868 --> 00:46:14,371
And then finally
she was just like...
789
00:46:15,538 --> 00:46:17,040
"I'm doing what I want."
790
00:46:18,374 --> 00:46:21,444
Kathy:
In New York, 14, 15, 16,
791
00:46:21,477 --> 00:46:23,846
everything that I didn't
want her to do,
792
00:46:23,880 --> 00:46:25,448
she wanted to do.
793
00:46:25,481 --> 00:46:27,017
Getting into modeling,
794
00:46:27,050 --> 00:46:30,353
and I was just like,
"No, no, no, no.
795
00:46:30,386 --> 00:46:32,455
Not-- no, no.
Not a good scene."
796
00:46:32,488 --> 00:46:37,194
Paris:
I always loved Patricia Field
and Betsey Johnson.
797
00:46:37,227 --> 00:46:40,497
It was kind of like this whole
fashion dream world for me.
798
00:46:40,530 --> 00:46:46,369
The pink hair and glitter
and the shortest little skirts,
799
00:46:46,402 --> 00:46:49,072
that's how I was dressing.
800
00:46:49,105 --> 00:46:50,907
Kathy: She'd buy wigs,
801
00:46:50,940 --> 00:46:54,077
necklaces that said "Sexy,"
802
00:46:54,110 --> 00:46:55,545
"Hot bitch."
803
00:46:55,578 --> 00:46:57,047
What?
804
00:46:57,080 --> 00:46:58,882
I'm thinking,
"No, no. This is--
805
00:46:58,915 --> 00:47:00,050
this is too much for me.
806
00:47:00,083 --> 00:47:01,551
This is crazy."
807
00:47:01,584 --> 00:47:04,620
Paris: And then I got
a really good fake ID.
808
00:47:04,654 --> 00:47:08,258
Nicky:
She was just gone
in the night.
809
00:47:08,291 --> 00:47:10,560
And my mother
would be up all night
810
00:47:10,593 --> 00:47:13,330
calling every nightclub,
threatening them.
811
00:47:13,363 --> 00:47:15,499
Paris:
I think I just got addicted
to the night life.
812
00:47:18,601 --> 00:47:21,405
I felt accepted.
813
00:47:22,605 --> 00:47:24,407
I just felt like--
814
00:47:24,440 --> 00:47:26,076
like the queen of the night.
815
00:47:26,109 --> 00:47:30,013
( music playing )
816
00:47:30,046 --> 00:47:33,015
( crowd chattering )
817
00:47:33,049 --> 00:47:34,884
( music continues )
818
00:47:37,020 --> 00:47:41,391
And that's where
I really became Paris.
819
00:47:41,424 --> 00:47:44,228
( crowd cheering )
820
00:47:46,429 --> 00:47:51,668
Finally I locked her
in the room.
821
00:47:51,701 --> 00:47:54,137
I was afraid she could
run into a predator,
822
00:47:54,170 --> 00:47:57,173
get kidnapped.
823
00:47:57,206 --> 00:48:02,946
Fear, to me, is the most
powerful feeling there is.
824
00:48:02,979 --> 00:48:03,981
Fear.
825
00:48:05,648 --> 00:48:08,084
More than pain,
more than love,
826
00:48:08,117 --> 00:48:10,620
more than hate,
more than like,
827
00:48:10,653 --> 00:48:12,689
more than-- fear.
828
00:48:12,722 --> 00:48:16,626
And I thought,
"This was the worst
mistake ever,
829
00:48:16,659 --> 00:48:18,495
moving here.
830
00:48:18,528 --> 00:48:20,330
I gotta get her out of here."
831
00:48:22,732 --> 00:48:25,468
I was just a kid
living in New York,
832
00:48:25,501 --> 00:48:26,503
going to high school.
833
00:48:29,572 --> 00:48:32,309
Obviously, ditching a lot
of class, whatever.
834
00:48:32,342 --> 00:48:38,315
But I feel like
my parents were scared
835
00:48:38,348 --> 00:48:43,520
and they didn't want
their reputations to be ruined
836
00:48:43,553 --> 00:48:48,158
because Page Six was writing
all these stories.
837
00:48:48,191 --> 00:48:52,062
So I felt like I was just
kind of sent away to be hidden.
838
00:48:57,600 --> 00:48:59,336
Announcer:
All you ever wanted
839
00:48:59,369 --> 00:49:01,571
was the best for your child.
840
00:49:01,604 --> 00:49:04,607
I first sent her to an outdoor
wilderness program.
841
00:49:04,640 --> 00:49:07,176
Announcer:
It's for teenage boys and girls
842
00:49:07,210 --> 00:49:10,513
needing a change
of attitude and direction.
843
00:49:10,546 --> 00:49:12,182
Paris:
There's all these places
844
00:49:12,215 --> 00:49:14,517
called emotional
growth schools.
845
00:49:14,550 --> 00:49:18,221
The first place was
in the middle of nowhere.
846
00:49:19,722 --> 00:49:21,524
We were building other camps,
847
00:49:21,557 --> 00:49:24,660
basically doing
manual labor all day long.
848
00:49:24,694 --> 00:49:26,363
It was just
constant yelling at,
849
00:49:26,396 --> 00:49:28,765
like, boot camp style.
850
00:49:28,798 --> 00:49:30,533
So I whispered
to one of the girls, like,
851
00:49:30,566 --> 00:49:32,301
"Let's get out
of here tonight."
852
00:49:36,406 --> 00:49:39,241
She got away.
853
00:49:41,411 --> 00:49:46,016
Paris:
We ran through cornfields,
through mountains.
854
00:49:47,483 --> 00:49:49,786
The guys that worked
at the camp grabbed us,
855
00:49:49,819 --> 00:49:52,055
and then we got back
and they literally
856
00:49:52,088 --> 00:49:55,392
just beat the hell out of us
in front of everyone,
857
00:49:55,425 --> 00:49:57,394
just to let everyone know
if you run away,
858
00:49:57,427 --> 00:49:59,596
this is what happens.
859
00:49:59,629 --> 00:50:03,333
And then they sent me
to this other place,
860
00:50:03,366 --> 00:50:04,734
which was hell, too,
861
00:50:04,767 --> 00:50:07,504
and I ran away from there.
862
00:50:07,537 --> 00:50:11,640
Kathy: She jumped down
an entire flight of stairs.
863
00:50:11,674 --> 00:50:13,076
- ( horns honking )
- ( tires screech )
864
00:50:13,109 --> 00:50:14,811
Nicky:
They shut down highways,
865
00:50:14,844 --> 00:50:17,414
they shut down the airport.
866
00:50:17,447 --> 00:50:22,819
Paris;
I escaped from Ascent,
Cascade, CEDU,
867
00:50:22,852 --> 00:50:25,622
all of these emotional
growth schools.
868
00:50:28,391 --> 00:50:32,429
We're just spending all our time
trying to figure out,
869
00:50:32,462 --> 00:50:35,265
where do we--
should we move to the moon?
870
00:50:35,298 --> 00:50:36,198
What do we do?
871
00:50:39,135 --> 00:50:40,437
And I'm like,
"Please can I just go home?
872
00:50:40,470 --> 00:50:41,770
I've already been
through so much.
873
00:50:41,804 --> 00:50:43,740
I promise I'll never
go to a club again.
874
00:50:43,773 --> 00:50:47,110
Please? I can't go back
to these places.
875
00:50:47,143 --> 00:50:48,478
You have no idea."
876
00:50:51,280 --> 00:50:53,850
There was no convincing them,
no matter what I said.
877
00:50:53,883 --> 00:50:56,352
So I just didn't trust them.
878
00:50:59,322 --> 00:51:02,659
It made me not trust anyone,
not even my own family.
879
00:51:17,707 --> 00:51:21,310
Even to this day,
it's really hard for me
to let anyone in.
880
00:51:21,344 --> 00:51:23,380
- Comfortable?
- Yes.
881
00:51:25,681 --> 00:51:29,152
I'm, like, scared,
like, I haven't got
882
00:51:29,185 --> 00:51:30,720
to experience, like,
real life.
883
00:51:30,753 --> 00:51:34,524
Like having a family
and being, like, in love.
884
00:51:34,557 --> 00:51:36,459
( laughs )
885
00:51:40,696 --> 00:51:42,866
I want to change.
886
00:51:59,482 --> 00:52:00,750
Yes.
887
00:52:04,220 --> 00:52:06,288
Where are we going?
To the yacht?
888
00:52:06,322 --> 00:52:07,357
Aye-aye, Captain.
889
00:52:07,390 --> 00:52:09,192
♪ Every time I look ♪
890
00:52:09,225 --> 00:52:11,627
♪ Over my shoulder ♪
891
00:52:11,661 --> 00:52:14,731
♪ I'm getting bolder ♪
892
00:52:14,764 --> 00:52:19,435
♪ I'm getting bolder ♪
893
00:52:19,468 --> 00:52:24,374
- ♪ Every time I look
over my shoulder ♪
- Hi, boys.
894
00:52:24,407 --> 00:52:27,210
♪ I'm getting bolder ♪
895
00:52:27,243 --> 00:52:29,679
♪ I'm getting bolder ♪
896
00:52:29,712 --> 00:52:31,414
Yeah!
897
00:52:34,584 --> 00:52:38,754
♪ If you want my loving,
then you better start running ♪
898
00:52:38,788 --> 00:52:40,790
♪ If you, if you, if you ♪
899
00:52:40,823 --> 00:52:43,426
♪ If you want my loving,
then you better start running ♪
900
00:52:51,267 --> 00:52:52,734
The German saved the phone.
901
00:52:52,768 --> 00:52:54,471
Oh.
902
00:53:07,984 --> 00:53:10,920
My last vacation was probably
903
00:53:10,953 --> 00:53:14,591
when I was, like, 15,
904
00:53:14,624 --> 00:53:17,459
like, with my family.
905
00:53:18,694 --> 00:53:20,430
It's just been nonstop work,
906
00:53:20,463 --> 00:53:24,434
and I felt like I needed
to do this for myself
907
00:53:24,467 --> 00:53:28,438
or I'm going to lose it.
908
00:53:33,442 --> 00:53:36,446
It's so beautiful.
It's Mykonos. I love it here.
909
00:53:36,479 --> 00:53:39,381
But for some reason,
it's hard for me to relax.
910
00:53:39,415 --> 00:53:41,418
( groans )
911
00:53:46,989 --> 00:53:48,858
Phone.
912
00:53:48,891 --> 00:53:52,795
Paris on recording: The sunset
in Mykonos is insane.
913
00:53:52,828 --> 00:53:55,832
- Loves it.
- ( chuckles )
914
00:53:55,865 --> 00:53:59,301
I put this new app on my phone
which tells you,
915
00:53:59,335 --> 00:54:01,971
like, the amount of time
you spend on social media.
916
00:54:02,004 --> 00:54:03,973
Usually I'm, like, up to here.
917
00:54:04,006 --> 00:54:06,475
16 hours and 19 minutes.
