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[HELICOPTER HOVERING]
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LACEY ENGLAND: We've got
a parallel problem here
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with fire suppression
and fire culture.
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We're missing
all the different voices and different perspectives.
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We're living with this
100-year-old legacy
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of absolute fire suppression
that was created
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by a homogenous group
of white dudes
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and didn't take into account
any indigenous wisdom or experience
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of living with fire
on the landscape.
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And then we've got
this fire culture that's dominated
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by stereotypically macho,
aggressive ways of thinking.
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It's not that women
are better at this
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or should be
the only ones here. But I am here.
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And not everyone in fire,
lots of dudes included,
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fits into the framework
that we have right now.
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We can't try to completely
suppress fire
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and just hope for good outcomes
on the landscape.
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And we can't be
suppressing women in this industry
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and hoping
for a healthy culture.
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We need more diversity
everywhere.
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[MAN TALKING INDISTINCTLY
ON RADIO]
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LACEY: Whoo! Oh, that's hot.
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Can you get in there with me?
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It's about to climb up.
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Okay, you just take care
of that one.
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I'm gonna make sure
it stays out of this one.
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- [FIRE CRACKLING]
- [WATER SPRAYING]
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- [DEVICE BEEPING]
- [LACEY BREATHING HEAVILY]
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[LACEY COUGHS]
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- [DEVICE BEEPS]
- LACEY: Oh, shit.
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[INDISTINCT CHATTER ON RADIO]
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MAN 1: [ON RADIO]
You have any other aircraft on order at this time?
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LACEY: I think we should
walk back south.
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- MAN 2: [ON RADIO]
No, negative... - LACEY: Meet up with our dudes.
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Find an actual anchor point.
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This doesn't count.
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Yeah, uh... Quick.
Ooh, it's hot.
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[GRUNTS] Okay.
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[LACEY PANTING]
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We need to...
Oh, fuck. I'm tired.
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[INDISTINCT CHATTER ON RADIO]
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Let's grab this, Ed,
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before it gets to that tree.
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And we'll tie these little
patches of rock together.
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I'll dig. You spread.
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[MAN SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY
ON RADIO]
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LACEY: But don't...
Don't overextend yourself if you're not comfortable.
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Well, now we're into that.
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ED: Yep.
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LACEY: Which means
this is not a useful anchor.
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I'm saying, just walk that,
start heading north.
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Just walk that grass line,
stop the... Stop the forward.
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LACEY: Well, yeah,
but we got fire running up behind us,
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in juniper.
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It's kind of useless stopping
the forward spread
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if we don't have
an anchor point.
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[INDISTINCT CHATTER ON RADIO]
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[FIRE CRACKLING]
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That was moving way
too fast for two people.
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No way we were gonna catch it.
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You still feel safe here?
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- Okay, Just making sure, man.
- [LAUGHING]
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I mean,
I'm responsible for you.
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MAN: [ON RADIO]
Work at the right flank, along the top of the ridge.
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LACEY: When I first started
in fire, I didn't feel like
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it was my place
to rock the boat, because I wanted to fit in.
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Now I'm past the point
of, like, giving any shits.
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I've never seen anybody
suppress a fire with their penis.
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It shouldn't
hinder me professionally that I don't have one.
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- [MATCH STRIKES]
- [FIRE WHOOSHES]
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[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
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- [INDISTINCT RADIO CHATTER]
- [FIRE CRACKLING]
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Firing, burn boss trainee.
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[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
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[CHATTER CONTINUES]
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WOMAN 1: [ON RADIO]
Break holding, burn boss.
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WOMAN 2: [ON RADIO]
Go for holding.
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If that heat is hot enough,
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it'll pull this flame
into the wind.
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The primary wind direction
is this way.
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But there was
enough fire there that...
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That fire is drawing
enough oxygen
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that it holds this fire back
and pulls it into the wind.
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And that's a great way
to deal with...
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With corners.
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- Go ahead.
- CAMERAPERSON: Thank you.
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MAN: [ON RADIO] I'd like to
see a hotter fire, ma'am.
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Whereas, if you let it
peter out kind of into this low grass and stuff...
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[INDISTINCT RADIO CHATTER]
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[CHAINSAW BUZZING]
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LACEY: If you ask somebody,
like, close your eyes
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and picture a firefighter,
a wildland firefighter.
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Like tall, broad-shouldered,
the handsome dude.
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White dude, you know?
Like, there's your mold.
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And you say, okay,
now think about a female firefighter.
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You don't think about
all the badass things.
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Like, I rappel
out of helicopters.
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I weigh 135 pounds,
but when I pack out from a rappel fire,
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my backpack weighs
100 pounds.
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So, fire takes
a special person.
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I think it's important
from the learning perspective.
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- Okay.
- Um...
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I'm a little reluctant
to, like, break off, uh,
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- firing and holding
from the rest of the team. - Yep.
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So, but that would be
good for...
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Be good for FEMOs. Okay.
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For me, fire's never mundane.
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It's like a personality.
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Like, every time you go out
and put fire on the land,
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it has a different personality,
every single day.
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And you really
have to respect that.
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There's always been
a power imbalance in a patriarchal society,
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in a male-dominated
environment.
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We see it 'cause we feel it.
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Women feel like, sometimes,
they have to assimilate to that behavior
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if they wanna fit into
a male-dominated culture and environment.
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And I even remember
thinking that about myself.
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I'm... I'm walking
into a man's world.
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There's gonna be some things
that I can't be oversensitive about.
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But, at the same time,
I want to at least know you respect me.
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FEMALE REPORTER:
Female Forest Service employees,
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many of them firefighters,
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have complained about
mistreatment for decades.
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In the past ten years,
the agency has paid out
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more than
half a million dollars to settle claims
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involving sexual harassment
and assault,
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and Congress has held
two different hearings to investigate the problem.
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There is something rotten
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in the US
Department of Agriculture and the Forest Service.
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Raise your hands on this,
how many of you heard sexual comments from colleagues?
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"Whore." "Slut."
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"When you're done with him,
can you sleep with me?"
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"Get the [BLEEP]
back in the kitchen and bake me some [BLEEP] cookies."
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HOST: What did you feel
was at stake if you reported it to the Forest Service?
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WOMAN: Everything.
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There is harassment,
assault, intimidation, hostile work environment,
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those are very real things.
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And I know people
who have experienced...
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very awful things.
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And that's not the entire story
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for every person, everywhere,
all the time.
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It's not only about
the individual, because we've created a culture
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where those behaviors
are normalized.
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And we are all
contributing to it,
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whether or not we are
"obviously" perpetrating that kind of harm.
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- That looks pretty good.
Mmm-hmm. - Yeah.
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During briefing,
Jenny was saying that the burn plan
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for all the Tall Timbers units
is the same,
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and the objectives match.
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And then, once the igniter's out
and I get the okay from the burn boss, we're gonna...
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We're gonna bring
these two together.
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- FIREFIGHTER: When are you
gonna hold up? - Point to here...
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Ten percent of the fire service,
they say, are women, and 90 percent are men,
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and so, right away,
Nikole and I were like,
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"How cool would it be
if we flip-flop the numbers?"
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Like, let's invite
10% men and 90% women,
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and get the male perspective
when they're actually the minority of the group.
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The women participating here
are more than capable...
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of every guy I know.
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But I needed
to better understand the hurdles
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that were in front of them.
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The challenges they face
on a day-to-day basis.
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And you cannot function
well as a team
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unless all members
are treated equally.
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LENYA QUINN-DAVIDSON:
You can't be something that you can't see.
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And if you're a young woman
working up in fire
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and all of your supervisors
are male,
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they may be great leaders,
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but if you don't have
that vision
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of what a woman leader
looks like in fire,
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how can you aspire to be that?
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They don't have to fit the bill
of what they're used to,
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which can sometimes
be very macho or very militaristic.
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Those are, not necessarily,
qualities that everyone wants to have as a leader.
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SADIE RUNGE:
It was the first time that I've ever been
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in a operational setting
with that many women.
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Hanging out in the cabins
at night,
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talking about, you know, lives,
work, everything in between.
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- WOMAN 1: Look at you! Aw!
- WOMAN 2: Oh, you're so cute!
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Did we burn your home?
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I'm sorry.
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[WOMAN SHOUTING AND WHOOPING]
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Sadie.
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I found you something.
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- Oh, is it... Is it one of
those green tree frogs? - Yeah.
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Let me see.
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[BOTH EXCLAIMING]
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- Oh, it's so cute.
- [ALL EXCLAIMING]
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[LAUGHTER]
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SADIE: Just having
that atmosphere
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of collective learning
and growth,
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and having that space
to chat with other folks
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who may be going through
similar experiences as me,
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you know, it really
sort of lit that spark.
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It's up to personal preference
how you wanna run this.
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If you wanna lay this here
or you wanna have this on your shoulder.
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This will give you
a little bit more room.
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- Okay.
- Make sure it's in a way that
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it doesn't dangle
over your neck.
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LACEY: There are
so many things I love about doing this work.
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I love the way fire smells.
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I love going home
and being able to smell the smoke in my braids, still.
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I love to be outside.
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I love that
I'm not working indoors.
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I love that it's never the same.
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You know? I don't walk into
the same environment every day.
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No two fires are alike.
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There's constantly a challenge,
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a new solution
to come up with, and...
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It's dynamic and it's fun.
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And I... I honestly
do work with a lot of really wonderful people.
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KELLY: If you don't really
feel it in your heart and soul to work
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in a very, very
challenging environment,
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it's gonna be a really, really
hard career for you, a hard job.
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But I do hope
that you find friendships here,
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that you find a community here
that you can count on when you leave here.
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Because, for me,
the more that I can form
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a network outside of my work
at Yosemite
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is really, truly, um,
what gives me strength.
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- [INSECTS TRILLING]
- [BIRDS SCREECHING]
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KELLY: Here he comes again.
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[HUMMINGBIRD BUZZING]
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Or she...
Here she comes again.
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[BIRDS CHIRPING]
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[FROG CROAKING]
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[CHUCKLING] This is such a trip.
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Get outta here.
A hummingbird out here?
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Like, hummingbirds are, like,
attracted to, like, red, bright flowers and...
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There's, like, nothing
that would attract a hummingbird.
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There's some like
really cool energy going on here, isn't there?
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You just have to kind of
let yourself open to it.
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And these, like,
these magical things happen here in Yosemite.
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Every day, every day here,
something magic happens
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that I'm so grateful for.
Just eternally grateful for.
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As a kid, I grew up
with my grandmother taking us up to
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her cabin on a lake.
As young kids, we...
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We had such a love
for the outdoors through my grandmother.
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The older I got,
the more difficult it was for me
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to be, like,
inside four walls in a school.
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Junior high, high school
is when it really started becoming very difficult,
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'cause it just felt like
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there was so much
incredible energy and beauty in the outdoors
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that I just was having
a really tough time.
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I knew, at that point,
I wanted to live in the outdoors.
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I graduated high school,
transferred to Northland College,
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got a four-year degree
in outdoor ed.
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I met some really great people
in college.
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I loved the sense of spirit
that I was receiving
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from Native American students
that I was going to school with.
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That finally, kind of,
started to fit my own ideals of what...
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The outdoors,
and what's important to me.
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Be it the plants
and the trees
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and the birds and the sky
and the air and the water,
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so, all the elements,
the outdoor elements, was... Is so sacred.
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I felt like I had
such a strong connection
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to the natural environment
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that I just wanted to be in it.
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I wanted to live in it,
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I wanted to try
to understand it more.
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I don't think we can understand
the natural environment without being in it.
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You can't read it from a book.
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I can't experience it through
somebody teaching me about it.
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That, I think, is what drew me
to making the decision to live in a teepee.
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I knew it was gonna be cold.
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I prepared myself for it.
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But throughout the winter,
crazy things happened.
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Thirty below, by myself...
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Most people thought
I was completely nuts.
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I'm sure there was bets
made on me as to whether or not
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I was gonna
make it through the winter.
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I was sleeping
as close to the earth as I could possibly get
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to try to understand
all the changes that go on.
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That, unless you're really in it
and you're living it day to day,
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you don't really notice
the little nuances that really change.
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And what was really neat for me
is just seeing how,
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as it got deeper and deeper
into winter
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and the light just kept
getting less and less,
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what it meant to keep
a fire going, and keep it warm.
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Feeling like I had
that protection of fire...
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in my teepee.
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That sacredness of having fire
protect me, keep me warm,
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I knew I had to rely on it
for my own survival.
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After the spring
started coming in
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and things were
starting to thaw,
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I felt like I made it through
a winter, 30 below,
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there was such
a sense of accomplishment.
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I have anchored my entire life
and my challenges to that winter.
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I can look back
on that time in my life and know that...
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I came out
a much better person and I survived.
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I absolutely know,
without a doubt, I chose my dream job
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to come up to fire management.
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But very, very few women
choose this as a career,
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and very few actually
make it to the rank
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that... That... That I'm at.
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But all along the way,
throughout my career,
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these types of really
difficult situations felt anchored.
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Like, look,
if you can live in a teepee
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for one winter,
and in the freezing cold, sub-zero,
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You can do just about anything.
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[HELICOPTER BLADES WHIRRING]
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[INDISTINCT CONVERSATION]
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LACEY: Thank you.
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I knew I could get through it,
'cause it wasn't strong.
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But just had to
get it off the...
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The first twist.
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As you were going down,
and then it twisted like...
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- LACEY: I know,
I was, like, goddamn it! - [LAUGHS]
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Well, that was
an interesting rappel, wasn't it? [CHUCKLES]
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[INDISTINCT CONVERSATION]
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- [CREWMEMBER FARTING]
- MAN: [LAUGHS] Oh, my God!
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This camera does have audio.
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- [ALL LAUGHING]
- MAN: You might wanna move.
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- That's gonna...