918
00:54:09,078 --> 00:54:11,314
When you add up
all those hours in your life,
919
00:54:11,347 --> 00:54:12,949
it's literally, like,
years of your life
920
00:54:12,982 --> 00:54:14,884
spent just, like,
looking at a phone.
921
00:54:19,488 --> 00:54:21,457
It's just beyond.
922
00:54:41,711 --> 00:54:43,479
( indistinct chatter)
923
00:54:48,884 --> 00:54:50,053
Hmm.
924
00:54:51,721 --> 00:54:53,556
( chuckles )
925
00:55:03,999 --> 00:55:05,401
That's nice.
926
00:55:07,403 --> 00:55:09,339
It's so romantic.
927
00:55:10,873 --> 00:55:12,409
( shutter clicks )
928
00:55:18,881 --> 00:55:20,716
I think that's
the best part of life
929
00:55:20,750 --> 00:55:22,719
is falling in love
and being in love.
930
00:55:24,487 --> 00:55:26,889
It's the most incredible
feeling in the world,
931
00:55:26,922 --> 00:55:30,727
and I haven't felt it
in so long.
932
00:55:30,760 --> 00:55:35,065
Sometimes I feel like
I've almost become numb to it.
933
00:55:36,932 --> 00:55:38,435
I don't know.
934
00:55:41,537 --> 00:55:44,406
With my last engagement,
I was really happy
in the beginning.
935
00:55:44,440 --> 00:55:46,676
Woman:
Paris Hilton's boyfriend
of two years...
936
00:55:46,709 --> 00:55:49,645
- Yes!
- ...proposed with a $2 million
937
00:55:49,678 --> 00:55:52,582
- 20 karat diamond ring. Wow.
- Kathy Lee Gifford:
Tell us about him.
938
00:55:52,615 --> 00:55:54,984
Why is he the one?
'Cause you've--
you've tried a few.
939
00:55:55,017 --> 00:55:56,618
( laughter )
940
00:55:56,652 --> 00:55:58,621
You've taken a few test runs.
Haven't we all?
941
00:55:58,654 --> 00:56:01,558
Yeah, I finally found
my perfect other half.
942
00:56:03,793 --> 00:56:08,464
Paris:
From the outside, it would look
like just the perfect couple
943
00:56:08,497 --> 00:56:13,035
because I'm be posting
all these really happy photos
and amazing quotes.
944
00:56:13,068 --> 00:56:15,838
Woman:
Paris Hilton addressing her
split with Chris Zylka,
945
00:56:15,871 --> 00:56:17,640
ending their engagement.
946
00:56:19,642 --> 00:56:22,678
Paris:
But deep down I just felt
kind of trapped.
947
00:56:32,154 --> 00:56:34,657
I think when you get married,
you're forced to grow up.
948
00:56:43,599 --> 00:56:44,901
I am afraid to grow up.
949
00:56:49,004 --> 00:56:52,141
Look, I know I am grown up.
950
00:56:52,174 --> 00:56:54,477
I don't know.
I think after being
at those schools,
951
00:56:54,510 --> 00:56:56,613
you-- you lose
your childhood.
952
00:57:19,268 --> 00:57:22,171
Man: Paris! Paris!
953
00:57:22,204 --> 00:57:25,141
DJ: Ladies and gentlemen,
we're about to get
the party started.
954
00:57:25,174 --> 00:57:27,677
Yep, yep, yep.
955
00:57:27,710 --> 00:57:30,513
We got Paris Hilton
in this mother( bleep ),
956
00:57:30,546 --> 00:57:32,915
and here we go.
957
00:57:32,948 --> 00:57:34,183
( dance music playing
on speakers )
958
00:57:34,216 --> 00:57:37,554
Paris:
What's up, Los Angeles?
959
00:57:40,523 --> 00:57:42,859
Are you guys ready
to have a good ( bleep ) time?
960
00:57:42,892 --> 00:57:44,894
- DJ: Yep!
- ( crowd cheering )
961
00:57:44,927 --> 00:57:47,697
- Let's do this shit.
- DJ: Yo.
962
00:57:48,697 --> 00:57:52,034
( dance music continues )
963
00:57:52,067 --> 00:57:53,703
Paris:
I just feel like at night
964
00:57:53,736 --> 00:57:56,205
is when I really come alive.
965
00:57:56,238 --> 00:57:59,008
I love music
and I love just to, like,
966
00:57:59,041 --> 00:58:02,545
dance on the table
and just have fun.
967
00:58:07,850 --> 00:58:10,252
I just feel like
I'm on top of the world.
968
00:58:19,061 --> 00:58:22,965
I just feel so free
and happy and alive,
969
00:58:22,998 --> 00:58:24,634
like I'm a conductor of,
970
00:58:24,667 --> 00:58:27,569
like, this whole
orchestra of people,
971
00:58:27,603 --> 00:58:31,774
controlling the room
and just feeling all the love.
972
00:58:37,313 --> 00:58:40,283
Whoo! I ( bleep ) love you guys.
973
00:58:54,830 --> 00:58:58,267
When I'm playing,
that's my time,
974
00:58:58,300 --> 00:59:00,937
like, when I have fun.
975
00:59:00,970 --> 00:59:03,105
- There's nothing like it.
- ( cheering )
976
00:59:03,138 --> 00:59:05,908
People talk shit and say
that I'm not DJ-ing live.
977
00:59:05,941 --> 00:59:09,111
- What's up, Brazil?
- ( cheering )
978
00:59:09,144 --> 00:59:12,948
At my first concert in Brazil
for 30,000 people,
979
00:59:12,982 --> 00:59:14,984
the guy came up for one second
just to turn the volume,
980
00:59:15,017 --> 00:59:17,285
and that picture
just went viral.
981
00:59:17,319 --> 00:59:18,955
It was like,
"Paris wasn't DJ-ing.
982
00:59:18,988 --> 00:59:20,189
This guy was doing it."
983
00:59:20,222 --> 00:59:23,292
So I really have to,
like, prove myself,
984
00:59:23,325 --> 00:59:25,761
especially being a woman
in this industry as well,
985
00:59:25,794 --> 00:59:27,230
because it's,
like, a boy's world.
986
00:59:31,900 --> 00:59:34,303
So, I finally arrived
in Belgium,
987
00:59:34,336 --> 00:59:37,807
and, no, this is
not some new filter
that you haven't seen.
988
00:59:37,840 --> 00:59:42,812
It's actually this, like,
sick mask that I got.
989
00:59:42,845 --> 00:59:45,113
And, um, I'm about to go
to Tomorrowland.
990
00:59:45,147 --> 00:59:48,651
I'm playing there on Sunday.
991
00:59:48,684 --> 00:59:50,653
Let me change the color.
992
00:59:50,686 --> 00:59:52,321
Ooh.
993
00:59:52,354 --> 00:59:55,658
Okay, the pink is the best.
994
00:59:55,691 --> 00:59:58,327
Anyway, I am just getting
ready for the festival,
995
00:59:58,360 --> 01:00:00,796
and I will see you
at my set on Sunday
996
01:00:00,829 --> 01:00:02,365
at Smash The House stage.
997
01:00:15,711 --> 01:00:18,714
I'm scared.
If this erases--
998
01:00:18,747 --> 01:00:22,852
I've been practicing this set
for, like, two months.
999
01:00:22,885 --> 01:00:24,854
- Aleks: I know, but--
- ( bleep ) my life.
1000
01:00:25,921 --> 01:00:29,792
Oh, no.
I think it's gone.
1001
01:00:34,830 --> 01:00:36,866
( music playing on speakers )
1002
01:00:36,899 --> 01:00:38,868
- ♪ This was only gonna hurt ♪
- It ( bleep ) works!
1003
01:00:38,901 --> 01:00:40,770
♪ If I want you ♪
1004
01:00:40,803 --> 01:00:43,205
Oh, my God. Okay.
1005
01:00:43,238 --> 01:00:47,977
( bleep ) We're supposed to
leave in 17 minutes
and 21 seconds.
1006
01:00:48,010 --> 01:00:50,680
( groans )
1007
01:00:50,713 --> 01:00:52,982
I am nervous as ( bleep ).
1008
01:00:54,750 --> 01:00:57,453
Every summer,
I've been wanting to come here.
1009
01:00:57,486 --> 01:01:01,824
Tomorrowland
is the most prestigious,
1010
01:01:01,857 --> 01:01:04,060
like, biggest festival
in the world.
1011
01:01:04,093 --> 01:01:07,062
Like, there's nothing
that compares to it.
1012
01:01:07,096 --> 01:01:11,233
So, to be playing
at this is like--
1013
01:01:11,266 --> 01:01:13,736
I'm like,
I can't believe it.
1014
01:01:13,769 --> 01:01:16,906
Oh, my God.
Thank you so much.
1015
01:01:18,874 --> 01:01:20,942
- Me? Why?
- Whoops.
1016
01:01:20,976 --> 01:01:22,244
- Yes, you're so--
- For what?
1017
01:01:22,277 --> 01:01:25,081
Because you're just
very helpful and patient.
1018
01:01:25,114 --> 01:01:26,916
That's normal, babe.
1019
01:01:26,949 --> 01:01:28,918
And I know I'm a ( bleep )
nightmare to deal with.
1020
01:01:28,951 --> 01:01:30,419
- ( clatters )
- Jeez.
1021
01:01:30,452 --> 01:01:34,290
- She's a nightmare.
- ( bleep )...
1022
01:01:34,323 --> 01:01:36,091
Love you, baby.
It's all good.
1023
01:01:36,125 --> 01:01:37,760
Love you, too.
1024
01:01:37,793 --> 01:01:39,762
All right, let's do this.
I'm hot.
1025
01:01:39,795 --> 01:01:41,931
Okay. Let's go!
1026
01:01:45,200 --> 01:01:47,470
Paris: I have not
done a sound check.
1027
01:01:47,503 --> 01:01:49,438
Aleks:
I can go and set it up.
1028
01:01:49,471 --> 01:01:51,174
You don't even know
how to do it.
1029
01:01:52,241 --> 01:01:54,276
All right, here I go.
1030
01:01:54,309 --> 01:01:58,781
This shit changes the name
to Tomorrow-( bleep )-land.
1031
01:01:58,814 --> 01:02:00,348
♪ If I told you ♪
1032
01:02:00,382 --> 01:02:01,417
♪ This was only gonna hurt ♪
1033
01:02:01,450 --> 01:02:03,218
Okay.
1034
01:02:03,252 --> 01:02:07,089
- ( music continues )
- ( bleep ), we're here.
1035
01:02:07,122 --> 01:02:09,959
What's happening?
Where is everyone?
1036
01:02:09,992 --> 01:02:11,293
Woman:
We can start if you want to.
1037
01:02:11,326 --> 01:02:12,962
The press?
Let's just do the press
1038
01:02:12,995 --> 01:02:15,131
so we can get this over with
and do everything.