Thank God it was from behind me. - [ALL LAUGHING]
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KELLY: This is the sound
of Yosemite. [CHUCKLES] Honking horns.
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Somebody got locked
out of their vehicle,
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first thing in the morning.
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[LAUGHS]
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Kinda cracks me up.
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You think you're in
a really peaceful place, and then, backup alarms and...
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[PAN SIZZLING]
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...security alarms
on vehicles.
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Kind of funny.
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Then again...
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Yosemite Valley
really isn't wilderness
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when you have,
sometimes up to 30,000 people
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coming through in a day
or a weekend.
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[CLICKS TONGUE]
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But there's always places to go.
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Mmm.
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Nice day.
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[BIRDS CHIRPING]
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I know what I forgot
to put in there. Flaxseed and hemp seed.
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More protein.
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This is my air-conditioning...
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today.
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And the house stays fairly cool
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if the windows are closed.
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So, yeah, good check.
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Right.
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[GRUNTS]
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Doesn't get any easier.
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[EXHALES HEAVILY]
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- All right.
- [ZIPS BAG]
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Okay, I'll see you guys
a little later.
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Bye.
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I remember talking
to a friend of mine,
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and she said,
do you ever get tired of this?
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And I... No, no, no.
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The magnitude is...
unbelievable.
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And we're gonna see that today
when we hike out to this fire
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that we had
a couple of years ago,
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and you see
the incredible blooms of wildflowers.
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That's just... It's a...
It's a piece of magic on the land.
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We just have such a long way
to go to help people understand
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that fire creates
incredible diversity and beauty on the landscape.
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Right now, we're just...
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We see the devastation
and the news
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and the people
that are killed and...
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I... I understand that from a...
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An absolute tragedy
standpoint of view,
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but there's so much of it
that we really have to kind of think about how...
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How we... How that came about.
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When we started exterminating
fire on the landscape,
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and we started persecuting it,
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that fire was bad.
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It needs to be put out.
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00:24:46,876 --> 00:24:48,269
It needs to be contained.
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It needs to be subdued.
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- [INSECTS TRILLING]
- [BIRDS CHIRPING]
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There's so many different kinds
of butterflies coming out,
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and they're all...
They're different colors.
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Of course, lots of bees.
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Oh, some of my favorites.
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When we talk about
nutrient flush after a wildfire,
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or any kind of prescribed fire,
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what we're helping to do
is actually take
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00:25:33,444 --> 00:25:35,708
the dead material
on the forest floor,
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00:25:35,751 --> 00:25:38,972
when it burns,
it releases a flush of nutrients into the soil.
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00:25:39,015 --> 00:25:43,629
And so what that does
is make it available for tons,
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thousands of wildflowers
and grasses and forbs that we're seeing here today.
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Normally these are really,
really tight and they hold on to their seeds.
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00:25:56,467 --> 00:25:59,819
Um, but when they get
a little bit of heat to 'em,
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the cone opens up
and they throw their seeds.
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00:26:02,735 --> 00:26:04,693
So you just start
walking through and you're just, like,
385
00:26:04,737 --> 00:26:06,260
"Gosh, they're just everywhere."
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00:26:06,303 --> 00:26:09,219
There's literally
hundreds of 'em.
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00:26:10,351 --> 00:26:11,526
Initially, when you
look out there,
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00:26:11,570 --> 00:26:13,746
you're like, "Oh,
it's another green plant."
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00:26:13,789 --> 00:26:15,095
But it's actually a new tree.
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This is...
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This is what we really look at,
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from a rich
biodiversity perspective,
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is when you see something like
this come back.
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Our interpretation of fire
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is that it has killed
these trees,
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00:26:31,198 --> 00:26:34,767
but it also gave birth
to all these wildflowers.
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FIREFIGHTER 1: Here you go.
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FIREFIGHTER 2: Thank you.
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00:26:49,129 --> 00:26:50,652
MICHELE: Burn boss,
go ahead for holding.
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00:26:50,696 --> 00:26:52,480
[OVERLAPPING CHATTER]
401
00:26:52,523 --> 00:26:54,613
WOMAN: [ON RADIO]
Hey, how are things looking? How do you feel?
402
00:26:56,658 --> 00:26:59,835
I think things are looking
really, really good and feeling very, very good.
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00:26:59,879 --> 00:27:01,620
[CHATTER CONTINUES]
404
00:27:01,663 --> 00:27:04,710
WOMAN: [ON RADIO]
Okay. Good... Good.
405
00:27:04,753 --> 00:27:08,061
That was really good for me
to hear that you get told all the time,
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00:27:08,104 --> 00:27:09,715
"Quit being so sensitive."
407
00:27:09,758 --> 00:27:12,108
If they say, like,
two female couplings don't go together.
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00:27:12,152 --> 00:27:13,457
and I'm like,
well, they do in my house.
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00:27:13,501 --> 00:27:15,634
- And they're, like...
- "Oh, she's a joke."
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00:27:15,677 --> 00:27:17,418
She's setting us up
for a lawsuit.
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00:27:17,461 --> 00:27:18,941
She's totally setting us up.
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00:27:18,985 --> 00:27:20,813
It's like, I'm not
setting you up.
413
00:27:20,856 --> 00:27:22,728
- I was just trying to
joke with you. - Setting you up for a high-five.
414
00:27:22,771 --> 00:27:24,251
- That's great.
- Exactly.
415
00:27:24,294 --> 00:27:25,948
I was playing with you.
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00:27:25,992 --> 00:27:28,168
- [CHUCKLES]
- After 14 years...
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00:27:28,211 --> 00:27:29,473
- Yeah.
- It was all good.
418
00:27:29,517 --> 00:27:31,824
Now, all of a sudden,
it's not good anymore?
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00:27:31,867 --> 00:27:33,913
I don't know what the rules are,
you changed them on me.
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00:27:33,956 --> 00:27:36,132
LACEY: You can't talk about
how people make you feel uncomfortable,
421
00:27:36,176 --> 00:27:39,092
'cause, then,
they feel uncomfortable for making you feel bad.
422
00:27:39,135 --> 00:27:41,094
- Yeah.
- So I was, like, you have to take it.
423
00:27:41,137 --> 00:27:43,183
- I wasn't taught that at all.
- Good.
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00:27:43,226 --> 00:27:46,316
I was actually taught
it's perfectly okay
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00:27:46,360 --> 00:27:50,581
to have an open discussion
about things as long as you do it in a positive manner
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00:27:50,625 --> 00:27:52,932
and you're not pointing
fingers of blame.
427
00:27:52,975 --> 00:27:56,457
What you're saying is,
you said a bad...
428
00:27:56,500 --> 00:27:59,678
You said a hurtful thing,
and I would like you to change it.
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00:27:59,721 --> 00:28:02,942
And what they hear is,
I'm a shitty person,
430
00:28:02,985 --> 00:28:05,074
and they don't wanna feel
like a shitty person.
431
00:28:05,118 --> 00:28:06,989
But, sometimes,
you can't convince them
432
00:28:07,033 --> 00:28:08,687
that that's not
what you actually said.
433
00:28:08,730 --> 00:28:11,777
Yep. I'm outnumbered and...
Wrong time and place.
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00:28:11,820 --> 00:28:15,998
LACEY: Yeah. And I think,
what you said,
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00:28:16,042 --> 00:28:19,132
I don't feel respected
on a daily basis.
436
00:28:20,089 --> 00:28:21,700
That's pretty simple.
437
00:28:21,743 --> 00:28:26,269
I need to feel respected,
to be effective as a team member.
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00:28:26,313 --> 00:28:31,100
But explaining
why I don't feel respected,
439
00:28:31,144 --> 00:28:34,277
that's compli...
That is not simple.
440
00:28:34,321 --> 00:28:38,717
Because you say, like,
"Well, my boss called me a girl."
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00:28:40,675 --> 00:28:44,113
Okay... Brush it off, let it go.
442
00:28:44,157 --> 00:28:48,422
And I said, "Well,
my boss called me a girl 48 times this week."
443
00:28:48,465 --> 00:28:52,818
[CHUCKLES] You know?
And I let it go 46 of those times,
444
00:28:52,861 --> 00:28:54,515
and then pointed it out twice,
445
00:28:54,558 --> 00:28:57,083
and now I'm difficult.
446
00:28:57,126 --> 00:29:00,086
That's not really simple
to explain to someone who hasn't...
447
00:29:00,129 --> 00:29:02,001
experienced that.
448
00:29:02,044 --> 00:29:03,654
And that's just one example.
449
00:29:05,352 --> 00:29:07,920
The amount of energy
that I spend
450
00:29:09,573 --> 00:29:13,273
regulating my emotional response
451
00:29:13,316 --> 00:29:18,234
to my work environment
is ludicrous. [LAUGHS]
452
00:29:18,278 --> 00:29:21,803
I mean, I spend
a lot of mental energy on the work itself.
453
00:29:21,847 --> 00:29:23,892
It's a dynamic,
risky environment
454
00:29:23,936 --> 00:29:26,939
that we're constantly
reassessing and evaluating.
455
00:29:26,982 --> 00:29:28,941
That itself is exhausting.
456
00:29:28,984 --> 00:29:33,075
To add on top of that,
being constantly aware
457
00:29:33,119 --> 00:29:35,948
of the fact
that I'm in an environment
458
00:29:35,991 --> 00:29:38,472
that's... Like,
a cultural environment
459
00:29:38,515 --> 00:29:42,128
that doesn't feel
totally welcoming
460
00:29:42,171 --> 00:29:45,000
and 100% safe.
461
00:29:45,044 --> 00:29:50,005
That's just an added
energy expenditure that I don't...
462
00:29:50,049 --> 00:29:53,226
I don't think
I have the capacity to keep doing that
463
00:29:53,269 --> 00:29:55,750
for the rest of my career.
464
00:30:20,383 --> 00:30:26,259
One of my fears is getting
to the end of my life
465
00:30:26,302 --> 00:30:30,176
and not thinking
I impacted anything.
466
00:30:31,525 --> 00:30:33,266
[BIRDS SQUAWKING]
467
00:30:35,268 --> 00:30:40,751
It scares me to think
that I could live for 90 years,
468
00:30:40,795 --> 00:30:43,667
thinking I'm doing cool stuff,
helping people,
469
00:30:43,711 --> 00:30:47,758
but in reality, my 90 years
could have never existed
470
00:30:47,802 --> 00:30:49,369
and the world would be
exactly the same.
471
00:30:51,501 --> 00:30:57,420
I feel some sort of duty
to like, leave fire culture better than I found it.
472
00:30:57,464 --> 00:30:59,988
For the people who've come
into fire after me.
473
00:31:02,382 --> 00:31:05,385
I mean, given that this is
the only grown-up job I've ever had,
474
00:31:05,428 --> 00:31:09,519
a lot of the people
I care about in in my life are firefighters,
475
00:31:09,563 --> 00:31:13,045
or involved in fire somehow.
So, like, I care about that world,
476
00:31:14,220 --> 00:31:17,571
and I care about that culture,
477
00:31:18,702 --> 00:31:21,183
because I know
how damaging it can be.
478
00:31:21,227 --> 00:31:24,056
And, like, if there's
something I can do
479
00:31:24,099 --> 00:31:27,494
to help make that better,
I want to keep doing that.
480
00:31:37,112 --> 00:31:38,984
[KNIFE SLICING]
481
00:31:42,944 --> 00:31:47,818
So much of culture
is reinforced and perpetuated,
482
00:31:47,862 --> 00:31:51,474
not by active praise
of the things you're doing,
483
00:31:51,518 --> 00:31:53,694
but just by not getting
in trouble for them.
484
00:31:54,956 --> 00:31:57,350
Silent acceptance.
485
00:32:01,571 --> 00:32:04,618
It's really hard to make
a fish recognize water.
486
00:32:06,272 --> 00:32:08,187
[PAN SIZZLING]
487
00:32:08,230 --> 00:32:09,840
[KNOCK AT DOOR]
488
00:32:13,496 --> 00:32:15,716
- You're here!
- Hi, Lacey!
489
00:32:15,759 --> 00:32:17,413
LACEY: Oh, so glad to see you.
490
00:32:17,457 --> 00:32:18,719
Thanks for having me.
491
00:32:18,762 --> 00:32:21,678
Yeah. Come on, let's eat.
492
00:32:21,722 --> 00:32:25,247
MONICA: If you can
pull it away from sexual harassment
493
00:32:25,291 --> 00:32:30,165
and make the point that
it's about people in charge
494
00:32:30,209 --> 00:32:32,341
dominating people
that aren't in charge...
495
00:32:32,385 --> 00:32:35,475
Right. It's not a gender thing.
It's a power thing.
496
00:32:35,518 --> 00:32:40,480
Yes, and you can get every man
in the room to come back.
497
00:32:40,523 --> 00:32:43,004
Because the minute
you stand up there and say sexual harassment,
498
00:32:43,048 --> 00:32:46,965
the men that
aren't inflicting it or don't see it happening,
499
00:32:47,008 --> 00:32:50,055
- just tune out. They're like,
"Well, that's not..." - "That doesn't apply to me."
500
00:32:50,098 --> 00:32:52,927
If you can be like,
"Well, the same guy that's patting you on the ass,
501
00:32:52,971 --> 00:32:54,146
and calling you cupcake,
502
00:32:54,189 --> 00:32:57,497
is also bullying some
soft-spoken dude,"
503
00:32:57,540 --> 00:32:59,455
he's not just picking
on you and me.
504
00:32:59,499 --> 00:33:02,806
He's picking on anybody
he thinks he can get the upper hand on.
505
00:33:02,850 --> 00:33:06,462
Did I tell you? I was
heavy equipment processing,
506
00:33:06,506 --> 00:33:10,379
and I had, like,
nine pieces of equipment,
507
00:33:10,423 --> 00:33:13,817
and I was finishing up my side
and I misspoke.