1039
01:02:15,164 --> 01:02:16,799
But let's make sure
the computer doesn't fall off
1040
01:02:16,832 --> 01:02:19,134
because I will,
like, commit suicide.
1041
01:02:19,168 --> 01:02:21,070
Where's the press room?
1042
01:02:22,504 --> 01:02:23,873
Man:
We are live at Tomorrowland,
1043
01:02:23,906 --> 01:02:25,141
and in the studio
1044
01:02:25,174 --> 01:02:26,242
we have Paris Hilton.
1045
01:02:26,275 --> 01:02:28,310
( cheering )
1046
01:02:28,343 --> 01:02:30,312
Man 2:
This is Tomorrowland,
One World Radio,
1047
01:02:30,345 --> 01:02:32,848
and we welcome
to the studio Paris Hilton!
1048
01:02:32,881 --> 01:02:35,216
So, as we're celebrating
15 years at Tomorrowland,
1049
01:02:35,250 --> 01:02:38,921
what would 15-year-old
Paris Hilton think
of Tomorrowland?
1050
01:02:38,954 --> 01:02:42,024
I've been actually going to
raves since I was 15.
1051
01:02:42,057 --> 01:02:46,162
So the 15-year-old,
who I basically
still am at heart,
1052
01:02:46,195 --> 01:02:49,165
would be raging balls here.
1053
01:02:49,198 --> 01:02:52,100
- Totally blown away
by it, right?
- Yes.
1054
01:02:52,134 --> 01:02:55,104
- Thank you.
- Have fun.
1055
01:02:55,137 --> 01:02:58,307
Brilliant.
Thank you. Sick mask.
1056
01:03:09,051 --> 01:03:11,854
Drink water, please.
1057
01:03:11,887 --> 01:03:13,222
Please.
1058
01:03:17,559 --> 01:03:20,396
Please don't stress me out.
I'm really nervous as it is.
1059
01:03:24,299 --> 01:03:26,903
But, baby, I was just
doing nine interviews.
It's not my fault.
1060
01:03:30,405 --> 01:03:33,576
No, that was some--
that was some girl.
She was a new artist.
1061
01:03:39,081 --> 01:03:41,050
- I can't say no to people.
- Yes.
1062
01:03:41,083 --> 01:03:45,221
No. Babe, that's why
I've been in this industry
for 20 years.
1063
01:03:45,254 --> 01:03:47,423
Oh, honey, don't.
1064
01:03:56,498 --> 01:03:59,235
Well, I didn't
even put my set together
because I had no time
1065
01:03:59,268 --> 01:04:01,337
because I've been
fighting the whole time.
1066
01:04:03,639 --> 01:04:05,140
Now? Let's go.
1067
01:04:05,173 --> 01:04:09,011
( music playing )
1068
01:04:09,044 --> 01:04:10,379
Babe!
1069
01:04:10,412 --> 01:04:11,580
It's nothing.
1070
01:04:11,613 --> 01:04:14,917
What do you mean,
it's nothing?
1071
01:04:14,950 --> 01:04:16,919
Jesus Christ.
1072
01:04:16,952 --> 01:04:19,455
You can't just drop
a computer before a set.
1073
01:04:21,456 --> 01:04:23,259
- What should happen?
- We need to--
1074
01:04:23,292 --> 01:04:26,929
What should happen?
Uh, the computer could break.
1075
01:04:26,962 --> 01:04:28,097
Please don't--
don't close it.
1076
01:04:28,130 --> 01:04:30,199
How should I keep it open?
1077
01:04:30,232 --> 01:04:31,600
How?
1078
01:04:31,633 --> 01:04:34,136
Can someone who's not
gonna drop it take it?
1079
01:04:34,169 --> 01:04:36,939
Thank you. Please stop.
1080
01:04:36,972 --> 01:04:39,208
Do not do this
before my set.
1081
01:04:39,241 --> 01:04:41,277
Aleks!
1082
01:04:41,310 --> 01:04:43,112
Can you tell him
to chill the ( bleep ) out?
1083
01:04:43,145 --> 01:04:45,447
This is ( bleep ) up.
I'm playing Tomorrowland.
1084
01:04:45,480 --> 01:04:47,616
He needs to chill
the ( bleep ) out!
1085
01:04:47,649 --> 01:04:49,417
I'm sick of this shit!
1086
01:04:49,451 --> 01:04:52,088
I'm playing in six minutes!
1087
01:04:53,522 --> 01:04:56,058
So insecure.
1088
01:04:56,091 --> 01:04:57,960
- My glasses.
- Stop!
1089
01:04:57,993 --> 01:04:59,595
Are you really doing that
before my set?
1090
01:04:59,628 --> 01:05:01,463
Okay, then never
speak to me again.
1091
01:05:01,496 --> 01:05:03,633
Tell him to chill
the ( bleep ) out.
1092
01:05:05,233 --> 01:05:08,103
- ( music continues )
- ( indistinct chatter )
1093
01:05:08,136 --> 01:05:10,639
Please stop!
I love you, please stop.
Please stop, please.
1094
01:05:10,672 --> 01:05:13,309
- You don't love me.
- I'm begging you! Stop!
1095
01:05:13,342 --> 01:05:14,476
Aleks.
1096
01:05:14,509 --> 01:05:16,312
I start in four minutes.
1097
01:05:16,345 --> 01:05:18,314
Please!
1098
01:05:18,347 --> 01:05:21,350
I start in three minutes!
Do not ruin my set.
1099
01:05:23,285 --> 01:05:25,654
Can I have his
( bleep ) bracelets cut off?
1100
01:05:25,687 --> 01:05:27,489
Can we cut
his bracelets off?
1101
01:05:27,522 --> 01:05:29,991
- What?
- Can we cut his
( bleep ) bracelets off?
1102
01:05:30,025 --> 01:05:32,461
He's ( bleep ) ruining
my entire set.
1103
01:05:32,494 --> 01:05:34,496
( music continues )
1104
01:05:34,529 --> 01:05:37,166
Okay, then stop.
Please, please. I'm gonna
start crying on my set.
1105
01:05:38,700 --> 01:05:40,502
It's all good.
It's all good.
1106
01:05:40,535 --> 01:05:42,071
- God!
- It's all good.
1107
01:05:45,207 --> 01:05:46,442
( music continues )
1108
01:05:49,444 --> 01:05:52,315
( cheering )
1109
01:05:54,349 --> 01:05:57,019
( cheering intensifies )
1110
01:05:57,052 --> 01:06:00,289
( applause )
1111
01:06:08,430 --> 01:06:11,299
What's up, Belgium?
1112
01:06:13,435 --> 01:06:15,738
Let's ( bleep ) do this.
1113
01:06:15,771 --> 01:06:18,574
( dance music playing )
1114
01:06:25,714 --> 01:06:27,416
Paris: Stop.
1115
01:06:30,552 --> 01:06:33,589
- Aleks: You did this.
- Paris: I did this?
1116
01:06:33,622 --> 01:06:35,223
( bleep ) apologize.
1117
01:06:35,257 --> 01:06:36,592
Stop!
1118
01:06:37,826 --> 01:06:39,728
Get the ( bleep ) away from me!
1119
01:06:39,761 --> 01:06:42,364
Give me your ( bleep )
bracelets, you ( bleep )
ass( bleep ).
1120
01:06:42,397 --> 01:06:44,799
I want him out of here.
He's ( bleep ) kicked out.
1121
01:06:44,833 --> 01:06:45,801
- Man: Really?
- Done.
1122
01:06:45,834 --> 01:06:47,569
♪ I'm losing it ♪
1123
01:06:47,602 --> 01:06:50,272
Come on, let's go.
In the van.
1124
01:06:50,305 --> 01:06:52,741
( music continues )
1125
01:06:52,774 --> 01:06:54,243
♪ I'm losing it ♪
1126
01:06:54,276 --> 01:06:56,345
Yeah!
1127
01:07:00,615 --> 01:07:02,118
♪ I'm losing it ♪
1128
01:07:08,290 --> 01:07:09,725
♪ I'm losing it ♪
1129
01:07:23,772 --> 01:07:25,207
Yes!
1130
01:07:34,816 --> 01:07:38,486
I love you, Tomorrowland!
Thank you!
1131
01:07:52,667 --> 01:07:54,804
Bye, Felicia.
1132
01:07:57,806 --> 01:08:00,509
Way too many computers.
1133
01:08:03,311 --> 01:08:06,482
This is not all, like,
different relationships.
1134
01:08:06,515 --> 01:08:09,317
But any time I do have
a new boyfriend,
1135
01:08:09,351 --> 01:08:10,819
I always get
a full new computer
1136
01:08:10,852 --> 01:08:14,123
because they always
break into my computers.
1137
01:08:14,156 --> 01:08:16,658
Or they'll scream at me
and threaten me,
1138
01:08:16,691 --> 01:08:19,327
"Give me your password now."
1139
01:08:19,361 --> 01:08:21,497
One night, I was with
one of my ex-boyfriends
1140
01:08:21,529 --> 01:08:22,798
and we got in a big fight.
1141
01:08:22,831 --> 01:08:24,766
I was on my computer
ignoring him
1142
01:08:24,799 --> 01:08:26,835
because I felt
really uncomfortable.
1143
01:08:26,868 --> 01:08:28,670
And he just grabbed it
from me and just, like,
1144
01:08:28,703 --> 01:08:31,907
slammed it on the floor.
1145
01:08:31,939 --> 01:08:35,277
I should probably check
and see if there's more.
1146
01:08:35,310 --> 01:08:37,546
Great. I just revealed
my hiding place.
1147
01:08:37,578 --> 01:08:40,182
I've never used
any of this stuff.
1148
01:08:40,215 --> 01:08:44,185
I just buy things and then
people put them in here
1149
01:08:44,219 --> 01:08:45,687
and then I can't see anything
1150
01:08:45,720 --> 01:08:48,223
because no one
organizes anything.
1151
01:08:48,256 --> 01:08:51,360
- Woman: You've got
so much stuff.
- Paris: Yeah.
1152
01:08:51,393 --> 01:08:52,694
Woman: And you're
always saying to me
1153
01:08:52,727 --> 01:08:54,529
you need to make
your billion dollars.
1154
01:08:54,563 --> 01:08:56,231
That that's what
you're trying to do.
Make a billion.
1155
01:08:56,264 --> 01:08:58,800
Paris:
Yeah. To spend it.
1156
01:08:58,832 --> 01:09:01,370
That's just my goal in life.
1157
01:09:01,403 --> 01:09:02,538
Like, when I was a teenager,
1158
01:09:02,571 --> 01:09:04,872
I always wanted
to make 100 million.
1159
01:09:04,906 --> 01:09:08,443
I was like,
"When I do that,
I'm gonna be happy."
1160
01:09:08,475 --> 01:09:10,211
And I think
once you do your goal,
1161
01:09:10,245 --> 01:09:12,447
you just want to keep going
more and more.
1162
01:09:12,479 --> 01:09:15,584
- Woman: And then what?
- And then I'll be happy.