508
00:33:13,861 --> 00:33:15,689
I said 800 ton
instead of 80 ton.
509
00:33:15,732 --> 00:33:17,038
Mmm-hmm.
510
00:33:17,082 --> 00:33:18,866
And the dude from the Southeast
took my mistake,
511
00:33:18,909 --> 00:33:20,085
and he just magnified it.
512
00:33:20,128 --> 00:33:22,435
- Can't just move on.
- No.
513
00:33:22,478 --> 00:33:26,265
And, um, he was like,
"Whoa, that's like so and so many pounds."
514
00:33:26,308 --> 00:33:27,527
[FAKE LAUGHTER]
515
00:33:27,570 --> 00:33:29,355
And I looked
right at him, and like,
516
00:33:29,398 --> 00:33:31,574
"That's some good math.
You're really good at math-ing, aren't you?
517
00:33:31,618 --> 00:33:33,228
- "Your mom must be proud."
- [LAUGHS]
518
00:33:33,272 --> 00:33:36,362
As soon as I left,
he said to that group of dudes,
519
00:33:36,405 --> 00:33:38,320
he was like,
"Well, she could be a handful."
520
00:33:40,235 --> 00:33:42,063
What does that translate to?
521
00:33:42,107 --> 00:33:43,804
- "What a bitch!"
- Yeah.
522
00:33:43,847 --> 00:33:45,066
God, I hate it.
523
00:33:45,110 --> 00:33:47,112
- I hate that so much.
- And my buddy...
524
00:33:47,155 --> 00:33:48,809
My buddy stood there
and he's like,
525
00:33:48,852 --> 00:33:50,637
"No way. She takes care
of her own.
526
00:33:50,680 --> 00:33:52,204
"You should have
seen her in Alaska.
527
00:33:52,247 --> 00:33:54,423
"She threatened to kick
a bus driver in the balls."
528
00:33:54,467 --> 00:33:55,511
[LACEY LAUGHS]
529
00:33:55,555 --> 00:33:57,122
And he basically
said to that dude,
530
00:33:57,165 --> 00:33:59,907
and to every other dude
in the group that,
531
00:34:00,647 --> 00:34:02,823
"No, she... She's cool."
532
00:34:02,866 --> 00:34:04,477
Mmm-hmm.
533
00:34:04,520 --> 00:34:06,479
"That was
an appropriate response for your shitty comment."
534
00:34:06,522 --> 00:34:08,089
Pretty much is what he said.
535
00:34:08,133 --> 00:34:10,961
And then every dude
in the group, he said, "She's cool."
536
00:34:11,005 --> 00:34:14,269
And... And that's the way
I feel at work.
537
00:34:14,313 --> 00:34:16,837
- I feel so supported and...
- That's awesome.
538
00:34:16,880 --> 00:34:18,708
I'm just another person.
539
00:34:18,752 --> 00:34:21,059
It kind of started for me,
I was talking to one of my supervisors,
540
00:34:21,102 --> 00:34:23,409
and he said he wouldn't
want his daughter
541
00:34:23,452 --> 00:34:26,499
to go into this line of work,
and I was like, "Why? It's been...
542
00:34:26,542 --> 00:34:29,067
"As a woman,
it's been the best thing that's ever happened to me."
543
00:34:29,110 --> 00:34:31,939
- Mmm-hmm.
- It's made me strong and confident.
544
00:34:31,982 --> 00:34:35,943
And best thing that's
ever happened to me, this job.
545
00:34:35,986 --> 00:34:38,989
And it was sad that
he said he didn't want his little girl doing it.
546
00:34:39,033 --> 00:34:41,557
Yeah. I've had men
that I worked with say that too, like,
547
00:34:41,601 --> 00:34:44,430
"If I had a daughter,
I'd never let her be a firefighter."
548
00:34:44,473 --> 00:34:46,475
But what I wonder is like...
549
00:34:46,519 --> 00:34:48,260
How can they...
550
00:34:48,303 --> 00:34:50,871
How can they acknowledge
that on one hand,
551
00:34:50,914 --> 00:34:54,179
that my work environment
is so shitty and toxic
552
00:34:54,222 --> 00:34:55,963
that I don't want
my family in it,
553
00:34:56,006 --> 00:34:59,140
but on the other hand,
not do anything about that?
554
00:34:59,184 --> 00:35:01,795
Like, how can they recognize
that it's awful,
555
00:35:02,665 --> 00:35:06,016
and also not try to change it?
556
00:35:06,060 --> 00:35:08,845
- Yeah, just sit back...
- Just sit back and go,
557
00:35:08,889 --> 00:35:10,630
"Oh, yeah. I just won't let
my daughter in."
558
00:35:10,673 --> 00:35:12,893
Because everybody
wants to fit in.
559
00:35:12,936 --> 00:35:17,202
And they don't want to be
"that dude" that stands up and causes a scene.
560
00:35:17,245 --> 00:35:18,377
- You know?
- I know.
561
00:35:20,683 --> 00:35:23,164
That's why I've just
resorted to being "that woman."
562
00:35:23,208 --> 00:35:24,383
[LAUGHS]
563
00:35:26,167 --> 00:35:29,170
[THUNDER RUMBLING]
564
00:35:29,214 --> 00:35:31,216
[MAN]
What you reading there?
565
00:35:31,259 --> 00:35:32,521
LACEY: It's called
Trust Exercise.
566
00:35:34,001 --> 00:35:35,220
I'm almost done with it.
567
00:35:35,263 --> 00:35:37,657
I'm still not quite sure
what it's about.
568
00:35:39,311 --> 00:35:41,226
[BOTH LAUGHING]
569
00:35:41,269 --> 00:35:43,184
It's fiction, like,
570
00:35:43,228 --> 00:35:46,318
then the narrator becomes
somebody who is in the first half of the story.
571
00:35:46,361 --> 00:35:48,929
- Mmm-hmm.
- Mmm-hmm.
572
00:35:48,972 --> 00:35:52,454
One of them, just, like,
wakes up, and turns out she was just, like,
573
00:35:52,498 --> 00:35:54,021
bitten by a bat, and had...
574
00:35:54,064 --> 00:35:55,588
- [LAUGHING]
- ...been in a coma.
575
00:35:57,067 --> 00:35:58,591
A bat, huh?
576
00:35:58,634 --> 00:36:01,681
That's how I see this ending.
And she's like, "Whoa!"
577
00:36:15,825 --> 00:36:17,740
All right, babe.
I got ten minutes left.
578
00:36:19,916 --> 00:36:21,179
I don't want to go to work.
579
00:36:22,005 --> 00:36:23,485
Don't. That's what they do.
580
00:36:23,529 --> 00:36:24,878
[LACEY CHUCKLES]
581
00:36:27,228 --> 00:36:30,623
But then how are we gonna
afford a new battery for Karen?
582
00:36:30,666 --> 00:36:31,711
That's true.
583
00:36:34,540 --> 00:36:36,150
We can't deprive her.
584
00:36:38,718 --> 00:36:39,719
Okay.
585
00:36:52,253 --> 00:36:54,429
If I was born as a man,
586
00:36:54,473 --> 00:36:57,389
I think it just would have
been smoother.
587
00:36:59,869 --> 00:37:03,003
I grew up outside,
doing outdoor things.
588
00:37:03,960 --> 00:37:05,962
I enjoy manual labor.
589
00:37:06,006 --> 00:37:07,486
Otherwise, I match
the demographic.
590
00:37:07,529 --> 00:37:10,097
I'm young, I'm white.
591
00:37:10,140 --> 00:37:14,101
I check a lot of the boxes
for, like, standard firefighter,
592
00:37:14,144 --> 00:37:17,974
but my being a woman,
like, puts me in this whole other category.
593
00:37:19,324 --> 00:37:21,543
I see men around me
in fire world
594
00:37:21,587 --> 00:37:24,198
just trash it out
and screw it up all the time
595
00:37:24,242 --> 00:37:29,203
and everyone's like,
"Eh, didn't work. Try it again in a different way."
596
00:37:29,247 --> 00:37:32,554
But if I do the same thing,
if I don't, like, calculate exactly
597
00:37:32,598 --> 00:37:34,643
how I'm going to
play this game,
598
00:37:34,687 --> 00:37:36,863
and I just try stuff
and then it doesn't work,
599
00:37:36,906 --> 00:37:39,648
then they're like,
"Hmm, see, women just,
600
00:37:39,692 --> 00:37:41,389
"like, aren't really
cut out for this."
601
00:37:44,000 --> 00:37:45,959
I just...
602
00:37:46,002 --> 00:37:52,618
I don't think I would be
at this level of tired after only ten seasons.
603
00:38:01,975 --> 00:38:03,890
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
604
00:38:14,509 --> 00:38:17,382
KELLY: I can't tell you
how many times I wanted to back out.
605
00:38:19,035 --> 00:38:20,515
You just don't wake up one day
and just go,
606
00:38:20,559 --> 00:38:23,344
"I think I want to go testify
in front of Congress
607
00:38:23,388 --> 00:38:26,216
"about these egregious acts
that have happened to me in the past."
608
00:38:30,873 --> 00:38:35,095
I was just having, you know,
huge reservations, and really consternating
609
00:38:35,138 --> 00:38:38,751
over whether or not
this was something that I should do.
610
00:38:40,492 --> 00:38:44,452
I felt like the mere fact
that I was watching this happen
611
00:38:44,496 --> 00:38:47,847
to, uh, more and more women,
612
00:38:47,890 --> 00:38:49,979
and even to some degree,
some men,
613
00:38:50,023 --> 00:38:53,113
then I think
you have to ask yourself, "Do we all stay silent?"
614
00:38:55,071 --> 00:38:57,030
That, I think,
was the tipping point.
615
00:38:59,293 --> 00:39:01,513
But the day that
I got on the plane,
616
00:39:01,556 --> 00:39:07,780
I sat up close to
where the door was, and I kept thinking,
617
00:39:07,823 --> 00:39:09,695
"I still have a chance
to get off the plane.
618
00:39:09,738 --> 00:39:11,523
"I still have a chance.
Still have a chance."
619
00:39:16,266 --> 00:39:19,879
And as soon as the door shut,
I just kind of closed my eyes
620
00:39:19,922 --> 00:39:22,142
and just had to take
a deep breath,
621
00:39:22,185 --> 00:39:24,753
and as the plane started
pulling back from the gate,
622
00:39:24,797 --> 00:39:30,150
that's when I think this
irreversible journey really began.
623
00:39:32,935 --> 00:39:37,984
Every state I flew over,
you know, was just this flood of memories
624
00:39:38,027 --> 00:39:40,682
about all these people
that have supported me.
625
00:39:40,726 --> 00:39:44,599
The men that have been
super supportive of me over the years
626
00:39:44,643 --> 00:39:48,081
and several women
who continued to support me.
627
00:39:50,736 --> 00:39:54,348
I felt like, "Am I putting
all of this at risk?"
628
00:39:57,482 --> 00:40:01,660
FEMALE REPORTER: Female
Forest Service employees, many of them firefighters,
629
00:40:01,703 --> 00:40:04,445
have complained about
mistreatment for decades.
630
00:40:04,489 --> 00:40:06,404
Numerous park employees
from multiple parks
631
00:40:06,447 --> 00:40:09,058
have contacted the committee
to describe patterns
632
00:40:09,102 --> 00:40:11,104
of misconduct
at the Park Service.
633
00:40:11,147 --> 00:40:13,323
It was a similar report
16 years ago.
634
00:40:13,367 --> 00:40:15,456
The task force concluded,
and I quote,
635
00:40:15,500 --> 00:40:20,200
"It is critical for
the National Park Service to show a sense of urgency
636
00:40:20,243 --> 00:40:24,204
"in ensuring that all employees
are working in an environment
637
00:40:24,247 --> 00:40:26,685
"free from unlawful harassment."
638
00:40:26,728 --> 00:40:29,818
Were any of its
recommendations implemented?
639
00:40:29,862 --> 00:40:33,866
Uh, no, they were not,
as far as I can ever figure out.
640
00:40:33,909 --> 00:40:36,738
So... So we're back here again
16 years later.
641
00:40:36,782 --> 00:40:40,133
Yeah, it's a very
regrettable action that did not occur.
642
00:40:40,176 --> 00:40:42,701
I felt it was really,
really important,
643
00:40:42,744 --> 00:40:45,138
because I've been involved
in this for so long
644
00:40:45,181 --> 00:40:51,013
that, somehow, I...
I had to have not just my voice heard,
645
00:40:51,057 --> 00:40:55,365
but there were so many
other people that were also feeling the same way,
646
00:40:55,409 --> 00:41:00,414
and they flat out said,
"There's just no way I can come forward and say anything."
647
00:41:00,458 --> 00:41:02,764
And so, a lot of people
will continue to ask,
648
00:41:02,808 --> 00:41:04,549
you know, why didn't you
come forward?
649
00:41:04,592 --> 00:41:06,246
How come now you're reporting?
650
00:41:06,289 --> 00:41:09,771
Those are questions
that people constantly ask,
651
00:41:09,815 --> 00:41:14,820
because they don't understand
how difficult it is to speak up,
652
00:41:14,863 --> 00:41:18,171
and speak the truth
about these things that have happened,
653
00:41:18,214 --> 00:41:22,131
because of the dire consequences
most women face
654
00:41:22,175 --> 00:41:26,135
when you do speak up
and are honest about the things
655
00:41:26,179 --> 00:41:28,094
that have happened to you
in the past.
656
00:41:28,137 --> 00:41:29,878
My name is Kelly Martin,
and I am the Chief
657
00:41:29,922 --> 00:41:32,881
of Fire and Aviation Management
at Yosemite National Park.
658
00:41:32,925 --> 00:41:35,797
I've been in my current position
for over ten years.