1163
01:09:17,886 --> 01:09:22,558
I'm happy now sometimes,
but it is lonely.
1164
01:09:22,591 --> 01:09:26,728
- What about Aleks?
- I told him that
I'm just not ready
1165
01:09:26,761 --> 01:09:28,630
for something right now.
1166
01:09:28,662 --> 01:09:30,732
Like, I've never ripped
someone's bracelets
1167
01:09:30,765 --> 01:09:32,734
off their arms
at a music festival.
1168
01:09:32,767 --> 01:09:35,403
That's, like,
one of the meanest things
you could do to someone
1169
01:09:35,437 --> 01:09:37,673
is taking away
their artist band.
1170
01:09:37,706 --> 01:09:41,577
But I just had
had enough at that point.
1171
01:09:41,609 --> 01:09:44,545
A person can only take so much.
1172
01:09:44,578 --> 01:09:47,416
Like, anything that tries
to control me is--
1173
01:09:47,448 --> 01:09:49,518
it can't have room in my life.
1174
01:09:56,458 --> 01:10:00,262
You know, she's such
a beautiful person
1175
01:10:00,295 --> 01:10:02,598
and such a good girl,
and I believe that
1176
01:10:02,631 --> 01:10:05,601
all of the things
that she's gone through
1177
01:10:05,634 --> 01:10:08,237
have made her stronger.
1178
01:10:08,270 --> 01:10:11,607
And she would
say things to me after,
1179
01:10:11,640 --> 01:10:13,742
like,
"I still have nightmares.
1180
01:10:13,775 --> 01:10:15,777
I still in the middle
of the night, I feel--"
1181
01:10:15,810 --> 01:10:19,948
You know,
she would say that.
1182
01:10:19,981 --> 01:10:22,451
And I always
take what people say
1183
01:10:22,484 --> 01:10:23,785
with a grain of salt.
1184
01:10:23,818 --> 01:10:26,622
Like, I think,
"Yeah, it did bother her,
1185
01:10:26,655 --> 01:10:28,657
but it was our way
of saving you."
1186
01:10:34,829 --> 01:10:36,365
What do you mean, solitary?
What do you mean?
1187
01:10:43,438 --> 01:10:44,740
Are you serious?
1188
01:10:45,840 --> 01:10:47,343
She's never told me that.
1189
01:10:51,513 --> 01:10:52,681
In Utah?
1190
01:11:02,490 --> 01:11:04,660
- Oh, shit.
- Jen: Whoa.
1191
01:11:04,693 --> 01:11:06,362
Popping bottles.
1192
01:11:08,463 --> 01:11:11,733
- Cheers, bitch.
- Cheers. Again.
1193
01:11:16,104 --> 01:11:18,707
- I look beyond.
- No, you do not.
1194
01:11:18,740 --> 01:11:20,675
The woman has been up
since 5:00 in the morning.
1195
01:11:20,709 --> 01:11:22,376
I went to bed at 1:30.
1196
01:11:22,410 --> 01:11:25,547
- The woman looks amazing.
- I woke up five times,
1197
01:11:25,580 --> 01:11:27,649
having nightmares
as always--
1198
01:11:27,682 --> 01:11:30,686
I have, like, dreams of,
like, my real life,
1199
01:11:30,719 --> 01:11:32,521
like, when I was, like,
taken from my house,
1200
01:11:32,554 --> 01:11:36,358
like, by people and, like,
being locked up somewhere.
1201
01:11:36,391 --> 01:11:37,992
( phone rings )
1202
01:11:41,863 --> 01:11:44,466
( door chime rings )
1203
01:11:44,499 --> 01:11:46,535
- Hi.
- Hi.
1204
01:11:46,568 --> 01:11:49,471
- You look so gorgeous.
- Thank you.
1205
01:11:49,504 --> 01:11:52,541
- What've you guys been doing?
- Paris: Chilling.
1206
01:11:52,574 --> 01:11:56,044
Just thinking about life
and why I have nightmares.
1207
01:11:56,077 --> 01:11:58,046
Remember that, like,
random school I went to?
1208
01:11:58,079 --> 01:12:01,416
- Mm. In Salt Lake City?
- Yeah.
1209
01:12:01,449 --> 01:12:05,887
Yeah. Remember,
like, seven years ago,
1210
01:12:05,920 --> 01:12:08,724
I was in Europe,
and I met someone
1211
01:12:08,757 --> 01:12:10,392
who was at one of those
places with you
1212
01:12:10,425 --> 01:12:11,893
and I put you
on the phone with him?
1213
01:12:11,926 --> 01:12:13,729
What did he say?
1214
01:12:13,762 --> 01:12:15,496
That you guys were
at this place
1215
01:12:15,530 --> 01:12:18,400
and it was just,
like, mental.
1216
01:12:18,433 --> 01:12:20,369
It was, like, abuse.
1217
01:12:23,037 --> 01:12:26,641
Dad: There's Paris.
Here we are at Paris' school.
1218
01:12:26,674 --> 01:12:29,444
This is Starry's room.
1219
01:12:29,477 --> 01:12:32,080
Paris:
Did you visit me there?
1220
01:12:32,113 --> 01:12:33,715
Nicky:
I don't remember,
1221
01:12:33,748 --> 01:12:34,750
but then I saw a video.
1222
01:12:34,783 --> 01:12:36,084
Wasn't I there?
1223
01:12:36,117 --> 01:12:38,787
You don't remember it?
1224
01:12:38,820 --> 01:12:40,688
No.
1225
01:12:40,722 --> 01:12:42,924
I feel like we both
blocked it out.
1226
01:12:42,957 --> 01:12:45,660
Mom and Dad always loved
hiding things--
1227
01:12:45,693 --> 01:12:46,895
Everything.
1228
01:12:46,928 --> 01:12:49,431
They're the king and queen
1229
01:12:49,464 --> 01:12:51,367
of sweeping everything
under the rug.
1230
01:12:54,068 --> 01:12:55,771
Yeah.
1231
01:12:55,804 --> 01:12:59,007
My parents always hid
everything from us,
1232
01:12:59,040 --> 01:13:00,776
so I would listen
on the phone.
1233
01:13:00,809 --> 01:13:02,677
That's how I got all my intel.
1234
01:13:02,710 --> 01:13:07,682
And I remember
it was a school night,
1235
01:13:07,715 --> 01:13:09,618
it was the middle
of the night,
1236
01:13:09,651 --> 01:13:14,156
and I just heard
screaming bloody murder.
1237
01:13:17,158 --> 01:13:19,795
I knew there was a--
1238
01:13:19,828 --> 01:13:21,864
a takedown in the works.
1239
01:13:23,164 --> 01:13:27,701
I didn't know it was people
1240
01:13:27,735 --> 01:13:31,072
coming in and capturing her.
1241
01:13:33,007 --> 01:13:34,910
Paris:
I thought I was
being kidnapped.
1242
01:13:40,515 --> 01:13:42,884
I started screaming
for my mom and dad,
1243
01:13:42,917 --> 01:13:44,820
like, "Help me,"
1244
01:13:44,853 --> 01:13:46,755
and no one came.
1245
01:13:46,788 --> 01:13:47,923
( screaming )
1246
01:13:47,956 --> 01:13:51,193
As they were taking me,
1247
01:13:51,226 --> 01:13:55,496
I saw my parents standing
by their door, crying.
1248
01:13:55,530 --> 01:13:57,032
I was like,
"Please help me.
What's happening?"
1249
01:13:57,065 --> 01:13:59,101
And no one would tell me
what was happening.
1250
01:14:02,837 --> 01:14:05,507
And then in the morning,
it was breakfast,
1251
01:14:05,540 --> 01:14:09,077
and Paris didn't come
to the breakfast table.
1252
01:14:09,110 --> 01:14:12,179
And my parents were,
like, smiling, like,
"Everything's fine."
1253
01:14:12,213 --> 01:14:17,219
And we didn't ask
any questions.
1254
01:14:19,654 --> 01:14:25,627
And then I think
they said she, like,
went to boarding school.
1255
01:14:27,195 --> 01:14:28,163
Because they
were always trying to
1256
01:14:28,196 --> 01:14:30,232
protect us and shield us.
1257
01:14:34,802 --> 01:14:37,706
Jen: Did you ever get,
like, nervous that that
would happen to you?
1258
01:14:37,739 --> 01:14:39,708
Because if they didn't
really explain it to you
1259
01:14:39,741 --> 01:14:41,543
on why she was going away,
did you ever feel like--
1260
01:14:41,576 --> 01:14:44,212
Well, she was very naughty.
1261
01:14:44,245 --> 01:14:47,082
- What?
- She was.
1262
01:14:47,115 --> 01:14:49,050
Did you talk to her
about things?
1263
01:14:49,083 --> 01:14:51,052
- Did you, like--
- I told on her
with everything.
1264
01:14:51,085 --> 01:14:53,722
- Thanks, bitch.
- I would listen on the phone.
1265
01:14:53,755 --> 01:14:55,824
Have you ever said sorry
to Mom and Dad?
1266
01:14:55,857 --> 01:14:57,259
No.
1267
01:14:59,928 --> 01:15:02,898
- Like, hell--
- I went through hell, too.
1268
01:15:02,931 --> 01:15:04,900
I know.
1269
01:15:07,769 --> 01:15:10,906
Paris:
The last school I went to
was Provo Canyon School...
1270
01:15:13,107 --> 01:15:14,910
...and that was the worst
of the worst.
1271
01:15:14,943 --> 01:15:16,612
Do you want a fake one
or a real one?
1272
01:15:17,979 --> 01:15:19,982
There's no
getting out of there.
1273
01:15:23,618 --> 01:15:27,923
You're sitting on a chair
staring at a wall all day long
1274
01:15:27,956 --> 01:15:29,892
getting yelled at or hit.
1275
01:15:31,793 --> 01:15:34,228
I felt like a lot of
the people who worked there
1276
01:15:34,262 --> 01:15:37,032
got off on torturing children
1277
01:15:37,065 --> 01:15:39,968
and seeing them naked.
1278
01:15:42,236 --> 01:15:45,974
They would prescribe everyone
all these pills.
1279
01:15:46,007 --> 01:15:48,777
I didn't know
what they were giving me.
1280
01:15:48,810 --> 01:15:50,812
I would just feel
so tired and numb.
1281
01:15:52,647 --> 01:15:56,284
Some people in that place
were just gone.
1282
01:15:56,317 --> 01:15:59,354
Like, the lights are on,
no one's home.
1283
01:15:59,387 --> 01:16:02,791
A lot of people
were on suicide watch,
1284
01:16:02,824 --> 01:16:05,259
and I was so scared
that was gonna happen to me.
1285
01:16:05,293 --> 01:16:07,629
So, eventually,
1286
01:16:07,662 --> 01:16:08,830
I found out a way
1287
01:16:08,863 --> 01:16:11,667
to not take the pills.
1288
01:16:13,334 --> 01:16:15,170
But everyone
would tell on everyone,
1289
01:16:15,203 --> 01:16:18,840
and they found a Kleenex
with all of the pills in it...
1290
01:16:21,676 --> 01:16:23,679
...and I got in
so much trouble for that.
1291
01:16:27,281 --> 01:16:31,385
Solitary confinement,
like something out
1292
01:16:31,419 --> 01:16:33,655
of "One Flew Over
The Cuckoo's Nest."
1293
01:16:33,688 --> 01:16:35,090
( shivering )
1294
01:16:35,123 --> 01:16:36,691
They'd make people
take their clothes off
1295
01:16:36,724 --> 01:16:39,160
and go in there,
like, for 20 hours.
1296
01:16:39,193 --> 01:16:40,996
( shivering )
1297
01:16:41,029 --> 01:16:43,331
It felt like
I was going crazy.
1298
01:16:43,364 --> 01:16:45,000
Someone was in
the other room that was, like,
1299
01:16:45,033 --> 01:16:49,004
in a straitjacket,
screaming.
1300
01:16:49,037 --> 01:16:53,108
I was just freezing,
I was starving,
1301
01:16:53,141 --> 01:16:56,710
I was alone,
and I was scared.
1302
01:16:56,744 --> 01:16:59,347
My parents were in New York.
1303
01:16:59,380 --> 01:17:01,282
They didn't know.
1304
01:17:01,315 --> 01:17:03,351
But I was so angry
and so upset,
1305
01:17:03,384 --> 01:17:07,289
I just-- I hated them.
1306
01:17:09,724 --> 01:17:13,028
I was at Provo for 11 months,
1307
01:17:13,061 --> 01:17:15,196
and the only thing
that saved my sanity
1308
01:17:15,229 --> 01:17:17,365
was thinking about
what I wanted to do
1309
01:17:17,398 --> 01:17:19,401
and who I wanted to become
when I got out of there.
1310
01:17:20,902 --> 01:17:22,871
I was gonna do
everything in my power
1311
01:17:22,904 --> 01:17:25,306
to be so successful
1312
01:17:25,339 --> 01:17:28,243
that my parents
could never control me again.
1313
01:17:34,215 --> 01:17:37,185
When I turned 18
and got out of Provo,
1314
01:17:37,218 --> 01:17:42,157
it was one of
the happiest moments
of my life.
1315
01:17:42,190 --> 01:17:45,826
I just wanted
to be independent.
1316
01:17:45,860 --> 01:17:50,764
Make a name for myself
and build my brand.
1317
01:17:50,798 --> 01:17:55,003
I knew that would be
the ultimate freedom.
1318
01:17:55,036 --> 01:17:57,439
And that's when I met
David LaChapelle.
1319
01:17:57,472 --> 01:17:59,107
( music playing )
1320
01:18:03,811 --> 01:18:07,816
David LaChapelle
is one of the most iconic
1321
01:18:07,849 --> 01:18:09,785
photographers in the world.
1322
01:18:11,452 --> 01:18:15,190
David said, "We need to shoot
at your grandparents' house."
1323
01:18:15,223 --> 01:18:17,492
I was like, "Totally.
Like, we'll climb the gate.
1324
01:18:17,525 --> 01:18:19,294
I don't care. I'll open it."
1325
01:18:21,462 --> 01:18:23,098
So, basically,
we're in this room
1326
01:18:23,131 --> 01:18:25,066
at around, like,
3:00 in the morning,
1327
01:18:25,099 --> 01:18:26,968
and he wanted it to be
a strong picture.
1328
01:18:27,001 --> 01:18:29,137
I'm just like posing, like,
1329
01:18:29,170 --> 01:18:32,373
whatever, and I think
he wanted to provoke me.
1330
01:18:32,406 --> 01:18:34,976
There was just a moment
where he looked at me
1331
01:18:35,009 --> 01:18:37,979
and just said, like,
"( bleep ) you," as a joke.
1332
01:18:38,012 --> 01:18:40,482
And then me going back,
and I was like...
1333
01:18:45,319 --> 01:18:47,822
And that was
the shot he used,
1334
01:18:47,855 --> 01:18:51,291
just that one instant.
1335
01:18:51,325 --> 01:18:54,029
Mom's calling him,
freaking out.
1336
01:18:58,499 --> 01:19:01,236
So I was upset
and I was scared.
1337
01:19:01,269 --> 01:19:03,471
But I think deep down
1338
01:19:03,504 --> 01:19:08,477
I just knew this is iconic.
1339
01:19:11,078 --> 01:19:13,248
"Vanity Fair" ended up doing
a huge story on it.
1340
01:19:13,281 --> 01:19:16,084
This was before
"The Simple Life,"
1341
01:19:16,117 --> 01:19:20,255
so this was basically
how the world got to know me.
1342
01:19:24,392 --> 01:19:26,260
Coming out of Provo,
1343
01:19:26,294 --> 01:19:30,098
I was also, like,
very traumatized.
1344
01:19:32,967 --> 01:19:35,837
I never spoke
to my family about it.
1345
01:19:35,870 --> 01:19:37,172
I think all my anger
1346
01:19:37,205 --> 01:19:40,208
just went into
my drive for success.
1347
01:19:42,343 --> 01:19:44,279
( sniffles, sighs )
1348
01:19:45,546 --> 01:19:47,148
It made me strong,
1349
01:19:47,181 --> 01:19:50,852
but when I think about it,
it gives me anxiety.
1350
01:19:50,885 --> 01:19:52,888
It was really ( bleep ) hard.
1351
01:19:54,589 --> 01:19:57,458
I don't know.
1352
01:19:57,491 --> 01:20:02,964
Maybe inside my mind
I was thinking, like...
1353
01:20:02,997 --> 01:20:06,134
what I was doing in the picture
was like a big ( bleep ) you.
1354
01:20:21,549 --> 01:20:25,453
I don't know if my nightmares
will ever go away.
1355
01:20:25,486 --> 01:20:30,124
But I do know
that there's probably
1356
01:20:30,157 --> 01:20:32,427
hundreds of thousands
of kids
1357
01:20:32,460 --> 01:20:37,498
who are going through
the same thing right now.
1358
01:20:37,531 --> 01:20:40,568
And maybe if I can help
stop their nightmares,
1359
01:20:40,601 --> 01:20:42,571
it will help me stop mine.
1360
01:20:56,617 --> 01:20:59,254
I haven't seen this person
in 20 years.
1361
01:20:59,287 --> 01:21:01,956
Got my purse.
1362
01:21:01,989 --> 01:21:04,992
Part of going
to those schools
1363
01:21:05,026 --> 01:21:09,030
and having nothing
and everything taken away.
1364
01:21:09,063 --> 01:21:10,431
When I got out of there,
I was like,
1365
01:21:10,464 --> 01:21:13,534
"I just want to have
everything I want,
1366
01:21:13,567 --> 01:21:17,338
and, like, it's too much."
1367
01:21:17,371 --> 01:21:21,442
But, I don't know.
When you get everything
taken away,
1368
01:21:21,475 --> 01:21:23,578
you're just like, you're just--
I don't know.
1369
01:21:23,611 --> 01:21:26,047
I don't really appreciate it,
everything,
1370
01:21:26,080 --> 01:21:30,084
and I want everything.
1371
01:21:30,117 --> 01:21:32,287
I've been looking
for my old roommates
1372
01:21:32,320 --> 01:21:34,289
and people I became friends
with there
1373
01:21:34,322 --> 01:21:39,427
and I'm meeting one of
the survivors from the school.
1374
01:21:39,460 --> 01:21:42,931
I'm so ( bleep ) shy.
1375
01:21:42,964 --> 01:21:44,666
Woman:
Are you nervous
'cause you're shy
1376
01:21:44,699 --> 01:21:46,534
or are you nervous 'cause
you're nervous to start this?
1377
01:21:46,567 --> 01:21:48,336
Everything.
It's a lot,
1378
01:21:48,369 --> 01:21:51,005
and I don't know
what I'm walking into.
1379
01:21:51,038 --> 01:21:52,706
A couple years ago,
when I started researching
1380
01:21:52,740 --> 01:21:56,644
and going into it
and everything was coming back
to me,
1381
01:21:56,677 --> 01:21:58,545
I wanted to do something,
but at the same time,
1382
01:21:58,579 --> 01:22:00,114
I was like, "This is gonna
hurt my brand.
1383
01:22:00,147 --> 01:22:02,583
I can't have this
as part of my business,
1384
01:22:02,616 --> 01:22:06,054
and, you know,
people won't understand."
1385
01:22:06,087 --> 01:22:09,958
But if I don't do this,
it's gonna continue to happen
1386
01:22:09,991 --> 01:22:14,362
and I'm gonna continue
to always be traumatized
1387
01:22:14,395 --> 01:22:16,665
and think about it
for the rest of my life.
1388
01:22:19,433 --> 01:22:21,336
( door bell rings )
1389
01:22:24,739 --> 01:22:26,507
- Hi.
- Hey, how's it going?
1390
01:22:26,540 --> 01:22:28,309
- Good.
- Long time no see.
1391
01:22:28,342 --> 01:22:30,044
- Yeah.
- I don't know
if you recognize me.
1392
01:22:30,077 --> 01:22:31,412
- I looked very
different back then.
- Yes.
1393
01:22:31,445 --> 01:22:32,679
Hey.
1394
01:22:32,713 --> 01:22:34,683
- Thank you for coming.
- Yeah, no problem.
1395
01:22:37,251 --> 01:22:38,553
It's weird that, like,
a lot of survivors,
1396
01:22:38,586 --> 01:22:41,289
they wake up after, like,
15, 20 years
1397
01:22:41,322 --> 01:22:43,057
and, like, wow, like,
it hits them
1398
01:22:43,090 --> 01:22:44,592
and they are ready
to talk about it.
1399
01:22:44,625 --> 01:22:46,194
Yeah.
1400
01:22:46,227 --> 01:22:48,196
So, Provo Canyon School,
it's been this beast
1401
01:22:48,229 --> 01:22:49,764
that's been around
for 50 years.
1402
01:22:49,797 --> 01:22:52,266
But every once in a while,
some employees would decide
1403
01:22:52,299 --> 01:22:54,068
that it's gonna be great
if they open their own programs.
1404
01:22:54,101 --> 01:22:56,737
- Mm.
- So PCS not only
1405
01:22:56,771 --> 01:22:58,406
is responsible
for the kids they abuse,
1406
01:22:58,439 --> 01:23:01,209
but all these sister programs
that branched out
1407
01:23:01,242 --> 01:23:03,578
and made the troubled teen
industry.
1408
01:23:03,611 --> 01:23:05,480
There are other celebrities
that went through PCS,
1409
01:23:05,513 --> 01:23:07,415
and I won't say their name,
especially not on camera.
1410
01:23:07,448 --> 01:23:09,650
But, like, you're the first one
to bravely speak up.
1411
01:23:09,683 --> 01:23:11,319
It needs to stop.