659
00:41:35,841 --> 00:41:38,408
I am here before you today
to tell you my story,
660
00:41:38,452 --> 00:41:40,106
but more importantly,
to provide testimony
661
00:41:40,149 --> 00:41:42,543
regarding the dark clouds
of misconduct
662
00:41:42,587 --> 00:41:45,111
that remains elusive
from public view.
663
00:41:45,154 --> 00:41:49,202
I felt like I have a voice.
I can use my voice.
664
00:41:49,245 --> 00:41:50,638
This is the United States.
665
00:41:50,682 --> 00:41:54,773
We do have the ability
to use our voice
666
00:41:54,816 --> 00:41:59,081
for the betterment
of this generation and the next generation.
667
00:41:59,125 --> 00:42:02,302
Imagine for one minute,
being 20-something again.
668
00:42:02,345 --> 00:42:06,088
We have an idealistic view
of the world that is equitable and just.
669
00:42:06,132 --> 00:42:08,482
My idealist view
was soon shattered
670
00:42:08,526 --> 00:42:13,922
when I became victim
of sexual harassment not once, but three times.
671
00:42:13,966 --> 00:42:18,492
One of my perpetrators was
repeatedly caught engaging in voyeuristic behavior,
672
00:42:18,536 --> 00:42:21,364
all the while
receiving promotions within the National Park Service
673
00:42:21,408 --> 00:42:24,542
until his recent retirement
as Deputy Superintendent.
674
00:42:26,195 --> 00:42:28,633
This is very difficult
to sit before you today.
675
00:42:28,676 --> 00:42:32,201
I'm not boastful of the history
of my sexual harassment experiences.
676
00:42:32,245 --> 00:42:35,378
As a matter of fact,
this is the first time I have come out publicly
677
00:42:35,422 --> 00:42:38,294
to describe the painful scars
of my past
678
00:42:38,338 --> 00:42:40,949
in a hopeful effort to eliminate
these kinds of experiences
679
00:42:40,993 --> 00:42:44,431
from happening to young women
entering our workforce today.
680
00:42:44,474 --> 00:42:47,695
It's almost as it's accepted
that men can be given
681
00:42:47,739 --> 00:42:51,003
the benefit of the doubt,
and women are doubted.
682
00:42:51,046 --> 00:42:53,309
As I walk through
my 32 years of service,
683
00:42:53,353 --> 00:42:57,400
I want to leave here today with
a strong conviction of hope.
684
00:42:57,444 --> 00:43:00,490
Hope for the future generation
of the Park Service conservation leaders
685
00:43:00,534 --> 00:43:04,233
that will not know
what it is like to experience sexual harassment,
686
00:43:04,277 --> 00:43:06,409
gender and racial
discrimination,
687
00:43:06,453 --> 00:43:09,499
sexism and hostile
work environments.
688
00:43:09,543 --> 00:43:11,632
We're going to be watching
the National Park Service,
689
00:43:11,676 --> 00:43:13,634
and the way
Ms. Martin is treated,
690
00:43:13,678 --> 00:43:16,419
and other whistleblowers
are treated
691
00:43:16,463 --> 00:43:20,859
as a consequence of
their bringing these allegations forward.
692
00:43:20,902 --> 00:43:23,992
Uh, it should not
be unaddressed,
693
00:43:24,036 --> 00:43:29,084
and, uh, it has been
inadequately addressed.
694
00:43:29,128 --> 00:43:30,782
We all long for a day
695
00:43:30,825 --> 00:43:34,176
that we don't have to take
these extreme measures
696
00:43:34,220 --> 00:43:35,700
to be heard and believed.
697
00:43:37,353 --> 00:43:39,660
[HELICOPTER BLADES WHIRRING]
698
00:43:58,679 --> 00:44:03,466
A hell of a job
for just two people in a few hours,
699
00:44:03,510 --> 00:44:06,556
having to drag trees
quite a ways.
700
00:44:07,819 --> 00:44:08,950
But,
701
00:44:09,734 --> 00:44:10,691
got it done.
702
00:44:11,866 --> 00:44:13,868
We're making a log deck
703
00:44:13,912 --> 00:44:15,565
for the helicopter to land on.
704
00:44:15,609 --> 00:44:16,697
[SAW BUZZING]
705
00:44:16,741 --> 00:44:17,959
Might not be the prettiest.
706
00:44:19,047 --> 00:44:20,048
But it's a log deck.
707
00:44:23,835 --> 00:44:25,967
[INSECTS BUZZING]
708
00:44:26,011 --> 00:44:29,405
The only wildlife we've seen
while we were down here,
709
00:44:30,450 --> 00:44:32,234
are all the mosquitoes.
710
00:44:33,105 --> 00:44:35,585
And other flying pests.
711
00:44:35,629 --> 00:44:38,676
Hopefully pilot
doesn't have a problem with it,
712
00:44:40,852 --> 00:44:43,506
and we won't have to come back
and fix it later.
713
00:44:51,950 --> 00:44:58,086
Some people can't imagine
using the bathroom anywhere but inside a building,
714
00:44:58,957 --> 00:45:00,654
on porcelain.
715
00:45:00,698 --> 00:45:03,483
But come on,
it's way better out here.
716
00:45:12,971 --> 00:45:15,669
[INDISTINCT CHATTER OVER RADIO]
717
00:45:15,713 --> 00:45:18,672
So we were on our way to Helena.
718
00:45:18,716 --> 00:45:23,372
And got diverted
to a fire up in the Bridgers. A lightning strike.
719
00:45:23,416 --> 00:45:27,289
As you can see,
there's the part of the tree that got struck.
720
00:45:28,595 --> 00:45:29,727
You can see it...
721
00:45:30,684 --> 00:45:32,033
kind of exploded into bits.
722
00:45:33,469 --> 00:45:34,644
Not tall anymore.
723
00:45:36,298 --> 00:45:37,691
And there's
pieces of it hanging
724
00:45:38,823 --> 00:45:39,954
up in that other tree.
725
00:45:48,093 --> 00:45:52,532
It's these kind of fires
that really split my mind
726
00:45:52,575 --> 00:45:58,756
about loving my job
and not make me feel conflicted.
727
00:46:01,280 --> 00:46:03,151
On the one hand,
728
00:46:03,195 --> 00:46:05,240
what an awesome place
to hang out.
729
00:46:07,460 --> 00:46:09,897
No people, just hanging out
in the woods.
730
00:46:09,941 --> 00:46:11,638
Super pretty.
731
00:46:11,681 --> 00:46:13,901
Gonna camp for a night or two.
732
00:46:13,945 --> 00:46:15,381
Can't complain about that.
733
00:46:17,035 --> 00:46:20,734
On the other hand,
this was a naturally ignited fire,
734
00:46:20,778 --> 00:46:21,953
it's a lightning strike.
735
00:46:23,606 --> 00:46:28,307
And it wasn't really
doing much, skunking around.
736
00:46:28,350 --> 00:46:30,309
[EMBERS CRACKLING]
737
00:46:30,352 --> 00:46:31,919
Hard to tell how steep it is.
738
00:46:33,355 --> 00:46:36,489
Uh, this is basically
a 45-degree angle here.
739
00:46:37,403 --> 00:46:38,926
So it's not a very big spot,
740
00:46:38,970 --> 00:46:41,276
should be pretty easy
to put out,
741
00:46:41,320 --> 00:46:45,454
except that the duff
is super thick,
742
00:46:45,498 --> 00:46:48,109
and even digging down, like,
743
00:46:48,153 --> 00:46:52,505
couldn't get to dirt yet,
this is still mostly duff...
744
00:46:52,548 --> 00:46:57,597
So this is going to be
a slow mop-up show.
745
00:46:57,640 --> 00:47:00,687
Basically... [CLEARS THROAT]
picking everything up by hand.
746
00:47:02,471 --> 00:47:03,821
Making sure it's cold.
747
00:47:06,040 --> 00:47:08,608
Should I be out here
putting this fire out?
748
00:47:08,651 --> 00:47:09,739
[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]
749
00:47:09,783 --> 00:47:11,785
You know, um...
750
00:47:13,961 --> 00:47:19,140
As I learn more about fire
and fire science and fire ecology,
751
00:47:19,184 --> 00:47:24,580
and how important fire is to,
you know, the well being of an ecosystem.
752
00:47:24,624 --> 00:47:29,150
I feel less like I'm taking
appropriate actions
753
00:47:29,194 --> 00:47:30,325
as a steward of the land.
754
00:47:33,851 --> 00:47:36,549
Sometimes, I feel like
I'm getting paid to do things
755
00:47:36,592 --> 00:47:40,335
that aren't in
the best interest of the ecosystem in question.
756
00:47:41,859 --> 00:47:43,251
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
757
00:47:45,514 --> 00:47:47,647
I don't know.
758
00:47:47,690 --> 00:47:51,216
So I just sit here
and eat my Snickers and think about it.
759
00:47:59,311 --> 00:48:01,748
Nothing better than a Snickers
760
00:48:01,791 --> 00:48:04,142
that has melted
761
00:48:04,185 --> 00:48:07,406
and resolidified
a handful of times in your backpack.
762
00:48:07,449 --> 00:48:08,755
[CHUCKLES]
763
00:48:31,952 --> 00:48:33,998
KELLY: Do you guys, uh,
do you guys want a pancake?
764
00:48:34,999 --> 00:48:36,348
Ready for a pancake?
765
00:48:37,479 --> 00:48:39,873
[ALL LAUGHING]
766
00:48:40,569 --> 00:48:42,180
[TAPPING ON COUNTER]
767
00:48:43,398 --> 00:48:45,313
[CUTLERY CLATTERING]
768
00:48:45,357 --> 00:48:48,099
KELLY: David, do you want one?
Are you sure?
769
00:48:48,142 --> 00:48:49,970
- No, no. Yeah, I'm done.
- Okay.
770
00:48:50,014 --> 00:48:51,319
[MAN COUGHING]
771
00:48:51,363 --> 00:48:53,060
MAN: You're anti-pancake?
772
00:48:53,104 --> 00:48:55,280
- WOMAN: You a huge fan
of pancakes? - Yeah.
773
00:48:55,323 --> 00:48:58,283
So you're not biased.
You don't have any implicit bias
774
00:48:58,326 --> 00:48:59,675
- against pancakes.
- No implicit bias.
775
00:48:59,719 --> 00:49:00,938
Copy that.
776
00:49:00,981 --> 00:49:02,243
[LAUGHTER]
777
00:49:02,287 --> 00:49:03,984
We've been talking
a lot about implicit bias.
778
00:49:04,028 --> 00:49:05,116
[ALL LAUGHING]
779
00:49:05,159 --> 00:49:06,334
Just want to make sure.
780
00:49:10,382 --> 00:49:12,166
There's one thing,
you know, that we can do
781
00:49:12,210 --> 00:49:14,690
is kind of, you know,
there's a little bit of humor here.
782
00:49:14,734 --> 00:49:16,475
We can laugh about ourselves.
783
00:49:18,390 --> 00:49:20,348
WOMAN: [OVER RADIO]
Yosemite conditions for today.
784
00:49:20,392 --> 00:49:25,266
Sunny, maximum 64 to 69,
8,000 feet, 53 to 58.
785
00:49:25,310 --> 00:49:27,094
KELLY: The thing
for me was, um,
786
00:49:27,138 --> 00:49:29,401
with you getting here
this weekend was
787
00:49:29,444 --> 00:49:33,971
thinking about the success
that we've had for the last three events.
788
00:49:34,014 --> 00:49:37,539
That third WTREX
really felt like...
789
00:49:37,583 --> 00:49:40,760
- It really solidified
a lot of things. - Yeah.
790
00:49:40,803 --> 00:49:43,763
And there was
new people there from
791
00:49:43,806 --> 00:49:47,071
reaches of
the Nature Conservancy,
792
00:49:47,114 --> 00:49:49,464
National Park Service,
Forest Service,
793
00:49:49,508 --> 00:49:51,684
uh, NGOs that are like,
794
00:49:51,727 --> 00:49:54,992
"I'm kind of really interested
in attending and helping."
795
00:49:55,035 --> 00:49:58,430
And then, like I think,
for me, that was, like, the tipping point for...
796
00:49:58,473 --> 00:50:01,520
We're on to something that
that I don't believe
797
00:50:01,563 --> 00:50:03,348
anybody else is really doing.
798
00:50:03,391 --> 00:50:04,740
- Mmm-hmm.
- And so...
799
00:50:04,784 --> 00:50:06,351
Now what does that look like?
800
00:50:06,394 --> 00:50:09,310
You know,
for the next three years or the next five years.
801
00:50:09,354 --> 00:50:11,747
And this could go any...
Any number of places.
802
00:50:11,791 --> 00:50:13,488
That's really exciting.
803
00:50:13,532 --> 00:50:17,710
Like, it feels like we've taken
kind of a slow road with WTREX
804
00:50:17,753 --> 00:50:20,060
and just doing
one event per year...
805
00:50:20,104 --> 00:50:22,410
I think our pace has been
perfect actually,
806
00:50:22,454 --> 00:50:25,022
because we kind of needed
to have that success.
807
00:50:25,065 --> 00:50:27,198
- Mmm-hmm.
- And to show that we could do it,
808
00:50:27,241 --> 00:50:31,071
and to build out our team
and feel smooth,
809
00:50:31,115 --> 00:50:32,899
like a smooth machine together.
810
00:50:32,942 --> 00:50:34,727
And now
we're at a perfect point
811
00:50:34,770 --> 00:50:38,600
to broaden it out, and...
812
00:50:38,644 --> 00:50:42,343
I think any of us
coming up through the ranks,
813
00:50:42,387 --> 00:50:45,172
think about, like,
what kind of opportunities
814
00:50:45,216 --> 00:50:48,436
- do we really have
to build our competency? - Yeah.
815
00:50:48,480 --> 00:50:52,962
Right, there's confidence
in what we love and what we wanna do,
816
00:50:53,006 --> 00:50:56,705
but where are the opportunities
to actually really build
817
00:50:56,749 --> 00:50:59,404
- our physical skill set?
- Yeah.
818
00:50:59,447 --> 00:51:03,234
Yeah, the way I think
about WTREX moving forward
819
00:51:03,277 --> 00:51:05,627
is that we do diversify
and think about
820
00:51:05,671 --> 00:51:09,109
where are those bottlenecks
for women in fire,
821
00:51:09,153 --> 00:51:11,068
and how can we create
those opportunities.
822
00:51:11,111 --> 00:51:16,421
Leadership training, um,
you know, the diversity and inclusion training...
823
00:51:17,770 --> 00:51:21,121
We could even do short modules
on burn planning,
824
00:51:21,165 --> 00:51:23,776
and, you know, some of
the ecological concepts.
825
00:51:23,819 --> 00:51:27,258
I don't know. I think the sky
is the limit, kind of...
826
00:51:27,301 --> 00:51:30,522
We think about women
in their 20s, their 30s, their 40s,
827
00:51:30,565 --> 00:51:32,176
as they're moving
through their career,
828
00:51:32,219 --> 00:51:34,003
we're not interested
in just getting more women in fire,
829
00:51:34,047 --> 00:51:36,832
but we're interested
in what does it take to...
830
00:51:36,876 --> 00:51:39,661
To keep them in fire,
if that's where they want to be,
831
00:51:39,705 --> 00:51:43,274
and to advance them
and give them power
832
00:51:43,317 --> 00:51:45,493
and leadership capabilities
and stuff.
833
00:51:45,537 --> 00:51:47,321
We really need to...
834
00:51:47,365 --> 00:51:51,282
You know, we understand
what some of those obstacles are in WTREX,
835
00:51:51,325 --> 00:51:55,242
but as federal agencies,
we really, we've got a lot of work to do still.
836
00:51:55,286 --> 00:51:57,505
You know, both from
scaling up the good fire
837
00:51:57,549 --> 00:52:00,595
as well as how do
we empower women
838
00:52:00,639 --> 00:52:03,207
in leadership positions
in wildland fire?
839
00:52:03,250 --> 00:52:06,862
And there's just...
There's nothing else, like, out there like this.
840
00:52:06,906 --> 00:52:10,518
And so that, for me,
is really exciting to think about,
841
00:52:10,562 --> 00:52:14,087
how I can put
my two loves and passion
842
00:52:14,131 --> 00:52:16,263
about gender equity
843
00:52:16,307 --> 00:52:18,613
and more good fire
on the landscape.
844
00:52:18,657 --> 00:52:20,659
- This is just like
the perfect combination. - Yeah.
845
00:52:21,442 --> 00:52:23,009
I'm grateful that we met.
846
00:52:23,052 --> 00:52:25,359
- Yeah, well...
- I'm glad you came up.
847
00:52:25,403 --> 00:52:26,752
I'm so glad.
848
00:52:26,795 --> 00:52:29,102
I think we have a really
strong future ahead of us.
849
00:52:29,146 --> 00:52:32,061
Oh, yeah, with a tremendous
amount of, you know, work.
850
00:52:32,105 --> 00:52:34,499
And so I think...
Thinking about that, too,
851
00:52:34,542 --> 00:52:38,372
- is, it's like, "Ooh,
I'm sort of kind of retired." - [LAUGHS]
852
00:52:38,416 --> 00:52:41,680
So I'm excited about
that type of work on the outside
853
00:52:41,723 --> 00:52:43,072
in retirement as well.
854
00:52:43,116 --> 00:52:44,596
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
855
00:52:44,639 --> 00:52:46,511
WOMAN 1: You're good.
Don't worry.
856
00:52:48,077 --> 00:52:49,296
WOMAN 2: Oh, okay, okay.
857
00:52:49,340 --> 00:52:50,993
- That's just the beginning.
- Got you there.
858
00:52:51,037 --> 00:52:52,908
Gotcha, gotcha.
859
00:52:52,952 --> 00:52:54,345
Yeah, yeah.
860
00:52:54,388 --> 00:52:56,695
[INDISTINCT CHATTER CONTINUES]
861
00:53:02,527 --> 00:53:04,137
Coffee, friends.
862
00:53:05,921 --> 00:53:07,358
What else could you ask for?
863
00:53:08,185 --> 00:53:09,708
My hubby.
864
00:53:09,751 --> 00:53:11,057
[MAN CLEARS THROAT]
865
00:53:15,583 --> 00:53:17,106
This'll last about one hour.
866
00:53:20,414 --> 00:53:22,068
I was telling her,
this is really...
867
00:53:23,591 --> 00:53:25,506
Nobody waters
the grass around here.
868
00:53:25,550 --> 00:53:28,248
This place is really dusty
and dirty...
869
00:53:28,292 --> 00:53:30,163
It kind of goes back
to the "opposites attract."
870
00:53:30,772 --> 00:53:32,209
I'm Mr. Clean.
871
00:53:34,298 --> 00:53:37,475
I met Kelly in Moab, Utah.
872
00:53:37,518 --> 00:53:39,825
She knew one of
the people on the team,
873
00:53:39,868 --> 00:53:43,568
and he called her up
and said, "Hey, we're gonna go down and have a beer."
874
00:53:43,611 --> 00:53:44,917
So that's where
I first met her.
875
00:53:44,960 --> 00:53:47,789
From then on,
teams that went together,
876
00:53:47,833 --> 00:53:50,096
and we became
part of a fire team,
877
00:53:50,139 --> 00:53:53,142
and from there on,
it's just kind of like,
878
00:53:53,186 --> 00:53:56,320
you know, good people
attract good people.
879
00:53:56,363 --> 00:53:59,801
I just remember this one time
we were on a fire out at Battle Mountain,
880
00:53:59,845 --> 00:54:01,847
and this was before
we were together,
881
00:54:02,848 --> 00:54:04,980
and we... She had a broken arm.
882
00:54:05,764 --> 00:54:06,982
Fell off a horse.
883
00:54:07,026 --> 00:54:08,506
A Forest Service horse.
884
00:54:08,549 --> 00:54:11,900
She... [LAUGHS] She says,
"You sure you want me on team?
885
00:54:11,944 --> 00:54:13,467
"I've got...
My arm's in a cast."
886
00:54:13,511 --> 00:54:17,384
I go, "Well, can you push
the mic on a radio?
887
00:54:17,428 --> 00:54:21,823
"And can you walk up a hill
and look at what's going on and keep track of stuff?"
888
00:54:21,867 --> 00:54:24,391
And she goes, "Yeah."
I says, "Well, come to the fire."
889
00:54:25,740 --> 00:54:27,829
She's a tough woman.
890
00:54:27,873 --> 00:54:30,354
In the agencies, all of them,
891
00:54:30,397 --> 00:54:32,660
the tough women
tend to survive it,
892
00:54:32,704 --> 00:54:36,360
um, because
it's not an easy road.
893
00:54:36,403 --> 00:54:39,580
One of the worst things
that ever happened was, um...
894
00:54:39,624 --> 00:54:41,843
And I didn't hear about this
for like two months...
895
00:54:41,887 --> 00:54:43,323
One of the women
on the fire crew,
896
00:54:43,367 --> 00:54:45,760
she used one of
the BLM bathrooms
897
00:54:45,804 --> 00:54:49,938
and the fire crew decided
they were gonna tape her in there with duct tape.
898
00:54:51,723 --> 00:54:55,683
And so, Kelly told me one day
she's going to go to Congress
899
00:54:55,727 --> 00:54:58,860
and she was working with
staffers from both sides.
900
00:54:58,904 --> 00:55:01,298
You know,
she's always the hero.
901
00:55:01,341 --> 00:55:04,344
When she decided
to retire early,
902
00:55:04,388 --> 00:55:10,437
an individual
sent a note that said that, "Thank God she's gone,
903
00:55:10,481 --> 00:55:15,355
"and now we can get to
a higher level of management for that agency."
904
00:55:15,399 --> 00:55:18,097
And I'm going,
"You got to be kidding me."
905
00:55:18,140 --> 00:55:21,361
You can't believe
what she went through.
906
00:55:21,405 --> 00:55:25,887
It would take three hours
to tell you all the crap that she had to go through.
907
00:55:25,931 --> 00:55:28,194
Drugs on the crew,
908
00:55:28,237 --> 00:55:30,805
fights and people getting hurt,
and they're covering it up
909
00:55:30,849 --> 00:55:32,807
and car wrecks
and smoking dope
910
00:55:32,851 --> 00:55:34,374
and driving
government vehicles.
911
00:55:34,418 --> 00:55:36,594
You cannot believe
what she went through.
912
00:55:36,637 --> 00:55:38,987
KELLY: So, tonight
is a celebration.
913
00:55:39,031 --> 00:55:42,513
We've got lots and lots of food,
So let's go ahead and eat,
914
00:55:42,556 --> 00:55:45,646
but there are a couple of people
I really want to introduce.
915
00:55:45,690 --> 00:55:47,169
My mom, Mickey Martin.
916
00:55:47,213 --> 00:55:49,911
[ALL CHEERING AND APPLAUDING]
917
00:55:49,955 --> 00:55:51,609
- Mom!
- WOMAN: From Illinois.
918
00:55:51,652 --> 00:55:53,959
KELLY: Yep,
she flew in from... from Illinois.
919
00:55:54,002 --> 00:55:57,876
It's just really
a neat opportunity to be with all of you here tonight.
920
00:55:57,919 --> 00:55:59,878
- So...
- WOMAN: Whoo-hoo!
921
00:55:59,921 --> 00:56:02,489
And I bet you there's gonna be
people kind of showing up from time to time.
922
00:56:02,533 --> 00:56:07,015
So please introduce yourself
to each other, and let's eat.
923
00:56:07,059 --> 00:56:08,234
- Okay!
- MAN: Let's do it!
924
00:56:08,277 --> 00:56:09,670
[CHEERING AND APPLAUSE]
925
00:56:09,714 --> 00:56:14,545
LACEY: I met Kelly
at the first WTREX, 2016.
926
00:56:14,588 --> 00:56:17,548
And I had no idea
who she was before that.
927
00:56:17,591 --> 00:56:20,333
But I read through
her testimony and watched the video.
928
00:56:20,377 --> 00:56:22,422
And then I was like,
"Hoy shit, I'm gonna meet this woman.
929
00:56:22,466 --> 00:56:23,641
"That's pretty cool."
930
00:56:23,684 --> 00:56:26,383
You know... Here she is,
931
00:56:26,426 --> 00:56:29,473
talking about the hard things
in front of a huge audience,
932
00:56:29,516 --> 00:56:33,128
then met her at WTREX.
And... And it was awesome.
933
00:56:33,172 --> 00:56:34,478
You know, and she's been...
934
00:56:34,521 --> 00:56:36,741
She's been great to work with.
935
00:56:36,784 --> 00:56:38,873
Branches over there
can help build.
936
00:56:38,917 --> 00:56:43,269
And it was... You know,
she's just so passionate
937
00:56:43,312 --> 00:56:47,099
about fire and what it means
938
00:56:47,142 --> 00:56:49,362
and how
we should be treating it
939
00:56:49,406 --> 00:56:51,408
and how it should be
used on the land.
940
00:56:51,451 --> 00:56:55,324
And you know, it feels...
941
00:56:55,368 --> 00:56:59,633
It feels good to be
around somebody who is so...
942
00:56:59,677 --> 00:57:02,680
sure of what they believe.
943
00:57:02,723 --> 00:57:04,551
You know, like...
944
00:57:04,595 --> 00:57:08,381
She's had people
telling her not to believe what she believes
945
00:57:08,425 --> 00:57:10,688
for the past 35 years,
and she's like,
946
00:57:10,731 --> 00:57:13,473
"Well, fuck it. This is still
what I believe, because it's that important to me."
947
00:57:13,517 --> 00:57:15,649
And, like, that feels
good to know
948
00:57:15,693 --> 00:57:18,609
that there are
people like that.
949
00:57:18,652 --> 00:57:23,091
Um... Yeah,
I think she's awesome. She's really wonderful.
950
00:57:23,135 --> 00:57:25,267
[ALL CHEERING AND APPLAUDING]
951
00:57:29,184 --> 00:57:31,491
PAUL: She gave her life
and her heart to that place.
952
00:57:31,535 --> 00:57:33,232
And I'll never support
that program again
953
00:57:33,275 --> 00:57:36,148
just because I know
exactly the depths of that.
954
00:57:37,628 --> 00:57:40,457
She was working
at 10:30 at night.
955
00:57:40,500 --> 00:57:42,850
Sometimes she'd work
till 2:00 in the morning,
956
00:57:42,894 --> 00:57:44,809
to get the fire plans done.
957
00:57:44,852 --> 00:57:49,683
And, um, she was,
I would say, 90% successful.
958
00:57:49,727 --> 00:57:52,469
But there was a lot of people
that didn't like her
959
00:57:52,512 --> 00:57:54,949
because she tried
to clean up the shop.
960
00:57:54,993 --> 00:57:56,777
- [INDISTINCT CHATTER]
- [CHEERING AND APPLAUSE]
961
00:57:56,821 --> 00:58:00,912
Yeah. I have to tell you
that seeing her testify
962
00:58:00,955 --> 00:58:02,957
was the most awesome experience,
963
00:58:03,001 --> 00:58:09,486
and to know that she did that
in September '16, 2016.
964
00:58:09,529 --> 00:58:12,793
She led the pack
and wound up onTime magazine
965
00:58:12,837 --> 00:58:16,754
as one of the silence breakers,
which was just absolutely amazing.