1412
01:23:11,352 --> 01:23:15,256
Like, I literally
want to go there and be like,
1413
01:23:15,289 --> 01:23:16,557
"All right,
we're going in
1414
01:23:16,590 --> 01:23:19,060
and we're taking
all these kids out."
1415
01:23:19,093 --> 01:23:21,295
- With a big-- big bus.
- Or try to talk to them,
I don't know.
1416
01:23:21,328 --> 01:23:22,730
But I know-- I don't know
what they'd--
1417
01:23:22,763 --> 01:23:25,266
they'd probably call the cops
and go crazy.
1418
01:23:25,299 --> 01:23:27,368
So I was gonna show you, like,
all the support you have
1419
01:23:27,401 --> 01:23:30,538
from Raina and Elizabeth.
1420
01:23:30,571 --> 01:23:33,141
Elizabeth actually looks
just like she looked at PCS,
1421
01:23:33,174 --> 01:23:35,443
except, just like age
regression.
1422
01:23:35,476 --> 01:23:37,779
Yes, I do remember her.
1423
01:23:40,748 --> 01:23:43,585
I still have nightmares.
And it's been 20 years.
1424
01:23:44,585 --> 01:23:46,254
Do you remember Raina Hager?
1425
01:23:46,287 --> 01:23:48,289
Oh, yeah,
I remember her, too.
1426
01:23:49,757 --> 01:23:51,625
The staff were abusive.
1427
01:23:52,827 --> 01:23:54,228
I think one thing I can say
1428
01:23:54,261 --> 01:23:59,133
is they tried
really hard to break me.
1429
01:23:59,166 --> 01:24:00,301
And they caused
a few cracks.
1430
01:24:00,334 --> 01:24:02,236
( chuckles )
1431
01:24:02,269 --> 01:24:05,573
I don't think I met
your best friend there,
but we did find her.
1432
01:24:05,606 --> 01:24:06,706
- Jessica.
- Jessica.
1433
01:24:06,740 --> 01:24:09,844
She was such a badass.
1434
01:24:09,877 --> 01:24:14,348
I ended up in an abusive
relationship after I left Provo.
1435
01:24:14,381 --> 01:24:19,287
I'm thinking maybe, like,
being in places
1436
01:24:19,320 --> 01:24:22,255
where they're
abusive to you,
1437
01:24:22,289 --> 01:24:27,161
would make you think that
that's a normal way to be.
1438
01:24:27,194 --> 01:24:28,696
There's a bunch
of police reports
1439
01:24:28,729 --> 01:24:29,831
we were able to gather.
1440
01:24:29,864 --> 01:24:32,633
Like, from 2011 to 2014,
1441
01:24:32,666 --> 01:24:36,170
56 calls of assault
to Provo Canyon School.
1442
01:24:36,203 --> 01:24:40,241
And 25 calls to the police
in regards to sexual offenses.
1443
01:24:40,274 --> 01:24:44,378
I'll also forward you--
if you want to show this
to your parents at all...
1444
01:24:44,411 --> 01:24:46,481
Yeah, I love this.
All right, I wanna...
1445
01:24:50,417 --> 01:24:55,223
I-- I'm just--
I'm just processing
this again, um...
1446
01:24:55,256 --> 01:24:56,424
It's not easy.
1447
01:24:56,457 --> 01:24:57,792
We all have to get
to that point
1448
01:24:57,825 --> 01:24:59,427
where we're ready
to open up about it.
1449
01:24:59,460 --> 01:25:01,562
Yeah.
1450
01:25:01,595 --> 01:25:03,531
I don't know
if you have nightmares,
1451
01:25:03,564 --> 01:25:07,168
but I have nightmares
almost every night
of me being taken.
1452
01:25:07,201 --> 01:25:09,370
Ever since
I got kidnapped at 16,
1453
01:25:09,403 --> 01:25:11,539
like, a pin drops
and I wake up.
1454
01:25:11,572 --> 01:25:15,309
This, like, hypervigilance
of every situation,
1455
01:25:15,342 --> 01:25:17,144
and I think, like,
I still take that with me
1456
01:25:17,178 --> 01:25:18,913
in, like, work, and stuff
like that, where I'm like,
1457
01:25:18,946 --> 01:25:21,315
scoping out, like,
how do I get out of here?
1458
01:25:21,348 --> 01:25:23,551
What's in the situation?
Like...
1459
01:25:23,584 --> 01:25:25,920
I feel the exact same way
about everything.
1460
01:25:25,953 --> 01:25:29,690
Like, I-- even with
love and relationships,
1461
01:25:29,723 --> 01:25:33,227
I never, like, fully open
'cause I'm--
1462
01:25:33,260 --> 01:25:35,163
I don't even know how to.
1463
01:25:35,196 --> 01:25:37,632
Yeah, one thing I've also
seen with other survivors,
1464
01:25:37,665 --> 01:25:40,668
um, is that because
the lines of, like,
1465
01:25:40,701 --> 01:25:42,904
tough love and abuse
are so blurred,
1466
01:25:42,937 --> 01:25:46,174
that it's really easy
to not see the signs of abuse
1467
01:25:46,207 --> 01:25:47,642
ahead of time
in a relationship.
1468
01:25:59,753 --> 01:26:01,389
After being at Provo,
1469
01:26:01,422 --> 01:26:02,956
you don't even know
what love is
1470
01:26:02,990 --> 01:26:05,593
or how to have
a relationship.
1471
01:26:05,626 --> 01:26:07,629
I look hideous.
1472
01:26:09,797 --> 01:26:11,965
Like, I've been
in a lot of relationships
1473
01:26:11,999 --> 01:26:14,434
where people, they just
get so controlling
1474
01:26:14,468 --> 01:26:17,605
and get so angry
that they become physical.
1475
01:26:19,873 --> 01:26:22,710
Mm...
1476
01:26:22,743 --> 01:26:27,648
One, two, three, four...
1477
01:26:27,681 --> 01:26:31,619
Like, five.
Five guys.
1478
01:26:32,987 --> 01:26:34,422
We just got
in an argument.
1479
01:26:34,455 --> 01:26:35,990
I was trying
to leave his house
1480
01:26:36,023 --> 01:26:38,726
and he just got really mad
1481
01:26:38,759 --> 01:26:43,497
and just was grabbing me
and pulling me.
1482
01:26:43,530 --> 01:26:47,000
I don't really remember
most of it
1483
01:26:47,034 --> 01:26:49,937
'cause I've had worse
stuff happen.
1484
01:26:49,970 --> 01:26:53,975
I've been strangled
1485
01:26:54,008 --> 01:26:56,744
and phones thrown at me,
computers.
1486
01:26:57,945 --> 01:26:59,914
And I accepted it
1487
01:26:59,947 --> 01:27:04,318
because I almost thought
it was normal.
1488
01:27:04,351 --> 01:27:06,621
I was like, "Well,
he loves me so much
1489
01:27:06,654 --> 01:27:10,424
that he's going
this crazy."
1490
01:27:10,457 --> 01:27:11,759
And I just wanted love
so bad
1491
01:27:11,792 --> 01:27:16,764
that I was willing to accept
1492
01:27:16,797 --> 01:27:18,866
being hit or yelled at
1493
01:27:18,899 --> 01:27:23,771
or screamed or strangled
or a lot of things.
1494
01:27:27,508 --> 01:27:29,809
Even the tape.
1495
01:27:29,843 --> 01:27:31,012
That never
would have happened
1496
01:27:31,045 --> 01:27:32,580
if I hadn't went to Provo.
1497
01:27:34,415 --> 01:27:39,287
I was just so lost
and desperate for love
1498
01:27:39,320 --> 01:27:42,724
that I found
the worst possible person.
1499
01:27:46,093 --> 01:27:48,696
( sighs )
1500
01:27:50,798 --> 01:27:52,967
After being at that school,
1501
01:27:53,000 --> 01:27:54,502
I just didn't
want anyone to know
1502
01:27:54,535 --> 01:27:57,772
and I didn't
want to be embarrassed.
1503
01:27:57,805 --> 01:28:01,909
I was so obsessed with looking
perfect on the outside.
1504
01:28:01,942 --> 01:28:05,479
That's why I always
had to project
1505
01:28:05,512 --> 01:28:08,816
basically what I think
the public wants.
1506
01:28:14,455 --> 01:28:17,491
And now I see even
little girls
1507
01:28:17,524 --> 01:28:19,960
who are ten years old,
nine years old,
1508
01:28:19,993 --> 01:28:22,930
and they're trying to get
the perfect selfie,
1509
01:28:22,963 --> 01:28:24,665
they're putting
the filters on,
1510
01:28:24,698 --> 01:28:26,967
they can't even look
at themselves in the phone
1511
01:28:27,000 --> 01:28:29,870
without putting a filter.
1512
01:28:29,903 --> 01:28:34,976
I can't even imagine
being a 13-year-old girl today.
1513
01:28:43,917 --> 01:28:45,553
I do feel responsible for it.
1514
01:28:54,695 --> 01:28:56,996
- Hello?
- Katherine: Hi!
1515
01:28:57,030 --> 01:28:58,898
- Hey, how's it going?
This is Katherine.
- Good, how are you?
1516
01:28:58,932 --> 01:29:00,601
I got your e-mail.
Awesome.
1517
01:29:00,634 --> 01:29:02,002
Are you ready for tomorrow?
1518
01:29:02,035 --> 01:29:05,840
Yes, I'm excited.
I'm nervous.
1519
01:29:05,873 --> 01:29:08,041
Yeah, you're not gonna be
the only one.
1520
01:29:08,075 --> 01:29:10,111
Yes.
1521
01:29:10,144 --> 01:29:12,713
The sample photos I sent you,
those are from other girls
1522
01:29:12,746 --> 01:29:14,482
that were in other programs,
1523
01:29:14,515 --> 01:29:17,852
but I think this
kind of maximizes you're, uh--
1524
01:29:17,885 --> 01:29:19,887
those skills you have,
as far as social media
1525
01:29:19,920 --> 01:29:22,156
and raising awareness
that way.
1526
01:29:22,189 --> 01:29:24,625
Yeah, this is amazing.
I love it.
1527
01:29:24,658 --> 01:29:26,861
The whole campaign
about breaking the silence
1528
01:29:26,894 --> 01:29:29,663
is about coming out and saying,
"This happened to me,"
1529
01:29:29,696 --> 01:29:31,699
and it kind
of empowers others
1530
01:29:31,732 --> 01:29:33,534
where they were ashamed
about talking about it before.
1531
01:29:33,567 --> 01:29:37,772
I've never discussed this
publicly with anyone, so...
1532
01:29:37,805 --> 01:29:40,641
- I bet.
- It's gonna be, like,
a shock to people, I'm sure,
1533
01:29:40,674 --> 01:29:44,144
- because no one knows.
- Oh, yeah, but, like,
1534
01:29:44,178 --> 01:29:46,147
it's the right thing
to do to help kids.
1535
01:29:46,180 --> 01:29:47,681
Definitely.