966
00:58:16,797 --> 00:58:18,625
I must have run
to every gas station,
967
00:58:18,669 --> 00:58:21,193
every grocery store, and bought
every Timemagazine
968
00:58:21,236 --> 00:58:23,717
I could get my hands on
that night, because I thought
969
00:58:23,761 --> 00:58:25,980
"They're gonna be gone
if I wait till tomorrow."
970
00:58:26,024 --> 00:58:27,112
[WOMAN EXCLAIMS]
971
00:58:27,155 --> 00:58:28,896
- Thanks, Mom.
- Thank you, honey.
972
00:58:28,940 --> 00:58:31,551
[ALL CHEERING AND APPLAUDING]
973
00:58:31,595 --> 00:58:33,901
Somebody...
Somebody had to speak up.
974
00:58:33,945 --> 00:58:36,991
And I think our agency,
the National Park Service,
975
00:58:37,035 --> 00:58:41,387
is a better agency
because some of the things that we've been able to address.
976
00:58:41,430 --> 00:58:43,476
I feel like things are
starting to change.
977
00:58:43,520 --> 00:58:47,393
I know a lot of you don't...
Some people really, uh,
978
00:58:47,436 --> 00:58:49,308
have really resented
what I've done.
979
00:58:49,351 --> 00:58:52,398
Um, I would have never chosen
to do anything like this,
980
00:58:52,441 --> 00:58:56,924
but I really, honestly felt like
our agency deserves way better.
981
00:58:56,968 --> 00:58:59,274
And I know we have really,
really good people here.
982
00:58:59,318 --> 00:59:03,148
So, for all of you
that are here with me tonight,
983
00:59:03,191 --> 00:59:06,194
I do know that I've done
the right thing, I hope,
984
00:59:06,238 --> 00:59:07,631
and that I'm still...
985
00:59:07,674 --> 00:59:10,590
[ALL CHEERING AND APPLAUDING]
986
00:59:13,419 --> 00:59:14,725
PAUL: She was never respected.
987
00:59:16,248 --> 00:59:18,032
Because she was an outsider,
988
00:59:18,076 --> 00:59:19,817
and I feel because
she was a woman.
989
00:59:19,860 --> 00:59:21,558
Because they'd never
had a woman FMO.
990
00:59:22,776 --> 00:59:24,778
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
991
00:59:24,822 --> 00:59:27,520
WOMAN: I see a lot.
So, I love it. It was Kelly that...
992
00:59:27,564 --> 00:59:30,001
We were sitting here
at Christmas time...
993
00:59:31,089 --> 00:59:32,786
Oh, boy, 2013,
994
00:59:32,830 --> 00:59:34,701
and she just said to me,
she goes,
995
00:59:34,745 --> 00:59:37,225
"What are you waiting for?"
And I said, like, "You're right, you know."
996
00:59:37,269 --> 00:59:38,879
- "Let's do it."
- And in the next month,
997
00:59:38,923 --> 00:59:41,926
- I was enrolled in TREX,
so, yeah. - Yeah, awesome.
998
00:59:41,969 --> 00:59:45,712
Love Kelly. She's a little
special person to me. I love her to death.
999
00:59:45,756 --> 00:59:48,236
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
1000
01:00:05,819 --> 01:00:07,647
LACEY: And you...
You started this.
1001
01:00:07,691 --> 01:00:09,997
MAN: No, you're the one
with the stick. You started it.
1002
01:00:10,041 --> 01:00:12,826
- I was fixing it
and then you undid my work. - Ah! Ah!
1003
01:00:12,870 --> 01:00:14,436
No, I was working with you.
1004
01:00:14,480 --> 01:00:15,742
No, you undid it.
1005
01:00:15,786 --> 01:00:17,701
You need to learn to work
with other people.
1006
01:00:17,744 --> 01:00:20,225
You need to learn
to mind your own business.
1007
01:00:20,268 --> 01:00:22,531
The fire is my business,
I split all that wood.
1008
01:00:22,575 --> 01:00:24,403
Only after you
messed up whatever...
1009
01:00:24,446 --> 01:00:25,752
Nah, I split the wood.
1010
01:00:25,796 --> 01:00:28,059
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
1011
01:00:30,409 --> 01:00:32,324
[CHUCKLES] Do you have
this look on camera?
1012
01:00:32,367 --> 01:00:33,368
WOMAN: I do.
1013
01:00:34,108 --> 01:00:35,457
[LAUGHS]
1014
01:00:35,501 --> 01:00:37,808
Oh, and there's ice
in his whiskey. That's why.
1015
01:00:37,851 --> 01:00:40,158
No, it's not me.
1016
01:00:40,201 --> 01:00:42,769
I'm sure you can find
more things to dislike about me.
1017
01:00:42,813 --> 01:00:44,684
I can. How long do we have?
1018
01:00:44,728 --> 01:00:46,904
- Probably a couple of hours.
- [LAUGHS] Okay, great.
1019
01:00:46,947 --> 01:00:48,166
- We'll work on it.
- Yeah. No rush.
1020
01:00:48,209 --> 01:00:49,689
We'll work on... No, I'm...
1021
01:00:49,733 --> 01:00:51,560
- Take your time.
- I'll let it marinate.
1022
01:00:51,604 --> 01:00:52,649
Take your time.
1023
01:00:59,090 --> 01:01:01,658
[INDISTINCT CHATTER CONTINUES]
1024
01:01:18,413 --> 01:01:21,199
WOMAN: I could turn on my light,
but there's enough around...
1025
01:01:21,242 --> 01:01:25,812
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
1026
01:01:25,856 --> 01:01:29,120
KELLY: There's no one out.
So, we're it.
1027
01:01:29,163 --> 01:01:34,212
There's no one here
and it's incredibly powerful.
1028
01:01:34,255 --> 01:01:36,214
Uh, there's just nothing
like it.
1029
01:01:36,257 --> 01:01:38,825
There's very, very few people
that actually experience the park like this.
1030
01:01:38,869 --> 01:01:42,960
So, to me,
it's a lot more intense and a lot more fulfilling
1031
01:01:43,003 --> 01:01:47,094
than to be out here
when there's a thousand people on this trail.
1032
01:01:47,138 --> 01:01:48,879
So, let's go have a good time,
1033
01:01:48,922 --> 01:01:51,142
and we will drink some whiskey
when we get to the beach.
1034
01:01:53,405 --> 01:01:55,537
- Okay, whiskey over here.
- [MAN WHOOPS]
1035
01:01:55,581 --> 01:01:57,670
Whiskey over here.
1036
01:01:57,714 --> 01:02:02,196
And there's tobacco here
if anybody wants to start with their own little offering.
1037
01:02:03,502 --> 01:02:05,286
I actually want to throw it
in the river.
1038
01:02:05,330 --> 01:02:07,201
I'm gonna honor my dad tonight.
1039
01:02:10,117 --> 01:02:14,905
Do you remember...
You remember when I was reading your son
1040
01:02:14,948 --> 01:02:17,777
- Goodnight Moon?
- WOMAN: Yes. Oh, my gosh!
1041
01:02:17,821 --> 01:02:19,866
- KELLY: I know, huh?
- [LAUGHING]
1042
01:02:19,910 --> 01:02:21,650
WOMAN: Goodnight Moon.
1043
01:02:21,694 --> 01:02:24,262
Goodnight Moon.
He was just, like, a little kid, little shaver.
1044
01:02:24,305 --> 01:02:25,742
Yeah. Yeah.
1045
01:02:25,785 --> 01:02:28,048
And you were like,
"Yes, you can read to my son."
1046
01:02:28,092 --> 01:02:30,050
WOMAN: Moon in my room.
1047
01:02:30,094 --> 01:02:32,096
KELLY: Anybody else
want some tobacco?
1048
01:02:32,139 --> 01:02:33,793
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
1049
01:02:50,331 --> 01:02:51,898
KELLY: Here we go.
1050
01:02:51,942 --> 01:02:54,292
Wow, this is a
bonding experience.
1051
01:02:54,335 --> 01:02:56,250
[LAUGHTER]
1052
01:02:56,294 --> 01:02:58,339
- How are you feeling?
- Great.
1053
01:02:58,383 --> 01:02:59,776
Connections, and...
1054
01:02:59,819 --> 01:03:01,821
This is half the fun
of having a big party like this.
1055
01:03:01,865 --> 01:03:03,475
- It's like...
- Yeah, bringing together everyone.
1056
01:03:03,518 --> 01:03:04,998
Absolutely. Absolutely.
1057
01:03:05,042 --> 01:03:06,695
WOMAN: This park's going to be
so different without you.
1058
01:03:06,739 --> 01:03:08,523
- Oh, stop.
- No.
1059
01:03:08,567 --> 01:03:10,612
This woman was like,
"Do you know that Kelly has changed the park
1060
01:03:10,656 --> 01:03:14,138
"and she really speaks up
for what's right even if people don't want her to?"
1061
01:03:14,181 --> 01:03:15,530
And I was like, "Yes."
1062
01:03:15,574 --> 01:03:16,836
[LAUGHTER]
1063
01:03:16,880 --> 01:03:18,795
KELLY: You just never know.
1064
01:03:18,838 --> 01:03:22,189
I mean, you're all gonna
find yourself in a position someday to just go,
1065
01:03:22,233 --> 01:03:25,627
"This is my moment. I don't know
if it's right or wrong."
1066
01:03:25,671 --> 01:03:28,282
You're gonna step into it
and you just...
1067
01:03:30,589 --> 01:03:31,633
You can change the world.
1068
01:03:33,505 --> 01:03:35,028
WOMAN 2: We are gonna
miss you though.
1069
01:03:35,072 --> 01:03:37,770
I'm gonna miss you guys very,
very much.
1070
01:03:37,814 --> 01:03:40,120
We're like, yeah,
we know you're amazing
1071
01:03:40,164 --> 01:03:42,731
and a rockstar and also,
never leave us.
1072
01:03:42,775 --> 01:03:44,211
[ALL LAUGHING]
1073
01:03:44,255 --> 01:03:47,301
We know you have bigger
and better things to move on to,
1074
01:03:47,345 --> 01:03:48,868
but we're gonna miss you.
1075
01:03:48,912 --> 01:03:50,565
KELLY: You know,
the fun thing is just knowing that...
1076
01:03:50,609 --> 01:03:54,265
"Okay, so I'm in my 50s
and you guys are in your 30s and 20s."
1077
01:03:54,308 --> 01:03:59,096
And so it's just
this cross-generational, like, empowerment.
1078
01:03:59,139 --> 01:04:01,011
Women empowerment
is, like, really cool.
1079
01:04:01,054 --> 01:04:03,840
Just, like, embrace it,
take it on,
1080
01:04:03,883 --> 01:04:05,624
and, you know,
just, like, own it.
1081
01:04:05,667 --> 01:04:08,322
[WOMAN] I wanna live
in a matriarchal society.
1082
01:04:08,366 --> 01:04:11,804
- I'm serious.
- I mean, the United States is gonna be that soon.
1083
01:04:11,848 --> 01:04:16,417
- Soon.
- Well, it's all gonna be up to all of you, right? And me.
1084
01:04:16,461 --> 01:04:19,159
I mean,
we're all part of it, right?
1085
01:04:19,203 --> 01:04:20,813
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
1086
01:04:43,270 --> 01:04:45,882
- [HELICOPTER APPROACHING]
- [LACEY SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]
1087
01:04:50,756 --> 01:04:53,106
- MAN: I haven't
seen that before. - Me either.
1088
01:06:21,716 --> 01:06:23,066
I made a friend.
1089
01:06:30,160 --> 01:06:35,469
Here we are in my last
operational shift as a firefighter.
1090
01:06:35,513 --> 01:06:41,475
We've been here
on the Horsefly Fire for couple of weeks.
1091
01:06:41,519 --> 01:06:44,565
For sure,
I will be hiking again and backpacking
1092
01:06:44,609 --> 01:06:47,916
and doing the kinds of things
that I've done in this job,
1093
01:06:49,092 --> 01:06:51,790
but not for this job.
1094
01:06:51,833 --> 01:06:58,101
Not as a firefighter and that
will be strange and exciting.
1095
01:07:00,103 --> 01:07:03,367
It only took about a week
into this season
1096
01:07:03,410 --> 01:07:07,458
for me to feel affirmed
in my decision to leave.
1097
01:07:07,501 --> 01:07:13,072
[CHUCKLES]
It was very clear very early that it's a good decision
1098
01:07:13,116 --> 01:07:16,771
for me to make this
my last season, so that felt good.
1099
01:07:16,815 --> 01:07:20,384
Knowing that I was making
the right choice for me.
1100
01:07:23,126 --> 01:07:27,869
But because it's been
so slow, there's been lots of time for me
1101
01:07:27,913 --> 01:07:29,567
to keep thinking about that
1102
01:07:29,610 --> 01:07:32,961
and wondering
what would it look like and what could I do?
1103
01:07:33,005 --> 01:07:35,181
Is it worth staying in it
so I can keep
1104
01:07:35,225 --> 01:07:36,530
trying to make
the culture better
1105
01:07:36,574 --> 01:07:39,925
and keep influencing
people's perspectives
1106
01:07:39,968 --> 01:07:44,103
and maybe changing their mind
and helping them learn,
1107
01:07:44,147 --> 01:07:46,105
and there's been some
back and forth.
1108
01:07:46,149 --> 01:07:49,282
But it's definitely...
It's time to go, it's time to move on.
1109
01:08:23,316 --> 01:08:27,625
Crazy how much stuff
you accumulate over the years.
1110
01:09:04,052 --> 01:09:05,880
[BIRDS CHIRPING]
1111
01:09:27,685 --> 01:09:30,427
KELLY: I think the one thing
I really didn't expect
1112
01:09:30,470 --> 01:09:33,908
in retirement, when you leave,
it really is a hard stop.
1113
01:09:34,822 --> 01:09:36,433
You're done with phone calls,
1114
01:09:36,476 --> 01:09:39,349
you're done with your computer,
you're done with your keys.
1115
01:09:39,392 --> 01:09:44,441
Everything gets turned in
on a Friday afternoon.
1116
01:09:44,484 --> 01:09:47,748
And Sunday, I find myself
going over Tioga Pass
1117
01:09:47,792 --> 01:09:50,098
really early in the morning.
1118
01:09:50,142 --> 01:09:54,494
Watching the full moon set
and the sun rise.
1119
01:09:54,538 --> 01:09:59,195
And that's a moment
I am never gonna forget.
1120
01:09:59,238 --> 01:10:05,288
'Cause that was another
huge transition in my life.
1121
01:10:05,331 --> 01:10:10,467
I think there's
some kind of endorphins that keep firefighters going,
1122
01:10:10,510 --> 01:10:12,077
because that's what we do.
1123
01:10:12,120 --> 01:10:16,473
And then when you come
to the abrupt stop of a retirement,
1124
01:10:16,516 --> 01:10:19,606
you feel both elated, relieved,
1125
01:10:19,650 --> 01:10:26,178
but you really begin
to feel the exhaustion has really caught up to you.
1126
01:10:31,444 --> 01:10:36,667
This little tarragon
is a cutting from a friend of mine.
1127
01:10:36,710 --> 01:10:42,803
She's got goats
and a cute little garden and...
1128
01:10:42,847 --> 01:10:46,372
I just like plants
that are given to me.
1129
01:10:48,766 --> 01:10:50,681
It reminds me of them,
of friends.
1130
01:11:08,176 --> 01:11:12,964
PAUL: It's hard to explain
the subtle
1131
01:11:13,007 --> 01:11:17,925
and sometimes blatant way
that the agency was treating women.
1132
01:11:17,969 --> 01:11:21,364
And not just in fire
and not just in law enforcement,
1133
01:11:21,407 --> 01:11:26,107
but in the whole area.
And when you see an indicator,
1134
01:11:26,151 --> 01:11:28,936
you know, in fire,
the indicator is low humidity
1135
01:11:28,980 --> 01:11:31,199
and high temperature
and some wind.
1136
01:11:31,243 --> 01:11:35,334
Well, when you see
a lot of people leaving the agency
1137
01:11:35,378 --> 01:11:37,467
and most of them are women,
1138
01:11:37,510 --> 01:11:40,731
there's a big indicator
there's something not right.
1139
01:11:40,774 --> 01:11:44,691
So this is kinda sour,
but it complements the maple syrup.
1140
01:11:45,170 --> 01:11:46,563
Oops!
1141
01:11:46,606 --> 01:11:52,699
KELLY: The trigger point
in '16 happened when
1142
01:11:52,743 --> 01:11:57,225
reading the story about
the sexual harassment at Grand Canyon.
1143
01:11:57,269 --> 01:11:59,576
And to be honest with you,
it was that trigger point
1144
01:12:00,925 --> 01:12:03,144
that I immediately just
closed my eyes
1145
01:12:03,188 --> 01:12:05,146
and threw my head in my hands
and I'm like,
1146
01:12:05,190 --> 01:12:07,453
I can't believe
this is still going on.
1147
01:12:07,497 --> 01:12:11,327
I just can't believe
that women are asking
1148
01:12:11,370 --> 01:12:17,550
and describing situations,
horrific situations.
1149
01:12:17,594 --> 01:12:19,247
And nobody did anything.
1150
01:12:19,291 --> 01:12:21,511
And I thought to myself,
1151
01:12:21,554 --> 01:12:24,514
these are young women
just like I was at their age
1152
01:12:24,557 --> 01:12:27,343
at Grand Canyon
just starting their careers.
1153
01:12:27,386 --> 01:12:31,869
And they've had
this horrific thing that's happening to them.
1154
01:12:31,912 --> 01:12:35,220
And they're reporting
to senior level officials
1155
01:12:35,263 --> 01:12:40,704
who are basically sweeping it
under the rug.
1156
01:12:40,747 --> 01:12:46,100
And it was that moment
that through remembering
1157
01:12:46,144 --> 01:12:50,409
my own experience
with the peeping Tom,
1158
01:12:50,453 --> 01:12:55,196
who continued to promote
for another 25 years within the Park service,
1159
01:12:55,240 --> 01:12:58,896
uh, arrested several times
by the way.
1160
01:12:58,939 --> 01:13:05,293
And still kept promoting,
so there's this... How can this be?
1161
01:13:05,337 --> 01:13:11,561
So this lifetime of experiences
of things that, you know, have happened to me,
1162
01:13:11,604 --> 01:13:15,739
and now I'm in a position
at Yosemite, a very powerful position,
1163
01:13:15,782 --> 01:13:17,610
and a very high level position,
1164
01:13:17,654 --> 01:13:21,832
where I just
never felt validated.
1165
01:13:21,875 --> 01:13:25,966
After 30-some odd years
of working very, very hard
1166
01:13:26,010 --> 01:13:29,100
to some of these assignments
being given away
1167
01:13:29,143 --> 01:13:34,018
to subordinate men
or being oppressed and dismissed.
1168
01:13:34,061 --> 01:13:38,022
I just felt like
this can't continue to happen.
1169
01:13:38,065 --> 01:13:41,939
So, in my testimony,
I do talk about creating
1170
01:13:41,982 --> 01:13:44,898
gender parity
at the highest levels.
1171
01:13:44,942 --> 01:13:50,469
You can't just relegate women
to non-authoritative type of positions.
1172
01:13:50,513 --> 01:13:55,648
They need to be responsible
in positions of authority, in positions of power.
1173
01:13:55,692 --> 01:13:57,868
And we just have not
gotten there.
1174
01:13:57,911 --> 01:14:01,872
So, knowing that
that power disparity exists,
1175
01:14:01,915 --> 01:14:06,180
that's a place where
we should recognize
1176
01:14:06,224 --> 01:14:10,271
that there's still work
to be done to try to reduce that disparity.
1177
01:14:13,536 --> 01:14:15,102
And on my way home.
1178
01:14:16,669 --> 01:14:22,588
And I'm going to take
the not very direct route home.
1179
01:14:22,632 --> 01:14:24,677
Um, but while I'm on the road,
1180
01:14:24,721 --> 01:14:28,289
figured it'd be a great time
to stop by and see Kelly.
1181
01:14:28,333 --> 01:14:30,248
Talk about fire.
1182
01:14:30,291 --> 01:14:34,078
Catch up on things, see how
retirement is going for her.
1183
01:14:34,121 --> 01:14:39,083
Talk about my next chapter,
you know, it'll be good.
1184
01:14:43,566 --> 01:14:44,741
KELLY: Hi!
1185
01:14:44,784 --> 01:14:49,049
- Hello!
- It's so good to see you.
1186
01:14:49,093 --> 01:14:52,096
Aw, look at you.
Oh, you look so good.
1187
01:14:54,185 --> 01:14:56,883
LACEY: I'll be on campus
starting August 17th.
1188
01:14:56,927 --> 01:15:00,147
Well, it'll be like three days
a week on campus
1189
01:15:00,191 --> 01:15:05,152
and two days a week
doing rotations in the hospital.
1190
01:15:05,196 --> 01:15:10,506
We won't be working
with patients that require, like...
1191
01:15:10,549 --> 01:15:14,771
More involved precautions
than just standard gloves.
1192
01:15:14,814 --> 01:15:16,860
So, they really
try to limit that then?
1193
01:15:16,903 --> 01:15:19,689
Yeah, you know, I don't.
1194
01:15:19,732 --> 01:15:24,258
I don't know what it usually
looks like outside of a pandemic situation,
1195
01:15:24,302 --> 01:15:27,435
but that's what
they've told us to expect
1196
01:15:27,479 --> 01:15:29,655
going into this semester.
1197
01:15:29,699 --> 01:15:34,878
And other than that,
I don't have a whole lot of information.
1198
01:15:34,921 --> 01:15:36,706
Obviously, I'm not a nurse yet.
1199
01:15:38,011 --> 01:15:39,578
But it's kind of like fire,
everything...
1200
01:15:39,622 --> 01:15:41,972
Everything
that's worth learning, you learn on the job.
1201
01:15:44,061 --> 01:15:46,106
[HUMMING]
1202
01:15:48,544 --> 01:15:52,156
I... I hope, I'm pretty sure
1203
01:15:52,199 --> 01:15:54,680
that I changed some
people's minds over the past ten years
1204
01:15:54,724 --> 01:15:56,856
when it comes to attitudes about
1205
01:15:56,900 --> 01:16:00,425
who's supposed to be in fire,
who's good at fire.
1206
01:16:00,468 --> 01:16:03,863
And I don't think
I would have been successful changing their minds
1207
01:16:03,907 --> 01:16:09,260
if I had picked
every single fight with them that I could have.
1208
01:16:09,303 --> 01:16:11,741
You know, if fire is something
that you really wanna do,
1209
01:16:11,784 --> 01:16:15,571
which is a legit choice,
a valid choice,
1210
01:16:15,614 --> 01:16:21,664
you gotta pick your battles
so that you can move towards the final goal.
1211
01:16:22,490 --> 01:16:24,928
And you know...[SIGHS]
1212
01:16:24,971 --> 01:16:26,451
I fucking hate saying this,
1213
01:16:27,539 --> 01:16:30,281
but shit's gonna happen,
you know.
1214
01:16:30,324 --> 01:16:32,718
You're gonna work
with assholes.
1215
01:16:32,762 --> 01:16:35,895
There's gonna be some
sexist shit going down.
1216
01:16:35,939 --> 01:16:38,289
Some misogynistic stuff.
1217
01:16:38,332 --> 01:16:42,510
And no one else is gonna say
anything about it.
1218
01:16:42,554 --> 01:16:46,906
Eventually I got to the point
where I didn't feel like I had a choice anymore.
1219
01:16:46,950 --> 01:16:52,172
It was, like, leave
or this is going to destroy you kind of thing.
1220
01:16:52,216 --> 01:16:54,305
And if fire culture
was not what it was,
1221
01:16:54,348 --> 01:16:58,875
maybe it would have felt more
like a choice.
1222
01:16:58,918 --> 01:17:03,880
I read something recently about
kind of the trauma that communities go through
1223
01:17:03,923 --> 01:17:07,274
of having to evacuate
all the time and I'm thinking to myself,
1224
01:17:07,318 --> 01:17:10,626
imagine what that's like
as a career firefighter.
1225
01:17:10,669 --> 01:17:12,453
You know,
year after year after year
1226
01:17:12,497 --> 01:17:16,762
that they're being exposed
to hundreds of houses being destroyed
1227
01:17:16,806 --> 01:17:19,635
and people's lives being lost.
1228
01:17:19,678 --> 01:17:21,811
We know that that's
the business that we're in,
1229
01:17:21,854 --> 01:17:25,728
but I don't think we've really
elevated it to the status of...
1230
01:17:25,771 --> 01:17:28,339
- Well, in knowing...
- This is trauma.
1231
01:17:28,382 --> 01:17:34,954
Knowing that
it's part of your job doesn't make it easier.
1232
01:17:34,998 --> 01:17:37,304
You know, that's a
"routine" part of your job.
1233
01:17:37,348 --> 01:17:41,091
Like, it's still a thing
you're going through.
1234
01:17:41,134 --> 01:17:45,138
It's still, you know,
they can still be a traumatic event.
1235
01:17:45,182 --> 01:17:48,968
But I think the conversations
are starting to happen.
1236
01:17:49,012 --> 01:17:52,189
But I'm really hoping that...
I would like to see that expand
1237
01:17:52,232 --> 01:17:59,022
to a more holistic understanding
of who we are as people, you know?
1238
01:17:59,065 --> 01:18:04,941
The fighting fire,
the putting fire out part is one aspect.
1239
01:18:04,984 --> 01:18:07,247
You know, and then there's
the mental health thing.
1240
01:18:07,291 --> 01:18:09,989
And then there's
the leadership development
1241
01:18:10,033 --> 01:18:13,384
and the interpersonal
communication and the relationship building.
1242
01:18:13,427 --> 01:18:16,822
You know, those are all
separate things and it seems like,
1243
01:18:16,866 --> 01:18:22,001
most of those
just get sidelined
1244
01:18:22,045 --> 01:18:27,137
to focus on the putting
fire out part, you know.
1245
01:18:31,881 --> 01:18:35,972
I would love to know
1246
01:18:36,015 --> 01:18:37,974
from some of the men
I've worked with in the past, like,
1247
01:18:38,017 --> 01:18:39,976
"What do you remember me
saying to you?"
1248
01:18:40,019 --> 01:18:42,326
You know,
maybe it's a conversation I don't even remember,
1249
01:18:42,369 --> 01:18:44,545
but I said something
that took that person back
1250
01:18:44,589 --> 01:18:46,983
and they were,
like, "Holy shit."
1251
01:18:47,026 --> 01:18:51,988
There is one experience
that stands out very strong in my memory.
1252
01:18:52,031 --> 01:18:54,425
There was a person
I was working with
1253
01:18:54,468 --> 01:19:00,213
who was new to the crew,
a crew that I had previously been on.
1254
01:19:01,040 --> 01:19:02,650
And this person came in
1255
01:19:02,694 --> 01:19:06,393
and decided that
1256
01:19:06,437 --> 01:19:10,223
I was not going to be
a good firefighter.
1257
01:19:10,267 --> 01:19:12,922
This person who had never
worked with me before.
1258
01:19:12,965 --> 01:19:15,968
You know, I was too small.
1259
01:19:16,012 --> 01:19:18,188
I wasn't strong enough,
1260
01:19:18,231 --> 01:19:22,061
you know, obviously,
I wasn't going to be able to pull my own weight or whatever.