1536
01:29:47,714 --> 01:29:50,184
I just-- I can't even
imagine the fact
1537
01:29:50,217 --> 01:29:52,420
that they have
nine-year-olds in there now.
1538
01:29:52,453 --> 01:29:54,155
Eight-year-olds,
no less.
1539
01:29:54,188 --> 01:29:55,923
- Eight?
- Eight-year-olds.
1540
01:29:55,956 --> 01:29:57,925
And these parents
have no idea.
1541
01:30:03,564 --> 01:30:05,500
I don't see them.
1542
01:30:06,667 --> 01:30:08,636
Oh, they're coming.
( bleep )
1543
01:30:15,476 --> 01:30:17,577
( music playing )
1544
01:30:17,611 --> 01:30:19,547
Michelle:
So, yeah, we are doing this.
This is crazy.
1545
01:30:19,580 --> 01:30:22,183
- So bizarre.
- I spent decades
trying to find you,
1546
01:30:22,216 --> 01:30:24,452
and she found you
in ten minutes.
1547
01:30:24,485 --> 01:30:27,455
- Yeah, we actually--
- Like, give them--
two of them, like...
1548
01:30:27,488 --> 01:30:30,925
What the heck?
It's only been 20 years.
1549
01:30:30,958 --> 01:30:34,195
Why in the world
would anybody want
to reach me?
1550
01:30:34,228 --> 01:30:35,896
- Hi, girls.
- Hey.
1551
01:30:35,929 --> 01:30:37,198
Come in.
1552
01:30:37,231 --> 01:30:38,666
Oh, my God.
It's been so long.
1553
01:30:38,699 --> 01:30:41,168
( muffled talking )
1554
01:30:41,201 --> 01:30:42,937
- You look the same.
- You, too.
1555
01:30:42,970 --> 01:30:45,906
- Hi, sweetheart.
- Hi, how are you?
1556
01:30:45,939 --> 01:30:46,974
Wow.
1557
01:30:50,143 --> 01:30:52,246
- Yeah.
- Hey, kitty.
1558
01:30:52,279 --> 01:30:56,517
- How's everyone else been?
- I'm a little shy.
1559
01:30:56,550 --> 01:30:59,119
So am I.
I think that place
made me shy.
1560
01:30:59,152 --> 01:31:03,924
My mind has literally blocked
out a huge portion of this.
1561
01:31:03,957 --> 01:31:07,228
One of the things I remember
most-- us talking about,
1562
01:31:07,261 --> 01:31:08,929
like, our dreams
of, like,
1563
01:31:08,962 --> 01:31:10,731
what we were gonna do
when we were out of there.
1564
01:31:10,764 --> 01:31:12,032
It was like an escape.
1565
01:31:12,065 --> 01:31:14,501
- So, thank you for that.
- Of course.
1566
01:31:14,535 --> 01:31:17,705
You were always so cool.
1567
01:31:17,738 --> 01:31:20,274
- You, too, roomie.
- ( Elizabeth chuckles )
1568
01:31:20,307 --> 01:31:22,675
When I saw,
"The Simple Life,"
I cracked up.
1569
01:31:22,709 --> 01:31:24,945
I'm like, "That's--
that's not real."
1570
01:31:24,978 --> 01:31:27,014
That was some straight up
bullshit, especially,
1571
01:31:27,047 --> 01:31:28,648
like, when she was like,
"I don't know how to use a mop."
1572
01:31:28,682 --> 01:31:30,251
"I've never cleaned
in my life."
1573
01:31:30,284 --> 01:31:32,620
That's the thing, too.
Like, after all we went through,
1574
01:31:32,653 --> 01:31:34,555
like, how we were, like,
forced to clean,
1575
01:31:34,588 --> 01:31:36,590
like, you know
how to use a sponge.
1576
01:31:36,623 --> 01:31:40,693
- ( all laugh )
- You know how
to wash a dish.
1577
01:31:40,727 --> 01:31:42,129
But also, I don't think
you had, like,
1578
01:31:42,162 --> 01:31:44,231
a high-pitched voice
that I remember, either.
1579
01:31:44,264 --> 01:31:47,001
- Back then did I, or no?
- No. I remember you in class.
1580
01:31:47,034 --> 01:31:49,969
- I don't remember...
- So, in Bev's class,
we were doing economics,
1581
01:31:50,003 --> 01:31:52,306
I remember, it was the day
that you blew my mind
1582
01:31:52,339 --> 01:31:54,775
because, like you were
quiet a lot,
1583
01:31:54,808 --> 01:31:58,212
and then there was this bit
where you were just like,
"Actually..."
1584
01:31:58,245 --> 01:32:01,549
and you, like explained
this economic theory,
1585
01:32:01,582 --> 01:32:03,784
and it was super clear
and super smart,
1586
01:32:03,817 --> 01:32:06,554
and I was just like,
"Holy crap, this chick's
a genius."
1587
01:32:06,587 --> 01:32:10,090
( laughter )
1588
01:32:10,123 --> 01:32:12,125
So, this is like an example
of some other girls
1589
01:32:12,159 --> 01:32:14,995
that have done this
Breaking Code Silence campaign.
1590
01:32:15,028 --> 01:32:17,131
You know, like,
"Hey, my name is
blah, blah, blah,
1591
01:32:17,164 --> 01:32:19,833
and this is--
you know, I was a survivor
1592
01:32:19,866 --> 01:32:21,302
of Provo Canyon School.
1593
01:32:21,335 --> 01:32:22,937
While I was there,
I was deprived of my rights."
1594
01:32:22,970 --> 01:32:24,572
Raina: Wow.
1595
01:32:27,941 --> 01:32:30,277
"Provo Canyon School."
What are we writing next?
1596
01:32:30,310 --> 01:32:33,247
- Then you put
underneath the...
- Rough dates?
1597
01:32:33,280 --> 01:32:37,351
- Yeah.
- Our years
and then "gave me"...
1598
01:32:37,384 --> 01:32:40,054
- Trust issues.
- Fear of being controlled.
1599
01:32:40,087 --> 01:32:41,789
PTSD.
1600
01:32:41,822 --> 01:32:43,958
There's so many that it will
not fit on the card.
1601
01:32:43,991 --> 01:32:47,895
People are gonna look
and be like, "Whoa, Paris
has a lot of issues."
1602
01:32:47,928 --> 01:32:49,897
- ( laughter )
- Don't worry,
I got a lot--
1603
01:32:49,930 --> 01:32:51,665
- "Not my fault."
- But the thing is
is that, like,
1604
01:32:51,698 --> 01:32:53,367
these issues aren't issues
that you, like,
1605
01:32:53,400 --> 01:32:56,103
decided to create
one day and have
1606
01:32:56,136 --> 01:32:58,038
and walk around
in the world with,
1607
01:32:58,071 --> 01:33:01,742
you know what I mean?
This isn't your shame.
1608
01:33:01,775 --> 01:33:03,978
It's not her shame
or hers or mine.
1609
01:33:04,011 --> 01:33:05,746
- It's their ( bleep ) shame.
- Yeah.
1610
01:33:05,779 --> 01:33:09,683
- We've just
been carrying it.
- Amen.
1611
01:33:09,716 --> 01:33:13,621
My name is Katherine McNamara,
and I'm a survivor
of Provo Canyon School.
1612
01:33:15,822 --> 01:33:18,993
I was force-fed.
1613
01:33:19,026 --> 01:33:22,663
I was cut off from
friends, family.
1614
01:33:22,696 --> 01:33:26,666
I witnessed girls
be physically and emotionally,
and sexually abused.
1615
01:33:26,700 --> 01:33:29,303
I was emotionally abused
by staff, by other peers.
1616
01:33:29,336 --> 01:33:31,271
( exhales )
1617
01:33:31,304 --> 01:33:33,674
What's up?
1618
01:33:33,707 --> 01:33:34,909
( sniffles )
1619
01:33:37,310 --> 01:33:38,779
I don't know
if I can.
1620
01:33:38,812 --> 01:33:41,248
- There's no pressure.
- Okay.
1621
01:33:41,281 --> 01:33:43,417
I understand.
1622
01:33:43,450 --> 01:33:45,952
Thank you.
I'm sorry.
1623
01:33:45,986 --> 01:33:47,788
I witnessed and endured
physical abuse,
1624
01:33:47,821 --> 01:33:52,059
restraints, emotional,
mental abuse.
1625
01:33:52,092 --> 01:33:54,161
I was forced
onto medications,
1626
01:33:54,194 --> 01:33:58,866
I was taught that everything
that happened to me
was all my fault.
1627
01:33:58,899 --> 01:34:01,335
I'm speaking out
because no child deserves
to be punished
1628
01:34:01,368 --> 01:34:03,137
for expressing
their feelings.
1629
01:34:03,170 --> 01:34:06,273
( bleep ).
1630
01:34:06,306 --> 01:34:08,409
Especially when
that punishment
1631
01:34:08,442 --> 01:34:12,846
just equals more torture
and more trauma.
1632
01:34:12,879 --> 01:34:14,348
I'm happy, done.
1633
01:34:17,050 --> 01:34:18,853
Katherine:
That was awesome.
1634
01:34:30,030 --> 01:34:31,865
I just came up here
'cause it was just
so much to take in.
1635
01:34:31,898 --> 01:34:36,070
I was, like, "Oh, my God,
like, I'm not alone.
1636
01:34:36,103 --> 01:34:40,040
And it's not me
and it's not my fault."
1637
01:34:40,073 --> 01:34:43,310
Sometimes I feel like...
1638
01:34:43,343 --> 01:34:46,747
so many things,
but sometimes this robot,
1639
01:34:46,780 --> 01:34:48,782
and this character
that I did,
1640
01:34:48,815 --> 01:34:52,986
and talking with them,
I started remembering
who I was before.
1641
01:34:54,921 --> 01:34:56,424
And just...
1642
01:34:58,191 --> 01:35:01,028
I don't know.
1643
01:35:01,061 --> 01:35:03,697
It makes me sad
they took that away.
1644
01:35:07,134 --> 01:35:10,371
But, I don't know,
I'm just so confused.
1645
01:35:14,541 --> 01:35:17,077
But, like...
1646
01:35:17,110 --> 01:35:21,848
it's... refreshing
and new.
1647
01:35:21,882 --> 01:35:25,818
I don't really know anyone
besides my family members
1648
01:35:25,852 --> 01:35:29,089
and a very small amount
of people that knew me
1649
01:35:29,122 --> 01:35:31,325
before all of this happened
1650
01:35:31,358 --> 01:35:33,427
and before I became this,
you know,
1651
01:35:33,460 --> 01:35:38,799
this thing, I don't know,
1652
01:35:38,832 --> 01:35:41,335
mask I put on
and the way that I am,
1653
01:35:41,368 --> 01:35:44,171
and, like, this extravagance
and the photos of me.
1654
01:35:44,204 --> 01:35:48,776
All this is stemmed
from this place.
1655
01:35:48,809 --> 01:35:53,180
When I look around
my life, like...
1656
01:35:53,213 --> 01:35:55,182
it's like a cartoon.
1657
01:35:55,215 --> 01:35:59,220
I don't know, like,
I created this fantasy
world cartoon.
1658
01:36:02,088 --> 01:36:03,190
But the the thing is,
I don't even give a ( bleep )
1659
01:36:03,223 --> 01:36:04,458
about any of these things.
1660
01:36:04,491 --> 01:36:07,528
I've hardly worn
any of these shoes.
1661
01:36:07,561 --> 01:36:13,200
I love just chilling in,
like, my sweat suit, my socks...
1662
01:36:14,901 --> 01:36:17,171
being at home,
and then all this other stuff
1663
01:36:17,204 --> 01:36:20,775
is just part
of the character.
1664
01:36:22,843 --> 01:36:23,811
Hey.
1665
01:36:23,844 --> 01:36:26,480
- Hey!
- Hey.
1666
01:36:26,513 --> 01:36:29,283
You look like
boss lady right there.
1667
01:36:29,316 --> 01:36:31,385
I feel like that's
the ultimate, like,
1668
01:36:31,418 --> 01:36:34,789
- "( bleep ) you, Provo"
picture.
- Yeah.
1669
01:36:39,559 --> 01:36:41,595
You are a ( bleep ) warrior.
1670
01:36:41,628 --> 01:36:46,599
We all are.
We're all survivors,
we're all warriors.
1671
01:36:46,633 --> 01:36:51,371
And I don't want anyone
to ever feel the way we do.
1672
01:36:58,178 --> 01:37:02,049
Jessica:
Well, this brought up so much,
I can't even believe it.
1673
01:37:02,082 --> 01:37:07,454
That's so crazy.
I'm, like, so happy that we
all connected again.
1674
01:37:07,487 --> 01:37:09,423
Jessica:
Totally, me, too.
1675
01:37:09,456 --> 01:37:11,024
I think it will
probably help you
1676
01:37:11,057 --> 01:37:12,992
to start to want
to deal with things,
1677
01:37:13,026 --> 01:37:15,095
that you haven't
been dealing with.
1678
01:37:15,128 --> 01:37:19,165
- And I hope that it does.
- Me, too.
1679
01:37:19,199 --> 01:37:20,567
You should live free,
1680
01:37:20,600 --> 01:37:23,103
and I'm not talking
about, like,
1681
01:37:23,136 --> 01:37:26,607
free to, like, walk alone
without people watching you.
1682
01:37:26,640 --> 01:37:30,010
I'm talking about free
in your mind and in your heart.
1683
01:37:30,043 --> 01:37:33,080
Yeah.
1684
01:37:33,113 --> 01:37:36,350
From things that have
happened in your life.
1685
01:37:36,383 --> 01:37:38,619
One day.
( chuckles )
1686
01:37:43,323 --> 01:37:45,259
Woman:
You're gonna have to
explain what it is.
1687
01:37:45,292 --> 01:37:47,294
Kathy:
What are you showing me, guys?
You're scaring me.
1688
01:37:47,327 --> 01:37:50,597
No, it's not scary.
( chuckles )
1689
01:37:50,630 --> 01:37:55,535
Um, I reconnected
with some of the girls
from Provo.
1690
01:37:55,568 --> 01:37:56,603
Right.
1691
01:37:56,636 --> 01:38:00,407
And Katie is one of them.
1692
01:38:00,440 --> 01:38:03,210
And Katie is doing
this entire movement
1693
01:38:03,243 --> 01:38:06,213
called Break Code Silence.
1694
01:38:06,246 --> 01:38:10,183
Which is survivors
from these schools
speaking out about this.
1695
01:38:10,216 --> 01:38:15,122
My old roommates,
and everyone made a sign,
1696
01:38:15,155 --> 01:38:20,326
and it basically says, like,
what the school did to them.
1697
01:38:20,360 --> 01:38:24,031
And now everyone's
speaking out about it
1698
01:38:24,064 --> 01:38:26,266
'cause they're realizing
a lot of the things
that happened in their life
1699
01:38:26,299 --> 01:38:28,635
is because of the school.
1700
01:38:28,668 --> 01:38:32,272
"Acute panic disorder,
nightmares, and insomnia,
trust issues."
1701
01:38:35,675 --> 01:38:41,214
Paris:
And we're all gonna post it
and basically raise awareness.
1702
01:38:41,247 --> 01:38:45,953
"Verbally and emotionally,
physically abused me"?
1703
01:38:45,986 --> 01:38:51,023
- Mm-hmm, just screaming
at me all the time...
- Right.
1704
01:38:51,057 --> 01:38:56,396
...strangling,
locking me in a room.
1705
01:38:56,429 --> 01:38:59,366
I know this is something
that we've never
discussed before.
1706
01:38:59,399 --> 01:39:00,567
Mm-hmm.
1707
01:39:00,600 --> 01:39:04,071
They were constantly
being abusive
1708
01:39:04,104 --> 01:39:06,407
in every way.
1709
01:39:12,445 --> 01:39:13,714
But I couldn't tell you guys
1710
01:39:13,747 --> 01:39:15,716
because every time I tried,
1711
01:39:15,749 --> 01:39:18,218
I would get punished by them.
1712
01:39:18,251 --> 01:39:21,188
Or they would say,
"We're just gonna tell
your parents you're a liar
1713
01:39:21,221 --> 01:39:23,022
and they're not
gonna believe you,"
1714
01:39:23,056 --> 01:39:28,327
and basically they just
told me that so many
different times
1715
01:39:28,361 --> 01:39:32,032
that I was afraid
to ever even say anything
or bring it up.
1716
01:40:00,093 --> 01:40:03,230
Had I known this,
1717
01:40:03,263 --> 01:40:06,433
you know that Dad and I
would've been there
in one second.
1718
01:40:15,775 --> 01:40:18,012
Oh, boy.
1719
01:40:19,212 --> 01:40:20,781
I love you, Mom.
1720
01:40:33,760 --> 01:40:35,396
( sighs )
1721
01:40:41,401 --> 01:40:43,769
( sighs )
1722
01:40:43,803 --> 01:40:47,107
I feel like
this is the best point
I've ever been in my life.
1723
01:40:49,476 --> 01:40:51,411
We were really talking
about our lives
1724
01:40:51,444 --> 01:40:55,115
and things that affected us,
1725
01:40:55,148 --> 01:40:59,753
and making a change
and a difference,
and I don't--
1726
01:41:03,857 --> 01:41:08,462
It just made me feel
like I wasn't alone anymore.
1727
01:41:08,495 --> 01:41:11,098
I've worked so hard
to build this brand,
1728
01:41:11,131 --> 01:41:15,502
and it's been all about
this perfect, happy life.
1729
01:41:17,804 --> 01:41:21,275
And that story was never
part of this brand.
1730
01:41:22,876 --> 01:41:26,880
Woman:
Can you and the brand
have a divorce now?
1731
01:41:26,913 --> 01:41:28,549
No.
1732
01:41:32,552 --> 01:41:35,856
It will be
an expensive divorce.
1733
01:41:35,889 --> 01:41:38,125
( both laugh )
1734
01:41:42,795 --> 01:41:44,831
You can't
do the brand forever.
1735
01:41:44,864 --> 01:41:46,199
You can't--
you're gonna age out.
1736
01:41:46,232 --> 01:41:47,634
No.
1737
01:41:49,502 --> 01:41:51,438
I'll just be
like this forever.
1738
01:41:55,575 --> 01:41:57,443
♪ Come home ♪
1739
01:41:57,477 --> 01:41:59,613
♪ In the morning light ♪
1740
01:41:59,646 --> 01:42:01,447
♪ My mother says ♪
1741
01:42:01,481 --> 01:42:05,919
♪ "When you gonna live
your life right?" ♪
1742
01:42:05,952 --> 01:42:10,757
♪ Oh, Mother, dear,
we're not the fortunate ones ♪
1743
01:42:10,790 --> 01:42:15,462
♪ And girls,
they wanna have fun ♪
1744
01:42:15,495 --> 01:42:20,134
♪ Oh, girls
just wanna have fun ♪
1745
01:42:24,804 --> 01:42:28,942
♪ The phone rings
in the middle of the night ♪
1746
01:42:28,975 --> 01:42:30,944
♪ My father yells ♪
1747
01:42:30,977 --> 01:42:35,482
♪ "What you gonna do
with your life?" ♪
1748
01:42:35,515 --> 01:42:39,953
♪ Oh, Daddy, dear, you know
you're still number one ♪
1749
01:42:39,986 --> 01:42:44,824
♪ But girls,
they wanna have fun ♪
1750
01:42:44,857 --> 01:42:49,329
♪ Oh, girls
just wanna have fun ♪
1751
01:42:51,364 --> 01:42:56,570
♪ That's all
they really want ♪
1752
01:42:56,603 --> 01:43:01,541
♪ Is some fun ♪
1753
01:43:01,574 --> 01:43:05,978
♪ When the workin' day
is done ♪
1754
01:43:06,012 --> 01:43:11,585
♪ Oh, girls,
they wanna have fun ♪
1755
01:43:11,618 --> 01:43:15,756
♪ Oh, girls just wanna
have fun ♪
1756
01:43:20,627 --> 01:43:24,831
♪ Some boys take
a beautiful girl ♪
1757
01:43:24,864 --> 01:43:27,366
♪ And hide her away ♪
1758
01:43:27,400 --> 01:43:30,937
♪ From the rest of the world ♪
1759
01:43:30,970 --> 01:43:35,842
♪ I wanna be the one
to walk in the sun ♪
1760
01:43:35,875 --> 01:43:40,680
♪ And, girls,
they wanna have fun ♪
1761
01:43:40,713 --> 01:43:45,285
♪ Oh, girls
just wanna have fun... ♪
1762
01:43:45,318 --> 01:43:49,656
( crowd cheering )
1763
01:43:49,689 --> 01:43:55,395
♪ That's all
they really want ♪
1764
01:43:55,428 --> 01:44:00,333
♪ Is some fun ♪
1765
01:44:00,366 --> 01:44:04,738
♪ When the workin' day
is done ♪
1766
01:44:04,771 --> 01:44:09,909
♪ Oh, girls,
they wanna have fun ♪
1767
01:44:09,942 --> 01:44:14,781
♪ Oh, girls just wanna
have fun ♪
1768
01:44:16,716 --> 01:44:22,322
♪ They just wanna,
they just wanna ♪
1769
01:44:22,355 --> 01:44:27,059
♪ They just wanna,
they just wanna ♪
1770
01:44:27,093 --> 01:44:32,632
♪ They just wanna,
they just wanna ♪
1771
01:44:32,665 --> 01:44:38,038
♪ They just wanna,
they just wanna ♪
1772
01:44:38,071 --> 01:44:43,343
♪ They just wanna,
they just wanna ♪
1773
01:44:43,376 --> 01:44:48,048
♪ They just wanna,
they just wanna ♪
1774
01:44:48,081 --> 01:44:50,050
♪ Girls ♪
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