1261
01:19:22,105 --> 01:19:25,064
Whether he was trying to
or not, it was clear to me.
1262
01:19:25,108 --> 01:19:30,026
And it got to the point
where the rest of the crew
1263
01:19:30,069 --> 01:19:34,726
was being impacted
by, like, us not getting along.
1264
01:19:34,770 --> 01:19:37,773
The crew boss
pulled us aside and said,
1265
01:19:37,816 --> 01:19:41,559
"Give me your version of events.
Give me your version of events."
1266
01:19:41,602 --> 01:19:48,784
You hear it from each other,
so we can figure out where the mismatch is, you know?
1267
01:19:48,827 --> 01:19:53,963
It all boiled down to,
at the very end, I was like, "Okay, look,
1268
01:19:54,006 --> 01:19:58,054
"there's one thing I need
from you that would help me
1269
01:19:59,185 --> 01:20:01,971
"feel like the situation
is resolved."
1270
01:20:02,014 --> 01:20:04,538
I said, "I don't need you
to be my friend
1271
01:20:04,582 --> 01:20:06,627
"or to want to work with me,
1272
01:20:06,671 --> 01:20:11,589
"or to even think that,
you know, like, I'm a great firefighter.
1273
01:20:11,632 --> 01:20:16,550
"I simply need you to say
that I'm competent, you know.
1274
01:20:16,594 --> 01:20:21,164
"Not great, not the best,
not you wanna work with me all the time.
1275
01:20:21,207 --> 01:20:25,211
"Simply, I am competent
at my job."
1276
01:20:25,255 --> 01:20:29,781
Pretty low bar, pretty low bar,
what I thought.
1277
01:20:29,825 --> 01:20:32,218
And he looked at me and said,
1278
01:20:32,262 --> 01:20:34,220
"Well, I'd be lying
if I said that."
1279
01:20:37,441 --> 01:20:39,312
I didn't know
what the fuck to say.
1280
01:20:39,356 --> 01:20:42,838
My crew boss was standing
right there and he didn't say a fucking thing.
1281
01:20:42,881 --> 01:20:46,276
Here's the man who hired me
in the first place,
1282
01:20:46,319 --> 01:20:52,195
then hired me back
because apparently he thought I could do the job,
1283
01:20:52,238 --> 01:20:53,718
and was competent.
1284
01:20:53,761 --> 01:20:56,982
And here's this other person,
new to the crew,
1285
01:20:57,026 --> 01:20:59,898
who's barely worked with me
for a season
1286
01:20:59,942 --> 01:21:04,729
saying, "I don't even think
you are baseline competent,"
1287
01:21:04,772 --> 01:21:07,123
and nobody else fucking
said anything.
1288
01:21:09,212 --> 01:21:13,825
And I was like,
"Okay, well, I... This is it."
1289
01:21:13,869 --> 01:21:17,220
And then the conversation
was over and nobody ever fucking addressed it again.
1290
01:21:21,964 --> 01:21:26,707
I was like,
"Okay, well, I guess, I guess I'm on my own."
1291
01:21:30,015 --> 01:21:31,364
You know, I didn't...
1292
01:21:33,105 --> 01:21:37,805
Goddamn it, that happened...
[SNIFFLES]
1293
01:21:37,849 --> 01:21:41,200
Happened a long time ago
and it still makes me... [CHUCKLES]
1294
01:21:41,244 --> 01:21:45,639
Still makes me cry.
Oh, and it made me so mad.
1295
01:21:45,683 --> 01:21:48,251
I think I probably cried
then, too.
1296
01:21:48,294 --> 01:21:54,300
And it's that like,
I'm so mad I don't know what else to do but cry.
1297
01:21:54,344 --> 01:21:56,302
But that very often
gets interpreted
1298
01:21:56,346 --> 01:21:59,523
as like, "Oh, my God.
Look at her. She's crying again. She's so emotional."
1299
01:21:59,566 --> 01:22:00,916
But it's like,
you don't understand.
1300
01:22:00,959 --> 01:22:03,614
I'm crying because I wanna rip
your head off.
1301
01:22:03,657 --> 01:22:06,095
Not because I am sad, you know.
1302
01:22:06,138 --> 01:22:10,882
And after that, I was like,
well, I guess it doesn't fucking matter.
1303
01:22:10,926 --> 01:22:13,841
That situation I had tried
to talk to people,
1304
01:22:13,885 --> 01:22:20,761
I had tried to say,
this is happening. I need support.
1305
01:22:20,805 --> 01:22:24,417
And it didn't matter.
The situation didn't change for better or for worse.
1306
01:22:25,766 --> 01:22:28,813
I don't regret leaving at all.
1307
01:22:30,336 --> 01:22:32,730
I'm so glad I did not... [SIGHS]
1308
01:22:32,773 --> 01:22:35,211
It was just time.
1309
01:22:35,254 --> 01:22:38,431
You know, and I don't...
1310
01:22:38,475 --> 01:22:44,611
I don't say that to, like,
shit on anyone who's still doing it and loving it,
1311
01:22:44,655 --> 01:22:48,876
or doing it and not loving it
and they're just choosing to keep doing it, like...
1312
01:22:48,920 --> 01:22:52,793
You do you,
but for me, it was just...
1313
01:22:52,837 --> 01:22:56,406
It was time to be done, move on.
1314
01:22:56,449 --> 01:22:59,235
And I don't regret it at all.
1315
01:22:59,278 --> 01:23:02,716
I don't regret spending
ten years doing it.
1316
01:23:02,760 --> 01:23:09,114
But I'm very happy
to have made the decision to not do it anymore.
1317
01:23:11,029 --> 01:23:12,030
It was time.
1318
01:23:14,641 --> 01:23:15,991
[INDISTINCT CHATTER]
1319
01:23:22,475 --> 01:23:25,957
Kelly's cafe, Kelly's car wash.
1320
01:23:26,001 --> 01:23:27,350
Kelly's BnB.
1321
01:23:27,393 --> 01:23:29,047
[LAUGHING]
1322
01:23:29,091 --> 01:23:30,614
Yeah, that's all good.
1323
01:23:30,657 --> 01:23:32,094
Thank you so much for hosting.
1324
01:23:32,137 --> 01:23:35,227
Thank you for coming by
and putting me on your path.
1325
01:23:35,271 --> 01:23:37,621
And thanks for the time
that you spent in fire.
1326
01:23:37,664 --> 01:23:38,709
You made a difference
1327
01:23:38,752 --> 01:23:40,015
Yeah, I hope so.
1328
01:23:40,058 --> 01:23:42,060
You did. You absolutely did.
1329
01:23:42,104 --> 01:23:46,325
I changed at least
one person's mind maybe somewhere along the road.
1330
01:23:46,369 --> 01:23:49,198
I think you should
put your standards a little higher than that.
1331
01:23:49,241 --> 01:23:52,331
I think you had a big impact
on a lot of young women.
1332
01:23:52,375 --> 01:23:54,377
So, myself personally,
I appreciate that.
1333
01:23:54,420 --> 01:23:56,379
Aw, thanks.
1334
01:23:56,422 --> 01:23:59,947
Well, I'll definitely...
Whenever we're allowed to have a WTREX in person again,
1335
01:23:59,991 --> 01:24:01,558
- I'll see you there.
- Please.
1336
01:24:01,601 --> 01:24:03,516
- [CHUCKLES]
- Okay, good. So you're not giving up on that?
1337
01:24:03,560 --> 01:24:06,824
- No, I think WTREX
is the one thing I'll stay. - Good, good.
1338
01:24:06,867 --> 01:24:08,826
You know,
'cause that's the part I care about.
1339
01:24:08,869 --> 01:24:13,787
Making fire better
for the next firefighters
1340
01:24:13,831 --> 01:24:16,660
and I can do that
without being a firefighter.
1341
01:24:16,703 --> 01:24:18,792
You know? So I can still be
a part of that.
1342
01:24:18,836 --> 01:24:20,794
Good. Well,
I'm glad to know that.
1343
01:24:20,838 --> 01:24:22,753
- Good.
- I'll be around.
1344
01:24:22,796 --> 01:24:25,669
Okay, dear.
Oh, take care. I love you.
1345
01:24:25,712 --> 01:24:28,889
- I love you, too.
- All right. Best wishes.
1346
01:24:28,933 --> 01:24:31,762
- Gotta hit the road.
- Text me when you...
1347
01:24:31,805 --> 01:24:33,677
- When I make it?
- When you make it.
1348
01:24:33,720 --> 01:24:36,462
- Nine hours is a long time.
- Okay. Yeah, it's gonna be a long drive.
1349
01:24:36,506 --> 01:24:37,768
I got snacks.
1350
01:24:39,161 --> 01:24:41,380
- Good. Cookies?
- All right.
1351
01:24:41,424 --> 01:24:42,642
I got cookies.
1352
01:24:45,602 --> 01:24:46,603
Yay!
1353
01:24:50,128 --> 01:24:52,087
[ENGINE STARTS]
1354
01:25:02,053 --> 01:25:03,098
KELLY: Good woman.
1355
01:25:05,230 --> 01:25:07,276
I wish she was still
working with us.
1356
01:25:10,888 --> 01:25:14,500
I feel so empowered by people
that are so different
1357
01:25:14,544 --> 01:25:17,155
from one another and I think
that's probably the key.
1358
01:25:17,199 --> 01:25:20,593
Everybody has a different
journey and a different path.
1359
01:25:20,637 --> 01:25:23,118
You know, the time
that I spent working
1360
01:25:23,161 --> 01:25:25,555
in the fire environment,
I would never give up.
1361
01:25:25,598 --> 01:25:30,821
I just knew as a young kid even
that this was what I wanted to do.
1362
01:25:30,864 --> 01:25:33,867
I learned a lot,
but made a lot of mistakes.
1363
01:25:33,911 --> 01:25:37,175
But I also, I think it was
an incredible journey.
1364
01:25:40,091 --> 01:25:43,138
The only reason I could have
a career in fire
1365
01:25:43,181 --> 01:25:50,101
that went as well as it did
is because of the women 40 years ago who fixed stuff.
1366
01:25:50,145 --> 01:25:57,064
You know, Kelly put up
with a lot of bullshit over her 35 years.
1367
01:25:58,979 --> 01:26:03,375
I have no doubt
that if I had met her earlier in my fire career,
1368
01:26:04,637 --> 01:26:07,423
you know, things might
have been different.
1369
01:26:07,466 --> 01:26:10,339
Yeah, I know things
would have been different for sure.
1370
01:26:48,115 --> 01:26:50,335
As the new Deputy Director,
I'm personally committed
1371
01:26:50,379 --> 01:26:52,816
to providing
a culture of transparency,
1372
01:26:52,859 --> 01:26:56,602
inclusion, respect,
and accountability
1373
01:26:56,646 --> 01:26:59,866
and making this a safe place
for employees to work.
1374
01:26:59,910 --> 01:27:02,478
We want to become
a model agency.
1375
01:27:02,521 --> 01:27:04,697
We will become a model agency.
1376
01:27:06,612 --> 01:27:08,571
[MUSIC PLAYING]
1377
01:27:20,409 --> 01:27:23,020
♪ You can hold my hand
1378
01:27:23,934 --> 01:27:26,589
♪ When you need to let go
1379
01:27:27,677 --> 01:27:31,333
♪ I can be your mountain
1380
01:27:31,376 --> 01:27:34,031
♪ When you're feeling
Valley-low
1381
01:27:35,119 --> 01:27:38,470
♪ I can be your streetlight
1382
01:27:38,514 --> 01:27:41,386
♪ Showing you the way home
1383
01:27:42,431 --> 01:27:45,260
♪ You can hold my hand
1384
01:27:46,130 --> 01:27:48,654
♪ When you need to let go
1385
01:27:50,656 --> 01:27:57,315
♪ I want a house
With a crowded table
1386
01:27:57,359 --> 01:28:04,540
♪ And a place by the fire
For everyone
1387
01:28:04,583 --> 01:28:11,982
♪ Let us take on the world
While we're young and able
1388
01:28:12,025 --> 01:28:18,205
♪ And bring us back together
When the day is done
1389
01:28:20,599 --> 01:28:23,994
♪ If we want a garden
1390
01:28:24,037 --> 01:28:26,866
♪ We're gonna have to sow
The seed
1391
01:28:27,824 --> 01:28:30,479
♪ Plant a little happiness
1392
01:28:31,393 --> 01:28:34,134
♪ Let the roots run deep
1393
01:28:35,092 --> 01:28:38,661
♪ If it's love that we give
1394
01:28:38,704 --> 01:28:42,317
♪ Then it's love that we reap
1395
01:28:42,360 --> 01:28:45,494
♪ If we want a garden
1396
01:28:45,537 --> 01:28:48,540
♪ We're gonna have to sow
The seed
1397
01:28:49,889 --> 01:28:56,983
♪ Yeah, I want a house
With a crowded table
1398
01:28:57,027 --> 01:29:04,295
♪ And a place by the fire
For everyone
1399
01:29:04,339 --> 01:29:11,737
♪ Let us take on the world
While we're young and able
1400
01:29:11,781 --> 01:29:18,004
♪ And bring us back together
When the day is done
1401
01:29:19,310 --> 01:29:22,487
♪ The door is always open
1402
01:29:22,531 --> 01:29:26,143
♪ Your picture's on my wall
1403
01:29:26,186 --> 01:29:29,712
♪ Everyone's a little broken
1404
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♪ And everyone belongs
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♪ Yeah, everyone belongs
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♪ I want a house
With a crowded table
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♪ And a place by the fire
For everyone
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♪ Let us take on the world
While we're young and able
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♪ And bring us back together
When the day is done
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♪ And bring us back together
When the day is done ♪
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[MUSIC ENDS]
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